1 00:00:01,969 --> 00:00:04,304 - ♪♪ MTV ♪♪ 2 00:00:07,073 --> 00:00:08,542 - What's going on with Bar? 3 00:00:08,609 --> 00:00:10,244 Apparently you found something going on 4 00:00:10,310 --> 00:00:11,678 with him and another woman. 5 00:00:11,745 --> 00:00:13,647 - At this point, do you trust him still? 6 00:00:13,714 --> 00:00:15,082 - Uh-uh. 7 00:00:15,149 --> 00:00:17,985 I was thinking about filing for a divorce. 8 00:00:18,051 --> 00:00:20,287 No matter what's going on between me and your dad, 9 00:00:20,354 --> 00:00:23,590 we still love you, and you're the priority. 10 00:00:23,657 --> 00:00:26,160 - I haven't spoken to my mom in about six months, 11 00:00:26,226 --> 00:00:28,028 ever since the Carly visit. 12 00:00:28,095 --> 00:00:29,963 - I just miss her so much. 13 00:00:30,030 --> 00:00:32,866 - I guess your grandma went to the hospital. 14 00:00:32,933 --> 00:00:36,036 - What? - She's okay. No, she's fine. 15 00:00:36,102 --> 00:00:37,537 If nobody's up there-- - I'll go up there. 16 00:00:37,604 --> 00:00:38,506 - I'm gonna [bleep] go up there. 17 00:00:38,572 --> 00:00:40,273 [dramatic music] 18 00:00:41,341 --> 00:00:42,342 - I know. 19 00:00:42,409 --> 00:00:43,610 - I'll talk to you soon, okay? 20 00:00:43,677 --> 00:00:44,644 - Okay. 21 00:00:47,214 --> 00:00:51,885 - Oh, man, first time at the age of 33, starting that. 22 00:00:51,952 --> 00:00:53,854 So this is my boyfriend. 23 00:00:53,921 --> 00:00:55,288 - Hello, everybody. 24 00:00:55,355 --> 00:00:58,158 My name is actually Gary, believe it or not. 25 00:00:58,225 --> 00:01:00,260 - [laughs] - Oh, my God. 26 00:01:00,327 --> 00:01:02,529 Maybe this is the Gary for you. 27 00:01:02,596 --> 00:01:06,433 - Khes and I are celebrating our one-year anniversary. 28 00:01:06,500 --> 00:01:07,801 - Okay. 29 00:01:07,868 --> 00:01:09,436 - What do you think I'm gonna surprise her with? 30 00:01:09,503 --> 00:01:11,038 - A baby. - A baby? 31 00:01:11,104 --> 00:01:12,706 - A ring? - Ring. 32 00:01:12,772 --> 00:01:14,141 - Oh. 33 00:01:14,208 --> 00:01:15,509 - And doctors are like, there's nothing we can do. 34 00:01:15,575 --> 00:01:16,677 You can't have a baby. 35 00:01:16,744 --> 00:01:18,245 You're not married to me yet. 36 00:01:18,312 --> 00:01:21,715 - Whichever news you get will not alter 37 00:01:21,782 --> 00:01:25,019 me wanting to be with you. 38 00:01:25,085 --> 00:01:28,121 - There's so much that's been, like, happening with my mom. 39 00:01:28,188 --> 00:01:31,058 Like she'll call us, cursing us out, crying. 40 00:01:31,124 --> 00:01:32,359 - You're getting married. 41 00:01:32,425 --> 00:01:33,661 I want us to focus on that. 42 00:01:33,727 --> 00:01:35,396 - You might not be there if you act like this. 43 00:01:35,462 --> 00:01:36,730 - I don't wanna [bleep] have to carry 44 00:01:36,797 --> 00:01:38,565 this weight by myself anymore. 45 00:01:38,632 --> 00:01:39,566 - What's in there? 46 00:01:39,633 --> 00:01:40,568 - It's a narcotic. 47 00:01:40,634 --> 00:01:41,568 It's methadone. 48 00:01:41,635 --> 00:01:43,570 - You were on drugs? 49 00:01:43,637 --> 00:01:47,407 [upbeat rock music] 50 00:01:47,474 --> 00:01:54,614 ♪♪ ♪♪ 51 00:01:58,318 --> 00:02:01,321 [intriguing music] 52 00:02:01,388 --> 00:02:06,827 ♪♪ ♪♪ 53 00:02:06,894 --> 00:02:10,430 - I [bleep] work for my sobriety, okay? 54 00:02:12,032 --> 00:02:14,101 You ever wonder where my money [bleep] goes? 55 00:02:14,168 --> 00:02:15,602 It goes to this [bleep]. 56 00:02:15,669 --> 00:02:17,871 I went every day for years until I earned the trust 57 00:02:17,938 --> 00:02:19,673 and the respect where they were able to send 58 00:02:19,740 --> 00:02:21,775 me home with a month's supply of medication. 59 00:02:21,842 --> 00:02:23,410 - You have to take it every day? 60 00:02:23,477 --> 00:02:25,112 - This I have to take every day, Briana. 61 00:02:25,179 --> 00:02:27,547 If I don't, I won't function. 62 00:02:27,614 --> 00:02:29,483 Do you understand what that's like? 63 00:02:29,550 --> 00:02:31,118 Nova's age, doing drugs? 64 00:02:31,185 --> 00:02:33,086 - But why don't you be honest with us? 65 00:02:33,153 --> 00:02:35,556 I think that's the part that's so hard. 66 00:02:35,623 --> 00:02:36,623 - Because-- 67 00:02:36,690 --> 00:02:37,958 - We're adults now, right? 68 00:02:38,024 --> 00:02:40,594 And we have compassion, and we love you. 69 00:02:40,661 --> 00:02:43,297 And we would understand. 70 00:02:43,364 --> 00:02:44,531 - Yeah, because I don't mean-- 71 00:02:44,598 --> 00:02:45,866 - Are you ashamed? 72 00:02:45,933 --> 00:02:47,067 - Of course. 73 00:02:47,134 --> 00:02:48,769 Because I knew I had to save you two. 74 00:02:48,836 --> 00:02:51,906 That was my priority--not me. 75 00:02:51,972 --> 00:02:53,474 It was you two. 76 00:02:53,540 --> 00:02:57,478 So I stood on this, because this is what was able to keep 77 00:02:57,544 --> 00:03:01,581 me balanced, to keep working, to keep supporting you guys 78 00:03:01,648 --> 00:03:03,650 and to keep being there for you guys. 79 00:03:03,717 --> 00:03:06,119 It's a [bleep] vicious cycle. 80 00:03:06,186 --> 00:03:07,321 It's vicious. 81 00:03:07,388 --> 00:03:09,957 [tense music] 82 00:03:10,024 --> 00:03:12,326 - If you do not go to whatever place 83 00:03:12,393 --> 00:03:13,627 that specializes in that to help-- 84 00:03:13,693 --> 00:03:15,062 - Don't say it. - I am gonna say it. 85 00:03:15,128 --> 00:03:16,530 - Don't say it. - It's about-- 86 00:03:16,596 --> 00:03:18,098 - You're gonna regret it. - Why? What are you gonna do? 87 00:03:18,165 --> 00:03:19,733 - If you say anything, one more thing about the wedding-- 88 00:03:19,800 --> 00:03:21,402 - 'Cause it's my wedding. You don't need to be there. 89 00:03:21,469 --> 00:03:22,837 - You gonna be there by yourself? 90 00:03:22,903 --> 00:03:25,005 - I will, with, my sister and my nieces and my in-laws. 91 00:03:25,072 --> 00:03:27,441 - I would never do that to you or her. 92 00:03:27,508 --> 00:03:28,709 Never. - 'Cause I have a boundary. 93 00:03:28,776 --> 00:03:30,176 - No, it's not a [bleep] boundary. 94 00:03:30,243 --> 00:03:31,645 - Yes, it is a boundary. - Go [bleep] hug a tree. 95 00:03:31,711 --> 00:03:33,046 - It's a boundary. - Go hug a tree. 96 00:03:33,113 --> 00:03:34,515 - It's a boundary. - There's no boundaries. 97 00:03:34,581 --> 00:03:35,516 [bleep] I'm done. I'm leaving. I'm done. 98 00:03:35,583 --> 00:03:37,083 - It's a boundary. 99 00:03:39,519 --> 00:03:42,722 - I'm so confused, and I'm so hurt. 100 00:03:45,158 --> 00:03:47,360 And now I have to put on a strong face 101 00:03:47,427 --> 00:03:49,663 for my [bleep] kids. 102 00:03:49,730 --> 00:03:56,803 ♪♪ ♪♪ 103 00:04:01,408 --> 00:04:03,711 - ♪♪ Okay, I know ♪♪ 104 00:04:03,777 --> 00:04:05,813 ♪♪ I'm trying to figure out ♪♪ 105 00:04:05,879 --> 00:04:09,449 ♪♪ Why I'm feeling this way ♪♪ 106 00:04:09,516 --> 00:04:12,319 - Lately, I've been juggling a lot since Bar has been gone, 107 00:04:12,386 --> 00:04:13,787 and I'm still going to school. 108 00:04:13,854 --> 00:04:15,855 - Push, push, push. 109 00:04:15,922 --> 00:04:17,324 - My nursing program is intense, 110 00:04:17,390 --> 00:04:19,526 so I haven't filed for divorce from Bar yet, 111 00:04:19,593 --> 00:04:22,629 because it's a huge decision that will affect Holly too. 112 00:04:22,696 --> 00:04:25,699 Right now I wanna teach her how to overcome any obstacles 113 00:04:25,766 --> 00:04:27,667 that may come our way. 114 00:04:27,734 --> 00:04:30,437 This community that we live in, we spend a lot of time 115 00:04:30,504 --> 00:04:33,240 at the pool, but the other day, she told me 116 00:04:33,307 --> 00:04:35,876 that some kid called her a baby, 117 00:04:35,942 --> 00:04:39,413 because she is wearing a life jacket to the pool still. 118 00:04:39,479 --> 00:04:44,018 That peer pressure, that desire to want to fit in, 119 00:04:44,084 --> 00:04:46,019 is coming, and it's new for me too. 120 00:04:46,086 --> 00:04:49,789 But I like to sit back and see how she is going 121 00:04:49,856 --> 00:04:52,226 to metabolize the situation. 122 00:04:52,292 --> 00:04:54,428 I like when she comes to me to bounce ideas off 123 00:04:54,495 --> 00:04:57,297 of me versus me overloading her with how I think 124 00:04:57,364 --> 00:04:59,099 she needs to handle her life. 125 00:04:59,166 --> 00:05:00,401 Knock, knock. 126 00:05:00,467 --> 00:05:01,469 - Hi. 127 00:05:01,535 --> 00:05:02,569 - What are you doing? 128 00:05:02,636 --> 00:05:04,471 - Cleaning. 129 00:05:04,538 --> 00:05:05,773 - How do you like being at the pool 130 00:05:05,839 --> 00:05:07,741 almost every day with your friends? 131 00:05:07,808 --> 00:05:09,943 - Well, I-- 132 00:05:10,010 --> 00:05:12,146 I'm not that good at swimming. 