1 00:00:35,946 --> 00:00:37,303 You look like shit. 2 00:00:40,017 --> 00:00:42,000 And you stink of wine. 3 00:00:43,913 --> 00:00:45,027 I lost the book. 4 00:00:46,001 --> 00:00:46,975 They took it. 5 00:00:49,619 --> 00:00:50,767 There's no way out. 6 00:01:10,564 --> 00:01:12,269 I get really scared when you're drunk. 7 00:01:17,453 --> 00:01:18,984 I need you to be normal. 8 00:01:20,132 --> 00:01:23,333 You know, not trying to be something all the time. 9 00:01:25,663 --> 00:01:27,160 It's hurting the both of us. 10 00:01:30,674 --> 00:01:31,717 Okay. 11 00:01:33,875 --> 00:01:35,406 I'll go full normal. 12 00:01:36,241 --> 00:01:38,989 - Promise. - No, don't promise. Just try. 13 00:02:07,065 --> 00:02:08,075 Well, this is awkward. 14 00:02:08,875 --> 00:02:13,224 It'll be a good bonding experience. Might even be fun. 15 00:02:13,572 --> 00:02:15,938 Road trip with a drunk driver and a deviant. 16 00:02:15,938 --> 00:02:18,895 - What a way to spend the day. - Look, you're the one who called me, 17 00:02:18,895 --> 00:02:21,505 begging for her address, and I ain't letting you go alone. 18 00:02:21,505 --> 00:02:23,975 I know you and me have had our ups and downs, Lenny, 19 00:02:23,975 --> 00:02:26,862 but if Costello's in trouble, I know she'd want to see you. 20 00:02:27,349 --> 00:02:31,803 - Beats wanking all day. - For you to go away. 21 00:02:31,803 --> 00:02:33,403 Tits really aren't my thing. 22 00:02:33,820 --> 00:02:37,856 - Still a full-time prick, Florian? - Hoping to go part-time soon. 23 00:02:41,579 --> 00:02:42,553 Let's go. 24 00:02:42,936 --> 00:02:45,928 Word of warning, I piss excessively. 25 00:02:47,042 --> 00:02:50,660 - We'll have to make stops. - Same. I got a baby on my bladder. 26 00:02:51,008 --> 00:02:54,417 Good. Just what I need. An odyssey of a hundred piss stops. 27 00:03:12,927 --> 00:03:14,527 Morning, Si. 28 00:03:15,257 --> 00:03:18,702 All right? What are you wanting? A loan? 29 00:03:19,189 --> 00:03:23,538 I was wondering if I could get my job back. 30 00:03:23,956 --> 00:03:26,008 Yeah, got something you can have. 31 00:03:27,017 --> 00:03:27,991 Have that. 32 00:03:28,652 --> 00:03:31,888 - You couldn't hack it. - Look, you're right. I was out of line. 33 00:03:34,602 --> 00:03:35,924 I like honesty, sometimes. 34 00:03:37,246 --> 00:03:40,307 I'm just a girl, standing in front of a debt collector, 35 00:03:41,108 --> 00:03:43,717 asking him to give her a shitty job. 36 00:03:46,953 --> 00:03:48,066 Please? 37 00:03:50,050 --> 00:03:51,058 You are desperate. 38 00:03:52,590 --> 00:03:53,563 Yeah, go on then. 39 00:03:54,399 --> 00:03:56,938 - So, when do I start? - You already have. Get in the van. 40 00:03:59,686 --> 00:04:00,696 Cheers. 41 00:04:08,106 --> 00:04:12,385 You know what your problem is? You're a big gesture man. 42 00:04:12,664 --> 00:04:15,621 Great fun on a Friday night in a members' bar. 43 00:04:16,073 --> 00:04:19,622 You can cut a man dead in 16 words or less. 44 00:04:19,622 --> 00:04:21,745 Yes, I'm the very best in the game, Lenny. 45 00:04:22,023 --> 00:04:23,136 But on a Wednesday morning, 46 00:04:23,519 --> 00:04:27,659 when Iris needs her lunch making or the U-bend is blocked... 47 00:04:28,947 --> 00:04:30,233 you're next to useless. 