1 00:00:06,528 --> 00:00:11,141 MARLEY SHOUTING 2 00:00:11,185 --> 00:00:13,187 I've had to, like, keep reminding myself, 3 00:00:13,230 --> 00:00:15,015 obviously, he's seven years old, 4 00:00:15,058 --> 00:00:17,452 he's still learning to express his emotions, 5 00:00:17,495 --> 00:00:20,150 and we've just ripped him away from all he's ever known. 6 00:00:20,194 --> 00:00:23,501 I'm going for my full body baptism on Sunday. 7 00:00:23,588 --> 00:00:26,156 I feel like this is important to get back close to God. 8 00:00:26,200 --> 00:00:27,636 And obviously wash away all my sins. 9 00:00:29,203 --> 00:00:32,858 I dunno why or where or how my life is going so wrong right now, 10 00:00:32,902 --> 00:00:34,991 but it really, really is. 11 00:00:35,035 --> 00:00:37,167 Trying to find somewhere else, and it's not happening. 12 00:00:37,211 --> 00:00:38,777 There's nothing even coming up. 13 00:00:38,821 --> 00:00:40,866 Check tomorrow afternoon, check tomorrow tea time. 14 00:00:40,910 --> 00:00:42,651 I feel like you need to be more faster 15 00:00:42,694 --> 00:00:44,348 and consistent with it, Amber. 16 00:00:44,435 --> 00:00:46,829 The last two things she's done for school, you haven't shown up. 17 00:00:46,872 --> 00:00:49,397 There you go, that's my point. She just said that I've missed 18 00:00:49,440 --> 00:00:51,442 two of my daughter's school appointments, yeah. 19 00:00:51,486 --> 00:00:53,357 The reason I missed that... All right, I did forget, 20 00:00:53,401 --> 00:00:55,272 but Mia knows the sort of person I am. 21 00:01:13,464 --> 00:01:14,900 # You bring me up 22 00:01:14,944 --> 00:01:17,338 # You never let me down 23 00:01:17,381 --> 00:01:19,514 # You take the mess that I have made And you turn it around... # 24 00:01:19,601 --> 00:01:21,951 Excited? Yeah? 25 00:01:22,038 --> 00:01:24,910 # It's so simple... # 26 00:01:24,954 --> 00:01:27,130 'Today's a big day for Marliya. 27 00:01:27,174 --> 00:01:29,350 'It's her very first dance competition. 28 00:01:33,789 --> 00:01:36,792 'In mediation, Manley said he wants to come to Marliya's events, 29 00:01:36,835 --> 00:01:38,054 'but he just forgets. 30 00:01:38,098 --> 00:01:40,535 'I think he's coming today, though.' 31 00:01:40,622 --> 00:01:44,495 So, can we have our under-six beginners to the floor, please? 32 00:01:44,539 --> 00:01:47,716 'But, to be honest, I don't know if we're even going to make it 33 00:01:47,803 --> 00:01:49,152 'through the day. 34 00:01:49,239 --> 00:01:50,936 'Marliya's feeling poorly, 35 00:01:51,023 --> 00:01:52,808 'but she's been looking forward to this for months, 36 00:01:52,851 --> 00:01:54,331 'so we came anyway. 37 00:01:54,375 --> 00:01:56,942 'I'm giving her some medicine and hoping it passes.' 38 00:01:56,986 --> 00:01:59,162 I know that if we get home and she starts feeling better, 39 00:01:59,249 --> 00:02:00,990 she's gonna be upset that we didn't continue, 40 00:02:01,077 --> 00:02:02,992 so I feel like I'm gonna keep her here a bit longer 41 00:02:03,035 --> 00:02:06,082 and just cross my fingers that she starts feeling better. 42 00:02:06,169 --> 00:02:07,823 'This happens every few months, 43 00:02:07,866 --> 00:02:10,042 'and she's usually back to normal in a couple of hours. 44 00:02:10,086 --> 00:02:11,957 'But today, that doesn't seem like it's happening.' 45 00:02:12,001 --> 00:02:13,481 MARLIYA CRIES 46 00:02:13,524 --> 00:02:15,135 Do you wanna sit on my lap? Come here. 47 00:02:15,178 --> 00:02:19,878 I really don't feel very well. OK. 48 00:02:19,922 --> 00:02:23,578 She feels so, so poorly, and when she feels that poorly, 49 00:02:23,621 --> 00:02:25,319 I don't know whether it's a migraine, 50 00:02:25,362 --> 00:02:27,582 I don't know whether it's her belly, I can't work it out. 51 00:02:27,625 --> 00:02:29,758 But she'll just cry and cry, and there's nothing you can do. 52 00:02:37,374 --> 00:02:39,376 It's all right, don't worry. 53 00:02:39,420 --> 00:02:42,945 'We're both covered in sick, but I'm not sure what to do. 54 00:02:42,988 --> 00:02:44,555 'I want to take her home, 55 00:02:44,642 --> 00:02:47,819 'but I know she's been excited about this dance for ages.' 56 00:02:47,863 --> 00:02:49,604 Right, we're gonna wash this one and dry it. 57 00:02:49,647 --> 00:02:52,433 You can put this one for now. Yeah? 58 00:02:52,476 --> 00:02:55,349 You can't keep this on, you're covered in sick, baby. 59 00:02:55,392 --> 00:02:57,046 MARLIYA CRIES 60 00:02:57,089 --> 00:02:59,091 Bubba, crying isn't gonna make you better. 61 00:02:59,135 --> 00:03:01,398 Do you want me to carry you to the toilet? Yeah, come here. 62 00:03:01,442 --> 00:03:04,401 CRYING:No. No! 63 00:03:04,488 --> 00:03:06,098 Uh. 64 00:03:08,536 --> 00:03:10,146 I'm just hoping that she gets better 65 00:03:10,190 --> 00:03:12,670 so she can actually, at least, maybe do one dance. 66 00:03:12,714 --> 00:03:16,283 Next to the floor... under-eights. 67 00:03:16,326 --> 00:03:19,329 'I've changed Marliya's clothes, and although she is not 100%, 68 00:03:19,373 --> 00:03:20,722 'she is looking better...' 69 00:03:20,809 --> 00:03:23,333 Go on, Marliya! 70 00:03:23,377 --> 00:03:26,597 '..and she wouldn't have wanted to miss her dance.' 71 00:03:26,641 --> 00:03:28,904 MUSIC PLAYS 72 00:03:28,947 --> 00:03:30,645 Go, go, go, go, go! 73 00:03:34,997 --> 00:03:38,000 MUSIC CONTINUES 74 00:03:40,829 --> 00:03:43,048 Go on, Marliya! 75 00:03:43,135 --> 00:03:44,659 'I can't believe this is the same girl 76 00:03:44,746 --> 00:03:46,748 'that was throwing up half an hour ago.' 77 00:03:46,791 --> 00:03:48,880 Thank you to our under-eights. 78 00:03:51,231 --> 00:03:55,235 Yes! She did it! Well done! 79 00:03:56,932 --> 00:04:01,284 # It's gonna be a sunshiny day... # 80 00:04:01,328 --> 00:04:05,767 And our fifth place was 395! CHEERING 81 00:04:09,466 --> 00:04:13,557 Marliya won a trophy. I feel so, so, so proud. 82 00:04:13,644 --> 00:04:16,081 And that's all she wanted to come here for, a trophy, 83 00:04:16,125 --> 00:04:18,432 and she got it, despite having a migraine and throwing up. 84 00:04:18,475 --> 00:04:20,477 I'm so proud of her. 85 00:04:20,564 --> 00:04:22,566 # It's gonna be a sunshiny day... # 86 00:04:22,610 --> 00:04:25,003 Oh, what a morning. Bless her heart. 87 00:04:25,047 --> 00:04:26,614 # It's gonna be a sunshiny day... # 88 00:04:26,657 --> 00:04:28,093 She has always said from the start, 89 00:04:28,137 --> 00:04:29,834 when she found out about the competition, 90 00:04:29,921 --> 00:04:31,967 she wanted her dad here, and I'm sure she would've 91 00:04:32,010 --> 00:04:33,708 wanted him to be here to see her get a trophy. 92 00:04:33,751 --> 00:04:35,666 You got one! 93 00:04:35,710 --> 00:04:37,538 But the smile on her face is priceless, 94 00:04:37,625 --> 00:04:39,888 and I feel like the last thing she's thinking about right now 95 00:04:39,931 --> 00:04:41,237 is the fact that her dad's not here. 96 00:04:41,281 --> 00:04:42,717 She's just over the moon. 97 00:04:44,762 --> 00:04:47,243 # It's gonna be a sunshiny day. # 98 00:04:47,287 --> 00:04:49,289 Baby, I'm so proud of you that you've stayed 99 00:04:49,332 --> 00:04:50,942 and not gone home crying. 100 00:04:51,029 --> 00:04:52,988 You're a brave little girl, do you know that? 101 00:04:54,206 --> 00:04:55,947 Your dad didn't come. 102 00:04:55,991 --> 00:04:58,515 We might see him in the afternoon. He might come. 103 00:04:58,559 --> 00:05:00,474 Do you wanna call? You can call him if you want. 104 00:05:00,561 --> 00:05:03,303 He's only got one more chance cos it's my last show. 105 00:05:04,826 --> 00:05:06,218 OK, you talk, yeah? 106 00:05:06,262 --> 00:05:08,830 RINGING 107 00:05:20,929 --> 00:05:23,584 'It looks like he's forgotten about the competition. 108 00:05:23,627 --> 00:05:27,283 'I'm really trying not to judge. He does have a new baby.' 109 00:05:27,370 --> 00:05:29,894 This morning, it would've been good to have some help with Marliya. 110 00:05:29,938 --> 00:05:32,375 Like, she was so sick. I was on my own. 111 00:05:32,419 --> 00:05:34,725 And, obviously, he's then missed the whole morning. 112 00:05:34,769 --> 00:05:38,773 'He says he can come this afternoon. It will mean so much to Marliya. 