1 00:00:02,169 --> 00:00:07,374 - ♪♪ MTV ♪♪ 2 00:00:07,441 --> 00:00:08,909 - Guess what I have. 3 00:00:08,976 --> 00:00:14,014 Final judgment of dissolution of marriage. 4 00:00:14,080 --> 00:00:15,549 I am a divorced woman. 5 00:00:15,616 --> 00:00:18,118 - The recipe for IVF, it's like two or three 6 00:00:18,185 --> 00:00:19,920 weeks of birth control pills. 7 00:00:19,987 --> 00:00:22,055 And then with a needle, we go in your body and get the eggs. 8 00:00:22,122 --> 00:00:27,528 - Out of the 15 eggs, I have four frozen embryos. 9 00:00:27,594 --> 00:00:31,364 So now our only stress is my blood sugars. 10 00:00:31,431 --> 00:00:33,033 - Apparently you found something going on 11 00:00:33,099 --> 00:00:34,534 with Barb and another woman. 12 00:00:34,601 --> 00:00:35,802 - I'm beyond upset. 13 00:00:35,869 --> 00:00:37,471 We're filing for a joint divorce. 14 00:00:37,538 --> 00:00:39,706 - Once a dude is not attached to the mama no more, 15 00:00:39,773 --> 00:00:43,277 he ain't really interested like he was in the kid. 16 00:00:43,344 --> 00:00:45,012 - I'm just going to do my own thing. 17 00:00:45,078 --> 00:00:47,348 - Are you ready to have a hot girl summer? 18 00:00:47,414 --> 00:00:50,017 - I mean, lukewarm, [bleep]. 19 00:00:50,084 --> 00:00:52,186 - Hey, this is Jenelle Eason from yesterday. 20 00:00:52,253 --> 00:00:54,821 I'm going to sign on that second house. 21 00:00:54,888 --> 00:00:55,722 Got it. 22 00:00:55,789 --> 00:00:57,190 Vegas is closer to Nathan. 23 00:00:57,257 --> 00:00:59,159 - Make sure this move is for you and the kids, 24 00:00:59,226 --> 00:01:04,364 where you will see yourself most happiest and safe. 25 00:01:04,431 --> 00:01:05,765 - Nova started sobbing. 26 00:01:05,832 --> 00:01:07,100 And she was, like-- - Crying hard? 27 00:01:07,167 --> 00:01:08,301 - Yeah. 28 00:01:08,368 --> 00:01:09,603 She was like, I really miss Carly. 29 00:01:09,669 --> 00:01:10,704 And she's like, and I don't-- why 30 00:01:10,770 --> 00:01:12,439 did you have to separate us? 31 00:01:12,506 --> 00:01:15,976 Just never occurred to me when I was making the decision at 16 32 00:01:16,043 --> 00:01:19,846 how it would impact my future children, you know? 33 00:01:19,913 --> 00:01:22,949 - I know that you envision our family together. 34 00:01:23,016 --> 00:01:25,152 I want kids, and that's something that I would 35 00:01:25,218 --> 00:01:27,487 love to experience with you. 36 00:01:27,554 --> 00:01:31,225 Finding somebody that I actually truly love, 37 00:01:31,292 --> 00:01:32,793 it's like that's what I've wanted. 38 00:01:32,860 --> 00:01:34,461 You know, my goal is to get to know 39 00:01:34,528 --> 00:01:36,563 everybody better and just for us to be 40 00:01:36,630 --> 00:01:39,900 just one big happy family. 41 00:01:39,967 --> 00:01:42,002 - Holy crap. 42 00:01:42,069 --> 00:01:47,841 - Amber Portwood, I love you, and will you marry me? 43 00:01:47,908 --> 00:01:49,443 - Yes, I will. 44 00:01:49,509 --> 00:01:51,045 I actually really will marry you. 45 00:01:51,112 --> 00:01:53,446 - What if she wants you to be a part of her wedding? 46 00:01:53,513 --> 00:01:56,450 - I don't want anything to do with Gary stuff. 47 00:01:56,517 --> 00:01:59,419 [upbeat music] 48 00:01:59,486 --> 00:02:06,693 ♪♪ ♪♪ 49 00:02:11,332 --> 00:02:14,267 [tense music] 50 00:02:14,334 --> 00:02:19,272 ♪♪ ♪♪ 51 00:02:19,339 --> 00:02:22,776 - My brother Bobby got married in North Carolina. 52 00:02:22,843 --> 00:02:24,611 Gary went to the wedding with me. 53 00:02:24,678 --> 00:02:27,314 It was the first time he met my family. 54 00:02:27,381 --> 00:02:29,582 The wedding was beautiful. 55 00:02:29,649 --> 00:02:33,954 And that night, everything seemed perfect. 56 00:02:34,021 --> 00:02:37,157 - The fiancé of "Teen Mom" reality star Amber Portwood 57 00:02:37,224 --> 00:02:39,093 is missing here in the mountains. 58 00:02:39,160 --> 00:02:41,795 - Last seen at 6:00 Sunday night along Arlington Avenue. 59 00:02:41,862 --> 00:02:43,797 Police are getting out the word for the public 60 00:02:43,864 --> 00:02:45,466 to be on the outlook for Gary. 61 00:02:45,533 --> 00:02:47,801 - Amber's new fiancé is missing. 62 00:02:47,868 --> 00:02:49,303 - What? 63 00:02:49,370 --> 00:02:50,638 - Like I know she had mentioned something about going 64 00:02:50,704 --> 00:02:52,273 to her brother's wedding. 65 00:02:52,339 --> 00:02:55,343 Like North Carolina police. 66 00:02:55,409 --> 00:02:56,776 - He is missing. 67 00:02:56,843 --> 00:02:58,979 Nobody has found him or heard from him. 68 00:02:59,046 --> 00:03:02,015 - I'm trying my best to not think the worst. 69 00:03:02,082 --> 00:03:03,550 [sobs] 70 00:03:03,617 --> 00:03:08,288 I am not what people have been saying about me. 71 00:03:08,355 --> 00:03:09,990 I did not hurt him. 72 00:03:10,057 --> 00:03:12,993 [somber music] 73 00:03:13,060 --> 00:03:19,966 ♪♪ ♪♪ 74 00:03:26,473 --> 00:03:29,976 [line trilling] 75 00:03:30,043 --> 00:03:31,712 - Hey. 76 00:03:31,778 --> 00:03:36,717 - I just got sent this article that Gary 2.0 is missing. 77 00:03:36,784 --> 00:03:38,319 - I don't know what the hell is going on. 78 00:03:38,385 --> 00:03:39,687 - That's scary. 79 00:03:39,753 --> 00:03:41,989 - I know if my husband was missing, 80 00:03:42,056 --> 00:03:43,724 I'd be freaking the hell out. 81 00:03:43,790 --> 00:03:46,527 - She shouldn't be by herself having to, like, 82 00:03:46,593 --> 00:03:48,495 go through all this and try-- like, 83 00:03:48,561 --> 00:03:50,063 somebody needs to be there. 84 00:03:50,130 --> 00:03:52,866 And I feel like I know if she's in the Carolinas 85 00:03:52,933 --> 00:03:54,835 in the mountains, she cannot be more than two 86 00:03:54,902 --> 00:03:56,369 and a half hours away from me. 87 00:03:56,436 --> 00:03:57,471 - OK. 88 00:03:57,537 --> 00:03:58,905 - So I think I'm just like-- 89 00:03:58,972 --> 00:04:00,641 I'm just getting in the car and I'm going to go. 90 00:04:00,708 --> 00:04:02,309 - Definitely. 91 00:04:02,375 --> 00:04:04,344 Keep me in the loop on what's going on, what you hear. 92 00:04:04,411 --> 00:04:05,346 - Yeah. 93 00:04:05,412 --> 00:04:06,313 - So scary. 94 00:04:06,379 --> 00:04:07,447 - Yes. 95 00:04:07,514 --> 00:04:09,650 - Mm-mm. 96 00:04:09,717 --> 00:04:17,157 ♪♪ ♪♪ 97 00:04:17,224 --> 00:04:18,225 - All right. 98 00:04:18,292 --> 00:04:19,460 I just talked to Amber. 99 00:04:19,526 --> 00:04:20,861 She's in, like, really bad shape, 100 00:04:20,927 --> 00:04:23,129 so I'm going to leave now to go to her. 101 00:04:23,196 --> 00:04:26,032 I don't think she needs to be alone right now. 102 00:04:26,099 --> 00:04:27,601 You know, hold it-- hold down the fort. 103 00:04:27,668 --> 00:04:28,602 - I got it here. 104 00:04:28,669 --> 00:04:29,636 - All right. 105 00:04:29,703 --> 00:04:32,539 ♪♪ ♪♪ 106 00:04:32,606 --> 00:04:33,707 - All right, be careful. - I will. 107 00:04:33,774 --> 00:04:35,008 - Be safe. - I'll try. 108 00:04:35,075 --> 00:04:36,109 All right, love you. - Love you. 109 00:04:36,176 --> 00:04:43,116 ♪♪ ♪♪ 110 00:05:00,133 --> 00:05:01,402 Hi. 111 00:05:01,468 --> 00:05:03,003 It's OK, Amber. 112 00:05:03,070 --> 00:05:04,871 - He took his keys, and he took his wallet. 113 00:05:04,938 --> 00:05:06,607 But he did not take his phone. 114 00:05:06,674 --> 00:05:11,077 I cannot get myself to leave without knowing something. 