1 00:00:01,043 --> 00:00:04,464 [moaning] 2 00:00:04,464 --> 00:00:07,175 [grunting] 3 00:00:09,719 --> 00:00:10,887 MAN: It's so good. 4 00:00:12,055 --> 00:00:13,348 I fucking love it. 5 00:00:14,099 --> 00:00:16,851 I felt like I was fucking. 6 00:00:17,978 --> 00:00:19,312 [Clare moaning] 7 00:00:20,272 --> 00:00:21,731 Thanks. 8 00:00:21,731 --> 00:00:23,233 Thank you. That's-- 9 00:00:24,734 --> 00:00:25,735 Thanks. 10 00:00:25,735 --> 00:00:27,487 MAN: It's just so raw. 11 00:00:27,487 --> 00:00:30,031 I mean, our readers are gonna be blown away. 12 00:00:30,657 --> 00:00:33,702 [laughing] I mean, obviously, with a few edits. 13 00:00:33,702 --> 00:00:35,662 I mean, I think we can probably change the title: 14 00:00:35,662 --> 00:00:37,038 The Love of My Life. 15 00:00:37,038 --> 00:00:39,332 I mean, it's not exactly a romance, right? So. 16 00:00:39,332 --> 00:00:41,376 [Clare crying] 17 00:00:42,961 --> 00:00:45,422 It sort of is, right? 18 00:00:45,422 --> 00:00:48,592 Because of the love that I have for my mom, 19 00:00:48,592 --> 00:00:49,843 who died when I was-- 20 00:00:49,843 --> 00:00:51,303 Right. Totally. 21 00:00:51,303 --> 00:00:55,348 But... I mean, it's also about some pretty mind-blowing sex. 22 00:00:55,348 --> 00:00:56,933 [Clare crying] 23 00:00:56,933 --> 00:01:00,103 But then, this volcanic sadness about your mom, 24 00:01:00,604 --> 00:01:03,607 and just so much crying. 25 00:01:03,607 --> 00:01:05,901 Okay. So I... 26 00:01:07,402 --> 00:01:09,029 It's all one thing, right? 27 00:01:09,029 --> 00:01:12,991 I'm-- I'm making a connection between two things that seem separate. 28 00:01:12,991 --> 00:01:16,703 There's sex... and grief. MAN: Right. 29 00:01:16,703 --> 00:01:19,956 - And I'm-- - Totally. Totally. Yes. Okay? 30 00:01:19,956 --> 00:01:22,959 And... it is a... 31 00:01:23,960 --> 00:01:25,670 - It's a brilliant essay. - Mm-hmm. 32 00:01:25,670 --> 00:01:28,632 MAN: But our readers, they want the fucking, right? 33 00:01:28,632 --> 00:01:30,383 They want that raw Denis Johnson shit. 34 00:01:30,383 --> 00:01:32,469 And if you fix this, 35 00:01:32,469 --> 00:01:34,429 you could be, like, a female Denis Johnson. 36 00:01:35,388 --> 00:01:36,806 You could be, like, Denise Johnson. 37 00:01:36,806 --> 00:01:38,433 Okay. Sorry. I don't wanna-- 38 00:01:41,645 --> 00:01:43,271 I don't think it needs to be fixed. 39 00:01:44,147 --> 00:01:47,317 Sorry, I just-- I believe in my work. 40 00:01:47,317 --> 00:01:48,151 Look. 41 00:01:48,735 --> 00:01:51,488 Unless you significantly revise it, 42 00:01:52,364 --> 00:01:54,407 I don't think that I can publish. 43 00:01:54,407 --> 00:01:56,368 Pablo, this is one of the strongest pieces I've ever written. 44 00:01:56,368 --> 00:01:57,869 Agreed. Agreed. 45 00:01:57,869 --> 00:01:59,871 And I really want it published. 46 00:01:59,871 --> 00:02:01,122 I need it published. 47 00:02:01,122 --> 00:02:02,123 I know. 48 00:02:02,707 --> 00:02:03,875 Okay? 49 00:02:03,875 --> 00:02:05,293 So lose the sad. 50 00:02:11,091 --> 00:02:13,093 [crying] 51 00:02:25,855 --> 00:02:27,274 - [door slams] - Ah, shit! 52 00:02:27,941 --> 00:02:29,401 Frank-- Uh, Rae? 53 00:02:34,573 --> 00:02:35,574 Rae! 54 00:02:38,368 --> 00:02:40,078 Booker, you seen Rae? 55 00:02:41,746 --> 00:02:42,747 [sighs] 56 00:02:46,960 --> 00:02:48,336 Oh, thank God. 57 00:02:51,131 --> 00:02:52,132 Oh, Rae. 58 00:02:52,883 --> 00:02:54,593 Rae, hi. If you-- 59 00:02:54,593 --> 00:02:58,054 Yeah, I've been calling for you to help me with the groceries. 60 00:03:00,682 --> 00:03:02,392 [sighs] How was the game? 61 00:03:02,893 --> 00:03:03,894 Stupid. 62 00:03:04,895 --> 00:03:05,896 Okay. 63 00:03:07,647 --> 00:03:08,648 So I know you-- 64 00:03:10,442 --> 00:03:12,569 I know you probably don't wanna talk about-- - Correct. 65 00:03:14,696 --> 00:03:15,697 But... 66 00:03:17,032 --> 00:03:19,409 I know that you probably have had twosomes before... 67 00:03:19,409 --> 00:03:20,660 - Mom. - ...but this-- 68 00:03:20,660 --> 00:03:22,787 I think a-- a threesome is a big leap. 69 00:03:23,204 --> 00:03:24,664 So I was wondering 70 00:03:24,664 --> 00:03:28,293 if maybe you were subconsciously worried about our little threesome. 71 00:03:28,293 --> 00:03:29,294 - About... - What? 72 00:03:29,294 --> 00:03:30,295 ...me and you and Dad. 73 00:03:31,296 --> 00:03:33,798 - Eww! Ew! Ew! Ew! - No, I don't mean it in that same way. 74 00:03:33,798 --> 00:03:36,509 I'm just-- I'm not saying it in a-- I'm-- 75 00:03:36,509 --> 00:03:38,762 Not everything is about you. 76 00:03:41,598 --> 00:03:42,599 [Rae sighs] 77 00:03:42,599 --> 00:03:44,100 Is this-- Is this about Carmen? 