1 00:00:13,848 --> 00:00:15,600 Gotta meet the dog. How you doing? 2 00:00:15,600 --> 00:00:18,061 - This is Yodi. I'm Astrid. - Hey. What's going on? 3 00:00:18,061 --> 00:00:19,353 - Nice to meet you. - This is my dad, John. 4 00:00:19,353 --> 00:00:20,396 - Hi. - Hello. 5 00:00:20,396 --> 00:00:21,731 - Oh. 6 00:00:21,731 --> 00:00:23,024 - What do I do? She will-- Yeah. 7 00:00:23,024 --> 00:00:24,150 She's never bit anyone. 8 00:00:24,150 --> 00:00:25,401 Cool. - I've had her for four years. 9 00:00:27,403 --> 00:00:29,614 My first tattoo was actually in LA. 10 00:00:29,614 --> 00:00:32,992 And I remember coming home, and they thought that my life had ended. 11 00:00:32,992 --> 00:00:34,327 - Then I got one more. 12 00:00:34,327 --> 00:00:35,953 And then it was just... 13 00:00:35,953 --> 00:00:37,288 Same. - Yeah. 14 00:00:37,288 --> 00:00:40,458 {\an8}I like them now though. It's like a visual diary. 15 00:00:40,458 --> 00:00:44,087 Dabs, do you want to just write down "Dabs" and I'll get that? 16 00:00:44,087 --> 00:00:47,882 He can write it down on you, and I'll just tattoo his exact writing. 17 00:00:47,882 --> 00:00:53,471 So I call him Dabs because when I was younger in-- 18 00:00:53,471 --> 00:00:55,681 It's quite weird 'cause Lyra now calls him Grandabs. 19 00:00:55,681 --> 00:00:58,017 Because she can't say "d" as well. Um. 20 00:00:58,017 --> 00:00:59,769 You couldn't actually write "dad," is it? 21 00:00:59,769 --> 00:01:01,104 - Yeah, I was-- - You always did a B. 22 00:01:01,104 --> 00:01:02,188 - Yeah, I was always "Ebwarb." - Mmm. 23 00:01:02,188 --> 00:01:03,689 - Ebwarb. - 'Cause I couldn't write a D. 24 00:01:03,689 --> 00:01:06,025 - You were Ebwarb. - So he's Dabs instead of Dad. 25 00:01:06,025 --> 00:01:07,360 - I'll get it there. - Okay. 26 00:01:07,985 --> 00:01:09,904 That's cute. - You ought to get Mummy to do one. 27 00:01:09,904 --> 00:01:11,322 - Hey, Mums. -Hello, dear. 28 00:01:11,322 --> 00:01:12,824 - How are you doing? -Fine. How are you? 29 00:01:12,824 --> 00:01:14,659 Could I get you to do me a favor? 30 00:01:14,659 --> 00:01:16,869 I'm just here getting a tattoo of Dabs's handwriting, 31 00:01:16,869 --> 00:01:18,579 and I want to get a tattoo of your handwriting. 32 00:01:18,579 --> 00:01:21,207 Can you just write "Mums" with a-- with a cross 33 00:01:21,207 --> 00:01:22,667 and take a picture of it and send it to Dabs. 34 00:01:22,667 --> 00:01:24,961 He's also getting a-- 35 00:01:24,961 --> 00:01:26,754 He's getting a face tattoo as well. 36 00:01:26,754 --> 00:01:28,047 Oh, yeah. Yeah, yeah. 37 00:01:28,881 --> 00:01:29,841 Yeah, good. 38 00:01:30,341 --> 00:01:32,176 These are the ones I got here... 39 00:01:32,176 --> 00:01:33,094 - Yeah. - ...ten years ago. 40 00:01:33,094 --> 00:01:35,096 - Basically, my dad-- - That was three Madison Square Gardens. 41 00:01:35,096 --> 00:01:37,390 And it was just after Grandad passed away. 42 00:01:37,390 --> 00:01:40,351 And that was actually my inspiration of leaving Los Angeles. 43 00:01:40,351 --> 00:01:42,937 I remember being-- I'd lived in LA for, like, a year. 44 00:01:42,937 --> 00:01:47,108 And I remember being at a party and you ringing me up and saying, 45 00:01:47,108 --> 00:01:48,067 "Grandad's died," 46 00:01:48,067 --> 00:01:51,320 then looking round and being like, "No one here cares." 47 00:01:51,320 --> 00:01:53,489 If I was at home, my friends would be like, 48 00:01:53,489 --> 00:01:55,533 "Come on. Let's, like," you know, 49 00:01:55,533 --> 00:01:57,493 "talk about it or have a pint or blah, blah." 50 00:01:57,493 --> 00:01:59,495 But I was in this sort of environment 51 00:01:59,495 --> 00:02:02,623 where it was all, surface level, fun and happy, 52 00:02:02,623 --> 00:02:06,544 but actually, underneath it all, there's no real connection 53 00:02:06,544 --> 00:02:08,171 or real love from there. 54 00:02:08,171 --> 00:02:10,756 So that was-- that was the day that I moved back home. 55 00:02:29,901 --> 00:02:33,446 {\an8}That's me and the gang. So there's, um-- Nic's up top. 56 00:02:33,446 --> 00:02:36,574 {\an8}So you see me. To the left and to the left, that's Nic. 57 00:02:37,742 --> 00:02:40,077 You really didn't give me a chance at school, did you? 58 00:02:40,077 --> 00:02:42,830 Guys. 59 00:02:43,331 --> 00:02:44,665 Uh, this is-- 60 00:02:44,665 --> 00:02:46,042 These are just gig tickets. 61 00:02:46,042 --> 00:02:48,085 Elton John at Ipswich Town. Yeah. 62 00:02:48,085 --> 00:02:49,587 No one plays at Ipswich Town. 63 00:02:49,587 --> 00:02:51,923 Maybe every six or seven years someone will come and play, 64 00:02:51,923 --> 00:02:54,425 and the whole area goes to watch them 'cause nothing ever happens here. 65 00:02:54,425 --> 00:02:56,010 Supported by James Blunt. - Yeah. 66 00:02:56,010 --> 00:02:57,261 Supported by James Blunt. 67 00:02:57,261 --> 00:02:59,180 - That's the James Blunt ticket. Poor thing. 68 00:02:59,180 --> 00:03:00,431 - From Cambridge. - At the Junction. 