1 00:00:36,037 --> 00:00:38,832 [narrator] Have you ever wanted to be noticed so badly, 2 00:00:38,915 --> 00:00:40,667 you didn't even care what it was for? 3 00:00:50,969 --> 00:00:55,432 You just wake up every day thinking, "I want to be seen." 4 00:00:59,978 --> 00:01:03,440 To be completely honest, Danni Sanders might actually be the worst person 5 00:01:03,523 --> 00:01:05,900 we've ever covered on this show, and we covered Hitler. 6 00:01:07,360 --> 00:01:08,945 [Danni] I wanna be important. 7 00:01:10,071 --> 00:01:11,990 [contributor] Okay, guys. Today, we're talking about white privilege. 8 00:01:12,073 --> 00:01:14,200 So you know we need to talk about Danni Sanders. 9 00:01:14,284 --> 00:01:15,869 …acting like she was the victim. 10 00:01:15,952 --> 00:01:18,788 I think that that turned a lot of people off to her. 11 00:01:19,998 --> 00:01:21,249 [Danni] I wanna have purpose. 12 00:01:22,459 --> 00:01:24,336 So I was just gonna bleach the front bits, 13 00:01:24,419 --> 00:01:26,921 but I'm really not trying to get mistaken for Danni Sanders. 14 00:01:28,381 --> 00:01:29,382 [Danni] I wanna be known. 15 00:01:37,599 --> 00:01:38,725 I wanna be loved. 16 00:01:43,980 --> 00:01:47,192 [presenter 1] And the award for Most-Anticipated Death… 17 00:01:47,275 --> 00:01:49,861 -[presenter 2] Danni Sanders! -I can't wait for her to kick the bucket. 18 00:01:49,944 --> 00:01:51,404 -[presenter 2] Don't-- -In fact, I'll do it for you. 19 00:01:51,488 --> 00:01:52,864 -[mimics gunshot] -That's a little far. 20 00:01:52,947 --> 00:01:54,741 I'm not gonna go that far. It's a fine. 21 00:01:54,824 --> 00:01:56,034 Not for me. I own guns. 22 00:01:57,577 --> 00:01:58,870 [Danni] I wanna matter. 23 00:02:08,171 --> 00:02:09,506 [explosion] 24 00:02:11,216 --> 00:02:12,759 Yeah, well, let me tell you… 25 00:02:12,842 --> 00:02:15,887 Be careful what you fucking wish for. 26 00:02:15,970 --> 00:02:17,847 [singer] ♪ I'm the worst ♪ 27 00:02:17,931 --> 00:02:19,766 ♪ You're gonna hate me ♪ 28 00:02:19,849 --> 00:02:23,144 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 29 00:02:23,228 --> 00:02:25,522 ♪ I'm the worst ♪ 30 00:02:25,605 --> 00:02:26,815 Okay. 31 00:02:28,108 --> 00:02:29,734 [clears throat] 32 00:02:29,818 --> 00:02:31,236 -Danni. -Yeah? 33 00:02:31,319 --> 00:02:33,530 Had a chance to read that article you sent me. 34 00:02:33,613 --> 00:02:35,031 -You did? -Mm-hmm. 35 00:02:35,115 --> 00:02:36,074 What did you think? 36 00:02:36,157 --> 00:02:38,451 Well, you've titled it, "Why am I so sad?" 37 00:02:38,535 --> 00:02:39,744 That's just a working title. 38 00:02:39,828 --> 00:02:42,330 "In a world surrounded by those who seem to have it all, 39 00:02:42,414 --> 00:02:45,291 I've settled on a few reasons for my own feelings of emptiness. 40 00:02:45,375 --> 00:02:48,128 The first is that I currently live in Bushwick." 41 00:02:48,211 --> 00:02:50,797 J-Train Bushwick. L-Train Bushwick would be fine. 42 00:02:50,880 --> 00:02:53,883 Just, like, somewhere you can get a decent matcha, you know? 43 00:02:53,967 --> 00:02:58,430 "Reason number two, my lack of a private office at work." 44 00:02:58,513 --> 00:03:01,891 Open-concept spaces really drown out my inner voice. 45 00:03:01,975 --> 00:03:03,893 Finally, and this one really stuck with me. 46 00:03:03,977 --> 00:03:05,311 Okay. 47 00:03:05,395 --> 00:03:07,147 "Missing 9/11." 48 00:03:07,230 --> 00:03:08,273 Yeah. 49 00:03:09,274 --> 00:03:11,860 I was on a cruise with my parents when it happened. 50 00:03:12,444 --> 00:03:18,867 In general, I think we try to avoid expressing any kind of FOMO about 9/11. 51 00:03:18,950 --> 00:03:21,619 [sighs] Did you read that article on The Cut? 52 00:03:22,245 --> 00:03:23,288 The one-- 53 00:03:23,371 --> 00:03:27,333 It talked about how it was the single most formative trauma experience 54 00:03:27,417 --> 00:03:28,418 for "zillennials." 55 00:03:28,501 --> 00:03:30,128 And since I wasn't there, 56 00:03:30,211 --> 00:03:32,380 I didn't get to share that bond with my peers. 57 00:03:32,464 --> 00:03:34,507 You know, like, I didn't even know anyone that died. 58 00:03:34,591 --> 00:03:39,471 Okay. And you don't feel like it comes off a little tone-deaf? Offensive even. 59 00:03:39,554 --> 00:03:42,098 -Can't tone-deaf be, like, a brand though? -Oh, no. 60 00:03:42,182 --> 00:03:45,143 -Isn't that what Lena Dunham does? -You don't wanna be like Lena Dunham. 61 00:03:45,226 --> 00:03:47,771 I don't feel like you take me seriously as a writer. 62 00:03:47,854 --> 00:03:53,234 That's because you're not a writer. You're a photo editor. 63 00:03:53,318 --> 00:03:55,320 One who's very late on their deadlines. 64 00:03:55,403 --> 00:03:58,239 Deadlines that should take priority over personal goals. 65 00:03:58,323 --> 00:04:00,617 I've just been having a difficult time focusing lately. 66 00:04:00,700 --> 00:04:04,704 And I've been having a difficult time ending this conversation. And we're done. 67 00:04:04,788 --> 00:04:05,789 Okay. 68 00:04:06,498 --> 00:04:09,083 Gonna load up the Headspace app after that. 69 00:04:09,626 --> 00:04:12,295 -Hi, Harper. -Interesting article pitch. 70 00:04:12,378 --> 00:04:13,421 Thanks. 71 00:04:14,798 --> 00:04:17,383 Hey, Susan, I just uploaded the new draft for Tuesday. 72 00:04:17,467 --> 00:04:21,179 Thank you. Oh, and great work on that RBG retrospective. 73 00:04:21,262 --> 00:04:23,389 I can't believe you got that quote from her personal trainer. 74 00:04:23,473 --> 00:04:25,642 Thank you. I was thinking of using it as my sample 75 00:04:25,725 --> 00:04:27,560 to apply for a couple writers' retreats. 76 00:04:27,644 --> 00:04:30,438 [Susan] Oh, a retreat. Yeah, you would be a shoo-in. 77 00:04:30,522 --> 00:04:31,606 Oh, thank you. 78 00:04:31,689 --> 00:04:33,024 They love SCOTUS. 79 00:04:33,107 --> 00:04:35,235 [singer] ♪ Never met a pill I didn't know how to take ♪ 80 00:04:35,318 --> 00:04:37,195 ♪ But that was getting old I had to give it a break ♪ 81 00:04:37,278 --> 00:04:38,947 ♪ I never met an emotion I didn't know how to fake ♪ 82 00:04:39,030 --> 00:04:40,907 ♪ But now I'm getting older And I wanna be straight ♪ 83 00:04:40,990 --> 00:04:43,701 ♪ I never got a tattoo that I didn't regret… ♪ 84 00:04:43,785 --> 00:04:45,537 [person] Hey, yo. Frame up on this shit. 85 00:04:45,620 --> 00:04:47,247 ♪ I'm not a brat Used to be a hot little mess ♪ 86 00:04:47,330 --> 00:04:49,624 ♪ But I never made a video You didn't embed ♪ 87 00:04:49,707 --> 00:04:51,668 ♪ I got a new pair of shoes And my hair done ♪ 88 00:04:51,751 --> 00:04:54,420 ♪ Where's Sonny Moore? Damn When I'm gonna meet a millionaire's son? ♪ 89 00:04:54,504 --> 00:04:56,673 8♪ I'm bored of being the rare one I'm the chairwoman ♪ 90 00:04:56,756 --> 00:04:58,508 ♪ Never took a dare I don't really care for 'em ♪ 91 00:04:58,591 --> 00:05:00,426 ♪ Watch me… ♪ 92 00:05:00,510 --> 00:05:01,845 -Colin, dude, how was the trip? -Ah! 93 00:05:01,928 --> 00:05:05,890 Man, you know how it was. Lit as shit. Lick a tit. We did it. 94 00:05:06,724 --> 00:05:08,893 Also, peep this. I learned how to twist it. 95 00:05:08,977 --> 00:05:10,645 That's a scorpion joint right fucking there. 96 00:05:10,728 --> 00:05:12,397 -That's so cool. -[Colin] Yo, zoom in on that. 97 00:05:12,480 --> 00:05:14,399 -He can't hear you. -[Colin] I said zoom in on it. 98 00:05:14,482 --> 00:05:15,650 No, do it like I meant. 99 00:05:15,733 --> 00:05:17,527 ♪ It isn't bad But it is embarrassing enough ♪ 100 00:05:17,610 --> 00:05:19,529 [Colin] We're gonna do it again. Gotta do it again. Everybody back inside. 101 00:05:19,612 --> 00:05:21,739 ♪ I'm an Abercrombie-lookin' ass bitch And I don't give a fuck ♪ 102 00:05:21,823 --> 00:05:24,784 ♪ I got a new pair of shoes and a payment Slay Kitty Ray damn ♪ 103 00:05:24,868 --> 00:05:26,828 ♪ When I'm gonna meet a limitation… ♪ 104 00:05:26,911 --> 00:05:30,331 -Hey, Danni's in the house. -Okay. 105 00:05:30,415 --> 00:05:32,250 Um… Oh, I've had a crazy morning. 106 00:05:32,333 --> 00:05:36,004 I just found a new shortcut for sharpening in camera RAW. 107 00:05:36,087 --> 00:05:39,007 That is great, Kevin. 108 00:05:39,841 --> 00:05:44,012 It's Kelvin. My name-- it's-- it's Kelvin. 109 00:05:44,095 --> 00:05:46,639 No. I don't think so. 110 00:05:48,725 --> 00:05:49,726 Okay. 111 00:06:01,988 --> 00:06:03,823 I'm pretty sure, though, that, um… 112 00:06:07,911 --> 00:06:10,079 -[Harper] Sarah's coming tonight. -[colleague] Like, Sarah, Sarah? 113 00:06:10,163 --> 00:06:11,205 Yeah, Sarah from Cubbyhole. 114 00:06:11,289 --> 00:06:13,082 -So you're drinking tequila tonight. -Yeah, I am. 115 00:06:13,166 --> 00:06:14,959 It's the tequila 116 00:06:15,043 --> 00:06:16,836 -It's the tequila 117 00:06:16,920 --> 00:06:18,838 Wait. What's happening tonight? 118 00:06:18,922 --> 00:06:22,759 -We're going queer bowling. -Yas, queen! Slay! 119 00:06:24,594 --> 00:06:28,014 You know me. I'll probably just drink alone in my apartment till I black out 120 00:06:28,097 --> 00:06:30,475 and call my old best friend from high school, or something. 121 00:06:34,771 --> 00:06:37,774 Is this queer bowling night only for LGBTs? 122 00:06:37,857 --> 00:06:40,026 -Yeah. Yeah. -Okay. 123 00:06:42,904 --> 00:06:45,031 You know… [laughs] 124 00:06:45,114 --> 00:06:48,576 …I made out with a girl at an NYU party once. 125 00:06:48,660 --> 00:06:51,537 So, I might be bi. 126 00:06:51,621 --> 00:06:54,165 -Not with those nails. -[chuckles] 127 00:06:54,248 --> 00:06:55,375 What's wrong with my nails? 128 00:06:55,458 --> 00:06:56,834 [both giggle] 129 00:06:59,379 --> 00:07:01,547 [sighs] Just wishful thinking. 130 00:07:01,631 --> 00:07:04,384 You guys are so lucky. You have, like, a community. You have a parade. 131 00:07:04,467 --> 00:07:07,720 -You have your own bowling night-- -Yeah, being a minority is great. 132 00:07:07,804 --> 00:07:09,347 -Right? -[elevator dings] 133 00:07:09,430 --> 00:07:12,225 Well, have fun. 134 00:07:12,308 --> 00:07:14,602 ["Ah bah d'accord" playing] 135 00:07:14,686 --> 00:07:16,729 -I hate straight people. -Uh-huh. 136 00:07:18,189 --> 00:07:19,565 -Hi, Mom. -[Mom] Hi. 137 00:07:19,649 --> 00:07:21,943 -You wanna hang out tonight? -I can't. It's Friday. 138 00:07:22,026 --> 00:07:23,236 Oh. 139 00:07:23,319 --> 00:07:25,613 Yeah, no worries. That's all good. I understand. 140 00:07:25,697 --> 00:07:29,993 Girlboss book club is pretty… unmissable. 141 00:07:30,076 --> 00:07:35,123 Hi, it's your favorite writer, socialite, scammer, Caroline Calloway. 142 00:07:35,206 --> 00:07:38,126 I'm here in London right now to meet up with my UK publisher. 143 00:07:38,209 --> 00:07:42,714 You guys are such a big part of why this is happening. Fucking love you guys. 144 00:08:08,448 --> 00:08:10,742 No way. Je obsessed. 145 00:08:27,425 --> 00:08:28,676 Colin. 146 00:08:28,760 --> 00:08:31,596 Oh, shit. What up, honey? Yeah, I can't take a pic right now, but-- 147 00:08:31,679 --> 00:08:33,181 No, no, no. Danni, from work. 148 00:08:33,264 --> 00:08:35,183 -Danni. Yeah. What's good? -What are you doing here? 149 00:08:35,266 --> 00:08:37,185 -Do you live in Bushwick? -Me? No. Fuck no. 150 00:08:37,268 --> 00:08:39,687 -I'm so-- -No. No, I'd never live here. 151 00:08:39,771 --> 00:08:43,775 Uh, no. I'm supposed to be going to, uh… 152 00:08:43,858 --> 00:08:45,151 there. 153 00:08:45,902 --> 00:08:47,278 Matcha Baby. 154 00:08:47,361 --> 00:08:50,573 Plus my plug lives here, so two birds, one stone. 155 00:08:50,656 --> 00:08:53,701 [Danni] Yeah, I smoke marijuana, like, all the time. 156 00:08:53,785 --> 00:08:54,994 Ever see one of these? 157 00:09:09,175 --> 00:09:10,176 Other side. 158 00:09:21,979 --> 00:09:23,439 Okay. [chuckles] 159 00:09:25,817 --> 00:09:26,818 Oh, shit. 160 00:09:28,528 --> 00:09:29,529 Good. 161 00:09:29,612 --> 00:09:31,989 [Danni coughs] 162 00:09:32,073 --> 00:09:34,450 [passerby] Yo, Colin! It's that weed blogger from Depravity. 163 00:09:34,534 --> 00:09:35,868 Hey, yo, shorty. What up? 164 00:09:35,952 --> 00:09:38,830 Yo. I love your videos, man. Costa Rica looks sick. 165 00:09:38,913 --> 00:09:40,998 Let's go, baby! Stay up, boss. 166 00:09:41,624 --> 00:09:43,042 Aight. What up? You good? 167 00:09:44,043 --> 00:09:46,254 [breathlessly] So cool that you have a fan. 168 00:09:46,337 --> 00:09:47,463 -Oh, yeah. I got-- I got a bunch. -[coughing] 169 00:09:47,547 --> 00:09:49,132 That's just one. 170 00:09:49,215 --> 00:09:50,842 [chuckles] Hmm. 171 00:09:52,552 --> 00:09:54,137 So, like, what are you? 172 00:09:55,805 --> 00:09:57,515 Like, at Depravity? What are you? 173 00:09:57,598 --> 00:09:58,724 I'm a-- I'm a writer. 174 00:09:58,808 --> 00:10:02,145 I started in the photo department, but I'm transitioning. 175 00:10:02,228 --> 00:10:07,233 And then I'm looking to, like, develop my work more by, like, uh, traveling. 176 00:10:07,817 --> 00:10:10,444 And maybe, like, going on one of those writer retreats or something. 177 00:10:10,528 --> 00:10:11,946 -Oh, you're going on re-treat? -Sort of retreat. 178 00:10:12,029 --> 00:10:13,322 -What? -You're going on re-treat? 179 00:10:14,240 --> 00:10:16,826 -That's tight. -Oh, I just got invited to a re-treat. 180 00:10:16,909 --> 00:10:17,910 [cell phone chimes] 181 00:10:19,662 --> 00:10:21,455 Retreat's actually coming up next week. 182 00:10:21,539 --> 00:10:22,999 [clears throat] 183 00:10:24,959 --> 00:10:26,002 I'm going to Paris for it. 184 00:10:27,712 --> 00:10:29,797 Shit. That's dope. 185 00:10:30,381 --> 00:10:32,550 -Hey, get pics. -I'm gonna get lots of pics. Yeah. 186 00:10:32,633 --> 00:10:34,427 ♪ I'll throw 'em all up on the 'gram ♪ 187 00:10:34,510 --> 00:10:38,472 By the way, this was laced with mad wax. So your tolerance must be OD as fuck. 188 00:10:39,015 --> 00:10:40,016 Damn, ma. 189 00:10:42,476 --> 00:10:45,062 Good luck in Paris, Jenny. Good to meet you. 190 00:10:45,146 --> 00:10:46,480 Danni. 