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Jenny.
Jenny, Jenny!
Because I'm not covering for you, no more.
What are you talking about covering for me?
You froze on that shout this morning!
We think maybe you went back to work a bit too soon?
"We" is it?
The man on the phone, how much do you owe him?
It's ten thousand pounds.
No... no, no!
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Jenny! Jenny you're a paramedic, help her!
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Chris don't look at that!
Will you say something, please?
So everything's gone,
the savings, the rainy day pot?
What about Rosie's college fund?
I'm sorry.
Will you stop saying that.
And I knew something was up.
The other night, I haven't seen you like that since...
No Chris, that's not what this is.
-It's completely different. -The only difference
is it's Rosie lying there and not you, for a change.
-I wish it was me. -So do I.
God, Jenny.
What the hell were you thinking?
I wasn't.
I don't know how to describe it to you.
It's just that when I'm doing it feels like it's not me.
So who is it then, Father Christmas?
How long?
A couple of months.
It took off in earnest after the crash.
I suppose I wasn't doing as well as I thought I was,
as well as you thought that I was.
-So it's my fault. -No I didn't say that Chris.
How could you not hear her fall?
Or hear the glass smashing?
God knows how long she'd been lying there.
Any other bombs you wanna to drop?
Because now would be the time.
No.
Good.
Then maybe...
then maybe it's best if you go now.
-What? -I...
-I need to focus on Rosie. -So do I, I'm her Mother
Yeah and look where that's got her...
You promised me, Jen.
The day she was born you promised...
Just go home.
Probably gamble that away too.
Excuse me, could I have a cigarette please.
Sure.
Thank you, sorry to bother you, it's been a long night.
Your alright Love.
Thank you.
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Alright.
Tell me about this plan of yours then.
Come on.
Jenny, would you sit down please you're making me anxious.
So how much can this Nurse Flo get me?
What?
I don't know, just depends on how much you give her I suppose.
That's the problem isn't it.
I mean everything I've got on the wagon
it's worth peanuts on the street.
And the ketamine, maybe but even so, she'd have to be moving a lot of it
and charging a fortune to make a profit.
She does, believe me.
If I do it, how soon do I get me cut?
I don't know Jenny.
Is it days?
Weeks? Months?
-How long before I get me cut? - I don't know. I said I don't know.
Ok. So can you call her?
Can you call her for me and ask her for an advance?
Tell her you know me. Tell her I'm good for it.
God I wish I'd just never brought this up.
Your right. Crazy idea.
No, no it's not. It's not crazy.
You can make it work Sasha, please.
Chris doesn't even realise you've got a loan does he.
Look...
the compensation money, it's due anytime now,
I just need to survive the next few days.
If I can give these people something tomorrow morning,
then Chris never needs to know about the loan...
My kids in the Hospital, because of me.
And the man that I love is in pieces because of me.
And everything that we've got
and everything that we have ever dreamed about
is gone...
because of me,
and if I don't give these people
something tomorrow morning then something awful
is going to happen because of me.
Now I'm not fighting for myself,
whatever's coming, I can deal with it,
I can,
but I can't lose my family Sasha, do you understand me?
I can't lose my family...
Let me do the talking ok? Come on.
You're not an easy lady to get in touch with Jenny.
You've had plenty of warning about this,
this whole thing has been most inconvenient.
That being said, Miss Bertam, we were thinking,
a week's grace, perhaps two.
See it's just a simple cash flow problem.
Annoying? Yes.
Inconvenient? Definitely, for everyone.
Not for everyone dear, just for me.
Well, it's only a week.
It always is,
but time is money, you see.
my money and this money is due.
Would you like to say anything Jenny?
you were rather more verbose last time we met.
When you were begging, pleading with me to help you.
I can't give you what I haven't got.
So this... large sum you said you were expecting.
It's coming... it is.
I hope so because I'm the one taking all the risks here!
No credit checks, no collateral.
I've taken you at your word Jenny, something I never do.
Don't make me regret my decision.
Thank you Jimmy dear.
Perhaps these will convince Mr. Langley
to honour our agreement.
See to it will you?
People and their secrets.
Hello again.
How's your little girl doing?
Is something wrong Jenny?
No, I'm fine.
Oh I don't think you are.
Remember to breathe.
Look Miss Bertram you must be very busy,
actually, may I call you Connie?
You may not.
Well then let's cut straight to the chase shall we.
Jenny cannot pay you today.
An agreement is an agreement,
a deadline is a deadline.
And a threat is a threat, yes, she knows that.
