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Which...
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- Daddy, why--
- Yes.
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{\an8}Why didn't you get Captain Blue?
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Because we've got Captain Black,
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Colonel White and Destiny Angel,
Captain Scarlet.
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I-- I--
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Ca-- Captain Black is lost in--
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in my... [stammers] ...bedroom somewhere.
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I-I want a video.
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I'm specky, ginger hair, really short,
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like, English, from the countryside,
who stutters and beatboxes.
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That guy doesn't become a pop star.
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Well done, Edward.
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That was good.
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{\an8}♪ One day I was walking away ♪
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{\an8}♪ The sun was out
It was a beautiful day ♪
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{\an8}♪ Then, right then I heard a noise
In the street was a gang of boys ♪
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♪ Then I saw them dealing drugs
I said to them that they were bust ♪
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♪ You are a criminal ♪
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♪ I said to them ♪
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♪ You are a criminal ♪
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If you'd have gone back to my high school,
into my classroom, and gone,
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"Who in this class is gonna be in a song
with 50 Cent and Eminem in 15 years,
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rapping with them?"
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"Like, which one?"
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- It's so unlikely.
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But it's, like, I believe in
speaking things into existence.
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Come on stage quickly,
and let me show you.
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So no one-- no one can actually see me,
uh, yet 'cause of the screen.
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A lot of the time I'll come up here
just before the show just to be like,
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"Okay, that's that and that's that."
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And just know
where everything and everyone are-- is.
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And, um, it's gonna be fun.
Are you gonna be onstage for the whole...
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Until you tell me to piss off.
- Amazing.
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I planned my life to the nth degree.
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It wasn't like I was
in this lost maze of trying something.
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It was like,
"No. This is what I want to do.
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And to do it, I have to do all these gigs,
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write all these songs,
and it will happen."
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And it did.
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You guys did come to me, and you said,
"Do you want to make a documentary?"
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And I went,
"Yeah, on the making of Subtract.
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And it should be me in the studio,
and then the videos being done,
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and then the gig going on.
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And we'll play the gig,
and that's the end of the documentary."
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And, like, I don't know.
That's not what the documentary is.
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What this year has taught me
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is that plans can change really quickly.
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Right, Zurich. I want to see everyone
in this stadium right now.
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Let's jump, jump, jump.
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♪ When I was six years old
I broke my leg ♪
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♪ I was running
From my brother and his friends ♪
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When I left school, I remember being like,
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{\an8}"I know that if you work hard enough,
you can do this."
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{\an8}I was gigging in London from 15,
getting the train up.
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{\an8}I moved at 17, and I just used to sell
CDs from the rucksack at the gigs.
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Get on the tube. Go to the next place.
Get on the tube. Go to the next place.
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I don't know if I'm meant to plug them,
but I do have CDs on sale,
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and they do pay for my food.
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I would just have a rucksack,
a loop pedal at the bottom,
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and then 30 CDs stacked up,
and then that'd be me.
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♪ I'm on my way... ♪
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I always knew that you just have to
work harder than everyone else.
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There's always gonna be someone
that wants it more than you.
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I looked at all my peers and was like,
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"Well, you're playing one show a week.
I'm gonna do three shows a night."
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- Guys, guys. For this--
Shh.
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For this to work, 'cause there is no mic,
we're gonna have to--
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Keep quiet.
- There you go.
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I found I was largely ignored
at singer-songwriter gigs,
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so I would go and play jazz nights,
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hip-hop nights, soul nights,
poetry nights.
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♪ Of all the money that ever I had ♪
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If I was doing a hip-hop night,
I would go into 50 Cent's "In the Club."
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♪ You can find me in the club
Bottle full of bub ♪
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♪ Mami, I got the X
If you into takin' drugs ♪
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♪ Into havin' sex
I ain't into makin' love ♪
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♪ Come give me a hug
If you into getting rubbed ♪
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♪ You can find me in the club, club
Bottle full of bub... ♪
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Because of the way that I look, people
were suddenly taken aback and shocked.
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♪ I ain't into makin' love
So come give me a hug ♪
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-♪ If you into getting rubbed ♪
Whoo!
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Every label was like,
"No. That's not gonna work."
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{\an8}We in, lad. Don't know where we are yet,
but it's-- Hey, Ed!
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{\an8}Say hello to the camera, SBTV.
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- Dun ho.
No. Nuh-uh.
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Let's get it uploaded to Twitter.
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With the music industry,
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you have to wait for one person
to be like, "That's great."
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For me, it was Jamal.
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SBTV.
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Jamal had
a music video channel called, uh, SBTV.
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{\an8}♪ Now I'm in town
Break it down ♪
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{\an8}♪ Thinkin' of makin' a new sound
Playin' a different show every... ♪
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My video
on his platform was, like,
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{\an8}the first video I ever had that, like,
went over, like 20,000 views.
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{\an8}Then it was 100 thousand,
500 thousand, a million.
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{\an8}Loads of people are jumping
on the online thing nowadays as well.
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From the very, very first day,
we were, like, best mates.
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We found the right time,
and made it on YouTube.
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♪ But more people hear me though ♪
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♪ According to the Myspace
And YouTube videos ♪
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It's a very normal thing nowadays,
especially with Spotify and TikTok.
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♪ They say I'm up-and-coming
Like I'm loving in an elevator ♪
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Ed Sheeran,
or the Sheeranator as he was called.
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Back in the day,
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we were like, "Don't wait
for a record label to do it for you.
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Do it first, and then they'll join in.
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And they'll basically put petrol
on the fire and make it way bigger.
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But you have to start the fire yourself."
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...SBTV. Acoustic 64.