191 00:10:46,564 --> 00:10:47,940 -[Colin] What's up? -My name's Danni. 192 00:10:49,317 --> 00:10:50,318 No, it's Colin. 193 00:10:52,028 --> 00:10:53,571 I'll see you at work. Or I guess I won't. 194 00:10:54,155 --> 00:10:56,824 [exaggerated laughing] 195 00:10:59,869 --> 00:11:01,621 Oh! [laughing continues] 196 00:11:06,292 --> 00:11:07,543 Fuck me. 197 00:11:20,014 --> 00:11:21,682 [guinea pig squeaks] 198 00:11:23,726 --> 00:11:24,727 Oh. 199 00:11:27,480 --> 00:11:30,566 Why, Danni, why? 200 00:11:31,234 --> 00:11:33,611 Why'd you do that? 201 00:11:45,623 --> 00:11:46,624 [sighs] 202 00:11:50,044 --> 00:11:51,754 Okay, crazy bitch. 203 00:11:54,507 --> 00:11:57,009 Paris. Paris, Paris, Paris. 204 00:11:58,970 --> 00:12:01,806 All right. How much are you, Paris? 205 00:12:04,100 --> 00:12:05,101 Shit. 206 00:12:09,397 --> 00:12:11,524 -What do you think? -[guinea pig squeaks] 207 00:12:11,607 --> 00:12:13,025 Should we call Mommy and Daddy? 208 00:12:13,818 --> 00:12:17,905 See if they'll buy us a ticket? Will they know that we're on drugs? 209 00:12:18,572 --> 00:12:22,910 Just kidding. I know that you're not on drugs. 210 00:12:42,054 --> 00:12:44,307 Guinea Weasley, 211 00:12:44,390 --> 00:12:46,017 you're a fucking genius. 212 00:12:46,100 --> 00:12:47,935 ["Ça plane pour moi" playing] 213 00:12:50,438 --> 00:12:51,772 [Susan] Hello? 214 00:12:51,856 --> 00:12:56,027 Susan. Hi. Danni. I had a question. 215 00:12:56,777 --> 00:12:58,446 If a really big opportunity came up, 216 00:12:58,529 --> 00:13:00,656 would there be a way to get some time off work? 217 00:13:00,740 --> 00:13:03,159 -Absolutely not. -Amazing. Thank you. Bye. 218 00:13:03,826 --> 00:13:04,994 Hey, Mom. 219 00:13:05,077 --> 00:13:06,370 -Guess what? -[Mom] What? 220 00:13:06,454 --> 00:13:09,248 I got invited to a writers' retreat in Paris. 221 00:13:09,332 --> 00:13:10,875 -Really? -Yes, really. 222 00:13:10,958 --> 00:13:12,460 It's not a scam? 223 00:13:12,543 --> 00:13:15,046 No, it's not a scam. 224 00:13:16,172 --> 00:13:17,340 It has a website. 225 00:13:17,923 --> 00:13:19,675 Hey, guys. Crazy plot twist. 226 00:13:19,759 --> 00:13:23,304 I got an e-mail today inviting me to go on this retreat in Paris. 227 00:13:23,387 --> 00:13:25,931 I'm on my way to the airport. 228 00:13:30,061 --> 00:13:33,689 So for this very chic beauty look, we're gonna be taking this concealer. 229 00:13:33,773 --> 00:13:35,858 And we go dot, dot, dot. 230 00:13:36,442 --> 00:13:38,319 And dot there. 231 00:14:45,428 --> 00:14:48,347 [vlogger] The next weekend, I did step up my outfit game a little 232 00:14:48,431 --> 00:14:49,932 because it was time to head to Paris 233 00:14:50,015 --> 00:14:52,268 and mispronounce the names of all the pastries. 234 00:14:52,351 --> 00:14:54,687 I'm gonna stress-eat my croissant a little bit 235 00:14:54,770 --> 00:14:57,731 to ease the discomfort of vlogging in public. 236 00:14:57,815 --> 00:15:01,402 I'm getting dressed for a date. A first date in fact. Now my-- 237 00:15:05,364 --> 00:15:06,365 Oh, my God. 238 00:15:06,449 --> 00:15:09,410 …whether I look like I'm trying too hard or don't try hard enough. 239 00:15:09,493 --> 00:15:12,455 Like, trying to find the fucking effortless sexy balance 240 00:15:12,538 --> 00:15:14,582 that is always impossible to find. 241 00:15:14,665 --> 00:15:17,418 I thought it would be easier since I only have about 40 items… 242 00:15:17,501 --> 00:15:18,502 Okay. 243 00:15:18,586 --> 00:15:19,587 [vlogger] But somehow, I have… 244 00:15:19,670 --> 00:15:25,384 3:00 a. m. That's 9:00 a. m. Paris time. I'll post… 245 00:15:26,343 --> 00:15:28,387 [vlogger] Clothes are everywhere. I've only tried about every… 246 00:15:28,471 --> 00:15:32,892 Starting my morning right. 247 00:15:32,975 --> 00:15:36,687 Now, where is my baguette? 248 00:15:36,770 --> 00:15:39,607 [vlogger] …very, like, French-maid-chic. 249 00:15:39,690 --> 00:15:42,860 It feels like a little bit more of a classic first date outfit though. 250 00:15:42,943 --> 00:15:46,530 Usually with a bit of an open neckline, so that when you're chatting-- 251 00:16:00,336 --> 00:16:01,962 [horn blares] 252 00:16:16,435 --> 00:16:17,436 Shit. 253 00:16:23,484 --> 00:16:24,485 Okay. 254 00:16:32,076 --> 00:16:35,037 [phone vibrates repeatedly] 255 00:16:43,170 --> 00:16:46,465 [news anchor] We have some breaking news at this hour. 256 00:16:46,549 --> 00:16:52,429 A string of coordinated terrorist attacks struck Paris this morning at 9:13 a. m., 257 00:16:52,513 --> 00:16:55,140 targeting landmarks across the city. 258 00:16:55,224 --> 00:16:57,351 The bombings hit the Louvre, the Champs-Élysées, 259 00:16:57,434 --> 00:16:59,895 the Centre Pompidou and the Arc de Triomphe. 260 00:17:00,646 --> 00:17:02,481 Oh, fuck. 261 00:17:08,737 --> 00:17:09,738 Hi, Mom. Hi, Mom. 262 00:17:09,822 --> 00:17:11,073 [Mom] Oh, my God. Danni? 263 00:17:11,156 --> 00:17:13,200 -Yeah. -Honey, she's okay! 264 00:17:13,284 --> 00:17:15,327 -I'm okay. -What happened? Where have you been? 265 00:17:15,411 --> 00:17:17,663 -We have been calling for hours. -No-- I'm fine. I'm okay. 266 00:17:17,746 --> 00:17:19,290 -[Dad] Thank God. -[Mom] Where are you? 267 00:17:19,373 --> 00:17:21,667 Yeah, no, I'm-- I'm not actually-- 268 00:17:21,750 --> 00:17:24,128 -[Dad] When can she come home? -It's a long story. But-- What? 269 00:17:24,211 --> 00:17:25,337 [Mom] Are you able to leave? 270 00:17:25,421 --> 00:17:27,798 -I could call our travel agent-- -No, no, no. I'm-- I'm not… 271 00:17:27,881 --> 00:17:29,717 Harold, call your mother. She keeps trying this line. 272 00:17:29,800 --> 00:17:31,719 -[Harold] I told her to call my cell. -Grandma knows? 273 00:17:31,802 --> 00:17:33,929 [Mom] Magdalena called. You remember, your old nanny? 274 00:17:34,013 --> 00:17:36,390 -She follows you on the Instagram-- -Okay, I just need to-- Shi-- 275 00:17:36,473 --> 00:17:38,642 -[Harold] Oh, my God. What now? -Ow! 276 00:17:38,726 --> 00:17:40,019 -[Mom] Are you okay? -[Harold] Are you all right? 277 00:17:40,102 --> 00:17:41,103 Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. 278 00:17:41,186 --> 00:17:44,440 -[Mom] Danni! -Yeah. Hi. I'm fine. I gotta go. Okay? 279 00:17:44,523 --> 00:17:45,816 Danni! 280 00:17:45,899 --> 00:17:48,319 [news anchor] …but neither agency is reporting 281 00:17:48,402 --> 00:17:50,904 an official statement at this hour. 282 00:17:50,988 --> 00:17:55,451 So far, no terrorist organization has claimed responsibility for the attacks. 283 00:17:55,534 --> 00:18:00,748 However, multiple witnesses have reported seeing this suspicious individual, 284 00:18:00,831 --> 00:18:05,419 although officials have not identified a suspect at this hour. 285 00:18:09,715 --> 00:18:12,843 Just tell them you fucked up. You just tell them you fucked up. 286 00:18:13,886 --> 00:18:16,221 Oh, my God. Come on, you fucking idiot. 287 00:18:17,264 --> 00:18:18,599 So many. 288 00:18:20,392 --> 00:18:21,477 [phone chimes] 289 00:18:23,937 --> 00:18:25,272 [Colin] Really hope you're okay. 290 00:18:37,660 --> 00:18:40,537 [Danni] I'm okay and safe. Period. 291 00:18:40,621 --> 00:18:42,373 I don't have reliable service yet, 292 00:18:42,456 --> 00:18:45,292 but please know, I am all right. Exclamation mark. 293 00:18:45,376 --> 00:18:49,088 Devastated for those who are not. Broken heart emoji. 294 00:19:04,895 --> 00:19:07,523 [airport PA] Air France flight 2677 now arriving. 295 00:19:09,525 --> 00:19:10,651 [reporter] Here they come. 296 00:19:10,734 --> 00:19:13,362 -[crowd chattering] -[camera shutters clicking] 297 00:19:16,281 --> 00:19:20,452 Sir. Were you there at the Arc? Do you think this was an act of terrorism? 298 00:19:20,536 --> 00:19:22,329 Did you experience any of the attacks? 299 00:19:22,413 --> 00:19:25,374 We are live here at the International Arrival gate at JFK. 300 00:19:25,457 --> 00:19:27,584 The flight from Paris just got in. 301 00:19:27,668 --> 00:19:28,627 [Mom] Danni? 302 00:19:29,211 --> 00:19:30,963 -Danni. Oh, my God. Honey. -Hi. 303 00:19:31,797 --> 00:19:34,299 -[sobbing] -[Danni] Hi. 304 00:19:35,134 --> 00:19:36,260 Hi. 305 00:19:44,935 --> 00:19:46,061 [Harold] Oh, God. 306 00:19:49,857 --> 00:19:51,233 You okay, Daddy? 307 00:19:51,316 --> 00:19:52,735 Here you go. 308 00:19:53,527 --> 00:19:56,697 Just the way you like it with the mini marshmallows. 309 00:19:57,656 --> 00:19:58,991 Wow. Thank you. 310 00:19:59,575 --> 00:20:02,786 You need to get that trauma out of your muscles before it sticks. 311 00:20:02,870 --> 00:20:05,539 So, I'm booking you a massage with Greta for tomorrow. 312 00:20:05,622 --> 00:20:08,333 And I want you to start taking these new supplements. 313 00:20:08,417 --> 00:20:10,002 [sobbing] 314 00:20:10,043 --> 00:20:11,170 Harold, pull it together. 315 00:20:11,754 --> 00:20:14,423 We could've lost her. Little baby girl. 316 00:20:15,090 --> 00:20:17,968 Sweetie, have you eaten yet? Did they feed you on the plane? 317 00:20:18,051 --> 00:20:19,178 Not really. 318 00:20:19,970 --> 00:20:21,638 Maybe we could order Momofuku? 319 00:20:21,722 --> 00:20:22,931 Oh, of course. 320 00:20:23,015 --> 00:20:26,351 Harold, do you have that, uh, app thing for the food? 321 00:20:26,435 --> 00:20:29,146 Seamless? [sniffs] Grubhub? 322 00:20:31,064 --> 00:20:33,192 I just can't believe you posted that photograph 323 00:20:33,275 --> 00:20:34,651 five minutes before the bombs hit. 324 00:20:34,735 --> 00:20:36,945 I mean, what if it had been five minutes later? 325 00:20:37,029 --> 00:20:38,071 Could you even imagine? 326 00:20:38,155 --> 00:20:39,948 -[Harold] Oh, God. -It's-- It's a lot. 327 00:20:40,032 --> 00:20:43,243 It's pretty… [chuckles] …unbelievable. 328 00:20:45,871 --> 00:20:47,915 I was actually-- I was pretty close. 329 00:20:49,124 --> 00:20:51,877 So, I had just started walking away when it-- 330 00:20:51,960 --> 00:20:52,920 Oh! 331 00:20:53,003 --> 00:20:54,379 -[Harold sobs] -You saw the blast? 332 00:20:54,463 --> 00:20:56,715 Yeah, I saw the-- I saw the blast. 333 00:20:56,799 --> 00:20:59,676 -Oh, my God. -Are your ears okay? 334 00:20:59,760 --> 00:21:01,094 My-- What do you-- 335 00:21:01,178 --> 00:21:02,346 No ringing? 336 00:21:02,846 --> 00:21:04,640 -A little. -Harold, wha-- 337 00:21:04,723 --> 00:21:06,767 What's the name of that colleague of yours? The ENT? 338 00:21:06,850 --> 00:21:09,478 -Richard? -No, no, no. Mom. They're gonna be fine. 339 00:21:09,561 --> 00:21:10,562 -I'm calling Helen. -No. 340 00:21:10,646 --> 00:21:13,273 Yeah. Her husband's cousin was at the Boston bombing. 341 00:21:13,774 --> 00:21:16,193 Well, he was at least in Boston at the time. 342 00:21:16,777 --> 00:21:18,946 Actually, I think he used to go to a support group. 343 00:21:19,029 --> 00:21:20,614 That'd be good for you, emotionally. 344 00:21:21,740 --> 00:21:22,783 -Peanut. -Yeah? 345 00:21:23,492 --> 00:21:25,452 Wanna make things a little bit easier for you. 346 00:21:26,787 --> 00:21:28,497 -Just any way I can. -Thank you. 347 00:21:32,501 --> 00:21:34,044 Feels like Christmas. 348 00:21:34,628 --> 00:21:38,382 We might not have ever had another Christmas together. 349 00:21:56,024 --> 00:21:58,861 -I just wanted to say good night. -Okay. Night. 350 00:22:01,572 --> 00:22:02,656 Love you. 351 00:22:07,619 --> 00:22:09,079 I love you too. 352 00:22:10,205 --> 00:22:13,625 I know I haven't said this as much as I should, 353 00:22:14,376 --> 00:22:17,629 but I just want you to know I'm so proud of you. 354 00:22:18,797 --> 00:22:20,299 [Harold] Me too, Peanut. 355 00:22:24,636 --> 00:22:25,637 So… 356 00:22:27,556 --> 00:22:28,765 Sweet dreams. 357 00:22:37,900 --> 00:22:39,484 [ghostly voice] Dix. 358 00:22:45,574 --> 00:22:47,034 [sighs] 359 00:22:49,244 --> 00:22:51,330 ["Bonnie and Clyde (Akse Remix)" playing] 360 00:22:58,086 --> 00:22:59,546 [tourists chattering] 361 00:23:03,884 --> 00:23:04,885 [sighs] 362 00:23:11,391 --> 00:23:12,392 [Danni chuckles] 363 00:23:12,476 --> 00:23:14,686 [violin playing "La Marseillaise"] 364 00:23:25,030 --> 00:23:28,867 Starting my morning right. Now, where's my baguette? Baguette emoji. 365 00:23:29,368 --> 00:23:31,411 [beeping] 366 00:23:44,174 --> 00:23:46,593 [beeping intensifies] 367 00:23:46,677 --> 00:23:47,678 [explosion] 368 00:24:18,542 --> 00:24:20,168 Danni. 369 00:24:20,252 --> 00:24:22,629 I have to be honest. I don't even know what to say. 370 00:24:23,130 --> 00:24:24,381 What? 371 00:24:24,464 --> 00:24:26,633 I can't even fathom what you've been through. 372 00:24:26,717 --> 00:24:29,553 And I don't want you to feel pressure to come back to work right away. 373 00:24:29,636 --> 00:24:32,889 No, really. I wanna be here. 374 00:24:32,973 --> 00:24:35,767 If you're sure, but you set the pace. 375 00:24:35,851 --> 00:24:39,563 If you need to leave early, take a mental health day, 376 00:24:39,646 --> 00:24:41,857 you don't even have to ask, just go. 377 00:24:42,816 --> 00:24:44,109 -I will. -And, Danni-- 378 00:24:45,277 --> 00:24:46,987 I know we've had our conflicts. 379 00:24:47,070 --> 00:24:50,157 And I'm so sorry I was ever gonna fire you. 380 00:24:50,240 --> 00:24:51,700 But I want you to know, 381 00:24:51,783 --> 00:24:54,327 -the fact that you're standing right here… -You were gonna fire me? 382 00:24:54,411 --> 00:24:57,706 …in front of me instead of being curled up in a ball somewhere, 383 00:24:57,789 --> 00:25:01,334 mainlining gummy worms, which is what I would have been doing, 384 00:25:02,502 --> 00:25:04,129 that's incredible. 385 00:25:04,212 --> 00:25:06,381 You are so strong. 386 00:25:07,924 --> 00:25:09,593 Isn't she so strong, everybody? 387 00:25:09,676 --> 00:25:11,636 -[colleague] Yeah. -[Susan] Mm-hmm. 388 00:25:11,720 --> 00:25:13,263 Yeah. 389 00:25:13,346 --> 00:25:16,516 You go, girl! You go, woman. 390 00:25:16,600 --> 00:25:19,978 [chuckles] Thank you, everyone. Thank you. 391 00:25:20,062 --> 00:25:22,439 Mmm. It means the world. 