1 00:00:11,471 --> 00:00:14,432 So the loop pedal, a key to it is timing. 2 00:00:14,432 --> 00:00:17,769 So you basically-- You press-- You press that and record. 3 00:00:18,478 --> 00:00:22,190 And the-- Getting it on the one is the most important thing. 4 00:00:22,190 --> 00:00:25,276 So, one, two, three, four, one. 5 00:00:25,276 --> 00:00:28,905 If you get that wrong, you can go, one, two, three, four. 6 00:00:29,530 --> 00:00:31,199 Then for the rest of the song it's just... 7 00:00:32,992 --> 00:00:35,328 And you just have to get the timing right. 8 00:00:35,328 --> 00:00:37,955 I'll do, um-- I'll show you "Shape of You." So-- 9 00:00:39,582 --> 00:00:40,792 Can I get the guitar in, Chris? 10 00:00:50,593 --> 00:00:51,844 And then you put in the-- 11 00:00:57,683 --> 00:00:59,977 And once that base is down, you're kind of good. 12 00:01:00,478 --> 00:01:01,562 So you add the keys. 13 00:01:08,194 --> 00:01:09,737 Then the sort of chanty singing. 14 00:01:20,790 --> 00:01:21,791 Then the guitar. 15 00:01:30,258 --> 00:01:32,343 So the most exciting bit is running on... 16 00:01:32,343 --> 00:01:35,012 - Right. Sing it out with me! 17 00:01:35,012 --> 00:01:36,931 ...and then clicking one off and then... 18 00:01:36,931 --> 00:01:39,433 ♪ The club isn't the best place To find a lover ♪ 19 00:01:39,433 --> 00:01:41,227 ♪ So the bar is where I go ♪ 20 00:01:41,894 --> 00:01:44,230 ♪ Me and my friends Sat at the table doing shots ♪ 21 00:01:44,230 --> 00:01:46,357 ♪ Drinking fast and then we talk slow ♪ 22 00:01:46,858 --> 00:01:49,652 ♪ And you come over And start up a conversation with just me ♪ 23 00:01:49,652 --> 00:01:51,612 ♪ And trust me I'll give it a chance now ♪ 24 00:01:51,612 --> 00:01:52,780 ♪ Take my hand, stop ♪ 25 00:01:52,780 --> 00:01:56,909 I started out my career just playing completely solo. 26 00:01:56,909 --> 00:01:58,244 I mean, for the past ten years, 27 00:01:58,244 --> 00:02:00,872 it's just been me and a loop pedal onstage. 28 00:02:00,872 --> 00:02:03,332 Any mistake I make is on me. 29 00:02:03,332 --> 00:02:04,959 Anytime it goes well, it's on me. 30 00:02:04,959 --> 00:02:07,336 ♪ Come on now follow my lead Mm-hmm ♪ 31 00:02:08,254 --> 00:02:10,339 ♪ I'm in love with the shape of you ♪ 32 00:02:11,257 --> 00:02:14,719 There are no backing tracks. It is just this every night. 33 00:02:14,719 --> 00:02:16,846 It's built up from scratch, and then it's deleted. 34 00:02:17,763 --> 00:02:20,433 ♪ Every day discovering Something brand new ♪ 35 00:02:20,933 --> 00:02:22,727 ♪ I'm in love with your body ♪ 36 00:02:25,396 --> 00:02:27,732 ♪ Come on, I'm in love with your body ♪ 37 00:02:27,732 --> 00:02:30,276 ♪ Every day discovering Something brand new ♪ 38 00:02:30,276 --> 00:02:31,360 Zurich! 39 00:02:31,360 --> 00:02:33,070 ♪ I'm in love with the shape of you ♪ 40 00:02:39,493 --> 00:02:41,078 Thank you so much! We'll see you tomorrow! 41 00:02:52,298 --> 00:02:56,802 The Union Chapel gig was definitely like no other. 42 00:02:56,802 --> 00:02:58,721 I've seen Ed perform for years and years. 43 00:02:58,721 --> 00:03:01,766 {\an8}And it was like no other gig I've ever seen. 44 00:03:02,308 --> 00:03:03,768 {\an8}He looked vulnerable, didn't he? 45 00:03:04,727 --> 00:03:05,853 {\an8}Yeah. 46 00:03:06,938 --> 00:03:12,401 Ed is always in control. And he's always been in control of his plan. 47 00:03:12,401 --> 00:03:13,903 He knows what he's doing. 48 00:03:13,903 --> 00:03:16,155 Um, he's such a confident performer. 49 00:03:17,698 --> 00:03:21,661 And he's now performing work that, 50 00:03:21,661 --> 00:03:26,624 for the first time ever, is his deepest, darkest fears, I guess. 51 00:03:26,624 --> 00:03:30,127 And that's a difficult thing to perform. 52 00:03:30,127 --> 00:03:32,713 And now stage is not his safe place. Or it wasn't. 53 00:03:34,590 --> 00:03:36,759 I've never seen him cry onstage. 54 00:03:36,759 --> 00:03:42,723 Um, he doesn't really cry in general. That's really unusual to see him cry. 55 00:03:43,766 --> 00:03:46,811 But I just don't think he's had the time to... 56 00:03:48,145 --> 00:03:50,690 Uh, he hasn't had the time to sit with his thoughts. 57 00:03:51,649 --> 00:03:57,363 And I can't see when he's gonna have that in the next four years. 58 00:03:59,407 --> 00:04:04,287 Ed Sheeran is taking us to school with the name of his North American tour. 59 00:04:04,287 --> 00:04:06,205 It's the Mathematics Tour. 60 00:04:06,205 --> 00:04:09,458 The tour kicks off on May 6 in Arlington, Texas. 61 00:04:09,458 --> 00:04:10,876 Good morning, America. 62 00:04:11,585 --> 00:04:13,504 And it's barely morning. 63 00:04:13,504 --> 00:04:15,172 That's not good. 64 00:04:15,172 --> 00:04:16,549 - It's early. 65 00:04:17,550 --> 00:04:21,595 And, um, yeah. Gonna go on and launch the tour. 66 00:04:21,595 --> 00:04:23,139 Hopefully people buy tickets. 67 00:04:23,889 --> 00:04:25,224 It's my guy, Ed Sheeran. 68 00:04:25,224 --> 00:04:28,102 The North American leg of the Ed Sheeran Tour. You gotta get tickets. 69 00:04:28,102 --> 00:04:29,270 Please welcome back Ed Sheeran. 70 00:04:29,270 --> 00:04:31,605 Ed Sheeran is here. What's up, my brother? 71 00:04:31,605 --> 00:04:32,898 {\an8}What's going on? Happy to be back. 72 00:04:32,898 --> 00:04:35,276 {\an8}The tour, fireworks, explosions, everything. 