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Come on, Groupie.
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Come on, come on.
There you go.
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There you go.
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That's it. There you go. There you go.
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It is my own home, Sandra Panza.
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I should have the right to choose
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whether or not I admit someone
from the mental health service.
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What? You not gonna turn round,
call my bluff and go,
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"All right, Audrey. See ya."
And then come back again?
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What's got into ya? You're as
unresponsive as a corpse.
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You'll have something to say
when I'm dead, I bet.
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People always do.
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Where's that wry, smug laugh
of yours gone, Sandra?
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I'll be writing a letter of complaint
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about your late arrival.
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Yeah? Who to? The Queen?
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That's more like it.
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I'm writing a precis of my life.
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Presented to me
on my retirement as a typist...
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Typist for Her Majesty's
Government. Yeah.
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This stuff...
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That's my art.
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I used to be in the kitchen-sink
school of realism,
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but now I'm avant-garde
and misunderstood.
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"Better blood pressure than mine."
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Huh?
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That's what you usually say, Sandra.
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Any changes we should be aware of?
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You're unusually formal today
in approach.
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But your appearance
has slipped to an all-time low.
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Any changes with you?
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I had a dream.
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Not really the kind
of changes we're after.
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But the dream presaged...
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Looks like you need
a new calendar, Audrey.
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It's important that the records show
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I was first hospitalised
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while an award-winning painting student
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at the Royal Academy of Arts.
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It's where the visionary genius
William Blake studied.
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- Did you get on with them?
- Oh! Take this down.
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Due to my endless forced imprisonment
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in mental hospitals,
my art has been ignored.
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It has been my biggest regret.
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What?
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You need
to drive myself and my art
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to this gallery before the deadline.
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As much as I'd love to...
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Love to? Arse-lick!
You can't stand the idea.
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And don't go telling me
you haven't the time.
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I found time to travel the world.
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Yeah? So?
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And that.
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Where have you ever been?
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"Typist Artist Pirate King."
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They let you put that?
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I've got to go. Crisis meeting.
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Cut the jargonese.
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How does this make you feel?
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You're just like my sister.
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You know what my report said
in my student days?
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"Outstanding. A rare artist."
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Take me to the gallery.
It's a matter of urgency!
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Enough dramarama!
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Catch the bus! You love a bus ride.
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I had a bag of my sketches
stolen on the bus once.
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Well, treat yourself to a taxi.
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Last time I was in a taxi,
I was mistaken for a prostitute.
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What about your sister?
Can't she take you?
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She's in Yorkshire, 200 miles away!.
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She's not gonna gallivant down here!.
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She hasn't wanted to see me
for six years.
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You should know that from the files.
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- I've had a lot on mind, Audrey.
- As have I!
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Care in the community. Bum-suck!
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Psychiatric nurses,
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mere desperados
trying to get me on dope.
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Foisted on me by the NHSI.
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I never wanted any of ya!
All the abominations.
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And you, you're the worst of the lot.
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You're one giant fail!
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"See you in two weeks."
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That's what you normally say, Sandra.
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But don't worry,
I'll be off your hands by then!
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I will not end my days like this!.
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Arse-suckers!.
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I'm being used as a sex
doll in my own home!.
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Sex pots! Sex pests! ..
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I'm a public convenience!
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Pestilence! Prostitute! Pervert!
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Human traffickers!.
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? That you've met
and the places that you've been
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Audrey it's me! Let me in!.
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"Do not darken my door again"
springs to mind.
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? I always said you could make it
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? Just don't forget that I said it.
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Crack of dawn. Urgent call. Raced over.
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I've never seen you
so hyper-vigilant.
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- It doesn't suit ya.
- Turn that off!
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We can't have you screaming
your head off all night.
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- Your neighbours can't take it.
- They can't take it?
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They're the ones
sexually interfering with me
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by remote control!
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They should be drugged
and incarcerated, not me.
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It's no way to live or die.
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It's not a failure to be mentally ill, Audrey.
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I'm not mentally ill.
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Mam's slippers.
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So poignant.
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Mam lived here with me
for over 30 years.
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She sacrificed so much for my art.
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I recently wrote
to the Missing Persons Unit
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about reuniting
with my mother and father,
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but they wrote back
saying as they were deceased,
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that wouldn't be possible.
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Very ordinary minds,
these organisations.
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I was 19 when my father died.
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Me mam used to say to me,
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"Eh, thank God your da
never saw how you've suffered."
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My sister was 15 when he died.
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Aren't you going
to take my blood pressure?
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No need. I took it yesterday.
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I think with the night I had,
it would be prudent.
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- Better safe than sorry.
- Yeah.
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Yeah. OK.
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Here, Florence Nightingale.
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Try my right arm for a change.
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It wouldn't take too much of your time
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in the scheme of things, would it?
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- Where is it again?
- It's local.
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OK. OK. You win.
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Tip of the iceberg.
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A mere fraction of my art.
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Let's not take all day about it.
I haven't got long.
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Me neither.
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But if a thing's worth doing,
it's worth doing well.
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That art, is it?
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Use your imagination, Sandra.
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Sterile.
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No personality.
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What's the address of the gallery
for the sat-nav thingy?
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I don't trust such devices.
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It's a simple route. I'll direct you.
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Left.
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? Bus, telephone boxes, waiting
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? People, railings, dusk,
Trafalgar Square
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? Bus, telephone boxes, waiting
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? People, railings, dusk,
Trafalgar Square
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? Bus, telephone boxes, waiting...
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Rapid-moving, fast-changing world.
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When I first came to London,
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it was only a few
people's priority to have a car.
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My father passed away before I
moved here, but he used to say,
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"Eh, none of those London tricks."
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Your sister, Dorothy.
Does she hate London?
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Is that why she doesn't visit?
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Must be close by now.
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I still regard myself as a local.
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After all, I was born
and brought up there.
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- Where?
- Sunderland.
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Sunderland? The gallery's
in Sunderland? Jesus, that's...
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In the Northeast of England.
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bloody hours away!
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With comfort breaks, seven hours.
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It is 280 miles precisely.
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Brought a brand-new toothbrush
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and one of me mam's
nightdresses for you.
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- You said it was local.
- It is to me!.
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There's tons of galleries
in London, aren't there?
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London galleries
have always thrived on elitism
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and I'm not their scene.
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I've travelled the globe
as you know, Sandra.
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But Sunderland
was once my entire world.
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I know it's not a major gallery of note,
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but it means I will
finally have my exhibition.
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I know full well what's on your mind.
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Oh, I doubt it.
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You're thinking your bosses
won't allow you
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to transport me such a distance.
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But the way I see it, you can't
just apply rules willy-nilly.
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They're made to be broken.
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I handed in my notice yesterday.
Today's my last day.
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You left the service?
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Without telling me?
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No excuse not to drive me, then.
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Oh, I'm sure
there's more important people
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to see today than me.
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I wasn't meant to see anybody today,
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but... your name came through
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and I was... I was concerned about you.
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It's about time you broadened
your horizons, Sandra.
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It'll stop you getting so anxious.
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Think of me. Do it for me.
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"Let us not grow weary of doing good,
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for in due season we will reap
if we do not give up."
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I shouldn't. I've got paperwork to sort.
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But you will? You'll drive me?
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Yeah.
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- All that way?
- Uh-huh.
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But why?
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Well, like you said, it's... It's a good deed.
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There's more to it than that, I can tell.
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What's on your mind?
There's something. I know it.
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It's a ploy. A trick to lock me up.
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You're carting me off to be incarcerated!.
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You're not acting like Sandra!
You're an impostor!
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Audrey! Give me a break!
Do you want to go or not?
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That's more like it.
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Now you're sounding like you again.
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All right, I agree to go. It'll do you good.
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But let's get a move on. Heave-ho!
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Though not a driver myself,
at your speed,
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the procedure would be
to remain in the left lane.
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Yeah, I get it, Audrey.
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You've never driven
on a motorway before, have you?
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Sunshine's
not really built for motorways.
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If A and B roads
were good enough for my father
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and the car he doted on,
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then they're good enough
for you and Sunshine.
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Your diet, Audrey!.
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I'm not on a diet.
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I meant the food you eat.
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My sister Dorothy
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often pushed the virtues
of healthy food on to me.
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Dorothy had a point.
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What's the point of self-denial now?
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I've not got long to live anyway.
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Where did this dying thing
of yours suddenly come from?
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A dream.
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Oh, well, a dream.
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There are more things
in heaven and earth
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than are dreamt of
in your philosophy, Sandra.
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I did Shakespeare at school, you know?
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- Much ado about nothing.
- The quote is Hamlet.
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I meant, in my opinion,
he's been over-hyped.
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Much Ado About Nothing.
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Hamlet.
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Plays about deceit and treachery.
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Audrey!.
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Christ don't do that!.
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I have to pray to St Christopher
for my own protection!
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? On England's
pleasant pastures green
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? And did the Countenance Divine
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? And was Jerusalem builded here
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? Bring me my bow of burning gold
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? Bring me my arrows of desire
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? Bring me my spear: O clouds unfold
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? Bring me my chariot of fire
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? I will not cease from mental fight
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? Nor shall my sword sleep in my hand
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? Till we had built Jerusalem...
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Hello, dear. Take a seat.
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- Audrey.
- Oh, our youngest recruit yet.
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Do sit, my love.
257
00:22:14,751 --> 00:22:18,501
Close your eyes and think of light.
258
00:22:19,667 --> 00:22:21,959
Post tenebras lux!
259
00:22:27,959 --> 00:22:29,917
You probably
don't recognise me, Miss Moul.
260
00:22:30,001 --> 00:22:31,917
It's Audrey Amiss.
261
00:22:32,001 --> 00:22:33,251
You always encouraged me,
262
00:22:33,334 --> 00:22:36,501
even though my school reports
all indicated I had no sparkle
263
00:22:36,584 --> 00:22:39,084
and I needed to speak up more.
264
00:22:39,167 --> 00:22:40,876
I'm speaking up these days!
265
00:22:41,292 --> 00:22:43,001
If we could all turn the other way,
266
00:22:43,084 --> 00:22:45,126
it's all about balance.
267
00:22:50,792 --> 00:22:53,626
You likely remember my sister,
Dorothy Amiss.
268
00:22:53,709 --> 00:22:55,959
She was the more sociable one.
269
00:22:57,042 --> 00:22:59,459
She excelled at music.
Became a schoolteacher.
270
00:22:59,542 --> 00:23:02,292
Audrey. Everyone just wants to chill.
