(light mystical music)
(people chattering)
♪ Ah, ah ♪
(angelical choir chants)
(people chattering)
(angelical music continues)
What happened to me changed my life forever,
and people say... this too shall pass,
and I say, no, not for me.
This is my story now.
(upbeat music plays)
(upbeat music continues)
(bouncy piano music starts)
(angelical choir continues)
(bouncy piano music continues)
Sorry it was an accident.
(bouncy piano music continues)
(angelical choir continues)
(indistinct chatter)
Are you waiting for the next 23?
No, I can get the 188.
Ah! Which is coming in,
right. Okay, so...
I'm just gonna go for it.
Obviously you are way
out of my league (laughs)
and I dunno if it's something about you
or the fact that I can literally
see your bus come down the road right now.
But I'm, I'm feeling pretty emboldened
so I'm just gonna say it.
Would you like to come
to a party...
with me...
now?
(laughs) I gathered that,
I dunno if you make a habit of propositioning
random strangers at bus shelters,
but it's pretty unorthodox.
Okay, so how does this usually go?
Well, usually goes and more often than not
takes place in a bar, not a bus shelter.
But can I buy you a drink? (laughs)
Can I buy you a drink?
[Jess] Sorry.
I'm Ben.
I'm Jess.
After it happened, I thought I'd
never get over it.
And you hear people say it a lot.
Sometimes it's figurative and
sometimes it's for effect.
(calming music plays)
But when I say it, it's none of those things.
It's just the truth.
(indistinct chatter)
(light mythical music plays)
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I...
was...
devastated.
(solemn piano music plays)
(upbeat music plays) (choir chants)
(upbeat music continues) (choir chants)
(upbeat music continues) (choir continues chanting)
(excited piano music plays)
(light mythical music fades)
(gentle guitar music plays)
(Ben groans)
[Jess] Come on.
All right.
[Jess] I'm tired already. [Ben] We just started already,
you kidding? [Jess] Right.
(gentle guitar music continues)
It's gonna take forever. [Ben] Yeah,
I'm kind of regretting that
top floor flat now.
[Jess] Well done,
can you grab me a beer?
Do you know today's our 13 month
and 3 week anniversary.
- Anniversary what? - Us.
Yeah, I know, but what?
First time we met, first time we
went on a date, first time
- that we... - Mm.
Although to be fair,
I suppose the first time we met
sort of became our first date,
which also sort of became the first time.
(Jess chuckles)
- I love you. - Well, you're bouncy
aren't you?
You just found us this flat.
(gentle guitar playing)
Ahhh! (Jess and Ben laughing)
(Jess moans)
(gentle guitar continues)
(keys jingle and door opens)
I need some tea and a wee
and not necessarily
- in that order. - I've got a deadline
- and I can't find them. - Yeah,
well I've not been down here
for two weeks so whatever it is,
you can't blame me.
- You all right? - Yeah
Okay... Well I can tell
that you're lying but you are late
and I need some wee
so I'm gonna let you off.
Mum.
Thanks for coming down.
Wouldn't want to be anywhere else.
(soft music plays)
(soft music continues) (people chatter)
(soft music continues) (car drives by)
(soft music continues)
(soft angelic melody plays)
(soft angelic melody fades)
Hey! (door closes)
Hey.
- How'd it go? - Good, yeah.
I spoke to the features editor,
Dee, and she said if I bump
the piece off by 500 words
then it can go on the
- main paper. - Do you want some cake?
- Ehh... No. - Are you sure?
Yeah, why?
Because I wanna tell you something,
but I want you to be
in a good mood when I do.
Just tell me now.
I'm pregnant.
Tell me what you are feeling.
Happy...
and a bit scared
but...
but yeah,
you're happy?
I mean, it's what we've
always wanted, isn't it
you and me and a flat a family
and I mean about 10 years too early.
But... let's do it. (Jess chuckles)
I said let's do it, we've already done it,
really, haven't we? (Jess laughs)
but sorry, erm...
- if that's what you want. - That's what I want.
Don't mean it goes without saying,
I'm terrified, but...
yeah, that's what I want.
(sharp exhaling)
- I'm gonna get some cake. - Yeah (Jess laughs)
(soothing lively music)
(Jess laughs)
(indistinct chatter)
(phone rings)
(car honks)
(calming soothing music plays)
(heartbeat sounds)
(calming soothing music continues)
(heartbeat sounds)
(calming soothing music continues)
(heartbeat continues)
- So is this your first baby? - What gave us away?
