1 00:00:54,822 --> 00:00:57,157 Why should we care that you make it? 2 00:00:58,826 --> 00:01:01,094 I don't care if y'all don't care if I do make it. 3 00:01:05,065 --> 00:01:08,468 It's my journey. It's not nobody else journey. 4 00:01:08,603 --> 00:01:11,071 Nobody's gonna watch me walk with these shoes 5 00:01:11,204 --> 00:01:12,707 I got on my feet. 6 00:01:12,840 --> 00:01:15,375 Only one that can walk with these shoes is me. 7 00:01:17,712 --> 00:01:18,980 Simple. 8 00:01:19,112 --> 00:01:20,982 You don't want nobody to walk with you? 9 00:01:21,114 --> 00:01:22,884 Of course. 10 00:01:23,017 --> 00:01:25,118 You can hold my hand. 11 00:01:25,252 --> 00:01:27,187 You can look back from a distance. 12 00:01:32,092 --> 00:01:34,227 You still won't feel what I feel. 13 00:01:35,763 --> 00:01:37,799 You still won't look at it from my point of view. 14 00:01:39,333 --> 00:01:41,201 When everybody got an opinion, 15 00:01:41,703 --> 00:01:42,804 judging me... 16 00:01:43,671 --> 00:01:45,138 Like they God... 17 00:01:46,239 --> 00:01:47,441 Okay. 18 00:01:48,275 --> 00:01:49,544 Okay. 19 00:02:32,720 --> 00:02:37,625 It's okay, baby. Okay, okay. Ready? 20 00:04:32,540 --> 00:04:34,175 Man, shut the fuck up with that. 21 00:04:34,307 --> 00:04:35,576 I'm serious, I swear. 22 00:04:35,710 --> 00:04:36,677 It was more like meth or G or some shit. 23 00:04:36,811 --> 00:04:38,513 What? What is that? 24 00:04:38,646 --> 00:04:39,947 Bro, I'm telling you. Like, the mom gives birth 25 00:04:40,081 --> 00:04:41,649 and then she feeds herself off to the baby 26 00:04:41,783 --> 00:04:43,450 till there's nothing left. Nigga, it was crazy. 27 00:04:43,584 --> 00:04:45,653 There ain't no crab spiders in the Bay. 28 00:04:45,787 --> 00:04:47,555 On my mama, it is in my backyard. 29 00:04:47,688 --> 00:04:48,990 Nah, cuz. I'm not... 30 00:04:49,123 --> 00:04:50,191 I'm telling you, it was the most sacrifices 31 00:04:50,323 --> 00:04:51,893 -I've ever seen. -Hell. 32 00:04:52,026 --> 00:04:53,460 This was opened when I found it. 33 00:04:53,594 --> 00:04:54,695 It's missin' some pieces. 34 00:04:54,829 --> 00:04:56,898 I can only give you 15% off. 35 00:04:57,497 --> 00:04:58,800 Yes. 36 00:04:58,933 --> 00:05:00,868 That'll be $29.75. 37 00:05:07,208 --> 00:05:08,676 Your card is declined. 38 00:05:09,409 --> 00:05:11,311 Just put $28 on it. 39 00:05:13,114 --> 00:05:14,314 Thank you. 40 00:05:58,826 --> 00:06:00,528 - Hello? - Gia, 41 00:06:00,661 --> 00:06:02,797 they're already waiting. How long will it take to get here? 42 00:06:02,930 --> 00:06:04,364 Traffic's bad. Can you tell 'em 43 00:06:04,497 --> 00:06:05,833 -I'll be a little late? -How late? 44 00:06:05,967 --> 00:06:09,203 Your balance is $2.49. 45 00:06:09,337 --> 00:06:10,905 Make a payment. 46 00:06:11,038 --> 00:06:13,875 Make another one, curve it again. 47 00:06:14,008 --> 00:06:17,245 And then you use the yellow. 48 00:06:18,880 --> 00:06:22,516 Swirl it around and use the green. 49 00:06:37,932 --> 00:06:40,167 - You okay? - Yeah. 50 00:06:40,301 --> 00:06:42,136 Let's sit. Let's sit. 51 00:06:42,270 --> 00:06:43,771 All right, cool. 52 00:06:46,607 --> 00:06:47,808 Hey, you want to feel? 53 00:06:51,245 --> 00:06:53,114 - Do you feel that? - Yeah. 54 00:06:55,750 --> 00:06:57,450 I got something for you. 55 00:07:02,489 --> 00:07:04,191 You can wear 'em all together, see? 56 00:07:07,228 --> 00:07:09,997 When you look on the back, you can see what your mood is. 57 00:07:10,430 --> 00:07:11,632 Okay? 58 00:07:14,502 --> 00:07:16,237 Are they nice to you guys in the new place? 59 00:07:16,370 --> 00:07:18,139 -Yeah. -Yeah? 60 00:07:19,173 --> 00:07:22,510 Okay. Mama got you guys sticking together. 61 00:07:23,911 --> 00:07:25,246 You taking care of each other? 62 00:07:25,379 --> 00:07:26,647 Yeah. 63 00:07:27,949 --> 00:07:28,950 Shaynah? 64 00:07:32,586 --> 00:07:33,988 Shaynah, you at least gonna look at me? 65 00:07:38,025 --> 00:07:40,661 What's going on, baby? 66 00:07:43,496 --> 00:07:44,899 Is it 'cause I was late? 67 00:07:50,604 --> 00:07:51,906 Play, okay? 68 00:07:59,947 --> 00:08:01,248 Hmm? 69 00:08:10,925 --> 00:08:11,993 Shaynah. 70 00:08:14,395 --> 00:08:15,596 Shaynah. 71 00:08:20,568 --> 00:08:21,769 Listen. 72 00:08:25,272 --> 00:08:26,741 I'm trying my best. 73 00:08:29,810 --> 00:08:31,679 This is not so easy. 74 00:08:32,780 --> 00:08:34,181 But I'm right here. 75 00:08:36,717 --> 00:08:37,952 I'm here now. 76 00:08:39,653 --> 00:08:40,955 Shaynah. 77 00:08:41,088 --> 00:08:43,057 Don't be like that with Mama. Look at me. 78 00:08:43,190 --> 00:08:44,992 How's it going, Shaynah, Trey? 79 00:08:45,126 --> 00:08:46,127 Shaynah? 80 00:08:48,095 --> 00:08:49,130 Shaynah? 81 00:08:49,797 --> 00:08:51,932 Shaynah? Shaynah? 82 00:08:52,066 --> 00:08:52,900 Shh. 83 00:08:53,034 --> 00:08:54,702 Everything okay, sweetie? 84 00:08:54,835 --> 00:08:56,003 What are you saying to her? 85 00:08:56,137 --> 00:08:59,006 Shaynah. At least say, "Bye, Mama." 86 00:08:59,508 --> 00:09:00,741 Shaynah. 87 00:09:13,687 --> 00:09:15,524 Come on, Trey. 88 00:09:15,656 --> 00:09:17,458 She'll be back soon. 89 00:09:17,591 --> 00:09:18,893 He doesn't want to go. 90 00:09:20,428 --> 00:09:22,196 Come on, now. 91 00:09:22,329 --> 00:09:25,166 -Come on, now. -He doesn't want to go, see? 92 00:09:26,033 --> 00:09:27,234 Come on, now. 93 00:09:32,406 --> 00:09:33,707 Come on, Trey. 94 00:09:34,675 --> 00:09:36,210 Okay. 95 00:10:16,851 --> 00:10:18,520 Your DSR hearing is next week 96 00:10:18,686 --> 00:10:19,854 on Friday at 3:00 p.m. 97 00:10:19,987 --> 00:10:21,322 I'm curious. What are your plans? 98 00:10:21,455 --> 00:10:22,957 For what? 99 00:10:23,090 --> 00:10:25,159 We're still completing your reunification requirement. 100 00:10:25,292 --> 00:10:26,727 -So... -So what? 101 00:10:28,863 --> 00:10:30,764 You started this case plan a year ago. 102 00:10:30,898 --> 00:10:32,099 Now there's four months left, 103 00:10:32,233 --> 00:10:34,301 six if I ask for some more time. 104 00:10:37,238 --> 00:10:39,940 Ms. Jasmine, I'm here for every visit. 105 00:10:40,074 --> 00:10:42,009 I've passed every test. 106 00:10:43,144 --> 00:10:44,478 I've gone to every class you put me in. 107 00:10:44,613 --> 00:10:46,280 Gia, you've been late on several occasions. 108 00:10:46,413 --> 00:10:49,450 You've yet to complete a successful home assessment. 109 00:10:49,584 --> 00:10:51,185 And you've missed child support payments. 110 00:10:51,318 --> 00:10:53,921 Ms. Jasmine, I can't get any more hours 111 00:10:54,054 --> 00:10:56,457 with all of the courses y'all are making me take. 112 00:10:56,591 --> 00:10:58,527 So how am I supposed to pay for all of that? 113 00:10:58,659 --> 00:11:00,694 I'll try to ensure this child remains in the home, 114 00:11:00,828 --> 00:11:02,096 at least while you're breastfeeding. 115 00:11:02,229 --> 00:11:03,898 But unless you complete the program, 116 00:11:04,031 --> 00:11:05,966 I can't guarantee the child will remain in the home. 117 00:11:07,101 --> 00:11:08,402 Your children need stability 118 00:11:08,537 --> 00:11:09,837 and at the moment, we haven't seen enough. 119 00:11:09,970 --> 00:11:11,172 What more do you need to see? 120 00:11:11,305 --> 00:11:13,207 Have you finished the housing application? 121 00:11:13,340 --> 00:11:14,375 Not yet. 122 00:11:14,509 --> 00:11:15,943 Look, we're here to ensure 123 00:11:16,076 --> 00:11:18,045 the best interests for your children. 124 00:11:18,179 --> 00:11:19,313 All you need are three more signatures... 125 00:11:19,446 --> 00:11:20,948 I don't need no fuckin' gold star 126 00:11:21,081 --> 00:11:22,449 to tell me I'm a good mom. 127 00:11:28,255 --> 00:11:29,790 If the courts require us to intervene, 128 00:11:29,924 --> 00:11:31,058 are there any other family members 129 00:11:31,192 --> 00:11:32,594 that can look after this child? 130 00:11:32,726 --> 00:11:33,827 -Someone we could recommend? -So I got no choice, 131 00:11:33,961 --> 00:11:35,863 but to be a single parent. 132 00:11:35,996 --> 00:11:37,231 I'm getting punished for that too? 133 00:11:37,364 --> 00:11:40,334 Gia, I don't need your disrespect in my office. 134 00:11:41,202 --> 00:11:42,736 Now, if you don't mind? 135 00:12:12,499 --> 00:12:13,734 Oh. 136 00:12:21,008 --> 00:12:23,444 I swear his little ass gonna come early. 