392 00:25:22,522 --> 00:25:25,567 -[chuckles] -Okay, good. 393 00:25:26,151 --> 00:25:28,820 Let me know if there's anything else I can do. Anything at all. 394 00:25:28,904 --> 00:25:30,072 -Okay. 395 00:25:38,288 --> 00:25:39,372 Actually. 396 00:25:42,125 --> 00:25:43,376 I was thinking, um… 397 00:25:46,088 --> 00:25:49,132 Maybe writing a piece about my experience, 398 00:25:49,216 --> 00:25:53,261 it-- it might help me work through the pain. 399 00:25:53,345 --> 00:25:58,016 Of course. Depravity would be honored to give you a platform. 400 00:25:58,642 --> 00:25:59,684 All right. 401 00:26:05,982 --> 00:26:07,317 [sighs] 402 00:26:07,400 --> 00:26:10,070 So, it was a totally normal day at first. 403 00:26:10,737 --> 00:26:12,614 It was sunny. It was clear. 404 00:26:12,697 --> 00:26:16,076 I was at the Arc having a cute little, quiet morning to myself, 405 00:26:16,159 --> 00:26:18,411 before I went to breakfast with the other writers. 406 00:26:21,081 --> 00:26:22,249 And I don't know. 407 00:26:23,375 --> 00:26:26,294 I saw this weird guy in this big jacket. 408 00:26:29,047 --> 00:26:30,924 Then suddenly, I was hit with this feeling. 409 00:26:33,009 --> 00:26:34,845 Like something horrible was gonna happen. 410 00:26:34,928 --> 00:26:36,012 Oh, Jesus. 411 00:26:36,513 --> 00:26:37,806 I knew I needed to leave. 412 00:26:39,141 --> 00:26:42,519 So I turned around to go, and as I was walking away, 413 00:26:42,602 --> 00:26:43,854 -boom! -[all gasp] 414 00:26:44,437 --> 00:26:45,814 That's when it hit. 415 00:26:46,857 --> 00:26:50,485 So you're a psychic. Like the Lady of Galadhrim. 416 00:26:50,986 --> 00:26:52,445 Or it was God. 417 00:26:52,529 --> 00:26:55,699 Excuse me. This is a non-denominational workspace. 418 00:26:55,782 --> 00:26:57,033 Well, I didn't say which god. 419 00:26:57,534 --> 00:26:58,827 -Didn't you? -Whoa. Whoa. 420 00:27:01,246 --> 00:27:04,958 My bad. [chuckles] It's just my ears are still ringing. 421 00:27:05,041 --> 00:27:06,751 Because of the terrorists? 422 00:27:07,460 --> 00:27:08,461 [Colin] Yo, Danni. 423 00:27:10,547 --> 00:27:11,756 Come here for a sec. 424 00:27:12,716 --> 00:27:14,467 Yes. Co-- I come. 425 00:27:16,178 --> 00:27:18,221 Danni, um… 426 00:27:18,305 --> 00:27:21,683 We just wanted to invite you to queer bowling. 427 00:27:21,766 --> 00:27:23,518 -Aw! -Like, if you wanted to come. 428 00:27:23,602 --> 00:27:26,021 -Everybody's a little bit gay. Right? -[chuckles] 429 00:27:26,104 --> 00:27:27,189 Aren't we? 430 00:27:29,774 --> 00:27:30,859 I have to-- 431 00:27:31,776 --> 00:27:34,988 Sorry. I was just-- just chatting with my gay friends. 432 00:27:36,573 --> 00:27:37,657 Wow. 433 00:27:37,741 --> 00:27:40,493 I, uh… I got you this. 434 00:27:41,620 --> 00:27:44,998 You know, for, like, a feel-better gift. 435 00:27:46,291 --> 00:27:47,667 It's a joint. 436 00:27:48,835 --> 00:27:49,878 Thank you. 437 00:27:50,670 --> 00:27:52,088 I'm really glad you're not dead. 438 00:27:54,382 --> 00:27:55,383 Me too. 439 00:27:57,427 --> 00:28:00,472 [chuckles] Ha. 440 00:28:04,434 --> 00:28:08,313 [Danni] My name is Danni Sanders, and on April 10th, I almost died, 441 00:28:08,813 --> 00:28:11,066 but something, or someone, saved me. 442 00:28:11,650 --> 00:28:15,654 Maybe it was a guardian angel, or God, or Alan Rickman's ghost, 443 00:28:15,737 --> 00:28:17,614 but I don't think that I believe in any of that. 444 00:28:18,323 --> 00:28:21,326 More likely, it was me who saved me. 445 00:28:22,410 --> 00:28:23,620 Not that I believe in myself either. 446 00:28:23,703 --> 00:28:26,456 But if all of this has taught me something… 447 00:28:27,123 --> 00:28:28,124 [chuckles] 448 00:28:28,625 --> 00:28:29,668 …it's that maybe I should. 449 00:28:31,544 --> 00:28:32,587 Oh, my God. 450 00:28:34,881 --> 00:28:37,008 This is me. Exclamation mark. 451 00:28:39,219 --> 00:28:41,179 [intermittent buzzing] 452 00:28:42,180 --> 00:28:44,182 [ghostly voice] Neuf. 453 00:29:02,534 --> 00:29:04,577 [phone vibrates repeatedly] 454 00:29:05,829 --> 00:29:09,833 -I will never forget what I saw that day. -[guinea pig squeaks] 455 00:29:14,921 --> 00:29:16,256 What did I see that day? 456 00:29:19,301 --> 00:29:22,137 Okay. Survivor of bombing. 457 00:29:24,139 --> 00:29:25,557 Ew. 458 00:29:25,640 --> 00:29:26,641 Oh, my God. 459 00:29:32,314 --> 00:29:34,566 That's good. That's a good idea. 460 00:29:40,071 --> 00:29:41,948 -Hello? -Hey, Mom. Hi, Mom. 461 00:29:42,032 --> 00:29:43,575 -How are you, Danni? -Hi, Mom. Yeah. 462 00:29:43,658 --> 00:29:45,452 -No, I just had a quick question. -Uh-huh? 463 00:29:45,535 --> 00:29:46,536 What-- 464 00:29:47,037 --> 00:29:50,040 Do you remember what the name of the support group is 465 00:29:50,123 --> 00:29:51,833 that Helen's husband used to go to? 466 00:30:07,599 --> 00:30:11,186 [survivor 1] …and the sounds were coming, like, 30 seconds apart. 467 00:30:11,269 --> 00:30:14,230 I'm sure it was just a wheel on the tracks. 468 00:30:14,731 --> 00:30:17,025 Everyone else was just, you know, annoyed. 469 00:30:17,942 --> 00:30:20,111 I physically started shaking. 470 00:30:20,612 --> 00:30:24,407 I got off the train. I just walked uptown from Canal. 471 00:30:24,491 --> 00:30:27,994 I mean, I felt like such an idiot. And I was late. 472 00:30:29,162 --> 00:30:31,706 -I was not getting back on that train. -[chuckles] 473 00:30:31,790 --> 00:30:33,750 [leader] Loud noises can be very triggering. 474 00:30:34,584 --> 00:30:36,169 I think a lot of us struggled with that. 475 00:30:36,920 --> 00:30:39,672 [survivor 2] I make my kids mute the TV when they're gaming. 476 00:30:40,715 --> 00:30:43,802 They hate it. But I can't get any work done 477 00:30:43,885 --> 00:30:47,222 when I'm hearing gunfire or-- or explosions. 478 00:30:47,305 --> 00:30:49,099 You let your kids play those? 479 00:30:50,058 --> 00:30:53,478 You don't think that's normalizing a culture that glorifies gun violence? 480 00:30:53,561 --> 00:30:56,439 Okay, why don't we all just take a second 481 00:30:56,523 --> 00:31:00,026 and welcome our new addition. 482 00:31:01,611 --> 00:31:02,612 Hi. 483 00:31:03,196 --> 00:31:04,322 Hi. 484 00:31:04,406 --> 00:31:06,533 -[leader] What's your name? -Danni. 485 00:31:10,328 --> 00:31:13,456 I was in Paris last week when the bombings hit at the Arc. 486 00:31:15,500 --> 00:31:18,503 Oh. I am so sorry. Do you-- 487 00:31:19,295 --> 00:31:25,176 Do you wanna share anything about how you're-- you're feeling, or your thoughts? 488 00:31:25,760 --> 00:31:27,554 Oh. [chuckles] 489 00:31:30,140 --> 00:31:32,559 I was just hoping to listen today. 490 00:31:33,268 --> 00:31:35,812 Of course. Of course, Danni. In your own time. 491 00:31:36,855 --> 00:31:38,773 We're all survivors here. 492 00:31:40,024 --> 00:31:42,610 Charles, why don't you speak for a bit? 493 00:31:43,236 --> 00:31:46,448 Charles is one of our newer members. 494 00:31:46,948 --> 00:31:49,284 He just returned from the UK. 495 00:31:50,368 --> 00:31:52,287 He's also a bombing survivor. 496 00:31:52,370 --> 00:31:54,247 He was at the Ariana Grande concert. 497 00:31:56,583 --> 00:31:59,461 Look, it's not easy… 498 00:32:00,753 --> 00:32:01,754 okay? 499 00:32:03,047 --> 00:32:04,966 I mean, it's been years for me, 500 00:32:05,049 --> 00:32:07,427 and I still have to talk about it every week. 501 00:32:10,847 --> 00:32:13,725 I'm sorry. That's not comforting. Um… 502 00:32:14,851 --> 00:32:16,311 It's not like-- 503 00:32:17,353 --> 00:32:20,607 Your life doesn't end. Okay? 504 00:32:22,734 --> 00:32:25,069 I know that it probably feels like that right now. 505 00:32:26,571 --> 00:32:27,697 It's just… 506 00:32:29,949 --> 00:32:31,284 Everything changes colors. 507 00:32:32,702 --> 00:32:35,163 Yes. That's-- Exactly. 508 00:32:36,498 --> 00:32:38,458 I never would have thought to put it like that. 509 00:32:39,876 --> 00:32:42,086 What is it for you? 510 00:32:44,714 --> 00:32:45,882 Maybe purple. 511 00:32:47,550 --> 00:32:48,635 What's yours? 512 00:32:51,930 --> 00:32:53,097 Red. 513 00:32:53,973 --> 00:32:56,893 It's like everything is red forever. 514 00:32:58,520 --> 00:33:02,815 And on one hand, it's really vivid and intense. 515 00:33:04,943 --> 00:33:07,904 But on the other, everything feels completely… 516 00:33:10,198 --> 00:33:11,282 monochrome. 517 00:33:13,660 --> 00:33:14,994 You relate to that, Danni? 518 00:33:17,914 --> 00:33:19,040 I just-- 519 00:33:21,167 --> 00:33:22,961 Sort of understand the monochrome bit. 520 00:33:24,629 --> 00:33:26,965 That's how everything is for me too. But mine's like… 521 00:33:29,634 --> 00:33:31,094 gray all the time. 522 00:33:33,096 --> 00:33:35,974 And how does it feel when the world looks that way to you? 523 00:33:37,392 --> 00:33:38,476 I don't know. 524 00:33:39,269 --> 00:33:40,853 Doesn't really feel like anything. 525 00:33:43,731 --> 00:33:44,816 Just sort of numb. 526 00:33:50,572 --> 00:33:51,656 Ugh. 527 00:33:52,824 --> 00:33:53,825 [chuckles] 528 00:33:55,660 --> 00:33:56,786 See you next week. 529 00:33:56,869 --> 00:33:59,622 Yeah. I will 100% be back. 530 00:34:00,164 --> 00:34:02,417 Rowan, I am so sorry to do this to you, 531 00:34:02,500 --> 00:34:04,669 but my daughter is such a huge fan of yours. 532 00:34:05,169 --> 00:34:07,797 Would you mind taking a quick photo with me for her? 533 00:34:07,880 --> 00:34:11,509 -Yeah, of course. -Thanks. I really appreciate it. 534 00:34:14,762 --> 00:34:17,140 Where's my ChapStick? Maybe I dropped it. 535 00:34:17,223 --> 00:34:18,641 Oh! 536 00:34:18,725 --> 00:34:21,811 You guys almost forgot this last chair. 537 00:34:21,894 --> 00:34:24,439 -Here. -Oh, you're so sweet. [chuckles] 538 00:34:24,522 --> 00:34:25,648 So, um… 539 00:34:27,442 --> 00:34:30,236 I'm Danni, by the way. Danni Sanders. 540 00:34:31,237 --> 00:34:33,823 -Rowan. Welcome to group. -Thanks. 541 00:34:35,533 --> 00:34:38,828 Thanks for sharing today. I know the first meeting can be hard. 542 00:34:39,746 --> 00:34:44,667 Do you guys do, like, post-group coffee or… 543 00:34:44,751 --> 00:34:47,003 Actually I have to run to this school rehearsal thing. 544 00:34:47,086 --> 00:34:48,379 -No worries, no worries. -Next time. 545 00:34:48,463 --> 00:34:49,464 -Yeah, yeah, yeah. -Yeah. 546 00:34:49,547 --> 00:34:51,466 Maybe we can swap Insta handles or numbers? 547 00:34:51,966 --> 00:34:53,009 Sure. Yeah. 548 00:34:53,509 --> 00:34:54,761 Okay. Yeah. 549 00:35:00,141 --> 00:35:02,685 Here. Just text me anytime, okay? 550 00:35:02,769 --> 00:35:03,853 Oh, thank you. 551 00:35:04,729 --> 00:35:06,230 Bye. I'll talk to you later. 552 00:35:06,314 --> 00:35:07,940 -See ya, Charles. -[Charles] See ya. 553 00:35:15,823 --> 00:35:18,576 I'm actually free right now if you wanna go grab that coffee. 554 00:35:19,577 --> 00:35:21,162 Oh, gosh. 555 00:35:21,996 --> 00:35:25,291 I forgot I have this thing that I have to do. So… 556 00:35:25,875 --> 00:35:26,918 Yeah. Okay. 557 00:35:27,001 --> 00:35:29,879 Cool. Hey, did you want my Insta handle? 558 00:35:29,962 --> 00:35:31,589 Uh… 559 00:35:31,673 --> 00:35:35,677 It's "godisawomanmann." Two Ns. "Godisawomanmann." 560 00:35:35,760 --> 00:35:36,761 [Danni] Okay. 561 00:35:47,313 --> 00:35:49,315 [contributor] Today we're talking about Rowan Aldren, 562 00:35:49,399 --> 00:35:54,112 a teen gun-safety activist, poet and social influencer. 563 00:35:54,195 --> 00:35:56,531 After surviving the Oak Valley school shooting in North Carolina, 564 00:35:56,614 --> 00:35:59,701 Rowan came to New York to partner with the We've Had Enough organization 565 00:35:59,784 --> 00:36:03,705 to begin her fight for gun reform. Here's a look. 566 00:36:03,788 --> 00:36:04,831 [Rowan] Two miles. 567 00:36:06,249 --> 00:36:09,085 You can be two miles from a gunshot and still hear it. 568 00:36:10,503 --> 00:36:12,547 That day, even if you were nowhere near it, 569 00:36:12,630 --> 00:36:15,967 I swear, you heard those bullets loud enough to fear 'em. 570 00:36:18,136 --> 00:36:19,429 Two miles. 571 00:36:20,930 --> 00:36:23,558 But the 23 at my school carried much farther. 572 00:36:24,225 --> 00:36:27,437 Maybe that's just how it sounds when a child dies a martyr. 573 00:36:28,646 --> 00:36:31,190 And yet, it was quiet. 574 00:36:32,442 --> 00:36:33,818 Quieter than it should have been. 575 00:36:34,902 --> 00:36:37,864 We needed a riot and all we got was a funeral hymn. 576 00:36:38,823 --> 00:36:41,367 And someone saying, "Hey, couldn't one of you have tackled him?" 577 00:36:43,536 --> 00:36:47,290 Two miles. And yet not a word. 578 00:36:48,416 --> 00:36:52,837 I look up at the people in power and ask how thick are your walls 579 00:36:52,920 --> 00:36:55,131 that you can't hear what I heard? 580 00:36:56,507 --> 00:37:01,053 Well, here, behind our walls, our lives were taken turn by turn. 581 00:37:03,181 --> 00:37:05,683 Have we earned your sympathy yet, sir? 582 00:37:08,144 --> 00:37:10,813 There is more than one person at fault for what happened to us. 583 00:37:11,981 --> 00:37:15,026 There is more than one person who pulled the trigger on that gun. 584 00:37:15,109 --> 00:37:16,652 And I have had enough. 585 00:37:17,153 --> 00:37:19,405 Enough pain. Enough corruption. 586 00:37:19,489 --> 00:37:21,532 Enough death. Enough destruction. 587 00:37:21,616 --> 00:37:25,536 Enough sleepless nights, still watching my friends die. 588 00:37:26,537 --> 00:37:30,249 Enough of listening to our politicians lie. 589 00:37:30,333 --> 00:37:31,417 Enough! 590 00:37:31,501 --> 00:37:33,127 [crowd cheering] 591 00:37:42,094 --> 00:37:43,179 [Danni] Hey. 592 00:37:43,888 --> 00:37:47,809 -Hey. -That is such a cute hairpin. I'm dead. 593 00:37:47,892 --> 00:37:51,646 -Oh, thank you. I made it myself. -Cool. 594 00:37:52,814 --> 00:37:54,440 -So-- No, you. -So-- 595 00:37:54,524 --> 00:37:56,150 I was just gonna say thank you for meeting me. 596 00:37:56,234 --> 00:37:58,027 Yeah, of course. Of course. 