1 00:00:01,560 --> 00:00:05,120 [music playing] 2 00:00:21,520 --> 00:00:23,640 The south island of New Zealand. 3 00:00:23,800 --> 00:00:26,480 It's an epic place. 4 00:00:26,640 --> 00:00:27,320 It's wet. 5 00:00:29,920 --> 00:00:32,520 It's cold. 6 00:00:32,680 --> 00:00:35,120 It's snowy. 7 00:00:35,280 --> 00:00:37,200 If you don't respect the environment here, 8 00:00:37,360 --> 00:00:40,920 it will slap you hard. 9 00:00:41,080 --> 00:00:42,680 I just need to bring some food in. 10 00:00:42,840 --> 00:00:45,480 Look at that stonker. 11 00:00:45,640 --> 00:00:48,240 Last night, there was deer all around me. 12 00:00:48,400 --> 00:00:51,280 That's freaking delicious. 13 00:00:51,440 --> 00:00:54,760 I know how tough it's going to be. 14 00:00:54,920 --> 00:00:58,400 Oh my [bleep], I miss them. 15 00:00:58,560 --> 00:01:01,320 You've got to feel safe, otherwise 16 00:01:01,480 --> 00:01:03,120 you just die out here. 17 00:01:03,280 --> 00:01:05,200 It doesn't feel as bad as it looks. 18 00:01:05,360 --> 00:01:06,120 It feels worse. 19 00:01:06,280 --> 00:01:07,880 This [bleep] just got real. 20 00:01:08,040 --> 00:01:09,440 [bleep]! 21 00:01:09,600 --> 00:01:12,560 I'm scared enough to have an emergency tap-out in my hand. 22 00:01:12,720 --> 00:01:19,880 The last person standing, they take home $250,000. 23 00:01:20,040 --> 00:01:21,360 Somebody help me! 24 00:01:29,040 --> 00:01:32,480 The ledge, that's where it's happening every day. 25 00:01:32,640 --> 00:01:34,320 I'm the luckiest person. 26 00:01:34,480 --> 00:01:37,520 When you can start saving food for future, 27 00:01:37,680 --> 00:01:39,400 I don't know if it gets any better. 28 00:01:41,880 --> 00:01:43,960 The feeling is hopeless. 29 00:01:44,120 --> 00:01:45,280 Haven't got any meat. 30 00:01:45,440 --> 00:01:46,600 I hate losing. 31 00:01:46,760 --> 00:01:48,160 I hate quitting. 32 00:01:48,320 --> 00:01:50,000 I just don't. 33 00:01:50,160 --> 00:01:53,000 Finally, I can eat tonight. 34 00:01:53,160 --> 00:01:54,040 Look at that. 35 00:01:54,200 --> 00:01:55,720 It's another eel. 36 00:01:55,880 --> 00:01:56,920 [groans] 37 00:01:57,440 --> 00:01:57,960 Oh, well. 38 00:02:01,680 --> 00:02:02,920 The temperature has dropped. 39 00:02:03,080 --> 00:02:05,320 Potentially be on the verge of hypothermia. 40 00:02:05,480 --> 00:02:08,040 I have the choice to go home if I want to. 41 00:02:08,200 --> 00:02:10,840 I just want this storm over. 42 00:02:11,000 --> 00:02:12,560 Oh my [bleep]! 43 00:02:49,800 --> 00:02:52,720 It sounded rough as guts down there on the waterfront. 44 00:02:59,440 --> 00:03:03,480 So I think it's getting worse, not better. 45 00:03:03,640 --> 00:03:07,480 Didn't realize how much I actually don't like storms 46 00:03:07,640 --> 00:03:13,000 in this setting, when I'm very vulnerable. 47 00:03:23,120 --> 00:03:30,120 It becomes this very real experience of possible injury 48 00:03:30,280 --> 00:03:30,800 or death. 49 00:03:43,840 --> 00:03:47,280 This is the worst weather I've seen since I got here. 50 00:03:47,440 --> 00:03:48,600 This is horrendous. 51 00:03:48,760 --> 00:03:50,000 It hasn't really slowed down. 52 00:03:50,160 --> 00:03:55,600 It's been going between storms, rain, sleet, hail. 53 00:04:02,840 --> 00:04:03,360 [bleep]. 