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- Can you tell me more about your goals
for this next ketamine session?
- I would like to focus more on my sexual abuse as a kid.
- Tell me where you are.
- I'm in my childhood trailer.
Very scary.
- Bounty hunters bashing on your window and door,
and lights coming all in.
Like dude.
I was a wounded kid.
- Oh, my gosh, yes.
We were just two little kids that in the beginning
were very much trauma bonded.
- What's going on with you and Ashley, first of all?
- She said I used the shooting to cover up
getting my body done.
- Ashley said some [bleep] that made her feel some type of way.
She said some [bleep] that might have made
Ashley feel some type of way.
- I don't care about Cheyenne.
- The way you win the fight is to end the fight.
- So my probation is active right now.
It's 24 months in California,
so I can't leave for more than two days.
So...
- That's [bleep] up.
- Between Deandre's passing, it's a lot.
And I know Rosie is being hindered by it.
- Yeah.
Why don't you send Rosie down here
to spend some time with me?
- I finally got my mom admitted
into a rehab facility.
We also found my dad a facility as well.
- Hi. - Hi.
- When the cameras were there, she seems good,
but the moment we had a private conversation,
she looks at me and my aunt and she's like,
oh, yeah, we could do bingo together.
And I was like, you had a gambling problem,
a drug problem.
Like, why would you even consider doing bingo?
[ambulance siren wailing]
[soft music]
- Ryan overdosed.
That's truly the first time I was genuinely scared.
- How's Bentley taking it?
- Now he's just angry.
- Maci, have you ever thought about doing Al-Anon?
It's for people that have suffered with people
around this, and you know, always being the support person
and basically having a support group.
- You know what, I'm going to do it.
- I'm going to give it a try too.
- Really?
- Yeah, we will grow with him.
[upbeat rock music]
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ Keep thinking maybe if you let me back in ♪♪
♪♪ We could make it better ♪♪
♪♪ Breaking every habit, pull myself... ♪♪
- Too much salt.
Too much salt!
Ah!
- Whoo.
- Ryder went to the dentist yesterday.
- I went today. - For real?
She's been complaining about her teeth hurting.
He said that's because they're about to all fall out.
- Oh, OK, cool.
- I can't wait to see her be a snaggletooth.
- So what else is going on? How you doing?
Whatever happened to that what I'd call messy stuff?
- You're talking about the Ashley and Bar stuff?
- Yeah, did that ever simmer down?
- I would say yeah.
- How are you and Ashley doing? You guys have not spoken?
- No.
- You might want to reach out to her.
Just say hello.
- I have too much going on...
- You don't want to go through the fight?
- To go through a fight. - OK, let me ask you this.
- I don't need to fight with somebody that doesn't like me.
- Yeah, OK. - For what?
- OK, you're being a little bit pessimistic.
- Two years ago, my kids, Zach, and myself were
the victims of a shooting.
- I looked at who was holding the gun,
and it was somebody we both knew.
- It is a miracle that we are still here.
We are still dealing with this nightmare.
I would rather do a plea deal.
As long as he's doing more than 20 years, I'll take that.
- Yeah.
- I don't know if I could do a trial.
I don't know if I could mentally handle a trial.
- Mm-mm.
- I'm anxious because we find out this week
whether or not we go to trial.
And Ashley's comments make an already terrible
situation worse for me.
Zach and I have sat there with her and Bar, away
from cameras, talked about the accident,
talked about the effect the accident has had on us,
on our kids.
So it's like you've watched me cry about this.
I don't know how to reach out to a person
where I feel like they went too low for me.
- Here's the deal, though, Chey.
Hurt people do hurt people.
When you try to make things right,
your vibration gets higher,
whether it is successful or not.
Just think about it.
That's all. You know, try to find a way.
- I will think about it.
[tense music]
- ♪♪ Gone to a place no one can find me ♪♪
♪♪ Moved on ♪♪
♪♪ Leaving everything behind me ♪♪
♪♪ I'm not sure anybody even liked me at all ♪♪
♪♪ I'm not lost, moved on, I'm gone, girl ♪♪
- Hi, Daddy.
- How was your day?
- Good.
- You been having fun with Rosie at the house?
- Yeah.
- So what do you and Mommy be doing?
- We go to the park, and we eat food.
Daddy, watch this.
[soft music]
And move your tattoos too.
