Why should we care that you make it?
I don't care if y'all don't care if I do make it.
It's my journey. It's not nobody else journey.
Nobody's gonna watch me walk with these shoes
I got on my feet.
Only one that can walk with these shoes is me.
Simple.
You don't want nobody to walk with you?
Of course.
You can hold my hand.
You can look back from a distance.
You still won't feel what I feel.
You still won't look at it from my point of view.
When everybody got an opinion,
judging me...
Like they God...
Okay.
It's okay, baby. Okay, okay. Ready?
Man, shut the fuck up with that.
I'm serious, I swear.
It was more like meth or G or some shit.
What? What is that?
Bro, I'm telling you. Like, the mom gives birth
and then she feeds herself off to the baby
till there's nothing left. Nigga, it was crazy.
There ain't no crab spiders in the Bay.
On my mama, it is in my backyard.
Nah, cuz. I'm not...
I'm telling you, it was the most sacrifices
-I've ever seen. -Hell.
This was opened when I found it.
It's missin' some pieces.
I can only give you 15% off.
Yes.
That'll be $29.75.
Your card is declined.
Just put $28 on it.
Thank you.
- Hello? - Gia,
they're already waiting. How long will it take to get here?
Traffic's bad. Can you tell 'em
-I'll be a little late? -How late?
Your balance is $2.49.
Make a payment.
Make another one, curve it again.
And then you use the yellow.
Swirl it around and use the green.
- You okay? - Yeah.
Let's sit. Let's sit.
All right, cool.
Hey, you want to feel?
- Do you feel that? - Yeah.
I got something for you.
You can wear 'em all together, see?
When you look on the back, you can see what your mood is.
Okay?
Are they nice to you guys in the new place?
-Yeah. -Yeah?
Okay. Mama got you guys sticking together.
You taking care of each other?
Yeah.
Shaynah?
Shaynah, you at least gonna look at me?
What's going on, baby?
Is it 'cause I was late?
Play, okay?
Hmm?
Shaynah.
Listen.
I'm trying my best.
This is not so easy.
But I'm right here.
I'm here now.
Shaynah.
Don't be like that with Mama. Look at me.
How's it going, Shaynah, Trey?
Shaynah?
Shaynah? Shaynah?
Shh.
Everything okay, sweetie?
What are you saying to her?
Shaynah. At least say, "Bye, Mama."
Shaynah.
Come on, Trey.
She'll be back soon.
He doesn't want to go.
Come on, now.
-Come on, now. -He doesn't want to go, see?
Come on, now.
Come on, Trey.
Okay.
Your DSR hearing is next week
on Friday at 3:00 p.m.
I'm curious. What are your plans?
For what?
We're still completing your reunification requirement.
-So... -So what?
You started this case plan a year ago.
Now there's four months left,
six if I ask for some more time.
Ms. Jasmine, I'm here for every visit.
I've passed every test.
I've gone to every class you put me in.
Gia, you've been late on several occasions.
You've yet to complete a successful home assessment.
And you've missed child support payments.
Ms. Jasmine, I can't get any more hours
with all of the courses y'all are making me take.
So how am I supposed to pay for all of that?
I'll try to ensure this child remains in the home,
at least while you're breastfeeding.
But unless you complete the program,
I can't guarantee the child will remain in the home.
Your children need stability
and at the moment, we haven't seen enough.
What more do you need to see?
Have you finished the housing application?
Not yet.
Look, we're here to ensure
the best interests for your children.
All you need are three more signatures...
I don't need no fuckin' gold star
to tell me I'm a good mom.
If the courts require us to intervene,
are there any other family members
that can look after this child?
-Someone we could recommend? -So I got no choice,
but to be a single parent.
I'm getting punished for that too?
Gia, I don't need your disrespect in my office.
Now, if you don't mind?
Oh.
I swear his little ass gonna come early.
Okay. How was it?
Talk to me.
It's draining.
You'll get 'em back, G.
That's not what my caseworker saying.
Don't listen to what your caseworker said.
Missy got her kids back after how long?
Twenty-four months?
Wouldn't you rather that than nothing at all?
Sometimes that's just how this shit work.
You got to play their game. And do what you got to do.
I got some tacos.
Hey, boo.
Man, it's like 30 condoms in here.
Well, well, well.
