1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:03,837 --> 00:00:09,551 [Muffled doctor's office noise] 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:57,640 --> 00:01:00,643 [Ears ringing] 5 00:01:01,811 --> 00:01:04,772 (Doctor Cohn) Jake? 6 00:01:04,814 --> 00:01:06,649 Jake, are you listening? 7 00:01:09,652 --> 00:01:13,614 It looks benign to me, but we'll know more when the tests come back. 8 00:01:13,656 --> 00:01:18,995 There's no reason to stress right now, so it's important to stay calm and keep your mind clear. 9 00:01:19,037 --> 00:01:22,540 Go home, get some rest, and try to take your mind off of it. 10 00:01:22,582 --> 00:01:26,085 The last thing you need right now is anxiety on top of everything. 11 00:01:26,127 --> 00:01:28,254 You're a writer, right? 12 00:01:28,296 --> 00:01:33,760 Do some writing, get some work done, maybe write about something new, something you're not used to. 13 00:01:33,802 --> 00:01:39,098 Something that you can really dive into and... escape... you know? 14 00:01:40,225 --> 00:01:42,686 I'll give you a call as soon as I hear back on the test 15 00:01:42,728 --> 00:01:45,188 results, shouldn't be any later than tomorrow morning. 16 00:01:48,525 --> 00:01:51,861 Take care, Jake. 17 00:01:53,613 --> 00:01:59,452 [Bach's Cello Suite No. 1, Prélude] 18 00:01:59,494 --> 00:02:00,094 ♫ ♫ 19 00:05:11,019 --> 00:05:17,483 [Door opens and closes] 20 00:09:20,434 --> 00:09:25,481 [Bach's Cello Suite No.1 II-Allemande] 21 00:09:25,523 --> 00:09:26,123 ♫ ♫ 22 00:09:48,588 --> 00:09:56,588 ♫ ♫ [Muffled shouting] 23 00:10:09,567 --> 00:10:10,167 ♫ ♫ 24 00:11:30,898 --> 00:11:33,901 [Upbeat pop/rock music plays on jukebox] 25 00:11:36,237 --> 00:11:39,865 (Jake voiceover) It's hard to reflect in a loud bar, but when 26 00:11:39,907 --> 00:11:43,535 you're three drinks deep and alone, that's all you want to do. 27 00:11:43,577 --> 00:11:48,791 The world's ending, that's how it feels sometimes. 28 00:11:48,833 --> 00:11:56,173 Anyway, I don't know if everyone's world is like that or if it's just mine. 29 00:11:56,215 --> 00:12:04,215 I can't stand cliches, but the deeper I fall into myself, the more of them I find. 30 00:12:05,975 --> 00:12:12,731 A smile, though... a smile can change everything. 31 00:12:16,152 --> 00:12:19,113 [Laughing] 32 00:12:19,155 --> 00:12:21,615 (Brett) What is it, huh? Is it me? 33 00:12:21,657 --> 00:12:24,785 (Jill) No it's not you. 34 00:12:24,827 --> 00:12:32,584 Well I don't know why I keep attracting these guys every time, these assholes. 35 00:12:32,626 --> 00:12:35,963 Maybe I should just finally leave town. 36 00:12:36,005 --> 00:12:43,345 Moving around isn't gonna leave you an escape from yourself, believe me, I've tried. 37 00:12:43,387 --> 00:12:45,639 Fair enough. 38 00:12:45,681 --> 00:12:48,809 (Jill) This is a good place, it's a very good place. 39 00:12:51,479 --> 00:12:53,397 (Brett) There's lots of beer. 40 00:12:53,439 --> 00:12:56,066 That's the spirit! 41 00:12:56,108 --> 00:12:59,111 I'm not giving you the satisfaction of laughing at that. 42 00:13:01,113 --> 00:13:03,031 Oh what's that? 43 00:13:03,073 --> 00:13:05,909 Some good shit, that's what. You want some? 44 00:13:05,951 --> 00:13:08,954 Absolutely 45 00:13:18,631 --> 00:13:21,842 To-(Jill) No no, this is not for toast drinking. 46 00:13:21,884 --> 00:13:25,554 You mix emotions up with the bourbon, no no. 47 00:13:25,596 --> 00:13:27,639 Okay, well fuck it then. 48 00:13:27,681 --> 00:13:29,517 Fuck it. 49 00:13:57,545 --> 00:14:00,172 Journaling at the bar? 50 00:14:00,214 --> 00:14:02,674 I wish... 51 00:14:02,716 --> 00:14:07,930 Thought I'd try the tortured artist thing for a bit and see how that works. 52 00:14:07,972 --> 00:14:09,556 It works on you. 53 00:14:09,598 --> 00:14:11,350 Thanks. 54 00:14:12,726 --> 00:14:14,144 What are you drinking? 55 00:14:14,186 --> 00:14:15,479 Oh, you don't have to- 56 00:14:15,521 --> 00:14:18,524 Oh it's fine, Jill won't mind, I need a new one anyway. 57 00:14:19,775 --> 00:14:22,778 Damn... cheers. 58 00:14:23,779 --> 00:14:26,782 Cheers. 59 00:14:31,412 --> 00:14:33,038 Brett. 60 00:14:33,080 --> 00:14:35,124 Jake. 61 00:14:36,125 --> 00:14:39,253 I don't think I’ve seen you around here. 62 00:14:39,295 --> 00:14:43,674 Well I just moved here a little while ago, and uh... 63 00:14:43,716 --> 00:14:46,719 I tend to drink alone more often than not. 64 00:14:48,262 --> 00:14:51,181 But uh... 65 00:14:51,223 --> 00:14:54,226 Drinking alone kinda sucks, so... 66 00:14:56,979 --> 00:14:59,273 Here I am. (chuckles) 67 00:14:59,315 --> 00:15:02,234 Well welcome. 68 00:15:02,276 --> 00:15:06,488 Drinking alone does suck... but it's better than not drinking alone at all. 69 00:15:09,742 --> 00:15:12,703 (Jill) Just decided to help yourself, huh? 70 00:15:12,745 --> 00:15:15,748 Oh, I, uh... (stammers) 71 00:15:17,166 --> 00:15:18,584 [Laughing] 72 00:15:18,626 --> 00:15:23,839 [Laughing] Oh, okay, holy shit... this is why I drink alone. 73 00:15:26,508 --> 00:15:29,678 [Upbeat pop/rock music plays on jukebox] 74 00:15:29,720 --> 00:15:30,320 ♫ ♫ 75 00:15:40,189 --> 00:15:47,529 So... you said that you don't have a story, but that's bullshit, everyone has a story. 76 00:15:47,571 --> 00:15:49,698 Do you live around here? 77 00:15:49,740 --> 00:15:52,117 Yup, Select Street. 78 00:15:52,159 --> 00:15:55,621 Alright, family? 79 00:15:55,663 --> 00:15:58,666 Not so much. 80 00:16:02,252 --> 00:16:04,421 Parents? 81 00:16:04,463 --> 00:16:10,636 Uh... like I said, I like to drink alone. 82 00:16:10,678 --> 00:16:12,429 I get that. 83 00:16:12,471 --> 00:16:15,474 Well hey, here's to drinking together. 84 00:16:20,646 --> 00:16:24,733 What kind of music do you listen to? I can totally take over the jukebox at any time. 85 00:16:24,775 --> 00:16:28,904 Oh, uh, I'll pretty much listen to anything. 