1 00:00:05,638 --> 00:00:07,806 [ Ship horn blares ] 2 00:00:07,807 --> 00:00:10,309 [ Jackhammer pounding ] 3 00:00:10,310 --> 00:00:12,077 {\an8}** 4 00:00:12,078 --> 00:00:14,580 - There are few mysteries left in this world-- 5 00:00:14,581 --> 00:00:18,650 deep sea, outer space, the human brain. 6 00:00:18,651 --> 00:00:22,121 - So you had a sex dream about Katie. No big deal. 7 00:00:22,122 --> 00:00:23,689 - [ Slurping ] 8 00:00:23,690 --> 00:00:25,124 - I say go for it. 9 00:00:25,125 --> 00:00:27,360 - I am her doctor. It's unethical. 10 00:00:28,595 --> 00:00:30,462 Okay. Fine. She makes me nervous. 11 00:00:30,463 --> 00:00:32,698 She's so confident, and I'm just this bundle of-- 12 00:00:32,699 --> 00:00:34,400 - Everything good in the world. 13 00:00:34,401 --> 00:00:36,702 - ♪ You can take it out on me ♪ 14 00:00:36,703 --> 00:00:38,437 - I knew I'd like living with you. 15 00:00:38,438 --> 00:00:40,740 - ♪ I hope you know ♪ 16 00:00:41,708 --> 00:00:44,544 - Here's what we do know about the brain. 17 00:00:45,445 --> 00:00:47,547 [ Suspenseful music plays ] 18 00:00:49,182 --> 00:00:50,482 - [ Gasps ] - The fear response 19 00:00:50,483 --> 00:00:52,418 manifests in the amygdala. - Are you okay? 20 00:00:52,419 --> 00:00:55,454 - Do you mind if we take the stairs again? 21 00:00:55,455 --> 00:00:58,190 - Of course. Today is leg day. 22 00:00:58,191 --> 00:00:59,458 [ Both chuckle ] 23 00:00:59,459 --> 00:01:01,794 - ♪ It's okay to get mad ♪ 24 00:01:01,795 --> 00:01:03,662 - I don't wanna go to daycare! 25 00:01:03,663 --> 00:01:06,465 - The prefrontal cortex helps us regulate our emotions. 26 00:01:06,466 --> 00:01:09,201 - Argh! I want Mom. - Hey! Move it! 27 00:01:09,202 --> 00:01:10,636 - Argh! Argh! - [ Horn honking ] 28 00:01:10,637 --> 00:01:12,471 - Liam, you can't scream like that when I'm driving! 29 00:01:12,472 --> 00:01:14,473 It's dangerous. I need to focus! - Argh! Argh! 30 00:01:14,474 --> 00:01:16,342 I hate you! 31 00:01:16,343 --> 00:01:18,143 - ♪ Don't overthink ♪ 32 00:01:18,144 --> 00:01:21,380 - The hippocampus stores our memories... 33 00:01:21,381 --> 00:01:23,449 the bad and the good. 34 00:01:23,450 --> 00:01:25,652 - ♪ I hope you know ♪ 35 00:01:27,654 --> 00:01:30,656 ♪ Say it, say, I love you, always forever ♪ 36 00:01:30,657 --> 00:01:32,591 ♪ Near and far, closer together ♪ 37 00:01:32,592 --> 00:01:34,560 ♪ Everywhere, I will be with you ♪ 38 00:01:34,561 --> 00:01:36,729 ♪ Everything, I will do for you ♪ 39 00:01:36,730 --> 00:01:37,763 - Hey. 40 00:01:37,764 --> 00:01:40,199 [ Speaking indistinctly ] 41 00:01:40,200 --> 00:01:42,368 - And perhaps most important of all, 42 00:01:42,369 --> 00:01:45,504 multiple brain centers are vital for love. 43 00:01:45,505 --> 00:01:47,773 - ♪ Near and far, (closer together ♪ 44 00:01:47,774 --> 00:01:49,742 ♪ Everywhere, I will be with you ♪ 45 00:01:49,743 --> 00:01:51,877 ♪ Everything, I will do for you ♪ 46 00:01:51,878 --> 00:01:53,579 ♪ I love you, always forever ♪ 47 00:01:53,580 --> 00:01:55,314 ♪ Near and far, closer together ♪ 48 00:01:55,315 --> 00:01:58,384 - And yet, for all we do know about the brain, 49 00:01:58,385 --> 00:02:01,220 it can still leave us completely mystified. 50 00:02:01,221 --> 00:02:04,256 {\an8}** 51 00:02:04,257 --> 00:02:06,192 - I have something for ya. 52 00:02:13,667 --> 00:02:15,268 [ Zipper slides ] 53 00:02:15,835 --> 00:02:17,903 - I don't do black tie. 54 00:02:17,904 --> 00:02:20,706 - There's a gala. 55 00:02:20,707 --> 00:02:22,374 Usually insufferable. I never go. 56 00:02:22,375 --> 00:02:23,776 - Wow. You're really selling it. 57 00:02:23,777 --> 00:02:26,545 - This year, I'm being honored, with an award. 58 00:02:26,546 --> 00:02:28,414 - They give awards for cutting and slicing, 59 00:02:28,415 --> 00:02:29,815 as if surgeons need an ego boost? 60 00:02:29,816 --> 00:02:31,784 - [ Chuckles ] This is why I need you there, 61 00:02:31,785 --> 00:02:34,687 you know, keep me humble. 62 00:02:34,688 --> 00:02:36,622 - Fine. 63 00:02:36,623 --> 00:02:37,790 But I'm not putting out. 64 00:02:37,791 --> 00:02:39,693 - [ Laughs ] 65 00:02:40,994 --> 00:02:42,628 - What? 66 00:02:42,629 --> 00:02:45,397 {\an8}** 67 00:02:45,398 --> 00:02:47,299 - I think I'm falling for you. 68 00:02:47,300 --> 00:02:53,906 {\an8}** 69 00:02:53,907 --> 00:02:55,742 [ Footsteps approach ] 70 00:02:56,543 --> 00:02:58,977 - I keep hoping to come down here and find you gone, 71 00:02:58,978 --> 00:03:01,413 thinking that maybe somehow in the middle of the night 72 00:03:01,414 --> 00:03:04,350 you came to your senses and left. 73 00:03:04,351 --> 00:03:06,685 - I've been a good houseguest, haven't I? 74 00:03:06,686 --> 00:03:09,688 I've got good doctors. I've got good meds. 75 00:03:09,689 --> 00:03:12,024 I take them every day like clockwork. 76 00:03:12,025 --> 00:03:13,859 I'm in a good place, Muriel. 77 00:03:13,860 --> 00:03:15,295 - Hm. 78 00:03:16,029 --> 00:03:18,664 {\an8}- I see you kept this old thing, huh? 79 00:03:18,665 --> 00:03:22,402 - What are we going to tell Oliver? 80 00:03:23,069 --> 00:03:24,738 - The truth. 81 00:03:27,007 --> 00:03:29,508 - You've seen him. 82 00:03:29,509 --> 00:03:32,511 You see how well he's doing. 83 00:03:32,512 --> 00:03:36,483 Oh, he is thriving at Bronx Gen. 84 00:03:38,084 --> 00:03:41,487 And he's dating a neurosurgeon. 85 00:03:41,488 --> 00:03:43,889 [ Chuckles ] Can you imagine that? 86 00:03:43,890 --> 00:03:45,558 - Hm. 87 00:03:46,693 --> 00:03:50,596 - Oh, God. He's finally happy, Noah. 88 00:03:50,597 --> 00:03:52,365 So happy. 89 00:03:53,533 --> 00:03:55,801 We can't take that away from him. 90 00:03:55,802 --> 00:03:58,470 {\an8}** 91 00:03:58,471 --> 00:04:02,408 You can leave. And he'll never know. 92 00:04:02,409 --> 00:04:07,446 {\an8}** 93 00:04:07,447 --> 00:04:11,917 - This has been a... long 30 years, Muriel. 94 00:04:11,918 --> 00:04:14,453 {\an8}** 95 00:04:14,454 --> 00:04:17,590 - And you haven't known him since he was 14 years old. 96 00:04:19,693 --> 00:04:22,795 I need a little more time to figure out how to handle this. 97 00:04:22,796 --> 00:04:25,064 {\an8}** 98 00:04:25,065 --> 00:04:26,732 [ Door opens ] 99 00:04:26,733 --> 00:04:28,801 {\an8}** 100 00:04:28,802 --> 00:04:30,069 [ Door closes ] 101 00:04:30,070 --> 00:04:38,911 {\an8}** 102 00:04:38,912 --> 00:04:41,814 - ♪ Joy, joy, joy, joy ♪ 103 00:04:41,815 --> 00:04:44,083 [ Choir singing ] 104 00:04:44,084 --> 00:04:55,828 {\an8}** 105 00:04:55,829 --> 00:04:59,398 - If WBCCC is here, I will embarrass you all. 106 00:04:59,399 --> 00:05:01,800 - Oh, man. - I only do medical acronyms. 107 00:05:01,801 --> 00:05:03,502 - West Bronx Community Church Choir? 108 00:05:03,503 --> 00:05:05,137 - The best choir in all of NYC. 109 00:05:05,138 --> 00:05:07,406 - Mm-hmm. - I'm obsessed with them. 110 00:05:07,407 --> 00:05:09,875 - Didn't really pin you for a choral type, Dana. 111 00:05:09,876 --> 00:05:11,443 - Oh, what can I say? 112 00:05:11,444 --> 00:05:12,845 The Christian-to-queer pipeline is canon. 113 00:05:12,846 --> 00:05:14,980 - Hey, team. Thanks for meeting me. 114 00:05:14,981 --> 00:05:17,383 Let's make sure that all the survivors from the collapse 115 00:05:17,384 --> 00:05:18,917 get a secondary neuro assessment. 