1 00:00:01,043 --> 00:00:03,046 [dog barking] 2 00:00:03,046 --> 00:00:06,049 [footsteps thudding] [people grunting, panting] 3 00:00:07,300 --> 00:00:08,301 GIRL: Careful. 4 00:00:09,302 --> 00:00:10,303 BOY: You're drunk. 5 00:00:13,056 --> 00:00:14,391 [indistinct talking] 6 00:00:16,601 --> 00:00:18,353 BOY: Okay, here's good. 7 00:00:18,353 --> 00:00:19,229 [thuds] 8 00:00:19,229 --> 00:00:20,146 [girl giggling] 9 00:00:20,146 --> 00:00:22,107 Let's get out of here. GIRL: Okay. Go, go. Come on. 10 00:00:22,107 --> 00:00:23,233 [both giggling] 11 00:00:25,318 --> 00:00:27,070 [retches and vomits] 12 00:00:28,488 --> 00:00:29,489 [Rae groaning] 13 00:00:39,666 --> 00:00:41,167 Is that the Little Dipper? 14 00:00:42,210 --> 00:00:44,087 That's the Big Dipper, doofus. 15 00:00:44,087 --> 00:00:47,007 Actually, you're both wrong. 16 00:00:47,007 --> 00:00:48,091 LITTLE CLARE: Can we go back now? 17 00:00:48,091 --> 00:00:49,092 FRANKIE: Nope. 18 00:00:49,718 --> 00:00:51,761 Be patient, sweet peas. 19 00:00:51,761 --> 00:00:54,180 YOUNG CLARE: I'm tired. It's too hot. 20 00:00:54,180 --> 00:00:55,849 You said you wanted air. 21 00:00:55,849 --> 00:00:58,768 Conditioning. I want air-conditioning. 22 00:00:58,768 --> 00:01:00,896 Well, we would need electricity for that. 23 00:01:01,605 --> 00:01:03,273 And a bathroom inside. 24 00:01:03,690 --> 00:01:05,984 Everyone I know gets to poop inside. 25 00:01:07,444 --> 00:01:09,654 And you will have all those things someday. 26 00:01:10,363 --> 00:01:13,742 But this... This is better than any of those things. 27 00:01:14,868 --> 00:01:15,869 I promise. 28 00:01:15,869 --> 00:01:17,495 [gate squeaking] 29 00:01:18,496 --> 00:01:20,415 [whispering] Okay. It's time. 30 00:01:21,124 --> 00:01:22,584 Close your eyes. 31 00:01:23,501 --> 00:01:25,295 And be really quiet. 32 00:01:25,921 --> 00:01:27,672 And I'll say when you can open them. 33 00:01:27,672 --> 00:01:29,341 - [horse nickers] - What's that noise? 34 00:01:34,596 --> 00:01:36,598 [horses nickering] 35 00:01:40,477 --> 00:01:42,312 [whispering] Okay. Now. 36 00:01:44,981 --> 00:01:46,316 [horse whinnying] [Little Clare gasps] 37 00:01:46,816 --> 00:01:49,819 ♪ 38 00:02:03,166 --> 00:02:06,169 ♪ 39 00:02:23,353 --> 00:02:25,313 LITTLE LUCAS: Do they belong to us, Mommy? 40 00:02:25,313 --> 00:02:26,982 I wish they did. 41 00:02:28,066 --> 00:02:29,192 Hi, Lady. 42 00:02:29,985 --> 00:02:31,820 You sweet, sweet girl. 43 00:02:51,256 --> 00:02:52,674 What the fuck? 44 00:02:53,383 --> 00:02:54,384 [phone chimes] 45 00:02:57,679 --> 00:02:59,681 "Due to your pending investigation, 46 00:02:59,681 --> 00:03:03,018 you are required to complete an online ethics and boundaries course." 47 00:03:03,018 --> 00:03:04,644 Oh, fuck you, boundaries. 48 00:03:06,313 --> 00:03:07,522 [phone chimes] 49 00:03:11,818 --> 00:03:13,028 Mm. 50 00:03:13,028 --> 00:03:14,029 [door opens] 51 00:03:14,029 --> 00:03:16,072 DANNY: Clare! Clare, come here! 52 00:03:19,701 --> 00:03:20,744 Why is she on a surfboard? 53 00:03:20,744 --> 00:03:22,162 I don't know. I just came outside and she was-- 54 00:03:22,162 --> 00:03:24,289 CLARE: Rae, are you okay? Are you hurt? 55 00:03:24,289 --> 00:03:26,082 What-- Uh-- What-- Uh, who left you here? 56 00:03:26,082 --> 00:03:29,044 No one. I'm f-- I'm fine. 57 00:03:31,963 --> 00:03:33,548 Frankie Rae, are you drunk? 58 00:03:33,548 --> 00:03:35,508 Have you guys ever had a White Russian? 59 00:03:35,508 --> 00:03:37,469 Since when do you drink, Rae? CLARE: Oh, my God. 60 00:03:37,469 --> 00:03:39,888 Rae, I need you to get up right now and come inside the house. 61 00:03:40,388 --> 00:03:41,973 [Rae mumbles] 62 00:03:41,973 --> 00:03:44,893 Frankie Rae, I want you to look at me and talk to me right now. 63 00:03:45,518 --> 00:03:47,479 Who left you here like this? 64 00:03:47,479 --> 00:03:50,232 Was it those awful threesome people? Is that who did this? 65 00:03:50,232 --> 00:03:51,066 Are they the same ones 66 00:03:51,066 --> 00:03:52,901 - who made you eat that cucumber? - What? 67 00:03:52,901 --> 00:03:53,818 CLARE: I saw that. 68 00:03:53,818 --> 00:03:55,487 Did they make you eat that cucumber? 69 00:03:55,487 --> 00:03:56,696 Who made you eat that cucumber? 