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<i>In Herman Williams'
seminal work on the joys</i>

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<i>of being a model train
hobbyist, he writes,</i>

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<i>"Many an hour have I spent</i>

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<i>"blissfully lost in a world
of my own creation.</i>

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<i>"For the model train enthusiast,</i>

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<i>"there exists a secret world
of order and symmetry.</i>

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<i>"Nestled into the corners
of our basements and attics,</i>

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<i>"we lord over a world</i>

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<i>"where the hobbyist
plays omnipotent creator.</i>

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<i>"There, in 1:87 scale,</i>

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<i>"the neighbors
are always kind,</i>

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<i>"the lovers
always end up together,</i>

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<i>"and the trains always
take you to the far-off places</i>

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<i>"you always swore you'd go."</i>

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<i>In life, of course,</i>

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<i>nothing is nearly
as neat and tidy.</i>

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<i>♪ Well, if you close the door ♪</i>

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<i>♪ The night could
last forever ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And keep the sunshine out ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And say hello to never ♪</i>

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<i>♪ 'Cause all the people
are dancing ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And they're having such fun ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I wish it could
happen to me ♪</i>

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<i>- ♪ So baby close that door ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And never have to see
the day again ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Oh, yeah ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'd never have to see
the day again ♪</i>

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<i>♪ That's right ♪</i>
Sing!

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<i>♪ I'd never have to see
the day again ♪</i>

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- Encore, Allie!

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- No!

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I am way too drunk

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to be singing
in front of people.

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Aw, but we love you! Come on!

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And I wanna keep it that way.

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Um, okay. That was
for my beautiful, sweet,

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darling fiance, Nathan.

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Who loves that song very much.

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Bubba, you wanna come up here?

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- No.

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Come on!
It's our engagement party.

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He's very shy!

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Nathan! Nathan! Nathan!

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Nathan! Nathan! Nathan! Nathan!

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Mm! Ah! Mm!

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- Did you like it?
- It was amazing.

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- Hey, y'all...

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Um, I'll just briefly say that
she played that song for me

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on our very first date

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on a beautiful,
old piano she found

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at the back of an empty bar.

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- Well, you better go, girl!
- Come on. Come on!

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- Always be closing.
Absolutely!

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Welcome to the family!

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- Allison...
- Yes...

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Every memory I cherish
in my life has you in it.

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Some of them
are just tiny seconds.

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The way you close one eye

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when you really wanna focus
on tasting something.

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- I do that. I do that.

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I go, like...

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I can't believe this is real.

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It's real, baby.

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- Thank God.
Mm.

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- I love you.
- I love you.

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Aw.

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- Okay.
- Hey...

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- Um... Drink, smoke, be merry.
Yeah.

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And if you choose
to sleep with Chip,

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make sure he wears,
like, 11 condoms.

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I'm, like, literally a virgin.

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- He's kidding. He's kidding.

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<i>- ♪ Time keeps on coming ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I've been all around ♪</i>

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<i>♪ I'll keep on loving... ♪</i>

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No! No, no, no.

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- No. Come on, baby. No phone.
- Oh.

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When we get married,
we have to make rules

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- about phones in the bed.

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Oh, shut up.

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You are on your phone,
like, ten times more than me,

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looking up rusty old trucks.

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Uh, a '67 cloth top Bronco

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is a work of art, baby.
It's not a truck.

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- I'm looking at art.
- Yeah. Oh.

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- Like this butt.

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I am so high
from that gummy you gave me.

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- What the fuck was that?

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I still can't feel my ankles.

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You don't need your ankles
right now.

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Yeah, but I would
still like to feel my ankles.

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Hey, come kiss me.

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- Hey, babe?
- Yeah?

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This creepy doctor
from my sales list

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is really trying to flirt
with me on Instagram.

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Maybe you
gave him the wrong impression.

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What?

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Come on! As if!

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I go in there, and I'm, like,

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waving
my engagement ring around.

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You always say, "Flirting
is a part of the job."

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Someone's bound to get
the wrong impression.

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It's very light flirting.

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- Ah, okay.
- It is!

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It's like... It's just...

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It's sushi with a smile,

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so that he can write
the fucking prescription,

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and I can get a fat bonus,

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and then

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you and I can maybe one day

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move to the city.

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If we don't go to hell first.

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Oh! Why would you say that?

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- Come on!
- I'm sorry.

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I'm only pushing HUMIRA, like,

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I won't go to hell for
moderate to severe psoriasis.

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Come on.
That would be so unfair.

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Yeah, yeah.

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Shut up.

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- Okay. Hey.
- Mmm.

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It's just a stepping
stone, baby.

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I know.

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Do you think it's too late
for astronaut school?

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- What?

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- What?
- Nothing.

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I could be
a professional dancer.

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- Oh, word?
- Yeah. Yeah.

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- You got them moves?
- Ooh.

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- Wait, let me stand up.

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I'm way better
when I stand up.

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- Okay.
- It's so much better

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when I stand up.

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- Are you ready?
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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- Whoa.
- What genre is this?

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I don't know,
but my body just goes...

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Go.

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Is this modern, right?

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- This is professional.
- Wow.

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So I would appreciate it

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if you took me seriously
right now.

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I'm taking you very seriously.

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And then, we'll finish
with something like this.

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But I'm not gonna
show you anymore,

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because it's
a work-in-progress.

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And the professional is tired,

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and I wanna cuddle.

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<i>♪ Came into this life
on my own ♪</i>

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<i>♪And I'll try
Yes I'll try ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Hope for love
turn out the light ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And I gave my own life
My own life, my own life ♪</i>

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Oh, calm the fuck down.

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I swear, this road has been
under construction

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my entire life.

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When will New Jersey be done?

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- She's a work-in-progress.
- Never.

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Oh, by the way,
how's Ryan doing?

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Oh, you mean
your future niece?

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Oh, my goodness.
She's so pretty!

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Yeah, the varsity coach said
she might start next year.

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- Oh, yeah?
Mmm-hmm.

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She scored 19 goals
last season!

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- Tell her. Tell her.
- Wow!

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Oh, my God.
You must be so proud of her.

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I can't believe
I haven't met her.

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I'm so sorry Nathan and I

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haven't made it
down there yet.

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Don't worry about it.
I mean, it's far.

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We're gonna try to come up
more often

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now that our dad's
getting older.

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Yeah.

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Well, I've only met
your dad a few times,

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but that we can't blame
on distance.

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This is fucking nuts.
I'm sorry.

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Wait, so tell us about

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these wedding dresses
we're seeing.

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Yes, please. I couldn't sleep
last night thinking about it.

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Shut up!
- You are such a good sport.

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No, he isn't. He just thinks
that after we see dresses,

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- we're going to go...
- Yeah?

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- ...on a pub crawl.
Mmm-hmm.

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But actually
we're going to see a play.

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- You are?
- No, we're not.

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You said that we'd have
to get tickets already.

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No. We just gotta see some
shit nobody else wants to see.

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- Oh, great. That's awesome.

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- Yeah, right?
- Great. Great.

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Hey, look,
it's finally opening up.

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All right, so I think
it might be a little tight

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getting you to a play,

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but, um, let me just check...

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- Okay, so now it's saying...

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Allie!

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Look out!

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Here we are.

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You got me here so early.

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Yeah, well, it's

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better to be a half-hour early

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than one minute late.

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Grandpa, have you ever played
any video games?

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- No.

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You've got that perfect
little brain up there

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and you're just melting it
away with that crap.

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Okay.

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<i>Nathan.
-</i>

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It's Uncle Nathan.
Answer it.

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Why would he be calling me?

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Pick it up.

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Thought we weren't
talking anymore.

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00:10:10,783 --> 00:10:13,830
Uh-huh. Uh-huh.
Nathan. Nathan.

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I've... I've got
Ryan here in the car.

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I'm just dropping her off
at school.

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I'll call you right back.

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Yes, I heard what you said.
I'm headed right there.

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I just gotta
drop her off, okay?

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See, that wasn't so bad.

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Mom says she wishes you guys
could find a way to get along.

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I... I've...
I've got to leave, sweetie.

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But I look like a dork
being here this early.

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I'm sorry.

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I'll, uh...

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I'll be picking you up today.

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Why can't Mom?

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She said they'd be back
from the city today, right?

224
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Well...

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- she can't.
Okay.

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I'll text her.

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Okay.

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Okay. Bye.

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Tell me you love me.

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I love you, Grandpa.

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I love you too.

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- Bye.
- Bye.

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Mom,
my head hurts so much.

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I can't even explain
how much pain my head's in.

235
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Can you click
on the morphine again?

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I've been clicking on it.

237
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I'm clicking on it,
and nothing is happening.

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Oh, shoot, you're right.
It is empty.

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We gotta get more.

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00:11:45,704 --> 00:11:47,010
We'll have to get the nurse
to get us more.

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00:11:47,010 --> 00:11:48,228
Nathan, why are you
looking at me like that?

242
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Like what?

243
00:11:50,404 --> 00:11:52,363
Is it bad? Do I look that bad?

244
00:11:52,363 --> 00:11:53,712
No, he's just upset, sweetheart.

245
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He's upset 'cause we've been

246
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- so worried all night long.
Okay. Okay.

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This backhoe thing
just reversed

248
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into the middle of the street.

249
00:12:00,632 --> 00:12:01,764
I know, I know.

250
00:12:01,764 --> 00:12:03,417
I didn't know
what to do.

251
00:12:03,417 --> 00:12:04,679
I know, but you don't have to
worry about that right now.

252
00:12:04,679 --> 00:12:06,203
- Right, Nathan?
- Yeah.

253
00:12:06,203 --> 00:12:07,726
No, you just need to focus
on getting better.

254
00:12:07,726 --> 00:12:08,814
That's all you need
to think about, okay?

255
00:12:08,814 --> 00:12:10,468
Okay.
- Right, Nathan?

256
00:12:10,468 --> 00:12:12,122
- Yeah.
Sorry to interrupt,

257
00:12:12,122 --> 00:12:13,776
but the police are here
to collect a blood sample.

258
00:12:13,776 --> 00:12:15,125
Oh, no. Absolutely not.

259
00:12:15,125 --> 00:12:16,779
Now is not a good time.
She is in a lot of pain.

260
00:12:16,779 --> 00:12:18,345
- You have to come back.
- No.

261
00:12:18,345 --> 00:12:20,130
She just woke up.
- Why are the police here?

262
00:12:20,130 --> 00:12:21,740
Unfortunately, I can't.

263
00:12:21,740 --> 00:12:24,090
Legally, the sample has to be
drawn as soon as possible.

264
00:12:24,090 --> 00:12:25,526
We waited for her
to stabilize,

265
00:12:25,526 --> 00:12:26,614
but with an accident
like this,

266
00:12:26,614 --> 00:12:28,007
it's imperative we test...

267
00:12:28,007 --> 00:12:29,748
What is he talking about?
It wasn't my fault.

268
00:12:29,748 --> 00:12:32,055
- Officer, she doesn't know.
- It wasn't her fault.

269
00:12:32,055 --> 00:12:33,360
With an accident
of this magnitude

270
00:12:33,360 --> 00:12:34,797
involving fatalities,
we're required...

271
00:12:34,797 --> 00:12:36,537
- She hasn't been told.
- Fatalities?

272
00:12:36,537 --> 00:12:37,843
She hasn't been told,

273
00:12:37,843 --> 00:12:39,236
- you fucking asshole!
Fuck.

274
00:12:39,236 --> 00:12:41,107
She didn't know.
- Mama, what's going on?

275
00:12:41,107 --> 00:12:42,369
- I'm so sorry, honey.
- What is he talking about?

276
00:12:42,369 --> 00:12:43,501
I'm so sorry.

277
00:12:43,501 --> 00:12:45,242
Nathan?

278
00:12:45,242 --> 00:12:46,852
Nathan, what's going on?

279
00:12:50,725 --> 00:12:51,988
They're gone.

280
00:12:54,164 --> 00:12:55,643
They're both gone.

281
00:12:56,166 --> 00:12:57,254
Who's gone?

282
00:12:57,254 --> 00:12:58,472
Honey...

283
00:13:14,097 --> 00:13:16,664
No, Mom.

284
00:13:18,928 --> 00:13:20,886
Why, Mom?

285
00:13:20,886 --> 00:13:22,975
I'm so sorry, honey.

286
00:13:51,830 --> 00:13:54,615
<i>♪ Wake up with
the sun in morning ♪</i>

287
00:13:54,615 --> 00:13:57,531
<i>♪ Go to sleep with
the moon at night... ♪</i>

288
00:13:57,531 --> 00:13:59,011
<i>Hey, guys! Bella here.</i>

289
00:13:59,011 --> 00:14:00,491
<i>Welcome to my bathroom!</i>

290
00:14:00,491 --> 00:14:03,450
<i>Today, we're gonna learn
to cut our own hair.</i>

291
00:14:03,450 --> 00:14:04,887
<i>So let's jump in.</i>

292
00:14:04,887 --> 00:14:08,238
<i>To get started,
we grab this first front layer</i>

293
00:14:08,978 --> 00:14:10,457
<i>just like this.</i>

294
00:14:10,457 --> 00:14:13,983
<i>And put your scissors
at, like, a slight angle.</i>

295
00:14:15,767 --> 00:14:18,770
<i>Okay, it's now or never.</i>

296
00:14:18,770 --> 00:14:20,119
<i>Go for it!</i>

297
00:14:20,119 --> 00:14:22,034
<i>♪ What their purpose
is on earth ♪</i>

298
00:14:22,034 --> 00:14:24,819
<i>♪ To love and be
loved in return... ♪</i>

299
00:14:24,819 --> 00:14:25,908
Fuck.

300
00:14:25,908 --> 00:14:27,300
<i>You nailed it!</i>

301
00:14:27,300 --> 00:14:29,781
<i>You're officially a stylist
just like me!</i>

302
00:14:29,781 --> 00:14:31,174
<i>Now, go ahead</i>

303
00:14:31,174 --> 00:14:33,872
<i>and grab the same layer
on the other side.</i>

304
00:14:33,872 --> 00:14:35,918
<i>And just go for it!</i>

305
00:14:35,918 --> 00:14:38,268
Okay.

306
00:14:38,268 --> 00:14:41,097
<i>♪ Happiness comes
from inside ♪</i>

307
00:14:41,097 --> 00:14:43,490
<i>♪ At the center
of your mind... ♪</i>

308
00:14:43,490 --> 00:14:44,578
Fuck.

309
00:14:44,578 --> 00:14:45,928
<i>Does it look even?</i>

310
00:14:46,319 --> 00:14:47,930
Uh...

311
00:14:47,930 --> 00:14:49,714
Not exactly. No.

312
00:14:49,714 --> 00:14:52,195
<i>Good job.
You look amazing!</i>

313
00:14:53,805 --> 00:14:55,198
Thank you.

314
00:14:55,198 --> 00:14:57,809
<i>♪ You can change
the darkest day ♪</i>

315
00:14:57,809 --> 00:15:00,725
<i>♪ Simply by
the things you say... ♪</i>

316
00:15:01,726 --> 00:15:03,336
Wow...

317
00:15:03,336 --> 00:15:06,383
<i>♪ Oooh oooh ooh ♪</i>

318
00:15:07,950 --> 00:15:09,647
I love it.

319
00:15:12,867 --> 00:15:16,306
Oh, my God. Allie,
what the hell is all this?

320
00:15:16,306 --> 00:15:20,049
You have got to stop buying
all this crap.

321
00:15:21,702 --> 00:15:25,228
Yeah, well, one of them
is an acrylic nail set

322
00:15:25,228 --> 00:15:27,621
that I know you'll appreciate
more than I will.

323
00:15:27,621 --> 00:15:29,014
And the others
are ankle weights.

324
00:15:29,014 --> 00:15:31,016
Remember? We said we were
gonna get in shape?

325
00:15:31,930 --> 00:15:33,497
Oh, my God.

326
00:15:33,497 --> 00:15:36,543
Allie, what the hell
did you do to your hair?

327
00:15:36,543 --> 00:15:38,023
What? It's makeover Monday.

328
00:15:38,023 --> 00:15:41,026
- It's Friday.
- Oh.

329
00:15:41,026 --> 00:15:43,072
- It's so dark in here.
- No, please, don't open that.

330
00:15:43,072 --> 00:15:44,464
Mama, that is so bright!

331
00:15:44,464 --> 00:15:46,510
Did you go
to physical therapy today?

332
00:15:46,510 --> 00:15:48,468
Um, well, I tried to,

333
00:15:48,468 --> 00:15:50,514
- but I overslept.
- Allie...

334
00:15:50,514 --> 00:15:52,907
What? I don't need PT.
I don't.

335
00:15:52,907 --> 00:15:54,300
Allie, your hair.

336
00:15:55,084 --> 00:15:56,650
You don't like it?

337
00:15:56,650 --> 00:15:58,783
I just don't understand why
you would cut your own hair.

338
00:15:58,783 --> 00:16:01,133
Well, the girl said
it was easy, and it was not.

339
00:16:01,133 --> 00:16:02,526
What girl?

340
00:16:02,526 --> 00:16:05,920
This girl on the Internet.
She's an influencer.

341
00:16:05,920 --> 00:16:07,748
She influenced me.

342
00:16:07,748 --> 00:16:12,101
Such a pigsty in here.
I am not happy about this.

343
00:16:12,101 --> 00:16:13,928
Hey, Mama, can you tell me
where my pills are?

344
00:16:13,928 --> 00:16:16,409
Which ones?

345
00:16:16,409 --> 00:16:20,065
We said we were going to
wean off of them. Remember?

346
00:16:20,065 --> 00:16:22,024
- Did we?
- Yes.

347
00:16:22,024 --> 00:16:24,765
Because "we" are in pain

348
00:16:24,765 --> 00:16:26,637
and "we" need more.

349
00:16:26,637 --> 00:16:27,986
They're not gonna
give you more, Allie.

350
00:16:27,986 --> 00:16:29,422
- They have to!
- No, they don't.

351
00:16:29,422 --> 00:16:30,945
I need them!

352
00:16:30,945 --> 00:16:32,556
Listen to me.

353
00:16:32,556 --> 00:16:34,688
You're not in physical pain anymore.

354
00:16:34,688 --> 00:16:36,821
Have you been doing
the tapping thing

355
00:16:36,821 --> 00:16:38,214
that that one shrink
taught you?

356
00:16:38,214 --> 00:16:40,433
Remember?
For anxiety and stress,

357
00:16:40,433 --> 00:16:42,261
and it calms you down
on the...

358
00:16:42,261 --> 00:16:43,958
- eyes, and then the lips.
- Mom!

359
00:16:43,958 --> 00:16:45,656
Or play your piano.
That always cheers you up.

360
00:16:45,656 --> 00:16:47,005
I don't wanna talk
about this, please.

361
00:16:47,005 --> 00:16:49,834
I have the worst headache!
Can you just stop?

362
00:16:49,834 --> 00:16:52,750
Can you call the doctors
and help me, please?

363
00:16:52,750 --> 00:16:54,534
Which one? Patel?
He said no more.

364
00:16:54,534 --> 00:16:56,884
Okay, well, fuck Patel.
Fuck Patel!

365
00:16:56,884 --> 00:16:58,669
How about Goldberg, or...

366
00:16:58,669 --> 00:17:00,540
or Fong?

367
00:17:00,540 --> 00:17:02,151
- Allie...
- Please, Mom.

368
00:17:02,151 --> 00:17:03,326
- Just call 'em. Just help me.
- You're being a little...

369
00:17:03,326 --> 00:17:04,718
- No.
- Just help me, please.

370
00:17:04,718 --> 00:17:06,329
Guess what?
They all said "no."

371
00:17:06,329 --> 00:17:08,374
Patel. Goldberg.
Fong. Rosenberg.

372
00:17:08,374 --> 00:17:10,289
Okay, well, I'll try Vromen.
He loves me.

373
00:17:10,289 --> 00:17:12,204
Vromen is an orthodontist.

374
00:17:12,204 --> 00:17:13,684
Yeah, but he used to
flirt with me

375
00:17:13,684 --> 00:17:15,773
when his fingers were really
deep inside my mouth,

376
00:17:15,773 --> 00:17:18,297
and it was very inappropriate,
and so, he really owes me one.

377
00:17:18,297 --> 00:17:20,169
Allie, I don't like
how you're acting.

378
00:17:20,169 --> 00:17:21,387
You know what?
Enough is enough.

379
00:17:21,387 --> 00:17:23,172
You gotta get out
of this living room,

380
00:17:23,172 --> 00:17:24,782
take off your pajamas,

381
00:17:24,782 --> 00:17:26,697
and get your ass,
and go get a job.

382
00:17:26,697 --> 00:17:27,828
I'm sick of this crap.

383
00:17:27,828 --> 00:17:30,135
As if you have any right

384
00:17:30,135 --> 00:17:32,224
lecturing me
on medicating myself.

385
00:17:32,224 --> 00:17:33,617
What is that supposed to mean?

386
00:17:33,617 --> 00:17:36,794
It means, Mom, you're such
a fucking hypocrite!

387
00:17:36,794 --> 00:17:39,623
You don't think that I clock
how many Xanax you take?

388
00:17:39,623 --> 00:17:41,799
Or how many glasses of wine
you drink?

389
00:17:41,799 --> 00:17:43,801
You think I'm just a zombie
that doesn't notice anything,

390
00:17:43,801 --> 00:17:46,499
but I notice
fucking everything! I see you.

391
00:17:46,499 --> 00:17:50,112
So, can I have my pills, please?

392
00:17:50,112 --> 00:17:52,331
You're not listening.
There's no more.

393
00:17:59,556 --> 00:18:01,471
You get
right back here,

394
00:18:01,471 --> 00:18:03,081
- you little brat!
- No!

395
00:18:03,081 --> 00:18:05,518
What in the hell do you think
you are doing?