69 00:03:00,431 --> 00:03:02,975 Yeah. Junction. 25th of April 2005. 70 00:03:03,559 --> 00:03:05,519 And now I'm the godfather of one of his kids. 71 00:03:06,229 --> 00:03:08,981 This was taken the first gig in London. 72 00:03:08,981 --> 00:03:11,108 Edward insisted on staying till the end of the gig. 73 00:03:11,108 --> 00:03:14,612 And when we got out of the gig, we'd been locked in for the night. 74 00:03:15,112 --> 00:03:16,322 - We couldn't get the car out. 75 00:03:16,322 --> 00:03:17,573 - Where did we go? - We walked up to town. 76 00:03:17,573 --> 00:03:20,701 We walked miles to try and find a hotel we could afford. 77 00:03:20,701 --> 00:03:23,204 Then we all slept in one bed. It was very uncomfortable. 78 00:03:23,204 --> 00:03:24,580 From very early on we said to them, 79 00:03:24,580 --> 00:03:27,583 "If you can do something that you love as a job, 80 00:03:27,583 --> 00:03:28,960 you're gonna have a fantastic life." 81 00:03:28,960 --> 00:03:31,003 And he's living his dream. 82 00:03:34,173 --> 00:03:36,175 I'm a rock star. 83 00:03:43,015 --> 00:03:46,352 ♪ It's late in the evening Glass on the side ♪ 84 00:03:46,352 --> 00:03:50,106 ♪ I've been sat with you Most of the night ♪ 85 00:03:51,524 --> 00:03:53,693 ♪ Ignoring everybody here ♪ 86 00:03:53,693 --> 00:03:55,152 ♪ Wish they would disappear ♪ 87 00:03:55,152 --> 00:03:57,989 ♪ So maybe we could get down now ♪ 88 00:04:00,116 --> 00:04:05,246 The Divide Tour was the peak of where it can go in a pop career. 89 00:04:09,208 --> 00:04:11,544 Can't really explain the whirlwind that was. 90 00:04:15,631 --> 00:04:17,049 I'm a solo artist. 91 00:04:17,049 --> 00:04:20,136 And you go out on stage, and you sing to 60,000 people. 92 00:04:20,136 --> 00:04:21,595 You're all connected as one. 93 00:04:21,595 --> 00:04:24,640 And then you sort of get off and go into a room where it's silent, 94 00:04:24,640 --> 00:04:27,476 and there's only the sound of an air-conditioner, and it's just you. 95 00:04:28,602 --> 00:04:30,104 You just end up going out on your own 96 00:04:30,104 --> 00:04:32,648 and getting into really compromising situations. 97 00:04:32,648 --> 00:04:34,108 This is why I took my friends on tour. 98 00:04:34,108 --> 00:04:36,694 Time to get the show on the road. 99 00:04:36,694 --> 00:04:39,739 When Cherry wasn't there on the tour, Nic was, and Josh was, 100 00:04:39,739 --> 00:04:41,490 and Lauren was, and Zak was. 101 00:04:41,490 --> 00:04:44,285 It's like constantly having your foot in your hometown. 102 00:04:44,285 --> 00:04:45,453 I swear by Nic. 103 00:04:45,453 --> 00:04:48,622 I'm very, very protective of my group of friends. 104 00:04:48,622 --> 00:04:52,835 Not really many people come in and not, and not many people leave. 105 00:04:52,835 --> 00:04:55,671 It's pretty much the same as it's been for the last ten years. 106 00:04:55,671 --> 00:04:57,381 {\an8}Really breathe in. 107 00:04:57,381 --> 00:04:59,800 {\an8}- There's room for three of us. - My mistake. 108 00:04:59,800 --> 00:05:01,385 The table might fill up, but we're all right. 109 00:05:02,178 --> 00:05:04,513 {\an8}Kev is pretty much my husband. 110 00:05:04,513 --> 00:05:07,600 {\an8}He was there on our wedding day. He was there on our honeymoon. 111 00:05:07,600 --> 00:05:09,852 He was there on the birth of our first child. 112 00:05:09,852 --> 00:05:11,687 I've spent more days with him than with Cherry. 113 00:05:11,687 --> 00:05:12,646 It was when I first met him 114 00:05:12,646 --> 00:05:15,566 and he used to stay out or stay up till 4:00 a.m. in the morning, 115 00:05:15,566 --> 00:05:17,943 and me and Mark used to get up and go golf every morning. 116 00:05:18,778 --> 00:05:20,529 Now he's got kids. He's awake at 6:00 in the morning. 117 00:05:20,529 --> 00:05:23,240 - We can't do that. 118 00:05:24,158 --> 00:05:28,120 I didn't have that before. I was just out in the wilderness, 119 00:05:28,120 --> 00:05:29,455 touring round the world. 120 00:05:29,455 --> 00:05:32,124 It's much better to have friends there looking out for you. 121 00:05:32,124 --> 00:05:35,878 ♪ Oh, raise me up So I can stand on mountains ♪ 122 00:05:37,380 --> 00:05:39,507 That's going around the whole stadium. 123 00:05:39,507 --> 00:05:41,550 - Is it? 124 00:05:41,550 --> 00:05:43,719 -♪ Sing! ♪ -♪ Oh ♪ 125 00:05:48,099 --> 00:05:49,225 Yeah, yeah. 126 00:05:49,809 --> 00:05:51,727 -♪ Louder! -♪ Oh ♪ 127 00:05:57,358 --> 00:06:03,114 {\an8}I don't feel like I'm employing my friends because they're actually doing a role 128 00:06:03,114 --> 00:06:05,991 {\an8}that's actually beneficial to me and the tour. 129 00:06:05,991 --> 00:06:08,285 It's like a fortress. Which is really nice. 130 00:06:08,285 --> 00:06:09,453 Josh has always been cool. 131 00:06:09,453 --> 00:06:11,414 - He's always been the cool kid. 132 00:06:11,414 --> 00:06:12,998 But we did cello lessons together. 