1 00:00:05,600 --> 00:00:07,920 Previously on 90 Day, The Single Life... 2 00:00:12,240 --> 00:00:15,760 I still love Natalie, but is she thinking about us 3 00:00:15,840 --> 00:00:18,080 or is she just thinking about herself? 4 00:00:19,400 --> 00:00:21,320 Hi. Hi. 5 00:00:24,880 --> 00:00:26,160 Pray for me. 6 00:00:30,360 --> 00:00:32,720 We're packing up and I'm moving to Canada. 7 00:00:32,800 --> 00:00:34,800 Oh, wow. Seriously? 8 00:00:34,880 --> 00:00:37,920 I didn't think she'd move so quickly with Tony. 9 00:00:38,000 --> 00:00:39,920 Now with the distance between us, 10 00:00:40,000 --> 00:00:43,000 I'm afraid my mother and I will never have a better relationship. 11 00:00:43,080 --> 00:00:44,840 We believe in destiny. 12 00:00:47,520 --> 00:00:50,520 Destiny? Yeah. That's interesting. 13 00:00:55,000 --> 00:00:57,440 ..but she's refused all of my help. 14 00:00:57,520 --> 00:01:00,840 I'm constantly worrying about Alona and I feel helpless. 15 00:01:00,920 --> 00:01:03,800 I can't go over there, it's too dangerous. 16 00:01:03,880 --> 00:01:06,920 If she won't even leave Ukraine while they're getting bombed, 17 00:01:07,000 --> 00:01:08,280 then what makes you think 18 00:01:08,360 --> 00:01:10,680 that she'll leave Ukraine and be with you? 19 00:01:11,720 --> 00:01:13,280 (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) 20 00:01:18,960 --> 00:01:21,480 My head is all over the place right now, 21 00:01:21,560 --> 00:01:24,400 with my situation with Ronald, with leaving my son behind. 22 00:01:24,480 --> 00:01:26,840 This trip really could blow up in my face. 23 00:01:37,360 --> 00:01:40,640 (UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING) 24 00:02:03,320 --> 00:02:06,840 Me and Tiffany have been separated for almost a year, 25 00:02:06,920 --> 00:02:08,680 and it's been a really tough time. 26 00:02:10,760 --> 00:02:15,440 Being separated from Tiffany is really hard, but, you know, er... 27 00:02:30,800 --> 00:02:33,280 Words cannot describe how much I miss my family. 28 00:02:34,360 --> 00:02:37,880 Me and Tiffany's relationship, even though we got separated... 29 00:02:52,520 --> 00:02:55,720 I lose seeing them grow up. 30 00:02:55,800 --> 00:02:59,520 So, from my side I think I will do whatever it takes. 31 00:03:12,360 --> 00:03:15,120 I never would have seen or thought 32 00:03:15,200 --> 00:03:17,720 that I'd be going back to South Africa. 33 00:03:19,520 --> 00:03:20,960 I'm really nervous. 34 00:03:21,040 --> 00:03:24,520 This is gonna be the first time I see Ronald in over a year. 35 00:03:24,600 --> 00:03:28,680 It's gonna be the first time Ronald sees me after losing 75 pounds. 36 00:03:28,760 --> 00:03:31,520 All that's crossing through my mind is I'm gonna get there 37 00:03:31,880 --> 00:03:34,760 and all my feelings for Ronald are gonna come flooding back in 38 00:03:34,840 --> 00:03:37,440 and I'm just gonna have to pretend they're not there. 39 00:03:45,480 --> 00:03:47,600 (INDISTINCT ANNOUNCEMENT) 40 00:03:47,680 --> 00:03:49,000 Hm. 41 00:04:00,000 --> 00:04:01,000 You need my help? 42 00:04:02,320 --> 00:04:04,560 Who's that? Don't say anything, don't say anything, 43 00:04:04,640 --> 00:04:05,720 Who's that? 44 00:04:08,960 --> 00:04:10,080 Carly, who's this? 45 00:04:12,480 --> 00:04:13,920 Who's this? 46 00:04:15,280 --> 00:04:16,360 Who's this? 47 00:04:26,640 --> 00:04:28,200 I love you. 48 00:04:29,960 --> 00:04:32,000 You love him? 49 00:04:32,080 --> 00:04:33,200 What's his name? 50 00:04:34,520 --> 00:04:36,160 Are you shy? 51 00:04:36,240 --> 00:04:37,680 She's being shy. 52 00:04:45,320 --> 00:04:46,760 You look great. Thank you. 53 00:04:47,800 --> 00:04:50,280 Say, mummy, you look so beautiful. 54 00:04:53,200 --> 00:04:54,400 Beautiful. 55 00:04:55,840 --> 00:04:59,280 I feel like my brain is at a million places at once 56 00:04:59,360 --> 00:05:02,320 and it's going like a hundred miles an hour. 57 00:05:02,400 --> 00:05:05,160 It's weird like, seeing someone you haven't seen in so long, 58 00:05:05,240 --> 00:05:07,760 that obviously is somebody you really care about. 59 00:05:08,880 --> 00:05:12,560 I'm potentially walking back into my old relationship 60 00:05:12,640 --> 00:05:14,720 that made me miserable. 61 00:05:15,720 --> 00:05:17,520 (TRANQUIL MUSIC PLAYING) 62 00:05:21,480 --> 00:05:22,920 A lot. 63 00:05:28,840 --> 00:05:31,880 She's out already. Already. 64 00:05:31,960 --> 00:05:33,200 That hasn't changed. 65 00:05:34,920 --> 00:05:36,960 Ronald suggested that I stay at his apartment 66 00:05:37,040 --> 00:05:38,920 to make it easier for Carly. 67 00:05:39,000 --> 00:05:41,880 I'm just really afraid it's gonna be uncomfortable. 68 00:05:41,960 --> 00:05:43,840 All right, we're here. 69 00:05:43,920 --> 00:05:46,880 And Ronald mentioned that he wanted to talk about our relationship 70 00:05:46,960 --> 00:05:51,000 when we got here, but I'm not ready for that. 71 00:05:53,040 --> 00:05:55,960 The garden looks really beautiful. You're really taking good care of it, 72 00:05:56,040 --> 00:06:00,000 and you put up my bird feeder, exactly how I told you to. 73 00:06:00,080 --> 00:06:02,840 OK, here goes nothing. 74 00:06:05,800 --> 00:06:07,200 Look. 75 00:06:07,280 --> 00:06:10,000 Oh. Oh, wow. 76 00:06:10,080 --> 00:06:12,920 Look at the tree. Oh, look at our pictures. 77 00:06:13,000 --> 00:06:16,200 You still have our little- Look, Carly. Who is this? 78 00:06:17,240 --> 00:06:18,600 That's Carly. 79 00:06:19,720 --> 00:06:20,720 That's you. 80 00:06:22,080 --> 00:06:23,720 And there's Dada. 81 00:06:23,800 --> 00:06:25,800 Spending time with my family 82 00:06:25,880 --> 00:06:27,880 for the first time in over a year, 83 00:06:27,960 --> 00:06:30,680 it's something I've been craving and waiting for a long time. 84 00:06:31,680 --> 00:06:33,960 Hi, Charlie. You remember Charlie? 85 00:06:34,040 --> 00:06:36,720 Charlie, Charlie, Charlie. 86 00:06:38,160 --> 00:06:39,760 That's my main goal. 87 00:06:39,840 --> 00:06:41,840 Dada's room is over here. 88 00:06:43,880 --> 00:06:47,240 Wow, you really... Carly, wait. 89 00:06:47,320 --> 00:06:48,560 You re-did the whole thing. 