(Ben and Doctor laugh)
Yeah, we just want it to be okay.
Well... (heartbeat sounds)
well, I can tell you
that it is. (Jess and Ben chuckle)
- Thank you. - Thanks.
In fact, it's doubly okay
See?
You said you weren't allowed
- to be certain - because it's twins.
- Wait... - You're having twins.
- What do we do now? - I don't know.
(soft music plays)
(strong crescendo starts)
(strong crescendo fades)
[Ben] Open it.
(Jess sharply exhales)
Oh, you just do it.
(rustling of paper)
It's a boy and a girl.
(Jess sobs)
What's wrong?
I wanted a girl. (Jess sobs)
I know.
I love him just as much though.
I know.
(calming melodic music plays)
(calming music continues)
Can I ask you a question?
Nope. (Dee chuckles)
- Well, I'm gonna ask anyway. - You're the boss.
Literally.
Look, I know I've asked you
this before but since then,
have you considered writing about it?
Yes and no.
Meaning?
Yes, I've considered it and no,
I'm not doing it.
Why?
Because I don't even like to think about it,
and if I were to write about it then
I'd have to think about it a lot and...
Well, some people think that
by writing about a
- difficult experience - You help other people going
through the same experience, yet,
I don't believe that I, I'm sorry,
but I don't...
I can't do it.
[Charlie] Right, ready?
(everyone laughing)
[Pam] Come, sit down before
- you hurt yourself - What? You used to love
- my moves. - I used to tolerate them.
[Charlie] Hey, you should have seen the way
- your mother used to... - Enough!
- (Jess and Ben laugh) - Come here!
- Get off. - Right there it is.
(Charlie laughs) My famous barbecue chicken.
[Pam] What's famous about it?
How dry it is. [Charlie] You see what I'm
- dealing with? - I do. (Ben chuckles)
Right, Ben I need to ask you something.
Erm, so there are some obvious
cultural differences
- between us. - Dad...
[Charlie] No, no, no, it's important.
I need to ask. Is it your intention
to raise these children
as Oldham fans?
(Pam, Ben and Jess chuckle)
- Indeed, yeah. - I'm sorry, dad, I tried.
[Ben] We've talked about buying them,
those little... erm...
- Oldham Athletic baby grows. - That is never gonna happen.
[Charlie] Hey, where you going?
To the toilet.
Mum?
- Mum! - Oh
Promise me something...
Look, if it's
- about Arsenal... - Promise me...
you'll keep her safe.
I promise.
[Jess] Ben?!...
(soft music plays)
[Jess] Ben?!
(soft music continues)
- [Jess] Ben! - What?
Ben!
Ben...
(door opens)
I think the babies are coming.
You all right? (Jess moans)
Are you sure?
Okay, remember they said this would happen.
I'm scared. What do we do?
Look at me, look at me.
Everything and everyone
is gonna be fine. I promise.
(rapid melodic music plays)
(rapid melodic music continues)
- (monitor beeping) - I'm just gonna look at you,
okay?
- Love you. - Love you too.
[Dr. Jackson] Ready nurse?
Here we go.
(monitor beeping)
All right?
(emotional music plays)
[Dr. Jackson] There we go...
Here she is.
[Jess] Ben? (Jess and Ben laugh joyfully)
Ben? Can you see? [Ben] Yes.
Why isn't she crying?
[Dr. Jackson] She's just a little
- quiet, that's all. - Yeah,
- she's fine. - Okay, okay
[Ben] Yeah.
[Dr. Jackson] Okay, here we go.
There we go...
Hello, you.
Hi (Ben chuckles)
Hi.
[Dr. Jackson] Okay, let's
put out a crash call.
[Nurse Jones] Neonatal crash call.
Theatre one.
[Ben] What's happening?
Everything's going to be fine.
Nurses, anything?
[Nurses] No. [Dr. Jackson] Right,
let's bag them immediately.
What does that mean?
It's best if you just stay back
[Jess] Ben... what's happening?
What's going on? What's going on?
Are they okay?
[Nurse Richards] Nothing here? Anything?
[Nurse Jones] Not yet.
[Nurse Richards] Come on little one,
come on little one.
[Nurse Jones] Breathing here,
but faint.
Breathing, good.
[Nurse Richards] Breathing here too,
but very faint, hardly anything.
I need a fast scan and call
peads and intensive care.
[Nurse Jones] Losing it again...
It's gone.
Ben, do something (Jess cries)
I-I can't, I can't [Male Nurse] Excuse me, please
[Nurse Richards] Let's get them
to ICU.