You real slick, Missy.
Yeah. Thank you, Jesus.
Miss Carmen, what you trying to say today?
I mean, damn, how much fucking you think
we about to be doing, Miss Carmen?
That part.
No, maintain family size, remember that.
I mean, I can try to help you get your kids back home,
but I can't if you keep multiplying the household.
- Oh, okay, because... - All right,
doll face, let's get going here.
How do you think
she feels, when you call her "Mom"?
Can't tell if she's disappointed
or embarrassed by me.
She has that blank look on her face.
Just ices me.
It's as if me being there
makes her feel worse about herself.
At the end of the day, that's my mama.
And that's gonna always be my mama.
But as you can't choose your parents... You know?
So...
it is what it is.
Do you think speaking to her
about how you feel would help?
No, I don't.
She's busy.
Her addiction created an anxiety inside me.
And, um...
That anxiety has been passed down to my child.
And I don't know how to save her from it.
I'm scared to lose her to it.
Instead of healing, I ignored it.
Covered it up.
Used substances,
so I wouldn't feel.
I used so much that when I stopped, I had to learn
how to feel again.
It's not easy.
Gia.
What about you?
No?
Okay.
When you're ready.
Well, we have someone new here today.
Why don't you come up and introduce yourself?
Hi, I'm... I'm Alexis.
Um, I'm from Fresno, California, originally.
And...
There's nothing like a rambling-ass
white bitch to piss me off.
Gia, I don't get why you act like that.
Act like what?
You got to start speaking up in class.
And pretend, like, you paying attention
or these people gonna write you up.
And you know that's the only way
your court report is gonna change.
I'm just trying to help you out.
And you're not.
What are you smiling at?
Nothing.
He's dumb.
Nobody?
No. Nobody.
I don't know why you're being all shy.
I'm not.
How long?
Uh, probably about 12 inches.
I ain't even gonna hold you.
For real, though. How long you been talking to him?
It's been, like, a couple of months.
A couple of months and you ain't told me shit?
Yes, a couple of months, two, I don't need you judging me.
Whatever.
Whoever it is, just make sure they don't leave you hanging
like the last one.
Damn!
This is exactly why I don't tell you nothing, Gia.
Because you don't trust nobody.
You're right. I don't.
Eventually, you're gonna meet a real one
and realize not every man is a nigga.
Right.
I just think right now, you're just too tense.
You just need to be gripped up,
flipped over, clapped.
And thrashed. Like, relax.
No thanks.
I'd rather be single for the rest of my life.
At least I know what to expect, then.
Now, you and I both know
that's some depressing-ass shit.
Stop, please.
I'm serious.
It's the last mistake that I wanna make.
Look, friend, it's not even a mistake.
God was just looking down and wanted to bless your ass.
But he need to be blessing you with a new car.
This shit raggedy as hell.
You ready?
Three...
- Hey, man, check it out. - Yeah.
Yeah, I know you went shopping for me, though.
Mm-hm! No, no. That's a new, little top you wearing?
- Why you always... - Hey, y'all need help?
- No, I'm cool. - You sure, Mama?
Yeah, I'm good.
At least smile on nobody.
You know damn well she don't never smile
- with her mean ass. - I love booze.
Always trippin' and shit.
All right, just... Just chill, man.
Chill. Like the hell I do.
Hey, check it out.
Sorry, something just came up.
Got a janky attitude.
She took a long walk off a short bridge...
- Like that. - Yeah, man.
You speaking but you ain't speaking to her.
Stop playin' with them, bro.
I just wanted to see
if you're going to bounce tonight.
Why you actin' like you don't know nobody?
- Kick rocks. - You know what?
You're always talking a lot of shit
for a bunch of little-assed niggas
-who ain't getting no pussy. -Uh-uh.
With them dusty-assed dicks.
- She was talking to you. - She ain't talking to me.
She talkin' to y'all. I don't know what you talkin' about.
Always talking shit.
You see they got new partners now, right?
Cute?
- Not your type. - And what's my type?
Niggas with money.
-I missed you, babe. -I miss you.
Let me see, G.
Shit, already this much for me?
I love you, but you're on your own with this, sweet girl.
I'm out.
Hey, sis.
I'm gonna need the car tomorrow.
Keys in the stereo on the front.