78 00:03:45,018 --> 00:03:47,229 Montana. Her name is Montana now. 79 00:03:47,229 --> 00:03:48,230 I told you that. [Clare sighs] 80 00:03:49,314 --> 00:03:50,315 Of course, it is. 81 00:03:50,857 --> 00:03:53,193 Why not name yourself after a beloved red state? 82 00:03:53,193 --> 00:03:54,903 You know, she won't even return my texts anymore? 83 00:03:55,654 --> 00:03:57,322 So, yeah. Thank you! 84 00:03:57,322 --> 00:03:58,823 Sorry, I didn't mean to make fun of her. 85 00:03:58,823 --> 00:03:59,824 Mmm... 86 00:04:02,118 --> 00:04:03,912 [softly] Mel is gonna gloat. 87 00:04:03,912 --> 00:04:07,415 She-- She just always gets gloaty when we ask for an emergency session. 88 00:04:07,415 --> 00:04:09,584 Well, our 16-year-old having a fucking threesome 89 00:04:09,584 --> 00:04:10,919 kinda warrants one. 90 00:04:13,755 --> 00:04:16,049 I think it was Montana's idea. 91 00:04:16,049 --> 00:04:17,551 Yeah. That girl is a bad seed. 92 00:04:17,551 --> 00:04:19,135 It's why I never drive her home. 93 00:04:19,135 --> 00:04:20,845 Shit! I can't find my wallet. 94 00:04:22,639 --> 00:04:26,351 Do you know-- Do you know that her mother sells salt? 95 00:04:26,351 --> 00:04:30,480 Yeah. She imports hand-gathered sea salt. 96 00:04:30,480 --> 00:04:32,941 That is her actual job. 97 00:04:32,941 --> 00:04:34,776 I think they live in Spain. 98 00:04:35,360 --> 00:04:37,612 Or maybe they have a house there or something. 99 00:04:37,612 --> 00:04:38,446 Mm-hmm. 100 00:04:38,446 --> 00:04:39,281 I don't know. 101 00:04:39,281 --> 00:04:42,242 All I know is that they're rich and cosmopolitan, 102 00:04:42,242 --> 00:04:43,410 and we're poor and boring. 103 00:04:43,410 --> 00:04:46,204 I bet that they're the kind of family that does molly 104 00:04:46,204 --> 00:04:47,956 and then just, like, has dinner together. 105 00:04:49,457 --> 00:04:51,459 Okay, well, Rae is never eating dinner there again. 106 00:04:52,085 --> 00:04:53,628 Or-- Or any other meal. 107 00:04:53,628 --> 00:04:55,380 Lunch or snack or anything else. 108 00:04:55,380 --> 00:04:58,800 Well, you know, the good news is nobody had sex at our house. 109 00:04:59,676 --> 00:05:01,386 Intent to commit is still a crime. 110 00:05:07,058 --> 00:05:08,059 I-- I don't know. 111 00:05:08,059 --> 00:05:09,060 I-- I think that... 112 00:05:10,020 --> 00:05:12,355 almost doing something is different... 113 00:05:13,148 --> 00:05:14,983 from actually doing it. 114 00:05:14,983 --> 00:05:16,568 [car engine starts] [Danny sighs] 115 00:05:17,736 --> 00:05:18,737 I don't know, she's just-- 116 00:05:19,571 --> 00:05:21,740 - She's gotta be smarter, you know? - Yeah. 117 00:05:22,991 --> 00:05:26,328 Last thing we need is a-- a surprise pregnancy. 118 00:05:28,705 --> 00:05:29,706 [phone chimes] 119 00:05:35,253 --> 00:05:36,421 MAN: Dear Sugar... 120 00:05:36,421 --> 00:05:39,591 For people out there who aren't lucky enough to just know, 121 00:05:40,592 --> 00:05:42,844 how do you decide whether or not to have kids? 122 00:05:43,845 --> 00:05:48,266 I'm 41, I love my life, and I don't really want to give it up. 123 00:05:49,517 --> 00:05:51,228 I'm a guy who is happy without kids. 124 00:05:52,270 --> 00:05:54,731 But I also could be really happy with kids. 125 00:05:55,941 --> 00:05:59,110 I've always pictured myself as a father... someday. 126 00:06:00,528 --> 00:06:01,947 But now, someday's here. 127 00:06:01,947 --> 00:06:04,699 And, uh, I don't feel ready. 128 00:06:05,617 --> 00:06:06,618 Can you help me, Sugar? 129 00:06:07,160 --> 00:06:09,329 Signed, Undecided. 130 00:06:16,878 --> 00:06:17,879 Oh, my God. 131 00:06:20,048 --> 00:06:21,258 Danny. 132 00:06:25,053 --> 00:06:26,346 Hi. 133 00:06:27,681 --> 00:06:28,682 Hi. 134 00:06:29,641 --> 00:06:31,142 [both laughing] 135 00:06:32,102 --> 00:06:33,436 YOUNG CLARE: So, how's the band? 136 00:06:33,436 --> 00:06:36,273 You guys... back out on the road again? 137 00:06:36,273 --> 00:06:37,649 As long as the van's still running. 138 00:06:38,775 --> 00:06:42,362 And I guess this label in Chicago might sign us on, so. 139 00:06:42,362 --> 00:06:44,531 What? DANNY: Yeah. Really. 140 00:06:44,531 --> 00:06:46,533 - Wow. - Thank you. 141 00:06:46,533 --> 00:06:48,368 But how's the-- the writing? 