1 00:00:11,557 --> 00:00:14,028 ("Get Along" by Kenny Chesney playing) 2 00:00:15,598 --> 00:00:18,270 ♪♪ Get along on down the road ♪♪ 3 00:00:18,336 --> 00:00:20,809 ♪♪ We've got a long, long way to go ♪♪ 4 00:00:20,875 --> 00:00:23,480 ♪♪ Scared to live, scared to die ♪♪ 5 00:00:23,547 --> 00:00:26,419 ♪♪ We ain't perfect but we try ♪♪ 6 00:00:26,486 --> 00:00:28,558 ♪♪ Get along while we can ♪♪ 7 00:00:28,624 --> 00:00:31,363 ♪♪ Always give love the upper hand ♪♪ 8 00:00:31,429 --> 00:00:34,569 ♪♪ Paint a wall, learn to dance ♪♪ 9 00:00:34,636 --> 00:00:38,009 ♪♪ Call your mom, can't we all get along? ♪♪ 10 00:00:38,076 --> 00:00:39,813 ♪♪ ♪♪ 11 00:00:47,929 --> 00:00:49,733 (knocking) 12 00:00:55,945 --> 00:00:56,947 (chuckles): My God. 13 00:00:57,014 --> 00:00:58,082 Sam. 14 00:00:58,149 --> 00:01:00,387 This is a surprise. 15 00:01:01,289 --> 00:01:02,959 Yeah. I guess I should've called. 16 00:01:03,026 --> 00:01:05,196 Are you okay? 17 00:01:05,965 --> 00:01:08,369 Yeah. I j... I... 18 00:01:09,205 --> 00:01:10,675 I'm in therapy, 19 00:01:10,742 --> 00:01:13,280 and my therapist said that I should... 20 00:01:13,346 --> 00:01:15,417 come and talk to you. 21 00:01:16,286 --> 00:01:17,989 You're in therapy? 22 00:01:18,056 --> 00:01:20,126 Mm-hmm. 23 00:01:25,772 --> 00:01:27,842 ♪♪ ♪♪ 24 00:01:41,369 --> 00:01:42,772 (clicks tongue) 25 00:01:48,350 --> 00:01:50,286 H-How's Hara doing? 26 00:01:51,991 --> 00:01:54,562 She just turned 12 last month. 27 00:01:54,629 --> 00:01:55,998 Mm. 28 00:01:56,065 --> 00:01:58,302 Her reading's getting better. 29 00:01:59,238 --> 00:02:00,875 It turns out she's pretty fast. 30 00:02:00,941 --> 00:02:04,850 She likes running races against the boys. 31 00:02:04,917 --> 00:02:05,985 (chuckles softly) 32 00:02:06,754 --> 00:02:10,260 Have you heard of panta bhat and fuchka? 33 00:02:11,663 --> 00:02:12,398 No. 34 00:02:12,464 --> 00:02:14,301 That's what she eats. 35 00:02:14,368 --> 00:02:15,905 Her favorites. 36 00:02:16,673 --> 00:02:18,277 I'm surprised you haven't heard of those, 37 00:02:18,343 --> 00:02:19,914 with all the... 38 00:02:19,980 --> 00:02:21,583 places you eat. 39 00:02:25,357 --> 00:02:27,394 Did you tell her about us? 40 00:02:28,363 --> 00:02:30,000 That's against the rules. 41 00:02:30,067 --> 00:02:35,177 You don't tell them about divorce or anything... 42 00:02:35,243 --> 00:02:37,815 upsetting in your family. 43 00:02:38,784 --> 00:02:40,220 Mm. Right. 44 00:02:41,791 --> 00:02:44,161 I actually have another one now, too. 45 00:02:44,228 --> 00:02:45,197 Muntaha. 46 00:02:45,264 --> 00:02:46,733 (chuckles softly) 47 00:02:47,635 --> 00:02:48,871 Wow. 48 00:02:49,640 --> 00:02:50,808 Do you want to see a picture? 49 00:02:50,875 --> 00:02:51,977 -(chuckles) -Sure. 50 00:02:52,044 --> 00:02:53,680 (chuckles) 51 00:03:00,093 --> 00:03:01,630 Wow. 52 00:03:06,172 --> 00:03:07,575 She's cute. 53 00:03:07,642 --> 00:03:10,648 Yeah, and she also likes panta bhat and fuchka. 54 00:03:24,943 --> 00:03:28,884 ELIAS: Alan, can you come closer to the door? 55 00:03:33,093 --> 00:03:35,363 (chain jangling) 56 00:03:38,770 --> 00:03:40,140 I'm here. 57 00:03:40,207 --> 00:03:41,475 Listen. 58 00:03:43,012 --> 00:03:45,383 Your hands are free, right? 59 00:03:46,152 --> 00:03:47,321 Yeah. 60 00:03:47,388 --> 00:03:48,957 And you said you have... 61 00:03:49,024 --> 00:03:52,264 like, meetings with him. 62 00:03:52,331 --> 00:03:54,235 Appointments? 63 00:03:54,301 --> 00:03:56,707 -Sessions. -Sessions. 