1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:17,800 --> 00:00:20,237 [distant siren wailing] 4 00:00:27,679 --> 00:00:30,117 [buzzing] 5 00:00:41,650 --> 00:00:43,782 - I'm still here. 6 00:00:43,913 --> 00:00:46,176 [distant barking] 7 00:00:46,307 --> 00:00:48,396 [chatter] 8 00:00:57,579 --> 00:01:00,016 [rattling] 9 00:01:02,453 --> 00:01:04,455 - I'm still here. 10 00:01:04,586 --> 00:01:06,675 And so are you. 11 00:01:06,805 --> 00:01:08,677 [somber music] 12 00:01:08,807 --> 00:01:11,201 [dial tone] 13 00:01:16,772 --> 00:01:19,166 [alarm beeping] 14 00:01:38,663 --> 00:01:41,144 [water bubbling] 15 00:01:46,236 --> 00:01:49,283 - So you're not going to tell me her name? 16 00:01:49,413 --> 00:01:50,588 - Don't make it a big thing, mom. 17 00:01:50,719 --> 00:01:52,416 - Well, she invited you to hang out. 18 00:01:52,547 --> 00:01:53,635 - I know that. 19 00:01:53,765 --> 00:01:54,897 - Hey. 20 00:01:55,027 --> 00:01:55,941 - Hey. 21 00:01:56,072 --> 00:01:57,204 - Hey. 22 00:01:57,334 --> 00:02:00,685 - Guess who just might have a girlfriend. 23 00:02:00,816 --> 00:02:01,991 - I heard he's got two of them. 24 00:02:02,122 --> 00:02:03,471 - I didn't say that. - Oh. 25 00:02:03,601 --> 00:02:04,472 [laughter] - Oh my gosh. 26 00:02:04,602 --> 00:02:05,560 You guys are annoying. 27 00:02:09,259 --> 00:02:10,130 - Good nap? 28 00:02:10,260 --> 00:02:11,870 - Yeah. 29 00:02:12,001 --> 00:02:15,961 Weird dreams I still have this headache that won't go away. 30 00:02:16,092 --> 00:02:18,050 - You think you should call out? 31 00:02:18,181 --> 00:02:19,922 - No. 32 00:02:20,052 --> 00:02:22,577 They're probably short staffed as it is. 33 00:02:22,707 --> 00:02:24,883 Speaking of which, have you seen my ID anywhere? 34 00:02:25,014 --> 00:02:26,233 - Yeah. 35 00:02:26,363 --> 00:02:27,059 This is what happens now that you're only 36 00:02:27,190 --> 00:02:28,713 volunteering twice a year. 37 00:02:28,844 --> 00:02:29,975 - Why don't you give me a hard time a little bit more, 38 00:02:30,106 --> 00:02:31,325 will you. 39 00:02:31,455 --> 00:02:32,239 Guilt trip me. 40 00:02:32,369 --> 00:02:33,283 Yeah. 41 00:02:33,414 --> 00:02:35,807 [curious music] 42 00:03:03,139 --> 00:03:05,097 What's he doing tonight? 43 00:03:05,228 --> 00:03:08,144 - He said he's hanging out at a friend's house down the street. 44 00:03:08,275 --> 00:03:09,450 - What about you? 45 00:03:09,580 --> 00:03:10,886 You still going to do that work thing? 46 00:03:11,016 --> 00:03:13,367 - I decided to ditch it and go to my sister's. 47 00:03:13,497 --> 00:03:15,630 She's having her annual shindig. 48 00:03:15,760 --> 00:03:17,066 - It's quite a hike, isn't it? 49 00:03:17,197 --> 00:03:18,285 - I know. 50 00:03:18,415 --> 00:03:19,677 I just feel like I owe her a visit. 51 00:03:19,808 --> 00:03:23,159 Check out the invitation she sent. 52 00:03:23,290 --> 00:03:25,422 - Julia's New Year's Eve bonanza. 53 00:03:25,553 --> 00:03:27,816 Well, you-- you can't miss that. 54 00:03:27,946 --> 00:03:29,252 - This came from your brother. 55 00:03:29,383 --> 00:03:30,993 I was thinking of putting him on the fridge. 56 00:03:34,953 --> 00:03:36,390 - Where are their sweaters? 57 00:03:36,520 --> 00:03:37,782 - I think the sweaters are cute. 58 00:03:37,913 --> 00:03:40,002 - Dad, did you get the Lakers tickets yet? 59 00:03:40,132 --> 00:03:41,003 - Oh, shit. 60 00:03:41,133 --> 00:03:42,787 No, not yet. 61 00:03:42,918 --> 00:03:44,224 I'm still working on it. 62 00:03:44,354 --> 00:03:45,877 - If you give me your card, I can order them 63 00:03:46,008 --> 00:03:47,096 because they're going to sell out. 64 00:03:47,227 --> 00:03:48,880 - No, no. I'm going to do it. 65 00:03:49,011 --> 00:03:53,189 - Oh, I almost forgot. 66 00:03:53,320 --> 00:03:55,887 I had coffee with Matt Chauvins yesterday. 67 00:03:56,018 --> 00:03:57,976 He asked to read your book. 68 00:03:58,107 --> 00:04:00,501 - It's-- it's really not that type of thing, you know? 69 00:04:00,631 --> 00:04:06,289 - Well, he was thrilled to give you notes, so, sent it to him. 70 00:04:06,420 --> 00:04:08,335 Is that a problem? 71 00:04:08,465 --> 00:04:09,249 - No. 72 00:04:09,379 --> 00:04:10,902 I mean, look. 73 00:04:11,033 --> 00:04:13,862 It's-- he's just a big-time fiction writer, you know? 74 00:04:13,992 --> 00:04:16,081 And you asked him to read my dumb little memoir. 75 00:04:16,212 --> 00:04:17,387 - Wow. 76 00:04:17,518 --> 00:04:21,522 OK, no more goodwill gestures from me. 77 00:04:21,652 --> 00:04:23,045 - Appreciate it. 78 00:04:23,175 --> 00:04:27,528 - [radio chatter]. 79 00:04:27,658 --> 00:04:29,704 [horns honking] 80 00:04:31,140 --> 00:04:32,097 [radio chatter] 81 00:04:33,534 --> 00:04:34,448 [radio fades out] 82 00:04:34,578 --> 00:04:36,972 [train horn blares] 83 00:04:48,244 --> 00:04:49,637 [line ringing] 84 00:04:49,767 --> 00:04:51,160 - You've reached Andrew. 85 00:04:51,291 --> 00:04:52,509 Please leave a message and I'll get back to you. 86 00:04:52,640 --> 00:04:53,554 - Hey, big brother. 87 00:04:53,684 --> 00:04:54,903 It's me. 88 00:04:55,033 --> 00:04:57,601 Just calling to say happy new year. 89 00:04:57,732 --> 00:04:59,037 I got those photos you sent. 90 00:04:59,168 --> 00:05:00,125 Thanks for those. 91 00:05:02,650 --> 00:05:03,999 Anyway, give me a call back. 92 00:05:04,129 --> 00:05:05,043 Let's catch up. 93 00:05:09,570 --> 00:05:11,485 [door clicks shut] 94 00:05:11,615 --> 00:05:14,009 [phone rings] 95 00:05:15,576 --> 00:05:17,969 [elevator dings] 96 00:05:26,456 --> 00:05:28,676 - Because I'm at work right now. 97 00:05:28,806 --> 00:05:30,852 You cannot just drop this on me last minute, Ty. 98 00:05:30,982 --> 00:05:31,940 It's New Year's Eve. 99 00:05:34,638 --> 00:05:35,509 Fine. 100 00:05:35,639 --> 00:05:36,901 [phone rings] 101 00:05:37,032 --> 00:05:38,163 No. 102 00:05:38,294 --> 00:05:39,991 I just can't argue about it right now. 103 00:05:40,122 --> 00:05:41,166 You know what? 104 00:05:41,297 --> 00:05:42,211 I'll figure it out. 105 00:05:45,301 --> 00:05:46,737 Steven, hi. 106 00:05:46,868 --> 00:05:47,999 How are you? - Good. 107 00:05:48,130 --> 00:05:49,305 - So good to see you. 108 00:05:49,436 --> 00:05:50,567 - How are you? 109 00:05:50,698 --> 00:05:52,134 - You know, same old, same old. 110 00:05:52,264 --> 00:05:53,440 - I'm not interrupting, am I? 111 00:05:53,570 --> 00:05:54,963 - No. 112 00:05:55,093 --> 00:05:57,313 That was just my ex-husband dropping the ball again. 113 00:05:57,444 --> 00:05:59,359 I actually have to go and get my kids. 114 00:05:59,489 --> 00:06:01,186 He got his dates all messed up, and now it's 115 00:06:01,317 --> 00:06:02,623 impossible to find a sitter. 116 00:06:02,753 --> 00:06:03,928 Actually, I think it's just going 117 00:06:04,059 --> 00:06:05,234 to be here most of the night. 118 00:06:05,365 --> 00:06:06,801 Cindy's off at 11:00 - Oh. 119 00:06:06,931 --> 00:06:07,889 Uh, OK. 120 00:06:08,019 --> 00:06:09,369 - I'm so sorry, Steven. 121 00:06:09,499 --> 00:06:11,196 I know it's a lot for one person, but I just-- 122 00:06:11,327 --> 00:06:12,197 - No. No, no, no. 123 00:06:12,328 --> 00:06:13,242 It's fine. It's fine. 124 00:06:13,373 --> 00:06:14,939 Go be with your kids. It's OK. 125 00:06:15,070 --> 00:06:16,550 - You're a lifesaver. - Come on. 126 00:06:16,680 --> 00:06:18,203 You're the hero. 127 00:06:18,334 --> 00:06:20,467 I'm the one who sold out and went into private practice. 128 00:06:20,597 --> 00:06:21,468 [laughter] 129 00:06:21,598 --> 00:06:22,904 - Well, at least use my desk. 130 00:06:23,034 --> 00:06:23,861 I do have the nice chair. 131 00:06:23,992 --> 00:06:24,862 - Thank you. 132 00:06:24,993 --> 00:06:26,864 All right. 133 00:06:26,995 --> 00:06:28,344 [phone rings] 134 00:06:28,475 --> 00:06:29,432 - Hello. 135 00:06:36,657 --> 00:06:37,875 - Lifeline. 136 00:06:41,052 --> 00:06:43,707 Hello? 137 00:06:43,838 --> 00:06:46,231 - I don't want to talk about myself. 138 00:06:46,362 --> 00:06:47,711 - OK. 139 00:06:47,842 --> 00:06:48,886 I understand. 140 00:06:51,498 --> 00:06:52,412 Hello? 141 00:06:59,854 --> 00:07:02,160 [phone rings] 142 00:07:11,213 --> 00:07:12,214 Lifeline. 143 00:07:17,219 --> 00:07:18,655 Hello? 144 00:07:18,786 --> 00:07:21,005 [muffled breathing] 145 00:07:22,398 --> 00:07:25,836 It's-- it's OK if you're not ready to talk, 146 00:07:25,967 --> 00:07:27,403 but can I get your name at least? 147 00:07:31,015 --> 00:07:31,886 - Mary. 148 00:07:32,016 --> 00:07:33,670 - Mary? 149 00:07:33,801 --> 00:07:34,758 Hi, Mary. 150 00:07:34,889 --> 00:07:35,846 I'm Steve. 151 00:07:38,719 --> 00:07:42,113 - I don't really know how this works. 152 00:07:42,244 --> 00:07:47,554 - Well, it's really whatever you feel like you need. 153 00:07:47,684 --> 00:07:50,382 What made you call in this evening? 154 00:07:50,513 --> 00:07:51,949 And there's no right answer to that. 155 00:07:52,080 --> 00:07:54,822 - I don't want to feel like this. 156 00:07:54,952 --> 00:07:56,171 I want it to be over. 157 00:07:58,869 --> 00:08:00,349 But please, don't tell the police 158 00:08:00,480 --> 00:08:04,005 where I am because they'll just-- 159 00:08:04,135 --> 00:08:05,310 - No, no, no. No. 160 00:08:05,441 --> 00:08:06,616 No, no I won't. I promise. 161 00:08:06,747 --> 00:08:08,226 This call is anonymous, so you don't 162 00:08:08,357 --> 00:08:09,445 have to worry about that, OK? 163 00:08:12,492 --> 00:08:14,232 OK? 164 00:08:14,363 --> 00:08:17,497 I'd just like to talk a little bit about how you're feeling. 165 00:08:17,627 --> 00:08:20,717 Did, uh-- did something happen at home tonight? 166 00:08:20,848 --> 00:08:22,589 Maybe a fight with family, or-- 167 00:08:22,719 --> 00:08:23,633 - Yeah. 168 00:08:23,764 --> 00:08:24,634 Yeah. 169 00:08:24,765 --> 00:08:25,940 - Yeah? 170 00:08:26,070 --> 00:08:28,072 Can you tell me a little bit about that? 171 00:08:28,203 --> 00:08:30,510 [pencil scratching] 172 00:08:32,424 --> 00:08:39,344 - Um, it's just my head. 173 00:08:39,475 --> 00:08:40,868 It's been all over the place. 174 00:08:40,998 --> 00:08:47,614 And no one I know gets it, so I got these pills. 175 00:08:47,744 --> 00:08:49,877 - You have the pills with you now? 176 00:08:50,007 --> 00:08:51,356 [somber music] 177 00:08:51,487 --> 00:08:52,488 - Mm-hmm. 178 00:08:55,491 --> 00:08:57,145 They're for sleep and depression. 179 00:08:57,275 --> 00:08:59,800 But I figured if I take enough-- 180 00:08:59,930 --> 00:09:02,237 - Well, I'm really hoping you don't do that, Mary. 181 00:09:02,367 --> 00:09:03,717 - There's no other way. 182 00:09:03,847 --> 00:09:05,545 I don't have a choice. 183 00:09:05,675 --> 00:09:06,415 - Wait. 184 00:09:06,546 --> 00:09:07,634 Why do you say that? 185 00:09:07,764 --> 00:09:09,331 - What? 186 00:09:09,461 --> 00:09:11,202 - When you say that don't feel like you have a choice, 187 00:09:11,333 --> 00:09:12,290 what do you mean by that? 188 00:09:15,642 --> 00:09:16,860 - Mary, can you-- 189 00:09:16,991 --> 00:09:19,907 can you tell me where you are right now? 190 00:09:20,037 --> 00:09:20,951 Are you at home? 191 00:09:21,082 --> 00:09:23,171 - No, I'm in Palm Springs. 