90 00:06:51,920 --> 00:06:54,560 Don't go in with your shoes. No, she can go in. 91 00:06:54,640 --> 00:06:56,320 OK. Yeah, so you see. 92 00:06:58,320 --> 00:06:59,360 I changed the bed. 93 00:07:02,160 --> 00:07:03,480 Changed the sheets. 94 00:07:04,520 --> 00:07:05,520 Changed the cushion. 95 00:07:05,600 --> 00:07:08,200 Changed the whole bed. That's the best I could do. 96 00:07:08,280 --> 00:07:10,560 No, I'm happy with that. I'm really happy. 97 00:07:10,640 --> 00:07:12,960 The whole place looks like a brand new place, 98 00:07:13,040 --> 00:07:14,480 like a completely different place. 99 00:07:14,560 --> 00:07:17,760 Do you think you'll be comfortable living and sleeping in this place? 100 00:07:17,840 --> 00:07:20,280 I can definitely see all the effort you put in, 101 00:07:20,360 --> 00:07:23,520 but that doesn't mean that everything is 100%, you know. 102 00:07:23,600 --> 00:07:26,720 Still, the reason I'm here is so that you can see Carly. 103 00:07:26,800 --> 00:07:29,800 There's some stuff going on between us. 104 00:07:29,880 --> 00:07:32,040 I just wanna make sure that we focus on... 105 00:07:33,200 --> 00:07:35,640 ..the important things. Let's not jump into bed together. 106 00:07:35,720 --> 00:07:38,280 No, we're not jumping in, we can climb in slowly. 107 00:07:40,280 --> 00:07:42,120 Don't worry. Jeez, Ronald. 108 00:07:45,280 --> 00:07:47,720 I'm really nervous to let him, like, win me back 109 00:07:47,800 --> 00:07:50,560 or, like, woo me with all these gestures, 110 00:07:50,640 --> 00:07:53,400 because he can that easily hurt me all over again. 111 00:07:53,480 --> 00:07:55,640 So, I'm in a pretty vulnerable place right now. 112 00:07:55,720 --> 00:07:57,640 It's like give me some space to breathe 113 00:07:57,720 --> 00:08:00,880 so that we can figure out what the fuck's going on with us. 114 00:08:00,960 --> 00:08:04,760 I really do appreciate everything you've done to make me comfortable. 115 00:08:04,840 --> 00:08:08,120 But, if I don't set the boundary of saying like, OK, 116 00:08:08,200 --> 00:08:11,360 but first let's make sure we can do the co-parent thing, 117 00:08:11,440 --> 00:08:14,240 before we blur any lines, 118 00:08:14,320 --> 00:08:15,720 because I'm not ready yet. 119 00:08:18,840 --> 00:08:20,160 I'm gonna respect you, 120 00:08:20,240 --> 00:08:22,200 gonna give you your space that you want. 121 00:08:23,520 --> 00:08:26,600 You wanna sleep alone in that bed, it's fine. 122 00:08:26,680 --> 00:08:28,600 I'll sleep on this couch, but just know... 123 00:08:35,000 --> 00:08:37,600 Seeing Ronald after all this time, 124 00:08:37,680 --> 00:08:40,440 reminds me of why I was so attracted to him. 125 00:08:40,520 --> 00:08:43,520 We did have an intense love. 126 00:08:43,600 --> 00:08:48,120 I don't wanna get in bed with Ronald and potentially have sex with Ronald 127 00:08:48,200 --> 00:08:50,600 because Ronald does have a lot to prove. 128 00:08:52,000 --> 00:08:53,000 Here, here, 129 00:08:53,080 --> 00:08:55,680 fast, come, come, come, come, come, come, come, come. 130 00:09:07,120 --> 00:09:10,480 # I felt it coming when you walked in 131 00:09:10,560 --> 00:09:12,960 # That feeling hit me Like a whirlwind 132 00:09:14,000 --> 00:09:16,600 # I push it down Don't wanna show you # 133 00:09:20,080 --> 00:09:21,480 Fee-fi-fo thump. 134 00:09:24,160 --> 00:09:26,440 Hi. Hi. 135 00:09:32,440 --> 00:09:35,280 We're having this beautiful moment 136 00:09:35,360 --> 00:09:38,960 and all of a sudden, Trish walks in. 137 00:09:39,040 --> 00:09:40,520 (CHUCKLES) 138 00:09:43,400 --> 00:09:44,680 Oh, boy. 139 00:09:48,680 --> 00:09:51,080 What a fucking bitch! 140 00:10:03,800 --> 00:10:06,640 Oh, you bought me some flowers to plant? Yes. 141 00:10:08,240 --> 00:10:11,920 Well, thank you, Natalie. How are you? I'm fine. Good. 142 00:10:14,520 --> 00:10:16,920 I'm just disappointed in how this all turned out. 143 00:10:17,000 --> 00:10:18,680 I'm just gonna tell you right out. 144 00:10:18,760 --> 00:10:22,400 I don't like the way things came with you and Michael, 145 00:10:22,480 --> 00:10:24,160 and my question to you would be, 146 00:10:24,240 --> 00:10:26,200 why would you even do this to Michael? 147 00:10:26,280 --> 00:10:28,200 Why did you do this? 148 00:10:28,280 --> 00:10:30,600 (SOMBRE MUSIC PLAYING) 149 00:10:32,760 --> 00:10:35,520 Natalie hurt me. She left me 150 00:10:35,600 --> 00:10:38,800 and, er, I just, kind of like, closed myself off to the world. 151 00:10:40,240 --> 00:10:45,800 And, erm, my mum cannot move past the fact of 152 00:10:45,880 --> 00:10:48,200 the broken heart from her son. 153 00:10:48,280 --> 00:10:49,760 My mum is a tough woman. 154 00:10:49,840 --> 00:10:52,600 She, er, does often speak her mind. 155 00:10:52,680 --> 00:10:57,080 My mum's got questions and it's just a matter of whether 156 00:10:57,160 --> 00:10:58,800 we're gonna get answers or not. 157 00:11:03,440 --> 00:11:04,440 I just don't know 158 00:11:04,520 --> 00:11:06,640 why you would pretend to love somebody 159 00:11:06,720 --> 00:11:09,080 so much that you come over here. 160 00:11:10,480 --> 00:11:11,840 You totally used Michael. 161 00:11:11,920 --> 00:11:15,880 That's all you did, was use him to get to America. 162 00:11:15,960 --> 00:11:18,520 And then still, out of the kindness of his heart, 163 00:11:18,600 --> 00:11:20,440 cos he is such a kind guy, 164 00:11:20,520 --> 00:11:23,360 he still sends $1,000 to your mum and helps her. 165 00:11:28,600 --> 00:11:30,440 I'm good with him helping your mum, 166 00:11:30,520 --> 00:11:32,360 because Michael is such a kind-hearted man... 167 00:11:32,440 --> 00:11:33,520 Michael, yes. 168 00:11:33,600 --> 00:11:36,360 ..but you took advantage of all of his kind-heartedness 169 00:11:36,440 --> 00:11:37,720 when it come to you. 170 00:11:37,800 --> 00:11:39,360 You played with somebody else's heart, 171 00:11:39,440 --> 00:11:40,720 somebody else's emotions. 172 00:11:40,800 --> 00:11:44,120 And then the minute you felt like you could run off, you did. 173 00:12:05,760 --> 00:12:08,200 (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) 174 00:12:09,400 --> 00:12:12,200 I believe whatever she's telling me is not really the truth. 