1 00:00:42,459 --> 00:00:44,419 [Gomez groans, inhales] 2 00:00:46,004 --> 00:00:47,673 [friend] How are you feeling? 3 00:00:48,340 --> 00:00:51,051 [Gomez] I'm very tired. 4 00:00:52,344 --> 00:00:54,179 [friend] Do you want to do your morning meds? 5 00:00:54,263 --> 00:00:55,597 [Gomez] Mmm. 6 00:00:55,681 --> 00:00:59,351 [friend] I know the answer, but… you should. 7 00:01:01,562 --> 00:01:04,565 -[camera shutters clicking] -[paparazzi chatter] Morning, Selena. 8 00:01:08,068 --> 00:01:09,570 [Gomez] Let me make a promise. 9 00:01:11,280 --> 00:01:13,615 I'll only tell you my darkest secrets. 10 00:01:19,454 --> 00:01:20,789 December 19. 11 00:01:22,875 --> 00:01:24,960 I have to stop living like this. 12 00:01:27,421 --> 00:01:29,798 Why have I become so far from the light? 13 00:01:33,594 --> 00:01:38,473 Everything I ever wished for, I've had and done all of it… 14 00:01:44,855 --> 00:01:46,273 but it has killed me. 15 00:01:49,359 --> 00:01:52,112 Because there's always Selena. 16 00:01:52,196 --> 00:01:54,740 -[reporters shouting] Selena! -[fans cheering] 17 00:01:56,408 --> 00:01:57,701 [crowd screaming] 18 00:02:07,794 --> 00:02:10,005 [TV reporter 1] Selena Gomez, the lead single, "Good For You," 19 00:02:10,088 --> 00:02:11,548 was a critical and commercial success. 20 00:02:11,632 --> 00:02:14,301 [TV reporter 2] …recently dubbed the queen of the social networking app. 21 00:02:14,384 --> 00:02:15,636 Hello, Howard. 22 00:02:15,719 --> 00:02:17,346 [TV reporter 3] Selena Gomez and Justin Bieber 23 00:02:17,429 --> 00:02:19,348 -have finally called it quits. -[TV reporter 4] Again? 24 00:02:19,431 --> 00:02:20,849 Really? I don't feel like a rock star. 25 00:02:20,933 --> 00:02:23,060 -[Jimmy Fallon] And this album, Revival… -[audience cheering] 26 00:02:23,143 --> 00:02:26,271 …people are saying that it-- it's going to be number one, 27 00:02:26,355 --> 00:02:28,482 and the tour starts up soon, right? In May? 28 00:02:28,565 --> 00:02:30,108 [Gomez] I'll be touring in May. 29 00:02:31,360 --> 00:02:34,112 Oh, I'm actually at the LA Sports Arena. 30 00:02:34,196 --> 00:02:40,911 Um, we have two days till I leave and the tour starts. 31 00:02:40,994 --> 00:02:45,040 I have my hair and makeup team with me, so we're trying new things every day. 32 00:02:45,123 --> 00:02:47,918 And we're doing tests and figuring out what-- You know, 33 00:02:48,001 --> 00:02:50,671 what we're going to do for the show. The identity of the show. 34 00:02:50,754 --> 00:02:53,090 -[Gomez] Do we like this? -[chattering] 35 00:02:53,173 --> 00:02:55,342 'Cause you see through the mirror with the white? 36 00:02:57,719 --> 00:02:59,304 I think it's just the sequins. [chuckles] 37 00:02:59,388 --> 00:03:02,391 Let me take-- I'll take a little bit from the center. Right. 38 00:03:02,474 --> 00:03:04,434 They even have those little vagina things? 39 00:03:04,518 --> 00:03:06,812 -[stylist 1] Okay. Yeah. -Maybe those flattened ones. 40 00:03:06,895 --> 00:03:09,356 -I don't know. Just got weird. -[stylist chuckles] 41 00:03:10,148 --> 00:03:13,944 If I was a guy, I could wear jeans and just switch up my T-shirt 42 00:03:14,027 --> 00:03:15,946 -and put a beanie on… -[laughing] 43 00:03:16,029 --> 00:03:18,073 -…and nobody would care. -[dress zipping] 44 00:03:18,907 --> 00:03:20,742 Actually, I think the breasts are good. 45 00:03:22,035 --> 00:03:23,328 -I don't know. -[designer] You like it? 46 00:03:23,412 --> 00:03:25,247 -I do need a little breast. -So formal, "the breasts." 47 00:03:25,330 --> 00:03:26,331 [Gomez] It's my vagina… 48 00:03:26,415 --> 00:03:28,876 -[stylist 1] No, it's not. It's just-- -…in every freaking costume. 49 00:03:28,959 --> 00:03:29,877 -It's not you… -It's-- 50 00:03:29,960 --> 00:03:32,671 -…I'm just making fun of myself. -[stylist 2] Wait. Come and look here. 51 00:03:32,754 --> 00:03:35,382 -[stylist 3] It's not you, it's my vagina. -Literally. It's my vagina. 52 00:03:36,133 --> 00:03:41,221 I wanna have the body to wear it proudly, and I want the booty that I don't have. 53 00:03:41,305 --> 00:03:43,265 -My body's very young. -[fashion team member] Yeah. 54 00:03:43,348 --> 00:03:46,351 -I don't wanna be like, "Oh, wait." -[crew chattering] 55 00:03:46,435 --> 00:03:50,397 Making sure I look like a woman and not like a twelve-year-old boy. 56 00:03:50,898 --> 00:03:53,901 ["Who Says" playing on piano] 57 00:03:57,613 --> 00:03:59,740 ♪ I wouldn't wanna be anybody else ♪ 58 00:04:00,866 --> 00:04:01,992 ♪ Yeah ♪ 59 00:04:04,203 --> 00:04:06,538 ♪ You made me insecure ♪ 60 00:04:06,622 --> 00:04:08,957 ♪ Told me I wasn't good enough ♪ 61 00:04:09,041 --> 00:04:13,712 ♪ But who are you to judge When you're a diamond in the rough? ♪ 62 00:04:13,795 --> 00:04:18,466 ♪ I'm sure you got some things You'd like to change about yourself ♪ 63 00:04:18,550 --> 00:04:23,430 ♪ But when it comes to me I wouldn't wanna be anybody else ♪ 64 00:04:23,514 --> 00:04:25,057 ♪ Na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na, Na-na-na-na-na ♪ 65 00:04:25,140 --> 00:04:27,559 ♪ Na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na, Na-na-na-na-na ♪ 66 00:04:27,643 --> 00:04:32,356 ♪ I'm no beauty queen, I'm just beautiful me ♪ 67 00:04:32,439 --> 00:04:34,816 ♪ Na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na Na-na-na-na-na ♪ 68 00:04:34,900 --> 00:04:36,985 ♪ Na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na Na-na-na-na-na ♪ 69 00:04:37,069 --> 00:04:41,323 ♪ And you've got every right To a beautiful life ♪ 70 00:04:41,406 --> 00:04:42,950 ♪ Come on Who says? ♪ 71 00:04:43,033 --> 00:04:47,871 ♪ Who says you're not perfect? Who says you're not worth it? ♪ 72 00:04:47,955 --> 00:04:51,166 ♪ Who says You're the only one that's hurtin'? ♪ 73 00:04:51,250 --> 00:04:54,670 ♪ Trust me That's the price of beauty ♪ 74 00:04:54,753 --> 00:04:57,381 ♪ Who says you're not pretty? ♪ 75 00:04:57,464 --> 00:05:00,092 ♪ Who says you're not beautiful? ♪ 76 00:05:00,175 --> 00:05:02,761 ♪ Who says? ♪ 77 00:05:04,012 --> 00:05:07,182 [vocalizes] 78 00:05:08,851 --> 00:05:12,729 ♪ The dress is too long ♪ 79 00:05:13,230 --> 00:05:16,733 ♪ And I hate how it opens up ♪ 80 00:05:21,989 --> 00:05:23,323 It just sucks. 81 00:05:24,533 --> 00:05:28,245 -[friend 1] What's wrong? -All of it. It looks so bad. 82 00:05:28,328 --> 00:05:29,663 [Gomez sobs] I'm just like-- 83 00:05:30,163 --> 00:05:33,083 I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing. [sniffles] 84 00:05:33,166 --> 00:05:36,670 -[friend 2] What part did you feel that? -Uh, from the beginning. [sniffles] 85 00:05:36,753 --> 00:05:41,175 So I get the voice that comes in my head that says that you missed this. 86 00:05:41,258 --> 00:05:42,801 That sucked. That suck. 87 00:05:42,885 --> 00:05:44,595 Oh, you get a glimpse of yourself on the screen. 88 00:05:44,678 --> 00:05:46,889 Wow, that looks pretty fucking shitty. 89 00:05:46,972 --> 00:05:50,225 And then I'm sitting there and I trip over the co-- clothes 90 00:05:50,309 --> 00:05:51,727 and, like, this is just-- 91 00:05:51,810 --> 00:05:53,645 -Like, it sucks the life out of me… -[friend 2] Yeah. 92 00:05:53,729 --> 00:05:55,606 …and I don't want to perform. [sniffles] 93 00:05:55,689 --> 00:06:00,652 The pressure is just overwhelming because I wanna do the best I can 94 00:06:00,736 --> 00:06:04,031 and I-- and I'm not-- I don't-- [sniffles] 95 00:06:04,114 --> 00:06:05,490 I don't know what John thinks. 96 00:06:05,574 --> 00:06:09,661 I wanna talk to John 'cause I'm like-- I don't want to disappoint John. 97 00:06:09,745 --> 00:06:13,415 I don't want him to think that he signed some fucking Disney kid, like-- 98 00:06:13,498 --> 00:06:14,541 John was standing there, like, 99 00:06:14,625 --> 00:06:15,959 -smiling ear to ear. -John was excited. 100 00:06:16,043 --> 00:06:17,127 [friend 1] It is in your head. 101 00:06:17,211 --> 00:06:20,672 It just sucks too, 'cause, like, the whole song thing. 102 00:06:20,756 --> 00:06:23,800 He called me this morning about the song with Justin, 103 00:06:23,884 --> 00:06:25,969 -and I was like… -[friend 1] The DJ thing, hmm? 104 00:06:26,053 --> 00:06:28,931 "Like, when am I gonna just be good enough by myself?" 105 00:06:29,014 --> 00:06:32,017 -[manager] Just don't worry about that. -Like, when am I gonna be-- like-- 106 00:06:32,643 --> 00:06:35,437 When am I gonna be good just by myself? 107 00:06:35,521 --> 00:06:38,482 Not needing anybody to be associated with. 108 00:06:38,565 --> 00:06:40,484 -Like, it's so fu-- -[manager] You already are. 109 00:06:40,567 --> 00:06:41,652 [friend 1] Hi, John. 110 00:06:42,569 --> 00:06:45,781 -I'm so sorry. -[Janick] What are you sorry about? 111 00:06:45,864 --> 00:06:48,575 I just, like, I-I don't want you to ever regret signing me… 112 00:06:48,659 --> 00:06:51,245 -What? -…or feeling like you need something-- 113 00:06:51,328 --> 00:06:54,164 -You were amazing. -We were both standing next to you. 114 00:06:54,248 --> 00:06:56,583 The costume looked bad. Everything looked so bad. 115 00:06:56,667 --> 00:06:58,627 You were amazing. I thought it was awesome. 116 00:06:58,710 --> 00:07:01,255 Can I have a hug? I'll give you a hug. [chuckles] 117 00:07:01,338 --> 00:07:03,257 I thought you were amazing. It was so good. 118 00:07:03,340 --> 00:07:05,509 -[friend 2] Really. -"Me and My Girls" was crazy. Like the-- 119 00:07:05,592 --> 00:07:08,136 [friend 1] That's it. John was standing there like this. John was like-- 120 00:07:08,220 --> 00:07:09,972 I was rocking out to it. It was awesome. 121 00:07:10,055 --> 00:07:11,557 [Gomez] Does it feel young? 122 00:07:11,640 --> 00:07:13,058 -It doesn't feel young. -[friend 2] No. 123 00:07:13,141 --> 00:07:17,104 I do-- I w-want nothing more than to not be my past. 124 00:07:17,187 --> 00:07:18,772 And it comes back. 125 00:07:18,856 --> 00:07:20,524 You're your own worst enemy right now. 126 00:07:20,607 --> 00:07:25,279 When you get all into your head and it's, like, you can't let it spiral you. 127 00:07:25,362 --> 00:07:26,697 -Costumes can change. -[friend 1] Yeah. 128 00:07:26,780 --> 00:07:28,240 Lights can change. Sets can change. 129 00:07:28,323 --> 00:07:30,659 You wanna get rid of the stage, you can perform on the floor. 130 00:07:30,742 --> 00:07:33,412 What people like and don't like doesn't matter. You have to like it. 131 00:07:33,495 --> 00:07:35,372 You have to feel good about it. It's your show. 132 00:07:36,081 --> 00:07:37,958 Don't beat yourself up over it. It's gonna be great. 133 00:07:39,501 --> 00:07:41,461 -John, thank you. -It's great seeing you. 134 00:07:41,545 --> 00:07:43,672 -Sorry. Thank you. Sorry. -I'll see you soon. 135 00:07:43,755 --> 00:07:45,966 Thank you. No. It really is great. 136 00:07:46,466 --> 00:07:47,551 Thank you. 137 00:07:50,637 --> 00:07:53,932 -[sniffling] -[friend 1] Aw. 138 00:08:01,565 --> 00:08:03,358 I'm sorry. [sobs] 139 00:08:07,154 --> 00:08:08,405 It's just too much. 140 00:08:18,874 --> 00:08:20,167 [team member] They're coming. 141 00:08:34,056 --> 00:08:35,557 [crowd chattering] 142 00:08:42,272 --> 00:08:43,690 -[Gomez] Theresa? -[assistant] Hey, girl. 143 00:08:43,774 --> 00:08:46,276 -Did you bring my blood pressure machine? -Yeah. It's right here. 144 00:08:46,360 --> 00:08:48,111 [assistant] This is for your lupus, right? 145 00:08:48,195 --> 00:08:49,196 Yep. 146 00:08:51,156 --> 00:08:53,742 -Now do I press it? Just start? -Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. 147 00:08:59,039 --> 00:09:00,499 -That's good, right? -Perfect. 148 00:09:00,999 --> 00:09:02,000 [assistant] How do you know? 149 00:09:02,084 --> 00:09:04,962 So, 109 over 78 is really good. 150 00:09:05,045 --> 00:09:10,050 The average, what you would probably have, is 120 over 78. 151 00:09:10,133 --> 00:09:11,760 But when my blood pressure is high, 152 00:09:11,844 --> 00:09:18,684 it's usually 150, 145 to the bottom number being a hundred, 153 00:09:18,767 --> 00:09:20,978 -which means I could have a stroke. -Whoa. 154 00:09:21,979 --> 00:09:23,313 [assistant] Got it. 155 00:09:23,397 --> 00:09:27,109 -So as long as it stays under 120-- -Should we keep this in here for tour? 156 00:09:27,818 --> 00:09:28,819 Like, in your little… 157 00:09:28,902 --> 00:09:30,737 -I mean, maybe on the bus. -Okay. 158 00:09:30,821 --> 00:09:32,865 It probably should be wherever we are, just in case. 159 00:09:33,657 --> 00:09:36,159 [manager] We have a gift for you, and then we're gonna leave you alone. 160 00:09:36,243 --> 00:09:38,245 -[chuckling] -Can you start with this? 161 00:09:38,328 --> 00:09:39,329 This is from me and Zack. 162 00:09:41,206 --> 00:09:44,459 This is something we've collected for you, for tour. 163 00:09:44,543 --> 00:09:45,961 [Gomez] What is this? 164 00:09:46,044 --> 00:09:50,257 Every day, it's a good luck charm word for that night 165 00:09:50,340 --> 00:09:51,758 and that you're going to be thinking of… 166 00:09:51,842 --> 00:09:53,385 [Morgenroth] You put it on your makeup table. 167 00:09:53,468 --> 00:09:56,054 …for you. And every show is a different one. 168 00:09:56,138 --> 00:09:58,599 -That's so kind. -[Gomez] Oh, my gosh. 169 00:09:58,682 --> 00:10:00,309 -So, look at these. -[team member] So sweet. 170 00:10:00,392 --> 00:10:01,810 It kind of made us cry. 171 00:10:02,978 --> 00:10:04,605 Every day you'll choose one. 172 00:10:04,688 --> 00:10:06,732 -That is so beautiful. -Isn't that cool? 173 00:10:06,815 --> 00:10:08,859 -Thank you so much. -We love you so much. 174 00:10:09,735 --> 00:10:11,111 [Keshishian] So, my question to you is, 175 00:10:11,195 --> 00:10:14,072 do you feel like you have too many meet and greets? 176 00:10:14,156 --> 00:10:16,658 They have about an hour and a half scheduled. 177 00:10:16,742 --> 00:10:18,160 I don't think it will take that long. 178 00:10:18,243 --> 00:10:20,245 -What do you think? -Sometimes they milk it. 179 00:10:20,329 --> 00:10:23,290 -It's my birthday. -It is? Happy birthday. 180 00:10:23,373 --> 00:10:24,499 -Thank you. -How old are you? 181 00:10:24,583 --> 00:10:26,919 -I'm 13. -Oh, Mylanta. 182 00:10:27,002 --> 00:10:29,963 I've been celebrating your birthday every year since I was three. 183 00:10:30,047 --> 00:10:31,048 -My birthday? -I've had bi-- 184 00:10:31,131 --> 00:10:33,926 I have birthday parties, cakes, playlists, everything. 185 00:10:34,009 --> 00:10:36,845 -You're so sweet. Thank you. -[photographer] Can we get a picture? 186 00:10:36,929 --> 00:10:37,930 -There we go. -So exci-- 187 00:10:38,013 --> 00:10:39,598 -[photographer] Three, two. -Yes. Let's do it. 188 00:10:40,849 --> 00:10:42,392 -So pretty. -[parent] Hey, don't cry. 189 00:10:42,893 --> 00:10:45,521 [photographer] Aw. Got it. 190 00:10:45,604 --> 00:10:47,731 And can you put, "Bae number one," right there? 191 00:10:47,814 --> 00:10:50,943 -Okay. -[laughing] 192 00:10:51,026 --> 00:10:52,986 [Gomez chuckles] 193 00:10:53,070 --> 00:10:55,155 Yeah. I got, like, different girls. 194 00:10:55,239 --> 00:10:58,075 -[laughs] -I'm a-- 195 00:10:58,158 --> 00:10:59,535 I could be number one? 196 00:10:59,618 --> 00:11:01,954 -Yeah. -Yeah, okay. 197 00:11:02,037 --> 00:11:05,207 -[chattering] -[piano playing] 198 00:11:05,290 --> 00:11:08,252 [team member] These two have heard some really inappropriate things. 199 00:11:09,378 --> 00:11:14,424 ♪ …was Hallelujah Hallelu-- ♪ 200 00:11:14,508 --> 00:11:17,386 Thank you guys so much for how hard all of you worked. 201 00:11:17,469 --> 00:11:21,306 It means more to me than you can even imagine. 202 00:11:21,390 --> 00:11:23,600 This is the most important tour I've ever done, 203 00:11:23,684 --> 00:11:25,978 which is why I've been a mess every day, so that you know. 204 00:11:26,061 --> 00:11:29,690 I hope we just go out there, inspire people, have so much fun. 205 00:11:29,773 --> 00:11:33,735 And bless our feet, our hands, our instruments, everything. 