271
00:23:02,709 --> 00:23:05,084
Miss Moul may be a yogi now,
272
00:23:05,209 --> 00:23:07,834
but she was our headmistress
when my sister and myself
273
00:23:07,917 --> 00:23:09,709
were at Bede Grammar School for Girls!
274
00:23:09,792 --> 00:23:11,084
According to what I heard,
275
00:23:11,209 --> 00:23:14,251
Miss Moul rescued women
from prostitution
276
00:23:14,334 --> 00:23:17,417
and educated them.
277
00:23:19,834 --> 00:23:22,542
So, the yoga teacher
was your old headmistress?
278
00:23:22,626 --> 00:23:24,001
Don't be such a stick in the mud.
279
00:23:24,084 --> 00:23:26,584
People are allowed to change careers.
280
00:23:26,667 --> 00:23:28,126
Well, a whole hour
281
00:23:28,209 --> 00:23:30,626
of people farting on chairs?
No, thank you.
282
00:23:30,709 --> 00:23:31,709
Glad we're out of there.
283
00:23:31,792 --> 00:23:34,084
Hold your horses. I'm not leaving.
284
00:23:34,167 --> 00:23:36,501
I just need to take care
of some paperwork.
285
00:23:54,501 --> 00:23:56,709
Bum-suck!
286
00:23:57,251 --> 00:23:59,417
Nothing doing!
287
00:24:18,251 --> 00:24:21,167
I've been trapped!
288
00:24:21,709 --> 00:24:23,834
Hold tight. I'm on it.
289
00:24:32,251 --> 00:24:33,834
No!.
290
00:24:34,834 --> 00:24:37,459
No!
291
00:24:40,834 --> 00:24:43,459
It's OK. I'm here to help.
292
00:24:57,334 --> 00:24:59,459
What a predicament.
293
00:25:00,042 --> 00:25:02,167
We'll sort this in a jiffy.
294
00:25:12,459 --> 00:25:16,501
I'm dying, Father. I've not got long.
295
00:25:22,292 --> 00:25:25,292
"You will not fear the terror of the night,
296
00:25:25,626 --> 00:25:28,459
nor the arrow that flies by day."
297
00:25:28,792 --> 00:25:31,126
"He shall cover you with His wings
298
00:25:31,209 --> 00:25:35,042
and you shall be safe
under His feathers."
299
00:26:04,917 --> 00:26:08,209
Why did you lock the door?
Don't you trust me?
300
00:26:08,667 --> 00:26:11,667
- Thanks.
- That must've been terrifying.
301
00:26:13,542 --> 00:26:16,292
It feels like things
are happening out of time,
302
00:26:16,376 --> 00:26:19,584
not necessarily in my past,
but in my future.
303
00:26:19,667 --> 00:26:21,001
Breathe with me.
304
00:26:21,084 --> 00:26:24,084
A deep breath and hold and exhale.
305
00:26:24,167 --> 00:26:29,126
Think of somewhere peaceful.
Some beautiful place.
306
00:26:41,417 --> 00:26:44,792
Thank you for the faith
you had in me, Miss Moul.
307
00:26:45,709 --> 00:26:48,667
Your spine-tingling words
still ring in my mind.
308
00:26:48,751 --> 00:26:52,751
- Remember them?
- My memory's not what it was!.
309
00:26:53,959 --> 00:26:55,792
"You, my dear Audrey,
310
00:26:56,376 --> 00:26:59,542
are gonna be one of the greatest
painters of the age."
311
00:27:00,292 --> 00:27:05,084
You said, "How I long to hear
noble reports of you, Audrey,
312
00:27:05,167 --> 00:27:07,167
in my retirement."
313
00:27:09,042 --> 00:27:11,959
I didn't live up to your hopes, Miss Moul.
314
00:27:13,751 --> 00:27:16,376
You thought I was going
to be some Columbus,
315
00:27:16,459 --> 00:27:18,501
conquering the global art scene.
316
00:27:18,584 --> 00:27:22,251
Oh, my love.
I've never been disappointed.
317
00:27:23,292 --> 00:27:26,376
Actually... I'm on the way
318
00:27:26,459 --> 00:27:28,376
to getting my first exhibition right now.
319
00:27:28,459 --> 00:27:31,376
You see? It's never too late.
320
00:27:32,959 --> 00:27:35,876
You've given me courage
to this day, Miss Moul.
321
00:27:36,792 --> 00:27:41,292
Och, you have returned to me all
those feelings I had back then.
322
00:27:41,376 --> 00:27:45,501
How glorious it was
to be regarded as an art star.
323
00:27:45,584 --> 00:27:50,042
Post tenebras lux.our school motto.
324
00:27:50,126 --> 00:27:53,334
Light after darkness.
325
00:27:55,209 --> 00:27:56,792
And you.
326
00:27:56,959 --> 00:28:01,501
You are a beacon of light
in this sick and ailing world.
327
00:28:30,459 --> 00:28:32,334
Once upon a time, I thought I was Jesus,
328
00:28:32,417 --> 00:28:34,834
like many a psychiatric patient.
329
00:28:35,667 --> 00:28:39,626
I can smell whisky.
What went on in that toilet?
330
00:28:39,834 --> 00:28:42,751
In the biblical sense,
being locked in with the vicar
331
00:28:42,834 --> 00:28:44,917
was a romantic pipe dream.
332
00:28:45,459 --> 00:28:48,751
But seeing Miss Moul again
was a revelation.
333
00:28:53,959 --> 00:28:56,584
Look. Sandra, look.
334
00:28:56,834 --> 00:28:58,917
How it catches the light.
335
00:28:59,251 --> 00:29:02,709
How it curves like a golden curl of hair.
336
00:29:03,626 --> 00:29:06,959
Reminds me of my own hair
when I was a child.
337
00:29:31,001 --> 00:29:32,501
Luxury!
338
00:29:58,709 --> 00:30:00,584
A thing of great beauty.
339
00:30:00,667 --> 00:30:02,376
It's a fake.
340
00:30:02,751 --> 00:30:04,834
It's real in its own way.
341
00:30:05,001 --> 00:30:07,084
I need a wee. Are you coming?
342
00:30:07,667 --> 00:30:10,834
What an alternative lifestyle
you lead, Sandra.
343
00:30:11,167 --> 00:30:14,459
Mid-meal? Most irregular.
344
00:30:15,376 --> 00:30:19,209
No funny business,
Audrey Joan Amiss. You hear me?
345
00:30:33,542 --> 00:30:37,792
- Look! .
- It's this way round. Hey...
346
00:30:39,084 --> 00:30:40,792
Pouting Pamela, Jimmy Cragg!
347
00:30:40,876 --> 00:30:43,376
Come on, spit it out.
It's time for the truth.
348
00:30:44,084 --> 00:30:47,459
- We're... We're not Pamela.
- Or Jimmy.
349
00:30:48,001 --> 00:30:49,792
Don't go giving me your lip.
350
00:30:50,542 --> 00:30:52,959
Your eyes were on stalks.
What did you see?
351
00:30:53,042 --> 00:30:55,042
- We didn't see anything.
- Shh!.
352
00:30:55,959 --> 00:30:57,352
- Who are you?
- What do you want?
353
00:30:57,376 --> 00:30:58,709
You know very well who I am!
354
00:30:58,792 --> 00:31:00,459
I want to know what you're hiding!
355
00:31:00,542 --> 00:31:01,959
Are these two bothering you?
356
00:31:02,042 --> 00:31:04,292
Beyond bother. They're stonewalling me.
357
00:31:04,417 --> 00:31:06,042
We've never met her.
358
00:31:06,126 --> 00:31:08,459
These two, posing as innocent,
359
00:31:08,542 --> 00:31:12,834
were present at the major event
of my life when I was 19.
360
00:31:13,501 --> 00:31:16,292
I know what's on your mind,
but they're not lookalikes.
361
00:31:16,376 --> 00:31:18,626
They're the real deal. It's them.
362
00:31:18,709 --> 00:31:20,042
Come on, Audrey.
363
00:31:20,126 --> 00:31:22,834
Sunderland awaits.
The exhibition, remember?
364
00:31:22,917 --> 00:31:26,751
Ahoy there! True artists .
take no notice of the public.
365
00:31:26,834 --> 00:31:28,209
I know what you're all thinking.
366
00:31:28,292 --> 00:31:31,542
You're thinking I'm Don Quixote,
the crazy old knight.
367
00:31:31,792 --> 00:31:34,834
I saw you behind that counter,
masturbating!
368
00:31:34,917 --> 00:31:37,417
Audrey, look at me, look at me, hey.
369
00:31:37,501 --> 00:31:38,621
Hey, hey.
370
00:31:38,667 --> 00:31:40,876
Look at me. What's going on?
371
00:31:42,667 --> 00:31:45,667
They've been underground
since Heber's Ghyll.
372
00:31:45,751 --> 00:31:47,126
- What?
- Who's that?
373
00:31:47,251 --> 00:31:51,792
Heber's Ghyll is a place
in Ilkley in Yorkshire.
374
00:31:51,876 --> 00:31:53,959
I've not been back there since I was 19.
375
00:31:54,042 --> 00:31:56,376
I was on holiday with Dorothy, my sister,
376
00:31:56,459 --> 00:31:58,376
who has brutally cut me off.
377
00:31:58,459 --> 00:32:00,751
And I nearly died!
378
00:32:00,834 --> 00:32:03,251
A miracle I've lived till now!.
379
00:32:06,209 --> 00:32:08,042
- Tell me!
- Oi!
380
00:32:08,126 --> 00:32:10,959
Please! Why? How?
381
00:32:11,042 --> 00:32:13,792
I'm dying! I must know! ..
382
00:32:14,917 --> 00:32:18,251
I'm sorry. We don't know.
383
00:32:20,959 --> 00:32:24,042
Your chances for redemption are over!
384
00:32:24,126 --> 00:32:25,626
You need to pipe down!
385
00:32:25,709 --> 00:32:28,626
I will not be silenced,
you cock-eyed crab!
386
00:32:31,209 --> 00:32:33,251
Right! I'm ringing the police! ..
387
00:32:33,334 --> 00:32:35,626
No! Please don't.
Erm, she's with me and...
388
00:32:35,709 --> 00:32:38,584
I don't care! I want her out!.
389
00:32:38,667 --> 00:32:42,042
Cretin! Pervert! Prick! Lotus eater!.
390
00:32:42,126 --> 00:32:45,209
- Shit! Shaman! Shameful .
- No, don't touch her.