48 00:04:30,895 --> 00:04:33,887 And you stole Costello's money so she couldn't leave you. 49 00:04:33,887 --> 00:04:37,261 - That's abuse. - I was very unwell, Gloria. 50 00:04:37,261 --> 00:04:38,862 And I've just left a psychiatric facility, 51 00:04:38,862 --> 00:04:40,462 you do know what that means, don't you? 52 00:04:40,462 --> 00:04:41,506 What? 53 00:04:41,506 --> 00:04:45,647 Slate is wiped clean. The past is a foreign country. 54 00:04:45,925 --> 00:04:48,987 Children, I need a hose break. 55 00:04:49,926 --> 00:04:53,579 Catholics have confession, us rich have therapists. 56 00:04:54,101 --> 00:04:55,528 All is forgiven. There you go. 57 00:04:56,119 --> 00:04:59,563 You have never taken responsibility for anything, have you? 58 00:04:59,563 --> 00:05:02,590 God. The drunk driver has a conscience, does she? 59 00:05:02,868 --> 00:05:05,547 - The hole's too small. - Dream on. 60 00:05:12,123 --> 00:05:14,489 Good knocking. A natural. 61 00:05:17,585 --> 00:05:18,629 Gary Wilson? 62 00:05:18,629 --> 00:05:22,108 - Yeah. - You owe us 7,455 pounds. 63 00:05:22,457 --> 00:05:24,196 How are you planning on paying us today? 64 00:05:24,196 --> 00:05:25,901 You should have got your foot in there. 65 00:05:27,014 --> 00:05:29,415 Knock again. Showing you a little bit of disrespect there, 66 00:05:29,415 --> 00:05:31,119 so, bit more knocking. 67 00:05:34,807 --> 00:05:37,034 Open up, Gary. It's time to pay, mate. 68 00:05:37,626 --> 00:05:40,269 Don't stop. Got to flush 'em out. 69 00:05:41,313 --> 00:05:42,879 What the fuck are you doing? 70 00:05:43,575 --> 00:05:45,209 What are you looking at? Do you want a slap? 71 00:05:45,209 --> 00:05:47,263 Not for minimum wage, no. 72 00:05:49,280 --> 00:05:50,255 Come on, Gary! 73 00:05:51,159 --> 00:05:52,133 Go on, then. 74 00:05:56,969 --> 00:05:59,196 Get in the house, and grab what you can, will you? 75 00:05:59,196 --> 00:06:01,110 Don't you dare! I don't hit women, but my missus does! 76 00:06:01,110 --> 00:06:03,614 - Yeah, I'd like to see her try, mate. - Come on, then. 77 00:06:03,614 --> 00:06:06,085 - No, I'm not getting involved. - Looks like you're on your own, mate! 78 00:06:06,398 --> 00:06:07,477 All right! He's had enough. Just... 79 00:06:09,598 --> 00:06:10,573 All right, let's go. 80 00:06:11,617 --> 00:06:13,078 I'll be adding this to your debt. 81 00:06:23,794 --> 00:06:25,394 - Are you all right? - I'm fine. 82 00:06:25,743 --> 00:06:29,430 - I've got a tissue. - I don't need a tissue. Need no tissue. 83 00:06:30,822 --> 00:06:33,188 We need to have a little chat, don't we? About your conduct. 84 00:06:33,188 --> 00:06:34,266 That's what we need to do. 85 00:06:41,364 --> 00:06:42,547 Unzip me, darling. 86 00:06:45,260 --> 00:06:49,227 I know this journey's hard for you. Today is sure to end in fireworks, 87 00:06:49,227 --> 00:06:53,784 but I admire how you never take the easy way out. 88 00:06:55,281 --> 00:06:56,290 Can I ask you something? 89 00:06:58,099 --> 00:06:59,838 Am I allowed to answer honestly? 90 00:07:00,465 --> 00:07:03,144 I know how savage you can be when offended. 91 00:07:03,491 --> 00:07:05,648 - That's not true. - I once said, 92 00:07:05,648 --> 00:07:08,118 "You stopped Costello living a full life." 93 00:07:08,118 --> 00:07:10,902 You gave me the silent treatment, six months. 94 00:07:25,792 --> 00:07:27,637 Do you think it's possible to be happy? 