You're probably gonna need this.
Thank you.
You good?
Yeah.
Shit.
Hey, what you need?
I got you for now at least. Where you at?
The mother sacrifices herself
by laying into her children and pressing against the web,
encouraging their instinct to hunt.
The baby spiders then swarm over their mother...
...up to 3,500 years.
From this fallen redwood,
new sprouts grow.
These twisted knots of wood
nourish a vast root system
that has spanned generations and generations of human life.
Okay, good.
How about the dress?
All right.
I'mma get you.
She's dead.
Just been tryna figure it out.
They took 'em last year.
-Oh, man. -So...
-You know. -Yeah.
What about you, though? Where you been?
-Staying home. -Feel like it's been forever.
Yeah.
Well, I was supposed to come back but, uh,
you know, Mom's got sick.
Damn, she all right?
Mm...
About a month ago...
I went out a little later than usual.
And, yeah, the next day,
I woke up, lined up her meds,
and walked in the room
and she was completely still, face down on the pillow.
So I came back.
Are you all right?
-Yeah. -Are you sure?
Short and his girl let me in, so...
What you doing Saturday, Mama?
I don't know. What's up?
I think there's gonna be a function.
Do you wanna come?
Maybe. We'll see.
Well, I'll be around. Let me know.
All right.
- Thanks. - Mm-hm.
I like your dress.
Thank you.
What do you think about this?
Yeah, I like that.
Okay, red one, then.
- Yeah, I like that one. - Okay.
Okay, come on in, sis.
We're just gonna have you
right in the center.
You can come forward.
Okay. Good.
Gonna have you place your hands like this.
Okay? No pressure, but just... Nice.
Come on in. I'm gonna have you on this side.
Maybe a hand here.
Hmm, never mind. Come.
So in here.
Do whatever makes you feel comfortable, okay?
Why don't you just ask him?
I hate begging.
I don't think it's begging.
I mean, you work here 15 hours a week.
You should be honest.
He's not gonna deny you when you're this pregnant.
-We'll see. -We'll see.
Okay.
Hi.
-Uh, we prefer cash. -I got you.
So my friend over there?
She think you're kind of cute, so what's up?
Mm, okay.
-What's her name? -Her name Naia.
Beautiful.
Hey. Hi.
Um, I was just wondering
is there any way I could get a $100 advance?
I just don't want my baby coming out
with no clothes or nothing.
Please?
I can't believe it. Is that your stroller?
Yeah. Why?
That woman just took something off of it.
- Really? - Yeah.
Excuse me?
Excuse me.
Hello, ma'am.
Excuse me.
Stop.
Are you fucking kidding me?
Hey!
Oh, fuck.
You saw I snuck you some extra taquitos.
You're welcome, bitch.
In this program,
we focus on your anxiety and why it results
in uncontrollable impulse reactions.
Because addicts must recognize their triggers
if they want to take back control of their lives.
I've seen most of you here before.
And some of you are new.
And I've seen you make the same mistakes.
But the truth is you won't be able to graduate
from this program unless you start to practice self-control.
Talia.
Forty-six.
-What's your name? -Gia Wilson.
Make another line, curve it again.
And then
you use the yellow.
Swirl it around.
And use the green.
Imagine lowering yourself into the earth.
The people around you
supporting you.
That thought running in your head?
It's okay.
It's not driving. You are. You're driving.
And then, this bitch had the nerve
to tell me to take the placenta
and digest it as pills.
- The fuck? - Oh.
Isn't it supposed to be good for your system?
That's some white people shit.
Well, I bet you all our ancestors did it.
My nana told me to bury it outside the house.
It's like getting rid of an evil twin or some shit.
Do you hear this shit?
No. That is disgusting.
Have you ever helped anybody with an open adoption?
I have.
And for some people, it's the best of both worlds.
Finding a safe place for your kids
and also being able to see them.
But obviously, that's not a easy decision.
No shit.
And it can be difficult for some parents.
You know, it's very hard to find
parents willing to do them.
-Why? -Hm.
Um, okay.
Nowadays, a lot of people go overseas.
Over there, bam, it's guaranteed.
They come back over here.
Birth mothers, you know,
they often back out last minute.
But you don't need to make a decision straight away.
You can see some of the family, see if you like 'em.