175 00:12:14,200 --> 00:12:16,240 Michael's just a big teddy bear. 176 00:12:16,320 --> 00:12:19,040 And she saw it and took advantage of it. 177 00:12:20,840 --> 00:12:23,800 My son was hurt and that, of course, in turn hurts me. 178 00:12:25,880 --> 00:12:26,920 I mean, come on. 179 00:12:29,080 --> 00:12:31,280 She's just bad news all the way around. 180 00:12:32,800 --> 00:12:34,720 Do you plan on working on a divorce? 181 00:12:38,680 --> 00:12:41,920 What do you mean you don't know? You don't even wanna be here. 182 00:12:42,000 --> 00:12:44,920 How do you not know that you want a divorce or not? 183 00:12:45,000 --> 00:12:47,120 You've been gone for, what, two years? 184 00:12:49,480 --> 00:12:52,360 Why would he want to stay married to you? 185 00:12:52,440 --> 00:12:54,600 You don't act like a wife at all. 186 00:12:56,400 --> 00:12:58,400 Does that make sense? 187 00:12:58,480 --> 00:13:01,720 I mean, a wife usually comes home once in a while, 188 00:13:01,800 --> 00:13:04,240 but you don't. You're gone forever. 189 00:13:04,320 --> 00:13:07,200 You're just gone. I mean, you're out there dating other men. 190 00:13:07,280 --> 00:13:09,600 So, why are you not filing for a divorce, 191 00:13:09,680 --> 00:13:11,000 that's all I'm asking. 192 00:13:34,440 --> 00:13:36,480 Decide whether you're gonna be married or not. 193 00:13:36,560 --> 00:13:39,920 If you're gonna be married then you need to get your ass back here, 194 00:13:40,000 --> 00:13:43,880 and act like a wife. If you're not, you need to file for a divorce. 195 00:13:43,960 --> 00:13:45,800 If Mike want divorce, we divorce. 196 00:13:49,920 --> 00:13:53,800 I mean, you know, I was here, 197 00:13:53,880 --> 00:13:58,320 waiting and waiting and waiting by myself, 198 00:13:58,400 --> 00:14:01,280 you know, and then, like, I find out you're dating. 199 00:14:01,360 --> 00:14:04,480 You're still a married woman and you shouldn't be doing that. 200 00:14:05,960 --> 00:14:08,520 You know, I mean, let's reverse roles. 201 00:14:08,600 --> 00:14:11,000 Let's say I went and dated a bunch of women. 202 00:14:11,080 --> 00:14:13,320 You would get jealous just going to dinner 203 00:14:13,400 --> 00:14:15,360 when I order from the waitress from you, 204 00:14:15,440 --> 00:14:18,200 How would you feel if I went and dated, 205 00:14:18,280 --> 00:14:20,000 you know, five or six different women? 206 00:14:21,320 --> 00:14:24,120 You destroyed us, you know. 207 00:14:34,920 --> 00:14:36,520 (CRYING) 208 00:14:40,880 --> 00:14:43,680 (SIGHS) Come here. 209 00:14:43,760 --> 00:14:45,920 Give me a hug. (CRYING) 210 00:14:47,960 --> 00:14:49,520 (SOBBING) 211 00:15:07,000 --> 00:15:07,040 2 00:15:07.040 -- 00:15:11.000 align:middle line:90% position:50% # Life in motion, drive to the ocean 212 00:15:16,520 --> 00:15:18,560 # Electric eyes paralyse 213 00:15:18,640 --> 00:15:19,960 # In a moment 214 00:15:20,040 --> 00:15:22,320 # In a moment 215 00:15:22,400 --> 00:15:25,280 # Yeah # 216 00:15:25,360 --> 00:15:27,120 Which one is this for? 217 00:15:28,440 --> 00:15:29,880 Oh! 218 00:15:29,960 --> 00:15:31,080 Spikey. 219 00:15:32,120 --> 00:15:35,080 Tony flew in a few days ago to help me finish packing. 220 00:15:35,160 --> 00:15:37,960 We're gonna load my belongings and the cats in the car 221 00:15:38,040 --> 00:15:39,440 and we're gonna drive to Canada. 222 00:15:41,280 --> 00:15:44,360 Last night Tony and I had dinner with Colt and Vanessa 223 00:15:44,440 --> 00:15:47,920 and we broke the news that I'm moving to Canada. 224 00:15:48,000 --> 00:15:49,000 It went really well. 225 00:15:49,080 --> 00:15:51,360 I was really surprised they were very supportive 226 00:15:51,440 --> 00:15:54,000 and they want the best for me. 227 00:15:54,080 --> 00:15:55,280 Deb. 228 00:15:58,520 --> 00:15:59,600 Deb. 229 00:16:01,040 --> 00:16:02,800 Hello. 230 00:16:02,880 --> 00:16:04,720 I was calling you. 231 00:16:04,800 --> 00:16:06,600 How many walls through? 232 00:16:06,680 --> 00:16:09,800 We have to go and talk to the lawyer. OK. 233 00:16:09,880 --> 00:16:11,960 Tony set up a, a video call, 234 00:16:12,040 --> 00:16:14,800 with the immigration lawyer from Canada 235 00:16:14,880 --> 00:16:18,200 so that he can help us with so many questions that we have. 236 00:16:18,280 --> 00:16:19,960 It takes a lotta legal action. 237 00:16:20,040 --> 00:16:23,120 You have to file papers, you have to, you know, know where, 238 00:16:23,200 --> 00:16:25,120 what you can do, and what you can't do, 239 00:16:25,480 --> 00:16:26,920 and how long you can stay. 240 00:16:27,000 --> 00:16:29,440 So, I have to find out what I need to do, 241 00:16:29,800 --> 00:16:32,240 what he needs to do to make that happen. 242 00:16:32,320 --> 00:16:34,840 (RINGING) 243 00:16:36,720 --> 00:16:38,080 Hello. Hello. 244 00:16:38,160 --> 00:16:41,480 Hi, I'm Ian Goldman. I'm a Canadian immigration lawyer. 245 00:16:41,560 --> 00:16:42,600 Hi I'm Debbie. 246 00:16:42,680 --> 00:16:44,720 Deb is 70 years old. 247 00:16:44,800 --> 00:16:47,040 She's a US citizen. 248 00:16:47,120 --> 00:16:49,360 I asked her, cos we've been dating, 249 00:16:49,440 --> 00:16:52,800 to come up and move in, move to Canada, and move in with me. 250 00:16:52,880 --> 00:16:55,080 Have you lived together for a year already? 251 00:16:55,160 --> 00:16:56,360 No. No, we're just starting. 252 00:16:56,440 --> 00:16:59,440 You can stay for six months, but you can extend it 253 00:16:59,520 --> 00:17:00,600 if you apply. 254 00:17:00,680 --> 00:17:02,680 You have to apply for an extension. 255 00:17:02,760 --> 00:17:05,640 Then you apply for permanent residence. 256 00:17:07,480 --> 00:17:08,680 Our plan is, 257 00:17:08,760 --> 00:17:11,040 I can stay in Canada, six months, 258 00:17:11,120 --> 00:17:12,200 before the six months 259 00:17:12,280 --> 00:17:15,120 you file an extension for another six months. 