133 00:06:15,751 --> 00:06:17,670 So I was like, "I know you're not cool. 134 00:06:17,670 --> 00:06:20,339 I'm not cool for playing cello, and you have lessons with me." 135 00:06:20,339 --> 00:06:23,175 {\an8}- And he used to call me "cello boy." - I honestly don't remember it. 136 00:06:23,175 --> 00:06:25,177 {\an8}- It's scarred in my memory. - Yeah. 137 00:06:25,177 --> 00:06:27,680 I don't really know many other global superstars, 138 00:06:27,680 --> 00:06:30,015 but he definitely hasn't turned into an asshole. 139 00:06:30,015 --> 00:06:32,351 I've heard a lot of the other ones do. 140 00:06:34,562 --> 00:06:36,188 Nic's having a kid in December, 141 00:06:36,188 --> 00:06:38,649 and all hellfire will rain down on him. 142 00:06:38,649 --> 00:06:40,443 Can't wait. 143 00:06:41,819 --> 00:06:45,614 -♪ Sing! -♪ Oh ♪ 144 00:06:45,614 --> 00:06:48,742 ♪ If you feel you're falling Won't you let me know? ♪ 145 00:06:48,742 --> 00:06:51,662 We've sort of been best, best friends since 16. 146 00:06:51,662 --> 00:06:53,789 We would have school parties, 147 00:06:53,789 --> 00:06:56,792 and it would be, like, them and Jamal. 148 00:06:56,792 --> 00:06:59,545 And everyone knows him as my best friend from London. 149 00:06:59,545 --> 00:07:00,921 Just spitting bars going in. 150 00:07:00,921 --> 00:07:03,632 First day I met him, I met up with him in Acton where he lives. 151 00:07:03,632 --> 00:07:06,177 {\an8}Made all these funny videos en route. 152 00:07:06,969 --> 00:07:09,388 {\an8}I actually moved in at Jamal's that day. 153 00:07:09,388 --> 00:07:11,765 I basically lived in his bedroom. 154 00:07:12,266 --> 00:07:14,310 His mom thought we were having a relationship. 155 00:07:14,310 --> 00:07:15,895 ♪ Pain everybody go mad ♪ 156 00:07:15,895 --> 00:07:16,854 ♪ Raging ♪ 157 00:07:16,854 --> 00:07:18,606 ♪ I'll start ringing up shells Rage ♪ 158 00:07:18,606 --> 00:07:20,149 ♪ I'll start ringing up bells Rage ♪ 159 00:07:20,149 --> 00:07:21,567 ♪ I'll start bringing round girls Rage ♪ 160 00:07:21,567 --> 00:07:24,320 He grew up loving grime music. I grew up loving grime music. 161 00:07:24,320 --> 00:07:26,405 And although I'm from Suffolk and he's from London, 162 00:07:26,405 --> 00:07:28,199 we just feel like the same person. 163 00:07:28,199 --> 00:07:30,743 ♪ Yes, you know my face Gas ♪ 164 00:07:32,995 --> 00:07:35,414 Jamal was someone that really helped me. 165 00:07:35,414 --> 00:07:37,500 You wanna keep answering the questions, 166 00:07:37,500 --> 00:07:39,960 so I don't hear my voice all the time as well. Yeah? 167 00:07:39,960 --> 00:07:43,589 It was kind of a breakout for me 'cause I mainly film grime and rap. 168 00:07:43,589 --> 00:07:46,509 So when I filmed a folk kind of singer 169 00:07:46,509 --> 00:07:49,970 who was emceeing, rapping and playing a-- beatboxing-- guitar, 170 00:07:49,970 --> 00:07:51,680 it was like, "Whoa. Who's this ginger kid?" 171 00:07:53,098 --> 00:07:54,975 - Yeah. 172 00:07:54,975 --> 00:07:55,976 F64. No. 173 00:07:55,976 --> 00:07:58,479 My success and his success was tied together. 174 00:07:58,479 --> 00:08:00,189 {\an8}Like, we came up together. 175 00:08:00,773 --> 00:08:02,650 Good luck, brother. You're smashing it. 176 00:08:02,650 --> 00:08:05,194 So I'd been playing Shepherd's Bush Empire. 177 00:08:05,194 --> 00:08:07,071 {\an8}He would launch a record label with Sony. 178 00:08:07,738 --> 00:08:11,742 For the next five to ten years is where I really need to sort of amp it up a bit. 179 00:08:11,742 --> 00:08:13,035 So I'm at my halfway point. 180 00:08:13,035 --> 00:08:16,539 I don't even think I've done what I've wanted to do yet. 181 00:08:17,248 --> 00:08:19,917 We're constantly just egging each other on. 182 00:08:20,417 --> 00:08:22,002 One of my favorite nights with Jamal 183 00:08:22,002 --> 00:08:24,880 is just putting on old SBTV freestyles. 184 00:08:24,880 --> 00:08:26,507 Him and me knowing all the words 185 00:08:26,507 --> 00:08:28,842 and we just rapping at each other until 4:00 a.m. 186 00:08:28,842 --> 00:08:32,263 Like, I live and breathe it. I love it. 187 00:08:32,263 --> 00:08:34,056 ♪ Go round downtown Mmm ♪ 188 00:08:34,056 --> 00:08:35,057 ♪ Man, I wanna... ♪ 189 00:08:35,057 --> 00:08:36,141 - Cheese. 190 00:08:36,141 --> 00:08:37,059 ♪ When I run her back ♪ 191 00:08:37,059 --> 00:08:40,229 ♪ When I travel, man And I get the four five back ♪ 192 00:08:40,229 --> 00:08:41,522 ♪ When I go, boy... ♪ 193 00:08:41,522 --> 00:08:44,149 Friendship's just this chemistry that happens. 194 00:08:44,149 --> 00:08:47,528 When it's burning, you wanna hang out every day and do all these things. 195 00:08:47,528 --> 00:08:49,989 It's just about sharing everything. 196 00:08:49,989 --> 00:08:51,949 - We do an F64. No, no, no. 197 00:08:51,949 --> 00:08:53,450 So he's pretending. Look. 198 00:08:53,450 --> 00:08:57,204 And when it ends, it's just devastating. 199 00:08:59,707 --> 00:09:02,835 {\an8}Tributes have been paid from across the British music scene 200 00:09:02,835 --> 00:09:06,839 {\an8}to the entrepreneur Jamal Edwards, who has died at the age of 31. 