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[moaning]
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[grunting]
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MAN:
It's so good.
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I fucking love it.
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I felt like I was fucking.
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[Clare moaning]
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Thanks.
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Thank you. That's--
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Thanks.
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MAN:
It's just so raw.
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I mean, our readers
are gonna be blown away.
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[laughing] I mean,
obviously, with a few edits.
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I mean, I think
we can probably change the title:
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The Love of My Life.
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I mean, it's not
exactly a romance, right? So.
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[Clare crying]
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It sort of is, right?
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Because of the love
that I have for my mom,
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who died when I was--
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Right. Totally.
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But... I mean, it's also
about some pretty mind-blowing sex.
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[Clare crying]
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But then,
this volcanic sadness about your mom,
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and just so much crying.
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Okay. So I...
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It's all one thing, right?
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I'm-- I'm making a connection
between two things that seem separate.
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There's sex... and grief.
MAN: Right.
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- And I'm--
- Totally. Totally. Yes. Okay?
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And... it is a...
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- It's a brilliant essay.
- Mm-hmm.
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MAN: But our readers,
they want the fucking, right?
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They want that raw Denis Johnson shit.
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And if you fix this,
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you could be, like,
a female Denis Johnson.
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You could be, like, Denise Johnson.
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Okay. Sorry. I don't wanna--
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I don't think it needs to be fixed.
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Sorry, I just-- I believe in my work.
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Look.
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Unless you significantly revise it,
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I don't think that I can publish.
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Pablo, this is one
of the strongest pieces I've ever written.
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Agreed. Agreed.
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And I really want it published.
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I need it published.
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I know.
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Okay?
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So lose the sad.
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[crying]
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- [door slams]
- Ah, shit!
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Frank-- Uh, Rae?
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Rae!
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Booker, you seen Rae?
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[sighs]
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Oh, thank God.
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Oh, Rae.
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Rae, hi. If you--
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Yeah, I've been calling for you
to help me with the groceries.
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[sighs] How was the game?
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Stupid.
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Okay.
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So I know you--
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I know you probably
don't wanna talk about--
- Correct.
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But...
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I know that you probably have had
twosomes before...
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- Mom.
- ...but this--
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I think
a-- a threesome is a big leap.
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So I was wondering
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if maybe you were subconsciously worried
about our little threesome.
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- About...
- What?
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...me and you and Dad.
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- Eww! Ew! Ew! Ew!
- No, I don't mean it in that same way.
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I'm just-- I'm not saying it in a-- I'm--
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Not everything is about you.
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[Rae sighs]
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Is this-- Is this about Carmen?
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Montana. Her name is Montana now.
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I told you that.
[Clare sighs]
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Of course, it is.
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Why not name yourself
after a beloved red state?
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You know,
she won't even return my texts anymore?
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So, yeah. Thank you!
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Sorry, I didn't mean to make fun of her.
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Mmm...
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[softly] Mel is gonna gloat.
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She-- She just always gets gloaty
when we ask for an emergency session.
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Well, our 16-year-old
having a fucking threesome
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kinda warrants one.
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I think it was Montana's idea.
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Yeah. That girl is a bad seed.
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It's why I never drive her home.
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Shit! I can't find my wallet.
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Do you know--
Do you know that her mother sells salt?
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Yeah. She imports hand-gathered sea salt.
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That is her actual job.
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I think they live in Spain.
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Or maybe they have
a house there or something.
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Mm-hmm.
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I don't know.
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All I know
is that they're rich and cosmopolitan,
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and we're poor and boring.
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I bet that they're the kind of family
that does molly
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and then just, like, has dinner together.
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Okay, well,
Rae is never eating dinner there again.
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Or-- Or any other meal.
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Lunch or snack or anything else.
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Well, you know, the good news
is nobody had sex at our house.
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Intent to commit is still a crime.
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I-- I don't know.
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I-- I think that...
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almost doing something is different...
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from actually doing it.
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[car engine starts]
[Danny sighs]
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I don't know, she's just--
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- She's gotta be smarter, you know?
- Yeah.
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Last thing we need
is a-- a surprise pregnancy.
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[phone chimes]
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MAN:
Dear Sugar...
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For people out there
who aren't lucky enough to just know,
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how do you decide
whether or not to have kids?
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I'm 41, I love my life,
and I don't really want to give it up.
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I'm a guy who is happy without kids.
