1 00:00:17,351 --> 00:00:20,420 Withdrawal is like dying 2 00:00:20,955 --> 00:00:23,123 and rebirth happening at once. 3 00:00:24,626 --> 00:00:26,293 But with no family 4 00:00:26,426 --> 00:00:28,061 to lovingly send you off 5 00:00:28,630 --> 00:00:33,267 or to greet you with big smiles and open arms, 6 00:00:33,635 --> 00:00:34,936 a drinker like me... 7 00:00:36,303 --> 00:00:37,505 ...is always alone. 8 00:01:18,412 --> 00:01:21,415 Matt, Matt get in. 9 00:01:23,518 --> 00:01:26,754 - Look like you could use a cup of coffee, huh? 10 00:01:27,387 --> 00:01:30,123 I could use a beer. 11 00:01:30,592 --> 00:01:33,695 It was a joke, you literal prick, it was a joke. 12 00:01:33,828 --> 00:01:35,063 It's a, it's a seatbelt. 13 00:01:35,195 --> 00:01:36,463 Yeah, I know what it is. 14 00:01:37,932 --> 00:01:40,635 Thanks, Papa Fred. 15 00:01:45,073 --> 00:01:47,742 -Nice. -Onward, valet. Onward. 16 00:01:48,710 --> 00:01:50,979 Tell me about your, your big plan. 17 00:01:51,111 --> 00:01:52,513 Punching a bartender, huh? 18 00:01:52,647 --> 00:01:54,448 -Worked, didn't it? It worked. -Oh. 19 00:01:54,582 --> 00:01:57,317 Oh, 48 hours, Matt. That's it. 20 00:01:57,685 --> 00:02:00,287 Ye-- you, you don't have no room to get cocky here. 21 00:02:01,055 --> 00:02:02,122 Why are you mocking that? 22 00:02:02,255 --> 00:02:04,124 How am I being cocky? 23 00:02:04,257 --> 00:02:05,526 Come on, Matt. 24 00:02:05,660 --> 00:02:08,029 One day at a time, one minute at a time, 25 00:02:08,161 --> 00:02:09,296 one second at a time. 26 00:02:09,429 --> 00:02:10,397 Shoot, this car don't move 27 00:02:10,531 --> 00:02:12,033 until the metal's in the groove. 28 00:02:59,013 --> 00:03:01,816 I need you to understand that this is, this is the time. 29 00:03:01,949 --> 00:03:04,952 -There might not be another chance. -No chance. 30 00:03:05,086 --> 00:03:07,822 -Why? -Because your plans don't work for me. 31 00:03:07,955 --> 00:03:09,590 They would if you commit to them. 32 00:03:09,724 --> 00:03:12,325 I've had 20 successful sponsees, man. 33 00:03:13,226 --> 00:03:16,864 -Twenty. -I know that because you've mentioned it a lot. 34 00:03:17,532 --> 00:03:20,233 Go home now and you'll be drunk in an hour. 35 00:03:20,367 --> 00:03:21,769 Dude, stop. 36 00:03:21,903 --> 00:03:23,071 Or dead in a month. 37 00:03:23,203 --> 00:03:26,974 What the, happened to all that positive self-talk 38 00:03:27,340 --> 00:03:28,943 you were so good at? 39 00:03:32,279 --> 00:03:34,414 Okay, Matt. What's your plan? 40 00:03:35,083 --> 00:03:37,819 Step one, get sober. 41 00:03:40,287 --> 00:03:41,388 Check. 42 00:03:42,389 --> 00:03:45,392 Step two, I will finish the hutch. 43 00:03:48,629 --> 00:03:49,964 I'll start that tomorrow. 44 00:03:50,565 --> 00:03:52,600 And then step three, um, 45 00:03:53,668 --> 00:03:54,836 I will stay sober... 46 00:03:58,405 --> 00:03:59,707 ...for 30 days... 47 00:04:02,710 --> 00:04:06,013 ...so that I can see my mom, uh... 48 00:04:08,116 --> 00:04:09,150 ...before she dies. 49 00:04:09,851 --> 00:04:12,486 Matt, I'm, I'm sorry. I didn't know it was that bad. 50 00:04:12,620 --> 00:04:14,756 Listen, listen, I've, I've got that cabin. 51 00:04:14,889 --> 00:04:16,958 -That little cabin next to our house. -Yeah. 52 00:04:17,091 --> 00:04:18,760 -You know the one I'm talking about, right? -I do. 53 00:04:19,127 --> 00:04:21,562 -Yeah. -Why don't you come out there and finish the hutch? 54 00:04:21,696 --> 00:04:23,330 Rachael's not even there. 55 00:04:23,965 --> 00:04:24,766 She's, 56 00:04:25,365 --> 00:04:28,202 she's back East with family, all right? She's, uh... 57 00:04:28,335 --> 00:04:29,971 I don't wanna live on a farm. 58 00:04:30,104 --> 00:04:32,640 It's not a, it's not a farm. 59 00:04:32,774 --> 00:04:34,909 What do you mean, "It's not a farm?" You have chickens. 60 00:04:35,777 --> 00:04:38,546 Matt, sobriety is something that you can't do on your own. 61 00:04:39,279 --> 00:04:43,383 Sobriety is something that I have to do on my own. 62 00:04:52,693 --> 00:04:54,427 Matt, think big picture. 63 00:04:55,263 --> 00:04:56,164 I am. 64 00:04:57,098 --> 00:05:02,637 I am, I'm just thinking differently than you. 65 00:05:27,728 --> 00:05:28,696 Oh. 66 00:05:34,735 --> 00:05:35,903 Dear Matt, 67 00:05:36,838 --> 00:05:39,740 well, the doctors finally hit their last option. 68 00:05:40,440 --> 00:05:42,143 They moved me to hospice. 69 00:05:43,211 --> 00:05:46,714 It's not so bad, there's a TV in my room. 70 00:05:48,216 --> 00:05:50,818 I haven't seen you in 15 years, 71 00:05:50,952 --> 00:05:53,921 and you'd think by now I'd give up on my stubbornness 72 00:05:54,055 --> 00:05:57,158 because the idea of not seeing you 73 00:05:57,592 --> 00:06:03,564 before I kick the bucket hurts more than all the surgeries combined. 74 00:06:04,999 --> 00:06:08,468 But I'm holding on to what I can hold onto, 75 00:06:09,402 --> 00:06:11,471 my final dream. 76 00:06:11,973 --> 00:06:13,741 Get sober 77 00:06:14,575 --> 00:06:16,777 and come say goodbye. 78 00:06:19,146 --> 00:06:20,514 I love you. 79 00:06:21,983 --> 00:06:22,783 Mom. 80 00:06:55,283 --> 00:06:56,183 We're doing this. 81 00:06:57,985 --> 00:06:58,886 Yeah, Matt. 82 00:06:59,887 --> 00:07:02,757 -Thirty days. -Thirty days. 83 00:07:03,524 --> 00:07:04,525 Thirty days. 84 00:07:05,458 --> 00:07:09,196 - We're gonna talk about that ugly hat you're wearing. 85 00:07:09,997 --> 00:07:10,898 Deal. 86 00:07:13,433 --> 00:07:14,568 My whole life... 87 00:07:16,537 --> 00:07:18,039 ...unable to rest... 88 00:07:19,740 --> 00:07:22,475 ...in pursuit of some unavowed dream... 89 00:07:24,912 --> 00:07:29,684 ...masked in this insane compulsive desire to self-bleed. 90 00:07:31,519 --> 00:07:33,387 Multiple vices brought my way, 91 00:07:33,521 --> 00:07:36,290 but not the kind that takes one's breath away, 92 00:07:37,058 --> 00:07:39,694 but the kind that tears one's self away. 93 00:07:43,931 --> 00:07:45,498 Let's get after it. 94 00:07:46,434 --> 00:07:47,635 Morning, morning. 95 00:07:48,235 --> 00:07:50,604 Uh, uh, morning, oh, Oh. 96 00:07:53,541 --> 00:07:54,709 Did I disturb you? 97 00:07:54,842 --> 00:07:58,946 No, no, the knock did. Okay. 98 00:08:01,115 --> 00:08:03,017 Some leftover benzos. 99 00:08:03,517 --> 00:08:06,320 -Oh, thanks man. -I got plenty of coffee in the truck. 100 00:08:07,088 --> 00:08:12,560 I don't really feel like hearing how big a piece of shit I am, 101 00:08:12,994 --> 00:08:15,296 right now, to be honest with you. 102 00:08:18,065 --> 00:08:21,135 Matt, I get it, you don't like meetings. 103 00:08:21,702 --> 00:08:22,803 Yeah. 104 00:08:24,638 --> 00:08:25,873 I need you to show up. 105 00:08:28,009 --> 00:08:30,011 It's a reasonable request. 106 00:08:32,313 --> 00:08:36,083 Yeah, yeah, yeah, it is. 107 00:08:36,851 --> 00:08:39,220 It's a reasonable request. 108 00:08:58,606 --> 00:08:59,740 All right, I'll pick you up. 109 00:09:00,408 --> 00:09:02,843 - Wait, you're not coming in? -I already went. 110 00:09:03,878 --> 00:09:05,346 -That figures. -All right. 111 00:09:05,479 --> 00:09:07,982 -I got a favor to ask you, man. -What's that? 112 00:09:08,349 --> 00:09:10,785 I'd like to ask you not to wear that hat. 113 00:09:12,686 --> 00:09:14,588 Uh, what do you mean? 114 00:09:15,456 --> 00:09:17,158 -I'm Lakota. -I know. 115 00:09:18,125 --> 00:09:24,799 So basically you're a walking billboard for a stereotype about native people. 116 00:09:25,199 --> 00:09:28,269 Matt, we're not Braves or Redskins, 117 00:09:28,402 --> 00:09:29,804 or-- we're not even Indians. 118 00:09:29,937 --> 00:09:31,806 -We're real people just-- -I, I know. 119 00:09:31,939 --> 00:09:33,307 Just wear this instead, please. 120 00:09:33,441 --> 00:09:36,210 This hat is symbolic of 121 00:09:36,777 --> 00:09:39,713 real players, 122 00:09:40,247 --> 00:09:42,049 and real people, 123 00:09:43,150 --> 00:09:47,054 and a real team that was part of my childhood. 124 00:09:47,188 --> 00:09:50,925 I'm not, it's not a, a, a racist thing. 125 00:09:51,058 --> 00:09:53,260 All right. Imagine you're a, you're a kid... 126 00:09:53,394 --> 00:09:56,964 -Yeah. -...off the reservation, and you, and, and you come to a game 127 00:09:57,098 --> 00:10:01,936 and you idolize these people and you want to be a professional baseball player, 128 00:10:02,069 --> 00:10:05,339 and, and, and you get there and, and you see people, 129 00:10:05,940 --> 00:10:08,543 adults, dressed up like, 130 00:10:09,243 --> 00:10:12,880 like what they think... you're supposed to look like. 131 00:10:13,647 --> 00:10:16,750 What they think, in their mind, an "Indian" looks like, 132 00:10:17,251 --> 00:10:21,689 and, and, and they're going 133 00:10:21,822 --> 00:10:23,624 act-- acting like idiots. 134 00:10:24,559 --> 00:10:25,893 That affects us. 135 00:10:28,062 --> 00:10:31,065 Like I, I'm not saying that that's great, 136 00:10:31,198 --> 00:10:33,634 I don't get how it affects you though. 