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(wind blowing)

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(groaning)

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(shuddering)

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Viktor.

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Viktor.

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Wake up, Viktor.

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(yelps)

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You were having a nightmare.

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Didn't you read my book?

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I said not to wake
the person up.

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(gasps)

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(breathes heavily)

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(metal scraping)

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(scraping continues)

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(chain rattles)

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Sharper than it looks.

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I mean, a little.

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Good.

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And it's perfectly normal

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to want to kill a patient that's
leaving therapy prematurely.

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(chuckles)

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CHARLIE:
Your dream.

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(sighs)

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Auschwitz.

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Viktor Frankl is lying there,
having a nightmare.

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Remember what he said not
to do, in his book?

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Reality is worse
than a nightmare

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when you're in Auschwitz--
don't wake him up.

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I woke him up.

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Maybe the dream
is trying to say...

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the human spirit can prevail.

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You should keep working,

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keep being a therapist,
no matter what.

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How's it saying that?

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I don't know.
That's in his book.

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Or maybe it's telling me,
don't die like a fucking sheep.

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Sam!

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(louder):
Sam!

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I know it's early.

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I'm sorry to wake you up,
but there's some things

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that we need to discuss.

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We need to talk
before you go to work.

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Please sit.

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I don't think that you should go
to see a new therapist.

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Sometimes it's true, a patient
needs to try somebody else.

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But sometimes it is a way
of running away.

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And I think that

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is what is happening here.

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And I think we're making
real progress.

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You are opening up more
than you ever did before.

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You are trying
to contain your impulses,

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even if we haven't found
anything that works yet.

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I know things are getting
worse right now.

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It's part of the process.

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It's where the cliché
comes from,

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things get worse
before they get better.

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I've come to care
about you, Sam,

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as I always do
with my patients.

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You and I have developed
a relationship.

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No matter how strange
the situation is,

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that's the bottom line.

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Therapists and patients develop
genuine feelings.

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I know there are feelings,
but...

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(sighs)

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I told you, it's not working.

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And I'm going to see
Mr. Buchella next week.

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That still gives us a week.

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Let's see what we can
accomplish, hmm?

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At least send you off to him
in the best shape we can.

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I know what you're trying to do.

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(snorts)
Of course, I'm a human being.

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I don't want you to get
another therapist

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and then kill me.

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(chuckles)

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Sam, you can leave this room
at any time,

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you are not chained
to the floor,

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but I have some things
to say.

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(sighs)

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I am going to tell you
about a man named Viktor Frankl.

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He was a psychiatrist in Austria
in the 1930s and '40s.

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He survived the Nazi
concentration camps,

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and he wrote a book called
Man's Search for Meaning.

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And his main point is that

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people need meaning
in their lives,

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probably more
than anything else.

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And I think that is a way
for you to take your next step.

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So, the deepest place
that we can find meaning

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is in relationships.

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We all need friends and romance,
people to be close to.

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For everyone,
that's what fills us up.

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That's what makes life
good to live.

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And without it,
anyone can go to dark places.

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(sighs)

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So, like Mary.

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Yes, like Mary.

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When I was with her,
I didn't feel any different.

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I understand,
but you're changing now.

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If you had a girlfriend now,

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I bet it would be different.

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For some reason, I'm just,
I'm not...

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I'm not great at meeting women.

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How did you meet Mary?

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We went to high school
together.

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We were, like, friends, kind of.

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And then my mom went to her
for physical therapy

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when she broke her wrist,

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and Mom gave her my number.

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That's good.

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Obviously, when she called,
you handled it well.

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Maybe you're better with women
than you think.

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What attracted you to Mary?

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(sighs)

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I, I-- can we not talk
about Mary, please?

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ALAN:
Why?

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She didn't want
the marriage to end.

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But she didn't know
if I loved her.

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Loved loved her.

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Maybe I could get
some meaning from Hara.

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Our kid in Bangladesh.

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Mary and me would lie in bed

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sometimes and she would pretend
that we were all together.

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Us and Hara.

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Mm-hmm, that sounds nice.