260 00:17:15,200 --> 00:17:17,440 And after that six months, which is a year, 261 00:17:17,520 --> 00:17:21,120 Tony and I can establish living together for one year, 262 00:17:21,200 --> 00:17:22,760 as common-law. 263 00:17:22,840 --> 00:17:24,560 Thank you for all your information. 264 00:17:24,640 --> 00:17:27,280 It's been great. Now we've got some things to plan 265 00:17:27,360 --> 00:17:29,920 and now we get to finish packing up a house. 266 00:17:30,000 --> 00:17:32,480 OK, bye. Bye. Bye. 267 00:17:34,000 --> 00:17:36,800 (UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING) 268 00:17:48,480 --> 00:17:50,760 Hey. Good morning. 269 00:17:50,840 --> 00:17:52,120 How did you sleep? 270 00:17:52,200 --> 00:17:55,440 Ah, quite all right, and you? How's the bed? 271 00:17:55,520 --> 00:17:57,000 It's really, really good. 272 00:17:57,080 --> 00:17:58,960 Thanks. How was Carly? She was good. 273 00:17:59,040 --> 00:18:02,280 She actually went to the bed in the middle of the night. 274 00:18:02,360 --> 00:18:04,280 Is it? Yeah, she asked me where's Dada. 275 00:18:04,360 --> 00:18:06,320 Why didn't you come to Dada? 276 00:18:06,400 --> 00:18:09,000 She didn't know you were out here, and it was dark. 277 00:18:09,080 --> 00:18:10,960 I got to South Africa last night 278 00:18:11,040 --> 00:18:13,560 and it's crazy being back in Ronald's apartment 279 00:18:13,640 --> 00:18:15,840 after not being here for over a year. 280 00:18:15,920 --> 00:18:17,720 So, what are we doing today? 281 00:18:17,800 --> 00:18:19,680 I'm thinking there's a place called... 282 00:18:21,720 --> 00:18:22,720 OK. 283 00:18:22,800 --> 00:18:24,600 You know, there might be some animals. 284 00:18:24,680 --> 00:18:26,960 Oh, that's a great idea, she'll love that. 285 00:18:27,040 --> 00:18:28,960 Yeah. 286 00:18:29,040 --> 00:18:32,560 I feel like Ronald is trying to pick up where we last left off. 287 00:18:32,640 --> 00:18:34,840 He's also mentioned that he expects us 288 00:18:34,920 --> 00:18:36,920 to have this conversation about our relationship 289 00:18:37,000 --> 00:18:38,360 while I'm here. 290 00:18:38,440 --> 00:18:40,640 I don't know if I wanna have this conversation. 291 00:18:40,720 --> 00:18:43,440 I think I wanna hold off as long as I can, 292 00:18:43,520 --> 00:18:46,440 because I just, I know how it's gonna end up. 293 00:18:46,520 --> 00:18:48,240 I know it's gonna be an argument. 294 00:18:53,800 --> 00:18:55,720 It's nice to be able to go out 295 00:18:55,800 --> 00:18:58,600 and do something with my family again. Yeah. 296 00:18:58,680 --> 00:19:02,280 We flew all this way over here, so it's nice to do something. 297 00:19:08,200 --> 00:19:10,880 Are you ready to see some animals? 298 00:19:10,960 --> 00:19:13,040 Let me see you. You ready? 299 00:19:18,520 --> 00:19:20,880 Oh, my gosh, Carly, look. 300 00:19:23,480 --> 00:19:24,760 Hi, pony. 301 00:19:26,920 --> 00:19:29,360 (CHUCKLES) That was cute. 302 00:19:29,440 --> 00:19:30,560 OK, go. 303 00:19:31,600 --> 00:19:34,720 Look at that, just on the road. What's up guys? 304 00:19:36,440 --> 00:19:40,040 Oh, my gosh, they're so close. I'm gonna pee my pants. 305 00:19:40,120 --> 00:19:42,160 Oh, my God! 306 00:19:42,240 --> 00:19:44,520 Oh, my gosh, slow down, slow down, slow down. 307 00:19:46,320 --> 00:19:47,960 Carly, look at the big chicken. 308 00:19:48,040 --> 00:19:49,720 Look at the big chicken over there. 309 00:19:51,280 --> 00:19:52,720 Damn it, she's strutting. 310 00:19:57,160 --> 00:19:59,600 Oh, here they come. Look, front. The window, the window. 311 00:20:01,160 --> 00:20:05,000 Oh, the ostrich is gonna kick him. So, what's happening? 312 00:20:05,080 --> 00:20:06,280 They're not stampeding. 313 00:20:07,840 --> 00:20:10,080 Oh, my God! Yeah. 314 00:20:10,160 --> 00:20:12,640 Wow, and that ostrich is still running over there. 315 00:20:12,720 --> 00:20:14,480 That was cool. 316 00:20:14,560 --> 00:20:18,000 I see the Ronald I remember, the one that I fell in love with. 317 00:20:18,080 --> 00:20:19,920 And that makes things really confusing 318 00:20:20,000 --> 00:20:23,680 because, you know, it's reminding me how much I do still love him. 319 00:20:23,760 --> 00:20:26,680 And what's the most confusing is, 320 00:20:26,760 --> 00:20:29,120 I'm trying to keep that inside. He's not. 321 00:20:30,480 --> 00:20:32,680 Do you remember the first time 322 00:20:32,760 --> 00:20:36,280 when Daniel was here as well, we also took him to safari? 323 00:20:36,360 --> 00:20:38,640 Just before we got married. Yep. 324 00:20:38,720 --> 00:20:42,240 In the good old days. I remember. Yeah. 325 00:20:42,320 --> 00:20:43,520 It was hot that day. 326 00:20:43,600 --> 00:20:45,520 I got the weirdest sunburn on my wedding, 327 00:20:45,600 --> 00:20:46,640 my wedding day. 328 00:20:46,720 --> 00:20:49,640 I had a off-shoulder dress and I had the weirdest tan line. 329 00:20:49,720 --> 00:20:51,280 Still looked beautiful. 330 00:20:51,360 --> 00:20:52,360 (CHUCKLES) 331 00:20:53,600 --> 00:20:55,680 I definitely miss having these moments with Ronald. 332 00:20:56,880 --> 00:20:57,920 We wanted this. 333 00:20:58,000 --> 00:20:59,400 We wanted this life together. 334 00:21:00,760 --> 00:21:03,040 So, I'm taking in the happy moment, 335 00:21:03,120 --> 00:21:06,080 but I'm also not letting it sway me. 336 00:21:06,160 --> 00:21:09,040 There's a lot under the surface that needs to be addressed. 337 00:21:14,560 --> 00:21:17,880 That was a success then, cos, I mean, she's tired. 338 00:21:17,960 --> 00:21:19,960 Yeah, well, on that note, 339 00:21:20,040 --> 00:21:22,280 how do you feel about talking about us? 340 00:21:22,360 --> 00:21:24,320 Like, about what specifically? Well... 341 00:21:24,400 --> 00:21:26,920 Oh, I mean about us, 342 00:21:27,000 --> 00:21:30,600 in general like, when will I be able to sleep in my own bed, 343 00:21:30,680 --> 00:21:33,360 erm, with you? Erm, 344 00:21:33,440 --> 00:21:36,040 how are we gonna fix things between us? 345 00:21:36,120 --> 00:21:37,320 What's happening with us? 346 00:21:39,960 --> 00:21:42,600 I've been, actually, avoiding having this conversation 347 00:21:42,680 --> 00:21:45,760 because my objective is to make sure that we are able to co-parent 348 00:21:45,840 --> 00:21:46,880 and everything. 