1 00:00:36,369 --> 00:00:37,579 Hey, Tyler! 2 00:00:38,705 --> 00:00:40,165 Tyler, got your coffee. 3 00:00:41,750 --> 00:00:43,126 -Hi, honey. -Good morning. 4 00:00:43,209 --> 00:00:44,335 Oh, Tyler. Good morning. 5 00:00:44,419 --> 00:00:46,212 -How's it going? -How are you? 6 00:00:46,296 --> 00:00:49,090 -I'm doing dandy. You got me coffee. -You got your good stuff. 7 00:00:49,174 --> 00:00:50,467 -Thank you. -Everything good? 8 00:00:50,550 --> 00:00:53,011 -Yeah. I'll start getting ready. -All right. 9 00:00:53,094 --> 00:00:56,765 Okay. I'm gonna leave you alone so you can kinda relax for a minute. 10 00:00:56,848 --> 00:00:58,099 Okay. 11 00:01:03,396 --> 00:01:06,608 I pulled some cards to see what today's reading's all about. 12 00:01:06,691 --> 00:01:07,692 -Really? -Yeah. 13 00:01:07,776 --> 00:01:09,652 -What do you think? -Want me to show you? 14 00:01:09,736 --> 00:01:11,071 -Yes. -Come here. 15 00:01:12,822 --> 00:01:13,990 Sorry. 16 00:01:14,074 --> 00:01:16,701 So, I don't typically do tarot before readings, 17 00:01:16,785 --> 00:01:21,873 but sometimes when I'm needing a little help, or I'm feeling tired, 18 00:01:21,956 --> 00:01:24,918 it helps me clarify what I'm likely to pick up on. 19 00:01:25,502 --> 00:01:27,629 The person that will come through is the Queen of Wands. 20 00:01:27,712 --> 00:01:29,464 That means they have a dead mother. 21 00:01:29,547 --> 00:01:30,423 Oh, wow. 22 00:01:31,091 --> 00:01:35,220 The reference that comes through first to, like, children, kids, 23 00:01:35,303 --> 00:01:37,889 so it would be a mother-daughter situation. 24 00:01:37,972 --> 00:01:40,767 All this indicates that there was some degree of knowingness 25 00:01:40,850 --> 00:01:42,060 leading up to the passing. 26 00:01:42,143 --> 00:01:45,647 -Okay. -Not something that's shocking. 27 00:01:45,730 --> 00:01:48,441 But Queen of Wands is the main emphasis here. 28 00:01:48,525 --> 00:01:50,026 So my bet is… 29 00:01:51,528 --> 00:01:53,863 …it's gonna be a reading for a mom who passed. 30 00:01:56,366 --> 00:01:58,660 All right. Do we know what I'm wearing today? 31 00:01:58,743 --> 00:02:01,496 -Yeah. Do you have on chonies? -"Chonies?" 32 00:02:01,579 --> 00:02:02,956 Got on panties. 33 00:02:03,039 --> 00:02:05,750 -Your brookies. In Dutch, it's "brookies." -My panties. 34 00:02:05,834 --> 00:02:06,960 My lace panties. 35 00:02:07,043 --> 00:02:09,420 All right, you gotta pay more to get this scene. 36 00:02:09,504 --> 00:02:11,840 I'll be right back. I'm gonna change. 37 00:02:13,133 --> 00:02:15,009 How much you wanna bet it'll be a mother? 38 00:02:15,093 --> 00:02:17,220 -What are we gonna bet? -I don't know. 39 00:02:17,303 --> 00:02:18,721 You'll go out to dinner with me? 40 00:02:18,805 --> 00:02:20,348 -No. No, no. -In public? 41 00:02:20,431 --> 00:02:22,934 No? We'll see. 42 00:02:42,829 --> 00:02:44,164 I'm craving lobster. 43 00:02:46,040 --> 00:02:47,876 -I'm concentrating. -I mean… Okay. 44 00:02:47,959 --> 00:02:49,836 -Things coming through. -All right. 45 00:02:49,919 --> 00:02:51,296 Got like a, uh… 46 00:02:52,297 --> 00:02:56,009 -Tell me. -Something that you'd put on your shirt. 47 00:02:56,092 --> 00:02:57,343 It's an old lady thing. 48 00:02:57,427 --> 00:03:00,096 -A brooch. -A brooch of some sort, probably. 49 00:03:00,180 --> 00:03:02,348 I feel very old and skinny. 50 00:03:02,432 --> 00:03:04,267 There's a reference to a surgery. 51 00:03:05,268 --> 00:03:08,771 And then that kinda sets the stage for a decline. 52 00:03:18,781 --> 00:03:19,908 Hello. 53 00:03:21,409 --> 00:03:22,827 -Hi! -Hi, Tyler. 54 00:03:22,911 --> 00:03:25,163 -How's it goin'? -Good, thank you. 55 00:03:25,246 --> 00:03:27,040 Oh! What a cutie. 56 00:03:27,123 --> 00:03:28,875 -Yes. -How are you? 57 00:03:28,958 --> 00:03:32,462 -I'm Tyler. It's lovely to meet you. -Adell. Nice to meet you too. 58 00:03:32,545 --> 00:03:35,632 -This is Victor. -Hello, Victor. How are you doing? 59 00:03:35,715 --> 00:03:37,759 Precious. All right. 60 00:03:37,842 --> 00:03:42,013 -Got our little friend over here. Aw. -Yes, we do. Come on, bud. 61 00:03:42,096 --> 00:03:44,641 So, basically, my job as a medium 62 00:03:44,724 --> 00:03:47,977 is to communicate everything that comes through. I'm big on specifics, 63 00:03:48,061 --> 00:03:51,940 details, information that there's no way I could know through other means. 64 00:03:52,023 --> 00:03:54,776 I don't see dead people walking around or anything like that. 65 00:03:54,859 --> 00:03:56,486 -That would be terrifying. 66 00:03:56,569 --> 00:03:58,488 Sometimes people will come through 67 00:03:58,571 --> 00:04:01,157 and have messages for someone living that you know also. 68 00:04:01,241 --> 00:04:04,494 So just keeping your mind open, in the sense of anyone can come in. 69 00:04:04,577 --> 00:04:07,497 -Okay. -So did you bring any objects today? 70 00:04:07,580 --> 00:04:08,873 I did. Yes. 71 00:04:08,957 --> 00:04:09,791 Amazing. 72 00:04:11,960 --> 00:04:12,961 Okay. 73 00:04:13,920 --> 00:04:16,005 Adell, Adell, Adell, Adell, Adell. 74 00:04:16,589 --> 00:04:19,634 Okay. All right. 75 00:04:21,135 --> 00:04:23,263 Adell, Adell, Adell, Adell. 76 00:04:24,013 --> 00:04:26,849 Separate from these objects, I wanna talk about your family, 77 00:04:26,933 --> 00:04:29,852 people you know. I have this old lady coming through… 78 00:04:29,936 --> 00:04:32,981 …who I can tell lived to be very, very, very old. 79 00:04:33,064 --> 00:04:35,733 When we talk about in grandparent level, grandma, 80 00:04:35,817 --> 00:04:37,944 do you have any really old family members, 81 00:04:38,027 --> 00:04:40,947 who lived to be really old, that would be female in the family? 82 00:04:41,030 --> 00:04:43,241 I don't know what you consider really old. 83 00:04:43,324 --> 00:04:46,577 -Um… -Yeah. Who is this person? 84 00:04:47,370 --> 00:04:50,915 Weird. Wonder if this is related to the place we're at. 85 00:04:52,041 --> 00:04:56,087 It's weird. This location has a very different feeling than your energy. 86 00:04:56,170 --> 00:04:58,840 So, obviously, we're at a house. 87 00:04:58,923 --> 00:04:59,882 Mm-hm. 88 00:05:00,425 --> 00:05:01,926 Is this not your house? 89 00:05:02,010 --> 00:05:03,094 -No. -It's not yours. 90 00:05:03,177 --> 00:05:04,679 Yeah, 'cause I'm not… 91 00:05:04,762 --> 00:05:06,931 -The energy of the house feels different. -Yeah. 92 00:05:07,932 --> 00:05:11,102 This house belongs to a friend of mine, Michelle. 93 00:05:11,185 --> 00:05:16,441 She has a very serene and calming backyard. 94 00:05:17,817 --> 00:05:19,068 Got that. 95 00:05:20,611 --> 00:05:23,364 Maybe this person isn't coming through for you. 96 00:05:23,448 --> 00:05:25,825 Okay, gonna keep going. Um… 97 00:05:29,579 --> 00:05:34,625 Okay. I have this reference to a bit of a premature passing 98 00:05:34,709 --> 00:05:37,378 that I have to bring up, and this would be pertinent to a male. 99 00:05:38,046 --> 00:05:41,049 So when someone passes, you know, 75 to 85. 100 00:05:41,132 --> 00:05:43,384 That's age-appropriate. That's normal. 101 00:05:43,468 --> 00:05:46,596 This guy that I'm having to talk about passed away earlier, 102 00:05:46,679 --> 00:05:48,723 and he didn't get to see a full life. 103 00:05:48,806 --> 00:05:50,808 -Is there a male connected to these? -Yes. 104 00:05:50,892 --> 00:05:52,769 How old was he when he passed? 105 00:05:52,852 --> 00:05:54,729 Two days from 15 years old. 106 00:05:54,812 --> 00:05:57,774 Fifteen. He feels very glad that you showed up 107 00:05:57,857 --> 00:06:01,027 because he's bringing up this feeling of relief, relief, relief. 108 00:06:01,110 --> 00:06:05,740 Like, wanting to connect with you. He is bringing up a couple things. 109 00:06:07,200 --> 00:06:10,203 Okay. Weird, Weird, Weird. 110 00:06:11,746 --> 00:06:14,332 He keeps bringing up "one and only," "one and only." 111 00:06:14,415 --> 00:06:18,586 Oh! I used to tell him that. 112 00:06:18,669 --> 00:06:21,714 -Yeah. -He would leave a note for me. 113 00:06:21,798 --> 00:06:24,050 Or I'd leave a note for him, like sticky notes? 