MAN: Careful, I'll fuck you up.
HARMONISING
If anybody in here wants to give testimony, come forward,
let us pray for you.
# What's good, trouble?
# I'm not calling for help
# I'm just working things out for myself
# I'm so fucking tired
# I noticed you don't follow nice girls around
# And you've followed me all of my life
# I wish you would stop now
# I'm begging you, stop now
# Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
# What do you want from me?
# Everywhere I go
# Trouble, you're right there Trouble, trouble, trouble
# What do you want from me?
# Trouble, trouble, trouble
# What do you want from me? Ooh-ooh
# What's good, trouble?
# It's me again Me again
# Bet you're enjoying the mess I've made
# I admit it, I don't know how to ask for help
# So I make things hard for myself
# Yeah, I noticed you don't follow nice girl around
# And you've followed me all of my life
# I wish you would stop now
# I'm begging you, stop now
# Oh-oh, oh-oh
# Oh-oh
# What do you want from me?
# Trouble, trouble, trouble Everywhere I go
# Trouble, you're right there
# Trouble, trouble, trouble
# What do you want from me?
# Trouble, trouble
# What do you want from me?
# Can I be honest?
# Do I remember how?
# Don't want to be broken
# Just give up now
# What do you want from me?
# Everywhere I go
# Trouble, you're right there
# Trouble, trouble, trouble
# What do you want from me?
# Tell me what you want from me
# Oh-oh
# What do you want from me?
# Trouble, trouble, trouble
# What do you want from me?
# Trouble, trouble, trouble
# What do you want from me?
# Trouble, trouble
# Ooh-ooh-ooh
# Ooh-ooh. #
No! No!
SHE SCREAMS
SHE EXHALES
DISTANT, MUFFLED MUSIC
PHONE VIBRATES
SHE SIGHS
MUSIC PLAYS LOUDLY
Wagwan? What?
I said what go on?
Got a job through Juliana.
She wants to know if you can do it.
Can't tonight.
Why you all dressed up?
You off to see your boyfriend?
Kasper's paying you, I'm not stupid.
And what if he is?
Rent isn't free, you know?
Yeah, well, you haven't paid me all the money from the trip.
Guess we're even.
You didn't count the money, either.
DOOR CLOSES
I've been thinking - I'm not going to do the escorting thing any more.
Keep it all online.
What does that mean for us?
It's not what I want to do. I want to be a singer.
I am a singer. You are,
and yet you still came to see me.
Don't flatter yourself.
HE CHUCKLES Wouldn't dream of it.
Tell me your real name.
It's Lexi.
Sasha.
I'm...
I'm on my period, sorry.
I should have said.
No, it's fine.
It's fine.
Tea - that helps, doesn't it?
Yeah.
Thanks.
PHONE VIBRATES
Mm, what time is it?
Nearly nine.
Shit, I'd better get going.
Woman like you, no doubt you've got a busy day.
I'm going to go to the studio. Fun.
Do you need some money?
HE CHUCKLES That's not a trick question.
Uh, yeah, if you want to give me some, I'll take it.
Sure. Um...
I've got to rush so you can let yourself out.
INTERCOM TRILLS
PHONE VIBRATES
DOOR BUZZES
Yeah, he's through here.
Hi. All right, let's go again, bro. Go for another take.
Yeah, yeah. We'll get it on this one.
All right, here it comes.
MUSIC STARTS
# Troubled soul, stunted growth
# There's a thin line between life and death when you run alone
# All your closest just come and go
# Cos most times when you was lashing out, it was unprovoked
# Why does drama seem to love to hold you tight by the neck
# And leave you gasping for your breath?
# Now you don't trust a soul
# Is that why there's a ton of blokes?
# Is that why they just touch and go and why there's no love involved?
# Sometimes we're forced into corners to make decisions
# Sometimes we fall to our knees in places we've risen
# Sometimes additions to families create division
# Now you're seeking validation in all the places you've been in
# Some take advantage of dispositions
# Smoking mirrors change your reflection and most decisions
# That's the simple complexity of your mission
# Internally, there's a battle
# You're fighting to see the vision. #
Jeez! That was cold, bro.
Come on! Come on. Bro, let me get XLR, please.
