1 00:00:01,379 --> 00:00:04,689 ♪ Take me to The children of love ♪ 2 00:00:07,000 --> 00:00:10,206 I can't believe that a simple vacation 3 00:00:10,206 --> 00:00:12,931 has led to me meeting the love of my life. 4 00:00:12,931 --> 00:00:17,206 ♪ Purify my soul Take me to the river ♪ 5 00:00:17,206 --> 00:00:21,965 I've never dated an exotic man from another country before. 6 00:00:23,275 --> 00:00:28,000 And so I get to live out my Italian romance dream, 7 00:00:28,000 --> 00:00:30,241 you know, the ones you see in the movies. 8 00:00:31,620 --> 00:00:33,758 Whoo! 9 00:00:34,517 --> 00:00:38,482 I met someone, beautiful Brazilian. 10 00:00:38,482 --> 00:00:43,103 Alliya is dynamic and sexy and all the fantasy things. 11 00:00:43,103 --> 00:00:46,896 But when I first met Alliya, she was Douglas. 12 00:00:55,310 --> 00:00:56,482 I take a lot of supplements 13 00:00:56,482 --> 00:00:58,482 because they help my sperm count 14 00:00:58,482 --> 00:00:59,931 be, like, really high. 15 00:00:59,931 --> 00:01:01,413 I'm gonna be taking these pills right now 16 00:01:01,413 --> 00:01:03,241 so I can get my super sperm. 17 00:01:09,379 --> 00:01:12,275 We've got our issues. - What type of issues? 18 00:01:12,275 --> 00:01:15,413 He wants us having a night with, like, different women. 19 00:01:15,413 --> 00:01:17,275 - What? - That's a threesome. 20 00:01:17,275 --> 00:01:18,862 What's important to you? 21 00:01:19,310 --> 00:01:20,793 Me or the threesomes? 22 00:01:21,689 --> 00:01:22,758 Both. 23 00:01:25,827 --> 00:01:27,965 How is, like, the sex spin? 24 00:01:28,275 --> 00:01:29,482 Um... 25 00:01:30,793 --> 00:01:34,482 You have a persona now that's being the boss bitch. 26 00:01:34,482 --> 00:01:36,379 But you can't be the boss bitch of me. 27 00:01:38,931 --> 00:01:40,620 He said that you were topless 28 00:01:40,620 --> 00:01:42,310 while he was in the same bed with you. 29 00:01:42,310 --> 00:01:44,172 You slept in the same [bleep] bed? 30 00:01:44,172 --> 00:01:47,379 I have risked everything to be with this girl. 31 00:01:47,379 --> 00:01:51,275 And my deepest, darkest fears are coming true. 32 00:01:51,689 --> 00:01:53,000 Say you're sorry. 33 00:01:53,000 --> 00:01:54,551 - For that [bleep]. - No. 34 00:02:01,689 --> 00:02:04,793 You're giving this pleasure so much power, 35 00:02:04,793 --> 00:02:09,275 you broke up with me twice over this stuff. Twice. 36 00:02:15,172 --> 00:02:19,689 I love Ani, but I love sperm donation. 37 00:02:19,689 --> 00:02:21,379 If she can't accept that, 38 00:02:21,379 --> 00:02:23,310 this relationship won't survive. 39 00:02:23,310 --> 00:02:25,413 Who are you? The saver of the word? 40 00:02:25,413 --> 00:02:27,172 And you have to give all women babies. 41 00:02:27,172 --> 00:02:28,379 I don't know what to say. 42 00:02:28,379 --> 00:02:30,551 Oh, my gosh, I have to stop this. 43 00:04:04,827 --> 00:04:07,206 I love you so much. 44 00:04:07,206 --> 00:04:09,965 Who is the more beautiful dog in the world? 45 00:05:02,517 --> 00:05:04,344 I love them so much. 46 00:05:54,275 --> 00:05:57,517 ♪ I am the cutter You are the blood In the water ♪ 47 00:05:57,517 --> 00:05:59,862 ♪ I am the shark on the hunt 48 00:06:01,172 --> 00:06:03,103 I'm Luke. I'm 30 years old 49 00:06:03,103 --> 00:06:05,172 and I'm from Los Angeles, California. 50 00:06:06,103 --> 00:06:07,931 I'm a mining engineer by trade, 51 00:06:07,931 --> 00:06:10,172 but my real passion is business. 52 00:06:11,000 --> 00:06:12,206 And in business 53 00:06:12,206 --> 00:06:14,551 I know first impressions mean everything. 54 00:06:16,103 --> 00:06:18,931 I want to be noticed. 55 00:06:18,931 --> 00:06:21,379 I'm unique and I wanna be remembered as such. 56 00:06:21,379 --> 00:06:22,896 ♪ Welcome to the show 57 00:06:22,896 --> 00:06:24,724 ♪ Welcome to the end of the road ♪ 58 00:06:24,724 --> 00:06:28,275 ♪ You wanna win it all? You better be ready to go ♪ 59 00:06:28,931 --> 00:06:30,068 Hello. Hello. 60 00:06:30,068 --> 00:06:31,793 We're doing the same high pressure? 61 00:06:31,793 --> 00:06:34,103 Yeah. Let's do a stand up. 62 00:06:34,103 --> 00:06:35,413 Let's try six minutes today. 63 00:06:35,413 --> 00:06:37,000 Okay. Perfect. 64 00:06:37,000 --> 00:06:38,551 I just wanna look pretty for my girl. 65 00:06:39,482 --> 00:06:42,103 Madelein is one of the most empathetic, 66 00:06:42,103 --> 00:06:45,103 loving and driven people I have ever met, 67 00:06:45,103 --> 00:06:46,068 and that's what made me 68 00:06:46,068 --> 00:06:48,379 fall in love with her so hard and so fast. 69 00:06:49,172 --> 00:06:52,103 I got her tattoo right here. 70 00:06:52,103 --> 00:06:54,793 I just wanted to show her, like, I'm, I'm serious. 71 00:06:54,793 --> 00:06:56,310 I'm not [bleep] around. 72 00:06:56,310 --> 00:06:58,103 I want, I wanna be with you. 73 00:06:58,103 --> 00:07:01,068 And I'm gonna get your name tattooed 74 00:07:01,068 --> 00:07:04,827 right next to my, my, my penis. So... 75 00:07:07,724 --> 00:07:10,172 You know, I'm committed 100%. 76 00:07:12,275 --> 00:07:15,758 About six months ago I proposed. 77 00:07:18,689 --> 00:07:21,275 I wanted to move to Colombia, 78 00:07:21,275 --> 00:07:23,482 and I wanted to be with her forever and ever. 79 00:07:25,206 --> 00:07:26,379 That was my plan. 80 00:07:27,172 --> 00:07:29,310 But I still haven't moved to Colombia 81 00:07:29,310 --> 00:07:33,758 because my financial situation has taken a dramatic turn. 82 00:07:35,482 --> 00:07:37,172 Madelein definitely has a taste 83 00:07:37,172 --> 00:07:39,000 for the finer things in life 84 00:07:39,000 --> 00:07:45,000 and I worry that when I tell her 85 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:46,896 that I can't pay for the lifestyle 86 00:07:46,896 --> 00:07:48,896 that we're used to, she'll leave me. 87 00:08:09,172 --> 00:08:10,206 My name is Ani. 88 00:08:10,206 --> 00:08:11,931 I'm 39 years old. 89 00:08:11,931 --> 00:08:13,896 I'm originally from Berlin, Germany, 90 00:08:13,896 --> 00:08:16,034 and I'm living in Malta right now. 91 00:08:24,482 --> 00:08:26,931 I moved to Malta during the pandemic. 