1 00:03:21,329 --> 00:03:21,870 one day. 2 00:03:21,875 --> 00:03:23,460 You'll never see me again. 3 00:03:25,320 --> 00:03:31,260 That's right, Charlie, by life may be it for you, but it's sharing for me. 4 00:03:34,350 --> 00:03:35,340 I'm special. 5 00:03:35,880 --> 00:03:38,730 Mama's gonna feel real stupid when she finds out won't she. 6 00:03:47,609 --> 00:03:50,570 One day, the whole world's know my name. 7 00:03:52,609 --> 00:03:53,329 Don't you. 8 00:04:08,600 --> 00:04:08,890 I, 9 00:04:36,039 --> 00:04:36,690 what are. 10 00:05:27,674 --> 00:05:28,164 Yeah. 11 00:06:41,190 --> 00:06:43,830 Your twin diligent animals said foolishness. 12 00:06:44,549 --> 00:06:45,510 It's just dance. 13 00:06:45,510 --> 00:06:46,169 Mom. 14 00:06:46,979 --> 00:06:50,580 Selfish is what it is with all the farm he gone. 15 00:06:50,585 --> 00:06:52,349 I can't do every single to myself. 16 00:06:56,849 --> 00:06:57,330 I help 17 00:07:00,479 --> 00:07:02,870 it's the mice off and hold time and further. 18 00:07:13,469 --> 00:07:14,820 Anything for me in the post today? 19 00:07:15,419 --> 00:07:15,750 No 20 00:07:22,770 --> 00:07:24,330 thera have taken control of France. 21 00:07:25,169 --> 00:07:27,510 You can read it after supp Theona. 22 00:07:27,515 --> 00:07:32,130 This can be the end of the war do, as I ask per you don't want to hear 23 00:07:32,130 --> 00:07:33,690 about any more dead Germans tonight. 24 00:07:44,965 --> 00:07:45,615 Supper is ready. 25 00:07:45,615 --> 00:07:46,215 Daddy 26 00:07:53,325 --> 00:07:53,835 bless us. 27 00:07:53,835 --> 00:07:58,725 So Lord, and which we are to receive from Christ. 28 00:08:42,150 --> 00:08:47,370 My pressure is per it feels as if it has been an eternity without you. 29 00:08:48,120 --> 00:08:49,230 All we do is walk. 30 00:08:49,230 --> 00:08:52,980 It seems, I never know if we'll get to where they say we are gone, 31 00:08:53,760 --> 00:08:55,770 they have us true one boy on cubes. 32 00:08:55,770 --> 00:08:57,780 So we don't notice the pains in our feet. 33 00:08:58,140 --> 00:09:02,969 I find it most frightening at night in the trenches, the mortar shells are definite. 34 00:09:03,300 --> 00:09:05,640 Many soldiers have gone mad with the fear. 35 00:09:06,150 --> 00:09:09,209 Garnished from the gas has shown me things I won't soon and forget. 36 00:09:09,540 --> 00:09:11,849 And thinking of giving has been my only reprieve. 37 00:09:12,089 --> 00:09:14,400 I will always be proud to serve my country. 38 00:09:14,790 --> 00:09:18,390 But one thing is for, has made clear is that I cannot wait to return 39 00:09:18,390 --> 00:09:20,160 home and cannot laugh together. 40 00:09:20,910 --> 00:09:26,099 I never wanna be away from you again to death's part, your love and husband. 41 00:09:43,085 --> 00:09:48,295 I'll go to tomorrow, pick up more medicine, 42 00:09:53,735 --> 00:09:56,535 which means I could stop have pictures. 43 00:09:59,215 --> 00:10:04,215 Don't tell em, show all of the best dancers at the pictures 44 00:10:09,655 --> 00:10:11,455 could be on the line of those girls. 45 00:10:11,455 --> 00:10:12,015 One day. 46 00:10:14,485 --> 00:10:15,495 I I'm good. 47 00:10:28,955 --> 00:10:29,375 Huh? 48 00:10:31,885 --> 00:10:33,645 I didn't wanna to hot water. 49 00:10:37,515 --> 00:10:39,525 The money for his medicine is on the kitchen table. 50 00:10:45,045 --> 00:10:46,575 Remember to cover your face. 51 00:10:47,625 --> 00:10:49,275 Don't linger, close to anyone. 52 00:10:49,755 --> 00:10:52,545 Papers are warning of an all lethal research. 53 00:10:52,550 --> 00:10:55,295 It's like for bed sickness returns to. 54 00:11:32,135 --> 00:11:32,955 Fews please. 55 00:12:28,425 --> 00:12:34,425 Or Johnny pass somewhere in sunny, France of a girl by, 56 00:12:37,574 --> 00:12:41,505 she looked loved to dance play. 57 00:12:42,074 --> 00:12:45,694 So he loved 58 00:13:10,875 --> 00:13:10,935 you. 59 00:13:10,939 --> 00:13:11,834 Enjoy the picture 60 00:13:18,555 --> 00:13:19,064 cigarette. 61 00:13:21,555 --> 00:13:22,125 I'll go on. 62 00:13:22,125 --> 00:13:22,734 I don't have the bug. 63 00:13:29,265 --> 00:13:29,955 You like the movies? 64 00:13:31,245 --> 00:13:32,355 I like dancing. 65 00:13:32,685 --> 00:13:34,305 Oh, future tiller girl. 66 00:13:34,814 --> 00:13:35,625 I can see it now. 67 00:13:36,625 --> 00:13:37,515 I wish. 68 00:13:38,205 --> 00:13:38,535 Why not? 69 00:13:38,535 --> 00:13:39,255 You're pretty enough. 70 00:13:43,485 --> 00:13:44,775 I'm kind of a husband. 71 00:13:44,805 --> 00:13:52,425 I gather he's overseas, but my father's in firm, so I have to help at home. 72 00:13:52,545 --> 00:13:53,444 I'm sorry to hear that. 73 00:13:55,064 --> 00:13:56,415 You wanna come watch the second show? 74 00:13:58,275 --> 00:13:59,055 Free admission. 75 00:14:02,295 --> 00:14:03,375 I'm the projectionist 76 00:14:06,675 --> 00:14:07,935 I need to get going. 77 00:14:09,345 --> 00:14:13,125 Mom was expecting me, but I appreciate the, um, stay there 78 00:14:13,125 --> 00:14:13,905 for just one minute with you. 79 00:14:16,345 --> 00:14:16,835 Okay. 80 00:14:22,980 --> 00:14:23,340 Um, 81 00:14:36,630 --> 00:14:40,410 from what you just saw, you showing it again. 82 00:14:40,560 --> 00:14:41,070 Ah sure. 83 00:14:41,070 --> 00:14:42,300 But it's only one frame. 84 00:14:42,300 --> 00:14:45,030 Nobody nobody'll notice once that splice it back together, you know, caring 85 00:14:45,030 --> 00:14:47,880 for your family during these times is admirable in order to take pride in 86 00:14:47,880 --> 00:14:49,890 that don't forget to live your life too. 87 00:14:50,760 --> 00:14:53,520 I wouldn't mind seeing you up on that screen one day, Mrs. 88 00:14:55,170 --> 00:14:55,590 Pearl. 89 00:14:58,410 --> 00:15:03,360 Well, if you come back, knock on this door, I'm always here and I can 90 00:15:03,360 --> 00:15:04,620 run the pictures as much as I like. 91 00:15:05,820 --> 00:15:06,210 Thank you. 92 00:15:07,650 --> 00:15:08,190 I will. 93 00:17:33,555 --> 00:17:34,665 May I have this. 94 00:20:26,955 --> 00:20:28,065 What took you so long? 95 00:20:29,085 --> 00:20:30,375 It's far ride mama. 96 00:20:32,865 --> 00:20:33,915 What is on your head? 97 00:20:36,135 --> 00:20:37,545 Found it along the road. 98 00:20:38,805 --> 00:20:40,065 Do not ring it inside. 