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<i>In Herman Williams'</i>
<i>seminal work on the joys</i>

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<i>of being a model train</i>
<i>hobbyist, he writes,</i>

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<i>"Many an hour have I spent</i>

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<i>"blissfully lost in a world</i>
<i>of my own creation.</i>

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<i>"For the model train</i>
<i>enthusiast,</i>

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<i>"there exists a secret world</i>
<i>of order and symmetry.</i>

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<i>"Nestled into the corners</i>
<i>of our basements and attics,</i>

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<i>"we lord over a world</i>

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<i>"where the hobbyist</i>
<i>plays omnipotent creator.</i>

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<i>"There, in 1:87 scale,</i>

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<i>"the neighbors</i>
<i>are always kind,</i>

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<i>"the lovers</i>
<i>always end up together,</i>

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<i>"and the trains always</i>
<i>take you to the far-off places</i>

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<i>"you always swore you'd go."</i>

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<i>In life, of course,</i>

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<i>nothing is nearly</i>
<i>as neat and tidy.</i>

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<i>♪ Well, if you close the door ♪</i>

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<i>♪ The night could</i>
<i>last forever ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And keep the sunshine out ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And say hello to never ♪</i>

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<i>♪ 'Cause all the people</i>
<i>are dancing ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And they're having such fun ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I wish it could</i>
<i>happen to me ♪</i>

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<i>♪ So baby close that door ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And never have to see</i>
<i>the day again ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Oh, yeah ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'd never have to see</i>
<i>the day again ♪</i>

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<i>♪ That's right ♪</i>
Sing!

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<i>♪ I'd never have to see</i>
<i>the day again ♪</i>

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Encore, Allie!

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No!

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I am way too drunk

33
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to be singing
in front of people.

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Aw, but we love you! Come on!

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And I wanna keep it that way.

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Um, okay. That was
for my beautiful, sweet,

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darling fiance, Nathan.

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Who loves that song very much.

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Bubba, you wanna come up here?

40
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No.

41
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Come on!
It's our engagement party.

42
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He's very shy!

43
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Nathan! Nathan! Nathan!

44
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Nathan! Nathan! Nathan! Nathan!

45
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Mm! Ah! Mm!

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-Did you like it?
-It was amazing.

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Hey, y'all...

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Um, I'll just briefly say that
she played that song for me

49
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on our very first date

50
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on a beautiful,
old piano she found

51
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at the back of an empty bar.

52
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-Well, you better go, girl!
-Come on. Come on!

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- Always be closing.
- Absolutely!

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Welcome to the family!

55
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- Allison...
- Yes...

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Every memory I cherish
in my life has you in it.

57
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Some of them
are just tiny seconds.

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The way you close one eye

59
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when you really wanna focus
on tasting something.

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I do that. I do that.

61
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I go, like...

62
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I can't believe this is real.

63
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It's real, baby.

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- Thank God.
- Mm.

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-I love you.
-I love you.

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Aw.

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-Okay.
-Hey...

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- Um... Drink, smoke, be merry.
- Yeah.

69
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And if you choose
to sleep with Chip,

70
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make sure he wears,
like, 11 condoms.

71
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I'm, like, literally a virgin.

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He's kidding. He's kidding.

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<i>♪ Time keeps on coming ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I've been all around ♪</i>

75
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<i>♪ I'll keep on loving... ♪</i>

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No! No, no, no.

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-No. Come on, baby. No phone.
-Oh.

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When we get married,
we have to make rules

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about phones in the bed.

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Oh, shut up.

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You are on your phone,
like, ten times more than me,

82
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looking up rusty old trucks.

83
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Uh, a '67 cloth top Bronco

84
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is a work of art, baby.
It's not a truck.

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-I'm looking at art.
-Yeah. Oh.

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Like this butt.

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I am so high
from that gummy you gave me.

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What the fuck was that?

89
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I still can't feel my ankles.

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You don't need your ankles
right now.

91
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Yeah, but I would
still like to feel my ankles.

92
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Hey, come kiss me.

93
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-Hey, babe?
-Yeah?

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This creepy doctor
from my sales list

95
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is really trying to flirt
with me on Instagram.

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Maybe you
gave him the wrong impression.

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What?

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Come on! As if!

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I go in there, and I'm, like,

100
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waving
my engagement ring around.

101
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You always say, "Flirting
is a part of the job."

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Someone's bound to get
the wrong impression.

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It's very light flirting.

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- Ah, okay.
- It is!

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It's like... It's just...

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It's sushi with a smile,

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so that he can write
the fucking prescription,

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and I can get a fat bonus,

109
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and then

110
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you and I can maybe one day

111
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move to the city.

112
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If we don't go to hell first.

113
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Oh! Why would you say that?

114
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-Come on!
-I'm sorry.

115
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I'm only pushing HUMIRA, like,

116
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I won't go to hell for
moderate to severe psoriasis.

117
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Come on.
That would be so unfair.

118
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Yeah, yeah.

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Shut up.

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-Okay. Hey.
-Mmm.

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It's just a stepping
stone, baby.

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I know.

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Do you think it's too late
for astronaut school?

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What?

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-What?
-Nothing.

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I could be
a professional dancer.

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-Oh, word?
-Yeah. Yeah.

128
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-You got them moves?
-Ooh.

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Wait, let me stand up.

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I'm way better
when I stand up.

131
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-Okay.
-It's so much better

132
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when I stand up.

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-Are you ready?
-Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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-Whoa.
-What genre is this?

135
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I don't know,
but my body just goes...

136
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Go.

137
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Is this modern, right?

138
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-This is professional.
-Wow.

139
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So I would appreciate it

140
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if you took me seriously
right now.

141
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I'm taking you very seriously.

142
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And then, we'll finish
with something like this.

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But I'm not gonna
show you anymore,

144
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because it's
a work-in-progress.

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And the professional is tired,

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and I wanna cuddle.

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<i>♪ Came into this life</i>
<i>on my own ♪</i>

148
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<i>♪And I'll try</i>
<i>Yes I'll try ♪</i>

149
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<i>♪ Hope for love</i>
<i>turn out the light ♪</i>

150
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<i>♪ And I gave my own life</i>
<i>My own life, my own life ♪</i>

151
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Oh, calm the fuck down.

152
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I swear, this road has been
under construction

153
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my entire life.

154
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When will New Jersey be done?

155
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-She's a work-in-progress.
-Never.

156
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Oh, by the way,
how's Ryan doing?

157
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Oh, you mean
your future niece?

158
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Oh, my goodness.
She's so pretty!

159
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Yeah, the varsity coach said
she might start next year.

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- Oh, yeah?
- Mmm-hmm.

161
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She scored 19 goals
last season!

162
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-Tell her. Tell her.
-Wow!

163
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Oh, my God.
You must be so proud of her.

164
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I can't believe
I haven't met her.

165
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I'm so sorry Nathan and I

166
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haven't made it
down there yet.

167
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Don't worry about it.
I mean, it's far.

168
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We're gonna try to come up
more often

169
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now that our dad's
getting older.

170
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Yeah.

171
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Well, I've only met
your dad a few times,

172
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but that we can't blame
on distance.

173
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This is fucking nuts.
I'm sorry.

174
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Wait, so tell us about

175
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these wedding dresses
we're seeing.

176
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Yes, please. I couldn't sleep
last night thinking about it.

177
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- Shut up!
- You are such a good sport.

178
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No, he isn't. He just thinks
that after we see dresses,

179
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-we're going to go...
-Yeah?

180
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- ...on a pub crawl.
- Mmm-hmm.

181
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But actually
we're going to see a play.

182
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-You are?
-No, we're not.

183
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You said that we'd have
to get tickets already.

184
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No. We just gotta see some
shit nobody else wants to see.

185
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Oh, great. That's awesome.

186
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-Yeah, right?
-Great. Great.

187
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Hey, look,
it's finally opening up.

188
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All right, so I think
it might be a little tight

189
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getting you to a play,

190
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but, um, let me just check...

191
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Okay, so now it's saying...

192
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Allie!

193
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Look out!

194
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Here we are.

195
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You got me here so early.

196
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Yeah, well, it's

197
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better to be a half-hour early

198
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than one minute late.

199
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Grandpa, have you ever played
any video games?

200
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No.

201
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You've got that perfect
little brain up there

202
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and you're just melting it
away with that crap.

203
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Okay.

204
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<i>Nathan.</i>

205
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It's Uncle Nathan.
Answer it.

206
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Why would he be calling me?

207
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Pick it up.

208
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Thought we weren't
talking anymore.

209
00:10:10,545 --> 00:10:13,548
Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Nathan. Nathan.

210
00:10:13,614 --> 00:10:15,916
I've... I've got
Ryan here in the car.

211
00:10:15,983 --> 00:10:17,751
I'm just dropping her off
at school.

212
00:10:17,818 --> 00:10:19,253
I'll call you right back.

213
00:10:21,288 --> 00:10:24,658
Yes, I heard what you said.
I'm headed right there.

214
00:10:24,725 --> 00:10:26,827
I just gotta
drop her off, okay?

215
00:10:29,430 --> 00:10:31,465
See, that wasn't so bad.

216
00:10:31,533 --> 00:10:34,268
Mom says she wishes you guys
could find a way to get along.

217
00:10:35,402 --> 00:10:37,738
I... I've...
I've got to leave, sweetie.

218
00:10:37,805 --> 00:10:40,007
But I look like a dork
being here this early.

219
00:10:40,074 --> 00:10:41,375
I'm sorry.

220
00:10:42,309 --> 00:10:43,310
I'll, uh...

221
00:10:44,178 --> 00:10:46,113
I'll be picking you up today.

222
00:10:46,180 --> 00:10:47,616
Why can't Mom?

223
00:10:47,681 --> 00:10:49,083
She said they'd be back
from the city today, right?

224
00:10:50,251 --> 00:10:51,352
Well...

225
00:10:53,187 --> 00:10:54,822
- she can't.
- Okay.

226
00:10:54,889 --> 00:10:56,157
I'll text her.

227
00:10:56,223 --> 00:10:57,391
Okay.

228
00:10:57,458 --> 00:10:59,026
Okay. Bye.

229
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Tell me you love me.

230
00:11:02,463 --> 00:11:04,398
I love you, Grandpa.

231
00:11:04,465 --> 00:11:05,766
I love you too.

232
00:11:08,503 --> 00:11:10,037
-Bye.
-Bye.

233
00:11:31,158 --> 00:11:34,094
Mom,
my head hurts so much.

234
00:11:34,161 --> 00:11:37,431
I can't even explain
how much pain my head's in.

235
00:11:37,498 --> 00:11:39,033
Can you click
on the morphine again?

236
00:11:39,099 --> 00:11:40,768
I've been clicking on it.

237
00:11:40,834 --> 00:11:42,736
I'm clicking on it,
and nothing is happening.

238
00:11:42,803 --> 00:11:43,971
Oh, shoot, you're right.
It is empty.

239
00:11:44,038 --> 00:11:45,540
We gotta get more.

240
00:11:45,607 --> 00:11:47,241
We'll have to get the nurse
to get us more.

241
00:11:47,308 --> 00:11:48,577
Nathan, why are you
looking at me like that?

242
00:11:48,643 --> 00:11:50,010
Like what?

243
00:11:50,077 --> 00:11:51,979
Is it bad? Do I look that bad?

244
00:11:52,046 --> 00:11:53,447
No, he's just upset,
sweetheart.

245
00:11:53,515 --> 00:11:55,115
He's upset 'cause we've been

246
00:11:55,182 --> 00:11:56,685
- so worried all night long.
- Okay. Okay.

247
00:11:56,750 --> 00:11:58,485
This backhoe thing
just reversed

248
00:11:58,553 --> 00:12:00,387
into the middle of the street.

249
00:12:00,454 --> 00:12:01,822
I know, I know.

250
00:12:01,889 --> 00:12:03,625
I didn't know
what to do.

251
00:12:03,692 --> 00:12:05,025
I know, but you don't have to
worry about that right now.

252
00:12:05,092 --> 00:12:06,794
-Right, Nathan?
-Yeah.

253
00:12:06,860 --> 00:12:08,329
No, you just need to focus
on getting better.

254
00:12:08,395 --> 00:12:09,830
That's all you need
to think about, okay?

255
00:12:09,897 --> 00:12:11,232
- Okay.
- Right, Nathan?

256
00:12:11,298 --> 00:12:13,100
- Yeah.
- Sorry to interrupt,

257
00:12:13,167 --> 00:12:14,401
but the police are here
to collect a blood sample.

258
00:12:14,468 --> 00:12:15,970
Oh, no. Absolutely not.

259
00:12:16,036 --> 00:12:17,271
Now is not a good time.
She is in a lot of pain.

260
00:12:17,338 --> 00:12:19,139
-You have to come back.
-No.

261
00:12:19,206 --> 00:12:20,441
- She just woke up.
- Why are the police here?

262
00:12:20,508 --> 00:12:22,209
Unfortunately, I can't.

263
00:12:22,276 --> 00:12:23,777
Legally, the sample has to be
drawn as soon as possible.

264
00:12:23,844 --> 00:12:25,112
We waited for her
to stabilize,

265
00:12:25,179 --> 00:12:26,447
but with an accident
like this,

266
00:12:26,514 --> 00:12:27,982
it's imperative we test...

267
00:12:28,048 --> 00:12:29,651
What is he talking about?
It wasn't my fault.

268
00:12:29,718 --> 00:12:31,785
-Officer, she doesn't know.
-It wasn't her fault.

269
00:12:31,852 --> 00:12:33,187
With an accident
of this magnitude

270
00:12:33,254 --> 00:12:34,788
involving fatalities,
we're required...

271
00:12:34,855 --> 00:12:36,323
-She hasn't been told.
-Fatalities?

272
00:12:36,390 --> 00:12:37,758
She hasn't been told,

273
00:12:37,825 --> 00:12:39,360
- you fucking asshole!
- Fuck.

274
00:12:39,426 --> 00:12:41,195
- She didn't know.
- Mama, what's going on?

275
00:12:41,262 --> 00:12:42,329
-I'm so sorry, honey.
-What is he talking about?

276
00:12:42,396 --> 00:12:43,297
I'm so sorry.

277
00:12:43,364 --> 00:12:44,898
Nathan?

278
00:12:44,965 --> 00:12:46,834
Nathan, what's going on?

279
00:12:50,505 --> 00:12:51,939
They're gone.

280
00:12:53,874 --> 00:12:55,442
They're both gone.

281
00:12:55,976 --> 00:12:56,877
Who's gone?

282
00:12:56,944 --> 00:12:58,312
Honey...

283
00:13:13,827 --> 00:13:16,463
No, Mom.

284
00:13:18,733 --> 00:13:20,635
Why, Mom?

285
00:13:20,702 --> 00:13:22,936
I'm so sorry, honey.

286
00:13:51,332 --> 00:13:54,134
<i>♪ Wake up with</i>
<i>the sun in morning ♪</i>

287
00:13:54,201 --> 00:13:57,137
<i>♪ Go to sleep with</i>
<i>the moon at night... ♪</i>

288
00:13:57,204 --> 00:13:58,740
<i>Hey, guys! Bella here.</i>

289
00:13:58,807 --> 00:14:00,441
<i>Welcome to my bathroom!</i>

290
00:14:00,508 --> 00:14:03,043
<i>Today, we're gonna learn</i>
<i>to cut our own hair.</i>

291
00:14:03,110 --> 00:14:04,579
<i>So let's jump in.</i>

292
00:14:04,646 --> 00:14:08,148
<i>To get started,</i>
<i>we grab this first front layer</i>

293
00:14:08,750 --> 00:14:10,451
<i>just like this.</i>

294
00:14:10,518 --> 00:14:13,954
<i>And put your scissors</i>
<i>at, like, a slight angle.</i>

295
00:14:15,356 --> 00:14:18,526
<i>Okay, it's now or never.</i>

296
00:14:18,593 --> 00:14:20,160
<i>Go for it!</i>

297
00:14:20,227 --> 00:14:22,062
<i>♪ What their purpose</i>
<i>is on earth ♪</i>

298
00:14:22,129 --> 00:14:24,566
<i>♪ To love and be</i>
<i>loved in return... ♪</i>

299
00:14:24,632 --> 00:14:25,700
Fuck.

300
00:14:25,767 --> 00:14:27,368
<i>You nailed it!</i>

301
00:14:27,434 --> 00:14:29,537
<i>You're officially a stylist</i>
<i>just like me!</i>

302
00:14:29,604 --> 00:14:31,138
<i>Now, go ahead</i>

303
00:14:31,205 --> 00:14:33,608
<i>and grab the same layer</i>
<i>on the other side.</i>

304
00:14:33,675 --> 00:14:35,643
<i>And just go for it!</i>

305
00:14:35,710 --> 00:14:37,679
Okay.

306
00:14:37,746 --> 00:14:40,548
<i>♪ Happiness comes</i>
<i>from inside ♪</i>

307
00:14:40,615 --> 00:14:43,317
<i>♪ At the center</i>
<i>of your mind... ♪</i>

308
00:14:43,384 --> 00:14:44,318
Fuck.

309
00:14:44,385 --> 00:14:45,919
<i>Does it look even?</i>

310
00:14:46,387 --> 00:14:47,689
Uh...

311
00:14:47,756 --> 00:14:49,289
Not exactly. No.

312
00:14:49,356 --> 00:14:52,126
<i>Good job.</i>
<i>You look amazing!</i>

313
00:14:53,595 --> 00:14:55,162
Thank you.

314
00:14:55,229 --> 00:14:57,297
<i>♪ You can change</i>
<i>the darkest day ♪</i>

315
00:14:57,364 --> 00:15:00,535
<i>♪ Simply by</i>
<i>the things you say... ♪</i>

316
00:15:01,536 --> 00:15:02,936
Wow...

317
00:15:03,003 --> 00:15:06,273
<i>♪ Oooh oooh ooh ♪</i>

318
00:15:07,709 --> 00:15:09,243
I love it.

319
00:15:12,446 --> 00:15:15,983
Oh, my God. Allie,
what the hell is all this?

320
00:15:16,049 --> 00:15:20,020
You have got to stop buying
all this crap.

321
00:15:21,321 --> 00:15:24,692
Yeah, well, one of them
is an acrylic nail set

322
00:15:24,759 --> 00:15:27,227
that I know you'll appreciate
more than I will.

323
00:15:27,294 --> 00:15:28,962
And the others
are ankle weights.

324
00:15:29,029 --> 00:15:30,998
Remember? We said we were
gonna get in shape?

325
00:15:31,699 --> 00:15:33,133
Oh, my God.

326
00:15:33,200 --> 00:15:36,170
Allie, what the hell
did you do to your hair?

327
00:15:36,236 --> 00:15:37,772
What? It's makeover Monday.

328
00:15:37,839 --> 00:15:40,542
-It's Friday.
-Oh.

329
00:15:40,608 --> 00:15:42,811
-It's so dark in here.
-No, please, don't open that.

330
00:15:42,877 --> 00:15:44,378
Mama, that is so bright!

331
00:15:44,445 --> 00:15:46,146
Did you go
to physical therapy today?

332
00:15:46,213 --> 00:15:48,115
Um, well, I tried to,

333
00:15:48,182 --> 00:15:50,150
-but I overslept.
-Allie...

334
00:15:50,217 --> 00:15:52,654
What? I don't need PT.
I don't.

335
00:15:52,720 --> 00:15:54,221
Allie, your hair.

336
00:15:54,856 --> 00:15:56,558
You don't like it?

337
00:15:56,624 --> 00:15:58,392
I just don't understand why
you would cut your own hair.

338
00:15:58,459 --> 00:16:00,862
Well, the girl said
it was easy, and it was not.

339
00:16:00,929 --> 00:16:02,463
What girl?

340
00:16:02,530 --> 00:16:05,667
This girl on the Internet.
She's an influencer.

341
00:16:05,733 --> 00:16:07,334
She influenced me.

342
00:16:07,401 --> 00:16:11,639
Such a pigsty in here.
I am not happy about this.

343
00:16:11,706 --> 00:16:13,675
Hey, Mama, can you tell me
where my pills are?

344
00:16:13,741 --> 00:16:15,877
Which ones?

345
00:16:15,944 --> 00:16:19,814
We said we were going to
wean off of them. Remember?

346
00:16:19,881 --> 00:16:21,783
-Did we?
-Yes.

347
00:16:21,850 --> 00:16:24,552
Because "we" are in pain

348
00:16:24,619 --> 00:16:26,286
and "we" need more.

349
00:16:26,353 --> 00:16:27,522
They're not gonna
give you more, Allie.

350
00:16:27,589 --> 00:16:29,056
-They have to!
-No, they don't.

351
00:16:29,122 --> 00:16:30,692
I need them!

352
00:16:30,758 --> 00:16:32,192
Listen to me.

353
00:16:32,259 --> 00:16:34,294
You're not in physical pain
anymore.

354
00:16:34,361 --> 00:16:36,396
Have you been doing
the tapping thing

355
00:16:36,463 --> 00:16:37,932
that that one shrink
taught you?

356
00:16:37,998 --> 00:16:40,100
Remember?
For anxiety and stress,

357
00:16:40,167 --> 00:16:41,970
and it calms you down
on the...

358
00:16:42,035 --> 00:16:43,705
-eyes, and then the lips.
-Mom!

359
00:16:43,771 --> 00:16:45,372
Or play your piano.
That always cheers you up.

360
00:16:45,439 --> 00:16:47,140
I don't wanna talk
about this, please.

361
00:16:47,207 --> 00:16:49,409
I have the worst headache!
Can you just stop?

362
00:16:49,476 --> 00:16:52,346
Can you call the doctors
and help me, please?

363
00:16:52,412 --> 00:16:54,181
Which one? Patel?
He said no more.

364
00:16:54,248 --> 00:16:56,651
Okay, well, fuck Patel.
Fuck Patel!

365
00:16:56,718 --> 00:16:58,485
How about Goldberg, or...

366
00:16:58,553 --> 00:17:00,187
or Fong?

367
00:17:00,254 --> 00:17:01,890
-Allie...
-Please, Mom.

368
00:17:01,956 --> 00:17:03,357
-Just call 'em. Just help me.
-You're being a little...

369
00:17:03,423 --> 00:17:04,926
-No.
-Just help me, please.

370
00:17:04,993 --> 00:17:06,159
Guess what?
They all said "no."

371
00:17:06,226 --> 00:17:08,061
Patel. Goldberg.
Fong. Rosenberg.