133 00:05:12,212 --> 00:05:16,717 - Well, I think you're as good as any other little kid. 134 00:05:16,784 --> 00:05:19,653 - I'm not a little kid. 135 00:05:19,719 --> 00:05:20,654 - What are you? 136 00:05:20,720 --> 00:05:23,090 - I'm kind of little. 137 00:05:23,156 --> 00:05:25,259 - Do you think you need swim lessons? 138 00:05:25,325 --> 00:05:27,661 - Yes. 139 00:05:27,728 --> 00:05:30,797 It's kind of not fair that they don't wear life jackets, 140 00:05:30,864 --> 00:05:32,533 and I have to. 141 00:05:32,600 --> 00:05:34,968 - Who doesn't wear a life jacket? 142 00:05:35,035 --> 00:05:39,306 - My other friends that go to the pool. 143 00:05:39,373 --> 00:05:41,241 - Well, you need to wear a life jacket. 144 00:05:41,308 --> 00:05:44,745 You--first of all, that pool is deeper than you think it is. 145 00:05:44,812 --> 00:05:46,313 It's taller than me. 146 00:05:46,380 --> 00:05:47,648 - It's taller than you? 147 00:05:47,714 --> 00:05:49,583 - Yeah, it's eight feet. It's deep. 148 00:05:49,650 --> 00:05:51,051 - You're a whole adult. 149 00:05:51,117 --> 00:05:52,686 - Yeah, I know some of your other friends 150 00:05:52,753 --> 00:05:55,055 don't wear life jackets, but maybe they can swim 151 00:05:55,122 --> 00:05:56,523 a little bit better than you. 152 00:05:56,590 --> 00:05:57,558 - Okay. 153 00:05:57,625 --> 00:05:58,859 - And that's okay. 154 00:05:58,926 --> 00:05:59,994 It just means you have to learn. 155 00:06:00,060 --> 00:06:01,728 A life jacket is necessary. 156 00:06:01,795 --> 00:06:03,163 It saves people's lives. 157 00:06:03,230 --> 00:06:04,998 It doesn't make you a baby or whatever. 158 00:06:05,065 --> 00:06:06,734 I love that you love the pool. 159 00:06:06,801 --> 00:06:09,703 You're just trying to have fun, and I respect that, girlfriend. 160 00:06:09,770 --> 00:06:12,339 But I have to think about your safety. 161 00:06:12,406 --> 00:06:13,340 So how about this? 162 00:06:13,407 --> 00:06:15,375 Let's make a deal. 163 00:06:15,442 --> 00:06:16,977 I'll get you swim lessons. 164 00:06:17,044 --> 00:06:19,680 If you're diligent in them, and you prove to me-- 165 00:06:19,747 --> 00:06:20,681 do you know what diligent means? 166 00:06:20,747 --> 00:06:22,082 - No. 167 00:06:22,149 --> 00:06:23,951 - It means you work hard at something. 168 00:06:24,018 --> 00:06:26,019 So if you're diligent, and you show up to swim lessons 169 00:06:26,086 --> 00:06:28,322 like you're supposed to, and you keep up with your stuff, 170 00:06:28,388 --> 00:06:30,957 I will consider letting you swim without your life jacket. 171 00:06:31,024 --> 00:06:32,092 Is that gonna be a deal? 172 00:06:32,158 --> 00:06:34,327 - Uh-huh. 173 00:06:34,394 --> 00:06:35,729 A pinky? 174 00:06:35,795 --> 00:06:36,764 - What does that mean? 175 00:06:36,830 --> 00:06:37,831 - Of a promise. 176 00:06:37,898 --> 00:06:39,300 - Of a promise. Right. 177 00:06:39,366 --> 00:06:40,701 - A pinky of the promise. 178 00:06:40,767 --> 00:06:42,269 - A pinky of the promise. 179 00:06:44,905 --> 00:06:47,341 [upbeat music] 180 00:06:47,407 --> 00:06:49,143 - ♪♪ Without you ♪♪ 181 00:06:49,210 --> 00:06:52,213 ♪♪ There's nothing I can do without you ♪♪ 182 00:06:52,279 --> 00:06:53,280 - Oh. 183 00:06:53,346 --> 00:06:54,281 - Hello, pretty girl. 184 00:06:54,348 --> 00:06:56,116 - We're cooking. 185 00:06:56,183 --> 00:06:57,718 - How are you? 186 00:06:57,784 --> 00:07:00,554 - I've been doing everything by myself for so long, 187 00:07:00,621 --> 00:07:03,524 and since Khes has come along, that has changed. 188 00:07:03,590 --> 00:07:06,627 He is so helpful, especially with the kids, 189 00:07:06,694 --> 00:07:10,163 and that makes me really excited to build our future 190 00:07:10,230 --> 00:07:14,034 together and grow the family. 191 00:07:14,101 --> 00:07:16,270 - So I have to run a few errands. 192 00:07:16,337 --> 00:07:17,238 - Okay. 193 00:07:17,304 --> 00:07:18,806 Have fun. 194 00:07:18,872 --> 00:07:20,774 All right, so Gannon, we're gonna make some curry chicken. 195 00:07:20,841 --> 00:07:23,177 - My mom didn't even know how to cook, so we couldn't learn. 196 00:07:23,243 --> 00:07:26,980 When you're 16, and you have a kid, 197 00:07:27,047 --> 00:07:30,083 you don't know that much, because you're still young. 198 00:07:30,150 --> 00:07:30,918 So-- 199 00:07:30,984 --> 00:07:32,619 - That's a good point. 200 00:07:32,686 --> 00:07:36,489 - Now that you're here, she's learning a lot from you. 201 00:07:36,556 --> 00:07:37,958 - We learn a lot from each other. 202 00:07:38,025 --> 00:07:39,860 I'm gonna learn from you guys too, because I 203 00:07:39,927 --> 00:07:42,029 don't have kids of my own. 204 00:07:42,095 --> 00:07:43,830 So it's gonna be a lot of good stuff. 205 00:07:43,897 --> 00:07:47,768 - ♪♪ Oh ♪♪ 206 00:07:47,835 --> 00:07:49,903 [doorbell rings] 207 00:07:49,970 --> 00:07:57,077 ♪♪ ♪♪ 208 00:08:01,515 --> 00:08:03,350 - Guess what I have? 209 00:08:03,417 --> 00:08:04,752 - What? 210 00:08:04,819 --> 00:08:10,991 - It says final judgment of dissolution of marriage. 211 00:08:11,058 --> 00:08:12,058 - It is done. 212 00:08:12,125 --> 00:08:13,960 - I am a divorced woman. 213 00:08:14,027 --> 00:08:15,796 And then in the bottom, it says you are 214 00:08:15,862 --> 00:08:18,332 now free to marry Mr. Hall-- 215 00:08:18,399 --> 00:08:19,366 - Oh, does it? 216 00:08:19,433 --> 00:08:20,333 - And you are now-- 217 00:08:20,400 --> 00:08:23,971 [laughs] 218 00:08:24,038 --> 00:08:24,971 - I'm joking. 219 00:08:25,038 --> 00:08:27,474 - Ah, you're silly. 220 00:08:27,540 --> 00:08:28,876 Mwah. 221 00:08:28,943 --> 00:08:33,614 It feels like--it feels like I'm lifting. 222 00:08:33,680 --> 00:08:36,483 I would never put my phone away for five hours 223 00:08:36,549 --> 00:08:38,285 while you and the kids were off somewhere. 224 00:08:38,352 --> 00:08:39,753 Something bad could have happened. 225 00:08:39,820 --> 00:08:40,988 - Fine. I'm [bleep] done. 226 00:08:41,055 --> 00:08:43,057 - Just wait. 227 00:08:43,123 --> 00:08:45,259 Did you sleep with someone? 228 00:08:45,325 --> 00:08:49,930 - I did go to a bar and was inappropriate. 229 00:08:49,996 --> 00:08:51,699 - To me, it's worth divorce. 230 00:08:51,765 --> 00:08:53,167 - That, you know what? 231 00:08:53,233 --> 00:08:54,568 That shouldn't even be in your vocabulary. 232 00:08:54,635 --> 00:08:58,072 - With cheating, in this situation, yes. 233 00:08:58,138 --> 00:08:59,607 - You brought me divorce papers, but you 234 00:08:59,673 --> 00:09:01,908 got 'em off the internet. 235 00:09:01,975 --> 00:09:05,012 - And we can take 'em to court. 236 00:09:05,079 --> 00:09:06,546 - You're all mine now, honey. 237 00:09:06,613 --> 00:09:09,149 - I've been all yours this whole time. 238 00:09:09,216 --> 00:09:10,451 - Now you ain't going nowhere. 239 00:09:10,518 --> 00:09:12,686 - I was never gonna go anywhere. 240 00:09:12,753 --> 00:09:15,456 - The fact that you got your divorce is important to me, 241 00:09:15,522 --> 00:09:18,926 because I don't wanna talk about marriage 242 00:09:18,993 --> 00:09:20,527 when somebody else is married. 243 00:09:20,594 --> 00:09:24,131 - I filed for this divorce a year before I met you, 244 00:09:24,198 --> 00:09:27,735 and getting it is just like a breath of fresh air. 245 00:09:27,801 --> 00:09:29,570 Now we can plan the future. 246 00:09:29,636 --> 00:09:32,973 We really want to have a baby together. 247 00:09:33,040 --> 00:09:34,541 - Positive? 248 00:09:34,608 --> 00:09:36,009 Right now? 249 00:09:36,076 --> 00:09:39,246 - Financially, it's gonna be a lot of money. 250 00:09:39,313 --> 00:09:41,114 - I've always been a hard worker. 251 00:09:41,181 --> 00:09:44,251 We just gotta figure stuff out. 252 00:09:44,318 --> 00:09:47,587 - My preference is to be married before we have a baby, 253 00:09:47,654 --> 00:09:51,458 but I really don't wanna have a baby in my 30s. 254 00:09:51,525 --> 00:09:53,527 When you're a type I diabetic, probably 255 00:09:53,594 --> 00:09:54,995 the younger, the better. 256 00:09:55,062 --> 00:09:56,230 But we are gonna get married one day, right? 257 00:09:56,296 --> 00:09:58,231 - Yes. - Okay. 258 00:09:58,298 --> 00:09:59,833 You ain't gonna drag this out for, like, 259 00:09:59,900 --> 00:10:02,269 five more years, right? 260 00:10:02,336 --> 00:10:03,938 - [laughs] No, I wouldn't do that to you. 261 00:10:04,004 --> 00:10:05,373 I wouldn't do that to you. That's torture. 262 00:10:05,439 --> 00:10:07,207 - Okay, so what do we do from here? 263 00:10:07,274 --> 00:10:12,446 - The only option is to speak to a-- 264 00:10:12,513 --> 00:10:14,215 - Fertility doctor. 