192 00:09:23,301 --> 00:09:26,740 My husband rented a house here for the holidays. 193 00:09:26,870 --> 00:09:30,918 - But he knows that you've been having a hard time? 194 00:09:31,048 --> 00:09:32,572 - What? 195 00:09:32,702 --> 00:09:35,575 - But he knows that you've been hurting? 196 00:09:40,188 --> 00:09:41,145 Mary? 197 00:09:41,276 --> 00:09:42,582 - I don't trust him. 198 00:09:42,712 --> 00:09:44,322 He's the reason I'm-- 199 00:09:44,453 --> 00:09:46,324 - The the-- the reason that you-- 200 00:09:46,455 --> 00:09:48,109 you feel like hurting yourself? 201 00:09:48,239 --> 00:09:51,025 - Yeah. 202 00:09:51,155 --> 00:09:52,635 [ominous music] 203 00:09:52,766 --> 00:09:55,638 He drove us out here because I was having problems. 204 00:09:55,769 --> 00:09:58,772 There was a medication change I went through recently. 205 00:09:58,902 --> 00:10:04,778 And I told him I was in therapy and he got really mad. 206 00:10:04,908 --> 00:10:06,693 - How come? 207 00:10:06,823 --> 00:10:08,390 - I don't think I can talk much longer. 208 00:10:08,520 --> 00:10:09,521 - Why not? 209 00:10:12,176 --> 00:10:13,830 Mary, is it because you're worried 210 00:10:13,961 --> 00:10:15,832 about your husband finding out? 211 00:10:15,963 --> 00:10:16,920 - Yeah. 212 00:10:20,576 --> 00:10:24,362 - Has your husband ever hurt you? 213 00:10:24,493 --> 00:10:26,626 - No. 214 00:10:26,756 --> 00:10:28,149 But I'm afraid of him. 215 00:10:28,279 --> 00:10:29,193 It's hard to explain. 216 00:10:34,764 --> 00:10:35,635 - No, no. 217 00:10:35,765 --> 00:10:38,159 I think I understand. 218 00:10:38,289 --> 00:10:41,510 But I got to say, things, they sound really tense over there 219 00:10:41,641 --> 00:10:42,946 tonight. 220 00:10:43,077 --> 00:10:45,906 So I'd like to come up with a safe word, 221 00:10:46,036 --> 00:10:48,996 or-- or phrase in case your husband comes home 222 00:10:49,126 --> 00:10:50,214 and we're still talking. 223 00:10:50,345 --> 00:10:51,825 - What do you mean? What is-- 224 00:10:51,955 --> 00:10:53,261 - It's just a way for you to let me 225 00:10:53,391 --> 00:10:56,699 know that you're feeling unsafe so it 226 00:10:56,830 --> 00:10:58,353 doesn't trigger your husband. 227 00:10:58,483 --> 00:11:00,442 Can we do that? 228 00:11:00,572 --> 00:11:01,486 - OK, fine. 229 00:11:01,617 --> 00:11:02,444 Yeah. 230 00:11:02,574 --> 00:11:03,924 - OK, great. 231 00:11:04,054 --> 00:11:05,839 So the best thing to do is to pick 232 00:11:05,969 --> 00:11:08,580 a word or a phrase that's really easy to bring up 233 00:11:08,711 --> 00:11:10,234 in a conversation. 234 00:11:10,365 --> 00:11:12,715 [horn honks in distance] 235 00:11:14,238 --> 00:11:16,458 - Like, "he's so wonderful," or something? 236 00:11:16,588 --> 00:11:17,372 - Yeah. 237 00:11:17,502 --> 00:11:18,808 Yeah, that's great. 238 00:11:18,939 --> 00:11:20,505 "He's so wonderful" works. That's great. 239 00:11:20,636 --> 00:11:21,855 And you'll remember that, right? 240 00:11:21,985 --> 00:11:22,986 Just in case? 241 00:11:23,117 --> 00:11:24,640 - Yeah. 242 00:11:24,771 --> 00:11:25,641 - OK. 243 00:11:25,772 --> 00:11:27,251 - I don't know. 244 00:11:27,382 --> 00:11:29,863 It feels really risky. 245 00:11:29,993 --> 00:11:31,125 - Mary-- Mary, listen. 246 00:11:31,255 --> 00:11:33,083 I just want to do whatever we can to-- 247 00:11:33,214 --> 00:11:34,215 - I should hang up. - No. 248 00:11:34,345 --> 00:11:35,477 No, no, no. Mary. 249 00:11:35,607 --> 00:11:36,478 Mary. Wait. 250 00:11:36,608 --> 00:11:38,262 Wait. Are you still there? 251 00:11:38,393 --> 00:11:43,659 If we can get you someplace safe tonight away from your husband, 252 00:11:43,790 --> 00:11:48,795 OK, just until your therapist is available, 253 00:11:48,925 --> 00:11:52,799 do you think that you could hold off on maybe taking those pills? 254 00:11:52,929 --> 00:11:54,496 [tense music] 255 00:11:55,497 --> 00:11:56,367 - I-- I don't know. 256 00:11:56,498 --> 00:11:57,978 Maybe. 257 00:11:58,108 --> 00:11:59,283 - Maybe? 258 00:11:59,414 --> 00:12:01,982 Well, can you give me your address? 259 00:12:02,112 --> 00:12:07,074 And I'd just feel better if we got you out of that situation, 260 00:12:07,204 --> 00:12:10,338 away from him. 261 00:12:10,468 --> 00:12:12,383 578 Flamingo Drive. 262 00:12:12,514 --> 00:12:14,037 - 578 Flamingo Drive. 263 00:12:14,168 --> 00:12:17,562 And you said you're in Palm Springs, right? 264 00:12:17,693 --> 00:12:20,304 - Honestly, I think it'd be easier to just end it. 265 00:12:20,435 --> 00:12:21,610 - Mary. Mary. 266 00:12:21,741 --> 00:12:23,307 - It just keeps happening. [wailing] 267 00:12:23,438 --> 00:12:24,352 - I know. 268 00:12:24,482 --> 00:12:25,745 Listen, I understand, Mary. 269 00:12:25,875 --> 00:12:27,007 I understand. 270 00:12:27,137 --> 00:12:29,096 Listen. 271 00:12:29,226 --> 00:12:30,227 But that would be-- 272 00:12:33,317 --> 00:12:35,842 that would be a really big mistake and one that you cannot 273 00:12:35,972 --> 00:12:36,799 take back. 274 00:12:36,930 --> 00:12:38,583 Do you understand that? 275 00:12:38,714 --> 00:12:40,324 [tense music] 276 00:12:40,455 --> 00:12:41,238 Mary? 277 00:12:41,369 --> 00:12:42,849 [phone beeps] 278 00:12:42,979 --> 00:12:43,850 Shit. 279 00:12:59,430 --> 00:13:01,868 [unsettling music] 280 00:13:05,393 --> 00:13:07,787 [horn wailing] 281 00:13:16,708 --> 00:13:18,232 [radio chatter] 282 00:13:19,320 --> 00:13:20,625 - --games are on the schedule. 283 00:13:20,756 --> 00:13:23,106 The Cavaliers came up with a surprise. 284 00:13:23,237 --> 00:13:25,152 [gentle music] 285 00:13:25,282 --> 00:13:27,632 [phone rings] 286 00:13:32,072 --> 00:13:34,378 - Lifeline. 287 00:13:34,509 --> 00:13:36,424 How can I help you today? 288 00:13:36,554 --> 00:13:38,382 [uneasy music] 289 00:13:38,513 --> 00:13:40,863 [pencil scratching] 290 00:13:42,386 --> 00:13:43,779 [phone rings] 291 00:13:43,910 --> 00:13:45,650 - Lifeline. 292 00:13:45,781 --> 00:13:48,175 [phone rings] 293 00:13:49,698 --> 00:13:53,136 - And give that hot bath a try, OK? 294 00:13:53,267 --> 00:13:55,617 Thank you. 295 00:13:55,747 --> 00:13:56,661 Yeah, you too. 296 00:14:06,933 --> 00:14:09,326 [phone rings] 297 00:14:14,810 --> 00:14:17,160 Lifeline. 298 00:14:17,291 --> 00:14:18,335 [sneezes] 299 00:14:18,466 --> 00:14:19,336 - Sorry. 300 00:14:19,467 --> 00:14:20,381 I'm sick. 301 00:14:20,511 --> 00:14:21,948 - OK. 302 00:14:22,078 --> 00:14:24,733 Well, that's OK, but this line is specifically 303 00:14:24,864 --> 00:14:27,997 for mental health purposes, so. 304 00:14:28,128 --> 00:14:30,043 - So, what? 305 00:14:30,173 --> 00:14:32,872 - Well, if you, uh-- 306 00:14:33,002 --> 00:14:35,048 if you have a cold, then you should 307 00:14:35,178 --> 00:14:40,009 talk to a doctor or someone more qualified than me. 308 00:14:40,140 --> 00:14:41,315 No. 309 00:14:41,445 --> 00:14:44,448 I mean, I also want to kill myself. 310 00:14:44,579 --> 00:14:45,928 - OK. 311 00:14:46,059 --> 00:14:48,452 That is something that we should talk about. 312 00:14:48,583 --> 00:14:50,367 [coughing] 313 00:14:50,498 --> 00:14:52,282 - Can you-- can you hold on a second? 314 00:14:52,413 --> 00:14:53,457 - Sure. 315 00:14:53,588 --> 00:14:55,677 [muffled laughter] 316 00:14:57,418 --> 00:15:00,725 Listen, if this is a prank call, I'm going to hang up, OK? 317 00:15:00,856 --> 00:15:03,250 [laughter] 318 00:15:08,124 --> 00:15:10,474 - Julia, what are you two doing? 319 00:15:10,605 --> 00:15:12,694 [line clicks] 320 00:15:16,872 --> 00:15:18,700 [phone rings] 321 00:15:18,830 --> 00:15:20,920 - Lifeline. 322 00:15:21,050 --> 00:15:22,704 You all right? 323 00:15:22,834 --> 00:15:25,228 [a/c whirrs] 324 00:15:33,236 --> 00:15:35,673 [water splashes] 325 00:15:46,815 --> 00:15:47,729 - You all right? 326 00:15:47,859 --> 00:15:49,035 - Oh, yeah. 327 00:15:49,165 --> 00:15:50,645 It's just a little coffee burn, thanks. 328 00:15:50,775 --> 00:15:51,907 How's your night going? 329 00:15:52,038 --> 00:15:53,039 - Pretty good. 330 00:15:53,169 --> 00:15:54,692 Feels like it's been nonstop. 331 00:15:54,823 --> 00:15:55,867 - Yeah. 332 00:15:55,998 --> 00:15:57,217 I'm going to make a little coffee. 333 00:15:57,347 --> 00:15:58,609 You want some? [phone ringing] 334 00:15:58,740 --> 00:15:59,915 - Lifeline. 335 00:16:00,046 --> 00:16:02,483 [coffee percolating] 336 00:16:06,443 --> 00:16:08,968 [phone rings] 337 00:16:19,935 --> 00:16:21,806 - Lifeline. 338 00:16:21,937 --> 00:16:23,286 - Hi. 339 00:16:23,417 --> 00:16:25,767 Uh, my wife, Mary, called a little while ago. 340 00:16:25,897 --> 00:16:26,811 My name is Jason. 341 00:16:26,942 --> 00:16:29,118 - OK. 342 00:16:29,249 --> 00:16:32,078 Yeah, hi. 343 00:16:32,208 --> 00:16:35,168 She, you know-- well, I'll let her explain. 344 00:16:35,298 --> 00:16:36,212 She's right here. 345 00:16:36,343 --> 00:16:37,257 - Hello? 346 00:16:39,302 --> 00:16:40,173 - Hi, Mary. 347 00:16:40,303 --> 00:16:41,609 It's Steven. 348 00:16:41,739 --> 00:16:44,133 [tense music] 349 00:16:44,264 --> 00:16:45,961 - Um, yeah. 350 00:16:46,092 --> 00:16:51,140 I just wanted to call and-- and say, I was sorry about before. 351 00:16:51,271 --> 00:16:55,275 My meds, they just make me think crazy thoughts. 352 00:16:55,405 --> 00:16:57,842 And 353 00:16:57,973 --> 00:17:02,021 - Mary, is your husband there with you right now? 354 00:17:02,151 --> 00:17:03,326 - Uh-huh. 355 00:17:03,457 --> 00:17:04,458 Yeah. 356 00:17:08,766 --> 00:17:10,594 He's so wonderful. 357 00:17:10,725 --> 00:17:12,988 [clock ticking] 358 00:17:13,119 --> 00:17:14,468 - Well, thanks for letting me know 359 00:17:14,598 --> 00:17:17,340 you're OK, and have a good rest of your night. 360 00:17:17,471 --> 00:17:18,341 - Yeah. 361 00:17:18,472 --> 00:17:19,473 Happy new year. 362 00:17:19,603 --> 00:17:20,604 - You too. 363 00:17:25,783 --> 00:17:27,698 [dial pad beeping] 364 00:17:28,786 --> 00:17:31,050 [line trilling] 365 00:17:31,180 --> 00:17:32,703 - Palm Springs Police department. 366 00:17:32,834 --> 00:17:34,444 What's your emergency? 367 00:17:34,575 --> 00:17:36,490 - Hi, my name is Steven Thomas and I'm a hotline responder 368 00:17:36,620 --> 00:17:38,361 at the Lifeline Call Center. 369 00:17:38,492 --> 00:17:42,539 There's a lady in your area at 578 Flamingo Drive 370 00:17:42,670 --> 00:17:45,760 and I believe that there's a possible domestic violence 371 00:17:45,890 --> 00:17:48,415 situation with her husband. 372 00:17:48,545 --> 00:17:49,851 - All right. 373 00:17:49,981 --> 00:17:51,896 Let me put you through to an officer on patrol. 374 00:17:52,027 --> 00:17:53,550 Hang on. 375 00:17:53,681 --> 00:17:55,552 [tense music] 376 00:17:55,683 --> 00:17:58,599 [phone ringing] 377 00:18:03,647 --> 00:18:05,910 - This is Officer Fredericks with the Palm Springs PD. 378 00:18:06,041 --> 00:18:07,956 You're reporting a domestic violence case? 379 00:18:08,087 --> 00:18:09,000 - Yes. 380 00:18:09,131 --> 00:18:13,179 She's at 578 Flamingo Drive. 