95 00:07:29,133 --> 00:07:30,316 Fucked if I know. 96 00:07:31,638 --> 00:07:34,352 But if you find someone, anyone, 97 00:07:35,117 --> 00:07:37,518 anything that makes you... 98 00:07:39,397 --> 00:07:44,024 even remotely close to happy, grab onto it. 99 00:07:45,485 --> 00:07:46,633 Never let it go. 100 00:07:48,546 --> 00:07:51,539 But be on guard, my friends. 101 00:07:52,200 --> 00:07:55,922 Time slips away so fucking fast. 102 00:07:57,140 --> 00:07:58,114 Yes. 103 00:07:58,741 --> 00:08:00,933 One minute you're pulling out your own cock to take a piss, 104 00:08:01,315 --> 00:08:03,646 the next moment, someone has to do it for you. 105 00:08:10,501 --> 00:08:12,901 All right, put some of that on it, it'll sort it out. 106 00:08:13,632 --> 00:08:14,606 Ta. 107 00:08:15,824 --> 00:08:22,086 Well, I've seen the sky on fire. Whole cities burned to the ground. 108 00:08:22,643 --> 00:08:25,148 But that was bleak. 109 00:08:25,739 --> 00:08:29,079 That's the sort of shit that makes you sound like an incel, Simon. 110 00:08:30,332 --> 00:08:33,115 You know, you're like, supposed to be me wingman? Me backup? 111 00:08:35,168 --> 00:08:38,299 - Why'd you get in that fight? - Because it's a jungle out there, innit? 112 00:08:38,299 --> 00:08:39,586 And I want to be king of it. 113 00:08:41,117 --> 00:08:44,388 Didn't look like king of the jungle when that woman was slapping your head. 114 00:08:46,335 --> 00:08:48,076 Yeah, listen, I'm gonna have to let you go. 115 00:08:48,875 --> 00:08:49,849 What for? 116 00:08:51,067 --> 00:08:52,738 You can't sack me for no reason. 117 00:08:53,050 --> 00:08:54,511 - You want a reason? - Yeah. 118 00:08:54,511 --> 00:08:56,182 How about you're a crap debt collector? 119 00:08:56,669 --> 00:08:58,443 I'm starting to think you're not gonna shag me. 120 00:09:02,514 --> 00:09:05,994 Eight pound an hour we agreed, yeah? You did about what, 50 minutes? 121 00:09:06,306 --> 00:09:09,089 There you go. Seven pounds, yeah? And can I have the tie back? 122 00:09:09,646 --> 00:09:12,673 - Fucking... - Thank you. Good. 123 00:09:16,326 --> 00:09:17,335 Good luck. 124 00:10:03,539 --> 00:10:07,365 - Fucking hell, Lenny! - Fuck you! It's my medication. 125 00:10:08,723 --> 00:10:10,045 Makes me lose control. 126 00:10:16,725 --> 00:10:17,699 Out. 127 00:10:18,778 --> 00:10:21,213 - I'm stuck. - Oh, my God. 128 00:10:21,978 --> 00:10:24,831 One day, you'll both be old fucks too. 129 00:10:26,918 --> 00:10:28,797 - Good afternoon. - Good afternoon. 130 00:10:29,911 --> 00:10:31,129 Do you rent rooms by the hour? 131 00:10:32,415 --> 00:10:33,599 No, sir. 132 00:10:33,946 --> 00:10:36,730 It's 70 pounds. Not for the hour, but for the whole night. 133 00:10:39,130 --> 00:10:41,322 - What's your name? - It's Ben. 134 00:10:41,671 --> 00:10:44,558 Let me level with you, Ben. I think we can all smell it. 135 00:10:44,558 --> 00:10:45,637 Ain't me. 136 00:10:46,715 --> 00:10:49,742 Yes, it's me, Ben. 137 00:10:50,333 --> 00:10:55,552 I'm just a sick, old artist who's soiled himself on the road of life. 138 00:10:58,718 --> 00:11:00,006 Will you be wanting the breakfast buffet? 139 00:11:00,006 --> 00:11:01,049 No, darling. 140 00:11:01,328 --> 00:11:04,042 We won't be wanting breakfast, buffet or otherwise. 