1 00:00:01,547 --> 00:00:04,018 ("Get Along" by Kenny Chesney playing) 2 00:00:05,588 --> 00:00:08,260 ♪♪ Get along on down the road ♪♪ 3 00:00:08,326 --> 00:00:10,799 ♪♪ We've got a long, long way to go ♪♪ 4 00:00:10,865 --> 00:00:13,470 ♪♪ Scared to live, scared to die ♪♪ 5 00:00:13,537 --> 00:00:16,409 ♪♪ We ain't perfect but we try ♪♪ 6 00:00:16,476 --> 00:00:18,548 ♪♪ Get along while we can ♪♪ 7 00:00:18,614 --> 00:00:21,353 ♪♪ Always give love the upper hand ♪♪ 8 00:00:21,419 --> 00:00:24,559 ♪♪ Paint a wall, learn to dance ♪♪ 9 00:00:24,626 --> 00:00:27,999 ♪♪ Call your mom, can't we all get along? ♪♪ 10 00:00:28,066 --> 00:00:29,803 ♪♪ ♪♪ 11 00:00:37,919 --> 00:00:39,723 (knocking) 12 00:00:45,935 --> 00:00:46,937 (chuckles): My God. 13 00:00:47,004 --> 00:00:48,072 Sam. 14 00:00:48,139 --> 00:00:50,377 This is a surprise. 15 00:00:51,279 --> 00:00:52,949 Yeah. I guess I should've called. 16 00:00:53,016 --> 00:00:55,186 Are you okay? 17 00:00:55,955 --> 00:00:58,359 Yeah. I j... I... 18 00:00:59,195 --> 00:01:00,665 I'm in therapy, 19 00:01:00,732 --> 00:01:03,270 and my therapist said that I should... 20 00:01:03,336 --> 00:01:05,407 come and talk to you. 21 00:01:06,276 --> 00:01:07,979 You're in therapy? 22 00:01:08,046 --> 00:01:10,116 Mm-hmm. 23 00:01:15,762 --> 00:01:17,832 ♪♪ ♪♪ 24 00:01:31,359 --> 00:01:32,762 (clicks tongue) 25 00:01:38,340 --> 00:01:40,276 H-How's Hara doing? 26 00:01:41,981 --> 00:01:44,552 She just turned 12 last month. 27 00:01:44,619 --> 00:01:45,988 Mm. 28 00:01:46,055 --> 00:01:48,292 Her reading's getting better. 29 00:01:49,228 --> 00:01:50,865 It turns out she's pretty fast. 30 00:01:50,931 --> 00:01:54,840 She likes running races against the boys. 31 00:01:54,907 --> 00:01:55,975 (chuckles softly) 32 00:01:56,744 --> 00:02:00,250 Have you heard of panta bhat and fuchka? 33 00:02:01,653 --> 00:02:02,388 No. 34 00:02:02,454 --> 00:02:04,291 That's what she eats. 35 00:02:04,358 --> 00:02:05,895 Her favorites. 36 00:02:06,663 --> 00:02:08,267 I'm surprised you haven't heard of those, 37 00:02:08,333 --> 00:02:09,904 with all the... 38 00:02:09,970 --> 00:02:11,573 places you eat. 39 00:02:15,347 --> 00:02:17,384 Did you tell her about us? 40 00:02:18,353 --> 00:02:19,990 That's against the rules. 41 00:02:20,057 --> 00:02:25,167 You don't tell them about divorce or anything... 42 00:02:25,233 --> 00:02:27,805 upsetting in your family. 43 00:02:28,774 --> 00:02:30,210 Mm. Right. 44 00:02:31,781 --> 00:02:34,151 I actually have another one now, too. 45 00:02:34,218 --> 00:02:35,187 Muntaha. 46 00:02:35,254 --> 00:02:36,723 (chuckles softly) 47 00:02:37,625 --> 00:02:38,861 Wow. 48 00:02:39,630 --> 00:02:40,798 Do you want to see a picture? 49 00:02:40,865 --> 00:02:41,967 -(chuckles) -Sure. 50 00:02:42,034 --> 00:02:43,670 (chuckles) 51 00:02:50,083 --> 00:02:51,620 Wow. 52 00:02:56,162 --> 00:02:57,565 She's cute. 53 00:02:57,632 --> 00:03:00,638 Yeah, and she also likes panta bhat and fuchka. 54 00:03:14,933 --> 00:03:18,874 ELIAS: Alan, can you come closer to the door? 55 00:03:23,083 --> 00:03:25,353 (chain jangling) 56 00:03:28,760 --> 00:03:30,130 I'm here. 57 00:03:30,197 --> 00:03:31,465 Listen. 58 00:03:33,002 --> 00:03:35,373 Your hands are free, right? 59 00:03:36,142 --> 00:03:37,311 Yeah. 60 00:03:37,378 --> 00:03:38,947 And you said you have... 61 00:03:39,014 --> 00:03:42,254 like, meetings with him. 62 00:03:42,321 --> 00:03:44,225 Appointments? 63 00:03:44,291 --> 00:03:46,697 -Sessions. -Sessions. 