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But then, other times,
if she didn't understand

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or agree with something that
I was trying to say to her,

126
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she would... get really upset.

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She... did I tell you she
complained all the time?

128
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She wasn't...

129
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Wasn't what?

130
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I don't know.

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Maybe she didn't have
enough meaning in her life.

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I wish I could meet her.

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Why?

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If I could see
the two of you together,

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I could help figure out

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if this is the right direction
for you to go in.

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Therapists can figure out what
two people go best together?

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It's hard to predict
what couples will work.

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But sometimes we can make
a pretty good guess

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about what won't work.

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Mm.

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This is going to sound
kind of strange.

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But I wonder, is there a way
that I could meet her?

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I mean, not in person,
but...

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On the phone?

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Yeah, maybe, or...

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(scoffs)

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00:10:02,381 --> 00:10:05,821
Maybe you could have her over

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for lunch or dinner, upstairs.

150
00:10:08,425 --> 00:10:13,771
You could leave the door open,
talk loudly.

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That's a terrible idea.

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(stammers) Yeah, yeah.

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Or, you know,

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my daughter, with her kids,
had this nanny cam.

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And she could see and hear
everything

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that they were doing in
their room.

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Maybe you could get
one of those.

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And I could watch

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and hear you two interacting.

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And then I could give you
my professional opinion.

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00:10:43,463 --> 00:10:46,637
That feels like it would be...

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not honest.

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It's normally not healthy
to spy on another person,

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especially someone
you are trying

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to explore
a trusting relationship with.

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But these are
extreme circumstances.

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00:11:07,310 --> 00:11:09,414
Hmm.

168
00:11:10,751 --> 00:11:13,590
Mom?!

169
00:11:13,657 --> 00:11:16,863
Can you come down here?

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00:11:20,637 --> 00:11:22,908
-(door opens)
-(footsteps approaching)

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I'm inviting Mary over

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for brunch.

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What?

174
00:11:28,186 --> 00:11:31,125
I'm inviting Mary
over for brunch.

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Dr. Strauss wants to meet her,
he's gonna watch on a nanny cam.

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I'm not sure I...

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00:11:39,107 --> 00:11:41,311
You want Mary to come over?

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00:11:41,378 --> 00:11:45,854
I was telling Sam he needs
to develop more relationships

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in order to expand the meaning

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in his life.

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I think that kind of meaning
can start to help take the place

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of his problematic obsessions.

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00:11:54,539 --> 00:11:56,977
But... Mary?

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-Shouldn't it be someone new?
-Maybe.

185
00:12:00,585 --> 00:12:04,124
But my thinking is,
he's already gotten very far

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00:12:04,191 --> 00:12:05,995
in his relationship with Mary.

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00:12:06,062 --> 00:12:07,898
-(phone chimes)
-And at this point,
he has a strong need to...

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00:12:07,965 --> 00:12:09,368
SAM:
She's coming.

189
00:12:09,435 --> 00:12:12,975
Tomorrow at 10:00.

190
00:12:14,478 --> 00:12:16,348
Well...

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00:12:16,415 --> 00:12:18,485
I always liked Mary.

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(metal scraping)

193
00:12:38,694 --> 00:12:40,363
(sighs)

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00:12:50,383 --> 00:12:53,222
CHARLIE:
You already got Elias
killed.

195
00:12:53,289 --> 00:12:56,095
That wasn't totally your fault.

196
00:12:56,161 --> 00:12:58,667
But if Sam chokes Mary to death?

197
00:12:58,733 --> 00:13:00,971
That's a hundred percent on you.

198
00:13:01,038 --> 00:13:02,575
What do you want me to do?

199
00:13:02,642 --> 00:13:04,612
I'm not the Terminator.

200
00:13:04,678 --> 00:13:07,150
I stab him with this bullshit
half-knife,

201
00:13:07,217 --> 00:13:11,125
what, is he just gonna lie down
on the floor and bleed out?

202
00:13:11,192 --> 00:13:13,228
I'll be lucky if I get
one good jab in.