206 00:11:33,819 --> 00:11:35,654 Our lights, Baz, Melissa, everyone. 207 00:11:35,737 --> 00:11:38,490 -I love you guys. In Jesus's name. Amen. -[tour team] Amen! 208 00:11:38,574 --> 00:11:41,076 [crowd cheering] 209 00:11:41,159 --> 00:11:42,703 ["Me and the Rhythm" playing] 210 00:11:46,915 --> 00:11:49,793 ♪ Ooh, the heat's a common ground ♪ 211 00:11:49,877 --> 00:11:53,505 ♪ No matter what's your history ♪ 212 00:11:53,589 --> 00:11:56,049 ♪ Be free with me, oh ♪ 213 00:11:56,133 --> 00:12:00,470 ♪ And everybody wants to be touched Everybody wants to get some ♪ 214 00:12:00,554 --> 00:12:03,056 ♪ But don't you play a song about love ♪ 215 00:12:03,724 --> 00:12:05,225 ♪ When I move my body ♪ 216 00:12:05,309 --> 00:12:07,352 ♪ I don't have to talk about none ♪ 217 00:12:07,436 --> 00:12:09,521 ♪ Let the chemicals do its stuff ♪ 218 00:12:09,605 --> 00:12:12,232 ♪ Till the energy is too much ♪ 219 00:12:12,316 --> 00:12:13,358 ♪ Oh ♪ 220 00:12:13,442 --> 00:12:17,946 ♪ Yeah, all I need ♪ 221 00:12:18,030 --> 00:12:20,157 ♪ Is the rhythm, oh oh ♪ 222 00:12:20,240 --> 00:12:21,867 ♪ Me and the rhythm ♪ 223 00:12:21,950 --> 00:12:27,080 ♪ Oh oh, nothing between ♪ 224 00:12:27,164 --> 00:12:29,291 ♪ Yeah, the rhythm, oh oh ♪ 225 00:12:29,374 --> 00:12:31,960 ♪ Me and the rhythm, oh oh ♪ 226 00:12:32,044 --> 00:12:34,004 [crowd] ♪ Who said, who said? ♪ 227 00:12:34,087 --> 00:12:36,590 ♪ Would you tell me who said that? ♪ 228 00:12:36,673 --> 00:12:39,051 ♪ Yeah, who said? ♪ 229 00:12:39,134 --> 00:12:42,596 ♪ Who says? Who says you're not perfect? ♪ 230 00:12:42,679 --> 00:12:45,098 ♪ Who says you're not worth it? ♪ 231 00:12:45,182 --> 00:12:48,310 ♪ Who says You're the only one that's hurtin'? ♪ 232 00:12:48,393 --> 00:12:51,772 ♪ Trust me, that's the price of beauty ♪ 233 00:12:51,855 --> 00:12:54,608 ♪ Who says you're not pretty? ♪ 234 00:12:54,691 --> 00:12:57,236 ♪ Who says you're not beautiful? ♪ 235 00:12:57,319 --> 00:12:59,321 [crowd, Gomez] ♪ Who says? ♪ 236 00:12:59,404 --> 00:13:02,366 -[crowd cheering] -Fuck. 237 00:13:04,117 --> 00:13:05,118 -[shutters clicking] -[fan] Hey, Selena! 238 00:13:05,202 --> 00:13:07,454 -We're by Big Ben. What's up? Whoo! -[laughing] 239 00:13:07,538 --> 00:13:08,872 ["Me and My Girls" playing] 240 00:13:08,956 --> 00:13:11,834 ♪ Me and my girls, me and my girls ♪ 241 00:13:11,917 --> 00:13:16,922 ♪ Me and my, me and my Me and my, me and my girls ♪ 242 00:13:17,005 --> 00:13:19,800 [mariachi music playing] 243 00:13:19,883 --> 00:13:22,261 -["Me and My Girls" continues] -[chattering] 244 00:13:22,344 --> 00:13:24,721 [TV reporter 1] There were rumors that she had a drug problem-- 245 00:13:24,805 --> 00:13:27,391 [TV reporter 2] Selena parties too much. She's outta control. 246 00:13:27,474 --> 00:13:29,560 [crowd cheering] 247 00:13:29,643 --> 00:13:30,519 Let's go! 248 00:13:30,602 --> 00:13:33,188 -[crowd clamoring] -[engine revving] 249 00:13:33,272 --> 00:13:35,607 I am about to go onstage. 250 00:13:35,691 --> 00:13:36,733 -Wish me luck. -[cheering] 251 00:13:36,817 --> 00:13:37,901 ["Sober" playing] 252 00:13:37,985 --> 00:13:41,738 ♪ You don't know how to love me When you're sober ♪ 253 00:13:42,614 --> 00:13:45,409 ♪ When the bottle's done you pull me… ♪ 254 00:13:45,492 --> 00:13:46,410 [fan] Selena, I love you. 255 00:13:46,493 --> 00:13:48,537 [paparazzo] Did Justin Bieber make you go to rehab? 256 00:13:48,620 --> 00:13:50,205 [reporter] Justin has a new girlfriend. 257 00:13:50,289 --> 00:13:52,165 [paparazzo 2] Are you jealous, Selena? 258 00:13:52,249 --> 00:13:54,001 ♪ I'm so sick of that same old love ♪ 259 00:13:54,084 --> 00:13:55,460 Selena. Did you go back to drinking? 260 00:13:55,544 --> 00:13:58,172 -Selena. Where's the alcohol? -Did you start drinking again? 261 00:13:59,256 --> 00:14:01,049 -[Gomez] Sing it. -[clamoring] 262 00:14:01,133 --> 00:14:03,510 [crowd] ♪ I'm so sick of that same old love ♪ 263 00:14:03,594 --> 00:14:05,554 ♪ That shit, it tears me up ♪ 264 00:14:08,390 --> 00:14:09,850 -I was dying. -[team member] Yeah. 265 00:14:09,933 --> 00:14:11,977 [Gomez] What am I missing? Like, what do I need? 266 00:14:12,060 --> 00:14:13,812 [friend] Everyone was on their feet… 267 00:14:13,896 --> 00:14:16,857 Guys, there's too many people. I'm so sorry. Too many people. 268 00:14:16,940 --> 00:14:18,650 -[friend] Stop analyzing. -[Gomez] No. 269 00:14:18,734 --> 00:14:20,360 -[friend] Be happy. -I am happy. 270 00:14:21,403 --> 00:14:23,864 I hate it. [groans] 271 00:14:23,947 --> 00:14:24,990 [breathing deeply] 272 00:14:25,949 --> 00:14:28,076 It's just hard being a fucking girl 273 00:14:28,160 --> 00:14:29,369 and being crazy already. 274 00:14:29,453 --> 00:14:30,996 That's another thing that pissed me off. 275 00:14:31,079 --> 00:14:32,331 I'm doing the quick change, 276 00:14:32,414 --> 00:14:35,167 then rip goes one sleeve, and then rip goes the other one, 277 00:14:35,250 --> 00:14:37,544 and then all my entire bottom half ripped. 278 00:14:37,628 --> 00:14:41,006 ♪ Oh, that… ♪ 279 00:14:41,089 --> 00:14:42,382 [reporter] How are you feeling about Justin? 280 00:14:42,466 --> 00:14:43,717 [reporter 2] Are you depressed? 281 00:14:43,800 --> 00:14:45,761 -[reporter 3] Are you tired? -[reporter 4] She's always tired. 282 00:14:48,388 --> 00:14:50,015 [paparazzi clamoring] 283 00:14:55,562 --> 00:15:01,026 Sometimes I-- I wake up, and I don't really feel like I have it in me. 284 00:15:12,788 --> 00:15:14,498 [reporter] Selena is now on break, 285 00:15:14,581 --> 00:15:17,334 dealing with anxiety, panic attacks, and depression. 286 00:15:17,417 --> 00:15:19,628 [reporter 2] There were rumors that she had a drug problem. 287 00:15:19,711 --> 00:15:21,964 [reporter 3] Letting the high life of celebrity and partying 288 00:15:22,047 --> 00:15:24,341 get the best of her and her career. 289 00:15:25,843 --> 00:15:29,179 [assistant] At one point, she's like, "I don't wanna be alive right now. 290 00:15:29,763 --> 00:15:30,764 I don't wanna live." 291 00:15:30,848 --> 00:15:33,934 And I'm like, "Wait. What?" 292 00:15:35,018 --> 00:15:36,144 And it was one of those moments 293 00:15:36,228 --> 00:15:38,230 where you look in her eyes and there's nothing there. 294 00:15:38,313 --> 00:15:41,817 It was just pitch black, and it's so scary. 295 00:15:42,317 --> 00:15:43,694 You're like, "Okay, fuck this. 296 00:15:43,777 --> 00:15:46,405 Like, this needs to end, like, we need to go home." 297 00:15:46,488 --> 00:15:49,408 We had to have a serious conversation with her of, like, 298 00:15:49,491 --> 00:15:50,909 "What is going on?" 299 00:15:50,993 --> 00:15:55,205 Her answer was also like, "I don't know. I can't explain it. 300 00:15:55,831 --> 00:15:59,042 I wish you could feel what it feels like to be in my head." 301 00:15:59,918 --> 00:16:03,922 I just remember it being very chaotic and she was hearing all of these voices. 302 00:16:04,590 --> 00:16:07,342 They just kept getting louder and louder and louder. 303 00:16:07,843 --> 00:16:10,637 That triggered some sort of psychotic break. 304 00:16:11,597 --> 00:16:15,934 Selena Gomez has been in dire straits, uh, for a couple of weeks now. 305 00:16:16,018 --> 00:16:20,272 Last year, she was battling lupus, and the kidney transplant saved her life. 306 00:16:20,355 --> 00:16:21,356 As a result of that, 307 00:16:21,440 --> 00:16:25,319 she had a very low white blood cell count in the last week of September. 308 00:16:25,402 --> 00:16:29,323 Purely a medical situation, but it turned into an emotional breakdown. 309 00:16:29,406 --> 00:16:31,825 [reporter 2] She was trying to rip her IVs out. 310 00:16:31,909 --> 00:16:35,162 And it was so bad, they ended up taking her to a psychiatric hospital. 311 00:16:36,246 --> 00:16:41,126 We heard about her mental breakdown through TMZ. 312 00:16:41,210 --> 00:16:43,712 They called me and wanted to know 313 00:16:43,795 --> 00:16:48,509 what my daughter was doing in the hospital with a nervous breakdown. 314 00:16:48,592 --> 00:16:51,345 She didn't want anything to do with me, 315 00:16:51,428 --> 00:16:56,225 and I was scared she was gonna die. 316 00:16:57,434 --> 00:16:59,520 [Stevens] If anybody saw what I saw 317 00:16:59,603 --> 00:17:02,064 and the state that she was in at the mental hospital, 318 00:17:02,147 --> 00:17:05,526 they wouldn't have recognized her at all. 319 00:17:06,026 --> 00:17:07,986 And I was devastated 320 00:17:08,069 --> 00:17:12,406 because psychosis can last from days, to weeks, to months, 321 00:17:12,491 --> 00:17:14,409 to years, to life. 322 00:17:17,371 --> 00:17:21,791 You hang on as tight as you can and try to help them with their treatment, 323 00:17:21,875 --> 00:17:24,545 and that's the hardest thing to do, 324 00:17:25,295 --> 00:17:29,550 to then just go to bed and hope that they wake up the next day. 325 00:17:37,266 --> 00:17:39,852 [Gomez] My thoughts take over my mind often. 326 00:17:41,436 --> 00:17:43,730 It hurts when I think about my past. 327 00:17:47,734 --> 00:17:49,778 I wanna know how to breathe again. 328 00:17:51,905 --> 00:17:53,490 Do I love my own self? 329 00:17:55,617 --> 00:17:58,453 How do I learn how to breathe my own breath? 330 00:17:59,371 --> 00:18:00,372 [breathes deeply] 331 00:18:02,958 --> 00:18:04,960 [Teefey] It's a miracle she got out… 332 00:18:05,878 --> 00:18:09,798 [voice breaking] …but there's always that fear that that's gonna happen again, 333 00:18:09,882 --> 00:18:11,550 and it hurt us so much. 334 00:18:22,436 --> 00:18:26,398 [Gomez] I found out I have a diagnosis of bipolar disorder. 335 00:18:29,651 --> 00:18:30,903 I'm gonna be honest, 336 00:18:30,986 --> 00:18:33,322 I didn't wanna go to a mental health hospital. 337 00:18:33,405 --> 00:18:34,531 I didn't want to, 338 00:18:35,115 --> 00:18:40,704 but I didn't want to be trapped in myself-- In my mind anymore. 339 00:18:41,371 --> 00:18:44,625 I thought my life was over. I was like, "This is how I'm gonna be forever." 340 00:18:46,752 --> 00:18:50,923 That's why I say to people that I have the greatest friends and family, 341 00:18:52,132 --> 00:18:54,635 especially my mom and my stepdad, Brian. 342 00:18:55,302 --> 00:19:00,807 Because I shouldn't have spoken to them the way that I did, 343 00:19:00,891 --> 00:19:04,478 and I shouldn't have treated them the way that I did sometimes. [sniffling] 344 00:19:05,229 --> 00:19:06,813 And then they know it wasn't me, 345 00:19:06,897 --> 00:19:09,274 so then when I wake up the next day, they're like-- 346 00:19:10,400 --> 00:19:13,654 [stammers] They tell me what happened, but they're-- They explain to me-- 347 00:19:13,737 --> 00:19:17,157 They're like, "Look, we know that that's not you talking, 348 00:19:17,241 --> 00:19:22,788 and we're really concerned, and-- You know, just know that we love you. 349 00:19:22,871 --> 00:19:28,168 We don't see anything different from what was-- Last night to now." 350 00:19:29,753 --> 00:19:31,296 But if I talk about it to them, 351 00:19:31,380 --> 00:19:33,799 then I just say it over and over again, you know? 352 00:19:33,882 --> 00:19:35,300 I say, "I'm so sorry." 353 00:19:36,301 --> 00:19:38,637 'Cause I remember certain things that I did 354 00:19:38,720 --> 00:19:41,557 and I was really so mean. 355 00:19:42,140 --> 00:19:46,186 And so, like-- Even to this day, I keep saying "Thank you," and "I'm sorry," 356 00:19:46,270 --> 00:19:47,604 and everything that I do-- 357 00:19:47,688 --> 00:19:51,650 And they are always like, "Once we found out everything, 358 00:19:51,733 --> 00:19:53,443 it made so much sense, Selena. 359 00:19:53,527 --> 00:19:56,321 Like, you're the best that you've ever been, 360 00:19:56,405 --> 00:20:02,995 and we're so happy that we can see that, and we never, ever would give up on you." 361 00:20:03,787 --> 00:20:09,918 And they haven't when, in so many times, they probably should have. 362 00:20:14,548 --> 00:20:17,759 [stammers] I'm in a better place, but… 363 00:20:18,760 --> 00:20:20,762 [sighs] I don't know. 364 00:20:21,430 --> 00:20:24,057 I guess sometimes I can't explain it, for sure. 365 00:20:26,018 --> 00:20:28,020 [piano playing] 366 00:20:34,860 --> 00:20:36,445 -[playing off-key] -No. 367 00:20:39,615 --> 00:20:40,866 Totally lost. 368 00:20:43,827 --> 00:20:45,370 When I first got out, 369 00:20:45,454 --> 00:20:48,040 I didn't know how I'd cope with my diagnosis. 370 00:20:48,790 --> 00:20:50,542 What if it happened again? 371 00:20:51,543 --> 00:20:53,837 What if the next time I didn't come back? 372 00:20:55,005 --> 00:20:57,007 I needed to keep learning about it. 373 00:20:57,799 --> 00:20:59,718 I needed to take it day-by-day. 374 00:21:01,470 --> 00:21:04,681 When I was a kid, I was terrified of thunderstorms. 375 00:21:05,349 --> 00:21:06,808 I grew up in Texas, 376 00:21:06,892 --> 00:21:10,604 and I was so scared that lightning and thunder would mean a tornado was coming. 377 00:21:11,188 --> 00:21:13,440 But my mom gave me these books for kids 378 00:21:13,524 --> 00:21:16,276 that explained storms and lightning and thunder, 379 00:21:16,360 --> 00:21:18,737 and basically said, "The more you learn about it, 380 00:21:19,321 --> 00:21:21,156 the less you're going to be afraid of it." 381 00:21:21,240 --> 00:21:22,491 And it really helped. 382 00:21:25,577 --> 00:21:26,954 [toddler Gomez] I love you. 383 00:21:27,037 --> 00:21:29,623 -I love you. [kisses] -[chattering] 384 00:21:29,706 --> 00:21:33,001 [Gomez] You know, my mom was always teaching me not to be scared of life. 385 00:21:33,627 --> 00:21:37,631 -She's such a powerful spirit. -[Teefey] Your nose? Did you hit the door? 386 00:21:38,382 --> 00:21:40,801 [Gomez] She was so young, still in school, 387 00:21:40,884 --> 00:21:43,345 and eventually tried every job you could possibly imagine. 388 00:21:43,428 --> 00:21:44,429 [Teefey] Kiddo. 389 00:21:45,389 --> 00:21:48,225 She said, "This is what we're going through, but I'm not gonna stop. 390 00:21:49,017 --> 00:21:52,145 I'm not gonna give up. I'm gonna make my life better than this." 391 00:21:52,771 --> 00:21:55,065 [Teefey] Oh, here's one. "Stay at home. $145 a day. 392 00:21:55,148 --> 00:21:57,526 Processing mail for local company in your area." 393 00:21:58,151 --> 00:22:00,487 -Yeah. Hey, I could do that. -[babbles] 394 00:22:00,571 --> 00:22:01,655 [Gomez] You know, my mom-- 395 00:22:01,738 --> 00:22:03,866 She had me when she was still in high school. 396 00:22:03,949 --> 00:22:05,200 [babbling] 397 00:22:05,284 --> 00:22:06,910 Daddy? 398 00:22:06,994 --> 00:22:09,371 [Gomez] My parents were separated when I was five. 399 00:22:10,956 --> 00:22:14,209 My grandparents, my nana and papa, would look after me when my mom worked. 400 00:22:14,293 --> 00:22:15,878 …that song you were singing about grandpa? 401 00:22:15,961 --> 00:22:17,546 [singing indistinctly] 402 00:22:18,714 --> 00:22:20,883 [singing, babbling] 403 00:22:20,966 --> 00:22:22,426 [toddler Gomez] Hi, Daddy. 404 00:22:22,509 --> 00:22:25,721 [Gomez] I can't imagine the pressure for my dad. 405 00:22:25,804 --> 00:22:26,889 I see. 406 00:22:26,972 --> 00:22:28,557 [Gomez] He has a lot of regrets, 407 00:22:28,640 --> 00:22:31,185 and he would be like, "I'm sorry, mi hija. I just-- 408 00:22:31,268 --> 00:22:33,520 I don't know how to talk to you." [sniffles] 409 00:22:34,188 --> 00:22:36,440 But he made me feel 410 00:22:36,523 --> 00:22:41,445 like I was the, like, prettiest young girl. 411 00:22:42,654 --> 00:22:47,159 Like I could do anything, and no one was worthy, and, like-- [sniffles] 412 00:22:49,328 --> 00:22:51,747 So, I miss him a lot… 413 00:22:53,415 --> 00:22:56,418 but he knows that, so… 414 00:22:57,628 --> 00:23:00,672 Take a picture of her, and you're gonna take a picture of us, okay? 415 00:23:00,756 --> 00:23:03,008 -[Teefey] Well, get over there. -Hold on, I'm coming. 