1 00:00:02,603 --> 00:00:06,005 - Everybody is dropping like flies because of COVID. 2 00:00:06,073 --> 00:00:07,740 - [coughing] 3 00:00:07,808 --> 00:00:10,109 - I feel drained. 4 00:00:10,177 --> 00:00:12,277 - So you want to reach out to the Edwards 5 00:00:12,346 --> 00:00:14,980 to see if they'll come out 6 00:00:15,049 --> 00:00:17,383 for a healthier dynamic for Bentley? 7 00:00:17,451 --> 00:00:20,652 - So I texted Jen to see if she could 8 00:00:20,721 --> 00:00:23,022 or was willing to come out here. 9 00:00:23,090 --> 00:00:27,793 Hopefully we can get to a better place, but who knows? 10 00:00:27,862 --> 00:00:31,430 - I was ignorant to a lot that my dad was dealing with. 11 00:00:31,499 --> 00:00:32,865 - What was he dealing with, Kiaya? 12 00:00:32,933 --> 00:00:34,099 - Well, he overdosed. 13 00:00:34,168 --> 00:00:35,968 I thought he would always be here. 14 00:00:36,037 --> 00:00:37,803 [soft dramatic music] 15 00:00:37,872 --> 00:00:39,304 - So I'm having a special engagement party 16 00:00:39,373 --> 00:00:40,706 for Jade tonight. 17 00:00:40,775 --> 00:00:42,408 I'm so excited Sean's coming. 18 00:00:42,476 --> 00:00:44,610 - Surprise! 19 00:00:44,678 --> 00:00:48,213 [all cheering] 20 00:00:48,282 --> 00:00:50,115 - Jade and Sean are getting married! 21 00:00:50,184 --> 00:00:52,618 - Yeah, whoo! 22 00:00:52,686 --> 00:00:54,053 [The Chainsmokers and Kygo's "Family"] 23 00:00:54,121 --> 00:00:55,354 - ♪ I know some people ♪ 24 00:00:55,423 --> 00:00:57,923 ♪ They would die for me, die for me ♪ 25 00:00:57,992 --> 00:01:01,794 ♪ We run together, they're my family ♪ 26 00:01:01,862 --> 00:01:07,166 ♪ I'll say forever, my family ♪ 27 00:01:07,234 --> 00:01:13,038 - ♪ What I want, this is what I want ♪ 28 00:01:13,107 --> 00:01:16,141 - I'm just happy I made it almost to the end. 29 00:01:16,210 --> 00:01:18,177 - COVID-free. 30 00:01:18,245 --> 00:01:19,845 - Now at this point, it's Amber, 31 00:01:19,914 --> 00:01:21,680 Cate, and April that has COVID. 32 00:01:21,749 --> 00:01:24,116 Kayla also has it, and then her mom too. 33 00:01:24,185 --> 00:01:26,685 So I feel like half of us 34 00:01:26,754 --> 00:01:29,822 has either had to leave or has COVID now. 35 00:01:29,890 --> 00:01:33,759 At least Sean and Zach are here with us. 36 00:01:33,828 --> 00:01:36,662 - [bleep] COVID. Let's clean this house. 37 00:01:36,730 --> 00:01:38,997 I'm too close to the end of the reunion. 38 00:01:39,066 --> 00:01:40,532 Hopefully, I don't get exposed. 39 00:01:40,601 --> 00:01:42,167 I'm getting kind of nervous because everybody 40 00:01:42,236 --> 00:01:44,203 is catching it, and I'm just praying 41 00:01:44,271 --> 00:01:46,105 every day, literally on my knees 42 00:01:46,173 --> 00:01:48,207 praying that I don't get COVID. 43 00:01:48,275 --> 00:01:50,776 - You should never be this excited to clean up. 44 00:01:50,845 --> 00:01:52,377 - Yeah, I'm excited as [bleep]. 45 00:01:52,446 --> 00:01:54,646 - Where did you even find these? 46 00:01:54,715 --> 00:01:57,649 - I feel like the hazmat suit makes me feel 47 00:01:57,718 --> 00:01:59,685 like I'm in a dangerous situation. 48 00:01:59,753 --> 00:02:01,687 So I guess the hazmat suit's making me want 49 00:02:01,755 --> 00:02:04,089 to, like, disinfect more. I don't know. 50 00:02:04,158 --> 00:02:06,658 Germs stand no chance again just us. 51 00:02:07,962 --> 00:02:10,162 - Whoo! 52 00:02:10,231 --> 00:02:13,232 - COVID will die in this house today. 53 00:02:13,300 --> 00:02:14,833 [laughing] 54 00:02:14,902 --> 00:02:17,970 - ♪ We go right now, looking at a star right now ♪ 55 00:02:18,038 --> 00:02:19,771 - I actually like this hazmat suit. 56 00:02:19,840 --> 00:02:21,273 I might bring it home with me. 57 00:02:21,342 --> 00:02:22,474 - ♪ Looking at a star right now ♪ 58 00:02:22,543 --> 00:02:24,276 ♪ Looking at a star ♪ 59 00:02:24,345 --> 00:02:27,279 - Whoo! 60 00:02:27,348 --> 00:02:28,947 [upbeat hip-hop music] 61 00:02:29,016 --> 00:02:31,216 - One thing about Kiaya, she's gonna twerk. 62 00:02:31,285 --> 00:02:33,819 But in the hazmat suit, so much ass. 63 00:02:33,888 --> 00:02:36,155 [chuckling] So much going on. 64 00:02:36,223 --> 00:02:38,290 [bleep]. - Bad bitches kill bad germs. 65 00:02:38,359 --> 00:02:39,958 - Period. 66 00:02:40,027 --> 00:02:41,426 - ♪ It's my life ♪ 67 00:02:41,495 --> 00:02:42,694 ♪ I'm gonna own it ♪ 68 00:02:42,763 --> 00:02:44,429 ♪ Doing what I want ♪ 69 00:02:47,268 --> 00:02:48,200 [upbeat pop music] 70 00:02:48,269 --> 00:02:50,802 - ♪ I'm gonna own it ♪ 71 00:02:50,871 --> 00:02:54,640 - That wasn't good. That wasn't good either. 72 00:02:54,708 --> 00:02:58,177 Oh, no. Oh, no, what am I doing? 73 00:02:58,245 --> 00:02:59,411 ♪ ♪ 74 00:02:59,480 --> 00:03:02,548 I hate this club. Not even gonna waste my time. 75 00:03:03,884 --> 00:03:06,418 [phone ringing] 76 00:03:06,487 --> 00:03:08,587 - Hello. 77 00:03:08,656 --> 00:03:11,123 - Hey, I was trying to see if you were gonna 78 00:03:11,192 --> 00:03:13,992 come over to the house. - No, they won't let me. 79 00:03:14,061 --> 00:03:15,794 I tested positive for COVID. 80 00:03:15,863 --> 00:03:19,431 - What? Are you feeling OK? 81 00:03:19,500 --> 00:03:21,099 - Yeah, I feel fine. 82 00:03:21,168 --> 00:03:24,036 So I'll be in here by myself 83 00:03:24,104 --> 00:03:25,804 for the next-- who knows how many days? 84 00:03:25,873 --> 00:03:27,272 At least five. 85 00:03:27,341 --> 00:03:29,274 - Oh, my goodness. 86 00:03:29,343 --> 00:03:32,444 This reunion, me and my mom, we've grown so much, 87 00:03:32,513 --> 00:03:34,846 and it sucks 'cause I can't just be like, 88 00:03:34,915 --> 00:03:36,014 "Oh, let me go give her a hug" 89 00:03:36,083 --> 00:03:37,549 because she's quarantining. 90 00:03:37,618 --> 00:03:39,551 So you're not even having any symptoms? 91 00:03:39,620 --> 00:03:40,886 You're just positive? 92 00:03:40,955 --> 00:03:43,155 - [coughs] Yeah. 93 00:03:43,224 --> 00:03:45,457 COVID [bleep] sucks. [coughs] 94 00:03:45,526 --> 00:03:47,626 No contact with the outside world. 95 00:03:47,695 --> 00:03:49,528 [coughs] And I've-- 96 00:03:53,133 --> 00:03:55,300 Perfect. I'm having a great time. 97 00:03:55,369 --> 00:03:56,868 What a vacay. 98 00:03:56,937 --> 00:03:59,371 All right, I love you. - I love you too. 99 00:03:59,440 --> 00:04:00,806 I'll check in with you later. 100 00:04:00,874 --> 00:04:07,813 ♪ ♪ 101 00:04:07,881 --> 00:04:09,314 - I wish they had, like, a shower-- 102 00:04:09,383 --> 00:04:11,183 I'm just throwing a bench in that shower. 103 00:04:11,252 --> 00:04:12,884 - Don't want to--probably would scratch the bathtub. 104 00:04:12,953 --> 00:04:14,152 - Yeah. 105 00:04:14,221 --> 00:04:15,654 I mean, for three straight days, 106 00:04:15,723 --> 00:04:18,390 I woke up every day thinking it was, like, the same day. 107 00:04:18,459 --> 00:04:20,993 Like, when all the girls leave the house at night, 108 00:04:21,061 --> 00:04:23,228 can't I go use the hot tub if nobody's there? 109 00:04:23,297 --> 00:04:26,031 - I don't know. - It's outside. 110 00:04:26,100 --> 00:04:28,166 - Quarantine is [bleep]. I hate it. 111 00:04:28,235 --> 00:04:29,901 I can't-- I'm losing my mind. 112 00:04:29,970 --> 00:04:31,103 Cate's losing her mind. 113 00:04:31,171 --> 00:04:33,338 I hate it. I hate quarantine. 114 00:04:33,407 --> 00:04:34,606 - Sweet night. - [laughs] 115 00:04:34,675 --> 00:04:35,874 - All right, I love you. 116 00:04:35,943 --> 00:04:38,176 - I love you. - Good night. 117 00:04:38,245 --> 00:04:40,746 - ♪ Can't deal with things ♪ 118 00:04:40,814 --> 00:04:43,849 ♪ Taking all my problems, stuff them in a closet ♪ 119 00:04:43,917 --> 00:04:46,918 ♪ I can't deal with things ♪ 120 00:04:46,987 --> 00:04:50,922 - My mom decides to set up a session with Coach B. 121 00:04:50,991 --> 00:04:53,959 'cause she knows that I'm just not feeling it today. 122 00:04:54,028 --> 00:04:56,895 - So how you feeling? - I just want to go lay down. 123 00:04:56,964 --> 00:05:00,399 I'm just not having a good day. - Yeah. 124 00:05:00,467 --> 00:05:02,401 - Tomorrow is my dad's birthday, 125 00:05:02,469 --> 00:05:03,969 and it's always pretty hard for me. 126 00:05:04,038 --> 00:05:07,739 - I mean, I know why, so I understand. 