54 00:04:05,920 --> 00:04:07,040 You don't kidding with this. 55 00:04:07,200 --> 00:04:10,520 This is like high winds, close to zero. 56 00:04:10,680 --> 00:04:13,800 If I did not have a dry sleeping bag, I would be going home. 57 00:04:13,960 --> 00:04:16,040 I would be not be here. 58 00:04:16,200 --> 00:04:20,880 The weather is so bad that this is kind of weather that 59 00:04:21,040 --> 00:04:23,320 sends people home, 100%. 60 00:04:31,280 --> 00:04:32,720 It just stopped raining for a second. 61 00:04:32,880 --> 00:04:35,520 I'm going to pull the camera out and just show you what I mean. 62 00:04:42,160 --> 00:04:44,360 Here's one thing I noticed. 63 00:04:44,520 --> 00:04:46,680 This wasn't here before. 64 00:04:46,840 --> 00:04:50,880 That is a piece of deadfall that's just gone in and speared 65 00:04:51,040 --> 00:04:51,760 into the ground. 66 00:04:56,120 --> 00:04:59,480 This is down to my stairs going up to my shelter, 67 00:04:59,640 --> 00:05:01,840 pouring down on the beach. 68 00:05:02,000 --> 00:05:05,680 On the other side of the lake, pretty far away, but there's 69 00:05:05,840 --> 00:05:09,640 literally a gushing waterfall coming out straight out 70 00:05:09,800 --> 00:05:11,000 of the mountain. 71 00:05:11,160 --> 00:05:12,520 That is ridiculous. 72 00:05:12,680 --> 00:05:17,360 There's swell and white caps going on. 73 00:05:17,520 --> 00:05:18,520 Comes the hail. 74 00:05:24,120 --> 00:05:30,040 It only hails for a short while, and literally I 75 00:05:30,200 --> 00:05:31,720 am chilled to the bone. 76 00:05:34,440 --> 00:05:41,160 In a survival situation or a experience like this, 77 00:05:41,320 --> 00:05:45,360 you've got to be smart, and there comes a time 78 00:05:45,520 --> 00:05:49,560 when the smart thing is to be passive, 79 00:05:49,720 --> 00:05:51,520 and that is today for me. 80 00:06:03,040 --> 00:06:05,520 Just catching the runoff of the tent instead of running 81 00:06:05,680 --> 00:06:08,040 down to the-- running down to the creek all the time. 82 00:06:20,280 --> 00:06:26,920 I climbed back into my sleeping bag after doing a few-- 83 00:06:27,080 --> 00:06:28,400 few jobs around the shelter. 84 00:06:32,440 --> 00:06:35,400 Find it really hard to maintain my body heat now. 85 00:06:38,520 --> 00:06:41,040 I've got my sleeping bag, which is minus 10. 86 00:06:41,200 --> 00:06:46,760 I've got my oilskin coat, which is sort of wrapped around most 87 00:06:46,920 --> 00:06:47,880 of my sleeping bag. 88 00:06:52,640 --> 00:06:56,240 Everything's got a mild dampness to it. 89 00:06:56,400 --> 00:07:00,320 I wouldn't say I'm wet, but I'm mildly damp. 90 00:07:00,480 --> 00:07:01,480 I think a lot of it-- 91 00:07:01,640 --> 00:07:03,040 I think a lot a lot of it-- 92 00:07:03,200 --> 00:07:12,480 my warmth is due to, I suppose, losing body fat and, yeah, 93 00:07:12,640 --> 00:07:13,760 minimal food intake. 94 00:07:17,480 --> 00:07:20,480 Just feel like it's ever more difficult 95 00:07:20,640 --> 00:07:22,680 now to maintain my body heat. 96 00:07:39,120 --> 00:07:42,480 The thunder last night was incredible. 97 00:07:42,640 --> 00:07:45,600 I've never heard thunder go for as long as that thunder did. 98 00:07:49,160 --> 00:07:50,280 It's a good little shelter. 