137 00:10:35,669 --> 00:10:37,404 That affects my self-esteem. 138 00:10:38,205 --> 00:10:41,342 That affects these kids' self-esteem. 139 00:10:45,346 --> 00:10:46,747 I'm not a mascot. 140 00:10:47,915 --> 00:10:50,017 I'm not a goofy cartoon or a, or a chant, 141 00:10:50,151 --> 00:10:52,953 or, or, we don't do the Tomahawk chop. 142 00:10:53,387 --> 00:10:56,123 That makes a difference in how we feel about ourself, 143 00:10:57,057 --> 00:10:59,093 that affects kids' self-esteem. 144 00:11:00,694 --> 00:11:01,795 Okay. 145 00:11:09,036 --> 00:11:11,405 -Thank you. -Yep, yep. 146 00:11:12,840 --> 00:11:14,909 You win, you win. 147 00:11:16,877 --> 00:11:20,114 Uh, are you picking me up after? 148 00:11:20,615 --> 00:11:21,650 I'll be here. 149 00:11:21,782 --> 00:11:22,983 -Thanks, man. -I got you. 150 00:11:24,685 --> 00:11:27,922 My father was a violent man. 151 00:11:29,957 --> 00:11:31,258 He was a marine... 152 00:11:32,893 --> 00:11:34,094 ...sniper scout, 153 00:11:35,162 --> 00:11:37,364 Pacific Theater during World War II. 154 00:11:38,567 --> 00:11:41,969 He took Iwo Jima, Saipan, Tinian, Roi-Namur, 155 00:11:42,970 --> 00:11:44,338 and the Marianas. 156 00:11:47,875 --> 00:11:48,976 And... 157 00:11:50,444 --> 00:11:54,949 ...he had this hair trigger temper when he drank... 158 00:11:56,585 --> 00:11:58,185 ...and God forbid, 159 00:11:59,053 --> 00:12:00,522 you were in his line of fire, 160 00:12:01,422 --> 00:12:03,157 'cause that wasn't gonna be a good day. 161 00:12:06,628 --> 00:12:07,662 When I was a boy, 162 00:12:08,062 --> 00:12:11,198 I had this dog named Caesar... 163 00:12:12,567 --> 00:12:15,369 ...and he was my buddy, you know, my pal. 164 00:12:17,371 --> 00:12:18,772 In a scary world, 165 00:12:19,740 --> 00:12:21,242 he was like my champion. 166 00:12:25,614 --> 00:12:27,915 And then, uh, one day my dad... 167 00:12:29,551 --> 00:12:31,620 ...just went into one of his ragers and... 168 00:12:32,419 --> 00:12:34,221 I was sitting there with Caesar petting him. 169 00:12:34,355 --> 00:12:37,825 And... he beelines it right at us, you know? 170 00:12:37,958 --> 00:12:42,329 And I thought, "Oh, he's going, he's gonna lay into me, man." 171 00:12:45,065 --> 00:12:47,868 And then, you know, with one hit... 172 00:12:50,137 --> 00:12:52,473 ...he snapped his spine in half. 173 00:12:54,008 --> 00:12:55,943 I'll never forget the sound he made... 174 00:12:57,044 --> 00:13:01,415 ...'cause I, I knew that was it, and he was dying. 175 00:13:03,685 --> 00:13:07,421 So, I put my head... against his chest and pet him. 176 00:13:07,555 --> 00:13:11,959 You know, that... was the only thing I could do. 177 00:13:13,394 --> 00:13:15,329 I've done a lot of forgiving since then, 178 00:13:17,898 --> 00:13:20,000 I'm gonna tell you that was a hard one. 179 00:13:25,640 --> 00:13:27,941 - All right. - That was tough, man. 180 00:13:46,695 --> 00:13:49,631 You know, the pulls are a great community event. 181 00:13:50,097 --> 00:13:51,999 -Meet a lot of good people. -What are they? 182 00:13:52,132 --> 00:13:55,770 Uh, dog pulls, train your sled dogs? 183 00:13:56,370 --> 00:13:58,839 So, like mushing and all that? 184 00:13:59,273 --> 00:14:01,241 Yeah, something like that. 185 00:14:03,444 --> 00:14:06,013 It's kind of tough being the new guy in the group, huh? 186 00:14:09,016 --> 00:14:10,951 It was tough for me too in the beginning, 187 00:14:11,385 --> 00:14:13,921 but you know, I kind of stick out around here. 188 00:14:15,456 --> 00:14:16,957 Why? Because you don't drink? 189 00:14:17,391 --> 00:14:21,428 Well, no, I, I'm a guest from Al-Anon. 190 00:14:22,129 --> 00:14:23,397 So, you're fine. 191 00:14:23,997 --> 00:14:26,266 Well, not fine, but you know, 192 00:14:26,400 --> 00:14:29,537 alcoholism, it's, it's a family disease. 193 00:14:29,970 --> 00:14:31,271 Not if they're not around. 194 00:14:32,540 --> 00:14:35,510 Listen, I'm in Al-Anon and I give my number out, 195 00:14:35,643 --> 00:14:37,512 so you know, if you're interested... 196 00:14:38,613 --> 00:14:39,880 No, I'm good. 197 00:14:40,981 --> 00:14:44,952 All right, well, I'll let you get back to it and, uh, it's great meeting you. 198 00:16:24,084 --> 00:16:26,420 -I need this. -He's a stray. 199 00:16:26,554 --> 00:16:29,156 So am I, and look how much you like me. 200 00:16:29,289 --> 00:16:31,058 You remember Kevin, you remember Kevin? 201 00:16:31,191 --> 00:16:33,795 He asked his sponsor for a little job, 202 00:16:33,928 --> 00:16:36,163 and, and his sponsor sent him out to the garden 203 00:16:36,296 --> 00:16:37,799 to pick some dandelions, 204 00:16:37,932 --> 00:16:39,701 just a little bit of light weeding. 205 00:16:40,400 --> 00:16:43,505 He marches through the river, over the woods, 206 00:16:43,638 --> 00:16:45,773 catches the bus one hour one way just to drink. 207 00:16:45,907 --> 00:16:48,375 -Sorry, what does that have to do with me? -Stress, Matt. 208 00:16:48,510 --> 00:16:50,210 Stress. This dog is stress. 209 00:16:50,344 --> 00:16:53,982 -You don't need stress right now. -I'm not asking permission. 210 00:16:54,114 --> 00:16:56,049 -This is my house, man. -Then I will leave your house. 211 00:16:56,183 --> 00:16:57,217 Do you see what you're doing? 212 00:16:57,685 --> 00:16:59,486 Do you even hear what you're doing right now? 213 00:17:00,220 --> 00:17:01,956 Matt, if I let him stay and things go wrong, 214 00:17:02,089 --> 00:17:03,925 you have your excuse, and if... 215 00:17:04,692 --> 00:17:07,060 -I'm listening. -...if I stand my ground... 216 00:17:08,863 --> 00:17:10,163 ...you have your excuse. 217 00:17:11,699 --> 00:17:13,033 He was licking chickens. 218 00:17:13,166 --> 00:17:15,235 - That's not cute. That's brain damage. 219 00:17:15,904 --> 00:17:16,971 Hmm. 220 00:17:17,104 --> 00:17:19,007 - See? - Bless you. 221 00:17:19,139 --> 00:17:22,209 That's how he protests absurdity. 222 00:17:23,377 --> 00:17:26,213 After my dad died... 223 00:17:27,682 --> 00:17:32,085 ...my Newfoundland that I had, his name was Basil... 224 00:17:33,788 --> 00:17:37,625 ...was how that I knew that my world had not ended. 225 00:17:38,860 --> 00:17:44,766 And when he died, the care that had been in my home was completely gone. 226 00:17:45,198 --> 00:17:48,803 So, I would scrape my knee and it wasn't, 227 00:17:48,937 --> 00:17:50,270 "Hey, are you okay?" 228 00:17:50,404 --> 00:17:53,641 It was, "Put a band aid on it and move on." 229 00:17:54,876 --> 00:17:56,744 I need this. 230 00:18:00,414 --> 00:18:02,149 How about we give it a week? 231 00:18:03,216 --> 00:18:04,752 -One week, Matt. -Deal. 232 00:18:05,118 --> 00:18:06,588 There's one problem. 233 00:18:06,721 --> 00:18:07,889 What now? 234 00:18:08,322 --> 00:18:11,325 We have to name him. 235 00:18:12,860 --> 00:18:16,363 This, this is your new dog. You pick. 236 00:18:17,899 --> 00:18:20,367 Okay. Yup'ik. 237 00:18:20,835 --> 00:18:23,504 - Oh, Matt. - Yeah, yeah. 238 00:18:23,638 --> 00:18:26,007 -Really? -Yeah, really. 239 00:18:26,708 --> 00:18:28,342 It's a great name, you named him. 240 00:18:28,475 --> 00:18:29,777 It's great. It's great. 241 00:18:30,745 --> 00:18:31,646 Heartfelt. 242 00:18:33,715 --> 00:18:35,883 That's right. You know, you know the smells. 243 00:18:48,696 --> 00:18:50,598 Shut up! 244 00:18:52,800 --> 00:18:56,704 - Shut up, shut up. Shut up, shut up, shut up. 245 00:19:12,520 --> 00:19:14,354 At least you're housebroken. 246 00:19:24,832 --> 00:19:28,870 Come on, let's go. 247 00:19:30,303 --> 00:19:31,639 Yup'ik, let's go. 248 00:19:33,841 --> 00:19:38,478 Hey. 249 00:19:59,033 --> 00:20:01,435 Yeah, yeah. Hey, hey. 250 00:20:54,055 --> 00:20:57,158 I blame my mom for the way she shut down after my dad died, 251 00:20:57,290 --> 00:21:00,260 - The truth was somehow too straight forward. 252 00:21:00,728 --> 00:21:02,797 He crashed into a tree on his way to work. 253 00:21:02,930 --> 00:21:06,834 Broad daylight, no alcohol, no other cars involved. 254 00:21:36,964 --> 00:21:37,865 Hmm. 255 00:21:38,733 --> 00:21:40,601 - Hey, how is it coming along? -Great. 256 00:21:40,735 --> 00:21:43,370 It's real great, real great, real great. 257 00:21:43,771 --> 00:21:45,740 -You're not gonna take him with you? -Nope. 258 00:21:45,873 --> 00:21:48,009 Well, he's your dog, you can't just leave him. 259 00:21:49,043 --> 00:21:50,310 What do you want from me? 260 00:21:51,311 --> 00:21:52,880 I want you to take him with you. 261 00:21:53,014 --> 00:21:54,949 Fine, I'll take him with me and leave him for the cougars. 262 00:21:55,082 --> 00:21:56,651 Great? Great, great. 263 00:22:21,042 --> 00:22:24,111 Yup'ik! You're on your own asshole! 264 00:23:31,411 --> 00:23:35,182 Hey, you all right? Good. All right, here, go ahead, go ahead, go ahead. 