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It wasn't meant
to end this way.

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All the previous residencies
at this Institute went smoothly,

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yet somehow
the cracks were showing

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from the very beginning
with this month's collective.

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Wider.

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Wider, please.

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Why?

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Sorry, that's what
the director asked for.

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And you obey her every command?

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- A suggestion more
than a command.

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But feel free to try something
different if you so wish.

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Jan Stevens.

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Beginning as you mean
to go on, then?

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I just like to be in control
of how I'm portrayed.

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Don't we all?

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But may I suggest
a more conciliatory tone

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with our dossierge here.

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He's just doing his job.

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By God, you have strong breath.

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Sorry.

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- And an acute case of reflux.

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Which might explain
the extraordinary stench.

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You're just
experiencing heartburn

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or are there other problems?

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- Bloating, perhaps,
and...

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maybe wind?

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You mean flatulence?

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Yes.

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How unfortunate.

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Well, I can prescribe
something,

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and we can take a view on
how things are in a few weeks.

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But I suspect

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that one might do well to heed
the teachings of Hippocrates

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in this instance.

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What do you think?

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You do know Hippocrates?

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I know the name but...

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You're a writer and
you haven't read Hippocrates?

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- I'm just a hack.

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And hacks don't read?

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Well, maybe I've read something,

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but I can't remember right now

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with this anxiety
and these problems.

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"Let food be thy medicine."

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Remarkable how such a simple
yet profound tenet

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can last through the centuries.

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But besides a sensible diet,

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it might serve you well not to
eat too close to your bedtime.

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And if you raise your pillow,
it might prevent any

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excess acid from surging
and making you

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whispered about unfavorably
by your boss.

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Thank you.

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- And I trust that
this bill will go to her?

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Yes.

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The life of a hack.

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I know several writers
who would claim

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that such work is beneath them.

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You must know some
wealthy writers, then.

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- I couldn't imagine
anything worse than your job.

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Having to humor and indulge
a different set

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of feckless faux provocateurs
each month.

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Still, one might argue that
it can't be any worse

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than peering into foul-smelling
orifices for a living.

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Sorry.

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And who's in residence
this month?

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Silence from an audience
was always my fear.

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And anything I could do to break
that silence

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became more important
than anything else.

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To hear a laugh, a gasp,

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a cry, or even a protest

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was validation.

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To taste their shock is
to be controlled by it.

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And, with that, the need to go
further and further

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into oblivion.

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Cooking and performing
is always a hazard.

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I could tell you about
countless accidents

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with other collectives here.

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This was not an accident.

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- Why?

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- Because the applause
would be ecstatic.

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The pain was an insignificance.

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You don't see?

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I'm not a performer.

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Yes, but you write.

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You're still looking
for validation.

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If I hear the sound
of a page turning,

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I'm content.

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Maybe you'd feel differently
if it was your work.

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Why don't you try?

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Some might argue that even
an instruction manual

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has some imprint
from the writer.

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So, there is something of you
in what you write about me?

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And how much of you is in this?

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- You mean the performance?

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Everything.

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And Billy and Lamina?

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- They're here to realize
what's in me.

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And that's how they see it?

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- Not quite.

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Sometimes they try to put
their stamp on things,

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especially Lamina.

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- But you're a collective?

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Every collective
needs a leader.

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And, besides, I could
replace them

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and nothing would change.

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And you want to replace them?

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We'll see.

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I love them...

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but sometimes love can mean
more by walking away.

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- Wouldn't it be easier
to compromise?

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No.

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That's what they all say
when they come in here.

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I thought you believed
in creative freedom.

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To a degree.

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But give anyone too much freedom
in anything

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and it's often
counterproductive.

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I wish you luck, Director.

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I'm not going to steamroller
over her,

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and I'm not going to
give her notes

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for the sake of giving notes,

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but if I feel something is going
in the wrong direction,

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I need to voice it.

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It's not as if I haven't
given free rein

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to other Sonic Caterers.

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Has she decided on a name?

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Elle and The Fatty Acids,

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but she wants to sleep on it.

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She really has to decide
before we go to print.

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She can't keep changing
her mind like this.

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Jan Stevens.

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- We don't take kindly
to being ignored.

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They're still not
leaving you alone?

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My distance from the group was
more to do with gastric discomfort

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rather than any pretense
of journalistic courtesy.

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Standing as far back as possible
was simply out of a need

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to relieve any trapped wind
without consequence.

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Technical Assistant Wim didn't make
it any easier with his contempt

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for me and anyone else
who set foot in the Institute.

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For every fecal expulsion
I would have to flush simultaneously

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in the hope that
the group wouldn't hear

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in the guesthouse we shared
opposite the Institute.

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The flatulence was relentless,
only it was seldom malodorous.

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The constant effort of holding in
or disguising my farts

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all began to feel like
a performance in itself.

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The thinking walks in the grounds
of the Sonic Catering Institute

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would last just under an hour:

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a vital part of their process
that they wanted me to document.

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No words were ever spoken

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and the silence opened up
the doubts and fears

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that could not be voiced
when I was interviewing them.

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Dr. Glock's medicine
didn't relieve anything

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and the extreme discomfort
of holding in wind

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became a social nightmare.

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I craved solitude

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and if I couldn't find solitude,
I craved noise:

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the noise of each culinary
collective in residence.

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Noise that could cleanse,
that could purify

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and make me forget

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as well as make others
unable to hear my farts.

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However, the greatest test
for my disruptive stomach

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was to come during
the meet and greet

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with the Institute's
board members

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followed by the first of the so-called
after-dinner speeches.

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Jan Stevens.

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- Nobody rejects us
and lives to tell the tale!

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"Make sure the table is laid
in a tasteful manner

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and the condiments are..."

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What?

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They're waiting for you.

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Tell them I'm not ready.

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It's just a speech.

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It's not like it's a big deal.

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Oh, really?

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I'll remind you of that
when it's your turn.

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Yeah. Whatever.

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And, Billy...

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applaud with enthusiasm
this time.

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Okay?

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"Always remember to put a beer
in the fridge."

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For a journalist,
you don't talk much.

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I'm not really a journalist.

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I'm just hired
to document things here.

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So, what would I call you then?

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Jan Stevens calls me
"the dossierge."

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And what would you
call yourself?

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I don't know.

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I write.

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- Write what?

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Thoughts, feelings...

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questions.

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You mean stories?

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I don't know if you can
call them stories.

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And where can I read those

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"thoughts, feelings,
and questions"?

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You'd have to burgle me
to read them.

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- Why don't you
get them published?

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I tried, but it's not easy.

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Meanwhile, I need to make
some money, so...

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Ladies and gentlemen,
may I have your attention?

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It gives me great pleasure
to introduce

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our first after-dinner speech
of the residency.

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Whilst we mostly encourage
the artistic pursuit

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of alimentary
and culinary salvation

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to be done as
public performance,

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the after-dinner speech
offers more relaxed,

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convivial surroundings

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in which to continue
our investigation

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into an array
of interculinary disciplines

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and experiment with anecdotes,
or just simple ideas

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that maybe wouldn't work
on a less intimate canvas.

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Elle di Elle's speech,
she tells me, will --

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- "Speech" is maybe

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too reductive a term
for what I'm about to do.

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For what I will read
is found text and it comes

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from an old house-making manual
that belonged to my mother.

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"Edna May's Supper School."

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"Lively recipes and fun tips
to preserve your man's love."

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As a child, I wanted to be
the model housewife

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and this book was my bible

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until I began to question
what I was reading.

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I once saw my mother wipe away
a tear in the kitchen,

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and she tried to pretend
it was the onions,

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but I could see how tired
she was compared to my father,

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who was often pretending
to work upstairs,

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but just masturbating
to the Tennis Ladies' Annual.

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Edna May was
what every woman knew

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their spouses wanted them to be.

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However, it wasn't clear
if that woman on the cover

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was this mythical Edna May

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or even if there ever
was an Edna May,

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since the perspective
in the book

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was very much in favor
of a man's comfort,

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which made me question
who wrote it.

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And what if this Edna May
genuinely enjoyed cooking?

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Does that look like
a real smile to you?

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Personally, I think you're
reading too much into it.

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Maybe that's her subtle way of
subverting those patriarchal

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commandments in the book.

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A chink in her smile.

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That's not a chink.

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That's a genuine,
heartfelt smile.

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You're merely projecting
your own resentful ideology

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onto the poor woman's face.

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Just as thousands
of men projected

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their bone idle
and selfish ideology

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onto that poor woman's face,

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trying to turn their wives
into an Edna May.

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Generations of us were led to
believe by these men, Dr. Glock,

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that our role was only
in the kitchen.

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My mum never cooked.

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It shows.

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See, just by that comment,

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you imply that it's only
a woman's job to do such tasks.

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00:16:01,333 --> 00:16:04,070
I suppose you never read
about the Minoans?

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So I should
put a sock in my mouth

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00:16:06,239 --> 00:16:08,371
just because they tried it
the matriarchal way

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thousands of years ago?

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Both of my parents cooked
and they never counted who --

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This is an after-dinner speech,
not a debate!

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If you all allow me to read you

261
00:16:18,284 --> 00:16:20,449
"Edna May's Ten Commandments
of the Kitchen"

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on page nine,

263
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then you can decide
for yourselves

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00:16:24,389 --> 00:16:27,192
whether it was written
by a woman or a man,

265
00:16:27,227 --> 00:16:28,556
and, if by a woman,

266
00:16:28,591 --> 00:16:30,690
was that something
she really believed in?

267
00:16:32,628 --> 00:16:35,200
Why are you smiling?

268
00:16:35,235 --> 00:16:37,334
Me?

269
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Smiling in appreciation.

270
00:16:38,799 --> 00:16:41,734
Don't let me hold you back.

271
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Be a good chap and pass me
the mint sauce would you?

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- "One.

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Keep a small notepad

274
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in your handbag
for grocery lists, chores,

275
00:16:51,647 --> 00:16:54,615
and friendly reminders
from your husband.

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Two.
Get to know your local grocer

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so you can be primed
for the best quality food.

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Three.

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Remember to don a
figure-hugging dress for when

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your husband returns
tired from work.

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Four.

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Make sure the table is laid
in a tasteful manner

283
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and that condiments are within
easy reach for your husband.

284
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Five.

285
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Always remember to put a beer
in the fridge

286
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for when your husband
gets thirsty

287
00:17:19,741 --> 00:17:22,247
after his drive home from work.

288
00:17:22,282 --> 00:17:25,514
Six. Get some fresh air
by walking round the block

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or call on your neighbor to
indulge in some local gossip.

290
00:17:29,289 --> 00:17:30,849
Seven.

291
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Good posture makes you look more
attractive when serving food

292
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and lowers the risk
of back pain.

293
00:17:37,231 --> 00:17:38,263
Eight.

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Time spent cooking is time

295
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in which you can dream about
the things you want out of life,

296
00:17:43,369 --> 00:17:46,403
even if they might
not be possible.

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Nine.

298
00:17:48,176 --> 00:17:51,276
Notice amusing and delightful
events during your day

299
00:17:51,311 --> 00:17:54,279
and recount them to your husband
during suppertime.

300
00:17:54,314 --> 00:17:56,512
He'll be appreciative.

301
00:17:56,547 --> 00:17:58,349
Ten.

302
00:17:58,384 --> 00:18:01,682
If, after following these
kitchen commandments,

303
00:18:01,717 --> 00:18:05,224
you find yourself unable to
please your husband,

304
00:18:05,259 --> 00:18:07,226
seek medical advice
from your doctor

305
00:18:07,261 --> 00:18:10,295
and take the pills
he gives you."

306
00:18:10,330 --> 00:18:11,560
Thank you for listening

307
00:18:11,595 --> 00:18:13,562
to my wonderful
after-dinner speech.

308
00:18:13,597 --> 00:18:14,728
Whoo!

309
00:18:20,736 --> 00:18:22,439
Sorry.

310
00:18:29,745 --> 00:18:31,349
Whew.

311
00:18:38,622 --> 00:18:40,490
I'm sorry.

312
00:18:43,231 --> 00:18:44,725
I couldn't take it in there.

313
00:18:47,895 --> 00:18:50,731
Why?

314
00:18:50,766 --> 00:18:53,800
You try living with her for days
on end and you'll see.

315
00:19:01,777 --> 00:19:03,513
Ah, there he is.

316
00:19:03,548 --> 00:19:04,778
You missed the review.

317
00:19:04,813 --> 00:19:06,483
All manner of meta

318
00:19:06,518 --> 00:19:09,948
and contra-patriarchal
points made in your absence.

319
00:19:09,983 --> 00:19:12,225
The previous dossierge Jan hired

320
00:19:12,260 --> 00:19:14,260
would never have been
so disrespectful.

321
00:19:14,295 --> 00:19:16,790
I'm sorry.
I just needed some air.

322
00:19:16,825 --> 00:19:19,364
Pills not working?

323
00:19:19,399 --> 00:19:20,893
Let's see.

324
00:19:29,673 --> 00:19:30,837
So...

325
00:19:30,872 --> 00:19:32,707
you're still flatulent,
old bean?

326
00:19:32,742 --> 00:19:35,776
Flatulent?
Who's flatulent?

327
00:19:35,811 --> 00:19:37,745
Nobody's flatulent.

328
00:19:37,780 --> 00:19:39,945
Just some indigestion.

329
00:19:39,980 --> 00:19:41,419
You haven't touched your food.

330
00:19:41,454 --> 00:19:43,256
You'd know all about that.

331
00:19:47,790 --> 00:19:50,263
Fasting, are we?

332
00:19:50,298 --> 00:19:52,826
I've noticed three days now
and you're hardly eating.

333
00:19:52,861 --> 00:19:57,897
"They say it is three days now
that her lips have fasted,

334
00:19:57,932 --> 00:20:03,408
that she has kept her body
pure from Demeter's grain."

335
00:20:03,443 --> 00:20:05,575
Could you please pass me
the bread?

336
00:20:05,610 --> 00:20:08,611
I take it
that didn't ring a bell?

337
00:20:08,646 --> 00:20:10,811
- Sorry?
- Phaedra's fasting.

338
00:20:10,846 --> 00:20:13,011
"Hippolytus" -- Euripides.

339
00:20:15,048 --> 00:20:17,653
You haven't read Euripides?

340
00:20:17,801 --> 00:20:19,094
Euripides.

341
00:20:19,624 --> 00:20:20,920
What did he just say?

342
00:20:30,470 --> 00:20:31,832
- What happened?

343
00:20:31,867 --> 00:20:33,702
- The Mangrove Snacks.

344
00:20:33,737 --> 00:20:35,869
Who are the Mangrove Snacks?