265 00:10:14,281 --> 00:10:17,784 - Since your tubes are tied, just be as open minded as you 266 00:10:17,851 --> 00:10:20,687 can and just hear all options and see what works-- 267 00:10:20,754 --> 00:10:21,955 would work best for us. 268 00:10:22,022 --> 00:10:25,258 - Okay, so I'll start calling places. 269 00:10:32,399 --> 00:10:34,267 - ♪♪ The way you feel ♪♪ 270 00:10:34,334 --> 00:10:36,269 ♪♪ Crazy as it feels ♪♪ 271 00:10:36,336 --> 00:10:40,240 ♪♪ Trying to get it out of the way ♪♪ 272 00:10:40,307 --> 00:10:41,976 [upbeat music] 273 00:10:42,042 --> 00:10:43,944 - Look, honey. - Hello, honey. 274 00:10:44,011 --> 00:10:45,979 - [laughs] Look at how cute-- - What is that? For Vaeda? 275 00:10:46,046 --> 00:10:47,815 - Yeah, for school tomorrow, to put over her leggings. 276 00:10:47,882 --> 00:10:48,949 Isn't that cute? 277 00:10:49,015 --> 00:10:50,484 - Aw. 278 00:10:50,551 --> 00:10:53,453 - I cannot believe it, but Vaeda is turning five. 279 00:10:53,520 --> 00:10:55,021 So we're having a birthday party. 280 00:10:55,088 --> 00:10:57,825 I'm kind of on the fence about inviting my mom or not. 281 00:10:57,892 --> 00:11:01,796 But ever since Nova and her had that visit, the kids, you know, 282 00:11:01,862 --> 00:11:03,030 constantly wanna see her. 283 00:11:03,097 --> 00:11:04,965 I kind of wanna do baby steps, 284 00:11:05,031 --> 00:11:07,867 so I asked her if she would go to therapy with me. 285 00:11:07,934 --> 00:11:10,738 I was wondering if you would be up to possibly 286 00:11:10,804 --> 00:11:12,172 doing therapy with me. 287 00:11:12,239 --> 00:11:14,408 - Yeah, sure, you know, I'm always down to do 288 00:11:14,475 --> 00:11:16,009 that stuff with you. 289 00:11:16,076 --> 00:11:19,245 - So that's a positive step in the right direction, 290 00:11:19,312 --> 00:11:21,482 but we'll see where it goes. 291 00:11:21,548 --> 00:11:22,916 - What are you doing? 292 00:11:22,983 --> 00:11:24,351 - I'm doing that therapy session with my mom. 293 00:11:24,418 --> 00:11:25,786 - Okay. 294 00:11:25,852 --> 00:11:27,488 - I hope it doesn't bring stuff up for me. 295 00:11:27,554 --> 00:11:28,589 - What--like, what is that? 296 00:11:28,655 --> 00:11:29,923 - I don't know. 297 00:11:29,990 --> 00:11:31,492 You know, sometimes it brings up-- 298 00:11:31,558 --> 00:11:33,260 I get anxiety after certain things. 299 00:11:33,326 --> 00:11:35,429 - I'd be lying if I said I wasn't worried for you, 300 00:11:35,496 --> 00:11:36,931 getting--you know what I mean? 301 00:11:36,997 --> 00:11:38,199 Because I know there's a possibility 302 00:11:38,265 --> 00:11:39,833 of digging [bleep] up. 303 00:11:39,900 --> 00:11:41,135 Things getting--you know what I mean? 304 00:11:41,202 --> 00:11:42,802 So where are you at as far as, like, 305 00:11:42,869 --> 00:11:45,238 inviting her to Vaeda's birthday party? 306 00:11:45,305 --> 00:11:46,940 Because she always came. 307 00:11:47,007 --> 00:11:48,441 - I mean, as of now, I'm not really comfortable with it, 308 00:11:48,508 --> 00:11:50,744 but we'll see how therapy goes. 309 00:11:50,810 --> 00:11:52,846 - Choosing to have her at the party or not, 310 00:11:52,913 --> 00:11:57,651 it shouldn't, in my opinion, inhibit any like, progress. 311 00:11:57,717 --> 00:11:59,086 You know what I'm saying? - Yeah. 312 00:11:59,153 --> 00:12:00,621 - If you're not willing to self-betray in order 313 00:12:00,688 --> 00:12:02,556 to make this progress happen. 314 00:12:02,623 --> 00:12:03,590 - Yeah. 315 00:12:03,657 --> 00:12:10,797 ♪♪ ♪♪ 316 00:12:13,501 --> 00:12:15,835 - Hi, baby. 317 00:12:15,902 --> 00:12:17,070 Don't look. Don't look. 318 00:12:17,137 --> 00:12:18,072 - I'm not. 319 00:12:18,139 --> 00:12:19,473 Okay, okay. 320 00:12:19,540 --> 00:12:22,209 I'm gonna miss you. 321 00:12:22,276 --> 00:12:23,377 Hi, ladies. 322 00:12:23,444 --> 00:12:25,145 I hope everybody's doing well. 323 00:12:25,212 --> 00:12:26,913 I just wanna give you a little update. 324 00:12:26,980 --> 00:12:29,917 Things are honestly getting serious between me 325 00:12:29,984 --> 00:12:31,752 and my boyfriend, Gary. 326 00:12:31,819 --> 00:12:32,753 - Get this cooking going, and I'll bring up the wine. 327 00:12:32,819 --> 00:12:34,021 Okay? - Okay. 328 00:12:34,088 --> 00:12:36,022 He really treats me like a queen. 329 00:12:36,089 --> 00:12:37,457 [laughs] 330 00:12:37,524 --> 00:12:42,896 ♪♪ ♪♪ 331 00:12:42,963 --> 00:12:45,966 - ♪♪ Make 'em say wow ♪♪ 332 00:12:46,033 --> 00:12:47,100 - Oh, baby. 333 00:12:47,167 --> 00:12:48,302 - Cilantro, baby. 334 00:12:48,368 --> 00:12:49,302 - Bam. 335 00:12:52,039 --> 00:12:53,607 It's really good. 336 00:12:53,674 --> 00:12:55,442 I love you. - Love you. 337 00:12:55,509 --> 00:12:58,746 ♪♪ ♪♪ 338 00:12:58,812 --> 00:13:02,216 - ♪♪ I can see that we belong together ♪♪ 339 00:13:02,282 --> 00:13:04,485 ♪♪ We are meant to be friends forever ♪♪ 340 00:13:04,551 --> 00:13:05,652 - Oh. 341 00:13:05,719 --> 00:13:08,155 This will be the meditation room. 342 00:13:08,222 --> 00:13:09,389 - Nice. 343 00:13:09,456 --> 00:13:10,657 This is cute. 344 00:13:10,724 --> 00:13:11,858 And it smells good. 345 00:13:11,925 --> 00:13:12,826 - Yeah, that's my-- 346 00:13:12,893 --> 00:13:14,128 - Sage candle. 347 00:13:14,194 --> 00:13:15,429 - Uh-huh. 348 00:13:15,495 --> 00:13:17,030 - How has things been going with you and Gary? 349 00:13:17,097 --> 00:13:18,932 - Me and Gary, we're doing really good. 350 00:13:18,999 --> 00:13:22,169 Like, been staying with each other a lot more, 351 00:13:22,236 --> 00:13:23,938 spending more time together, so-- 352 00:13:24,004 --> 00:13:25,706 - Has he ever been married? 353 00:13:25,773 --> 00:13:27,074 - Yeah, he was married, actually. 354 00:13:27,141 --> 00:13:28,208 - Oh, okay. 355 00:13:28,275 --> 00:13:29,476 - I feel like I've been married, 356 00:13:29,543 --> 00:13:30,944 like, five [bleep] times, so-- 357 00:13:31,011 --> 00:13:34,114 - [laughs] Does he have any kids? 358 00:13:34,180 --> 00:13:35,115 - No. 359 00:13:35,182 --> 00:13:37,418 We're just going with the flow. 360 00:13:37,484 --> 00:13:38,752 We're not moving fast. 361 00:13:38,818 --> 00:13:40,321 We're not moving slow. 362 00:13:40,387 --> 00:13:42,556 We're moving at a good pace, whatever we're feeling. 363 00:13:42,623 --> 00:13:46,460 The other day, he experienced, like, my first manic episode, 364 00:13:46,527 --> 00:13:48,028 almost a blackout. 365 00:13:48,095 --> 00:13:50,330 - My journey with mental health has been a long one. 366 00:13:50,397 --> 00:13:53,099 - I'm very concerned about your anxiety and depression. 367 00:13:53,166 --> 00:13:55,001 I'd like to refer you to a psychiatrist. 368 00:13:55,068 --> 00:13:57,938 But in the meantime, I can start you on medication, okay? 369 00:13:58,005 --> 00:14:00,040 - I have been diagnosed with borderline personality 370 00:14:00,107 --> 00:14:02,543 disorder, and also I am bipolar. 371 00:14:02,610 --> 00:14:05,745 One of my symptoms is having manic episodes, which means 372 00:14:05,812 --> 00:14:07,414 I can experience blackouts. 373 00:14:07,480 --> 00:14:10,250 When this happens, I actually don't remember anything. 374 00:14:10,317 --> 00:14:12,252 In the past, my mental health has 375 00:14:12,319 --> 00:14:14,021 definitely affected my relationships 376 00:14:14,088 --> 00:14:15,589 with my boyfriends. 377 00:14:15,656 --> 00:14:18,092 So we started going to couples therapy. 378 00:14:18,158 --> 00:14:20,026 We've been there twice now. 379 00:14:20,093 --> 00:14:22,396 - That's different from the first couple relationships. 380 00:14:22,462 --> 00:14:24,264 - It feels good to do that for the first time, 381 00:14:24,331 --> 00:14:26,300 because, you know, I'm not good at relationships, 382 00:14:26,366 --> 00:14:28,302 especially this type of relationship where 383 00:14:28,368 --> 00:14:29,770 it's actually a good one. 384 00:14:29,836 --> 00:14:31,572 This is something, like, I don't wanna mess up. 385 00:14:31,638 --> 00:14:35,242 [intriguing music] 386 00:14:35,309 --> 00:14:36,676 ♪♪ ♪♪ 387 00:14:42,616 --> 00:14:46,887 - ♪♪ I feel with you ♪♪ 388 00:14:46,954 --> 00:14:48,455 [upbeat music] 389 00:14:48,522 --> 00:14:53,794 - Okay, guys, my divorce is finally over, and now 390 00:14:53,861 --> 00:14:56,563 Khes and I can grow our little family. 391 00:14:56,630 --> 00:14:58,899 So we are going to the doctor right now 392 00:14:58,965 --> 00:15:02,869 to hopefully find out that I can get my tubes untied. 393 00:15:08,943 --> 00:15:10,811 - Please step into the room. - Hello. 394 00:15:10,878 --> 00:15:12,179 - Hi. - Hi. 395 00:15:12,246 --> 00:15:13,147 Nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you. 396 00:15:13,213 --> 00:15:14,281 - My name is Lindsey. 