265 00:23:35,316 --> 00:23:37,785 Go ahead, go ahead, okay. 266 00:23:39,520 --> 00:23:42,823 Good, yeah, yeah, good, good. 267 00:23:45,526 --> 00:23:46,794 - Hey. - Hey. 268 00:23:46,928 --> 00:23:48,329 I have a package for Fred. 269 00:23:49,030 --> 00:23:53,034 Uh, yeah, I'll sign for it. Uh... 270 00:23:53,734 --> 00:23:56,370 -You can sign here. -Great, oh. 271 00:23:56,504 --> 00:23:57,972 Wow, you guys got dumped on out here. 272 00:23:58,739 --> 00:24:01,909 - Yeah, yeah it's Montana. It'll probably be gone tomorrow with. 273 00:24:02,276 --> 00:24:06,180 -Oh, I love your husky. -Uh, he's a pound puppy. 274 00:24:08,349 --> 00:24:11,886 He's an Alaskan Husky with some Siberian in him. 275 00:24:12,019 --> 00:24:13,821 Seriously? 276 00:24:13,955 --> 00:24:16,357 Yep, third generation dog musher right here. 277 00:24:16,724 --> 00:24:17,825 People still do that? 278 00:24:17,959 --> 00:24:19,961 Well, sure I mean, I don't anymore, 279 00:24:20,094 --> 00:24:21,829 but there are a lot of them out there. 280 00:24:22,330 --> 00:24:24,999 -Yeah. -Well, huskies can look kind of muddy 281 00:24:25,132 --> 00:24:27,001 'cause they're not really a "breed" breed, 282 00:24:27,134 --> 00:24:28,769 but they're kind of a special dog, 283 00:24:28,903 --> 00:24:31,138 bred for power, speed, and endurance. 284 00:24:31,739 --> 00:24:33,874 Not for looks. Right? 285 00:24:34,008 --> 00:24:35,276 -Definitely not. -Yeah. 286 00:24:35,409 --> 00:24:37,011 But this guy's an epic athlete. 287 00:24:37,945 --> 00:24:40,381 -Wait. -Um, what's the name? 288 00:24:40,514 --> 00:24:41,449 Uh, Yup'ik. 289 00:24:41,882 --> 00:24:43,751 -Yeah. -Your name is Yup'ik? 290 00:24:45,820 --> 00:24:47,655 - No, I'm Matt, he's Yup'ik. - Oh. 291 00:24:47,788 --> 00:24:49,824 I, what kind of parent would name a kid Yup'ik, right? 292 00:24:49,957 --> 00:24:52,760 Yeah, that's a good question, Uh, I'm Julie. 293 00:24:52,893 --> 00:24:55,596 -Hi. -They're great sled dogs, but they're also, 294 00:24:55,730 --> 00:24:57,531 they love to pull. There's nothing in the world 295 00:24:57,665 --> 00:24:59,633 an Alaskan Husky loves more than pulling. 296 00:25:00,001 --> 00:25:06,307 I, I don't know. Is that what those signs are around town with like the... big prize money... 297 00:25:06,440 --> 00:25:07,475 -Yeah. Oh. -...thing? 298 00:25:07,608 --> 00:25:08,809 Where are you from? 299 00:25:08,943 --> 00:25:11,012 Uh, I grew up in Whitefish mostly... 300 00:25:11,145 --> 00:25:13,748 -and then I was in, uh, Glendive for a bit... -Hmm. 301 00:25:13,881 --> 00:25:16,484 - ...and Miles City. - Yeah, fancy boy. 302 00:25:16,617 --> 00:25:19,620 Yeah that's, that's me, that's me. 303 00:25:19,754 --> 00:25:24,158 Um... well, hey, I, I gotta go. 304 00:25:24,525 --> 00:25:26,160 Hey, uh, what do I do, 305 00:25:26,293 --> 00:25:29,463 uh, if I want to have him pull like you're saying? 306 00:25:29,597 --> 00:25:30,765 Uh, harness him up. 307 00:25:31,665 --> 00:25:33,734 I don't, actually-- Uh, what does that mean? 308 00:25:34,301 --> 00:25:36,804 It means fancy boy, put a harness on him. 309 00:25:37,471 --> 00:25:41,642 Uh, I work at Murdochs this weekend. Come by. I'll hook this guy up. 310 00:25:42,443 --> 00:25:43,244 Okay. 311 00:25:44,445 --> 00:25:46,013 All right. Come on, 312 00:25:46,515 --> 00:25:48,082 we'll try this. All right. 313 00:25:48,215 --> 00:25:51,052 Okay, okay. What's happening here? 314 00:25:51,185 --> 00:25:54,922 So we, like this. 315 00:25:55,056 --> 00:25:57,992 Come on, come on, come on, you're good. 316 00:25:58,125 --> 00:25:59,727 I'm just gonna take this off of you. 317 00:26:07,701 --> 00:26:11,172 Okay, ready, okay? 318 00:26:11,572 --> 00:26:14,608 Good boy, it's okay, it's okay. 319 00:26:14,742 --> 00:26:19,046 Yeah, here we go, here we go. 320 00:26:23,884 --> 00:26:26,720 Good job. Here we go. 321 00:27:23,777 --> 00:27:26,780 More weight! 322 00:27:27,549 --> 00:27:29,083 -Come here. -Come on, Yup'ik. 323 00:27:33,154 --> 00:27:35,422 - Come on. - Atta boy. 324 00:27:40,828 --> 00:27:43,664 What was that? 325 00:27:43,797 --> 00:27:44,899 He almost pulled it. 326 00:27:45,600 --> 00:27:50,671 -Wow, good job. Good job, good job buddy. -What? Good boy! 327 00:27:50,804 --> 00:27:53,474 - Ugh. - Good Yup'ik, yeah, yeah. 328 00:27:53,608 --> 00:27:56,944 Are you getting cold? Hm? Are you getting cold? 329 00:27:57,077 --> 00:28:01,448 -Matt, the parking brake was on. -Wait, what? 330 00:28:01,583 --> 00:28:03,450 The parking break was on. 331 00:28:05,052 --> 00:28:10,958 No. What, what, what? 332 00:28:25,239 --> 00:28:28,442 Yeah! Woo-hoo. 333 00:28:37,351 --> 00:28:38,852 Okay, yeah, we-- 334 00:28:38,986 --> 00:28:40,854 Sorry, we can't afford it buddy. 335 00:28:41,889 --> 00:28:44,491 Let's see. 336 00:28:51,131 --> 00:28:52,266 Yup'ik! 337 00:28:52,866 --> 00:28:54,802 You made it. 338 00:28:56,170 --> 00:28:57,905 I'm gonna give you a treat. 339 00:28:58,038 --> 00:29:00,741 I just need to ask you about the, the dog pulling. 340 00:29:01,208 --> 00:29:03,477 -Weight pulling. Uh... -Weight pulling. 341 00:29:03,612 --> 00:29:04,979 ...mushing's more my specialty, 342 00:29:05,112 --> 00:29:06,715 but you should talk to this guy. 343 00:29:06,847 --> 00:29:08,983 He's the best. He, his dogs are legend, 344 00:29:09,116 --> 00:29:12,086 and he's lived here a long time. A native guy from Alaska. 345 00:29:12,219 --> 00:29:14,723 -Okay. -Uh, he's got really good stories. 346 00:29:14,855 --> 00:29:19,159 -You should ask him about Nugget. -Nugget, okay, Nugget. 347 00:29:21,128 --> 00:29:22,496 Did you hook him up? 348 00:29:22,997 --> 00:29:25,399 - Yeah. - I told you. 349 00:29:25,533 --> 00:29:28,269 -Right. -Hey also, the weight pull's just outside. 350 00:29:28,670 --> 00:29:31,606 Um, give it a go. If he pulls weight, you qualify for state. 351 00:29:32,607 --> 00:29:36,711 -Cash or card? -Uh, let's do card please. 352 00:29:36,844 --> 00:29:40,981 Also, uh, make sure that you mix it with water when you feed him, it prevents bloat. 353 00:29:41,115 --> 00:29:42,216 Okay. 354 00:29:45,219 --> 00:29:46,120 Yeah. 355 00:29:48,055 --> 00:29:50,824 Your total is $71.37. 356 00:29:51,559 --> 00:29:52,793 Okay. 357 00:30:00,267 --> 00:30:02,336 I'm sorry. It didn't go through. 358 00:30:02,469 --> 00:30:04,972 Just gimme my card back, it's, it's like an old card. 359 00:30:05,105 --> 00:30:08,042 I think the stripe is actually bad on it. 360 00:30:08,175 --> 00:30:09,977 -How much do you have? -I have money, 361 00:30:10,110 --> 00:30:12,813 I'm just finishing up a project right now, so... 362 00:30:14,148 --> 00:30:18,085 Mm, 42 bucks, perfect. 363 00:30:18,952 --> 00:30:20,020 I told you I'd hook you up. 364 00:30:20,689 --> 00:30:22,923 Don't worry about it, employee discount. 365 00:30:23,692 --> 00:30:25,059 Um, gimme Greg's card. 366 00:30:30,565 --> 00:30:31,800 I can show you our dogs. 367 00:30:31,932 --> 00:30:33,834 I've just been out of the game a while. 368 00:30:47,181 --> 00:30:48,282 Good boy. 369 00:30:55,389 --> 00:30:57,157 I'm sorry, we're finished. 370 00:30:57,291 --> 00:30:59,493 Uh, can I just get my dog out there? 371 00:30:59,627 --> 00:31:01,962 -Come to our next pull. -Wh-- when is that? 372 00:31:02,096 --> 00:31:04,498 Qualifier's in Butte next week. 373 00:31:05,933 --> 00:31:08,168 Could we just practice? 374 00:31:08,670 --> 00:31:10,337 Not today. 375 00:31:13,508 --> 00:31:15,943 You're taking this kind of seriously, aren't you? 376 00:31:16,544 --> 00:31:17,244 I am? 377 00:31:17,878 --> 00:31:21,583 Yeah, I'm just asking to see what my dog can do. 378 00:31:23,384 --> 00:31:25,285 I'll spare you the suspense. 379 00:31:25,419 --> 00:31:28,556 - Excuse me? - It's a little dog. 380 00:31:31,392 --> 00:31:32,594 I'm sorry. 381 00:31:36,497 --> 00:31:40,434 -Greg said I should stop by. -Greg sent you? 382 00:31:40,802 --> 00:31:42,903 -Yeah, Greg Peters. -Mm-hmm. 383 00:31:44,471 --> 00:31:48,041 Hey,Greg-ums, guy here says you sent him over. 384 00:31:51,011 --> 00:31:52,547 -Hey, Matt, right? -Yeah. 385 00:31:52,680 --> 00:31:54,948 - Good to see you again. - Yeah, you too. 386 00:31:55,082 --> 00:31:57,184 Yeah, I think he's worth checking out. 387 00:31:57,317 --> 00:31:59,920 - He ever pulled? - Sure. 388 00:32:00,889 --> 00:32:02,256 Yeah, he's young. 389 00:32:02,791 --> 00:32:04,793 He's got feet like clown shoes. 390 00:32:05,693 --> 00:32:09,196 -Let's get a rig on him, see what he can do. -Are you serious? 391 00:32:14,401 --> 00:32:15,936 All right, make sure it's snug. 392 00:32:16,069 --> 00:32:17,104 We had a big malamute in there 393 00:32:17,237 --> 00:32:18,338 last run of the day. 394 00:32:18,807 --> 00:32:20,340 Sampson, you may have seen him. 395 00:32:20,842 --> 00:32:23,210 Your dog's a little smaller. 396 00:32:24,178 --> 00:32:27,347 - It's funny, that's, that's real funny, yeah. 397 00:32:27,481 --> 00:32:30,417 -So what'd you name him? -Uh, his name's Yup'ik. 398 00:32:31,285 --> 00:32:32,787 - Really? - Hey, come here, here. 399 00:32:32,921 --> 00:32:33,888 And how'd you come about that? 400 00:32:34,054 --> 00:32:35,088 That's kind of a joke. 401 00:32:35,557 --> 00:32:38,726 I gotta see this, don't wanna jinx the next pull. 402 00:32:38,860 --> 00:32:40,427 Uh, he's superstitious. 