141 00:11:04,042 --> 00:11:06,094 He just needs to shower off the shit. 142 00:11:19,871 --> 00:11:22,447 - That was nice of you. - I'm not a monster. 143 00:11:22,724 --> 00:11:23,699 Oh, my God. 144 00:11:25,090 --> 00:11:26,448 - You okay? - Oh, my God. Oh, my God. 145 00:11:26,448 --> 00:11:27,526 Feel it. Feel this. 146 00:11:30,414 --> 00:11:32,814 - Is that a kick? - Or is it wind? 147 00:11:33,371 --> 00:11:34,936 As if I'd let you feel my wind. 148 00:11:37,128 --> 00:11:38,137 She's real. 149 00:11:39,007 --> 00:11:41,686 Man, I actually give a fuck. 150 00:11:42,591 --> 00:11:46,730 Yeah, well, I think giving a fuck about something is underrated. 151 00:11:50,280 --> 00:11:52,367 Do you think I'm good... 152 00:11:54,142 --> 00:11:55,150 as a dad? 153 00:11:56,020 --> 00:12:00,022 As a human, you're intolerable. As a dad, you give it your best shot. 154 00:12:24,932 --> 00:12:29,177 Hi, Grey. Do you think you could possibly pick up Iris 155 00:12:29,177 --> 00:12:30,255 from school today? 156 00:12:31,786 --> 00:12:34,430 And then bring her back to yours, maybe give her some dinner? 157 00:12:35,091 --> 00:12:36,065 Sure. 158 00:12:36,692 --> 00:12:38,431 Yeah, I wouldn't usually ask, but... 159 00:12:40,971 --> 00:12:41,945 You all right? 160 00:12:43,093 --> 00:12:44,068 Touch it. 161 00:12:45,076 --> 00:12:46,885 It feels just like the real thing. 162 00:12:50,852 --> 00:12:53,009 How much would you pay for something that feels 163 00:12:53,009 --> 00:12:55,027 and looks just like the real thing? 164 00:12:55,792 --> 00:12:58,645 Nothing, 'cause it's not real. 165 00:12:59,550 --> 00:13:02,333 - Who's gonna know? - Everyone, Grey. 166 00:13:03,134 --> 00:13:06,926 People that have real 2,000-pound handbags don't live here. 167 00:13:07,239 --> 00:13:10,370 I was thinking we could sell them to your famous friends. 168 00:13:11,414 --> 00:13:13,814 - I would give you a cut. - What famous friends? 169 00:13:13,814 --> 00:13:16,424 - Your famous writer friends. - I don't know any writers. 170 00:13:16,424 --> 00:13:18,442 I thought you were signed to a big publisher. 171 00:13:18,929 --> 00:13:19,903 Not anymore. 172 00:13:20,946 --> 00:13:23,695 You said you were big time with your Magnums. 173 00:13:24,009 --> 00:13:28,567 - Yeah, that dream's over. - Back to Cornettos then. Oh, well. 174 00:13:29,506 --> 00:13:31,037 Most books are shite anyway. 175 00:13:33,785 --> 00:13:35,212 Just got to get on with it now? 176 00:13:36,742 --> 00:13:38,482 I can't just get on with it. 177 00:13:42,483 --> 00:13:44,744 I deserve to be something, don't I? 178 00:13:44,744 --> 00:13:46,241 - Yes. - Yeah. 179 00:13:47,737 --> 00:13:48,711 Yes, you do. 180 00:13:49,023 --> 00:13:53,651 But you're not the first person on an estate to get fucked over. 181 00:13:55,077 --> 00:13:56,956 Everyone's got ambition, darling. 182 00:13:57,374 --> 00:13:59,287 My mom, me... 183 00:14:01,340 --> 00:14:02,314 my little girl. 184 00:14:03,045 --> 00:14:05,132 She went off, looking for something better. 185 00:14:05,585 --> 00:14:07,220 Left me to raise Tennessee. 186 00:14:08,786 --> 00:14:10,491 Said he was better off with me. 187 00:14:12,090 --> 00:14:15,640 Some people just aren't cut out to be parents. 188 00:14:23,259 --> 00:14:25,486 Could Iris stay here tonight? 