♪♪ ♪♪
I miss you.
- I miss you too, and I love you, K?
- Love you.
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ Let's get in the car ♪♪
♪♪ Let's get in the car ♪♪
Oh, the car's locked.
♪♪ ♪♪
- [laughs] - Thanks.
- Buckle up.
My sister has been here for over a month now.
I know it might be weird for her to be away from home,
so I'm trying to spoil her while she's here.
♪♪ ♪♪
- Holly, what colors are you getting?
- I'm getting lavender.
- I appreciate you.
You know, Bar is gone.
You've been helping me out.
You've been helping me out with Holly.
- I try to do my best.
I'm grateful for like you both because you guys have
taught me like how to be more social
and how just be yourself.
- That's the cool thing about being yourself
is that you're unique.
Have you ever stayed away from Mom this long?
- Never.
- How do you feel about that? - Kind of scary.
- Weird without your parents.
- Yeah, it's kind of like unnormal.
- Well, she says she's coming to visit in a few days.
- OK, I'm cool with that.
- I think Mom is really struggling.
You know, and you were there.
So I think you know. - Yeah.
- So you know, I wanted you to come here
because I wanted Mom to be able to deal
with her emotions.
Sometimes adults can't feel their emotions
because we have kids, and we don't want our kids
to feel those emotions too.
So we all got to support Mom, you know?
♪♪ ♪♪
[upbeat music]
- ♪♪ You're living far away from this ♪♪
♪♪ I needed to leave you ♪♪
- OK.
OK.
Hey, guys. So I'm completely exhausted.
I was just in Texas visiting my mom in her rehab facility.
There were some things that were said that were, like,
pretty concerning to me.
But now I'm in Arizona.
I'm about to visit my dad in his rehab facility.
Wish me luck. Send me good vibes.
- So you're going to let your dad know that you want him
to not cover up for your mom and to be
completely 100% honest and open about everything.
- I think that's important, don't you?
- I really think that's important.
- He'll be coming home in about 2 1/2 weeks.
All right, pulling in.
[phone ringing]
Hey.
- Hi, Mommy. - Hi, hon.
- Did you pick up Kloie yet?
- No, Sean picked her up.
Did you see Kloie? I want to talk to her.
- I'm--yeah, I'll call you.
I'm worried about my mom.
She said something about wanting to go home
and go to bingo and [bleep].
That's gambling. That's a trigger.
I think she should stay longer. I'm not kidding you.
- Yeah, but she only signed herself up for that so much.
You know?
- Yeah, but they can recommend her to stay.
- I don't know. I'm going to talk to Cathy.
I'm going to talk to her counselor about it.
But I'm here. We're at my dad's place.
We're about to get out and go visit with him,
see how he's doing.
- All right. Love you, bye.
- Ready, Freddie?
- Ready as I'll ever be.
[soft music]
♪♪ ♪♪
[upbeat music]
- ♪♪ Take my hand ♪♪
♪♪ ♪♪
♪♪ I'll be here where you stand ♪♪
- So Ryan has been in jail for a few weeks now.
While we wait on Ryan's court date,
I've decided to take your advice, Jade,
and I'm going to try my first Al-Anon meeting.
Dr. Drew has recommended it in the past.
- Have you been recommended to Al-Anon yet?
- Yes. - Are you going?
- Mm-hmm. - Do you go to Al-Anon?
- Mm-mm. - You need to go too.
He's going to be an important part of your life.
- Yeah.
It just seems like it's the time to try.
Wish me luck.
- What are you doing?
- Getting ready for my first virtual Al-Anon meeting.
Jen's going to try it too. - Oh, really?
- Mm-hmm, she and Larry found one to go to in person.
She already bought some of the books.
- What are you hoping to get out of this?
- Well, this first one, I'm really just trying to get
the anxiety of Al-Anon
and like the ignorance to it
and stuff like over with and out of the way.
- But like long-term?
- I kind of just want to figure out
if this can help me processing and not
bottling it up and just being hurt and angry all the time.
I'm not an addict.
I haven't been an addict, but dealing with one,
it feels so like you never know what to do.
- Yeah.
- Like you don't understand anything.
And so you definitely don't understand like yourself.
- Yeah.
- It starts in like 15 minutes, so I have
to like go somewhere private.
- ♪♪ Think I'm headed in the right direction ♪♪
- All right. See you later.