201 00:09:06,839 --> 00:09:08,882 He was the man who helped launch the careers 202 00:09:08,882 --> 00:09:11,176 of some of British music's biggest names. 203 00:09:11,176 --> 00:09:13,846 His groundbreaking work and legacy in British music 204 00:09:13,846 --> 00:09:15,347 and culture will live on. 205 00:09:16,056 --> 00:09:20,477 Jamal died in the morning, and I was at his mum's house at midday. 206 00:09:20,477 --> 00:09:23,522 Because in Caribbean culture they have a thing called a nine nights. 207 00:09:23,522 --> 00:09:26,317 So you go to the family home for nine days and nine nights, 208 00:09:26,317 --> 00:09:28,861 then on the ninth night they throw a big party. 209 00:09:31,864 --> 00:09:34,992 I had friends in school whose parents passed away 210 00:09:34,992 --> 00:09:36,619 when they were, like, 14. 211 00:09:36,619 --> 00:09:38,245 And I looked back on it, 212 00:09:38,245 --> 00:09:40,331 and I'm like, "That is when you became an adult. 213 00:09:40,331 --> 00:09:41,665 I became an adult recently, 214 00:09:41,665 --> 00:09:46,712 but that's when you became an adult because grief instantly ends your youth." 215 00:09:54,470 --> 00:10:00,976 {\an8}The funeral was, like, 30 people, but he knows, like, 10,000 people. 216 00:10:01,518 --> 00:10:04,521 {\an8}So this is the first event that everyone can come to 217 00:10:04,521 --> 00:10:07,399 {\an8}and come together and remember him. 218 00:10:13,739 --> 00:10:16,241 - Oh. 219 00:10:17,618 --> 00:10:20,829 Just-- I just can't. I've been-- You all right? 220 00:10:20,829 --> 00:10:22,539 - Is it healing? - Yeah. Everything okay? 221 00:10:22,539 --> 00:10:25,584 - Yeah, good. I love these by the way. - I've got one for you. 222 00:10:25,584 --> 00:10:27,211 - Have you? - I've got one for you. 223 00:10:27,211 --> 00:10:28,712 - Amazing. - Who's coming today? 224 00:10:28,712 --> 00:10:31,674 Um, everything's all good? Everything is cool? It's chilled? 225 00:10:31,674 --> 00:10:33,926 He's here somewhere. I've-- I've lost my boy. 226 00:10:33,926 --> 00:10:35,511 - There he is. I saw that. 227 00:10:35,511 --> 00:10:38,472 - He's here. We stared at that for a while. 228 00:10:42,976 --> 00:10:45,396 I got this-- Me and Jamal, 229 00:10:45,396 --> 00:10:48,107 on our 21st birthdays, bought matching watches. 230 00:10:48,107 --> 00:10:49,858 How are you? Nice to see you, man. 231 00:10:49,858 --> 00:10:52,778 Good. I've literally flown back for this, and then I fly out tomorrow. 232 00:10:52,778 --> 00:10:54,321 You can never have too much. 233 00:10:57,616 --> 00:10:59,118 That's only 50 seconds. 234 00:10:59,118 --> 00:11:01,620 {\an8}I can't really do more than that. I don't know all the song. 235 00:11:01,620 --> 00:11:04,415 It needs to be at least a minute and 30 seconds. 236 00:11:04,415 --> 00:11:05,499 {\an8}Okay. Um. 237 00:11:06,291 --> 00:11:09,294 {\an8}♪ I'm on a bad man ting I don't play tennis, play badminton ♪ 238 00:11:15,801 --> 00:11:16,927 One. 239 00:11:32,109 --> 00:11:34,194 Can you be gangsta with a bucket hat? 240 00:11:34,194 --> 00:11:36,029 I just feel such a weird, like-- 241 00:11:38,073 --> 00:11:39,074 I don't know. 242 00:11:39,074 --> 00:11:41,827 I know everyone should be having fun. That's the whole point. 243 00:11:42,453 --> 00:11:46,331 I feel so-- just lost in there. 244 00:12:18,572 --> 00:12:19,406 Look up. 245 00:12:21,033 --> 00:12:22,785 - Tell me when to look up. Aight. 246 00:12:24,661 --> 00:12:27,080 - And look up. 247 00:12:27,080 --> 00:12:29,082 What is that look? Not liking the-- 248 00:12:29,082 --> 00:12:31,752 All right, do it again. Wait, that light's off-put-- 249 00:12:31,752 --> 00:12:32,878 Too much? Yeah. 250 00:12:32,878 --> 00:12:34,171 - Aight. - Tell me when. 251 00:12:34,171 --> 00:12:35,255 Three. 252 00:12:37,382 --> 00:12:38,383 Look up. 253 00:12:38,884 --> 00:12:40,511 Stop. You can't-- 254 00:12:40,511 --> 00:12:42,304 Why you laughing, bruv? 255 00:12:42,304 --> 00:12:44,389 Keep a serious face. Like, there's no... 256 00:12:44,389 --> 00:12:45,474 When it's down, it's gonna-- 257 00:12:45,474 --> 00:12:47,434 - Yeah, yeah, yeah. - Aight. 258 00:12:49,770 --> 00:12:52,356 Like, this is his first birthday that he hasn't been here. 259 00:12:52,356 --> 00:12:54,775 And this is his first cookout that he hasn't been here. 260 00:12:54,775 --> 00:12:56,693 And his-- You know. He died six months ago. 261 00:12:56,693 --> 00:12:58,862 It's still like very, very raw. 262 00:13:01,865 --> 00:13:03,826 I'd never been to a burial. 263 00:13:03,826 --> 00:13:07,663 This is the first time that, like, you know, you're there. 264 00:13:07,663 --> 00:13:10,499 Someone's singing a hymn, then suddenly someone hands you a shovel. 