116 00:05:18,918 --> 00:05:21,053 Dr. Pierce is already here handling psych evals 117 00:05:21,054 --> 00:05:23,055 and grief counseling. 118 00:05:23,056 --> 00:05:25,457 Let's do this. - Okay. Over there. 119 00:05:25,458 --> 00:05:27,594 [ Metal groaning] 120 00:05:30,030 --> 00:05:31,130 [ Electricity crackling] 121 00:05:31,131 --> 00:05:32,398 - [ Screams ] 122 00:05:32,399 --> 00:05:33,465 - No! 123 00:05:33,466 --> 00:05:38,537 {\an8}** 124 00:05:38,538 --> 00:05:40,506 - Okay. Sounds good to me. 125 00:05:40,507 --> 00:05:42,408 - Are you still getting headaches? 126 00:05:42,409 --> 00:05:43,609 - There you go. 127 00:05:43,610 --> 00:05:45,010 - Your neuro exam looks good. 128 00:05:45,011 --> 00:05:46,478 Just one final test. 129 00:05:46,479 --> 00:05:47,846 Have you just hold out your arms, 130 00:05:47,847 --> 00:05:50,149 and then you'll resist me pressing down. 131 00:05:50,150 --> 00:05:51,950 {\an8}[ Baby crying ] 132 00:05:51,951 --> 00:05:53,752 Great. Okay. You're getting your strength back. 133 00:05:53,753 --> 00:05:55,688 So I'd say whatever you're doing, keep it up. 134 00:05:55,689 --> 00:05:58,057 - Haven't been doing much of anything. 135 00:05:58,058 --> 00:06:00,426 My home's gone. My Celia's gone. 136 00:06:00,427 --> 00:06:02,961 - I was just telling Mr. Pomeroy here about the grief counseling 137 00:06:02,962 --> 00:06:04,530 we offer at Bronx General. 138 00:06:04,531 --> 00:06:06,732 - Yeah, I think that would be a great idea. 139 00:06:06,733 --> 00:06:10,602 - For now, I've got the church, and that's nice. 140 00:06:10,603 --> 00:06:13,572 Pastor Thomas is good people. 141 00:06:13,573 --> 00:06:16,008 Working nonstop to get us all housing. 142 00:06:16,009 --> 00:06:18,177 - The woman is a saint. 143 00:06:18,178 --> 00:06:19,812 - She really is. 144 00:06:19,813 --> 00:06:22,915 She has these visions, you know... 145 00:06:22,916 --> 00:06:25,852 says God shows her what He wants her to see. 146 00:06:29,122 --> 00:06:30,990 It's incredible, really. 147 00:06:33,893 --> 00:06:35,127 - Wolf? 148 00:06:35,128 --> 00:06:36,228 Wolf? Wolf! 149 00:06:36,229 --> 00:06:37,896 I see your wheels turnin', 150 00:06:37,897 --> 00:06:40,165 but you might wanna leave this one to God. 151 00:06:40,166 --> 00:06:42,001 - Pastor Thomas, hi. I'm Dr. Wolf. 152 00:06:42,002 --> 00:06:43,702 I'm the head of Neuro at Bronx General. 153 00:06:43,703 --> 00:06:46,038 You already met my better half, Dr. Pierce. 154 00:06:46,039 --> 00:06:47,473 - Lovely to meet you. 155 00:06:47,474 --> 00:06:49,541 And this is my better half, Samuel. 156 00:06:49,542 --> 00:06:51,977 - Uh, Dr. Wolf just wanted to thank you 157 00:06:51,978 --> 00:06:54,513 for opening the doors of your church to the community. 158 00:06:54,514 --> 00:06:56,682 - Please. It was the neighborly thing to do. 159 00:06:56,683 --> 00:06:58,751 Doctors and nurses are the real heroes. 160 00:06:58,752 --> 00:07:01,987 - Some of the patients here have mentioned that you have visions. 161 00:07:01,988 --> 00:07:04,223 Is it true, Pastor? Do you see things that aren't there? 162 00:07:04,224 --> 00:07:06,091 - Wolf. - The Lord bestowed 163 00:07:06,092 --> 00:07:07,826 a true miracle on her. 164 00:07:07,827 --> 00:07:10,629 - The visions are both a blessing and burden, 165 00:07:10,630 --> 00:07:12,097 distracting at times. 166 00:07:12,098 --> 00:07:14,233 But I'm grateful for them. 167 00:07:14,234 --> 00:07:16,101 - Well, thank you for sharing, Pastor. 168 00:07:16,102 --> 00:07:18,103 Dr. Wolf and I should get back to our rounds. 169 00:07:18,104 --> 00:07:21,907 - I would like to hear more about this gift some time. 170 00:07:21,908 --> 00:07:25,277 - Of course. The truth never fears investigation. 171 00:07:25,278 --> 00:07:27,246 I'm sorry to cut this conversation short, 172 00:07:27,247 --> 00:07:28,981 but I have to go find apartments 173 00:07:28,982 --> 00:07:30,716 for our recently unhoused friends. 174 00:07:30,717 --> 00:07:33,519 If you'll excuse me. I just need my hat. 175 00:07:33,520 --> 00:07:39,191 {\an8}** 176 00:07:39,192 --> 00:07:41,026 - [ Grunting ] 177 00:07:41,027 --> 00:07:43,128 Sweetheart. Just watch the hair. 178 00:07:43,129 --> 00:07:45,999 - Oh. Sorry, honey. My mistake. 179 00:07:47,233 --> 00:07:48,534 [ Laughs ] 180 00:07:48,535 --> 00:07:53,605 {\an8}** 181 00:07:53,606 --> 00:07:54,873 - You saw that, right? 182 00:07:54,874 --> 00:07:56,041 - Mm-hmm. 183 00:07:56,042 --> 00:07:59,879 - She mistook her husband... for a hat. 184 00:08:04,951 --> 00:08:08,053 {\an8}- Are you a religious man, Dr. Wolf? 185 00:08:08,054 --> 00:08:12,024 {\an8}- The closest I come to religion is medicine. 186 00:08:12,025 --> 00:08:13,726 {\an8}And Bach. - Hm! 187 00:08:13,727 --> 00:08:16,061 {\an8}His hymns were the spirits speaking through him, 188 00:08:16,062 --> 00:08:17,162 {\an8}a God-given talent. 189 00:08:17,163 --> 00:08:18,764 {\an8}- Hm. 190 00:08:18,765 --> 00:08:20,265 {\an8}- It's funny. I'd assume in your occupation 191 00:08:20,266 --> 00:08:22,301 {\an8}that you'd have witnessed more than a few miracles. 192 00:08:22,302 --> 00:08:25,270 {\an8}- Well, if you consider human resilience a miracle, 193 00:08:25,271 --> 00:08:26,772 {\an8}then I definitely have. 194 00:08:26,773 --> 00:08:29,208 {\an8}- Hey, sweetpea. Are you lost? 195 00:08:29,209 --> 00:08:31,944 {\an8}** 196 00:08:31,945 --> 00:08:33,579 {\an8}How can we help? 197 00:08:33,580 --> 00:08:35,815 {\an8}- Pastor Thomas? 198 00:08:37,751 --> 00:08:39,853 {\an8}- You can't see her, can you? 199 00:08:41,087 --> 00:08:42,756 {\an8}[ Sighs ] 200 00:08:43,957 --> 00:08:47,226 {\an8}- How long ago did your visions begin? 201 00:08:47,227 --> 00:08:48,861 {\an8}- A few months ago. 202 00:08:48,862 --> 00:08:50,996 {\an8}I started seeing things that weren't really there, 203 00:08:50,997 --> 00:08:53,232 {\an8}faces where there are no faces at all, 204 00:08:53,233 --> 00:08:56,135 {\an8}objects where there are faces. 205 00:08:56,136 --> 00:09:00,606 {\an8}It turned my world upside down, but in a remarkable way. 206 00:09:00,607 --> 00:09:03,942 {\an8}- Aren't you hungry for a diagnosis? 207 00:09:03,943 --> 00:09:06,111 {\an8}- Not at all. 208 00:09:06,112 --> 00:09:09,081 {\an8}This is God trying to tell me something. 209 00:09:09,082 --> 00:09:11,984 {\an8}I'm just not sure what. 210 00:09:11,985 --> 00:09:13,119 {\an8}Yet. 211 00:09:13,987 --> 00:09:16,822 {\an8}I'll gladly let you look at my brain-- 212 00:09:16,823 --> 00:09:19,391 {\an8}if it proves to you that miracles exist. 213 00:09:19,392 --> 00:09:22,161 {\an8}** 214 00:09:22,162 --> 00:09:23,997 {\an8}- What is this? 215 00:09:24,864 --> 00:09:25,831 {\an8}- Uh-- - A tennis ball? 216 00:09:25,832 --> 00:09:28,000 {\an8}- Wrong. It's pyrite. 217 00:09:28,001 --> 00:09:30,903 {\an8}- Is this a magic trick? 'Cause if it is, it sucks. 218 00:09:30,904 --> 00:09:32,671 {\an8}- Um-- - Is this about Pastor Thomas? 219 00:09:32,672 --> 00:09:34,373 {\an8}- Indeed. I believe our pastor 220 00:09:34,374 --> 00:09:36,375 {\an8}may be experiencing visual agnosia. 221 00:09:36,376 --> 00:09:38,110 {\an8}Not an issue with her vision, 222 00:09:38,111 --> 00:09:41,046 {\an8}but in the way her brain processes what she sees. 223 00:09:41,047 --> 00:09:42,781 {\an8}Where we see pyrite, 224 00:09:42,782 --> 00:09:46,251 {\an8}her parietal cortex may perceive an apple. 