391
00:32:45,292 --> 00:32:48,792
Get off me, son of a biscuit eater!
392
00:32:50,709 --> 00:32:53,667
Pouting Pamela and Jimmy Cragg
didn't have the decency
393
00:32:53,751 --> 00:32:56,209
to tell me what occurred.
394
00:32:58,042 --> 00:33:00,876
What do you reckon
they would have said happened?
395
00:33:03,917 --> 00:33:07,251
- Were they not there for you?
- They were very much there.
396
00:33:08,084 --> 00:33:12,334
What I meant was,
did you feel let down by them?
397
00:33:14,792 --> 00:33:19,042
And so in your mind, they were
all part of your attempt?
398
00:33:20,459 --> 00:33:22,251
Attempt?
399
00:33:23,251 --> 00:33:27,251
This was a great
unresolved wrong done to me.
400
00:33:27,501 --> 00:33:28,751
My struggles have been major,
401
00:33:28,834 --> 00:33:30,834
but I've never been that way inclined.
402
00:33:30,917 --> 00:33:32,876
If I wasn't due to die, I'd want to live
403
00:33:32,959 --> 00:33:37,501
on this abused, beautiful planet
ad infinitum.
404
00:34:54,167 --> 00:34:55,792
Maestro!
405
00:34:56,459 --> 00:34:58,959
As a child, I loved to be mystified.
406
00:34:59,376 --> 00:35:02,084
The world is crying out for more magic.
407
00:35:03,376 --> 00:35:04,792
Come on.
408
00:35:04,917 --> 00:35:07,084
She propositioned me.
409
00:35:09,167 --> 00:35:12,292
The usual reaction
of children to myself is to cry.
410
00:35:15,167 --> 00:35:18,126
I'm equipped to ward off evil spirits.
411
00:35:28,501 --> 00:35:30,584
Impostor.
412
00:35:31,001 --> 00:35:34,042
The machine's mucked up.
It's just the woman before you.
413
00:35:39,459 --> 00:35:41,167
Thelma and Louise, eh?
414
00:35:41,459 --> 00:35:43,626
? Put down the booze
415
00:35:43,709 --> 00:35:46,959
? Let the demons win the fight
416
00:35:47,751 --> 00:35:52,751
? I dropped my gloves to the ground
417
00:35:53,834 --> 00:35:58,667
? You know I'm sorry
for the times I made you cry
418
00:35:58,751 --> 00:36:04,167
? I made an art of letting you down
419
00:36:06,126 --> 00:36:10,792
? I used to say it's only me I'm hurting
420
00:36:10,876 --> 00:36:16,751
? But I saw you on the stairs
421
00:36:17,709 --> 00:36:19,751
? The kid was crying
422
00:36:19,834 --> 00:36:22,126
? And the dogs were howling.
423
00:36:22,209 --> 00:36:23,834
You know it?
424
00:36:23,917 --> 00:36:27,709
On my wireless penetrating
Clarence Avenue all hours.
425
00:36:53,626 --> 00:36:58,709
? Tempted myself
time and time again
426
00:36:59,584 --> 00:37:04,959
? Like self-destruction was so cool
427
00:37:05,834 --> 00:37:10,126
? I mocked your tears
and I scarred your heart
428
00:37:10,709 --> 00:37:15,917
? I blame the past and I blamed you
429
00:37:20,042 --> 00:37:22,459
Turn right.
430
00:37:23,876 --> 00:37:26,001
Turn left.
431
00:37:27,542 --> 00:37:29,792
Please turn around where possible.
432
00:37:30,459 --> 00:37:32,584
Please turn around where possible.
433
00:37:33,251 --> 00:37:34,393
Please turn around where possible.
434
00:37:34,417 --> 00:37:36,042
We're completely lost.
435
00:37:36,126 --> 00:37:38,417
Please turn around where possible.
436
00:37:39,792 --> 00:37:41,709
Right.
437
00:37:46,042 --> 00:37:48,584
Directions aren't really my forte.
438
00:37:48,667 --> 00:37:52,376
Forte! Pianoforte!
439
00:37:52,917 --> 00:37:56,126
Soft. Loud! Soft.
440
00:37:56,667 --> 00:37:58,959
Loud!
441
00:38:02,417 --> 00:38:04,084
You once said it's only when we get lost
442
00:38:04,167 --> 00:38:06,584
we actually find ourselves.
443
00:38:07,667 --> 00:38:13,626
This ignoble impresario here,
Sandra, is Miss Hunter.
444
00:38:13,959 --> 00:38:16,334
Me and Dorothy's former piano teacher.
445
00:38:16,417 --> 00:38:20,167
She arranged our trip
to Heber's Ghyll where I...
446
00:38:22,001 --> 00:38:24,876
You snuck Dorothy away
for a hush-hush confab.
447
00:38:24,959 --> 00:38:26,751
What was that about, Miss Hunter?
448
00:38:26,834 --> 00:38:29,417
I've never met you before in my life.
449
00:38:29,501 --> 00:38:31,917
Coward. Cretin. Sex trafficker.
450
00:38:32,001 --> 00:38:36,126
- Audrey!
- Go away. Go away!
451
00:38:36,959 --> 00:38:38,834
No! It's contaminated!
452
00:38:38,917 --> 00:38:40,292
- Audrey!
- Leave it!.
453
00:38:40,376 --> 00:38:41,709
- God's sake!
- No, Sandra!
454
00:38:41,792 --> 00:38:44,542
Go and get your bags.
You go get your bags!.
455
00:38:52,876 --> 00:38:55,376
- There's a name for it.
- For what?
456
00:38:55,834 --> 00:38:58,542
This thinking people are other people.
457
00:38:59,209 --> 00:39:02,584
The thing is, this is where
being on medication could help.
458
00:39:02,667 --> 00:39:06,376
You lot are all so gung-ho
about drugging away perception.
459
00:39:06,459 --> 00:39:07,626
Who I see is who they are
460
00:39:07,709 --> 00:39:10,292
and what I see is what I see,
and that's that.
461
00:39:10,376 --> 00:39:13,792
Reality has always been
a heavily contested area.
462
00:39:13,876 --> 00:39:16,334
The powers that be put England on maps
463
00:39:16,417 --> 00:39:17,917
as the same size as Colombia,
464
00:39:18,001 --> 00:39:20,876
whereas in reality,
we are four times smaller.
465
00:39:21,751 --> 00:39:24,126
You always have to have the last
word, don't you, Audrey?
466
00:39:24,209 --> 00:39:26,501
That's because
it might be my very last word.
467
00:39:26,584 --> 00:39:29,167
I've not got long left, remember?
468
00:39:32,001 --> 00:39:36,001
- Audrey!
- Follow the signs!
469
00:39:43,126 --> 00:39:45,209
Look, seriously,
470
00:39:45,292 --> 00:39:47,334
Miss Moul instilled in the whole school
471
00:39:47,417 --> 00:39:49,959
the importance of being
charitable at all times.
472
00:39:50,042 --> 00:39:51,917
Going my way?
473
00:39:54,709 --> 00:39:57,084
Destination Sunderland.
474
00:39:57,167 --> 00:39:59,334
Here go.
475
00:40:05,209 --> 00:40:06,501
Put your seat belt on.
476
00:40:15,167 --> 00:40:17,376
What are you listening to?
477
00:40:18,417 --> 00:40:20,834
Elbow.
478
00:40:21,501 --> 00:40:23,167
Superior pop music.
479
00:40:23,709 --> 00:40:27,584
? You stuck a pin in the map I was in
480
00:40:27,667 --> 00:40:31,834
? And this is a note from the roadside...
481
00:40:32,167 --> 00:40:35,001
Get you.
482
00:40:35,084 --> 00:40:37,501
Light that and you're out.
483
00:40:45,376 --> 00:40:47,251
Are you a rent boy?
484
00:40:47,334 --> 00:40:49,459
Ah.
485
00:40:50,542 --> 00:40:52,459
I'm in search of an art exhibition.
486
00:40:52,542 --> 00:40:54,126
Yeah? Which one?
487
00:40:54,209 --> 00:40:56,001
Mine, of course.
488
00:40:56,084 --> 00:40:57,626
I'm an artist, too, you know.
489
00:40:58,376 --> 00:41:02,209
I make work that signifies
the nothingness it represents.
490
00:41:02,792 --> 00:41:07,834
It's like... everything
and nothing at the same time.
491
00:41:09,792 --> 00:41:13,667
Hmm. Yeah. I'm totally into outsider art.
492
00:41:13,917 --> 00:41:16,334
I'm not an outsider artist.
493
00:41:19,292 --> 00:41:22,584
I won a place at the top
art school in the country.
494
00:41:22,834 --> 00:41:26,334
The Royal Academy has
never been the top art school.
495
00:41:26,959 --> 00:41:29,167
It's always been the Royal College.
496
00:41:31,501 --> 00:41:33,584
Are you still harping on about that?
497
00:41:33,917 --> 00:41:36,001
The Royal Academy wasn't
good enough for you, was it?
498
00:41:36,084 --> 00:41:39,209
- You wanted cool.
- What?
499
00:41:39,292 --> 00:41:41,292
Hitchhiking was always your thing.
500
00:41:41,376 --> 00:41:43,459
You said that after
the bleakness of Yorkshire,
501
00:41:43,542 --> 00:41:46,501
hitchhiking to France was a revelation.
502
00:41:47,584 --> 00:41:51,334
You told me I carried the seeds
of my own destruction.
503
00:41:54,709 --> 00:41:56,334
Who is he, Audrey?
504
00:41:56,834 --> 00:42:00,376
John Lander Junior.
A fellow student of mine.
505
00:42:01,042 --> 00:42:02,792
He was in an art show
I should have been in,
506
00:42:02,876 --> 00:42:05,376
if he'd not pushed me to the loony bin!.
507
00:42:05,459 --> 00:42:08,501
That painting which kicked off
your spectacular success
508
00:42:08,584 --> 00:42:10,001
was claptrap!
509
00:42:11,876 --> 00:42:13,542
You wanted me destroyed!
510
00:42:14,167 --> 00:42:17,292
What are you going on about, you freak?
511
00:42:18,209 --> 00:42:20,292
Apologise.
512
00:42:20,917 --> 00:42:23,042
You'll be sorry if you don't.
513
00:42:23,376 --> 00:42:26,042
It's a child lock, you fool.
514
00:42:26,209 --> 00:42:28,709
Say sorry!.
515
00:42:32,834 --> 00:42:34,542
Arsehole!