113 00:05:38,860 --> 00:05:41,253 'And part of me feels bad that if we were in Middlesbrough, 114 00:05:41,297 --> 00:05:43,168 'he wouldn't be able to pop over quickly. 115 00:05:52,743 --> 00:05:56,268 Marley, do you wanna open the balloons with me? 116 00:05:56,312 --> 00:05:58,140 What? 117 00:05:58,183 --> 00:06:00,621 'We've been in our new house for less than a week.' 118 00:06:00,664 --> 00:06:03,275 Do you wanna open the balloons with me?Yeah, yeah, yeah. 119 00:06:03,363 --> 00:06:05,495 'And today, we're having a little get-together 120 00:06:05,539 --> 00:06:06,627 'to celebrate moving in.' 121 00:06:06,714 --> 00:06:10,108 Zero? Why is there a zero? Oh, let me see... 122 00:06:10,152 --> 00:06:12,372 No, where are you going? Where are you going? Come back here. 123 00:06:12,459 --> 00:06:14,156 Where is this going? 124 00:06:14,243 --> 00:06:17,072 No, it spells something. Don't get all of them out. 125 00:06:17,115 --> 00:06:20,075 M? Yeah. M for Marley. 126 00:06:20,118 --> 00:06:22,338 Got chocolate! 127 00:06:22,382 --> 00:06:24,471 Ooh, yeah. 128 00:06:24,558 --> 00:06:26,473 Are you gonna check all the boxes now for chocolate? 129 00:06:26,516 --> 00:06:27,909 # We're gonna have a good time. # 130 00:06:27,952 --> 00:06:29,650 Our... Our home. 131 00:06:29,693 --> 00:06:31,434 Yeah. Good job. 132 00:06:31,478 --> 00:06:33,654 'We've had so much unpacking to do, 133 00:06:33,697 --> 00:06:37,135 'but getting settled into a new house with so much more space, 134 00:06:37,179 --> 00:06:40,661 'has got me thinking about a chat me and Jordan had a few months ago.' 135 00:06:40,704 --> 00:06:43,490 Obviously, when we did our five-year plan before... Mm-hm. 136 00:06:43,533 --> 00:06:45,796 Did you put another baby in five years?Mm-hm. 137 00:06:45,840 --> 00:06:47,581 Whereas that frightens me still. 138 00:06:47,755 --> 00:06:49,974 We've always said when we've got more space and move into the house, 139 00:06:50,018 --> 00:06:52,020 it's something we... That just scares me even more. 140 00:06:52,063 --> 00:06:54,065 # You know that I love you, baby 141 00:06:54,109 --> 00:06:56,677 # You know that I love you Baby... # 142 00:06:56,764 --> 00:06:59,941 Wow. This looks... It does look really good. 143 00:06:59,984 --> 00:07:02,160 It looks good, doesn't it? It does look cool. 144 00:07:02,204 --> 00:07:03,945 I can't believe I'm actually saying this, 145 00:07:03,988 --> 00:07:07,165 but I do feel like, when I look round this house... 146 00:07:07,209 --> 00:07:11,039 it is missing another baby. 147 00:07:11,082 --> 00:07:13,781 Like, I don't think I'll ever be fully ready, 148 00:07:13,824 --> 00:07:15,609 but when is anyone ever actually ready? 149 00:07:17,001 --> 00:07:20,178 I do think that I am warming to the idea. 150 00:07:20,222 --> 00:07:24,052 'Jordan should be the first to know, so I'm just gonna have to dodge 151 00:07:24,139 --> 00:07:26,707 'any baby questions that come my way at the party.' 152 00:07:28,230 --> 00:07:30,580 Don't open that door, Marley. 153 00:07:30,624 --> 00:07:33,148 # You know that I love you Baby... # 154 00:07:33,191 --> 00:07:35,846 Have you been crazy? 155 00:07:35,890 --> 00:07:39,763 It's amazing! It's so good, isn't it?Yeah. 156 00:07:39,807 --> 00:07:41,939 Ah, well, thank you all for coming. 157 00:07:41,983 --> 00:07:43,506 Thank you for inviting us. 158 00:07:43,550 --> 00:07:47,510 Yeah. This is our first meal at the house with everyone. 159 00:07:47,554 --> 00:07:49,730 So, enjoy the food. 160 00:07:49,773 --> 00:07:52,559 Have a little tour round the house if you like. 161 00:07:52,602 --> 00:07:54,256 # You know that I love you Baby... # 162 00:07:56,998 --> 00:07:59,740 If the bed's gonna go on that wall there... 163 00:07:59,783 --> 00:08:01,350 so where will the cot go? 164 00:08:01,437 --> 00:08:03,613 Like, in this corner? 165 00:08:03,657 --> 00:08:06,573 No, in its bedroom, when the baby's here. 166 00:08:06,616 --> 00:08:08,009 No, when it first happens, 167 00:08:08,052 --> 00:08:10,533 you normally have 'em in the same room.Yeah. 168 00:08:10,577 --> 00:08:12,753 So, are you saying it like it's happening now? 169 00:08:12,796 --> 00:08:14,102 I... I can visualise a cot there. You are! 170 00:08:14,145 --> 00:08:15,756 I've got ages. 171 00:08:15,843 --> 00:08:17,453 I can see it now. Yeah, there's room. 172 00:08:17,540 --> 00:08:19,368 That's what they say, though. "New house, new baby". 173 00:08:19,411 --> 00:08:20,717 All this pressure. 174 00:08:20,761 --> 00:08:22,458 He'd be such a great big brother. 175 00:08:22,545 --> 00:08:23,938 Marley wants a baby more than any of us. 176 00:08:23,981 --> 00:08:25,635 Aw. See? 177 00:08:27,681 --> 00:08:29,421 And it in't as if you're on your own. 178 00:08:29,465 --> 00:08:31,511 There's people around you. Yeah. 179 00:08:33,382 --> 00:08:36,733 Mum and Terry are definitely ready for another grandbaby to cuddle, 180 00:08:36,777 --> 00:08:38,735 and I'd love to tell them the news 181 00:08:38,779 --> 00:08:43,087 that I am thinking that I am up for the idea, 182 00:08:43,131 --> 00:08:45,916 but I definitely need to talk to Jordan first. 183 00:08:45,960 --> 00:08:49,746 'I can't wait to tell him. He'll be over the moon.' 184 00:08:55,752 --> 00:08:57,798 # When will this window open? # 185 00:08:57,885 --> 00:08:59,408 HUDSON:Is that your plate? What? 186 00:08:59,451 --> 00:09:00,670 Is that your plate? 187 00:09:00,714 --> 00:09:02,977 No, that's Beth's plate. This is my plate. 188 00:09:03,020 --> 00:09:05,240 I'm not eating it. 189 00:09:05,283 --> 00:09:08,112 Well, you'll go bed hungry, then, won't you? 190 00:09:08,156 --> 00:09:11,289 'We've been living at Beth's for nearly two months now, 191 00:09:11,333 --> 00:09:13,944 'and I finally have some house news. 192 00:09:13,988 --> 00:09:16,904 'It's not what I wanted, but it is a way out of here.' 193 00:09:16,991 --> 00:09:21,212 My landlord has currently been sorting out my old house. 194 00:09:21,256 --> 00:09:22,866 He's got little jobs to do, 195 00:09:22,910 --> 00:09:25,477 such as obviously fixing the gas and the boiler. 196 00:09:25,521 --> 00:09:28,437 But if that house obviously becomes liveable again, 197 00:09:28,480 --> 00:09:30,961 the council won't find me another property. 198 00:09:31,005 --> 00:09:32,180 In their minds, it's like, 199 00:09:32,223 --> 00:09:34,008 "OK, well, that house is now available again 200 00:09:34,095 --> 00:09:35,313 "and it is safe, and all that, 201 00:09:35,357 --> 00:09:37,185 "so you and your kids can move back into there." 202 00:09:37,228 --> 00:09:38,752 I can't stay at Beth's forever, 203 00:09:38,795 --> 00:09:41,189 I can't go stay at my mum's or whatever. 204 00:09:41,232 --> 00:09:43,321 There's nowhere else for me to go, 205 00:09:43,365 --> 00:09:44,758 so I'm gonna have to go back to my house. 206 00:09:46,934 --> 00:09:49,327 'I'm not looking forward to it at all, 207 00:09:49,414 --> 00:09:52,243 'but at least it will help me get the boys back into a routine.' 208 00:09:52,287 --> 00:09:53,331 What's one plus one? 209 00:09:54,681 --> 00:09:56,378 Three. No! 210 00:09:56,421 --> 00:09:58,554 I've got one finger and another finger. 211 00:09:58,598 --> 00:09:59,860 How many fingers am I holding up? 212 00:09:59,903 --> 00:10:01,209 Two. 213 00:10:01,252 --> 00:10:03,167 Yeah, so what's one plus one? 214 00:10:03,211 --> 00:10:04,473 Three! 215 00:10:04,516 --> 00:10:08,042 No, it's two. Two. 216 00:10:08,085 --> 00:10:09,696 'My biggest challenge has always been 217 00:10:09,739 --> 00:10:12,176 'the nursery drop-offs with Hudson.' 218 00:10:12,263 --> 00:10:14,875 HUDSON CRIES 219 00:10:14,918 --> 00:10:19,053 No, no! Go away! 220 00:10:19,096 --> 00:10:20,707 Hudson, do you wanna play dinosaurs? 221 00:10:22,883 --> 00:10:25,276 'I'm at the end of my rope with everything.' 222 00:10:25,320 --> 00:10:28,584 # Beat slow, the drums play We step to the rhythm... # 223 00:10:28,671 --> 00:10:31,239 'So I've decided to swallow my pride and get Ste to help me 224 00:10:31,282 --> 00:10:33,154 'with dropping off Hudson. 