99 00:20:40,815 --> 00:20:42,465 It may be covered insurance. 100 00:20:45,705 --> 00:20:49,425 Wash your hair feel lucky it's only full of lights. 101 00:20:50,805 --> 00:20:52,605 When you finish your father needs changes. 102 00:20:54,015 --> 00:20:55,875 Don't let him sit in his mess. 103 00:21:02,025 --> 00:21:07,215 Sign picture today, eat a black that girls will all flawless. 104 00:21:07,545 --> 00:21:12,825 There's no room for even the tiniest lack of precision and a troop like that takes 105 00:21:13,295 --> 00:21:15,705 absolute perfection with trauma life. 106 00:21:15,705 --> 00:21:17,415 It must be to start in the movies. 107 00:22:10,440 --> 00:22:10,860 Are. 108 00:22:46,169 --> 00:22:50,129 Bless us all Lord and his gifts, which we are about to receive 109 00:22:50,129 --> 00:22:52,879 from Ty through Christ, our Lord. 110 00:22:53,870 --> 00:22:54,360 Amen. 111 00:22:54,550 --> 00:22:55,040 Amen. 112 00:23:09,260 --> 00:23:10,840 The rest of the money I, you, 113 00:23:14,610 --> 00:23:22,020 I can count per 8 cents missing, have gone some hard candy for the trip home. 114 00:23:28,080 --> 00:23:28,679 That is enough. 115 00:23:28,679 --> 00:23:30,419 Then you ate the candy. 116 00:23:30,510 --> 00:23:31,469 That was your supper. 117 00:23:31,590 --> 00:23:34,959 The food I worked hard to prepare alone is not. 118 00:23:36,485 --> 00:23:38,235 But mama, I wrote all that way. 119 00:23:38,235 --> 00:23:39,405 I'm starving. 120 00:23:39,465 --> 00:23:41,175 You may have what's left of it in the morning. 121 00:23:46,125 --> 00:23:48,075 Where are you going to bed? 122 00:23:48,405 --> 00:23:52,745 I did not excuse you from the tablety. 123 00:24:01,275 --> 00:24:02,085 We happen here. 124 00:24:02,385 --> 00:24:10,065 Feel guilt to the tighten Haven end that Pearl to DF snakes or lights. 125 00:24:10,065 --> 00:24:11,955 Next time is leak. 126 00:24:11,955 --> 00:24:17,264 Get know, and deer me, you believe, 127 00:24:26,715 --> 00:24:27,495 act some. 128 00:24:28,655 --> 00:24:31,065 I know, and I am careful. 129 00:24:35,750 --> 00:24:38,730 Leman for, for, for two 130 00:24:42,300 --> 00:24:46,909 father kindling is 131 00:24:50,120 --> 00:24:52,730 good TOK, 132 00:25:10,260 --> 00:25:10,679 please. 133 00:25:10,679 --> 00:25:15,889 Lord, make me the biggest star of the world is ever known so that 134 00:25:15,889 --> 00:25:18,090 I make it far away from this. 135 00:26:33,284 --> 00:26:34,485 Afternoon, Pearl. 136 00:26:35,655 --> 00:26:36,605 Hi MIY. 137 00:26:37,034 --> 00:26:38,294 I like your dress. 138 00:26:39,074 --> 00:26:40,274 Oh, thank you. 139 00:26:41,235 --> 00:26:42,135 Feels wonderful. 140 00:26:42,135 --> 00:26:44,475 To finally be out to Dawn something pretty again. 141 00:26:44,895 --> 00:26:46,995 It's the first time we've left home in weeks. 142 00:26:46,995 --> 00:26:50,175 Mother is so afraid of getting them mama too. 143 00:26:50,564 --> 00:26:50,745 Well. 144 00:26:50,745 --> 00:26:54,044 We were a bit worried about the both of you being out here all alone. 145 00:26:54,044 --> 00:26:55,544 So we brought some food. 146 00:26:56,145 --> 00:26:57,345 That's very kind. 147 00:26:57,794 --> 00:27:01,064 How have you been getting all and in new letters somehow? 148 00:27:02,655 --> 00:27:05,625 Well, mother has been riddled with worry. 149 00:27:06,195 --> 00:27:08,054 They say no news is good news though. 150 00:27:08,834 --> 00:27:12,314 pH Lee, his pride hadn't gotten him involved in this dreadful war. 151 00:27:12,584 --> 00:27:16,274 You know, we had a doctor willing to declare him eligible anyone 152 00:27:16,280 --> 00:27:17,774 would've taken that opportunity. 153 00:27:17,865 --> 00:27:18,615 Not Howard. 154 00:27:18,855 --> 00:27:20,955 First, he runs off to become a farmer. 155 00:27:21,435 --> 00:27:22,304 Now the army. 156 00:27:22,950 --> 00:27:26,100 The length my brother will go to, just to spot his father. 157 00:27:26,910 --> 00:27:29,310 All this isolation has been enough to make one, man. 158 00:27:29,310 --> 00:27:32,460 It hasn't, it really has. 159 00:27:32,760 --> 00:27:34,350 No, they don't sick. 160 00:27:35,830 --> 00:27:36,390 God's 161 00:27:41,490 --> 00:27:43,200 cannot share a secret with you. 162 00:27:43,200 --> 00:27:43,590 Pearl 163 00:27:47,550 --> 00:27:51,960 mother would throttle me if she knew I was planning on a Tanon there's a dance 164 00:27:51,960 --> 00:27:57,030 audition this Saturday at our church for Christmas chorus line to bring me to 165 00:27:57,035 --> 00:28:01,020 folks throughout the state, during the holidays where it is, they're putting 166 00:28:01,020 --> 00:28:05,700 together arou and we'll be torn seven different cities before the year ends. 167 00:28:05,790 --> 00:28:06,750 Doesn't that sound exciting? 168 00:28:07,650 --> 00:28:09,270 I would love so much to be a part of it. 169 00:28:09,600 --> 00:28:14,400 So would I, we should go together, Anne, but you can too 170 00:28:14,550 --> 00:28:17,580 assume I would never explain it. 171 00:28:18,270 --> 00:28:20,070 It'll be our secret method. 172 00:28:21,495 --> 00:28:22,095 I better SCADA. 173 00:28:22,605 --> 00:28:28,965 We got three more pigs to drop off this afternoon, Saturday at 11. 174 00:28:29,504 --> 00:28:29,955 Okay. 175 00:28:30,405 --> 00:28:32,145 Sister-in-laws have to stick together, right? 176 00:28:33,555 --> 00:28:36,294 MIY time to go see you later. 177 00:28:36,294 --> 00:28:36,615 Pearl. 178 00:28:38,835 --> 00:28:39,254 Bye. 179 00:28:39,274 --> 00:28:39,855 MIY C 180 00:28:44,985 --> 00:28:45,655 Charlie. 181 00:28:45,655 --> 00:28:46,655 This could be it. 182 00:30:11,545 --> 00:30:11,965 Pen. 183 00:31:50,825 --> 00:31:51,245 Wow. 184 00:31:51,755 --> 00:31:52,995 I didn't expect to see you again. 