516
00:42:34,626 --> 00:42:35,959
Pseud of the art world!
517
00:42:36,042 --> 00:42:37,667
I'm sorry!
518
00:42:37,751 --> 00:42:41,209
I'm really, really sorry.
519
00:42:47,126 --> 00:42:48,459
Go on, get out.
520
00:42:52,834 --> 00:42:56,667
Go on. Go on.
After him. After him.
521
00:43:12,126 --> 00:43:15,876
Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep!
522
00:43:15,959 --> 00:43:19,209
Beep.
523
00:43:21,917 --> 00:43:26,001
Beep, beep, beep, beep...
524
00:43:26,084 --> 00:43:29,334
Beep. Beep.
525
00:43:33,167 --> 00:43:35,251
Beep-beep, beep!
526
00:43:37,876 --> 00:43:40,667
- Put-up job!
- I can't get a signal.
527
00:43:40,751 --> 00:43:42,626
Foiled again!.
528
00:43:44,709 --> 00:43:46,709
We're nowhere!
529
00:43:49,334 --> 00:43:51,167
Come on.
530
00:43:51,251 --> 00:43:53,667
No. Come on.
531
00:43:55,751 --> 00:43:57,959
Don't worry, Sandra.
532
00:43:59,167 --> 00:44:01,042
You go in there.
533
00:44:23,209 --> 00:44:25,251
Good for shock.
534
00:44:49,834 --> 00:44:53,251
At first I examined the road
for an invisible barrier.
535
00:44:54,001 --> 00:44:57,001
A force field of energy
made of electrical compounds
536
00:44:57,084 --> 00:44:59,459
like an invisible glass shield.
537
00:45:01,501 --> 00:45:04,209
- Did you find it?
- Don't patronise me.
538
00:45:05,209 --> 00:45:09,084
There isn't one. The barrier is you.
539
00:45:10,584 --> 00:45:13,084
You've been stringing me along.
540
00:45:13,667 --> 00:45:16,876
I'm sorry you feel that way.
541
00:45:17,084 --> 00:45:19,792
I'm here to support you.
542
00:45:20,417 --> 00:45:23,876
I've been stopped by a breakdown
before, but not this time.
543
00:45:23,959 --> 00:45:26,792
Not this one, engineered
by you and your cronies.
544
00:45:26,876 --> 00:45:29,876
What a fool I've been
to trust you! You're undercover!
545
00:45:29,959 --> 00:45:33,209
You've not given up your job
at all, have you?
546
00:45:33,292 --> 00:45:35,126
You're still in the game!
547
00:45:35,584 --> 00:45:37,667
What medical professional
548
00:45:37,751 --> 00:45:39,917
would spend free time
with a patient, hey?
549
00:45:40,001 --> 00:45:41,501
And why, huh? Why?
550
00:45:41,959 --> 00:45:46,292
The caring profession.
Arse shit!
551
00:45:47,084 --> 00:45:50,751
You psych-knobs get a kick
out of people having breakdowns
552
00:45:50,834 --> 00:45:53,709
and hearing voices
and killing themselves!
553
00:45:54,334 --> 00:45:57,917
You get off on seeing
people drugged and put away!
554
00:45:58,959 --> 00:46:02,959
Oh, my heart bleeds custard for you!
555
00:46:05,751 --> 00:46:08,417
Audrey! Audrey, stop!
556
00:46:12,501 --> 00:46:13,501
The tree!
557
00:46:13,584 --> 00:46:17,501
Sunshine!. Sunshine!.
558
00:46:17,709 --> 00:46:18,834
That's the big difference
559
00:46:18,917 --> 00:46:20,626
between you and me, Sandra Panza.
560
00:46:20,709 --> 00:46:22,834
A tree is something in your way.
561
00:46:22,917 --> 00:46:26,959
For me, it's a living being, full of grace.
562
00:46:28,876 --> 00:46:31,959
I care about nature. The environment.
563
00:46:32,042 --> 00:46:36,959
I I drive an electric Carl ...
564
00:46:37,876 --> 00:46:41,792
You... You think you know me, Audrey.
565
00:46:42,001 --> 00:46:45,417
Think again! I don't even know me!.
566
00:46:45,501 --> 00:46:47,501
Jesus wept!
567
00:46:49,126 --> 00:46:51,626
You don't... you don't give a flying shit
568
00:46:51,709 --> 00:46:53,292
about anybody, do you?
569
00:46:53,376 --> 00:46:55,417
No wonder your sister disowned you.
570
00:46:55,501 --> 00:46:56,876
Do you know something?
571
00:46:56,959 --> 00:47:02,084
Your art is a load of poxy old crap!
572
00:47:02,167 --> 00:47:03,751
So...
573
00:47:03,834 --> 00:47:07,251
So, just piss off
out of my life, would you?
574
00:47:07,334 --> 00:47:09,417
Piss off!.
575
00:47:30,834 --> 00:47:33,001
Right.
576
00:47:42,542 --> 00:47:43,959
Audrey!.
577
00:47:44,042 --> 00:47:46,042
Audrey!.
578
00:47:46,167 --> 00:47:47,667
Audrey!.
579
00:47:48,001 --> 00:47:51,042
Audrey! Stop!
580
00:48:03,876 --> 00:48:05,584
Jesus Christ said, "Be of good cheer,
581
00:48:05,667 --> 00:48:07,417
for I have overcome the world."
582
00:48:07,501 --> 00:48:09,501
He ended up crucified.
583
00:48:09,584 --> 00:48:12,376
Well, life can be cruel.
I can testify to that.
584
00:48:12,459 --> 00:48:14,334
Me too.
585
00:48:15,126 --> 00:48:17,917
Such is the stuff of masterpieces.
586
00:48:18,417 --> 00:48:20,334
Long may they flourish.
587
00:48:20,542 --> 00:48:21,792
Hear, hear!
588
00:48:21,876 --> 00:48:24,751
Da Vinci had a love of animals,
just like me.
589
00:48:24,834 --> 00:48:26,501
He was testament to the fact
590
00:48:26,584 --> 00:48:29,126
that you don't have
to be mad to be an artist.
591
00:48:29,209 --> 00:48:31,126
We artists are often seen as nuts.
592
00:48:31,209 --> 00:48:33,959
In my mind, it's because
we can express ourselves
593
00:48:34,042 --> 00:48:35,667
so much better than others.
594
00:48:36,376 --> 00:48:40,126
I'm always keen to capture
the inner life of a person.
595
00:48:43,751 --> 00:48:45,667
You're all stiff upper lip.
596
00:48:46,251 --> 00:48:48,751
You're very excitable, aren't you?
597
00:48:49,292 --> 00:48:52,626
High spirits are often seen
as a disorder and stamped on.
598
00:48:53,376 --> 00:48:56,917
It is today's society that
has run to extremes and not I.
599
00:49:01,584 --> 00:49:03,876
You may have caught
Legionnaires' disease,
600
00:49:04,001 --> 00:49:06,251
a mild form of which is like a bad cold.
601
00:49:06,334 --> 00:49:09,042
I think I had it
on my way back from Bolivia.
602
00:49:14,042 --> 00:49:15,667
Hang on.
603
00:49:16,667 --> 00:49:18,542
You've never said where we're going.
604
00:49:18,626 --> 00:49:21,042
I need to get to my exhibition.
605
00:50:49,251 --> 00:50:51,001
Here!. Here, just here!
606
00:51:03,626 --> 00:51:05,876
Audrey!
607
00:51:06,209 --> 00:51:08,959
Audrey?
608
00:51:09,042 --> 00:51:10,334
Audrey?
609
00:51:10,417 --> 00:51:12,834
Audrey! I'm sorry!.
610
00:51:12,917 --> 00:51:15,167
I didn't mean what I said.
611
00:51:16,417 --> 00:51:18,751
Audrey!.
612
00:51:18,917 --> 00:51:20,876
You're right to be angry!.
613
00:51:21,334 --> 00:51:23,251
You hit a nerve, that's all.
614
00:51:23,334 --> 00:51:24,501
I was under the impression
615
00:51:24,584 --> 00:51:27,751
you lot had your nerves
trained out of you.
616
00:51:28,584 --> 00:51:30,917
I'm so glad you're all right.
617
00:51:31,334 --> 00:51:34,376
The things that were going
through my mind...
618
00:51:34,917 --> 00:51:38,334
Who was he? The driver?
619
00:51:43,501 --> 00:51:46,917
Audrey, look at you. You're shaking.
620
00:51:47,001 --> 00:51:50,126
If your former nurse talked
to you like you talked to me,
621
00:51:50,209 --> 00:51:51,459
you'd be on edge.
622
00:51:51,542 --> 00:51:54,667
I was totally in the wrong.
623
00:51:56,042 --> 00:51:58,001
Audrey...
624
00:52:04,251 --> 00:52:09,501
Let her pass!.
625
00:52:21,042 --> 00:52:24,292
The talk is always of me
and of my problems
626
00:52:24,376 --> 00:52:26,292
and I tend to forget in life
627
00:52:26,376 --> 00:52:29,251
that we may not be in the same boat,
628
00:52:29,334 --> 00:52:32,751
but we are all in the same storm.
629
00:52:32,834 --> 00:52:35,709
We cannot erase history.
630
00:52:35,917 --> 00:52:38,667
We just have to live with it.
631
00:52:39,917 --> 00:52:42,501
We know how this all ends, don't we?
632
00:52:42,751 --> 00:52:45,667
The Vikings and the Anglo-Saxons.
633
00:52:46,959 --> 00:52:50,042
Let's not dwell in the Dark Ages.
634
00:52:53,001 --> 00:52:56,167
The soldier said
he could take us to a hotel.
635
00:52:57,292 --> 00:52:59,542
Is the hotel licensed?
636
00:53:00,084 --> 00:53:03,001
Will there be gin to settle me nerves?
637
00:53:09,042 --> 00:53:11,209
A five-star experience.
638
00:53:11,751 --> 00:53:13,792
I used to share my bathwater
with my sister Dorothy
639
00:53:13,876 --> 00:53:16,167
so I've left the bath for you.
I had a wee in it.
640
00:53:16,251 --> 00:53:20,251
- Audrey!
- Healing powers. You need it.
641
00:53:21,084 --> 00:53:23,042
You know, you talk
about your sister a lot.
642
00:53:23,126 --> 00:53:23,876
I don't.
643
00:53:23,959 --> 00:53:26,876
Take a look at it now.
Concentrate.
644
00:53:27,459 --> 00:53:32,584
I'll have a quick shower.
