Which... [child babbles]
[grunts, sighs]
- Daddy, why-- - Yes.
Why didn't you get Captain Blue?
[Daddy] Because we've got Captain Black,
Colonel White and Destiny Angel, Captain Scarlet.
I-- I-- [sighs]
Ca-- Captain Black is lost in--
in my... [stammers] ...bedroom somewhere.
I-I want a video.
I'm specky, ginger hair, really short,
like, English, from the countryside, who stutters and beatboxes.
That guy doesn't become a pop star.
[Daddy] Well done, Edward.
That was good.
♪ One day I was walking away ♪
♪ The sun was out It was a beautiful day ♪
♪ Then, right then I heard a noise In the street was a gang of boys ♪
♪ Then I saw them dealing drugs I said to them that they were bust ♪
♪ You are a criminal ♪
[drumming]
♪ I said to them ♪
♪ You are a criminal ♪
If you'd have gone back to my high school, into my classroom, and gone,
"Who in this class is gonna be in a song with 50 Cent and Eminem in 15 years,
rapping with them?"
[chuckling] "Like, which one?"
- It's so unlikely. - [shutter clicks]
But it's, like, I believe in speaking things into existence.
Come on stage quickly, and let me show you.
So no one-- no one can actually see me, uh, yet 'cause of the screen.
A lot of the time I'll come up here just before the show just to be like,
"Okay, that's that and that's that."
And just know where everything and everyone are-- is.
And, um, it's gonna be fun. Are you gonna be onstage for the whole...
- [crewman] Until you tell me to piss off. - Amazing.
[Sheeran] I planned my life to the nth degree.
It wasn't like I was in this lost maze of trying something.
It was like, "No. This is what I want to do.
And to do it, I have to do all these gigs,
write all these songs, and it will happen."
And it did.
You guys did come to me, and you said, "Do you want to make a documentary?"
And I went, "Yeah, on the making of Subtract.
And it should be me in the studio, and then the videos being done,
and then the gig going on.
And we'll play the gig, and that's the end of the documentary."
And, like, I don't know. That's not what the documentary is.
What this year has taught me
is that plans can change really quickly.
[crowd counting down]
[crowd counting down in Swiss German]
["Castle on the Hill" playing]
Right, Zurich. I want to see everyone in this stadium right now.
Let's jump, jump, jump.
♪ When I was six years old I broke my leg ♪
[crowd cheering]
♪ I was running From my brother and his friends ♪
[Sheeran] When I left school, I remember being like,
"I know that if you work hard enough, you can do this."
I was gigging in London from 15, getting the train up.
I moved at 17, and I just used to sell CDs from the rucksack at the gigs.
Get on the tube. Go to the next place. Get on the tube. Go to the next place.
I don't know if I'm meant to plug them, but I do have CDs on sale,
and they do pay for my food.
I would just have a rucksack, a loop pedal at the bottom,
and then 30 CDs stacked up, and then that'd be me.
♪ I'm on my way... ♪
I always knew that you just have to work harder than everyone else.
There's always gonna be someone that wants it more than you.
I looked at all my peers and was like,
"Well, you're playing one show a week. I'm gonna do three shows a night."
[song continues]
- Guys, guys. For this-- - [audience] Shh.
For this to work, 'cause there is no mic, we're gonna have to--
- [listener] Keep quiet. - There you go.
I found I was largely ignored at singer-songwriter gigs,
so I would go and play jazz nights,
hip-hop nights, soul nights, poetry nights.
♪ Of all the money that ever I had ♪
[Sheeran] If I was doing a hip-hop night, I would go into 50 Cent's "In the Club."
♪ You can find me in the club Bottle full of bub ♪
♪ Mami, I got the X If you into takin' drugs ♪
♪ Into havin' sex I ain't into makin' love ♪
♪ Come give me a hug If you into getting rubbed ♪
♪ You can find me in the club, club Bottle full of bub... ♪
Because of the way that I look, people were suddenly taken aback and shocked.