597 00:37:59,028 --> 00:38:01,322 How are you-- How are you doing? 598 00:38:01,405 --> 00:38:02,657 I'm good. Yeah. 599 00:38:02,740 --> 00:38:06,077 -I mean, I'm managing, I guess. Yeah. But… -Yes. 600 00:38:07,870 --> 00:38:10,748 Do you have family around? You know, like, in New York? 601 00:38:10,832 --> 00:38:13,918 Yeah. My dad cries whenever he sees me now though. 602 00:38:14,001 --> 00:38:16,587 And my mom keeps shipping me 603 00:38:16,671 --> 00:38:19,131 wellness supplements that she reads about on goop. 604 00:38:19,215 --> 00:38:24,303 Okay, um, well, what about your friends? 605 00:38:26,848 --> 00:38:28,266 I mean, I'm seeing you, right? 606 00:38:29,767 --> 00:38:30,852 Right. 607 00:38:31,936 --> 00:38:33,020 So, you know… 608 00:38:41,445 --> 00:38:46,033 Hey, are you-- are you cool if we, maybe, walk somewhere? 609 00:38:46,993 --> 00:38:48,119 -Yeah. -Yeah? 610 00:38:48,870 --> 00:38:49,954 [Danni] That's a good idea. 611 00:38:53,207 --> 00:38:54,500 [Rowan] I'm glad you reached out. 612 00:38:54,584 --> 00:38:57,837 It's gonna be great to have someone in group who's not, like, 50. 613 00:38:57,920 --> 00:39:01,090 Oh, that's-- No, I'm-- I don't think I'll-- 614 00:39:02,174 --> 00:39:04,886 That was just, like, a onetime thing for me. But-- 615 00:39:05,386 --> 00:39:06,929 The support group? Why? 616 00:39:08,389 --> 00:39:11,434 I don't know. Therapy never really worked for me. 617 00:39:13,769 --> 00:39:17,648 It's not therapy, okay? It's better. It's-- It's family. 618 00:39:19,400 --> 00:39:23,571 Besides, I mean, who's gonna help me explain TikTok references to the boomers? 619 00:39:23,654 --> 00:39:26,657 Is TikTok a-- Is it a topic that comes up a lot in meetings? 620 00:39:26,741 --> 00:39:28,743 -Oh, you would be surprised. -[chuckles] 621 00:39:30,828 --> 00:39:34,624 So, listen. I was kinda hoping I might be able to get your advice on something. 622 00:39:35,166 --> 00:39:37,543 Full disclosure, I stalked you online. 623 00:39:38,794 --> 00:39:41,589 That poetry you do, it's crazy. It sounds just like Hamilton. 624 00:39:43,007 --> 00:39:44,926 Yeah, it's-- it's called spoken word. 625 00:39:45,009 --> 00:39:46,844 Cool, cool, cool. I'm a writer too. 626 00:39:46,928 --> 00:39:47,929 Oh, cool. 627 00:39:48,012 --> 00:39:50,056 Yeah. And I actually have this article due right now 628 00:39:50,139 --> 00:39:51,599 for the magazine that I'm working at. 629 00:39:51,682 --> 00:39:53,476 And I feel really stuck. 630 00:39:53,559 --> 00:39:54,936 Like, I just-- 631 00:39:55,978 --> 00:39:58,731 I don't know if you could give me any tips, or… 632 00:39:59,231 --> 00:40:00,483 It's about what happened? 633 00:40:01,192 --> 00:40:02,610 And I brought my laptop. 634 00:40:02,693 --> 00:40:06,530 I don't know. We could hole up at one of those little writer-y cafés. 635 00:40:06,614 --> 00:40:07,698 You could be my coach. 636 00:40:08,616 --> 00:40:10,368 -Sure. -Thank you. Okay. 637 00:40:10,451 --> 00:40:13,871 You know, actually, I wanted to take you here first. 638 00:40:14,538 --> 00:40:16,374 I think it could be super helpful. 639 00:40:16,457 --> 00:40:19,418 Before you write, you have to deal with why you're feeling stuck. 640 00:40:20,503 --> 00:40:23,547 -Oh, okay, so-- And then we'll go write? -Yeah. Come on. 641 00:40:23,631 --> 00:40:24,632 Okay. 642 00:40:26,842 --> 00:40:28,302 What is this place? 643 00:40:28,803 --> 00:40:30,638 [Rowan] How do you feel about breaking things? 644 00:40:31,305 --> 00:40:34,558 Fuck the Senate for not passing that background check bill last week. 645 00:40:35,226 --> 00:40:37,478 [panting] 646 00:40:37,561 --> 00:40:38,604 Now you try. 647 00:40:39,730 --> 00:40:41,524 Oh. Um… 648 00:40:42,274 --> 00:40:43,359 Okay. 649 00:40:48,280 --> 00:40:49,824 Fuck the bombing in Paris. 650 00:40:49,907 --> 00:40:52,660 No, you're not mad enough, okay? You have to feel it. 651 00:40:53,786 --> 00:40:58,499 Okay. What if I don't-- What if I don't feel angry? 652 00:40:59,250 --> 00:41:01,502 All right, then what do you feel? 653 00:41:02,753 --> 00:41:04,505 Well, I don't know. [scoffs] 654 00:41:08,551 --> 00:41:09,927 Numb. 655 00:41:10,011 --> 00:41:11,095 Still numb. 656 00:41:12,596 --> 00:41:15,641 Use that. Smash the numbness. 657 00:41:18,561 --> 00:41:20,021 [whispers] Smash the numbness. 658 00:41:24,734 --> 00:41:26,485 Good. Again. 659 00:41:28,446 --> 00:41:31,198 Yes. Okay, you feel that? Keep going. Let it out! 660 00:41:32,450 --> 00:41:35,286 That's it. Let it out. Yell if you want to. 661 00:41:37,329 --> 00:41:38,330 Fuck you. 662 00:41:45,921 --> 00:41:47,506 [Danni laughs] 663 00:41:51,719 --> 00:41:54,263 [breathes heavily] 664 00:42:00,978 --> 00:42:05,399 Look, what you asked before-- that is how I write. 665 00:42:06,275 --> 00:42:07,735 You have to attack it. 666 00:42:08,569 --> 00:42:10,905 That is what's gonna make people pay attention. Okay? 667 00:42:10,988 --> 00:42:13,616 No more scrolling past headlines. No more distractions. 668 00:42:15,493 --> 00:42:17,036 We do that with our truth. 669 00:42:19,663 --> 00:42:21,499 If you're not okay, that's okay. 670 00:42:22,625 --> 00:42:25,086 You know as-- as fucked up as it sounds, 671 00:42:26,170 --> 00:42:28,255 your pain is your biggest asset. 672 00:42:32,093 --> 00:42:33,094 [grunts] 673 00:42:36,764 --> 00:42:37,765 Yeah. 674 00:42:41,602 --> 00:42:43,729 [panting] 675 00:42:50,986 --> 00:42:51,987 Oh, my God. 676 00:42:54,031 --> 00:42:55,032 Okay. 677 00:42:57,868 --> 00:42:59,829 I'll never forget what I saw that day. 678 00:43:00,329 --> 00:43:03,082 But the truth is, you don't need to hear it. 679 00:43:03,749 --> 00:43:05,376 All you need to know is… 680 00:43:05,459 --> 00:43:09,213 I am not okay. 681 00:43:11,423 --> 00:43:13,634 What happened in Paris changed me. 682 00:43:13,717 --> 00:43:18,389 But what I've realized since is that my pain can actually be an asset. 683 00:43:18,472 --> 00:43:20,850 It can stop you all from scrolling past headlines, 684 00:43:20,933 --> 00:43:25,146 distracting yourselves with baby goats and SHEIN ads and ASMR videos. 685 00:43:25,229 --> 00:43:26,689 It can make you pay attention 686 00:43:26,772 --> 00:43:30,776 and, in turn, truly ask yourselves, "Am I okay?" 687 00:43:30,860 --> 00:43:32,570 Am I okay? 688 00:43:32,653 --> 00:43:36,949 [Danni] Now, my own sadness, my anger-- they may stem from something 689 00:43:37,032 --> 00:43:39,827 more traumatic than you'll ever experience, 690 00:43:40,536 --> 00:43:43,164 but that doesn't mean your pain isn't just as real. 691 00:43:43,247 --> 00:43:44,248 Yo. 692 00:43:44,331 --> 00:43:46,709 [Danni] It doesn't mean you're not waking up every day 693 00:43:46,792 --> 00:43:49,545 feeling numb and useless and alone. 694 00:43:50,045 --> 00:43:51,881 I think a lot of us are. 695 00:43:52,506 --> 00:43:53,966 So I wanna invite you. 696 00:43:54,049 --> 00:43:58,220 Take this opportunity to share your truth, share your pain. 697 00:43:58,304 --> 00:44:01,515 You've got nothing to lose and everything to gain. 698 00:44:01,599 --> 00:44:02,892 Let's make the world wake up 699 00:44:02,975 --> 00:44:05,394 and pay attention to the fact that we're all hurting, 700 00:44:05,477 --> 00:44:07,980 and it's time to stop being so afraid. 701 00:44:08,063 --> 00:44:10,983 We stan a fearless queen. 702 00:44:11,066 --> 00:44:14,612 -Hey, Danni. Booch? -Sure. 703 00:44:14,695 --> 00:44:16,488 Oh, my God. Cheers. 704 00:44:17,323 --> 00:44:18,407 Cheers. 705 00:44:19,491 --> 00:44:20,659 [colleagues chuckle] 706 00:44:22,036 --> 00:44:24,538 So as BLM and MeToo came before us, 707 00:44:24,622 --> 00:44:31,503 let us usher in a new era of honesty on the Internet. #IAmNotOkay. 708 00:44:31,587 --> 00:44:34,256 -[alarm sounds] -[breathing heavily] 709 00:44:34,340 --> 00:44:35,758 [school PA] This is a lockdown drill. 710 00:44:35,841 --> 00:44:39,011 All students and teachers please follow lockdown procedure. 711 00:44:50,522 --> 00:44:53,943 [Danni] Here's the article. It would mean a lot if you reposted. 712 00:44:54,026 --> 00:44:55,778 Couldn't have written it without you. 713 00:44:55,861 --> 00:44:57,780 Dancing girls emoji, sparkling heart emoji. 714 00:45:04,203 --> 00:45:06,580 [Rowan] Congrats, @TheDanniSanders. 715 00:45:07,456 --> 00:45:10,876 If you haven't read her article yet, it's up on Depravity right now. 716 00:45:13,963 --> 00:45:18,425 #IAmNotOkay. 717 00:45:40,698 --> 00:45:42,533 [Maddy] I feel empty all the time. 718 00:45:42,616 --> 00:45:44,285 [Hana] I can't sleep because our planet is fucked. 719 00:45:44,368 --> 00:45:46,203 [overlapping voices reading posts] 720 00:45:46,287 --> 00:45:48,414 -I am not okay. 721 00:45:48,497 --> 00:45:50,124 I am not okay. 722 00:45:50,207 --> 00:45:52,501 We are not okay. 723 00:45:52,584 --> 00:45:54,420 [multiple voices] #IAmNotOkay. 724 00:45:58,757 --> 00:46:00,467 Danni, you had a big week. 725 00:46:00,551 --> 00:46:01,593 [Danni chuckles] 726 00:46:01,677 --> 00:46:03,679 Do you wanna talk a little 727 00:46:03,762 --> 00:46:07,016 about how it felt to publish such a personal piece? 728 00:46:08,183 --> 00:46:09,393 Uh… 729 00:46:10,060 --> 00:46:11,061 Honestly… 730 00:46:14,440 --> 00:46:16,233 it's been amazing. 731 00:46:16,317 --> 00:46:20,654 It's just so freeing to finally admit that I am not okay. 732 00:46:21,155 --> 00:46:25,075 And it's so crazy to see all these celebrities 733 00:46:25,784 --> 00:46:28,746 using my hashtag to talk about their trauma. 734 00:46:28,829 --> 00:46:30,706 Did you see Kendall Jenner's post? 735 00:46:30,789 --> 00:46:32,166 -You did? -Oh, yeah. 736 00:46:32,249 --> 00:46:35,002 I had no idea that she was so discriminated against. 737 00:46:36,545 --> 00:46:38,339 You always hear these horror stories 738 00:46:38,422 --> 00:46:41,342 of people in the spotlight getting all this hate, but I don't know. 739 00:46:41,425 --> 00:46:43,052 Doesn't seem to be happening to me. 740 00:46:44,845 --> 00:46:47,723 Well, you should still be prepared if it does. 741 00:46:49,808 --> 00:46:51,894 I think what Rowan is trying to say is, 742 00:46:52,561 --> 00:46:57,274 some people on the Internet just aren't as nice as we'd like them to be. 743 00:46:58,025 --> 00:47:00,944 I think I can handle, like, one troll on Twitter. 744 00:47:03,113 --> 00:47:05,074 I've been through a lot worse, right? 745 00:47:06,658 --> 00:47:08,202 Right. Yeah, of course. 746 00:47:12,498 --> 00:47:16,460 So, wait. Did I hear you guys were doing, like, a kickball game on Saturday? 747 00:47:16,543 --> 00:47:20,547 Yeah. It's kind of the best time. You should come. 748 00:47:20,631 --> 00:47:22,591 Yeah, sure. I'm down. 749 00:47:22,674 --> 00:47:27,846 You know, I owe you a major, major thank you for posting my article. 750 00:47:28,764 --> 00:47:30,933 You're one of the main reasons that it blew up. 751 00:47:31,016 --> 00:47:32,518 I mean, you and Kendall. 752 00:47:32,601 --> 00:47:34,645 No, I'm-- I'm happy to help. 753 00:47:35,604 --> 00:47:39,233 And listen, I didn't-- I didn't mean to sound pessimistic or anything in group. 754 00:47:39,316 --> 00:47:40,984 -I just-- I-- -Oh, no. 755 00:47:41,068 --> 00:47:44,613 I know the Internet likes to turn victims into villains sometimes. 756 00:47:44,696 --> 00:47:48,409 And I am an expert at blocking, so I am here if you need me. 757 00:47:48,492 --> 00:47:49,493 Thank you. 758 00:47:51,578 --> 00:47:54,540 So, what are these mysterious rehearsals you're always walking to? 759 00:47:54,623 --> 00:47:57,084 Oh, uh, this thing called Act Up at my school. 760 00:47:57,167 --> 00:47:58,377 It's, um-- 761 00:47:58,460 --> 00:48:01,255 Well, they call it a talent show for the most talented kids in New York. 762 00:48:01,338 --> 00:48:03,257 No pressure or anything. 763 00:48:03,340 --> 00:48:06,176 No pressure? Rowan, you're literally the most talented person 764 00:48:06,260 --> 00:48:08,846 -that I have ever met in my entire-- Yes. -Oh, my God. No. 765 00:48:08,929 --> 00:48:11,265 -What do you mean, "no"? -It's a lot to juggle, okay? 766 00:48:11,348 --> 00:48:14,476 It's-- I've got another rally coming up next week, 767 00:48:14,560 --> 00:48:16,937 -and I always get so anxious. -Really? 768 00:48:17,020 --> 00:48:18,522 I have really bad stage fright. 769 00:48:18,605 --> 00:48:19,982 -I don't believe that. -No, I do. 770 00:48:20,065 --> 00:48:23,402 I mean, back at Oak Valley, Cora, my sister-- 771 00:48:23,485 --> 00:48:26,613 She literally had to, like, hype me up before every book report. 772 00:48:26,697 --> 00:48:27,990 That's cute. 773 00:48:28,073 --> 00:48:31,034 Yeah. She would, like, blast cheesy oldies music in her car. 774 00:48:31,118 --> 00:48:34,037 -Like, dad tunes? -Yeah. Like, Avril Lavigne. 775 00:48:34,121 --> 00:48:36,957 Did you just say that Avril Lavigne is oldies? 776 00:48:37,666 --> 00:48:41,170 I can't. I didn't know you had a sister. 777 00:48:41,253 --> 00:48:43,338 -She older or younger? -I'm right here. 778 00:48:43,422 --> 00:48:44,965 She's-- She's older. 779 00:48:46,800 --> 00:48:48,093 You're so lucky. 780 00:48:48,177 --> 00:48:52,139 I've always wanted a sister. Being an only child is so boring. 781 00:48:52,222 --> 00:48:55,434 Does she, like, sneak you beers and all that fun stuff? 782 00:48:56,977 --> 00:48:59,396 Uh, no. Actually, she's, um… 783 00:49:01,607 --> 00:49:04,234 She-- She died in the shooting. 784 00:49:10,741 --> 00:49:11,742 Shit. 785 00:49:13,744 --> 00:49:16,455 I'm gonna-- I'll see you later. 786 00:49:23,962 --> 00:49:25,964 [ghostly voice] Sept. 787 00:49:31,178 --> 00:49:34,014 Our most popular article in two and a half years. 788 00:49:34,097 --> 00:49:40,229 Covered in The Cut, Refinery29, BuzzFeed, and trending on Twitter, 789 00:49:40,312 --> 00:49:42,189 all because of you, Danni. 790 00:49:43,065 --> 00:49:44,191 -Damn. -You can clap. 791 00:49:44,274 --> 00:49:46,401 That's an appropriate response. 