396
00:18:05,518 --> 00:18:06,780
Get out of there!

397
00:18:06,780 --> 00:18:07,955
- Get out of there!
Get off me!

398
00:18:07,955 --> 00:18:09,435
- No! Get out of there!
- Let go!

399
00:18:09,435 --> 00:18:11,698
What are you doing?
- No! Are they in here?

400
00:18:11,698 --> 00:18:14,484
Get back! Cut it out!
- You are hurting me!

401
00:18:14,484 --> 00:18:15,833
Stop it!

402
00:18:15,833 --> 00:18:17,617
- Stop it! Put that back!
Mom!

403
00:18:18,705 --> 00:18:19,750
No.

404
00:18:19,750 --> 00:18:21,186
- Open the door.
- No.

405
00:18:21,186 --> 00:18:22,796
- Open the fucking door!
- Stop it! Stop it.

406
00:18:22,796 --> 00:18:24,146
- Mom, let me out.
- No.

407
00:18:24,146 --> 00:18:26,322
Let me out. Let me out!

408
00:18:26,322 --> 00:18:27,584
Mama!

409
00:18:27,584 --> 00:18:29,368
- No! Stop it!
- Give me those... Ow.

410
00:18:29,368 --> 00:18:31,544
- Stop it!
Ow! Ow, ow, ow, ow.

411
00:18:31,544 --> 00:18:33,677
- You fucking crazy little brat.
No!

412
00:18:36,288 --> 00:18:38,247
Shit!

413
00:18:38,247 --> 00:18:40,553
No, no, no, no, no, no.

414
00:18:40,553 --> 00:18:42,555
Mama, no! Please. No!

415
00:18:44,731 --> 00:18:46,777
Why the fuck did you do that?

416
00:18:46,777 --> 00:18:47,952
I'm in pain!

417
00:18:47,952 --> 00:18:49,083
I don't give a shit!

418
00:18:49,083 --> 00:18:50,563
Your daughter
is in actual pain!

419
00:18:50,563 --> 00:18:51,999
I don't give a shit!

420
00:18:51,999 --> 00:18:55,568
I fucking hate you so much!

421
00:18:55,568 --> 00:18:57,222
You're bleeding!

422
00:19:01,400 --> 00:19:02,749
You get back here right now.

423
00:19:02,749 --> 00:19:04,186
Leave me alone.
- You come back here.

424
00:19:04,186 --> 00:19:05,274
Leave me alone.
- I'm gonna grab your...

425
00:19:06,579 --> 00:19:07,928
Leave me the fuck alone!

426
00:19:07,928 --> 00:19:09,103
I'm not gonna leave you
the fuck alone,

427
00:19:09,103 --> 00:19:10,279
- you little brat.
- Ugh!

428
00:19:15,980 --> 00:19:17,329
Allison!

429
00:19:17,329 --> 00:19:19,462
- Leave me alone!
Where are you going?

430
00:19:19,462 --> 00:19:21,333
Leave me alone!

431
00:19:32,562 --> 00:19:34,346
Let's go, Ryan!

432
00:19:35,652 --> 00:19:37,480
Attagirl! Attagirl!

433
00:19:44,138 --> 00:19:46,140
Fuck!

434
00:19:46,140 --> 00:19:47,881
So you're the Ryan
that's been talking to Damien?

435
00:19:47,881 --> 00:19:49,143
Get the fuck outta my face.

436
00:19:49,143 --> 00:19:50,362
See, you talk to people
like that, bitch,

437
00:19:50,362 --> 00:19:51,885
that's why you have
no fucking friends.

438
00:19:51,885 --> 00:19:53,060
Why are you
hitting on me, huh?

439
00:19:53,060 --> 00:19:54,540
Uh, I'm not the one
named "Ryan."

440
00:19:54,540 --> 00:19:56,281
It's a fucking dyke's name.
You a dyke?

441
00:19:56,281 --> 00:19:59,197
- Only when I fuck your mother.
- Oh, at least I have a mother.

442
00:20:02,635 --> 00:20:04,202
What the fuck
did you just say to me?

443
00:20:04,942 --> 00:20:06,204
Hey!

444
00:20:06,204 --> 00:20:09,468
Stay away from Damien,
you fucking whore.

445
00:20:10,426 --> 00:20:11,470
Hey!

446
00:20:11,470 --> 00:20:13,429
Break that up, Ref!

447
00:20:14,821 --> 00:20:15,909
Break it up.
Break it up!

448
00:20:16,214 --> 00:20:17,259
Hey!

449
00:20:19,870 --> 00:20:22,916
Hey! That's it!
You're both out. Red card.

450
00:20:22,916 --> 00:20:24,309
Ryan,
what the hell was that?

451
00:20:24,309 --> 00:20:25,789
I quit.

452
00:20:25,789 --> 00:20:28,095
I quit.
I hate this fucking game.

453
00:20:28,095 --> 00:20:30,141
Why? Because you got
in a fight?

454
00:20:30,141 --> 00:20:32,186
Come on, that's not you.

455
00:20:32,186 --> 00:20:34,319
You're tough.
You're not a quitter.

456
00:20:34,319 --> 00:20:37,366
- She made fun of Mom.
- What?

457
00:20:37,366 --> 00:20:39,542
She said,
"At least I have a mom."

458
00:20:42,327 --> 00:20:43,894
Well, fuck her.

459
00:20:47,593 --> 00:20:48,681
Well...

460
00:20:50,030 --> 00:20:52,468
And what kind of a punch
was that?

461
00:20:52,468 --> 00:20:54,731
You throw this hard right hook

462
00:20:54,731 --> 00:20:57,386
and then you leave yourself
wide open for the jab.

463
00:20:58,474 --> 00:21:00,171
We're gonna have to work
on that.

464
00:21:17,884 --> 00:21:19,059
Hi.

465
00:21:19,059 --> 00:21:21,627
I'm here to get
a prescription refilled.

466
00:21:21,627 --> 00:21:24,456
Last name, Johnson.
Birthday, August 24th.

467
00:21:24,456 --> 00:21:26,415
Okay. For which medication?

468
00:21:26,415 --> 00:21:29,548
Uh... The Oxy. OxyContin.

469
00:21:29,548 --> 00:21:31,724
It says here
you are out of refills.

470
00:21:31,724 --> 00:21:34,336
I see you've been on them
for over a year now.

471
00:21:34,336 --> 00:21:36,425
Your doctor's probably trying
to wean you off of them.

472
00:21:36,425 --> 00:21:38,818
As I'm sure you know,
they can be very addictive.

473
00:21:38,818 --> 00:21:40,690
Oh, really?
I hadn't fucking heard that.

474
00:21:42,561 --> 00:21:43,693
Sorry.

475
00:21:43,693 --> 00:21:45,434
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

476
00:21:46,173 --> 00:21:48,350
Listen...

477
00:21:48,350 --> 00:21:50,264
I was in a really bad
car accident,

478
00:21:50,264 --> 00:21:53,355
and I need them,
because I'm in a lot of pain.

479
00:21:53,355 --> 00:21:54,399
Just now?

480
00:21:55,618 --> 00:21:56,749
What? No.

481
00:21:56,749 --> 00:21:59,317
Your elbow is bleeding.

482
00:21:59,317 --> 00:22:01,101
Oh, shit.
Look, it's fine.

483
00:22:01,101 --> 00:22:02,625
Let me go get you a bandage.

484
00:22:02,625 --> 00:22:04,496
I don't need
a fucking bandage. It's fine.

485
00:22:08,761 --> 00:22:09,849
Then take this.

486
00:22:12,678 --> 00:22:14,854
Oh, my goodness.
Thank you so much. Thank you.

487
00:22:17,161 --> 00:22:19,816
I feel so much better now.
Thank you.

488
00:22:20,338 --> 00:22:21,687
Fucking bitch.

489
00:22:33,046 --> 00:22:34,918
<i>Burn,
but guess what that burn is?</i>

490
00:22:34,918 --> 00:22:38,008
<i>That burn is in your soul.
It is lifting you up.</i>

491
00:22:38,008 --> 00:22:39,444
<i>You are climbing that mountain</i>

492
00:22:39,444 --> 00:22:41,359
<i>and you are reaching
higher heights</i>

493
00:22:41,359 --> 00:22:43,013
<i>than you ever have before.</i>

494
00:22:43,013 --> 00:22:44,362
<i>Keep pedaling.</i>

495
00:24:20,240 --> 00:24:22,460
Hi.
- Hi!

496
00:24:22,460 --> 00:24:24,288
- Hey!
- Hi!

497
00:24:25,419 --> 00:24:26,551
Hi.

498
00:24:26,551 --> 00:24:29,162
Oh, my God. I love your hair!

499
00:24:29,162 --> 00:24:32,818
- It is so chic. Who did it?
- Ah, thank you! Um...

500
00:24:32,818 --> 00:24:35,429
I, uh, got a new gal.

501
00:24:35,429 --> 00:24:37,997
Well, I gotta get her number.

502
00:24:37,997 --> 00:24:39,433
Okay.

503
00:24:39,433 --> 00:24:42,393
Oh, I was so happy
that you reached out.

504
00:24:42,393 --> 00:24:45,352
Because you weren't responding
to any of my texts.

505
00:24:45,352 --> 00:24:47,224
Of course, I wanted
to give you your space,

506
00:24:47,224 --> 00:24:48,921
but I was worried.

507
00:24:48,921 --> 00:24:50,401
Hi, good morning.
- Hey!

508
00:24:50,401 --> 00:24:51,707
Can I get you anything?

509
00:24:51,707 --> 00:24:54,579
Uh, yeah. Can I please get
a Jack and Coke?

510
00:24:55,101 --> 00:24:57,103
Uh...

511
00:24:57,103 --> 00:24:59,541
Sorry, our bar doesn't
actually open until 11:00.

512
00:24:59,541 --> 00:25:00,890
Oh.

513
00:25:00,890 --> 00:25:04,371
Uh, okay. In that case,
I'll get a black coffee.

514
00:25:04,371 --> 00:25:06,156
- Oat milk latte.
- You got it.

515
00:25:09,463 --> 00:25:11,857
So, how's, how's work?

516
00:25:11,857 --> 00:25:13,032
You're still at Purdue, right?

517
00:25:13,032 --> 00:25:14,599
- Still repping Purdue.
- Yeah.

518
00:25:14,599 --> 00:25:15,992
You'd think it would've been
a shit show

519
00:25:15,992 --> 00:25:17,820
because of the bankruptcy
and all the lawsuits.

520
00:25:17,820 --> 00:25:19,691
- Mm.
- But, between you and me,

521
00:25:19,691 --> 00:25:21,563
my numbers
have actually increased.

522
00:25:21,563 --> 00:25:22,825
Wow.

523
00:25:22,825 --> 00:25:26,176
My bonus last quarter
was insane.

524
00:25:26,176 --> 00:25:28,352
- It sells itself.
- Yeah.

525
00:25:28,352 --> 00:25:29,571
Karl Marx was wrong.

526
00:25:29,571 --> 00:25:31,703
Turns out
the opiate of the masses

527
00:25:31,703 --> 00:25:32,791
is opium.

528
00:25:37,535 --> 00:25:38,710
Anyway.

529
00:25:38,710 --> 00:25:39,972
How are you doing?

530
00:25:39,972 --> 00:25:41,495
When are you going back
to work?

531
00:25:41,495 --> 00:25:42,845
Listen,
I'm just gonna cut right to it

532
00:25:42,845 --> 00:25:43,933
because you're my friend

533
00:25:43,933 --> 00:25:45,935
and I know
you're gonna understand.

534
00:25:45,935 --> 00:25:47,110
Um...

535
00:25:48,241 --> 00:25:50,853
I'm still in a lot of pain.

536
00:25:50,853 --> 00:25:52,376
Oh, Allie...

537
00:25:52,376 --> 00:25:56,510
I know, and my docs
are cutting my Oxy scripts

538
00:25:56,510 --> 00:25:58,774
because everyone's
really freaked out

539
00:25:58,774 --> 00:26:00,253
about addiction these days.

540
00:26:00,253 --> 00:26:02,081
Uh...

541
00:26:02,081 --> 00:26:04,780
So, I was wondering
if it would be possible...

542
00:26:04,780 --> 00:26:06,651
Allie, please tell me
you didn't invite me

543
00:26:06,651 --> 00:26:08,914
to breakfast
to hit me up for pills.

544
00:26:09,306 --> 00:26:10,437
No.

545
00:26:10,437 --> 00:26:12,439
- No, no, no, no, no.

546
00:26:12,439 --> 00:26:14,659
It's just until I can get in,
and see my docs.

547
00:26:14,659 --> 00:26:16,835
Um, because my fucking mother,

548
00:26:16,835 --> 00:26:19,621
she threw my last refill
into the toilet, so...

549
00:26:20,012 --> 00:26:21,666
No way.

550
00:26:21,666 --> 00:26:23,363
Are you fucking
with me right now?

551
00:26:23,363 --> 00:26:24,843
No.

552
00:26:24,843 --> 00:26:26,845
If you have a problem,
you need to get some help.

553
00:26:26,845 --> 00:26:29,282
I can help you
find the right rehab.

554
00:26:29,282 --> 00:26:31,328
Please don't hand me
a pamphlet.

555
00:26:31,328 --> 00:26:32,851
I already have one.

556
00:26:32,851 --> 00:26:35,158
Well, then find them
on the street if you have to.

557
00:26:35,158 --> 00:26:37,203
Every dive bar
in this town's got a guy

558
00:26:37,203 --> 00:26:39,379
with a pharmacy
in his front pocket.

559
00:26:39,379 --> 00:26:41,251
You know, Becka,

560
00:26:42,513 --> 00:26:44,602
I really didn't want
to do this.

561
00:26:46,386 --> 00:26:47,474
But...

562
00:26:49,433 --> 00:26:50,869
there's a handful of things

563
00:26:50,869 --> 00:26:54,133
that happened
at your bachelorette party

564
00:26:54,133 --> 00:26:57,702
that I'm pretty sure
you want to be kept private.

565
00:26:57,702 --> 00:27:01,358
Allison, are you trying
to blackmail me for OxyContin?

566
00:27:01,358 --> 00:27:03,186
I'm just asking you for help.

567
00:27:04,317 --> 00:27:06,537
Like, as a friend.

568
00:27:08,365 --> 00:27:10,541
But you did blow that dancer.

569
00:27:11,498 --> 00:27:12,761
It happened for a second.

570
00:27:12,761 --> 00:27:15,894
I know, I know.
But you did it, and I saw.

571
00:27:16,895 --> 00:27:17,983
It never went in my mouth.

572
00:27:17,983 --> 00:27:21,552
It was in your mouth.

573
00:27:21,552 --> 00:27:22,814
Past the tip.

574
00:27:23,772 --> 00:27:26,296
Past the fucking tip.

575
00:27:27,340 --> 00:27:28,690
Allie, you need help.

576
00:27:29,865 --> 00:27:31,518
Destroy my life
if you have to.

577
00:27:31,518 --> 00:27:35,131
But for the love of God,
get some fucking help!

578
00:27:35,131 --> 00:27:36,610
Okay, bye.
Fuck you.

579
00:27:36,610 --> 00:27:38,047
Fuck you!

580
00:27:43,966 --> 00:27:46,272
Uh... I don't...
Oh, fuck.

581
00:27:48,666 --> 00:27:50,363
I don't have any money.
I'm really sorry.

582
00:27:50,363 --> 00:27:51,713
I can't pay for those.

583
00:27:51,713 --> 00:27:54,193
That's okay. Take it.

584
00:27:54,193 --> 00:27:56,108
I mixed in a little tequila
for you.

585
00:28:04,726 --> 00:28:06,075
That's disgusting.

586
00:28:07,598 --> 00:28:08,599
Thank you.

587
00:28:11,689 --> 00:28:14,474
<i>Mr. Adams,
we really wanna do</i>

588
00:28:14,474 --> 00:28:16,650
<i>everything we can
to help Ryan.</i>

589
00:28:18,914 --> 00:28:20,524
But she needs to take
some responsibility

590
00:28:20,524 --> 00:28:22,526
for her behavior.

591
00:28:22,526 --> 00:28:25,616
That girl does not listen
to a thing I say.

592
00:28:27,270 --> 00:28:28,750
To be honest,

593
00:28:28,750 --> 00:28:30,490
I was hoping
you were calling me in here

594
00:28:30,490 --> 00:28:32,188
to give me some advice.

595
00:28:33,929 --> 00:28:35,757
I need help.

596
00:28:35,757 --> 00:28:37,759
It's just that
we're a public school.

597
00:28:37,759 --> 00:28:40,674
We have 2,000 kids
to look after.

598
00:28:40,674 --> 00:28:42,241
We don't have the bandwidth

599
00:28:42,241 --> 00:28:44,896
to micromanage her in ways
that she deserves and needs.

600
00:28:44,896 --> 00:28:46,637
So, what are you saying?

601
00:28:47,638 --> 00:28:49,335
I will give her
an extra strike

602
00:28:49,335 --> 00:28:51,773
because of the circumstances.

603
00:28:51,773 --> 00:28:53,426
But if she doesn't tone down
her language

604
00:28:53,426 --> 00:28:55,080
with her teachers

605
00:28:55,080 --> 00:28:56,952
and gets into one more fight,

606
00:28:57,909 --> 00:28:59,258
we'll have to expel her.

607
00:29:20,932 --> 00:29:23,805
Hi, can I get
a double tequila, please?

608
00:29:31,769 --> 00:29:32,770
Allison.

609
00:29:33,727 --> 00:29:35,817
Yo, I know you.

610
00:29:36,948 --> 00:29:37,949
It's Mark.

611
00:29:38,907 --> 00:29:40,082
Yeah, hey.

612
00:29:40,082 --> 00:29:41,953
Yeah.

613
00:29:41,953 --> 00:29:44,608
I haven't seen you
since high school.

614
00:29:44,608 --> 00:29:47,045
This is Diego.
You remember Diego?

615
00:29:47,045 --> 00:29:48,220
- Hey.
Hey.

616
00:29:49,265 --> 00:29:51,049
You just having
a little breakfast?

617
00:29:51,049 --> 00:29:53,835
Uh... Um... I just...

618
00:29:55,445 --> 00:29:57,360
I just needed
to get out of the house.

619
00:29:57,360 --> 00:29:59,449
Yeah, I feel that.

620
00:29:59,449 --> 00:30:01,886
I heard what happened to you.
The accident.

621
00:30:01,886 --> 00:30:03,061
Saw it in the <i>Star Ledger.</i> Sorry.

622
00:30:03,061 --> 00:30:04,497
What happened?

623
00:30:04,497 --> 00:30:05,716
She was in that
accident on the turnpike.

624
00:30:05,716 --> 00:30:07,283
Two people died.

625
00:30:07,283 --> 00:30:08,850
Holy shit.

626
00:30:09,894 --> 00:30:11,287
That was you.

627
00:30:12,244 --> 00:30:14,246
Oh, bro.

628
00:30:14,246 --> 00:30:16,205
That would've fucked me up.

629
00:30:16,205 --> 00:30:17,423
It wasn't my fault.

630
00:30:17,423 --> 00:30:20,035
Yeah, I'm sure.
But, like, still...

631
00:30:25,910 --> 00:30:26,868
Damn.

632
00:30:30,306 --> 00:30:33,309
Hey, can I
have another one, please?

633
00:30:34,614 --> 00:30:35,789
You having a tough day?

634
00:30:37,008 --> 00:30:38,357
Just a day.

635
00:30:39,793 --> 00:30:42,057
I just wanna get as far away
from here as possible.

636
00:30:42,057 --> 00:30:43,406
Yo, there's this app,

637
00:30:43,406 --> 00:30:44,798
it tells you
the exact opposite

638
00:30:44,798 --> 00:30:46,713
of where you are
on the globe is.

639
00:30:46,713 --> 00:30:48,802
That's where you should go.
I'll look it up for you.

640
00:30:48,802 --> 00:30:51,370
Yo, that's how I feel
every fuckin' day of my life.

641
00:30:51,370 --> 00:30:53,807
I can't seem to escape
this town.

642
00:30:53,807 --> 00:30:55,461
It's like there's
a force field around it

643
00:30:55,461 --> 00:30:57,115
or something.

644
00:30:57,115 --> 00:30:59,813
Like, some people know
how to get outta here.

645
00:30:59,813 --> 00:31:01,337
But the rest of us,

646
00:31:01,337 --> 00:31:03,078
we just keep banging our heads
up against the glass.

647
00:31:03,078 --> 00:31:05,254
It's Perth. That's the city

648
00:31:05,254 --> 00:31:07,125
on the other side of the globe
from here.

649
00:31:07,125 --> 00:31:08,997
You should go to Perth.

650
00:31:08,997 --> 00:31:11,564
I don't have enough money
to get to Perth,

651
00:31:11,564 --> 00:31:13,044
but thank you.

652
00:31:13,044 --> 00:31:15,003
Aren't you engaged
to Nathan Adams?

653
00:31:16,221 --> 00:31:18,180
I was, yeah.

654
00:31:18,180 --> 00:31:20,747
He was an amazing running back
in high school.

655
00:31:20,747 --> 00:31:21,923
He used to run
every fucking play.

656
00:31:21,923 --> 00:31:23,054
- You remember him, Mark?
Yeah.

657
00:31:23,054 --> 00:31:24,186
Every fucking play,

658
00:31:24,186 --> 00:31:25,796
they'd come
on the PA system like,

659
00:31:25,796 --> 00:31:29,408
"Nathan Adams,
the ball carrier."

660
00:31:29,408 --> 00:31:31,367
He was the whole fucking team.
You remember him, Mark?

661
00:31:31,367 --> 00:31:33,238
Yeah, I remember him.

662
00:31:33,238 --> 00:31:34,805
Isn't he deaf?

663
00:31:34,805 --> 00:31:38,200
Uh... In one ear. Since birth.