185 00:31:52,995 --> 00:31:53,085 This. 186 00:32:25,379 --> 00:32:28,200 Can't believe you get to see the pictures every day for free. 187 00:32:28,740 --> 00:32:29,010 Yeah. 188 00:32:29,010 --> 00:32:29,850 Not a bad gig. 189 00:32:29,850 --> 00:32:30,060 Huh? 190 00:32:35,670 --> 00:32:35,970 Thank you. 191 00:32:39,120 --> 00:32:40,710 So to what do I know this pleasure? 192 00:32:42,840 --> 00:32:45,629 I've been thinking a lot about what you said to me the other day. 193 00:32:45,840 --> 00:32:50,460 I'm not forgetting to live my life and well, there's a dance 194 00:32:50,460 --> 00:32:52,320 audition coming up at the church. 195 00:32:52,950 --> 00:32:53,730 Oh, I like the sound of that. 196 00:32:57,030 --> 00:32:59,760 but I've never really danced in front of anyone before. 197 00:33:01,470 --> 00:33:02,790 What if I'm not perfect? 198 00:33:03,540 --> 00:33:05,360 You can do anything if you want it bad enough. 199 00:33:07,514 --> 00:33:08,245 I want it. 200 00:33:09,554 --> 00:33:11,264 I don't let anything stand in your way. 201 00:33:13,814 --> 00:33:14,625 What would you like to see? 202 00:33:16,304 --> 00:33:17,264 Palace Folley? 203 00:33:17,445 --> 00:33:18,225 Oh, come on. 204 00:33:18,225 --> 00:33:19,185 You saw that already. 205 00:33:20,205 --> 00:33:21,465 How about something different tonight? 206 00:33:21,465 --> 00:33:22,034 How about, 207 00:33:26,264 --> 00:33:27,435 how about a film? 208 00:33:27,764 --> 00:33:29,024 Nobody else has seen. 209 00:33:30,165 --> 00:33:30,495 Okay. 210 00:33:32,415 --> 00:33:34,845 I picked this one up while I was in the service in France. 211 00:33:41,325 --> 00:33:42,314 Do you live in here? 212 00:33:42,825 --> 00:33:43,485 Yes, ma'am. 213 00:33:44,715 --> 00:33:48,554 I laid my head on that pillow from time to time, but I wouldn't say 214 00:33:48,554 --> 00:33:50,325 I live anywhere in particular. 215 00:33:51,014 --> 00:33:53,985 I'm what more civilized people refer to as Bohemian? 216 00:33:55,965 --> 00:34:00,044 I don't know what that is means I can pack up and leave whenever I want to. 217 00:34:00,915 --> 00:34:02,125 Sounds like a dream. 218 00:34:03,240 --> 00:34:05,520 Just as long as I can keep from waking up. 219 00:34:31,070 --> 00:34:32,080 What is this? 220 00:35:06,300 --> 00:35:11,880 Ever seen anything like that before now, have you, there are all kinds 221 00:35:11,880 --> 00:35:19,260 of underground stag like this out there, so illegal doing it. 222 00:35:19,265 --> 00:35:19,560 Yeah. 223 00:35:20,940 --> 00:35:21,600 Filming it. 224 00:35:21,605 --> 00:35:24,630 No, not here anyway. 225 00:35:25,260 --> 00:35:31,050 Will be eventually people paying arm and all a to see this pictures, like this 226 00:35:31,050 --> 00:35:32,610 are gonna revolutionize the industry. 227 00:35:32,850 --> 00:35:39,870 And I, for one plan on capitalizing narrative it's reality and there's no 228 00:35:39,870 --> 00:35:44,730 denying, we all share a fascination in seeing people as they truly are. 229 00:35:46,410 --> 00:35:47,790 I don't like reality 230 00:35:52,080 --> 00:35:52,640 where I live. 231 00:35:52,670 --> 00:35:54,800 I mean, so leave. 232 00:36:03,090 --> 00:36:04,560 It's not that easy. 233 00:36:05,400 --> 00:36:06,000 Well, sure it is. 234 00:36:06,005 --> 00:36:07,170 There's a road right out front there. 235 00:36:07,175 --> 00:36:08,820 That'll take you all the way to New York city. 236 00:36:10,920 --> 00:36:12,990 One day, my mother and father will be gone. 237 00:36:15,090 --> 00:36:16,200 I can do what I want, man. 238 00:36:17,130 --> 00:36:18,090 What if that's too late? 239 00:36:20,190 --> 00:36:24,480 The fact and truth, the matter is Pearl, you only get one take of this life. 240 00:36:25,350 --> 00:36:27,930 And if you don't make the most of it, when you're young, you 241 00:36:27,930 --> 00:36:29,190 don't get a second chance. 242 00:36:32,640 --> 00:36:33,990 If only they would just die. 243 00:36:39,150 --> 00:36:39,600 Pardon? 244 00:36:43,560 --> 00:36:43,980 Nothing. 245 00:36:48,760 --> 00:36:52,590 It's real nice to be able to talk to someone for change being 246 00:36:52,590 --> 00:36:54,660 CAPD up on that farm for so long. 247 00:36:54,660 --> 00:36:55,980 Sometimes I worry that. 248 00:36:56,895 --> 00:36:58,634 Not the same as other people. 249 00:37:00,884 --> 00:37:02,774 Why would you ever want to be like everybody else? 250 00:37:05,444 --> 00:37:06,095 I don't know. 251 00:37:08,895 --> 00:37:11,495 Sometimes it just seems more peaceful, I guess. 252 00:37:22,555 --> 00:37:26,935 Did she mean what you said by wanting to see me up on that screen? 253 00:37:28,595 --> 00:37:29,085 Sure. 254 00:37:29,085 --> 00:37:29,404 I did. 255 00:37:30,875 --> 00:37:32,365 I do anything to be up there. 256 00:37:34,234 --> 00:37:38,444 Well, then y'all ought to go overseas when this pandemic is, that's what I'm doing. 257 00:37:39,254 --> 00:37:41,565 The arts are so much more live in Europe. 258 00:37:41,745 --> 00:37:43,455 You can be whoever you want to be there. 259 00:37:44,865 --> 00:37:45,254 Really. 260 00:37:46,125 --> 00:37:47,745 You can even be in pictures like this. 261 00:37:48,975 --> 00:37:49,335 I know. 262 00:37:49,335 --> 00:37:49,875 I'd watch you. 263 00:37:56,790 --> 00:37:57,750 I should go now. 264 00:38:02,070 --> 00:38:02,660 Thank you. 265 00:38:03,800 --> 00:38:06,740 And what for, for seeing me tonight. 266 00:38:30,460 --> 00:38:30,950 Okay. 267 00:39:31,735 --> 00:39:32,825 What are you staring? 268 00:40:26,805 --> 00:40:27,865 I'm leaving soon. 269 00:40:33,775 --> 00:40:35,305 I can't stay here any longer. 270 00:40:37,295 --> 00:40:39,555 Howard was supposed to take me away. 271 00:40:42,435 --> 00:40:45,735 It'd be easier for me if I didn't feel like I was abandoning you. 272 00:40:48,355 --> 00:40:49,575 You understand though, 273 00:40:55,525 --> 00:40:57,555 I love you daddy, but this is no way to, 274 00:41:05,765 --> 00:41:06,695 I tell you to quit. 275 00:41:08,755 --> 00:41:10,035 I'm talking with daddy. 276 00:41:14,115 --> 00:41:15,645 They need to get him back to the house. 