372
00:17:08,128 --> 00:17:09,998
Okay, well, I'll try Vromen.
He loves me.

373
00:17:10,063 --> 00:17:11,933
Vromen is an orthodontist.

374
00:17:12,000 --> 00:17:13,601
Yeah, but he used to
flirt with me

375
00:17:13,668 --> 00:17:15,637
when his fingers were really
deep inside my mouth,

376
00:17:15,703 --> 00:17:18,006
and it was very inappropriate,
and so, he really owes me one.

377
00:17:18,071 --> 00:17:19,908
Allie, I don't like
how you're acting.

378
00:17:19,974 --> 00:17:21,308
You know what?
Enough is enough.

379
00:17:21,375 --> 00:17:22,911
You gotta get out
of this living room,

380
00:17:22,977 --> 00:17:24,378
take off your pajamas,

381
00:17:24,444 --> 00:17:26,280
and get your ass,
and go get a job.

382
00:17:26,346 --> 00:17:27,615
I'm sick of this crap.

383
00:17:27,682 --> 00:17:29,684
As if you have any right

384
00:17:29,751 --> 00:17:31,953
lecturing me
on medicating myself.

385
00:17:32,020 --> 00:17:33,588
What is that supposed to mean?

386
00:17:33,655 --> 00:17:36,390
It means, Mom, you're such
a fucking hypocrite!

387
00:17:36,456 --> 00:17:39,259
You don't think that I clock
how many Xanax you take?

388
00:17:39,326 --> 00:17:41,395
Or how many glasses of wine
you drink?

389
00:17:41,461 --> 00:17:43,397
You think I'm just a zombie
that doesn't notice anything,

390
00:17:43,463 --> 00:17:46,166
but I notice
fucking everything! I see you.

391
00:17:46,233 --> 00:17:49,604
So, can I have my pills,
please?

392
00:17:49,671 --> 00:17:52,040
You're not listening.
There's no more.

393
00:17:59,246 --> 00:18:01,148
You get
right back here,

394
00:18:01,214 --> 00:18:02,717
-you little brat!
-No!

395
00:18:02,784 --> 00:18:05,185
What in the hell do you think
you are doing?

396
00:18:05,252 --> 00:18:06,721
Get out of there!

397
00:18:06,788 --> 00:18:08,155
- Get out of there!
- Get off me!

398
00:18:08,221 --> 00:18:09,824
-No! Get out of there!
-Let go!

399
00:18:09,891 --> 00:18:11,693
- What are you doing?
- No! Are they in here?

400
00:18:11,759 --> 00:18:14,161
- Get back! Cut it out!
- You are hurting me!

401
00:18:14,227 --> 00:18:15,563
Stop it!

402
00:18:15,630 --> 00:18:17,497
- Stop it! Put that back!
- Mom!

403
00:18:18,566 --> 00:18:19,466
No.

404
00:18:19,534 --> 00:18:21,201
-Open the door.
-No.

405
00:18:21,268 --> 00:18:22,369
-Open the fucking door!
-Stop it! Stop it.

406
00:18:22,436 --> 00:18:23,871
-Mom, let me out.
-No.

407
00:18:23,938 --> 00:18:26,040
Let me out. Let me out!

408
00:18:26,106 --> 00:18:27,474
Mama!

409
00:18:27,542 --> 00:18:29,077
-No! Stop it!
-Give me those... Ow.

410
00:18:29,142 --> 00:18:31,211
- Stop it!
- Ow! Ow, ow, ow, ow.

411
00:18:31,278 --> 00:18:33,548
- You fucking crazy little brat.
- No!

412
00:18:36,084 --> 00:18:37,986
Shit!

413
00:18:38,052 --> 00:18:40,220
No, no, no, no, no, no.

414
00:18:40,287 --> 00:18:42,456
Mama, no! Please. No!

415
00:18:44,391 --> 00:18:46,594
Why the fuck did you do that?

416
00:18:46,661 --> 00:18:47,729
I'm in pain!

417
00:18:47,795 --> 00:18:49,097
I don't give a shit!

418
00:18:49,162 --> 00:18:50,230
Your daughter
is in actual pain!

419
00:18:50,297 --> 00:18:51,566
I don't give a shit!

420
00:18:51,633 --> 00:18:55,235
I fucking hate you so much!

421
00:18:55,302 --> 00:18:56,971
You're bleeding!

422
00:19:01,141 --> 00:19:02,610
You get back here right now.

423
00:19:02,677 --> 00:19:04,411
- Leave me alone.
- You come back here.

424
00:19:04,478 --> 00:19:05,445
- Leave me alone.
- I'm gonna grab your...

425
00:19:06,981 --> 00:19:08,549
Leave me the fuck alone!

426
00:19:08,616 --> 00:19:09,917
I'm not gonna leave you
the fuck alone,

427
00:19:09,984 --> 00:19:10,918
-you little brat.
-Ugh!

428
00:19:15,790 --> 00:19:17,324
Allison!

429
00:19:17,391 --> 00:19:19,159
- Leave me alone!
- Where are you going?

430
00:19:19,226 --> 00:19:21,294
Leave me alone!

431
00:19:32,305 --> 00:19:34,307
Let's go, Ryan!

432
00:19:35,342 --> 00:19:37,411
Attagirl! Attagirl!

433
00:19:43,918 --> 00:19:45,687
Fuck!

434
00:19:45,753 --> 00:19:47,487
So you're the Ryan
that's been talking to Damien?

435
00:19:47,555 --> 00:19:49,157
Get the fuck outta my face.

436
00:19:49,222 --> 00:19:50,658
See, you talk to people
like that, bitch,

437
00:19:50,725 --> 00:19:52,225
that's why you have
no fucking friends.

438
00:19:52,292 --> 00:19:53,628
Why are you
hitting on me, huh?

439
00:19:53,695 --> 00:19:55,328
Uh, I'm not the one
named "Ryan."

440
00:19:55,395 --> 00:19:57,165
It's a fucking dyke's name.
You a dyke?

441
00:19:57,230 --> 00:19:58,966
-Only when I fuck your mother.
-Oh, at least I have a mother.

442
00:20:02,335 --> 00:20:03,971
What the fuck
did you just say to me?

443
00:20:04,772 --> 00:20:06,206
Hey!

444
00:20:06,273 --> 00:20:09,409
Stay away from Damien,
you fucking whore.

445
00:20:10,178 --> 00:20:11,179
Hey!

446
00:20:11,244 --> 00:20:13,147
Break that up, Ref!

447
00:20:14,615 --> 00:20:15,750
Break it up.
Break it up!

448
00:20:16,184 --> 00:20:17,317
Hey!

449
00:20:19,721 --> 00:20:22,523
Hey! That's it!
You're both out. Red card.

450
00:20:22,590 --> 00:20:24,058
Ryan,
what the hell was that?

451
00:20:24,125 --> 00:20:25,593
I quit.

452
00:20:25,660 --> 00:20:27,662
I quit.
I hate this fucking game.

453
00:20:27,729 --> 00:20:29,897
Why? Because you got
in a fight?

454
00:20:29,964 --> 00:20:31,733
Come on, that's not you.

455
00:20:31,799 --> 00:20:34,068
You're tough.
You're not a quitter.

456
00:20:34,135 --> 00:20:37,105
-She made fun of Mom.
-What?

457
00:20:37,171 --> 00:20:39,473
She said,
"At least I have a mom."

458
00:20:42,110 --> 00:20:43,745
Well, fuck her.

459
00:20:47,314 --> 00:20:48,583
Well...

460
00:20:49,650 --> 00:20:52,186
And what kind of a punch
was that?

461
00:20:52,252 --> 00:20:54,222
You throw this hard right hook

462
00:20:54,287 --> 00:20:57,357
and then you leave yourself
wide open for the jab.

463
00:20:58,226 --> 00:20:59,961
We're gonna have to work
on that.

464
00:21:17,745 --> 00:21:18,913
Hi.

465
00:21:18,980 --> 00:21:21,314
I'm here to get
a prescription refilled.

466
00:21:21,381 --> 00:21:24,185
Last name, Johnson.
Birthday, August 24th.

467
00:21:24,252 --> 00:21:26,154
Okay. For which medication?

468
00:21:26,220 --> 00:21:29,257
Uh... The Oxy. OxyContin.

469
00:21:29,322 --> 00:21:31,391
It says here
you are out of refills.

470
00:21:31,458 --> 00:21:33,861
I see you've been on them
for over a year now.

471
00:21:33,928 --> 00:21:35,963
Your doctor's probably trying
to wean you off of them.

472
00:21:36,030 --> 00:21:38,465
As I'm sure you know,
they can be very addictive.

473
00:21:38,533 --> 00:21:40,601
Oh, really?
I hadn't fucking heard that.

474
00:21:42,302 --> 00:21:43,370
Sorry.

475
00:21:43,436 --> 00:21:45,405
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

476
00:21:45,973 --> 00:21:47,875
Listen...

477
00:21:47,942 --> 00:21:49,811
I was in a really bad
car accident,

478
00:21:49,877 --> 00:21:53,114
and I need them,
because I'm in a lot of pain.

479
00:21:53,181 --> 00:21:54,381
Just now?

480
00:21:55,348 --> 00:21:56,416
What? No.

481
00:21:56,483 --> 00:21:59,053
Your elbow is bleeding.

482
00:21:59,120 --> 00:22:00,655
Oh, shit.
Look, it's fine.

483
00:22:00,721 --> 00:22:02,389
Let me go get you a bandage.

484
00:22:02,455 --> 00:22:04,457
I don't need
a fucking bandage. It's fine.

485
00:22:08,461 --> 00:22:09,730
Then take this.

486
00:22:12,200 --> 00:22:14,735
Oh, my goodness.
Thank you so much. Thank you.

487
00:22:16,771 --> 00:22:19,707
I feel so much better now.
Thank you.

488
00:22:20,308 --> 00:22:21,609
Fucking bitch.

489
00:22:32,485 --> 00:22:34,421
<i>Burn,</i>
<i>but guess what that burn is?</i>

490
00:22:34,487 --> 00:22:37,625
<i>That burn is in your soul.</i>
<i>It is lifting you up.</i>

491
00:22:37,692 --> 00:22:39,093
<i>You are climbing that mountain</i>

492
00:22:39,160 --> 00:22:41,095
<i>and you are reaching</i>
<i>higher heights</i>

493
00:22:41,162 --> 00:22:42,830
<i>than you ever have before.</i>

494
00:22:42,897 --> 00:22:44,131
<i>Keep pedaling.</i>

495
00:24:19,860 --> 00:24:22,196
- Hi.
- Hi!

496
00:24:22,263 --> 00:24:24,098
-Hey!
-Hi!

497
00:24:24,999 --> 00:24:26,334
Hi.

498
00:24:26,400 --> 00:24:28,769
Oh, my God. I love your hair!

499
00:24:28,836 --> 00:24:32,506
-It is so chic. Who did it?
-Ah, thank you! Um...

500
00:24:32,573 --> 00:24:34,976
I, uh, got a new gal.

501
00:24:35,042 --> 00:24:37,845
Well, I gotta get her number.

502
00:24:37,912 --> 00:24:39,146
Okay.

503
00:24:39,213 --> 00:24:41,949
Oh, I was so happy
that you reached out.

504
00:24:42,016 --> 00:24:44,919
Because you weren't responding
to any of my texts.

505
00:24:44,986 --> 00:24:47,021
Of course, I wanted
to give you your space,

506
00:24:47,088 --> 00:24:48,589
but I was worried.

507
00:24:48,656 --> 00:24:50,157
- Hi, good morning.
- Hey!

508
00:24:50,224 --> 00:24:51,625
Can I get you anything?

509
00:24:51,692 --> 00:24:54,562
Uh, yeah. Can I please get
a Jack and Coke?

510
00:24:54,996 --> 00:24:56,731
Uh...

511
00:24:56,797 --> 00:24:59,300
Sorry, our bar doesn't
actually open until 11:00.

512
00:24:59,367 --> 00:25:00,868
Oh.

513
00:25:00,935 --> 00:25:03,938
Uh, okay. In that case,
I'll get a black coffee.

514
00:25:04,005 --> 00:25:06,007
-Oat milk latte.
-You got it.

515
00:25:09,243 --> 00:25:11,545
So, how's, how's work?

516
00:25:11,612 --> 00:25:12,847
You're still at Purdue, right?

517
00:25:12,913 --> 00:25:14,548
-Still repping Purdue.
-Yeah.

518
00:25:14,615 --> 00:25:16,117
You'd think it would've been
a shit show

519
00:25:16,183 --> 00:25:17,585
because of the bankruptcy
and all the lawsuits.

520
00:25:17,651 --> 00:25:19,420
-Mm.
-But, between you and me,

521
00:25:19,487 --> 00:25:21,288
my numbers
have actually increased.

522
00:25:21,355 --> 00:25:22,690
Wow.

523
00:25:22,757 --> 00:25:25,793
My bonus last quarter
was insane.

524
00:25:25,860 --> 00:25:28,129
- It sells itself.
- Yeah.

525
00:25:28,195 --> 00:25:29,397
Karl Marx was wrong.

526
00:25:29,463 --> 00:25:31,432
Turns out
the opiate of the masses

527
00:25:31,499 --> 00:25:32,501
is opium.

528
00:25:37,304 --> 00:25:38,439
Anyway.

529
00:25:38,507 --> 00:25:39,740
How are you doing?

530
00:25:39,807 --> 00:25:41,442
When are you going back
to work?

531
00:25:41,510 --> 00:25:42,676
Listen,
I'm just gonna cut right to it

532
00:25:42,743 --> 00:25:44,011
because you're my friend

533
00:25:44,078 --> 00:25:45,613
and I know
you're gonna understand.

534
00:25:45,679 --> 00:25:46,981
Um...

535
00:25:47,882 --> 00:25:50,551
I'm still in a lot of pain.

536
00:25:50,618 --> 00:25:52,153
Oh, Allie...

537
00:25:52,219 --> 00:25:56,057
I know, and my docs
are cutting my Oxy scripts

538
00:25:56,123 --> 00:25:58,492
because everyone's
really freaked out

539
00:25:58,559 --> 00:26:00,061
about addiction these days.

540
00:26:00,127 --> 00:26:01,729
Uh...

541
00:26:01,796 --> 00:26:04,298
So, I was wondering
if it would be possible...

542
00:26:04,365 --> 00:26:06,200
Allie, please tell me
you didn't invite me

543
00:26:06,267 --> 00:26:08,836
to breakfast
to hit me up for pills.

544
00:26:09,236 --> 00:26:10,404
No.

545
00:26:10,471 --> 00:26:12,006
No, no, no, no, no.

546
00:26:12,073 --> 00:26:14,408
It's just until I can get in,
and see my docs.

547
00:26:14,475 --> 00:26:16,343
Um, because my fucking mother,

548
00:26:16,410 --> 00:26:19,613
she threw my last refill
into the toilet, so...

549
00:26:20,114 --> 00:26:21,248
No way.

550
00:26:21,315 --> 00:26:23,150
Are you fucking
with me right now?

551
00:26:23,217 --> 00:26:24,785
No.

552
00:26:24,852 --> 00:26:26,555
If you have a problem,
you need to get some help.

553
00:26:26,654 --> 00:26:28,889
I can help you
find the right rehab.

554
00:26:28,956 --> 00:26:31,125
Please don't hand me
a pamphlet.

555
00:26:31,192 --> 00:26:32,793
I already have one.

556
00:26:32,860 --> 00:26:34,795
Well, then find them
on the street if you have to.

557
00:26:34,862 --> 00:26:36,831
Every dive bar
in this town's got a guy

558
00:26:36,897 --> 00:26:39,166
with a pharmacy
in his front pocket.

559
00:26:39,233 --> 00:26:41,102
You know, Becka,

560
00:26:42,103 --> 00:26:44,371
I really didn't want
to do this.

561
00:26:46,207 --> 00:26:47,274
But...

562
00:26:49,009 --> 00:26:50,644
there's a handful of things

563
00:26:50,711 --> 00:26:53,781
that happened
at your bachelorette party

564
00:26:53,848 --> 00:26:57,251
that I'm pretty sure
you want to be kept private.

565
00:26:57,318 --> 00:27:00,988
Allison, are you trying
to blackmail me for OxyContin?

566
00:27:01,055 --> 00:27:03,057
I'm just asking you for help.

567
00:27:03,958 --> 00:27:06,327
Like, as a friend.

568
00:27:07,995 --> 00:27:10,331
But you did blow that dancer.

569
00:27:11,298 --> 00:27:12,766
It happened for a second.

570
00:27:12,833 --> 00:27:15,836
I know, I know.
But you did it, and I saw.

571
00:27:16,637 --> 00:27:17,671
It never went in my mouth.

572
00:27:17,738 --> 00:27:19,406
It was in your mouth.

573
00:27:19,473 --> 00:27:21,308
It was in your mouth.

574
00:27:21,375 --> 00:27:22,776
Past the tip.

575
00:27:23,545 --> 00:27:26,147
Past the fucking tip.

576
00:27:26,947 --> 00:27:28,682
Allie, you need help.

577
00:27:29,683 --> 00:27:31,152
Destroy my life
if you have to.

578
00:27:31,218 --> 00:27:34,788
But for the love of God,
get some fucking help!

579
00:27:34,855 --> 00:27:36,357
Okay, bye.
Fuck you.

580
00:27:36,423 --> 00:27:37,958
Fuck you!

581
00:27:43,797 --> 00:27:46,100
Uh... I don't...
Oh, fuck.

582
00:27:48,269 --> 00:27:49,970
I don't have any money.
I'm really sorry.

583
00:27:50,037 --> 00:27:51,472
I can't pay for those.

584
00:27:51,540 --> 00:27:53,841
That's okay. Take it.

585
00:27:53,908 --> 00:27:56,010
I mixed in a little tequila
for you.

586
00:28:04,485 --> 00:28:05,986
That's disgusting.

587
00:28:07,388 --> 00:28:08,389
Thank you.

588
00:28:11,258 --> 00:28:14,061
<i>Mr. Adams,</i>
<i>we really wanna do</i>

589
00:28:14,128 --> 00:28:16,430
<i>everything we can</i>
<i>to help Ryan.</i>

590
00:28:18,465 --> 00:28:20,301
But she needs to take
some responsibility

591
00:28:20,367 --> 00:28:22,102
for her behavior.

592
00:28:22,169 --> 00:28:25,406
That girl does not listen
to a thing I say.

593
00:28:26,941 --> 00:28:28,375
To be honest,

594
00:28:28,442 --> 00:28:30,077
I was hoping
you were calling me in here

595
00:28:30,144 --> 00:28:32,079
to give me some advice.

596
00:28:33,682 --> 00:28:35,282
I need help.

597
00:28:35,349 --> 00:28:37,284
It's just that
we're a public school.

598
00:28:37,351 --> 00:28:40,421
We have 2,000 kids
to look after.

599
00:28:40,487 --> 00:28:42,156
We don't have the bandwidth

600
00:28:42,223 --> 00:28:44,626
to micromanage her in ways
that she deserves and needs.

601
00:28:44,693 --> 00:28:46,427
So, what are you saying?

602
00:28:47,662 --> 00:28:48,963
I will give her
an extra strike

603
00:28:49,029 --> 00:28:51,298
because of the circumstances.

604
00:28:51,365 --> 00:28:53,234
But if she doesn't tone down
her language

605
00:28:53,300 --> 00:28:54,768
with her teachers

606
00:28:54,835 --> 00:28:56,904
and gets into one more fight,

607
00:28:57,672 --> 00:28:59,139
we'll have to expel her.

608
00:29:20,761 --> 00:29:23,764
Hi, can I get
a double tequila, please?

609
00:29:31,539 --> 00:29:32,540
Allison.

610
00:29:33,508 --> 00:29:35,776
Yo, I know you.

611
00:29:36,711 --> 00:29:37,911
It's Mark.

612
00:29:38,680 --> 00:29:39,748
Yeah, hey.

613
00:29:39,813 --> 00:29:41,482
Yeah.

614
00:29:41,549 --> 00:29:44,184
I haven't seen you
since high school.

615
00:29:44,251 --> 00:29:46,755
This is Diego.
You remember Diego?

616
00:29:46,820 --> 00:29:48,122
- Hey.
- Hey.

617
00:29:49,223 --> 00:29:50,759
You just having
a little breakfast?

618
00:29:50,824 --> 00:29:53,827
Uh... Um... I just...

619
00:29:55,095 --> 00:29:56,997
I just needed
to get out of the house.

620
00:29:57,064 --> 00:29:59,066
Yeah, I feel that.

621
00:29:59,133 --> 00:30:01,435
I heard what happened to you.
The accident.

622
00:30:01,503 --> 00:30:02,771
Saw it in the <i>Star Ledger.</i>
Sorry.

623
00:30:02,836 --> 00:30:04,371
What happened?

624
00:30:04,438 --> 00:30:05,472
She was in that
accident on the turnpike.

625
00:30:05,540 --> 00:30:06,940
Two people died.

626
00:30:07,007 --> 00:30:08,842
Holy shit.

627
00:30:09,644 --> 00:30:11,178
That was you.

628
00:30:12,146 --> 00:30:13,914
Oh, bro.

629
00:30:13,981 --> 00:30:15,883
That would've fucked me up.

630
00:30:15,949 --> 00:30:17,318
It wasn't my fault.

631
00:30:17,384 --> 00:30:19,987
Yeah, I'm sure.
But, like, still...

632
00:30:25,660 --> 00:30:26,860
Damn.

633
00:30:29,798 --> 00:30:33,200
Hey, can I
have another one, please?

634
00:30:34,234 --> 00:30:35,570
You having a tough day?

635
00:30:36,771 --> 00:30:38,238
Just a day.

636
00:30:39,541 --> 00:30:41,776
I just wanna get as far away
from here as possible.

637
00:30:41,842 --> 00:30:43,110
Yo, there's this app,

638
00:30:43,177 --> 00:30:44,345
it tells you
the exact opposite

639
00:30:44,411 --> 00:30:46,280
of where you are
on the globe is.

640
00:30:46,347 --> 00:30:48,349
That's where you should go.
I'll look it up for you.

641
00:30:48,415 --> 00:30:51,018
Yo, that's how I feel
every fuckin' day of my life.

642
00:30:51,085 --> 00:30:53,354
I can't seem to escape
this town.

643
00:30:53,420 --> 00:30:55,289
It's like there's
a force field around it

644
00:30:55,356 --> 00:30:56,658
or something.