70 00:03:58,657 --> 00:04:00,867 MAN: [on video] I love what you did with the Peterson case. 71 00:04:00,867 --> 00:04:03,912 You know, a massage can make a stressful day seem better. 72 00:04:03,912 --> 00:04:06,957 WOMAN: [on video] That sounds great, but I actually have to get home. 73 00:04:08,458 --> 00:04:12,087 So we see here that Bob is not only being suggestive to Rhonda, 74 00:04:12,087 --> 00:04:13,964 he's violating her personal space. 75 00:04:13,964 --> 00:04:16,424 And that's the thing about personal space. 76 00:04:16,424 --> 00:04:17,634 It's personal. 77 00:04:21,263 --> 00:04:22,264 [quick knocks on door] 78 00:04:22,264 --> 00:04:23,682 All right, come on. Let's wake up. 79 00:04:26,351 --> 00:04:27,352 Now! 80 00:04:27,352 --> 00:04:28,353 We're gonna be-- 81 00:04:29,813 --> 00:04:31,940 Now! Let's get up. Let's go! 82 00:04:37,112 --> 00:04:38,280 RAE: I hate those stars. 83 00:04:38,280 --> 00:04:41,241 What? You named your first hamster Cassiopeia. 84 00:04:41,241 --> 00:04:43,159 Yeah, well, I'm taking them down. 85 00:04:43,159 --> 00:04:44,703 Your dad is playing today. 86 00:04:44,703 --> 00:04:45,870 You need to be there early. 87 00:04:45,870 --> 00:04:49,666 And having a hangover does not qualify as a reason to skip church. 88 00:04:49,666 --> 00:04:51,918 RAE: Why do you even care? You don't even believe in God. 89 00:04:51,918 --> 00:04:55,505 It's Easter, and it is time to resurrect. 90 00:04:57,132 --> 00:04:58,508 [Rae groans] Let's go. 91 00:05:00,302 --> 00:05:01,303 [Rae sighs] 92 00:05:03,513 --> 00:05:04,973 You skip every Sunday. 93 00:05:04,973 --> 00:05:06,474 Su-- Sundays are my time to write. 94 00:05:06,474 --> 00:05:07,851 RAE: Yeah, except you never do. 95 00:05:09,769 --> 00:05:11,980 Do you realize that you could've been assaulted last night? 96 00:05:12,647 --> 00:05:13,648 Or worse. 97 00:05:14,774 --> 00:05:18,653 And your so-called friends just left you on our lawn 98 00:05:18,653 --> 00:05:20,572 to choke on your own barf. 99 00:05:20,572 --> 00:05:21,990 So who was that? Was that Montana? 100 00:05:21,990 --> 00:05:23,116 It wasn't Montana. 101 00:05:23,116 --> 00:05:25,535 Wh-- Wh-- Why can't you make some just nice new friends? 102 00:05:25,535 --> 00:05:28,163 - Like, what happened to Bethany from dance? - Can you just stop? 103 00:05:28,163 --> 00:05:29,998 Do you know if something happened to you, 104 00:05:29,998 --> 00:05:31,750 I would not be able to survive? 105 00:05:31,750 --> 00:05:33,752 Do you realize that? I would die! 106 00:05:33,752 --> 00:05:35,128 My life would be over! 107 00:05:35,128 --> 00:05:36,671 I would not be able to go on. 108 00:05:36,671 --> 00:05:38,215 Then I guess you shouldn't have had me! 109 00:05:40,800 --> 00:05:41,801 [door closes] 110 00:05:43,595 --> 00:05:45,805 Why are you mad at me? 111 00:05:46,598 --> 00:05:47,599 Frankie? 112 00:05:48,266 --> 00:05:49,184 Frankie? 113 00:05:49,184 --> 00:05:50,560 Stop calling me that! 114 00:05:50,560 --> 00:05:52,771 When is this bullshit gonna end? 115 00:05:52,771 --> 00:05:54,898 The White Russians, and the surfboards, 116 00:05:54,898 --> 00:05:59,361 and the giving a shit about a person that is so clearly beneath you? 117 00:05:59,361 --> 00:06:01,696 And rejecting your own grandmother's name? 118 00:06:01,696 --> 00:06:03,865 She was never my grandmother! 119 00:06:03,865 --> 00:06:04,866 [door slams shut] 120 00:06:05,867 --> 00:06:06,868 [exhales] 121 00:06:08,036 --> 00:06:09,037 [groans] 122 00:06:12,040 --> 00:06:14,167 Well, can you talk to her? Because she fucking hates me. 123 00:06:14,167 --> 00:06:16,378 Yeah, yeah. I'm gonna do a lot more than talk to her. 124 00:06:16,962 --> 00:06:18,213 I'm gonna ground her ass. 125 00:06:19,047 --> 00:06:20,757 Really? An Easter basket? 126 00:06:20,757 --> 00:06:22,384 Well, it's tradition. 127 00:06:23,843 --> 00:06:24,803 Tradition as well? 128 00:06:27,055 --> 00:06:28,056 Oh, my God. 129 00:06:28,056 --> 00:06:29,808 Was that pickle flavored? 130 00:06:38,316 --> 00:06:39,484 Happy Easter. 131 00:06:40,402 --> 00:06:41,736 Let's go. 132 00:06:53,373 --> 00:06:55,250 So I'll just meet you at brunch then? 133 00:06:55,250 --> 00:06:56,877 Oh, so you're coming to brunch? 134 00:06:56,877 --> 00:06:58,336 Unless it's going to feel weird. 