127 00:05:10,944 --> 00:05:12,411 - Hi, ladies. - Hi. 128 00:05:12,479 --> 00:05:13,845 - Hi. 129 00:05:13,914 --> 00:05:15,080 - It's good that we have a session 130 00:05:15,149 --> 00:05:18,116 with Coach B today because I feel like 131 00:05:18,185 --> 00:05:19,518 Kiaya can really use it. 132 00:05:19,586 --> 00:05:21,086 I can't help her with everything, 133 00:05:21,155 --> 00:05:24,056 and sometimes it takes another person 134 00:05:24,124 --> 00:05:25,891 to try to get her to open up. 135 00:05:25,959 --> 00:05:29,628 - So you've been OK? - Mm-hmm. 136 00:05:29,697 --> 00:05:32,064 - I know you mentioned the other night 137 00:05:32,132 --> 00:05:33,598 at the team building exercise 138 00:05:33,667 --> 00:05:35,233 that I think you said your dad's birthday 139 00:05:35,302 --> 00:05:36,568 was coming up? - Yeah, it's tomorrow. 140 00:05:36,637 --> 00:05:38,904 - It's tomorrow. - It is tomorrow. 141 00:05:38,972 --> 00:05:40,939 How are you processing that? How's it going? 142 00:05:41,008 --> 00:05:42,107 - I want to go lay down. 143 00:05:42,176 --> 00:05:43,608 I don't really feel like talking to nobody. 144 00:05:43,677 --> 00:05:45,077 - You don't want to talk about it? 145 00:05:45,145 --> 00:05:46,812 - No. 146 00:05:46,880 --> 00:05:48,380 It's a void that will never get filled, 147 00:05:48,449 --> 00:05:52,351 and talking about it, it doesn't help the fact. 148 00:05:52,419 --> 00:05:54,319 It just reminds me of it. 149 00:05:54,388 --> 00:05:57,522 I just have to accept it. 150 00:05:57,591 --> 00:05:59,791 I don't know if I'll ever be able to accept it. 151 00:05:59,860 --> 00:06:02,494 I want something that I can't have, 152 00:06:02,563 --> 00:06:05,464 so I'm trying to figure out how to get over 153 00:06:05,532 --> 00:06:07,499 that want for something that I can't have 154 00:06:07,568 --> 00:06:10,268 'cause, like, I can talk to him all day, 155 00:06:10,337 --> 00:06:11,937 but I'm looking for a response. 156 00:06:12,005 --> 00:06:16,341 I'm looking for a hug or something, 157 00:06:16,410 --> 00:06:21,313 you know? Stuff that I won't get. 158 00:06:21,382 --> 00:06:24,983 - Mom, what do you think? - I feel helpless. 159 00:06:25,052 --> 00:06:28,653 I never know what to do. 160 00:06:28,722 --> 00:06:29,788 It's like, do I bring him up? 161 00:06:29,857 --> 00:06:31,089 Do I not bring him up? 162 00:06:31,158 --> 00:06:33,024 Because it's like if you're having a good day, 163 00:06:33,093 --> 00:06:34,559 I don't want to bring him up 164 00:06:34,628 --> 00:06:36,695 and now you're having a bad day because now you're sad. 165 00:06:36,764 --> 00:06:39,664 - Nothing will make me sadder than I already am. 166 00:06:39,733 --> 00:06:41,466 It's like I can't get any worse. 167 00:06:41,535 --> 00:06:43,468 She should stop walking on eggshells 168 00:06:43,537 --> 00:06:48,173 'cause it's like I'm already at the lowest, you know? 169 00:06:48,242 --> 00:06:50,642 - Yeah, I get that. 170 00:06:50,711 --> 00:06:53,311 - But I still feel like-- then it starts-- 171 00:06:53,380 --> 00:06:55,147 I start to feel guilty. 172 00:06:55,215 --> 00:06:58,850 I'm sorry for not going to the football game with him 173 00:06:58,919 --> 00:07:00,552 the night that he passed away. 174 00:07:00,621 --> 00:07:03,388 He asked me to go to a game with him, and I didn't go. 175 00:07:03,457 --> 00:07:06,992 - You're not giving yourself no compassion. 176 00:07:07,060 --> 00:07:09,060 I'm talking about zero compassion. 177 00:07:09,129 --> 00:07:10,829 You were being a kid, Kiaya. 178 00:07:10,898 --> 00:07:12,864 You weren't sitting at home intentionally trying 179 00:07:12,933 --> 00:07:14,433 to not answer a phone call. 180 00:07:14,501 --> 00:07:16,034 You were a kid. - Yeah. 181 00:07:16,103 --> 00:07:17,569 - You're still a very young lady. 182 00:07:17,638 --> 00:07:19,571 Still working through stuff. 183 00:07:19,640 --> 00:07:22,407 You got to forgive yourself. 184 00:07:22,476 --> 00:07:26,311 - I always get emotional when Kiaya get emotional 185 00:07:26,380 --> 00:07:28,079 when it comes to her dad. 186 00:07:28,148 --> 00:07:29,981 The guilt that Kiaya says she has, 187 00:07:30,050 --> 00:07:34,920 we had--our last conversation was me fussing him out, 188 00:07:34,988 --> 00:07:38,056 and three weeks later, he passed away, 189 00:07:38,125 --> 00:07:40,425 so I get what she means. 190 00:07:40,494 --> 00:07:43,361 [sighs] 191 00:07:43,430 --> 00:07:44,896 God damn it. 192 00:07:47,801 --> 00:07:51,269 - How can we make his birthday 193 00:07:51,338 --> 00:07:53,705 from tomorrow on 194 00:07:53,774 --> 00:07:57,742 something that represents you forgiving yourself, 195 00:07:57,811 --> 00:08:01,847 that represents you knowing it wasn't your fault, 196 00:08:01,915 --> 00:08:05,083 and shifting that energy from guilt 197 00:08:05,152 --> 00:08:08,520 to, "I'm gonna celebrate my daddy? 198 00:08:08,589 --> 00:08:10,355 I'm gonna celebrate my daddy." 199 00:08:10,424 --> 00:08:11,723 And mom, of course, you know, 200 00:08:11,792 --> 00:08:14,459 this is where you can help her. 201 00:08:14,528 --> 00:08:16,828 How do you celebrate him on these days? 202 00:08:16,897 --> 00:08:18,930 - Yeah. - Can you do that? 203 00:08:18,999 --> 00:08:20,131 - Yeah. 204 00:08:20,200 --> 00:08:22,367 - Good job. - Thank you. 205 00:08:22,436 --> 00:08:24,769 - Great job. 206 00:08:24,838 --> 00:08:26,338 I'm so proud of you. 207 00:08:26,406 --> 00:08:28,540 - Thank you. - Give me some love. 208 00:08:28,609 --> 00:08:31,243 I'ma leave you ladies here, OK? - Thank you so much. 209 00:08:31,311 --> 00:08:33,245 Thank you so much. 210 00:08:33,313 --> 00:08:35,013 I really miss my dad, 211 00:08:35,082 --> 00:08:38,250 but it's time for me to start to find different ways 212 00:08:38,318 --> 00:08:40,852 to cope and deal with his passing. 213 00:08:44,258 --> 00:08:47,225 [upbeat pop music] 214 00:08:47,294 --> 00:08:48,927 - [whispers] OK, we'll leave that. 215 00:08:48,996 --> 00:08:50,228 ♪ ♪ 216 00:08:50,297 --> 00:08:54,533 So Kayla, her mom, and Jaime are left. 217 00:08:54,601 --> 00:08:56,701 - So I open my door, and I find 218 00:08:56,770 --> 00:08:58,937 this cute, little get well soon card 219 00:08:59,006 --> 00:09:01,106 from Cheyenne, and that was super sweet. 220 00:09:01,174 --> 00:09:03,041 Like, Cheyenne's just got such a kind heart. 221 00:09:03,110 --> 00:09:06,611 - Last one's for Jaime. I hope she's feeling OK. 222 00:09:06,680 --> 00:09:09,915 [dramatic music] 223 00:09:14,688 --> 00:09:16,254 - I never got one. 224 00:09:16,323 --> 00:09:17,522 [coughs] 225 00:09:17,591 --> 00:09:19,057 I put in six days of COVID, damn it. 226 00:09:19,126 --> 00:09:21,159 I want my card, [bleep]. 227 00:09:21,228 --> 00:09:22,894 [chuckles] 228 00:09:22,963 --> 00:09:23,895 [upbeat music] 229 00:09:23,964 --> 00:09:25,764 [phone chimes] 230 00:09:25,832 --> 00:09:27,933 [phone whooshes] 231 00:09:28,001 --> 00:09:30,101 ♪ ♪ 232 00:09:30,170 --> 00:09:32,203 - Jen wrote me back, and sadly, 233 00:09:32,272 --> 00:09:34,940 she isn't able to come to this reunion. 234 00:09:35,008 --> 00:09:38,944 ♪ ♪ 235 00:09:39,012 --> 00:09:41,079 I mean, the door is open, and I think 236 00:09:41,148 --> 00:09:45,150 when we're both ready, maybe we can 237 00:09:45,218 --> 00:09:47,919 turn this ship around. 238 00:09:47,988 --> 00:09:49,588 - ♪ In the sky ♪ 239 00:09:49,656 --> 00:09:51,656 ♪ Can you see me up in the air going through above ♪ 240 00:09:51,725 --> 00:09:53,992 ♪ And ZZ as if nothing was there ♪ 241 00:09:54,061 --> 00:09:55,393 ♪ I ain't ever been scared ♪ 242 00:09:55,462 --> 00:09:57,062 ♪ So we climbing through the levels of it 243 00:09:57,130 --> 00:09:59,564 - Hey y'all. - Yo, what's up? 244 00:09:59,633 --> 00:10:00,966 - Hey. - Hey. 245 00:10:01,034 --> 00:10:02,601 - Let's party. 246 00:10:02,669 --> 00:10:04,803 - What are we having a party for? 247 00:10:04,871 --> 00:10:06,838 - Today is my dad's birthday. 248 00:10:06,907 --> 00:10:09,240 So happy heavenly birthday to him. 249 00:10:09,309 --> 00:10:11,743 And then my mom's birthday is in two days. 250 00:10:11,812 --> 00:10:12,944 - Aww. 251 00:10:13,013 --> 00:10:15,480 - Talking to Coach B made me realize 252 00:10:15,549 --> 00:10:17,482 maybe I should try to change the way 253 00:10:17,551 --> 00:10:20,619 that I remember my dad on his birthday 254 00:10:20,687 --> 00:10:22,687 and turn it into a positive thing. 