♪ I ain't into makin' love So come give me a hug ♪
-♪ If you into getting rubbed ♪ - [crowd] Whoo!
Every label was like, "No. That's not gonna work."
We in, lad. Don't know where we are yet, but it's-- Hey, Ed!
Say hello to the camera, SBTV.
- Dun ho. - [singing] No. Nuh-uh.
[exclaims] Let's get it uploaded to Twitter.
With the music industry,
you have to wait for one person to be like, "That's great."
For me, it was Jamal.
[electronic voice] SBTV.
[Sheeran] Jamal had a music video channel called, uh, SBTV.
♪ Now I'm in town Break it down ♪
♪ Thinkin' of makin' a new sound Playin' a different show every... ♪
[Sheeran] My video on his platform was, like,
the first video I ever had that, like, went over, like 20,000 views.
Then it was 100 thousand, 500 thousand, a million.
Loads of people are jumping on the online thing nowadays as well.
[Sheeran] From the very, very first day, we were, like, best mates.
We found the right time, and made it on YouTube.
♪ But more people hear me though ♪
♪ According to the Myspace And YouTube videos ♪
It's a very normal thing nowadays, especially with Spotify and TikTok.
♪ They say I'm up-and-coming Like I'm loving in an elevator ♪
[radio host] Ed Sheeran, or the Sheeranator as he was called.
[Sheeran] Back in the day,
we were like, "Don't wait for a record label to do it for you.
Do it first, and then they'll join in.
And they'll basically put petrol on the fire and make it way bigger.
But you have to start the fire yourself."
...SBTV. Acoustic 64.
And this song's called "The A Team."
♪ White lips, pale face Breathing in snowflakes ♪
♪ Burnt lungs, sour taste ♪
[Sheeran] I'd written so many songs at that point
that I thought would be the biggest songs in the world and everyone would love
and just fell on deaf ears.
So I just assumed "A Team" would be another one of those.
Um. But it just gained momentum.
I think every artist starts with a song like that.
There's always one song that opens the door.
♪ In the Class A Team Stuck in her daydream ♪
♪ Been this way since 18 ♪
♪ But lately her face seems Slowly sinking, wasting ♪
♪ Crumbling like pastry ♪
[Sheeran] I signed my deal. I went on tour.
"A Team" came out. That was a hit. There was no faffing.
It was just, record deal's signed, we're off.
[radio host] Ed Sheeran now on the long list--
[Sheeran] I remember the day, first time ever being played on radio.
♪ They say she's in the class A Team ♪
First time ever selling out a show. Like, first time doing an album signing.
First time in America.
♪ Crumbling like pastries And they scream ♪
♪ The worst things in life Come free to us ♪
♪ 'Cause she's just under the upper hand Goes mad for a couple grams ♪
♪ And she don't wanna go outside tonight ♪
[Sheeran] When the successes started happening,
that's kind of what I started chasing.
I didn't know I could play The O2 arena, so let's try and do Wembley.
Hello, Wembley.
I didn't know I could do Wembley. Let's headline Glastonbury.
[Sheeran, crowd] ♪ Under the upper hand Go mad for a couple grams ♪
And it kind of snowballed from there, really.
♪ They say she's in the class A Team ♪
Sing it loud!
♪ Stuck in her daydreams ♪
♪ Been this way since 18 ♪
♪ But lately her face seems Slowly sinking, wasting ♪
And then before I knew it, I'd played over 40 countries
and sold nine million tickets on The Divide Tour.
And that become 63 million albums sold worldwide.
♪ It's too cold outside ♪
[radio host] Ed Sheeran's Divide Tour has broken a record set by U2,
and it's one of the most attended and highest-grossing show of all time.
♪ To fly, to fly For angels to die ♪
[crowd cheering]
Thank you.
[cheering continues]
You figure out really quickly that the really high highs are not actually it.
It's like, alongside all the professional achievements
have been personal achievements.
Like, I've got married and I'm a dad who, like, has two daughters.
When'd you get here?