92 00:08:26,931 --> 00:08:30,000 I just needed a little bit more freedom 93 00:08:30,000 --> 00:08:32,724 and sun as the lockdowns in Germany 94 00:08:32,724 --> 00:08:34,793 were very, very long and cold. 95 00:08:36,379 --> 00:08:37,448 Whoo! 96 00:08:37,827 --> 00:08:38,965 Oh, my God. 97 00:08:38,965 --> 00:08:42,206 It was only supposed to be for two or three months, 98 00:08:42,206 --> 00:08:44,103 but then I got an amazing job offer 99 00:08:44,103 --> 00:08:46,068 as a content editor in marketing. 100 00:08:46,413 --> 00:08:48,206 I couldn't say no 101 00:08:48,206 --> 00:08:49,758 and, yeah, I'm staying here. 102 00:08:51,517 --> 00:08:54,379 Malta is located in the Mediterranean Sea 103 00:08:54,379 --> 00:08:56,896 between Sicily and Libya. 104 00:08:56,896 --> 00:08:58,931 It has really great energy. 105 00:08:58,931 --> 00:09:01,586 It has a charm with old architecture. 106 00:09:01,586 --> 00:09:04,206 We have 300 days of sunshine, 107 00:09:04,206 --> 00:09:07,517 beautiful cliffs, beautiful beaches, 108 00:09:07,517 --> 00:09:11,172 and it turned out to be also a great place to raise my son. 109 00:09:12,379 --> 00:09:14,896 Hello. Good morning, babe. 110 00:09:14,896 --> 00:09:17,000 How are you? Good? 111 00:09:17,000 --> 00:09:20,000 Emilian is my son, and he's six years old. 112 00:09:20,000 --> 00:09:21,379 - Mama... - Yeah? 113 00:09:25,310 --> 00:09:27,000 Emilian's father and me, 114 00:09:27,000 --> 00:09:29,172 we split like, four years ago. 115 00:09:29,172 --> 00:09:31,379 And even though Malta is a paradise, 116 00:09:31,379 --> 00:09:34,689 I haven't found Prince Charming yet. 117 00:09:34,689 --> 00:09:37,448 All right. Found the right color? 118 00:09:38,172 --> 00:09:41,517 Recently I started to panic 119 00:09:41,517 --> 00:09:44,758 because I realized I wanted a second baby. 120 00:09:45,586 --> 00:09:51,482 And my biological watch is ticking. 121 00:09:54,482 --> 00:09:56,413 I always hope that the right person 122 00:09:56,413 --> 00:09:58,482 will just one day stand in front of me 123 00:09:58,482 --> 00:10:00,448 where I feel immediately right. 124 00:10:01,689 --> 00:10:06,758 And seven months ago, I went online and I met Kyle. 125 00:10:08,379 --> 00:10:12,793 There was something very special about how he made me feel. 126 00:10:12,793 --> 00:10:15,000 We can just talk for hours 127 00:10:15,379 --> 00:10:17,344 and we can laugh. 128 00:10:18,482 --> 00:10:21,689 I really think from all what I've seen 129 00:10:21,689 --> 00:10:25,793 and feel so far that he could be my soul mate 130 00:10:25,793 --> 00:10:29,689 and the one I can have maybe my second baby with. 131 00:10:29,689 --> 00:10:32,448 And he comes in one week to visit me in Malta. 132 00:10:46,000 --> 00:10:47,586 That is Big Ben. 133 00:10:47,586 --> 00:10:49,344 I'm gonna take a picture of that bad boy. 134 00:10:50,206 --> 00:10:52,586 My name is Kyle, I'm 32. 135 00:10:52,586 --> 00:10:54,689 I'm originally from Los Angeles, California, 136 00:10:54,689 --> 00:10:56,758 but I spend most of my time traveling the world. 137 00:10:57,724 --> 00:11:00,413 I'm an accountant and as long as I have my laptop, 138 00:11:00,413 --> 00:11:01,413 I can work from anywhere. 139 00:11:01,413 --> 00:11:03,172 So I became a digital nomad. 140 00:11:06,000 --> 00:11:07,172 My favorite things to do 141 00:11:07,172 --> 00:11:10,068 when I travel are shopping for souvenirs, 142 00:11:11,068 --> 00:11:14,448 buying the local cuisine and getting women pregnant. 143 00:11:22,000 --> 00:11:25,896 And most of my globetrotting has been helping single women 144 00:11:25,896 --> 00:11:28,172 and lesbian couples grow their families. 145 00:11:30,379 --> 00:11:32,586 So I just travel one backpack. 146 00:11:32,586 --> 00:11:35,172 Really, I just carry some shirts and pants 147 00:11:35,172 --> 00:11:37,344 supplements, and that's really all I need. 148 00:11:38,275 --> 00:11:39,482 I take a lot of supplements 149 00:11:39,482 --> 00:11:41,482 because they help my sperm count 150 00:11:41,482 --> 00:11:43,379 to be, like, really high. 151 00:11:43,379 --> 00:11:48,689 I avoid heavy drinking, smoking drugs, hot showers. 152 00:11:48,689 --> 00:11:51,482 I try to eat mostly organic. 153 00:11:51,482 --> 00:11:54,344 I'm gonna be taking these pills right now so I can get my super sperm. 154 00:11:55,586 --> 00:12:00,862 I got some vitamin B12 vitamin D, vitamin E. 155 00:12:05,586 --> 00:12:09,206 When I was 22, I knew a lesbian couple and they were discussing 156 00:12:09,206 --> 00:12:11,482 going to the sperm bank, but it was really expensive. 157 00:12:12,586 --> 00:12:15,689 So I offered to help them have a child. 158 00:12:15,689 --> 00:12:18,655 And after that, my whole sperm donation thing was born. 159 00:12:20,275 --> 00:12:23,551 Through word of mouth and through my social media, 160 00:12:24,310 --> 00:12:25,793 women found out about me, 161 00:12:25,793 --> 00:12:29,137 and now I donate around three to five times a month. 162 00:12:30,586 --> 00:12:33,000 The average sperm count was around, I think, 163 00:12:33,000 --> 00:12:35,172 44 million per milliliter. 164 00:12:35,172 --> 00:12:39,000 My sperm count is 242 million per milliliter. 165 00:12:39,000 --> 00:12:41,551 It's astronomically really good sperm count. 166 00:12:44,620 --> 00:12:46,689 Currently I have 71 children 167 00:12:46,689 --> 00:12:48,379 and another nine on the way. 168 00:12:50,172 --> 00:12:51,482 They're all around the world. 169 00:12:51,482 --> 00:12:53,724 I have, I think, like, 170 00:12:53,724 --> 00:12:56,275 one or two kids over in San Diego, 171 00:12:56,275 --> 00:12:58,827 Los Angeles, I have a few five year olds, 172 00:12:58,827 --> 00:13:01,724 Seattle, Miami, in Orlando. 