225 00:09:46,252 --> 00:09:49,355 {\an8}- Funny. I see lunch. 226 00:09:49,356 --> 00:09:53,125 {\an8}- Pastor Thomas believes that she's received a gift from God, 227 00:09:53,126 --> 00:09:55,861 {\an8}but I'm concerned that her agnosia is a symptom 228 00:09:55,862 --> 00:09:57,229 {\an8}of an even more serious condition. 229 00:09:57,230 --> 00:09:58,797 {\an8}- Well, it could be the first presentation 230 00:09:58,798 --> 00:10:00,065 {\an8}of a neurodegenerative disease, 231 00:10:00,066 --> 00:10:01,934 {\an8}like Alzheimer's or Lewy body dementia. 232 00:10:01,935 --> 00:10:04,303 {\an8}- Or a rare presentation of toxic exposure. 233 00:10:04,304 --> 00:10:05,871 {\an8}Head trauma. Encephalitis. 234 00:10:05,872 --> 00:10:07,406 {\an8}- The result of a stroke? 235 00:10:07,407 --> 00:10:09,108 {\an8}- Or, it could be something 236 00:10:09,109 --> 00:10:10,976 {\an8}even less serious or even reversible. 237 00:10:10,977 --> 00:10:12,411 {\an8}I mean, maybe the pastor's right. 238 00:10:12,412 --> 00:10:14,013 {\an8}Maybe it is just some sort of miracle. 239 00:10:14,014 --> 00:10:15,981 {\an8}- Let's stay in the earthly realm. 240 00:10:15,982 --> 00:10:17,416 {\an8}She has agreed to have an MRI, 241 00:10:17,417 --> 00:10:20,285 {\an8}so, hopefully, we'll have answers soon. 242 00:10:20,286 --> 00:10:22,354 {\an8}- Why do bad things always happen to good people? 243 00:10:22,355 --> 00:10:25,759 {\an8}- Hey, we don't even know if there's anything wrong with her yet. 244 00:10:28,194 --> 00:10:29,294 {\an8}What are we doing? 245 00:10:29,295 --> 00:10:31,030 {\an8}- The three of us were talking, 246 00:10:31,031 --> 00:10:33,298 {\an8}and we thought we could help move you up the fear hierarchy, 247 00:10:33,299 --> 00:10:36,802 {\an8}as a way to get you over your, um, phobia. 248 00:10:36,803 --> 00:10:38,470 {\an8}- You want me to try exposure therapy? 249 00:10:38,471 --> 00:10:40,973 {\an8}- Hear us out. Uh, at this point, 250 00:10:40,974 --> 00:10:44,476 {\an8}you can handle being near elevators just fine, right? 251 00:10:44,477 --> 00:10:46,179 {\an8}- Sort of. 252 00:10:48,148 --> 00:10:50,115 {\an8}- That's great. So, the next step is to watch 253 00:10:50,116 --> 00:10:54,053 {\an8}the people you love or care about or whatever, 254 00:10:54,054 --> 00:10:55,954 {\an8}you know, do the thing that you're scared of. 255 00:10:55,955 --> 00:10:57,923 {\an8}- Mm-hm. - We step on, 256 00:10:57,924 --> 00:10:59,458 {\an8}you tell us if your anxiety spikes. 257 00:10:59,459 --> 00:11:01,326 {\an8}Cool? 258 00:11:01,327 --> 00:11:02,928 {\an8}- Hm. 259 00:11:02,929 --> 00:11:04,029 {\an8}- [ Clears throat ] 260 00:11:04,030 --> 00:11:05,965 {\an8}[ Metal groaning] 261 00:11:06,800 --> 00:11:09,368 {\an8}- Anything? - Nope. [ Chuckles ] 262 00:11:09,369 --> 00:11:12,471 {\an8}- Great! We're getting a sense of your baseline! 263 00:11:12,472 --> 00:11:14,240 {\an8}[ Metal groaning] 264 00:11:15,141 --> 00:11:16,276 {\an8}- Dana. 265 00:11:18,211 --> 00:11:19,812 {\an8}Dana, get out. 266 00:11:19,813 --> 00:11:21,213 {\an8}Get out of the elevator now! 267 00:11:21,214 --> 00:11:22,881 {\an8}- Okay. Okay. 268 00:11:22,882 --> 00:11:25,751 {\an8}Okay. Okay. I'm out. Ohh. 269 00:11:25,752 --> 00:11:28,153 {\an8}- So, what does this mean? 270 00:11:28,154 --> 00:11:29,321 {\an8}- Means I'm her favorite. 271 00:11:29,322 --> 00:11:33,025 {\an8}- You trying to make me jealous, Dr. Dang? 272 00:11:33,026 --> 00:11:34,127 {\an8}- Hm! 273 00:11:34,961 --> 00:11:37,162 {\an8}- Your flexibility and overall mobility 274 00:11:37,163 --> 00:11:38,997 {\an8}are much better than when we first started. 275 00:11:38,998 --> 00:11:41,934 {\an8}Soft-tissue mobilization is breaking up scar formation. 276 00:11:41,935 --> 00:11:44,937 {\an8}And decreased pain and increased strength and balance. 277 00:11:44,938 --> 00:11:47,139 {\an8}Check, check, and check. - Hm! [ Chuckles ] 278 00:11:47,140 --> 00:11:49,274 {\an8}- And don't even get me started on your range of motion. 279 00:11:49,275 --> 00:11:52,244 {\an8}And you finally get your wish. I am going to recommend 280 00:11:52,245 --> 00:11:54,380 {\an8}that Friday is your last session here. 281 00:11:54,381 --> 00:11:57,082 {\an8}You're graduating! 282 00:11:57,083 --> 00:11:58,517 {\an8}- I'm graduating? 283 00:11:58,518 --> 00:11:59,985 {\an8}- Yep. 284 00:11:59,986 --> 00:12:01,887 {\an8}So, if you ever have any questions, 285 00:12:01,888 --> 00:12:03,957 {\an8}you know where to find me. 286 00:12:05,558 --> 00:12:07,960 - I do have one question. 287 00:12:07,961 --> 00:12:11,130 When are you gonna stop being my doctor and kiss me? 288 00:12:11,131 --> 00:12:14,033 - [ Stammers ] Wha-- Uh... 289 00:12:14,034 --> 00:12:17,102 [ Chuckles ] Technically and physically, 290 00:12:17,103 --> 00:12:19,371 spiritually, you are still my patient. 291 00:12:19,372 --> 00:12:21,006 Uh, and don't get me wrong, 292 00:12:21,007 --> 00:12:22,574 I have loved all 20 seasons of "Grey's Anatomy," 293 00:12:22,575 --> 00:12:24,410 but every time a doctor starts making out with a patient, 294 00:12:24,411 --> 00:12:26,045 I'm always like, "How unprofessional. Am I right?" 295 00:12:26,046 --> 00:12:28,514 Anyway-- Ow. - [ Chuckles ] 296 00:12:28,515 --> 00:12:31,950 - But, um, maybe I will just 297 00:12:31,951 --> 00:12:35,988 brush up on the old S&P manual and circle back. 298 00:12:35,989 --> 00:12:38,390 - Yeah. See you Friday. 299 00:12:38,391 --> 00:12:41,193 {\an8}** 300 00:12:41,194 --> 00:12:44,897 - I need your help with something sensitive. 301 00:12:44,898 --> 00:12:48,567 Did Oliver ever tell you how his father died? 302 00:12:48,568 --> 00:12:52,037 - Yes. There was a camping trip. 303 00:12:52,038 --> 00:12:54,440 His father left him in the woods. 304 00:12:54,441 --> 00:12:57,377 They found his body in a ravine. 305 00:12:58,945 --> 00:13:01,146 - There's more to the story. 306 00:13:01,147 --> 00:13:03,315 I just thought it was pure schlock 307 00:13:03,316 --> 00:13:05,084 aimed at bored housewives. 308 00:13:05,085 --> 00:13:09,054 Just another male author trying to profit off of women's misery. 309 00:13:09,055 --> 00:13:11,223 Am I the only woman in America 310 00:13:11,224 --> 00:13:13,926 who hated "The Bridges of Madison County"? 311 00:13:13,927 --> 00:13:16,196 Come on! [ Laughs ] - Muriel?! 312 00:13:17,664 --> 00:13:19,531 - [ Door closes ] - Noah! What are you doing here? 313 00:13:19,532 --> 00:13:21,633 - They're after us. We have to get out of here. 314 00:13:21,634 --> 00:13:24,236 - Excuse me. 315 00:13:24,237 --> 00:13:28,173 - Where's Oliver? - He's safe. But we're not. 316 00:13:28,174 --> 00:13:30,576 Pack a bag and meet in the car in ten minutes. 317 00:13:30,577 --> 00:13:34,247 - Noah. Where is our son? 318 00:13:35,548 --> 00:13:37,917 Where is Oliver?! 319 00:13:39,486 --> 00:13:42,055 - Somewhere no one will find him. 320 00:13:44,124 --> 00:13:45,925 - [ Exhales shakily ] 321 00:13:49,262 --> 00:13:50,929 - How could you have lied to him? 322 00:13:50,930 --> 00:13:52,264 - I lied to protect him. 323 00:13:52,265 --> 00:13:55,100 - Ohh... mnh... - Carol, you're a mother. 324 00:13:55,101 --> 00:13:58,237 Imagine it was your daughter. What would you have done? 325 00:13:58,238 --> 00:14:01,407 - I would not have pretended her daddy was dead. 326 00:14:01,408 --> 00:14:04,643 [ Sighs ] Well, when are you gonna tell him the truth? 