114 00:06:24,133 --> 00:06:25,593 They were his thing from… 115 00:06:27,261 --> 00:06:30,598 -Yeah, I would sign "Love, One and Only." -Yeah. 116 00:06:32,392 --> 00:06:35,561 He keeps showing me lot of references, like academics. 117 00:06:35,645 --> 00:06:40,066 But like, he feels kind of very unlike the other kids. 118 00:06:40,149 --> 00:06:44,195 He gives me, in all honesty, the feeling of almost being a brilliant mind. 119 00:06:44,278 --> 00:06:45,113 Mm-hmm. 120 00:06:45,196 --> 00:06:47,824 I feel like I'm already, kind of at a young age, 121 00:06:47,907 --> 00:06:49,659 looking at, "Where am I gonna go?" 122 00:06:49,742 --> 00:06:52,245 "What college am…" Like, very much a passion there. 123 00:06:52,328 --> 00:06:53,454 -Yeah. -Makes sense? 124 00:06:53,538 --> 00:06:58,543 It does. He actually came to me at the age of nine, and he was telling me, 125 00:06:58,626 --> 00:07:00,294 "Mom, I'm gonna go to Yale." 126 00:07:00,378 --> 00:07:03,297 -He was going to be an engineer. -Yeah. 127 00:07:05,049 --> 00:07:07,176 -What was your son's name? -Tomari. 128 00:07:07,260 --> 00:07:09,846 -Tomari. -Tomari Alijah. 129 00:07:13,266 --> 00:07:17,854 Okay. I'm trying to get him to talk about what happened. 130 00:07:17,937 --> 00:07:20,731 Okay, let me underscore that. 131 00:07:20,815 --> 00:07:24,318 We'll see if this helps. Weird thing. 132 00:07:28,781 --> 00:07:31,868 Okay. Um, were you away from him at the time that he passed? 133 00:07:31,951 --> 00:07:34,454 -Yes. He was out of the country. -Okay. 134 00:07:34,537 --> 00:07:38,040 Okay. Oh, out of… Oh! Got you. He was in a completely different-- 135 00:07:38,124 --> 00:07:39,208 Country. 136 00:07:40,126 --> 00:07:43,421 Without giving too much away, was anyone around him at the time? 137 00:07:43,504 --> 00:07:44,338 Yes. 138 00:07:44,422 --> 00:07:47,675 The way this is coming through, the response from the people around him 139 00:07:47,758 --> 00:07:48,843 felt kinda immature. 140 00:07:49,510 --> 00:07:53,306 It's like how a child would respond to something bad happening. 141 00:07:53,806 --> 00:07:56,559 The people around him, were they younger? 142 00:07:57,143 --> 00:07:57,977 Yeah. 143 00:07:59,937 --> 00:08:02,940 He's giving me this feeling of, like, scrambling. 144 00:08:03,024 --> 00:08:05,485 So anytime I see scrambling, it usually indicates, 145 00:08:05,568 --> 00:08:08,696 "I'm here," and then someone running, leaving, 146 00:08:08,779 --> 00:08:12,033 don't wanna be where they're at. Do you know if anybody like fled? 147 00:08:12,116 --> 00:08:13,659 -Yes. -'Cause I feel like I'm-- 148 00:08:13,743 --> 00:08:15,828 -Everybody. -Everybody? Gotcha. 149 00:08:15,912 --> 00:08:17,330 -I'm so sorry. -Yeah. 150 00:08:17,413 --> 00:08:19,457 In the way this comes through, this happens, 151 00:08:19,540 --> 00:08:21,250 we don't know how to deal with it. 152 00:08:21,334 --> 00:08:25,755 -Everyone's going different directions. -They left him until the next day. 153 00:08:25,838 --> 00:08:27,673 Oh my God, the next day. 154 00:08:27,757 --> 00:08:29,467 -Mm-hmm. -I'm so sorry. 155 00:08:37,141 --> 00:08:39,894 Don't know why I feel like I can't catch my breath. 156 00:08:39,977 --> 00:08:42,063 It feels… I don't know what this is. 157 00:08:42,146 --> 00:08:45,024 It feels similar to when the wind gets knocked out of you. 158 00:08:45,107 --> 00:08:45,942 But I can't… 159 00:08:47,777 --> 00:08:50,613 Like, let air into my lungs and then release it. 160 00:08:50,696 --> 00:08:53,574 Do you know if there were any breathing issues in his situation? 161 00:08:53,658 --> 00:08:54,492 Yes. 162 00:08:56,077 --> 00:09:00,414 I guess at this point, this might be a chance to tell me what happened. 163 00:09:01,582 --> 00:09:02,792 He drowned. 164 00:09:02,875 --> 00:09:04,085 -He drowned? -Yeah. 165 00:09:04,168 --> 00:09:05,044 Yeah. 166 00:09:07,588 --> 00:09:11,551 A field trip took a turn for the worse when a teenager actually died. 167 00:09:12,426 --> 00:09:15,805 Tomari was on Cobb High School's annual trip to Belize. 168 00:09:15,888 --> 00:09:17,640 The students had just landed. 169 00:09:17,723 --> 00:09:21,269 Prior to going to the hotel, they stopped at the Sibun River. 170 00:09:21,352 --> 00:09:23,437 Tomari was equipped with a GoPro, 171 00:09:23,521 --> 00:09:25,022 which captured everything, 172 00:09:25,106 --> 00:09:26,691 including his drowning. 173 00:09:31,445 --> 00:09:35,575 I was told that nobody saw what happened to Tomari. 174 00:09:36,325 --> 00:09:38,869 Yet on the camera, 175 00:09:38,953 --> 00:09:42,373 I saw at least 15 people looking at him. 176 00:09:42,456 --> 00:09:44,750 If you watch that video, it feels as though 177 00:09:44,834 --> 00:09:47,128 you're looking through his eyes. He had it here, 178 00:09:47,211 --> 00:09:50,548 and you can see every turn he made. 179 00:09:51,632 --> 00:09:54,677 I saw him asking for help. 180 00:09:54,760 --> 00:09:56,846 Like, calling out for help. Like, "Help!" 181 00:10:02,018 --> 00:10:06,188 He literally touched someone twice, and they pushed his hand away. 182 00:10:06,272 --> 00:10:07,523 Like, they pushed his hand. 183 00:10:07,607 --> 00:10:11,235 All it took was an extension of someone's hand, 184 00:10:11,319 --> 00:10:12,695 and they didn't do it. 185 00:10:12,778 --> 00:10:14,155 Yeah, yeah. 186 00:10:15,156 --> 00:10:17,158 And I'm thinking, no one said anything. 187 00:10:17,241 --> 00:10:21,120 The kids that were around didn't tell the adults. 188 00:10:21,203 --> 00:10:23,706 -Yeah. -But the adults didn't miss him. 189 00:10:23,789 --> 00:10:26,626 That's another thing. They didn't realize he was missing, 190 00:10:26,709 --> 00:10:29,337 so they went back to where they were staying 191 00:10:30,004 --> 00:10:32,214 before they realized. 192 00:10:35,217 --> 00:10:37,303 The way this was handled 193 00:10:38,596 --> 00:10:40,181 made me feel like 194 00:10:40,681 --> 00:10:43,267 my son's life wasn't valued. 195 00:10:43,976 --> 00:10:48,064 Like, I just wanna say, "No, he really was something special." 196 00:10:48,147 --> 00:10:50,316 "He may not have been to you, but…" 197 00:10:53,819 --> 00:10:57,323 He meant the world… to… 198 00:10:57,948 --> 00:10:59,283 He just… 199 00:11:05,456 --> 00:11:08,125 He brings up, um, accountability, 200 00:11:08,959 --> 00:11:10,044 and I… you know, 201 00:11:10,127 --> 00:11:13,547 there's some greater accountability that should have been taken, 202 00:11:13,631 --> 00:11:14,840 that just wasn't taken. 203 00:11:14,924 --> 00:11:17,677 -And I don't think it's going to be taken. -Absolutely. 204 00:11:17,760 --> 00:11:22,682 And that's kind of the frustrating thing. It's like, even beyond people's reactions, 205 00:11:22,765 --> 00:11:25,851 it's bigger than just the people that were there that day. 206 00:11:28,312 --> 00:11:31,065 It's so frustrating, and, um… 207 00:11:31,941 --> 00:11:35,945 He's wanting you to know, he's not angry at the people who fled. 208 00:11:36,028 --> 00:11:38,447 The people who didn't do anything, and should've. 209 00:11:38,531 --> 00:11:40,574 -Right. -But… 210 00:11:41,742 --> 00:11:44,787 he… doesn't want you to be angry. 211 00:11:46,539 --> 00:11:49,375 He feels like you have a whole life ahead of you 212 00:11:49,458 --> 00:11:51,961 and a lot of positive things to experience. 213 00:11:52,044 --> 00:11:55,548 He just doesn't want his passing to define how we think of his life. 214 00:11:55,631 --> 00:11:56,841 -All right. -You know. 215 00:11:57,466 --> 00:11:58,551 He's okay, you know? 216 00:11:58,634 --> 00:12:00,052 Well, that's good to know. 217 00:12:01,637 --> 00:12:03,139 Before the reading, 218 00:12:03,222 --> 00:12:06,308 I felt as though I was grasping or guessing 219 00:12:06,392 --> 00:12:11,272 about what's going on with Tomari since his transition. 220 00:12:11,355 --> 00:12:16,193 However, getting that affirmation is very comforting. 221 00:12:16,694 --> 00:12:21,824 I definitely feel like I, I communicated with my son today. 