225 00:10:33,197 --> 00:10:35,199 'If he thinks he's got the magic bullet, 226 00:10:35,243 --> 00:10:37,375 'then I'll take it.' 227 00:10:37,462 --> 00:10:39,595 Are you gonna press the big boy button? 228 00:10:39,682 --> 00:10:41,945 # Promise me You'll be there for me... # 229 00:10:41,989 --> 00:10:43,817 Whoa. AMBER GASPS 230 00:10:43,860 --> 00:10:46,210 Good morning! Hi. 231 00:10:46,254 --> 00:10:49,518 You're in a good mood. Are you being a good boy for Mummy? 232 00:10:49,605 --> 00:10:51,825 He's been amazing this morning. He's been really good. 233 00:10:51,868 --> 00:10:53,914 All right, you have the best day ever, yeah? 234 00:10:53,957 --> 00:10:56,830 And Mummy and Daddy'll come pick you up later. Yeah? 235 00:10:56,873 --> 00:11:00,660 Yeah? Say bye to Mummy and Daddy, then. Good boy. 236 00:11:00,703 --> 00:11:02,139 High five!Whoa. Love you, big man. 237 00:11:02,226 --> 00:11:03,880 See you later, man. See you later.Bye. 238 00:11:05,621 --> 00:11:07,884 It is much easier, obviously, with Ste being there. 239 00:11:07,971 --> 00:11:10,234 Hudson's gone in absolutely amazing. 240 00:11:10,278 --> 00:11:13,237 And it's so lovely to see because, obviously, he used to scream 241 00:11:13,324 --> 00:11:15,979 and kick his legs and, you know, shout really loud, 242 00:11:16,023 --> 00:11:19,026 to now him just going in quite pleasantly, 243 00:11:19,069 --> 00:11:20,418 like, it is a big improvement, 244 00:11:20,462 --> 00:11:22,377 and I'm really, really happy about it. 245 00:11:22,420 --> 00:11:25,510 The day just starts so much better when Hudson's like that, innit? 246 00:11:25,554 --> 00:11:28,296 Every Wednesday, Thursday, you gotta come and take him. Yeah. 247 00:11:28,339 --> 00:11:30,646 But then I am actually wanting to put Hudson in nursery, 248 00:11:30,690 --> 00:11:33,693 like, more often. Uh, yeah, yeah, yeah. 249 00:11:33,736 --> 00:11:35,564 So that's gonna be every Monday, Tuesday... 250 00:11:35,607 --> 00:11:37,348 Put him five days a week if you want. 251 00:11:37,392 --> 00:11:39,916 ..Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, you've gotta be up early. 252 00:11:39,960 --> 00:11:42,919 'I feel so much better when the boys are happy. 253 00:11:43,006 --> 00:11:45,705 'And even though I don't want to move back into the old house, 254 00:11:45,748 --> 00:11:47,532 'I'm hoping it will be good for them.' 255 00:12:00,632 --> 00:12:05,333 # Fire in my eyes, I was born to fight 256 00:12:05,376 --> 00:12:08,423 # Knock me down, I will get back up 257 00:12:08,466 --> 00:12:10,730 # I will not be denied... # 258 00:12:10,773 --> 00:12:13,994 Rrr... R. Ruh. 259 00:12:15,473 --> 00:12:16,518 Show me, show me. 260 00:12:18,476 --> 00:12:20,696 A-mazing. 261 00:12:20,740 --> 00:12:22,785 # I will rise to the top, Rise to the top... # 262 00:12:22,872 --> 00:12:26,746 'Me and Darren got Zena'ya a tutor to help with her schoolwork.' 263 00:12:26,833 --> 00:12:28,356 Right, wipe it out, just wipe it out, 264 00:12:28,399 --> 00:12:30,401 wipe it out, wipe it out. 265 00:12:30,445 --> 00:12:33,970 'Alison's been a huge help, and Zena'ya has been doing so well.' 266 00:12:34,014 --> 00:12:36,712 Are you ready? Drum. Drum. 267 00:12:36,756 --> 00:12:40,324 What can we hear first? Duh.Duh, duh. 268 00:12:40,368 --> 00:12:42,762 She even got Star Of The Week at school. 269 00:12:42,805 --> 00:12:44,981 No way! Seriously. Super proud. 270 00:12:45,025 --> 00:12:49,203 Do you know what? That is incredible.It is. 271 00:12:49,246 --> 00:12:51,553 I'm over the moon, and I'm super, super proud of Zena'ya. 272 00:12:51,640 --> 00:12:55,122 Basically, like, she got good drive, concentration is good. 273 00:12:55,165 --> 00:12:58,865 She's amazing. She's, like, put all the jigsaw puddle... puzzles in, 274 00:12:58,908 --> 00:13:00,301 and it's complete. 275 00:13:00,388 --> 00:13:02,390 She's... She's on the road to success. 276 00:13:04,261 --> 00:13:06,524 'I'm taking Zena'ya out to celebrate. 277 00:13:06,568 --> 00:13:09,005 'But she's not the only one who's been learning. 278 00:13:09,049 --> 00:13:11,442 'Ryda's been doing so well with his training, 279 00:13:11,529 --> 00:13:14,837 'and he and Zena'ya are the best of friends now.' 280 00:13:14,881 --> 00:13:16,534 Shall I give him another ice cube? 281 00:13:16,578 --> 00:13:19,102 Ryda, do you want another one? 282 00:13:19,146 --> 00:13:21,278 He probably thinks, "What is this?" 283 00:13:21,322 --> 00:13:22,366 He loves them. 284 00:13:24,716 --> 00:13:27,850 Was you scared of him when you first got him? 285 00:13:27,894 --> 00:13:29,809 You're not scared of him now, though, are you? 286 00:13:35,379 --> 00:13:37,251 Wait, Ryda. 287 00:13:37,294 --> 00:13:40,471 'They're getting on, and me and Darren are getting on, too. 288 00:13:40,515 --> 00:13:43,257 'Our communication about Zena'ya has gotten loads better.' 289 00:13:43,344 --> 00:13:45,041 PHONE RINGS 290 00:13:45,085 --> 00:13:46,347 Zena'ya, your dad. 291 00:13:46,390 --> 00:13:48,044 Hello. Hello. 292 00:13:48,088 --> 00:13:50,394 Have you got a few minutes to discuss Zena'ya's report 293 00:13:50,438 --> 00:13:51,874 from Alison? 294 00:13:53,876 --> 00:13:55,747 She's doing well with her phonics, erm... 295 00:13:57,140 --> 00:13:58,272 What? 296 00:14:00,927 --> 00:14:03,538 Right, well we're gonna keep up the tutor, aren't we? 297 00:14:06,236 --> 00:14:09,457 'I really feel like I've turned a corner in my life. 298 00:14:09,544 --> 00:14:12,199 'A few months ago, I was feeling so low, 299 00:14:12,242 --> 00:14:14,592 'and now, finally, things are starting to look up.' 300 00:14:14,636 --> 00:14:16,246 Ryda. Ryda! 301 00:14:25,734 --> 00:14:28,041 # Dance away 302 00:14:29,869 --> 00:14:31,566 # Dance away... # 303 00:14:33,046 --> 00:14:35,265 'Marliya's feeling loads better, 304 00:14:35,309 --> 00:14:38,225 'and she won a trophy this morning at her dance competition. 305 00:14:38,268 --> 00:14:40,270 'I couldn't be prouder. 306 00:14:40,314 --> 00:14:41,968 'Manley missed it, as he forgot the date. 307 00:14:42,011 --> 00:14:44,187 'But he is on his way now, at least.' 308 00:14:44,231 --> 00:14:45,928 For me, it's a good thing that he's not here 309 00:14:46,015 --> 00:14:47,669 because there's no awkwardness in the air, 310 00:14:47,712 --> 00:14:49,540 but, obviously, for her, I would've hoped 311 00:14:49,627 --> 00:14:51,281 that he would be here cos she wanted him here, 312 00:14:51,368 --> 00:14:52,848 and whatever she wants, I want. 313 00:14:52,892 --> 00:14:55,329 So it is disappointing, but it is what it is. 314 00:14:57,592 --> 00:15:00,116 'I don't think it should be my job to remind Manley 315 00:15:00,160 --> 00:15:02,466 'after I tell him when and where to be. 316 00:15:02,510 --> 00:15:04,077 'If we moved up north, 317 00:15:04,120 --> 00:15:06,862 'we would have to be a lot more organised about arrangements.' 318 00:15:06,906 --> 00:15:09,647 When Marliya called me on the phone, yeah, she was... 319 00:15:09,734 --> 00:15:12,563 sounded a bit disappointed with me, like, she asked me where I was. 320 00:15:14,130 --> 00:15:15,871 Just a bit disappointing that Mia didn't ring me 321 00:15:15,915 --> 00:15:17,351 and remind me this morning. 322 00:15:17,438 --> 00:15:19,701 She knows I would've been there from the start, 323 00:15:19,788 --> 00:15:21,921 but can't really blame her, can I? 324 00:15:22,008 --> 00:15:23,444 It's my own fault for forgetting. 325 00:15:32,061 --> 00:15:33,497 MARLIYA:Hee! 326 00:15:33,541 --> 00:15:35,238 Hey, little chick. Hi, Daddy. 327 00:15:35,282 --> 00:15:36,631 How are you? Good. 328 00:15:36,674 --> 00:15:37,980 You OK? Yeah. 329 00:15:44,465 --> 00:15:45,988 Let's go! 330 00:15:47,294 --> 00:15:49,383 'I know Marliya wants us to be friends, 331 00:15:49,426 --> 00:15:50,732 'but the best we can do right now 332 00:15:50,775 --> 00:15:53,953 'is stay on different sides of the room and not row.' 333 00:15:55,737 --> 00:15:59,436 # Even though it looks like I'm losing everything 334 00:15:59,480 --> 00:16:02,570 # Inside, I'm winning 335 00:16:02,613 --> 00:16:07,836 # Feeling like the first time, I'm only just beginning... # 336 00:16:07,879 --> 00:16:11,100 Thank you, dancers. Thanks very much to our beginners. 