86 00:16:32,991 --> 00:16:35,494 Something new or old? 87 00:16:35,536 --> 00:16:38,539 How about something old? 88 00:17:00,436 --> 00:17:03,563 Hey, I'll be right back, okay? 89 00:17:03,605 --> 00:17:06,608 Mhm. 90 00:17:23,459 --> 00:17:27,087 [Phone unlocks, typing] 91 00:17:32,801 --> 00:17:35,804 [Ringing] 92 00:17:38,682 --> 00:17:41,892 (Voicemail) Thank you for calling the office of Dr. Cohn. 93 00:17:41,934 --> 00:17:44,855 Our office hours are Monday to Friday, 9am to 5pm- 94 00:17:44,897 --> 00:17:47,858 [Jake sighs] 95 00:17:47,900 --> 00:17:50,903 Alright. 96 00:17:58,619 --> 00:18:01,580 [Upbeat pop/rock music] 97 00:18:01,622 --> 00:18:05,417 ♫ ♫ 98 00:18:05,459 --> 00:18:13,459 ♫ Then you pull me through, and it feels new. ♫ 99 00:18:21,975 --> 00:18:23,894 (Brett) It's a happy ending. 100 00:18:23,936 --> 00:18:27,230 (Jake) It absolutely is not a happy ending, it's a tragedy. 101 00:18:27,272 --> 00:18:30,233 But he achieved his goal, how is that not a happy ending? 102 00:18:30,275 --> 00:18:32,944 Because it's not the ending that he wanted. 103 00:18:32,986 --> 00:18:35,947 I don't think that really matters, though, you can still 104 00:18:35,989 --> 00:18:38,950 have a happy ending even if you don't get what you want. 105 00:18:38,992 --> 00:18:42,351 But isn't happiness subjective? Like, what makes one 106 00:18:42,393 --> 00:18:46,208 person happy doesn't necessarily make another person happy. 107 00:18:46,250 --> 00:18:49,461 But it makes the audience happy. 108 00:18:49,503 --> 00:18:51,838 [Chuckles] you were happy? 109 00:18:51,880 --> 00:18:59,880 First he said that it wasn't his life, his family, but he accepts them for who they are. 110 00:19:00,138 --> 00:19:03,892 And as soon as he did that he was all in. 111 00:19:03,934 --> 00:19:06,102 That's so sad. 112 00:19:06,144 --> 00:19:09,773 Sad maybe, but not tragic. 113 00:19:09,815 --> 00:19:16,571 He started as an anti-hero, err, he started as a hero and then transitioned to an anti-hero... 114 00:19:16,613 --> 00:19:21,868 And from there he achieved his goals. How is that a tragedy? 115 00:19:21,910 --> 00:19:26,122 Romeo and Juliet was a tragedy. 116 00:19:26,164 --> 00:19:31,378 Their goals were to end up together emotionally and physically, but they both died... 117 00:19:31,420 --> 00:19:36,675 Separately emotionally but together physically. 118 00:19:40,929 --> 00:19:42,639 What do you do? 119 00:19:42,681 --> 00:19:44,307 Teach. 120 00:19:44,349 --> 00:19:46,560 That explains a lot, actually. 121 00:19:46,602 --> 00:19:48,645 Does it? 122 00:19:51,315 --> 00:19:56,111 And you are a... diary reviewer? 123 00:19:56,153 --> 00:19:57,821 [Jake laughs] 124 00:19:57,863 --> 00:20:02,158 No, but that sounds like a pretty cool job. 125 00:20:02,200 --> 00:20:05,996 Right? Especially if you could give, like reviews and things. 126 00:20:06,038 --> 00:20:07,706 Oh yeah. [laughs] 127 00:20:07,748 --> 00:20:12,085 (Sarcastically) Sexual frustration... 8 out of 10. 128 00:20:12,127 --> 00:20:16,423 Story pacing... 4 out of 10. 129 00:20:16,465 --> 00:20:20,969 Self awareness... 5 out of 10. 130 00:20:21,011 --> 00:20:24,014 [Laughing] 131 00:20:28,101 --> 00:20:30,604 I'm a writer. 132 00:20:30,646 --> 00:20:34,107 That makes more sense. 133 00:20:34,149 --> 00:20:37,152 By choice or profession? 134 00:20:44,701 --> 00:20:51,291 I guess by choice first, and then both... 135 00:20:53,669 --> 00:20:57,505 And now just profession? 136 00:20:57,547 --> 00:21:00,383 Feels like it sometimes. 137 00:21:00,425 --> 00:21:02,761 Yeah I get that. 138 00:21:04,179 --> 00:21:07,265 So what do you teach? 139 00:21:07,307 --> 00:21:09,559 High school English. 140 00:21:09,601 --> 00:21:11,478 Damn, that's awesome. 141 00:21:11,520 --> 00:21:13,563 It can be. 142 00:21:13,605 --> 00:21:17,165 So like Tom Sawyer, Huckleberry Finn, To Kill a 143 00:21:17,207 --> 00:21:21,605 Mockingbird, Of Mice and Men, Grapes of Wrath, the usuals? 144 00:21:23,365 --> 00:21:29,788 I try to stay away from "the usuals" as much as possible... but yes to all of those. 145 00:21:29,830 --> 00:21:37,295 We also did Dracula, Jekyll and Hyde, Fahrenheit 451. 146 00:21:38,422 --> 00:21:41,758 Damn [chuckles] wish I had you in high school. 147 00:21:41,800 --> 00:21:46,471 We also did a hallway project for Dante's Inferno. 148 00:21:46,513 --> 00:21:51,351 But we had to take it down because one of the teachers accused us of witchcraft. 149 00:21:52,394 --> 00:21:55,397 Wow. 150 00:21:56,440 --> 00:22:04,114 But no, that's great, that's like the highest compliment that you can possibly get. 151 00:22:04,156 --> 00:22:07,117 That's fair. 152 00:22:07,159 --> 00:22:14,750 I mean like, suppose all the townsfolk accuse you of witchcraft, like my god... 153 00:22:16,918 --> 00:22:22,257 That's amazing, that's like a 5-star rating at a restaurant. 154 00:22:22,299 --> 00:22:27,012 So please... please... don't ever change. 155 00:22:32,893 --> 00:22:35,395 Hey, I got a proposition for you. 156 00:22:35,437 --> 00:22:37,272 Damn, that was quick. 157 00:22:37,314 --> 00:22:40,484 Do you... want to take... this to the next level? 158 00:22:41,943 --> 00:22:44,946 I thought you'd never ask. 159 00:22:47,240 --> 00:22:50,201 [Retro pop/rock music plays on jukebox] 160 00:22:50,243 --> 00:22:50,843 ♫ ♫ 161 00:23:05,801 --> 00:23:13,801 ♫ It's all around me, but it's gone without you. Show me I see what's wrong with their truth? ♫ 162 00:23:23,193 --> 00:23:31,193 ♫ Why should it be something that I choose? No one else sees it's you I breathe through. And turn away. ♫ 163 00:23:40,544 --> 00:23:43,547 [Billiard balls crack] 164 00:23:49,052 --> 00:23:50,512 (Jake) Not bad. 165 00:23:50,554 --> 00:23:52,180 I do okay. 166 00:23:52,222 --> 00:23:55,225 So you're like, good at this? 167 00:23:58,562 --> 00:24:01,689 (Jake) Apparently not good enough. 168 00:24:01,731 --> 00:24:04,734 You're up, asshole. 169 00:24:12,117 --> 00:24:15,120 (Jake) Boom! 170 00:24:17,038 --> 00:24:20,041 (Brett) Uh, you're stripes. 171 00:24:23,628 --> 00:24:27,215 So I've never actually played this before. 