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But I also
could be really happy with kids.
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I've always pictured myself
as a father... someday.
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But now, someday's here.
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And, uh, I don't feel ready.
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Can you help me, Sugar?
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Signed, Undecided.
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Oh, my God.
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Danny.
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Hi.
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Hi.
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[both laughing]
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YOUNG CLARE:
So, how's the band?
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You guys... back out on the road again?
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As long as the van's still running.
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And I guess this label in Chicago
might sign us on, so.
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What?
DANNY: Yeah. Really.
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- Wow.
- Thank you.
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But how's the-- the writing?
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Oh, um...
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- Yeah, it's-- It's good.
- Yeah?
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It's fine. It's, um...
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I wrote something about my mom that--
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It might-- It might be published.
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- What?
- Yeah.
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But, uh, I--
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It's just co-- It's complicated. Um...
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- That's... amazing.
- Yeah.
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Can I... read it?
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I'll let you know.
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Of course. Of course.
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How's Lucas?
He's still living at your mom's place?
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Um, yeah.
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Well...
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He's supposed to be, but most of the time,
he just crashes at mine.
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- Mmm.
- Yeah.
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He's lonely.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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♪ Are you Gonna Be My Girl
by Jet playing ♪
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♪ So one, two, three
Take my hand and come with me ♪
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♪ Because you look so fine
that I really wanna make you mine ♪
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♪ I say you look so fine
that I really wanna make you mine ♪
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Thank you
for meeting with us last minute.
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I'm glad I was able to fit you in.
DANNY: Yeah.
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So, uh, um, I came, uh,
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I came home early from work
the other day--
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Before she was put on leave.
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Okay. Um...
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And, uh, I heard some noises
coming from down the hall.
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And what kind of noises?
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[both moaning]
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Uh, sex-ish noises.
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[moaning]
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At first... I thought it was Danny.
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What?
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They were coming
from our bedroom. [scoffs]
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Who'd-- Who the fuck
would I be having sex with?
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I don't know.
You kicked me out of the house,
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- so I don't know what you're doing.
- Okay. God, Jesus.
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CLARE:
That's where we are! Sorry.
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Then I-- I open the door...
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Then I open the door, and it was... Rae.
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And she was with two of her friends.
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They were half-naked,
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and they were just kind of,
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uh, tangled up on the bed.
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- So.
- Were they having sex?
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No. No, they weren't. Luckily.
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Well, you weren't there.
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Um, it's-- it's debatable, I guess.
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I don't think I've ever seen you so...
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Are you uncomfortable talking about sex?
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Uh, yeah, when it--
when it refers to my 16-year-old daughter.
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Absolutely. Hell, yeah.
I'm-- I'm-- I'm-- I'm uncomfortable.
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And with you and Clare?
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- What?
- Yeah. What about us?
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I mean,
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are you both
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having it?
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Together?
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I wrote a song about you.
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Really?
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It's not done yet, but... yeah.
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I wanna hear it.
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[chuckles] Of course, you do.
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- Maybe, I don't.
- Mmm.
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Nah, you do.
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And it's good.
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Will you send it to me
when it's finished?
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I'll think about it.
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Only if you send me
what you wrote about your mom.
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Then we have a deal.
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- No, that's different.
- How?
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- That's different than a song.
- No, it's not.
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It's your creation.
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We make things.
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And we share them.
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At least... we used to.
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I mean, it's been-- I mean, it's--
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[exhales] It's-- It's been--
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I think we're really here
to talk about Rae.
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[scoffs] Yeah.
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DANNY:
And what's going on.
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And-- And-- And how--
how she's being influenced.
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Well, I mean, the most embedded messages
usually come from in the home, so.
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So... what?
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I've read your work.
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I looked you up
right after we first started.
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You are a very powerful writer.
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- But--
- [exhales] Okay, there's a "but."
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Do you think there's a chance
she read your Whore essay?
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Slut.
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The--
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The essay was called Slut.
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And there's no threesomes in it.
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I mean, if you listen
to any of his lyrics--
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'Cause his lyrics
are pretty sexually explicit.
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What the hell?
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I'm just saying.
"Your thighs bring me closer to God"?
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Maybe she heard that.
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That's Nine Inch Nails.
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Except the thighs part.
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Do you not remember my songs anymore?
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Of course, I do!
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Most of them were about you.
