1 00:00:10,093 --> 00:00:13,013 - Welcome to my closet. [chuckles] 2 00:00:13,054 --> 00:00:16,141 [gentle music] 3 00:00:16,182 --> 00:00:19,519 - So you do all the interviews in here? 4 00:00:19,561 --> 00:00:21,396 - Not all of them, but a lot of them. 5 00:00:21,438 --> 00:00:23,023 - Why? 6 00:00:23,064 --> 00:00:25,984 - I feel like I just get so shy, 7 00:00:26,026 --> 00:00:30,321 and then also, like, almost robotic when I'm, like, 8 00:00:30,363 --> 00:00:32,407 in a room with so many people. 9 00:00:32,449 --> 00:00:34,409 And here, I just feel more free because it's, like, 10 00:00:34,451 --> 00:00:36,119 my closet and no one's in here. 11 00:00:36,161 --> 00:00:38,329 - It's definitely cozier than one of those chairs. 12 00:00:38,371 --> 00:00:41,291 So this shall be interesting. 13 00:00:41,332 --> 00:00:45,045 [upbeat music] 14 00:00:45,086 --> 00:00:48,548 * * 15 00:00:48,590 --> 00:00:49,841 How are you? 16 00:00:49,883 --> 00:00:51,009 - Good. 17 00:00:51,051 --> 00:00:53,094 - You seem very calm. 18 00:00:53,136 --> 00:00:54,471 - I am. 19 00:00:55,764 --> 00:00:57,265 Not really. 20 00:00:57,307 --> 00:00:59,100 Should we go outside? - Yeah. 21 00:00:59,142 --> 00:01:03,813 I am so excited to be in LA for Paris' first concert. 22 00:01:03,855 --> 00:01:06,900 Growing up, we were always performing. 23 00:01:06,941 --> 00:01:09,444 Like, when our parents would have dinner parties, 24 00:01:09,486 --> 00:01:11,279 we would be putting on concerts. 25 00:01:11,321 --> 00:01:12,822 - Always. 26 00:01:12,864 --> 00:01:14,574 - Paula Abdul, plays, 27 00:01:14,616 --> 00:01:17,452 selling fake tickets at the front door. 28 00:01:17,494 --> 00:01:21,748 That has carried on to adulthood for some of us. 29 00:01:22,874 --> 00:01:24,084 - [laughs] 30 00:01:24,125 --> 00:01:25,960 - I didn't know you have a tennis court. 31 00:01:26,002 --> 00:01:27,754 - Mm-hmm. - Sick. 32 00:01:27,796 --> 00:01:28,880 - Yeah. 33 00:01:31,383 --> 00:01:32,592 - I don't know. 34 00:01:33,593 --> 00:01:35,136 - Well, why are you walking 35 00:01:35,178 --> 00:01:36,763 around your house in those shoes? 36 00:01:36,805 --> 00:01:38,848 - 'Cause I wanted to look cute for you. 37 00:01:38,890 --> 00:01:40,100 - [laughs] 38 00:01:40,141 --> 00:01:41,601 - The rehearsals every single day, 39 00:01:41,643 --> 00:01:45,271 like, my back has been just destroyed. 40 00:01:45,313 --> 00:01:46,439 Like... - Agh. 41 00:01:46,481 --> 00:01:48,233 - I literally was in hysterics, crying, 42 00:01:48,274 --> 00:01:50,402 like, every single night almost. 43 00:01:50,443 --> 00:01:53,363 It's been hurting so much that I had to call a doctor, 44 00:01:53,405 --> 00:01:56,825 and they prescribed, like, steroids. 45 00:01:56,866 --> 00:01:58,243 That's supposed to take away the pain. 46 00:01:58,284 --> 00:02:00,662 - Help with inflammation? - Yes, exactly. 47 00:02:00,704 --> 00:02:02,914 - Is it better now? - Yeah. 48 00:02:02,956 --> 00:02:04,457 It finally feels better. 49 00:02:05,709 --> 00:02:06,876 - Yes. 50 00:02:06,918 --> 00:02:08,336 - So who's coming tomorrow? 51 00:02:08,378 --> 00:02:10,213 How many people does the theater hold? 52 00:02:10,255 --> 00:02:11,965 - 1,500. 53 00:02:12,007 --> 00:02:13,883 There's not even enough tickets or seats for people. 54 00:02:13,925 --> 00:02:16,302 I had no idea this concert was gonna be so much work. 55 00:02:16,344 --> 00:02:18,304 Just putting this all together, 56 00:02:18,346 --> 00:02:20,640 the rehearsals every single day. 57 00:02:20,682 --> 00:02:22,809 Remember how I told you I wanted to see a therapist? 58 00:02:22,851 --> 00:02:24,269 - Yes. 59 00:02:24,310 --> 00:02:28,189 - So I had a session with this woman named Dr. Bethany. 60 00:02:28,231 --> 00:02:30,066 She was really amazing. 61 00:02:30,108 --> 00:02:31,443 I've just been having just 62 00:02:31,484 --> 00:02:33,111 all these really intrusive thoughts. 63 00:02:33,153 --> 00:02:37,157 Just when I'm holding Phoenix, then all of a sudden, 64 00:02:37,198 --> 00:02:41,077 like, some traumatic experience will come back in my memory. 65 00:02:41,119 --> 00:02:44,873 I'll start just thinking of all these horrible things 66 00:02:44,914 --> 00:02:46,207 that I've been through. 67 00:02:46,249 --> 00:02:47,751 I can't even fully be in the moment. 68 00:02:47,792 --> 00:02:54,466 It's just not fair for Phoenix just to not get the full me. 69 00:02:54,507 --> 00:02:56,676 - We've talked about your PTSD 70 00:02:56,718 --> 00:02:59,679 with those recurring nightmares you had. 71 00:02:59,721 --> 00:03:00,805 - Mm-hmm. 72 00:03:00,847 --> 00:03:02,807 - But hearing that she has sad thoughts 73 00:03:02,849 --> 00:03:07,187 while holding Phoenix is so heartbreaking. 74 00:03:07,228 --> 00:03:09,981 It makes me feel horrible. 75 00:03:10,023 --> 00:03:13,610 What advice did she give you to cope with these feelings? 76 00:03:13,651 --> 00:03:15,695 - She made me feel better about it because she told me 77 00:03:15,737 --> 00:03:18,198 that this is actually something that 78 00:03:18,239 --> 00:03:20,450 so many trauma survivors go through. 79 00:03:20,492 --> 00:03:22,952 And she was just explaining to me how important it is 80 00:03:22,994 --> 00:03:25,997 that I be the primary attachment for Phoenix, 81 00:03:26,039 --> 00:03:27,832 and to trust my instincts. 82 00:03:27,874 --> 00:03:31,211 - Bringing a human into this world 83 00:03:31,252 --> 00:03:34,214 and being responsible for them, 84 00:03:34,255 --> 00:03:36,007 it's--it's scary. 85 00:03:36,049 --> 00:03:37,467 Parenthood is scary. 86 00:03:37,509 --> 00:03:39,594 - Did you feel that way with your first baby? 87 00:03:39,636 --> 00:03:42,555 - I never experienced intrusive thoughts 88 00:03:42,597 --> 00:03:46,434 while holding my baby, but definitely, like, 89 00:03:46,476 --> 00:03:51,231 nerves and being scared, and, am I doing this right? 90 00:03:51,272 --> 00:03:53,650 Am I holding her correctly? 91 00:03:53,692 --> 00:03:55,985 So you're definitely not alone. 92 00:03:56,027 --> 00:03:57,946 - I think I just have to stop questioning myself 93 00:03:57,987 --> 00:04:01,324 and believe in myself, 'cause I've proven by now 94 00:04:01,366 --> 00:04:03,576 I can do anything and everything. 95 00:04:03,618 --> 00:04:05,161 - Yes, you got this. 96 00:04:05,203 --> 00:04:06,996 You need that attitude. 97 00:04:07,038 --> 00:04:09,791 That baby needs you to have that attitude. 98 00:04:09,833 --> 00:04:10,875 - I know. 99 00:04:10,917 --> 00:04:13,586 And Phoenix came to rehearsal. - Aw. 100 00:04:13,628 --> 00:04:16,464 - It was just so sweet just being on stage 101 00:04:16,506 --> 00:04:18,425 and, like, seeing him look up and just, like, 102 00:04:18,466 --> 00:04:20,176 seeing all the lights and the sparkles. 103 00:04:20,218 --> 00:04:21,928 - So cute. - He loved it. 104 00:04:21,970 --> 00:04:24,222 I love you, Phoenix. 105 00:04:24,264 --> 00:04:26,808 I love you, baby. 106 00:04:26,850 --> 00:04:29,769 [upbeat music] 107 00:04:29,811 --> 00:04:31,896 - He's not coming to the show though, right? 108 00:04:31,938 --> 00:04:33,982 - No. It'll be so dangerous. 109 00:04:34,024 --> 00:04:35,525 So many people, so loud. 110 00:04:35,567 --> 00:04:37,027 - What, is he gonna be crowd-surfing? 111 00:04:37,068 --> 00:04:39,696 - [laughs] Yes. 112 00:04:39,738 --> 00:04:42,699 After the concert, I wanna just focus on being a mom 113 00:04:42,741 --> 00:04:44,784 and being there for Phoenix. 114 00:04:44,826 --> 00:04:48,621 I know that, like you said, it just moves so fast. 115 00:04:48,663 --> 00:04:50,874 - It moves so fast. 116 00:04:50,915 --> 00:04:54,127 Well, I hope you start seeing this doctor more often. 117 00:04:54,169 --> 00:04:55,795 What about Mom? 118 00:04:55,837 --> 00:04:58,423 - I did the first session just alone without Mom, 119 00:04:58,465 --> 00:05:01,009 but I'm gonna have another session with us. 120 00:05:01,051 --> 00:05:02,635 - You should. 121 00:05:02,677 --> 00:05:06,890 Therapy for Paris and my mom is a wonderful thing. 122 00:05:06,931 --> 00:05:10,310 These are two people who don't like to talk, 123 00:05:10,352 --> 00:05:13,355 especially about important things. 124 00:05:13,396 --> 00:05:15,982 Them having a mediator there 125 00:05:16,024 --> 00:05:20,987 to help push the conversation is essential. 126 00:05:22,489 --> 00:05:23,782 - Um-- - You're like Mom. 127 00:05:23,823 --> 00:05:25,825 Now you're fixing my hair to deflect. 128 00:05:25,867 --> 00:05:27,786 - No, I was really--because it was, like, in the back, 129 00:05:27,827 --> 00:05:29,537 it was, like, going, like... 130 00:05:29,579 --> 00:05:31,623 - Mm-hmm. - That. 131 00:05:31,664 --> 00:05:33,708 I finally have the courage to do it. 132 00:05:33,750 --> 00:05:36,002 I'm scared, but I can't wait. 133 00:05:36,044 --> 00:05:37,212 - I'm excited. 134 00:05:37,253 --> 00:05:39,464 Invincible boss bitch vibes. 