137 00:12:25,312 --> 00:12:27,682 Okay. How was it? 138 00:12:27,815 --> 00:12:29,016 Talk to me. 139 00:12:30,351 --> 00:12:31,519 It's draining. 140 00:12:33,588 --> 00:12:35,189 You'll get 'em back, G. 141 00:12:36,290 --> 00:12:39,126 That's not what my caseworker saying. 142 00:12:39,260 --> 00:12:42,029 Don't listen to what your caseworker said. 143 00:12:42,162 --> 00:12:44,633 Missy got her kids back after how long? 144 00:12:44,765 --> 00:12:46,033 Twenty-four months? 145 00:12:47,034 --> 00:12:49,571 Wouldn't you rather that than nothing at all? 146 00:12:49,704 --> 00:12:52,106 Sometimes that's just how this shit work. 147 00:12:52,239 --> 00:12:55,342 You got to play their game. And do what you got to do. 148 00:12:58,412 --> 00:13:01,282 I got some tacos. 149 00:13:06,287 --> 00:13:08,088 Hey, boo. 150 00:13:08,222 --> 00:13:10,991 Man, it's like 30 condoms in here. 151 00:13:13,961 --> 00:13:15,863 Well, well, well. 152 00:13:17,298 --> 00:13:19,400 You real slick, Missy. 153 00:13:19,534 --> 00:13:20,834 Yeah. Thank you, Jesus. 154 00:13:20,968 --> 00:13:22,369 Miss Carmen, what you trying to say today? 155 00:13:22,504 --> 00:13:24,405 I mean, damn, how much fucking you think 156 00:13:24,539 --> 00:13:25,939 we about to be doing, Miss Carmen? 157 00:13:26,073 --> 00:13:27,207 That part. 158 00:13:27,341 --> 00:13:29,310 No, maintain family size, remember that. 159 00:13:29,443 --> 00:13:31,979 I mean, I can try to help you get your kids back home, 160 00:13:32,112 --> 00:13:34,248 but I can't if you keep multiplying the household. 161 00:13:34,381 --> 00:13:35,717 - Oh, okay, because... - All right, 162 00:13:35,849 --> 00:13:36,917 doll face, let's get going here. 163 00:13:41,989 --> 00:13:43,023 How do you think 164 00:13:43,157 --> 00:13:45,760 she feels, when you call her "Mom"? 165 00:13:45,893 --> 00:13:49,163 Can't tell if she's disappointed 166 00:13:50,197 --> 00:13:52,833 or embarrassed by me. 167 00:13:55,102 --> 00:13:57,204 She has that blank look on her face. 168 00:13:57,838 --> 00:13:59,239 Just ices me. 169 00:14:01,643 --> 00:14:03,877 It's as if me being there 170 00:14:04,011 --> 00:14:06,213 makes her feel worse about herself. 171 00:14:07,782 --> 00:14:10,017 At the end of the day, that's my mama. 172 00:14:11,485 --> 00:14:13,555 And that's gonna always be my mama. 173 00:14:16,591 --> 00:14:19,927 But as you can't choose your parents... You know? 174 00:14:22,363 --> 00:14:23,531 So... 175 00:14:25,533 --> 00:14:26,568 it is what it is. 176 00:14:28,235 --> 00:14:31,405 Do you think speaking to her 177 00:14:32,906 --> 00:14:35,142 about how you feel would help? 178 00:14:39,480 --> 00:14:40,582 No, I don't. 179 00:14:41,982 --> 00:14:43,217 She's busy. 180 00:14:49,791 --> 00:14:54,562 Her addiction created an anxiety inside me. 181 00:14:56,096 --> 00:14:57,398 And, um... 182 00:14:58,833 --> 00:15:01,536 That anxiety has been passed down to my child. 183 00:15:04,138 --> 00:15:06,240 And I don't know how to save her from it. 184 00:15:09,878 --> 00:15:11,513 I'm scared to lose her to it. 185 00:15:14,148 --> 00:15:17,552 Instead of healing, I ignored it. 186 00:15:18,118 --> 00:15:19,420 Covered it up. 187 00:15:21,922 --> 00:15:23,558 Used substances, 188 00:15:24,224 --> 00:15:25,627 so I wouldn't feel. 189 00:15:27,729 --> 00:15:31,965 I used so much that when I stopped, I had to learn 190 00:15:32,734 --> 00:15:34,569 how to feel again. 191 00:15:37,672 --> 00:15:39,106 It's not easy. 192 00:15:47,882 --> 00:15:49,249 Gia. 193 00:15:50,819 --> 00:15:52,252 What about you? 194 00:15:58,258 --> 00:15:59,561 No? 195 00:16:01,896 --> 00:16:03,163 Okay. 196 00:16:03,297 --> 00:16:05,098 When you're ready. 197 00:16:05,232 --> 00:16:06,634 Well, we have someone new here today. 198 00:16:06,768 --> 00:16:09,269 Why don't you come up and introduce yourself? 199 00:16:14,843 --> 00:16:17,077 Hi, I'm... I'm Alexis. 200 00:16:17,211 --> 00:16:21,281 Um, I'm from Fresno, California, originally. 201 00:16:22,717 --> 00:16:23,952 And... 202 00:16:25,385 --> 00:16:26,386 There's nothing like a rambling-ass 203 00:16:26,521 --> 00:16:28,388 white bitch to piss me off. 204 00:16:28,523 --> 00:16:30,558 Gia, I don't get why you act like that. 205 00:16:32,292 --> 00:16:34,328 Act like what? 206 00:16:34,461 --> 00:16:36,463 You got to start speaking up in class. 207 00:16:36,598 --> 00:16:38,198 And pretend, like, you paying attention 208 00:16:38,332 --> 00:16:40,000 or these people gonna write you up. 209 00:16:40,133 --> 00:16:41,301 And you know that's the only way 210 00:16:41,435 --> 00:16:43,170 your court report is gonna change. 211 00:16:46,373 --> 00:16:48,008 I'm just trying to help you out. 212 00:16:48,141 --> 00:16:49,544 And you're not. 213 00:16:56,851 --> 00:16:58,285 What are you smiling at? 214 00:16:58,418 --> 00:17:00,655 Nothing. 215 00:17:00,788 --> 00:17:02,089 He's dumb. 216 00:17:03,725 --> 00:17:04,792 Nobody? 217 00:17:05,192 --> 00:17:07,427 No. Nobody. 218 00:17:09,296 --> 00:17:11,198 I don't know why you're being all shy. 219 00:17:11,331 --> 00:17:13,200 I'm not. 220 00:17:14,869 --> 00:17:16,604 How long? 221 00:17:18,506 --> 00:17:21,241 Uh, probably about 12 inches. 222 00:17:21,375 --> 00:17:24,311 I ain't even gonna hold you. 223 00:17:24,444 --> 00:17:27,147 For real, though. How long you been talking to him? 224 00:17:27,281 --> 00:17:29,316 It's been, like, a couple of months. 225 00:17:29,449 --> 00:17:31,451 A couple of months and you ain't told me shit? 226 00:17:31,586 --> 00:17:35,222 Yes, a couple of months, two, I don't need you judging me. 227 00:17:36,824 --> 00:17:37,825 Whatever. 228 00:17:39,827 --> 00:17:41,863 Whoever it is, just make sure they don't leave you hanging 229 00:17:41,996 --> 00:17:43,297 like the last one. 230 00:17:43,798 --> 00:17:45,399 Damn! 231 00:17:45,533 --> 00:17:47,401 This is exactly why I don't tell you nothing, Gia. 232 00:17:47,535 --> 00:17:49,269 Because you don't trust nobody. 233 00:17:49,403 --> 00:17:50,672 You're right. I don't. 234 00:17:50,805 --> 00:17:52,105 Eventually, you're gonna meet a real one 235 00:17:52,239 --> 00:17:54,042 and realize not every man is a nigga. 236 00:17:54,174 --> 00:17:56,310 Right. 237 00:17:56,443 --> 00:17:59,948 I just think right now, you're just too tense. 238 00:18:00,080 --> 00:18:02,282 You just need to be gripped up, 239 00:18:02,416 --> 00:18:04,886 flipped over, clapped. 240 00:18:05,019 --> 00:18:08,288 And thrashed. Like, relax. 241 00:18:08,422 --> 00:18:10,157 No thanks. 242 00:18:10,290 --> 00:18:11,793 I'd rather be single for the rest of my life. 243 00:18:11,926 --> 00:18:14,028 At least I know what to expect, then. 244 00:18:15,830 --> 00:18:16,965 Now, you and I both know 245 00:18:17,097 --> 00:18:18,365 that's some depressing-ass shit. 246 00:18:18,866 --> 00:18:20,367 Stop, please. 247 00:18:20,500 --> 00:18:22,804 I'm serious. 248 00:18:22,937 --> 00:18:25,138 It's the last mistake that I wanna make. 249 00:18:26,306 --> 00:18:29,077 Look, friend, it's not even a mistake. 250 00:18:29,209 --> 00:18:32,880 God was just looking down and wanted to bless your ass. 251 00:18:37,952 --> 00:18:39,854 But he need to be blessing you with a new car. 252 00:18:39,988 --> 00:18:41,789 This shit raggedy as hell. 253 00:18:45,893 --> 00:18:47,361 You ready? 254 00:18:47,494 --> 00:18:50,565 Three... 255 00:18:50,698 --> 00:18:52,332 - Hey, man, check it out. - Yeah. 256 00:18:52,466 --> 00:18:54,035 Yeah, I know you went shopping for me, though. 257 00:18:54,167 --> 00:18:55,803 Mm-hm! No, no. That's a new, little top you wearing? 258 00:18:55,937 --> 00:18:57,705 - Why you always... - Hey, y'all need help? 259 00:18:57,839 --> 00:18:59,373 - No, I'm cool. - You sure, Mama? 260 00:18:59,507 --> 00:19:00,642 Yeah, I'm good. 261 00:19:00,775 --> 00:19:02,242 At least smile on nobody. 262 00:19:02,376 --> 00:19:03,678 You know damn well she don't never smile 263 00:19:03,811 --> 00:19:05,013 - with her mean ass. - I love booze. 264 00:19:05,145 --> 00:19:06,313 Always trippin' and shit. 265 00:19:06,446 --> 00:19:08,082 All right, just... Just chill, man. 266 00:19:08,215 --> 00:19:09,416 Chill. Like the hell I do. 267 00:19:09,550 --> 00:19:10,785 Hey, check it out. 268 00:19:10,918 --> 00:19:12,520 Sorry, something just came up. 269 00:19:12,654 --> 00:19:14,122 Got a janky attitude. 