327 00:14:04,644 --> 00:14:06,378 - I'm not telling him. 328 00:14:06,379 --> 00:14:09,982 Noah is at my house. He has agreed to stay put. 329 00:14:09,983 --> 00:14:12,451 I need you to appeal to him. 330 00:14:12,452 --> 00:14:14,186 - No! - Yes. 331 00:14:14,187 --> 00:14:17,690 As a psychiatrist. And as Wolf's best friend. 332 00:14:17,691 --> 00:14:20,159 - Muriel, I think 333 00:14:20,160 --> 00:14:23,396 you have manipulated this situation long enough. 334 00:14:24,564 --> 00:14:27,067 Tell him the truth. 335 00:14:28,134 --> 00:14:30,303 - I don't think I could do that alone. 336 00:14:31,738 --> 00:14:33,272 - [ Sighs ] 337 00:14:33,273 --> 00:14:37,477 {\an8}** 338 00:14:41,748 --> 00:14:44,184 [ Knock on door ] 339 00:14:49,723 --> 00:14:52,291 - Uh, can I help you? 340 00:14:52,292 --> 00:14:54,361 - Honestly? 341 00:14:56,563 --> 00:14:58,264 I'm beyond help. 342 00:14:58,998 --> 00:15:00,299 - I recognize your voice. 343 00:15:00,300 --> 00:15:02,634 You-- You were from the collapsed building. 344 00:15:02,635 --> 00:15:04,471 You found Stuart, the dog. 345 00:15:07,207 --> 00:15:08,708 - [ Exhales heavily ] 346 00:15:09,509 --> 00:15:14,247 I've run this moment through my mind about a million times. 347 00:15:15,315 --> 00:15:18,451 How could I get you to recognize me 30 years later? 348 00:15:21,321 --> 00:15:22,489 Time. 349 00:15:24,090 --> 00:15:26,558 Coupled with prosopagnosia. That's a... 350 00:15:26,559 --> 00:15:28,594 That's a tall order. 351 00:15:28,595 --> 00:15:32,399 - I don't mean to be rude, but why are you here? 352 00:15:33,700 --> 00:15:35,368 - It's me-- Ollie. 353 00:15:37,570 --> 00:15:39,571 It's Dad. 354 00:15:39,572 --> 00:15:44,210 - Well, that's absurd. My father died when I was 14. 355 00:15:45,378 --> 00:15:48,180 Well, that was a lie. [ Chuckles ] 356 00:15:48,181 --> 00:15:50,417 Was a terrible lie. I just... 357 00:15:53,386 --> 00:15:54,988 ...left. 358 00:15:56,723 --> 00:15:59,291 I left to protect you and... 359 00:15:59,292 --> 00:16:02,095 - Sir, I don't know who you think you are. 360 00:16:03,596 --> 00:16:06,131 - Look at me. 361 00:16:06,132 --> 00:16:08,100 - Young Noah: What makes me me? 362 00:16:08,101 --> 00:16:10,102 - Young Oliver: You have bushy eyebrows. 363 00:16:10,103 --> 00:16:12,739 You have a big nose. 364 00:16:21,448 --> 00:16:21,781 - My father died. 365 00:16:23,416 --> 00:16:25,217 He died in the woods. He didn't make it out. 366 00:16:25,218 --> 00:16:26,585 He said he was coming back for me and he didn't. 367 00:16:26,586 --> 00:16:28,087 And he died. - I was out of my mind, Oliver. 368 00:16:28,088 --> 00:16:29,521 I was a danger to you. 369 00:16:29,522 --> 00:16:31,523 - You can't be my father. 370 00:16:31,524 --> 00:16:34,259 - Do you remember what I said before I left? 371 00:16:34,260 --> 00:16:37,229 "You're gonna be the greatest doctor in the world." 372 00:16:37,230 --> 00:16:40,299 I knew it. I knew it even then. 373 00:16:40,300 --> 00:16:42,668 If I had stayed in your life, 374 00:16:42,669 --> 00:16:45,671 I don't think you would have made it here. 375 00:16:45,672 --> 00:16:47,307 I'm proud of you. 376 00:16:49,175 --> 00:16:50,809 - You're proud of me? - Hm. 377 00:16:50,810 --> 00:16:52,711 [ Vehicle doors close ] 378 00:16:52,712 --> 00:16:54,413 - How could you be proud of me? 379 00:16:54,414 --> 00:16:56,482 - [ Knock on door ] - [ Door opens ] 380 00:16:56,483 --> 00:16:58,218 - Oliver? 381 00:16:59,853 --> 00:17:02,422 You swore you wouldn't do this. 382 00:17:06,793 --> 00:17:08,395 - You knew?! 383 00:17:11,197 --> 00:17:13,199 You've always known. 384 00:17:15,201 --> 00:17:16,702 - I just found out. We came straight here. 385 00:17:16,703 --> 00:17:18,804 - Oh, you just came here together to say, what, 386 00:17:18,805 --> 00:17:20,439 "Surprise, your father's alive"? 387 00:17:20,440 --> 00:17:25,444 - Oliver. Please. Sit down. Let us talk to you. 388 00:17:25,445 --> 00:17:26,745 Your father and I had our reasons. 389 00:17:26,746 --> 00:17:28,180 - Please. - I'm not gonna let you 390 00:17:28,181 --> 00:17:29,815 rationalize your way out of this! 391 00:17:29,816 --> 00:17:33,318 - Muriel, now is not the time for an explanation. 392 00:17:33,319 --> 00:17:36,355 Wolf, what you are experiencing right now is shock. 393 00:17:36,356 --> 00:17:39,725 - Oh, is it? That's what it is? Thank you so much, Dr. Pierce. 394 00:17:39,726 --> 00:17:41,894 - Ollie. - No. 395 00:17:41,895 --> 00:17:43,729 Don't call me that. 396 00:17:43,730 --> 00:17:50,235 {\an8}** 397 00:17:50,236 --> 00:17:52,738 I'm leaving. 398 00:17:52,739 --> 00:17:54,840 This is my house. 399 00:17:54,841 --> 00:17:58,278 And I don't want any of you in it when I get back! 400 00:18:00,847 --> 00:18:02,681 [ Door slams ] 401 00:18:02,682 --> 00:18:05,719 [ Objects thudding ] 402 00:18:10,790 --> 00:18:15,161 - I have the Pastor Thomas images printed out the way you like it. 403 00:18:18,765 --> 00:18:26,772 {\an8}** 404 00:18:26,773 --> 00:18:29,441 - Butterfly lesion in the occipital lobe. 405 00:18:29,442 --> 00:18:31,410 - Crossing the midline via the corpus callosum. 406 00:18:31,411 --> 00:18:35,414 - Is there any way this isn't a terminal diagnosis? 407 00:18:35,415 --> 00:18:37,282 - I wish. 408 00:18:37,283 --> 00:18:38,617 But it doesn't look like lymphoma, 409 00:18:38,618 --> 00:18:40,252 and it isn't a met. 410 00:18:40,253 --> 00:18:42,788 Your patient has glioblastoma. - Divine, she said. 411 00:18:42,789 --> 00:18:45,791 And now she has three months, maybe six at best. 412 00:18:45,792 --> 00:18:47,860 - There are options. 413 00:18:47,861 --> 00:18:50,429 Maximal safe resection. Add Temodar and radiation. 414 00:18:50,430 --> 00:18:53,766 - But it will recur. - It will always recur. 415 00:18:53,767 --> 00:18:55,901 {\an8}** 416 00:18:55,902 --> 00:18:57,403 - Of course, there are no miracles. 417 00:18:57,404 --> 00:18:59,939 Just lies we tell ourselves. 418 00:19:00,907 --> 00:19:04,576 - Uh, Oliver, what's going on? The box, the tux. 419 00:19:04,577 --> 00:19:06,311 You know the event's not for a couple days, right? 420 00:19:06,312 --> 00:19:08,280 - Yeah. I can't work here. 421 00:19:08,281 --> 00:19:11,383 I should never have agreed to work with my mother. 422 00:19:11,384 --> 00:19:12,618 - Wait. Did-- Did something happen? 423 00:19:12,619 --> 00:19:14,420 I mean, I-I could talk to her maybe. 424 00:19:14,421 --> 00:19:16,522 - Oh, yes. Great idea. My boyfriend 425 00:19:16,523 --> 00:19:19,425 should talk to my insane, controlling mother. 426 00:19:19,426 --> 00:19:21,994 Do you know what lies due to the brain over time, Josh? 427 00:19:21,995 --> 00:19:23,829 Neuroplasticity gets blunted. 428 00:19:23,830 --> 00:19:26,432 Every lie matters less. 429 00:19:26,433 --> 00:19:28,701 - Wolf, slow down. Slow down. 430 00:19:28,702 --> 00:19:30,436 Does this have anything to do with what I told you, 431 00:19:30,437 --> 00:19:34,341 that I'm... falling for you? 432 00:19:36,009 --> 00:19:39,311 - How could you be falling for me? 433 00:19:39,312 --> 00:19:41,647 You don't know anything about me. 434 00:19:41,648 --> 00:19:47,753 {\an8}** 435 00:19:47,754 --> 00:19:49,356 [ Door closes ] 436 00:19:52,859 --> 00:19:54,560 - Hey. Six o'clock. 