416 00:23:03,091 --> 00:23:04,843 I'm gonna take a picture. 417 00:23:05,552 --> 00:23:07,596 [both] Friends forever. 418 00:23:07,679 --> 00:23:09,223 [Teefey] Is that all y'all have got to say? 419 00:23:10,307 --> 00:23:11,642 Okay. [whispering] 420 00:23:12,309 --> 00:23:13,810 [Gomez] Priscilla is my cousin, 421 00:23:14,436 --> 00:23:17,856 probably the closest person to me in the world, except for my mom. 422 00:23:19,733 --> 00:23:21,610 We did everything together. 423 00:23:23,612 --> 00:23:24,947 [both chattering, laughing] 424 00:23:25,030 --> 00:23:27,783 To this day, she's my life. She's my blood. 425 00:23:27,866 --> 00:23:31,203 Actually we never did. So, we never went back to those. 426 00:23:31,745 --> 00:23:33,163 -[Teefey] Where are we going? -Just don't-- 427 00:23:33,247 --> 00:23:35,123 -Chicken Express, to get sweet tea. -[Teefey] Okay. 428 00:23:35,207 --> 00:23:37,042 [Cosme] If you like rolls, there's rolls. 429 00:23:37,125 --> 00:23:40,712 No, we're-- [chuckles] I just wanted sweet tea. 430 00:23:40,796 --> 00:23:43,674 -[Gomez] Wait, we're gonna do three. -[Cosme] Three, uh, large sweet teas-- 431 00:23:43,757 --> 00:23:45,884 -Extra ice in one of them. -[Gomez] Please, sir? 432 00:23:45,968 --> 00:23:46,927 [attendant] No problem. 433 00:23:47,010 --> 00:23:50,430 -You can't talk over me like that. -Well, you didn't say "please." 434 00:23:50,514 --> 00:23:52,015 I was getting there. 435 00:23:57,437 --> 00:23:59,356 [Gomez] Every time I've come home, 436 00:24:00,190 --> 00:24:04,194 I've always just gone to the places that I remember. 437 00:24:05,404 --> 00:24:08,365 It's because I don't want to lose that part of me. 438 00:24:08,448 --> 00:24:09,867 [doorbell rings] 439 00:24:09,950 --> 00:24:11,159 [friend] Do you even go here? 440 00:24:12,536 --> 00:24:15,205 -[doorbell rings] -[receptionist through speaker] Beep! 441 00:24:15,914 --> 00:24:17,541 -[receptionist chattering] -Hi-- 442 00:24:17,624 --> 00:24:20,377 I need to see your driver's license if you're coming in the building, please. 443 00:24:20,460 --> 00:24:22,629 -A driver's license? -Yeah. 444 00:24:22,713 --> 00:24:24,631 -Okay. -[friend] Here. Grab one. 445 00:24:24,715 --> 00:24:26,592 -For everybody that's out there. -Oh. 446 00:24:27,259 --> 00:24:29,052 [chuckles] I don't have one. 447 00:24:29,136 --> 00:24:32,431 Okay, never mind. [stammers] I used to go here when I was younger. 448 00:24:32,514 --> 00:24:36,852 Um, my name is Selena, so I didn't mean to bother you, but thank you. 449 00:24:36,935 --> 00:24:38,228 -You're welcome. -Bye. 450 00:24:38,312 --> 00:24:39,313 Okay, bye. 451 00:24:42,274 --> 00:24:43,275 [friend] She does. 452 00:24:43,817 --> 00:24:44,651 [registrar] Do you… 453 00:24:44,735 --> 00:24:46,528 Who all has a driver's license? 454 00:24:46,612 --> 00:24:47,738 -Everybody. -[friend] We have one. 455 00:24:47,821 --> 00:24:49,615 -[Mingus] She used to go here-- -I used to come here 456 00:24:49,698 --> 00:24:50,949 -and I wanted to see-- -[registrar] No worries. 457 00:24:51,033 --> 00:24:52,659 [Mingus] Are you a teacher here? 458 00:24:52,743 --> 00:24:54,369 -[stutters] I'm the registrar. -Oh, got it. 459 00:24:54,453 --> 00:24:56,288 Except-- Yeah, I work in the office. 460 00:24:56,371 --> 00:24:57,873 [office aides clamoring] 461 00:24:58,457 --> 00:24:59,458 [Gomez] Hi, guys. 462 00:25:01,043 --> 00:25:02,753 Everybody calm down. 463 00:25:02,836 --> 00:25:05,464 You're office aides? How old are you guys? 464 00:25:05,547 --> 00:25:06,673 [all] Thirteen. 465 00:25:07,174 --> 00:25:09,384 [Gomez] That's so nice. Do you know I went to school here? 466 00:25:09,468 --> 00:25:10,969 -[all] Yes. -[Gomez] You do? 467 00:25:11,053 --> 00:25:16,266 Okay. So I only had a crush on Dylan Alvarado, um-- 468 00:25:16,350 --> 00:25:17,809 Sammy in elementary. 469 00:25:17,893 --> 00:25:20,187 Okay. Elementary was Sammy Rodriguez. 470 00:25:21,063 --> 00:25:27,069 -Then it was Dylan Alvarado, Keith Maupin… -Keith. 471 00:25:28,529 --> 00:25:30,113 Eli was in there somewhere. 472 00:25:30,197 --> 00:25:33,408 Hmm. No, not necessarily. Really? 473 00:25:34,618 --> 00:25:36,328 -Yes. -Okay. 474 00:25:37,204 --> 00:25:39,122 And then Matthew from Danny Jones. 475 00:25:40,165 --> 00:25:41,166 That's it. 476 00:25:42,084 --> 00:25:43,961 Not one of them liked me back. 477 00:25:46,421 --> 00:25:50,342 -But again, like I said, they regret it. -Yeah, I was just saying. [chuckles] 478 00:25:51,677 --> 00:25:54,596 [Cosme] She was, I would say, like, an outcast, growing up, you know? 479 00:25:54,680 --> 00:25:57,724 Like, in school, she didn't really talk to many people. 480 00:25:57,808 --> 00:26:00,269 She had, like, her-- You know, little two or three friends, 481 00:26:00,352 --> 00:26:03,146 but not a lot of boyfriends, if you know what I mean. [chuckles] 482 00:26:03,814 --> 00:26:06,066 And so I would go in there to get my food, 483 00:26:06,149 --> 00:26:10,445 and I would sit, like, right here, at a long table. 484 00:26:11,864 --> 00:26:13,949 -But it was usually by myself. -[friend] No-- 485 00:26:14,032 --> 00:26:15,033 [students greeting] 486 00:26:15,117 --> 00:26:18,537 -Hi. My name is-- My name is Selena. -[student] I saw you earlier. 487 00:26:18,620 --> 00:26:20,330 Whatever you think you can't do, 488 00:26:20,414 --> 00:26:24,710 just know that there's no one that's gonna tell you no but yourself. 489 00:26:24,793 --> 00:26:27,004 You have to continue to do what you wanna do. 490 00:26:27,588 --> 00:26:29,506 -Now that is inspirational. -So-- Oh, I'm-- 491 00:26:29,590 --> 00:26:30,799 -Yeah? -Great. Great. 492 00:26:30,883 --> 00:26:34,469 -[students clapping] -So, kick ass, or-- Oh, I'm sorry. 493 00:26:34,553 --> 00:26:37,347 -[laughing, clamoring] -You gotta stay after school. 494 00:26:37,431 --> 00:26:40,601 Hello, students at Danny Jones Middle School. 495 00:26:40,684 --> 00:26:42,936 This is Selena Gomez talking to you. 496 00:26:43,770 --> 00:26:46,106 Thank you for letting me disrupt your classes. 497 00:26:46,190 --> 00:26:49,776 And just-- just a reminder, your teachers aren't that bad. 498 00:26:49,860 --> 00:26:52,863 You just gotta do the hard work. [chuckles] 499 00:26:52,946 --> 00:26:55,532 You have to hug him. He's gonna cry. 500 00:26:55,616 --> 00:26:57,868 -[student 1] Can I have an autograph? -He's such a big fan. 501 00:26:57,951 --> 00:26:59,494 [student 2] Oh, my God! 502 00:26:59,578 --> 00:27:00,579 You're welcome. 503 00:27:00,662 --> 00:27:02,748 -Can I have a hug, too? -[student 3] Can I have a hug? 504 00:27:02,831 --> 00:27:05,292 [students clamoring] 505 00:27:08,378 --> 00:27:10,797 -[Gomez] This is where… -[Mingus] I really don't know. 506 00:27:11,381 --> 00:27:12,382 …I grew up. 507 00:27:19,598 --> 00:27:21,225 That's my house. 508 00:27:21,308 --> 00:27:22,726 -[Mingus] It is? -[Gomez] Yeah. 509 00:27:24,520 --> 00:27:26,647 [Mingus] I bet your handprints are still there. 510 00:27:27,147 --> 00:27:28,690 This spot right here-- 511 00:27:28,774 --> 00:27:31,693 Poor neighbors, 'cause some guy would do drug deals, like, right there, 512 00:27:31,777 --> 00:27:34,905 and we would watch through those windows 'cause we weren't allowed outside. 513 00:27:34,988 --> 00:27:36,615 -I felt bad for those neighbors… -[Cosme] Yeah. 514 00:27:36,698 --> 00:27:38,492 …'cause he would pull up his car, it was an old car, 515 00:27:38,575 --> 00:27:39,952 there was a trunk, and… [clicks tongue] 516 00:27:40,953 --> 00:27:42,663 -This was the same door. -Oh. 517 00:27:43,914 --> 00:27:44,915 Hi. 518 00:27:49,545 --> 00:27:51,630 -[homeowner] Hi. [chuckles] -Hi, my name is Selena. 519 00:27:51,713 --> 00:27:52,965 -How are you? -How are you? 520 00:27:53,048 --> 00:27:54,842 -[homeowner] Good, good. Come on in. -Do you mind? 521 00:27:54,925 --> 00:27:55,968 -[homeowner] No. Please. -Okay. 522 00:27:56,468 --> 00:27:58,303 Oh, my gosh. 523 00:27:58,387 --> 00:28:00,347 Okay, this is where I used to, um, 524 00:28:00,931 --> 00:28:05,394 -descale fish, right here. -[Mingus] Descale fish. 525 00:28:05,477 --> 00:28:06,770 [Gomez] Yes. 526 00:28:08,313 --> 00:28:10,065 [Teefey] Selena, what's he doing? 527 00:28:10,148 --> 00:28:12,192 He's just cutting his blood out. 528 00:28:13,110 --> 00:28:16,363 -So this is my bedroom. -[homeowner] It's kinda messy, though. 529 00:28:16,446 --> 00:28:20,993 Do you mind if I see if I still have my drawings from this closet? 530 00:28:22,452 --> 00:28:24,079 Oh, they took it out. 531 00:28:24,162 --> 00:28:26,039 -[Cosme] It's gone? -Yeah. 532 00:28:27,207 --> 00:28:30,752 I used to have, like-- I had a crush on Cole and Dylan Sprouse, 533 00:28:31,253 --> 00:28:33,630 so I'd come in my closet, and I would write things down. 534 00:28:33,714 --> 00:28:34,548 -[Cosme] No. -Thank you. 535 00:28:34,631 --> 00:28:36,925 -There's writing on this one. -Really? 536 00:28:37,009 --> 00:28:38,552 I guess you were really in love with Cole. 537 00:28:38,635 --> 00:28:42,347 -[Cosme, homeowner chuckle] -Oh, my gosh! Stop this. [gasps] 538 00:28:42,431 --> 00:28:45,058 I mean-- I'm sorry, Cole, if you ever see this. 539 00:28:45,559 --> 00:28:46,643 [Cosme] I would, like, straddle… 540 00:28:46,727 --> 00:28:48,145 -Um, Christiana? -Yeah? 541 00:28:48,228 --> 00:28:50,522 This right here-- My nana can show you the photo. 542 00:28:50,606 --> 00:28:53,066 She's taking a photo. I'm looking at myself in the mirror. 543 00:28:53,150 --> 00:28:55,152 And that's when I found out I booked Barney. 544 00:28:55,235 --> 00:28:57,196 -[Christiana] Oh, my God. -[Cosme] You were on the phone. 545 00:28:57,279 --> 00:28:58,906 And there's a picture of me in here. 546 00:29:01,575 --> 00:29:03,493 Everything looks wonderful, Barney. 547 00:29:03,577 --> 00:29:04,953 ♪ She'll be coming round… ♪ 548 00:29:05,037 --> 00:29:07,664 [Gomez] I was seven years old when I got my first job. 549 00:29:08,832 --> 00:29:12,920 I was proud because I got to go escape my life and be in Barney Land, 550 00:29:13,003 --> 00:29:14,546 and just play and sing. 551 00:29:16,173 --> 00:29:19,551 I don't know, I just fell in love with these escape things. 552 00:29:21,386 --> 00:29:24,348 Then I never stopped. I just kept going. 553 00:29:25,098 --> 00:29:28,060 And then when I hit around 11 and I moved to Los Angeles, 554 00:29:28,143 --> 00:29:32,356 I just wanted to work. I loved my job. 555 00:29:33,273 --> 00:29:35,901 But eventually, after doing this for so long, 556 00:29:35,984 --> 00:29:39,029 I started to feel vain. 557 00:29:40,405 --> 00:29:43,033 It made me feel lonely somehow. 558 00:29:43,534 --> 00:29:46,411 And then when I started touring, it just got worse. 559 00:29:50,415 --> 00:29:52,626 After I got out of the last treatment center, 560 00:29:52,709 --> 00:29:54,878 I knew what made me happy was connection. 561 00:29:59,424 --> 00:30:00,676 This is Joyce. 562 00:30:02,219 --> 00:30:04,346 Priscilla, are we sure? 563 00:30:04,429 --> 00:30:06,390 [Cosme] Yeah. You want me to ask my grandma? 564 00:30:09,726 --> 00:30:13,522 She had this beautiful doll house that I wanted so bad. 565 00:30:14,022 --> 00:30:15,774 [Cosme] Is that why you put poop on her front porch? 566 00:30:15,858 --> 00:30:18,235 -Stop. That was Charlie. -[laughs] 567 00:30:18,819 --> 00:30:20,362 They would always pick on her. 568 00:30:29,371 --> 00:30:30,372 Hi. 569 00:30:32,291 --> 00:30:34,751 -Hi, I'm Selena. -Yes? 570 00:30:34,835 --> 00:30:37,754 I used to come here when Joyce-- Joyce lived here. 571 00:30:37,838 --> 00:30:39,673 -Selena Gomez? -Yeah. 572 00:30:39,756 --> 00:30:40,757 Yeah. 573 00:30:41,425 --> 00:30:43,635 Yeah. [laughs] 574 00:30:43,719 --> 00:30:44,761 Is she here? 575 00:30:44,845 --> 00:30:47,806 Yeah. She's, uh-- Why don't you come on in? 576 00:30:47,890 --> 00:30:49,266 -Are you sure? -Yes. 577 00:30:49,349 --> 00:30:50,684 Okay. 578 00:30:50,767 --> 00:30:52,019 Do y'all still have that… 579 00:30:52,644 --> 00:30:54,938 -[Cosme] The doll house? -Don't-- Don't let anyone else in. 580 00:30:56,064 --> 00:30:57,774 -[Gomez gasps] -[Joyce] How are you? 581 00:30:57,858 --> 00:31:02,237 -Oh, my gosh. Hi. Don't move. -[Joyce's husband] Thank you. 582 00:31:02,321 --> 00:31:04,281 -[Joyce] I got to move. -[Cosme] There's the doll house, Selena. 583 00:31:04,364 --> 00:31:07,951 Hi-- Is that the-- That's the dollhouse! Don't-- Don't get up. 584 00:31:08,035 --> 00:31:09,453 [Joyce] I can't get up, baby. 585 00:31:09,953 --> 00:31:12,122 -[Gomez] It's okay. -How do you like my bald head? 586 00:31:12,206 --> 00:31:13,540 Yeah, well, you look great. 587 00:31:14,750 --> 00:31:17,753 Got past that, but, see, I broke my ankle twice this year. 588 00:31:17,836 --> 00:31:20,631 -I-- I can't get up. -Yeah, what's been going on? 589 00:31:20,714 --> 00:31:22,257 W-Well, not much. 590 00:31:23,967 --> 00:31:26,678 Hmm. I'm sorry. 591 00:31:27,971 --> 00:31:29,097 I broke a toe. 592 00:31:29,765 --> 00:31:31,725 So how's your health now? 593 00:31:31,808 --> 00:31:35,604 [Gomez] My health is goo-- Is doing good. My lupus is in remission. 594 00:31:35,687 --> 00:31:38,232 -Good. -And I'm very happy about that. 595 00:31:38,315 --> 00:31:40,609 I got a kidney transplant two years ago, 596 00:31:41,109 --> 00:31:43,529 and so far everything's going good with that. 597 00:31:43,612 --> 00:31:44,655 -Well, good. -Yeah, 598 00:31:44,738 --> 00:31:48,158 -I just take my medication every day. -You know, lupus is cousin to MS. 599 00:31:48,242 --> 00:31:50,494 Really? I did not know that. 600 00:31:50,577 --> 00:31:54,623 A lot of the symptoms are alike. It's autoimmune-- An autoimmune disease. 601 00:31:55,541 --> 00:31:57,251 -Yeah? -What do you remember about me? 602 00:31:57,876 --> 00:32:01,755 I remember-- [sighs] I remember when we'd come over here, 603 00:32:01,839 --> 00:32:03,549 and me and Charlie would give you a hard time. 604 00:32:03,632 --> 00:32:07,094 Okay. [chuckles] Here's the self-testimony here. 605 00:32:07,177 --> 00:32:08,762 Yes, it is. And I apologize f-- 606 00:32:08,846 --> 00:32:10,347 You don't remember anything else about it? 607 00:32:10,430 --> 00:32:12,349 No, I do. You would let us come in, 608 00:32:12,432 --> 00:32:14,935 we'd have cookies, and I get to go right there, and-- 609 00:32:15,018 --> 00:32:17,062 That's what I was waiting for you to say my cookies. 610 00:32:17,145 --> 00:32:19,815 -Oh, I remember. We'd play with that. -Cookie lady. 611 00:32:19,898 --> 00:32:21,942 -I think it was over here last time. -It was. 612 00:32:22,025 --> 00:32:23,026 That's right. 613 00:32:23,110 --> 00:32:25,737 -[Joyce chattering] -[Gomez chuckles] 614 00:32:29,366 --> 00:32:32,911 Oh, my gosh. I was obsessed with this, Joyce. 615 00:32:40,502 --> 00:32:43,213 -Well, it was good to see you. -[Joyce] I'm just so thrilled that you-- 616 00:32:43,297 --> 00:32:45,841 I once asked Debbie if you'd come and see me sometime. 617 00:32:46,842 --> 00:32:48,969 -And I'm glad I did. -You did. 618 00:32:49,469 --> 00:32:51,054 -Mm-hmm. -I didn't have to ask. 619 00:32:51,138 --> 00:32:52,222 Nope. 620 00:32:53,307 --> 00:32:54,308 [Joyce] You're sick too. 621 00:32:54,391 --> 00:32:56,685 [Gomez] Oh, it's okay. We all get through. 622 00:32:56,768 --> 00:32:58,979 -Thank you so much. -I hope you have a great day. 623 00:32:59,062 --> 00:33:00,939 -I'll be praying for you. -Okay, thank you. 624 00:33:01,023 --> 00:33:01,857 [Cosme] Bye, Joyce. 625 00:33:01,940 --> 00:33:04,443 -Bye, Selena. -[Gomez] Bye. Thank you so much. 626 00:33:04,526 --> 00:33:06,737 -[cameraperson] Thank you. -[Gomez] It was good to see you. 627 00:33:06,820 --> 00:33:08,113 [cameraperson] Thank you, guys. 628 00:33:08,780 --> 00:33:10,199 [Joyce chattering] 629 00:33:10,282 --> 00:33:11,700 [Gomez laughs] I will. 630 00:33:14,203 --> 00:33:15,245 [sighs] 631 00:33:18,123 --> 00:33:21,251 When I got my lupus, it was really scary. 