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[Mel continues writing]
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Danny.
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Of course, I remember your songs.
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Can-- Can we just go back
to hating Montana?
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See, Mel always
just makes things worse.
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[scoffs] Always.
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You know, I think
that we just have to do something.
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I do.
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I-- I think that we need
to go talk to Montana's mother.
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Why?
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Try to buy some salt from her?
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00:12:24,579 --> 00:12:29,960
No, because I think that her daughter
just forced our daughter to do something,
261
00:12:29,960 --> 00:12:32,170
- and that she needs to know that.
- Nah. Again, no.
262
00:12:32,170 --> 00:12:34,172
Because she obviously has no clue.
DANNY: No.
263
00:12:34,172 --> 00:12:35,048
And I think that--
264
00:12:35,048 --> 00:12:37,551
She, uh-- She used
our house for that bullshit!
265
00:12:37,551 --> 00:12:39,302
Yeah. No. No.
266
00:12:39,302 --> 00:12:40,887
Danny! Danny?
267
00:12:40,887 --> 00:12:43,306
No, Clare. Drop it.
268
00:12:46,309 --> 00:12:49,145
YOUNG CLARE:
Fuck! Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
269
00:12:49,145 --> 00:12:51,898
Dude, are you okay?
Why-- Why are you saying, "Fuck"?
270
00:12:53,358 --> 00:12:54,359
Fuck!
271
00:12:57,821 --> 00:13:00,198
♪
272
00:13:00,198 --> 00:13:02,325
YOUNG AMY:
Fuck-me boots? Really?
273
00:13:02,325 --> 00:13:03,743
You sure that's a good plan?
274
00:13:03,743 --> 00:13:05,495
Are you gonna fuck the baby out?
275
00:13:05,495 --> 00:13:08,373
[scoffs] Amy! You're terrible.
276
00:13:08,373 --> 00:13:10,542
You're the one who hasn't told Danny.
277
00:13:12,335 --> 00:13:13,837
I'm gonna have an abortion.
278
00:13:14,337 --> 00:13:16,172
They say good things happen in threes.
279
00:13:18,633 --> 00:13:20,176
I never should've gone on that hike.
280
00:13:20,844 --> 00:13:21,845
I should've just--
281
00:13:22,721 --> 00:13:25,307
I should've just gone to Don Guac's
282
00:13:25,307 --> 00:13:29,060
and gotten a burrito
like a normal hungover person.
283
00:13:29,060 --> 00:13:31,479
You probably would've run
into Danny there too.
284
00:13:31,479 --> 00:13:33,064
Isn't that, like, your place?
285
00:13:33,815 --> 00:13:36,902
- Oohh, can I borrow this?
- Take it.
286
00:13:36,902 --> 00:13:38,945
Goth maternity wear isn't really a...
287
00:13:40,363 --> 00:13:41,364
thing.
288
00:13:41,865 --> 00:13:43,950
So now you're not getting an abortion?
289
00:13:43,950 --> 00:13:46,578
I don't know.
I don't know what I'm doing!
290
00:13:47,329 --> 00:13:49,748
I-- I don't know. What would you do?
291
00:13:50,248 --> 00:13:53,084
I'm never having kids,
so I wouldn't have it.
292
00:13:53,084 --> 00:13:54,085
Wait, what?
293
00:13:55,086 --> 00:13:56,254
How did I not know this?
294
00:13:56,254 --> 00:13:57,797
People freak out
if you don't wanna be a mom.
295
00:13:57,797 --> 00:13:59,257
It's like a mortal sin.
296
00:13:59,257 --> 00:14:01,092
Oh, well, people are stupid.
297
00:14:02,010 --> 00:14:03,470
I might feel different
about the whole deal
298
00:14:03,470 --> 00:14:04,846
if I had had a mom like yours.
299
00:14:10,393 --> 00:14:11,394
Mm.
300
00:14:14,272 --> 00:14:16,399
What if this is the last time
I wear these boots?
301
00:14:18,485 --> 00:14:21,071
- You're not dying.
- I feel like I am.
302
00:14:21,071 --> 00:14:22,697
You're not.
303
00:14:22,697 --> 00:14:24,991
You're just maybe gonna have a baby.
304
00:14:24,991 --> 00:14:26,076
[Clare chuckles derisively]
305
00:14:26,076 --> 00:14:27,077
Or maybe not.