189 00:14:28,165 --> 00:14:29,139 Yeah. 190 00:14:31,505 --> 00:14:32,861 I just need to... 191 00:14:34,288 --> 00:14:35,262 you know... 192 00:14:35,714 --> 00:14:36,793 - Get pissed. - Yeah. 193 00:14:38,498 --> 00:14:40,481 - She'll be all right. - Yeah, I know she will. 194 00:14:41,315 --> 00:14:42,290 Thank you, Grey. 195 00:16:13,792 --> 00:16:15,671 What do you think we're gonna find when we get there? 196 00:16:17,202 --> 00:16:18,246 At Costello's? 197 00:16:21,133 --> 00:16:23,152 Well, you never know with her, she's probably fine. 198 00:16:24,056 --> 00:16:25,065 True. 199 00:16:25,900 --> 00:16:28,649 She is the most self-centered person I've ever known. 200 00:16:28,649 --> 00:16:32,371 Yeah, I used to think it was because she was alone in the world, but... 201 00:16:33,728 --> 00:16:36,094 actually, maybe, that's the reason she is alone. 202 00:16:39,433 --> 00:16:43,574 Hi, Selby. It's me. I need you to do something for me. 203 00:16:45,453 --> 00:16:51,333 Iris is at 104 Sunset Park, Somerset. 204 00:16:52,063 --> 00:16:53,107 Fuck! 205 00:16:55,925 --> 00:16:59,161 You gonna be okay with seeing her? You've just got out of hospital. 206 00:17:01,318 --> 00:17:02,570 We're both here with you. 207 00:17:04,309 --> 00:17:05,284 It's okay. 208 00:17:07,128 --> 00:17:10,746 Well, this kindness from you is really rather touching, 209 00:17:11,268 --> 00:17:12,277 even if it is fake. 210 00:17:13,216 --> 00:17:15,130 It's very much appreciated. 211 00:17:22,123 --> 00:17:23,097 Shit, Lenny. 212 00:17:24,767 --> 00:17:25,846 What's wrong with him? 213 00:17:25,846 --> 00:17:27,550 - Lenny, Lenny! - Shit! 214 00:17:27,550 --> 00:17:29,534 - Shake him for fuck's sake! - Lenny! 215 00:17:29,534 --> 00:17:31,935 - Lenny! Wake up! - Lenny! Lenny! 216 00:17:31,935 --> 00:17:34,265 - Fuck me, he's dead. - Fuck. 217 00:17:34,822 --> 00:17:37,154 We're stopping. We'll stop, we've got to stop. 218 00:17:46,999 --> 00:17:48,461 Oh, my God, he's got a hard-on. 219 00:17:49,505 --> 00:17:50,722 They always do at the end. 220 00:17:54,375 --> 00:17:55,802 I've always got a hard-on. 221 00:18:05,612 --> 00:18:09,787 You have one new message. First new message. 222 00:18:11,110 --> 00:18:15,180 Hi, Selby, it's me. I need you to do something for me. 223 00:18:17,686 --> 00:18:21,895 I need you to collect Iris for me and I need you to look after her for me. 224 00:18:25,375 --> 00:18:27,636 Because I can't and you can. 225 00:18:29,063 --> 00:18:30,141 What's wrong? 226 00:18:31,568 --> 00:18:32,890 What's happened? 227 00:18:33,899 --> 00:18:36,891 Because I try and I try, and I'm just... 228 00:18:38,213 --> 00:18:39,256 not good enough. 229 00:18:40,648 --> 00:18:43,362 And she deserves so much better than me. 230 00:18:50,181 --> 00:18:51,607 So, that's it, really. 231 00:18:54,600 --> 00:18:56,305 Time to write my own ending. 232 00:19:05,699 --> 00:19:07,333 I know I'm a bad mom. 233 00:19:48,701 --> 00:19:51,380 - Costello Jones? - 107 Craybridge. 234 00:19:51,902 --> 00:19:53,503 Up? Gloria, up. 235 00:20:03,035 --> 00:20:04,531 - Costello? - Is she in there? 236 00:20:13,577 --> 00:20:15,699 - Costello? - Wake up! 237 00:20:16,708 --> 00:20:18,030 Hey, hey. 238 00:20:19,735 --> 00:20:20,779 How many have you taken? 