Oh, you mean Jimmy?
More a friendly reminder service, but working yourself into a state
isn't going to help anybody is it?
And I suppose us girls do have to stick together.
I'll grant you an extension.
Thank you, an extra week?
-An extra hour. -An hour?
What's she gonna do with an hour?
I'm sure you will think of something.
That guy upstairs, the man, Jimmy, he was outside the hospital.
-Jenny, you just got to calm down. -No! You don't understand,
they've been following me!
Oh god this is a nightmare
-I've got an idea. -What?
Tara had many bad qualities,
but she excelled at collecting rich admirers,
mainly at airports,
this is from fiancee no.4,
this is from number five, or was it, was it number six?
I don't remember, I don't know.
I'm gonna' sell them.
Sasha you can't do that.
Well haven't you got any better ideas?
You heard the godfather up there!
Oh god! Rosie's gonna be waking up any minute now.
Ok, you go, I'll sort everything out.
Go to the hospital, now, go.
I... look I've,
I spent every penny in my wallet getting over to yours last night.
Alright... it's okay.
That's okay.
You... take this.
-No... -It's fine, it's fine.
Oh and, Tara, she used to always wear one of these,
especially on her bad days, she used to twang it,
and it would zap her back into focus.
I don't know, maybe it'll help?
Why are you helping me?
I don't know.
Guilty conscience?
I always felt I could have done more for Tara,
especially at the end, but...
Well you really,
really remind me of her, and maybe I could help you.
I don't know.
You go.
-Thank you. -You're alright. You're alright!
Where is she?
Sorry I'm Rosie Challoner's mum.
She's gone home.
-When? -Earlier this morning.
Okay, thank you.
Oh baby.
When I got to the hospital and you weren't there for a minute I...
Why didn't you ring me?
He did... five times.
What are you doing here?
I called her, we'll need covering at school.
Why didn't you call me Jenny?
Is she okay? What did they say?
She'll be seeing stars for a week or so, but...
as long as we keep an eye on her.
Keep an eye on her?
Feel like I'm never gonna let her out me sight again.
Jenny, we should talk.
I'll stay with Rosie.
You take as long as you need.
What the hell, Jen...
I don't even know what to say to you right now.
Then do me a favour...
don't say anything.
Did you tell Ali everything?
-All my business? -Where have you been?
You've obviously not been here!
Out walking, mostly.
All night?
I didn't go sprint to the nearest Casino,
if that's what you and Ali think.
Nothing you do would shock me anymore.
See that?
That's everything I've got left in the world
and I had to borrow that from...
From? From who? Go-on tell me!
Oh d'you know what I don't even care!
Sort yourself out before you go into work, you look a right state.
I'm not going into work.
I'm staying here to look after Rosie.
Until I can figure out how to fix the mess that you've got us in, Jen,
We're gonna need every penny we can get.
Now get that cleaned up, and go to work!
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SASHA: GOT THE £1K PAID TO CONNIE, SHE SAYS SHE'LL SEE YOU NEXT WEEK?
Do I have to drag you home myself?
It's a short shift, I've taken enough
time off already this year don't you think?
No-one in their right mind
would expect you to come in today anyway, it's sorted.
You look like hell.
I bet you've hardly slept have you?
I can't have a tired paramedic!
I'm Fine!
Rosie's fine! She just needs to rest and the last thing she needs
is for me clucking around her like a headless chicken.
That's exactly what she needs.
What are you trying to prove?
Is it that you're worried that this might spoil
your chances with the AP position,
that you might look... l don't know... unreliable?
Emergencies happen Jenny,
if they didn't we'd both be out of a job wouldn't we.
I said I'm fine,
I wanna work.
Jenny, we're up.
Thanks boss.
Listen...
I wanted to say thank you for last night,
you were absolutely amazing.
Yeah, I'm a superhero, remember?
Certainly are... it was just so insane,
it's mad to be on the other side of it you know?
Like, I never thought I'd react like that in a million years, I just...
my head went, I completely lost it.
I feel awful that you had to restrain me.
I just, every impulse was to run to Rosie.
I just wanted to pick her up and hold her.
You didn't though.
You didn't hold her.
You ran right past her.
We have an adult male, in a minor collision.
an 07TG, on Stenfold road.
I need you to bend this knee for me.
It's alright, it's alright. And this one.
Don't look so worried. It's alright, we'll take good care of him.
Get up nice and gently alright. Good, good, good.
On to the bus and get you something for the pain alright?
-What's you're name again? Lexi? -Lexi.
Lexi, alright well listen, don't you worry.