135 00:05:39,506 --> 00:05:41,007 - [laughs] 136 00:05:41,049 --> 00:05:44,010 - * Honestly, I'm about to show you things * 137 00:05:44,052 --> 00:05:45,804 * A world you've never seen * 138 00:05:45,845 --> 00:05:47,639 * Get ready, get ready * 139 00:05:47,681 --> 00:05:49,808 * Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah * 140 00:05:54,604 --> 00:05:56,481 [FLA & Fairchild's "Honestly"] 141 00:05:56,523 --> 00:05:57,649 - Good morning. 142 00:05:59,150 --> 00:06:00,485 - You're a deep sleeper. 143 00:06:00,527 --> 00:06:02,696 [sighs] 144 00:06:02,737 --> 00:06:03,905 Today's the big day. 145 00:06:03,947 --> 00:06:05,240 This is something I've been dreaming about 146 00:06:05,281 --> 00:06:06,741 since I'm a little girl. 147 00:06:10,203 --> 00:06:13,873 - 12-year-old me would just say, go slay it, sis. 148 00:06:13,915 --> 00:06:15,583 [bleep]. 149 00:06:19,713 --> 00:06:20,964 - * Get ready, baby * 150 00:06:21,006 --> 00:06:22,674 * Everything, oh, oh, oh * 151 00:06:22,716 --> 00:06:25,427 [cheers and applause] 152 00:06:25,468 --> 00:06:26,761 - I'm here to see Paris. 153 00:06:26,803 --> 00:06:28,555 - We're here to see Paris. - Paris Hilton. 154 00:06:28,596 --> 00:06:29,681 - Paris Hilton. - Paris Hilton. 155 00:06:29,723 --> 00:06:31,224 - Paris [beep] Hilton. 156 00:06:31,266 --> 00:06:34,728 - * I'm about to show you, show you * 157 00:06:34,769 --> 00:06:35,729 * Get ready, baby * 158 00:06:35,770 --> 00:06:39,232 * Everything, oh, oh, oh * 159 00:06:39,274 --> 00:06:41,234 [cheers and applause] 160 00:06:41,276 --> 00:06:42,402 - We're so excited. 161 00:06:42,444 --> 00:06:43,862 This is her first concert ever. 162 00:06:43,903 --> 00:06:45,697 - We have some matching Paris tattoos. 163 00:06:45,739 --> 00:06:47,490 - That's hot. [laughs] 164 00:06:47,532 --> 00:06:49,367 - * Honestly, oh, yeah * 165 00:06:49,409 --> 00:06:51,578 * Get ready, get ready * 166 00:06:51,619 --> 00:06:52,787 - Morning. 167 00:06:53,788 --> 00:06:56,124 Ready? Showtime? - Ready. 168 00:06:56,166 --> 00:06:57,417 - Yes! 169 00:06:57,459 --> 00:06:58,418 Let's show the world. 170 00:06:58,460 --> 00:06:59,586 [car beeps] 171 00:07:01,963 --> 00:07:03,590 - You ready? 172 00:07:03,631 --> 00:07:04,924 So excited. 173 00:07:04,966 --> 00:07:06,217 - So excited. 174 00:07:06,259 --> 00:07:08,011 - Slay. - Yes. 175 00:07:11,723 --> 00:07:12,891 - Really? - Sick. 176 00:07:17,896 --> 00:07:20,482 - Do you want some of these for your back 177 00:07:20,523 --> 00:07:23,026 before we put outfits and everything? 178 00:07:23,068 --> 00:07:24,277 - Yeah. 179 00:07:24,319 --> 00:07:28,114 [tense music] 180 00:07:37,332 --> 00:07:40,627 [electronic music] 181 00:07:48,802 --> 00:07:51,221 - * Mi, mi, mi, mi, mi * 182 00:07:51,262 --> 00:07:53,223 - * Figaro, Figaro, Figaro, Figaro * 183 00:07:53,264 --> 00:07:55,433 [laughter] - It's, like, a whole thing. 184 00:07:55,475 --> 00:07:57,435 - * No * Come on. 185 00:07:57,477 --> 00:07:59,437 - [trills] 186 00:07:59,479 --> 00:08:01,773 [upbeat music] 187 00:08:01,815 --> 00:08:04,526 - This is our first full dress rehearsal with tech, 188 00:08:04,567 --> 00:08:06,569 visuals, everything. 189 00:08:06,611 --> 00:08:08,154 - Let's rehearse. 190 00:08:08,196 --> 00:08:09,698 Ready? Okay. 191 00:08:09,739 --> 00:08:11,116 Here we go. 192 00:08:11,157 --> 00:08:13,868 - My back was in so much pain this week 193 00:08:13,910 --> 00:08:15,704 that I didn't really wanna push myself. 194 00:08:15,745 --> 00:08:17,455 - Dancers, Paris. 195 00:08:17,497 --> 00:08:19,499 [cheers and applause] 196 00:08:19,541 --> 00:08:22,085 - So this will literally be the first time 197 00:08:22,127 --> 00:08:23,253 that we do the show. 198 00:08:23,294 --> 00:08:28,258 [cheers and applause] 199 00:08:28,299 --> 00:08:30,719 Am I going here? Uh... 200 00:08:30,760 --> 00:08:33,138 - No spotlight. No spotlight. Too early. 201 00:08:33,179 --> 00:08:35,348 We don't wanna see her sit down. 202 00:08:35,390 --> 00:08:36,516 That's tacky. 203 00:08:36,558 --> 00:08:37,976 Hey, Pete, one more time. 204 00:08:38,018 --> 00:08:39,394 We're gonna try that one more time. 205 00:08:39,436 --> 00:08:40,937 And playback. 206 00:08:40,979 --> 00:08:42,981 - Oh, no! - Oh, shit. 207 00:08:45,191 --> 00:08:47,485 Hopefully that doesn't happen during the show, [bleep]. 208 00:08:47,527 --> 00:08:49,738 Most performers would have several months of rehearsal 209 00:08:49,779 --> 00:08:51,364 to prepare for a concert like this. 210 00:08:51,406 --> 00:08:53,450 I only had one month. 211 00:08:53,491 --> 00:08:54,951 - Sit down and sing. 212 00:08:54,993 --> 00:08:56,494 - * I don't really care what they think they know * 213 00:08:56,536 --> 00:08:58,079 - Yeah! - Cut. Again. 214 00:08:58,121 --> 00:08:59,873 - I'm such a perfectionist. 215 00:08:59,914 --> 00:09:02,042 It's something that I've been working so hard for, 216 00:09:02,083 --> 00:09:03,585 so it needs to be perfect. 217 00:09:03,626 --> 00:09:06,629 - Side and side, and hit. 218 00:09:06,671 --> 00:09:08,256 Yes. You're do--you're killing it. 219 00:09:08,298 --> 00:09:10,842 - Up, up, up, up, and... - * That's hot * 220 00:09:10,884 --> 00:09:13,970 - Hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it, hold it. 221 00:09:14,012 --> 00:09:16,139 It's gonna be so good. [laughs] 222 00:09:20,894 --> 00:09:23,897 [upbeat music] 223 00:09:23,938 --> 00:09:27,067 [cheers and applause] 224 00:09:27,108 --> 00:09:32,364 * * 225 00:09:32,405 --> 00:09:34,866 [camera shutters clicking] 226 00:09:34,908 --> 00:09:37,786 [cheers and applause] 227 00:09:37,827 --> 00:09:39,454 * * 228 00:09:39,496 --> 00:09:41,414 - We love you, Paris! 229 00:09:41,456 --> 00:09:42,874 - Hi! 230 00:09:55,887 --> 00:09:57,972 - I'm so excited. 231 00:09:58,014 --> 00:09:59,432 I'm gonna cry. You ready? 232 00:09:59,474 --> 00:10:01,559 Are we visualizing it? 233 00:10:01,601 --> 00:10:03,728 You're gonna be shaking. 234 00:10:03,770 --> 00:10:05,355 You're gonna hear the crowd roaring. 235 00:10:05,397 --> 00:10:08,024 It's gonna play that intro, and curtains up. 236 00:10:08,066 --> 00:10:09,984 - What? - Rock and roll. 237 00:10:12,696 --> 00:10:14,364 - Icons only, bitch. 238 00:10:14,406 --> 00:10:17,325 [energetic music] 239 00:10:17,367 --> 00:10:20,286 [cheers and applause] 240 00:10:20,328 --> 00:10:24,040 * * 241 00:10:28,336 --> 00:10:30,088 - Hallelujah. 242 00:10:42,017 --> 00:10:44,227 Paris is really shy, 243 00:10:44,269 --> 00:10:46,688 and she's coming into her own now. 244 00:10:46,730 --> 00:10:50,275 My heart is just filled with joy for her. 245 00:10:58,867 --> 00:11:00,410 - Hey, guys. 246 00:11:01,870 --> 00:11:03,705 - Quickly. - Wish me luck. 247 00:11:06,416 --> 00:11:07,500 - I love you too. 248 00:11:07,542 --> 00:11:09,044 - Five minutes. Let's go. 249 00:11:10,712 --> 00:11:13,715 crowd: [chanting] Paris! Paris! Paris! 250 00:11:14,466 --> 00:11:16,134 - We're about to start. 251 00:11:17,802 --> 00:11:20,055 - I am so nervous. 252 00:11:20,096 --> 00:11:21,890 - Those are good nerves though. You wanna be... 253 00:11:21,931 --> 00:11:23,183 - Let it go. - A tiny bit nervous. 254 00:11:33,234 --> 00:11:34,819 - It's almost time for Paris. 255 00:11:34,861 --> 00:11:36,488 Make some noise for that. 256 00:11:38,823 --> 00:11:40,116 [cheering] 257 00:11:40,158 --> 00:11:41,368 - Are you guys ready for Paris? 258 00:11:43,411 --> 00:11:44,913 - We love you, Paris! 259 00:11:44,954 --> 00:11:47,874 crowd: [chanting] Paris! Paris! Paris! 260 00:11:54,422 --> 00:11:57,133 crowd: [chanting] Paris! Paris! Paris! 261 00:11:59,803 --> 00:12:02,931 [bass-heavy music playing] 262 00:12:04,099 --> 00:12:05,350 - We're good. We're good, P. 263 00:12:07,602 --> 00:12:10,230 I've been having so many nightmares about this 264 00:12:10,271 --> 00:12:12,565 where I'm up on stage, and then, all of a sudden, 265 00:12:12,607 --> 00:12:13,817 I lose my voice. 266 00:12:13,858 --> 00:12:15,902 What if I forget the dance moves? 267 00:12:15,944 --> 00:12:17,487 I'm freaking out over that. 268 00:12:20,407 --> 00:12:23,159 crowd: [chanting] Paris! Paris! Paris! 269 00:12:30,959 --> 00:12:33,545 [dramatic music] 270 00:12:33,586 --> 00:12:34,963 [cheers and applause] 271 00:12:35,005 --> 00:12:36,131 - Sliving. 272 00:12:41,344 --> 00:12:44,389 [crowd cheering] 273 00:12:44,431 --> 00:12:48,018 crowd: [chanting] Paris! Paris! Paris! 274 00:12:48,059 --> 00:12:51,563 [apprehensive music] 275 00:12:53,565 --> 00:12:56,401 crowd: [chanting] Paris! Paris! Paris! 276 00:12:59,195 --> 00:13:04,200 * * 277 00:13:04,242 --> 00:13:05,744 [cheers and applause] 278 00:13:05,785 --> 00:13:07,037 Sliving. 279 00:13:07,078 --> 00:13:08,872 A lifestyle. 280 00:13:08,913 --> 00:13:11,458 - If you wanna be famous, you just need to be awesome. 281 00:13:11,499 --> 00:13:13,251 - Icons only, bitch. 282 00:13:13,293 --> 00:13:14,836 Let's go. 283 00:13:14,878 --> 00:13:17,756 [Paris Hilton's "Turn it Up"] 284 00:13:19,174 --> 00:13:20,925 That's hot. 285 00:13:20,967 --> 00:13:22,427 - We love you, Paris! 