- ♪♪ None of this is what I was expecting ♪♪
[soft music]
♪♪ Oh-oh ♪♪
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ Darling, are we ♪♪
♪♪ Excited to learn ♪♪
- The joys of buying new furniture.
You got to put it all together. - I know, I know.
I just have that follow-up with Dr. Mike.
The Zoom call starts in a minute.
- I mean, you've definitely been feeling good,
ever since your whole ketamine therapy session stuff.
- Yeah, I feel great.
I'm going to hop on this call.
[upbeat music]
♪♪ ♪♪
Hello. - Hi.
- Hey, guys. How are you?
Nice to see you both. - Good.
- We're good. - Good.
Wanted to see how you guys are doing
after the ketamine-assisted psychotherapy.
What's changed in your life?
- I think it's great.
I kind of noticed myself just being a little more present
in little moments, enjoying them, sitting with them
for a longer period of time.
- Yeah, I can see him giving himself
a little bit more like grace
and being kinder to himself in certain moments.
So that's good.
- I'm so happy to hear.
I was really struck by how far you've come.
And when you grew up in that trailer,
and all these things happened to you,
and you were in so much pain,
I think that little boy would be
very, very proud to see everything that you've
achieved, this family that you've built.
So what I'd like you to do is write a letter
to that young Tyler, and I'd like you to go back
to that trailer that you grew up in,
and I'd like you to read that letter.
How does that sound?
- I mean, it sounds kind of intense.
- I also want you to tell him, hey, I'm OK now.
I want you to tell him, and maybe even anything
that you'd want to tell your mom or your dad
or other people in your life, anything that comes to mind,
anything that's in your heart, anything
that you think that you need to move on.
- OK, I mean, all right. I'll do it.
- It might be a long letter, but--
- Yeah, yeah, yeah, I don't know how long a letter will
be, but I'll do it for sure.
- ♪♪ Oh, let's face it, I've been waiting ♪♪
♪♪ I ain't patient no more ♪♪
♪♪ And I'm hoping ♪♪
♪♪ And I pray that we'll be back in store ♪♪
[soft music]
- Tyler has been working on a letter to his younger self.
His mom is coming over today, and I'm not sure if he's going
to share it with her or not.
But she's going to sit with the kids
so we can go to his trailer that he grew up in,
and he is going to read it out loud where he used to live.
It's probably going to be emotional,
but I think it's going to be great.
♪♪ ♪♪
- Oh, my gosh.
- Hello, Mother. - Hi, Ty.
- Hi.
- How are you? - Good.
How are you doing, Mama?
- ♪♪ Is it cool if I ask ♪♪
♪♪ Can we stay on the run? ♪♪
- So what are you doing today? What's going on?
- Today is where I have to do that, that like homework,
therapy work, to write a letter to my younger self.
- Did you do it? - Yeah.
Yeah. I did it this morning.
Yeah. - Oh, really?
When you sat down and started writing it,
what did you think?
Like, was it--
- Do you want to-- here, you want to read it?
Mom, you just got to read it.
- "First of all, I want to tell you that I'm sorry.
"I'm so sorry that you are going to inevitably experience
"a lot of pain in your young life.
"It's not your fault that your mom
"had to be more absent
"than she wanted to be in order
"for you to eat and survive.
"It's not your fault that your innocence
was violently robbed from you."
[somber music]
It's so hard for me to read this.
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ I can talk about you, I can talk about me ♪♪
♪♪ I can talk about us, I can talk about we ♪♪
♪♪ You and I are were in love, and now we're not anymore ♪♪
♪♪ All the things that I've done ♪♪
- Hi. - Hi, y'all.
- Hey, hey, what's up, family?
- Yup, we are starving.
- For size.
Right on time. Food!
- I'm starving, you guys.
Thank you for bringing lunch. - Uh-huh.
- So what's happening? How you doing?
- Dad came over and basically gave me the whole speech
about, like, calling Ashley and like clearing the air with her
and allowing like a healthy conversation.
- There's history there.
And there's been a lot of confusion
with all the online stuff.
There's been chitter-chatter, so it's like,
this is one of those moments where I think
like clearing the air actually would make sense.
- Right. - And it's for you.
It's not necessarily for her, or her reaction.
I think it's-- - Right.
- There's a few things that she said that weren't
true and very hurtful.
So I think that you will not be able to move forward
without addressing those things and say, I almost suffered
a near-death experience.