239 00:20:21,684 --> 00:20:23,283 Get up. How many? 240 00:20:24,919 --> 00:20:25,893 Not sure. 241 00:20:26,624 --> 00:20:28,189 Make her chuck up, just in case. 242 00:20:29,163 --> 00:20:30,381 Where's Iris? 243 00:20:31,669 --> 00:20:33,234 Come on, we've done this before, haven't we? 244 00:20:39,044 --> 00:20:40,227 You're fucking disgusting. 245 00:20:45,029 --> 00:20:46,942 It's gonna be okay. Get it all out. 246 00:20:48,195 --> 00:20:50,735 I go to a mental asylum for five minutes and this happens. 247 00:20:51,987 --> 00:20:53,448 You're a silly bitch. 248 00:20:54,666 --> 00:20:57,623 - What are you? - I'm a silly bitch. 249 00:21:17,176 --> 00:21:19,195 Maybe this is who I'm supposed to be. 250 00:21:20,899 --> 00:21:22,430 And I should just accept it. 251 00:21:26,744 --> 00:21:29,040 Who am I to think that I could be something? 252 00:21:30,640 --> 00:21:32,171 It's just arrogant, isn't it? 253 00:21:34,781 --> 00:21:35,755 Problem is... 254 00:21:37,842 --> 00:21:39,339 you don't know your place. 255 00:21:40,974 --> 00:21:41,947 But... 256 00:21:43,583 --> 00:21:46,228 that's the best thing about you. 257 00:21:48,837 --> 00:21:50,403 A wise, old man once said... 258 00:21:52,176 --> 00:21:55,690 "Find what you love and let it kill you." 259 00:21:58,092 --> 00:21:59,483 I think that's good advice. 260 00:22:02,544 --> 00:22:03,623 Who said that? 261 00:22:05,502 --> 00:22:07,590 I don't know. Some old cunt. 262 00:22:13,434 --> 00:22:14,582 I wanna sit on your lap. 263 00:22:15,105 --> 00:22:16,844 - Are you all right? - Yeah. 264 00:22:18,514 --> 00:22:21,089 - Fine. - I'm sorry. 265 00:22:22,375 --> 00:22:23,872 You are everything. 266 00:22:27,490 --> 00:22:30,413 - You are everything. - Stop. Stop. Stop. 267 00:22:30,761 --> 00:22:32,048 - Stop. Stop. - Everything. 268 00:22:37,893 --> 00:22:38,902 You staying here? 269 00:22:42,868 --> 00:22:43,877 Don't know. 270 00:22:45,930 --> 00:22:48,156 - You going back to hospital? - No. 271 00:22:49,653 --> 00:22:51,670 I'm only 36. Too young to be perfect. 272 00:22:53,167 --> 00:22:54,593 Probably just do a law conversion. 273 00:22:57,098 --> 00:22:59,846 - But you're a nutjob. - Yeah. 274 00:23:01,482 --> 00:23:03,326 No, you're right, better suited to politics. 275 00:23:05,448 --> 00:23:08,023 Become an MP, respectable man. 276 00:23:09,484 --> 00:23:10,458 PM within a year. 277 00:23:17,938 --> 00:23:20,861 You know, I wasn't really trying to die, don't you? 278 00:23:25,906 --> 00:23:28,654 Suicide note and the pills would suggest otherwise. 279 00:23:29,071 --> 00:23:30,046 Yeah. 280 00:23:31,437 --> 00:23:32,447 Fair. 281 00:23:36,587 --> 00:23:37,561 She needs you. 282 00:23:43,337 --> 00:23:44,415 I... 283 00:23:45,216 --> 00:23:47,093 sort of do too. 284 00:23:52,348 --> 00:23:54,470 -"Sort of"? - Yeah, sort of. 285 00:23:54,470 --> 00:23:55,513 Sort of. 286 00:23:57,983 --> 00:24:00,732 Henry Miller was 44 when he first got published. 287 00:24:02,367 --> 00:24:04,212 Bukowski was 55. 288 00:24:05,603 --> 00:24:06,578 So, there we are. 289 00:24:11,518 --> 00:24:12,770 Do you think we're bad for each other? 290 00:24:20,042 --> 00:24:21,677 Junk food's bad for you. 291 00:24:23,208 --> 00:24:24,460 But I fucking love it. 292 00:24:30,305 --> 00:24:32,706 Well, I could stay here with you, maybe? 293 00:24:34,585 --> 00:24:35,559 Just for a while. 294 00:24:41,160 --> 00:24:43,839 Do you really think things could be any different?