664
00:31:38,200 --> 00:31:39,505
Wow, that's impressive

665
00:31:39,505 --> 00:31:41,116
that he could be, like,
that good, you know?

666
00:31:41,116 --> 00:31:42,769
And half deaf.

667
00:31:42,769 --> 00:31:44,075
So you're, like, single?

668
00:31:44,075 --> 00:31:47,122
Yo.
Shut the fuck up, Diego.

669
00:31:47,122 --> 00:31:49,559
What? You think
she's gonna date you?

670
00:31:49,559 --> 00:31:51,256
Where are you gonna take her?
You live with your mom.

671
00:31:51,256 --> 00:31:54,085
God damn.

672
00:31:54,085 --> 00:31:55,304
Allison, I'm sorry.

673
00:31:55,304 --> 00:31:58,394
My fucking friend
has no tact at all.

674
00:31:58,394 --> 00:32:01,136
We're not used to having

675
00:32:01,136 --> 00:32:03,790
pretty girls such as yourself
come in here.

676
00:32:03,790 --> 00:32:05,531
So, you gotta excuse his

677
00:32:05,531 --> 00:32:07,272
lack of decor.

678
00:32:09,535 --> 00:32:10,754
Decorum.

679
00:32:11,581 --> 00:32:12,669
What?

680
00:32:13,800 --> 00:32:16,064
"Decor" is

681
00:32:16,064 --> 00:32:20,155
the Bud Light lamp
above my head.

682
00:32:21,243 --> 00:32:23,897
"Decorum" is his behavior.

683
00:32:25,508 --> 00:32:27,814
Neither is currently ideal.

684
00:32:32,515 --> 00:32:34,343
Hey, can I ask you
something, like,

685
00:32:35,431 --> 00:32:37,128
between us old friends?

686
00:32:37,128 --> 00:32:39,391
You weren't our friend.
You were popular.

687
00:32:39,391 --> 00:32:41,567
- You were a bitch, actually.
- All right. Diego.

688
00:32:43,308 --> 00:32:46,094
That's old shit.
Right, Allison?

689
00:32:46,094 --> 00:32:48,574
We're past that.
We're grown-ups.

690
00:32:48,574 --> 00:32:51,490
Those of us stuck behind
this force field,

691
00:32:51,490 --> 00:32:54,450
- we gotta stick together.
Yeah.

692
00:32:54,450 --> 00:32:58,671
Um, do you know
where I could get some Oxy?

693
00:32:58,671 --> 00:33:00,195
God damn, girl.

694
00:33:00,195 --> 00:33:02,371
No foreplay. No nothing.

695
00:33:02,371 --> 00:33:05,591
No "How are you?
How's your family?"

696
00:33:05,591 --> 00:33:07,028
No, we don't fuck with pills.

697
00:33:07,811 --> 00:33:09,204
I remember in high school

698
00:33:09,204 --> 00:33:11,119
you were the guys
that could, like,

699
00:33:12,033 --> 00:33:13,251
get anything.

700
00:33:13,251 --> 00:33:15,210
And now you're just
buttering us up.

701
00:33:16,820 --> 00:33:18,909
I don't have any money.

702
00:33:18,909 --> 00:33:21,346
How are you gonna pay
for that tequila?

703
00:33:21,346 --> 00:33:24,045
I hadn't got that far yet.

704
00:33:24,045 --> 00:33:25,959
- Is that Rolex real?
- Wait a second.

705
00:33:26,656 --> 00:33:28,658
Wait. Allie Johnson.

706
00:33:28,658 --> 00:33:31,617
Miss lovely Allie Johnson.

707
00:33:32,749 --> 00:33:34,881
You just stroll in here.

708
00:33:34,881 --> 00:33:36,796
You got no money.

709
00:33:36,796 --> 00:33:39,277
And you expect us
to get you Oxy?

710
00:33:39,277 --> 00:33:41,975
For free, and then you want us
to pay for your drink.

711
00:33:43,499 --> 00:33:44,978
Why the fuck would we do that?

712
00:33:46,458 --> 00:33:47,894
Nostalgia?

713
00:33:48,939 --> 00:33:50,375
Old friends?

714
00:33:50,375 --> 00:33:51,985
You thought you were
such hot shit in high school.

715
00:33:51,985 --> 00:33:53,161
You're no
fucking different now.

716
00:33:53,161 --> 00:33:54,640
All right. Shut up.

717
00:33:55,032 --> 00:33:56,468
Sorry.

718
00:33:56,468 --> 00:33:59,819
This guy. No decorum.

719
00:33:59,819 --> 00:34:00,994
No, he's right.

720
00:34:02,387 --> 00:34:04,955
I didn't think I was better
than you. I knew it.

721
00:34:05,999 --> 00:34:07,653
I looked down
on guys like you.

722
00:34:09,133 --> 00:34:12,049
I thought
you were Jersey trash

723
00:34:12,049 --> 00:34:14,660
that would never be able
to make it out of town.

724
00:34:18,011 --> 00:34:19,535
Fucking bitch.

725
00:34:19,535 --> 00:34:21,363
But now you're sitting here

726
00:34:22,103 --> 00:34:23,756
right beside us

727
00:34:23,756 --> 00:34:26,411
and you're looking for a fix.

728
00:34:26,411 --> 00:34:27,978
A favor.

729
00:34:27,978 --> 00:34:30,198
The favor is a fix.

730
00:34:31,764 --> 00:34:34,027
- You're a fucking junkie now.
- No, I'm not.

731
00:34:34,027 --> 00:34:36,117
- You're a fucking junkie.
- No.

732
00:34:36,117 --> 00:34:37,205
Yeah, you are.
- Yeah, you are.

733
00:34:37,205 --> 00:34:38,597
Come on.
You're a fuckin' junkie.

734
00:34:38,597 --> 00:34:39,903
No. I'm not like you.

735
00:34:39,903 --> 00:34:41,339
Allie Johnson,

736
00:34:41,339 --> 00:34:43,733
you're so much more
like who you think we are

737
00:34:43,733 --> 00:34:45,256
than we actually are.

738
00:34:47,128 --> 00:34:49,521
Come on.
Say it, say it, say it.

739
00:34:49,521 --> 00:34:51,306
"I'm a fucking junkie."
You might like it.

740
00:34:51,306 --> 00:34:53,134
Fuck you. It's a pill.

741
00:34:53,134 --> 00:34:56,267
It's heroin
in a pretty little dress.

742
00:34:56,267 --> 00:34:57,964
I thought you were
the nice one.

743
00:34:59,314 --> 00:35:01,925
Why don't you say it?
Say... Say,

744
00:35:02,795 --> 00:35:05,189
"I'm a fucking junkie,"

745
00:35:05,189 --> 00:35:07,757
and then I'll get you whatever
you want. Anything.

746
00:35:09,280 --> 00:35:12,544
Say it. Just, like,
just come out with it.

747
00:35:12,544 --> 00:35:13,719
I'm currently reliant...

748
00:35:13,719 --> 00:35:17,245
No, that's not
what I fucking said.

749
00:35:17,245 --> 00:35:20,117
You sneaky little bitch.
That's not what I fucking said.

750
00:35:20,117 --> 00:35:21,379
- Is that what I said?
- No.

751
00:35:21,379 --> 00:35:23,207
That is not what I said.

752
00:35:25,078 --> 00:35:27,559
Say you're a fuckin' junkie.
Look at me.

753
00:35:27,559 --> 00:35:28,734
Look at me!

754
00:35:29,735 --> 00:35:32,564
Look me in the eyes, and say,

755
00:35:32,564 --> 00:35:35,785
"I'm a fucking junkie."

756
00:35:35,785 --> 00:35:37,178
Say it!

757
00:35:41,269 --> 00:35:42,966
I'm a fucking junkie.

758
00:35:47,144 --> 00:35:48,189
Good girl.

759
00:35:50,713 --> 00:35:52,149
Beth, I got these tequilas.

760
00:35:53,455 --> 00:35:55,761
I'm sorry
for raising my voice.

761
00:35:55,761 --> 00:35:56,936
We're just catching up.

762
00:35:57,546 --> 00:35:59,200
Allie, this is Beth.

763
00:35:59,200 --> 00:36:01,245
She's divine. She's the best.

764
00:36:08,644 --> 00:36:09,993
That's not Oxy.

765
00:36:10,733 --> 00:36:11,951
Same shit.

766
00:36:51,208 --> 00:36:52,383
Thank you.
Ooh, she just walked in.

767
00:36:53,689 --> 00:36:55,168
Oh, my God.
I was so worried about you.

768
00:36:55,168 --> 00:36:56,257
Where were you?

769
00:36:56,257 --> 00:36:59,260
- I'm so sorry.
- Oh, babe, oh.

770
00:36:59,260 --> 00:37:01,174
- I'm sorry.
- Uh-huh. No...

771
00:37:01,174 --> 00:37:02,872
I need help.

772
00:37:02,872 --> 00:37:04,221
I know. I never should have

773
00:37:04,221 --> 00:37:05,701
flushed those pills
down the toilet.

774
00:37:05,701 --> 00:37:08,225
I had no right. I'm so sorry.
I was just so worried.

775
00:37:08,225 --> 00:37:09,444
Can you help me, please, Mama?

776
00:37:09,444 --> 00:37:11,228
Yes, yes, I already did.

777
00:37:11,228 --> 00:37:13,274
Here, I got these from Linda.

778
00:37:13,274 --> 00:37:14,884
She's the woman
who works next to me

779
00:37:14,884 --> 00:37:16,538
in the toy kiosk at the mall.

780
00:37:16,538 --> 00:37:18,017
Her doctor gave them to her

781
00:37:18,017 --> 00:37:19,802
after she got punched
in the face by a shoplifter,

782
00:37:19,802 --> 00:37:21,020
but she said
she didn't need them.

783
00:37:21,020 --> 00:37:22,326
She swore by the neck brace.

784
00:37:22,326 --> 00:37:24,110
But you need 'em, honey.
So here.

785
00:37:24,110 --> 00:37:26,765
That right there is a gift
from Linda, okay?

786
00:37:26,765 --> 00:37:28,332
And we can worry
about kicking it later.

787
00:37:28,332 --> 00:37:29,768
Let's not rush things.

788
00:37:29,768 --> 00:37:31,988
What matters the most
is that you're home safe.

789
00:37:31,988 --> 00:37:35,165
Oh, babe.
Oh, my baby.

790
00:37:39,778 --> 00:37:41,302
Hey, Ry?

791
00:37:42,912 --> 00:37:44,827
Got Chinese food!

792
00:37:45,741 --> 00:37:48,265
I got sweet and sour chicken,

793
00:37:48,265 --> 00:37:51,050
beef with broccoli,
steamed rice.

794
00:37:51,790 --> 00:37:52,748
Where are ya?

795
00:37:53,401 --> 00:37:54,706
Hey, Ry?

796
00:37:55,968 --> 00:37:57,100
Ryan!

797
00:37:58,754 --> 00:38:01,191
What the...
Daniel, get out!

798
00:38:01,191 --> 00:38:02,497
- Hey. Hey!

799
00:38:02,497 --> 00:38:04,194
Okay. Whoa, whoa! Okay.

800
00:38:04,194 --> 00:38:06,283
Whoa, whoa, whoa. Calm down!
It's not what you think.

801
00:38:06,283 --> 00:38:08,546
I'm pretty sure it is
what I think. How old are you?

802
00:38:08,546 --> 00:38:09,721
Daniel! Get off of him.

803
00:38:09,721 --> 00:38:11,070
Shut up!

804
00:38:11,070 --> 00:38:12,681
I asked you a question, boy.
How old are you?

805
00:38:12,681 --> 00:38:15,031
- I'm 20.
- She's 16, and I'm an ex-cop.

806
00:38:15,031 --> 00:38:16,598
Looks like you picked
the wrong girl.

807
00:38:16,598 --> 00:38:17,816
You're choking him!

808
00:38:17,816 --> 00:38:19,644
She said she was 18 online.

809
00:38:19,644 --> 00:38:22,343
If I ever catch you
near my granddaughter again,

810
00:38:22,343 --> 00:38:23,996
I'm gonna rip
your fucking dick off

811
00:38:23,996 --> 00:38:25,607
and shove it down your throat.
You feel me?

812
00:38:25,607 --> 00:38:27,260
Yes, sir. Yes.

813
00:38:27,260 --> 00:38:29,045
Get the fuck out of here.

814
00:38:29,045 --> 00:38:31,482
Yes, sir.
Uh, I need my clothes.

815
00:38:31,482 --> 00:38:34,180
They're in my house.
They're my clothes now.

816
00:38:34,180 --> 00:38:35,356
Run away!

817
00:38:37,749 --> 00:38:38,881
Daniel!

818
00:38:38,881 --> 00:38:40,926
Get out of my fucking room!

819
00:38:40,926 --> 00:38:42,275
What the fuck?

820
00:38:42,275 --> 00:38:44,277
Hey, look, everybody!

821
00:38:44,277 --> 00:38:46,758
Statutory rapist
from Williamsburg!

822
00:38:46,758 --> 00:38:47,977
I need my keys!

823
00:38:47,977 --> 00:38:51,328
Oh, his keys! His keys!
Look at him!

824
00:38:51,328 --> 00:38:54,679
He's scrambling to his car!
Statutory rapist!

825
00:38:54,679 --> 00:38:55,898
Hey, Belinda,

826
00:38:55,898 --> 00:38:58,422
I found this fool in bed
with my Ryan.

827
00:38:58,422 --> 00:39:00,293
She said...
She said she was 18 online.

828
00:39:00,293 --> 00:39:01,730
You're a fuckboy.

829
00:39:01,730 --> 00:39:03,993
He's a fuckboy! That's what
the kids call them!

830
00:39:03,993 --> 00:39:06,561
Get out of
our neighborhood, fuckboy!

831
00:39:06,561 --> 00:39:08,127
Okay. Okay!

832
00:39:08,127 --> 00:39:09,215
Get out of here, fuckboy!

833
00:39:09,215 --> 00:39:10,303
All right! All right!

834
00:39:10,303 --> 00:39:11,566
Right fucking now!

835
00:39:11,566 --> 00:39:13,655
- Wet, flaccid fuckboy!
Okay, okay!

836
00:39:13,655 --> 00:39:14,743
Okay!

837
00:39:17,963 --> 00:39:20,009
I cannot believe
you just did that!

838
00:39:20,009 --> 00:39:21,097
Give me your phone.

839
00:39:22,446 --> 00:39:24,187
Give me the fucking phone
right now!

840
00:39:29,235 --> 00:39:30,715
You're grounded.

841
00:39:30,715 --> 00:39:33,979
You hear me?
You're grounded until...

842
00:39:33,979 --> 00:39:37,113
Shit, I can't think of
when you won't be grounded.

843
00:39:37,113 --> 00:39:38,941
You can't just lock me up, Daniel.

844
00:39:38,941 --> 00:39:41,900
For the last
fucking time, Ryan,

845
00:39:41,900 --> 00:39:43,946
you call me "Grandpa."

846
00:39:46,688 --> 00:39:50,474
I hate you!
I fucking hate you!

847
00:41:06,158 --> 00:41:09,988
<i>♪ Oh, I'm headed
to the mountains ♪</i>

848
00:41:12,251 --> 00:41:15,733
<i>♪ I'll be back
in a week or two ♪</i>

849
00:41:17,561 --> 00:41:19,824
<i>♪ Don't you try to reach me ♪</i>

850
00:41:19,824 --> 00:41:22,566
<i>♪ 'Cause I won't
pick up for you ♪</i>

851
00:41:25,830 --> 00:41:28,485
<i>♪ I've got some things
I neeed to do ♪</i>

852
00:41:43,761 --> 00:41:47,983
<i>♪ Oh, I'm headed
to the mountains ♪</i>

853
00:41:49,985 --> 00:41:52,944
<i>♪ The only place
I feel at peace ♪</i>

854
00:41:55,556 --> 00:41:58,036
<i>♪ And I knew
you'd come after me ♪</i>

855
00:41:58,036 --> 00:41:59,211
<i>♪ So I threw away
your keys... ♪</i>

856
00:42:02,475 --> 00:42:08,960
<i>♪ But I know you'd never go
when I say leave ♪</i>

857
00:42:08,960 --> 00:42:14,096
<i>♪ I'm headed to the mountains
don't wait up for me ♪</i>

858
00:42:23,888 --> 00:42:25,586
Allison, don't go.

859
00:42:27,326 --> 00:42:30,634
- This was a mistake.
- No. No, it isn't.

860
00:42:30,634 --> 00:42:34,638
Trust me, I know
how hard it is to get here.

861
00:42:34,638 --> 00:42:37,598
It's damn near impossible,
and you did it.

862
00:42:37,598 --> 00:42:39,730
Don't run away now
because of me.

863
00:42:39,730 --> 00:42:40,992
There are thousands
of meetings.

864
00:42:40,992 --> 00:42:42,603
- I'll find another one.
- Well, yeah,

865
00:42:42,603 --> 00:42:44,343
but this one
has the best snacks.

866
00:42:44,343 --> 00:42:45,997
- I wanna go.
- No.

867
00:42:45,997 --> 00:42:48,521
No, no. You've made it
this far, and I wouldn't.

868
00:42:48,521 --> 00:42:50,698
I don't wanna be here.

869
00:42:50,698 --> 00:42:52,264
Nobody does in the beginning.

870
00:42:52,264 --> 00:42:54,702
I don't wanna be anywhere.

871
00:42:54,702 --> 00:42:57,356
Then you are definitely
in the right spot.

872
00:42:58,444 --> 00:42:59,794
I thought you were sober.

873
00:43:00,577 --> 00:43:01,970
Ten years.

874
00:43:01,970 --> 00:43:05,713
I kinda slacked off
coming to regular meetings,

875
00:43:05,713 --> 00:43:07,453
and then lately, I...

876
00:43:08,498 --> 00:43:10,500
I realized I need the support.

877
00:43:11,501 --> 00:43:12,720
Because of what happened?

878
00:43:12,720 --> 00:43:15,853
No, no, no! No, it's...

879
00:43:15,853 --> 00:43:17,420
Is the accident the reason
why you came back?

880
00:43:17,420 --> 00:43:18,856
No, I just feel that...

881
00:43:18,856 --> 00:43:20,597
Daniel, am I the reason
why you're back here?

882
00:43:20,597 --> 00:43:21,729
Yes!

883
00:43:25,689 --> 00:43:27,038
Yes, of course.

884
00:43:29,084 --> 00:43:30,607
What the hell
do you want me to say?

885
00:43:31,477 --> 00:43:33,392
- I'm sorry.
- No.

886
00:43:33,392 --> 00:43:35,307
Look.

887
00:43:35,307 --> 00:43:39,747
I got ten years,
and lately, I've been feeling

888
00:43:39,747 --> 00:43:43,272
like I really,
really want a drink.

889
00:43:45,100 --> 00:43:46,449
This works.

890
00:43:48,712 --> 00:43:49,800
Thank you.

891
00:43:49,800 --> 00:43:52,847
Um, I'm gonna find
somewhere else.

892
00:43:52,847 --> 00:43:54,631
There are thousands
of these meetings.

893
00:43:54,631 --> 00:43:57,895
Yeah, but somehow you found
your way to this one.

894
00:43:59,505 --> 00:44:00,898
Now isn't that something?

895
00:44:03,814 --> 00:44:05,424
All right, come on.

896
00:44:10,038 --> 00:44:11,169
Come on.

897
00:44:13,258 --> 00:44:14,303
Okay.

898
00:44:15,870 --> 00:44:17,872
<i>Everybody, welcome.</i>

899
00:44:17,872 --> 00:44:19,395
This is the regular meeting

900
00:44:19,395 --> 00:44:22,093
of the Live and Let Live group
of Alcoholics Anonymous.

901
00:44:22,093 --> 00:44:23,399
My name is Simone,

902
00:44:23,399 --> 00:44:26,184
and I'm an alcoholic,
and your secretary.

903
00:44:26,184 --> 00:44:29,100
Let us open the meeting
with the Serenity Prayer.

904
00:44:31,276 --> 00:44:32,408
God...

905
00:44:32,408 --> 00:44:33,583
...grant me the serenity

906
00:44:33,583 --> 00:44:36,107
to accept the things
I cannot change,

907
00:44:36,107 --> 00:44:38,762
the courage
to change the things I can,

908
00:44:38,762 --> 00:44:41,809
and the wisdom
to know the difference.

909
00:44:47,597 --> 00:44:51,253
Hey, you got up awfully early
this morning.

910
00:44:51,253 --> 00:44:53,255
I went to an NA meeting.

911
00:44:53,255 --> 00:44:55,997
What? You did?
- Mmm-hmm. Mmm-hmm.

912
00:44:55,997 --> 00:44:59,740
Oh, Allie.
I'm so happy to hear that.

913
00:44:59,740 --> 00:45:02,090
Well, I'm not saying
I'm gonna go again.

914
00:45:02,090 --> 00:45:04,396
Well, you gotta start somewhere,

915
00:45:04,396 --> 00:45:05,963
and sounds like you did.

916
00:45:05,963 --> 00:45:07,530
- Mm-hmm.
- So that's good.

917
00:45:07,530 --> 00:45:12,143
I don't know if I'll be able
to just quit, though, Mom.

918
00:45:12,143 --> 00:45:14,232
I think I need real help,

919
00:45:14,232 --> 00:45:16,844
like an in-patient program
or something.

920
00:45:16,844 --> 00:45:18,715
Well, honey,
neither of us has insurance,

921
00:45:18,715 --> 00:45:21,413
so how the hell are we
supposed to pay for that?

922
00:45:21,413 --> 00:45:22,980
I mean, you gotta get a job.

923
00:45:22,980 --> 00:45:25,766
Mom, who's gonna hire me
like this?

924
00:45:25,766 --> 00:45:27,855
- Come on.
- Like, no...