Sure, man. Thank you.
That was sick, by the way.
Sasha's a singer.
Ah, don't lie, sick man, looking forward to hear your stuff, then.
I didn't know if you'd reply on my text.
Why? Cos you were rude?
I never judged you for having a Daily Fans,
so for you to come at me like that -
I don't even know who this person is.
I was only trying to help you with your music.
I'm sorry.
I wasn't mad at you. I was...
I just want to get back to working on my music.
Come to a Soulflex gig, then.
I'm not ready to sing my own songs in front of loads of people.
You're never going to be ready if you don't believe in yourself,
and I can't do that for you.
PHONE VIBRATES
Hello?
What do you mean she's in the hospital?
Where's my mum? She's in there.
It's fine, it's fine - just a scare.
Hey! I said not to worry her.
Well, are you all right? Yes.
They're just checking me over.
It's pre-eclampsia... What's that?
Hopefully not, you know, they're extra cautious cos of my age
and geriatric pregnancy, you know...
All right, Megan. She's a bit upset. I'm not.
I just think it's stupid how you're prepared to die
over a baby that you don't even know when you already have two babies...
Children. Whatever!
Megan...
What's up with Megan?
Do you want a nurse? Are you OK?
I'm fine. Stop mithering.
I'm bloody hungry, actually, I could murder a steak bake. Sorry.
Sure, I'll go get you something.
IRRITATED: Just get me that. Thank you.
Uh, do you want a steak bake?
No, I'm cool.
Kevin wants to call him Timothy.
It's a bit shit, isn't it?
Mm.
Are you OK?
Yeah, I'm just...
I'm good.
What is it?
You know when I used to bunk off school?
There was a time when...
..I bunked off...
..and I come home and...
..I was upset.
Yeah, I think I remember, yeah. It's a long time ago.
You never asked me where I went.
Because you locked yourself in your bedroom
and didn't speak to me for a week.
You were in such a mood.
You were a stroppy, teenager. I weren't always like that.
What?
You mad at me for that now, are you?
You were a teenager.
Sasha, you're doing so well.
I'm...
I'm really proud, I'm proud of everything you're doing.
We've had our silly issues, whatever...
..but let's not go over the past.
OK?
Smasher?
I should check on Megan.
Yeah.
Embarrassing - having a baby in her 40s.
I used to love looking after you when you were a baby.
You had no hair and you were really fat and wrinkled. Urgh.
No, I wasn't!
You were a tiny, tiny, tiny bit cute.
You and Carly looked so nice on holiday.
Why are people saying that she's a prostitute?
Who's saying that?
They're saying she's on some website.
What's happening, people?
You're tuned in to another edition of Manz In The Cut.
Today on the show, we are talking about a website
called Tiger The Simp that Yapz kindly brought to our attention.
That's a site that... Catches hoes.
Nah! Guess who I've seen posted on the website today. Go on.
Carly Visions.
No!
I've seen bare screenshots of her agreeing to do golden showers
and all sorts, man.
Getting flown out for fun and posting jet set life.
Now, who else is on that?
And say if you knew...
She's not, is she? No. No, she's...
These are the same girls who love bare teasing
and when it's time to fuck, they're not on it
and if they do, they cry rape after.
Uh... You know me - I say what people won't.
Nah, he's mad! Head gone!
Come here. I'm sorry for storming off, Mum.
Oh, darling, don't worry.
I'm going to go. Yeah.
You off?
I'm glad you came.
Thank you.
Sorry, bit weird.
Oh...
Yeah.
Ah.
LOUD MUSIC PLAYS Carly?
I don't care how much it costs, just get it taken down!
It's illegal! They can't post that about me!
Sort it!
I called ya.
What the fuck are you going to do? MUSIC STOPS
You seen the podcast, then?
Fucking joke. What are you going to do?
FEIGNS CHEERINESS: Nothing. It's fine.
People will forget about it tomorrow.
That podcast has been watched by thousands of people.
My little sister's seen it.
You talk about being discreet
and then you go and message loads of random guys.
Don't you think I know that?
It's my name online, my brand,
everything I've worked for.
I'm going to sort it.
You think you can fix everything. You're not invincible.