142 00:06:48,785 --> 00:06:49,869 Oh, um... 143 00:06:50,537 --> 00:06:52,038 - Yeah, it's-- It's good. - Yeah? 144 00:06:52,038 --> 00:06:53,331 It's fine. It's, um... 145 00:06:56,543 --> 00:06:59,004 I wrote something about my mom that-- 146 00:06:59,004 --> 00:07:01,464 It might-- It might be published. 147 00:07:01,464 --> 00:07:02,966 - What? - Yeah. 148 00:07:02,966 --> 00:07:03,967 But, uh, I-- 149 00:07:05,135 --> 00:07:07,095 It's just co-- It's complicated. Um... 150 00:07:07,095 --> 00:07:09,514 - That's... amazing. - Yeah. 151 00:07:09,514 --> 00:07:11,057 Can I... read it? 152 00:07:12,142 --> 00:07:13,143 I'll let you know. 153 00:07:13,685 --> 00:07:15,186 Of course. Of course. 154 00:07:17,230 --> 00:07:20,358 How's Lucas? He's still living at your mom's place? 155 00:07:20,358 --> 00:07:21,484 Um, yeah. 156 00:07:21,484 --> 00:07:22,485 Well... 157 00:07:23,612 --> 00:07:25,947 He's supposed to be, but most of the time, he just crashes at mine. 158 00:07:25,947 --> 00:07:27,407 - Mmm. - Yeah. 159 00:07:27,866 --> 00:07:28,867 He's lonely. 160 00:07:30,827 --> 00:07:31,828 Yeah. 161 00:07:32,412 --> 00:07:33,413 Yeah. 162 00:07:39,669 --> 00:07:43,632 ♪ Are you Gonna Be My Girl by Jet playing ♪ 163 00:07:48,595 --> 00:07:50,597 ♪ So one, two, three Take my hand and come with me ♪ 164 00:07:50,597 --> 00:07:53,475 ♪ Because you look so fine that I really wanna make you mine ♪ 165 00:07:55,101 --> 00:07:58,188 ♪ I say you look so fine that I really wanna make you mine ♪ 166 00:07:59,940 --> 00:08:02,484 Thank you for meeting with us last minute. 167 00:08:03,360 --> 00:08:05,612 I'm glad I was able to fit you in. DANNY: Yeah. 168 00:08:08,323 --> 00:08:11,409 So, uh, um, I came, uh, 169 00:08:11,409 --> 00:08:13,370 I came home early from work the other day-- 170 00:08:13,370 --> 00:08:14,579 Before she was put on leave. 171 00:08:17,082 --> 00:08:18,291 Okay. Um... 172 00:08:19,125 --> 00:08:22,170 And, uh, I heard some noises coming from down the hall. 173 00:08:22,671 --> 00:08:23,964 And what kind of noises? 174 00:08:23,964 --> 00:08:27,759 [both moaning] 175 00:08:27,759 --> 00:08:30,345 Uh, sex-ish noises. 176 00:08:32,472 --> 00:08:33,473 [moaning] 177 00:08:33,473 --> 00:08:37,227 At first... I thought it was Danny. 178 00:08:37,936 --> 00:08:39,020 What? 179 00:08:39,020 --> 00:08:41,481 They were coming from our bedroom. [scoffs] 180 00:08:41,481 --> 00:08:44,150 Who'd-- Who the fuck would I be having sex with? 181 00:08:44,150 --> 00:08:47,529 I don't know. You kicked me out of the house, 182 00:08:47,529 --> 00:08:50,073 - so I don't know what you're doing. - Okay. God, Jesus. 183 00:08:51,408 --> 00:08:52,867 CLARE: That's where we are! Sorry. 184 00:08:56,079 --> 00:08:57,789 Then I-- I open the door... 185 00:08:59,958 --> 00:09:02,836 Then I open the door, and it was... Rae. 186 00:09:02,836 --> 00:09:04,629 And she was with two of her friends. 187 00:09:04,629 --> 00:09:05,630 They were half-naked, 188 00:09:05,630 --> 00:09:06,840 and they were just kind of, 189 00:09:07,424 --> 00:09:08,800 uh, tangled up on the bed. 190 00:09:09,676 --> 00:09:11,386 - So. - Were they having sex? 191 00:09:11,386 --> 00:09:13,889 No. No, they weren't. Luckily. 192 00:09:13,889 --> 00:09:15,181 Well, you weren't there. 193 00:09:15,181 --> 00:09:17,475 Um, it's-- it's debatable, I guess. 194 00:09:19,185 --> 00:09:21,313 I don't think I've ever seen you so... 195 00:09:22,147 --> 00:09:24,524 Are you uncomfortable talking about sex? 196 00:09:24,524 --> 00:09:27,694 Uh, yeah, when it-- when it refers to my 16-year-old daughter. 197 00:09:27,694 --> 00:09:31,072 Absolutely. Hell, yeah. I'm-- I'm-- I'm-- I'm uncomfortable. 198 00:09:31,823 --> 00:09:34,075 And with you and Clare? 199 00:09:34,910 --> 00:09:36,953 - What? - Yeah. What about us? 200 00:09:36,953 --> 00:09:38,413 I mean, 201 00:09:38,413 --> 00:09:40,040 are you both 202 00:09:40,040 --> 00:09:41,499 having it? 203 00:09:41,499 --> 00:09:42,500 Together? 204 00:09:51,885 --> 00:09:52,969 I wrote a song about you. 205 00:09:55,472 --> 00:09:56,473 Really? 206 00:09:57,807 --> 00:10:01,061 It's not done yet, but... yeah. 207 00:10:03,605 --> 00:10:04,648 I wanna hear it. 208 00:10:04,648 --> 00:10:05,941 [chuckles] Of course, you do. 209 00:10:08,276 --> 00:10:09,694 - Maybe, I don't. - Mmm. 210 00:10:11,238 --> 00:10:12,239 Nah, you do. 211 00:10:13,323 --> 00:10:14,366 And it's good. 212 00:10:15,450 --> 00:10:17,160 Will you send it to me when it's finished? 