[distant crowd cheering]
You have to have the best of the best.
She didn't want attention being taken away from her.
This is just a stab in everyone else's back.
I can guarantee, I've read every mean comment.
I've seen them all.
MILLER: Mummified bones and body parts,
twisted and mangled.
It was a most horrific discovery.
[Jena Thompson speaking]
If she hated you, she always hated you.
GOODSON: If looks could have killed, I wouldn't be sitting
here today, I promise you that.
[theme music playing]
[indistinct shouting]
Texans love rodeo.
We breathe rodeo.
We eat rodeo dirt and dust, like, we love the sport
of rodeo.
It really is a way of life in small towns of Texas.
NARRATOR: But there's one rodeo contest that can
be more cutthroat than the rest --
the Rodeo Queen Pageant.
MARTINEZ: Just like regular beauty competitions,
competitors have teased hair, rhinestone clothes,
and beautiful makeup,
but they're riding a horse about 20 to 30 miles an hour,
all while staying pristine.
FRAZIER: The bigger the rodeo, the bigger crowd they draw,
the more competitive
the queen's competition is gonna be.
ANDERSON: This is a competition, and this can lead to jealousy,
backbiting, and manipulation.
Winning is the goal.
They're not there to lose or be runner up.
[cheers and applause]
There is a little bit of cattiness between contestants,
just kind of the little whispers that you hear.
Oh, her pants don't fit correctly
or her hat isn't shaped right.
Behind the scenes,
it's either I'm gonna win or you're going to win.
Either I've got a good outfit, or you've got a good outfit.
Either I've got the skills, or you've got the skills.
If you're gonna do something, do it right,
or don't do it at all.
[cheers and applause]
NARRATOR: And budding rodeo queen,
Camie Frazier, seems to have all the right stuff.
My sister was very popular growing up.
She was the girl that was very outgoing and always talkative.
She was a girl that all the boys wanted to date,
a little bit on the wild side, but she was a good person.
She was beautiful, talented, and skilled,
but she could also be ruthless.
NARRATOR: Camie comes from Dalhart, Texas,
a tiny town in the panhandle.
Her family's been ranching here for decades.
Joel and Donna were more of a working-class family.
There are five in my family -- my dad, my mother,
my sister, my brother, and then I'm the youngest.
We were raised to be competitive.
We were raised to be winners, you know?
GOODSON: Everybody around town knew them.
They was well-liked, you know?
My dad took care of cattle, and he'd help anybody
with anything.
My mom was always trying to open a new business
or start something in Dalhart that hadn't been there before.
NARRATOR: From an early age, Camie seems to
come alive in front of an audience.
Donna started taking Camie to small girl beauty pageants.
Little Miss X, Little Miss Y -- fun,
they got to dress up,
Camie got to put her hair up and wear makeup.
Very young,
starting at age five or six, she enjoyed riding horses.
So it kind of became a natural progression
to roll Camie into the Rodeo Queen circuit.
She transitioned into the Rodeo Queen competition
around the age of 12 or 13, when she was
crowned the Matador Queen in Channing, Texas.
Camie keeps winning and keeps moving up,
so she's got more attention.
She's got more success.
It feels good to get up there and to be winning.
She was perfection.
NARRATOR: Camie is a natural and the apple of her daddy
Joel's eye.
MILLER: Joel takes the family around and is kind of
the transportation manager as they continue moving up
the pageant queen ladder.
GOODSON: I felt like they had a real special relationship,
father and daughter.
Every time you'd see Joel, you would see Camie.
NARRATOR: And in 1993, when Camie is 14,
Joel and Donna welcome their third child, daughter, Jamie.
My sister and I were really close when I was little,
partly due to the fact that my mom was gone a lot at the time.
Donna's mom, uh, develops cancer.
Donna needs to be away from
the family for extended periods of time.
And Camie steps in and helps with Jamie, almost like Camie
was giving Jamie the love and attention
that Donna gave Camie
when Camie was that age.
My sister kind of had to step into that role and, you know,
make sure I was dressed for school, make sure that I was
picked up from school and --
because dad, I mean, dad was there, but he had to work.
NARRATOR: In 1996, juggling responsibilities at home
and schoolwork as a high school junior,
Camie is crowned the Queen of Dalhart's
highly competitive XIT Rodeo.