172 00:24:30,343 --> 00:24:33,346 [Retro pop music plays on jukebox] 173 00:24:37,851 --> 00:24:41,271 If you don't mind me asking, how old are you? 174 00:24:41,313 --> 00:24:44,316 29. 175 00:24:47,360 --> 00:24:53,116 Do you ever get the feeling that life's passing by so fast that you don't really get to live it? 176 00:24:53,158 --> 00:24:56,119 All the time. 177 00:24:56,161 --> 00:25:04,002 ♫ Could never make it on my own but it was hard to see. Every time I turned around I felt you turning me. ♫ 178 00:25:04,044 --> 00:25:12,044 ♫ And every time I lost the way you showed me what I needed. To see this for you. ♫ 179 00:25:22,771 --> 00:25:25,774 Stop. 180 00:25:26,566 --> 00:25:29,569 Stop... just stop... 181 00:25:50,006 --> 00:25:51,883 (Jill) You want another? 182 00:25:51,925 --> 00:25:53,635 Please. 183 00:25:56,846 --> 00:25:59,849 (Brett) I'm going out for a smoke. 184 00:26:03,228 --> 00:26:05,605 She's been through a lot. 185 00:26:05,647 --> 00:26:08,650 Haven't we all. 186 00:26:44,019 --> 00:26:48,732 You know, you shouldn't smoke, it's bad for you. 187 00:26:50,567 --> 00:26:52,402 You know what else is bad for you? 188 00:26:52,444 --> 00:26:53,778 What's that? 189 00:26:53,820 --> 00:26:56,781 Telling people what is and isn't bad for them. 190 00:26:56,823 --> 00:26:58,700 Fair point. 191 00:27:00,452 --> 00:27:02,829 I've wanted to quit for years, just... 192 00:27:02,871 --> 00:27:05,039 Life got in the way? 193 00:27:05,081 --> 00:27:08,084 Something like that. 194 00:27:16,134 --> 00:27:23,850 You know... I'm not exactly in a position to judge other people's decisions. 195 00:27:27,520 --> 00:27:31,149 Eh, don't make excuses for me, shit's gonna kill me someday. 196 00:27:41,951 --> 00:27:44,954 [Sighs] A lot of shit can kill you. 197 00:27:47,791 --> 00:27:49,459 I should go. 198 00:27:49,501 --> 00:27:51,502 You got some place to be? 199 00:27:51,544 --> 00:27:53,713 Something like that. 200 00:27:56,549 --> 00:28:00,387 Yeah, I should go. I got shit to deal with at home. 201 00:28:14,818 --> 00:28:17,821 (Jake) You know, I'm no stranger to dealing with shit. 202 00:28:20,740 --> 00:28:27,455 The hardest part is figuring out what shit is worth dealing with and what isn't. 203 00:28:28,998 --> 00:28:36,998 Because... some shit... some shit just isn't worth your time. 204 00:28:40,593 --> 00:28:43,805 Hey, you ever play basketball? 205 00:28:45,807 --> 00:28:49,102 You know, I haven't touched a basketball in years. 206 00:28:51,062 --> 00:28:54,023 Are you sure you've ever touched one? 207 00:28:54,065 --> 00:28:57,026 [Indie rock music] 208 00:28:57,068 --> 00:29:04,117 ♫ I don't know where I've been. I don't know where I'm going. ♫ 209 00:29:04,159 --> 00:29:11,249 ♫ Been holding on to the past but this life keeps on moving. ♫ 210 00:29:13,418 --> 00:29:16,379 (Jake) Damn, you're so good at everything, huh? 211 00:29:16,421 --> 00:29:19,382 (Brett) [Chuckles] I was an athlete in high school. 212 00:29:19,424 --> 00:29:22,385 So you and I would have never spoken. 213 00:29:22,427 --> 00:29:27,348 Wait.. if you were an athlete... 214 00:29:27,390 --> 00:29:31,227 And then you quit the team... 215 00:29:31,269 --> 00:29:39,269 Did you have that moment with your dad when you were like "dad, I'm quitting the team to pursue literature?" 216 00:29:40,820 --> 00:29:48,369 But then your dad was like "No Brett! You cannot give up on your dream!" 217 00:29:48,411 --> 00:29:52,832 But then you were like "But no, dad, I'm giving up on yours!" 218 00:29:52,874 --> 00:29:55,835 (Brett) [Laughs] Nope, my dad was actually a book nerd too. 219 00:29:55,877 --> 00:29:59,881 He gave me shit for playing sports all the time. 220 00:30:01,257 --> 00:30:05,344 Let's play HORSE... you do know how to play HORSE, right? 221 00:30:05,386 --> 00:30:07,346 Is it like Polo? 222 00:30:07,388 --> 00:30:09,515 [Laughs] It's exactly like Polo. 223 00:30:09,557 --> 00:30:12,268 Oh, then I've never played it before. 224 00:30:12,310 --> 00:30:14,770 It's easy, there's no dribbling involved. 225 00:30:14,812 --> 00:30:17,815 I think I'm a pretty good dribbler, if you know what I mean. 226 00:30:20,610 --> 00:30:23,613 (Brett) [Laughing] Like I said, there's no dribbling. 227 00:30:29,786 --> 00:30:32,789 [Indie rock music plays] 228 00:30:34,040 --> 00:30:41,130 ♫ I don't know where I've been. I don't know where I'm going. ♫ 229 00:30:43,550 --> 00:30:51,015 ♫ Been holding on to the past but this life keeps on moving. It keeps on moving. ♫ 230 00:30:54,477 --> 00:31:02,477 ♫ I can turn back now and leave this all behind. I don't know if I'll ever make it out alive. ♫ 231 00:31:04,404 --> 00:31:12,404 ♫ I can turn back now and leave this all behind. I don't know if I'll ever get out alive. ♫ 232 00:31:28,136 --> 00:31:30,763 So what are you writing? 233 00:31:30,805 --> 00:31:38,805 Articles, stuff about the human mind, veganism, breweries, micro- 234 00:31:39,689 --> 00:31:41,357 Just the gamut of... 235 00:31:41,399 --> 00:31:43,526 Pretentious hipster bullshit? 236 00:31:43,568 --> 00:31:45,111 I mean... 237 00:31:45,153 --> 00:31:48,447 You're not wrong, I know what I am. 238 00:31:48,489 --> 00:31:51,492 Self-awareness is important. 239 00:31:52,827 --> 00:31:56,038 So... what's this? 240 00:31:56,080 --> 00:31:59,083 Something else. 241 00:32:00,335 --> 00:32:03,338 Is it like a Helter Skelter manifesto or something? 242 00:32:04,464 --> 00:32:11,095 No... (mockingly) I am writing an adaptation of Mein Kampf. 243 00:32:12,680 --> 00:32:20,680 It's about Hitler, who is starting up a tech company, and he's the CEO, in Brooklyn. 244 00:32:22,315 --> 00:32:25,526 Sounds... interesting... can't wait to read it. 245 00:32:30,865 --> 00:32:33,826 (Brett) They say that writing is just bleeding into a typewriter. 246 00:32:33,868 --> 00:32:36,829 (Jake) If only it were that simple. 247 00:32:36,871 --> 00:32:39,874 The first cut is always the hardest. 