Paul: Are you okay?
Your dad and everything?
I'm fine... ish.
Sabi: Makes me wanna make some changes.
I think maybe a big one.
Dr. M: Sabi, in my opinion,
your family can't take much more.
Ms. Kanji: I am here to provide clarity around the terms
in Imran's will.
Sabi: Never really a good time to stir the pot.
Hey, do you want to talk about-
Aqsa: Nope.
Izzy: She doesn't, ah, hate you.
I just think that she'd like to be the controversy
once in her life.
Sabi: What I need from you is a referral
to a gender affirming specialist.
♪ They call me the wild child ♪
Dr. C: Notice any physical changes
since starting the spironolactone?
Nope.
It's been about a month.
Yeah.
Typically there aren't noticeable external changes
until about the three month mark.
So all that obsessive looking in the mirror
was for nothing?
Any emotional stuff since we added the estradiol?
Not really.
Okay.
We'll keep the doses the same for another month
and we can increase if the levels are below target.
Are you seeing anyone?
Not sure what that has to do with anything.
Apologies.
I meant are you seeing a therapist?
Oh, ah, sorry, um...
No, I'm not seeing a therapist.
Do you have support?
Liiiike...
Anyone in your life know you're doing this?
Not, um...
No.
Mind if I share my experience?
Sure.
By the time I started HRT,
I had come out so many times
in many different ways.
I was just getting tired of creating a situation
for the people in my life.
Like, telling my parents
that I was queer and then trans
and then medically transitioning.
Oh my God, totally.
But for what it's worth,
you are about to go through something pretty sizeable
and in my experience,
it's hard to do that if you're not being,
I don't know exactly what the word is, uh...
"Transparent"?
"Authentic"?
"Honest"?
♪ Truth, love it or leave it ♪
Hey.
Yeah?
♪ Love it or leave it ♪
I was wondering if
I could talk to you about, um, a thing.
Wait. Did you not pay the utility bill?
Oh God, I totally forgot.
I'm sorry.
I'll deal with it right now.
It's fine, I'm paying it.
What were you gonna say?
Nothing.
You know, it's been so long
since things have felt, like, normal between us.
Anyways,
I'm thinking I'll just transfer you a bunch
of the inheritance money.
I'm sorry it took me, like,
this long to even say anything about it.
Aqsa, I'm trying.
You think this is about money?
[Sabi scoffs]
Whatever.
Is this, like, you forever now?
Are you gonna be like a bitch to me
for the rest of our lives?
Seriously? Like, seriously?
I deal with so much shit in this family and, like,
do you even see how fucking thankless it is for me?
Oh my God, you don't think I deal with shit?
I deal with way more shit than you.
No, you don't deal with shit.
You take shit and then you run away.
Because being who you are, that's what you get to do.
If you knew the difference
between taking shit and dealing with shit,
I would not have to be standing here listening
to you call me a bitch.
You know what? - What?
I think I just realised I'm moving out.
What?
Yeah. That feels right.
Wait. Aqsa?
[intense instrumental music]
["Technically No" by Haviah Mighty]
♪ Technically, I said no ♪
7ven: "Hauntingly evocative".
Did you run that through a random description generator?
Kween! Hold on.
How 'bout, "Startlingly resonant"?
Discuss and let me know if resonates.
Okay. Talk soon.
What's up?
You stopped me in the middle of your call
to ask me what's up?
Yeah.
Sabi: I'm good.
You could've just finished your call and then-
You don't seem good.
Why do you have to think that hard
before telling me what's up with you?
Okay, whatever.
I don't wanna talk about it.
Aqsa's moving out now.
Whoa.
Amazing.
Not the word I would use.
I'm gonna tell you something you can't see yet,
but things are gonna be okay without her.
More than okay!
[phone buzzing]
[soft instrumental music]
[phone blooping]
[soft music continues]
["Energy" by Emily Persich]
♪ Ooh ♪
♪ Flowers and hard decisions
♪ Late night for you, for you, for you ♪
♪ Forever and always is always taking up the space
♪ I saved for you
♪ For you ♪
[phone ringing]
Hey.
[on phone] Sabi: Hey, how you doing?
Oh.
Hello?
I just finished an entire bag of chips
without knowing I did that.
