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[dog barking]
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[footsteps thudding]
[people grunting, panting]
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GIRL:
Careful.
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BOY:
You're drunk.
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[indistinct talking]
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BOY:
Okay, here's good.
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[thuds]
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[girl giggling]
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Let's get out of here.
GIRL: Okay. Go, go. Come on.
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[both giggling]
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[retches and vomits]
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[Rae groaning]
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Is that the Little Dipper?
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That's the Big Dipper, doofus.
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Actually, you're both wrong.
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LITTLE CLARE:
Can we go back now?
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FRANKIE:
Nope.
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Be patient, sweet peas.
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YOUNG CLARE:
I'm tired. It's too hot.
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You said you wanted air.
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Conditioning. I want air-conditioning.
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Well, we would need
electricity for that.
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And a bathroom inside.
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Everyone I know gets to poop inside.
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And you will have
all those things someday.
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But this...
This is better than any of those things.
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I promise.
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[gate squeaking]
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[whispering] Okay. It's time.
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Close your eyes.
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And be really quiet.
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And I'll say when you can open them.
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- [horse nickers]
- What's that noise?
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[horses nickering]
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[whispering] Okay. Now.
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[horse whinnying]
[Little Clare gasps]
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♪
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♪
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LITTLE LUCAS:
Do they belong to us, Mommy?
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I wish they did.
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Hi, Lady.
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You sweet, sweet girl.
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What the fuck?
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[phone chimes]
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"Due to your pending investigation,
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you are required to complete
an online ethics and boundaries course."
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Oh, fuck you, boundaries.
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[phone chimes]
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Mm.
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[door opens]
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DANNY:
Clare! Clare, come here!
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Why is she on a surfboard?
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I don't know.
I just came outside and she was--
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CLARE:
Rae, are you okay? Are you hurt?
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What-- Uh-- What-- Uh, who left you here?
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No one. I'm f-- I'm fine.
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Frankie Rae, are you drunk?
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Have you guys ever had a White Russian?
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Since when do you drink, Rae?
CLARE: Oh, my God.
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Rae, I need you to get up right now
and come inside the house.
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[Rae mumbles]
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Frankie Rae, I want you
to look at me and talk to me right now.
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Who left you here like this?
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Was it those awful threesome people?
Is that who did this?
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Are they the same ones
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- who made you eat that cucumber?
- What?
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CLARE:
I saw that.
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Did they make you eat that cucumber?
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Who made you eat that cucumber?
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MAN: [on video]
I love what you did
with the Peterson case.
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You know, a massage
can make a stressful day seem better.
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WOMAN: [on video] That sounds great,
but I actually have to get home.
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So we see here that Bob
is not only being suggestive to Rhonda,
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he's violating her personal space.
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And that's the thing
about personal space.
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It's personal.
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[quick knocks on door]
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All right, come on. Let's wake up.
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Now!
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We're gonna be--
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Now! Let's get up. Let's go!
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RAE:
I hate those stars.
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What?
You named your first hamster Cassiopeia.
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Yeah, well, I'm taking them down.
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Your dad is playing today.
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You need to be there early.
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And having a hangover does not qualify
as a reason to skip church.
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RAE: Why do you even care?
You don't even believe in God.
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It's Easter,
and it is time to resurrect.
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[Rae groans]
Let's go.
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[Rae sighs]
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You skip every Sunday.
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Su-- Sundays are my time to write.
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RAE:
Yeah, except you never do.
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Do you realize that
you could've been assaulted last night?
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Or worse.
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And your so-called friends
just left you on our lawn
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to choke on your own barf.
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So who was that? Was that Montana?
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It wasn't Montana.
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Wh-- Wh-- Why can't you
make some just nice new friends?
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- Like, what happened to Bethany from dance?
- Can you just stop?
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Do you know
if something happened to you,
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I would not be able to survive?
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Do you realize that? I would die!
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My life would be over!
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I would not be able to go on.
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Then I guess you shouldn't have had me!
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[door closes]
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Why are you mad at me?
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Frankie?
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Frankie?
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Stop calling me that!
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When is this bullshit gonna end?
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The White Russians, and the surfboards,
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and the giving a shit about a person
that is so clearly beneath you?
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And rejecting your own grandmother's name?