306
00:14:27,994 --> 00:14:29,621
Either way, you need to tell Danny.
307
00:14:30,622 --> 00:14:31,957
YOUNG DANNY:
I thought you were on the pill!
308
00:14:31,957 --> 00:14:34,334
Well, I stopped taking it
after we fucking broke up
309
00:14:34,334 --> 00:14:37,712
to give my--
give my body a break from the hormones!
310
00:14:37,712 --> 00:14:39,923
Fuck! I don't think you understand.
311
00:14:39,923 --> 00:14:42,842
Like, I-- I seriously can't deal
with this right now. I have--
312
00:14:42,842 --> 00:14:45,845
Okay. Okay, Danny,
I'm sorry it's so stressful for you!
DANNY: Stop! Stop!
313
00:14:45,845 --> 00:14:46,846
That's not what I meant!
314
00:14:46,846 --> 00:14:49,474
- Why are you yelling?
- Because I'm fucking frustrated!
315
00:14:49,891 --> 00:14:50,892
And we're both yelling.
316
00:14:51,476 --> 00:14:52,561
[softly] You yelled first.
317
00:14:54,396 --> 00:14:56,231
Clare, I can barely pay rent.
318
00:14:57,774 --> 00:14:58,733
And the band--
319
00:14:59,693 --> 00:15:03,363
I can't be in South America
when you're having a baby, Clare.
320
00:15:03,363 --> 00:15:04,364
I can't.
321
00:15:04,364 --> 00:15:06,157
- South America?
- Yeah.
322
00:15:07,367 --> 00:15:08,785
Brazil and Argentina.
323
00:15:08,785 --> 00:15:10,036
Shit.
324
00:15:11,371 --> 00:15:12,372
What?
325
00:15:13,415 --> 00:15:14,708
Shit!
326
00:15:14,708 --> 00:15:16,251
- We're just...
- Danny, shit!
327
00:15:16,251 --> 00:15:17,252
...the openers.
328
00:15:17,794 --> 00:15:20,589
It's not-- Well, first of two openers.
It's nothing.
329
00:15:20,589 --> 00:15:22,132
What-- What am I talking about?
330
00:15:22,132 --> 00:15:24,551
I feel like a fucking asshole
talking about my band right now!
331
00:15:24,551 --> 00:15:26,011
Who cares about my band?
332
00:15:26,011 --> 00:15:27,929
I care about your band.
You care about your band.
333
00:15:28,930 --> 00:15:29,931
And you should.
334
00:15:32,225 --> 00:15:34,603
I love... I love your band.
335
00:15:37,147 --> 00:15:38,148
I love you.
336
00:15:40,859 --> 00:15:44,988
And I don't wanna be some cliché
of an absentee father either.
337
00:15:44,988 --> 00:15:46,489
My family will fucking disown me.
338
00:15:46,489 --> 00:15:48,366
[Danny sighs]
339
00:15:49,284 --> 00:15:50,201
[softly] Fuck!
340
00:15:53,830 --> 00:15:54,831
Yeah, that's--
341
00:15:55,707 --> 00:15:57,000
That's not the same as loving me.
342
00:15:57,000 --> 00:15:58,001
I do love you.
343
00:15:58,668 --> 00:15:59,753
You fucking know that, Clare.
344
00:16:06,218 --> 00:16:07,719
Okay. Um...
345
00:16:12,933 --> 00:16:15,393
- The timing's terrible. Obviously.
- Yeah.
346
00:16:15,393 --> 00:16:16,728
Yeah, we're not even together.
347
00:16:19,314 --> 00:16:21,358
- This isn't that hard to figure out.
- You know, I mean--
348
00:16:22,025 --> 00:16:23,610
I mean,
if this is how we got back together,
349
00:16:23,610 --> 00:16:25,570
- we'd always know this was the reason.
- Exactly!
350
00:16:29,491 --> 00:16:31,159
I'd have to give up music.
351
00:16:31,910 --> 00:16:35,038
I'd have to-- I'd--
I'd have to get a-- a desk job
352
00:16:35,038 --> 00:16:36,748
or whatever gives benefits.
353
00:16:36,748 --> 00:16:37,791
Like, what are my skills?
354
00:16:37,791 --> 00:16:38,792
What-- What can I even do?
355
00:16:38,792 --> 00:16:40,252
I'ma have to go back to school,
356
00:16:40,252 --> 00:16:41,753
get a fucking degree.
