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Sorry. Er, Professor!

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Professor Thomas! Sorry.

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Er, it's about
the consultant interviews.

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We had, erm, a... a meeting,

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erm, for the consultant interviews.
I'm one of the candidates.

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Catherine MacDiarmid.
I know who you are.

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You were late.

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And where do you see yourself
in ten years' time, Jack?

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Clinical Director of Surgery.

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But I find myself
increasingly humble about planning.

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My day's been like dominoes.

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One delay to surgery this morning,
and I'm...

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Oh, just seven minutes late.

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Nice shot, Alan.

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Could I buy you a
cup of tea, perhaps?

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Hadn't you better answer that?

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I'd love the opportunity to tell you
what I have to offer the trust.

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Besides punctuality (?)

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Planning is all well and good,

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but what the last few years
have taught me is adaptability.

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That's what it's all about.
I couldn't agree more.

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Whoa! Good work, Jack!

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What is it, Lars?

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'Just to say that the
flight's all on time.'

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Great.

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'Woman' by Little Simz

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♪ I love how you go from zero

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♪ To one hundred

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♪ And leave the dust behind

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♪ You've got this
All action, no talk

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♪ I see you glow
You're the finest gold

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♪ When you walk in the room
They feel your soul

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♪ Your style, it shines
So ahead of time

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♪ And you know that you're fire
You're so damn fine, girl... ♪

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Jesus Christ.

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Go on, in you go.
Yes, you can watch TV.

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Hello! How was Grandma's? Hello!
That's a lovely picture.

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Oh, my gosh,
there's glitter everywhere.

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How was Grandma's?

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48 hours is definitely
everyone's limit.

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Could you just look after them for
half an hour while I have a shower?

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Yeah, sure. Actually, er, no.
Can we just have a quick chat?

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Yeah, sure.
Thanks. Do you mind...?

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Raz!
Hello. How are you, mate?

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Just give me a sec.

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Maz. Have you slept at all today?

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Oh, you were going in to fix me.

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Less Ibadat, more like
an appointment at the Genius Bar?

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I needed to speak to someone,
I didn't know where else to go.

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I am not having this
conversation in the street.

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Fine. Let's go home and have it.
I can't, I've gotta go to work.

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You can't keep going in, Maz,
you're not well.

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Oh, don't be another person
telling me how I feel.

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Then you tell me. Talk to me.
Why are you still going to work?

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It's not just the job.
You've never understood.

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I really struggle with
the saviour complex. What?!

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There are other doctors!

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The whole thing won't come
crashing down if you're not there.

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You've not seen the
gaps in the rota this week.

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Look, I understand
you're punishing yourself

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for what happened
to that little boy.

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Edward. His name was Edward.

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You can say no to
being kind to yourself,

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to me, to our children,
to that baby girl,

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but you can't say no
to that place, can you?

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I don't understand that.
I haven't said no to her.

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I've said I need
to get past the investigation.

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They need an answer, Maz.

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I'm not having this conversation
in the street.

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You can't keep choosing
to be a doctor

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at the expense
of everything else, Maz. Please.

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Maz?

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What is it?

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The other night,
when I called you from work.

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I know that you'd been...

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Mummy!
Yes, Maggie.

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Can you just watch
TV for a minute, please?

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Can I have my hot milk?
Yeah, in a minute.

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Guy, I...

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I know that you'd been drinking.

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Mummy, I want a hot milk!
Yes, in a minute!

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It was half a glass of wine.

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I think you need to ask yourself,
what is this, really?

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Mummy, hot milk!
I'm making it!

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You're lying.

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I'm sorry?
Your mother told me

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she can't drink at the moment
because she's on warfarin.

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Plus, you need to learn
to empty the recycling!

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You weren't fit to be on call, Guy.

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Mummy, it's the scary bit.

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Please can you watch it with us?
Yeah, course.

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Look, here's your hot milk, OK?

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Come on, I'll forward it on.

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Guy...

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Just talk to me, please.

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You need help.

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I do NOT need help.

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It's OK. Just don't.

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Just leave it.

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What was that, Mummy?
Fuck's sake.

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It's all right, Mags. Can you
just stay up there, please?

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You done?

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'Flight RY35 from Shannon
is now delayed by 25 minutes.'

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Hi!

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Oh, hi.

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Hi! Aw, look!

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Everything OK?
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Yeah, we had a great time.

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Aw, I'm so pleased.
You heading straight back?

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Er, well, half an hour.

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So...

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You, er... all ready for tomorrow?

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Absolutely. Mama's gonna smash it!

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For protracted ileus,

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mechanical obstruction
should be excluded by CT scan

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and underlying electrolyte abnorm...

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Come on.

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Come closer.

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Would you...?

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Oh. No.

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Oh!

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Ooh! Bronch.

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Bronch is RSV.
Just trying to liven things up.

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Can I leave you with
the labour ward bleep?

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Who's eaten half of these?

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Er, Susan,
I-I can't do this tonight.

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Well, Xavi's not sleeping.

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You're not still breast-feeding,
are you?

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If you stop breast-feeding him,
he will sleep through the night.

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Look, I'm a reg down on the rota.

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I can't cover every
hole in the rota.

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Well, the only other option's Mae,
and, honestly,

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I think it's too much
responsibility for her.

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She doesn't have
the neonatal experience.

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You have to tell someone.
I can't.

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You have to speak to his manager.
He's putting people at risk.

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This isn't an interview
scenario, Jack.

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When it comes out -
and it always comes out -

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and when they find out
you've been covering...

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I'm not... I'm not covering for him.

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..you'll be the one
facing disciplinary action.

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He'll get rehab

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and a weekly appointment
with Occupational Health.

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He's my husband.

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If he gets suspended,
then who pays our mortgage?

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Who explains to my five-year-old

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why Mummy and Daddy aren't
living together any more?

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But he can't keep drinking.
I know.