64 00:03:56,774 --> 00:04:00,414 Do you think you could have one with him here now? 65 00:04:00,481 --> 00:04:02,485 We... actually do. 66 00:04:02,552 --> 00:04:04,122 We do have them here. 67 00:04:04,188 --> 00:04:05,925 Great. 68 00:04:05,992 --> 00:04:07,394 That's weird. Right? 69 00:04:07,461 --> 00:04:08,597 Yeah, it's weird. 70 00:04:08,664 --> 00:04:10,701 I don't really have a choice. 71 00:04:12,471 --> 00:04:15,845 We're both prob-probably going to be dead soon. 72 00:04:19,084 --> 00:04:21,690 I say we go down swinging. 73 00:04:22,457 --> 00:04:25,632 Next time you have one of your sessions, 74 00:04:25,698 --> 00:04:28,771 I want you to convince him to bring me in. 75 00:04:28,837 --> 00:04:32,278 Make up some... good therapy reason. 76 00:04:32,344 --> 00:04:33,246 (panting) 77 00:04:33,313 --> 00:04:34,816 And once I'm there, 78 00:04:34,883 --> 00:04:35,952 you jump him. 79 00:04:36,019 --> 00:04:38,624 And I'll, like... 80 00:04:38,691 --> 00:04:40,794 throw my body on him, too. 81 00:04:47,776 --> 00:04:49,846 Did you see Kenny last summer? 82 00:04:51,182 --> 00:04:53,019 Mm-hmm. Twice. 83 00:04:53,954 --> 00:04:55,791 Raleigh and Chicago. 84 00:04:55,858 --> 00:04:57,628 Chicago was... 85 00:05:10,020 --> 00:05:13,694 What did your therapist want you to talk to me about? 86 00:05:15,296 --> 00:05:18,336 I don't know. He just said I should come talk to you. 87 00:05:18,402 --> 00:05:20,039 So... 88 00:05:38,611 --> 00:05:41,483 You never picked up your La-Z-Boy. 89 00:05:41,550 --> 00:05:43,386 Do you still want it? 90 00:05:48,463 --> 00:05:50,033 (whimpers) Okay. 91 00:05:50,099 --> 00:05:51,268 -All right? -Mm-hmm. 92 00:05:51,335 --> 00:05:53,172 All right. 93 00:05:53,239 --> 00:05:54,976 Okay, just try and get it in. 94 00:05:55,711 --> 00:05:57,783 All right, go. One, two, three. (grunts) 95 00:05:57,849 --> 00:05:59,719 -(groans) That's... -No? Okay. 96 00:05:59,786 --> 00:06:01,122 -No. (chuckles) -All right. 97 00:06:01,188 --> 00:06:02,792 Okay. 98 00:06:02,859 --> 00:06:04,094 (grunts) 99 00:06:05,831 --> 00:06:07,033 Go. 100 00:06:26,105 --> 00:06:27,875 Thanks. 101 00:06:27,942 --> 00:06:29,979 ♪♪ ♪♪ 102 00:06:49,185 --> 00:06:51,455 (urinating) 103 00:06:57,367 --> 00:06:59,004 (zips) 104 00:07:00,174 --> 00:07:02,444 (chain jangling) 105 00:07:07,253 --> 00:07:08,824 Elias? 106 00:07:09,559 --> 00:07:10,995 ELIAS: Yeah. 107 00:07:13,667 --> 00:07:17,107 You gave me a message for your family. 108 00:07:17,174 --> 00:07:20,180 But you may be the one who gets out of here. So... 109 00:07:20,247 --> 00:07:23,854 I'd like to give you a message for mine, too. 110 00:07:28,095 --> 00:07:29,766 Okay. 111 00:07:30,834 --> 00:07:32,772 Okay. 112 00:07:34,041 --> 00:07:38,049 Tell my daughter, Shoshana, that I love her. 113 00:07:38,784 --> 00:07:41,623 And that I treasured our life together. 114 00:07:42,526 --> 00:07:43,827 And that... 115 00:07:43,894 --> 00:07:46,933 I want her to find a way to move on. 116 00:07:48,469 --> 00:07:50,674 Ezra, my son-- 117 00:07:50,741 --> 00:07:52,979 tell him I loved him very much 118 00:07:53,045 --> 00:07:55,751 and that his mother loved him, too. 119 00:07:56,586 --> 00:07:58,924 Even when it was difficult between them. 120 00:08:01,195 --> 00:08:02,363 And that I'm... 121 00:08:02,430 --> 00:08:05,069 sorry that there was so much... 122 00:08:05,136 --> 00:08:08,710 conflict in the family when she was dying 123 00:08:08,777 --> 00:08:10,079 and that I... 124 00:08:12,250 --> 00:08:13,453 That's a lot to remember. 