73 00:04:35,276 --> 00:04:37,445 {\an8}♪ I took an arrow to the heart ♪ 74 00:04:38,738 --> 00:04:41,782 {\an8}♪ I never kissed a mouth That tastes like yours ♪ 75 00:04:41,782 --> 00:04:43,492 Ticket sales are going live in an hour. 76 00:04:43,492 --> 00:04:45,244 ♪ Strawberries and somethin' more ♪ 77 00:04:45,244 --> 00:04:46,454 Hey! - Hey! 78 00:04:46,454 --> 00:04:48,539 Chez, Jupes is sitting up. 79 00:04:48,539 --> 00:04:50,583 A new album comes out beginning of the year. 80 00:04:50,583 --> 00:04:52,710 This is the tour everyone's gonna be talking about. 81 00:04:52,710 --> 00:04:55,046 - Here he is. Ed Sheeran. 82 00:04:56,297 --> 00:04:57,423 Best artist ever. 83 00:04:57,423 --> 00:05:00,301 {\an8}It has been five years since you were last here. 84 00:05:00,301 --> 00:05:01,677 {\an8}It feels like it's time to come back. 85 00:05:01,677 --> 00:05:03,179 Thank you for coming in today. 86 00:05:12,104 --> 00:05:14,106 So I played this venue-- 87 00:05:14,106 --> 00:05:17,735 I think it was the second venue I played in the States. 88 00:05:18,778 --> 00:05:23,574 You spend your whole life as a musician wondering if you can break America. 89 00:05:23,574 --> 00:05:27,370 This was-- This venue was when I was like, "Oh, it's starting." 90 00:05:28,412 --> 00:05:29,789 I'm just remembering now looking at-- 91 00:05:29,789 --> 00:05:34,710 No, it was in-- It was in that bit. It was in that bit with the, uh, window. 92 00:05:34,710 --> 00:05:37,588 I sat there and did an acoustic session of "A Team," 93 00:05:37,588 --> 00:05:39,465 and then I covered Ginuwine "Pony." 94 00:05:39,465 --> 00:05:42,426 I remember the night playing this show. 95 00:05:42,426 --> 00:05:44,553 It was the night before the album came out. 96 00:05:45,137 --> 00:05:49,683 And then we went up to the dressing room upstairs and downloaded it on iTunes. 97 00:05:49,683 --> 00:05:51,519 And then Stu gets a text 98 00:05:51,519 --> 00:05:53,896 with a screenshot that it'd gone Number 1 on iTunes. 99 00:05:53,896 --> 00:05:56,148 And everyone was very emotional. 100 00:06:00,486 --> 00:06:02,113 - Yep. 101 00:06:06,158 --> 00:06:10,704 I felt like when Jamal died, I wanted the entire world to stop. 102 00:06:11,247 --> 00:06:15,251 And it just felt like the next day, life just resumed. 103 00:06:15,251 --> 00:06:16,544 Does that make... 104 00:06:18,546 --> 00:06:20,339 I felt embarrassed. 105 00:06:20,339 --> 00:06:23,217 Um, 'cause it was a room full of people I didn't really know. 106 00:06:23,217 --> 00:06:29,432 And they had come for a good night, and my job is to be an entertainer. 107 00:06:29,432 --> 00:06:31,642 And I didn't feel like an entertainer that night. 108 00:06:31,642 --> 00:06:36,647 I felt like a-- just a man onstage, talking. 109 00:06:38,441 --> 00:06:42,987 I don't get emotional onstage, but the Jamal thing is still really raw 110 00:06:42,987 --> 00:06:45,072 because it only happened a few months ago. 111 00:06:45,072 --> 00:06:47,700 And also, I don't think there's been time. 112 00:06:47,700 --> 00:06:51,245 And I feel like that's just part of life. 113 00:06:51,245 --> 00:06:57,460 You can't let these things, uh, dominate your life. 114 00:06:57,460 --> 00:06:58,544 But then maybe that's bad 115 00:06:58,544 --> 00:07:01,630 'cause you suppress them, and then you don't process them. But I don't know. 116 00:07:01,630 --> 00:07:04,008 ♪ Then life goes on ♪ 117 00:07:08,762 --> 00:07:11,974 I woke up this morning not feeling great. 118 00:07:11,974 --> 00:07:14,477 You know, I'm away from Cherry and the kids for ten days. 119 00:07:14,477 --> 00:07:15,895 Cherry's struggling. 120 00:07:15,895 --> 00:07:19,857 And this trip is longer than I expected it to be. 121 00:07:31,202 --> 00:07:32,203 On The Divide Tour, 122 00:07:32,203 --> 00:07:34,663 there would be times when it was a good couple of months 123 00:07:34,663 --> 00:07:36,040 that we didn't see each other. 124 00:07:37,041 --> 00:07:40,377 Every single week, I got a postcard coming through the door. 125 00:07:41,253 --> 00:07:43,088 It's just a really lovely, sweet thing. 126 00:07:43,088 --> 00:07:46,675 And it just kinda kept me connected, I guess, 127 00:07:46,675 --> 00:07:49,220 with where he was and what he was doing and... 128 00:07:49,220 --> 00:07:52,306 They all say exactly the same thing, so there's really not much, uh... 129 00:07:53,224 --> 00:07:56,018 Man of a few words, weirdly. 130 00:07:56,685 --> 00:07:59,980 Um, so they literally say, "Wish you were here." 131 00:07:59,980 --> 00:08:03,609 Except for, he'll kill me for saying this, the one that says, "Wish you were her." 132 00:08:05,861 --> 00:08:08,614 So, you know, that got the old mind racing. 133 00:08:10,032 --> 00:08:12,952 I do remember being sad and missing him. 134 00:08:12,952 --> 00:08:17,540 But it was much easier just to get on a plane and go and see him. 135 00:08:17,540 --> 00:08:20,501 There was a couple of times I surprised him, which was amazing. 136 00:08:20,501 --> 00:08:21,585 Now we've got a family, 137 00:08:21,585 --> 00:08:23,379 it's just more complicated. 138 00:08:23,379 --> 00:08:26,799 I totally knew what I was getting into, but there's definitely aspects of it 139 00:08:26,799 --> 00:08:31,053 which is a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. 140 00:08:31,554 --> 00:08:34,139 Ed will never stop doing what he's doing. 141 00:08:35,391 --> 00:08:37,101 It's really important that he carries on. 142 00:08:37,101 --> 00:08:39,395 I think he's doing something incredibly special. 143 00:08:39,937 --> 00:08:43,399 I really wanna be able to support that and support him. 144 00:08:43,399 --> 00:08:45,568 But at the same time, preserving our family. 