When we were away, some really fucked up stuff happened,
and you just keep on pretending... Here we go.
I can't get these images out of my head
and it is fucking driving me mad and I know you're feeling the same.
I'm not doing this.
You can't even talk about it!
There's no way we could've left that villa, right?
If there was, you wouldn't have put me, all of us girls, in danger.
Obviously not. Stop lying.
You had the passports!
I saw you.
I fucking saw you.
We could have left.
With zero money.
You would have done the same thing.
I know you. I would have left.
I wouldn't have stayed
and ended up being forced to do what you had to do.
Having sex with a teenager.
Oh, and you're living in your little fantasy world
where a customer's going to come and rescue you
and make you a fucking princess?
Oh, wait, maybe it's Anton.
You're full-on deluded.
You're a pimp.
You used me.
You made me make the worst decisions I've ever made in my fucking life,
and I went along with it because I was desperate. Exactly.
I met you and your life was shit.
Nobody even knew who you were!
Singing songs in your bedroom - it don't make you a fucking singer.
I don't care if people know who I am - I don't want it.
Keep it. Yeah, right!
You love the attention.
If people find out about me cos of you...
CARLY LAUGHS
What?
What you going to do, Sasha?
Are you going to hit me?
Me and you, we ain't the same.
You've forgotten what you told me.
You were a fucking slut long before you met me.
Sleeping with Anton's brother.
Just move from me, Sasha.
You're fucked up.
You need me, Sasha.
DOOR CLOSES
Doors opening.
Hi.
I didn't know where else to go.
Yes, of course.
SIRENS WAIL IN DISTANCE
Afternoon.
Afternoon. I thought I'd make you brunch.
There's more coffee in the cupboard.
I'm sorry, I have a meeting.
OK, when you're back.
Sasha?
We've had a really fun time, last few months.
I do care for you in a way that's unexpected for me.
I've been thinking... But I want to make sure
that I haven't given you the wrong idea.
What do you mean?
Sasha, I don't want a girlfriend,
but I want to help you. Oh, right.
We could have some sort of arrangement.
I would financially support you and we could still hang out.
I'd be your employee.
No, you'd be my friend
and I would respect you.
Sasha, wait, let's talk.
I knew you could never be with someone like me.
Come on.
Hymn book, miss?
Sasha?
I didn't expect to see you.
You remember Dionn? I... Anton's brother.
Hi.
Melrose, come on.
Call me when you're settled in your new place.
Take a seat.
I hoped I'd bump into you again cos I wanted you to know
that I'm not angry that you told Anton.
I've changed a lot.
I found God and I'm sorry...
..if I caused you pain in any way.
Anton said you two were good together.
Fucking touch me.
If anybody in here wants to give testimony, come forward,
let us pray for you.
Sasha. What's happened?
SASHA WHIMPERS
It's OK, it's OK. Come with me. Let's go home.
You know what your grandma would say?
"What come bad a morning can't come good a evening."
What's happened?
Whatever it is, we can sort it.
Is it about Anton?
Break-ups are hard, and they take time.
I know it's... Why were you with Dionn?
Sorry?
Why were you with him?
Sasha, Dionn got Anton to drop the charges.
He's trying to help you. No.
No, he hasn't.
You need to move on for yourself. I can't. I can't...
What's happened?
I did something...
..really bad.
That's why Anton doesn't want to be with me.
Oh...
You can tell me.
Whatever it is, I'm sure Anton knows you didn't mean it.
I didn't know it was going to be that.
I didn't know.
Going to be what?
I'm here.
Tell me.
I slept with Dionn.
Dionn?
What do you mean?
When?
Dionn's only just come out.
I'd had a row with my mum.
And then I bunked off school.
I met him in the park.
MUSIC PLAYS
I don't tell that bitch anything.
Right, is that how you talk about your mum, yeah?
Yeah. I don't care.
I can tell you like trouble.
Turn it up.
You like that one, yeah?
HE LAUGHS
# Zum, zum, zum
# Zum-zum-zum-zum-zum-zum-zum... #
I didn't know he would have a friend there.
Sasha, how old were you?
13.
He would have been 19, 20.
Did you tell anyone?
Dionn went to prison, and I just...
..tried to forget about.