381 00:18:13,309 --> 00:18:15,006 That's the address dispatch sent us. 382 00:18:15,137 --> 00:18:16,486 Is there a number I can reach you at? 383 00:18:16,617 --> 00:18:17,487 - Sure. 384 00:18:17,618 --> 00:18:23,189 My cell is 717-555-6455. 385 00:18:23,319 --> 00:18:24,712 - Great. 386 00:18:24,842 --> 00:18:26,627 I'll give you a call back once we get eyes on her. 387 00:18:26,757 --> 00:18:27,758 What was the name again? 388 00:18:27,889 --> 00:18:28,759 - Mary. 389 00:18:28,890 --> 00:18:30,892 I didn't get a last name. 390 00:18:31,022 --> 00:18:31,936 - OK. 391 00:18:32,067 --> 00:18:33,590 Well, we're on our way now. 392 00:18:33,721 --> 00:18:34,591 - Great. 393 00:18:34,722 --> 00:18:35,679 I appreciate it. 394 00:18:38,682 --> 00:18:41,163 [eerie music] 395 00:18:47,691 --> 00:18:50,085 [deep rumbling] 396 00:18:50,216 --> 00:18:52,653 [glasses clinking] 397 00:19:00,095 --> 00:19:02,619 [lights buzzing] 398 00:19:17,112 --> 00:19:18,983 [water draining] 399 00:19:19,114 --> 00:19:21,595 [phone rings] 400 00:19:33,172 --> 00:19:34,303 Lifeline. 401 00:19:34,434 --> 00:19:36,653 [light breathing] 402 00:19:38,525 --> 00:19:39,917 - I'm going to kill myself. 403 00:19:40,048 --> 00:19:40,962 - OK. 404 00:19:43,312 --> 00:19:45,140 Can you tell me a little bit about why? 405 00:19:50,624 --> 00:19:53,192 - It wouldn't make sense. 406 00:19:53,322 --> 00:19:56,195 - Well, I'd like to try and understand. 407 00:19:56,325 --> 00:19:58,240 I'm in no rush. 408 00:19:58,371 --> 00:20:00,590 [ominous music] 409 00:20:02,505 --> 00:20:05,813 Can you tell me a little bit about yourself? 410 00:20:05,943 --> 00:20:07,249 - Like what? 411 00:20:07,380 --> 00:20:09,382 - You-- you have a job? 412 00:20:09,512 --> 00:20:12,776 You-- are you a student? 413 00:20:12,907 --> 00:20:14,517 - I go to UCLA. 414 00:20:14,648 --> 00:20:15,692 - Oh, yeah? 415 00:20:15,823 --> 00:20:17,259 I went there. 416 00:20:17,390 --> 00:20:18,739 I mean, a while ago, but. 417 00:20:18,869 --> 00:20:23,178 Um, what's your name? 418 00:20:23,309 --> 00:20:24,614 - Steven. 419 00:20:24,745 --> 00:20:25,833 - Steven. 420 00:20:25,963 --> 00:20:28,575 That's my name, too. 421 00:20:28,705 --> 00:20:31,230 Where are you right now, Steven? 422 00:20:31,360 --> 00:20:32,753 - In a motel. 423 00:20:32,883 --> 00:20:34,581 [pencil scratches] 424 00:20:34,711 --> 00:20:35,625 I bought a gun. 425 00:20:39,194 --> 00:20:41,109 - I got to be honest with you, Steven. 426 00:20:41,240 --> 00:20:48,725 Um, guns make me really nervous in this kind of situation. 427 00:20:48,856 --> 00:20:51,467 Did you tell anyone else where you are? 428 00:20:51,598 --> 00:20:55,515 - I-- I tried to tell my girlfriend, 429 00:20:55,645 --> 00:21:02,913 but-- or ex-girlfriend, but we just got into a fight, so. 430 00:21:03,044 --> 00:21:05,873 - I'm sorry to hear that. 431 00:21:06,003 --> 00:21:07,744 What's your girlfriend's name? 432 00:21:07,875 --> 00:21:10,269 [tense music] 433 00:21:11,705 --> 00:21:15,274 - It's Vivian, but everybody calls her Viv. 434 00:21:15,404 --> 00:21:16,884 - And you said your name is Steven? 435 00:21:17,014 --> 00:21:17,928 - Yeah. 436 00:21:18,059 --> 00:21:19,278 - What's your last name? 437 00:21:19,408 --> 00:21:20,366 - Thomas. 438 00:21:22,542 --> 00:21:24,152 - Thomas. 439 00:21:24,283 --> 00:21:28,287 So you wouldn't happen to have gone to Woodrow Wilson High 440 00:21:28,417 --> 00:21:30,854 School, did you? 441 00:21:30,985 --> 00:21:31,812 - Yeah. 442 00:21:31,942 --> 00:21:33,683 How did you know that? 443 00:21:33,814 --> 00:21:35,511 [laughter] 444 00:21:35,642 --> 00:21:37,296 - I'm going to put you on hold for just a second, all right? 445 00:21:40,995 --> 00:21:43,389 [line trilling] 446 00:21:48,089 --> 00:21:49,003 - Hello? 447 00:21:49,133 --> 00:21:50,091 - Hey, it's me. 448 00:21:50,221 --> 00:21:51,527 - Dad? 449 00:21:51,658 --> 00:21:54,225 - Yeah, nice work with that prank call there. 450 00:21:54,356 --> 00:21:55,488 - What? 451 00:21:55,618 --> 00:21:56,532 - That was good. 452 00:21:56,663 --> 00:21:58,534 You get your Mom in on that, too? 453 00:21:58,665 --> 00:22:01,320 - Dad, I seriously have no idea what you're talking about. 454 00:22:01,450 --> 00:22:02,799 [ominous music] 455 00:22:02,930 --> 00:22:04,671 - This is the guy that called in claiming to be me, 456 00:22:04,801 --> 00:22:06,107 you knew nothing about that? 457 00:22:06,237 --> 00:22:07,413 - No. 458 00:22:07,543 --> 00:22:09,110 [laughter] 459 00:22:09,240 --> 00:22:11,939 And, Dad, it's really loud here right now, so-- 460 00:22:12,069 --> 00:22:13,767 - OK. All right. 461 00:22:13,897 --> 00:22:15,159 Well, we'll talk about this later. 462 00:22:15,290 --> 00:22:16,944 - OK, bye. 463 00:22:17,074 --> 00:22:19,468 [droning music] 464 00:22:23,516 --> 00:22:24,386 - Hey. 465 00:22:24,517 --> 00:22:25,996 So-- so listen, buddy. 466 00:22:26,127 --> 00:22:29,086 - You seriously just put me on hold? 467 00:22:29,217 --> 00:22:30,740 I came here to blow my brains out 468 00:22:30,871 --> 00:22:32,002 and you're too fucking busy-- - OK. 469 00:22:32,133 --> 00:22:32,829 - --to stay on the phone with me? 470 00:22:32,960 --> 00:22:33,874 - Hey, listen. Listen. 471 00:22:34,004 --> 00:22:35,005 Listen. I'm sorry. 472 00:22:36,006 --> 00:22:36,703 I'm sorry that-- you're right. 473 00:22:36,833 --> 00:22:38,705 That was wrong of me. 474 00:22:38,835 --> 00:22:40,184 I apologize. 475 00:22:40,315 --> 00:22:41,795 [sniffles] 476 00:22:41,925 --> 00:22:43,449 - Whatever. 477 00:22:43,579 --> 00:22:45,146 It doesn't matter. 478 00:22:45,276 --> 00:22:46,713 It's happening no matter what, so. 479 00:22:50,673 --> 00:22:52,283 - When you say it's happening, you mean-- 480 00:22:52,414 --> 00:22:55,548 - I mean, I'm going to kill myself. 481 00:22:55,678 --> 00:22:56,592 I've already decided. 482 00:22:59,639 --> 00:23:02,032 - But you haven't done it yet and that's a great thing. 483 00:23:02,163 --> 00:23:03,164 - I told myself midnight. 484 00:23:06,123 --> 00:23:08,691 - Is there a reason that you gave yourself a time? 485 00:23:08,822 --> 00:23:10,345 - I don't know. 486 00:23:10,476 --> 00:23:12,565 It helps when I have a goal, I guess. 487 00:23:12,695 --> 00:23:13,696 [somber music] 488 00:23:13,827 --> 00:23:17,308 - Well, you seem pretty determined. 489 00:23:17,439 --> 00:23:20,137 Did you get the gun for this purpose? 490 00:23:20,268 --> 00:23:22,226 - Yeah. 491 00:23:22,357 --> 00:23:25,926 - It's either I use it on myself or on-- 492 00:23:26,056 --> 00:23:27,144 - On who? 493 00:23:27,275 --> 00:23:29,059 [droning music] 494 00:23:30,060 --> 00:23:32,236 - Doesn't matter. 495 00:23:32,367 --> 00:23:35,239 I'm too much of a coward to do that. 496 00:23:35,370 --> 00:23:37,851 He always knew that about me. 497 00:23:37,981 --> 00:23:41,724 I only called because I don't want to be alone when I do it. 498 00:23:41,855 --> 00:23:43,465 It said this hotline was anonymous, 499 00:23:43,596 --> 00:23:46,033 so I figured if I told anyone else, they'd call the cops. 500 00:23:46,163 --> 00:23:47,904 - Well, that's not going to happen with me. 501 00:23:48,035 --> 00:23:51,430 But I got to be honest with you, this, uh-- 502 00:23:51,560 --> 00:23:52,953 this worries me, Steven. 503 00:23:53,083 --> 00:23:54,563 - But you're not going to call them though, right? 504 00:23:54,694 --> 00:23:55,999 'Cause if I hear one fucking siren-- 505 00:23:56,130 --> 00:23:57,174 - No, no. 506 00:23:57,305 --> 00:23:58,437 I'm not going to call the cops. 507 00:23:58,567 --> 00:24:00,090 I just want to keep talking to you, OK? 508 00:24:00,221 --> 00:24:01,396 That's it. 509 00:24:01,527 --> 00:24:04,355 Can we do that? 510 00:24:04,486 --> 00:24:06,009 - Yeah. 511 00:24:06,140 --> 00:24:08,534 - OK. 512 00:24:08,664 --> 00:24:10,623 - As long as you know, it won't matter. 513 00:24:10,753 --> 00:24:11,885 [clock ticking] 514 00:24:12,015 --> 00:24:15,279 We can't change what's happening. 515 00:24:15,410 --> 00:24:19,893 - What specifically do you feel like you can't change? 516 00:24:20,023 --> 00:24:22,025 - I-- I just mean, generally. 517 00:24:22,156 --> 00:24:27,291 I-- I feel like we all believe we're in control when we aren't. 518 00:24:27,422 --> 00:24:28,858 - So you feel powerless? 519 00:24:28,989 --> 00:24:30,643 - I don't feel, I am. 520 00:24:30,773 --> 00:24:31,905 I am fucking powerless. 521 00:24:32,035 --> 00:24:34,951 That's why I know nothing matters. 522 00:24:35,082 --> 00:24:38,085 I know people say that all the time, but it's true. 523 00:24:38,215 --> 00:24:40,435 It's, like, the only thing that's true. 524 00:24:40,566 --> 00:24:42,306 [clock ticking] 525 00:24:42,437 --> 00:24:43,612 - That nothing matters? 526 00:24:43,743 --> 00:24:45,962 - We're all just talking to ourselves, 527 00:24:46,093 --> 00:24:49,226 telling ourselves the same things over and over, 528 00:24:49,357 --> 00:24:51,925 putting meaning into every little-- 529 00:24:52,055 --> 00:24:53,840 we're pretending to be people we aren't, all 530 00:24:53,970 --> 00:24:57,496 of us, acting like everything's perfect and normal. 531 00:24:57,626 --> 00:25:00,020 [ominous music] 532 00:25:00,150 --> 00:25:01,151 - And what I did. 533 00:25:04,372 --> 00:25:05,373 - What did you do? 534 00:25:09,856 --> 00:25:15,122 - I mean, what I let that happen. 535 00:25:15,252 --> 00:25:16,166 - Good boy. 536 00:25:20,954 --> 00:25:22,129 - What did you let happen? 537 00:25:22,259 --> 00:25:23,260 - Forget it. 538 00:25:26,916 --> 00:25:28,614 - Steven. 539 00:25:28,744 --> 00:25:32,531 - Once I do this, I'll be free. 540 00:25:32,661 --> 00:25:34,968 I mean, it's all insane. 541 00:25:35,098 --> 00:25:38,972 And if the whole world is insane, then-- 542 00:25:39,102 --> 00:25:42,410 then why is it insane to want to end my life? 543 00:25:42,541 --> 00:25:45,892 - I think it would be tragic, but insane? 544 00:25:48,459 --> 00:25:49,460 I don't know. 545 00:25:52,551 --> 00:25:53,900 You see, there's a part of me that 546 00:25:54,030 --> 00:25:55,945 can understand the feeling that the whole world is 547 00:25:56,076 --> 00:25:59,035 rigged against us. 548 00:25:59,166 --> 00:26:01,037 And no matter how hard we try, life just 549 00:26:01,168 --> 00:26:05,738 keeps putting obstacles in our way, sometimes worse. 550 00:26:05,868 --> 00:26:09,089 Sometimes things feel like they're 551 00:26:09,219 --> 00:26:12,658 so bad that that it is too much for one person to take on. 552 00:26:15,617 --> 00:26:17,576 Alone, at least. 553 00:26:17,706 --> 00:26:20,143 [eerie atmospheric music] 554 00:26:20,274 --> 00:26:25,801 But that's why you called in and I think that's great. 555 00:26:31,111 --> 00:26:32,112 Steven? 556 00:26:35,245 --> 00:26:36,420 You still with me? 557 00:26:40,381 --> 00:26:42,731 [machine beeps] 558 00:26:50,565 --> 00:26:52,785 [chatter] 559 00:27:01,228 --> 00:27:03,186 [phone beeps] 560 00:27:03,317 --> 00:27:05,711 [line trilling] 561 00:27:09,236 --> 00:27:10,672 - Hi, this is Vivian. 562 00:27:10,803 --> 00:27:11,978 Please leave a message. 