- [partner] Are you talking to me? - Yeah.
[laughing]
Um, halfway through. It was great.
So Jupie's down, Lyra's down.
[Sheeran] Oh, did you pump?
I didn't. I actually didn't pump. But, um, Jupes was like... [laughs]
You know how she...
[Sheeran] My and Cherry's relationship,
it's the most amazing thing in my life that no one really knows about.
Everything in my life sort of got so much better when she got into it.
- [glasses clink] - [Cherry chuckles]
- [Cherry] Cheers, babe. - Cheers.
- Last tuk-tuk-- - [Cherry] This is so cool.
[Sheeran] We went on a tuk-tuk in Bangkok.
- Do you remember that party tuk-tuk? - That was a party tuk-tuk.
- Yeah, I-- - I just have images of us,
like, leaning out the windows.
I had to have a tactical nap halfway through the night.
- I just slept. - [Cherry laughs]
- So when we first started... - Oh, my God.
...getting together, I was living in New York.
And I was like, I knew Ed from school, so I know what he'll want to do.
I've got this nailed.
- We went boating in, um, Central Park. - [Sheeran] Central Park.
On that lake.
But it was, like, the busiest, busiest, hottest day of the year in New York.
Um, like, we were-- So we were rowing out... [chuckles]
I was rowing, right?
I got into the middle of the lake, and just--
These boats just started surrounding us. But all these tourists.
- They were all rowing after us. - They were filming and taking pictures.
- I'm like-- - Ed was sweating. [chuckles]
And then Chez goes, "Do you want me to row?"
I was like, "Cherry, the last thing I need is a picture of you rowing me."
[both chuckle]
Cherry's apartment, it wasn't even a room.
You had a, like-- It was a living room that they put a par-- a partition in.
After a month, she was like, "Oh, I've got a room at another apartment.
Will you help me move out?"
I was like, "Yeah, new boyfriend. I'll help you move out."
So we packed up all the boxes, and again hottest day of the summer.
- Forty-second... - Lifting all these boxes.
- We got to the lockup. - Oh, yeah.
- Ben had rented one. - Move everything.
In my mind I was like, "Next time, we should pay movers to do that."
- This is-- - No, don't make it--
Ed always tells this story, and it drives me mad.
- He's like, I'm crazy... - Can I finish the story?
...for not getting-- for not getting a removal van in.
It's like, who can afford at 22 years old to get a removal van in
- to move them out of their flat? - I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Okay.
Yeah, I didn't think it was gonna ever be any more than that weekend.
And here we are.
Here we are. Marriage. Two kids.
He basically kept coming back for-- for promo. [chuckles]
There was a reason I kept coming back. I didn't just keep coming back.
[Sheeran] ♪ I know that life ♪
♪ Won't ever be the same ♪
♪ This love will never go away ♪
♪ Welcome to the world ♪
I can just say, like--
So he's, like, um-- He'll kill--
I feel like he'll kill me for saying all these things.
He's not very practical. He got famous very quickly.
So it was like a really condensed period of your life
where you learn how to put the wash on and how to take care of yourself.
So I was so nervous that it was like,
"I'm not sure he's gonna cope with looking after another human."
[strums guitar]
[Sheeran] ♪ Oh, wel... ♪
Serenaded. [giggles]
[Sheeran] ♪ Oh, welcome to the world ♪
♪ Welcome to the world ♪
♪ I heard your heartbeat And lost every word ♪
[Cherry] He wanted kids, like, 15 years ago.
He was just-- Like, he would have been like a teenage dad and been fine with it.
♪ Of our love ♪
So I thought it was like a career stopper and a duh, duh, duh, duh.
But he has this thing where it's like, "Why would kids ever stop anything?
I'm still gonna do X, Y, Z, and that's how you should feel about it."
So he's really good at bringing me back to that place
of we're just gonna do everything we were gonna do with kids.
That was mad. Did you feel that one?
[indistinct]
Did blood, sweat and tears go into this cot?