255 00:10:22,756 --> 00:10:24,589 So we have two cakes, 256 00:10:24,658 --> 00:10:26,358 one for my mom, one for my dad. 257 00:10:26,426 --> 00:10:28,493 - Does your mom know that we're doing this? 258 00:10:28,562 --> 00:10:30,161 - No, she does not know. 259 00:10:30,230 --> 00:10:32,197 I don't know what she thinks I'm doing right now, 260 00:10:32,265 --> 00:10:35,600 but she's, like, in the room on the phone or something. 261 00:10:35,669 --> 00:10:37,335 - I'ma be a good sport, and I'ma get a little hat. 262 00:10:37,404 --> 00:10:38,803 - I'm coming to help. 263 00:10:38,872 --> 00:10:41,072 - Please, Chey, put one over that little bun. 264 00:10:41,141 --> 00:10:42,507 [laughter] 265 00:10:42,576 --> 00:10:44,876 It look like ice cream cone right now. 266 00:10:44,945 --> 00:10:47,012 We got a little rocky road under there. 267 00:10:47,080 --> 00:10:48,480 - All right, all right. 268 00:10:48,548 --> 00:10:49,614 [laughter] 269 00:10:49,683 --> 00:10:50,949 - I'm gonna put it on this corner. 270 00:10:51,018 --> 00:10:52,150 You put it on that one. - It's short. 271 00:10:52,219 --> 00:10:53,985 I got to work smarter, not harder. 272 00:10:54,054 --> 00:10:55,820 ♪ ♪ 273 00:10:55,889 --> 00:11:00,492 - I really like seeing Kiaya giving herself this day 274 00:11:00,560 --> 00:11:02,927 to celebrate her dad's life. 275 00:11:02,996 --> 00:11:04,029 It's not easy to do, 276 00:11:04,097 --> 00:11:05,664 and I'm just really proud of her. 277 00:11:05,732 --> 00:11:07,198 - I'm about to go ahead and call my mom 278 00:11:07,267 --> 00:11:09,000 and tell her to come over. 279 00:11:09,069 --> 00:11:10,902 [line trilling] - Hello. 280 00:11:10,971 --> 00:11:13,538 - Hey, Mom, what are you doing? - Nothing. 281 00:11:13,607 --> 00:11:18,376 - We was in, like, a meeting, like, just like the girls. 282 00:11:18,445 --> 00:11:21,346 - OK, that's cool. 283 00:11:21,415 --> 00:11:23,081 - You can come on to the house if you want to. 284 00:11:23,150 --> 00:11:24,849 - All right, OK. - All right. 285 00:11:24,918 --> 00:11:27,052 - All right, bye. - You're a bad liar. 286 00:11:27,120 --> 00:11:28,219 - No! 287 00:11:28,288 --> 00:11:30,055 - We was in, like, uh... - Uh, a meeting... 288 00:11:30,123 --> 00:11:32,657 - With--uh, with the girls. - Uh, just, uh... 289 00:11:32,726 --> 00:11:34,893 - Oh, she's in the front. I see her. 290 00:11:34,961 --> 00:11:37,028 - Uh-oh, here we go again. - Is she coming? 291 00:11:37,097 --> 00:11:38,763 - Gotta hide. 292 00:11:38,832 --> 00:11:40,665 - Is everyone hiding? 293 00:11:40,734 --> 00:11:42,667 - How long are we gonna be dipping? 294 00:11:42,736 --> 00:11:45,437 - That's--no, but my knees don't do that no more. 295 00:11:45,505 --> 00:11:47,605 - I put in a lot of thought in this, 296 00:11:47,674 --> 00:11:51,676 and this took a lot of emotion and a lot of strength from me, 297 00:11:51,745 --> 00:11:54,579 so I hope my mom is really satisfied with the party. 298 00:11:54,648 --> 00:11:56,114 [dramatic music] 299 00:11:56,183 --> 00:11:59,284 [together] Surprise! 300 00:11:59,352 --> 00:12:01,419 - Happy birthday! - Oh! 301 00:12:01,488 --> 00:12:04,556 - Happy birthday. - Happy birthday, Mommy. 302 00:12:04,624 --> 00:12:06,458 - Happy birthday. - Thank you. 303 00:12:06,526 --> 00:12:08,226 Y'all gonna make me cry. - We got you a little banner. 304 00:12:08,295 --> 00:12:09,794 - Oh, don't cry. - We got you a little sash. 305 00:12:09,863 --> 00:12:12,430 - Yep, you got a sash and a hat. 306 00:12:12,499 --> 00:12:15,233 - I see some balloons and some little streamers. 307 00:12:15,302 --> 00:12:18,870 I am so surprised. Like, I couldn't believe it. 308 00:12:18,939 --> 00:12:21,106 - Mom, why are you crying? 309 00:12:21,174 --> 00:12:22,707 - Because it's sweet. Thank you. 310 00:12:22,776 --> 00:12:23,842 - Don't cry. 311 00:12:26,012 --> 00:12:27,412 - You know the grandmas are leaving, 312 00:12:27,481 --> 00:12:28,880 so we got to, you know, celebrate. 313 00:12:28,949 --> 00:12:30,949 - I know. I don't want to leave. 314 00:12:31,017 --> 00:12:33,451 - You guys are our last two standing. 315 00:12:33,520 --> 00:12:36,321 - A couple of us grandmas are leaving the resort soon, 316 00:12:36,389 --> 00:12:38,223 but it's the perfect way to say goodbye. 317 00:12:38,291 --> 00:12:40,258 Everybody is celebrating my birthday, 318 00:12:40,327 --> 00:12:41,793 but it's kind of bittersweet 319 00:12:41,862 --> 00:12:43,995 'cause I don't want to go home, but I'm ready to go home, 320 00:12:44,064 --> 00:12:45,497 but I don't want to go home. 321 00:12:45,565 --> 00:12:47,298 - Kiaya, you gonna do your dad's cake? 322 00:12:47,367 --> 00:12:48,633 - Yeah. - Did you see this? 323 00:12:48,702 --> 00:12:51,102 We're celebrating both you guys. 324 00:12:51,171 --> 00:12:53,938 - The fact that Kiaya is thinking about me 325 00:12:54,007 --> 00:12:57,275 in a time that she's hurting so bad, it was just special. 326 00:12:57,344 --> 00:12:59,110 - It's OK, Mommy. 327 00:12:59,179 --> 00:13:00,545 - Ready. - All right. 328 00:13:00,614 --> 00:13:01,780 - Gotta blow out your candles. 329 00:13:01,848 --> 00:13:03,248 - Blow out the candles. 330 00:13:06,153 --> 00:13:07,218 - Yeah. 331 00:13:07,287 --> 00:13:09,120 [applause] 332 00:13:09,189 --> 00:13:11,956 - I'm about to cry. - I want cake though. 333 00:13:13,426 --> 00:13:14,526 - Aw. 334 00:13:14,594 --> 00:13:16,261 - Hey, what's something that you guys 335 00:13:16,329 --> 00:13:18,663 are gonna take from this experience 336 00:13:18,732 --> 00:13:21,132 that you learned from Coach B? - Going deep. 337 00:13:21,201 --> 00:13:24,269 - I definitely feel like it's OK for me to be more open, 338 00:13:24,337 --> 00:13:27,338 and that's not even me taking it from just Coach B, 339 00:13:27,407 --> 00:13:29,107 but from all of you all. 340 00:13:29,176 --> 00:13:31,709 Seeing everybody be so open and so vulnerable 341 00:13:31,778 --> 00:13:34,045 and not feel, like, ashamed about it, 342 00:13:34,114 --> 00:13:35,980 it helped me open up because I felt like 343 00:13:36,049 --> 00:13:38,416 it was OK for me to be vulnerable too. 344 00:13:38,485 --> 00:13:39,884 So when I get home, that's something 345 00:13:39,953 --> 00:13:41,152 that I'm gonna try to work on. 346 00:13:41,221 --> 00:13:42,654 I'ma try to be more vocal. 347 00:13:42,722 --> 00:13:44,289 - I just appreciate my relationship 348 00:13:44,357 --> 00:13:45,824 with all the moms. 349 00:13:45,892 --> 00:13:47,826 Our bond is so strong. 350 00:13:47,894 --> 00:13:49,327 And I feel like those relationships 351 00:13:49,396 --> 00:13:50,695 are hard to come by. 352 00:13:50,764 --> 00:13:52,230 - You gonna realize once you do that, 353 00:13:52,299 --> 00:13:53,498 get all that off your chest, 354 00:13:53,567 --> 00:13:54,833 how much lighter you feel. - Yeah. 355 00:13:54,901 --> 00:13:56,201 - Yeah. - Yeah. 356 00:13:56,269 --> 00:13:57,535 - You just gonna feel at peace with yourself. 357 00:13:57,604 --> 00:13:59,070 - Yeah. - Yeah. 358 00:13:59,139 --> 00:14:00,538 - It feels really good to know 359 00:14:00,607 --> 00:14:01,906 that I'm not alone in some of the things 360 00:14:01,975 --> 00:14:03,374 that I'm dealing with. 361 00:14:03,443 --> 00:14:05,476 Sitting here and being able to talk and celebrate 362 00:14:05,545 --> 00:14:07,912 with everybody really put me out of the funky mood 363 00:14:07,981 --> 00:14:09,414 that I was in. 364 00:14:09,482 --> 00:14:11,850 So it's really nice to have the support. 365 00:14:11,918 --> 00:14:13,952 - Cheers. - Cheers, thank you. 366 00:14:14,020 --> 00:14:16,855 [plucky orchestral music] 367 00:14:16,923 --> 00:14:20,191 ♪ ♪ 368 00:14:20,260 --> 00:14:21,893 - [snoring] 369 00:14:21,962 --> 00:14:23,795 ♪ ♪ 370 00:14:23,864 --> 00:14:26,231 - This quarantine sucks. 371 00:14:26,299 --> 00:14:29,534 There's nothing to do. I'm bored all alone. 372 00:14:29,603 --> 00:14:32,437 ♪ ♪ 373 00:14:32,505 --> 00:14:33,972 - Babe. 374 00:14:36,276 --> 00:14:38,910 - ♪ Everyone, they tell me, they tell me lies ♪ 375 00:14:38,979 --> 00:14:40,612 ♪ And it doesn't mean it ♪ 376 00:14:40,680 --> 00:14:42,380 [upbeat pop music] 377 00:14:42,449 --> 00:14:43,915 - It's so nerve-wracking, 378 00:14:43,984 --> 00:14:46,084 like, waiting on the results of the COVID test. 379 00:14:46,152 --> 00:14:47,819 It's like-- - Every day. 380 00:14:47,888 --> 00:14:49,120 - Yeah, it's like-- 381 00:14:49,189 --> 00:14:50,555 - I just, like, keep refreshing. 