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I-I know that.

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Oh, I don't know what to do.

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Sorry, I...

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I don't think he's left you
with much choice.

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I know. I know.

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I know. Oh, come on, Elis.
Come on, sweetie pie.

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Fine. Fine. I know.

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I know.

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'Her temperature is still 39.'

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OK, Catherine,
like I said before, it's RSV.

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If she's struggling to breathe,
then bring her in.

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'Can I bring her in
so YOU can tell me

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'if she's struggling for breath?'

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Look, I know this is scary...

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..but you're doing brilliantly.

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'Can I push the Calpol
to, like, every two hours?' No.

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Mae, can you come with me
to the labour ward?

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If you're going, I need
to stay. Take Simon.

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Don't touch me!

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I don't want any of you touching me!

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Calm down now.

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Let's get these on you.
Let us help you, Layla.

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Oh, God.

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I want her to stay in me!
What's your management plan?

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Can you feel another contraction
coming? Er...

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Layla? I know what you're doing.
I know what you're doing!

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Let NICU know to expect
a premmie with prenatal drug use.

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Er, suspected NAS?

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So that they can start monitoring
a-and the other stuff.

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I don't want this!
Which is what?

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Stop touching me!
Depends on the monitoring.

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Stop fighting us, Layla. You're
gonna hurt yourself and the baby.

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What baby's... would be... L...

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Lipsitz?
..Lipsitz scores are.

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If they shows signs
of opioid withdrawal,

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treat with morphine.
I'm gonna be a good mother.

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You missed an immediate start
on antibiotics

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due to maternal risk factor
of substance abuse.

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We don't know what the substance is.

188
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So call the NICU,
look up the NAS guidelines.

189
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Here comes another one, Layla.

190
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Big push now.

191
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Nearly there, one more big push.

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Let me hold her!
Don't... Don't take her away!

193
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Calm down.
Just give her back!

194
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Please just let me have her.
I'll do better this time.

195
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Please!

196
00:11:08,660 --> 00:11:10,659
Just let me hold her, please!

197
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You know we can't do that, Layla.

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Shall we try oxygen?

199
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Yep.
I'm her mother!

200
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Who takes a baby from their mother?!

201
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You bitch!
OK, increase the pressure a bit.

202
00:11:21,262 --> 00:11:23,461
Just get off me!
That's it. Bitch!

203
00:11:26,446 --> 00:11:28,445
She's breathing.
Well done, love.

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Get the lines in.
You did this! You took her!

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And you!

206
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I will NEVER forgive you.

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Please, please...

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Get the NAS scores.

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What, do you mean
go with her now, or...

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wait for 72 hours?

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Dr Afridi?

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00:12:06,660 --> 00:12:10,840
Er, Dr Afridi,
do you mean go now, or...?

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Maryam?

214
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Hello?

215
00:12:43,660 --> 00:12:45,659
It's Laura from Theatres.
Just letting you know

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I've squeezed in an
appendicectomy at nine,

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'just in case you were
aiming for...' Laura, what, sorry?

218
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No, I'm not working today.
I requested it as holiday.

219
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Er, no, you're on today,

220
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and you have an appendicectomy
from the CEPOD list.

221
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No, I filled out the holiday form.

222
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'I sent it to you.'

223
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I'm sure I got a response. Hold on.

224
00:13:07,660 --> 00:13:10,019
Laura, help.
I'm so sorry, it didn't...

225
00:13:10,020 --> 00:13:11,659
Look, I can't work today.

226
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It's interview day,
my interview's at four.

227
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They put you last, then?

228
00:13:15,020 --> 00:13:17,200
Please,
someone else has got to take it.

229
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You've been begging me
for the surgical hours.

230
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Yes, just not today!

231
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'There isn't anyone else,
so unless you're ill...'

232
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I'm really ill. Horribly ill.

233
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I'll tell them you can't make
your interview, then, shall I?

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Hello?

235
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How long's the list?

236
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You should be done by three.
See you in an hour.

237
00:13:44,486 --> 00:13:48,153
I need you to pull it together.
You can't be ill today.

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♪ What d'you know about me?

239
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♪ What d'you know about me now?

240
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♪ What d'you know about me? ♪

241
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She was up a bit in the night,
she's a bit tired.

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Not temperature, or anything,
probably just teething.

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You know I'm a doctor, right?

244
00:14:01,660 --> 00:14:04,339
Great. Yeah. OK, well, bye.
Bye, Elis!

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♪ What d'you know about me?

246
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♪ Think you got the warning

247
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♪ That's what you don't say... ♪

248
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She's got a temperature.

249
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♪ What d'you know about me now?

250
00:14:22,303 --> 00:14:24,302
♪ What d'you know about me?

251
00:14:24,304 --> 00:14:26,303
♪ What d'you know about me now?

252
00:14:26,305 --> 00:14:28,304
♪ What d'you know about me?

253
00:14:28,306 --> 00:14:30,558
♪ What d'you know about me now? ♪

254
00:14:30,560 --> 00:14:32,659
I-I know that.

255
00:14:32,660 --> 00:14:35,506
I know that, Mum. I really would...

256
00:14:37,580 --> 00:14:39,580
Yeah. Yeah.

257
00:14:43,013 --> 00:14:44,699
You hold her
till I find someone else,

258
00:14:44,700 --> 00:14:46,660
or you remove an
appendix. Your call.

259
00:14:51,313 --> 00:14:52,458
Mum?

260
00:14:52,460 --> 00:14:54,459
Yeah, Mum. I'm begging you.

261
00:14:54,461 --> 00:14:56,293
Please get on that train now.

262
00:14:59,193 --> 00:15:00,900
Is there enough
milk in that for you?

263
00:15:01,660 --> 00:15:03,200
We could, er...

264
00:15:03,660 --> 00:15:06,793
We could go to the funeral place
tomorrow if you're free?