286 00:13:23,803 --> 00:13:28,224 - * When it gets real loud, make it even louder * 287 00:13:28,266 --> 00:13:30,310 * Gotta turn me on * 288 00:13:30,352 --> 00:13:31,978 * Gotta make me holla * 289 00:13:32,020 --> 00:13:36,441 * You gotta know what to do if you wanna get down * 290 00:13:36,483 --> 00:13:38,860 * Turn it up, turn it up, turn it up * 291 00:13:38,902 --> 00:13:42,280 * Oh, don't be afraid to turn it up * 292 00:13:42,322 --> 00:13:45,450 [crowd cheering] 293 00:13:47,702 --> 00:13:49,287 Are you guys having a good time? 294 00:13:49,329 --> 00:13:50,830 [crowd cheering] 295 00:13:50,872 --> 00:13:52,415 Oh, my God. 296 00:13:52,457 --> 00:13:54,084 This is so amazing. 297 00:13:54,125 --> 00:13:55,669 I love you guys so much. 298 00:13:55,710 --> 00:13:57,253 Let's do this. 299 00:13:57,295 --> 00:14:00,715 It's exhilarating performing songs from my first album, 300 00:14:00,757 --> 00:14:04,761 but also, I am so nervous, excited for everyone 301 00:14:04,803 --> 00:14:06,638 to hear the new music that I've been recording. 302 00:14:06,680 --> 00:14:09,265 It's awkward singing in front of people, 303 00:14:09,307 --> 00:14:12,102 but tonight is about trusting myself and my talents 304 00:14:12,143 --> 00:14:13,436 and letting go of the fear. 305 00:14:13,478 --> 00:14:16,773 Everyone, give it up for my girl, 306 00:14:16,815 --> 00:14:17,941 Saweetie. 307 00:14:17,982 --> 00:14:21,361 [crowd cheering] 308 00:14:37,293 --> 00:14:38,461 - You guys ready for new music? 309 00:14:38,503 --> 00:14:39,963 [crowd cheering] [Paris Hilton, "Hot One"] 310 00:14:40,005 --> 00:14:42,215 * That's what I like * 311 00:14:42,257 --> 00:14:45,135 * We got Britt, she the fun one * 312 00:14:45,176 --> 00:14:46,594 * Chad, he the hung one * 313 00:14:46,636 --> 00:14:48,471 * Shit, I forgot one * 314 00:14:48,513 --> 00:14:50,765 * Me, I'm the hot one * 315 00:14:50,807 --> 00:14:53,143 - Watching Paris perform, feeling her love, 316 00:14:53,184 --> 00:14:56,730 feeling her energy, I just could not be more proud. 317 00:14:56,771 --> 00:14:58,440 The thing that's blown me away the most 318 00:14:58,481 --> 00:15:00,483 since we got together is, 319 00:15:00,525 --> 00:15:03,028 anything she puts her mind to, she accomplishes. 320 00:15:03,069 --> 00:15:04,279 - That's hot. 321 00:15:04,320 --> 00:15:07,073 [crowd cheering] 322 00:15:07,115 --> 00:15:08,658 [Paris Hilton's "Legacy"] 323 00:15:08,700 --> 00:15:10,160 You ready for another new song? 324 00:15:10,201 --> 00:15:11,745 - Yeah! 325 00:15:11,786 --> 00:15:13,455 - This is "Legacy." 326 00:15:13,496 --> 00:15:15,331 * I don't really care if we stay or leave * 327 00:15:16,875 --> 00:15:20,170 * If it's cool with you, then it's cool with me * 328 00:15:20,211 --> 00:15:22,047 * In the car * 329 00:15:22,088 --> 00:15:24,049 * On the beach * 330 00:15:24,090 --> 00:15:25,884 * In your arms * 331 00:15:25,925 --> 00:15:28,636 * All I need * 332 00:15:28,678 --> 00:15:33,683 - The concert is beyond my wildest expectations. 333 00:15:33,725 --> 00:15:39,981 She is full-on dancing like we're at a real mega pop show. 334 00:15:40,023 --> 00:15:41,733 So good. 335 00:15:41,775 --> 00:15:44,319 And I'm not just saying that 'cause I'm her sister. 336 00:15:44,361 --> 00:15:46,112 It's epic. 337 00:15:46,154 --> 00:15:47,822 [crowd cheering] 338 00:15:47,864 --> 00:15:51,534 - * I know there are the memories * 339 00:15:51,576 --> 00:15:55,163 * You know that in reality * 340 00:15:55,205 --> 00:15:58,833 * That loving you is my legacy * 341 00:15:58,875 --> 00:16:02,837 * 'Cause loving you is my legacy * 342 00:16:02,879 --> 00:16:05,632 [crowd cheering] 343 00:16:07,342 --> 00:16:09,386 I love you guys. 344 00:16:09,427 --> 00:16:11,471 I love you guys so much. 345 00:16:11,513 --> 00:16:13,556 What a special night. 346 00:16:13,598 --> 00:16:16,059 Give it up for my girl, Kim Petras! 347 00:16:16,101 --> 00:16:18,561 [crowd cheering] 348 00:16:18,603 --> 00:16:20,855 - * Baby, baby, I could be your confidante * 349 00:16:20,897 --> 00:16:23,650 * Come on over, show me if you're down or not * 350 00:16:23,692 --> 00:16:25,694 * Make your whole jaw drop, give you all that talk * 351 00:16:25,735 --> 00:16:27,195 * Finna ride with Paris * 352 00:16:27,237 --> 00:16:31,991 * Why shouldn't we be with the ones we really love? * 353 00:16:32,033 --> 00:16:36,162 * Now tell me, who have you been dreaming of? * 354 00:16:36,204 --> 00:16:38,331 * I and I alone * 355 00:16:38,373 --> 00:16:41,793 * Oh, no, oh * 356 00:16:41,835 --> 00:16:43,962 both: * Even though the gods are crazy * 357 00:16:44,004 --> 00:16:46,423 * Even though the stars are blind * 358 00:16:46,464 --> 00:16:48,508 * If you show me real love, baby * 359 00:16:48,550 --> 00:16:50,969 * I'll show you mine * 360 00:16:51,011 --> 00:16:53,430 * I can make it nice and naughty * 361 00:16:53,471 --> 00:16:55,598 * Be the devil and angel too * 362 00:16:55,640 --> 00:16:57,726 * Got a heart and soul and body * 363 00:16:57,767 --> 00:17:02,105 * Let's see what this love can do * 364 00:17:02,147 --> 00:17:05,025 [crowd cheering] 365 00:17:07,193 --> 00:17:08,194 - Love you guys! 366 00:17:08,236 --> 00:17:09,487 That's hot! 367 00:17:09,529 --> 00:17:11,197 Keep sliving! 368 00:17:11,239 --> 00:17:14,367 [crowd cheering] 369 00:17:16,244 --> 00:17:18,121 - Yes! 370 00:17:18,163 --> 00:17:19,372 [bleep] did it! 371 00:17:20,582 --> 00:17:22,459 Well done. Well done. 372 00:17:22,500 --> 00:17:24,127 Well done. Well done. 373 00:17:24,169 --> 00:17:25,128 - Yes! 374 00:17:25,170 --> 00:17:26,963 - Oh, my God. 375 00:17:27,005 --> 00:17:28,423 - Yes! 376 00:17:28,465 --> 00:17:30,717 So hot! 377 00:17:30,759 --> 00:17:32,677 After the hell I put myself through with all the anxiety 378 00:17:32,719 --> 00:17:36,222 and the rehearsals, my excruciating back pain, 379 00:17:36,264 --> 00:17:37,849 it was all worth it. 380 00:17:37,891 --> 00:17:38,892 It really was. 381 00:17:43,563 --> 00:17:45,148 - I was born to do this. 382 00:17:45,190 --> 00:17:51,696 Music is the one thing that I truly just love with every-- 383 00:17:51,738 --> 00:17:54,532 is it fiber of my being, or being of my fiber? 384 00:17:55,700 --> 00:17:56,993 - Fiber of a being. 385 00:17:57,035 --> 00:17:58,536 That sounds weird now. 386 00:17:58,578 --> 00:18:00,163 - You killed it. You killed it. 387 00:18:00,205 --> 00:18:01,539 - Yay. 388 00:18:03,541 --> 00:18:06,503 [upbeat music] 389 00:18:06,544 --> 00:18:10,256 * * 390 00:18:10,298 --> 00:18:12,509 - That was awesome. Do you feel great? 391 00:18:12,550 --> 00:18:15,011 - Ugh. I was so nervous. 392 00:18:15,053 --> 00:18:16,471 - You were so amazing. 393 00:18:16,513 --> 00:18:17,514 - Thank you. 394 00:18:17,555 --> 00:18:18,515 - We wore our shirts. 395 00:18:18,556 --> 00:18:19,516 - Oh, my God, I love you. 396 00:18:19,557 --> 00:18:21,267 - [laughs] 397 00:18:21,309 --> 00:18:22,519 I'm so proud of you. 398 00:18:22,560 --> 00:18:23,770 [camera shutters clicking] 399 00:18:23,812 --> 00:18:26,314 - Hi, guys! - Whoo! Paris! 400 00:18:26,356 --> 00:18:33,488 * * 401 00:18:37,450 --> 00:18:38,910 - Thank you. - You did great! 402 00:18:57,429 --> 00:18:59,014 - Congratulations! 403 00:19:04,978 --> 00:19:07,814 - When I saw the curtains come up, 404 00:19:07,856 --> 00:19:11,443 everyone was screaming. 405 00:19:11,484 --> 00:19:14,571 Like, the stadium was shaking. 406 00:19:14,612 --> 00:19:15,989 It felt like an earthquake. 407 00:19:16,031 --> 00:19:17,824 - Like, you could just feel the love. 408 00:19:17,866 --> 00:19:20,660 Like, I've never been in a concert or in a room like that 409 00:19:20,702 --> 00:19:23,663 and felt so much, like, happiness, love. 410 00:19:23,705 --> 00:19:26,249 It was, like, electrifying. 411 00:19:26,291 --> 00:19:27,500 - I was blown away. 412 00:19:27,542 --> 00:19:30,003 - Thank you. 413 00:19:30,045 --> 00:19:31,755 - Mm-hmm. 414 00:19:31,796 --> 00:19:33,465 - Takes a lot to get a compliment 415 00:19:33,506 --> 00:19:35,884 from this one over here, so it means a lot. 416 00:19:35,925 --> 00:19:37,677 [laughter] 417 00:19:37,719 --> 00:19:39,596 - Mom's here. - Mom! 418 00:19:39,637 --> 00:19:41,097 - You were so good. 419 00:19:42,140 --> 00:19:43,141 - Thank you. 420 00:19:44,684 --> 00:19:46,353 - Thank you. 421 00:19:46,394 --> 00:19:47,771 - Boy, she wants to do something, 422 00:19:47,812 --> 00:19:49,981 she sets her mind, and she does it. 423 00:19:50,023 --> 00:19:53,568 The fearlessness that I was worried about 424 00:19:53,610 --> 00:19:57,197 when she was younger has actually been 425 00:19:57,238 --> 00:19:59,949 the driving force behind all her success. 426 00:19:59,991 --> 00:20:02,827 - Oh, my Aunt Kim. - Oh! 427 00:20:04,412 --> 00:20:05,747 - Thank you. 428 00:20:08,375 --> 00:20:09,793 - It was so much fun. 429 00:20:09,834 --> 00:20:12,087 - This has been a very exciting night. 