1 00:00:04,771 --> 00:00:06,440 -Previously on "Brilliant Minds"... 2 00:00:06,540 --> 00:00:07,941 -Why do you do that? -Do what? 3 00:00:07,975 --> 00:00:09,743 -Flirt with me. You have a girlfriend. 4 00:00:09,843 --> 00:00:11,311 -I had a fling. It's long over. 5 00:00:11,378 --> 00:00:13,505 -What is this? 6 00:00:13,572 --> 00:00:15,632 -An address where your father is. 7 00:00:15,666 --> 00:00:16,884 -I knew we'd meet sooner or later. 8 00:00:16,950 --> 00:00:18,552 -But who are you? -Sophia. 9 00:00:18,619 --> 00:00:21,655 -You want to go to Hudson Oaks to save Sophia? 10 00:00:21,688 --> 00:00:23,223 -I've got your file. I know how to get a keycard. 11 00:00:23,290 --> 00:00:24,850 We have to get out of here. 12 00:00:24,917 --> 00:00:27,461 -Check the file again. We're the same person. 13 00:00:27,494 --> 00:00:30,597 You made up a patient you could save. 14 00:00:30,697 --> 00:00:33,834 -On my watch, Dr. Wolf stays on as head of neuro. 15 00:00:33,867 --> 00:00:36,970 To that end, I would like to start the process to terminate 16 00:00:37,004 --> 00:00:39,406 the residency of Dr. Charlie Porter. 17 00:00:39,473 --> 00:00:42,125 -Oliver, you have a visitor. 18 00:00:45,012 --> 00:00:47,114 [ Thunder crashes ] 19 00:00:47,180 --> 00:00:50,417 -"That night, the boy saw a real wolf prowling his flock. 20 00:00:50,484 --> 00:00:53,278 He cried out, 'Wolf! Wolf!' 21 00:00:53,378 --> 00:00:55,422 But no one came. 22 00:00:55,489 --> 00:00:58,525 And the wolf gobbled up his flock." 23 00:00:58,558 --> 00:01:00,786 -No one believed him. 24 00:01:00,886 --> 00:01:02,729 -That's right. 25 00:01:02,829 --> 00:01:08,226 And the moral of the story is...no pet sheep. 26 00:01:08,293 --> 00:01:11,371 They attract hungry wolves. 27 00:01:11,438 --> 00:01:14,274 -[ Giggling ] 28 00:01:14,374 --> 00:01:16,343 -[ Sighs ] 29 00:01:16,476 --> 00:01:17,945 Bedtime. 30 00:01:18,011 --> 00:01:21,114 [ Thunder and lightning crash, wind howling ] 31 00:01:21,181 --> 00:01:24,051 The storm is nothing to be scared of. 32 00:01:24,117 --> 00:01:28,422 ♪♪ 33 00:01:28,488 --> 00:01:29,881 [Gasps] 34 00:01:34,761 --> 00:01:37,831 You stay here and, um... 35 00:01:37,898 --> 00:01:38,924 I'll be right back. 36 00:01:38,991 --> 00:01:42,769 [ Wind whistling ] 37 00:01:42,836 --> 00:01:46,373 [ Thunder and lightning continue crashing ] 38 00:01:46,506 --> 00:01:52,713 ♪♪ 39 00:01:52,846 --> 00:01:55,248 Hello? 40 00:01:55,315 --> 00:02:01,905 ♪♪ 41 00:02:01,938 --> 00:02:03,523 Hello? 42 00:02:03,624 --> 00:02:06,393 [ Breathing shakily ] 43 00:02:06,426 --> 00:02:08,862 -[ Loud thud ] - [ Gasps ] 44 00:02:08,962 --> 00:02:13,233 [ Voices whispering ] 45 00:02:13,333 --> 00:02:14,568 [ Whimpering ] 46 00:02:14,601 --> 00:02:17,262 [ Crying ] 47 00:02:19,623 --> 00:02:22,309 Quick. Get under the bed and hide. 48 00:02:23,769 --> 00:02:25,312 -I'm scared. 49 00:02:25,379 --> 00:02:28,949 -Mommy! -Okay. 50 00:02:29,016 --> 00:02:32,285 I'm not going to let anything hurt you. 51 00:02:32,352 --> 00:02:34,988 Okay. Hide under here. 52 00:02:35,088 --> 00:02:36,490 Don't move. -[ Doorknob rattling ] 53 00:02:36,556 --> 00:02:39,960 -Mommy, I'm scared. -Stay here. 54 00:02:40,027 --> 00:02:42,629 -What's happening? -[ Rattling continues ] 55 00:02:42,696 --> 00:02:46,224 Mommy! -[ Groaning ] 56 00:02:46,324 --> 00:02:49,603 Leave us alone! 57 00:02:49,736 --> 00:02:55,308 ♪♪ 58 00:02:55,375 --> 00:03:00,714 ♪♪ 59 00:03:00,781 --> 00:03:05,510 -♪ The night I met you, I thought that I would die ♪ 60 00:03:05,577 --> 00:03:11,158 ♪ My world was pennies and sorry from an operator ♪ 61 00:03:11,191 --> 00:03:15,128 ♪ I left you, I told you a lie ♪ 62 00:03:15,228 --> 00:03:19,332 ♪ My own reflection wouldn't look me in my eye ♪ 63 00:03:19,399 --> 00:03:23,570 ♪ I wanna love myself ♪ 64 00:03:23,637 --> 00:03:25,238 ♪ Yeah ♪ 65 00:03:25,338 --> 00:03:30,110 ♪ Like there's no one else ♪ 66 00:03:30,210 --> 00:03:33,880 ♪ That's why you gotta help me out ♪ 67 00:03:35,849 --> 00:03:40,287 ♪ Some nights I stay awake ♪ 68 00:03:40,387 --> 00:03:45,492 ♪ Feeling so alone ♪ 69 00:03:45,559 --> 00:03:47,894 ♪ And you left me ♪ 70 00:03:47,994 --> 00:03:51,631 ♪ You left me alone, man ♪ 71 00:03:51,732 --> 00:03:57,204 ♪ You know I'll always cry for you ♪ 72 00:03:57,237 --> 00:04:00,073 ♪ I know ♪ 73 00:04:03,401 --> 00:04:06,863 -[ Screaming ] 74 00:04:06,897 --> 00:04:14,813 ♪♪ 75 00:04:14,913 --> 00:04:17,657 [ Whimpering ] 76 00:04:17,758 --> 00:04:21,328 -Hey, my name is Oliver. 77 00:04:21,394 --> 00:04:25,298 Uh...can I help you? 78 00:04:25,398 --> 00:04:28,935 -Stay away from us! 79 00:04:29,002 --> 00:04:30,604 -Oliver, stay right where you are. 80 00:04:30,670 --> 00:04:32,205 Regan, we need you to calm down. 81 00:04:32,305 --> 00:04:34,641 -[ Whimpering ] 82 00:04:34,708 --> 00:04:36,710 -Regan, you need to calm down. -No! 83 00:04:36,743 --> 00:04:39,437 [ Screaming ] -Calm down. 84 00:04:39,504 --> 00:04:41,648 Oliver, please go back to your room! 85 00:04:41,715 --> 00:04:43,350 Regan, stop! -[ Crying ] 86 00:04:43,450 --> 00:04:45,085 -Calm down! 87 00:04:45,152 --> 00:04:53,093 ♪♪ 88 00:04:53,160 --> 00:05:01,092 ♪♪ 89 00:05:01,126 --> 00:05:02,969 -Mm. 90 00:05:05,172 --> 00:05:07,774 -Mm. -Hey. 91 00:05:07,841 --> 00:05:10,610 I'm pretty sure we said we wouldn't do this at work. 92 00:05:10,677 --> 00:05:14,139 -And I'm pretty sure you're the one who started it. 93 00:05:14,206 --> 00:05:17,317 -How about we pick this up tonight? 94 00:05:17,417 --> 00:05:20,320 -I'd love to, but I got plans with a friend. 95 00:05:20,387 --> 00:05:23,657 Tomorrow? -Sure. Tomorrow's great. 96 00:05:23,723 --> 00:05:25,383 -Okay. 97 00:05:25,450 --> 00:05:27,953 [ Elevator doors open ] 98 00:05:29,462 --> 00:05:31,323 -Good morning, docs. 99 00:05:31,389 --> 00:05:34,234 -Uh, this is me. -Alright. 100 00:05:34,334 --> 00:05:36,303 -Good morning, Justine. 101 00:05:36,369 --> 00:05:41,291 ♪♪ 102 00:05:41,324 --> 00:05:44,669 -I will die if we don't get this apartment. 103 00:05:44,736 --> 00:05:46,513 Look at the rooftop garden. 104 00:05:46,580 --> 00:05:48,481 Oh, this room could be a nursery. 105 00:05:48,548 --> 00:05:50,217 -[ Chuckles ] 106 00:05:50,283 --> 00:05:52,085 [ Knock on door ] 107 00:05:52,152 --> 00:05:54,020 -Dr. Pedrosa. -Dr. Landon. 108 00:05:54,087 --> 00:05:55,639 -What a pleasant surprise. 