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{\an8}And this song's called "The A Team."
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{\an8}♪ White lips, pale face
Breathing in snowflakes ♪
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♪ Burnt lungs, sour taste ♪
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I'd written
so many songs at that point
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that I thought would be the biggest songs
in the world and everyone would love
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and just fell on deaf ears.
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So I just assumed "A Team"
would be another one of those.
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Um. But it just gained momentum.
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I think every artist starts
with a song like that.
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There's always one song
that opens the door.
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♪ In the Class A Team
Stuck in her daydream ♪
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♪ Been this way since 18 ♪
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♪ But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting ♪
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♪ Crumbling like pastry ♪
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I signed my deal.
I went on tour.
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"A Team" came out. That was a hit.
There was no faffing.
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It was just,
record deal's signed, we're off.
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Ed Sheeran now on the long list--
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I remember the day,
first time ever being played on radio.
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♪ They say she's in the class A Team ♪
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First time ever selling out a show.
Like, first time doing an album signing.
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{\an8}First time in America.
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{\an8}♪ Crumbling like pastries
And they scream ♪
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{\an8}♪ The worst things in life
Come free to us ♪
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{\an8}♪ 'Cause she's just under the upper hand
Goes mad for a couple grams ♪
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{\an8}♪ And she don't wanna go outside tonight ♪
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When the successes started happening,
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{\an8}that's kind of what I started chasing.
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{\an8}I didn't know I could play The O2 arena,
so let's try and do Wembley.
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{\an8}Hello, Wembley.
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{\an8}I didn't know I could do Wembley.
Let's headline Glastonbury.
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♪ Under the upper hand
Go mad for a couple grams ♪
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And it kind of snowballed from there, really.
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♪ They say she's in the class A Team ♪
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Sing it loud!
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♪ Stuck in her daydreams ♪
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♪ Been this way since 18 ♪
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♪ But lately her face seems
Slowly sinking, wasting ♪
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And then before I knew it,
I'd played over 40 countries
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and sold nine million tickets
on The Divide Tour.
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And that become 63 million albums
sold worldwide.
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♪ It's too cold outside ♪
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Ed Sheeran's Divide Tour
has broken a record set by U2,
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and it's one of the most attended
and highest-grossing show of all time.
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♪ To fly, to fly
For angels to die ♪
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Thank you.
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You figure out really quickly that
the really high highs are not actually it.
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It's like, alongside
all the professional achievements
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have been personal achievements.
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Like, I've got married and I'm a dad
who, like, has two daughters.
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When'd you get here?
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Are you talking to me?
- Yeah.
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{\an8}Um, halfway through. It was great.
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{\an8}So Jupie's down, Lyra's down.
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Oh, did you pump?
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{\an8}I didn't. I actually didn't pump.
But, um, Jupes was like...
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You know how she...
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My and Cherry's relationship,
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it's the most amazing thing in my life
that no one really knows about.
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Everything in my life sort of got
so much better when she got into it.
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Cheers, babe.
- Cheers.
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{\an8}- Last tuk-tuk--
This is so cool.
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We went on a tuk-tuk in Bangkok.
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- Do you remember that party tuk-tuk?
- That was a party tuk-tuk.
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- Yeah, I--
- I just have images of us,
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like, leaning out the windows.
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I had to have a tactical nap
halfway through the night.
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- I just slept.
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- So when we first started...
- Oh, my God.
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...getting together,
I was living in New York.
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And I was like, I knew Ed from school,
so I know what he'll want to do.
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I've got this nailed.
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- We went boating in, um, Central Park.
Central Park.
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On that lake.
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But it was, like, the busiest, busiest,
hottest day of the year in New York.
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Um, like, we were--
So we were rowing out...
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I was rowing, right?
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I got into the middle of the lake,
and just--
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These boats just started surrounding us.
But all these tourists.
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- They were all rowing after us.
- They were filming and taking pictures.
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- I'm like--
- Ed was sweating.
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And then Chez goes,
"Do you want me to row?"
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I was like, "Cherry, the last thing
I need is a picture of you rowing me."
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Cherry's apartment, it wasn't even a room.
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You had a, like-- It was a living room
that they put a par-- a partition in.
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After a month, she was like,
"Oh, I've got a room at another apartment.
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Will you help me move out?"
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I was like, "Yeah, new boyfriend.
I'll help you move out."
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So we packed up all the boxes,
and again hottest day of the summer.
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- Forty-second...
- Lifting all these boxes.
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- We got to the lockup.
- Oh, yeah.
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- Ben had rented one.
- Move everything.
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In my mind I was like, "Next time,
we should pay movers to do that."
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- This is--
- No, don't make it--
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Ed always tells this story,
and it drives me mad.
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- He's like, I'm crazy...
- Can I finish the story?
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...for not getting--
for not getting a removal van in.
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It's like, who can afford at 22 years old
to get a removal van in
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- to move them out of their flat?
- I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Okay.
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Yeah, I didn't think it was gonna
ever be any more than that weekend.
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And here we are.
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Here we are. Marriage. Two kids.
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He basically kept coming back for--
for promo.
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There was a reason I kept coming back.
I didn't just keep coming back.
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♪ I know that life ♪
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{\an8}♪ Won't ever be the same ♪
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{\an8}♪ This love will never go away ♪
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{\an8}♪ Welcome to the world ♪
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I can just say, like--
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So he's, like, um-- He'll kill--
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I feel like he'll kill me
for saying all these things.
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He's not very practical.
He got famous very quickly.
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So it was like
a really condensed period of your life
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where you learn how to put the wash on
and how to take care of yourself.