430 00:20:12,128 --> 00:20:13,630 She's killed it. 431 00:20:13,672 --> 00:20:17,967 And now I'm hoping she can kind of chill 432 00:20:18,009 --> 00:20:19,886 and cool down for a little bit. 433 00:20:21,262 --> 00:20:23,181 I just wanna tell you, I'm so proud of you. 434 00:20:23,223 --> 00:20:25,475 And now you get to go home 435 00:20:25,517 --> 00:20:27,435 to your beautiful little boy and just 436 00:20:27,477 --> 00:20:29,771 stop and smell the roses. - Yeah. 437 00:20:29,813 --> 00:20:31,773 - It used to always be, you leave all this, 438 00:20:31,815 --> 00:20:35,652 and then you're alone, laying in a bed, nothing. 439 00:20:35,694 --> 00:20:37,320 - Well, I didn't have nothing, but... 440 00:20:37,362 --> 00:20:38,822 - Nothing? - Well-- 441 00:20:38,863 --> 00:20:40,615 - No, I had everything, but I-- - You had everything-- 442 00:20:40,657 --> 00:20:42,701 - It felt like nothing because it wasn't-- 443 00:20:42,742 --> 00:20:44,035 - You were lonely too. - It was empty. 444 00:20:44,077 --> 00:20:44,953 - It was empty. 445 00:20:44,994 --> 00:20:46,371 This was so incredible tonight. 446 00:20:46,413 --> 00:20:47,831 - Hold on. Can you just tuck it in? 447 00:20:47,872 --> 00:20:50,834 'Cause it looks like a little hanging nut sack. 448 00:20:50,875 --> 00:20:52,127 [laughs] 449 00:20:58,508 --> 00:21:00,135 - * I just like being alone * 450 00:21:00,176 --> 00:21:02,012 * It's no joke, it's my soul * 451 00:21:02,053 --> 00:21:03,596 * This is my life * 452 00:21:03,638 --> 00:21:06,891 - We've talked to "Forbes," "TIME," and TED. 453 00:21:06,933 --> 00:21:08,226 - TED Talk? - TED Talk. 454 00:21:08,268 --> 00:21:09,894 I know, really, really cool. 455 00:21:09,936 --> 00:21:11,730 They are very interested in focusing 456 00:21:11,771 --> 00:21:13,440 on mental health with you. 457 00:21:13,481 --> 00:21:15,817 - I don't even know, like, how I feel right now. 458 00:21:15,859 --> 00:21:17,986 I just wanna try to do as many things 459 00:21:18,028 --> 00:21:19,738 that we can from home as possible 460 00:21:19,779 --> 00:21:22,240 so I'm able to go check on the baby 461 00:21:22,282 --> 00:21:24,951 and not have to leave him so much. 462 00:21:24,993 --> 00:21:26,995 - Yep, for sure. - For sure. 463 00:21:27,037 --> 00:21:28,705 - * This is my life * 464 00:21:28,747 --> 00:21:30,915 [upbeat music] 465 00:21:30,957 --> 00:21:32,125 - [gasps] Angel. 466 00:21:32,167 --> 00:21:33,418 - This is little Phoenix. 467 00:21:33,460 --> 00:21:35,170 I'm gonna go put him for a nap, and then... 468 00:21:36,421 --> 00:21:38,131 - Well, it was nice meeting you. 469 00:21:38,173 --> 00:21:39,507 He's, like, as big as your torso already. 470 00:21:39,549 --> 00:21:41,718 - I know. - How did he come out of you? 471 00:21:41,760 --> 00:21:43,053 - He didn't. - I know. [laughs] 472 00:21:43,094 --> 00:21:45,013 - I'll be back in two minutes. - Okay. 473 00:21:46,348 --> 00:21:47,515 - Love you. 474 00:21:47,557 --> 00:21:49,017 I'll be back. 475 00:21:49,059 --> 00:21:50,685 - * Lose control * 476 00:21:50,727 --> 00:21:53,229 * It's my soul * 477 00:21:53,271 --> 00:21:56,441 - We are celebrating today with the queen, Gigi Gorgeous. 478 00:21:56,483 --> 00:21:57,525 - Hey, hey, hey. 479 00:21:57,567 --> 00:21:59,152 - What's one of your pet peeves? 480 00:21:59,194 --> 00:22:01,029 - I hate when people smell bad. 481 00:22:01,071 --> 00:22:02,781 [laughter] 482 00:22:02,822 --> 00:22:05,408 - Ooh, you want to fly. Ooh. 483 00:22:05,450 --> 00:22:06,534 [Phoenix cooing] 484 00:22:06,576 --> 00:22:07,577 - He's trying to talk. 485 00:22:07,619 --> 00:22:09,037 - [babbling] 486 00:22:09,079 --> 00:22:10,205 - Did he say "mama"? 487 00:22:10,246 --> 00:22:12,582 He said my name first. - [laughs] 488 00:22:15,835 --> 00:22:17,170 - * This is my life * 489 00:22:17,212 --> 00:22:21,007 * Lose control, it's my soul * 490 00:22:21,049 --> 00:22:22,634 [dog barking] 491 00:22:22,676 --> 00:22:23,927 [Phoenix crying] 492 00:22:27,097 --> 00:22:28,890 Are you a nice baby? 493 00:22:28,932 --> 00:22:30,600 [upbeat music] 494 00:22:30,642 --> 00:22:31,810 Love you. 495 00:22:31,851 --> 00:22:33,103 Okay. 496 00:22:34,437 --> 00:22:35,522 Oh. 497 00:22:35,563 --> 00:22:36,940 - I didn't know you were here yet. 498 00:22:36,981 --> 00:22:38,983 - I was in with the baby. - Aw. 499 00:22:39,025 --> 00:22:40,568 - Cute. He's getting so big. 500 00:22:40,610 --> 00:22:41,820 - I know. 501 00:22:41,861 --> 00:22:44,280 My mom and I have made so much progress, 502 00:22:44,322 --> 00:22:46,241 but it's always been really difficult 503 00:22:46,282 --> 00:22:48,034 to talk about emotions with my mom. 504 00:22:48,076 --> 00:22:50,453 And we don't like talking about hard things. 505 00:22:50,495 --> 00:22:52,580 So I'm really hoping with this therapy session, 506 00:22:52,622 --> 00:22:55,083 we can have real, meaningful conversations 507 00:22:55,125 --> 00:22:56,876 that are sometimes really hard to have. 508 00:22:56,918 --> 00:22:59,379 - Oh, it feels nice and cool. 509 00:22:59,421 --> 00:23:04,634 I'm hoping to get a better understanding 510 00:23:04,676 --> 00:23:06,761 of our relationship. 511 00:23:06,803 --> 00:23:09,014 - You must be Kathy. - Yes. 512 00:23:09,055 --> 00:23:14,227 And I think if we both really like the person and we jive, 513 00:23:14,269 --> 00:23:16,021 that's gonna be great. 514 00:23:16,062 --> 00:23:17,772 - Come in and have a seat. - Great. 515 00:23:17,814 --> 00:23:20,483 I'll walk around this way. - Oop, walk around this way. 516 00:23:20,525 --> 00:23:22,652 - Okay. Okay. 517 00:23:24,404 --> 00:23:27,490 - I think it's so exciting to see both of you together. 518 00:23:27,532 --> 00:23:29,075 I'm wondering if there's something 519 00:23:29,117 --> 00:23:30,660 you'd like to talk about. 520 00:23:33,788 --> 00:23:38,460 - I guess you and Nicky were saying that, um, 521 00:23:38,501 --> 00:23:40,545 I don't tell you certain things. 522 00:23:40,587 --> 00:23:41,713 [pensive music] 523 00:23:41,755 --> 00:23:44,632 - You do just want to focus on the positive 524 00:23:44,674 --> 00:23:46,593 and the happy things, and you wouldn't tell us 525 00:23:46,634 --> 00:23:48,928 when we were little if an animal died, 526 00:23:48,970 --> 00:23:50,472 if a goldfish died. 527 00:23:50,513 --> 00:23:53,808 You just didn't deal with it. 528 00:23:54,559 --> 00:23:56,978 - I don't like to tell things to people 529 00:23:57,020 --> 00:23:59,981 that is gonna hurt them. 530 00:24:00,023 --> 00:24:02,025 * * 531 00:24:02,067 --> 00:24:03,651 Like, let's say there was something 532 00:24:03,693 --> 00:24:05,695 I wanted to tell you at your concert. 533 00:24:05,737 --> 00:24:07,572 That's not a good time. 534 00:24:07,614 --> 00:24:11,868 There's always something really special going on. 535 00:24:11,910 --> 00:24:15,038 - Mm-hmm - And I don't wanna 536 00:24:15,080 --> 00:24:16,706 burst anybody's bubble. 537 00:24:18,833 --> 00:24:20,502 - But sometimes that's a muscle you need to learn 538 00:24:20,543 --> 00:24:22,545 to flex too, right? You need to-- 539 00:24:22,587 --> 00:24:23,838 - Right. 540 00:24:23,880 --> 00:24:29,469 Paris and I are a lot alike in the fact that, 541 00:24:29,511 --> 00:24:32,972 like, I'll sweep things under the carpet, or I hide. 542 00:24:33,014 --> 00:24:34,641 - Mm. 543 00:24:34,683 --> 00:24:36,101 - We hate confrontation. 544 00:24:36,142 --> 00:24:37,686 - We do not like confrontation. 545 00:24:37,727 --> 00:24:41,022 I avoid it like you can't believe. 546 00:24:41,064 --> 00:24:42,691 It's really hard for me. 547 00:24:42,732 --> 00:24:45,193 - Wow, so that's amazing that you're here, 548 00:24:45,235 --> 00:24:48,029 because sometimes a mother-daughter session 549 00:24:48,071 --> 00:24:50,323 can become confrontational, 550 00:24:50,365 --> 00:24:53,201 confronting issues, confronting the past, 551 00:24:53,243 --> 00:24:55,453 confronting experiences. 552 00:24:55,495 --> 00:25:00,000 What would be an example of you being nonconfrontational? 553 00:25:00,041 --> 00:25:03,253 - With not being there with the whole thing with Phoenix. 554 00:25:03,294 --> 00:25:04,546 - What do you mean not being there 555 00:25:04,587 --> 00:25:06,006 with the whole thing with Phoenix? 556 00:25:06,047 --> 00:25:09,592 - Well, she didn't tell anybody about the baby coming. 557 00:25:09,634 --> 00:25:11,094 - Oh. 558 00:25:11,136 --> 00:25:13,304 - I told everyone about Phoenix when he was a week old, 559 00:25:13,346 --> 00:25:15,598 including my whole family. 560 00:25:15,640 --> 00:25:16,975 - Wow. 561 00:25:17,017 --> 00:25:19,477 What was that like for you? 562 00:25:19,519 --> 00:25:22,772 - It's really hard to get me upset. 563 00:25:22,814 --> 00:25:26,151 I just need a timeout. 564 00:25:26,192 --> 00:25:27,610 - Mm-hmm. 565 00:25:27,652 --> 00:25:30,196 - I'm like, okay, I'm gonna get a cheese sandwich. 566 00:25:30,238 --> 00:25:34,242 [laughter] 567 00:25:34,284 --> 00:25:38,329 I'm so sensitive, yet it never bothered me. 568 00:25:38,371 --> 00:25:40,874 Maybe it did, and I don't ever face that. 569 00:25:40,915 --> 00:25:43,126 - Hmm. 570 00:25:43,168 --> 00:25:47,714 - I think that I should feel more... 571 00:25:47,756 --> 00:25:50,216 maybe hurt or upset. 572 00:25:50,258 --> 00:25:51,468 It's weird. 