109 00:05:55,672 --> 00:05:57,457 Sorry to barge in, but... 110 00:05:57,490 --> 00:05:59,859 Oh, this used to be my office. 111 00:06:01,228 --> 00:06:03,530 -Alright. I'll send you the app to sign. 112 00:06:05,098 --> 00:06:06,950 Lovely to see you, Doctor. 113 00:06:10,036 --> 00:06:11,830 -I'd heard rumors about the treadmill, 114 00:06:11,863 --> 00:06:14,933 but no one mentioned I'd find Dr. Pedrosa in here. 115 00:06:15,000 --> 00:06:17,377 -Yes, well, I don't usually update the mothers of my exes 116 00:06:17,444 --> 00:06:19,337 on my relationship status. 117 00:06:20,772 --> 00:06:22,315 Wolf knows. -He's coming home soon, 118 00:06:22,349 --> 00:06:24,484 and I'd like to set him up for success. 119 00:06:24,551 --> 00:06:26,386 -Our goals are aligned. 120 00:06:26,453 --> 00:06:29,756 -So where are you in the process of firing Dr. Porter? 121 00:06:29,823 --> 00:06:31,524 I heard what happened at the gala. 122 00:06:31,591 --> 00:06:34,728 How he told Oliver about Noah's apartment. 123 00:06:34,794 --> 00:06:38,064 Charlie cannot be here when Oliver returns. 124 00:06:38,131 --> 00:06:40,458 -Yes, well, I took my concerns to the board, 125 00:06:40,558 --> 00:06:43,937 and they opened a formal review. But not easy to fire a resident. 126 00:06:44,004 --> 00:06:45,855 Especially a competent one. 127 00:06:45,889 --> 00:06:48,041 -Well, I hired Charlie. I'm the one who put him here. 128 00:06:48,108 --> 00:06:51,695 So if I have to get rid of him on my own, 129 00:06:51,728 --> 00:06:54,873 believe me, I will do it. 130 00:06:57,918 --> 00:07:00,812 -Didn't you say you, uh, used to swim every day? 131 00:07:00,912 --> 00:07:02,080 -I had no idea 132 00:07:02,147 --> 00:07:03,924 Hudson Oaks has such nice facilities. 133 00:07:03,990 --> 00:07:06,693 -Oh, we don't. Lost the lifeguards due to budget cuts. 134 00:07:06,760 --> 00:07:09,496 But I thought we could dip our toes in, 135 00:07:09,596 --> 00:07:10,755 give you something to look forward to. 136 00:07:10,822 --> 00:07:12,032 -There's no need. 137 00:07:12,132 --> 00:07:13,867 The Hudson's too cold this time of year. 138 00:07:13,900 --> 00:07:17,771 And I think my membership to the Y has lapsed. 139 00:07:19,931 --> 00:07:25,111 -Well, I'm going to level with you, Wolf. 140 00:07:26,237 --> 00:07:28,248 Re-entry can be hard. 141 00:07:28,281 --> 00:07:32,677 Reconnecting with the things that make you you... 142 00:07:32,744 --> 00:07:34,738 more important now than ever. 143 00:07:34,771 --> 00:07:38,958 ♪♪ 144 00:07:39,025 --> 00:07:42,195 [ Sighs ] Don't be afraid to... 145 00:07:42,262 --> 00:07:44,230 jump back in to the deep end. 146 00:07:44,364 --> 00:07:49,736 ♪♪ 147 00:07:49,869 --> 00:07:55,300 ♪♪ 148 00:07:55,367 --> 00:07:56,701 -Dr. Thorne paged you, too? 149 00:07:56,801 --> 00:07:58,311 -Yeah. Alright. 150 00:07:58,378 --> 00:07:59,746 Young Mormon couple on their honeymoon in the big city. 151 00:07:59,879 --> 00:08:01,781 And let me tell you, they are bright eyed. 152 00:08:01,848 --> 00:08:03,249 -On a scale from "I heart New York" tees 153 00:08:03,283 --> 00:08:05,118 to Statue of Liberty visors... 154 00:08:05,185 --> 00:08:07,420 -Like, excited to see the show they heard is all the rage -- 155 00:08:07,454 --> 00:08:09,280 "Hamilton." -Oh. 156 00:08:09,314 --> 00:08:10,757 -Look, I know that psych is Dr. Pierce's wheelhouse, 157 00:08:10,790 --> 00:08:12,275 but the wife has a head injury, 158 00:08:12,308 --> 00:08:13,693 and she's being cagey about how she got it. 159 00:08:13,760 --> 00:08:14,994 -And the husband? 160 00:08:15,061 --> 00:08:17,288 -Seems protective, overly invested, 161 00:08:17,322 --> 00:08:19,265 all the warning signs of DV. Patient says 162 00:08:19,332 --> 00:08:21,334 she feels more comfy with a female doctor, so... 163 00:08:21,401 --> 00:08:24,287 -You called all the ones you know. 164 00:08:24,320 --> 00:08:27,040 -Yeah. 165 00:08:27,140 --> 00:08:29,843 Come on. Hey, Whitney, Zeke, 166 00:08:29,909 --> 00:08:31,945 our neuro psych team is here to have a look. 167 00:08:32,045 --> 00:08:35,115 Can you fill them in? -I'm such a klutz. 168 00:08:35,148 --> 00:08:37,675 I can't believe we're spending our honeymoon in the E.R. 169 00:08:37,742 --> 00:08:39,119 We're supposed to be sipping 170 00:08:39,152 --> 00:08:41,287 frozen hot chocolates at Serendipity. 171 00:08:41,388 --> 00:08:43,456 -Oh. 172 00:08:43,523 --> 00:08:45,859 Can you move your hand for me, please? 173 00:08:50,155 --> 00:08:51,356 -Tell them about the other part. 174 00:08:51,423 --> 00:08:53,466 I hurt you. Your -- -No. 175 00:08:53,500 --> 00:08:55,827 No, I'm -- I'm fine. 176 00:08:57,971 --> 00:09:01,741 -Um, there's a whole lot of people in this room. 177 00:09:01,808 --> 00:09:04,544 Whitney, can we chat alone? 178 00:09:06,012 --> 00:09:07,814 -Um, why don't you follow me? 179 00:09:07,847 --> 00:09:09,616 I can take you to the cafeteria, 180 00:09:09,682 --> 00:09:11,509 and you can get some water or something to eat. 181 00:09:11,543 --> 00:09:12,719 Are you hungry? 182 00:09:16,990 --> 00:09:20,493 -[ Sighs ] Congratulations on your marriage. 183 00:09:20,627 --> 00:09:24,122 -Thank you. It was the best day of my life. 184 00:09:24,189 --> 00:09:27,025 -But then something went wrong. 185 00:09:27,058 --> 00:09:29,969 You got hurt. 186 00:09:30,036 --> 00:09:33,640 Is Zeke ever rough? 187 00:09:33,740 --> 00:09:37,368 -Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no, it's not like that. 188 00:09:40,513 --> 00:09:41,998 It was actually... 189 00:09:43,650 --> 00:09:45,668 -Your first time together? 190 00:09:48,555 --> 00:09:50,648 -It was going fine, you know. 191 00:09:50,715 --> 00:09:53,560 We were kissing and... 192 00:09:53,593 --> 00:09:56,362 Yeah, it just -- It hurt so bad, 193 00:09:56,396 --> 00:10:00,658 and my body just...freaked out. 194 00:10:00,725 --> 00:10:02,635 I, like, lost control. 195 00:10:02,702 --> 00:10:05,271 Now I've ruined everything, so... 196 00:10:05,338 --> 00:10:07,874 -No, no. Nothing's ruined. 197 00:10:08,007 --> 00:10:10,543 We'll figure it out, okay? 198 00:10:10,677 --> 00:10:11,945 -Okay. 199 00:10:16,850 --> 00:10:19,911 -And here you go. Next, please. 200 00:10:21,221 --> 00:10:23,256 Here's your meds. 201 00:10:23,323 --> 00:10:27,694 ♪♪ 202 00:10:27,760 --> 00:10:31,698 -Hey, what do you guys know about that woman over there? 