135 00:06:58,879 --> 00:06:59,963 I mean, why wouldn't I-- 136 00:06:59,963 --> 00:07:02,883 No, no. I mean, it won't be weird if we don't make it weird. 137 00:07:02,883 --> 00:07:04,968 I just don't want anyone to think anything is wrong. 138 00:07:08,221 --> 00:07:09,514 Okay, um... 139 00:07:09,514 --> 00:07:10,974 If you don't want to go, then don't go. 140 00:07:10,974 --> 00:07:13,018 I'll just make an excuse then, you know? 141 00:07:13,018 --> 00:07:15,979 Uh, you can stay here. I'll tell them that you're-- 142 00:07:15,979 --> 00:07:16,980 that you're writing. 143 00:07:16,980 --> 00:07:19,274 That wouldn't be an excuse. I do write. 144 00:07:19,274 --> 00:07:21,526 I'll take this just in case she changes her mind. 145 00:07:21,526 --> 00:07:23,486 Danny, I haven't even said that I'm not gonna-- 146 00:07:23,486 --> 00:07:25,906 I-- I'm coming. I can bring the basket. 147 00:07:25,906 --> 00:07:27,574 Look, I, uh, I think you're right. 148 00:07:27,574 --> 00:07:30,619 You know, we don't want 'em to know that things aren't normal. 149 00:07:30,619 --> 00:07:31,786 Happy writing. 150 00:07:35,790 --> 00:07:36,791 [door closes] 151 00:07:40,212 --> 00:07:43,215 ♪ 152 00:07:59,606 --> 00:08:01,608 [telephone ringing] 153 00:08:05,779 --> 00:08:07,489 Hello? FRANKIE: [over phone] Hi, honey. 154 00:08:07,489 --> 00:08:10,033 Hi. Hey, Mom. Um, sorry, can I call you back? 155 00:08:10,033 --> 00:08:13,245 I'm working on that essay competition for Pleiades. 156 00:08:13,245 --> 00:08:14,329 I need you to come home. 157 00:08:15,163 --> 00:08:16,414 Why? What's wrong? 158 00:08:16,414 --> 00:08:17,165 Today. 159 00:08:17,165 --> 00:08:18,458 CLARE: [over phone] Today? No, I can't, Mom. 160 00:08:18,458 --> 00:08:20,126 I have work, then class tonight. 161 00:08:20,126 --> 00:08:21,336 You need to come home right now. 162 00:08:24,631 --> 00:08:25,632 Okay. 163 00:08:27,801 --> 00:08:28,802 Okay. Yeah. 164 00:08:30,136 --> 00:08:31,137 Sure. 165 00:08:34,015 --> 00:08:35,016 WOMAN: Dear Sugar, 166 00:08:35,642 --> 00:08:40,313 I'm writing this from my little bed in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit. 167 00:08:41,147 --> 00:08:43,066 My husband and I just found out 168 00:08:43,066 --> 00:08:47,529 that our six-month-old daughter has a brain tumor 169 00:08:47,529 --> 00:08:50,657 and she's having brain surgery tomorrow. 170 00:08:53,159 --> 00:08:55,787 People have poured all their thoughts and prayers 171 00:08:55,787 --> 00:08:56,997 into us right now. 172 00:09:04,254 --> 00:09:06,590 I want to believe the prayers are working, 173 00:09:06,590 --> 00:09:08,550 but... I don't know. 174 00:09:11,261 --> 00:09:13,346 I've never been super religious 175 00:09:15,015 --> 00:09:20,020 but... now I find myself doubting God's existence 176 00:09:20,812 --> 00:09:21,813 more than ever. 177 00:09:25,233 --> 00:09:30,030 I'm so scared that I'll lose my sweet baby girl. 178 00:09:31,156 --> 00:09:32,532 If there was a God, 179 00:09:34,034 --> 00:09:36,036 why would He let this happen to us? 180 00:09:41,082 --> 00:09:43,627 [phone vibrating] 181 00:09:49,382 --> 00:09:50,592 AMY: Well, at least she made it home. 182 00:09:51,676 --> 00:09:55,931 How many shit bunkers did we happen to wake up in? 183 00:09:56,890 --> 00:09:58,475 Remember Burger? CLARE: Oh, God. 184 00:09:58,475 --> 00:09:59,434 With the van? 185 00:10:00,018 --> 00:10:02,395 And the trash bag that was full of mushrooms? 186 00:10:02,395 --> 00:10:05,106 What? What? [Clare laughing] 187 00:10:05,106 --> 00:10:08,485 Do you remember that he would just play Free Bird on repeat? 188 00:10:09,444 --> 00:10:11,571 And also, P.S. vans. 189 00:10:11,571 --> 00:10:13,114 Vans. CLARE: Terrifying! 190 00:10:13,114 --> 00:10:15,242 Vans. Ugh. 191 00:10:15,242 --> 00:10:17,535 It's kind of a miracle that we're alive, really. 192 00:10:17,535 --> 00:10:18,620 - When you think about it. - Yep. 193 00:10:19,287 --> 00:10:21,331 Hi. Can you just keep these coming? 194 00:10:21,331 --> 00:10:22,332 WAITER: Sure. AMY: Thank you. 195 00:10:23,917 --> 00:10:27,087 Wow. Come on, Frankie, well, she's a good girl. 196 00:10:27,087 --> 00:10:30,173 Rae! AMY: Whatever she would like to be called. 