- Literally blood, sweat and tears, dear. - [Cherry chuckling]
Like, it's a major partnership, isn't it?
It's like-- She's not just along for the ride.
We are, like, one and moving through life together
and navigating it all together.
♪ Ooh I know that life won't ever be the same ♪
♪ This love won't ever go away ♪
[Cherry gasps]
- You got a kick? - [Cherry] It just kicked!
[both laughing]
- [cameraman] Actually? - [laughing] Yeah.
- Have you woken up? Songs wake you up? - [Sheeran] Really?
Literally the moment you finished. That's so weird.
[crowd cheering]
- Frankfurt, how you feeling tonight? - [crowd cheering]
This song that I'm gonna play is, uh, my favorite song that I've written.
And every day I meet people that tell me stories about it.
And I know that everyone in here will have a story about this song,
no matter how big or how small.
[Sheeran narrating] I remember writing "Perfect" in a basement in London.
And it was the first few weeks of us dating.
And I remember getting there... [sings melody to "Perfect"]
...just having the melody and feeling, like, goose bumps writing it.
♪ I found a love for me ♪
♪ Well, darling, just dive right in ♪
♪ And follow my lead ♪
[Sheeran] I remember emailing it to her.
And then being like, "Oh, that might be a bit heavy."
[chuckles]
♪ Well, I found a girl ♪
♪ Beautiful and sweet ♪
[Cherry] We were friends at school.
He's in the year above. I'm in the year below.
Always really got on.
♪ I knew you were the someone Waitin' for me ♪
We had, I guess, flirted with the idea of flirting.
[chuckling] Does that make sense?
Uh, we did have a little smooch around that time.
[chuckles] You know.
As you do when you're-- when you're that age.
And then she basically went to university in America, and I went on tour.
I didn't see her for a few years.
I always wanted to go to uni in the States.
I was playing field hockey out there, which was amazing.
And then I got an offer to work in tech and finance in New York.
[Sheeran] We bumped into each other again.
Then me and Chez started dating,
and it was so, like, natural, and it just felt right.
♪ Well, I found a woman ♪
♪ Stronger than anyone I know ♪
♪ She shares my dreams ♪
♪ I hope that someday I'll share her home ♪
♪ I found a lover ♪
♪ To carry more than just my secrets ♪
♪ To carry love To carry children of our own ♪
But I think the reason we really connected like that at that point in our lives
was both of us had kind of a mutual feeling
of being isolated from, like, our friends and our family.
And I think that's what brought us together.
I sort of felt like I could "be free" for however much longer,
or I could build my life with this person.
And every experience from this moment we're gonna share together.
Every moment of it was not forced.
We would just hang out and stuff.
She would come to this industry event, and then I'd go to her hockey game,
and our lives, even at the crazy stuff, it just sort of worked.
Even the not crazy stuff, it just worked.
- And it was-- - [child screams]
Sorry, those are my kids playing in the background.
I had the date of the engagement engraved on the ring.
- So-- - It had to happen on that day.
It had to happen on this day. I was like...
He was, "We have to get out. We've got so much to do today."
And I was, "We have nothing to do today.
This is our first day of holiday. We have absolutely nothing to do today."
And I was like, "Mate, you've got to stop acting like this."
He came into the sitting room. I'd just made this food.
And he was like, "We've gotta do this."
And I was like, "Ed, stop being such a..."
- Like, I actually-- - C word.
Like, I cannot say it.
I, like, spun around as I was saying it. And he was on one knee with the ring out.
I was like, "Oh!"
And she said, "Are you joking?" And I just said, "Please?"
[Cherry laughing]
He doesn't see barriers at all in anything.
Like, it's just like, "I wanna do this, and I'm gonna go and do it."
He basically persuaded me to take a sabbatical off work,
do a masters in sustainability, and now I work in sustainability.
What, what?
- [Sheeran] Just heard back? - [Cherry] Yeah.
- [Sheeran] You said you didn't. - I did.
- Come here. - [laughs]
Got into Cambridge University, didn't she?