563 00:27:12,108 --> 00:27:13,022 [beep] 564 00:27:13,153 --> 00:27:14,458 - Hey, it's me. 565 00:27:14,589 --> 00:27:19,028 Just had a call that threw me for a loop. 566 00:27:19,159 --> 00:27:20,943 Give me a call when you get it. 567 00:27:21,074 --> 00:27:22,641 I love you. 568 00:27:22,771 --> 00:27:25,034 [lights buzzing] 569 00:27:27,820 --> 00:27:28,734 - OK. 570 00:27:28,864 --> 00:27:30,083 I'm so sorry. 571 00:27:30,213 --> 00:27:31,475 I know you're about to head out, but I 572 00:27:31,606 --> 00:27:33,216 need to run down to the restroom downstairs. 573 00:27:33,347 --> 00:27:35,392 Can you cover for me for just a sec? 574 00:27:35,523 --> 00:27:36,611 - Yeah, sure. 575 00:27:36,742 --> 00:27:37,656 - Thank you. 576 00:27:37,786 --> 00:27:39,135 - Uh-huh. 577 00:27:39,266 --> 00:27:40,615 [gentle music] 578 00:27:40,746 --> 00:27:42,922 [ringtone plays] 579 00:27:43,052 --> 00:27:44,663 - Hello? - Hi. 580 00:27:44,793 --> 00:27:45,794 It's Officer Fredericks. 581 00:27:45,925 --> 00:27:46,969 - Oh, yeah. 582 00:27:47,100 --> 00:27:47,970 - This is my cell. 583 00:27:48,101 --> 00:27:49,755 I just wanted to follow up. 584 00:27:49,885 --> 00:27:53,106 We arrested the victim's husband you called in about, a Jason. 585 00:27:53,236 --> 00:27:54,324 - Oh, OK. 586 00:27:54,455 --> 00:27:56,370 And-- and how's Mary? 587 00:27:56,500 --> 00:27:58,198 - She was worked up for sure. 588 00:27:58,328 --> 00:28:00,287 And we had an ambulance take her to the hospital 589 00:28:00,417 --> 00:28:01,897 since her head was injured pretty bad. 590 00:28:02,028 --> 00:28:03,769 - Oh my goodness. 591 00:28:03,899 --> 00:28:05,901 - But hey. 592 00:28:06,032 --> 00:28:07,903 It's great you called. 593 00:28:08,034 --> 00:28:09,426 Who knows how bad things could have 594 00:28:09,557 --> 00:28:11,254 gotten if we hadn't showed up? 595 00:28:11,385 --> 00:28:12,952 - Well, thank you. 596 00:28:13,082 --> 00:28:14,736 - I'll give you a call this week since we'll 597 00:28:14,867 --> 00:28:16,651 need a full statement. 598 00:28:16,782 --> 00:28:17,957 - For sure. 599 00:28:18,087 --> 00:28:19,349 - This is the best number to reach you at? 600 00:28:19,480 --> 00:28:20,655 - Yes, it is. 601 00:28:20,786 --> 00:28:22,004 - OK. 602 00:28:22,135 --> 00:28:23,266 You have a good rest of your night, sir. 603 00:28:23,397 --> 00:28:24,572 - You too. 604 00:28:24,703 --> 00:28:26,095 Happy new year. 605 00:28:26,226 --> 00:28:28,576 [elevator whirrs] 606 00:28:28,707 --> 00:28:31,057 [doors grind shut] 607 00:28:33,624 --> 00:28:35,496 [horn honks] 608 00:28:36,758 --> 00:28:38,194 [police radio chatter] - Hey, there. 609 00:28:38,325 --> 00:28:39,500 I'm just going to use your restroom really quick, 610 00:28:39,630 --> 00:28:40,544 all right? 611 00:28:40,675 --> 00:28:42,503 - Key's on the desk right there. 612 00:28:42,633 --> 00:28:44,418 - Thank you. 613 00:28:44,548 --> 00:28:46,942 [water splashing] 614 00:28:47,073 --> 00:28:49,423 [muzak playing] 615 00:28:57,213 --> 00:28:59,694 [high-pitched ringing] 616 00:29:04,003 --> 00:29:04,873 - You never listen. 617 00:29:05,004 --> 00:29:06,919 You never listen. 618 00:29:07,049 --> 00:29:09,356 [crying] 619 00:29:09,486 --> 00:29:11,532 Listen now, huh? 620 00:29:11,662 --> 00:29:13,403 [piano plays] 621 00:29:13,534 --> 00:29:15,362 [glasses shatter] 622 00:29:15,492 --> 00:29:17,930 - You're going listen to me. 623 00:29:18,060 --> 00:29:20,410 [woman crying] 624 00:29:25,154 --> 00:29:26,025 - Yeah. 625 00:29:26,155 --> 00:29:27,374 All right. 626 00:29:27,504 --> 00:29:29,898 [door clicks open] 627 00:29:32,379 --> 00:29:33,467 - What was that? 628 00:29:33,597 --> 00:29:34,903 - Damn gunshot victim. 629 00:29:35,034 --> 00:29:37,166 - Those doctors, there's a hospital nearby? 630 00:29:37,297 --> 00:29:39,125 - Yeah, next door in the west tower. 631 00:29:39,255 --> 00:29:42,389 I'll tell you, a bunch of strange happenings going on 632 00:29:42,519 --> 00:29:43,390 in this plot. 633 00:29:43,520 --> 00:29:45,827 Man. 634 00:29:45,958 --> 00:29:46,828 You on eight, right? 635 00:29:46,959 --> 00:29:48,438 - Yeah. 636 00:29:48,569 --> 00:29:49,962 - Yeah, you'll probably see me around here later. 637 00:29:50,092 --> 00:29:52,051 - Graveyard shift for us, huh? 638 00:29:52,181 --> 00:29:54,401 - Man, it gets lonely around here on New Year's Eve. 639 00:29:54,531 --> 00:29:56,359 I tell you. 640 00:29:56,490 --> 00:29:57,621 - But-- 641 00:29:57,752 --> 00:29:58,622 [lights buzzing] 642 00:29:58,753 --> 00:30:00,668 - I don't believe this. 643 00:30:00,799 --> 00:30:02,496 Is this happening upstairs, too? 644 00:30:02,626 --> 00:30:04,367 - Yeah, there's something similar. 645 00:30:04,498 --> 00:30:06,979 It must've been from that earthquake earlier. 646 00:30:07,109 --> 00:30:08,067 - We had one? 647 00:30:08,197 --> 00:30:09,633 - Yeah, you didn't feel it? 648 00:30:09,764 --> 00:30:11,810 - I must have missed it. 649 00:30:11,940 --> 00:30:12,985 - Hey. Thanks again. 650 00:30:13,115 --> 00:30:14,290 - Oh. No problem. 651 00:30:14,421 --> 00:30:15,378 Happy New Year. 652 00:30:15,509 --> 00:30:16,597 - You too. 653 00:30:16,727 --> 00:30:18,642 [ringtone plays] 654 00:30:18,773 --> 00:30:19,774 - Andrew. 655 00:30:19,905 --> 00:30:21,123 [horn honks] 656 00:30:21,254 --> 00:30:22,255 - Hey, man. 657 00:30:22,385 --> 00:30:23,604 Sorry, I just got your message. 658 00:30:23,734 --> 00:30:24,561 - Yeah, no worries. 659 00:30:24,692 --> 00:30:25,780 - Yeah. 660 00:30:25,911 --> 00:30:26,825 It's crazy. 661 00:30:26,955 --> 00:30:28,304 It's almost midnight here. 662 00:30:28,435 --> 00:30:31,133 The boys somehow have more energy than me. 663 00:30:31,264 --> 00:30:33,527 - Yeah, they look really big in the photos you sent. 664 00:30:33,657 --> 00:30:35,181 - Yeah. Tell me about it. 665 00:30:35,311 --> 00:30:37,009 - Hey, I-- 666 00:30:37,139 --> 00:30:39,620 I was meaning to call you earlier this week, you know? 667 00:30:39,750 --> 00:30:41,187 It's-- it's just-- it's been a little. 668 00:30:41,317 --> 00:30:42,231 - No, no, no. 669 00:30:42,362 --> 00:30:43,232 I get it. 670 00:30:43,363 --> 00:30:44,494 I get it. 671 00:30:44,625 --> 00:30:47,062 It's weird. 672 00:30:47,193 --> 00:30:51,850 I've been thinking about Mom and Dad recently and-- 673 00:30:51,980 --> 00:30:53,112 and I don't know. 674 00:30:53,242 --> 00:30:55,897 It's-- It's like memories of them. 675 00:30:56,028 --> 00:30:57,551 They're fading, you know? 676 00:30:57,681 --> 00:30:59,988 Like, I can only remember them in bits and pieces now. 677 00:31:02,817 --> 00:31:04,645 Sorry, I-- I don't know what I'm trying to say. 678 00:31:04,775 --> 00:31:05,689 - No, I-- I get it. 679 00:31:05,820 --> 00:31:07,691 It's the same for me. 680 00:31:07,822 --> 00:31:10,520 It feels like it's easier to block things 681 00:31:10,651 --> 00:31:12,522 out most of the time. 682 00:31:12,653 --> 00:31:15,308 You know I've been thinking about it, too. 683 00:31:15,438 --> 00:31:20,052 I mean, how can we not on a night like tonight, you know? 684 00:31:20,182 --> 00:31:23,751 Do you remember that time when dad took Mom on that trip 685 00:31:23,882 --> 00:31:25,579 and left us alone for the weekend 686 00:31:25,709 --> 00:31:27,842 and didn't tell us where they were going or anything? 687 00:31:27,973 --> 00:31:29,583 They just left. 688 00:31:29,713 --> 00:31:31,890 - Yeah. 689 00:31:32,020 --> 00:31:33,892 Yeah, I remember that. 690 00:31:34,022 --> 00:31:36,329 [somber music] 691 00:31:39,854 --> 00:31:42,204 [engine rumbles] 692 00:31:45,207 --> 00:31:49,951 - You said something to me I've never forgotten. 693 00:31:50,082 --> 00:31:51,039 - What if he kills her? 694 00:31:54,303 --> 00:31:56,479 - I know they came back a few days later. 695 00:31:56,610 --> 00:31:59,091 She was OK, but-- 696 00:31:59,221 --> 00:32:03,617 and then with me going so far away for college. 697 00:32:03,747 --> 00:32:10,711 We've never talked about it, but I could have done more. 698 00:32:10,841 --> 00:32:13,888 I know that. 699 00:32:14,019 --> 00:32:15,107 Hey, Steve. 700 00:32:15,237 --> 00:32:16,282 Hang on one sec. 701 00:32:16,412 --> 00:32:18,545 Honey! 702 00:32:18,675 --> 00:32:19,763 Boys. 703 00:32:19,894 --> 00:32:21,156 [stammers] 704 00:32:21,287 --> 00:32:23,593 I'm sorry, we're closing in on midnight here. 705 00:32:23,724 --> 00:32:25,465 - Yeah, no. 706 00:32:25,595 --> 00:32:26,901 I gotta run, too. 707 00:32:27,032 --> 00:32:28,424 I'm at work, so. 708 00:32:28,555 --> 00:32:32,254 - Hey, but let's find a time to talk more, you know, 709 00:32:32,385 --> 00:32:35,475 when I'm not being used as a jungle gym. 710 00:32:35,605 --> 00:32:36,955 - Yeah, for sure. 711 00:32:37,085 --> 00:32:39,218 [energetic music] 712 00:33:23,262 --> 00:33:24,611 - Hello? - Steven? 713 00:33:24,741 --> 00:33:26,134 Hi. 714 00:33:26,265 --> 00:33:28,876 It's Matt Chauvins, a colleague of your wife's. 715 00:33:29,007 --> 00:33:29,920 - Yeah. 716 00:33:30,051 --> 00:33:31,444 Hi, how are you? 717 00:33:31,574 --> 00:33:32,488 - I'm good. 718 00:33:32,619 --> 00:33:33,750 I'm good, I'm good. 719 00:33:33,881 --> 00:33:34,795 Yourself? 720 00:33:34,925 --> 00:33:35,752 - I'm great. 721 00:33:35,883 --> 00:33:37,232 Um, funny. 722 00:33:37,363 --> 00:33:40,366 I'm actually looking at your Wikipedia page. 723 00:33:40,496 --> 00:33:41,802 [laughter] 724 00:33:41,932 --> 00:33:43,325 - No kidding? 725 00:33:43,456 --> 00:33:48,113 - Yeah, I-- I heard that Vivian sent my draft to you. 726 00:33:48,243 --> 00:33:49,549 So sorry. 727 00:33:49,679 --> 00:33:51,072 I just didn't expect to hear from you so soon. 728 00:33:51,203 --> 00:33:54,423 - Well, good writers seek out other good writers 729 00:33:54,554 --> 00:33:55,468 whenever they can. 730 00:33:55,598 --> 00:33:56,686 - Hey, you're the professional. 731 00:33:56,817 --> 00:33:58,036 I'm just a wannabe. 732 00:33:58,166 --> 00:34:00,560 - Oh, please don't sell yourself short. 733 00:34:00,690 --> 00:34:01,865 - Well, I-- I'll-- 734 00:34:01,996 --> 00:34:03,606 I'll admit, by the end of college, 735 00:34:03,737 --> 00:34:07,349 I was dead set on either being a psychologist or a sci-fi writer, 736 00:34:07,480 --> 00:34:08,698 so you know. 737 00:34:08,829 --> 00:34:10,352 - Oh yeah? 738 00:34:10,483 --> 00:34:11,440 - Yeah, yeah. 739 00:34:11,571 --> 00:34:12,876 It's going to be one or the other-- 740 00:34:13,007 --> 00:34:15,401 [building rumbles] 741 00:34:15,531 --> 00:34:17,403 [lights clicking] 742 00:34:17,533 --> 00:34:19,927 [glass breaking] 743 00:34:23,409 --> 00:34:24,366 - Hello? 744 00:34:27,500 --> 00:34:28,675 - Hi, sorry. 745 00:34:28,805 --> 00:34:30,198 Did you-- did you feel that earthquake? 746 00:34:30,329 --> 00:34:31,678 - No, no. 747 00:34:31,808 --> 00:34:33,941 It must have not hit us here in the Valley. 748 00:34:34,072 --> 00:34:35,029 Are you all right? 749 00:34:35,160 --> 00:34:38,119 - Uh, yeah. 750 00:34:38,250 --> 00:34:41,209 Yeah, all good. 751 00:34:41,340 --> 00:34:43,429 - Good. 752 00:34:43,559 --> 00:34:45,822 So I know it's New Year's Eve. 753 00:34:45,953 --> 00:34:47,607 I hope I'm not interrupting 754 00:34:47,737 --> 00:34:50,436 - No, not at the moment. 