277 00:41:18,975 --> 00:41:20,235 Why do you hate me, mom? 278 00:41:24,285 --> 00:41:25,935 I only want what's best. 279 00:41:29,025 --> 00:41:30,225 When do I get what I want 280 00:41:34,035 --> 00:41:35,595 when they understand that? 281 00:41:35,595 --> 00:41:36,615 Getting what you want? 282 00:41:36,735 --> 00:41:37,755 Isn't what's important. 283 00:41:40,740 --> 00:41:45,840 Making the most of what you have is life really turns out how you expect 284 00:41:46,790 --> 00:41:48,370 you need to be prepared for that. 285 00:41:48,370 --> 00:41:52,620 If you ever want to be happy, come back inside. 286 00:42:17,830 --> 00:42:18,320 Yeah. 287 00:42:40,635 --> 00:42:41,355 Where are. 288 00:43:55,575 --> 00:43:57,915 Stop staring at me. 289 00:44:59,145 --> 00:45:02,964 How'd you find that I am apply to what goes on once here. 290 00:45:04,455 --> 00:45:08,325 Take your dinner, stand the bunkhouse, but it's freezing out there. 291 00:45:08,384 --> 00:45:12,105 You should have told her there before putting west isolate yourself 292 00:45:12,105 --> 00:45:13,185 until we know you are not here. 293 00:45:14,115 --> 00:45:14,805 That is what's right. 294 00:45:19,545 --> 00:45:21,555 There's a dance audition in town tomorrow. 295 00:45:25,095 --> 00:45:27,355 I'm going on now? 296 00:45:27,355 --> 00:45:27,755 You're not. 297 00:45:28,615 --> 00:45:29,435 Yes, I am. 298 00:45:30,455 --> 00:45:33,735 Why I not, if I'm good enough. 299 00:45:35,085 --> 00:45:35,855 Good enough. 300 00:45:35,860 --> 00:45:36,134 For what? 301 00:45:41,775 --> 00:45:41,985 So 302 00:45:47,335 --> 00:45:51,025 that this ungrateful stem home, how is it? 303 00:45:51,025 --> 00:45:52,825 You find our life so easy. 304 00:45:53,835 --> 00:45:56,475 You've always had the Wolf over your head food in your belly. 305 00:45:58,065 --> 00:46:00,615 We not seem to came a great sacrifice from your father. 306 00:46:00,615 --> 00:46:01,035 And I. 307 00:46:01,860 --> 00:46:03,480 How do you think we are be needs? 308 00:46:03,480 --> 00:46:03,840 You too. 309 00:46:05,100 --> 00:46:08,520 I'm mentally about the rest of my days with you and daddy on this farm. 310 00:46:08,520 --> 00:46:11,370 And so be it, but I'm only young once. 311 00:46:12,360 --> 00:46:16,350 If I go to this audition and I don't get picked, then I'll come home 312 00:46:16,410 --> 00:46:18,240 and I'll never speak of it again. 313 00:46:18,240 --> 00:46:21,450 I swear, but I have to know that I tried her. 314 00:46:21,450 --> 00:46:23,760 I'm gonna regret it for the rest of my life, please. 315 00:46:23,760 --> 00:46:24,060 Mama. 316 00:46:24,060 --> 00:46:25,890 You have no idea what I'm capable of. 317 00:46:28,110 --> 00:46:29,110 Oh yes I do. 318 00:46:30,810 --> 00:46:33,780 I've seen the things you've done in private. 319 00:46:34,950 --> 00:46:36,300 You be, no one is watching. 320 00:46:37,995 --> 00:46:42,795 You think won't notice you can't giggle true for another. 321 00:46:44,505 --> 00:46:49,155 They really notice eventually, and they will be frightened just as I am. 322 00:46:51,315 --> 00:46:51,645 You're wrong. 323 00:46:52,765 --> 00:46:53,315 Am I? 324 00:46:55,785 --> 00:46:56,895 They're not a fine woman. 325 00:46:56,895 --> 00:47:00,045 You hope to become leaving your mother alone to lot. 326 00:47:00,045 --> 00:47:02,235 So you can dance with a bunch of silly causes. 327 00:47:03,165 --> 00:47:05,595 Let alone the illness you may contract and spread. 328 00:47:06,135 --> 00:47:07,665 You see what it does to your father. 329 00:47:07,755 --> 00:47:09,585 That's what you want for yourself and others. 330 00:47:10,035 --> 00:47:11,505 And maybe that is what you wish for me. 331 00:47:13,145 --> 00:47:14,425 Personal stop lying. 332 00:47:15,225 --> 00:47:16,935 I can't stand the sound of it anymore. 333 00:47:17,175 --> 00:47:24,585 It's so almost as your simple behavior, you are not when heard, it's only a matter 334 00:47:24,585 --> 00:47:26,535 of time before you hurt someone else. 335 00:47:26,835 --> 00:47:29,825 Malevolence is Fe in you. 336 00:47:29,825 --> 00:47:30,405 I see it. 337 00:47:30,975 --> 00:47:32,985 And I will not in good conscience. 338 00:47:32,985 --> 00:47:34,965 Let you leave this farm again. 339 00:47:36,165 --> 00:47:37,245 You can't stop me. 340 00:47:37,755 --> 00:47:38,385 Oh yes. 341 00:47:38,385 --> 00:47:38,535 I. 342 00:47:39,260 --> 00:47:41,519 You don't want to know what I could do in New York. 343 00:47:42,300 --> 00:47:45,240 I show that a burden you will never understand. 344 00:47:46,020 --> 00:47:49,830 Spend my days feeding and wiping the snot of the face of the man I'm married. 345 00:47:50,130 --> 00:47:53,460 You dare sit there and talk to me about regrets. 346 00:47:53,610 --> 00:47:56,160 I was supposed to be his wife, not his mother. 347 00:47:56,600 --> 00:47:59,340 Don't you speak that way to me again? 348 00:47:59,340 --> 00:48:00,300 Don't you hear me? 349 00:48:01,800 --> 00:48:02,160 Sorry. 350 00:48:02,190 --> 00:48:03,660 No, you're not. 351 00:48:03,930 --> 00:48:05,100 Are you in stop on this? 352 00:48:07,620 --> 00:48:09,060 That's what you really desire? 353 00:48:09,065 --> 00:48:09,600 Isn't it. 354 00:48:10,185 --> 00:48:15,165 Perhaps I should kill him for you that why you don't have to care for him any longer 355 00:48:15,165 --> 00:48:17,415 with the so just selfish dreams better. 356 00:48:18,345 --> 00:48:21,495 And we can both go the dance your husband has gone. 357 00:48:21,495 --> 00:48:24,645 So is mine who I, should we be selling this caring for them? 358 00:48:24,825 --> 00:48:25,904 The work of this farm? 359 00:48:26,115 --> 00:48:28,544 What about us getting what we want? 360 00:48:36,855 --> 00:48:38,625 I won't suffer for you any longer. 361 00:48:39,134 --> 00:48:43,484 You wanna leave, go, but when you fail. 362 00:48:45,270 --> 00:48:46,530 And you would fail. 363 00:48:48,420 --> 00:48:53,400 I wanted to remember what it feels like, because that's how I feel. 364 00:48:53,940 --> 00:48:59,820 Every time I, everything I ever had has been taken from 365 00:49:03,600 --> 00:49:03,750 you. 366 00:49:05,475 --> 00:49:07,585 I just don't want him to block you. 367 00:52:12,105 --> 00:52:12,915 Where are you going? 