925
00:45:27,855 --> 00:45:29,030
What do you mean?

926
00:45:29,030 --> 00:45:30,727
You're a beautiful
26-year-old woman.

927
00:45:30,727 --> 00:45:33,425
- You're smart, you're funny...
- No, I'm not. No, I'm not.

928
00:45:33,425 --> 00:45:35,166
- Yes, you are.
- No, I'm not.

929
00:45:35,166 --> 00:45:36,907
That's the old me
you're describing.

930
00:45:36,907 --> 00:45:37,995
You're still you.

931
00:45:37,995 --> 00:45:40,955
No, I'm not! I'm...

932
00:45:40,955 --> 00:45:43,261
I'm something else.

933
00:45:45,046 --> 00:45:46,221
I'm something...

934
00:45:47,265 --> 00:45:48,789
Ugh. Um...

935
00:45:54,229 --> 00:45:56,274
I was thinking, um...

936
00:45:59,843 --> 00:46:03,499
You know how Dad was probably
gonna get me a wedding gift,

937
00:46:03,499 --> 00:46:05,806
or, well, at least
he was gonna come, right?

938
00:46:05,806 --> 00:46:07,677
Maybe instead
of whatever it was

939
00:46:07,677 --> 00:46:09,505
that he was gonna give me,

940
00:46:11,028 --> 00:46:15,380
maybe he could help pay
for me to get help.

941
00:46:15,380 --> 00:46:17,818
And so, I was wondering if you

942
00:46:18,514 --> 00:46:20,124
would call him for me.

943
00:46:20,124 --> 00:46:23,432
Allie, I will never speak
to that man as long as I live.

944
00:46:23,432 --> 00:46:24,912
Do you know what he did?

945
00:46:24,912 --> 00:46:27,566
He packed his car up,
and he left us with nothing.

946
00:46:27,566 --> 00:46:29,568
But it is what it is, okay?

947
00:46:29,568 --> 00:46:33,007
So, you gotta pull yourself up
by your bootstraps, now.

948
00:46:34,617 --> 00:46:35,836
Thanks, Mom.

949
00:46:35,836 --> 00:46:37,620
Yeah, I'm sorry
I can't get over this

950
00:46:37,620 --> 00:46:39,448
as fast as you want me to.

951
00:46:39,448 --> 00:46:41,058
- Allie...
- Nah.

952
00:46:52,200 --> 00:46:53,854
Well, look who it is.

953
00:46:54,593 --> 00:46:56,900
Hi, Dad.

954
00:46:56,900 --> 00:47:00,077
What brings you to the less
glamorous side of the river?

955
00:47:00,077 --> 00:47:02,471
Ryan asked me to come see her.

956
00:47:02,471 --> 00:47:05,126
Turns out, she really
wanted me to talk to you.

957
00:47:05,126 --> 00:47:07,476
- Oh?
- She's worried about you.

958
00:47:07,476 --> 00:47:09,173
She's worried about me?

959
00:47:10,174 --> 00:47:12,046
That girl's crazy.

960
00:47:12,046 --> 00:47:14,962
She says she thinks
you need a friend.

961
00:47:14,962 --> 00:47:16,746
Hell, I don't need a friend.

962
00:47:16,746 --> 00:47:18,922
I need a dog crate
the size of a teenager.

963
00:47:22,360 --> 00:47:24,493
Look, Nathan,
I understand your need

964
00:47:24,493 --> 00:47:26,451
to move on
after the breakup...

965
00:47:28,889 --> 00:47:29,933
but, hell, I never imagined

966
00:47:29,933 --> 00:47:32,849
I'd be doing this
all by myself.

967
00:47:32,849 --> 00:47:34,503
You raised two kids.

968
00:47:34,503 --> 00:47:35,765
I had your mother.

969
00:47:37,593 --> 00:47:40,204
And you and your sister were
much better behaved than Ry.

970
00:47:42,946 --> 00:47:45,383
What? Come on.
Speak your mind, son.

971
00:47:45,383 --> 00:47:48,299
We were good because
we were terrified of you.

972
00:47:49,997 --> 00:47:51,781
So, I'm not surprised

973
00:47:51,781 --> 00:47:53,217
you don't have any tools
in your arsenal

974
00:47:53,217 --> 00:47:55,437
since you lost
the only one that you had.

975
00:47:55,437 --> 00:47:56,917
Fear.

976
00:47:59,920 --> 00:48:05,490
I have apologized 100 times
to you for the way I was.

977
00:48:08,015 --> 00:48:11,540
Your sister found a way
to give me another chance.

978
00:48:11,540 --> 00:48:13,194
How come you can't?

979
00:48:13,194 --> 00:48:16,675
'Cause Molly never really got
the brunt of it, did she?

980
00:48:16,675 --> 00:48:19,722
I guarantee you that if
she was standing here now,

981
00:48:19,722 --> 00:48:22,333
she would be begging you
to drop this shit,

982
00:48:22,333 --> 00:48:23,900
and help me raise her child.

983
00:48:23,900 --> 00:48:25,423
Well, she isn't.

984
00:48:27,338 --> 00:48:28,818
No, she's not.

985
00:48:32,865 --> 00:48:34,606
I have to catch the train.

986
00:48:35,781 --> 00:48:37,218
I saw Allison.

987
00:48:41,700 --> 00:48:42,832
Where?

988
00:48:42,832 --> 00:48:44,921
Not supposed to say.

989
00:48:46,009 --> 00:48:47,576
AA?

990
00:48:47,576 --> 00:48:48,794
Not supposed to say.

991
00:48:48,794 --> 00:48:50,144
What the hell
does she need AA for?

992
00:48:50,144 --> 00:48:51,928
- I'm not supposed to...
- To say.

993
00:48:54,409 --> 00:48:55,410
I got it.

994
00:48:57,151 --> 00:48:59,501
Of all the meetings,
she ends up at yours?

995
00:48:59,501 --> 00:49:02,025
She saw me,
she tried to run away,

996
00:49:02,025 --> 00:49:04,245
but I pulled her back.

997
00:49:04,245 --> 00:49:05,463
Why?

998
00:49:06,638 --> 00:49:07,857
She's suffering, Nathan.

999
00:49:09,424 --> 00:49:10,468
Broken.

1000
00:49:11,339 --> 00:49:12,427
Lost.

1001
00:49:12,427 --> 00:49:14,820
You're the one who blamed her!

1002
00:49:15,952 --> 00:49:17,345
I stood by her!

1003
00:49:17,345 --> 00:49:20,609
Yeah, until she left your ass.

1004
00:49:20,609 --> 00:49:24,091
Sorry. Sorry, that came out
harsher than I meant.

1005
00:49:24,091 --> 00:49:26,136
I have to catch the train.

1006
00:49:26,136 --> 00:49:27,485
Please, Nathan.

1007
00:49:28,312 --> 00:49:30,488
I need help.

1008
00:49:30,488 --> 00:49:33,274
Ryan asked me to come by
and say "hi" to you.

1009
00:49:34,318 --> 00:49:35,580
And I did.

1010
00:49:36,929 --> 00:49:37,930
Okay.

1011
00:49:40,629 --> 00:49:41,717
Hi.

1012
00:50:00,866 --> 00:50:03,478
<i>- Best first date ever.
- I heard that.</i>

1013
00:50:17,492 --> 00:50:20,364
<i>I used to drink
whiskey until I blacked out.</i>

1014
00:50:21,800 --> 00:50:23,889
Wake up the next morning
to find out

1015
00:50:25,065 --> 00:50:27,328
what I had done,
who I had been.

1016
00:50:33,247 --> 00:50:35,031
My father was a drunk.

1017
00:50:37,947 --> 00:50:42,082
He beat me
right up to the day he died.

1018
00:50:44,606 --> 00:50:48,088
And I vowed I would never
lay a hand on my children.

1019
00:50:50,394 --> 00:50:51,743
And I didn't...

1020
00:50:53,789 --> 00:50:55,312
while I was sober.

1021
00:50:58,228 --> 00:50:59,838
But in the blackness...

1022
00:51:03,625 --> 00:51:07,368
I always denied because
I really couldn't remember.

1023
00:51:09,109 --> 00:51:10,936
Sometimes there'd be a bruise.

1024
00:51:13,025 --> 00:51:16,420
"Oh, you must have
fallen down.

1025
00:51:16,420 --> 00:51:18,509
"I'm your daddy.
I would never hurt you."

1026
00:51:20,076 --> 00:51:22,600
August 11th, '99...

1027
00:51:25,908 --> 00:51:30,347
I woke up on my front porch to
the sound of church bells...

1028
00:51:33,263 --> 00:51:34,960
and an ice cream truck.

1029
00:51:36,005 --> 00:51:38,094
So, I knew it was Sunday.

1030
00:51:38,094 --> 00:51:42,272
First thing
I saw was my captain

1031
00:51:43,534 --> 00:51:46,058
standing over me,

1032
00:51:46,058 --> 00:51:48,670
poking me in the ribs
with his nightstick.

1033
00:51:51,977 --> 00:51:53,327
An ambulance.

1034
00:51:55,155 --> 00:51:58,897
My son, Nathan,
sitting in the back,

1035
00:52:00,290 --> 00:52:01,726
bleeding from the head.

1036
00:52:03,163 --> 00:52:05,774
Medics had bought him
a popsicle.

1037
00:52:08,080 --> 00:52:09,952
Turns out that...

1038
00:52:11,954 --> 00:52:13,782
in the blackness...

1039
00:52:17,351 --> 00:52:20,484
I had beat him so bad

1040
00:52:20,484 --> 00:52:23,705
that he lost the hearing
in his right ear.

1041
00:52:23,705 --> 00:52:24,793
Forever.

1042
00:52:26,229 --> 00:52:29,537
And to this day,
every time I see him,

1043
00:52:29,537 --> 00:52:33,062
I beg for his forgiveness.

1044
00:52:34,498 --> 00:52:36,544
It's just a little dance
we do.

1045
00:52:37,849 --> 00:52:39,460
A mere formality.

1046
00:52:41,462 --> 00:52:43,072
Because we both know...

1047
00:52:45,901 --> 00:52:48,425
that there are some things
that are just

1048
00:52:50,079 --> 00:52:52,037
impossible to forgive.

1049
00:52:56,259 --> 00:53:01,264
I do believe
even God knows that.

1050
00:53:08,619 --> 00:53:11,056
When I was a cop,
I used to eat here every day.

1051
00:53:12,014 --> 00:53:13,711
Free coffee refills.

1052
00:53:16,540 --> 00:53:17,541
You hungry?

1053
00:53:19,239 --> 00:53:20,240
No.

1054
00:53:20,979 --> 00:53:21,980
Hmm.

1055
00:53:24,461 --> 00:53:26,681
Funny, the things
we stop caring about.

1056
00:53:28,770 --> 00:53:30,467
I used to want to travel.

1057
00:53:32,121 --> 00:53:34,341
I would leaf through
<i>National Geographic</i>

1058
00:53:34,341 --> 00:53:36,343
and dog-ear
all of the exotic places

1059
00:53:36,343 --> 00:53:38,649
I would visit once I retired.

1060
00:53:41,435 --> 00:53:43,437
Never do that now.

1061
00:53:43,437 --> 00:53:46,178
- You still could.
- No, no. I couldn't.

1062
00:53:51,271 --> 00:53:56,928
I wasn't drunk,
or on anything, by the way.

1063
00:53:57,712 --> 00:53:58,713
What?

1064
00:53:59,975 --> 00:54:02,412
When I saw you the other day
at the meeting,

1065
00:54:04,109 --> 00:54:08,244
I instantly got worried
that you may have thought

1066
00:54:08,244 --> 00:54:11,421
that I was drinking
or on drugs

1067
00:54:11,421 --> 00:54:13,118
on the day of the accident,
and I wasn't.

1068
00:54:13,118 --> 00:54:15,556
I was sober.
It wasn't my fault.

1069
00:54:17,297 --> 00:54:19,560
I have every report
ever written

1070
00:54:19,560 --> 00:54:21,344
committed to memory.

1071
00:54:21,997 --> 00:54:23,085
Right.

1072
00:54:25,392 --> 00:54:26,654
So, you know that it was

1073
00:54:26,654 --> 00:54:28,395
the backhoe guy's fault, Alvarez.

1074
00:54:28,395 --> 00:54:30,092
I don't wanna get
into that all right now.

1075
00:54:30,092 --> 00:54:31,615
Okay, yeah, you're right.

1076
00:54:36,577 --> 00:54:39,275
Nathan said that he was deaf
since birth.

1077
00:54:40,624 --> 00:54:41,973
He never told you?

1078
00:54:43,366 --> 00:54:45,542
Maybe he wanted me
to like you.

1079
00:54:47,109 --> 00:54:48,763
I doubt that.

1080
00:54:52,419 --> 00:54:56,510
I thought that raising Ryan
would offer me the chance

1081
00:54:56,510 --> 00:54:59,164
to be a better father
than I ever was.

1082
00:55:00,035 --> 00:55:01,776
Shit.

1083
00:55:01,776 --> 00:55:04,735
I'm in way over my head.

1084
00:55:04,735 --> 00:55:07,999
I got one of those audiobooks
from the library.

1085
00:55:07,999 --> 00:55:09,261
<i>How to Talk to a Teen.</i>

1086
00:55:09,261 --> 00:55:11,220
Oh, yeah?

1087
00:55:11,220 --> 00:55:12,874
How's that working out?

1088
00:55:12,874 --> 00:55:15,485
- Well, it's from the '80s...

1089
00:55:15,485 --> 00:55:16,834
It's on a cassette.

1090
00:55:16,834 --> 00:55:17,922
Right.

1091
00:55:17,922 --> 00:55:19,533
Its advice is,

1092
00:55:20,882 --> 00:55:22,362
"Chaperone a dance."

1093
00:55:26,104 --> 00:55:28,368
"Chaperone a dance."

1094
00:55:28,368 --> 00:55:30,282
I just caught her having sex

1095
00:55:30,282 --> 00:55:32,546
with a boy
who looked like a man.

1096
00:55:34,939 --> 00:55:36,811
A dance would be delightful.

1097
00:55:38,203 --> 00:55:40,162
Can I give you some advice

1098
00:55:41,163 --> 00:55:43,165
from a former teenage girl?

1099
00:55:44,949 --> 00:55:46,429
She's gonna have sex.

1100
00:55:47,865 --> 00:55:50,825
And nothing you say
is gonna change that.

1101
00:55:53,305 --> 00:55:55,482
Just make sure
she's on birth control.

1102
00:55:55,482 --> 00:55:56,700
- Birth control?
- Yeah.

1103
00:55:56,700 --> 00:55:59,137
She's 16!

1104
00:55:59,137 --> 00:56:01,357
No, we'll be going
the abstinence route.

1105
00:56:02,445 --> 00:56:03,751
No offense, Daniel,

1106
00:56:03,751 --> 00:56:06,536
but, uh, there's a knot
in your logic.

1107
00:56:08,016 --> 00:56:09,409
You're trying to solve
a problem

1108
00:56:09,409 --> 00:56:11,236
by looking
in the other direction.

1109
00:56:14,675 --> 00:56:16,633
I could talk to her
if you want me to.

1110
00:56:16,633 --> 00:56:18,592
Oh, well, no thanks.

1111
00:56:18,592 --> 00:56:20,202
- It's okay. Of course.
- That's not appropriate.

1112
00:56:20,202 --> 00:56:21,638
I don't even know
why I just said that.

1113
00:56:21,638 --> 00:56:22,900
- I'm sorry.
- No, it's okay.

1114
00:56:22,900 --> 00:56:24,424
It's just that
I don't think that it's...

1115
00:56:24,424 --> 00:56:25,990
I just felt the need,

1116
00:56:27,470 --> 00:56:30,430
um, the instinct
to help in some way.

1117
00:56:31,387 --> 00:56:32,910
It's the least I could do.

1118
00:56:40,483 --> 00:56:42,398
I don't know how to do this.

1119
00:56:43,399 --> 00:56:44,356
What?

1120
00:56:44,879 --> 00:56:46,402
Start all over.

1121
00:56:48,186 --> 00:56:49,536
How do you do it?

1122
00:56:50,798 --> 00:56:52,190
Takes work.

1123
00:56:55,193 --> 00:56:58,153
- Can I tell you a secret?
- Sure.

1124
00:57:03,158 --> 00:57:05,377
I'm not sure I have the will.

1125
00:57:27,530 --> 00:57:30,054
What does <i>"amor fati"</i> mean?

1126
00:57:33,971 --> 00:57:35,582
Certain things are private.

1127
00:57:36,757 --> 00:57:38,585
Do you think I'm fucked up?

1128
00:57:40,021 --> 00:57:42,066
Are you high right now?

1129
00:57:43,372 --> 00:57:44,504
No.

1130
00:57:45,896 --> 00:57:47,898
I was a cop for 40 years.

1131
00:57:47,898 --> 00:57:49,596
I was an addict for 50.

1132
00:57:51,119 --> 00:57:53,208
So, I'm gonna ask you again.

1133
00:57:54,426 --> 00:57:55,950
Are you high right now?

1134
00:57:56,951 --> 00:57:58,169
Well, I...

1135
00:57:59,997 --> 00:58:01,651
I broke a pill in half.

1136
00:58:01,651 --> 00:58:03,087
So, half.

1137
00:58:04,915 --> 00:58:07,352
Yes, I think
you're fucked up, Allison.

1138
00:58:10,268 --> 00:58:11,574
Not half.

1139
00:58:12,444 --> 00:58:14,316
All fucked up.

1140
00:58:14,316 --> 00:58:16,231
Do you think
I'll ever pull out of this?

1141
00:58:18,059 --> 00:58:23,368
I mean, like, maybe one day
I might be the kind of person

1142
00:58:24,805 --> 00:58:26,284
that people want
their granddaughter

1143
00:58:26,284 --> 00:58:28,330
to hang out with?

1144
00:58:28,330 --> 00:58:30,027
I have no idea.

1145
00:58:31,812 --> 00:58:33,074
Me neither.

1146
00:58:48,393 --> 00:58:51,396
Can I have
my phone back, please?

1147
00:58:51,396 --> 00:58:54,225
I'm running out of ideas
on how to handle you, Ryan.

1148
00:58:55,313 --> 00:58:56,880
Grandpa,
everybody at my age has sex.

1149
00:58:56,880 --> 00:58:58,752
It's, like, not a big deal.

1150
00:58:58,752 --> 00:59:00,144
I know it was different
when you were younger,

1151
00:59:00,144 --> 00:59:02,973
but that's just, like,
not how it is anymore.

1152
00:59:06,934 --> 00:59:09,284
Well,
let me ask you something.

1153
00:59:15,507 --> 00:59:16,552
Are you...

1154
00:59:19,076 --> 00:59:21,122
Are you using

1155
00:59:21,949 --> 00:59:24,255
any protection?

1156
00:59:24,255 --> 00:59:25,866
Oh, my God!

1157
00:59:25,866 --> 00:59:28,564
I am so not gonna talk about
this with my grandfather.

1158
00:59:28,564 --> 00:59:30,566
How the hell
do you think I feel?

1159
00:59:34,614 --> 00:59:37,138
- I know you're upset.
- I'm not upset.

1160
00:59:37,138 --> 00:59:38,400
Maybe you should go back

1161
00:59:39,270 --> 00:59:40,794
and see that therapist again.

1162
00:59:40,794 --> 00:59:42,099
No. I just

1163
00:59:43,231 --> 00:59:45,886
want my phone back.

1164
00:59:45,886 --> 00:59:49,106
I don't have any friends
at Columbia

1165
00:59:49,106 --> 00:59:51,413
and I want to

1166
00:59:51,413 --> 00:59:54,068
hang onto the few I still have
on Long Beach Island.

1167
00:59:55,417 --> 00:59:57,114
How come
you can't make friends?

1168
00:59:57,114 --> 00:59:58,768
I've been through a lot
this year.

1169
00:59:59,290 --> 01:00:00,552
Hmm.

1170
01:00:01,510 --> 01:00:03,991
And nobody really understands.

1171
01:00:05,209 --> 01:00:07,647
They try. Some, but...

1172
01:00:08,604 --> 01:00:10,214
I mean, it's fake.

1173
01:00:10,214 --> 01:00:12,042
Don't you think
most people are so fake?

1174
01:00:13,478 --> 01:00:16,090
I would probably say
"duplicitous."

1175
01:00:17,091 --> 01:00:18,179
What does that mean?

1176
01:00:19,006 --> 01:00:20,529
Fake.

1177
01:00:23,619 --> 01:00:24,968
I'm on your side.

1178
01:00:26,927 --> 01:00:27,971
I know.

1179
01:00:28,624 --> 01:00:30,278
Tell you what.

1180
01:00:30,278 --> 01:00:33,150
You can have your phone back

1181
01:00:33,150 --> 01:00:37,024
if you promise to start taking
birth control pills.

1182
01:00:37,024 --> 01:00:39,026
Ugh! Oh, my God! Daniel!

1183
01:00:39,026 --> 01:00:40,157
Grandpa!

1184
01:00:42,986 --> 01:00:44,074
Grandpa.

1185
01:00:45,510 --> 01:00:48,383
Is it a deal?
I'll make the appointment.

1186
01:00:50,037 --> 01:00:52,300
Fine. Fine.

1187
01:00:52,300 --> 01:00:53,780
I just

1188
01:00:53,780 --> 01:00:56,826
never want to talk to you
about sex ever again.

1189
01:00:58,045 --> 01:01:00,177
Oh, really?

1190
01:01:01,048 --> 01:01:02,832
'Cause I just love this shit.

1191
01:01:09,752 --> 01:01:11,580
Have you ever been
on campus before?

1192
01:01:11,580 --> 01:01:13,277
Not since I was a kid.

1193
01:01:13,277 --> 01:01:14,931
I used to do swim meets here.

1194
01:01:14,931 --> 01:01:16,237
- Oh, yeah?
- Yeah.