357
00:16:41,753 --> 00:16:44,506
Danny, stop! Just stop for a second.
358
00:16:57,227 --> 00:16:58,228
It's okay.
359
00:17:00,522 --> 00:17:02,232
- No, it's not--
- It's okay.
360
00:17:03,316 --> 00:17:04,401
We broke up for a reason.
361
00:17:06,194 --> 00:17:09,364
We need to go out,
and we need to live our lives.
362
00:17:09,364 --> 00:17:11,741
You go on tour. Fucking kill Argentina.
363
00:17:12,409 --> 00:17:14,035
Fucking kill Brazil!
364
00:17:14,035 --> 00:17:15,036
I'm gonna--
365
00:17:16,329 --> 00:17:20,458
I'm gonna go to Iceland
and climb a... glacier or something.
366
00:17:22,085 --> 00:17:23,587
I'm gonna live my life.
367
00:17:26,047 --> 00:17:27,674
And I think you should live yours.
368
00:17:28,675 --> 00:17:31,678
♪ somber music playing ♪
369
00:17:37,851 --> 00:17:39,644
Ugh, what the fuck?
370
00:17:40,312 --> 00:17:43,189
[panting]
[door opens]
371
00:17:43,189 --> 00:17:44,357
GIRL:
Mrs. Pierce?
372
00:17:45,525 --> 00:17:48,862
Oh, hi, uh, Montana.
373
00:17:49,446 --> 00:17:50,989
[panting]
374
00:17:50,989 --> 00:17:52,616
It's a lot of stairs.
375
00:17:53,408 --> 00:17:54,826
Grocery day must be a...
376
00:17:54,826 --> 00:17:56,828
[panting]
377
00:17:56,828 --> 00:17:57,954
...a workout!
378
00:17:57,954 --> 00:17:59,915
Oh, our groceries are delivered.
379
00:17:59,915 --> 00:18:03,168
But I get it.
It takes my grandma, like, a half hour.
380
00:18:03,919 --> 00:18:06,421
Can I get you a beverage?
Or perhaps a towel?
381
00:18:06,922 --> 00:18:09,132
Uh, that's okay. I just, um...
382
00:18:10,050 --> 00:18:11,051
Uh...
383
00:18:11,760 --> 00:18:14,512
[exhales] Actually, water would be great.
Thank you so much.
384
00:18:14,512 --> 00:18:16,932
Uh, still, sparkling, or pH-enhanced?
385
00:18:17,807 --> 00:18:18,683
Never mind, that's okay.
386
00:18:19,351 --> 00:18:21,728
Uh, is your, uh... [exhales]
387
00:18:23,271 --> 00:18:24,689
[exhales] Excuse me.
388
00:18:24,689 --> 00:18:28,026
Is your mom home?
I was, uh, hoping to speak with your mom.
389
00:18:28,026 --> 00:18:29,653
She's in Barcelona.
390
00:18:31,238 --> 00:18:32,364
Of course, she is.
391
00:18:32,948 --> 00:18:34,741
Is there anything else
I can help you with?
392
00:18:36,534 --> 00:18:37,535
Actually...
393
00:18:38,620 --> 00:18:39,788
I was wondering...
394
00:18:43,541 --> 00:18:45,835
what made you think it was a good idea
395
00:18:45,835 --> 00:18:50,590
to orchestrate an orgy
in me and my husband's bedroom?
396
00:18:51,841 --> 00:18:53,051
That was Rae's idea.
397
00:18:54,052 --> 00:18:55,053
That's bullshit.
398
00:18:55,053 --> 00:18:58,640
Maybe you weren't aware
that she's completely obsessed with me.
399
00:18:58,640 --> 00:18:59,849
I mean, why do you think
400
00:18:59,849 --> 00:19:02,269
she decided
to start going by her middle name?
401
00:19:02,269 --> 00:19:03,478
What?
402
00:19:03,478 --> 00:19:05,313
I said "Rae" was cooler.
403
00:19:06,273 --> 00:19:08,191
I can't help that she's in love with me.
404
00:19:08,984 --> 00:19:09,985
Look,
405
00:19:11,236 --> 00:19:12,529
you little entitled,
406
00:19:13,446 --> 00:19:14,823
fucking, pretentious,
407
00:19:15,490 --> 00:19:17,659
little, fucking dipshit.