368 00:52:12,915 --> 00:52:14,115 It's not 6:00 AM. 369 00:52:14,185 --> 00:52:14,424 Yeah. 370 00:52:14,654 --> 00:52:15,915 I have to practice my routine. 371 00:52:16,335 --> 00:52:18,015 I need to be perfect for my audition the day. 372 00:52:21,765 --> 00:52:23,205 You still think I'm pretty enough. 373 00:52:24,015 --> 00:52:26,085 I know how much has changed in the last 24 hours? 374 00:52:26,384 --> 00:52:27,345 Yes, it has. 375 00:52:27,795 --> 00:52:30,015 Oh, you forgot this last time. 376 00:52:32,045 --> 00:52:33,285 I'm glad you came back. 377 00:52:43,904 --> 00:52:45,194 Let me at least drive it home. 378 00:52:58,515 --> 00:52:59,115 Somebody, you know, 379 00:53:03,174 --> 00:53:04,234 not really sure. 380 00:53:05,305 --> 00:53:09,314 Well, it's hard to know who anyone is nowadays. 381 00:53:09,314 --> 00:53:10,835 All these masks people are wearing. 382 00:53:41,444 --> 00:53:42,194 Wait here a minute. 383 00:54:05,700 --> 00:54:06,049 So 384 00:54:27,910 --> 00:54:29,609 I'm gonna get you cleaned up real soon. 385 00:54:29,609 --> 00:54:29,970 Okay. 386 00:54:29,970 --> 00:54:31,210 I just have a guess right now. 387 00:55:20,465 --> 00:55:21,135 My father, 388 00:55:25,165 --> 00:55:26,415 please, to meet you, sir, 389 00:55:34,835 --> 00:55:36,315 let me go to my bedroom now. 390 00:55:47,515 --> 00:55:48,645 It doesn't seem so bad. 391 00:55:50,634 --> 00:55:51,185 It is. 392 00:55:54,734 --> 00:55:55,125 What was that? 393 00:55:56,035 --> 00:55:56,705 Nothing. 394 00:55:59,504 --> 00:56:00,404 Tell me more about Europe. 395 00:56:01,575 --> 00:56:06,254 When can go don't you should think you should go check. 396 00:56:07,725 --> 00:56:07,904 Nope. 397 00:56:11,834 --> 00:56:13,665 I'm sorry, whatever that is. 398 00:56:13,665 --> 00:56:14,595 We can't just ignore. 399 00:56:14,595 --> 00:56:17,234 It could be your father for Christ six. 400 00:56:17,234 --> 00:56:20,895 It's not my father, please. 401 00:56:20,895 --> 00:56:21,345 Don't go. 402 00:56:23,504 --> 00:56:24,285 What's the matter with you. 403 00:57:17,460 --> 00:57:18,089 It's her dog. 404 00:57:19,140 --> 00:57:20,850 She made a mess in the kitchen while I was away. 405 00:57:20,850 --> 00:57:22,060 So I put her in the root cellar. 406 00:57:24,930 --> 00:57:25,220 I. 407 00:57:33,450 --> 00:57:34,350 That's Charlie. 408 00:57:35,520 --> 00:57:36,870 She's always hungry. 409 00:57:37,500 --> 00:57:38,640 We can't afford to feed her. 410 00:57:38,640 --> 00:57:39,630 Like we used to. 411 00:57:40,290 --> 00:57:43,440 And over here, this is Mary ain't. 412 00:57:43,440 --> 00:57:44,090 She a dish. 413 00:57:47,130 --> 00:57:47,970 This is Francis. 414 00:57:49,800 --> 00:57:52,530 They're my best audience on named each of them. 415 00:57:52,530 --> 00:57:57,900 After my favorite picture stars, I put on so many shows for them over the years. 416 00:57:58,980 --> 00:58:01,860 It'll be sad to say goodbye, but like they say for not moving forward and 417 00:58:01,860 --> 00:58:03,630 show business, you're moving backwards. 418 00:58:04,470 --> 00:58:08,160 We used to have many more animals, but they hell died. 419 00:58:09,480 --> 00:58:10,590 What about your dog? 420 00:58:11,670 --> 00:58:11,880 Huh? 421 00:58:13,080 --> 00:58:13,830 What's his name? 422 00:58:14,370 --> 00:58:15,270 We don't have a dog. 423 00:58:17,250 --> 00:58:20,550 I thought you said you, uh, did in the cellar. 424 00:58:22,380 --> 00:58:24,960 Um, RA. 425 00:58:27,000 --> 00:58:27,490 Yeah. 426 00:58:28,350 --> 00:58:28,770 Yeah. 427 00:58:28,770 --> 00:58:29,690 Well, um, 428 00:58:34,170 --> 00:58:34,890 Oh boy. 429 00:58:35,790 --> 00:58:36,990 Oh, I better be getting back. 430 00:58:36,990 --> 00:58:37,320 You know 431 00:58:40,590 --> 00:58:40,920 what? 432 00:58:41,400 --> 00:58:44,010 Oh, I gotta go and screen the matinee, you know, but you gotta practice. 433 00:58:44,010 --> 00:58:45,960 Remember you gotta get those dance moves. 434 00:58:45,960 --> 00:58:46,320 Perfect. 435 00:58:47,610 --> 00:58:49,800 Now it's not the time to be resting on your laurels is 436 00:58:52,510 --> 00:58:53,640 it's nice seeing you Pearl. 437 00:58:57,210 --> 00:58:58,650 Did I do something wrong? 438 00:59:01,500 --> 00:59:01,770 No. 439 00:59:04,200 --> 00:59:05,610 And why did you just go cold on me? 440 00:59:08,790 --> 00:59:09,750 I don't know what you mean. 441 00:59:11,070 --> 00:59:11,910 What did you see? 442 00:59:13,800 --> 00:59:14,670 I didn't see anything. 443 00:59:17,490 --> 00:59:18,060 You're lying. 444 00:59:19,330 --> 00:59:19,870 I'm not. 445 00:59:19,980 --> 00:59:21,270 Yes you are. 446 00:59:23,100 --> 00:59:23,580 I know. 447 00:59:23,580 --> 00:59:25,590 Cause I feel things very deeply. 448 00:59:27,555 --> 00:59:28,695 look, I gotta get back to work. 449 00:59:28,695 --> 00:59:28,995 All right. 450 00:59:28,995 --> 00:59:29,895 I'll I'll see you later. 451 00:59:29,955 --> 00:59:32,595 When what, when will I see you? 452 00:59:32,805 --> 00:59:33,165 I don't know. 453 00:59:33,165 --> 00:59:34,245 Pearl, it's just an expression. 454 00:59:34,250 --> 00:59:35,385 You're not gonna take me to Europe. 455 00:59:35,385 --> 00:59:36,435 Are you tell me the truth? 456 00:59:38,835 --> 00:59:39,975 What did I do wrong? 457 00:59:39,980 --> 00:59:40,405 Nothing. 458 00:59:40,895 --> 00:59:44,005 No, why you wrong? 459 00:59:44,005 --> 00:59:45,565 I understand you. 460 00:59:46,115 --> 00:59:46,845 I do like you. 461 00:59:47,005 --> 00:59:48,365 I just tell me the truth. 462 00:59:49,265 --> 00:59:53,295 Why you you, why did you you're scaring me Pearl. 463 00:59:54,705 --> 00:59:54,975 Okay. 464 00:59:58,065 --> 00:59:59,565 I wish you the best luck with your audition. 465 01:00:00,495 --> 01:00:01,035 Sincerely. 466 01:00:26,295 --> 01:00:26,885 I'm not. 467 01:01:26,425 --> 01:01:27,405 What it feels like. 468 01:01:31,035 --> 01:01:31,995 Cause that's how I felt. 469 01:01:31,995 --> 01:01:33,235 Every time you looked at me. 470 01:01:40,185 --> 01:01:42,435 Okay, daddy, let's get you. 471 01:02:13,670 --> 01:02:14,940 I wouldn't look at me. 472 01:02:14,940 --> 01:02:15,150 Like, 473 01:02:49,190 --> 01:02:50,160 what do you think. 