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She was never my grandmother!
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[door slams shut]
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[exhales]
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[groans]
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Well, can you talk to her?
Because she fucking hates me.
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Yeah, yeah.
I'm gonna do a lot more than talk to her.
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I'm gonna ground her ass.
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Really? An Easter basket?
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Well, it's tradition.
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Tradition as well?
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Oh, my God.
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Was that pickle flavored?
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Happy Easter.
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Let's go.
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So I'll just meet you at brunch then?
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Oh, so you're coming to brunch?
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Unless it's going to feel weird.
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I mean, why wouldn't I--
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No, no. I mean, it won't be weird
if we don't make it weird.
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I just don't want
anyone to think anything is wrong.
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Okay, um...
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If you don't want to go, then don't go.
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I'll just make an excuse then, you know?
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Uh, you can stay here.
I'll tell them that you're--
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that you're writing.
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That wouldn't be an excuse. I do write.
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I'll take this
just in case she changes her mind.
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Danny,
I haven't even said that I'm not gonna--
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I-- I'm coming. I can bring the basket.
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Look, I, uh, I think you're right.
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You know, we don't want 'em
to know that things aren't normal.
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Happy writing.
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[door closes]
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♪
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[telephone ringing]
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Hello?
FRANKIE: [over phone] Hi, honey.
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Hi. Hey, Mom.
Um, sorry, can I call you back?
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I'm working on
that essay competition for Pleiades.
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I need you to come home.
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Why? What's wrong?
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Today.
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CLARE: [over phone]
Today? No, I can't, Mom.
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I have work, then class tonight.
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You need to come home right now.
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Okay.
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Okay. Yeah.
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Sure.
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WOMAN:
Dear Sugar,
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I'm writing this from my little bed
in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit.
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My husband and I just found out
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that our six-month-old daughter
has a brain tumor
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and she's having brain surgery tomorrow.
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People have poured
all their thoughts and prayers
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into us right now.
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I want to believe the prayers are working,
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but... I don't know.
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I've never been super religious
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but... now I find myself
doubting God's existence
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more than ever.
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I'm so scared
that I'll lose my sweet baby girl.
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If there was a God,
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why would He let this happen to us?
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[phone vibrating]
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AMY:
Well, at least she made it home.
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How many shit bunkers
did we happen to wake up in?
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Remember Burger?
CLARE: Oh, God.
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With the van?
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And the trash bag
that was full of mushrooms?
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What? What?
[Clare laughing]
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Do you remember that he would
just play Free Bird on repeat?
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And also, P.S. vans.
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Vans.
CLARE: Terrifying!
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Vans. Ugh.
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It's kind of a miracle
that we're alive, really.
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- When you think about it.
- Yep.
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Hi. Can you just keep these coming?
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WAITER: Sure.
AMY: Thank you.
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Wow. Come on, Frankie,
well, she's a good girl.
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Rae!
AMY: Whatever she would like to be called.
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She's-- She's way smarter
than we ever were.
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Okay?
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Oh, she has to be careful. She does.
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I got something.
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You'll think I'm brilliant.
Here, take these.
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Is that a-- What is that?
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Those are fentanyl strips.
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And they're like the free condoms now.
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I keep 'em at the bar.
Uh, just give 'em to her.
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She can test everything that she's taking.
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I know. You wouldn't really think it,
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but that shit is just everywhere.
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Are you kidding me?
AMY: No.
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Now I have to worry about fentanyl
on top of everything else?
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AMY:
Yeah, you do.
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WOMAN: Good Bloody Mary?
[baby crying]
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Thanks for the help, Sugar.
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AMY: [from distance]
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Are you okay?
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Yo!
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Oh, God. Spin-city.
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I mean, it's basically like...
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Um...
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Are you okay?
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CLARE:
I-- I--
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I'm sorry. I have to go.
AMY: You gotta go?
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- We haven't gotten...
- I know.
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...to the bottom
of our bottomless, please.
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Listen, I'm gonna Venmo you
for all of this. It's on me.
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AMY:
What are you doing?
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Love you.
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- If it's the fentanyl strips, I'm sorry.
- No, it's not the fentanyl strips.
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- I love you.
- I'm sorry-- No, 'cause you're spinning.
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I'm not spinning. I love you.