645
00:30:56,725 --> 00:30:59,561
Like, some people know
how to get outta here.

646
00:30:59,627 --> 00:31:01,261
But the rest of us,

647
00:31:01,328 --> 00:31:02,797
we just keep banging our heads
up against the glass.

648
00:31:02,863 --> 00:31:04,932
It's Perth. That's the city

649
00:31:04,998 --> 00:31:06,835
on the other side of the globe
from here.

650
00:31:06,900 --> 00:31:08,503
You should go to Perth.

651
00:31:08,570 --> 00:31:11,372
I don't have enough money
to get to Perth,

652
00:31:11,438 --> 00:31:12,774
but thank you.

653
00:31:12,841 --> 00:31:14,975
Aren't you engaged
to Nathan Adams?

654
00:31:15,943 --> 00:31:17,679
I was, yeah.

655
00:31:17,746 --> 00:31:20,314
He was an amazing running back
in high school.

656
00:31:20,381 --> 00:31:21,915
He used to run
every fucking play.

657
00:31:21,982 --> 00:31:23,083
- You remember him, Mark?
- Yeah.

658
00:31:23,150 --> 00:31:24,485
Every fucking play,

659
00:31:24,552 --> 00:31:25,986
they'd come
on the PA system like,

660
00:31:26,053 --> 00:31:27,354
"Nathan Adams,
the ball carrier.

661
00:31:27,421 --> 00:31:29,289
"Nathan Adams,
the ball carrier."

662
00:31:29,356 --> 00:31:31,024
He was the whole fucking team.
You remember him, Mark?

663
00:31:31,091 --> 00:31:32,926
Yeah, I remember him.

664
00:31:32,993 --> 00:31:34,361
Isn't he deaf?

665
00:31:34,428 --> 00:31:37,898
Uh... In one ear. Since birth.

666
00:31:37,965 --> 00:31:39,466
Wow, that's impressive

667
00:31:39,534 --> 00:31:40,835
that he could be, like,
that good, you know?

668
00:31:40,901 --> 00:31:42,537
And half deaf.

669
00:31:42,604 --> 00:31:44,037
So you're, like, single?

670
00:31:44,104 --> 00:31:46,641
Yo.
Shut the fuck up, Diego.

671
00:31:46,708 --> 00:31:49,176
What? You think
she's gonna date you?

672
00:31:49,243 --> 00:31:50,944
Where are you gonna take her?
You live with your mom.

673
00:31:51,011 --> 00:31:53,815
God damn.

674
00:31:53,882 --> 00:31:55,215
Allison, I'm sorry.

675
00:31:55,282 --> 00:31:58,051
My fucking friend
has no tact at all.

676
00:31:58,118 --> 00:32:00,622
We're not used to having

677
00:32:00,688 --> 00:32:03,558
pretty girls such as yourself
come in here.

678
00:32:03,625 --> 00:32:05,359
So, you gotta excuse his

679
00:32:05,426 --> 00:32:07,194
lack of decor.

680
00:32:09,396 --> 00:32:10,565
Decorum.

681
00:32:11,432 --> 00:32:12,499
What?

682
00:32:13,601 --> 00:32:15,804
"Decor" is

683
00:32:15,870 --> 00:32:20,107
the Bud Light lamp
above my head.

684
00:32:20,974 --> 00:32:23,678
"Decorum" is his behavior.

685
00:32:25,179 --> 00:32:27,615
Neither is currently ideal.

686
00:32:32,186 --> 00:32:34,254
Hey, can I ask you
something, like,

687
00:32:35,122 --> 00:32:36,658
between us old friends?

688
00:32:36,724 --> 00:32:39,059
You weren't our friend.
You were popular.

689
00:32:39,126 --> 00:32:41,428
-You were a bitch, actually.
-All right. Diego.

690
00:32:43,030 --> 00:32:45,834
That's old shit.
Right, Allison?

691
00:32:45,900 --> 00:32:48,202
We're past that.
We're grown-ups.

692
00:32:48,268 --> 00:32:51,138
Those of us stuck behind
this force field,

693
00:32:51,205 --> 00:32:54,107
- we gotta stick together.
- Yeah.

694
00:32:54,174 --> 00:32:58,278
Um, do you know
where I could get some Oxy?

695
00:32:58,345 --> 00:32:59,914
God damn, girl.

696
00:32:59,980 --> 00:33:02,049
No foreplay. No nothing.

697
00:33:02,115 --> 00:33:05,219
No "How are you?
How's your family?"

698
00:33:05,285 --> 00:33:07,020
No, we don't fuck with pills.

699
00:33:07,755 --> 00:33:08,989
I remember in high school

700
00:33:09,056 --> 00:33:11,091
you were the guys
that could, like,

701
00:33:11,793 --> 00:33:13,093
get anything.

702
00:33:13,160 --> 00:33:15,162
And now you're just
buttering us up.

703
00:33:16,430 --> 00:33:18,465
I don't have any money.

704
00:33:18,533 --> 00:33:21,034
How are you gonna pay
for that tequila?

705
00:33:21,101 --> 00:33:23,571
I hadn't got that far yet.

706
00:33:23,638 --> 00:33:25,740
-Is that Rolex real?
-Wait a second.

707
00:33:26,641 --> 00:33:28,275
Wait. Allie Johnson.

708
00:33:28,342 --> 00:33:31,478
Miss lovely Allie Johnson.

709
00:33:32,379 --> 00:33:34,448
You just stroll in here.

710
00:33:34,516 --> 00:33:36,383
You got no money.

711
00:33:36,450 --> 00:33:38,786
And you expect us
to get you Oxy?

712
00:33:38,853 --> 00:33:41,756
For free, and then you want us
to pay for your drink.

713
00:33:43,190 --> 00:33:44,759
Why the fuck would we do that?

714
00:33:46,126 --> 00:33:47,695
Nostalgia?

715
00:33:48,730 --> 00:33:50,330
Old friends?

716
00:33:50,397 --> 00:33:51,833
You thought you were
such hot shit in high school.

717
00:33:51,900 --> 00:33:52,901
You're no
fucking different now.

718
00:33:52,967 --> 00:33:54,502
All right. Shut up.

719
00:33:54,969 --> 00:33:56,136
Sorry.

720
00:33:56,203 --> 00:33:59,607
This guy. No decorum.

721
00:33:59,674 --> 00:34:00,775
No, he's right.

722
00:34:02,242 --> 00:34:04,746
I didn't think I was better
than you. I knew it.

723
00:34:05,680 --> 00:34:07,515
I looked down
on guys like you.

724
00:34:08,917 --> 00:34:11,586
I thought
you were Jersey trash

725
00:34:11,653 --> 00:34:14,522
that would never be able
to make it out of town.

726
00:34:17,792 --> 00:34:19,192
Fucking bitch.

727
00:34:19,259 --> 00:34:21,295
But now you're sitting here

728
00:34:21,896 --> 00:34:23,363
right beside us

729
00:34:23,430 --> 00:34:26,099
and you're looking for a fix.

730
00:34:26,166 --> 00:34:27,735
A favor.

731
00:34:27,802 --> 00:34:30,170
The favor is a fix.

732
00:34:31,405 --> 00:34:33,575
-You're a fucking junkie now.
-No, I'm not.

733
00:34:33,641 --> 00:34:35,643
-You're a fucking junkie.
-No.

734
00:34:35,710 --> 00:34:37,077
- Yeah, you are.
- Yeah, you are.

735
00:34:37,144 --> 00:34:38,245
Come on.
You're a fuckin' junkie.

736
00:34:38,312 --> 00:34:39,681
No. I'm not like you.

737
00:34:39,747 --> 00:34:41,214
Allie Johnson,

738
00:34:41,281 --> 00:34:43,350
you're so much more
like who you think we are

739
00:34:43,417 --> 00:34:45,218
than we actually are.

740
00:34:46,688 --> 00:34:49,189
Come on.
Say it, say it, say it.

741
00:34:49,256 --> 00:34:51,025
"I'm a fucking junkie."
You might like it.

742
00:34:51,091 --> 00:34:52,627
Fuck you. It's a pill.

743
00:34:52,694 --> 00:34:55,997
It's heroin
in a pretty little dress.

744
00:34:56,064 --> 00:34:57,765
I thought you were
the nice one.

745
00:34:59,067 --> 00:35:01,736
Why don't you say it?
Say... Say,

746
00:35:02,469 --> 00:35:04,739
"I'm a fucking junkie,"

747
00:35:04,806 --> 00:35:07,609
and then I'll get you whatever
you want. Anything.

748
00:35:08,810 --> 00:35:12,212
Say it. Just, like,
just come out with it.

749
00:35:12,279 --> 00:35:13,615
I'm currently reliant...

750
00:35:13,681 --> 00:35:16,784
No, that's not
what I fucking said.

751
00:35:16,851 --> 00:35:19,654
You sneaky little bitch.
That's not what I fucking said.

752
00:35:19,721 --> 00:35:21,089
-Is that what I said?
-No.

753
00:35:21,188 --> 00:35:23,190
That is not what I said.

754
00:35:24,659 --> 00:35:27,227
Say you're a fuckin' junkie.
Look at me.

755
00:35:27,294 --> 00:35:28,596
Look at me!

756
00:35:29,429 --> 00:35:32,232
Look me in the eyes, and say,

757
00:35:32,299 --> 00:35:35,603
"I'm a fucking junkie."

758
00:35:35,670 --> 00:35:37,137
Say it!

759
00:35:41,042 --> 00:35:42,777
I'm a fucking junkie.

760
00:35:46,914 --> 00:35:48,181
Good girl.

761
00:35:50,384 --> 00:35:51,919
Beth, I got these tequilas.

762
00:35:53,186 --> 00:35:55,422
I'm sorry
for raising my voice.

763
00:35:55,489 --> 00:35:56,758
We're just catching up.

764
00:35:57,457 --> 00:35:58,960
Allie, this is Beth.

765
00:35:59,027 --> 00:36:00,995
She's divine. She's the best.

766
00:36:08,335 --> 00:36:09,804
That's not Oxy.

767
00:36:10,605 --> 00:36:11,773
Same shit.

768
00:36:50,745 --> 00:36:52,345
Thank you.
Ooh, she just walked in.

769
00:36:53,480 --> 00:36:54,916
Oh, my God.
I was so worried about you.

770
00:36:54,982 --> 00:36:56,216
Where were you?

771
00:36:56,283 --> 00:36:58,986
-I'm so sorry.
-Oh, babe, oh.

772
00:36:59,053 --> 00:37:00,922
-I'm sorry.
-Uh-huh. No...

773
00:37:00,988 --> 00:37:02,489
I need help.

774
00:37:02,557 --> 00:37:03,858
I know. I never should have

775
00:37:03,925 --> 00:37:05,760
flushed those pills
down the toilet.

776
00:37:05,827 --> 00:37:07,962
I had no right. I'm so sorry.
I was just so worried.

777
00:37:08,029 --> 00:37:09,163
Can you help me, please, Mama?

778
00:37:09,229 --> 00:37:10,965
Yes, yes, I already did.

779
00:37:11,032 --> 00:37:12,800
Here, I got these from Linda.

780
00:37:12,867 --> 00:37:14,502
She's the woman
who works next to me

781
00:37:14,569 --> 00:37:16,236
in the toy kiosk at the mall.

782
00:37:16,303 --> 00:37:17,905
Her doctor gave them to her

783
00:37:17,972 --> 00:37:19,507
after she got punched
in the face by a shoplifter,

784
00:37:19,574 --> 00:37:20,675
but she said
she didn't need them.

785
00:37:20,742 --> 00:37:22,110
She swore by the neck brace.

786
00:37:22,176 --> 00:37:23,678
But you need 'em, honey.
So here.

787
00:37:23,745 --> 00:37:26,413
That right there is a gift
from Linda, okay?

788
00:37:26,480 --> 00:37:28,082
And we can worry
about kicking it later.

789
00:37:28,149 --> 00:37:29,650
Let's not rush things.

790
00:37:29,717 --> 00:37:31,586
What matters the most
is that you're home safe.

791
00:37:31,652 --> 00:37:34,956
Oh, babe.
Oh, my baby.

792
00:37:39,660 --> 00:37:40,828
Hey, Ry?

793
00:37:42,797 --> 00:37:44,699
Got Chinese food!

794
00:37:45,533 --> 00:37:47,802
I got sweet and sour chicken,

795
00:37:47,869 --> 00:37:50,872
beef with broccoli,
steamed rice.

796
00:37:51,438 --> 00:37:52,640
Where are ya?

797
00:37:53,174 --> 00:37:54,609
Hey, Ry?

798
00:37:55,810 --> 00:37:56,944
Ryan!

799
00:37:58,579 --> 00:38:00,748
What the...
Daniel, get out!

800
00:38:00,815 --> 00:38:02,216
Hey. Hey!

801
00:38:02,282 --> 00:38:03,851
Okay. Whoa, whoa! Okay.

802
00:38:03,918 --> 00:38:05,820
Whoa, whoa, whoa. Calm down!
It's not what you think.

803
00:38:05,887 --> 00:38:08,256
I'm pretty sure it is
what I think. How old are you?

804
00:38:08,355 --> 00:38:09,590
Daniel! Get off of him.

805
00:38:09,657 --> 00:38:10,892
Shut up!

806
00:38:10,958 --> 00:38:12,492
I asked you a question, boy.
How old are you?

807
00:38:12,560 --> 00:38:14,629
-I'm 20.
-She's 16, and I'm an ex-cop.

808
00:38:14,695 --> 00:38:16,296
Looks like you picked
the wrong girl.

809
00:38:16,363 --> 00:38:17,464
You're choking him!

810
00:38:17,532 --> 00:38:19,133
She said she was 18 online.

811
00:38:19,200 --> 00:38:21,836
If I ever catch you
near my granddaughter again,

812
00:38:21,903 --> 00:38:23,604
I'm gonna rip
your fucking dick off

813
00:38:23,671 --> 00:38:25,305
and shove it down your throat.
You feel me?

814
00:38:25,372 --> 00:38:27,008
Yes, sir. Yes.

815
00:38:27,074 --> 00:38:28,643
Get the fuck out of here.

816
00:38:28,709 --> 00:38:31,012
Yes, sir.
Uh, I need my clothes.

817
00:38:31,078 --> 00:38:33,948
They're in my house.
They're my clothes now.

818
00:38:34,015 --> 00:38:35,348
Run away!

819
00:38:37,450 --> 00:38:38,553
Daniel!

820
00:38:38,619 --> 00:38:40,755
Get out of my fucking room!

821
00:38:40,822 --> 00:38:42,023
What the fuck?

822
00:38:42,089 --> 00:38:43,791
Hey, look, everybody!

823
00:38:43,858 --> 00:38:46,426
Statutory rapist
from Williamsburg!

824
00:38:46,493 --> 00:38:47,862
I need my keys!

825
00:38:47,929 --> 00:38:50,865
Oh, his keys! His keys!
Look at him!

826
00:38:50,932 --> 00:38:54,367
He's scrambling to his car!
Statutory rapist!

827
00:38:54,434 --> 00:38:55,770
Hey, Belinda,

828
00:38:55,837 --> 00:38:57,939
I found this fool in bed
with my Ryan.

829
00:38:58,005 --> 00:39:00,041
She said...
She said she was 18 online.

830
00:39:00,107 --> 00:39:01,676
You're a fuckboy.

831
00:39:01,742 --> 00:39:03,611
He's a fuckboy! That's what
the kids call them!

832
00:39:03,678 --> 00:39:06,280
Get out of
our neighborhood, fuckboy!

833
00:39:06,346 --> 00:39:07,715
Okay. Okay!

834
00:39:07,782 --> 00:39:08,983
Get out of here, fuckboy!

835
00:39:09,050 --> 00:39:10,051
All right! All right!

836
00:39:10,117 --> 00:39:11,552
Right fucking now!

837
00:39:11,619 --> 00:39:13,353
- Wet, flaccid fuckboy!
- Okay, okay!

838
00:39:13,420 --> 00:39:14,655
Okay!

839
00:39:17,625 --> 00:39:19,627
I cannot believe
you just did that!

840
00:39:19,694 --> 00:39:20,928
Give me your phone.

841
00:39:21,996 --> 00:39:23,998
Give me the fucking phone
right now!

842
00:39:29,036 --> 00:39:30,403
You're grounded.

843
00:39:30,470 --> 00:39:33,608
You hear me?
You're grounded until...

844
00:39:33,674 --> 00:39:36,711
Shit, I can't think of
when you won't be grounded.

845
00:39:36,777 --> 00:39:38,579
You can't just lock me up,
Daniel.

846
00:39:38,646 --> 00:39:41,549
For the last
fucking time, Ryan,

847
00:39:41,616 --> 00:39:43,784
you call me "Grandpa."

848
00:39:46,187 --> 00:39:50,224
I hate you!
I fucking hate you!

849
00:41:05,733 --> 00:41:09,870
<i>♪ Oh, I'm headed</i>
<i>to the mountains ♪</i>

850
00:41:11,806 --> 00:41:15,676
<i>♪ I'll be back</i>
<i>in a week or two ♪</i>

851
00:41:17,044 --> 00:41:19,246
<i>♪ Don't you try to reach me ♪</i>

852
00:41:19,313 --> 00:41:22,550
<i>♪ 'Cause I won't</i>
<i>pick up for you ♪</i>

853
00:41:25,286 --> 00:41:28,255
<i>♪ I've got some things</i>
<i>I neeed to do ♪</i>

854
00:41:43,237 --> 00:41:47,875
<i>♪ Oh, I'm headed</i>
<i>to the mountains ♪</i>

855
00:41:49,410 --> 00:41:52,847
<i>♪ The only place</i>
<i>I feel at peace ♪</i>

856
00:41:55,049 --> 00:41:57,618
<i>♪ And I knew</i>
<i>you'd come after me ♪</i>

857
00:41:57,685 --> 00:41:58,819
<i>♪ So I threw away</i>
<i>your keys... ♪</i>

858
00:42:02,189 --> 00:42:08,362
<i>♪ But I know you'd never go</i>
<i>when I say leave ♪</i>

859
00:42:08,429 --> 00:42:13,734
<i>♪ I'm headed to the mountains</i>
<i>don't wait up for me ♪</i>

860
00:42:23,611 --> 00:42:25,546
Allison, don't go.

861
00:42:26,947 --> 00:42:30,151
-This was a mistake.
-No. No, it isn't.

862
00:42:30,217 --> 00:42:34,155
Trust me, I know
how hard it is to get here.

863
00:42:34,221 --> 00:42:37,124
It's damn near impossible,
and you did it.

864
00:42:37,191 --> 00:42:39,460
Don't run away now
because of me.

865
00:42:39,528 --> 00:42:40,895
There are thousands
of meetings.

866
00:42:40,961 --> 00:42:42,463
-I'll find another one.
-Well, yeah,

867
00:42:42,531 --> 00:42:43,931
but this one
has the best snacks.

868
00:42:43,998 --> 00:42:45,699
-I wanna go.
-No.

869
00:42:45,766 --> 00:42:48,269
No, no. You've made it
this far, and I wouldn't.

870
00:42:48,335 --> 00:42:50,438
I don't wanna be here.

871
00:42:50,505 --> 00:42:51,906
Nobody does in the beginning.

872
00:42:51,972 --> 00:42:54,241
I don't wanna be anywhere.

873
00:42:54,308 --> 00:42:57,178
Then you are definitely
in the right spot.

874
00:42:58,245 --> 00:42:59,747
I thought you were sober.

875
00:43:00,347 --> 00:43:01,916
Ten years.

876
00:43:01,982 --> 00:43:05,453
I kinda slacked off
coming to regular meetings,

877
00:43:05,520 --> 00:43:07,254
and then lately, I...

878
00:43:08,089 --> 00:43:10,291
I realized I need the support.

879
00:43:11,292 --> 00:43:12,460
Because of what happened?

880
00:43:12,527 --> 00:43:15,362
No, no, no! No, it's...

881
00:43:15,429 --> 00:43:17,198
Is the accident the reason
why you came back?

882
00:43:17,264 --> 00:43:18,799
No, I just feel that...

883
00:43:18,866 --> 00:43:20,334
Daniel, am I the reason
why you're back here?

884
00:43:20,401 --> 00:43:21,702
Yes!

885
00:43:25,439 --> 00:43:26,941
Yes, of course.

886
00:43:28,776 --> 00:43:30,377
What the hell
do you want me to say?

887
00:43:31,312 --> 00:43:33,180
-I'm sorry.
-No.

888
00:43:33,247 --> 00:43:34,915
Look.

889
00:43:34,982 --> 00:43:39,286
I got ten years,
and lately, I've been feeling

890
00:43:39,353 --> 00:43:43,124
like I really,
really want a drink.

891
00:43:44,758 --> 00:43:46,260
This works.

892
00:43:48,496 --> 00:43:49,830
Thank you.

893
00:43:49,897 --> 00:43:52,366
Um, I'm gonna find
somewhere else.

894
00:43:52,433 --> 00:43:54,235
There are thousands
of these meetings.

895
00:43:54,301 --> 00:43:57,838
Yeah, but somehow you found
your way to this one.

896
00:43:59,306 --> 00:44:00,841
Now isn't that something?

897
00:44:03,578 --> 00:44:05,246
All right, come on.

898
00:44:09,750 --> 00:44:11,051
Come on.

899
00:44:13,120 --> 00:44:14,155
Okay.

900
00:44:15,624 --> 00:44:17,592
<i>Everybody, welcome.</i>

901
00:44:17,658 --> 00:44:19,260
This is the regular meeting

902
00:44:19,326 --> 00:44:21,762
of the Live and Let Live group
of Alcoholics Anonymous.

903
00:44:21,829 --> 00:44:23,297
My name is Simone,

904
00:44:23,364 --> 00:44:25,833
and I'm an alcoholic,
and your secretary.

905
00:44:25,900 --> 00:44:29,003
Let us open the meeting
with the Serenity Prayer.

906
00:44:31,138 --> 00:44:32,072
God...

907
00:44:32,139 --> 00:44:33,642
...grant me the serenity

908
00:44:33,707 --> 00:44:35,776
to accept the things
I cannot change,

909
00:44:35,843 --> 00:44:38,312
the courage
to change the things I can,

910
00:44:38,379 --> 00:44:41,782
and the wisdom
to know the difference.

911
00:44:47,188 --> 00:44:50,891
Hey, you got up awfully early
this morning.