437 00:19:54,561 --> 00:19:56,795 [ Knocking ] 438 00:19:56,796 --> 00:19:58,597 - Hey, Michelle. What's up? 439 00:19:58,598 --> 00:20:00,432 Why do I feel like I'm in trouble? 440 00:20:00,433 --> 00:20:02,601 - You tell me, Van. Liam was really upset 441 00:20:02,602 --> 00:20:04,436 when I picked him up from daycare today. 442 00:20:04,437 --> 00:20:05,838 He said that you yelled at him on the way there? 443 00:20:05,839 --> 00:20:07,272 - No, I-I didn't yell at him. 444 00:20:07,273 --> 00:20:08,874 He was throwing a full-fledged tantrum. 445 00:20:08,875 --> 00:20:10,409 I told him to calm down. 446 00:20:10,410 --> 00:20:12,011 - We're supposed to validate their feelings. 447 00:20:12,012 --> 00:20:14,480 Have you not listened to any of the podcasts I've sent you? 448 00:20:14,481 --> 00:20:15,914 - Yeah, of course. - Have you? 449 00:20:15,915 --> 00:20:18,283 Then you would know that when kids get dysregulated, 450 00:20:18,284 --> 00:20:19,518 it's our job to... 451 00:20:19,519 --> 00:20:21,353 - Both: ...stay regulated. - Yes. 452 00:20:21,354 --> 00:20:23,555 - Why is that so difficult for you? 453 00:20:23,556 --> 00:20:25,591 - I'm sorry. I-I'll try harder next time. 454 00:20:25,592 --> 00:20:27,760 - Good. I want Liam to have his dad. 455 00:20:27,761 --> 00:20:30,362 And I don't wanna be the one to keep you away from him. 456 00:20:30,363 --> 00:20:32,632 I'll see you Friday when you pick him up. 457 00:20:36,436 --> 00:20:39,873 - Yo, Van. She doesn't know about your Mirror-Touch? 458 00:20:41,474 --> 00:20:42,975 Hey, Dr. Wolf! 459 00:20:42,976 --> 00:20:44,877 - What? - Are you okay? 460 00:20:44,878 --> 00:20:46,412 Is there anything we can do? 461 00:20:46,413 --> 00:20:48,447 - Uh, you got a cure for a glioblastoma? 462 00:20:48,448 --> 00:20:50,816 No? Okay. Then I'm gonna go get drunk. 463 00:20:50,817 --> 00:20:52,751 Who wants to come? 464 00:20:52,752 --> 00:20:53,886 {\an8}** 465 00:20:53,887 --> 00:20:55,054 [ Billiard balls clack ] 466 00:20:55,055 --> 00:20:56,922 [ Indistinct conversations ] 467 00:20:56,923 --> 00:20:59,491 - [Slurring] I don't know very much about you two. 468 00:20:59,492 --> 00:21:02,928 I know that you have a thing for Ericka... 469 00:21:02,929 --> 00:21:04,930 and, um... - [ Coughing ] 470 00:21:04,931 --> 00:21:07,933 - ...you also have a thing for Ericka, as well. 471 00:21:07,934 --> 00:21:09,736 But what else? 472 00:21:11,137 --> 00:21:12,838 - I have a kid. 473 00:21:12,839 --> 00:21:14,540 - Really? 474 00:21:14,541 --> 00:21:16,709 - Oh, this day is full of surprises. 475 00:21:16,710 --> 00:21:18,043 Congratulations. 476 00:21:18,044 --> 00:21:19,545 Bartender, another round? 477 00:21:19,546 --> 00:21:21,680 Speaking of kids, this is a very fun game. 478 00:21:21,681 --> 00:21:24,717 What is your relationship like with your father? 479 00:21:24,718 --> 00:21:26,785 - My dad's been a great example to me. 480 00:21:26,786 --> 00:21:28,954 Yeah, if I wanna have a close relationship with my son, 481 00:21:28,955 --> 00:21:31,690 all I have to do is be absolutely nothing like him. 482 00:21:31,691 --> 00:21:34,993 - [ Laughs ] Hear, hear. Dr. Nash? 483 00:21:34,994 --> 00:21:37,062 - Uh, my dad and I, 484 00:21:37,063 --> 00:21:38,697 we were a lot better when I still played football. 485 00:21:38,698 --> 00:21:40,466 I mean, he never missed a game. 486 00:21:40,467 --> 00:21:42,935 I think he took the injury a lot worse than I did. 487 00:21:42,936 --> 00:21:44,636 I'm not sure he thought I could do anything else 488 00:21:44,637 --> 00:21:46,105 other than play football. 489 00:21:46,106 --> 00:21:47,773 Sometimes I think I became a doctor 490 00:21:47,774 --> 00:21:48,941 just to prove him wrong. 491 00:21:48,942 --> 00:21:52,678 - I also became a doctor because of my dad. 492 00:21:52,679 --> 00:21:56,715 He had bipolar disorder. Or has? 493 00:21:56,716 --> 00:21:58,784 You want a good relationship with your kid, Van? 494 00:21:58,785 --> 00:22:02,021 One piece of advice. Don't lie to him. 495 00:22:02,022 --> 00:22:04,623 {\an8}** 496 00:22:04,624 --> 00:22:07,160 Alright. I'm gonna go for a walk. 497 00:22:17,070 --> 00:22:18,772 - Cancer? 498 00:22:21,808 --> 00:22:24,143 I suppose I convinced myself it was a miracle 499 00:22:24,144 --> 00:22:28,047 because I was too afraid of what the alternative could be. 500 00:22:28,048 --> 00:22:30,149 - What comes next? 501 00:22:30,150 --> 00:22:34,586 - Uh, well, if you want to live as long as possible, 502 00:22:34,587 --> 00:22:35,888 then that means surgery first, 503 00:22:35,889 --> 00:22:38,891 followed by chemotherapy and radiation. 504 00:22:38,892 --> 00:22:41,160 - But that's not a cure? 505 00:22:41,161 --> 00:22:42,628 - No. 506 00:22:42,629 --> 00:22:45,531 Unfortunately, even if we resected it, 507 00:22:45,532 --> 00:22:46,999 it never really goes away. 508 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:49,635 Becomes a question of how much our interventions 509 00:22:49,636 --> 00:22:52,671 are taking away from your quality of life. 510 00:22:52,672 --> 00:22:56,041 There is another option-- no intervention. 511 00:22:56,042 --> 00:22:58,777 You live as long as time allows. 512 00:22:58,778 --> 00:23:00,013 - Huh. 513 00:23:05,251 --> 00:23:07,787 Are we talking months or years? 514 00:23:10,156 --> 00:23:13,192 - We're talking weeks, at best, with no intervention, 515 00:23:13,193 --> 00:23:14,793 before the tumor grows 516 00:23:14,794 --> 00:23:17,463 and causes significant neurological deficits. 517 00:23:17,464 --> 00:23:19,531 - I appreciate your honesty. 518 00:23:19,532 --> 00:23:22,001 I have to imagine that being a doctor 519 00:23:22,002 --> 00:23:24,737 requires a certain level of duplicity, does it not? 520 00:23:24,738 --> 00:23:26,739 You have hope for your patients, 521 00:23:26,740 --> 00:23:29,942 even if you're fairly certain of the outcome. 522 00:23:29,943 --> 00:23:33,212 You give them time to get where they need to be. 523 00:23:33,213 --> 00:23:36,949 [ Sighs ] As for me... 524 00:23:36,950 --> 00:23:38,684 I've had my time. 525 00:23:38,685 --> 00:23:40,252 I'm done lying to myself. 526 00:23:40,253 --> 00:23:42,554 I don't want surgery. No chemo. 527 00:23:42,555 --> 00:23:44,189 The disease will progress, but until it does, 528 00:23:44,190 --> 00:23:46,925 I have no intention of telling my congregation. 529 00:23:46,926 --> 00:23:50,829 - Won't they be able to better support you if they know? 530 00:23:50,830 --> 00:23:54,199 - It's my job to support them, protect them. 531 00:23:54,200 --> 00:23:57,070 Keeping this a secret is what they need, and... 532 00:23:58,138 --> 00:24:01,807 [ Clears throat ] It's what I need, too. 533 00:24:01,808 --> 00:24:06,111 - Well, it is your news to share as you see fit. 534 00:24:06,112 --> 00:24:07,880 But... 535 00:24:07,881 --> 00:24:11,650 I mean, the truth will come out. 536 00:24:11,651 --> 00:24:14,053 Isn't it considered a sin to lie? 537 00:24:14,054 --> 00:24:15,754 - [ Chuckles ] 538 00:24:15,755 --> 00:24:19,258 - I like to think there are exceptions to every rule. 539 00:24:19,259 --> 00:24:21,660 {\an8}** 540 00:24:21,661 --> 00:24:24,730 I hope you're just moving offices. 541 00:24:24,731 --> 00:24:28,501 - Uh, something more, I think. I don't know. 542 00:24:29,302 --> 00:24:31,804 - Then I hope God gives you a sign. 543 00:24:31,805 --> 00:24:35,040 {\an8}** 544 00:24:35,041 --> 00:24:37,142 - Don't let me stop you. Take the elevator. 