270 00:19:14,254 --> 00:19:16,124 She took a long walk off a short bridge... 271 00:19:17,825 --> 00:19:19,459 - Like that. - Yeah, man. 272 00:19:19,594 --> 00:19:21,261 You speaking but you ain't speaking to her. 273 00:19:23,196 --> 00:19:25,033 Stop playin' with them, bro. 274 00:19:25,165 --> 00:19:26,333 I just wanted to see 275 00:19:26,466 --> 00:19:27,769 if you're going to bounce tonight. 276 00:19:27,902 --> 00:19:29,302 Why you actin' like you don't know nobody? 277 00:19:29,436 --> 00:19:30,370 - Kick rocks. - You know what? 278 00:19:31,438 --> 00:19:33,107 You're always talking a lot of shit 279 00:19:33,240 --> 00:19:34,509 for a bunch of little-assed niggas 280 00:19:34,642 --> 00:19:36,744 -who ain't getting no pussy. -Uh-uh. 281 00:19:37,545 --> 00:19:39,312 With them dusty-assed dicks. 282 00:19:41,314 --> 00:19:43,084 - She was talking to you. - She ain't talking to me. 283 00:19:43,216 --> 00:19:45,318 She talkin' to y'all. I don't know what you talkin' about. 284 00:19:46,654 --> 00:19:48,156 Always talking shit. 285 00:19:53,460 --> 00:19:55,863 You see they got new partners now, right? 286 00:19:55,997 --> 00:19:57,297 Cute? 287 00:19:57,431 --> 00:19:58,766 - Not your type. - And what's my type? 288 00:19:58,900 --> 00:20:01,102 Niggas with money. 289 00:20:01,234 --> 00:20:03,470 -I missed you, babe. -I miss you. 290 00:20:06,273 --> 00:20:07,642 Let me see, G. 291 00:20:11,344 --> 00:20:14,247 Shit, already this much for me? 292 00:20:14,381 --> 00:20:17,217 I love you, but you're on your own with this, sweet girl. 293 00:20:17,852 --> 00:20:18,886 I'm out. 294 00:20:21,689 --> 00:20:24,224 Hey, sis. 295 00:20:24,357 --> 00:20:26,194 I'm gonna need the car tomorrow. 296 00:20:26,326 --> 00:20:28,295 Keys in the stereo on the front. 297 00:20:30,263 --> 00:20:31,699 You're probably gonna need this. 298 00:20:33,433 --> 00:20:34,635 Thank you. 299 00:21:04,232 --> 00:21:05,566 You good? 300 00:21:06,266 --> 00:21:07,467 Yeah. 301 00:21:12,974 --> 00:21:14,374 Shit. 302 00:21:19,914 --> 00:21:21,549 Hey, what you need? 303 00:21:22,717 --> 00:21:25,720 I got you for now at least. Where you at? 304 00:21:25,853 --> 00:21:27,755 The mother sacrifices herself 305 00:21:27,889 --> 00:21:31,092 by laying into her children and pressing against the web, 306 00:21:31,225 --> 00:21:33,493 encouraging their instinct to hunt. 307 00:21:34,829 --> 00:21:37,832 The baby spiders then swarm over their mother... 308 00:21:39,534 --> 00:21:42,670 ...up to 3,500 years. 309 00:21:43,504 --> 00:21:45,640 From this fallen redwood, 310 00:21:46,339 --> 00:21:48,009 new sprouts grow. 311 00:21:49,342 --> 00:21:51,311 These twisted knots of wood 312 00:21:51,444 --> 00:21:53,748 nourish a vast root system 313 00:21:53,881 --> 00:21:58,519 that has spanned generations and generations of human life. 314 00:23:00,848 --> 00:23:03,584 Okay, good. 315 00:23:04,118 --> 00:23:05,452 How about the dress? 316 00:23:06,320 --> 00:23:07,521 All right. 317 00:23:08,623 --> 00:23:10,791 I'mma get you. 318 00:23:23,504 --> 00:23:25,139 She's dead. 319 00:23:26,173 --> 00:23:30,645 Just been tryna figure it out. 320 00:23:31,679 --> 00:23:33,446 They took 'em last year. 321 00:23:34,782 --> 00:23:36,684 -Oh, man. -So... 322 00:23:36,817 --> 00:23:38,152 -You know. -Yeah. 323 00:23:38,286 --> 00:23:39,987 What about you, though? Where you been? 324 00:23:41,155 --> 00:23:43,791 -Staying home. -Feel like it's been forever. 325 00:23:44,992 --> 00:23:46,493 Yeah. 326 00:23:46,627 --> 00:23:48,729 Well, I was supposed to come back but, uh, 327 00:23:48,863 --> 00:23:50,164 you know, Mom's got sick. 328 00:23:51,132 --> 00:23:52,465 Damn, she all right? 329 00:23:54,201 --> 00:23:55,603 Mm... 330 00:23:56,469 --> 00:23:57,939 About a month ago... 331 00:23:59,774 --> 00:24:03,077 I went out a little later than usual. 332 00:24:03,210 --> 00:24:04,912 And, yeah, the next day, 333 00:24:05,046 --> 00:24:08,516 I woke up, lined up her meds, 334 00:24:08,649 --> 00:24:11,085 and walked in the room 335 00:24:11,218 --> 00:24:14,622 and she was completely still, face down on the pillow. 336 00:24:19,060 --> 00:24:20,161 So I came back. 337 00:24:22,296 --> 00:24:23,564 Are you all right? 338 00:24:26,300 --> 00:24:28,069 -Yeah. -Are you sure? 339 00:24:29,971 --> 00:24:32,673 Short and his girl let me in, so... 340 00:24:35,076 --> 00:24:36,844 What you doing Saturday, Mama? 341 00:24:36,978 --> 00:24:38,612 I don't know. What's up? 342 00:24:38,746 --> 00:24:40,114 I think there's gonna be a function. 343 00:24:40,247 --> 00:24:41,481 Do you wanna come? 344 00:24:41,615 --> 00:24:42,917 Maybe. We'll see. 345 00:24:43,050 --> 00:24:45,286 Well, I'll be around. Let me know. 346 00:24:45,419 --> 00:24:46,687 All right. 347 00:24:48,789 --> 00:24:50,658 - Thanks. - Mm-hm. 348 00:25:12,847 --> 00:25:14,215 I like your dress. 349 00:25:15,116 --> 00:25:16,150 Thank you. 350 00:25:25,693 --> 00:25:27,061 What do you think about this? 351 00:25:28,262 --> 00:25:30,297 Yeah, I like that. 352 00:25:30,431 --> 00:25:32,166 Okay, red one, then. 353 00:25:35,836 --> 00:25:38,272 - Yeah, I like that one. - Okay. 354 00:26:00,861 --> 00:26:02,797 Okay, come on in, sis. 355 00:26:04,632 --> 00:26:05,633 We're just gonna have you 356 00:26:05,766 --> 00:26:06,700 right in the center. 357 00:26:06,834 --> 00:26:08,102 You can come forward. 358 00:26:09,170 --> 00:26:10,704 Okay. Good. 359 00:26:14,742 --> 00:26:17,078 Gonna have you place your hands like this. 360 00:26:17,211 --> 00:26:20,414 Okay? No pressure, but just... Nice. 361 00:26:20,549 --> 00:26:23,050 Come on in. I'm gonna have you on this side. 362 00:26:25,386 --> 00:26:26,787 Maybe a hand here. 363 00:26:28,523 --> 00:26:31,325 Hmm, never mind. Come. 364 00:26:33,127 --> 00:26:34,228 So in here. 365 00:26:35,530 --> 00:26:37,932 Do whatever makes you feel comfortable, okay? 366 00:26:40,535 --> 00:26:42,103 Why don't you just ask him? 367 00:26:43,971 --> 00:26:45,773 I hate begging. 368 00:26:45,906 --> 00:26:47,141 I don't think it's begging. 369 00:26:47,274 --> 00:26:49,844 I mean, you work here 15 hours a week. 370 00:26:51,445 --> 00:26:53,380 You should be honest. 371 00:26:53,515 --> 00:26:55,950 He's not gonna deny you when you're this pregnant. 372 00:26:58,119 --> 00:26:59,820 -We'll see. -We'll see. 373 00:27:01,088 --> 00:27:02,089 Okay. 374 00:27:03,057 --> 00:27:04,058 Hi. 375 00:27:07,261 --> 00:27:09,697 -Uh, we prefer cash. -I got you. 376 00:27:11,966 --> 00:27:13,300 So my friend over there? 377 00:27:13,434 --> 00:27:16,170 She think you're kind of cute, so what's up? 378 00:27:16,303 --> 00:27:18,839 Mm, okay. 379 00:27:20,875 --> 00:27:23,344 -What's her name? -Her name Naia. 380 00:27:24,745 --> 00:27:27,815 Beautiful. 381 00:27:32,386 --> 00:27:34,421 Hey. Hi. 382 00:27:34,955 --> 00:27:37,825 Um, I was just wondering 383 00:27:37,958 --> 00:27:40,928 is there any way I could get a $100 advance? 384 00:27:42,329 --> 00:27:43,731 I just don't want my baby coming out 385 00:27:43,864 --> 00:27:45,399 with no clothes or nothing. 386 00:27:46,400 --> 00:27:47,401 Please? 387 00:28:59,139 --> 00:29:01,509 I can't believe it. Is that your stroller? 388 00:29:01,643 --> 00:29:03,077 Yeah. Why? 389 00:29:03,210 --> 00:29:04,613 That woman just took something off of it. 390 00:29:04,745 --> 00:29:06,146 - Really? - Yeah. 391 00:29:11,085 --> 00:29:12,520 Excuse me? 392 00:29:13,787 --> 00:29:15,189 Excuse me. 393 00:29:15,823 --> 00:29:17,191 Hello, ma'am. 394 00:29:17,726 --> 00:29:19,126 Excuse me. 395 00:29:20,461 --> 00:29:21,663 Stop. 396 00:29:21,795 --> 00:29:23,297 Are you fucking kidding me? 397 00:29:31,238 --> 00:29:32,273 Hey! 398 00:29:59,233 --> 00:30:00,367 Oh, fuck. 399 00:30:26,060 --> 00:30:28,395 You saw I snuck you some extra taquitos. 400 00:30:30,532 --> 00:30:31,498 You're welcome, bitch. 401 00:30:35,169 --> 00:30:36,904 In this program, 402 00:30:37,037 --> 00:30:40,074 we focus on your anxiety and why it results 403 00:30:40,207 --> 00:30:43,410 in uncontrollable impulse reactions. 404 00:30:43,545 --> 00:30:46,581 Because addicts must recognize their triggers 405 00:30:46,715 --> 00:30:50,819 if they want to take back control of their lives. 406 00:30:50,951 --> 00:30:52,821 I've seen most of you here before. 