203
00:13:13,295 --> 00:13:17,271
But with Mary upstairs,
I can stab him,

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00:13:17,337 --> 00:13:19,174
scream,
and she'll call the police.

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00:13:19,241 --> 00:13:21,747
Him going for this
is a fucking miracle.

206
00:13:21,813 --> 00:13:24,118
It's a gift from God.

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00:13:24,184 --> 00:13:26,422
Except you're assuming,
when you stab him

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00:13:26,489 --> 00:13:29,596
with your foot cream tube
and scream for help,

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00:13:29,663 --> 00:13:33,202
his mom won't just whomp Mary
over the head with a frying pan.

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00:13:33,268 --> 00:13:35,808
Right, that's what I'm assuming.

211
00:13:35,874 --> 00:13:39,582
A Hail Mary with Mary.

212
00:14:05,601 --> 00:14:06,903
Can you hear me?

213
00:14:06,970 --> 00:14:08,940
I can hear!

214
00:14:17,591 --> 00:14:21,298
They didn't have these
when my kids were babies.

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00:14:24,605 --> 00:14:26,843
-Dr. Strauss.
-Mm.

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00:14:26,910 --> 00:14:30,049
You're not gonna...

217
00:14:31,152 --> 00:14:32,688
You probably think

218
00:14:32,755 --> 00:14:35,961
that I wouldn't hurt Mary
because I care about her.

219
00:14:36,730 --> 00:14:39,200
And that's true.

220
00:14:42,240 --> 00:14:46,315
But if-if you did
something stupid

221
00:14:46,382 --> 00:14:48,821
and she found out
that you were down here...

222
00:14:48,887 --> 00:14:52,360
if you created a situation where
I had no other choice, I...

223
00:14:52,427 --> 00:14:55,567
Sam, my only goal

224
00:14:55,634 --> 00:14:58,673
is for this brunch date
to go well for you.

225
00:15:04,250 --> 00:15:06,054
What are you serving?

226
00:15:06,121 --> 00:15:08,359
Indian from Maruti.

227
00:15:08,425 --> 00:15:10,463
Mmm, does Mary like Indian?

228
00:15:10,531 --> 00:15:11,666
No, not that much.

229
00:15:11,732 --> 00:15:15,273
I... you know, Sam,
I would encourage you

230
00:15:15,339 --> 00:15:17,545
to think about what she might
like to eat.

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00:15:17,612 --> 00:15:19,347
You're the host,

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00:15:19,414 --> 00:15:22,286
and you want her
to have a good time, right?

233
00:15:23,488 --> 00:15:24,658
Yeah.

234
00:15:25,828 --> 00:15:27,230
That's a good idea.

235
00:15:35,680 --> 00:15:37,518
What do I say to her?

236
00:15:37,585 --> 00:15:42,461
Well... you guys used
to talk, right?

237
00:15:42,528 --> 00:15:45,032
Yeah.

238
00:15:46,202 --> 00:15:48,574
Would you be comfortable
trying some role-play?

239
00:15:48,640 --> 00:15:49,742
That's where you practice

240
00:15:49,809 --> 00:15:51,947
a situation that you're going
to be in.

241
00:15:52,013 --> 00:15:53,448
I can play the part of Mary,

242
00:15:53,516 --> 00:15:56,990
and we could just try
to have a conversation.

243
00:15:57,056 --> 00:15:59,862
Like a real,
like a real conversation?

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00:15:59,929 --> 00:16:02,100
Yes.

245
00:16:02,167 --> 00:16:06,542
Why don't you try saying,
"How have you been?"

246
00:16:07,979 --> 00:16:09,682
How have you been?

247
00:16:09,749 --> 00:16:13,189
How, how have, how have you--
how have you been?

248
00:16:13,256 --> 00:16:15,828
How have you been?

249
00:16:15,894 --> 00:16:19,200
Pretty good, how about you?

250
00:16:20,971 --> 00:16:23,777
Pretty good, pretty good.

251
00:16:23,843 --> 00:16:28,018
Pretty good, I've been pretty,
I've been pretty good.

252
00:16:28,085 --> 00:16:30,056
I've been pretty good--
can I be Mary?