792 00:49:46,485 --> 00:49:48,195 Thanks, everyone. 793 00:49:48,904 --> 00:49:50,531 Knock, knock. [chuckles] 794 00:49:50,614 --> 00:49:51,907 Who's there? It's me. 795 00:49:51,990 --> 00:49:57,454 Um, I just wanted to say that, um, your article gave me the courage 796 00:49:57,538 --> 00:49:59,373 -to finally speak up to my DnD Discord. -[phone vibrates] 797 00:49:59,456 --> 00:50:02,459 I told them about my trypophobia. 798 00:50:02,543 --> 00:50:05,045 It means I have a fear of small holes. 799 00:50:05,128 --> 00:50:09,091 Um, like this cookie is terrifying to me, 800 00:50:09,174 --> 00:50:13,095 but you've given me the strength to eat the cookie. 801 00:50:16,223 --> 00:50:18,517 Hey. Yo, Kevin. Mind if I steal Danni for a sec? 802 00:50:19,059 --> 00:50:22,229 It's Kelvin. It's like the base unit of thermodynamic temperature. 803 00:50:22,312 --> 00:50:24,523 -Hey, whatever. So, uh-- -Hi, Colin. 804 00:50:24,606 --> 00:50:26,900 Shout-out from Rowan Aldren, huh? Damn. 805 00:50:26,984 --> 00:50:28,777 -She's famous as fuck. -Is she? 806 00:50:30,153 --> 00:50:31,613 She's just Rowan to me. 807 00:50:32,447 --> 00:50:33,907 We met in our support group, so… 808 00:50:33,991 --> 00:50:35,534 All right, so listen. This-- 809 00:50:36,285 --> 00:50:38,954 I got this event this weekend. It's like a party. 810 00:50:39,037 --> 00:50:40,789 Influencer stuff. Saturday night. 811 00:50:41,373 --> 00:50:45,294 I can get you on that list. But you wanna come through? 812 00:50:46,503 --> 00:50:47,504 Yes. 813 00:50:47,588 --> 00:50:49,006 -Yeah? -Yeah, I mean, if I can-- 814 00:50:49,923 --> 00:50:52,092 If you can get-- If you can get me on that list. 815 00:50:52,175 --> 00:50:53,427 Yeah, I'll get you on that. 816 00:50:53,510 --> 00:50:55,512 I'll send you the deets. DM me your number. 817 00:50:55,596 --> 00:50:56,972 -Okay. -All right, late. 818 00:50:57,514 --> 00:50:58,515 Bye. 819 00:51:03,312 --> 00:51:06,064 So, I guess you're officially a writer now. 820 00:51:06,690 --> 00:51:08,066 Hmm, I guess so. 821 00:51:08,567 --> 00:51:10,819 Did I, uh, hear you're getting an office? 822 00:51:10,902 --> 00:51:13,447 Well, Susan just told me. Crazy, right? 823 00:51:14,239 --> 00:51:16,700 -That is-- That is crazy. -Let me go talk to her. 824 00:51:16,783 --> 00:51:18,368 You know, I meant to ask you. 825 00:51:18,452 --> 00:51:21,163 What was the name of that retreat that you went on? 826 00:51:21,246 --> 00:51:22,247 L'Esprit Nouveau. 827 00:51:22,331 --> 00:51:25,125 Cool. Where'd you hear about it? I've been looking for journalism programs. 828 00:51:25,208 --> 00:51:27,210 I just haven't really found one that's right for me. 829 00:51:28,295 --> 00:51:31,006 I read this article. It was like, I don't know, I can't remember exactly, 830 00:51:31,089 --> 00:51:34,635 "Top Ten Famous Writers' Retreats" or something, you know. 831 00:51:34,718 --> 00:51:36,011 -Well, yeah. Super easy. -Yeah. 832 00:51:36,094 --> 00:51:39,598 It was honestly so beautiful. So, so beautiful. 833 00:51:39,681 --> 00:51:42,851 Before, you know, it all went down. 834 00:51:42,934 --> 00:51:43,935 Right, right. 835 00:51:44,728 --> 00:51:46,480 Toured this gorgeous cathedral-- 836 00:51:46,563 --> 00:51:47,689 Oh, nice. Which one? 837 00:51:50,776 --> 00:51:51,902 Which cathedral? 838 00:51:54,905 --> 00:51:55,906 Notre-Dame. 839 00:51:57,574 --> 00:51:58,575 Interesting. 840 00:51:58,659 --> 00:52:00,452 -[electrical buzzing] -[ghostly voice] Six. 841 00:52:05,624 --> 00:52:07,000 Anyway, 842 00:52:07,084 --> 00:52:10,879 it-- it was obviously a really awesome opportunity, 843 00:52:11,588 --> 00:52:13,799 but mainly I'm just so happy to be alive. 844 00:52:13,882 --> 00:52:14,883 Hmm. 845 00:52:14,966 --> 00:52:16,802 I'm gonna-- I gotta-- Do one… 846 00:52:16,885 --> 00:52:17,886 -Yeah. -…thing. 847 00:52:20,097 --> 00:52:21,098 Notre-Dame. 848 00:52:22,349 --> 00:52:24,101 [singer] ♪ Fuck you ♪ 849 00:52:24,184 --> 00:52:26,603 ♪ And you, and you ♪ 850 00:52:26,687 --> 00:52:30,357 ♪ I hate your friends And they hate me too ♪ 851 00:52:30,440 --> 00:52:31,525 ♪ I'm through ♪ 852 00:52:31,608 --> 00:52:32,693 ♪ I'm through ♪ 853 00:52:32,776 --> 00:52:33,777 What's your name? 854 00:52:34,820 --> 00:52:37,030 Um… Danni. 855 00:52:37,781 --> 00:52:39,324 -Danni what? -Um… 856 00:52:39,408 --> 00:52:40,534 Danni Sanders. 857 00:52:42,035 --> 00:52:43,370 Oh, my God. Of course. 858 00:52:43,453 --> 00:52:44,996 You're the girl from the Paris attacks. 859 00:52:45,080 --> 00:52:46,790 -#IAmNotOkay. -Mm-hmm. 860 00:52:46,873 --> 00:52:48,417 -Come in, girl. -Thank you. 861 00:52:48,959 --> 00:52:50,252 ♪ I swear she had a man ♪ 862 00:52:50,335 --> 00:52:53,046 ♪ But shit hit different When it's Thursday night ♪ 863 00:52:53,130 --> 00:52:54,297 ♪ That college dropout music ♪ 864 00:52:54,381 --> 00:52:56,133 ♪ Every day leg day She be too thick ♪ 865 00:52:56,216 --> 00:52:58,135 ♪ And my friends are all annoying ♪ 866 00:52:58,218 --> 00:52:59,970 ♪ But we go dumb Yeah, we go stupid ♪ 867 00:53:00,053 --> 00:53:01,221 ♪ This that 10K on… ♪ 868 00:53:01,304 --> 00:53:02,472 [Colin] Danni. 869 00:53:04,266 --> 00:53:05,600 Yo, give me a hug. 870 00:53:07,394 --> 00:53:09,062 -Danni Sanders? -Hey, you smell nice. 871 00:53:09,146 --> 00:53:10,605 -What? -Bonsoir. 872 00:53:10,689 --> 00:53:12,524 -Oh, hi. -Look at you. 873 00:53:12,607 --> 00:53:14,693 We have a photo opportunity right over here. 874 00:53:14,776 --> 00:53:15,986 -Cool. -Hey, let's get a pic. 875 00:53:16,069 --> 00:53:17,195 -[Danni] Yes! -Come on. 876 00:53:18,697 --> 00:53:19,698 Cool. 877 00:53:19,781 --> 00:53:22,576 Y'all, this is Danni Sanders. She was in the Paris attacks, yo. 878 00:53:22,659 --> 00:53:24,202 Hi, Danni Sanders. 879 00:53:24,286 --> 00:53:25,287 Ooh. 880 00:53:27,998 --> 00:53:30,083 Let's not forget the signature red beret. 881 00:53:32,335 --> 00:53:33,587 Get one with the beret. 882 00:53:36,089 --> 00:53:37,090 Here. 883 00:53:38,133 --> 00:53:39,134 All the way in? 884 00:53:42,554 --> 00:53:44,222 That's it. Smile. 885 00:53:44,306 --> 00:53:46,475 I wanted to ask you, actually. 886 00:53:46,558 --> 00:53:49,478 Snapchat is thinking of doing a beret filter, 887 00:53:49,561 --> 00:53:52,105 you know, to honor everyone lost in Paris. 888 00:53:52,189 --> 00:53:53,982 Can we reach out to you about a collab? 889 00:53:54,065 --> 00:53:56,318 -Yeah. -Amazing. I'll have them DM. 890 00:53:56,401 --> 00:53:57,903 And don't forget a gift bag. 891 00:53:57,986 --> 00:53:59,529 -Oh, okay. -Au revoir. 892 00:53:59,613 --> 00:54:00,864 -Thank you. Bye. -Bye. 893 00:54:02,449 --> 00:54:04,493 -Are these free or… -Yeah, fuck yeah. 894 00:54:04,576 --> 00:54:06,411 Take as many as you want. No one gives a shit. 895 00:54:06,495 --> 00:54:07,579 Take, like, ten. 896 00:54:08,288 --> 00:54:09,539 Okay. 897 00:54:10,415 --> 00:54:12,042 Hey, bartender. 898 00:54:12,125 --> 00:54:15,212 Can we get two tequila shots, please? You got Kendall Jenner's brand? 899 00:54:15,295 --> 00:54:16,296 Dope. 900 00:54:16,922 --> 00:54:18,548 -This is crazy. -Yeah. 901 00:54:19,132 --> 00:54:20,342 Yeah, you get used to it. 902 00:54:20,926 --> 00:54:22,677 What you got now, like, 20K followers? 903 00:54:22,761 --> 00:54:24,971 Uh, 32K, actually. 904 00:54:25,055 --> 00:54:26,681 Shit. Okay. 905 00:54:27,349 --> 00:54:28,517 Hey, cheers to that. 906 00:54:29,309 --> 00:54:30,519 -Thanks. -Yeah. 907 00:54:31,186 --> 00:54:32,437 Cheers. 908 00:54:35,482 --> 00:54:37,275 Fuck. Yo. 909 00:54:38,109 --> 00:54:41,905 I just realized, like, I never even asked you if you were okay. 910 00:54:41,988 --> 00:54:43,907 -What? -Are you okay? 911 00:54:43,990 --> 00:54:44,991 Yeah. 912 00:54:45,700 --> 00:54:48,119 -[chuckles] Why? -'Cause, like, 913 00:54:48,203 --> 00:54:51,206 if what happened to you ever happened to me, I don't think I'd ever be okay. 914 00:54:52,415 --> 00:54:53,917 Right now I'm okay. 915 00:54:55,544 --> 00:54:59,756 I just wanted you to know, like… if you weren't… 916 00:55:02,300 --> 00:55:05,136 I'd, like, be there, you know. 917 00:55:08,682 --> 00:55:10,684 Do these fucking shots, yo! 918 00:55:10,767 --> 00:55:12,394 Ah-ha! 919 00:55:12,477 --> 00:55:14,896 -Hey, do the arm thing. -What's the arm thing? 920 00:55:14,980 --> 00:55:17,649 -The arm thing. Like this. -Oh, that arm thing. 921 00:55:17,732 --> 00:55:18,733 Yeah. 922 00:55:26,950 --> 00:55:28,493 Hey, fuck terrorists! 923 00:55:30,996 --> 00:55:31,997 Say it. Come on. 924 00:55:33,874 --> 00:55:35,166 Fuck terrorists! 925 00:55:35,250 --> 00:55:36,918 -Yeah, fuck terrorists, yo! -Fuck terrorists! 926 00:55:37,002 --> 00:55:38,837 The fuck you even doing, huh? 927 00:55:41,673 --> 00:55:44,634 [dance music playing] 928 00:55:45,010 --> 00:55:46,177 [ghostly voice] Cinq. 929 00:55:51,933 --> 00:55:53,476 Is there somewhere else we can go? 930 00:55:56,730 --> 00:55:57,981 You read my mind. 931 00:56:07,532 --> 00:56:09,701 [both moaning] 932 00:56:11,620 --> 00:56:12,621 That's it. 933 00:56:13,830 --> 00:56:15,457 Shit's like double knotted. 934 00:56:19,794 --> 00:56:21,421 -What the fuck is that? -They're bike shorts. 935 00:56:21,504 --> 00:56:24,215 -All right, I guess. -Maybe I should just get 'em off. 936 00:56:24,299 --> 00:56:25,300 Okay. 937 00:56:29,471 --> 00:56:30,472 Ow. 938 00:56:34,434 --> 00:56:36,519 Fuck. You're so tight. 939 00:56:36,603 --> 00:56:37,604 Jesus. 940 00:56:38,521 --> 00:56:40,148 Who's my damaged little girl, huh? 941 00:56:40,231 --> 00:56:41,441 [chuckles, moans] 942 00:56:41,524 --> 00:56:42,734 You're damaged? 943 00:56:43,902 --> 00:56:45,528 Don't worry, I'ma protect you. 944 00:56:46,363 --> 00:56:48,698 I ain't gonna let anything bad happen to you now. 945 00:56:50,700 --> 00:56:54,579 You're so fucking helpless. Yeah, you're so fucking helpless. 946 00:57:02,671 --> 00:57:04,506 [whimpers] 947 00:57:10,720 --> 00:57:12,138 Did you just come in me? 948 00:57:34,995 --> 00:57:36,705 [siren wailing] 949 00:57:54,973 --> 00:57:57,809 Hey, what's good? It's your boy, Colin. You know I got the honeys on me. 950 00:57:57,892 --> 00:58:01,604 We had a time, about to roll out. You know we headed to LAVO. 951 00:58:01,688 --> 00:58:02,856 Lick my face, girl. 952 00:58:06,651 --> 00:58:09,029 [Rowan] This is going great, clearly. 953 00:58:30,717 --> 00:58:33,803 -[player] What's so different about that? -[shouting] 954 00:58:33,887 --> 00:58:34,888 Hey, guys! 955 00:58:36,097 --> 00:58:38,266 -Danni! -Hey. Oh, my God. 956 00:58:38,349 --> 00:58:39,893 -You made it. -I made it! 957 00:58:39,976 --> 00:58:42,312 -[Rowan] You look, uh… -A tad overdressed? 958 00:58:42,395 --> 00:58:44,230 -Do you want a T-shirt? -Yes, please. 959 00:58:44,314 --> 00:58:47,275 -Do you have an extra one? -Charles made them. 960 00:58:47,358 --> 00:58:48,943 -Cute. -Hey! 961 00:58:49,027 --> 00:58:50,737 -Welcome to the league. -Thanks! 962 00:58:50,820 --> 00:58:53,740 Just like softball only less dangerous. 963 00:58:53,823 --> 00:58:54,824 [Danni] Yay! 964 00:58:55,742 --> 00:58:57,494 -You look amazing. -I look-- You want to-- 965 00:58:57,577 --> 00:58:59,621 You want the look to get even more elevated? 966 00:58:59,704 --> 00:59:01,539 -Yeah. How are you-- -Are you ready? 967 00:59:01,623 --> 00:59:04,292 You didn't think it could get better. Whoa! 968 00:59:04,375 --> 00:59:08,254 -Oh, yes. The bike shorts. -The power of the bike shorts. 969 00:59:08,338 --> 00:59:10,006 [Charles] Come on, we're gonna start a new game. 970 00:59:10,090 --> 00:59:11,299 Okay, coming! 971 00:59:12,175 --> 00:59:14,219 All right, dibs on you for my team. 972 00:59:14,302 --> 00:59:17,430 Really, are you sure about that? I'm not so good with the sports thing. 973 00:59:17,514 --> 00:59:19,057 ["Time Flies" playing] 974 00:59:21,101 --> 00:59:22,102 ♪ Dee B got that heat ♪ 975 00:59:22,185 --> 00:59:23,770 ♪ You got that heat You got that heat ♪ 976 00:59:40,036 --> 00:59:42,831 ♪ I don't wanna be on the ground When the time flies ♪ 977 00:59:42,914 --> 00:59:46,376 ♪ Had so many friends goin', "Wonder when it's my time" ♪ 978 00:59:46,459 --> 00:59:48,962 ♪ I live every day like I'll die by the nighttime ♪ 979 00:59:49,045 --> 00:59:52,590 ♪ It took me so long Gettin' back to my right mind ♪ 980 00:59:52,674 --> 00:59:54,968 ♪ Five days straight, no rest Oh, well ♪ 981 00:59:55,051 --> 00:59:58,388 ♪ Eyeball a bitch, don't need no scale ♪ 982 00:59:58,471 --> 01:00:01,015 ♪ I've been on my shit I don't need no help ♪ 983 01:00:01,099 --> 01:00:04,477 ♪ Always gettin' money Rain, snow, sleet, hail ♪ 984 01:00:04,561 --> 01:00:07,480 ♪ I never used to think I'd be on magazine covers ♪ 985 01:00:07,564 --> 01:00:10,900 ♪ They keep on trying to find new ways To push my buttons ♪ 986 01:00:10,984 --> 01:00:14,112 ♪ I came out of the jungle Where it rain and it thunder ♪ 987 01:00:14,195 --> 01:00:17,157 ♪ But I bring the heat like the summer ♪ 988 01:00:17,240 --> 01:00:19,951 ♪ I don't wanna be on the ground When the time flies ♪ 989 01:00:20,034 --> 01:00:23,079 ♪ Had so many friends goin', "Wonder when it's my time" ♪ 990 01:00:23,163 --> 01:00:26,124 ♪ I live every day like I'll die by the nighttime ♪ 991 01:00:26,207 --> 01:00:29,335 ♪ It took me so long Getting back to my right mind ♪ 992 01:00:30,044 --> 01:00:32,922 [Danni] I'm really, really glad that I came out tonight. 993 01:00:33,006 --> 01:00:35,842 I thought that group was going to be, like, depressing. 994 01:00:35,925 --> 01:00:37,635 -Mmm. -It's actually really fun. 995 01:00:38,636 --> 01:00:39,637 We try our best. 996 01:00:40,346 --> 01:00:43,391 I don't know. Being with you guys makes me realize what good people are. 997 01:00:44,601 --> 01:00:46,102 You're a good person too. 998 01:00:47,437 --> 01:00:48,438 Thank you. 999 01:00:54,736 --> 01:00:55,862 Bleurgh. 