349 00:21:46,960 --> 00:21:50,440 How do we raise the kids, co-parenting... 350 00:21:52,120 --> 00:21:55,480 ..and I'm not even part of it? I'm not trying to throw the fact 351 00:21:55,560 --> 00:21:57,280 that we might reconcile out the window, 352 00:21:57,360 --> 00:21:59,320 but I don't wanna make the same mistakes 353 00:21:59,400 --> 00:22:00,760 we made the first time. 354 00:22:02,080 --> 00:22:06,840 I'm willing to do what I must to be with my family. 355 00:22:06,920 --> 00:22:09,560 I want it to be back together with my family. 356 00:22:11,280 --> 00:22:14,120 My biggest fear is trying again and failing. 357 00:22:15,400 --> 00:22:18,080 So, that's why I'm like, trying to take baby steps. 358 00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:23,920 And then wanna pull it out, no. 359 00:22:25,160 --> 00:22:26,480 (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) 360 00:22:26,560 --> 00:22:28,360 Ronald, I want us, 361 00:22:28,440 --> 00:22:31,640 if we work on things, to have a happy marriage, 362 00:22:31,720 --> 00:22:34,200 but I can't make that decision right off the bat. 363 00:22:34,280 --> 00:22:37,080 I can't say, you know what, I haven't seen that anything 364 00:22:37,160 --> 00:22:39,680 that broke us up in the first place has changed. 365 00:22:39,760 --> 00:22:43,320 At the end of the day, we need to find a middle ground, right? Yeah. 366 00:22:43,400 --> 00:22:45,080 I mean, you wanna wait with that, 367 00:22:45,160 --> 00:22:48,360 you wanna see how things go, but then, again, I wanna know now, 368 00:22:48,440 --> 00:22:50,120 what's happening with the relationship. 369 00:22:52,240 --> 00:22:53,800 You need to make a decision. 370 00:22:55,120 --> 00:22:57,400 You are married. I'm married. 371 00:22:57,480 --> 00:22:59,920 So, either we fix this or we don't. 372 00:23:00,000 --> 00:23:02,040 It's not about, let's see how it goes. 373 00:23:02,120 --> 00:23:04,520 No. No, no, no, no... 374 00:23:15,440 --> 00:23:16,440 Yeah. 375 00:23:17,680 --> 00:23:20,480 (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) 376 00:23:20,560 --> 00:23:23,920 I don't appreciate the pressure that Ronald's putting into like, 377 00:23:24,000 --> 00:23:26,160 jumping head first into a reconciliation. 378 00:23:27,640 --> 00:23:29,360 I want us to both be happy. 379 00:23:30,520 --> 00:23:33,080 And if that's impossible, we can't get back together. 380 00:23:39,000 --> 00:23:39,040 2 00:23:39.040 -- 00:23:42.480 align:middle line:90% position:50% (TRANQUIL MUSIC PLAYING) 381 00:23:52,960 --> 00:23:56,800 We're getting a big old seabass steak ready on here. 382 00:23:58,360 --> 00:23:59,720 The worst chefs in America. 383 00:23:59,800 --> 00:24:00,800 (LAUGHS) 384 00:24:02,200 --> 00:24:04,680 It's been a month since I got back from Ukraine. 385 00:24:05,880 --> 00:24:07,480 Since the Russian invasion, 386 00:24:07,560 --> 00:24:10,840 it makes me really worry that Alona is still there, 387 00:24:10,920 --> 00:24:12,480 and I feel helpless. 388 00:24:13,840 --> 00:24:16,600 What I'm seeing in the news is dangerous. 389 00:24:16,680 --> 00:24:20,520 I mean, there is all these bombings going on. 390 00:24:20,600 --> 00:24:23,800 You don't know where anything's coming from 391 00:24:23,880 --> 00:24:26,160 because they can just be coming from anywhere. 392 00:24:28,000 --> 00:24:30,000 I'll set my table up right here. 393 00:24:32,360 --> 00:24:34,440 Being away from her, it's been hard... 394 00:24:35,680 --> 00:24:37,640 ..but I waited so long to find her, 395 00:24:37,720 --> 00:24:40,720 and I'm not gonna give up on the love of my life. 396 00:24:45,880 --> 00:24:47,360 (RINGING) 397 00:24:53,120 --> 00:24:55,040 (LAUGHS) 398 00:24:55,120 --> 00:24:56,560 How are you doing? 399 00:24:59,960 --> 00:25:01,200 I think about you everyday 400 00:25:01,280 --> 00:25:04,440 when I wake up and before I go to sleep. Yeah. 401 00:25:05,720 --> 00:25:07,000 (CHUCKLES) 402 00:25:08,560 --> 00:25:11,840 How are things going over there? Are you doing OK? 403 00:25:11,920 --> 00:25:14,240 I saw on the news Russia's getting worse. 404 00:25:28,760 --> 00:25:30,360 (TENSE MUSIC PLAYING) 405 00:25:30,440 --> 00:25:31,720 Hm. 406 00:25:48,120 --> 00:25:49,200 Mm-hm. 407 00:26:01,840 --> 00:26:02,840 No, I understand. 408 00:26:04,160 --> 00:26:06,440 Hopefully it'll get better over there. 409 00:26:09,960 --> 00:26:11,600 It scares me. 410 00:26:11,680 --> 00:26:13,480 She isn't safe there any more. 411 00:26:14,520 --> 00:26:17,360 I'm wondering like, is she gonna be all right, 412 00:26:17,440 --> 00:26:19,760 you know, will I ever see her again? 413 00:26:19,840 --> 00:26:22,200 I'm constantly worrying about her, 414 00:26:22,280 --> 00:26:25,480 and I'm not gonna give up on my dreams of being together. 415 00:26:27,800 --> 00:26:30,120 I'm really sorry from the bottom of my heart. 416 00:26:30,200 --> 00:26:33,760 I'm hoping that we can start the process 417 00:26:33,840 --> 00:26:36,480 of getting your visa ready. 418 00:26:36,560 --> 00:26:38,680 Would you wanna come to United States? 419 00:26:42,520 --> 00:26:43,880 Er... 420 00:26:53,680 --> 00:26:54,720 (LAUGHS) 421 00:26:56,000 --> 00:27:00,480 I appreciate you taking the time right now to spend time 422 00:27:00,560 --> 00:27:03,720 and for us to talk. I'm just glad to see you, 423 00:27:03,800 --> 00:27:06,160 and I will message you in the morning. 424 00:27:10,280 --> 00:27:12,280 What I learned in this journey was, 425 00:27:12,360 --> 00:27:14,480 you know, you gotta follow your dreams 426 00:27:14,560 --> 00:27:15,960 on finding love. 427 00:27:23,000 --> 00:27:25,440 I risked my savings, 428 00:27:25,520 --> 00:27:27,200 put myself in danger. 429 00:27:27,280 --> 00:27:32,240 Russia planning potential sabotage operations on Ukraine. 430 00:27:32,320 --> 00:27:34,920 I mean, I'm nervous as hell right now, 431 00:27:35,000 --> 00:27:38,080 But I did it for love, and I found somebody. 