Stay here, OK? Please.
645
00:53:33,376 --> 00:53:36,126
And what it can do.
Take your time.
646
00:53:39,334 --> 00:53:41,834
Lizzie and Sarah?
647
00:53:41,917 --> 00:53:43,501
Nit-nurse!
648
00:53:43,584 --> 00:53:46,334
Nit-nurse. Let's take a look.
649
00:53:46,417 --> 00:53:50,292
You've got it! You've got it!
650
00:53:51,209 --> 00:53:54,126
The three categories we'll use,
Tracey. Here they are.
651
00:53:54,834 --> 00:53:57,459
Recently I watched
a programme on Kurosawa,
652
00:53:57,542 --> 00:53:59,917
a Japanese film director.
653
00:54:00,167 --> 00:54:02,001
I'd forgotten the artistic heights
654
00:54:02,084 --> 00:54:04,042
reached by the likes of Kurosawa
655
00:54:04,126 --> 00:54:07,209
and really how run of the mill
television is these days.
656
00:54:07,876 --> 00:54:10,834
It's crying out
to enter another golden age.
657
00:54:14,084 --> 00:54:15,404
A late Victorian...
658
00:54:15,459 --> 00:54:19,084
- Sandra! Sandra, quick!
- What?
659
00:54:19,167 --> 00:54:21,001
It's Heber's Ghyll.
660
00:54:21,084 --> 00:54:22,393
The place where my life nearly ended
661
00:54:22,417 --> 00:54:25,334
when I was with Dorothy
all those years ago.
662
00:54:25,751 --> 00:54:29,209
I've often wondered if it really did end
663
00:54:29,792 --> 00:54:32,542
and I was replaced with an impostor.
664
00:54:34,584 --> 00:54:37,751
It took a year to paint
with my right hand again.
665
00:54:40,917 --> 00:54:43,251
It all feels so very long ago.
666
00:54:45,042 --> 00:54:46,876
As we pass through stands
667
00:54:46,959 --> 00:54:48,876
of sweet chestnut and European larch...
668
00:54:48,959 --> 00:54:51,542
I know the art world
doesn't always favour the brave,
669
00:54:51,626 --> 00:54:55,876
but I believed that I was going
to achieve recognition.
670
00:55:23,751 --> 00:55:26,626
What I previously judged
to be secondary or minor
671
00:55:26,709 --> 00:55:29,792
have assumed
the beauty of masterpieces.
672
00:55:30,417 --> 00:55:32,501
Joan?
673
00:55:33,334 --> 00:55:36,459
The Virgin Mary
has sent me to apologise to you.
674
00:55:38,042 --> 00:55:40,959
You took us on that staggeringly
picturesque boat trip,
675
00:55:41,042 --> 00:55:43,542
- remember, Joan?
- I'm not Joan.
676
00:55:44,626 --> 00:55:47,584
As there was no commentary
from you, I provided it.
677
00:55:47,667 --> 00:55:49,084
I felt like a military commander.
678
00:55:49,167 --> 00:55:51,584
I realise now, I shouldn't have taken over.
679
00:55:51,667 --> 00:55:53,376
Miss Amiss, where is your carer?
680
00:55:53,459 --> 00:55:56,542
It's A-miss and
Sandra is not my carer!.
681
00:55:56,626 --> 00:55:59,542
You couldn't even do a
running commentary if you tried!
682
00:55:59,626 --> 00:56:01,209
Not if you tried!
683
00:56:01,292 --> 00:56:02,834
Can I have some assistance here?
684
00:56:02,917 --> 00:56:07,126
No! Don't you No! ...
685
00:56:07,209 --> 00:56:08,709
Thank... Thank you.
686
00:56:11,417 --> 00:56:12,667
False ceiling, false floor.
687
00:56:12,751 --> 00:56:17,334
You're very excitable,
aren't you?
688
00:56:17,417 --> 00:56:19,501
Sex crimes are concentrated here.
689
00:56:26,501 --> 00:56:27,834
You know, people feel threatened
690
00:56:27,917 --> 00:56:29,917
when you throw things at them, Audrey.
691
00:56:31,417 --> 00:56:33,042
What's the matter with your eye?
692
00:56:33,126 --> 00:56:36,584
If thine own eye be single,
thy body shall be full of light.
693
00:56:38,376 --> 00:56:41,084
Get back to our room, eh? Bit of privacy.
694
00:56:42,334 --> 00:56:44,334
Privates.
695
00:56:47,001 --> 00:56:49,042
Peeping Tom. Powell.
696
00:56:57,501 --> 00:56:59,542
Impostor.
697
00:57:00,084 --> 00:57:02,459
It's me, Audrey. It's Sandra.
698
00:57:02,542 --> 00:57:04,542
You don't sound like you.
699
00:57:28,876 --> 00:57:31,751
I wish Miss Moul
had been my headmistress.
700
00:57:32,417 --> 00:57:34,626
Ours just wrote us all off.
701
00:57:35,292 --> 00:57:39,167
Miss Moul believed in you
so much, Audrey.
702
00:57:41,417 --> 00:57:45,209
Breeze, bright, sky, blue, sea, sand,
703
00:57:46,001 --> 00:57:48,001
gold, yellow, red, white,
704
00:57:48,084 --> 00:57:51,709
lighthouse, Groupie, Dorothy, I, pirate.
705
00:57:51,792 --> 00:57:54,792
Tides of time, tides, tides of time.
706
00:57:54,876 --> 00:57:56,292
Here.
707
00:57:57,251 --> 00:58:00,209
Could you draw me a picture
of where we are now?
708
00:58:10,126 --> 00:58:13,542
Police brutality. Indignity!
709
00:58:14,042 --> 00:58:16,042
- Another false arrest! .
- Audrey...
710
00:58:55,917 --> 00:58:57,792
Shh, shh, shh, shh.
711
00:59:15,167 --> 00:59:17,292
Shh, shh, shh.
712
00:59:26,834 --> 00:59:28,751
Hello, Audrey.
713
00:59:30,584 --> 00:59:32,334
Da.
714
00:59:34,417 --> 00:59:37,667
Da!
715
00:59:37,876 --> 00:59:40,417
Da! Da! Da!.
716
00:59:44,751 --> 00:59:47,459
Come on, pet.
Let's get you to bed.
717
00:59:50,209 --> 00:59:52,459
It'll be all right. Come on.
718
00:59:52,542 --> 00:59:55,001
It's OK. Come on.
719
00:59:57,209 --> 01:00:00,167
? Goes
720
01:00:16,876 --> 01:00:20,376
? And I am not alone
721
01:00:22,417 --> 01:00:29,251
? While my love is near me
722
01:00:30,709 --> 01:00:33,709
? I know it will be so
723
01:00:35,334 --> 01:00:41,792
? Until it's time to go
724
01:00:42,417 --> 01:00:49,376
? So come the storms of winter
725
01:00:51,792 --> 01:00:57,751
? And then the birds in spring again
726
01:01:01,751 --> 01:01:06,042
? I have no fear of time
727
01:01:20,251 --> 01:01:26,209
? Who knows where the time
728
01:02:01,209 --> 01:02:03,542
Had the perfect sleep!.
729
01:02:04,667 --> 01:02:05,987
Must've been because my neighbours
730
01:02:06,042 --> 01:02:08,459
weren't abusing me by remote control.
731
01:02:11,792 --> 01:02:15,917
So I found out we can catch a
coach all the way to Sunderland,
732
01:02:16,292 --> 01:02:19,501
and I called a mechanic
to pick up Sunshine.
733
01:02:20,126 --> 01:02:22,459
Good rescue operation, Sandra.
734
01:02:24,709 --> 01:02:26,542
Well...
735
01:02:39,417 --> 01:02:41,251
That's your aura.
736
01:02:47,917 --> 01:02:50,667
S-Somehow, you know
737
01:02:51,667 --> 01:02:54,251
that's the way I feel inside.
738
01:02:57,501 --> 01:02:59,501
From my familiar
aftermath feeling,
739
01:02:59,626 --> 01:03:01,876
I deduce you were
instrumental in me waking up
740
01:03:01,959 --> 01:03:05,001
with my freedom intact. So thank you.
741
01:03:11,542 --> 01:03:15,042
Is this an all-inclusive deal?
I fancy breakfast.
742
01:03:32,001 --> 01:03:34,626
A dream to work with!
743
01:03:35,792 --> 01:03:38,834
It has special properties.
744
01:03:41,292 --> 01:03:42,876
Like magic.
745
01:03:42,959 --> 01:03:48,167
There it is. A diabolical vision
from my past.
746
01:03:48,251 --> 01:03:51,459
My first hospital! Stop!
747
01:03:51,542 --> 01:03:52,459
Stop!
748
01:03:52,542 --> 01:03:54,667
Does it look like
a scheduled stop, lady?
749
01:03:54,751 --> 01:03:57,667
- Stop!
- I'm not your bloody chauffeur!
750
01:04:08,876 --> 01:04:10,709
Crazy lady!
751
01:04:34,417 --> 01:04:36,459
It has its own morgue.
752
01:04:36,709 --> 01:04:38,959
Some people never got away.
753
01:04:39,917 --> 01:04:41,459
Listen.
754
01:04:44,584 --> 01:04:46,501
All the souls.
755
01:05:06,626 --> 01:05:08,709
The best thing
was when these hospitals
756
01:05:08,792 --> 01:05:10,417
all got shut down.
757
01:05:10,834 --> 01:05:12,626
In a way, it was the worst thing, too.
758
01:05:12,709 --> 01:05:15,459
Never enough money for
proper care in the community.
759
01:05:15,542 --> 01:05:19,501
God was here. Talking to me.
760
01:05:20,417 --> 01:05:23,667
- And what did he say?
- I've no idea.
761
01:05:24,751 --> 01:05:27,667
There was a woman
who thought she was a statue
762
01:05:28,126 --> 01:05:30,834
and she was always stealing
my thoughts.
763
01:05:47,501 --> 01:05:51,667
You carried the seeds
of your own destruction.
764
01:05:51,751 --> 01:05:53,959
John Lander Junior...
765
01:05:54,917 --> 01:05:57,167
Our hitchhiker?
766
01:05:59,959 --> 01:06:01,626
He was plotting against me.
767
01:06:02,459 --> 01:06:05,667
I confronted him
and ended up smashing a window,
768
01:06:06,792 --> 01:06:09,209
and woke up here.
769
01:06:35,209 --> 01:06:38,792
The psychiatrists
insinuated I leave art school.