99 00:07:50,440 --> 00:07:52,320 No rain came in last night. 100 00:07:55,920 --> 00:07:59,760 I haven't got any wet spots, apart from the general dampness 101 00:07:59,920 --> 00:08:01,680 of the ground, anyway. 102 00:08:01,840 --> 00:08:06,280 It's very protected, even when the big gusts of wind 103 00:08:06,440 --> 00:08:07,160 were coming through. 104 00:08:07,320 --> 00:08:08,560 [thunder rumbling] 105 00:08:09,280 --> 00:08:09,960 More thunder. 106 00:08:13,000 --> 00:08:15,920 Wow, this storm's just going on and on and on. 107 00:08:28,440 --> 00:08:31,440 Oh my [bleep], there's, like, pools of water. 108 00:08:31,600 --> 00:08:33,520 It's like the water has risen. 109 00:08:40,480 --> 00:08:44,440 Imagine if I can't fish the ledge. 110 00:08:44,600 --> 00:08:45,880 What the [bleep] then? 111 00:08:50,960 --> 00:08:52,360 OK, I've just got to go to the toilet. 112 00:08:52,520 --> 00:08:53,520 Hang in there. 113 00:09:03,000 --> 00:09:08,280 Like, you just anticipate the whole lot just taking off. 114 00:09:13,160 --> 00:09:14,320 [groans] 115 00:09:23,280 --> 00:09:24,760 Soup for breakfast. 116 00:09:24,920 --> 00:09:26,880 But there's worse things that can happen, 117 00:09:27,040 --> 00:09:32,120 because I'm sitting by the fire eating trout. 118 00:09:32,280 --> 00:09:34,520 Oh, yeah. 119 00:09:34,680 --> 00:09:39,080 To have food on such a cold and blustery day. 120 00:09:43,520 --> 00:09:45,960 There's little moments where I go, Tamika, just-- just 121 00:09:46,120 --> 00:09:47,600 go home. 122 00:09:47,760 --> 00:09:52,200 But there's already this little thing inside of me that says, 123 00:09:52,360 --> 00:09:53,720 this is a little home. 124 00:09:57,960 --> 00:10:00,360 Oh, I can feel it warming up my belly. 125 00:10:13,160 --> 00:10:13,680 Man. 126 00:10:16,200 --> 00:10:17,520 [sighs] 127 00:10:19,160 --> 00:10:22,520 You always feel better with a big belly full, don't you? 128 00:10:28,840 --> 00:10:30,360 [wood creaking] 129 00:10:31,200 --> 00:10:31,760 [bleep]. 130 00:10:34,680 --> 00:10:36,240 Do you hear that? 131 00:10:40,280 --> 00:10:43,960 Had to be a tree, but it sounded like rocks as well. 132 00:10:44,120 --> 00:10:46,040 Oh my [bleep], my heart. 133 00:11:06,720 --> 00:11:09,440 I'm definitely missing food. 134 00:11:09,600 --> 00:11:12,800 Yeah, just lying in this sleeping bag thinking, oh, 135 00:11:12,960 --> 00:11:15,160 yeah, I'll just get up, go to the fridge and get myself 136 00:11:15,320 --> 00:11:19,400 something to eat, and then I think, oh, no, I can't. 137 00:11:22,480 --> 00:11:26,320 It was a lot worse off earlier on. 138 00:11:26,480 --> 00:11:28,000 I could be completely wrong, but I'd 139 00:11:28,160 --> 00:11:31,400 say it'd be, like, similar to an addiction almost, an addiction 140 00:11:31,560 --> 00:11:32,800 to food. 141 00:11:33,200 --> 00:11:38,320 Like when-- when you stop eating initially, the body craves it 142 00:11:38,480 --> 00:11:40,760 and really, really wants it, and then you feel it, 143 00:11:40,920 --> 00:11:46,160 and then hunger sort of just dissipates a little bit, and so 144 00:11:46,320 --> 00:11:47,720 on and so on. 145 00:11:47,880 --> 00:11:50,240 Like, if there was a big slice of chocolate cake in front 146 00:11:50,400 --> 00:11:53,960 of me right now, I'd be like, yeah, whatever. 