337 00:16:11,144 --> 00:16:12,449 Well done. 338 00:16:18,455 --> 00:16:20,762 Well done, chick. You look amazing, you do. 339 00:16:23,852 --> 00:16:25,419 You enjoying yourself? 340 00:16:29,118 --> 00:16:32,556 # I'm winning on my own... # 341 00:16:32,600 --> 00:16:34,384 'Marliya's dancing her heart out. 342 00:16:34,428 --> 00:16:37,083 'And I'm glad her dad's here to see it, for her sake.' 343 00:16:46,179 --> 00:16:51,227 # Nothing you can do Will ever, ever stop me shining... # 344 00:16:51,314 --> 00:16:52,402 Bye, Daddy. 345 00:16:54,143 --> 00:16:56,406 Love you, baby girl. So proud of you, OK? 346 00:16:59,670 --> 00:17:03,848 Brilliant. S-see you soon, all right? Love you. 347 00:17:06,851 --> 00:17:09,245 Bye, Daddy. 348 00:17:09,289 --> 00:17:11,856 # Can't hold my gaze And conversation... # 349 00:17:11,900 --> 00:17:14,903 'Manly has gone. That was short and sweet.' 350 00:17:14,946 --> 00:17:17,558 I have to go pick up Megan and the baby 351 00:17:17,645 --> 00:17:19,777 cos the baby's got a doctor's appointment. 352 00:17:21,997 --> 00:17:23,651 Think she was just happy that I turned up. 353 00:17:23,694 --> 00:17:27,698 Obviously, got to see her, got to see her trophies, and that. 354 00:17:27,742 --> 00:17:32,312 # Nothing you can do Will ever, ever stop me shining... # 355 00:17:32,355 --> 00:17:35,271 Today has had some real highs and some lows. 356 00:17:35,315 --> 00:17:38,361 Obviously, Marliya's migraines, but she got on with it, she did it. 357 00:17:38,405 --> 00:17:41,712 She is like a... Do you know what I mean? 358 00:17:41,756 --> 00:17:43,758 Obviously, Manley turned up for a little bit, 359 00:17:43,801 --> 00:17:46,282 and, obviously, when I think about moving to Middlesbrough, 360 00:17:46,326 --> 00:17:48,371 he won't just be able to pop in to things like that. 361 00:17:48,415 --> 00:17:50,765 But I will have to make a big effort for Marliya to come down, 362 00:17:50,808 --> 00:17:52,941 and I do need to have a conversation with him about it, 363 00:17:52,984 --> 00:17:55,770 but the communication is that bad, I literally can't. 364 00:17:55,813 --> 00:17:59,513 Like... So, I'm just gonna wait until things are more set in stone, 365 00:17:59,556 --> 00:18:01,210 see what happens, and go from there. 366 00:18:01,297 --> 00:18:04,518 # Watch me, I can climb higher. # 367 00:18:12,439 --> 00:18:16,312 # You're who you always were... # 368 00:18:16,356 --> 00:18:19,359 Right, Okey-dokey. Right, whose box is which? 369 00:18:19,402 --> 00:18:20,751 That's Brooklyn's. 370 00:18:20,795 --> 00:18:22,579 'Today's the day. 371 00:18:22,623 --> 00:18:24,799 'We're moving out of Beth's and back into our old house.' 372 00:18:24,886 --> 00:18:28,150 Right, so... need to take that. 373 00:18:28,194 --> 00:18:30,892 'She's away on holiday, and I've promised to be out 374 00:18:30,935 --> 00:18:33,590 'by the time she gets home.' 375 00:18:33,634 --> 00:18:36,027 Yeah, feel a bit like, ooh, you know, 376 00:18:36,071 --> 00:18:38,160 like a bit weird, like, packing our stuff up 377 00:18:38,204 --> 00:18:40,119 and actually bringing it out the house. 378 00:18:40,162 --> 00:18:41,990 Two blankets. 379 00:18:42,033 --> 00:18:44,645 'I think it's a bit more easier that Beth's not actually there 380 00:18:44,732 --> 00:18:46,342 'at the minute.' 381 00:18:46,386 --> 00:18:48,953 That's all we need for now. 382 00:18:48,997 --> 00:18:52,435 As much as I have loved staying at Beth's, 383 00:18:52,479 --> 00:18:57,266 it's also been very, very stressful having all those kids in one house. 384 00:18:57,310 --> 00:18:59,312 I'm not gonna miss that, if I'm honest, 385 00:18:59,399 --> 00:19:01,183 and I don't think Beth's gonna miss it either. 386 00:19:02,880 --> 00:19:04,055 Bye-bye. 387 00:19:05,448 --> 00:19:08,234 The time needed to come sooner rather than later. 388 00:19:08,277 --> 00:19:10,192 I feel like me and Beth was, like, starting 389 00:19:10,236 --> 00:19:11,933 to like annoy each other, I think. 390 00:19:12,020 --> 00:19:13,935 But now we can just go back to normal. 391 00:19:13,978 --> 00:19:17,939 # You live to feel the love 392 00:19:17,982 --> 00:19:23,553 # That won't ever change That won't ever change 393 00:19:23,597 --> 00:19:29,385 # You live to feel the ocean 394 00:19:29,429 --> 00:19:33,694 # You live to feel the waves... # 395 00:19:33,781 --> 00:19:36,566 'The council have said my old house is safe again. 396 00:19:36,610 --> 00:19:38,438 'But after two months of being away, 397 00:19:38,481 --> 00:19:40,788 'it almost doesn't feel like my home any more.' 398 00:19:40,831 --> 00:19:44,835 # It won't ever change. # 399 00:19:47,011 --> 00:19:49,536 'All I can think about now I'm walking in the door 400 00:19:49,579 --> 00:19:51,364 'is the near-death experience we had.' 401 00:19:56,020 --> 00:19:58,066 I remember that night, I just went upstairs, 402 00:19:58,109 --> 00:20:01,069 and as I came down I just got this big whiff of gas. 403 00:20:01,112 --> 00:20:03,071 I remember ringing the emergency number 404 00:20:03,114 --> 00:20:07,336 on the actual gas monitor, machine thing. 405 00:20:07,380 --> 00:20:08,598 And then they came out, 406 00:20:08,642 --> 00:20:10,731 and that's when it kind of escalated from there. 407 00:20:12,907 --> 00:20:14,778 I got it on. 408 00:20:17,303 --> 00:20:19,957 'Next minute, me, the boys and my mum...' 409 00:20:20,001 --> 00:20:21,524 Ow. Hurt me. 410 00:20:21,568 --> 00:20:23,526 '..we're all in hospital on gas tanks.' 411 00:20:23,570 --> 00:20:26,094 And... just a scary feeling. 412 00:20:26,137 --> 00:20:29,706 This is the current situation. 413 00:20:29,750 --> 00:20:32,187 I remember the gas man saying that we were lucky to be alive. 414 00:20:32,274 --> 00:20:33,449 Who wants to hear that? 415 00:20:33,493 --> 00:20:35,059 Especially when it involves your children. 416 00:20:39,977 --> 00:20:43,329 'But we're here now, and I've got to make the best of it.' 417 00:20:43,416 --> 00:20:46,419 Today, I need to just get things a little bit back to normal. 418 00:20:46,462 --> 00:20:50,161 You know, like, it's literally like cobweb central here, 419 00:20:50,205 --> 00:20:51,728 and dust central. 420 00:21:00,998 --> 00:21:07,048 # They say what they want But they got nothing on me... # 421 00:21:07,135 --> 00:21:09,964 The boys are gonna be sleeping here tonight, so I wanna make it 422 00:21:10,007 --> 00:21:12,401 as comfortable and as natural and stuff like that 423 00:21:12,445 --> 00:21:13,359 as I can for us all. 424 00:21:18,102 --> 00:21:20,975 Even though I don't wanna be here, like, as in, this house, 425 00:21:21,018 --> 00:21:22,629 I feel lucky that I am here still. 426 00:21:22,716 --> 00:21:24,413 You know, we've got a roof over our heads, 427 00:21:24,457 --> 00:21:26,459 so we have to be grateful for that because, you know, 428 00:21:26,546 --> 00:21:28,852 there's some people out there who don't. 429 00:21:28,939 --> 00:21:30,593 And I've got two beautiful children 430 00:21:30,637 --> 00:21:34,249 who are happy, healthy and fine, and that's all that matters to me. 431 00:21:48,829 --> 00:21:51,832 # Little fires don't make sense But they come when they... # 432 00:21:51,875 --> 00:21:53,660 I called the school that I want Marliya to go to. 433 00:21:53,703 --> 00:21:54,835 Yeah. 434 00:21:54,878 --> 00:21:56,967 They said there's a hundred kids waiting. 435 00:21:57,011 --> 00:22:00,319 Oh. Can we home-school her, then? 436 00:22:00,362 --> 00:22:01,842 Or you move to Southampton. 437 00:22:04,975 --> 00:22:09,153 # Dance in the rain Dance in the rain 438 00:22:09,197 --> 00:22:12,896 # I'll be right by your side 439 00:22:12,940 --> 00:22:17,161 # Dance in the rain Dance in the rain 440 00:22:17,205 --> 00:22:20,774 # Put out the fires tonight Whoa 441 00:22:20,861 --> 00:22:24,604 # Dance in the rain... # 442 00:22:24,647 --> 00:22:26,519 CHLOE:Mwah, mwah, mwah, mwah. 443 00:22:33,656 --> 00:22:35,963 'I feel like with all the school stuff, 444 00:22:36,050 --> 00:22:38,226 'I've been really hard on Zena'ya lately, 445 00:22:38,269 --> 00:22:41,229 'but she's really stepped up, and she's doing so well now, 446 00:22:41,272 --> 00:22:43,536 'so I'm treating her to a mummy-and-daughter day out 447 00:22:43,579 --> 00:22:44,798 'at a water obstacle course.' 