632 00:33:21,335 --> 00:33:22,920 Then I got out of it and I said, 633 00:33:23,003 --> 00:33:26,757 "I can go and visit these people, because I've had this." 634 00:33:26,840 --> 00:33:27,799 Hi, baby. 635 00:33:27,883 --> 00:33:30,969 And then I had the transplant, and we did a lot of work. 636 00:33:31,053 --> 00:33:33,430 And then when it started into mental health, 637 00:33:33,514 --> 00:33:37,976 and the same thing I said to myself is, "Now I can relate to these people." 638 00:33:38,477 --> 00:33:41,230 -I think things happen for a reason. -All right. Bye, guys. 639 00:33:46,318 --> 00:33:48,362 [Gomez] Just be who you are, Selena. 640 00:33:50,781 --> 00:33:51,990 Just stop trying. 641 00:33:53,575 --> 00:33:55,536 No one cares about what you're doing. 642 00:33:56,828 --> 00:34:02,000 It's about who I am. Being okay with where I am. 643 00:34:04,795 --> 00:34:07,214 I am grateful for my family. 644 00:34:07,297 --> 00:34:09,299 I am grateful for my friends. 645 00:34:10,050 --> 00:34:12,052 I am grateful to be alive. 646 00:34:21,228 --> 00:34:24,523 I'm just gonna add three more paragraphs that I wrote. 647 00:34:24,606 --> 00:34:26,775 "I think we are better when we tell the truth, 648 00:34:26,859 --> 00:34:29,235 -so again, and I'm telling my truth." -[Wright] Yeah. 649 00:34:29,319 --> 00:34:31,321 "I was suffering mentally and emotionally, 650 00:34:31,405 --> 00:34:34,324 and I wasn't able to stay all buttoned up and together. 651 00:34:34,408 --> 00:34:38,661 I felt as though all of my pain, anxiety, fear washed over me all at once, 652 00:34:38,745 --> 00:34:41,248 and it was one of the scariest moments of my life. 653 00:34:41,331 --> 00:34:46,003 It was the day that-- that I found out I was bipolar." 654 00:34:46,085 --> 00:34:49,505 [Wright] No one thinks that you need to say you're bipolar. 655 00:34:49,590 --> 00:34:50,966 You're 27 years old 656 00:34:51,049 --> 00:34:54,052 and you have a lifetime to tell the world that exact thing, 657 00:34:54,136 --> 00:34:57,931 unless you are determined that now's the time that you want it out. 658 00:34:58,015 --> 00:35:00,017 -Okay. -No one's-- No one's against it. 659 00:35:00,100 --> 00:35:04,438 It's just that that becomes the narrative, right there. 660 00:35:04,521 --> 00:35:06,481 And I'm sure that means, like-- What? 661 00:35:06,565 --> 00:35:10,694 Like, certain people or directors or something may not wanna work with me? 662 00:35:10,777 --> 00:35:13,113 But then why would I wanna work with them anyway? 663 00:35:13,197 --> 00:35:16,116 -[Marino] True. Whatever you think. -I think I'm gonna say it. 664 00:35:16,200 --> 00:35:18,785 -[Marino] Yeah. -I'm gonna say it. It's fine. 665 00:35:19,494 --> 00:35:21,413 -And that's it. -[Wright] It'll say-- Yeah. 666 00:35:22,289 --> 00:35:24,374 [radio host] Selena Gomez talking candidly 667 00:35:24,458 --> 00:35:27,377 -about her struggle-- -[radio host 2] …the star shining a light 668 00:35:27,461 --> 00:35:30,047 on her personal battle with depression and anxiety, 669 00:35:30,130 --> 00:35:31,715 and the journey that she says left her… 670 00:35:31,798 --> 00:35:33,509 [groans] Do I have 20 minutes? 671 00:35:33,592 --> 00:35:36,053 -[cameraperson] Are you feeling nerves? -[groans] I don't feel good. 672 00:35:36,136 --> 00:35:37,387 [Wright] Is it nerves? 673 00:35:38,555 --> 00:35:40,849 [Gomez] I don't feel good, you guys, like, at all. 674 00:35:41,475 --> 00:35:43,393 -[friend] Is she hungry? -[Gomez] Very uncomfortable. 675 00:35:43,477 --> 00:35:45,020 -[Wright] What? -What happened? 676 00:35:45,812 --> 00:35:46,897 Or nerves. 677 00:35:48,065 --> 00:35:49,066 Makes sense. 678 00:35:54,905 --> 00:35:56,073 What did it do? 679 00:35:56,573 --> 00:35:58,325 -It makes you feel sick. -It burns. 680 00:35:58,408 --> 00:35:59,409 Yeah. 681 00:36:04,414 --> 00:36:05,582 Hi, Raquelle. 682 00:36:06,291 --> 00:36:07,459 [Stevens] Hello, Selena. 683 00:36:07,960 --> 00:36:11,421 [Wright] Raquelle, this is so cute. This is a whole one-piece outfit, or two? 684 00:36:11,505 --> 00:36:13,048 [Stevens] No. It's-- It's so crazy… 685 00:36:13,131 --> 00:36:14,466 [audience clapping] 686 00:36:14,550 --> 00:36:16,593 [host] It is with great pleasure that I welcome you 687 00:36:16,677 --> 00:36:19,513 to the McLean Psychiatric Hospital annual dinner. 688 00:36:22,349 --> 00:36:25,269 Hi, guys. Um, I'm very happy to be here, 689 00:36:25,352 --> 00:36:27,771 and I might be a little awkward, so I'm sorry. [chuckles] 690 00:36:28,689 --> 00:36:33,986 Um, yeah. I started when, um-- I started working when I was seven, 691 00:36:34,611 --> 00:36:37,197 and I quickly learned how to play the part. 692 00:36:37,990 --> 00:36:40,284 I have juggled work and school and relationships 693 00:36:40,367 --> 00:36:42,536 for as long as I can remember. 694 00:36:42,619 --> 00:36:46,832 As great as life was, underneath all of it, I was struggling. 695 00:36:47,499 --> 00:36:53,422 Last year, I was, um-- I was suffering m-mentally and emotionally, 696 00:36:53,505 --> 00:36:56,550 and I wasn't able to stay all buttoned-up and together. 697 00:36:57,217 --> 00:36:58,552 I sought support, 698 00:36:58,635 --> 00:37:02,222 and the doctors were able to give me a clear diagnosis. 699 00:37:03,098 --> 00:37:05,017 The moment that I received that information, 700 00:37:05,100 --> 00:37:10,772 I finally had the knowledge of why I had suffered for so many years 701 00:37:10,856 --> 00:37:12,482 with depression and anxiety. 702 00:37:13,066 --> 00:37:16,069 So I began to face it head-on, 703 00:37:16,153 --> 00:37:21,491 as my mother had taught me to face my fears and challenges when I was younger. 704 00:37:22,201 --> 00:37:24,870 I am happier, I am healthier, 705 00:37:24,953 --> 00:37:28,999 and I am in control of my emotions and thoughts more than I have ever been. 706 00:37:29,082 --> 00:37:32,586 -So, I'm very happy about that. Thanks. -[crowd applauding] 707 00:37:33,962 --> 00:37:35,047 [chuckles] 708 00:37:36,965 --> 00:37:41,303 It actually feels good to say it, because I mean it, you know? 709 00:37:41,386 --> 00:37:45,599 Like, for so many years, I feel, like, maybe I needed to say that, 710 00:37:45,682 --> 00:37:49,061 but it feels really great to be able to actually mean it this time. 711 00:37:49,144 --> 00:37:54,149 Um, I also struggle with my own thoughts and feelings at times, 712 00:37:54,233 --> 00:37:56,610 but this doesn't make me faulty. 713 00:37:57,319 --> 00:37:59,071 This does not make me weak. 714 00:38:00,030 --> 00:38:01,740 This does not make me less than. 715 00:38:02,491 --> 00:38:03,825 This makes me human. 716 00:38:04,576 --> 00:38:07,246 That was my life and the fact that you brought light to it-- 717 00:38:07,329 --> 00:38:11,083 If it wasn't for someone that was able to put the word out there, 718 00:38:11,166 --> 00:38:12,417 it wouldn't make change happen. 719 00:38:12,501 --> 00:38:14,670 From the bottom of my heart, your courage is amazing, 720 00:38:14,753 --> 00:38:17,840 and I-- I think that you are saving lives. I know that you're saving lives, 721 00:38:17,923 --> 00:38:20,843 -so thank you for the work that you do. -Wow, I just hope I'm a part of-- 722 00:38:21,593 --> 00:38:24,096 I just hope I'm a part of the conversation, you know? 723 00:38:24,179 --> 00:38:25,848 Absolutely, thank you. It's such an honor. 724 00:38:25,931 --> 00:38:31,061 You guys are the ones that save the lives, but as much as I can use what I do, 725 00:38:31,144 --> 00:38:33,897 -I'm more than happy to be here. -Thank you. 726 00:38:33,981 --> 00:38:39,152 Even just for you to, like, speak publicly about your experience with mental health, 727 00:38:39,236 --> 00:38:40,863 -depression, and anxiety-- -Yeah. 728 00:38:40,946 --> 00:38:46,451 Me, myself, I attempted almost three years ago in October, 729 00:38:46,535 --> 00:38:51,665 and I remember just-- Oh, thank you. [chuckles] 730 00:39:00,507 --> 00:39:02,926 [Gomez] Being honest that night helped. 731 00:39:04,261 --> 00:39:07,472 I texted Julia Michaels and Justin Tranter 732 00:39:07,556 --> 00:39:10,434 and said, "I think I'm ready to just say I'm sad." 733 00:39:11,351 --> 00:39:15,981 We wrote the song in 45 minutes. The fastest song I've ever written. 734 00:39:17,608 --> 00:39:23,822 It's about more than just a lost love. It's me learning to choose myself. 735 00:39:25,032 --> 00:39:26,200 To choose life. 736 00:39:26,283 --> 00:39:29,786 ["Lose You to Love Me" playing on piano] 737 00:39:29,870 --> 00:39:33,123 But also hoping that people can find grace and peace in that too. 738 00:39:35,876 --> 00:39:38,837 ♪ You promised the world And I fell for it ♪ 739 00:39:40,672 --> 00:39:42,883 ♪ I put you first and you adored it ♪ 740 00:39:42,966 --> 00:39:45,844 -[crying] Daddy. -♪ Set fires to my forest ♪ 741 00:39:46,345 --> 00:39:50,349 ♪ And you let it burn Sang off-key in my chorus ♪ 742 00:39:50,891 --> 00:39:52,684 ♪ 'Cause it wasn't yours ♪ 743 00:39:54,937 --> 00:39:56,772 ♪ I saw the signs and I ignored it ♪ 744 00:39:56,855 --> 00:39:58,565 -[song continues] -The song is about knowing 745 00:39:58,649 --> 00:40:01,527 that you completely lost every part of who you are. 746 00:40:01,610 --> 00:40:04,821 ♪ Set fire to my purpose ♪ 747 00:40:04,905 --> 00:40:06,990 Just to rediscover yourself again. 748 00:40:07,074 --> 00:40:12,621 ♪ You got off on the hurtin' When it wasn't yours, yeah ♪ 749 00:40:12,704 --> 00:40:13,705 [reporters clamoring] 750 00:40:13,789 --> 00:40:15,374 [reporter] Are you still in love with Justin? 751 00:40:15,457 --> 00:40:16,708 [Gomez] Everything was so public. 752 00:40:16,792 --> 00:40:19,127 [paparazzo] Selena, any comment on Bieber's engagement? 753 00:40:19,211 --> 00:40:21,004 [paparazzo 2] What's your favorite thing about Bieber? 754 00:40:21,088 --> 00:40:23,924 Can I go to the-- Get food, please? Can you not-- Wanna go get food. 755 00:40:24,007 --> 00:40:28,095 I felt haunted by a past relationship that no one wanted to let go of. 756 00:40:29,471 --> 00:40:32,349 But then I just moved past it. 757 00:40:33,809 --> 00:40:35,227 And I wasn't afraid anymore. 758 00:40:36,520 --> 00:40:38,939 -Thank you, everybody. Bye, guys! -[crew member] All right guys. So um, 759 00:40:39,022 --> 00:40:40,732 -that is a camera wrap. -Thank you. 760 00:40:40,816 --> 00:40:42,860 [clamoring] 761 00:40:44,611 --> 00:40:47,114 It says, "Selena Gomez is now projected 762 00:40:47,197 --> 00:40:50,868 to debut inside the top 20 of Billboard Hot 100. 763 00:40:50,951 --> 00:40:53,996 This will make her and Adele the only females in history 764 00:40:54,079 --> 00:40:56,582 -to have the biggest ballad debut." -[Mingus] Yes. 765 00:40:56,665 --> 00:40:58,083 -[Stevens] Yeah. -I wanna cry. 766 00:41:05,674 --> 00:41:07,676 [fans shouting] 767 00:41:09,303 --> 00:41:11,430 -Was it one of your biggest songs ever? -Yeah, it was. 768 00:41:11,513 --> 00:41:14,224 -It is your biggest song ever, right? -[crowd cheering] 769 00:41:14,808 --> 00:41:16,727 [Gomez] I wanted to be as honest as I could, 770 00:41:16,810 --> 00:41:20,272 and I think that I'm very lucky to be in a position 771 00:41:20,355 --> 00:41:21,899 where I can make people feel good. 772 00:41:22,566 --> 00:41:28,822 I feel like I had to go through the worst possible heartbreak ever, 773 00:41:28,906 --> 00:41:32,367 and then just forgetting everything at the drop of the hand. 774 00:41:32,451 --> 00:41:37,164 It was-- It was really confusing, but I just think that needed to happen. 775 00:41:37,247 --> 00:41:40,292 And ultimately it was the best thing that ever happened to me. 776 00:41:40,375 --> 00:41:41,960 [Janick] And ultimately, so, your message is-- 777 00:41:42,044 --> 00:41:44,254 You didn't hear me say it was the best thing that happened to me. 778 00:41:44,338 --> 00:41:45,839 -[Janick] Sorry. -You just started talking. 779 00:41:45,923 --> 00:41:47,883 -I can't say it anymore. -[Janick] One more time. 780 00:41:47,966 --> 00:41:49,259 No. 781 00:41:49,343 --> 00:41:50,761 All right. What do you wanna ask me? 782 00:41:51,386 --> 00:41:54,973 [Janick] I just-- Was it the best thing that ever happened to you? 783 00:41:55,057 --> 00:41:56,391 [laughs] 784 00:41:59,436 --> 00:42:02,314 It was the best thing that ever happened to me, yes. 785 00:42:02,940 --> 00:42:05,734 So, when do you want an album out? 786 00:42:05,817 --> 00:42:07,277 -January. -[Janick] Okay, cool. 787 00:42:07,361 --> 00:42:09,279 I just need to know if you have to leave, 788 00:42:09,363 --> 00:42:12,366 -or issues, or it-- -I have to go to Kenya and London. 789 00:42:12,449 --> 00:42:14,576 -Okay. -[chuckles] 790 00:42:14,660 --> 00:42:16,453 It's gonna be a fun six weeks. 791 00:42:17,037 --> 00:42:19,957 Do you want to, um, perform at the AMAs this year? 792 00:42:20,040 --> 00:42:21,041 Yeah. 793 00:42:21,124 --> 00:42:22,960 And, um, okay. 794 00:42:23,043 --> 00:42:24,628 -So if we do want to do that… -I do. 795 00:42:24,711 --> 00:42:26,755 -…we'll get into that right now. -Perfect. 796 00:42:26,839 --> 00:42:29,007 -Okay. -[sighs] My stomach. 797 00:42:29,091 --> 00:42:31,426 -[Morgenroth] Are you hungry? -No. 798 00:42:32,010 --> 00:42:34,179 -[Morgenroth] You all right? -Yeah, I think it's nerves. 799 00:42:34,680 --> 00:42:36,431 It's also chilly. Do you want a sweater? 800 00:42:36,515 --> 00:42:37,808 -I'm hot as hell. -You are? Okay. 801 00:42:37,891 --> 00:42:39,393 -Well, then you're in the right room. -Yeah. 802 00:42:39,476 --> 00:42:41,103 -It feels like the Amazon. -It's like an igloo. 803 00:42:41,186 --> 00:42:42,312 It is an igloo in here. 804 00:42:42,396 --> 00:42:44,606 -Y'all are gonna kill me, but… -So, let's start over. 805 00:42:44,690 --> 00:42:46,358 -Y'all are gonna kill me, but I gotta go. -Okay. 806 00:42:46,441 --> 00:42:48,819 -I just feel-- Yeah. Oh. -You all right? Sorry. 807 00:42:50,320 --> 00:42:52,239 [Morgenroth] I think it's the stress of this meeting. 808 00:42:52,322 --> 00:42:53,615 [tour member] Mmm, I think so. 809 00:42:53,699 --> 00:42:55,075 -[tour member 2] Me too. -Okay. 810 00:42:55,158 --> 00:42:56,243 [tour member 3 chuckles] Yeah. 811 00:43:03,250 --> 00:43:05,711 [Gomez] I hadn't been onstage in over two years, 812 00:43:06,378 --> 00:43:08,172 and I still didn't know if I was ready. 813 00:43:10,132 --> 00:43:13,177 But what good is having a song if I was too scared to sing it? 814 00:43:14,803 --> 00:43:17,472 After the AMAs, I was going straight to Kenya. 815 00:43:18,682 --> 00:43:22,436 For years, my doctors hadn't let me go because of my kidney transplant, 816 00:43:23,103 --> 00:43:24,271 but I was finally ready. 817 00:43:25,230 --> 00:43:28,609 So, Raquelle and I were going to visit students at a primary school, 818 00:43:28,692 --> 00:43:30,402 and a college for young women. 819 00:43:30,485 --> 00:43:34,448 Both schools that I helped raise the money to build in Kenya for the WE Charity. 820 00:43:35,115 --> 00:43:36,366 I knew it would be a lot, 821 00:43:36,450 --> 00:43:39,620 but it was my only chance to go before my album came out. 822 00:43:39,703 --> 00:43:40,954 [shouts] 823 00:43:41,038 --> 00:43:42,539 -That's it. That's it. -Is it done? 824 00:43:42,623 --> 00:43:44,041 -That's it, yeah. Well done. -[gasps] 825 00:43:44,124 --> 00:43:47,753 -Okay. -[nurse] Take a deep breath in, and out. 826 00:43:47,836 --> 00:43:49,087 [nurse chuckles] 827 00:43:49,171 --> 00:43:51,507 [Stevens] Ow! Hi, babe! 828 00:43:52,174 --> 00:43:54,009 -[Gomez] Did you do it? -Yeah. 829 00:43:54,843 --> 00:43:56,762 -Good job. -I'm just laying down. 830 00:43:56,845 --> 00:43:58,514 Are you in pain? 831 00:43:58,597 --> 00:44:00,474 Yeah, my arm feels weak. 832 00:44:01,558 --> 00:44:03,101 Oh, Mylanta. 