545 00:24:37,143 --> 00:24:41,280 - Shut up. I'm not leaving you in your time of need. 546 00:24:41,281 --> 00:24:43,682 - I don't know why I can't shake this. 547 00:24:43,683 --> 00:24:45,751 I have lost patients before. - [ Groans ] 548 00:24:45,752 --> 00:24:49,154 - We are trained to deal with this kind of thing. 549 00:24:49,155 --> 00:24:50,856 It's like my body escaped the elevator, 550 00:24:50,857 --> 00:24:52,758 but my mind is still trapped. 551 00:24:52,759 --> 00:24:55,627 - Well, maybe you should consider seeing a psychiatrist. 552 00:24:55,628 --> 00:24:58,297 They could prescribe a low dose of SSRI. 553 00:24:58,298 --> 00:25:00,799 It could help with any PTSD symptoms. 554 00:25:00,800 --> 00:25:04,169 - Thanks, but I'm not really the medication type. 555 00:25:04,170 --> 00:25:07,607 - And what type is that, exactly? 556 00:25:08,608 --> 00:25:10,109 - I can just power through. 557 00:25:10,110 --> 00:25:14,046 - Oh, and people who can't are what-- weak? 558 00:25:14,047 --> 00:25:16,615 - I didn't say that. - Then what were you gonna say? 559 00:25:16,616 --> 00:25:18,951 - Why are you making this a thing? 560 00:25:18,952 --> 00:25:21,320 I've just never been someone who needed drugs. 561 00:25:21,321 --> 00:25:23,055 - Because you're perfect. - No. [ Chuckles ] 562 00:25:23,056 --> 00:25:26,225 Because I don't need a crutch to get through my day. 563 00:25:26,226 --> 00:25:32,331 {\an8}** 564 00:25:32,332 --> 00:25:36,201 - Crutches take the pressure off. 565 00:25:36,202 --> 00:25:37,703 There's nothing wrong with that. 566 00:25:37,704 --> 00:25:39,171 My meds get me to a place 567 00:25:39,172 --> 00:25:42,775 where I am not in a constant state of anxiety... 568 00:25:42,776 --> 00:25:44,677 so I can actually enjoy my life. 569 00:25:44,678 --> 00:25:46,612 Something I would love to see you do one day. 570 00:25:46,613 --> 00:25:47,980 Y-You know what? 571 00:25:47,981 --> 00:25:50,616 I think I will actually take the elevator. 572 00:25:50,617 --> 00:25:51,817 {\an8}** 573 00:25:51,818 --> 00:25:55,154 - ♪ Hit me where the heart is ♪ 574 00:25:55,155 --> 00:25:58,090 ♪ Let me know ♪ 575 00:25:58,091 --> 00:26:00,225 [ Engine revs ] 576 00:26:00,226 --> 00:26:03,228 ♪ What the best part is ♪ 577 00:26:03,229 --> 00:26:05,864 ♪ I should grow ♪ 578 00:26:05,865 --> 00:26:08,133 - Dad? 579 00:26:08,134 --> 00:26:11,403 - ♪ Just hit me where the heart is ♪ 580 00:26:11,404 --> 00:26:15,708 ♪ I want to feel ♪ 581 00:26:15,709 --> 00:26:16,842 [ Siren wails ] 582 00:26:16,843 --> 00:26:19,745 ♪ Whenever you start is ♪ 583 00:26:19,746 --> 00:26:22,848 ♪ This is real ♪ 584 00:26:22,849 --> 00:26:25,050 ♪ Show me how to love you ♪ 585 00:26:25,051 --> 00:26:26,985 - Don't leave me! 586 00:26:26,986 --> 00:26:29,188 - ♪ Tell me how to hold you ♪ 587 00:26:29,189 --> 00:26:30,889 - I never will. 588 00:26:30,890 --> 00:26:35,194 ♪ I'll be who you want to ♪ 589 00:26:35,195 --> 00:26:39,331 ♪ Baby, let me know ♪ 590 00:26:39,332 --> 00:26:43,369 ♪ Show me how to please you ♪ 591 00:26:43,370 --> 00:26:45,771 ♪ Baby, this is real ♪ 592 00:26:45,772 --> 00:26:48,874 [ Tires screech ] 593 00:26:48,875 --> 00:26:52,177 ♪ Hit me where the heart is ♪ 594 00:26:52,178 --> 00:26:54,713 ♪ Let me know ♪ 595 00:26:54,714 --> 00:26:57,016 [ Wolf whimpers ] 596 00:26:57,017 --> 00:26:59,885 ♪ What the best part is ♪ 597 00:26:59,886 --> 00:27:02,187 ♪ I should grow ♪ - [ Siren wailing ] 598 00:27:02,188 --> 00:27:05,758 - My whole life... 599 00:27:05,759 --> 00:27:07,994 I thought my dad was dead. 600 00:27:08,995 --> 00:27:11,130 But the whole time, he was out there alive, 601 00:27:11,131 --> 00:27:14,200 choosing to stay away. 602 00:27:16,369 --> 00:27:19,239 It's unfathomable. What am I supposed to do with that? 603 00:27:20,140 --> 00:27:22,975 It's not that his presence is a miracle. 604 00:27:22,976 --> 00:27:25,712 It's that his absence was a lie. 605 00:27:26,946 --> 00:27:30,916 - Well, then, maybe the miracle was you, Wolf, 606 00:27:30,917 --> 00:27:33,919 that you're still here. 607 00:27:33,920 --> 00:27:38,091 Despite everything, after all you've been through... 608 00:27:38,992 --> 00:27:42,061 ...you choose to stay. 609 00:27:42,062 --> 00:27:43,829 {\an8}** 610 00:27:43,830 --> 00:27:46,098 - ♪ Please love me ♪ 611 00:27:46,099 --> 00:27:54,506 ♪ Love me like I used to ♪ 612 00:27:54,507 --> 00:27:58,478 ♪ When I was around ♪ 613 00:28:06,019 --> 00:28:06,720 - For real, Dr. Wolf was hammered. 614 00:28:08,188 --> 00:28:11,290 And it turns out... he's a sad drunk. 615 00:28:11,291 --> 00:28:14,126 - He's way more fun on PCP. - Hold the door! 616 00:28:14,127 --> 00:28:18,163 {\an8}** 617 00:28:18,164 --> 00:28:20,499 - Dr. Cabrera, please call Obstetrics. 618 00:28:20,500 --> 00:28:21,967 - Hm. 619 00:28:21,968 --> 00:28:24,070 - Dr. Cabrera, call Obstetrics. 620 00:28:25,905 --> 00:28:28,040 - Are we really doing this? 621 00:28:28,041 --> 00:28:30,275 What changed? - Yeah, what did the trick? 622 00:28:30,276 --> 00:28:33,379 - I've been working on some reassurance mantras. 623 00:28:33,380 --> 00:28:35,848 They helped me get in the right headspace. 624 00:28:35,849 --> 00:28:38,150 But that's just what works for me. 625 00:28:38,151 --> 00:28:41,253 I swear. I don't judge what works for you, Dana. 626 00:28:41,254 --> 00:28:43,122 You're not weak. 627 00:28:43,123 --> 00:28:45,924 You're the strongest person I know. 628 00:28:45,925 --> 00:28:49,995 And I know that it has been a messy few months. 629 00:28:49,996 --> 00:28:53,399 But I can't imagine being an intern without all of you. 630 00:28:53,400 --> 00:28:56,869 We make the best, albeit dysfunctional, team. 631 00:28:56,870 --> 00:29:00,006 But I'm gonna need you all to admit... 632 00:29:00,907 --> 00:29:02,541 ...I'm the quarterback. 633 00:29:02,542 --> 00:29:04,276 [ All chuckle ] 634 00:29:04,277 --> 00:29:11,150 {\an8}** 635 00:29:11,151 --> 00:29:12,818 - I want answers. 636 00:29:12,819 --> 00:29:14,387 - And you deserve them. 637 00:29:16,556 --> 00:29:18,057 [ Sighs ] 638 00:29:18,058 --> 00:29:21,427 When your father and I got married, 639 00:29:21,428 --> 00:29:24,096 I was 20 years old... 640 00:29:24,097 --> 00:29:26,198 and head-over-heels in love. 641 00:29:26,199 --> 00:29:28,033 - Until you found out he was sick? 642 00:29:28,034 --> 00:29:32,137 - No. His illness never changed my feelings. 643 00:29:32,138 --> 00:29:34,907 It only... 644 00:29:34,908 --> 00:29:36,041 complicated them. 645 00:29:36,042 --> 00:29:38,110 You became my priority. 646 00:29:38,111 --> 00:29:40,913 I was naive and arrogant, 647 00:29:40,914 --> 00:29:43,215 and I thought I could manage your father 648 00:29:43,216 --> 00:29:46,018 and protect you at the same time. 649 00:29:46,019 --> 00:29:49,555 I chose you, your happiness. 650 00:29:49,556 --> 00:29:51,357 I don't regret that choice. 651 00:29:51,358 --> 00:29:55,361 All those weekends that you spent at your dad's, 652 00:29:55,362 --> 00:29:57,863 I was so worried about you. 653 00:29:57,864 --> 00:30:00,165 - He went off his meds. It happens. 654 00:30:00,166 --> 00:30:02,334 - He left his 14-year-old son 655 00:30:02,335 --> 00:30:06,038 alone with a gun in the middle of nowhere. 