248 00:32:49,801 --> 00:32:53,929 (Jake) You said you were an English teacher. You ever write? 249 00:32:53,971 --> 00:32:55,973 (Brett) Once upon a time. 250 00:32:56,015 --> 00:32:58,976 (Jake) Why did you stop? 251 00:32:59,018 --> 00:33:02,313 Got tired of bleeding. 252 00:33:02,355 --> 00:33:04,565 Why do you ask? 253 00:33:04,607 --> 00:33:07,276 Just curious. 254 00:33:07,318 --> 00:33:09,028 You're not seeing any of it. 255 00:33:09,070 --> 00:33:12,073 Oh come on, I'm sure it's really good. 256 00:33:14,784 --> 00:33:17,787 I'll show you mine if you show me yours. 257 00:33:18,705 --> 00:33:21,708 Pass. 258 00:33:22,458 --> 00:33:25,461 That's what I thought. 259 00:33:33,302 --> 00:33:37,723 You know this is top shelf, right? I'm gonna have to start you a tab. 260 00:33:37,765 --> 00:33:40,393 But it was down here. 261 00:33:40,435 --> 00:33:43,104 That's not what top shelf means. 262 00:33:43,146 --> 00:33:46,149 [Phone buzzes] 263 00:33:47,567 --> 00:33:51,195 Uh, hey, I'll be right back. 264 00:33:53,239 --> 00:33:56,200 I'm just saying, it's not clear, is what I meant. 265 00:33:56,242 --> 00:33:59,245 Doesn't have to be clear, it's my bar. 266 00:34:06,085 --> 00:34:07,962 [Answers phone] 267 00:34:10,089 --> 00:34:13,125 (Automated voice) This is an automated call from... Rising 268 00:34:13,167 --> 00:34:16,095 Sun Media... reminding you of your upcoming deadlines. 269 00:34:16,137 --> 00:34:21,142 Should you need an extension, please call your HR department during normal business hours... 270 00:34:21,184 --> 00:34:26,230 Which are Monday to Friday, 9am to 5pm... thank you... 271 00:34:27,940 --> 00:34:30,151 [Call ends] 272 00:34:34,864 --> 00:34:37,283 I prefer scotch. 273 00:34:37,325 --> 00:34:40,578 I'm not even sure I can tell the difference. 274 00:34:40,620 --> 00:34:46,709 Scotch is... smokier... bourbon is more cinnamony and sweet. 275 00:34:46,751 --> 00:34:50,504 I'm not sure what type of cinnamon you're cooking with, but you should probably throw that out. 276 00:34:50,546 --> 00:34:53,507 (Jake) Now who's the pretentious hipster? 277 00:34:53,549 --> 00:34:55,217 [Laughing] 278 00:34:55,259 --> 00:34:58,262 I think we all have a little pretentious hipster in us. 279 00:34:59,096 --> 00:35:00,765 That's beautiful. 280 00:35:00,807 --> 00:35:02,642 Thank you. 281 00:35:15,321 --> 00:35:16,989 Everything alright? 282 00:35:17,031 --> 00:35:19,074 Yeah, just work being up my ass. 283 00:35:19,116 --> 00:35:21,994 Jesus, they call you this late? 284 00:35:22,036 --> 00:35:26,624 Yeah they have an automated system that nags you night and day. 285 00:35:26,666 --> 00:35:29,669 Innovative. 286 00:35:30,795 --> 00:35:34,256 I think I'm starting to put the pieces together. 287 00:35:34,298 --> 00:35:35,549 Oh yeah? 288 00:35:35,591 --> 00:35:37,760 Yeah. 289 00:35:37,802 --> 00:35:43,682 Okay, well please go on... enlighten me. 290 00:35:43,724 --> 00:35:48,103 Your articles are bullshit, but they're your bullshit, the type that you can handle. 291 00:35:48,145 --> 00:35:55,444 And you would like to write for yourself, and you're getting pretty sick of writing for other people, but... 292 00:35:55,486 --> 00:36:00,825 You're scared that it takes a lot of commitment, so you're here, wasting time. 293 00:36:02,869 --> 00:36:05,872 You're mostly... mostly right... 294 00:36:06,747 --> 00:36:09,708 Mostly? 295 00:36:09,750 --> 00:36:15,256 I absolutely came here to waste time... 296 00:36:16,257 --> 00:36:19,260 But... but but but... 297 00:36:21,262 --> 00:36:25,057 I think I... uh... found something... 298 00:36:27,143 --> 00:36:30,855 That... isn't... 299 00:36:31,814 --> 00:36:34,817 A waste of time. 300 00:36:43,367 --> 00:36:46,370 You wanna go for a walk? 301 00:36:51,042 --> 00:36:54,879 [Retro pop music plays on jukebox] 302 00:36:54,921 --> 00:36:55,521 ♫ ♫ 303 00:37:10,353 --> 00:37:18,353 ♫ Is it only me who just can't see we finally made it better? It's finally back together. ♫ 304 00:37:28,120 --> 00:37:29,788 Had my first date there. 305 00:37:29,830 --> 00:37:31,707 Oh yeah? How was that? 306 00:37:31,749 --> 00:37:35,794 He was a perfect gentleman. His mom dropped us off and my mom picked us up. 307 00:37:35,836 --> 00:37:37,797 Classic. 308 00:37:38,839 --> 00:37:40,507 Had my first kiss there. 309 00:37:40,549 --> 00:37:41,926 Same guy? 310 00:37:41,968 --> 00:37:43,677 Nope, his brother. 311 00:37:43,719 --> 00:37:45,387 Damn. [Chuckles] 312 00:37:45,429 --> 00:37:48,432 He was way cuter. 313 00:37:49,475 --> 00:37:54,021 So what made you move here? Is there, like, a budding art scene that I wasn't aware of? 314 00:37:54,063 --> 00:37:56,732 Creative inspiration, actually. 315 00:37:56,774 --> 00:37:58,734 Really? 316 00:37:58,776 --> 00:38:02,238 Yeah... there's something about... 317 00:38:05,324 --> 00:38:09,995 Something about trucks just passing by... 318 00:38:10,037 --> 00:38:15,584 [Loud truck drives by] 319 00:38:15,626 --> 00:38:18,587 It really gets the creative juices flowing! 320 00:38:18,629 --> 00:38:21,215 [Laughing] 321 00:38:21,257 --> 00:38:25,720 No no no, actually, everything closes at like 6pm. 322 00:38:27,304 --> 00:38:30,349 So no distractions. 323 00:38:30,391 --> 00:38:33,644 Except the bars. 324 00:38:33,686 --> 00:38:38,232 Oh, the bars, right, totally forgot about that. [Laughs] 325 00:38:38,274 --> 00:38:38,874 ♫ ♫ 326 00:39:07,970 --> 00:39:10,973 I grew up in the city. 327 00:39:15,436 --> 00:39:18,481 My parents used to take me here in the fall... 328 00:39:20,107 --> 00:39:26,781 And we'd do the whole apple picking, pumpkin patch thing... 329 00:39:28,783 --> 00:39:31,786 That city people love to do. 330 00:39:33,913 --> 00:39:41,378 One year, as I was getting older... I decided I didn't want to go. 331 00:39:43,798 --> 00:39:50,429 I had a friend whose parents had a penthouse in Manhattan... 332 00:39:52,640 --> 00:39:55,643 Which was a dream for me. 333 00:39:57,478 --> 00:40:00,815 He invited me to stay there for the weekend... 