I was actually the right age to run for Little Miss XIT,
the pageant for the smaller children.
And we were the first sisters to ever be Queen
at the same time.
She always looked out for me during all of that.
I had my sister there to make sure nothing happened,
you know, if something happened with my horse,
she was right beside me.
NARRATOR: But one title is just the beginning for Camie Frazier.
Over the next three years,
she amasses an impressive collection.
Joel drove her across Texas and paid
thousands of dollars for equipment and clothing.
ANDERSON: There was a high expectation for Camie,
and I think that everything sort of revolved around her.
Camilla was on her way to being one
of the best rodeo queens in the state.
My sister went to run for Miss Rodeo Texas.
To become Miss Rodeo Texas is a big deal.
NARRATOR: It's Camie's life dream,
and she goes after the title with everything she's got.
But she doesn't win.
You put all this effort into it,
and now you were supposed to win.
I think it's sort of just who am I?
Where do I go from here?
You're going back to good old Dalhart, Texas,
population 8,000.
I would think it would be a big letdown.
NARRATOR: Even if Camie wants to compete again,
she can't -- at 24,
she's about to reach the age limit for
the Miss Texas Rodeo pageant.
Once you age out, you're kind of a has-been.
Boom, that cut-off is there, there are no Mrs. Rodeo
of anybody, there's no Grandma Rodeo of anybody.
You're the Rodeo Queen, and that's it.
FRAZIER: She was pretty well lost.
NARRATOR: But as the spotlight fades on Camie,
it's just starting to shine on her younger sister, Jamie.
Jamie loved the horses, she loved ropin',
you know, so she stayed with it.
NARRATOR: And as Jamie steps onto the stage,
her sister turns her back on her.
All of this work that Camie has done with Donna
and with Joel to get the success
and be the center of attention of the family,
now, there's a younger, newer,
brighter girl doing the same thing with her father,
that must really hurt.
FRAZIER: She wanted to be the -- the leader,
the outgoing shining one.
NARRATOR: Jamie doesn't let her sister's resentment
deter her from pursuing her rodeo ambitions.
GOODSON: Jamie wanted to be the best,
and Camie wanted to be the best.
And, you know, so there was a lot of competition.
NARRATOR: Jamie's hard work pays off
in 2009 when, like her big sister before her,
she becomes the XIT Rodeo Queen,
much to her father's delight.
Me and dad really bonded over roping.
It was something that we both really enjoyed to do.
I think Camie's perception was
they're competing for their parents' approval.
NARRATOR: With Jamie stealing her thunder at the rodeo
and at home, Camie finds a new way to spend her time, partying.
GOODSON: Camie was a lot wilder,
a lot more outgoing than what Jamie was.
WEBB: She would go out to parties and drink,
probably heavily.
Camie drove a white Hummer and you always
knew when Camie was coming, because you can see
the white Hummer definitely speeding.
She acted like she was maybe a little bit better than,
you know, Jamie or me or whatever.
I know Joel was having a hard time with it.
There was several fights over her,
you know, that I know of.
NARRATOR: Camie's partying slows temporarily
when she gets pregnant...
...though she never reveals the name
of her son Tommy's father.
My sister loved her son, but at the same time,
she was too busy trying to live a fun life.
NARRATOR: Then, in 2011, Camie marries an old college flame,
33-year-old jack-of-all-trades, Kory Tidrow.
They had known each other previously
from her stint at Texas Tech in college.
Kory Tidrow isn't the prince charming that you would
hope your daughter meets and falls in love with.
But he caters to her.
She enjoys that attention.
FRAZIER: I mean, he's married to my sister.
I wouldn't say part of the family.
He was always just out on the outskirts and never
wanting to come join the rest of us.
Sometimes, you just meet people you just don't like.
And he was one of them.
He wasn't a cowboy. That's all there is to it.
NARRATOR: Life in Dalhart rolls on with
the sisters growing farther and farther apart.
Then tragedy strikes when Donna succumbs
to a rare liver disease she's been struggling with.
My parents were married for 36 years when
my mother passed away in September of 2015.
My dad took it the hardest, I think,
because you think about it, kids are --
you're meant to lose your parents at some point
in your life -- for him,
he never thought my mom would be the first to go,
and he didn't really know what to do.
He'd never been without her.
My sister felt like he was the reason that
she passed, because he put my mother in hospice.