265
00:15:07,100 --> 00:15:08,333
Can we, like...

266
00:15:09,299 --> 00:15:10,573
What's the word?

267
00:15:11,660 --> 00:15:13,126
..burn her?

268
00:15:13,660 --> 00:15:16,993
Not, like,
burn her like she's a witch.

269
00:15:18,000 --> 00:15:20,024
I was thinking
we need to contact her dad.

270
00:15:20,026 --> 00:15:21,860
Your dad. Tell him.

271
00:15:22,233 --> 00:15:23,798
I'm not speaking to him.

272
00:15:23,800 --> 00:15:25,473
He needs to know. He was her dad.

273
00:15:26,140 --> 00:15:27,659
She wouldn't want him there.

274
00:15:27,660 --> 00:15:29,486
It's not about what she wants
any more, is it?

275
00:15:29,488 --> 00:15:31,008
OK, I don't want him there.

276
00:15:38,053 --> 00:15:40,659
It wasn't your mum's fault.

277
00:15:40,660 --> 00:15:43,286
Yeah, it were. We tried to help her.

278
00:15:43,288 --> 00:15:45,573
You tried, I tried my whole life,
did nothing but try.

279
00:15:45,575 --> 00:15:49,658
OK, but your mum was like she was
because our dad was like he was.

280
00:15:49,660 --> 00:15:53,000
It's just cycles of this bullshit.

281
00:15:53,002 --> 00:15:56,160
Exactly. It wasn't just her life
she was tearing up, was it?

282
00:16:02,246 --> 00:16:05,180
I can't believe
this is happening to me!

283
00:16:05,182 --> 00:16:06,659
Jessica?

284
00:16:06,660 --> 00:16:09,659
I'm Catherine MacDiarmid.
I'm your surgeon today.

285
00:16:09,660 --> 00:16:11,851
I see you're struggling
with the pain.

286
00:16:11,853 --> 00:16:15,144
I'm meant to be getting
married in 60 hours!

287
00:16:15,146 --> 00:16:17,659
I'm literally meant to be
at the tanning place now.

288
00:16:17,660 --> 00:16:18,659
Do you have insurance?

289
00:16:18,660 --> 00:16:20,113
No!

290
00:16:20,115 --> 00:16:22,833
We're never gonna
get the '90s band again!

291
00:16:22,835 --> 00:16:25,160
Two years we've been planning this.

292
00:16:25,169 --> 00:16:27,780
It's the biggest day of my life!

293
00:16:28,046 --> 00:16:30,633
It's not. Most expensive, maybe.

294
00:16:31,780 --> 00:16:33,944
But I'm gonna have a scar!

295
00:16:33,946 --> 00:16:35,659
It's keyhole surgery.

296
00:16:35,660 --> 00:16:37,538
But you'll see it
when I'm in my dress.

297
00:16:37,540 --> 00:16:40,859
Oh, no, it will just be here,
just a tiny incision...

298
00:16:40,860 --> 00:16:42,859
You'll see what you had for lunch
in that.

299
00:16:42,860 --> 00:16:44,659
I wanna die!

300
00:16:44,660 --> 00:16:46,659
OK, Jessica, that's enough!

301
00:16:46,660 --> 00:16:49,140
You're gonna man up,
we're gonna put you under,

302
00:16:49,142 --> 00:16:51,226
and I'm gonna have you
out of here by tomorrow

303
00:16:51,228 --> 00:16:54,284
with some decent painkillers.
Those and a glass of Champagne,

304
00:16:54,286 --> 00:16:56,393
and it might just be
the best day of your life.

305
00:16:56,395 --> 00:16:57,659
We can still get married?

306
00:16:57,660 --> 00:16:59,660
I've got my lucky pants on.

307
00:17:36,573 --> 00:17:38,013
You OK?

308
00:17:58,367 --> 00:18:00,360
Please don't say anything to anyone.

309
00:18:29,905 --> 00:18:31,904
'Hi. You've reached
Catherine MacDiarmid.

310
00:18:31,906 --> 00:18:33,413
'I can't take your call just...'

311
00:18:35,740 --> 00:18:37,458
Hi, Mum, it's me again.

312
00:18:37,460 --> 00:18:42,013
Be good to know where you are.
Hopefully, you're in a tunnel.

313
00:18:45,606 --> 00:18:47,171
I have a meeting now.

314
00:18:47,173 --> 00:18:49,499
The interview is in an hour.

315
00:18:49,500 --> 00:18:52,366
I'm not operating, fair enough,
but I am an important cog

316
00:18:52,368 --> 00:18:54,771
in this wheel
of patient quality and care.

317
00:18:54,773 --> 00:18:58,659
She's lovely, but it's also
very hard to get anything done.

318
00:18:58,660 --> 00:19:00,346
No, really (?)

319
00:19:00,348 --> 00:19:02,013
OK, you're tired.

320
00:19:02,740 --> 00:19:04,140
Good luck in there.

321
00:19:04,142 --> 00:19:06,113
Be nice to have more
women in charge.

322
00:19:06,973 --> 00:19:08,765
Thank you, you've been lovely. Oh!

323
00:19:08,767 --> 00:19:10,880
Oh, dear, how are you feeling, huh?

324
00:19:12,340 --> 00:19:14,859
Oh, no. Oh, Elis, no!

325
00:19:15,039 --> 00:19:17,198
'Blow'
by lau. Ra

326
00:19:17,866 --> 00:19:20,865
♪ When they asking who's the star
You can tell them that I'm next... ♪

327
00:19:23,613 --> 00:19:26,612
♪ I don't go looking for
No karma... ♪

328
00:19:29,266 --> 00:19:31,265
♪ You live with an illusion

329
00:19:31,267 --> 00:19:34,786
♪ They wanna hear me scream
They wanna see me cry... ♪

330
00:19:39,266 --> 00:19:41,879
♪ Baby, I'm about to blow... ♪

331
00:19:41,881 --> 00:19:43,659
Looking very dapper!