833 00:44:04,186 --> 00:44:07,564 -Now you know what I went through. -I know. You went through more than me. 834 00:44:07,648 --> 00:44:09,274 I was gonna say, "Actually, no, you don't." 835 00:44:09,358 --> 00:44:10,192 [chuckles] 836 00:44:10,275 --> 00:44:12,236 -I'm proud of you, though. -Thank you. 837 00:44:14,863 --> 00:44:18,242 [reporter] Selena Gomez's highly anticipated comeback on the AMA stage. 838 00:44:18,325 --> 00:44:19,910 This is her first performance 839 00:44:19,993 --> 00:44:21,787 in over two years, 840 00:44:21,870 --> 00:44:24,915 post all the Bieber drama and a short break from the biz. 841 00:44:26,375 --> 00:44:29,169 ♪ I saw the signs and I ignored it ♪ 842 00:44:31,004 --> 00:44:33,590 ♪ Rose-colored glasses all distorted ♪ 843 00:44:33,674 --> 00:44:35,133 ♪ Set fire to my-- ♪ 844 00:44:37,845 --> 00:44:38,971 [groans] 845 00:44:39,054 --> 00:44:41,765 [coach] The pitch is-- The pitch is the nerves. 846 00:44:41,849 --> 00:44:45,018 So if you just let the muscle memory happen, 847 00:44:45,102 --> 00:44:48,689 you get out of your way, it's gonna just float up. 848 00:44:50,649 --> 00:44:52,401 I need you to trust yourself. 849 00:44:53,360 --> 00:44:55,612 Sel, we're gonna sing something else right now. 850 00:44:55,696 --> 00:44:57,239 -This one we need to sing. -Okay. 851 00:44:57,322 --> 00:44:58,407 Hit it. 852 00:44:59,908 --> 00:45:01,910 -Crank it! -This isn't my song. 853 00:45:06,790 --> 00:45:08,917 I don't even remember all of this one. 854 00:45:09,001 --> 00:45:10,919 Who cares? Just sing what you know. 855 00:45:11,628 --> 00:45:15,257 [Lauren Daigle, Gomez] ♪ I keep fighting voices in my mind ♪ 856 00:45:15,340 --> 00:45:19,219 ♪ That say I'm not enough ♪ 857 00:45:19,803 --> 00:45:20,804 Come on! 858 00:45:24,725 --> 00:45:27,644 ♪ Every single lie that tells me ♪ 859 00:45:27,728 --> 00:45:33,692 ♪ I will never measure up ♪ 860 00:45:45,662 --> 00:45:46,955 [sighs] 861 00:45:48,957 --> 00:45:50,334 Jesus help me. 862 00:45:50,834 --> 00:45:52,628 [crowd clamoring] 863 00:45:52,711 --> 00:45:54,087 ["Lose You To Love Me" playing] 864 00:45:54,171 --> 00:45:57,132 ♪ You promised the world And I fell for it ♪ 865 00:45:59,092 --> 00:46:01,637 ♪ I put you first and you adored it ♪ 866 00:46:01,720 --> 00:46:04,598 ♪ Set fire to my forest ♪ 867 00:46:04,681 --> 00:46:08,977 ♪ And I let it burn Sang off-key in my chorus ♪ 868 00:46:09,061 --> 00:46:10,646 ♪ 'Cause it wasn't yours ♪ 869 00:46:11,230 --> 00:46:13,524 [reporter 1] Selena Gomez suffered a panic attack before… 870 00:46:13,607 --> 00:46:15,275 [reporter 2] Many accused her of being off-key… 871 00:46:15,359 --> 00:46:16,818 [reporter 3] Gomez, who didn't learn how to sing 872 00:46:16,902 --> 00:46:18,695 after her 10-year-old career, and gets millions for it. 873 00:46:18,779 --> 00:46:21,073 [reporter 4] …in four years. But anxiety, it doesn't just disappear. 874 00:46:21,156 --> 00:46:24,493 In fact, she says that her lupus amplifies her anxiety. 875 00:46:25,786 --> 00:46:28,288 [Teefey] Hi. She's up. 876 00:46:28,372 --> 00:46:30,123 -[Stevens] Hi. -[Gomez] Hi. 877 00:46:30,707 --> 00:46:33,460 [Stevens] Aw. How's it going? 878 00:46:34,211 --> 00:46:36,296 [friend] Hey, Sir Winnie. [kissing] 879 00:46:38,632 --> 00:46:41,844 I got you some soup and that, um… [speaks indistinctly] …thing, 880 00:46:41,927 --> 00:46:43,011 and a ham and cheese. 881 00:46:43,095 --> 00:46:48,308 [Mingus] Aleen asked me, when you do London promo, after Kenya, 882 00:46:48,392 --> 00:46:49,893 you're there for, like, three days. 883 00:46:49,977 --> 00:46:55,440 And she asked if you can do-- If you wanna do Paris for a day and then home. 884 00:46:55,524 --> 00:46:57,776 -Are you coming with me, Raquelle? -[Stevens] Yeah. 885 00:46:58,485 --> 00:46:59,486 Okay. 886 00:46:59,570 --> 00:47:02,155 [Mingus] Yeah? You don't think that's too much? 887 00:47:02,698 --> 00:47:05,367 Mmm, no, but I also don't wanna rush it. 888 00:47:06,076 --> 00:47:07,786 I haven't done promo in years. 889 00:47:09,663 --> 00:47:11,915 It's my least favorite thing in the world to do. 890 00:47:12,457 --> 00:47:14,626 [Stevens] But I feel like it's gonna be great, 891 00:47:14,710 --> 00:47:17,796 because you're excited about what you're putting out… 892 00:47:17,880 --> 00:47:19,715 -[Gomez] Mmm. -…and it's so true to you. 893 00:47:20,674 --> 00:47:22,759 I don't wanna talk about work anymore. 894 00:47:22,843 --> 00:47:24,595 -[Stevens] Okay. -Let's put on a movie. 895 00:47:28,098 --> 00:47:29,266 I need a break. 896 00:47:30,267 --> 00:47:31,268 [friend] From everything? 897 00:47:31,810 --> 00:47:34,188 Mm-mmm, no. I have a lot of work to do. 898 00:47:35,981 --> 00:47:39,776 Hunter, do you wanna maybe walk and go in first in-- 899 00:47:40,736 --> 00:47:44,656 [Janick] I know you don't pay attention to your calendar, but you're going to Africa. 900 00:47:44,740 --> 00:47:46,909 Yeah, 'cause I'm going to Kenya first, 901 00:47:46,992 --> 00:47:49,870 and then I'm gonna go straight to London, and Paris for promo. 902 00:47:49,953 --> 00:47:53,332 Okay. You feel okay about trying to get everything done 903 00:47:53,415 --> 00:47:54,791 -for the next month? -Mm-hmm. Yeah. 904 00:47:54,875 --> 00:47:56,502 -Okay. -Not worried. 905 00:47:56,585 --> 00:47:59,379 [Janick] Then it's just the video, the campaign, the song. 906 00:48:00,172 --> 00:48:01,173 Mm-hmm. 907 00:48:05,135 --> 00:48:07,721 -[airport official] No computers in your-- -No. Do we take our shoes off? 908 00:48:07,804 --> 00:48:09,264 -[airport official] Yes. -Yeah. 909 00:48:11,517 --> 00:48:14,853 Let's go. Whoo! Whoo-hoo! 910 00:48:25,489 --> 00:48:26,365 -Whoo! -Thank you. 911 00:48:26,448 --> 00:48:27,366 Welcome. 912 00:48:47,344 --> 00:48:49,388 -We also say it's a blessing. -What? 913 00:48:49,471 --> 00:48:51,473 When it rains, we say it's a blessing. 914 00:48:51,557 --> 00:48:52,766 -It's a blessing? -Yeah. 915 00:48:52,850 --> 00:48:55,143 When it rains here, it's considered a blessing. 916 00:48:55,227 --> 00:48:58,564 -[Stevens] Oh, I love that. -Ooh! Whoa! [chuckles] 917 00:49:00,357 --> 00:49:03,861 [guide] Take this. We can put this on now. Are you okay with the camera? 918 00:49:03,944 --> 00:49:05,696 -It's okay. -[guide] It's fine-- It's okay? 919 00:49:09,241 --> 00:49:11,201 -Hello, everyone. -[student] Hello. 920 00:49:11,285 --> 00:49:12,786 -Hi, what's your name? -Aneesia. 921 00:49:12,870 --> 00:49:15,122 -Aneesia? I'm Selena, nice to meet you. -Yeah. 922 00:49:16,081 --> 00:49:21,044 Hello. My name is Selena. Um, I have come here with WE, 923 00:49:21,128 --> 00:49:26,842 and I want to honor your-- your drive for education. 924 00:49:26,925 --> 00:49:29,678 So, I'm-- I'm very happy to be here. 925 00:49:31,221 --> 00:49:35,309 [Aneesia] So, which grade did you reach, actually? Did you finish grade 12? 926 00:49:35,392 --> 00:49:38,145 -Uh, I finished eighth grade… -Mm-hmm. 927 00:49:38,228 --> 00:49:43,066 …and then for nine, ten, 11, 12, I had to do school on set. 928 00:49:43,609 --> 00:49:46,403 To-- Like, five hours and then I could work, so… 929 00:49:46,486 --> 00:49:47,571 Mm-hmm. Wow. 930 00:49:47,654 --> 00:49:49,615 Well, it was-- it was interesting, you know? 931 00:49:49,698 --> 00:49:53,410 To be homeschooled by a computer. It's not real… 932 00:49:53,493 --> 00:49:54,328 [student] Wow. 933 00:49:54,411 --> 00:49:57,581 …but it was-- it was great for me. It worked, you know? 934 00:49:59,583 --> 00:50:02,252 [Aneesia] Late last year, we had a talent group, 935 00:50:02,336 --> 00:50:04,546 and we were singing, like, your song. Like… 936 00:50:04,630 --> 00:50:06,673 ♪ Who says you're not perfect ♪ 937 00:50:06,757 --> 00:50:08,509 -[laughing] -[Gomez] Oh, that's my song! 938 00:50:08,592 --> 00:50:11,178 -That's one of my favorite songs. -[student] ♪ Who says, who says ♪ 939 00:50:11,261 --> 00:50:16,058 [all] ♪ Who says you're not perfect? Who says you're not worth it? ♪ 940 00:50:16,141 --> 00:50:19,853 ♪ Who says you're the only one That's hurtin'? ♪ 941 00:50:19,937 --> 00:50:21,605 [Gomez] I was really shy in school, 942 00:50:22,147 --> 00:50:25,901 so I would usually just hang out with two friends. 943 00:50:26,401 --> 00:50:31,823 And, um, my cousin was, like, the captain of the cheerleading team, 944 00:50:31,907 --> 00:50:34,535 and so nobody would pick on me because of my cousin. 945 00:50:34,618 --> 00:50:37,704 My cousin, like, controls everything. Um… 946 00:50:37,788 --> 00:50:38,622 [Stevens] Hmm, okay. 947 00:50:38,705 --> 00:50:43,377 For me, I grew up in a family of eight, like my mom and dad have eight kids. 948 00:50:43,919 --> 00:50:46,547 My mom told me that they want me to be married off, 949 00:50:46,630 --> 00:50:48,632 but, at some point, they said that, 950 00:50:48,715 --> 00:50:52,553 "Since you got a school where you got a scholarship to go and learn, 951 00:50:52,636 --> 00:50:54,263 there's no need for us." 952 00:50:54,346 --> 00:50:55,681 For them, they don't pay any fee. 953 00:50:55,764 --> 00:50:57,766 So they told me I'm not going to be married off. 954 00:50:58,725 --> 00:51:01,019 -[Stevens] That's very interesting. -Do you believe in love? 955 00:51:01,103 --> 00:51:04,106 [student chuckles] In love? 956 00:51:04,189 --> 00:51:05,774 Do you believe in love? 957 00:51:05,858 --> 00:51:07,734 [students laughing] 958 00:51:07,818 --> 00:51:10,112 -'Cause I know you love each other. -[students] Yeah. 959 00:51:10,195 --> 00:51:12,573 [chuckles] Love is just a gift. 960 00:51:12,656 --> 00:51:14,324 -[student] Yeah. -[Stevens] Yeah. 961 00:51:16,159 --> 00:51:19,246 Is it something that you look forward to, or you just think-- 962 00:51:19,329 --> 00:51:21,164 -You focus on what you do… -[Aneesia] For me-- 963 00:51:21,248 --> 00:51:23,417 -…and then it comes. Right? -[Aneesia] Yeah. 964 00:51:23,500 --> 00:51:25,794 Or, like, having a boyfriend or such. 965 00:51:25,878 --> 00:51:30,048 So, for me, uh, I will get one when I'm done with my high school. 966 00:51:30,132 --> 00:51:31,258 [clicks tongue] Love it. 967 00:51:31,341 --> 00:51:33,886 Because I-- I don't want to split my mind. 968 00:51:33,969 --> 00:51:35,846 So, I want to concentrate first here. 969 00:51:37,222 --> 00:51:39,099 Just when the house is being built, 970 00:51:39,183 --> 00:51:41,101 you cannot start building by the roof. 971 00:51:41,185 --> 00:51:42,978 -You start by the foundation. -[clamoring] 972 00:51:43,061 --> 00:51:44,688 So, I don't have the foundation, 973 00:51:44,771 --> 00:51:47,107 so till I'm done with form four… 974 00:51:47,191 --> 00:51:49,443 then after that, I can now think about that. 975 00:51:50,027 --> 00:51:51,653 [Stevens chuckles] I love that. 976 00:51:51,737 --> 00:51:53,280 That's really well said. 977 00:51:54,031 --> 00:51:56,074 [speaking Swahili] 978 00:51:57,951 --> 00:51:59,328 [Stevens] Mmm. 979 00:51:59,411 --> 00:52:02,873 [speaking Swahili] 980 00:52:02,956 --> 00:52:05,959 -My name? Selena. -Selena? 981 00:52:06,043 --> 00:52:07,252 -Yeah. -Selena. 982 00:52:07,336 --> 00:52:09,630 -What's your name? -Uh, Diana. 983 00:52:09,713 --> 00:52:11,215 -Diana? -Mmm. 984 00:52:11,298 --> 00:52:12,841 -Beautiful. -[chuckles] Mmm. 985 00:52:14,343 --> 00:52:15,344 [Stevens] Raquelle. 986 00:52:15,969 --> 00:52:22,601 -Oh yes. She says, "I have a son." -Oh! Right! Your son-- He's old. Okay. 987 00:52:24,186 --> 00:52:25,562 Do you think he'd like me? 988 00:52:26,647 --> 00:52:27,689 How old's he? 989 00:52:28,315 --> 00:52:31,652 -[beader] He's like, 20, 21 years old. -[Stevens] Okay! 990 00:52:31,735 --> 00:52:33,529 -[Gomez] That works. -That might be better, 991 00:52:33,612 --> 00:52:40,285 maybe more for Selena. We're both 27. Selena likes younger guys. Yeah. 992 00:52:40,369 --> 00:52:44,248 Oh, my gosh. What? Raquelle! 993 00:52:45,499 --> 00:52:47,376 I have, in the past. 994 00:52:52,005 --> 00:52:54,591 I'm a little worried my lupus is flaring up. 995 00:52:55,759 --> 00:52:57,761 -Here, will you open this, please? -[Stevens] Mm-hmm. 996 00:52:58,846 --> 00:53:01,139 My hands are still so messed up. 997 00:53:01,223 --> 00:53:02,307 [Stevens] Shaky? 998 00:53:02,391 --> 00:53:04,268 No, they're-- They hurt. 999 00:53:04,351 --> 00:53:06,687 -So, every time I do this, they hurt. -[Stevens] Why? 1000 00:53:07,271 --> 00:53:11,066 I don't know. I went to the doctor and he said he didn't see any swollen. 1001 00:53:11,149 --> 00:53:16,530 Said the only way that, you know, we could find out is if I did, like, a-- 1002 00:53:16,613 --> 00:53:18,615 -Thank you. -Mm-hmm. 1003 00:53:18,699 --> 00:53:22,160 -I had to do a CAT scan or whatever? MRI. -Oh, yeah. 1004 00:53:22,244 --> 00:53:24,037 -I think I might when I get back. -Mm-hmm. 1005 00:53:29,459 --> 00:53:32,963 My name is Betty Chep, and I'm a student here taking nursing. 1006 00:53:33,046 --> 00:53:35,424 When you're checking your blood pressure, which average… 1007 00:53:35,507 --> 00:53:37,134 [Chep] Being a nurse, you're there with people 1008 00:53:37,217 --> 00:53:38,927 when they feel so bad, and support them. 1009 00:53:39,011 --> 00:53:41,305 So I felt that's the best thing that I can do in life. 1010 00:53:42,181 --> 00:53:44,224 My dad was my role model. 1011 00:53:44,308 --> 00:53:46,143 And he really taught me that… 1012 00:53:46,226 --> 00:53:48,812 In this life, you have to show people empathy, 1013 00:53:48,896 --> 00:53:51,815 have a chance to give people more than what you receive. 1014 00:53:51,899 --> 00:53:52,816 Yeah. 1015 00:53:52,900 --> 00:53:54,651 I believe in God. 1016 00:53:54,735 --> 00:53:57,905 I always tell myself that no matter what people think about me, 1017 00:53:57,988 --> 00:53:59,990 and what God has planned for me in my life, 1018 00:54:00,073 --> 00:54:01,992 that is what I will achieve in life. Yeah. 1019 00:54:02,075 --> 00:54:03,327 -That's amazing. -Yeah. 1020 00:54:04,328 --> 00:54:06,413 -I believe in God as well. -Wow. 1021 00:54:08,624 --> 00:54:11,752 [Chep] I was born in a middle-class family. 1022 00:54:11,835 --> 00:54:14,254 But unfortunately, when I was in grade ten, 1023 00:54:14,338 --> 00:54:17,591 my dad passed in a road accident. 1024 00:54:17,674 --> 00:54:21,720 My mom was not able to raise school fees for me to go to the campus. 1025 00:54:21,803 --> 00:54:24,056 So I had to stay home six years. 1026 00:54:24,139 --> 00:54:28,435 Just fetching firewood, collecting water, and doing some home chores. 1027 00:54:28,519 --> 00:54:30,812 So in those six years, I felt so terrible, 1028 00:54:30,896 --> 00:54:35,526 because I felt that I was becoming a burden to my mom and everybody. 1029 00:54:35,609 --> 00:54:38,320 So I felt so discouraged and so hopeless. 1030 00:54:38,403 --> 00:54:41,114 So I went to the river, and then I felt that… 1031 00:54:41,198 --> 00:54:43,325 "Let me just drown myself into this river. 1032 00:54:43,408 --> 00:54:45,452 End it here, so that… 1033 00:54:45,536 --> 00:54:47,579 I will never see my mother suffer, 1034 00:54:47,663 --> 00:54:49,998 I will never see my sisters and my siblings… 1035 00:54:50,082 --> 00:54:51,542 Just let me end this." 1036 00:54:52,793 --> 00:54:54,920 And I sat there for some time, and I thought… 1037 00:54:55,003 --> 00:54:58,924 "If I end my life now, and I'm the firstborn in my family… 1038 00:54:59,007 --> 00:55:01,009 what example will I have shown to my family?" 1039 00:55:01,093 --> 00:55:03,053 -Wow. -So I woke up, 1040 00:55:03,136 --> 00:55:04,972 took the water, and went home. 1041 00:55:05,055 --> 00:55:06,515 After two weeks… 1042 00:55:06,598 --> 00:55:09,476 I was called for an interview here at the WE College. 1043 00:55:09,560 --> 00:55:10,769 -Wow. -[Chep] Just a miracle. 1044 00:55:10,853 --> 00:55:13,647 But look at me now. I'm a role model in my community. 