There was no having a logical
conversation with her about things like that.
If she was upset,
you couldn't get through to her.
NARRATOR: After Donna's death, Camie, Kory, and Tommy move
into the family home,
so Camie can keep an eye on Joel.
And newly graduated from college,
Jamie comes back to Dalhart.
I didn't intend on moving home,
but I came home, and I felt like I needed to stay
to kind of help take care of my dad.
NARRATOR: But as a recent widower in town,
Joel seems to have lots of new lady friends who want to help
ease his grief.
FRAZIER: I was really uncomfortable
with my dad dating -- it really made me mad.
It really felt like he was trying to replace mom.
NARRATOR: Joel's active dating life
especially rattles Camie, who still lives
in the family home with him.
I was upset, but my sister really got extra upset,
and anything she could do to thwart him
doing anything that did not involve staying at home,
she would do.
ANDERSON: I think she was jealous,
and she didn't want attention being taken away from her
and her sister and any money to be going
in that direction either.
NARRATOR: And things in this rodeo family
are about to go from tense...
to downright scary.
On July 14, 2017, Jamie Frazier
walks into the Dalhart Sheriff's Office.
She wants to report her father missing.
NARRATOR: By 2017, Jamie has her own place across town,
leaving her fuming sister,
carousing father, and his lady friends to their own devices.
But now that he is a man about town, that could be
causing some serious trouble
with one of the women in his life.
Jamie Frazier tells police she hasn't seen her father,
Joel, in three days,
when she was at the family home to help with a sick horse.
She says she returned Thursday morning, and her dad's truck
was there, but he wasn't.
His shaving kit was on the floor.
His belt buckle was there.
And as I'm walking back out,
I notice his hat's hanging behind the front door,
and I'm like, well, that's odd.
So Friday, I come back to the house.
He's still not there, and nothing's moved.
His hat is still in the same spot.
His truck's still here.
Everything's still untouched.
I saw my sister, and I told her, "I can't find dad."
I just, I had a feeling something's not right.
And I said, "I'm gonna go to the police department."
There's no way he just disappeared into thin air.
The chief of police said he wanted to go and do
a "knock and talk" at Joel Frazier's house.
NARRATOR: Camie, her husband, Kory, and her son are all home
when police arrive.
OFFICER: Okay.
We're trying to find Joel's habits.
Uh, what -- what they could tell us more in depth.
TOMMY: Usually -- usually...
After my mom died, he started drinking a little more heavily,
quit eating so much.
When we initially made contact at the house,
Camie was in the shower.
OFFICER: Oh.
CAMIE: I'm sorry.
They were very cooperative,
allowed us into Joel's room,
gave us information on what he did
the last night everybody saw him, which I believe was
the 12th,
and Camie told us that he wasn't feeling well.
OFFICER: Okay.
WEBB: Camie told us that Joel was possibly with a girlfriend,
and they went off
on one of their weekend adventures that Joel
was known to take.
There was little concern,
uh, that they hadn't been able to speak
to Joel for several days at this point.
FRAZIER: After we had made our report at the police station,
we started knocking on doors.
We went down the neighboring streets, asking neighbors,
"Hey, have you seen Joel? Have you seen my dad?"
Then we started going different places in town
we know -- we'd go to hotels,
and after going to as many places as we could think to go,
we started looking through places that
maybe he wandered off and fell down.
Oh, I actually took a horseback and went
over and rode some of the canyons and stuff.
You know, if you see a bunch of crows flying around an area,
you -- [indistinct] there's something dead, so...
you know, you kind of ride towards that area,
hoping you don't find what you're looking for.
FRAZIER: I mean, we looked...
in places that you wouldn't even think to look,
and every day, it just got a little harder.
NARRATOR: The tiny Dalhart Police Department doesn't have
the resources to launch a broad investigation
for a missing person.
We reached out to the Texas Rangers for their assistance.
SWICK: I was requested to come in and assist
the Dalhart Police Department with the disappearance of
Joel Frazier on July 19th of 2017.
NARRATOR: Ranger Swick starts by interviewing
the family at the police station.
NARRATOR: While her concern for her dad is evident,
Camie also complains about Joel's continuous drinking.
SWICK: Camie would paint a picture in not so many
nice ways that Joel was a drunk and never around
and never dependable.
Kory's essentially backing up Camie's story of
Joel may be on a bender.