It's not that I don't want this baby, Miss Carmen.
I know.
I don't think you do.
I do.
You do not have to
tell me that, Gia.
I love them.
Of course, you do.
I don't even know them yet.
I love them. I really love them.
Hey.
Why don't you meet some of the families,
take a look at 'em?
They all white?
No, they not all white.
Keep going.
You know, we could choose a few and then
maybe we could meet 'em in person.
I don't know.
It's kind of weird.
I'll let you know.
- See you later. - Mm-hm.
What's up?
I see you warmin' up to Miss C?
Gia, listen to me.
There's a lot of people expecting us to fail.
My whole life, I had shit taken away from me.
They tried to take our culture.
They tried to take our homes.
Tried to take our freedom.
And you know they'll try to take our babies, too.
Same shit that's happening to us right now
happened to your mama, happened to my mama
and it happened to they mamas.
That's exactly why we can't stop fighting for our kids, G.
It's our God-given right to have our kids.
And I don't want you to allow
anybody to convince you otherwise.
I'm going to show you something.
"For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord,
"plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
"plans to give you hope and a future."
How do you know?
How I know what?
How do you know God plans for all of this?
'Cause God gives his toughest battles
to his toughest children.
We used to be a team.
Yeah, but you wanted to be the next Sprewell.
I just never liked the idea
of being on the women's league.
Like, what the fuck is that?
Right.
Could body up any of them 'lil niggas in our class.
Any day.
Hold up, okay?
Okay.
- Thank you. - Mm-hm.
Your balance is 96 cents.
Make a payment.
Hello?
Trey?
Is that you?
I want you to pick me up.
What's going on? Is everything okay?
-What they do? -I don't know.
When can we come home?
I don't know, Trey.
Soon.
I promise.
How's school?
Well...
Did you do your homework?
I did my English essay.
So what'd you write about?
The beach.
Okay.
Maybe when you get back, we can go back there, okay?
Okay.
Where's your sister?
In bed.
Did you give her the ring?
Mm.
What color is it?
I think it's dark blue or black.
I'm not sure.
It's okay.
Why don't you get in bed, okay?
Just pretend that I'm there.
Okay...
You want to hear that song? Help you get to sleep, too?
Hmm. Yes.
Okay.
You sleep?
Love you.
Do you have a name yet?
- We have some ideas. - We kind of want to
wait till we see him to decide his name.
That makes sense, yeah.
You two have a beautiful family.
- Thank you. - Yeah.
What you have is rare.
Right on, man.
Well, trust me, we see a lot in here.
-Appreciate y'all. -All right.
I think it'd be okay if you wanted to eat something now.
I'll wait.
What you hungry for?
Uh, probably the white sauce pasta and potato salad.
I think I know her.
I think that's the lady right there.
Hey. Lovely to meet you.
You, too.
And this is Gia.
-Hey. -Hi.
-Hey. -Hey.
Must be Amber. Oh, hey.
We're so grateful to be here.
Nice to meet you.
Nice to meet you too.
This weather is something else.
-Would you like a water? -Yes, please.
You want me to get you some of that...
-What about you, Amber? -...Alfredo from the buffet?
-You want a bit of everything? -Thanks.
- Yeah? Okay. - All right.
- After you. - Thank you.
I'm so sorry...
Must be really hard for you.
Yeah.
It won't stop kicking, either.
I think I got an athlete in there.
-You play ball? -Yeah, but just JV.
-What position? -Guard, but sometimes my coach
switches me to forward, though.
You play?
I did. I just kept getting banged up.
So skinny at your age.
I just ended up quitting.
You don't mind it?
I don't like it much either,
but I'm just trying to do whatever
to get me to SF State.
-That's good. -Yeah.
You always wanted to go there?
Well, my parents went there, so...
I used to want to go there, too.
Why didn't you?
I had my son.
You could still go.
Just got different dreams now.
So where are y'all from again?
We live in Novato now.
Not far from the high school on Rowland Drive but, uh...
I grew up in Emeryville with my grandma.
And I lived not far from the North Berkeley BART station.
We met in college.
Were both dating other people,
but soon realized they weren't right for us, didn't we?
She didn't leave me much choice.
I got pregnant soon after that.
We were young, but we had our friends,
people who took care of her when we couldn't.