334 00:40:02,733 --> 00:40:05,986 And uh... so I did... 335 00:40:07,780 --> 00:40:12,618 And my parents made the usual trip up here by themselves... 336 00:40:17,832 --> 00:40:20,835 And they... uh... 337 00:40:23,379 --> 00:40:26,382 They never came home. 338 00:40:28,425 --> 00:40:31,845 I... uh... 339 00:40:31,887 --> 00:40:34,890 It was a cold fall... 340 00:40:39,603 --> 00:40:42,606 And they were driving up here... 341 00:40:46,360 --> 00:40:51,198 And they... uh... hit a patch of black ice. 342 00:40:54,702 --> 00:40:58,247 The car wrapped around a tree. 343 00:40:58,289 --> 00:41:01,250 (Brett) I'm so sorry. 344 00:41:01,292 --> 00:41:04,295 I... uh... 345 00:41:11,635 --> 00:41:14,638 I thought... 346 00:41:16,807 --> 00:41:19,768 I guess I thought... 347 00:41:19,810 --> 00:41:27,810 I thought moving up here would make me feel better... 348 00:41:30,237 --> 00:41:33,198 But... 349 00:41:33,240 --> 00:41:36,243 It hasn't. 350 00:41:41,248 --> 00:41:44,251 And I still feel guilty about it every day. 351 00:41:50,925 --> 00:41:58,724 Some days are better, some days are worse. 352 00:42:02,269 --> 00:42:10,269 But... hey, I'm still close enough to Penguin Random House if they decide to publish me. 353 00:42:16,033 --> 00:42:20,579 Having dreams is great and all, but that's a lofty goal. 354 00:42:20,621 --> 00:42:27,336 Well dreaming is part of my process. 355 00:42:29,380 --> 00:42:32,341 Let's go get more to drink. 356 00:42:32,383 --> 00:42:35,386 Yeah, my buzz is dying. 357 00:42:41,642 --> 00:42:44,645 [Crickets] 358 00:42:58,325 --> 00:43:01,328 [Car passes by] 359 00:43:04,498 --> 00:43:12,214 [Distant train passing through town] 360 00:43:20,431 --> 00:43:24,476 My mom used to coach my tee-ball team. 361 00:43:24,518 --> 00:43:29,940 She'd bring orange slices for everyone, even the other team. 362 00:43:29,982 --> 00:43:35,696 She'd cheer for them, build them up, everyone loved her. 363 00:43:38,115 --> 00:43:45,122 And then... she cheated on my dad... and left him. 364 00:43:45,164 --> 00:43:49,418 She went off with her new family and never really looked back. 365 00:44:01,889 --> 00:44:09,104 When I grew up and left the house she reappeared... and he took her back. 366 00:44:09,146 --> 00:44:12,608 That sucks. 367 00:44:12,650 --> 00:44:16,153 I mean I love my dad, but... 368 00:44:16,195 --> 00:44:19,448 I haven't spoken to either of them in a really long time. 369 00:44:22,576 --> 00:44:29,624 It's not that I hate my mom, I just... don't really know her... or care to know her. 370 00:44:29,666 --> 00:44:32,669 That probably sounds really shitty to you. 371 00:44:33,545 --> 00:44:37,382 It doesn't. 372 00:44:37,424 --> 00:44:43,096 You know, we're all broken in different places. 373 00:44:43,138 --> 00:44:47,893 And we're supposed to grow from that brokenness, but... 374 00:44:47,935 --> 00:44:50,938 It really hurts sometimes. 375 00:44:54,108 --> 00:44:57,069 Yes it does. 376 00:44:57,111 --> 00:45:01,615 My dad keeps trying to call me and get me to talk to him, but... 377 00:45:03,742 --> 00:45:06,745 I really can't bring myself to do it. 378 00:45:31,728 --> 00:45:34,731 To the broken places. 379 00:45:36,316 --> 00:45:39,319 Cheers. 380 00:45:40,362 --> 00:45:41,571 [Phone buzzes] 381 00:45:41,613 --> 00:45:44,324 Speak of the... 382 00:45:44,366 --> 00:45:47,369 Your dad? 383 00:45:52,749 --> 00:45:55,752 Hey you okay? 384 00:45:58,338 --> 00:46:01,299 I have a boyfriend. (Jake) Oh. 385 00:46:01,341 --> 00:46:05,095 Well, maybe an ex now, I'm not really sure. 386 00:46:05,137 --> 00:46:08,348 I went to the the bar to get over him... 387 00:46:08,390 --> 00:46:12,019 But it wasn't enough.. it never really seems to be enough. 388 00:46:13,520 --> 00:46:17,149 And I left my favorite scarf at his house. 389 00:46:17,191 --> 00:46:20,152 That's bullshit. (Brett) What? 390 00:46:20,194 --> 00:46:23,822 Look, I don't know what your relationship is like, only you do. 391 00:46:23,864 --> 00:46:27,242 But you are enough. 392 00:46:27,284 --> 00:46:33,415 I mean, how long have we known each other? What, like a couple of hours? 393 00:46:33,457 --> 00:46:38,128 That's long enough for me to realize that you are enough. 394 00:46:38,170 --> 00:46:44,759 And look, I know you're vulnerable right now and I'm not gonna be one of those assholes that hits on you. 395 00:46:44,801 --> 00:46:49,222 Because that's messed up and that's wrong, but... 396 00:46:49,264 --> 00:46:54,186 Looking at you right now... 397 00:46:54,228 --> 00:46:57,147 You are enough. 398 00:47:02,528 --> 00:47:05,489 I've had a lot of fun tonight. 399 00:47:05,531 --> 00:47:08,492 Like, more fun than I've had in a long time. 400 00:47:08,534 --> 00:47:11,495 (Sarcastically) Oh, well I am a fun guy. 401 00:47:11,537 --> 00:47:14,498 I mean, I wanna keep having fun. 402 00:47:14,540 --> 00:47:20,003 Just for tonight, nothing else matters, no one else matters, just fun. 403 00:47:21,421 --> 00:47:24,382 I can do that. 404 00:47:24,424 --> 00:47:29,137 [Pop music] 405 00:47:29,179 --> 00:47:35,268 ♫ Try not to spin out too much. Oh but my mind keeps on tripping me up. ♫ 406 00:47:35,310 --> 00:47:43,310 ♫ Telling me lies ‘till I’m coming undone. Emotionally drunk like I can’t get enough. ♫ 407 00:47:43,986 --> 00:47:51,986 ♫ Watch me fall down the rabbit hole. Spend hours counting all the potential hypotheticals. ♫ 408 00:47:52,703 --> 00:48:00,252 ♫ Building walls just to knock them down. Leave me on the ground in the fall out. ♫ 409 00:48:00,294 --> 00:48:08,294 ♫ I keep on leaving me a wreck. Words in my head, yeah they’re dead set on running parallel. ♫ 410 00:48:10,137 --> 00:48:18,137 ♫ Why do I do it, why do I do it? Always kicking myself, kicking myself. ♫ 411 00:48:22,232 --> 00:48:22,832 ♫ ♫ 412 00:48:52,929 --> 00:48:54,806 Dammit. 413 00:48:54,848 --> 00:48:56,933 We're gonna find a game you're good at, I promise. 414 00:48:56,975 --> 00:48:59,227 I want a rematch. 