1045 00:55:13,730 --> 00:55:14,565 [both] You are. 1046 00:55:14,648 --> 00:55:17,568 Some people call me and tell me to talk-- to speak to the girls… 1047 00:55:17,651 --> 00:55:21,822 and I usually tell them, even if it means doing what you do daily… 1048 00:55:21,905 --> 00:55:24,783 Continue doing it, and a miracle will come ahead of you. 1049 00:55:24,867 --> 00:55:26,118 -Yeah. -[Chep] Yeah. 1050 00:55:26,702 --> 00:55:31,999 That takes so much courage, to think about wanting to end your life. 1051 00:55:33,542 --> 00:55:37,963 And understanding that that's not what you are meant to do. 1052 00:55:38,046 --> 00:55:40,132 -Yes. -[Gomez] All by yourself. 1053 00:55:40,215 --> 00:55:43,177 And I really relate to that. So when you say that, 1054 00:55:43,260 --> 00:55:47,389 I know that feeling where you're about to do something 1055 00:55:47,472 --> 00:55:48,807 -to hurt yourself. -[Chep] Yeah. 1056 00:55:50,851 --> 00:55:53,228 And I'm so happy to know you. [chuckles] 1057 00:55:53,312 --> 00:55:55,772 It's an honor for me to know you too. [chuckles] 1058 00:55:55,856 --> 00:55:58,442 [chuckles, sniffles] 1059 00:55:58,942 --> 00:56:01,528 [thunder rumbling] 1060 00:56:06,575 --> 00:56:07,951 [shouting] 1061 00:56:08,035 --> 00:56:10,913 Oh. Raquelle! Come on. 1062 00:56:11,788 --> 00:56:13,165 [shouts] 1063 00:56:22,132 --> 00:56:24,801 [Gomez] One of my, like, goals in life-- 1064 00:56:24,885 --> 00:56:28,555 I've, like, had this in my mind for seven years, um, 1065 00:56:29,306 --> 00:56:32,267 -is to create a bill… -Yeah. Oh, wow. 1066 00:56:32,351 --> 00:56:37,856 …where it is required to have a therapy, sort of, class 1067 00:56:37,940 --> 00:56:40,943 in elementary school on to high school. 1068 00:56:41,443 --> 00:56:44,613 I just think, you know, when you're a kid and you're in kindergarten, 1069 00:56:44,696 --> 00:56:46,865 they ask you, like, how you're feeling. 1070 00:56:46,949 --> 00:56:50,869 There's, like, a smiley face or sad face, and they're learning emotions, 1071 00:56:50,953 --> 00:56:56,583 and that's amazing, but then why would we not continue to talk about that? 1072 00:56:56,667 --> 00:56:59,503 -Feelings only get more complicated… -Yes. 1073 00:56:59,586 --> 00:57:02,840 -…and i-it's-- it gets harder to navigate. -Mm-hmm. 1074 00:57:02,923 --> 00:57:05,300 -[host] Can I ask a very odd question? -[Gomez] Yeah. 1075 00:57:05,384 --> 00:57:08,387 -What's holding you back from doing it? -It's ready to go. 1076 00:57:09,471 --> 00:57:12,474 Um, that I'm not able to. That I'm not capable. 1077 00:57:13,183 --> 00:57:14,184 [charity member] Mmm. 1078 00:57:14,935 --> 00:57:16,979 You know, I'm not good enough. 1079 00:57:17,062 --> 00:57:18,063 [charity member] Mmm. 1080 00:57:19,106 --> 00:57:24,361 I don't know. That's something that I've felt a lot of growing up. 1081 00:57:24,444 --> 00:57:27,573 -[charity member] Mm-hmm. Yeah. -[Gomez] Mmm. 1082 00:57:27,656 --> 00:57:32,828 But it's the very thing that makes you feel that, 1083 00:57:33,453 --> 00:57:35,289 is why you can relate to others. 1084 00:57:35,372 --> 00:57:38,250 So it's the exact reason why you are the perfect person. 1085 00:57:43,172 --> 00:57:46,258 [Gomez] The truth is, I've never felt good enough. 1086 00:57:47,259 --> 00:57:49,845 Even when I'm on stage and in front of a crowd, 1087 00:57:49,928 --> 00:57:53,932 I'll always find the one person who doesn't like me, and I believe them. 1088 00:57:54,975 --> 00:57:56,602 I wanna believe in myself. 1089 00:57:57,936 --> 00:58:00,439 The people I've met here in Kenya are so giving. 1090 00:58:01,148 --> 00:58:03,692 I just want to feel like I deserve to be here with them. 1091 00:58:03,775 --> 00:58:05,944 [cowbell ringing] 1092 00:58:06,028 --> 00:58:07,404 [Stevens] We can talk more later. 1093 00:58:07,487 --> 00:58:08,655 -About what? -About all this. 1094 00:58:09,156 --> 00:58:11,658 -About what? Oh, I know. [sniffs] -I know you're feeling sad. 1095 00:58:11,742 --> 00:58:13,452 We should do a trip quarterly. 1096 00:58:13,535 --> 00:58:15,662 Like, we should plan this, like, every quarter. 1097 00:58:16,288 --> 00:58:21,084 We also need to talk about, like, why you hate going home so much, 1098 00:58:21,168 --> 00:58:22,961 why you don't wanna turn on your phone. Like, that's-- 1099 00:58:23,045 --> 00:58:24,379 You shouldn't feel that way. 1100 00:58:24,463 --> 00:58:27,508 Do you know what I mean? So it's like, what can you implement in your life 1101 00:58:27,591 --> 00:58:30,344 that makes you not anxious to turn on your phone, 1102 00:58:30,427 --> 00:58:34,139 that makes you not sad to go home, that makes you not hate your job. 1103 00:58:34,223 --> 00:58:35,224 -Do you know what I'm saying? -Mmm. 1104 00:58:35,307 --> 00:58:38,352 It's like, what-- 'Cause-- 'Cause you can implement things in your life 1105 00:58:38,435 --> 00:58:39,520 that help you get through that. 1106 00:58:39,603 --> 00:58:42,981 You don't have to live your life constantly in that state. 1107 00:58:43,065 --> 00:58:46,485 In a way, that's just escaping r-reality. Do you know what I mean? It's like-- 1108 00:58:46,568 --> 00:58:48,111 Or is this reality? 1109 00:58:48,195 --> 00:58:51,073 This isn't reality. This is their reality. This is-- 1110 00:58:51,156 --> 00:58:53,450 This can be reality a few times a year. 1111 00:58:53,534 --> 00:58:56,203 You can come and volunteer and come for a week, 1112 00:58:56,286 --> 00:58:58,539 but this is-- this isn't reality. 1113 00:59:00,707 --> 00:59:04,837 ♪ I just wanna stay here forever ♪ 1114 00:59:04,920 --> 00:59:07,548 ♪ I don't wanna close my eyes ♪ 1115 00:59:08,966 --> 00:59:13,011 ♪ I just wanna stay here forever ♪ 1116 00:59:13,095 --> 00:59:15,889 ♪ I don't wanna close my eyes ♪ 1117 00:59:17,224 --> 00:59:20,686 ♪ I just wanna stay here forever ♪ 1118 00:59:21,436 --> 00:59:24,147 ♪ I don't wanna close my eyes ♪ 1119 00:59:25,482 --> 00:59:29,444 ♪ I just wanna stay here forever ♪ 1120 00:59:29,528 --> 00:59:33,282 ♪ I don't wanna close my eyes ♪ 1121 00:59:33,365 --> 00:59:36,034 [cheering] 1122 00:59:48,463 --> 00:59:50,007 [clamoring] 1123 00:59:50,757 --> 00:59:51,800 [horn honking] 1124 00:59:54,386 --> 00:59:56,680 -[Gomez] Who is that? -[crew member] The paparazzi's blocking. 1125 00:59:56,763 --> 00:59:58,640 [Keshishian] Oh, my God. That's a paparazzi carpool. 1126 00:59:58,724 --> 01:00:00,058 [crew member] Yeah, they're teaming up. 1127 01:00:03,520 --> 01:00:05,606 It's very loud here, Chris. 1128 01:00:05,689 --> 01:00:06,940 [Chris] I know. 1129 01:00:08,567 --> 01:00:11,904 I do feel, like, a bit of a culture shock. 1130 01:00:11,987 --> 01:00:12,988 [Chris] I know. 1131 01:00:14,656 --> 01:00:17,409 -[Mingus] Selena? Good morning. -Mm-hmm. 1132 01:00:17,993 --> 01:00:18,994 [Gomez] Hey. 1133 01:00:19,828 --> 01:00:23,457 It's 7:00. Glam's gonna start in a half hour. 1134 01:00:24,124 --> 01:00:25,501 [Stevens] Selly? 1135 01:00:26,293 --> 01:00:28,462 Oh no, I just had a bad dream. 1136 01:00:28,545 --> 01:00:31,882 Do you know, I didn't have one bad dream in Kenya? 1137 01:00:31,965 --> 01:00:34,009 -[friend] I know, and then-- -She didn't have bad dreams in Kenya. 1138 01:00:34,092 --> 01:00:35,093 [Gomez] What was I saying? 1139 01:00:35,177 --> 01:00:38,096 I only heard a few things 'cause you were, like, mumbling, 1140 01:00:38,180 --> 01:00:41,683 but, like, the one thing was, like, "I got coffee for everyone!" 1141 01:00:41,767 --> 01:00:43,936 -And I was like, "Oh, wow!" -She said that? 1142 01:00:44,019 --> 01:00:45,687 [friend laughs] And then she was like… 1143 01:00:46,772 --> 01:00:48,065 [Stevens] Doing stuff like today, 1144 01:00:48,148 --> 01:00:52,152 it allows you the platform to really be able to do trips like that 1145 01:00:52,236 --> 01:00:53,987 -and make a difference, you know? -Mmm. 1146 01:00:54,071 --> 01:00:57,908 So even though this kind of stuff's hard, it-it, you know… 1147 01:00:58,408 --> 01:01:01,286 Can you order some Thai? That Thai dish? 1148 01:01:01,370 --> 01:01:03,163 [Stevens] You want Thai right now? 7:00 a.m.? 1149 01:01:03,247 --> 01:01:04,706 -Yep. -Let's make it happen. 1150 01:01:09,461 --> 01:01:12,756 In the studio, it is the one, the only, the absolute queen… 1151 01:01:12,840 --> 01:01:14,341 -Aw. -…that is Selena Gomez! 1152 01:01:14,424 --> 01:01:15,801 [cheering] 1153 01:01:15,884 --> 01:01:17,344 -[host] So, your album's coming out. -Yeah. 1154 01:01:17,427 --> 01:01:18,512 You had a break from music. 1155 01:01:18,595 --> 01:01:21,306 What did you get up to on your-- on your time off, on your break away? 1156 01:01:21,390 --> 01:01:25,435 Some stuff happened in between that was a bit personal and hard, 1157 01:01:25,519 --> 01:01:31,358 and, um, then towards the end, it was-- it was necessary. 1158 01:01:31,441 --> 01:01:33,694 Hello, everyone. I am Selena Gomez, 1159 01:01:33,777 --> 01:01:37,990 and I am answering questions from the Internet. 1160 01:01:38,073 --> 01:01:41,118 "Selena Gomez eats Oreos with a fork." 1161 01:01:41,201 --> 01:01:44,413 Um, these are just great. I'm doing great things for the world. 1162 01:01:44,496 --> 01:01:45,998 Which interview number is this of the day? 1163 01:01:46,081 --> 01:01:47,082 Four. 1164 01:01:47,165 --> 01:01:48,750 -[Green] Four? -[Maskell] Four already? 1165 01:01:48,834 --> 01:01:50,878 -[clamoring] -[Barr] Selena, your single 1166 01:01:50,961 --> 01:01:52,671 makes me really emotional, and I want to give you a hug 1167 01:01:52,754 --> 01:01:55,174 and wrap you in a blanket and just talk about boys forever. 1168 01:01:55,257 --> 01:01:57,843 I think the point of the song is so that I really 1169 01:01:57,926 --> 01:02:00,220 don't need to sit around and talk about boys. 1170 01:02:01,346 --> 01:02:03,056 [paparazzo] Selena, for your fans! 1171 01:02:03,140 --> 01:02:06,143 Hey, it's Selena Gomez, and I'm playing the Emoji Game. 1172 01:02:06,226 --> 01:02:08,770 But have you got a guilty-pleasure weird food combination? 1173 01:02:08,854 --> 01:02:10,230 Popcorn and pickle juice. 1174 01:02:10,314 --> 01:02:11,940 [interviewer] What is your favorite color? 1175 01:02:12,024 --> 01:02:13,942 My favorite color is red. 1176 01:02:15,360 --> 01:02:16,236 Wizards of Waverly Place. 1177 01:02:16,320 --> 01:02:17,196 -[Gomez laughs] -Stop. 1178 01:02:19,156 --> 01:02:21,491 So it's one DJ equals one word. 1179 01:02:22,242 --> 01:02:23,952 "Marshmello." 1180 01:02:24,953 --> 01:02:27,206 -Fluffy. -Okay. And that's it. Thank you. 1181 01:02:27,289 --> 01:02:28,916 -[cameraman] Thank you. -Thanks. 1182 01:02:28,999 --> 01:02:30,292 Oh. Okay, sorry. 1183 01:02:31,627 --> 01:02:32,628 [sighs] 1184 01:02:34,713 --> 01:02:37,007 [crew member] Those were some weird-ass questions. 1185 01:02:37,090 --> 01:02:38,300 [crew members chuckling] 1186 01:02:38,383 --> 01:02:40,761 It just seems like such a waste of time. 1187 01:02:43,847 --> 01:02:45,390 What am I doing right now? 1188 01:02:46,767 --> 01:02:51,021 [friend] Right now, we're getting up, and then glam is coming in ten minutes. 1189 01:02:52,022 --> 01:02:54,358 Sorry, I was asleep. What do I have to do? 1190 01:02:54,441 --> 01:02:56,109 -[gulps, laughs] -[scoffs] 1191 01:02:57,444 --> 01:02:59,446 The feelings that you feel when you're jet-lagged-- 1192 01:02:59,530 --> 01:03:01,031 You never feel them any other time. 1193 01:03:01,114 --> 01:03:04,368 -[hair stylist] What is that? -[Marino] Like, combination of all things. 1194 01:03:04,451 --> 01:03:06,328 -[hair stylist] It's not even tired. -[Marino] I know. 1195 01:03:06,411 --> 01:03:09,373 [hair stylist] You feel like you are just in another world. 1196 01:03:09,456 --> 01:03:11,250 -[Marino] Like, in space. -[hair stylist] Yeah. 1197 01:03:17,256 --> 01:03:18,465 [nail technician] Okay, put in. 1198 01:03:21,176 --> 01:03:22,177 [beeps] 1199 01:03:22,261 --> 01:03:26,098 [sirens wailing] 1200 01:03:26,682 --> 01:03:27,766 There's my ride. 1201 01:03:27,850 --> 01:03:31,770 [crew members laughing] 1202 01:03:33,856 --> 01:03:37,693 [Stevens] You know we have Marissa's birthday dinner the night we get back? 1203 01:03:38,694 --> 01:03:41,488 [Gomez] The night we get back? No. I'd rather do what I'm doing. 1204 01:03:41,572 --> 01:03:44,908 I'm not going to that. I have to do-- shoot a music video the next day. 1205 01:03:46,535 --> 01:03:47,536 Nice. 1206 01:03:48,161 --> 01:03:50,581 -I mean, it's a lot. -It'll be good. 1207 01:03:50,664 --> 01:03:53,625 No, it is good, but you're gonna be kind of messed up for a few days. 1208 01:03:53,709 --> 01:03:55,961 Yeah, totally. Just thought you would wanna come, 1209 01:03:56,044 --> 01:03:57,588 -but that's just-- Mmm. -I would, 1210 01:03:57,671 --> 01:03:59,965 -but I'm not gonna have one day to adjust. -Okay. 1211 01:04:00,048 --> 01:04:03,177 Do you think that I'm complaining about my job? 1212 01:04:03,260 --> 01:04:07,431 Yeah. You felt-- You sounded like you were. [clears throat] 1213 01:04:07,514 --> 01:04:10,851 Not at all. Raquelle, I was saying I need to get rest. 1214 01:04:10,934 --> 01:04:14,021 -Not like it's a bad thing. Of course I-- -[clears throat] No, it's not a bad thing. 1215 01:04:14,104 --> 01:04:15,898 It was the way you said it. Not what you said. 1216 01:04:15,981 --> 01:04:18,150 So I was not complaining about work. 1217 01:04:18,233 --> 01:04:22,279 I was literally just complaining that it'd be nice if I get more sleep. 1218 01:04:22,362 --> 01:04:23,447 [clears throat] 1219 01:04:24,823 --> 01:04:25,908 [Gomez sighs] 1220 01:04:26,700 --> 01:04:29,661 -You think I'm ungrateful for it-- -No, I don't think you're ungrateful. 1221 01:04:29,745 --> 01:04:33,415 I just feel like you've been so ups-- like, down, over the past couple days, 1222 01:04:33,498 --> 01:04:36,210 so I just-- I'm trying to figure out what's going on. 1223 01:04:36,293 --> 01:04:38,253 But we had the most amazing week in Africa-- 1224 01:04:38,337 --> 01:04:39,713 I know. 1225 01:04:40,297 --> 01:04:41,340 I'm just waking up. 1226 01:04:41,423 --> 01:04:44,551 You've heard me tell everybody how much I love London. 1227 01:04:44,635 --> 01:04:46,386 What else do you want from me? 1228 01:04:46,929 --> 01:04:47,930 Nothing. 1229 01:04:52,851 --> 01:04:53,769 [clears throat] 1230 01:04:53,852 --> 01:04:57,147 I just was asking, "Are you good?" 'Cause you don't seem happy. 1231 01:04:57,231 --> 01:04:58,607 I'm having fun. 1232 01:04:58,690 --> 01:05:00,317 Good. I'm so happy you're having fun. 1233 01:05:00,400 --> 01:05:03,362 Like, it doesn't seem like it to me, so I was just asking you. 1234 01:05:03,445 --> 01:05:05,656 -I'm so fucking done. -[coughs] 1235 01:05:06,365 --> 01:05:07,366 Mm-mmm. 1236 01:05:09,535 --> 01:05:11,620 [chews, coughs] 1237 01:05:12,579 --> 01:05:14,414 [French fans clamoring] 1238 01:05:20,504 --> 01:05:21,505 Whew. 1239 01:05:22,714 --> 01:05:24,424 -Hey. -[crew chattering] 1240 01:05:25,008 --> 01:05:27,761 [NRJ interviewer] About your new album, what would you like your fans 1241 01:05:27,845 --> 01:05:30,305 to keep in mind with this new project? 1242 01:05:31,640 --> 01:05:35,018 So I felt like it was the right time to tell my story 1243 01:05:35,102 --> 01:05:38,272 before it's past a point that it didn't matter. 1244 01:05:38,355 --> 01:05:41,775 I felt like the message I needed to release in "Lose You to Love Me" 1245 01:05:41,859 --> 01:05:44,236 was meant to be a song for others. 1246 01:05:44,319 --> 01:05:47,072 It's-- It's meant to tell people that they're not alone 1247 01:05:47,155 --> 01:05:49,867 and that it's such a complicated feeling, 1248 01:05:49,950 --> 01:05:52,828 and the one thing you wanna do is be able to let it go. 1249 01:05:52,911 --> 01:05:58,208 You're a singer, you're an actor, you worked into production, in fashion. 1250 01:05:58,292 --> 01:06:01,837 Uh, is there any other hat you would like to try? 1251 01:06:02,629 --> 01:06:03,755 -In future? -Uh, 1252 01:06:03,839 --> 01:06:07,926 uh, I gotta say I'll do a little bit of all of this for a while. 