AMY: You are.
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YOUNG CLARE:
Hi, Mom.
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Thanks for coming, sweet pea.
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Yeah, what's going on?
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Why are you all dressed up?
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I made spinach lasagna.
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For lunch?
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What is happening?
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FRANKIE:
And there's an apple crisp
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and ice cream for dessert.
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Was this just some ploy
to get me to come home?
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Don't ask me.
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No, it wasn't a ploy.
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Okay, well, I had to call in sick.
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And I still didn't finish that essay
that's due Monday.
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I can't just come home
just because you miss me.
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No one misses you.
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Yeah? That's why
you keep begging me to come visit?
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[sighs] Sit down, everything's ready.
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CLARE: No, I'm not gonna sit down
until you tell me what was so important
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that I drop everything and come home.
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Well, it turns out that...
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this cold that I seem
to have had for months
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is, um...
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It isn't a cold.
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Okay. Well, what is it?
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♪ somber music playing ♪
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Mom?
258
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Honey, what are you doing?
259
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We're gonna need everything we have.
260
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Lucas, help me.
261
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- I don't think--
- Lucas, just help me!
262
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FRANKIE:
Well, will you at least have
something to eat?
263
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You still need to eat.
264
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Piles of four.
265
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We're gonna see every doctor we can.
266
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There's a cancer center in San Francisco,
267
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and we're going to get a second opinion
268
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and a third and fourth opinion.
269
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And I'm gonna call Jess.
270
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Jess' parents can help.
271
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I'm gonna call him tonight
so that-- so that he can call them.
272
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FRANKIE:
Honey, there are no more opinions to get.
273
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[softly] That's $5...
274
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The whole team of doctors
looked at the scan.
275
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- I have stage IV terminal lung cancer.
- Please stop.
276
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FRANKIE:
It's not treatable.
277
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We aren't going to treat it.
278
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Stop saying that!
279
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Jesus, Clare. You think that's helping?
280
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I was thinking...
281
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if you want to reach out to your dad...
282
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Why are you bringing him up?
283
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FRANKIE:
Because he's your father.
284
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And people can change.
285
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And it's okay to love him
even when I'm gone.
286
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CLARE:
Well, you're not gonna be gone.
287
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You two may have given up, but I haven't.
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[exhales] Okay.
289
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MAN:
Wait, I don't get it.
290
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- WOMAN 1:
- That's what the kids are into, James.
291
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You're watching
someone on the Internet eating?
292
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Oh, but have you seen
the girl that does her hair
293
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and tells you about women
who just snap and kill people?
294
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Oh, that's quality right there.
295
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Rae, grab your basket and come out here
and help your cousin find eggs.
296
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Some of those eggs, they got 20s in 'em.
297
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You know what I used to do for $20?
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No one knows.
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[all chuckling]
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♪
301
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Mommy!
302
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What're you doing here?
303
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CLARE:
Uh...
304
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I've-- I've brought pastries.
305
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Clare, can I get you something to eat?
306
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- Oh.
- I'm gonna fix you something to eat.
307
00:15:28,680 --> 00:15:31,975
Danny said you weren't coming
or I would've left lunch out.
308
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Oh, I never said I wasn't--
309
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Hey, Clare. No chicken salad today?
310
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Uh, I didn't have time to make chicken--
311
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I just can't with those raisins.
312
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They're currants.
I put currants in the chicken.
313
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Ignore her.
314
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Wouldn't be Easter without you, all right?
315
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And hey, don't worry about Rae.
316
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Danny ever come home on a surfboard?
317
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- I was talking about college.
- Hmm.
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If you all need help, we got you.
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WOMAN 2: Let me tell you,
if I gave away my kid's college fund,
320
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I'd be somewhere
way worse than in the basement, okay?
321
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WOMAN 1:
Here, Clare. Have something to eat.
322
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You want some ham?
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Okay.
324
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[softly] Are you fucking kidding me?
325
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[softly] It-- It-- It came up.
326
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What the fuck do you mean,
"It came up"?
327
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- Clare--
- 'Cause clearly you told them!
328
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Clare, you gave your brother
$15,000 of our money.
329
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It's a big fucking deal!
I told my dad. So what?
330
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You know how much of our money
we give to your family every fucking year?