173 00:13:01,724 --> 00:13:03,551 Or actually, I think, two in Orlando now. 174 00:13:04,068 --> 00:13:05,068 Tijuana. 175 00:13:05,827 --> 00:13:07,551 I have one in Tijuana, Mexico. 176 00:13:08,724 --> 00:13:10,379 I get no money from this. 177 00:13:10,379 --> 00:13:11,482 I cover my own travel, 178 00:13:11,482 --> 00:13:12,896 my own cost. 179 00:13:12,896 --> 00:13:16,000 But I get to see the smiles on their faces when they have a child. 180 00:13:16,000 --> 00:13:18,000 That's literally all I'm getting out of it, 181 00:13:18,000 --> 00:13:19,551 is joy and happiness. 182 00:13:20,275 --> 00:13:22,482 Let's move to Europe. 183 00:13:22,482 --> 00:13:27,068 We have a kid in Edinburgh. 184 00:13:27,068 --> 00:13:30,827 But as much as I love helping families having a child, 185 00:13:30,827 --> 00:13:33,448 I have had to sacrifice on my own happiness. 186 00:13:34,000 --> 00:13:35,379 One in London. 187 00:13:35,379 --> 00:13:37,827 And then there's one in Bordeaux, France. 188 00:13:37,827 --> 00:13:40,379 I started donating about 10 years ago, 189 00:13:40,379 --> 00:13:45,896 and the first year, I think I went on a date with one woman. 190 00:13:45,896 --> 00:13:48,379 And then last year I went on a date 191 00:13:48,379 --> 00:13:52,000 with one woman as well, and that's literally been it. 192 00:13:52,000 --> 00:13:55,724 No women are willing to accept that I donate sperm. 193 00:13:55,724 --> 00:14:00,275 So now we're going to move to Asia. 194 00:14:00,275 --> 00:14:03,724 But with Ani, I'm hoping that I finally found a woman 195 00:14:03,724 --> 00:14:05,275 that can accept me for who I am. 196 00:14:07,827 --> 00:14:11,620 Originally, Ani reached out to discuss sperm donation 197 00:14:11,620 --> 00:14:13,965 because she was thinking about having another child. 198 00:14:15,482 --> 00:14:18,103 Ani was different than a lot of other women 199 00:14:18,103 --> 00:14:20,241 that wanted sperm donation. 200 00:14:20,793 --> 00:14:22,482 We would stay up late 201 00:14:22,482 --> 00:14:24,275 and talk about different things. 202 00:14:24,275 --> 00:14:26,275 And after a while we realized 203 00:14:26,275 --> 00:14:27,586 we had a really deep connection 204 00:14:27,586 --> 00:14:29,172 and it became a lot more. 205 00:14:34,000 --> 00:14:37,103 I'm excited because I'm going to Malta next week 206 00:14:37,103 --> 00:14:39,103 to see Ani for the first time. 207 00:14:39,103 --> 00:14:41,896 But first I made a pit stop in London 208 00:14:41,896 --> 00:14:43,793 to help a woman have a baby. 209 00:14:43,793 --> 00:14:46,793 So right now I'm just putting the pillows on the floor 210 00:14:46,793 --> 00:14:51,275 to get ready for a intercourse donation. 211 00:14:51,275 --> 00:14:54,068 The women can choose how they receive my donation. 212 00:14:55,310 --> 00:14:56,482 For some women 213 00:14:56,482 --> 00:14:58,586 I do artificial insemination 214 00:14:58,586 --> 00:15:00,586 where I just masturbate into a cup 215 00:15:00,586 --> 00:15:04,275 and they use a syringe to inject it inside of her vagina. 216 00:15:04,275 --> 00:15:06,793 But I also have the natural way, 217 00:15:06,793 --> 00:15:10,655 which has a higher success rate where we just have sex. 218 00:15:11,275 --> 00:15:13,103 Typically, they'll come in, 219 00:15:13,103 --> 00:15:14,689 we'll sit, like, maybe on the bed, 220 00:15:14,689 --> 00:15:16,172 and then we'll just do some small talk 221 00:15:16,172 --> 00:15:17,689 and say, "Hey, what's up?" 222 00:15:17,689 --> 00:15:19,172 Like traffic or something, 223 00:15:19,172 --> 00:15:20,586 then we'll say, "Okay, let's do this." 224 00:15:20,586 --> 00:15:22,551 It's like, okay, let's get naked and let's do this. 225 00:15:23,379 --> 00:15:24,689 I understand that some people 226 00:15:24,689 --> 00:15:26,689 may think this is bizarre, what I do, 227 00:15:26,689 --> 00:15:29,103 but I'm helping a lot of families grow. 228 00:15:29,103 --> 00:15:31,862 And giving this gift to people feeds my soul. 229 00:15:32,689 --> 00:15:34,379 So essentially we finish 230 00:15:34,379 --> 00:15:37,000 and then I kind of stand [bleep] her. 231 00:15:37,689 --> 00:15:39,172 Kind of like this. 232 00:15:40,000 --> 00:15:42,068 And then she's kind of laid off the bed 233 00:15:42,068 --> 00:15:43,827 like a little handstand, 234 00:15:43,827 --> 00:15:45,620 and we stay like that for 10-15 min 235 00:15:45,620 --> 00:15:46,655 and then we pull out. 236 00:15:47,482 --> 00:15:50,275 Obviously, Ani knows that I donate sperm, 237 00:15:50,275 --> 00:15:52,689 but I'm worried once we meet in person, 238 00:15:52,689 --> 00:15:54,413 she may have questions, 239 00:15:54,413 --> 00:15:57,896 and she may be a little bit less comfortable with my hobby. 240 00:15:57,896 --> 00:15:59,689 So right now I'm just getting ready for donation, 241 00:15:59,689 --> 00:16:01,172 and I'm just brushing my teeth, 242 00:16:01,172 --> 00:16:02,586 washing my face a little bit. 243 00:16:05,689 --> 00:16:09,068 I've really fallen for Ani because she's so sexy. 244 00:16:09,068 --> 00:16:10,827 She's smart, she's funny, 245 00:16:10,827 --> 00:16:12,689 we both like travel. 246 00:16:12,689 --> 00:16:15,000 And my biggest fear about my trip to Malta 247 00:16:15,000 --> 00:16:17,379 is Ani won't accept my sperm donation 248 00:16:17,379 --> 00:16:18,586 and everything that comes with it, 249 00:16:18,586 --> 00:16:21,758 such as the intercourse part of it. 250 00:16:22,724 --> 00:16:24,827 But I'm hoping that me and Ani 251 00:16:24,827 --> 00:16:26,310 can build a relationship 252 00:16:26,310 --> 00:16:28,758 without me having to compromise who I am. 253 00:16:31,379 --> 00:16:34,379 I met a beautiful Brazilian. 254 00:16:34,379 --> 00:16:38,172 Alliya is dynamic and sexy and beautiful. 255 00:16:38,172 --> 00:16:39,379 She sounds perfect. 256 00:16:42,172 --> 00:16:43,379 Perfect. 