197 00:10:30,173 --> 00:10:32,092 She's-- She's way smarter than we ever were. 198 00:10:33,301 --> 00:10:34,302 Okay? 199 00:10:34,928 --> 00:10:38,056 Oh, she has to be careful. She does. 200 00:10:38,056 --> 00:10:39,182 I got something. 201 00:10:39,599 --> 00:10:42,477 You'll think I'm brilliant. Here, take these. 202 00:10:42,477 --> 00:10:43,687 Is that a-- What is that? 203 00:10:43,687 --> 00:10:45,063 Those are fentanyl strips. 204 00:10:45,063 --> 00:10:48,066 And they're like the free condoms now. 205 00:10:48,066 --> 00:10:50,277 I keep 'em at the bar. Uh, just give 'em to her. 206 00:10:50,277 --> 00:10:52,195 She can test everything that she's taking. 207 00:10:52,195 --> 00:10:54,322 I know. You wouldn't really think it, 208 00:10:54,322 --> 00:10:56,616 but that shit is just everywhere. 209 00:10:56,616 --> 00:10:58,285 Are you kidding me? AMY: No. 210 00:10:58,285 --> 00:11:00,704 Now I have to worry about fentanyl on top of everything else? 211 00:11:00,704 --> 00:11:01,705 AMY: Yeah, you do. 212 00:11:02,247 --> 00:11:04,874 WOMAN: Good Bloody Mary? [baby crying] 213 00:11:07,878 --> 00:11:09,129 Thanks for the help, Sugar. 214 00:11:12,132 --> 00:11:13,592 AMY: [from distance] 215 00:11:14,718 --> 00:11:15,719 Are you okay? 216 00:11:16,177 --> 00:11:17,178 Yo! 217 00:11:17,178 --> 00:11:19,973 Oh, God. Spin-city. 218 00:11:21,683 --> 00:11:23,059 I mean, it's basically like... 219 00:11:23,059 --> 00:11:24,060 Um... 220 00:11:25,812 --> 00:11:26,813 Are you okay? 221 00:11:26,813 --> 00:11:28,273 CLARE: I-- I-- 222 00:11:28,273 --> 00:11:30,650 I'm sorry. I have to go. AMY: You gotta go? 223 00:11:30,650 --> 00:11:31,943 - We haven't gotten... - I know. 224 00:11:31,943 --> 00:11:33,945 ...to the bottom of our bottomless, please. 225 00:11:33,945 --> 00:11:37,991 Listen, I'm gonna Venmo you for all of this. It's on me. 226 00:11:37,991 --> 00:11:39,200 AMY: What are you doing? 227 00:11:40,827 --> 00:11:41,828 Love you. 228 00:11:41,828 --> 00:11:44,539 - If it's the fentanyl strips, I'm sorry. - No, it's not the fentanyl strips. 229 00:11:44,539 --> 00:11:46,291 - I love you. - I'm sorry-- No, 'cause you're spinning. 230 00:11:46,291 --> 00:11:48,043 I'm not spinning. I love you. AMY: You are. 231 00:11:50,170 --> 00:11:51,171 YOUNG CLARE: Hi, Mom. 232 00:11:51,713 --> 00:11:53,465 Thanks for coming, sweet pea. 233 00:11:55,592 --> 00:11:56,927 Yeah, what's going on? 234 00:11:58,762 --> 00:11:59,888 Why are you all dressed up? 235 00:11:59,888 --> 00:12:03,266 I made spinach lasagna. 236 00:12:03,266 --> 00:12:04,184 For lunch? 237 00:12:04,976 --> 00:12:06,144 What is happening? 238 00:12:06,144 --> 00:12:07,687 FRANKIE: And there's an apple crisp 239 00:12:07,687 --> 00:12:09,397 and ice cream for dessert. 240 00:12:09,397 --> 00:12:11,441 Was this just some ploy to get me to come home? 241 00:12:11,441 --> 00:12:12,734 Don't ask me. 242 00:12:12,734 --> 00:12:13,818 No, it wasn't a ploy. 243 00:12:13,818 --> 00:12:15,946 Okay, well, I had to call in sick. 244 00:12:15,946 --> 00:12:18,823 And I still didn't finish that essay that's due Monday. 245 00:12:18,823 --> 00:12:21,660 I can't just come home just because you miss me. 246 00:12:21,660 --> 00:12:22,661 No one misses you. 247 00:12:22,661 --> 00:12:24,913 Yeah? That's why you keep begging me to come visit? 248 00:12:24,913 --> 00:12:26,915 [sighs] Sit down, everything's ready. 249 00:12:26,915 --> 00:12:29,459 CLARE: No, I'm not gonna sit down until you tell me what was so important 250 00:12:29,459 --> 00:12:31,419 that I drop everything and come home. 251 00:12:36,341 --> 00:12:38,385 Well, it turns out that... 252 00:12:40,595 --> 00:12:44,349 this cold that I seem to have had for months 253 00:12:44,849 --> 00:12:46,351 is, um... 254 00:12:47,978 --> 00:12:49,229 It isn't a cold. 255 00:12:50,230 --> 00:12:51,439 Okay. Well, what is it? 256 00:12:55,110 --> 00:12:57,112 ♪ somber music playing ♪ 257 00:12:59,781 --> 00:13:00,782 Mom? 258 00:13:09,457 --> 00:13:11,960 Honey, what are you doing? 