We always wanted Amber to have a sibling, though.
So we waited.
Wanted to be in a good position
for when we had another.
Then,
when we were finally ready,
I couldn't.
I, uh,
didn't realize how lucky I was
to have Amber at the time that I did.
Mm.
For the last four years, we've been trying to adopt.
- It's a process. - Hm.
Always is.
Did you want to show her the, uh...
Oh, yeah.
I don't know if Trey and Shaynah
are too old for this, but...
Well, we thought it might be nice
for the next time you see them.
Um...
Thank you.
I'm sure they'll love it.
It was Amber's idea, really.
Mm.
I would've loved to have an older sister like Amber.
So, you live nearby here?
No, not really, but...
You're kind of out here.
She's being private on that one.
Amber, how's school going?
- It's going good. Yeah. - Really?
You're just saying that 'cause they're here now?
Is she telling the truth?
She's great, I mean,
she's a lot brighter than I was when I was her age.
She must get it from her mama.
I don't know about that.
So...
What'd you think?
I think they're great.
Yeah?
Amber, she's sweet.
So you wanna meet other families, or you...
-No? Right. -I don't think so.
Because, you know, we don't have to do this
if it doesn't feel right.
Nah, it's not that.
Maybe we can invite Monica
to one of your doctor's appointments?
Is that what's supposed to happen next?
Yeah, sometimes.
You know, we can play this however you want.
There's no normal way to do this.
When was your last checkup?
I'm not sure.
Maybe a couple months ago.
Yeah. And they did the ultrasound?
No, not yet.
Don't you wanna hear the heartbeat?
I do, I...
I do, I just don't have insurance, so...
No, no, I'll take care of that.
We get you some Presumptive Eligibility.
Yeah. We can go to our local clinic, you know.
They take care of all my mamas.
I know, I know it's not easy.
But I promise you, it's a lot better than not going.
Gotta make sure this baby
has everything it needs to be healthy.
You, too.
What if I can get you in this week?
Are you good, ma?
Yo, Mama, those were people around.
What?
The ones poking through the windows.
CPS?
I guess so.
What'd they do?
Just kept knocking.
No one was home.
Good. I don't need them coming in before my hearing.
Can't your sister help or something?
If they found out how she make a living,
I might never see my kids again.
-Want to go? -All right.
I never knew this was here.
Yeah.
We got the beach on one side and the forest on the other.
And don't nobody even come.
Except people trying to disappear.
Why you don't answer?
Ain't she your best friend?
I'm thinkin' of givin' my baby up for adoption.
And Trina, she'll be on some,
"You siding with the devil" shit.
Why she so obsessed with God?
I don't know. Make her believe in herself more.
I guess.
Like, the way I'm feeling,
at least this way, I know where she's going.
And I can choose where she's going.
I don't have to see my baby in a agency office.
If the village ain't right, you can find a new one.
I just want my kids to remember me
as they grow older.
Of course, they will.
I'm not so sure.
You'll always be their mama.
And, you know, y'all got a way of doing that,
just being there, even when you're not around.
They just say shit like that to make it hurt less.
Well, sometimes, uh,
when I'm by myself,
I feel a hand on my back.
And I think I'm just tripping, you know?
And then I realize it's just Mom's, you know,
letting me know that everything gonna be all good.
Sound like some God shit to me.
Nah, just spiritual.
Same shit.
Not at all. It's feelings, you know.
Not some man-made law to live by.
Does that comfort you?
Yeah, somewhere.
Hey, I wanna hear the story you wrote.
For school?
Mm-hm, that's the one you was tellin' me about, right?
"When I lived with my mom,
"we would go by the water.
"Shaynah and me pretended we were kings and queens.
"On our island, we found lots of silver.,
"I counted every piece.
"We were rich.
"Shaynah would dance in the leaves.
"She loves the trees and how long the roots growed.
"And when we were done, we'd lay on our throne,
"and wait for Mama to come back for us."
It's a great story.
-Thank you. -Love it. Thank you.
Do you want to read to us?
-Get going. -"The...
"The mother bird stood
"still unt...
"until her son came to her side."
Good job. You want to keep going?
"At...
"At da..."
Da-da-awn.
"...dawn that day, she had been feeding with him.
"In the sil..."
-Silent. -"...silent and fre...