203 00:10:31,764 --> 00:10:34,459 -What are you doing? -She could have seen you. 204 00:10:34,526 --> 00:10:37,237 -Are you guys scared of her? 205 00:10:37,270 --> 00:10:40,607 -No. You just don't point at the Howler of Hudson Oaks. 206 00:10:40,640 --> 00:10:42,742 At least let me get my asthma medication first. 207 00:10:42,775 --> 00:10:44,636 -That is a ludicrous moniker. -What? 208 00:10:44,702 --> 00:10:46,779 You haven't heard her howling? -No. 209 00:10:46,846 --> 00:10:49,307 -I was here eight months ago when she first arrived. 210 00:10:49,374 --> 00:10:50,917 Her face was droopy, like a witch. 211 00:10:50,950 --> 00:10:52,977 And then she disappeared for a few weeks. 212 00:10:53,044 --> 00:10:54,854 And now she's back and look. 213 00:10:54,954 --> 00:10:56,489 -No droop. 214 00:10:56,556 --> 00:10:58,149 How do you explain that except black magic? 215 00:10:58,216 --> 00:11:02,462 -Well, facial palsy is an interesting symptom, 216 00:11:02,529 --> 00:11:05,098 and it brings up a number of questions. 217 00:11:05,164 --> 00:11:07,433 Excuse me. -Give me a minute. 218 00:11:07,500 --> 00:11:10,128 Oliver, have you got a minute? 219 00:11:11,062 --> 00:11:13,106 -Uh, for you, uh, anything. 220 00:11:13,139 --> 00:11:16,134 -I hear you've been snooping around one of our patients. 221 00:11:16,167 --> 00:11:18,503 Regan? -Snooping? No. 222 00:11:18,570 --> 00:11:20,405 -What were you just talking about? 223 00:11:20,471 --> 00:11:22,115 -That's patient confidentiality. 224 00:11:22,248 --> 00:11:25,577 -That is in a doctor-patient relationship. 225 00:11:25,643 --> 00:11:27,178 In here, you are not a doctor. 226 00:11:27,245 --> 00:11:28,955 You are a patient. 227 00:11:29,022 --> 00:11:30,857 At least for another day or two. 228 00:11:30,924 --> 00:11:34,127 -Right. Um, I -- I was meaning to ask you, 229 00:11:34,160 --> 00:11:37,430 what if I'm not ready to go quite yet? 230 00:11:37,530 --> 00:11:41,501 If I need to stay a little bit longer? 231 00:11:41,568 --> 00:11:43,970 -I wouldn't want you to leave before you're ready. 232 00:11:44,070 --> 00:11:45,939 I can talk to your insurance if you like. 233 00:11:46,039 --> 00:11:48,825 -Would you? I think that it would ease my mind. 234 00:11:48,858 --> 00:11:50,310 -Okay. 235 00:11:50,376 --> 00:11:52,512 -[ Sighs ] Thank you. 236 00:11:52,579 --> 00:11:59,552 ♪♪ 237 00:12:03,489 --> 00:12:04,691 [ Tape dispenser cuts tape ] 238 00:12:04,791 --> 00:12:07,527 -Uhh! 239 00:12:07,594 --> 00:12:13,199 ♪♪ 240 00:12:13,266 --> 00:12:18,805 ♪♪ 241 00:12:18,838 --> 00:12:22,191 -Hi. -[ Gasps ] 242 00:12:22,225 --> 00:12:31,242 ♪♪ 243 00:12:31,342 --> 00:12:33,002 -I figured you'd want it back. 244 00:12:34,087 --> 00:12:35,880 Are those your children? 245 00:12:38,925 --> 00:12:42,020 -They were. -Can I ask what happened? 246 00:12:42,086 --> 00:12:48,885 ♪♪ 247 00:12:48,918 --> 00:12:51,771 -I was only trying to protect them. 248 00:12:53,231 --> 00:12:54,841 -From what? 249 00:12:54,907 --> 00:12:58,227 -From what lived in that house. 250 00:12:58,261 --> 00:13:00,880 ♪♪ 251 00:13:00,913 --> 00:13:02,749 [ Thunder crashes ] 252 00:13:02,782 --> 00:13:05,051 I felt it the moment that we moved in. 253 00:13:05,151 --> 00:13:07,720 Something there. 254 00:13:07,754 --> 00:13:10,256 Something sinister. 255 00:13:10,390 --> 00:13:14,927 I thought I could shelter them by absorbing it myself. 256 00:13:14,994 --> 00:13:17,063 And it worked. 257 00:13:17,163 --> 00:13:19,424 It's in me now. 258 00:13:19,457 --> 00:13:21,167 [ Loud thud ] 259 00:13:21,234 --> 00:13:26,739 I am the one who is haunted. 260 00:13:26,806 --> 00:13:30,101 [ Breathing shakily ] 261 00:13:33,413 --> 00:13:35,581 -Vagi-what? -It's called vaginismus. 262 00:13:35,682 --> 00:13:37,317 It's a condition 263 00:13:37,383 --> 00:13:39,686 where the body painfully contracts during penetration. 264 00:13:39,752 --> 00:13:42,947 It's entirely voluntary and it's not your fault. 265 00:13:42,980 --> 00:13:46,592 -But why? I mean, I love him. 266 00:13:46,659 --> 00:13:48,895 So what's wrong with me? 267 00:13:48,928 --> 00:13:52,498 -Processing how we feel about sex and sexuality, 268 00:13:52,632 --> 00:13:54,067 it's really simple, 269 00:13:54,133 --> 00:13:56,602 but it can be even more complicated 270 00:13:56,669 --> 00:13:58,463 when shame is ingrained. 271 00:13:58,496 --> 00:14:01,441 And for many of my patients from strong religious backgrounds, 272 00:14:01,474 --> 00:14:04,844 there can be...a lot to unlearn. 273 00:14:06,437 --> 00:14:08,648 -It's just we've waited all this time, 274 00:14:08,681 --> 00:14:10,808 and now we can't do it. 275 00:14:10,842 --> 00:14:13,469 -There are a lot of treatment options out there -- 276 00:14:13,503 --> 00:14:15,888 talk therapy, physical therapy, 277 00:14:15,955 --> 00:14:17,490 vaginal dilators, 278 00:14:17,590 --> 00:14:20,827 and for more severe cases, Botox can even be helpful. 279 00:14:20,927 --> 00:14:25,156 -I got my elevens done before the wedding. 280 00:14:25,189 --> 00:14:26,432 -[ Chuckles ] 281 00:14:26,466 --> 00:14:29,669 Okay, I'm going to refer you 282 00:14:29,702 --> 00:14:35,208 to a pelvic floor specialist and a psychotherapist in Utah, 283 00:14:35,274 --> 00:14:37,343 and we will leave the neurotoxins 284 00:14:37,477 --> 00:14:39,112 in your face for now. Okay? 285 00:14:39,178 --> 00:14:41,114 -Wait. No. 286 00:14:41,180 --> 00:14:43,216 Will you help me? 287 00:14:43,282 --> 00:14:44,784 Just... 288 00:14:44,817 --> 00:14:47,220 if a fancy New York City doctor can't fix this, 289 00:14:47,286 --> 00:14:49,180 then I don't know who can. 290 00:14:49,213 --> 00:14:51,190 -Really, Mom? 291 00:14:51,224 --> 00:14:53,159 -Don't fight me on this. 292 00:14:53,192 --> 00:14:55,061 -Fibrosa. 293 00:14:55,161 --> 00:14:56,529 -I gave you polyp. 294 00:14:56,662 --> 00:14:58,664 And as your mother, I gave you life. 295 00:14:58,698 --> 00:15:00,900 Count it. 296 00:15:00,967 --> 00:15:02,652 -Um... 297 00:15:06,063 --> 00:15:09,308 I know how much you hate places like this. 298 00:15:09,375 --> 00:15:12,236 It means a lot that you came. 299 00:15:12,370 --> 00:15:15,815 -I'm not even sure why I was so scared. 300 00:15:15,882 --> 00:15:17,909 All those memories with your father, I suppose. 301 00:15:18,042 --> 00:15:19,719 But this is different. 