145 00:08:46,819 --> 00:08:49,613 So it's about striking that balance, I guess. 146 00:09:12,595 --> 00:09:15,306 A little duck for Lyra and a little duck for Jupes. 147 00:09:16,849 --> 00:09:17,850 Happy days. 148 00:09:19,018 --> 00:09:21,270 I think, yeah, this has definitely been the most difficult trip 149 00:09:21,270 --> 00:09:23,814 in terms of strain on my family. 150 00:09:23,814 --> 00:09:24,898 Um... 151 00:09:28,193 --> 00:09:29,361 Yeah. 152 00:09:31,196 --> 00:09:35,743 I feel like we just need to shift, um, the way we do things. 153 00:09:36,493 --> 00:09:37,494 Um... 154 00:09:38,579 --> 00:09:40,164 And make it more family-friendly. 155 00:09:42,958 --> 00:09:48,339 I find so much joy in what I do, and I feel like it brings happiness to me. 156 00:09:48,339 --> 00:09:51,383 So it's just about a balance of having... 157 00:09:52,509 --> 00:09:53,719 Um, not overdoing it. 158 00:09:53,719 --> 00:09:59,475 But then also my personality is to overdo everything all the time. 159 00:10:00,768 --> 00:10:02,853 Just nothing is gonna fit in these bags. 160 00:10:02,853 --> 00:10:04,396 - See. 161 00:10:04,396 --> 00:10:05,481 Okay. 162 00:10:18,994 --> 00:10:21,705 With this album, I don't know what it's gonna do. 163 00:10:21,705 --> 00:10:25,042 And you know, I hope people connect to it. 164 00:10:25,042 --> 00:10:27,586 But also, I understand if they don't. 165 00:10:27,586 --> 00:10:30,422 Um, 'cause they are personal stories. 166 00:10:30,422 --> 00:10:31,924 I feel like if someone came up to me 167 00:10:31,924 --> 00:10:33,967 and went, "I like the album." I'd be like, "That's good." 168 00:10:33,967 --> 00:10:35,969 But if someone came and said they didn't like the album, 169 00:10:35,969 --> 00:10:37,304 I'd be like, "I don't really care." 170 00:10:38,347 --> 00:10:39,515 I don't really care. 171 00:10:40,015 --> 00:10:45,479 There's gonna be a lot of, um, conflicting things that I've just said. 172 00:10:45,479 --> 00:10:48,315 'Cause I'll say one thing and then think another. I don't know. 173 00:10:50,025 --> 00:10:51,110 I'm overthinking it. 174 00:10:55,364 --> 00:10:56,573 Mike? Big Man. 175 00:10:56,573 --> 00:10:57,658 Big Man. 176 00:10:57,658 --> 00:10:58,992 - How you doing? 177 00:10:58,992 --> 00:11:00,244 {\an8}You sailing? 178 00:11:00,244 --> 00:11:01,912 {\an8}- What's going on? - I'm all right. 179 00:11:01,912 --> 00:11:05,916 Any time we come together personally or musically, it's great. 180 00:11:06,542 --> 00:11:09,420 ♪ Jet plane headed up to the sky ♪ 181 00:11:09,920 --> 00:11:11,672 Here on the "Take Me Back to London" video. 182 00:11:11,672 --> 00:11:15,884 This is actually the first video that me and Mike have done together. 183 00:11:16,719 --> 00:11:20,055 Bit too, uh-- bit too short for the music video. 184 00:11:20,055 --> 00:11:21,849 {\an8}♪ But now I'm back in the track With Big Michael ♪ 185 00:11:21,849 --> 00:11:23,475 {\an8}♪ He said "Teddy, never get off your high horse" ♪ 186 00:11:23,475 --> 00:11:25,853 I don't have a lot of really close industry friends, 187 00:11:25,853 --> 00:11:27,688 but he's one of my closest. 188 00:11:27,688 --> 00:11:29,231 ♪ To the sky ♪ 189 00:11:29,231 --> 00:11:31,692 He comes to me for advice. I go to him for advice. 190 00:11:31,692 --> 00:11:34,778 And he's been invaluable in terms of sanity. 191 00:11:35,612 --> 00:11:37,823 {\an8}♪ So take me back to London ♪ 192 00:11:39,283 --> 00:11:41,076 Let's do something. - I'm in. 193 00:11:41,076 --> 00:11:42,953 - Yeah? What should we do? - Yeah, yeah, I'm in. 194 00:11:42,953 --> 00:11:45,497 I feel like whatever we do has to go Number 1 now. 195 00:11:46,206 --> 00:11:48,751 - I hear that. 196 00:11:48,751 --> 00:11:51,628 I hear that. I've got three Number 1s. Two of them are with him. 197 00:11:52,963 --> 00:11:54,131 I'm glad you wanna do something. 198 00:11:54,131 --> 00:11:55,591 - Yes, that's good. - Yeah, man. Yeah. 199 00:11:56,592 --> 00:11:58,761 This is my first time putting out something 200 00:11:58,761 --> 00:12:02,681 where I'm not completely certain of how it's gonna be. 201 00:12:02,681 --> 00:12:05,309 I knew that "Perfect" would be Christmas Number 1. 202 00:12:05,309 --> 00:12:08,854 I knew-- Just had this vision of this is what I know and this is-- 203 00:12:08,854 --> 00:12:12,316 But I have no idea how this is gonna be taken. 204 00:12:13,275 --> 00:12:16,779 With Subtract, what do you want? 205 00:12:17,988 --> 00:12:19,907 'Cause sometimes, what we do as artists-- 206 00:12:19,907 --> 00:12:21,909 - You put it out and go... - Yeah. 207 00:12:21,909 --> 00:12:25,579 We say, "I just want to be free." 208 00:12:25,579 --> 00:12:28,332 And then you're like, "Oh, is it selling much?" You know what I mean? 209 00:12:28,332 --> 00:12:31,794 So you've gotta really say, "Yo, this is what I wanna achieve." 210 00:12:31,794 --> 00:12:33,754 - And just go on that full run of it. - Mmm. 211 00:12:33,754 --> 00:12:36,173 - Especially, it's-- Yeah, but-- - It's terrifying, isn't it? 212 00:12:36,173 --> 00:12:38,258 That is just our job as an artist. 213 00:12:38,258 --> 00:12:45,265 And it is a scary, vulnerable, but very exciting, very fruitful position, 214 00:12:45,265 --> 00:12:46,433 where it's like, "Hey, okay." 215 00:12:46,433 --> 00:12:51,980 If I think of my role in this world, I'm a musician, so I make music. 