213 00:10:17,160 --> 00:10:18,245 I'll think about it. 214 00:10:20,538 --> 00:10:22,415 Only if you send me what you wrote about your mom. 215 00:10:23,083 --> 00:10:24,000 Then we have a deal. 216 00:10:24,000 --> 00:10:25,710 - No, that's different. - How? 217 00:10:25,710 --> 00:10:27,254 - That's different than a song. - No, it's not. 218 00:10:28,630 --> 00:10:30,048 It's your creation. 219 00:10:30,882 --> 00:10:31,925 We make things. 220 00:10:34,511 --> 00:10:35,512 And we share them. 221 00:10:37,305 --> 00:10:39,558 At least... we used to. 222 00:10:40,517 --> 00:10:42,978 I mean, it's been-- I mean, it's-- 223 00:10:45,522 --> 00:10:47,107 [exhales] It's-- It's been-- 224 00:10:47,107 --> 00:10:48,733 I think we're really here to talk about Rae. 225 00:10:48,733 --> 00:10:49,734 [scoffs] Yeah. 226 00:10:49,734 --> 00:10:50,735 DANNY: And what's going on. 227 00:10:50,735 --> 00:10:53,780 And-- And-- And how-- how she's being influenced. 228 00:10:53,780 --> 00:10:59,703 Well, I mean, the most embedded messages usually come from in the home, so. 229 00:11:00,328 --> 00:11:01,580 So... what? 230 00:11:03,707 --> 00:11:04,708 I've read your work. 231 00:11:05,417 --> 00:11:07,419 I looked you up right after we first started. 232 00:11:07,419 --> 00:11:10,005 You are a very powerful writer. 233 00:11:10,505 --> 00:11:13,925 - But-- - [exhales] Okay, there's a "but." 234 00:11:13,925 --> 00:11:16,636 Do you think there's a chance she read your Whore essay? 235 00:11:17,929 --> 00:11:18,930 Slut. 236 00:11:19,681 --> 00:11:20,682 The-- 237 00:11:22,976 --> 00:11:24,394 The essay was called Slut. 238 00:11:24,394 --> 00:11:25,812 And there's no threesomes in it. 239 00:11:29,816 --> 00:11:32,694 I mean, if you listen to any of his lyrics-- 240 00:11:32,694 --> 00:11:35,030 'Cause his lyrics are pretty sexually explicit. 241 00:11:35,030 --> 00:11:36,031 What the hell? 242 00:11:36,031 --> 00:11:39,075 I'm just saying. "Your thighs bring me closer to God"? 243 00:11:40,285 --> 00:11:41,286 Maybe she heard that. 244 00:11:43,288 --> 00:11:44,539 That's Nine Inch Nails. 245 00:11:45,874 --> 00:11:47,208 Except the thighs part. 246 00:11:48,126 --> 00:11:49,711 Do you not remember my songs anymore? 247 00:11:50,712 --> 00:11:51,713 Of course, I do! 248 00:11:54,090 --> 00:11:55,258 Most of them were about you. 249 00:11:59,054 --> 00:12:01,348 [Mel continues writing] 250 00:12:02,349 --> 00:12:03,350 Danny. 251 00:12:04,517 --> 00:12:06,728 Of course, I remember your songs. 252 00:12:06,728 --> 00:12:09,231 Can-- Can we just go back to hating Montana? 253 00:12:10,315 --> 00:12:12,901 See, Mel always just makes things worse. 254 00:12:12,901 --> 00:12:14,319 [scoffs] Always. 255 00:12:15,362 --> 00:12:17,697 You know, I think that we just have to do something. 256 00:12:18,114 --> 00:12:19,115 I do. 257 00:12:19,115 --> 00:12:21,910 I-- I think that we need to go talk to Montana's mother. 258 00:12:21,910 --> 00:12:23,119 Why? 259 00:12:23,119 --> 00:12:24,579 Try to buy some salt from her? 260 00:12:24,579 --> 00:12:29,960 No, because I think that her daughter just forced our daughter to do something, 261 00:12:29,960 --> 00:12:32,170 - and that she needs to know that. - Nah. Again, no. 262 00:12:32,170 --> 00:12:34,172 Because she obviously has no clue. DANNY: No. 263 00:12:34,172 --> 00:12:35,048 And I think that-- 264 00:12:35,048 --> 00:12:37,551 She, uh-- She used our house for that bullshit! 265 00:12:37,551 --> 00:12:39,302 Yeah. No. No. 266 00:12:39,302 --> 00:12:40,887 Danny! Danny? 267 00:12:40,887 --> 00:12:43,306 No, Clare. Drop it. 268 00:12:46,309 --> 00:12:49,145 YOUNG CLARE: Fuck! Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. 269 00:12:49,145 --> 00:12:51,898 Dude, are you okay? Why-- Why are you saying, "Fuck"? 270 00:12:53,358 --> 00:12:54,359 Fuck! 271 00:12:57,821 --> 00:13:00,198 ♪ 272 00:13:00,198 --> 00:13:02,325 YOUNG AMY: Fuck-me boots? Really? 273 00:13:02,325 --> 00:13:03,743 You sure that's a good plan? 274 00:13:03,743 --> 00:13:05,495 Are you gonna fuck the baby out? 275 00:13:05,495 --> 00:13:08,373 [scoffs] Amy! You're terrible. 276 00:13:08,373 --> 00:13:10,542 You're the one who hasn't told Danny. 277 00:13:12,335 --> 00:13:13,837 I'm gonna have an abortion. 278 00:13:14,337 --> 00:13:16,172 They say good things happen in threes. 279 00:13:18,633 --> 00:13:20,176 I never should've gone on that hike. 280 00:13:20,844 --> 00:13:21,845 I should've just-- 281 00:13:22,721 --> 00:13:25,307 I should've just gone to Don Guac's 282 00:13:25,307 --> 00:13:29,060 and gotten a burrito like a normal hungover person. 