403 00:32:40,562 --> 00:32:42,463 Into the Zodiac and stuff like that. 404 00:32:42,597 --> 00:32:44,331 Yeah, that seems pretty on brand for him. 405 00:32:44,465 --> 00:32:46,099 Come on, Yup'ik. Come on, come on. Go, go, go. 406 00:32:46,233 --> 00:32:47,968 Hey Greg, just so this kid doesn't kill his dog, 407 00:32:48,101 --> 00:32:50,037 we should probably take the weight down a little bit. 408 00:32:50,170 --> 00:32:51,171 How much is on there? 409 00:32:51,539 --> 00:32:54,274 Uh, Sampson's original 2100. 410 00:32:54,408 --> 00:32:56,711 Oh, let's knock it down to 500, 411 00:32:56,845 --> 00:32:58,145 just to give him a feel for it. 412 00:32:58,278 --> 00:32:59,948 Yeah, well he almost pulled a car earlier. 413 00:33:00,380 --> 00:33:01,215 - Yeah? - Yeah. 414 00:33:01,348 --> 00:33:02,282 You never set your dog 415 00:33:02,416 --> 00:33:03,885 up to fail, it shames him. 416 00:33:04,017 --> 00:33:05,252 This guy's a total amateur. 417 00:33:05,385 --> 00:33:06,788 We were all amateurs once. 418 00:33:06,921 --> 00:33:09,122 That trust is a difficult thing to earn back. 419 00:33:09,624 --> 00:33:11,458 Yeah, and I know something about that. 420 00:33:11,960 --> 00:33:13,494 Oh, okay. 421 00:33:13,628 --> 00:33:15,630 -Yeah. -Well, here's how it works, 422 00:33:16,063 --> 00:33:17,665 Each of those bricks is 50 pounds. 423 00:33:18,098 --> 00:33:22,102 After each successful pull, the weight goes up 100 pounds. 424 00:33:22,236 --> 00:33:25,472 You are starting at 2100 pounds. All right? 425 00:33:25,607 --> 00:33:29,209 - Okay. -So you're gonna go down to the end of the lane, that's 16 feet. 426 00:33:29,343 --> 00:33:34,248 Your time starts when you call your dog or when your dog makes a move off the line. 427 00:33:34,716 --> 00:33:38,252 -Thirty seconds for him to get-- -You've got 30 seconds to get the front of the sled 428 00:33:38,385 --> 00:33:41,321 - across that line. - Okay, got it. 429 00:33:41,756 --> 00:33:43,023 You're on, Sparky. 430 00:33:50,832 --> 00:33:52,332 Okay. Yup'ik, come. 431 00:33:54,569 --> 00:33:57,471 You're right. He's really strong. 432 00:33:59,206 --> 00:34:01,208 Prick. 433 00:34:04,979 --> 00:34:06,446 Yup'ik, come. 434 00:34:11,019 --> 00:34:12,520 He's not interested. 435 00:34:16,423 --> 00:34:18,292 The dog just won't listen, man. 436 00:34:18,425 --> 00:34:20,995 Yup'ik, not "the dog". 437 00:34:21,128 --> 00:34:22,630 "Not the dog," does that really matter? 438 00:34:23,063 --> 00:34:27,167 Yes. When you call Yup'ik, mean it. 439 00:34:27,301 --> 00:34:29,269 I do mean it. 440 00:34:31,471 --> 00:34:34,876 Remember a time when you had fun with him. 441 00:34:35,543 --> 00:34:37,512 - Remember a time when I had fun with him? - -Yes. 442 00:34:37,645 --> 00:34:40,515 Breathe into that, it's very simple. 443 00:34:54,194 --> 00:34:56,196 Stay in that place. 444 00:35:03,671 --> 00:35:06,206 When you're ready, call him. 445 00:35:08,108 --> 00:35:10,511 Yup'ik, come. 446 00:35:13,180 --> 00:35:16,851 -Wait, wait, wait, wait. -When he puts his head down, you leave him. 447 00:35:16,985 --> 00:35:18,853 Wh-- Sorry, why are you yelling at me? 448 00:35:18,987 --> 00:35:20,888 Because you are a moron. 449 00:35:21,421 --> 00:35:23,423 You work at a doggy weight pull, man. 450 00:35:23,558 --> 00:35:25,258 How often do you think your wife brags about you? 451 00:35:25,392 --> 00:35:26,226 Oh, yeah? 452 00:35:32,000 --> 00:35:35,903 Oh shit. Quick, quick, come, come, yep, good, good. 453 00:35:36,037 --> 00:35:37,605 Nine seconds. 454 00:35:38,338 --> 00:35:40,140 -Not bad. -Yeah. 455 00:35:42,810 --> 00:35:44,244 Yeah, you know? 456 00:35:45,145 --> 00:35:49,851 Hey, so, I, I just wanted to say that I'm going through kind of a, a rough patch. 457 00:35:49,984 --> 00:35:51,586 Yeah, I get it. 458 00:35:52,020 --> 00:35:52,920 Yeah, look... 459 00:35:53,988 --> 00:35:56,189 ...bring this with you to the qualifier. 460 00:35:56,323 --> 00:35:57,759 It'll get you in for free. 461 00:35:57,892 --> 00:35:59,192 It's got my name on it. 462 00:35:59,560 --> 00:36:01,161 Right, so you think he can qualify? 463 00:36:01,663 --> 00:36:05,566 I wouldn't get too excited just 'cause you got him to cross the line once, 464 00:36:05,967 --> 00:36:09,202 - doesn't mean you can do it again. - Good luck, champ. 465 00:36:11,939 --> 00:36:12,974 Matthew... 466 00:36:13,875 --> 00:36:16,077 ...Yup'ik is a very special name. 467 00:36:16,811 --> 00:36:21,415 It's a Yup'ik word, spelled Y-U-P-I-K, 468 00:36:22,016 --> 00:36:23,518 and it's sacred. 469 00:36:25,318 --> 00:36:26,888 He's a sensitive dog... 470 00:36:27,722 --> 00:36:30,290 ...and you will have to become sensitive, too. 471 00:36:31,191 --> 00:36:33,460 Lean into that connection, okay? 472 00:36:36,064 --> 00:36:37,197 You're doing a good job. 473 00:36:49,610 --> 00:36:51,445 Okay, Yup'ik come. 474 00:36:55,215 --> 00:37:00,287 I thought we had a deal, I lean in and you respond. 475 00:37:05,126 --> 00:37:06,293 What's the problem? 476 00:37:09,897 --> 00:37:12,365 I'm sorry about the car earlier, okay? 477 00:37:12,499 --> 00:37:14,669 I didn't mean to shame you with it. 478 00:38:34,015 --> 00:38:36,684 So, you wanna make sure and make eye contact with him. 479 00:38:37,518 --> 00:38:38,719 And go very slowly. 480 00:38:38,853 --> 00:38:41,522 Make sure that he's following the treat. 481 00:38:46,326 --> 00:38:48,428 -Okay, you try. -Okay. 482 00:38:49,564 --> 00:38:53,601 -So, I make eye contact. -With Yup'ik. 483 00:38:53,734 --> 00:38:57,705 With Yup'ik, right, right, and go slowly. 484 00:38:57,839 --> 00:38:58,739 Yes. 485 00:38:59,339 --> 00:39:01,275 Okay, slow. 486 00:39:15,923 --> 00:39:17,558 Okay, just toss it to him now. 487 00:39:18,226 --> 00:39:19,794 Just toss it to him? 488 00:39:19,927 --> 00:39:21,329 Yeah, just pop it up in the air. 489 00:39:21,461 --> 00:39:23,297 Just pop it up in the air, all right. 490 00:39:23,430 --> 00:39:26,567 -What if I hit him? -He'll catch it. It's a treat. 491 00:39:50,925 --> 00:39:53,961 So, just like baseball, it's all about the fundamentals. 492 00:39:54,095 --> 00:39:55,096 So, sit. 493 00:41:14,408 --> 00:41:16,377 Dang, how much bacon can he eat? 494 00:41:16,510 --> 00:41:18,145 I'm pretty sure he's bottomless. 495 00:41:18,879 --> 00:41:20,147 So, you all race ready? 496 00:41:21,015 --> 00:41:24,251 About as ready we're ever gonna be, I guess. 497 00:42:15,770 --> 00:42:17,138 Wait, your mom was a musher? 498 00:42:17,271 --> 00:42:20,141 She trained with Susan Butcher for years. 499 00:42:20,274 --> 00:42:21,642 I don't know who that is. 500 00:42:22,143 --> 00:42:24,278 It's just a four time Iditarod winner. 501 00:42:26,747 --> 00:42:29,216 -She's pretty. -Well, that's where I get it. 502 00:42:30,217 --> 00:42:33,687 -What's with the hat? -It's called an ushanka, 503 00:42:33,821 --> 00:42:36,891 and it's Prada for mushers. 504 00:42:37,258 --> 00:42:38,726 Do you have one? 505 00:42:38,859 --> 00:42:41,062 Nah, it's for serious mushers. 506 00:42:41,796 --> 00:42:43,330 And, and you're not a serious musher? 507 00:42:44,031 --> 00:42:49,370 I love it. I don't know, it, it's kind of my mom's thing, hard to live up to. 508 00:42:49,837 --> 00:42:51,472 Well, yeah, especially without a... 509 00:42:51,906 --> 00:42:55,309 - ...u-- U-- - Ushanka. 510 00:42:55,443 --> 00:42:58,846 Ushanka, ushanka, okay. 511 00:43:01,282 --> 00:43:02,283 What about your dad? 512 00:43:04,685 --> 00:43:06,253 Carpenter, technically. 513 00:43:09,524 --> 00:43:11,258 Which is a noble profession. 514 00:43:13,727 --> 00:43:19,568 In my dad's case, he was mostly an unemployed and resentful house husband. 515 00:43:20,167 --> 00:43:25,072 My mom had this dream and she was living it and he didn't. 516 00:43:26,073 --> 00:43:27,975 He did manage to keep the dogs alive though. 517 00:43:28,109 --> 00:43:31,245 I'd come out here occasionally to help out. 518 00:43:31,812 --> 00:43:34,782 So, that's my sob story, what about you? 519 00:43:34,915 --> 00:43:36,650 How many days sober? 520 00:43:40,888 --> 00:43:43,157 I can be a bit much. 521 00:43:47,128 --> 00:43:49,263 Yeah, I don't really like to talk about it. 522 00:43:51,699 --> 00:43:52,933 You got it. 523 00:43:58,873 --> 00:44:00,609 So, I was thinking 524 00:44:00,975 --> 00:44:03,210 I'd like to take you and Yup'ik dog sledding. 525 00:44:03,644 --> 00:44:04,778 I think you'd love it. 526 00:44:08,883 --> 00:44:11,418 -Um... -If not, I understand. 527 00:44:15,222 --> 00:44:18,259 I appreciate your help with him so far. 528 00:44:18,392 --> 00:44:19,894 Like, really. 529 00:44:20,595 --> 00:44:24,131 -I'm not-- -Hey, this doesn't have to be a thing. 530 00:44:26,200 --> 00:44:27,735 Thought you could use a friend. 