408
00:19:18,159 --> 00:19:21,621
First of all, her name
is not for you to change.
409
00:19:22,122 --> 00:19:25,584
Second, if someone is in love with you,
410
00:19:25,584 --> 00:19:27,794
you treat them with respect.
411
00:19:27,794 --> 00:19:29,713
Are you sure you don't want a towel?
412
00:19:29,713 --> 00:19:33,925
[exhales] You treat their heart
413
00:19:33,925 --> 00:19:37,304
like you are holding
a fucking day-old duckling
414
00:19:37,304 --> 00:19:41,892
whose neck could break
at any fucking second, okay?
415
00:19:41,892 --> 00:19:44,686
Oh, my God, duckling? Are you, like, 50?
416
00:19:44,686 --> 00:19:46,938
No, I'm fucking 49 years old!
417
00:19:46,938 --> 00:19:49,190
And I know
how to have a fucking threesome.
418
00:19:49,190 --> 00:19:51,735
Not that pathetic little pussy-ass shit!
419
00:19:51,735 --> 00:19:54,321
That's offensive and self-hating.
420
00:19:54,321 --> 00:19:55,822
Do you have any idea
421
00:19:55,822 --> 00:19:59,242
how fucking lucky you are
to be loved by her?
422
00:19:59,242 --> 00:20:02,370
I would fucking kill
to have a fucking ounce of that love,
423
00:20:02,370 --> 00:20:04,205
and she wastes it on you?
424
00:20:04,205 --> 00:20:06,166
What kinda fucking name is "Montana"?
425
00:20:06,833 --> 00:20:10,212
Who are you? Fucking Brad Pitt
in fucking A River Runs Through It,
426
00:20:10,212 --> 00:20:13,506
thinking everyone wants to fuck you
because you have fucking great hair?
427
00:20:14,299 --> 00:20:15,300
[kid chuckles]
428
00:20:20,555 --> 00:20:23,183
Okay, your-- That child was filming this,
429
00:20:23,183 --> 00:20:26,478
so you could ask him
to fucking kindly delete it from the apps.
430
00:20:26,478 --> 00:20:27,479
All the apps.
431
00:20:30,941 --> 00:20:32,859
[Rae sniffling]
432
00:20:36,863 --> 00:20:37,864
Hey, guys.
433
00:20:39,532 --> 00:20:40,742
What's wrong?
434
00:20:41,326 --> 00:20:42,327
You!
435
00:20:43,578 --> 00:20:44,788
- Well, I-- I--
- Please don't.
436
00:20:48,333 --> 00:20:49,918
There's a TikTok.
437
00:20:49,918 --> 00:20:52,087
[Rae crying]
438
00:20:52,087 --> 00:20:53,129
Of course, there is.
439
00:20:55,924 --> 00:20:57,926
Honey. Can I--
440
00:20:58,718 --> 00:20:59,719
[door rattles]
441
00:21:02,138 --> 00:21:05,850
Okay. If you wanna talk about anything,
442
00:21:05,850 --> 00:21:07,143
I-- I'm right-- I'm right here--
443
00:21:07,143 --> 00:21:08,353
RAE:
I won't!
444
00:21:08,353 --> 00:21:09,563
Ever!
445
00:21:13,024 --> 00:21:14,025
[Danny sighs]
446
00:21:18,488 --> 00:21:19,531
What do you think of black?
447
00:21:21,700 --> 00:21:22,701
For a cradle?
448
00:21:25,287 --> 00:21:26,413
Yeah. Badass.
449
00:21:36,047 --> 00:21:37,048
What do you think?
450
00:21:37,841 --> 00:21:38,633
It's great.
451
00:21:38,633 --> 00:21:39,926
- CLARE: Yeah?
- Mm-hm.
452
00:21:39,926 --> 00:21:41,219
For a tablecloth.
453
00:21:41,970 --> 00:21:43,179
[Clare laughs]
454
00:21:43,179 --> 00:21:44,180
Mom would love it.
455
00:21:45,015 --> 00:21:46,016
Yeah.
456
00:21:52,564 --> 00:21:56,693
Listen, I'm-- I'm gonna get a legit job
and-- and help with the bills.
457
00:21:57,360 --> 00:22:00,363
Maybe we could move back
to Mom's together.
458
00:22:02,574 --> 00:22:03,575
Yeah, maybe.
