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(insects chirring)

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(vehicle approaching,
music playing)

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♪♪ Drivin' circles
around this town ♪♪

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♪♪ So many times
I thought about leavin' ♪♪

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♪♪ Got my ass kicked
tryin' to com... ♪♪

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(metallic creak)

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Good luck not eating this.

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Pork buns

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from Qian's.

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(sighs)

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(Alan sighs)

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What, are you giving me
the silent treatment?

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Doesn't seem very sophisticated
for a therapist.

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I'm not your therapist anymore.
I'm your prisoner.

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I understand why
you would think that, but...

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...you have to...

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Don't worry.
It's not a head or anything.

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Oh, that's a relief.

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You ever heard
of the John Doe Killer?

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I think so.

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The whole idea was
to make it look like robberies.

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So the police didn't get one
of those task forces going.

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So, you know, I took...
I took all this.

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And...

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next think I know, they're
calling me the John Doe Killer

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'cause sometimes
it took 'em a few days

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to figure out
who these people were

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without their IDs and stuff.

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And... now I'm kind of stuck
with it.

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You believe me now?

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You don't think I believed you?

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I get why it's easier
for you to think

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that maybe
I'm not telling the truth.

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I believed you.

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Would you like a watch?

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No, thanks.

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Keep track of time for yourself.

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I mean, they still work.

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Most of 'em.

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♪♪ ♪♪

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♪♪ ♪♪

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BETH:
It's hard at first for everyone,

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but especially someone like you.

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Someone like me?

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So in your head.

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That's where everything takes
place, including meditation.

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Like I said,
it's hard for someone like you.

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(mutters mockingly)

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(laughs)

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(door opens)

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I'll be home by 5:00.

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(metallic creak)

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(chains dragging on floor)

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(truck engine starts)

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(sighs)

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(groans softly)

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(soft clicking)

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(softly):
Oh, come on.

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(grunts)

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(rattling)

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Shit.

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(groans)

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-(grunts)
-(rattling)

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Oh, fuck.

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(groans)

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(grunting)

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(groans)

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(sighs)

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Ah.

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Okay.

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(panting)

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(rattling upstairs)

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(scraping and thudding upstairs)

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Thai food tonight.

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I got us Kaeng tai pla.

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This place makes their own sauce
using fermented fish entrails,

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which I know sounds gross,
but it gives it a lot of flavor.

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And then, Khanom moa gang.
They use

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taro and duck eggs.
That's dessert.

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You usually can't find it
this way.

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(grunting)

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I don't think you can open that
with a plastic fork.

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After I do it,

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I'm... just...

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I bet most people couldn't...

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feel like that.

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It's not a normal feeling.

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It's more like... dead.

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I need to get better.

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Isn't that what you...
enjoy doing?

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Isn't healing people?

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I brought you here
so we could work together.

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I know you hate it, but...

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if you're not going
to be a part of the process,

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where is that gonna leave us?

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♪♪ ♪♪

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(chains jingling)

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(chains jingling)

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Successful therapy requires
a safe environment.

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The patient and the therapist
have to be able

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to dig into...
complicated emotional territory

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without anything like fear

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hanging over every session.

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I don't know
what to do about that.

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At least I want you...

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to make me a promise that while
we are in therapy together,

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that you will not commit
any acts of physical violence

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against me or anyone else

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unless you talk to me first.

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You mean you want me
to talk to you before I...?

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Yes.

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-So you can talk me out of it?
-So I can

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try to help you...

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get out of it.

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So together,
we can try to understand

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where this terrible need is
coming from, and to address it.

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You have no idea what it's like.

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-I understand.
-These fucking people...

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I work with a lot of people
with very serious,

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almost impossible-to-resist
compulsions.

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Making this kind of commitment
is key to the process.

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-I don't think it's the same.
-I'm not saying it's the same.

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I'll do my best.

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(sighs)

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(clattering upstairs)

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(soft clattering continues)

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(birds singing)

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(sighs)

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(inhales, exhales)

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And actually,
it was my wife's idea.

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Uh, she's known
Chava's mother her whole life.

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So, if we have anyone to thank,
it's the rebbetzin.

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Chava can keep up with your son

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in-in both the intellectual area
and with humor.