474 01:03:20,404 --> 01:03:20,825 You, 475 01:03:23,975 --> 01:03:24,505 I know 476 01:03:42,265 --> 01:03:42,705 just. 477 01:04:39,839 --> 01:04:40,799 Oh, thank goodness you came. 478 01:04:42,210 --> 01:04:44,520 I was beginning to think you weren't gonna show, sorry. 479 01:04:45,540 --> 01:04:47,370 I had some chore to do around the house. 480 01:04:47,700 --> 01:04:50,220 Well, I've been in such a flap all by myself. 481 01:04:50,370 --> 01:04:51,629 I feel worse than I imagine. 482 01:04:51,629 --> 01:04:52,049 I would've. 483 01:04:52,049 --> 01:04:53,819 I contracted that over the flu. 484 01:04:55,799 --> 01:04:59,339 What's in the suitcases, all my things I need for going on the road for. 485 01:05:00,330 --> 01:05:00,750 Wow. 486 01:05:01,290 --> 01:05:04,649 You're confident rumor has it. 487 01:05:04,649 --> 01:05:06,600 They may only be taking one gal per TA. 488 01:05:09,419 --> 01:05:10,259 It has to be me. 489 01:05:13,890 --> 01:05:15,870 I don't think you meant to say that out loud, Pearl. 490 01:05:17,100 --> 01:05:19,799 Well, if it's not me, then I hope too, right. 491 01:05:21,120 --> 01:05:22,029 It has to be me 492 01:05:27,339 --> 01:05:27,830 next 493 01:05:41,190 --> 01:05:42,029 Stary Collins. 494 01:05:45,350 --> 01:05:46,710 Can't say I'm too sad. 495 01:05:46,710 --> 01:05:51,720 M for some people just think they're God's gift, you know, they always 496 01:05:51,725 --> 01:05:53,129 get what's coming to them eventually. 497 01:05:57,615 --> 01:06:00,254 I feel bad saying that actually she's a nurse. 498 01:06:01,424 --> 01:06:02,745 I don't know how to do something like that. 499 01:06:03,975 --> 01:06:04,424 Oh, Pearl. 500 01:06:04,430 --> 01:06:05,355 I'm so nervous. 501 01:06:06,285 --> 01:06:07,665 Why did they laugh me right off stage? 502 01:06:08,024 --> 01:06:09,044 Oh my God could handle that. 503 01:06:12,075 --> 01:06:12,375 How are you? 504 01:06:12,375 --> 01:06:13,064 Not scared? 505 01:06:16,004 --> 01:06:17,975 I'm guessing just more yeast to the feeling. 506 01:06:52,865 --> 01:06:53,865 I don't think I can do this. 507 01:06:53,865 --> 01:06:54,765 I'm too frightened. 508 01:06:55,095 --> 01:06:55,365 What? 509 01:06:55,634 --> 01:06:57,705 Come on, Pearl switch. 510 01:06:57,855 --> 01:06:59,145 Before they open the doors again. 511 01:07:00,464 --> 01:07:00,734 Come on. 512 01:07:02,004 --> 01:07:02,355 No, 513 01:07:08,355 --> 01:07:08,865 thank you. 514 01:07:09,585 --> 01:07:10,665 You're a good friend, 515 01:07:16,625 --> 01:07:20,955 Emma, of course you are. 516 01:07:27,345 --> 01:07:29,875 Your sister-in-law is how to stick together, right? 517 01:07:57,750 --> 01:08:01,920 Next, your turn, Tom. 518 01:08:01,920 --> 01:08:02,970 Show them what you can do. 519 01:08:04,440 --> 01:08:07,320 Show them all recollect. 520 01:11:06,840 --> 01:11:11,400 Thank you, but it's going to be a no. 521 01:11:26,880 --> 01:11:27,330 Pardon? 522 01:11:28,890 --> 01:11:29,490 Sorry. 523 01:11:29,550 --> 01:11:31,380 You just not what we had in mind. 524 01:11:40,700 --> 01:11:43,170 Well, that was the best dancing I've ever done. 525 01:11:44,820 --> 01:11:51,420 Yes, it was very nice, but we already had plenty of gals like you and the troop. 526 01:11:51,480 --> 01:11:56,700 We're looking for something different today, you know, more. 527 01:11:57,375 --> 01:12:03,464 All American, younger and blocked some of 'em with X factor. 528 01:12:07,684 --> 01:12:08,174 What 529 01:12:11,405 --> 01:12:11,894 next? 530 01:12:20,945 --> 01:12:23,934 No, I'm afraid. 531 01:12:24,105 --> 01:12:27,655 So miss down to go, 532 01:12:32,644 --> 01:12:33,255 please. 533 01:12:35,144 --> 01:12:39,615 You don't understand underneath this next in line, please. 534 01:12:41,025 --> 01:12:42,165 I can make it better. 535 01:12:42,195 --> 01:12:42,855 Come on, darling. 536 01:12:42,855 --> 01:12:46,815 You don't wanna make a scene, spoil everything, please. 537 01:12:47,594 --> 01:12:50,924 Just give me one more chance long down. 538 01:12:51,464 --> 01:12:54,014 No, I'm a, I'm a star. 539 01:12:57,440 --> 01:12:57,730 I. 540 01:14:06,210 --> 01:14:07,130 How about I take you? 541 01:14:37,559 --> 01:14:38,340 Is that our pig? 542 01:14:57,315 --> 01:14:58,905 Should I go and infect your mother? 543 01:15:00,525 --> 01:15:00,945 No. 544 01:15:08,085 --> 01:15:10,095 How bad I get you something nice to drink. 545 01:15:13,285 --> 01:15:13,775 Mama. 546 01:15:13,875 --> 01:15:14,025 Always. 547 01:15:14,175 --> 01:15:14,415 Right? 548 01:15:17,235 --> 01:15:18,675 Never getting off this farm. 549 01:15:20,205 --> 01:15:21,455 And where would you want to go? 550 01:15:22,805 --> 01:15:23,415 Europe? 551 01:15:23,685 --> 01:15:24,295 Europe. 552 01:15:24,605 --> 01:15:28,255 What earth for, for be in ruins. 553 01:15:28,260 --> 01:15:29,985 And you'll never get Howard back there. 554 01:15:29,985 --> 01:15:34,155 I tell you, oh, come on now. 555 01:15:34,605 --> 01:15:37,905 I know you're disappointed, but there's no sense in taking it this hard. 556 01:15:38,115 --> 01:15:39,765 It just a lousy church group. 557 01:15:40,425 --> 01:15:46,515 Those all adults, you know, the first thing about quality dancing. 558 01:15:47,980 --> 01:15:52,950 You don't understand what don't I come on Pearl. 559 01:15:53,910 --> 01:15:54,930 What's really the matter. 560 01:15:58,560 --> 01:16:02,220 I don't feel well. 561 01:16:05,580 --> 01:16:07,110 You're not coming down with someone, are you? 562 01:16:07,610 --> 01:16:09,930 No, nothing like that. 563 01:16:10,200 --> 01:16:10,650 Okay. 564 01:16:10,650 --> 01:16:11,220 Goodness. 565 01:16:11,580 --> 01:16:15,180 If I snuck out of the house, it ended up bringing home nothing but the germ, 566 01:16:16,050 --> 01:16:18,390 my mother and father would just kill me. 567 01:16:20,760 --> 01:16:23,700 I'm worried there, maybe something real wrong with me, MI 568 01:16:26,700 --> 01:16:27,510 how do you mean? 569 01:16:28,890 --> 01:16:32,880 Seems like there's something missing in me that the rest of the world has. 570 01:16:35,100 --> 01:16:42,510 Have you told Howard I've never spoken about it a lot to anyone so 571 01:16:42,510 --> 01:16:45,400 afraid of what people might think her. 572 01:16:47,865 --> 01:16:49,275 Howard's your husband. 