1253 01:06:08,594 --> 01:06:11,346 But eventually, when it all slows down for me, 1254 01:06:11,430 --> 01:06:15,517 I'm probably going to devote most of my life to philanthropy. 1255 01:06:16,185 --> 01:06:17,436 -Okay. That's good for me. -Yeah. 1256 01:06:17,519 --> 01:06:19,688 -[scoffs] Wow. Thank you. -[laughs] 1257 01:06:21,273 --> 01:06:23,317 -Appreciate it. -[laughs] Thank you very much. 1258 01:06:23,400 --> 01:06:24,985 Felt like you really understood. 1259 01:06:26,778 --> 01:06:27,821 All right, are we good? 1260 01:06:27,905 --> 01:06:29,865 -[NRJ employee] Yeah. -[crew member] Getting on my nerves. 1261 01:06:33,535 --> 01:06:34,661 Can I sit, please? 1262 01:06:34,745 --> 01:06:35,913 Yeah, honey. 1263 01:06:36,830 --> 01:06:38,332 -Come on in. -[crew member] We're done. 1264 01:06:38,415 --> 01:06:39,583 [stylist] We're gonna change you. 1265 01:06:39,666 --> 01:06:42,211 -Fucking dumbest thing I've ever done. -What happened? 1266 01:06:43,045 --> 01:06:46,465 I'm done. I can't do that anymore. That's so stupid. 1267 01:06:46,548 --> 01:06:49,051 Do you know how much-- how, like, cheap it makes me feel? I-- 1268 01:06:49,134 --> 01:06:50,427 -[groans] -Yeah. 1269 01:06:50,511 --> 01:06:53,472 She's asking me questions, like, good ones, 1270 01:06:53,555 --> 01:06:57,100 and then she didn't even pay attention to what I was saying. 1271 01:06:59,394 --> 01:07:00,687 I don't wanna do that ever again. 1272 01:07:01,522 --> 01:07:03,440 I feel like a product. 1273 01:07:04,483 --> 01:07:05,567 [sighs] Oh, God. 1274 01:07:10,030 --> 01:07:12,658 -It was, like, making me angry. -[crew member] Yeah. 1275 01:07:13,534 --> 01:07:16,745 You know-- You know what it is, is it made me feel like Disney. 1276 01:07:17,746 --> 01:07:19,122 [crew member] It's a trigger. 1277 01:07:19,206 --> 01:07:24,628 I don't-- I just-- I've spent years-- years of my life trying to not be that. 1278 01:07:25,963 --> 01:07:28,215 I fucking look like a witch, 1279 01:07:28,298 --> 01:07:30,968 with the outfit doing it all-- like, the wand again. 1280 01:07:33,637 --> 01:07:35,639 -Whatever. It's fine. -[Keshishian] You got it done. 1281 01:07:35,722 --> 01:07:37,266 -You don't have to do it again. -Yeah. 1282 01:07:40,018 --> 01:07:42,062 [fans clamoring] 1283 01:07:46,316 --> 01:07:47,651 Hi. 1284 01:07:47,734 --> 01:07:49,027 [cheering] 1285 01:07:49,111 --> 01:07:50,904 [fans shouting] Selena! 1286 01:07:54,950 --> 01:07:59,246 -Hi, Selena. How are you? -Selena! 1287 01:07:59,329 --> 01:08:03,584 [clamoring] 1288 01:08:03,667 --> 01:08:05,752 [fans shouting] Selena! 1289 01:08:07,337 --> 01:08:09,131 Oh, I'm going over there. 1290 01:08:09,631 --> 01:08:10,883 [fan 1] You're so pretty. Thank you. 1291 01:08:10,966 --> 01:08:13,594 -[crying] -How are you? It's okay. 1292 01:08:15,596 --> 01:08:17,680 -[crying] -It's okay. You're all good. 1293 01:08:17,764 --> 01:08:20,142 -Everything's-- Good tears, hopefully? -Yes, yes, yes. 1294 01:08:20,225 --> 01:08:21,059 Okay. 1295 01:08:21,143 --> 01:08:23,478 -Can we take a picture? -Yeah. Let's take a picture. 1296 01:08:23,562 --> 01:08:24,897 [fan 2] Selena, photo, quick! 1297 01:08:24,979 --> 01:08:26,899 [cheering continues] 1298 01:08:29,734 --> 01:08:31,987 -[bodyguard] All right? -I'm good. Okay. 1299 01:08:49,630 --> 01:08:51,673 [sighs] 1300 01:08:53,966 --> 01:08:54,968 [grunts] 1301 01:08:57,179 --> 01:08:58,930 [Stevens] Do you want to do your morning meds? 1302 01:08:59,014 --> 01:09:00,432 Mmm. 1303 01:09:00,515 --> 01:09:04,185 [Stevens] I know the answer, but… you should. 1304 01:09:06,604 --> 01:09:09,774 -[paparazzi chattering] -[paparazzo] Morning, Selena! 1305 01:09:09,858 --> 01:09:11,026 [camera shutters clicking] 1306 01:09:12,319 --> 01:09:14,238 [breathes deeply] 1307 01:09:14,321 --> 01:09:18,367 [mouthing indistinctly] 1308 01:09:18,450 --> 01:09:20,911 Just attach it to the inside or up and under. 1309 01:09:23,080 --> 01:09:24,997 [Capital FM employee] Do you know what you're doing? 1310 01:09:25,082 --> 01:09:27,751 -Nope. I work better that way. -[laughs] 1311 01:09:27,835 --> 01:09:30,796 [chuckles] Well, we're gonna leave you in the room, basically alone. 1312 01:09:30,879 --> 01:09:33,048 You're doing it to the mirror. It's a conversation with yourself. 1313 01:09:33,131 --> 01:09:36,426 -Okay. -Um, and then you'll just hear, um, 1314 01:09:36,510 --> 01:09:38,636 directions from-- coming from that speaker over there. 1315 01:09:38,720 --> 01:09:40,471 -Mkay. -And then we'll just roll with it. 1316 01:09:41,055 --> 01:09:42,349 -All right. -Awesome. 1317 01:09:44,059 --> 01:09:47,854 [Capital FM employee 2] Hi, Selena. Could you please open the first envelope? 1318 01:09:52,359 --> 01:09:55,737 "A song that reminds you of being in love." 1319 01:10:05,497 --> 01:10:08,333 [clicks tongue] I don't know if I have one. 1320 01:10:08,917 --> 01:10:10,127 [chuckles] 1321 01:10:11,170 --> 01:10:13,172 Envelope number two, please. 1322 01:10:15,841 --> 01:10:16,842 [clears throat] 1323 01:10:18,719 --> 01:10:20,679 "What do you see when you look in the mirror?" 1324 01:10:20,762 --> 01:10:22,055 Why are they so deep? 1325 01:10:26,435 --> 01:10:28,187 [clicks tongue] I, uh… 1326 01:10:30,856 --> 01:10:32,482 [sighs] I see… 1327 01:10:35,527 --> 01:10:38,822 Yeah. Still working on what I see in the mirror, I suppose. 1328 01:10:41,491 --> 01:10:42,868 These are good questions. 1329 01:10:43,952 --> 01:10:46,580 What's your ultimate dream? 1330 01:10:48,040 --> 01:10:54,004 My ultimate dream is that I am able to save… 1331 01:10:54,838 --> 01:10:56,882 people's lives through… 1332 01:10:56,965 --> 01:10:59,301 [sighs] …through something, 1333 01:10:59,384 --> 01:11:04,723 whether it's a song, music, or if it's me, just speaking about the troubles 1334 01:11:04,806 --> 01:11:07,184 and the trials and tribulations that I had gone through. 1335 01:11:07,267 --> 01:11:12,523 That I could be a voice for others who maybe don't know what's going on 1336 01:11:12,606 --> 01:11:13,732 or what they're feeling. 1337 01:11:13,815 --> 01:11:16,401 Um, that's what I hope. [chuckles] 1338 01:11:16,485 --> 01:11:19,154 Incredible. Thank you so much. 1339 01:11:31,083 --> 01:11:33,836 [Gomez] There is a girl who's crippled by anxiety 1340 01:11:35,337 --> 01:11:37,714 and can't move when she looks in the mirror. 1341 01:11:39,341 --> 01:11:43,595 She smiles when everyone is looking but cries when she's alone. 1342 01:11:45,222 --> 01:11:48,141 She hides because she's terrified to show herself. 1343 01:11:51,186 --> 01:11:52,604 My world is so empty. 1344 01:11:53,689 --> 01:11:55,732 My world is so big and cold. 1345 01:11:58,527 --> 01:12:00,153 I want joy and hope. 1346 01:12:01,238 --> 01:12:03,365 Clean air where I can finally breathe. 1347 01:12:05,158 --> 01:12:08,620 What has been is not what will be. 1348 01:12:24,136 --> 01:12:27,097 Why is everyone wearing a T-shirt that says "rare"? 1349 01:12:29,725 --> 01:12:32,227 [Fallon] Rare is out now. Rolling Stone loves it. 1350 01:12:32,311 --> 01:12:33,645 Billboard calls you triumphant. 1351 01:12:33,729 --> 01:12:36,648 Variety said Rare's one of the best pop albums to be released 1352 01:12:36,732 --> 01:12:38,358 -in recent memory. -[radio host] This is Selena's 1353 01:12:38,442 --> 01:12:41,111 third studio album and her first in four years. 1354 01:12:41,195 --> 01:12:44,781 The singer saying, "It's by far the work I'm most proud of to date." 1355 01:12:45,616 --> 01:12:46,992 [Gomez] Kenya was like a dream. 1356 01:12:47,743 --> 01:12:50,621 When I even asked about boys, just out of curiosity 1357 01:12:50,704 --> 01:12:52,998 they were like, "No, no." 1358 01:12:53,081 --> 01:12:54,333 -[chuckling] -"We're just"-- 1359 01:12:54,416 --> 01:12:57,461 You know, they giggled. They're like, "We want to do what we want to do, 1360 01:12:57,544 --> 01:12:59,630 and then it will happen." And I was like, preach. 1361 01:12:59,713 --> 01:13:01,131 -[laughs] -That's awesome. 1362 01:13:01,215 --> 01:13:06,011 I mean, these girls were more confident than I was, and it was beautiful to see. 1363 01:13:06,094 --> 01:13:09,097 And at times-- I'm very, um… 1364 01:13:10,057 --> 01:13:11,850 I overthink 1365 01:13:11,934 --> 01:13:15,812 and I feel like if I'm not having some sort of aspect of my life 1366 01:13:15,896 --> 01:13:20,484 where I'm giving, it's not-- It makes me f-- It just makes-- 1367 01:13:20,567 --> 01:13:22,027 It doesn't make me feel good. It makes me feel 1368 01:13:22,110 --> 01:13:26,406 like I'm just taking, taking, taking and people should give me this 1369 01:13:26,490 --> 01:13:28,492 and give me that, um, 1370 01:13:28,575 --> 01:13:30,619 even though that's not my personality. 1371 01:13:30,702 --> 01:13:33,413 So now I want to make it a quarterly thing. 1372 01:13:34,081 --> 01:13:36,083 I have a dinner with Aleen and Zack, 1373 01:13:36,166 --> 01:13:37,960 and we're gonna discuss, you know, 1374 01:13:38,043 --> 01:13:39,127 -my goals. -[Keshishian] Yeah. 1375 01:13:40,295 --> 01:13:45,425 Can we talk, for a minute, about the trip and the WE organization, 1376 01:13:45,509 --> 01:13:46,969 -and why don't you start? -[Gomez] Mmm. 1377 01:13:47,052 --> 01:13:49,721 Like just tell us a little bit about what you're thinking. 1378 01:13:49,805 --> 01:13:53,350 I would love to find a way to build a curriculum 1379 01:13:53,433 --> 01:13:55,936 that can be taught in schools. 1380 01:13:56,019 --> 01:14:01,316 There's so much to be said about being connected with your emotions 1381 01:14:01,400 --> 01:14:02,651 and having that intelligence. 1382 01:14:02,734 --> 01:14:05,445 You're kind of like-- I mean, you're kinda fucked 1383 01:14:05,529 --> 01:14:06,989 -if you don't understand it. -You also-- 1384 01:14:07,072 --> 01:14:08,657 You have no compassion, you have no empathy. 1385 01:14:08,740 --> 01:14:10,409 -Yeah. -You have-- You have no way 1386 01:14:10,492 --> 01:14:13,328 of connecting with people because you don't even know how to. 1387 01:14:13,412 --> 01:14:16,164 This is sort of the thing that you want to be. 1388 01:14:16,248 --> 01:14:18,000 -It-it-it's something-- -You wanna do. 1389 01:14:18,083 --> 01:14:20,169 Very, very important to me. 1390 01:14:21,545 --> 01:14:25,340 [radio host] I want to start today with discussion over a deadly new virus 1391 01:14:25,424 --> 01:14:28,427 that some health officials say might affect thousands 1392 01:14:28,510 --> 01:14:30,762 or even millions of people this year. 1393 01:14:30,846 --> 01:14:33,473 The second US case announced just this morning. 1394 01:14:33,557 --> 01:14:36,476 It's a new strain of what's called coronavirus. 1395 01:14:39,605 --> 01:14:41,273 [newscaster] Major cities across the country 1396 01:14:41,356 --> 01:14:42,983 are looking more like ghost towns. 1397 01:14:43,066 --> 01:14:45,736 [newscaster 2] Seemingly overnight, much of our daily lives have been 1398 01:14:45,819 --> 01:14:46,862 put on hold. 1399 01:14:46,945 --> 01:14:50,824 All Americans now trying to navigate what we're kind of calling "a new normal." 1400 01:14:51,867 --> 01:14:54,077 [newscaster 3] Infrastructure from large private companies 1401 01:14:54,161 --> 01:14:56,163 like Microsoft to the Department of Energy 1402 01:14:56,246 --> 01:14:59,291 and even the Department of Treasury all hit. 1403 01:14:59,374 --> 01:15:01,960 -Lawmakers are now demanding answers… -Hey Sel, 1404 01:15:02,044 --> 01:15:03,795 we're going to take your blood pressure. 1405 01:15:03,879 --> 01:15:05,130 [Stevens] Hello, Winnie. 1406 01:15:07,007 --> 01:15:08,759 [newscaster] Good evening, and thanks for joining us. 1407 01:15:08,842 --> 01:15:10,886 We begin with breaking news about WE Charity, 1408 01:15:10,969 --> 01:15:13,764 the organization at the heart of the latest ethics investigation 1409 01:15:13,847 --> 01:15:15,891 involving Prime Minister Justin Trudeau. 1410 01:15:15,974 --> 01:15:19,186 WE Charity is shutting down its Canadian operations. 1411 01:15:19,269 --> 01:15:21,563 The charity ran into trouble after the Liberal government 1412 01:15:21,647 --> 01:15:25,400 awarded it a sole-sourced, multimillion-dollar contract to run a… 1413 01:15:25,484 --> 01:15:27,653 [Gomez] The accusations against the WE Charity 1414 01:15:27,736 --> 01:15:31,865 made the work I had just planned to do with them impossible. 1415 01:15:31,949 --> 01:15:32,950 [groans] 1416 01:15:33,033 --> 01:15:34,409 [Kielburger] The most important thing… 1417 01:15:34,493 --> 01:15:37,538 [Gomez] It broke my heart because I had seen their good intentions, 1418 01:15:38,080 --> 01:15:41,333 and I had met the women in Kenya whose lives had been changed. 1419 01:15:41,834 --> 01:15:43,836 But now it was all so complicated. 1420 01:15:43,919 --> 01:15:46,129 [Kielburger] We started the organization back in 1995 1421 01:15:46,213 --> 01:15:49,174 when we were kids in Thornhill, in our parent's basements, 1422 01:15:49,258 --> 01:15:52,177 -and, uh, this is our 25th anniversary… -Can't listen to it. That's such a bummer. 1423 01:15:52,845 --> 01:15:54,388 [Gomez] I was devastated. 1424 01:15:55,347 --> 01:15:56,348 I was angry. 1425 01:15:57,474 --> 01:16:01,937 The Covid-19 pandemic was beginning to cut us all off from friends and family. 1426 01:16:02,563 --> 01:16:06,066 And the purpose I had found in Kenya felt like it had been taken away. 1427 01:16:07,526 --> 01:16:09,903 Then just when I thought it couldn't get any worse, 1428 01:16:10,571 --> 01:16:11,572 it did. 1429 01:16:11,655 --> 01:16:13,657 [cries] I don't know. [sniffs] 1430 01:16:13,740 --> 01:16:14,950 My lupus. 1431 01:16:17,536 --> 01:16:18,662 [cameraman] You're in pain? 1432 01:16:19,663 --> 01:16:21,081 -[cries] -Give me a hug. I'm sorry. 1433 01:16:21,164 --> 01:16:22,666 -It's okay. -[cameraman] I love you. 1434 01:16:22,749 --> 01:16:24,293 I love you too. [cries] 1435 01:16:24,376 --> 01:16:25,586 [cameraman] It'll get better. 1436 01:16:26,420 --> 01:16:28,881 They're going to figure it out. You're going to feel better. 1437 01:16:28,964 --> 01:16:30,841 [friend] Is this what it felt like before, 1438 01:16:30,924 --> 01:16:32,509 when you found out you had lupus? 1439 01:16:32,593 --> 01:16:34,720 [sobs] Yeah, but I was so young. 1440 01:16:34,803 --> 01:16:38,140 Like, I have not felt it since I was younger. [sobs] 1441 01:16:38,223 --> 01:16:41,268 -Oh, my God. -And so, like, now, it just hurts, 1442 01:16:41,351 --> 01:16:44,271 like, in the morning when I wake up, [sniffs] 1443 01:16:44,354 --> 01:16:47,149 I immediately start crying because it hurts. 1444 01:16:47,232 --> 01:16:49,526 -[friend] Yeah. -Like, everything. [sniffs] 1445 01:16:50,360 --> 01:16:56,200 I've been having, like, really bad dreams about, like, my past and stuff. [sniffs] 1446 01:16:57,034 --> 01:17:01,997 I think my past and my mistakes… [sniffs] …that's what drives me… 1447 01:17:04,208 --> 01:17:05,542 into depression. 1448 01:17:05,626 --> 01:17:08,337 It's like, my whole life since I was a kid, I have been working 1449 01:17:08,420 --> 01:17:12,049 and the only thing that I want is, like, a family. [sniffing] 1450 01:17:12,758 --> 01:17:15,302 I just, like, wanna be, like, a mom. 1451 01:17:15,385 --> 01:17:19,014 And I told Raquelle, I just, like, wanted to quit sometimes, 1452 01:17:19,097 --> 01:17:23,727 so I could just be happy and be normal like everybody else. [sniffs] 1453 01:17:24,686 --> 01:17:28,690 And she was just like, "I want you to know that I feel like God has given you 1454 01:17:28,774 --> 01:17:32,486 this platform not to quit." [sniffing] 1455 01:17:33,070 --> 01:17:35,239 I don't want to be, like, super famous. 1456 01:17:35,322 --> 01:17:36,865 I don't wanna be all that stuff. 1457 01:17:36,949 --> 01:17:40,702 But I do know that if I'm here, I have to use that for good. 1458 01:17:42,120 --> 01:17:46,625 I just feel stuck, and I just want to move forward. [sniffs] 1459 01:17:46,708 --> 01:17:47,918 Hello. 