302 00:15:19,752 --> 00:15:23,214 When I see how good this place has been for you, 303 00:15:23,247 --> 00:15:26,759 something has been healed for me as well. 304 00:15:27,760 --> 00:15:31,347 -[ Speaks indistinctly ] 305 00:15:33,566 --> 00:15:36,227 -These are for you. 306 00:15:39,672 --> 00:15:41,224 -Um... 307 00:15:41,257 --> 00:15:46,237 I am thinking of staying a little longer. 308 00:15:46,270 --> 00:15:47,530 -Oh. 309 00:15:50,383 --> 00:15:54,787 Do not sneak an acronym in while you're giving me news. 310 00:15:55,922 --> 00:16:00,718 But if you feel like you need more time, take it. 311 00:16:00,785 --> 00:16:01,894 -Let's go. -Please tell her it's from us. 312 00:16:01,928 --> 00:16:03,296 Thank you. 313 00:16:03,396 --> 00:16:04,889 -She doesn't even know we're here. 314 00:16:04,956 --> 00:16:06,466 -Speaking of which, don't be mad at me. 315 00:16:06,566 --> 00:16:09,602 But I did let myself into your house. 316 00:16:09,635 --> 00:16:11,137 The mail was piling up. 317 00:16:11,204 --> 00:16:14,040 -I, uh... Just give me one minute. 318 00:16:14,207 --> 00:16:18,603 ♪♪ 319 00:16:18,636 --> 00:16:20,480 Uh, excuse me. 320 00:16:20,580 --> 00:16:23,316 Do you know Regan? 321 00:16:23,449 --> 00:16:26,986 -I'm Lucy. This is Rex. We're her kids. 322 00:16:27,119 --> 00:16:29,322 -Oh, uh, I'm a friend of your mom's. 323 00:16:29,422 --> 00:16:30,723 -A friend? That's a first. 324 00:16:30,790 --> 00:16:33,593 -Rex. -I'm also a doctor, 325 00:16:33,659 --> 00:16:35,795 and I would really love to know a little bit more 326 00:16:35,862 --> 00:16:38,631 about your mom, how she was before the psychosis. 327 00:16:38,731 --> 00:16:41,901 -To be honest, I don't really remember a time before. 328 00:16:41,934 --> 00:16:43,828 -How long has she been here? 329 00:16:43,928 --> 00:16:46,130 -She's been in and out of hospitals for the past 13 years. 330 00:16:46,163 --> 00:16:48,541 -I'm trying to convince Lucy this is the best place 331 00:16:48,608 --> 00:16:50,409 for Mom long term. 332 00:16:50,476 --> 00:16:53,129 -Unlike Rex, I remember a time 333 00:16:53,162 --> 00:16:56,182 when Mom was...different. 334 00:16:57,183 --> 00:17:00,186 He can't see it, but she's still in there. 335 00:17:01,320 --> 00:17:03,681 -What are you still doing here?! 336 00:17:03,814 --> 00:17:06,475 Go, go, go! 337 00:17:06,509 --> 00:17:07,952 -Hey! 338 00:17:08,019 --> 00:17:11,314 -Go! 339 00:17:11,347 --> 00:17:16,961 ♪♪ 340 00:17:17,028 --> 00:17:21,832 ♪♪ 341 00:17:27,638 --> 00:17:29,540 -The Hudson Oaks Howler, huh? 342 00:17:29,640 --> 00:17:31,250 You sure know how to pick 'em. 343 00:17:31,284 --> 00:17:33,519 -Hallucinations, catatonia, voice modulation, 344 00:17:33,619 --> 00:17:35,988 facial contortions, even choreoathetosis. 345 00:17:36,088 --> 00:17:38,115 Historically, these are all telltale signs 346 00:17:38,149 --> 00:17:39,859 of demonic possession, right? 347 00:17:39,926 --> 00:17:42,495 Except now we know them to be neurological symptoms. 348 00:17:42,595 --> 00:17:44,664 The perfect example of our innate desire 349 00:17:44,730 --> 00:17:47,300 to attribute the physiological as philosophical, 350 00:17:47,366 --> 00:17:49,902 imbue suffering with meaning. 351 00:17:49,936 --> 00:17:51,462 Not to mention, 352 00:17:51,529 --> 00:17:53,372 autoimmune encephalitis disproportionately affects 353 00:17:53,439 --> 00:17:57,702 women, who also happen to be the primary victims of exorcisms. 354 00:18:00,071 --> 00:18:03,074 I'm sorry, I don't -- You don't think that I'm -- 355 00:18:03,174 --> 00:18:05,051 -I think you're on to something. 356 00:18:05,151 --> 00:18:06,419 Yeah. 357 00:18:06,485 --> 00:18:08,187 And you're the only doctor 358 00:18:08,287 --> 00:18:09,914 who doesn't need expensive scans to find a neurological needle 359 00:18:10,014 --> 00:18:12,758 in this psychiatric haystack. 360 00:18:14,627 --> 00:18:15,928 Keep digging. 361 00:18:19,357 --> 00:18:21,667 -You know you don't have to be here. 362 00:18:21,701 --> 00:18:23,194 -I know. I want to be here. 363 00:18:23,260 --> 00:18:27,340 ♪♪ 364 00:18:27,406 --> 00:18:31,610 Plus, as chief, it's my job to look out for my doctors. 365 00:18:31,677 --> 00:18:32,745 -Yeah. 366 00:18:32,812 --> 00:18:38,509 ♪♪ 367 00:18:38,542 --> 00:18:41,253 -Dr. Landon, nice to see you. 368 00:18:41,354 --> 00:18:43,289 -Hmm. 369 00:18:46,784 --> 00:18:48,794 -What is this? 370 00:18:50,930 --> 00:18:53,632 An open residency spot at NYU? 371 00:18:53,733 --> 00:18:55,034 -One of the most competitive 372 00:18:55,067 --> 00:18:57,236 neurology placements in the nation. 373 00:18:57,303 --> 00:18:59,463 And it's all yours... 374 00:18:59,530 --> 00:19:01,941 on one condition. 375 00:19:02,041 --> 00:19:04,710 You never step foot in Bronx General again. 376 00:19:04,777 --> 00:19:07,046 And don't even think about coming near my son. 377 00:19:07,113 --> 00:19:08,581 -It was one address. 378 00:19:08,681 --> 00:19:11,409 I never thought that it would go this far. 379 00:19:11,475 --> 00:19:13,686 When you recruited me, I was so grateful. 380 00:19:13,753 --> 00:19:15,921 -And look how you repaid me. 381 00:19:15,988 --> 00:19:18,324 If your locker isn't empty in the next 24 hours, 382 00:19:18,357 --> 00:19:21,585 I will see to it that you are removed the old-fashioned way. 383 00:19:21,652 --> 00:19:31,470 ♪♪ 384 00:19:31,537 --> 00:19:36,375 ♪♪ 385 00:19:36,409 --> 00:19:42,006 ♪♪ 386 00:19:42,073 --> 00:19:44,517 [ Knock on door ] 387 00:19:50,923 --> 00:19:53,926 -Regan? 388 00:19:53,993 --> 00:19:57,088 I'm sorry to be so intrusive, 389 00:19:57,154 --> 00:20:00,366 but we don't have much time before my discharge. 390 00:20:01,350 --> 00:20:03,786 Can you please draw a clock for me? 391 00:20:07,873 --> 00:20:11,602 Regan, I don't believe that your affliction is otherworldly 392 00:20:11,635 --> 00:20:12,912 or psychiatric even. 393 00:20:12,945 --> 00:20:14,713 But I need more evidence. 394 00:20:19,952 --> 00:20:29,428 ♪♪ 395 00:20:29,462 --> 00:20:38,796 ♪♪ 396 00:20:38,863 --> 00:20:42,066 I know that this is confusing, but if I'm right, 397 00:20:42,166 --> 00:20:44,376 there may be a cure for your torment. 398 00:20:44,477 --> 00:20:46,846 All of your neurons and the person you were 399 00:20:46,912 --> 00:20:48,681 are under siege, Regan. 400 00:20:48,748 --> 00:20:51,750 Your brain is on fire. 401 00:20:55,221 --> 00:20:57,248 -Oh, God. 402 00:20:57,348 --> 00:21:00,217 I think we're in diminishing returns territory. 