216 00:12:51,980 --> 00:12:56,068 And I'm an artist, so my music reflects my life. 217 00:12:56,068 --> 00:12:58,779 Also, you sort of get to a point in your career 218 00:12:58,779 --> 00:13:02,074 where you make something that's worth being quiet for. 219 00:13:02,074 --> 00:13:03,158 - Yeah. - You know? 220 00:13:03,158 --> 00:13:04,827 Wow, that's a good way to put it. 221 00:13:04,827 --> 00:13:08,121 You make something worth being quiet for. Yeah, man. 222 00:13:08,121 --> 00:13:13,001 Plus, also, you've just... You've earned your rep. 223 00:13:23,095 --> 00:13:26,014 It's scary putting out your sort of deepest, 224 00:13:26,014 --> 00:13:28,684 darkest thoughts to the world. 225 00:13:32,187 --> 00:13:35,649 The first half of this year was a very difficult part 226 00:13:35,649 --> 00:13:38,569 of the last 30 years of my life. 227 00:13:40,112 --> 00:13:42,948 There's an umbrella over that time which is just a bit of a blur. 228 00:13:43,490 --> 00:13:45,325 But all of these songs came out. 229 00:13:46,535 --> 00:13:48,787 Those songs were so personal to me 230 00:13:48,787 --> 00:13:53,083 that no one can take away from me what those mean. 231 00:13:55,294 --> 00:14:00,424 I'm a pop star who every time I release people check and listen to it, 232 00:14:00,424 --> 00:14:02,593 and they go, "Is it a hit? Is it not a hit?" 233 00:14:03,260 --> 00:14:04,887 But I had to make it. 234 00:14:04,887 --> 00:14:08,015 And I'm gonna put it out because I want to put it out. 235 00:14:08,015 --> 00:14:10,559 'Cause I wanna be able to play shows and express myself. 236 00:14:12,102 --> 00:14:15,397 I think you have to be honest and write about where your life is 237 00:14:15,397 --> 00:14:18,317 rather than just trying to do things that you think people want to hear. 238 00:14:29,286 --> 00:14:30,287 Cheers, boo. 239 00:14:30,871 --> 00:14:32,456 - Happy date day. - Happy date day. 240 00:14:33,582 --> 00:14:35,918 Thanks so much. - The things these four walls have heard. 241 00:14:35,918 --> 00:14:38,378 This is just our sacred space. 242 00:14:39,963 --> 00:14:46,887 I actually feel being together again after being in New York, um-- 243 00:14:46,887 --> 00:14:50,307 'Cause I said I would never spend more than ten days away from Chez and the kids. 244 00:14:50,307 --> 00:14:53,477 And I actually think ten days is actually way too long. 245 00:14:53,477 --> 00:14:56,897 And also, if there's tension and arguments, 246 00:14:56,897 --> 00:15:00,817 I lose the ability to be like, "Hey. I love you." 247 00:15:00,817 --> 00:15:02,986 - Yeah, yeah. - You know? Because you're like-- 248 00:15:02,986 --> 00:15:04,905 It's the touch. It's like-- Yeah, it's like-- 249 00:15:04,905 --> 00:15:07,741 It's being like, "We're good." -"We're okay. We're fine." 250 00:15:07,741 --> 00:15:10,661 You lose that when you're away. - 'Cause it's all over WhatsApp. 251 00:15:10,661 --> 00:15:14,623 And I'll call Eds, and he'll be on his iPad in the car. 252 00:15:15,374 --> 00:15:16,875 - And there'll be... - Thank you. 253 00:15:16,875 --> 00:15:18,377 ...four other people in the car. 254 00:15:18,377 --> 00:15:21,129 He'll be like, "How you going?" You know, "What's going on?" 255 00:15:21,129 --> 00:15:22,506 - And I'm like, "Well... - Thank you. 256 00:15:22,506 --> 00:15:23,632 ...everything's falling apart, 257 00:15:23,632 --> 00:15:26,885 but I can't tell you that 'cause everyone's listening in." It-- 258 00:15:26,885 --> 00:15:28,971 - So you have the level of detachment. Thank you. 259 00:15:30,263 --> 00:15:31,807 There you go. Thank you. 260 00:15:33,725 --> 00:15:35,560 It's so good. Thank you. 261 00:15:36,895 --> 00:15:39,398 I feel like my life eventually has to... 262 00:15:42,359 --> 00:15:43,360 naturally plateau. 263 00:15:43,360 --> 00:15:45,529 Just to be kind to my children. 264 00:15:45,529 --> 00:15:47,823 I don't want to be, uh, 265 00:15:47,823 --> 00:15:50,325 "Hey, we're gonna do two years here and three here and one here." 266 00:15:50,325 --> 00:15:51,827 I want them to be like... 267 00:15:52,327 --> 00:15:54,079 I worry about that for you though. 268 00:15:55,122 --> 00:15:58,125 'Cause I don't think you're programmed that way. 269 00:16:00,460 --> 00:16:01,712 That make sense? 270 00:16:01,712 --> 00:16:04,673 And now we're working out real-life shit over an interview. 271 00:16:05,382 --> 00:16:08,301 Um. No, I don't know, 'cause I feel-- 272 00:16:08,301 --> 00:16:10,429 I've been coming to terms with it a lot 273 00:16:10,429 --> 00:16:13,807 because careers naturally plateau at certain points. 274 00:16:13,807 --> 00:16:18,103 And I think by the time that Lyra and Jupes are in school, 275 00:16:19,438 --> 00:16:22,858 the world will have naturally said, "We're good." 276 00:16:22,858 --> 00:16:24,234 - Mmm. What do you think-- - And I'm-- 277 00:16:24,234 --> 00:16:25,861 How do you think you're gonna cope with that? 278 00:16:25,861 --> 00:16:28,155 Not well. I don't think anyone copes with that well. 279 00:16:28,155 --> 00:16:32,075 You get into the music industry to make people want to like your music. 280 00:16:32,075 --> 00:16:35,037 And the moment that they say, "Well, actually we prefer this," 281 00:16:35,037 --> 00:16:36,788 I think it's quite a difficult thing. 282 00:16:36,788 --> 00:16:39,041 - It makes me worried. Do people like your stuff? 283 00:16:39,041 --> 00:16:43,128 I like my stuff, but my career is dictated by whether other people like my stuff. 284 00:16:43,628 --> 00:16:46,506 - And I feel like you really care as well. - Course I care. 285 00:16:46,506 --> 00:16:49,009 If I didn't care what people think, I wouldn't put it out. 286 00:16:49,009 --> 00:16:50,093 I would just make it. 287 00:16:52,512 --> 00:16:53,889 We'll see what happens, hey? 288 00:17:11,406 --> 00:17:13,492 You're going on a spa day, right? 