147 00:11:54,120 --> 00:11:55,640 But the second I took a bite of it, 148 00:11:55,800 --> 00:11:58,440 like, oh my [bleep], I'm going o eat this whole thing right now. 149 00:12:03,080 --> 00:12:04,360 Food is my crack. 150 00:12:37,080 --> 00:12:38,360 It is a colder day today. 151 00:12:38,520 --> 00:12:41,480 I feel the weather's starting to break, which is good. 152 00:12:41,640 --> 00:12:45,320 Definitely got a good powder coating of snow. 153 00:12:45,480 --> 00:12:47,400 Ought to keep the skiers happy, I'm sure. 154 00:12:47,560 --> 00:12:48,840 Pretty to look at, but it makes it 155 00:12:49,000 --> 00:12:50,560 cold down here at lake level. 156 00:12:50,720 --> 00:12:52,640 Yeah, quite cold. 157 00:12:59,160 --> 00:13:00,400 This northern end of the shelter, 158 00:13:00,560 --> 00:13:01,800 I'm going to have to close that off, 159 00:13:01,960 --> 00:13:05,120 prevent the water coming in at the bottom of my bag 160 00:13:05,280 --> 00:13:06,880 underneath this cover. 161 00:13:07,040 --> 00:13:09,040 It's damp-ish. 162 00:13:09,200 --> 00:13:12,720 Feet and sleep are my two biggest concerns, 163 00:13:12,880 --> 00:13:16,800 and I'm glad I got a bit of sleep this morning. 164 00:13:16,960 --> 00:13:17,720 I'm feeling cold now. 165 00:13:17,880 --> 00:13:19,040 My hands are cold now. 166 00:13:19,200 --> 00:13:22,080 So I'm making sure my feet don't get any worse 167 00:13:22,240 --> 00:13:25,440 is of-- is of a concern to me. 168 00:13:25,600 --> 00:13:30,080 This will keep the bulk of that spray off the bottom of my bag 169 00:13:30,240 --> 00:13:32,160 and, yeah, I'll be-- 170 00:13:32,320 --> 00:13:33,440 I'll be happy with that. 171 00:13:38,800 --> 00:13:40,840 I wouldn't mind getting a fire going. 172 00:13:41,000 --> 00:13:43,960 I've got things that I want to get over the fire 173 00:13:44,120 --> 00:13:45,680 and start drying it out. 174 00:13:50,080 --> 00:13:52,200 You're my best friend out here. 175 00:13:52,360 --> 00:13:53,600 You cook my food. 176 00:13:58,120 --> 00:13:59,600 What's that you say? 177 00:13:59,760 --> 00:14:00,960 Food? 178 00:14:01,120 --> 00:14:02,400 You haven't seen much of it? 179 00:14:02,560 --> 00:14:04,400 No. 180 00:14:04,560 --> 00:14:05,920 No, no. 181 00:14:06,080 --> 00:14:09,720 Maybe we can talk about that. 182 00:14:09,880 --> 00:14:14,320 The plan is to provide you with more food to cook me. 183 00:14:14,480 --> 00:14:18,440 Being cold and wet with body fat basically gone 184 00:14:18,600 --> 00:14:20,960 presents its own set of challenges. 185 00:14:26,360 --> 00:14:29,840 Going to be very careful here, but my intention 186 00:14:30,000 --> 00:14:36,080 is to attempt to take out the dampness in my sleeping bag. 187 00:14:36,240 --> 00:14:43,080 And having my feet get cold and taking 188 00:14:43,240 --> 00:14:47,400 what seems like hours to warm up, 189 00:14:47,560 --> 00:14:52,000 possibly four or five hours, is a bit of a concern. 190 00:14:59,440 --> 00:15:03,560 I've really got to stay on top of keeping gear dry, 191 00:15:03,720 --> 00:15:05,520 and you can end up with frostbite, 192 00:15:05,680 --> 00:15:07,360 and then that's-- that's serious. 193 00:15:07,520 --> 00:15:10,040 That's medical evacuation. 