283 00:13:29,060 --> 00:13:31,479 You probably would've run into Danny there too. 284 00:13:31,479 --> 00:13:33,064 Isn't that, like, your place? 285 00:13:33,815 --> 00:13:36,902 - Oohh, can I borrow this? - Take it. 286 00:13:36,902 --> 00:13:38,945 Goth maternity wear isn't really a... 287 00:13:40,363 --> 00:13:41,364 thing. 288 00:13:41,865 --> 00:13:43,950 So now you're not getting an abortion? 289 00:13:43,950 --> 00:13:46,578 I don't know. I don't know what I'm doing! 290 00:13:47,329 --> 00:13:49,748 I-- I don't know. What would you do? 291 00:13:50,248 --> 00:13:53,084 I'm never having kids, so I wouldn't have it. 292 00:13:53,084 --> 00:13:54,085 Wait, what? 293 00:13:55,086 --> 00:13:56,254 How did I not know this? 294 00:13:56,254 --> 00:13:57,797 People freak out if you don't wanna be a mom. 295 00:13:57,797 --> 00:13:59,257 It's like a mortal sin. 296 00:13:59,257 --> 00:14:01,092 Oh, well, people are stupid. 297 00:14:02,010 --> 00:14:03,470 I might feel different about the whole deal 298 00:14:03,470 --> 00:14:04,846 if I had had a mom like yours. 299 00:14:10,393 --> 00:14:11,394 Mm. 300 00:14:14,272 --> 00:14:16,399 What if this is the last time I wear these boots? 301 00:14:18,485 --> 00:14:21,071 - You're not dying. - I feel like I am. 302 00:14:21,071 --> 00:14:22,697 You're not. 303 00:14:22,697 --> 00:14:24,991 You're just maybe gonna have a baby. 304 00:14:24,991 --> 00:14:26,076 [Clare chuckles derisively] 305 00:14:26,076 --> 00:14:27,077 Or maybe not. 306 00:14:27,994 --> 00:14:29,621 Either way, you need to tell Danny. 307 00:14:30,622 --> 00:14:31,957 YOUNG DANNY: I thought you were on the pill! 308 00:14:31,957 --> 00:14:34,334 Well, I stopped taking it after we fucking broke up 309 00:14:34,334 --> 00:14:37,712 to give my-- give my body a break from the hormones! 310 00:14:37,712 --> 00:14:39,923 Fuck! I don't think you understand. 311 00:14:39,923 --> 00:14:42,842 Like, I-- I seriously can't deal with this right now. I have-- 312 00:14:42,842 --> 00:14:45,845 Okay. Okay, Danny, I'm sorry it's so stressful for you! DANNY: Stop! Stop! 313 00:14:45,845 --> 00:14:46,846 That's not what I meant! 314 00:14:46,846 --> 00:14:49,474 - Why are you yelling? - Because I'm fucking frustrated! 315 00:14:49,891 --> 00:14:50,892 And we're both yelling. 316 00:14:51,476 --> 00:14:52,561 [softly] You yelled first. 317 00:14:54,396 --> 00:14:56,231 Clare, I can barely pay rent. 318 00:14:57,774 --> 00:14:58,733 And the band-- 319 00:14:59,693 --> 00:15:03,363 I can't be in South America when you're having a baby, Clare. 320 00:15:03,363 --> 00:15:04,364 I can't. 321 00:15:04,364 --> 00:15:06,157 - South America? - Yeah. 322 00:15:07,367 --> 00:15:08,785 Brazil and Argentina. 323 00:15:08,785 --> 00:15:10,036 Shit. 324 00:15:11,371 --> 00:15:12,372 What? 325 00:15:13,415 --> 00:15:14,708 Shit! 326 00:15:14,708 --> 00:15:16,251 - We're just... - Danny, shit! 327 00:15:16,251 --> 00:15:17,252 ...the openers. 328 00:15:17,794 --> 00:15:20,589 It's not-- Well, first of two openers. It's nothing. 329 00:15:20,589 --> 00:15:22,132 What-- What am I talking about? 330 00:15:22,132 --> 00:15:24,551 I feel like a fucking asshole talking about my band right now! 331 00:15:24,551 --> 00:15:26,011 Who cares about my band? 332 00:15:26,011 --> 00:15:27,929 I care about your band. You care about your band. 333 00:15:28,930 --> 00:15:29,931 And you should. 334 00:15:32,225 --> 00:15:34,603 I love... I love your band. 335 00:15:37,147 --> 00:15:38,148 I love you. 336 00:15:40,859 --> 00:15:44,988 And I don't wanna be some cliché of an absentee father either. 337 00:15:44,988 --> 00:15:46,489 My family will fucking disown me. 338 00:15:46,489 --> 00:15:48,366 [Danny sighs] 339 00:15:49,284 --> 00:15:50,201 [softly] Fuck! 340 00:15:53,830 --> 00:15:54,831 Yeah, that's-- 341 00:15:55,707 --> 00:15:57,000 That's not the same as loving me. 342 00:15:57,000 --> 00:15:58,001 I do love you. 343 00:15:58,668 --> 00:15:59,753 You fucking know that, Clare. 344 00:16:06,218 --> 00:16:07,719 Okay. Um... 345 00:16:12,933 --> 00:16:15,393 - The timing's terrible. Obviously. - Yeah. 346 00:16:15,393 --> 00:16:16,728 Yeah, we're not even together. 347 00:16:19,314 --> 00:16:21,358 - This isn't that hard to figure out. - You know, I mean-- 348 00:16:22,025 --> 00:16:23,610 I mean, if this is how we got back together, 349 00:16:23,610 --> 00:16:25,570 - we'd always know this was the reason. - Exactly! 