403 00:21:01,260 --> 00:21:03,329 Why don't we table our cases till morning 404 00:21:03,395 --> 00:21:06,157 and get to bed at a reasonable hour? 405 00:21:06,223 --> 00:21:08,300 Hmm? -You go ahead. 406 00:21:08,367 --> 00:21:09,768 I need more time. 407 00:21:13,063 --> 00:21:16,175 -How about a little break before I go? 408 00:21:16,242 --> 00:21:20,679 -That's tempting. I'm...distracted. 409 00:21:20,713 --> 00:21:22,781 -Let me help you. 410 00:21:26,318 --> 00:21:28,254 Wait. This is -- 411 00:21:28,354 --> 00:21:30,623 This is a patient at Hudson Oaks. 412 00:21:31,824 --> 00:21:34,093 -Yes, we were in the red through November. 413 00:21:34,160 --> 00:21:36,195 Occupancy picked up shortly after and -- 414 00:21:36,262 --> 00:21:38,497 -Regan needs a full workup at a non-psychiatric hospital. 415 00:21:38,531 --> 00:21:40,099 -I have to call you back. 416 00:21:40,199 --> 00:21:43,602 -Her condition is likely neurological, maybe autoimmune, 417 00:21:43,669 --> 00:21:45,271 a space-occupying lesion, even lymphoma. 418 00:21:45,371 --> 00:21:46,964 But the longer she goes untreated, the worse it gets. 419 00:21:47,031 --> 00:21:48,507 -Okay. Slow down. 420 00:21:48,541 --> 00:21:50,409 You think every doctor over the past decade was wrong? 421 00:21:50,476 --> 00:21:52,545 -She is exhibiting signs of increased intracranial pressure, 422 00:21:52,611 --> 00:21:54,547 visual field deficits and papilledema. 423 00:21:54,580 --> 00:21:56,248 So I can't say for certain, 424 00:21:56,315 --> 00:21:59,643 but I have a hunch between 1% and 5% of patients 425 00:21:59,743 --> 00:22:01,086 who are diagnosed with schizophrenia 426 00:22:01,187 --> 00:22:02,721 actually have an underlying neurological 427 00:22:02,788 --> 00:22:04,890 and completely treatable organic illness. 428 00:22:04,957 --> 00:22:06,483 -Exactly. 429 00:22:06,584 --> 00:22:08,427 And I am thinking about the other 99%. 430 00:22:08,494 --> 00:22:10,421 Think of the message that you will be sending all 431 00:22:10,487 --> 00:22:14,124 of our psychiatric patients by whisking Regan away to fix her. 432 00:22:14,225 --> 00:22:16,268 -At least prescribe her steroids. 433 00:22:16,335 --> 00:22:18,954 If this is neurological, it will temporarily help. 434 00:22:18,988 --> 00:22:20,739 -And if it's psychiatric, 435 00:22:20,806 --> 00:22:23,576 which it is, steroids will only make her psychosis worse. 436 00:22:23,642 --> 00:22:25,411 Do you remember when you first arrived 437 00:22:25,477 --> 00:22:27,580 and you were seeing things that weren't there? 438 00:22:27,613 --> 00:22:29,673 The charade with Regan feels a lot like that. 439 00:22:29,773 --> 00:22:34,436 I will not play mind games with her and neither will you. 440 00:22:40,192 --> 00:22:43,395 -Hey. I need your help. 441 00:22:43,429 --> 00:22:51,537 ♪♪ 442 00:22:51,604 --> 00:22:55,808 -♪ Will you help me? ♪ 443 00:22:55,841 --> 00:22:58,302 ♪ Will you help? ♪ 444 00:22:58,369 --> 00:23:01,347 ♪ Figure myself out ♪ 445 00:23:01,380 --> 00:23:02,973 -[ Speaks indistinctly ] 446 00:23:03,040 --> 00:23:11,991 ♪♪ 447 00:23:12,024 --> 00:23:14,126 I want to help you. 448 00:23:14,193 --> 00:23:15,861 The other patients here do, too. 449 00:23:15,895 --> 00:23:19,832 Everyone who is on steroids donated what they could spare. 450 00:23:19,865 --> 00:23:22,001 600 milligrams of prednisone. 451 00:23:22,034 --> 00:23:25,971 Now, if I'm right, this will help you feel less confused, 452 00:23:26,038 --> 00:23:27,840 more like yourself. 453 00:23:27,873 --> 00:23:29,533 But if I'm wrong... 454 00:23:29,566 --> 00:23:32,711 this could make you much sicker, Regan. 455 00:23:32,745 --> 00:23:33,737 -♪ Help ♪ 456 00:23:33,837 --> 00:23:36,015 ♪ Will you help? ♪ 457 00:23:36,115 --> 00:23:40,853 ♪ Figure myself out ♪ 458 00:23:40,886 --> 00:23:43,022 -I'm not afraid of that anymore. 459 00:23:43,155 --> 00:23:52,598 ♪♪ 460 00:23:52,665 --> 00:23:54,091 -Your plan is not working. 461 00:23:54,191 --> 00:23:55,634 Vaginal dilators are like Russian nesting dolls 462 00:23:55,701 --> 00:23:57,002 of embarrassment. 463 00:23:57,069 --> 00:23:59,505 And pelvic floor therapy is just like -- 464 00:23:59,538 --> 00:24:02,232 It is straight out of the book of Revelation. 465 00:24:02,266 --> 00:24:04,076 I just thought that when we got married, 466 00:24:04,109 --> 00:24:07,371 that everything was gonna just click into place. 467 00:24:07,438 --> 00:24:10,582 And now this is happening, and I just... 468 00:24:10,683 --> 00:24:13,419 I just kind of feel like there's no hope. 469 00:24:13,519 --> 00:24:15,212 -Okay. 470 00:24:15,279 --> 00:24:16,889 Sometimes our bodies know what's better than we know ourselves. 471 00:24:16,922 --> 00:24:20,025 You need to be patient and just listen. 472 00:24:20,092 --> 00:24:22,211 Whitney, this isn't your fault. 473 00:24:26,123 --> 00:24:27,299 -What if it is? 474 00:24:28,400 --> 00:24:31,070 I think I know why this is happening. 475 00:24:31,170 --> 00:24:34,106 I... 476 00:24:34,206 --> 00:24:36,809 I'm actually not a virgin. 477 00:24:40,012 --> 00:24:44,283 I slept with someone once while Zeke was away on his mission. 478 00:24:44,383 --> 00:24:46,051 We weren't together then. 479 00:24:46,151 --> 00:24:47,753 It was like something took over my body 480 00:24:47,853 --> 00:24:49,655 and I was a completely different person. 481 00:24:49,755 --> 00:24:53,325 And...it was fun. 482 00:24:54,560 --> 00:24:56,662 But I felt horrible after. 483 00:24:56,729 --> 00:25:00,833 And I swore that I would take that secret to my grave. 484 00:25:00,899 --> 00:25:05,204 But now it feels like... God is punishing me. 485 00:25:05,237 --> 00:25:07,464 -Hmm. 486 00:25:07,498 --> 00:25:09,400 -I'm sorry that I didn't tell you before. 487 00:25:09,466 --> 00:25:12,236 I just I didn't want you to look at me differently, 488 00:25:12,302 --> 00:25:16,482 the way that...Zeke would if he ever found out. 489 00:25:16,515 --> 00:25:19,143 -I'm not looking at you any differently, Whitney. 490 00:25:21,653 --> 00:25:24,473 -I gotta be honest with Zeke, don't I? 491 00:25:24,506 --> 00:25:30,954 ♪♪ 492 00:25:31,021 --> 00:25:32,197 ♪♪ 493 00:25:37,336 --> 00:25:38,871 -Is everything okay? 494 00:25:44,009 --> 00:25:47,704 -Uh...I... 495 00:25:47,805 --> 00:25:50,215 need to be upfront with you, Anthony. 