345
00:20:35,904 --> 00:20:38,410
They applied for the residency.

346
00:20:38,445 --> 00:20:40,038
They didn't get it.

347
00:20:40,073 --> 00:20:41,809
And this is how they respond?

348
00:20:41,844 --> 00:20:43,943
- Happens all
the time, this kind of thing.

349
00:20:43,978 --> 00:20:46,847
For every culinary collective
I offer a residency to,

350
00:20:46,882 --> 00:20:49,817
a dozen others give me hell
for rejecting them.

351
00:20:49,852 --> 00:20:52,985
I have a whole folder filled
with poison pen letters.

352
00:20:53,020 --> 00:20:54,987
I'm sorry.

353
00:20:55,022 --> 00:20:56,857
I'm used to it, sadly.

354
00:20:56,892 --> 00:20:58,496
Why did you reject them?

355
00:20:58,531 --> 00:21:01,598
I don't like what they do
to terrapins.

356
00:21:01,633 --> 00:21:04,436
So, you only chose me
because I'm vegetarian?

357
00:21:04,471 --> 00:21:07,472
I'm not going to get drawn
on my selection process.

358
00:21:07,507 --> 00:21:09,001
All I will say is it involves

359
00:21:09,036 --> 00:21:12,774
a huge amount of thought
and responsibility.

360
00:21:12,809 --> 00:21:14,545
I'll ignore your facile comment

361
00:21:14,580 --> 00:21:18,010
since we welcome carnivores
as much as herbivores.

362
00:21:18,045 --> 00:21:20,386
Ultimately.
I'd consider the Mangrove Snacks

363
00:21:20,421 --> 00:21:21,717
if they actually had any talent,

364
00:21:21,752 --> 00:21:23,554
only, for your exclusive
information,

365
00:21:23,589 --> 00:21:25,721
they can't even
do transgression very well.

366
00:21:25,756 --> 00:21:28,460
If it was me,
I'd grab The Mangrove Snacks

367
00:21:28,495 --> 00:21:30,660
by their shriveled
little testicles and --

368
00:21:30,695 --> 00:21:32,365
Can we leave it, please?

369
00:21:32,400 --> 00:21:33,993
I'd rather focus on our trip
to the shops tomorrow.

370
00:21:34,028 --> 00:21:35,764
Yes, but we're dealing
with rascals here.

371
00:21:35,799 --> 00:21:38,437
If it was me, I'd make a stew
out of their lousy --

372
00:21:38,472 --> 00:21:40,098
I said!

373
00:21:50,110 --> 00:21:53,419
You're in the shops.

374
00:21:53,454 --> 00:21:56,422
You're looking around.

375
00:21:56,457 --> 00:21:59,986
Items all around you.

376
00:22:00,021 --> 00:22:03,891
Maybe you need some tomatoes
for that soup.

377
00:22:03,926 --> 00:22:06,498
Squeeze them to make sure
they're ripe.

378
00:22:10,504 --> 00:22:12,570
You're pushing
your trolley along,

379
00:22:12,605 --> 00:22:13,670
looking around,

380
00:22:13,705 --> 00:22:16,541
and there's Mrs. Chieveley.

381
00:22:16,576 --> 00:22:18,103
You don't really like her,

382
00:22:18,138 --> 00:22:20,479
but a quick nod of the head
will suffice,

383
00:22:20,514 --> 00:22:24,417
and that will allow you to
proceed to the dairy counter.

384
00:22:24,452 --> 00:22:26,650
Maybe you could ask the cheese
laddie can slice you

385
00:22:26,685 --> 00:22:29,851
a few hundred grams of Taleggio
and he can wrap it up for you.

386
00:22:29,886 --> 00:22:32,524
He licks his fingers before
taking the wrapping

387
00:22:32,559 --> 00:22:34,086
and you don't really like that,

388
00:22:34,121 --> 00:22:37,661
but you're too polite
to say anything.

389
00:22:37,696 --> 00:22:40,565
Put the cheese back
in your trolley

390
00:22:40,600 --> 00:22:43,062
and head to the spice cabinet.

391
00:22:43,097 --> 00:22:46,637
Some herbes de Provence
to sprinkle on the soup.

392
00:22:46,672 --> 00:22:52,104
But wait, there's nothing
like that here.

393
00:22:52,139 --> 00:22:56,515
Look surprised, look bereft.

394
00:22:56,550 --> 00:22:58,748
A little more bereft.

395
00:22:58,783 --> 00:23:00,882
That's it.

396
00:23:00,917 --> 00:23:02,983
But it's time to move on.

397
00:23:03,018 --> 00:23:07,152
There's a promotion stall
and some samples.

398
00:23:07,187 --> 00:23:10,089
Avocado paste
on a crispy rye base

399
00:23:10,124 --> 00:23:13,026
sprinkled with
piment d'espelette.

400
00:23:13,061 --> 00:23:14,995
You can try one.

401
00:23:15,030 --> 00:23:18,031
Hmm, tastes good.

402
00:23:18,066 --> 00:23:20,165
And you try your luck
and take another sample,

403
00:23:20,200 --> 00:23:22,970
hoping the vendor
won't make any comments.

404
00:23:23,005 --> 00:23:25,742
But the guilt makes you choke.

405
00:23:25,777 --> 00:23:27,744
Oh, no...

406
00:23:27,779 --> 00:23:30,043
time for the Heimlich Maneuver.

407
00:23:30,078 --> 00:23:32,716
That's it. Harder.

408
00:23:32,751 --> 00:23:34,520
Harder.

409
00:23:34,555 --> 00:23:35,950
Harder.

410
00:23:42,695 --> 00:23:44,728
Congratulations.

411
00:23:44,763 --> 00:23:46,191
Now pay for your items.

412
00:23:52,067 --> 00:23:53,605
At what age did you decide

413
00:23:53,640 --> 00:23:55,772
you wanted to be in
a culinary collective?

414
00:23:55,807 --> 00:23:58,038
My whole life.

415
00:23:58,073 --> 00:24:01,041
It seemed ungraspable
for an underdog like me,

416
00:24:01,076 --> 00:24:03,208
but I had to find a way.

417
00:24:03,243 --> 00:24:05,716
I remember, as a child,
when I'd sit with my parents

418
00:24:05,751 --> 00:24:08,554
watching sonic caterers
on the television,

419
00:24:08,589 --> 00:24:10,523
and I was transfixed
by the intensity

420
00:24:10,558 --> 00:24:13,790
and the deliberation of sound.

421
00:24:13,825 --> 00:24:16,595
But it felt ridiculous
to dream of something

422
00:24:16,630 --> 00:24:18,795
that everyone wanted to do.

423
00:24:18,830 --> 00:24:22,535
It was indoctrinated in us from
an early age that certain

424
00:24:22,570 --> 00:24:25,263
callings in life
were beyond our reach,

425
00:24:25,298 --> 00:24:30,774
especially if, like me, you went
to a run-down school.

426
00:24:30,809 --> 00:24:32,875
And what gave you
the conviction?

427
00:24:32,910 --> 00:24:35,779
- Only one thing.

428
00:24:35,814 --> 00:24:39,948
The memory of Miss Lindenson
dying at my birthday party.

429
00:24:41,721 --> 00:24:44,953
She was my kindergarten teacher
and she was allergic to nuts,

430
00:24:44,988 --> 00:24:49,562
and the kitchen staff didn't pay
attention when making the cake.

431
00:24:49,597 --> 00:24:53,698
A big, chocolate wonder cake.

432
00:24:53,733 --> 00:24:58,736
She went into anaphylactic shock
as soon as she ate her slice.

433
00:24:58,771 --> 00:25:00,804
Her face started to swell up

434
00:25:00,839 --> 00:25:03,576
and the other children
started to laugh,

435
00:25:03,611 --> 00:25:06,645
thinking how comical it looked.

436
00:25:06,680 --> 00:25:09,978
I screamed for help and
she started to gasp for breath.

437
00:25:10,013 --> 00:25:11,848
The other teacher
called an ambulance,

438
00:25:11,883 --> 00:25:13,916
but nothing could
save her in time.

439
00:25:17,020 --> 00:25:19,317
How something so tasty for me

440
00:25:19,352 --> 00:25:22,320
that could be so deadly for her

441
00:25:22,355 --> 00:25:27,127
completely changed the way
I thought about food.

442
00:25:27,162 --> 00:25:29,129
I'm sorry.

443
00:25:29,164 --> 00:25:32,198
All this is in her honor.

444
00:25:32,805 --> 00:25:34,706
Yes.

445
00:28:17,365 --> 00:28:22,104
I've never been so embarrassed
in my whole life.

446
00:28:22,139 --> 00:28:24,238
They'll think
we are amateurs now.

447
00:28:24,273 --> 00:28:26,944
I wouldn't be so hard
on yourself.

448
00:28:26,979 --> 00:28:28,781
It's your first performance.

449
00:28:28,816 --> 00:28:30,849
But he had it right
in rehearsals.

450
00:28:30,884 --> 00:28:32,048
So, it's all my fault, is it?

451
00:28:32,083 --> 00:28:33,786
It's not my thing
that went wrong.

452
00:28:33,821 --> 00:28:35,282
- Yeah, pretending to be
a dead pig --

453
00:28:35,317 --> 00:28:37,856
even a toddler can do that

454
00:28:37,891 --> 00:28:40,485
You try going naked on stage
with all those people.

455
00:28:40,520 --> 00:28:42,058
You think it's easy?

456
00:28:42,093 --> 00:28:43,928
Congratulations, all of you.

457
00:28:43,963 --> 00:28:45,391
Jan Stevens.

458
00:28:45,426 --> 00:28:48,460
Sorry, we're just trying
to work out what went wrong.

459
00:28:48,495 --> 00:28:50,000
- Why "sorry"?

460
00:28:50,035 --> 00:28:52,200
I thought it was
very involving --

461
00:28:52,235 --> 00:28:54,565
a promising first concert.

462
00:28:54,600 --> 00:28:56,809
Wonderful, in fact.

463
00:28:56,844 --> 00:29:00,109
Could've been much better
if he knew how to press buttons.

464
00:29:00,144 --> 00:29:02,144
You're on a residency.

465
00:29:02,179 --> 00:29:03,409
Remember that.

466
00:29:03,444 --> 00:29:05,345
The whole point of a residency

467
00:29:05,380 --> 00:29:08,216
is to allow space
for trial and error.

468
00:29:08,251 --> 00:29:10,955
It's the last concert
that counts.

469
00:29:10,990 --> 00:29:13,419
Everything leading up to that
is just practice.

470
00:29:13,454 --> 00:29:15,960
The audience understand.

471
00:29:15,995 --> 00:29:17,027
They liked it?

472
00:29:17,062 --> 00:29:18,523
They loved it.

473
00:29:18,558 --> 00:29:20,525
Isn't that right, Stones?

474
00:29:20,560 --> 00:29:23,462
They had a good time, yes.

475
00:29:23,497 --> 00:29:27,136
And now they're waiting
to pay tribute.

476
00:29:27,171 --> 00:29:28,203
Really?

477
00:29:28,238 --> 00:29:29,567
Really.

478
00:29:29,602 --> 00:29:31,404
They're outside.

479
00:29:31,439 --> 00:29:33,175
What shall I do?

480
00:29:35,212 --> 00:29:36,915
Send them in.

481
00:29:43,534 --> 00:29:46,662
Audience tributes were
my least favorite part

482
00:29:47,120 --> 00:29:51,667
of a culinary
collective's residency.

483
00:30:02,427 --> 00:30:09,601
Witnessing such flamboyant intimacy
was not an easy thing to write about,

484
00:30:09,643 --> 00:30:12,563
especially after
an abattoir performance.

485
00:30:12,813 --> 00:30:14,940
The torrid passion on display

486
00:30:14,982 --> 00:30:17,651
was at least a distraction
from my discomfort

487
00:30:17,693 --> 00:30:21,029
and the fear of my stomach
embarrassing me, undermining me,

488
00:30:21,405 --> 00:30:24,032
turning against me
and destroying me.

489
00:30:26,535 --> 00:30:28,871
Where does the endless wind

490
00:30:28,912 --> 00:30:31,373
that blows my stomach up
like a balloon come from?

491
00:30:31,915 --> 00:30:32,875
Why does it persist?

492
00:30:33,959 --> 00:30:36,420
When I see joy and abandon,

493
00:30:36,753 --> 00:30:38,797
my mind always reverts to this -

494
00:30:39,256 --> 00:30:44,178
why can one stomach be so free
and another can't?

495
00:31:00,569 --> 00:31:02,821
The nights were riddled with agony

496
00:31:02,863 --> 00:31:06,283
as the trapped wind
took over my bowels and mind.

497
00:31:06,325 --> 00:31:08,118
Every fart involved
plotting and worry:

498
00:31:08,160 --> 00:31:12,873
a balancing act of tension,
guesswork and fear

499
00:31:13,916 --> 00:31:21,256
with my buttocks pressed hard
against the mattress

500
00:31:21,507 --> 00:31:24,593
in the hope that the noise would be
muffled enough

501
00:31:24,843 --> 00:31:26,720
so as not to wake the others.

502
00:31:27,888 --> 00:31:30,933
But the Lord is my portion,
saith my soul,

503
00:31:31,183 --> 00:31:34,686
therefore will I hope in him.

504
00:32:29,584 --> 00:32:31,023
- It only occurred to me

505
00:32:31,058 --> 00:32:32,585
when I was caught up
in the blender,

506
00:32:32,620 --> 00:32:35,588
but Elle and the Artificial
Additives could be a name.

507
00:32:35,623 --> 00:32:37,557
- It gets worse
with each suggestion.

508
00:32:37,592 --> 00:32:40,626
- Well, what about Elle,
Lamina, and Billy?

509
00:32:42,762 --> 00:32:45,433
- So, only you're allowed
to be named?

510
00:32:45,468 --> 00:32:47,600
I found the group and, besides,
I take the --

511
00:32:50,737 --> 00:32:53,408
No.

512
00:32:53,443 --> 00:32:54,640
That was your fault.

513
00:32:54,675 --> 00:32:56,147
- How can it be
my fault when --

514
00:32:56,182 --> 00:32:58,314
-- Guys!
-- A calamity.

515
00:32:58,349 --> 00:32:59,546
- It'll dry by the morning.

516
00:32:59,581 --> 00:33:01,449
What are you talking about?
It's oil!

517
00:33:01,484 --> 00:33:03,220
It's a death trap.

518
00:33:03,255 --> 00:33:05,321
Nobody will be using
the stairs tonight.

519
00:33:05,356 --> 00:33:06,652
We can't leave it like this

520
00:33:06,687 --> 00:33:08,291
unless you want to find
cracked skulls

521
00:33:08,326 --> 00:33:10,491
and broken necks in the morning.