64 00:03:46,764 --> 00:03:50,404 Do you think you could have one with him here now? 65 00:03:50,471 --> 00:03:52,475 We... actually do. 66 00:03:52,542 --> 00:03:54,112 We do have them here. 67 00:03:54,178 --> 00:03:55,915 Great. 68 00:03:55,982 --> 00:03:57,384 That's weird. Right? 69 00:03:57,451 --> 00:03:58,587 Yeah, it's weird. 70 00:03:58,654 --> 00:04:00,691 I don't really have a choice. 71 00:04:02,461 --> 00:04:05,835 We're both prob-probably going to be dead soon. 72 00:04:09,074 --> 00:04:11,680 I say we go down swinging. 73 00:04:12,447 --> 00:04:15,622 Next time you have one of your sessions, 74 00:04:15,688 --> 00:04:18,761 I want you to convince him to bring me in. 75 00:04:18,827 --> 00:04:22,268 Make up some... good therapy reason. 76 00:04:22,334 --> 00:04:23,236 (panting) 77 00:04:23,303 --> 00:04:24,806 And once I'm there, 78 00:04:24,873 --> 00:04:25,942 you jump him. 79 00:04:26,009 --> 00:04:28,614 And I'll, like... 80 00:04:28,681 --> 00:04:30,784 throw my body on him, too. 81 00:04:37,766 --> 00:04:39,836 Did you see Kenny last summer? 82 00:04:41,172 --> 00:04:43,009 Mm-hmm. Twice. 83 00:04:43,944 --> 00:04:45,781 Raleigh and Chicago. 84 00:04:45,848 --> 00:04:47,618 Chicago was... 85 00:05:00,010 --> 00:05:03,684 What did your therapist want you to talk to me about? 86 00:05:05,286 --> 00:05:08,326 I don't know. He just said I should come talk to you. 87 00:05:08,392 --> 00:05:10,029 So... 88 00:05:28,601 --> 00:05:31,473 You never picked up your La-Z-Boy. 89 00:05:31,540 --> 00:05:33,376 Do you still want it? 90 00:05:38,453 --> 00:05:40,023 (whimpers) Okay. 91 00:05:40,089 --> 00:05:41,258 -All right? -Mm-hmm. 92 00:05:41,325 --> 00:05:43,162 All right. 93 00:05:43,229 --> 00:05:44,966 Okay, just try and get it in. 94 00:05:45,701 --> 00:05:47,773 All right, go. One, two, three. (grunts) 95 00:05:47,839 --> 00:05:49,709 -(groans) That's... -No? Okay. 96 00:05:49,776 --> 00:05:51,112 -No. (chuckles) -All right. 97 00:05:51,178 --> 00:05:52,782 Okay. 98 00:05:52,849 --> 00:05:54,084 (grunts) 99 00:05:55,821 --> 00:05:57,023 Go. 100 00:06:16,095 --> 00:06:17,865 Thanks. 101 00:06:17,932 --> 00:06:19,969 ♪♪ ♪♪ 102 00:06:39,175 --> 00:06:41,445 (urinating) 103 00:06:47,357 --> 00:06:48,994 (zips) 104 00:06:50,164 --> 00:06:52,434 (chain jangling) 105 00:06:57,243 --> 00:06:58,814 Elias? 106 00:06:59,549 --> 00:07:00,985 ELIAS: Yeah. 107 00:07:03,657 --> 00:07:07,097 You gave me a message for your family. 108 00:07:07,164 --> 00:07:10,170 But you may be the one who gets out of here. So... 109 00:07:10,237 --> 00:07:13,844 I'd like to give you a message for mine, too. 110 00:07:18,085 --> 00:07:19,756 Okay. 111 00:07:20,824 --> 00:07:22,762 Okay. 112 00:07:24,031 --> 00:07:28,039 Tell my daughter, Shoshana, that I love her. 113 00:07:28,774 --> 00:07:31,613 And that I treasured our life together. 114 00:07:32,516 --> 00:07:33,817 And that... 115 00:07:33,884 --> 00:07:36,923 I want her to find a way to move on. 116 00:07:38,459 --> 00:07:40,664 Ezra, my son-- 117 00:07:40,731 --> 00:07:42,969 tell him I loved him very much 118 00:07:43,035 --> 00:07:45,741 and that his mother loved him, too. 119 00:07:46,576 --> 00:07:48,914 Even when it was difficult between them. 120 00:07:51,185 --> 00:07:52,353 And that I'm... 121 00:07:52,420 --> 00:07:55,059 sorry that there was so much... 122 00:07:55,126 --> 00:07:58,700 conflict in the family when she was dying 123 00:07:58,767 --> 00:08:00,069 and that I... 124 00:08:02,240 --> 00:08:03,443 That's a lot to remember. 