573 00:25:51,509 --> 00:25:54,304 - I wonder if you're in a state of shock. 574 00:25:54,346 --> 00:25:56,931 - Maybe because you've been so upset in the past 575 00:25:56,973 --> 00:25:59,976 when I was a teenager, worrying you and sneaking out 576 00:26:00,018 --> 00:26:04,606 and just being, like, a rebel, 577 00:26:04,647 --> 00:26:06,441 you just went through so much 578 00:26:06,483 --> 00:26:09,652 that now you're numb to it, I don't know. 579 00:26:12,072 --> 00:26:14,366 - Were you numb before that? 580 00:26:14,407 --> 00:26:17,786 [soft dramatic music] 581 00:26:17,827 --> 00:26:23,291 - I've done that, I think, on and off, uh, 582 00:26:23,333 --> 00:26:25,752 probably my whole life. 583 00:26:25,794 --> 00:26:29,172 I keep throwing it in the back drawer, 584 00:26:29,214 --> 00:26:32,258 throwing it in the closet, 585 00:26:32,300 --> 00:26:34,552 in the basement, and shutting the door, 586 00:26:34,594 --> 00:26:36,805 and just thinking it's gonna go away. 587 00:26:36,846 --> 00:26:38,848 - Mm-hmm. 588 00:26:38,890 --> 00:26:40,934 - And then it's just getting bigger, 589 00:26:40,975 --> 00:26:44,479 and it festers, and it festers. 590 00:26:44,521 --> 00:26:46,648 I believe though, everything happens 591 00:26:46,690 --> 00:26:48,566 at the right time though, too. 592 00:26:48,608 --> 00:26:49,818 - Mm. 593 00:26:51,236 --> 00:26:53,863 You did something just now. 594 00:26:53,905 --> 00:26:56,658 You had this strong feeling, but then you took a retreat 595 00:26:56,700 --> 00:26:59,577 into this very logical, intellectual, 596 00:26:59,619 --> 00:27:02,163 well, everything happens for a reason. 597 00:27:02,205 --> 00:27:06,418 I'm noticing these eerie parallels 598 00:27:06,459 --> 00:27:08,336 between the two of you. 599 00:27:08,378 --> 00:27:10,463 - Maybe. - For sure. 600 00:27:10,505 --> 00:27:12,007 - You both numb out. 601 00:27:12,048 --> 00:27:15,552 You both, when very significant things happen, 602 00:27:15,593 --> 00:27:18,513 it just--kind of like water off a duck's back. 603 00:27:18,555 --> 00:27:20,432 - But the sad thing about it is, 604 00:27:20,473 --> 00:27:24,853 even some of the happy, exciting times, it's like... 605 00:27:24,894 --> 00:27:26,354 - Mm-hmm. 606 00:27:26,396 --> 00:27:29,733 With Phoenix, do you feel bonded with him? 607 00:27:31,818 --> 00:27:33,653 - Not yet. 608 00:27:39,993 --> 00:27:41,369 I lost it. 609 00:27:41,411 --> 00:27:43,955 I lost a little bit of time. - Aw. 610 00:27:43,997 --> 00:27:45,915 Nicky has a baby? - Yes. 611 00:27:45,957 --> 00:27:48,251 - Your daughter. - Mm-hmm. 612 00:27:48,293 --> 00:27:50,879 - Did you feel bonded with her child 613 00:27:50,920 --> 00:27:52,213 when the child was five months? - Well, I'm very close 614 00:27:52,255 --> 00:27:53,923 with her children. - Mm-hmm. 615 00:27:53,965 --> 00:27:55,550 - So-- - You were in the delivery room 616 00:27:55,592 --> 00:27:56,634 for all of them. - And I was in 617 00:27:56,676 --> 00:27:58,219 the delivery room with all of them. 618 00:27:58,261 --> 00:27:59,637 We're very involved. 619 00:27:59,679 --> 00:28:04,267 But that's also very important to Nicky and James. 620 00:28:05,769 --> 00:28:09,397 - Paris, you missed out on that whole parental thing 621 00:28:09,439 --> 00:28:11,733 of facilitating involvement 622 00:28:11,775 --> 00:28:14,486 between your child and your parent. 623 00:28:14,527 --> 00:28:16,112 Does this remind you of what we were 624 00:28:16,154 --> 00:28:18,073 talking about in our session? 625 00:28:18,114 --> 00:28:19,282 - Yeah. 626 00:28:19,324 --> 00:28:20,575 - I was sharing with Paris 627 00:28:20,617 --> 00:28:23,953 that one of the top symptoms of trauma 628 00:28:23,995 --> 00:28:27,082 is detachment and estrangement from others. 629 00:28:27,123 --> 00:28:28,625 - Hmm. 630 00:28:28,667 --> 00:28:30,210 - And you feel that people are gonna hurt you again, 631 00:28:30,251 --> 00:28:32,087 so you wall them off. 632 00:28:32,128 --> 00:28:33,338 - Yeah. 633 00:28:33,380 --> 00:28:37,842 * * 634 00:28:37,884 --> 00:28:39,052 Oof. 635 00:28:41,846 --> 00:28:46,976 - For Phoenix, I wanna really be thoughtful of everything. 636 00:28:47,018 --> 00:28:49,729 I just realized just how much your childhood 637 00:28:49,771 --> 00:28:51,439 and everything affects you for the rest of your life, 638 00:28:51,481 --> 00:28:52,607 and then it-- - It does. 639 00:28:52,649 --> 00:28:54,693 - It passes on to the next generation. 640 00:28:54,734 --> 00:28:56,444 - Mm-hmm. - So it's important to fix 641 00:28:56,486 --> 00:28:58,279 the generation now 642 00:28:58,321 --> 00:29:00,407 to stop it from happening to the next one. 643 00:29:01,741 --> 00:29:03,451 - You should encourage each other 644 00:29:03,493 --> 00:29:05,537 'cause you both want the same things. 645 00:29:05,578 --> 00:29:08,665 It would help you to spend time together. 646 00:29:08,707 --> 00:29:10,792 You'll never make up for the trauma, 647 00:29:10,834 --> 00:29:14,879 but just as one generation teaches the next, 648 00:29:14,921 --> 00:29:18,299 you're still in a position to teach her and to protect her. 649 00:29:18,341 --> 00:29:20,635 - Mm-hmm. - You can maybe help her learn 650 00:29:20,677 --> 00:29:22,846 how to be a more ferocious mother. 651 00:29:22,887 --> 00:29:25,181 - Mm-hmm. - It would wake you up 652 00:29:25,223 --> 00:29:27,058 to who you want to be with her. 653 00:29:27,100 --> 00:29:30,145 [hopeful music] 654 00:29:30,186 --> 00:29:32,647 - I definitely agree. 655 00:29:32,689 --> 00:29:34,649 I should keep the relationship go-- 656 00:29:34,691 --> 00:29:36,943 like, make the phone calls and call back 657 00:29:36,985 --> 00:29:41,072 and be mature enough to just deal with it straight on. 658 00:29:41,114 --> 00:29:42,365 - Mm-hmm. - For sure. 659 00:29:42,407 --> 00:29:43,575 - Mm-hmm. 660 00:29:44,617 --> 00:29:46,494 - Maybe we can have another chat. 661 00:29:46,536 --> 00:29:48,955 - I'd love that. 662 00:29:48,997 --> 00:29:51,249 - Am I making any sense to you? Do you agree? 663 00:29:51,291 --> 00:29:52,751 - Yeah. 664 00:29:52,792 --> 00:29:55,879 - Does it make you kind of think, wow, I'm not alone? 665 00:29:55,920 --> 00:29:57,047 - Definitely. 666 00:29:57,088 --> 00:30:01,801 * * 667 00:30:07,432 --> 00:30:10,393 [upbeat music] 668 00:30:10,435 --> 00:30:13,938 * * 669 00:30:13,980 --> 00:30:17,150 - Hi. - Hey, Phoenix. 670 00:30:17,192 --> 00:30:20,653 - Hi. - What's happening? 671 00:30:20,695 --> 00:30:22,906 How you doing, Phoenix? Yeah! 672 00:30:22,947 --> 00:30:24,783 You're a happy boy? 673 00:30:25,950 --> 00:30:28,620 You guys look so much alike. 674 00:30:28,661 --> 00:30:30,288 - He has your eyebrows. 675 00:30:30,330 --> 00:30:32,415 [Phoenix squeals] - [gasps] 676 00:30:32,457 --> 00:30:34,209 Yay. 677 00:30:35,669 --> 00:30:36,628 - [blows raspberry] 678 00:30:36,670 --> 00:30:38,380 - Oh, yeah. 679 00:30:38,421 --> 00:30:40,006 [trills] 680 00:30:40,048 --> 00:30:42,300 - Tickly! 681 00:30:42,342 --> 00:30:43,551 - [gurgles] 682 00:30:43,593 --> 00:30:45,804 both: Yeah! 683 00:30:50,475 --> 00:30:55,021 Mommy had some inspiration of clouds coming down. 684 00:30:55,063 --> 00:30:56,898 The mobile's cute. - So cute. 685 00:30:56,940 --> 00:30:59,317 I wanna get one made of all the dogs. 686 00:30:59,359 --> 00:31:03,113 Like, me in the middle and then the dogs all running around. 687 00:31:03,154 --> 00:31:04,906 - That'd be fun. 688 00:31:04,948 --> 00:31:06,866 How was therapy with your mom? 689 00:31:08,535 --> 00:31:09,869 - It was good. 690 00:31:09,911 --> 00:31:12,038 - Good-good or... [chuckles] 691 00:31:12,080 --> 00:31:15,291 - No, I thought it was good, but I just felt bad 692 00:31:15,333 --> 00:31:17,961 because when we were talking about Phoenix, 693 00:31:18,003 --> 00:31:20,213 she was saying that she doesn't feel bonded with him, 694 00:31:20,255 --> 00:31:22,424 I think 'cause she didn't know about him 695 00:31:22,465 --> 00:31:24,009 until after he was born. 696 00:31:24,050 --> 00:31:26,928 - Why doesn't Kathy feel bonded with you, Phoenix? 697 00:31:26,970 --> 00:31:28,471 - Don't tell him that. 698 00:31:28,513 --> 00:31:30,098 - Oh, no. Shh. 699 00:31:30,140 --> 00:31:31,891 - [gasps] Are you a secret? 700 00:31:31,933 --> 00:31:34,728 Are you a secret guy? 701 00:31:34,769 --> 00:31:37,731 - We were just trying to keep you private 702 00:31:37,772 --> 00:31:39,983 for as long as possible. 703 00:31:40,025 --> 00:31:42,152 Do you think you would change? 704 00:31:42,193 --> 00:31:45,155 When it's time for London, would you tell people? 705 00:31:45,196 --> 00:31:46,823 - I don't know, I'm always just worried 706 00:31:46,865 --> 00:31:49,951 about what people say, 707 00:31:49,993 --> 00:31:51,870 and I don't like that energy. 708 00:31:51,911 --> 00:31:53,371 Life felt complete having Phoenix, 709 00:31:53,413 --> 00:31:55,123 but I feel like it'll feel more complete 710 00:31:55,165 --> 00:31:57,083 when I have a daughter, London. 711 00:31:57,125 --> 00:31:59,419 I'd want them to be, like, one grade apart in school. 