253
00:16:30,123 --> 00:16:32,127
Uh... sure, yes.

254
00:16:32,193 --> 00:16:34,966
Let's try that.

255
00:16:35,033 --> 00:16:39,307
It's so good to see you again,
Mary, how have you been?

256
00:16:42,781 --> 00:16:45,086
Pretty good, how about you?

257
00:16:45,152 --> 00:16:47,825
Um, I've been doing okay.

258
00:16:47,892 --> 00:16:50,163
A lot going on at work.

259
00:16:50,229 --> 00:16:52,534
How are things going
at work for you?

260
00:16:54,672 --> 00:16:57,109
Pretty good.

261
00:17:00,116 --> 00:17:01,786
I don't want to do this.

262
00:17:16,148 --> 00:17:17,517
Dr. Strauss.

263
00:17:18,886 --> 00:17:20,489
If...

264
00:17:21,391 --> 00:17:24,364
If Mary and I had a baby...

265
00:17:26,302 --> 00:17:29,107
...would it be like me?

266
00:17:32,447 --> 00:17:36,254
Nobody knows how their kids
are going to turn out, Sam.

267
00:17:55,627 --> 00:17:57,698
♪♪ ♪♪

268
00:18:25,252 --> 00:18:27,557
♪♪ ♪♪

269
00:18:57,183 --> 00:18:59,454
♪♪ ♪♪

270
00:19:01,826 --> 00:19:05,667
(grunting)

271
00:19:08,907 --> 00:19:11,746
(deep breath)

272
00:19:29,347 --> 00:19:31,485
(silverware clinking)

273
00:19:31,552 --> 00:19:33,990
This is the, uh,
Waldorf salad from Milo's.

274
00:19:34,057 --> 00:19:36,763
Oh... I love that.

275
00:19:36,830 --> 00:19:39,569
But you didn't have to get me
something special.

276
00:19:39,635 --> 00:19:42,607
You get gas when you
eat Indian food.

277
00:19:49,622 --> 00:19:52,259
(Sam sighs, clears throat)

278
00:20:03,683 --> 00:20:05,653
(grunts)

279
00:20:30,469 --> 00:20:34,645
(sighs deeply)

280
00:20:48,873 --> 00:20:50,911
Mm.

281
00:20:50,978 --> 00:20:52,346
The salad's great.

282
00:21:04,738 --> 00:21:06,274
Mm.

283
00:21:08,211 --> 00:21:11,685
A Jew was sentenced
to death.

284
00:21:12,954 --> 00:21:15,761
A British guy says...

285
00:21:15,828 --> 00:21:17,096
No, he's French.

286
00:21:17,163 --> 00:21:19,033
French guy.

287
00:21:19,100 --> 00:21:22,541
A French guy said to kill him
with the guillotine.

288
00:21:22,607 --> 00:21:24,745
He's-- he's sentenced
to death, too.

289
00:21:24,812 --> 00:21:27,884
That's the-- they're all--
so the British guy--

290
00:21:27,951 --> 00:21:29,655
there's another British guy
there, and...

291
00:21:29,722 --> 00:21:34,230
The British guy...
sentenced to death...

292
00:21:34,297 --> 00:21:36,201
he wanted to be shot

293
00:21:36,267 --> 00:21:39,374
in the head, he says,

294
00:21:39,440 --> 00:21:41,011
"Uh, shoot me."

295
00:21:41,078 --> 00:21:42,580
So they shoot him in the head.

296
00:21:42,647 --> 00:21:47,323
And the Jewish guy--
they said, "How?"

297
00:21:47,390 --> 00:21:49,327
They said, "How?"

298
00:21:49,394 --> 00:21:54,470
And then the Jewish guy says,
"Old age."

299
00:21:56,275 --> 00:21:59,046
(sighs)

300
00:22:00,650 --> 00:22:02,086
I'll be right back.

301
00:22:08,398 --> 00:22:09,702
CANDACE:
Some more tea?

302
00:22:09,768 --> 00:22:10,904
MARY:
Oh, no, I'm good, thank you.