NARRATOR: Investigators next reach out
to the other women in Joel's life,
and one has a juicy nugget to share.
My dad started hanging around Gayle Maness.
I wouldn't say per se that he was dating her,
but they were -- they were drinking buddies.
Gayle says she went over to the house to
try and see Joel after Jamie says he was missing.
NARRATOR: But Camie was the only one home.
NARRATOR: All the more reason for her dad
to find better company elsewhere.
So we have a missing person, we had made a poster,
a missing person poster, if you will,
and posted it online.
[cellphone notification]
Jamie gets a text from, uh,
an unknown person with a Pennsylvania phone number.
And it said, "We know where your dad is."
We were sitting on the front porch of one
of the family friends, and my phone goes off.
[cellphone notification]
It's a text, and it said that, "We have him,
pay us this much money, and we'll return him."
I was just terrified, and immediately,
I called the sheriff's department.
NARRATOR: Jamie then begins texting with
her dad's alleged captor.
I asked things like, "Send me a picture of him.
"Show me that he's okay.
"I'll send you however much money you want,
but I want to know that he's okay first."
But the kidnapper says they'll only send
a picture if she sends $1,000 first.
Ultimately, we were able to track that IP
for that phone number to a European country.
It was somebody who was trying to scam her.
SWICK: Unfortunately, there's multiple people in
different European countries that, in this case,
more than likely saw the missing person poster on
Facebook and played off of that to try to get free money.
NARRATOR: It's a devastating blow to Joel's family.
All I could think of was they've got to find something.
There's gotta be a clue.
There's no way he just disappeared into thin air.
That's not possible for anyone to disappear into thin air.
For the first 10 days or so after reporting him missing,
I was really confident that maybe he was
just off with a friend, that he'd come home.
I didn't want to embarrass him, you know what I mean?
So, like if he came home,
I didn't want to have this huge onslaught of people
looking for him, and then turns out he was just
with his new girlfriend at a casino or something.
NARRATOR: In dire need of new leads,
investigators dig deeper into Joel's
last steps before he went missing.
Joel is good friends with Samuel Sifuentes,
who is involved in the XIT Rodeo and Reunion Club with Joel.
SWICK: Sam Sifuentes tells us that, on the 11th,
as he's heading out to what's called
the XIT Roping Arena there in Dalhart,
he passes by Joel Frazier going the opposite direction.
And he gets to the roping arena,
and the next thing he notices is that Joel's grandson,
Tommy, is there, and Tommy is working the chutes, being a --
being a little boy.
NARRATOR: Sammy says that Tommy wanted to stay at the rodeo.
So he offered to drive the boy home later that evening.
So when Samuel drops off the grandson,
he notices that Joel is not there.
SWICK: Sammy couldn't tell us anything about where
Joel was at or what happened to him.
But what's more important is,
he didn't see Joel at the house.
NARRATOR: With growing concern for Joel's safety,
Rangers grill the Frazier's neighbors, including
Benjamin Buck.
His family owns the meat processing
plant across the street from the Fraziers,
and he now lives in the back of the meat processing plant.
MILLER: Benjamin Buck doesn't have any information
about where Joel might be, but he does drop a bombshell,
an ugly rumor about the Frazier sisters
that's been circulating around town.
NARRATOR: Joel Frazier's disappearance
in July of 2017 has put
his whole family and their secrets under the microscope.
It came up that Jamie might not be Joel's
biological daughter.
SWICK: Sometime after Donna's death,
there was an argument over possessions.
And, uh, in that -- and when I say fight, it was --
it was it involved Joel and Camie and Jamie.
And in that fight, Jamie found out
she was not this biological daughter.
Camie, by what I understood, knew about it prior to.
Joel, of course, knew about it.
But that's where it first came to life for Jamie.
FRAZIER: He's on my birth certificate,
and that's what I know,
and biological or not, he was my dad.
Always.
NARRATOR: But Camie insists that Jamie
is not a blood relative,
and investigators learn that's not the only
source of conflict in the Frazier family.
SWICK: Joel typically, maybe one time,
favored Camie, if you will.
ANDERSON: Camie was accustomed to having a lot of luxuries
and nice things that she didn't have to pay for herself.
She had those handed to her.
But as time went on, Jamie had a lot more to do with Joel,
and Joel relied on Jamie more.