912
00:44:50,958 --> 00:44:52,893
I went to an NA meeting.

913
00:44:52,960 --> 00:44:55,696
- What? You did?
- Mmm-hmm. Mmm-hmm.

914
00:44:55,763 --> 00:44:59,266
Oh, Allie.
I'm so happy to hear that.

915
00:44:59,333 --> 00:45:01,769
Well, I'm not saying
I'm gonna go again.

916
00:45:01,835 --> 00:45:04,004
Well, you gotta start
somewhere,

917
00:45:04,071 --> 00:45:05,674
and sounds like you did.

918
00:45:05,739 --> 00:45:07,408
-Mm-hmm.
-So that's good.

919
00:45:07,474 --> 00:45:11,812
I don't know if I'll be able
to just quit, though, Mom.

920
00:45:11,879 --> 00:45:13,881
I think I need real help,

921
00:45:13,948 --> 00:45:16,383
like an in-patient program
or something.

922
00:45:16,450 --> 00:45:18,252
Well, honey,
neither of us has insurance,

923
00:45:18,319 --> 00:45:21,021
so how the hell are we
supposed to pay for that?

924
00:45:21,088 --> 00:45:22,691
I mean, you gotta get a job.

925
00:45:22,790 --> 00:45:25,492
Mom, who's gonna hire me
like this?

926
00:45:25,560 --> 00:45:27,596
-Come on.
-Like, no...

927
00:45:27,662 --> 00:45:29,029
What do you mean?

928
00:45:29,096 --> 00:45:30,998
You're a beautiful
26-year-old woman.

929
00:45:31,065 --> 00:45:33,033
-You're smart, you're funny...
-No, I'm not. No, I'm not.

930
00:45:33,100 --> 00:45:34,835
-Yes, you are.
-No, I'm not.

931
00:45:34,902 --> 00:45:36,638
That's the old me
you're describing.

932
00:45:36,705 --> 00:45:37,706
You're still you.

933
00:45:37,771 --> 00:45:40,675
No, I'm not! I'm...

934
00:45:40,741 --> 00:45:43,143
I'm something else.

935
00:45:44,778 --> 00:45:46,113
I'm something...

936
00:45:46,947 --> 00:45:48,782
Ugh. Um...

937
00:45:53,921 --> 00:45:56,156
I was thinking, um...

938
00:45:59,393 --> 00:46:03,097
You know how Dad was probably
gonna get me a wedding gift,

939
00:46:03,163 --> 00:46:05,366
or, well, at least
he was gonna come, right?

940
00:46:05,432 --> 00:46:07,434
Maybe instead
of whatever it was

941
00:46:07,502 --> 00:46:09,336
that he was gonna give me,

942
00:46:10,572 --> 00:46:15,009
maybe he could help pay
for me to get help.

943
00:46:15,075 --> 00:46:17,778
And so, I was wondering if you

944
00:46:18,513 --> 00:46:20,147
would call him for me.

945
00:46:20,214 --> 00:46:23,017
Allie, I will never speak
to that man as long as I live.

946
00:46:23,083 --> 00:46:24,686
Do you know what he did?

947
00:46:24,753 --> 00:46:27,121
He packed his car up,
and he left us with nothing.

948
00:46:27,187 --> 00:46:29,156
But it is what it is, okay?

949
00:46:29,223 --> 00:46:32,960
So, you gotta pull yourself up
by your bootstraps, now.

950
00:46:34,428 --> 00:46:35,829
Thanks, Mom.

951
00:46:35,896 --> 00:46:37,197
Yeah, I'm sorry
I can't get over this

952
00:46:37,264 --> 00:46:39,066
as fast as you want me to.

953
00:46:39,133 --> 00:46:41,001
-Allie...
-Nah.

954
00:46:51,912 --> 00:46:53,814
Well, look who it is.

955
00:46:54,415 --> 00:46:56,450
Hi, Dad.

956
00:46:56,518 --> 00:46:59,788
What brings you to the less
glamorous side of the river?

957
00:46:59,853 --> 00:47:02,089
Ryan asked me to come see her.

958
00:47:02,156 --> 00:47:04,825
Turns out, she really
wanted me to talk to you.

959
00:47:04,892 --> 00:47:07,094
-Oh?
-She's worried about you.

960
00:47:07,161 --> 00:47:09,096
She's worried about me?

961
00:47:09,897 --> 00:47:11,566
That girl's crazy.

962
00:47:11,633 --> 00:47:14,703
She says she thinks
you need a friend.

963
00:47:14,769 --> 00:47:16,303
Hell, I don't need a friend.

964
00:47:16,370 --> 00:47:18,906
I need a dog crate
the size of a teenager.

965
00:47:22,042 --> 00:47:24,111
Look, Nathan,
I understand your need

966
00:47:24,178 --> 00:47:26,313
to move on
after the breakup...

967
00:47:28,650 --> 00:47:29,883
but, hell, I never imagined

968
00:47:29,950 --> 00:47:32,587
I'd be doing this
all by myself.

969
00:47:32,654 --> 00:47:34,121
You raised two kids.

970
00:47:34,188 --> 00:47:35,557
I had your mother.

971
00:47:37,224 --> 00:47:40,127
And you and your sister were
much better behaved than Ry.

972
00:47:42,863 --> 00:47:45,032
What? Come on.
Speak your mind, son.

973
00:47:45,099 --> 00:47:48,202
We were good because
we were terrified of you.

974
00:47:49,771 --> 00:47:51,338
So, I'm not surprised

975
00:47:51,405 --> 00:47:53,040
you don't have any tools
in your arsenal

976
00:47:53,107 --> 00:47:55,275
since you lost
the only one that you had.

977
00:47:55,342 --> 00:47:56,877
Fear.

978
00:47:59,480 --> 00:48:05,352
I have apologized 100 times
to you for the way I was.

979
00:48:07,555 --> 00:48:11,158
Your sister found a way
to give me another chance.

980
00:48:11,225 --> 00:48:12,861
How come you can't?

981
00:48:12,926 --> 00:48:16,263
'Cause Molly never really got
the brunt of it, did she?

982
00:48:16,330 --> 00:48:19,299
I guarantee you that if
she was standing here now,

983
00:48:19,366 --> 00:48:22,002
she would be begging you
to drop this shit,

984
00:48:22,069 --> 00:48:23,638
and help me raise her child.

985
00:48:23,705 --> 00:48:25,305
Well, she isn't.

986
00:48:27,040 --> 00:48:28,610
No, she's not.

987
00:48:32,647 --> 00:48:34,448
I have to catch the train.

988
00:48:35,583 --> 00:48:37,151
I saw Allison.

989
00:48:41,523 --> 00:48:42,590
Where?

990
00:48:42,657 --> 00:48:44,692
Not supposed to say.

991
00:48:45,760 --> 00:48:47,194
AA?

992
00:48:47,261 --> 00:48:48,630
Not supposed to say.

993
00:48:48,696 --> 00:48:50,130
What the hell
does she need AA for?

994
00:48:50,197 --> 00:48:51,699
-I'm not supposed to...
-To say.

995
00:48:54,301 --> 00:48:55,302
I got it.

996
00:48:56,671 --> 00:48:59,139
Of all the meetings,
she ends up at yours?

997
00:48:59,206 --> 00:49:01,776
She saw me,
she tried to run away,

998
00:49:01,843 --> 00:49:03,944
but I pulled her back.

999
00:49:04,011 --> 00:49:05,345
Why?

1000
00:49:06,246 --> 00:49:07,649
She's suffering, Nathan.

1001
00:49:09,116 --> 00:49:10,350
Broken.

1002
00:49:11,051 --> 00:49:12,186
Lost.

1003
00:49:12,252 --> 00:49:14,622
You're the one who blamed her!

1004
00:49:15,723 --> 00:49:17,024
I stood by her!

1005
00:49:17,090 --> 00:49:20,227
Yeah, until she left your ass.

1006
00:49:20,294 --> 00:49:23,832
Sorry. Sorry, that came out
harsher than I meant.

1007
00:49:23,898 --> 00:49:25,867
I have to catch the train.

1008
00:49:25,934 --> 00:49:27,367
Please, Nathan.

1009
00:49:28,035 --> 00:49:30,137
I need help.

1010
00:49:30,204 --> 00:49:33,207
Ryan asked me to come by
and say "hi" to you.

1011
00:49:34,041 --> 00:49:35,442
And I did.

1012
00:49:36,711 --> 00:49:37,712
Okay.

1013
00:49:40,481 --> 00:49:41,549
Hi.

1014
00:50:00,467 --> 00:50:03,370
<i>-Best first date ever.</i>
<i>-I heard that.</i>

1015
00:50:16,985 --> 00:50:20,287
<i>I used to drink</i>
<i>whiskey until I blacked out.</i>

1016
00:50:21,421 --> 00:50:23,691
Wake up the next morning
to find out

1017
00:50:24,626 --> 00:50:27,261
what I had done,
who I had been.

1018
00:50:33,001 --> 00:50:34,802
My father was a drunk.

1019
00:50:37,539 --> 00:50:42,042
He beat me
right up to the day he died.

1020
00:50:44,278 --> 00:50:48,081
And I vowed I would never
lay a hand on my children.

1021
00:50:50,117 --> 00:50:51,586
And I didn't...

1022
00:50:53,621 --> 00:50:55,255
while I was sober.

1023
00:50:57,992 --> 00:50:59,661
But in the blackness...

1024
00:51:03,096 --> 00:51:07,301
I always denied because
I really couldn't remember.

1025
00:51:08,870 --> 00:51:10,738
Sometimes there'd be a bruise.

1026
00:51:12,607 --> 00:51:16,109
"Oh, you must have
fallen down.

1027
00:51:16,176 --> 00:51:18,412
"I'm your daddy.
I would never hurt you."

1028
00:51:19,847 --> 00:51:22,482
August 11th, '99...

1029
00:51:25,520 --> 00:51:30,290
I woke up on my front porch to
the sound of church bells...

1030
00:51:33,027 --> 00:51:34,762
and an ice cream truck.

1031
00:51:35,797 --> 00:51:37,632
So, I knew it was Sunday.

1032
00:51:37,699 --> 00:51:42,235
First thing
I saw was my captain

1033
00:51:43,236 --> 00:51:45,607
standing over me,

1034
00:51:45,673 --> 00:51:48,543
poking me in the ribs
with his nightstick.

1035
00:51:51,779 --> 00:51:53,280
An ambulance.

1036
00:51:54,716 --> 00:51:58,720
My son, Nathan,
sitting in the back,

1037
00:52:00,054 --> 00:52:01,589
bleeding from the head.

1038
00:52:02,724 --> 00:52:05,627
Medics had bought him
a popsicle.

1039
00:52:07,862 --> 00:52:09,764
Turns out that...

1040
00:52:11,766 --> 00:52:13,635
in the blackness...

1041
00:52:17,105 --> 00:52:20,173
I had beat him so bad

1042
00:52:20,240 --> 00:52:23,544
that he lost the hearing
in his right ear.

1043
00:52:23,611 --> 00:52:24,646
Forever.

1044
00:52:25,780 --> 00:52:29,216
And to this day,
every time I see him,

1045
00:52:29,282 --> 00:52:32,854
I beg for his forgiveness.

1046
00:52:34,221 --> 00:52:36,456
It's just a little dance
we do.

1047
00:52:37,692 --> 00:52:39,393
A mere formality.

1048
00:52:41,194 --> 00:52:42,864
Because we both know...

1049
00:52:45,533 --> 00:52:48,368
that there are some things
that are just

1050
00:52:49,871 --> 00:52:51,839
impossible to forgive.

1051
00:52:55,843 --> 00:53:01,248
I do believe
even God knows that.

1052
00:53:08,321 --> 00:53:10,858
When I was a cop,
I used to eat here every day.

1053
00:53:11,826 --> 00:53:13,594
Free coffee refills.

1054
00:53:16,263 --> 00:53:17,464
You hungry?

1055
00:53:19,000 --> 00:53:20,200
No.

1056
00:53:20,802 --> 00:53:21,803
Hmm.

1057
00:53:24,204 --> 00:53:26,574
Funny, the things
we stop caring about.

1058
00:53:28,442 --> 00:53:30,410
I used to want to travel.

1059
00:53:31,713 --> 00:53:34,082
I would leaf through
<i>National Geographic</i>

1060
00:53:34,148 --> 00:53:36,084
and dog-ear
all of the exotic places

1061
00:53:36,150 --> 00:53:38,553
I would visit once I retired.

1062
00:53:41,189 --> 00:53:43,157
Never do that now.

1063
00:53:43,256 --> 00:53:45,960
-You still could.
-No, no. I couldn't.

1064
00:53:50,832 --> 00:53:56,771
I wasn't drunk,
or on anything, by the way.

1065
00:53:57,605 --> 00:53:58,606
What?

1066
00:53:59,841 --> 00:54:02,375
When I saw you the other day
at the meeting,

1067
00:54:03,711 --> 00:54:07,782
I instantly got worried
that you may have thought

1068
00:54:07,849 --> 00:54:10,952
that I was drinking
or on drugs

1069
00:54:11,018 --> 00:54:12,687
on the day of the accident,
and I wasn't.

1070
00:54:12,754 --> 00:54:15,489
I was sober.
It wasn't my fault.

1071
00:54:16,858 --> 00:54:19,259
I have every report
ever written

1072
00:54:19,326 --> 00:54:21,328
committed to memory.

1073
00:54:21,829 --> 00:54:22,897
Right.

1074
00:54:25,166 --> 00:54:26,333
So, you know that it was

1075
00:54:26,399 --> 00:54:27,902
the backhoe guy's fault,
Alvarez.

1076
00:54:27,969 --> 00:54:29,871
I don't wanna get
into that all right now.

1077
00:54:29,937 --> 00:54:31,539
Okay, yeah, you're right.

1078
00:54:36,110 --> 00:54:39,046
Nathan said that he was deaf
since birth.

1079
00:54:40,347 --> 00:54:41,816
He never told you?

1080
00:54:42,950 --> 00:54:45,485
Maybe he wanted me
to like you.

1081
00:54:46,921 --> 00:54:48,656
I doubt that.

1082
00:54:51,993 --> 00:54:56,230
I thought that raising Ryan
would offer me the chance

1083
00:54:56,296 --> 00:54:58,966
to be a better father
than I ever was.

1084
00:54:59,867 --> 00:55:01,434
Shit.

1085
00:55:01,502 --> 00:55:04,404
I'm in way over my head.

1086
00:55:04,471 --> 00:55:07,608
I got one of those audiobooks
from the library.

1087
00:55:07,675 --> 00:55:09,010
<i>How to Talk to a Teen.</i>

1088
00:55:09,076 --> 00:55:10,978
Oh, yeah?

1089
00:55:11,045 --> 00:55:12,513
How's that working out?

1090
00:55:12,580 --> 00:55:15,216
Well, it's from the '80s...

1091
00:55:15,283 --> 00:55:16,684
It's on a cassette.

1092
00:55:16,751 --> 00:55:17,752
Right.

1093
00:55:17,819 --> 00:55:19,486
Its advice is,

1094
00:55:20,555 --> 00:55:22,322
"Chaperone a dance."

1095
00:55:25,927 --> 00:55:28,129
"Chaperone a dance."

1096
00:55:28,196 --> 00:55:29,797
I just caught her having sex

1097
00:55:29,864 --> 00:55:32,499
with a boy
who looked like a man.

1098
00:55:34,602 --> 00:55:36,704
A dance would be delightful.

1099
00:55:37,805 --> 00:55:39,974
Can I give you some advice

1100
00:55:40,775 --> 00:55:42,977
from a former teenage girl?

1101
00:55:44,612 --> 00:55:46,413
She's gonna have sex.

1102
00:55:47,582 --> 00:55:50,718
And nothing you say
is gonna change that.

1103
00:55:52,887 --> 00:55:55,223
Just make sure
she's on birth control.

1104
00:55:55,289 --> 00:55:56,356
-Birth control?
-Yeah.

1105
00:55:56,423 --> 00:55:58,726
She's 16!

1106
00:55:58,793 --> 00:56:01,128
No, we'll be going
the abstinence route.

1107
00:56:02,196 --> 00:56:03,598
No offense, Daniel,

1108
00:56:03,664 --> 00:56:06,499
but, uh, there's a knot
in your logic.

1109
00:56:07,668 --> 00:56:09,003
You're trying to solve
a problem

1110
00:56:09,070 --> 00:56:11,038
by looking
in the other direction.

1111
00:56:14,407 --> 00:56:16,344
I could talk to her
if you want me to.

1112
00:56:16,409 --> 00:56:18,112
Oh, well, no thanks.

1113
00:56:18,179 --> 00:56:19,780
-It's okay. Of course.
-That's not appropriate.

1114
00:56:19,847 --> 00:56:21,349
I don't even know
why I just said that.

1115
00:56:21,414 --> 00:56:22,850
-I'm sorry.
-No, it's okay.

1116
00:56:22,917 --> 00:56:24,151
It's just that
I don't think that it's...

1117
00:56:24,218 --> 00:56:25,853
I just felt the need,

1118
00:56:27,021 --> 00:56:30,358
um, the instinct
to help in some way.

1119
00:56:31,158 --> 00:56:32,793
It's the least I could do.

1120
00:56:40,234 --> 00:56:42,169
I don't know how to do this.

1121
00:56:43,170 --> 00:56:44,138
What?

1122
00:56:44,972 --> 00:56:46,173
Start all over.

1123
00:56:48,009 --> 00:56:49,510
How do you do it?

1124
00:56:50,511 --> 00:56:52,013
Takes work.

1125
00:56:54,815 --> 00:56:57,985
-Can I tell you a secret?
-Sure.

1126
00:57:02,790 --> 00:57:05,159
I'm not sure I have the will.

1127
00:57:27,315 --> 00:57:29,917
What does <i>"amor fati"</i> mean?

1128
00:57:33,654 --> 00:57:35,556
Certain things are private.

1129
00:57:36,489 --> 00:57:38,559
Do you think I'm fucked up?

1130
00:57:39,694 --> 00:57:41,929
Are you high right now?

1131
00:57:43,164 --> 00:57:44,464
No.

1132
00:57:45,599 --> 00:57:47,568
I was a cop for 40 years.

1133
00:57:47,635 --> 00:57:49,570
I was an addict for 50.

1134
00:57:50,771 --> 00:57:53,040
So, I'm gonna ask you again.

1135
00:57:54,208 --> 00:57:55,843
Are you high right now?

1136
00:57:56,644 --> 00:57:58,012
Well, I...

1137
00:57:59,680 --> 00:58:01,382
I broke a pill in half.

1138
00:58:01,449 --> 00:58:02,950
So, half.

1139
00:58:04,618 --> 00:58:07,154
Yes, I think
you're fucked up, Allison.

1140
00:58:10,091 --> 00:58:11,559
Not half.

1141
00:58:12,226 --> 00:58:13,894
All fucked up.

1142
00:58:13,961 --> 00:58:16,063
Do you think
I'll ever pull out of this?

1143
00:58:17,531 --> 00:58:23,170
I mean, like, maybe one day
I might be the kind of person

1144
00:58:24,538 --> 00:58:26,073
that people want
their granddaughter

1145
00:58:26,140 --> 00:58:28,109
to hang out with?

1146
00:58:28,175 --> 00:58:29,910
I have no idea.

1147
00:58:31,545 --> 00:58:32,947
Me neither.

1148
00:58:47,995 --> 00:58:50,965
Can I have
my phone back, please?

1149
00:58:51,032 --> 00:58:54,068
I'm running out of ideas
on how to handle you, Ryan.

1150
00:58:55,069 --> 00:58:56,570
Grandpa,
everybody at my age has sex.

1151
00:58:56,637 --> 00:58:58,239
It's, like, not a big deal.

1152
00:58:58,305 --> 00:59:00,007
I know it was different
when you were younger,

1153
00:59:00,074 --> 00:59:02,877
but that's just, like,
not how it is anymore.

1154
00:59:06,647 --> 00:59:09,116
Well,
let me ask you something.

1155
00:59:15,289 --> 00:59:16,323
Are you...

1156
00:59:18,726 --> 00:59:20,995
Are you using

1157
00:59:21,662 --> 00:59:24,065
any protection?

1158
00:59:24,131 --> 00:59:25,733
Oh, my God!

1159
00:59:25,800 --> 00:59:28,102
I am so not gonna talk about
this with my grandfather.

1160
00:59:28,169 --> 00:59:30,337
How the hell
do you think I feel?

1161
00:59:34,208 --> 00:59:36,777
-I know you're upset.
-I'm not upset.

1162
00:59:36,844 --> 00:59:38,212
Maybe you should go back

1163
00:59:39,080 --> 00:59:40,515
and see that therapist again.

1164
00:59:40,581 --> 00:59:41,982
No. I just

1165
00:59:42,850 --> 00:59:45,586
want my phone back.

1166
00:59:45,653 --> 00:59:48,756
I don't have any friends
at Columbia

1167
00:59:48,823 --> 00:59:51,025
and I want to

1168
00:59:51,092 --> 00:59:53,961
hang onto the few I still have
on Long Beach Island.

1169
00:59:55,029 --> 00:59:56,764
How come
you can't make friends?

1170
00:59:56,831 --> 00:59:58,732
I've been through a lot
this year.

1171
00:59:59,333 --> 01:00:00,334
Hmm.

1172
01:00:01,368 --> 01:00:03,904
And nobody really understands.

1173
01:00:04,872 --> 01:00:07,608
They try. Some, but...

1174
01:00:08,375 --> 01:00:09,844
I mean, it's fake.

1175
01:00:09,910 --> 01:00:11,946
Don't you think
most people are so fake?

1176
01:00:13,080 --> 01:00:15,983
I would probably say
"duplicitous."

1177
01:00:16,784 --> 01:00:18,052
What does that mean?

1178
01:00:18,719 --> 01:00:20,287
Fake.

1179
01:00:23,390 --> 01:00:24,892
I'm on your side.

1180
01:00:26,660 --> 01:00:27,895
I know.

1181
01:00:28,462 --> 01:00:29,897
Tell you what.

1182
01:00:29,964 --> 01:00:32,800
You can have your phone back

1183
01:00:32,867 --> 01:00:36,704
if you promise to start taking
birth control pills.

1184
01:00:36,770 --> 01:00:38,906
Ugh! Oh, my God! Daniel!

1185
01:00:38,973 --> 01:00:40,040
Grandpa!

1186
01:00:42,676 --> 01:00:43,978
Grandpa.