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So I was so nervous that it was like,
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"I'm not sure he's gonna cope
with looking after another human."
228
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♪ Oh, wel... ♪
229
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Serenaded.
230
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♪ Oh, welcome to the world ♪
231
00:12:03,307 --> 00:12:05,017
♪ Welcome to the world ♪
232
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♪ I heard your heartbeat
And lost every word ♪
233
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He wanted kids,
like, 15 years ago.
234
00:12:12,816 --> 00:12:16,820
He was just-- Like, he would have been
like a teenage dad and been fine with it.
235
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♪ Of our love ♪
236
00:12:20,532 --> 00:12:24,119
So I thought it was like a career stopper
and a duh, duh, duh, duh.
237
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But he has this thing where it's like,
"Why would kids ever stop anything?
238
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I'm still gonna do X, Y, Z,
and that's how you should feel about it."
239
00:12:30,292 --> 00:12:34,046
So he's really good at bringing me
back to that place
240
00:12:34,046 --> 00:12:37,299
of we're just gonna do
everything we were gonna do with kids.
241
00:12:39,760 --> 00:12:41,428
That was mad. Did you feel that one?
242
00:12:45,057 --> 00:12:47,893
Did blood, sweat and tears
go into this cot?
243
00:12:47,893 --> 00:12:51,021
- Literally blood, sweat and tears, dear.
244
00:12:51,021 --> 00:12:53,732
Like, it's a major partnership, isn't it?
245
00:12:53,732 --> 00:12:55,776
It's like--
She's not just along for the ride.
246
00:12:55,776 --> 00:12:59,238
We are, like, one
and moving through life together
247
00:12:59,238 --> 00:13:00,531
and navigating it all together.
248
00:13:00,531 --> 00:13:06,328
♪ Ooh
I know that life won't ever be the same ♪
249
00:13:08,247 --> 00:13:11,208
♪ This love won't ever go away ♪
250
00:13:14,002 --> 00:13:15,879
- You got a kick?
It just kicked!
251
00:13:17,297 --> 00:13:19,258
Actually?
Yeah.
252
00:13:20,259 --> 00:13:23,679
- Have you woken up? Songs wake you up?
Really?
253
00:13:23,679 --> 00:13:27,683
{\an8}Literally the moment you finished.
That's so weird.
254
00:13:31,603 --> 00:13:36,733
{\an8}- Frankfurt, how you feeling tonight?
255
00:13:36,733 --> 00:13:41,947
This song that I'm gonna play is, uh,
my favorite song that I've written.
256
00:13:42,573 --> 00:13:46,076
And every day I meet people
that tell me stories about it.
257
00:13:46,076 --> 00:13:49,246
And I know that everyone in here
will have a story about this song,
258
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no matter how big or how small.
259
00:13:51,665 --> 00:13:56,336
I remember
writing "Perfect" in a basement in London.
260
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And it was the first few weeks
of us dating.
261
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And I remember getting there...
262
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{\an8}...just having the melody and feeling, like,
goose bumps writing it.
263
00:14:14,354 --> 00:14:19,401
{\an8}♪ I found a love for me ♪
264
00:14:21,653 --> 00:14:24,406
♪ Well, darling, just dive right in ♪
265
00:14:25,574 --> 00:14:27,576
♪ And follow my lead ♪
266
00:14:28,702 --> 00:14:30,329
I remember emailing it to her.
267
00:14:31,371 --> 00:14:33,457
And then being like,
"Oh, that might be a bit heavy."
268
00:14:34,791 --> 00:14:37,210
♪ Well, I found a girl ♪
269
00:14:38,921 --> 00:14:40,088
♪ Beautiful and sweet ♪
270
00:14:40,088 --> 00:14:41,590
We were friends at school.
271
00:14:41,590 --> 00:14:43,300
He's in the year above.
I'm in the year below.
272
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Always really got on.
273
00:14:44,468 --> 00:14:47,638
♪ I knew you were the someone
Waitin' for me ♪
274
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We had, I guess,
flirted with the idea of flirting.
275
00:14:52,476 --> 00:14:54,061
Does that make sense?
276
00:14:54,061 --> 00:14:57,689
Uh, we did have a little smooch
around that time.
277
00:14:57,689 --> 00:14:58,815
You know.
278
00:14:58,815 --> 00:15:00,984
As you do when you're--
when you're that age.
279
00:15:00,984 --> 00:15:04,863
And then she basically went to university
in America, and I went on tour.
280
00:15:04,863 --> 00:15:06,323
I didn't see her for a few years.
281
00:15:06,323 --> 00:15:08,575
I always wanted
to go to uni in the States.
282
00:15:08,575 --> 00:15:11,286
I was playing field hockey out there,
which was amazing.
283
00:15:11,286 --> 00:15:17,459
And then I got an offer
to work in tech and finance in New York.
284
00:15:18,377 --> 00:15:20,003
We bumped into each other again.
285
00:15:20,003 --> 00:15:21,421
Then me and Chez started dating,
286
00:15:21,421 --> 00:15:24,591
and it was so, like, natural,
and it just felt right.
287
00:15:24,591 --> 00:15:26,885
♪ Well, I found a woman ♪
288
00:15:28,387 --> 00:15:31,264
♪ Stronger than anyone I know ♪
289
00:15:32,307 --> 00:15:33,976
♪ She shares my dreams ♪
290
00:15:33,976 --> 00:15:39,648
♪ I hope that someday
I'll share her home ♪
291
00:15:39,648 --> 00:15:41,858
♪ I found a lover ♪
292
00:15:44,319 --> 00:15:47,489
♪ To carry more than just my secrets ♪
293
00:15:48,073 --> 00:15:53,078
♪ To carry love
To carry children of our own ♪
294
00:15:53,078 --> 00:15:57,916
But I think the reason we really connected
like that at that point in our lives
295
00:15:57,916 --> 00:16:00,961
was both of us
had kind of a mutual feeling
296
00:16:00,961 --> 00:16:04,256
of being isolated from, like,
our friends and our family.