332
00:19:43,660 --> 00:19:47,180
Just had my interview
for consultant. Oh. Go well?

333
00:19:47,182 --> 00:19:49,780
Yeah, I think so.
Well, you certainly look the part.

334
00:19:51,026 --> 00:19:52,493
I'm sorry, by the way.

335
00:19:53,219 --> 00:19:54,432
For your loss.

336
00:19:54,434 --> 00:19:55,634
What's that?

337
00:19:57,180 --> 00:19:58,700
For, erm...

338
00:20:00,660 --> 00:20:02,659
Sorry, I'm confusing you with...

339
00:20:02,660 --> 00:20:03,659
Never mind, way too much

340
00:20:03,660 --> 00:20:05,659
"trust priorities
and leadership strategies"

341
00:20:05,660 --> 00:20:06,699
running through my head.

342
00:20:06,700 --> 00:20:09,659
Don't worry, you can forget about
those almost immediately.

343
00:20:09,660 --> 00:20:11,593
Well, ignore me. Sorry.

344
00:20:16,660 --> 00:20:20,659
♪ They wanna hear me scream
They wanna see me cry

345
00:20:20,660 --> 00:20:22,659
♪ They're mad they're not about to

346
00:20:22,660 --> 00:20:24,660
♪ Look at me, I got so high... ♪

347
00:20:27,660 --> 00:20:30,226
I know. Is that what
you were wearing before?

348
00:20:30,660 --> 00:20:33,659
She puked over it.
Oh. Ugh.

349
00:20:33,885 --> 00:20:35,084
Take her.

350
00:20:35,086 --> 00:20:37,659
Catherine, I can't, my inbox is...
My mum is on her way.

351
00:20:37,660 --> 00:20:40,179
Please, please, Laura.
I-I'm up any minute.

352
00:20:40,180 --> 00:20:43,659
I will never give you a hard time
about a list ever, ever again.

353
00:20:43,660 --> 00:20:45,659
Ever?

354
00:20:45,660 --> 00:20:47,339
You're on the panel, aren't you?

355
00:20:47,340 --> 00:20:49,480
Can we talk about this later?
I'm just on my way in.

356
00:20:49,482 --> 00:20:51,751
Why would you do something
so stupid? I'm trying to help.

357
00:20:51,753 --> 00:20:54,339
I honestly don't think you've
got anything to worry about.

358
00:20:54,340 --> 00:20:57,019
It's the classic Swiss Cheese
model of accident causation.

359
00:20:57,020 --> 00:20:59,659
You know that "learning from
the no-blame culture" stuff

360
00:20:59,660 --> 00:21:00,811
is bollocks, don't you?

361
00:21:00,813 --> 00:21:03,659
No, I-I honestly think
it was systems failures.

362
00:21:03,660 --> 00:21:05,659
Right. Which system in particular?

363
00:21:05,660 --> 00:21:07,659
The childcare system,
staff shortages,

364
00:21:07,660 --> 00:21:10,659
the public school system, austerity,
or just the patriarchy in general?

365
00:21:10,660 --> 00:21:12,659
Or are they gonna throw
someone under the bus?

366
00:21:12,660 --> 00:21:14,659
I'm not throwing you
under any buses.

367
00:21:14,660 --> 00:21:16,884
I need this to stop.
I just need all of this to stop.

368
00:21:16,886 --> 00:21:18,339
Maz, breathe.

369
00:21:18,340 --> 00:21:20,859
Come on, calm.

370
00:21:20,860 --> 00:21:22,666
Breathe.
Miss MacDiarmid?

371
00:21:25,860 --> 00:21:27,659
I have to go.
Please.

372
00:21:27,953 --> 00:21:30,659
Please take your name off the panel.

373
00:21:30,660 --> 00:21:32,200
I can't, it's too late.

374
00:21:32,660 --> 00:21:34,520
I'm sorry, I've got to go.

375
00:21:34,522 --> 00:21:37,440
Can you call someone?
Or could you... could you wait?

376
00:21:38,580 --> 00:21:39,820
Maz?

377
00:22:29,247 --> 00:22:31,246
I need to report that my...

378
00:22:31,248 --> 00:22:33,706
consultant
has been drinking on call.

379
00:22:35,780 --> 00:22:37,059
Guy.

380
00:22:38,340 --> 00:22:40,633
Guy has been drinking on call.

381
00:22:50,660 --> 00:22:51,860
Bitch!

382
00:23:07,280 --> 00:23:09,212
Is there anyone here
you haven't met?

383
00:23:09,214 --> 00:23:11,400
I think I got around to everybody,
just about.

384
00:23:11,402 --> 00:23:12,920
Even if briefly.

385
00:23:12,922 --> 00:23:15,320
I understand
you had a list this morning?

386
00:23:15,322 --> 00:23:18,841
Two appendixes,
two hernias and some gallstones.

387
00:23:19,180 --> 00:23:20,993
My pager is on, I'm afraid.

388
00:23:21,653 --> 00:23:23,798
Well, then, we'd better get started.

389
00:23:24,080 --> 00:23:28,306
So, how does your training
meet the needs of this post?

390
00:23:28,700 --> 00:23:31,913
I was lucky enough to
sub-specialise in trauma surgery

391
00:23:31,915 --> 00:23:34,659
in addition to my general surgery
pathway training,

392
00:23:34,660 --> 00:23:36,586
and I spent six months...

393
00:23:40,893 --> 00:23:42,527
Miss MacDiarmid?

394
00:23:43,526 --> 00:23:45,859
I had the opportunity
to spend six months

395
00:23:45,860 --> 00:23:48,246
at a county hospital in Oklahoma.

396
00:24:07,166 --> 00:24:10,998
I think it demonstrated not only
how keen my surgical instincts are,

397
00:24:11,000 --> 00:24:14,519
the procedure itself was executed
perfectly and saved the boy's life,

398
00:24:14,521 --> 00:24:17,658
but how well I react
to the unexpected.