397 00:15:14,348 --> 00:15:15,449 I'm a nurse practitioner here. 398 00:15:15,516 --> 00:15:16,750 It's nice to meet both of you. 399 00:15:16,817 --> 00:15:18,252 So you're here trying to get pregnant. 400 00:15:18,318 --> 00:15:19,787 - Yes. - Okay. 401 00:15:19,854 --> 00:15:21,922 You've been together for about a year, it looks like. 402 00:15:21,988 --> 00:15:23,590 Okay. 403 00:15:23,657 --> 00:15:25,326 And you had your tubes tied, you said, seven years ago. 404 00:15:25,392 --> 00:15:26,927 - Yes. 405 00:15:26,994 --> 00:15:28,462 - Are you interested in doing more of a tubal reversal 406 00:15:28,529 --> 00:15:29,763 to get pregnant or-- 407 00:15:29,829 --> 00:15:30,965 - Yes. 408 00:15:31,031 --> 00:15:32,199 - Okay, we can schedule a surgery to see 409 00:15:32,265 --> 00:15:33,600 what the tubes look like. 410 00:15:33,667 --> 00:15:35,135 And then if everything looks good, 411 00:15:35,202 --> 00:15:37,003 and you're a good candidate to do the reversal, 412 00:15:37,070 --> 00:15:38,171 then we do the reversal. 413 00:15:38,238 --> 00:15:39,507 And then we try at home. 414 00:15:39,573 --> 00:15:41,642 Your age category, you're close to, 415 00:15:41,709 --> 00:15:44,311 like, 15% to 20% success rate. 416 00:15:44,378 --> 00:15:46,980 [somber music] 417 00:15:47,047 --> 00:15:52,386 - Um--so there's only a 20% chance of getting 418 00:15:52,453 --> 00:15:55,022 pregnant after tubal reversal? 419 00:15:55,088 --> 00:15:57,725 - I would say around 20%, and that's with, 420 00:15:57,791 --> 00:15:59,760 if nothing is wrong, like sperm looks good, 421 00:15:59,826 --> 00:16:02,062 and hormones are good, you're ovulating. 422 00:16:02,129 --> 00:16:03,264 - Is there another option? 423 00:16:03,330 --> 00:16:04,731 - Yep. 424 00:16:04,798 --> 00:16:07,567 So IVF pregnancy rates are around 65% to 70%, 425 00:16:07,634 --> 00:16:09,536 and we wouldn't have to do any types of surgeries. 426 00:16:09,603 --> 00:16:11,538 You don't need the tubes at all for IVF. 427 00:16:11,605 --> 00:16:13,841 It's just your ovaries and your uterus. 428 00:16:13,908 --> 00:16:17,811 - What's, like, an estimate for IVF? 429 00:16:17,877 --> 00:16:21,148 - Ballpark would be anywhere from, like, 10,000 to 20,000. 430 00:16:21,215 --> 00:16:22,616 - Okay. 431 00:16:22,682 --> 00:16:27,254 - One very important question is, have you 432 00:16:27,321 --> 00:16:29,857 worked with type I diabetics? 433 00:16:29,923 --> 00:16:30,857 - Yes. 434 00:16:30,924 --> 00:16:31,925 - Okay. 435 00:16:31,992 --> 00:16:33,426 - The only thing that we require 436 00:16:33,493 --> 00:16:35,262 for getting pregnant with type I diabetes 437 00:16:35,328 --> 00:16:38,632 is having that A1C number at a 6.5. 438 00:16:38,698 --> 00:16:40,100 - Is that your sugar level? 439 00:16:40,167 --> 00:16:41,401 - Yeah. 440 00:16:41,468 --> 00:16:42,903 - We are very strict on where we're at 441 00:16:42,969 --> 00:16:46,206 with that number in terms of getting you pregnant. 442 00:16:46,273 --> 00:16:49,376 - Okay, I've always ran high. 443 00:16:49,442 --> 00:16:50,978 - Okay. - Always. 444 00:16:51,045 --> 00:16:52,313 Like 9. 445 00:16:52,379 --> 00:16:53,680 - How were the pregnancies? 446 00:16:53,747 --> 00:16:55,216 Any complications in the pregnancies? 447 00:16:55,282 --> 00:16:57,284 - So my first two, no. 448 00:16:57,350 --> 00:17:03,790 My last one was a disaster from day one. 449 00:17:03,857 --> 00:17:06,827 When I was pregnant before, I did not have an insulin pump. 450 00:17:06,894 --> 00:17:08,028 - Okay. 451 00:17:08,094 --> 00:17:09,796 I think that's probably a good idea. 452 00:17:09,863 --> 00:17:13,600 - So a possible solution for maintaining healthy blood 453 00:17:13,667 --> 00:17:15,569 sugars is an insulin pump. 454 00:17:15,635 --> 00:17:18,271 The pump, without you even doing the work, 455 00:17:18,338 --> 00:17:22,509 it'll spit out insulin, but it still doesn't mean 456 00:17:22,576 --> 00:17:24,044 you have perfect blood sugar. 457 00:17:24,111 --> 00:17:26,480 - I'm hopeful that we will get you a baby, 100%. 458 00:17:26,546 --> 00:17:27,481 I am hopeful of that. 459 00:17:27,548 --> 00:17:29,015 And I know we can. 460 00:17:29,082 --> 00:17:31,451 So it's in terms of how is where we're kind of need 461 00:17:31,518 --> 00:17:33,720 to figure out the next steps. 462 00:17:35,523 --> 00:17:37,291 [upbeat music] 463 00:17:37,357 --> 00:17:39,493 - ♪♪ What, what? ♪♪ 464 00:17:39,560 --> 00:17:40,560 ♪♪ Hey ♪♪ 465 00:17:40,627 --> 00:17:43,063 - Doing all right today? 466 00:17:43,129 --> 00:17:44,197 Okay. 467 00:17:44,264 --> 00:17:46,033 - ♪♪ Huh ♪♪ 468 00:17:46,099 --> 00:17:48,034 - Hi. 469 00:17:48,101 --> 00:17:49,903 - Are you excited? Yeah? 470 00:17:49,970 --> 00:17:50,838 - She's nervous. 471 00:17:50,904 --> 00:17:52,473 - Oh, that is totally fine. 472 00:17:52,539 --> 00:17:54,007 We're gonna have so much fun. I pinky promise. 473 00:17:54,074 --> 00:17:55,742 - Do you have somewhere we can put on her swimsuit? 474 00:17:55,809 --> 00:17:57,611 - Yes, so around this way. 475 00:17:57,678 --> 00:17:59,914 - ♪♪ Oh, yes, overtime with the bonus ♪♪ 476 00:17:59,980 --> 00:18:02,216 ♪♪ Anywhere you see me, I'ma show up ♪♪ 477 00:18:02,283 --> 00:18:04,218 ♪♪ Watch all your driving approaches ♪♪ 478 00:18:04,284 --> 00:18:06,720 ♪♪ When we did that work, everybody did I love ♪♪ 479 00:18:06,787 --> 00:18:08,255 ♪♪ Don't see the perks, but you never--♪♪ 480 00:18:08,321 --> 00:18:11,324 Now hold your hands, and keep puffing your cheeks. 481 00:18:11,391 --> 00:18:13,927 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, and blow. 482 00:18:13,994 --> 00:18:16,696 - I was very surprised that she was so brave, just 483 00:18:16,763 --> 00:18:18,365 jumping in the water without the life jacket, 484 00:18:18,432 --> 00:18:20,701 because I thought she was gonna have a little pause. 485 00:18:20,767 --> 00:18:22,202 But she didn't. 486 00:18:22,269 --> 00:18:24,171 Confidence is important. 487 00:18:24,238 --> 00:18:25,973 She's a little Black girl. 488 00:18:26,040 --> 00:18:27,975 There's a lot of stereotypes. 489 00:18:28,042 --> 00:18:29,910 You know, Black girls, we don't swim. 490 00:18:29,977 --> 00:18:31,578 We don't get our hair wet. 491 00:18:31,645 --> 00:18:34,248 And I don't want her to fall in line with any of them. 492 00:18:34,314 --> 00:18:37,351 I want her to be free and open and fearless. 493 00:18:37,418 --> 00:18:40,287 There are no limitations because you're Black 494 00:18:40,354 --> 00:18:41,822 or because you're a girl. 495 00:18:41,888 --> 00:18:42,889 Hello. 496 00:18:42,956 --> 00:18:44,658 - She was super, super awesome. 497 00:18:44,725 --> 00:18:46,493 You can tell she really enjoys the water. 498 00:18:46,560 --> 00:18:49,796 - I see myself giving confidence 499 00:18:49,863 --> 00:18:53,567 by believing in her goals and actively showing up 500 00:18:53,634 --> 00:18:55,102 and helping her work towards them. 501 00:18:55,168 --> 00:18:56,403 [uplifting music] 502 00:18:56,470 --> 00:18:58,705 That was fun. 503 00:18:58,772 --> 00:19:00,541 I had fun watching you. 504 00:19:00,607 --> 00:19:01,575 - Oh. 505 00:19:01,642 --> 00:19:04,845 - [vocalizing] 506 00:19:04,912 --> 00:19:08,181 - How do you think your swim lesson went, girlfriend? 507 00:19:08,248 --> 00:19:09,883 - I loved it. 508 00:19:09,950 --> 00:19:11,685 - Yeah, it looked like you got comfortable really quick. 509 00:19:11,751 --> 00:19:14,187 You didn't look scared at all to me. 510 00:19:14,254 --> 00:19:15,622 That girl is growing up. 511 00:19:15,689 --> 00:19:17,291 That girl is doing things. 512 00:19:17,357 --> 00:19:18,325 That girl is learning. 513 00:19:18,392 --> 00:19:20,561 - ♪♪ La, la, la, la ♪♪ 514 00:19:20,627 --> 00:19:22,663 ♪♪ La, la, la, la ♪♪ 515 00:19:22,729 --> 00:19:24,798 ♪♪ La, la, la, la ♪♪ 516 00:19:24,864 --> 00:19:26,800 ♪♪ Well, get that ♪♪ 517 00:19:26,867 --> 00:19:28,935 - ♪♪ And get out of my closet ♪♪ 518 00:19:29,002 --> 00:19:32,339 - [gasps] Mom, can I have this? 519 00:19:32,406 --> 00:19:33,340 - Yeah, you can have it. 520 00:19:33,406 --> 00:19:34,341 It's gotta be cleaned. 521 00:19:34,407 --> 00:19:35,676 I just thrifted that. 522 00:19:35,742 --> 00:19:37,311 - Yeah, that's really cute. 523 00:19:37,377 --> 00:19:38,679 - So what's up? 524 00:19:38,745 --> 00:19:39,813 What's up with Holly? 525 00:19:39,880 --> 00:19:41,248 - She's in swim lessons. 526 00:19:41,314 --> 00:19:44,084 She just had her first one a few days ago. 527 00:19:44,151 --> 00:19:45,252 She was in there. 