115 00:05:11,144 --> 00:05:12,612 I can't. 116 00:05:12,679 --> 00:05:16,250 I keep thinking he will show up. 117 00:05:16,317 --> 00:05:19,252 [tense music] 118 00:05:19,319 --> 00:05:22,422 ♪♪ ♪♪ 119 00:05:22,489 --> 00:05:26,660 - Today's the last day. 120 00:05:26,726 --> 00:05:28,762 And I think I'm crying because it's 121 00:05:28,828 --> 00:05:32,599 more like it's happy tears. 122 00:05:32,666 --> 00:05:34,234 Sad tears, happy tears. 123 00:05:34,300 --> 00:05:39,539 But I'm leaving all this behind, you know. 124 00:05:39,606 --> 00:05:41,842 ♪♪ ♪♪ 125 00:05:41,909 --> 00:05:45,712 It's a little bit bittersweet. 126 00:05:45,779 --> 00:05:47,381 Remember all the important stuff. 127 00:05:47,447 --> 00:05:49,083 - Yep. 128 00:05:49,150 --> 00:05:50,617 - You put anything in there yet? 129 00:05:50,684 --> 00:05:51,719 - Not yet. 130 00:05:51,786 --> 00:05:53,587 - I have full custody of Jace. 131 00:05:53,654 --> 00:05:54,955 I have full custody of Kaiser. 132 00:05:55,022 --> 00:05:56,690 - Where do I put these? 133 00:05:56,756 --> 00:05:58,392 - Put the LEGO things in that little box, too. 134 00:05:58,458 --> 00:06:00,493 Kaiser's dad, Nathan, lives in Vegas. 135 00:06:00,560 --> 00:06:02,930 And once I get all settled, I'm going to see if I can 136 00:06:02,997 --> 00:06:05,799 set up a day for them to meet. 137 00:06:05,865 --> 00:06:07,134 I'm pretty confident that I'm going 138 00:06:07,201 --> 00:06:09,035 to get sole custody of Ensley. 139 00:06:09,102 --> 00:06:11,672 But until the custody case with David is settled, 140 00:06:11,739 --> 00:06:13,774 we can't film with her. 141 00:06:13,840 --> 00:06:15,909 - ♪♪ We're back ♪♪ 142 00:06:15,976 --> 00:06:18,479 ♪♪ Better than ever ♪♪ 143 00:06:18,546 --> 00:06:22,749 ♪♪ We're back ♪♪ 144 00:06:22,816 --> 00:06:24,752 - Look, this is our living room area. 145 00:06:24,818 --> 00:06:25,786 - Wow this is bigger. 146 00:06:25,852 --> 00:06:27,321 - This is our kitchen. 147 00:06:27,387 --> 00:06:28,655 - [gasps] 148 00:06:28,722 --> 00:06:30,091 Yo, this has got to be our game room. 149 00:06:30,157 --> 00:06:31,392 I'm about to go jump in the pool. 150 00:06:31,459 --> 00:06:32,459 - There's no pool. 151 00:06:32,526 --> 00:06:33,494 - Aw, man. 152 00:06:33,561 --> 00:06:34,628 - ♪♪ Oh, whoa ♪♪ 153 00:06:34,695 --> 00:06:36,897 ♪♪ Oh yeah, oh yeah ♪♪ 154 00:06:36,963 --> 00:06:37,898 ♪♪ Oh yeah ♪♪ 155 00:06:37,964 --> 00:06:39,800 ♪♪ Oh, whoa ♪♪ 156 00:06:39,867 --> 00:06:41,902 ♪♪ Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh ♪♪ 157 00:06:41,968 --> 00:06:43,637 ♪♪ Oh yeah ♪♪ 158 00:06:43,704 --> 00:06:44,805 - Hey. - Hey. 159 00:06:44,871 --> 00:06:46,039 - What are you doing? 160 00:06:48,576 --> 00:06:52,846 - My knees hurt from those steps, from lifting things. 161 00:06:52,913 --> 00:06:54,414 Thank you for all the help because you've 162 00:06:54,481 --> 00:06:57,451 been helping a lot with the kids and chores. 163 00:06:57,518 --> 00:06:58,786 And I see it. 164 00:06:58,852 --> 00:07:00,720 So how are you feeling here? 165 00:07:00,787 --> 00:07:04,058 - I feel a lot safer without David. 166 00:07:04,124 --> 00:07:06,293 - I'm sorry it didn't happen sooner. 167 00:07:06,360 --> 00:07:08,595 But I was trying. 168 00:07:08,662 --> 00:07:09,596 - He's gone now. 169 00:07:09,663 --> 00:07:10,831 I'm, like, fine. 170 00:07:10,898 --> 00:07:12,499 - Yeah. 171 00:07:12,566 --> 00:07:16,070 And I remember you saying, I want all the drama to stop. 172 00:07:16,137 --> 00:07:18,873 CPS has been in my life since I've been little. 173 00:07:18,939 --> 00:07:20,574 I'm sick of them comin' in and out. 174 00:07:20,641 --> 00:07:23,043 And you said you just want this all to be over. 175 00:07:23,110 --> 00:07:26,479 With me and Memay, it was like arguing about you. 176 00:07:26,546 --> 00:07:29,216 And I know you were in the middle of all that. 177 00:07:29,283 --> 00:07:32,185 - You haven't been taking care of this baby since it's born. 178 00:07:32,252 --> 00:07:34,755 Damn it, stay home and take care of the kid. 179 00:07:34,821 --> 00:07:36,323 - All right, Jenelle. 180 00:07:36,390 --> 00:07:38,458 You're agreeing to give your mom temporary custody 181 00:07:38,525 --> 00:07:41,328 of your child. 182 00:07:41,395 --> 00:07:44,565 - Well, I don't want my son in the same room as-- 183 00:07:44,631 --> 00:07:46,300 - You don't want your [bleep] kid at all! 184 00:07:46,366 --> 00:07:47,401 - Really? 185 00:07:47,467 --> 00:07:48,769 You won't give me my kid! 186 00:07:48,836 --> 00:07:49,837 - You know what? 187 00:07:49,903 --> 00:07:51,305 - Is his room set up? 188 00:07:51,372 --> 00:07:54,208 His room is set up and ready to [bleep] go! 189 00:07:54,275 --> 00:07:56,076 We're all sitting there, you know, watching a movie. 190 00:07:56,142 --> 00:07:58,011 And then all of a sudden, I get a phone 191 00:07:58,078 --> 00:08:00,948 call from Jace's cell phone, and he's screaming, crying. 192 00:08:01,015 --> 00:08:02,883 Can't even breathe. I'm like, what's wrong? 193 00:08:02,950 --> 00:08:03,918 What's going on? 194 00:08:03,984 --> 00:08:05,019 And he's like, Memay. 195 00:08:05,085 --> 00:08:06,420 Memay's yelling at me. 196 00:08:06,487 --> 00:08:07,421 Memay's hitting me. 197 00:08:07,488 --> 00:08:09,056 And I'm like, what? 198 00:08:09,123 --> 00:08:10,824 - I just wanted everything to, like, just calm down, 199 00:08:10,891 --> 00:08:13,660 get on a good point, everyone get on a, 200 00:08:13,727 --> 00:08:15,996 you know, good thing with everyone. 201 00:08:16,063 --> 00:08:18,932 - So do you feel any anger or resentment towards me? 202 00:08:18,999 --> 00:08:21,868 [gentle music] 203 00:08:21,935 --> 00:08:26,507 ♪♪ ♪♪ 204 00:08:26,573 --> 00:08:28,175 - In the time, I did. 205 00:08:28,242 --> 00:08:32,480 But now that we're out of all this, like, crazy drama, 206 00:08:32,546 --> 00:08:33,514 it's just calm. 207 00:08:33,580 --> 00:08:36,550 Everything's good now. 208 00:08:36,617 --> 00:08:39,386 - Like, you know I've made tons of mistakes all my life. 209 00:08:39,453 --> 00:08:42,590 But I just want you to realize, like, my intentions 210 00:08:42,656 --> 00:08:43,924 were never bad. 211 00:08:43,991 --> 00:08:45,559 I always tried hard to fight for you. 212 00:08:45,626 --> 00:08:49,163 I just feel like you were robbed from me as a baby, 213 00:08:49,229 --> 00:08:51,031 you know. 214 00:08:51,098 --> 00:08:54,335 And I don't think it was fair. 215 00:08:54,402 --> 00:08:55,335 - Thank you. 216 00:08:55,402 --> 00:08:56,337 - But give me a hug. 217 00:08:56,403 --> 00:08:57,437 Stand up. 218 00:08:57,504 --> 00:08:58,906 Give me a hug. 219 00:08:58,972 --> 00:09:00,307 Taller than me. 220 00:09:00,373 --> 00:09:01,975 I love you. - I love you, too. 221 00:09:02,042 --> 00:09:03,377 - Good job, OK? - Thank you. 222 00:09:03,444 --> 00:09:07,481 - Thank you. 223 00:09:07,547 --> 00:09:10,117 - ♪♪ Turn up the heat wave again ♪♪ 224 00:09:10,184 --> 00:09:12,019 ♪♪ All around the world, they talkin' ♪♪ 225 00:09:12,085 --> 00:09:13,153 ♪♪ When I walk in ♪♪ 226 00:09:13,219 --> 00:09:14,789 ♪♪ When I walk in ♪♪ 227 00:09:14,855 --> 00:09:16,757 ♪♪ I got everybody stoppin' ♪♪ 228 00:09:16,823 --> 00:09:18,091 ♪♪ When I walk in ♪♪ 229 00:09:18,158 --> 00:09:19,593 - Can you make it three? 230 00:09:19,659 --> 00:09:21,095 - ♪♪ Iconic ♪♪ 231 00:09:21,161 --> 00:09:23,197 - I signed the divorce papers Bar sent to me. 232 00:09:23,263 --> 00:09:25,232 But since we got married in California, 233 00:09:25,299 --> 00:09:26,800 he has to file them. 234 00:09:26,867 --> 00:09:28,969 I'm waiting on him to do that, but I'm not waiting 235 00:09:29,036 --> 00:09:31,304 to get on with my life. 236 00:09:31,371 --> 00:09:33,473 I made plans for my mom to watch Holly, 237 00:09:33,540 --> 00:09:38,945 and I made plans with one of my good friends, Orlando. 