770
01:06:39,792 --> 01:06:42,751
Thought the pressure was making me ill.
771
01:06:45,376 --> 01:06:51,542
"We'll make a shorthand typist
out of you yet Audrey Amiss!".
772
01:06:53,001 --> 01:06:58,334
My head felt as if the skull
covering my brain had cracked,
773
01:06:58,917 --> 01:07:01,376
and my brain was leaking out.
774
01:07:03,751 --> 01:07:06,834
I hate you had to endure that.
775
01:09:40,584 --> 01:09:42,376
When Mam and Dorothy visited,
776
01:09:42,959 --> 01:09:47,667
I wanted them to get me out,
but I couldn't speak.
777
01:09:48,459 --> 01:09:50,251
I was drugged.
778
01:09:51,001 --> 01:09:54,917
Well, whatever you wanted
to say back then, say it.
779
01:09:55,667 --> 01:09:57,459
I won't even listen.
780
01:10:37,126 --> 01:10:38,834
I don't care what you think.
781
01:10:38,917 --> 01:10:41,751
I can't wither away at this
bus stop and await my demise.
782
01:10:41,834 --> 01:10:43,501
The gallery won't stay open all day.
783
01:10:43,584 --> 01:10:45,751
Do you hear me arguing?
784
01:10:51,584 --> 01:10:54,709
The council cut
the bus timetable into tatters.
785
01:10:54,792 --> 01:10:56,709
I wrote a stern letter.
786
01:10:56,792 --> 01:10:58,251
I'm a great letter writer tool.
787
01:10:58,334 --> 01:11:00,542
I keep a log of every letter sent.
788
01:11:00,626 --> 01:11:02,876
Me last letters
were to the Salvation Army
789
01:11:02,959 --> 01:11:04,792
about me ongoing issues with thrush
790
01:11:04,876 --> 01:11:08,417
and to the Sherlock Holmes
Society about me missing sock.
791
01:11:08,501 --> 01:11:10,042
Are you going near Sunderland?
792
01:11:10,167 --> 01:11:13,084
I can drop you close.
I'm meeting me boyfriend.
793
01:11:15,542 --> 01:11:19,042
- Who is she, Audrey?
- Knitting Nelly.
794
01:11:19,126 --> 01:11:20,501
Walked the streets for a living,
795
01:11:20,584 --> 01:11:22,501
but on admission for moral insanity,
796
01:11:22,584 --> 01:11:25,626
she thought she was a high-court judge.
797
01:11:29,709 --> 01:11:31,792
Oh, thank you!
798
01:11:40,001 --> 01:11:43,501
Oh! A gift of the elixir of life.
799
01:11:44,042 --> 01:11:46,126
How sweet it is to be alive.
800
01:11:46,417 --> 01:11:49,709
I'm the king of the road!.
801
01:11:49,792 --> 01:11:54,126
I'm king of everything!.
802
01:11:54,209 --> 01:11:57,792
? You stuck a pin
in the map I was in
803
01:11:57,876 --> 01:12:03,667
? And this is a note from the roadside
804
01:12:06,709 --> 01:12:10,251
? Cutting the Breeze
805
01:12:10,376 --> 01:12:14,001
? Of the Tennessee sundown
806
01:12:14,084 --> 01:12:21,876
? Came the sound of the voices I know
807
01:12:22,084 --> 01:12:26,334
? I've been pondering trees
808
01:12:26,417 --> 01:12:30,584
? On the steeliest comedown
809
01:12:30,667 --> 01:12:34,334
? And now in the moment
810
01:12:34,417 --> 01:12:38,167
? I'm home.
811
01:12:39,376 --> 01:12:44,126
I found the Taj Mahal
rather flat and overrated.
812
01:12:44,751 --> 01:12:49,459
But this? This is a true work of art.
813
01:13:14,167 --> 01:13:15,792
Bells.
814
01:13:28,001 --> 01:13:29,959
Hands!.
815
01:13:30,667 --> 01:13:33,667
Audrey!
816
01:13:44,251 --> 01:13:45,876
- Come on, Sandra.
- No, no, no, no.
817
01:13:46,001 --> 01:13:48,459
Oh, why not?
818
01:13:49,251 --> 01:13:51,334
Round.
819
01:14:10,251 --> 01:14:11,792
Ah!
820
01:14:11,876 --> 01:14:12,917
Walk round.
821
01:14:13,001 --> 01:14:15,667
Well, there was
more than last year, eh?
822
01:14:16,167 --> 01:14:18,292
- Thank you.
- Thank you.
823
01:14:18,376 --> 01:14:19,167
Hello.
824
01:14:19,251 --> 01:14:20,917
- Hiya.
- Are you for hire?
825
01:14:21,042 --> 01:14:23,459
- I am, yeah.
- OK.
826
01:14:23,959 --> 01:14:25,542
Are you not going to do that bit?
827
01:14:25,626 --> 01:14:28,167
The walking-into-the-pub bit? Yeah, no.
828
01:14:28,251 --> 01:14:30,626
Canny dancing! Where to, pet?
829
01:14:30,709 --> 01:14:33,959
34 Villiers Street. You better
put your best foot on the pedal.
830
01:14:34,042 --> 01:14:35,584
Soon as you can Geronimo!.
831
01:14:35,667 --> 01:14:38,542
Gabe. Call me Gabe.
832
01:14:39,959 --> 01:14:42,126
- Here.
- Thank you.
833
01:14:44,917 --> 01:14:47,251
Yeah. Got 'em.
834
01:14:47,501 --> 01:14:50,292
- Can I sit in the front?
- Yeah, yeah.
835
01:16:08,792 --> 01:16:11,501
You must've got
the address wrong.
836
01:16:12,084 --> 01:16:14,209
Here.
837
01:16:15,626 --> 01:16:18,709
No. This is it.
838
01:16:27,126 --> 01:16:29,209
Oh, Audrey.
839
01:16:30,001 --> 01:16:33,542
I should have checked.
This is from years ago.
840
01:16:46,376 --> 01:16:50,292
It's me. It's me.
841
01:16:51,501 --> 01:16:53,917
I've got in my way my whole life.
842
01:16:54,001 --> 01:16:55,251
Oh.
843
01:16:56,376 --> 01:17:01,001
I'm a never-been, never-was, never-will.
844
01:17:06,001 --> 01:17:09,626
Here. Come on. Please?
845
01:17:27,959 --> 01:17:29,709
You know what's funny?
846
01:17:29,792 --> 01:17:32,626
You've got me thinking in pictures now.
847
01:17:34,417 --> 01:17:36,584
I can see a beach.
848
01:17:37,417 --> 01:17:39,459
A lighthouse.
849
01:17:41,376 --> 01:17:43,834
Pirates.
850
01:17:47,876 --> 01:17:49,626
Right come on!.
851
01:17:49,709 --> 01:17:52,709
Come on! Let's go there ..
852
01:17:54,084 --> 01:17:56,126
Come on.
853
01:17:56,209 --> 01:17:58,417
Let me help you.
854
01:18:24,292 --> 01:18:27,001
I'm glad I came with you.
855
01:18:27,584 --> 01:18:30,001
You must be bonkers.
856
01:18:32,917 --> 01:18:35,501
I'm feeling better than ever.
857
01:18:36,917 --> 01:18:39,126
Well, about time.
858
01:18:41,001 --> 01:18:42,102
That's the last thing
859
01:18:42,126 --> 01:18:45,167
she said to me. My client.
860
01:18:45,459 --> 01:18:48,376
My patient, Lily.
861
01:18:50,917 --> 01:18:54,667
She said, "I'm feeling better than ever."
862
01:18:58,334 --> 01:19:00,959
I missed the signs.
863
01:19:01,542 --> 01:19:04,042
When someone's
about to do that to themselves,
864
01:19:04,126 --> 01:19:06,584
their mood can improve.
865
01:19:10,876 --> 01:19:13,126
I failed her.
866
01:19:19,084 --> 01:19:20,834
Come on, Groupie!.
867
01:19:28,792 --> 01:19:31,584
Good boy. Good boy!
868
01:19:32,459 --> 01:19:35,709
- All families have rifts.
- I'm not involved in a rift.
869
01:19:35,792 --> 01:19:38,417
My sister merely cut me off
six years ago.
870
01:19:40,334 --> 01:19:42,709
Audrey, don't take this wrong,
871
01:19:42,792 --> 01:19:46,126
but I think you need to see Dorothy.
872
01:19:46,209 --> 01:19:47,917
If I went to see her now,
873
01:19:48,001 --> 01:19:51,084
I'd be about as welcome
as an uncooked egg.
874
01:19:52,084 --> 01:19:53,084
I'd be with you.
875
01:19:53,126 --> 01:19:55,501
Oh, she'd love that,
Dorothy would.
876
01:19:55,584 --> 01:19:58,376
Me turning up with my psychiatric nurse.
877
01:19:58,917 --> 01:20:01,709
I'm not your psych nurse any more.
878
01:20:02,292 --> 01:20:04,001
I'm your friend.
879
01:20:04,084 --> 01:20:09,751
? From California
to the New York island
880
01:20:09,876 --> 01:20:12,834
? From the redwood forest
881
01:20:12,959 --> 01:20:16,126
? To the Gulf Stream waters
882
01:20:18,251 --> 01:20:22,834
? This land was made for you and me
883
01:20:24,042 --> 01:20:27,751
Caught red-handed!.
Treachery! Trickery!.
884
01:20:27,834 --> 01:20:29,126
We thought we could trust you!
885
01:20:29,209 --> 01:20:32,584
No, it's to show her!
She buys work by locals.
886
01:20:34,084 --> 01:20:36,126
- colour!
- Arseville.
887
01:20:36,209 --> 01:20:38,542
You've concocted this
to try and make me feel better.
888
01:20:38,626 --> 01:20:41,334
Your picture makes me feel better.
889
01:20:41,417 --> 01:20:46,084
It sings out! It makes me happy! ..
890
01:20:47,042 --> 01:20:48,626
We think of the arts as a luxury,
891
01:20:48,709 --> 01:20:52,292
but when it comes to the crunch,
we'd be badly off without them.
892
01:20:52,376 --> 01:20:55,792
Art makes life worth living.
893
01:20:57,501 --> 01:20:59,876
- I'd like to buy it.
- It's not for sale.
894
01:20:59,959 --> 01:21:03,292
- Oh.
- Only kidding!
895
01:21:07,334 --> 01:21:09,501
I'd like to buy more of your work.