399
00:24:17,660 --> 00:24:20,293
And most surgery is clean,
calm, controlled.

400
00:24:20,295 --> 00:24:23,294
When we're in charge,
we have time to prep, to plan.

401
00:24:23,296 --> 00:24:26,558
But the step up from
registrar to consultant is,

402
00:24:26,560 --> 00:24:30,559
in addition to surgical
competency, about management.

403
00:24:30,560 --> 00:24:32,559
Managing human beings,

404
00:24:32,560 --> 00:24:34,844
fighting for your patients
and your department.

405
00:24:34,846 --> 00:24:40,560
That can be a far less
controllable, much messier business.

406
00:24:42,473 --> 00:24:44,906
And one I'm absolutely ready for.

407
00:24:45,840 --> 00:24:49,120
So, apart from
the clamshell thoracotomy,

408
00:24:49,122 --> 00:24:51,993
which we've heard a lot about today,

409
00:24:51,995 --> 00:24:54,559
which experiences
outside of medicine

410
00:24:54,560 --> 00:24:57,133
have proved useful
in your surgical career?

411
00:24:57,135 --> 00:24:59,560
Like my hobbies?

412
00:25:03,106 --> 00:25:04,306
Oh.

413
00:25:04,600 --> 00:25:08,159
Oh, well, my academic record,

414
00:25:08,161 --> 00:25:11,560
and work ethic
haven't left much room for...

415
00:25:12,366 --> 00:25:13,726
..distractions.

416
00:25:15,693 --> 00:25:17,560
Nothing else in your life, then?

417
00:25:22,440 --> 00:25:25,233
Can you tell us about
a serious complication

418
00:25:25,235 --> 00:25:26,760
and how you dealt with it?

419
00:25:29,866 --> 00:25:31,913
I'm sorry, would you mind
repeating the question?

420
00:25:32,359 --> 00:25:35,358
Can you tell us about
a serious complication

421
00:25:35,360 --> 00:25:36,559
and how you dealt with it?

422
00:25:36,560 --> 00:25:37,906
Yes.

423
00:25:37,908 --> 00:25:40,718
A few weeks ago,
I delivered a baby at 32 weeks,

424
00:25:40,720 --> 00:25:43,559
rather unexpectedly,
after a gall bladder removal.

425
00:25:43,560 --> 00:25:46,446
And was that a complication
or a coincidence?

426
00:25:46,800 --> 00:25:49,559
Did your procedure actuate labour?
No.

427
00:25:49,826 --> 00:25:52,998
Well... I don't know,
the causes of pre-term labour

428
00:25:53,000 --> 00:25:55,239
after abdominal surgery
are still largely unknown.

429
00:25:55,240 --> 00:25:57,120
I'm aware. Thank you.

430
00:25:58,146 --> 00:25:59,711
How's baby doing now?

431
00:25:59,713 --> 00:26:02,559
It was fine when I handed it
to the obstetrician.

432
00:26:02,560 --> 00:26:04,560
To the paediatrician, surely?

433
00:26:05,339 --> 00:26:07,338
Er, thank you, Professor,
you're right.

434
00:26:07,340 --> 00:26:10,020
That wasn't a clear case
of a complication, erm...

435
00:26:11,266 --> 00:26:13,399
Oh, last year, I had a...

436
00:26:13,400 --> 00:26:15,986
Nothing more recent?
No, because I was on...

437
00:26:15,988 --> 00:26:18,806
The pandemic's caused such
disruption to elective surgeries.

438
00:26:21,300 --> 00:26:22,500
Mm.

439
00:26:25,046 --> 00:26:27,926
A VTE in a 40-year-old male.

440
00:26:47,499 --> 00:26:49,559
Oh, can I get your help
with this referral?

441
00:26:49,560 --> 00:26:51,320
You'll have to ask
someone else, I'm afraid.

442
00:26:51,322 --> 00:26:53,720
Why, where are you going?
I've been suspended.

443
00:26:55,260 --> 00:26:59,560
I... What's happened?
Guy, what can I do?

444
00:27:01,673 --> 00:27:04,080
Was it because of us?
There is no "us", Louise.

445
00:27:05,460 --> 00:27:07,020
Did Helen find out?

446
00:27:08,226 --> 00:27:10,446
Guy... I told Helen
almost as soon as it happened

447
00:27:10,448 --> 00:27:12,448
because it was the
biggest mistake of my life.

448
00:27:14,133 --> 00:27:15,480
Just leave me alone.

449
00:27:16,393 --> 00:27:17,646
Floor two.

450
00:27:20,560 --> 00:27:22,559
This lift is going down.
Well... What do I...

451
00:27:22,560 --> 00:27:24,559
What do I tell everyone
about where you are?

452
00:27:24,560 --> 00:27:26,960
Doors closing.
Guy?

453
00:27:43,800 --> 00:27:45,420
Doors opening.

454
00:27:56,680 --> 00:27:58,106
And, yeah, the sides.

455
00:27:59,468 --> 00:28:00,668
Missed a bit.

456
00:28:04,560 --> 00:28:06,793
Those lucky pants
did the trick, then?

457
00:28:08,700 --> 00:28:09,946
Sorry.

458
00:28:10,699 --> 00:28:14,420
Babes, it's done. No, it's all out.

459
00:28:14,422 --> 00:28:16,006
It's like nothing ever happened.

460
00:28:16,899 --> 00:28:19,520
I had the most amazing surgeon.

461
00:28:20,966 --> 00:28:22,193
Yes!

462
00:28:23,900 --> 00:28:28,046
"With zigzag lightning,
flashing and frightening,"

463
00:28:28,953 --> 00:28:32,953
"the tiny snail
on the tail of the whale..."