125 00:08:03,511 --> 00:08:05,547 Um, just... 126 00:08:06,683 --> 00:08:09,087 Just tell them what you can remember. 127 00:08:26,155 --> 00:08:27,625 Can you k... 128 00:08:27,692 --> 00:08:29,294 keep talking? 129 00:08:29,361 --> 00:08:31,165 Please? 130 00:08:37,443 --> 00:08:39,583 When Ezra went to college... 131 00:08:40,350 --> 00:08:43,524 ...he fell in with one of those rabbis with the black hats 132 00:08:43,590 --> 00:08:44,959 and... 133 00:08:45,026 --> 00:08:48,032 suddenly he's an Orthodox Jew. 134 00:08:49,703 --> 00:08:51,172 No parties. 135 00:08:51,973 --> 00:08:55,581 Doesn't turn the lights on or off during the Sabbath. 136 00:08:57,117 --> 00:08:58,554 Beth, my wife... 137 00:08:58,621 --> 00:08:59,689 (chuckles softly) 138 00:08:59,756 --> 00:09:01,259 ...this all... 139 00:09:01,325 --> 00:09:03,597 just drove her crazy. 140 00:09:04,666 --> 00:09:06,402 Everybody following their own paths 141 00:09:06,469 --> 00:09:08,974 wasn't exactly her cup of tea. 142 00:09:09,040 --> 00:09:12,715 I did my best to help her with it, but... 143 00:09:13,918 --> 00:09:16,155 ...Ezra did not make it easy. 144 00:09:16,890 --> 00:09:19,796 His family could not even come over to our house 145 00:09:19,862 --> 00:09:21,667 without bringing their own food. 146 00:09:21,733 --> 00:09:24,337 You know about kosher food? 147 00:09:25,741 --> 00:09:28,279 It's regular food with a thousand rules. 148 00:09:30,918 --> 00:09:32,454 This one birthday party 149 00:09:32,522 --> 00:09:34,526 for Ezra's son... 150 00:09:34,592 --> 00:09:37,264 she wanted to bring some... 151 00:09:37,330 --> 00:09:39,602 (vehicle approaching) 152 00:09:42,440 --> 00:09:44,244 He's back. 153 00:09:45,046 --> 00:09:47,184 -(engine shuts off) -(car door opens) 154 00:09:47,251 --> 00:09:49,387 (car door shuts) 155 00:09:53,497 --> 00:09:55,433 (gate creaks) 156 00:09:55,501 --> 00:09:57,771 (footsteps approaching) 157 00:10:08,259 --> 00:10:10,196 (grunts) 158 00:10:12,835 --> 00:10:14,204 (Sam exhales) 159 00:10:29,268 --> 00:10:30,938 I got my chair back. 160 00:10:32,307 --> 00:10:34,010 So you saw her? 161 00:10:35,146 --> 00:10:36,281 Yeah. 162 00:10:37,250 --> 00:10:39,020 What did you talk about? 163 00:10:55,655 --> 00:10:57,123 (sighs) 164 00:10:58,994 --> 00:11:01,231 She's got these kids... 165 00:11:01,966 --> 00:11:04,038 ...who we adopted in Bangladesh. 166 00:11:04,104 --> 00:11:07,143 We adopted 'em from this... 167 00:11:07,210 --> 00:11:08,079 organization. 168 00:11:08,146 --> 00:11:10,984 I mean, we-we adopted one of 'em. 169 00:11:12,755 --> 00:11:14,992 She just got another one. 170 00:11:15,727 --> 00:11:17,832 And... 171 00:11:17,898 --> 00:11:20,136 she loves them a lot. 172 00:11:21,839 --> 00:11:23,977 How did it feel seeing her? 173 00:11:25,479 --> 00:11:26,482 Yeah. 174 00:11:26,550 --> 00:11:27,551 I liked it. 175 00:11:27,618 --> 00:11:29,054 Mm. 176 00:11:29,121 --> 00:11:30,725 But I don't think it accomplished 177 00:11:30,791 --> 00:11:32,393 what you were hoping. 178 00:11:32,460 --> 00:11:34,397 Like, diverting me. 179 00:11:37,805 --> 00:11:41,713 These kids of Mary's and yours... 180 00:11:42,480 --> 00:11:43,717 ...when they grow up, 181 00:11:43,784 --> 00:11:45,754 I bet you want them to be responsible 182 00:11:45,821 --> 00:11:47,825 for the things they do in life. 183 00:11:47,891 --> 00:11:50,631 It has to be hard in Bangladesh. 