-"Fre..." Mmm. -Freshness.
"...freshness of the morning."
Mm.
Good job.
Do you want to keep going?
"Then... Then fain...
- Faintly. - "...faintly..."
Let's see if we can have a power.
Okay, one, two, three.
See?
That's good.
It's the same color. It's crazy.
Little purple and green.
I won't let you guys down. I promise, okay?
Probably, like, you know,
five years old when they came in here,
raided my mama house and took us.
Yeah.
I'll never forget that shit.
I ain't understand it.
From then on, it was just from house to house,
group home to group home.
You know, not having no stability.
Really got to me.
I might look tough,
but you know...
I remember it like it was yesterday.
My mom was holding me and this car just pulled up.
They had suits on.
They just grabbed me out of my mom's arms.
Didn't say what's going on.
Just, like, snatched me up
like I'm being, like, abducted or something.
From that day forward, my life ain't been the same.
In and out of foster care, different ones, you know,
and just wondering what's going on, what's happening.
How'd it go from me being with my mom to total strangers?
I just feel like...
It just basically, like, broke me into pieces,
you know, like...
And, like, the shit I went through
in those foster homes
really put me on a bad path.
And to this day, that's a path I still can't run from.
But even through all that,
I never once blamed my mom, you know.
After the child is born
the umbilical cord is snipped and clamped.
Over the course of the baby's first five days of life,
the cord dries out to a hard texture
and shifts to a dark brown or black color.
It's extremely important
not to interfere with this natural process.
Do not touch, cut or pull at the cord...
...as it could potentially harm the child.
- Oh, hi. - Hey.
- Hi. - Hi.
Thank you.
Where's everybody else?
Oh, Amber and Paul wanted to come but...
We just thought it would be best
with Monica today.
Maria Garcia.
I see.
How are you doing?
I guess I'm just a little nervous.
Hm.
Well, what about you?
Me, too.
But excited.
Thank you for inviting me.
-Excuse me. -It's okay.
Hey, Trina.
What's up, G? Where you at?
-The mall. -You want to tell me
-why you been dodging me? -I'm not, I swear.
Gia, come on.
You know God's watching you.
I'mma hit you after this.
Gia? Gia Wilson?
Bye.
The bathroom is down the hall to the left.
There's cups inside.
Leave your sample on the counter.
Then put this label on it. Then meet us in Room 3.
And that...
That's the heart.
So your baby's head is down,
and in good position for delivery.
You're measuring 37 weeks now,
which means your baby can come at any time.
But it is healthy.
Thank you.
And here are your pics.
One for you.
- Thank you. - You're welcome.
- Congratulations, ladies. - Mm-hm.
Thank you.
- Have a good day. - Have a good one.
How you doing?
I don't think I can do this.
It's just...
Well... it's okay.
It's okay.
I just don't want to let anybody down.
Oh, no, no, you don't have to...
You don't have to worry about that.
I can't do this.
Now, look, it's not a decision
that you have to make today.
I can't do this.
Gia.
Uh...
One second.
Gia.
Um...
-If she doesn't want to... -Oh, well...
-What? -Can I get the keys?
Man, nah, I'm busy.
Ari, please?
-Please? -I said I'm busy.
Ari, let me get the fucking keys to the car.
Man, get off my door, Gia.
- Where you going? - Wanna come?
You ain't doing shit?
Let's go.
Hey, bro, you driving later?
Nah, brother. You know, I don't drive.
Goddamn. Where's your car at?
You acting ancient right now.
What you talking about? You acting ancient.
Walk your ancient ass on, then. Got something on my gas?
-Yep. -How much you got?
I heard her heartbeat today.
That's what's up. How's it sounding?
Good, strong.
But?
I don't want to give her up.
We'll figure it out, Mama.
Don't worry.
Come on, let's go.
Bro, turn that shit off! Turn that shit off.
Y'all can't drive. Right, now you got no cars.
Aw, shit!
-G. -Let's go.
G.
-Why are you running? -I'm not.
Okay, then what you hiding?
Nothing.
Okay, Gia.
This your partner now?
At least she ain't a liar.
I didn't lie.
G, we 'posed to be in this together.
And we are.
So then why are you planning on giving your baby up?
I haven't even decided to.
I just think the devil got you so fucked up right now,
you're not even thinking clear.