459
00:22:05,869 --> 00:22:07,704
You know,
you're better off without that asshole.
460
00:22:10,165 --> 00:22:11,291
He's not an asshole.
461
00:22:19,007 --> 00:22:20,425
CLARE:
Dear Undecided.
462
00:22:21,218 --> 00:22:23,470
Every life has a sister-ship.
463
00:22:24,262 --> 00:22:28,225
A ship that follows the path
we could have taken but didn't.
464
00:22:29,935 --> 00:22:32,646
On that ship
is the person we would've been
465
00:22:32,646 --> 00:22:34,564
if we had taken that phantom path.
466
00:22:37,400 --> 00:22:40,654
And that person
lives a different phantom life
467
00:22:40,654 --> 00:22:42,030
than the one you're living now.
468
00:22:47,619 --> 00:22:51,831
So the question is:
who do you intend to be?
469
00:22:57,546 --> 00:23:00,924
You believe
you could be happy in any scenario,
470
00:23:03,343 --> 00:23:06,972
becoming a parent or remaining childless.
471
00:23:07,556 --> 00:23:10,559
And you wrote because you want clarity,
472
00:23:11,351 --> 00:23:12,519
but there won't be any.
473
00:23:14,229 --> 00:23:15,230
At least not yet.
474
00:23:16,690 --> 00:23:19,359
There will only be the choice you make
475
00:23:19,359 --> 00:23:23,029
and the sure knowledge
that that choice, any choice,
476
00:23:23,029 --> 00:23:24,698
will contain some loss.
477
00:23:37,919 --> 00:23:42,048
So get out a pen and paper,
and make a list.
478
00:23:42,924 --> 00:23:45,719
Write down everything you know
about your real life
479
00:23:45,719 --> 00:23:49,472
and everything that you imagine
about your future life.
480
00:23:49,472 --> 00:23:50,849
And then look at them both.
481
00:23:51,516 --> 00:23:52,726
YOUNG LUCAS:
Okay, let's take that.
482
00:23:52,726 --> 00:23:55,604
We gotta go. We gotta go now!
483
00:23:56,563 --> 00:23:59,649
[Clare groaning]
484
00:23:59,649 --> 00:24:01,484
- LUCAS: I gotta get to the door.
- Okay. Okay.
485
00:24:01,484 --> 00:24:02,944
- Oh!
- Sorry. Sorry.
486
00:24:02,944 --> 00:24:04,905
Oh, my fucking God!
487
00:24:05,614 --> 00:24:07,282
CLARE:
One is the life you'll have
488
00:24:07,991 --> 00:24:10,201
and the other
is the sister-life you won't.
489
00:24:10,994 --> 00:24:13,330
And you get to decide what to do.
490
00:24:16,666 --> 00:24:18,752
CLARE: [on TikTok]
What kinda fucking name is "Montana"?
491
00:24:19,461 --> 00:24:20,712
Who the fuck do you think you are?
492
00:24:20,712 --> 00:24:23,131
Fucking Brad Pitt
in fucking A River Runs Through It?
493
00:24:23,965 --> 00:24:26,134
Fucking--
"Oh, everybody wants to fuck me--"
494
00:24:26,134 --> 00:24:28,845
- I can't. I can't!
- Clare, yes, you can.
495
00:24:29,888 --> 00:24:31,181
Yes, you can.
496
00:24:31,932 --> 00:24:35,018
CLARE: There are certain things
I wouldn't know until I became a mom.
497
00:24:35,560 --> 00:24:39,481
And certain things I will never know
because I became one.
498
00:24:44,694 --> 00:24:48,114
Who would I have been
without my child the last 16 years?
499
00:24:50,617 --> 00:24:53,411
Who would I have met if I had traveled
to the corners of the Earth?
500
00:24:53,411 --> 00:24:55,372
And where would that have taken me?
501
00:24:55,872 --> 00:24:58,875
♪
502
00:25:06,258 --> 00:25:08,718
I just know the clarity that I longed for
503
00:25:08,718 --> 00:25:11,596
happened when I held
my daughter's body against mine.
504
00:25:11,596 --> 00:25:12,973
What should we name her?
505
00:25:12,973 --> 00:25:14,808
CLARE:
And in that moment, one life ended...
506
00:25:16,601 --> 00:25:17,727
and another began.