Now if you just grab this yellow bar.
Nice and slowly, good man.
Slowly does it. Right take a seat on here.
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Right two secs, I'll grab you something.
Good stuff, what shall we do for the arm?
I mean, he needs an x-ray doesn't he?
Yeah but shall I get an IV access now?
No listen, you drive and I'll jump in the back and give him some entonox.
-Jenny, he's in agony. -He's a drama queen.
Come on, you can do the nee naws!
Thank you!
Alright, how ya doing?
Alright... Are ya ready Raj?
Hi, you've reached Sasha Santoto, and I'm not around right now...
Five, six, seven, forty eight.
Listen mate, why don't you go home early?
-I'll finish this. -No,I'll be alright.
You should be the one rushing home anyway.
C'mon I haven't just finished a double shift.
I've got the car, I'll be back earlier than you anyway.
Go on, that's an order.
Fine... if you insist.
-See you tomorrow. -Bye.
Raj.
I...
I meant what I said before,
with Rosie I'm really glad it was you.
I appreciate it, thank you.
You actually did it?
It looks like it yeh.
How's Rosie?
-She's in one piece, thankfully. -Oh good...
How did it feel?
-Fucking terrifying. -I bet.
I've gotta be honest, I don't know how many more ticking clocks
I can keep in the air,
they ordered the stockroom every fortnight,
if I don't get caught before then?
Did you speak to the solicitor?
No. Well then let's hope no news is good news, right?
So how much am I looking at for it?
Ah, I paid a hundred.
A Hundred?
I'm gonna need ten times that!
A hundred each, I paid a hundred each.
Oh.
-Okay, okay! -Yeah.
-Well that could work couldn't it? -Yeah.
Hey...
What's all this?
Ground zero.
Last night I was so so angry with you.
You had every right to be.
But you know what I actually felt?
The moment I found out...
Relief.
Because at least it meant you weren't having an affair.
You think I don't see you tensing every time your phone goes off?
What was I supposed to think?
At least now I know who it was.
That's how they keep you hooked, gifts, bonuses, anything
that keeps you playing, they're... they're absolute leeches, Jen.
But you still got sucked in, you of all people!
Why didn't you just come talk to me?
Like you talk to me?
I can't believe you thought that I was having an affair.
Truth?
I really thought that I could win it all back
and I'd never have to tell you.
It's not about the money,
you know it isn't.
You, me, Rosie, we could all live together in a tent for all I care,
as long as we're together.
But you know what you're like, Jen.
You know you're susceptible to certain...
God, I don't know, behaviours.
And that's what hurts, that you hid it,
and then you lied about it.
I know about the re-mortgage,
both of them.
So I've got to ask,
what else have you forged my signature on?
It's fraud, Jenny.
Prison, once a month visits,
and Rosie getting ghosted in the school yard.
And if I keep quiet then I'm guilty too.
Do you have any idea the amount of shit you landed us in?
Are you gonna' tell the bank?
Is that all you can think about?
Are you gonna' tell the bank?
No. No, I'm not.
And it's not for you, it's for Rosie.
Because she's suffered enough, don't you think?
I'm gonna need your phone.
I don't trust you on the internet.
See if your sim fits any of these.
I'm gonna need your cards, debit, credit, store cards,
all the ones I know about and all the ones I don't...
If you need money for anything, you ask me.
Shopping, petrol, a bar of fucking chocolate, you ask me.
-Chris, please don't make me ask... -No I don't care, I don't care.
Your passwords, passwords, everything, you write them all down.
Everything.
If we are to have any chance Jenny, then this is the way it has to be.
You have your courage now Lion,
so the shadows can't hurt you,
they can't hurt you anymore.
I won't let them.
She'll be alright, it's just a nightmare.
I'll wait for her to get settled in,
and then I'll go into the spare.
I'll go into the spare, you shouldn't have to go.
No. It's easier if it's me.
I'll wake up early, tomorrow,
and come back here before she wakes up.
Ok, I'll let you get on with it.
Was it really the crash,
that triggered all this...
or was it me?
Did I do something?
I don't want you to think that.
I just need it to make sense, because right now, it doesn't.
What is it?
You.
That mind of yours...
everything's so straight forward in there isn't it?
No, nothing about this straight-forward.
That bunch of papers downstairs, I can make some sense of that.
It's just numbers, but, in here?
It's terrifying isn't it?
When things seem so out of control?
You've always been the same, y'know?
something's broken and you wanna' fix it,
because that's what you do,
because you're a fixer, it's what you're good at.