496 00:25:50,282 --> 00:25:51,650 -Mm-hmm. 497 00:25:51,683 --> 00:25:55,320 -Other than my ex... -Mm-hmm. 498 00:25:55,387 --> 00:26:01,160 -...you are the only person I've been with since I was 21. 499 00:26:01,226 --> 00:26:05,964 And I'm not trying to define whatever this is because I... 500 00:26:06,031 --> 00:26:08,392 I don't even know what I want it to be. 501 00:26:08,459 --> 00:26:12,404 But what I do know is that I can't do this... 502 00:26:13,605 --> 00:26:16,074 ...if you're involved with other people. 503 00:26:17,634 --> 00:26:21,313 -I'm not seeing anyone else, 504 00:26:21,380 --> 00:26:22,915 and I don't plan to. 505 00:26:24,950 --> 00:26:26,952 And for the record, I would have asked you out a long time ago, 506 00:26:26,985 --> 00:26:30,422 but I never thought you would go for me... 507 00:26:30,522 --> 00:26:32,316 -What? -...at least in a real way. 508 00:26:32,382 --> 00:26:34,460 You are out of my league, Dr. Pierce. 509 00:26:34,493 --> 00:26:37,663 I am a working-class guy down in the muck of the ED, 510 00:26:37,729 --> 00:26:39,364 and you have, like, 511 00:26:39,431 --> 00:26:41,600 four different Ivy League degrees on your walls 512 00:26:41,700 --> 00:26:43,368 and a picture with Michelle Obama. 513 00:26:43,469 --> 00:26:47,206 -That was one time at a charity luncheon. 514 00:26:47,272 --> 00:26:50,142 But I am flattered that you think of me 515 00:26:50,175 --> 00:26:53,061 in the same sentence as Michelle. 516 00:26:53,095 --> 00:27:02,321 ♪♪ 517 00:27:02,354 --> 00:27:11,722 ♪♪ 518 00:27:11,788 --> 00:27:19,563 ♪♪ 519 00:27:19,630 --> 00:27:27,304 ♪♪ 520 00:27:27,404 --> 00:27:28,814 -[ Moans ] -Regan? 521 00:27:28,914 --> 00:27:32,317 -[ Yells in pain ] 522 00:27:32,384 --> 00:27:34,953 -Regan. 523 00:27:34,987 --> 00:27:37,756 -[ Moaning ] 524 00:27:37,789 --> 00:27:39,324 -I need a little help over here! 525 00:27:39,424 --> 00:27:41,326 -Code blue in the hallway. Someone call 911. 526 00:27:41,426 --> 00:27:44,830 -Code blue, hallway. Code blue, hallway. 527 00:27:44,897 --> 00:27:47,165 -What did you do, Oliver? 528 00:27:50,602 --> 00:27:52,838 -Some mild enhancement around the meninges, 529 00:27:52,971 --> 00:27:54,306 a few scattered white-matter lesions. 530 00:27:54,406 --> 00:27:55,974 Notable, but not specific. 531 00:27:56,041 --> 00:27:58,101 -Has she undergone an LP? -Yes. Totally normal. 532 00:27:58,168 --> 00:28:00,012 And antibodies won't be back anytime soon. 533 00:28:00,145 --> 00:28:02,014 -Then I think, given the new imaging findings, 534 00:28:02,147 --> 00:28:03,949 she needs a brain biopsy as soon as possible. 535 00:28:04,049 --> 00:28:06,134 Did you get the lab notes I put in her pocket? 536 00:28:06,168 --> 00:28:07,519 -Uh, looking at them now. 537 00:28:07,619 --> 00:28:09,121 But what about the seizure? 538 00:28:09,188 --> 00:28:10,822 Prednisone wouldn't have caused that. 539 00:28:10,856 --> 00:28:13,125 -That's because she didn't have one. 540 00:28:13,192 --> 00:28:16,295 The steroids worked. 541 00:28:16,361 --> 00:28:19,198 During her temporary lucidity, 542 00:28:19,331 --> 00:28:21,158 I showed her how to fake one 543 00:28:21,191 --> 00:28:24,202 so Hudson Oaks would be forced to transfer her. 544 00:28:26,830 --> 00:28:28,874 -Dr. Wolf was in on it. 545 00:28:30,442 --> 00:28:33,912 -Huh. 546 00:28:33,979 --> 00:28:35,681 -Have you given any more thought to my question? 547 00:28:35,747 --> 00:28:38,250 What makes you feel most like yourself? 548 00:28:38,317 --> 00:28:40,477 -Patients still don't count? 549 00:28:40,544 --> 00:28:41,853 Ha. 550 00:28:41,954 --> 00:28:43,355 Uh, well, I sold my bike. 551 00:28:43,388 --> 00:28:48,552 So there's swimming, lifting, my ferns. 552 00:28:48,685 --> 00:28:49,978 -It's a healthy list. 553 00:28:52,831 --> 00:28:54,600 -Can I be honest, Dr. Adler? 554 00:28:54,666 --> 00:28:56,318 -First time for everything. 555 00:28:58,729 --> 00:29:01,990 -I feel most myself when I'm with Josh. 556 00:29:04,309 --> 00:29:06,328 I like the way he sees me. 557 00:29:07,479 --> 00:29:10,165 I like who I am with him. 558 00:29:12,876 --> 00:29:14,586 -Putting yourself out there can hurt like hell, 559 00:29:14,686 --> 00:29:17,489 but it's never too late to start living again. 560 00:29:17,556 --> 00:29:20,359 Move towards what feels good. 561 00:29:20,459 --> 00:29:22,094 You deserve it. 562 00:29:22,227 --> 00:29:24,863 -[ Sighs ] 563 00:29:24,930 --> 00:29:27,424 -Dr. Pierce. 564 00:29:27,524 --> 00:29:28,884 -Oh, Whitney, Zeke. 565 00:29:28,917 --> 00:29:32,504 -We just had to pop in before we head home. 566 00:29:32,537 --> 00:29:36,375 We're just so thankful to you for everything, 567 00:29:36,408 --> 00:29:38,060 for encouraging me to open up. 568 00:29:38,093 --> 00:29:41,046 You were right. Things are much better now. 569 00:29:41,113 --> 00:29:42,648 -I'm happy for the both of you. 570 00:29:42,714 --> 00:29:45,901 This type of openness, it's -- it's special. 571 00:29:45,934 --> 00:29:48,578 And it takes a lot of work, so protect it. 572 00:29:50,280 --> 00:29:53,116 Oh. 573 00:29:53,250 --> 00:29:54,951 -Thank you. 574 00:29:55,085 --> 00:29:56,219 -Of course. 575 00:29:56,286 --> 00:30:02,801 ♪♪ 576 00:30:02,868 --> 00:30:05,304 -I just got a call from the lab with good news, Regan. 577 00:30:05,404 --> 00:30:07,798 What you have is entirely treatable. 578 00:30:07,898 --> 00:30:09,641 Neurosarcoid is an autoimmune disease 579 00:30:09,775 --> 00:30:11,401 that generally presents in the lungs, 580 00:30:11,468 --> 00:30:12,978 but in your case, only affected the brain. 581 00:30:13,045 --> 00:30:14,946 It's incredibly rare, but not unheard of. 582 00:30:15,013 --> 00:30:18,717 And explains how your case went misdiagnosed for so many years. 583 00:30:18,784 --> 00:30:20,777 -And why you responded to the steroids. 584 00:30:20,811 --> 00:30:22,946 -But not any of the psych meds. 585 00:30:24,790 --> 00:30:26,775 -So everything that I was experiencing, 586 00:30:26,808 --> 00:30:31,296 all the demons and night terrors, 587 00:30:31,330 --> 00:30:33,932 none of that was real. 588 00:30:33,999 --> 00:30:35,467 -It's likely that none of your symptoms 589 00:30:35,600 --> 00:30:37,235 were psychiatric in origin. 590 00:30:37,302 --> 00:30:39,571 The neurosarcoid explains all of it. 591 00:30:39,638 --> 00:30:42,207 -We've already started you on steroids and methotrexate. 