257 00:16:43,379 --> 00:16:45,448 That's an interesting word. 258 00:16:50,275 --> 00:16:52,068 ♪ I'm gonna take it all the way ♪ 259 00:16:52,068 --> 00:16:53,862 ♪ When I hear the music play 260 00:16:53,862 --> 00:16:56,275 ♪ 'Cause baby I can't help myself ♪ 261 00:16:56,275 --> 00:16:58,862 ♪ I wanna danced the night away ♪ 262 00:16:58,862 --> 00:17:04,068 All right. So what do we wanna do with your hair today? 263 00:17:04,068 --> 00:17:08,103 I need to be blonded but I just want highlights. 264 00:17:08,103 --> 00:17:09,379 Okay? 265 00:17:09,379 --> 00:17:14,000 I'm Shawn. I'm 61 years old, and I live in New York City 266 00:17:14,000 --> 00:17:15,758 and also Los Angeles, California. 267 00:17:17,172 --> 00:17:20,689 Are we wanting like a bleach blonde or a neutral blonde? 268 00:17:20,689 --> 00:17:22,482 I only want highlights. 269 00:17:22,482 --> 00:17:23,586 I want a full weave. 270 00:17:23,586 --> 00:17:25,586 I don't want it to be really, really brassy. 271 00:17:25,586 --> 00:17:27,758 So I like it to be less. 272 00:17:27,758 --> 00:17:31,551 Okay. Um, sounds like you know what you're talking about. 273 00:17:31,551 --> 00:17:33,172 Well, I should know what I'm talking about, 274 00:17:33,172 --> 00:17:36,034 I've been in this business for blah, blah, blah years. 275 00:17:36,034 --> 00:17:37,689 I won't even say how long. So... 276 00:17:37,689 --> 00:17:39,896 - Oh, so... - So you're gonna have a difficult client. 277 00:17:39,896 --> 00:17:41,448 Great. No pressure, I guess. 278 00:17:41,448 --> 00:17:42,517 No pressure. 279 00:17:43,275 --> 00:17:46,793 I'm a hairstylist and do celebrity hair 280 00:17:46,793 --> 00:17:49,000 for television and film production. 281 00:17:49,000 --> 00:17:52,344 I've worked on shows like Desperate Housewives, 282 00:17:52,896 --> 00:17:54,793 Ugly Betty... 283 00:17:54,793 --> 00:17:57,758 I've gotten to work on The Voice. 284 00:17:57,758 --> 00:18:00,068 To watch somebody feel so good about themselves 285 00:18:00,068 --> 00:18:01,482 after I do what I do, 286 00:18:01,482 --> 00:18:04,758 has always been so exciting to me. 287 00:18:08,103 --> 00:18:10,896 So do you always get your hair highlighted? 288 00:18:10,896 --> 00:18:13,965 I have been brunette for the last several years, 289 00:18:13,965 --> 00:18:16,344 but I met someone. 290 00:18:16,344 --> 00:18:20,793 A beautiful Brazilian, and she prefers me blonde. 291 00:18:20,793 --> 00:18:23,068 She's in Brazil? How did you guys meet? 292 00:18:23,862 --> 00:18:26,103 Um, we actually met online. 293 00:18:26,793 --> 00:18:27,793 For the last three years, 294 00:18:27,793 --> 00:18:29,275 I've been involved with someone 295 00:18:29,275 --> 00:18:30,551 by the name of Alliya. 296 00:18:31,172 --> 00:18:32,482 She lives in Brazil, 297 00:18:32,482 --> 00:18:34,689 and she is the most amazing person 298 00:18:34,689 --> 00:18:35,655 I've ever met. 299 00:18:40,655 --> 00:18:43,586 Alliya is dynamic and sexy 300 00:18:43,586 --> 00:18:47,137 and beautiful. All the fantasy things. 301 00:18:47,137 --> 00:18:51,448 But she's also super smart, and she's got a good soul. 302 00:18:52,344 --> 00:18:53,517 She's the whole package. 303 00:18:54,172 --> 00:18:55,586 She sounds perfect. 304 00:18:55,586 --> 00:18:57,068 Yes, well... 305 00:18:59,758 --> 00:19:00,965 Perfect. 306 00:19:00,965 --> 00:19:03,172 That's an interesting word. 307 00:19:03,172 --> 00:19:04,758 What's going on? 308 00:19:04,758 --> 00:19:06,344 When I first met Alliya, 309 00:19:06,344 --> 00:19:09,965 she was he, and he was Douglas. 310 00:19:15,482 --> 00:19:17,344 Yeah, it's a little complicated. 311 00:19:19,586 --> 00:19:22,000 Alliya is biologically male. 312 00:19:22,000 --> 00:19:24,551 And when I met her, she went by Douglas. 313 00:19:26,551 --> 00:19:28,275 He would wear makeup, 314 00:19:28,275 --> 00:19:34,000 but always then have boy clothes, boy muscularity, boy hair. 315 00:19:34,000 --> 00:19:36,862 So I didn't think anything of it. 316 00:19:36,862 --> 00:19:40,000 And then about a year and a half into a relationship 317 00:19:40,000 --> 00:19:41,448 everything started to change. 318 00:19:43,689 --> 00:19:46,793 We were in Spain to participate in gay pride, 319 00:19:46,793 --> 00:19:51,172 and Douglas was asked to be on a float. 320 00:19:51,172 --> 00:19:55,344 And so I said, "Well, have you ever like gone in drag or put on a wig?" 321 00:19:55,344 --> 00:19:57,551 And he said, "No, I've never done that." 322 00:19:57,551 --> 00:19:59,862 And I go, "Well, do you want to? 323 00:19:59,862 --> 00:20:03,586 Because this is my wheelhouse, this is what I do. So..." 324 00:20:03,586 --> 00:20:05,689 Okay, let's go wig shopping. 325 00:20:05,689 --> 00:20:08,241 So basically, I mean, once he put that 326 00:20:08,241 --> 00:20:10,689 very first wig on his head, 327 00:20:10,689 --> 00:20:15,344 he just changed and immediately was a new person. 328 00:20:17,068 --> 00:20:18,862 He just beamed. 329 00:20:18,862 --> 00:20:20,689 And then when I saw him on the float, 330 00:20:20,689 --> 00:20:25,000 and he's usually shy, quiet, introverted, 331 00:20:25,000 --> 00:20:27,586 and now he's dancing and smiling 332 00:20:27,586 --> 00:20:31,482 and, you know, I'm like, "Who is this?" 333 00:20:31,482 --> 00:20:33,517 Like, what? What? 334 00:20:35,172 --> 00:20:39,862 And I think that's when Alliya was born. 335 00:20:43,689 --> 00:20:46,689 So you really are part of the whole journey 336 00:20:46,689 --> 00:20:48,551 from Douglas to Alliya. 337 00:20:48,551 --> 00:20:51,137 Yeah, and at the moment, 338 00:20:51,137 --> 00:20:53,379 since I haven't seen Alliya in a long time 339 00:20:53,379 --> 00:20:57,448 and she's progressed in her journey, um, 340 00:20:57,448 --> 00:20:59,172 I feel like I'm a little left behind 341 00:20:59,172 --> 00:21:00,448 and I need to catch up. 342 00:21:02,275 --> 00:21:04,482 I always saw it as Douglas is Douglas, 343 00:21:04,482 --> 00:21:07,379 and that Alliya was a persona. 344 00:21:07,379 --> 00:21:12,034 Something fun, something to do on a special occasion. 