If she doesn't receive that, I don't know what to tell you.
- It would be nice to say the past is in the past
and let's just move forward.
What do you think?
Do you think I should listen to my dad and call?
Or do you think I should just leave it alone?
- I think you should call her because it's
something that has bothered you, and it's that simple.
- At the end of the day, you want peace.
You want to be able to peacefully coexist and not
have issues between you.
You guys both have share that end goal,
then there's a way to get there.
- ♪♪ Don't I know you ♪♪
♪♪ Don't I know you ♪♪
♪♪ If I don't, girl ♪♪
- Our Al-Anon meeting is today.
We should probably leave in about ten minutes.
- Yeah.
- Maci talked about going to one too.
- Really? - On Zoom.
You know, you can do them online.
- I have to go there to pay attention.
- I know.
- You put it on Zoom, you got me for about five minutes.
- I've been reading the Al-Anon books, and they are helpful.
I want to learn how to handle my emotions
better because I can't let his life control mine forever.
- I'm game.
- All right. You don't seem too thrilled.
- Yeah, it's just, I'll do it.
I got to check it out. I got to know for myself.
- All right, we got to put Chancey up.
- Chancey, are you ready, buddy?
We got to go to a meeting.
- ♪♪ I'm so far away ♪♪
♪♪ I will pull myself together ♪♪
♪♪ But right now, I'm just having one of those days ♪♪
[Colony House's "One of Those Days"]
♪♪ I'm just having one of those days ♪♪
♪♪ I'm just having one of those days with my headspace ♪♪
- You going to eat outside?
- I don't care.
- You're hangry.
- Starving.
Look at that.
- So what did you think of the meeting?
- It was different for me.
- Very different for me too.
Glad I went, and I'll go again.
- I'll go again with you.
Did you notice, too, a lot of them
said they tried to fix the problem?
- Yeah, that's my problem.
I always want to fix everything.
- You know, sometimes you just got to step back.
- Yep.
But we do feel disappointment and--
- I'm definitely disappointed.
- And kind of like sometime hopelessness.
And it does affect how we live our day-to-day lives.
- Yeah, it does.
Ryan's got an illness, and I mean, I can't change it.
So I try not to dwell.
- You can't push it down too deep.
- And I can't think about it all day either.
I got to be here for you. I can't just shut down on you.
- I know. - What if I shut down?
What do you got then?
- Nothing. - There you go.
We can't do it by ourselves.
We can't get through this by ourselves.
- Mm-mm.
- If anything was to ever happen to him,
we couldn't do it by ourselves.
- ♪♪ Whenever you want ♪♪
♪♪ Now wherever you go ♪♪
- ♪♪ You said let's go up ♪♪
♪♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪♪
- Hey, Mom! - Hi, booga!
It's good to see you.
- Good to see you, too. Come on in.
- Where's everybody at?
- Ash is right there. - Yeah?
- Just me, hey. - Hey, what's up?
How you doing?
- I'm good. - You haven't seen me.
You don't miss me?
- I do.
I'm just trying to do something.
- OK. So, booga, what's up, girl?
How you been doing down here? - Good.
- You've been giving Ashley a good time or a hard time?
- The best time of her life.
- OK.
It's hecka cool to be out here with y'all,
to be able to take a load off and see y'all faces,
and turn up.
- Turn up?
- Yeah.
I didn't come all this way to be somebody's mama and granny.
- ♪♪ I say, let's go up ♪♪
♪♪ Yeah, yeah, show up ♪♪
♪♪ Give it up, give it up, give it up ♪♪
♪♪ Showing up and don't stop ♪♪
♪♪ ♪♪
- It's nice out here.
- So what's going on with you guys, with the girls?
How's booga doing?
- Everything's OK.
- How do you feel about being a sister of a teenager?
- She don't bother me none because she know
I boo-boo-boo-boo.
I don't play. - OK, OK.
- So she's very calm usually here.
- Well, I'm happy that Rosie is here and giving me the time
to figure out my grief and where I need to be in my life,
because a lot of things are rocky for me.
So how are you managing all that, especially
with Bar not being here?
- It is stressful because I feel like I'm
constantly cleaning up.
I'm constantly making lunch.
Now I'm making dinner.
- It can be overwhelming. - It's overwhelming.
- Yeah, how is his mindset, being away from Holly
and just not being in the house?