448 00:22:46,756 --> 00:22:48,845 Are you excited? Yeah. 449 00:22:48,932 --> 00:22:52,153 I wanna jump off. You're gonna jump off? 450 00:22:52,240 --> 00:22:53,850 Like this, Mummy. 451 00:22:55,896 --> 00:22:59,856 She's brave. She's giving it all the... 452 00:22:59,943 --> 00:23:03,294 Well, I'm a bit scared, really, to be jumping off like that. 453 00:23:03,382 --> 00:23:05,035 But I'll do it with you, I think. 454 00:23:06,950 --> 00:23:09,083 One, two, three. 455 00:23:09,126 --> 00:23:12,042 Zena'ya, wait for me! I'm coming! 456 00:23:12,086 --> 00:23:14,741 SASSI LAUGHS, COUGHS 457 00:23:14,784 --> 00:23:17,308 You're a better swimmer than your mummy. 458 00:23:17,352 --> 00:23:20,311 ZENA'YA SCREAMS 459 00:23:20,399 --> 00:23:24,098 SASSI SCREAMS INSTRUCTOR:Three, two, one. 460 00:23:27,971 --> 00:23:29,233 Whoa! SASSI YELLS 461 00:23:30,844 --> 00:23:32,585 She really, really deserves to come out, 462 00:23:32,628 --> 00:23:34,238 let some steam off and have some fun 463 00:23:34,325 --> 00:23:37,285 because she's been doing amazing with her phonics, in school. 464 00:23:37,328 --> 00:23:38,852 She got Star of the Week. 465 00:23:38,895 --> 00:23:40,593 You fell. 466 00:23:42,986 --> 00:23:45,728 She's literally progressing so well. 467 00:23:45,772 --> 00:23:48,514 And, you know, sometimes it's hard cos I feel like, 468 00:23:48,557 --> 00:23:50,124 "Am I being too hard on her?" 469 00:23:50,516 --> 00:23:53,214 But clearly, it's paying off because she's moving in the right direction, 470 00:23:53,257 --> 00:23:55,259 and I'm really proud of her. 471 00:23:55,303 --> 00:23:58,828 SASSI SCREAMS Can't slide down here on me own. 472 00:23:58,915 --> 00:24:00,308 SASSI EXCLAIMS 473 00:24:00,351 --> 00:24:03,137 # My life, my life 474 00:24:03,180 --> 00:24:05,618 # There's no-one better Yeah, and I... # 475 00:24:05,661 --> 00:24:08,055 You wanna jump off, Zena'ya? Yeah. 476 00:24:08,098 --> 00:24:11,624 Really? Zena'ya, you're not scared? 477 00:24:13,234 --> 00:24:16,367 Three. SASSI SCREAMS 478 00:24:16,455 --> 00:24:18,326 SHOUTING: Go on, Zena'ya. 479 00:24:18,369 --> 00:24:21,982 Oh, my God, Zena'ya! 480 00:24:22,025 --> 00:24:24,811 You are so brave. 481 00:24:24,854 --> 00:24:27,291 OK, if I can do it, you can do it. 482 00:24:27,335 --> 00:24:28,554 'I'm not as brave as Zena'ya...' 483 00:24:28,597 --> 00:24:30,120 I'm scared, Zena'ya. 484 00:24:30,164 --> 00:24:32,122 '..so I think I'll just stick to the lowest jump.' 485 00:24:34,516 --> 00:24:35,996 We're gonna do this one together. 486 00:24:37,388 --> 00:24:42,437 One, two, three... OK. 487 00:24:42,481 --> 00:24:44,395 THEY CHEER 488 00:24:46,441 --> 00:24:48,835 Zena'ya, I love having fun with you. 489 00:24:48,878 --> 00:24:52,273 I'm just so proud of you, how brave you are. 490 00:24:52,316 --> 00:24:55,363 Love you, my little bestie. 491 00:24:55,406 --> 00:24:58,627 You're tired now. Definitely gonna fall asleep in the car. 492 00:24:58,671 --> 00:25:02,588 Let's go for steak and chips first. Come on. 493 00:25:02,631 --> 00:25:04,633 Do you know what? It was the perfect day. 494 00:25:04,677 --> 00:25:06,766 Like, I love spending time with Zena'ya anyway, 495 00:25:06,809 --> 00:25:08,681 and I love doing activities with her. 496 00:25:08,724 --> 00:25:11,771 But today was a perfect day. Perfect weather, perfect activity... 497 00:25:12,946 --> 00:25:14,034 Perfect. 498 00:25:15,905 --> 00:25:18,908 'Me and Darren used to do stuff like this together with Zena'ya, 499 00:25:18,952 --> 00:25:20,519 'but since the retreat, 500 00:25:20,562 --> 00:25:23,043 'I've been embracing being an independent woman. 501 00:25:23,086 --> 00:25:25,524 'Me and Zena'ya can have our own fun. 502 00:25:25,567 --> 00:25:27,526 'It's just a shame we couldn't bring Ryda.' 503 00:25:27,569 --> 00:25:29,615 Oh. It's so cold! 504 00:25:34,663 --> 00:25:36,622 # Baby, I ain't got the time... # 505 00:25:36,665 --> 00:25:38,493 I think Chloe's got an idea of what she wants doing. 506 00:25:38,537 --> 00:25:39,625 That wall's coming out. 507 00:25:39,668 --> 00:25:41,844 Everyone in our lives 508 00:25:41,888 --> 00:25:44,020 wants to know when me and Jordan are having another baby. 509 00:25:44,064 --> 00:25:45,805 Honey, come on. Come on. 510 00:25:45,848 --> 00:25:48,982 And I think I'm finally ready to go for it. 511 00:25:49,025 --> 00:25:51,288 But Jordan's been ready for ages. 512 00:25:51,332 --> 00:25:55,815 Watch your head on here. I've smashed this about four time. 513 00:25:55,858 --> 00:25:57,381 So, what's next after the house? 514 00:25:57,425 --> 00:25:59,383 Soon as that's all finished and I've worked my magic, 515 00:25:59,427 --> 00:26:01,037 is it wedding, baby...? 516 00:26:01,081 --> 00:26:02,691 Baby, I want a baby first. 517 00:26:02,735 --> 00:26:05,215 You need a little girl, don't you? Yeah, I want a little girl. 518 00:26:05,259 --> 00:26:06,652 Yeah, you're a big softie. Yeah. 519 00:26:06,695 --> 00:26:08,610 That's it. He is, he's a softie. 520 00:26:08,697 --> 00:26:11,700 I do, I want... Yeah, I'd happily have another baby before a wedding. 521 00:26:11,744 --> 00:26:14,964 I would love to have another baby, and I think now we've got the space, 522 00:26:15,008 --> 00:26:16,444 it's definitely time. 523 00:26:16,487 --> 00:26:19,055 But, yeah, I don't think there's any convincing Chloe. 524 00:26:19,099 --> 00:26:20,666 I'm not gonna pressure her about it. 525 00:26:20,753 --> 00:26:22,972 Obviously, she knows what I want, so the ball's in her court. 526 00:26:24,844 --> 00:26:26,628 I think the house warming's gone really well. 527 00:26:26,672 --> 00:26:28,630 I just love having, like, all the families together. 528 00:26:28,674 --> 00:26:30,197 Yeah, it's been nice, to be fair. 529 00:26:30,240 --> 00:26:33,243 What did you and the lads talk about, then? 530 00:26:33,287 --> 00:26:35,898 Everything. The house. Mm. 531 00:26:35,942 --> 00:26:38,553 Wedding. Babies. What answers did you get, then? 532 00:26:38,597 --> 00:26:41,121 Obviously, I, you know, everyone knows I want another one. 533 00:26:41,164 --> 00:26:44,037 When? ASAP. We're in the house now. 534 00:26:44,080 --> 00:26:45,691 Really? 535 00:26:45,908 --> 00:26:49,216 Like I said, I'm in the house, I'm happy to start trying. Are you? 536 00:26:49,259 --> 00:26:50,913 What're you thinking? 537 00:26:50,957 --> 00:26:53,612 'I was going to wait till after the party was over, 538 00:26:53,655 --> 00:26:57,093 'but since he's asking me now, maybe I should just tell him.' 539 00:26:57,137 --> 00:26:59,313 I go two-minded, but, like, yeah, 540 00:26:59,356 --> 00:27:01,924 I'm leaning more towards, like, "Why not?" 541 00:27:02,011 --> 00:27:06,102 # I do, I do, promise I do 542 00:27:06,146 --> 00:27:07,843 # I do, I do... # 543 00:27:07,887 --> 00:27:10,237 Are you being serious, then? Do you actually...? 544 00:27:10,324 --> 00:27:12,065 # I do, I do... # 545 00:27:12,108 --> 00:27:15,416 Yeah. Maybe baby number two is on the cards. 546 00:27:15,459 --> 00:27:18,680 # I do, I promise I do, I do... # 547 00:27:18,724 --> 00:27:19,855 Why not? 548 00:27:19,899 --> 00:27:22,031 Let's do it. Let's make a baby. 549 00:27:24,120 --> 00:27:26,340 Love you. Love you. 550 00:27:26,383 --> 00:27:29,822 # You and I are so unstoppable... # 551 00:27:29,865 --> 00:27:31,650 I thought Chloe was on the fence, to be honest. 552 00:27:31,693 --> 00:27:33,042 We've been busy the last few weeks. 553 00:27:33,129 --> 00:27:34,870 I didn't think she'd be thinking about it. 554 00:27:34,914 --> 00:27:37,830 But, yeah, really exciting. And, yeah, hopefully... 555 00:27:37,873 --> 00:27:40,267 we'll soon have a new baby in the house. 556 00:27:40,354 --> 00:27:42,965 # Unshakeable, we're shapeable... # 557 00:27:43,009 --> 00:27:45,838 I just feel like the luckiest girl in the world, if I'm honest. 558 00:27:45,881 --> 00:27:49,363 Like... all my dreams have come true. 559 00:27:49,406 --> 00:27:53,106 Me, Jordan and Marley are all healthy and happy. 