1195
01:01:16,237 --> 01:01:18,239
- You were a swimmer?
Uh, yeah.

1196
01:01:18,239 --> 01:01:20,763
Well, I was 12, but yeah,
I was pretty good.

1197
01:01:20,763 --> 01:01:22,896
I still have all the trophies
and the ribbons.

1198
01:01:22,896 --> 01:01:24,854
- That's cool.
- Mmm.

1199
01:01:24,854 --> 01:01:27,727
- What stroke?
- Mostly freestyle.

1200
01:01:29,119 --> 01:01:30,381
Why'd you stop?

1201
01:01:31,252 --> 01:01:34,472
Um, my dad left.

1202
01:01:34,472 --> 01:01:37,301
Yeah, it was kinda the thing
that we used to do together.

1203
01:01:37,301 --> 01:01:39,739
He would cheer so loud
I could hear him underwater.

1204
01:01:41,088 --> 01:01:43,090
Seemed kind of pointless
to do it without him.

1205
01:01:44,439 --> 01:01:46,833
- Where'd he go?
- Ohio.

1206
01:01:48,182 --> 01:01:49,749
Started a whole new family
in Ohio.

1207
01:01:49,749 --> 01:01:51,315
Wow.

1208
01:01:51,315 --> 01:01:54,057
He has 10-year-old twins. Yeah.

1209
01:01:54,057 --> 01:01:56,146
I don't know
if they swim or not, though.

1210
01:01:56,146 --> 01:01:58,714
Oh, man. I am always
just amazed at people

1211
01:01:58,714 --> 01:02:01,282
who can, like, up and leave
their kids like that.

1212
01:02:01,282 --> 01:02:02,413
Mmm.

1213
01:02:02,413 --> 01:02:03,763
I just don't know
how you could,

1214
01:02:03,763 --> 01:02:06,853
like, fucking sleep at night.

1215
01:02:06,853 --> 01:02:10,944
For so long, I thought
that I'd done something wrong.

1216
01:02:10,944 --> 01:02:14,382
Like, it was my fault,
or I'd let him down.

1217
01:02:15,557 --> 01:02:18,429
And then I just realized,

1218
01:02:18,429 --> 01:02:21,737
I don't know, maybe
some people just aren't good.

1219
01:02:21,737 --> 01:02:22,869
Hmm.

1220
01:02:24,392 --> 01:02:26,698
It's kinda like he, like,
restarted a level

1221
01:02:26,698 --> 01:02:29,136
in a video game
with a fresh life.

1222
01:02:29,136 --> 01:02:31,660
- That's exactly what he did!

1223
01:02:31,660 --> 01:02:35,664
He packed up the car,
and left his Rolex

1224
01:02:35,664 --> 01:02:38,319
in the attic of my dollhouse,

1225
01:02:38,319 --> 01:02:39,886
and he drove away.

1226
01:02:43,715 --> 01:02:44,760
Hey, let's sit
for a second, okay?

1227
01:02:44,760 --> 01:02:46,544
- Yeah, yeah.

1228
01:02:48,198 --> 01:02:51,811
Uh... So, I'll sponsor you.

1229
01:02:51,811 --> 01:02:54,944
- Okay.
- But, um,

1230
01:02:54,944 --> 01:02:56,859
you gotta start
taking this shit seriously.

1231
01:02:58,339 --> 01:03:00,776
You can't keep coming
to meetings high.

1232
01:03:00,776 --> 01:03:02,212
What?

1233
01:03:05,041 --> 01:03:06,782
How did you know?

1234
01:03:08,131 --> 01:03:10,917
Uh, because I was you.

1235
01:03:10,917 --> 01:03:13,833
And I've helped
dozens of women who were you.

1236
01:03:15,269 --> 01:03:19,055
And some beat it,
and some are dead.

1237
01:03:21,884 --> 01:03:23,146
But, you know,

1238
01:03:24,321 --> 01:03:26,758
if you want my time,
you gotta commit.

1239
01:03:26,758 --> 01:03:28,064
Because I have a toddler
so I just

1240
01:03:28,064 --> 01:03:29,370
- don't have time for bullshit.
- Yeah.

1241
01:03:29,370 --> 01:03:33,113
No, I do. I... I...
I really wanna beat it.

1242
01:03:33,113 --> 01:03:35,898
Then I want you to do
90 meetings in 90 days.

1243
01:03:35,898 --> 01:03:37,465
- Wow.
- Yeah.

1244
01:03:37,465 --> 01:03:40,294
And, um, we're gonna
get you started on step one.

1245
01:03:41,382 --> 01:03:42,339
Okay.

1246
01:03:43,601 --> 01:03:44,733
Okay.

1247
01:03:44,733 --> 01:03:48,519
Also, enough hiding out, man.

1248
01:03:48,519 --> 01:03:49,781
It's time you shared
with the group.

1249
01:03:51,871 --> 01:03:53,873
- All right.
- Uh...

1250
01:03:56,484 --> 01:04:02,533
Hi, I'm Allison,
and I'm addicted to, uh,

1251
01:04:03,926 --> 01:04:05,449
pills.

1252
01:04:05,449 --> 01:04:07,625
Hi, Allison.

1253
01:04:07,625 --> 01:04:08,757
Uh...

1254
01:04:10,237 --> 01:04:12,413
Sorry. Can I start again?

1255
01:04:12,413 --> 01:04:14,632
I've never done this before,
and I'm nervous.

1256
01:04:14,632 --> 01:04:15,764
You got it.

1257
01:04:20,421 --> 01:04:25,469
Hi, I'm Allison,
and I'm an addict.

1258
01:04:25,469 --> 01:04:27,341
Hi, Allison.

1259
01:04:30,518 --> 01:04:31,693
I...

1260
01:04:33,956 --> 01:04:34,914
Um...

1261
01:04:38,091 --> 01:04:39,701
I was the driver

1262
01:04:41,137 --> 01:04:43,139
of a car

1263
01:04:43,139 --> 01:04:44,967
that was in
a really bad accident.

1264
01:04:48,231 --> 01:04:49,624
Two people died.

1265
01:04:53,236 --> 01:04:54,542
The woman was...

1266
01:04:58,285 --> 01:05:01,723
The woman was about to be
my sister-in-law.

1267
01:05:05,683 --> 01:05:08,295
We were on our way to try on
my wedding dresses.

1268
01:05:12,647 --> 01:05:13,778
And then we weren't.

1269
01:05:15,258 --> 01:05:16,520
It wasn't my fault.

1270
01:05:18,174 --> 01:05:21,656
I wasn't on drugs or booze,
or drunk, or anything.

1271
01:05:23,745 --> 01:05:24,920
But, uh...

1272
01:05:35,322 --> 01:05:39,065
Surviving that day was, is...

1273
01:05:42,416 --> 01:05:44,331
the most painful thing

1274
01:05:44,331 --> 01:05:46,202
I will ever
have to live through.

1275
01:05:48,770 --> 01:05:51,077
I got hurt, too.

1276
01:05:52,078 --> 01:05:53,818
They put a hole in my head.

1277
01:05:54,863 --> 01:05:56,908
And, um,

1278
01:05:56,908 --> 01:05:58,562
that helped because
at least I had something

1279
01:05:58,562 --> 01:05:59,955
I could blame the pain on.

1280
01:06:02,697 --> 01:06:03,959
But then that healed...

1281
01:06:06,831 --> 01:06:08,268
and I was still hurting.

1282
01:06:10,226 --> 01:06:11,488
And I guess that's why
I didn't realize

1283
01:06:11,488 --> 01:06:13,534
how bad it was because to me...

1284
01:06:15,884 --> 01:06:17,581
I was still in so much pain.

1285
01:06:27,635 --> 01:06:30,899
I was, um, prescribed them
for physical pain,

1286
01:06:30,899 --> 01:06:33,032
and they really helped
with that. They really did.

1287
01:06:37,427 --> 01:06:39,951
But they made me numb.
Blissfully numb.

1288
01:06:45,522 --> 01:06:47,133
Without them I want to die.

1289
01:06:48,786 --> 01:06:50,397
Every day.

1290
01:06:54,140 --> 01:06:56,925
I've never said that
out loud before.

1291
01:07:00,102 --> 01:07:01,060
Um...

1292
01:07:03,062 --> 01:07:05,847
I've never really faced
reality without them.

1293
01:07:08,197 --> 01:07:10,417
And I don't know if I'll be
able to handle what I see,

1294
01:07:10,417 --> 01:07:13,768
but I'm here to try.

1295
01:07:18,555 --> 01:07:19,948
Okay. That's it.

1296
01:07:21,428 --> 01:07:23,734
That's it.

1297
01:07:27,477 --> 01:07:28,652
What happens now?

1298
01:07:44,973 --> 01:07:46,148
You made all of this?

1299
01:07:47,671 --> 01:07:51,371
Uh, I assembled it
and designed it.

1300
01:07:51,371 --> 01:07:53,112
Yeah.

1301
01:07:53,112 --> 01:07:57,028
You see,
the houses come as a kit.

1302
01:07:57,028 --> 01:07:59,988
You just assemble them
and paint them...

1303
01:07:59,988 --> 01:08:02,425
Schoolhouse,
I built from scratch.

1304
01:08:06,864 --> 01:08:10,259
Hey, there are two kids
making out back here.

1305
01:08:10,259 --> 01:08:11,869
- That's me.

1306
01:08:13,001 --> 01:08:14,872
- You were handsome.

1307
01:08:15,308 --> 01:08:16,352
And tiny.

1308
01:08:17,875 --> 01:08:21,531
Yeah, my very first kiss
behind the schoolhouse.

1309
01:08:23,185 --> 01:08:24,665
Olivia Williams.

1310
01:08:26,536 --> 01:08:28,973
It was fall.
Tip of her nose was cold.

1311
01:08:30,236 --> 01:08:32,194
Little runny.

1312
01:08:32,194 --> 01:08:35,458
She stood on tiptoe.
Tasted like bubble gum.

1313
01:08:36,677 --> 01:08:37,634
Is that
who you married?

1314
01:08:37,634 --> 01:08:39,636
No! No, no.

1315
01:08:39,636 --> 01:08:43,466
No, she dumped me the next day
for Charlie Cook.

1316
01:08:43,466 --> 01:08:46,774
- Oh.
- He smoked Camels.

1317
01:08:46,774 --> 01:08:50,386
And drove
a Buick Riviera Roadmaster.

1318
01:08:50,386 --> 01:08:52,562
So, is this all inspired
by your life?

1319
01:08:53,346 --> 01:08:54,347
Kinda.

1320
01:08:55,565 --> 01:08:57,176
Supposed to be South Orange.

1321
01:08:58,525 --> 01:08:59,569
I grew up here.

1322
01:09:01,049 --> 01:09:02,659
I was a cop in Newark.

1323
01:09:03,704 --> 01:09:05,053
I've always lived here.

1324
01:09:07,229 --> 01:09:08,230
Who's the soldier?

1325
01:09:09,057 --> 01:09:10,450
That's me.

1326
01:09:10,450 --> 01:09:12,800
Day I got home from Vietnam.

1327
01:09:14,149 --> 01:09:16,630
That other little figure there
is my father.

1328
01:09:16,630 --> 01:09:20,024
He came down to the station
to pick me up.

1329
01:09:20,024 --> 01:09:21,983
- This is incredible.
- Mm.

1330
01:09:23,550 --> 01:09:25,291
How long did it take you?

1331
01:09:25,291 --> 01:09:27,293
Years.

1332
01:09:27,293 --> 01:09:29,469
I started
with a single figure-eight

1333
01:09:30,252 --> 01:09:32,123
and a two-car train.

1334
01:09:32,950 --> 01:09:34,561
I work on it when I can.

1335
01:09:35,605 --> 01:09:37,651
Got more time
now that I've retired.

1336
01:09:38,608 --> 01:09:40,480
My wife passed.

1337
01:09:40,480 --> 01:09:42,786
Ryan used to hang out with me
down here.

1338
01:09:44,092 --> 01:09:47,008
She liked the whistle
and the microphone.

1339
01:09:47,008 --> 01:09:48,357
There's a microphone?

1340
01:09:48,357 --> 01:09:49,793
Right over there.

1341
01:09:49,793 --> 01:09:51,404
How else you gonna tell
your passengers

1342
01:09:51,404 --> 01:09:53,101
- that the train's coming?

1343
01:10:09,248 --> 01:10:12,686
<i>♪ Take the last train
to Clarksville ♪</i>

1344
01:10:12,686 --> 01:10:15,732
<i>♪ And I'll meet you
at the station ♪</i>

1345
01:10:15,732 --> 01:10:18,605
<i>♪ You can be there by 4:30 ♪</i>

1346
01:10:18,605 --> 01:10:20,694
<i>♪ 'Cause I booked
your reservation ♪</i>

1347
01:10:20,694 --> 01:10:22,522
<i>♪ Don't be slow ♪</i>

1348
01:10:22,522 --> 01:10:24,654
<i>♪ Oh no no no ♪</i>

1349
01:10:24,654 --> 01:10:27,048
<i>♪ Oh no no no ♪</i>

1350
01:10:27,048 --> 01:10:29,355
<i>♪ And I don't know
if I'm ever ♪</i>

1351
01:10:29,355 --> 01:10:31,052
<i>♪ Coming home ♪</i>

1352
01:10:32,445 --> 01:10:34,838
That was just a little
serenade for your people

1353
01:10:34,838 --> 01:10:36,405
from the heavens above.

1354
01:10:36,405 --> 01:10:39,626
Think that's one of the
reasons I enjoy it so much.

1355
01:10:39,626 --> 01:10:42,324
Why?
'Cause you get to play God?

1356
01:10:42,324 --> 01:10:45,936
Well, so much of my life
has been outta control.

1357
01:10:48,112 --> 01:10:50,289
Down here,

1358
01:10:50,289 --> 01:10:53,204
I get to decide
if Olivia chooses me.

1359
01:10:55,119 --> 01:10:57,165
I get to decide
if my father comes

1360
01:10:57,165 --> 01:10:59,472
to pick me up at the station
when I get home.

1361
01:11:00,603 --> 01:11:01,909
Did he?

1362
01:11:01,909 --> 01:11:02,997
No.

1363
01:11:05,260 --> 01:11:08,132
He was passed out drunk
in our backyard.

1364
01:11:10,831 --> 01:11:13,442
He'd lain face down so long,

1365
01:11:14,791 --> 01:11:17,359
an inch of snow had gathered
on his back.

1366
01:11:21,450 --> 01:11:24,018
Next morning at breakfast,
he offered me a beer,

1367
01:11:25,672 --> 01:11:26,716
so...

1368
01:11:28,414 --> 01:11:30,633
I had a beer with him
at breakfast,

1369
01:11:32,983 --> 01:11:34,333
and I never stopped.

1370
01:11:39,773 --> 01:11:41,601
When did you last talk
to Nathan?

1371
01:11:46,301 --> 01:11:48,259
Daniel, this is God.

1372
01:11:48,259 --> 01:11:51,480
Allison would like you to
change the conversation now.

1373
01:11:52,960 --> 01:11:54,918
- I'll bet she would.

1374
01:11:54,918 --> 01:11:57,356
All right.
Let's get outta here.

1375
01:12:08,932 --> 01:12:10,194
Ryan?

1376
01:12:10,194 --> 01:12:12,545
It's only one o'clock.
Why are you home?

1377
01:12:12,545 --> 01:12:15,025
We had a half-day
for the active shooter drill.

1378
01:12:15,025 --> 01:12:17,201
- I told you this morning.

1379
01:12:17,201 --> 01:12:20,291
Well, this is a friend of mine
from the program.

1380
01:12:20,291 --> 01:12:21,205
Hi.

1381
01:12:22,468 --> 01:12:24,078
Hi.

1382
01:12:24,078 --> 01:12:25,993
- You should probably get going.
- Yeah. Yeah.

1383
01:12:25,993 --> 01:12:27,864
I'm gonna go.

1384
01:12:27,864 --> 01:12:30,258
Wait, I know you
from somewhere.

1385
01:12:30,258 --> 01:12:31,346
No, you don't.

1386
01:12:31,781 --> 01:12:32,739
You do?

1387
01:12:32,739 --> 01:12:33,696
How do I know you?

1388
01:12:34,349 --> 01:12:36,395
Uh... My... I'm...

1389
01:12:36,395 --> 01:12:37,831
I'm Allison.

1390
01:12:37,831 --> 01:12:39,485
Yeah, I've seen you before.

1391
01:12:39,485 --> 01:12:41,791
I thought you said the active
shooter drill ended at 2:00.

1392
01:12:41,791 --> 01:12:44,011
Yeah, that's when the pretend
shooter fights back.

1393
01:12:44,011 --> 01:12:46,013
Today, he shot himself,
so we got out early.

1394
01:12:47,623 --> 01:12:48,798
Why do I know you?

1395
01:12:48,798 --> 01:12:50,539
I'm not sure
what I'm supposed to say.

1396
01:12:50,539 --> 01:12:52,672
- You were Nathan's fiancee.
- No.

1397
01:12:52,672 --> 01:12:54,325
- You were in the car.
- No.

1398
01:12:54,325 --> 01:12:56,589
- I was, yeah.
- Weren't you driving?

1399
01:12:56,589 --> 01:12:57,590
Wasn't she driving?

1400
01:12:57,590 --> 01:12:59,069
We're in the program together.

1401
01:12:59,069 --> 01:13:01,202
- But I thought you said
it was her fault.
- What?

1402
01:13:01,202 --> 01:13:03,465
How could you bring her
into our house?

1403
01:13:03,465 --> 01:13:05,032
Get out of our fucking house!

1404
01:13:05,032 --> 01:13:06,947
- Okay. It's okay.
I'm sorry. I...

1405
01:13:06,947 --> 01:13:09,645
I'm so sorry.
I thought you were in school.

1406
01:13:09,645 --> 01:13:11,081
You ruined my fucking life!

1407
01:13:11,081 --> 01:13:14,345
I know, I know, I know.
I'm... I'm really sorry.

1408
01:13:14,345 --> 01:13:17,653
You shouldn't
be here! This is our house!

1409
01:13:17,653 --> 01:13:18,915
My mom grew up in here!

1410
01:13:18,915 --> 01:13:21,135
I sleep in her bedroom.
I use her sheets!

1411
01:13:21,135 --> 01:13:23,180
All right. All right.
She's leaving.

1412
01:13:23,180 --> 01:13:25,400
Uh, just in case
this is the last time

1413
01:13:25,400 --> 01:13:27,489
I ever get to talk to you,
please know,

1414
01:13:29,230 --> 01:13:31,711
I also wish it was me.

1415
01:13:32,538 --> 01:13:33,800
Okay? I do.

1416
01:13:35,062 --> 01:13:36,367
I'm gonna go.

1417
01:13:36,367 --> 01:13:38,239
I never got to say goodbye.

1418
01:13:39,458 --> 01:13:42,156
I know.

1419
01:13:45,464 --> 01:13:48,728
They were going to see a play.

1420
01:13:54,385 --> 01:13:55,517
I know.

1421
01:13:57,171 --> 01:13:58,694
She wanted to see a musical,

1422
01:13:58,694 --> 01:14:00,957
because she loved
all the fancy costumes.

1423
01:14:06,093 --> 01:14:07,573
I didn't know that.

1424
01:14:07,573 --> 01:14:10,532
She said you made Nate
really happy.

1425
01:14:10,532 --> 01:14:12,491
That you were the best thing
that ever happened to him.

1426
01:14:13,840 --> 01:14:15,363
He made me happy, too.

1427
01:14:20,194 --> 01:14:22,283
Okay, I'm gonna go.

1428
01:14:23,240 --> 01:14:24,459
- Allison.

1429
01:14:27,201 --> 01:14:28,202
Yeah.

1430
01:14:29,638 --> 01:14:31,074
Would you like to stay
for dinner?

1431
01:14:31,945 --> 01:14:33,207
What?

1432
01:14:34,948 --> 01:14:35,775
Uh...

1433
01:14:45,828 --> 01:14:49,179
So, you're an alcoholic, too?

1434
01:14:49,179 --> 01:14:50,529
Ryan.

1435
01:14:50,529 --> 01:14:51,617
Uh, no.

1436
01:14:53,053 --> 01:14:55,795
Alcohol's not exactly
my problem.

1437
01:14:55,795 --> 01:14:57,666
- What is? Meth?

1438
01:14:57,666 --> 01:14:58,972
Ryan.

1439
01:14:58,972 --> 01:15:02,149
No. Not meth. Um...

1440
01:15:05,239 --> 01:15:07,328
Prescription painkillers.

1441
01:15:08,068 --> 01:15:09,243
Oxy.

1442
01:15:09,243 --> 01:15:10,897
How do you know about Oxy?

1443
01:15:10,897 --> 01:15:12,594
Kids at my school snort it.

1444
01:15:12,594 --> 01:15:13,726
It's heroin!

1445
01:15:13,726 --> 01:15:15,075
No, it's not.

1446
01:15:15,075 --> 01:15:16,467
I could get it easier
than I could get a beer.

1447
01:15:16,467 --> 01:15:17,773
They sell it at Rite Aid.

1448
01:15:19,558 --> 01:15:21,385
- So why'd you dump Uncle Nate?
- Ryan.

1449
01:15:21,385 --> 01:15:22,778
He said you ghosted him.

1450
01:15:22,778 --> 01:15:24,084
It's not your business.

1451
01:15:24,084 --> 01:15:26,956
I just don't understand how

1452
01:15:26,956 --> 01:15:28,741
if he was gonna stay with you,

1453
01:15:28,741 --> 01:15:30,830
even after
everything that happened,

1454
01:15:30,830 --> 01:15:31,831
why'd you dump him?

1455
01:15:33,180 --> 01:15:34,398
I was upset.

1456
01:15:38,446 --> 01:15:40,187
And so I ran.