265 00:13:10,499 --> 00:13:14,253 And then suddenly you're putting dirt on your mate's grave, 266 00:13:14,253 --> 00:13:17,339 and it's very real. 267 00:13:17,339 --> 00:13:19,007 It's very, very real. 268 00:13:21,593 --> 00:13:24,930 His grave is-- We go past it quite a lot. 269 00:13:24,930 --> 00:13:30,769 And-- And it just feels so weird that he's in amongst loads of people 270 00:13:30,769 --> 00:13:32,020 that he didn't know. 271 00:13:32,020 --> 00:13:34,189 Like, it's obviously a grave site. 272 00:13:34,189 --> 00:13:38,318 And the person next to him-- And the person has all, like, 273 00:13:38,318 --> 00:13:41,530 wreaths saying like, "dad" or like, "sister" or "mom." 274 00:13:41,530 --> 00:13:44,408 And it's just all just pure sadness. 275 00:13:44,408 --> 00:13:46,326 Of-- It's-- It's horrible. 276 00:13:49,746 --> 00:13:51,748 And I know-- I know everyone goes through it. 277 00:13:51,748 --> 00:13:55,377 I know it's a common thing you can't avoid. 278 00:13:58,589 --> 00:13:59,590 But, yeah. 279 00:14:08,473 --> 00:14:10,309 Hello. Hey. - Hey, darling. 280 00:14:11,518 --> 00:14:14,104 Ah, shit. Did I just ring while you were putting them down? 281 00:14:22,279 --> 00:14:24,698 - Yeah. Been having... -You sound rough. 282 00:14:24,698 --> 00:14:25,782 ...having moments. 283 00:14:29,202 --> 00:14:30,913 Yeah. It was actually a really good turnout. 284 00:14:30,913 --> 00:14:31,914 It was nice. 285 00:14:38,879 --> 00:14:40,589 Yeah, no. Um-- 286 00:14:43,091 --> 00:14:44,760 Yeah. I'll see you, um, Sunday though. 287 00:14:44,760 --> 00:14:46,303 Love you. 288 00:14:46,303 --> 00:14:47,721 Bye. 289 00:14:55,020 --> 00:14:56,563 Where you guys from? 290 00:14:56,563 --> 00:14:58,023 I live round the corner. - West? 291 00:14:58,023 --> 00:15:00,150 I just moved from Leicester, to up the road. 292 00:15:00,150 --> 00:15:03,403 - Yeah? - But this lovely lady, this is my cousin. 293 00:15:08,992 --> 00:15:12,037 So we decided to go out for some dinner. 294 00:15:12,037 --> 00:15:13,288 And I've been telling her about this place 295 00:15:13,288 --> 00:15:14,498 'cause I was like "Ed Sheeran's been there!" 296 00:15:14,498 --> 00:15:16,249 And look it's Ed Sheeran! 297 00:15:16,249 --> 00:15:18,418 - We've been looking at your picture. 298 00:15:18,418 --> 00:15:20,003 - This is my-- - What are you doing here? 299 00:15:20,003 --> 00:15:22,756 So my friend that showed me this place, it's his birthday today. 300 00:15:22,756 --> 00:15:24,549 He passed away six months ago. 301 00:15:24,549 --> 00:15:26,009 - We're just-- - This is what I'm saying. 302 00:15:28,220 --> 00:15:31,056 Yeah, he was February 20th, so we're having a, like-- 303 00:15:31,056 --> 00:15:33,475 Just had a big party in East for him. 304 00:15:33,475 --> 00:15:35,560 You having a reunion? 305 00:15:35,560 --> 00:15:37,270 Yeah, but you know when it gets a lot 306 00:15:37,270 --> 00:15:39,106 - and you just wanna have a moment? - Mellow. 307 00:15:39,106 --> 00:15:41,191 Welcome to the ends, bruv! 308 00:15:41,191 --> 00:15:43,026 - No, but this is what-- 309 00:15:43,026 --> 00:15:44,861 - He's been here for years. Really? 310 00:15:44,861 --> 00:15:45,904 Old-school. 311 00:15:45,904 --> 00:15:48,532 When Jamal used to live next to the estate, we used to live there. 312 00:15:48,532 --> 00:15:51,076 When he was playing guitar, rapping. He was the ginger guy. 313 00:15:52,911 --> 00:15:55,956 - Now look at this one. No, well, it is true that one. 314 00:15:58,500 --> 00:16:00,460 Everyone in Acton knows him. Everyone. 315 00:16:00,460 --> 00:16:01,795 Like, this is his spot. 316 00:16:03,130 --> 00:16:05,257 I don't even know how to describe it. 317 00:16:05,257 --> 00:16:10,762 Like, being on my own and being able to remember Jamal 318 00:16:10,762 --> 00:16:15,183 in the spot that he always took me to, it make-- 319 00:16:15,183 --> 00:16:19,354 Like, I feel like I've gone there. I've done-- To support. 320 00:16:19,354 --> 00:16:21,189 Now I've come here and I feel like... 321 00:16:23,525 --> 00:16:25,986 I don't know. I, like-- I miss him and I love him. 322 00:16:25,986 --> 00:16:31,658 And I'm-- Like, I'm here and, like, really remember the good times. 323 00:16:32,659 --> 00:16:35,245 But I have so many great memories of Acton. 324 00:16:35,245 --> 00:16:36,329 Feels great. 325 00:16:40,375 --> 00:16:45,547 D, can we stop en route and get some Hennessy? 326 00:16:46,465 --> 00:16:47,466 Yeah. 327 00:16:48,175 --> 00:16:50,677 - Jamal called it, "Hennessing can happen." 328 00:16:50,677 --> 00:16:52,345 "Hennessing" can happen. 329 00:16:52,345 --> 00:16:53,889 Or "Hennessing is possible." 330 00:16:53,889 --> 00:16:56,349 What, with apple juice? 331 00:16:56,349 --> 00:16:58,101 That's right. Yeah. 332 00:16:59,436 --> 00:17:01,646 The mural that people go to when he passed away 333 00:17:01,646 --> 00:17:05,275 was actually made when he was still alive. 