432 00:27:41,920 --> 00:27:43,720 She is the woman 433 00:27:43,800 --> 00:27:45,600 I've been waiting for my whole life. 434 00:27:46,680 --> 00:27:48,440 (LAUGHS) 435 00:27:49,480 --> 00:27:51,640 Do you wanna be my girlfriend? 436 00:27:53,120 --> 00:27:54,200 Whoa. 437 00:27:59,000 --> 00:28:01,840 (LAUGHS) 438 00:28:01,920 --> 00:28:05,560 I hope the war ends quickly, so Alona and I can be together. 439 00:28:06,640 --> 00:28:09,000 And I'm gonna do everything I can 440 00:28:09,080 --> 00:28:12,480 to get Alona here as soon as possible. 441 00:28:12,560 --> 00:28:15,320 OK, babe, goodnight. 442 00:28:15,400 --> 00:28:16,480 I miss you, OK. 443 00:28:21,600 --> 00:28:23,320 (CHUCKLES) 444 00:28:27,080 --> 00:28:28,960 # Are you keeping it real 445 00:28:31,480 --> 00:28:33,960 # I'm calling shotgun Wanna see my baby 446 00:28:34,040 --> 00:28:36,920 # Oh, what's the word on the scene 447 00:28:37,000 --> 00:28:40,200 # We've been kicking up the dust If you know what I mean 448 00:28:40,280 --> 00:28:43,200 # We got a good thing going on # 449 00:28:51,920 --> 00:28:54,560 OK, that should save the little pussycat. 450 00:28:57,000 --> 00:28:58,000 (GRUNTS) 451 00:29:01,560 --> 00:29:02,560 Garbage. 452 00:29:02,640 --> 00:29:03,680 OK. 453 00:29:07,520 --> 00:29:09,080 I'm a little sore. 454 00:29:10,520 --> 00:29:11,600 Oh, God! 455 00:29:13,440 --> 00:29:14,760 What kinda stuff is here? 456 00:29:21,120 --> 00:29:22,840 Hey, Tony. 457 00:29:22,920 --> 00:29:24,280 Hey, Debbie. 458 00:29:24,360 --> 00:29:25,960 (CHUCKLES) 459 00:29:26,040 --> 00:29:28,080 I'm coming up the stairs. 460 00:29:28,160 --> 00:29:30,440 Oh, God, are you kidding me? 461 00:29:31,600 --> 00:29:34,600 I remembered, you don't have a bunch of stairs, just a few. 462 00:29:34,680 --> 00:29:35,680 (GRUNTS) 463 00:29:37,160 --> 00:29:40,680 The day has finally arrived. We're leaving Las Vegas. 464 00:29:40,760 --> 00:29:42,240 (CHUCKLES) 465 00:29:42,320 --> 00:29:43,720 And we're going to Canada. 466 00:29:43,800 --> 00:29:45,440 I can't believe it's really happening. 467 00:29:45,520 --> 00:29:46,560 I'm really excited. 468 00:29:48,280 --> 00:29:51,560 The hardest part about leaving is uncertainty, 469 00:29:51,640 --> 00:29:52,800 giving up my life. 470 00:29:52,880 --> 00:29:54,880 What's gonna happen six months down the road 471 00:29:54,960 --> 00:29:57,480 if Tony and I are gonna have a big fight 472 00:29:57,560 --> 00:29:58,840 and he says go home? 473 00:29:58,920 --> 00:30:02,160 Hey, Tony, where are you? I'm in the bedroom. 474 00:30:02,240 --> 00:30:05,480 So, it's just the unknown, it's a little frightening. 475 00:30:05,560 --> 00:30:06,880 Mm-hm. 476 00:30:08,840 --> 00:30:10,880 OK, I wanna take this, please. 477 00:30:10,960 --> 00:30:13,400 What is it? It's a kitty cat. 478 00:30:13,480 --> 00:30:15,240 It's my kitty cat. Sure. OK. 479 00:30:15,320 --> 00:30:17,520 We have a ton of stuff to pack still 480 00:30:17,600 --> 00:30:20,200 and there's a lot of cleaning up to do, 481 00:30:20,280 --> 00:30:22,720 but Colt and Vanessa said whatever we leave behind 482 00:30:22,800 --> 00:30:23,960 they'll put in storage. 483 00:30:24,040 --> 00:30:26,640 But I'm really appreciative that Colt offered to do that 484 00:30:26,720 --> 00:30:28,600 because we ran out of time. 485 00:30:28,680 --> 00:30:31,880 Would you like to hold my hand while I sit? 486 00:30:31,960 --> 00:30:33,720 You may never get up again. 487 00:30:33,800 --> 00:30:34,840 (CHUCKLES) 488 00:30:36,040 --> 00:30:38,560 How are you gonna feel though, we're leaving the house? 489 00:30:38,640 --> 00:30:40,320 You've been here for over four years. 490 00:30:40,400 --> 00:30:42,680 Four and a half. So, it's not just, 491 00:30:42,760 --> 00:30:44,520 you know, moving out of a house, 492 00:30:44,600 --> 00:30:49,320 I'm leaving my whole life and, 493 00:30:49,400 --> 00:30:51,680 I raised Colt for 37 years, 494 00:30:51,760 --> 00:30:54,800 and he and I have always been together. 495 00:30:54,880 --> 00:30:56,320 Yep. 496 00:30:56,400 --> 00:30:59,920 It's gonna be totally different. I'm not gonna be close. 497 00:31:00,000 --> 00:31:02,840 I'm not gonna be able- You're not gonna be able to just 498 00:31:02,920 --> 00:31:04,120 jump in the car, 499 00:31:04,200 --> 00:31:06,880 drive a couple of blocks and there you are. 500 00:31:06,960 --> 00:31:09,240 You know, leaving this house is, er... 501 00:31:10,720 --> 00:31:12,880 ..weird because we've had really good memories here. 502 00:31:12,960 --> 00:31:16,000 We've had really bad memories here. 503 00:31:16,080 --> 00:31:18,440 Well... We're good. What do you think? 504 00:31:20,720 --> 00:31:21,760 You ready? 505 00:31:24,680 --> 00:31:26,440 Hm. 506 00:31:26,520 --> 00:31:28,080 Oh, come here. It's OK. 507 00:31:29,240 --> 00:31:30,240 It's OK. 508 00:31:31,360 --> 00:31:33,440 (SNIFFLES) It's OK. 509 00:31:34,920 --> 00:31:37,320 You're coming up to a new house, 510 00:31:37,400 --> 00:31:39,080 and you're gonna be with somebody. 511 00:31:39,160 --> 00:31:40,920 (TRANQUIL MUSIC PLAYING) 512 00:31:41,000 --> 00:31:44,160 It's so scary because who does this at 70 years old? 513 00:31:44,240 --> 00:31:45,800 Who gives up their whole life, 514 00:31:45,880 --> 00:31:49,560 their friends, their family, their son, their country. 515 00:31:49,640 --> 00:31:51,080 Oh, God! 516 00:31:52,320 --> 00:31:54,600 Leave everything they have and are basically, 517 00:31:54,680 --> 00:31:57,760 live with a man that I barely know? 518 00:31:57,840 --> 00:31:59,600 Barely know. That is true. 519 00:31:59,680 --> 00:32:01,680 Could end up in your basement or something, 520 00:32:01,760 --> 00:32:05,520 you know, or backyard in a cage. In a dungeon. 521 00:32:05,600 --> 00:32:06,640 (LAUGHS) 522 00:32:07,760 --> 00:32:09,200 (GABBLES) 523 00:32:09,280 --> 00:32:10,720 We're gonna be OK, right? 524 00:32:10,800 --> 00:32:13,480 We're gonna be just fine. No, we are gonna be OK. 525 00:32:13,560 --> 00:32:15,040 I said "we". We. 526 00:32:15,120 --> 00:32:18,160 Yes, "we". We are gonna- We, you and me. 527 00:32:19,600 --> 00:32:22,200 OK. I'll grab a bag for you. 528 00:32:22,280 --> 00:32:23,560 You have to take a chance. 