1457
01:15:40,187 --> 01:15:41,884
- Like you, quitting soccer.
Shut up!

1458
01:15:41,884 --> 01:15:43,712
You don't say
"shut up" to me!

1459
01:15:43,712 --> 01:15:45,018
Ever again!

1460
01:15:47,934 --> 01:15:49,675
Why'd you quit soccer?

1461
01:15:49,675 --> 01:15:51,198
- She got into a fight.
- 'Cause I hate every girl
on the team.

1462
01:15:51,198 --> 01:15:52,242
Oh.

1463
01:15:53,940 --> 01:15:55,985
Your parents were telling me
how amazing you were.

1464
01:15:57,552 --> 01:15:59,336
- They were?
Mm-hmm.

1465
01:15:59,336 --> 01:16:01,295
Your dad actually was saying

1466
01:16:01,295 --> 01:16:03,166
how you were definitely
gonna get a scholarship.

1467
01:16:05,038 --> 01:16:06,605
I wanna go to Stanford.

1468
01:16:08,955 --> 01:16:10,478
Why are you laughing?

1469
01:16:12,567 --> 01:16:16,266
You quit the team,
you're mouthing off in school,

1470
01:16:16,266 --> 01:16:17,616
and you're not doing
your homework.

1471
01:16:17,616 --> 01:16:19,400
You're gonna get into Stanford?

1472
01:16:19,400 --> 01:16:21,054
I didn't say
I quit the team permanently.

1473
01:16:21,054 --> 01:16:23,012
I said I wanted
to take a break.

1474
01:16:23,012 --> 01:16:24,405
And I had a 4.0 down the shore.

1475
01:16:24,405 --> 01:16:26,537
I could get it back
in a second if I cared.

1476
01:16:26,537 --> 01:16:27,800
Why don't you care?

1477
01:16:27,800 --> 01:16:28,670
Why, do you think?

1478
01:16:30,498 --> 01:16:31,717
Shit.
Okay.

1479
01:16:31,717 --> 01:16:32,979
Why don't we just
call it a night, okay?

1480
01:16:32,979 --> 01:16:34,284
Yeah,
I'm gonna go home.

1481
01:16:39,246 --> 01:16:40,639
Hey, um...

1482
01:16:44,077 --> 01:16:47,123
Um, just in case you,
I don't know,

1483
01:16:49,082 --> 01:16:50,518
wanna talk, need to talk...

1484
01:16:51,954 --> 01:16:53,042
This is me.

1485
01:16:53,042 --> 01:16:55,088
And it's up to you,
but I'm here.

1486
01:16:56,393 --> 01:16:57,525
Okay.

1487
01:17:01,921 --> 01:17:03,662
I'm sorry
about all that.

1488
01:17:03,662 --> 01:17:04,880
Uh, it's fine.

1489
01:17:06,708 --> 01:17:08,579
You see what I'm dealing with.

1490
01:17:08,579 --> 01:17:10,103
Honestly, it's okay.

1491
01:17:11,234 --> 01:17:12,453
Look.

1492
01:17:13,584 --> 01:17:15,499
She's a very fragile kid.

1493
01:17:16,805 --> 01:17:21,027
So, I'd appreciate it
if you didn't contact her.

1494
01:17:22,942 --> 01:17:23,986
Oh.

1495
01:17:24,639 --> 01:17:25,640
Okay.

1496
01:17:27,163 --> 01:17:29,513
Yeah, I just...

1497
01:17:29,513 --> 01:17:32,734
I just wanted her
to know that I was available

1498
01:17:32,734 --> 01:17:35,215
if she wanted to talk
or anything.

1499
01:17:35,215 --> 01:17:37,347
I'm just asking if you will

1500
01:17:38,305 --> 01:17:39,785
please just let her be.

1501
01:17:40,655 --> 01:17:41,874
Scout's honor.

1502
01:17:41,874 --> 01:17:44,746
No, that's Spock's
"Live long and prosper."

1503
01:17:44,746 --> 01:17:46,400
We Boy Scouts do this.

1504
01:17:46,400 --> 01:17:48,532
Oh. I prefer Spock.

1505
01:17:49,446 --> 01:17:51,448
Live long and prosper, Daniel.

1506
01:17:51,448 --> 01:17:52,536
Good night.
- Thank you.

1507
01:18:08,465 --> 01:18:09,466
Mmm.

1508
01:19:45,911 --> 01:19:47,956
Go, baby! Go, go, go!

1509
01:19:47,956 --> 01:19:49,349
Come on,
come on, come on.

1510
01:19:49,349 --> 01:19:50,741
Come on!
Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes!

1511
01:19:50,741 --> 01:19:52,569
- Yeah!

1512
01:19:52,569 --> 01:19:53,744
Attagirl!

1513
01:19:54,745 --> 01:19:56,225
Attagirl!

1514
01:20:00,708 --> 01:20:01,840
Thank you.

1515
01:20:43,969 --> 01:20:45,361
<i>Why do you ride
your bike everywhere?</i>

1516
01:20:45,971 --> 01:20:47,015
Um...

1517
01:20:48,495 --> 01:20:50,540
I haven't been in a car
since the accident.

1518
01:20:51,324 --> 01:20:52,891
'Cause you feel guilty?

1519
01:20:55,371 --> 01:20:56,503
Uh, no.

1520
01:20:57,199 --> 01:21:00,768
Because I feel... scared.

1521
01:21:00,768 --> 01:21:02,291
Daniel says
you were using your phone.

1522
01:21:04,598 --> 01:21:06,513
Uh, I was using Maps.

1523
01:21:07,818 --> 01:21:08,907
Everyone uses Maps.

1524
01:21:08,907 --> 01:21:10,778
Yeah, well,
he has all the reports.

1525
01:21:10,778 --> 01:21:11,997
He's memorized them.

1526
01:21:13,215 --> 01:21:15,348
He stares at them at night.
It's weird.

1527
01:21:15,348 --> 01:21:18,351
Okay, well, I was there.

1528
01:21:18,351 --> 01:21:23,138
And the person who wrote
those reports wasn't, so...

1529
01:21:23,138 --> 01:21:25,575
Tell me
why you ended it with Nate.

1530
01:21:25,575 --> 01:21:27,447
My mom would want you guys
to be together still.

1531
01:21:28,665 --> 01:21:30,754
Ryan, I don't even know
what to say to that.

1532
01:21:31,755 --> 01:21:33,670
My mom used to really, um...

1533
01:21:35,934 --> 01:21:38,849
just, like, look out for him
and stuff, you know? Um...

1534
01:21:39,807 --> 01:21:40,851
And...

1535
01:21:42,244 --> 01:21:44,943
I've been thinking
maybe now I'm supposed to.

1536
01:21:45,813 --> 01:21:46,945
Because she can't.

1537
01:21:48,511 --> 01:21:50,992
I bet that would make her
really proud.

1538
01:21:50,992 --> 01:21:52,254
I could tell you
about what's happening

1539
01:21:52,254 --> 01:21:53,299
- with him if you want.
- No, that's okay.

1540
01:21:53,299 --> 01:21:54,648
Thank you, though.

1541
01:21:54,648 --> 01:21:56,041
I've tried really hard
to avoid all of that...

1542
01:21:56,041 --> 01:21:57,259
He moved to Tribeca.

1543
01:21:57,259 --> 01:21:58,260
Wow.

1544
01:21:59,348 --> 01:22:01,307
Yeah. He has a dog.

1545
01:22:01,307 --> 01:22:02,961
- A dog?
- Mm-hmm.

1546
01:22:02,961 --> 01:22:05,702
A French Bulldog named Jasper.

1547
01:22:05,702 --> 01:22:07,530
He never really struck me
as a Frenchie type,

1548
01:22:07,530 --> 01:22:09,358
but okay.

1549
01:22:09,358 --> 01:22:10,620
It's his girlfriend's.

1550
01:22:15,234 --> 01:22:16,235
Oh.

1551
01:22:17,366 --> 01:22:18,454
Yeah.

1552
01:22:19,934 --> 01:22:22,023
I... I don't need to hear this.

1553
01:22:23,242 --> 01:22:24,895
- Are you okay?
- Mm-hmm.

1554
01:22:26,854 --> 01:22:29,030
How long have they been
going out?

1555
01:22:29,030 --> 01:22:31,902
I don't know.
Like, four months, I think.

1556
01:22:32,686 --> 01:22:33,600
Wow.

1557
01:22:33,600 --> 01:22:36,951
Yeah. She's a paralegal.

1558
01:22:37,996 --> 01:22:39,171
I don't even know what that is.

1559
01:22:39,171 --> 01:22:40,911
Is that, like, a good thing?

1560
01:22:42,174 --> 01:22:44,089
Yeah. Wow.

1561
01:22:44,089 --> 01:22:46,221
- You just keep saying, "Wow."
- Yeah.

1562
01:22:46,221 --> 01:22:47,657
It's just a lot to take in.

1563
01:22:49,442 --> 01:22:50,921
Um...

1564
01:22:50,921 --> 01:22:53,489
I'm really happy for him. I am.

1565
01:22:53,489 --> 01:22:55,100
He really deserves to be happy.

1566
01:22:55,970 --> 01:22:57,493
I...

1567
01:22:57,493 --> 01:22:59,539
- I shouldn't have told you.
- No, no, no. It's fine.

1568
01:22:59,539 --> 01:23:01,628
But you're upset.

1569
01:23:01,628 --> 01:23:03,673
We went through
so much together.

1570
01:23:05,849 --> 01:23:08,983
I really want good things
to happen to him.

1571
01:23:09,853 --> 01:23:11,203
I'm really sorry

1572
01:23:11,203 --> 01:23:12,465
- I made you upset.
It's okay.

1573
01:23:12,465 --> 01:23:13,640
- I'm gonna go to the bathroom.
- I really

1574
01:23:13,640 --> 01:23:15,033
meant for this to be friendly.

1575
01:23:15,033 --> 01:23:17,035
Yeah. I'll see you in a second.

1576
01:24:08,216 --> 01:24:09,696
Hey.

1577
01:24:09,696 --> 01:24:11,176
Is something wrong?

1578
01:24:11,176 --> 01:24:13,526
I, um... I forgot
I have a job interview.

1579
01:24:13,526 --> 01:24:16,224
So, I'm gonna go.

1580
01:24:16,224 --> 01:24:17,530
- You sick?

1581
01:24:18,139 --> 01:24:19,140
Yeah.

1582
01:24:19,140 --> 01:24:21,490
- Withdrawal?
- I'm trying.

1583
01:24:21,490 --> 01:24:23,362
All right. Look, don't stop.

1584
01:24:24,276 --> 01:24:25,277
- Okay?
- Okay.

1585
01:24:26,887 --> 01:24:27,844
Don't use.

1586
01:24:29,585 --> 01:24:30,760
Okay.

1587
01:24:30,760 --> 01:24:32,153
Don't stay home tonight.
Do something.

1588
01:24:32,153 --> 01:24:34,112
- Okay. Okay.
- All right? Okay.

1589
01:24:35,330 --> 01:24:36,201
You need a hug?

1590
01:24:38,116 --> 01:24:39,117
Um, if I hug you,

1591
01:24:39,117 --> 01:24:40,901
I'm gonna sob, so no.

1592
01:24:40,901 --> 01:24:42,424
Well, I can handle that.

1593
01:24:42,424 --> 01:24:44,470
No, I shouldn't. Not in front
of Ryan.

1594
01:24:44,470 --> 01:24:45,993
Okay.

1595
01:24:45,993 --> 01:24:47,864
Well, I'm hugging you
with my eyes.

1596
01:24:48,300 --> 01:24:49,257
Thank you.

1597
01:24:50,519 --> 01:24:51,912
- Be careful.
- Okay.

1598
01:24:56,090 --> 01:24:58,832
I have to go.
So, I'll see you another time.

1599
01:24:59,180 --> 01:25:00,007
Bye.

1600
01:25:02,488 --> 01:25:03,619
Fuck me.

1601
01:25:04,054 --> 01:25:05,012
Hey.

1602
01:25:05,404 --> 01:25:06,492
Let's go.

1603
01:25:06,492 --> 01:25:08,015
This asshole
charged me six buck

1604
01:25:08,015 --> 01:25:09,059
for a cup of coffee. Come on.

1605
01:25:11,279 --> 01:25:14,021
Okay.

1606
01:25:14,021 --> 01:25:17,198
<i>♪ It starts so early now ♪</i>

1607
01:25:17,198 --> 01:25:20,941
<i>♪ The sun has gone
to Birkenau ♪</i>

1608
01:25:20,941 --> 01:25:24,553
<i>♪ As shadows creep
across your brow ♪</i>

1609
01:25:24,553 --> 01:25:26,816
<i>♪ I love you just the same ♪</i>

1610
01:25:28,340 --> 01:25:29,602
Fuck!

1611
01:25:29,602 --> 01:25:31,691
<i>♪ These freakish holidays ♪</i>

1612
01:25:31,691 --> 01:25:35,608
<i>♪ That make us act
like renegades ♪</i>

1613
01:25:35,608 --> 01:25:39,220
<i>♪ A blood bath
at the Ice Capades ♪</i>

1614
01:25:39,220 --> 01:25:41,483
<i>♪ Just makes me love you ♪</i>

1615
01:25:41,483 --> 01:25:47,315
<i>♪ More than I should ever
have been allowed ♪</i>

1616
01:25:47,315 --> 01:25:50,536
<i>♪ In a world of candy guns ♪</i>

1617
01:25:50,536 --> 01:25:56,063
<i>♪ Sweet as demons
in the candy apple sun ♪</i>

1618
01:25:56,063 --> 01:26:02,156
<i>♪ Think it quiet but then
don't sing it loud ♪</i>

1619
01:26:02,156 --> 01:26:05,290
<i>♪ Through a world
of number ones ♪</i>

1620
01:26:05,290 --> 01:26:08,075
<i>♪ Pointed skyward at the... ♪</i>

1621
01:26:08,075 --> 01:26:09,207
Look at me!

1622
01:26:13,080 --> 01:26:15,561
<i>♪ ...here like Buffalo ♪</i>

1623
01:26:15,561 --> 01:26:18,955
<i>♪ Now it feels like Bamako ♪</i>

1624
01:26:18,955 --> 01:26:22,132
<i>♪ I love you seven ways ♪</i>

1625
01:26:23,612 --> 01:26:26,267
<i>♪ You wear those baby tees ♪</i>

1626
01:26:28,313 --> 01:26:30,010
<i>Allie!</i>

1627
01:26:30,010 --> 01:26:32,534
<i>Allie!</i>

1628
01:26:34,057 --> 01:26:35,102
Allie?

1629
01:26:35,102 --> 01:26:36,886
Did you job hunt today?

1630
01:26:41,021 --> 01:26:42,414
Please leave me alone.

1631
01:26:43,153 --> 01:26:45,504
I was looking on Etsy.

1632
01:26:45,504 --> 01:26:47,593
And I was thinking
it would be so cute

1633
01:26:47,593 --> 01:26:49,421
if we found, like,
a craft that we like.

1634
01:26:49,421 --> 01:26:51,640
And maybe we could
make a little money.
What do you think?

1635
01:27:08,353 --> 01:27:09,745
I was thinking
it'd be so cute

1636
01:27:09,745 --> 01:27:11,617
if it was like something fun
that we could sell.

1637
01:27:11,617 --> 01:27:15,534
Like little bibs for babies
that catch their food,

1638
01:27:15,534 --> 01:27:18,145
or salad dressing.

1639
01:27:18,145 --> 01:27:20,452
Or you know, just...

1640
01:27:22,105 --> 01:27:23,368
And you know what?

1641
01:27:23,368 --> 01:27:25,239
We could be on <i>Shark Tank!</i>

1642
01:27:25,239 --> 01:27:27,110
Can you imagine, Allie?

1643
01:27:27,110 --> 01:27:28,329
And I know you're like,

1644
01:27:28,329 --> 01:27:30,636
"Oh, shut up, Mom!
You're drunk again."

1645
01:27:30,636 --> 01:27:31,767
But listen...

1646
01:27:42,474 --> 01:27:44,476
Ooh, I just thought
of the best idea!

1647
01:27:44,476 --> 01:27:47,479
We could do, um, papier-mache!

1648
01:27:48,306 --> 01:27:49,872
Papier-mache!

1649
01:27:49,872 --> 01:27:51,570
So it would be like,

1650
01:27:51,570 --> 01:27:53,354
do a little dance,
a little song.

1651
01:27:53,354 --> 01:27:55,487
"Hey, Sharks! You know how
everybody likes papier-mache."

1652
01:27:55,487 --> 01:27:58,925
I would be like,
"Hey, Sharks! Hey, Sharks!"

1653
01:27:58,925 --> 01:28:01,406
Hey, Sharks! Oh... Sharks!"

1654
01:28:01,406 --> 01:28:03,843
Wait, that's too hard.
We'll be like,

1655
01:28:03,843 --> 01:28:07,629
"I'm Diane.
This is my associate, Allison.

1656
01:28:07,629 --> 01:28:12,765
"And this is our... whatever!"
You know...

1657
01:28:13,940 --> 01:28:15,768
You weak piece
of fucking shit.

1658
01:28:15,768 --> 01:28:17,813
You couldn't make it go
two days.

1659
01:28:19,075 --> 01:28:20,555
I fucking hate you.

1660
01:28:21,382 --> 01:28:24,820
I hate you so much.

1661
01:28:24,820 --> 01:28:27,606
Allie, do you remember
when you were in fourth grade,

1662
01:28:27,606 --> 01:28:30,086
you made
that giant mitochondria?

1663
01:28:30,086 --> 01:28:35,048
That's something that
would sell, I promise you.

1664
01:28:35,048 --> 01:28:37,659
We could be like,
"Hey, Sharks!"

1665
01:28:37,659 --> 01:28:40,183
We got them for you!
Papier-mache!"

1666
01:28:40,183 --> 01:28:43,839
You know, like all the...

1667
01:28:51,238 --> 01:28:53,980
I knew you would like
that idea! I knew it!

1668
01:30:21,459 --> 01:30:22,460
Yes!

1669
01:30:24,462 --> 01:30:25,985
You're on the wrong side.

1670
01:30:26,768 --> 01:30:28,640
What? No, I'm not.

1671
01:30:31,773 --> 01:30:33,340
Oh.

1672
01:30:33,340 --> 01:30:34,863
Well, good thing you came!

1673
01:30:34,863 --> 01:30:36,038
Oh, my God!

1674
01:30:36,561 --> 01:30:37,910
Get over here.

1675
01:30:37,910 --> 01:30:39,477
Whoo! Party!

1676
01:30:58,234 --> 01:30:59,975
- Hello, Diane!
- Oh, hey!

1677
01:30:59,975 --> 01:31:02,021
I don't know

1678
01:31:02,021 --> 01:31:04,327
how much Allison has told you.

1679
01:31:05,590 --> 01:31:07,548
But we've been going
to the same program.

1680
01:31:07,548 --> 01:31:09,637
Oh, yeah, she said.
She told me, yeah.

1681
01:31:10,551 --> 01:31:11,813
My granddaughter, Ryan,

1682
01:31:11,813 --> 01:31:14,816
has taken an interest
in Allison and,

1683
01:31:14,816 --> 01:31:16,514
well, now I can't find her.

1684
01:31:16,514 --> 01:31:19,429
So I just thought I'd drop by
and see if she might be here.

1685
01:31:20,692 --> 01:31:22,171
I tried texting them,

1686
01:31:22,171 --> 01:31:25,523
but, you know,
they all go green.

1687
01:31:25,523 --> 01:31:26,524
Do you know what that means?

1688
01:31:26,524 --> 01:31:27,786
I have no idea.

1689
01:31:27,786 --> 01:31:30,005
I hate when that happens,
when they go...

1690
01:31:30,005 --> 01:31:31,441
It's all green

1691
01:31:31,441 --> 01:31:33,008
and you don't know
if it's sent. It's so weird.

1692
01:31:33,008 --> 01:31:34,793
Right. Right. Right.
- Drives me crazy.

1693
01:31:34,793 --> 01:31:36,534
You'll have to let me know
if you figure that out.

1694
01:31:38,536 --> 01:31:40,189
I'm not tech-y.

1695
01:31:40,189 --> 01:31:43,628
But I actually tonight was
trying to find Allison myself.

1696
01:31:43,628 --> 01:31:45,717
But do you really think
they're together tonight?

1697
01:31:47,545 --> 01:31:49,416
Both missing
at the same time. It...

1698
01:31:50,635 --> 01:31:52,245
seems a little curious.

1699
01:31:52,245 --> 01:31:54,552
Seems like
no matter how old they get,

1700
01:31:54,552 --> 01:31:56,858
- you never stop worrying.
- Yeah.

1701
01:31:56,858 --> 01:31:58,294
But they always seem
to turn up.

1702
01:31:59,774 --> 01:32:00,993
Not always.

1703
01:32:02,864 --> 01:32:04,344
Yeah.

1704
01:32:04,344 --> 01:32:07,129
Well, can you let me know
if you find them?

1705
01:32:07,129 --> 01:32:08,653
- I will.
- Great.

1706
01:32:10,655 --> 01:32:11,569
Thank you.

1707
01:32:12,439 --> 01:32:13,875
What's that?

1708
01:32:13,875 --> 01:32:15,050
Oh, I was just... I...

1709
01:32:15,050 --> 01:32:17,226
I was just saying
thank you so much

1710
01:32:17,226 --> 01:32:19,533
for being so kind to Allison.

1711
01:32:19,533 --> 01:32:22,841
She said you've always been
so warm to her and you know,

1712
01:32:22,841 --> 01:32:26,192
I... just wanted to say thanks,
'cause, you know,

1713
01:32:26,192 --> 01:32:29,891
like, some people
wouldn't be like that, so...

1714
01:32:29,891 --> 01:32:33,634
Well, we're all just trying
to move on, I suppose.