464
00:28:33,906 --> 00:28:38,493
"and she gazed at the sky,
the sea, the land..."

465
00:28:40,920 --> 00:28:45,139
"the waves and the caves
and the golden sand."

466
00:28:52,300 --> 00:28:56,559
"She gazed and gazed,
amazed by it all,"

467
00:28:56,933 --> 00:28:59,340
"and she said to the whale..."

468
00:29:00,686 --> 00:29:03,906
"I feel so small."

469
00:29:17,326 --> 00:29:20,559
This is Dr Maryam Afridi on CAU.
I was just following up on a baby

470
00:29:20,560 --> 00:29:23,986
I treated in the delivery suite
last night, baby Kalpar.

471
00:29:24,320 --> 00:29:27,000
Could someone check the latest
NAS scores for me, please?

472
00:29:28,366 --> 00:29:31,200
She's scoring fives and sixes.
So far.

473
00:29:32,679 --> 00:29:34,986
Er, no. That's OK, thanks.

474
00:29:36,580 --> 00:29:37,806
Thank you.

475
00:29:38,626 --> 00:29:41,053
So, are they going to give
her a big whack of morphine?

476
00:29:41,379 --> 00:29:42,800
It's a rough start.

477
00:29:43,359 --> 00:29:45,358
Listen, erm, Simon,
about last night...

478
00:29:45,360 --> 00:29:46,560
I'm not gonna say anything.

479
00:29:49,600 --> 00:29:52,313
I think... I think you need to.

480
00:30:04,760 --> 00:30:07,560
Shh, shh, shh...

481
00:30:10,273 --> 00:30:12,952
She was making this horrible noise
when she breathed in.

482
00:30:12,954 --> 00:30:15,113
God, I don't know what to do.

483
00:30:15,700 --> 00:30:19,725
All the germs on the plane.
Or a protest at going away.

484
00:30:19,727 --> 00:30:22,727
How is making me feel guilty
a useful thing right now?

485
00:30:25,600 --> 00:30:28,140
What's her temperature?
39.2.

486
00:30:28,660 --> 00:30:30,840
Is that wheezing
her struggling to breathe?

487
00:30:31,267 --> 00:30:32,587
Like that, listen.

488
00:30:34,560 --> 00:30:35,759
Shit, we need to take her to A&E.

489
00:30:35,760 --> 00:30:38,559
No, no, stay calm.
Come on, let her calm down.

490
00:30:38,560 --> 00:30:41,240
Shh, shh, shh...

491
00:30:46,740 --> 00:30:48,080
That's croup.

492
00:30:48,707 --> 00:30:50,186
Isn't that a card game?

493
00:30:50,188 --> 00:30:53,046
It's a respiratory infection,
you had it.

494
00:30:53,560 --> 00:30:56,233
Look, go and stand outside with her,
get her some cool air.

495
00:30:56,235 --> 00:30:58,340
I'll get some steam going
in the bathroom.

496
00:30:59,693 --> 00:31:01,773
I think we should call 111.

497
00:31:01,775 --> 00:31:04,254
If you like, but describe
that cough to them.

498
00:31:04,256 --> 00:31:06,255
Go and stand on
the doorstep with her.

499
00:31:06,257 --> 00:31:08,853
OK, I'm going. We are going.

500
00:31:45,839 --> 00:31:47,212
Don't wait up.

501
00:31:48,866 --> 00:31:51,178
We can talk in the morning
when you've sobered up.

502
00:31:51,180 --> 00:31:52,951
I'm gonna be in the guest room.

503
00:31:52,953 --> 00:31:54,626
I told them where to stick it.

504
00:31:55,026 --> 00:31:58,590
Yeah. Yeah, no, I heard.

505
00:31:58,592 --> 00:32:01,093
You must be feeling
very pleased with yourself.

506
00:32:02,300 --> 00:32:04,006
My sister died.

507
00:32:05,693 --> 00:32:08,012
St Harry's called
me at work to tell me,

508
00:32:08,014 --> 00:32:09,757
and I couldn't go and be with her

509
00:32:09,759 --> 00:32:12,373
because you weren't fit
to come in and cover for me.

510
00:32:16,000 --> 00:32:18,185
How does Jack know?
What?

511
00:32:18,293 --> 00:32:19,498
Jack.

512
00:32:20,080 --> 00:32:23,080
He said he was sorry for my loss.

513
00:32:26,206 --> 00:32:28,332
Jack drove me to St
Harry's in the morning.

514
00:32:28,334 --> 00:32:31,433
And then I went back to
his place and I fucked him.

515
00:32:34,560 --> 00:32:36,193
Now you know how it feels.

516
00:33:00,879 --> 00:33:04,220
Five-week-old came in 30 minutes ago
in respiratory distress.

517
00:33:04,222 --> 00:33:06,221
Resps are 81, oxygen is 90...

518
00:33:06,223 --> 00:33:08,903
..intercostal
and subcostal recession.

519
00:33:11,580 --> 00:33:12,960
Baby's tiring.

520
00:33:12,962 --> 00:33:16,026
Put out a RESUS call.
But you're here.

521
00:33:19,446 --> 00:33:22,559
Erm, so your baby is going to need
some help breathing,

522
00:33:22,561 --> 00:33:24,306
she's not getting enough oxygen.

523
00:33:32,366 --> 00:33:33,906
Don't worry, she's in safe hands.

524
00:33:34,553 --> 00:33:35,786
Dr Afridi?

525
00:33:47,252 --> 00:33:48,452
Shit.

526
00:33:59,306 --> 00:34:01,306
I need you to look at this baby,
I don't know what's wrong.

527
00:34:01,307 --> 00:34:02,706
What do you mean?
I can't do it.

528
00:34:02,708 --> 00:34:04,966
Please, you have to come.
OK. I'll call you back.

529
00:34:10,006 --> 00:34:12,559
What's wrong with this baby, Maryam?