194 00:15:10,200 --> 00:15:15,520 You're going to lose portions of your toes, whole toes. 195 00:15:15,680 --> 00:15:17,800 Seen images of people losing half their foot. 196 00:15:21,080 --> 00:15:24,280 Yeah, I can see moisture coming out of my bag. 197 00:15:24,440 --> 00:15:27,840 Either that or it's about to burst into flames. 198 00:15:28,000 --> 00:15:30,200 I don't like things being out of my control, 199 00:15:30,360 --> 00:15:32,320 so what is in my control? 200 00:15:32,480 --> 00:15:36,000 Continue staying dry, continue hunting, 201 00:15:36,160 --> 00:15:38,320 continue getting lines in the water, 202 00:15:38,480 --> 00:15:41,600 continuing to visit the why. 203 00:15:41,760 --> 00:15:42,520 Why am I here? 204 00:15:42,680 --> 00:15:45,400 What is it I want out of it? 205 00:15:45,560 --> 00:15:47,800 Achieve things for me and my family 206 00:15:47,960 --> 00:15:50,640 that I haven't been able to achieve before. 207 00:15:50,800 --> 00:15:52,360 I want to make them proud. 208 00:15:55,920 --> 00:16:00,160 It's probably not what the manufacturer would recommend. 209 00:16:00,320 --> 00:16:02,560 But, hey, the manufacturer's not here. 210 00:16:05,960 --> 00:16:07,560 He's probably sitting in a cozy office. 211 00:16:31,760 --> 00:16:37,720 That was two days of absolutely horrendous weather. 212 00:16:45,040 --> 00:16:48,640 The good thing with this, most things 213 00:16:48,800 --> 00:16:53,480 you do, you go away, you end up getting fatter, 214 00:16:53,640 --> 00:16:55,400 and then when you get back to the gym and you're like, 215 00:16:55,560 --> 00:16:56,720 oh, no, I've got to work it off. 216 00:16:56,880 --> 00:17:00,560 But this one, you're going to come back skinny. 217 00:17:03,360 --> 00:17:04,240 I think my abs-- 218 00:17:04,400 --> 00:17:05,880 my abs are coming back. 219 00:17:06,040 --> 00:17:08,280 Let's have a look. 220 00:17:08,440 --> 00:17:09,640 Get out in the sun. 221 00:17:12,640 --> 00:17:13,640 See how you look. 222 00:17:15,960 --> 00:17:27,920 I was 112 with clothes going in, and I 223 00:17:28,680 --> 00:17:30,400 don't have too much fat left. 224 00:17:33,040 --> 00:17:36,440 Obviously I'm getting skinnier, losing weight a little bit 225 00:17:36,600 --> 00:17:37,960 too fast for my own liking. 226 00:17:38,120 --> 00:17:41,920 The goal for now is going to be to sustain my weight as 227 00:17:42,080 --> 00:17:44,120 long as I can. 228 00:17:44,280 --> 00:17:46,080 I need to get more food in. 229 00:17:46,240 --> 00:17:52,520 I have no food, and it's, like, a stressful part that you go, 230 00:17:52,680 --> 00:17:53,360 I have no food. 231 00:17:53,520 --> 00:17:55,240 I don't know what to do. 232 00:17:55,400 --> 00:17:57,600 Hunting I don't think is a valid option. 233 00:17:57,760 --> 00:18:04,480 There isn't enough deer to waste the time and effort and energy. 234 00:18:04,640 --> 00:18:06,000 The fishing is on hold. 235 00:18:06,160 --> 00:18:10,840 The weather and the water levels are fighting me so hard, 236 00:18:11,000 --> 00:18:11,800 it's annoying. 237 00:18:15,120 --> 00:18:17,800 I've seen a couple of mice around and possum. 238 00:18:23,120 --> 00:18:25,440 This is my future protein supply. 239 00:18:30,320 --> 00:18:32,400 So today, trapping. 