259 00:13:11,960 --> 00:13:13,753 We're gonna need everything we have. 260 00:13:13,753 --> 00:13:14,629 Lucas, help me. 261 00:13:14,629 --> 00:13:16,298 - I don't think-- - Lucas, just help me! 262 00:13:18,466 --> 00:13:20,385 FRANKIE: Well, will you at least have something to eat? 263 00:13:21,136 --> 00:13:22,387 You still need to eat. 264 00:13:22,387 --> 00:13:23,221 Piles of four. 265 00:13:24,306 --> 00:13:25,515 We're gonna see every doctor we can. 266 00:13:26,349 --> 00:13:28,852 There's a cancer center in San Francisco, 267 00:13:28,852 --> 00:13:31,104 and we're going to get a second opinion 268 00:13:31,104 --> 00:13:33,398 and a third and fourth opinion. 269 00:13:33,398 --> 00:13:35,066 And I'm gonna call Jess. 270 00:13:35,692 --> 00:13:36,693 Jess' parents can help. 271 00:13:36,693 --> 00:13:39,112 I'm gonna call him tonight so that-- so that he can call them. 272 00:13:39,112 --> 00:13:41,406 FRANKIE: Honey, there are no more opinions to get. 273 00:13:42,073 --> 00:13:42,991 [softly] That's $5... 274 00:13:42,991 --> 00:13:46,119 The whole team of doctors looked at the scan. 275 00:13:46,620 --> 00:13:50,540 - I have stage IV terminal lung cancer. - Please stop. 276 00:13:50,540 --> 00:13:51,666 FRANKIE: It's not treatable. 277 00:13:53,418 --> 00:13:54,961 We aren't going to treat it. 278 00:13:54,961 --> 00:13:56,379 Stop saying that! 279 00:13:56,379 --> 00:13:58,131 Jesus, Clare. You think that's helping? 280 00:14:01,635 --> 00:14:02,802 I was thinking... 281 00:14:04,221 --> 00:14:05,805 if you want to reach out to your dad... 282 00:14:05,805 --> 00:14:07,515 Why are you bringing him up? 283 00:14:07,515 --> 00:14:08,642 FRANKIE: Because he's your father. 284 00:14:09,226 --> 00:14:10,852 And people can change. 285 00:14:11,603 --> 00:14:14,022 And it's okay to love him even when I'm gone. 286 00:14:16,733 --> 00:14:17,984 CLARE: Well, you're not gonna be gone. 287 00:14:21,488 --> 00:14:23,240 You two may have given up, but I haven't. 288 00:14:26,910 --> 00:14:28,119 [exhales] Okay. 289 00:14:37,462 --> 00:14:38,838 MAN: Wait, I don't get it. 290 00:14:38,838 --> 00:14:40,840 - WOMAN 1: - That's what the kids are into, James. 291 00:14:40,840 --> 00:14:43,134 You're watching someone on the Internet eating? 292 00:14:43,134 --> 00:14:45,387 Oh, but have you seen the girl that does her hair 293 00:14:45,387 --> 00:14:49,015 and tells you about women who just snap and kill people? 294 00:14:49,015 --> 00:14:50,892 Oh, that's quality right there. 295 00:14:50,892 --> 00:14:53,812 Rae, grab your basket and come out here and help your cousin find eggs. 296 00:14:53,812 --> 00:14:56,982 Some of those eggs, they got 20s in 'em. 297 00:14:56,982 --> 00:14:59,067 You know what I used to do for $20? 298 00:14:59,067 --> 00:15:00,360 No one knows. 299 00:15:00,360 --> 00:15:02,362 [all chuckling] 300 00:15:03,697 --> 00:15:06,616 ♪ 301 00:15:06,616 --> 00:15:08,034 Mommy! 302 00:15:11,580 --> 00:15:12,581 What're you doing here? 303 00:15:15,709 --> 00:15:16,710 CLARE: Uh... 304 00:15:18,044 --> 00:15:20,589 I've-- I've brought pastries. 305 00:15:24,593 --> 00:15:26,595 Clare, can I get you something to eat? 306 00:15:26,595 --> 00:15:28,680 - Oh. - I'm gonna fix you something to eat. 307 00:15:28,680 --> 00:15:31,975 Danny said you weren't coming or I would've left lunch out. 308 00:15:31,975 --> 00:15:33,184 Oh, I never said I wasn't-- 309 00:15:33,184 --> 00:15:36,313 Hey, Clare. No chicken salad today? 310 00:15:36,313 --> 00:15:37,731 Uh, I didn't have time to make chicken-- 311 00:15:37,731 --> 00:15:39,900 I just can't with those raisins. 312 00:15:40,317 --> 00:15:42,903 They're currants. I put currants in the chicken. 313 00:15:42,903 --> 00:15:43,904 Ignore her. 314 00:15:44,905 --> 00:15:47,574 Wouldn't be Easter without you, all right? 315 00:15:47,991 --> 00:15:50,452 And hey, don't worry about Rae. 316 00:15:50,452 --> 00:15:52,662 Danny ever come home on a surfboard? 317 00:15:53,413 --> 00:15:56,374 - I was talking about college. - Hmm. 318 00:15:56,374 --> 00:15:58,668 If you all need help, we got you. 319 00:16:00,086 --> 00:16:03,506 WOMAN 2: Let me tell you, if I gave away my kid's college fund, 320 00:16:03,506 --> 00:16:06,134 I'd be somewhere way worse than in the basement, okay? 321 00:16:08,053 --> 00:16:09,721 WOMAN 1: Here, Clare. Have something to eat. 322 00:16:10,305 --> 00:16:11,306 You want some ham? 323 00:16:12,224 --> 00:16:13,225 Okay. 324 00:16:14,226 --> 00:16:15,477 [softly] Are you fucking kidding me? 325 00:16:15,477 --> 00:16:16,686 [softly] It-- It-- It came up. 326 00:16:16,686 --> 00:16:18,271 What the fuck do you mean, "It came up"? 