407 00:30:52,953 --> 00:30:54,922 And some of you are new. 408 00:30:55,055 --> 00:30:59,259 And I've seen you make the same mistakes. 409 00:30:59,393 --> 00:31:02,363 But the truth is you won't be able to graduate 410 00:31:02,496 --> 00:31:05,734 from this program unless you start to practice self-control. 411 00:31:05,866 --> 00:31:07,067 Talia. 412 00:31:18,946 --> 00:31:20,147 Forty-six. 413 00:31:27,121 --> 00:31:29,156 -What's your name? -Gia Wilson. 414 00:32:18,807 --> 00:32:22,209 Make another line, curve it again. 415 00:32:22,342 --> 00:32:23,711 And then 416 00:32:23,845 --> 00:32:25,412 you use the yellow. 417 00:32:26,947 --> 00:32:28,650 Swirl it around. 418 00:32:28,783 --> 00:32:30,317 And use the green. 419 00:32:46,433 --> 00:32:49,970 Imagine lowering yourself into the earth. 420 00:32:52,507 --> 00:32:55,142 The people around you 421 00:32:56,611 --> 00:32:57,745 supporting you. 422 00:32:59,514 --> 00:33:01,448 That thought running in your head? 423 00:33:05,520 --> 00:33:06,521 It's okay. 424 00:33:10,758 --> 00:33:13,761 It's not driving. You are. You're driving. 425 00:33:15,128 --> 00:33:17,130 And then, this bitch had the nerve 426 00:33:17,264 --> 00:33:19,601 to tell me to take the placenta 427 00:33:20,467 --> 00:33:22,135 and digest it as pills. 428 00:33:22,269 --> 00:33:23,771 - The fuck? - Oh. 429 00:33:23,905 --> 00:33:25,974 Isn't it supposed to be good for your system? 430 00:33:26,106 --> 00:33:27,441 That's some white people shit. 431 00:33:27,575 --> 00:33:29,677 Well, I bet you all our ancestors did it. 432 00:33:29,811 --> 00:33:31,846 My nana told me to bury it outside the house. 433 00:33:31,980 --> 00:33:34,248 It's like getting rid of an evil twin or some shit. 434 00:33:34,381 --> 00:33:35,884 Do you hear this shit? 435 00:33:36,016 --> 00:33:37,986 No. That is disgusting. 436 00:33:40,655 --> 00:33:43,190 Have you ever helped anybody with an open adoption? 437 00:33:44,559 --> 00:33:45,560 I have. 438 00:33:47,427 --> 00:33:50,965 And for some people, it's the best of both worlds. 439 00:33:51,098 --> 00:33:54,669 Finding a safe place for your kids 440 00:33:54,802 --> 00:33:57,137 and also being able to see them. 441 00:33:57,271 --> 00:34:00,775 But obviously, that's not a easy decision. 442 00:34:02,209 --> 00:34:03,410 No shit. 443 00:34:05,312 --> 00:34:07,481 And it can be difficult for some parents. 444 00:34:07,615 --> 00:34:09,449 You know, it's very hard to find 445 00:34:10,117 --> 00:34:11,586 parents willing to do them. 446 00:34:12,386 --> 00:34:15,155 -Why? -Hm. 447 00:34:16,256 --> 00:34:17,592 Um, okay. 448 00:34:17,725 --> 00:34:20,227 Nowadays, a lot of people go overseas. 449 00:34:20,360 --> 00:34:22,329 Over there, bam, it's guaranteed. 450 00:34:23,031 --> 00:34:24,498 They come back over here. 451 00:34:25,767 --> 00:34:28,536 Birth mothers, you know, 452 00:34:28,670 --> 00:34:31,573 they often back out last minute. 453 00:34:34,107 --> 00:34:37,845 But you don't need to make a decision straight away. 454 00:34:37,979 --> 00:34:40,782 You can see some of the family, see if you like 'em. 455 00:34:45,753 --> 00:34:48,355 It's not that I don't want this baby, Miss Carmen. 456 00:34:49,857 --> 00:34:51,091 I know. 457 00:34:51,893 --> 00:34:53,226 I don't think you do. 458 00:34:55,730 --> 00:34:56,731 I do. 459 00:34:59,399 --> 00:35:00,868 You do not have to 460 00:35:01,002 --> 00:35:02,804 tell me that, Gia. 461 00:35:04,404 --> 00:35:05,707 I love them. 462 00:35:07,307 --> 00:35:08,342 Of course, you do. 463 00:35:08,475 --> 00:35:09,677 I don't even know them yet. 464 00:35:09,811 --> 00:35:11,813 I love them. I really love them. 465 00:35:18,886 --> 00:35:20,454 Hey. 466 00:35:21,556 --> 00:35:25,093 Why don't you meet some of the families, 467 00:35:25,225 --> 00:35:26,628 take a look at 'em? 468 00:35:50,350 --> 00:35:51,586 They all white? 469 00:35:54,022 --> 00:35:56,223 No, they not all white. 470 00:35:57,025 --> 00:35:58,258 Keep going. 471 00:35:59,594 --> 00:36:03,397 You know, we could choose a few and then 472 00:36:03,531 --> 00:36:05,332 maybe we could meet 'em in person. 473 00:36:05,465 --> 00:36:06,834 I don't know. 474 00:36:06,968 --> 00:36:08,268 It's kind of weird. 475 00:36:10,404 --> 00:36:12,807 I'll let you know. 476 00:36:15,843 --> 00:36:17,779 - See you later. - Mm-hm. 477 00:36:32,392 --> 00:36:33,861 What's up? 478 00:36:35,797 --> 00:36:37,632 I see you warmin' up to Miss C? 479 00:36:41,135 --> 00:36:42,369 Gia, listen to me. 480 00:36:43,938 --> 00:36:46,440 There's a lot of people expecting us to fail. 481 00:36:47,942 --> 00:36:51,045 My whole life, I had shit taken away from me. 482 00:36:51,879 --> 00:36:53,948 They tried to take our culture. 483 00:36:54,082 --> 00:36:55,983 They tried to take our homes. 484 00:36:56,117 --> 00:36:57,585 Tried to take our freedom. 485 00:36:59,587 --> 00:37:01,823 And you know they'll try to take our babies, too. 486 00:37:03,758 --> 00:37:05,793 Same shit that's happening to us right now 487 00:37:05,927 --> 00:37:09,130 happened to your mama, happened to my mama 488 00:37:09,262 --> 00:37:10,798 and it happened to they mamas. 489 00:37:13,668 --> 00:37:16,804 That's exactly why we can't stop fighting for our kids, G. 490 00:37:19,272 --> 00:37:23,343 It's our God-given right to have our kids. 491 00:37:26,681 --> 00:37:27,849 And I don't want you to allow 492 00:37:27,982 --> 00:37:30,417 anybody to convince you otherwise. 493 00:37:32,653 --> 00:37:34,354 I'm going to show you something. 494 00:37:37,925 --> 00:37:42,029 "For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 495 00:37:42,163 --> 00:37:45,700 "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, 496 00:37:45,833 --> 00:37:48,770 "plans to give you hope and a future." 497 00:37:51,839 --> 00:37:52,840 How do you know? 498 00:37:53,808 --> 00:37:55,442 How I know what? 499 00:37:55,576 --> 00:37:57,745 How do you know God plans for all of this? 500 00:37:59,714 --> 00:38:02,250 'Cause God gives his toughest battles 501 00:38:02,382 --> 00:38:03,951 to his toughest children. 502 00:38:40,555 --> 00:38:41,923 We used to be a team. 503 00:38:43,057 --> 00:38:45,693 Yeah, but you wanted to be the next Sprewell. 504 00:38:48,262 --> 00:38:50,565 I just never liked the idea 505 00:38:50,698 --> 00:38:52,967 of being on the women's league. 506 00:38:53,100 --> 00:38:55,269 Like, what the fuck is that? 507 00:38:55,402 --> 00:38:56,737 Right. 508 00:38:56,871 --> 00:38:59,173 Could body up any of them 'lil niggas in our class. 509 00:38:59,307 --> 00:39:00,675 Any day. 510 00:39:03,343 --> 00:39:04,278 Hold up, okay? 511 00:39:04,411 --> 00:39:05,613 Okay. 512 00:39:08,182 --> 00:39:09,684 - Thank you. - Mm-hm. 513 00:39:09,817 --> 00:39:11,886 Your balance is 96 cents. 514 00:39:12,019 --> 00:39:13,453 Make a payment. 515 00:39:14,789 --> 00:39:15,556 Hello? 516 00:39:19,227 --> 00:39:20,427 Hello? 517 00:39:24,065 --> 00:39:25,066 Trey? 518 00:39:26,567 --> 00:39:27,768 Is that you? 519 00:39:27,902 --> 00:39:30,370 I want you to pick me up. 520 00:39:31,505 --> 00:39:32,740 What's going on? Is everything okay? 521 00:39:32,874 --> 00:39:35,442 -What they do? -I don't know. 522 00:39:35,576 --> 00:39:37,245 When can we come home? 523 00:39:37,377 --> 00:39:38,779 I don't know, Trey. 524 00:39:39,446 --> 00:39:40,648 Soon. 525 00:39:42,016 --> 00:39:43,050 I promise. 526 00:39:45,052 --> 00:39:46,053 How's school? 527 00:39:47,221 --> 00:39:48,421 Well... 528 00:39:49,190 --> 00:39:50,558 Did you do your homework? 529 00:39:51,893 --> 00:39:54,562 I did my English essay. 530 00:39:54,695 --> 00:39:55,963 So what'd you write about? 531 00:39:56,998 --> 00:39:58,266 The beach. 532 00:40:00,268 --> 00:40:01,736 Okay. 533 00:40:01,869 --> 00:40:03,738 Maybe when you get back, we can go back there, okay? 534 00:40:05,306 --> 00:40:06,507 Okay. 535 00:40:07,808 --> 00:40:09,010 Where's your sister? 536 00:40:10,477 --> 00:40:11,646 In bed. 537 00:40:12,280 --> 00:40:13,614 Did you give her the ring? 538 00:40:14,181 --> 00:40:15,182 Mm. 539 00:40:17,118 --> 00:40:18,119 What color is it? 540 00:40:19,587 --> 00:40:23,357 I think it's dark blue or black. 541 00:40:23,490 --> 00:40:24,859 I'm not sure. 542 00:40:25,626 --> 00:40:26,928 It's okay. 543 00:40:29,797 --> 00:40:30,865 Why don't you get in bed, okay? 544 00:40:30,998 --> 00:40:32,767 Just pretend that I'm there. 