125 00:08:13,521 --> 00:08:15,557 Um, just... 126 00:08:16,693 --> 00:08:19,097 Just tell them what you can remember. 127 00:08:36,165 --> 00:08:37,635 Can you k... 128 00:08:37,702 --> 00:08:39,304 keep talking? 129 00:08:39,371 --> 00:08:41,175 Please? 130 00:08:47,453 --> 00:08:49,593 When Ezra went to college... 131 00:08:50,360 --> 00:08:53,534 ...he fell in with one of those rabbis with the black hats 132 00:08:53,600 --> 00:08:54,969 and... 133 00:08:55,036 --> 00:08:58,042 suddenly he's an Orthodox Jew. 134 00:08:59,713 --> 00:09:01,182 No parties. 135 00:09:01,983 --> 00:09:05,591 Doesn't turn the lights on or off during the Sabbath. 136 00:09:07,127 --> 00:09:08,564 Beth, my wife... 137 00:09:08,631 --> 00:09:09,699 (chuckles softly) 138 00:09:09,766 --> 00:09:11,269 ...this all... 139 00:09:11,335 --> 00:09:13,607 just drove her crazy. 140 00:09:14,676 --> 00:09:16,412 Everybody following their own paths 141 00:09:16,479 --> 00:09:18,984 wasn't exactly her cup of tea. 142 00:09:19,050 --> 00:09:22,725 I did my best to help her with it, but... 143 00:09:23,928 --> 00:09:26,165 ...Ezra did not make it easy. 144 00:09:26,900 --> 00:09:29,806 His family could not even come over to our house 145 00:09:29,872 --> 00:09:31,677 without bringing their own food. 146 00:09:31,743 --> 00:09:34,347 You know about kosher food? 147 00:09:35,751 --> 00:09:38,289 It's regular food with a thousand rules. 148 00:09:40,928 --> 00:09:42,464 This one birthday party 149 00:09:42,532 --> 00:09:44,536 for Ezra's son... 150 00:09:44,602 --> 00:09:47,274 she wanted to bring some... 151 00:09:47,340 --> 00:09:49,612 (vehicle approaching) 152 00:09:52,450 --> 00:09:54,254 He's back. 153 00:09:55,056 --> 00:09:57,194 -(engine shuts off) -(car door opens) 154 00:09:57,261 --> 00:09:59,397 (car door shuts) 155 00:10:03,507 --> 00:10:05,443 (gate creaks) 156 00:10:05,511 --> 00:10:07,781 (footsteps approaching) 157 00:10:18,269 --> 00:10:20,206 (grunts) 158 00:10:22,845 --> 00:10:24,214 (Sam exhales) 159 00:10:39,278 --> 00:10:40,948 I got my chair back. 160 00:10:42,317 --> 00:10:44,020 So you saw her? 161 00:10:45,156 --> 00:10:46,291 Yeah. 162 00:10:47,260 --> 00:10:49,030 What did you talk about? 163 00:11:05,665 --> 00:11:07,133 (sighs) 164 00:11:09,004 --> 00:11:11,241 She's got these kids... 165 00:11:11,976 --> 00:11:14,048 ...who we adopted in Bangladesh. 166 00:11:14,114 --> 00:11:17,153 We adopted 'em from this... 167 00:11:17,220 --> 00:11:18,089 organization. 168 00:11:18,156 --> 00:11:20,994 I mean, we-we adopted one of 'em. 169 00:11:22,765 --> 00:11:25,002 She just got another one. 170 00:11:25,737 --> 00:11:27,842 And... 171 00:11:27,908 --> 00:11:30,146 she loves them a lot. 172 00:11:31,849 --> 00:11:33,987 How did it feel seeing her? 173 00:11:35,489 --> 00:11:36,492 Yeah. 174 00:11:36,560 --> 00:11:37,561 I liked it. 175 00:11:37,628 --> 00:11:39,064 Mm. 176 00:11:39,131 --> 00:11:40,735 But I don't think it accomplished 177 00:11:40,801 --> 00:11:42,403 what you were hoping. 178 00:11:42,470 --> 00:11:44,407 Like, diverting me. 179 00:11:47,815 --> 00:11:51,723 These kids of Mary's and yours... 180 00:11:52,490 --> 00:11:53,727 ...when they grow up, 181 00:11:53,794 --> 00:11:55,764 I bet you want them to be responsible 182 00:11:55,831 --> 00:11:57,835 for the things they do in life. 183 00:11:57,901 --> 00:12:00,641 It has to be hard in Bangladesh. 