896
01:21:10,459 --> 01:21:13,751
Vincent van Gogh only sold
one painting in his lifetime!
897
01:21:13,834 --> 01:21:15,334
I've outdone him!.
898
01:21:15,417 --> 01:21:17,584
Well, I never! I've smashed it!
899
01:21:19,126 --> 01:21:22,042
You can tell your sister
you sold some work.
900
01:21:22,126 --> 01:21:24,084
OK, that's clinched it. We're going.
901
01:21:24,167 --> 01:21:26,917
That's brilliant,
but we'll need to phone ahead.
902
01:21:27,001 --> 01:21:29,334
- Let her know we're coming.
- Absolutely not.
903
01:21:29,417 --> 01:21:32,917
All telephones are tapped
and a source of intelligence.
904
01:21:36,751 --> 01:21:41,709
? This land
was made for you and me
905
01:21:41,792 --> 01:21:44,959
? This land is your land...
906
01:21:45,501 --> 01:21:47,751
I think it's up to you to do the deal.
907
01:21:47,834 --> 01:21:50,209
- £10 each, I think.
- OK.
908
01:22:34,167 --> 01:22:35,834
You didn't ring the bell.
909
01:22:35,917 --> 01:22:38,792
I'm not entirely sure
this is the right house.
910
01:22:39,542 --> 01:22:41,834
Audrey!.
911
01:22:42,834 --> 01:22:46,709
I'm here with my friends,
Dorothy. Sandra and Gabe.
912
01:22:46,792 --> 01:22:48,084
Well...
913
01:22:48,167 --> 01:22:50,292
- Hi.
- Hello.
914
01:22:50,376 --> 01:22:53,042
It's just like Audrey
to turn up without warning
915
01:22:53,126 --> 01:22:56,917
after six years of refusing to see me.
916
01:22:59,917 --> 01:23:05,042
Er... I better... get the kettle on then, eh?
917
01:23:10,167 --> 01:23:12,251
Go on.
918
01:23:18,876 --> 01:23:22,251
I wanted to be the first to tell
you I've sold some of my art.
919
01:23:22,376 --> 01:23:25,376
Really? Oh.
920
01:23:27,626 --> 01:23:30,584
I know you thought I talked
about myself too much, John,
921
01:23:30,667 --> 01:23:34,292
but, you see, I'm often the one
doing the talking.
922
01:23:37,709 --> 01:23:41,542
- I'll... make myself scarce.
- Hmm.
923
01:23:56,334 --> 01:23:59,251
I've met a circus of people on this trip.
924
01:24:00,376 --> 01:24:03,459
Miss Moul, for one. She's taken up yoga.
925
01:24:03,542 --> 01:24:05,876
Miss Moul, our headmistress?
926
01:24:06,209 --> 01:24:09,709
And I met our piano teacher,
Miss Hunter.
927
01:24:10,084 --> 01:24:13,459
- Remember Miss Hunter?
- Audrey.
928
01:24:14,542 --> 01:24:17,084
You know that's not true.
929
01:24:17,542 --> 01:24:20,292
Miss Hunter and Miss Moul
930
01:24:20,792 --> 01:24:23,584
they'd be dead by now.
931
01:24:28,834 --> 01:24:31,167
Sandra seems nice.
932
01:24:32,292 --> 01:24:35,417
And your other friend,
he looks a bit familiar.
933
01:24:36,042 --> 01:24:38,584
Went back to visit the first
mental hospital I was in.
934
01:24:38,667 --> 01:24:40,167
Oh, gosh.
935
01:24:41,334 --> 01:24:45,626
I always felt so cold on the train
936
01:24:45,709 --> 01:24:47,751
on the way to see you there.
937
01:24:51,209 --> 01:24:54,292
I remember when the doctor
told Mam and me
938
01:24:54,376 --> 01:24:56,417
you had paranoid schizophrenia.
939
01:24:56,501 --> 01:25:00,626
A highly contested diagnosis
from my current vantage point.
940
01:25:06,501 --> 01:25:08,084
I've missed seeing you, Audrey.
941
01:25:08,167 --> 01:25:10,292
What?
942
01:25:11,209 --> 01:25:13,417
You're acting like
I slammed the door on you.
943
01:25:13,501 --> 01:25:16,292
It was you who shut me out. Why?
944
01:25:17,501 --> 01:25:21,126
- Things kept rising up.
- Rising up?
945
01:25:27,959 --> 01:25:30,584
You had such an exceptional gift
for art, Audrey.
946
01:25:30,667 --> 01:25:31,376
Had?
947
01:25:31,459 --> 01:25:35,001
Well, I prefer your early work.
It's no secret.
948
01:25:35,501 --> 01:25:37,167
Secrets.
949
01:25:37,709 --> 01:25:40,209
You were always
the best swimmer.
950
01:25:41,126 --> 01:25:43,459
The best sprinter, the best hockey player.
951
01:25:43,542 --> 01:25:47,626
You could throw a ball further
than any of us, with accuracy.
952
01:25:49,292 --> 01:25:51,084
It was always a bone of contention
953
01:25:51,167 --> 01:25:53,042
that you were
a better tap dancer than me.
954
01:25:53,126 --> 01:25:56,459
Why are you buttering me up?
955
01:26:13,959 --> 01:26:15,501
We reached the dizzying heights
956
01:26:15,584 --> 01:26:18,834
of playing Schubert's
Marche Militaire as a duet.
957
01:26:18,917 --> 01:26:19,917
Did we?
958
01:26:20,001 --> 01:26:23,501
Yes, we played it at Heber's
Ghyll for the retired sailors.
959
01:26:27,959 --> 01:26:30,084
Somebody's choking me.
960
01:26:30,459 --> 01:26:33,501
Oh, your tea's
gone down the wrong way.
961
01:26:38,459 --> 01:26:41,459
I shouldn't have
brought up Heber's Ghyll.
962
01:26:43,542 --> 01:26:45,292
I'm sorry.
963
01:26:46,042 --> 01:26:48,834
I didn't need you for it to come up.
964
01:26:49,126 --> 01:26:51,584
It's been on my mind lately.
965
01:26:55,167 --> 01:26:56,792
What happened?
966
01:26:59,167 --> 01:27:01,292
Well, er...
967
01:27:02,709 --> 01:27:04,917
Well, you were 19 and I was 15...
968
01:27:05,001 --> 01:27:06,626
Oh, tell me something I don't know!
969
01:27:06,709 --> 01:27:10,042
- There is no need to be rude.
- Arsewipe!
970
01:27:18,792 --> 01:27:23,959
This is a strange thing to say,
but Heber's Ghyll,
971
01:27:25,417 --> 01:27:30,917
and the accident was
when I felt I lost you, Audrey.
972
01:27:34,292 --> 01:27:36,626
My Audrey never came back.
973
01:27:38,542 --> 01:27:40,376
I knew it.
974
01:27:42,792 --> 01:27:44,792
I was replaced with an impostor.
975
01:27:44,876 --> 01:27:48,626
That isn't... That's not
what I meant. I just...
976
01:27:49,709 --> 01:27:52,459
I just meant that you had changed.
977
01:28:01,959 --> 01:28:03,834
I want to try and forgive you, Dorothy.
978
01:28:03,917 --> 01:28:07,126
I have nothing to be forgiven for.
979
01:28:07,209 --> 01:28:10,959
Hey! Audrey! Stop it! Stop! No ...
980
01:28:11,042 --> 01:28:12,209
Stop!
981
01:28:12,292 --> 01:28:14,626
Stop! Audrey no! .,
982
01:28:14,709 --> 01:28:18,042
Stop it. Stop it.
983
01:28:18,667 --> 01:28:21,126
Everything tickety-boo?
984
01:28:22,667 --> 01:28:24,501
Yes.
985
01:28:25,042 --> 01:28:27,251
Yes, everything's fine.
986
01:28:29,209 --> 01:28:31,501
Everything's fine.
987
01:28:34,334 --> 01:28:35,709
I'm...
988
01:28:35,792 --> 01:28:39,542
I'm gonna wrap up the sandwiches
for Audrey and her friends.
989
01:28:39,626 --> 01:28:41,876
She's leaving.
990
01:28:44,584 --> 01:28:47,001
Oh, dear, where's the foil?
991
01:28:48,917 --> 01:28:51,834
Just get the foil for us, please.
992
01:28:55,084 --> 01:28:56,834
All done.
993
01:29:06,126 --> 01:29:07,459
Cheese and tomato.
994
01:29:07,542 --> 01:29:10,376
I wasn't sure
if you were vegetarian or not.
995
01:29:10,459 --> 01:29:12,334
Dorothy and I
need to go to Heber's Ghyll
996
01:29:12,417 --> 01:29:13,459
as a matter of urgency.
997
01:29:13,542 --> 01:29:16,292
I can't just take off.
998
01:29:16,417 --> 01:29:17,542
No choice.
999
01:29:17,626 --> 01:29:20,751
No, I'm expecting a delivery.
1000
01:29:20,834 --> 01:29:24,459
Sometimes revisiting the site
of a trauma can be helpful.
1001
01:29:24,542 --> 01:29:26,126
I'm happy to wait in.
1002
01:29:26,209 --> 01:29:27,917
Well, you'd miss
your doctor's appointment.
1003
01:29:28,001 --> 01:29:29,876
And anyway, how would I get back?
1004
01:29:29,959 --> 01:29:31,126
I'll fetch you.
1005
01:29:31,209 --> 01:29:35,834
Oh, thanks, but, no, I'm sorry.
I can't just drop everything.
1006
01:29:35,917 --> 01:29:38,084
I'm sorry, Audrey.
1007
01:29:41,959 --> 01:29:44,751
Oh, my God.
She's got me mam's slippers.
1008
01:29:51,667 --> 01:29:53,751
Oh, God.
1009
01:30:15,709 --> 01:30:17,792
A Mam sandwich!
1010
01:30:22,501 --> 01:30:26,876
Our mother used to put
baking paper in our sandwiches
1011
01:30:26,959 --> 01:30:29,792
when we were children as a joke.
1012
01:30:40,292 --> 01:30:43,209
She was
a wonderful woman, our mother.
1013
01:30:51,584 --> 01:30:54,292
Audrey. Open the door.
1014
01:30:58,209 --> 01:31:00,084
Has she locked it?
1015
01:31:02,167 --> 01:31:03,501
Audrey?
1016
01:31:03,626 --> 01:31:06,501
Audrey, come on.
You're keeping everyone waiting.
1017
01:31:10,834 --> 01:31:13,334
I'll be with you
every step of the way, Audrey.