573 01:16:51,285 --> 01:16:53,684 Hedos you shouldn't be afraid. 574 01:16:53,684 --> 01:16:55,005 Tell him how you feel. 575 01:16:56,505 --> 01:16:57,285 Scared him one. 576 01:16:57,285 --> 01:17:03,195 Not say, well, practice on me first, then pretend I'm Howard. 577 01:17:03,795 --> 01:17:05,714 And you say whatever's on your mind? 578 01:17:06,615 --> 01:17:10,724 I can, yes, you can go on, get it loud. 579 01:17:12,344 --> 01:17:12,764 Really? 580 01:17:13,724 --> 01:17:14,355 Yes. 581 01:17:15,224 --> 01:17:15,705 Trust me. 582 01:17:28,844 --> 01:17:29,335 Hell, 583 01:17:36,384 --> 01:17:36,934 go ahead. 584 01:17:44,310 --> 01:17:46,650 I hate you so much for leaving me here. 585 01:17:46,650 --> 01:17:48,060 Sometimes I hope you die. 586 01:17:51,960 --> 01:17:52,650 Sorry. 587 01:17:54,400 --> 01:17:57,060 I awful love living in that, but it's the truth. 588 01:18:00,270 --> 01:18:03,930 I was curious about the other man. 589 01:18:05,910 --> 01:18:09,180 I'm sure you don't want to hear about a stranger satisfying your life. 590 01:18:09,185 --> 01:18:12,660 And I swear it was only once there a mistake. 591 01:18:13,830 --> 01:18:15,180 It wasn't him that I wanted. 592 01:18:15,180 --> 01:18:19,140 I know that now I just, things could just go back to the way they were 593 01:18:19,140 --> 01:18:25,050 before, but I don't see how they could not, after the things I've done. 594 01:18:28,950 --> 01:18:31,350 What else have you done, bro? 595 01:18:31,950 --> 01:18:35,700 How I realize how this almost sound. 596 01:18:37,350 --> 01:18:38,600 Honestly, there was a time. 597 01:18:38,600 --> 01:18:42,120 I was flatter to have someone, his handsome as you bond over me. 598 01:18:42,330 --> 01:18:43,530 You're such a good person. 599 01:18:43,530 --> 01:18:44,310 I know that. 600 01:18:45,840 --> 01:18:48,180 I make sure to always be mindful with your heart. 601 01:18:48,870 --> 01:18:51,090 I never wanted you to feel jealous. 602 01:18:52,380 --> 01:18:57,390 It's an awful feeling like rock the way it just twists and turns that you're inside. 603 01:18:58,650 --> 01:19:05,040 I know that it can so well, I feel it whenever I see others whose 604 01:19:05,040 --> 01:19:10,830 lives can be easy because truth is, I'm not really a good person. 605 01:19:12,630 --> 01:19:12,990 Pearl. 606 01:19:12,990 --> 01:19:13,600 I think I should. 607 01:19:13,600 --> 01:19:16,290 The reason I kept my eyes to the around, around other men 608 01:19:16,290 --> 01:19:17,940 was never to avoid hurting you. 609 01:19:20,190 --> 01:19:23,640 It's cuz I understood how lucky I was to have your attention. 610 01:19:24,720 --> 01:19:27,810 I may be a poor farm girl have, but I'm not stupid. 611 01:19:28,350 --> 01:19:32,580 I spotted you the moment you came to live with us, you weren't hard. 612 01:19:33,000 --> 01:19:34,230 Let the other farm end speak. 613 01:19:34,230 --> 01:19:34,760 You were different. 614 01:19:35,745 --> 01:19:39,945 You're from somewhere, a nice, comfortable place that you could 615 01:19:39,945 --> 01:19:41,715 return to whenever you wanted. 616 01:19:44,415 --> 01:19:50,085 I'm so desperate to have that all my life I've wanted off this 617 01:19:50,090 --> 01:19:51,974 farm, you are my ticket out. 618 01:19:53,775 --> 01:19:58,275 So I made sure to never let you see who I really was. 619 01:19:58,605 --> 01:20:00,315 I worked like a charm too. 620 01:20:01,275 --> 01:20:04,815 Then when you finally brought me back to your home to meet your 621 01:20:04,815 --> 01:20:12,644 family, it was just as I hoped life straight out of the pictures, at 622 01:20:12,644 --> 01:20:14,005 least that's what it felt like to me. 623 01:20:17,105 --> 01:20:18,224 And you didn't want it. 624 01:20:21,795 --> 01:20:23,505 You just wanted to stay here with our farm. 625 01:20:23,509 --> 01:20:29,175 And that made me so angry, but you certain, I hated it. 626 01:20:29,175 --> 01:20:29,884 He must have. 627 01:20:30,885 --> 01:20:34,485 How could you be so selfish and cruel after a while that doesn't make you happy? 628 01:20:40,395 --> 01:20:42,405 I was even pregnant with your baby. 629 01:20:47,825 --> 01:20:49,605 I never wanted to be a mother. 630 01:20:51,165 --> 01:20:59,925 I love the feeling of it growing inside me for that sickness, pulling, sucking on 631 01:20:59,925 --> 01:21:02,205 me and let some needy animal in the barn. 632 01:21:03,975 --> 01:21:06,285 How could I be responsible for another life? 633 01:21:07,245 --> 01:21:08,655 Life terrifies me. 634 01:21:09,225 --> 01:21:15,945 It's hard and bleak and draining . I was so relieved when it died. 635 01:21:16,575 --> 01:21:19,005 It was a little less late keeping me trapped here, but then the 636 01:21:19,005 --> 01:21:20,925 war came and you left me too. 637 01:21:22,125 --> 01:21:23,925 Why did you leave me Howard? 638 01:21:30,674 --> 01:21:32,474 I hate feeling like this. 639 01:21:33,134 --> 01:21:37,485 So pathetic do people like you ever feel this way? 640 01:21:38,415 --> 01:21:39,575 Figure you don't. 641 01:21:39,575 --> 01:21:41,375 You seem so perfect on time. 642 01:21:41,865 --> 01:21:43,815 Lord was too generous to you. 643 01:21:44,295 --> 01:21:46,245 He never answers any of my prayers. 644 01:21:46,844 --> 01:21:48,405 I don't know why, what did I do? 645 01:21:49,245 --> 01:21:50,474 What is wrong with me? 646 01:21:51,434 --> 01:21:51,764 Please? 647 01:21:51,764 --> 01:21:53,715 Just tell me so maybe I can get better. 648 01:21:53,715 --> 01:21:55,155 I don't wanna end up my mama. 649 01:21:55,155 --> 01:21:56,985 I wanna be dancing up on the screen. 650 01:21:56,985 --> 01:21:58,844 Like the prey girls in the pictures. 651 01:22:00,344 --> 01:22:05,684 I want what they have so badly to be perfect, to be loved from 652 01:22:05,684 --> 01:22:08,865 as many people as possible to make up for all my time spent. 