238 00:09:39,012 --> 00:09:41,114 And he's, like, more than a friend, I'm not going to lie. 239 00:09:41,181 --> 00:09:42,916 He's like more than a friend now, definitely. 240 00:09:42,983 --> 00:09:46,186 And I was posting on social media. 241 00:09:46,253 --> 00:09:48,255 - ♪♪ Big news, stopping traffic ♪♪ 242 00:09:48,322 --> 00:09:50,090 ♪♪ Exclusive ♪♪ 243 00:09:50,157 --> 00:09:52,392 - But Bar did not like the post. 244 00:09:52,459 --> 00:09:55,929 Two seconds later, he calls me. 245 00:09:55,996 --> 00:09:56,997 I hang up. 246 00:09:57,064 --> 00:09:58,365 Then he's texting me. 247 00:09:58,432 --> 00:10:00,300 And he's like, is that your new guy? 248 00:10:00,367 --> 00:10:02,469 Telling me like, I'm coming to Nevada. 249 00:10:02,536 --> 00:10:04,471 And I'm just like, I don't know if he's serious, 250 00:10:04,538 --> 00:10:07,240 because remind you, he's on probation in California. 251 00:10:07,307 --> 00:10:08,775 He cannot leave the state. 252 00:10:08,842 --> 00:10:10,377 Honestly, I'm not even going to go home tonight. 253 00:10:10,444 --> 00:10:12,679 I'm going to my friend's house. 254 00:10:12,746 --> 00:10:14,281 [laughs] Oh, [bleep]. 255 00:10:14,347 --> 00:10:17,050 - ♪♪ It's iconic ♪♪ 256 00:10:17,117 --> 00:10:22,590 ♪♪ ♪♪ 257 00:10:22,656 --> 00:10:25,225 ♪♪ It's iconic ♪♪ 258 00:10:25,292 --> 00:10:27,628 I called my mom while I was driving home 259 00:10:27,695 --> 00:10:30,230 in case he followed through and came to Vegas 260 00:10:30,297 --> 00:10:33,400 since things can escalate quickly with us. 261 00:10:33,467 --> 00:10:34,434 - Weak-ass bitch. 262 00:10:34,501 --> 00:10:35,836 - I'm a bitch? 263 00:10:35,903 --> 00:10:39,172 - Yeah, [bleep]. shut that [bleep], bruh. 264 00:10:39,239 --> 00:10:42,843 - I know that he shouldn't put his hands on me. 265 00:10:42,910 --> 00:10:43,910 I know that. 266 00:10:43,977 --> 00:10:50,250 ♪♪ ♪♪ 267 00:10:50,317 --> 00:10:52,687 What the [bleep] are you doing here? 268 00:10:52,753 --> 00:10:53,721 [line trilling] 269 00:10:53,787 --> 00:10:56,089 - Henderson 911. 270 00:11:10,537 --> 00:11:13,107 - I've already got a call, ma'am. 271 00:11:13,173 --> 00:11:14,741 - I understand. 272 00:11:14,808 --> 00:11:16,142 They're already-- they're driving to right now, OK? 273 00:11:16,209 --> 00:11:17,377 What's your daughter's name? 274 00:11:28,822 --> 00:11:32,159 - ♪♪ Hey I shouldn't keep it to myself ♪♪ 275 00:11:32,226 --> 00:11:37,097 ♪♪ When there's no rules, no need to delve ♪♪ 276 00:11:37,164 --> 00:11:40,300 - Since I moved to Florida, every summer, my family 277 00:11:40,367 --> 00:11:43,470 comes down to pick up my kids so they can spend the summer 278 00:11:43,537 --> 00:11:45,105 with them in Oklahoma. 279 00:11:45,172 --> 00:11:46,239 You guys excited? 280 00:11:46,306 --> 00:11:47,440 - Yes! - Yes! 281 00:11:47,507 --> 00:11:50,310 - Dance if you're excited. 282 00:11:50,377 --> 00:11:53,146 [upbeat music] 283 00:11:53,213 --> 00:11:55,649 [phone rings] 284 00:11:55,716 --> 00:11:57,184 - How are you? 285 00:11:57,251 --> 00:11:58,753 - Pretty good. 286 00:11:58,819 --> 00:12:00,988 - So when you guys come down here to visit and take 287 00:12:01,054 --> 00:12:02,789 the kids up, I think it's the perfect time 288 00:12:02,856 --> 00:12:04,324 to do the proposal. 289 00:12:04,391 --> 00:12:07,294 So I just got to figure out how to do it without her 290 00:12:07,361 --> 00:12:08,762 trying to figure it out. 291 00:12:08,828 --> 00:12:10,464 Like, I know I want to do it at the beach. 292 00:12:10,530 --> 00:12:13,300 But how am I going to get her to the beach with everybody? 293 00:12:13,367 --> 00:12:17,071 And I think that's where Kayla and Whitney comes in. 294 00:12:17,137 --> 00:12:19,640 They're going to have to work some magic. 295 00:12:19,707 --> 00:12:21,208 - Whitney takes pictures. 296 00:12:21,274 --> 00:12:25,912 She's a photographer, so maybe she could act like she's 297 00:12:25,979 --> 00:12:28,182 going to do a photoshoot there. 298 00:12:28,248 --> 00:12:29,616 - At the beach? 299 00:12:29,683 --> 00:12:31,719 That's-- I think that's a really good idea. 300 00:12:31,785 --> 00:12:33,754 - ♪♪ I'm living in a dream ♪♪ 301 00:12:33,821 --> 00:12:36,056 ♪♪ As real as it can be ♪♪ 302 00:12:36,123 --> 00:12:39,860 ♪♪ I'm living happily ♪♪ 303 00:12:39,927 --> 00:12:44,397 ♪♪ I'm living in a dream ♪♪ 304 00:12:44,464 --> 00:12:45,399 ♪♪ I'm living happily ♪♪ 305 00:12:45,466 --> 00:12:46,967 - How are you? - Good. 306 00:12:47,034 --> 00:12:48,102 How are you? 307 00:12:48,168 --> 00:12:49,970 - ♪♪ I'm living in a dream ♪♪ 308 00:12:50,037 --> 00:12:52,773 - OK, so what's the plan, Khes? 309 00:12:52,839 --> 00:12:54,942 - My plan is to say we're going to go fishing. 310 00:12:55,008 --> 00:12:56,977 So Gannon is going to come with us. 311 00:12:57,044 --> 00:12:58,579 Bronx is going to come with us. 312 00:12:58,645 --> 00:12:59,613 - OK. 313 00:12:59,680 --> 00:13:00,648 When are we doing this? 314 00:13:00,715 --> 00:13:02,349 Are we doing it tonight, tomorrow? 315 00:13:02,415 --> 00:13:05,118 - We're doing it tomorrow evening, right before sunset. 316 00:13:05,185 --> 00:13:06,654 - Perfect. 317 00:13:06,720 --> 00:13:09,456 - I cannot wait to see her reaction. 318 00:13:09,523 --> 00:13:10,624 - She's going to pee herself. 319 00:13:10,691 --> 00:13:15,028 ♪♪ Out of mind state of bliss ♪♪ 320 00:13:15,095 --> 00:13:16,663 ♪♪ Dreams right out my fingertips ♪♪ 321 00:13:16,730 --> 00:13:19,500 - There they are! 322 00:13:19,566 --> 00:13:21,801 - Rah! - Oh my goodness! 323 00:13:21,868 --> 00:13:23,737 - Welcome to Florida, everyone. 324 00:13:23,803 --> 00:13:25,272 - Trixie misses me more than anybody. 325 00:13:25,338 --> 00:13:26,339 - I know. 326 00:13:26,406 --> 00:13:27,607 The dogs aren't barking. 327 00:13:27,674 --> 00:13:28,675 That means you guys are welcome. 328 00:13:28,742 --> 00:13:29,876 - Hi. - Welcome back. 329 00:13:29,943 --> 00:13:31,378 Welcome to the sunny side. 330 00:13:31,444 --> 00:13:32,412 - Hey! 331 00:13:32,479 --> 00:13:33,580 - Get your swimsuits on. 332 00:13:33,647 --> 00:13:35,282 Let's party. - We're so hot. 333 00:13:35,348 --> 00:13:36,617 Like, sweating. 334 00:13:36,683 --> 00:13:37,684 - You want to go fishing in the morning? 335 00:13:37,751 --> 00:13:40,287 - Hey, I want Spanish mackerel. 336 00:13:40,353 --> 00:13:41,655 - OK. 337 00:13:41,722 --> 00:13:43,190 - I am so excited you guys are here. 338 00:13:43,257 --> 00:13:45,892 - Trixie, come on. 339 00:13:45,959 --> 00:13:46,727 Come on. 340 00:13:46,794 --> 00:13:48,595 - How's IVF going? 341 00:13:48,662 --> 00:13:50,097 - Did the egg retrieval. 342 00:13:50,164 --> 00:13:53,533 Out of the 15 eggs, only four of them fertilized. 343 00:13:53,600 --> 00:13:57,204 So now they're frozen until I can get my A1c down. 344 00:13:57,271 --> 00:13:58,305 - Good. 345 00:13:58,371 --> 00:14:00,474 - OK, so plan of action, OK. 346 00:14:00,540 --> 00:14:02,576 Tomorrow is a girls' day. 347 00:14:02,643 --> 00:14:04,278 What are we going to do? 348 00:14:04,344 --> 00:14:06,180 - It's been a while since we've had a sister photoshoot. 349 00:14:06,246 --> 00:14:07,715 - I know. 350 00:14:07,781 --> 00:14:10,750 - I think we need some updated sister pictures. 351 00:14:10,817 --> 00:14:12,353 Well, let's take some new pictures then. 352 00:14:12,419 --> 00:14:14,221 - So you have your camera here. - I have my camera. 