529 00:32:23,920 --> 00:32:27,320 If you feel it right in your heart, you have to go with it. 530 00:32:27,400 --> 00:32:29,720 This can go there. 531 00:32:29,800 --> 00:32:32,160 I'm ready to start my life over with Tony 532 00:32:32,240 --> 00:32:34,600 and I wanna spend whatever time we have left together, 533 00:32:34,680 --> 00:32:36,160 be there for each other. 534 00:32:37,440 --> 00:32:38,920 Perfect. OK. 535 00:32:40,040 --> 00:32:41,520 OK, let's go back in... 536 00:32:43,320 --> 00:32:44,840 ..make sure everything's gone. 537 00:32:47,240 --> 00:32:48,600 Wow, what a difference, huh! 538 00:32:48,680 --> 00:32:51,040 I could actually park a car here. Yes. 539 00:32:52,800 --> 00:32:53,800 Ready? OK. 540 00:32:56,360 --> 00:32:57,480 OK. 541 00:33:04,480 --> 00:33:06,200 (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) 542 00:33:06,280 --> 00:33:09,440 Dear Colt, well, I guess this is really happening. 543 00:33:10,480 --> 00:33:12,360 I'm going to live with Tony in Canada. 544 00:33:13,920 --> 00:33:15,760 We will always be connected, 545 00:33:15,840 --> 00:33:19,680 but now it's time for us to go our own ways. 546 00:33:19,760 --> 00:33:21,600 I have fallen in love with Tony. 547 00:33:21,680 --> 00:33:23,440 He loves me and I love him. 548 00:33:24,640 --> 00:33:26,440 I wish you guys the best. 549 00:33:26,520 --> 00:33:29,760 Please realise I will always be there for you. 550 00:33:29,840 --> 00:33:32,080 It's only a two and a half hour flight. 551 00:33:33,520 --> 00:33:35,400 If you need me, just call. 552 00:33:40,480 --> 00:33:41,480 Leaving Colt 553 00:33:41,560 --> 00:33:44,680 is the second hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life, 554 00:33:44,760 --> 00:33:46,720 after his dad passed away. 555 00:33:48,920 --> 00:33:50,840 He's my son. I mean, he's my baby. 556 00:33:50,920 --> 00:33:54,680 I don't care if he's 36 or 106, he still would be my baby. 557 00:33:59,160 --> 00:34:01,440 I want Colt to know that I love him. 558 00:34:01,520 --> 00:34:03,680 No matter what he does I'm proud of him, 559 00:34:03,760 --> 00:34:07,360 and whatever decisions he makes, I'm behind him 100%. 560 00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:09,720 I'll always be there for you, no matter what. 561 00:34:11,720 --> 00:34:13,280 It really is difficult saying goodbye 562 00:34:13,360 --> 00:34:15,480 to everything I know and love. 563 00:34:15,560 --> 00:34:18,480 I don't know what my life is gonna be, 564 00:34:18,560 --> 00:34:20,720 but you have to move on. 565 00:34:20,800 --> 00:34:21,880 (DOOR CLOSES) 566 00:34:21,960 --> 00:34:23,680 You ready? Yeah. 567 00:34:23,760 --> 00:34:24,880 OK. 568 00:34:26,160 --> 00:34:27,880 I love you. Love you too, dear. 569 00:34:28,880 --> 00:34:30,440 (SOFT MUSIC PLAYING) 570 00:34:30,520 --> 00:34:34,640 A year ago, I would have never even thought about falling in love, 571 00:34:35,000 --> 00:34:37,120 and if I hadn't put myself out there, 572 00:34:37,200 --> 00:34:39,640 I would still be sitting on my bed watching TV. 573 00:34:39,720 --> 00:34:41,160 You gotta take a chance, 574 00:34:41,240 --> 00:34:44,040 and I'm excited that I did, because I'm 70 years old, 575 00:34:44,120 --> 00:34:46,600 I'm moving to a new country, I'm living with him, 576 00:34:46,680 --> 00:34:48,920 we're having sex, we're having a wonderful time. 577 00:34:49,000 --> 00:34:52,760 I mean, we love each other, we cuddle up and we sleep together, 578 00:34:52,840 --> 00:34:54,560 we take walks and it's wonderful. 579 00:34:54,640 --> 00:34:56,800 It's just, don't ever think it's too late, 580 00:34:56,880 --> 00:34:58,720 ever, ever, ever. 581 00:34:59,800 --> 00:35:01,120 It's never too late. 582 00:35:04,000 --> 00:35:04,040 2 00:35:04.040 -- 00:35:05.920 align:middle line:90% position:50% (UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING) 583 00:35:23,040 --> 00:35:25,680 I came to South Africa to bring Carly to her dad, 584 00:35:25,760 --> 00:35:27,960 because he hasn't seen her in over a year, 585 00:35:28,040 --> 00:35:29,760 and Ronald's been 586 00:35:29,840 --> 00:35:32,160 trying to get me to talk about our relationship. 587 00:35:32,240 --> 00:35:34,320 But if this conversation makes everything explode, 588 00:35:34,400 --> 00:35:36,920 am I supposed to just stay here? 589 00:35:37,000 --> 00:35:39,520 I just got your coffee here. Thank you. 590 00:35:43,520 --> 00:35:45,880 Why are you acting weird all of a sudden? 591 00:35:45,960 --> 00:35:49,040 I just don't understand what you mean I'm acting weird, 592 00:35:49,120 --> 00:35:50,600 because... 593 00:35:55,720 --> 00:35:57,400 You are here, she's here. 594 00:35:57,480 --> 00:35:59,560 Daniel just needs to come here. 595 00:35:59,640 --> 00:36:00,840 It's what I wanted. 596 00:36:00,920 --> 00:36:04,560 I mean, besides me sleeping on the couch. 597 00:36:07,280 --> 00:36:09,320 But that's why I wanna fix things, so. 598 00:36:11,360 --> 00:36:14,040 I can't fix it if there's things still unsaid. 599 00:36:15,800 --> 00:36:18,640 It's just a fucking hard conversation to have. 600 00:36:18,720 --> 00:36:20,320 Like, I think in my mind, 601 00:36:20,400 --> 00:36:22,400 even though I know it needs to happen, 602 00:36:22,480 --> 00:36:25,840 I'm trying everything possible to avoid the conversation, 603 00:36:25,920 --> 00:36:28,720 just because I don't wanna fight, get into an argument, 604 00:36:28,800 --> 00:36:30,880 I don't get what you're saying cos... 605 00:36:32,360 --> 00:36:37,040 Things that we did in the past, that hurt the other one, that... 606 00:36:37,120 --> 00:36:39,880 We must just say it and get it off our chest... 607 00:36:41,240 --> 00:36:42,600 ..you know. 608 00:37:02,920 --> 00:37:04,360 Like, I realise that I have... 609 00:37:04,440 --> 00:37:08,160 If I decide to stay with you, I have to let go of the past 610 00:37:08,240 --> 00:37:11,200 and not bring it back up, cos that's gonna break us apart. 