184 00:12:00,708 --> 00:12:03,212 You want them to overcome, not... 185 00:12:03,279 --> 00:12:05,518 blame everything on their circumstances 186 00:12:05,584 --> 00:12:07,087 or the people who hurt them. 187 00:12:07,154 --> 00:12:09,559 That's part of what we're talking about here, Sam... 188 00:12:09,626 --> 00:12:12,765 Can you imagine me beating the shit out of those kids? 189 00:12:12,832 --> 00:12:14,435 Like... 190 00:12:14,502 --> 00:12:16,673 punching 'em, hitting 'em 191 00:12:16,739 --> 00:12:18,476 like they're worthless pieces of shit? 192 00:12:18,544 --> 00:12:20,246 How can anybody... 193 00:12:21,783 --> 00:12:23,353 Yeah, I'm gonna do this now. 194 00:12:23,419 --> 00:12:24,823 Wait. Wait. Wait! Sam! 195 00:12:24,889 --> 00:12:26,425 -No. Listen to me! -This guy's gonna get it. 196 00:12:26,492 --> 00:12:28,998 -He's gonna get it right now. -Candace! Get down here! 197 00:12:29,064 --> 00:12:31,369 Get down here! Right now! 198 00:12:31,435 --> 00:12:33,941 -We have a problem down here! -No! No! (whimpering) 199 00:12:34,007 --> 00:12:35,778 -CANDACE: Sam? -(grunts) No! No, no, no... 200 00:12:35,844 --> 00:12:37,581 No, please. (whimpers) Please. 201 00:12:37,648 --> 00:12:39,986 -Oh, Sam, stop! -ELIAS: Wait, please, please. 202 00:12:40,052 --> 00:12:42,625 -Wait, wait. -Mom, go back upstairs. 203 00:12:42,691 --> 00:12:44,028 No. You listen to me. 204 00:12:44,094 --> 00:12:45,297 Stop right now. 205 00:12:45,363 --> 00:12:47,702 You are supposed to be protecting me 206 00:12:47,769 --> 00:12:49,304 by not doing this. 207 00:12:50,941 --> 00:12:53,045 -(clapping) -Get back here! 208 00:13:03,432 --> 00:13:04,569 What? 209 00:13:04,636 --> 00:13:07,040 Go to your room. 210 00:13:07,808 --> 00:13:09,444 Right now. 211 00:13:11,014 --> 00:13:12,951 -I don't want to. -CANDACE: Sam. 212 00:13:13,753 --> 00:13:15,356 You need your good night's sleep. 213 00:13:17,060 --> 00:13:19,532 You know, sometimes you feel better after that. 214 00:13:34,829 --> 00:13:37,133 ♪♪ ♪♪ 215 00:13:44,515 --> 00:13:46,619 (lock clicks) 216 00:13:51,830 --> 00:13:53,365 (door opens) 217 00:13:54,101 --> 00:13:56,004 (door slams) 218 00:13:58,710 --> 00:14:00,614 ("I Go Back" by Kenny Chesney playing over stereo) 219 00:14:00,681 --> 00:14:02,618 SAM: Fuck! 220 00:14:03,620 --> 00:14:04,689 (quietly): I'm okay. 221 00:14:04,756 --> 00:14:07,026 (volume increasing) 222 00:14:09,633 --> 00:14:13,139 ♪♪ "Jack and Diane" painted a picture of my life ♪♪ 223 00:14:13,206 --> 00:14:15,142 ♪♪ And my dreams ♪♪ 224 00:14:15,209 --> 00:14:17,281 ♪♪ Suddenly this crazy world ♪♪ 225 00:14:17,347 --> 00:14:20,486 ♪♪ Made more sense to me ♪♪ 226 00:14:20,554 --> 00:14:23,292 ♪♪ Well, I heard it today and I couldn't help ♪♪ 227 00:14:23,359 --> 00:14:25,497 ♪♪ But sing along ♪♪ 228 00:14:26,232 --> 00:14:30,306 ♪♪ 'Cause every time I hear that song ♪♪ 229 00:14:30,373 --> 00:14:33,446 ♪♪ And I go back to a two-toned short-bed Chevy ♪♪ 230 00:14:33,513 --> 00:14:36,285 ♪♪ Driving my first love out to the levee ♪♪ 231 00:14:36,352 --> 00:14:40,159 ♪♪ Living life with no sense of time ♪♪ 232 00:14:40,894 --> 00:14:44,001 -♪♪ And I go back to the feel of a 50-yard line ♪♪ -ELIAS: Alan? 233 00:14:44,067 --> 00:14:46,873 -♪♪ A blanket, a girl, some raspberry wine ♪♪ -Yeah. 234 00:14:46,940 --> 00:14:50,547 ♪♪ Wishing time would stop right in its tracks ♪♪ 235 00:14:50,614 --> 00:14:52,618 ELIAS: They gone? 236 00:14:52,684 --> 00:14:55,657 -♪♪ Every time I hear that song ♪♪ -ALAN: Yes. 237 00:14:55,724 --> 00:14:58,997 -(Elias shuddering) -♪♪ I go back... ♪♪ 238 00:14:59,064 --> 00:15:01,736 (grunts, panting) 239 00:15:01,803 --> 00:15:04,073 -♪♪ I go back ♪♪ -His mother. (panting) 240 00:15:04,140 --> 00:15:06,311 His mother-- sh-she seems okay. 241 00:15:08,349 --> 00:15:10,086 ♪♪ I used to rock all night long ♪♪ 242 00:15:10,152 --> 00:15:13,259 ♪♪ To "Keep On Rockin' Me, Baby" ♪♪ 243 00:15:14,027 --> 00:15:15,831 ♪♪ Frat parties, college bars ♪♪ 244 00:15:15,898 --> 00:15:18,837 ♪♪ Just trying to impress the ladies ♪♪ 245 00:15:18,904 --> 00:15:24,113 ♪♪ Well, I heard it today and I couldn't help but sing along ♪♪ 246 00:15:25,684 --> 00:15:28,022 ♪♪ 'Cause every time I hear that song ♪♪ 247 00:15:28,757 --> 00:15:31,963 ♪♪ And I go back to the smell of an old gym floor ♪♪ 248 00:15:32,029 --> 00:15:34,703 ♪♪ The taste of salt on a Carolina shore ♪♪ 249 00:15:34,769 --> 00:15:38,977 ♪♪ After graduation and drinking goodbye to friends ♪♪ 250 00:15:40,279 --> 00:15:41,782 -(computer chimes) -♪♪ Every time ♪♪ 251 00:15:41,849 --> 00:15:44,254 ♪♪ I hear that song ♪♪ 252 00:15:44,320 --> 00:15:47,059 ♪♪ I go back... ♪♪ 253 00:15:49,765 --> 00:15:53,138 ♪♪ I go back. ♪♪ 254 00:15:56,746 --> 00:15:59,417 ♪♪ I got a feeling ♪♪ 255 00:16:00,286 --> 00:16:03,025 ♪♪ Are you feeling it, too? ♪♪ 256 00:16:09,271 --> 00:16:12,544 ♪♪ I guess I've all but said it now ♪♪ 257 00:16:13,546 --> 00:16:17,220 ♪♪ So much for hoping you'd go first ♪♪ 258 00:16:18,222 --> 00:16:21,095 ♪♪ Say you couldn't sleep last night ♪♪ 259 00:16:22,030 --> 00:16:26,438 ♪♪ Swore that you could feel me breathe ♪♪ 260 00:16:26,506 --> 00:16:29,979 ♪♪ Had you wanting me there by your side ♪♪ 261 00:16:30,045 --> 00:16:33,720 ♪♪ Yeah, baby, I know what you mean ♪♪ 262 00:16:35,189 --> 00:16:37,293 ♪♪ I got a feeling ♪♪ 263 00:16:37,360 --> 00:16:39,164 ♪♪ My head's reeling ♪♪ 264 00:16:39,230 --> 00:16:41,368 ♪♪ My heart is screaming ♪♪ 265 00:16:41,435 --> 00:16:43,272 ♪♪ I'm about to bust loose ♪♪ 266 00:16:43,339 --> 00:16:45,844 ♪♪ Bottled-up emotion ♪♪ 267 00:16:45,911 --> 00:16:47,781 ♪♪ It's more than a notion ♪♪ 268 00:16:47,848 --> 00:16:51,957 ♪♪ It starts with an I and ends with a you ♪♪ 269 00:16:52,023 --> 00:16:55,597 ♪♪ I got a feeling ♪♪ 270 00:16:56,331 --> 00:16:59,270 ♪♪ You're feeling it, too. ♪♪ 271 00:17:04,180 --> 00:17:06,451 ♪♪ ♪♪ 272 00:17:26,660 --> 00:17:31,134 BETH: ♪♪ Ma yafeh hayom ♪♪ 273 00:17:32,170 --> 00:17:36,311 ♪♪ Shabbat shalom ♪♪ 274 00:17:37,548 --> 00:17:39,719 -♪♪ Shabbat ♪♪ -EZRA: Mommy! Mommy! 275 00:17:39,786 --> 00:17:41,789 -♪♪ Shabbat shalom ♪♪ -Mommy! That's my mommy! 276 00:17:41,856 --> 00:17:43,091 -Shh. (chuckles) -Mommy! 277 00:17:43,158 --> 00:17:44,528 ♪♪ Shabbat ♪♪ 278 00:17:44,595 --> 00:17:47,534 -♪♪ Shabbat shalom ♪♪ -Mommy! Mommy! 279 00:17:47,601 --> 00:17:50,005 -Mommy. -♪♪ Shabbat ♪♪ 280 00:17:50,072 --> 00:17:52,177 ♪♪ Shalom. ♪♪ 281 00:17:52,243 --> 00:17:55,383 -I'm a cantor, but I'm also a mommy. This is my son Ezra. -Mommy. 282 00:17:55,450 --> 00:17:57,354 Here, come sit with me over here. 283 00:17:57,420 --> 00:18:00,761 Why don't we play one of your favorite songs, then? 284 00:18:00,827 --> 00:18:02,698 What song should we play? 285 00:18:02,765 --> 00:18:04,401 -What's your favorite song? -"Got That Shabbat." 286 00:18:04,468 --> 00:18:05,937 "I Got That Shabbat Feeling"? 