712 00:31:59,461 --> 00:32:01,463 The time is coming soon. 713 00:32:01,504 --> 00:32:04,090 I want to tell my mom because I feel like it's 714 00:32:04,132 --> 00:32:06,176 really gonna hurt her feelings if I don't tell her. 715 00:32:06,217 --> 00:32:07,927 Nicky was saying that you were upset 716 00:32:07,969 --> 00:32:12,849 about not being involved in the pregnancy. 717 00:32:12,891 --> 00:32:15,018 - When the next one comes, 718 00:32:15,060 --> 00:32:16,644 I definitely want to be part of it. 719 00:32:16,686 --> 00:32:18,396 [tense music] 720 00:32:18,438 --> 00:32:20,231 And I would feel hurt. 721 00:32:20,273 --> 00:32:22,525 - The pro is that she'll be happy, 722 00:32:22,567 --> 00:32:25,945 and she'll help me plan the nursery and baby clothes. 723 00:32:25,987 --> 00:32:28,031 But it was just so nice just having 724 00:32:28,073 --> 00:32:30,867 no one bothering us or-- like, I don't know, 725 00:32:30,909 --> 00:32:32,118 it was just, like, our world. 726 00:32:32,160 --> 00:32:33,828 - We just got to have the journey 727 00:32:33,870 --> 00:32:35,914 all ourselves, Phoenix. 728 00:32:35,955 --> 00:32:37,332 - I'm, like, torn between both. 729 00:32:37,374 --> 00:32:39,125 - Should we flip a coin? 730 00:32:39,167 --> 00:32:41,336 - Yes. 731 00:32:41,378 --> 00:32:43,129 [laughter] - You are just tricky today. 732 00:32:43,171 --> 00:32:44,089 All right. 733 00:32:45,340 --> 00:32:46,966 - I'm gonna think about it some more. 734 00:32:47,008 --> 00:32:48,885 I know I can trust her. 735 00:32:48,927 --> 00:32:51,846 It's just-- it's a hard decision. 736 00:32:51,888 --> 00:32:54,182 [smooches] Hello. 737 00:32:54,224 --> 00:32:55,934 - Did you find any other good classes 738 00:32:55,975 --> 00:32:57,185 or activities you wanna do with Phoenix? 739 00:32:57,227 --> 00:32:59,354 - Swimming. - Oh, fun. 740 00:32:59,396 --> 00:33:01,564 - I think it'll be good for me too, 741 00:33:01,606 --> 00:33:05,235 'cause they said it helps with just, like, healing trauma 742 00:33:05,276 --> 00:33:07,862 and, like, living more in the moment. 743 00:33:07,904 --> 00:33:09,698 - [gurgling] 744 00:33:09,739 --> 00:33:12,450 - And I'm just excited for all those moments together. 745 00:33:14,786 --> 00:33:17,580 [upbeat music] 746 00:33:17,622 --> 00:33:19,082 * * 747 00:33:19,124 --> 00:33:20,875 Are you excited to go swimming? [doorbell rings] 748 00:33:20,917 --> 00:33:23,628 Do you wanna go in the pool, the big bath? 749 00:33:23,670 --> 00:33:25,463 - Hello? - Let's put on 750 00:33:25,505 --> 00:33:26,715 your waterproof diaper. 751 00:33:26,756 --> 00:33:27,757 - Paris? 752 00:33:27,799 --> 00:33:29,217 - Excited? 753 00:33:29,259 --> 00:33:30,552 - Hello? 754 00:33:30,593 --> 00:33:31,761 - Hello. 755 00:33:31,803 --> 00:33:32,846 - Hi, honey. 756 00:33:32,887 --> 00:33:35,473 - Hi. - Oh, my goodness. 757 00:33:35,515 --> 00:33:38,268 Are we gonna go swimming? 758 00:33:38,309 --> 00:33:40,186 I think it's wonderful that Paris 759 00:33:40,228 --> 00:33:43,523 is starting Phoenix with swim classes early like this. 760 00:33:43,565 --> 00:33:48,111 We lived in New York, so we were not around any pools. 761 00:33:48,153 --> 00:33:50,780 So the girls didn't take swimming lessons 762 00:33:50,822 --> 00:33:52,615 till we moved to Los Angeles. 763 00:33:52,657 --> 00:33:54,451 You're trying to talk already? 764 00:33:54,492 --> 00:33:57,954 I've never seen a six-month-old be put in the water. 765 00:33:57,996 --> 00:33:59,706 I've seen it on TV. 766 00:33:59,748 --> 00:34:03,960 And it makes me nervous how they just throw them in. 767 00:34:04,002 --> 00:34:06,963 - Let's put on his little waterproof diaper. 768 00:34:07,005 --> 00:34:09,007 - Yep. Just take a little wipey. 769 00:34:09,049 --> 00:34:11,134 You start from the top and down to the bottom. 770 00:34:11,176 --> 00:34:13,470 - I know. - You don't go--yeah. 771 00:34:13,511 --> 00:34:15,638 [laughter] 772 00:34:15,680 --> 00:34:16,806 Right? - Yeah. 773 00:34:16,848 --> 00:34:19,225 - Like you would do for yourself. 774 00:34:19,267 --> 00:34:21,644 I love you. I love you. 775 00:34:21,686 --> 00:34:23,646 We're gonna have fun now. 776 00:34:23,688 --> 00:34:25,106 - [fussing] 777 00:34:25,148 --> 00:34:26,566 - I think he's scared of my hat. 778 00:34:26,608 --> 00:34:27,901 - It's okay. 779 00:34:27,942 --> 00:34:29,652 Let's go downstairs. - Are you ready? 780 00:34:29,694 --> 00:34:31,029 Let's go. 781 00:34:31,988 --> 00:34:33,073 - Do you think he needs them? 782 00:34:33,114 --> 00:34:35,450 - His eyes are just so... - Sensitive. 783 00:34:35,492 --> 00:34:38,703 - All right. Are we ready to swim? 784 00:34:38,745 --> 00:34:40,080 Are we ready? 785 00:34:42,040 --> 00:34:43,541 - Oh, my God, it's too hot. 786 00:34:43,583 --> 00:34:44,542 Wait. [laughs] 787 00:34:44,584 --> 00:34:46,169 Should I hold him? - It's so hot. 788 00:34:46,211 --> 00:34:48,004 - Wait, this is, like, really deep. 789 00:34:50,423 --> 00:34:52,217 - Hi. Phoenix. 790 00:34:56,346 --> 00:34:58,014 - Like, this way? - Mm-hmm. 791 00:35:01,351 --> 00:35:03,103 - Yes. - Kick, kick, kick, kick, kick. 792 00:35:03,144 --> 00:35:05,063 - Yes. - Whoo. 793 00:35:09,234 --> 00:35:11,236 - Watch. The fishy's coming up. 794 00:35:11,277 --> 00:35:13,363 Look at the fish. Okay, look, look, look, look. 795 00:35:13,405 --> 00:35:14,823 - Is that a fish? - Look. 796 00:35:14,864 --> 00:35:16,199 Look at the fishy. 797 00:35:16,241 --> 00:35:17,575 Look at the fishy. - Ooh. 798 00:35:20,412 --> 00:35:22,038 - Yes. - Can you hold him one moment? 799 00:35:22,080 --> 00:35:23,206 - Mm-hmm. - Yeah. 800 00:35:23,248 --> 00:35:25,583 - OK. [babbling] 801 00:35:25,625 --> 00:35:26,918 OK. 802 00:35:28,086 --> 00:35:30,422 This will make him happy. - Yeah. 803 00:35:30,463 --> 00:35:32,549 - Whoo! [Phoenix stops crying] 804 00:35:32,590 --> 00:35:33,925 - There we go. 805 00:35:36,386 --> 00:35:38,346 - They're like flippers. [laughter] 806 00:35:40,265 --> 00:35:42,726 - Yay. - Yay, big boy. 807 00:35:42,767 --> 00:35:44,060 [laughing] Yeah. 808 00:35:45,395 --> 00:35:46,688 - Oh, yeah. - Yeah. 809 00:35:48,231 --> 00:35:49,607 - I was facing him towards my mom. 810 00:35:52,110 --> 00:35:53,653 - She doesn't like to be called that. 811 00:35:53,695 --> 00:35:55,071 [laughter] 812 00:35:59,659 --> 00:36:02,245 - Um...no. 813 00:36:02,287 --> 00:36:04,080 I know it'll come in time. 814 00:36:04,122 --> 00:36:05,457 What's most important to me is that 815 00:36:05,498 --> 00:36:07,459 Phoenix has a close relationship with his family. 816 00:36:07,500 --> 00:36:09,085 But I know for that to happen, 817 00:36:09,127 --> 00:36:12,172 I have to prioritize work before family. 818 00:36:12,213 --> 00:36:13,631 [laughter] 819 00:36:21,765 --> 00:36:22,682 - Phoenix. 820 00:36:24,726 --> 00:36:25,769 - Are you ready to go? 821 00:36:25,810 --> 00:36:28,438 One, two, three, ready to go. 822 00:36:28,480 --> 00:36:29,773 I'm scared. 823 00:36:29,814 --> 00:36:33,109 [all cheer] 824 00:36:33,151 --> 00:36:34,778 Mom! - Sorry, sorry, sorry. 825 00:36:34,819 --> 00:36:36,780 Sorry. - No. 826 00:36:36,821 --> 00:36:39,115 - I'm sorry. - [crying] 827 00:36:39,157 --> 00:36:41,034 - I'm sorry. Okay, I'm sorry. 828 00:36:41,076 --> 00:36:42,410 - Thanks. 829 00:36:49,084 --> 00:36:50,960 - Kicking, kicking. 830 00:36:51,002 --> 00:36:52,462 [all cheer] 831 00:36:52,504 --> 00:36:53,630 - Good boy. 832 00:36:53,672 --> 00:36:55,215 - He looks exactly like Carter right now. 833 00:36:55,256 --> 00:36:56,925 - One minute, he'll look exactly like you, 834 00:36:56,966 --> 00:36:57,967 and then I see Carter. 835 00:36:58,009 --> 00:36:59,594 Then I see Dad. 836 00:36:59,636 --> 00:37:00,637 Are these little piggies? 837 00:37:00,679 --> 00:37:02,013 Num, num, num, num, num. 838 00:37:02,055 --> 00:37:03,598 - [chuckles] - Really sweet. 839 00:37:03,640 --> 00:37:05,642 - Good job, buddy. - I'm so happy I could be here. 840 00:37:05,684 --> 00:37:07,268 - I'm so happy you came. 841 00:37:07,310 --> 00:37:09,312 - It's good to end on a positive note, right? 842 00:37:09,354 --> 00:37:10,522 - Yeah. - Are we gonna dunk him again? 843 00:37:10,563 --> 00:37:12,315 - No, it's good to end on a negative note. 844 00:37:12,357 --> 00:37:14,484 - I think we're good. - I think we're good. 845 00:37:14,526 --> 00:37:16,736 And he even did it himself. - Yeah. 846 00:37:16,778 --> 00:37:19,948 [upbeat music] 847 00:37:19,989 --> 00:37:23,451 * * 848 00:37:23,493 --> 00:37:25,787 - I'm so glad that we had this time. 849 00:37:25,829 --> 00:37:27,789 I feel like we made up for a little lost time. 850 00:37:27,831 --> 00:37:30,500 - These are the things that really matter. 851 00:37:32,210 --> 00:37:35,505 Now that I'm a mom, I can understand more than ever 852 00:37:35,547 --> 00:37:37,507 why you were so protective of me. 853 00:37:37,549 --> 00:37:41,386 I can't imagine anything happening to him ever. 854 00:37:41,428 --> 00:37:45,432 I'd be--like, hold him tight and keep him little forever. 