What's your point?
What if I'm the thing that's broken?
I don't think you can fix that,
not this time.
FINAL DEMAND FOR PAYMENT
It's as I said in the letter, Mrs. Challoner.
We can't finalise your claim
until the inquest verdict has been ratified.
So what's the hold up?
-It's a legal issue. -What does that mean, exactly?
I'm afraid I can't go into details.
The inquest ruled it was an accident though right?
Well this should all be over now I had to relive every detail,
we all did, in front of strangers.
I understand how upsetting it must be.
No, you don't.
We need to move on,
the verdict is the verdict.
I need to move on, my family needs to move on...
-Mrs. Challoner... -No, I need the money!
I shouldn't be telling you this,
but a relative of one of the deceased is challenging the verdict.
Believes the train company is culpable.
They have a right of appeal and that appeal must be heard.
This could take weeks, months... I'm sorry.
I've taken two hundred,
so that I can get the ring back,
or at least if they still have it, so that should leave a thousand,
so you're safe, for another week,
just eight more to go.
Correction, one more.
If they ordered that stock room
before the compensation money comes in,
I'm gonna lose more than me kneecaps.
So why don't you just go for broke
and stick it all on a horse?
Sorry, that's... actually not very funny.
Behave Sasha, change the subject.
So...
So what're you gonna do for Rosie's birthday,
-that's on saturday right? -Yeah.
She's still feeling a bit fragile to be honest so,
just something small in the house,
a couple of her little friends come over.
Why don't you... swing by.
Why on earth would she want me there?
-Not for Rosie! For me! -Oh right.
Honestly.I could do with a friendly face.
The sack cloth I am wearing is getting heavier, not lighter.
What are you giving me that for?
Well. I can't keep it!
And Chris is at home all day, I can't move.
I don't want it, I'm in deep enough!
I just wanna get Tara's things back,
get you clear, then that is it, the end.
-See ya later boss! -Isn't Raj helping you?
This one's my responsibility,
besides, he's got a hot date tonight allegedly.
It was him coming out of Lush.
Oh well maybe he'll pass some of them shifts on to you now.
-Yeah, maybe -Is Rosie's doing okay?
Yeah, she is, thanks to you.
Still the calmest port in the storm, eh?
Did Jacks tell ya that we trained together?
-They used to call us the dream team. -They did.
I'll help you with the inventory if you want?
-Be like old times? -Ah, thank you, but...
I'm just, I wanna crack on by myself,
I could do with the peace and quiet.
Charming, so, who's up for a spot for Karaoke?
-Boss? You and me? -Oh! I'm late already.
-Ree? -Gonna miss my bus.
-Lightweights. -Listen, don't look at me.
Raj is the only one with a hot date tonight!
I'm back in with Dr. Headfuck.
Blimey! They got you on a lifetime subscription or what?
Wait can she sing?
-Dr Headfuck? -Piss off Jacks.
-See you later. Have a good night. -See ya.
I've been doing a little bit of research on PTSD.
So, I read that sometimes,
it can cause addictive tendencies in people,
or it can awaken tendencies that were already there?
Is there something else you'd like to discuss?
Well in your experience... Do you think that's true, with some people?
Well, it's possible,
like most things in psychology, that's pretty much the definition.
Okay so, say I was a heroin addict,
I mean hypothetically speaking, obviously I'm not, but...
say I was addicted to heroin and I decided that I wanted to stop
and I stopped, I didn't feel like taking heroin,
I never wanted to take it again.
I mean would that be the end of it, because I've decided to stop,
or, or would I need something else to replace it?
I mean not necessarily another drug or anything like that, I just,
how would I know that the need that I was experiencing
was chemical, physical, as opposed to emotional or psychological?
I mean I was thinking what if, it was the rush that I was cravin'?
Like however that was delivered, what if that was the actual addiction
and that was something that I've always known that I had.
don't think I can sign you off just yet Jenny.
I spy something beginning with...
-Oh god I forgot the cake. -It's under the stairs.
I asked Ali to pick one up on the way over.
-How do you throw a party in space? -Thank you.
-Same as last year. -You plan it.
I'll get that.
Hi there, Deja-vu right?
Come in!
Thank you! We're just through here.
Yes there you go, it's ten points there.
Tell me.
I hate doing this, I do it all the time...
And there's creases everywhere.
Been working today?
What is it you said you did?
I didn't.
Oh Jenny said something about bags?
You got a website? I'd love to have a browse.
Don't you work at the same school as Chris, Alison?
-Yeah! -Yes, Nice!