528 00:19:45,318 --> 00:19:46,787 She had a lot of fun. 529 00:19:46,854 --> 00:19:49,557 She's very independent, and I love that, because I 530 00:19:49,623 --> 00:19:50,891 raised her like that. 531 00:19:50,958 --> 00:19:52,426 - I think you're doing a great job-- 532 00:19:52,492 --> 00:19:54,828 better than I did with you. 533 00:19:54,895 --> 00:19:57,164 - My dad just was throwing me in the pool 534 00:19:57,231 --> 00:19:58,532 with no life jacket. 535 00:19:58,598 --> 00:19:59,633 - You lived. - And-- 536 00:19:59,700 --> 00:20:01,068 - [laughs] - I know. 537 00:20:01,134 --> 00:20:03,003 - [laughs] You lived. - That's dangerous. 538 00:20:03,069 --> 00:20:04,471 But then I did do lessons, and then I was junior lifeguard 539 00:20:04,538 --> 00:20:05,472 for a few years. 540 00:20:05,539 --> 00:20:07,141 - Okay. 541 00:20:07,207 --> 00:20:10,243 - So it worked out for me, but, I mean, she gotta do that. 542 00:20:10,310 --> 00:20:14,448 - You know, we didn't grow up around a lot of swimming pools. 543 00:20:14,515 --> 00:20:15,883 - Yeah, that's true. 544 00:20:15,949 --> 00:20:17,618 - Just swimming pools wasn't in the community. 545 00:20:17,684 --> 00:20:19,820 I think Holly has been exposed to the water way 546 00:20:19,887 --> 00:20:22,289 before I was, way before you were too. 547 00:20:22,356 --> 00:20:24,691 And I think she's gonna be a better swimmer than either 548 00:20:24,758 --> 00:20:26,126 of us put together. 549 00:20:26,193 --> 00:20:27,894 You know, my only concern is her thinking 550 00:20:27,961 --> 00:20:29,663 she's Wonder Woman overnight. 551 00:20:29,730 --> 00:20:33,033 - She feels prepared to swim across the ocean. 552 00:20:33,100 --> 00:20:33,934 - Ocean. 553 00:20:34,001 --> 00:20:35,335 That's what I'm scared of. 554 00:20:35,402 --> 00:20:37,671 - I don't wanna, like, mess up her confidence 555 00:20:37,737 --> 00:20:39,906 or, like, stunt her independence. 556 00:20:39,973 --> 00:20:42,877 But also, I have to see that you are understanding 557 00:20:42,943 --> 00:20:46,113 some basic safety rules first before you 558 00:20:46,179 --> 00:20:48,115 take the life jacket off. 559 00:20:48,181 --> 00:20:49,383 You know how Holly is. 560 00:20:49,449 --> 00:20:51,018 She likes to skip levels. 561 00:20:51,085 --> 00:20:52,819 The next time we go, I'm pretty sure she's going 562 00:20:52,886 --> 00:20:54,555 to ask me to take it off. - Uh-huh. 563 00:20:54,622 --> 00:20:55,656 Uh-huh. 564 00:20:55,722 --> 00:20:57,658 - And I'm gonna tell her no. 565 00:20:57,725 --> 00:20:58,825 - One day, belle. 566 00:20:58,892 --> 00:21:00,560 - Yeah, one day. - One day. 567 00:21:00,627 --> 00:21:02,463 - One day. 568 00:21:02,529 --> 00:21:05,632 - ♪♪ Some things ♪♪ 569 00:21:05,699 --> 00:21:10,670 ♪♪ Can't be undone ♪♪ 570 00:21:12,807 --> 00:21:14,675 - Love you. 571 00:21:14,742 --> 00:21:15,876 I love you, Novi. 572 00:21:15,943 --> 00:21:18,445 - Love you too. - Love you too. 573 00:21:18,512 --> 00:21:21,915 - Bye. - Bye. 574 00:21:21,982 --> 00:21:24,351 - ♪♪ You know all those secrets ♪♪ 575 00:21:24,418 --> 00:21:25,952 - I'm still trying to process everything 576 00:21:26,019 --> 00:21:28,155 I found out last night about my mom. 577 00:21:28,221 --> 00:21:30,123 You know, I want my mom to be okay, 578 00:21:30,190 --> 00:21:33,093 but I have two kids that I have to take care of also. 579 00:21:33,160 --> 00:21:37,331 And my kids come first before anybody, even my mom. 580 00:21:37,398 --> 00:21:38,899 I don't know what to do. 581 00:21:42,903 --> 00:21:46,240 - Have you talked to Mom? 582 00:21:46,307 --> 00:21:47,541 - Have you? 583 00:21:47,607 --> 00:21:48,709 - No. 584 00:21:48,776 --> 00:21:50,410 I just don't trust her at all. 585 00:21:50,477 --> 00:21:52,479 Like, it's just, you know, when you've been lied to so much, 586 00:21:52,546 --> 00:21:56,383 nothing she says or does will ever, like, make me trust her. 587 00:21:56,449 --> 00:21:58,052 For her being on that [bleep] for so long, 588 00:21:58,118 --> 00:21:59,586 I don't even know how many years. 589 00:21:59,653 --> 00:22:02,323 I don't know if she's been on and off. 590 00:22:02,389 --> 00:22:04,024 - I'm struggling here. 591 00:22:04,091 --> 00:22:06,093 - You're struggling because she did a lot for you. 592 00:22:06,160 --> 00:22:08,195 Like, she's one of the reasons, let's be honest, 593 00:22:08,262 --> 00:22:11,965 that you're successful, because she helped you with your kids-- 594 00:22:12,032 --> 00:22:13,934 way more than me, way more than their dads. 595 00:22:14,001 --> 00:22:16,136 So your bond with her is different 596 00:22:16,203 --> 00:22:17,904 than the bond I have with her. 597 00:22:17,971 --> 00:22:19,673 - She's calling me. 598 00:22:19,740 --> 00:22:21,675 - Don't tell her I'm here. 599 00:22:23,510 --> 00:22:24,711 - Hello. 600 00:22:24,778 --> 00:22:26,646 - Hey, you. What are you doing? 601 00:22:26,713 --> 00:22:27,748 - Nothing. 602 00:22:27,814 --> 00:22:28,815 - You okay? 603 00:22:28,882 --> 00:22:31,285 - Not really, but I'll be okay. 604 00:22:31,351 --> 00:22:34,721 - I've been doing a little bit of research this last night 605 00:22:34,788 --> 00:22:37,023 and this morning. 606 00:22:37,090 --> 00:22:41,028 Um, I found a place that--it's a women's 607 00:22:41,095 --> 00:22:44,064 center that deals with trauma. 608 00:22:44,131 --> 00:22:46,166 The facility is in Texas. 609 00:22:46,233 --> 00:22:48,702 So I think I'm gonna go over there. 610 00:22:48,769 --> 00:22:51,204 - When are you trying to leave? 611 00:22:51,271 --> 00:22:52,573 - Tomorrow morning. 612 00:22:52,640 --> 00:22:54,641 [somber music] 613 00:22:54,708 --> 00:22:56,076 - [whispering] Briana, it's okay. 614 00:22:56,143 --> 00:22:57,278 It's good. 615 00:22:57,344 --> 00:22:59,279 - How long are you gonna be gone for? 616 00:22:59,346 --> 00:23:02,616 - A month, and then take it from there. 617 00:23:02,683 --> 00:23:06,152 [crying] I just know that this is not normal, 618 00:23:06,219 --> 00:23:08,422 and I can't do it by myself. 619 00:23:08,489 --> 00:23:13,126 - You have to make a promise to me and the kids and to Brittany 620 00:23:13,193 --> 00:23:19,032 that you are gonna stay there for as long as you need. 621 00:23:19,099 --> 00:23:21,836 And if you don't complete this, I don't 622 00:23:21,902 --> 00:23:23,671 want you around the kids. 623 00:23:23,737 --> 00:23:25,071 Do you understand? 624 00:23:25,138 --> 00:23:27,474 - Did you just say what I think you said? 625 00:23:27,541 --> 00:23:29,443 - Yes. 626 00:23:29,510 --> 00:23:31,244 [tense music] 627 00:23:34,715 --> 00:23:38,285 ♪♪ ♪♪ 628 00:23:45,225 --> 00:23:47,294 - ♪♪ I wasn't the one ♪♪ 629 00:23:47,361 --> 00:23:49,430 ♪♪ Oh, I still hurt ♪♪ 630 00:23:49,496 --> 00:23:51,832 ♪♪ This pain is a constant ♪♪ 631 00:23:51,899 --> 00:23:55,435 ♪♪ Yeah, left in my life ♪♪ 632 00:23:55,502 --> 00:23:59,206 - So I'm about to do my first therapy session 633 00:23:59,273 --> 00:24:01,742 with my mom and Dr. Dow. 634 00:24:01,809 --> 00:24:04,411 Therapy is a big step and probably the only step 635 00:24:04,478 --> 00:24:07,047 that we have in order to better our relationship, 636 00:24:07,114 --> 00:24:10,518 because my mom and I don't communicate well. 637 00:24:10,584 --> 00:24:12,186 What do you mean, Mom? 638 00:24:12,253 --> 00:24:14,288 There you go choosing your boyfriends over me again. 639 00:24:14,354 --> 00:24:16,223 [arguing] 640 00:24:16,290 --> 00:24:17,525 - So get used to it. 641 00:24:17,591 --> 00:24:18,792 - All right, what did I do wrong? 642 00:24:18,859 --> 00:24:20,027 - Okay, Mom. - I wasn't being rude. 643 00:24:20,094 --> 00:24:21,195 - Okay, Mom. 644 00:24:21,262 --> 00:24:22,463 [bleep] you. 645 00:24:22,529 --> 00:24:23,997 Get out of my [bleep] face. 646 00:24:24,064 --> 00:24:25,666 - I'm just saying that we need to fix something, 647 00:24:25,733 --> 00:24:28,435 because I'm afraid that me and you in the future 648 00:24:28,501 --> 00:24:31,772 won't have anything to do with each other. 649 00:24:31,839 --> 00:24:35,008 My mom wants our therapy sessions to be private, 650 00:24:35,075 --> 00:24:37,444 so cameras won't be filming it. 651 00:24:37,511 --> 00:24:40,547 I just hope that it does good, and we 652 00:24:40,614 --> 00:24:45,085 can start to kind of process things in a healthy way. 653 00:24:45,151 --> 00:24:48,522 [thoughtful music] 654 00:24:48,589 --> 00:24:50,390 ♪♪ ♪♪ 655 00:24:50,457 --> 00:24:51,858 Hey. 656 00:24:51,925 --> 00:24:53,127 - How are you feeling after that conversation 657 00:24:53,194 --> 00:24:54,394 with your mom? 658 00:24:54,461 --> 00:24:55,629 - It definitely was emotional, but I 659 00:24:55,696 --> 00:24:57,398 think it was good and necessary, 660 00:24:57,465 --> 00:25:00,034 because for a long time, it was like, this isn't even worth it. 661 00:25:00,100 --> 00:25:01,068 I'm not trying. 