522
00:33:10,526 --> 00:33:13,197
Maybe Technical Assistant Wim
can deal with it?

523
00:33:13,232 --> 00:33:14,825
No, it's late.
Let's not disturb him.

524
00:33:14,860 --> 00:33:16,398
Nonsense, that's his job.

525
00:33:16,433 --> 00:33:18,730
- Youngster!
- No.

526
00:33:18,765 --> 00:33:21,601
- You deal with it.
- Why don't we all deal with it?

527
00:33:21,636 --> 00:33:25,077
Let's find something
and clean this up.

528
00:33:25,112 --> 00:33:26,606
- I'll get a mop.

529
00:33:29,413 --> 00:33:30,676
Are you okay?

530
00:33:30,711 --> 00:33:32,117
I don't feel good.

531
00:33:32,152 --> 00:33:34,614
It'll take all night
to clear this.

532
00:33:34,649 --> 00:33:36,385
Maybe we could find
some other mops

533
00:33:36,420 --> 00:33:38,222
and then it won't take so long.

534
00:33:38,257 --> 00:33:40,224
It's oil. Oil on stairs.

535
00:33:40,259 --> 00:33:44,195
A mop alone is not enough.
We need hot water and soap.

536
00:33:44,230 --> 00:33:45,658
A mop is just
going to spread --

537
00:33:45,693 --> 00:33:48,694
Okay, okay. I don't need to
hear this any more.

538
00:33:48,729 --> 00:33:50,300
What's wrong?

539
00:33:50,335 --> 00:33:52,104
I feel faint.

540
00:33:52,139 --> 00:33:53,633
Don't listen to her, Stones.

541
00:33:53,668 --> 00:33:55,272
Anything to get out
of a bit of work.

542
00:33:55,307 --> 00:33:57,637
- Look at her, she's --
- Stones!

543
00:33:57,672 --> 00:33:59,639
It's okay. It's okay.
It's okay.

544
00:33:59,674 --> 00:34:01,641
One of us can take you back.

545
00:34:01,676 --> 00:34:03,280
And what about Billy and me?

546
00:34:03,315 --> 00:34:06,811
If I let go, she will fall.

547
00:34:06,846 --> 00:34:08,813
Welcome to our world.

548
00:34:08,848 --> 00:34:12,256
- With all the
collectives that come here,

549
00:34:12,291 --> 00:34:15,589
my duty is first
and foremost to support

550
00:34:15,624 --> 00:34:18,130
and nurture their vision.

551
00:34:18,165 --> 00:34:20,792
The practicalities of realizing
an idea in front

552
00:34:20,827 --> 00:34:24,796
of an audience can be a shock
to the system.

553
00:34:24,831 --> 00:34:27,667
The gulf between the head
and the reality of the stage

554
00:34:27,702 --> 00:34:29,240
can be forbidding

555
00:34:29,275 --> 00:34:30,670
and often requires
shepherding by someone

556
00:34:30,705 --> 00:34:32,210
who can lead the way --

557
00:34:32,245 --> 00:34:33,838
- We are our own
harshest critics,

558
00:34:33,873 --> 00:34:36,412
and we have these discussions
by ourselves.

559
00:34:36,447 --> 00:34:37,842
- I appreciate that,

560
00:34:37,877 --> 00:34:40,185
but as someone
who is supporting you,

561
00:34:40,220 --> 00:34:43,683
I would very much like to be
involved in those conversations.

562
00:34:43,718 --> 00:34:45,685
How?

563
00:34:45,720 --> 00:34:48,325
- By guiding you.
- Hm.

564
00:34:48,360 --> 00:34:51,262
I can see you're independent
and strong-willed,

565
00:34:51,297 --> 00:34:54,430
and I can adjust my notes
accordingly.

566
00:34:54,465 --> 00:34:56,201
We don't need notes.

567
00:34:56,236 --> 00:34:57,796
- I understand
you don't need notes,

568
00:34:57,831 --> 00:35:00,469
but the Institute's money
is funding this,

569
00:35:00,504 --> 00:35:03,307
and I expect something
in return.

570
00:35:03,342 --> 00:35:05,309
What you get in return is this.

571
00:35:05,344 --> 00:35:06,937
Everything we are doing.

572
00:35:06,972 --> 00:35:09,313
I'm just asking for you
to engage.

573
00:35:09,348 --> 00:35:11,678
Form your own
culinary collective, then.

574
00:35:11,713 --> 00:35:13,581
You go out and do this
and see

575
00:35:13,616 --> 00:35:15,913
how you feel when someone else
comes along

576
00:35:15,948 --> 00:35:17,486
and tells you what to do.

577
00:35:17,521 --> 00:35:19,323
And how about
you don't accept my support

578
00:35:19,358 --> 00:35:21,457
if you don't like the terms?

579
00:35:21,492 --> 00:35:23,327
This is still your vision.

580
00:35:23,362 --> 00:35:27,397
I'm just asking you
to change a few things.

581
00:35:27,432 --> 00:35:29,432
So, it's your idea
of my vision?

582
00:35:29,467 --> 00:35:32,336
You don't even
know what the notes are yet.

583
00:35:32,371 --> 00:35:34,338
Maybe they won't be
so unpalatable.

584
00:35:34,373 --> 00:35:36,934
That's not the point.
It's the principle.

585
00:35:36,969 --> 00:35:40,839
So, even if you agree
with a note, you won't do it?

586
00:35:40,874 --> 00:35:42,346
Correct.

587
00:35:42,381 --> 00:35:43,809
I'm not a big note person

588
00:35:43,844 --> 00:35:47,318
compared to my forebears
who have held this role.

589
00:35:47,353 --> 00:35:48,682
I respect the artist,

590
00:35:48,717 --> 00:35:50,618
but if I strongly disagree
with something,

591
00:35:50,653 --> 00:35:53,456
I will expect you
to at least engage.

592
00:35:53,491 --> 00:35:54,985
But you said it was
wonderful last night.

593
00:35:55,020 --> 00:35:56,492
Yes, it was wonderful,

594
00:35:56,527 --> 00:35:59,495
but that doesn't mean
we can't discuss.

595
00:35:59,530 --> 00:36:01,959
I found out what was wrong
with the ring modulator.

596
00:36:01,994 --> 00:36:04,368
It wasn't the ring modulator.

597
00:36:04,403 --> 00:36:07,833
I'm talking about the first half
when everything was working.

598
00:36:07,868 --> 00:36:12,541
It's your use of a flanger
I want to discuss.

599
00:36:12,576 --> 00:36:13,839
What's a flanger?

600
00:36:13,874 --> 00:36:15,544
It's an electronic device

601
00:36:15,579 --> 00:36:17,612
that mixes two signals
resulting in a phase shift.

602
00:36:17,647 --> 00:36:19,383
You didn't like it?

603
00:36:19,418 --> 00:36:21,319
- I think it should
be on a lower setting.

604
00:36:21,354 --> 00:36:22,584
Just fractionally.

605
00:36:22,619 --> 00:36:23,948
- Why?

606
00:36:23,983 --> 00:36:25,587
When you alter the sound
that much,

607
00:36:25,622 --> 00:36:27,985
you lose all connection
to the activity.

608
00:36:28,020 --> 00:36:30,856
But that's the whole point
of what we do.

609
00:36:30,891 --> 00:36:33,628
Why do it if it remains
in the culinary context?

610
00:36:33,663 --> 00:36:36,631
And why do it if it's completely
divorced from it?

611
00:36:36,666 --> 00:36:38,798
Then it's just sonic
without the catering.

612
00:36:38,833 --> 00:36:41,504
So, you want catering
without the sonic?

613
00:36:41,539 --> 00:36:44,837
The best collectives here
stretched the elastic

614
00:36:44,872 --> 00:36:47,774
of their culinary sounds
as far as they could,

615
00:36:47,809 --> 00:36:49,347
but there was always
a connection

616
00:36:49,382 --> 00:36:51,283
to the source material.

617
00:36:51,318 --> 00:36:54,385
A semblance of what the sound
once was.

618
00:36:54,420 --> 00:36:55,683
We can take it out, man.

619
00:36:55,718 --> 00:36:57,850
It only lasted a few seconds,
anyway.

620
00:36:57,885 --> 00:36:59,687
No.

621
00:36:59,722 --> 00:37:00,853
Then mix it down?

622
00:37:00,888 --> 00:37:03,394
No.

623
00:37:03,429 --> 00:37:04,824
Are you going to
give in that easily?

624
00:37:04,859 --> 00:37:06,463
You hardly notice it either way.

625
00:37:06,498 --> 00:37:08,058
That's not the point.

626
00:37:08,093 --> 00:37:10,500
- You didn't even know
what a flanger was a minute ago.

627
00:37:10,535 --> 00:37:11,963
I thought she said badger.

628
00:37:11,998 --> 00:37:14,438
I'm just trying to
protect your vision.

629
00:37:14,473 --> 00:37:16,374
- Can we discuss this
another time?

630
00:37:16,409 --> 00:37:19,872
You're ruining my graphic score
with all this flanger nonsense.

631
00:37:19,907 --> 00:37:21,841
If that's the case,

632
00:37:21,876 --> 00:37:25,042
stop what you're doing
and engage with us.

633
00:37:25,077 --> 00:37:27,484
Come on, Elle.

634
00:37:27,519 --> 00:37:29,046
I'm the boss!

635
00:37:33,987 --> 00:37:38,330
- How much say do you
have in the band?

636
00:37:38,365 --> 00:37:39,958
I don't know.

637
00:37:39,993 --> 00:37:41,729
I mean, Elle's the boss.

638
00:37:41,764 --> 00:37:43,731
But she can't do
anything technical.

639
00:37:43,766 --> 00:37:46,536
So, that's down to us.

640
00:37:46,571 --> 00:37:48,868
She says what she likes,
what she doesn't like.

641
00:37:48,903 --> 00:37:51,574
But sometimes she doesn't
explain herself very well,

642
00:37:51,609 --> 00:37:54,346
which leads to things
sounding the way they do

643
00:37:54,381 --> 00:37:55,875
because of a misunderstanding.

644
00:37:55,910 --> 00:37:58,482
In fact, I'd say
misunderstanding between us

645
00:37:58,517 --> 00:38:01,353
is probably
the key to our sound.

646
00:38:01,388 --> 00:38:04,752
And what made you want to be
a Sonic Caterer?

647
00:38:04,787 --> 00:38:06,754
I don't know.

648
00:38:06,789 --> 00:38:08,822
Something you just fell into?

649
00:38:08,857 --> 00:38:11,891
- I only really knew
what I didn't want to do.

650
00:38:11,926 --> 00:38:15,026
My parents sent me
to this expensive school

651
00:38:15,061 --> 00:38:16,896
to help with my table manners,

652
00:38:16,931 --> 00:38:20,537
and it wasn't really a world
that I understood.

653
00:38:20,572 --> 00:38:22,935
I wanted something else.

654
00:38:22,970 --> 00:38:25,102
Like what?

655
00:38:25,137 --> 00:38:27,137
I don't know, like...

656
00:38:27,172 --> 00:38:30,646
I liked making things.

657
00:38:30,681 --> 00:38:33,011
I liked soldering things.

658
00:38:33,046 --> 00:38:36,047
I like making noises.

659
00:38:36,082 --> 00:38:40,458
It didn't really have much
purpose until Elle came along.

660
00:38:40,493 --> 00:38:42,823
And what was the purpose?

661
00:38:42,858 --> 00:38:44,055
- She had ambition.

662
00:38:44,090 --> 00:38:47,465
She had ideas.

663
00:38:47,500 --> 00:38:48,598
It's like she could
channel something

664
00:38:48,633 --> 00:38:52,701
that was aimless in me.

665
00:38:52,736 --> 00:38:54,604
And she just --
She would make things happen.

666
00:38:54,639 --> 00:38:58,740
She had the confidence to do
things one hundred percent-ly.

667
00:38:58,775 --> 00:39:01,842
And she was -- she was fun
to be around, you know.

668
00:39:03,945 --> 00:39:06,946
In what way?

669
00:39:06,981 --> 00:39:10,081
She would pinch my nipples.

670
00:39:10,116 --> 00:39:14,690
And what happened
when she did that?

671
00:39:14,725 --> 00:39:17,759
I don't know, it felt good.

672
00:39:17,794 --> 00:39:21,697
She would say some exciting
things and I'd, you know, I'd --

673
00:39:21,732 --> 00:39:23,897
I'd fiddle with myself a bit.

674
00:39:23,932 --> 00:39:26,966
We had -- We had this game
called The Finger Game

675
00:39:27,001 --> 00:39:29,639
where she'd fiddle
with herself too

676
00:39:29,674 --> 00:39:33,610
and then I'd sniff her fingers.

677
00:39:33,645 --> 00:39:35,810
But it was never anything
more than that,

678
00:39:35,845 --> 00:39:39,143
in case it compromised
her artistic integrity.

679
00:39:39,178 --> 00:39:42,784
And what about
your artistic integrity?

680
00:39:45,789 --> 00:39:48,592
I don't know, I mean...

681
00:39:48,627 --> 00:39:51,991
we got lots made
during that time.

682
00:39:52,026 --> 00:39:53,960
I suppose we didn't think about
what our behavior

683
00:39:53,995 --> 00:39:55,731
meant until afterwards.

684
00:39:55,766 --> 00:39:58,129
So, it didn't last with Elle?

685
00:39:58,164 --> 00:40:00,571
I mean, we got bored.

686
00:40:00,606 --> 00:40:03,475
I mean, we would, sort of,
frisk out when we were bored,

687
00:40:03,510 --> 00:40:06,236
then we got bored of frisking
when we were bored.

688
00:40:06,271 --> 00:40:08,040
So...

689
00:40:08,075 --> 00:40:09,910
Was it just the two of you
in the band then?

690
00:40:09,945 --> 00:40:13,012
No. There was this other guy
who was doing electronics,

691
00:40:13,047 --> 00:40:17,885
but they fell out because
of dietary differences.

692
00:40:17,920 --> 00:40:19,689
- Meat?
- Yeah.

693
00:40:19,724 --> 00:40:22,593
I mean, anyone caught eating
meat in our band is dead.

694
00:40:23,959 --> 00:40:27,598
- And deep breath.

695
00:40:27,633 --> 00:40:29,633
And hold.

696
00:40:31,296 --> 00:40:33,670
Good.

697
00:40:33,705 --> 00:40:35,639
And again.

698
00:40:35,674 --> 00:40:38,510
And hold.