345 00:21:12,034 --> 00:21:13,689 And now it's been about eight months 346 00:21:13,689 --> 00:21:15,241 since we've seen each other last, 347 00:21:15,241 --> 00:21:18,689 and things are starting to shift rapidly 348 00:21:18,689 --> 00:21:21,275 and she's said to me, 349 00:21:21,275 --> 00:21:25,275 "Well, there's no more Douglas." 350 00:21:25,275 --> 00:21:28,482 But I don't know what that really means. 351 00:21:28,482 --> 00:21:30,896 And I felt like I'm not asking. 352 00:21:30,896 --> 00:21:35,551 I don't know if I'm not asking 'cause I'm in like some sort of denial. 353 00:21:35,551 --> 00:21:39,000 Since I'm the one that said, "Let's explore." 354 00:21:39,000 --> 00:21:41,379 I'm the one that opened the Pandora's box, 355 00:21:41,379 --> 00:21:45,620 and now I don't know where our future is going from here. 356 00:21:50,137 --> 00:21:52,344 So, it is a big deal for you, right? 357 00:21:52,344 --> 00:21:54,344 Like you-- You met... 358 00:21:55,034 --> 00:21:58,275 her as Doug, and now she's Alliya. 359 00:21:58,275 --> 00:22:00,241 Yeah. It's had its difficulties. 360 00:22:01,137 --> 00:22:02,551 I've never really liked labels 361 00:22:02,551 --> 00:22:05,241 as far as describing my sexuality. 362 00:22:05,241 --> 00:22:07,655 I've always been attracted to girls and boys. 363 00:22:08,689 --> 00:22:11,655 I was married to a woman for 14 years. 364 00:22:12,172 --> 00:22:13,689 Then we divorced, 365 00:22:13,689 --> 00:22:20,034 and I have been having relationships with primarily men. 366 00:22:20,034 --> 00:22:22,344 One of the things that attracted me first with Douglas 367 00:22:22,344 --> 00:22:24,965 was his physique and his look. 368 00:22:25,862 --> 00:22:28,689 So I'm worried. Will our sex life change? 369 00:22:28,689 --> 00:22:33,034 Will the dynamic of how we interact be different? 370 00:22:33,896 --> 00:22:35,172 I'm feeling... 371 00:22:36,275 --> 00:22:39,793 only conflicted to the extent of... 372 00:22:39,793 --> 00:22:44,000 If she fully transitions to be Alliya 373 00:22:44,000 --> 00:22:49,275 100% and be 100% female, I'm gonna lose Douglas, 374 00:22:49,275 --> 00:22:53,482 and there's some weird mourning for me. 375 00:22:53,482 --> 00:22:55,793 I'm just not quite ready to give up Douglas. 376 00:22:55,793 --> 00:22:56,965 Mmm-hmm. 377 00:23:05,241 --> 00:23:07,896 Next week, I'm on my way to see Alliya, 378 00:23:07,896 --> 00:23:11,000 and obviously, we have a lot to go over. 379 00:23:11,000 --> 00:23:15,758 I need to figure out if this new transition 380 00:23:15,758 --> 00:23:19,379 is Alliya just wearing more makeup and hair 381 00:23:19,379 --> 00:23:24,379 or is this Alliya transitioning fully. 382 00:23:24,379 --> 00:23:26,862 Hormones, surgery. 383 00:23:27,689 --> 00:23:31,793 I fear that if Douglas does transition 384 00:23:31,793 --> 00:23:34,413 from male to female from top to bottom, 385 00:23:35,275 --> 00:23:38,862 our love could change, my feelings could change. 386 00:23:40,586 --> 00:23:43,000 I fell in love with Douglas. 387 00:23:45,241 --> 00:23:49,000 And now you're asking me to kill Douglas. 388 00:23:51,172 --> 00:23:52,965 I can't kill Douglas. 389 00:23:53,275 --> 00:23:54,413 So... 390 00:23:56,689 --> 00:23:59,000 - What we do for love. - Right? 391 00:23:59,000 --> 00:24:00,551 This is all for love. 392 00:24:07,000 --> 00:24:09,000 How bad is your financial situation? 393 00:24:09,000 --> 00:24:11,241 I'll be honest with you, man. It's super bad. 394 00:24:11,241 --> 00:24:16,172 Since meeting Madelein, I have spent almost $100,000 sending money to her. 395 00:24:16,172 --> 00:24:19,344 I'm paying for an apartment down there, her car, food 396 00:24:19,344 --> 00:24:21,586 as well as all my expenses here. 397 00:24:21,586 --> 00:24:23,448 She sounds kind of like... like a leech. 398 00:24:44,586 --> 00:24:47,172 I've been a mining engineer for seven years now. 399 00:24:48,344 --> 00:24:51,068 And I make a lot of money doing it. 400 00:24:51,068 --> 00:24:54,275 But about a month ago I was let go. 401 00:24:54,275 --> 00:24:57,586 Because, I was taking too much time off work 402 00:24:57,586 --> 00:25:00,931 visiting my fiance, Madelein, in Colombia. 403 00:25:01,793 --> 00:25:04,275 How's it going, buddy? 404 00:25:04,275 --> 00:25:07,172 - Good. Love you, man. - Thank you so much for helping me out, man. 405 00:25:07,172 --> 00:25:08,620 I'm just wiping this down. 406 00:25:09,896 --> 00:25:12,482 - And then after, you could take me back. - Yeah. 407 00:25:12,482 --> 00:25:15,275 Now, I have to return the company vehicle. 408 00:25:15,275 --> 00:25:19,586 So, my friend Michael has agreed to follow me back to the office. 409 00:25:19,586 --> 00:25:20,965 And then he's gonna take me home. 410 00:25:22,586 --> 00:25:24,000 Sorry to hear about this job. 411 00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:25,689 You know, I know you love what you did. 412 00:25:25,689 --> 00:25:26,931 So, what's next? 413 00:25:28,448 --> 00:25:29,620 A really good question. 414 00:25:30,482 --> 00:25:31,551 I'm a little worried. 415 00:25:31,551 --> 00:25:33,000 Hmm. How bad is it? 416 00:25:33,000 --> 00:25:35,000 How bad is your financial situation? 417 00:25:35,000 --> 00:25:37,275 I'll be honest with you, man. It's super bad. 418 00:25:37,275 --> 00:25:41,068 I-- I don't have any money. 419 00:25:41,068 --> 00:25:44,586 As I'm leaving this job, I'm pulling my 401k. All of it. 420 00:25:44,586 --> 00:25:46,896 - You liquidated it all? - Liquidated it. 421 00:25:46,896 --> 00:25:48,448 It's kind of my only option right now. 422 00:25:49,275 --> 00:25:50,689 Over the past year and a half, 423 00:25:50,689 --> 00:25:55,034 I've invested over $500,000 into startup businesses. 