- I mean, I feel like he hates it.
- It's got to be pretty miserable for him.
- Yeah.
- With that being said, I need that drink.
- Matter of fact, bring me a double Casamigos.
- Yeah, at this point, I need three shots.
[cell phone rings]
- Hello?
- Hey, it's Cheyenne.
I was hoping we could have a conversation.
[tense music]
♪♪ ♪♪
[tense music]
♪♪ ♪♪
[phone line trilling]
[cell phone ringing]
- Hello?
- Hey, it's Cheyenne.
I was hoping we could have a conversation.
- Yeah. What's up?
- I feel like we probably should have talked a long time
ago, but I think it was just a lot
happening online and in the air.
And I think it was best to let things kind of calm down
and let the temperature die down before, at least
for me, before I reached out.
- Right.
- You know, when Zach went out to meet up with Bar,
I feel like that was for them to clear the air,
and it seemed like their conversation went well.
And I feel like there's no reason
why we can't have one either.
- I--to be honest, I really don't
have anything to say to you.
I don't appreciate how you treated me,
and that's really as far as I'm willing
to take the conversation.
- I feel like you have matured.
- Mat-ured. - Thank you, thank you.
- Like, your behavior-- are you behaving, Ashley?
- I'm behaving.
- [bleep] my [bleep], Ash. - [spits]
- You don't spit on somebody, so I don't think I would
do another show with her.
I mean, I know I wouldn't do another show with her.
- Cheyenne texts me.
She says, "Hi, I don't think
"it is appropriate for you to attend the wedding.
"This is a very special day, and we don't want any drama.
Hoping you understand."
I am done with you bitches.
- She just has drama with the majority of the people.
I didn't really see a way around it.
- I appreciate you calling, but yeah,
I think this is a door that I would
just like to remain closed.
- OK, I respect that.
- OK, have an awesome day.
Thanks.
♪♪ ♪♪
[sighs]
So that was Cheyenne that called me.
And I guess she felt like because Zach came down here
and had a good talk with Bar, that that extended to her.
And she was like, we should have talked sooner,
and I want to reach out.
And I just said, you know,
I don't appreciate how you did me.
That's as far as I'm willing to take the conversation.
You have an awesome day.
That time for that phone call was before you
disinvited me to your wedding.
- Yeah, I agree.
- When we were supposed to be friends.
That time was before you got on your podcast and said,
well, just because she's Black doesn't
mean I have to like her.
- Yeah, which was so lame.
- That time was before you got on camera and said,
I'd never do a show with her again.
That time was before you said, I was toxic.
That time was before bogus ass phone call.
Girl, bye.
Can I have another Sex on the Beach, please?
- [laughs]
♪♪ ♪♪
- What's up, kid? - Where were you guys?
- Outside. Too hot out there, though.
What are you doing?
- So I feel like I let everybody get into
my head, and--
- You called Ashley? - Yes.
- Well, that's a good thing. - What happened?
- She said that the door shut because she doesn't appreciate
how I treated her, so--
- OK, you took a shot, and that's all you do.
- Man, you were shot down.
- Yeah. - Bam.
- ♪♪ You were supposed to ride for me ♪♪
♪♪ You were supposed to die for me ♪♪
- Ready, Freddie? - Ready as I'll ever be.
♪♪ ♪♪
- Hi. - Hi.
- Hello. - How you doing?
- I'm here. Actually, I'm good.
- God, you look great. - You look better.
- I've gained at least 30 pounds.
- You need a haircut, but besides--
- Yeah, I know.
- Yeah, this area is really nice.
- Yeah, the mountain up there.
♪♪ ♪♪
- We're going to have an hour off camera to chill
before we go up to the clinic, and we'll get
some food and [bleep].
- I can't believe how good you look.
Look at your arms. Look at his muscles.
And your color is back.
I mean, because you were gray.
- I've not been clean for 30 years
until now, literally 30 freaking years.
Now that I've not got anything in me,
I'm kind of interested to see what I can do off of them.
- Game plan basically would just be when you got home,
you'll stay in my back room.
- Either that, or I would stay in a trailer.
I'm cool with anything.
- We went and visited Mom, and I think that she
needs to be there longer.
- I was actually surprised when Mom said
that she was ready to go to Texas.
- Yeah.
- Because you know, she's always wanted to be right.