415 00:48:59,269 --> 00:49:01,021 You're too careful. 416 00:49:01,063 --> 00:49:04,066 Tell me about it. 417 00:49:06,902 --> 00:49:09,905 You're reds. 418 00:49:38,433 --> 00:49:41,436 Shit. 419 00:49:46,566 --> 00:49:54,074 You know, it would be really polite if you actually let me win for once. 420 00:49:55,951 --> 00:49:58,745 But what would you learn from that? 421 00:49:58,787 --> 00:50:01,748 (Jake) That human decency and kindness are still alive! 422 00:50:01,790 --> 00:50:04,793 (Jill) Oh, those died a long time ago. 423 00:50:06,169 --> 00:50:07,962 Here you go. 424 00:50:08,004 --> 00:50:10,965 Thank you. (Jill) You're welcome. 425 00:50:11,007 --> 00:50:12,634 [50s rock and roll plays on jukebox] 426 00:50:12,676 --> 00:50:17,722 ♫ Oh chasing love can drive you mad, make you feel real good, make you feel so sad. ♫ 427 00:50:17,764 --> 00:50:20,767 How about Scrabble? 428 00:50:22,769 --> 00:50:25,730 How about let's get your scarf back? 429 00:50:25,772 --> 00:50:27,691 What? 430 00:50:27,733 --> 00:50:30,694 Your scarf. 431 00:50:30,736 --> 00:50:33,697 You said that you left your scarf at his house. 432 00:50:33,739 --> 00:50:36,700 So lets get it back. 433 00:50:36,742 --> 00:50:39,077 It's just a scarf. 434 00:50:39,119 --> 00:50:42,122 Your favorite scarf. 435 00:50:43,999 --> 00:50:48,128 Look, I appreciate the energy, I really do, but it's fine. 436 00:50:52,549 --> 00:50:55,552 I'm gonna go have a smoke. 437 00:51:41,890 --> 00:51:45,977 Let's go get my fucking scarf back. 438 00:52:29,312 --> 00:52:36,194 You sure about this? It's okay if you... uh.. don't want to. 439 00:52:38,738 --> 00:52:41,741 Mister dumbass confidence over here. 440 00:52:54,337 --> 00:52:57,340 (Brett) Mike, it's me! 441 00:53:07,809 --> 00:53:10,770 (Mike) Who the fuck is that? (Brett) I want my fucking scarf back. 442 00:53:10,812 --> 00:53:13,773 What? (Brett) My scarf, I want it. 443 00:53:13,815 --> 00:53:16,276 What the fuck are you talking about? Who is that? 444 00:53:16,318 --> 00:53:19,779 (Brett) Look, we're done, I'm over this, I don't wanna keep doing this anymore. 445 00:53:19,821 --> 00:53:22,031 I want my fucking scarf. 446 00:53:22,073 --> 00:53:25,034 You're done? Fuck off. 447 00:53:25,076 --> 00:53:29,998 (Jake) Hey man! She just wants her scarf back. 448 00:53:31,333 --> 00:53:34,794 Look, I don't know who you are, but you need to get the fuck out of here right now... 449 00:53:34,836 --> 00:53:37,839 Or I'm gonna knock your fucking teeth down your throat. 450 00:53:39,466 --> 00:53:42,385 (Jake) Scarf thing kinda makes sense now. 451 00:53:42,427 --> 00:53:45,472 Are you fucking kidding me? 452 00:53:46,806 --> 00:53:49,809 (Jake) Shit, hey! 453 00:53:52,187 --> 00:53:56,524 [Jake groaning] 454 00:53:58,068 --> 00:54:01,071 [Glass shatters] 455 00:54:07,285 --> 00:54:10,830 (Brett) Are you okay? 456 00:54:10,872 --> 00:54:13,875 I'll live. 457 00:54:53,373 --> 00:54:56,376 It doesn't look that bad, come on. 458 00:55:14,936 --> 00:55:17,230 (Jill) Should be call the police? 459 00:55:17,272 --> 00:55:20,275 Nah, he'll be alright. 460 00:55:25,238 --> 00:55:28,241 (Jake) Nice scarf. 461 00:55:29,284 --> 00:55:32,704 Nice nose. (Jake) Thank you. 462 00:55:32,746 --> 00:55:35,749 It doesn't look too bad. 463 00:55:39,961 --> 00:55:42,964 Much obliged. (Jill) You're welcome. 464 00:55:44,799 --> 00:55:47,760 (Brett) I'm sorry about that. 465 00:55:47,802 --> 00:55:50,847 (Jake) No it's fine. 466 00:55:51,973 --> 00:55:56,811 I'm just glad you're okay, nobody deserves to be treated like that. 467 00:56:00,565 --> 00:56:03,568 Must have felt great to smash that- 468 00:56:13,036 --> 00:56:16,247 (Brett) You wanna get really drunk with me? 469 00:56:16,289 --> 00:56:21,544 Honestly, I've been drunk for a while at this point. 470 00:56:21,586 --> 00:56:24,589 [Retro pop/rock music] 471 00:56:24,631 --> 00:56:31,262 ♫ We gotta get together and make a way. It's all we've ever known. ♫ 472 00:56:31,304 --> 00:56:39,304 ♫ We're not the same, we never thought it'd break. We're still holding on. ♫ 473 00:56:40,063 --> 00:56:48,063 ♫ Let's put it back together a better way and never let it go. ♫ 474 00:56:50,782 --> 00:56:58,782 ♫ Carry through. Trust in what we never knew. ♫ 475 00:57:01,501 --> 00:57:02,101 ♫ ♫ 476 00:58:05,481 --> 00:58:09,152 (Jake) Why do I suck so much? 477 00:58:09,194 --> 00:58:14,157 You don't suck, you're just... [hiccups] you're just worried. 478 00:58:23,791 --> 00:58:26,794 My doctor said I might be sick. 479 00:58:27,921 --> 00:58:30,882 Huh? 480 00:58:30,924 --> 00:58:33,927 Never mind. 481 00:58:35,511 --> 00:58:38,472 I can't write. 482 00:58:38,514 --> 00:58:41,475 I'm not even a real writer. 483 00:58:41,517 --> 00:58:44,520 I wish I was. 484 00:58:46,522 --> 00:58:48,942 You know, I started writing... 485 00:58:50,818 --> 00:58:54,197 Because I liked the way it made me feel. 486 00:58:56,157 --> 00:58:59,827 You know? Like... like I felt something. 487 00:59:13,549 --> 00:59:16,552 And... 488 00:59:17,595 --> 00:59:20,598 Like it scares me. 489 00:59:23,977 --> 00:59:26,980 You scare me. 490 00:59:30,275 --> 00:59:32,193 [Phone buzzes] 491 00:59:32,235 --> 00:59:35,238 Give it a fucking rest! 492 00:59:37,323 --> 00:59:44,205 I should probably go home and go to sleep, but... 493 00:59:46,958 --> 00:59:50,670 Honestly, that's the last place I want to be right now. 494 01:00:02,181 --> 01:00:05,142 Uh oh. 495 01:00:05,184 --> 01:00:08,187 [Brett puking] 496 01:00:16,154 --> 01:00:19,115 You okay Jill? [Laughing] 497 01:00:19,157 --> 01:00:22,160 Oh probably smart. 498 01:00:31,085 --> 01:00:34,088 One for you too. (Jake) Excuse me. 499 01:00:39,510 --> 01:00:42,513 [Jake puking] 500 01:00:43,765 --> 01:00:44,725 [Phone buzzing] 501 01:00:52,982 --> 01:00:58,905 Oh my god! You know what, fine, fine. 502 01:01:07,747 --> 01:01:10,708 Dad, it's the middle of the night... 