424 00:25:55,034 --> 00:25:58,103 I have invested in a jewelry company, 425 00:25:58,103 --> 00:26:01,448 I've developed a lifestyle brand, a travel agency, 426 00:26:01,448 --> 00:26:04,551 and I'm trying to get a clothing line off the ground as well. 427 00:26:06,482 --> 00:26:09,862 But, I have not turned to profit yet. 428 00:26:09,862 --> 00:26:14,379 The only thing that was keeping me afloat was my salary. 429 00:26:14,379 --> 00:26:16,482 Now, I don't have any savings. 430 00:26:16,482 --> 00:26:17,965 Plus, I have a mountain of debt. 431 00:26:19,275 --> 00:26:20,413 I've dug a hole. 432 00:26:22,172 --> 00:26:23,551 And I don't know if I can get out. 433 00:26:24,758 --> 00:26:27,965 If it was just me that I had to worry about, 434 00:26:27,965 --> 00:26:29,862 I would be a lot better off. 435 00:26:29,862 --> 00:26:32,896 - But because I have Madelein. - Wow. 436 00:26:32,896 --> 00:26:34,448 I'm paying for her apartment down there, 437 00:26:34,448 --> 00:26:37,068 I'm paying for her car, food, 438 00:26:37,068 --> 00:26:40,137 as well as all my expenses here. 439 00:26:40,137 --> 00:26:45,793 Since meeting Madelein, I have spent almost $100,000, sending money to her. 440 00:26:45,793 --> 00:26:49,172 I'm not happy with the amount of money that I have sent. 441 00:26:49,172 --> 00:26:50,724 But I love her. 442 00:26:50,724 --> 00:26:55,724 I'm a people pleaser, and I want my partner, above all else, to be happy. 443 00:26:56,586 --> 00:26:59,068 She's done this much... 444 00:26:59,068 --> 00:27:00,379 - Well, I mean-- - ...financially. 445 00:27:00,379 --> 00:27:04,793 To date, she hasn't quite contributed as much financially. 446 00:27:04,793 --> 00:27:06,137 - Well, let me ask you this. - Yeah. 447 00:27:06,137 --> 00:27:09,000 If you didn't front any money, 448 00:27:09,000 --> 00:27:11,482 do you think it'd be the same type of relationship? 449 00:27:11,482 --> 00:27:12,965 The same love? 450 00:27:12,965 --> 00:27:15,000 I like to think that she loves me for who I am. 451 00:27:15,000 --> 00:27:17,655 I mean, I don't wanna cause any drama. 452 00:27:17,655 --> 00:27:19,758 But she sounds kind of like... like a leech. 453 00:27:24,103 --> 00:27:27,896 I know how it can be perceived. 454 00:27:27,896 --> 00:27:31,034 But I'm just trying to be as positive as possible. 455 00:27:31,965 --> 00:27:33,275 He's spending all of his money, 456 00:27:33,275 --> 00:27:35,965 all of his savings, all of his retirement. 457 00:27:35,965 --> 00:27:38,896 He lost his job due to time management, 458 00:27:38,896 --> 00:27:41,068 'cause he was focusing it all on her. 459 00:27:41,068 --> 00:27:44,103 I think Luke is, in a lot of ways, blinded by love. 460 00:27:44,103 --> 00:27:46,965 And I'm still trying to figure out what he gets in return. 461 00:27:47,793 --> 00:27:49,896 How much in the know is Madelein? 462 00:27:49,896 --> 00:27:53,448 She does not know about the job situation. 463 00:27:53,448 --> 00:27:54,793 You haven't told her? 464 00:27:54,793 --> 00:27:58,034 - Mmm-mmm. - So the backbone of the relationship is what? 465 00:27:59,068 --> 00:28:00,172 My love for her. 466 00:28:00,172 --> 00:28:03,137 - Oh, my goodness. - Yeah. 467 00:28:03,137 --> 00:28:05,344 I'm going to Colombia in three days. 468 00:28:05,344 --> 00:28:09,344 I know I have to tell Madelein about my financial situation. 469 00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:12,103 But I'm really scared 470 00:28:12,103 --> 00:28:16,241 because she might think less of me as a man. 471 00:28:16,241 --> 00:28:19,068 And less of me as a provider. 472 00:28:19,068 --> 00:28:21,379 It will be a real, true test of her character. 473 00:28:21,379 --> 00:28:22,862 Yeah. 474 00:28:22,862 --> 00:28:25,517 I hope I still have a fiance at the end of it, man. 475 00:28:27,655 --> 00:28:30,551 Another thing Madelein and I have to talk about 476 00:28:30,551 --> 00:28:32,758 is that I can't officially move 477 00:28:32,758 --> 00:28:35,586 until I get my finances in order. 478 00:28:35,586 --> 00:28:39,000 And honestly, I don't know how long that's gonna take. 479 00:28:40,448 --> 00:28:42,275 I'm worried that she might think 480 00:28:42,275 --> 00:28:44,793 that this relationship is too difficult to deal with, 481 00:28:44,793 --> 00:28:47,620 that she might move on to somebody else. 482 00:28:48,655 --> 00:28:52,000 I have given her my heart on a silver platter. 483 00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:54,448 And I hope that she doesn't break it. 484 00:28:54,448 --> 00:28:59,034 Do you ever stop and think, you know, "What am I doing?" 485 00:28:59,034 --> 00:29:00,241 Like, have you had that moment? 486 00:29:00,241 --> 00:29:01,551 That oh, [bleep] moment? 487 00:29:02,551 --> 00:29:04,724 I think I'm having that moment right now, man. 488 00:29:09,758 --> 00:29:12,275 You need to earn my loving. 489 00:29:12,275 --> 00:29:14,000 There's points. We do a point system. 490 00:29:14,000 --> 00:29:15,344 No. We're not doing a point system. 491 00:29:15,344 --> 00:29:16,965 We are definitely doing a point system. 492 00:29:17,793 --> 00:29:19,862 With three points, she gets a kiss. 493 00:29:19,862 --> 00:29:22,965 And with ten points, she gets full on sex. 494 00:29:22,965 --> 00:29:24,793 You don't know what you're talking about right now. 495 00:29:24,793 --> 00:29:26,551 I definitely know what I'm talking about. 496 00:29:26,551 --> 00:29:28,482 If you would have ever a proper relationship, 497 00:29:28,482 --> 00:29:30,034 then you wouldn't go on these... 498 00:29:37,862 --> 00:29:40,689 ♪ Kickin' it poolside 499 00:29:40,689 --> 00:29:43,482 ♪ Hits with a grapefruit Polka dot swimsuit ♪ 500 00:29:43,482 --> 00:29:46,551 ♪ Takin' that slow dive 501 00:29:46,551 --> 00:29:49,655 ♪ Sinking with you To the bottom of the pool ♪ 502 00:29:56,793 --> 00:29:58,000 Today is finally the day 503 00:29:58,000 --> 00:30:02,137 where I'm going to meet Kyle after seven months. 504 00:30:02,137 --> 00:30:07,103 And I am so excited and nervous at the same time. 505 00:30:07,103 --> 00:30:10,448 It just feels "whoo". You know, intense. 