545 00:40:34,068 --> 00:40:35,937 Okay... 546 00:40:36,070 --> 00:40:38,739 You want to hear that song? Help you get to sleep, too? 547 00:40:40,107 --> 00:40:41,208 Hmm. Yes. 548 00:40:42,310 --> 00:40:43,511 Okay. 549 00:41:36,764 --> 00:41:37,965 You sleep? 550 00:41:44,338 --> 00:41:45,539 Love you. 551 00:43:00,748 --> 00:43:02,283 Do you have a name yet? 552 00:43:02,416 --> 00:43:04,018 - We have some ideas. - We kind of want to 553 00:43:04,151 --> 00:43:06,120 wait till we see him to decide his name. 554 00:43:07,154 --> 00:43:08,823 That makes sense, yeah. 555 00:43:21,135 --> 00:43:22,603 You two have a beautiful family. 556 00:43:23,304 --> 00:43:24,972 - Thank you. - Yeah. 557 00:43:26,774 --> 00:43:28,309 What you have is rare. 558 00:43:28,442 --> 00:43:29,477 Right on, man. 559 00:43:30,444 --> 00:43:32,146 Well, trust me, we see a lot in here. 560 00:43:32,279 --> 00:43:33,981 -Appreciate y'all. -All right. 561 00:43:54,068 --> 00:43:57,338 I think it'd be okay if you wanted to eat something now. 562 00:43:58,172 --> 00:43:59,273 I'll wait. 563 00:44:00,074 --> 00:44:02,243 What you hungry for? 564 00:44:02,376 --> 00:44:05,880 Uh, probably the white sauce pasta and potato salad. 565 00:44:07,181 --> 00:44:08,682 I think I know her. 566 00:44:10,417 --> 00:44:12,853 I think that's the lady right there. 567 00:44:12,987 --> 00:44:15,456 Hey. Lovely to meet you. 568 00:44:15,590 --> 00:44:17,791 You, too. 569 00:44:17,925 --> 00:44:19,360 And this is Gia. 570 00:44:20,562 --> 00:44:22,129 -Hey. -Hi. 571 00:44:24,698 --> 00:44:25,866 -Hey. -Hey. 572 00:44:28,202 --> 00:44:30,905 Must be Amber. Oh, hey. 573 00:44:36,511 --> 00:44:38,012 We're so grateful to be here. 574 00:44:39,880 --> 00:44:40,814 Nice to meet you. 575 00:44:40,948 --> 00:44:42,183 Nice to meet you too. 576 00:44:43,317 --> 00:44:45,085 This weather is something else. 577 00:44:45,219 --> 00:44:48,255 -Would you like a water? -Yes, please. 578 00:44:48,389 --> 00:44:50,090 You want me to get you some of that... 579 00:44:50,224 --> 00:44:51,425 -What about you, Amber? -...Alfredo from the buffet? 580 00:44:51,560 --> 00:44:52,826 -You want a bit of everything? -Thanks. 581 00:44:52,960 --> 00:44:54,663 - Yeah? Okay. - All right. 582 00:44:54,795 --> 00:44:56,897 - After you. - Thank you. 583 00:44:57,566 --> 00:44:58,966 I'm so sorry... 584 00:45:14,949 --> 00:45:16,784 Must be really hard for you. 585 00:45:17,652 --> 00:45:19,053 Yeah. 586 00:45:19,186 --> 00:45:20,921 It won't stop kicking, either. 587 00:45:21,055 --> 00:45:23,457 I think I got an athlete in there. 588 00:45:23,592 --> 00:45:27,562 -You play ball? -Yeah, but just JV. 589 00:45:27,696 --> 00:45:31,031 -What position? -Guard, but sometimes my coach 590 00:45:31,165 --> 00:45:32,900 switches me to forward, though. 591 00:45:33,668 --> 00:45:35,169 You play? 592 00:45:35,302 --> 00:45:38,673 I did. I just kept getting banged up. 593 00:45:38,806 --> 00:45:40,407 So skinny at your age. 594 00:45:40,542 --> 00:45:41,909 I just ended up quitting. 595 00:45:43,444 --> 00:45:44,445 You don't mind it? 596 00:45:45,112 --> 00:45:46,747 I don't like it much either, 597 00:45:46,880 --> 00:45:48,449 but I'm just trying to do whatever 598 00:45:48,583 --> 00:45:50,117 to get me to SF State. 599 00:45:50,251 --> 00:45:52,052 -That's good. -Yeah. 600 00:45:54,723 --> 00:45:55,956 You always wanted to go there? 601 00:45:56,090 --> 00:45:59,126 Well, my parents went there, so... 602 00:46:01,028 --> 00:46:02,896 I used to want to go there, too. 603 00:46:03,565 --> 00:46:04,532 Why didn't you? 604 00:46:05,567 --> 00:46:06,767 I had my son. 605 00:46:08,068 --> 00:46:09,837 You could still go. 606 00:46:09,970 --> 00:46:11,506 Just got different dreams now. 607 00:46:31,025 --> 00:46:32,527 So where are y'all from again? 608 00:46:32,661 --> 00:46:34,361 We live in Novato now. 609 00:46:34,495 --> 00:46:39,534 Not far from the high school on Rowland Drive but, uh... 610 00:46:41,035 --> 00:46:43,137 I grew up in Emeryville with my grandma. 611 00:46:43,270 --> 00:46:46,508 And I lived not far from the North Berkeley BART station. 612 00:46:47,676 --> 00:46:49,209 We met in college. 613 00:46:49,343 --> 00:46:51,045 Were both dating other people, 614 00:46:51,178 --> 00:46:54,381 but soon realized they weren't right for us, didn't we? 615 00:46:55,916 --> 00:46:57,484 She didn't leave me much choice. 616 00:46:59,987 --> 00:47:02,590 I got pregnant soon after that. 617 00:47:04,124 --> 00:47:08,329 We were young, but we had our friends, 618 00:47:08,462 --> 00:47:11,098 people who took care of her when we couldn't. 619 00:47:12,366 --> 00:47:14,703 We always wanted Amber to have a sibling, though. 620 00:47:14,835 --> 00:47:17,838 So we waited. 621 00:47:17,971 --> 00:47:20,407 Wanted to be in a good position 622 00:47:20,542 --> 00:47:21,909 for when we had another. 623 00:47:22,811 --> 00:47:24,646 Then, 624 00:47:24,779 --> 00:47:26,614 when we were finally ready, 625 00:47:27,881 --> 00:47:29,083 I couldn't. 626 00:47:30,250 --> 00:47:32,152 I, uh, 627 00:47:33,788 --> 00:47:35,356 didn't realize how lucky I was 628 00:47:35,489 --> 00:47:37,659 to have Amber at the time that I did. 629 00:47:37,792 --> 00:47:39,293 Mm. 630 00:47:39,426 --> 00:47:42,229 For the last four years, we've been trying to adopt. 631 00:47:43,130 --> 00:47:44,998 - It's a process. - Hm. 632 00:47:45,767 --> 00:47:46,801 Always is. 633 00:47:47,635 --> 00:47:49,370 Did you want to show her the, uh... 634 00:47:49,504 --> 00:47:51,004 Oh, yeah. 635 00:47:53,240 --> 00:47:57,044 I don't know if Trey and Shaynah 636 00:47:57,177 --> 00:47:59,113 are too old for this, but... 637 00:48:00,247 --> 00:48:02,650 Well, we thought it might be nice 638 00:48:02,784 --> 00:48:04,251 for the next time you see them. 639 00:48:05,386 --> 00:48:06,387 Um... 640 00:48:06,755 --> 00:48:07,955 Thank you. 641 00:48:08,590 --> 00:48:09,957 I'm sure they'll love it. 642 00:48:11,358 --> 00:48:12,761 It was Amber's idea, really. 643 00:48:12,893 --> 00:48:14,562 Mm. 644 00:48:14,696 --> 00:48:17,464 I would've loved to have an older sister like Amber. 645 00:48:25,472 --> 00:48:29,276 So, you live nearby here? 646 00:48:29,410 --> 00:48:31,646 No, not really, but... 647 00:48:34,248 --> 00:48:35,517 You're kind of out here. 648 00:48:35,650 --> 00:48:38,419 She's being private on that one. 649 00:48:38,553 --> 00:48:41,656 Amber, how's school going? 650 00:48:41,790 --> 00:48:43,323 - It's going good. Yeah. - Really? 651 00:48:43,457 --> 00:48:44,958 You're just saying that 'cause they're here now? 652 00:48:46,360 --> 00:48:47,629 Is she telling the truth? 653 00:48:47,762 --> 00:48:49,096 She's great, I mean, 654 00:48:49,229 --> 00:48:51,465 she's a lot brighter than I was when I was her age. 655 00:48:51,599 --> 00:48:52,966 She must get it from her mama. 656 00:48:53,100 --> 00:48:54,803 I don't know about that. 657 00:49:10,350 --> 00:49:11,553 So... 658 00:49:12,554 --> 00:49:13,555 What'd you think? 659 00:49:14,923 --> 00:49:16,624 I think they're great. 660 00:49:18,726 --> 00:49:19,727 Yeah? 661 00:49:21,295 --> 00:49:24,164 Amber, she's sweet. 662 00:49:24,298 --> 00:49:28,335 So you wanna meet other families, or you... 663 00:49:28,469 --> 00:49:30,404 -No? Right. -I don't think so. 664 00:49:31,371 --> 00:49:33,173 Because, you know, we don't have to do this 665 00:49:33,307 --> 00:49:34,642 if it doesn't feel right. 666 00:49:35,375 --> 00:49:36,678 Nah, it's not that. 667 00:49:40,214 --> 00:49:44,485 Maybe we can invite Monica 668 00:49:45,620 --> 00:49:48,523 to one of your doctor's appointments? 669 00:49:50,357 --> 00:49:51,759 Is that what's supposed to happen next? 670 00:49:51,893 --> 00:49:53,360 Yeah, sometimes. 671 00:49:53,494 --> 00:49:55,462 You know, we can play this however you want. 672 00:49:57,464 --> 00:49:59,366 There's no normal way to do this. 673 00:50:01,903 --> 00:50:03,203 When was your last checkup? 674 00:50:05,305 --> 00:50:06,674 I'm not sure. 675 00:50:06,808 --> 00:50:08,275 Maybe a couple months ago. 676 00:50:08,408 --> 00:50:11,245 Yeah. And they did the ultrasound? 677 00:50:11,846 --> 00:50:13,013 No, not yet. 678 00:50:14,849 --> 00:50:16,551 Don't you wanna hear the heartbeat? 