353 00:14:14,287 --> 00:14:15,322 We need to go-- 354 00:14:15,388 --> 00:14:16,423 - We have to wait for the sunset. 355 00:14:16,489 --> 00:14:18,091 - Sunset. 356 00:14:18,158 --> 00:14:20,360 - We actually have not done photos since mom has died. 357 00:14:20,427 --> 00:14:23,030 - Let's do it. 358 00:14:23,097 --> 00:14:25,732 - ♪♪ It's as good as it gets ♪♪ 359 00:14:25,799 --> 00:14:31,605 ♪♪ ♪♪ 360 00:14:31,672 --> 00:14:33,641 - Oh, Mom, he's nibbling on stuff. 361 00:14:33,707 --> 00:14:35,609 He's probably hungry. 362 00:14:35,676 --> 00:14:37,544 - Oh, Mom, do you see what it did? 363 00:14:37,611 --> 00:14:40,580 It's like-- 364 00:14:40,647 --> 00:14:41,982 I've got a question. 365 00:14:42,049 --> 00:14:43,784 I really want to see Carly this year. 366 00:14:43,851 --> 00:14:45,085 - I get that. 367 00:14:45,152 --> 00:14:46,887 I'm going to text Teresa and ask her 368 00:14:46,953 --> 00:14:48,289 if they've thought about having a visit this year. 369 00:14:48,356 --> 00:14:49,490 - All right. 370 00:14:49,556 --> 00:14:52,759 - Mm-hmm. 371 00:14:52,826 --> 00:14:54,461 Oh, Nova Lee. 372 00:14:54,528 --> 00:14:56,930 It's been a year since we last saw Carly, 373 00:14:56,997 --> 00:14:59,166 and my girls really want to see her, which 374 00:14:59,233 --> 00:15:01,435 just makes my heart hurt. 375 00:15:01,501 --> 00:15:04,337 15 years ago, when we signed the adoption papers, 376 00:15:04,404 --> 00:15:06,473 we thought we'd have yearly visits. 377 00:15:06,540 --> 00:15:08,809 But it turns out that's not the case. 378 00:15:08,876 --> 00:15:11,378 - I want to take you guys back to 2009. 379 00:15:11,445 --> 00:15:14,248 - And visits are at Brandon and Teresa's discretion. 380 00:15:14,315 --> 00:15:15,682 I didn't know what I knew now. 381 00:15:15,749 --> 00:15:18,452 - It's OK. 382 00:15:18,519 --> 00:15:21,388 [somber music] 383 00:15:21,455 --> 00:15:23,991 - So I reached out to Teresa to see if we can get together 384 00:15:24,057 --> 00:15:26,426 this summer. 385 00:15:26,493 --> 00:15:28,528 ♪♪ ♪♪ 386 00:15:28,595 --> 00:15:30,597 [phone chimes] 387 00:15:30,664 --> 00:15:32,666 ♪♪ ♪♪ 388 00:15:32,733 --> 00:15:35,902 [phone dings] 389 00:15:35,969 --> 00:15:37,872 ♪♪ ♪♪ 390 00:15:37,938 --> 00:15:39,406 Teresa texted back and said I guess 391 00:15:39,473 --> 00:15:40,874 she's not thinking that we're going to be 392 00:15:40,941 --> 00:15:44,345 able to do a visit this year. 393 00:15:44,411 --> 00:15:45,645 - Got it. 394 00:15:45,712 --> 00:15:47,481 - As a birth parent, it still sucks 395 00:15:47,548 --> 00:15:50,617 having to be in the mercy of somebody else's control 396 00:15:50,684 --> 00:15:53,954 when all you want to do is just see your kids together. 397 00:15:54,021 --> 00:15:58,559 Because at the end of the day, these kids 398 00:15:58,625 --> 00:15:59,826 is what is important. 399 00:15:59,893 --> 00:16:00,927 - Yeah. 400 00:16:00,994 --> 00:16:03,597 - Carly and her sisters. 401 00:16:03,663 --> 00:16:05,032 It hurts all the kids. 402 00:16:05,098 --> 00:16:06,633 - Adoption equals trauma. 403 00:16:06,700 --> 00:16:07,634 Period. 404 00:16:07,701 --> 00:16:09,203 - Trauma, yeah, period. 405 00:16:09,270 --> 00:16:10,437 It's literally a ripple effect for everybody involved. 406 00:16:10,504 --> 00:16:12,105 It's going to be tough telling Nova. 407 00:16:12,172 --> 00:16:14,141 It's going to break her little heart. 408 00:16:14,208 --> 00:16:15,842 - Yeah. 409 00:16:15,909 --> 00:16:23,016 ♪♪ ♪♪ 410 00:16:40,700 --> 00:16:43,169 [phone dinging] 411 00:16:53,680 --> 00:16:56,316 [phone dinging] 412 00:17:03,491 --> 00:17:06,593 [tense music] 413 00:17:11,932 --> 00:17:13,233 - I've already got a call, ma'am. 414 00:17:13,300 --> 00:17:15,635 I need you to just try and settle down. 415 00:17:19,840 --> 00:17:21,642 - When I first got into my house, 416 00:17:21,709 --> 00:17:24,311 I see Bar sitting on my couch. 417 00:17:24,378 --> 00:17:26,480 I could tell that he was like-- 418 00:17:26,547 --> 00:17:28,081 he was pissed. 419 00:17:28,148 --> 00:17:32,152 So Bar and I are going back and forth, just, like, 420 00:17:32,219 --> 00:17:33,454 you know, arguing. 421 00:17:33,521 --> 00:17:35,855 Then I hear knocking at my door. 422 00:17:35,922 --> 00:17:38,459 And I hear, come out, come out! 423 00:17:38,526 --> 00:17:39,759 We're going to kick your door in. 424 00:17:39,826 --> 00:17:40,928 We're going to kick your door in. 425 00:17:40,994 --> 00:17:41,928 We're coming in. 426 00:17:41,995 --> 00:17:43,563 So I look out of my window. 427 00:17:43,630 --> 00:17:47,334 And there are cops hiding behind dumpsters with guns. 428 00:17:47,400 --> 00:17:50,604 So he starts grabbing my bar stools 429 00:17:50,671 --> 00:17:53,941 and, like, putting them in front of my door, like, 430 00:17:54,008 --> 00:17:55,642 trying to, like, barricade the door. 431 00:17:55,709 --> 00:17:56,877 It scared the [bleep] out of me, 432 00:17:56,944 --> 00:17:58,878 because trigger-finger happy-ass cops. 433 00:17:58,945 --> 00:18:00,680 I'm scared to open the door, because I'm like, 434 00:18:00,747 --> 00:18:02,549 do they know I'm opening the door? 435 00:18:02,616 --> 00:18:04,718 Like, the last thing I need is someone, like, getting 436 00:18:04,785 --> 00:18:06,319 shot or getting real hurt. 437 00:18:06,386 --> 00:18:08,288 And I turned to Bar and I'm like, they're coming in. 438 00:18:08,355 --> 00:18:12,993 And I was like, the best bet is for me to go out 439 00:18:13,060 --> 00:18:14,861 there and say he doesn't have any weapons 440 00:18:14,928 --> 00:18:17,631 and he's willing to cooperate. 441 00:18:17,698 --> 00:18:19,567 And he's like, OK. 442 00:18:19,633 --> 00:18:22,369 So he moves the bar stools. 443 00:18:22,436 --> 00:18:24,171 I go downstairs. 444 00:18:24,238 --> 00:18:25,940 The police are all out there. 445 00:18:26,006 --> 00:18:28,108 They're screaming like, put your hands up, 446 00:18:28,175 --> 00:18:29,476 put your hands up. 447 00:18:29,543 --> 00:18:30,911 So I'm walking down my [bleep] stairs. 448 00:18:30,978 --> 00:18:33,147 The police had him down everything, 449 00:18:33,214 --> 00:18:34,448 and they walked him out. 450 00:18:34,514 --> 00:18:37,083 So Bar is currently in jail. 451 00:18:40,320 --> 00:18:43,791 And it was very, very scary. 452 00:18:43,858 --> 00:18:47,361 - ♪♪ So I'm changing my ways ♪♪ 453 00:18:47,428 --> 00:18:50,030 ♪♪ Done dealing with pain ♪♪ 454 00:18:50,097 --> 00:18:54,501 ♪♪ Yeah, I'm changing my ways ♪♪ 455 00:18:54,568 --> 00:18:57,071 - I hope they keep him in jail forever. 456 00:18:57,138 --> 00:19:01,274 And I wouldn't care less if he ever seen Holly again. 457 00:19:01,341 --> 00:19:02,743 - Sounds extreme. 458 00:19:02,809 --> 00:19:05,612 - No, that-- that the [bleep] is extreme! 459 00:19:05,679 --> 00:19:07,948 - And I understand that. 460 00:19:08,015 --> 00:19:11,018 I mean, overall, I'm just happy Holly wasn't there. 461 00:19:11,085 --> 00:19:12,385 - But hold on. 462 00:19:12,452 --> 00:19:14,821 I love how you deal with Holly, because you're 463 00:19:14,888 --> 00:19:16,424 always going to put her first. 464 00:19:16,490 --> 00:19:19,793 But right now, Ashley, we're not talking about Holly. 465 00:19:19,860 --> 00:19:24,098 We talking about how desensitized you are 466 00:19:24,164 --> 00:19:27,134 and how that can even impact Holly. 467 00:19:27,201 --> 00:19:31,305 She still is picking up the vibe. 468 00:19:31,371 --> 00:19:32,372 - I know. 469 00:19:32,439 --> 00:19:35,910 - In all honesty, Ashley-- 470 00:19:35,976 --> 00:19:38,212 I didn't know if I was going to see your face again. 