1000 01:00:55,945 --> 01:00:57,614 -What is that? -I don't know. 1001 01:00:57,697 --> 01:00:59,949 I keep trying to like beer, and I just don't like beer. 1002 01:01:00,033 --> 01:01:01,451 I hate it, actually. 1003 01:01:02,285 --> 01:01:04,329 -Can I try some? -Oh, I pitched it really well. 1004 01:01:04,412 --> 01:01:06,456 You want to try it, you rebellious teen? 1005 01:01:06,998 --> 01:01:08,583 Oh, my God. It's just a sip. 1006 01:01:13,713 --> 01:01:15,798 Yeah. No, I think it's pretty good, actually. 1007 01:01:15,882 --> 01:01:17,175 -Really? -Yeah. 1008 01:01:17,717 --> 01:01:19,135 -Okay, no. -Whoa! 1009 01:01:19,219 --> 01:01:20,220 Hey. 1010 01:01:20,762 --> 01:01:22,805 We're having fun-- We're not having too much fun. 1011 01:01:22,889 --> 01:01:25,433 -Really? -Yeah. Just the right amount of fun. 1012 01:01:25,516 --> 01:01:29,103 Oh, my God. You sound just like my sister. 1013 01:01:31,147 --> 01:01:32,607 You don't have to talk about it. 1014 01:01:32,690 --> 01:01:34,442 No, no. I, um… 1015 01:01:35,902 --> 01:01:37,528 I want to, I-- I do. It's… 1016 01:01:38,529 --> 01:01:40,740 It's nice. I-- I wish I could do it more often. 1017 01:01:42,909 --> 01:01:43,910 It's just… 1018 01:01:46,412 --> 01:01:48,456 You know, not a lot of people know she exists. 1019 01:01:50,083 --> 01:01:53,503 I don't-- I don't talk about her in my speeches. 1020 01:01:55,713 --> 01:01:57,382 I mean, I wish I could, but, uh… 1021 01:02:00,260 --> 01:02:01,261 Well… 1022 01:02:10,144 --> 01:02:11,980 Do you want to do something fun next week? 1023 01:02:15,858 --> 01:02:16,901 Um… 1024 01:02:18,194 --> 01:02:20,238 Maybe, I don't, um-- I-- 1025 01:02:21,030 --> 01:02:25,368 I have a lot of prep stuff to do for the "We've Had Enough" rally. I-- 1026 01:02:26,411 --> 01:02:29,539 God, I haven't even started working on what I'm going to say yet, so… 1027 01:02:32,417 --> 01:02:33,710 Do you want me to help you? 1028 01:02:35,128 --> 01:02:36,713 Do you want me to help you write it? 1029 01:02:36,796 --> 01:02:39,215 People online keep saying that we have super similar voices. 1030 01:02:40,758 --> 01:02:42,885 And we could even, like, perform it together. 1031 01:02:45,805 --> 01:02:47,015 Uh… 1032 01:02:47,098 --> 01:02:48,266 -What? -Yeah. 1033 01:02:48,349 --> 01:02:49,684 -Yeah? -Yeah, I mean… 1034 01:02:50,476 --> 01:02:52,687 I've never really performed with anyone else before, 1035 01:02:52,770 --> 01:02:55,315 but, I don't know, it could be kind of fun. I-- 1036 01:02:55,398 --> 01:02:57,066 Could be really fun. 1037 01:02:57,150 --> 01:03:00,403 We'd be leading a revolution together like Katniss and Rue. 1038 01:03:01,362 --> 01:03:02,905 [both laughing] 1039 01:03:04,699 --> 01:03:06,242 -It'll be fun though, right? -Yeah, it-- 1040 01:03:06,326 --> 01:03:07,994 It would be nice to not be alone up there. 1041 01:03:08,077 --> 01:03:09,078 Yeah. 1042 01:03:10,413 --> 01:03:11,622 I got your back, sis. 1043 01:03:15,543 --> 01:03:16,669 [person in park] Rowan! 1044 01:03:18,463 --> 01:03:21,215 That would be my ride, so… 1045 01:03:23,468 --> 01:03:24,552 Oh. 1046 01:03:27,680 --> 01:03:29,098 All right. I'll see you. 1047 01:03:32,143 --> 01:03:33,269 And get home safe. 1048 01:03:38,191 --> 01:03:40,902 [crackling] 1049 01:03:40,985 --> 01:03:42,445 [ghostly voice] Quatre. 1050 01:04:02,465 --> 01:04:04,425 Here. For you. 1051 01:04:11,349 --> 01:04:13,476 What the fuck am I supposed to do with-- 1052 01:04:23,361 --> 01:04:25,863 ♪ It's a mood ♪ 1053 01:04:25,947 --> 01:04:30,076 We are here with Danni Sanders, the girl of the moment, 1054 01:04:30,159 --> 01:04:33,204 who rose to Internet fame after surviving the Paris bombings. 1055 01:04:33,287 --> 01:04:37,583 You know her as the girl behind the hashtag, "I Am Not Okay." 1056 01:04:37,667 --> 01:04:42,213 But, girl. Right now, can I just say, you look more than okay. 1057 01:04:42,296 --> 01:04:43,714 Are we getting a shot of this fit? 1058 01:04:46,676 --> 01:04:49,720 So, you and your new bestie Rowan Aldren, 1059 01:04:49,804 --> 01:04:52,181 you've been blowing up our Insta feeds. 1060 01:04:52,265 --> 01:04:54,559 I mean, speaking of bombings, okay. 1061 01:04:54,642 --> 01:04:57,395 So, what are you two up to lately? I know that you've both posted 1062 01:04:57,478 --> 01:05:01,774 about this "We've Had Enough" rally that you're going to be speaking at. 1063 01:05:01,858 --> 01:05:03,192 That's right. 1064 01:05:03,276 --> 01:05:06,571 Enough is an incredible organization, 1065 01:05:06,654 --> 01:05:10,324 and I'm so, so thankful to Rowan for introducing me to it. 1066 01:05:10,408 --> 01:05:15,621 She's been such an amazing guide into my new identity as an activist. 1067 01:05:15,705 --> 01:05:16,706 [whispers] One second. 1068 01:05:16,789 --> 01:05:21,002 There is so much to learn, and it's just such an important cause-- 1069 01:05:21,043 --> 01:05:23,713 -And I have to stop you right there. -Okay. 1070 01:05:23,796 --> 01:05:26,048 I'm so sorry, that's all the time that we have. 1071 01:05:26,132 --> 01:05:29,969 'Cause next up, Danni and I, we're doing goat yoga. 1072 01:05:30,553 --> 01:05:32,972 -Harper, hi. -Hi. 1073 01:05:33,848 --> 01:05:36,309 Susan wants you to punch up my RBG article 1074 01:05:36,392 --> 01:05:38,811 to give it, and I quote, "more viral potential." 1075 01:05:38,895 --> 01:05:40,938 -Hmm. -That's the latest draft. 1076 01:05:42,440 --> 01:05:45,109 All righty. Thank you so much for bringing this over. 1077 01:05:46,736 --> 01:05:47,904 How? Hmm. 1078 01:05:50,072 --> 01:05:52,283 Yeah, it's just gonna need a little work. 1079 01:05:52,366 --> 01:05:56,412 But I probably won't be able to get to it till next week. I'm heading out right now. 1080 01:05:56,496 --> 01:05:58,581 You taking another mental health day? 1081 01:05:58,664 --> 01:06:00,041 [laughs] 1082 01:06:01,000 --> 01:06:03,544 No, I'm not taking another mental health day. 1083 01:06:03,628 --> 01:06:07,507 I'm going to the "We've Had Enough" rally, actually. Have you heard of it? 1084 01:06:09,133 --> 01:06:11,135 -Yeah. -Yeah. That's where I'm going. 1085 01:06:12,678 --> 01:06:15,014 You know, Harper, you could probably get your own office too 1086 01:06:15,097 --> 01:06:17,266 if you worked on that positivity a little. 1087 01:06:18,476 --> 01:06:19,519 Hey, there's my girl. 1088 01:06:20,728 --> 01:06:22,355 -Hey, you want to chill later? -No. 1089 01:06:22,438 --> 01:06:23,731 -What about tomorrow? -No. 1090 01:06:23,814 --> 01:06:27,068 What about, like, uh-- like next Wednesday or something? 1091 01:06:27,151 --> 01:06:28,736 I'm just busy. 1092 01:06:28,819 --> 01:06:31,948 Yeah, I'm busy trying to make the world a better place, Colin. 1093 01:06:32,031 --> 01:06:33,241 -Yeah. -[Colin] I see what you're doing. 1094 01:06:33,324 --> 01:06:36,118 It's like a-- like a hard-to-get kind of thing. 1095 01:06:36,202 --> 01:06:38,120 -I'm gonna go now. -Okay, you go. 1096 01:06:38,996 --> 01:06:40,498 Go. You follow your dreams. 1097 01:06:41,415 --> 01:06:43,960 -I'll see you later. -No, you won't. 1098 01:06:44,043 --> 01:06:45,127 [scoffs] 1099 01:06:46,128 --> 01:06:47,463 Bitches, am I right? 1100 01:06:50,174 --> 01:06:52,843 Damn, she still got that backside on her though. 1101 01:06:52,927 --> 01:06:55,346 Got that thickie. That fatty, right? 1102 01:06:55,429 --> 01:06:57,598 Colin, you're from Maine. 1103 01:07:00,434 --> 01:07:02,812 [in regular accent] Okay. Cool, Harper. Great. 1104 01:07:03,729 --> 01:07:05,815 We all know information about each other. 1105 01:07:06,399 --> 01:07:07,608 I still got bars. 1106 01:07:08,234 --> 01:07:10,111 I still got bars for days, bro. 1107 01:07:10,194 --> 01:07:12,363 [It's A MooD presenter] You know, we chose goat yoga 1108 01:07:12,446 --> 01:07:14,532 because you're the greatest of all time. 1109 01:07:15,032 --> 01:07:19,453 [Colin] I sit on my throne. Is that a pizza? That's a calzone. 1110 01:07:30,673 --> 01:07:31,841 Hey. 1111 01:07:31,924 --> 01:07:34,218 Look, I know it's, like, so embarrassing. 1112 01:07:34,302 --> 01:07:36,429 No, it's fucking cool. 1113 01:07:36,512 --> 01:07:37,597 -Thank you. -Come on. 1114 01:07:39,140 --> 01:07:41,392 Hey, Linda. I didn't know you were speaking today. 1115 01:07:41,475 --> 01:07:42,602 Oh, I-- I'm not. 1116 01:07:43,519 --> 01:07:47,315 So, plot twist. Linda's actually my mom. 1117 01:07:48,816 --> 01:07:50,693 [stammers] For real? 1118 01:07:52,320 --> 01:07:54,655 But I thought you-- you were a survivor? 1119 01:07:54,739 --> 01:07:59,410 I am. I worked at Rowan's old school in the front office. 1120 01:08:00,578 --> 01:08:02,580 Fuck. Oh, shit. I mean-- 1121 01:08:02,663 --> 01:08:05,458 Oh. No, it's fine. 1122 01:08:06,334 --> 01:08:09,337 It's a-- It's a fuck-shit kinda thing to find out. 1123 01:08:18,429 --> 01:08:21,307 So, you'll be taking the girls directly to the stage, correct? 1124 01:08:21,390 --> 01:08:24,143 That's right. We'll be meeting security when we get there. 1125 01:08:28,939 --> 01:08:31,025 Hey. What's up? You okay? 1126 01:08:32,485 --> 01:08:34,570 Nervous. Told you. 1127 01:08:40,618 --> 01:08:41,952 Can I have the aux? 1128 01:08:44,538 --> 01:08:45,623 Thank you. 1129 01:08:51,253 --> 01:08:53,714 ["Complicated" playing] 1130 01:08:55,716 --> 01:08:57,385 ♪ 'Cause life's like this… ♪ 1131 01:08:57,968 --> 01:08:59,512 [chuckles] 1132 01:08:59,595 --> 01:09:00,805 Avril? 1133 01:09:00,888 --> 01:09:03,516 For your stage fright. Cheesy "oldies", right? 1134 01:09:04,100 --> 01:09:07,019 ♪ Chill out, what ya yellin' for? ♪ 1135 01:09:07,103 --> 01:09:10,022 ♪ Lay back, it's all been done before ♪ 1136 01:09:10,106 --> 01:09:14,193 ♪ And if you could only let it be ♪ 1137 01:09:14,276 --> 01:09:16,112 ♪ You would see ♪ 1138 01:09:16,195 --> 01:09:19,281 ♪ I like you the way you are ♪ 1139 01:09:19,365 --> 01:09:22,451 ♪ When we're driving in your car ♪ 1140 01:09:22,535 --> 01:09:24,787 ♪ And you're… [laughs] …to me ♪ 1141 01:09:24,870 --> 01:09:26,247 -So stupid, you know? -I know! 1142 01:09:26,831 --> 01:09:28,290 -Come on. -I'm not doing that. No. 1143 01:09:28,374 --> 01:09:29,959 ♪ Somebody else 'Round everyone else ♪ 1144 01:09:30,042 --> 01:09:31,001 We're not-- 1145 01:09:31,085 --> 01:09:33,045 ♪ You're watchin' your back Like you… ♪ 1146 01:09:33,129 --> 01:09:34,130 No. Don't look at me-- 1147 01:09:34,213 --> 01:09:36,632 You can't stop yourself. You're going to have to join in. 1148 01:09:36,716 --> 01:09:39,009 ♪ Look like a fool to me ♪ 1149 01:09:39,093 --> 01:09:40,219 ♪ Tell me ♪ 1150 01:09:40,302 --> 01:09:44,140 ♪ Why'd you have to go And make things so complicated? ♪ 1151 01:09:44,890 --> 01:09:46,475 ♪ I see the way you're ♪ 1152 01:09:46,559 --> 01:09:50,938 ♪ Actin' like you're somebody else Gets me frustrated ♪ 1153 01:09:51,021 --> 01:09:53,023 ♪ Life's like this, you ♪ 1154 01:09:53,107 --> 01:09:56,736 ♪ And you fall, and you crawl And you break, and you take what you get ♪ 1155 01:09:56,819 --> 01:09:59,655 ♪ And you turn it into honesty ♪ 1156 01:09:59,739 --> 01:10:03,409 ♪ And promise me I'm never gonna find you fakin' ♪ 1157 01:10:03,492 --> 01:10:04,577 -♪ No… ♪ -[music stops] 1158 01:10:04,660 --> 01:10:06,245 This is far as I can go. 1159 01:10:12,209 --> 01:10:13,711 You're gonna be great, baby. 1160 01:10:14,462 --> 01:10:15,838 And you too. 1161 01:10:17,548 --> 01:10:19,425 I'll be watching the whole time. 1162 01:10:24,013 --> 01:10:25,431 -Bye. 1163 01:10:29,435 --> 01:10:32,980 [crowd chants] The people united will never be divided! 1164 01:10:33,063 --> 01:10:35,316 The people united will never-- 1165 01:10:35,399 --> 01:10:36,776 [cheering] 1166 01:10:40,196 --> 01:10:42,364 [person 1] We love you, Rowan! 1167 01:10:42,990 --> 01:10:44,575 Danni! Danni! 1168 01:11:05,471 --> 01:11:06,972 Say it with me. 1169 01:11:07,056 --> 01:11:08,557 We've had enough. 1170 01:11:08,641 --> 01:11:10,351 [all chanting] We've had enough! 1171 01:11:10,434 --> 01:11:13,187 We've had enough! We've had enough! 1172 01:11:13,270 --> 01:11:15,022 We've had enough! 1173 01:11:43,801 --> 01:11:46,512 My speech here today is for Cora Aldren. 1174 01:11:52,685 --> 01:11:57,273 She should have been here today to watch her little sister up on this stage. 1175 01:12:01,402 --> 01:12:04,738 But instead, her life was taken by violence. 1176 01:12:07,032 --> 01:12:12,204 This year, there have been over 250 mass shootings in the US alone. 1177 01:12:12,288 --> 01:12:13,956 Over 250! 1178 01:12:15,040 --> 01:12:19,503 And across the world, we have endured countless episodes of terrorism. 1179 01:12:19,587 --> 01:12:22,423 But if what I witnessed in Paris taught me any-- 1180 01:12:23,299 --> 01:12:25,467 -[ghostly voice] Trois. -[Danni] Uh… 1181 01:12:29,471 --> 01:12:31,348 -[person 2] You got this. -[person 3] Keep going. 1182 01:12:31,432 --> 01:12:33,100 -We, uh-- -[person 4] Danni! 1183 01:12:33,183 --> 01:12:35,519 We need to-- We need to work together to-- 1184 01:12:35,603 --> 01:12:37,229 -[banging] -[people screaming] 1185 01:12:39,815 --> 01:12:42,359 [panting] 1186 01:12:47,197 --> 01:12:48,240 [Danni] Firecrackers! 1187 01:12:49,325 --> 01:12:51,827 They're firecrackers! 1188 01:12:51,911 --> 01:12:53,495 Fucking snowflakes! 1189 01:12:53,579 --> 01:12:54,872 [Danni] Check it out, it's okay! 1190 01:12:54,955 --> 01:12:56,874 [officer] Move out, come on. Let's go. 1191 01:12:57,541 --> 01:12:59,043 Rowan? What's happening? 1192 01:13:01,045 --> 01:13:02,212 It's okay, Rowan. 1193 01:13:02,630 --> 01:13:04,590 Rowan, it's okay. It's just firecrackers. 1194 01:13:04,673 --> 01:13:05,674 Can you do something? 1195 01:13:05,758 --> 01:13:07,176 Rowan. 1196 01:13:07,259 --> 01:13:08,469 Stop taking photos! 1197 01:13:08,552 --> 01:13:09,553 Rowan? 1198 01:13:11,305 --> 01:13:12,848 Can you tell us what's happening? 