Damn.
Why the fuck you care about what I'm doing, anyways?
Gia, you 'bout to make the biggest mistake of your life.
Turning your back on your fucking kids?
Your dumb ass don't even deserve no baby.
-The fuck you say? -I said, your dumb ass don't
-deserve no baby. -Get the fuck out my face.
Or what?
-Don't test me, Trina. -Or what, nigga?
Get the fuck out my face.
No, Trina! Trina!
Step up and be a fucking mother!
- She can't save you, G! - Come on now.
Don't pay her no mind, Mama. She don't know
-what she saying. -Stop callin' me that.
-Ma, chill. We got this, Ma. -I'm not your fucking moms.
Okay?
You know what? Fuck you, G!
Okay.
Okay, okay.
Okay.
Your balance is 4 cents.
Make a payment.
- Hello? - Your balance
-is zero cents. -My water broke.
Make a payment.
My phone's cutting out. Can you...
Can you just...
Okay, fuck.
Fuck.
Abruption. Two liters estimated loss of blood.
- How long? - Three weeks out.
- Is the father here? - No, just a friend.
Any word from her friend?
Uh, water just broke.
Are you doing okay?
Here's your mama.
Can you give us a minute?
Of course.
Let me know if you need anything, all right?
I got you.
The doctor told me the test results.
What am I supposed to do?
You've pushed yourself right into a corner.
I didn't know what to do.
I gave you options.
How could I trust you?
You get paid to sell kids.
No.
I get paid to do my job.
Helping young mothers get out of a system
that was created to hurt people like us.
Do not put this on me.
You told me you wanted to do right by this baby.
I do.
Then what is this?
What are you doing?
I mean, why didn't you tell me you still had a problem?
I could've helped you.
Not a problem. It was just the first time since...
And it's always the first time.
Miss Carmen, I swear.
I know you're 24, but you have got to grow up.
It's not just about you anymore.
I didn't mean to.
There's just so much going on.
Yeah, well, we all have a lot going on.
Doesn't mean that you can abuse your child.
I didn't abuse her.
- You did. - No.
-You did. -No, I didn't.
What you did to your body affected her.
You're both linked.
They, uh, already called your caseworker.
So what do you wanna do?
Because you've got a few hours before they'll decide for you.
I'm sorry.
She's beautiful.
Mm.
I can't believe she's really here.
Do you wanna hold her?
Hey, hey, hey.
Oh, my God.
Look at your nose.
And your long eyelashes.
Just like your mama.
Can I?
What position you think she'll play?
I don't know, maybe point.
Don't let her get pushed around, though.
Gotta make sure she's a lot stronger than I was.
I'd much rather be in Las Vegas.
We got the strip right here.
What? That's the strip?
This is it. Little bit larger.
How can... You can't even tell.
Look how dark it is.
-It is a bit, yeah. -For Las Vegas?
For Las Vegas, yeah. How about this one?
-This is Vegas. Right? -Yeah, it looks a little...
-It looks better. -The desert?
But it just doesn't really look like Vegas.
-You don't think so? -Mm.
How about the hibiscus? Bahamas again.
Oh, yes. Well, I like hibiscus juice.
Do you?
Me too.
-Yes. -Beautiful.
The Bahamas is the spot to be at.
Beautiful. Okay. Let's talk about pricing.
You have a napkin?
And since she's been coming up
negative every time.
But we'll continue to monitor her progress.
I see.
Thank you. You may step down.
Sure.
Thank you.
Yes?
I don't want my kids going through
what I've been through.
And what I'm going through right now.
They deserve to see me.
More than once a week, more than for an hour.
Look, I'm committed to my kids.
I've shown you that.
And although you might not believe
that I'm fit to parent them right now,
no matter what, I'll always be their mama.
So what I'm asking...
What I really, really want
is for you to consider more frequent, longer
and unsupervised visitations with my kids.
That's it.
Thank you.
Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough.
I... I just can't do enough.
I don't know if I'm more angry at my mother
for doing what she could with what she had.
Or if I'm angrier that I'm doing the same to my children.
It's so hard to explain to a child
that you don't know better yourself.
That you're learning.
That each day that goes by, you're just winging it.
I want to protect them like they need to be protected,
but nobody was there to protect me.