471 00:19:38,279 --> 00:19:41,214 [somber music] 472 00:19:41,281 --> 00:19:43,116 ♪♪ ♪♪ 473 00:19:43,183 --> 00:19:46,186 - I have cried my tears over his actions. 474 00:19:46,252 --> 00:19:49,489 And I'm just not going to cry any [bleep] more. 475 00:19:49,556 --> 00:19:50,691 - As you should not. 476 00:19:50,758 --> 00:19:57,864 ♪♪ ♪♪ 477 00:19:59,466 --> 00:20:03,704 - ♪♪ Oh don't make me wake up from this dream ♪♪ 478 00:20:03,771 --> 00:20:10,911 ♪♪ ♪♪ 479 00:20:21,255 --> 00:20:22,156 - Hello? 480 00:20:22,222 --> 00:20:23,290 - Hi. 481 00:20:23,356 --> 00:20:24,291 - Hey, girl. 482 00:20:24,358 --> 00:20:26,293 - So Amber's inside. 483 00:20:26,360 --> 00:20:28,929 If you just saw the state that she is in right now, 484 00:20:28,996 --> 00:20:30,898 it's like-- 485 00:20:30,965 --> 00:20:32,599 beyond. 486 00:20:32,666 --> 00:20:34,401 - Oh, really, Mace? - Yeah. 487 00:20:34,468 --> 00:20:35,468 It's so bad. 488 00:20:35,535 --> 00:20:39,105 And I feel so terrible for her. 489 00:20:39,172 --> 00:20:43,410 Like, we did call the chief of police today. 490 00:20:43,477 --> 00:20:47,214 And he basically was like, you know, 491 00:20:47,280 --> 00:20:49,616 you've done everything you can to help us here, 492 00:20:49,683 --> 00:20:51,651 but you just need to go home, get some rest. 493 00:20:51,718 --> 00:20:53,320 - OK. 494 00:20:53,387 --> 00:20:58,125 - She's not in a headspace that I feel is safe for driving. 495 00:20:58,192 --> 00:21:02,329 So we plan on leaving here in just a little bit. 496 00:21:02,396 --> 00:21:04,531 I'm driving her two hours to Knoxville, 497 00:21:04,597 --> 00:21:06,099 because it's on my way home. 498 00:21:06,166 --> 00:21:08,569 And then MTV is going to drive her the rest of the way. 499 00:21:08,636 --> 00:21:09,903 - OK. - All right, love you. 500 00:21:09,970 --> 00:21:11,105 - All right, I love you guys. - Bye. 501 00:21:11,172 --> 00:21:14,074 [gentle music] 502 00:21:14,141 --> 00:21:19,646 ♪♪ ♪♪ 503 00:21:19,713 --> 00:21:20,847 - ♪♪ Hold on ♪♪ 504 00:21:20,914 --> 00:21:26,753 ♪♪ Hold on, don't stop ♪♪ 505 00:21:26,820 --> 00:21:30,291 ♪♪ When your heart wants to just give up ♪♪ 506 00:21:30,358 --> 00:21:31,391 - It's OK, babe. 507 00:21:31,458 --> 00:21:32,693 - [sobs] 508 00:21:32,760 --> 00:21:39,900 ♪♪ ♪♪ 509 00:21:46,707 --> 00:21:47,708 - Yeah. 510 00:21:47,775 --> 00:21:49,476 - ♪♪ Hold on ♪♪ 511 00:21:49,543 --> 00:21:54,715 ♪♪ Hold on, don't stop ♪♪ 512 00:21:54,781 --> 00:21:56,616 ♪♪ You're strong ♪♪ 513 00:21:56,683 --> 00:22:00,187 ♪♪ You don't give up ♪♪ 514 00:22:00,254 --> 00:22:02,322 - [sobbing] 515 00:22:09,496 --> 00:22:12,366 [gentle guitar music] 516 00:22:12,433 --> 00:22:18,104 ♪♪ ♪♪ 517 00:22:18,171 --> 00:22:20,641 - I'm going to drive you the rest of the way to Indiana. 518 00:22:20,708 --> 00:22:21,642 - Thank you. 519 00:22:21,709 --> 00:22:22,710 I appreciate it. 520 00:22:22,777 --> 00:22:24,778 - All right. 521 00:22:24,844 --> 00:22:26,413 Let's go. 522 00:22:26,480 --> 00:22:33,186 - ♪♪ And I'm going to find you ♪♪ 523 00:22:33,253 --> 00:22:36,356 ♪♪ Please don't forget me ♪♪ 524 00:22:36,423 --> 00:22:37,758 - So what happened? 525 00:22:37,825 --> 00:22:41,261 - I guess his dad, like, read my Wikipedia. 526 00:22:49,670 --> 00:22:51,604 I think he was holding in the fact 527 00:22:51,671 --> 00:22:56,410 that maybe heard from his family or something 528 00:22:56,477 --> 00:22:57,877 and not telling me. 529 00:22:57,944 --> 00:23:00,114 I was just like saying, like, I can't do this. 530 00:23:00,180 --> 00:23:02,015 Like, no. 531 00:23:02,082 --> 00:23:05,151 How can we get married, then, if your family can't accept me 532 00:23:05,218 --> 00:23:06,654 and stuff? 533 00:23:06,720 --> 00:23:09,423 And maybe he took that as me breaking up with him. 534 00:23:09,490 --> 00:23:12,959 It seemed like to me like he was upset 535 00:23:13,026 --> 00:23:16,330 and maybe, like, hopeless. 536 00:23:16,397 --> 00:23:18,899 - Yeah. 537 00:23:18,966 --> 00:23:20,968 - [sobbing] 538 00:23:21,035 --> 00:23:23,136 [somber music] 539 00:23:23,203 --> 00:23:25,705 [phone rings] 540 00:23:27,340 --> 00:23:28,508 - Hey. 541 00:23:31,945 --> 00:23:32,979 - He has? 542 00:23:37,751 --> 00:23:39,286 - Are you serious? - What happened? 543 00:23:39,352 --> 00:23:40,520 - So-- 544 00:23:47,961 --> 00:23:49,329 - Wow. 545 00:23:49,396 --> 00:23:52,433 So it didn't even say, like, where he was or anything? 546 00:23:52,500 --> 00:23:56,737 - That makes me feel, like, great, though, you know. 547 00:23:56,804 --> 00:23:58,872 So, like, he's not a missing person anymore. 548 00:24:03,310 --> 00:24:07,581 ♪♪ ♪♪ 549 00:24:11,051 --> 00:24:13,120 - Thank you so much. 550 00:24:13,187 --> 00:24:16,456 ♪♪ ♪♪ 551 00:24:16,523 --> 00:24:19,026 - So he was able to reach out to the police. 552 00:24:19,093 --> 00:24:20,828 Has he sent you any messages? 553 00:24:20,894 --> 00:24:22,062 - No. 554 00:24:22,129 --> 00:24:25,332 - That's throwing up a little red flag. 555 00:24:25,399 --> 00:24:27,334 - ♪♪ Left with no warning ♪♪ 556 00:24:27,401 --> 00:24:29,136 ♪♪ Not that I blame you ♪♪ 557 00:24:29,203 --> 00:24:31,605 ♪♪ No kind of mourning ♪♪ 558 00:24:31,672 --> 00:24:35,108 ♪♪ I can't explain ♪♪ 559 00:24:35,175 --> 00:24:40,013 ♪♪ Stuck in this pain ♪♪ 560 00:24:40,080 --> 00:24:45,419 ♪♪ Oh, I just keep on spinning ♪♪ 561 00:24:45,485 --> 00:24:47,387 ♪♪ Spinning ♪♪ 562 00:24:47,454 --> 00:24:51,325 ♪♪ Round and round without you ♪♪ 563 00:24:51,391 --> 00:24:54,061 ♪♪ Round and round without you ♪♪ 564 00:24:54,127 --> 00:24:58,231 - Police say case is closed. 565 00:24:58,298 --> 00:25:03,504 Leah's friends asked her if she thought her mom would off him. 566 00:25:03,570 --> 00:25:06,373 And she laughed and said no. 567 00:25:06,440 --> 00:25:07,708 - It's not new to Leah. 568 00:25:07,775 --> 00:25:09,442 I've messaged Amber a few times. 569 00:25:09,509 --> 00:25:13,046 I think everything going right here is taking a toll on Amber. 570 00:25:13,113 --> 00:25:14,782 She said she hadn't been eating a whole lot 571 00:25:14,848 --> 00:25:17,918 and pretty much was just out of it. 572 00:25:17,985 --> 00:25:21,087 Like, I mean, I have to feel a little compassion 573 00:25:21,154 --> 00:25:22,456 for her because of what's going on, but-- 574 00:25:22,523 --> 00:25:23,957 - No, I get it. I get it. 575 00:25:24,024 --> 00:25:25,292 - It's very-- I don't have compassion for you 576 00:25:25,359 --> 00:25:27,094 not seeing your child, though. 577 00:25:27,160 --> 00:25:28,495 - That's another thing, too. 578 00:25:28,562 --> 00:25:30,164 Like, I wish Amber would realize. 579 00:25:30,230 --> 00:25:32,099 Like, men come and go. 580 00:25:32,166 --> 00:25:33,533 Friends come and go. 581 00:25:33,600 --> 00:25:38,405 But the ones who stay are your children. 582 00:25:38,472 --> 00:25:40,440 [sighs] 583 00:25:40,507 --> 00:25:44,011 - ♪♪ [indistinct] around the sun like a satellite ♪♪ 584 00:25:44,078 --> 00:25:47,981 ♪♪ ♪♪ 585 00:25:48,048 --> 00:25:49,483 - OK, well, listen. 586 00:25:49,550 --> 00:25:55,256 Today, me and you are going to see your dad. 587 00:25:55,322 --> 00:25:56,757 - Yay! 588 00:25:56,823 --> 00:25:59,092 - My relationship with Kaiser's dad, Nathan, 589 00:25:59,159 --> 00:26:00,394 was an intense love. 590 00:26:00,461 --> 00:26:01,828 - Put your stuff over at my place, 591 00:26:01,895 --> 00:26:04,064 and then I'll take day by day. 592 00:26:04,130 --> 00:26:05,699 - We got engaged. 