222 00:12:33,377 --> 00:12:34,920 I have something to tell you. 223 00:12:35,004 --> 00:12:36,005 Then tell me. 224 00:12:36,088 --> 00:12:38,799 That was really just a lot. 225 00:12:38,883 --> 00:12:39,884 Okay. 226 00:12:39,967 --> 00:12:43,262 I have to tell you. Do you know the owner of this house? 227 00:12:43,345 --> 00:12:45,097 No, this is one of her friends. 228 00:12:45,181 --> 00:12:46,265 Oh. 229 00:12:46,807 --> 00:12:50,436 As I was connecting with that reading, I had another distinct impression 230 00:12:50,519 --> 00:12:53,981 connected to the house coming through. Someone who lived to an old age 231 00:12:54,064 --> 00:12:56,484 that was coming through in the car ride here. 232 00:12:56,567 --> 00:12:59,987 The person who has this house, I'm convinced their mother has died. 233 00:13:00,070 --> 00:13:05,201 Their mother was trying to come through right in front of that little shed there. 234 00:13:05,284 --> 00:13:07,328 This lady will not leave me alone. 235 00:13:07,411 --> 00:13:09,997 She's coming through. She has a very brief message, 236 00:13:10,080 --> 00:13:11,499 but it's important. 237 00:13:11,582 --> 00:13:13,751 Okay, Uh, Lisa, 238 00:13:13,834 --> 00:13:18,047 ask the woman who owns this house to come outside right now, please. 239 00:13:18,130 --> 00:13:21,258 And go towards the driveway. José, come with me. 240 00:13:21,342 --> 00:13:23,010 Let's get these two cameras. 241 00:13:26,597 --> 00:13:29,225 -We just asked the woman to come out. -Okay. 242 00:13:29,308 --> 00:13:31,393 -She's gonna keep her mask on. -Okay, great. 243 00:13:31,477 --> 00:13:33,145 So let's just keep a distance. 244 00:13:33,229 --> 00:13:36,857 Yeah. Hi! How's it goin'? 245 00:13:36,941 --> 00:13:37,900 I'm wonderful. 246 00:13:37,983 --> 00:13:39,527 Good. 247 00:13:39,610 --> 00:13:41,403 I so admire your work. 248 00:13:41,487 --> 00:13:44,490 -I'm a real believer in all of this. -Thank you. 249 00:13:44,573 --> 00:13:48,285 I was reading my client here, and as I was trying to connect with her people, 250 00:13:48,369 --> 00:13:52,164 I had this lovely little lady comin' through for you. 251 00:13:52,248 --> 00:13:55,084 It's the weirdest thing because she's so cute. 252 00:13:55,167 --> 00:13:58,254 -She felt thin when she passed, old. -Yes. 253 00:13:58,337 --> 00:14:01,632 -She wanted to connect with her daughter. -That's my mother. 254 00:14:01,715 --> 00:14:03,884 She needed you to know. She put me right… 255 00:14:03,968 --> 00:14:05,845 -See that shed over there? -Yes! 256 00:14:05,928 --> 00:14:07,513 When I walked by there, she was-- 257 00:14:07,596 --> 00:14:10,558 She stood there and had her picture taken when she was here! 258 00:14:13,352 --> 00:14:15,479 She was showing me costume jewelry. 259 00:14:15,563 --> 00:14:17,731 I don't know if she loved costume jewelry, 260 00:14:17,815 --> 00:14:20,693 but she was, like, fabulous, in the way it comes across. 261 00:14:20,776 --> 00:14:24,905 She loved jewelry. You know, kinda funky, little bit cheap in some ways, 262 00:14:24,989 --> 00:14:27,616 but she loved it. Yeah, you are just so spot on. 263 00:14:27,700 --> 00:14:30,828 And she kept showing me all these Ms. Different-- 264 00:14:30,911 --> 00:14:34,081 I'm Michelle. Michael, Matthew, those are my two sons. 265 00:14:34,164 --> 00:14:36,375 Gotcha. It was the funniest thing 266 00:14:36,458 --> 00:14:39,044 'cause she was coming across so proud and beaming 267 00:14:39,128 --> 00:14:41,422 about something that your son's done in a big way. 268 00:14:41,505 --> 00:14:43,215 -Just so happy. -Oh my God! 269 00:14:43,716 --> 00:14:46,844 And she also brought up this feeling of having to get a surgery 270 00:14:46,927 --> 00:14:48,929 and a surgery kicking off a decline. 271 00:14:49,013 --> 00:14:50,306 -Or a series of things. -Yes! 272 00:14:50,389 --> 00:14:53,017 The surgery's a big thing because it's quite a surprise. 273 00:14:53,100 --> 00:14:55,561 We had no choice. She would have passed without it. 274 00:14:55,644 --> 00:14:59,648 We were hoping it would've helped her. It tailspinned into it within eight weeks. 275 00:14:59,732 --> 00:15:02,902 Yeah, 'cause she put a lot of sense of peace around her passing. 276 00:15:02,985 --> 00:15:05,738 It feels like that surgery was the catalyst. 277 00:15:05,821 --> 00:15:08,782 -It did. That's what kicked in. -It all went downhill from there. 278 00:15:08,866 --> 00:15:13,162 She was so cute and so lovely. She's absolutely with you. And she's okay. 279 00:15:13,245 --> 00:15:14,538 -My God. -She's so cute. 280 00:15:14,622 --> 00:15:17,750 -I want to take her home with me. -She is cute. 281 00:15:17,833 --> 00:15:19,752 -Thank you so much! -I love it. 282 00:15:19,835 --> 00:15:22,129 -Thank you! Bye! -Have a good day. 283 00:15:24,506 --> 00:15:27,176 Hey, so I, I won the bet. 284 00:15:27,259 --> 00:15:29,136 -You did? -The mother came through. 285 00:15:29,219 --> 00:15:31,847 It wasn't for the client. It was her friend in the house. 286 00:15:31,931 --> 00:15:35,225 -Oh my God. -All in a day's work. 287 00:15:35,309 --> 00:15:37,770 -You owe me ten bucks. -Oh my goodness. 288 00:15:47,112 --> 00:15:49,114 -All right, I'm ready. -Let's go. 289 00:15:50,741 --> 00:15:54,912 I haven't seen my aunt and uncle for a while. I don't go to Hanford often. 290 00:15:54,995 --> 00:15:57,373 It doesn't evoke very happy memories for me. 291 00:15:58,082 --> 00:16:00,334 -Hopefully they have some answers. -Yeah. 292 00:16:00,417 --> 00:16:02,252 Or at least can give their perspectives. 293 00:16:04,213 --> 00:16:06,924 I'm going back because I wanna learn more about 294 00:16:07,007 --> 00:16:09,927 what happened to my mom's family. 295 00:16:10,678 --> 00:16:13,347 Like, obviously, this discovery with my mom, 296 00:16:13,430 --> 00:16:16,934 finding out that Stella had obtained my mom somehow, 297 00:16:17,017 --> 00:16:19,770 you know, at some point. I just don't understand why-- 298 00:16:19,853 --> 00:16:24,441 All I know is that she went away. She left and went to Louisiana. 299 00:16:24,525 --> 00:16:27,152 And when she came back, she had Theresa. 300 00:16:27,236 --> 00:16:30,990 -So we assumed that she had Theresa. -Yeah. 301 00:16:31,073 --> 00:16:32,658 -And she was our sister. -Yeah. 302 00:16:32,741 --> 00:16:35,744 Theresa took a test, and it came back 303 00:16:35,828 --> 00:16:37,204 that Mom wasn't 304 00:16:38,247 --> 00:16:39,164 her mom. 305 00:16:40,082 --> 00:16:44,545 Pete and I were totally shocked, because, I mean, 306 00:16:44,628 --> 00:16:47,464 you know, you grow up with this… She's my… you know, 307 00:16:47,548 --> 00:16:48,674 she's our sister. 308 00:16:49,591 --> 00:16:52,428 It's funny, because we're growing up as kids, 309 00:16:52,511 --> 00:16:53,887 and Theresa's white. 310 00:16:53,971 --> 00:16:58,225 That, you know, that never… that didn't cross my mind. 311 00:16:58,308 --> 00:17:01,186 You know, Theresa was born. My mom was dating a white man, 312 00:17:01,270 --> 00:17:05,065 and I was never suspecting anything because there was nothing to suspect. 313 00:17:05,149 --> 00:17:09,278 She had a motive to take her. But what it was, she's never said. 314 00:17:09,361 --> 00:17:10,779 And we didn't know. 315 00:17:10,863 --> 00:17:15,701 And she never went to our school functions or any kind of things like that. 316 00:17:15,784 --> 00:17:18,871 -Never took us to the dentist, doctors. -Anything. 317 00:17:19,705 --> 00:17:23,542 You know, I protected Theresa 'cause that was my little sister. 318 00:17:24,043 --> 00:17:25,335 And who protected you? 319 00:17:25,419 --> 00:17:26,295 Felicia. 320 00:17:29,590 --> 00:17:31,467 Yeah, Felicia, uh… 321 00:17:37,931 --> 00:17:41,143 Felicia, she, uh, she protected me. 322 00:17:41,226 --> 00:17:44,605 I mean, she was there. I, I think if Felicia wasn't there, 323 00:17:44,688 --> 00:17:45,856 I wouldn't be here. 324 00:17:47,232 --> 00:17:49,401 I know with everything you've gone through, 325 00:17:49,485 --> 00:17:52,946 I just… been filling the blanks, when I get a better understanding of, 326 00:17:53,030 --> 00:17:56,158 what the one moment was that changed your life? 327 00:17:56,241 --> 00:17:58,911 I think it's when I… 328 00:18:00,996 --> 00:18:02,664 I think when I went to jail. 329 00:18:14,343 --> 00:18:16,887 I had kind of, like, I had everything going for me. 330 00:18:17,846 --> 00:18:19,681 I wanted to be a police officer. 