[Jess] What's, what's happening?
Which one's not breathing?
[Nurse Richards] Daddy, are you coming?
Don't leave them alone!
[Ben] Wait! Wait! Jess,
are you okay? [Nurse Richards] Let's go.
[Dr. Jackson] She'll be fine...
- just... just go. - I love you.
This way. [Ben] Which one's
not breathing? Can you tell me
which one's not breathing?
[Jack] Daddy? [Ben] Yes, Jack.
Why are we going quick, quick?
Because you took too long
with your honey on toast
and I couldn't find your other shoe
and yeah, it's a combination
- of factors. - What does that mean?
It means lots of reasons.
Come on this way.
(melodic music plays)
(melodic piano music continues)
How's Jack?
He's good.
(soft piano music continues)
- Where is erm...? - Shh..shh... shh
she's there.
(sentimental music plays)
(sentimental music continues)
(baby coos) (Jess laughs)
Oh, he likes the rabbit.
- (baby Jack cries) - Oh... no he doesn't.
(Ben and Jess laugh)
Yeah, that's thirty quid
well spent.
(baby Jack cries)
[Ben] Do you wanna try and feed?
(baby Jack cries)
Okay, so remember nipples to nose.
See how it goes.
Hello?
Oh! He's doing it.
So... I've been thinking
about what I want to give them.
In life...
and I don't know
if it's because I'm sleep deprived or
the fact that I've been staring
at that wall for the last six hours
but I think I've realised what it is.
Huh?
[Jess] Intensive care.
(Ben and Jess laugh)
[Nurse Richards] Just keep it clean.
(indistinct chatter)
Yes.
That's our taxi.
Listen, I'm sure you hear this
all the time...
but thank you so much... [Jess] Yeah.
For everything. [Jess] Thank you.
Wow. Good luck.
[Ben] Come on then.
[Jess] Come on daddy...
(baby cries)
You ready to be a parent?
Not even nearly.
[Ben] Yeah, me neither.
I thought you said
- you'd been practising . - Yeah, I have.
No, it doesn't show.
Right, I'll go and get
your bag and we're away.
Okay...
Ouch..oooh
- You okay? - Yeah.
I'll pull round to the side mate.
Thanks.
(car starting)
(car speeding)
(car skids and crashes)
(people screaming)
(muffled screams) (melancholic music plays)
(muffled screams)
(mythical music plays)
(birds singing)
(door closes)
- Here, I'll give you a hand. - It's fine, it's my job.
I found that under... a pile of stuff.
(silence)
(soft melodic music plays)
(soft melodic music continues)
(crescendo starts and fades)
(door opens)
(vigorous violin music plays)
[Paramedic One] BP is seventy over twenty
and resps are twenty four.
[Paramedic Two] Okay, let's get her
on the bed.
This is Jack he's two days old. He's conscious
and appears unharmed.
This is Poppy, she's also two days old.
[Emergency Consultant] This one's not responding.
Let's get in the line now,
quickly please. [Paramedic Two] She has
lacerations to her legs and arms.
GCS is three, pulse is 122.
[Emergency Peads Consultant] Okay,
she's not breathing. Call theatre
and cut her out of this.
Now please! [Emergency Consultant] Let's
get a line in and call transfusion
we're gonna need lots of O neg. Someone,
call theatre and tell them we have
a multiple trauma case and that we need
someone now. Do we have a next of kin?
(emotional violin music continues)
- Me (Ben weepy) - Next of kin?
- Me (Ben weepy) - She's arresting,
starting CPR now.
(emotional violin music continues)
(lifeline beeps)
[Nurse] Breathing! I've got a
pulse! [Emergency Consultant] She's
not responding.
(emotional violin music continues)
[Emergency Consultant] Come on now,
come on Poppy.
Come on now Poppy, come on.
(music and words faint)
(keyboard typing)
[Poppy] Daddy?
I have a tummy ache too.
(soft melodic music)
(soft melodic music continues)
(silence)
[Nurse Richards] They'll need to stay in
for another 24 hour observation,
but you should go home.
- Get some rest. - I'm not leaving them alone.
(emotional piano music plays)
(emotional piano music continues)
- (phone ringing) - Oh, Charlie...
Ben's phoning.
Hello? (Pam laughs)
I was looking at that picture
you sent us aren't they beautiful,
how are you? How's Jess?
Ben?
(emotional music plays)
(Ben shakily) She um...
[Pam] Ben?
She died.
(emotional music continues)
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(crescendo music fades)
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