593 00:26:05,765 --> 00:26:09,369 - Jenelle Evans, will you marry me? 594 00:26:09,436 --> 00:26:10,537 - Yes, I will. 595 00:26:10,604 --> 00:26:12,039 And he was a very present dad. 596 00:26:12,105 --> 00:26:14,574 But his alcohol issues got out of hand. 597 00:26:14,641 --> 00:26:15,742 - Jenelle! 598 00:26:15,809 --> 00:26:19,380 You know I didn't do anything. 599 00:26:19,446 --> 00:26:20,581 I didn't do anything. 600 00:26:20,648 --> 00:26:22,482 - So we broke up. - Jenelle! 601 00:26:22,549 --> 00:26:25,886 - He's had numerous legal issues throughout the years. 602 00:26:28,722 --> 00:26:31,158 He is currently in Las Vegas in a rehab. 603 00:26:31,224 --> 00:26:33,259 And I'm OK with Kaiser seeing his dad 604 00:26:33,326 --> 00:26:35,128 as long as it's supervised. 605 00:26:35,195 --> 00:26:36,697 So are you excited to see your dad, Kaiser? 606 00:26:36,764 --> 00:26:38,131 - Yeah. - Yeah? 607 00:26:40,501 --> 00:26:41,535 - I'm so hot. 608 00:26:41,602 --> 00:26:42,803 - Well, take your hoodie off. 609 00:26:42,870 --> 00:26:44,204 - Yeah, that's what I'm about to do. 610 00:26:44,271 --> 00:26:48,008 [gentle music] 611 00:26:48,075 --> 00:26:49,076 All right, I'm going in. 612 00:26:49,142 --> 00:26:50,077 - No, we got to wait. 613 00:26:50,143 --> 00:26:51,145 - Why? 614 00:26:51,211 --> 00:26:52,145 - Because I'm waiting. 615 00:26:52,212 --> 00:26:53,313 We're waiting on your dad. 616 00:26:53,380 --> 00:26:54,782 - When's he going to be here? 617 00:26:54,848 --> 00:26:57,251 - Should be here any second. 618 00:26:57,317 --> 00:26:58,953 - Oh, OK. 619 00:26:59,019 --> 00:27:02,289 Good. 620 00:27:02,356 --> 00:27:06,226 ♪♪ ♪♪ 621 00:27:06,293 --> 00:27:08,528 [phone dings] 622 00:27:10,131 --> 00:27:11,565 - Um, so Kaiser. 623 00:27:11,632 --> 00:27:12,933 - Yeah? 624 00:27:12,999 --> 00:27:16,503 - I've just got a message from your dad. 625 00:27:16,570 --> 00:27:20,040 And, um, 626 00:27:20,107 --> 00:27:23,944 he said he thought he was able to come today, 627 00:27:24,011 --> 00:27:26,146 but he couldn't get permission. 628 00:27:26,212 --> 00:27:30,951 - Aw. 629 00:27:31,018 --> 00:27:32,652 - It's hard as a mom to see your kids get 630 00:27:32,719 --> 00:27:35,989 disappointed like this, because it's like out of your control. 631 00:27:36,056 --> 00:27:39,259 You can't really control people or what they do. 632 00:27:39,326 --> 00:27:42,263 But you try your best to be there for your kids. 633 00:27:42,329 --> 00:27:45,299 - It's just, like, I haven't seen them in two years. 634 00:27:45,366 --> 00:27:48,169 - I know, Bubba. 635 00:27:48,235 --> 00:27:49,904 It's OK, Bubba. 636 00:27:49,970 --> 00:27:53,640 - ♪♪ I won't give up on you ♪♪ 637 00:27:59,279 --> 00:28:00,313 - ♪♪ You can leave ♪♪ 638 00:28:00,380 --> 00:28:03,684 ♪♪ You're my reason, baby ♪♪ 639 00:28:03,751 --> 00:28:10,190 ♪♪ ♪♪ 640 00:28:10,257 --> 00:28:12,126 - So what do you feel about what's going 641 00:28:12,192 --> 00:28:13,160 on with your post and stuff? 642 00:28:13,226 --> 00:28:14,561 Like-- 643 00:28:14,628 --> 00:28:15,729 - I mean, I made the post out of anger and 644 00:28:15,796 --> 00:28:17,130 frustration, obviously. 645 00:28:17,197 --> 00:28:18,332 Well, people on the internet, 646 00:28:18,398 --> 00:28:20,401 I don't really give a [bleep] about. 647 00:28:20,467 --> 00:28:21,535 They aren't sitting here when my kids ask me questions. 648 00:28:21,602 --> 00:28:22,770 Are we seeing Carly this year? 649 00:28:22,837 --> 00:28:24,270 I really miss her. 650 00:28:24,337 --> 00:28:25,872 - My job is not to protect Brandon and Teresa. 651 00:28:25,939 --> 00:28:26,907 It is not. 652 00:28:26,973 --> 00:28:28,476 And I will not do it. 653 00:28:28,542 --> 00:28:31,545 And I have a right to express my story and share it. 654 00:28:31,612 --> 00:28:32,913 - Absolutely. 655 00:28:32,980 --> 00:28:35,515 - Teresa just will not respond to me whatsoever. 656 00:28:35,582 --> 00:28:38,251 - Well, because-- I think it's because of the post you made. 657 00:28:38,318 --> 00:28:41,088 But did she see the post I made? 658 00:28:41,155 --> 00:28:42,222 - Maybe not. 659 00:28:42,289 --> 00:28:45,058 - I responded in defense of-- 660 00:28:45,125 --> 00:28:46,627 I don't think you need defense. 661 00:28:46,694 --> 00:28:48,495 - Well, thanks, but I always do appreciate when you-- 662 00:28:48,562 --> 00:28:50,630 because you have different ways of speaking on things, 663 00:28:50,697 --> 00:28:52,265 so, you know. 664 00:28:52,332 --> 00:28:55,269 - Carly is almost 15 years old. 665 00:28:55,336 --> 00:28:56,903 Throughout those 15 years, her parents 666 00:28:56,970 --> 00:28:59,273 have chosen not to have our mutually agreed 667 00:28:59,339 --> 00:29:01,575 upon annual visit multiple times. 668 00:29:01,642 --> 00:29:03,944 Now, is it always disappointing and hurtful when it happens? 669 00:29:04,011 --> 00:29:05,079 Yes, of course. Is it sad? 670 00:29:05,145 --> 00:29:06,613 Yeah. 671 00:29:06,680 --> 00:29:07,648 But at the end of the day, Brandon and Teresa 672 00:29:07,715 --> 00:29:08,982 are her parents. 673 00:29:09,049 --> 00:29:10,885 They are the only ones who have the authority 674 00:29:10,951 --> 00:29:12,319 to make that decision. 675 00:29:12,386 --> 00:29:13,921 That is the honor, privilege, and gift 676 00:29:13,987 --> 00:29:16,490 we chose to give them when we decided that they would 677 00:29:16,557 --> 00:29:18,258 raise her and be her parents. 678 00:29:18,325 --> 00:29:21,628 But that choice does not come without a natural human cost. 679 00:29:21,695 --> 00:29:24,632 So with that pain inevitably comes emotional reactions 680 00:29:24,699 --> 00:29:25,833 and expressions. 681 00:29:25,899 --> 00:29:27,868 My wife fights this pain every day. 682 00:29:27,934 --> 00:29:30,270 Some days are a victory, and some days are not. 683 00:29:30,337 --> 00:29:32,773 But her expressing that pain on those particular days when she 684 00:29:32,840 --> 00:29:34,808 is vulnerable, sad, at a loss should 685 00:29:34,875 --> 00:29:38,278 never be used as an attack against her character. 686 00:29:38,345 --> 00:29:39,980 I'm going to start crying. 687 00:29:40,046 --> 00:29:43,450 - ♪♪ I'll be your ♪♪ 688 00:29:43,517 --> 00:29:47,955 ♪♪ I'll be your rescue ♪♪ 689 00:29:48,021 --> 00:29:52,225 ♪♪ I'll be your ♪♪ 690 00:29:52,292 --> 00:29:56,796 ♪♪ I'll be your rescue ♪♪ 691 00:29:56,863 --> 00:29:58,833 - Silly. 692 00:29:58,899 --> 00:30:00,033 - You're silly. 693 00:30:00,100 --> 00:30:03,036 ♪♪ ♪♪ 694 00:30:03,103 --> 00:30:08,209 - We haven't done a family movie night in a long time. 695 00:30:08,275 --> 00:30:09,543 - I know. 696 00:30:09,610 --> 00:30:10,911 - I want to bring Carly over here. 697 00:30:10,978 --> 00:30:13,647 - We're not going to see Carly this year. 698 00:30:13,714 --> 00:30:14,715 This summer. 699 00:30:14,781 --> 00:30:15,682 - Why? 700 00:30:15,749 --> 00:30:16,984 - Her parents said this year-- 701 00:30:17,050 --> 00:30:19,854 - Her parents said no. 702 00:30:19,920 --> 00:30:21,288 - Why did they say no? 703 00:30:21,354 --> 00:30:22,890 - We don't know why they said no. 704 00:30:22,957 --> 00:30:24,491 They just said no. 705 00:30:24,558 --> 00:30:27,561 Do you think that we deserve a reason, or do you-- 706 00:30:27,628 --> 00:30:29,763 - Well, we deserve to meet Carly. 707 00:30:29,830 --> 00:30:31,232 That's the thing. 708 00:30:31,298 --> 00:30:32,900 - You always hear, like, adoptions, 709 00:30:32,967 --> 00:30:34,034 it's a beautiful thing. 710 00:30:34,100 --> 00:30:35,468 And you should be so lucky. 