531 00:44:29,003 --> 00:44:31,005 It's just a dog sled ride. 532 00:44:36,977 --> 00:44:38,712 Hola, amigo. 533 00:44:38,846 --> 00:44:40,047 Dang, the hutch's looking pretty good. 534 00:44:40,181 --> 00:44:43,317 Yeah, she's coming along, coming along. 535 00:44:43,450 --> 00:44:44,519 Got you something. 536 00:44:44,653 --> 00:44:46,787 -What's this? -Just a small, 537 00:44:47,589 --> 00:44:50,559 -small present. -Got me a bowling ball? 538 00:44:50,691 --> 00:44:53,360 - It's a necklace. - Yes. 539 00:44:54,161 --> 00:44:56,263 -Heavy. -It's a sweater. 540 00:44:56,665 --> 00:44:58,732 You opened it? 541 00:44:59,133 --> 00:45:00,701 I had to, man, I had to look at it. 542 00:45:00,834 --> 00:45:03,137 A sweater, it's a sweater. 543 00:45:05,940 --> 00:45:07,908 Whoa, whoa, whoa. 544 00:45:12,012 --> 00:45:15,983 Two days away. 545 00:45:17,952 --> 00:45:20,888 It makes no damn sense to me why they're your favorite team. 546 00:45:23,424 --> 00:45:26,393 - I think I got the font as close as I could get it. 547 00:45:26,528 --> 00:45:28,929 We didn't have a team in Montana... 548 00:45:29,997 --> 00:45:31,765 ...and my dad loved them. 549 00:45:33,067 --> 00:45:36,270 And it was my thing with him. 550 00:45:39,039 --> 00:45:41,710 -Whew. -That's why, huh? Your dad. 551 00:45:41,842 --> 00:45:44,345 -Okay, now I understand. -Oh. 552 00:45:44,478 --> 00:45:47,549 I just couldn't put the team name on there 'cause I-- 553 00:45:47,948 --> 00:45:50,784 -Well, you know. -I know. I do know. 554 00:45:51,318 --> 00:45:54,321 - But I got a baseball on there. That's the symbol. 555 00:45:56,558 --> 00:45:58,759 That relationship between you and your dad, Matt, 556 00:45:58,892 --> 00:46:01,228 -that's what's important. -Yeah. 557 00:46:02,062 --> 00:46:05,232 I just don't wanna miss the chance to get it to you before the big race. 558 00:46:19,380 --> 00:46:22,483 I'd like to register my dog, please. 559 00:46:22,983 --> 00:46:25,953 You have to have your pull dog with you. 560 00:46:26,086 --> 00:46:27,855 Can I just have my bib please? 561 00:46:28,889 --> 00:46:32,459 - You're quite rude. -It's okay, Tina, he's an acquired taste. 562 00:46:32,594 --> 00:46:35,162 Yeah, some people just weren't raised right. 563 00:46:36,130 --> 00:46:38,365 You have a problem with authority, kid. 564 00:46:39,099 --> 00:46:41,068 Come on, let's go. 565 00:46:45,005 --> 00:46:48,042 - Hey. Hey. - Hey, rat pull's next week, bud. 566 00:46:48,175 --> 00:46:49,910 Rat pull's in your pants, buddy. 567 00:46:50,044 --> 00:46:51,713 Crowd can get a little rowdy at these things, 568 00:46:51,845 --> 00:46:52,846 don't take it personal. 569 00:46:52,980 --> 00:46:54,114 Let's get one thing straight... 570 00:46:54,248 --> 00:46:55,082 -Mm. -...I don't need your help. 571 00:46:55,215 --> 00:46:56,518 Oh, whatever you say. 572 00:46:56,651 --> 00:46:57,519 Here, here, here. 573 00:46:57,652 --> 00:46:59,219 -Number? -Uh, 88. 574 00:46:59,353 --> 00:47:00,988 -You're up next. -Okay. 575 00:47:01,121 --> 00:47:04,224 Eighty-eight. It's a lucky number, astrologically. 576 00:47:04,358 --> 00:47:06,093 The stars are in your favor, pal. 577 00:47:06,561 --> 00:47:09,631 Stop, stop, stop. I can't do this zodiac astrological bullshit, okay? 578 00:47:09,764 --> 00:47:11,365 I'm trying to concentrate and you're just yapping in my ear. 579 00:47:11,498 --> 00:47:13,967 Accept the help or don't, but stop complaining. 580 00:47:14,101 --> 00:47:15,502 You sound like a little bitch. 581 00:47:19,106 --> 00:47:21,408 Our defending champion, weighing in at a robust 582 00:47:21,543 --> 00:47:23,877 - One hundred and forty-two pounds. - Yeah. 583 00:47:24,011 --> 00:47:26,980 Malamute, Alaskan freight dog. 584 00:47:27,114 --> 00:47:30,017 He has size, heart, pure will. 585 00:47:30,150 --> 00:47:31,519 That's your competition. 586 00:47:32,152 --> 00:47:36,156 He's won state the last three years and beat last year's national record. 587 00:47:37,759 --> 00:47:40,060 -You're up. -Okay, Yup'ik, come on. Come on. 588 00:47:40,194 --> 00:47:42,096 Dog goes on the scale, not you. 589 00:47:42,229 --> 00:47:43,897 Hey, get up here, come on. 590 00:47:46,367 --> 00:47:48,837 Next up, we have Yup'ik weighing in at 591 00:47:49,370 --> 00:47:52,873 a svelte, featherweight 44 pounds. 592 00:47:58,345 --> 00:48:00,314 All right, guys, thank you all for coming. 593 00:48:00,447 --> 00:48:01,982 We got a really quick event today. 594 00:48:02,116 --> 00:48:03,785 Each dog has 30 seconds 595 00:48:03,917 --> 00:48:05,452 to pull 1500 pounds across the line. 596 00:48:05,587 --> 00:48:07,856 Cross the line, they qualify for state. 597 00:48:11,191 --> 00:48:12,493 Come on, Sampson. 598 00:48:12,627 --> 00:48:15,697 Sampson, let's go, let's go. 599 00:48:19,366 --> 00:48:20,968 You got this, come on! 600 00:48:21,101 --> 00:48:23,838 Sampson, hey, come on. 601 00:48:24,471 --> 00:48:26,508 Let's go, let's go. 602 00:48:30,377 --> 00:48:33,480 That's seven seconds, that's a new qualifying record. 603 00:48:33,615 --> 00:48:36,651 Come on, good boy, good boy. 604 00:49:04,779 --> 00:49:06,146 Yeah! Woo. 605 00:49:21,061 --> 00:49:22,597 Yup'ik, Yup'ik, come, come here. 606 00:49:24,632 --> 00:49:26,099 Yup'ik, come here. 607 00:49:26,734 --> 00:49:28,368 Yup'ik, come. 608 00:49:29,804 --> 00:49:30,605 Yup'ik. 609 00:49:42,015 --> 00:49:44,652 Ah, Yup'ik, come. 610 00:49:46,420 --> 00:49:47,988 Come. Ah! 611 00:49:48,590 --> 00:49:50,190 Come! Come! 612 00:50:02,402 --> 00:50:04,939 You do that shit at state, I'm gonna kick your ass. 613 00:50:05,072 --> 00:50:07,642 So, we're not gonna be carpooling together, is that what you're saying? 614 00:50:11,880 --> 00:50:12,780 Hey. 615 00:50:13,313 --> 00:50:14,516 That was disgusting. 616 00:50:14,649 --> 00:50:16,283 -Another lecture, okay. -The-- Hmm, 617 00:50:16,416 --> 00:50:18,218 -the only reason you're not disqualified... -Mm-hmm. 618 00:50:18,352 --> 00:50:20,420 -Hmm-mm. -...is 'cause your friend was going around telling everyone 619 00:50:20,555 --> 00:50:23,558 how stupid you are, and I happen to agree with him. 620 00:50:23,691 --> 00:50:26,393 Pull that at state and you're disqualified. 621 00:50:27,261 --> 00:50:29,864 Great. 622 00:50:30,899 --> 00:50:32,834 Hi, it's me, leave a message. 623 00:50:33,467 --> 00:50:36,838 Hey, Mom, it's Matt. Um, 624 00:50:37,471 --> 00:50:39,072 What do you say after 15 years? 625 00:50:39,206 --> 00:50:41,308 Oh. 626 00:50:46,014 --> 00:50:47,214 I made it. 627 00:50:52,352 --> 00:50:54,388 I'd like to see you. Uh... 628 00:50:56,925 --> 00:51:00,127 Oh, uh, call me back? 629 00:51:07,367 --> 00:51:11,405 Good, good, good. Stay here, stay here. 630 00:51:11,539 --> 00:51:14,842 Hey, hey. 631 00:51:15,543 --> 00:51:17,277 - Hi, this is Matt. - Hi Matt, I'm Denise, 632 00:51:17,411 --> 00:51:19,446 I'm one of your mom's hospice nurses. 633 00:51:29,857 --> 00:51:32,125 -Hey, champ-- -Hey, did you get a letter from my mom? 634 00:51:32,259 --> 00:51:33,327 Um... 635 00:51:34,261 --> 00:51:35,797 -...oh, uh, yeah. Hey. -Where is it? 636 00:51:35,930 --> 00:51:38,165 -Where is it? Where is it? -Sit down! 637 00:51:38,298 --> 00:51:39,667 -Sit down. -Get your hands off me. 638 00:51:39,801 --> 00:51:40,735 I've had enough of this. 639 00:51:40,868 --> 00:51:42,235 -Get your ass down. -So have I. 640 00:51:43,170 --> 00:51:46,841 Where, oh, fuck, where is it? 641 00:51:47,407 --> 00:51:50,110 -Where is it? -It's on top of the hutch. 642 00:51:55,282 --> 00:51:57,217 You're so close to 30 days, Matt. 643 00:52:31,451 --> 00:52:33,420 I understand why you're upset. 644 00:52:36,490 --> 00:52:39,727 And it's just that you were doing so, so good. 645 00:52:40,227 --> 00:52:42,563 I asked you to be my sponsor, 646 00:52:42,964 --> 00:52:46,000 because you had a willpower that I didn't have 647 00:52:46,134 --> 00:52:47,869 And I trusted you man. 648 00:52:48,002 --> 00:52:49,037 And I shouldn't have, 649 00:52:49,169 --> 00:52:51,405 because you are scared shitless 650 00:52:51,539 --> 00:52:52,940 of being out of control. 651 00:52:54,174 --> 00:52:55,342 And you lied to me. 652 00:52:55,475 --> 00:52:57,578 And for as long as I've known you, 653 00:52:58,178 --> 00:53:00,615 you have taken the easy way out. 654 00:53:01,015 --> 00:53:04,184 Hey, that's what makes these last 30 days so exceptional. 655 00:53:06,721 --> 00:53:10,024 There's no shortcuts to sobriety, Matt, 656 00:53:10,158 --> 00:53:12,325 'cause believe me, you would've found them by now. 657 00:53:13,460 --> 00:53:15,295 Your mom's death isn't your fault. 658 00:53:17,565 --> 00:53:19,299 And where's your wife, Fred? 659 00:53:24,605 --> 00:53:26,239 No, don't do this. 660 00:53:28,308 --> 00:53:32,279 You talk about your life like it's Eden. 661 00:53:32,747 --> 00:53:33,681 So where is she? 662 00:53:34,048 --> 00:53:35,750 Did she leave you for some guy who'd let her choose 663 00:53:35,883 --> 00:53:38,485 what day of the week she wanted to wash her underwear? 