303
00:22:10,970 --> 00:22:14,177
-(door opens)
-(footsteps approaching)

304
00:22:15,212 --> 00:22:16,549
CANDACE:
I have all these kinds of tea.

305
00:22:16,615 --> 00:22:18,953
A whole cabinet.

306
00:22:19,020 --> 00:22:21,057
I don't even remember
buying it all.

307
00:22:22,862 --> 00:22:24,565
(quietly):
It's going really bad.

308
00:22:24,632 --> 00:22:27,469
I don't,
I don't know what to say.

309
00:22:27,537 --> 00:22:30,109
I think you should try asking
her a question.

310
00:22:30,175 --> 00:22:34,417
Either what's going on at work,
or how's her family?

311
00:22:36,087 --> 00:22:38,493
Okay.

312
00:22:38,560 --> 00:22:40,362
CANDACE:
How are your parents, Mary?

313
00:22:40,429 --> 00:22:43,068
MARY:
Normal, I guess.

314
00:22:43,135 --> 00:22:44,605
Why is this so hard?

315
00:22:44,671 --> 00:22:47,778
It just is.
It's hard for everyone.

316
00:22:47,844 --> 00:22:49,582
CANDACE:
Your dad okay?

317
00:22:49,648 --> 00:22:51,552
MARY:
Yeah, he's doing okay.

318
00:22:51,619 --> 00:22:54,658
He's not walking
like he used to.

319
00:22:54,725 --> 00:22:57,463
Mom thinks he needs
cataract surgery.

320
00:22:59,669 --> 00:23:01,371
At our age, it all goes wrong

321
00:23:01,438 --> 00:23:04,043
one thing at a time,
but I'm sure he'll be fine.

322
00:23:04,110 --> 00:23:06,248
MARY:
Yeah, that's what he says--
"It'll be fine."

323
00:23:06,314 --> 00:23:08,619
But then we'll be, like,
in the middle of dinner...

324
00:23:09,689 --> 00:23:12,459
You're gonna get
that girl killed.

325
00:23:13,863 --> 00:23:16,869
CANDACE:
It's easy to take it
for granted.

326
00:23:16,935 --> 00:23:18,405
(choking)

327
00:23:19,174 --> 00:23:21,278
MARY:
I've been trying
to exercise more.

328
00:23:21,344 --> 00:23:23,415
CANDACE:
Good for you.

329
00:23:23,481 --> 00:23:25,753
I should get back up.

330
00:23:27,022 --> 00:23:28,993
MARY:
It's so boring.

331
00:23:31,064 --> 00:23:33,235
You don't like
the lox and bagels?

332
00:23:33,302 --> 00:23:35,072
CANDACE:
I wish.

333
00:23:35,139 --> 00:23:36,374
One day.

334
00:23:36,441 --> 00:23:38,713
I'd rather have Indian.

335
00:23:39,515 --> 00:23:41,819
Okay. I might need more advice.

336
00:23:41,886 --> 00:23:46,562
MARY:
You know that pill that stops
you from having a heart attack?

337
00:23:46,629 --> 00:23:47,998
There are all these people

338
00:23:48,065 --> 00:23:51,371
who just eat whatever they want,
don't exercise,

339
00:23:51,438 --> 00:23:54,845
and then they take
these pills called statins.

340
00:23:56,248 --> 00:23:57,551
CANDACE:
Maybe that should be plan B.

341
00:23:57,618 --> 00:24:00,155
-(sighs deeply)
-MARY: Probably.

342
00:24:01,024 --> 00:24:03,530
Heart attacks--
they don't really scare me

343
00:24:03,597 --> 00:24:05,166
too much, though.

344
00:24:05,232 --> 00:24:07,738
Strokes, on the other hand.

345
00:24:07,804 --> 00:24:09,609
I don't think it runs
in the family,

346
00:24:09,675 --> 00:24:12,179
but, well, who knows?

347
00:24:13,550 --> 00:24:15,553
(Sam sniffs)

348
00:24:17,190 --> 00:24:20,029
So, how have you been doing
at work lately?

349
00:24:20,095 --> 00:24:21,732
Good.