560 00:27:53,193 --> 00:27:55,412 We're in our dream home. 561 00:27:55,456 --> 00:27:57,588 And it won't be straight away, don't get me wrong, 562 00:27:57,632 --> 00:28:00,679 but the thought of, like, a little baby in the house 563 00:28:00,722 --> 00:28:02,202 is really sweet, 564 00:28:02,419 --> 00:28:07,381 and I just can imagine Marley being the best big brother ever. 565 00:28:07,424 --> 00:28:12,168 TOGETHER: Five, four, three, two, one. 566 00:28:12,212 --> 00:28:14,344 EXCLAMATIONS BOY:Let's see it. 567 00:28:15,955 --> 00:28:18,174 # I feel love 568 00:28:18,261 --> 00:28:22,570 # I feel love In the clouds and skies 569 00:28:22,613 --> 00:28:26,966 # Heaven awaits for you 570 00:28:27,009 --> 00:28:30,665 # I'm sailing towards the blue... # 571 00:28:32,928 --> 00:28:36,279 Whoever finds the best shell... Whoever finds the shell first wins. 572 00:28:37,759 --> 00:28:39,500 # Free your soul... # 573 00:28:39,543 --> 00:28:42,677 'Marliya did so amazing in her first dance competition, 574 00:28:42,721 --> 00:28:44,026 'so to celebrate, 575 00:28:44,113 --> 00:28:46,202 'I've taken her to the seaside near Middlesbrough. 576 00:28:46,246 --> 00:28:48,030 'Holly's not here, 577 00:28:48,074 --> 00:28:50,337 'but it's a great chance to get to know the place better.' 578 00:28:50,424 --> 00:28:52,121 I found one. Let me see. 579 00:28:52,165 --> 00:28:54,733 Found one before you. Yay! 580 00:28:54,776 --> 00:28:56,822 'I really want Marliya to like it here...' 581 00:28:56,865 --> 00:28:58,171 Wow. 582 00:28:58,649 --> 00:29:00,739 '..but I don't wanna tell her we're moving till it's a definite. 583 00:29:00,826 --> 00:29:02,349 'But I've got a dilemma. 584 00:29:02,392 --> 00:29:04,655 'Ollie's found an amazing house, 585 00:29:04,699 --> 00:29:06,701 'and he wants me to see it before we go back south.' 586 00:29:09,356 --> 00:29:11,750 # Love yourself. # 587 00:29:11,793 --> 00:29:13,664 Ollie has gone and seen this house, and he's like, 588 00:29:13,752 --> 00:29:15,449 "We need it, I want it, I love it." 589 00:29:15,536 --> 00:29:17,886 So I need to go and see it, but, obviously, I've got Marliya, 590 00:29:17,930 --> 00:29:19,758 so I don't wanna go see it and be like, 591 00:29:19,801 --> 00:29:21,411 "Oh, we're looking at this house for us." 592 00:29:21,455 --> 00:29:23,762 Because I'm not ready for her to know we're moving yet. 593 00:29:23,805 --> 00:29:26,721 A lot does hang in the balance or this weekend. 594 00:29:26,808 --> 00:29:28,549 Like, sort of our future, 595 00:29:28,679 --> 00:29:31,247 because imagine if Marliya decides that she absolutely hates it here, 596 00:29:31,291 --> 00:29:33,075 doesn't like it... 597 00:29:33,119 --> 00:29:34,773 I don't... I genuinely don't know what I would do. 598 00:29:39,038 --> 00:29:40,996 'We've got to see the house, 599 00:29:41,040 --> 00:29:43,433 'so I'm just going to have to be careful with what I say about it. 600 00:29:43,477 --> 00:29:47,133 'And cross my fingers and toes she doesn't catch on.' 601 00:29:47,176 --> 00:29:49,396 So, what are we doing now, right now? 602 00:29:49,439 --> 00:29:52,051 Right now, we're going to look at the house quickly. 603 00:29:53,748 --> 00:29:57,926 OK, what am I gonna... What are we going to do while we're there? 604 00:29:58,013 --> 00:29:59,623 No, we're just going to have a look quickly. 605 00:29:59,667 --> 00:30:02,148 Yeah, OK, now I understand. 606 00:30:02,235 --> 00:30:03,802 # Hit it 607 00:30:05,760 --> 00:30:09,503 # Don't stop it soon Won't have to wait for noon 608 00:30:09,546 --> 00:30:12,723 # When you can tell me nothing Na-na-na... # 609 00:30:12,767 --> 00:30:14,203 Wow, Marliya, look! 610 00:30:14,247 --> 00:30:17,250 Mum, what are these? Olives. 611 00:30:17,293 --> 00:30:18,947 Your favourite. 612 00:30:19,034 --> 00:30:23,212 # Na-na-nah Oh, na-na-na... # 613 00:30:23,256 --> 00:30:24,735 How is the TV on? 614 00:30:24,823 --> 00:30:27,564 Well, because it's just showing you what it's like. Look at it. 615 00:30:27,608 --> 00:30:29,175 Wanna go look upstairs? Yeah. 616 00:30:29,262 --> 00:30:30,916 # Oh, na-na-na Hey! 617 00:30:33,179 --> 00:30:35,094 # Oh, na-na-na Hey! # 618 00:30:35,181 --> 00:30:38,227 'I love it. It's better than I ever dreamed of.' 619 00:30:38,271 --> 00:30:39,925 # You ain't Gonna stop me killin' it... # 620 00:30:39,968 --> 00:30:42,231 'But I can never second-guess what Marliya thinks.' 621 00:30:42,275 --> 00:30:43,842 # You can see They're all feelin' it... # 622 00:30:43,929 --> 00:30:46,540 Oh, my goodness. 623 00:30:46,627 --> 00:30:48,455 It's too small. What? 624 00:30:50,283 --> 00:30:51,588 Too... How is this too small? 625 00:30:51,632 --> 00:30:54,113 # I am the one and only You can't... # 626 00:30:54,156 --> 00:30:56,158 Right, well, shall we go look in the other room? 627 00:30:56,245 --> 00:31:00,206 # Go ahead, you can try Baby, you're only missing... # 628 00:31:00,249 --> 00:31:03,296 But this could definitely be your room. 629 00:31:03,339 --> 00:31:04,166 What about your room? 630 00:31:05,254 --> 00:31:06,560 No. 631 00:31:06,603 --> 00:31:09,650 'I don't think she's figured out why we're here, 632 00:31:09,693 --> 00:31:11,434 'but it is odd she's saying this.' 633 00:31:11,478 --> 00:31:13,872 Right, well... Let's get out of here. 634 00:31:13,959 --> 00:31:17,614 Come, now, let's get out. Bye, house. We've gotta go. 635 00:31:17,658 --> 00:31:21,662 # Want you to be mine But don't waste my time 636 00:31:21,705 --> 00:31:22,968 # Don't waste my time... # 637 00:31:23,011 --> 00:31:24,883 I think she thought it was, like, a game. 638 00:31:24,926 --> 00:31:27,233 So, to her, it was like a game. "Let's go and find this and that." 639 00:31:27,320 --> 00:31:28,843 She just wanted to get out of there. 640 00:31:28,887 --> 00:31:30,410 By the time she was done, she wanted to leave. 641 00:31:32,064 --> 00:31:36,807 # Now the days run on forever There's no further left to fall 642 00:31:36,851 --> 00:31:39,462 # All the lives and all... # 643 00:31:39,506 --> 00:31:41,725 That wasn't the reaction I was hoping for. 644 00:31:41,769 --> 00:31:43,945 I need to know what she really thinks. 645 00:31:43,989 --> 00:31:46,861 What do you think of Middlesbrough so far? 646 00:31:46,905 --> 00:31:48,123 Yeah, it's good. 647 00:31:48,167 --> 00:31:50,212 Yeah, do you like it? Yeah. 648 00:31:50,256 --> 00:31:51,344 I'm glad you like it here. 649 00:31:51,387 --> 00:31:52,911 Do you know why? Why? 650 00:31:52,998 --> 00:31:54,738 Cos I love it here so much, so cos I love it, 651 00:31:54,782 --> 00:31:56,740 I want you to love it, too. Yep. 652 00:31:58,568 --> 00:32:00,657 So, if we lived here, we'd have to get a house here, wouldn't we? 653 00:32:00,701 --> 00:32:01,920 Mm-hm. 654 00:32:01,963 --> 00:32:04,923 And then you'd go to a school here. Yeah. 655 00:32:04,966 --> 00:32:08,752 # All is not lost 656 00:32:08,796 --> 00:32:09,928 # All is not lost... # 657 00:32:09,971 --> 00:32:11,233 Can we live here? 658 00:32:11,277 --> 00:32:14,236 MIA GASPS # Is this getting better? # 659 00:32:14,280 --> 00:32:16,586 You wanna live here? Yeah. 660 00:32:16,630 --> 00:32:17,892 Would you? Yeah. 661 00:32:17,979 --> 00:32:19,154 # It is 662 00:32:19,198 --> 00:32:22,375 # I've never Felt like this before... # 663 00:32:22,418 --> 00:32:25,247 'I can't believe it. She wants to move here.' 664 00:32:26,640 --> 00:32:29,208 Now that we've been and Marliya had the best time ever, 665 00:32:29,295 --> 00:32:30,600 I feel so confident 666 00:32:30,644 --> 00:32:32,515 that Middlesbrough could potentially be somewhere 667 00:32:32,602 --> 00:32:33,821 that we start a new life together. 668 00:32:33,908 --> 00:32:35,344 Obviously, in the near future, 669 00:32:35,431 --> 00:32:37,520 I'll have a conversation with Manley and tell him, 670 00:32:37,564 --> 00:32:39,914 but for now, I'm just gonna manifest the future. 671 00:32:40,001 --> 00:32:43,309 Ring on my finger, maybe babies. 672 00:32:43,352 --> 00:32:45,964 This could really finally be my happy ending. 