1187
01:00:45,112 --> 01:00:48,215
Is it a deal?
I'll make the appointment.

1188
01:00:49,750 --> 01:00:52,119
Fine. Fine.

1189
01:00:52,186 --> 01:00:53,487
I just

1190
01:00:53,555 --> 01:00:56,790
never want to talk to you
about sex ever again.

1191
01:00:57,791 --> 01:01:00,060
Oh, really?

1192
01:01:00,928 --> 01:01:02,796
'Cause I just love this shit.

1193
01:01:09,336 --> 01:01:11,338
Have you ever been
on campus before?

1194
01:01:11,405 --> 01:01:12,907
Not since I was a kid.

1195
01:01:12,973 --> 01:01:14,643
I used to do swim meets here.

1196
01:01:14,708 --> 01:01:16,177
-Oh, yeah?
-Yeah.

1197
01:01:16,243 --> 01:01:17,878
- You were a swimmer?
- Uh, yeah.

1198
01:01:17,945 --> 01:01:20,281
Well, I was 12, but yeah,
I was pretty good.

1199
01:01:20,347 --> 01:01:22,617
I still have all the trophies
and the ribbons.

1200
01:01:22,683 --> 01:01:24,586
-That's cool.
-Mmm.

1201
01:01:24,653 --> 01:01:27,721
-What stroke?
-Mostly freestyle.

1202
01:01:28,822 --> 01:01:30,224
Why'd you stop?

1203
01:01:30,925 --> 01:01:34,061
Um, my dad left.

1204
01:01:34,128 --> 01:01:36,931
Yeah, it was kinda the thing
that we used to do together.

1205
01:01:36,997 --> 01:01:39,466
He would cheer so loud
I could hear him underwater.

1206
01:01:41,068 --> 01:01:43,003
Seemed kind of pointless
to do it without him.

1207
01:01:44,071 --> 01:01:46,807
-Where'd he go?
-Ohio.

1208
01:01:47,875 --> 01:01:49,511
Started a whole new family
in Ohio.

1209
01:01:49,578 --> 01:01:50,945
Wow.

1210
01:01:51,011 --> 01:01:53,747
He has 10-year-old twins.
Yeah.

1211
01:01:53,814 --> 01:01:55,816
I don't know
if they swim or not, though.

1212
01:01:55,883 --> 01:01:58,252
Oh, man. I am always
just amazed at people

1213
01:01:58,319 --> 01:02:00,921
who can, like, up and leave
their kids like that.

1214
01:02:00,988 --> 01:02:02,223
Mmm.

1215
01:02:02,289 --> 01:02:03,625
I just don't know
how you could,

1216
01:02:03,692 --> 01:02:06,393
like, fucking sleep at night.

1217
01:02:06,460 --> 01:02:10,464
For so long, I thought
that I'd done something wrong.

1218
01:02:10,532 --> 01:02:14,235
Like, it was my fault,
or I'd let him down.

1219
01:02:15,369 --> 01:02:18,038
And then I just realized,

1220
01:02:18,105 --> 01:02:21,475
I don't know, maybe
some people just aren't good.

1221
01:02:21,543 --> 01:02:22,843
Hmm.

1222
01:02:24,044 --> 01:02:26,247
It's kinda like he, like,
restarted a level

1223
01:02:26,313 --> 01:02:28,816
in a video game
with a fresh life.

1224
01:02:28,882 --> 01:02:31,218
That's exactly what he did!

1225
01:02:31,285 --> 01:02:35,222
He packed up the car,
and left his Rolex

1226
01:02:35,289 --> 01:02:37,958
in the attic of my dollhouse,

1227
01:02:38,025 --> 01:02:39,860
and he drove away.

1228
01:02:43,297 --> 01:02:44,666
Hey, let's sit
for a second, okay?

1229
01:02:44,733 --> 01:02:46,367
Yeah, yeah.

1230
01:02:47,901 --> 01:02:51,539
Uh... So, I'll sponsor you.

1231
01:02:51,606 --> 01:02:54,475
-Okay.
-But, um,

1232
01:02:54,542 --> 01:02:56,844
you gotta start
taking this shit seriously.

1233
01:02:58,012 --> 01:03:00,515
You can't keep coming
to meetings high.

1234
01:03:00,582 --> 01:03:02,116
What?

1235
01:03:04,785 --> 01:03:06,521
How did you know?

1236
01:03:07,888 --> 01:03:10,457
Uh, because I was you.

1237
01:03:10,525 --> 01:03:13,794
And I've helped
dozens of women who were you.

1238
01:03:14,962 --> 01:03:18,999
And some beat it,
and some are dead.

1239
01:03:21,670 --> 01:03:23,070
But, you know,

1240
01:03:24,104 --> 01:03:26,307
if you want my time,
you gotta commit.

1241
01:03:26,373 --> 01:03:27,941
Because I have a toddler
so I just

1242
01:03:28,008 --> 01:03:29,511
-don't have time for bullshit.
-Yeah.

1243
01:03:29,577 --> 01:03:32,614
No, I do. I... I...
I really wanna beat it.

1244
01:03:32,681 --> 01:03:35,650
Then I want you to do
90 meetings in 90 days.

1245
01:03:35,717 --> 01:03:37,284
-Wow.
-Yeah.

1246
01:03:37,351 --> 01:03:40,187
And, um, we're gonna
get you started on step one.

1247
01:03:41,255 --> 01:03:42,222
Okay.

1248
01:03:43,424 --> 01:03:44,559
Okay.

1249
01:03:44,626 --> 01:03:48,128
Also, enough hiding out, man.

1250
01:03:48,195 --> 01:03:49,564
It's time you shared
with the group.

1251
01:03:51,633 --> 01:03:53,834
-All right.
-Uh...

1252
01:03:56,136 --> 01:04:02,376
Hi, I'm Allison,
and I'm addicted to, uh,

1253
01:04:03,712 --> 01:04:05,079
pills.

1254
01:04:05,145 --> 01:04:07,414
Hi, Allison.

1255
01:04:07,481 --> 01:04:08,550
Uh...

1256
01:04:09,950 --> 01:04:12,052
Sorry. Can I start again?

1257
01:04:12,119 --> 01:04:14,421
I've never done this before,
and I'm nervous.

1258
01:04:14,488 --> 01:04:15,557
You got it.

1259
01:04:20,094 --> 01:04:25,065
Hi, I'm Allison,
and I'm an addict.

1260
01:04:25,132 --> 01:04:27,234
Hi, Allison.

1261
01:04:30,371 --> 01:04:31,506
I...

1262
01:04:33,708 --> 01:04:34,908
Um...

1263
01:04:37,846 --> 01:04:39,514
I was the driver

1264
01:04:40,881 --> 01:04:42,851
of a car

1265
01:04:42,916 --> 01:04:44,952
that was in
a really bad accident.

1266
01:04:47,955 --> 01:04:49,456
Two people died.

1267
01:04:52,960 --> 01:04:54,395
The woman was...

1268
01:04:57,998 --> 01:05:01,536
The woman was about to be
my sister-in-law.

1269
01:05:05,305 --> 01:05:08,208
We were on our way to try on
my wedding dresses.

1270
01:05:12,514 --> 01:05:13,581
And then we weren't.

1271
01:05:14,982 --> 01:05:16,383
It wasn't my fault.

1272
01:05:17,719 --> 01:05:21,488
I wasn't on drugs or booze,
or drunk, or anything.

1273
01:05:23,558 --> 01:05:24,692
But, uh...

1274
01:05:35,035 --> 01:05:39,039
Surviving that day was, is...

1275
01:05:42,109 --> 01:05:44,011
the most painful thing

1276
01:05:44,077 --> 01:05:46,146
I will ever
have to live through.

1277
01:05:48,382 --> 01:05:51,051
I got hurt, too.

1278
01:05:51,853 --> 01:05:53,621
They put a hole in my head.

1279
01:05:54,656 --> 01:05:56,457
And, um,

1280
01:05:56,524 --> 01:05:58,225
that helped because
at least I had something

1281
01:05:58,292 --> 01:05:59,727
I could blame the pain on.

1282
01:06:02,329 --> 01:06:03,731
But then that healed...

1283
01:06:06,634 --> 01:06:08,202
and I was still hurting.

1284
01:06:09,970 --> 01:06:11,138
And I guess that's why
I didn't realize

1285
01:06:11,205 --> 01:06:13,140
how bad it was because to me...

1286
01:06:15,710 --> 01:06:17,211
I was still in so much pain.

1287
01:06:27,287 --> 01:06:30,457
I was, um, prescribed them
for physical pain,

1288
01:06:30,525 --> 01:06:32,993
and they really helped
with that. They really did.

1289
01:06:37,130 --> 01:06:39,734
But they made me numb.
Blissfully numb.

1290
01:06:45,205 --> 01:06:47,107
Without them I want to die.

1291
01:06:48,408 --> 01:06:50,310
Every day.

1292
01:06:53,715 --> 01:06:56,718
I've never said that
out loud before.

1293
01:06:59,888 --> 01:07:01,021
Um...

1294
01:07:02,624 --> 01:07:05,660
I've never really faced
reality without them.

1295
01:07:08,028 --> 01:07:10,097
And I don't know if I'll be
able to handle what I see,

1296
01:07:10,163 --> 01:07:13,601
but I'm here to try.

1297
01:07:18,238 --> 01:07:19,741
Okay. That's it.

1298
01:07:21,141 --> 01:07:23,578
That's it.

1299
01:07:27,180 --> 01:07:28,516
What happens now?

1300
01:07:44,766 --> 01:07:46,133
You made all of this?

1301
01:07:47,334 --> 01:07:51,039
Uh, I assembled it
and designed it.

1302
01:07:51,104 --> 01:07:52,840
Yeah.

1303
01:07:52,907 --> 01:07:56,578
You see,
the houses come as a kit.

1304
01:07:56,644 --> 01:07:59,547
You just assemble them
and paint them...

1305
01:07:59,614 --> 01:08:02,349
Schoolhouse,
I built from scratch.

1306
01:08:06,486 --> 01:08:09,991
Hey, there are two kids
making out back here.

1307
01:08:10,058 --> 01:08:11,693
That's me.

1308
01:08:12,627 --> 01:08:14,696
You were handsome.

1309
01:08:15,128 --> 01:08:16,296
And tiny.

1310
01:08:17,497 --> 01:08:21,435
Yeah, my very first kiss
behind the schoolhouse.

1311
01:08:22,971 --> 01:08:24,539
Olivia Williams.

1312
01:08:26,239 --> 01:08:28,743
It was fall.
Tip of her nose was cold.

1313
01:08:30,044 --> 01:08:31,746
Little runny.

1314
01:08:31,813 --> 01:08:35,382
She stood on tiptoe.
Tasted like bubble gum.

1315
01:08:36,350 --> 01:08:37,284
Is that
who you married?

1316
01:08:37,351 --> 01:08:39,286
No! No, no.

1317
01:08:39,353 --> 01:08:43,156
No, she dumped me the next day
for Charlie Cook.

1318
01:08:43,223 --> 01:08:46,393
-Oh.
-He smoked Camels.

1319
01:08:46,460 --> 01:08:50,098
And drove
a Buick Riviera Roadmaster.

1320
01:08:50,163 --> 01:08:52,466
So, is this all inspired
by your life?

1321
01:08:53,101 --> 01:08:54,301
Kinda.

1322
01:08:55,268 --> 01:08:57,170
Supposed to be South Orange.

1323
01:08:58,238 --> 01:08:59,473
I grew up here.

1324
01:09:00,842 --> 01:09:02,543
I was a cop in Newark.

1325
01:09:03,377 --> 01:09:04,846
I've always lived here.

1326
01:09:07,015 --> 01:09:08,215
Who's the soldier?

1327
01:09:08,883 --> 01:09:10,150
That's me.

1328
01:09:10,217 --> 01:09:12,654
Day I got home from Vietnam.

1329
01:09:13,855 --> 01:09:16,289
That other little figure there
is my father.

1330
01:09:16,356 --> 01:09:19,627
He came down to the station
to pick me up.

1331
01:09:19,694 --> 01:09:21,796
-This is incredible.
-Mm.

1332
01:09:23,263 --> 01:09:25,033
How long did it take you?

1333
01:09:25,099 --> 01:09:27,035
Years.

1334
01:09:27,101 --> 01:09:29,403
I started
with a single figure-eight

1335
01:09:30,071 --> 01:09:31,906
and a two-car train.

1336
01:09:32,774 --> 01:09:34,474
I work on it when I can.

1337
01:09:35,576 --> 01:09:37,545
Got more time
now that I've retired.

1338
01:09:38,311 --> 01:09:40,180
My wife passed.

1339
01:09:40,247 --> 01:09:42,650
Ryan used to hang out with me
down here.

1340
01:09:43,818 --> 01:09:46,788
She liked the whistle
and the microphone.

1341
01:09:46,854 --> 01:09:48,089
There's a microphone?

1342
01:09:48,156 --> 01:09:49,590
Right over there.

1343
01:09:49,657 --> 01:09:51,125
How else you gonna tell
your passengers

1344
01:09:51,191 --> 01:09:52,894
that the train's coming?

1345
01:10:09,077 --> 01:10:12,113
♪ <i>Take the last train</i>
<i>to Clarksville ♪</i>

1346
01:10:12,180 --> 01:10:15,348
♪ <i>And I'll meet you</i>
<i>at the station ♪</i>

1347
01:10:15,415 --> 01:10:18,052
♪ <i>You can be there by 4:30 ♪</i>

1348
01:10:18,119 --> 01:10:20,320
♪ <i>'Cause I booked</i>
<i>your reservation♪</i>

1349
01:10:20,387 --> 01:10:22,190
♪ <i>Don't be slow ♪</i>

1350
01:10:22,255 --> 01:10:24,291
♪ <i>Oh no no no♪</i>

1351
01:10:24,357 --> 01:10:26,594
♪ <i>Oh no no no ♪</i>

1352
01:10:26,661 --> 01:10:28,863
♪ <i>And I don't know</i>
<i>if I'm ever♪</i>

1353
01:10:28,930 --> 01:10:30,832
♪ <i>Coming home ♪</i>

1354
01:10:32,432 --> 01:10:34,468
That was just a little
serenade for your people

1355
01:10:34,535 --> 01:10:36,170
from the heavens above.

1356
01:10:36,236 --> 01:10:39,306
Think that's one of the
reasons I enjoy it so much.

1357
01:10:39,372 --> 01:10:41,843
Why?
'Cause you get to play God?

1358
01:10:41,909 --> 01:10:45,780
Well, so much of my life
has been outta control.

1359
01:10:47,915 --> 01:10:49,817
Down here,

1360
01:10:49,884 --> 01:10:52,987
I get to decide
if Olivia chooses me.

1361
01:10:54,722 --> 01:10:56,724
I get to decide
if my father comes

1362
01:10:56,791 --> 01:10:59,426
to pick me up at the station
when I get home.

1363
01:11:00,327 --> 01:11:01,729
Did he?

1364
01:11:01,796 --> 01:11:02,830
No.

1365
01:11:04,832 --> 01:11:07,935
He was passed out drunk
in our backyard.

1366
01:11:10,505 --> 01:11:13,406
He'd lain face down so long,

1367
01:11:14,542 --> 01:11:17,344
an inch of snow had gathered
on his back.

1368
01:11:21,015 --> 01:11:23,851
Next morning at breakfast,
he offered me a beer,

1369
01:11:25,385 --> 01:11:26,621
so...

1370
01:11:27,989 --> 01:11:30,558
I had a beer with him
at breakfast,

1371
01:11:32,660 --> 01:11:34,327
and I never stopped.

1372
01:11:39,466 --> 01:11:41,536
When did you last talk
to Nathan?

1373
01:11:46,073 --> 01:11:47,809
Daniel, this is God.

1374
01:11:47,875 --> 01:11:51,444
Allison would like you to
change the conversation now.

1375
01:11:52,613 --> 01:11:54,549
I'll bet she would.

1376
01:11:54,615 --> 01:11:57,317
All right.
Let's get outta here.

1377
01:12:08,596 --> 01:12:09,964
Ryan?

1378
01:12:10,031 --> 01:12:12,033
It's only one o'clock.
Why are you home?

1379
01:12:12,099 --> 01:12:14,635
We had a half-day
for the active shooter drill.

1380
01:12:14,702 --> 01:12:16,771
I told you this morning.

1381
01:12:16,838 --> 01:12:20,041
Well, this is a friend of mine
from the program.

1382
01:12:20,107 --> 01:12:21,042
Hi.

1383
01:12:22,243 --> 01:12:23,744
Hi.

1384
01:12:23,811 --> 01:12:25,813
-You should probably get going.
-Yeah. Yeah.

1385
01:12:25,880 --> 01:12:27,515
I'm gonna go.

1386
01:12:27,582 --> 01:12:30,017
Wait, I know you
from somewhere.

1387
01:12:30,084 --> 01:12:31,118
No, you don't.

1388
01:12:31,786 --> 01:12:32,520
You do?

1389
01:12:32,587 --> 01:12:34,222
How do I know you?

1390
01:12:34,288 --> 01:12:36,123
Uh... My... I'm...

1391
01:12:36,190 --> 01:12:37,490
I'm Allison.

1392
01:12:37,558 --> 01:12:39,293
Yeah, I've seen you before.

1393
01:12:39,392 --> 01:12:41,262
I thought you said the active
shooter drill ended at 2:00.

1394
01:12:41,329 --> 01:12:43,631
Yeah, that's when the pretend
shooter fights back.

1395
01:12:43,698 --> 01:12:45,867
Today, he shot himself,
so we got out early.

1396
01:12:47,367 --> 01:12:48,703
Why do I know you?

1397
01:12:48,769 --> 01:12:50,271
I'm not sure
what I'm supposed to say.

1398
01:12:50,338 --> 01:12:52,372
-You were Nathan's fiancee.
-No.

1399
01:12:52,439 --> 01:12:53,875
-You were in the car.
-No.

1400
01:12:53,941 --> 01:12:56,310
-I was, yeah.
-Weren't you driving?

1401
01:12:56,376 --> 01:12:57,511
Wasn't she driving?

1402
01:12:57,578 --> 01:12:59,213
We're in the program together.

1403
01:12:59,280 --> 01:13:00,915
-But I thought you said
it was her fault.
-What?

1404
01:13:00,982 --> 01:13:03,217
How could you bring her
into our house?

1405
01:13:03,284 --> 01:13:04,652
Get out of our fucking house!

1406
01:13:04,719 --> 01:13:06,587
- Okay. It's okay.
- I'm sorry. I...

1407
01:13:06,654 --> 01:13:09,357
I'm so sorry.
I thought you were in school.

1408
01:13:09,422 --> 01:13:10,925
You ruined my fucking life!

1409
01:13:10,992 --> 01:13:13,895
I know, I know, I know.
I'm... I'm really sorry.

1410
01:13:13,961 --> 01:13:17,365
You shouldn't
be here! This is our house!

1411
01:13:17,430 --> 01:13:18,833
My mom grew up in here!

1412
01:13:18,900 --> 01:13:20,735
I sleep in her bedroom.
I use her sheets!

1413
01:13:20,801 --> 01:13:22,770
All right. All right.
She's leaving.

1414
01:13:22,837 --> 01:13:24,939
Uh, just in case
this is the last time

1415
01:13:25,006 --> 01:13:27,474
I ever get to talk to you,
please know,

1416
01:13:29,043 --> 01:13:31,646
I also wish it was me.

1417
01:13:32,313 --> 01:13:33,714
Okay? I do.

1418
01:13:34,916 --> 01:13:36,150
I'm gonna go.

1419
01:13:36,217 --> 01:13:38,052
I never got to say goodbye.

1420
01:13:39,220 --> 01:13:41,989
I know.

1421
01:13:45,226 --> 01:13:48,663
They were going to see a play.

1422
01:13:54,168 --> 01:13:55,503
I know.

1423
01:13:56,804 --> 01:13:58,406
She wanted to see a musical,

1424
01:13:58,471 --> 01:14:00,841
because she loved
all the fancy costumes.

1425
01:14:05,713 --> 01:14:07,114
I didn't know that.

1426
01:14:07,181 --> 01:14:10,051
She said you made Nate
really happy.

1427
01:14:10,117 --> 01:14:12,485
That you were the best thing
that ever happened to him.

1428
01:14:13,554 --> 01:14:15,156
He made me happy, too.

1429
01:14:19,860 --> 01:14:22,096
Okay, I'm gonna go.

1430
01:14:22,897 --> 01:14:24,231
Allison.

1431
01:14:27,034 --> 01:14:28,035
Yeah.

1432
01:14:29,203 --> 01:14:30,938
Would you like to stay
for dinner?

1433
01:14:31,839 --> 01:14:33,040
What?

1434
01:14:34,842 --> 01:14:35,776
Uh...

1435
01:14:45,553 --> 01:14:48,990
So, you're an alcoholic, too?

1436
01:14:49,056 --> 01:14:50,257
Ryan.

1437
01:14:50,324 --> 01:14:51,592
Uh, no.

1438
01:14:52,760 --> 01:14:55,495
Alcohol's not exactly
my problem.

1439
01:14:55,563 --> 01:14:57,398
What is? Meth?

1440
01:14:57,465 --> 01:14:58,632
Ryan.

1441
01:14:58,699 --> 01:15:02,003
No. Not meth. Um...

1442
01:15:04,872 --> 01:15:07,141
Prescription painkillers.

1443
01:15:07,942 --> 01:15:08,843
Oxy.

1444
01:15:08,909 --> 01:15:10,578
How do you know about Oxy?

1445
01:15:10,644 --> 01:15:12,346
Kids at my school snort it.

1446
01:15:12,413 --> 01:15:13,447
It's heroin!

1447
01:15:13,514 --> 01:15:14,982
No, it's not.

1448
01:15:15,049 --> 01:15:16,250
I could get it easier
than I could get a beer.

1449
01:15:16,317 --> 01:15:17,718
They sell it at Rite Aid.

1450
01:15:19,787 --> 01:15:20,955
-So why'd you dump Uncle Nate?
-Ryan.

1451
01:15:21,022 --> 01:15:22,490
He said you ghosted him.

1452
01:15:22,556 --> 01:15:23,724
It's not your business.

1453
01:15:23,791 --> 01:15:26,660
I just don't understand how

1454
01:15:26,727 --> 01:15:28,462
if he was gonna stay with you,

1455
01:15:28,529 --> 01:15:30,531
even after
everything that happened,

1456
01:15:30,598 --> 01:15:31,766
why'd you dump him?