Sabi: Oh.
I'm sorry to bug you but, like,
I think I need someone to talk to.
Paul: Grieving is tough.
It's not only about grieving, um, but yeah,
that's like an element for sure.
I'm happy to be here for you as a...
friend.
Ah, but I'm still gonna recommend therapy.
Do you have a therapist?
No, I'm-I'm technically supposed to check in with someone
but my person...
well, died.
Oh, wow.
And I-I kind of didn't wanna do the legwork
to find someone new.
Anyway, I'm recommending therapy to you
partly for ethical reasons just to acknowledge that this,
what we're doing is-is not therapy.
Totally.
Because it's not just you talking and me listening.
It's us talking.
It's-it's you talking and it's-it's me talking.
So I'm allowed to ask you how you're doing and stuff?
Yes.
How are you doing?
Should we change up the location?
This is feeling clinical.
Hmm. I don't even know where to start.
Oh, hey,
you mentioned on the phone you ate an entire bag of chips?
Yeah. That was...
let-let-let's just focus on you for a second.
Thought I'd ask
since this is supposed to be both of us talking.
Okay. I'll talk.
That's all right. Um...
Actually, I wanted to-
I wanted to bring up something else that, uh...
if that's okay.
Um, something I had to process so I-I couldn't do it earlier.
But I just, I, you should know that I know Sabi.
What do you know, Paul?
I know about Bessy.
Oh, you know?
Yeah.
And it's okay.
I think.
I don't, um, ah, blame you.
If-if that's the word.
I mean, ev-everyone in a relationship
has at least some responsibility when infidelity occurs, so.
Um, I don't think what happened between us...
I wouldn't call it infidelity.
Okay.
What would you call it?
It was a kiss.
Um, between two people in, like, seriously messed up places.
It was honestly just a kiss?
Yeah. We both knew it was wrong the second it happened.
Bessy is, like, I don't know my, um,
like a soul-friend.
I don't know how else to say it.
I got confused for a bit.
Um, hey, I'm saying all this
'cause you're being, like, beyond amazing.
Like, agreeing to meet with me even after knowing.
You're allowed to feel betrayed, though.
Like, I'm your friend, too,
and I wasn't thinking about you when this happened.
And I should have been.
I do feel betrayed.
It feels good to say that.
I can't tell you how sorry I am.
[teary] Okay. Okay.
Maybe you should get some help for, like,
the eating stuff.
Um, there was something you wanted to talk about
that wasn't about grieving.
Not right now.
Yo! I got Violet to line up some potentials for you.
Potentials?
New flat mates.
Wait. What?
I'm so not ready for that.
You shouldn't be alone right now.
Let us help you find the freshest new cushion
to come home to.
[7ven humming]
[groaning]
What are you looking for in a roommate?
Do you have, uh, curtains?
Um, yeah, I have curtains.
Okay, I'm ready to move in whenever.
Violet: So what are you looking for in a roommate?
Oh, I'm totally not fucking doing negativity anymore
so if you fucking critique me, you're chopped!
7ven: Hey, good to see you, Jay.
Super sorry.
We know each other?
You did a contract with my ma, remember?
She put us together to scout some talent?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Okay.
Violet: What are you looking for in a roommate?
7ven: Full disclosure, Flavio.
I'm salivate. Celibate.
A little sex cleanse is always good.
You abstaining from oral too?
[water gushing]
Violet: What are you looking for in a roommate?
Sabi: Oh my God, Mackenzie.
It's actually good to see you.
I am so glad you think that.
Um, I hate that I'm asking this,
are you and Lewis, like, still?
No. No. We flamed out. Majorly. Yeah.
That's awesome.
He was a puddle.
Then I left the country. Mhm.
Cambodia. Thailand.
Oh my God. I'd love to do that.
Highly recommend it.
It really helped me discover aspects of myself.
How did you even find out Sabi was looking for a roommate?
I follow all of BRLiN's socials and I follow you,
Sabi.
Do you follow me?
No.
I saw the post and I'm moving back into town, so...
That's awesome.
[playful music]
Yo. Checkin' in.
Thanks for doing that.
It was actually kind of fun.
Nice.