755 00:34:50,566 --> 00:34:54,222 - Well, I had to call because honestly, I'm 756 00:34:54,353 --> 00:34:56,659 reading this memoir and I'm on the edge of my seat. 757 00:34:56,790 --> 00:34:57,573 I couldn't put it down. 758 00:34:57,704 --> 00:34:58,705 - Really? 759 00:35:00,620 --> 00:35:02,535 - That-- that means a lot. 760 00:35:02,665 --> 00:35:03,579 - Yeah no. 761 00:35:03,710 --> 00:35:06,104 It's gripping stuff. 762 00:35:06,234 --> 00:35:10,020 I really can't wait to read the rest. 763 00:35:10,151 --> 00:35:13,763 - Well, I figured it was more or less finished, page count-wise. 764 00:35:13,894 --> 00:35:15,287 - Huh. 765 00:35:15,417 --> 00:35:17,115 So I'm just going to give you my personal opinion. 766 00:35:17,245 --> 00:35:18,855 You can take it, you can leave it, but-- 767 00:35:18,986 --> 00:35:20,074 - No, no. 768 00:35:20,205 --> 00:35:22,903 Please, I-- I'd love the feedback. 769 00:35:23,033 --> 00:35:26,733 - Well, it feels like you stopped short right 770 00:35:26,863 --> 00:35:29,431 as things with your father start heating up. 771 00:35:29,562 --> 00:35:31,825 [ominous music] 772 00:35:32,956 --> 00:35:33,957 - Can I trust you? 773 00:35:37,222 --> 00:35:39,876 - But the way you set everything up until this point, 774 00:35:40,007 --> 00:35:42,749 the father-son dynamic, yeah. 775 00:35:42,879 --> 00:35:47,362 I just figured there was more to explore with that relationship. 776 00:35:47,493 --> 00:35:50,060 - With my father? 777 00:35:50,191 --> 00:35:51,845 OK. 778 00:35:51,975 --> 00:35:54,500 Because I don't think I really got into our relationship 779 00:35:54,630 --> 00:35:57,155 until around chapter eight or so. 780 00:35:57,285 --> 00:35:58,634 - Huh. 781 00:35:58,765 --> 00:36:00,941 Vivian must have sent me an earlier manuscript. 782 00:36:01,071 --> 00:36:02,769 This copy ends at chapter five. 783 00:36:02,899 --> 00:36:03,900 - Oh. 784 00:36:06,599 --> 00:36:09,428 I actually have the latest draft emailed to myself 785 00:36:09,558 --> 00:36:12,822 and I can forward that to you right now. 786 00:36:12,953 --> 00:36:14,259 - Yeah, that'd be great. 787 00:36:20,308 --> 00:36:22,441 The writing is terrific. 788 00:36:22,571 --> 00:36:24,094 And your teenage years? I mean-- 789 00:36:24,225 --> 00:36:25,052 [exhales] 790 00:36:25,183 --> 00:36:27,010 It's harrowing, honestly. 791 00:36:27,141 --> 00:36:31,493 Yeah I just end up sticking to sci-fi and political thrillers. 792 00:36:31,624 --> 00:36:34,801 Maybe I'm too afraid of getting personal. 793 00:36:34,931 --> 00:36:37,195 [phone beeps] 794 00:36:37,325 --> 00:36:38,239 - Man, I'm sorry. 795 00:36:38,370 --> 00:36:39,719 I've got to call you right back. 796 00:36:39,849 --> 00:36:41,590 - Oh, OK. 797 00:36:41,721 --> 00:36:43,636 Let's-- let's talk later. 798 00:36:43,766 --> 00:36:45,028 - Hey, Viv. 799 00:36:45,159 --> 00:36:46,465 - Hey, sorry. 800 00:36:46,595 --> 00:36:48,206 I just got your message. - It's all right. 801 00:36:48,336 --> 00:36:49,294 It's no problem. 802 00:36:49,424 --> 00:36:51,818 - Have you talked to Jeff? 803 00:36:51,948 --> 00:36:53,907 - Yeah, I talked to him about an hour ago. 804 00:36:54,037 --> 00:36:56,301 He was still at the party. 805 00:36:56,431 --> 00:36:57,432 Why? 806 00:36:57,563 --> 00:36:59,347 - He hasn't responded to my text. 807 00:36:59,478 --> 00:37:00,783 - Really? 808 00:37:00,914 --> 00:37:02,220 - I mean, I know he's just down the street, 809 00:37:02,350 --> 00:37:03,873 but I've been trying to check in. 810 00:37:04,004 --> 00:37:05,092 Oh. Hang on. 811 00:37:05,223 --> 00:37:07,399 He just texted. 812 00:37:07,529 --> 00:37:10,750 He's saying he'll be home by 12:30 at the latest. 813 00:37:10,880 --> 00:37:12,447 - You're great. 814 00:37:12,578 --> 00:37:14,101 And how was your party? 815 00:37:14,232 --> 00:37:16,059 - Ugh, I left early. 816 00:37:16,190 --> 00:37:17,887 I'm actually on the road now. 817 00:37:18,018 --> 00:37:19,759 - That much fun, huh? 818 00:37:19,889 --> 00:37:20,934 - No, it was fine. 819 00:37:21,064 --> 00:37:22,675 It was good to see Julia. 820 00:37:22,805 --> 00:37:24,764 She spent at least an hour telling embarrassing stories 821 00:37:24,894 --> 00:37:26,287 from when we were young. 822 00:37:26,418 --> 00:37:27,810 How is everything on your end? 823 00:37:27,941 --> 00:37:29,290 Your voicemail sounded-- 824 00:37:29,421 --> 00:37:30,857 - No. 825 00:37:30,987 --> 00:37:34,252 I-- I think I just wanted to hear your voice, you know? 826 00:37:34,382 --> 00:37:36,558 Conversation's tonight got me thinking. 827 00:37:36,689 --> 00:37:37,864 - Yeah? 828 00:37:37,994 --> 00:37:38,908 - Yeah. 829 00:37:39,039 --> 00:37:40,997 - About what? 830 00:37:41,128 --> 00:37:43,086 - Us, the past. 831 00:37:43,217 --> 00:37:46,351 - Oh, not the past. 832 00:37:46,481 --> 00:37:49,092 - Yeah, that little old thing. 833 00:37:49,223 --> 00:37:50,964 [gentle music] 834 00:37:51,094 --> 00:37:55,882 I just think there's things I've forgotten, you know? 835 00:37:59,538 --> 00:38:02,628 Senior year of college and maybe before. 836 00:38:05,195 --> 00:38:07,937 Tell me what you remember about us. 837 00:38:08,068 --> 00:38:09,504 - About us? 838 00:38:09,635 --> 00:38:11,854 Wow. 839 00:38:11,985 --> 00:38:14,509 - Yeah. 840 00:38:14,640 --> 00:38:16,598 Yeah, from the beginning. 841 00:38:16,729 --> 00:38:20,080 - Well, I hope you haven't forgotten that much. 842 00:38:20,210 --> 00:38:23,475 - No, I'm just in a reflective moment. 843 00:38:23,605 --> 00:38:27,130 And I am writing a memoir, supposedly, anyway. 844 00:38:27,261 --> 00:38:28,262 - Yeah. 845 00:38:28,393 --> 00:38:30,569 That's true. 846 00:38:30,699 --> 00:38:32,222 So? 847 00:38:32,353 --> 00:38:35,835 - Well, we first met in psych class, 848 00:38:35,965 --> 00:38:42,972 but I don't think we started dating until physics I think. 849 00:38:43,103 --> 00:38:44,626 We ended up getting partnered together 850 00:38:44,757 --> 00:38:47,150 for a final, that paper we wrote. 851 00:38:47,281 --> 00:38:50,676 God, why do I always forget the name? 852 00:38:50,806 --> 00:38:52,112 - The many worlds one? 853 00:38:52,242 --> 00:38:53,374 - Yeah. 854 00:38:53,505 --> 00:38:55,202 Yeah, that one. 855 00:38:55,333 --> 00:38:57,900 - Which, by the way, I found that stashed at home earlier 856 00:38:58,031 --> 00:38:59,424 today. 857 00:38:59,554 --> 00:39:00,816 You kept that? 858 00:39:00,947 --> 00:39:01,730 - Yeah. 859 00:39:01,861 --> 00:39:03,166 Yeah. 860 00:39:03,297 --> 00:39:04,472 Probably just sentimental value, I guess. 861 00:39:04,603 --> 00:39:05,734 - Yeah. 862 00:39:05,865 --> 00:39:07,301 I hadn't thought about that till today. 863 00:39:07,432 --> 00:39:08,911 - Yeah. 864 00:39:09,042 --> 00:39:10,739 I don't know why I hold onto it. 865 00:39:10,870 --> 00:39:16,310 I just felt like we got through some tough times that year, so. 866 00:39:16,441 --> 00:39:20,009 But yeah, that-- that paper, it was 867 00:39:20,140 --> 00:39:21,968 way above our heads when we were trying 868 00:39:22,098 --> 00:39:24,318 to prove that parallel universes existed, 869 00:39:24,449 --> 00:39:26,320 or-- or something like that. 870 00:39:26,451 --> 00:39:29,236 I remember you had doubts. 871 00:39:29,367 --> 00:39:31,456 - Yeah, that sounds like me. 872 00:39:31,586 --> 00:39:33,893 [laughter] 873 00:39:34,023 --> 00:39:36,591 - You got all philosophical that first night working 874 00:39:36,722 --> 00:39:41,161 on the take-home, debating whether life was deterministic. 875 00:39:41,291 --> 00:39:45,687 You had this relentless belief in free will. 876 00:39:45,818 --> 00:39:50,475 And that, among other things, is why I fell in love with you. 877 00:39:53,695 --> 00:39:55,131 - What do you mean by we-- 878 00:39:55,262 --> 00:39:57,046 we got through tough times that year? 879 00:40:00,136 --> 00:40:02,225 - Well, you know. 880 00:40:02,356 --> 00:40:06,839 I mean, I don't even want to think about it now, but-- 881 00:40:06,969 --> 00:40:09,276 - No, what? 882 00:40:09,407 --> 00:40:10,756 - No. 883 00:40:10,886 --> 00:40:12,932 It just-- it's hard to think about how close things 884 00:40:13,062 --> 00:40:15,151 came to ending. 885 00:40:15,282 --> 00:40:17,327 - What do you mean, "ending?" 886 00:40:17,458 --> 00:40:18,981 - Just us. 887 00:40:19,112 --> 00:40:21,636 Everything that day in the car. 888 00:40:29,601 --> 00:40:34,127 It was a few weeks after you first told me about the scars 889 00:40:34,257 --> 00:40:38,348 on your back, where they really came from. 890 00:40:42,570 --> 00:40:44,093 - Go get our room. 891 00:40:44,224 --> 00:40:46,444 [tense music] 892 00:40:51,231 --> 00:40:53,799 - You were so afraid to talk about it back then. 893 00:40:53,929 --> 00:40:56,410 [tempo increasing] 894 00:41:18,171 --> 00:41:19,085 [smacks] 895 00:41:19,215 --> 00:41:20,086 [grunts] 896 00:41:20,216 --> 00:41:21,043 - No crying. 897 00:41:21,174 --> 00:41:22,044 [smacks] 898 00:41:22,175 --> 00:41:23,306 [grunts] 899 00:41:23,437 --> 00:41:24,612 Quiet, Steven. 900 00:41:24,743 --> 00:41:27,223 [unsettling music] 901 00:41:34,666 --> 00:41:37,146 [line trilling] 902 00:41:41,629 --> 00:41:43,109 [tone plays] 903 00:41:43,239 --> 00:41:45,894 - The number you dialed is not in service. 904 00:41:46,025 --> 00:41:47,940 [unsettling music] 905 00:41:48,070 --> 00:41:50,420 [line trilling] 906 00:41:50,551 --> 00:41:52,335 - Hello? 907 00:41:52,466 --> 00:41:54,512 - Jeff? 908 00:41:54,642 --> 00:41:55,730 - Sorry, man. 909 00:41:55,861 --> 00:41:57,384 You got the wrong number. - Come on. 910 00:41:57,515 --> 00:41:58,690 I know this is Jeff's number. 911 00:41:58,820 --> 00:41:59,647 I'm his father. 912 00:42:02,432 --> 00:42:03,738 [line trilling] 913 00:42:03,869 --> 00:42:04,696 - Hey. 914 00:42:04,826 --> 00:42:05,653 You've reached Tyler. 915 00:42:05,784 --> 00:42:07,002 Leave a message. 916 00:42:07,133 --> 00:42:09,570 [phone beeps] 917 00:42:24,672 --> 00:42:27,066 [keys clacking] 918 00:42:40,558 --> 00:42:43,038 [unsettling music] 919 00:42:51,090 --> 00:42:52,395 - Just go. 920 00:42:52,526 --> 00:42:54,920 [muffled rainfall] 921 00:42:56,922 --> 00:42:59,315 [door clicks open] 922 00:43:00,316 --> 00:43:01,274 [door slams shut] 923 00:43:01,404 --> 00:43:03,668 [phone ringing] 924 00:43:08,455 --> 00:43:09,456 - Lifeline. 925 00:43:13,721 --> 00:43:15,941 - It's me again. 926 00:43:16,071 --> 00:43:17,377 - Steven? 927 00:43:17,507 --> 00:43:18,465 - Yeah. 928 00:43:22,208 --> 00:43:24,253 - I'm glad you called back. 929 00:43:24,384 --> 00:43:26,081 You're still in the motel? 930 00:43:26,212 --> 00:43:27,126 - Yeah. 931 00:43:30,085 --> 00:43:31,565 Do you believe in the afterlife? 932 00:43:31,696 --> 00:43:33,611 [gentle music] 933 00:43:34,742 --> 00:43:38,616 - Well, um, I'm not religious. 934 00:43:38,746 --> 00:43:42,663 So in that sense, no. 935 00:43:42,794 --> 00:43:47,625 - You know, as a kid, the idea of the afterlife scared me. 936 00:43:47,755 --> 00:43:49,148 Even reincarnation. 937 00:43:52,238 --> 00:43:55,241 - Why do you think? 938 00:43:55,371 --> 00:43:56,895 - It's like that Greek myth of Sisyphus. 