184 00:11:50,698 --> 00:11:53,202 You want them to overcome, not... 185 00:11:53,269 --> 00:11:55,508 blame everything on their circumstances 186 00:11:55,574 --> 00:11:57,077 or the people who hurt them. 187 00:11:57,144 --> 00:11:59,549 That's part of what we're talking about here, Sam... 188 00:11:59,616 --> 00:12:02,755 Can you imagine me beating the shit out of those kids? 189 00:12:02,822 --> 00:12:04,425 Like... 190 00:12:04,492 --> 00:12:06,663 punching 'em, hitting 'em 191 00:12:06,729 --> 00:12:08,466 like they're worthless pieces of shit? 192 00:12:08,534 --> 00:12:10,236 How can anybody... 193 00:12:11,773 --> 00:12:13,343 Yeah, I'm gonna do this now. 194 00:12:13,409 --> 00:12:14,813 Wait. Wait. Wait! Sam! 195 00:12:14,879 --> 00:12:16,415 -No. Listen to me! -This guy's gonna get it. 196 00:12:16,482 --> 00:12:18,988 -He's gonna get it right now. -Candace! Get down here! 197 00:12:19,054 --> 00:12:21,359 Get down here! Right now! 198 00:12:21,425 --> 00:12:23,931 -We have a problem down here! -No! No! (whimpering) 199 00:12:23,997 --> 00:12:25,768 -CANDACE: Sam? -(grunts) No! No, no, no... 200 00:12:25,834 --> 00:12:27,571 No, please. (whimpers) Please. 201 00:12:27,638 --> 00:12:29,976 -Oh, Sam, stop! -ELIAS: Wait, please, please. 202 00:12:30,042 --> 00:12:32,615 -Wait, wait. -Mom, go back upstairs. 203 00:12:32,681 --> 00:12:34,018 No. You listen to me. 204 00:12:34,084 --> 00:12:35,287 Stop right now. 205 00:12:35,353 --> 00:12:37,692 You are supposed to be protecting me 206 00:12:37,759 --> 00:12:39,294 by not doing this. 207 00:12:40,931 --> 00:12:43,035 -(clapping) -Get back here! 208 00:12:53,422 --> 00:12:54,559 What? 209 00:12:54,626 --> 00:12:57,030 Go to your room. 210 00:12:57,798 --> 00:12:59,434 Right now. 211 00:13:01,004 --> 00:13:02,941 -I don't want to. -CANDACE: Sam. 212 00:13:03,743 --> 00:13:05,346 You need your good night's sleep. 213 00:13:07,050 --> 00:13:09,522 You know, sometimes you feel better after that. 214 00:13:24,819 --> 00:13:27,123 ♪♪ ♪♪ 215 00:13:34,505 --> 00:13:36,609 (lock clicks) 216 00:13:41,820 --> 00:13:43,355 (door opens) 217 00:13:44,091 --> 00:13:45,994 (door slams) 218 00:13:48,700 --> 00:13:50,604 ("I Go Back" by Kenny Chesney playing over stereo) 219 00:13:50,671 --> 00:13:52,608 SAM: Fuck! 220 00:13:53,610 --> 00:13:54,679 (quietly): I'm okay. 221 00:13:54,746 --> 00:13:57,016 (volume increasing) 222 00:13:59,623 --> 00:14:03,129 ♪♪ "Jack and Diane" painted a picture of my life ♪♪ 223 00:14:03,196 --> 00:14:05,132 ♪♪ And my dreams ♪♪ 224 00:14:05,199 --> 00:14:07,271 ♪♪ Suddenly this crazy world ♪♪ 225 00:14:07,337 --> 00:14:10,476 ♪♪ Made more sense to me ♪♪ 226 00:14:10,544 --> 00:14:13,282 ♪♪ Well, I heard it today and I couldn't help ♪♪ 227 00:14:13,349 --> 00:14:15,487 ♪♪ But sing along ♪♪ 228 00:14:16,222 --> 00:14:20,296 ♪♪ 'Cause every time I hear that song ♪♪ 229 00:14:20,363 --> 00:14:23,436 ♪♪ And I go back to a two-toned short-bed Chevy ♪♪ 230 00:14:23,503 --> 00:14:26,275 ♪♪ Driving my first love out to the levee ♪♪ 231 00:14:26,342 --> 00:14:30,149 ♪♪ Living life with no sense of time ♪♪ 232 00:14:30,884 --> 00:14:33,991 -♪♪ And I go back to the feel of a 50-yard line ♪♪ -ELIAS: Alan? 233 00:14:34,057 --> 00:14:36,863 -♪♪ A blanket, a girl, some raspberry wine ♪♪ -Yeah. 234 00:14:36,930 --> 00:14:40,537 ♪♪ Wishing time would stop right in its tracks ♪♪ 235 00:14:40,604 --> 00:14:42,608 ELIAS: They gone? 236 00:14:42,674 --> 00:14:45,647 -♪♪ Every time I hear that song ♪♪ -ALAN: Yes. 237 00:14:45,714 --> 00:14:48,987 -(Elias shuddering) -♪♪ I go back... ♪♪ 238 00:14:49,054 --> 00:14:51,726 (grunts, panting) 239 00:14:51,793 --> 00:14:54,063 -♪♪ I go back ♪♪ -His mother. (panting) 240 00:14:54,130 --> 00:14:56,301 His mother-- sh-she seems okay. 241 00:14:58,339 --> 00:15:00,076 ♪♪ I used to rock all night long ♪♪ 242 00:15:00,142 --> 00:15:03,249 ♪♪ To "Keep On Rockin' Me, Baby" ♪♪ 243 00:15:04,017 --> 00:15:05,821 ♪♪ Frat parties, college bars ♪♪ 244 00:15:05,888 --> 00:15:08,827 ♪♪ Just trying to impress the ladies ♪♪ 245 00:15:08,894 --> 00:15:14,103 ♪♪ Well, I heard it today and I couldn't help but sing along ♪♪ 246 00:15:15,674 --> 00:15:18,012 ♪♪ 'Cause every time I hear that song ♪♪ 247 00:15:18,747 --> 00:15:21,953 ♪♪ And I go back to the smell of an old gym floor ♪♪ 248 00:15:22,019 --> 00:15:24,693 ♪♪ The taste of salt on a Carolina shore ♪♪ 249 00:15:24,759 --> 00:15:28,967 ♪♪ After graduation and drinking goodbye to friends ♪♪ 250 00:15:30,269 --> 00:15:31,772 -(computer chimes) -♪♪ Every time ♪♪ 251 00:15:31,839 --> 00:15:34,244 ♪♪ I hear that song ♪♪ 252 00:15:34,310 --> 00:15:37,049 ♪♪ I go back... ♪♪ 253 00:15:39,755 --> 00:15:43,128 ♪♪ I go back. ♪♪ 254 00:15:46,736 --> 00:15:49,407 ♪♪ I got a feeling ♪♪ 255 00:15:50,276 --> 00:15:53,015 ♪♪ Are you feeling it, too? ♪♪ 256 00:15:59,261 --> 00:16:02,534 ♪♪ I guess I've all but said it now ♪♪ 257 00:16:03,536 --> 00:16:07,210 ♪♪ So much for hoping you'd go first ♪♪ 258 00:16:08,212 --> 00:16:11,085 ♪♪ Say you couldn't sleep last night ♪♪ 259 00:16:12,020 --> 00:16:16,428 ♪♪ Swore that you could feel me breathe ♪♪ 260 00:16:16,496 --> 00:16:19,969 ♪♪ Had you wanting me there by your side ♪♪ 261 00:16:20,035 --> 00:16:23,710 ♪♪ Yeah, baby, I know what you mean ♪♪ 262 00:16:25,179 --> 00:16:27,283 ♪♪ I got a feeling ♪♪ 263 00:16:27,350 --> 00:16:29,154 ♪♪ My head's reeling ♪♪ 264 00:16:29,220 --> 00:16:31,358 ♪♪ My heart is screaming ♪♪ 265 00:16:31,425 --> 00:16:33,262 ♪♪ I'm about to bust loose ♪♪ 266 00:16:33,329 --> 00:16:35,834 ♪♪ Bottled-up emotion ♪♪ 267 00:16:35,901 --> 00:16:37,771 ♪♪ It's more than a notion ♪♪ 268 00:16:37,838 --> 00:16:41,947 ♪♪ It starts with an I and ends with a you ♪♪ 269 00:16:42,013 --> 00:16:45,587 ♪♪ I got a feeling ♪♪ 270 00:16:46,321 --> 00:16:49,260 ♪♪ You're feeling it, too. ♪♪ 271 00:16:54,170 --> 00:16:56,441 ♪♪ ♪♪ 272 00:17:16,650 --> 00:17:21,124 BETH: ♪♪ Ma yafeh hayom ♪♪ 273 00:17:22,160 --> 00:17:26,301 ♪♪ Shabbat shalom ♪♪ 274 00:17:27,538 --> 00:17:29,709 -♪♪ Shabbat ♪♪ -EZRA: Mommy! Mommy! 275 00:17:29,776 --> 00:17:31,779 -♪♪ Shabbat shalom ♪♪ -Mommy! That's my mommy! 276 00:17:31,846 --> 00:17:33,081 -Shh. (chuckles) -Mommy! 277 00:17:33,148 --> 00:17:34,518 ♪♪ Shabbat ♪♪ 278 00:17:34,585 --> 00:17:37,524 -♪♪ Shabbat shalom ♪♪ -Mommy! Mommy! 279 00:17:37,591 --> 00:17:39,995 -Mommy. -♪♪ Shabbat ♪♪ 280 00:17:40,062 --> 00:17:42,167 ♪♪ Shalom. ♪♪ 281 00:17:42,233 --> 00:17:45,373 -I'm a cantor, but I'm also a mommy. This is my son Ezra. -Mommy. 282 00:17:45,440 --> 00:17:47,344 Here, come sit with me over here. 283 00:17:47,410 --> 00:17:50,751 Why don't we play one of your favorite songs, then? 284 00:17:50,817 --> 00:17:52,688 What song should we play? 285 00:17:52,755 --> 00:17:54,391 -What's your favorite song? -"Got That Shabbat." 286 00:17:54,458 --> 00:17:55,927 "I Got That Shabbat Feeling"? 