382 00:14:50,624 --> 00:14:52,290 - Please let me be negative. Please let me be negative. 383 00:14:52,359 --> 00:14:53,625 - Yeah. 384 00:14:53,693 --> 00:14:55,793 - Sucks Kayla and Jaime are still sick. 385 00:14:55,862 --> 00:14:57,395 - They're still not feeling well? 386 00:14:57,464 --> 00:14:58,463 - Yeah. - Oh, damn. 387 00:14:58,531 --> 00:14:59,631 - Hi, guys. - Hi. 388 00:14:59,699 --> 00:15:01,799 - What are you guys doing? - Chilling. 389 00:15:01,868 --> 00:15:03,234 - Oh, talking about COVID. 390 00:15:03,303 --> 00:15:05,536 Talking about how half the group is, like, gone. 391 00:15:05,605 --> 00:15:07,138 - I did not think that COVID 392 00:15:07,207 --> 00:15:09,307 was gonna to be the reason why, like, a lot of us 393 00:15:09,376 --> 00:15:11,142 didn't get to do it this year. - Yeah. 394 00:15:11,211 --> 00:15:13,211 - Right. Who is that? 395 00:15:13,280 --> 00:15:14,779 [dramatic music] 396 00:15:14,848 --> 00:15:16,881 - What's up? 397 00:15:19,152 --> 00:15:20,184 - Hey! Hey! 398 00:15:20,253 --> 00:15:22,020 - What's up? 399 00:15:22,088 --> 00:15:25,223 [bleep] hell, bitches. Come here, man. 400 00:15:25,292 --> 00:15:26,691 - Don't touch her. 401 00:15:26,760 --> 00:15:28,793 - Amber has been locked in quarantine, 402 00:15:28,862 --> 00:15:30,995 and she's finally getting out. 403 00:15:31,064 --> 00:15:34,832 I'm a little scared to hug her, but I'm excited to see her. 404 00:15:34,901 --> 00:15:35,934 - Come here, man. 405 00:15:36,002 --> 00:15:38,870 - She said come here. Air hug. 406 00:15:38,939 --> 00:15:40,004 - All right, negative twice. 407 00:15:40,073 --> 00:15:41,706 You can [bleep] hug me, I swear. 408 00:15:41,775 --> 00:15:43,274 - Oh, [bleep] it, I'm going. 409 00:15:43,343 --> 00:15:44,475 - No, don't touch her. Don't touch her! 410 00:15:44,544 --> 00:15:46,377 Oh, he's touching her! 411 00:15:46,446 --> 00:15:48,913 - Oh, I can't lie, I was happy as hell to see her. 412 00:15:48,982 --> 00:15:52,116 I really like Amber. Amber is cool. 413 00:15:52,185 --> 00:15:53,785 - I'm not trying to get locked down. 414 00:15:53,853 --> 00:15:56,154 - I missed you, Amber. I'm glad you're negative. 415 00:15:56,222 --> 00:15:59,757 - Oh my God, I'm just-- I needed her this whole time. 416 00:15:59,826 --> 00:16:02,026 - Bitch. - She looks fantastic. 417 00:16:02,095 --> 00:16:03,661 She's in great spirits, 418 00:16:03,730 --> 00:16:06,431 and she definitely needs to enjoy the rest of this 419 00:16:06,499 --> 00:16:09,200 because she's been going through a lot of [bleep] 420 00:16:09,269 --> 00:16:11,369 - I'll give you a hug. 421 00:16:11,438 --> 00:16:12,971 - It was pretty hard, you know, 422 00:16:13,039 --> 00:16:14,906 being quarantined for so long, 423 00:16:14,975 --> 00:16:16,741 just sitting down and thinking about, like, 424 00:16:16,810 --> 00:16:20,278 me, and my kids, and my future. 425 00:16:20,347 --> 00:16:21,412 - You're back now. - Are you feeling better? 426 00:16:21,481 --> 00:16:23,614 - I am feeling ten times better. 427 00:16:23,683 --> 00:16:25,616 - It's just really refreshing to just see her 428 00:16:25,685 --> 00:16:28,486 out here with everyone, and it's actually starting 429 00:16:28,555 --> 00:16:30,588 to give me some hope for the rest of this trip, 430 00:16:30,657 --> 00:16:33,124 like, maybe everybody else will start 431 00:16:33,193 --> 00:16:34,625 coming out of quarantine shortly, 432 00:16:34,694 --> 00:16:37,061 and we can all finish this as one. 433 00:16:37,130 --> 00:16:39,764 - Guys, I missed everyone so much. 434 00:16:39,833 --> 00:16:41,566 - I'm glad you still got a couple of days left 435 00:16:41,634 --> 00:16:42,967 to mingle with us. 436 00:16:43,036 --> 00:16:44,235 - I know. - Thank God. 437 00:16:44,304 --> 00:16:46,938 - We can go do something fun. - Yes. 438 00:16:47,007 --> 00:16:49,707 - Zach and I thought it would be fun to do ATVs, 439 00:16:49,776 --> 00:16:51,275 do the Raptors up in the mountains. 440 00:16:51,344 --> 00:16:54,746 - Ooh, that's fun. 441 00:16:54,814 --> 00:16:56,014 - ATVing, like, on the first day 442 00:16:56,082 --> 00:16:57,949 that I'm out from COVID? 443 00:16:58,018 --> 00:17:00,184 That's just like perfect. 444 00:17:00,253 --> 00:17:01,919 - We should just meet back here in, like, 30 minutes 445 00:17:01,988 --> 00:17:03,121 and get ready to go. - OK, I'm down. 446 00:17:03,189 --> 00:17:04,956 - I'm excited. 447 00:17:05,025 --> 00:17:06,424 [upbeat hip-hop music] 448 00:17:06,493 --> 00:17:08,626 - ♪ Oh, you rooting ♪ 449 00:17:08,695 --> 00:17:10,028 ♪ Autopilot, I'm cruising ♪ 450 00:17:10,096 --> 00:17:12,597 ♪ Asking questions like cool, when? ♪ 451 00:17:12,665 --> 00:17:13,765 - I'm psyched. Are you? 452 00:17:13,833 --> 00:17:16,234 ♪ ♪ 453 00:17:16,302 --> 00:17:18,269 - I am though. - Whoo! 454 00:17:18,338 --> 00:17:20,271 - I'm ready. - We've arrived! 455 00:17:20,340 --> 00:17:21,572 ♪ ♪ 456 00:17:21,641 --> 00:17:23,508 - I'm excited because I can see the Raptors, 457 00:17:23,576 --> 00:17:26,010 and I'm just ready to jump in and hit the throttle. 458 00:17:26,079 --> 00:17:27,879 - ♪ I bring back that new thing ♪ 459 00:17:27,947 --> 00:17:30,481 - OK, you guys ready? - Yeah, let's get it. 460 00:17:30,550 --> 00:17:32,717 - All right, so I planned for us to go at ATVing, 461 00:17:32,786 --> 00:17:34,452 but with a twist. 462 00:17:34,521 --> 00:17:37,188 I brought you guys here to do a scavenger hunt. 463 00:17:37,257 --> 00:17:38,823 We're gonna break off into teams. 464 00:17:38,892 --> 00:17:40,992 We're gonna get a little competitive. 465 00:17:41,061 --> 00:17:43,294 Maci, don't do weird stuff. 466 00:17:43,363 --> 00:17:44,395 [laughter] 467 00:17:44,464 --> 00:17:45,730 This is the idea. 468 00:17:45,799 --> 00:17:47,532 There are four colored totes. 469 00:17:47,600 --> 00:17:52,036 Along this path, if you see a tote, stop. 470 00:17:52,105 --> 00:17:55,206 There's a task inside the bag with a challenge. 471 00:17:55,275 --> 00:17:56,340 - Okay. - Whoever has the better-- 472 00:17:56,409 --> 00:17:57,442 - So the fastest time wins. 473 00:17:57,510 --> 00:17:59,444 And we're doing a staggered start. 474 00:17:59,512 --> 00:18:03,147 So teams are Zach and I, Jade and Sean, 475 00:18:03,216 --> 00:18:05,817 against Maci, Kiaya, and Amber. 476 00:18:05,885 --> 00:18:07,718 - Let's go. - We got this. 477 00:18:07,787 --> 00:18:09,420 - All right, are you guys ready? 478 00:18:09,489 --> 00:18:11,155 [together] Yeah! 479 00:18:11,224 --> 00:18:13,224 - I've been here before, grew up riding dirt bikes, 480 00:18:13,293 --> 00:18:15,827 so I'm in my element. I'm ready to knock this out. 481 00:18:15,895 --> 00:18:16,861 - We'll go first. - Nose goes. 482 00:18:16,930 --> 00:18:18,329 - Perfect. - I'll drive first. 483 00:18:18,398 --> 00:18:20,131 - Good luck, guys. 484 00:18:20,200 --> 00:18:21,499 - We're all super competitive, 485 00:18:21,568 --> 00:18:23,034 and we're ready to kick their ass. 486 00:18:23,103 --> 00:18:25,036 - Y'all gonna get your all asses whooped. 487 00:18:25,105 --> 00:18:27,238 - My team is definitely going to win. 488 00:18:27,307 --> 00:18:29,173 - Hell, yeah. - Y'all got to put on helmets. 489 00:18:29,242 --> 00:18:31,142 - What? - Y'all got to put helmets on. 490 00:18:31,211 --> 00:18:32,510 - Why? - I don't know. 491 00:18:32,579 --> 00:18:34,112 - There's no sleeve to go in there? 492 00:18:34,180 --> 00:18:35,813 I'm literally wearing somebody else's sweat 493 00:18:35,882 --> 00:18:37,482 on my [bleep] head. 494 00:18:37,550 --> 00:18:38,516 That [bleep] is crazy. 495 00:18:38,585 --> 00:18:40,051 [dramatic music] 496 00:18:40,120 --> 00:18:42,086 It's like putting on somebody's sock. 497 00:18:42,155 --> 00:18:43,588 - Zack is just-- 498 00:18:43,656 --> 00:18:45,890 he doesn't listen to the rules. 499 00:18:45,959 --> 00:18:47,225 - I don't think-- 500 00:18:47,293 --> 00:18:49,460 I'm think I'm about to pass on this trip, y'all. 501 00:18:49,529 --> 00:18:50,761 I'm just not feeling it. 502 00:18:50,830 --> 00:18:51,963 I ain't got my brush with me, 503 00:18:52,031 --> 00:18:54,031 so I'm not filming after this scene. 504 00:18:54,100 --> 00:18:56,033 I'm dead serious. 505 00:18:56,102 --> 00:18:59,137 - Thank you, sorry. - This is it for me. 506 00:18:59,205 --> 00:19:01,439 - Watching Zach throw a tantrum, 507 00:19:01,508 --> 00:19:06,043 it's giving very odd, helpless vibes right now. 508 00:19:06,112 --> 00:19:08,379 He's definitely done that before. 