1457
01:15:33,034 --> 01:15:34,201
I was upset.

1458
01:15:38,239 --> 01:15:39,807
And so I ran.

1459
01:15:39,874 --> 01:15:41,575
- Like you, quitting soccer.
- Shut up!

1460
01:15:41,642 --> 01:15:43,444
You don't say
"shut up" to me!

1461
01:15:43,512 --> 01:15:44,912
Ever again!

1462
01:15:47,648 --> 01:15:49,483
Why'd you quit soccer?

1463
01:15:49,550 --> 01:15:51,018
-She got into a fight.
-'Cause I hate every girl
on the team.

1464
01:15:51,085 --> 01:15:52,086
Oh.

1465
01:15:53,454 --> 01:15:55,890
Your parents were telling me
how amazing you were.

1466
01:15:57,124 --> 01:15:58,893
- They were?
- Mm-hmm.

1467
01:15:58,959 --> 01:16:00,895
Your dad actually was saying

1468
01:16:00,961 --> 01:16:03,030
how you were definitely
gonna get a scholarship.

1469
01:16:04,732 --> 01:16:06,567
I wanna go to Stanford.

1470
01:16:08,702 --> 01:16:10,271
Why are you laughing?

1471
01:16:12,139 --> 01:16:15,876
You quit the team,
you're mouthing off in school,

1472
01:16:15,943 --> 01:16:17,378
and you're not doing
your homework.

1473
01:16:17,445 --> 01:16:18,979
You're gonna get into Stanford?

1474
01:16:19,046 --> 01:16:20,714
I didn't say
I quit the team permanently.

1475
01:16:20,781 --> 01:16:22,683
I said I wanted
to take a break.

1476
01:16:22,750 --> 01:16:24,251
And I had a 4.0 down the shore.

1477
01:16:24,318 --> 01:16:26,287
I could get it back
in a second if I cared.

1478
01:16:26,353 --> 01:16:27,522
Why don't you care?

1479
01:16:27,588 --> 01:16:28,722
Why, do you think?

1480
01:16:30,091 --> 01:16:31,659
- Shit.
- Okay.

1481
01:16:31,725 --> 01:16:33,094
Why don't we just
call it a night, okay?

1482
01:16:33,160 --> 01:16:34,261
Yeah,
I'm gonna go home.

1483
01:16:39,100 --> 01:16:40,367
Hey, um...

1484
01:16:43,771 --> 01:16:47,007
Um, just in case you,
I don't know,

1485
01:16:48,776 --> 01:16:50,311
wanna talk, need to talk...

1486
01:16:51,679 --> 01:16:53,013
This is me.

1487
01:16:53,080 --> 01:16:54,982
And it's up to you,
but I'm here.

1488
01:16:56,217 --> 01:16:57,318
Okay.

1489
01:17:01,655 --> 01:17:03,424
I'm sorry
about all that.

1490
01:17:03,491 --> 01:17:04,825
Uh, it's fine.

1491
01:17:06,494 --> 01:17:08,329
You see what I'm dealing with.

1492
01:17:08,395 --> 01:17:09,997
Honestly, it's okay.

1493
01:17:10,898 --> 01:17:12,266
Look.

1494
01:17:13,367 --> 01:17:15,302
She's a very fragile kid.

1495
01:17:16,605 --> 01:17:20,941
So, I'd appreciate it
if you didn't contact her.

1496
01:17:22,676 --> 01:17:23,911
Oh.

1497
01:17:24,411 --> 01:17:25,412
Okay.

1498
01:17:26,847 --> 01:17:29,083
Yeah, I just...

1499
01:17:29,150 --> 01:17:32,286
I just wanted her
to know that I was available

1500
01:17:32,353 --> 01:17:34,855
if she wanted to talk
or anything.

1501
01:17:34,922 --> 01:17:37,191
I'm just asking if you will

1502
01:17:37,958 --> 01:17:39,760
please just let her be.

1503
01:17:40,427 --> 01:17:41,829
Scout's honor.

1504
01:17:41,896 --> 01:17:44,498
No, that's Spock's
"Live long and prosper."

1505
01:17:44,566 --> 01:17:46,200
We Boy Scouts do this.

1506
01:17:46,267 --> 01:17:48,335
Oh. I prefer Spock.

1507
01:17:49,170 --> 01:17:51,038
Live long and prosper, Daniel.

1508
01:17:51,105 --> 01:17:52,339
- Good night.
- Thank you.

1509
01:18:08,289 --> 01:18:09,290
Mmm.

1510
01:19:45,687 --> 01:19:47,689
Go, baby! Go, go, go!

1511
01:19:47,756 --> 01:19:49,056
Come on,
come on, come on.

1512
01:19:49,123 --> 01:19:50,491
Come on!
Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes!

1513
01:19:50,558 --> 01:19:52,359
Yeah!

1514
01:19:52,426 --> 01:19:53,528
Attagirl!

1515
01:19:54,529 --> 01:19:56,130
Attagirl!

1516
01:20:00,502 --> 01:20:01,802
Thank you.

1517
01:20:43,578 --> 01:20:45,245
<i>Why do you ride</i>
<i>your bike everywhere?</i>

1518
01:20:45,747 --> 01:20:46,980
Um...

1519
01:20:48,182 --> 01:20:50,384
I haven't been in a car
since the accident.

1520
01:20:51,118 --> 01:20:52,886
'Cause you feel guilty?

1521
01:20:55,255 --> 01:20:56,357
Uh, no.

1522
01:20:57,091 --> 01:21:00,361
Because I feel... scared.

1523
01:21:00,427 --> 01:21:02,196
Daniel says
you were using your phone.

1524
01:21:04,231 --> 01:21:06,367
Uh, I was using Maps.

1525
01:21:07,602 --> 01:21:08,969
Everyone uses Maps.

1526
01:21:09,036 --> 01:21:10,538
Yeah, well,
he has all the reports.

1527
01:21:10,605 --> 01:21:11,972
He's memorized them.

1528
01:21:13,107 --> 01:21:15,008
He stares at them at night.
It's weird.

1529
01:21:15,075 --> 01:21:18,011
Okay, well, I was there.

1530
01:21:18,078 --> 01:21:22,650
And the person who wrote
those reports wasn't, so...

1531
01:21:22,717 --> 01:21:25,185
Tell me
why you ended it with Nate.

1532
01:21:25,252 --> 01:21:27,321
My mom would want you guys
to be together still.

1533
01:21:28,556 --> 01:21:30,558
Ryan, I don't even know
what to say to that.

1534
01:21:31,358 --> 01:21:33,494
My mom used to really, um...

1535
01:21:35,496 --> 01:21:38,633
just, like, look out for him
and stuff, you know? Um...

1536
01:21:39,601 --> 01:21:40,635
And...

1537
01:21:42,035 --> 01:21:44,905
I've been thinking
maybe now I'm supposed to.

1538
01:21:45,607 --> 01:21:46,940
Because she can't.

1539
01:21:48,175 --> 01:21:50,545
I bet that would make her
really proud.

1540
01:21:50,612 --> 01:21:52,179
I could tell you
about what's happening

1541
01:21:52,246 --> 01:21:53,180
-with him if you want.
-No, that's okay.

1542
01:21:53,247 --> 01:21:54,783
Thank you, though.

1543
01:21:54,849 --> 01:21:56,016
I've tried really hard
to avoid all of that...

1544
01:21:56,083 --> 01:21:56,950
He moved to Tribeca.

1545
01:21:57,017 --> 01:21:58,185
Wow.

1546
01:21:59,052 --> 01:22:00,988
Yeah. He has a dog.

1547
01:22:01,054 --> 01:22:02,690
-A dog?
-Mm-hmm.

1548
01:22:02,757 --> 01:22:05,292
A French Bulldog named Jasper.

1549
01:22:05,359 --> 01:22:07,161
He never really struck me
as a Frenchie type,

1550
01:22:07,227 --> 01:22:09,029
but okay.

1551
01:22:09,096 --> 01:22:10,464
It's his girlfriend's.

1552
01:22:14,935 --> 01:22:16,170
Oh.

1553
01:22:17,070 --> 01:22:18,338
Yeah.

1554
01:22:19,507 --> 01:22:22,009
I... I don't need to hear this.

1555
01:22:22,976 --> 01:22:24,679
-Are you okay?
-Mm-hmm.

1556
01:22:26,447 --> 01:22:28,550
How long have they been
going out?

1557
01:22:28,616 --> 01:22:31,686
I don't know.
Like, four months, I think.

1558
01:22:32,520 --> 01:22:33,487
Wow.

1559
01:22:33,555 --> 01:22:36,724
Yeah. She's a paralegal.

1560
01:22:37,792 --> 01:22:38,893
I don't even know what that is.

1561
01:22:38,959 --> 01:22:40,695
Is that, like, a good thing?

1562
01:22:41,930 --> 01:22:43,631
Yeah. Wow.

1563
01:22:43,698 --> 01:22:45,934
-You just keep saying, "Wow."
-Yeah.

1564
01:22:45,999 --> 01:22:47,502
It's just a lot to take in.

1565
01:22:49,336 --> 01:22:50,471
Um...

1566
01:22:50,538 --> 01:22:53,140
I'm really happy for him. I am.

1567
01:22:53,207 --> 01:22:55,075
He really deserves to be happy.

1568
01:22:55,743 --> 01:22:57,377
I...

1569
01:22:57,444 --> 01:22:59,179
-I shouldn't have told you.
-No, no, no. It's fine.

1570
01:22:59,246 --> 01:23:01,248
But you're upset.

1571
01:23:01,315 --> 01:23:03,518
We went through
so much together.

1572
01:23:05,452 --> 01:23:08,756
I really want good things
to happen to him.

1573
01:23:09,657 --> 01:23:11,091
I'm really sorry

1574
01:23:11,158 --> 01:23:12,527
- I made you upset.
- It's okay.

1575
01:23:12,594 --> 01:23:13,928
-I'm gonna go to the bathroom.
-I really

1576
01:23:14,027 --> 01:23:15,162
meant for this to be friendly.

1577
01:23:15,229 --> 01:23:16,764
Yeah. I'll see you in a second.

1578
01:24:07,982 --> 01:24:09,316
Hey.

1579
01:24:09,383 --> 01:24:10,785
Is something wrong?

1580
01:24:10,852 --> 01:24:13,186
I, um... I forgot
I have a job interview.

1581
01:24:13,253 --> 01:24:15,957
So, I'm gonna go.

1582
01:24:16,024 --> 01:24:17,424
You sick?

1583
01:24:18,125 --> 01:24:19,293
Yeah.

1584
01:24:19,359 --> 01:24:21,194
-Withdrawal?
-I'm trying.

1585
01:24:21,261 --> 01:24:23,297
All right. Look, don't stop.

1586
01:24:24,032 --> 01:24:25,232
-Okay?
-Okay.

1587
01:24:26,701 --> 01:24:27,669
Don't use.

1588
01:24:29,469 --> 01:24:30,605
Okay.

1589
01:24:30,672 --> 01:24:32,072
Don't stay home tonight.
Do something.

1590
01:24:32,139 --> 01:24:34,074
-Okay. Okay.
-All right? Okay.

1591
01:24:35,075 --> 01:24:36,209
You need a hug?

1592
01:24:37,679 --> 01:24:38,880
Um, if I hug you,

1593
01:24:38,947 --> 01:24:40,682
I'm gonna sob, so no.

1594
01:24:40,748 --> 01:24:42,349
Well, I can handle that.

1595
01:24:42,416 --> 01:24:44,151
No, I shouldn't. Not in front
of Ryan.

1596
01:24:44,217 --> 01:24:45,587
Okay.

1597
01:24:45,653 --> 01:24:47,689
Well, I'm hugging you
with my eyes.

1598
01:24:48,221 --> 01:24:49,356
Thank you.

1599
01:24:50,223 --> 01:24:51,726
-Be careful.
-Okay.

1600
01:24:55,663 --> 01:24:58,666
I have to go.
So, I'll see you another time.

1601
01:24:59,099 --> 01:25:00,233
Bye.

1602
01:25:02,202 --> 01:25:03,504
Fuck me.

1603
01:25:03,905 --> 01:25:04,839
Hey.

1604
01:25:05,472 --> 01:25:06,574
Let's go.

1605
01:25:06,641 --> 01:25:07,976
This asshole
charged me six buck

1606
01:25:08,042 --> 01:25:09,176
for a cup of coffee. Come on.

1607
01:25:11,045 --> 01:25:13,313
Okay.

1608
01:25:13,380 --> 01:25:16,651
<i>♪ It starts so early now ♪</i>

1609
01:25:16,718 --> 01:25:20,454
<i>♪ The sun has gone</i>
<i>to Birkenau ♪</i>

1610
01:25:20,521 --> 01:25:24,157
<i>♪ As shadows creep</i>
<i>across your brow ♪</i>

1611
01:25:24,224 --> 01:25:26,661
<i>♪ I love you just the same ♪</i>

1612
01:25:28,096 --> 01:25:29,363
Fuck!

1613
01:25:29,429 --> 01:25:31,065
<i>♪ These freakish holidays ♪</i>

1614
01:25:31,131 --> 01:25:35,003
<i>♪ That make us act</i>
<i>like renegades ♪</i>

1615
01:25:35,069 --> 01:25:38,673
<i>♪ A blood bath</i>
<i>at the Ice Capades ♪</i>

1616
01:25:38,740 --> 01:25:40,908
<i>♪ Just makes me love you ♪</i>

1617
01:25:40,975 --> 01:25:46,981
<i>♪ More than I should ever</i>
<i>have been allowed ♪</i>

1618
01:25:47,048 --> 01:25:49,951
<i>♪ In a world of candy guns ♪</i>

1619
01:25:50,018 --> 01:25:55,556
<i>♪ Sweet as demons</i>
<i>in the candy apple sun ♪</i>

1620
01:25:55,623 --> 01:26:01,663
<i>♪ Think it quiet but then</i>
<i>don't sing it loud ♪</i>

1621
01:26:01,729 --> 01:26:04,732
<i>♪ Through a world</i>
<i>of number ones ♪</i>

1622
01:26:04,799 --> 01:26:07,835
<i>♪ Pointed skyward at the... ♪</i>

1623
01:26:07,902 --> 01:26:08,936
Look at me!

1624
01:26:12,740 --> 01:26:15,175
<i>♪ ...here like Buffalo ♪</i>

1625
01:26:15,242 --> 01:26:18,478
<i>♪ Now it feels like Bamako ♪</i>

1626
01:26:18,546 --> 01:26:21,916
<i>♪ I love you seven ways ♪</i>

1627
01:26:23,250 --> 01:26:26,253
<i>♪ You wear those baby tees ♪</i>

1628
01:26:28,122 --> 01:26:29,791
<i>Allie!</i>

1629
01:26:29,857 --> 01:26:32,459
<i>Allie!</i>

1630
01:26:33,861 --> 01:26:34,896
Allie?

1631
01:26:34,962 --> 01:26:36,731
Did you job hunt today?

1632
01:26:40,835 --> 01:26:42,369
Please leave me alone.

1633
01:26:43,104 --> 01:26:45,205
I was looking on Etsy.

1634
01:26:45,272 --> 01:26:47,274
And I was thinking
it would be so cute

1635
01:26:47,340 --> 01:26:49,177
if we found, like,
a craft that we like.

1636
01:26:49,242 --> 01:26:51,546
And maybe we could
make a little money.
What do you think?

1637
01:27:07,962 --> 01:27:09,697
I was thinking
it'd be so cute

1638
01:27:09,764 --> 01:27:11,566
if it was like something fun
that we could sell.

1639
01:27:11,632 --> 01:27:15,235
Like little bibs for babies
that catch their food,

1640
01:27:15,302 --> 01:27:17,905
or salad dressing.

1641
01:27:17,972 --> 01:27:20,174
Or you know, just...

1642
01:27:21,943 --> 01:27:23,144
And you know what?

1643
01:27:23,211 --> 01:27:24,979
We could be on <i>Shark Tank!</i>

1644
01:27:25,046 --> 01:27:26,881
Can you imagine, Allie?

1645
01:27:26,948 --> 01:27:28,348
And I know you're like,

1646
01:27:28,415 --> 01:27:30,317
"Oh, shut up, Mom!
You're drunk again."

1647
01:27:30,383 --> 01:27:31,652
But listen...

1648
01:27:42,029 --> 01:27:44,198
Ooh, I just thought
of the best idea!

1649
01:27:44,264 --> 01:27:47,434
We could do, um, papier-mache!

1650
01:27:48,069 --> 01:27:49,469
Papier-mache!

1651
01:27:49,537 --> 01:27:51,271
So it would be like,

1652
01:27:51,338 --> 01:27:53,040
do a little dance,
a little song.

1653
01:27:53,107 --> 01:27:55,009
"Hey, Sharks! You know how
everybody likes papier-mache."

1654
01:27:55,076 --> 01:27:58,546
I would be like,
"Hey, Sharks! Hey, Sharks!"

1655
01:27:58,613 --> 01:28:00,948
Hey, Sharks! Oh... Sharks!"

1656
01:28:01,015 --> 01:28:03,483
Wait, that's too hard.
We'll be like,

1657
01:28:03,551 --> 01:28:07,320
"I'm Diane.
This is my associate, Allison.

1658
01:28:07,387 --> 01:28:12,660
"And this is our... whatever!"
You know...

1659
01:28:13,728 --> 01:28:15,428
You weak piece
of fucking shit.

1660
01:28:15,495 --> 01:28:17,698
You couldn't make it go
two days.

1661
01:28:18,900 --> 01:28:20,501
I fucking hate you.

1662
01:28:21,169 --> 01:28:24,272
I hate you so much.

1663
01:28:24,337 --> 01:28:27,307
Allie, do you remember
when you were in fourth grade,

1664
01:28:27,374 --> 01:28:29,677
you made
that giant mitochondria?

1665
01:28:29,744 --> 01:28:34,649
That's something that
would sell, I promise you.

1666
01:28:34,715 --> 01:28:37,350
We could be like,
"Hey, Sharks!"

1667
01:28:37,417 --> 01:28:39,954
We got them for you!
Papier-mache!"

1668
01:28:40,021 --> 01:28:43,490
You know, like all the...

1669
01:28:50,832 --> 01:28:53,835
I knew you would like
that idea! I knew it!

1670
01:30:21,222 --> 01:30:22,189
Yes!

1671
01:30:24,258 --> 01:30:25,860
You're on the wrong side.

1672
01:30:26,493 --> 01:30:28,596
What? No, I'm not.

1673
01:30:31,498 --> 01:30:33,100
Oh.

1674
01:30:33,167 --> 01:30:34,502
Well, good thing you came!

1675
01:30:34,568 --> 01:30:35,903
Oh, my God!

1676
01:30:36,504 --> 01:30:37,571
Get over here.

1677
01:30:37,638 --> 01:30:39,206
Whoo! Party!

1678
01:30:57,825 --> 01:30:59,627
-Hello, Diane!
-Oh, hey!

1679
01:30:59,694 --> 01:31:01,696
I don't know

1680
01:31:01,762 --> 01:31:04,131
how much Allison has told you.

1681
01:31:05,266 --> 01:31:07,068
But we've been going
to the same program.

1682
01:31:07,134 --> 01:31:09,603
Oh, yeah, she said.
She told me, yeah.

1683
01:31:10,338 --> 01:31:11,739
My granddaughter, Ryan,

1684
01:31:11,806 --> 01:31:14,508
has taken an interest
in Allison and,

1685
01:31:14,575 --> 01:31:16,344
well, now I can't find her.

1686
01:31:16,410 --> 01:31:19,213
So I just thought I'd drop by
and see if she might be here.

1687
01:31:20,448 --> 01:31:21,782
I tried texting them,

1688
01:31:21,849 --> 01:31:25,286
but, you know,
they all go green.

1689
01:31:25,353 --> 01:31:26,287
Do you know what that means?

1690
01:31:26,354 --> 01:31:27,755
I have no idea.

1691
01:31:27,822 --> 01:31:29,657
I hate when that happens,
when they go...

1692
01:31:29,724 --> 01:31:31,258
It's all green

1693
01:31:31,325 --> 01:31:33,027
and you don't know
if it's sent. It's so weird.

1694
01:31:33,094 --> 01:31:34,929
- Right. Right. Right.
- Drives me crazy.

1695
01:31:34,996 --> 01:31:36,297
You'll have to let me know
if you figure that out.

1696
01:31:38,366 --> 01:31:40,067
I'm not tech-y.

1697
01:31:40,134 --> 01:31:43,170
But I actually tonight was
trying to find Allison myself.

1698
01:31:43,237 --> 01:31:45,673
But do you really think
they're together tonight?

1699
01:31:47,108 --> 01:31:49,210
Both missing
at the same time. It...

1700
01:31:50,411 --> 01:31:51,946
seems a little curious.

1701
01:31:52,013 --> 01:31:54,081
Seems like
no matter how old they get,

1702
01:31:54,148 --> 01:31:56,550
-you never stop worrying.
-Yeah.

1703
01:31:56,617 --> 01:31:58,119
But they always seem
to turn up.

1704
01:31:59,520 --> 01:32:00,888
Not always.

1705
01:32:02,590 --> 01:32:03,958
Yeah.

1706
01:32:04,025 --> 01:32:06,761
Well, can you let me know
if you find them?

1707
01:32:06,827 --> 01:32:08,629
-I will.
-Great.

1708
01:32:10,431 --> 01:32:11,565
Thank you.

1709
01:32:12,233 --> 01:32:13,567
What's that?

1710
01:32:13,634 --> 01:32:14,869
Oh, I was just... I...

1711
01:32:14,935 --> 01:32:16,837
I was just saying
thank you so much

1712
01:32:16,904 --> 01:32:19,073
for being so kind to Allison.

1713
01:32:19,140 --> 01:32:22,309
She said you've always been
so warm to her and you know,

1714
01:32:22,376 --> 01:32:25,813
I... just wanted to say thanks,
'cause, you know,

1715
01:32:25,880 --> 01:32:29,383
like, some people
wouldn't be like that, so...

1716
01:32:29,450 --> 01:32:33,387
Well, we're all just trying
to move on, I suppose.

1717
01:32:33,454 --> 01:32:34,822
Yeah.

1718
01:32:34,889 --> 01:32:36,123
I don't think
Allie and I are doing

1719
01:32:36,190 --> 01:32:37,792
a very good job of that,
Daniel.