331 00:18:19,765 --> 00:18:22,434 And my first year, I was giving out tickets, 332 00:18:22,518 --> 00:18:26,105 and I was working, uh, football games. 333 00:18:26,188 --> 00:18:30,609 I loved it. I… I was only 18 for a couple months 334 00:18:30,692 --> 00:18:34,029 before my mother, you know, took what I wanted, 335 00:18:34,113 --> 00:18:36,365 what I had in my future, away from me. 336 00:18:53,799 --> 00:18:58,178 My dream was to become a cop and just have a family… 337 00:18:58,679 --> 00:19:01,265 …and just retire and enjoy… 338 00:19:03,183 --> 00:19:04,601 …enjoy your grandkids. 339 00:19:18,866 --> 00:19:21,326 It might be healing for Peter to go to the motel. 340 00:19:21,410 --> 00:19:25,455 I hope that it might help him get a little bit more closure. 341 00:19:25,539 --> 00:19:28,625 Might bring up some new things through new eyes. 342 00:19:40,470 --> 00:19:43,724 I always wondered what it would be like to come to this place. 343 00:19:44,975 --> 00:19:46,894 This is where the crime happened. 344 00:19:47,394 --> 00:19:48,896 I'm really nervous. 345 00:19:48,979 --> 00:19:53,066 This one place changed my entire family forever. 346 00:19:53,150 --> 00:19:56,528 It created a ripple effect that went through generations. 347 00:19:59,281 --> 00:20:04,036 People knew who my grandmother was, and I was made fun of for it. 348 00:20:04,119 --> 00:20:06,914 People said, "Oh, your grandma's the murderer." 349 00:20:06,997 --> 00:20:08,081 Um… 350 00:20:08,165 --> 00:20:09,416 A lot of horrible things. 351 00:20:09,499 --> 00:20:11,251 This is definitely the place. 352 00:20:12,294 --> 00:20:16,506 So growing up, I would always have nightmares of this single-story building, 353 00:20:16,590 --> 00:20:19,134 hearing these horrible noises coming from another room. 354 00:20:19,218 --> 00:20:21,803 It's all very, very traumatizing as a kid. 355 00:20:21,887 --> 00:20:26,099 And as I'm looking at the motel, it looks like the nightmares I had. 356 00:20:27,309 --> 00:20:29,186 I'm getting increasingly lightheaded. 357 00:20:29,269 --> 00:20:32,898 If it's this intense for me, I can only imagine how it is for Peter. 358 00:20:34,524 --> 00:20:36,526 -Man. -Wow. 359 00:20:38,487 --> 00:20:39,404 Wow. 360 00:20:41,949 --> 00:20:46,036 It's right here. Yeah. This is where it all happened. 361 00:20:48,080 --> 00:20:48,956 Wow. 362 00:20:52,334 --> 00:20:55,170 I'm home sleeping, and I get… my mom calls me. 363 00:20:55,754 --> 00:20:58,799 And she tells me, you know, if you could come to Fowler, 364 00:20:58,882 --> 00:21:00,550 where my mother worked. 365 00:21:00,634 --> 00:21:02,719 Tells me she wanted to show me somethin'. 366 00:21:03,387 --> 00:21:05,305 -And-- -That's how she broke it to you? 367 00:21:05,389 --> 00:21:08,100 -"I need to show you somethin'?" -Yeah, like it was nothing. 368 00:21:08,183 --> 00:21:09,101 Jesus. 369 00:21:10,477 --> 00:21:13,021 And right next to the office, uh, 370 00:21:13,105 --> 00:21:15,315 she showed me John and Judy's bodies. 371 00:21:20,070 --> 00:21:23,532 So, you got two bodies tied up in this little tiny room. 372 00:21:23,615 --> 00:21:25,993 I saw the, the, the, uh… 373 00:21:27,786 --> 00:21:30,580 the blood from the head, you know, from the… right here, 374 00:21:30,664 --> 00:21:32,916 and I, I see, you know, their face. 375 00:21:36,044 --> 00:21:39,298 Her story was that there were four Mexicans. 376 00:21:39,381 --> 00:21:40,966 They killed John and Judy. 377 00:21:41,049 --> 00:21:44,594 And if I go to the police, uh, they're gonna kill me 378 00:21:44,678 --> 00:21:46,054 and, you know, the family. 379 00:21:47,389 --> 00:21:52,352 And then me and my mom, you know, we dragged… We dragged the bodies, 380 00:21:52,436 --> 00:21:55,063 you know, back there, one at a time. 381 00:21:56,773 --> 00:21:59,776 I think my mother's plan was to kill the owners 382 00:21:59,860 --> 00:22:03,363 and, uh, start running the hotel. 383 00:22:05,282 --> 00:22:08,368 In many ways, yeah, there were two victims, 384 00:22:08,452 --> 00:22:11,330 but in a greater sense, you were also a victim in this. 385 00:22:11,413 --> 00:22:13,749 I trusted her. You obey your parents. 386 00:22:13,832 --> 00:22:17,627 You know, I mean, that's in the Bible. I mean, and that's all I knew. 387 00:22:17,711 --> 00:22:21,423 And I took for face value that, hey, my family's in trouble. 388 00:22:21,506 --> 00:22:26,762 And, uh, look, I would do what I have to do to protect my family. 389 00:22:27,637 --> 00:22:31,475 Is there anything you wish you could have… told them? 390 00:22:31,558 --> 00:22:33,268 Is there anything that comes to mind? 391 00:22:33,352 --> 00:22:38,023 Yeah, I would really tell John and Judy that I'm really sorry, 392 00:22:38,523 --> 00:22:41,777 you know, what happened to them because they didn't deserve this. 393 00:22:44,363 --> 00:22:48,200 -I got out ahead because I'm still alive. -Yeah. 394 00:22:48,283 --> 00:22:51,370 -Poor John and Judy didn't have a choice. -Yeah. 395 00:22:52,621 --> 00:22:55,874 But since, you know, you connect with the other side, 396 00:22:55,957 --> 00:22:57,084 do you feel anything? 397 00:22:57,167 --> 00:23:00,587 Maybe, you know, John, Judy energy. 398 00:23:00,670 --> 00:23:04,466 You know, really more just cold, in all honesty. 399 00:23:04,549 --> 00:23:06,468 It's freezing. But, yeah. 400 00:23:06,551 --> 00:23:09,638 I always wondered what it would be like to come to this place, 401 00:23:09,721 --> 00:23:13,392 and I don't think those poor people who died here 402 00:23:13,475 --> 00:23:15,602 are lingering here or stuck here. 403 00:23:15,685 --> 00:23:16,812 They're far away. 404 00:23:17,729 --> 00:23:20,107 I'm relieved I'm not getting impressions. 405 00:23:20,190 --> 00:23:22,609 I wouldn't even know what to do if I got them. 406 00:23:22,692 --> 00:23:25,028 Would I share them or hold on to them? 407 00:23:25,529 --> 00:23:27,781 It would just further complicate matters. 408 00:23:27,864 --> 00:23:30,575 In this case, I just prefer to observe. 409 00:23:34,913 --> 00:23:39,584 That was just, like, so surreal for me to hear for the first time. 410 00:23:40,168 --> 00:23:44,381 I mean, this is something that had always been a story in my family, 411 00:23:44,464 --> 00:23:47,676 but not something I'd ever heard Peter say or describe. 412 00:23:48,510 --> 00:23:50,429 -Oh, you know it. -Yeah, you know what? 413 00:23:52,764 --> 00:23:55,892 This place almost always had, like, a mythical quality. 414 00:23:55,976 --> 00:24:00,021 The way that I envisioned it, it was like a… monster. 415 00:24:00,105 --> 00:24:01,189 I had a lot of shame, 416 00:24:01,273 --> 00:24:05,402 and I know my mom had a lot of shame about what transpired here, but… 417 00:24:06,987 --> 00:24:09,322 where I'm standing now, I let it go. 418 00:24:09,865 --> 00:24:13,410 And I hope this is a step in Peter being able to let it go. 419 00:24:13,493 --> 00:24:14,453 And my mom, 420 00:24:15,203 --> 00:24:18,665 and all the generations of people who are affected by what happened here. 421 00:24:27,132 --> 00:24:28,049 Ugh. 422 00:24:29,050 --> 00:24:32,762 Man, I feel like I stirred things up inside me that I'm gonna have to like… 423 00:24:34,097 --> 00:24:39,978 I should probably see a therapist, but it's like, all very… heavy. 424 00:24:40,645 --> 00:24:42,772 I have to go home, look my mom in the eye, 425 00:24:42,856 --> 00:24:45,942 and I just wanna burst into tears, crying for her. 426 00:24:47,319 --> 00:24:51,323 I just, uh… it's a lot to process. 427 00:24:57,496 --> 00:25:00,123 -How's it going? -My goodness. Look at you. 428 00:25:00,207 --> 00:25:03,376 -Give me a hug. -Oh, I'm so proud of you, Tyler. 429 00:25:03,960 --> 00:25:06,338 I just feel deep sadness for everybody involved. 