334 00:17:06,109 --> 00:17:08,695 That's how much people appreciated him. Like, it was all... 335 00:17:09,905 --> 00:17:11,907 People were celebrating him when he was here. 336 00:17:13,784 --> 00:17:15,035 I think he liked it. 337 00:18:06,211 --> 00:18:08,338 You all right? Huh? 338 00:18:15,804 --> 00:18:16,888 Hmm. 339 00:18:23,145 --> 00:18:24,146 Let's go back home. 340 00:18:41,413 --> 00:18:47,335 I feel, like, a lot of times in a kinda chaotic storm 341 00:18:47,836 --> 00:18:50,839 where you're just trying to stay level. 342 00:18:52,591 --> 00:18:57,387 Like, I hadn't really grown up until I felt grief. 343 00:18:58,638 --> 00:19:01,099 Loss, it just took over my life. 344 00:19:02,142 --> 00:19:03,852 {\an8}♪ I've been spinning now for time ♪ 345 00:19:04,853 --> 00:19:06,521 {\an8}♪ Couple women by my side ♪ 346 00:19:07,397 --> 00:19:09,274 ♪ I got sinning on my mind now ♪ 347 00:19:10,358 --> 00:19:12,152 ♪ Sipping on red wine ♪ 348 00:19:12,652 --> 00:19:14,571 ♪ I've been sitting here for ages ♪ 349 00:19:15,530 --> 00:19:17,365 ♪ Ripping out the pages ♪ 350 00:19:17,866 --> 00:19:19,451 ♪ How'd I get so faded? ♪ 351 00:19:20,535 --> 00:19:22,078 ♪ How'd I get so faded? ♪ 352 00:19:22,078 --> 00:19:26,124 ♪ Oh, no, no don't leave me lonely now ♪ 353 00:19:26,625 --> 00:19:30,712 ♪ You've loved me How'd you never learn now? ♪ 354 00:19:32,589 --> 00:19:35,842 ♪ Ooh, colored crimson in my eyes ♪ 355 00:19:35,842 --> 00:19:40,263 ♪ One or two could free my mind ♪ 356 00:19:41,264 --> 00:19:42,265 ♪ Ooh, oh ♪ 357 00:19:43,808 --> 00:19:48,063 ♪ All the voices in my mind Calling out across the line ♪ 358 00:19:48,605 --> 00:19:58,365 ♪ All the voices in my mind Calling out across the line ♪ 359 00:19:58,949 --> 00:20:08,416 ♪ All the voices in my mind Calling out across the line ♪ 360 00:20:09,417 --> 00:20:14,256 ♪ All the voices in my mind Calling out across the line ♪ 361 00:20:14,256 --> 00:20:18,051 ♪ All the voices in my mind Calling out ♪ 362 00:20:18,051 --> 00:20:20,136 ♪ I saw scars upon her ♪ 363 00:20:20,136 --> 00:20:21,721 ♪ Tell me when it kicks in ♪ 364 00:20:22,764 --> 00:20:24,557 ♪ Tell me when it kicks in ♪ 365 00:20:28,520 --> 00:20:30,522 ♪ I saw scars upon her ♪ 366 00:20:30,522 --> 00:20:31,982 ♪ Tell me when it kicks in ♪ 367 00:20:33,858 --> 00:20:35,610 ♪ Brokenhearted now ♪ 368 00:20:55,297 --> 00:20:56,298 Whoo! 369 00:20:56,298 --> 00:20:57,465 Whoo! 370 00:20:57,465 --> 00:20:59,342 You good? 371 00:21:01,636 --> 00:21:07,058 Just... kind of mad what was yesterday and what is today. 372 00:21:07,058 --> 00:21:08,143 Yeah. - You know? 373 00:21:09,811 --> 00:21:12,188 Did you think about it on stage? - Whole time, yeah. 374 00:21:12,188 --> 00:21:16,776 I was just, like-- just trying to, like, hold it together. 375 00:21:17,819 --> 00:21:19,154 Oh, man. 376 00:21:21,614 --> 00:21:22,615 You kind of, like-- 377 00:21:23,450 --> 00:21:28,204 Obviously, it's good to be distracted and have things, 378 00:21:28,204 --> 00:21:32,500 and, like, playing to a crowd like that is great, and-- 379 00:21:33,543 --> 00:21:34,544 But it's, like... 380 00:21:35,879 --> 00:21:38,757 Like, at one o'clock this morning, I was at the mural, and... 381 00:21:40,717 --> 00:21:43,720 Yeah. It's just... kind of weird. 382 00:21:46,556 --> 00:21:50,101 I was thinking, "I don't want to cry in front of 78,000 people." 383 00:21:50,101 --> 00:21:53,772 Um. And I found myself really close at times. 384 00:21:54,522 --> 00:21:55,523 Um. 385 00:21:57,901 --> 00:21:58,902 Yeah. 386 00:22:03,198 --> 00:22:04,783 It's just mad it's just straight back to it. 387 00:22:05,950 --> 00:22:07,077 Fly home. 388 00:22:07,077 --> 00:22:10,789 Go and do something really intense, and then straight back to... 389 00:22:11,915 --> 00:22:12,999 The show must go on. 390 00:22:28,306 --> 00:22:31,434 I still feel so much love from that side of the industry 391 00:22:31,434 --> 00:22:34,979 that Jamal introduced me into, especially in the grime scene. 392 00:22:36,731 --> 00:22:39,526 Every single person in the UK industry, 393 00:22:39,526 --> 00:22:41,569 of any note, from Dave... 394 00:22:41,569 --> 00:22:42,695 - Thanks so much. 395 00:22:42,695 --> 00:22:44,948 - ...to Stormzy... - This one means so much to me. 396 00:22:44,948 --> 00:22:46,908 ...he was part of their journey. 397 00:22:46,908 --> 00:22:49,661 Jamal is so intertwined with everyone's stories 398 00:22:49,661 --> 00:22:52,539 that you can't not keep the memory alive. 399 00:22:52,539 --> 00:22:55,667 {\an8}I had Fireboy who couldn't come on tonight's tour-- 400 00:22:55,667 --> 00:22:57,377 Last night at Wembley Stadium. 401 00:22:57,377 --> 00:23:01,339 This is the biggest ticketed show I have ever done in England. 402 00:23:01,339 --> 00:23:05,260 And what better way to celebrate it than to bring out Big Mike. 403 00:23:05,260 --> 00:23:06,886 Cheese. 404 00:23:07,846 --> 00:23:09,722 - Glasgow! 405 00:23:09,722 --> 00:23:11,224 Stormzy! 406 00:23:11,224 --> 00:23:14,269 Which is mad because you can do a Wembley anyway. 407 00:23:14,269 --> 00:23:18,106 Me and Stormzy first met in 2015. 