350
00:24:21,799 --> 00:24:23,737
Um, do you remember Carolina?

351
00:24:23,803 --> 00:24:28,178
-Mm.
-She left about two months ago,
and they haven't replaced her,

352
00:24:28,245 --> 00:24:29,848
so I'm doing everything.

353
00:24:29,915 --> 00:24:31,518
SAM:
Are they going to replace her?

354
00:24:31,585 --> 00:24:34,658
They haven't even listed
the position yet.

355
00:24:34,725 --> 00:24:37,898
You're gonna have to keep
doing all of her work.

356
00:24:37,965 --> 00:24:38,699
That's not fair.

357
00:24:38,766 --> 00:24:42,774
Yeah, well, fair...

358
00:24:47,884 --> 00:24:50,356
You're never going
to believe this, but...

359
00:24:50,422 --> 00:24:53,262
I kind of miss the La-Z-Boy.

360
00:24:53,328 --> 00:24:54,599
(all chuckling)

361
00:24:54,665 --> 00:24:56,067
It's very comfortable.

362
00:24:56,134 --> 00:24:58,472
-Hmm.
-Yeah.

363
00:24:58,540 --> 00:25:01,646
I could, I could bring it back

364
00:25:01,712 --> 00:25:02,681
-if you want.
-Oh, no, that's okay.

365
00:25:02,747 --> 00:25:04,350
-No?
-No.

366
00:25:04,417 --> 00:25:09,194
MARY:
I have other good chairs,
and the couch.

367
00:25:09,260 --> 00:25:11,565
That chair was his father's.

368
00:25:14,470 --> 00:25:16,608
My father beat me up a lot.

369
00:25:17,476 --> 00:25:19,413
When I was a kid.

370
00:25:19,480 --> 00:25:22,587
That's why I went into therapy.

371
00:25:23,556 --> 00:25:25,025
MARY:
Oh...

372
00:25:25,092 --> 00:25:28,098
Sam.

373
00:25:31,839 --> 00:25:33,843
MARY:
So, my parents got a new cat.

374
00:25:35,245 --> 00:25:38,118
The old one, well,
he's not old...

375
00:25:39,922 --> 00:25:41,993
Let me help you with that,
and then I need to get home.

376
00:25:42,060 --> 00:25:43,963
CANDACE:
No, no, dear, just let me do it.

377
00:25:47,303 --> 00:25:50,711
Help, Mary, I'm Sam's prisoner
down here!

378
00:25:50,777 --> 00:25:52,781
Call the police! Help!

379
00:26:09,648 --> 00:26:13,154
SAM:
So, uh, okay, let me
walk you to your car.

380
00:26:28,820 --> 00:26:31,758
(chain rattling)

381
00:26:47,322 --> 00:26:49,360
(engine starts)

382
00:27:11,672 --> 00:27:13,843
Mary left.

383
00:27:15,145 --> 00:27:16,882
She said

384
00:27:16,949 --> 00:27:22,193
she thinks it's good for exes
to have a friendly relationship.

385
00:27:23,094 --> 00:27:27,002
And she thinks that we should do
this once a year.

386
00:27:29,340 --> 00:27:30,910
What are you feeling?

387
00:27:30,977 --> 00:27:34,851
Mary's not going to get
back together with me.

388
00:27:35,953 --> 00:27:38,959
How does that make you feel?

389
00:27:39,026 --> 00:27:40,228
Bad.

390
00:27:42,066 --> 00:27:44,103
Sad.

391
00:27:47,910 --> 00:27:51,953
That was a mistake,
her coming here was...

392
00:27:52,019 --> 00:27:53,923
Why did you have me do that?

393
00:27:53,990 --> 00:27:56,662
ALAN:
N-No, that's wrong.

394
00:27:56,729 --> 00:27:58,999
It wasn't a mistake.

395
00:27:59,066 --> 00:28:01,237
This is very important for you.

396
00:28:01,304 --> 00:28:05,746
To find meaningful
relationships.

397
00:28:05,813 --> 00:28:09,988
It means taking risks
and getting hurt.