289 00:17:13,492 --> 00:17:16,578 - Uh, spa day. Mom is coming. 290 00:17:19,456 --> 00:17:20,540 - Um... - If you do your spa, 291 00:17:20,540 --> 00:17:22,209 I might take Lyra to the zoo again. 292 00:17:22,209 --> 00:17:24,127 I promise not to give her the same lunch though. 293 00:17:29,966 --> 00:17:33,136 There's definitely a cloak of invisibility that falls over you 294 00:17:33,136 --> 00:17:34,387 when you come to Suffolk. 295 00:17:36,264 --> 00:17:37,557 What's going on? How you doing? 296 00:17:38,058 --> 00:17:39,309 - What's going on? - How are you? 297 00:17:39,309 --> 00:17:42,437 I have my memories and friends and family in one place. 298 00:17:42,437 --> 00:17:47,692 And I feel like there's a force field around Suffolk that protects me. 299 00:17:49,111 --> 00:17:51,488 There goes the full-time whistle. 300 00:17:51,488 --> 00:17:54,282 And Ipswich Town come back to win this one. 301 00:17:54,783 --> 00:17:55,784 Us, yeah, we won. 302 00:17:57,035 --> 00:18:02,666 Being here and being able to just be present, help and work is, 303 00:18:03,583 --> 00:18:06,378 - yeah, I think the golden ticket. 304 00:18:06,378 --> 00:18:10,966 I cannot stress how unusual it is to have Eds at home for a long period of time. 305 00:18:11,550 --> 00:18:13,176 - So... 306 00:18:14,678 --> 00:18:19,015 I'd say the last kind of year and a half has been a big transition phase for us. 307 00:18:23,895 --> 00:18:26,398 Oh, it's cold. 308 00:18:26,398 --> 00:18:29,860 Everything is about balance, and I think that's one way he's massively changed. 309 00:18:29,860 --> 00:18:32,696 Just trying to weave in a lot more personal time. 310 00:18:34,948 --> 00:18:38,535 I think now is the only time he's really taken a step back, I think, 311 00:18:38,535 --> 00:18:42,164 and started to just process everything, 312 00:18:42,956 --> 00:18:45,834 um, and given him-- himself the mental space. 313 00:18:51,381 --> 00:18:54,843 I think it's really healthy for him to put something out in the world 314 00:18:54,843 --> 00:18:57,888 that he is emotionally attached to 315 00:18:57,888 --> 00:19:04,436 but is happy for it just to be and have its place in the ether. 316 00:19:04,436 --> 00:19:09,191 Um, whether or not he will feel that way when it's out, I don't know. 317 00:19:09,191 --> 00:19:10,692 And we'll see. 318 00:19:14,863 --> 00:19:16,406 Just talking about you, my friend. 319 00:19:18,700 --> 00:19:19,701 Yeah, great. 320 00:19:19,701 --> 00:19:21,453 Just made a song with Cradle of Filth. 321 00:19:22,412 --> 00:19:24,915 - Do you know Cradle of Filth? 322 00:19:24,915 --> 00:19:29,252 It's-- It's random 'cause he's in a hard-core metal band, 323 00:19:29,252 --> 00:19:31,379 but is from Suffolk and loves Christmas. 324 00:19:35,842 --> 00:19:36,968 You had a good day? 325 00:19:37,469 --> 00:19:38,887 I'm really tired. 326 00:19:39,721 --> 00:19:40,805 Me too. 327 00:19:41,890 --> 00:19:43,099 Anyway... 328 00:19:43,808 --> 00:19:45,060 All right, boo. Love you. 329 00:19:53,443 --> 00:19:56,196 Can you speed it up 2 bpm? Yeah. 330 00:19:58,406 --> 00:20:00,158 {\an8}Ed, do you have another XLR cable? 331 00:20:00,659 --> 00:20:02,744 Probs. - Mic cable. 332 00:20:03,328 --> 00:20:07,582 Fred, I would like some credit that I know what an XLR cable is. 333 00:20:07,582 --> 00:20:09,876 Well, that's why-- Did you hear me say, "mic cable"? 334 00:20:12,754 --> 00:20:14,130 We are in studio. 335 00:20:14,965 --> 00:20:19,886 I've written my F64, and Fred is gonna make the beat for it. 336 00:20:20,387 --> 00:20:22,097 The thing is, me and Fred come together 337 00:20:22,097 --> 00:20:26,017 and make songs that become massive and that everyone knows. 338 00:20:26,017 --> 00:20:31,731 But we also create songs that no one hears that are also quite important to me. 339 00:20:31,731 --> 00:20:33,191 Am I right in saying that, Fred? 340 00:20:33,191 --> 00:20:34,442 A hundred percent. 341 00:20:35,527 --> 00:20:41,908 F64 is basically, um-- was sort of one of the main things on SBTV. 342 00:20:41,908 --> 00:20:43,785 And Jamal would basically just get 343 00:20:43,785 --> 00:20:48,957 the best of the best to do 64 bars that are exclusive to SBTV. 344 00:20:48,957 --> 00:20:52,168 When he passed away, his sister said, "We're gonna relaunch them again. 345 00:20:52,168 --> 00:20:53,336 And can you be the first one?" 346 00:20:55,505 --> 00:20:56,965 ♪ ...my brother ♪ 347 00:20:56,965 --> 00:20:58,508 Yeah. -♪ Been a long ♪ 348 00:20:58,508 --> 00:21:01,886 ♪ Been a long time But I cry 'cause I miss my brother ♪ 349 00:21:01,886 --> 00:21:04,055 ♪ You know for life Got your sis and mother ♪ 350 00:21:04,764 --> 00:21:06,975 ♪ ...that you're gone ♪ 351 00:21:06,975 --> 00:21:09,644 ♪ Hey, yo, we cried for nine nights In your family home ♪ 352 00:21:09,644 --> 00:21:12,605 ♪ Laid you to rest in the ground But without a stone ♪ 353 00:21:12,605 --> 00:21:13,690 ♪ And it hits me most at... ♪ 354 00:21:13,690 --> 00:21:14,899 - Beautiful. 355 00:21:14,899 --> 00:21:16,776 ♪ Cried for nine nights At your family home ♪ 356 00:21:16,776 --> 00:21:19,362 ♪ Laid you to rest in the ground But without a stone ♪ 357 00:21:19,362 --> 00:21:20,989 ♪ And now it hits me most at moments... ♪ 358 00:21:22,490 --> 00:21:25,160 You know it hits me most at moments now when I-- Yeah. Cool. 359 00:21:25,160 --> 00:21:27,954 What if you went... 360 00:21:27,954 --> 00:21:29,622 Yeah. ♪ Cried for nine ♪ 361 00:21:29,622 --> 00:21:32,500 No, 'cause I wanna keep this... I wanna save going up there. 