679 00:50:17,519 --> 00:50:18,753 I do, I... 680 00:50:20,287 --> 00:50:22,924 I do, I just don't have insurance, so... 681 00:50:23,090 --> 00:50:24,626 No, no, I'll take care of that. 682 00:50:25,760 --> 00:50:28,530 We get you some Presumptive Eligibility. 683 00:50:30,765 --> 00:50:33,267 Yeah. We can go to our local clinic, you know. 684 00:50:33,400 --> 00:50:36,103 They take care of all my mamas. 685 00:50:38,673 --> 00:50:41,441 I know, I know it's not easy. 686 00:50:42,877 --> 00:50:46,346 But I promise you, it's a lot better than not going. 687 00:50:46,480 --> 00:50:48,650 Gotta make sure this baby 688 00:50:48,783 --> 00:50:53,387 has everything it needs to be healthy. 689 00:50:53,922 --> 00:50:55,055 You, too. 690 00:50:58,593 --> 00:51:00,394 What if I can get you in this week? 691 00:51:12,205 --> 00:51:14,408 Are you good, ma? 692 00:51:17,311 --> 00:51:20,582 Yo, Mama, those were people around. 693 00:51:20,715 --> 00:51:22,050 What? 694 00:51:22,182 --> 00:51:23,618 The ones poking through the windows. 695 00:51:23,751 --> 00:51:24,719 CPS? 696 00:51:25,252 --> 00:51:26,654 I guess so. 697 00:51:26,788 --> 00:51:27,789 What'd they do? 698 00:51:28,455 --> 00:51:29,924 Just kept knocking. 699 00:51:30,058 --> 00:51:31,593 No one was home. 700 00:51:31,726 --> 00:51:33,695 Good. I don't need them coming in before my hearing. 701 00:51:33,828 --> 00:51:35,797 Can't your sister help or something? 702 00:51:35,930 --> 00:51:37,497 If they found out how she make a living, 703 00:51:37,632 --> 00:51:39,132 I might never see my kids again. 704 00:51:39,266 --> 00:51:40,668 -Want to go? -All right. 705 00:51:49,242 --> 00:51:50,745 I never knew this was here. 706 00:51:51,045 --> 00:51:52,580 Yeah. 707 00:51:52,714 --> 00:51:55,850 We got the beach on one side and the forest on the other. 708 00:51:55,984 --> 00:51:57,484 And don't nobody even come. 709 00:51:58,620 --> 00:52:00,622 Except people trying to disappear. 710 00:52:11,331 --> 00:52:12,834 Why you don't answer? 711 00:52:12,967 --> 00:52:14,301 Ain't she your best friend? 712 00:52:17,005 --> 00:52:19,439 I'm thinkin' of givin' my baby up for adoption. 713 00:52:23,310 --> 00:52:26,114 And Trina, she'll be on some, 714 00:52:26,246 --> 00:52:28,348 "You siding with the devil" shit. 715 00:52:29,517 --> 00:52:31,151 Why she so obsessed with God? 716 00:52:32,720 --> 00:52:35,690 I don't know. Make her believe in herself more. 717 00:52:37,058 --> 00:52:38,258 I guess. 718 00:52:40,995 --> 00:52:43,131 Like, the way I'm feeling, 719 00:52:43,263 --> 00:52:46,199 at least this way, I know where she's going. 720 00:52:46,333 --> 00:52:47,835 And I can choose where she's going. 721 00:52:49,737 --> 00:52:53,908 I don't have to see my baby in a agency office. 722 00:52:56,077 --> 00:52:58,478 If the village ain't right, you can find a new one. 723 00:53:00,447 --> 00:53:01,749 I just want my kids to remember me 724 00:53:01,883 --> 00:53:02,950 as they grow older. 725 00:53:05,218 --> 00:53:06,554 Of course, they will. 726 00:53:07,922 --> 00:53:08,956 I'm not so sure. 727 00:53:10,290 --> 00:53:11,559 You'll always be their mama. 728 00:53:16,964 --> 00:53:18,533 And, you know, y'all got a way of doing that, 729 00:53:18,666 --> 00:53:21,268 just being there, even when you're not around. 730 00:53:22,570 --> 00:53:25,540 They just say shit like that to make it hurt less. 731 00:53:28,341 --> 00:53:31,244 Well, sometimes, uh, 732 00:53:31,378 --> 00:53:32,814 when I'm by myself, 733 00:53:34,582 --> 00:53:36,851 I feel a hand on my back. 734 00:53:36,984 --> 00:53:39,386 And I think I'm just tripping, you know? 735 00:53:39,520 --> 00:53:43,791 And then I realize it's just Mom's, you know, 736 00:53:43,925 --> 00:53:46,259 letting me know that everything gonna be all good. 737 00:53:47,829 --> 00:53:49,831 Sound like some God shit to me. 738 00:53:49,964 --> 00:53:51,699 Nah, just spiritual. 739 00:53:54,168 --> 00:53:55,670 Same shit. 740 00:53:55,803 --> 00:53:58,206 Not at all. It's feelings, you know. 741 00:53:58,338 --> 00:54:00,407 Not some man-made law to live by. 742 00:54:02,375 --> 00:54:03,611 Does that comfort you? 743 00:54:04,277 --> 00:54:05,513 Yeah, somewhere. 744 00:54:18,793 --> 00:54:20,795 Hey, I wanna hear the story you wrote. 745 00:54:21,361 --> 00:54:22,930 For school? 746 00:54:23,064 --> 00:54:25,533 Mm-hm, that's the one you was tellin' me about, right? 747 00:54:27,135 --> 00:54:29,137 "When I lived with my mom, 748 00:54:29,269 --> 00:54:31,239 "we would go by the water. 749 00:54:31,371 --> 00:54:35,042 "Shaynah and me pretended we were kings and queens. 750 00:54:35,176 --> 00:54:40,047 "On our island, we found lots of silver., 751 00:54:40,181 --> 00:54:42,449 "I counted every piece. 752 00:54:42,583 --> 00:54:44,585 "We were rich. 753 00:54:44,719 --> 00:54:48,523 "Shaynah would dance in the leaves. 754 00:54:48,656 --> 00:54:52,760 "She loves the trees and how long the roots growed. 755 00:54:53,795 --> 00:54:59,066 "And when we were done, we'd lay on our throne, 756 00:54:59,200 --> 00:55:02,870 "and wait for Mama to come back for us." 757 00:55:06,306 --> 00:55:07,642 It's a great story. 758 00:55:07,775 --> 00:55:10,545 -Thank you. -Love it. Thank you. 759 00:55:16,083 --> 00:55:17,384 Do you want to read to us? 760 00:55:18,853 --> 00:55:20,288 -Get going. -"The... 761 00:55:20,420 --> 00:55:23,423 "The mother bird stood 762 00:55:24,559 --> 00:55:27,460 "still unt... 763 00:55:28,395 --> 00:55:34,501 "until her son came to her side." 764 00:55:35,870 --> 00:55:38,506 Good job. You want to keep going? 765 00:55:41,509 --> 00:55:42,810 "At... 766 00:55:44,045 --> 00:55:46,113 "At da..." 767 00:55:47,048 --> 00:55:48,850 Da-da-awn. 768 00:55:48,983 --> 00:55:56,023 "...dawn that day, she had been feeding with him. 769 00:56:00,393 --> 00:56:04,599 "In the sil..." 770 00:56:04,732 --> 00:56:09,737 -Silent. -"...silent and fre... 771 00:56:09,871 --> 00:56:14,407 -"Fre..." Mmm. -Freshness. 772 00:56:14,542 --> 00:56:18,346 "...freshness of the morning." 773 00:56:18,478 --> 00:56:19,680 Mm. 774 00:56:20,314 --> 00:56:21,515 Good job. 775 00:56:22,283 --> 00:56:23,618 Do you want to keep going? 776 00:56:25,853 --> 00:56:31,491 "Then... Then fain... 777 00:56:32,526 --> 00:56:34,795 - Faintly. - "...faintly..." 778 00:56:45,106 --> 00:56:47,407 Let's see if we can have a power. 779 00:56:48,441 --> 00:56:50,745 Okay, one, two, three. 780 00:56:56,017 --> 00:56:58,052 See? 781 00:56:59,654 --> 00:57:00,888 That's good. 782 00:57:04,191 --> 00:57:06,327 It's the same color. It's crazy. 783 00:57:06,459 --> 00:57:08,062 Little purple and green. 784 00:57:18,005 --> 00:57:21,208 I won't let you guys down. I promise, okay? 785 00:58:59,840 --> 00:59:02,777 Probably, like, you know, 786 00:59:02,910 --> 00:59:04,645 five years old when they came in here, 787 00:59:04,779 --> 00:59:07,114 raided my mama house and took us. 788 00:59:08,149 --> 00:59:09,150 Yeah. 789 00:59:10,918 --> 00:59:12,753 I'll never forget that shit. 790 00:59:13,654 --> 00:59:14,955 I ain't understand it. 791 00:59:15,990 --> 00:59:19,260 From then on, it was just from house to house, 792 00:59:19,393 --> 00:59:20,628 group home to group home. 793 00:59:25,066 --> 00:59:27,101 You know, not having no stability. 794 00:59:28,235 --> 00:59:29,236 Really got to me. 795 00:59:31,572 --> 00:59:33,040 I might look tough, 796 00:59:34,708 --> 00:59:35,910 but you know... 797 00:59:41,315 --> 00:59:43,350 I remember it like it was yesterday. 798 00:59:43,484 --> 00:59:46,821 My mom was holding me and this car just pulled up. 799 00:59:47,588 --> 00:59:49,023 They had suits on. 800 00:59:49,156 --> 00:59:50,691 They just grabbed me out of my mom's arms. 801 00:59:52,527 --> 00:59:54,595 Didn't say what's going on. 802 00:59:54,728 --> 00:59:56,197 Just, like, snatched me up 803 00:59:56,330 --> 00:59:58,065 like I'm being, like, abducted or something. 804 01:00:01,635 --> 01:00:04,271 From that day forward, my life ain't been the same. 805 01:00:04,405 --> 01:00:07,208 In and out of foster care, different ones, you know, 806 01:00:07,341 --> 01:00:09,410 and just wondering what's going on, what's happening. 807 01:00:09,544 --> 01:00:13,647 How'd it go from me being with my mom to total strangers? 