711 00:30:35,535 --> 00:30:37,004 Yeah, you know, all those things are true. 712 00:30:37,071 --> 00:30:39,540 But it's like, the things that we're not told 713 00:30:39,607 --> 00:30:43,644 is hard, like how, you know, adoptive parents can 714 00:30:43,710 --> 00:30:46,847 change visits or totally cut you off completely 715 00:30:46,913 --> 00:30:48,048 if they want to. 716 00:30:48,114 --> 00:30:50,517 - It's just not fair. 717 00:30:50,584 --> 00:30:52,019 - Yeah, I agree with that. 718 00:30:52,086 --> 00:30:55,823 [somber music] 719 00:30:55,890 --> 00:30:57,224 [light music] 720 00:30:57,291 --> 00:31:01,762 - ♪♪ But you know you've [indistinct] ♪♪ 721 00:31:01,829 --> 00:31:03,497 - Hi. - Nice to meet you. 722 00:31:03,563 --> 00:31:04,698 - I'm Meredith. 723 00:31:04,765 --> 00:31:05,900 - I'm Ashley. 724 00:31:05,966 --> 00:31:07,301 - Hi, nice to meet you. Have a seat. 725 00:31:07,367 --> 00:31:08,769 Tell me a little bit about yourself 726 00:31:08,835 --> 00:31:11,004 and what's going on, how I can maybe help you. 727 00:31:11,071 --> 00:31:12,239 - Um, getting a divorce. 728 00:31:12,305 --> 00:31:13,273 - OK. 729 00:31:13,340 --> 00:31:14,308 - It's ten years. 730 00:31:14,375 --> 00:31:16,076 A lot to divvy up. 731 00:31:16,143 --> 00:31:18,245 I mean, not property-wise, but emotionally wise. 732 00:31:18,312 --> 00:31:19,279 - Sure. 733 00:31:19,346 --> 00:31:20,648 - And a child. 734 00:31:20,714 --> 00:31:22,349 - Is it my correct understanding that he's 735 00:31:22,416 --> 00:31:23,850 currently in custody? - Yes. 736 00:31:23,917 --> 00:31:25,352 - Is there a protective order in place right now? 737 00:31:25,419 --> 00:31:26,620 - There is. 738 00:31:26,687 --> 00:31:27,821 - Does it extend to your daughter? 739 00:31:27,888 --> 00:31:29,156 - It does. 740 00:31:29,223 --> 00:31:31,258 - So if he is ultimately sentenced 741 00:31:31,324 --> 00:31:33,594 to a very long, extended period of time, 742 00:31:33,661 --> 00:31:35,462 you would have the grounds to ask the court 743 00:31:35,529 --> 00:31:36,997 for sole legal custody. 744 00:31:37,063 --> 00:31:38,566 - OK. 745 00:31:38,632 --> 00:31:40,000 - Once we serve him, whether he's in custody or not, 746 00:31:40,067 --> 00:31:41,035 he'll have 21 days to respond. 747 00:31:41,101 --> 00:31:42,469 - OK. 748 00:31:42,536 --> 00:31:44,004 - It will come directly through this office. 749 00:31:44,071 --> 00:31:45,673 You won't have to have any communication with him, 750 00:31:45,739 --> 00:31:47,875 nor should you because of the protective order. 751 00:31:47,942 --> 00:31:49,476 - Right. - This is a no-fault state. 752 00:31:49,542 --> 00:31:51,278 So whether he wants to be divorced or not, 753 00:31:51,344 --> 00:31:53,848 he is going to get it. 754 00:31:53,914 --> 00:31:56,716 - I am saddened that this is the route that I had to take, 755 00:31:56,783 --> 00:32:00,521 because my job as a mother is to always uphold 756 00:32:00,587 --> 00:32:02,856 the image of her dad and make sure that she 757 00:32:02,923 --> 00:32:04,458 thinks he's a superhero. 758 00:32:04,525 --> 00:32:08,996 So it makes my job harder when, you know, he's doing things 759 00:32:09,062 --> 00:32:10,698 that aren't superhero-like. 760 00:32:10,764 --> 00:32:13,533 - It would be a good idea to finding some type of therapy. 761 00:32:13,600 --> 00:32:15,902 Divorce can be a stressful process. 762 00:32:15,969 --> 00:32:18,839 - And I want to fix what in me was 763 00:32:18,906 --> 00:32:20,841 accepting bull[bleep] for so long. 764 00:32:20,908 --> 00:32:24,945 And I feel like my next chapter is just me. 765 00:32:25,012 --> 00:32:26,246 Just me. 766 00:32:26,313 --> 00:32:27,314 That's really it. 767 00:32:27,381 --> 00:32:29,249 Just me. 768 00:32:29,316 --> 00:32:32,319 - ♪♪ All these times ♪♪ 769 00:32:32,385 --> 00:32:37,191 ♪♪ We sat above ♪♪ 770 00:32:37,257 --> 00:32:38,925 ♪♪ I'm stuck here ♪♪ 771 00:32:38,992 --> 00:32:41,095 - Hey, Amber, your car just got here to take 772 00:32:41,161 --> 00:32:42,429 you to your psychiatrist. 773 00:32:42,496 --> 00:32:44,030 - I'm trying to keep myself together. 774 00:32:44,097 --> 00:32:48,101 Like-- I'm shaking. 775 00:32:48,168 --> 00:32:49,102 Like, this is mania. 776 00:32:49,169 --> 00:32:50,270 - Yeah. 777 00:32:50,337 --> 00:32:54,875 ♪♪ ♪♪ 778 00:32:57,277 --> 00:32:58,979 - [sighs] 779 00:32:59,045 --> 00:33:00,180 - How's it going today? - My body-- 780 00:33:00,247 --> 00:33:02,049 my body is, like, swelling. 781 00:33:02,116 --> 00:33:03,417 I'm OK. 782 00:33:03,483 --> 00:33:04,918 Thank you for asking. 783 00:33:04,985 --> 00:33:05,986 That's really nice. 784 00:33:06,053 --> 00:33:08,555 Um-- 785 00:33:08,622 --> 00:33:11,392 I've had to deal with thinking that my fiancé was 786 00:33:11,458 --> 00:33:12,993 dead for three to four days. 787 00:33:13,060 --> 00:33:16,430 I had to deal with literally grieving and trying 788 00:33:16,497 --> 00:33:19,299 to make sense of why the [bleep] 789 00:33:19,366 --> 00:33:21,101 would somebody do this to me? 790 00:33:21,168 --> 00:33:24,237 This is a trauma response because what happened 791 00:33:24,304 --> 00:33:25,772 to me in North Carolina. 792 00:33:25,839 --> 00:33:27,541 I am going through something right now. 793 00:33:27,607 --> 00:33:30,944 I'm in such a weird space that I've never been in. 794 00:33:31,011 --> 00:33:34,281 This rambling is so backwards for me. 795 00:33:34,348 --> 00:33:35,749 - You have arrived. 796 00:33:35,816 --> 00:33:37,484 - I don't even want to get out. 797 00:33:37,551 --> 00:33:41,455 [tense music] 798 00:33:41,522 --> 00:33:43,156 I don't want to get out. 799 00:33:43,223 --> 00:33:47,761 ♪♪ ♪♪ 800 00:33:47,828 --> 00:33:48,929 - Come here, baby. Come here. 801 00:33:48,996 --> 00:33:51,331 - [sobs] 802 00:33:51,398 --> 00:33:53,300 Right now, this man broke me. 803 00:33:53,367 --> 00:33:54,768 I was stable. 804 00:33:54,834 --> 00:33:57,871 And right now, this is the first time in years, 805 00:33:57,938 --> 00:33:58,839 in my life. 806 00:33:58,906 --> 00:34:00,440 I am 34. 807 00:34:00,507 --> 00:34:03,743 I am not [bleep] right, 808 00:34:03,810 --> 00:34:07,681 because a man put a ring on my finger. 809 00:34:07,747 --> 00:34:11,418 You broke me, because we were actually in love. 810 00:34:11,485 --> 00:34:14,788 The day that man left for no reason-- 811 00:34:14,855 --> 00:34:17,858 and I'ma say no reason, because there was no [bleep] reason. 812 00:34:17,924 --> 00:34:23,530 And he ruined something so [bleep] good. 813 00:34:23,597 --> 00:34:25,566 I am so [bleep] right now. 814 00:34:25,632 --> 00:34:27,468 Why am I getting persecuted? 815 00:34:27,534 --> 00:34:30,504 Every single media outlet lied about what the [bleep] I did 816 00:34:30,571 --> 00:34:32,106 and catastrophized what I did. 817 00:34:32,172 --> 00:34:33,340 We know Amber killed him. 818 00:34:33,407 --> 00:34:34,474 I had to deal with that. 819 00:34:34,541 --> 00:34:35,876 I had to deal. 820 00:34:35,943 --> 00:34:37,077 Listen to me. 821 00:34:37,144 --> 00:34:38,879 Do you know how that feels when people 822 00:34:38,946 --> 00:34:41,281 are calling you a murderer to your [bleep] fiancé? 823 00:34:41,348 --> 00:34:42,516 No. - Come here. 824 00:34:42,583 --> 00:34:43,684 - Do you know how that [bleep] feels? 825 00:34:43,751 --> 00:34:44,785 - Come her. Come here. 826 00:34:44,851 --> 00:34:48,055 Come here. Come here. 827 00:34:48,122 --> 00:34:50,257 Oh, baby, I'm so sorry. 