855 00:37:45,473 --> 00:37:46,599 - I know. 856 00:37:46,641 --> 00:37:48,727 Trust me. 857 00:37:48,768 --> 00:37:54,107 It does not matter how old your children are. 858 00:37:54,149 --> 00:37:58,194 You wanna protect them and be there and... 859 00:37:58,236 --> 00:37:59,988 pick them up when they fall. 860 00:38:00,030 --> 00:38:01,740 - I love you. 861 00:38:01,781 --> 00:38:02,991 [buzzes lips] 862 00:38:03,033 --> 00:38:05,368 - I will always show up. 863 00:38:05,410 --> 00:38:09,539 I will always be there, no matter what. 864 00:38:09,581 --> 00:38:11,708 - Thank you for coming with me to therapy. 865 00:38:11,750 --> 00:38:13,209 - I loved her. 866 00:38:13,251 --> 00:38:15,545 I'm really glad that we had that session. 867 00:38:15,587 --> 00:38:16,838 - Me too. 868 00:38:16,880 --> 00:38:18,548 It made me sad to hear that you felt like 869 00:38:18,590 --> 00:38:20,842 you didn't connect with Phoenix. 870 00:38:22,260 --> 00:38:24,137 - I was being honest. 871 00:38:24,179 --> 00:38:25,597 I wasn't in the delivery room. 872 00:38:25,638 --> 00:38:28,058 And I didn't have the wait and the excitement 873 00:38:28,099 --> 00:38:31,102 and the anticipation and being able to share that with you, 874 00:38:31,144 --> 00:38:33,313 so when I was asked a question, 875 00:38:33,355 --> 00:38:35,148 I'm gonna be honest. 876 00:38:35,190 --> 00:38:37,484 You know what? I always want you to feel-- 877 00:38:37,525 --> 00:38:41,488 and I wanna be able to feel that I can tell you anything 878 00:38:41,529 --> 00:38:43,073 and that you can trust me. 879 00:38:43,114 --> 00:38:45,116 You know I'm a vault. 880 00:38:45,158 --> 00:38:46,743 - I know. 881 00:38:46,785 --> 00:38:49,746 - You tell me that something is completely private 882 00:38:49,788 --> 00:38:52,332 and off-limits, I don't-- 883 00:38:52,374 --> 00:38:55,377 I don't share that, and I think you know that. 884 00:38:55,418 --> 00:38:57,587 - You're such an amazing mom, and you're so strong. 885 00:38:57,629 --> 00:39:00,048 And you're such an inspiration to me. 886 00:39:00,840 --> 00:39:03,051 My mom's definitely hinting about wanting 887 00:39:03,093 --> 00:39:05,387 to find out about baby number two. 888 00:39:05,428 --> 00:39:08,348 I--I don't even know how to word this. 889 00:39:08,390 --> 00:39:10,058 I don't know. 890 00:39:10,100 --> 00:39:11,434 We've come so far. 891 00:39:11,476 --> 00:39:13,728 Even though I didn't wanna tell anyone, 892 00:39:13,770 --> 00:39:16,439 now I'm really questioning if I should or not. 893 00:39:16,481 --> 00:39:18,733 - This is our bond moving forward. 894 00:39:18,775 --> 00:39:21,027 I love you, sweetheart. - I love you, Mom. 895 00:39:21,069 --> 00:39:22,737 [Phoenix fussing] - This damn hat. 896 00:39:22,779 --> 00:39:23,822 [laughter] 897 00:39:27,659 --> 00:39:30,328 - [vocalizing] 898 00:39:30,370 --> 00:39:33,373 * I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you * 899 00:39:33,415 --> 00:39:36,126 - Outside the Box is a child development-led program. 900 00:39:36,167 --> 00:39:39,295 In order for your child to be able to regulate information, 901 00:39:39,337 --> 00:39:41,047 especially sound, they need to be exposed to it. 902 00:39:41,089 --> 00:39:42,507 [drum bangs] You agree with me. 903 00:39:42,549 --> 00:39:43,883 I hear you. 904 00:39:43,925 --> 00:39:45,969 We are about to make some loud music. 905 00:39:46,011 --> 00:39:48,763 [instruments jangling] 906 00:39:48,805 --> 00:39:50,098 - He loves it. 907 00:39:51,725 --> 00:39:54,310 [all cheer] - Very nicely done. 908 00:39:54,352 --> 00:39:56,563 - Every month, it just gets better with little Phoenix 909 00:39:56,604 --> 00:39:58,148 because he's more responsive, 910 00:39:58,189 --> 00:39:59,691 and there's more you can do with him. 911 00:39:59,733 --> 00:40:01,901 - Being there for all of Phoenix's daily routines, 912 00:40:01,943 --> 00:40:03,862 it's worth every adjustment. 913 00:40:03,903 --> 00:40:05,405 We should do this, like, every week. 914 00:40:05,447 --> 00:40:07,490 - Yeah. - Are you hungry and tired? 915 00:40:07,532 --> 00:40:10,201 [Phoenix fussing] 916 00:40:10,243 --> 00:40:12,954 * * 917 00:40:12,996 --> 00:40:15,206 So what are you gonna wear? 918 00:40:15,248 --> 00:40:18,168 They're supposed to protect from coyotes. 919 00:40:18,209 --> 00:40:19,669 Ether. 920 00:40:19,711 --> 00:40:22,380 You look so punk rock. [laughs] 921 00:40:22,422 --> 00:40:25,008 My number one priority is the kids. 922 00:40:25,050 --> 00:40:26,801 I've been dreaming about London. 923 00:40:26,843 --> 00:40:30,055 Are you excited to meet your new sister? 924 00:40:30,096 --> 00:40:31,806 - [babbles] - Yes? 925 00:40:31,848 --> 00:40:33,516 I just know that Phoenix is gonna be 926 00:40:33,558 --> 00:40:34,934 the best big brother. 927 00:40:34,976 --> 00:40:37,687 I just can't wait for the future. 928 00:40:37,729 --> 00:40:41,066 - [vocalizing] 929 00:40:41,107 --> 00:40:44,944 * I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you * 930 00:40:44,986 --> 00:40:46,571 * * 931 00:40:46,613 --> 00:40:47,947 - Hi, honey. - Hi. 932 00:40:47,989 --> 00:40:50,700 - Hi there. Is that little Baby Face? 933 00:40:50,742 --> 00:40:52,160 - Crypto. - Crypto? 934 00:40:52,202 --> 00:40:53,828 - Mm-hmm. She had her hair cut. 935 00:40:53,870 --> 00:40:55,538 - Hi. Hi, honey. 936 00:40:55,580 --> 00:40:56,915 - Hi. I love your shoes. 937 00:40:56,956 --> 00:40:58,500 - I have that dress. Mwah. 938 00:40:58,541 --> 00:41:00,669 [sighs] What's going on? 939 00:41:00,710 --> 00:41:02,253 Oh, is the baby up? 940 00:41:02,295 --> 00:41:03,505 - No. 941 00:41:03,546 --> 00:41:05,840 - He's sleeping? - Yeah. 942 00:41:09,511 --> 00:41:11,096 How was your day? 943 00:41:12,097 --> 00:41:13,515 - I'm getting nervous. 944 00:41:13,556 --> 00:41:14,891 - What? - I don't know. 945 00:41:14,933 --> 00:41:17,727 [laughter] 946 00:41:17,769 --> 00:41:20,021 - What? - What's going on? 947 00:41:20,063 --> 00:41:22,023 I don't like these meetings. 948 00:41:22,065 --> 00:41:24,693 - I have a surprise for you. 949 00:41:24,734 --> 00:41:26,861 [playful mysterious music] 950 00:41:26,903 --> 00:41:29,322 I'll be right back. 951 00:41:29,364 --> 00:41:33,284 - I'm so worn out with these surprises. 952 00:41:33,326 --> 00:41:35,912 The last time I was in this situation, 953 00:41:35,954 --> 00:41:38,289 I was introduced to Phoenix. 954 00:41:38,331 --> 00:41:42,502 * * 955 00:41:42,544 --> 00:41:43,962 You're joking. 956 00:41:45,463 --> 00:41:48,758 So at this point, I don't know what to think. 957 00:41:48,800 --> 00:41:50,927 [breathes shakily] 958 00:41:50,969 --> 00:41:58,101 * * 959 00:42:00,645 --> 00:42:02,480 - Your favorite. 960 00:42:02,522 --> 00:42:04,107 - That's it? 961 00:42:04,149 --> 00:42:06,526 I thought you were gonna go get another blanket. 962 00:42:06,568 --> 00:42:07,485 [sniffles] 963 00:42:11,322 --> 00:42:12,991 - I love Chanel. 964 00:42:14,659 --> 00:42:16,828 I just know that you love to carry around 965 00:42:16,870 --> 00:42:18,455 so much stuff with you. 966 00:42:18,496 --> 00:42:20,373 - So what are we saying? 967 00:42:20,415 --> 00:42:21,666 - What? 968 00:42:21,708 --> 00:42:23,251 - What's going on? 969 00:42:23,293 --> 00:42:25,170 - Well, I have another surprise. 970 00:42:25,211 --> 00:42:26,880 - You have another surprise? 971 00:42:26,921 --> 00:42:28,631 * * 972 00:42:28,673 --> 00:42:30,175 Don't even start with me. 973 00:42:34,679 --> 00:42:36,306 Oy, oy, oy. 974 00:42:39,351 --> 00:42:41,102 - [chuckles] 975 00:42:42,854 --> 00:42:44,272 Are you ready? 976 00:42:44,314 --> 00:42:45,357 - I'm ready. 977 00:42:45,398 --> 00:42:52,322 * * 978 00:43:06,544 --> 00:43:08,505 No! 979 00:43:08,546 --> 00:43:10,965 No. 980 00:43:11,007 --> 00:43:12,634 Are you kidding me? 981 00:43:14,552 --> 00:43:16,805 Wait. 982 00:43:16,846 --> 00:43:18,264 What? 983 00:43:18,306 --> 00:43:20,975 - This is your grand-doggy babies. 984 00:43:21,017 --> 00:43:22,560 - Wait, what? 985 00:43:22,602 --> 00:43:25,355 - This is Diamond and Baby, 986 00:43:25,397 --> 00:43:27,482 Diamond's clones. 987 00:43:27,524 --> 00:43:29,025 - Oh, my God. 988 00:43:29,067 --> 00:43:30,610 - How cute are they? 989 00:43:30,652 --> 00:43:32,362 - Oh, my goodness. 990 00:43:32,404 --> 00:43:37,492 * * 991 00:43:37,534 --> 00:43:39,536 Oh, my goodness. 992 00:43:39,577 --> 00:43:41,329 Yes. 993 00:43:41,371 --> 00:43:43,289 - Carter found this company. 994 00:43:43,331 --> 00:43:45,208 They just can take a dog's cells, 995 00:43:45,250 --> 00:43:48,795 and they can make your same exact dog. 996 00:43:48,837 --> 00:43:51,381 It's been ten months since Diamond Baby ran away, 997 00:43:51,423 --> 00:43:53,717 and I just feel like part of me is missing. 998 00:43:53,758 --> 00:43:55,427 Diamond Baby! 999 00:43:55,468 --> 00:43:57,470 Diamond! 1000 00:43:57,512 --> 00:44:01,349 She was like my sister, my best friend, my sidekick. 1001 00:44:01,391 --> 00:44:03,435 And I'm so happy and grateful 1002 00:44:03,476 --> 00:44:05,437 that Carter figured out a way to get her back. 1003 00:44:05,478 --> 00:44:07,647 - I wanted to give you all an update. 