509 00:19:08,448 --> 00:19:10,748 - So did you not take into consideration 510 00:19:10,817 --> 00:19:12,583 anything that we just talked about? 511 00:19:12,652 --> 00:19:13,718 - What? 512 00:19:13,786 --> 00:19:14,886 - You could have FaceTimed me 513 00:19:14,954 --> 00:19:16,454 when you were hearing the heartbeat. 514 00:19:16,523 --> 00:19:18,456 - We were talking, and she just did it really quick. 515 00:19:18,525 --> 00:19:21,125 It wasn't an ultrasound. - So what? 516 00:19:21,194 --> 00:19:24,162 - You think I want to walk into every appointment by myself? 517 00:19:24,230 --> 00:19:27,598 - Uh, It seems like it 'cause you didn't want to FaceTime me. 518 00:19:27,667 --> 00:19:28,766 - Go! 519 00:19:28,835 --> 00:19:31,135 [upbeat rock music] 520 00:19:31,204 --> 00:19:32,270 - We're going fast. 521 00:19:32,338 --> 00:19:33,638 ♪ ♪ 522 00:19:33,706 --> 00:19:35,106 - I don't need no helmet, 523 00:19:35,175 --> 00:19:38,142 but I like any activities outdoors. 524 00:19:38,211 --> 00:19:39,777 Love ATVs. I'm excited. 525 00:19:39,846 --> 00:19:41,012 And then, come on, you put me 526 00:19:41,080 --> 00:19:43,314 in a scavenger hunt, I'm serving all y'all. 527 00:19:43,383 --> 00:19:45,416 - You ready, Maci? - I'm ready. 528 00:19:45,485 --> 00:19:47,418 - You look cute. - Whoo! 529 00:19:47,487 --> 00:19:51,355 ♪ ♪ 530 00:19:51,424 --> 00:19:54,158 - It's like, I'm from Indiana where we went mudding. 531 00:19:54,227 --> 00:19:57,128 We--I grew up on nothing but dirt bike, 532 00:19:57,197 --> 00:19:59,096 four-wheelers, things like that. 533 00:19:59,165 --> 00:20:02,333 ♪ ♪ 534 00:20:02,402 --> 00:20:04,502 - Film a 20-second video of a team member 535 00:20:04,571 --> 00:20:06,270 throwing a tantrum. 536 00:20:06,339 --> 00:20:07,438 - Throw a tantrum now! 537 00:20:07,507 --> 00:20:08,773 - I'll do it. - Go. 538 00:20:08,841 --> 00:20:10,508 - Man, what the [bleep] you guys have us out here 539 00:20:10,577 --> 00:20:12,410 doing in these [bleep] helmets and [bleep]!? 540 00:20:12,478 --> 00:20:14,345 - I never hear Sean throw fits, 541 00:20:14,414 --> 00:20:16,881 so, like, it was weird listening to it. 542 00:20:16,950 --> 00:20:19,850 - [bleep] that helmet! It's not cool! 543 00:20:19,919 --> 00:20:21,285 - But I thought it was really funny. 544 00:20:21,354 --> 00:20:23,187 - Yeah, I got it. - OK. 545 00:20:23,256 --> 00:20:26,224 [dramatic music] 546 00:20:26,292 --> 00:20:27,925 ♪ ♪ 547 00:20:27,994 --> 00:20:28,960 - That's it? 548 00:20:29,028 --> 00:20:30,728 ♪ ♪ 549 00:20:30,797 --> 00:20:33,197 - Film a 20-second video of a team member 550 00:20:33,266 --> 00:20:35,800 throwing a tantrum. - Are you videoing? 551 00:20:35,868 --> 00:20:37,635 - No, she was. - Go. 552 00:20:37,704 --> 00:20:38,836 - Throw a temper tantrum. - Go. 553 00:20:38,905 --> 00:20:40,504 - [screaming] [bleep]! 554 00:20:40,573 --> 00:20:42,573 - Keep going! - [screaming] 555 00:20:42,642 --> 00:20:44,875 - Keep going, keep going, keep going! 556 00:20:44,944 --> 00:20:47,178 Shut your door good. Seat belts on. 557 00:20:47,247 --> 00:20:49,914 - Go, go, go! 558 00:20:49,983 --> 00:20:53,017 - What have we got? Right there. 559 00:20:53,086 --> 00:20:56,420 ♪ ♪ 560 00:20:56,489 --> 00:20:59,657 - Say the alphabet backwards with a pacifier in your mouth. 561 00:20:59,726 --> 00:21:00,925 ♪ ♪ 562 00:21:00,994 --> 00:21:02,326 - Zach, you do that? 563 00:21:02,395 --> 00:21:04,328 - No [bleep] way. 564 00:21:04,397 --> 00:21:05,696 - Look it up. Look it up. 565 00:21:05,765 --> 00:21:06,731 - They never said we couldn't look it up. 566 00:21:06,799 --> 00:21:08,099 - Yeah. 567 00:21:08,167 --> 00:21:09,867 - Z-Y-X-W-V-U-T-S-R. 568 00:21:09,936 --> 00:21:12,436 What kind of [bleep] DUI [bleep] is this? 569 00:21:12,505 --> 00:21:14,672 E-D-C-B-A. Let's go. 570 00:21:14,741 --> 00:21:15,940 - Yeah! 571 00:21:16,009 --> 00:21:19,176 Y'all think y'all bout to win? Hell no. 572 00:21:19,245 --> 00:21:20,878 - Go, go, go. 573 00:21:24,150 --> 00:21:26,550 - Oh, it's over here. 574 00:21:28,321 --> 00:21:29,854 [screaming] It's big-ass bugs! 575 00:21:29,922 --> 00:21:31,756 - It's all right. Come on, hurry. 576 00:21:31,824 --> 00:21:33,024 - I can't. 577 00:21:33,092 --> 00:21:36,060 [engine roaring] 578 00:21:39,599 --> 00:21:41,299 - All right, I'ma get out. 579 00:21:43,536 --> 00:21:49,040 Z-Y-X-W-Z-U-R. 580 00:21:49,108 --> 00:21:50,675 Oh, [bleep]. 581 00:21:50,743 --> 00:21:53,244 - Eat a whole jar of baby food. 582 00:21:53,313 --> 00:21:54,912 Hey, what kind of baby food? - Pear, pear, pear. 583 00:21:54,981 --> 00:21:56,213 You like pear. - Eat it, eat it. 584 00:21:56,282 --> 00:21:58,015 - Hurry, the whole jar. Hit the whole jar. 585 00:21:58,084 --> 00:22:00,718 - Watching Sean chug that baby food... 586 00:22:00,787 --> 00:22:02,086 - Go, go, go. 587 00:22:02,155 --> 00:22:04,155 - He's definitely done that before. 588 00:22:05,024 --> 00:22:06,223 - We got this [bleep]. 589 00:22:06,292 --> 00:22:07,325 I think that was less than two minutes. 590 00:22:07,393 --> 00:22:09,260 [engine roaring] 591 00:22:10,496 --> 00:22:12,596 - Oh, my God. - Huh? 592 00:22:12,665 --> 00:22:14,231 - The pacifier. 593 00:22:14,300 --> 00:22:15,866 - Whoo! - Whoo! 594 00:22:15,935 --> 00:22:17,368 - Be careful, be careful! 595 00:22:22,375 --> 00:22:24,675 - Put a diaper on your body and run around 596 00:22:24,744 --> 00:22:27,311 yelling, "I have to potty" six times in a row. 597 00:22:28,481 --> 00:22:30,481 I immediately just grabbed the diaper, 598 00:22:30,550 --> 00:22:31,982 and it's this big. 599 00:22:32,051 --> 00:22:33,451 Like, it's literally, like, the tiniest diaper 600 00:22:33,519 --> 00:22:34,585 for, like, a newborn baby. 601 00:22:34,654 --> 00:22:36,954 So I'm like, we can't even put this on. 602 00:22:37,023 --> 00:22:38,723 What are-- 603 00:22:38,791 --> 00:22:41,325 - Eat a whole jar of baby food? 604 00:22:41,394 --> 00:22:43,994 - All right, go. 605 00:22:44,063 --> 00:22:46,497 - I have to potty. I have to potty. 606 00:22:46,566 --> 00:22:47,932 I have to potty. - What? 607 00:22:48,000 --> 00:22:49,133 What is she doing? - I have to potty. 608 00:22:49,202 --> 00:22:51,302 - Two more times. - I have to potty. 609 00:22:51,371 --> 00:22:53,537 - She has to the bathroom. 610 00:22:53,606 --> 00:22:54,839 It was weird. 611 00:22:54,907 --> 00:22:57,108 - I have to potty. 612 00:22:57,176 --> 00:22:58,809 I felt like a jackass 613 00:22:58,878 --> 00:23:00,478 out in the middle of the woods doing this. 614 00:23:00,546 --> 00:23:02,046 I was like, please don't let other people see us. 615 00:23:02,115 --> 00:23:04,482 They're gonna think we're [bleep] insane. 616 00:23:04,550 --> 00:23:05,883 - Everybody in? - Yep. 617 00:23:05,952 --> 00:23:07,918 - Yeah. - Whoo. 618 00:23:07,987 --> 00:23:10,521 - OK, be careful now. 619 00:23:10,590 --> 00:23:12,256 - Whoo! 620 00:23:12,325 --> 00:23:14,925 [engine roaring] 621 00:23:16,996 --> 00:23:19,530 - Ah! - Damn! 622 00:23:19,599 --> 00:23:21,766 - We're in the woods going super fast, 623 00:23:21,834 --> 00:23:25,236 Maci, she's going over, like, bumps and hills and everything. 624 00:23:26,072 --> 00:23:27,972 [laughing] - It's OK. 625 00:23:28,040 --> 00:23:28,973 We're holding on tight. 626 00:23:29,041 --> 00:23:30,808 Bitch, keep going. 627 00:23:30,877 --> 00:23:33,144 Where the [bleep] is the next one? 628 00:23:33,212 --> 00:23:34,779 - Right? 629 00:23:34,847 --> 00:23:38,949 - There's no more little clues on the trees. 630 00:23:39,018 --> 00:23:41,218 There's not really a clear trail. 631 00:23:41,287 --> 00:23:42,787 The [bleep] is it? 632 00:23:44,424 --> 00:23:47,391 - No, for real, where the [bleep] are we? 633 00:23:49,228 --> 00:23:51,195 What the [bleep]? 634 00:23:51,264 --> 00:23:53,063 - I think we can just go off road over there. 635 00:23:53,132 --> 00:23:56,667 - Uh, so I think we're lost. 636 00:23:56,736 --> 00:23:58,536 - We're [bleep] lost. 637 00:23:58,604 --> 00:24:01,405 [dramatic music] 638 00:24:01,474 --> 00:24:03,340 - What the [bleep]? We're gonna lose. 639 00:24:03,409 --> 00:24:05,876 ♪ ♪ 640 00:24:09,048 --> 00:24:10,281 - ♪ We gon' turn it up right now ♪ 641 00:24:10,349 --> 00:24:12,183 [cheering] 642 00:24:12,251 --> 00:24:14,985 - Be careful, be careful! - Ah! [laughs] 643 00:24:15,054 --> 00:24:16,987 - Slow down, slow down! 644 00:24:17,056 --> 00:24:18,289 I'm scared. 