662 00:25:01,134 --> 00:25:02,169 I'm done. 663 00:25:02,236 --> 00:25:03,337 - You know, in your voice, 664 00:25:03,404 --> 00:25:04,671 when the two of you were talking, 665 00:25:04,738 --> 00:25:06,340 I heard that you were really coming 666 00:25:06,407 --> 00:25:09,476 from a different place with her in terms of less anger. 667 00:25:09,543 --> 00:25:11,211 Did anything surprise you? 668 00:25:11,278 --> 00:25:12,245 Anything you heard? 669 00:25:12,312 --> 00:25:13,814 - That she hates drinking. 670 00:25:13,881 --> 00:25:15,249 I always thought she liked it. 671 00:25:15,315 --> 00:25:16,583 That's why she did it. 672 00:25:16,650 --> 00:25:18,118 - If she hates drinking, then what? 673 00:25:18,184 --> 00:25:20,321 - Then I have hope for her to wanna change 674 00:25:20,387 --> 00:25:21,788 that for herself, really. 675 00:25:21,855 --> 00:25:23,691 - What does that let you off the hook from? 676 00:25:23,757 --> 00:25:26,760 - Not having to police it, I guess. 677 00:25:26,827 --> 00:25:28,295 - And what are you gonna do differently? 678 00:25:28,362 --> 00:25:31,565 - I think a step I can take is reaching out more. 679 00:25:31,632 --> 00:25:33,200 For instance, my daughter's having 680 00:25:33,267 --> 00:25:34,535 a birthday party this weekend. 681 00:25:34,602 --> 00:25:36,904 And, I don't know, at the moment, 682 00:25:36,970 --> 00:25:40,374 I just don't feel comfortable with her coming, 683 00:25:40,440 --> 00:25:44,578 because we're not at, like, a majorly healed point. 684 00:25:44,645 --> 00:25:47,815 But if Vaeda wanted to go to her house for a few hours 685 00:25:47,881 --> 00:25:49,916 and do their own, little celebration or something, 686 00:25:49,983 --> 00:25:52,252 like, I'm all about that stuff, 687 00:25:52,319 --> 00:25:54,288 - I like that option, because then it's 688 00:25:54,355 --> 00:25:57,490 not so much about what you're taking away from your mom 689 00:25:57,557 --> 00:25:58,892 and punishing her and making her 690 00:25:58,959 --> 00:26:00,894 feel like she's not part of the family. 691 00:26:00,961 --> 00:26:02,863 You can just do something separate for her 692 00:26:02,929 --> 00:26:05,933 and just honoring where you're at in the relationship. 693 00:26:05,999 --> 00:26:07,968 I was so proud of you in that conversation. 694 00:26:08,035 --> 00:26:10,237 There's, like, this whole new Catelynn showing up. 695 00:26:10,304 --> 00:26:11,605 - [laughs] Thanks. 696 00:26:11,672 --> 00:26:17,878 - ♪♪ I'm starting over ♪♪ 697 00:26:17,944 --> 00:26:24,517 ♪♪ Right from the beginning ♪♪ 698 00:26:24,584 --> 00:26:28,888 - Vaeda, Grandma wanted to talk to you. 699 00:26:28,955 --> 00:26:30,223 - Hi. 700 00:26:30,290 --> 00:26:32,960 - Hi. Say hi, Grandma. - Happy birthday. 701 00:26:33,027 --> 00:26:34,394 - Thank you. 702 00:26:34,461 --> 00:26:36,297 Grandma, I wanna show you the balloons. 703 00:26:36,363 --> 00:26:37,698 - Oh, show her the balloons? 704 00:26:37,765 --> 00:26:40,234 - Look at the balloons. 705 00:26:40,301 --> 00:26:41,501 - Whoa. 706 00:26:41,568 --> 00:26:43,603 - Do you wanna come to my house? 707 00:26:43,670 --> 00:26:45,239 - I'm gonna see you pretty soon. 708 00:26:45,305 --> 00:26:48,042 - You'll go over there next weekend, Vaeda. 709 00:26:48,108 --> 00:26:49,109 - Bye, Grandma. 710 00:26:49,176 --> 00:26:50,911 Bye. - All right, honey. 711 00:26:50,978 --> 00:26:52,679 Bye. I love you. - Love you too. 712 00:26:52,746 --> 00:26:53,914 - Love you, Grandma. 713 00:26:53,981 --> 00:26:59,019 - ♪♪ I'm starting over again ♪♪ 714 00:27:00,521 --> 00:27:03,523 [tense music] 715 00:27:03,590 --> 00:27:07,060 ♪♪ ♪♪ 716 00:27:07,127 --> 00:27:09,896 - Briana, [bleep] you and your sister. 717 00:27:13,133 --> 00:27:16,237 I would never [bleep] do that to you, Briana. 718 00:27:16,303 --> 00:27:17,804 - You did worse. - Never. 719 00:27:17,871 --> 00:27:19,339 She did it with the wedding, and now you're doing 720 00:27:19,406 --> 00:27:20,740 it with the [bleep] kids. 721 00:27:20,807 --> 00:27:21,875 Do you understand why I stayed quiet? 722 00:27:21,942 --> 00:27:23,344 Why I kept this all these years? 723 00:27:23,410 --> 00:27:25,379 Because I knew you guys would [bleep] slap that [bleep] 724 00:27:25,446 --> 00:27:26,780 in my face. 725 00:27:26,847 --> 00:27:28,682 You can't do this unless you do this. 726 00:27:28,749 --> 00:27:30,451 What the [bleep] is that about? 727 00:27:30,517 --> 00:27:31,685 - Mom. 728 00:27:31,752 --> 00:27:33,587 - Don't threaten me with the kids. 729 00:27:33,654 --> 00:27:35,956 - These are my kids, and I don't-- 730 00:27:36,023 --> 00:27:37,157 - Your kids? 731 00:27:37,224 --> 00:27:39,493 I [bleep] carried you guys on my back. 732 00:27:39,560 --> 00:27:41,395 They're my kids too. 733 00:27:41,461 --> 00:27:43,230 - No, Mom, they're my kids. 734 00:27:45,933 --> 00:27:47,802 - And this is why you're going there--to be 735 00:27:47,868 --> 00:27:49,570 a better person for them. 736 00:27:49,636 --> 00:27:52,873 - I would have said, Briana, go and find your [bleep] self. 737 00:27:52,939 --> 00:27:54,942 And when you come back, I'm right here. 738 00:27:55,009 --> 00:27:56,577 - I am gonna be here. - No. 739 00:27:56,644 --> 00:27:57,778 Didn't say that. 740 00:27:57,845 --> 00:27:58,912 You said if you don't, I'm gonna 741 00:27:58,979 --> 00:28:00,581 keep the girls away from you. 742 00:28:00,648 --> 00:28:02,349 - Mom, because I know how you are. 743 00:28:02,416 --> 00:28:04,351 You're stubborn. 744 00:28:04,418 --> 00:28:07,053 I'm trying to protect the kids. 745 00:28:07,120 --> 00:28:09,723 I need you to be okay first, though. 746 00:28:09,790 --> 00:28:12,759 [sentimental music] 747 00:28:12,826 --> 00:28:14,695 Are you really leaving tomorrow? 748 00:28:14,762 --> 00:28:15,829 - Yeah. 749 00:28:15,895 --> 00:28:17,964 I don't wanna see the girls. 750 00:28:18,031 --> 00:28:20,267 I don't want 'em to see me like this. 751 00:28:20,333 --> 00:28:21,268 - Listen. 752 00:28:21,335 --> 00:28:22,803 Go. 753 00:28:22,870 --> 00:28:26,072 You have my support, and you have Brittany's support. 754 00:28:26,139 --> 00:28:27,107 Bye. 755 00:28:27,174 --> 00:28:28,242 - Bye. 756 00:28:28,309 --> 00:28:29,242 - Need a second. 757 00:28:32,279 --> 00:28:35,883 [bleep]. [sniffling] 758 00:28:35,950 --> 00:28:38,818 [bleep] my life. [bleep]. 759 00:28:46,393 --> 00:28:47,995 - [vocalizing] 760 00:28:48,062 --> 00:28:50,831 [upbeat music] 761 00:28:50,898 --> 00:28:57,404 ♪♪ ♪♪ 762 00:29:01,641 --> 00:29:02,810 - No. 763 00:29:02,877 --> 00:29:04,278 - So you haven't had any, like, phone 764 00:29:04,345 --> 00:29:05,613 calls or texting or anything? 765 00:29:05,679 --> 00:29:08,081 - No she has a boyfriend, so... [laughs] 766 00:29:08,148 --> 00:29:10,717 She's not gonna text anybody. 767 00:29:10,784 --> 00:29:12,953 - You know, I ain't trying to throw no shade on Amber. 768 00:29:13,020 --> 00:29:15,255 Your mom does love you, and your mom does care. 769 00:29:15,322 --> 00:29:16,690 But, you know, she is with somebody. 770 00:29:16,757 --> 00:29:18,758 I mean, that does play a role. 771 00:29:18,825 --> 00:29:21,028 I truly want her to be happy, and I want 772 00:29:21,094 --> 00:29:22,329 her to have a relationship. 773 00:29:22,395 --> 00:29:23,530 And I want her to be healthy, but 774 00:29:23,597 --> 00:29:27,434 that needs to incorporate you. 775 00:29:27,500 --> 00:29:28,769 - ♪♪ Take it all ♪♪ 776 00:29:28,836 --> 00:29:35,342 ♪♪ ♪♪ 777 00:29:37,878 --> 00:29:40,480 - I appreciate that you're doing couples therapy. 778 00:29:40,547 --> 00:29:43,249 - Yeah, and, you know, the reason why I'm doing all this 779 00:29:43,316 --> 00:29:45,452 is for you, because I love you. 780 00:29:45,519 --> 00:29:48,288 And I'm willing to accept everything about you. 781 00:29:48,355 --> 00:29:55,228 ♪♪ ♪♪ 782 00:29:56,663 --> 00:29:58,965 - So tell me what's happened since we talked last. 783 00:29:59,032 --> 00:30:00,567 - I'm kind of having an issue right now. 784 00:30:00,634 --> 00:30:04,738 Um--the mania, like, happened. 785 00:30:04,804 --> 00:30:06,006 - Uh-huh. 786 00:30:06,072 --> 00:30:08,943 - So I started blacking out. 787 00:30:09,009 --> 00:30:10,377 It's been really hard. 788 00:30:10,444 --> 00:30:12,212 Maybe you can explain more, because I 789 00:30:12,279 --> 00:30:14,381 kind of got foggy after that. 790 00:30:14,448 --> 00:30:15,949 - She told me a few things about what 791 00:30:16,016 --> 00:30:18,886 to look for, like your pupils get really dilated. 792 00:30:18,952 --> 00:30:21,188 She starts talking a lot. 793 00:30:21,255 --> 00:30:22,889 Her palms also get really sweaty. 