664 00:53:39,620 --> 00:53:42,289 You keep talking to me like this, you can't stay here. 665 00:53:44,058 --> 00:53:45,626 We'll be gone tomorrow. 666 00:53:46,127 --> 00:53:46,994 Great. 667 00:53:48,763 --> 00:53:49,664 Great. 668 00:54:05,513 --> 00:54:07,749 Fuck. Get in there. 669 00:54:20,661 --> 00:54:22,864 Come here, come. 670 00:54:30,270 --> 00:54:33,406 Surprise! Fred invited me for pizza. 671 00:54:34,108 --> 00:54:36,309 I thought, well, we thought we'd celebrate. 672 00:54:37,779 --> 00:54:41,949 I get that you're lonely, but I don't want this. 673 00:54:43,851 --> 00:54:45,820 What is it that you don't want, Matt? 674 00:54:46,353 --> 00:54:49,456 My friendship, a human connection, 675 00:54:49,590 --> 00:54:51,058 this card that I brought? 676 00:54:51,192 --> 00:54:53,961 -Let's be specific. -I don't want any of it. 677 00:54:55,462 --> 00:54:57,665 I'm going through shit right now. 678 00:54:59,066 --> 00:55:00,367 I don't have anybody. 679 00:55:01,002 --> 00:55:04,705 I just drove an hour here to celebrate with you. 680 00:55:05,372 --> 00:55:06,473 Get out. 681 00:55:10,244 --> 00:55:11,344 Get out. 682 00:55:15,716 --> 00:55:17,317 Matt, Matt, I think something's wrong. 683 00:55:17,450 --> 00:55:18,753 Get out. 684 00:55:18,886 --> 00:55:21,421 - Seriously. - Seriously, get out! 685 00:56:07,434 --> 00:56:08,803 Hey. 686 00:56:36,530 --> 00:56:40,835 When I was ten, a storm destroyed our deck. 687 00:56:41,434 --> 00:56:43,137 And my dad was excited. 688 00:56:44,138 --> 00:56:47,074 He couldn't wait to tear it out and rebuild the damn thing. 689 00:56:47,842 --> 00:56:49,777 He made me get up early for weeks to help him, 690 00:56:50,344 --> 00:56:52,280 he was even whistling while we worked. 691 00:56:52,713 --> 00:56:55,816 Man, I was so mad at him for being so cheerful 692 00:56:55,950 --> 00:56:57,952 about building the stupid deck. 693 00:56:58,886 --> 00:57:01,956 I hated every hammer swing and every nail 694 00:57:02,356 --> 00:57:04,258 and every board we replaced. 695 00:57:05,393 --> 00:57:09,530 We finished on a Sunday right before he got paged into work, 696 00:57:10,430 --> 00:57:12,633 and I was mad about that too, him leaving. 697 00:57:13,401 --> 00:57:15,870 And I hated that beeper noise. 698 00:57:17,905 --> 00:57:19,273 And that was the last time I saw him. 699 00:57:52,206 --> 00:57:53,207 It's ruined. 700 00:57:54,041 --> 00:57:57,511 No, Matt, nothing's beyond repair. 701 00:58:41,255 --> 00:58:45,760 Um, so, this is a peace offering. 702 00:58:49,997 --> 00:58:50,898 Here. 703 00:59:12,753 --> 00:59:16,290 - He's gonna be okay, right? - -We're gonna do everything we can for him. 704 00:59:29,170 --> 00:59:30,971 Well, it's not the antifreeze. 705 00:59:32,306 --> 00:59:34,509 Wait what? So, so what's wrong with him? 706 00:59:34,642 --> 00:59:35,776 We're unsure at this time, 707 00:59:35,910 --> 00:59:37,512 but as soon as we can figure it out, 708 00:59:37,645 --> 00:59:38,446 we'll let you guys know. 709 00:59:45,953 --> 00:59:47,755 You were right. 710 00:59:48,689 --> 00:59:50,024 You needed him. 711 00:59:51,492 --> 00:59:54,128 I'd give anything to have the fun you two do. 712 00:59:55,329 --> 00:59:58,766 He's my buddy, man, he's my buddy. 713 01:00:08,609 --> 01:00:10,244 Matt, I need to tell you something. 714 01:00:11,479 --> 01:00:15,316 I don't know, know if I can do another talk right now. 715 01:00:16,016 --> 01:00:18,119 I need this. 716 01:00:20,054 --> 01:00:20,955 Okay. 717 01:00:36,804 --> 01:00:38,739 Matt, I drank. 718 01:00:44,979 --> 01:00:47,014 That's why Rachael went to her sister's. 719 01:00:55,823 --> 01:00:58,092 Thank you for telling me. 720 01:01:00,895 --> 01:01:02,997 Matt, I don't wanna be your sponsor anymore. 721 01:01:03,532 --> 01:01:04,899 Oh. 722 01:01:06,800 --> 01:01:08,202 I just wanna be your friend. 723 01:01:11,506 --> 01:01:12,940 I, I could use both. 724 01:01:15,276 --> 01:01:18,212 It's gonna be a while, we need you to go home. 725 01:01:19,046 --> 01:01:21,348 I, I would like to stay here. 726 01:01:21,482 --> 01:01:22,651 Go home and get some rest, 727 01:01:22,783 --> 01:01:24,385 we'll call you as soon as he's up. 728 01:01:28,455 --> 01:01:29,723 Let's go get some coffee. 729 01:01:31,225 --> 01:01:34,028 I, I can't believe this, but I want to go somewhere else. 730 01:01:36,897 --> 01:01:39,568 Uh, I'm Matt, and I'm an alcoholic. 731 01:01:39,700 --> 01:01:41,435 - Hey, Matt. - Hey. 732 01:01:41,570 --> 01:01:46,373 About a month ago after, uh, a short bender, um... 733 01:01:52,446 --> 01:01:55,382 ...I, uh, found out 734 01:01:55,517 --> 01:01:57,017 from a doctor that 735 01:01:57,151 --> 01:01:59,286 I was throwing up my stomach. 736 01:02:03,090 --> 01:02:05,726 And that if I didn't stop drinking, I would die. 737 01:02:07,027 --> 01:02:08,963 I went from the appointment to the bar... 738 01:02:10,965 --> 01:02:13,033 ...uh, ready to drink the place dry. 739 01:02:13,568 --> 01:02:17,238 A couple of drinks in, I opened up a letter that... 740 01:02:18,739 --> 01:02:22,243 ...I had received that day, and I found out that my mom... 741 01:02:23,143 --> 01:02:24,579 ...was going into hospice. 742 01:02:25,746 --> 01:02:28,382 She'd refused to see me until I was 30 days sober, 743 01:02:28,516 --> 01:02:30,317 um, it'd been 15 years. 744 01:02:30,818 --> 01:02:37,324 So, I, uh, really smartly, um, decided to punch a bartender... 745 01:02:38,759 --> 01:02:41,829 ...so I could get thrown into jail, um, 'cause I know that, 746 01:02:42,429 --> 01:02:47,134 knew that that's the only chance I had... 747 01:02:48,102 --> 01:02:51,038 ... to get sober. That was my sobriety plan. 748 01:02:52,439 --> 01:02:54,041 After my, uh, after my dad had died, 749 01:02:54,174 --> 01:02:56,678 I had a teacher who encouraged me to write poetry 750 01:02:57,177 --> 01:02:58,779 as a way to process my feelings. 751 01:02:58,912 --> 01:03:00,715 So I'm gonna read something I wrote. 752 01:03:00,848 --> 01:03:04,519 Um, I'm not really good at this kind of thing. 753 01:03:04,653 --> 01:03:07,321 Um, it's called Broken Soul. 754 01:03:09,156 --> 01:03:12,159 "My whole life, unable to rest, 755 01:03:12,627 --> 01:03:14,962 in pursuit of some unavowed dream, 756 01:03:15,496 --> 01:03:19,701 masked in this insane compulsive desire to self-bleed. 757 01:03:19,833 --> 01:03:24,606 Multiple vices brought my way, but not the kind that takes one's breath away, 758 01:03:24,739 --> 01:03:27,542 but the kind that tears one's self away." 759 01:03:27,676 --> 01:03:31,879 "My dad died and left me with no life coming through my eyes 760 01:03:32,012 --> 01:03:33,548 and my mom's gone now too. 761 01:03:37,184 --> 01:03:40,120 In those moments when I realize this, 762 01:03:40,254 --> 01:03:45,192 my mind goes one way, but then my body refuses to own it, 763 01:03:45,326 --> 01:03:50,732 and my insides are rupturing on the brink about to explode." 764 01:03:50,864 --> 01:03:54,234 "But it's not what you think. It's pain and it's old. 765 01:03:54,368 --> 01:03:57,572 A broken heart in a broken soul, 766 01:03:59,039 --> 01:04:00,874 trying to escape." 767 01:04:01,609 --> 01:04:04,679 "But my mind's a square peg and my body's a round hole. 768 01:04:05,412 --> 01:04:08,382 If I had a broken bone or something visible, 769 01:04:08,516 --> 01:04:11,085 I think people would be less critical. 770 01:04:13,987 --> 01:04:18,926 But you have a broken spirit and the support, it's minimal. 771 01:04:20,861 --> 01:04:23,030 And now I see the illusion, 772 01:04:23,464 --> 01:04:27,602 an unexpected sunrise unraveled the confusion. 773 01:04:28,770 --> 01:04:31,806 Wholeness happens in a flash 774 01:04:32,239 --> 01:04:35,042 and it's not extraordinary because it lasts. 775 01:04:35,510 --> 01:04:36,343 The beauty, 776 01:04:36,910 --> 01:04:40,481 lives in that moment of accepting the past is the past." 777 01:04:47,722 --> 01:04:51,024 Thanks, Matt. Thanks, Matt. 778 01:04:52,025 --> 01:04:53,160 Thanks, Matt. 779 01:05:20,889 --> 01:05:23,691 Hey, how are you? 780 01:05:30,998 --> 01:05:32,232 You're okay. 781 01:05:35,068 --> 01:05:36,437 It's okay. 782 01:05:37,605 --> 01:05:39,674 It's okay, it's okay, it's okay. 783 01:05:40,140 --> 01:05:41,442 Yeah, it's okay. 784 01:05:43,977 --> 01:05:49,483 Uh, ooh, it's okay, it's okay. Oh. 785 01:05:50,217 --> 01:05:51,586 Oh, buddy. 786 01:05:53,120 --> 01:05:56,457 All right, let's get the patient over here. 787 01:05:56,858 --> 01:05:57,892 See what we're working with. 788 01:05:58,058 --> 01:05:58,959 Come here. 789 01:05:59,092 --> 01:06:00,427 Yeah, that's it, come here. 790 01:06:00,562 --> 01:06:03,430 Come here. You know me. Come here. Come on. 791 01:06:03,565 --> 01:06:04,431 Hi. 792 01:06:04,566 --> 01:06:06,233 -See what we got here. -Yeah. 793 01:06:07,334 --> 01:06:11,972 Whoa, buddy, what kind of voodoo doctor put this together? 