645 00:24:18,357 --> 00:24:19,857 Zach scared the [bleep] out of me. 646 00:24:19,926 --> 00:24:21,525 I literally thought he was gonna [bleep] 647 00:24:21,594 --> 00:24:23,160 wreck us into a tree. 648 00:24:23,229 --> 00:24:25,763 [laughter] 649 00:24:25,832 --> 00:24:28,265 Ah! OK, you can't drive no goddamn more. 650 00:24:28,334 --> 00:24:29,667 - I'm all gas, no brakes. 651 00:24:29,735 --> 00:24:30,935 I'm not-- I don't know what-- 652 00:24:31,003 --> 00:24:32,203 I'm not believing in none of that braking. 653 00:24:32,271 --> 00:24:33,838 It's a straight road. 654 00:24:33,906 --> 00:24:34,839 You could hit a little bump. We'll be all right. 655 00:24:34,907 --> 00:24:35,973 We got helmets on. 656 00:24:36,042 --> 00:24:37,708 - Zach, all right, you're done. 657 00:24:37,777 --> 00:24:39,210 - Yeah. - I was trying to slide. 658 00:24:39,278 --> 00:24:41,011 - Good [bleep], Zach. - Yeah, you're done. 659 00:24:41,080 --> 00:24:42,112 That was it. 660 00:24:42,181 --> 00:24:43,380 That was good enough for me. 661 00:24:43,449 --> 00:24:45,850 Let's just say I'm the designated driver 662 00:24:45,918 --> 00:24:47,351 in our house. 663 00:24:47,420 --> 00:24:50,087 - Team photo, only one team member's feet 664 00:24:50,156 --> 00:24:51,956 can touch the ground. 665 00:24:52,024 --> 00:24:53,791 - You know, we in woods, so we looking around. 666 00:24:53,860 --> 00:24:55,993 The first thing that's going through my head is, [bleep], 667 00:24:56,062 --> 00:24:57,862 I'm about have to put Chey on my back, 668 00:24:57,930 --> 00:25:00,164 Sean on this shoulder, and Jade on this shoulder. 669 00:25:00,233 --> 00:25:01,131 Sit over here. Sit over here. 670 00:25:01,200 --> 00:25:02,766 - Oh, yeah, innovative. 671 00:25:02,835 --> 00:25:04,068 - My smarts kicked in. 672 00:25:04,136 --> 00:25:06,136 We got a damn [bleep] ATV behind us. 673 00:25:06,205 --> 00:25:08,038 Everybody's feet off the ground. 674 00:25:10,076 --> 00:25:11,809 - Back, all right, I'm gonna drive. 675 00:25:11,878 --> 00:25:13,477 You're giving me a goddamn panic attack. 676 00:25:13,546 --> 00:25:14,879 [laughter] 677 00:25:17,617 --> 00:25:19,250 - You need to take a video. 678 00:25:21,053 --> 00:25:23,254 - So, y'all, we are lost. [laughs] 679 00:25:23,322 --> 00:25:25,155 We were talking so much [bleep]. 680 00:25:25,224 --> 00:25:26,857 - Yeah. - And we're losing. 681 00:25:26,926 --> 00:25:29,159 - OK, but we went off the beaten path and [bleep]. 682 00:25:29,228 --> 00:25:30,561 We had fun. 683 00:25:30,630 --> 00:25:34,698 - I have no idea where we are or how we got here. 684 00:25:34,767 --> 00:25:37,334 We all thought we were taking the right turn. 685 00:25:37,403 --> 00:25:39,203 In fact, we were not. 686 00:25:39,272 --> 00:25:41,872 Cheyenne, Zach, Jade, and Sean, if y'all are watching 687 00:25:41,941 --> 00:25:45,075 this [bleep], y'all are lucky y'all win by default. 688 00:25:45,144 --> 00:25:46,710 Just saying. 689 00:25:46,779 --> 00:25:48,012 - Whoo! 690 00:25:49,448 --> 00:25:51,348 - I'm just eating dirt right now. 691 00:25:51,417 --> 00:25:53,417 - Oh, [bleep]. Big bump! - Keep going, keep going. 692 00:25:53,486 --> 00:25:55,753 [girls screaming] 693 00:25:55,821 --> 00:25:57,221 - Which way? 694 00:25:57,290 --> 00:25:59,223 Straight? Is straight good? - Right here. 695 00:25:59,292 --> 00:26:00,858 - Yeah, straight. 696 00:26:03,696 --> 00:26:05,462 [cheering] 697 00:26:05,531 --> 00:26:07,031 - And that's how it's done. 698 00:26:08,701 --> 00:26:10,434 - I say we should just go back that way. 699 00:26:10,503 --> 00:26:12,202 - Yeah, the way that we came. 700 00:26:12,271 --> 00:26:13,571 - So do we go this way? 701 00:26:13,639 --> 00:26:15,306 - Yep. 702 00:26:18,177 --> 00:26:19,710 - I didn't even think about that. 703 00:26:19,779 --> 00:26:23,781 Oh, if I see a [bleep] moose, I'ma lose my [bleep]. 704 00:26:23,849 --> 00:26:25,382 I'ma lose my [bleep]. 705 00:26:25,451 --> 00:26:28,586 They got them big ugly ass things on their head. 706 00:26:28,654 --> 00:26:31,755 And then it's just like a fat ass deer. 707 00:26:31,824 --> 00:26:33,958 - You videoing? - I was hauling ass. 708 00:26:34,026 --> 00:26:35,960 I thought for sure we we're gonna hit our heads. 709 00:26:36,028 --> 00:26:41,231 Maci, Kiaya, Amber, where did you guys go? 710 00:26:41,300 --> 00:26:43,167 - I'm ready to eat. 711 00:26:43,235 --> 00:26:44,501 - Same. 712 00:26:44,570 --> 00:26:46,604 - I'm like, where's everybody at? 713 00:26:46,672 --> 00:26:48,439 Why is it taking them so long 'cause we got done 714 00:26:48,507 --> 00:26:50,741 pretty quick, I felt like, so-- 715 00:26:51,544 --> 00:26:53,944 [booing] [all jeering] 716 00:26:54,013 --> 00:26:57,348 - Loser! - Losers. 717 00:26:57,416 --> 00:26:58,782 - We got [bleep] lost. 718 00:26:58,851 --> 00:27:00,684 - Put your pacifier in your mouth. 719 00:27:00,753 --> 00:27:02,586 [laughing] 720 00:27:02,655 --> 00:27:03,787 - We got completely off track. 721 00:27:03,856 --> 00:27:05,289 We were in the [bleep] woods somewhere. 722 00:27:05,358 --> 00:27:08,292 - Honestly, getting lost in the woods was fun. 723 00:27:08,361 --> 00:27:11,695 To be with those girls just, like, freaking out 724 00:27:11,764 --> 00:27:13,697 and everything, I was in my element. 725 00:27:13,766 --> 00:27:18,869 - I am so sad to announce that, unfortunately, you guys lost. 726 00:27:18,938 --> 00:27:21,038 We won. - By default. 727 00:27:21,107 --> 00:27:22,039 - By default. Y'all won by default. 728 00:27:22,108 --> 00:27:23,307 - That's fine. 729 00:27:23,376 --> 00:27:24,975 However you wanna make yourselves 730 00:27:25,044 --> 00:27:26,510 feel better about it. 731 00:27:26,579 --> 00:27:29,580 - They won by default because we should have 732 00:27:29,649 --> 00:27:31,115 been able to restart. 733 00:27:31,183 --> 00:27:32,716 We got lost, even though it's not their fault we got lost. 734 00:27:32,785 --> 00:27:36,286 But, oh well, I still won in spirit. 735 00:27:41,661 --> 00:27:42,860 - Thank God. 736 00:27:42,928 --> 00:27:44,461 I wish the kids were here and to see this. 737 00:27:44,530 --> 00:27:45,729 This is so gorgeous. 738 00:27:45,798 --> 00:27:47,231 - How pretty it is out here, yeah. 739 00:27:47,299 --> 00:27:50,067 Can you believe our kids are gonna be 14? 740 00:27:50,136 --> 00:27:51,368 - I don't even-- 741 00:27:51,437 --> 00:27:54,138 - Literally, in like a month and a half. 742 00:27:54,206 --> 00:27:56,340 - Leah looks like she's like 16 right now. 743 00:27:56,409 --> 00:27:57,841 - I know. 744 00:27:57,910 --> 00:28:00,010 - I saw Bentley, and I was like, oh, my God. 745 00:28:00,079 --> 00:28:04,715 - I know, they're almost two years away from being our age 746 00:28:04,784 --> 00:28:06,650 when we started. - That is so crazy. 747 00:28:06,719 --> 00:28:07,851 - I know. - When it comes to 748 00:28:07,920 --> 00:28:10,054 me, Maci, and Cate, like, doing this, 749 00:28:10,122 --> 00:28:12,990 we can't believe we're here. 750 00:28:13,059 --> 00:28:15,459 Those people are gonna mean something to me 751 00:28:15,528 --> 00:28:16,727 for the rest of my life. 752 00:28:16,796 --> 00:28:18,362 Do you still talk to Ryan's mom? 753 00:28:18,431 --> 00:28:20,330 Like, does Bentley still go over there? 754 00:28:20,399 --> 00:28:21,365 - He does sometimes. 755 00:28:21,434 --> 00:28:23,400 Not as much as he used to. 756 00:28:23,469 --> 00:28:26,103 But truth be told, it's a lot to do 757 00:28:26,172 --> 00:28:28,205 with just his age, and sports, and all the things. 758 00:28:28,274 --> 00:28:30,007 They still come to his games. 759 00:28:30,076 --> 00:28:32,242 He still will go over there and spend, like, 760 00:28:32,311 --> 00:28:33,877 the weekend at their house. 761 00:28:33,946 --> 00:28:37,081 Yeah, I feel like they've always been the co-parents 762 00:28:37,149 --> 00:28:39,917 in this situation, you know, so-- 763 00:28:47,126 --> 00:28:48,792 - Yeah. 764 00:28:53,566 --> 00:28:55,199 - Yeah, definitely. 765 00:28:59,772 --> 00:29:00,938 - Mm-hmm. 766 00:29:04,443 --> 00:29:06,543 Bentley, and Jen, and Larry have 767 00:29:06,612 --> 00:29:08,212 still a close relationship. 768 00:29:08,280 --> 00:29:10,614 They communicate on a regular basis. 