1715
01:32:33,634 --> 01:32:34,940
Yeah.

1716
01:32:34,940 --> 01:32:36,071
I don't think
Allie and I are doing

1717
01:32:36,071 --> 01:32:37,856
a very good job of that, Daniel.

1718
01:32:39,248 --> 01:32:40,598
You know what they say.

1719
01:32:40,598 --> 01:32:42,382
What?

1720
01:32:42,382 --> 01:32:45,124
"Comparison
is the thief of joy."

1721
01:32:45,124 --> 01:32:47,474
Oh. I didn't know
they said that.

1722
01:32:48,910 --> 01:32:49,955
Well...

1723
01:32:51,130 --> 01:32:52,435
somebody did.

1724
01:32:52,435 --> 01:32:54,394
Yeah.

1725
01:32:55,874 --> 01:32:57,484
Well, I best be going then.

1726
01:32:57,484 --> 01:32:58,920
Oh, yeah, of course.

1727
01:32:58,920 --> 01:33:00,313
Night.
- Good night.

1728
01:33:14,501 --> 01:33:16,895
<i>♪ Stare into space ♪</i>

1729
01:33:18,418 --> 01:33:20,159
<i>♪ Out in the blue ♪</i>

1730
01:33:20,159 --> 01:33:21,595
Oh, my God, there he is!

1731
01:33:21,595 --> 01:33:23,336
Look at him! Isn't he so hot?

1732
01:33:25,077 --> 01:33:26,905
Is that a face tattoo?

1733
01:33:26,905 --> 01:33:29,037
- Yeah!
- Oh, my God!

1734
01:33:29,995 --> 01:33:32,258
I love this song!

1735
01:33:32,258 --> 01:33:33,694
Quinn sent it to me
in a playlist.

1736
01:33:33,694 --> 01:33:36,131
He, like, knows so much
about music.

1737
01:33:38,177 --> 01:33:39,265
Thank you.

1738
01:33:40,396 --> 01:33:41,659
For getting me to come.

1739
01:33:42,529 --> 01:33:43,617
Yeah.

1740
01:33:44,792 --> 01:33:48,100
<i>♪ You're the only thing ♪</i>

1741
01:33:48,100 --> 01:33:49,623
That's the guitarist, Thomas.

1742
01:33:49,623 --> 01:33:52,539
He's staring right at you!

1743
01:33:52,539 --> 01:33:54,889
Oh, stop.
No, I'm okay. I'm fine.

1744
01:33:54,889 --> 01:33:56,195
I know, you can do
so much better.

1745
01:33:56,195 --> 01:33:57,892
What? No.
- But he is fucking hot.

1746
01:33:59,851 --> 01:34:03,942
Uh... Okay, I, um...
I gotta go get someone in.

1747
01:34:03,942 --> 01:34:04,899
But I'll be right back.

1748
01:34:04,899 --> 01:34:06,248
- Should I come with you?
- No.

1749
01:34:06,248 --> 01:34:07,946
- Are you sure?
- No, I'll be right back. Yeah.

1750
01:34:07,946 --> 01:34:10,078
<i>♪ Take a photo ♪</i>

1751
01:34:11,601 --> 01:34:13,691
<i>♪ Make it real ♪</i>

1752
01:34:15,736 --> 01:34:17,695
<i>♪ You're the stardust ♪</i>

1753
01:34:23,701 --> 01:34:27,052
<i>♪ Stardust ♪</i>

1754
01:34:27,052 --> 01:34:30,185
<i>♪ Lighting the fields ♪</i>

1755
01:34:31,926 --> 01:34:34,320
<i>♪ Caught in a state ♪</i>

1756
01:34:35,800 --> 01:34:38,367
<i>♪ Watching it fall ♪</i>

1757
01:34:39,499 --> 01:34:42,067
<i>♪ Aquarius bloom ♪</i>

1758
01:34:43,503 --> 01:34:45,984
<i>♪ Just bought a car ♪</i>

1759
01:34:51,990 --> 01:34:53,513
Surprise!

1760
01:34:55,384 --> 01:34:56,734
Nathan?

1761
01:34:57,865 --> 01:34:59,345
- Hi!
Hi!

1762
01:35:00,563 --> 01:35:01,869
Ryan?

1763
01:35:01,869 --> 01:35:03,610
- What?
- Hi!

1764
01:35:04,785 --> 01:35:06,787
Uh, sorry.

1765
01:35:06,787 --> 01:35:09,964
Allie, uh,
this is my girlfriend, Joelle.

1766
01:35:11,052 --> 01:35:13,141
Hi. I'm sorry. Um...

1767
01:35:13,881 --> 01:35:14,969
Nice to meet you.

1768
01:35:14,969 --> 01:35:16,536
I've heard so much about you.

1769
01:35:17,406 --> 01:35:18,451
Oh.

1770
01:35:19,713 --> 01:35:20,714
Okay.

1771
01:35:20,714 --> 01:35:22,150
I think we're the victims

1772
01:35:22,150 --> 01:35:24,631
of a teenage girl's
good intentions.

1773
01:35:24,631 --> 01:35:26,372
What?
- I said...

1774
01:35:26,372 --> 01:35:28,896
I said I think
she meant well. Ryan.

1775
01:35:31,507 --> 01:35:33,335
I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go.

1776
01:35:33,335 --> 01:35:34,467
Are you good?
- I'm fine.

1777
01:35:34,467 --> 01:35:35,773
I'm fine. I'm gonna go.

1778
01:35:35,773 --> 01:35:36,904
Allie!

1779
01:35:40,516 --> 01:35:42,040
Ryan.

1780
01:35:42,040 --> 01:35:43,955
What the fuck
did you just do that for?

1781
01:35:45,173 --> 01:35:47,262
No offense, but you weren't
supposed to come.

1782
01:35:47,262 --> 01:35:49,395
I know being a paralegal
is a good job,

1783
01:35:49,395 --> 01:35:50,962
but he's supposed
to be with Allie.

1784
01:35:50,962 --> 01:35:53,399
- I'm sorry.
Ryan?

1785
01:35:53,399 --> 01:35:55,009
What the fuck did you just do?

1786
01:35:55,923 --> 01:35:57,446
I'm fixing it.

1787
01:35:57,446 --> 01:35:59,100
For Mom.

1788
01:35:59,100 --> 01:36:01,494
Go find her
and then I'm taking you home.

1789
01:36:05,106 --> 01:36:06,499
I am so sorry.

1790
01:36:07,152 --> 01:36:08,980
Serious... This...

1791
01:36:08,980 --> 01:36:10,372
- It's fine. It's okay.
- Yeah?

1792
01:36:10,372 --> 01:36:11,634
- Yeah. Yeah.
- You good?

1793
01:36:11,634 --> 01:36:12,984
I'm fine. I need a drink.

1794
01:36:12,984 --> 01:36:14,159
- But I'm fine.
- Yes.

1795
01:36:14,159 --> 01:36:15,421
Oh, fuck!

1796
01:36:20,252 --> 01:36:21,514
You guys
have been great,

1797
01:36:21,514 --> 01:36:22,689
- thank you so much!

1798
01:36:22,689 --> 01:36:24,082
Allie!

1799
01:36:24,082 --> 01:36:26,475
Why the fuck
did you just do that?

1800
01:36:26,475 --> 01:36:28,521
I thought it was gonna
make you happy.

1801
01:36:28,521 --> 01:36:31,567
You thought
that would make me happy?

1802
01:36:31,567 --> 01:36:33,308
Yeah!
- Are you insane?

1803
01:36:33,308 --> 01:36:35,484
Hi! Can I please get, um...
Hey, I'm sorry.

1804
01:36:35,484 --> 01:36:38,183
Could I just get a glass
of tequila, please?

1805
01:36:38,183 --> 01:36:39,488
Fuck, I can't breathe.

1806
01:36:39,488 --> 01:36:40,794
- Ryan, I can't fucking breathe!
- Calm down.

1807
01:36:40,794 --> 01:36:42,622
Calm down, okay? I'm sorry.

1808
01:36:42,622 --> 01:36:44,754
You fucking did that
on purpose!

1809
01:36:44,754 --> 01:36:46,060
You did that to hurt me, right?

1810
01:36:46,060 --> 01:36:47,888
Is that what you did?
Yeah, you did.

1811
01:36:47,888 --> 01:36:49,368
- Just admit it. Yes, you did!
- No, I didn't!

1812
01:36:49,368 --> 01:36:50,935
- You did that
on fucking purpose!
- No, I didn't!

1813
01:36:50,935 --> 01:36:53,894
You killed, baby! You killed!

1814
01:36:53,894 --> 01:36:56,331
- That was incredible, man!
Hi! Hi!

1815
01:36:56,331 --> 01:36:58,594
I'm Quinn's friend, Ryan.

1816
01:36:58,594 --> 01:37:00,466
You guys sounded so good!

1817
01:37:00,466 --> 01:37:02,294
You're gonna be so famous!

1818
01:37:02,294 --> 01:37:04,992
I know. I really have to savor
my anonymity.

1819
01:37:04,992 --> 01:37:08,735
Hey, we're gonna go to this
party over in Williamsburg.

1820
01:37:08,735 --> 01:37:10,258
You guys wanna come?

1821
01:37:11,869 --> 01:37:13,653
Fuck, yeah, whatever.
Let's go!

1822
01:37:13,653 --> 01:37:14,828
I need to get outta here.

1823
01:37:21,095 --> 01:37:22,880
Do you have the time?

1824
01:37:22,880 --> 01:37:24,751
- Yeah.

1825
01:37:28,363 --> 01:37:30,496
Hey, Danny. Everything okay?

1826
01:37:30,496 --> 01:37:34,239
I can't find Ryan.
I've tried everything.

1827
01:37:34,239 --> 01:37:38,199
Anyway, my mind
can't help but wonder if...

1828
01:37:38,199 --> 01:37:40,462
Well, if you've seen Allison
or not.

1829
01:37:40,462 --> 01:37:43,726
Uh, no, I haven't, but I can
text her if you want.

1830
01:37:43,726 --> 01:37:45,119
Well, I've tried texting
both of them,

1831
01:37:45,119 --> 01:37:46,512
but neither one is answering.

1832
01:37:46,512 --> 01:37:47,730
What's wrong?

1833
01:37:47,730 --> 01:37:49,167
Daniel can't find
his granddaughter.

1834
01:37:49,167 --> 01:37:51,560
Um, well, if he pays for
the phone, he can just log

1835
01:37:51,560 --> 01:37:53,171
into the account,
and use Find My Phone.

1836
01:37:53,171 --> 01:37:55,608
Yeah. Daniel, do you know
what Find My Phone is?

1837
01:37:55,608 --> 01:37:57,088
No, what the hell is that?

1838
01:37:58,916 --> 01:38:01,179
This is amazing!

1839
01:38:01,962 --> 01:38:05,748
Whoa!

1840
01:38:28,162 --> 01:38:29,163
Fuck!

1841
01:38:30,643 --> 01:38:34,168
Allie, this is Jarvis. He has
the stuff you asked for.

1842
01:38:34,168 --> 01:38:35,430
Hey!

1843
01:38:35,430 --> 01:38:37,171
I don't have any thirties,
just dope.

1844
01:38:37,171 --> 01:38:40,174
Uh, yeah, okay.
Yeah, whatever you have.

1845
01:38:42,002 --> 01:38:43,699
Can you spot me?

1846
01:38:43,699 --> 01:38:45,788
- I'll pay you back, I promise.
- Uh, okay, all right.

1847
01:38:52,621 --> 01:38:53,622
Thanks.

1848
01:39:01,717 --> 01:39:03,284
It's coming. Look like!

1849
01:39:06,635 --> 01:39:07,593
Yeah, here it is.

1850
01:39:07,593 --> 01:39:08,768
Okay, what does it say?

1851
01:39:16,732 --> 01:39:19,431
- The whole room is spinning.

1852
01:39:21,389 --> 01:39:22,912
Oh, that's my phone.

1853
01:39:24,175 --> 01:39:25,437
Don't worry about it.

1854
01:39:27,308 --> 01:39:30,007
Can we just stop for a second?

1855
01:39:30,007 --> 01:39:31,399
Where is my phone?

1856
01:39:33,488 --> 01:39:35,099
I think I'm gonna throw up.

1857
01:39:38,058 --> 01:39:39,320
What the fuck!

1858
01:39:40,669 --> 01:39:42,932
She's in the fucking city!

1859
01:39:42,932 --> 01:39:45,152
She's in fucking Williamsburg!

1860
01:39:45,152 --> 01:39:47,241
Okay, Daniel, wait.
I'm gonna come pick you up.

1861
01:39:47,241 --> 01:39:49,200
I don't want you to do
something you're gonna regret.

1862
01:39:49,200 --> 01:39:50,897
I'm gonna kill
that motherfucker.

1863
01:39:50,897 --> 01:39:52,725
Yeah, that's exactly what I'm
worried about. I'm on my way.

1864
01:40:06,434 --> 01:40:09,002
- Okay. Easy does it.

1865
01:40:09,002 --> 01:40:11,004
- You're wasted.
- No, I'm not.

1866
01:40:13,441 --> 01:40:14,529
Ryan?

1867
01:40:39,206 --> 01:40:40,425
Ryan?

1868
01:40:44,646 --> 01:40:46,387
- Ryan, are you in there?

1869
01:40:46,387 --> 01:40:48,737
She's fine.
Go the fuck away!

1870
01:40:48,737 --> 01:40:49,912
Ryan?

1871
01:40:58,312 --> 01:40:59,400
Ryan?

1872
01:41:00,880 --> 01:41:03,100
Can you just
open the door, please?

1873
01:41:05,406 --> 01:41:06,407
Ryan.

1874
01:41:06,407 --> 01:41:07,626
Go away!

1875
01:41:07,626 --> 01:41:09,845
Allison? Where's Ryan?

1876
01:41:09,845 --> 01:41:11,325
What're you doing here?

1877
01:41:11,325 --> 01:41:13,588
Where the fuck is Ryan?

1878
01:41:13,588 --> 01:41:15,895
She's in here. I'm trying to...
She won't answer.

1879
01:41:15,895 --> 01:41:16,983
- Ryan!

1880
01:41:17,940 --> 01:41:18,985
Ryan?

1881
01:41:20,421 --> 01:41:22,119
It's your grandpa,
open the door.

1882
01:41:23,337 --> 01:41:24,817
Open the door, baby.

1883
01:41:24,817 --> 01:41:26,123
Fuck off!

1884
01:41:28,255 --> 01:41:30,301
- What the fuck!
Ryan!

1885
01:41:30,301 --> 01:41:32,955
You again!
Get the fuck up!

1886
01:41:32,955 --> 01:41:34,131
- Danny, no, no, no.
- Oh, my God!

1887
01:41:34,131 --> 01:41:35,697
- Don't do that!
- Nothing happened.

1888
01:41:35,697 --> 01:41:38,265
Tell me why I shouldn't
kill you, motherfucker?

1889
01:41:38,265 --> 01:41:39,701
We were just making out.

1890
01:41:39,701 --> 01:41:40,920
You hurt my baby.

1891
01:41:43,575 --> 01:41:45,272
- Now, I'm gonna hurt you.

1892
01:41:45,272 --> 01:41:46,708
- No, no, no, no, no.
Danny!

1893
01:41:47,666 --> 01:41:48,580
Dad!

1894
01:41:49,102 --> 01:41:50,973
No!

1895
01:41:50,973 --> 01:41:53,498
The hell you're doing here?
This is family business.

1896
01:41:53,498 --> 01:41:55,152
Don't do this.

1897
01:41:55,152 --> 01:41:57,154
Go on back
to your new life, Nate.

1898
01:41:57,154 --> 01:41:58,807
Put the gun down, please.

1899
01:41:58,807 --> 01:42:00,157
Please, please!

1900
01:42:00,157 --> 01:42:01,549
He's not worth it.

1901
01:42:01,549 --> 01:42:03,812
I got nothing left to lose.

1902
01:42:03,812 --> 01:42:05,118
You got me!

1903
01:42:06,467 --> 01:42:07,555
You got Ryan!

1904
01:42:08,339 --> 01:42:09,731
We need you!

1905
01:42:09,731 --> 01:42:11,994
You do this, it's over!

1906
01:42:14,388 --> 01:42:15,998
We get no more time.

1907
01:42:15,998 --> 01:42:18,131
Danny,
put the gun down.

1908
01:42:20,307 --> 01:42:21,308
Please.

1909
01:42:28,620 --> 01:42:29,621
Oh, my...

1910
01:42:31,231 --> 01:42:32,276
That's my niece.

1911
01:42:32,972 --> 01:42:34,408
She's 16 years old.

1912
01:42:36,367 --> 01:42:37,759
Oh, my God! All right,
we gotta get out of here.

1913
01:42:37,759 --> 01:42:38,891
Hey, Ryan, baby?

1914
01:42:38,891 --> 01:42:40,458
- Please get up.
- My fucking nose!

1915
01:42:40,458 --> 01:42:43,461
Get over here!
My fucking nose!

1916
01:42:56,691 --> 01:42:58,215
The fuck is the matter
with you?

1917
01:42:58,215 --> 01:42:59,651
I was trying to protect her!

1918
01:42:59,651 --> 01:43:01,043
Protect her?
- Yeah!

1919
01:43:01,043 --> 01:43:03,307
I told you to stay away
from her!

1920
01:43:03,307 --> 01:43:04,569
Who the fuck are you

1921
01:43:04,569 --> 01:43:06,092
to be talking
about protecting somebody?

1922
01:43:06,092 --> 01:43:07,702
- You're a mess.
- Dad!

1923
01:43:07,702 --> 01:43:10,139
I was... I was trying to help.

1924
01:43:10,139 --> 01:43:11,663
I was... I was trying to...

1925
01:43:12,490 --> 01:43:13,926
I was trying to make it right.

1926
01:43:13,926 --> 01:43:15,319
Let me tell you something.

1927
01:43:16,015 --> 01:43:17,669
You will never ever

1928
01:43:17,669 --> 01:43:19,801
be able to fix the things
you've done to me.

1929
01:43:20,976 --> 01:43:22,064
You hear me?

1930
01:43:22,848 --> 01:43:24,502
I want my life back.

1931
01:43:24,502 --> 01:43:25,764
I want my child back.

1932
01:43:26,895 --> 01:43:29,507
My baby, my... Molly.

1933
01:43:30,856 --> 01:43:32,379
You took my baby away from me!

1934
01:43:32,379 --> 01:43:33,728
Dad! Enough.

1935
01:43:33,728 --> 01:43:35,034
Nah, it's okay.

1936
01:43:36,775 --> 01:43:37,776
Say it.

1937
01:43:39,212 --> 01:43:40,648
Shit, I wanted to hate you.

1938
01:43:42,041 --> 01:43:43,260
But I stopped myself.

1939
01:43:45,914 --> 01:43:49,178
And when you walked into
that meeting, I thought...

1940
01:43:50,179 --> 01:43:52,486
This is God testing me.

1941
01:43:52,486 --> 01:43:56,882
This is proof of a higher power

1942
01:43:56,882 --> 01:43:59,101
testing me in this church.

1943
01:44:00,799 --> 01:44:02,191
Trying to see
if he could break me.

1944
01:44:03,280 --> 01:44:04,411
But I'll show him.

1945
01:44:07,109 --> 01:44:08,285
I'm unbreakable.

1946
01:44:09,808 --> 01:44:11,636
I will offer my hand

1947
01:44:12,332 --> 01:44:13,942
to this sorry

1948
01:44:14,769 --> 01:44:18,686
little fucking pill-junkie.

1949
01:44:18,686 --> 01:44:21,863
All I asked you to do
was stay away from this child.

1950
01:44:23,343 --> 01:44:24,388
Now look at her.

1951
01:44:25,737 --> 01:44:26,999
She got no mother.

1952
01:44:29,175 --> 01:44:30,176
No father.

1953
01:44:32,265 --> 01:44:34,223
And how many years
can I have left?

1954
01:44:36,574 --> 01:44:38,924
What a fucking waste you are.

1955
01:44:39,272 --> 01:44:40,186
Dad!

1956
01:44:40,186 --> 01:44:43,232
What a fucking waste of a soul.

1957
01:44:45,322 --> 01:44:46,584
Of a chance.

1958
01:44:46,584 --> 01:44:48,934
Danny, enough.
You've said your piece.

1959
01:44:48,934 --> 01:44:50,849
This isn't
how it was supposed to be.

1960
01:44:52,894 --> 01:44:54,069
I'm a good person.

1961
01:44:56,028 --> 01:44:58,204
I never said
God has to be fair.

1962
01:44:58,987 --> 01:45:00,119
I just never thought

1963
01:45:01,729 --> 01:45:03,035
he could be this cruel.

1964
01:45:06,647 --> 01:45:07,953
Taxi!

1965
01:45:07,953 --> 01:45:09,389
Hold on, Danny,
let me take you home.

1966
01:45:09,389 --> 01:45:10,477
No.

1967
01:45:10,477 --> 01:45:13,480
I'll go with him.
Hey! Hey, Ryan!

1968
01:45:13,480 --> 01:45:15,917
Come on, wake up.
We're taking you home.

1969
01:45:29,235 --> 01:45:31,324
You drank!

1970
01:45:31,324 --> 01:45:35,372
You turned your map app
back on at 17:36:22.

1971
01:45:36,677 --> 01:45:39,767
Impact was at 17:36:24.

1972
01:45:41,290 --> 01:45:45,251
Skid marks show you lost
30 feet before you swerved.

1973
01:45:46,426 --> 01:45:49,255
You didn't have time to stop

1974
01:45:49,255 --> 01:45:52,084
because you were looking at
your fucking phone, Allison.

1975
01:45:53,607 --> 01:45:55,130
Stop blaming Alvarez.

1976
01:45:56,567 --> 01:45:58,525
They're dead because of you.