350 00:16:29,491 --> 00:16:31,159 I'd have to give up music. 351 00:16:31,910 --> 00:16:35,038 I'd have to-- I'd-- I'd have to get a-- a desk job 352 00:16:35,038 --> 00:16:36,748 or whatever gives benefits. 353 00:16:36,748 --> 00:16:37,791 Like, what are my skills? 354 00:16:37,791 --> 00:16:38,792 What-- What can I even do? 355 00:16:38,792 --> 00:16:40,252 I'ma have to go back to school, 356 00:16:40,252 --> 00:16:41,753 get a fucking degree. 357 00:16:41,753 --> 00:16:44,506 Danny, stop! Just stop for a second. 358 00:16:57,227 --> 00:16:58,228 It's okay. 359 00:17:00,522 --> 00:17:02,232 - No, it's not-- - It's okay. 360 00:17:03,316 --> 00:17:04,401 We broke up for a reason. 361 00:17:06,194 --> 00:17:09,364 We need to go out, and we need to live our lives. 362 00:17:09,364 --> 00:17:11,741 You go on tour. Fucking kill Argentina. 363 00:17:12,409 --> 00:17:14,035 Fucking kill Brazil! 364 00:17:14,035 --> 00:17:15,036 I'm gonna-- 365 00:17:16,329 --> 00:17:20,458 I'm gonna go to Iceland and climb a... glacier or something. 366 00:17:22,085 --> 00:17:23,587 I'm gonna live my life. 367 00:17:26,047 --> 00:17:27,674 And I think you should live yours. 368 00:17:28,675 --> 00:17:31,678 ♪ somber music playing ♪ 369 00:17:37,851 --> 00:17:39,644 Ugh, what the fuck? 370 00:17:40,312 --> 00:17:43,189 [panting] [door opens] 371 00:17:43,189 --> 00:17:44,357 GIRL: Mrs. Pierce? 372 00:17:45,525 --> 00:17:48,862 Oh, hi, uh, Montana. 373 00:17:49,446 --> 00:17:50,989 [panting] 374 00:17:50,989 --> 00:17:52,616 It's a lot of stairs. 375 00:17:53,408 --> 00:17:54,826 Grocery day must be a... 376 00:17:54,826 --> 00:17:56,828 [panting] 377 00:17:56,828 --> 00:17:57,954 ...a workout! 378 00:17:57,954 --> 00:17:59,915 Oh, our groceries are delivered. 379 00:17:59,915 --> 00:18:03,168 But I get it. It takes my grandma, like, a half hour. 380 00:18:03,919 --> 00:18:06,421 Can I get you a beverage? Or perhaps a towel? 381 00:18:06,922 --> 00:18:09,132 Uh, that's okay. I just, um... 382 00:18:10,050 --> 00:18:11,051 Uh... 383 00:18:11,760 --> 00:18:14,512 [exhales] Actually, water would be great. Thank you so much. 384 00:18:14,512 --> 00:18:16,932 Uh, still, sparkling, or pH-enhanced? 385 00:18:17,807 --> 00:18:18,683 Never mind, that's okay. 386 00:18:19,351 --> 00:18:21,728 Uh, is your, uh... [exhales] 387 00:18:23,271 --> 00:18:24,689 [exhales] Excuse me. 388 00:18:24,689 --> 00:18:28,026 Is your mom home? I was, uh, hoping to speak with your mom. 389 00:18:28,026 --> 00:18:29,653 She's in Barcelona. 390 00:18:31,238 --> 00:18:32,364 Of course, she is. 391 00:18:32,948 --> 00:18:34,741 Is there anything else I can help you with? 392 00:18:36,534 --> 00:18:37,535 Actually... 393 00:18:38,620 --> 00:18:39,788 I was wondering... 394 00:18:43,541 --> 00:18:45,835 what made you think it was a good idea 395 00:18:45,835 --> 00:18:50,590 to orchestrate an orgy in me and my husband's bedroom? 396 00:18:51,841 --> 00:18:53,051 That was Rae's idea. 397 00:18:54,052 --> 00:18:55,053 That's bullshit. 398 00:18:55,053 --> 00:18:58,640 Maybe you weren't aware that she's completely obsessed with me. 399 00:18:58,640 --> 00:18:59,849 I mean, why do you think 400 00:18:59,849 --> 00:19:02,269 she decided to start going by her middle name? 401 00:19:02,269 --> 00:19:03,478 What? 402 00:19:03,478 --> 00:19:05,313 I said "Rae" was cooler. 403 00:19:06,273 --> 00:19:08,191 I can't help that she's in love with me. 404 00:19:08,984 --> 00:19:09,985 Look, 405 00:19:11,236 --> 00:19:12,529 you little entitled, 406 00:19:13,446 --> 00:19:14,823 fucking, pretentious, 407 00:19:15,490 --> 00:19:17,659 little, fucking dipshit. 408 00:19:18,159 --> 00:19:21,621 First of all, her name is not for you to change. 409 00:19:22,122 --> 00:19:25,584 Second, if someone is in love with you, 410 00:19:25,584 --> 00:19:27,794 you treat them with respect. 411 00:19:27,794 --> 00:19:29,713 Are you sure you don't want a towel? 412 00:19:29,713 --> 00:19:33,925 [exhales] You treat their heart 413 00:19:33,925 --> 00:19:37,304 like you are holding a fucking day-old duckling 414 00:19:37,304 --> 00:19:41,892 whose neck could break at any fucking second, okay? 415 00:19:41,892 --> 00:19:44,686 Oh, my God, duckling? Are you, like, 50? 416 00:19:44,686 --> 00:19:46,938 No, I'm fucking 49 years old! 417 00:19:46,938 --> 00:19:49,190 And I know how to have a fucking threesome. 418 00:19:49,190 --> 00:19:51,735 Not that pathetic little pussy-ass shit! 419 00:19:51,735 --> 00:19:54,321 That's offensive and self-hating. 