656 00:30:06,039 --> 00:30:08,474 - So you honestly thought the best idea was to punish him 657 00:30:08,475 --> 00:30:12,544 and send him away and lie to me for 30 years! 658 00:30:12,545 --> 00:30:15,047 - No, Oliver. 659 00:30:15,048 --> 00:30:17,082 That's not what happened. 660 00:30:17,083 --> 00:30:19,952 - Okay. The park rangers found him. 661 00:30:19,953 --> 00:30:21,186 He was at Woodland Valley. 662 00:30:21,187 --> 00:30:23,022 They're gonna bring him to the hospital. 663 00:30:23,023 --> 00:30:24,990 So get up, okay? Let's go. 664 00:30:24,991 --> 00:30:26,925 - I'm not coming with you. 665 00:30:26,926 --> 00:30:30,496 And I-I won't be here when you get back. 666 00:30:30,497 --> 00:30:32,064 I could have gotten him killed. 667 00:30:32,065 --> 00:30:34,400 - Noah, he's okay. 668 00:30:34,401 --> 00:30:36,935 That's all that matters now. 669 00:30:36,936 --> 00:30:39,238 - I will not stay in his life 670 00:30:39,239 --> 00:30:42,374 and risk something like this happening again. 671 00:30:42,375 --> 00:30:44,176 - W-What are you proposing? 672 00:30:44,177 --> 00:30:46,679 - I'm proposing that you go to him without me. 673 00:30:46,680 --> 00:30:48,113 - [ Sighs ] 674 00:30:48,114 --> 00:30:50,116 - Tell Oliver that... 675 00:30:53,720 --> 00:30:56,989 Tell him that I died in the woods. 676 00:30:56,990 --> 00:30:58,957 - Oh, my God. - I'll leave town. 677 00:30:58,958 --> 00:31:00,392 I-I'll leave the country if I have to. 678 00:31:00,393 --> 00:31:02,928 - I'm not even going to entertain this, okay? 679 00:31:02,929 --> 00:31:05,397 - I'll never come back. I promise. 680 00:31:05,398 --> 00:31:08,200 You know Oliver. 681 00:31:08,201 --> 00:31:10,135 It'll be easier for him to process a death 682 00:31:10,136 --> 00:31:11,670 than an abandonment. 683 00:31:11,671 --> 00:31:14,106 Otherwise, he'll spend his whole life trying to find me, 684 00:31:14,107 --> 00:31:16,309 trying to fix me. - Noah. 685 00:31:17,711 --> 00:31:20,679 Our son is waiting for us. 686 00:31:20,680 --> 00:31:23,049 We need to go to him. 687 00:31:23,683 --> 00:31:26,052 - You know I'm right. 688 00:31:30,423 --> 00:31:33,259 I'm not well, Muriel. 689 00:31:35,061 --> 00:31:38,530 I am not capable of being his father. 690 00:31:38,531 --> 00:31:43,168 {\an8}** 691 00:31:43,169 --> 00:31:48,207 - You're asking me to lie to him for the rest of his life? 692 00:31:48,208 --> 00:31:51,211 You're asking me to break his heart? 693 00:31:53,013 --> 00:31:56,416 You can still get better. 694 00:31:58,118 --> 00:32:01,720 - Remember the poem on our wedding day? 695 00:32:01,721 --> 00:32:03,722 "The Country of Marriage"? 696 00:32:03,723 --> 00:32:07,459 {\an8}** 697 00:32:07,460 --> 00:32:11,563 What I'm learning to give you is my death to set you free of me. 698 00:32:11,564 --> 00:32:14,433 {\an8}** 699 00:32:14,434 --> 00:32:17,470 - I didn't know what I was going to say to you. 700 00:32:19,606 --> 00:32:21,440 Until I saw you at the hospital. 701 00:32:21,441 --> 00:32:24,710 I realized how close I came to losing you. 702 00:32:24,711 --> 00:32:27,780 I never felt so scared of my life. 703 00:32:27,781 --> 00:32:30,116 - Neither have I. 704 00:32:31,251 --> 00:32:33,652 He didn't need to go away. 705 00:32:33,653 --> 00:32:36,622 He needed us to help him. 706 00:32:36,623 --> 00:32:38,257 - What's that quote? 707 00:32:38,258 --> 00:32:40,359 Having a child is like 708 00:32:40,360 --> 00:32:45,164 letting your heart walk outside of your body forever. 709 00:32:45,165 --> 00:32:48,434 I went along with the lie because I couldn't bear 710 00:32:48,435 --> 00:32:52,538 the thought of anything happening to my heart. 711 00:32:52,539 --> 00:32:56,675 {\an8}** 712 00:32:56,676 --> 00:32:59,112 I'm sorry, Oliver. 713 00:33:00,547 --> 00:33:02,282 I'm sorry. 714 00:33:03,550 --> 00:33:05,285 I'm sorry. 715 00:33:06,553 --> 00:33:08,555 I'm so sorry. 716 00:33:09,622 --> 00:33:13,258 If I could have cured him, oh, my God, I would have. 717 00:33:13,259 --> 00:33:17,030 But illness ruined our family. 718 00:33:17,831 --> 00:33:19,366 - No. 719 00:33:21,434 --> 00:33:22,569 Mom... 720 00:33:25,438 --> 00:33:27,140 Secrets did. 721 00:33:31,478 --> 00:33:32,745 [ Bell tolls ] 722 00:33:32,746 --> 00:33:35,681 - Okay, everyone, it's okay to be nervous. 723 00:33:35,682 --> 00:33:37,550 Just remember... 724 00:33:38,685 --> 00:33:40,819 - Since we're in a church 725 00:33:40,820 --> 00:33:44,490 and in the spirit of confessions... 726 00:33:44,491 --> 00:33:47,760 my dad, who I thought was dead for 30 years, 727 00:33:47,761 --> 00:33:49,361 just walked back into my life. 728 00:33:49,362 --> 00:33:51,430 So in the coming days and weeks and months, 729 00:33:51,431 --> 00:33:54,500 I might be distracted, I might be preoccupied, 730 00:33:54,501 --> 00:33:56,301 and I might not be a very good leader. 731 00:33:56,302 --> 00:33:57,670 I just want you to know 732 00:33:57,671 --> 00:34:00,440 that even when I'm failing, I am trying. 733 00:34:02,642 --> 00:34:05,844 - Dr. Wolf, before you came to Bronx General, we were lost. 734 00:34:05,845 --> 00:34:08,447 - Yeah. It's true. We're your pack now. 735 00:34:08,448 --> 00:34:11,450 - Yeah, Dr. Wolf. Like it or not, we got you. 736 00:34:11,451 --> 00:34:14,621 [ Pastor Thomas speaking indistinctly ] 737 00:34:20,927 --> 00:34:23,595 - My sister died when I was younger. 738 00:34:23,596 --> 00:34:27,400 I'd give anything to have her back, even for a second. 739 00:34:28,635 --> 00:34:32,871 It must be hard to see it now, but you're lucky. 740 00:34:32,872 --> 00:34:35,808 - [ Clears throat ] 741 00:34:35,809 --> 00:34:38,544 Loss. 742 00:34:38,545 --> 00:34:41,880 It happens to all of us in big and small ways. 743 00:34:41,881 --> 00:34:45,184 In an instant, we can lose a loved one, 744 00:34:45,185 --> 00:34:48,187 our home... 745 00:34:48,188 --> 00:34:50,255 ourselves. 746 00:34:50,256 --> 00:34:52,224 And in these moments, 747 00:34:52,225 --> 00:34:54,159 all we can do is prop each other up 748 00:34:54,160 --> 00:34:56,595 as we do our best to move forward. 749 00:34:56,596 --> 00:35:02,634 {\an8}** 750 00:35:02,635 --> 00:35:05,637 There's something I'd like to share with you. 751 00:35:05,638 --> 00:35:11,643 I was recently diagnosed with a neurological illness. 752 00:35:11,644 --> 00:35:14,180 [ Congregation murmurs ] 753 00:35:15,682 --> 00:35:18,617 One that has no cure. 754 00:35:18,618 --> 00:35:20,953 But I don't want my condition to push people away. 755 00:35:20,954 --> 00:35:23,255 I want it to bring us together. 756 00:35:23,256 --> 00:35:27,393 Because truth, even when it's difficult, bonds us, 757 00:35:27,394 --> 00:35:31,398 helps us heal, and makes us brave. 758 00:35:32,699 --> 00:35:40,806 {\an8}** 759 00:35:40,807 --> 00:35:42,541 [ Exhales deeply ] 760 00:35:42,542 --> 00:35:43,876 {\an8}** 761 00:35:43,877 --> 00:35:46,845 - ♪ Come up to meet you ♪ 762 00:35:46,846 --> 00:35:49,748 ♪ Tell you I'm sorry ♪ 763 00:35:49,749 --> 00:35:55,522 ♪ You don't know how lovely you are ♪ 764 00:35:56,356 --> 00:35:59,291 ♪ I had to find you ♪ 765 00:35:59,292 --> 00:36:02,428 ♪ Tell you I need you ♪ 766 00:36:02,429 --> 00:36:08,300 ♪ Tell you I set you apart ♪ 767 00:36:08,301 --> 00:36:11,470 ♪ Tell me your secrets ♪ 768 00:36:11,471 --> 00:36:14,573 ♪ And ask me your questions ♪ 769 00:36:14,574 --> 00:36:18,677 ♪ Oh, let's go back to the start ♪ 770 00:36:18,678 --> 00:36:21,547 - I know I haven't been the best dad. 771 00:36:21,548 --> 00:36:23,716 And it's been really hard on your mom. 772 00:36:23,717 --> 00:36:25,718 - We don't need to talk about this right now, 773 00:36:25,719 --> 00:36:27,319 not in front of Liam. 774 00:36:27,320 --> 00:36:29,488 - Actually, I-I think it's important that we do. 775 00:36:29,489 --> 00:36:32,791 I want him to know. Both of you. 776 00:36:32,792 --> 00:36:37,563 I have a neurological condition called Mirror-Touch. 