503 01:01:10,750 --> 01:01:13,753 Whoa whoa, slow down... wait what? 504 01:01:16,172 --> 01:01:21,677 Slow down... yeah no... I can be up there tonight. Do you need me to drive out? 505 01:01:23,429 --> 01:01:26,390 Are you okay? Are you sure? 506 01:01:26,432 --> 01:01:29,393 Okay, well I'll drive out and I'll be there in the morning. 507 01:01:29,435 --> 01:01:32,730 Tomorrow of course... no I want to be there. 508 01:01:33,689 --> 01:01:36,650 Yeah that's fine, okay... I'll be there tomorrow. 509 01:01:36,692 --> 01:01:39,695 I love you too. 510 01:01:43,449 --> 01:01:46,452 Is everything alright? 511 01:01:47,578 --> 01:01:50,581 Brett? 512 01:01:57,839 --> 01:02:00,216 (Brett) I don't know. 513 01:02:00,258 --> 01:02:03,344 Are you okay? (Jake) Yeah I'm good. 514 01:02:04,220 --> 01:02:07,223 What's going on? 515 01:02:09,016 --> 01:02:11,435 My mom just died. 516 01:02:11,477 --> 01:02:14,480 (Jake) Shit. (Jill) I'm so sorry. 517 01:02:16,732 --> 01:02:22,697 You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to, but if you do, we're here. 518 01:02:27,285 --> 01:02:29,703 I'm gonna go for a walk. 519 01:02:29,745 --> 01:02:32,748 (Jake) You want any company? (Brett) No. 520 01:02:50,224 --> 01:02:55,771 [Somber music] 521 01:02:58,816 --> 01:03:02,987 I'm gonna start cleaning up, do you need anything? 522 01:03:03,029 --> 01:03:05,990 No I'm good. 523 01:03:06,032 --> 01:03:08,993 Okay. 524 01:03:09,035 --> 01:03:12,914 Oh wait, actually, do you have another pen? 525 01:03:14,248 --> 01:03:17,251 I'm sure somewhere here. 526 01:03:18,377 --> 01:03:19,962 Here. 527 01:03:20,004 --> 01:03:22,965 Thank you. (Jill) You're welcome. 528 01:03:23,007 --> 01:03:31,007 ♫ You can feel it, the end of the year. You can see it falling down. ♫ 529 01:03:31,599 --> 01:03:39,599 ♫ But when the lights come on, it's time to come home. ♫ 530 01:03:41,901 --> 01:03:42,501 ♫ ♫ 531 01:03:48,574 --> 01:03:56,574 ♫ Supper time, every one is here. ♫ 532 01:03:57,208 --> 01:03:57,808 ♫ ♫ 533 01:04:02,630 --> 01:04:10,630 ♫ Are you near, like I wished so many times? ♫ 534 01:04:11,264 --> 01:04:11,864 ♫ ♫ 535 01:04:48,134 --> 01:04:52,054 How do you say goodbye to a stranger? 536 01:04:58,769 --> 01:05:03,399 You weren't even a good parent, or a good partner to dad... 537 01:05:03,441 --> 01:05:08,404 Despite what everyone thought, despite your... presentation. 538 01:05:16,078 --> 01:05:23,461 I'm not happy that you're gone, but I'm also not really sad, and that sucks. 539 01:05:25,421 --> 01:05:30,885 You're supposed to care when your mom dies, you're supposed to feel... something. 540 01:05:32,803 --> 01:05:36,390 Even in death, you're still taking from me. 541 01:05:36,432 --> 01:05:43,939 That's what you are, you're a taker... you were a taker. 542 01:05:45,900 --> 01:05:51,739 You were a smoker, so thanks for giving me that I guess. 543 01:05:59,580 --> 01:06:02,541 Where were you? 544 01:06:02,583 --> 01:06:06,128 My first date, my first real car... 545 01:06:08,631 --> 01:06:13,135 My first bra, my first kiss, my first day at college... 546 01:06:13,177 --> 01:06:16,180 Graduating with honors! 547 01:06:24,397 --> 01:06:28,859 You weren't there for any of it, and dad was there for it all. 548 01:06:37,660 --> 01:06:41,747 I fucking hated you! 549 01:06:55,010 --> 01:06:57,971 I teach now. 550 01:06:58,013 --> 01:07:03,185 And I can see it in some of these kids' that they have somebody like you in their lives... 551 01:07:03,227 --> 01:07:06,230 Or not in their lives. 552 01:07:08,107 --> 01:07:11,485 And every day I try to be the best that I can be for them... 553 01:07:11,527 --> 01:07:16,699 Because I know that the people in their lives aren't always going to be the best for them. 554 01:07:18,033 --> 01:07:21,162 So I guess I have you to thank for that too. 555 01:07:23,789 --> 01:07:29,837 I don't care about you... but you made it pretty clear that you don't care about me... 556 01:07:31,338 --> 01:07:34,967 So I'm not going to apologize for that. 557 01:07:35,009 --> 01:07:39,472 But... I am sorry... 558 01:07:41,974 --> 01:07:45,811 I'm sorry that it took me this long to stand up to you... 559 01:07:45,853 --> 01:07:49,774 And you stand up to myself. 560 01:07:59,700 --> 01:08:02,703 Bye mom. 561 01:08:45,913 --> 01:08:48,123 Wow. 562 01:08:48,165 --> 01:08:49,458 Oh, hey. 563 01:08:49,500 --> 01:08:51,794 You're writing. 564 01:08:51,836 --> 01:08:54,839 Oh, it's just some notes. 565 01:08:56,966 --> 01:08:59,092 You okay? 566 01:08:59,134 --> 01:09:00,594 Yeah. 567 01:09:00,636 --> 01:09:04,515 Oh, I found something that you might enjoy. 568 01:09:08,269 --> 01:09:11,272 A short story? 569 01:09:13,524 --> 01:09:17,695 Oh wow... wait... 570 01:09:19,822 --> 01:09:22,825 (Jake) By Brett Ashley. 571 01:09:28,998 --> 01:09:32,918 Listen, you won't regret sharing this with me. 572 01:09:35,880 --> 01:09:38,883 Thank you. 573 01:09:42,845 --> 01:09:45,848 [Pop/rock music plays on jukebox] 574 01:09:51,645 --> 01:09:54,648 (Brett) Jill! [Snaps fingers] 575 01:09:56,191 --> 01:10:00,112 (Brett) It's about closing time. (Jill) Thought you'd never ask. 576 01:10:00,154 --> 01:10:07,744 ♫ Let's go out, let's go out, and feel the ocean breeze. ♫ 577 01:10:07,786 --> 01:10:15,786 ♫ When we make out, we make out, I never want to leave. ♫ 578 01:10:18,005 --> 01:10:26,005 ♫ Smooth sailing through the tropical islands. Ocean waves and me kissing your eyelids. ♫ 579 01:10:26,972 --> 01:10:34,972 ♫ All the mai tais and we wanted to die. ♫ 580 01:10:35,064 --> 01:10:35,664 ♫ ♫ 581 01:10:41,362 --> 01:10:45,616 Seriously? (Brett) Run! 582 01:10:59,588 --> 01:11:02,549 A look inside your mind. 583 01:11:02,591 --> 01:11:05,594 Unfortunately. 584 01:11:20,317 --> 01:11:23,695 So, what's your writing style? 585 01:11:23,737 --> 01:11:26,698 What do you mean? 586 01:11:26,740 --> 01:11:29,701 What's your style of writing? I'm curious. 587 01:11:29,743 --> 01:11:35,749 Well... I did mention self loathing... 