287 00:17:55,994 --> 00:17:57,531 Okay. Here we go. 288 00:17:57,598 --> 00:17:59,167 (playing guitar) 289 00:17:59,234 --> 00:18:01,939 ♪♪ I got that Shabbat feeling ♪♪ 290 00:18:02,006 --> 00:18:03,710 ♪♪ Up in my head ♪♪ 291 00:18:03,777 --> 00:18:04,912 (chuckles): Head. 292 00:18:04,979 --> 00:18:06,983 ♪♪ Up in my head ♪♪ 293 00:18:07,050 --> 00:18:08,786 ♪♪ Up in my head ♪♪ 294 00:18:08,853 --> 00:18:11,926 ♪♪ I got that Shabbat feeling ♪♪ 295 00:18:11,993 --> 00:18:13,997 ♪♪ Up in my head ♪♪ 296 00:18:14,064 --> 00:18:17,504 ♪♪ Up in my head today. ♪♪ 297 00:18:17,571 --> 00:18:19,642 ♪♪ ♪♪ 298 00:18:24,150 --> 00:18:25,687 (groans softly) 299 00:18:27,023 --> 00:18:29,828 ♪♪ ♪♪ 300 00:18:45,093 --> 00:18:46,529 (door opens) 301 00:18:51,640 --> 00:18:53,308 (chain jangling) 302 00:19:03,195 --> 00:19:04,631 Come, sit down. 303 00:19:22,768 --> 00:19:24,839 (inhales deeply) 304 00:19:24,905 --> 00:19:27,243 (exhales) 305 00:19:29,247 --> 00:19:32,688 You told me that you get very angry 306 00:19:32,755 --> 00:19:35,259 with people who treat you rudely. 307 00:19:36,461 --> 00:19:38,432 That everyone you hurt 308 00:19:38,500 --> 00:19:41,606 somehow deserves what happens to them. 309 00:19:41,672 --> 00:19:43,609 And... 310 00:19:43,676 --> 00:19:45,012 I'm starting to think that 311 00:19:45,078 --> 00:19:48,886 that's not actually what's going on, Sam. 312 00:19:52,093 --> 00:19:53,830 What do you mean? 313 00:19:54,932 --> 00:19:58,740 What I mean is, after everything you went through as a child, 314 00:19:58,807 --> 00:19:59,908 you are angry, 315 00:19:59,975 --> 00:20:02,848 as anyone would be who experienced that. 316 00:20:02,914 --> 00:20:06,054 And that anger has made you violent. 317 00:20:06,121 --> 00:20:08,760 Which is also very human. So... 318 00:20:08,827 --> 00:20:10,062 really, Sam, 319 00:20:10,129 --> 00:20:13,469 you are just looking for people 320 00:20:13,536 --> 00:20:15,807 who will serve as an excuse 321 00:20:15,874 --> 00:20:18,846 for you to act out those feelings. 322 00:20:20,082 --> 00:20:22,186 And the people that you choose-- 323 00:20:22,253 --> 00:20:24,992 I-I think it's almost random. 324 00:20:25,760 --> 00:20:29,000 If you run into someone when you are in that state of mind, 325 00:20:29,066 --> 00:20:32,741 I think you will find a way 326 00:20:32,808 --> 00:20:36,148 -to be offended by them. -No, you're wrong. 327 00:20:36,215 --> 00:20:38,653 Those people, each and every one of those people 328 00:20:38,720 --> 00:20:40,757 is a fucking asshole. You weren't there. 329 00:20:40,823 --> 00:20:43,262 You were never there. That piece of shit, 330 00:20:43,328 --> 00:20:45,032 he acts however he wants. 331 00:20:45,098 --> 00:20:46,468 He treats people like shit. 332 00:20:46,536 --> 00:20:48,807 I understand why you feel that way. 333 00:20:48,873 --> 00:20:50,610 I know 334 00:20:50,677 --> 00:20:53,215 that is what you are experiencing. 335 00:20:53,282 --> 00:20:55,285 But part of therapy 336 00:20:55,352 --> 00:20:59,461 is finding a way to look beyond 337 00:20:59,529 --> 00:21:02,299 what you are experiencing in the moment 338 00:21:02,366 --> 00:21:05,439 and to search more deeply. 339 00:21:06,374 --> 00:21:09,447 Sam, I think this is a great opportunity 340 00:21:09,515 --> 00:21:11,652 for you to search more deeply. 