Even when she was wrong, she would never admit she's wrong.
- That's what I'm worried about,
is she's not taking it seriously.
And you guys get home, and then you
don't have a [bleep] backbone.
She's telling you what to do. - I'm not doing that no more.
- If you guys are on two different places,
you got to be in two different places.
- No, I've had a couple of guys ask me here, what happens
if she goes back to using?
I said, well, I'll see if she wants help.
If she don't want help, then she's going to--
I'm not going to stay.
I'm not dealing with [bleep] no more.
I haven't wanted to deal with [bleep]
for the last few years, but I didn't want her to die either,
and that was what I was afraid of.
Because I figured that was what's going to happen,
or I'd die with her.
- But I've seen you shut down and go to a very dark place.
- That part I wish I could do over.
Other than that, I wouldn't do anything
over again because now it's led me to where I am now.
- Yeah. - So.
- Are you all right?
I'm proud of you, Dad.
[soft music]
♪♪ ♪♪
I'm proud you're doing better. I want you to be here.
- So do I now.
Because I didn't want to for a long time.
I never wanted to kill myself, but I didn't give a [bleep]
if I died or not. I could have cared less.
- ♪♪ Where we go from here ♪♪
♪♪ ♪♪
- It's so hard for me to read this.
- I know. Do you want me to read it?
- No, I'll continue.
I just--I--
"I love you so much, and I'm proud of you
for how far you have come."
Wow. - That's it.
[laughs] - That's crazy.
- Jeez. - It's so emotional for me.
- I know.
- So you always blame yourself, you know,
as a mom, or a parent, or whatever.
And just the things you didn't see.
Where was my mind? Where was I?
- I was eight when the sexual abuse happened.
I told lots of people, and then I remember you
coming up to me, and you smacked me.
You said, knock it off, and stop saying that [bleep]
or something like that.
- I thought you were making up a story.
- Yeah, you did.
Oh, you were piss--yeah, when that happened, I was like,
OK, so now I know.
Like we ain't talking-- we ain't saying
that [bleep] no more.
- You know, if I could change things back then,
oh my God, I would have definitely like,
I would have been devastated for you.
- Well, yeah, I mean, but the thing about it is though,
is that I had to go through this experience
so that way I can learn the knowledge,
so I can teach my girls, you know what I mean?
So at least it didn't--
it's OK, Mom.
♪♪ ♪♪
- I just--it's so--
God, I wish I would have known.
- It's OK.
- It's not OK, Ty.
It's really not OK.
It's not OK.
I just wish I could go back in time
and just take all that away from you.
- You can't protect your kids 24/7.
So my thing, my philosophy with parenting is just like,
hey, listen, all I can do--
the only armor I can give Nova and all my girls is knowledge.
- Does it help you to know that I'm so remorseful?
- I know you are, Mom.
I don't--I know you are.
I don't need validation.
I know. I know.
- I love you so much. - I love you too.
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ Come on over if you want to ♪♪
♪♪ Let's go dancing in the summer light ♪♪
♪♪ I hope you do because I want you ♪♪
♪♪ Yeah, you're always on my mind ♪♪
- Taco soup tonight? - Mm-hmm.
- I'm going to put it in the crock pot.
- How did your Al-Anon meeting go?
- Good. Very like not scary.
I did not even turn my camera on until like halfway through
because I was like so scared.
And then I was like, this isn't scary at all.
This is great. - Yeah.
- I feel like everything that was read or shared,
I learned from.
- You felt like it was all directed towards you?
- Yeah, I was like, [bleep],
did they know I was coming today?
- Did anything come up for you particular
to your situation with Ryan?
- Yeah, it's not my responsibility
to fix the wrongdoings that Ryan's done to Bentley.
Not only is it not my responsibility, but I can't.
I've tried a lot of times to do exactly that, you know,
and only been like let down that I couldn't
or confused or angry, wondering
what I was doing wrong.
I've never heard that before. - Right.
- It's almost like it's like reworking my brain to like
be more gentle with myself.
It's hard to do, but if it were easy, everyone would do it.
- So you're going to do another one?
- Yeah, probably lots more.
- That's cool.
I wish I would have started Al-Anon a long time ago.
I just wasn't ready yet.
The way I avoided my feelings was
like a self-taught survival mechanism
that obviously I picked up when I got pregnant at 16.
You don't have time to freak out.