828 00:34:50,324 --> 00:34:51,558 - He doesn't know what he did. 829 00:34:51,625 --> 00:34:52,760 They were calling me a murderer. 830 00:34:52,826 --> 00:34:54,227 And they said I [bleep] killed him. 831 00:35:01,368 --> 00:35:04,237 [upbeat music] 832 00:35:04,304 --> 00:35:11,545 ♪♪ ♪♪ 833 00:35:11,612 --> 00:35:13,447 - Hey, ladies! 834 00:35:13,513 --> 00:35:15,382 Woo, woo! 835 00:35:15,449 --> 00:35:17,685 - ♪♪ We're good to go ♪♪ 836 00:35:17,751 --> 00:35:20,421 ♪♪ Going to get some hustle till dawn ♪♪ 837 00:35:20,487 --> 00:35:21,989 ♪♪ Next day, dawn, I'm poor ♪♪ 838 00:35:22,056 --> 00:35:22,990 - How you doing? 839 00:35:23,057 --> 00:35:23,991 - I'm doing good. 840 00:35:24,058 --> 00:35:24,992 How are you? 841 00:35:25,059 --> 00:35:25,992 - I'm doing good. 842 00:35:26,059 --> 00:35:26,994 AJ? 843 00:35:27,060 --> 00:35:28,028 - Yes. 844 00:35:28,095 --> 00:35:29,063 - He is sweating. 845 00:35:29,129 --> 00:35:30,097 - Bro. 846 00:35:30,164 --> 00:35:31,465 That's nerve sweat. 847 00:35:31,532 --> 00:35:33,166 - It's going to be a good time. Sarasota? 848 00:35:33,233 --> 00:35:34,401 - Sarasota. Yes, yes. 849 00:35:34,467 --> 00:35:36,270 The Keys. 850 00:35:36,336 --> 00:35:38,539 - OK, I am with my sisters. 851 00:35:38,605 --> 00:35:40,040 - Woo! 852 00:35:40,107 --> 00:35:43,143 - My daughter, my bestie, all from Oklahoma. 853 00:35:43,210 --> 00:35:44,478 We're in Florida. 854 00:35:44,545 --> 00:35:46,280 Whitney, the photographer, she's 855 00:35:46,347 --> 00:35:48,615 going to do a sister photoshoot with us on the beach. 856 00:35:48,682 --> 00:35:51,585 [upbeat music] 857 00:35:51,652 --> 00:35:54,254 ♪♪ ♪♪ 858 00:35:54,321 --> 00:35:57,458 - Guys, I haven't felt this nervous in a long while. 859 00:35:57,524 --> 00:35:58,626 - This is nice temperature. 860 00:35:58,693 --> 00:36:00,193 - So great. 861 00:36:00,260 --> 00:36:01,295 - They're going to be coming around that corner 862 00:36:01,361 --> 00:36:02,963 here in just a minute. 863 00:36:03,030 --> 00:36:06,300 - I'm just so happy that I'm here with, like, you guys. 864 00:36:06,366 --> 00:36:07,768 - Look how pink we are, you guys. 865 00:36:07,834 --> 00:36:09,303 - We are. We're peachy. 866 00:36:09,369 --> 00:36:11,305 - Oh my gosh, they're close. 867 00:36:11,372 --> 00:36:12,806 - Go this way. 868 00:36:19,146 --> 00:36:22,082 [gentle music] 869 00:36:22,149 --> 00:36:23,884 ♪♪ ♪♪ 870 00:36:23,951 --> 00:36:25,152 - Whew. 871 00:36:25,219 --> 00:36:31,658 ♪♪ ♪♪ 872 00:36:31,725 --> 00:36:33,794 - Hey, shorty. 873 00:36:33,861 --> 00:36:40,734 ♪♪ ♪♪ 874 00:36:40,800 --> 00:36:42,970 - ♪♪ Yeah, we've been through it ♪♪ 875 00:36:43,037 --> 00:36:44,705 ♪♪ Through the thick and thin ♪♪ 876 00:36:44,772 --> 00:36:45,806 - Whew. 877 00:36:45,872 --> 00:36:48,308 - ♪♪ Now stronger than ever ♪♪ 878 00:36:48,375 --> 00:36:50,143 ♪♪ Heaven giving in ♪♪ 879 00:36:50,210 --> 00:36:52,412 ♪♪ ♪♪ 880 00:36:52,479 --> 00:36:54,047 - Give me your hand. 881 00:36:54,114 --> 00:36:56,716 ♪♪ ♪♪ 882 00:36:56,783 --> 00:36:58,452 I met you. 883 00:36:58,518 --> 00:37:01,422 And all I was talking about was Mackenzie. 884 00:37:01,488 --> 00:37:03,256 I don't know what happened. 885 00:37:03,323 --> 00:37:06,026 I don't know what you did. 886 00:37:06,092 --> 00:37:09,963 But you've made me extremely happy. 887 00:37:10,030 --> 00:37:14,401 And I hope that I make you as happy as you make me. 888 00:37:14,468 --> 00:37:18,138 And I do have something for you. 889 00:37:18,205 --> 00:37:20,540 ♪♪ ♪♪ 890 00:37:20,607 --> 00:37:25,779 Mackenzie, will you marry me? 891 00:37:25,846 --> 00:37:27,814 Yes? 892 00:37:27,881 --> 00:37:29,717 ♪♪ ♪♪ 893 00:37:29,783 --> 00:37:31,685 - ♪♪ Can I be closer to you ♪♪ 894 00:37:31,751 --> 00:37:32,686 - Woo! 895 00:37:32,752 --> 00:37:34,187 - Hey! 896 00:37:34,254 --> 00:37:38,158 - ♪♪ One last time ♪♪ 897 00:37:38,225 --> 00:37:41,228 - I feel on top of the world. 898 00:37:41,295 --> 00:37:42,830 I did it, Mom. 899 00:37:42,896 --> 00:37:45,298 I did it. 900 00:37:45,365 --> 00:37:46,933 I found love. 901 00:37:47,000 --> 00:37:49,036 And I found a true love. 902 00:37:49,103 --> 00:37:51,438 I get to marry my best friend. 903 00:37:51,505 --> 00:37:53,073 - Wait, he was your best friend? 904 00:37:53,140 --> 00:37:54,675 [laughter] 905 00:37:54,742 --> 00:37:58,546 ♪♪ Can I be closer to you ♪♪ 906 00:37:58,612 --> 00:38:01,815 ♪♪ One last time ♪♪ 907 00:38:01,882 --> 00:38:04,785 [tense music] 908 00:38:04,852 --> 00:38:07,354 ♪♪ ♪♪ 909 00:38:07,420 --> 00:38:09,289 - This is [bleep] horrific. 910 00:38:09,356 --> 00:38:11,859 Like, I'm just done. 911 00:38:11,926 --> 00:38:14,161 So [bleep] done. 912 00:38:14,228 --> 00:38:16,163 ♪♪ ♪♪ 913 00:38:16,230 --> 00:38:18,799 I'm having a really bad episode. 914 00:38:18,866 --> 00:38:19,733 I'm so sorry. 915 00:38:19,799 --> 00:38:21,402 And I can't think straight. 916 00:38:21,469 --> 00:38:23,037 - Sit down. 917 00:38:23,103 --> 00:38:25,806 When you get stressed, you have a history of dissociating. 918 00:38:25,873 --> 00:38:27,140 - I need help right now. 919 00:38:27,207 --> 00:38:29,243 I need help, because Andrew didn't break me. 920 00:38:29,309 --> 00:38:30,243 Matt didn't break me. 921 00:38:30,310 --> 00:38:31,244 Nobody but this man. 922 00:38:31,311 --> 00:38:32,546 Why? 923 00:38:32,613 --> 00:38:34,114 Because this, this is not right. 924 00:38:34,181 --> 00:38:36,150 This is what I-- 925 00:38:36,216 --> 00:38:39,352 [sobs] 926 00:38:39,419 --> 00:38:43,223 If you want to show what heartbreak is, this is it. 927 00:38:43,290 --> 00:38:44,658 It's not just about a man. 928 00:38:44,724 --> 00:38:46,793 It's about we have something better 929 00:38:46,860 --> 00:38:51,198 than we both have even seen in our lives with other people. 930 00:38:51,264 --> 00:38:55,302 He looked at my family, my daughter, 931 00:38:55,369 --> 00:38:58,372 and just asked to be a big, happy family. 932 00:38:58,438 --> 00:39:00,007 - It's definitely a loss. 933 00:39:00,074 --> 00:39:06,613 ♪♪ ♪♪ 934 00:39:06,680 --> 00:39:08,849 - How many people have I lost in my life? 935 00:39:08,916 --> 00:39:16,056 ♪♪ ♪♪ 936 00:39:17,023 --> 00:39:18,893 - ♪♪ You're living in the past ♪♪ 937 00:39:18,959 --> 00:39:22,363 ♪♪ That time will not erase ♪♪ 938 00:39:22,429 --> 00:39:24,965 ♪♪ Hold on ♪♪ 939 00:39:25,031 --> 00:39:27,568 ♪♪ Stay strong ♪♪ 940 00:39:27,634 --> 00:39:29,636 ♪♪ We're never going to lose ourselves ♪♪ 941 00:39:29,703 --> 00:39:32,707 ♪♪ Never going to lose ourselves ♪♪ 942 00:39:32,773 --> 00:39:38,345 ♪♪ Just breath in together ♪♪ 943 00:39:38,412 --> 00:39:43,049 ♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪ 944 00:39:43,116 --> 00:39:48,589 ♪♪ When the waves are pulling you under ♪♪ 945 00:39:48,656 --> 00:39:53,927 ♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪ 946 00:39:53,994 --> 00:39:59,633 ♪♪ Even with the world on your shoulders ♪♪ 947 00:39:59,700 --> 00:40:01,535 ♪♪ Lies not so far ♪♪ 948 00:40:01,602 --> 00:40:04,771 ♪♪ As far as we can see ♪♪ 949 00:40:04,838 --> 00:40:09,943 ♪♪ Doing this whole, it's so close ♪♪ 950 00:40:10,010 --> 00:40:12,212 ♪♪ The burning in your heart ♪♪ 951 00:40:12,279 --> 00:40:15,482 ♪♪ Will set your spirit free ♪♪ 952 00:40:15,549 --> 00:40:21,054 ♪♪ So keep holding on ♪♪ 953 00:40:21,121 --> 00:40:25,625 ♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪ 954 00:40:25,692 --> 00:40:31,198 ♪♪ When the waves are pulling you under ♪♪ 955 00:40:31,265 --> 00:40:36,570 ♪♪ Keep holding on ♪♪ 956 00:40:36,637 --> 00:40:41,641 ♪♪ Even with the world on your shoulders ♪♪