341 00:21:11,719 --> 00:21:13,990 I know it's what you want. 342 00:21:14,056 --> 00:21:17,864 I know it's why we are both here right now. 343 00:21:20,036 --> 00:21:23,709 I want you to consider what I just told you. 344 00:21:26,181 --> 00:21:28,351 May I tell you something more? 345 00:21:29,555 --> 00:21:31,158 I don't know. 346 00:21:31,224 --> 00:21:33,194 I think you are angry 347 00:21:33,261 --> 00:21:37,469 because of what your father did, like you always said. 348 00:21:37,537 --> 00:21:39,474 But I think it connects with your father 349 00:21:39,541 --> 00:21:41,110 on deeper levels as well. 350 00:21:41,177 --> 00:21:44,050 You said that he would beat you 351 00:21:44,117 --> 00:21:46,254 if you didn't do 352 00:21:46,321 --> 00:21:48,560 exactly what he said instantly. 353 00:21:48,626 --> 00:21:51,165 If you even took a moment to think about it. 354 00:21:51,231 --> 00:21:53,335 Isn't that what you said? 355 00:21:53,402 --> 00:21:55,807 Mm-hmm. 356 00:21:55,874 --> 00:21:58,145 So that was, like, his reason 357 00:21:58,211 --> 00:22:00,784 to hurt you, in his mind. 358 00:22:00,851 --> 00:22:02,453 But then that got into your mind. 359 00:22:02,521 --> 00:22:05,359 So you-you think that there is a reason 360 00:22:05,425 --> 00:22:09,000 that all of these people are behaving this way towards you, 361 00:22:09,067 --> 00:22:10,637 when in reality, 362 00:22:10,704 --> 00:22:13,241 they're just going about their business. 363 00:22:14,010 --> 00:22:17,784 They didn't do anything to provoke your attacks 364 00:22:17,851 --> 00:22:20,022 any more than you did to provoke your father. 365 00:22:20,089 --> 00:22:24,464 He was just a violent, out of control abuser. 366 00:22:24,532 --> 00:22:28,339 You weren't responsible. 367 00:22:28,405 --> 00:22:30,777 You were just a little boy. 368 00:22:32,246 --> 00:22:34,351 Elias Petraki in there... 369 00:22:35,119 --> 00:22:38,091 ...he didn't do anything to deserve this either. 370 00:22:38,158 --> 00:22:42,033 He's just a guy who cooks, manages a Greek restaurant, 371 00:22:42,099 --> 00:22:43,603 makes food that you like. 372 00:22:43,669 --> 00:22:46,007 He got into a little tangle with you 373 00:22:46,074 --> 00:22:48,580 over an inspection, 374 00:22:48,647 --> 00:22:50,817 and he might have looked at you funny 375 00:22:50,884 --> 00:22:53,523 or been obnoxious or disrespectful. 376 00:22:53,590 --> 00:22:55,392 He looked at me... 377 00:22:56,228 --> 00:22:58,231 He looked at me like I was... 378 00:22:58,298 --> 00:23:01,606 I was... a son of a bitch. 379 00:23:01,673 --> 00:23:02,975 You know, it doesn't-it doesn't... 380 00:23:03,041 --> 00:23:04,611 -it doesn't-it doesn't matter. -Sam. 381 00:23:04,678 --> 00:23:06,347 -He's-he's... he's... -Sam. 382 00:23:06,414 --> 00:23:09,187 I want you to bring Elias out here 383 00:23:09,253 --> 00:23:10,389 so the three of us can talk. 384 00:23:10,456 --> 00:23:12,527 (scoffs) 385 00:23:13,395 --> 00:23:15,099 What would the point of that be? 386 00:23:15,166 --> 00:23:17,671 You seem to think that he is such a horrible person 387 00:23:17,737 --> 00:23:20,243 that he doesn't deserve to live. 388 00:23:20,309 --> 00:23:22,647 Let's see 389 00:23:22,714 --> 00:23:24,885 -if there's more to him. -I don't want to. 390 00:23:27,457 --> 00:23:29,160 -I want him dead. -I know you do, 391 00:23:29,227 --> 00:23:31,598 but I think 392 00:23:31,665 --> 00:23:33,970 the three of us talking could be an important 393 00:23:34,037 --> 00:23:35,974 -part of our work. -These aren't his therapy sessions. These are 394 00:23:36,041 --> 00:23:38,278 -my therapy sessions. -I'm not suggesting that 395 00:23:38,345 --> 00:23:40,249 we do this for him. 396 00:23:40,315 --> 00:23:42,186 This is your therapy. 