327 00:16:18,271 --> 00:16:19,856 - Clare-- - 'Cause clearly you told them! 328 00:16:19,856 --> 00:16:23,443 Clare, you gave your brother $15,000 of our money. 329 00:16:23,443 --> 00:16:25,904 It's a big fucking deal! I told my dad. So what? 330 00:16:25,904 --> 00:16:30,659 You know how much of our money we give to your family every fucking year? 331 00:16:30,659 --> 00:16:34,329 This whole city is crawling with your relatives. - Okay? 332 00:16:34,329 --> 00:16:38,583 There's graduation. There's weddings. There's baby showers. There's holidays. 333 00:16:38,583 --> 00:16:41,294 All I'm doing is making chicken salad that just goes wasted! 334 00:16:41,294 --> 00:16:42,546 Yeah, because no one likes raisins! 335 00:16:42,546 --> 00:16:43,964 They're currants! 336 00:16:43,964 --> 00:16:46,424 And they're fucking expensive, so just add that to the tab! 337 00:16:46,424 --> 00:16:49,177 - Tab? So-- So we're keeping tally on-- - No, I'm just making a point! 338 00:16:49,177 --> 00:16:51,972 - You give me so much shit about Lucas... - Yeah. 339 00:16:51,972 --> 00:16:53,848 ...when all I do is shit for your family! 340 00:16:53,848 --> 00:16:55,308 Our family, Clare. 341 00:16:55,892 --> 00:16:59,980 Okay, the same family that love us and care for us and took you in. 342 00:16:59,980 --> 00:17:01,231 And-- And-- 343 00:17:01,231 --> 00:17:02,148 You know what? At the end of the day, 344 00:17:02,148 --> 00:17:04,025 it's not even just about the money. 345 00:17:06,152 --> 00:17:08,321 You gave that away without even talking to me about it. 346 00:17:09,072 --> 00:17:11,825 - I'm your husband. - So just take my side. 347 00:17:12,993 --> 00:17:14,160 Just be on my side. 348 00:17:16,371 --> 00:17:19,082 And stop giving your aunt a fucking excuse 349 00:17:19,082 --> 00:17:22,586 to make that fucking face at me every time she fucking sees me! 350 00:17:22,586 --> 00:17:23,587 [yelling] Enough! 351 00:17:27,716 --> 00:17:30,302 Oh. A-- A different aunt. 352 00:17:32,804 --> 00:17:35,015 Oh, my God, what is wrong with you? 353 00:17:35,015 --> 00:17:38,310 You can't keep trapping people in tiny spaces just to yell at them! 354 00:17:38,310 --> 00:17:39,394 CLARE: None of this is okay. 355 00:17:39,811 --> 00:17:40,812 Sneaking out. 356 00:17:41,438 --> 00:17:42,439 Getting drunk. 357 00:17:43,982 --> 00:17:45,734 Being so mean to me! 358 00:17:45,734 --> 00:17:47,986 Why are you so mean to me? Huh? 359 00:17:49,321 --> 00:17:51,364 - No-- - Just stop! 360 00:17:51,364 --> 00:17:53,116 Do you know what's going on out there? 361 00:17:53,116 --> 00:17:54,743 It is a war zone! 362 00:17:54,743 --> 00:17:57,329 There are condoms laced with fentanyl. 363 00:17:57,329 --> 00:17:58,455 You don't even know what you're talking about. 364 00:17:58,455 --> 00:17:59,664 That's not a thing. 365 00:17:59,664 --> 00:18:02,709 All I'm saying is that you need to be careful. 366 00:18:02,709 --> 00:18:04,336 You need to be smart. 367 00:18:04,336 --> 00:18:06,713 You need to find friends who have your back. 368 00:18:06,713 --> 00:18:07,923 I have friends. 369 00:18:09,090 --> 00:18:10,383 What-- What about Bethany? 370 00:18:10,383 --> 00:18:12,344 - Bethany? Bethany? - Yes. She was so sweet. 371 00:18:12,344 --> 00:18:14,971 You know Bethany had anal sex on a Greyhound going to Reno? 372 00:18:14,971 --> 00:18:16,723 - What? - Yeah. 373 00:18:16,723 --> 00:18:19,267 Why would she want to take a bus to Reno? 374 00:18:19,267 --> 00:18:22,020 I don't know, maybe she was hoping it would crash just to annoy her mother. 375 00:18:25,273 --> 00:18:26,566 Okay. 376 00:18:26,566 --> 00:18:28,026 I'ma pray for that Bethany. 377 00:18:28,026 --> 00:18:29,027 Thank you. 378 00:18:34,491 --> 00:18:35,492 Our father 379 00:18:36,368 --> 00:18:38,495 who art in heaven, hallowed be thy-- 380 00:18:39,788 --> 00:18:40,789 Hallowed be thy-- 381 00:18:52,634 --> 00:18:53,843 Fuck Fathers! 382 00:18:55,178 --> 00:18:57,639 Fuck you! Fuck you! 383 00:18:57,639 --> 00:18:59,558 MAN: Didn't you ever hear you catch more flies 384 00:18:59,558 --> 00:19:00,725 with honey than vinegar? 385 00:19:01,810 --> 00:19:03,853 That's what your mama always says to me. 386 00:19:06,189 --> 00:19:07,190 She's gonna die. 387 00:19:11,278 --> 00:19:12,279 It's lung cancer. 