699
00:40:38,545 --> 00:40:40,809
I can't even see the tail
of your pancreas,

700
00:40:40,844 --> 00:40:43,713
what with all the globules
of gas obscuring it.

701
00:40:43,748 --> 00:40:46,584
Who would've thought that
flatulence could look so dainty?

702
00:40:46,619 --> 00:40:48,179
- So, what now?

703
00:40:48,214 --> 00:40:53,085
Throw away the pills and come in
for some more examinations.

704
00:40:53,120 --> 00:40:54,856
Don't look so alarmed.

705
00:40:54,891 --> 00:40:57,089
You just need a few tubes
to go down you

706
00:40:57,124 --> 00:41:00,796
and up you if we're going to get
to the bottom of this.

707
00:41:00,831 --> 00:41:02,666
If the inflammation carries
on like this,

708
00:41:02,701 --> 00:41:06,296
you aren't going to have
any bowels left to fart out of.

709
00:41:06,331 --> 00:41:08,298
Am I going to die?

710
00:41:08,333 --> 00:41:10,234
- Of course you're going to die.

711
00:41:10,269 --> 00:41:13,138
Name me a living thing
that isn't going to die.

712
00:41:13,173 --> 00:41:15,206
I mean...

713
00:41:15,241 --> 00:41:16,878
prematurely.

714
00:41:22,622 --> 00:41:24,523
I'll be okay, won't I?

715
00:41:49,682 --> 00:41:52,342
You're in the shops.

716
00:41:52,377 --> 00:41:54,586
Billy and Lamina,

717
00:41:54,621 --> 00:41:56,984
you're a happy couple
pushing your weekend trolley

718
00:41:57,019 --> 00:41:59,085
down the aisle.

719
00:41:59,120 --> 00:42:02,924
You bought some nice ingredients
for your bourgeois frittata.

720
00:42:02,959 --> 00:42:05,993
But to save time, Billy,

721
00:42:06,028 --> 00:42:09,865
you should head to the check-out
soon to reserve your place,

722
00:42:09,900 --> 00:42:12,604
and then Lamina
can continue the shopping,

723
00:42:12,639 --> 00:42:13,935
pretending she forgot something

724
00:42:13,970 --> 00:42:16,839
and then bring items
back to the trolley.

725
00:42:16,874 --> 00:42:19,105
It's a good idea.

726
00:42:19,140 --> 00:42:22,042
You see Elle heading
towards you,

727
00:42:22,077 --> 00:42:24,649
and even though she only has
a jar of saffron dust

728
00:42:24,684 --> 00:42:26,244
for her amuse-bouche,

729
00:42:26,279 --> 00:42:28,081
you make sure you beat her
to the till

730
00:42:28,116 --> 00:42:31,887
with your half-full trolley.

731
00:42:31,922 --> 00:42:33,823
Lamina, you can
continue shopping

732
00:42:33,858 --> 00:42:35,187
as long as you remember
to look like

733
00:42:35,222 --> 00:42:37,959
you forgot something each time.

734
00:42:37,994 --> 00:42:41,930
Elle, you will
roll your eyes now

735
00:42:41,965 --> 00:42:43,767
but maybe give her the benefit
of the doubt

736
00:42:43,802 --> 00:42:46,770
when she returns
with the Gruyère cheese.

737
00:42:46,805 --> 00:42:50,037
Lamina, pretend to look
annoyed with yourself

738
00:42:50,072 --> 00:42:53,337
as you remember there is
just one more thing to buy.

739
00:42:53,372 --> 00:42:55,174
Go off and find it.

740
00:42:55,209 --> 00:42:56,879
Elle, glare at her

741
00:42:56,914 --> 00:43:01,279
when she returns with
the quatre épices spice mix.

742
00:43:01,314 --> 00:43:04,051
She's gone again to grab
a packet of party sticks

743
00:43:04,086 --> 00:43:06,218
and a ready-made Tarte Tatin.

744
00:43:09,729 --> 00:43:11,663
Elle,
you've reached boiling point,

745
00:43:11,698 --> 00:43:15,029
but you're still
holding it together.

746
00:43:15,064 --> 00:43:16,668
Billy and Lamina,

747
00:43:16,703 --> 00:43:19,737
you've paid for your items
and bagged them up.

748
00:43:19,772 --> 00:43:21,431
You may now exit the shop

749
00:43:21,466 --> 00:43:23,169
and leave your trolley
by the till

750
00:43:23,204 --> 00:43:25,875
for someone else to deal with.

751
00:43:25,910 --> 00:43:27,338
Elle,

752
00:43:27,373 --> 00:43:30,176
the trolley left in your way
is the last straw.

753
00:43:30,211 --> 00:43:32,849
Push it towards them

754
00:43:32,884 --> 00:43:34,917
and unleash your rage.

755
00:43:51,265 --> 00:43:52,935
- So...

756
00:43:52,970 --> 00:43:57,170
This was on
my school field trip.

757
00:43:57,205 --> 00:44:00,239
And I had just turned 14,

758
00:44:00,274 --> 00:44:06,212
and the way I saw things
was starting to change.

759
00:44:06,247 --> 00:44:07,884
Because I went to
an all-boys' school.

760
00:44:07,919 --> 00:44:11,151
And at home it was just
my brother and my dad.

761
00:44:11,186 --> 00:44:14,385
My mum was always away
directing and stuff.

762
00:44:14,420 --> 00:44:18,763
So, the whole female idea
was a bit of a mystery to me

763
00:44:18,798 --> 00:44:21,425
until I went on this trip,

764
00:44:21,460 --> 00:44:23,768
and at the hotel we were at,

765
00:44:23,803 --> 00:44:27,464
there was this egg station
in the breakfast parlor.

766
00:44:27,499 --> 00:44:30,005
And if you wanted an omelet,
you would go and you'd queue up.

767
00:44:30,040 --> 00:44:31,743
And you would --

768
00:44:31,778 --> 00:44:34,845
you'd ask this lady to cook
one up for you.

769
00:44:34,880 --> 00:44:36,880
And...

770
00:44:36,915 --> 00:44:38,849
she was...

771
00:44:38,884 --> 00:44:43,953
she was blonde and curvaceous,
you know.

772
00:44:43,988 --> 00:44:49,156
And she had this uniform
which kind of accentuated

773
00:44:49,191 --> 00:44:51,158
her curvaceous figure.

774
00:44:51,193 --> 00:44:53,831
I mean, she was probably
about as old as my mum.

775
00:44:53,866 --> 00:44:56,295
And I knew she'd never
really be interested in me,

776
00:44:56,330 --> 00:44:58,264
but I thought if I ordered
an omelet,

777
00:44:58,299 --> 00:45:01,333
maybe it'll start
some conversation.

778
00:45:01,368 --> 00:45:05,205
I never -- I never actually got
to know her name.

779
00:45:05,240 --> 00:45:06,910
I only --

780
00:45:06,945 --> 00:45:10,045
I only knew her as the egg lady.

781
00:45:10,080 --> 00:45:13,180
And I remember, I remember
dreaming about her.

782
00:45:13,215 --> 00:45:16,051
Squatting over my face

783
00:45:16,086 --> 00:45:18,823
and laying an egg
into my mouth.

784
00:45:18,858 --> 00:45:22,354
You know, I fell in love.

785
00:45:22,389 --> 00:45:24,059
And I know everyone says
that it can't be love

786
00:45:24,094 --> 00:45:26,193
if you've only ordered
an omelet, but it was love.

787
00:45:26,228 --> 00:45:29,559
And I've never felt feelings
that powerful

788
00:45:29,594 --> 00:45:31,297
since for anyone.

789
00:45:32,564 --> 00:45:34,267
And --

790
00:45:34,302 --> 00:45:36,808
Be a good chap and pass me
the mint sauce, would you?

791
00:45:45,885 --> 00:45:47,181
And, yeah, and then,

792
00:45:47,216 --> 00:45:49,447
after, it was on
the third day,

793
00:45:49,482 --> 00:45:52,087
I realized that if you asked her

794
00:45:52,122 --> 00:45:55,090
to sprinkle onions
on your omelet,

795
00:45:55,125 --> 00:45:57,026
it would involve her
bending forward

796
00:45:57,061 --> 00:45:58,962
to scoop them
out of the onion tub.

797
00:45:58,997 --> 00:46:01,965
And that was when
Tom Pithers saw me

798
00:46:02,000 --> 00:46:03,835
looking down her blouse

799
00:46:03,870 --> 00:46:06,398
and told Mr. Rollinson.

800
00:46:06,433 --> 00:46:08,136
There was already
some discussion at the table

801
00:46:08,171 --> 00:46:11,007
as to why I was always queuing
at the egg station,

802
00:46:11,042 --> 00:46:13,603
but I think
this new evidence damned me.

803
00:46:13,638 --> 00:46:15,275
Mr. Rollinson fell out of temper

804
00:46:15,310 --> 00:46:18,212
and he hit me at the table
in front of everyone.

805
00:46:18,247 --> 00:46:19,477
I remember he, sort of,
got me by the head

806
00:46:19,512 --> 00:46:21,248
and rammed me down...

807
00:46:21,283 --> 00:46:24,119
five or six times, quite hard.

808
00:46:24,154 --> 00:46:28,222
And I remember seeing
Matt Hornsley and Glen Rogers

809
00:46:28,257 --> 00:46:29,520
sniggering at the whole thing.

810
00:46:29,555 --> 00:46:31,258
And then, on the last hit,

811
00:46:31,293 --> 00:46:34,591
it knocked over the glass
of milk that was on the table.

812
00:46:34,626 --> 00:46:37,902
And it made my ear,
this ear, pop

813
00:46:37,937 --> 00:46:39,266
and I lost my balance.

814
00:46:39,301 --> 00:46:41,301
And I've always heard things
a bit differently

815
00:46:41,336 --> 00:46:43,006
out of that ear.

816
00:46:43,041 --> 00:46:45,536
And Elle taught me to see it
as an advantage.

817
00:46:45,571 --> 00:46:47,439
- Never mind your ears.

818
00:46:47,474 --> 00:46:51,311
What we all want to know
is do you still eat omelet?

819
00:46:51,346 --> 00:46:53,016
No.

820
00:46:53,051 --> 00:46:56,052
A terrible shame, young lad.

821
00:46:56,087 --> 00:46:58,285
All because of a formative
psycho-sexual trauma,

822
00:46:58,320 --> 00:47:01,651
you're missing out on
a vital source of vitamin D.

823
00:47:01,686 --> 00:47:03,961
- I get it from the sun.
-- The sun?

824
00:47:03,996 --> 00:47:05,523
What about winter?

825
00:47:05,558 --> 00:47:07,591
Unless you're an Oracle retiring
from the Temple of Apollo

826
00:47:07,626 --> 00:47:10,660
during the coldest months,
you need your vitamin D

827
00:47:10,695 --> 00:47:13,905
if you don't want your bones
to get all rickety.

828
00:47:13,940 --> 00:47:16,138
You do know about the Oracles?

829
00:47:16,173 --> 00:47:17,909
You're an Oracle of stupid.

830
00:47:17,944 --> 00:47:19,471
Now, everyone.

831
00:47:24,313 --> 00:47:28,150
Oracle of stupidity.

832
00:47:28,185 --> 00:47:30,647
You didn't tell me that
was going to be your speech.

833
00:47:30,682 --> 00:47:32,352
So what?

834
00:47:32,387 --> 00:47:33,958
- It'd just be nice to be
across these things

835
00:47:33,993 --> 00:47:37,357
in order for us to have
a consistency of vision.

836
00:47:37,392 --> 00:47:38,963
- What do you mean
by consistency?

837
00:47:38,998 --> 00:47:42,032
What do I mean by consistency?

838
00:47:42,067 --> 00:47:45,332
By consistency, I mean
not undermining my speech

839
00:47:45,367 --> 00:47:48,137
which was all about
male domestic oppression.

840
00:47:48,172 --> 00:47:50,370
Everything you said dismantled
the polemics, the irony, the --

841
00:47:50,405 --> 00:47:52,471
At least mine was personal.

842
00:47:52,506 --> 00:47:55,540
So sexually objectifying women
cooking for men is fine

843
00:47:55,575 --> 00:47:57,014
as long as it's personal?

844
00:47:57,049 --> 00:47:58,477
Can we go to sleep?

845
00:47:58,512 --> 00:48:00,545
So, you don't believe there is
such a thing

846
00:48:00,580 --> 00:48:03,119
as male domestic oppression?

847
00:48:03,154 --> 00:48:04,483
Of course, I believe
there is such a thing

848
00:48:04,518 --> 00:48:06,683
as male domestic oppression,

849
00:48:06,718 --> 00:48:08,993
but what also needs
to be spoken about

850
00:48:09,028 --> 00:48:12,161
is Elle-creative oppression.

851
00:48:12,196 --> 00:48:14,097
- "What about,"
"what about," "what about."

852
00:48:14,132 --> 00:48:16,033
- Not "what about."
- You're straying from the topic.

853
00:48:16,068 --> 00:48:17,562
- Okay, back on topic.

854
00:48:17,597 --> 00:48:20,037
I have another household tip
you could've incorporated

855
00:48:20,072 --> 00:48:22,633
into your next
after-dinner speech.

856
00:48:22,668 --> 00:48:24,503
Staying up all night mopping up

857
00:48:24,538 --> 00:48:27,077
extra virgin olive oil
from the staircase

858
00:48:27,112 --> 00:48:29,145
while the person who spilled it
can walk away from it all

859
00:48:29,180 --> 00:48:32,511
without even uttering
a thank you.

860
00:48:32,546 --> 00:48:33,545
- Thank you, Lamina.

861
00:48:33,580 --> 00:48:35,085
- And Billy.

862
00:48:35,120 --> 00:48:36,383
Thank you, Billy.

863
00:48:36,418 --> 00:48:38,451
And don't forget
to thank Stones.

864
00:48:42,457 --> 00:48:45,590
What is he doing in there?

865
00:48:45,625 --> 00:48:47,658
- He practically lives
in that toilet.

866
00:48:48,793 --> 00:48:52,630
He keeps denying
there's anything wrong.

867
00:48:52,665 --> 00:48:55,138
Well, there is something wrong.

868
00:48:55,173 --> 00:48:57,140
I hear him fart at night.

869
00:48:57,175 --> 00:48:59,142
Whenever he thinks
we're asleep,

870
00:48:59,177 --> 00:49:02,541
he lets them slide out,
one after the other.

871
00:49:02,576 --> 00:49:04,708
- And you never fart?

872
00:49:04,743 --> 00:49:06,380
- Not as much as that.
-- Can you stop?

873
00:49:06,415 --> 00:49:09,152
I'm trying to sleep.

874
00:49:09,187 --> 00:49:11,121
How many times do you fart?