1460 01:17:48,001 --> 01:17:50,254 [Dr. Wallace] Hi, it's Dr. Wallace. 1461 01:17:50,337 --> 01:17:54,174 So I wanted to go over your results with you. 1462 01:17:54,258 --> 01:17:58,053 You have a positive rheumatoid factor, 1463 01:17:58,136 --> 01:18:04,935 which means that this is a lupus myositis rheumatoid overlap. 1464 01:18:05,018 --> 01:18:09,398 We could give you another dose of Rituxan which would probably, 1465 01:18:09,481 --> 01:18:11,275 at the rate you handle it, 1466 01:18:11,358 --> 01:18:15,696 get rid of your joint pain for probably a year or so. 1467 01:18:19,825 --> 01:18:20,868 Okay. 1468 01:18:20,951 --> 01:18:22,744 -[Dr. Wallace] Okay, bye. -Bye, Dr. Wallace. 1469 01:18:22,828 --> 01:18:24,204 -Bye. -[Dr. Wallace] Bye. 1470 01:18:26,999 --> 01:18:28,000 [sniffs] 1471 01:18:28,625 --> 01:18:31,044 [crew member] At least that explains some of why. 1472 01:18:32,671 --> 01:18:36,675 Yeah, I-I just always feel better when I have answers, 1473 01:18:38,051 --> 01:18:42,931 but the Rituxan was really hard to do last time, but I-I-- 1474 01:18:44,641 --> 01:18:45,851 [crew member] What is it? 1475 01:18:45,934 --> 01:18:51,356 Rituxan is a treatment that they give you through an IV, 1476 01:18:51,440 --> 01:18:54,526 and it's about four hours, five hours. 1477 01:18:54,610 --> 01:19:00,199 [stammers] It's really hard on your system at first, but, um, it's okay. 1478 01:19:10,083 --> 01:19:11,084 [nurse] It's okay. 1479 01:19:12,711 --> 01:19:17,049 They gave me something to relax because I can't stand being still. 1480 01:19:17,841 --> 01:19:20,052 My nana didn't wanna come, because she's-- 1481 01:19:21,094 --> 01:19:23,889 she's just seen me been put through all this. 1482 01:19:40,489 --> 01:19:41,990 [Mingus] Don't put it in your mouth. 1483 01:19:43,033 --> 01:19:44,034 [spitting] 1484 01:19:55,045 --> 01:19:56,046 [Gomez] Why am I here? 1485 01:19:56,964 --> 01:19:57,965 Why am I alive? 1486 01:19:58,048 --> 01:20:00,467 [Mingus] There she is, ballerina Thumbelina. 1487 01:20:00,968 --> 01:20:02,135 [Gomez] Clearly for something. 1488 01:20:04,596 --> 01:20:06,807 [Mingus] Baby's first bath. Let's see that rat. 1489 01:20:06,890 --> 01:20:08,392 -[screams] -[laughs] 1490 01:20:08,475 --> 01:20:09,977 [Mingus] All right, time for your bath. 1491 01:20:10,060 --> 01:20:11,311 -Shut up. [laughs] -[laughs] 1492 01:20:11,895 --> 01:20:14,565 I love my friends, love my family. I think I'm a great daughter. 1493 01:20:14,648 --> 01:20:18,652 I think I'm a great friend. And that means a lot to me. 1494 01:20:18,735 --> 01:20:21,071 -What is happening? -[laughs] 1495 01:20:21,154 --> 01:20:25,284 But clearly, I'm still here to use whatever I have 1496 01:20:25,367 --> 01:20:26,535 to help someone else. 1497 01:20:30,372 --> 01:20:32,583 A part of my heart is still in Kenya, 1498 01:20:33,709 --> 01:20:37,921 but I felt guilty being there sometimes. 1499 01:20:38,547 --> 01:20:40,090 I-I don't know, I hate that. 1500 01:20:40,174 --> 01:20:44,928 I feel like I went, and I filmed, and I experienced. 1501 01:20:45,012 --> 01:20:48,640 But it's just so hard because I feel so selfish. 1502 01:20:48,724 --> 01:20:52,144 Yes, it was great. And yes, do I feel like I left an impact? Yes. 1503 01:20:52,227 --> 01:20:54,897 But do I feel like I've done enough? No. 1504 01:20:54,980 --> 01:20:58,567 Talking to someone about mental health in Kenya, 1505 01:21:00,986 --> 01:21:03,363 that's… [stammers] …beautiful, you know. 1506 01:21:03,447 --> 01:21:04,740 I don't know-- 1507 01:21:05,532 --> 01:21:07,159 I don't know if I felt like, 1508 01:21:07,242 --> 01:21:09,620 "Oh, I did it, and I'm such a great person." 1509 01:21:09,703 --> 01:21:12,664 It's like, you know, this is the beginning for me. 1510 01:21:20,172 --> 01:21:22,674 Hi everyone. I'm Selena Gomez. 1511 01:21:22,758 --> 01:21:28,138 And for World Mental Health Day, I wanted to invite Dr. Murthy, 1512 01:21:28,222 --> 01:21:31,225 the surgeon general, to chat with me about loneliness 1513 01:21:31,308 --> 01:21:36,396 and helping people access the resources they need to support their mental health. 1514 01:21:36,980 --> 01:21:39,107 That's very kind of you, Selena. I'm really glad 1515 01:21:39,191 --> 01:21:40,567 that we're having this conversation. 1516 01:21:40,651 --> 01:21:44,780 Uh, what we were facing pre-Covid-19 was already pretty challenging 1517 01:21:44,863 --> 01:21:48,659 in terms of high rates of loneliness and depression and anxiety, 1518 01:21:48,742 --> 01:21:51,870 and I worry that that's gotten worse for a lot of people. 1519 01:21:51,954 --> 01:21:57,709 How-- How do we identify loneliness in ourselves and in others? 1520 01:21:57,793 --> 01:22:01,755 And do the symptoms of loneliness always look like being alone? 1521 01:22:02,339 --> 01:22:04,216 [Dr. Murthy] It's really hard to tell. 1522 01:22:04,299 --> 01:22:06,927 Even in a crowd, you can feel profoundly lonely. 1523 01:22:07,010 --> 01:22:09,638 And this is why the world is filled with so many people 1524 01:22:09,721 --> 01:22:12,432 who seemingly have it all, right? 1525 01:22:12,516 --> 01:22:16,562 They, you know, are famous, or they're wealthy, or they're powerful. 1526 01:22:16,645 --> 01:22:19,898 But what really matters is the quality of connections that we have. 1527 01:22:19,982 --> 01:22:21,900 -Mm-hmm. -That whenever we have interactions 1528 01:22:21,984 --> 01:22:24,027 with people where we feel like we can't be ourselves, 1529 01:22:24,111 --> 01:22:27,489 that actually separates us further and further from other people. 1530 01:22:27,573 --> 01:22:28,907 Yeah. 1531 01:22:28,991 --> 01:22:32,661 A-And service, it turns out, is one of the greatest antidotes 1532 01:22:32,744 --> 01:22:34,329 to loneliness that we have. 1533 01:22:34,413 --> 01:22:37,082 We reaffirm to ourselves that we have value, uh, 1534 01:22:37,165 --> 01:22:38,375 to bring to the world, 1535 01:22:38,458 --> 01:22:40,752 and it doesn't have to be going to a soup kitchen. 1536 01:22:40,836 --> 01:22:44,173 Simply by being fully present and listening to someone. 1537 01:22:44,256 --> 01:22:46,842 We can give them something extraordinarily powerful. 1538 01:22:46,925 --> 01:22:48,218 Mm-hmm. Right. 1539 01:22:48,302 --> 01:22:52,514 And so the journey, Selena, to become more connected to ourselves, 1540 01:22:52,598 --> 01:22:54,600 to connect more deeply with other people, 1541 01:22:54,683 --> 01:22:57,019 is not a journey to somehow transform ourselves 1542 01:22:57,102 --> 01:22:58,103 into something we're not. 1543 01:22:58,187 --> 01:23:01,398 It's really a journey to return to who we intrinsically are, 1544 01:23:01,481 --> 01:23:03,233 -being centered at our best… -Wow. 1545 01:23:03,317 --> 01:23:06,320 …and experiencing our greatest meaning and fulfillment, 1546 01:23:06,403 --> 01:23:08,488 uh, when we're giving and receiving that love. 1547 01:23:09,072 --> 01:23:12,367 Mic drop. I mean, that was amazing. 1548 01:23:14,786 --> 01:23:15,704 Okay. 1549 01:23:15,787 --> 01:23:17,289 You wanna come down with me? No? 1550 01:23:33,597 --> 01:23:35,682 "Finish the sentences. 1551 01:23:35,766 --> 01:23:41,605 Strangers who would describe me as… only I know that I am…" 1552 01:23:43,482 --> 01:23:49,905 Strangers would describe you as, like, a warm sort of all-American girl. 1553 01:23:50,489 --> 01:23:53,283 And I think people would be surprised, 1554 01:23:53,367 --> 01:23:56,578 and only you know maybe how complex you are. 1555 01:23:56,662 --> 01:23:58,622 There's a lot of layers to who you are. 1556 01:23:58,705 --> 01:24:00,958 And there's a lot of different sides of you. 1557 01:24:01,041 --> 01:24:02,042 Oh. 1558 01:24:02,584 --> 01:24:04,002 -Oh, sorry. -What would you say, Ash? 1559 01:24:05,295 --> 01:24:06,755 Yeah, I think that's a great answer. 1560 01:24:08,507 --> 01:24:10,092 [clicks tongue] Okay. 1561 01:24:10,175 --> 01:24:14,471 "Do you believe everyone has a calling? If so, do you think I've found mine?" 1562 01:24:15,055 --> 01:24:17,224 Yes, I believe everybody has a calling. 1563 01:24:17,307 --> 01:24:22,312 I think that you know what yours is, but you don't always choose to walk in it. 1564 01:24:23,313 --> 01:24:24,314 Agreed. 1565 01:24:26,984 --> 01:24:27,985 What do you mean? 1566 01:24:28,527 --> 01:24:30,863 I think that you know the things that fuel you 1567 01:24:30,946 --> 01:24:34,366 and give you purpose in life, and the things that make you happy. 1568 01:24:35,409 --> 01:24:38,787 But I don't think you always choose that. 1569 01:24:38,871 --> 01:24:41,415 Yeah, that's probably self-sabotage. 1570 01:24:42,124 --> 01:24:44,042 Yeah, tha-- that's exactly what it is. 1571 01:24:44,126 --> 01:24:45,878 I think stuff being normal 1572 01:24:45,961 --> 01:24:48,463 -or not having chaos… -Right. 1573 01:24:48,547 --> 01:24:51,800 …is actually uncomfortable, 'cause if you think about it, 1574 01:24:51,884 --> 01:24:54,595 your life for so long, from such a young age, 1575 01:24:54,678 --> 01:24:56,972 has always been chaos. 1576 01:24:58,640 --> 01:24:59,808 -Right? -Yeah. 1577 01:25:01,143 --> 01:25:04,062 So it makes sense. It's, like, more comfortable. 1578 01:25:06,773 --> 01:25:09,943 -Yeah, no that's nuts. Oh, it sucks. -Yeah. 1579 01:25:10,027 --> 01:25:14,406 But the good thing is that you know. You know the things that fulfill you. 1580 01:25:14,489 --> 01:25:15,866 -You know what makes you happy. -[Cook] You're very smart. 1581 01:25:15,949 --> 01:25:17,826 You know what's not going to make you happy. 1582 01:25:32,382 --> 01:25:34,676 Aw. I love you. 1583 01:25:35,427 --> 01:25:36,762 She's a lot calmer, right? 1584 01:25:37,513 --> 01:25:39,223 That's so great. She usually will move her hand. 1585 01:25:39,848 --> 01:25:41,266 -[laughs] -[cooing] 1586 01:25:44,645 --> 01:25:48,315 I see you, and you see me. 1587 01:25:48,398 --> 01:25:51,276 And that's because I look like your mom. 1588 01:25:52,861 --> 01:25:54,613 [gasps] Look at my mom. 1589 01:25:54,696 --> 01:25:56,156 [friend] Oh, my goodness. 1590 01:25:56,240 --> 01:25:57,574 Do I look like my mom? 1591 01:25:57,658 --> 01:25:58,617 Yes. 1592 01:25:58,700 --> 01:26:00,619 -What? -[Gomez] Oh, the bangs. 1593 01:26:00,702 --> 01:26:03,080 Look at her marrying my stepdad, Brian. 1594 01:26:04,289 --> 01:26:06,416 -Yeah, he's been such a great dad to me. -[Mingus] Aw. 1595 01:26:06,500 --> 01:26:08,794 -That is so sweet. So cute. -[Cosme] Aw. That's awesome. 1596 01:26:21,098 --> 01:26:23,141 -Selena? Hey. -Hi. 1597 01:26:23,225 --> 01:26:25,310 -How's it going, girl? -[friend] Good, how are you? 1598 01:26:25,394 --> 01:26:26,395 I'm good. 1599 01:26:26,478 --> 01:26:27,479 They don't bite. 1600 01:26:27,563 --> 01:26:28,897 Hey. [kissing] 1601 01:26:28,981 --> 01:26:30,357 This one's my youngest. 1602 01:26:30,440 --> 01:26:32,234 -That's my cousin's daughter… -Oh, my gosh. 1603 01:26:32,317 --> 01:26:34,987 …and my other two aren't here because my son has leukemia. 1604 01:26:35,070 --> 01:26:38,240 -Oh, no. -So he stayed in at his other mom's house, 1605 01:26:38,323 --> 01:26:40,033 and his sister wanted to stay with him. 1606 01:26:40,117 --> 01:26:40,951 Yeah. 1607 01:26:41,034 --> 01:26:42,536 -So we left them there. -[child babbles] 1608 01:26:42,619 --> 01:26:44,162 What's that? Are you trying to scare me? 1609 01:26:44,246 --> 01:26:45,247 Do you know who this is? 1610 01:26:46,915 --> 01:26:47,916 It's Selena Gomez. 1611 01:26:48,000 --> 01:26:49,668 My name is Selena. 1612 01:26:49,751 --> 01:26:52,171 -The one that you hear the songs of? -[laughs] 1613 01:26:52,254 --> 01:26:53,172 -Yeah. -[gasps] 1614 01:26:53,255 --> 01:26:58,844 -[screaming] -[laughing] 1615 01:26:58,927 --> 01:27:00,470 [Gomez laughing] 1616 01:27:00,554 --> 01:27:02,639 [screams] 1617 01:27:02,723 --> 01:27:03,807 [Gomez chuckles] 1618 01:27:03,891 --> 01:27:05,893 -[friend] She's my dramatic one. -[girl screams] 1619 01:27:05,976 --> 01:27:08,604 -Well, that was me. Aw. -[laughs] 1620 01:27:09,271 --> 01:27:11,190 [friend] Come here, baba. No? 1621 01:27:11,273 --> 01:27:13,066 -Yeah, you're the alpha male. -I didn't know she was real. 1622 01:27:13,150 --> 01:27:14,234 Yes, she's real. 1623 01:27:14,318 --> 01:27:15,694 -Mommy went to school with her. -[gasps] 1624 01:27:15,777 --> 01:27:18,030 She lived right down the street from me. 1625 01:27:18,113 --> 01:27:19,531 -[screams] -Mommy grew up with her. 1626 01:27:19,615 --> 01:27:21,241 Can I have a hug? 1627 01:27:21,325 --> 01:27:23,952 -[laughs] -Yeah. [laughs] 1628 01:27:24,536 --> 01:27:25,621 Does that make you happy? 1629 01:27:25,704 --> 01:27:26,663 Yes! 1630 01:27:26,747 --> 01:27:28,081 [laughs] 1631 01:27:28,165 --> 01:27:30,250 -[Gomez] Just wanted to say hello. -Well, thank you. I appreciate it. 1632 01:27:30,334 --> 01:27:32,503 -It was good seeing you. -Of course. It was so good to see you. 1633 01:27:32,586 --> 01:27:34,838 -I'm glad everything's good with you. -Yeah. 1634 01:27:34,922 --> 01:27:37,925 Went better. Trust me, it was a little scary at that point, 1635 01:27:38,008 --> 01:27:42,346 'cause I grew up with you, I knew. So, to see you go through that was hard. 1636 01:27:42,429 --> 01:27:44,598 Yeah. Thank you, I do feel better. 1637 01:27:44,681 --> 01:27:46,016 Oh, we love y'all. 1638 01:27:46,099 --> 01:27:49,770 -Okay bye, honey. Bye-bye. -Say "Bye." Say "Thank you." 1639 01:27:55,108 --> 01:27:57,653 [Gomez] When you're struggling with your mental health, 1640 01:27:57,736 --> 01:28:01,865 the essential part of it is knowing what to do 1641 01:28:01,949 --> 01:28:03,492 and recognizing that. 1642 01:28:05,369 --> 01:28:07,579 It's something that I'm not ashamed of. 1643 01:28:10,165 --> 01:28:13,877 I had to relearn things that completely fell out of my mind. 1644 01:28:13,961 --> 01:28:16,755 I-It was like, "Hey, you're not a bad person. 1645 01:28:16,839 --> 01:28:18,382 You're not a gross person. 1646 01:28:18,465 --> 01:28:21,218 You're not crazy. You're not any of this 1647 01:28:21,301 --> 01:28:23,637 but you're gonna have to deal with this. 1648 01:28:23,720 --> 01:28:26,849 I know it's a lot, but this is the reality." 1649 01:28:26,932 --> 01:28:33,772 And I found having a relationship with bipolar and myself, it's… 1650 01:28:34,773 --> 01:28:35,774 it's gonna be there. 1651 01:28:36,567 --> 01:28:38,360 I'm just making it my friend now. 1652 01:28:40,279 --> 01:28:43,490 I think that I needed to go through that to be who I am, 1653 01:28:43,574 --> 01:28:45,450 and then I'm gonna keep going through it, 1654 01:28:46,034 --> 01:28:47,369 but I'm really happy. 1655 01:28:50,247 --> 01:28:51,456 I'm at peace. 1656 01:28:53,333 --> 01:28:54,293 I'm angry. 1657 01:28:56,086 --> 01:28:57,171 I'm sad. 1658 01:29:00,424 --> 01:29:01,550 I'm confident. 1659 01:29:02,759 --> 01:29:04,469 I'm full of doubt. 1660 01:29:06,555 --> 01:29:08,432 I'm a work in progress. 1661 01:29:12,603 --> 01:29:13,729 I am enough. 1662 01:29:17,399 --> 01:29:18,859 I am Selena. 1663 01:30:20,170 --> 01:30:22,214 -[producer] Thank you for having us today. -[Gomez] Of course. 1664 01:30:22,297 --> 01:30:25,050 I wanted people to understand that what I did for this process 1665 01:30:25,133 --> 01:30:28,387 was giving you guys, like, my heart essentially, 1666 01:30:28,470 --> 01:30:33,016 and see how you would take my words and put them into a record. 1667 01:30:33,100 --> 01:30:34,810 I've never done that before. Have you guys? 1668 01:30:34,893 --> 01:30:36,770 -No, I-- Yeah. -Diary entries, journal entries? 1669 01:30:36,854 --> 01:30:38,689 -No, that's super intimate. -[producer 2] 'Course. 1670 01:30:38,772 --> 01:30:40,858 [producer 1] I'm happy we didn't butcher your journal entries. 1671 01:30:40,941 --> 01:30:42,150 -[all laugh] -No, you didn't.