[cameraman] Wait, what? What? Congrats.
[Cherry] That was all Ed just being like,
"This is not the Cherry I know from school."
So few people have it.
I can hear my baby crying. [vocalizes, laughs]
- Um... - [interviewer] ...your daughter?
I'm gonna just quickly check on her if that's all right.
[interviewer] Of course. Absolutely.
[crowd cheering]
[Sheeran] On the tables here.
[laughing] Oh, my God. I feel like I'm in a zoo.
- I look what? - Really good.
- Really? - [laughs] Yeah.
I mean, you do. But I don't--
I don't think anyone ever looked at a male in a lederhosen and went...
[Cherry laughing] Just let me do it!
[Sheeran] There's a live band. Should we go up and play a song?
Dude.
There's a live band. Should we go and play a song?
[Sheeran] My friends always joke
because whenever there's a stage, I usually get on it.
[polka music playing]
Can they do-- Can they do "I Want It That Way," um, Backstreet Boys?
"I Want It That Way." Let me ask.
Actually, no, no, no. I'll do "Perfect."
[Sheeran] Being so open to playing anywhere when I was younger,
I could walk onstage with real confidence
of being like, "I know I can entertain you."
- [emcee] Okay... - [Sheeran] But it comes from, like,
years of getting your confidence battered, I think.
And it just strengthens it up and up and up.
[crowd cheering]
[band playing "Perfect"]
[Sheeran] ♪ I found the love ♪
Sing with me!
♪ For me ♪
♪ Darling, just dive right in And follow my lead ♪
♪ I found a girl ♪
[mouthing words] Oh, stop it.
[Sheeran] ♪ Beautiful and sweet ♪
♪ I never knew you were that someone Waiting for me ♪
Sing it loud!
-♪ Baby, I'm... ♪ - [crowd] ♪ Baby, I'm... ♪
[Sheeran] Loud!
[crowd] ♪ Dancing in the dark ♪
[Sheeran] ♪ With you between my arms ♪
[Sheeran] I love writing songs, and me writing...
Like, "Perfect's" my favorite song I've ever written,
and the feeling that I got from "Perfect"
is worth way more than anything that "Perfect's" ever done commercially.
'Cause I wrote it, and I was like, "Yes! This is great! I love it!"
And then you put it out, and everyone else says, "We love it!"
And you go, "Yay! Everyone loves it."
Ladies and gentlemen,
give it up for the incomparable Ed Sheeran.
[Sheeran] Everyone wants their music heard in the same way.
Everyone wants bums on seats in venues to come and watch you play.
That's what you've wanted all along.
Otherwise you wouldn't be putting yourself out there.
♪ I found a love Stronger than anyone I know ♪
[Sheeran] And then you feel charged to go and play it to people.
It's more of a "I've written a song that I love."
♪ Baby, I'm dancing in the dark ♪
♪ With you between my arms ♪
[Sheeran] No, I didn't really expect to get this big.
Like, I bump into all the record company people that turned me down.
And I-- I-- I can sense it. I can sense it in them.
And I don't need to say it, and they don't need to say it, but there's just a...
"I told you."
♪ You are perfect tonight ♪
[scoffs] You're gonna put that in, I'm gonna look [bleep].
[friend 1] This one goes to the second, and it'll go up again.
Whoa. Look at that.
- [Sheeran] We're not going to the top. - [friend 1] No, just the second floor.
[friends chattering]
Proper sweaty. But mate, I'm proper...
I just don't like heights.
- [tourists chattering] - That is beautiful.
Yeah.
- Do I? - [cameraman] Yeah, yeah.
[Sheeran] Touring before, if you were--
if when I was playing, like, theaters and stuff like that,
traveling the world, it felt like a sort of secret in the city.
And people who knew would go to the shows,
whereas when you play these big shows...
- [fan] Hi, there! - Hello.
[fan]
Oh. Oh, thank you.
Oh, did you-- You're coming tonight?
Amazing.