588 01:11:38,544 --> 01:11:42,297 And I guess drinking. [Chuckles] 589 01:11:45,175 --> 01:11:48,136 (Brett) You're a real classic, huh? 590 01:11:48,178 --> 01:11:51,181 I don't know. 591 01:11:52,307 --> 01:11:55,310 I think that's my problem. 592 01:11:58,355 --> 01:12:05,446 Like this shit, it's easy, you know? 593 01:12:06,905 --> 01:12:14,079 You do research, gather a bunch of articles, write a mini essay. 594 01:12:19,251 --> 01:12:22,212 And that's it... 595 01:12:22,254 --> 01:12:25,215 But most of it's objective. 596 01:12:25,257 --> 01:12:28,260 But this... 597 01:12:30,596 --> 01:12:34,975 (Brett) You gotta look inside for that. 598 01:12:35,017 --> 01:12:38,520 And sometimes you don't like what you find. 599 01:12:40,439 --> 01:12:44,902 [Sighs] You may not like what you find... 600 01:12:47,279 --> 01:12:51,992 But you gotta learn to love it... unconditionally. 601 01:12:53,827 --> 01:12:56,830 And respect it. 602 01:12:59,958 --> 01:13:05,923 And if you do all that, you can find your voice. 603 01:13:08,258 --> 01:13:11,261 I'm still learning that. 604 01:13:12,221 --> 01:13:15,224 I think I am too. 605 01:13:17,392 --> 01:13:19,061 [Groans] 606 01:13:19,103 --> 01:13:21,271 What's wrong? 607 01:13:21,313 --> 01:13:23,315 No, it's... uh... 608 01:13:23,357 --> 01:13:24,858 Are you okay? 609 01:13:24,900 --> 01:13:27,903 No it's not you. 610 01:13:29,071 --> 01:13:34,993 I... uh... I have a lump... 611 01:13:40,082 --> 01:13:45,420 The doctor said I have a lump. 612 01:13:45,462 --> 01:13:49,466 Oh, oh my god. 613 01:13:50,425 --> 01:13:53,386 No no no, don't... [Sighs] 614 01:13:53,428 --> 01:13:59,518 He said that it should be fine, I'm just... 615 01:13:59,560 --> 01:14:03,188 Waiting for test results. 616 01:14:06,358 --> 01:14:08,777 I want to, I really do, it's just- 617 01:14:08,819 --> 01:14:12,489 No it's fine, we don't have to. 618 01:14:15,200 --> 01:14:18,161 Do you want to go for another walk? 619 01:14:18,203 --> 01:14:21,164 A short one this time. 620 01:14:21,206 --> 01:14:27,087 Well, short-ish. 621 01:14:27,129 --> 01:14:34,178 [Footsteps, car passes by] 622 01:14:59,494 --> 01:15:00,214 [Birds sing] 623 01:15:32,027 --> 01:15:36,615 [Wind blows] 624 01:16:21,702 --> 01:16:24,913 A new day. 625 01:16:24,955 --> 01:16:29,835 Didn't seem like it would ever come. 626 01:16:47,644 --> 01:16:49,771 To us. 627 01:16:50,105 --> 01:16:52,107 To us. 628 01:17:10,125 --> 01:17:13,128 It's beautiful. 629 01:17:16,923 --> 01:17:21,845 Hey I'm... sorry about Mike. 630 01:17:21,887 --> 01:17:25,682 Don't be, it was a long time coming. 631 01:17:32,606 --> 01:17:36,193 You know... we could have been really great together. 632 01:17:39,237 --> 01:17:43,450 It's pretty to think so, isn't it? 633 01:17:48,830 --> 01:17:52,668 But... I think I need to be alone for a while, right now. 634 01:18:00,926 --> 01:18:04,638 (Brett) I really like this and I really like you. 635 01:18:07,057 --> 01:18:11,978 But I need to deal with my own shit before I can expect somebody else to deal with it. 636 01:18:12,020 --> 01:18:14,981 My whole life, I've put my brain before my heart... 637 01:18:15,023 --> 01:18:18,985 Which has led to some pretty great nights, but... 638 01:18:19,027 --> 01:18:21,988 Also pretty lonely days. 639 01:18:23,698 --> 01:18:26,659 I think my heart is in the right place. 640 01:18:26,701 --> 01:18:32,416 But I need to make sure that my brain is in the right place too, for once. 641 01:18:35,252 --> 01:18:38,255 I get that. 642 01:18:39,464 --> 01:18:44,344 We both have some work to do. 643 01:18:52,018 --> 01:18:55,772 (Brett) I think it's time for me to go. 644 01:19:30,390 --> 01:19:34,269 It's time to go. 645 01:19:43,403 --> 01:19:51,403 [Debussey's Clair de Lune] 646 01:19:54,581 --> 01:19:55,181 ♫ ♫ 647 01:21:56,953 --> 01:21:57,833 [Phone buzzes] 648 01:22:28,652 --> 01:22:35,283 Hello? Yes... good morning. 649 01:22:45,710 --> 01:22:50,632 [Birds chirp outside] 650 01:23:01,434 --> 01:23:06,815 [It starts to rain outside] 651 01:23:16,032 --> 01:23:19,911 Okay... thank you. 652 01:23:21,579 --> 01:23:24,582 Goodbye. 653 01:23:43,184 --> 01:23:46,187 [Typing] 654 01:24:12,756 --> 01:24:19,554 [Typing continues, rain falls] 655 01:24:19,596 --> 01:24:27,596 [Debussey's Clair de Lune continues] 656 01:24:30,774 --> 01:24:31,374 ♫ ♫ 657 01:27:49,013 --> 01:27:57,013 [Cars honking, people shouting] 658 01:28:17,333 --> 01:28:25,333 [Schumann's Kinderszenen, No. 1, Scenes from Childhood] 659 01:28:26,009 --> 01:28:26,609 ♫ ♫ 660 01:29:48,091 --> 01:29:51,052 (Jake) Thanks for coming. 661 01:29:51,094 --> 01:29:54,055 [Door opens and closes] 662 01:29:54,097 --> 01:29:59,227 [Bach's Cello Suite No. 1, Prélude plays over speaker] 663 01:30:10,947 --> 01:30:13,950 (Brett) Hi. 664 01:30:14,409 --> 01:30:17,411 Hi. 665 01:30:18,871 --> 01:30:20,915 (Brett) Big fan. 666 01:30:20,957 --> 01:30:23,918 Me too. 667 01:30:23,960 --> 01:30:27,421 So, can I get a signature or what? 668 01:30:39,100 --> 01:30:42,103 Thanks. 669 01:30:44,105 --> 01:30:47,859 So, uh... what time do you get off? 670 01:30:49,485 --> 01:30:53,114 I guess when all the books are gone. 671 01:31:15,178 --> 01:31:17,513 I'd like to buy all of these, please. 672 01:31:17,555 --> 01:31:20,558 (Bookstore clerk) All of them? 673 01:31:37,992 --> 01:31:41,203 (Bookstore clerk) Seventy fifteen. 674 01:31:41,245 --> 01:31:44,248 Here you go. 675 01:31:46,792 --> 01:31:49,795 [Cash register opens and closes] 676 01:32:00,389 --> 01:32:03,392 Thank you. 677 01:32:17,073 --> 01:32:20,576 I expect you to sign all of these, by the way. 678 01:32:27,667 --> 01:32:31,128 You wanna go get a drink? 679 01:32:33,172 --> 01:32:37,176 [Upbeat rock music] 680 01:33:17,966 --> 01:33:21,140 [Upbeat rock music continues] 681 01:34:01,765 --> 01:34:04,226 [Upbeat rock music continues] 682 01:34:31,329 --> 01:34:34,265 [Upbeat rock music continues] 683 01:34:57,420 --> 01:34:59,960 [Upbeat rock music continues] 684 01:35:33,796 --> 01:35:37,605 [Music trails off]