398
00:28:10,055 --> 00:28:12,995
Then taking another risk
and getting hurt again.

399
00:28:13,061 --> 00:28:16,400
Until you find
relationships that work.

400
00:28:16,467 --> 00:28:19,374
And that is exactly
what life requires.

401
00:28:19,440 --> 00:28:23,649
-I don't feel good.
-Yes, that's part of it.

402
00:28:23,716 --> 00:28:26,454
And that pain
is telling you something.

403
00:28:26,522 --> 00:28:29,628
You've been following it
in the wrong direction.

404
00:28:29,694 --> 00:28:33,268
But now that you're getting
to know yourself better,

405
00:28:33,335 --> 00:28:35,539
it will tell you
where you need to go.

406
00:28:35,606 --> 00:28:37,711
I promise.

407
00:28:37,778 --> 00:28:40,783
It doesn't matter.

408
00:28:40,850 --> 00:28:43,956
I'm going to see
Mr. Buchella next week.

409
00:28:47,664 --> 00:28:49,033
What are you going to tell him?

410
00:28:49,100 --> 00:28:51,438
I'll tell him the same stuff
I told you.

411
00:28:51,505 --> 00:28:54,410
But hopefully it works with him.

412
00:28:54,477 --> 00:28:55,880
ALAN:
You know...

413
00:28:55,947 --> 00:29:00,155
in therapy, Sam,
you can't push people.

414
00:29:00,222 --> 00:29:02,661
You have to let them
come to their own insights

415
00:29:02,728 --> 00:29:04,464
in their own time.

416
00:29:04,531 --> 00:29:09,174
That being said, I would suggest
and encourage you

417
00:29:09,240 --> 00:29:12,346
to talk with Mr. Buchella
specifically

418
00:29:12,413 --> 00:29:14,316
about what your father
did to you.

419
00:29:16,187 --> 00:29:18,458
I told you all about my father.

420
00:29:18,526 --> 00:29:20,496
It was the first thing
that I told you.

421
00:29:20,563 --> 00:29:21,999
-That is true.
-Mm-hmm.

422
00:29:22,066 --> 00:29:24,403
But you had trouble
giving me details.

423
00:29:24,470 --> 00:29:27,443
It was hard for you to tell me
a really full story.

424
00:29:27,510 --> 00:29:30,482
And for you to go forward
with Mr. Buchella

425
00:29:30,550 --> 00:29:33,656
or anyone, I think
it is very important

426
00:29:33,722 --> 00:29:35,258
that you try to access

427
00:29:35,325 --> 00:29:38,365
those memories and those
deeper feelings about him.

428
00:29:38,432 --> 00:29:40,770
I don't have any trouble
accessing my memories

429
00:29:40,837 --> 00:29:43,442
or my feelings.
I remember everything.

430
00:29:43,509 --> 00:29:46,247
You, you think
that I don't remember?

431
00:29:46,314 --> 00:29:48,384
I think about it all the time,
I think about...

432
00:29:48,451 --> 00:29:52,226
every time he hit me,
every time he looked at me,

433
00:29:52,292 --> 00:29:54,831
the way he looked at me,
the way he hated me.

434
00:29:54,898 --> 00:29:56,333
What the f...

435
00:29:56,400 --> 00:30:00,810
This, this-- Sam,
what's happening right now,

436
00:30:00,876 --> 00:30:02,479
how you're feeling...

437
00:30:02,547 --> 00:30:06,722
(sighs)
When you get so angry
that you hurt someone,

438
00:30:06,788 --> 00:30:09,828
that's a version of what's
happening in this exact moment.

439
00:30:09,894 --> 00:30:12,734
And at the root of it is your
father, as we've discussed.

440
00:30:12,800 --> 00:30:17,275
It's not the people you hurt
that you're mad at, it's him.

441
00:30:22,520 --> 00:30:26,027
So you-you think that I kill
people because of him?

442
00:30:26,093 --> 00:30:29,299
Almost instead of him.

443
00:30:31,337 --> 00:30:32,507
Oh.

444
00:30:35,913 --> 00:30:37,917
I get it.