And so I think that hurt Camie.
I think there was a lot of jealousy there.
NARRATOR: Joel was apparently fed up with Camie
still expecting to be treated like a queen.
Joel's attorney tells us back in
April of 2017, prior to his disappearance,
of course, that Joel met with him
with the goal of redesigning his will.
MILLER: Before that time,
the will would have been that all of the assets were split
equally with the kids.
Now, Jamie was going to be the sole inheritor.
He said,
I'm gonna write up a will,
and I'm just gonna leave everything to you.
And I told him, "Don't do that.
That's gonna cause a lot of problems."
And, of course, his -- his joking attitude,
he said, "It's my stuff.
I'll leave it to whomever I want."
NARRATOR: When Camie gets wind of her father's plan,
she loses it.
That made Camie so mad, to think that Joel
was favoring a daughter that might not be biologically his.
SWICK: The will was mailed to Joel's residence multiple times,
according to the attorney, to have
him sign the will, because it doesn't become an official
document until he signs it, and...
it never got signed.
NARRATOR: Nearly a month after Joel vanished,
hope of a happy ending is almost gone.
FRAZIER: My Facebook post, it got shared like 70,000 times.
I kept updating it to try to keep it fresh in
people's minds, you know?
What if he had mentally lost it and was just walking
through a crowd -- maybe someone would see him.
But the longer it went on, the more it was like...
we're not gonna find him alive.
NARRATOR: That's when a new witness finally
decides to come forward.
NARRATOR: Jena Thompson, a lifelong friend of the Fraziers,
remembers seeing Camie and Joel on the front porch
of the house around the time Joel disappeared.
NARRATOR: Already teeming with resentment and jealousy,
did Camie take her rage
at her father too far that night?
If so, there isn't a shred of evidence to prove it.
We don't have a body or knowledge of where Joel went to.
And we didn't have what was believed to be
enough probable cause to effect an arrest for
Joel's disappearance.
It gets pretty frustrating at that point.
NARRATOR: But the investigation gets a badly needed
push when a shocking tip finally comes in.
We received some information that Joel was murdered,
and his body was burned up at
the incinerator at the butchering plant.
NARRATOR: The plant across the street
from the Frazier's home, where witness
Benjamin Buck lives and works.
The next day, we were able to go and take a look at --
at this incinerator.
And once we got the top off of it,
we were able to look down, and I saw what I knew to be
a human skull.
And then as I looked some more,
I could see what I knew to be a human hand.
I could see what I knew to be, because you
could read it, as Docker house shoes on the feet
The morning that he was found, I got a phone call.
What brand of house shoes does your dad wear?
And, at some point after that, I find out
that they have found a body,
and the officers had to explain to me that, um,
there wasn't much left for me to see.
NARRATOR: Now all eyes are on Benjamin Buck.
He was the only one known to use the incinerator.
Myself and an FBI agent who was with me
went and tried to find Benjamin Buck.
NARRATOR: They finally locate him off the property
and bring him in for questioning.
Benjamin was the longest interview
I've ever done as a Ranger,
but after that lengthy interview, he cracked.
MILLER: Benjamin tells investigators
that around 4 AM on July 12th,
he gets a call from Camie's husband, Kory.
NARRATOR: He claims Kory asked him to bring over a wheelbarrow.
And Kory said, "I need you to go get some --
a sheet, some twine, and come to the house."
He went on to say that he grabbed those items
and then came to the back door of the house.
He said he made his way from the back door through
the kitchen through the dining room,
which entered into the living room.
SWICK: As I'm interviewing Benjamin Buck,
other law enforcement were able to find Camie and Kory.
They were actually gassing up at a gas station in Dalhart
with items of clothing in the car with them.
I'm not saying they were gonna be going anywhere,
but it was -- that was pretty telling to me.
And so at that point, Camie and Kory
were detained and separated.
FRAZIER: It was soon after they found the body that
I had heard that Kory and Camie had both been arrested.
My reaction at the time was...
just floored.
I mean, you don't want anything to happen to
your family, but you really don't want it to happen
at the hands of your family.
NARRATOR: With Camie and Kory in custody,
investigators take Benjamin to Joel's house.
So, Benjamin Buck agreed to do a video walkthrough
of Joel's residence and show us what he saw.
SWICK: He noticed blood up on the ceiling.