875
00:49:11,156 --> 00:49:12,584
Never. I don't fart.

876
00:49:12,619 --> 00:49:14,421
- Of course you fart.

877
00:49:14,456 --> 00:49:16,489
Have you ever heard me fart?

878
00:49:16,524 --> 00:49:18,029
- No.

879
00:49:18,064 --> 00:49:20,460
But it's biologically impossible
not to fart.

880
00:49:20,495 --> 00:49:22,627
- There's a lot of things
biologically impossible

881
00:49:22,662 --> 00:49:24,299
when it comes to Elle.

882
00:49:24,334 --> 00:49:27,368
They say the average person
farts around 14.5 --

883
00:49:27,403 --> 00:49:28,501
- He's coming!

884
00:49:45,355 --> 00:49:47,091
Are you okay?

885
00:49:50,327 --> 00:49:53,163
You know, I was reading
about cloves.

886
00:49:53,198 --> 00:49:55,132
They dispel the air
from the intestine

887
00:49:55,167 --> 00:49:57,431
in a nice, gentle,
and noiseless way.

888
00:50:00,271 --> 00:50:04,207
- I've been talking
to Dr. Glock.

889
00:50:04,242 --> 00:50:05,769
And what does he say?

890
00:50:08,246 --> 00:50:10,213
He wants to do some tests.

891
00:51:07,067 --> 00:51:10,279
Why did I agree to
a public gastroscopy?

892
00:51:10,320 --> 00:51:12,823
Why couldn't I be more assertive?

893
00:51:25,210 --> 00:51:29,673
Dr. Glock took a sample
of my small intestine for a biopsy.

894
00:51:29,715 --> 00:51:32,176
Naturally, I feared the worst

895
00:51:32,426 --> 00:51:35,012
and amidst the hedonism
in front of my eyes,

896
00:51:35,262 --> 00:51:37,055
I could only see misery.

897
00:51:45,607 --> 00:51:48,476
- How did you meet her?

898
00:51:48,511 --> 00:51:53,382
She was balling my dad.

899
00:51:53,417 --> 00:51:55,615
And my mum came back from
a film shoot in the jungle

900
00:51:55,650 --> 00:51:59,553
and caught her
pinching his nipples.

901
00:51:59,588 --> 00:52:01,786
She tried to pretend she was
scratching a mosquito bite,

902
00:52:01,821 --> 00:52:04,327
but my mum saw right through it.

903
00:52:04,362 --> 00:52:06,395
I mean, she knew a thing or two
about mosquitoes

904
00:52:06,430 --> 00:52:08,628
after shooting in the jungle.

905
00:52:08,663 --> 00:52:12,302
So, my mum moved out,
Elle moved in.

906
00:52:12,337 --> 00:52:13,732
It kind of didn't
really matter to me

907
00:52:13,767 --> 00:52:15,338
'cause I never saw my mum anyway

908
00:52:15,373 --> 00:52:17,835
and kind of hated her for it.

909
00:52:17,870 --> 00:52:20,409
And in a way --

910
00:52:20,444 --> 00:52:21,641
In a way, I was happy,

911
00:52:21,676 --> 00:52:24,710
'cause I finally
landed myself a mum

912
00:52:24,745 --> 00:52:26,547
who'd be around a bit more.

913
00:52:26,582 --> 00:52:30,452
So, she became your mother?

914
00:52:30,487 --> 00:52:32,817
Kind of.

915
00:52:32,852 --> 00:52:37,426
I mean, she left the cooking
for my dad like my mum did.

916
00:52:37,461 --> 00:52:39,758
But the fact we kind of
fiddled around sometimes

917
00:52:39,793 --> 00:52:42,464
maybe unmothered things
between us.

918
00:52:44,534 --> 00:52:48,470
In a way, I think Elle needed
a father figure

919
00:52:48,505 --> 00:52:52,001
after years of being away
at boarding school.

920
00:52:52,036 --> 00:52:55,774
She told me she went
to a run-down school.

921
00:52:55,809 --> 00:52:58,777
Maybe she meant
the hockey changing rooms.

922
00:52:58,812 --> 00:53:02,011
I remember her saying
those needed doing up.

923
00:53:02,046 --> 00:53:03,518
And Lamina?

924
00:53:03,553 --> 00:53:05,850
She just went to
a regular school, I think.

925
00:53:05,885 --> 00:53:08,853
No, I mean,
how did you meet her?

926
00:53:08,888 --> 00:53:11,592
Oh.

927
00:53:11,627 --> 00:53:13,363
She worked at a restaurant,

928
00:53:13,398 --> 00:53:15,926
and then Elle got into
a fight there,

929
00:53:15,961 --> 00:53:18,797
and they ended up getting
involved with each other.

930
00:53:18,832 --> 00:53:20,931
Lamina's really secretive
about food,

931
00:53:20,966 --> 00:53:22,372
and Elle found that fascinating,

932
00:53:22,407 --> 00:53:25,969
but then she got
too secretive and Elle --

933
00:53:26,004 --> 00:53:27,938
Elle got bored.

934
00:53:27,973 --> 00:53:29,709
But, you know, by that point,

935
00:53:29,744 --> 00:53:31,414
all sorts of things had
already happened between them,

936
00:53:31,449 --> 00:53:33,350
and they ended up
hating each other.

937
00:53:33,385 --> 00:53:35,550
But that's not really
anything new between us.

938
00:53:35,585 --> 00:53:38,289
We all kind of hate
each other anyway.

939
00:53:38,324 --> 00:53:40,357
Even though we do
need each other.

940
00:53:56,778 --> 00:53:58,572
The night was hell:

941
00:53:59,281 --> 00:54:03,285
cramps, bloating
and methane at its angriest.

942
00:54:05,370 --> 00:54:08,248
The group's silence
during the thinking walks

943
00:54:08,290 --> 00:54:10,667
soon changed from
convivial to hostile,

944
00:54:10,918 --> 00:54:15,172
which made it even harder to endure.

945
00:54:15,672 --> 00:54:18,592
There was nowhere to hide
in such an atmosphere

946
00:54:19,051 --> 00:54:22,262
and the silence stifled
all thought or reverie.

947
00:55:03,167 --> 00:55:04,870
Mind if I join you?

948
00:55:10,812 --> 00:55:12,911
How are you finding
your time here?

949
00:55:18,424 --> 00:55:20,589
Has Elle decided on a name yet?

950
00:55:24,694 --> 00:55:26,430
And the flanger?

951
00:55:32,570 --> 00:55:34,064
You don't look happy.

952
00:55:41,744 --> 00:55:44,074
It's hard to eat and talk.

953
00:55:44,109 --> 00:55:45,416
Why?

954
00:55:45,451 --> 00:55:46,978
Most people manage.

955
00:55:50,181 --> 00:55:51,950
Maybe I have a small mouth.

956
00:55:51,985 --> 00:55:53,688
Really?

957
00:55:53,723 --> 00:55:55,459
Let me see.

958
00:55:56,759 --> 00:55:58,495
Not now.

959
00:55:58,530 --> 00:56:00,024
Show me.

960
00:56:07,638 --> 00:56:10,573
That doesn't look small to me.

961
00:56:10,608 --> 00:56:12,168
Here...

962
00:56:12,203 --> 00:56:14,038
let's compare sizes.

963
00:56:23,082 --> 00:56:24,653
You see?

964
00:56:24,688 --> 00:56:25,951
Almost the same.

965
00:56:26,921 --> 00:56:28,690
A perfect match, even.

966
00:56:34,159 --> 00:56:37,534
Haven't you read that thing
enough times?

967
00:56:37,569 --> 00:56:38,832
Mind if I borrow it?

968
00:56:38,867 --> 00:56:41,670
Oh, you look a little lost
without it.

969
00:56:44,510 --> 00:56:47,742
It's just something to hold.

970
00:56:47,777 --> 00:56:50,206
And what if I gave you
something else to hold?

971
00:56:52,782 --> 00:56:55,112
I think Elle's waiting
for me out there.

972
00:56:55,147 --> 00:56:56,619
Oh, really?

973
00:56:56,654 --> 00:56:58,786
And you do everything Elle says?

974
00:56:58,821 --> 00:57:00,183
She's the boss.

975
00:57:00,218 --> 00:57:02,218
And how does that make you feel?

976
00:57:04,530 --> 00:57:06,959
I just make my noises.

977
00:57:06,994 --> 00:57:10,259
I was reading about you
and your noises.

978
00:57:10,294 --> 00:57:11,799
Yeah?

979
00:57:11,834 --> 00:57:14,868
You gave an interview, remember?

980
00:57:14,903 --> 00:57:16,100
Oh, yeah.

981
00:57:16,135 --> 00:57:17,970
I read it with great interest,

982
00:57:18,005 --> 00:57:20,775
and at times
I thought to myself,

983
00:57:20,810 --> 00:57:22,645
"This can't be true."

984
00:57:25,243 --> 00:57:26,979
Do you know something?

985
00:57:32,690 --> 00:57:35,889
I always wanted to be
an egg lady.

986
00:57:35,924 --> 00:57:38,661
You could queue up
for an omelet...

987
00:57:38,696 --> 00:57:41,664
and I'd serve you first.

988
00:57:41,699 --> 00:57:43,226
Cheers.

989
00:58:00,883 --> 00:58:02,751
- Jan Stevens...
- It's okay.

990
00:58:02,786 --> 00:58:04,852
It's okay.

991
00:58:04,887 --> 00:58:06,755
I need you, Billy.

992
00:58:06,790 --> 00:58:09,989
Ever since I first met you,
I've been thinking about you.

993
00:58:10,024 --> 00:58:11,287
I know I need to be
professional,

994
00:58:11,322 --> 00:58:12,794
but I can't stop thinking
about you,

995
00:58:12,829 --> 00:58:14,994
and I know you feel
the same about me.

996
00:58:27,910 --> 00:58:30,647
Jan Stevens.

997
00:58:30,682 --> 00:58:32,341
Why are you doing this?

998
00:59:17,355 --> 00:59:20,763
I do wonder sometimes if you're
perpetuating an archetype

999
00:59:20,798 --> 00:59:24,602
of epicurean toxicity
with all this culinary hysteria.

1000
00:59:26,672 --> 00:59:28,166
I don't want to give the public
the impression

1001
00:59:28,201 --> 00:59:31,367
we're espousing any kind
of dysfunctional

1002
00:59:31,402 --> 00:59:34,040
alimentary ideology.

1003
00:59:34,075 --> 00:59:35,844
- So, what do you want?

1004
00:59:35,879 --> 00:59:37,307
The happy chefs?

1005
00:59:37,342 --> 00:59:39,980
You know, what I would
appreciate is for you

1006
00:59:40,015 --> 00:59:42,851
to take some of
my ideas on board.

1007
00:59:42,886 --> 00:59:45,656
Just because I'm not involved in
the making of your sacred art

1008
00:59:45,691 --> 00:59:48,725
doesn't mean my ideas
lack validity.

1009
00:59:48,760 --> 00:59:50,694
You don't have to agree
with everything,

1010
00:59:50,729 --> 00:59:53,389
but to dismiss every opinion
of mine out of hand

1011
00:59:53,424 --> 00:59:55,897
when I've chosen to fund you
and promote you

1012
00:59:55,932 --> 00:59:57,393
above dozens of others

1013
00:59:57,428 --> 00:59:59,065
reeks of entitlement

1014
00:59:59,100 --> 01:00:02,002
rather than your perceived
notion of integrity.

1015
01:00:07,944 --> 01:00:11,110
Okay, we are all ears.

1016
01:00:11,145 --> 01:00:12,881
That's all I wanted to say.

1017
01:00:12,916 --> 01:00:14,982
There are critical forces
beyond me out there,

1018
01:00:15,017 --> 01:00:16,445
believe it or not,

1019
01:00:16,480 --> 01:00:18,821
and to make you aware of them
is part of my job,

1020
01:00:18,856 --> 01:00:22,451
even if you choose
not to subscribe to them.

1021
01:00:22,486 --> 01:00:24,728
- And that flanger --
- The flanger is staying.

1022
01:00:24,763 --> 01:00:27,192
- I'm just asking you
to turn it down a notch.

1023
01:00:27,227 --> 01:00:29,832
You can keep
the epicurean toxicity,

1024
01:00:29,867 --> 01:00:32,065
but indulge me on
the flanger, please.

1025
01:00:37,974 --> 01:00:39,677
Stones.

1026
01:00:41,813 --> 01:00:43,472
Stones.

1027
01:00:43,507 --> 01:00:45,309
- What?

1028
01:00:45,344 --> 01:00:47,047
Are you okay?

1029
01:00:49,348 --> 01:00:51,051
- No.

1030
01:00:53,418 --> 01:00:55,825
Just go back to bed.

1031
01:00:55,860 --> 01:00:58,388
There's nothing you can do.

1032
01:00:58,423 --> 01:01:01,864
Any news about the tests?

1033
01:01:01,899 --> 01:01:04,262
- No.

1034
01:01:04,297 --> 01:01:06,000
Maybe tomorrow.

1035
01:01:06,035 --> 01:01:09,201
He's got another test planned.

1036
01:01:09,236 --> 01:01:10,939
I'm sorry.

1037
01:01:13,372 --> 01:01:16,879
- Is it okay
to say I'm scared?

1038
01:01:16,914 --> 01:01:18,474
It's okay.

1039
01:01:18,509 --> 01:01:21,279
- I know.

1040
01:01:21,314 --> 01:01:23,149
Stones?

1041
01:01:23,184 --> 01:01:26,020
It will be okay.

1042
01:01:26,055 --> 01:01:27,585
I know it.

1043
01:01:31,456 --> 01:01:33,192
You heard me?

1044
01:02:47,499 --> 01:02:49,807
- That flanger.

1045
01:02:52,108 --> 01:02:55,846
What about it?

1046
01:02:55,881 --> 01:02:59,344
Did you talk to her about it?

1047
01:02:59,379 --> 01:03:01,918
She's not going to
change anything.

1048
01:03:01,953 --> 01:03:04,580
Once she decides something,
there's nothing you can do.

1049
01:03:04,615 --> 01:03:06,186
And if I try and say anything,

1050
01:03:06,221 --> 01:03:09,255
she just shouts
and accuses me of something.

1051
01:03:11,358 --> 01:03:14,095
Maybe you should think
about slapping her, then.

1052
01:03:16,561 --> 01:03:19,199
Well, don't say I told you,

1053
01:03:19,234 --> 01:03:20,970
but a quick slap
always does the trick.

1054
01:03:22,237 --> 01:03:25,403
It might shock her out of
her entrenched arrogance.

1055
01:03:27,638 --> 01:03:31,013
And what if you muted
the flanger?