287 00:18:06,004 --> 00:18:07,541 Okay. Here we go. 288 00:18:07,608 --> 00:18:09,177 (playing guitar) 289 00:18:09,244 --> 00:18:11,949 ♪♪ I got that Shabbat feeling ♪♪ 290 00:18:12,016 --> 00:18:13,720 ♪♪ Up in my head ♪♪ 291 00:18:13,787 --> 00:18:14,922 (chuckles): Head. 292 00:18:14,989 --> 00:18:16,993 ♪♪ Up in my head ♪♪ 293 00:18:17,060 --> 00:18:18,796 ♪♪ Up in my head ♪♪ 294 00:18:18,863 --> 00:18:21,936 ♪♪ I got that Shabbat feeling ♪♪ 295 00:18:22,003 --> 00:18:24,007 ♪♪ Up in my head ♪♪ 296 00:18:24,074 --> 00:18:27,514 ♪♪ Up in my head today. ♪♪ 297 00:18:27,581 --> 00:18:29,652 ♪♪ ♪♪ 298 00:18:34,160 --> 00:18:35,697 (groans softly) 299 00:18:37,033 --> 00:18:39,838 ♪♪ ♪♪ 300 00:18:55,103 --> 00:18:56,539 (door opens) 301 00:19:01,650 --> 00:19:03,318 (chain jangling) 302 00:19:13,205 --> 00:19:14,641 Come, sit down. 303 00:19:32,778 --> 00:19:34,849 (inhales deeply) 304 00:19:34,915 --> 00:19:37,253 (exhales) 305 00:19:39,257 --> 00:19:42,698 You told me that you get very angry 306 00:19:42,765 --> 00:19:45,269 with people who treat you rudely. 307 00:19:46,471 --> 00:19:48,442 That everyone you hurt 308 00:19:48,510 --> 00:19:51,616 somehow deserves what happens to them. 309 00:19:51,682 --> 00:19:53,619 And... 310 00:19:53,686 --> 00:19:55,022 I'm starting to think that 311 00:19:55,088 --> 00:19:58,896 that's not actually what's going on, Sam. 312 00:20:02,103 --> 00:20:03,840 What do you mean? 313 00:20:04,942 --> 00:20:08,750 What I mean is, after everything you went through as a child, 314 00:20:08,817 --> 00:20:09,918 you are angry, 315 00:20:09,985 --> 00:20:12,858 as anyone would be who experienced that. 316 00:20:12,924 --> 00:20:16,064 And that anger has made you violent. 317 00:20:16,131 --> 00:20:18,770 Which is also very human. So... 318 00:20:18,837 --> 00:20:20,072 really, Sam, 319 00:20:20,139 --> 00:20:23,479 you are just looking for people 320 00:20:23,546 --> 00:20:25,817 who will serve as an excuse 321 00:20:25,884 --> 00:20:28,856 for you to act out those feelings. 322 00:20:30,092 --> 00:20:32,196 And the people that you choose-- 323 00:20:32,263 --> 00:20:35,002 I-I think it's almost random. 324 00:20:35,770 --> 00:20:39,010 If you run into someone when you are in that state of mind, 325 00:20:39,076 --> 00:20:42,751 I think you will find a way 326 00:20:42,818 --> 00:20:46,158 -to be offended by them. -No, you're wrong. 327 00:20:46,225 --> 00:20:48,663 Those people, each and every one of those people 328 00:20:48,730 --> 00:20:50,767 is a fucking asshole. You weren't there. 329 00:20:50,833 --> 00:20:53,272 You were never there. That piece of shit, 330 00:20:53,338 --> 00:20:55,042 he acts however he wants. 331 00:20:55,108 --> 00:20:56,478 He treats people like shit. 332 00:20:56,546 --> 00:20:58,817 I understand why you feel that way. 333 00:20:58,883 --> 00:21:00,620 I know 334 00:21:00,687 --> 00:21:03,225 that is what you are experiencing. 335 00:21:03,292 --> 00:21:05,295 But part of therapy 336 00:21:05,362 --> 00:21:09,471 is finding a way to look beyond 337 00:21:09,539 --> 00:21:12,309 what you are experiencing in the moment 338 00:21:12,376 --> 00:21:15,449 and to search more deeply. 339 00:21:16,384 --> 00:21:19,457 Sam, I think this is a great opportunity 340 00:21:19,525 --> 00:21:21,662 for you to search more deeply. 