331
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This whole city
is crawling with your relatives.
- Okay?
332
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There's graduation. There's weddings.
There's baby showers. There's holidays.
333
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All I'm doing is making chicken salad
that just goes wasted!
334
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Yeah, because no one likes raisins!
335
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They're currants!
336
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And they're fucking expensive,
so just add that to the tab!
337
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- Tab? So-- So we're keeping tally on--
- No, I'm just making a point!
338
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- You give me so much shit about Lucas...
- Yeah.
339
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...when all I do
is shit for your family!
340
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Our family, Clare.
341
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Okay, the same family that love us
and care for us and took you in.
342
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And-- And--
343
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You know what?
At the end of the day,
344
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it's not even just about the money.
345
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You gave that away
without even talking to me about it.
346
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- I'm your husband.
- So just take my side.
347
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Just be on my side.
348
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And stop
giving your aunt a fucking excuse
349
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to make that fucking face at me
every time she fucking sees me!
350
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[yelling] Enough!
351
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Oh. A-- A different aunt.
352
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Oh, my God, what is wrong with you?
353
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You can't keep trapping people
in tiny spaces just to yell at them!
354
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CLARE:
None of this is okay.
355
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Sneaking out.
356
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Getting drunk.
357
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Being so mean to me!
358
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Why are you so mean to me? Huh?
359
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- No--
- Just stop!
360
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Do you know what's going on out there?
361
00:17:53,116 --> 00:17:54,743
It is a war zone!
362
00:17:54,743 --> 00:17:57,329
There are condoms laced with fentanyl.
363
00:17:57,329 --> 00:17:58,455
You don't even know
what you're talking about.
364
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That's not a thing.
365
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All I'm saying
is that you need to be careful.
366
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You need to be smart.
367
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You need to find friends
who have your back.
368
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I have friends.
369
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What-- What about Bethany?
370
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- Bethany? Bethany?
- Yes. She was so sweet.
371
00:18:12,344 --> 00:18:14,971
You know Bethany had anal sex
on a Greyhound going to Reno?
372
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- What?
- Yeah.
373
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Why would she want
to take a bus to Reno?
374
00:18:19,267 --> 00:18:22,020
I don't know, maybe she was hoping
it would crash just to annoy her mother.
375
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Okay.
376
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I'ma pray for that Bethany.
377
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Thank you.
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Our father
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who art in heaven, hallowed be thy--
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Hallowed be thy--
381
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Fuck Fathers!
382
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Fuck you! Fuck you!
383
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MAN: Didn't you ever hear
you catch more flies
384
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with honey than vinegar?
385
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That's what your mama always says to me.
386
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She's gonna die.
387
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It's lung cancer.
388
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She just found out.
389
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Uh-- I'm s--
390
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I'm so sorry.
391
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That, uh...
392
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Oh, hon.
393
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[Clare crying]
394
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Anything I can do,
Liv and me, we're just up the road.
395
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Lady.
396
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Sell me Lady.
397
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Oh, darlin', she's--
398
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I've-- I've got, um...
I've got $386 right now.
399
00:19:58,909 --> 00:19:59,910
And after that, I can--
400
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I can give you monthly payments.
401
00:20:02,579 --> 00:20:05,123
And however much you need,
I'll pay it. I just, uh--
402
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A horse would save her life.
403
00:20:12,505 --> 00:20:15,383
And I-- I just-- I really--
I need to save her life.
404
00:20:15,383 --> 00:20:16,384
Clare.
405
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Go home.
406
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Be with your mom.
407
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I'll be praying for y'all.
408
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[scoffs]
409
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Oh, my God.
410
00:20:41,409 --> 00:20:42,410
[distant crying]
411
00:20:47,874 --> 00:20:49,876
[indistinct chatter]
412
00:20:52,963 --> 00:20:53,964
[crying continues]
413
00:21:03,223 --> 00:21:04,224
[crying continues]
414
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[woman crying]
[baby wailing]
415
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- [baby continues wailing]
- Shhh.
416
00:21:20,740 --> 00:21:21,741
I'm sorry.
417
00:21:22,867 --> 00:21:24,286
I didn't know what to write.
418
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I didn't have the words.
419
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WOMAN 1:
Clare?
420
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I'm glad you're here.