592 00:30:42,274 --> 00:30:43,934 You'll need more over time, 593 00:30:44,000 --> 00:30:48,180 but we expect you to make a full recovery. 594 00:30:50,949 --> 00:30:52,350 -You can go home. 595 00:30:53,518 --> 00:30:56,438 Is there someone we can call to organize discharge? 596 00:30:58,890 --> 00:31:01,026 -No. 597 00:31:03,095 --> 00:31:05,764 No. God. 598 00:31:05,831 --> 00:31:11,036 I dragged the people that I loved through hell. 599 00:31:13,188 --> 00:31:15,207 Now there's no going home. 600 00:31:17,209 --> 00:31:19,995 -I can think of one person who'd love to see you. 601 00:31:20,028 --> 00:31:24,508 ♪♪ 602 00:31:24,541 --> 00:31:27,043 -We're not supposed to be out of our rooms after lights out. 603 00:31:27,177 --> 00:31:28,453 -This isn't a prison. 604 00:31:28,520 --> 00:31:30,213 We can't be afraid to live our lives. 605 00:31:30,347 --> 00:31:32,491 Sometimes you got to just jump into the deep end. 606 00:31:32,524 --> 00:31:34,326 -Okay. Where are you taking us, anyway? 607 00:31:34,359 --> 00:31:36,178 -This way. 608 00:31:36,211 --> 00:31:38,847 -Okay. 609 00:31:38,880 --> 00:31:41,032 -Okay, now we're talking. 610 00:31:41,099 --> 00:31:43,468 -♪ Keep it covered ♪ 611 00:31:43,535 --> 00:31:46,004 ♪ I need you to run to me ♪ 612 00:31:46,071 --> 00:31:50,942 ♪ Run to me, lover ♪ 613 00:31:51,009 --> 00:31:57,883 ♪ Run until you feel your lungs bleeding ♪ 614 00:31:57,949 --> 00:32:03,422 ♪ Rare is this love, keep it covered ♪ 615 00:32:03,555 --> 00:32:06,416 ♪ I need you to run to me ♪ 616 00:32:06,550 --> 00:32:09,728 ♪ Run to me, lover ♪ 617 00:32:09,795 --> 00:32:11,830 ♪ I need you to run ♪ 618 00:32:11,863 --> 00:32:16,268 ♪ Run until you feel your lungs bleeding ♪ 619 00:32:19,104 --> 00:32:21,106 -What the hell's going on here?! 620 00:32:24,543 --> 00:32:26,411 -You're very lucky there weren't any injuries. 621 00:32:26,511 --> 00:32:29,014 It is forbidden to use the pool without supervision. 622 00:32:29,080 --> 00:32:30,715 This was reckless, even for you. 623 00:32:30,816 --> 00:32:32,684 -Your patients will have to live without supervision 624 00:32:32,751 --> 00:32:34,444 at some point in their lives. 625 00:32:34,578 --> 00:32:36,079 Well, that is if you ever let any of them leave. 626 00:32:36,112 --> 00:32:38,740 -Oliver. I thought you had turned a corner. 627 00:32:38,773 --> 00:32:40,075 But your recent behavior, 628 00:32:40,108 --> 00:32:41,952 it feels regressive... impulsive. 629 00:32:42,052 --> 00:32:44,863 -You know, I've come to realize this place isn't that bad. 630 00:32:44,930 --> 00:32:47,399 There are good people on the staff. 631 00:32:47,499 --> 00:32:50,919 Hudson Oaks isn't the problem. You are. 632 00:32:50,952 --> 00:32:52,587 -While your disdain for me 633 00:32:52,621 --> 00:32:54,372 and what I do predates your arrival here, 634 00:32:54,406 --> 00:32:57,876 I am not daunted by difficult people. 635 00:32:57,943 --> 00:32:59,478 It is my job to keep you safe 636 00:32:59,611 --> 00:33:01,246 and direct your course of treatment, 637 00:33:01,346 --> 00:33:04,307 motivated purely by a deeply held concern for those 638 00:33:04,441 --> 00:33:06,434 who struggle with mental-health issues. 639 00:33:06,468 --> 00:33:08,453 -Don't forget your patients' deep pockets. 640 00:33:08,487 --> 00:33:11,915 -Speaking of, I got in touch with your insurance. 641 00:33:11,982 --> 00:33:14,960 You wanted to stay longer. Wish granted. 642 00:33:15,093 --> 00:33:16,444 It's all arranged. 643 00:33:16,478 --> 00:33:23,418 ♪♪ 644 00:33:25,320 --> 00:33:26,638 -Oliver. 645 00:33:26,705 --> 00:33:29,841 Good news. You have a visitor. 646 00:33:32,661 --> 00:33:36,047 -Looks like you've seen a ghost. 647 00:33:36,114 --> 00:33:37,616 -Why are you here? 648 00:33:37,682 --> 00:33:39,284 Is this your version of a victory lap? 649 00:33:39,384 --> 00:33:41,520 -The opposite. 650 00:33:41,620 --> 00:33:45,440 I came here to say you win. I'm leaving Bronx General. 651 00:33:46,349 --> 00:33:49,027 There's an open residency at NYU, 652 00:33:49,160 --> 00:33:50,812 and you never have to see me again. 653 00:33:50,845 --> 00:33:53,865 -NYU? 654 00:33:55,292 --> 00:33:58,370 Did my mom put you up to this? 655 00:33:58,436 --> 00:33:59,838 I don't know what she said to you, 656 00:33:59,938 --> 00:34:01,323 but do not take that job. 657 00:34:01,356 --> 00:34:03,133 -I don't think that's an option. 658 00:34:03,199 --> 00:34:05,610 -I'll talk to her. I'll take care of it. 659 00:34:05,677 --> 00:34:08,079 You don't really want to leave, Charlie. 660 00:34:08,146 --> 00:34:10,181 If you did, you would not be here. 661 00:34:10,282 --> 00:34:11,983 Why did you really come to see me? 662 00:34:12,050 --> 00:34:14,653 -I never wanted any of this to happen. 663 00:34:14,686 --> 00:34:16,988 I don't know what I wanted... 664 00:34:17,022 --> 00:34:18,348 but it was not this. 665 00:34:18,381 --> 00:34:21,826 So...I'm sorry. 666 00:34:21,860 --> 00:34:24,229 -[ Sighs ] 667 00:34:26,047 --> 00:34:28,725 You didn't do this to me. 668 00:34:28,858 --> 00:34:31,269 I came here to get help I needed 669 00:34:31,336 --> 00:34:33,521 long before you entered the picture. 670 00:34:33,555 --> 00:34:38,643 ♪♪ 671 00:34:38,677 --> 00:34:42,030 For what it's worth, I forgive you. 672 00:34:42,063 --> 00:34:45,684 ♪♪ 673 00:34:45,717 --> 00:34:48,503 You remind me so much of myself. 674 00:34:50,522 --> 00:34:53,174 -I'm nothing like you, Wolf. 675 00:34:56,394 --> 00:34:57,996 -You're allergic to authority. 676 00:34:58,029 --> 00:35:00,023 You're addicted to self-destruction. 677 00:35:00,090 --> 00:35:03,234 You're trying to fix everyone but yourself, and you're angry. 678 00:35:03,268 --> 00:35:05,220 You think that this anger is gonna insulate you 679 00:35:05,253 --> 00:35:08,857 from the pain, but it will alienate you from everyone. 680 00:35:10,475 --> 00:35:12,602 Even yourself. 681 00:35:12,702 --> 00:35:15,530 Trust me. 682 00:35:17,107 --> 00:35:20,535 The night of the gala, you said, "Let's see who breaks first." 683 00:35:22,320 --> 00:35:23,788 The truth is... 684 00:35:25,290 --> 00:35:29,911 ...we're all just doing our best to hold ourselves together. 685 00:35:29,944 --> 00:35:39,129 ♪♪ 686 00:35:39,262 --> 00:35:43,258 -[ Crying ] 687 00:35:43,291 --> 00:35:46,561 ♪♪ 688 00:35:52,409 --> 00:35:54,811 -Strange being on... 689 00:35:54,911 --> 00:35:57,113 this side of things. 