420 00:19:54,321 --> 00:19:55,822 Do you have any idea 421 00:19:55,822 --> 00:19:59,242 how fucking lucky you are to be loved by her? 422 00:19:59,242 --> 00:20:02,370 I would fucking kill to have a fucking ounce of that love, 423 00:20:02,370 --> 00:20:04,205 and she wastes it on you? 424 00:20:04,205 --> 00:20:06,166 What kinda fucking name is "Montana"? 425 00:20:06,833 --> 00:20:10,212 Who are you? Fucking Brad Pitt in fucking A River Runs Through It, 426 00:20:10,212 --> 00:20:13,506 thinking everyone wants to fuck you because you have fucking great hair? 427 00:20:14,299 --> 00:20:15,300 [kid chuckles] 428 00:20:20,555 --> 00:20:23,183 Okay, your-- That child was filming this, 429 00:20:23,183 --> 00:20:26,478 so you could ask him to fucking kindly delete it from the apps. 430 00:20:26,478 --> 00:20:27,479 All the apps. 431 00:20:30,941 --> 00:20:32,859 [Rae sniffling] 432 00:20:36,863 --> 00:20:37,864 Hey, guys. 433 00:20:39,532 --> 00:20:40,742 What's wrong? 434 00:20:41,326 --> 00:20:42,327 You! 435 00:20:43,578 --> 00:20:44,788 - Well, I-- I-- - Please don't. 436 00:20:48,333 --> 00:20:49,918 There's a TikTok. 437 00:20:49,918 --> 00:20:52,087 [Rae crying] 438 00:20:52,087 --> 00:20:53,129 Of course, there is. 439 00:20:55,924 --> 00:20:57,926 Honey. Can I-- 440 00:20:58,718 --> 00:20:59,719 [door rattles] 441 00:21:02,138 --> 00:21:05,850 Okay. If you wanna talk about anything, 442 00:21:05,850 --> 00:21:07,143 I-- I'm right-- I'm right here-- 443 00:21:07,143 --> 00:21:08,353 RAE: I won't! 444 00:21:08,353 --> 00:21:09,563 Ever! 445 00:21:13,024 --> 00:21:14,025 [Danny sighs] 446 00:21:18,488 --> 00:21:19,531 What do you think of black? 447 00:21:21,700 --> 00:21:22,701 For a cradle? 448 00:21:25,287 --> 00:21:26,413 Yeah. Badass. 449 00:21:36,047 --> 00:21:37,048 What do you think? 450 00:21:37,841 --> 00:21:38,633 It's great. 451 00:21:38,633 --> 00:21:39,926 - CLARE: Yeah? - Mm-hm. 452 00:21:39,926 --> 00:21:41,219 For a tablecloth. 453 00:21:41,970 --> 00:21:43,179 [Clare laughs] 454 00:21:43,179 --> 00:21:44,180 Mom would love it. 455 00:21:45,015 --> 00:21:46,016 Yeah. 456 00:21:52,564 --> 00:21:56,693 Listen, I'm-- I'm gonna get a legit job and-- and help with the bills. 457 00:21:57,360 --> 00:22:00,363 Maybe we could move back to Mom's together. 458 00:22:02,574 --> 00:22:03,575 Yeah, maybe. 459 00:22:05,869 --> 00:22:07,704 You know, you're better off without that asshole. 460 00:22:10,165 --> 00:22:11,291 He's not an asshole. 461 00:22:19,007 --> 00:22:20,425 CLARE: Dear Undecided. 462 00:22:21,218 --> 00:22:23,470 Every life has a sister-ship. 463 00:22:24,262 --> 00:22:28,225 A ship that follows the path we could have taken but didn't. 464 00:22:29,935 --> 00:22:32,646 On that ship is the person we would've been 465 00:22:32,646 --> 00:22:34,564 if we had taken that phantom path. 466 00:22:37,400 --> 00:22:40,654 And that person lives a different phantom life 467 00:22:40,654 --> 00:22:42,030 than the one you're living now. 468 00:22:47,619 --> 00:22:51,831 So the question is: who do you intend to be? 469 00:22:57,546 --> 00:23:00,924 You believe you could be happy in any scenario, 470 00:23:03,343 --> 00:23:06,972 becoming a parent or remaining childless. 471 00:23:07,556 --> 00:23:10,559 And you wrote because you want clarity, 472 00:23:11,351 --> 00:23:12,519 but there won't be any. 473 00:23:14,229 --> 00:23:15,230 At least not yet. 474 00:23:16,690 --> 00:23:19,359 There will only be the choice you make 475 00:23:19,359 --> 00:23:23,029 and the sure knowledge that that choice, any choice, 476 00:23:23,029 --> 00:23:24,698 will contain some loss. 477 00:23:37,919 --> 00:23:42,048 So get out a pen and paper, and make a list. 478 00:23:42,924 --> 00:23:45,719 Write down everything you know about your real life 479 00:23:45,719 --> 00:23:49,472 and everything that you imagine about your future life. 480 00:23:49,472 --> 00:23:50,849 And then look at them both. 481 00:23:51,516 --> 00:23:52,726 YOUNG LUCAS: Okay, let's take that. 482 00:23:52,726 --> 00:23:55,604 We gotta go. We gotta go now! 483 00:23:56,563 --> 00:23:59,649 [Clare groaning] 484 00:23:59,649 --> 00:24:01,484 - LUCAS: I gotta get to the door. - Okay. Okay. 485 00:24:01,484 --> 00:24:02,944 - Oh! - Sorry. Sorry. 486 00:24:02,944 --> 00:24:04,905 Oh, my fucking God! 487 00:24:05,614 --> 00:24:07,282 CLARE: One is the life you'll have 488 00:24:07,991 --> 00:24:10,201 and the other is the sister-life you won't. 489 00:24:10,994 --> 00:24:13,330 And you get to decide what to do. 490 00:24:16,666 --> 00:24:18,752 CLARE: [on TikTok] What kinda fucking name is "Montana"? 