1056
01:03:31,048 --> 01:03:32,509
Chances are
she won't notice anyway

1057
01:03:32,544 --> 01:03:34,511
what with all
the other noise going on.

1058
01:03:38,286 --> 01:03:41,188
You don't know
how angry she gets.

1059
01:03:41,223 --> 01:03:44,323
And she'll notice now she knows
what a flanger is.

1060
01:03:44,358 --> 01:03:46,292
Just try it.

1061
01:03:51,266 --> 01:03:53,563
I don't know.

1062
01:03:53,598 --> 01:03:56,335
I don't want to start
a fight and...

1063
01:03:58,075 --> 01:04:01,109
You will turn the flanger off.

1064
01:04:01,144 --> 01:04:02,605
I will turn the flanger off.

1065
01:04:02,640 --> 01:04:04,211
And you will convince Elle

1066
01:04:04,246 --> 01:04:07,082
to do everything I say from now.

1067
01:04:07,117 --> 01:04:11,152
And I will convince Elle to do
everything you say from now.

1068
01:04:11,187 --> 01:04:12,582
- Good.

1069
01:04:23,405 --> 01:04:26,658
The arguments between
Jan Stevens and the group

1070
01:04:26,950 --> 01:04:28,994
became increasingly fraught

1071
01:04:29,453 --> 01:04:32,831
and the escalating threat from
The Mangrove Snacks

1072
01:04:33,081 --> 01:04:35,375
only added to the general tension.

1073
01:04:35,918 --> 01:04:38,670
My energy was at an all-time low.

1074
01:04:40,547 --> 01:04:44,384
My bowels felt
as hard as rusty pipes

1075
01:04:44,927 --> 01:04:47,971
and I could feel it
all getting worse.

1076
01:04:56,199 --> 01:04:57,627
Jan Stevens.

1077
01:05:16,500 --> 01:05:19,711
Tomorrow,
a long tube with lubricant

1078
01:05:20,087 --> 01:05:22,089
will be inserted
deep into my rectum

1079
01:05:22,381 --> 01:05:25,300
and gas will inflate my bowels.

1080
01:05:26,218 --> 01:05:28,762
Dr. Glock gave me a laxative,

1081
01:05:29,054 --> 01:05:32,724
which would imprison me in
the toilet for most of the night.

1082
01:05:33,392 --> 01:05:35,394
But before surrendering my body,

1083
01:05:35,686 --> 01:05:37,855
there was a stool sample
to prepare.

1084
01:05:38,313 --> 01:05:41,149
Behold, O Lord;
for I am in distress:

1085
01:05:41,441 --> 01:05:42,985
my bowels are troubled.

1086
01:05:43,235 --> 01:05:44,987
Mine heart is turned within me,

1087
01:05:45,320 --> 01:05:46,905
there is nothing to comfort me.

1088
01:05:47,781 --> 01:05:48,866
One

1089
01:05:49,449 --> 01:05:50,742
Two

1090
01:05:51,451 --> 01:05:52,452
Three

1091
01:07:52,936 --> 01:07:54,804
Her ability to provoke

1092
01:07:54,839 --> 01:07:58,280
for the sake of provocation
began to wane.

1093
01:07:58,315 --> 01:08:01,844
Once she got a taste of scandal,
she became addicted.

1094
01:08:01,879 --> 01:08:04,649
And it soon became a distraction

1095
01:08:04,684 --> 01:08:07,157
from the work Billy
and I were doing,

1096
01:08:07,192 --> 01:08:09,522
yet she knew that
the shock value

1097
01:08:09,557 --> 01:08:12,657
and polemics would make a bigger
noise than anything we could do.

1098
01:08:12,692 --> 01:08:14,758
Could you survive without her?

1099
01:08:16,861 --> 01:08:20,467
Yes.

1100
01:08:20,502 --> 01:08:25,670
But Billy and I were always
intuitive in our approach.

1101
01:08:25,705 --> 01:08:28,277
Elle always did the applications
for funding

1102
01:08:28,312 --> 01:08:30,213
and always knew
how to word things,

1103
01:08:30,248 --> 01:08:32,281
which I always envied.

1104
01:08:32,316 --> 01:08:35,614
I was always led to believe
that the visceral urge I had

1105
01:08:35,649 --> 01:08:37,748
about making culinary sounds
wasn't valid

1106
01:08:37,783 --> 01:08:39,354
unless backed up by theory

1107
01:08:39,389 --> 01:08:42,225
or at least the kind of
conceptual package

1108
01:08:42,260 --> 01:08:44,722
that Elle could pull together.

1109
01:08:44,757 --> 01:08:48,627
Sound always excited me
and -- and transformed me,

1110
01:08:48,662 --> 01:08:51,465
but I could never explain why.

1111
01:08:51,500 --> 01:08:56,239
What made you want to be
a Sonic Caterer?

1112
01:08:56,274 --> 01:08:58,769
Maybe my mother.

1113
01:08:58,804 --> 01:09:02,344
My father only ever went
to the kitchen to eat,

1114
01:09:02,379 --> 01:09:04,247
and I saw what it did
to my mother.

1115
01:09:04,282 --> 01:09:07,745
She silently cooked
and washed the dishes,

1116
01:09:07,780 --> 01:09:11,749
pretending it couldn't be
any other way,

1117
01:09:11,784 --> 01:09:13,454
and he took her for granted,

1118
01:09:13,489 --> 01:09:16,490
never once considering himself
it could be another way.

1119
01:09:16,525 --> 01:09:18,558
And, besides,
he earned the money,

1120
01:09:18,593 --> 01:09:20,395
even though she had to
brush her own dreams

1121
01:09:20,430 --> 01:09:22,892
and ambitions under the carpet
to facilitate his earnings.

1122
01:09:22,927 --> 01:09:25,433
She later claimed that no woman
should live like this,

1123
01:09:25,468 --> 01:09:27,270
but...

1124
01:09:27,305 --> 01:09:31,373
but when my -- my brother's
girlfriend moved in with him

1125
01:09:31,408 --> 01:09:33,771
and didn't do her share
of the cooking,

1126
01:09:33,806 --> 01:09:36,510
she resented her.

1127
01:09:36,545 --> 01:09:38,512
Jealousy usurped ideology,

1128
01:09:38,547 --> 01:09:41,614
and it was clear that my mother
expected other women

1129
01:09:41,649 --> 01:09:44,254
to work as hard as she did
in the kitchen,

1130
01:09:44,289 --> 01:09:46,553
even though she knew it wasn't
the way it should be.

1131
01:09:46,588 --> 01:09:47,983
That struggle in her head

1132
01:09:48,018 --> 01:09:50,359
between demanding freedom
from the kitchen

1133
01:09:50,394 --> 01:09:52,328
and being confined to it

1134
01:09:52,363 --> 01:09:54,891
contaminated my --
my brother's relationship

1135
01:09:54,926 --> 01:09:58,334
and resulted in him
leaving his girlfriend.

1136
01:10:00,965 --> 01:10:03,372
And then my -- my mother
picked on my girlfriend,

1137
01:10:03,407 --> 01:10:06,441
who turned out to be Elle

1138
01:10:06,476 --> 01:10:08,641
and even lazier than my father.

1139
01:10:11,448 --> 01:10:14,746
Yeah, I was the one doing
the cooking in the relationship.

1140
01:10:14,781 --> 01:10:16,748
How did you meet her?

1141
01:10:16,783 --> 01:10:21,687
She got into a fight in
the restaurant where I worked.

1142
01:10:21,722 --> 01:10:23,689
Some creep kept groping
one of my colleagues,

1143
01:10:23,724 --> 01:10:25,757
and she came to her defense.

1144
01:10:25,792 --> 01:10:30,333
I felt awful for not helping,
but...that was Elle.

1145
01:10:30,368 --> 01:10:32,027
Unlike me, she was --
she was fearless

1146
01:10:32,062 --> 01:10:33,963
and she would stand up

1147
01:10:33,998 --> 01:10:37,439
for vulnerable people,
even if she'd lose.

1148
01:10:37,474 --> 01:10:39,375
So, she told him to leave
my colleague alone,

1149
01:10:39,410 --> 01:10:41,839
and he punched her hard
in the womb,

1150
01:10:41,874 --> 01:10:44,072
but she fought back,

1151
01:10:44,107 --> 01:10:46,580
even if it resulted in her
being kicked to the ground

1152
01:10:46,615 --> 01:10:48,648
by this thug and his friends.

1153
01:10:48,683 --> 01:10:50,419
And after that we became friends

1154
01:10:50,454 --> 01:10:53,587
and then bandmates
then lovers,

1155
01:10:53,622 --> 01:10:58,724
only I-I left her for someone
I was balling and...

1156
01:10:58,759 --> 01:11:03,333
since then, it's been nothing
but mini-punishments from her.

1157
01:11:03,368 --> 01:11:06,402
- She told me you were
secretive about food.

1158
01:11:08,373 --> 01:11:11,000
Sorry?

1159
01:11:11,035 --> 01:11:15,873
Just that, she was curious.

1160
01:11:15,908 --> 01:11:16,973
How do you mean?

1161
01:11:17,008 --> 01:11:18,612
Nothing.

1162
01:11:18,647 --> 01:11:21,076
Just...

1163
01:11:21,111 --> 01:11:23,353
Doesn't matter.

1164
01:11:32,751 --> 01:11:35,629
He visited me twice a year,

1165
01:11:35,671 --> 01:11:39,383
since he couldn't afford
such exotic punishments more regularly

1166
01:11:39,424 --> 01:11:42,094
on his income.

1167
01:11:43,637 --> 01:11:47,975
He'd take the day off work
when he arranged to visit me,

1168
01:11:48,016 --> 01:11:51,478
since our ritual depended
on the expansion of time.

1169
01:11:52,104 --> 01:11:57,401
After the obligatory small talk,
I ordered him to go into the room

1170
01:11:57,442 --> 01:12:01,071
where he should wait for me to arrive
in a formal outfit.

1171
01:12:02,322 --> 01:12:05,951
My manner would change

1172
01:12:05,993 --> 01:12:13,458
and I'd become a different person
that he paid me to be.

1173
01:12:15,335 --> 01:12:20,132
After making him rub my feet
for as long as I wanted,

1174
01:12:20,174 --> 01:12:22,134
I put him on a leash

1175
01:12:22,176 --> 01:12:26,513
and walked him to a special toilet

1176
01:12:26,555 --> 01:12:29,641
where his head could be placed in

1177
01:12:29,683 --> 01:12:35,272
with his hands handcuffed to the side.

1178
01:12:36,106 --> 01:12:39,026
There, he would fall under my spell

1179
01:12:39,067 --> 01:12:42,196
and stay for as long as I wanted.

1180
01:12:44,031 --> 01:12:48,202
The sound of my approaching footsteps
made him giddy

1181
01:12:48,243 --> 01:12:53,790
with a contradictory mixture
of fear and excitement,

1182
01:12:53,832 --> 01:12:59,630
and he'd often tell me
that the anticipation and threat

1183
01:12:59,671 --> 01:13:03,759
were far more potent
than his eventual punishment.

1184
01:13:06,178 --> 01:13:12,309
He claimed
that being left inside that box

1185
01:13:12,351 --> 01:13:17,022
cured him from all the stresses
of caring for his ill mother,

1186
01:13:17,064 --> 01:13:19,441
along with the impotent rage he suffered

1187
01:13:19,483 --> 01:13:22,653
at the hands of rude
and contemptuous customers

1188
01:13:22,694 --> 01:13:27,115
in the high-class restaurant
where he worked.

1189
01:13:27,991 --> 01:13:33,997
He found an inner peace
when left helpless under my control,

1190
01:13:34,039 --> 01:13:38,252
and when his punishment
eventually arrived

1191
01:13:38,293 --> 01:13:42,548
after several hours
of silent anticipation,

1192
01:13:42,589 --> 01:13:46,510
he underwent
the most profound catharsis.

1193
01:13:47,469 --> 01:13:51,223
He normally found such things
disgusting,

1194
01:13:51,265 --> 01:13:55,602
but when I sat above him
and used him as my toilet,

1195
01:13:55,644 --> 01:14:01,108
his whole being transformed
into something beyond ecstasy.

1196
01:14:02,150 --> 01:14:06,488
He regarded such rituals
as bordering on religious,

1197
01:14:06,530 --> 01:14:10,367
as if what came from my body

1198
01:14:10,409 --> 01:14:13,704
was a communion.

1199
01:14:14,746 --> 01:14:18,625
The moments after
his self-induced orgasm

1200
01:14:18,667 --> 01:14:21,503
were always a tenuous thing to navigate

1201
01:14:21,545 --> 01:14:25,966
once he realized how much
of a mess there was to clear up,

1202
01:14:26,008 --> 01:14:30,053
but these rituals always ended
on a cordial note

1203
01:14:30,095 --> 01:14:35,100
with a few passing words about the state
of the chrysanthemums on my balcony.

1204
01:14:37,060 --> 01:14:39,605
I was too scared to go
through with the colonoscopy,

1205
01:14:39,855 --> 01:14:43,650
but Elle made up for it with
her scatological performance,

1206
01:14:43,942 --> 01:14:46,361
which shocked the audience so much

1207
01:14:46,403 --> 01:14:50,449
that none of them ventured
backstage for sexual activity.

1208
01:14:51,742 --> 01:14:55,495
Whether I underwent the procedure
in front of an audience or not

1209
01:14:55,537 --> 01:14:57,748
made no difference by this stage.

1210
01:14:58,373 --> 01:15:01,627
Everything was becoming a blur.

1211
01:16:06,066 --> 01:16:09,194
Technical Assistant Wim
reported Elle to Jan Stevens

1212
01:16:09,236 --> 01:16:10,445
for deceiving the audience

1213
01:16:10,487 --> 01:16:12,614
with chocolate mousse
instead of my excrement,

1214
01:16:12,656 --> 01:16:16,493
which further ruined
the trust between them.

1215
01:16:16,535 --> 01:16:18,662
However,
more importantly,

1216
01:16:18,704 --> 01:16:21,373
the group were turning
against themselves

1217
01:16:21,623 --> 01:16:26,295
and all I could do was document
what I was hired to do.

1218
01:16:27,462 --> 01:16:30,174
A second attempt at a colonoscopy
was imminent,

1219
01:16:30,215 --> 01:16:34,303
which Elle naturally wanted to turn
into a performance.

1220
01:16:34,761 --> 01:16:38,640
Why I went along with her plans
is beyond me.

1221
01:16:39,141 --> 01:16:41,185
Was it her persuasion?