690 00:35:57,147 --> 00:36:00,959 I just wanted to say thank you 691 00:36:00,992 --> 00:36:03,328 for saving my life... 692 00:36:04,587 --> 00:36:07,065 ...and whatever is left of it. 693 00:36:07,098 --> 00:36:08,933 -Have you seen Lucy and Rex? 694 00:36:09,034 --> 00:36:11,102 -No. Not yet. 695 00:36:11,202 --> 00:36:18,968 After everything I did, all I ever wanted was to protect them. 696 00:36:19,844 --> 00:36:21,346 -It wasn't your fault. 697 00:36:21,413 --> 00:36:24,716 -I know. I'm still battling demons. 698 00:36:24,749 --> 00:36:27,243 They just look different. 699 00:36:27,310 --> 00:36:29,854 I'm haunted by the person that I was. 700 00:36:29,921 --> 00:36:32,957 -The brain is our most resilient and adaptable organ. 701 00:36:32,991 --> 00:36:36,061 And yours belongs to you again 702 00:36:36,094 --> 00:36:38,947 for the first time in a long time. 703 00:36:41,099 --> 00:36:46,137 -I want to see my kids... 704 00:36:46,171 --> 00:36:48,164 more than anything. 705 00:36:52,035 --> 00:36:54,879 I just don't know if they want to see me. 706 00:36:56,247 --> 00:36:57,949 -Well, someone 707 00:36:58,016 --> 00:37:01,219 whose dad struggled with his mental health... 708 00:37:02,654 --> 00:37:04,656 ...I can say they want to see you... 709 00:37:04,789 --> 00:37:08,660 ♪♪ 710 00:37:08,726 --> 00:37:10,762 ...more than anything. 711 00:37:10,795 --> 00:37:16,000 ♪♪ 712 00:37:16,034 --> 00:37:18,561 -Oh, how the tables have turned. 713 00:37:18,661 --> 00:37:20,338 You look good back at Bronx General. 714 00:37:20,405 --> 00:37:21,898 -You know where I'll look even better? 715 00:37:21,965 --> 00:37:23,875 -Mm. -Our new apartment. 716 00:37:23,908 --> 00:37:26,177 -[ Sighs ] About that... 717 00:37:26,211 --> 00:37:29,714 I come bearing eggplant parm. 718 00:37:29,814 --> 00:37:31,316 -We didn't get it, did we? 719 00:37:31,382 --> 00:37:33,485 -There'll be other apartments. 720 00:37:33,585 --> 00:37:35,211 We don't have to rush. 721 00:37:36,821 --> 00:37:40,125 -Last time we broke up because we were moving too slow. 722 00:37:40,191 --> 00:37:42,026 We wanted different things. 723 00:37:42,060 --> 00:37:45,130 Now that I caught up, I thought we wanted the same things. 724 00:37:45,163 --> 00:37:48,032 -We do. [ Chuckles ] And I love you for it. 725 00:37:48,066 --> 00:37:51,870 -Look, I want a life with you. 726 00:37:51,970 --> 00:37:57,275 I want the fancy apartment, the nursery, the sleepless nights. 727 00:37:57,375 --> 00:38:00,712 I want to pick out strollers and argue over preschools. 728 00:38:00,812 --> 00:38:03,439 -I want all of that, too. I always have. 729 00:38:03,506 --> 00:38:06,075 -Right. It just... 730 00:38:07,677 --> 00:38:09,821 I don't think you know who you want it with. 731 00:38:09,854 --> 00:38:18,029 ♪♪ 732 00:38:18,129 --> 00:38:20,732 [ Door opens, closes ] 733 00:38:20,832 --> 00:38:23,401 -Oliver is lucky to have a mother like you. 734 00:38:23,501 --> 00:38:25,904 Not all family members are so supportive. 735 00:38:26,004 --> 00:38:31,376 However, I must share my concerns about your son. 736 00:38:31,442 --> 00:38:33,278 -Concerns? 737 00:38:33,311 --> 00:38:35,939 -He's had some setbacks. 738 00:38:35,972 --> 00:38:37,215 He broke curfew. 739 00:38:37,248 --> 00:38:40,084 He snuck into unauthorized areas. 740 00:38:40,118 --> 00:38:42,387 I even have reason to believe 741 00:38:42,453 --> 00:38:44,556 that he stole another patient's drugs. 742 00:38:44,589 --> 00:38:47,158 -Uh, that sounds like his old self. 743 00:38:47,225 --> 00:38:49,494 -Insurance has generously offered 744 00:38:49,594 --> 00:38:52,455 to cover another month of in-patient care... 745 00:38:54,299 --> 00:38:55,867 ...if you see fit, of course. 746 00:38:55,900 --> 00:38:58,636 -Hmm. 747 00:38:58,670 --> 00:39:00,330 With Oliver's father, 748 00:39:00,396 --> 00:39:02,740 it took years for me to recognize the signs 749 00:39:02,774 --> 00:39:05,743 of when it was time to take him to the hospital 750 00:39:05,777 --> 00:39:08,546 and time to bring him home. 751 00:39:08,613 --> 00:39:10,632 But eventually... 752 00:39:10,665 --> 00:39:13,852 ♪♪ 753 00:39:13,918 --> 00:39:15,853 ...with one look, I knew. 754 00:39:18,356 --> 00:39:20,758 As I do now. 755 00:39:20,858 --> 00:39:23,119 He's ready. 756 00:39:23,186 --> 00:39:29,968 ♪♪ 757 00:39:30,001 --> 00:39:31,936 -[ Sighs ] 758 00:39:32,003 --> 00:39:34,505 -Healing rarely happens in a straight line, 759 00:39:34,606 --> 00:39:37,934 and we often forget how much it hurts. 760 00:39:38,001 --> 00:39:39,702 But unlike the body, 761 00:39:39,769 --> 00:39:42,138 the mind has a way of growing back stronger 762 00:39:42,205 --> 00:39:44,415 in the broken places. 763 00:39:44,449 --> 00:39:47,051 ♪♪ 764 00:39:47,118 --> 00:39:51,155 -♪ Monsters ♪ 765 00:39:51,289 --> 00:39:54,117 ♪♪ 766 00:39:54,183 --> 00:39:57,095 ♪ Beneath your bed ♪ 767 00:39:57,128 --> 00:40:01,733 ♪♪ 768 00:40:01,799 --> 00:40:06,004 ♪ What's real? ♪ 769 00:40:06,104 --> 00:40:09,832 ♪ What's in your head? ♪ 770 00:40:09,899 --> 00:40:14,078 ♪♪ 771 00:40:14,145 --> 00:40:17,181 ♪ Sweet heat ♪ 772 00:40:17,315 --> 00:40:21,352 ♪♪ 773 00:40:21,419 --> 00:40:25,181 ♪ Lightning falls ♪ 774 00:40:25,248 --> 00:40:28,726 ♪♪ 775 00:40:28,760 --> 00:40:34,065 ♪ Blue crack of light and that's all ♪ 776 00:40:34,165 --> 00:40:36,192 -I don't know who I'm more excited to see. 777 00:40:36,259 --> 00:40:38,236 -[ Laughs ] -How did you do... 778 00:40:38,336 --> 00:40:40,104 -Figured you needed a ride home. 779 00:40:40,171 --> 00:40:42,173 -♪ Calling you to sing ♪ 780 00:40:42,240 --> 00:40:44,200 -Thank you. -Mm. 781 00:40:44,267 --> 00:40:48,579 ♪♪ 782 00:40:48,680 --> 00:40:51,349 So, what's on the agenda? 783 00:40:51,416 --> 00:40:52,750 What's the first thing you want to do? 784 00:40:52,850 --> 00:40:54,952 -I need to go save Sofia. 785 00:40:56,921 --> 00:40:58,756 Just kidding. -[ Laughs ] 786 00:40:58,790 --> 00:41:01,292 -I want to live my life. 787 00:41:03,061 --> 00:41:04,896 And I want to get Josh back. 788 00:41:05,029 --> 00:41:10,335 ♪♪ 789 00:41:10,368 --> 00:41:15,707 ♪♪ 790 00:41:15,740 --> 00:41:19,602 [ Engine starts ] 791 00:41:19,635 --> 00:41:21,237 [ Engine revs ] 792 00:41:21,304 --> 00:41:29,954 ♪♪ 793 00:41:29,988 --> 00:41:31,447 -Greg, move your head. 794 00:41:36,394 --> 00:41:46,204 ♪♪ 795 00:41:46,237 --> 00:41:56,114 ♪♪ 796 00:41:56,247 --> 00:42:06,315 ♪♪