673 00:32:46,007 --> 00:32:48,401 I'm manifesting. Like, this could be it for me now. 674 00:33:00,456 --> 00:33:04,025 # Never been that kid Who's scared of the thunder 675 00:33:06,114 --> 00:33:10,031 # Used to wait For the lightning to strike... # 676 00:33:10,118 --> 00:33:12,294 How do you think I should have my hair, Zena'ya? 677 00:33:12,338 --> 00:33:13,730 Down? Yeah. 678 00:33:13,774 --> 00:33:16,733 Half up, or half down, or all down? All down. 679 00:33:16,777 --> 00:33:18,126 For the last few months, 680 00:33:18,170 --> 00:33:20,650 I've really felt like I was on a downward spiral. 681 00:33:20,694 --> 00:33:25,394 Now you look like a rock star. A rock star? That's not good. 682 00:33:25,438 --> 00:33:27,440 'Nothing was going right for me.' 683 00:33:27,483 --> 00:33:30,095 Last night, I got home, and I was sat down, 684 00:33:30,138 --> 00:33:33,054 and it really hit me, like, I'm alone. 685 00:33:33,098 --> 00:33:36,840 Like, I'm actually SO alone. 686 00:33:36,884 --> 00:33:39,582 Sounds like you're moaning about everything... everything I do. 687 00:33:39,626 --> 00:33:41,671 You feel like I'm attacking you, but I'm not. 688 00:33:41,758 --> 00:33:43,978 You are, like I'm not doing a proper job.No, but I'm not. 689 00:33:44,022 --> 00:33:45,893 Shut up, man. Who said that? 690 00:33:45,936 --> 00:33:48,591 I'm going. Chill out, mate. 691 00:33:48,635 --> 00:33:51,420 Just don't know what's wrong with me no more. 692 00:33:51,464 --> 00:33:53,553 I feel really sad all the time. 693 00:33:53,596 --> 00:33:57,426 'And I thought I'd hit rock bottom, so I went to that retreat.' 694 00:33:57,470 --> 00:34:03,563 Welcome, everybody, to this elemental retreat. 695 00:34:03,606 --> 00:34:05,478 Bye-bye, negativity. 696 00:34:05,521 --> 00:34:09,177 Here's to a new, positive, self-loving Sassi. 697 00:34:10,613 --> 00:34:13,094 Since then, I've been working so hard on myself, 698 00:34:13,138 --> 00:34:16,184 and I can honestly see the results. 699 00:34:16,271 --> 00:34:20,145 Zena'ya's doing well in school, I've got Ryda to keep me company, 700 00:34:20,188 --> 00:34:22,495 and I feel so good in myself. 701 00:34:22,582 --> 00:34:24,410 Do you think my hair looks nice like this? 702 00:34:24,453 --> 00:34:25,672 'I really wanna draw a line 703 00:34:25,715 --> 00:34:28,066 'between the old Sassi and the new, improved one, 704 00:34:28,109 --> 00:34:31,895 'so today, I'm doing a full-body baptism.' 705 00:34:31,982 --> 00:34:33,723 I have felt quite disconnected, 706 00:34:33,767 --> 00:34:36,813 so this is just my way to wipe the slate clean 707 00:34:36,900 --> 00:34:38,554 and start a fresh relationship with God. 708 00:34:40,382 --> 00:34:43,864 Hello, Zena'ya. Where's Mummy? She's upstairs. 709 00:34:48,216 --> 00:34:49,435 Am I? 710 00:34:51,393 --> 00:34:53,352 A big sunshine. 711 00:34:55,963 --> 00:34:58,835 Zena'ya said to me, "My mummy looks like an angel." 712 00:34:58,879 --> 00:35:00,010 I said, "She is an angel." 713 00:35:00,098 --> 00:35:04,014 And you're right, she looks like a pure angel. 714 00:35:04,058 --> 00:35:06,495 'I feel like I've faced a lot of my demons now.' 715 00:35:06,539 --> 00:35:09,019 Are you excited? Yeah, I'm excited. 716 00:35:09,063 --> 00:35:13,154 'And I'm ready to say goodbye to the lonely, sad Sassi.' 717 00:35:13,198 --> 00:35:17,289 # Baby, we're in bloom In bloom... # 718 00:35:17,332 --> 00:35:19,682 So, everybody, this is Sassi. Hi, everyone. 719 00:35:19,726 --> 00:35:21,641 CHUCKLES 720 00:35:21,728 --> 00:35:23,425 Today's the big day, 721 00:35:23,730 --> 00:35:26,646 and perhaps I'll just explain what's going on and why we do this thing. 722 00:35:26,689 --> 00:35:30,911 When someone wants to make this commitment of following Jesus, 723 00:35:30,954 --> 00:35:33,261 then the traditional way that we've done that 724 00:35:33,305 --> 00:35:35,524 is for someone to go into the water. 725 00:35:35,568 --> 00:35:38,266 It's a bit like a grave. You're going down to the ground. 726 00:35:38,310 --> 00:35:41,226 And you're gonna come back as the new Sassi. 727 00:35:41,313 --> 00:35:43,576 So there's something here about life 728 00:35:43,619 --> 00:35:47,319 and the old life that we leave being washed away, 729 00:35:47,362 --> 00:35:50,017 and you're made clean. 730 00:35:50,060 --> 00:35:53,368 I've changed so much over the years. 731 00:35:53,412 --> 00:35:57,329 And maybe everybody else has still got the picture of Sassi, 732 00:35:57,372 --> 00:36:00,506 whoever they see her to be, in their head. 733 00:36:00,549 --> 00:36:02,203 When I come up from that water... 734 00:36:03,987 --> 00:36:07,208 ..you know, I'm... I'm... I'm starting a new journey. 735 00:36:10,168 --> 00:36:14,302 So, Sassi, do you believe in one God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit? 736 00:36:14,346 --> 00:36:16,870 I do. This is God, who I trust. 737 00:36:16,913 --> 00:36:20,526 Do you confess Jesus Christ as your Lord and Saviour? 738 00:36:20,613 --> 00:36:24,094 I do. He has saved me and called me by my name. 739 00:36:24,138 --> 00:36:27,141 Do you turn from sin, renounce evil, 740 00:36:27,185 --> 00:36:29,796 the Devil and all his empty promises, 741 00:36:29,839 --> 00:36:31,841 and intend to follow Christ? 742 00:36:31,885 --> 00:36:34,801 I do. Christ is my way, he is the truth, and he is my life. 743 00:36:36,281 --> 00:36:38,935 So, then, Sassi, we've heard of your repentance of faith. 744 00:36:39,022 --> 00:36:40,502 We now baptise you 745 00:36:40,546 --> 00:36:43,375 in the name of God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. 746 00:36:43,462 --> 00:36:45,072 Amen. Amen. Here we go. 747 00:36:50,208 --> 00:36:54,647 CHEERING AND APPLAUSE 748 00:36:54,690 --> 00:36:56,083 'I feel refreshed. 749 00:36:56,126 --> 00:37:00,174 'I feel like my relationship with God is restored.' 750 00:37:00,218 --> 00:37:02,220 I feel like when I come back from that retreat, 751 00:37:02,263 --> 00:37:04,265 it really give me a wake-up call that I needed. 752 00:37:04,309 --> 00:37:06,746 And I thought, "You know what? I can't continue along this way." 753 00:37:06,789 --> 00:37:09,357 You know, really learnt a lot about myself. 754 00:37:09,401 --> 00:37:12,055 And... I'm just so happy. 755 00:37:12,099 --> 00:37:15,102 'Mum knows how hard things have been for me, 756 00:37:15,145 --> 00:37:18,366 'so it means so much to me that she helped with the baptism. 757 00:37:18,410 --> 00:37:21,282 'And I'm glad we thought to bring a change of clothes.' 758 00:37:21,326 --> 00:37:23,632 I thought that was really, really special, that. 759 00:37:23,676 --> 00:37:26,896 So do I. It got, like, a tingling feeling. 760 00:37:26,940 --> 00:37:30,335 Yeah, no, and... and d'you know, it really did feel special. 761 00:37:30,378 --> 00:37:32,641 Like, I do feel different, actually. 762 00:37:32,728 --> 00:37:35,035 The start of the year, I was probably... 763 00:37:35,078 --> 00:37:36,819 I thought that was the end... 764 00:37:36,906 --> 00:37:39,779 SASSI CHUCKLES ..of me, I'm not joking. 765 00:37:39,822 --> 00:37:41,476 Thought, "I can't do this any more. 766 00:37:41,563 --> 00:37:43,391 "I can't take one more bad thing, I can't." 767 00:37:43,478 --> 00:37:45,001 But do you know what? 768 00:37:45,088 --> 00:37:47,308 You always bounce back. Yeah, I always bounce back. 769 00:37:47,352 --> 00:37:49,397 And just keep trying and just keep trying. 770 00:37:49,441 --> 00:37:52,531 So many things could've happened from me having a child at this age, 771 00:37:52,574 --> 00:37:53,967 and all I've ever done is succeed. 772 00:37:55,664 --> 00:37:58,754 Me and my child are in a good place, I'm in a good place, 773 00:37:58,798 --> 00:38:00,190 got my little dog at home. 774 00:38:00,234 --> 00:38:01,888 Little? SASSI CHUCKLES 775 00:38:01,931 --> 00:38:04,020 It's like the size of a donkey. 776 00:38:04,064 --> 00:38:07,154 I'm so happy and content with my life, and I'm just... 777 00:38:07,197 --> 00:38:09,504 Whatever comes is meant for me, 778 00:38:09,548 --> 00:38:11,637 and whatever's not, something better will come, 779 00:38:11,680 --> 00:38:13,073 you know what I mean? So... 780 00:38:14,553 --> 00:38:15,641 ..I just think... 781 00:38:17,730 --> 00:38:19,558 ..here we go. 782 00:38:19,601 --> 00:38:21,168 Let's start a new journey. 783 00:38:33,963 --> 00:38:37,837 CHILDREN GIGGLE Hudson, Brooklyn. 