1977
01:46:17,936 --> 01:46:19,938
All right. All right.
It's all right.

1978
01:46:19,938 --> 01:46:21,243
Come here. Come here.

1979
01:46:22,941 --> 01:46:25,117
It's all right. Okay.

1980
01:46:28,250 --> 01:46:29,687
<i>No, that can't go
over there.</i>

1981
01:46:29,687 --> 01:46:31,253
That can't...

1982
01:46:32,254 --> 01:46:34,343
That can't... That can't go...

1983
01:47:30,356 --> 01:47:31,618
Good morning.

1984
01:47:32,358 --> 01:47:33,533
Good morning.

1985
01:47:34,882 --> 01:47:36,449
I made a house.

1986
01:47:38,712 --> 01:47:40,061
Do you have a headache?

1987
01:47:42,586 --> 01:47:43,587
Yeah.

1988
01:47:49,549 --> 01:47:51,029
Hey.

1989
01:47:51,029 --> 01:47:53,074
Can I, uh, sell this, please?

1990
01:48:02,519 --> 01:48:03,607
I'll give you $12,500.

1991
01:48:05,043 --> 01:48:06,435
Yeah. Yeah, okay. Thank you.

1992
01:48:07,175 --> 01:48:08,394
It is a beauty.

1993
01:48:12,180 --> 01:48:15,619
<i>♪ I woke up today ♪</i>

1994
01:48:17,359 --> 01:48:20,362
<i>♪ At least that much is true ♪</i>

1995
01:48:24,192 --> 01:48:27,326
<i>♪ I saw what people see ♪</i>

1996
01:48:29,328 --> 01:48:33,288
<i>♪ What a year this made of me ♪</i>

1997
01:48:40,469 --> 01:48:44,648
<i>♪ I tried a hundred times ♪</i>

1998
01:48:44,648 --> 01:48:49,130
<i>♪ But each time
I thought of you ♪</i>

1999
01:48:50,784 --> 01:48:52,612
Thank you.

2000
01:48:52,612 --> 01:48:57,835
<i>♪ I hate myself ♪</i>

2001
01:48:57,835 --> 01:49:01,665
<i>♪ I fuckin' hate myself ♪</i>

2002
01:49:08,628 --> 01:49:13,241
<i>♪ And I ♪</i>

2003
01:49:15,113 --> 01:49:18,943
<i>♪ I want days of pain ♪</i>

2004
01:49:21,641 --> 01:49:24,862
<i>♪ Oh, to feel ♪</i>

2005
01:49:24,862 --> 01:49:29,040
<i>♪ The things I need ♪</i>

2006
01:49:33,697 --> 01:49:36,177
<i>♪ To pay off this shame ♪</i>

2007
01:49:36,177 --> 01:49:40,094
<i>♪ And I know
that makes me broken ♪</i>

2008
01:49:40,094 --> 01:49:44,142
<i>♪ I know that makes me weak ♪</i>

2009
01:49:46,492 --> 01:49:50,714
<i>♪ I guess I'll put
my armor back on now ♪</i>

2010
01:49:52,280 --> 01:49:55,240
<i>♪ I found a way ♪</i>

2011
01:49:55,240 --> 01:49:58,069
<i>♪ But I turned around ♪</i>

2012
01:50:00,549 --> 01:50:03,248
<i>♪ One step to start ♪</i>

2013
01:50:03,248 --> 01:50:08,035
<i>♪ But I'd rather fall down ♪</i>

2014
01:50:10,951 --> 01:50:13,911
<i>♪ Too much of a coward ♪</i>

2015
01:50:13,911 --> 01:50:17,088
<i>♪ To just say I'm wrong ♪</i>

2016
01:50:17,088 --> 01:50:19,220
Grandpa, you are not
gonna believe this.

2017
01:50:19,220 --> 01:50:20,395
One of the girls on the team

2018
01:50:20,395 --> 01:50:21,875
invited me to a party
this weekend.

2019
01:50:22,223 --> 01:50:23,529
You?

2020
01:50:23,529 --> 01:50:24,922
- Yes, me!

2021
01:50:28,969 --> 01:50:32,625
<i>♪ Help me, please ♪</i>

2022
01:50:34,235 --> 01:50:38,065
<i>♪ Try to fix yourself ♪</i>

2023
01:50:38,065 --> 01:50:40,851
<i>♪ That's all they said to me ♪</i>

2024
01:50:49,773 --> 01:50:52,819
<i>♪ Try to fix myself ♪</i>

2025
01:50:54,038 --> 01:50:57,389
<i>♪ To know how hard
that would be ♪</i>

2026
01:51:07,616 --> 01:51:08,530
Hi.

2027
01:51:10,750 --> 01:51:11,751
Hi.

2028
01:51:16,016 --> 01:51:17,539
Thank you so much for coming.

2029
01:51:18,671 --> 01:51:19,585
Sure.

2030
01:51:24,111 --> 01:51:25,722
- You look great.

2031
01:51:26,635 --> 01:51:27,898
I nearly put makeup on,

2032
01:51:27,898 --> 01:51:30,030
and then I just laughed
at myself.

2033
01:51:32,380 --> 01:51:33,425
Do you like my clips?

2034
01:51:34,165 --> 01:51:35,688
Wow, yeah.

2035
01:51:35,688 --> 01:51:37,124
I stole them from a pharmacy.

2036
01:51:37,864 --> 01:51:38,952
- Not recently.

2037
01:51:38,952 --> 01:51:41,128
- Like, a while back.

2038
01:51:45,524 --> 01:51:46,786
I don't know where to start.

2039
01:51:46,786 --> 01:51:47,787
That's okay.

2040
01:51:48,353 --> 01:51:49,963
Um, I'll start.

2041
01:51:57,579 --> 01:51:59,277
Nate, I didn't have...

2042
01:52:01,453 --> 01:52:02,933
the faintest idea

2043
01:52:04,456 --> 01:52:06,414
how to handle my own grief.

2044
01:52:09,853 --> 01:52:12,420
I didn't even know
if I was allowed to grieve.

2045
01:52:12,420 --> 01:52:14,771
We were all flailing.

2046
01:52:14,771 --> 01:52:16,947
Yeah, but I abandoned you,

2047
01:52:18,078 --> 01:52:19,732
and that was so selfish.

2048
01:52:22,169 --> 01:52:24,476
I ran as fast as I could
away from you.

2049
01:52:25,651 --> 01:52:27,653
I still wanted you
to be my wife.

2050
01:52:29,133 --> 01:52:30,177
I know.

2051
01:52:35,095 --> 01:52:37,228
But the truth is, Nate, I...

2052
01:52:39,317 --> 01:52:40,927
I was so sure

2053
01:52:42,407 --> 01:52:43,277
I was gonna...

2054
01:52:47,542 --> 01:52:49,675
- try...
- I know.

2055
01:52:51,808 --> 01:52:53,157
And you know I tried.

2056
01:52:55,637 --> 01:52:57,422
I tried, but I couldn't.

2057
01:52:59,946 --> 01:53:01,818
'Cause I didn't wanna
hurt you again.

2058
01:53:01,818 --> 01:53:03,602
It wasn't your fault.

2059
01:53:03,602 --> 01:53:04,777
It was.

2060
01:53:06,518 --> 01:53:07,911
Your dad was right.

2061
01:53:09,521 --> 01:53:10,870
If I hadn't been looking
at my phone,

2062
01:53:10,870 --> 01:53:12,393
I could have stopped in time.

2063
01:53:16,702 --> 01:53:19,748
You deserve an apology that
never came, and I'm so sorry.

2064
01:53:24,405 --> 01:53:25,537
I'm really sorry.

2065
01:53:32,370 --> 01:53:34,285
I've been spending some time
with him lately.

2066
01:53:34,285 --> 01:53:35,329
Yeah.

2067
01:53:36,635 --> 01:53:39,159
- Oh, it's a work-in-progress.

2068
01:53:40,378 --> 01:53:41,379
Good.

2069
01:53:44,773 --> 01:53:46,340
He kept me alive, you know.

2070
01:53:50,388 --> 01:53:51,650
I know about your ear.

2071
01:53:57,612 --> 01:54:02,139
Hey... I need you
to be clear on one thing.

2072
01:54:04,924 --> 01:54:06,491
I loved you so much.

2073
01:54:10,234 --> 01:54:11,888
And along
with everything else,

2074
01:54:13,367 --> 01:54:14,847
I will forever grieve

2075
01:54:14,847 --> 01:54:17,110
for the life that we might
have had.

2076
01:54:19,983 --> 01:54:21,071
Me too.

2077
01:54:24,639 --> 01:54:26,859
- We were a good team.

2078
01:54:28,252 --> 01:54:30,123
It would be nice

2079
01:54:30,123 --> 01:54:32,038
if we could one day
find some way

2080
01:54:32,038 --> 01:54:33,910
to be in each other's lives.

2081
01:54:34,867 --> 01:54:36,434
Maybe that's unrealistic,

2082
01:54:36,434 --> 01:54:37,652
- but...
- Maybe.

2083
01:54:38,784 --> 01:54:39,741
Yeah.

2084
01:54:41,395 --> 01:54:42,570
Maybe.

2085
01:54:53,755 --> 01:54:55,496
I think
we can all thank Elaine.

2086
01:54:55,496 --> 01:54:57,107
Thank you so much.

2087
01:54:57,107 --> 01:54:59,370
I really appreciated
getting to know you,

2088
01:54:59,370 --> 01:55:01,459
and talking to you.

2089
01:55:01,459 --> 01:55:04,157
Everybody, our deeply
inappropriate stories

2090
01:55:04,157 --> 01:55:05,550
- from yesterday...

2091
01:55:05,550 --> 01:55:08,727
...have been well in my head.
King's laughing.

2092
01:55:08,727 --> 01:55:11,121
Your stories are foul.

2093
01:55:12,426 --> 01:55:14,037
Mama,

2094
01:55:14,037 --> 01:55:15,342
I'm so grateful for you.

2095
01:55:15,342 --> 01:55:17,475
Thank you for everything
you've done for me.

2096
01:55:17,475 --> 01:55:18,955
And I love you.

2097
01:55:28,965 --> 01:55:31,968
The food was terrible.
Thank you.

2098
01:55:31,968 --> 01:55:33,926
<i>♪ I can't shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2099
01:55:33,926 --> 01:55:37,364
<i>♪ It's something
I have tried to do ♪</i>

2100
01:55:37,364 --> 01:55:41,542
<i>♪ But I can't
shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2101
01:55:41,542 --> 01:55:44,719
<i>♪ Sit on trains
and think of you ♪</i>

2102
01:55:44,719 --> 01:55:46,417
<i>♪ But I...♪</i>

2103
01:55:46,417 --> 01:55:50,987
<i>♪ Oh, I can't tell ♪</i>

2104
01:55:52,075 --> 01:55:58,255
<i>♪ If it hurts or it helps ♪</i>

2105
01:56:00,474 --> 01:56:06,306
<i>♪ So breathe me in ♪</i>

2106
01:56:07,351 --> 01:56:11,790
<i>♪ One last time ♪</i>

2107
01:56:15,098 --> 01:56:17,926
<i>♪ And we play ♪</i>

2108
01:56:17,926 --> 01:56:23,149
<i>♪ Our rehearsed ♪</i>

2109
01:56:23,149 --> 01:56:27,240
<i>♪ Goodbyes ♪</i>

2110
01:56:30,896 --> 01:56:34,726
<i>♪ I can't shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2111
01:56:34,726 --> 01:56:38,991
<i>♪ It's something
I have tried to do ♪</i>

2112
01:56:38,991 --> 01:56:43,604
<i>♪ But I can't
shake you off, dear ♪</i>

2113
01:56:43,604 --> 01:56:47,434
<i>♪ I sit on trains
and think of you ♪</i>

2114
01:56:48,479 --> 01:56:54,876
<i>♪ But you are the best part ♪</i>

2115
01:56:56,574 --> 01:57:01,840
<i>♪ You ♪</i>

2116
01:57:04,669 --> 01:57:05,931
Thank you.

2117
01:57:09,456 --> 01:57:12,981
Um, I recently recorded
my first EP,

2118
01:57:12,981 --> 01:57:14,418
and it's at the coat check

2119
01:57:14,418 --> 01:57:16,898
because I'm also
the coat check girl.

2120
01:57:16,898 --> 01:57:19,075
Uh, so come buy a CD,

2121
01:57:19,075 --> 01:57:20,598
or I won't give you
your coats back.

2122
01:57:31,913 --> 01:57:33,698
Hi.

2123
01:57:33,698 --> 01:57:35,700
I know you're calling
about my one-year clean,

2124
01:57:35,700 --> 01:57:37,876
but I need to tell you
what I just did.

2125
01:57:40,618 --> 01:57:42,141
Yeah. No, I can talk.

2126
01:57:43,925 --> 01:57:44,839
Okay.

2127
01:57:58,026 --> 01:57:59,289
Hey, Dwayne.

2128
01:57:59,289 --> 01:58:00,812
Could you take these
to the kitchen for me?

2129
01:58:00,812 --> 01:58:02,466
Thank you so much.

2130
01:58:05,208 --> 01:58:06,905
She'll give it back.
Right, Ryan?

2131
01:58:06,905 --> 01:58:08,385
- That's nice.
Thank you.

2132
01:58:08,385 --> 01:58:11,692
Hey. How's it going?
Ooh, wait, I have cupcakes.

2133
01:58:11,692 --> 01:58:14,042
- Need any help?
- No, no, no. I'm all good.
Thank you.

2134
01:58:14,042 --> 01:58:15,000
Actually, we broke up

2135
01:58:15,000 --> 01:58:16,219
- a few months ago.
- Yeah...

2136
01:58:16,219 --> 01:58:17,524
Hey, Mama.
- Yes?

2137
01:58:17,524 --> 01:58:20,223
Could you go pass these around
over there?

2138
01:58:20,223 --> 01:58:21,354
I think they would like some.

2139
01:58:21,354 --> 01:58:22,616
- Sure.
- Thank you.

2140
01:58:22,616 --> 01:58:24,792
- Ooh, they smell so good.
- They are good.

2141
01:59:38,779 --> 01:59:40,477
<i>Dear Allison.</i>

2142
01:59:40,477 --> 01:59:44,002
<i>Down here in 1:87 scale,</i>

2143
01:59:44,002 --> 01:59:45,569
<i>the lovers always kiss,</i>

2144
01:59:46,439 --> 01:59:49,137
<i>the neighbors are always kind,</i>

2145
01:59:49,137 --> 01:59:52,184
<i>and the trains always
take you to the far-off places</i>

2146
01:59:52,184 --> 01:59:54,447
<i>you always swore you'd go.</i>

2147
01:59:56,144 --> 01:59:58,277
<i>In life, of course,</i>

2148
01:59:58,277 --> 02:00:00,540
<i>nothing is nearly
as neat and tidy.</i>

2149
02:00:02,281 --> 02:00:05,415
<i>Everything I own has been left
to Nathan and Ryan.</i>

2150
02:00:06,416 --> 02:00:08,244
<i>Nathan has agreed to move home</i>

2151
02:00:08,244 --> 02:00:11,029
<i>and be her guardian
until she's off to college.</i>

2152
02:00:12,160 --> 02:00:13,292
<i>He'll need help.</i>

2153
02:00:14,293 --> 02:00:16,948
<i>Please help him, Allie.</i>

2154
02:00:16,948 --> 02:00:20,386
<i>Molly always said Nathan was
the best version of himself</i>

2155
02:00:20,386 --> 02:00:21,561
<i>when he was with you.</i>

2156
02:00:22,780 --> 02:00:24,434
<i>Who knows,</i>

2157
02:00:24,434 --> 02:00:29,003
<i>maybe you can even get her
into Stanford.</i>

2158
02:00:29,003 --> 02:00:30,962
<i>When we first met
in that diner,</i>

2159
02:00:31,832 --> 02:00:34,618
<i>you asked what my tattoo meant.</i>

2160
02:00:34,618 --> 02:00:37,577
- Amor fati <i>is Latin.</i>

2161
02:00:37,577 --> 02:00:39,753
<i>It means "to love one's fate."</i>

2162
02:00:40,972 --> 02:00:44,236
<i>Neither of us
chose this fate, Allie.</i>

2163
02:00:44,236 --> 02:00:47,892
<i>But perhaps we can find a way
to love it.</i>

2164
02:00:47,892 --> 02:00:51,983
<i>Fate has given me
one final year with my son.</i>

2165
02:00:51,983 --> 02:00:55,116
<i>He looks at me differently
these days.</i>

2166
02:00:55,116 --> 02:00:58,206
<i>Once in a while I even
catch him smiling at me</i>

2167
02:00:58,206 --> 02:01:01,558
<i>with a look that might
just even be love.</i>

2168
02:01:02,907 --> 02:01:04,952
Amor fati, <i>Allison.</i>

2169
02:01:06,127 --> 02:01:07,477
<i>Until we meet again,</i>

2170
02:01:08,869 --> 02:01:09,870
<i>Daniel.</i>

2171
02:01:13,396 --> 02:01:14,397
Allie?

2172
02:01:15,006 --> 02:01:16,312
Yeah?

2173
02:01:16,312 --> 02:01:17,400
What are you doing?

2174
02:01:18,836 --> 02:01:19,924
Come on upstairs.

2175
02:01:19,924 --> 02:01:20,881
Yeah, okay.

2176
02:01:46,516 --> 02:01:51,521
<i>♪ Down in the valley
the first of May ♪</i>

2177
02:01:55,089 --> 02:02:00,704
<i>♪ Gatherin' flowers
both fresh and gay ♪</i>

2178
02:02:03,794 --> 02:02:10,757
<i>♪ Gatherin' flowers
both red and blue ♪</i>

2179
02:02:10,757 --> 02:02:12,890
<i>♪ How little thought
of what... ♪</i>

2180
02:02:15,719 --> 02:02:18,069
<i>♪ ...what love could you do ♪</i>

2181
02:02:19,505 --> 02:02:23,770
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2182
02:02:27,383 --> 02:02:31,561
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2183
02:02:36,870 --> 02:02:40,396
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2184
02:02:44,704 --> 02:02:48,360
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2185
02:02:55,759 --> 02:03:01,242
<i>♪ I put my hand in
into the bush ♪</i>

2186
02:03:04,724 --> 02:03:08,728
<i>♪ Finding the sweetest
sweetest rose ♪</i>

2187
02:03:13,080 --> 02:03:18,999
<i>♪ I pricked my finger
deep to the line ♪</i>

2188
02:03:20,131 --> 02:03:24,396
<i>♪ And left the sweetest rose ♪</i>

2189
02:03:24,396 --> 02:03:28,705
<i>♪ Sweetest rose behind ♪</i>

2190
02:03:28,705 --> 02:03:32,230
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2191
02:03:36,582 --> 02:03:40,325
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2192
02:03:45,896 --> 02:03:49,813
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2193
02:03:53,730 --> 02:03:58,125
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2194
02:04:37,425 --> 02:04:42,039
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2195
02:04:45,129 --> 02:04:49,046
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2196
02:04:54,573 --> 02:04:59,491
<i>♪ Don't you ♪</i>

2197
02:05:02,625 --> 02:05:06,585
<i>♪ Break my heart ♪</i>

2198
02:05:13,331 --> 02:05:18,858
<i>♪ Thousands and thousands
all on this Earth ♪</i>

2199
02:05:32,132 --> 02:05:35,658
<i>♪ Honey you've been
on my mind ♪</i>

2200
02:05:35,658 --> 02:05:39,139
<i>♪ Like Christmas and birthdays
when I was five ♪</i>

2201
02:05:39,139 --> 02:05:41,315
<i>♪ Like the ticking clock
for racers ♪</i>

2202
02:05:41,315 --> 02:05:43,448
<i>♪ And those
in the prison line ♪</i>

2203
02:05:43,448 --> 02:05:47,147
<i>♪ Like Everest for Mallory and
how drinkers know their wine ♪</i>

2204
02:05:47,147 --> 02:05:50,847
<i>♪ And the birds and the bees
when you hit nine ♪</i>

2205
02:05:50,847 --> 02:05:54,981
♪ And pearls for those girls

2206
02:05:54,981 --> 02:05:58,637
<i>♪ Who always have their hair
in pretty curls ♪</i>

2207
02:05:58,637 --> 02:06:07,864
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2208
02:06:07,864 --> 02:06:11,389
<i>♪ Honey you've been
in my head ♪</i>

2209
02:06:11,389 --> 02:06:15,349
<i>♪ Like homework on Sunday when
I've been laughing instead ♪</i>

2210
02:06:15,349 --> 02:06:19,223
<i>♪ Like cigarettes for the cool
kids behind the garden shed ♪</i>

2211
02:06:19,223 --> 02:06:23,880
<i>♪ And love for the lovers
and the elephant by my bed ♪</i>

2212
02:06:23,880 --> 02:06:27,927
<i>♪ And pearls for those girls ♪</i>

2213
02:06:27,927 --> 02:06:31,888
<i>♪ Who always have their hair
in pretty curls ♪</i>

2214
02:06:31,888 --> 02:06:35,979
<i>♪ And football
for English boys ♪</i>

2215
02:06:35,979 --> 02:06:39,722
<i>♪ Who always have
the newest toys ♪</i>

2216
02:06:39,722 --> 02:06:50,080
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2217
02:06:56,782 --> 02:07:03,528
<i>♪ So don't you
go away too long ♪</i>

2218
02:07:04,964 --> 02:07:18,499
<i>♪ Oh don't you
go away too long ♪</i>

2219
02:07:19,326 --> 02:07:23,504
<i>♪ Oh don't you go ♪</i>

2220
02:07:23,504 --> 02:07:27,465
<i>♪ Away too long ♪</i>

2221
02:07:27,465 --> 02:07:31,687
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>

2222
02:07:32,600 --> 02:07:37,605
<i>♪ You're on my mind ♪</i>