362 00:21:32,500 --> 00:21:34,502 That's... We're going... 363 00:21:34,502 --> 00:21:35,795 ♪ Lying in your family home ♪ 364 00:21:35,795 --> 00:21:38,423 - Yeah, I feel like it's not emotive. 365 00:21:38,423 --> 00:21:39,507 Okay. 366 00:21:39,507 --> 00:21:41,426 ♪ Yo, Jam, this is a letter to you ♪ 367 00:21:41,426 --> 00:21:43,970 ♪ It's been a while, but it's been Hard for me to get in the booth ♪ 368 00:21:43,970 --> 00:21:46,514 ♪ And since we last spoke I've become a father of two ♪ 369 00:21:46,514 --> 00:21:49,184 ♪ Trying to live life with a smile But that's been harder to do ♪ 370 00:21:49,184 --> 00:21:50,810 ♪ 'Cause all I wanna do is talk about ♪ 371 00:21:51,895 --> 00:21:53,980 It's gonna be great. - Oh, Fred. 372 00:21:54,647 --> 00:21:56,566 - It's like you've done this before. 373 00:22:18,421 --> 00:22:19,631 Oh, bloody hell. 374 00:22:25,261 --> 00:22:26,262 Wow. 375 00:22:30,433 --> 00:22:32,060 That is so crazy. 376 00:22:37,816 --> 00:22:39,984 I just-- I really wish that he could see this. 377 00:22:39,984 --> 00:22:43,113 Just-- He would be so gassed about this. 378 00:22:43,113 --> 00:22:48,785 The fact that it's an SBTV F64 and it's the first one I've done, 379 00:22:49,577 --> 00:22:51,246 and then it's being done at Stamford Bridge, 380 00:22:51,246 --> 00:22:52,789 which is his favorite football team. 381 00:22:52,789 --> 00:22:54,290 And the fact that they've done-- 382 00:22:54,290 --> 00:22:57,794 That is so mad. That's so mad. 383 00:22:57,794 --> 00:23:00,713 I can't wait for his mom and sister to come. They're gonna love that. 384 00:23:02,841 --> 00:23:03,842 Wow. 385 00:23:06,511 --> 00:23:09,514 Yeah. The thing is, I couldn't do anything else after this. 386 00:23:09,514 --> 00:23:13,893 This is-- This is as good as it gets for him in terms of a tribute. 387 00:23:16,271 --> 00:23:17,355 ♪ Yo ♪ 388 00:23:17,355 --> 00:23:20,150 ♪ Gas, burst the pipe Next thing bursting a nine ♪ 389 00:23:21,234 --> 00:23:22,652 That's only 50 seconds. 390 00:23:22,652 --> 00:23:24,946 I can't really do more. I don't know all the song. 391 00:23:24,946 --> 00:23:27,699 Hey, Ed! Say hello to the camera, SBTV. 392 00:23:27,699 --> 00:23:31,744 {\an8}♪ You need me, man I don't need you ♪ 393 00:23:56,478 --> 00:23:58,938 ♪ Yo, Jam, this is a letter to you It's been a while ♪ 394 00:23:58,938 --> 00:24:00,815 ♪ But it's been hard for me To get in the booth ♪ 395 00:24:00,815 --> 00:24:03,359 ♪ Since we last spoke I've become a father of two ♪ 396 00:24:03,359 --> 00:24:05,987 ♪ Trying to live life with a smile But that's been harder to do ♪ 397 00:24:05,987 --> 00:24:08,072 ♪ 'Cause all I wanna do Is talk about you ♪ 398 00:24:08,072 --> 00:24:09,824 ♪ But these tears Won't let me talk about you ♪ 399 00:24:09,824 --> 00:24:11,701 ♪ We should've known That we'd be lost without you ♪ 400 00:24:11,701 --> 00:24:13,620 ♪ Therapy sessions Digging deep in depression ♪ 401 00:24:13,620 --> 00:24:16,789 ♪ I got a life full of blessings But this just breaks my **** heart ♪ 402 00:24:16,789 --> 00:24:18,708 ♪ At your birthday Couldn't even crack a smile ♪ 403 00:24:18,708 --> 00:24:21,127 ♪ I just cried and left the party Neesh, I'll see you in a while ♪ 404 00:24:21,127 --> 00:24:23,838 ♪ Headed to the mural Got some jerk wings and plantain ♪ 405 00:24:23,838 --> 00:24:26,382 ♪ 'Cause that is the way That me and you would celebrate it ♪ 406 00:24:26,382 --> 00:24:29,135 ♪ I never knew you touched the stuff 'Cause you'd always bad me up ♪ 407 00:24:29,135 --> 00:24:31,679 ♪ If you saw me more than drunk You always hated what it does ♪ 408 00:24:31,679 --> 00:24:34,057 ♪ Before Lyra, I just stopped I haven't even wanted one ♪ 409 00:24:34,057 --> 00:24:36,601 ♪ I can't get over, this is ♪ Man, I wish I'd known ♪ 410 00:24:36,601 --> 00:24:39,187 ♪ And yo, we cried for nine nights At your family home ♪ 411 00:24:39,187 --> 00:24:41,773 ♪ Laid you to rest in the ground But without a stone ♪ 412 00:24:41,773 --> 00:24:44,442 ♪ You know it hits me most at moments Now when I'm alone ♪ 413 00:24:44,442 --> 00:24:46,945 ♪ Every morning I remember that you're really gone ♪ 414 00:24:46,945 --> 00:24:50,615 ♪ 'Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'Cause I miss my brother ♪ 415 00:24:50,615 --> 00:24:53,117 ♪ You know for life Got your sis and mother ♪ 416 00:24:53,117 --> 00:24:55,912 ♪ And day and night It still hits that you're gone ♪ 417 00:24:55,912 --> 00:24:58,206 ♪ And right now I'm spilling tears in my cup ♪ 418 00:24:58,206 --> 00:25:00,792 ♪ You left the world Before you met Jupiter ♪ 419 00:25:00,792 --> 00:25:03,378 ♪ Wish you'd have known You would be godfather ♪ 420 00:25:03,378 --> 00:25:05,797 ♪ You would've loved Loving my little girls ♪ 421 00:25:05,797 --> 00:25:08,132 ♪ If not for them I'd be done with the world ♪ 422 00:25:08,132 --> 00:25:09,842 ♪ Was there two hours after you passed ♪ 423 00:25:09,842 --> 00:25:12,303 ♪ Speeding east to west Silent in the back of the car ♪ 424 00:25:12,303 --> 00:25:15,098 ♪ Was at your mum's, there all week Trying to make sense, but I can't ♪ 425 00:25:15,098 --> 00:25:17,475 ♪ And although it's been a year Still feel the pain in my heart ♪ 426 00:25:17,475 --> 00:25:18,685 ♪ You were there from the start ♪ 427 00:25:18,685 --> 00:25:21,229 ♪ The day we met, yeah