769 00:29:10,683 --> 00:29:12,416 And we don't. 770 00:29:12,485 --> 00:29:14,952 The way things are now, it works for me. 771 00:29:15,020 --> 00:29:18,455 I'm not sure if that works for them. 772 00:29:18,524 --> 00:29:21,792 But getting that text from Jen makes me 773 00:29:21,861 --> 00:29:23,227 feel like there is some hope that we 774 00:29:23,295 --> 00:29:24,561 can really be close again. 775 00:29:24,630 --> 00:29:26,497 - I'm still fighting for James. - Right. 776 00:29:26,565 --> 00:29:27,898 - And I'm still fighting for Leah. 777 00:29:27,967 --> 00:29:30,934 Me and Leah finally now have a good relationship. 778 00:29:31,003 --> 00:29:32,436 - I think that's all you can do. 779 00:29:32,505 --> 00:29:34,138 - I put her through that, though. 780 00:29:34,206 --> 00:29:35,639 She's got thick skin. 781 00:29:35,708 --> 00:29:39,076 And she's gonna be a really strong woman. 782 00:29:39,145 --> 00:29:42,746 - I know things with Amber and her daughter, Leah, 783 00:29:42,815 --> 00:29:44,414 are kind of rocky right now. 784 00:29:44,483 --> 00:29:46,984 And the custody situation with James, 785 00:29:47,052 --> 00:29:48,919 it takes a major toll on her. 786 00:29:48,988 --> 00:29:51,288 I am concerned. 787 00:29:51,357 --> 00:29:53,857 - You wanna go? - Yeah, it's getting dark. 788 00:29:53,926 --> 00:29:55,592 - About to be in a scary movie. 789 00:29:55,661 --> 00:29:57,461 [laughs] 790 00:29:59,698 --> 00:30:02,599 [upbeat music] 791 00:30:02,668 --> 00:30:04,368 ♪ ♪ 792 00:30:04,436 --> 00:30:07,171 - Yes, you have a long tongue. 793 00:30:07,239 --> 00:30:10,707 Oh, wow. Can you make a taco? 794 00:30:10,776 --> 00:30:12,776 - This is my taco. - Let me see. 795 00:30:12,845 --> 00:30:14,845 [laughs] 796 00:30:14,914 --> 00:30:16,246 - Ahh. 797 00:30:16,315 --> 00:30:17,981 - Ahh. 798 00:30:21,353 --> 00:30:23,053 - I just wanna talk to Coach B. 799 00:30:23,122 --> 00:30:25,856 I feel like right now, like, I'm going through 800 00:30:25,925 --> 00:30:27,791 so much in my life 801 00:30:27,860 --> 00:30:29,359 that I wanna see if there's something 802 00:30:29,428 --> 00:30:32,696 that I've not been able to kinda grab out of myself 803 00:30:32,765 --> 00:30:35,899 that maybe Coach B. can. 804 00:30:35,968 --> 00:30:38,802 - So how are you, my Amber? How are you? 805 00:30:38,871 --> 00:30:42,506 - [sighs] It's been pretty hard. 806 00:30:42,575 --> 00:30:44,374 Very traumatic things have happened 807 00:30:44,443 --> 00:30:48,145 all within the last few years. 808 00:30:48,214 --> 00:30:51,515 - Right, I know last reunion, 809 00:30:51,584 --> 00:30:55,419 you were focusing on you and Leah's relationship-- 810 00:30:55,487 --> 00:30:57,321 how can I be the bigger person? - Mm-hmm. 811 00:30:57,389 --> 00:30:58,755 - I remember that. 812 00:30:58,824 --> 00:31:00,657 - I'm a good mom. 813 00:31:00,726 --> 00:31:03,460 - Aw, who all can relate to being a good mom? 814 00:31:05,064 --> 00:31:06,930 - Amber, come on. - You better stand up. 815 00:31:06,999 --> 00:31:09,399 - Come on. 816 00:31:09,468 --> 00:31:13,003 - I did believe at that time that I was not a good mom 817 00:31:13,072 --> 00:31:18,275 because I knew at that moment, I hadn't been doing everything 818 00:31:18,344 --> 00:31:20,077 that I could with Leah. 819 00:31:20,145 --> 00:31:26,049 And when it comes to now, so much has changed. 820 00:31:26,118 --> 00:31:28,151 - Like, tell me what's changed. 821 00:31:28,220 --> 00:31:30,821 - So last time, I spoke to Gary on the phone, 822 00:31:30,890 --> 00:31:33,123 and I started going over to see Leah. 823 00:31:33,192 --> 00:31:35,692 In the beginning, though, she would come in 824 00:31:35,761 --> 00:31:38,862 and go upstairs, and just pass by me. 825 00:31:38,931 --> 00:31:40,297 Hello! 826 00:31:41,700 --> 00:31:43,901 Hey. 827 00:31:43,969 --> 00:31:49,740 It was so hurtful and so hard. 828 00:31:49,808 --> 00:31:51,875 Gary and Kris said, "Just keep coming over. 829 00:31:51,944 --> 00:31:53,477 You're fine, you're fine." 830 00:31:53,545 --> 00:31:56,213 I started going over every single week a couple of times 831 00:31:56,282 --> 00:31:59,082 a week, and then bringing James over, as well. 832 00:31:59,151 --> 00:32:02,252 And all of a sudden, you know, me and Leah 833 00:32:02,321 --> 00:32:04,688 started to form a relationship. 834 00:32:04,757 --> 00:32:06,356 That's from me. 835 00:32:06,425 --> 00:32:09,092 It's the tree of life, and it's your birthstone. 836 00:32:09,161 --> 00:32:11,561 - Oh, thank you. 837 00:32:11,630 --> 00:32:14,765 - But it sounds like things have evolved, 838 00:32:14,833 --> 00:32:17,034 and you're showing up differently. 839 00:32:17,102 --> 00:32:20,070 And you're using tools, and you're applying the tools. 840 00:32:20,139 --> 00:32:23,507 - Years--back in the day, I thought staying away 841 00:32:23,575 --> 00:32:26,076 was the best thing to do for Leah. 842 00:32:26,145 --> 00:32:28,812 And it actually just completely backfired 843 00:32:28,881 --> 00:32:30,647 a couple of years later. 844 00:32:30,716 --> 00:32:34,084 When it comes to James, my son... 845 00:32:34,153 --> 00:32:35,085 - Mm-hmm. 846 00:32:35,154 --> 00:32:39,656 ♪ ♪ 847 00:32:39,725 --> 00:32:46,463 - It's hard because when James was taken away... 848 00:32:46,532 --> 00:32:49,066 a lot of my past was used against me. 849 00:32:49,134 --> 00:32:53,437 It's just completely unfair to have past substance abuse 850 00:32:53,505 --> 00:32:57,908 and past, you know, also, your mental illnesses, like, 851 00:32:57,977 --> 00:33:00,243 used against you literally. 852 00:33:00,312 --> 00:33:03,714 And that's the part that I don't like. 853 00:33:03,782 --> 00:33:05,248 You know, nobody could see the relationship 854 00:33:05,317 --> 00:33:06,483 that me and James had. 855 00:33:06,552 --> 00:33:08,585 It was gorgeous. 856 00:33:08,654 --> 00:33:10,854 - And I love that you talk about from the optics 857 00:33:10,923 --> 00:33:14,191 of people who aren't inside your world, right? 858 00:33:14,259 --> 00:33:16,493 They can't see the relationship that you have 859 00:33:16,562 --> 00:33:17,594 with Leah or James. 860 00:33:17,663 --> 00:33:19,396 They can't see all of the transition. 861 00:33:19,465 --> 00:33:21,598 - It affects it. It affected it. 862 00:33:21,667 --> 00:33:24,601 - But with that, you're talking about nurturing 863 00:33:24,670 --> 00:33:27,270 that relationship, planting new seeds. 864 00:33:27,339 --> 00:33:29,806 Right--so wait, I wanna do an exercise with you... 865 00:33:29,875 --> 00:33:31,008 - Okay. - That has to do 866 00:33:31,076 --> 00:33:35,012 with planting... 867 00:33:35,080 --> 00:33:37,814 seeds for your babies. 868 00:33:37,883 --> 00:33:39,916 And each seed that you plant, you're gonna 869 00:33:39,985 --> 00:33:42,686 to tell me what you're planting 870 00:33:42,755 --> 00:33:45,055 for Leah and for James. 871 00:33:45,124 --> 00:33:47,491 And then we're gonna water. - This is so perfect. 872 00:33:47,559 --> 00:33:49,426 - And we're gonna nurture it. Right? 873 00:33:49,495 --> 00:33:52,095 You're gonna take these home with you, 874 00:33:52,164 --> 00:33:54,431 and it's gonna be your responsibility 875 00:33:54,500 --> 00:33:59,936 as a mama bear to continue to nurture your babies 876 00:34:00,005 --> 00:34:01,505 through these plants. 877 00:34:01,573 --> 00:34:03,073 Sound good? - Sounds amazing. 878 00:34:03,142 --> 00:34:04,941 - So let's do it. - OK. 879 00:34:05,010 --> 00:34:07,778 - Fill up Leah's and James' pot. 880 00:34:07,846 --> 00:34:10,480 - The seeds is like dissecting each emotion 881 00:34:10,549 --> 00:34:12,849 for both of your children. 882 00:34:12,918 --> 00:34:14,518 My kids are growing. 883 00:34:14,586 --> 00:34:18,388 So it was the perfect thing to use seeds and growing. 884 00:34:18,457 --> 00:34:20,657 The first seed that I'm planting is for the love 885 00:34:20,726 --> 00:34:26,229 that Leah did not receive from me a long time ago, 886 00:34:26,298 --> 00:34:30,200 because I thought she would be better off without me 887 00:34:30,269 --> 00:34:33,503 because I felt that I would just hurt her future. 888 00:34:33,572 --> 00:34:36,106 [crying] 889 00:34:37,743 --> 00:34:43,046 And I want this to grow so she will know 890 00:34:43,115 --> 00:34:45,182 that I never gave up on her. 891 00:34:45,250 --> 00:34:48,585 I did without knowing, and I'm sorry. 