653 01:22:09,405 --> 01:22:09,644 And 654 01:22:13,005 --> 01:22:16,304 times I wake in the middle of the night and the fear washes over me. 655 01:22:16,304 --> 01:22:17,565 Cuz what if this is it? 656 01:22:19,844 --> 01:22:21,375 What is I belong? 657 01:22:29,660 --> 01:22:34,530 I'm not pretty I'm naturally pleasant or friendly. 658 01:22:35,610 --> 01:22:36,480 I'm not smart. 659 01:22:37,620 --> 01:22:39,120 You're funny or confident. 660 01:22:41,610 --> 01:22:43,049 I'm exactly what mama said. 661 01:22:43,049 --> 01:22:44,009 I was weak. 662 01:22:45,540 --> 01:22:47,219 I don't know why, what did I do? 663 01:22:47,759 --> 01:22:49,590 Why was in my family like yours? 664 01:22:49,590 --> 01:22:52,049 I hate what it feels like to be me and not you. 665 01:22:52,590 --> 01:22:56,009 I'm so scared that when you finally come home, you'll see me and be frightened. 666 01:22:56,014 --> 01:22:57,389 Like everyone else is. 667 01:23:00,929 --> 01:23:02,190 I know what I've done. 668 01:23:03,000 --> 01:23:08,190 Bad things, terrible, awful murderous things. 669 01:23:09,480 --> 01:23:11,940 I regret them now, but I lied how they felt. 670 01:23:11,940 --> 01:23:13,559 I wish I didn't, but I did. 671 01:23:15,540 --> 01:23:18,389 At first it was only animals smaller than myself. 672 01:23:19,559 --> 01:23:24,210 Nothing with feeding, nothing that could hurt me back felt good. 673 01:23:25,620 --> 01:23:27,059 Killings easier than you think. 674 01:23:28,785 --> 01:23:31,334 until recently the mom were, and the boy from the picture 675 01:23:31,334 --> 01:23:32,445 house, they were different. 676 01:23:33,495 --> 01:23:34,754 They were more meaningful. 677 01:23:35,325 --> 01:23:36,075 I heard them. 678 01:23:36,075 --> 01:23:38,745 So they too might know what it feels like to suffer, but apart 679 01:23:38,750 --> 01:23:41,684 that he didn't deserve that, I wish I hadn't done what I did. 680 01:23:44,485 --> 01:23:48,495 Mom went well, she had a hard laugh. 681 01:23:49,544 --> 01:23:51,195 She don't even wanted a home to feel safe. 682 01:23:51,195 --> 01:23:52,245 And I can see that. 683 01:23:53,415 --> 01:23:55,934 I thought I hated her, but I just wanna feel safe too. 684 01:24:01,105 --> 01:24:01,594 Lord, 685 01:24:04,634 --> 01:24:06,195 I made such a mess of things. 686 01:24:07,455 --> 01:24:09,375 I don't know how much more I can take. 687 01:24:11,355 --> 01:24:12,525 I need to clean this up. 688 01:24:13,875 --> 01:24:14,655 All of it. 689 01:24:16,245 --> 01:24:18,705 I need to make things right before you see me again. 690 01:24:21,105 --> 01:24:23,415 I can turn this farm into a home for it. 691 01:24:23,415 --> 01:24:24,134 Like you want it. 692 01:24:24,134 --> 01:24:25,754 Things will finally be different. 693 01:24:27,540 --> 01:24:28,559 I can forgive. 694 01:24:29,519 --> 01:24:31,080 I can be who you want me to be. 695 01:24:32,340 --> 01:24:36,840 If you just stay with me, can do that, please. 696 01:24:39,599 --> 01:24:41,519 I can't be all by myself anymore. 697 01:24:41,519 --> 01:24:42,330 It's too hard. 698 01:24:47,260 --> 01:24:48,510 We can love each other. 699 01:24:49,019 --> 01:24:50,490 I'll do that for you. 700 01:24:50,969 --> 01:24:57,240 If you really meant all that till dev do us part, it'd be enough. 701 01:24:59,490 --> 01:25:02,070 Just you and me here on this farm. 702 01:25:09,000 --> 01:25:10,889 All I really wanted is to be loved. 703 01:25:15,059 --> 01:25:17,010 I having such a hard time without her lately. 704 01:25:53,990 --> 01:25:55,160 I should probably get going. 705 01:25:55,160 --> 01:25:58,290 Now mother, be wondering where I am. 706 01:25:58,290 --> 01:25:59,790 If I'm not home soon, 707 01:26:08,639 --> 01:26:09,929 are you frightened of me? 708 01:26:12,300 --> 01:26:12,690 No, 709 01:26:16,059 --> 01:26:16,610 of course. 710 01:26:16,610 --> 01:26:17,250 No problem. 711 01:26:21,240 --> 01:26:22,530 You think I'm sick? 712 01:26:24,780 --> 01:26:28,650 No, thank you. 713 01:26:32,850 --> 01:26:33,900 I'm happy for you. 714 01:26:37,700 --> 01:26:42,240 What became the park and dance trip? 715 01:26:42,240 --> 01:26:43,080 You deserved it. 716 01:26:45,840 --> 01:26:47,850 I didn't get the part. 717 01:26:47,850 --> 01:26:48,240 It's okay. 718 01:26:49,680 --> 01:26:50,910 Don't have to pretend anymore. 719 01:26:51,150 --> 01:26:51,570 My feelings. 720 01:26:51,570 --> 01:26:54,510 Don't be it wasn't me. 721 01:26:54,510 --> 01:26:55,410 I'm glad it was you. 722 01:26:55,440 --> 01:26:55,680 Right. 723 01:26:59,190 --> 01:27:03,750 But Pearl, I like this don't lie to me. 724 01:27:10,890 --> 01:27:13,230 Well, yes. 725 01:27:15,630 --> 01:27:16,470 Thank you. 726 01:27:20,175 --> 01:27:24,525 It's gonna be real swell, dancing around the state. 727 01:27:28,304 --> 01:27:31,335 Hope you can come see this show sometime. 728 01:27:35,594 --> 01:27:37,275 You always get everything on 729 01:27:40,394 --> 01:27:40,934 I'm younger. 730 01:27:40,934 --> 01:27:41,715 My blonde. 731 01:27:44,385 --> 01:27:46,724 I have to go now. 732 01:27:50,894 --> 01:27:52,335 I'm not gonna say anything. 733 01:27:52,340 --> 01:27:52,825 Are you? 734 01:27:54,715 --> 01:27:55,065 No, 735 01:28:02,715 --> 01:28:04,165 I really do love Howard. 736 01:28:07,695 --> 01:28:11,224 I know nobody has to know. 737 01:28:12,495 --> 01:28:13,695 I can fix things. 738 01:28:15,675 --> 01:28:16,575 Can be our secret. 739 01:29:52,264 --> 01:29:52,875 I won't 740 01:30:00,665 --> 01:30:02,884 it's anymore. 741 01:30:03,005 --> 01:30:03,565 Mitzy. 742 01:30:04,765 --> 01:30:06,615 I think the best of what I. 743 01:32:05,695 --> 01:32:06,115 She, 744 01:32:20,265 --> 01:32:20,615 um, 745 01:33:17,009 --> 01:33:17,849 Bless us. 746 01:33:17,860 --> 01:33:20,070 So Lord, and that he. 747 01:33:22,259 --> 01:33:24,660 Which we are about to receive from 748 01:33:27,660 --> 01:33:28,440 through Christ. 749 01:33:28,440 --> 01:33:29,160 Our Lord. 750 01:33:30,990 --> 01:33:31,440 Amen. 751 01:35:05,810 --> 01:35:06,670 I'm so happy. 752 01:35:06,670 --> 01:35:07,470 You're home.