I was afraid you went home.
421
00:21:36,715 --> 00:21:38,758
- I--
- This isn't about the currants, is it?
422
00:21:39,259 --> 00:21:40,719
Oh, psh.
423
00:21:40,719 --> 00:21:42,846
I-- I'm just failing
at everything right now.
424
00:21:42,846 --> 00:21:43,847
I just feel like--
425
00:21:44,890 --> 00:21:45,891
Sorry.
426
00:21:46,391 --> 00:21:48,810
Danny and I are-- are fighting.
427
00:21:48,810 --> 00:21:49,978
I know you know that.
428
00:21:52,647 --> 00:21:56,151
And, uh, Frankie can't stand me.
429
00:21:56,568 --> 00:21:57,569
Rae.
430
00:21:57,569 --> 00:22:00,530
[exhales]
I have such a hard time calling her that.
431
00:22:03,241 --> 00:22:05,160
I just feel like
there's a wall between us.
432
00:22:05,744 --> 00:22:08,246
[crying] And I'm so afraid
that something bad is gonna happen.
433
00:22:09,789 --> 00:22:11,917
You're not gonna lose her.
434
00:22:11,917 --> 00:22:13,209
There was a reason...
435
00:22:14,628 --> 00:22:18,757
that I-- that I named her after my mom.
436
00:22:22,177 --> 00:22:25,639
Must be hard sometimes coming here.
437
00:22:25,639 --> 00:22:29,851
Oh, no! I'm just so grateful to you.
438
00:22:29,851 --> 00:22:32,103
For all of you. So grateful.
439
00:22:32,103 --> 00:22:33,521
It can be both.
440
00:22:37,067 --> 00:22:38,068
All that...
441
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strength and courage and love
you had to find inside yourself
442
00:22:43,406 --> 00:22:44,950
after your mom died,
443
00:22:44,950 --> 00:22:46,701
you poured right into Rae.
444
00:22:46,701 --> 00:22:48,745
You became the amazing mom you are
445
00:22:48,745 --> 00:22:53,124
because you were forced
to learn to mother yourself.
446
00:22:53,124 --> 00:22:54,459
I am not amazing.
447
00:22:55,126 --> 00:22:57,921
Here. I'm gonna do something.
448
00:22:57,921 --> 00:23:00,006
Oh, no, no. I'm-- I don't--
This is not my--
449
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Dear Heavenly Father.
450
00:23:01,883 --> 00:23:02,884
[Clare sighs]
451
00:23:02,884 --> 00:23:05,136
We come before you humbly,
452
00:23:05,845 --> 00:23:11,726
requesting that you look out
for our dear, sweet baby girl,
453
00:23:11,726 --> 00:23:12,978
Frankie Rae.
454
00:23:15,397 --> 00:23:19,568
And that we all accept
who she is telling us she wants to be.
455
00:23:20,360 --> 00:23:23,655
We ask that you wrap
your loving arms around...
456
00:23:24,698 --> 00:23:26,116
our precious Rae
457
00:23:27,742 --> 00:23:29,035
and Clare.
458
00:23:30,579 --> 00:23:32,706
Protect them from harm, Lord.
459
00:23:33,790 --> 00:23:35,125
And we pray...
460
00:23:35,959 --> 00:23:39,880
that Clare feels us, her family...
461
00:23:42,299 --> 00:23:46,761
holding her in your divine love...
462
00:23:50,515 --> 00:23:52,517
just like you held her before.
463
00:23:54,311 --> 00:23:57,731
[Frankie sobbing]
464
00:24:15,248 --> 00:24:16,249
YOUNG CLARE:
Mom.
465
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CLARE:
Dear Terrified,
466
00:24:25,008 --> 00:24:26,801
I can't tell you how sorry I am
467
00:24:26,801 --> 00:24:28,887
for what you and your family
are going through.
468
00:24:30,180 --> 00:24:31,181
I'm sorry.
469
00:24:32,140 --> 00:24:33,975
CLARE: When I learned
my mom was gonna die of cancer,
470
00:24:33,975 --> 00:24:35,727
she was only 45.
471
00:24:36,978 --> 00:24:38,647
And I was terrified too.
472
00:24:39,356 --> 00:24:40,607
I was also angry.