939 00:43:57,025 --> 00:43:58,461 You know that one? 940 00:43:58,592 --> 00:44:00,159 - Yeah, I do. 941 00:44:00,289 --> 00:44:01,856 The guy that pushes the rock up the hill over and over. 942 00:44:04,554 --> 00:44:06,165 - Sometimes I think that's all life 943 00:44:06,295 --> 00:44:10,604 is, these endless cycles of pain that we all just accept. 944 00:44:10,735 --> 00:44:14,347 I wanted to know that when we die, that it's just over. 945 00:44:14,477 --> 00:44:16,828 Just blackness No more consciousness, no-- 946 00:44:16,958 --> 00:44:19,526 no more pain. 947 00:44:19,657 --> 00:44:21,354 - And that's something you find comforting? 948 00:44:24,836 --> 00:44:26,446 - Finality, yeah. 949 00:44:29,188 --> 00:44:33,758 I hate the idea that there could be two possible outcomes. 950 00:44:33,888 --> 00:44:38,806 Death just feels like it should be so definitive. 951 00:44:38,937 --> 00:44:41,896 Like, it's the one thing you can't cheat. 952 00:44:42,027 --> 00:44:44,899 - Well, I told you, I don't think it's a-- an insane thought 953 00:44:45,030 --> 00:44:47,510 to contemplate death, or even think about taking your own 954 00:44:47,641 --> 00:44:49,034 life. But-- 955 00:44:49,164 --> 00:44:51,514 [somber music] 956 00:44:51,645 --> 00:44:55,605 I think with what you have going on, Steven, that this is-- 957 00:44:55,736 --> 00:44:56,868 - Stop. 958 00:44:56,998 --> 00:44:58,086 - Stop what? 959 00:44:58,217 --> 00:44:59,522 - Just get it-- 960 00:44:59,653 --> 00:45:01,220 get it through your fucking head that you're not 961 00:45:01,350 --> 00:45:02,656 going to talk me down. 962 00:45:02,787 --> 00:45:05,224 I'm not-- I'm not calling you to be fucking saved. 963 00:45:05,354 --> 00:45:07,356 You should treat this like it's already happened. 964 00:45:09,968 --> 00:45:11,360 - What's already happened? 965 00:45:11,491 --> 00:45:13,449 - Yeah, because there's no stopping it. 966 00:45:13,580 --> 00:45:16,670 I'm killing myself at midnight, like I said. 967 00:45:16,801 --> 00:45:19,107 [shrill music] 968 00:45:21,109 --> 00:45:24,765 But I agree, obviously, that it's not 969 00:45:24,896 --> 00:45:26,462 insane to think about it. 970 00:45:26,593 --> 00:45:30,553 It's insane if you don't think about killing yourself. 971 00:45:30,684 --> 00:45:34,296 Honestly, I think everyone, every person on-- 972 00:45:34,427 --> 00:45:39,084 on Earth is just doing therapy with themselves constantly. 973 00:45:39,214 --> 00:45:42,261 I mean, one part of our brain telling another part 974 00:45:42,391 --> 00:45:47,962 not to kill ourselves, that there's some reason to keep-- 975 00:45:48,093 --> 00:45:51,923 - That's an interesting way of looking at life. 976 00:45:52,053 --> 00:45:54,012 Maybe a little cynical, but I think it makes sense. 977 00:45:54,142 --> 00:45:55,361 - I don't know. 978 00:45:55,491 --> 00:45:57,798 It's so weird that I'm even doing this. 979 00:45:57,929 --> 00:46:00,279 - What, calling in tonight? 980 00:46:00,409 --> 00:46:01,410 - Yeah. 981 00:46:04,065 --> 00:46:06,415 I've always hated to talk about myself to other people, 982 00:46:06,546 --> 00:46:09,070 especially when I'm in a bad place. 983 00:46:09,201 --> 00:46:10,898 - Well, I'm happy that you did, because I'm 984 00:46:11,029 --> 00:46:14,423 a big believer in talking things out. 985 00:46:14,554 --> 00:46:16,512 I think it helps. 986 00:46:16,643 --> 00:46:19,211 You know, when I was younger, I think it was a lot like you, 987 00:46:19,341 --> 00:46:20,603 and I didn't talk about anything. 988 00:46:24,042 --> 00:46:25,957 Even my first girlfriend in college, 989 00:46:26,087 --> 00:46:30,309 I never told her anything personal, was never vulnerable. 990 00:46:30,439 --> 00:46:31,571 [muffled rain pattering] 991 00:46:31,701 --> 00:46:34,661 - If you can't talk to me, then-- 992 00:46:34,792 --> 00:46:37,185 then I can't do this anymore. 993 00:46:37,316 --> 00:46:39,884 - Then go. 994 00:46:40,014 --> 00:46:40,928 - Steven. 995 00:46:41,059 --> 00:46:41,973 - Just go. 996 00:46:44,323 --> 00:46:45,977 - You know, I've taken a few psych classes, 997 00:46:46,107 --> 00:46:48,153 so you don't have to bullshit me. 998 00:46:48,283 --> 00:46:49,763 - I'm not. 999 00:46:49,894 --> 00:46:51,591 - Yeah, you're just trying to bond with me. 1000 00:46:51,721 --> 00:46:53,245 I know how it works. 1001 00:46:53,375 --> 00:46:54,942 - Well, I'm sorry it came across that way, 1002 00:46:55,073 --> 00:47:00,034 but I do believe I can relate to what you're saying. 1003 00:47:00,165 --> 00:47:01,644 - How do you do it? 1004 00:47:01,775 --> 00:47:02,776 - Do what? 1005 00:47:05,474 --> 00:47:07,955 - I don't know, stay optimistic while taking calls 1006 00:47:08,086 --> 00:47:11,045 from people like me. 1007 00:47:11,176 --> 00:47:12,307 I mean, when you go home, what? 1008 00:47:12,438 --> 00:47:15,833 You just shut it off and forget about it? 1009 00:47:15,963 --> 00:47:17,443 - I wish it were that easy. 1010 00:47:17,573 --> 00:47:18,487 - So, what? 1011 00:47:18,618 --> 00:47:20,707 You get high or something? 1012 00:47:20,838 --> 00:47:21,839 - No. 1013 00:47:21,969 --> 00:47:24,319 [somber music] 1014 00:47:25,799 --> 00:47:27,496 Well, I have-- 1015 00:47:27,627 --> 00:47:30,151 I have been known to finish off a bottle of wine 1016 00:47:30,282 --> 00:47:33,111 when I get home from time to time. 1017 00:47:33,241 --> 00:47:41,423 But, um, I'm lucky to have people in my life I can rely on. 1018 00:47:41,554 --> 00:47:43,121 - Yeah. 1019 00:47:43,251 --> 00:47:44,383 That's the thing about luck. 1020 00:47:44,513 --> 00:47:46,907 No one wants to talk about it. 1021 00:47:47,038 --> 00:47:51,216 - You really feel like you don't have anyone you can rely on? 1022 00:47:56,438 --> 00:47:57,875 - Not after what he's done to me. 1023 00:48:04,011 --> 00:48:06,622 - Your father? 1024 00:48:06,753 --> 00:48:09,147 [sighs] 1025 00:48:11,062 --> 00:48:11,932 - What? 1026 00:48:12,063 --> 00:48:13,586 You never, ever listen. 1027 00:48:13,716 --> 00:48:15,196 - Sorry. I'll listen. 1028 00:48:15,327 --> 00:48:16,850 No! [bangs] 1029 00:48:16,981 --> 00:48:17,895 [sobbing] 1030 00:48:18,025 --> 00:48:19,374 - You going to listen now? 1031 00:48:19,505 --> 00:48:20,375 - Please. 1032 00:48:20,506 --> 00:48:21,420 - Huh? 1033 00:48:21,550 --> 00:48:22,508 - Please. 1034 00:48:22,638 --> 00:48:23,901 I want to see Thomas, please. 1035 00:48:24,031 --> 00:48:26,381 [somber music] 1036 00:48:29,819 --> 00:48:31,560 - Your girlfriend. 1037 00:48:31,691 --> 00:48:33,519 Tell me more about her. 1038 00:48:33,649 --> 00:48:35,695 [eerie music] 1039 00:48:35,825 --> 00:48:37,262 Vivian's her name, you said, right? 1040 00:48:39,351 --> 00:48:40,308 - Yeah. 1041 00:48:43,659 --> 00:48:46,445 And we've been dating since we were sophomores, so 1042 00:48:46,575 --> 00:48:49,230 a couple of years. 1043 00:48:49,361 --> 00:48:53,147 I-- I always thought she was out of my league. 1044 00:48:53,278 --> 00:48:54,801 I was surprised when she asked me out. 1045 00:48:58,065 --> 00:49:02,113 - I know you said that you guys had a fight. 1046 00:49:02,243 --> 00:49:06,552 But she seems like someone you've confided in before, 1047 00:49:06,682 --> 00:49:08,162 or trusted. 1048 00:49:08,293 --> 00:49:12,471 - I-- I-- I told you, I-- 1049 00:49:12,601 --> 00:49:14,821 I can't trust anyone. 1050 00:49:14,952 --> 00:49:16,779 [door creaks open] 1051 00:49:17,824 --> 00:49:20,218 Not after what he's done to me. 1052 00:49:20,348 --> 00:49:22,655 [ominous music] 1053 00:49:22,785 --> 00:49:25,136 [clock ticking] 1054 00:49:40,368 --> 00:49:42,980 Are you a father? 1055 00:49:43,110 --> 00:49:43,981 - I am, yeah. 1056 00:49:49,334 --> 00:49:50,813 - You seem like you'd be a good one. 1057 00:49:55,296 --> 00:49:56,254 I feel like that's rare. 1058 00:50:00,475 --> 00:50:02,173 - Can we talk about your dad for a minute? 1059 00:50:06,829 --> 00:50:12,183 'Cause he seems like a pretty hard guy to have for a parent. 1060 00:50:12,313 --> 00:50:14,011 - You could say that. 1061 00:50:14,141 --> 00:50:16,361 [uneasy music] 1062 00:50:16,491 --> 00:50:18,667 [gravel crunching] 1063 00:50:18,798 --> 00:50:20,843 - Did he abuse you? 1064 00:50:20,974 --> 00:50:22,236 [keys jangle] 1065 00:50:22,367 --> 00:50:24,499 - Yeah. 1066 00:50:24,630 --> 00:50:26,936 [door slams] 1067 00:50:28,155 --> 00:50:29,852 But he always disguised his love. 1068 00:50:33,682 --> 00:50:35,597 He's always with me. 1069 00:50:35,728 --> 00:50:44,128 His voice, I hear it even now. 1070 00:50:44,258 --> 00:50:46,913 I feel him hovering over me all the time. 1071 00:50:47,044 --> 00:50:52,223 Like, one day, he's telling me how proud he is of me, and-- 1072 00:50:52,353 --> 00:50:54,877 [crying gently] 1073 00:50:55,008 --> 00:50:57,141 - And then what? 1074 00:50:57,271 --> 00:50:59,534 [ominous music] 1075 00:51:02,842 --> 00:51:03,712 - Fuck it. 1076 00:51:03,843 --> 00:51:04,713 It doesn't matter. 1077 00:51:04,844 --> 00:51:05,758 - No, it does. 1078 00:51:05,888 --> 00:51:06,802 It does matter. 1079 00:51:06,933 --> 00:51:09,370 What were you going to say? 1080 00:51:09,501 --> 00:51:10,371 - Nothing. 1081 00:51:10,502 --> 00:51:11,459 - Steven. 1082 00:51:15,420 --> 00:51:18,684 Steven, can we push back this deadline that you've set? 1083 00:51:18,814 --> 00:51:19,772 Can we do that? 1084 00:51:22,470 --> 00:51:24,516 - No. 1085 00:51:24,646 --> 00:51:26,039 I can't. 1086 00:51:26,170 --> 00:51:27,954 I can't just let him eat away at me little by little. 1087 00:51:28,085 --> 00:51:29,956 - Then let's talk about that a little bit more. 1088 00:51:30,087 --> 00:51:31,131 - No! 1089 00:51:31,262 --> 00:51:33,394 I-- I can't fucking think straight. 1090 00:51:33,525 --> 00:51:35,092 I just-- I just want you to fucking talk 1091 00:51:35,222 --> 00:51:36,223 about something else, man. - All right, then. 1092 00:51:36,354 --> 00:51:37,529 All-- all right. I'm sorry. 1093 00:51:37,659 --> 00:51:38,878 Then let's talk about something else. 1094 00:51:39,008 --> 00:51:42,969 We can talk about whatever you want, OK? 1095 00:51:43,100 --> 00:51:45,928 But there's one thing that I need to know, Steven. 1096 00:51:46,059 --> 00:51:48,279 [tense music] 1097 00:51:50,194 --> 00:51:52,544 Do you have the gun in your hand right now? 1098 00:51:52,674 --> 00:51:55,112 [eerie horn] 1099 00:52:05,687 --> 00:52:08,125 [line trilling] 1100 00:52:16,481 --> 00:52:17,612 - This is Officer Fredericks. 1101 00:52:17,743 --> 00:52:19,571 - Hey, Steven. 1102 00:52:19,701 --> 00:52:22,878 I know that you're all alone in a motel 1103 00:52:23,009 --> 00:52:26,360 and you're sounding really depressed. 1104 00:52:26,491 --> 00:52:28,057 And you told me that you have a gun. 1105 00:52:33,846 --> 00:52:35,848 I know that you're in the Red Palm Motel. 1106 00:52:35,978 --> 00:52:37,328 - I didn't tell you that. 1107 00:52:37,458 --> 00:52:38,720 - Yes, you did. 1108 00:52:38,851 --> 00:52:39,678 - How did you-- 1109 00:52:39,808 --> 00:52:40,809 - You told me that. 1110 00:52:40,940 --> 00:52:42,115 You told me where you-- 1111 00:52:42,246 --> 00:52:43,508 I just forgot the room. - No, I didn't-- 1112 00:52:43,638 --> 00:52:44,857 - I just forgot the room. Just tell me the room. 1113 00:52:44,987 --> 00:52:46,293 - I didn't tell you-- 1114 00:52:46,424 --> 00:52:47,773 I didn't tell you my room number either. 