297
00:16:04,256 --> 00:16:07,009
And I think
that's what brought us together.
298
00:16:07,759 --> 00:16:13,265
I sort of felt like I could "be free"
for however much longer,
299
00:16:13,265 --> 00:16:15,142
or I could build my life with this person.
300
00:16:15,142 --> 00:16:18,353
And every experience from this moment
we're gonna share together.
301
00:16:18,353 --> 00:16:20,772
Every moment of it was not forced.
302
00:16:20,772 --> 00:16:22,816
We would just hang out and stuff.
303
00:16:22,816 --> 00:16:25,736
She would come to this industry event,
and then I'd go to her hockey game,
304
00:16:25,736 --> 00:16:29,698
and our lives, even at the crazy stuff,
it just sort of worked.
305
00:16:29,698 --> 00:16:31,241
Even the not crazy stuff, it just worked.
306
00:16:31,241 --> 00:16:32,576
- And it was--
307
00:16:32,576 --> 00:16:34,411
Sorry, those are my kids
playing in the background.
308
00:16:34,411 --> 00:16:37,330
I had the date of the engagement
engraved on the ring.
309
00:16:37,330 --> 00:16:38,582
- So--
- It had to happen on that day.
310
00:16:38,582 --> 00:16:40,667
It had to happen on this day. I was like...
311
00:16:40,667 --> 00:16:42,794
He was, "We have to get out.
We've got so much to do today."
312
00:16:42,794 --> 00:16:44,379
And I was, "We have nothing to do today.
313
00:16:44,379 --> 00:16:47,507
This is our first day of holiday.
We have absolutely nothing to do today."
314
00:16:47,507 --> 00:16:50,010
And I was like, "Mate,
you've got to stop acting like this."
315
00:16:50,010 --> 00:16:52,554
He came into the sitting room.
I'd just made this food.
316
00:16:52,554 --> 00:16:54,306
And he was like, "We've gotta do this."
317
00:16:54,306 --> 00:16:56,349
And I was like, "Ed, stop being such a..."
318
00:16:56,349 --> 00:16:57,434
- Like, I actually--
- C word.
319
00:16:57,434 --> 00:16:58,518
Like, I cannot say it.
320
00:16:58,518 --> 00:17:03,231
I, like, spun around as I was saying it.
And he was on one knee with the ring out.
321
00:17:03,231 --> 00:17:04,566
I was like, "Oh!"
322
00:17:04,566 --> 00:17:08,445
And she said, "Are you joking?"
And I just said, "Please?"
323
00:17:10,405 --> 00:17:13,200
He doesn't see barriers at all
in anything.
324
00:17:13,200 --> 00:17:15,786
Like, it's just like, "I wanna do this,
and I'm gonna go and do it."
325
00:17:15,786 --> 00:17:20,165
He basically persuaded me
to take a sabbatical off work,
326
00:17:20,165 --> 00:17:22,501
do a masters in sustainability,
and now I work in sustainability.
327
00:17:22,501 --> 00:17:23,418
What, what?
328
00:17:24,878 --> 00:17:26,338
Just heard back?
Yeah.
329
00:17:26,338 --> 00:17:27,756
You said you didn't.
- I did.
330
00:17:27,756 --> 00:17:29,132
- Come here.
331
00:17:30,050 --> 00:17:32,219
Got into Cambridge University, didn't she?
332
00:17:32,219 --> 00:17:34,721
Wait, what? What? Congrats.
333
00:17:34,721 --> 00:17:36,640
That was all Ed just being like,
334
00:17:36,640 --> 00:17:39,559
"This is not the Cherry I know
from school."
335
00:17:39,559 --> 00:17:40,769
So few people have it.
336
00:17:40,769 --> 00:17:43,772
I can hear my baby crying.
337
00:17:43,772 --> 00:17:45,440
- Um...
...your daughter?
338
00:17:45,440 --> 00:17:47,442
I'm gonna just quickly check on her
if that's all right.
339
00:17:47,442 --> 00:17:48,860
Of course. Absolutely.
340
00:17:58,662 --> 00:17:59,663
On the tables here.
341
00:18:01,039 --> 00:18:04,209
Oh, my God.
I feel like I'm in a zoo.
342
00:18:08,255 --> 00:18:10,298
- I look what?
- Really good.
343
00:18:10,298 --> 00:18:12,092
- Really?
Yeah.
344
00:18:12,592 --> 00:18:13,927
I mean, you do. But I don't--
345
00:18:13,927 --> 00:18:16,847
I don't think anyone ever looked
at a male in a lederhosen and went...
346
00:18:16,847 --> 00:18:18,723
Just let me do it!
347
00:18:19,599 --> 00:18:21,768
There's a live band.
Should we go up and play a song?
348
00:18:21,768 --> 00:18:22,894
Dude.
349
00:18:23,436 --> 00:18:25,397
There's a live band.
Should we go and play a song?
350
00:18:26,022 --> 00:18:27,149
My friends always joke
351
00:18:27,149 --> 00:18:29,901
because whenever there's a stage,
I usually get on it.
352
00:18:34,406 --> 00:18:38,618
Can they do-- Can they do "I Want It
That Way," um, Backstreet Boys?
353
00:18:38,618 --> 00:18:40,745
"I Want It That Way." Let me ask.