784 00:38:37,880 --> 00:38:39,795 'I've made the house all nice for the boys, 785 00:38:39,839 --> 00:38:41,841 'thinking they'll be happy to be home 786 00:38:41,884 --> 00:38:43,495 'and we can have a chill evening. 787 00:38:43,538 --> 00:38:46,411 'But now that they're here, it's a totally different story.' 788 00:38:46,498 --> 00:38:48,413 CHILDREN GIGGLE 789 00:38:48,456 --> 00:38:50,197 Oi, don't kick me. 790 00:38:50,240 --> 00:38:53,287 Right, come on, let's go. Let's go! Brooklyn, up. 791 00:38:53,331 --> 00:38:55,768 'The kitchen's still a mess, so I've got some takeaway tonight.' 792 00:38:55,811 --> 00:38:57,422 Right, move. 793 00:38:57,465 --> 00:38:59,859 'But I do want them to sit at the table and eat properly.' 794 00:38:59,902 --> 00:39:01,948 Oi! Don't you dare. 795 00:39:01,991 --> 00:39:03,950 BROOKLYN SCREAMS Brooklyn! 796 00:39:03,993 --> 00:39:05,865 HE SHOUTS 797 00:39:05,908 --> 00:39:07,867 Get back here now, both of you. Right now! 798 00:39:09,042 --> 00:39:11,479 CHILDREN LAUGH Right. 799 00:39:12,959 --> 00:39:16,658 CHILD BABBLES 800 00:39:16,745 --> 00:39:19,661 Brooklyn, stop it! 801 00:39:19,705 --> 00:39:21,750 It's not football no more. 802 00:39:21,794 --> 00:39:23,709 BOYS SCREAM No, I'm not putting up with this. 803 00:39:23,752 --> 00:39:25,711 Are you gonna be good? No! 804 00:39:25,754 --> 00:39:28,061 Been an absolute nightmare since I've been back. 805 00:39:28,104 --> 00:39:29,845 You should know better. 806 00:39:29,889 --> 00:39:32,239 Them two together, like, they're just fighting all the time. 807 00:39:32,282 --> 00:39:34,850 Stop it. Brooklyn! 808 00:39:34,894 --> 00:39:37,636 Brooklyn can be really, really naughty, to be fair. 809 00:39:37,679 --> 00:39:40,552 Erm, and he's very hyper a lot of the time, 810 00:39:40,595 --> 00:39:42,162 and it's... it's... 811 00:39:42,205 --> 00:39:44,599 it's quite a struggle sometimes to actually calm him down. 812 00:39:44,643 --> 00:39:48,298 What is wrong with youse? Brooklyn! Don't you dare, don't you dare. 813 00:39:49,604 --> 00:39:51,432 Extremely naughty. HUDSON SCREAMS 814 00:39:51,476 --> 00:39:52,999 Hudson's developed 815 00:39:53,042 --> 00:39:57,743 a right foul little attitude and behaviour thing right now, 816 00:39:57,786 --> 00:39:59,092 and I really don't like it. 817 00:40:02,487 --> 00:40:04,489 Brooklyn, can you come and eat this dinner, please? 818 00:40:04,532 --> 00:40:06,186 Cos one, I'm not wasting money, 819 00:40:06,273 --> 00:40:08,797 two, it's getting later, and three, you're going bed soon. 820 00:40:08,841 --> 00:40:12,061 This has all kind of developed since staying at Beth's 821 00:40:12,105 --> 00:40:15,848 and me kind of not giving 'em a lot of discipline and stuff like that, 822 00:40:15,891 --> 00:40:18,851 so maybe if I didn't lose myself a little bit when I was at Beth's, 823 00:40:18,894 --> 00:40:21,723 none of this behaviour and all that would be happening. 824 00:40:21,767 --> 00:40:25,074 Are you eating your dinner? No! 825 00:40:25,118 --> 00:40:27,294 No, don't. HUDSON CRIES 826 00:40:27,381 --> 00:40:29,905 Hudson. Right, well, come and eat it now, then. 827 00:40:29,949 --> 00:40:32,647 Right, you're gonna have to go bed without no food, then, sorry. 828 00:40:32,691 --> 00:40:34,693 Right? 829 00:40:34,736 --> 00:40:36,172 HUDSON CRIES Mummy! 830 00:40:36,259 --> 00:40:38,261 What? Oh, why's he done that? 831 00:40:40,263 --> 00:40:44,180 No, no, no! BROOKLYN SHOUTS 832 00:40:44,224 --> 00:40:46,095 Brooklyn, stop kicking me. 833 00:40:46,139 --> 00:40:48,794 What the hell is wrong with the both of you? 834 00:40:48,837 --> 00:40:52,754 I don't want to shout at youse! I just wanna chill. 835 00:40:52,841 --> 00:40:55,670 You're making this just ten times harder than it is. 836 00:40:55,714 --> 00:40:57,280 Get your 'jamas on now. 837 00:40:59,021 --> 00:41:01,371 'I'm trying not to completely lose it.' 838 00:41:01,415 --> 00:41:03,809 I'm not going upstairs. Yes, you are. 839 00:41:03,896 --> 00:41:05,158 No, I'm not. Yes, you are. 840 00:41:05,245 --> 00:41:06,725 No, I'm not. 841 00:41:06,768 --> 00:41:08,378 'But I'm exhausted, 842 00:41:08,422 --> 00:41:10,642 'and neither of them are listening to a word I say, 843 00:41:10,685 --> 00:41:13,079 'no matter how strictly I say it.' 844 00:41:13,122 --> 00:41:14,863 Get in your bed. No, no. 845 00:41:14,907 --> 00:41:16,909 'I just need them to get to bed. 846 00:41:16,952 --> 00:41:19,172 'But bedtimes have always been a struggle with them.' 847 00:41:19,215 --> 00:41:21,391 No, no! 848 00:41:21,435 --> 00:41:22,784 Here, Brooklyn, get in your bed now. 849 00:41:22,828 --> 00:41:24,133 I don't want to. 850 00:41:24,177 --> 00:41:27,006 Why? Get in your bed. Get in your bed! 851 00:41:27,049 --> 00:41:29,138 I don't want... I don't care. 852 00:41:29,182 --> 00:41:30,792 Get in your bed. BROOKLYN LAUGHS 853 00:41:30,836 --> 00:41:32,359 You can have that, you know what? 854 00:41:32,446 --> 00:41:34,709 You're not even having them until you calm down. 855 00:41:34,753 --> 00:41:37,712 Mum! HUDSON SHOUTS 856 00:41:37,756 --> 00:41:40,846 No, go away, no. Mum! 857 00:41:40,889 --> 00:41:43,936 I feel like today's actually been really exhausting. 858 00:41:43,979 --> 00:41:47,809 Like, I feel drained right this second in time. 859 00:41:47,853 --> 00:41:50,246 'And that's why I felt a bit stressy before with the kids.' 860 00:41:50,290 --> 00:41:52,901 Go to sleep, honestly, go to sleep. No, you're not having your tablet. 861 00:41:52,945 --> 00:41:54,512 Go to sleep. I want my tablet. 862 00:41:54,555 --> 00:41:59,038 I need to, you know, get the boys more discipline, more structure. 863 00:41:59,081 --> 00:42:00,779 Brooklyn, will you please go to sleep? 864 00:42:00,822 --> 00:42:03,869 It's, like, half-seven now. You've got school tomorrow. 865 00:42:03,956 --> 00:42:06,436 The only person what can make those changes is myself, so, like, 866 00:42:06,480 --> 00:42:08,700 I'm just gonna keep fighting away. 867 00:42:08,787 --> 00:42:10,571 I'm gonna keep my head held high. 868 00:42:10,615 --> 00:42:13,356 I'm gonna keep my chin up, both chins. 869 00:42:13,400 --> 00:42:17,578 And as long as I stay positive and happy, then that's fine. 870 00:42:17,622 --> 00:42:19,145 I want you lay here, I want you to be quiet, 871 00:42:19,188 --> 00:42:21,190 and I want you to stay in bed, OK? 872 00:42:22,844 --> 00:42:24,716 Night, boys. 873 00:42:24,759 --> 00:42:26,456 My future is bright, 874 00:42:26,500 --> 00:42:28,284 and I am excited over my future 875 00:42:28,328 --> 00:42:33,376 because I know that will be where I'll be my most happiest. 876 00:42:33,463 --> 00:42:35,944 Erm, so, like, I've just gotta get there. 877 00:42:36,031 --> 00:42:37,946 Like, I'm here now, and I've just gotta get there. 878 00:42:37,990 --> 00:42:40,775 # Hold on 879 00:42:40,819 --> 00:42:45,214 # Small steps... # 880 00:42:45,258 --> 00:42:47,826 'I'm finally happy with where I am and who I am.' 881 00:42:47,913 --> 00:42:49,305 LAUGHTER 882 00:42:49,392 --> 00:42:51,264 Ryda, that's enough now. 883 00:42:51,351 --> 00:42:53,832 'And I'm ready to face whatever comes next.' 884 00:42:53,875 --> 00:42:55,616 Good boy. 885 00:42:57,444 --> 00:42:58,750 This is our main ceremony room. 886 00:42:58,793 --> 00:43:00,621 'I love having a plan.' 887 00:43:00,708 --> 00:43:03,406 Can you imagine stood here, everyone staring at us? 888 00:43:04,669 --> 00:43:07,236 'And now I get to plan for a new baby 889 00:43:07,280 --> 00:43:08,586 'and maybe even a wedding soon.' 890 00:43:10,065 --> 00:43:11,327 Do you see yourself here? Yeah. 891 00:43:13,112 --> 00:43:14,330 Marliya! 892 00:43:14,374 --> 00:43:15,897 'I'm ready to have a new adventure...' 893 00:43:15,941 --> 00:43:17,203 Bring it back here. 894 00:43:17,246 --> 00:43:19,945 '..in a new city with my new man and my little girl.' 895 00:43:21,207 --> 00:43:22,643 Hudson, quick, kick it to me! 896 00:43:24,732 --> 00:43:26,734 'I've had a lot thrown at me this year.' 897 00:43:26,778 --> 00:43:28,606 Yeah! 898 00:43:28,649 --> 00:43:31,130 'But I know I've come out the other side stronger than ever.' 899 00:43:31,217 --> 00:43:35,003 LAUGHTER 900 00:43:35,047 --> 00:43:36,788 Goal! 901 00:43:36,831 --> 00:43:38,659 Subtitles by accessibility@itv.com