240 00:18:35,680 --> 00:18:39,440 It's time to finish off the little mouse trap. 241 00:18:39,600 --> 00:18:41,000 Finish off, I shouldn't say. 242 00:18:41,160 --> 00:18:43,160 Alter. 243 00:18:43,320 --> 00:18:49,200 Split a log in four so they match up, 244 00:18:49,360 --> 00:18:52,480 and then you split out the middle. 245 00:18:52,640 --> 00:18:55,320 That's my canister. 246 00:18:55,480 --> 00:18:59,840 I think I have to bevel the edges. 247 00:19:00,000 --> 00:19:06,000 I think beveled edges in itself, easily beveled, 248 00:19:06,160 --> 00:19:09,080 so you don't get caught. 249 00:19:09,240 --> 00:19:11,920 You can slide up and down. 250 00:19:12,080 --> 00:19:14,000 Snug it up as much as needed. 251 00:19:31,000 --> 00:19:33,640 That worked. 252 00:19:33,800 --> 00:19:37,000 See that log, I've had both opossum and mouse out there, 253 00:19:37,160 --> 00:19:38,840 so I think that's a good location. 254 00:19:41,920 --> 00:19:43,360 That should do it. 255 00:19:43,520 --> 00:19:46,400 It'll be hilarious if this is a good food source. 256 00:19:46,560 --> 00:19:51,680 Find a good bait and I can do a mouse a day, you know? 257 00:19:51,840 --> 00:19:56,320 I loaded up the bait stick with a piece of a gill. 258 00:19:56,480 --> 00:19:58,560 It's set for tonight, so it'll be 259 00:19:58,720 --> 00:20:03,520 fun to see tomorrow if it went off, if the mouse checked it 260 00:20:03,680 --> 00:20:04,720 out, or whatever. 261 00:20:26,640 --> 00:20:30,400 I'm pretty chuffed at how everything held up. 262 00:20:30,560 --> 00:20:31,640 Yeah. 263 00:20:31,800 --> 00:20:36,320 Overall, life is good. 264 00:20:36,480 --> 00:20:39,240 I did hear a couple of limbs falling. 265 00:20:39,400 --> 00:20:41,560 Yeah, we had this tree here. 266 00:20:41,720 --> 00:20:45,120 Yeah, I was just a bit paranoid about one of those guys going. 267 00:20:45,280 --> 00:20:54,960 The only one that fell near the shelter was this one here, 268 00:20:55,120 --> 00:20:57,680 and that's near the shelter, not on the shelter. 269 00:20:57,840 --> 00:20:59,880 Yeah, I think the shelter location 270 00:21:00,040 --> 00:21:02,480 that we chose was pretty good. 271 00:21:02,640 --> 00:21:07,240 The only thing that I might do is insulate some of the roof. 272 00:21:07,400 --> 00:21:09,720 You can see there's plenty of leaf litter and plenty 273 00:21:09,880 --> 00:21:11,400 of deadfall to use. 274 00:21:11,560 --> 00:21:14,280 There's a few nice straight ones over here. 275 00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:15,560 Where shall we start? 276 00:21:15,720 --> 00:21:18,880 This one over here or that one over there? 277 00:21:19,040 --> 00:21:20,440 So this one over here. 278 00:21:25,120 --> 00:21:27,920 Back for that one. 279 00:21:28,080 --> 00:21:33,560 Crossbeams along here, and on top of that we'll collect up 280 00:21:33,720 --> 00:21:37,680 all the leaf litter and stuff and just stack it on top, 281 00:21:37,840 --> 00:21:39,160 give it some insulation. 282 00:21:39,320 --> 00:21:41,800 It will also prevent everything from shaking so much. 283 00:21:46,040 --> 00:21:49,280 Be all toasty warm inside our cabin. 