794 00:30:22,956 --> 00:30:25,826 It's something that I've never had to experience 795 00:30:25,892 --> 00:30:27,728 with anybody else before. 796 00:30:27,794 --> 00:30:32,399 - When she is hypomanic or having those difficulties, 797 00:30:32,466 --> 00:30:35,236 how does that experience make you feel? 798 00:30:35,302 --> 00:30:40,574 - I think I go into, you know, the protector mode. 799 00:30:40,641 --> 00:30:42,442 This is something that she's used to dealing with 800 00:30:42,509 --> 00:30:43,977 by herself, and I can't imagine 801 00:30:44,044 --> 00:30:45,946 dealing with something like that by yourself. 802 00:30:46,013 --> 00:30:49,783 - But if I see his eyes, or if he puts his hands, 803 00:30:49,850 --> 00:30:53,087 or talks to me or something, turns on music and stuff, 804 00:30:53,153 --> 00:30:54,255 like, I-- 805 00:30:54,321 --> 00:30:56,690 I can--I'm just there. 806 00:30:56,757 --> 00:30:59,626 - So he's kind of a grounding force for you. 807 00:30:59,693 --> 00:31:00,761 - Yeah. 808 00:31:00,828 --> 00:31:02,662 Well, I've never had anybody do that. 809 00:31:02,729 --> 00:31:04,030 - Right. 810 00:31:04,097 --> 00:31:05,733 - But I don't want it to be too much for him. 811 00:31:05,799 --> 00:31:08,135 I don't want it to be a burden on anybody. 812 00:31:08,202 --> 00:31:11,571 - One of the important things for you both as a couple 813 00:31:11,638 --> 00:31:15,409 is that you need to take care of yourselves, 814 00:31:15,475 --> 00:31:17,444 so you can take care of each other. 815 00:31:17,511 --> 00:31:20,714 - Yeah, that is something I do need to get better at. 816 00:31:20,780 --> 00:31:23,350 This has definitely helped, though, for sure. 817 00:31:25,218 --> 00:31:28,689 Finding somebody that I actually, truly love, 818 00:31:28,756 --> 00:31:31,425 it's like, that's what I've wanted. 819 00:31:31,491 --> 00:31:34,628 And we're both, you know, all in. 820 00:31:36,230 --> 00:31:38,665 - I love you. - I love you. 821 00:31:42,569 --> 00:31:45,305 - ♪♪ So I'm soaking up the sunshine ♪♪ 822 00:31:45,372 --> 00:31:46,774 ♪♪ ♪♪ 823 00:31:46,841 --> 00:31:48,909 ♪♪ Putting out the good vibes ♪♪ 824 00:31:48,976 --> 00:31:53,213 - Okay, so that did take a little longer than expected. 825 00:31:53,280 --> 00:31:57,617 - I mean, we had questions, and we went into it with our mind 826 00:31:57,684 --> 00:32:00,888 that, you know, we're gonna get your tubes untied, 827 00:32:00,955 --> 00:32:03,824 and we're gonna have a baby and blah, blah, blah. 828 00:32:03,891 --> 00:32:05,626 - I didn't know it was a 20% chance. 829 00:32:05,692 --> 00:32:08,963 I don't wanna get surgery for a 20% chance. 830 00:32:09,029 --> 00:32:10,197 - Yes. 831 00:32:10,264 --> 00:32:16,870 - But she did say that IVF is 60%. 832 00:32:16,937 --> 00:32:17,871 - Yeah. 833 00:32:17,938 --> 00:32:20,007 I think IVF is the best option. 834 00:32:20,074 --> 00:32:21,242 - Okay. 835 00:32:21,308 --> 00:32:24,411 Wow, Khes, we're gonna have a baby. 836 00:32:24,478 --> 00:32:26,079 - Yes, we are. 837 00:32:26,146 --> 00:32:27,681 [sentimental music] 838 00:32:27,748 --> 00:32:30,884 - So now our only stress is my blood sugars. 839 00:32:30,951 --> 00:32:32,986 - Yeah. 840 00:32:33,053 --> 00:32:35,155 - You know, a type I diabetic doesn't live an easy 841 00:32:35,222 --> 00:32:36,756 life, anyways. 842 00:32:36,823 --> 00:32:41,528 The risks for IVF are dealing with hormones that 843 00:32:41,595 --> 00:32:44,364 could potentially cause high blood sugars, 844 00:32:44,431 --> 00:32:48,135 because anything changing in my body can do that. 845 00:32:48,201 --> 00:32:49,569 Anything could happen to me. 846 00:32:49,636 --> 00:32:51,905 Anything could happen to the baby. 847 00:32:51,972 --> 00:32:55,409 But I love this person, and he loves me back. 848 00:32:55,475 --> 00:32:59,113 I want to have a baby with this person. 849 00:32:59,179 --> 00:33:04,385 That's just the truth. 850 00:33:04,452 --> 00:33:07,588 - [vocalizing] 851 00:33:07,655 --> 00:33:11,058 [upbeat music] 852 00:33:11,124 --> 00:33:13,059 - So I am holding up to my promise. 853 00:33:13,126 --> 00:33:17,197 I am letting Vaeda and Nova go over to my mom's. 854 00:33:17,264 --> 00:33:18,966 After our therapy session, I definitely 855 00:33:19,032 --> 00:33:21,535 feel comfortable with the kids going over there and just 856 00:33:21,602 --> 00:33:22,937 spending the day there. 857 00:33:23,003 --> 00:33:26,640 This is just the first step in baby steps. 858 00:33:26,706 --> 00:33:28,108 Are you excited to go to Grandma's? 859 00:33:28,175 --> 00:33:29,810 - Yeah. - Yeah? 860 00:33:29,877 --> 00:33:30,778 - Yeah. 861 00:33:30,844 --> 00:33:32,045 Super. 862 00:33:32,112 --> 00:33:33,948 - And then I'll pick you guys up later today. 863 00:33:34,015 --> 00:33:34,948 - All right. 864 00:33:35,015 --> 00:33:41,955 ♪♪ ♪♪ 865 00:33:46,327 --> 00:33:47,228 - Hey, kid. 866 00:33:47,294 --> 00:33:48,295 - Hi. 867 00:33:48,362 --> 00:33:49,496 - This is for Vaeda. 868 00:33:49,563 --> 00:33:51,098 - Oh, thanks. 869 00:33:51,165 --> 00:33:52,766 - Come here. 870 00:33:52,833 --> 00:33:54,868 - Vaeda's first question, so does Grandma have a potty? 871 00:33:54,935 --> 00:33:56,236 - Nope. 872 00:33:56,303 --> 00:33:57,804 Grandma don't have a potty. I got rid of that. 873 00:33:57,871 --> 00:33:59,106 [laughs] 874 00:33:59,172 --> 00:34:02,176 - No, I'm like, yes, Grandma's got a potty. 875 00:34:02,242 --> 00:34:03,410 - Are you so excited? 876 00:34:03,476 --> 00:34:05,479 I am. 877 00:34:05,546 --> 00:34:06,614 Mm. 878 00:34:06,681 --> 00:34:07,814 - All right. 879 00:34:07,881 --> 00:34:09,182 I love you guys. - All right. 880 00:34:09,249 --> 00:34:10,183 Thank you. 881 00:34:10,250 --> 00:34:11,919 - You're welcome. 882 00:34:11,985 --> 00:34:13,954 We're gonna eat dinner at Amber's house. 883 00:34:14,021 --> 00:34:15,856 So when we're done there, I can shoot over here. 884 00:34:15,923 --> 00:34:16,857 - Okay. All right. 885 00:34:16,924 --> 00:34:18,025 You ready? - Yeah. 886 00:34:18,092 --> 00:34:18,892 - All right. 887 00:34:18,959 --> 00:34:20,260 Let's go have some fun. 888 00:34:20,327 --> 00:34:21,662 - [laughs] 889 00:34:21,728 --> 00:34:24,131 [thoughtful music] 890 00:34:24,198 --> 00:34:27,334 - ♪♪ And the more I look back ♪♪ 891 00:34:27,400 --> 00:34:29,736 ♪♪ The more I expect to see ♪♪ 892 00:34:29,803 --> 00:34:31,905 ♪♪ That I was unwilling ♪♪ 893 00:34:31,972 --> 00:34:34,308 ♪♪ To give up what I had ♪♪ 894 00:34:34,374 --> 00:34:37,344 ♪♪ I thought being a lover ♪♪ 895 00:34:37,411 --> 00:34:39,280 ♪♪ Was folding your hand ♪♪ 896 00:34:39,346 --> 00:34:40,647 ♪♪ But I'm done ♪♪ 897 00:34:40,714 --> 00:34:42,750 ♪♪ I'm done with that ♪♪ 898 00:34:42,816 --> 00:34:45,386 - So how was the drop-off with your mom? 899 00:34:45,453 --> 00:34:46,454 - Oh, it was fine. 900 00:34:46,520 --> 00:34:47,488 - First visit, right? 901 00:34:47,554 --> 00:34:48,689 First day visit? - Yeah. 902 00:34:48,756 --> 00:34:50,090 - Because they've had-- 903 00:34:50,156 --> 00:34:52,059 has Vaeda ever, like, did visits with her? 904 00:34:52,125 --> 00:34:53,994 Like how Nova went to go get lunch. 905 00:34:54,060 --> 00:34:55,229 - No, no. 906 00:34:55,296 --> 00:34:56,997 My mom asked about Vaeda, and I didn't 907 00:34:57,064 --> 00:34:58,966 send Rya, just because Rya doesn't really know her. 908 00:34:59,033 --> 00:35:01,234 She's never really been-- you know what I mean? 909 00:35:01,301 --> 00:35:02,937 - Right. 910 00:35:03,003 --> 00:35:04,939 - So, like, me letting them go over there just for the day, 911 00:35:05,005 --> 00:35:07,007 that's, you know, she's gotta be able to earn trust 912 00:35:07,074 --> 00:35:08,309 back somehow if she wants it. 913 00:35:08,375 --> 00:35:09,743 - Yeah. Right. 914 00:35:09,810 --> 00:35:11,045 - And I feel like this is the little olive branch-- 915 00:35:11,111 --> 00:35:12,079 - Uh-huh. 916 00:35:12,146 --> 00:35:14,614 - You know? 917 00:35:14,681 --> 00:35:15,816 - It makes me happy. 918 00:35:15,883 --> 00:35:16,717 That's not, you know? - Uh-huh. 919 00:35:16,784 --> 00:35:17,785 - It's not easy. 920 00:35:17,851 --> 00:35:19,186 - So, yeah, we shall see. 921 00:35:19,252 --> 00:35:22,622 [uplifting music] 922 00:35:22,689 --> 00:35:24,858 ♪♪ ♪♪ 923 00:35:36,136 --> 00:35:37,738 - ♪♪ Got me acting so brand new in my head ♪♪ 924 00:35:37,805 --> 00:35:41,008 ♪♪ Don't usually do this but I can't fake it ♪♪ 925 00:35:41,074 --> 00:35:44,911 ♪♪ What is it about you that I can't shake? ♪♪ 926 00:35:44,978 --> 00:35:47,848 ♪♪ I can't walk away ♪♪ 927 00:35:47,915 --> 00:35:51,618 [upbeat music] 928 00:35:51,685 --> 00:35:53,053 - Mom. - Hmm? 929 00:35:53,120 --> 00:35:56,389 - I feel like after one class, I'll be able to take 930 00:35:56,456 --> 00:35:57,958 my life jacket off. 931 00:35:58,025 --> 00:35:59,126 - I don't think so. 932 00:35:59,192 --> 00:36:00,093 - Hmm. 933 00:36:00,160 --> 00:36:01,895 Why? 934 00:36:01,962 --> 00:36:05,365 - Because I think you still need to work up on your skills, 935 00:36:05,432 --> 00:36:07,134 and how to, like, tread water. 