1720
01:32:38,893 --> 01:32:40,361
You know what they say.

1721
01:32:40,428 --> 01:32:41,996
What?

1722
01:32:42,063 --> 01:32:44,765
"Comparison
is the thief of joy."

1723
01:32:44,832 --> 01:32:47,268
Oh. I didn't know
they said that.

1724
01:32:48,636 --> 01:32:49,870
Well...

1725
01:32:50,805 --> 01:32:52,206
somebody did.

1726
01:32:52,273 --> 01:32:54,208
Yeah.

1727
01:32:55,609 --> 01:32:57,244
Well, I best be going then.

1728
01:32:57,311 --> 01:32:58,612
Oh, yeah, of course.

1729
01:32:58,679 --> 01:33:00,147
- Night.
- Good night.

1730
01:33:14,061 --> 01:33:16,831
♪ <i>Stare into space♪</i>

1731
01:33:17,998 --> 01:33:19,800
♪ <i>Out in the blue ♪</i>

1732
01:33:19,867 --> 01:33:21,335
Oh, my God, there he is!

1733
01:33:21,402 --> 01:33:23,170
Look at him! Isn't he so hot?

1734
01:33:24,772 --> 01:33:26,607
Is that a face tattoo?

1735
01:33:26,674 --> 01:33:28,943
-Yeah!
-Oh, my God!

1736
01:33:29,710 --> 01:33:31,879
I love this song!

1737
01:33:31,946 --> 01:33:33,314
Quinn sent it to me
in a playlist.

1738
01:33:33,380 --> 01:33:36,016
He, like, knows so much
about music.

1739
01:33:38,052 --> 01:33:39,120
Thank you.

1740
01:33:40,020 --> 01:33:41,655
For getting me to come.

1741
01:33:42,323 --> 01:33:43,390
Yeah.

1742
01:33:44,625 --> 01:33:47,761
♪ <i>You're the only thing♪</i>

1743
01:33:47,828 --> 01:33:49,363
That's the guitarist, Thomas.

1744
01:33:49,430 --> 01:33:52,099
He's staring right at you!

1745
01:33:52,166 --> 01:33:54,603
Oh, stop.
No, I'm okay. I'm fine.

1746
01:33:54,668 --> 01:33:56,170
I know, you can do
so much better.

1747
01:33:56,237 --> 01:33:57,606
- What? No.
- But he is fucking hot.

1748
01:33:59,406 --> 01:34:03,644
Uh... Okay, I, um...
I gotta go get someone in.

1749
01:34:03,711 --> 01:34:04,879
But I'll be right back.

1750
01:34:04,945 --> 01:34:06,447
-Should I come with you?
-No.

1751
01:34:06,515 --> 01:34:07,882
-Are you sure?
-No, I'll be right back. Yeah.

1752
01:34:07,948 --> 01:34:09,984
♪ <i>Take a photo♪</i>

1753
01:34:11,352 --> 01:34:13,654
♪ <i>Make it real♪</i>

1754
01:34:15,456 --> 01:34:17,691
♪ <i>You're the stardust♪</i>

1755
01:34:23,430 --> 01:34:26,700
♪ <i>Stardust♪</i>

1756
01:34:26,767 --> 01:34:30,070
♪ <i>Lighting the fields♪</i>

1757
01:34:31,640 --> 01:34:34,175
♪ <i>Caught in a state♪</i>

1758
01:34:35,544 --> 01:34:38,212
♪ <i>Watching it fall♪</i>

1759
01:34:39,079 --> 01:34:41,982
♪ <i>Aquarius bloom♪</i>

1760
01:34:43,083 --> 01:34:45,920
♪ <i>Just bought a car♪</i>

1761
01:34:51,725 --> 01:34:53,327
Surprise!

1762
01:34:55,229 --> 01:34:56,730
Nathan?

1763
01:34:57,632 --> 01:34:59,200
- Hi!
- Hi!

1764
01:35:00,367 --> 01:35:01,603
Ryan?

1765
01:35:01,670 --> 01:35:03,404
-What?
-Hi!

1766
01:35:04,539 --> 01:35:06,307
Uh, sorry.

1767
01:35:06,373 --> 01:35:09,910
Allie, uh,
this is my girlfriend, Joelle.

1768
01:35:10,911 --> 01:35:13,047
Hi. I'm sorry. Um...

1769
01:35:13,648 --> 01:35:14,782
Nice to meet you.

1770
01:35:14,848 --> 01:35:16,350
I've heard so much about you.

1771
01:35:17,251 --> 01:35:18,285
Oh.

1772
01:35:19,486 --> 01:35:20,487
Okay.

1773
01:35:20,555 --> 01:35:21,855
I think we're the victims

1774
01:35:21,922 --> 01:35:24,191
of a teenage girl's
good intentions.

1775
01:35:24,258 --> 01:35:25,993
- What?
- I said...

1776
01:35:26,060 --> 01:35:28,862
I said I think
she meant well. Ryan.

1777
01:35:31,131 --> 01:35:32,967
I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go.

1778
01:35:33,033 --> 01:35:34,068
- Are you good?
- I'm fine.

1779
01:35:34,134 --> 01:35:35,537
I'm fine. I'm gonna go.

1780
01:35:35,604 --> 01:35:36,870
Allie!

1781
01:35:40,341 --> 01:35:41,742
Ryan.

1782
01:35:41,809 --> 01:35:43,911
What the fuck
did you just do that for?

1783
01:35:45,112 --> 01:35:46,914
No offense, but you weren't
supposed to come.

1784
01:35:46,981 --> 01:35:49,016
I know being a paralegal
is a good job,

1785
01:35:49,083 --> 01:35:50,685
but he's supposed
to be with Allie.

1786
01:35:50,751 --> 01:35:53,020
- I'm sorry.
- Ryan?

1787
01:35:53,087 --> 01:35:54,955
What the fuck did you just do?

1788
01:35:55,690 --> 01:35:57,258
I'm fixing it.

1789
01:35:57,324 --> 01:35:58,792
For Mom.

1790
01:35:58,859 --> 01:36:01,328
Go find her
and then I'm taking you home.

1791
01:36:04,832 --> 01:36:06,333
I am so sorry.

1792
01:36:06,967 --> 01:36:08,703
Serious... This...

1793
01:36:08,769 --> 01:36:10,004
-It's fine. It's okay.
-Yeah?

1794
01:36:10,070 --> 01:36:11,405
-Yeah. Yeah.
-You good?

1795
01:36:11,472 --> 01:36:12,707
I'm fine. I need a drink.

1796
01:36:12,773 --> 01:36:13,807
-But I'm fine.
-Yes.

1797
01:36:13,874 --> 01:36:15,276
Oh, fuck!

1798
01:36:19,947 --> 01:36:21,415
You guys
have been great,

1799
01:36:21,482 --> 01:36:22,449
thank you so much!

1800
01:36:22,517 --> 01:36:23,851
Allie!

1801
01:36:23,917 --> 01:36:26,086
Why the fuck
did you just do that?

1802
01:36:26,153 --> 01:36:28,122
I thought it was gonna
make you happy.

1803
01:36:28,188 --> 01:36:31,158
You thought
that would make me happy?

1804
01:36:31,225 --> 01:36:32,960
- Yeah!
- Are you insane?

1805
01:36:33,027 --> 01:36:35,095
Hi! Can I please get, um...
Hey, I'm sorry.

1806
01:36:35,162 --> 01:36:37,865
Could I just get a glass
of tequila, please?

1807
01:36:37,931 --> 01:36:39,433
Fuck, I can't breathe.

1808
01:36:39,501 --> 01:36:40,801
-Ryan, I can't fucking breathe!
-Calm down.

1809
01:36:40,868 --> 01:36:42,202
Calm down, okay? I'm sorry.

1810
01:36:42,269 --> 01:36:44,305
You fucking did that
on purpose!

1811
01:36:44,371 --> 01:36:45,939
You did that to hurt me, right?

1812
01:36:46,006 --> 01:36:47,509
Is that what you did?
Yeah, you did.

1813
01:36:47,575 --> 01:36:49,476
-Just admit it. Yes, you did!
-No, I didn't!

1814
01:36:49,544 --> 01:36:50,878
-You did that
on fucking purpose!
-No, I didn't!

1815
01:36:50,944 --> 01:36:53,414
You killed, baby! You killed!

1816
01:36:53,480 --> 01:36:55,983
- That was incredible, man!
- Hi! Hi!

1817
01:36:56,050 --> 01:36:58,385
I'm Quinn's friend, Ryan.

1818
01:36:58,452 --> 01:37:00,087
You guys sounded so good!

1819
01:37:00,154 --> 01:37:01,955
You're gonna be so famous!

1820
01:37:02,022 --> 01:37:04,526
I know. I really have to savor
my anonymity.

1821
01:37:04,592 --> 01:37:08,495
Hey, we're gonna go to this
party over in Williamsburg.

1822
01:37:08,563 --> 01:37:10,164
You guys wanna come?

1823
01:37:11,432 --> 01:37:13,434
Fuck, yeah, whatever.
Let's go!

1824
01:37:13,501 --> 01:37:14,602
I need to get outta here.

1825
01:37:20,841 --> 01:37:22,644
Do you have the time?

1826
01:37:22,711 --> 01:37:24,546
Yeah.

1827
01:37:28,048 --> 01:37:30,117
Hey, Danny. Everything okay?

1828
01:37:30,184 --> 01:37:33,921
I can't find Ryan.
I've tried everything.

1829
01:37:33,987 --> 01:37:37,891
Anyway, my mind
can't help but wonder if...

1830
01:37:37,958 --> 01:37:40,094
Well, if you've seen Allison
or not.

1831
01:37:40,160 --> 01:37:43,297
Uh, no, I haven't, but I can
text her if you want.

1832
01:37:43,364 --> 01:37:44,833
Well, I've tried texting
both of them,

1833
01:37:44,898 --> 01:37:46,333
but neither one is answering.

1834
01:37:46,400 --> 01:37:47,502
What's wrong?

1835
01:37:47,569 --> 01:37:49,303
Daniel can't find
his granddaughter.

1836
01:37:49,370 --> 01:37:51,171
Um, well, if he pays for
the phone, he can just log

1837
01:37:51,238 --> 01:37:52,940
into the account,
and use Find My Phone.

1838
01:37:53,006 --> 01:37:55,209
Yeah. Daniel, do you know
what Find My Phone is?

1839
01:37:55,275 --> 01:37:56,811
No, what the hell is that?

1840
01:37:58,713 --> 01:38:01,115
This is amazing!

1841
01:38:01,750 --> 01:38:05,520
Whoa!

1842
01:38:27,908 --> 01:38:29,109
Fuck!

1843
01:38:30,411 --> 01:38:33,848
Allie, this is Jarvis. He has
the stuff you asked for.

1844
01:38:33,914 --> 01:38:35,282
Hey!

1845
01:38:35,349 --> 01:38:36,917
I don't have any thirties,
just dope.

1846
01:38:36,984 --> 01:38:40,120
Uh, yeah, okay.
Yeah, whatever you have.

1847
01:38:41,756 --> 01:38:43,390
Can you spot me?

1848
01:38:43,457 --> 01:38:45,593
-I'll pay you back, I promise.
-Uh, okay, all right.

1849
01:38:52,466 --> 01:38:53,467
Thanks.

1850
01:39:01,341 --> 01:39:03,210
It's coming. Look like!

1851
01:39:06,480 --> 01:39:07,314
Yeah, here it is.

1852
01:39:07,381 --> 01:39:08,583
Okay, what does it say?

1853
01:39:16,390 --> 01:39:19,326
The whole room is spinning.

1854
01:39:21,094 --> 01:39:22,697
Oh, that's my phone.

1855
01:39:23,932 --> 01:39:25,332
Don't worry about it.

1856
01:39:27,034 --> 01:39:29,771
Can we just stop for a second?

1857
01:39:29,838 --> 01:39:31,071
Where is my phone?

1858
01:39:33,207 --> 01:39:35,075
I think I'm gonna throw up.

1859
01:39:37,812 --> 01:39:39,246
What the fuck!

1860
01:39:40,314 --> 01:39:42,684
She's in the fucking city!

1861
01:39:42,750 --> 01:39:44,686
She's in fucking Williamsburg!

1862
01:39:44,752 --> 01:39:46,754
Okay, Daniel, wait.
I'm gonna come pick you up.

1863
01:39:46,821 --> 01:39:48,923
I don't want you to do
something you're gonna regret.

1864
01:39:48,989 --> 01:39:50,758
I'm gonna kill
that motherfucker.

1865
01:39:50,825 --> 01:39:52,560
Yeah, that's exactly what I'm
worried about. I'm on my way.

1866
01:40:06,139 --> 01:40:08,543
Okay. Easy does it.

1867
01:40:08,610 --> 01:40:10,545
-You're wasted.
-No, I'm not.

1868
01:40:13,380 --> 01:40:14,414
Ryan?

1869
01:40:38,973 --> 01:40:40,340
Ryan?

1870
01:40:44,311 --> 01:40:46,079
Ryan, are you in there?

1871
01:40:46,146 --> 01:40:48,550
She's fine.
Go the fuck away!

1872
01:40:48,616 --> 01:40:49,951
Ryan?

1873
01:40:58,091 --> 01:40:59,326
Ryan?

1874
01:41:00,494 --> 01:41:03,096
Can you just
open the door, please?

1875
01:41:05,132 --> 01:41:06,099
Ryan.

1876
01:41:06,166 --> 01:41:07,334
Go away!

1877
01:41:07,401 --> 01:41:09,436
Allison? Where's Ryan?

1878
01:41:09,504 --> 01:41:11,039
What're you doing here?

1879
01:41:11,104 --> 01:41:13,240
Where the fuck is Ryan?

1880
01:41:13,307 --> 01:41:15,475
She's in here. I'm trying to...
She won't answer.

1881
01:41:15,543 --> 01:41:16,778
Ryan!

1882
01:41:17,745 --> 01:41:18,780
Ryan?

1883
01:41:20,147 --> 01:41:22,115
It's your grandpa,
open the door.

1884
01:41:23,083 --> 01:41:24,619
Open the door, baby.

1885
01:41:24,686 --> 01:41:26,119
Fuck off!

1886
01:41:28,188 --> 01:41:30,024
- What the fuck!
- Ryan!

1887
01:41:30,090 --> 01:41:32,527
You again!
Get the fuck up!

1888
01:41:32,594 --> 01:41:34,127
-Danny, no, no, no.
-Oh, my God!

1889
01:41:34,194 --> 01:41:35,763
-Don't do that!
-Nothing happened.

1890
01:41:35,830 --> 01:41:37,999
Tell me why I shouldn't
kill you, motherfucker?

1891
01:41:38,066 --> 01:41:39,534
We were just making out.

1892
01:41:39,601 --> 01:41:40,735
You hurt my baby.

1893
01:41:43,270 --> 01:41:45,006
Now, I'm gonna hurt you.

1894
01:41:45,073 --> 01:41:46,574
- No, no, no, no, no.
- Danny!

1895
01:41:47,542 --> 01:41:48,475
Dad!

1896
01:41:48,876 --> 01:41:50,545
No!

1897
01:41:50,612 --> 01:41:53,180
The hell you're doing here?
This is family business.

1898
01:41:53,246 --> 01:41:54,716
Don't do this.

1899
01:41:54,782 --> 01:41:56,684
Go on back
to your new life, Nate.

1900
01:41:56,751 --> 01:41:58,385
Put the gun down,
please.

1901
01:41:58,452 --> 01:41:59,887
Please, please!

1902
01:41:59,954 --> 01:42:01,221
He's not worth it.

1903
01:42:01,288 --> 01:42:03,625
I got nothing left to lose.

1904
01:42:03,691 --> 01:42:04,892
You got me!

1905
01:42:06,193 --> 01:42:07,461
You got Ryan!

1906
01:42:08,096 --> 01:42:09,396
We need you!

1907
01:42:09,463 --> 01:42:11,799
You do this, it's over!

1908
01:42:14,134 --> 01:42:15,570
We get no more time.

1909
01:42:15,637 --> 01:42:17,905
Danny,
put the gun down.

1910
01:42:20,074 --> 01:42:21,274
Please.

1911
01:42:28,315 --> 01:42:29,517
Oh, my...

1912
01:42:31,019 --> 01:42:32,252
That's my niece.

1913
01:42:32,954 --> 01:42:34,354
She's 16 years old.

1914
01:42:36,524 --> 01:42:37,592
Oh, my God! All right,
we gotta get out of here.

1915
01:42:37,659 --> 01:42:38,726
Hey, Ryan, baby?

1916
01:42:38,793 --> 01:42:40,460
-Please get up.
-My fucking nose!

1917
01:42:40,528 --> 01:42:43,196
- Get over here!
- My fucking nose!

1918
01:42:56,376 --> 01:42:57,945
The fuck is the matter
with you?

1919
01:42:58,012 --> 01:42:59,312
I was trying to protect her!

1920
01:42:59,379 --> 01:43:00,648
- Protect her?
- Yeah!

1921
01:43:00,715 --> 01:43:03,051
I told you to stay away
from her!

1922
01:43:03,117 --> 01:43:04,552
Who the fuck are you

1923
01:43:04,619 --> 01:43:05,953
to be talking
about protecting somebody?

1924
01:43:06,020 --> 01:43:07,354
-You're a mess.
-Dad!

1925
01:43:07,421 --> 01:43:09,891
I was... I was trying to help.

1926
01:43:09,957 --> 01:43:11,559
I was... I was trying to...

1927
01:43:12,426 --> 01:43:13,528
I was trying to make it right.

1928
01:43:13,594 --> 01:43:15,295
Let me tell you something.

1929
01:43:15,997 --> 01:43:17,431
You will never ever

1930
01:43:17,497 --> 01:43:19,667
be able to fix the things
you've done to me.

1931
01:43:20,802 --> 01:43:21,869
You hear me?

1932
01:43:22,537 --> 01:43:24,204
I want my life back.

1933
01:43:24,271 --> 01:43:25,640
I want my child back.

1934
01:43:26,507 --> 01:43:29,443
My baby, my... Molly.

1935
01:43:30,511 --> 01:43:32,113
You took my baby away from me!

1936
01:43:32,180 --> 01:43:33,380
Dad! Enough.

1937
01:43:33,447 --> 01:43:34,849
Nah, it's okay.

1938
01:43:36,651 --> 01:43:37,652
Say it.

1939
01:43:38,986 --> 01:43:40,555
Shit, I wanted to hate you.

1940
01:43:41,856 --> 01:43:43,256
But I stopped myself.

1941
01:43:45,560 --> 01:43:48,963
And when you walked into
that meeting, I thought...

1942
01:43:49,964 --> 01:43:52,200
This is God testing me.

1943
01:43:52,265 --> 01:43:56,504
This is proof of a higher power

1944
01:43:56,571 --> 01:43:58,906
testing me in this church.

1945
01:44:00,474 --> 01:44:01,976
Trying to see
if he could break me.

1946
01:44:03,044 --> 01:44:04,377
But I'll show him.

1947
01:44:06,914 --> 01:44:08,248
I'm unbreakable.

1948
01:44:09,483 --> 01:44:11,552
I will offer my hand

1949
01:44:12,120 --> 01:44:13,788
to this sorry

1950
01:44:14,622 --> 01:44:18,159
little fucking pill-junkie.

1951
01:44:18,226 --> 01:44:21,729
All I asked you to do
was stay away from this child.

1952
01:44:23,131 --> 01:44:24,364
Now look at her.

1953
01:44:25,432 --> 01:44:26,834
She got no mother.

1954
01:44:28,970 --> 01:44:29,971
No father.

1955
01:44:31,806 --> 01:44:34,008
And how many years
can I have left?

1956
01:44:36,309 --> 01:44:38,780
What a fucking waste you are.

1957
01:44:39,213 --> 01:44:40,380
Dad!

1958
01:44:40,447 --> 01:44:43,017
What a fucking waste of a soul.

1959
01:44:45,086 --> 01:44:46,486
Of a chance.

1960
01:44:46,554 --> 01:44:48,556
Danny, enough.
You've said your piece.

1961
01:44:48,623 --> 01:44:50,725
This isn't
how it was supposed to be.

1962
01:44:52,527 --> 01:44:53,895
I'm a good person.

1963
01:44:55,663 --> 01:44:57,999
I never said
God has to be fair.

1964
01:44:58,666 --> 01:44:59,934
I just never thought

1965
01:45:01,434 --> 01:45:02,870
he could be this cruel.

1966
01:45:06,339 --> 01:45:07,809
Taxi!

1967
01:45:07,875 --> 01:45:09,143
Hold on, Danny,
let me take you home.

1968
01:45:09,210 --> 01:45:10,477
No.

1969
01:45:10,545 --> 01:45:13,014
I'll go with him.
Hey! Hey, Ryan!

1970
01:45:13,080 --> 01:45:15,783
Come on, wake up.
We're taking you home.

1971
01:45:29,030 --> 01:45:30,865
You drank!

1972
01:45:30,932 --> 01:45:35,335
You turned your map app
back on at 17:36:22.

1973
01:45:36,403 --> 01:45:39,674
Impact was at 17:36:24.

1974
01:45:40,942 --> 01:45:45,046
Skid marks show you lost
30 feet before you swerved.

1975
01:45:46,180 --> 01:45:48,816
You didn't have time to stop

1976
01:45:48,883 --> 01:45:51,919
because you were looking at
your fucking phone, Allison.

1977
01:45:53,353 --> 01:45:54,956
Stop blaming Alvarez.

1978
01:45:56,324 --> 01:45:58,491
They're dead because of you.

1979
01:46:17,612 --> 01:46:19,580
All right. All right.
It's all right.

1980
01:46:19,647 --> 01:46:21,048
Come here. Come here.

1981
01:46:22,617 --> 01:46:24,952
It's all right. Okay.

1982
01:46:27,855 --> 01:46:29,389
<i>No, that can't go</i>
<i>over there.</i>

1983
01:46:29,456 --> 01:46:31,058
That can't...

1984
01:46:31,893 --> 01:46:34,128
That can't... That can't go...

1985
01:47:30,151 --> 01:47:31,585
Good morning.

1986
01:47:32,153 --> 01:47:33,521
Good morning.

1987
01:47:34,588 --> 01:47:36,223
I made a house.

1988
01:47:38,458 --> 01:47:39,927
Do you have a headache?

1989
01:47:42,363 --> 01:47:43,564
Yeah.