794 01:06:13,508 --> 01:06:15,409 I mean, it was the best I could do. 795 01:06:15,543 --> 01:06:17,211 -You did this? -Yeah. 796 01:06:17,344 --> 01:06:18,378 -Wow. -Yeah. 797 01:06:18,513 --> 01:06:19,446 Okay. 798 01:06:20,080 --> 01:06:23,383 Yeah, I'll show you what we got here. 799 01:06:24,919 --> 01:06:27,020 -What is that? -It's the real deal, buddy. 800 01:06:27,154 --> 01:06:31,091 -Yup'ik version of Neosporin and-- -Looks like pomade. 801 01:06:31,225 --> 01:06:33,761 -Okay. -Yeah, it's the good stuff, man. 802 01:06:34,361 --> 01:06:35,864 What exactly did the vet say? 803 01:06:36,396 --> 01:06:43,638 Uh, he told me that, uh, he had gas get into his stomach and it flipped. 804 01:06:44,506 --> 01:06:47,107 Yeah. That usually happens to big horses, 805 01:06:47,241 --> 01:06:50,678 and... dogs about his size 806 01:06:50,812 --> 01:06:53,413 and... pull dogs. 807 01:06:54,816 --> 01:06:57,451 But, listen here, let's get you over here 808 01:06:57,585 --> 01:06:59,654 'cause you need to learn how to do this. 809 01:07:26,848 --> 01:07:27,782 Call him. 810 01:07:28,348 --> 01:07:29,684 And you're sure this is okay? 811 01:07:29,817 --> 01:07:33,021 Yes, he will let you know what he needs 812 01:07:33,153 --> 01:07:34,454 and what he doesn't need. 813 01:07:34,989 --> 01:07:40,193 Unlike you, he's not conditioned to hide the way he truly feels. 814 01:07:45,265 --> 01:07:46,366 Okay. 815 01:07:47,401 --> 01:07:49,436 -Yup'ik come. -Argh. 816 01:07:50,070 --> 01:07:51,773 I need you to be here. 817 01:07:53,073 --> 01:07:54,842 Here. Look around you. 818 01:07:54,976 --> 01:07:57,344 I need you to be here with the mountains, 819 01:07:58,046 --> 01:07:59,614 be here with the snow. 820 01:08:01,415 --> 01:08:04,586 The relationship between human being and dog is ancient. 821 01:08:04,953 --> 01:08:08,455 The pathway is there, he's just waiting for you to use it. 822 01:08:25,940 --> 01:08:26,841 Yup'ik come. 823 01:08:31,178 --> 01:08:32,614 -Here, take this. -All right. 824 01:08:33,246 --> 01:08:35,248 Ah, see what you just did? 825 01:08:35,382 --> 01:08:38,052 -Oh. -That is reflex. 826 01:08:38,553 --> 01:08:40,487 I need you to be here. 827 01:08:40,622 --> 01:08:42,456 Be here in this moment with this. 828 01:08:42,590 --> 01:08:47,028 Now, I'm gonna do it again at the same tension, but just go with it. 829 01:08:47,160 --> 01:08:49,196 - Stop staring at the lead, look at me. 830 01:08:49,964 --> 01:08:52,432 Just go with it, be here. 831 01:08:55,837 --> 01:08:56,804 Very good. 832 01:08:57,505 --> 01:08:59,540 It needs to be from here. 833 01:09:00,440 --> 01:09:03,111 Everything you do needs to be from here. 834 01:09:03,511 --> 01:09:05,680 This is what your life is missing. 835 01:09:07,749 --> 01:09:08,650 Try it again. 836 01:09:32,774 --> 01:09:33,741 Yup'ik, come. 837 01:09:36,077 --> 01:09:39,179 Good boy, hi, hi. Good boy. 838 01:09:39,312 --> 01:09:41,214 Okay. That's so good. 839 01:09:44,919 --> 01:09:46,087 Hey... 840 01:09:46,219 --> 01:09:48,890 ...come here. Come here. Slow, 841 01:09:49,023 --> 01:09:50,323 gentle, gentle, gentle. 842 01:09:50,457 --> 01:09:51,626 You knucklehead. 843 01:09:51,759 --> 01:09:54,595 All right. Yeah, okay. Sit. 844 01:09:55,429 --> 01:09:57,197 Good, good. Okay. 845 01:09:57,832 --> 01:10:01,569 Okay, good. Yeah. Just watch yourself. 846 01:10:02,103 --> 01:10:03,503 Okay, and what about this? 847 01:12:12,332 --> 01:12:13,935 I'll need your signature. 848 01:12:16,571 --> 01:12:17,672 Hey. 849 01:12:23,744 --> 01:12:27,414 Hey, Yup'ik, I brought you something. 850 01:12:28,516 --> 01:12:29,917 - Can I give him a treat? - Yeah. 851 01:12:36,691 --> 01:12:39,594 I heard about your mom, I'm sorry. 852 01:12:40,094 --> 01:12:45,066 Yeah, that was rough, um, thank you, thank you. 853 01:12:46,499 --> 01:12:49,436 Uh, I'm, uh, sorry. 854 01:12:49,937 --> 01:12:51,038 Um... 855 01:12:52,340 --> 01:12:55,710 I was hurting a lot and I was so focused on me 856 01:12:56,143 --> 01:13:00,648 and I, I don't know, I, I didn't listen to you... about the food. 857 01:13:01,082 --> 01:13:03,017 I didn't listen to you about him. 858 01:13:04,518 --> 01:13:05,653 That night, he got sick. 859 01:13:06,053 --> 01:13:10,591 I just didn't listen and... I didn't care. 860 01:13:11,826 --> 01:13:13,060 And I went after you. 861 01:13:20,467 --> 01:13:22,637 You know, we're all just trying. 862 01:13:25,539 --> 01:13:26,641 Yeah. 863 01:13:27,241 --> 01:13:28,142 Look... 864 01:13:29,543 --> 01:13:31,045 ...I'm sorry that I pushed. 865 01:13:31,178 --> 01:13:33,748 I've never been great at boundaries. 866 01:13:35,783 --> 01:13:41,188 I, I don't want boundaries. I, I, I know boundaries are good for us, but... 867 01:13:43,624 --> 01:13:46,861 ...the truth is I don't know what's good for me. 868 01:13:48,162 --> 01:13:49,263 But I think you are. 869 01:13:50,197 --> 01:13:54,835 And I actually got this for... you. 870 01:13:56,469 --> 01:13:58,139 For me? Mm. 871 01:13:59,472 --> 01:14:03,277 So, you didn't reply to my text messages, which is fine, uh, 872 01:14:03,411 --> 01:14:05,413 like I understand. Um, 873 01:14:05,913 --> 01:14:07,782 I needed a way to apologize in person 874 01:14:07,915 --> 01:14:11,185 and so this was my, my plan. 875 01:14:13,554 --> 01:14:16,223 I thought it might inspire you in some way. 876 01:14:24,799 --> 01:14:26,133 Can I give you a hug? 877 01:14:27,001 --> 01:14:27,902 Definitely. 878 01:14:35,475 --> 01:14:36,577 Mm. 879 01:14:38,512 --> 01:14:40,081 I'm going home for a bit. 880 01:14:41,716 --> 01:14:44,719 Because you have a ushanka now? 881 01:14:45,252 --> 01:14:47,888 No, I miss the dogs. 882 01:14:49,123 --> 01:14:51,192 But they'll love my new look. 883 01:15:04,405 --> 01:15:05,539 Uh, Julie? 884 01:15:06,607 --> 01:15:07,708 Yeah? 885 01:15:08,142 --> 01:15:09,477 If, if... 886 01:15:10,411 --> 01:15:13,080 ...if I come out sometime can we go dog sledding? 887 01:15:15,449 --> 01:15:17,051 Yeah, I'd like that. 888 01:15:18,452 --> 01:15:20,054 Me too, me too. 889 01:15:22,156 --> 01:15:23,924 Yeah, yeah. 890 01:15:48,215 --> 01:15:50,384 -What's this? -It's everything I borrowed. 891 01:15:50,519 --> 01:15:53,554 My one year of community college included a finance class, 892 01:15:53,687 --> 01:15:54,922 so interest is included. 893 01:15:55,890 --> 01:15:59,160 -Are you gonna have enough to live off of? -We'll make it work. 894 01:15:59,894 --> 01:16:01,362 You use this for the pull. 895 01:16:01,495 --> 01:16:02,830 Matt, I don't need it right now. 896 01:16:03,898 --> 01:16:06,233 -I'm not gonna have him pull. -Why? 897 01:16:07,568 --> 01:16:09,236 He's healed, I saw him out there. 898 01:16:10,237 --> 01:16:11,238 He is, but I'm not. 899 01:16:11,639 --> 01:16:15,943 And I was reckless with him before. I was an idiot. 900 01:16:17,578 --> 01:16:18,979 And I'm overwhelmed. 901 01:16:22,750 --> 01:16:24,652 Uh, you know what they say? 902 01:16:26,587 --> 01:16:29,056 One day at a time. 903 01:16:29,190 --> 01:16:30,691 Music to my ears. 904 01:16:31,592 --> 01:16:35,796 The Pull's the day after the memorial, um anyway, so. 905 01:16:36,531 --> 01:16:38,299 You need support at the service? 906 01:16:42,403 --> 01:16:43,304 We're okay. 907 01:16:48,042 --> 01:16:54,014 My, uh, mom and I had a complicated relationship, 908 01:17:01,055 --> 01:17:04,291 This was the last letter that she wrote me... 909 01:17:05,626 --> 01:17:08,162 ...the day that she passed away. 910 01:17:10,664 --> 01:17:11,765 "Dear Matt... 911 01:17:13,568 --> 01:17:14,802 ...I want you to know 912 01:17:15,302 --> 01:17:16,470 it is so hard 913 01:17:17,071 --> 01:17:19,306 to say what I have to say to you now... 914 01:17:21,543 --> 01:17:24,645 ...knowing this may be my last chance to do so. 915 01:17:29,783 --> 01:17:32,953 I know it is hard for you to believe... 916 01:17:39,493 --> 01:17:40,794 ...but I love you... 917 01:17:42,796 --> 01:17:44,431 ...and have always loved you. 918 01:17:49,103 --> 01:17:51,005 I remember when you were born..." 919 01:17:53,207 --> 01:17:55,409 "...they brought you to me. 920 01:17:57,244 --> 01:18:00,582 "I looked into your sparkling, weird little eyes 921 01:18:01,182 --> 01:18:03,217 while I held you for the first time." 922 01:18:13,327 --> 01:18:16,263 "They were overbrimming with light and life. 923 01:18:20,234 --> 01:18:24,738 I love that line by Leonard Cohen, where he says... 924 01:18:29,743 --> 01:18:32,880 ...'Ring the bell that still can ring. 925 01:18:35,816 --> 01:18:37,885 Forget your perfect offering. 926 01:18:39,521 --> 01:18:40,854 There is a crack, 927 01:18:41,956 --> 01:18:43,891 a crack in everything. 928 01:18:47,161 --> 01:18:48,996 That's how the light gets in.' 929 01:18:55,102 --> 01:18:59,073 You and your sister came to your father and me 930 01:18:59,708 --> 01:19:03,344 miraculously to give us life. 931 01:19:08,717 --> 01:19:13,153 And that will always remain somewhere where everything that matters happen." 