936 00:36:07,201 --> 00:36:08,169 - What do you mean, tread water? 937 00:36:08,235 --> 00:36:09,503 - See? 938 00:36:09,570 --> 00:36:10,871 You don't even know what that means. 939 00:36:10,938 --> 00:36:12,539 Even though I think you're doing good, 940 00:36:12,606 --> 00:36:14,074 and you're learning, and you're the most 941 00:36:14,141 --> 00:36:15,342 amazing kid on the planet, you still 942 00:36:15,409 --> 00:36:16,944 have to wear your life jacket. 943 00:36:17,010 --> 00:36:18,445 I believe in you, though. 944 00:36:18,511 --> 00:36:20,047 I'm totally confident that you can do it. 945 00:36:20,114 --> 00:36:21,048 - Thank you. 946 00:36:21,115 --> 00:36:22,583 - You're awesome. 947 00:36:22,649 --> 00:36:24,017 So what if someone calls you a baby for wearing 948 00:36:24,084 --> 00:36:25,085 a life jacket again? 949 00:36:25,152 --> 00:36:26,586 What are you gonna say? 950 00:36:26,653 --> 00:36:29,890 - I'm gonna say, you used to wear life jackets, 951 00:36:29,956 --> 00:36:31,658 but you just don't know it. 952 00:36:31,725 --> 00:36:32,793 - That's my girl. 953 00:36:32,860 --> 00:36:34,962 You be confident in your life, okay? 954 00:36:35,029 --> 00:36:36,430 - Okay. 955 00:36:36,497 --> 00:36:37,531 - Don't let anyone make you feel like you're not 956 00:36:37,597 --> 00:36:39,366 where you're supposed to be. 957 00:36:39,433 --> 00:36:40,701 You're exactly where you're supposed to be right now. 958 00:36:40,768 --> 00:36:42,502 You're doing a good job, girlfriend. 959 00:36:42,569 --> 00:36:45,206 But right now, it's gonna be life jackets this summer. 960 00:36:45,272 --> 00:36:47,307 - Life jackets every summer? 961 00:36:47,374 --> 00:36:50,210 - Maybe the goal could be no life jacket next summer? 962 00:36:50,277 --> 00:36:51,244 - Yeah. 963 00:36:51,311 --> 00:36:52,846 - Okay, deal. 964 00:36:52,912 --> 00:36:55,649 - Okay, pinky promise deal. 965 00:36:55,715 --> 00:36:57,284 - Oh. 966 00:36:57,351 --> 00:36:59,519 I think now Holly has the confidence to say, 967 00:36:59,586 --> 00:37:01,588 like, I'm in swim lessons. 968 00:37:01,655 --> 00:37:04,324 Catch me next summer, or catch me at the end of this summer. 969 00:37:04,391 --> 00:37:06,093 Don't worry about me. 970 00:37:06,160 --> 00:37:07,961 I'm gonna be taken off this life jacket some point soon. 971 00:37:08,028 --> 00:37:11,031 And I think the swim lessons kind of gave her that umph. 972 00:37:11,098 --> 00:37:13,567 She needed that, and I think she's getting that. 973 00:37:13,633 --> 00:37:15,236 You know, I'm doing what I'm doing. 974 00:37:15,302 --> 00:37:17,037 I'm just doing it at my own pace. 975 00:37:17,104 --> 00:37:18,806 - ♪♪ I get stronger ♪♪ 976 00:37:18,872 --> 00:37:20,540 ♪♪ I get better ♪♪ 977 00:37:20,607 --> 00:37:22,976 ♪♪ Every single day ♪♪ 978 00:37:23,043 --> 00:37:26,080 - Go ahead, baby. 979 00:37:26,146 --> 00:37:29,049 [thoughtful music] 980 00:37:29,116 --> 00:37:36,490 ♪♪ ♪♪ 981 00:37:37,391 --> 00:37:38,892 - I just feel like this is not my real life. 982 00:37:38,959 --> 00:37:41,762 Like, I found out my mom is a former drug addict, 983 00:37:41,828 --> 00:37:44,831 and she left to Texas to go to rehab. 984 00:37:44,898 --> 00:37:47,367 Now she's detoxing off of methadone. 985 00:37:47,434 --> 00:37:48,869 I feel like this is all just a dream. 986 00:37:48,936 --> 00:37:52,639 And I'm gonna wake up, and my mom never left. 987 00:37:58,912 --> 00:38:02,883 I went to my mom's house, and I, like, watered her plants. 988 00:38:02,950 --> 00:38:05,853 I think we're both still processing it. 989 00:38:05,920 --> 00:38:08,088 She's like the main person that helps me with the kids. 990 00:38:08,154 --> 00:38:09,523 - Uh-huh. 991 00:38:09,589 --> 00:38:11,024 What, you haven't told them? 992 00:38:11,091 --> 00:38:12,292 - I didn't lie to them. 993 00:38:12,359 --> 00:38:13,727 I told them that she's with doctors, 994 00:38:13,793 --> 00:38:15,296 and she's just trying to figure it out. 995 00:38:15,362 --> 00:38:17,231 I know Mom lied to us our whole life, 996 00:38:17,297 --> 00:38:18,833 but I don't wanna do that with my kids. 997 00:38:18,899 --> 00:38:21,668 I wanna be as transparent as I can be-- 998 00:38:21,735 --> 00:38:23,437 obviously, with still protecting 999 00:38:23,504 --> 00:38:24,772 them the best way that I can. 1000 00:38:24,838 --> 00:38:26,073 - Uh-huh. 1001 00:38:26,139 --> 00:38:27,374 I don't know if I'll ever have a good relationship 1002 00:38:27,440 --> 00:38:29,042 with her ever in my life. 1003 00:38:29,109 --> 00:38:31,679 - I know moms have done some really bad things, 1004 00:38:31,745 --> 00:38:33,780 but at the end of the day for me, like, 1005 00:38:33,847 --> 00:38:37,284 I still see her as, like, the most 1006 00:38:37,350 --> 00:38:38,919 important person in my life. 1007 00:38:38,986 --> 00:38:40,354 - Oh, 'cause she is. 1008 00:38:40,420 --> 00:38:41,355 She's the most--one of the most important 1009 00:38:41,421 --> 00:38:42,756 people in my life too. 1010 00:38:42,823 --> 00:38:44,758 But just because she is an important person, 1011 00:38:44,825 --> 00:38:46,460 don't mean she's a good person to me, or, like, she did good, 1012 00:38:46,526 --> 00:38:47,761 you know? - Yeah. 1013 00:38:47,828 --> 00:38:49,096 - Now, you have two little girls you 1014 00:38:49,163 --> 00:38:50,631 gotta hold it together for. But one thing-- 1015 00:38:50,698 --> 00:38:52,032 - Which is really hard. 1016 00:38:54,234 --> 00:38:55,169 I'm just struggling. 1017 00:38:55,235 --> 00:38:56,603 - You just feel alone? 1018 00:38:56,670 --> 00:38:57,838 - Yeah. 1019 00:38:57,905 --> 00:39:00,874 [somber music] 1020 00:39:00,941 --> 00:39:06,046 ♪♪ ♪♪ 1021 00:39:06,113 --> 00:39:08,416 - [vocalizing] 1022 00:39:08,482 --> 00:39:12,820 [phone ringing] 1023 00:39:12,886 --> 00:39:15,122 Hello? 1024 00:39:15,188 --> 00:39:16,123 Yeah. 1025 00:39:16,190 --> 00:39:18,191 What are you-- 1026 00:39:18,258 --> 00:39:20,660 I'm okay. I want you to be okay. 1027 00:39:24,398 --> 00:39:26,533 They're fine. 1028 00:39:30,137 --> 00:39:33,273 Do you know a time frame of how long you're gonna be there? 1029 00:39:33,340 --> 00:39:34,875 Six weeks? 1030 00:39:36,977 --> 00:39:39,045 - Okay, bye. 1031 00:39:45,185 --> 00:39:46,587 Six weeks. 1032 00:39:46,653 --> 00:39:48,255 [sniffs] [bleep]. 1033 00:39:48,322 --> 00:39:49,657 - [vocalizing] 1034 00:39:49,723 --> 00:39:52,760 - I just want my mom. 1035 00:39:52,826 --> 00:39:56,930 - ♪♪ It was a knife inside a broken heart ♪♪ 1036 00:39:56,997 --> 00:39:59,667 ♪♪ The day I found out who you are ♪♪ 1037 00:39:59,733 --> 00:40:01,669 ♪♪ Killed me in the moment ♪♪ 1038 00:40:01,735 --> 00:40:03,637 ♪♪ Killed me in the moment ♪♪ 1039 00:40:03,704 --> 00:40:06,506 ♪♪ But I made it through ♪♪ 1040 00:40:06,573 --> 00:40:09,676 ♪♪ All the ones that you rob blind ♪♪ 1041 00:40:09,743 --> 00:40:12,880 ♪♪ All the love you left behind ♪♪ 1042 00:40:12,947 --> 00:40:14,581 ♪♪ Think your soul is frozen ♪♪ 1043 00:40:14,648 --> 00:40:16,483 ♪♪ Think your soul is frozen ♪♪ 1044 00:40:16,549 --> 00:40:19,486 ♪♪ Inside of you ♪♪ 1045 00:40:19,553 --> 00:40:22,489 ♪♪ Is it cold where you are? ♪♪ 1046 00:40:22,556 --> 00:40:29,596 ♪♪ Can you catch your breath running from yourself? ♪♪ 1047 00:40:29,663 --> 00:40:32,799 ♪♪ Is it cold where you are? ♪♪ 1048 00:40:32,866 --> 00:40:36,369 ♪♪ ♪♪ 1049 00:40:36,436 --> 00:40:38,538 ♪♪ Cold where you are ♪♪ 1050 00:40:38,605 --> 00:40:40,274 ♪♪ ♪♪ 1051 00:40:40,340 --> 00:40:41,975 ♪♪ Where you are ♪♪ 1052 00:40:58,292 --> 00:41:00,327 - I have some big news. 1053 00:41:00,394 --> 00:41:03,497 - You see Mackenzie as your future wife? 1054 00:41:03,564 --> 00:41:05,999 - I own a cannabis consumption lounge. 1055 00:41:06,066 --> 00:41:07,534 - When I was on "Teen Mom," I was like, 1056 00:41:07,601 --> 00:41:09,102 it's about this time of the day. 1057 00:41:09,169 --> 00:41:12,572 So I want to start a weed brand called This Time of the Day. 1058 00:41:12,639 --> 00:41:15,876 - I feel like I'm going into this really dark place 1059 00:41:15,943 --> 00:41:17,277 and I don't wanna do that. 1060 00:41:17,344 --> 00:41:18,712 - I don't wanna cry in front of all these people. 1061 00:41:18,779 --> 00:41:20,114 I just feel bad for her. 1062 00:41:20,181 --> 00:41:22,582 I just don't want it to affect her in the future.