506 00:30:11,034 --> 00:30:12,034 So nervous. 507 00:30:12,655 --> 00:30:15,034 I don't know what I'm doing. 508 00:30:15,379 --> 00:30:17,172 Like, ooh! 509 00:30:17,172 --> 00:30:20,689 My son is with his dad now for the next two weeks 510 00:30:20,689 --> 00:30:23,862 so that Kyle and me can spend time together. 511 00:30:24,379 --> 00:30:25,448 All right. 512 00:30:30,689 --> 00:30:32,758 I just hope that when we see each other, 513 00:30:32,758 --> 00:30:38,310 that there will be just happiness and this feeling of belonging to each other. 514 00:30:43,551 --> 00:30:45,896 And I never thought 515 00:30:45,896 --> 00:30:48,103 that we are going to have a relationship. 516 00:30:48,482 --> 00:30:49,482 Never. 517 00:30:49,482 --> 00:30:52,758 But over the last seven months, 518 00:30:52,758 --> 00:30:56,862 sharing text messages, sharing our feelings for each other, 519 00:30:56,862 --> 00:30:58,172 I feel very special. 520 00:30:58,172 --> 00:31:00,344 I feel like our connection is very special. 521 00:31:02,551 --> 00:31:04,758 Which I completely fell in love with. 522 00:31:06,448 --> 00:31:08,448 I'm freaking out. 523 00:31:08,448 --> 00:31:10,241 I'm just freaking out, literally. 524 00:31:12,137 --> 00:31:15,379 I'm completely fine with Kyle's past. 525 00:31:15,379 --> 00:31:17,551 But if we have a future together, 526 00:31:17,551 --> 00:31:19,551 a lot of things have to change. 527 00:31:26,896 --> 00:31:29,000 If I would have it my way, 528 00:31:29,000 --> 00:31:31,344 I want Kyle to stop it completely. 529 00:31:32,172 --> 00:31:35,344 Or at least he has to sacrifice... 530 00:31:37,379 --> 00:31:39,655 Because, I would never accept 531 00:31:39,655 --> 00:31:41,586 him having sex with other women 532 00:31:41,586 --> 00:31:43,413 while we are in a relationship. 533 00:31:57,896 --> 00:31:59,620 I'm feeling sick in my stomach. 534 00:32:04,586 --> 00:32:06,241 Oh, my God. I think I see him. 535 00:32:07,793 --> 00:32:09,172 Yeah, I think I see him. 536 00:32:09,172 --> 00:32:10,965 Oh, my God. This is so crazy. 537 00:32:13,344 --> 00:32:15,482 This this is just so crazy. 538 00:32:15,482 --> 00:32:18,758 Oh, my God. This is so crazy. I just-- 539 00:32:19,655 --> 00:32:20,896 Hi. 540 00:32:22,344 --> 00:32:25,482 ♪ Feeling forever So wild and so free ♪ 541 00:32:25,482 --> 00:32:27,137 Oh, my God. Glad you're here. 542 00:32:27,137 --> 00:32:28,862 Oh, my God. Oh, my God. 543 00:32:28,862 --> 00:32:30,655 I'm blushing a little bit. 544 00:32:30,655 --> 00:32:32,586 Kind of, kind of makes me blush a little bit. 545 00:32:32,586 --> 00:32:34,793 All right. 546 00:32:34,793 --> 00:32:36,655 - I got nervous, I guess. - Yeah. 547 00:32:36,655 --> 00:32:39,551 We're doing another hug because we're... Oh, my God. 548 00:32:39,551 --> 00:32:41,827 - I just don't know. - God, you smell so good. 549 00:32:42,655 --> 00:32:45,034 I could just eat you up right now. 550 00:32:45,034 --> 00:32:47,172 ♪ Look how far we've come 551 00:32:47,172 --> 00:32:50,758 I think she looks a lot sexier in person than she did online, for sure. 552 00:32:50,758 --> 00:32:52,000 - Oh, really? - Yeah. 553 00:32:52,000 --> 00:32:53,551 - What? - Yeah. For sure, way sexier. 554 00:32:54,344 --> 00:32:56,413 Kyle has the cutest brown eyes. 555 00:32:57,586 --> 00:32:58,896 I love your eyes. 556 00:32:58,896 --> 00:33:01,172 Aw... You're crying. 557 00:33:01,172 --> 00:33:02,793 Kyle is so emotional. 558 00:33:02,793 --> 00:33:05,275 I mean, I just saw her for the first time. 559 00:33:05,275 --> 00:33:07,724 - Aw... - So, yeah. It's a dream come true. 560 00:33:09,448 --> 00:33:11,172 - I'm so excited to see you. - Uh-huh. 561 00:33:11,172 --> 00:33:12,655 I feel like nothing changed. 562 00:33:12,655 --> 00:33:14,793 Like, I feel like it's the-- the same connection. 563 00:33:14,793 --> 00:33:17,000 - Oh, okay. - And I think you're so cute. 564 00:33:17,000 --> 00:33:19,896 You're trying to get me in the mood already, on the first date. 565 00:33:19,896 --> 00:33:21,689 We gotta take it slow. 566 00:33:21,689 --> 00:33:25,034 - Oh, my God. I'm like-- - You gotta wait two or three days for a kiss... 567 00:33:25,034 --> 00:33:28,758 - Oh, God. - And then everything else, you have to wait more. 568 00:33:30,172 --> 00:33:34,137 You need to earn my loving. You have to earn it. 569 00:33:34,137 --> 00:33:35,862 There's points. We do a point system. 570 00:33:35,862 --> 00:33:37,344 No. We're not doing a point system. 571 00:33:37,344 --> 00:33:38,862 We are definitely doing a point system. 572 00:33:40,379 --> 00:33:41,965 Ani can earn or loose points 573 00:33:41,965 --> 00:33:43,551 by doing good and bad things. 574 00:33:43,551 --> 00:33:45,068 Like, for instance, smoking a cigarette. 575 00:33:45,068 --> 00:33:46,655 That's one point gone. 576 00:33:46,655 --> 00:33:48,482 Oh, my God. I lose a lot of points then. 577 00:33:48,482 --> 00:33:51,068 Drinking wine. She loses one point. 578 00:33:51,068 --> 00:33:53,103 Eating healthy, that gets her points. 579 00:33:53,103 --> 00:33:55,655 Smelling good, that gets her points. She smells good. 580 00:33:55,655 --> 00:33:57,000 - Okay. - So, she got a point for that. 581 00:33:57,000 --> 00:33:58,620 I'm making you work for stuff. 582 00:33:59,275 --> 00:34:01,241 For love and affection from me. 583 00:34:03,655 --> 00:34:05,448 Maybe. If you're a good girl. 584 00:34:05,448 --> 00:34:06,551 - We'll see how it goes. - Oh, my... 585 00:34:06,551 --> 00:34:08,310 You have to... You have to earn it. 586 00:34:08,482 --> 00:34:09,448 All right. 587 00:34:09,448 --> 00:34:11,793 With three points, she gets a kiss. 588 00:34:11,793 --> 00:34:14,758 With five points, she gets a tongue kiss. 589 00:34:14,758 --> 00:34:16,551 And with ten points, 590 00:34:17,068 --> 00:34:18,586 she gets full on sex. 591 00:34:18,586 --> 00:34:21,068 And I think that's a good plan. 592 00:34:21,068 --> 00:34:23,413 I feel nervous. Just nervous. 