341 00:21:21,729 --> 00:21:24,000 I know it's what you want. 342 00:21:24,066 --> 00:21:27,874 I know it's why we are both here right now. 343 00:21:30,046 --> 00:21:33,719 I want you to consider what I just told you. 344 00:21:36,191 --> 00:21:38,361 May I tell you something more? 345 00:21:39,565 --> 00:21:41,168 I don't know. 346 00:21:41,234 --> 00:21:43,204 I think you are angry 347 00:21:43,271 --> 00:21:47,479 because of what your father did, like you always said. 348 00:21:47,547 --> 00:21:49,484 But I think it connects with your father 349 00:21:49,551 --> 00:21:51,120 on deeper levels as well. 350 00:21:51,187 --> 00:21:54,060 You said that he would beat you 351 00:21:54,127 --> 00:21:56,264 if you didn't do 352 00:21:56,331 --> 00:21:58,570 exactly what he said instantly. 353 00:21:58,636 --> 00:22:01,175 If you even took a moment to think about it. 354 00:22:01,241 --> 00:22:03,345 Isn't that what you said? 355 00:22:03,412 --> 00:22:05,817 Mm-hmm. 356 00:22:05,884 --> 00:22:08,155 So that was, like, his reason 357 00:22:08,221 --> 00:22:10,794 to hurt you, in his mind. 358 00:22:10,861 --> 00:22:12,463 But then that got into your mind. 359 00:22:12,531 --> 00:22:15,369 So you-you think that there is a reason 360 00:22:15,435 --> 00:22:19,010 that all of these people are behaving this way towards you, 361 00:22:19,077 --> 00:22:20,647 when in reality, 362 00:22:20,714 --> 00:22:23,251 they're just going about their business. 363 00:22:24,020 --> 00:22:27,794 They didn't do anything to provoke your attacks 364 00:22:27,861 --> 00:22:30,032 any more than you did to provoke your father. 365 00:22:30,099 --> 00:22:34,474 He was just a violent, out of control abuser. 366 00:22:34,542 --> 00:22:38,349 You weren't responsible. 367 00:22:38,415 --> 00:22:40,787 You were just a little boy. 368 00:22:42,256 --> 00:22:44,361 Elias Petraki in there... 369 00:22:45,129 --> 00:22:48,101 ...he didn't do anything to deserve this either. 370 00:22:48,168 --> 00:22:52,043 He's just a guy who cooks, manages a Greek restaurant, 371 00:22:52,109 --> 00:22:53,613 makes food that you like. 372 00:22:53,679 --> 00:22:56,017 He got into a little tangle with you 373 00:22:56,084 --> 00:22:58,590 over an inspection, 374 00:22:58,657 --> 00:23:00,827 and he might have looked at you funny 375 00:23:00,894 --> 00:23:03,533 or been obnoxious or disrespectful. 376 00:23:03,600 --> 00:23:05,402 He looked at me... 377 00:23:06,238 --> 00:23:08,241 He looked at me like I was... 378 00:23:08,308 --> 00:23:11,616 I was... a son of a bitch. 379 00:23:11,683 --> 00:23:12,985 You know, it doesn't-it doesn't... 380 00:23:13,051 --> 00:23:14,621 -it doesn't-it doesn't matter. -Sam. 381 00:23:14,688 --> 00:23:16,357 -He's-he's... he's... -Sam. 382 00:23:16,424 --> 00:23:19,197 I want you to bring Elias out here 383 00:23:19,263 --> 00:23:20,399 so the three of us can talk. 384 00:23:20,466 --> 00:23:22,537 (scoffs) 385 00:23:23,405 --> 00:23:25,109 What would the point of that be? 386 00:23:25,176 --> 00:23:27,681 You seem to think that he is such a horrible person 387 00:23:27,747 --> 00:23:30,253 that he doesn't deserve to live. 388 00:23:30,319 --> 00:23:32,657 Let's see 389 00:23:32,724 --> 00:23:34,895 -if there's more to him. -I don't want to. 390 00:23:37,467 --> 00:23:39,170 -I want him dead. -I know you do, 391 00:23:39,237 --> 00:23:41,608 but I think 392 00:23:41,675 --> 00:23:43,980 the three of us talking could be an important 393 00:23:44,047 --> 00:23:45,984 -part of our work. -These aren't his therapy sessions. These are 394 00:23:46,051 --> 00:23:48,288 -my therapy sessions. -I'm not suggesting that 395 00:23:48,355 --> 00:23:50,259 we do this for him. 396 00:23:50,325 --> 00:23:52,196 This is your therapy. 