388 00:19:13,613 --> 00:19:14,698 She just found out. 389 00:19:18,368 --> 00:19:19,369 Uh-- I'm s-- 390 00:19:20,996 --> 00:19:21,997 I'm so sorry. 391 00:19:23,415 --> 00:19:24,416 That, uh... 392 00:19:28,044 --> 00:19:29,754 Oh, hon. 393 00:19:32,841 --> 00:19:33,842 [Clare crying] 394 00:19:34,759 --> 00:19:39,139 Anything I can do, Liv and me, we're just up the road. 395 00:19:49,399 --> 00:19:50,400 Lady. 396 00:19:52,319 --> 00:19:53,320 Sell me Lady. 397 00:19:53,320 --> 00:19:54,529 Oh, darlin', she's-- 398 00:19:54,529 --> 00:19:58,283 I've-- I've got, um... I've got $386 right now. 399 00:19:58,909 --> 00:19:59,910 And after that, I can-- 400 00:20:01,036 --> 00:20:02,579 I can give you monthly payments. 401 00:20:02,579 --> 00:20:05,123 And however much you need, I'll pay it. I just, uh-- 402 00:20:08,126 --> 00:20:09,544 A horse would save her life. 403 00:20:12,505 --> 00:20:15,383 And I-- I just-- I really-- I need to save her life. 404 00:20:15,383 --> 00:20:16,384 Clare. 405 00:20:18,511 --> 00:20:19,512 Go home. 406 00:20:20,555 --> 00:20:21,556 Be with your mom. 407 00:20:23,600 --> 00:20:24,893 I'll be praying for y'all. 408 00:20:26,436 --> 00:20:27,437 [scoffs] 409 00:20:36,363 --> 00:20:38,031 Oh, my God. 410 00:20:41,409 --> 00:20:42,410 [distant crying] 411 00:20:47,874 --> 00:20:49,876 [indistinct chatter] 412 00:20:52,963 --> 00:20:53,964 [crying continues] 413 00:21:03,223 --> 00:21:04,224 [crying continues] 414 00:21:05,642 --> 00:21:07,644 [woman crying] [baby wailing] 415 00:21:17,279 --> 00:21:20,740 - [baby continues wailing] - Shhh. 416 00:21:20,740 --> 00:21:21,741 I'm sorry. 417 00:21:22,867 --> 00:21:24,286 I didn't know what to write. 418 00:21:24,286 --> 00:21:25,870 I didn't have the words. 419 00:21:25,870 --> 00:21:26,871 WOMAN 1: Clare? 420 00:21:28,123 --> 00:21:30,709 I'm glad you're here. I was afraid you went home. 421 00:21:36,715 --> 00:21:38,758 - I-- - This isn't about the currants, is it? 422 00:21:39,259 --> 00:21:40,719 Oh, psh. 423 00:21:40,719 --> 00:21:42,846 I-- I'm just failing at everything right now. 424 00:21:42,846 --> 00:21:43,847 I just feel like-- 425 00:21:44,890 --> 00:21:45,891 Sorry. 426 00:21:46,391 --> 00:21:48,810 Danny and I are-- are fighting. 427 00:21:48,810 --> 00:21:49,978 I know you know that. 428 00:21:52,647 --> 00:21:56,151 And, uh, Frankie can't stand me. 429 00:21:56,568 --> 00:21:57,569 Rae. 430 00:21:57,569 --> 00:22:00,530 [exhales] I have such a hard time calling her that. 431 00:22:03,241 --> 00:22:05,160 I just feel like there's a wall between us. 432 00:22:05,744 --> 00:22:08,246 [crying] And I'm so afraid that something bad is gonna happen. 433 00:22:09,789 --> 00:22:11,917 You're not gonna lose her. 434 00:22:11,917 --> 00:22:13,209 There was a reason... 435 00:22:14,628 --> 00:22:18,757 that I-- that I named her after my mom. 436 00:22:22,177 --> 00:22:25,639 Must be hard sometimes coming here. 437 00:22:25,639 --> 00:22:29,851 Oh, no! I'm just so grateful to you. 438 00:22:29,851 --> 00:22:32,103 For all of you. So grateful. 439 00:22:32,103 --> 00:22:33,521 It can be both. 440 00:22:37,067 --> 00:22:38,068 All that... 441 00:22:39,277 --> 00:22:43,406 strength and courage and love you had to find inside yourself 442 00:22:43,406 --> 00:22:44,950 after your mom died, 443 00:22:44,950 --> 00:22:46,701 you poured right into Rae. 444 00:22:46,701 --> 00:22:48,745 You became the amazing mom you are 445 00:22:48,745 --> 00:22:53,124 because you were forced to learn to mother yourself. 446 00:22:53,124 --> 00:22:54,459 I am not amazing. 447 00:22:55,126 --> 00:22:57,921 Here. I'm gonna do something. 448 00:22:57,921 --> 00:23:00,006 Oh, no, no. I'm-- I don't-- This is not my-- 449 00:23:00,006 --> 00:23:01,883 Dear Heavenly Father. 450 00:23:01,883 --> 00:23:02,884 [Clare sighs] 451 00:23:02,884 --> 00:23:05,136 We come before you humbly, 452 00:23:05,845 --> 00:23:11,726 requesting that you look out for our dear, sweet baby girl, 453 00:23:11,726 --> 00:23:12,978 Frankie Rae. 454 00:23:15,397 --> 00:23:19,568 And that we all accept who she is telling us she wants to be. 455 00:23:20,360 --> 00:23:23,655 We ask that you wrap your loving arms around... 