354
00:18:42,789 --> 00:18:44,499
Actually, no, no, no. I'll do "Perfect."
355
00:18:46,543 --> 00:18:50,672
Being so open
to playing anywhere when I was younger,
356
00:18:50,672 --> 00:18:52,632
I could walk onstage with real confidence
357
00:18:52,632 --> 00:18:54,551
of being like,
"I know I can entertain you."
358
00:18:54,551 --> 00:18:56,803
Okay...
But it comes from, like,
359
00:18:56,803 --> 00:18:58,930
years of getting your confidence battered,
I think.
360
00:18:58,930 --> 00:19:00,932
And it just strengthens it up
and up and up.
361
00:19:05,103 --> 00:19:07,272
♪ I found the love ♪
362
00:19:07,272 --> 00:19:08,356
Sing with me!
363
00:19:08,356 --> 00:19:10,734
♪ For me ♪
364
00:19:12,611 --> 00:19:18,366
♪ Darling, just dive right in
And follow my lead ♪
365
00:19:20,202 --> 00:19:21,995
♪ I found a girl ♪
366
00:19:21,995 --> 00:19:23,830
Oh, stop it.
367
00:19:23,830 --> 00:19:26,416
♪ Beautiful and sweet ♪
368
00:19:27,626 --> 00:19:32,881
♪ I never knew you were that someone
Waiting for me ♪
369
00:19:32,881 --> 00:19:34,049
Sing it loud!
370
00:19:34,049 --> 00:19:36,801
-♪ Baby, I'm... ♪
♪ Baby, I'm... ♪
371
00:19:36,801 --> 00:19:37,928
Loud!
372
00:19:37,928 --> 00:19:40,805
♪ Dancing in the dark ♪
373
00:19:41,431 --> 00:19:44,392
♪ With you between my arms ♪
374
00:19:44,392 --> 00:19:47,187
I love writing songs,
and me writing...
375
00:19:47,187 --> 00:19:49,189
Like, "Perfect's" my favorite song
I've ever written,
376
00:19:49,189 --> 00:19:51,024
and the feeling that I got from "Perfect"
377
00:19:51,024 --> 00:19:53,985
is worth way more than anything
that "Perfect's" ever done commercially.
378
00:19:53,985 --> 00:19:57,447
'Cause I wrote it, and I was like,
"Yes! This is great! I love it!"
379
00:19:57,447 --> 00:19:59,658
And then you put it out,
and everyone else says, "We love it!"
380
00:19:59,658 --> 00:20:01,117
And you go, "Yay! Everyone loves it."
381
00:20:01,117 --> 00:20:03,203
{\an8}Ladies and gentlemen,
382
00:20:03,203 --> 00:20:05,789
{\an8}give it up
for the incomparable Ed Sheeran.
383
00:20:05,789 --> 00:20:08,416
Everyone wants their music
heard in the same way.
384
00:20:08,416 --> 00:20:12,545
Everyone wants bums on seats
in venues to come and watch you play.
385
00:20:12,545 --> 00:20:14,005
That's what you've wanted all along.
386
00:20:14,005 --> 00:20:15,966
Otherwise you wouldn't be
putting yourself out there.
387
00:20:15,966 --> 00:20:23,056
♪ I found a love
Stronger than anyone I know ♪
388
00:20:24,057 --> 00:20:26,351
And then you feel charged
to go and play it to people.
389
00:20:26,351 --> 00:20:29,813
It's more of
a "I've written a song that I love."
390
00:20:29,813 --> 00:20:36,695
♪ Baby, I'm dancing in the dark ♪
391
00:20:37,279 --> 00:20:40,448
♪ With you between my arms ♪
392
00:20:42,117 --> 00:20:44,286
No,
I didn't really expect to get this big.
393
00:20:44,286 --> 00:20:46,955
Like, I bump into all the record company
people that turned me down.
394
00:20:46,955 --> 00:20:49,708
And I-- I-- I can sense it.
I can sense it in them.
395
00:20:49,708 --> 00:20:52,752
And I don't need to say it, and they
don't need to say it, but there's just a...
396
00:20:53,962 --> 00:20:55,255
"I told you."
397
00:20:55,255 --> 00:20:59,175
♪ You are perfect tonight ♪
398
00:20:59,759 --> 00:21:01,970
You're gonna put that in,
I'm gonna look [bleep].
399
00:21:11,313 --> 00:21:13,648
This one goes to the second,
and it'll go up again.
400
00:21:15,108 --> 00:21:16,192
Whoa. Look at that.
401
00:21:19,529 --> 00:21:22,324
We're not going to the top.
No, just the second floor.
402
00:21:24,075 --> 00:21:26,119
Proper sweaty. But mate, I'm proper...
403
00:21:26,119 --> 00:21:27,537
I just don't like heights.
404
00:21:28,204 --> 00:21:30,040
- That is beautiful.
405
00:21:31,166 --> 00:21:32,167
Yeah.
406
00:21:33,752 --> 00:21:34,836
- Do I?
Yeah, yeah.
407
00:21:46,222 --> 00:21:47,599
Touring before, if you were--
408
00:21:47,599 --> 00:21:49,809
if when I was playing, like,
theaters and stuff like that,
409
00:21:49,809 --> 00:21:53,146
traveling the world,
it felt like a sort of secret in the city.
410
00:21:53,146 --> 00:21:54,731
And people who knew would go to the shows,
411
00:21:54,731 --> 00:21:56,483
whereas when you play these big shows...
412
00:21:56,483 --> 00:21:57,942
Hi, there!
- Hello.
413
00:21:59,861 --> 00:22:00,945
{\an8}Oh. Oh, thank you.