507
00:25:18,395 --> 00:25:19,396
Frankie.
508
00:25:22,440 --> 00:25:24,442
[baby fussing]
509
00:25:24,442 --> 00:25:25,944
Hi, little Frankie.
510
00:25:27,946 --> 00:25:28,947
Hi.
511
00:25:33,868 --> 00:25:34,869
[door opens]
512
00:25:40,083 --> 00:25:41,084
You told me to live my life.
513
00:25:44,629 --> 00:25:45,672
This is it.
514
00:25:46,548 --> 00:25:48,550
♪
515
00:25:52,846 --> 00:25:54,222
CLARE:
Do you wanna hold her?
516
00:25:54,222 --> 00:25:56,224
DANNY: Uh, yeah.
CLARE: Here.
517
00:26:00,770 --> 00:26:01,771
Hey. Hey.
518
00:26:02,898 --> 00:26:05,442
Hey, it's, uh... It's midnight.
519
00:26:10,780 --> 00:26:11,907
You think she's okay?
520
00:26:14,284 --> 00:26:15,994
I think she just needs space, you know?
521
00:26:16,745 --> 00:26:17,746
[Clare groans]
522
00:26:18,663 --> 00:26:19,831
You should get some sleep.
523
00:26:20,999 --> 00:26:23,376
Why? What do I need to do tomorrow?
524
00:26:23,376 --> 00:26:24,377
[chuckles]
525
00:26:25,420 --> 00:26:27,047
Maybe you wanna
go for a hike or something?
526
00:26:27,589 --> 00:26:30,592
♪
527
00:26:38,600 --> 00:26:39,601
Yeah.
528
00:26:40,477 --> 00:26:41,478
Maybe.
529
00:26:43,063 --> 00:26:46,066
♪
530
00:26:57,035 --> 00:26:58,995
I'll never know the life I didn't choose.
531
00:26:59,788 --> 00:27:00,789
And neither will you.
532
00:27:02,082 --> 00:27:04,709
We'll only know
that whatever that sister-life was,
533
00:27:05,418 --> 00:27:07,837
it was important and beautiful.
534
00:27:08,505 --> 00:27:09,839
And not ours.
535
00:27:13,176 --> 00:27:14,427
Hey, pretty girl.
536
00:27:15,595 --> 00:27:16,596
Hey.
537
00:27:17,389 --> 00:27:18,348
Hey, man.
538
00:27:20,308 --> 00:27:22,561
Thank you. For everything.
539
00:27:26,523 --> 00:27:28,608
CLARE:
It was the ghost ship
that didn't carry us.
540
00:27:34,948 --> 00:27:38,702
There is nothing to do
but salute her from the shore.
541
00:27:49,296 --> 00:27:50,297
Yours,
542
00:27:51,339 --> 00:27:52,340
Sugar.
543
00:27:54,175 --> 00:27:56,177
♪ Looking Out by Brandi Carlile playing ♪
544
00:27:58,096 --> 00:28:02,517
♪ I went out looking for the answers ♪
545
00:28:02,517 --> 00:28:05,687
♪ And never left my town ♪
546
00:28:05,687 --> 00:28:09,024
♪ I'm no good at understanding ♪
547
00:28:09,024 --> 00:28:12,110
♪ But I'm good at standing ground ♪
548
00:28:13,570 --> 00:28:17,407
♪ And when I asked a corner preacher ♪
549
00:28:17,407 --> 00:28:20,452
♪ I couldn't hear him for my youth ♪
550
00:28:21,161 --> 00:28:24,581
♪ Some people get religion ♪
551
00:28:24,581 --> 00:28:27,334
♪ Some people get the truth ♪
552
00:28:28,168 --> 00:28:30,962
♪ I never get the truth ♪
553
00:28:34,090 --> 00:28:38,345
♪ I know the darkness pulls on you ♪
554
00:28:38,345 --> 00:28:41,556
♪ But it's just a point of view ♪
555
00:28:41,556 --> 00:28:44,851
♪ When you're outside looking in ♪
556
00:28:44,851 --> 00:28:48,313
♪ You belong to someone ♪
557
00:28:48,313 --> 00:28:52,067
♪ And when you feel like giving in ♪
558
00:28:52,067 --> 00:28:55,362
♪ Or the coming of the end ♪
559
00:28:55,362 --> 00:28:59,282
♪ Like your heart could break in two ♪