430 00:25:06,421 --> 00:25:11,009 But for my mom, who I think of all of them has processed things the least. 431 00:25:12,010 --> 00:25:14,137 -Anyway, I'm sorry. -Yeah, I know. 432 00:25:16,473 --> 00:25:18,975 Anyways, today had to be a really heavy day for you. 433 00:25:20,227 --> 00:25:21,978 There are still secrets to this day, 434 00:25:22,062 --> 00:25:24,814 things that my mom has said on her deathbed she'll tell me. 435 00:25:26,066 --> 00:25:28,568 And I can't imagine what those things are, 436 00:25:28,652 --> 00:25:31,112 hearing what I just heard today from her siblings. 437 00:25:31,196 --> 00:25:34,950 He had to be under so much stress. Imagine being eighteen-years old, 438 00:25:35,033 --> 00:25:37,035 and thinking your life is gonna go one way. 439 00:25:37,744 --> 00:25:40,455 Not only did he not have any parental guidance… 440 00:25:40,539 --> 00:25:43,833 -Mm-hmm. -…Stella put him in such danger. 441 00:25:43,917 --> 00:25:47,379 There was all this neglect in every way that you can imagine, 442 00:25:47,462 --> 00:25:50,215 and then we never had food in our house. 443 00:25:50,298 --> 00:25:53,510 We never had food, and I can't even figure that out. 444 00:25:54,469 --> 00:25:57,681 Kyle always had a job. So he was a piece of shit, 445 00:25:57,764 --> 00:25:59,724 but he always had a job. Sometimes two. 446 00:25:59,808 --> 00:26:00,642 Yeah. 447 00:26:02,602 --> 00:26:04,062 The man I thought was my father, 448 00:26:04,145 --> 00:26:07,315 oddly enough, we have the same big brown eyes. 449 00:26:07,399 --> 00:26:10,110 People would always say, "You look just like your dad." 450 00:26:10,193 --> 00:26:14,698 And, I mean, I heard that over and over. So, I really thought I was his daughter, 451 00:26:14,781 --> 00:26:16,950 and he hurt all of us. 452 00:26:32,757 --> 00:26:35,844 I have "Obsessed" by Mariah Carey stuck in my head, 453 00:26:35,927 --> 00:26:37,804 and she has such an annoying voice to me, 454 00:26:37,887 --> 00:26:39,889 but yet, I listen to her music. 455 00:26:39,973 --> 00:26:42,767 -I don't know what's going on there. -You don't like… 456 00:26:42,851 --> 00:26:44,936 She's like, will make all the china break. 457 00:26:46,146 --> 00:26:48,315 I don't know. She has me. It's because I'm gay. 458 00:26:48,398 --> 00:26:50,734 I think gay men are destined to like Mariah Carey. 459 00:26:50,817 --> 00:26:54,029 -Because it's in our makeup. -Really? 460 00:26:54,112 --> 00:26:57,657 The hormones that make you gay in the womb, I think she's responsible. 461 00:26:57,741 --> 00:27:00,452 -It gets dispersed around Christmastime. -Oh. 462 00:27:09,044 --> 00:27:12,464 I just love it out here. This is just so therapeutic. 463 00:27:12,547 --> 00:27:14,633 Like, I could just sit out here-- What? 464 00:27:15,425 --> 00:27:17,427 -Are you freaking kidding me? -What? 465 00:27:19,721 --> 00:27:22,515 -Hello. -Oh, yeah. 466 00:27:22,599 --> 00:27:23,767 -Wow. -How's it goin'? 467 00:27:23,850 --> 00:27:26,353 -  Good. Nice to meet you. -Lovely to meet you. 468 00:27:26,436 --> 00:27:28,438 -Nice to meet you. -Wonderful to meet you. 469 00:27:28,521 --> 00:27:30,940 -Thank you for having me today. -This is crazy. 470 00:27:31,024 --> 00:27:34,402 I'm interested to hear a little bit about 471 00:27:35,320 --> 00:27:36,571 what's going on. 472 00:27:36,655 --> 00:27:39,407 I've actually kept this secret for a little over a year. 473 00:27:39,491 --> 00:27:41,034 -Aw. Amazing. 474 00:27:41,117 --> 00:27:42,661 And it's not been easy. 475 00:27:42,744 --> 00:27:45,413 Yeah. Were you expecting this today? 476 00:27:45,497 --> 00:27:47,666 -Not at all. I had no-- -So this is a surprise. 477 00:27:47,749 --> 00:27:49,250 -Yeah. Big time. -Yes. 478 00:27:49,334 --> 00:27:51,252 Amazing. Well, I'm glad to be here. 479 00:27:51,336 --> 00:27:52,504 -Thank you. -Of course. 480 00:27:52,587 --> 00:27:55,965 I'm gonna take a minute with myself. I'm gonna meditate. 481 00:27:56,049 --> 00:27:59,177 And we're gonna see what comes in. Okay. 482 00:28:00,970 --> 00:28:02,097 Hmm-hmm-hmm. 483 00:28:03,598 --> 00:28:04,516 Hmm. 484 00:28:05,392 --> 00:28:08,228 There's this individual that I'm interested in 485 00:28:08,311 --> 00:28:12,107 that isn't striking me as bio-family. 486 00:28:12,190 --> 00:28:14,609 This is somebody who is not biologically related to us, 487 00:28:14,693 --> 00:28:16,695 I have to bring up as being significant. 488 00:28:16,778 --> 00:28:20,198 This person clearly gives me this feeling of being on the same level. 489 00:28:20,281 --> 00:28:22,283 And so anytime I get that, it's always… 490 00:28:22,367 --> 00:28:25,870 when it is family, it's brother, cousin, that kinda thing. 491 00:28:25,954 --> 00:28:30,166 If it's not family, it can sometimes be partner, friend, that kind of thing, 492 00:28:30,250 --> 00:28:33,878 and it seemed significant just from even the second I sat down, but then… 493 00:28:35,463 --> 00:28:36,965 It's kind of interesting. 494 00:28:38,758 --> 00:28:42,220 Premature.  I have this premature passing coming through. 495 00:28:42,303 --> 00:28:46,516 Premature always refers to someone who died before they were able to get old. 496 00:28:46,599 --> 00:28:49,018 Like, I'm here, and then I'm gone. It feels very fast. 497 00:28:49,102 --> 00:28:51,563 So I wouldn't pin it as something like an illness, 498 00:28:51,646 --> 00:28:54,107 something that we had preparedness for. 499 00:28:55,942 --> 00:28:59,154 Do you have somebody who passed away kind of prematurely? 500 00:28:59,654 --> 00:29:03,032 I have someone that was a partner that 501 00:29:03,783 --> 00:29:05,076 passed away premature. 502 00:29:06,411 --> 00:29:10,707 Okay. Uh, in life, you know,  people go through a lot of different things. 503 00:29:10,790 --> 00:29:13,668 And at the time that this individual passed, 504 00:29:13,752 --> 00:29:16,880 it almost felt like things were coming together in a big way, 505 00:29:16,963 --> 00:29:18,673 finally, and I hear "finally." 506 00:29:18,757 --> 00:29:21,593 So that's kind of the weird thing with this. 507 00:29:21,676 --> 00:29:26,055 Uh, without giving much away, can you explain just a little bit there? 508 00:29:26,139 --> 00:29:28,391 I feel very much like I'm wandering. 509 00:29:28,475 --> 00:29:31,978 Uh, I was in the Marine Corps, stationed Camp Lejeune, 510 00:29:32,061 --> 00:29:35,899 living in, um, coastal Wilmington, North Carolina. 511 00:29:35,982 --> 00:29:37,984 -Carolina. -And I met this person. 512 00:29:38,067 --> 00:29:39,527 And we hit it off. 513 00:29:39,611 --> 00:29:43,031 I'm gonna look at my notes from earlier 'cause I had on the way here… 514 00:29:43,948 --> 00:29:46,826 I'll show you if I have it. It was a reference to "Caro"… 515 00:29:46,910 --> 00:29:49,120 Do you see that right there? "Carolina"? 516 00:29:49,204 --> 00:29:51,748 So it's interesting you said there's a "Carolina." 517 00:29:51,831 --> 00:29:54,209 Yeah, that's where we met. That's where we lived. 518 00:29:54,292 --> 00:29:56,586 Well, we're gonna keep going. There's more to this. 519 00:29:57,796 --> 00:29:59,255 What was his first name? 520 00:29:59,339 --> 00:30:01,049 His first name is Jamie. 521 00:30:01,132 --> 00:30:04,385 -But he went by his middle name. -Okay. 522 00:30:04,469 --> 00:30:05,929 His middle name is Duwyann. 523 00:30:06,012 --> 00:30:08,807 I was about to ask you if somebody went by "J." 524 00:30:08,890 --> 00:30:11,351 But I felt that'd be wrong. Then I was writing "J-A," 525 00:30:11,434 --> 00:30:15,104 like this kinda "J-A-M" thing right here. That's why I felt confused. 526 00:30:15,188 --> 00:30:17,899 Everyone has a communication style on the other side. 527 00:30:17,982 --> 00:30:20,360 Some are easy to pin down, and others are trickier. 528 00:30:20,443 --> 00:30:22,445 So we're gonna keep going. 529 00:30:25,573 --> 00:30:28,785 There's this whole thing that keeps coming through when he's coming in 530 00:30:28,868 --> 00:30:32,163 about not wanting to traumatize the people around him 531 00:30:32,247 --> 00:30:33,331 when he passed. 