414
00:22:02,530 --> 00:22:03,782
Oh, did you-- You're coming tonight?
415
00:22:05,450 --> 00:22:06,451
{\an8}Amazing.
416
00:22:07,619 --> 00:22:08,620
I'll come down--
417
00:22:10,663 --> 00:22:14,167
So this reaction when I go
places has definitely held me back
418
00:22:14,167 --> 00:22:15,251
on a personal level.
419
00:22:15,251 --> 00:22:19,172
Like four or five years ago, I was just
super paranoid wherever I went that, like,
420
00:22:19,172 --> 00:22:22,217
someone would film me or someone
would tweet out "he's at this place,"
421
00:22:22,217 --> 00:22:24,552
And Cherry made me a lot better with it.
422
00:22:24,552 --> 00:22:27,555
Do you get
any time together away obviously?
423
00:22:27,555 --> 00:22:30,183
Yeah, we--
So, me and Cherry have a very strict--
424
00:22:30,183 --> 00:22:32,852
Do you mind if we-- I burn really badly,
and I haven't put sun cream on.
425
00:22:32,852 --> 00:22:34,979
Oh, go on.
- Do you mind if we go in the...
426
00:22:34,979 --> 00:22:37,065
- We can probably go to the other side.
- Yeah, yeah.
427
00:22:37,065 --> 00:22:38,400
We were told when we had kids,
428
00:22:38,400 --> 00:22:41,027
they're like, "Basically,
date night goes out the window."
429
00:22:41,027 --> 00:22:44,364
And it's just--
I find, like, when you become parents,
430
00:22:44,364 --> 00:22:46,991
you just basically just become parents
431
00:22:46,991 --> 00:22:50,495
and you forget that you actually were
in love and in a relationship before
432
00:22:50,495 --> 00:22:53,915
and, like, had fun
and just fancying each other, you know?
433
00:22:53,915 --> 00:22:55,583
Reminding each other you fancy each other.
434
00:23:03,216 --> 00:23:05,593
Can you guess what we're doing?
Are we painting?
435
00:23:05,593 --> 00:23:08,012
Oh, my God. Are we actually?
That's amazing!
436
00:23:08,012 --> 00:23:09,389
Come in.
437
00:23:11,349 --> 00:23:16,187
If you like,
you can take your clothes all.
438
00:23:16,187 --> 00:23:18,773
But I give you, uh, some--
439
00:23:18,773 --> 00:23:20,608
- Like a boiler suit?
- Yes.
440
00:23:20,608 --> 00:23:22,944
- Okay. Let's go.
- Let's do it.
441
00:23:24,154 --> 00:23:26,990
This is rad. I'm so excited.
442
00:23:27,574 --> 00:23:31,161
- This is great.
- I always feel like you express yourself
443
00:23:32,370 --> 00:23:33,705
through your art.
444
00:23:34,289 --> 00:23:35,373
Here we go.
445
00:23:41,796 --> 00:23:44,591
Now we're cooking with gas, Ed.
446
00:23:45,508 --> 00:23:48,011
I'm having the best time.
447
00:23:49,637 --> 00:23:51,014
What do you think?
448
00:23:51,014 --> 00:23:52,640
I need my base color.
449
00:23:53,141 --> 00:23:54,642
What's wrong with you?
450
00:23:58,396 --> 00:24:00,565
'Cause then
I'm gonna splatter on top of this.
451
00:24:00,565 --> 00:24:01,816
Cool.
452
00:24:21,044 --> 00:24:22,337
Crying man.
453
00:24:25,089 --> 00:24:26,007
Mmm.
454
00:24:28,676 --> 00:24:29,677
Do you like it?
455
00:24:29,677 --> 00:24:30,929
I look kinda happy.
456
00:24:31,638 --> 00:24:32,639
Well, this is the point.
457
00:24:32,639 --> 00:24:35,934
You're sort of-- not sure where you are
at the moment with your...
458
00:24:41,439 --> 00:24:44,275
I feel like this is a better reflection
of my head right now.
459
00:24:44,275 --> 00:24:45,693
- Chez.
- Huh?
460
00:24:45,693 --> 00:24:47,320
- A better reflection.
This is it!
461
00:24:47,320 --> 00:24:52,825
If you can, like, distill Ed's brain
onto a canvas, like...
462
00:24:52,825 --> 00:24:54,494
...that is it.
463
00:24:54,494 --> 00:24:56,454
But, like, there is so much
going on in there.
464
00:24:56,454 --> 00:24:57,997
You should tell-- Well, cut this bit out.
465
00:24:57,997 --> 00:25:00,166
But tell Souts why you actually
wanted to do the documentary
466
00:25:00,166 --> 00:25:02,001
- 'cause you were explaining--
- It's so deep though.
467
00:25:02,001 --> 00:25:04,212
We were having such a heart-to-heart.
468
00:25:04,212 --> 00:25:07,757
Um. It's stupid, like, it's--
Yeah, it's wild.
469
00:25:07,757 --> 00:25:10,260
Um, but I was saying to Ed, so I...
470
00:25:11,344 --> 00:25:13,179
Long story short, super **** shit,
471
00:25:13,179 --> 00:25:16,683
got diagnosed with cancer at the start of
the year, which was a massive shitter.
472
00:25:17,433 --> 00:25:20,562
Um, but it made me--
473
00:25:20,562 --> 00:25:22,647
You're so all super silent now.
474
00:25:23,147 --> 00:25:28,570
It made me massively reflect on, like,
our mortality.
475
00:25:28,570 --> 00:25:32,240
Like, we're all completely, like,
uh, human or whatever.