1199 01:13:18,437 --> 01:13:19,855 [reporter] Is the movement over? 1200 01:13:20,731 --> 01:13:21,732 [guard] Come on! 1201 01:13:21,815 --> 01:13:23,442 [siren wailing] 1202 01:13:29,573 --> 01:13:31,283 [light buzzing] 1203 01:13:35,788 --> 01:13:38,165 [Sean] Apparently, the brand of firecracker was "Truth Bomb." 1204 01:13:38,248 --> 01:13:40,084 -Gets the libs every time. -[Gregory] Rowan Aldren is a pussy. 1205 01:13:40,167 --> 01:13:41,460 So much for "bravery." 1206 01:13:41,543 --> 01:13:43,879 [Ron] The libtards have a leader as weak and stupid as they are. 1207 01:13:43,963 --> 01:13:46,465 [Red Wave] LOLOL. Guess we don't even need guns to win boogaloo. 1208 01:13:46,548 --> 01:13:48,926 Just throw firecrackers and the snowflakes will surrender. 1209 01:13:49,009 --> 01:13:51,303 [Matthew] Rowan Aldren clearly faked being in a school shooting 1210 01:13:51,387 --> 01:13:53,847 to get attention. #fakenews #liarliar. 1211 01:13:56,934 --> 01:13:58,936 [footsteps approaching] 1212 01:14:03,649 --> 01:14:04,650 Hi. 1213 01:14:15,786 --> 01:14:16,787 Hey. 1214 01:14:18,497 --> 01:14:19,498 Hey. 1215 01:14:22,459 --> 01:14:24,086 They give you some good drugs at least? 1216 01:14:27,756 --> 01:14:28,757 Liquid Valium. 1217 01:14:32,803 --> 01:14:35,639 Brought you some hot cocoa. I'll bring it to you. 1218 01:14:36,306 --> 01:14:37,766 No mini marshmallows. 1219 01:14:39,059 --> 01:14:40,185 -Here. -Thanks. 1220 01:14:48,277 --> 01:14:49,570 Well, that was embarrassing. 1221 01:14:51,864 --> 01:14:54,116 Stop. It wasn't. 1222 01:14:55,409 --> 01:14:57,494 You don't have to-- I know I fucked up. 1223 01:14:57,578 --> 01:14:59,163 I know no one's gonna take me seriously anymore. 1224 01:14:59,246 --> 01:15:01,248 Rowan, that is-- that is not true. 1225 01:15:01,331 --> 01:15:03,333 I am supposed to be setting an example, 1226 01:15:04,585 --> 01:15:06,128 but I couldn't, and I just-- 1227 01:15:08,672 --> 01:15:10,340 I feel so weak. 1228 01:15:12,009 --> 01:15:13,135 [sobs] 1229 01:15:13,886 --> 01:15:17,056 And if I'm weak, then that just weakens what I stand for. 1230 01:15:17,139 --> 01:15:21,018 And everything, everyone I fought for, it just-- it all-- 1231 01:15:21,101 --> 01:15:23,228 -it falls apart. -Ro. 1232 01:15:23,312 --> 01:15:26,023 God, the alt-right is gonna crucify me for this. 1233 01:15:27,232 --> 01:15:28,233 Look at you. 1234 01:15:29,234 --> 01:15:32,821 You need to-- Remember what you said to me? You-- 1235 01:15:32,905 --> 01:15:36,366 That the Internet loves to turn villains into victims. 1236 01:15:38,452 --> 01:15:39,495 [chuckles, sniffs] 1237 01:15:39,578 --> 01:15:41,163 Said it the wrong way, didn't I? 1238 01:15:41,246 --> 01:15:42,998 [both chuckle] 1239 01:15:46,752 --> 01:15:48,045 Yeah. Right. 1240 01:15:51,840 --> 01:15:53,008 God, I don't know-- 1241 01:15:53,717 --> 01:15:57,221 I don't know how you stayed so… strong. 1242 01:15:58,347 --> 01:16:00,390 But I just, like, I saw it, 1243 01:16:00,474 --> 01:16:03,310 and it was like I was back there again, and I-- 1244 01:16:03,393 --> 01:16:04,394 [door opens] 1245 01:16:04,478 --> 01:16:06,230 [ghostly voice] Un. 1246 01:16:06,313 --> 01:16:07,981 Just coming to check your vitals. 1247 01:16:09,483 --> 01:16:10,818 Right, I'll let you guys… 1248 01:16:10,901 --> 01:16:12,486 -Oh, you're welcome to stay. -No, no. 1249 01:16:13,403 --> 01:16:14,655 You should get some rest. 1250 01:16:15,781 --> 01:16:16,782 I'll see you later. 1251 01:16:19,743 --> 01:16:20,911 [door closes] 1252 01:16:20,994 --> 01:16:22,371 [breathes shakily] 1253 01:16:23,330 --> 01:16:24,331 Danni? 1254 01:16:26,250 --> 01:16:30,420 I just want to thank you for being there today. 1255 01:16:31,004 --> 01:16:32,339 Coming here. 1256 01:16:32,422 --> 01:16:35,050 I mean, honestly, you're probably one of the only people 1257 01:16:35,134 --> 01:16:37,886 that really gets what she's been through. 1258 01:16:42,432 --> 01:16:43,433 Well… 1259 01:16:44,351 --> 01:16:45,352 I-- 1260 01:16:47,104 --> 01:16:50,274 Uh, I don't, um… I have to go. 1261 01:16:51,108 --> 01:16:52,109 [Linda] Okay. 1262 01:16:52,192 --> 01:16:54,570 Yeah, my phone. I have to charge my phone. 1263 01:16:54,653 --> 01:16:58,615 And I have to feed my guinea-- my guinea pig. 1264 01:16:59,992 --> 01:17:02,494 Okay. So, I have to leave, like, right now. 1265 01:17:02,578 --> 01:17:05,247 Like, big rush, but, um… 1266 01:17:06,123 --> 01:17:07,666 [voice breaking] But-- Bye. 1267 01:17:24,057 --> 01:17:25,934 Don't look at me like that. 1268 01:17:26,018 --> 01:17:27,728 [door creaks] 1269 01:17:29,646 --> 01:17:30,856 [ghostly voice] Dix. 1270 01:17:32,983 --> 01:17:34,443 [multiple ghostly voices] Neuf. 1271 01:17:36,069 --> 01:17:37,279 Huit. 1272 01:17:38,655 --> 01:17:39,781 Sept. 1273 01:17:41,116 --> 01:17:42,201 Six. 1274 01:17:42,993 --> 01:17:44,161 Cinq. 1275 01:17:44,870 --> 01:17:46,038 Quatre. 1276 01:17:46,121 --> 01:17:47,164 Trois. 1277 01:17:47,247 --> 01:17:48,665 Deux. Un. 1278 01:17:50,375 --> 01:17:52,127 [voices talking French] 1279 01:17:54,504 --> 01:17:56,089 [tourists chattering] 1280 01:17:56,173 --> 01:17:57,966 [violin playing] 1281 01:18:09,853 --> 01:18:13,148 ♪ Dix, neuf, huit, sept, six, cinq Quatre, trois, deux, un ♪ 1282 01:18:13,232 --> 01:18:14,274 ♪ Neuf, huit, sept… ♪ 1283 01:18:14,358 --> 01:18:16,944 Rowan! Rowan, no, no! No! 1284 01:18:17,027 --> 01:18:18,904 [person in crowd] This is all your fault! 1285 01:18:18,987 --> 01:18:21,198 -Stop! -[people shouting] 1286 01:18:21,281 --> 01:18:23,408 -Your fault, Danni! -This is your fault! 1287 01:18:23,492 --> 01:18:26,078 Your fault, Danni, this is all your fault! 1288 01:18:26,161 --> 01:18:27,454 [intercom buzzing] 1289 01:18:36,004 --> 01:18:38,131 -Hello. -[Harper] It's Harper. 1290 01:18:40,092 --> 01:18:41,093 Who? 1291 01:18:42,094 --> 01:18:44,346 Harper, from work. Can I come up? 1292 01:18:44,930 --> 01:18:47,057 Uh, yeah. 1293 01:18:47,140 --> 01:18:48,642 Uh, yeah. One sec. 1294 01:18:48,725 --> 01:18:50,143 [buzzing] 1295 01:18:55,941 --> 01:18:57,109 [knocking] 1296 01:19:01,071 --> 01:19:02,864 -Hi. 1297 01:19:03,657 --> 01:19:04,658 Hey. 1298 01:19:07,536 --> 01:19:08,537 What's up? 1299 01:19:11,873 --> 01:19:12,874 Harper? 1300 01:19:12,958 --> 01:19:14,251 We need to talk. 1301 01:19:15,377 --> 01:19:16,420 Okay, about what? 1302 01:19:17,546 --> 01:19:18,714 About Paris. 1303 01:19:25,887 --> 01:19:28,682 I don't-- I don't know what you're talking about. 1304 01:19:28,765 --> 01:19:30,559 Remember your first day back at work? 1305 01:19:30,642 --> 01:19:34,354 You talked about how sunny and clear it was all morning before the bombings. 1306 01:19:34,438 --> 01:19:38,275 Well, I remembered reading it was raining right before the attacks. 1307 01:19:39,026 --> 01:19:40,027 That's weird, right? 1308 01:19:40,610 --> 01:19:42,404 But I thought, "Hey, you know what? 1309 01:19:42,487 --> 01:19:44,614 She's confused. She's been through a lot. It happens." 1310 01:19:45,574 --> 01:19:47,576 Then, at that party, 1311 01:19:47,659 --> 01:19:50,746 you know the one for your brilliant article, 1312 01:19:50,829 --> 01:19:52,748 you said you went and toured Notre-Dame. 1313 01:19:54,082 --> 01:19:55,417 Which I found odd, 1314 01:19:55,500 --> 01:19:58,837 considering it's been closed to the public since half of it burned down. 1315 01:19:58,920 --> 01:19:59,921 Okay. 1316 01:20:00,005 --> 01:20:02,758 So, I decided to look up this retreat, L'Esprit Nouveau. 1317 01:20:02,841 --> 01:20:05,927 Other than one website, doesn't really seem to exist. 1318 01:20:06,011 --> 01:20:08,180 And when I Googled all the names on the list, 1319 01:20:08,263 --> 01:20:11,641 not a single one turned up anything about writing, except yours. 1320 01:20:11,725 --> 01:20:13,685 I mean, God, does nobody fact-check anything anymore? 1321 01:20:13,769 --> 01:20:15,896 Okay. If you just give me-- 1322 01:20:15,979 --> 01:20:17,230 Uh, no. I'm not done. 1323 01:20:18,607 --> 01:20:20,233 See, I had my suspicions. 1324 01:20:20,817 --> 01:20:23,362 But I didn't have proof. Until I saw this. 1325 01:20:26,865 --> 01:20:29,409 You went through my computer? Why would you do that? 1326 01:20:29,493 --> 01:20:34,331 You know what? Because I didn't like you. I never trusted you. 1327 01:20:34,414 --> 01:20:37,376 The way you acted when you came back from Paris was sus as hell. 1328 01:20:37,459 --> 01:20:39,544 And yeah, I was probably jealous that you got an office. 1329 01:20:39,628 --> 01:20:41,004 But you know what I didn't do? 1330 01:20:41,088 --> 01:20:45,050 Lie about being in a fucking terrorist attack to get one for myself. 1331 01:20:45,133 --> 01:20:47,636 I didn't know. How was I supposed to know that there was going to be a-- 1332 01:20:47,719 --> 01:20:50,680 I just was lying about a trip, that was it, to get Colin's attention. 1333 01:20:50,764 --> 01:20:52,307 So what? You thought this was better 1334 01:20:52,391 --> 01:20:54,851 than admitting you lied in a couple of Instagram stories? 1335 01:20:54,935 --> 01:20:58,021 I don't know. I don't know. I just-- Harper, I'm a different person now. 1336 01:20:58,105 --> 01:21:01,733 Please. Please, just-- What do you want? 1337 01:21:01,817 --> 01:21:04,903 Do you want money? I can find you money. My parents have a lot of connections. 1338 01:21:04,986 --> 01:21:07,280 My mom can get you into Soho House, the one in Malibu. 1339 01:21:07,364 --> 01:21:09,157 People died, Danni! 1340 01:21:12,369 --> 01:21:15,038 Do you get that? People died. 1341 01:21:21,002 --> 01:21:22,003 I know. 1342 01:21:25,799 --> 01:21:27,801 I'm gonna give you two options here. 1343 01:21:27,884 --> 01:21:30,262 You can either wait for me to write an article exposing you, 1344 01:21:30,345 --> 01:21:32,722 which would be really good for my career… 1345 01:21:35,600 --> 01:21:38,061 or I will give you the opportunity to tell everyone yourself. 1346 01:21:39,062 --> 01:21:40,063 I don't-- 1347 01:21:40,147 --> 01:21:41,940 You have until Monday to make your decision. 1348 01:21:43,817 --> 01:21:45,652 [sighs] Oh, and by the way, 1349 01:21:46,403 --> 01:21:47,737 whichever one you pick, 1350 01:21:49,114 --> 01:21:51,408 you owe Rowan Aldren a fucking apology. 1351 01:21:56,288 --> 01:21:57,289 [sighs] 1352 01:22:09,926 --> 01:22:11,136 Fuck. 1353 01:22:13,555 --> 01:22:14,556 Fuck. 1354 01:22:16,558 --> 01:22:18,101 [muffled scream] 1355 01:22:36,369 --> 01:22:37,370 I can't. 1356 01:22:55,847 --> 01:22:57,432 [Danni] I want to start off by saying 1357 01:22:58,391 --> 01:23:01,269 there's nothing that will make what I'm about to tell you okay. 1358 01:23:02,729 --> 01:23:04,814 Two months ago, I informed you all 1359 01:23:04,898 --> 01:23:07,776 that I had been selected for a writers' retreat in Paris. 1360 01:23:09,069 --> 01:23:10,070 I lied. 1361 01:23:11,154 --> 01:23:12,656 I never went to Paris. 1362 01:23:13,532 --> 01:23:16,493 I stayed home and faked photos to make it look like I did. 1363 01:23:17,077 --> 01:23:18,954 All to impress a guy. 1364 01:23:19,037 --> 01:23:20,372 Fuck. 1365 01:23:20,455 --> 01:23:24,292 I was under the influence of marijuana at the time that I concocted this idea, 1366 01:23:24,376 --> 01:23:26,962 which contributed to my poor decision-making. 1367 01:23:27,045 --> 01:23:31,841 But still, I am taking full responsibility for my actions. 1368 01:23:31,925 --> 01:23:33,051 [sighs] 1369 01:23:33,134 --> 01:23:36,054 I recognize now that this decision was a product of my loneliness 1370 01:23:36,137 --> 01:23:38,306 and desire to find meaning in my life. 1371 01:23:40,183 --> 01:23:42,310 And also my depression. 1372 01:23:42,394 --> 01:23:43,520 [phone alarm chiming] 1373 01:23:44,521 --> 01:23:48,233 I deeply regret my actions, and I'm committing myself to change. 1374 01:23:51,111 --> 01:23:55,115 I feel that coming clean now is the first step towards that change. 1375 01:23:57,867 --> 01:23:59,035 And Rowan-- 1376 01:24:24,561 --> 01:24:28,732 I promise you, I will do better. 1377 01:24:37,574 --> 01:24:38,700 [exhales sharply] 1378 01:24:39,492 --> 01:24:40,535 Okay. 1379 01:24:50,003 --> 01:24:51,046 [notification alert] 1380 01:24:51,880 --> 01:24:53,131 [notification alert] 1381 01:24:54,215 --> 01:24:58,803 [notification alerts continue rapidly] 1382 01:25:10,774 --> 01:25:13,735 Ro, you're trending. 1383 01:25:22,994 --> 01:25:25,080 [people in office whispering] 1384 01:25:30,085 --> 01:25:32,420 This is so fucked up. Isn't it, Kevin? 1385 01:25:33,254 --> 01:25:34,339 White women. 1386 01:25:34,881 --> 01:25:37,133 We did-- We did a round of fact-checking. 1387 01:25:37,217 --> 01:25:38,802 She made a fucking website. 1388 01:25:52,399 --> 01:25:53,525 Where is she? 1389 01:26:19,300 --> 01:26:21,928 -No, I know-- -Do not touch me right now! 1390 01:26:22,971 --> 01:26:24,597 [muffled shouting] 1391 01:26:36,192 --> 01:26:38,570 [muffled] You have no idea! You didn't tell me! 1392 01:26:38,653 --> 01:26:41,740 I had to find out from a fucking Depravity article, Danni! 1393 01:26:41,823 --> 01:26:44,242 Just give me one minute! I know! I know! 1394 01:26:44,325 --> 01:26:47,078 [muffled shouting] 1395 01:26:47,162 --> 01:26:48,955 [people in office whispering] 1396 01:26:49,998 --> 01:26:54,210 And I made a mistake! And I just-- I feel bad because you're my best friend! 1397 01:26:55,253 --> 01:26:57,672 [muffled] You have to go. No, Danni. 1398 01:26:57,756 --> 01:26:58,965 Listen to me for one minute. 1399 01:26:59,507 --> 01:27:03,261 No. You have to go. You have to go. 1400 01:27:03,344 --> 01:27:04,846 Just go. 1401 01:27:27,410 --> 01:27:29,037 Oh, shit. 1402 01:27:30,330 --> 01:27:31,331 What I miss? 1403 01:27:34,417 --> 01:27:35,502 [sobs] 1404 01:27:36,211 --> 01:27:39,047 [sobbing] 1405 01:27:40,340 --> 01:27:43,009 ["The End of the World" playing] 1406 01:27:47,055 --> 01:27:52,143 [singer] ♪ Why does the sun go on shining? ♪ 1407 01:27:53,770 --> 01:27:54,896 ♪ Why does the sea… ♪ 1408 01:27:54,979 --> 01:27:56,940 [contributor] Danni Sanders might actually be the worst person 1409 01:27:57,023 --> 01:27:59,359 we've ever covered on this show, and we covered Hitler. 