397 00:23:56,583 --> 00:23:59,020 (door opens) 398 00:24:01,892 --> 00:24:03,830 -(Sam speaking indistinctly) -(clattering) 399 00:24:03,897 --> 00:24:06,167 -(duct tape ripping) -(Elias grunting, whimpering) 400 00:24:16,755 --> 00:24:19,795 (Elias panting) 401 00:24:19,862 --> 00:24:21,632 (grunts) 402 00:24:41,572 --> 00:24:45,045 I've gotten to know Elias some, 403 00:24:45,112 --> 00:24:48,085 and I think he's a good young man. 404 00:24:48,151 --> 00:24:52,627 And I think if you get to know him, 405 00:24:52,694 --> 00:24:56,234 you will feel differently about him. 406 00:25:01,945 --> 00:25:03,749 Elias, 407 00:25:03,816 --> 00:25:07,691 we want you to show your full self here 408 00:25:07,758 --> 00:25:11,364 so he can see you as something more 409 00:25:11,431 --> 00:25:13,035 than he does right now. 410 00:25:13,903 --> 00:25:15,941 Do you think that you could tell him 411 00:25:16,007 --> 00:25:19,080 a little bit about yourself? 412 00:25:19,147 --> 00:25:22,219 I know how hard this is, given the circumstances, 413 00:25:22,286 --> 00:25:25,760 but... do your best. 414 00:25:26,529 --> 00:25:28,198 (sniffles) 415 00:25:29,034 --> 00:25:32,139 Okay. Um... 416 00:25:32,206 --> 00:25:33,977 ♪♪ ♪♪ 417 00:25:34,043 --> 00:25:36,749 Why don't you tell him about the pastitsio, 418 00:25:36,815 --> 00:25:39,921 and how you came up with that idea. 419 00:25:42,259 --> 00:25:44,464 O... Okay. 420 00:25:44,531 --> 00:25:46,201 Um... 421 00:25:46,268 --> 00:25:48,506 (whimpering) 422 00:25:48,572 --> 00:25:52,079 It's okay. I know this is hard. 423 00:25:52,146 --> 00:25:54,919 Tell him about it. 424 00:25:54,985 --> 00:25:57,223 How you were in Asia. 425 00:25:57,290 --> 00:26:01,030 Okay. Yeah, I... 426 00:26:01,097 --> 00:26:02,667 (exhales sharply) 427 00:26:02,734 --> 00:26:06,441 Okay. (clears throat) 428 00:26:06,508 --> 00:26:07,811 I work in a restaurant 429 00:26:07,878 --> 00:26:11,853 with... with my parents. (sniffles) 430 00:26:11,919 --> 00:26:15,058 They-they came from Greece. 431 00:26:15,125 --> 00:26:17,162 All that way. They... 432 00:26:17,229 --> 00:26:18,766 they had a-a dream to... 433 00:26:18,833 --> 00:26:23,208 What? What? Wh... 434 00:26:23,274 --> 00:26:24,778 Should I, uh... 435 00:26:24,845 --> 00:26:27,216 I-I... Okay. 436 00:26:27,984 --> 00:26:29,822 So, I-I had this idea 437 00:26:29,889 --> 00:26:32,293 -to com-to combine udon noodles... -I... 438 00:26:32,359 --> 00:26:34,932 -No, no. No, no, no! -(whimpering, screaming) 439 00:26:34,998 --> 00:26:36,536 -Alan! -No, no, no! No. 440 00:26:36,603 --> 00:26:38,572 No! Candace! 441 00:26:38,639 --> 00:26:41,177 ELIAS: No! (coughs) Don't... 442 00:26:41,244 --> 00:26:43,248 No, God. Candace! 443 00:26:44,651 --> 00:26:47,423 Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, no! 444 00:26:47,490 --> 00:26:50,563 -(Elias gasping) -Oh, God, no! 445 00:26:50,630 --> 00:26:55,005 No. Oh! 446 00:26:55,072 --> 00:26:57,075 No! 447 00:27:03,355 --> 00:27:05,226 No! No, God! 448 00:27:05,292 --> 00:27:08,666 No, no, no, no! 449 00:27:08,733 --> 00:27:10,436 No! 450 00:27:10,503 --> 00:27:12,774 (gagging) 451 00:27:14,477 --> 00:27:16,247 No. 452 00:27:24,029 --> 00:27:26,300 -(whimpering) -(Sam continues panting) 453 00:27:52,588 --> 00:27:54,156 (door shuts) 454 00:28:21,377 --> 00:28:23,448 ♪♪ ♪♪ 455 00:28:50,570 --> 00:28:52,840 ♪♪ ♪♪ 456 00:29:11,344 --> 00:29:13,414 ♪♪ ♪♪ 457 00:31:08,645 --> 00:31:10,916 Captioned by Media Access Group at WGBH