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Oh.

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I'm so sorry.

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I should have brought
a real knife.

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-Oh, no, no.
-No.

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It's fine.

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(exhales)

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-I was going to eat that.
-This isn't funny.

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ALAN: I'm upset, too,
but we need to let him be.

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Oh, please don't tell me
you don't hate this

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just as much as I do.

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He's rebelling, Beth.

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Everyone does it.

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(exhales)

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(chains jingling)

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(sighs)

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So, should I tell you more
about my life?

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Sure.

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(sighs)

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There's this guy,

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uh, and I can't stop
thinking about him.

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I wish you knew
what this feels like. Uh...

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I did an inspection a while ago

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at a... a Greek restaurant
in Garten.

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Greek, but a-a modern take.

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They do
these moussaka-filled gyozas

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that just...
dissolve in your mouth.

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I actually used
to go there with my wife,

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even before I inspected it.

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You're married?

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I was.

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That was one of those things
I didn't, uh, tell you

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'cause I couldn't be
fully truthful.

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Anyway, uh, there were items
in the prep cooler

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that weren't dated,

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and the refrigerator door seal
needed to be replaced.

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And these aren't
uncommon things,

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but they need to be addressed,

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and they affect
a restaurant's rating.

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I explained it all to the guy
who runs the place,

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the owners' son, and...

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he didn't think
it was a big deal.

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I told him it was.

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He said I should come back
in a week,

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and everything would be fixed.

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I said the current wait time
for reinspection

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in Lincoln County
is seven months.

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He thought
I was trying to get a bribe.

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And he starts talking to me

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in this funny way, like...

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...he knows
how things really work,

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and I don't,

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and I'm just some piece of shit.

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And when people talk
to me like that...

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Anyway, I just left,

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which is what I do
in those situations.

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Then a couple weeks later,
my supervisor,

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Kyle, tells me
to go back right away

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and redo the inspection,
no reason given.

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And when I went there,
everything is fixed,

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and the guy barely looks at me.

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Smug.

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When was this?

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(smacks lips)
I don't know.

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About four months ago.

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And I haven't stopped...

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thinking about him.

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Every single day.

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I'm trying not to...

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I-I usually can't stop, but...

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I don't know
if other people have this.

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Do other people have this?

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People get obsessed with
interactions they've had, yes.

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I-I went back
to the restaurant...

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...the same night,
and I parked across the street,

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and I waited until they closed.

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I've never done anything that
they could trace back to me,

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but that night, I...
I was like...

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I didn't do it.

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How do you think
you managed that?

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I don't know.

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I didn't want to get caught.
I guess that helped.

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And you said
this was about four months ago?

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Yeah.

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Just before
you came to talk to me.

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And you thought
I could help you not hurt him.

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Mm-hmm.

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I need a pen and paper
for notes.

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I really thought through
all the things

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that you were going
to need here.

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I'm going
to need a pen and paper.

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I'm not going to attack you
with a piece of paper. (laughs)

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And you can find a pen
that doesn't worry you.

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The restaurant guy.

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The more time that passes,

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the less anyone would connect me
with that place.

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I think it's important to note
that you did not hurt him.

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But I want to.

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I want to right now.

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You asked me
to talk to you first.

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I am talking to you.

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It's not really helping.

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You've been holding this in
for four months, Sam.

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I get why it's hard.

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(inhales sharply)

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(exhales)

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(muffled urinating)

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(urinating continues)

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(urinating stops)

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(urinating resumes)

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(quietly):
Jesus.

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(birds singing)

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(door opens)

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I'm late for work.

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Let's have a session
after dinner.

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(metallic creak)

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00:19:10,376 --> 00:19:12,714
(truck engine starts)

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(truck departing)

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(sighs)

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(thudding upstairs)

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(footsteps,
floorboards creaking)

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(loudly):
Hello?

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Hello?

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(chains jingling)

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(loudly):
Can you hear me up there?

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00:20:04,284 --> 00:20:06,387
I can hear you!

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00:20:10,396 --> 00:20:12,534
Are you okay?

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Can you talk?

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(doors opening)

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(footsteps approaching)

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(sniffles)

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(chains jingling)

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00:20:42,326 --> 00:20:44,665
Hello.

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