408 00:23:18,106 --> 00:23:20,442 I guess over the years it's just turned into 409 00:23:20,442 --> 00:23:23,611 a real bond of love, friendship, brotherhood. 410 00:23:23,611 --> 00:23:26,614 He was there the day after Jamal passed away. 411 00:23:26,614 --> 00:23:29,742 He drove to my house and came and comforted me. 412 00:23:29,742 --> 00:23:31,953 A lot of the time when I do it, because of the in-ears-- 413 00:23:31,953 --> 00:23:33,204 That's what I'm saying. 414 00:23:33,204 --> 00:23:35,373 At the end of one of the songs, just take it out. 415 00:23:35,373 --> 00:23:37,584 - That's what I was gonna tell you. - Watch and listen. 416 00:23:37,584 --> 00:23:38,918 Just hear the screams. 417 00:23:39,586 --> 00:23:40,670 Grateful, man. 418 00:23:40,670 --> 00:23:44,841 Grateful to have a brother like this who does five Wembleys 419 00:23:44,841 --> 00:23:47,802 and you get to prance in and just, "Now I've come for the ride." 420 00:23:47,802 --> 00:23:49,262 When you gonna put on yours? 421 00:23:49,846 --> 00:23:51,014 I wanna do this once. 422 00:23:51,681 --> 00:23:53,308 That once, and then-- 423 00:23:53,308 --> 00:23:56,519 - That's what I said. - What's this one? What's this here? 424 00:23:56,519 --> 00:23:58,354 - Twelfth. Fucking hell. 425 00:23:58,354 --> 00:24:00,773 There's not any fake bullshit. 426 00:24:00,773 --> 00:24:02,650 He would be as big as he is without me. 427 00:24:02,650 --> 00:24:04,152 I would be as big as I am without him. 428 00:24:04,152 --> 00:24:05,862 But when we come together it's magical. 429 00:24:05,862 --> 00:24:08,323 Like, you would want to bottle something like that up 430 00:24:08,323 --> 00:24:10,158 and every now and then just open it. 431 00:24:10,158 --> 00:24:11,659 - That was, aah. 432 00:24:11,659 --> 00:24:12,660 Very big crowd, hey? 433 00:24:12,660 --> 00:24:14,829 Watch above there. 434 00:24:14,829 --> 00:24:16,873 - Oh, shit. - Watch your head there. 435 00:24:17,916 --> 00:24:19,083 Now, Wembley. 436 00:24:20,126 --> 00:24:24,672 This February, sadly we lost a very important person in music 437 00:24:24,672 --> 00:24:26,716 who was also my best friend, Jamal Edwards. 438 00:24:26,716 --> 00:24:30,345 You would know him as SBTV, but he was a fantastic, fantastic man. 439 00:24:30,345 --> 00:24:34,390 I would not be on this stage were it not for him. This one's for Jamal. 440 00:24:36,976 --> 00:24:38,228 Now, London... 441 00:24:38,228 --> 00:24:39,896 - Whoo! 442 00:24:39,896 --> 00:24:41,481 This needs no introduction. 443 00:24:42,357 --> 00:24:43,483 Make some noise! 444 00:24:47,028 --> 00:24:48,029 Hey! 445 00:24:49,989 --> 00:24:55,787 {\an8}♪ Jet plane headed up to the sky Spread wings in the clouds getting high ♪ 446 00:24:55,787 --> 00:24:56,955 Whoop. Whoop. 447 00:24:56,955 --> 00:24:59,707 ♪ We ain't hit a rave in a while ♪ 448 00:25:00,291 --> 00:25:03,211 ♪ So take me back to London-don-don ♪ 449 00:25:03,878 --> 00:25:07,423 ♪ I do deals but I never get twanged Moves that ain't ever been planned ♪ 450 00:25:07,423 --> 00:25:11,010 ♪ Know goons that were never in gangs Where I'm from, chat shit get banged ♪ 451 00:25:11,010 --> 00:25:13,012 ♪ Where I'm from Chat shit, let the 12-gauge rip ♪ 452 00:25:13,012 --> 00:25:14,389 ♪ Yeah, it's sick how it fits in my hand ♪ 453 00:25:14,389 --> 00:25:18,142 ♪ I don't mix with the glitz and the glam Or these stupid pricks on the gram ♪ 454 00:25:18,935 --> 00:25:19,936 -♪ It's that time ♪ -♪ Whoo ♪ 455 00:25:19,936 --> 00:25:21,646 -♪ Big Mike and Teddy are on grime ♪ -♪ Whoo ♪ 456 00:25:21,646 --> 00:25:23,106 ♪ I wanna try new things They just want me to sing ♪ 457 00:25:23,106 --> 00:25:24,941 ♪ 'Cause nobody thinks I write rhymes ♪ 458 00:25:24,941 --> 00:25:28,069 ♪ Now I'm back in the bits with my guy Give me a packet of crisps with my pint ♪ 459 00:25:28,069 --> 00:25:29,237 ♪ I hit my friends up ♪ 460 00:25:29,237 --> 00:25:31,698 ♪ Go straight to the pub 'Cause I haven't been home in time ♪ 461 00:25:33,449 --> 00:25:36,327 -♪ Bass high, middle night, ceiling low ♪ -♪ Ceiling low ♪ 462 00:25:36,327 --> 00:25:39,581 ♪ Sweat brow drippin' down When in Rome ♪ 463 00:25:39,581 --> 00:25:42,792 -♪ Whoo, whoo ♪ -♪ No town does it quite like my home ♪ 464 00:25:43,751 --> 00:25:45,753 ♪ So take me back to London-don ♪ 465 00:26:00,435 --> 00:26:02,895 I've been in the industry now for a very, very long time. 466 00:26:02,895 --> 00:26:08,318 Honest to God, hand on heart, this man is such a wonderful human being. 467 00:26:08,318 --> 00:26:09,402 He's... 468 00:26:10,069 --> 00:26:13,281 Like, aside from-- aside from music, 469 00:26:13,281 --> 00:26:16,242 he's been there for me in some of the darkest times of my life. 470 00:26:16,242 --> 00:26:19,621 And I'm so honored to know him and bring him on stage for you guys. 471 00:26:20,872 --> 00:26:24,083 Wembley, one more time, make some noise for Stormzy! 