611 00:37:12,600 --> 00:37:15,480 If we are gonna work on this this time, 612 00:37:15,560 --> 00:37:18,200 there's still a lot more that we need to talk about, 613 00:37:18,280 --> 00:37:20,960 but I can tell you that I did go on dates, 614 00:37:21,040 --> 00:37:23,080 and I fucking regret it. 615 00:37:23,160 --> 00:37:25,360 Fair enough, we were separated. 616 00:37:25,440 --> 00:37:27,560 (SOMBRE MUSIC PLAYING) 617 00:37:29,000 --> 00:37:31,440 After going on a few dates, 618 00:37:31,520 --> 00:37:35,280 I realised I wanted to force myself to move on. 619 00:37:36,560 --> 00:37:40,320 I can't really open myself up to anyone 620 00:37:40,400 --> 00:37:44,480 until I fully decide am I closing this door 621 00:37:44,560 --> 00:37:46,360 or am I gonna work at it? 622 00:37:48,080 --> 00:37:49,520 Going on dates with other people 623 00:37:49,600 --> 00:37:52,640 made me realise how much I do love you. 624 00:37:52,720 --> 00:37:55,000 And how much, at the end of the day, 625 00:37:55,080 --> 00:37:58,040 and at the end of date, at the end of everything, 626 00:37:58,120 --> 00:38:01,720 all that was running through my mind was that I do love my husband. 627 00:38:01,800 --> 00:38:05,240 I only love you, and there's still so much from me here. 628 00:38:08,040 --> 00:38:10,640 If that is the case, 629 00:38:10,720 --> 00:38:11,960 which I hope it is... 630 00:38:16,800 --> 00:38:17,800 OK? 631 00:38:22,640 --> 00:38:23,920 (CRIES) 632 00:38:30,520 --> 00:38:31,520 It's OK. 633 00:38:32,800 --> 00:38:34,360 It's OK. It's OK. It's OK. 634 00:38:35,520 --> 00:38:36,920 (SOBBING) 635 00:38:37,000 --> 00:38:38,120 It's OK. 636 00:38:41,800 --> 00:38:44,760 Me and Tiffany has had so many problems in the past, 637 00:38:44,840 --> 00:38:49,600 but I'm pretty sure that we can save this thing. 638 00:38:51,920 --> 00:38:55,200 Take it easy, take a breath, it's gonna be OK. 639 00:38:58,360 --> 00:39:01,080 I'm trying to do what's best for all of us, 640 00:39:01,160 --> 00:39:04,080 because I would love a happy family altogether. 641 00:39:06,400 --> 00:39:08,080 I do love Ronald a lot, 642 00:39:08,160 --> 00:39:10,400 but, like, he has hurt me in the past, 643 00:39:10,480 --> 00:39:12,640 he has lied to me in the past. 644 00:39:12,720 --> 00:39:16,680 And my biggest fear's that Ronald won't be able to change, 645 00:39:16,760 --> 00:39:18,480 and that'll be the end of us. 646 00:39:29,760 --> 00:39:34,640 # Just a kiss too late Same old tired mistakes 647 00:39:34,720 --> 00:39:37,120 # Couldn't take the weight 648 00:39:37,200 --> 00:39:39,280 # Any longer 649 00:39:39,360 --> 00:39:41,880 # I'm a shadow gone 650 00:39:41,960 --> 00:39:44,400 # Now your light's turned off 651 00:39:44,480 --> 00:39:47,160 # It's our favourite song # 652 00:39:47,240 --> 00:39:50,040 (SOBBING) 653 00:39:55,240 --> 00:39:56,800 Natalie crying... 654 00:39:58,000 --> 00:40:01,280 ..it's very heart-wrenching, it's gut-wrenching, it's... 655 00:40:04,960 --> 00:40:07,920 There is definitely just a lot of emotions 656 00:40:08,000 --> 00:40:09,920 that I'm trying to process. 657 00:40:12,400 --> 00:40:15,120 She just really genuinely apologised 658 00:40:15,200 --> 00:40:17,240 and I am very grateful for that, 659 00:40:17,320 --> 00:40:19,840 but does that mean I'm gonna take her back tomorrow? 660 00:40:21,760 --> 00:40:24,840 I mean, I don't know, 661 00:40:24,920 --> 00:40:26,080 I don't know. 662 00:40:29,120 --> 00:40:32,280 All right, let's just take it down a notch here. 663 00:40:32,360 --> 00:40:34,760 Wanna go outside and get some air? Mm-hm. 664 00:40:40,000 --> 00:40:41,760 (SIGHS) 665 00:40:48,120 --> 00:40:50,400 I remember me coming to Sequim, 666 00:40:50,480 --> 00:40:52,840 it was not what I expected. 667 00:41:09,840 --> 00:41:11,520 I want to come back. 668 00:41:23,480 --> 00:41:24,480 Nothing, 669 00:41:27,120 --> 00:41:28,120 I can't. 670 00:41:35,320 --> 00:41:36,960 I don't think he's sure yet 671 00:41:37,040 --> 00:41:39,560 if he wants to come back to me or something 672 00:41:39,640 --> 00:41:41,760 because he been in a lot of pain, 673 00:41:41,840 --> 00:41:44,960 but Michael, he cares a lot for me, and I know it. 674 00:41:47,200 --> 00:41:50,000 No matter what, Michael... 675 00:41:56,680 --> 00:41:59,840 I'm mad at him sometimes, I want to kill him 676 00:41:59,920 --> 00:42:04,000 but, at the end of the day, I know he's a good guy. 677 00:42:04,080 --> 00:42:07,040 Did you get your passport and stuff, the one I gave you? 678 00:42:07,120 --> 00:42:08,680 Yeah. All right. 679 00:42:13,440 --> 00:42:15,640 OK, I'm going. I'm sorry. 680 00:42:15,720 --> 00:42:19,720 Take care of yourself. Take care. I hope your mum gets here OK. 681 00:42:24,160 --> 00:42:25,160 OK, let's go. 682 00:42:26,480 --> 00:42:31,880 # Someday you're gonna Come out of this so beautiful 683 00:42:36,120 --> 00:42:38,680 Look, she comes to you. She loves you. 684 00:42:38,760 --> 00:42:43,400 # It's like a butterfly Rising out in the wind 685 00:42:45,400 --> 00:42:48,360 # Who said it was always gonna be... 686 00:42:52,520 --> 00:42:55,440 # Who said that there was Never gonna be no pain 687 00:42:55,520 --> 00:42:57,040 Safe travels home, OK? 688 00:42:59,240 --> 00:43:01,880 # Here's a lullaby flowing... 689 00:43:01,960 --> 00:43:05,000 Bye, Trish. God bless you. 690 00:43:05,080 --> 00:43:11,000 # When you found your wings Then your life begins 691 00:43:11,080 --> 00:43:12,080 Bye. 692 00:43:19,400 --> 00:43:22,000 When I got married to Michael and said my vows, 693 00:43:22,080 --> 00:43:24,720 I never thought that my journey would be so strange. 694 00:43:27,920 --> 00:43:30,480 Love, it's a constant choice that you make, 695 00:43:30,560 --> 00:43:33,680 and you have to know exactly what you want. 696 00:43:42,360 --> 00:43:44,040 She does have regrets, 697 00:43:44,120 --> 00:43:46,520 but I'm not gonna put myself in a situation 698 00:43:46,600 --> 00:43:51,040 where I give her my heart again and she just rips it back out, so... 699 00:43:52,600 --> 00:43:53,600 Erm... 700 00:43:56,960 --> 00:44:00,520 # Swim against the tide Won't do what I'm told 701 00:44:00,600 --> 00:44:02,160 # Back in the rain 702 00:44:02,240 --> 00:44:05,640 # Cos I'm taking home gold tonight #