476
00:25:32,240 --> 00:25:35,326
And, um-- But I was saying to Ed,
477
00:25:35,326 --> 00:25:39,747
it's like I would never have agreed to do
anything like this ever, ever, ever.
478
00:25:39,747 --> 00:25:42,750
Um, but it made me think--
Like, this whole year,
479
00:25:42,750 --> 00:25:49,132
I've been thinking, like, "Oh, if I died,
what's people's perception of me?"
480
00:25:49,132 --> 00:25:51,884
Like, what do you leave behind?
481
00:25:51,884 --> 00:25:56,973
And I think for Ed, he-- Like,
the whole point is that he's trying to...
482
00:25:57,640 --> 00:26:00,476
He wants to say to people,
"I'm not just this music machine.
483
00:26:00,476 --> 00:26:05,440
Like, I'm not just this, like, robot that,
like, tries to get number one.
484
00:26:05,440 --> 00:26:10,820
Like, I'm a father, I'm a son,
I'm a friend, I'm a husband."
485
00:26:10,820 --> 00:26:13,948
And I've massively reflected on just--
486
00:26:13,948 --> 00:26:15,825
It genuinely wasn't until this year
487
00:26:15,825 --> 00:26:17,827
when I was just like,
"I might die this year."
488
00:26:17,827 --> 00:26:18,911
Or, like...
489
00:26:18,911 --> 00:26:21,247
Chez, you don't, like, you don't--
490
00:26:21,247 --> 00:26:24,000
Like, you've said that twice now
where it's like, "Oh, it's all good."
491
00:26:24,000 --> 00:26:27,503
- But, like, you don't have to pretend...
- It was super gnarly. It was horrible.
492
00:26:27,503 --> 00:26:29,589
But-- But when you have that...
493
00:26:30,089 --> 00:26:33,718
I know, but, like, but you're saying it
for the cameras like...
494
00:26:33,718 --> 00:26:36,471
You said, like,
"Got diagnosed with cancer. No biggie."
495
00:26:36,471 --> 00:26:37,597
- Like...
496
00:26:37,597 --> 00:26:39,474
- ...**** hell, man.
- You're gonna make me cry.
497
00:26:40,308 --> 00:26:44,646
But, like, you're definitely
just playing it down, but it was horrible.
498
00:26:44,646 --> 00:26:46,064
Yeah, it was gnarly.
499
00:26:50,568 --> 00:26:51,569
Crying man.
500
00:26:54,989 --> 00:26:57,408
No, don't, 'cause I--
I don't really wanna think about it.
501
00:26:57,992 --> 00:26:59,494
What do you think of my brain though?
502
00:27:00,244 --> 00:27:01,663
It is so...
503
00:27:02,205 --> 00:27:04,499
It's what I have to deal with
on a daily basis.
504
00:27:04,499 --> 00:27:06,250
Like, "Wake up."
505
00:27:06,250 --> 00:27:07,335
Oh, man. I know.
506
00:27:07,335 --> 00:27:08,419
Yeah, it's a lot.
507
00:27:08,920 --> 00:27:14,634
Chez, that-- that--
that is being hung in the TV room.
508
00:27:29,065 --> 00:27:34,487
{\an8}At the start of February, um, we had the--
the diagnosis of the tumor.
509
00:27:34,487 --> 00:27:37,907
And the day after,
Ed went down into the basement
510
00:27:37,907 --> 00:27:42,829
and wrote seven songs in, like,
what, four hours, maybe it was?
511
00:27:42,829 --> 00:27:46,207
Yeah, it was like Ed's--
I guess his way of, um...
512
00:27:48,710 --> 00:27:51,003
You know, everyone-- Well, not everyone,
but people write a diary,
513
00:27:51,003 --> 00:27:54,340
like, and get their emotions out
through their-- through the pen.
514
00:27:54,340 --> 00:27:57,802
And for Ed, it's if something
really intense happens to him,
515
00:27:57,802 --> 00:27:58,886
he will go and write songs.
516
00:27:58,886 --> 00:28:00,596
I'm gonna have to remember the words now.
517
00:28:00,596 --> 00:28:01,931
But this is-- This is one of them.
518
00:28:01,931 --> 00:28:03,015
All right.
519
00:28:05,977 --> 00:28:09,814
♪ Rain keeps beating on the rooftop
Muddying the glass ♪
520
00:28:09,814 --> 00:28:13,109
{\an8}♪ But God, I love the sound of heaven ♪
521
00:28:13,109 --> 00:28:17,739
{\an8}♪ Sat cross-legged on the carpet
Listenin' to vinyl ♪
522
00:28:17,739 --> 00:28:20,032
♪ Trying to ignore the weather ♪
523
00:28:20,742 --> 00:28:24,203
♪ This week was heavy
I buckled under all the weight ♪
524
00:28:24,203 --> 00:28:26,664
♪ What can you do but pray? ♪
525
00:28:27,915 --> 00:28:31,335
♪ I count my blessings
It wasn't any other way ♪
526
00:28:31,335 --> 00:28:33,755
♪ Don't leave it up to fate ♪
527
00:28:34,797 --> 00:28:38,509
♪ Same problems
Different options ♪
528
00:28:38,509 --> 00:28:41,471
♪ Pain comes at a cost
But we got this ♪
529
00:28:41,471 --> 00:28:45,224
♪ Need respite
Bleed time dry ♪
530
00:28:45,224 --> 00:28:48,603
♪ She'll be fine
She'll be fine ♪
531
00:28:50,354 --> 00:28:51,355
Uh...