808 01:00:20,454 --> 01:00:22,022 I just feel like... 809 01:00:23,791 --> 01:00:25,659 It just basically, like, broke me into pieces, 810 01:00:25,793 --> 01:00:27,228 you know, like... 811 01:00:34,268 --> 01:00:35,469 And, like, the shit I went through 812 01:00:35,604 --> 01:00:36,837 in those foster homes 813 01:00:36,971 --> 01:00:38,873 really put me on a bad path. 814 01:00:39,006 --> 01:00:42,409 And to this day, that's a path I still can't run from. 815 01:00:48,949 --> 01:00:50,317 But even through all that, 816 01:00:50,451 --> 01:00:52,186 I never once blamed my mom, you know. 817 01:02:40,461 --> 01:02:42,096 After the child is born 818 01:02:42,229 --> 01:02:44,865 the umbilical cord is snipped and clamped. 819 01:02:44,999 --> 01:02:48,068 Over the course of the baby's first five days of life, 820 01:02:48,202 --> 01:02:50,271 the cord dries out to a hard texture 821 01:02:50,404 --> 01:02:53,307 and shifts to a dark brown or black color. 822 01:02:54,108 --> 01:02:55,543 It's extremely important 823 01:02:55,677 --> 01:02:57,911 not to interfere with this natural process. 824 01:02:58,045 --> 01:03:00,281 Do not touch, cut or pull at the cord... 825 01:03:01,782 --> 01:03:02,783 ...as it could potentially harm the child. 826 01:03:06,053 --> 01:03:08,355 - Oh, hi. - Hey. 827 01:03:09,223 --> 01:03:11,091 - Hi. - Hi. 828 01:03:12,393 --> 01:03:13,394 Thank you. 829 01:03:18,132 --> 01:03:19,567 Where's everybody else? 830 01:03:19,701 --> 01:03:21,736 Oh, Amber and Paul wanted to come but... 831 01:03:21,869 --> 01:03:22,936 We just thought it would be best 832 01:03:23,070 --> 01:03:24,271 with Monica today. 833 01:03:24,938 --> 01:03:26,273 Maria Garcia. 834 01:03:26,407 --> 01:03:27,408 I see. 835 01:03:29,043 --> 01:03:30,244 How are you doing? 836 01:03:32,946 --> 01:03:34,582 I guess I'm just a little nervous. 837 01:03:35,983 --> 01:03:37,184 Hm. 838 01:03:39,521 --> 01:03:40,988 Well, what about you? 839 01:03:42,256 --> 01:03:43,257 Me, too. 840 01:03:45,627 --> 01:03:46,827 But excited. 841 01:03:51,599 --> 01:03:54,301 Thank you for inviting me. 842 01:04:01,275 --> 01:04:03,410 -Excuse me. -It's okay. 843 01:04:05,814 --> 01:04:07,114 Hey, Trina. 844 01:04:07,247 --> 01:04:08,449 What's up, G? Where you at? 845 01:04:08,583 --> 01:04:10,184 -The mall. -You want to tell me 846 01:04:10,317 --> 01:04:12,353 -why you been dodging me? -I'm not, I swear. 847 01:04:12,486 --> 01:04:13,354 Gia, come on. 848 01:04:13,487 --> 01:04:14,955 You know God's watching you. 849 01:04:15,089 --> 01:04:16,490 I'mma hit you after this. 850 01:04:23,063 --> 01:04:24,865 Gia? Gia Wilson? 851 01:04:32,873 --> 01:04:34,609 Bye. 852 01:04:36,410 --> 01:04:39,012 The bathroom is down the hall to the left. 853 01:04:39,146 --> 01:04:40,682 There's cups inside. 854 01:04:40,815 --> 01:04:42,483 Leave your sample on the counter. 855 01:04:42,617 --> 01:04:46,186 Then put this label on it. Then meet us in Room 3. 856 01:05:15,583 --> 01:05:17,552 And that... 857 01:05:17,685 --> 01:05:19,052 That's the heart. 858 01:06:21,982 --> 01:06:23,383 So your baby's head is down, 859 01:06:23,518 --> 01:06:25,385 and in good position for delivery. 860 01:06:25,520 --> 01:06:27,221 You're measuring 37 weeks now, 861 01:06:27,354 --> 01:06:29,189 which means your baby can come at any time. 862 01:06:29,323 --> 01:06:30,658 But it is healthy. 863 01:06:34,261 --> 01:06:35,462 Thank you. 864 01:06:36,196 --> 01:06:37,632 And here are your pics. 865 01:06:38,766 --> 01:06:39,968 One for you. 866 01:06:40,100 --> 01:06:41,335 - Thank you. - You're welcome. 867 01:06:41,468 --> 01:06:43,771 - Congratulations, ladies. - Mm-hm. 868 01:06:44,204 --> 01:06:45,707 Thank you. 869 01:06:45,840 --> 01:06:47,207 - Have a good day. - Have a good one. 870 01:06:49,644 --> 01:06:50,645 How you doing? 871 01:06:53,080 --> 01:06:54,481 I don't think I can do this. 872 01:06:54,616 --> 01:06:56,116 It's just... 873 01:06:56,250 --> 01:06:58,452 Well... it's okay. 874 01:06:59,019 --> 01:07:00,722 It's okay. 875 01:07:00,855 --> 01:07:02,957 I just don't want to let anybody down. 876 01:07:03,090 --> 01:07:04,458 Oh, no, no, you don't have to... 877 01:07:04,592 --> 01:07:06,460 You don't have to worry about that. 878 01:07:07,194 --> 01:07:08,462 I can't do this. 879 01:07:09,531 --> 01:07:11,866 Now, look, it's not a decision 880 01:07:12,600 --> 01:07:14,569 that you have to make today. 881 01:07:18,038 --> 01:07:19,339 I can't do this. 882 01:07:27,782 --> 01:07:28,783 Gia. 883 01:07:34,722 --> 01:07:35,723 Uh... 884 01:07:37,224 --> 01:07:38,425 One second. 885 01:07:46,034 --> 01:07:47,234 Gia. 886 01:07:50,738 --> 01:07:52,339 Um... 887 01:07:52,472 --> 01:07:54,676 -If she doesn't want to... -Oh, well... 888 01:08:38,586 --> 01:08:39,821 -What? -Can I get the keys? 889 01:08:39,954 --> 01:08:41,188 Man, nah, I'm busy. 890 01:08:41,321 --> 01:08:42,523 Ari, please? 891 01:08:43,625 --> 01:08:44,959 -Please? -I said I'm busy. 892 01:08:45,093 --> 01:08:46,761 Ari, let me get the fucking keys to the car. 893 01:08:46,894 --> 01:08:48,328 Man, get off my door, Gia. 894 01:08:49,664 --> 01:08:51,666 - Where you going? - Wanna come? 895 01:08:53,901 --> 01:08:55,202 You ain't doing shit? 896 01:08:56,704 --> 01:08:57,705 Let's go. 897 01:08:59,007 --> 01:09:00,440 Hey, bro, you driving later? 898 01:09:00,575 --> 01:09:03,310 Nah, brother. You know, I don't drive. 899 01:09:08,281 --> 01:09:09,951 Goddamn. Where's your car at? 900 01:09:10,084 --> 01:09:11,519 You acting ancient right now. 901 01:09:11,653 --> 01:09:13,588 What you talking about? You acting ancient. 902 01:09:13,721 --> 01:09:16,156 Walk your ancient ass on, then. Got something on my gas? 903 01:09:16,289 --> 01:09:18,291 -Yep. -How much you got? 904 01:09:59,701 --> 01:10:01,334 I heard her heartbeat today. 905 01:10:01,468 --> 01:10:03,470 That's what's up. How's it sounding? 906 01:10:04,038 --> 01:10:06,273 Good, strong. 907 01:10:06,908 --> 01:10:07,909 But? 908 01:10:09,510 --> 01:10:10,978 I don't want to give her up. 909 01:10:13,413 --> 01:10:14,682 We'll figure it out, Mama. 910 01:10:14,816 --> 01:10:16,349 Don't worry. 911 01:10:16,483 --> 01:10:17,952 Come on, let's go. 912 01:10:32,667 --> 01:10:35,302 Bro, turn that shit off! Turn that shit off. 913 01:10:39,207 --> 01:10:41,642 Y'all can't drive. Right, now you got no cars. 914 01:10:41,776 --> 01:10:43,511 Aw, shit! 915 01:11:07,101 --> 01:11:09,170 -G. -Let's go. 916 01:11:09,302 --> 01:11:10,437 G. 917 01:11:10,571 --> 01:11:12,240 -Why are you running? -I'm not. 918 01:11:12,372 --> 01:11:14,108 Okay, then what you hiding? 919 01:11:14,242 --> 01:11:15,342 Nothing. 920 01:11:15,475 --> 01:11:17,044 Okay, Gia. 921 01:11:18,212 --> 01:11:20,014 This your partner now? 922 01:11:20,148 --> 01:11:21,481 At least she ain't a liar. 923 01:11:21,616 --> 01:11:23,785 I didn't lie. 924 01:11:23,918 --> 01:11:26,788 G, we 'posed to be in this together. 925 01:11:26,921 --> 01:11:28,222 And we are. 926 01:11:28,355 --> 01:11:30,958 So then why are you planning on giving your baby up? 927 01:11:32,059 --> 01:11:34,095 I haven't even decided to. 928 01:11:34,228 --> 01:11:37,532 I just think the devil got you so fucked up right now, 929 01:11:37,665 --> 01:11:39,499 you're not even thinking clear. 930 01:11:40,134 --> 01:11:41,602 Damn. 931 01:11:41,736 --> 01:11:44,038 Why the fuck you care about what I'm doing, anyways? 932 01:11:44,172 --> 01:11:47,074 Gia, you 'bout to make the biggest mistake of your life. 933 01:11:47,208 --> 01:11:49,944 Turning your back on your fucking kids? 934 01:11:50,077 --> 01:11:51,946 Your dumb ass don't even deserve no baby. 935 01:11:52,079 --> 01:11:54,649 -The fuck you say? -I said, your dumb ass don't 936 01:11:54,782 --> 01:11:56,684 -deserve no baby. -Get the fuck out my face. 937 01:11:56,818 --> 01:11:58,318 Or what? 938 01:11:58,451 --> 01:12:00,021 -Don't test me, Trina. -Or what, nigga? 939 01:12:00,154 --> 01:12:01,556 Get the fuck out my face. 940 01:12:01,689 --> 01:12:02,957 No, Trina! Trina! 941 01:12:03,090 --> 01:12:04,659 Step up and be a fucking mother! 