1115 00:52:47,903 --> 00:52:49,557 - Steven, I don't want you to die. 1116 00:52:49,688 --> 00:52:51,298 Can you just tell me where you are? 1117 00:52:51,429 --> 00:52:55,824 Please, just so I know. 1118 00:52:55,955 --> 00:52:58,131 [tense music] 1119 00:52:58,262 --> 00:52:59,741 - It's room 15, all right? 1120 00:53:03,267 --> 00:53:05,747 [door creaks] 1121 00:53:07,836 --> 00:53:09,011 [door clicks shut] 1122 00:53:09,142 --> 00:53:10,056 But I told you, if you call the cops-- 1123 00:53:10,187 --> 00:53:11,753 - I know. I know. 1124 00:53:11,884 --> 00:53:13,625 If you hear any sirens, you're going to kill yourself. 1125 00:53:13,755 --> 00:53:15,148 And I don't want that, Steven. 1126 00:53:18,238 --> 00:53:21,894 But I was thinking, what if I came? 1127 00:53:24,505 --> 00:53:26,159 Not the cops, just me. 1128 00:53:26,290 --> 00:53:28,030 It'll take me a little bit to drive out there, 1129 00:53:28,161 --> 00:53:29,336 but I can be there. - No. 1130 00:53:29,467 --> 00:53:30,424 No. No. 1131 00:53:30,555 --> 00:53:31,991 There's no time. Just stop, OK? 1132 00:53:32,121 --> 00:53:33,645 Just stop. - OK. 1133 00:53:33,775 --> 00:53:35,516 Then-- then-- then just it's important for me 1134 00:53:35,647 --> 00:53:37,214 to know where you are, OK? 1135 00:53:37,344 --> 00:53:38,650 And I'm just confirming. 1136 00:53:38,780 --> 00:53:41,392 You said the Red Palm Motel, room 15, correct? 1137 00:53:41,522 --> 00:53:43,524 - Why-- why do you keep asking me what I said 1138 00:53:43,655 --> 00:53:44,482 - I'm sorry. 1139 00:53:44,612 --> 00:53:45,570 You're right. 1140 00:53:45,700 --> 00:53:47,224 I won't ask again, OK? 1141 00:53:47,354 --> 00:53:49,835 [shrill music] 1142 00:53:51,402 --> 00:53:53,795 [clock ticking rapidly] 1143 00:54:05,633 --> 00:54:06,591 - Tell me a story. 1144 00:54:11,160 --> 00:54:12,161 - A story? 1145 00:54:14,947 --> 00:54:16,340 - One from when you were a kid. 1146 00:54:19,386 --> 00:54:23,216 That's the only good memory I have of my dad. 1147 00:54:23,347 --> 00:54:27,046 He'd read to me when I was little. 1148 00:54:27,176 --> 00:54:28,917 He really enjoyed that for some reason. 1149 00:54:33,618 --> 00:54:34,532 - Steven. 1150 00:54:37,709 --> 00:54:38,927 Hey, Steven. 1151 00:54:39,058 --> 00:54:40,102 - I have to do it. 1152 00:54:40,233 --> 00:54:41,582 I'm sorry. - No, no. 1153 00:54:41,713 --> 00:54:42,888 Hold on. Hold on. 1154 00:54:43,018 --> 00:54:44,716 I know it's really hard right now, 1155 00:54:44,846 --> 00:54:47,849 but I need you to stick with me for just a little longer, OK? 1156 00:54:47,980 --> 00:54:49,895 Because I really think that I fully understand what 1157 00:54:50,025 --> 00:54:51,636 you're going through. - You couldn't. 1158 00:54:51,766 --> 00:54:52,854 - No, I do. 1159 00:54:52,985 --> 00:54:53,899 - No. 1160 00:54:54,029 --> 00:54:56,249 - No, I do. 1161 00:54:59,383 --> 00:55:02,037 Your father. 1162 00:55:02,168 --> 00:55:05,040 I know. 1163 00:55:05,171 --> 00:55:07,826 I know everything. 1164 00:55:07,956 --> 00:55:10,785 Your mother, I know her, too. 1165 00:55:10,916 --> 00:55:12,178 - What? 1166 00:55:12,309 --> 00:55:14,572 [clock ticking] 1167 00:55:14,702 --> 00:55:17,052 [unsettling music] 1168 00:55:20,012 --> 00:55:21,230 - I know what happened to her. 1169 00:55:21,361 --> 00:55:23,494 And now you blame yourself. 1170 00:55:23,624 --> 00:55:24,495 - I don't-- 1171 00:55:24,625 --> 00:55:26,497 How do you-- 1172 00:55:26,627 --> 00:55:27,585 - I just know, Steven. 1173 00:55:30,631 --> 00:55:32,067 - No, you can't. 1174 00:55:32,198 --> 00:55:33,112 You can't. 1175 00:55:33,242 --> 00:55:34,069 No one does. 1176 00:55:34,200 --> 00:55:35,636 He-- 1177 00:55:35,767 --> 00:55:38,726 - He covered it up, and he forced you to lie. 1178 00:55:38,857 --> 00:55:41,120 [clock ticking] 1179 00:55:42,687 --> 00:55:45,342 - Going to have to tell the police what happened. 1180 00:55:45,472 --> 00:55:47,126 [somber music] 1181 00:55:48,127 --> 00:55:50,477 Can I trust you? 1182 00:55:50,608 --> 00:55:52,740 - And then when she was gone and your brother went away 1183 00:55:52,871 --> 00:55:55,352 to college, he turned to you. 1184 00:55:58,180 --> 00:56:00,400 He started hurting you. 1185 00:56:00,531 --> 00:56:01,575 He made you powerless. 1186 00:56:01,706 --> 00:56:02,533 But you're not, Steven. 1187 00:56:02,663 --> 00:56:04,056 - Yes, I am. 1188 00:56:04,186 --> 00:56:05,492 I told you, we all are. 1189 00:56:05,623 --> 00:56:07,233 - It's not your fault. You did everything 1190 00:56:07,364 --> 00:56:10,541 you could to protect your mom, especially for being a kid. 1191 00:56:16,547 --> 00:56:27,209 And everything your father did to you, I know the effects 1192 00:56:27,340 --> 00:56:28,297 it had on you. 1193 00:56:32,780 --> 00:56:34,391 We can protect you from him. 1194 00:56:37,829 --> 00:56:41,267 We can fix this without-- 1195 00:56:41,398 --> 00:56:43,225 you don't have to do this, Steven. 1196 00:56:43,356 --> 00:56:44,749 - How do you know all this about me? 1197 00:56:44,879 --> 00:56:45,750 Is it possible-- 1198 00:56:45,880 --> 00:56:47,491 - I know it's strange. 1199 00:56:47,621 --> 00:56:50,624 I know it's strange, but I'm here to tell you there's hope. 1200 00:56:50,755 --> 00:56:52,626 And no matter how bad you're feeling right now, 1201 00:56:52,757 --> 00:56:54,759 those feelings, they're survivable. 1202 00:56:54,889 --> 00:56:57,892 And I know that because I've seen it, Steven. 1203 00:56:58,023 --> 00:56:58,980 I've seen it. 1204 00:57:01,853 --> 00:57:03,985 - I can't-- 1205 00:57:04,116 --> 00:57:05,073 I can't. 1206 00:57:05,204 --> 00:57:06,205 - Yeah, you can. 1207 00:57:06,335 --> 00:57:07,162 - I'm sorry. 1208 00:57:07,293 --> 00:57:08,512 - No. 1209 00:57:08,642 --> 00:57:09,513 Just stay with me. 1210 00:57:09,643 --> 00:57:10,514 It's easy. 1211 00:57:10,644 --> 00:57:11,776 Just stay. 1212 00:57:11,906 --> 00:57:14,256 [somber music] 1213 00:57:15,257 --> 00:57:16,389 Steven, are you here? 1214 00:57:20,524 --> 00:57:21,568 - I have to. 1215 00:57:21,699 --> 00:57:22,569 - No, you don't. 1216 00:57:22,700 --> 00:57:23,875 - I'm sorry. 1217 00:57:24,005 --> 00:57:26,181 - Because you have a future, I promise you. 1218 00:57:26,312 --> 00:57:29,533 I promise you that there's a future with people who love you. 1219 00:57:29,663 --> 00:57:31,186 I promise you, Steven, these people are-- 1220 00:57:31,317 --> 00:57:33,493 [gun shot] 1221 00:57:36,975 --> 00:57:39,325 [rumbling] 1222 00:57:39,456 --> 00:57:41,893 [banging] 1223 00:57:47,855 --> 00:57:50,249 [creaking] 1224 00:58:00,607 --> 00:58:01,521 - Hello? 1225 00:58:05,394 --> 00:58:06,787 - Hi, yeah. 1226 00:58:06,918 --> 00:58:08,267 - Hey. 1227 00:58:08,397 --> 00:58:09,790 Just wanted to stay on the line to confirm. 1228 00:58:09,921 --> 00:58:12,184 You've got a potential suicide victim at The Red Palm 1229 00:58:12,314 --> 00:58:13,620 is what it sounded like. 1230 00:58:13,751 --> 00:58:16,493 Room 15, right? 1231 00:58:16,623 --> 00:58:18,059 - Yes, room 15. But hurry. 1232 00:58:18,190 --> 00:58:19,496 I think it's-- 1233 00:58:19,626 --> 00:58:20,845 - I'm already on my way. 1234 00:58:20,975 --> 00:58:23,804 I'm only a minute out, so I'll call you back. 1235 00:58:23,935 --> 00:58:25,284 - Thank you. 1236 00:58:25,414 --> 00:58:27,808 [phone beeps] 1237 00:58:30,419 --> 00:58:32,813 [tense music] 1238 00:58:56,533 --> 00:58:58,535 What? 1239 00:58:58,665 --> 00:59:01,015 [ringtone playing] 1240 00:59:03,844 --> 00:59:04,802 [phone beeps] 1241 00:59:04,932 --> 00:59:05,977 Hello? 1242 00:59:06,107 --> 00:59:06,978 - Yeah, hi. 1243 00:59:07,108 --> 00:59:09,415 So nothing here at The Red Palm. 1244 00:59:09,546 --> 00:59:11,243 Actually, the hotel manager says no one's 1245 00:59:11,373 --> 00:59:13,071 checked in at all tonight. 1246 00:59:13,201 --> 00:59:14,376 [ominous music] 1247 00:59:14,507 --> 00:59:15,552 - What? 1248 00:59:15,682 --> 00:59:17,249 - But a sort of a weird thing. 1249 00:59:17,379 --> 00:59:21,558 I found a bullet hole in the wall of the bathroom in room 15. 1250 00:59:21,688 --> 00:59:22,559 - You did? 1251 00:59:22,689 --> 00:59:24,212 - Yeah. 1252 00:59:24,343 --> 00:59:25,823 I mean, I can't tell if that's what it is for sure, 1253 00:59:25,953 --> 00:59:31,916 or how recent it is, but it looks old if I had to guess. 1254 00:59:32,046 --> 00:59:36,398 - Um, thank you for your help. 1255 00:59:36,529 --> 00:59:41,708 I-- I guess I don't-- 1256 00:59:41,839 --> 00:59:42,796 thank you. 1257 00:59:49,586 --> 00:59:52,066 [door clicks shut] 1258 00:59:57,028 --> 00:59:59,552 [humming] 1259 01:00:04,078 --> 01:00:06,515 [eerie music] 1260 01:00:12,043 --> 01:00:14,480 [door clicks shut] 1261 01:00:16,961 --> 01:00:19,485 [footsteps descending] 1262 01:00:22,488 --> 01:00:23,489 Hey! 1263 01:00:33,238 --> 01:00:36,110 [door clicks shut] 1264 01:00:38,025 --> 01:00:39,157 Hey! 1265 01:00:39,287 --> 01:00:41,638 [droning music] 1266 01:00:44,118 --> 01:00:45,293 [door creaks] 1267 01:00:45,424 --> 01:00:46,338 Hello? 1268 01:00:52,213 --> 01:00:53,214 Hello? 1269 01:00:57,828 --> 01:01:00,221 [droning intensifies] 1270 01:01:01,266 --> 01:01:03,660 [doorknob clicking] 1271 01:01:06,532 --> 01:01:07,402 [banging] 1272 01:01:07,533 --> 01:01:08,534 Hello? 1273 01:01:10,710 --> 01:01:12,364 - Hey. 1274 01:01:12,494 --> 01:01:14,932 You're not authorized to be on this floor, are you? 1275 01:01:15,062 --> 01:01:16,150 - No. I-- 1276 01:01:16,281 --> 01:01:17,151 - Come on, man. 1277 01:01:17,282 --> 01:01:18,500 I like you. 1278 01:01:18,631 --> 01:01:20,154 I don't want to have to report you. 1279 01:01:20,285 --> 01:01:22,679 [droning subsides] 1280 01:01:32,514 --> 01:01:34,516 - There's something going on in that lab. 1281 01:01:34,647 --> 01:01:36,518 - Looked pretty dead to me. 1282 01:01:36,649 --> 01:01:38,564 [tense music] 1283 01:01:39,565 --> 01:01:41,959 [elevator dings] 1284 01:01:44,570 --> 01:01:45,397 - Eight, right? 1285 01:01:45,527 --> 01:01:46,920 - Yeah. 1286 01:01:47,051 --> 01:01:49,096 You said there's a hospital in the west tower? 1287 01:01:49,227 --> 01:01:50,576 - Mm-hmm. 1288 01:01:50,707 --> 01:01:53,710 - What's the name of it? 1289 01:01:53,840 --> 01:01:56,060 - Not again. 1290 01:01:56,190 --> 01:01:58,671 [elevator dings] 1291 01:02:20,649 --> 01:02:22,608 [distant sirens wailing] 1292 01:02:23,609 --> 01:02:26,090 [phone ringing] 1293 01:02:36,100 --> 01:02:37,710 - Hello? 1294 01:02:37,841 --> 01:02:39,233 - Hey. 1295 01:02:39,364 --> 01:02:40,669 I'm so sorry. 1296 01:02:40,800 --> 01:02:43,237 I just realized my sister and her friend, 1297 01:02:43,368 --> 01:02:45,805 they prank called this number earlier tonight. 1298 01:02:45,936 --> 01:02:47,720 And when I realized it was-- [muffled laughter] 1299 01:02:47,851 --> 01:02:48,982 - Julia, no. 1300 01:02:49,113 --> 01:02:50,418 Come on, you said you'd apologize. 