You don't have time to be sad.
You don't have time to feel sorry for yourself
because I had a kid to take care of.
Al-Anon, it's a game changer.
It just makes you kind of stop and sit with yourself.
Understanding my role in all of this has helped a lot.
Now we just have to get through Ryan's court date.
- ♪♪ So when I call out, will you come my way? ♪♪
♪♪ I really love it when you say my name ♪♪
♪♪ And all I ever think about is that... ♪♪
- Hey, guys.
So yesterday I did a thing.
I reached out to Ashley in hopes to clear the air
and make amends, but it didn't work.
She wasn't ready to talk.
I'm letting it go.
I have so much going on in my mind today.
We find out what's going to happen with our shooting case,
if he's going to take a plea, if we're going to go to trial.
It's almost been two years now, and we just want answers.
What are you doing, Zyzee-Wyzee?
Come here, bud.
- Hello. - Hi, babe.
- OK. - What happened?
- The lawyer emailed me.
All right, he said, "Good morning.
"I spoke with the defense counsel briefly.
"He informed me that the defense does not
"want the offer.
"So we're going to move forward with trial dates.
We're looking at trial this summer."
- So if trial, does that mean you guys actually
have to like take the stand?
- Mm-hmm. - Yeah.
- [groans]
- You OK, Chey? I see you over there.
You look like you're not OK. - No.
I think that I just wanted like--
- I know, honey.
- To be done.
- I know.
- But it's like, what I feel like in this situation,
nothing has necessarily gone our way from the beginning.
- It sucks it's not over today.
- I feel like I put so much energy into thinking
that this nightmare was going to be over today,
and then it's just not.
- Yeah.
- It's just another [bleep] day, another [bleep] letdown.
Why keep dragging this on?
You know you did it.
Just [bleep] sit there and rot in [bleep] hell.
Everybody's just like, be happy you're alive.
It's like, OK, but what, is this living?
I just feel like he ruined so much
of like my mental capacity, and I just don't
know how much more I can take.
- I know you wanted this to be over before you really start
like your therapy, and just--
- Please do not talk to me about therapy right now.
- OK.
- I'm so over everybody trying to throw some random ass person
for me to talk to and thinking that that's
going to solve all my issues.
It's not.
- I'll go check on the kids.
[soft music]
♪♪ ♪♪
- ♪♪ It's the end of the things ♪♪
♪♪ I don't need in my life ♪♪
♪♪ Waking up to the sun ♪♪
- I can't wait till you come home.
- I can't wait till I come home either.
- I know.
All right, love you, Dad.
See you when you get home.
- One of these days.
- I'll be waiting.
- We'll be waiting. - Bye.
I love you. Text me if you need me.
- I will.
[upbeat music]
- Well, this has been a trip, man.
- Yeah.
- Oh, Lord, it's been a trip.
I'm going to call my mom's counselor
before we hit the road.
[phone line trilling]
- Hello?
- Hey, Cathy. It's Jade.
- Hey, Jade. How are you?
- I'm doing OK.
I just wanted to run over some mutual concerns
that me and my aunt had while kind of just,
you know, observing my mom's behavior.
She was like, oh, I want to go home
and we should all do bingo together.
And I was like--and me and my aunt just looked
at her like, what?
- What? - You have a [bleep] addiction.
You have a problem. That's gambling.
You think I'm overreacting, or do you think it's something
that should be a concern?
- You're not overreacting.
- It's like you're not whole-heartedly there.
You're just trying to do this, and then you're going
to come home and be like, well, I finished it.
I'm sober. Everything's back to normal.
We're good.
And I'm like, no, this is a continuous work
in progress for years.
And even now, like, with seeing my dad,
and seeing how serious my dad is taking this,
like I feel like I've seen two different--
two different experiences.
- I would agree with you 100%.
- She's supposed to come home in a couple weeks,
and I'm like, I almost feel like her staying longer
would be better, but I feel like she
would just lose her [bleep].
- Yeah, she would. - She would lose her [bleep].
- Let me sit with her tomorrow and talk
about what this is going to look like.
- OK, I'll probably give you a call once we get back home
and I get settled because I feel like I'm just--
I'm spiraling.
♪♪ ♪♪
[sighs]
She's going to talk to my mom about staying longer.
- You know, maybe she'll take it even more seriously.
- Yeah.
- So do you feel like you got a breakthrough with your dad?