532 00:30:33,832 --> 00:30:37,043 Coming through strong. Give me one sec. Something with this. 533 00:30:41,506 --> 00:30:42,841 It's like, "I don't want…" 534 00:30:42,924 --> 00:30:45,385 You know when people will have a last memory, 535 00:30:45,468 --> 00:30:47,095 and it's burned into their mind, 536 00:30:47,178 --> 00:30:50,098 where it's all they think about when they think about them. 537 00:30:50,181 --> 00:30:53,059 He's giving me a feeling of, "No, I was so much more than that." 538 00:30:53,142 --> 00:30:57,981 The bond, the love. It's like, I don't want all this time that was shared 539 00:30:58,064 --> 00:31:02,652 to be defined by this single, horrible, mental image, 540 00:31:02,735 --> 00:31:05,530 is the only way that I can describe it when it comes through. Um… 541 00:31:05,613 --> 00:31:08,533 I have to go a little deeper here, as painful as this is. 542 00:31:17,876 --> 00:31:20,295 Rupturing, rupturing, rupturing. 543 00:31:22,463 --> 00:31:23,840 Um… 544 00:31:23,923 --> 00:31:27,510 I was getting this earlier, and this is hard to articulate. 545 00:31:27,594 --> 00:31:29,679 But do you know if anything ruptured? 546 00:31:31,890 --> 00:31:32,724 Um… 547 00:31:33,516 --> 00:31:34,934 Yeah, so… 548 00:31:36,686 --> 00:31:37,729 it was my birthday. 549 00:31:38,354 --> 00:31:43,151 Um, we went to lay by the pool at the apartment complex 550 00:31:43,234 --> 00:31:46,613 that I just… we just moved into. Um… 551 00:31:46,696 --> 00:31:50,450 He was getting some sun, you know, laying on the beach chair. 552 00:31:50,533 --> 00:31:53,119 He was like, "Sounds like something's coming to get me." 553 00:31:53,202 --> 00:31:54,412 It was like, "What?" 554 00:31:54,495 --> 00:31:58,374 And we laughed, and I laid down next to him. 555 00:32:00,293 --> 00:32:02,253 A gust of wind blew by, 556 00:32:02,754 --> 00:32:05,965 and the beach umbrella, the spokes, 557 00:32:06,549 --> 00:32:08,426 it fell on both of us 558 00:32:08,927 --> 00:32:10,970 and pierced him through his head. 559 00:32:12,305 --> 00:32:15,975 And it went through the… 560 00:32:17,060 --> 00:32:19,354 the softest part, from what I've been told. 561 00:32:19,437 --> 00:32:21,481 -Yeah. -The softest part of your brain. 562 00:32:21,564 --> 00:32:23,816 I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry. 563 00:32:26,235 --> 00:32:27,862 And he died the next day. 564 00:32:27,946 --> 00:32:31,824 I'm so sorry. That really is a freak accident. 565 00:32:34,953 --> 00:32:37,872 -My heart hurts for you. I'm so sorry. -Yeah. 566 00:32:41,250 --> 00:32:44,504 And this pains me to have to, like, talk about. 567 00:32:44,587 --> 00:32:47,465 I'm sorry that you had to witness or go through this experience, 568 00:32:47,548 --> 00:32:50,176 'cause there's this aspect here that feels… 569 00:32:50,259 --> 00:32:51,594 like, my emotions. 570 00:32:51,678 --> 00:32:55,556 And they know this rarely happens. My emotions are getting in the way here. 571 00:32:57,016 --> 00:32:58,059 Phew! 572 00:33:00,269 --> 00:33:03,606 This is one of those ones where I wanna talk to you again 573 00:33:03,690 --> 00:33:06,401 because I don't feel like I've got it all out today. 574 00:33:06,484 --> 00:33:09,529 You and I are gonna talk again. I'm gonna make it happen. 575 00:33:10,488 --> 00:33:11,739 Can I give you a hug? 576 00:33:12,281 --> 00:33:13,408 Aw. 577 00:33:14,117 --> 00:33:16,452 This was a hard one today. This was a hard one. 578 00:33:16,536 --> 00:33:18,329 I was not able to, um… 579 00:33:19,664 --> 00:33:22,583 connect to the depth that I'm normally able to 580 00:33:24,043 --> 00:33:27,714 because my own emotions were kind of pushing to the surface. 581 00:33:27,797 --> 00:33:32,510 This one, I don't know if it's because it was the gay aspect, 582 00:33:32,593 --> 00:33:36,931 being able to relate to that intimately. When I read people who've lost children, 583 00:33:37,015 --> 00:33:39,308 that's tragic, but I can't relate to that. 584 00:33:39,392 --> 00:33:42,061 With this, I was thinking about Clint the entire time. 585 00:33:42,854 --> 00:33:47,442 And I just thought, like, what he had to go through. 586 00:33:49,152 --> 00:33:53,322 And I can't imagine losing someone that you love so much like that, 587 00:33:53,406 --> 00:33:55,700 and it just really got to me. So, 588 00:33:55,783 --> 00:33:57,076 I just, uh… 589 00:33:58,828 --> 00:34:00,163 Yeah, that was hard. 590 00:34:11,632 --> 00:34:12,467 Hey! 591 00:34:12,550 --> 00:34:13,634 Hey, how's it goin'? 592 00:34:13,718 --> 00:34:15,887 - Good. How are you? -Good. Are you free? 593 00:34:15,970 --> 00:34:17,221 Yeah, just sitting here. 594 00:34:17,305 --> 00:34:21,517 Oh, nice. Hey, I just wanted to call you and tell you I love you. 595 00:34:22,393 --> 00:34:28,775 I, I just got out of a reading with a man whose partner died in a freak accident. 596 00:34:28,858 --> 00:34:33,154 And I was crying through the whole thing, and I never cry during readings. 597 00:34:33,946 --> 00:34:37,033 And they were, like, sitting out by a pool. 598 00:34:37,116 --> 00:34:39,744 His partner said, "I think something's coming to get me." 599 00:34:39,827 --> 00:34:41,954 And, he was like, "What? What do you mean?" 600 00:34:42,038 --> 00:34:46,542 And then, suddenly a gust of wind came and blew the umbrella that was over them 601 00:34:46,626 --> 00:34:50,213 down onto him and the pole the umbrella was attached to 602 00:34:50,296 --> 00:34:53,674 went through the guy's skull and out the back of his head. 603 00:34:54,467 --> 00:34:56,385 And he watched the whole thing happen. 604 00:34:56,469 --> 00:34:59,764 And this was in 2008, so they weren't able to get married. 605 00:35:00,348 --> 00:35:02,642 They were… he was in his late 20s, 606 00:35:02,725 --> 00:35:05,728 and I, like, the whole time, I was just crying thinking about 607 00:35:06,229 --> 00:35:08,564 how you just never know, you know, like, 608 00:35:08,648 --> 00:35:11,317 and, uh, it really, like, affected me emotionally. 609 00:35:11,400 --> 00:35:14,862 So I know it's a very weird call again, and I'm sorry, but I love you. 610 00:35:14,946 --> 00:35:17,949 And I had to tell you that, and I can't wait to see you, 611 00:35:18,032 --> 00:35:21,828 and you're the best, and yeah. 612 00:35:21,911 --> 00:35:25,164 All right. Will do. I love you. I'll talk to you soon. 613 00:35:25,248 --> 00:35:26,958 -Talk later. -All right. Bye. 614 00:35:50,273 --> 00:35:53,276 -I'm glad I'm with you today. -I'm glad I'm with you. 615 00:35:53,359 --> 00:35:57,071 I'm glad we have a minute to catch our breath before we start traveling. 616 00:35:57,155 --> 00:36:00,158 I know. It's nice to go to one of our favorite places. 617 00:36:00,241 --> 00:36:01,075 Yep. 618 00:36:03,828 --> 00:36:04,871 Ready to do this? 619 00:36:04,954 --> 00:36:06,789 My calves are ready. You've seen 'em. 620 00:36:06,873 --> 00:36:08,708 Capricorn is made for the mountains. 621 00:36:08,791 --> 00:36:10,585 -Goat legs. -Got my goat legs. 622 00:36:14,714 --> 00:36:17,133 -Watch out for that rock. -That'd be dramatic. 623 00:36:17,884 --> 00:36:20,636 -Get on this ridge here. -Oh, yeah, copy that. 624 00:36:20,720 --> 00:36:23,472 Can you imagine? My ass just died falling off a mountain. 625 00:36:23,556 --> 00:36:24,974 "He never saw that coming." 626 00:36:27,852 --> 00:36:30,188 I don't think we could've picked a better day. 627 00:36:30,271 --> 00:36:32,148 I know. It's so beautiful, you know? 628 00:36:32,231 --> 00:36:33,274 "Is he gonna propose?" 629 00:36:33,357 --> 00:36:35,860 -"Is that why he brought me here?" -"Gonna propose?" 630 00:36:35,943 --> 00:36:38,571 -Want a flash mob. -A flash mob. 631 00:36:38,654 --> 00:36:41,866 We've discussed this. That'd be the worst way to propose. 632 00:36:41,949 --> 00:36:44,452 It's like, in a restaurant is number one. 633 00:36:44,535 --> 00:36:46,370 Flash mob would be close to number two. 634 00:36:46,454 --> 00:36:48,122 -I don't think I'll ask you. -No. 635 00:36:48,206 --> 00:36:50,249 -I'm just expecting you to ask me. -Okay. 636 00:36:50,333 --> 00:36:51,626 But no pressure. 