473
00:24:41,566 --> 00:24:43,735
If God wasn't gonna save my mom,
474
00:24:43,735 --> 00:24:46,446
then I thought
God was either a ruthless bitch
475
00:24:47,405 --> 00:24:49,950
or more likely, just didn't exist.
476
00:24:51,117 --> 00:24:52,202
But if He does,
477
00:24:52,202 --> 00:24:56,539
I know He's not some spirit man
who may or may not hear our prayers
478
00:24:56,539 --> 00:25:00,001
and swoop in to save us
when the going gets rough.
479
00:25:00,710 --> 00:25:03,547
- I mean, she could have texted.
- Yeah.
480
00:25:04,339 --> 00:25:08,510
So what if
we thought about God differently?
481
00:25:08,510 --> 00:25:11,555
- FRANKIE: Just call me, okay?
- Okay.
482
00:25:11,555 --> 00:25:15,058
CLARE: And realize that
God isn't in the answers to our prayers,
483
00:25:15,892 --> 00:25:18,728
but in the people praying for us.
484
00:25:18,728 --> 00:25:20,188
[horse whinnying]
485
00:25:22,023 --> 00:25:26,236
What if, together,
those people form a raft?
486
00:25:26,945 --> 00:25:28,154
Oh, my God.
487
00:25:29,072 --> 00:25:32,158
CLARE:
That will hold your weight
and keep you afloat
488
00:25:32,158 --> 00:25:35,787
by the human love given to you
when you needed it the most.
489
00:25:39,833 --> 00:25:42,252
She's yours
as long as you'd like to keep her.
490
00:25:45,380 --> 00:25:48,383
♪
491
00:25:55,432 --> 00:25:57,183
CLARE:
If I believed in God,
492
00:25:57,183 --> 00:25:59,561
I'd see evidence of his existence in that.
493
00:26:07,027 --> 00:26:10,030
♪
494
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So, Terrified,
495
00:26:24,628 --> 00:26:26,463
what if you didn't worry
about everyone's God...
496
00:26:26,463 --> 00:26:28,548
[Rae heaving]
497
00:26:28,548 --> 00:26:30,800
Okay, I got it. I got it.
498
00:26:31,968 --> 00:26:32,969
[Danny sighs]
499
00:26:32,969 --> 00:26:34,596
...and allowed your God to exist
500
00:26:34,596 --> 00:26:37,807
in the simple words of compassion
others offer you?
501
00:26:41,061 --> 00:26:42,979
She was the reason
I got up in the morning.
502
00:26:44,105 --> 00:26:45,190
Montana.
503
00:26:45,190 --> 00:26:47,234
CLARE:
What if faith is the way it feels
504
00:26:47,234 --> 00:26:50,070
to lay your hand
on your daughter's sacred body,
505
00:26:50,820 --> 00:26:53,823
under the same big sky
where your mother held you?
506
00:26:55,242 --> 00:26:56,826
What if in your darkest hour,
507
00:26:57,494 --> 00:27:00,664
amidst your greatest fears
and your deepest losses,
508
00:27:03,124 --> 00:27:04,918
you saw the miracle in that?
509
00:27:08,797 --> 00:27:11,299
[horse neighs]
510
00:27:13,301 --> 00:27:14,302
Yours,
511
00:27:16,388 --> 00:27:17,389
Sugar.
512
00:27:22,018 --> 00:27:26,022
♪ I may not always love you ♪
513
00:27:27,315 --> 00:27:31,486
♪ But as long as
there are stars above you ♪
514
00:27:32,737 --> 00:27:36,700
♪ You'll never need to doubt it ♪
515
00:27:37,742 --> 00:27:42,122
♪ I'll make you so sure about it ♪
516
00:27:43,456 --> 00:27:48,628
♪ God only knows what I'd be without you ♪
517
00:27:52,841 --> 00:27:55,844
♪
518
00:28:03,268 --> 00:28:06,563
♪ Oh, God only knows ♪
519
00:28:06,563 --> 00:28:10,233
♪ What I'd be without you ♪
520
00:28:12,777 --> 00:28:15,780
♪ God only knows ♪
521
00:28:15,780 --> 00:28:18,783
♪ What I'd be ♪
522
00:28:18,783 --> 00:28:24,539
♪ Without you ♪