Ali introduced us!
Yes, for my sins. And it is just 'Ali'.
Twenty years we've been friends!
That is frightening.
Anyone for any more!
Do you know what, I'd love to but I probably shouldn't.
I'm off to see Dr. Headfuck.
And a carrot nose, yes!
-The counsellor. -Didn't you see her yesterday?
Alright checking in on me.
I'd love another one please, Alison, thanks.
Ali, sorry.
-Hospital! No, doctor! Doctor! -Yes! Yes, nice one!
Counsellor?
Connie. I've gotta go and see Connie.
-Right.-I mean it's been terrible here.
-...because I am undefeated, so... -Ah, thanks.
-Cake time? -Yeah! Sure!
Oh, no, no.
You stay and talk to Sasha, me and Chris'll sort it.
Just checking Rosie is your child, right?
Look, I know what it looks like...
She can't have kids.
-Oh right. -I mean,
it's all she's ever really wanted and, you know she's amazing,
she's part of the family, we couldn't do it without her.
Rosie adores her, so what if she fantasises every now and again
that Rosie's her little girl, who am I to judge?
As long as that's not all she fantasises about?
Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday dear...
Peanut!
Happy birthday to you!
Make a wish and blow them out.
There's one more!
An there's one more little present for you to open young lady!
-No way! -Is it the one you wanted?
Exactly. Thank you Auntie Ali!
Actually hun, it's from all of us. Mum, Dad and me.
-And Sasha? -No, not Sasha.
Best Birthday ever.
You know when you're not wanted.
Have a good session.
Thank you. Thanks so much for coming!
-Bye.-Right see you guys... Take care.
You'll be back before she goes to bed, won't ya?
I'll do my best.
Did you know about the present?
-No. No, of course not. -What's she tryna' do?
Does she not understand what that looks like?
-You're overthinking it. -Am I?
-Yeah, yeah you are. -No, I already feel like shit Chris.
She didn't have to rub my bloody nose in it!
And why would she do that? Ali's your best friend!
Did you see her face when she opened it?
Well, she has been pestering us for months about it
-so course she's going to be happy. -I meant Ali.
Look, maybe it was a bit tactless.
But Rosie is the happiest and brightest we've seen her in days,
so who gives a shit who got her the bloody present or why.
-I give a shit! -Just be grateful
that Ali was able to do that.
Cause we sure as hell weren't.
A thousand.
Same time next week then.
You're short!
It should be twelve hundred.
-Since when? -The terms were clear Jenny love.
A thousand the first week, twelve hundred the next,
-fourteen the next. -For ten weeks?
That's nineteen grand!
I only borrowed ten!
Standard interest!
Hang on a minute you were the one that told me
I didn't need a credit check!
You were the one that said I didn't need a guarantor
and I wouldn't need any collateral!
If I'd have known that those were the terms I wouldn't ha...
Really Jenny?
Where do you expect me to get nineteen grand?
The same place you found that.
-No.-What about your mystery windfall?
Still no sign of that I suppose?
You sneaky cow. I see what's happening here.
This is... this is, some kind of... I don't know, like a...
A shakedown, yes dear, it is.
Come back with the correct amount.
I'm only paying what I owe!
You done?
It's okay Jenny love, you're allowed a bad day.
It happens to us all doesn't it.
Mr Langley had a bad day once.
He did didn't he?
But now it's gone.
Your one bad day.
Wouldn't advise a second.
Good girl.
Is it really?
Oh Jimmy, I'm gonna miss my program.
I like you Jenny, I do.
So I'm giving you the extra week
to come up with the rest of that instalment.
Bring it with the next.
Okay.
-Two thousand six hundred... -Eight hundred.
Interest on the extra week.
I... can't find it.
Unless you think that's unreasonable too?
Heavens, just a moment Jenny love.
I nearly forgot.
Here.
-What's this? -It isn't for you.
I hope she had a lovely day despite everything.
Ah, it's every mother's nightmare isn't it?
Something happening to her child.
So, you really need to cherish these years when they're young
because, just like that...
they can be gone.
TO ROSIE
Rosie.
The only proof that our hospital has of anything Jenny
is the information that we give them,
if that information is wrong then people die!
No I'm not dealing drugs.
That's exactly what you are doing, that's what we're doing.
If they are having an affair
you have to think where that leaves you.
Yeah it's probably 'bout the missing drugs.
What're you doin!
See, I knew you were up to something.
Your key!
-It's about Sasha, is she in? -No she's not, neither am I.
She is not who she says she is.