777 00:36:37,564 --> 00:36:39,698 And so if somebody feels sad 778 00:36:39,699 --> 00:36:43,469 or if they're angry or hurt or happy... 779 00:36:43,470 --> 00:36:47,539 - As neurologists, we chart the landscape of the human mind, 780 00:36:47,540 --> 00:36:50,743 venture into the unknown. 781 00:36:50,744 --> 00:36:52,344 - Uh, it's official. 782 00:36:52,345 --> 00:36:54,680 Our doctor-patient relationship has come to an end. 783 00:36:54,681 --> 00:36:56,048 - That went fast. 784 00:36:56,049 --> 00:36:58,617 Must be hard being good at what you do. 785 00:36:58,618 --> 00:37:01,687 Could fall down the stairs to keep coming in. 786 00:37:01,688 --> 00:37:03,389 - You know, if you took another bullet, 787 00:37:03,390 --> 00:37:05,324 we could really drag it out. 788 00:37:05,325 --> 00:37:07,026 - I'd take a bullet for you. 789 00:37:07,027 --> 00:37:19,338 {\an8}** 790 00:37:19,339 --> 00:37:21,807 [ Choir vocalizing ] 791 00:37:21,808 --> 00:37:22,975 - [ Exhales sharply ] 792 00:37:22,976 --> 00:37:25,010 [ Choir vocalizing ] 793 00:37:25,011 --> 00:37:27,646 {\an8}** 794 00:37:27,647 --> 00:37:28,914 [ Lock clicks ] 795 00:37:28,915 --> 00:37:34,653 {\an8}** 796 00:37:34,654 --> 00:37:39,825 ♪ Going back to the start ♪ 797 00:37:39,826 --> 00:37:46,632 {\an8}** 798 00:37:46,633 --> 00:37:48,634 - We are constantly finding new ways 799 00:37:48,635 --> 00:37:50,536 to forge connections in the brain. 800 00:37:50,537 --> 00:37:53,372 - I appreciate you coming to see me, Carol. 801 00:37:53,373 --> 00:37:56,443 I got a call from the Medical Board. 802 00:37:57,811 --> 00:37:59,511 A complaint was filed 803 00:37:59,512 --> 00:38:02,081 that you breached an ethical code 804 00:38:02,082 --> 00:38:04,683 regarding a conflict of interest 805 00:38:04,684 --> 00:38:08,053 in you continuing to treat a female patient. 806 00:38:08,054 --> 00:38:09,955 Is this true? 807 00:38:09,956 --> 00:38:12,891 - It's a very complex situation. 808 00:38:12,892 --> 00:38:15,961 - I'm sure it is. 809 00:38:15,962 --> 00:38:18,897 And I'm sorry, Carol, but I need to place you 810 00:38:18,898 --> 00:38:21,334 on administrative leave. 811 00:38:23,603 --> 00:38:25,738 - Like hell you do. 812 00:38:25,739 --> 00:38:29,742 - When we lose what defines us, how do we stay on course? 813 00:38:29,743 --> 00:38:31,810 Because in a life where there are no guarantees, 814 00:38:31,811 --> 00:38:35,114 we all need a ballast, anchor, to keep us tethered. 815 00:38:35,115 --> 00:38:37,883 - What are we toasting - I say we raise a glass to Ericka. 816 00:38:37,884 --> 00:38:40,085 For facing your fears. 817 00:38:40,086 --> 00:38:42,489 - I'll toast to that. - Uh-huh. 818 00:38:44,190 --> 00:38:46,125 - [ Chuckles ] - [ Glasses clink ] 819 00:38:46,126 --> 00:38:47,660 [ Glasses thud ] 820 00:38:48,628 --> 00:38:50,029 - Mnh! - Ooh, that's gross. 821 00:38:50,030 --> 00:38:51,964 - I'm getting another round. Ahh! 822 00:38:51,965 --> 00:38:54,967 - Hey, Van, get me water, man. - You got it. 823 00:38:54,968 --> 00:38:57,870 - You know, I actually got to apologize. 824 00:38:57,871 --> 00:39:00,139 I treated you like the prize to be won. 825 00:39:00,140 --> 00:39:01,740 - So I'm not a prize? - [ Laughs ] 826 00:39:01,741 --> 00:39:04,009 Of course you are. It's just... 827 00:39:04,010 --> 00:39:06,545 I used to have stadiums full of thousands of fans 828 00:39:06,546 --> 00:39:10,149 cheering me on. - Yeah, okay, here we go. 829 00:39:10,150 --> 00:39:12,418 - You've shown me I only need one. 830 00:39:12,419 --> 00:39:17,590 - ♪ Nobody said it was easy ♪ 831 00:39:18,591 --> 00:39:21,560 - Ooh, Dr. Nichols! Looking good! 832 00:39:21,561 --> 00:39:27,166 - ♪ No one ever said it would be so hard ♪ 833 00:39:27,167 --> 00:39:32,905 ♪ Going back to the start ♪ 834 00:39:32,906 --> 00:39:34,640 {\an8}** 835 00:39:34,641 --> 00:39:39,178 [ Choir vocalizing ] 836 00:39:39,179 --> 00:39:42,181 - Because life, much like the mind, 837 00:39:42,182 --> 00:39:43,582 is mysterious and vast. 838 00:39:43,583 --> 00:39:45,150 [ Cellphone buzzes ] 839 00:39:45,151 --> 00:39:49,088 When you've completely lost your way and everything is dark, 840 00:39:49,089 --> 00:39:51,190 how do you let the light back in? 841 00:39:51,191 --> 00:39:53,125 [ Bell jingles ] 842 00:39:53,126 --> 00:39:54,660 [ Horn blares ] 843 00:39:54,661 --> 00:39:56,195 [ Indistinct conversations ] 844 00:39:56,196 --> 00:39:59,064 - ♪ It's a little bit funny, this feeling inside ♪ 845 00:39:59,065 --> 00:40:04,670 ♪ I'm not one of those who can easily hide ♪ 846 00:40:04,671 --> 00:40:10,109 ♪ I don't make much money, but, boy, if I did ♪ 847 00:40:10,110 --> 00:40:12,077 - Hey, hon. What can I get you? 848 00:40:12,078 --> 00:40:15,814 - Um, just a tea, please. 849 00:40:15,815 --> 00:40:17,150 - You got it. 850 00:40:17,884 --> 00:40:20,819 - I tried this great maté once in Argentina. 851 00:40:20,820 --> 00:40:22,621 - I'm here to talk, but I'm not interested 852 00:40:22,622 --> 00:40:26,492 in stories from your time that you spent away. 853 00:40:26,493 --> 00:40:28,994 Why are you here? Why now? 854 00:40:28,995 --> 00:40:32,831 - I know it wasn't easy growing up with a dad 855 00:40:32,832 --> 00:40:34,800 who was struggling with mental illness. 856 00:40:34,801 --> 00:40:38,505 - It was, uh, harder growing up without a dad at all. 857 00:40:40,140 --> 00:40:44,878 - No matter what state I was in at any given moment... 858 00:40:45,945 --> 00:40:48,715 ...I always did the best I could. 859 00:40:50,283 --> 00:40:51,750 - [ Scoffs ] - Whether I was medicated 860 00:40:51,751 --> 00:40:54,086 or not, manic or depressed, 861 00:40:54,087 --> 00:40:56,889 when I was right or wrong... 862 00:40:56,890 --> 00:40:58,624 I tried. 863 00:40:58,625 --> 00:41:02,062 It was never my intention to hurt you. 864 00:41:03,329 --> 00:41:07,299 - Okay. So that's what you came back for now, to tell me that? 865 00:41:07,300 --> 00:41:08,835 - Yeah. 866 00:41:11,037 --> 00:41:13,773 Also... I'm sick. 867 00:41:16,643 --> 00:41:19,178 Not just bipolar. 868 00:41:19,179 --> 00:41:21,146 Something else. 869 00:41:21,147 --> 00:41:23,549 Something strange. 870 00:41:23,550 --> 00:41:27,119 I've seen specialists all over the world. 871 00:41:27,120 --> 00:41:29,923 No one knows what it is or how to help. 872 00:41:32,058 --> 00:41:33,926 I'm here... 873 00:41:33,927 --> 00:41:37,896 'cause I don't know how much time I have left. 874 00:41:37,897 --> 00:41:41,000 And you're the only one who can... 875 00:41:41,001 --> 00:41:42,669 hopefully... 876 00:41:44,337 --> 00:41:46,673 ...give us more time. 877 00:41:48,108 --> 00:41:49,608 [ Chuckles ] 878 00:41:49,609 --> 00:41:56,916 {\an8}** 879 00:42:01,388 --> 00:42:30,649 {\an8}** 880 00:42:30,650 --> 00:42:32,085 {\an8}Greg, move your head!