I moved in, and we were never apart ♪ 428 00:25:21,229 --> 00:25:23,940 ♪ People assumed that we were lovers But we're brothers in arms ♪ 429 00:25:23,940 --> 00:25:27,694 ♪ Symbiotic bond of love And gave each other a chance, my God ♪ 430 00:25:27,694 --> 00:25:29,612 ♪ Ah, **** sake ♪ 431 00:25:29,612 --> 00:25:31,823 ♪ Lately I've been crying so much My lungs ache ♪ 432 00:25:31,823 --> 00:25:34,492 ♪ Teardrops all over my shirt Like bloodstains ♪ 433 00:25:34,492 --> 00:25:36,703 ♪ And I know to heal a heart It must break ♪ 434 00:25:36,703 --> 00:25:37,996 ♪ But I'm done praying ♪ 435 00:25:37,996 --> 00:25:40,081 ♪ They gave me a shovel at your burial ♪ 436 00:25:40,081 --> 00:25:42,625 ♪ And watching you get lowered is Something I can't forget at all ♪ 437 00:25:42,625 --> 00:25:44,335 ♪ And people find And stop me in the street ♪ 438 00:25:44,335 --> 00:25:45,670 ♪ And say it's terrible ♪ 439 00:25:45,670 --> 00:25:48,214 ♪ But they don't know you like I knew you And they never will ♪ 440 00:25:48,214 --> 00:25:50,842 ♪ No one saw the nights turn into day When we were battle rapping ♪ 441 00:25:50,842 --> 00:25:53,386 ♪ No one saw the belly laughs And every train to somewhere random ♪ 442 00:25:53,386 --> 00:25:55,805 ♪ No one saw the holidays And then our first experience clubbing ♪ 443 00:25:55,805 --> 00:25:58,391 ♪ No one saw the things you did for me And never asked for nothing ♪ 444 00:25:58,391 --> 00:26:00,852 ♪ No one read the conversations Of the moves that we were planning ♪ 445 00:26:00,852 --> 00:26:03,605 ♪ No one knew about the way you felt The scene left you abandoned ♪ 446 00:26:03,605 --> 00:26:06,107 ♪ No one knew about your fears 'Cause you would hide 'em with a smile ♪ 447 00:26:06,107 --> 00:26:08,526 ♪ No one knew when people took an inch You would give 'em a mile ♪ 448 00:26:08,526 --> 00:26:10,069 ♪ 'Cause that was always Jamal ♪ 449 00:26:10,069 --> 00:26:11,237 ♪ SB to the crowd ♪ 450 00:26:11,237 --> 00:26:13,740 ♪ They used to shout your net worth But they don't mention it now ♪ 451 00:26:13,740 --> 00:26:16,200 ♪ They talk about your good deeds And infectious smile ♪ 452 00:26:16,200 --> 00:26:18,745 ♪ A golden heart that's still remembered Is worth more than a crown ♪ 453 00:26:18,745 --> 00:26:21,372 ♪ I promised 64 bars And now I keep it to Tanisha ♪ 454 00:26:21,372 --> 00:26:23,791 ♪ Mommy, Isaac, the gang I just wish that you'd seen it ♪ 455 00:26:23,791 --> 00:26:26,377 ♪ I can't accept that you're gone Or the grief that I'm feeling ♪ 456 00:26:26,377 --> 00:26:28,963 ♪ I prayed to God for answers But he still won't give me a reason ♪ 457 00:26:28,963 --> 00:26:32,216 ♪ I think about you every day Nothing will take this pain away ♪ 458 00:26:32,216 --> 00:26:34,052 ♪ I keep your legacy amazing, mate ♪ 459 00:26:34,052 --> 00:26:36,679 ♪ The conversations at your grave's The only way to be close ♪ 460 00:26:36,679 --> 00:26:39,182 ♪ I know you'll greet me with a smile On the day that I go ♪ 461 00:26:39,182 --> 00:26:43,102 ♪ 'Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'Cause I miss my brother ♪ 462 00:26:43,102 --> 00:26:45,438 ♪ You know for life Got your sis and mother ♪ 463 00:26:45,438 --> 00:26:48,191 ♪ You know I cry 'Cause I miss my brother ♪ 464 00:26:48,191 --> 00:26:53,029 ♪ My brother was SBTV ♪ 465 00:27:15,510 --> 00:27:17,053 {\an8}How do you feel now that you've done it? 466 00:27:17,887 --> 00:27:19,764 {\an8}- Kinda empty. Yeah. - Yeah. 467 00:27:20,932 --> 00:27:22,600 - It looks amazing. - Do you know what I mean? 468 00:27:22,600 --> 00:27:23,935 - You kind of... It's just beautiful. 469 00:27:27,313 --> 00:27:28,773 But you like-- - You want a tissue? 470 00:27:28,773 --> 00:27:32,151 No, I'm good. You build it up, and then it's done, and you're like-- 471 00:27:32,151 --> 00:27:33,611 What now? - Yeah. 472 00:27:43,037 --> 00:27:44,914 I do believe in the afterlife. 473 00:27:44,914 --> 00:27:47,417 And I do believe that people do go somewhere. 474 00:27:47,417 --> 00:27:49,919 And I do believe that, one day, I will see him again. 475 00:27:49,919 --> 00:27:52,255 And this will be the first thing that he's like, 476 00:27:52,255 --> 00:27:54,507 "Oh, my God! Can't believe you did that!" 477 00:28:09,021 --> 00:28:14,861 Yesterday, I had my follow-up MRI scan of my arm 478 00:28:14,861 --> 00:28:17,155 just to see if the tumor had come back. 479 00:28:17,947 --> 00:28:20,199 We kind of were both silent in the car on the way 480 00:28:20,199 --> 00:28:25,121 because we were both so worried that, you know, it could be bad. 481 00:28:25,913 --> 00:28:27,999 It was obviously super triggering 482 00:28:27,999 --> 00:28:31,919 being in the same room as when things weren't looking so positive 483 00:28:31,919 --> 00:28:33,129 at the start of the year. 484 00:28:33,755 --> 00:28:37,508 And we saw the surgeon. He looked at the scans. 485 00:28:38,009 --> 00:28:39,886 Um, and it all looks... 486 00:28:40,428 --> 00:28:41,429 It all looks good. 487 00:28:41,429 --> 00:28:44,348 Lymph nodes are all calmed down and everything. 488 00:28:44,348 --> 00:28:46,851 So, um. So that was amazing. 489 00:28:47,810 --> 00:28:49,437 It was massive for us, actually. 490 00:28:50,772 --> 00:28:51,773 Right. 491 00:28:52,523 --> 00:28:54,400 - You need your, um-- Oh, you have it. - I have my knife. 492 00:28:54,400 --> 00:28:56,527 I was gonna say, "You need your package-opener." 