530
00:34:12,560 --> 00:34:14,559
Five-week-old
in respiratory distress.

531
00:34:14,560 --> 00:34:17,186
RSV. Bronchiolitis.
She needs intubating.

532
00:34:17,839 --> 00:34:20,199
No, it's OK. We've got this.

533
00:34:22,119 --> 00:34:24,920
We just need to help
your baby to breathe, OK?

534
00:34:27,186 --> 00:34:29,200
PICU been called?
Yeah.

535
00:34:36,253 --> 00:34:37,986
Colour change on the capnograph.

536
00:34:40,006 --> 00:34:41,500
Anaesthetist is here.

537
00:34:43,273 --> 00:34:46,558
That's much better.
Simon, stay with her.

538
00:34:46,946 --> 00:34:49,220
Right, call me if oxygen levels
don't keep rising

539
00:34:49,222 --> 00:34:51,793
and when PICU get here. Good job.

540
00:34:52,613 --> 00:34:54,087
You'd better come with me.

541
00:34:58,040 --> 00:35:00,366
I knew what that baby needed
and I knew how to do it.

542
00:35:00,368 --> 00:35:02,760
It was just like my body
wouldn't let me go through with it.

543
00:35:03,319 --> 00:35:05,513
And what do you think
your body's telling you?

544
00:35:07,279 --> 00:35:10,279
That if I treat another child
and it dies, I won't survive it.

545
00:35:12,920 --> 00:35:14,560
So how do you feel now?

546
00:35:15,067 --> 00:35:16,373
Stupid.

547
00:35:17,406 --> 00:35:18,606
Ashamed.

548
00:35:19,753 --> 00:35:20,953
Scared.

549
00:35:23,644 --> 00:35:25,643
I had a panic attack in the toilets

550
00:35:25,645 --> 00:35:28,004
when I came back
from the labour ward last night.

551
00:35:28,006 --> 00:35:30,913
And is that the first one of those
you've had since you got back?

552
00:35:36,899 --> 00:35:40,898
When Sami arrived with us...
I stopped sleeping.

553
00:35:41,560 --> 00:35:44,173
When he slept, I had to keep
watching him breathing

554
00:35:44,175 --> 00:35:46,240
cos I was so scared
he was gonna die.

555
00:35:48,993 --> 00:35:54,673
And then I was pregnant again,
just waiting to miscarry again.

556
00:35:56,086 --> 00:35:57,906
And then when Xavi was born,

557
00:35:57,908 --> 00:35:59,800
it took them a minute
to get him to breathe

558
00:35:59,802 --> 00:36:03,282
and I thought,
"Oh, THIS is how we lose him."

559
00:36:05,413 --> 00:36:09,020
And then the whole vigil thing
all over again with him.

560
00:36:11,560 --> 00:36:13,480
It's like I'm just waiting for it.

561
00:36:14,106 --> 00:36:17,046
I'm seeing all the ways they
might die play out in here.

562
00:36:19,426 --> 00:36:21,426
And how do you feel
about the future?

563
00:36:24,033 --> 00:36:25,606
Just this dread.

564
00:36:28,293 --> 00:36:30,092
This isn't you, Maryam.

565
00:36:30,793 --> 00:36:33,040
You're not well.
Please don't sign me off.

566
00:36:34,333 --> 00:36:36,660
Not until the
investigation concludes.

567
00:36:38,560 --> 00:36:40,480
Let me go in there a doctor.

568
00:36:41,753 --> 00:36:43,220
Please, Susan.

569
00:37:02,160 --> 00:37:05,373
- Hi.
- 'Hi. I've just had an offer.'

570
00:37:09,327 --> 00:37:11,326
Congratulations, Jack.

571
00:37:11,733 --> 00:37:13,973
'I didn't wanna spend the day
at work pretending to you.'

572
00:37:14,226 --> 00:37:18,558
I'm delighted for you, really.
'I'll see you there.'

573
00:37:18,560 --> 00:37:20,133
Yeah. OK. Bye.

574
00:37:26,560 --> 00:37:27,760
Bastards.

575
00:37:30,173 --> 00:37:31,379
Yeah.

576
00:37:37,306 --> 00:37:39,080
What am I gonna do now, Mum?

577
00:37:56,693 --> 00:37:57,919
Jesus!

578
00:38:00,799 --> 00:38:04,439
I'm... I'm just taking the kids
to school and, er, nursery.

579
00:38:05,120 --> 00:38:06,320
Guy?

580
00:38:09,093 --> 00:38:10,738
Daddy?
Yeah, he's fine, honey.

581
00:38:10,740 --> 00:38:12,559
We're gonna go to school now,
darling.

582
00:38:12,560 --> 00:38:13,559
We're gonna go to school, OK?

583
00:38:13,560 --> 00:38:15,599
Daddy's just a bit tired,
everything's all right.

584
00:38:15,600 --> 00:38:18,900
Mummy, we haven't had breakfast.
Yeah, I know. We can go to a cafe!

585
00:38:18,902 --> 00:38:20,051
Shall we do that?

586
00:38:20,053 --> 00:38:22,173
That'd be an adventure, won't it?
Come on, you two.

587
00:38:22,175 --> 00:38:24,599
Out you come. Yay for adventures...

588
00:38:24,600 --> 00:38:28,040
Come on. Good boy. Out you go.

589
00:38:49,340 --> 00:38:52,011
It's just my childcare
is like three-dimensional chess

590
00:38:52,013 --> 00:38:55,266
so a rota sneak preview
would be much appreciated.

591
00:38:55,268 --> 00:38:58,300
I'm kind of your line manager.
Good luck with that.

592
00:38:59,493 --> 00:39:00,706
Thanks.

593
00:39:05,213 --> 00:39:07,212
Have you spoken to Helen,
by the way?

594
00:39:07,214 --> 00:39:09,860
Cavendish? No. Should I have?
Maybe just check in with her.