532
00:28:53,191 --> 00:28:57,153
♪ Rain keeps fallin' on the rooftop
Muddying the glass ♪
533
00:28:57,153 --> 00:28:59,739
♪ But God, I love the sound of heaven ♪
534
00:29:00,281 --> 00:29:02,825
♪ We are made to shine like stars ♪
535
00:29:02,825 --> 00:29:06,662
♪ But that don't mean
It don't burn like hell to be Vega ♪
536
00:29:07,955 --> 00:29:08,998
Sort of remember the words.
537
00:29:08,998 --> 00:29:10,458
- That was great.
- Thanks.
538
00:29:10,458 --> 00:29:14,003
That's a song I wrote in February.
539
00:29:14,545 --> 00:29:17,673
Uh, Cherry had gone
to have her lump taken out,
540
00:29:17,673 --> 00:29:22,887
and I kept saying to you
that it was just a lump and not to worry.
541
00:29:23,596 --> 00:29:26,474
And that it was all good.
And then I was rehearsing,
542
00:29:26,474 --> 00:29:29,769
I remember getting a call from Chez
being like, "Yeah, it's not--"
543
00:29:29,769 --> 00:29:32,730
"Cancel all the plans! I've got cancer."
544
00:29:34,649 --> 00:29:36,484
Yeah. Fun.
545
00:29:36,484 --> 00:29:41,405
The doctor was basically like,
"This is really bad."
546
00:29:41,405 --> 00:29:43,407
We were like, "Oh, okay."
547
00:29:43,407 --> 00:29:45,701
He was like, "But we're not gonna have
results back for a month."
548
00:29:45,701 --> 00:29:48,830
So we just sort of wandered
around London for the day.
549
00:29:48,830 --> 00:29:52,542
What happens is
you kind of have the initial report, um,
550
00:29:52,542 --> 00:29:55,503
and then they look at treatment plans,
and how you're gonna manage it.
551
00:29:55,503 --> 00:29:58,005
But then there were no treatment plans
that worked with a six month...
552
00:29:58,005 --> 00:29:59,924
- With the pregnancy.
- ...pregnant-- Yeah.
553
00:29:59,924 --> 00:30:01,467
So then you have a couple of weeks,
554
00:30:01,467 --> 00:30:04,595
like, going through that with, um,
surgeons and oncologists and stuff.
555
00:30:04,595 --> 00:30:09,809
And then we had sequencing of the--
of the tumor,
556
00:30:09,809 --> 00:30:15,273
and that came back, like, much less severe
than they thought it was originally,
557
00:30:15,273 --> 00:30:17,859
which was, like, the most incredible news.
558
00:30:17,859 --> 00:30:21,821
Like... [stammers] Like, I nearly threw up
when, like, the-- the surgeon told us
559
00:30:22,405 --> 00:30:24,907
we could wait till the end of
the pregnancy to get the tumor out,
560
00:30:24,907 --> 00:30:27,577
um, we didn't have to worry about
delivering the baby early.
561
00:30:28,077 --> 00:30:31,247
Um, so we got that news,
and then the day after, Jamal died.
562
00:30:31,831 --> 00:30:35,042
And it was just, like, a really bad time.
563
00:30:41,007 --> 00:30:42,133
Remember?
564
00:30:42,967 --> 00:30:44,218
- Yeah, it wasn't great.
- It was like...
565
00:30:45,845 --> 00:30:47,138
It was bad.
566
00:30:47,138 --> 00:30:50,975
Yeah, it was, like,
a, uh, difficult, difficult time.
567
00:30:52,852 --> 00:30:53,853
And then...
568
00:30:54,937 --> 00:30:57,607
- The court case.
- The court case came in a week later.
569
00:30:57,607 --> 00:31:00,443
Which actually, oddly paled in comparison.
By the time the court case came,
570
00:31:00,443 --> 00:31:03,279
I was just kind of, "This is actually
nothing compared to what's going on."
571
00:31:03,279 --> 00:31:05,072
Nah. The most important thing is, like...
572
00:31:05,072 --> 00:31:07,658
- Yeah.
- ...health and life.
573
00:31:07,658 --> 00:31:10,369
I don't think I'll ever get to February
and be like, "This is a great month."
574
00:31:10,369 --> 00:31:13,247
I'd think, like, it-- That was a horrible,
horrible, horrible month.
575
00:31:13,915 --> 00:31:16,375
Life hasn't moved on for me yet,
and I don't actually think it will.
576
00:31:16,375 --> 00:31:17,793
I don't think it's gonna be a...
577
00:31:21,589 --> 00:31:22,590
Yeah, I don't know.
578
00:31:30,806 --> 00:31:32,058
You should say something.
579
00:31:32,058 --> 00:31:35,186
I don't know
what to say. I knew you were gonna cry.
580
00:31:40,942 --> 00:31:43,819
♪ If we make it through this year ♪
581
00:31:45,029 --> 00:31:48,115
♪ Then nothing can break us ♪
582
00:31:52,703 --> 00:31:55,873
♪ Trouble leaves, then reappears ♪
583
00:31:56,832 --> 00:31:59,543
♪ We've shown we can take it ♪
584
00:32:05,383 --> 00:32:10,888
♪ We tear our hair out
And overthink it ♪
585
00:32:10,888 --> 00:32:14,767
♪ Work and get burned out ♪
586
00:32:15,434 --> 00:32:21,565
♪ But this is no strings
You are who I love ♪
587
00:32:21,565 --> 00:32:26,904
♪ And that won't change
When we're fallin' apart ♪
588
00:32:26,904 --> 00:32:33,661
♪ Yeah, this is no strings
You are who I love ♪
589
00:32:33,661 --> 00:32:37,790
{\an8}♪ It's just growing pains ♪