- Yeah, I feel like I was surprised.
Even when the cameras were down and we were privately
just hanging out, it was the same.
It was genuine. - All genuine.
I think he is going to be the best grandfather
he could ever be, you know?
- Yeah, I feel like I'm just--
- You're OK.
- I'm just so overwhelmed.
- I know. It's hard.
- I'm just emotionally, like, I'm just drained.
I just want, I just want my family to be OK.
- This is a hard thing to step up and face.
- I'm like concerned in my heart and in my gut.
I'm like, I don't think that you're ready.
Like I just don't think that she is.
- Like they said--
- If she comes home too soon, like, and she fails.
- If she comes home too soon, she will fail.
- [crying]
[tense music]
And I just, I feel like I just,
I can't live with myself if I feel like I haven't been
able to save both of them.
- ♪♪ We are there ♪♪
♪♪ We are there ♪♪
♪♪ If we got that move ♪♪
♪♪ Yeah, yeah ♪♪
[upbeat music]
- We're going to go to our old trailer.
- OK. - Read this letter.
- And it Grandma turn.
- Oh, yeah, it's my turn.
OK. Yeah.
- It's a cat! - OK.
Say bye, Mom.
- Bye, Mom. - Bye, Mom.
- I love you. - Thank you.
- Bye-bye.
- ♪♪ Let's let go ♪♪
♪♪ If we hold on any longer ♪♪
♪♪ We'll drown in endless water ♪♪
- I did not expect her to get that emotional, Jesus.
- Well, she's your mama.
Of course she's going to get emotional.
- She just held on to a lot of guilt.
- Right. Yeah.
- My mom said it was the third one.
- Sure, this looks like it. - Oh, that is it.
- Yeah. - What?
Yeah, it was that. That's mine.
Yeah. Wow.
It looks totally different, dude.
Oh, my God.
Dude!
It never was like this before.
- That's so funny. - That's crazy.
OK.
Should I read this now? - Sure.
OK, dear me.
First off, I want to tell you that I'm sorry that you're
inevitably going to experience a lot of pain
in your young life.
I also want you to undoubtedly understand
that none of that pain is your fault.
There will come a time in your life
when that pain is so excruciating
that the only remedy for the unbearable suffering--
That the only remedy for the unbearable suffering
you're feeling is to die.
But I'm here to tell you that you will survive for a reason.
And that reason has a name.
It's Cate. - Mm, Ty.
- You will meet the most purest example of love
that you've ever felt or witnessed
in your life because of her.
She will show you how you truly are worthy of love.
She will prove to you why you weren't
supposed to die that day.
You will fall madly in love, and that love
will result in the other reason you survived.
And that's to be a father,
to bring four beautiful children
into the world, to give those children
the father you never had.
And by giving them that, you will break
so many generational traumas.
So please just be kind to yourself
as you experience these things.
I love you so much, and I'm so proud of you
for how far you have come.
[laughs]
[bleep]
- Oh, I love you.
- I love you.
- ♪♪ Thought I needed space to keep me alive ♪♪
♪♪ I guess that I just needed you by my side ♪♪
♪♪ Thought I needed hearts to give me that love ♪♪
♪♪ I guess that I just needed eyes to look from above ♪♪
♪♪ I'm standing on two feet ♪♪
♪♪ But I'm trying to make believe ♪♪
♪♪ It feels like I don't have anything ♪♪
♪♪ And I'm not hesitating ♪♪
♪♪ But I'm wanting to take a leap ♪♪
♪♪ You told me that I can feel anything ♪♪
- [crying]
- ♪♪ I'm trying to swim ♪♪
♪♪ But the water's too thin to hold me ♪♪
♪♪ Too thin to hold me ♪♪
♪♪ So I guess I'll just hold my breath ♪♪
♪♪ And float away ♪♪
- Next on "Teen Mom: The Next Chapter"...
- I'm going through a break up,
getting myself back out there.
- There you go, yes!
- I feel like I'm just having such a hard time.
It's not safe.
- Don't panic. Just pull over, leave the car.
- I want to go over what you want to discuss today.
- I would like if my sister can adopt Stella.
- I talked to Mom, and she just flips the [bleep] out
and then signs against medical advice to leave.
- We're gonna go see Carly.
- Whoever you bring, you're sharing
that time with them, so you have to think about that.
[upbeat rock music]
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