1018
01:31:13,459 --> 01:31:15,876
- No need to be afraid.
- I'm not afraid.
1019
01:31:17,626 --> 01:31:20,251
It could help you fill in the gaps.
1020
01:31:20,626 --> 01:31:22,876
Mind the gap.
1021
01:31:24,751 --> 01:31:27,042
Mind the gap.
1022
01:31:28,626 --> 01:31:31,251
I'm not gonna push you
to do anything, Audrey.
1023
01:31:31,334 --> 01:31:33,667
Push. Push.
1024
01:31:43,292 --> 01:31:45,917
? Will your anchor
1025
01:31:46,001 --> 01:31:51,876
? Hold in the storms of life
1026
01:31:52,584 --> 01:31:57,292
? When the clouds unfold
1027
01:31:57,376 --> 01:32:01,292
? Their wings of strife
1028
01:32:01,376 --> 01:32:04,751
? When the strong tides lift
1029
01:32:04,876 --> 01:32:08,959
? And the cables strain
1030
01:32:09,417 --> 01:32:12,626
? Will your anchor drift
1031
01:32:17,584 --> 01:32:23,209
? We have an anchor that keeps the soul
1032
01:32:23,334 --> 01:32:28,584
? Steadfast and sure
while the billows roll
1033
01:32:28,709 --> 01:32:33,626
? Fastened to the rock
which cannot move
1034
01:32:33,709 --> 01:32:39,459
? Grounded firm and deep
in our Saviour's love
1035
01:32:51,542 --> 01:32:54,584
- Come on! Quick!
- Coming!
1036
01:32:54,667 --> 01:32:58,209
Come on.
I'll race you up. Ready?
1037
01:32:59,417 --> 01:33:01,417
I can catch you.
1038
01:33:03,792 --> 01:33:06,209
We were wearing
our Sunday shoes.
1039
01:33:07,209 --> 01:33:08,959
Our best shoes.
1040
01:33:10,334 --> 01:33:12,626
We knew Mam wouldn't be happy.
1041
01:33:13,542 --> 01:33:16,417
Wait, Audrey.
1042
01:33:16,501 --> 01:33:18,626
Oh! Are you OK?
1043
01:33:19,667 --> 01:33:22,626
You can see how you can
easily slip and fall, Audrey.
1044
01:33:22,709 --> 01:33:24,584
I didn't slip!
1045
01:33:24,709 --> 01:33:27,334
We were playing hide-and-seek.
1046
01:33:27,917 --> 01:33:31,209
One moment I saw you,
and the next you were gone.
1047
01:33:32,751 --> 01:33:35,501
When she fell,
a rock ripped through her arm,
1048
01:33:35,584 --> 01:33:38,459
her artery, and your nerves.
1049
01:33:39,084 --> 01:33:41,792
The strange thing,
you... you didn't scream.
1050
01:33:43,001 --> 01:33:45,417
Dorothy!
1051
01:33:45,626 --> 01:33:47,459
I'll find ya!
1052
01:33:50,459 --> 01:33:53,542
Where have you gone?
1053
01:33:55,126 --> 01:33:59,001
Miss Hunter brought
us here after Father died.
1054
01:33:59,959 --> 01:34:03,876
Yeah. She wanted to help.
1055
01:34:05,459 --> 01:34:08,459
She was
leading me to my doom.
1056
01:34:08,709 --> 01:34:11,584
We... We stayed at the Seaman's Rest.
1057
01:34:12,292 --> 01:34:15,084
Miss, us and the retired sailors.
1058
01:34:15,417 --> 01:34:19,042
Miss Hunter had
some sort of arrangement there.
1059
01:34:20,209 --> 01:34:22,042
We played piano for them
1060
01:34:22,126 --> 01:34:24,376
and we all sang the hymn together,
1061
01:34:24,459 --> 01:34:25,792
Will Your Anchor Hold.
1062
01:34:25,876 --> 01:34:31,084
? Fastened
to the rock which cannot move.
1063
01:34:32,292 --> 01:34:35,417
I... was down there,
1064
01:34:35,501 --> 01:34:38,292
hiding, when it happened.
1065
01:34:46,501 --> 01:34:50,792
Ten, nine, eight,
1066
01:34:50,876 --> 01:34:53,876
seven, six...
1067
01:34:55,834 --> 01:34:59,001
Five, four, three, two, one.
1068
01:34:59,084 --> 01:35:01,001
Here I come, ready or not!
1069
01:35:01,084 --> 01:35:03,251
After the accident,
1070
01:35:03,334 --> 01:35:06,667
Audrey managed to run up there and...
1071
01:35:09,959 --> 01:35:11,876
I looked up
1072
01:35:12,126 --> 01:35:17,042
and this, erm, smartly dressed man
1073
01:35:18,459 --> 01:35:21,084
he... he came to our rescue
1074
01:35:21,167 --> 01:35:23,959
and she... she was clinging to him,
1075
01:35:24,042 --> 01:35:26,501
and your blood was pouring.
1076
01:35:27,209 --> 01:35:28,667
Later on, our mother offered
1077
01:35:28,751 --> 01:35:31,417
to get his suit professionally dry cleaned.
1078
01:35:31,501 --> 01:35:35,042
He managed to find a wheelbarrow
to put Audrey in
1079
01:35:35,126 --> 01:35:37,251
to take her across the moor
and to the road...
1080
01:35:37,334 --> 01:35:41,001
Ten, nine, eight, seven...
1081
01:35:41,084 --> 01:35:42,626
- There's something else.
- What?
1082
01:35:42,709 --> 01:35:44,917
You had it in for me!.
1083
01:35:46,042 --> 01:35:48,917
How could you even think that?
1084
01:35:50,792 --> 01:35:54,126
I had nothing to do with your falling.
1085
01:35:55,167 --> 01:35:58,876
I looked up to you.
You were my greatest companion.
1086
01:36:03,042 --> 01:36:05,459
You said there was
something else, Dorothy.
1087
01:36:06,209 --> 01:36:08,334
Well, it's not important.
1088
01:36:08,542 --> 01:36:11,126
- You never know.
- It's...
1089
01:36:12,209 --> 01:36:15,792
It's just, erm, Audrey
wasn't wearing her glasses.
1090
01:36:19,834 --> 01:36:21,501
You couldn't see.
1091
01:36:22,126 --> 01:36:24,001
You tripped.
1092
01:36:28,001 --> 01:36:29,751
Pouting Pamela and Jimmy Cragg,
1093
01:36:29,834 --> 01:36:32,001
they only had eyes for each other.
1094
01:36:33,626 --> 01:36:38,334
Over the years, I figured out
Dorothy engineered my fall
1095
01:36:38,751 --> 01:36:40,834
in cahoots with Miss Hunter.
1096
01:36:48,959 --> 01:36:51,792
I used to take my glasses off
1097
01:36:52,126 --> 01:36:55,417
before I felt a bout of insanity coming on.
1098
01:36:56,917 --> 01:36:59,167
Audrey! Don't! You can't see!.
1099
01:36:59,334 --> 01:37:04,084
Ten, nine, eight, seven, six,
1100
01:37:04,251 --> 01:37:07,834
- five, four, three, two, one.
- Audrey!
1101
01:37:08,292 --> 01:37:10,792
Here I come ready or not!.
1102
01:37:53,709 --> 01:37:55,959
Oh, this is proof.
1103
01:37:57,209 --> 01:37:59,959
I've had demons and angels!
1104
01:38:11,084 --> 01:38:13,584
My fall was nothing to do with Dorothy.
1105
01:38:15,667 --> 01:38:17,626
- I'm sorry, Dorothy.
- Oh...
1106
01:38:18,584 --> 01:38:20,417
I'm sorry.
1107
01:38:21,209 --> 01:38:24,084
- I'm sorry.
- It's not your fault.
1108
01:38:25,042 --> 01:38:27,584
You're not to blame, Audrey.
1109
01:38:27,792 --> 01:38:29,917
You never were.
1110
01:40:20,542 --> 01:40:23,542
? Bus, telephone boxes, waiting
1111
01:40:23,626 --> 01:40:27,709
? People, railings, dusk,
Trafalgar Square
1112
01:40:27,792 --> 01:40:30,751
? Bus, telephone boxes, waiting
1113
01:40:30,834 --> 01:40:33,459
? People, railings, Trafalgar Square
1114
01:40:33,542 --> 01:40:36,292
? Bus, telephone boxes, waiting
1115
01:40:36,376 --> 01:40:40,167
? People, railings, Trafalgar Square
1116
01:40:40,251 --> 01:40:43,376
? Bus, telephone boxes, waiting
1117
01:40:43,459 --> 01:40:51,334
? People, railings, Trafalgar Square
1118
01:42:22,584 --> 01:42:24,376
? Put down the booze
1119
01:42:24,459 --> 01:42:28,417
? Let the demons win the fight
1120
01:42:28,501 --> 01:42:33,876
? I dropped my gloves to the ground
1121
01:42:34,542 --> 01:42:36,459
? You know I'm sorry
1122
01:42:36,542 --> 01:42:39,376
? For the times I made you cry
1123
01:42:39,459 --> 01:42:44,834
? I made an art of letting you down
1124
01:42:46,751 --> 01:42:51,542
? I used to say it's only me I'm hurting
1125
01:42:51,626 --> 01:42:56,834
? But I saw you on the stairs
1126
01:42:58,709 --> 01:43:00,542
? The kid was crying
1127
01:43:00,626 --> 01:43:03,501
? And the dogs were howling
1128
01:43:03,584 --> 01:43:08,459
? And a siren filled the air
1129
01:43:34,417 --> 01:43:39,792
? Tempted myself time and time again
1130
01:43:40,334 --> 01:43:44,917
? Like self-destruction was so cool
1131
01:43:46,667 --> 01:43:51,376
? I mocked your tears
and I scarred your heart
1132
01:43:51,459 --> 01:43:53,959
? I blamed the past
1133
01:43:54,042 --> 01:43:57,542
? And I blamed you
1134
01:43:58,667 --> 01:44:04,292
? I used to say it's only me I'm hurting
1135
01:44:05,126 --> 01:44:10,209
? But I saw you on the stairs
1136
01:44:10,626 --> 01:44:12,501
? The kid was crying
1137
01:44:12,584 --> 01:44:15,542
? And the dogs were howling
1138
01:44:15,626 --> 01:44:20,459
? And a siren filled the air
1139
01:44:46,126 --> 01:44:54,126
? Or will I be king