[Sheeran] I'll come down--
[Sheeran] So this reaction when I go places has definitely held me back
on a personal level.
Like four or five years ago, I was just super paranoid wherever I went that, like,
someone would film me or someone would tweet out "he's at this place,"
And Cherry made me a lot better with it.
[interviewer] Do you get any time together away obviously?
Yeah, we-- So, me and Cherry have a very strict--
Do you mind if we-- I burn really badly, and I haven't put sun cream on.
- [interviewer] Oh, go on. - Do you mind if we go in the...
- We can probably go to the other side. - Yeah, yeah.
We were told when we had kids,
they're like, "Basically, date night goes out the window."
And it's just-- I find, like, when you become parents,
you just basically just become parents
and you forget that you actually were in love and in a relationship before
and, like, had fun and just fancying each other, you know?
Reminding each other you fancy each other.
- [Sheeran] Can you guess what we're doing? - [Cherry] Are we painting?
Oh, my God. Are we actually? That's amazing!
[store owner] Come in.
[laughing]
If you like, you can take your clothes all.
But I give you, uh, some--
- Like a boiler suit? - Yes.
- Okay. Let's go. - Let's do it.
This is rad. I'm so excited.
- This is great. - I always feel like you express yourself
through your art.
Here we go.
- [paint bubbles] - [Cherry laughing]
Now we're cooking with gas, Ed.
[shouts]
I'm having the best time.
What do you think?
[Sheeran] I need my base color.
What's wrong with you?
[store owner]
[Cherry laughs]
[Sheeran] 'Cause then I'm gonna splatter on top of this.
Cool.
[store owner]
- [Sheeran sighs] - [Cherry] Crying man.
[store owner]
Mmm.
Do you like it?
I look kinda happy.
Well, this is the point.
You're sort of-- not sure where you are at the moment with your...
[both laugh]
I feel like this is a better reflection of my head right now.
- Chez. - Huh?
- A better reflection. - [Cherry] This is it!
If you can, like, distill Ed's brain onto a canvas, like...
[laughs] ...that is it.
But, like, there is so much going on in there.
You should tell-- Well, cut this bit out.
But tell Souts why you actually wanted to do the documentary
- 'cause you were explaining-- - It's so deep though.
We were having such a heart-to-heart.
Um. It's stupid, like, it's-- Yeah, it's wild.
Um, but I was saying to Ed, so I...
Long story short, super **** shit,
got diagnosed with cancer at the start of the year, which was a massive shitter.
Um, but it made me--
You're so all super silent now.
It made me massively reflect on, like, our mortality.
Like, we're all completely, like, uh, human or whatever.
And, um-- But I was saying to Ed,
it's like I would never have agreed to do anything like this ever, ever, ever.
Um, but it made me think-- Like, this whole year,
I've been thinking, like, "Oh, if I died, what's people's perception of me?"
Like, what do you leave behind?
And I think for Ed, he-- Like, the whole point is that he's trying to...
He wants to say to people, "I'm not just this music machine.
Like, I'm not just this, like, robot that, like, tries to get number one.
Like, I'm a father, I'm a son, I'm a friend, I'm a husband."
And I've massively reflected on just--
It genuinely wasn't until this year
when I was just like, "I might die this year."
Or, like... [stammers]
[Sheeran] Chez, you don't, like, you don't--
Like, you've said that twice now where it's like, "Oh, it's all good."
- But, like, you don't have to pretend... - It was super gnarly. It was horrible.
But-- But when you have that...
I know, but, like, but you're saying it for the cameras like... [vocalizes]
You said, like, "Got diagnosed with cancer. No biggie."
- Like... - [Cherry laughs]
- ...**** hell, man. - You're gonna make me cry.
But, like, you're definitely just playing it down, but it was horrible.
Yeah, it was gnarly.
Crying man.
No, don't, 'cause I-- I don't really wanna think about it.
What do you think of my brain though?
It is so...
It's what I have to deal with on a daily basis.
Like, "Wake up." [imitates Sheeran]
Oh, man. I know.