456 00:23:24,698 --> 00:23:26,116 our precious Rae 457 00:23:27,742 --> 00:23:29,035 and Clare. 458 00:23:30,579 --> 00:23:32,706 Protect them from harm, Lord. 459 00:23:33,790 --> 00:23:35,125 And we pray... 460 00:23:35,959 --> 00:23:39,880 that Clare feels us, her family... 461 00:23:42,299 --> 00:23:46,761 holding her in your divine love... 462 00:23:50,515 --> 00:23:52,517 just like you held her before. 463 00:23:54,311 --> 00:23:57,731 [Frankie sobbing] 464 00:24:15,248 --> 00:24:16,249 YOUNG CLARE: Mom. 465 00:24:20,503 --> 00:24:21,880 CLARE: Dear Terrified, 466 00:24:25,008 --> 00:24:26,801 I can't tell you how sorry I am 467 00:24:26,801 --> 00:24:28,887 for what you and your family are going through. 468 00:24:30,180 --> 00:24:31,181 I'm sorry. 469 00:24:32,140 --> 00:24:33,975 CLARE: When I learned my mom was gonna die of cancer, 470 00:24:33,975 --> 00:24:35,727 she was only 45. 471 00:24:36,978 --> 00:24:38,647 And I was terrified too. 472 00:24:39,356 --> 00:24:40,607 I was also angry. 473 00:24:41,566 --> 00:24:43,735 If God wasn't gonna save my mom, 474 00:24:43,735 --> 00:24:46,446 then I thought God was either a ruthless bitch 475 00:24:47,405 --> 00:24:49,950 or more likely, just didn't exist. 476 00:24:51,117 --> 00:24:52,202 But if He does, 477 00:24:52,202 --> 00:24:56,539 I know He's not some spirit man who may or may not hear our prayers 478 00:24:56,539 --> 00:25:00,001 and swoop in to save us when the going gets rough. 479 00:25:00,710 --> 00:25:03,547 - I mean, she could have texted. - Yeah. 480 00:25:04,339 --> 00:25:08,510 So what if we thought about God differently? 481 00:25:08,510 --> 00:25:11,555 - FRANKIE: Just call me, okay? - Okay. 482 00:25:11,555 --> 00:25:15,058 CLARE: And realize that God isn't in the answers to our prayers, 483 00:25:15,892 --> 00:25:18,728 but in the people praying for us. 484 00:25:18,728 --> 00:25:20,188 [horse whinnying] 485 00:25:22,023 --> 00:25:26,236 What if, together, those people form a raft? 486 00:25:26,945 --> 00:25:28,154 Oh, my God. 487 00:25:29,072 --> 00:25:32,158 CLARE: That will hold your weight and keep you afloat 488 00:25:32,158 --> 00:25:35,787 by the human love given to you when you needed it the most. 489 00:25:39,833 --> 00:25:42,252 She's yours as long as you'd like to keep her. 490 00:25:45,380 --> 00:25:48,383 ♪ 491 00:25:55,432 --> 00:25:57,183 CLARE: If I believed in God, 492 00:25:57,183 --> 00:25:59,561 I'd see evidence of his existence in that. 493 00:26:07,027 --> 00:26:10,030 ♪ 494 00:26:20,707 --> 00:26:21,958 So, Terrified, 495 00:26:24,628 --> 00:26:26,463 what if you didn't worry about everyone's God... 496 00:26:26,463 --> 00:26:28,548 [Rae heaving] 497 00:26:28,548 --> 00:26:30,800 Okay, I got it. I got it. 498 00:26:31,968 --> 00:26:32,969 [Danny sighs] 499 00:26:32,969 --> 00:26:34,596 ...and allowed your God to exist 500 00:26:34,596 --> 00:26:37,807 in the simple words of compassion others offer you? 501 00:26:41,061 --> 00:26:42,979 She was the reason I got up in the morning. 502 00:26:44,105 --> 00:26:45,190 Montana. 503 00:26:45,190 --> 00:26:47,234 CLARE: What if faith is the way it feels 504 00:26:47,234 --> 00:26:50,070 to lay your hand on your daughter's sacred body, 505 00:26:50,820 --> 00:26:53,823 under the same big sky where your mother held you? 506 00:26:55,242 --> 00:26:56,826 What if in your darkest hour, 507 00:26:57,494 --> 00:27:00,664 amidst your greatest fears and your deepest losses, 508 00:27:03,124 --> 00:27:04,918 you saw the miracle in that? 509 00:27:08,797 --> 00:27:11,299 [horse neighs] 510 00:27:13,301 --> 00:27:14,302 Yours, 511 00:27:16,388 --> 00:27:17,389 Sugar. 512 00:27:22,018 --> 00:27:26,022 ♪ I may not always love you ♪ 513 00:27:27,315 --> 00:27:31,486 ♪ But as long as there are stars above you ♪ 514 00:27:32,737 --> 00:27:36,700 ♪ You'll never need to doubt it ♪ 515 00:27:37,742 --> 00:27:42,122 ♪ I'll make you so sure about it ♪ 516 00:27:43,456 --> 00:27:48,628 ♪ God only knows what I'd be without you ♪ 517 00:27:52,841 --> 00:27:55,844 ♪ 518 00:28:03,268 --> 00:28:06,563 ♪ Oh, God only knows ♪ 519 00:28:06,563 --> 00:28:10,233 ♪ What I'd be without you ♪ 520 00:28:12,777 --> 00:28:15,780 ♪ God only knows ♪ 521 00:28:15,780 --> 00:28:18,783 ♪ What I'd be ♪ 522 00:28:18,783 --> 00:28:24,539 ♪ Without you ♪