942 01:12:06,093 --> 01:12:07,662 - She can't save you, G! - Come on now. 943 01:12:07,795 --> 01:12:09,697 Don't pay her no mind, Mama. She don't know 944 01:12:09,831 --> 01:12:11,364 -what she saying. -Stop callin' me that. 945 01:12:11,498 --> 01:12:14,969 -Ma, chill. We got this, Ma. -I'm not your fucking moms. 946 01:12:15,335 --> 01:12:16,503 Okay? 947 01:12:16,637 --> 01:12:17,572 You know what? Fuck you, G! 948 01:16:49,578 --> 01:16:50,778 Okay. 949 01:16:51,580 --> 01:16:52,913 Okay, okay. 950 01:17:02,022 --> 01:17:03,290 Okay. 951 01:17:03,424 --> 01:17:05,059 Your balance is 4 cents. 952 01:17:05,192 --> 01:17:07,128 Make a payment. 953 01:17:10,798 --> 01:17:11,866 - Hello? - Your balance 954 01:17:11,999 --> 01:17:13,067 -is zero cents. -My water broke. 955 01:17:13,200 --> 01:17:14,668 Make a payment. 956 01:17:14,802 --> 01:17:17,104 My phone's cutting out. Can you... 957 01:17:17,238 --> 01:17:18,772 Can you just... 958 01:17:22,276 --> 01:17:23,310 Okay, fuck. 959 01:18:05,587 --> 01:18:06,787 Fuck. 960 01:18:55,302 --> 01:18:57,871 Abruption. Two liters estimated loss of blood. 961 01:18:58,005 --> 01:19:00,307 - How long? - Three weeks out. 962 01:19:00,441 --> 01:19:02,810 - Is the father here? - No, just a friend. 963 01:19:02,943 --> 01:19:03,978 Any word from her friend? 964 01:19:04,111 --> 01:19:05,346 Uh, water just broke. 965 01:19:05,479 --> 01:19:07,047 Are you doing okay? 966 01:19:51,992 --> 01:19:53,528 Here's your mama. 967 01:20:54,021 --> 01:20:55,356 Can you give us a minute? 968 01:20:57,124 --> 01:20:58,325 Of course. 969 01:21:00,227 --> 01:21:01,962 Let me know if you need anything, all right? 970 01:21:02,597 --> 01:21:03,598 I got you. 971 01:21:32,426 --> 01:21:36,130 The doctor told me the test results. 972 01:21:42,202 --> 01:21:43,571 What am I supposed to do? 973 01:21:48,242 --> 01:21:50,477 You've pushed yourself right into a corner. 974 01:21:51,311 --> 01:21:53,013 I didn't know what to do. 975 01:21:53,815 --> 01:21:55,249 I gave you options. 976 01:21:55,382 --> 01:21:56,984 How could I trust you? 977 01:21:58,887 --> 01:22:00,320 You get paid to sell kids. 978 01:22:02,923 --> 01:22:04,124 No. 979 01:22:05,025 --> 01:22:07,428 I get paid to do my job. 980 01:22:09,329 --> 01:22:11,064 Helping young mothers get out of a system 981 01:22:11,198 --> 01:22:14,201 that was created to hurt people like us. 982 01:22:14,334 --> 01:22:16,538 Do not put this on me. 983 01:22:18,573 --> 01:22:21,975 You told me you wanted to do right by this baby. 984 01:22:22,109 --> 01:22:23,310 I do. 985 01:22:24,111 --> 01:22:25,345 Then what is this? 986 01:22:27,014 --> 01:22:28,783 What are you doing? 987 01:22:28,917 --> 01:22:32,186 I mean, why didn't you tell me you still had a problem? 988 01:22:32,319 --> 01:22:33,755 I could've helped you. 989 01:22:33,888 --> 01:22:35,222 Not a problem. It was just the first time since... 990 01:22:35,355 --> 01:22:37,124 And it's always the first time. 991 01:22:37,257 --> 01:22:39,393 Miss Carmen, I swear. 992 01:22:39,527 --> 01:22:43,297 I know you're 24, but you have got to grow up. 993 01:22:43,430 --> 01:22:45,132 It's not just about you anymore. 994 01:22:45,265 --> 01:22:47,401 I didn't mean to. 995 01:22:49,002 --> 01:22:50,672 There's just so much going on. 996 01:22:50,805 --> 01:22:53,307 Yeah, well, we all have a lot going on. 997 01:22:54,441 --> 01:22:57,044 Doesn't mean that you can abuse your child. 998 01:22:59,213 --> 01:23:01,148 I didn't abuse her. 999 01:23:02,917 --> 01:23:04,919 - You did. - No. 1000 01:23:05,052 --> 01:23:06,621 -You did. -No, I didn't. 1001 01:23:06,754 --> 01:23:10,290 What you did to your body affected her. 1002 01:23:11,726 --> 01:23:13,595 You're both linked. 1003 01:23:25,940 --> 01:23:29,744 They, uh, already called your caseworker. 1004 01:23:41,288 --> 01:23:43,023 So what do you wanna do? 1005 01:23:45,225 --> 01:23:48,796 Because you've got a few hours before they'll decide for you. 1006 01:24:13,253 --> 01:24:14,454 I'm sorry. 1007 01:24:27,802 --> 01:24:28,803 I'm sorry. 1008 01:24:34,742 --> 01:24:35,843 I'm sorry. 1009 01:25:40,808 --> 01:25:42,342 She's beautiful. 1010 01:25:46,080 --> 01:25:47,280 Mm. 1011 01:25:55,255 --> 01:25:57,592 I can't believe she's really here. 1012 01:26:04,132 --> 01:26:05,465 Do you wanna hold her? 1013 01:26:19,647 --> 01:26:21,481 Hey, hey, hey. 1014 01:26:24,786 --> 01:26:26,186 Oh, my God. 1015 01:26:30,058 --> 01:26:32,794 Look at your nose. 1016 01:26:37,532 --> 01:26:40,300 And your long eyelashes. 1017 01:26:48,208 --> 01:26:49,744 Just like your mama. 1018 01:26:57,350 --> 01:26:58,619 Can I? 1019 01:27:35,656 --> 01:27:37,892 What position you think she'll play? 1020 01:27:41,062 --> 01:27:43,363 I don't know, maybe point. 1021 01:27:50,037 --> 01:27:51,873 Don't let her get pushed around, though. 1022 01:27:54,709 --> 01:27:58,478 Gotta make sure she's a lot stronger than I was. 1023 01:29:53,628 --> 01:29:55,663 I'd much rather be in Las Vegas. 1024 01:29:57,865 --> 01:29:59,533 We got the strip right here. 1025 01:30:00,768 --> 01:30:02,136 What? That's the strip? 1026 01:30:02,270 --> 01:30:03,671 This is it. Little bit larger. 1027 01:30:03,804 --> 01:30:05,139 How can... You can't even tell. 1028 01:30:05,273 --> 01:30:06,473 Look how dark it is. 1029 01:30:06,607 --> 01:30:07,875 -It is a bit, yeah. -For Las Vegas? 1030 01:30:08,009 --> 01:30:09,810 For Las Vegas, yeah. How about this one? 1031 01:30:09,944 --> 01:30:12,179 -This is Vegas. Right? -Yeah, it looks a little... 1032 01:30:12,313 --> 01:30:13,648 -It looks better. -The desert? 1033 01:30:13,781 --> 01:30:14,782 But it just doesn't really look like Vegas. 1034 01:30:14,916 --> 01:30:16,717 -You don't think so? -Mm. 1035 01:30:16,851 --> 01:30:18,786 How about the hibiscus? Bahamas again. 1036 01:30:18,920 --> 01:30:21,689 Oh, yes. Well, I like hibiscus juice. 1037 01:30:21,822 --> 01:30:23,958 Do you? 1038 01:30:24,091 --> 01:30:25,192 Me too. 1039 01:30:25,326 --> 01:30:26,493 -Yes. -Beautiful. 1040 01:30:26,627 --> 01:30:27,929 The Bahamas is the spot to be at. 1041 01:30:28,062 --> 01:30:30,064 Beautiful. Okay. Let's talk about pricing. 1042 01:30:42,810 --> 01:30:44,011 You have a napkin? 1043 01:31:09,502 --> 01:31:11,072 And since she's been coming up 1044 01:31:11,205 --> 01:31:13,007 negative every time. 1045 01:31:13,140 --> 01:31:15,776 But we'll continue to monitor her progress. 1046 01:31:17,378 --> 01:31:18,579 I see. 1047 01:31:19,780 --> 01:31:21,949 Thank you. You may step down. 1048 01:31:22,950 --> 01:31:23,918 Sure. 1049 01:31:24,352 --> 01:31:25,553 Thank you. 1050 01:31:34,829 --> 01:31:35,997 Yes? 1051 01:31:43,170 --> 01:31:45,239 I don't want my kids going through 1052 01:31:45,373 --> 01:31:46,574 what I've been through. 1053 01:31:47,975 --> 01:31:49,777 And what I'm going through right now. 1054 01:31:52,646 --> 01:31:53,981 They deserve to see me. 1055 01:31:55,049 --> 01:31:58,085 More than once a week, more than for an hour. 1056 01:32:00,654 --> 01:32:02,656 Look, I'm committed to my kids. 1057 01:32:03,524 --> 01:32:04,825 I've shown you that. 1058 01:32:07,728 --> 01:32:09,964 And although you might not believe 1059 01:32:10,097 --> 01:32:12,133 that I'm fit to parent them right now, 1060 01:32:13,234 --> 01:32:16,871 no matter what, I'll always be their mama. 1061 01:32:22,443 --> 01:32:23,811 So what I'm asking... 1062 01:32:24,879 --> 01:32:27,948 What I really, really want 1063 01:32:31,419 --> 01:32:36,223 is for you to consider more frequent, longer 1064 01:32:36,357 --> 01:32:39,860 and unsupervised visitations with my kids. 1065 01:32:45,266 --> 01:32:46,267 That's it. 1066 01:32:48,035 --> 01:32:49,703 Thank you. 1067 01:33:12,326 --> 01:33:14,628 Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough. 1068 01:33:15,696 --> 01:33:18,265 I... I just can't do enough. 1069 01:33:19,400 --> 01:33:21,368 I don't know if I'm more angry at my mother 1070 01:33:21,502 --> 01:33:25,106 for doing what she could with what she had. 1071 01:33:28,375 --> 01:33:33,314 Or if I'm angrier that I'm doing the same to my children. 1072 01:33:34,215 --> 01:33:37,318 It's so hard to explain to a child 1073 01:33:39,353 --> 01:33:41,322 that you don't know better yourself. 1074 01:33:42,356 --> 01:33:43,624 That you're learning. 1075 01:33:45,192 --> 01:33:48,195 That each day that goes by, you're just winging it. 1076 01:33:54,301 --> 01:33:56,770 I want to protect them like they need to be protected, 1077 01:33:56,904 --> 01:33:59,640 but nobody was there to protect me.