1222
01:16:41,226 --> 01:16:43,312
Was it finally a chance
to participate

1223
01:16:43,353 --> 01:16:45,314
in something
artistically viable

1224
01:16:45,898 --> 01:16:49,401
or was it just my
hopeless inability

1225
01:16:49,776 --> 01:16:51,361
to say no to people?

1226
01:17:11,329 --> 01:17:13,065
What?

1227
01:17:13,100 --> 01:17:15,738
The Mangrove Snacks.

1228
01:17:15,773 --> 01:17:17,168
Looks like
one of your installations.

1229
01:17:17,203 --> 01:17:18,741
You would say that.

1230
01:17:18,776 --> 01:17:20,072
- But, seriously,
we could use this.

1231
01:17:20,107 --> 01:17:21,403
But it's a terrapin.

1232
01:17:21,438 --> 01:17:23,471
Since when did we do anything
with meat?

1233
01:17:23,506 --> 01:17:26,980
We've always been about fruits,
vegetables, nuts, and seeds.

1234
01:17:27,015 --> 01:17:29,279
Don't forget eggs, Billy.

1235
01:17:29,314 --> 01:17:31,182
You'll never let me
live that down, will you?

1236
01:17:31,217 --> 01:17:32,755
You're the one who announced

1237
01:17:32,790 --> 01:17:35,219
that you're struggling
with an egg fetish.

1238
01:17:35,254 --> 01:17:37,386
It is not a fetish!

1239
01:17:37,421 --> 01:17:40,829
So, having white dreams
about hotel staff laying eggs

1240
01:17:40,864 --> 01:17:42,193
is not a fetish?

1241
01:17:42,228 --> 01:17:44,129
Not to mention
sexually objectifying

1242
01:17:44,164 --> 01:17:46,164
the uniforms of the poorly paid.

1243
01:17:50,104 --> 01:17:51,136
What was that for?

1244
01:17:51,171 --> 01:17:52,775
Stop it, all of you!

1245
01:17:52,810 --> 01:17:54,337
Jan Stevens.

1246
01:17:54,372 --> 01:17:57,076
The Mangrove Snacks
have paid us another visit.

1247
01:17:57,111 --> 01:17:58,440
I've called the police force

1248
01:17:58,475 --> 01:18:00,013
and they'll come
and take fingerprints.

1249
01:18:00,048 --> 01:18:02,884
Nobody is to touch anything.

1250
01:18:02,919 --> 01:18:06,382
And whatever equipment was left
here will have to be examined.

1251
01:18:06,417 --> 01:18:08,923
Why didn't the youngster
pack everything?

1252
01:18:08,958 --> 01:18:10,760
That was his job.

1253
01:18:10,795 --> 01:18:13,290
Technical Assistant Wim
is not your servant.

1254
01:18:13,325 --> 01:18:15,424
He does what he can.

1255
01:18:15,459 --> 01:18:19,461
But whatever was left here will
have to go for fingerprinting...

1256
01:18:19,496 --> 01:18:22,838
including...

1257
01:18:22,873 --> 01:18:24,367
this.

1258
01:18:26,371 --> 01:18:27,876
You set this up.

1259
01:18:27,911 --> 01:18:29,438
Don't be ridiculous.

1260
01:18:29,473 --> 01:18:31,242
How convenient for you.

1261
01:18:31,277 --> 01:18:33,442
We can live
without the flanger.

1262
01:18:33,477 --> 01:18:35,279
You're in cahoots.

1263
01:18:35,314 --> 01:18:37,248
This is a conspiracy.

1264
01:18:37,283 --> 01:18:39,019
Until the authorities
say otherwise,

1265
01:18:39,054 --> 01:18:41,318
we'll have to put
a pause on proceedings.

1266
01:18:41,353 --> 01:18:43,826
Get some rest.
It'll do you good.

1267
01:18:43,861 --> 01:18:45,355
You might also consider the fact

1268
01:18:45,390 --> 01:18:48,259
that we're still waiting for you
to decide on a band name.

1269
01:18:48,294 --> 01:18:50,393
Elle and the Gastric Ulcers.

1270
01:18:52,232 --> 01:18:55,134
See, they always undermine me.

1271
01:18:55,169 --> 01:18:57,807
Is that your final name?

1272
01:18:57,842 --> 01:18:59,567
Yes.

1273
01:18:59,602 --> 01:19:02,009
I don't know. Maybe.

1274
01:19:02,044 --> 01:19:05,243
Okay. Sleep on it, then.

1275
01:19:05,278 --> 01:19:07,146
But hurry up...

1276
01:19:07,181 --> 01:19:09,786
unless you want me to come up
with a name for you.

1277
01:20:12,576 --> 01:20:14,312
You know,

1278
01:20:14,347 --> 01:20:16,446
when this residency's over...

1279
01:20:18,450 --> 01:20:21,957
...you'll still have
that catalog.

1280
01:20:21,992 --> 01:20:23,486
Yeah.

1281
01:20:26,095 --> 01:20:28,326
Wouldn't it make more sense
to appreciate the things

1282
01:20:28,361 --> 01:20:30,427
that might not be
around much longer?

1283
01:20:36,303 --> 01:20:38,105
What?

1284
01:20:38,140 --> 01:20:41,042
You've had your fun and now it's
back to the stupid catalog!

1285
01:20:43,211 --> 01:20:44,639
I didn't know we were serious.

1286
01:20:44,674 --> 01:20:46,509
We're not,

1287
01:20:46,544 --> 01:20:48,148
but there's something
between serious

1288
01:20:48,183 --> 01:20:51,085
and being completely ignored.

1289
01:20:51,120 --> 01:20:54,385
I'd just like some affection,
or is that too much to ask?

1290
01:20:59,656 --> 01:21:02,327
Why did you...

1291
01:21:02,362 --> 01:21:05,066
you know...

1292
01:21:05,101 --> 01:21:07,068
Why did I what?

1293
01:21:07,103 --> 01:21:09,972
Why did you chase me?

1294
01:21:10,007 --> 01:21:12,667
Why do you think?

1295
01:21:12,702 --> 01:21:14,405
Because I liked you.

1296
01:21:17,113 --> 01:21:18,607
Was it because of this
flanger business?

1297
01:21:18,642 --> 01:21:20,983
There's no flanger business.

1298
01:21:21,018 --> 01:21:22,281
So, you'd still
allow me in your bed

1299
01:21:22,316 --> 01:21:24,085
even if we kept the flanger?

1300
01:21:24,120 --> 01:21:26,252
Of course.

1301
01:21:26,287 --> 01:21:27,453
Even two flangers.

1302
01:21:29,290 --> 01:21:32,995
Would you allow me in your bed
after the residency's over?

1303
01:21:33,030 --> 01:21:36,493
Yes!

1304
01:21:36,528 --> 01:21:38,231
What's wrong?

1305
01:21:41,269 --> 01:21:43,500
We can make this work
if you want to.

1306
01:21:45,735 --> 01:21:48,505
I don't know.

1307
01:21:48,540 --> 01:21:51,541
It's just starting to feel...

1308
01:21:51,576 --> 01:21:54,379
heavy...you know?

1309
01:21:54,414 --> 01:21:55,611
Look, if this is about
the flanger,

1310
01:21:55,646 --> 01:21:57,250
we can put all of that
to one side.

1311
01:21:57,285 --> 01:21:59,648
It's not about the flanger.

1312
01:21:59,683 --> 01:22:02,684
Well, I don't know, maybe
the flanger's got me thinking.

1313
01:22:02,719 --> 01:22:04,653
Thinking what?

1314
01:22:04,688 --> 01:22:07,062
We have a tour coming up and...

1315
01:22:07,097 --> 01:22:10,626
I can do international love.

1316
01:22:10,661 --> 01:22:15,169
Look, I like you, Jan...

1317
01:22:15,204 --> 01:22:18,238
but...

1318
01:22:18,273 --> 01:22:21,571
So, that's it, then?

1319
01:22:21,606 --> 01:22:24,409
We could ball each other
at one of the orgies.

1320
01:22:26,743 --> 01:22:30,514
That's really constructive
of you, Billy.

1321
01:22:34,124 --> 01:22:35,288
Well, I should probably go.

1322
01:22:35,323 --> 01:22:37,191
They're already
asking questions.

1323
01:22:37,226 --> 01:22:39,556
Do you know something, Billy?

1324
01:22:39,591 --> 01:22:41,492
In all the years I've done this,

1325
01:22:41,527 --> 01:22:45,166
I've always
maintained a distance.

1326
01:22:45,201 --> 01:22:47,168
It didn't matter
how attracted I was

1327
01:22:47,203 --> 01:22:49,170
or how lonely it got
in this bedroom.

1328
01:22:49,205 --> 01:22:52,470
I've always remained
professional.

1329
01:22:52,505 --> 01:22:54,802
You were the first person
to ignite something in me

1330
01:22:54,837 --> 01:22:59,081
to such a degree
that I couldn't stop myself.

1331
01:22:59,116 --> 01:23:00,775
I really didn't want to be
one of those people

1332
01:23:00,810 --> 01:23:02,678
using my position
to seduce someone,

1333
01:23:02,713 --> 01:23:05,054
and I'm sorry.

1334
01:23:05,089 --> 01:23:06,616
I'm really sorry.

1335
01:23:10,358 --> 01:23:13,128
Can't we try somehow
to make it work?

1336
01:23:18,498 --> 01:23:22,368
Sometimes love can mean more...

1337
01:23:22,403 --> 01:23:23,699
by walking away.

1338
01:23:26,374 --> 01:23:28,143
Not the catalog!

1339
01:23:28,178 --> 01:23:30,673
No! Don't go, Billy! No!

1340
01:23:30,708 --> 01:23:34,149
Billy, I need you! Stay!

1341
01:23:34,184 --> 01:23:35,381
No, don't go, Billy!

1342
01:23:35,416 --> 01:23:37,647
Please, stay!
I need you!

1343
01:23:37,682 --> 01:23:39,451
Please, Billy!

1344
01:23:39,486 --> 01:23:43,158
It wasn't the flanger, I swear!

1345
01:23:43,193 --> 01:23:45,325
It wasn't the flanger.

1346
01:24:29,778 --> 01:24:33,907
I took the laxative powder again
and this time there was no retreat

1347
01:24:33,949 --> 01:24:35,367
from the colon examination.

1348
01:24:36,118 --> 01:24:38,120
Since Dr. Glock
was the performer,

1349
01:24:38,412 --> 01:24:41,623
Lamina and Billy
allowed Elle to join them

1350
01:24:41,665 --> 01:24:43,417
and play with
the graphic equalizer

1351
01:24:43,458 --> 01:24:45,085
as long as
it was unplugged.

1352
01:24:45,794 --> 01:24:48,297
Elle became fascinated
by both the sonic

1353
01:24:48,338 --> 01:24:52,801
and performative potential
of my stomach,

1354
01:24:53,552 --> 01:24:57,347
but to reveal myself to
an audience was a mistake.

1355
01:24:57,890 --> 01:25:01,476
Something so private sacrificed
for the sake of art.

1356
01:26:07,502 --> 01:26:09,205
Stones...

1357
01:26:11,033 --> 01:26:14,001
Stones...
Are you okay?

1358
01:26:14,036 --> 01:26:15,739
- Leave me alone.

1359
01:26:34,397 --> 01:26:37,827
Any news about the flanger?

1360
01:26:37,862 --> 01:26:39,829
I don't know.

1361
01:26:39,864 --> 01:26:43,305
These things take time.

1362
01:26:43,340 --> 01:26:45,934
She did it on purpose.

1363
01:26:45,969 --> 01:26:49,003
Come on, you really think she
orchestrated the whole thing?

1364
01:26:51,447 --> 01:26:53,381
She did it for her advantage.

1365
01:26:56,320 --> 01:26:59,717
She didn't take the hob away
for fingerprints,

1366
01:26:59,752 --> 01:27:02,522
but she took the flanger.

1367
01:27:02,557 --> 01:27:04,018
So, what do you suggest?

1368
01:27:18,001 --> 01:27:19,671
- Stop that. Shh.

1369
01:27:19,706 --> 01:27:21,409
- Yeah, alright.

1370
01:27:45,732 --> 01:27:47,402
- Shh.

1371
01:30:52,721 --> 01:30:54,248
Jan Stevens.

1372
01:31:05,668 --> 01:31:07,800
- So, she holds
police parties

1373
01:31:07,835 --> 01:31:10,968
as well as Billy parties.

1374
01:31:11,003 --> 01:31:12,805
I could've told you
that one erection

1375
01:31:12,840 --> 01:31:14,972
would never be enough
for someone like her.

1376
01:31:15,007 --> 01:31:17,711
- Sad you weren't invited?
- No.

1377
01:31:17,746 --> 01:31:19,581
- You always have to
spill your night juice

1378
01:31:19,616 --> 01:31:21,649
wherever you go.

1379
01:31:21,684 --> 01:31:25,851
But to do it to a patron
is your number-one disgrace.

1380
01:31:25,886 --> 01:31:28,821
You're incorrigible,
you know that, Billy Rubin?

1381
01:31:28,856 --> 01:31:31,725
You've jeopardized our residency
with that silly willy of yours.

1382
01:31:31,760 --> 01:31:34,563
You've jeopardized it
with your silly...

1383
01:31:34,598 --> 01:31:36,961
- Silly what?

1384
01:31:36,996 --> 01:31:39,667
See? You can't even touché.

1385
01:31:39,702 --> 01:31:40,998
Wait till I write my memoirs.

1386
01:31:41,033 --> 01:31:43,902
Threatening me again.

1387
01:31:43,937 --> 01:31:45,871
You write those memoirs.

1388
01:31:45,906 --> 01:31:47,939
- I will.
-- Okay. Fine.

1389
01:31:47,974 --> 01:31:49,270
Just don't forget to write about

1390
01:31:49,305 --> 01:31:51,008
that stupid salami
you hide in your bed.

1391
01:31:51,043 --> 01:31:53,274
- Stop it!

1392
01:31:53,309 --> 01:31:55,980
For all our arguments
as a group,

1393
01:31:56,015 --> 01:31:57,652
the one thing that united us

1394
01:31:57,687 --> 01:32:00,281
was a quest for catharsis.

1395
01:32:00,316 --> 01:32:04,186
Maybe we disagreed on -- on what
we defined as catharsis,

1396
01:32:04,221 --> 01:32:09,257
but we were all harboring
something that needed purging.

1397
01:32:09,292 --> 01:32:12,667
- And could I ask
what you were harboring?

1398
01:32:14,869 --> 01:32:16,605
Just things.

1399
01:32:16,640 --> 01:32:17,870
Could you elaborate?

1400
01:32:17,905 --> 01:32:19,234
Does knowing about our demons

1401
01:32:19,269 --> 01:32:22,237
make any difference
to what you hear?