Ah, I can see that you are enchanted
by Mackenzie's high-femme energy,
but please don't choose her.
She's a tranpire.
Tranpire?
A breed of cis people, usually women,
who wanna be near trans people
'cause it makes 'em feel provocative.
That shit's real.
[soft instrumental music]
♪
Hey, can ya meet?
[phone blooping]
[moaning]
♪ I should another love but I don't think I'm through
♪ No I don't think I'm finished yet ♪
Oh, it's just-
It's a weird shirt. - Oh.
I have to take my arms out first.
Okay. Okay.
[Sabi softly murmuring]
Sorry.
Okay, okay.
[Sabi moaning] [soft instrumental music]
Wolf: [echoing] Hey, Sabi?
[echoing] You okay?
[echoing] Sabi?
Am I-am I doing something wrong?
No, no, um...
Sorry, I'm just, um...
I'm in a place.
I'm just, um...
It's just, like...
quite a bit going on right now.
I feel like you hold a lot in
and I'd be cool with you telling me stuff if that helps.
I really want to.
Um, so...
I kind of made this decision to start-
7ven: Yo! Door's open!
Where's my roomie at?
Uuuh... roomie?
[gasping]
My sex-starved self needs to hear about
what was just had.
Sabi, were you snapped in half?
7ven- - Wait.
You've been crying. What did he do to you?
7ven, why are you here?
Okay. Eeeeee!
I was going through a list
of all the pros and cons for your roommate sitch
and I realised the biggest pro is me!
I've decided we're moving in together.
Do you want me to go?
No. Stay.
What's up?
♪ I just wanna yacht, wanna boat
♪ I just want the lock to the globe ♪
Izzy: We don't have to live together.
Hey, Aqsa, we don't have to do this.
You know that, right?
I don't know what else to do right now.
I'm gonna go to the apartment, grab some more boxes.
Are you saying you do not wanna be roommates?
I'm saying I don't understand how you can decide
this is happening without us even having a conversation.
OhmyGod, are you crying?
Oh shit.
Do you want me to go?
Please stay.
[phone ringing]
Who's that?
My mom. I'll call her back.
I'm gonna go.
Don't go.
'Kay.
You have tea?
I'll get some hot water going.
Hearing them say they don't want to live with me,
that's tough.
That's not what I heard them say.
I feel like maybe Sabi's just feeling a little
bulldozed by you.
Totally. Yeah.
7ven: What do you want me to do?
Pretty much every important phase in your life
you needed to be dragged kicking and screaming.
Name one thing.
Bar Bük, electrician school, Lewis, the first Berlin
which didn't happen and I understand why.
The second BRLiN
which is the greatest thing we ever did.
Izzy: Oh sorry. The, ah, door was open.
Just need to get outta the condo.
Grab some more boxes.
7ven: Iz, should Sabi and I live together?
Oh my God. We doing a census now?
I'm not even sure Aqsa and me should live together.
[soft playful music]
[soft instrumental music]
♪
Sabi: I feel awful.
Why?
Aqsa's only giving you a hard time
'cause she's, like, fully pissed at me.
Sabi, you are not the reason.
What's the reason then?
Why is nobody answering my phone calls?
Why is the door open?
She just, like, showed up and she's wondering why
you're not here and why Izzy is and why there are boxes.
Call me back, seriously.
Paul: Hi, I'm Paul and I have an eating disorder.
Everyone: [in unison] Hi, Paul.
Sabi: Hey.
Time to face the music?
Yep.
You're just moving in with a boy,
it's not like you are a boy.
Paul: I-I binge and then realise it after the fact.
It's not like I black out but I'm...
I'm just not there.
Raffo: So, it looks like you're moving out.
Yo. Imma grab some more boxes.
Ah, can I catch a ride? - Izzy: Oh yeah, for sure.
[soft instrumental music]
7ven. Please, um, go to your room.
My room?
[softly] Eeee.
[soft instrumental music]
7ven lives here now?
Paul: I know that unreleased emotions
they're like actual physical objects in the body
and if you don't get them out...
they can really do damage.
Mom-
Oh no, you're pregnant.
OhmyGod, no, Mom. Let her finish.
Actually, yeah. I'm pregnant.
Weird and not funny.
And not joking.