1004 00:44:07,689 --> 00:44:09,983 We've had two puppies born for you. 1005 00:44:10,025 --> 00:44:11,484 - I got twin girls. 1006 00:44:11,526 --> 00:44:13,445 - Phoenix, you wanna meet Diamond Baby? 1007 00:44:13,486 --> 00:44:15,739 - That's your two little sisters. 1008 00:44:15,780 --> 00:44:18,241 It's just a dream come true. 1009 00:44:18,283 --> 00:44:19,617 Did you think it was Diamond? 1010 00:44:19,659 --> 00:44:20,994 - I saw the one little head, 1011 00:44:21,036 --> 00:44:24,748 so I just thought it was Diamond Baby. 1012 00:44:24,789 --> 00:44:26,416 You came out. 1013 00:44:26,458 --> 00:44:28,877 I didn't see you until you were sitting down. 1014 00:44:28,918 --> 00:44:32,422 And then I thought it was London. 1015 00:44:32,464 --> 00:44:35,717 And I thought, how-- she can't do that to me again. 1016 00:44:35,759 --> 00:44:38,303 - Um... [clears throat] 1017 00:44:42,432 --> 00:44:45,602 I've just been thinking about it a lot. 1018 00:44:45,643 --> 00:44:49,272 I just feel like I love you so much. 1019 00:44:49,314 --> 00:44:51,232 I feel closer to you than ever. 1020 00:44:51,274 --> 00:44:55,987 I feel like we've just come so far, and... 1021 00:44:56,029 --> 00:45:00,658 I just feel like I have a whole new relationship with you. 1022 00:45:00,700 --> 00:45:03,703 But I feel that I wanna do 1023 00:45:03,745 --> 00:45:05,330 the same thing that I did with Phoenix 1024 00:45:05,372 --> 00:45:08,625 and make it a surprise for everyone. 1025 00:45:08,667 --> 00:45:09,959 - You wanna make it a surprise? 1026 00:45:10,001 --> 00:45:13,338 [dramatic music] 1027 00:45:18,760 --> 00:45:21,721 [tense music] 1028 00:45:21,763 --> 00:45:24,641 * * 1029 00:45:24,683 --> 00:45:25,767 - I love you so much. 1030 00:45:25,809 --> 00:45:27,686 I feel closer to you than ever. 1031 00:45:27,727 --> 00:45:32,482 I feel like we've just come so far, and... 1032 00:45:32,524 --> 00:45:35,944 I just feel like I have a whole new relationship with you. 1033 00:45:35,985 --> 00:45:39,155 But I feel that I wanna do 1034 00:45:39,197 --> 00:45:40,865 the same thing that I did with Phoenix 1035 00:45:40,907 --> 00:45:44,202 and make it a surprise for everyone. 1036 00:45:44,244 --> 00:45:45,995 - You wanna make it a surprise? 1037 00:45:46,037 --> 00:45:47,539 - It has nothing to do with you. 1038 00:45:47,580 --> 00:45:49,916 This is all me. 1039 00:45:49,958 --> 00:45:53,378 But with Phoenix, just having all of that time 1040 00:45:53,420 --> 00:45:58,049 where no one in the world knew but me and Carter... 1041 00:45:59,384 --> 00:46:00,885 - I get it. 1042 00:46:00,927 --> 00:46:03,555 I mean, at the end of the day, 1043 00:46:03,596 --> 00:46:05,724 your happiness is my happiness. 1044 00:46:05,765 --> 00:46:07,308 - So you're not mad? 1045 00:46:07,350 --> 00:46:11,521 - No. I mean, it's a happy--it's a-- 1046 00:46:11,563 --> 00:46:13,732 would I like to be included in every little thing? 1047 00:46:13,773 --> 00:46:16,860 Of course. But I promise you, 1048 00:46:16,901 --> 00:46:19,529 I want what you want. 1049 00:46:19,571 --> 00:46:21,281 I'm good. 1050 00:46:21,322 --> 00:46:22,824 I'm very happy now. 1051 00:46:22,866 --> 00:46:25,618 - [chuckles] - I'm very happy now. 1052 00:46:26,786 --> 00:46:29,372 When your children are happy, you're happy. 1053 00:46:29,414 --> 00:46:31,291 My cup is very full. 1054 00:46:31,332 --> 00:46:33,460 - Yes. [chuckles] 1055 00:46:33,501 --> 00:46:35,211 - Paris and I are connecting more now 1056 00:46:35,253 --> 00:46:38,298 and understanding each other more now. 1057 00:46:39,299 --> 00:46:42,469 I just wanna be as involved as they want me to be. 1058 00:46:42,510 --> 00:46:46,639 I wanna move forward and have family time 1059 00:46:46,681 --> 00:46:50,393 and just be together and have barbecues 1060 00:46:50,435 --> 00:46:52,604 and all the grandchildren running around. 1061 00:46:52,645 --> 00:46:55,315 That's always been my dream. 1062 00:46:55,357 --> 00:46:56,858 - How was the surprise? 1063 00:46:56,900 --> 00:47:00,028 - Oh, my God. - [laughs] 1064 00:47:00,070 --> 00:47:02,697 - Carter, you have brought so much happiness to our family. 1065 00:47:02,739 --> 00:47:04,741 Look at this. 1066 00:47:04,783 --> 00:47:06,368 - They're so precious. 1067 00:47:06,409 --> 00:47:10,663 - How is--is--uh-- 1068 00:47:11,956 --> 00:47:13,166 I was gonna say Philip. 1069 00:47:13,208 --> 00:47:14,876 [laughter] - Who's Philip? 1070 00:47:14,918 --> 00:47:17,128 - I think that's Phoenix's alter ego. 1071 00:47:17,170 --> 00:47:18,755 - I keep calling him Philip all the time. 1072 00:47:18,797 --> 00:47:21,466 - Philip? [laughter] 1073 00:47:21,508 --> 00:47:24,260 [upbeat music] 1074 00:47:24,302 --> 00:47:25,470 * * 1075 00:47:25,512 --> 00:47:28,890 - First time eating solid foods, Phoenix. 1076 00:47:28,932 --> 00:47:31,309 Yeah. - Excited. 1077 00:47:31,351 --> 00:47:33,269 - All right. 1078 00:47:33,311 --> 00:47:35,605 [blender whirring] 1079 00:47:35,647 --> 00:47:38,775 - Excited? Yay, broccoli! 1080 00:47:38,817 --> 00:47:42,153 [blender grinding] 1081 00:47:51,746 --> 00:47:54,416 - That's tough for your first meal. 1082 00:47:54,457 --> 00:47:57,210 You get broccoli. That's pretty brutal. 1083 00:47:57,252 --> 00:47:59,796 - Well, don't tell him that. We want him to like it. 1084 00:48:01,965 --> 00:48:04,884 - All right. - You ready? 1085 00:48:04,926 --> 00:48:06,177 Some broccoli. [gasps] 1086 00:48:06,219 --> 00:48:07,971 Here we go. [laughter] 1087 00:48:08,013 --> 00:48:09,514 - Little bites. 1088 00:48:09,556 --> 00:48:11,516 [gasps] 1089 00:48:11,558 --> 00:48:12,684 - Yummy. 1090 00:48:12,726 --> 00:48:14,185 Broccoli. 1091 00:48:14,227 --> 00:48:17,522 He's like, this is not what I was expecting. 1092 00:48:17,564 --> 00:48:18,898 Good boy. 1093 00:48:18,940 --> 00:48:20,650 Chewing, chewing. 1094 00:48:20,692 --> 00:48:22,110 - Chewing, chewing. - Swallowing. 1095 00:48:23,903 --> 00:48:25,155 It doesn't look like he likes it. 1096 00:48:28,491 --> 00:48:30,744 - I can't believe Phoenix is six months old. 1097 00:48:30,785 --> 00:48:32,203 - Yeah, just like that. 1098 00:48:32,245 --> 00:48:33,997 He'll be crawling soon, walking soon. 1099 00:48:34,039 --> 00:48:35,749 - I know. He's getting so big. 1100 00:48:35,790 --> 00:48:37,083 He was, like, a little-- 1101 00:48:37,125 --> 00:48:39,544 I was looking at old photos from the hospital, 1102 00:48:39,586 --> 00:48:43,089 and he was like this little, tiny glowworm. 1103 00:48:46,384 --> 00:48:48,636 I'll never forget when you were holding him 1104 00:48:48,678 --> 00:48:50,972 and just, like, looking at him and crying, 1105 00:48:51,014 --> 00:48:52,891 and it was just so sweet. 1106 00:48:55,185 --> 00:48:57,270 - I'm so happy that I filmed that 'cause that's, like, 1107 00:48:57,312 --> 00:49:00,148 a memory I can't wait to show him one day. 1108 00:49:00,190 --> 00:49:03,276 - * You're my bright light * 1109 00:49:03,318 --> 00:49:06,446 * You're my bright light * 1110 00:49:08,448 --> 00:49:09,657 Hi. 1111 00:49:09,699 --> 00:49:11,076 - The first few months, we were just always 1112 00:49:11,117 --> 00:49:12,786 so worried we were gonna do something wrong 1113 00:49:12,827 --> 00:49:14,746 that we were kind of more hands-off. 1114 00:49:14,788 --> 00:49:16,748 - Nothing prepares you for this. 1115 00:49:16,790 --> 00:49:19,042 Should I learn how to change his diaper? 1116 00:49:19,084 --> 00:49:20,919 - Yeah. - I'm scared. 1117 00:49:20,960 --> 00:49:22,796 - You've never done it? - No. 1118 00:49:22,837 --> 00:49:24,464 Um, okay. - Be gentle. 1119 00:49:24,506 --> 00:49:25,965 - Wipe the butt in case there's pee? 1120 00:49:26,007 --> 00:49:28,134 - Gentle. - I am. 1121 00:49:31,763 --> 00:49:32,931 - That's hot. 1122 00:49:32,972 --> 00:49:34,974 - Now we kind of know the drill, 1123 00:49:35,016 --> 00:49:37,519 and so we'll just be able to be a lot more hands-on 1124 00:49:37,560 --> 00:49:38,895 from the minute London's born 1125 00:49:38,937 --> 00:49:40,021 'cause now we know what we're doing. 1126 00:49:40,063 --> 00:49:42,148 - I know. I feel so much more prepared. 1127 00:49:47,987 --> 00:49:49,864 - I forget, Paris. Do we have any secrets? 1128 00:49:49,906 --> 00:49:52,200 - [gasps] No! 1129 00:49:52,242 --> 00:49:55,370 - This is not exactly what I pictured on the first feeding 1130 00:49:55,412 --> 00:49:57,580 'cause he's now got broccoli in his kneecaps. 1131 00:49:57,622 --> 00:49:59,499 [laughter] - Sorry. 1132 00:49:59,541 --> 00:50:01,584 After the way we surprised everyone with Phoenix, 1133 00:50:01,626 --> 00:50:03,837 people are just expecting her any day now. 1134 00:50:03,878 --> 00:50:06,589 - People think they know, but nobody knows. 1135 00:50:06,631 --> 00:50:09,134 We're having-- [laughter] 1136 00:50:09,175 --> 00:50:12,012 - * I wanna see love * 1137 00:50:12,053 --> 00:50:14,556 * Forever, ever, ever * 1138 00:50:14,597 --> 00:50:18,018 * Everlasting love *