Then you introduced me to Anton in church.
He said he'd just moved to London,
I should be nice to him.
We really liked each other.
When I found out he was Dionn's little brother, I just...
SHE SIGHS
..I lied.
I didn't want him to think I was dirty.
And when Dionn was coming out of prison, I...
That's it, I had to tell him.
You're lying.
I'm not.
I'm sorry.
Just move from me, Sasha.
I said fucking move from me.
He called me a fucking hoe.
Sasha, you were a child.
You hear me?
A child.
# Mi wan party hard
# Yes, we ah party hard.... #
Can tell you're a real bad girl in school.
Yeah, you're very mature for your age.
Oh, that's pretty.
You should take your jacket off, it's bare hot.
# Donae'o
# When I touch mic the crowd will get hype if I say so
# I don't play bro
# I'm here to entertain yo'
# No games bro
# Hype ting inna dis ting an' know you must party hard
# And to my ladies dem, mi love you still, you're my babies
# No ifs, no buts and no maybes
# Show no face you know you must party hard
# And just wile out. #
Listen to me.
What Dionn and that boy did to you was not right.
Big men grooming young girls.
I could...
I believe you.
We're going to sort this out.
I promise.
SHE SNIFFS Let me pray for you.
Then let me sit with you.
DOG BARKS IN DISTANCE
PLANE PASSES OVERHEAD
KNOCK AT DOOR
DOOR OPENS
Only me.
Perry's dying to see you.
How'd you sleep?
Like I could have slept for a thousand days.
You can stay here as long as you want.
Perry's fine on the sofa.
And when you're ready, we can decide what to do about it all.
What you told me.
When you're ready.
# I'm numb, lonely
# Thought I was the only one
# It's hard to find the right words
# Knowing that they'll all hurt
# In sync with the sunset
# Down and I am out for the night... #
KNOCK ON DOOR
Yeah? Food for you.
# And it fluctuates
# I'm infatuated with my fate
# In the depth of my sadness, I can't wait to reach that high
# I'm fine
# This is the last time... #
KNOCK ON DOOR
Food for you. Thank you.
# Cos I should be happy on my own... #
KNOCK ON DOOR
I got you chicken nuggets.
# Cos I know that when I'm lonely, you'll be by my side
# But it's only when I'm lonely that you seem to make me cry. #
KNOCK ON DOOR
Maybe it's time you went and got your things from Carly.
We've all done things we regret.
Forgiveness plus patience.
That's what you must give yourself.
That's what you must give to her, too.
KEYS JANGLE
Can I come in?
Yeah.
Come for your stuff, Lexi Garima?
Living with Mr Big Shot now, are you?
Whatever, Carly.
SHE SIGHS
I'm done.
So we're not mates any more?
How can we be?
I...don't even know the word for what we are.
So, are you going to do DailyFans by yourself?
How are you going to make money?
Look, I'll be honest with you from now on. No more taking a cut.
All your money is yours.
Proper...business partners.
I need you,
and you need me.
I don't.
I deleted all of my accounts.
Every single account I had online.
You should see the things that these fucking trolls are saying about me.
They told me to kill myself.
Don't fucking listen to what people say online, do you hear me?
I'm serious.
Don't read that shit.
Why? Would you miss me?
Then just stay.
I can't.
Do you want me to beg?
Sasha, I'm fucking sorry.
OK?
Is that what you want to hear?
I'll kill myself without you.
Just get up. Please, get up.
Don't you love me?
I do. I do.
Don't you think I've missed you and...?
Mummy...
You said Courtney was your brother.
I never lied.
BABBLING
Drink your juice.
DOOR CLOSES
He's better off with his dad.
I'm not a bad person.
I know, Carly.
We're worth...so much...
..but you've let people fuck you up.
And you've really got to just love yourself.
And I wish I knew that before...
..when I would look in the mirror.
You need to start seeing that, Carly.
CARLY SNIFFLES
SHE HUMS
# I can't eat...and
# ..for a thousand days...
# I slept for...
# I slept for a thousand days
# One-two, one-two, one... #
BEEP Hey, it's Sasha.
Uh, call me back when you get this.
INDISTINCT CHATTER
Can you just give me a minute? Sure. Yeah.