892 00:34:48,654 --> 00:34:50,320 - Yeah, there you go. 893 00:34:50,389 --> 00:34:53,457 - There is nothing I will ever be able to do 894 00:34:53,525 --> 00:34:56,093 to fix any of that stuff, 895 00:34:56,161 --> 00:34:59,229 but I just have to keep going. 896 00:34:59,298 --> 00:35:03,500 This is our future that we both will continue 897 00:35:03,569 --> 00:35:05,435 to always be there for each other 898 00:35:05,504 --> 00:35:07,604 and work on everything we need. 899 00:35:07,673 --> 00:35:09,172 Never give up. 900 00:35:09,241 --> 00:35:11,341 ♪ ♪ 901 00:35:11,410 --> 00:35:13,743 James. 902 00:35:13,812 --> 00:35:15,846 - Take a deep breath in. You got it. 903 00:35:15,914 --> 00:35:17,547 - [exhales] 904 00:35:17,616 --> 00:35:20,817 I'm sorry, I have a lot of trauma. [crying] 905 00:35:20,886 --> 00:35:23,120 - OK, Amber, let it come out. You're good. 906 00:35:23,188 --> 00:35:26,223 You're good. 907 00:35:26,291 --> 00:35:28,291 - [sobbing] 908 00:35:30,262 --> 00:35:33,363 I didn't fail you. I didn't fail you. 909 00:35:33,432 --> 00:35:36,766 I didn't fail you, I promise. 910 00:35:36,835 --> 00:35:39,269 I swear to God, baby. 911 00:35:39,338 --> 00:35:42,239 And I fought for you for three [bleep] years. 912 00:35:42,307 --> 00:35:44,608 I never gave up I never gave up. 913 00:35:44,676 --> 00:35:47,277 And I'm still not giving up. 914 00:35:51,383 --> 00:35:55,685 - God, baby, I never gave up. I never gave up, 915 00:35:55,754 --> 00:35:58,221 and I'm still not giving up. 916 00:35:58,290 --> 00:36:02,392 I'm working hard just to see you, baby. 917 00:36:02,461 --> 00:36:04,528 I'm never giving up. 918 00:36:04,596 --> 00:36:07,030 [crying] 919 00:36:10,235 --> 00:36:16,506 James, this is for what my past did to us. 920 00:36:16,575 --> 00:36:19,676 But we're gonna watch it grow into something positive. 921 00:36:21,513 --> 00:36:25,682 It was shocking to almost every single person that I knew 922 00:36:25,751 --> 00:36:29,319 when James was just taken away. 923 00:36:29,388 --> 00:36:31,955 I'm never gonna stop fighting for what I believe in 924 00:36:32,024 --> 00:36:34,157 and what's going to happen. 925 00:36:34,226 --> 00:36:39,095 I just have to keep doing what I need to do and stay on track 926 00:36:39,164 --> 00:36:41,765 no matter what decisions are made 927 00:36:41,833 --> 00:36:45,068 from other people outside. 928 00:36:45,137 --> 00:36:48,405 You know, paper is paper, but blood is blood. 929 00:36:48,473 --> 00:36:50,840 - Give me your hands. 930 00:36:50,909 --> 00:36:52,008 I don't care if there's dirt on there. 931 00:36:52,077 --> 00:36:53,043 - I know you don't. - I don't care. 932 00:36:53,111 --> 00:36:54,978 - I know you don't. 933 00:36:55,047 --> 00:36:57,614 - I'm so proud of you. 934 00:36:57,683 --> 00:36:59,749 - Thank you so much for this. 935 00:36:59,818 --> 00:37:03,520 This was perfect. 936 00:37:03,589 --> 00:37:05,655 - Because your kids are perfect. 937 00:37:06,291 --> 00:37:09,626 But I want you to continue to do the work. 938 00:37:09,695 --> 00:37:11,461 Show up for yourself first 939 00:37:11,530 --> 00:37:13,730 so that you can show up for your babies. 940 00:37:13,799 --> 00:37:17,934 They get you at the level of healthiness you give yourself. 941 00:37:18,003 --> 00:37:18,935 Can you do that? 942 00:37:19,004 --> 00:37:20,737 - I promise. 943 00:37:20,806 --> 00:37:24,641 [uplifting music] 944 00:37:24,710 --> 00:37:27,143 I know that when I leave here, I'm gonna 945 00:37:27,212 --> 00:37:29,112 just keep growing those seeds for me, 946 00:37:29,181 --> 00:37:31,781 and my kids, and my future. 947 00:37:31,850 --> 00:37:37,621 ♪ ♪ 948 00:37:37,689 --> 00:37:40,657 [upbeat music] 949 00:37:40,726 --> 00:37:47,063 ♪ ♪ 950 00:37:47,132 --> 00:37:48,465 [snoring] 951 00:37:51,903 --> 00:37:54,938 - You look so beautiful packing that bag there, girl. 952 00:37:55,007 --> 00:37:56,306 You gonna come and help me pack? 953 00:37:56,375 --> 00:37:59,142 This your crap. 954 00:37:59,211 --> 00:38:01,177 - I guess I'll help. 955 00:38:01,246 --> 00:38:02,279 My mom is leaving today. 956 00:38:02,347 --> 00:38:04,080 She's gotta go back to work. 957 00:38:04,149 --> 00:38:07,417 So it's just been really nice having this one-on-one time 958 00:38:07,486 --> 00:38:09,152 with her, and be able to spend time 959 00:38:09,221 --> 00:38:12,122 with her away from my sisters and away from a more-- 960 00:38:12,190 --> 00:38:15,659 I really just had her to myself for the past couple of weeks. 961 00:38:15,727 --> 00:38:17,427 I wish she could stay the whole entire time. 962 00:38:17,496 --> 00:38:19,296 I'm gonna miss you, but I'll be home 963 00:38:19,364 --> 00:38:21,698 in three days after you get there. 964 00:38:21,767 --> 00:38:23,133 - Yeah. - But I miss you, too. 965 00:38:23,201 --> 00:38:24,434 - I'm gonna miss you, too. 966 00:38:24,503 --> 00:38:26,469 This trip has been life-changing for us, 967 00:38:26,538 --> 00:38:27,871 and it's been exciting, 968 00:38:27,939 --> 00:38:29,439 and it's been up and down. 969 00:38:29,508 --> 00:38:33,643 And I'm ready to take this home and put into work everything 970 00:38:33,712 --> 00:38:35,045 that we've done here. 971 00:38:35,113 --> 00:38:37,213 This trip has been amazing for us. 972 00:38:37,282 --> 00:38:38,682 - How are you feeling? 973 00:38:38,750 --> 00:38:39,883 - I feel good. 974 00:38:39,951 --> 00:38:40,984 I accomplished what I came for. 975 00:38:41,053 --> 00:38:42,852 I'm not sure how you feel. 976 00:38:42,921 --> 00:38:45,288 But I was happy to speak to the mothers 977 00:38:45,357 --> 00:38:49,326 and get to kind of experience what you experienced. 978 00:38:49,394 --> 00:38:53,296 I'm really glad that I got to have this time with Cheyenne. 979 00:38:53,365 --> 00:38:55,632 This has really, really brought us closer. 980 00:38:55,701 --> 00:38:58,668 I'm glad that she's able to share some of the things 981 00:38:58,737 --> 00:39:02,472 that I may not know that bother her with our relationship. 982 00:39:02,541 --> 00:39:05,909 So I'm really happy to have this time to bond with Chey. 983 00:39:05,977 --> 00:39:08,545 - I appreciate our relationship, mom. 984 00:39:08,613 --> 00:39:11,848 And I appreciate the relationship that you've built 985 00:39:11,917 --> 00:39:14,751 with Zach, and the effort that you put into us, 986 00:39:14,820 --> 00:39:16,386 and the support that you give us. 987 00:39:16,455 --> 00:39:19,022 I'm happy that I was able to bring my mom. 988 00:39:19,091 --> 00:39:21,424 I want her to be able to let go of some things that 989 00:39:21,493 --> 00:39:23,560 may have happened in the past. 990 00:39:23,628 --> 00:39:26,329 I want her to be the best version of herself. 991 00:39:26,398 --> 00:39:29,933 And hopefully in this trip, she sees that. 992 00:39:30,001 --> 00:39:32,001 - Bye, room. [kisses] 993 00:39:34,306 --> 00:39:36,272 Oh, this is bittersweet. 994 00:39:37,976 --> 00:39:40,710 [upbeat rock music] 995 00:39:40,779 --> 00:39:44,681 - ♪ I just wanna fall apart ♪ 996 00:39:44,750 --> 00:39:46,616 - Hello? - Hey, Gary. 997 00:39:46,685 --> 00:39:48,752 This is Maci. - Hey, how are you? 998 00:39:48,820 --> 00:39:50,420 - Good, how are you? 999 00:39:50,489 --> 00:39:53,857 - Amber was dealing with a lot before she came out here. 1000 00:39:53,925 --> 00:39:56,092 And then COVID hit her. 1001 00:39:56,161 --> 00:40:00,029 And it's kind of been a disaster for her so far. 1002 00:40:00,098 --> 00:40:02,899 So I just really wanna do something nice for her. 1003 00:40:02,968 --> 00:40:06,936 Amber said at the last reunion you know, that she wanted 1004 00:40:07,005 --> 00:40:09,773 to keep working on her relationship with Leah 1005 00:40:09,841 --> 00:40:11,207 and spend more time with her. 1006 00:40:11,276 --> 00:40:14,811 So I was wondering if there's any chance that you think 1007 00:40:14,880 --> 00:40:19,349 that maybe you and Leah could come out here for a day 1008 00:40:19,418 --> 00:40:22,152 or so just to visit with Amber. 1009 00:40:22,220 --> 00:40:23,686 - Um-- 1010 00:40:23,755 --> 00:40:26,656 - I'm really hoping Gary can pull this off, 1011 00:40:26,725 --> 00:40:29,492 but I don't know if it's gonna happen. 1012 00:40:29,561 --> 00:40:31,227 - Her and Leah have gotten closer. 1013 00:40:31,296 --> 00:40:33,296 But, you know, it's still got some work to do. 1014 00:40:33,365 --> 00:40:35,732 Leah's still working on being comfortable. 1015 00:40:37,469 --> 00:40:39,402 I don't know if I can.