1990
01:47:49,303 --> 01:47:50,671
Hey.

1991
01:47:50,738 --> 01:47:52,940
Can I, uh, sell this, please?

1992
01:48:02,283 --> 01:48:03,584
I'll give you $12,500.

1993
01:48:04,719 --> 01:48:06,220
Yeah. Yeah, okay. Thank you.

1994
01:48:07,021 --> 01:48:08,189
It is a beauty.

1995
01:48:12,159 --> 01:48:15,596
♪ <i>I woke up today♪</i>

1996
01:48:16,964 --> 01:48:20,167
♪ <i>At least that much is true ♪</i>

1997
01:48:23,804 --> 01:48:27,141
♪ <i>I saw what people see ♪</i>

1998
01:48:28,909 --> 01:48:33,114
♪ <i>What a year this made of me ♪</i>

1999
01:48:40,021 --> 01:48:44,125
♪ <i>I tried a hundred times ♪</i>

2000
01:48:44,191 --> 01:48:48,996
♪ <i>But each time</i>
<i>I thought of you ♪</i>

2001
01:48:50,564 --> 01:48:51,866
Thank you.

2002
01:48:52,600 --> 01:48:54,568
♪ <i>I hate myself ♪</i>

2003
01:48:54,635 --> 01:48:56,904
♪ <i>I hate myself ♪</i>

2004
01:48:57,772 --> 01:49:01,642
♪ <i>I fuckin' hate myself ♪</i>

2005
01:49:08,416 --> 01:49:13,087
♪ <i>And I ♪</i>

2006
01:49:14,755 --> 01:49:18,859
♪ <i>I want days of pain♪</i>

2007
01:49:21,362 --> 01:49:24,533
♪ <i>Oh, to feel♪</i>

2008
01:49:24,598 --> 01:49:28,936
♪ <i>The things I need♪</i>

2009
01:49:33,441 --> 01:49:35,776
♪ <i>To pay off this shame♪</i>

2010
01:49:35,843 --> 01:49:39,713
♪ <i>And I know</i>
<i>that makes me broken♪</i>

2011
01:49:39,780 --> 01:49:44,018
♪ <i>I know that makes me weak♪</i>

2012
01:49:46,053 --> 01:49:50,691
♪ <i>I guess I'll put</i>
<i>my armor back on now♪</i>

2013
01:49:51,892 --> 01:49:54,829
♪ <i>I found a way♪</i>

2014
01:49:54,895 --> 01:49:57,965
♪ <i>But I turned around♪</i>

2015
01:50:00,101 --> 01:50:02,837
♪ <i>One step to start♪</i>

2016
01:50:02,903 --> 01:50:07,942
♪ <i>But I'd rather fall down♪</i>

2017
01:50:10,644 --> 01:50:13,582
♪ <i>Too much of a coward♪</i>

2018
01:50:13,647 --> 01:50:16,750
♪ <i>To just say I'm wrong♪</i>

2019
01:50:16,817 --> 01:50:18,853
Grandpa, you are not
gonna believe this.

2020
01:50:18,919 --> 01:50:20,287
One of the girls on the team

2021
01:50:20,354 --> 01:50:21,822
invited me to a party
this weekend.

2022
01:50:22,256 --> 01:50:23,290
You?

2023
01:50:23,357 --> 01:50:24,859
Yes, me!

2024
01:50:28,462 --> 01:50:32,399
♪ <i>Help me, please♪</i>

2025
01:50:33,868 --> 01:50:37,705
♪ <i>Try to fix yourself♪</i>

2026
01:50:37,771 --> 01:50:40,808
♪ <i>That's all they said to me♪</i>

2027
01:50:49,483 --> 01:50:52,786
♪ <i>Try to fix myself♪</i>

2028
01:50:53,988 --> 01:50:57,224
♪ <i>To know how hard</i>
<i>that would be♪</i>

2029
01:51:07,434 --> 01:51:08,369
Hi.

2030
01:51:10,539 --> 01:51:11,739
Hi.

2031
01:51:15,743 --> 01:51:17,344
Thank you so much for coming.

2032
01:51:18,445 --> 01:51:19,380
Sure.

2033
01:51:23,817 --> 01:51:25,686
You look great.

2034
01:51:26,420 --> 01:51:27,922
I nearly put makeup on,

2035
01:51:27,988 --> 01:51:29,957
and then I just laughed
at myself.

2036
01:51:31,992 --> 01:51:33,260
Do you like my clips?

2037
01:51:33,861 --> 01:51:35,429
Wow, yeah.

2038
01:51:35,496 --> 01:51:37,031
I stole them from a pharmacy.

2039
01:51:37,898 --> 01:51:39,200
Not recently.

2040
01:51:39,266 --> 01:51:41,035
Like, a while back.

2041
01:51:45,139 --> 01:51:46,541
I don't know where to start.

2042
01:51:46,608 --> 01:51:47,775
That's okay.

2043
01:51:48,409 --> 01:51:49,910
Um, I'll start.

2044
01:51:57,384 --> 01:51:59,153
Nate, I didn't have...

2045
01:52:01,288 --> 01:52:02,890
the faintest idea

2046
01:52:04,091 --> 01:52:06,260
how to handle my own grief.

2047
01:52:09,430 --> 01:52:12,032
I didn't even know
if I was allowed to grieve.

2048
01:52:12,099 --> 01:52:14,536
We were all flailing.

2049
01:52:14,603 --> 01:52:16,904
Yeah, but I abandoned you,

2050
01:52:17,805 --> 01:52:19,507
and that was so selfish.

2051
01:52:21,875 --> 01:52:24,311
I ran as fast as I could
away from you.

2052
01:52:25,312 --> 01:52:27,448
I still wanted you
to be my wife.

2053
01:52:28,849 --> 01:52:30,084
I know.

2054
01:52:34,822 --> 01:52:37,124
But the truth is, Nate, I...

2055
01:52:38,993 --> 01:52:40,894
I was so sure

2056
01:52:42,263 --> 01:52:43,197
I was gonna...

2057
01:52:47,368 --> 01:52:49,470
-try...
-I know.

2058
01:52:51,573 --> 01:52:53,073
And you know I tried.

2059
01:52:55,442 --> 01:52:57,278
I tried, but I couldn't.

2060
01:52:59,514 --> 01:53:01,549
'Cause I didn't wanna
hurt you again.

2061
01:53:01,616 --> 01:53:03,384
It wasn't your fault.

2062
01:53:03,450 --> 01:53:04,552
It was.

2063
01:53:06,153 --> 01:53:07,888
Your dad was right.

2064
01:53:09,156 --> 01:53:10,625
If I hadn't been looking
at my phone,

2065
01:53:10,692 --> 01:53:12,259
I could have stopped in time.

2066
01:53:16,297 --> 01:53:19,534
You deserve an apology that
never came, and I'm so sorry.

2067
01:53:24,071 --> 01:53:25,372
I'm really sorry.

2068
01:53:32,046 --> 01:53:34,148
I've been spending some time
with him lately.

2069
01:53:34,214 --> 01:53:35,215
Yeah.

2070
01:53:36,383 --> 01:53:39,086
Oh, it's a work-in-progress.

2071
01:53:40,254 --> 01:53:41,255
Good.

2072
01:53:44,559 --> 01:53:46,226
He kept me alive, you know.

2073
01:53:50,064 --> 01:53:51,465
I know about your ear.

2074
01:53:57,237 --> 01:54:02,076
Hey... I need you
to be clear on one thing.

2075
01:54:04,713 --> 01:54:06,347
I loved you so much.

2076
01:54:09,751 --> 01:54:11,852
And along
with everything else,

2077
01:54:13,053 --> 01:54:14,589
I will forever grieve

2078
01:54:14,656 --> 01:54:17,057
for the life that we might
have had.

2079
01:54:19,761 --> 01:54:21,028
Me too.

2080
01:54:24,298 --> 01:54:26,634
We were a good team.

2081
01:54:27,968 --> 01:54:29,838
It would be nice

2082
01:54:29,903 --> 01:54:31,773
if we could one day
find some way

2083
01:54:31,840 --> 01:54:33,907
to be in each other's lives.

2084
01:54:34,642 --> 01:54:36,076
Maybe that's unrealistic,

2085
01:54:36,143 --> 01:54:37,478
-but...
-Maybe.

2086
01:54:38,580 --> 01:54:39,547
Yeah.

2087
01:54:41,281 --> 01:54:42,416
Maybe.

2088
01:54:53,360 --> 01:54:55,129
I think
we can all thank Elaine.

2089
01:54:55,195 --> 01:54:56,631
Thank you so much.

2090
01:54:56,698 --> 01:54:59,032
I really appreciated
getting to know you,

2091
01:54:59,099 --> 01:55:01,101
and talking to you.

2092
01:55:01,168 --> 01:55:03,872
Everybody, our deeply
inappropriate stories

2093
01:55:03,937 --> 01:55:05,406
from yesterday...

2094
01:55:05,472 --> 01:55:08,308
...have been well in my head.
King's laughing.

2095
01:55:08,375 --> 01:55:11,078
Your stories are foul.

2096
01:55:12,312 --> 01:55:13,782
Mama,

2097
01:55:13,848 --> 01:55:15,282
I'm so grateful for you.

2098
01:55:15,349 --> 01:55:17,117
Thank you for everything
you've done for me.

2099
01:55:17,184 --> 01:55:18,919
And I love you.

2100
01:55:28,530 --> 01:55:31,498
The food was terrible.
Thank you.

2101
01:55:31,566 --> 01:55:33,434
♪ <i>I can't shake you off, dear♪</i>

2102
01:55:33,501 --> 01:55:36,805
♪ <i>It's something</i>
<i>I have tried to do♪</i>

2103
01:55:36,871 --> 01:55:41,141
♪ <i>But I can't</i>
<i>shake you off, dear♪</i>

2104
01:55:41,208 --> 01:55:44,478
♪ <i>Sit on trains</i>
<i>and think of you♪</i>

2105
01:55:44,546 --> 01:55:46,046
♪ <i>But I...♪</i>

2106
01:55:46,113 --> 01:55:50,951
♪ <i>Oh, I can't tell♪</i>

2107
01:55:51,886 --> 01:55:58,192
♪ <i>If it hurts or it helps♪</i>

2108
01:56:00,127 --> 01:56:06,233
♪ <i>So breathe me in♪</i>

2109
01:56:07,034 --> 01:56:11,606
♪ <i>One last time♪</i>

2110
01:56:14,809 --> 01:56:17,645
♪ <i>And we play♪</i>

2111
01:56:17,712 --> 01:56:22,851
♪ <i>Our rehearsed♪</i>

2112
01:56:22,917 --> 01:56:27,187
♪ <i>Goodbyes♪</i>

2113
01:56:30,457 --> 01:56:34,294
♪ <i>I can't shake you off, dear♪</i>

2114
01:56:34,361 --> 01:56:38,533
♪ <i>It's something</i>
<i>I have tried to do♪</i>

2115
01:56:38,600 --> 01:56:43,203
♪ <i>But I can't</i>
<i>shake you off, dear♪</i>

2116
01:56:43,270 --> 01:56:47,341
♪ <i>I sit on trains</i>
<i>and think of you♪</i>

2117
01:56:48,342 --> 01:56:54,682
♪ <i>But you are the best part♪</i>

2118
01:56:56,216 --> 01:57:01,656
♪ <i>You♪</i>

2119
01:57:04,526 --> 01:57:05,693
Thank you.

2120
01:57:09,196 --> 01:57:12,734
Um, I recently recorded
my first EP,

2121
01:57:12,800 --> 01:57:14,101
and it's at the coat check

2122
01:57:14,167 --> 01:57:16,671
because I'm also
the coat check girl.

2123
01:57:16,738 --> 01:57:18,640
Uh, so come buy a CD,

2124
01:57:18,706 --> 01:57:20,207
or I won't give you
your coats back.

2125
01:57:31,719 --> 01:57:33,320
Hi.

2126
01:57:33,387 --> 01:57:35,322
I know you're calling
about my one-year clean,

2127
01:57:35,389 --> 01:57:37,692
but I need to tell you
what I just did.

2128
01:57:40,294 --> 01:57:42,129
Yeah. No, I can talk.

2129
01:57:43,731 --> 01:57:44,666
Okay.

2130
01:57:57,812 --> 01:57:59,279
Hey, Dwayne.

2131
01:57:59,346 --> 01:58:00,615
Could you take these
to the kitchen for me?

2132
01:58:00,682 --> 01:58:02,149
Thank you so much.

2133
01:58:04,786 --> 01:58:06,486
She'll give it back.
Right, Ryan?

2134
01:58:06,554 --> 01:58:08,322
- That's nice.
- Thank you.

2135
01:58:08,388 --> 01:58:11,124
Hey. How's it going?
Ooh, wait, I have cupcakes.

2136
01:58:11,191 --> 01:58:13,795
-Need any help?
-No, no, no. I'm all good.
Thank you.

2137
01:58:13,861 --> 01:58:14,996
Actually, we broke up

2138
01:58:15,063 --> 01:58:16,296
-a few months ago.
-Yeah...

2139
01:58:16,363 --> 01:58:17,832
- Hey, Mama.
- Yes?

2140
01:58:17,899 --> 01:58:19,968
Could you go pass these around
over there?

2141
01:58:20,034 --> 01:58:21,101
I think they would like some.

2142
01:58:21,168 --> 01:58:22,570
-Sure.
-Thank you.

2143
01:58:22,637 --> 01:58:24,639
-Ooh, they smell so good.
-They are good.

2144
01:59:38,478 --> 01:59:40,180
<i>Dear Allison.</i>

2145
01:59:40,247 --> 01:59:43,785
<i>Down here in 1:87 scale,</i>

2146
01:59:43,851 --> 01:59:45,485
<i>the lovers always kiss,</i>

2147
01:59:46,253 --> 01:59:48,690
<i>the neighbors are always kind,</i>

2148
01:59:48,756 --> 01:59:51,926
<i>and the trains always</i>
<i>take you to the far-off places</i>

2149
01:59:51,993 --> 01:59:54,394
<i>you always swore you'd go.</i>

2150
01:59:55,930 --> 01:59:57,799
<i>In life, of course,</i>

2151
01:59:57,865 --> 02:00:00,467
<i>nothing is nearly</i>
<i>as neat and tidy.</i>

2152
02:00:01,836 --> 02:00:05,372
<i>Everything I own has been left</i>
<i>to Nathan and Ryan.</i>

2153
02:00:06,174 --> 02:00:07,875
<i>Nathan has agreed to move home</i>

2154
02:00:07,942 --> 02:00:10,845
<i>and be her guardian</i>
<i>until she's off to college.</i>

2155
02:00:11,946 --> 02:00:13,280
<i>He'll need help.</i>

2156
02:00:14,082 --> 02:00:16,349
<i>Please help him, Allie.</i>

2157
02:00:16,416 --> 02:00:20,121
<i>Molly always said Nathan was</i>
<i>the best version of himself</i>

2158
02:00:20,188 --> 02:00:21,488
<i>when he was with you.</i>

2159
02:00:22,456 --> 02:00:24,257
<i>Who knows,</i>

2160
02:00:24,324 --> 02:00:27,829
<i>maybe you can even get her</i>
<i>into Stanford.</i>

2161
02:00:28,930 --> 02:00:30,798
<i>When we first met</i>
<i>in that diner,</i>

2162
02:00:31,666 --> 02:00:34,334
<i>you asked what my tattoo meant.</i>

2163
02:00:34,401 --> 02:00:37,270
Amor fati <i>is Latin.</i>

2164
02:00:37,337 --> 02:00:39,640
<i>It means "to love one's fate."</i>

2165
02:00:40,808 --> 02:00:43,778
<i>Neither of us</i>
<i>chose this fate, Allie.</i>

2166
02:00:43,845 --> 02:00:46,514
<i>But perhaps we can find a way</i>
<i>to love it.</i>

2167
02:00:47,915 --> 02:00:51,586
<i>Fate has given me</i>
<i>one final year with my son.</i>

2168
02:00:51,652 --> 02:00:54,689
<i>He looks at me differently</i>
<i>these days.</i>

2169
02:00:54,756 --> 02:00:57,759
<i>Once in a while I even</i>
<i>catch him smiling at me</i>

2170
02:00:57,825 --> 02:01:01,495
<i>with a look that might</i>
<i>just even be love.</i>

2171
02:01:02,563 --> 02:01:04,799
Amor fati, <i>Allison.</i>

2172
02:01:05,933 --> 02:01:07,434
<i>Until we meet again,</i>

2173
02:01:08,736 --> 02:01:09,737
<i>Daniel.</i>

2174
02:01:13,174 --> 02:01:14,374
Allie?

2175
02:01:14,842 --> 02:01:16,043
Yeah?

2176
02:01:16,110 --> 02:01:17,377
What are you doing?

2177
02:01:18,478 --> 02:01:19,514
Come on upstairs.

2178
02:01:19,580 --> 02:01:20,748
Yeah, okay.

2179
02:01:46,007 --> 02:01:51,478
<i>♪ Down in the valley</i>
<i>the first of May ♪</i>

2180
02:01:54,682 --> 02:02:00,621
<i>♪ Gatherin' flowers</i>
<i>both fresh and gay ♪</i>

2181
02:02:03,224 --> 02:02:10,164
<i>♪ Gatherin' flowers</i>
<i>both red and blue ♪</i>

2182
02:02:10,231 --> 02:02:12,533
<i>♪ How little thought</i>
<i>of what... ♪</i>

2183
02:02:15,402 --> 02:02:17,905
<i>♪ ...what love could you do ♪</i>

2184
02:02:19,207 --> 02:02:23,678
<i>♪ Don't you♪</i>

2185
02:02:27,114 --> 02:02:31,519
♪ <i>Break my heart ♪</i>

2186
02:02:36,489 --> 02:02:40,393
<i>♪ Don't you♪</i>

2187
02:02:44,397 --> 02:02:48,135
♪ <i>Break my heart ♪</i>

2188
02:02:55,209 --> 02:03:01,048
<i>♪ I put my hand in</i>
<i>into the bush ♪</i>

2189
02:03:04,185 --> 02:03:08,656
<i>♪ Finding the sweetest</i>
<i>sweetest rose ♪</i>

2190
02:03:12,459 --> 02:03:18,866
<i>♪ I pricked my finger</i>
<i>deep to the line ♪</i>

2191
02:03:19,734 --> 02:03:24,105
<i>♪ And left the sweetest rose♪</i>

2192
02:03:24,171 --> 02:03:28,342
♪ <i>Sweetest rose behind ♪</i>

2193
02:03:28,408 --> 02:03:32,046
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2194
02:03:36,250 --> 02:03:40,121
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2195
02:03:45,526 --> 02:03:49,730
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2196
02:03:53,401 --> 02:03:57,972
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2197
02:04:37,144 --> 02:04:41,916
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2198
02:04:44,719 --> 02:04:48,923
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2199
02:04:54,261 --> 02:04:59,266
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2200
02:05:02,303 --> 02:05:06,574
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2201
02:05:12,880 --> 02:05:18,552
<i>♪ Thousands and thousands</i>
<i>all on this Earth ♪</i>

2202
02:05:31,732 --> 02:05:35,102
<i>♪ Honey you've been</i>
<i>on my mind ♪</i>

2203
02:05:35,169 --> 02:05:38,507
<i>♪ Like Christmas and birthdays</i>
<i>when I was five ♪</i>

2204
02:05:38,572 --> 02:05:40,841
<i>♪ Like the ticking clock</i>
<i>for racers ♪</i>

2205
02:05:40,908 --> 02:05:42,943
<i>♪ And those</i>
<i>in the prison line ♪</i>

2206
02:05:43,010 --> 02:05:46,515
<i>♪ Like Everest for Mallory and</i>
<i>how drinkers know their wine ♪</i>

2207
02:05:46,580 --> 02:05:50,551
<i>♪ And the birds and the bees</i>
<i>when you hit nine ♪</i>

2208
02:05:50,618 --> 02:05:54,388
♪ And pearls for those girls ♪

2209
02:05:54,455 --> 02:05:58,292
<i>♪ Who always have their hair</i>
<i>in pretty curls ♪</i>

2210
02:05:58,359 --> 02:06:00,461
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2211
02:06:00,529 --> 02:06:02,596
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2212
02:06:02,663 --> 02:06:04,765
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2213
02:06:04,832 --> 02:06:07,301
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2214
02:06:07,368 --> 02:06:10,704
<i>♪ Honey you've been</i>
<i>in my head ♪</i>

2215
02:06:10,771 --> 02:06:14,675
<i>♪ Like homework on Sunday when</i>
<i>I've been laughing instead ♪</i>

2216
02:06:14,742 --> 02:06:18,579
<i>♪ Like cigarettes for the cool</i>
<i>kids behind the garden shed ♪</i>

2217
02:06:18,646 --> 02:06:23,518
<i>♪ And love for the lovers</i>
<i>and the elephant by my bed ♪</i>

2218
02:06:23,584 --> 02:06:27,354
<i>♪ And pearls for those girls ♪</i>

2219
02:06:27,421 --> 02:06:31,325
<i>♪ Who always have their hair</i>
<i>in pretty curls ♪</i>

2220
02:06:31,392 --> 02:06:35,396
<i>♪ And football</i>
<i>for English boys ♪</i>

2221
02:06:35,463 --> 02:06:39,400
<i>♪ Who always have</i>
<i>the newest toys ♪</i>

2222
02:06:39,467 --> 02:06:41,570
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2223
02:06:41,635 --> 02:06:43,671
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2224
02:06:43,737 --> 02:06:45,873
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2225
02:06:45,940 --> 02:06:48,042
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2226
02:06:48,109 --> 02:06:49,977
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2227
02:06:56,250 --> 02:07:03,324
<i>♪ So don't you</i>
<i>go away too long ♪</i>

2228
02:07:04,526 --> 02:07:11,065
<i>♪ Oh don't you</i>
<i>go away too long ♪</i>

2229
02:07:11,132 --> 02:07:18,305
<i>♪ Oh don't you</i>
<i>go away too long ♪</i>

2230
02:07:19,140 --> 02:07:23,244
<i>♪ Oh don't you go♪</i>

2231
02:07:23,310 --> 02:07:26,981
♪ <i>Away too long ♪</i>

2232
02:07:27,047 --> 02:07:29,518
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2233
02:07:29,584 --> 02:07:31,652
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2234
02:07:32,554 --> 02:07:34,589
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2235
02:07:34,655 --> 02:07:37,358
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>