445
00:30:51,244 --> 00:30:53,314
(typing)

446
00:30:57,991 --> 00:31:01,164
This is a guy named
Edmund Kemper.

447
00:31:01,231 --> 00:31:06,041
He is the one guy who I feel,
he's the only one.

448
00:31:06,107 --> 00:31:08,913
Just, just watch this.

449
00:31:09,681 --> 00:31:13,221
KEMPER (on video):
It was springtime, it was April.

450
00:31:13,287 --> 00:31:16,528
Uh, for two months
I hadn't killed.

451
00:31:16,595 --> 00:31:19,400
And I said it's not going
to happen to any more girls.

452
00:31:19,466 --> 00:31:22,206
It's got to stay between
me and my mother.

453
00:31:22,273 --> 00:31:25,646
That was one week
before I murdered my mother.

454
00:31:25,713 --> 00:31:30,355
I said, she's got to die, or
girls like that are gonna die.

455
00:31:30,422 --> 00:31:33,394
And that's when I decided
I'm going to murder my mother.

456
00:31:33,461 --> 00:31:36,735
In his case, he said publicly
that it was his mother

457
00:31:36,802 --> 00:31:38,371
that he was killing all along.

458
00:31:38,438 --> 00:31:41,077
And when he killed his mother,
that was the end.

459
00:31:41,143 --> 00:31:42,580
It's a very deep
psychological observation

460
00:31:42,647 --> 00:31:44,818
from himself.
It may be very accurate.

461
00:31:44,885 --> 00:31:47,022
Got on the telephone
and turned himself in.

462
00:31:47,089 --> 00:31:49,160
He said it was time
for the killing to stop.

463
00:31:49,227 --> 00:31:53,101
I came out of her vagina, see?

464
00:31:53,168 --> 00:31:55,438
I came out of my mother.

465
00:31:55,506 --> 00:31:57,877
And in a rage
I went right back in.

466
00:31:57,944 --> 00:32:00,115
I cut off her head.

467
00:32:00,181 --> 00:32:03,187
And, and I humiliated
her corpse.

468
00:32:03,254 --> 00:32:04,992
He fucked her skull.

469
00:32:05,058 --> 00:32:09,635
It had to stop, it had to stop.
Uh, once my mother was dead,

470
00:32:09,701 --> 00:32:12,073
there was almost a cathartic
process at that point.

471
00:32:12,139 --> 00:32:14,978
-I got physically...
-See?

472
00:32:15,045 --> 00:32:16,715
Kemper said everyone he killed,

473
00:32:16,782 --> 00:32:20,322
he was just killing his mother
over and over again-- me, too.

474
00:32:20,388 --> 00:32:22,259
It's the same for me,
just with my father.

475
00:32:22,325 --> 00:32:24,263
-I don't think that this...
-You're the one who said
I kill people

476
00:32:24,330 --> 00:32:28,371
instead of him, so if I kill
him, I'll be done.

477
00:32:28,438 --> 00:32:30,074
I won't have to kill
any other people.

478
00:32:30,141 --> 00:32:32,145
-Sam.
-And if there's one person,
one person who needs

479
00:32:32,212 --> 00:32:33,649
to get what he deserves,
it's that piece of shit.

480
00:32:33,716 --> 00:32:35,118
ALAN:
Sam!

481
00:32:35,185 --> 00:32:37,757
Sam, you cannot and must not
kill your father.

482
00:32:37,824 --> 00:32:39,561
This is good.

483
00:32:39,628 --> 00:32:44,938
I feel like... I finally know
what I have to do.

484
00:32:45,004 --> 00:32:46,107
Sam, we, we should keep talking.

485
00:32:46,174 --> 00:32:48,880
We need to keep talking, Sam.

486
00:32:48,946 --> 00:32:50,382
I'm gonna kill my father,

487
00:32:50,449 --> 00:32:54,456
cut his head off,
and fuck his skull.

488
00:32:57,663 --> 00:33:00,301
I'm just kidding, I'm not
going to fuck his skull.

489
00:33:05,011 --> 00:33:08,084
(gate creaks, clangs)