1410 01:27:59,442 --> 01:28:01,361 [creator 1] …acting like she was the victim. 1411 01:28:01,444 --> 01:28:04,113 I think that that turned a lot of people off to her. 1412 01:28:04,197 --> 01:28:07,367 [creator 2] But I'm really not trying to get mistaken for Danni Sanders. 1413 01:28:07,450 --> 01:28:09,327 [presenter 2] I'm not gonna go that far. It's a fine. 1414 01:28:09,410 --> 01:28:11,246 [presenter 1] Not for me. I own guns. 1415 01:28:11,329 --> 01:28:13,581 You wanna be everywhere? Try being in an obituary. 1416 01:28:13,665 --> 01:28:16,251 Danni Sanders, you don't seem to know where you're at. 1417 01:28:16,334 --> 01:28:17,544 But you know, I know where you're at. 1418 01:28:17,627 --> 01:28:19,337 -Is that your address? -That look familiar? 1419 01:28:19,420 --> 01:28:20,755 I'm pretty sure that's your address. 1420 01:28:20,839 --> 01:28:23,675 [both] 3824 Linden Street. 1421 01:28:23,758 --> 01:28:25,134 [presenter 1] You're here, ha-ha! 1422 01:28:25,218 --> 01:28:28,555 Yo, any serial killers wanna do a little practice run. There's your place. 1423 01:28:28,638 --> 01:28:31,099 If I was you, I would not want that information out. That sucks. 1424 01:28:31,182 --> 01:28:32,600 -Oh, no. -That sucks. 1425 01:28:32,684 --> 01:28:34,561 No one loves you, Danni. Fuck you! 1426 01:28:34,644 --> 01:28:39,232 [singer] ♪ It ended when I lost your love ♪ 1427 01:28:41,609 --> 01:28:46,614 ♪ I wake up in the morning and I wonder ♪ 1428 01:28:48,074 --> 01:28:53,162 ♪ Why everything's the same as it was… ♪ 1429 01:28:53,246 --> 01:28:54,247 Danni? 1430 01:28:57,000 --> 01:29:00,378 No, no, no. Look at this. Hmm? 1431 01:29:00,461 --> 01:29:04,132 Six years in Afghanistan. You want to talk about fucking trauma? 1432 01:29:04,215 --> 01:29:05,884 Huh? Trauma! That's-- 1433 01:29:06,885 --> 01:29:07,886 Bitch! 1434 01:29:12,307 --> 01:29:16,269 All right, Guinea Weasley. This is gonna be our new home for a while. 1435 01:29:17,312 --> 01:29:18,938 [Mom] What are you gonna do? 1436 01:29:19,022 --> 01:29:21,232 How are you ever gonna be able to get another job? 1437 01:29:21,316 --> 01:29:23,067 Or find a husband. 1438 01:29:23,610 --> 01:29:26,362 -Or get approved by a co-op board? -I don't know. I don't know. 1439 01:29:26,446 --> 01:29:27,614 I don't know. 1440 01:29:28,907 --> 01:29:32,285 Your father is getting death threats sent to his work. 1441 01:29:32,368 --> 01:29:34,579 They're accusing us of being in on it. 1442 01:29:34,662 --> 01:29:35,663 Yeah, I know. 1443 01:29:38,958 --> 01:29:41,002 I just-- I can't. 1444 01:29:42,045 --> 01:29:43,671 Okay, I-- Me-- 1445 01:29:43,755 --> 01:29:45,548 Can I have a cup of hot cocoa? 1446 01:29:48,968 --> 01:29:50,094 Please? 1447 01:30:09,072 --> 01:30:12,825 ♪ Why does my heart go on beating? ♪ 1448 01:30:15,578 --> 01:30:19,916 ♪ Why do these eyes of mine cry? ♪ 1449 01:30:22,251 --> 01:30:25,546 ♪ Don't they know ♪ 1450 01:30:25,630 --> 01:30:29,133 ♪ It's the end of the world? ♪ 1451 01:30:29,217 --> 01:30:32,387 ♪ It ended when you said ♪ 1452 01:30:35,223 --> 01:30:36,975 ♪ Goodbye ♪ 1453 01:30:44,524 --> 01:30:47,235 Hi. I'm Danni. 1454 01:30:48,569 --> 01:30:52,490 It has been a little over a month. 1455 01:30:54,534 --> 01:30:57,245 And it's like I still don't know where to start. 1456 01:30:57,787 --> 01:31:02,166 Sometimes a good place to start can be with a little self-reflection. 1457 01:31:02,250 --> 01:31:07,338 You know, speak on the new perspective that you've gained from this experience. 1458 01:31:07,422 --> 01:31:08,840 Right, yeah. I-- 1459 01:31:08,923 --> 01:31:13,386 I guess-- what I've learned from this experience is that… 1460 01:31:16,597 --> 01:31:17,598 I… 1461 01:31:18,766 --> 01:31:21,269 I don't think that I like myself very much. 1462 01:31:21,352 --> 01:31:22,562 Mm-hmm. 1463 01:31:23,563 --> 01:31:25,773 [Danni] I'm not sure that I ever really have. 1464 01:31:26,899 --> 01:31:29,777 Which is funny. Like, considering my life-- 1465 01:31:29,861 --> 01:31:32,947 Oh, my God. My life before this, it was so easy. 1466 01:31:33,031 --> 01:31:34,449 So easy. 1467 01:31:36,367 --> 01:31:38,202 No one stared at me in the street. 1468 01:31:38,953 --> 01:31:41,622 No one doxed me on Twitter. No one-- 1469 01:31:42,957 --> 01:31:44,792 No one gave a shit. 1470 01:31:45,543 --> 01:31:46,502 [group member] Yeah. 1471 01:31:49,881 --> 01:31:51,174 Which is why I lied. 1472 01:31:52,341 --> 01:31:53,384 And now… 1473 01:31:55,803 --> 01:31:58,639 Now I hate myself so much more than I did before. 1474 01:32:00,725 --> 01:32:03,394 So what? Are we supposed to feel bad for you? 1475 01:32:03,478 --> 01:32:04,562 [clears throat] 1476 01:32:05,271 --> 01:32:06,773 I mean, you're saying you've learned, 1477 01:32:06,856 --> 01:32:09,108 but at the end of the day, you're a privileged white girl 1478 01:32:09,192 --> 01:32:10,610 who thinks she's the main character. 1479 01:32:10,693 --> 01:32:14,489 Quinn! What have we said about criticizing other people… 1480 01:32:14,572 --> 01:32:17,241 [both] For the mistakes we've made ourselves. 1481 01:32:17,325 --> 01:32:18,326 Quinn's… 1482 01:32:19,660 --> 01:32:20,661 totally right. 1483 01:32:22,955 --> 01:32:25,750 I don't know if I've learned anything. I don't know… 1484 01:32:26,793 --> 01:32:28,419 if I'm better. 1485 01:32:28,503 --> 01:32:30,088 I don't know if I've grown. 1486 01:32:30,171 --> 01:32:34,300 I don't know if I've… learned, 1487 01:32:34,383 --> 01:32:36,969 and-- I just-- I don't know. I don't know. 1488 01:32:37,053 --> 01:32:38,930 Have you tried making amends? 1489 01:32:42,391 --> 01:32:44,435 Directly to the people that you hurt. 1490 01:32:45,144 --> 01:32:47,438 Not like over the Internet. 1491 01:32:47,522 --> 01:32:48,731 Hmm. 1492 01:32:51,234 --> 01:32:52,235 Okay. 1493 01:33:00,326 --> 01:33:02,995 [singers] ♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪ 1494 01:33:03,079 --> 01:33:05,706 ♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪ 1495 01:33:05,790 --> 01:33:08,501 ♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪ 1496 01:33:08,584 --> 01:33:11,546 ♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪ 1497 01:33:12,630 --> 01:33:14,549 [hip-hop playing] 1498 01:33:26,561 --> 01:33:28,062 -[music stops] -[applause] 1499 01:33:28,146 --> 01:33:29,397 [no audible dialogue] 1500 01:33:35,570 --> 01:33:36,779 [emcee] And up next, 1501 01:33:36,863 --> 01:33:41,200 we have Rowan Aldren reciting an original spoken-word piece. 1502 01:33:41,284 --> 01:33:42,994 [cheering] 1503 01:33:59,552 --> 01:34:03,389 So this is a different piece than the one I originally planned on doing. 1504 01:34:04,932 --> 01:34:08,186 It's a little rough, but I, um… 1505 01:34:09,687 --> 01:34:10,980 I think it's more fitting. 1506 01:34:16,944 --> 01:34:18,154 [exhales shakily] 1507 01:34:26,454 --> 01:34:28,998 If you're not okay, that's okay. 1508 01:34:29,582 --> 01:34:30,708 [inhales sharply] 1509 01:34:31,751 --> 01:34:33,628 That's advice I gave. 1510 01:34:34,253 --> 01:34:36,380 Six words that came out of my mouth 1511 01:34:36,464 --> 01:34:39,050 that on that day you snatched up like a handout. 1512 01:34:40,134 --> 01:34:42,011 #IAmNotOkay. 1513 01:34:42,720 --> 01:34:44,847 A sentence that resonated with a nation-- No. 1514 01:34:44,931 --> 01:34:47,308 A generation scared to wake up in their own nation, 1515 01:34:47,391 --> 01:34:50,645 determined of their own inevitable termination. 1516 01:34:52,188 --> 01:34:54,857 Smart move, turning that fear into clickbait. 1517 01:34:59,070 --> 01:35:03,282 But, God, I guess I am just so used to being stolen from, 1518 01:35:03,366 --> 01:35:06,702 that when I read my words in your voice, I reposted 'em. 1519 01:35:07,453 --> 01:35:09,121 And applauded as you boasted. 1520 01:35:09,205 --> 01:35:11,832 Gave you a platform that floated you right up to the top. 1521 01:35:13,334 --> 01:35:15,002 And you never thought to stop? 1522 01:35:16,545 --> 01:35:19,507 When you looked down at the bodies that you used as props, 1523 01:35:19,590 --> 01:35:23,177 when you looked into my eyes, you just saw another voice to co-opt? 1524 01:35:23,844 --> 01:35:28,474 You know, for someone who's not okay, you seem okay with quite a lot, actually. 1525 01:35:30,893 --> 01:35:34,230 And while I was blindsided, why am I not surprised? 1526 01:35:35,648 --> 01:35:38,526 Why is a story like yours something we read every other night? 1527 01:35:38,609 --> 01:35:41,070 Why do people like you get movies on Netflix and Hulu, 1528 01:35:41,153 --> 01:35:44,657 and people like me get told to sit tight and wait for change? 1529 01:35:44,740 --> 01:35:47,702 No, you don't know what that's like! You can't take the mic! 1530 01:35:47,785 --> 01:35:50,913 This is my time slot. One more minute, right? 1531 01:35:50,997 --> 01:35:52,707 [scattered whoops and cheers] 1532 01:35:52,790 --> 01:35:54,166 [clapping] 1533 01:35:57,044 --> 01:35:59,171 I have had everything stolen from me. 1534 01:36:00,298 --> 01:36:02,091 Their breath, stolen. 1535 01:36:02,925 --> 01:36:06,804 My breath, perpetually holding, wondering if someone near me might be holding-- 1536 01:36:08,222 --> 01:36:09,807 I'm sorry. 1537 01:36:09,890 --> 01:36:11,225 Is my trauma showing? 1538 01:36:11,309 --> 01:36:14,061 Because I don't plan on slowing or sitting down. 1539 01:36:14,145 --> 01:36:17,773 This is my time to take back the words that you stole from my mouth. 1540 01:36:17,857 --> 01:36:21,319 You have never seen anything destroyed except yourself! 1541 01:36:23,738 --> 01:36:25,281 And that is of your own doing. 1542 01:36:30,077 --> 01:36:33,289 So hell no. I am not okay. 1543 01:36:37,668 --> 01:36:39,795 I think about her every single day. 1544 01:36:45,092 --> 01:36:48,346 You know when the newspapers wrote about my sister, 1545 01:36:48,429 --> 01:36:49,972 they misspelled her name? 1546 01:36:53,100 --> 01:36:55,978 And now you think her place is something you can claim? 1547 01:36:59,273 --> 01:37:02,485 Her body is in the ground, and you think you're the same? 1548 01:37:10,117 --> 01:37:13,287 I hope you realize that by doing this, you've only given me more to say. 1549 01:37:15,790 --> 01:37:17,958 So maybe one day I'll forgive you… 1550 01:37:19,835 --> 01:37:22,129 but we will never be okay. 1551 01:37:26,300 --> 01:37:28,094 [applause] 1552 01:37:45,778 --> 01:37:46,779 Yes! 1553 01:37:47,738 --> 01:37:48,739 Yes! 1554 01:38:06,924 --> 01:38:09,176 You did that. You did it. 1555 01:38:27,778 --> 01:38:29,655 [no audible dialogue] 1556 01:38:59,351 --> 01:39:03,355 ["Declaration" playing] 1557 01:39:14,450 --> 01:39:18,454 [singer] ♪ Like a dog with his tail Between his legs ♪ 1558 01:39:18,537 --> 01:39:22,458 ♪ I sleep in the bed I know I've made ♪ 1559 01:39:22,541 --> 01:39:26,128 ♪ I knew things could get complicated ♪ 1560 01:39:26,212 --> 01:39:29,465 ♪ Oh-oh, I'm ashamed ♪ 1561 01:39:30,174 --> 01:39:34,386 ♪ I don't know her face Or where she came from ♪ 1562 01:39:34,470 --> 01:39:38,057 ♪ I don't even know her name ♪ 1563 01:39:38,140 --> 01:39:41,685 ♪ The mirror's clean, I scream again ♪ 1564 01:39:41,769 --> 01:39:44,980 ♪ Whoa-oh, oh, I'm ashamed ♪ 1565 01:39:46,190 --> 01:39:49,360 ♪ So-whoa-whoa-whoa ♪ 1566 01:39:49,443 --> 01:39:51,779 ♪ I run ♪ 1567 01:39:53,531 --> 01:39:57,159 ♪ Can't escape the fate of judgment day ♪ 1568 01:39:57,243 --> 01:40:00,871 ♪ For the things I've done ♪ 1569 01:40:00,955 --> 01:40:04,291 ♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪ 1570 01:40:05,543 --> 01:40:08,045 ♪ A product of how I was raised ♪ 1571 01:40:09,046 --> 01:40:11,840 ♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪ 1572 01:40:12,883 --> 01:40:16,011 ♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪ 1573 01:40:16,637 --> 01:40:19,473 ♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪ 1574 01:40:20,474 --> 01:40:23,477 ♪ And in the end I don't know how to change ♪ 1575 01:40:24,478 --> 01:40:27,314 ♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪ 1576 01:40:28,315 --> 01:40:31,610 ♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪ 1577 01:40:32,653 --> 01:40:36,240 ♪ Shot you words you don't deserve ♪ 1578 01:40:36,323 --> 01:40:40,244 ♪ Rolled through your town And massacred ♪ 1579 01:40:40,327 --> 01:40:43,914 ♪ I wish I died a hundred times ♪ 1580 01:40:43,998 --> 01:40:47,334 ♪ Whoa-oh, oh, I'm ashamed ♪ 1581 01:40:48,335 --> 01:40:51,672 ♪ So-whoa-whoa-whoa ♪ 1582 01:40:51,755 --> 01:40:54,008 ♪ I run ♪ 1583 01:40:55,718 --> 01:40:59,346 ♪ Can't escape the fate of judgment day ♪ 1584 01:40:59,430 --> 01:41:03,267 ♪ For the things I've done ♪ 1585 01:41:03,350 --> 01:41:06,312 ♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪ 1586 01:41:07,563 --> 01:41:10,232 ♪ A product of how I was raised ♪ 1587 01:41:11,191 --> 01:41:14,069 ♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪ 1588 01:41:15,070 --> 01:41:18,490 ♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪ 1589 01:41:18,574 --> 01:41:21,785 ♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪ 1590 01:41:22,786 --> 01:41:25,748 ♪ And in the end I don't know how to change ♪ 1591 01:41:26,790 --> 01:41:29,835 ♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪ 1592 01:41:30,544 --> 01:41:33,839 ♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪ 1593 01:41:34,506 --> 01:41:37,968 ♪ Oh, I am deranged ♪ 1594 01:41:38,469 --> 01:41:41,930 ♪ Oh, I am insane ♪ 1595 01:41:42,014 --> 01:41:45,643 ♪ Oh, I'm inhumane ♪ 1596 01:41:46,185 --> 01:41:49,355 ♪ Oh, I am ashamed ♪ 1597 01:41:50,105 --> 01:41:53,233 ♪ Oh, I am deranged ♪ 1598 01:41:53,984 --> 01:41:57,404 ♪ Oh, I am insane ♪ 1599 01:41:57,905 --> 01:42:00,949 ♪ Oh, I'm inhumane ♪ 1600 01:42:01,575 --> 01:42:04,870 ♪ Oh, I am ashamed ♪