1301 01:02:50,549 --> 01:02:51,724 Julia. - Wait. 1302 01:02:51,855 --> 01:02:53,160 - I-- 1303 01:02:53,291 --> 01:02:54,814 - Wait, your-- wait your sister's named Julia? 1304 01:02:54,945 --> 01:02:56,294 Your younger sister? 1305 01:02:56,424 --> 01:02:58,383 - Yeah, she's-- sorry. 1306 01:02:58,513 --> 01:03:00,254 You know, she's a little young. 1307 01:03:00,385 --> 01:03:01,690 - And you're Vivian? 1308 01:03:01,821 --> 01:03:03,388 [ominous music] 1309 01:03:03,518 --> 01:03:04,955 - Yeah. 1310 01:03:05,085 --> 01:03:07,914 How did you know that? 1311 01:03:08,045 --> 01:03:11,396 - It's January 1, 2009 where you're at, right? 1312 01:03:11,526 --> 01:03:14,791 Just past midnight? 1313 01:03:14,921 --> 01:03:16,314 - Yeah. 1314 01:03:16,444 --> 01:03:19,621 - I need to tell you something about Steven Thomas. 1315 01:03:19,752 --> 01:03:20,666 - You know Steven? 1316 01:03:20,797 --> 01:03:21,928 - Yeah, it's a long story. 1317 01:03:22,059 --> 01:03:24,104 But listen, right now, I need you 1318 01:03:24,235 --> 01:03:30,458 to go to Saint Jude's hospital in Palm Springs, OK? 1319 01:03:30,589 --> 01:03:31,459 Do you have a car? 1320 01:03:31,590 --> 01:03:33,200 - Uh, yeah. 1321 01:03:33,331 --> 01:03:36,595 But what's going on? 1322 01:03:36,725 --> 01:03:40,120 - Steven tried to kill himself tonight. 1323 01:03:40,251 --> 01:03:42,775 And I don't know if he's going to make it. 1324 01:03:42,906 --> 01:03:44,168 - Uh, OK. - OK? 1325 01:03:44,298 --> 01:03:45,125 - OK. 1326 01:03:45,256 --> 01:03:46,474 I'm-- I'm-- I'm-- 1327 01:03:46,605 --> 01:03:48,259 I'm going now. 1328 01:03:48,389 --> 01:03:51,958 Wait, are you the person he said he talked to earlier tonight? 1329 01:03:52,089 --> 01:03:53,699 - I don't know. Did he-- 1330 01:03:53,830 --> 01:03:55,353 - He said he tried calling someone, 1331 01:03:55,483 --> 01:03:56,571 but that he kept hanging up. 1332 01:03:56,702 --> 01:03:58,443 He wasn't really making sense. 1333 01:03:58,573 --> 01:04:04,188 But anyway, whoever you are, thank you. 1334 01:04:04,318 --> 01:04:05,667 [gentle music] 1335 01:04:05,798 --> 01:04:08,192 [phone beeps] 1336 01:04:12,587 --> 01:04:13,588 - He tried to call. 1337 01:04:27,646 --> 01:04:30,083 [distant sirens wailing] 1338 01:04:34,044 --> 01:04:36,437 [muffled laughter] 1339 01:04:37,395 --> 01:04:38,918 [chatter] 1340 01:04:39,049 --> 01:04:41,486 [distant siren wailing] 1341 01:04:49,015 --> 01:04:51,409 [floor creaking] 1342 01:04:51,539 --> 01:04:53,933 [unsettling music] 1343 01:05:21,482 --> 01:05:22,744 [faucet clicks] 1344 01:05:22,875 --> 01:05:25,312 [water runs] 1345 01:06:16,146 --> 01:06:18,626 [buttons beeping] 1346 01:06:21,586 --> 01:06:24,067 [phone ringing] 1347 01:06:27,113 --> 01:06:28,549 - Lifeline. 1348 01:06:28,680 --> 01:06:31,074 [phone clicks] 1349 01:06:31,204 --> 01:06:33,554 [water running] 1350 01:06:50,919 --> 01:06:53,313 [tense music] 1351 01:07:00,320 --> 01:07:02,670 [buttons beeping] 1352 01:07:02,801 --> 01:07:05,151 [phone ringing] 1353 01:07:09,634 --> 01:07:12,898 - Lifeline. 1354 01:07:13,029 --> 01:07:15,118 Can I get your name? 1355 01:07:15,248 --> 01:07:16,771 - Steven. 1356 01:07:16,902 --> 01:07:18,338 I don't want to talk about myself. 1357 01:07:21,994 --> 01:07:24,388 I just need a distraction. 1358 01:07:24,518 --> 01:07:26,042 I don't know. 1359 01:07:26,172 --> 01:07:30,916 I-- maybe you can just talk about yourself or something? 1360 01:07:31,047 --> 01:07:31,873 - OK. 1361 01:07:32,004 --> 01:07:33,005 I understand. 1362 01:07:33,136 --> 01:07:34,267 Sure. 1363 01:07:34,398 --> 01:07:36,356 Well, my name is Steven, too, actually. 1364 01:07:36,487 --> 01:07:37,749 Steven Jefferson. 1365 01:07:37,879 --> 01:07:40,317 And your last name is? 1366 01:07:40,447 --> 01:07:42,058 - Thomas. 1367 01:07:42,188 --> 01:07:44,060 - Gotcha. 1368 01:07:44,190 --> 01:07:47,237 Well, that's funny. 1369 01:07:47,367 --> 01:07:51,676 Both of our names together make up one whole former president. 1370 01:07:51,806 --> 01:07:55,071 Sorry, I only-- I only tell bad jokes. 1371 01:07:55,201 --> 01:07:57,595 [gentle music] 1372 01:08:01,033 --> 01:08:03,514 [pencil scratching] 1373 01:08:07,518 --> 01:08:09,259 - Do you have a family? 1374 01:08:09,389 --> 01:08:11,261 - I do, yeah. 1375 01:08:11,391 --> 01:08:13,915 I have a wife and a son. 1376 01:08:14,046 --> 01:08:17,702 My-- my son's about to turn 14 next month, actually. 1377 01:08:17,832 --> 01:08:18,703 [gun clicks] 1378 01:08:18,833 --> 01:08:20,748 And he's a big Lakers fan. 1379 01:08:20,879 --> 01:08:22,010 [pencil scratching] 1380 01:08:22,141 --> 01:08:23,360 My wife thinks he has a girlfriend, 1381 01:08:23,490 --> 01:08:29,801 but he's too shy to talk to me about that stuff. 1382 01:08:29,931 --> 01:08:32,108 And so recently, I've only been volunteering 1383 01:08:32,238 --> 01:08:34,588 a few times a year, uh, ever since I 1384 01:08:34,719 --> 01:08:35,807 went into private practice. 1385 01:08:38,375 --> 01:08:40,072 And I was told that writing a memoir 1386 01:08:40,203 --> 01:08:43,597 would be a good therapeutic exercise. 1387 01:08:43,728 --> 01:08:44,990 [keyboard clacking] 1388 01:08:45,121 --> 01:08:48,472 So I'm about five chapters deep in right now. 1389 01:08:48,602 --> 01:08:50,996 [shrill music] 1390 01:09:03,487 --> 01:09:05,967 [distant alarm wailing] 1391 01:09:41,829 --> 01:09:44,267 [pencil scratching] 1392 01:10:05,853 --> 01:10:07,725 - Tell me a story. 1393 01:10:07,855 --> 01:10:10,249 [frantic music] 1394 01:10:20,085 --> 01:10:22,522 [gun shot] 1395 01:10:22,653 --> 01:10:26,352 [water draining] 1396 01:10:26,483 --> 01:10:28,789 [lights flickering] 1397 01:10:28,920 --> 01:10:30,922 [machine beeping] 1398 01:10:31,052 --> 01:10:32,880 [machine beeping rhythmically] 1399 01:10:35,709 --> 01:10:38,059 [light buzzes] 1400 01:10:55,163 --> 01:10:57,775 - I can't take any more of these seizures. 1401 01:10:57,905 --> 01:11:00,212 [muffled conversation] 1402 01:11:01,561 --> 01:11:03,259 [electrical whining] 1403 01:11:03,389 --> 01:11:05,957 - Let's induce hypothermia again to reduce the brain swelling. 1404 01:11:06,087 --> 01:11:07,175 - Clear! 1405 01:11:07,306 --> 01:11:09,613 [rumbling] 1406 01:11:09,743 --> 01:11:12,137 [glass breaking] 1407 01:11:13,138 --> 01:11:14,226 - Knock, knock. 1408 01:11:14,357 --> 01:11:15,662 - Who's there? 1409 01:11:15,793 --> 01:11:18,056 [machine beeping rapidly] 1410 01:11:18,186 --> 01:11:20,667 [rumbling] 1411 01:11:24,192 --> 01:11:27,848 - Do you ever see a future between us? 1412 01:11:27,979 --> 01:11:30,242 [machine beeping rapidly] 1413 01:11:33,550 --> 01:11:34,812 - Steven. 1414 01:11:34,942 --> 01:11:35,769 - Steven, look at-- 1415 01:11:35,900 --> 01:11:37,118 - Just go. 1416 01:11:37,249 --> 01:11:39,643 [somber piano] 1417 01:11:48,521 --> 01:11:49,914 - I'm alive. 1418 01:11:50,044 --> 01:11:52,438 I'm alive. 1419 01:11:52,569 --> 01:11:54,179 - OK Stay with us, Steven. 1420 01:11:54,310 --> 01:11:55,572 [electrical whining] 1421 01:11:55,702 --> 01:11:57,182 We're losing him. 1422 01:11:57,313 --> 01:11:58,401 Clear! 1423 01:11:58,531 --> 01:12:00,794 [rumbling] 1424 01:12:00,925 --> 01:12:02,230 [furniture crashing] 1425 01:12:02,361 --> 01:12:03,275 [glass breaking] 1426 01:12:03,406 --> 01:12:05,756 [machine beeping rapidly] 1427 01:12:10,195 --> 01:12:12,502 - Alive. 1428 01:12:12,632 --> 01:12:13,720 I'm alive. 1429 01:12:13,851 --> 01:12:15,156 I'm alive. 1430 01:12:15,287 --> 01:12:16,810 I'm alive. 1431 01:12:16,941 --> 01:12:19,335 [beeping fades] 1432 01:12:21,293 --> 01:12:23,730 [machine beeping rhythmically] 1433 01:12:37,657 --> 01:12:39,442 - You know his odds aren't good. 1434 01:12:39,572 --> 01:12:41,357 [machine beeping rhythmically] 1435 01:12:41,487 --> 01:12:42,358 [ventilator whirring] 1436 01:12:42,488 --> 01:12:52,890 And even if he does make it, I-- 1437 01:12:53,020 --> 01:12:54,544 I can't stand to see him like this. 1438 01:12:54,674 --> 01:12:55,675 I need to go on a walk. 1439 01:12:55,806 --> 01:12:56,981 - Andrew. 1440 01:12:57,111 --> 01:12:58,112 - I'm sorry. 1441 01:12:58,243 --> 01:12:59,592 Hi, 1442 01:12:59,723 --> 01:13:02,203 [beeping continues] 1443 01:13:06,686 --> 01:13:09,123 [gentle music] 1444 01:13:15,652 --> 01:13:18,089 [baby wails] 1445 01:13:26,489 --> 01:13:27,838 - Hi, Mary. 1446 01:13:27,968 --> 01:13:29,405 How you doing? 1447 01:13:29,535 --> 01:13:31,015 - OK, I guess. 1448 01:13:31,145 --> 01:13:33,234 - So your concussion symptoms were pretty mild, 1449 01:13:33,365 --> 01:13:35,498 but we're still going to want to keep you overnight, OK? 1450 01:13:35,628 --> 01:13:37,195 - Also, there's a detective here that 1451 01:13:37,325 --> 01:13:38,457 would like to speak with you. 1452 01:13:41,808 --> 01:13:44,202 [baby wails] 1453 01:13:44,332 --> 01:13:46,726 [phone ringing] 1454 01:13:46,857 --> 01:13:48,641 - Mary, hi. 1455 01:13:48,772 --> 01:13:51,992 I'm Detective Fredericks with the Palm Springs Police. 1456 01:13:52,123 --> 01:13:55,561 I'd like to get more background about your husband, Jason. 1457 01:13:55,692 --> 01:13:58,042 [triumphant music] 1458 01:13:59,043 --> 01:14:00,044 - Yeah, that's fine. 1459 01:14:00,174 --> 01:14:01,088 Thanks. 1460 01:14:01,219 --> 01:14:02,089 - Hey, Loretta. 1461 01:14:02,220 --> 01:14:03,613 [phone rings] 1462 01:14:03,743 --> 01:14:04,657 - Hello? 1463 01:14:04,788 --> 01:14:05,571 - Dr. Williams? 1464 01:14:05,702 --> 01:14:07,312 - No, I-- I can't. 1465 01:14:07,443 --> 01:14:08,879 I can't get a sitter that fast. - Dr. Williams, I'm sorry. 1466 01:14:09,009 --> 01:14:09,967 It's very urgent. - Come on. 1467 01:14:10,097 --> 01:14:11,838 You're just not telling me this? 1468 01:14:11,969 --> 01:14:13,274 - I just have to show you one thing. 1469 01:14:13,405 --> 01:14:14,537 - I gotta call you back. 1470 01:14:14,667 --> 01:14:16,060 - It's just going to be really quick. 1471 01:14:16,190 --> 01:14:17,278 All right, so the patient in 204, he was just-- 1472 01:14:17,409 --> 01:14:18,845 [speech fades] 1473 01:14:21,021 --> 01:14:22,936 [baby wails] 1474 01:14:23,067 --> 01:14:25,156 [man humming] 1475 01:14:47,918 --> 01:14:50,311 [machine beeping] 1476 01:14:50,442 --> 01:14:52,836 [ventilator hissing] 1477 01:15:30,264 --> 01:15:33,093 - They told me it's not likely you'll wake up. 1478 01:15:33,224 --> 01:15:35,356 I don't believe it. 1479 01:15:35,487 --> 01:15:38,708 I know you. 1480 01:15:38,838 --> 01:15:42,450 When you do, we're going to talk more, OK? 1481 01:15:42,581 --> 01:15:44,235 We're not going to hide things. 1482 01:15:48,805 --> 01:15:52,896 I'm scared though, Steven. 1483 01:15:53,026 --> 01:15:54,985 But I'm still here. 1484 01:15:55,115 --> 01:15:56,552 And so are you. 1485 01:15:56,682 --> 01:15:57,988 [somber music] 1486 01:15:59,032 --> 01:16:00,381 [phone buzzes] 1487 01:16:00,512 --> 01:16:01,905 [ringtone plays] 1488 01:16:02,035 --> 01:16:03,515 [machine beeping] 1489 01:16:23,013 --> 01:16:24,362 [beeping stops] 1490 01:16:24,492 --> 01:16:27,234 [somber music]