637 00:36:51,709 --> 00:36:53,878 When would you like that to happen? 638 00:36:53,961 --> 00:36:56,005 -I mean, no pressure. 639 00:36:59,300 --> 00:37:02,970 How… when you close your eyes, you envision the love of your life? 640 00:37:03,054 --> 00:37:04,597 On a horse? I don't know why. 641 00:37:04,680 --> 00:37:08,809 But what do you envision me… Do I, like, get on the knee? 642 00:37:08,893 --> 00:37:10,394 -That whole thing? -Yeah, no. 643 00:37:10,478 --> 00:37:14,398 No? What's it called when you get married spontaneously? 644 00:37:14,482 --> 00:37:18,736 -You have a shotgun wedding. It's called… -I know what you're talking about. 645 00:37:18,819 --> 00:37:19,820 Uh… 646 00:37:20,488 --> 00:37:23,491 Spirits, help me out here. Elope. We're gonna elope. 647 00:37:23,574 --> 00:37:26,577 -Elopement. Yeah. -That's right. 648 00:37:41,217 --> 00:37:44,679 When I was 27 years old, my life changed forever. 649 00:37:45,388 --> 00:37:47,682 I lost someone very close to me. 650 00:37:48,557 --> 00:37:51,936 And I want to find out what happened. 651 00:37:52,019 --> 00:37:53,646 I want answers. 652 00:37:54,355 --> 00:37:55,606 I want justice 653 00:37:56,107 --> 00:37:59,944 before my mom passes away without any answers. 654 00:38:00,444 --> 00:38:02,571 I want justice for my family. 655 00:38:03,781 --> 00:38:07,451 I want to know who killed my brother. 656 00:38:08,703 --> 00:38:12,581 Hello! I'm Tyler. It's lovely to meet you. 657 00:38:12,665 --> 00:38:14,834 -It's so good to meet you. -So good to meet you. 658 00:38:14,917 --> 00:38:17,920 -What a beautiful place too! -It's beautiful. 659 00:38:18,004 --> 00:38:20,381 I did not mean to start crying right away. 660 00:38:20,464 --> 00:38:24,427 That's okay, darlin'. It's all good. I'm happy to be here. 661 00:38:24,510 --> 00:38:26,929 I just can't believe that this is happening. 662 00:38:27,013 --> 00:38:29,724 Yeah. I'm looking forward to it. 663 00:38:29,807 --> 00:38:32,977 As we go through this process today, anybody can come through. 664 00:38:33,060 --> 00:38:33,894 Okay. 665 00:38:33,978 --> 00:38:36,397 Hopefully, we'll connect with who you hope to hear from. 666 00:38:36,480 --> 00:38:38,232 -Hopefully. -Had a lot coming through. 667 00:38:38,316 --> 00:38:40,443 So we'll talk about that as well. 668 00:38:40,526 --> 00:38:41,777 -Really helpful. -Gosh. 669 00:38:41,861 --> 00:38:43,946 -You know I work with objects. -Yes. 670 00:38:44,030 --> 00:38:46,574 -Do you have any objects? -I do. I do. 671 00:38:46,657 --> 00:38:49,618 -It's kind of big. -That's okay. Yeah, absolutely. 672 00:38:49,702 --> 00:38:50,828 Not a problem. 673 00:38:55,791 --> 00:38:58,294 -Before we start, what's your first name? -Tamara. 674 00:38:58,377 --> 00:39:01,297 Okay. That's all I need. Tamara, Tamara, Tamara. 675 00:39:01,797 --> 00:39:04,133 Just give me something to focus on. 676 00:39:05,634 --> 00:39:07,762 Okay, so I'm just gonna hold that. 677 00:39:15,061 --> 00:39:16,854 I want to start with the guy coming in. 678 00:39:16,937 --> 00:39:20,024 Before I got here, I was picking up on this male contemporary. 679 00:39:20,107 --> 00:39:21,942 And anytime "contemporary" comes through, 680 00:39:22,026 --> 00:39:24,904 it refers to somebody who kind of passed away prematurely, 681 00:39:24,987 --> 00:39:26,655 somebody who should've lived longer. 682 00:39:26,739 --> 00:39:30,326 There was a reference, but he was coming through with this older guy 683 00:39:30,409 --> 00:39:32,578 that I felt I had to highlight as well. 684 00:39:32,661 --> 00:39:34,288 They're coming through together. 685 00:39:34,372 --> 00:39:38,209 So this one guy would have passed away at a more age-appropriate age. 686 00:39:38,292 --> 00:39:40,878 He's coming through with someone who passed away early. 687 00:39:40,961 --> 00:39:43,047 They're connected to this object. 688 00:39:43,130 --> 00:39:45,383 Um… It's really interesting. 689 00:39:45,466 --> 00:39:48,552 A number of details come through. I'm gonna relay it as it comes in. 690 00:39:48,636 --> 00:39:53,099 They keep having me put a big emphasis on everything that you've had to do alone, 691 00:39:53,182 --> 00:39:55,059 like the weight of the world's on you 692 00:39:55,142 --> 00:39:57,144 as far as having to handle things alone, 693 00:39:57,228 --> 00:39:59,480 and they wanna let you know, you're not alone. 694 00:40:00,189 --> 00:40:02,691 And they feel invested in your well-being, 695 00:40:02,775 --> 00:40:04,610 wanting to make sure you're okay. 696 00:40:05,945 --> 00:40:09,156 I wanna figure out… usually when people come through together, 697 00:40:09,240 --> 00:40:11,117 they have an association with each other. 698 00:40:11,200 --> 00:40:14,245 So I don't know why, but we're gonna look into this 699 00:40:14,328 --> 00:40:17,081 and kind of see, and give me one sec. 700 00:40:18,457 --> 00:40:20,960 I have our younger guy who passed away prematurely, 701 00:40:21,043 --> 00:40:23,295 I have this older guy coming through with him. 702 00:40:23,379 --> 00:40:25,798 So I don't know if he had a father figure, 703 00:40:25,881 --> 00:40:28,342 what the deal is, but they're a package deal. 704 00:40:28,426 --> 00:40:32,680 When they're coming through, they have me highlight being together. 705 00:40:32,763 --> 00:40:34,557 -So that seems very important… 706 00:40:34,640 --> 00:40:35,975 …and it's all good. 707 00:40:38,561 --> 00:40:42,148 I'm trying to separate these two, but they keep coming through together. 708 00:40:42,231 --> 00:40:45,109 It's all good. I'm gonna figure out who this other guy is. 709 00:40:45,734 --> 00:40:48,529 -Do you know if he lost a father figure-- -Dad. 710 00:40:48,612 --> 00:40:52,241 Oh. Gotcha. Okay, one sibling 711 00:40:52,324 --> 00:40:55,035 and then Dad, and that's kind of my area. 712 00:40:55,119 --> 00:40:57,788 Now were those who you were hoping to hear from today? 713 00:40:57,872 --> 00:40:58,956 -Yes. -Okay. 714 00:41:01,375 --> 00:41:04,253 They have me bring up my symbol for "goodbye," 715 00:41:04,336 --> 00:41:07,631 but then they bring up not being able to get a goodbye that we deserve. 716 00:41:07,715 --> 00:41:11,135 Do you know of any situations where we weren't able to say goodbye? 717 00:41:11,218 --> 00:41:13,262 -He wasn't able to talk. -Gotcha. 718 00:41:14,430 --> 00:41:16,390 It's bringing me into my… 719 00:41:16,474 --> 00:41:21,312 I'm trying to figure out what happened to the poor guy. He's showing me that 720 00:41:21,395 --> 00:41:24,148 multiple parts of the body started failing. 721 00:41:24,231 --> 00:41:30,029 My dad passed away October of 2019. 722 00:41:30,529 --> 00:41:32,281 What did he pass away of, technically? 723 00:41:32,364 --> 00:41:34,283 -You told me what he passed away from. -Yeah. 724 00:41:34,366 --> 00:41:36,076 You're spot on. His organs failed. 725 00:41:36,160 --> 00:41:39,747 My dad was, uh… He hit the bottle pretty hard. 726 00:41:39,830 --> 00:41:43,584 Gotcha. He also brought up that there was a conversation 727 00:41:43,667 --> 00:41:44,877 that was had in his room 728 00:41:45,628 --> 00:41:50,508 um, that seems a little sensitive to have in front of somebody. 729 00:41:51,509 --> 00:41:54,470 -I don't know what it is. Do you have a-- -That was what happened. 730 00:41:54,553 --> 00:41:59,141 My aunt, we wanted to start discussing extending his life 731 00:41:59,225 --> 00:42:01,310 or taking him off of life support. 732 00:42:01,393 --> 00:42:05,022 My aunt was the one that said, "Let's not talk in front of your dad." 733 00:42:05,105 --> 00:42:07,066 -Exactly. -"He can still hear us." 734 00:42:07,149 --> 00:42:10,069 And we went out of the room to have that conversation. 