491 00:24:19,461 --> 00:24:20,712 Who the fuck do you think you are? 492 00:24:20,712 --> 00:24:23,131 Fucking Brad Pitt in fucking A River Runs Through It? 493 00:24:23,965 --> 00:24:26,134 Fucking-- "Oh, everybody wants to fuck me--" 494 00:24:26,134 --> 00:24:28,845 - I can't. I can't! - Clare, yes, you can. 495 00:24:29,888 --> 00:24:31,181 Yes, you can. 496 00:24:31,932 --> 00:24:35,018 CLARE: There are certain things I wouldn't know until I became a mom. 497 00:24:35,560 --> 00:24:39,481 And certain things I will never know because I became one. 498 00:24:44,694 --> 00:24:48,114 Who would I have been without my child the last 16 years? 499 00:24:50,617 --> 00:24:53,411 Who would I have met if I had traveled to the corners of the Earth? 500 00:24:53,411 --> 00:24:55,372 And where would that have taken me? 501 00:24:55,872 --> 00:24:58,875 ♪ 502 00:25:06,258 --> 00:25:08,718 I just know the clarity that I longed for 503 00:25:08,718 --> 00:25:11,596 happened when I held my daughter's body against mine. 504 00:25:11,596 --> 00:25:12,973 What should we name her? 505 00:25:12,973 --> 00:25:14,808 CLARE: And in that moment, one life ended... 506 00:25:16,601 --> 00:25:17,727 and another began. 507 00:25:18,395 --> 00:25:19,396 Frankie. 508 00:25:22,440 --> 00:25:24,442 [baby fussing] 509 00:25:24,442 --> 00:25:25,944 Hi, little Frankie. 510 00:25:27,946 --> 00:25:28,947 Hi. 511 00:25:33,868 --> 00:25:34,869 [door opens] 512 00:25:40,083 --> 00:25:41,084 You told me to live my life. 513 00:25:44,629 --> 00:25:45,672 This is it. 514 00:25:46,548 --> 00:25:48,550 ♪ 515 00:25:52,846 --> 00:25:54,222 CLARE: Do you wanna hold her? 516 00:25:54,222 --> 00:25:56,224 DANNY: Uh, yeah. CLARE: Here. 517 00:26:00,770 --> 00:26:01,771 Hey. Hey. 518 00:26:02,898 --> 00:26:05,442 Hey, it's, uh... It's midnight. 519 00:26:10,780 --> 00:26:11,907 You think she's okay? 520 00:26:14,284 --> 00:26:15,994 I think she just needs space, you know? 521 00:26:16,745 --> 00:26:17,746 [Clare groans] 522 00:26:18,663 --> 00:26:19,831 You should get some sleep. 523 00:26:20,999 --> 00:26:23,376 Why? What do I need to do tomorrow? 524 00:26:23,376 --> 00:26:24,377 [chuckles] 525 00:26:25,420 --> 00:26:27,047 Maybe you wanna go for a hike or something? 526 00:26:27,589 --> 00:26:30,592 ♪ 527 00:26:38,600 --> 00:26:39,601 Yeah. 528 00:26:40,477 --> 00:26:41,478 Maybe. 529 00:26:43,063 --> 00:26:46,066 ♪ 530 00:26:57,035 --> 00:26:58,995 I'll never know the life I didn't choose. 531 00:26:59,788 --> 00:27:00,789 And neither will you. 532 00:27:02,082 --> 00:27:04,709 We'll only know that whatever that sister-life was, 533 00:27:05,418 --> 00:27:07,837 it was important and beautiful. 534 00:27:08,505 --> 00:27:09,839 And not ours. 535 00:27:13,176 --> 00:27:14,427 Hey, pretty girl. 536 00:27:15,595 --> 00:27:16,596 Hey. 537 00:27:17,389 --> 00:27:18,348 Hey, man. 538 00:27:20,308 --> 00:27:22,561 Thank you. For everything. 539 00:27:26,523 --> 00:27:28,608 CLARE: It was the ghost ship that didn't carry us. 540 00:27:34,948 --> 00:27:38,702 There is nothing to do but salute her from the shore. 541 00:27:49,296 --> 00:27:50,297 Yours, 542 00:27:51,339 --> 00:27:52,340 Sugar. 543 00:27:54,175 --> 00:27:56,177 ♪ Looking Out by Brandi Carlile playing ♪ 544 00:27:58,096 --> 00:28:02,517 ♪ I went out looking for the answers ♪ 545 00:28:02,517 --> 00:28:05,687 ♪ And never left my town ♪ 546 00:28:05,687 --> 00:28:09,024 ♪ I'm no good at understanding ♪ 547 00:28:09,024 --> 00:28:12,110 ♪ But I'm good at standing ground ♪ 548 00:28:13,570 --> 00:28:17,407 ♪ And when I asked a corner preacher ♪ 549 00:28:17,407 --> 00:28:20,452 ♪ I couldn't hear him for my youth ♪ 550 00:28:21,161 --> 00:28:24,581 ♪ Some people get religion ♪ 551 00:28:24,581 --> 00:28:27,334 ♪ Some people get the truth ♪ 552 00:28:28,168 --> 00:28:30,962 ♪ I never get the truth ♪ 553 00:28:34,090 --> 00:28:38,345 ♪ I know the darkness pulls on you ♪ 554 00:28:38,345 --> 00:28:41,556 ♪ But it's just a point of view ♪ 555 00:28:41,556 --> 00:28:44,851 ♪ When you're outside looking in ♪ 556 00:28:44,851 --> 00:28:48,313 ♪ You belong to someone ♪ 557 00:28:48,313 --> 00:28:52,067 ♪ And when you feel like giving in ♪ 558 00:28:52,067 --> 00:28:55,362 ♪ Or the coming of the end ♪ 559 00:28:55,362 --> 00:28:59,282 ♪ Like your heart could break in two ♪