1402
01:32:22,272 --> 01:32:25,009
Only that Elle was very open
about hers.

1403
01:32:27,849 --> 01:32:31,246
Not as open as
you'd like to think.

1404
01:32:31,281 --> 01:32:32,885
I know about Miss Lindenson.

1405
01:32:32,920 --> 01:32:34,656
I know what really happened.

1406
01:32:36,660 --> 01:32:39,892
The only person laughing at her
going into anaphylactic shock

1407
01:32:39,927 --> 01:32:41,993
was Elle herself.

1408
01:32:42,028 --> 01:32:45,898
A comical looking, puffed-up
face, just like in the movies.

1409
01:32:45,933 --> 01:32:50,001
But surely she didn't know
she was going to die?

1410
01:32:50,036 --> 01:32:52,905
But she still laughed
until it was too late.

1411
01:32:52,940 --> 01:32:54,203
But she was a tiny girl.

1412
01:32:54,238 --> 01:32:56,040
But she's an adult now,

1413
01:32:56,075 --> 01:32:59,747
and she still can't
face herself.

1414
01:32:59,782 --> 01:33:02,145
For Elle,
it's easier to reinvent the past

1415
01:33:02,180 --> 01:33:05,148
to -- to gain people's sympathy

1416
01:33:05,183 --> 01:33:09,317
than to confront the guilt
and -- and risk people's anger.

1417
01:33:09,352 --> 01:33:11,352
Elle's father was at the party,

1418
01:33:11,387 --> 01:33:14,795
and he slapped her hard
in the face for laughing.

1419
01:33:14,830 --> 01:33:18,359
So, yes, that tragedy
did affect her,

1420
01:33:18,394 --> 01:33:20,801
but not in the way
she'd like you to believe.

1421
01:33:36,313 --> 01:33:39,985
You're in the shops.

1422
01:33:40,020 --> 01:33:43,318
You're lost in the aisles.

1423
01:33:43,353 --> 01:33:45,155
Back and forth.

1424
01:33:45,190 --> 01:33:47,960
Back and forth.

1425
01:33:47,995 --> 01:33:51,359
A thought is troubling you.

1426
01:33:51,394 --> 01:33:54,131
Could it be the absence
of a gâteau de ménage

1427
01:33:54,166 --> 01:33:58,036
that is playing tricks
on the mind?

1428
01:33:58,071 --> 01:33:59,939
Or the sight of Dan,

1429
01:33:59,974 --> 01:34:01,842
the twilight
replenishment operative,

1430
01:34:01,877 --> 01:34:03,943
coming back from his shift
to search for

1431
01:34:03,978 --> 01:34:06,814
a mystery
Chartreuse Elixir Vegetal?

1432
01:34:10,347 --> 01:34:13,887
Or is it something else?

1433
01:34:13,922 --> 01:34:16,252
A cake from the past that
never leaves you alone

1434
01:34:16,287 --> 01:34:20,091
and follows you into the shops.

1435
01:34:20,126 --> 01:34:22,192
I certainly hope not.

1436
01:34:50,387 --> 01:34:52,926
You're feeling tired
but you can't leave

1437
01:34:52,961 --> 01:34:54,455
until you've shopped.

1438
01:34:54,490 --> 01:34:57,997
Your fellow customers
are collapsing all around you.

1439
01:34:58,032 --> 01:35:01,066
One...by one.

1440
01:35:01,101 --> 01:35:03,904
They call it the retail malady.

1441
01:35:03,939 --> 01:35:06,038
And, one by one,

1442
01:35:06,073 --> 01:35:08,810
you will all succumb to it.

1443
01:35:52,961 --> 01:35:56,590
It was their final trip to the shops
and maybe mine, too.

1444
01:35:59,676 --> 01:36:03,055
Nine o'clock in the morning
was my appointment with Dr. Glock.

1445
01:36:03,305 --> 01:36:08,310
The diagnosis I was dreading
kept going through my head.

1446
01:36:09,311 --> 01:36:13,982
Nights such as these
might be something to savor

1447
01:36:14,024 --> 01:36:16,401
in case they are my last.

1448
01:36:17,408 --> 01:36:19,078
- So...

1449
01:36:19,113 --> 01:36:20,816
your results are in.

1450
01:36:23,249 --> 01:36:24,952
And...

1451
01:36:27,484 --> 01:36:29,484
How do I say this?

1452
01:36:35,393 --> 01:36:38,130
You have...

1453
01:36:47,009 --> 01:36:48,536
Wait.

1454
01:36:48,571 --> 01:36:50,043
I think I left something
at home.

1455
01:36:50,078 --> 01:36:51,572
I could have sworn --

1456
01:36:51,607 --> 01:36:54,542
I know I had it
by the front door when --

1457
01:36:54,577 --> 01:36:57,446
What do I have?

1458
01:36:57,481 --> 01:37:01,153
I was going to tell you.

1459
01:37:01,188 --> 01:37:02,957
Tell me, what do I have?

1460
01:37:02,992 --> 01:37:04,552
Celiac disease.

1461
01:37:04,587 --> 01:37:07,863
- What?
- Celiac disease.

1462
01:37:08,624 --> 01:37:10,030
It's okay.

1463
01:37:10,065 --> 01:37:13,033
Your villi are a mess,
but you'll live.

1464
01:37:13,068 --> 01:37:14,628
What is it?

1465
01:37:14,663 --> 01:37:18,170
It's an autoimmune --

1466
01:37:18,205 --> 01:37:19,270
Let me go!

1467
01:37:19,305 --> 01:37:20,568
Keep talking.

1468
01:37:20,603 --> 01:37:22,944
What do I need to take?

1469
01:37:22,979 --> 01:37:26,112
You don't need
to take anything!

1470
01:37:26,147 --> 01:37:27,476
Avoid gluten.

1471
01:37:27,511 --> 01:37:30,083
Avoid gluten and you'll be fine.

1472
01:37:30,118 --> 01:37:31,645
Tell me more!

1473
01:37:31,680 --> 01:37:33,383
It's in wheat.

1474
01:37:33,418 --> 01:37:36,188
Avoid bread, pasta,

1475
01:37:36,223 --> 01:37:39,026
beer, pastries,

1476
01:37:39,061 --> 01:37:40,929
and Christmas pudding.

1477
01:37:40,964 --> 01:37:42,656
What?

1478
01:37:42,691 --> 01:37:44,526
Christmas pudding.

1479
01:37:47,743 --> 01:37:50,370
It was a daunting change of diet.

1480
01:37:50,412 --> 01:37:54,875
Even in foods
it was not supposed to be in,

1481
01:37:55,250 --> 01:37:57,878
gluten was there
through cross-contamination.

1482
01:37:58,253 --> 01:38:04,760
Then there was the social aspect
that nobody warned me about;

1483
01:38:05,719 --> 01:38:08,514
sighing and eye-rolling

1484
01:38:08,555 --> 01:38:13,477
from people who thought
I was being melodramatic or modish.

1485
01:38:14,436 --> 01:38:19,358
I also had to deal with defensive
reactions from a few waiters

1486
01:38:19,399 --> 01:38:21,652
who felt their integrity
was challenged

1487
01:38:21,693 --> 01:38:24,988
if I asked them about
cross-contamination.

1488
01:38:26,406 --> 01:38:33,539
However, the change of diet
returned my life to normal

1489
01:38:34,540 --> 01:38:38,710
and I was finally on the road
to feeling healthy again.

1490
01:38:39,253 --> 01:38:41,255
To inaugurate my diagnosis,

1491
01:38:41,588 --> 01:38:45,008
Jan Stevens announced
a less formal attire for the day

1492
01:38:46,635 --> 01:38:47,928
- jeans.

1493
01:39:09,679 --> 01:39:11,987
Blast this thing!

1494
01:39:14,288 --> 01:39:18,026
Too tired to say my name?

1495
01:39:18,061 --> 01:39:20,556
What do you want?

1496
01:39:20,591 --> 01:39:23,163
A peace offering.

1497
01:39:23,198 --> 01:39:26,562
So, your policeman friends
didn't find fingerprints?

1498
01:39:26,597 --> 01:39:28,366
- Clearly not.

1499
01:39:28,401 --> 01:39:33,173
And I thought you'd like it back
for your final performance.

1500
01:39:33,208 --> 01:39:36,176
So, you're allowing us
to use our flanger?

1501
01:39:36,211 --> 01:39:37,705
I'll just leave it here.

1502
01:39:40,116 --> 01:39:42,281
You decide whether to use it
or not.

1503
01:39:44,780 --> 01:39:47,418
- This is what I think
about your peace offering.

1504
01:39:56,759 --> 01:39:58,495
What are you laughing at?

1505
01:40:06,241 --> 01:40:08,241
The prospect of giving
an after-dinner speech

1506
01:40:08,276 --> 01:40:10,078
is somewhat daunting.

1507
01:40:10,113 --> 01:40:13,444
Some people relish the idea of
having an audience in thrall

1508
01:40:13,479 --> 01:40:16,810
to even the most meager
of their thought processes,

1509
01:40:16,845 --> 01:40:18,746
but the rest of us
have no great urge

1510
01:40:18,781 --> 01:40:20,418
to communicate with the world

1511
01:40:20,453 --> 01:40:23,322
and struggle to do so.

1512
01:40:23,357 --> 01:40:26,424
I acknowledge the fact
that this is compulsory,

1513
01:40:26,459 --> 01:40:28,624
but I can't pretend
to find it easy.

1514
01:40:28,659 --> 01:40:30,098
In fact,

1515
01:40:30,133 --> 01:40:32,232
I resent it.

1516
01:40:32,267 --> 01:40:33,563
Sorry.

1517
01:40:33,598 --> 01:40:35,268
Lamina, if you're
that uncomfortable,

1518
01:40:35,303 --> 01:40:36,566
we can forgo the whole thing.

1519
01:40:36,601 --> 01:40:39,503
- Any excuse for her to shirk.
- No, no.

1520
01:40:39,538 --> 01:40:41,406
I can do it.

1521
01:40:41,441 --> 01:40:43,474
And I'm going to continue.

1522
01:40:43,509 --> 01:40:47,247
I consulted various guides
on after-dinner speaking,

1523
01:40:47,282 --> 01:40:51,119
and I'm now ready to
bring life to this room

1524
01:40:51,154 --> 01:40:55,156
with the news that after
this residency is over,

1525
01:40:55,191 --> 01:40:56,718
I'm going to leave the group.

1526
01:40:57,490 --> 01:40:59,556
- What?

1527
01:41:01,824 --> 01:41:03,164
You don't believe me?

1528
01:41:03,199 --> 01:41:04,594
What would you do?

1529
01:41:04,629 --> 01:41:06,695
When Hephaestus
was thrown off Olympus, he --

1530
01:41:06,730 --> 01:41:08,433
- Not you! Not you.

1531
01:41:08,468 --> 01:41:11,502
I don't need your metatextual,
pseudo-Hellenic,

1532
01:41:11,537 --> 01:41:15,176
alpha intellectual one-upmanship
on top of everything else.

1533
01:41:15,211 --> 01:41:17,409
There are plenty of things
I could do, Elle dearest,

1534
01:41:17,444 --> 01:41:19,774
as long as they don't involve
being anywhere near you.

1535
01:41:19,809 --> 01:41:23,283
In fact, I'm going solo.

1536
01:41:23,318 --> 01:41:24,911
- Without me,
it's not going to work.

1537
01:41:24,946 --> 01:41:26,319
You know that.

1538
01:41:26,354 --> 01:41:29,157
No voice, no ideas. No vision.

1539
01:41:29,192 --> 01:41:31,291
Technique without visions? No.

1540
01:41:31,326 --> 01:41:32,787
Because you think it's going
to work without me?

1541
01:41:32,822 --> 01:41:34,360
-- Mm-hmm.
- You didn't even know

1542
01:41:34,395 --> 01:41:36,230
what a flanger was
until a few days ago.

1543
01:41:36,265 --> 01:41:39,332
Just stay. We can --
We can talk this out, man.

1544
01:41:39,367 --> 01:41:41,169
You're welcome to join
if you want.

1545
01:41:41,204 --> 01:41:42,698
Billy, no!

1546
01:41:42,733 --> 01:41:45,305
Well, I'm not staying
if Lamina leaves.

1547
01:41:50,213 --> 01:41:51,839
- You set this up!
- I did no such --

1548
01:42:00,685 --> 01:42:01,915
So, now it's my fault?

1549
01:42:01,950 --> 01:42:03,488
I didn't say that.

1550
01:42:03,523 --> 01:42:05,325
You don't have to say.

1551
01:42:05,360 --> 01:42:08,196
You orchestrated all of this
with loving precision.

1552
01:42:08,231 --> 01:42:09,494
Have a stupid day.

1553
01:42:18,373 --> 01:42:19,702
- Elle!
- No, no, no!

1554
01:42:19,737 --> 01:42:21,341
- No!
-- Elle, stop it!

1555
01:42:30,715 --> 01:42:32,286
-- Elle!
-- Elle.

1556
01:42:32,321 --> 01:42:34,255
-- Hang in there, Elle.
- I'm sorry.

1557
01:42:34,290 --> 01:42:35,322
- We'll get you some help!

1558
01:42:35,357 --> 01:42:36,521
- Where's Dr. Glock?

1559
01:42:36,556 --> 01:42:38,391
- He's gone!
Can't you see?

1560
01:42:38,426 --> 01:42:39,689
What did you expect?

1561
01:42:39,724 --> 01:42:42,758
I finally have the name
for our band.

1562
01:42:42,793 --> 01:42:43,792
- Tell us, Elle.

1563
01:42:43,827 --> 01:42:44,958
Please tell us.

1564
01:42:44,993 --> 01:42:46,663
Elle and the...

1565
01:42:49,470 --> 01:42:50,733
- What was that?

1566
01:42:50,768 --> 01:42:52,339
What did she say?

1567
01:42:52,374 --> 01:42:54,000
-- Tell us again, Elle.
-- Elle!

1568
01:42:54,035 --> 01:42:56,442
- Elle.

1569
01:45:19,736 --> 01:45:23,532
With Elle,
it was all about performance

1570
01:45:24,032 --> 01:45:25,409
and this was no different.

1571
01:45:26,660 --> 01:45:27,953
If anything,

1572
01:45:27,995 --> 01:45:30,873
this was what she spent her
whole life working towards

1573
01:45:30,914 --> 01:45:35,419
and I became too involved
to refuse a spoonful.

1574
01:46:04,072 --> 01:46:05,365
As for me,

1575
01:46:05,407 --> 01:46:09,870
I was finally
a part of something.