932 01:19:17,491 --> 01:19:18,359 "Love, Mom." 933 01:19:41,048 --> 01:19:42,751 I never wanna do that again. 934 01:19:43,951 --> 01:19:45,886 Well, a tree could fall 935 01:19:46,020 --> 01:19:47,421 or we could have an earthquake. 936 01:19:47,921 --> 01:19:52,259 -And there's no final success, so you can forget that. -Dad. 937 01:19:53,193 --> 01:19:56,096 Argh, I gotta go to work. 938 01:19:57,197 --> 01:19:58,299 Here's the thing... 939 01:20:00,702 --> 01:20:02,102 ...we don't leave things broken. 940 01:20:23,290 --> 01:20:24,191 Matty. 941 01:21:16,544 --> 01:21:18,646 Yes, ladies and gentlemen, 942 01:21:18,780 --> 01:21:21,181 it's our first pull of the day and it's a great one. 943 01:21:21,315 --> 01:21:24,819 Fifteen hundred pounds from our pit bull terrier, Sebastian, 944 01:21:24,952 --> 01:21:26,621 let's add on another hundred pounds. 945 01:21:51,478 --> 01:21:55,983 Next up, we have Yup'ik, our very own chihuahua. 946 01:22:28,415 --> 01:22:30,350 Ladies and gentlemen, here we go. 947 01:22:30,484 --> 01:22:32,620 Let's see what this little guy can do. 948 01:22:36,758 --> 01:22:39,226 Okay, all right. 949 01:22:40,862 --> 01:22:41,962 Come. 950 01:22:44,064 --> 01:22:45,299 Yup'ik, come. 951 01:23:08,355 --> 01:23:10,625 Good, good, yeah, yeah, come, come. 952 01:23:13,695 --> 01:23:16,764 Mighty Mouse has done it, okay. 953 01:24:33,508 --> 01:24:36,544 And it looks like our trio is down to two. 954 01:24:36,678 --> 01:24:39,313 Up next, we have the Alaskan Assassin, 955 01:24:39,446 --> 01:24:41,649 the Mighty, Mighty Mouse coming up. 956 01:24:42,584 --> 01:24:45,587 If he pulls this off, he will be the first dog 957 01:24:45,720 --> 01:24:50,090 under 50 pounds in our history to pull off 2,500 pounds. 958 01:25:21,421 --> 01:25:27,494 Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik. 959 01:25:27,629 --> 01:25:30,130 Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, 960 01:25:30,263 --> 01:25:34,234 Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik. 961 01:25:34,368 --> 01:25:36,403 - Come on. - Yup'ik, Yup'ik, Yup'ik. 962 01:25:43,276 --> 01:25:48,650 Okay, we have Sampson up, attempting a monstrous 2,600 pounds. 963 01:25:48,783 --> 01:25:50,183 If he succeeds, 964 01:25:50,652 --> 01:25:52,754 this will be the most weight pulled by a dog 965 01:25:52,887 --> 01:25:55,188 in a competition in the last two years. 966 01:25:55,556 --> 01:25:59,426 He is attempting to pull a walrus across the ice, folks. 967 01:26:06,601 --> 01:26:09,469 Come on Sampson, good boy, good boy. 968 01:26:12,840 --> 01:26:15,208 Come on, good boy. Come on, good boy. 969 01:26:15,342 --> 01:26:17,011 Good boy. Come on, Sampson. 970 01:26:19,580 --> 01:26:20,815 I don't believe it folks. 971 01:26:21,481 --> 01:26:23,685 If Toothpick can pull 2,600 pounds, 972 01:26:23,818 --> 01:26:27,722 he will be our new champion and record holder for the year. 973 01:28:11,058 --> 01:28:13,326 Yeah. Yeah. 974 01:28:13,460 --> 01:28:14,729 Yeah, baby! 975 01:28:15,462 --> 01:28:16,496 Ahh! 976 01:28:16,631 --> 01:28:18,465 -Oh. -Thank you. 977 01:28:18,966 --> 01:28:20,500 -I'm proud of you guys. -Thanks, man. 978 01:28:20,635 --> 01:28:24,471 Woo-hoo, and you, Yup'ik, you did so good. 979 01:28:24,839 --> 01:28:27,175 -You did so good. -He's a little diva now. 980 01:28:27,307 --> 01:28:30,377 So, you gotta be, you gotta show respect. You know, when you see him. 981 01:28:30,511 --> 01:28:33,714 - I didn't have a chicken to lick for him, but-- - Yeah, funny. 982 01:28:33,848 --> 01:28:35,382 I'll see you guys back at the ranch? 983 01:28:35,516 --> 01:28:36,918 Yeah, yeah, we-- 984 01:28:39,020 --> 01:28:39,921 It's a farm. 985 01:28:41,055 --> 01:28:44,725 -It's not a farm bro. -You have chickens, man. What the fuck? 986 01:28:51,833 --> 01:28:54,535 So, how does it feel? 987 01:28:56,070 --> 01:28:59,040 Uh, pretty hard to describe. 988 01:29:04,444 --> 01:29:05,947 You know, Yup'ik... 989 01:29:06,881 --> 01:29:10,785 ...means "Real person, one who comes into themselves." 990 01:29:14,454 --> 01:29:18,025 Well, he, uh... he did that today. 991 01:29:19,492 --> 01:29:20,595 So did you. 992 01:29:27,902 --> 01:29:32,306 Julie, uh, told me to ask you about Nugget a while ago. 993 01:29:32,439 --> 01:29:33,841 Oh, she did, huh? 994 01:29:35,610 --> 01:29:39,213 Well... Emmett Peters, 995 01:29:39,914 --> 01:29:42,316 his lead dog in the second Iditarod, 996 01:29:42,717 --> 01:29:45,086 was a Siberian named Nugget. 997 01:29:46,687 --> 01:29:49,924 She was 12 years old, pregnant, had cancer. 998 01:29:50,057 --> 01:29:53,027 They broke the Iditarod record by six days. 999 01:29:53,661 --> 01:29:56,831 She was the greatest sled dog ever. 1000 01:29:57,899 --> 01:30:00,735 And Emmett, that was my grandfather. 1001 01:30:01,602 --> 01:30:04,906 Well, Sampson, that dog you just beat, 1002 01:30:05,039 --> 01:30:09,844 he's Nugget's great, great, great grandson. 1003 01:30:11,345 --> 01:30:13,080 That's pretty epic, my friend. 1004 01:30:19,987 --> 01:30:20,888 Come on. 1005 01:30:22,189 --> 01:30:23,090 Come on. 1006 01:30:24,058 --> 01:30:24,959 Let's go. 1007 01:30:39,206 --> 01:30:40,107 Matt, 1008 01:30:40,508 --> 01:30:41,676 I wanted to catch you 1009 01:30:41,809 --> 01:30:43,878 to say congratulations, in person. 1010 01:30:44,345 --> 01:30:45,546 -Yeah. -I'm sorry for what? 1011 01:30:47,315 --> 01:30:48,916 I, I need to tell you that, 1012 01:30:49,050 --> 01:30:51,118 that you were right about me. 1013 01:30:51,252 --> 01:30:52,452 -Stop. -No, you were. 1014 01:30:52,586 --> 01:30:54,221 We've all been through hard times. 1015 01:30:54,355 --> 01:30:56,257 We've all needed a break, man. 1016 01:30:56,657 --> 01:30:59,327 Yeah, and I also thought you should know 1017 01:30:59,459 --> 01:31:00,828 since you gave me so much shit 1018 01:31:00,962 --> 01:31:02,630 for my love of the metaphysical. 1019 01:31:02,763 --> 01:31:04,732 - It's weird, man. - Hey, hey. 1020 01:31:04,865 --> 01:31:06,867 I, I just wanted your ungrateful ass to know 1021 01:31:07,001 --> 01:31:08,636 that according to the Chinese Zodiac, 1022 01:31:08,769 --> 01:31:10,571 this is the year of the dog. 1023 01:31:11,939 --> 01:31:14,942 Wait, what? Wait are you serious? 1024 01:31:22,383 --> 01:31:26,454 If there is a cure for addiction, 1025 01:31:27,054 --> 01:31:32,226 it is someone you care for saying, "You're not alone... 1026 01:31:34,128 --> 01:31:35,162 ...I love you." 1027 01:31:37,465 --> 01:31:41,869 The opposite of addiction is not sobriety. 1028 01:31:42,870 --> 01:31:44,705 The opposite of addiction, 1029 01:31:44,839 --> 01:31:46,907 and maybe any suffering, 1030 01:31:47,441 --> 01:31:48,676 is connection... 1031 01:31:50,945 --> 01:31:52,113 ...to yourself... 1032 01:31:53,914 --> 01:31:55,149 ...to a passion... 1033 01:31:57,385 --> 01:31:58,552 ...to a partner... 1034 01:32:00,755 --> 01:32:02,556 ...or to a scrawny dog 1035 01:32:03,491 --> 01:32:04,692 with a sacred name. 1036 01:36:01,962 --> 01:36:05,165 Good, this is all in the realm of fun and games. 1037 01:36:05,299 --> 01:36:07,334 Sorry, guys, this is my first time hazing. 1038 01:36:09,270 --> 01:36:10,304 You did great. 1039 01:36:10,437 --> 01:36:12,239 One drunk away from, uh, 1040 01:36:13,240 --> 01:36:14,441 -losing that-- -One, one drink, 1041 01:36:14,576 --> 01:36:15,809 -one drink away from a drunk. -What? 1042 01:36:15,943 --> 01:36:18,145 - One-- - One drink 1043 01:36:18,279 --> 01:36:19,748 One drink away from a drunk. 1044 01:36:19,880 --> 01:36:21,282 Oh, excuse me, sorry. 1045 01:36:21,415 --> 01:36:22,916 Uh, why don't you have a drink with us? 1046 01:36:23,050 --> 01:36:24,653 -I'll just... -No, no, come have a drink. 1047 01:36:25,119 --> 01:36:28,856 -That's really a good-looking dog, like is, is-- yeah. -Yeah, he's so cute. 1048 01:36:28,989 --> 01:36:30,625 -Mm. -Mm. 1049 01:36:30,759 --> 01:36:32,860 -What, wha-- what's his name? Oh, my God. -Oh, my God. 1050 01:36:32,993 --> 01:36:34,962 That's a cute dog. My God. 1051 01:36:35,095 --> 01:36:36,797 - It's Yup'ik. - Yup'ik? 1052 01:36:37,898 --> 01:36:39,900 - Yeah. - Like toothpick? 1053 01:36:42,136 --> 01:36:45,039 You pick that yourself? 1054 01:36:45,172 --> 01:36:48,576 - That's okay, sit. - Then, he walks off. 1055 01:36:48,710 --> 01:36:50,512 -Okay, look now. -You're so good. 1056 01:36:50,645 --> 01:36:52,913 I'll take the plates and, and if you would like, 1057 01:36:53,047 --> 01:36:56,551 -I'll, I'll wrap them up here and, and, we'll-- -I'll help you clear. 1058 01:36:58,118 --> 01:36:59,987 Um, at this time I'd like to... 1059 01:37:00,921 --> 01:37:04,191 ...offer the podium to anyone who'd like to come share? 1060 01:37:04,992 --> 01:37:06,594 - Yeah, lay down in the grass. -That's so good. 1061 01:37:06,728 --> 01:37:10,064 That's so good, you're so good. You're so good. 1062 01:37:10,197 --> 01:37:12,933 Yeah, yeah. I know.