Yeah, it's a lot.
Chez, that-- that-- that is being hung in the TV room.
At the start of February, um, we had the-- the diagnosis of the tumor.
And the day after, Ed went down into the basement
and wrote seven songs in, like, what, four hours, maybe it was?
Yeah, it was like Ed's-- I guess his way of, um...
You know, everyone-- Well, not everyone, but people write a diary,
like, and get their emotions out through their-- through the pen.
And for Ed, it's if something really intense happens to him,
he will go and write songs.
I'm gonna have to remember the words now.
But this is-- This is one of them.
All right.
♪ Rain keeps beating on the rooftop Muddying the glass ♪
♪ But God, I love the sound of heaven ♪
♪ Sat cross-legged on the carpet Listenin' to vinyl ♪
♪ Trying to ignore the weather ♪
♪ This week was heavy I buckled under all the weight ♪
♪ What can you do but pray? ♪
♪ I count my blessings It wasn't any other way ♪
♪ Don't leave it up to fate ♪
♪ Same problems Different options ♪
♪ Pain comes at a cost But we got this ♪
♪ Need respite Bleed time dry ♪
♪ She'll be fine She'll be fine ♪
Uh...
♪ Rain keeps fallin' on the rooftop Muddying the glass ♪
♪ But God, I love the sound of heaven ♪
♪ We are made to shine like stars ♪
♪ But that don't mean It don't burn like hell to be Vega ♪
Sort of remember the words.
- That was great. - Thanks.
That's a song I wrote in February.
Uh, Cherry had gone to have her lump taken out,
and I kept saying to you that it was just a lump and not to worry.
And that it was all good. And then I was rehearsing,
I remember getting a call from Chez being like, "Yeah, it's not--"
"Cancel all the plans! I've got cancer."
- [Sheeran] Yeah. Fun. - [imitates scream]
The doctor was basically like, "This is really bad."
We were like, "Oh, okay."
He was like, "But we're not gonna have results back for a month."
So we just sort of wandered around London for the day.
What happens is you kind of have the initial report, um,
and then they look at treatment plans, and how you're gonna manage it.
But then there were no treatment plans that worked with a six month...
- With the pregnancy. - ...pregnant-- Yeah.
So then you have a couple of weeks,
like, going through that with, um, surgeons and oncologists and stuff.
And then we had sequencing of the-- of the tumor,
and that came back, like, much less severe than they thought it was originally,
which was, like, the most incredible news.
Like... [stammers] Like, I nearly threw up when, like, the-- the surgeon told us
we could wait till the end of the pregnancy to get the tumor out,
um, we didn't have to worry about delivering the baby early.
Um, so we got that news, and then the day after, Jamal died.
And it was just, like, a really bad time.
[no audible dialogue]
Remember?
- Yeah, it wasn't great. - It was like...
It was bad.
Yeah, it was, like, a, uh, difficult, difficult time.
[Cherry] And then...
- The court case. - The court case came in a week later.
Which actually, oddly paled in comparison. By the time the court case came,
I was just kind of, "This is actually nothing compared to what's going on."
Nah. The most important thing is, like...
- Yeah. - ...health and life.
I don't think I'll ever get to February and be like, "This is a great month."
I'd think, like, it-- That was a horrible, horrible, horrible month.
Life hasn't moved on for me yet, and I don't actually think it will.
I don't think it's gonna be a...
Yeah, I don't know.
[whispers] You should say something.
[Cherry laughing] I don't know what to say. I knew you were gonna cry.
["No Strings" playing] ♪ If we make it through this year ♪
♪ Then nothing can break us ♪
♪ Trouble leaves, then reappears ♪
♪ We've shown we can take it ♪
♪ We tear our hair out And overthink it ♪
♪ Work and get burned out ♪
♪ But this is no strings You are who I love ♪
♪ And that won't change When we're fallin' apart ♪
♪ Yeah, this is no strings You are who I love ♪
♪ It's just growing pains ♪
[song ends]