He noticed blood on the chair.
Camie and Kory were trying to clean.
SWICK: He says that they dumped, uh,
Joel from the chair into the wheelbarrow,
and then they -- they being Camie and Kory -- wheeled
the body the reverse way out the back door
to the processing point.
NARRATOR: At the station and under questioning,
the once poised and glamorous
rodeo queen puts on a very different performance.
OFFICER: Okay.
NARRATOR: With both Camie and Kory pleading not guilty,
the prosecutor prepares for a challenging case.
BARR: I didn't have a gun.
I didn't have DNA, and I knew I didn't have fingerprints.
NARRATOR: And he'll be facing off against a woman
who knows how to win over an audience.
I believe Camie ultimately was the ringleader
of what ultimately happened to Joel.
She was the one that had the anger against her father.
NARRATOR: The best hope of nailing this mean girl --
get her co-conspirator to flip.
BARR: I approached Kory Tidrow to ask
if he would want to sit down and talk
to us about his involvement in the case and whether he would
testify against his wife.
NARRATOR: But Camie's grip on Kory is too strong.
Still, Prosecutor Barr believes Camie was
the ringleader and convinced her husband to help.
Camie and Kory had a plan,
and -- to sedate Joel through his milkshakes.
Camie would make Joel milkshakes.
I think this has been planned for weeks.
They were going to put um, that diphenhydramine,
Benadryl, in --
in his milkshake and put him to sleep.
Then Joel died from two gunshot wounds to the back of his head.
One bullet was going in this way,
and one bullet was going in this way.
That showed that two people were
sharing in the shooting of Joel.
Without a doubt in my mind,
Camie and Kory both pulled the trigger,
um, and shot Joel Frazier.
I think at the end of this whole investigation,
we have a situation involving a daughter who is...
scorned.
Camie knew the will was trying to be changed by Joel to
name Jamie the executor,
and Camie knew about it, because she had opened
one of the letters.
And I think Kory,
in this position, was a husband that would do anything for
his wife, including murder.
NARRATOR: Almost two years later, Kory and Camie
are tried separately for murder.
HOPPER: Obviously, this is not somebody that
we want to associate with rodeo queening.
She's not, you know, the rodeo ambassador
and somebody that we truly thought she was.
MAN: News channel 10's Arianna Martinez joins us from
the Rita Blanca Coliseum with the verdict and sentencing.
The jury unanimously found Kory Wayne Tidrow guilty
of murdering Joel Frazier
and gave him a sentence of life in prison.
So facing Kory wasn't as hard, because...
he's nothing to me.
But facing my sister was...
it was hard, mostly because she kept giving me this look
of pity, like she felt so sorry for me,
and it really just made me mad.
GOODSON: I never felt like she had any
remorse or felt bad about what happened.
I did not see it in her at all.
So I just felt like there was a lot of evil in there.
For Camie, winning is the goal,
and she had to be at the top.
And when you really think about it,
Camie took that to the nth degree.
Camilla Frazier Tidrow has been found guilty
of first-degree murder.
News Channel 10's Arianna Martinez joins us
now live with the punishment the jury has reached.
Camilla Frazier Tidrow has been sentenced to life in prison.
FRAZIER: I'm not sure if that was greed, jealousy,
pure hatred,
everything all at once.
The only thing I can ever go back to
is the will and dad leaving everything to me.
That's the only
answer that makes any sense,
but it still doesn't make any sense, because it's not
something to kill over.
MILLER: The old rodeo queen that is now a has-been
plotted, planned, and murdered her father,
it seems to me, without remorse.
If you end up falling down that rat hole of attention,
the world is all about me by any way I can get there,
it's dangerous.
WOMAN: It's just kind of like a stab in everyone else's back,
because you're supposed to be
a sisterhood, and you're supposed to represent us
and the sport of rodeo at all times.
Chris Goodson and I actually came up with the plan.
We have a memorial team roping every year, because that's --
that's what my dad loved to do.
We turn a steer out, and we just let it run down the arena.
That is definitely the Rodeo Queen way of life,
caring, somebody that would be willing to put forth and hold
his memory on forever, as it should be.
FRAZIER: I want to forgive my sister someday.
It's not today.
Today is not the day I will forgive her, but...
at some point I want to go to forgive her,
but not for her.
For myself, so I can let go.