595
00:39:09,862 --> 00:39:12,073
Off to get my terms
and conditions in writing.

596
00:39:18,853 --> 00:39:21,213
Thank you.
Thank YOU.

597
00:39:33,893 --> 00:39:35,493
Dr Maryam Afridi?

598
00:39:35,495 --> 00:39:39,060
'This is Clare from the adoption
team at social services.

599
00:39:39,062 --> 00:39:41,559
'We have an update on Sami's sister.

600
00:39:41,560 --> 00:39:44,559
'She was born very prematurely
the night before last.

601
00:39:44,893 --> 00:39:47,440
'She's currently in
the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit

602
00:39:47,442 --> 00:39:48,559
'at City General.'

603
00:39:48,560 --> 00:39:50,340
Don't take her away!

604
00:39:51,813 --> 00:39:55,440
'So we're gonna need to know
what it is you want to do.

605
00:39:56,106 --> 00:39:57,600
'Dr Afridi?

606
00:39:59,493 --> 00:40:01,493
'Dr Afridi, are you there?'

607
00:40:16,679 --> 00:40:20,679
I'm, erm, sorry about last night.

608
00:40:22,413 --> 00:40:27,093
I didn't mean to tell you
about Debbie or Jack like that.

609
00:40:34,253 --> 00:40:35,993
What did Marco say exactly?

610
00:40:37,979 --> 00:40:42,546
Are you suspended...
or taking some time or...?

611
00:40:48,553 --> 00:40:51,600
I think you need to talk to someone
about how you got here, Guy.

612
00:40:53,279 --> 00:40:55,166
They're offering to help you.

613
00:40:56,560 --> 00:40:58,160
Just take the help.

614
00:41:00,000 --> 00:41:01,420
Please.

615
00:41:09,920 --> 00:41:11,206
I'm done.

616
00:41:34,559 --> 00:41:36,560
Er... Clare just called again.

617
00:41:37,893 --> 00:41:39,500
Just... let me get through today.

618
00:41:45,140 --> 00:41:47,238
Are you sure you don't want me
to come with you?

619
00:41:47,240 --> 00:41:48,560
I'll be fine.

620
00:42:06,239 --> 00:42:08,006
Come on. Quick as you can!

621
00:42:10,240 --> 00:42:13,913
Hey, just, just be quiet, guys.
Daddy must still be sleeping.

622
00:42:16,280 --> 00:42:18,140
You two, just be quiet. Good boy.

623
00:42:18,142 --> 00:42:19,822
Come on. Out we go.

624
00:42:25,260 --> 00:42:29,260
Grab your bag, we're late!
Come on. Quick! Quick! Quick!

625
00:42:30,260 --> 00:42:32,593
Mummy, it's swimming today!
Well, you can't... Well...

626
00:42:33,006 --> 00:42:36,259
I'm sorry, darling,
we haven't got your swimming kit.

627
00:42:36,260 --> 00:42:38,259
Please, Mummy,
please go home and get it!

628
00:42:38,260 --> 00:42:41,259
I can't spend the whole day
just chasing after you, Maggie!

629
00:42:41,260 --> 00:42:44,259
Mummy, I can't go
if I don't have it! Please, Mummy!

630
00:42:44,260 --> 00:42:46,259
OK, Maggie. Stop!
Do not shout at me!

631
00:42:46,260 --> 00:42:47,619
I will drop it off at reception.

632
00:42:47,620 --> 00:42:49,259
Now in you go.
Thank you, Mummy.

633
00:42:49,260 --> 00:42:52,980
Love you.
Love you, too.

634
00:42:54,107 --> 00:42:56,233
♪ For me and for you

635
00:42:57,880 --> 00:43:01,830
♪ They used to envy you and us
I hate what we've become

636
00:43:01,832 --> 00:43:05,885
♪ Running round in circles
Till no air is in my lungs... ♪

637
00:43:05,887 --> 00:43:08,886
'This is Dr Guy Cavendish,
please leave a message.'

638
00:43:09,260 --> 00:43:12,280
♪ All this time I'm fighting... ♪

639
00:43:12,813 --> 00:43:16,720
♪ Lately, I've been tied up
Lately, I've been lying... ♪

640
00:43:16,722 --> 00:43:20,213
♪ Lately I've been thinking ♪
♪ about a way to save my life ♪

641
00:43:20,215 --> 00:43:23,731
♪ Lately, I've been useless
Lately, I've been loose

642
00:43:23,733 --> 00:43:26,958
♪ Lately, I'm pushing through

643
00:43:26,960 --> 00:43:29,978
♪ I'll hold my hand tonight

644
00:43:29,980 --> 00:43:33,366
♪ If I have to... ♪

645
00:43:38,480 --> 00:43:39,680
Guy?

646
00:43:40,260 --> 00:43:42,299
♪ Lately, I've been tied up... ♪

647
00:43:43,200 --> 00:43:44,286
Guy?

648
00:43:44,288 --> 00:43:47,221
♪ Lately, I've been thinking
About the ways to shake my life... ♪

649
00:43:47,223 --> 00:43:50,086
No... No, no... Guy? Guy?

650
00:43:50,088 --> 00:43:51,524
Guy, can you hear me?

651
00:43:51,526 --> 00:43:54,259
♪ Lately, I'm pushing through... ♪

652
00:43:54,260 --> 00:43:56,259
Fuck, fuck, fuck!

653
00:43:56,260 --> 00:43:57,540
♪ I'll hold my hand tonight... ♪

654
00:43:58,406 --> 00:43:59,632
Fuck!

655
00:44:01,720 --> 00:44:05,259
♪ I'll only pay the price

656
00:44:05,260 --> 00:44:08,259
♪ When I'm with you... ♪

657
00:44:08,260 --> 00:44:10,259
Please, please, please...

658
00:44:16,460 --> 00:44:21,259
♪ Oh-oh-oh, lately... ♪