Hey. Hi.
It's proper. Don't be nervous. Just do what you do best.
Sing and ignore the music people.
Cool. Come on, let's sound check.
# I think my momma was a gangsta
# I think my daddy was a Rolling Stone
# I was looking for some answers... #
CHEERING
Hey! Um, thank you for coming down tonight to Soulflex.
Um, the artists performing are... MICROPHONE FEEDBACK
Oh, sorry. The mic, um...!
..um, some of the rawest
undiscovered talent from East London.
CHEERING Let's show some love!
MUSIC PLAYS SOFTLY
# I sat outside my body for a while
# So I could really feel alive
# From time to time, a place or smell... #
Don't you dare!
Hi.
I see you dressed up for me.
Don't start! I had an interview for my pupillage.
Did it go well?
Obviously it did. Yeah.
Look at us - big 25-year-old grown-ups, you know!
You know you got this, right?
I've missed you.
Better not ruin your make-up.
CHEERING
Hey!
I'm here with Sasha Clay,
and, uh, we're going to do a little song.
WHOOPING
Hi, I'm Sasha Clay.
This is my first time performing.
Uh, I don't know if I'm any good, but I don't care.
I just hope you like it.
# I slept for a thousand days
# When I woke up, my soul had changed
# Fuck the fake shit, gave up on me
# Lost myself, spent time searching
# Ain't for the Gram It's not pretend
# Sun in my window, back in the ends
# Out in the street, faces I see
# Found the melody The person I used to be
# The child left behind
# I could set free
# But is she proud of me?
# Is she proud of me?
# Hope she's proud of the woman that I've become
# The woman that I was
# The woman that I've become
# The woman that I was
# The woman that I...
# Up from the mud Had to hit restart
# Needed self-love Didn't trust my heart
# Bonfire for the monsters under my bed
# Ignore the dark shit inside of my head
# Yeah, I'm a baby girl
# But I'm not your little girl
# I got big dreams and I deserve the world
# Done being smaller Yeah, I grew taller
# Done with opinions
# Sorry, next caller
# The child left behind
# I could set free
# But is she proud of me?
# Is she proud of me?
# Hope she's proud of the woman that I've become
# The woman that I was
# The woman that I've become
# The woman that I was
# The woman that I... #
CHEERING
# Yes, I'm moving on Trying to find my sound
# The woman I've become Trying to find myself
# Yes, I'm moving on Trying to find my sound
# The woman I've become Trying to find myself
# Ohh-ohh
# The woman that I've become
# The woman that I was
# The woman that I've become
# The woman that I was
# The woman that I
# Oh, ooh-ooh
# The woman that I've
# Become. #
APPLAUSE AND CHEERING
CHUCKLING
That was sick!
So good! They love you.
Fucking hell! Was it all right?
Aw...! It was all right. Killed it! Killed it!
Yeah, you were all right, too! Thanks!
Hey, there's a music guy that looks like Lenny Kravitz at the bar.
He gave me his card.
Uh...
I guess I'll talk to him.
There's a bottle of rose with our name on it.
What?!
Um...
Thanks for being,
well, really annoying and
a tiny, little bit encouraging.
No, but seriously. Um...
..for not giving up on me.
I appreciate it.
It's cool.
Sasha?
Nothing. Go. Do your thing.
OK.
Hey! Hey. Great show.
FOOTSTEPS APPROACH
Superhero breakfast?
Something like that.
KNOCK AT DOOR
You sit down. It's my house, lady.
DOOR OPENS, INDISTINCT CHATTER
It's Anton. I'm sorry, I forgot I needed to give him his keys.
Do you want me to tell him you're here?
No, I'm good.
Thanks. How have you been?
PHONE VIBRATES
All right, I'll see you later.
FOOTSTEPS APPROACH
PHONE VIBRATES
# Ready to go
# Ready to blow Ready to risk all
# Yeah, yeah, yeah Ready to be wrong
# Ready to be right Ready to risk it all
# Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
# I know I'm alone and nobody knows
# What I got to do for my survival
# In an expensive fucking city
# Opinions don't pay my bills
# I know that me hustling will
# I can do this Never gonna quit
# I can make it I'm going to be rich... #