735 00:42:10,152 --> 00:42:11,904 -And he knew this. -Wow. 736 00:42:11,987 --> 00:42:15,115 And he could hear, and he knew, and he was okay with this. 737 00:42:15,199 --> 00:42:19,745 But that gave him the chance to know, "Okay, it's time for me to go." 738 00:42:19,828 --> 00:42:23,332 And it gave him a sense of peace. He wasn't liking being in his body. 739 00:42:23,415 --> 00:42:27,878 I spoke to him about it the night before, and just was with him. 740 00:42:27,962 --> 00:42:30,756 Although he couldn't move, he didn't have any reflexes, 741 00:42:30,839 --> 00:42:34,468 you know, a tear kind of, you know, dropped down his face. 742 00:42:35,219 --> 00:42:39,265 And, I, I always thought, "Was that you trying to communicate, 743 00:42:39,348 --> 00:42:40,307 'Don't do this'?" 744 00:42:40,391 --> 00:42:43,519 "Or, were you trying to communicate that 'I'm okay with this.'" 745 00:42:43,602 --> 00:42:44,562 Yeah. 746 00:42:44,645 --> 00:42:48,232 And I really appreciate you telling me that-- 747 00:42:48,315 --> 00:42:50,943 -It was the right choice. It was. -It was the right choice. 748 00:42:51,026 --> 00:42:53,445 Yeah. So, like whereas Dad 749 00:42:53,529 --> 00:42:57,992 gives me this feeling of, like, it's never a good time for someone to pass. 750 00:42:58,075 --> 00:43:00,327 -But there is acceptance there. -Sure. 751 00:43:00,411 --> 00:43:03,789 With brother, this feels kinda like, "Bam. This just got put on us." 752 00:43:03,872 --> 00:43:05,791 -Yes -Is the way that I'd describe it. 753 00:43:05,874 --> 00:43:08,002 So there is that aspect. Um… 754 00:43:10,462 --> 00:43:13,674 He is having me talk about… He's letting me in a little bit. 755 00:43:13,757 --> 00:43:14,842 Very strong guy. 756 00:43:14,925 --> 00:43:19,597 When he comes across, um, he just feels very, very protective. 757 00:43:19,680 --> 00:43:22,224 -Like, "I gotta protect myself." -Yes. Yes. 758 00:43:22,308 --> 00:43:24,685 That said, I think he has a little bit 759 00:43:24,768 --> 00:43:27,354 of regret of some of the situations he put himself in. 760 00:43:27,938 --> 00:43:31,775 And when he comes through, he's acknowledging this feeling, like, uh, 761 00:43:31,859 --> 00:43:34,903 "That was kind of dumb, who I was hanging around with." 762 00:43:34,987 --> 00:43:38,240 It's this thing. He's bringing up the people around him. 763 00:43:38,324 --> 00:43:40,993 And I think he knew better, and it's a frustrating thing, 764 00:43:41,076 --> 00:43:44,663 'cause I feel like on some level, I know in my soul, 765 00:43:44,747 --> 00:43:47,207 like, this is not a good situation, 766 00:43:47,291 --> 00:43:50,919 but I don't know how I can get out of it, and it's kind of an interesting thing. 767 00:43:54,214 --> 00:43:55,758 Oh man. 768 00:43:56,383 --> 00:43:57,968 He wasn't supposed to be there. 769 00:43:58,052 --> 00:43:59,511 It's a weird thing to say, 770 00:43:59,595 --> 00:44:02,181 but there's an aspect here of, "Wasn't supposed to be there." 771 00:44:02,264 --> 00:44:04,683 "Wasn't supposed to be there." "Wasn't supposed to be there." 772 00:44:05,934 --> 00:44:08,270 I don't know why that's coming through so strongly. 773 00:44:08,354 --> 00:44:10,230 -He wanted to protect us. -Yeah. 774 00:44:10,314 --> 00:44:13,692 He did not want us to know anything that was going on. 775 00:44:13,776 --> 00:44:14,860 I believe it. 776 00:44:14,943 --> 00:44:17,988 When people said, "What happened?" I honestly didn't know. 777 00:44:18,072 --> 00:44:20,115 I didn't know what to tell them. I didn't know 778 00:44:20,199 --> 00:44:24,036 certain set groups of people that he was hanging out with. 779 00:44:24,119 --> 00:44:26,705 Exactly. And that's what's coming through with this. 780 00:44:26,789 --> 00:44:30,042 If he could do it over again, he would've been a lot more open, 781 00:44:30,125 --> 00:44:31,293 a lot more transparent. 782 00:44:36,131 --> 00:44:38,550 Fuck. Sorry. 783 00:44:42,262 --> 00:44:45,683 I just have to get it exactly as I receive it. 784 00:44:46,183 --> 00:44:49,311 There's a reference, when he's talking about his passing, 785 00:44:49,395 --> 00:44:51,063 of this time that elapsed 786 00:44:51,146 --> 00:44:54,942 between whatever happened, and when he actually died. 787 00:44:55,025 --> 00:44:58,696 So I have to make this clear. He's not showing an instantaneous passing. 788 00:44:58,779 --> 00:45:02,366 This seems like whatever happened, happened pretty suddenly, 789 00:45:02,449 --> 00:45:04,785 but I'm not saying instantaneous. 790 00:45:04,868 --> 00:45:08,247 There's an aspect here that comes through of, like, 791 00:45:08,330 --> 00:45:11,041 oh God, I hate to say this, but timing. 792 00:45:11,125 --> 00:45:14,169 When something happens to someone, time is of the essence. 793 00:45:14,253 --> 00:45:16,296 We wanna call the police, we wanna call 9-1-1, 794 00:45:16,380 --> 00:45:18,382 we wanna make sure they can get medical care. 795 00:45:18,465 --> 00:45:20,384 There's something about this being delayed, 796 00:45:20,467 --> 00:45:22,052 and I don't know why. 797 00:45:22,553 --> 00:45:26,473 But there's something about this of, like, a delay in finding out. 798 00:45:26,557 --> 00:45:29,560 A delay in getting medical attention. 799 00:45:30,269 --> 00:45:33,313 Like, somebody could have acted faster and didn't, 800 00:45:33,397 --> 00:45:37,234 and I'm certain of this. So I know it may not click, 801 00:45:37,317 --> 00:45:41,071 but I just keep getting this of, like, time was of the essence. 802 00:45:41,155 --> 00:45:42,406 Does that make sense? 803 00:45:43,657 --> 00:45:44,783 Aw. It's okay. 804 00:45:48,454 --> 00:45:52,124 I could have done something. I could have done something. 805 00:45:53,834 --> 00:45:57,546 My brother went missing August 19th, 1999. 806 00:45:57,629 --> 00:46:01,216 My brother was killed by being shot in the head. 807 00:46:02,760 --> 00:46:04,636 He was missing. 808 00:46:10,225 --> 00:46:13,645 -I should've reacted quicker. -That's normal. That's normal reaction. 809 00:46:15,105 --> 00:46:19,902 At the time, that my brother, um… that we knew that he was missing. 810 00:46:19,985 --> 00:46:22,613 You know, my mom, like, "I haven't heard from him." 811 00:46:22,696 --> 00:46:24,907 And, in my mind, I'm like, "Yeah, he's okay." 812 00:46:24,990 --> 00:46:28,118 You know, "Nothing's gonna happen to him. He's fine." 813 00:46:28,619 --> 00:46:30,162 Well, then the… 814 00:46:31,330 --> 00:46:33,499 missing posters started going up. 815 00:46:33,582 --> 00:46:37,211 I'm still in Georgia at the time because I don't want to believe this. 816 00:46:37,294 --> 00:46:39,546 I don't want to deal with this. 817 00:46:39,630 --> 00:46:42,257 So I have a tremendous amount of guilt, um… 818 00:46:43,300 --> 00:46:47,262 around the fact that I should have hopped on the next plane 819 00:46:47,346 --> 00:46:48,889 and been to Milwaukee. 820 00:46:48,972 --> 00:46:51,683 A, to be with my mom to comfort her. 821 00:46:52,476 --> 00:46:54,561 B, to at least help, you know. 822 00:46:54,645 --> 00:46:58,023 I kind of knew what happened leading up to it a little bit, 823 00:46:58,106 --> 00:47:02,611 from talking to different people, and I maybe could have done something. 824 00:47:03,111 --> 00:47:03,987 Yeah. 825 00:47:04,613 --> 00:47:10,285 I regret not being part of a search group 826 00:47:10,369 --> 00:47:13,705 that I should have been the person in the front. 827 00:47:14,706 --> 00:47:15,541 Okay. 828 00:47:17,543 --> 00:47:20,337 One thing that comes through is he's bringing up 829 00:47:20,420 --> 00:47:23,257 where he passed versus where he was found. 830 00:47:23,340 --> 00:47:25,926 It happening, and then being moved in some capacity. 831 00:47:26,009 --> 00:47:27,177 Are you aware of this? 832 00:47:27,261 --> 00:47:29,096 It's just spot on. 833 00:47:29,179 --> 00:47:34,184 -Yeah. -He was… killed and dumped. 834 00:47:34,268 --> 00:47:35,185 Yeah. 835 00:47:35,269 --> 00:47:36,728 In two separate places. 836 00:47:36,812 --> 00:47:39,273 Two separate places. And he knew 837 00:47:39,356 --> 00:47:42,860 that there was no way out of the situation. 838 00:47:44,361 --> 00:47:45,237 Yeah? 839 00:47:47,072 --> 00:47:48,657 Did something come to mind? 840 00:47:51,451 --> 00:47:53,120 It almost seems like he… 841 00:47:55,497 --> 00:47:57,416 knew that he was gonna die that day. 842 00:47:57,499 --> 00:47:58,333 Mm-hmm.