593 00:34:25,241 --> 00:34:28,034 I just don't wanna jump in the bed with Ani 594 00:34:28,034 --> 00:34:31,586 because that's what I do with a woman for sperm donation. 595 00:34:31,586 --> 00:34:33,793 It's much more clinical. 596 00:34:33,793 --> 00:34:37,379 Where, with Ani, I want to build our emotional connection first 597 00:34:37,379 --> 00:34:39,241 before getting physical. 598 00:34:39,241 --> 00:34:41,172 And by having this point system, 599 00:34:41,172 --> 00:34:43,275 that's the best way to do that. 600 00:34:43,275 --> 00:34:45,103 I think the problem is, 601 00:34:45,103 --> 00:34:47,379 you never had a really stable relationship. 602 00:34:47,379 --> 00:34:49,689 So, you don't know what you're talking about right now. 603 00:34:49,689 --> 00:34:51,344 I definitely know what I'm talking about. 604 00:34:51,344 --> 00:34:53,862 No. I think if you would have ever a proper relationship, 605 00:34:53,862 --> 00:34:55,344 then you wouldn't go on these... 606 00:34:57,275 --> 00:34:59,551 You're so sexy when you get kind of upset. 607 00:35:02,896 --> 00:35:05,310 Our first meeting is a bit confusing. 608 00:35:08,379 --> 00:35:09,344 I don't like that. 609 00:35:19,482 --> 00:35:22,275 I still do have butterflies for him. 610 00:35:22,275 --> 00:35:27,862 But his lack of experience is so obvious. 611 00:35:29,137 --> 00:35:31,586 So, I hope he can learn fast. 612 00:35:31,586 --> 00:35:36,310 If not, this is going to be the longest two weeks ever of my life. 613 00:35:41,793 --> 00:35:45,758 Shawn's coming today, and I'm very excited. 614 00:36:27,000 --> 00:36:29,586 Looking all bad. Ah! 615 00:36:29,586 --> 00:36:31,965 I haven't seen Douglas in eight months. 616 00:36:32,862 --> 00:36:34,758 And in the time of this eight months, 617 00:36:34,758 --> 00:36:37,000 Douglas has slowly been disappearing, 618 00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:39,965 and Alliya's been more appearing. 619 00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:45,034 I guess the only thing I'm a little nervous about is, 620 00:36:46,482 --> 00:36:49,413 if I'm gonna only see Alliya on this trip, 621 00:36:49,413 --> 00:36:52,551 or if I'll see Douglas, too. 622 00:36:52,551 --> 00:36:56,724 About a year ago, I started planning an epic proposal. 623 00:36:57,758 --> 00:36:59,965 I knew I could marry Douglas, but... 624 00:36:59,965 --> 00:37:02,724 I'm unsure if I could marry Alliya. 625 00:37:03,448 --> 00:37:05,000 For me, it was very clear before. 626 00:37:05,000 --> 00:37:07,034 Like, we're doing Alliya tonight. 627 00:37:07,034 --> 00:37:09,896 And tomorrow, when we wake up, it's Douglas. 628 00:37:09,896 --> 00:37:14,620 I'm gonna have a weird headspace if we're Alliya 24/7. 629 00:37:14,620 --> 00:37:17,000 So, I'm hoping, when I get to Brazil 630 00:37:17,000 --> 00:37:18,793 and I spend time with Alliya, 631 00:37:18,793 --> 00:37:21,551 that I will still be able to see Douglas within Alliya. 632 00:37:21,551 --> 00:37:25,172 I mean, I'm hoping she'll melt them together. 633 00:37:25,172 --> 00:37:28,724 You know, she's found something that's giving her happiness. 634 00:37:28,724 --> 00:37:30,000 I want that happiness. 635 00:37:30,000 --> 00:37:33,965 I just don't want to totally give up Douglas. 636 00:38:29,724 --> 00:38:30,758 I love it. 637 00:40:07,310 --> 00:40:10,413 We are together around three years now, 638 00:40:10,413 --> 00:40:12,379 and he makes me so happy. 639 00:40:13,344 --> 00:40:14,724 When I'm with Shawn... 640 00:41:11,793 --> 00:41:13,827 Hi. 641 00:42:28,724 --> 00:42:31,206 This season on Love in Paradise... 642 00:42:31,206 --> 00:42:33,241 ♪ Tonight it's just you and me ♪ 643 00:42:33,241 --> 00:42:35,724 ♪ We can just get away 644 00:42:35,724 --> 00:42:37,206 Tonight is all about... 645 00:42:38,448 --> 00:42:41,344 ♪ If I say ooh, daddy, daddy Ooh, daddy, daddy, ooh ♪ 646 00:42:45,896 --> 00:42:47,965 I've kind of had my doubts, 647 00:42:47,965 --> 00:42:50,896 especially what he said about Tiffany. 648 00:42:50,896 --> 00:42:52,896 What do you think about Tiffany? 649 00:42:52,896 --> 00:42:55,068 He said that he wouldn't mind 650 00:42:55,068 --> 00:42:57,206 having a threesome with me and Tiffany. 651 00:42:57,206 --> 00:42:58,586 Girl, hell no. 652 00:42:58,586 --> 00:43:02,551 Adriano wants to have a threesome with me and her. 653 00:43:02,551 --> 00:43:04,620 He's thinking about having sex with my cousin. 654 00:43:04,620 --> 00:43:06,068 That's not okay. 655 00:43:06,068 --> 00:43:08,896 You can't just say, "Oh, I'm looking at your cousin's booty. 656 00:43:08,896 --> 00:43:09,862 How you doing today?" 657 00:43:09,862 --> 00:43:11,413 It's getting stupid. 658 00:43:14,137 --> 00:43:17,206 Alliya's way different than Douglas was. 659 00:43:32,862 --> 00:43:35,241 I think I have to be able to donate on some level. 660 00:43:35,241 --> 00:43:36,896 I'd rather you accept it. 661 00:43:36,896 --> 00:43:38,586 Like, do you think I like that? 662 00:43:38,586 --> 00:43:40,206 This is insane. 663 00:43:42,034 --> 00:43:43,724 Oh, my God. 664 00:43:44,586 --> 00:43:45,896 I love Shawn. 665 00:43:45,896 --> 00:43:50,310 If Shawn loves me, that means accepting me as Alliya now, 666 00:43:50,310 --> 00:43:52,275 and letting Douglas go. 667 00:43:57,344 --> 00:44:01,172 The prenup is something that I will not budge on. 668 00:44:01,172 --> 00:44:03,655 Because I think that I am the best opportunity 669 00:44:03,655 --> 00:44:05,103 - that you have. - Best opportunity 670 00:44:05,862 --> 00:44:06,931 you I think I have it? 671 00:44:10,275 --> 00:44:12,344 Where is the [bleep] money? 672 00:44:12,344 --> 00:44:14,448 I don't see the money. 673 00:44:14,448 --> 00:44:15,586 I've made up my mind. 674 00:44:17,137 --> 00:44:18,482 Everybody made mistakes. 675 00:44:18,482 --> 00:44:19,379 There are just certain mistakes 676 00:44:19,379 --> 00:44:21,344 I just cannot tolerate.