472 00:26:28,630 --> 00:26:30,548 Jamal's favorite quote is, 473 00:26:30,548 --> 00:26:33,551 "The goal is not to live forever, it's to create something that will." 474 00:26:33,551 --> 00:26:34,677 That's Jamal's legacy. 475 00:26:34,677 --> 00:26:36,387 It's not SBTV. 476 00:26:36,387 --> 00:26:39,098 And it's not Stormzy becoming the biggest rapper in England. 477 00:26:39,098 --> 00:26:42,727 And it's not me making a career out of myself. 478 00:26:42,727 --> 00:26:46,105 Jamal's legacy is basically empowering young kids 479 00:26:46,105 --> 00:26:48,191 to be able to be whatever they wanna be. 480 00:26:48,191 --> 00:26:52,362 Because all he did was get a camera, start filming his mates 481 00:26:52,362 --> 00:26:54,447 and put it on YouTube when he was 14. 482 00:26:54,447 --> 00:26:56,699 Self-belief every day, all day. 483 00:26:56,699 --> 00:27:00,036 That's-- That's-- I can't say it enough. 484 00:27:00,536 --> 00:27:02,205 I don't want my legacy to be "Shape of You." 485 00:27:02,205 --> 00:27:03,539 I don't want my legacy to be "Perfect." 486 00:27:03,539 --> 00:27:07,251 Like, I would love for my legacy to be essentially saying to kids, 487 00:27:07,251 --> 00:27:10,004 "Just do what you want to do." 488 00:27:10,922 --> 00:27:15,259 Kids in Ipswich, which is not, like, a glamorous place at all. 489 00:27:15,927 --> 00:27:18,054 But I want kids in Ipswich to be like, 490 00:27:18,054 --> 00:27:20,973 "Ed's from Ipswich. I'm from Ipswich. I can do it too." 491 00:27:21,474 --> 00:27:23,393 - Huh? 492 00:27:23,393 --> 00:27:25,269 About to play a show at the town hall. You wanna come? 493 00:27:25,269 --> 00:27:27,271 - Fantastic, thank you. - Just here for free. 494 00:27:27,271 --> 00:27:29,107 - That'll be a pleasure. - Come on down. 495 00:27:29,107 --> 00:27:31,859 - Wow. We saw you early in the year. - Yeah? 496 00:27:31,859 --> 00:27:33,319 - For free? - Yeah. Whereabouts? 497 00:27:34,278 --> 00:27:35,822 - Wembley. - Amazing. Thanks for coming. 498 00:27:37,031 --> 00:27:39,325 Come on, Ed. - How you doing? 499 00:27:39,909 --> 00:27:43,037 - All right. Is that on? 500 00:27:43,037 --> 00:27:44,122 How you guys doing? 501 00:27:46,249 --> 00:27:48,960 First gig on the, uh, High Street in a while. 502 00:27:48,960 --> 00:27:50,253 - Good to be back. 503 00:27:52,463 --> 00:27:54,757 ♪ When your legs don't work Like they used to before ♪ 504 00:27:57,885 --> 00:27:59,929 ♪ And I can't sweep you off of your feet ♪ 505 00:28:02,974 --> 00:28:05,977 ♪ Will your mouth still remember The taste of my love? ♪ 506 00:28:08,187 --> 00:28:11,065 ♪ Will your eyes still smile From your cheeks? ♪ 507 00:28:12,734 --> 00:28:16,779 ♪ People fall in love in mysterious ways ♪ 508 00:28:17,780 --> 00:28:21,784 ♪ Maybe it's all part of a plan ♪ 509 00:28:22,952 --> 00:28:27,498 ♪ I'll just keep on making The same mistakes ♪ 510 00:28:27,999 --> 00:28:31,461 ♪ Hoping that you'll understand ♪ 511 00:28:32,086 --> 00:28:34,172 ♪ But, baby, now ♪ 512 00:28:34,672 --> 00:28:35,673 Whoo! 513 00:28:36,674 --> 00:28:38,801 ♪ Take me into your loving arms ♪ 514 00:28:38,801 --> 00:28:40,178 ♪ Ay, yeah... ♪ 515 00:28:40,720 --> 00:28:43,181 I never got into music being like, "I wanna sell out Wembley Stadium." 516 00:28:44,015 --> 00:28:48,227 I'd seen people do gigs and get paid £50 or people do weddings and get paid £200. 517 00:28:48,227 --> 00:28:49,812 I knew it was possible. 518 00:28:49,812 --> 00:28:51,439 ♪ Thinking out loud... ♪ 519 00:28:51,439 --> 00:28:54,192 If I was just making a living doing music, I'd be just as happy. 520 00:28:54,192 --> 00:28:55,902 Because you're just doing the thing you love. 521 00:28:55,902 --> 00:28:57,361 ♪ Where we are ♪ 522 00:29:01,783 --> 00:29:04,076 To the hot dog man that's leaving, I love you! 523 00:29:04,076 --> 00:29:06,162 - You're the man. 524 00:29:06,662 --> 00:29:09,832 And that's actually the key to happiness I think. 525 00:29:11,793 --> 00:29:13,586 I have a question. Is that your guitar? 526 00:29:14,420 --> 00:29:17,131 - If I give you this guitar after this... 527 00:29:17,131 --> 00:29:19,383 And this-- And this speaker, will you pro-- 528 00:29:19,383 --> 00:29:21,260 - How old are you? - Ten. 529 00:29:21,260 --> 00:29:24,931 Ten. So I started playing guitar at 11, and I couldn't play guitar before that. 530 00:29:24,931 --> 00:29:27,642 If I give you this, you promise-- You make him practice every day? 531 00:29:27,642 --> 00:29:30,603 - Every day. Every day. 532 00:29:52,959 --> 00:29:55,545 Major, major life things happen, 533 00:29:55,545 --> 00:29:59,465 and you just have to remember that the day will end. 534 00:29:59,465 --> 00:30:02,051 And there will be another day. And that day will end. 535 00:30:05,179 --> 00:30:06,973 Music's always been like therapy to me. 536 00:30:08,474 --> 00:30:11,686 {\an8}It was a way for me to get my thoughts and feelings down as a kid. 537 00:30:12,562 --> 00:30:14,146 Bye-bye. See you later. 538 00:30:14,146 --> 00:30:15,231 And it works. 539 00:30:15,940 --> 00:30:16,941 Really works.