493 00:28:57,653 --> 00:28:59,906 - I don't know if it's that way. - Why don't we just slide them out? 494 00:28:59,906 --> 00:29:01,282 Oh, no, no, no. Oh, yeah. 495 00:29:02,450 --> 00:29:04,118 I didn't realize it was opened. 496 00:29:04,118 --> 00:29:05,787 You just wanna use your package-opening knife. 497 00:29:05,787 --> 00:29:07,580 I always want to use my package-opening knife. 498 00:29:09,040 --> 00:29:10,374 Ah, Crying Man. 499 00:29:11,334 --> 00:29:14,545 I actually can't remember what it looked like. It was so long ago. 500 00:29:15,546 --> 00:29:16,547 Crying man. 501 00:29:17,256 --> 00:29:18,257 Mmm. 502 00:29:20,259 --> 00:29:22,512 I don't think I've got the wingspan. 503 00:29:26,557 --> 00:29:27,558 Hey. 504 00:29:29,644 --> 00:29:32,563 - They do actually look great, don't they? - They're not too bad. 505 00:29:32,563 --> 00:29:33,981 Mine's a bit darker. 506 00:29:37,568 --> 00:29:38,778 This is my husband. 507 00:29:40,863 --> 00:29:41,948 On canvas. 508 00:29:43,366 --> 00:29:44,367 I really like it. 509 00:29:46,035 --> 00:29:48,538 I feel like I've aged about three years since we did these. 510 00:29:48,538 --> 00:29:52,917 It feels like this was very much where we were at at the time. 511 00:29:52,917 --> 00:29:58,631 And we're entering into 2023, and have you told them about yesterday? 512 00:29:58,631 --> 00:30:00,716 - Yeah, I did. I did. So it's all positive. - Yeah, cool. 513 00:30:00,716 --> 00:30:02,802 So all great news. 514 00:30:02,802 --> 00:30:08,182 And heading into a year where, hopefully, it's all good news. 515 00:30:08,182 --> 00:30:11,394 And doing this, I remember that being a complete, 516 00:30:11,394 --> 00:30:14,897 accurate reflection of what Eds was like behind closed doors. 517 00:30:14,897 --> 00:30:16,274 Like, he was pretty... 518 00:30:17,400 --> 00:30:24,198 You were still in a pretty erratic state, I would say, emotionally. 519 00:30:25,491 --> 00:30:28,744 Um, but I don't-- I genuinely think-- I feel like you're in a really good place. 520 00:30:28,744 --> 00:30:30,162 I don't think you're-- I don't think-- 521 00:30:30,162 --> 00:30:33,916 Yeah, I feel great. I feel excited about, um, the next album. 522 00:30:33,916 --> 00:30:35,960 - You haven't been excited for ages. - Super pumped. 523 00:30:35,960 --> 00:30:37,128 Yeah, super pumped. 524 00:30:41,340 --> 00:30:42,508 Would you like a potato? 525 00:30:44,302 --> 00:30:45,553 Happy New Year. 526 00:30:45,553 --> 00:30:48,055 Happy New Year. Happy New Year. 527 00:30:48,055 --> 00:30:50,141 I've had all the milestones. 528 00:30:50,141 --> 00:30:52,393 These numbers and stats and figures are all things that, 529 00:30:52,393 --> 00:30:55,229 in my early 20s, were super exciting. 530 00:30:56,939 --> 00:30:59,775 Never gonna have a "Shape Of You" again. Never gonna have a Divide Tour again. 531 00:30:59,775 --> 00:31:02,486 Never gonna have-- If I keep chasing that, I'm always gonna be unhappy. 532 00:31:02,486 --> 00:31:07,033 So it's about finding different things to find happiness in. 533 00:31:07,825 --> 00:31:10,244 I think everything's in perspective. 534 00:31:10,244 --> 00:31:11,996 We've got another daughter now. 535 00:31:11,996 --> 00:31:15,917 And nothing matters other than health and time with people. 536 00:31:15,917 --> 00:31:20,171 ♪ Our father who art in heaven ♪ 537 00:31:20,171 --> 00:31:23,799 It's gonna be difficult to not view 2022 as "the year when." 538 00:31:24,759 --> 00:31:27,803 But I'd love to just view it as the year when Jupes was born. 539 00:31:28,721 --> 00:31:32,516 Five! Four! Three! Two! 540 00:31:32,516 --> 00:31:33,601 One! 541 00:31:37,605 --> 00:31:39,732 Happy New Year! 542 00:31:44,403 --> 00:31:46,739 No one ever really has it truly figured out. 543 00:31:46,739 --> 00:31:49,867 And I feel like every week I'm learning 544 00:31:49,867 --> 00:31:54,038 and, um, becoming more of an adult. 545 00:31:59,460 --> 00:32:00,461 Yay! 546 00:32:04,006 --> 00:32:05,007 Happy New Year! 547 00:32:09,303 --> 00:32:10,388 - Love you. - Love you. 548 00:32:11,138 --> 00:32:13,683 Life is unpredictable, but life goes on. 549 00:32:14,600 --> 00:32:17,186 And you just take it one day at a time. 550 00:32:18,688 --> 00:32:19,730 Nice, man. 551 00:32:19,730 --> 00:32:23,734 And then fireworks, and then kissing, and then Disney! 552 00:32:28,239 --> 00:32:30,366 Oh, so actually you need to see this. 553 00:32:30,366 --> 00:32:32,576 So Ed has a-- an alter ego. 554 00:32:33,285 --> 00:32:35,913 Um, what's your alter ego? Joanne-- 555 00:32:35,913 --> 00:32:37,248 - Dianne. - Dianne. 556 00:32:41,794 --> 00:32:44,588 ♪ I have grown up I am a father now ♪ 557 00:32:45,548 --> 00:32:49,093 ♪ Everything has changed But I am still the same somehow ♪ 558 00:32:49,093 --> 00:32:52,388 ♪ You know I've never been afraid of death ♪ 559 00:32:52,888 --> 00:32:56,475 ♪ But now I wanna see the things That haven't happened yet ♪ 560 00:32:56,475 --> 00:33:00,187 ♪ I still love getting out of my mind I should cut it down ♪ 561 00:33:00,187 --> 00:33:03,899 ♪ I still know people I don't like And I should cut them out ♪ 562 00:33:03,899 --> 00:33:07,570 ♪ I feel embarrassed 'Bout the things that I did in my youth ♪ 563 00:33:07,570 --> 00:33:08,904 ♪ 'Cause now I have a child ♪ 564 00:33:08,904 --> 00:33:11,323 ♪ I know one day that She'll go through it ♪ 565 00:33:15,036 --> 00:33:19,582 ♪ Time stops to still ♪ 566 00:33:21,959 --> 00:33:26,797 ♪ When you are in my arms It always will ♪ 567 00:33:29,842 --> 00:33:30,968 ♪ And life ♪ 568 00:33:32,511 --> 00:33:37,308 {\an8}♪ Life is changin' tides ♪