397 00:24:06,593 --> 00:24:09,030 (door opens) 398 00:24:11,902 --> 00:24:13,840 -(Sam speaking indistinctly) -(clattering) 399 00:24:13,907 --> 00:24:16,177 -(duct tape ripping) -(Elias grunting, whimpering) 400 00:24:26,765 --> 00:24:29,805 (Elias panting) 401 00:24:29,872 --> 00:24:31,642 (grunts) 402 00:24:51,582 --> 00:24:55,055 I've gotten to know Elias some, 403 00:24:55,122 --> 00:24:58,095 and I think he's a good young man. 404 00:24:58,161 --> 00:25:02,637 And I think if you get to know him, 405 00:25:02,704 --> 00:25:06,244 you will feel differently about him. 406 00:25:11,955 --> 00:25:13,759 Elias, 407 00:25:13,826 --> 00:25:17,701 we want you to show your full self here 408 00:25:17,768 --> 00:25:21,374 so he can see you as something more 409 00:25:21,441 --> 00:25:23,045 than he does right now. 410 00:25:23,913 --> 00:25:25,951 Do you think that you could tell him 411 00:25:26,017 --> 00:25:29,090 a little bit about yourself? 412 00:25:29,157 --> 00:25:32,229 I know how hard this is, given the circumstances, 413 00:25:32,296 --> 00:25:35,770 but... do your best. 414 00:25:36,539 --> 00:25:38,208 (sniffles) 415 00:25:39,044 --> 00:25:42,149 Okay. Um... 416 00:25:42,216 --> 00:25:43,987 ♪♪ ♪♪ 417 00:25:44,053 --> 00:25:46,759 Why don't you tell him about the pastitsio, 418 00:25:46,825 --> 00:25:49,931 and how you came up with that idea. 419 00:25:52,269 --> 00:25:54,474 O... Okay. 420 00:25:54,541 --> 00:25:56,211 Um... 421 00:25:56,278 --> 00:25:58,516 (whimpering) 422 00:25:58,582 --> 00:26:02,089 It's okay. I know this is hard. 423 00:26:02,156 --> 00:26:04,929 Tell him about it. 424 00:26:04,995 --> 00:26:07,233 How you were in Asia. 425 00:26:07,300 --> 00:26:11,040 Okay. Yeah, I... 426 00:26:11,107 --> 00:26:12,677 (exhales sharply) 427 00:26:12,744 --> 00:26:16,451 Okay. (clears throat) 428 00:26:16,518 --> 00:26:17,821 I work in a restaurant 429 00:26:17,888 --> 00:26:21,863 with... with my parents. (sniffles) 430 00:26:21,929 --> 00:26:25,068 They-they came from Greece. 431 00:26:25,135 --> 00:26:27,172 All that way. They... 432 00:26:27,239 --> 00:26:28,776 they had a-a dream to... 433 00:26:28,843 --> 00:26:33,218 What? What? Wh... 434 00:26:33,284 --> 00:26:34,788 Should I, uh... 435 00:26:34,855 --> 00:26:37,226 I-I... Okay. 436 00:26:37,994 --> 00:26:39,832 So, I-I had this idea 437 00:26:39,899 --> 00:26:42,303 -to com-to combine udon noodles... -I... 438 00:26:42,369 --> 00:26:44,942 -No, no. No, no, no! -(whimpering, screaming) 439 00:26:45,008 --> 00:26:46,546 -Alan! -No, no, no! No. 440 00:26:46,613 --> 00:26:48,582 No! Candace! 441 00:26:48,649 --> 00:26:51,187 ELIAS: No! (coughs) Don't... 442 00:26:51,254 --> 00:26:53,258 No, God. Candace! 443 00:26:54,661 --> 00:26:57,433 Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, no! 444 00:26:57,500 --> 00:27:00,573 -(Elias gasping) -Oh, God, no! 445 00:27:00,640 --> 00:27:05,015 No. Oh! 446 00:27:05,082 --> 00:27:07,085 No! 447 00:27:13,365 --> 00:27:15,236 No! No, God! 448 00:27:15,302 --> 00:27:18,676 No, no, no, no! 449 00:27:18,743 --> 00:27:20,446 No! 450 00:27:20,513 --> 00:27:22,784 (gagging) 451 00:27:24,487 --> 00:27:26,257 No. 452 00:27:34,039 --> 00:27:36,310 -(whimpering) -(Sam continues panting) 453 00:28:02,598 --> 00:28:04,166 (door shuts) 454 00:28:31,387 --> 00:28:33,458 ♪♪ ♪♪ 455 00:29:00,580 --> 00:29:02,850 ♪♪ ♪♪ 456 00:29:21,354 --> 00:29:23,424 ♪♪ ♪♪ 457 00:31:18,655 --> 00:31:20,926 Captioned by Media Access Group at WGBH