284 00:21:49,440 --> 00:21:51,400 Like, something that would make me tap out 285 00:21:51,560 --> 00:21:55,720 is my shelter collapsed or I got a big tear in my canopy 286 00:21:55,880 --> 00:21:57,840 and my sleeping bag got wet. 287 00:21:58,000 --> 00:21:59,440 That's going to be a tap-out for me 288 00:21:59,600 --> 00:22:02,040 because I'm not going to be able to stay warm. 289 00:22:02,200 --> 00:22:05,160 It's, yeah, a no-brainer. 290 00:22:05,320 --> 00:22:07,640 Because I am very much a creature of comfort at home, 291 00:22:07,800 --> 00:22:11,800 and being out on the land, comfort's a very important 292 00:22:11,960 --> 00:22:16,480 factor, so I am turning my home into my little slice 293 00:22:16,640 --> 00:22:18,040 of paradise. 294 00:22:18,200 --> 00:22:21,560 It makes me comfortable, and I feel that being comfortable 295 00:22:21,720 --> 00:22:22,760 is the key to winning. 296 00:22:26,720 --> 00:22:27,400 Two minute breather. 297 00:22:31,560 --> 00:22:36,680 I'm focusing on foraging because plants don't run away, 298 00:22:36,840 --> 00:22:40,560 so it'll be easier to get those pesky plants. 299 00:22:40,720 --> 00:22:42,400 Oh, that's what we're looking for. 300 00:22:47,680 --> 00:22:50,240 This bad boy. 301 00:22:50,400 --> 00:22:52,720 It's not very delicious, but it's definitely edible. 302 00:22:58,560 --> 00:23:00,200 Hope there's a bit of nutritional value in this, 303 00:23:00,360 --> 00:23:05,440 because definitely not enjoying the process. 304 00:23:05,600 --> 00:23:08,280 I'm eating a lot of greens, but I haven't really 305 00:23:08,440 --> 00:23:11,680 found overly palatable. 306 00:23:11,840 --> 00:23:13,560 Those tastes familiar. 307 00:23:13,720 --> 00:23:15,160 Actually, you know what it tastes like? 308 00:23:15,320 --> 00:23:16,320 Raw green beans. 309 00:23:20,080 --> 00:23:23,960 I'm making hound tongue soup. 310 00:23:24,120 --> 00:23:26,200 I've been looking for horopitos. 311 00:23:26,360 --> 00:23:28,160 Just wondering if that might be it. 312 00:23:28,320 --> 00:23:31,160 The leaves look right. 313 00:23:31,320 --> 00:23:32,720 Let's see if it's peppery. 314 00:23:36,360 --> 00:23:37,880 [singing] 315 00:23:42,880 --> 00:23:46,880 Nothing special, but it's better than nothing. 316 00:23:47,040 --> 00:23:48,280 I really don't like it. 317 00:23:48,440 --> 00:23:51,720 I'm used to eating meat with most meals. 318 00:23:51,880 --> 00:23:55,120 But vegans can do it. 319 00:23:55,280 --> 00:23:56,520 I can do it for a little while. 320 00:23:59,880 --> 00:24:03,360 Yeah, I think I'd quite happily be back at home now and just 321 00:24:03,520 --> 00:24:05,600 chilling on the couch, watching something and eating 322 00:24:05,760 --> 00:24:07,000 some comfort food, but I'm not going 323 00:24:07,160 --> 00:24:09,280 to waste this opportunity. 324 00:24:09,440 --> 00:24:12,760 We'll see how long the willpower stays. 325 00:24:12,920 --> 00:24:13,680 We got this. 326 00:24:16,200 --> 00:24:17,680 It's not even about the money. 327 00:24:17,840 --> 00:24:20,760 More about to see what my personal strength is, see how-- 328 00:24:20,920 --> 00:24:24,720 how long I can last. 329 00:24:24,880 --> 00:24:25,480 Be good to know. 330 00:24:28,880 --> 00:24:31,080 In the back of my head, I've always been saying, 100 days. 331 00:24:31,240 --> 00:24:32,760 Let's try 100 days. 332 00:24:32,920 --> 00:24:33,600 That'd be nice. 333 00:24:49,240 --> 00:24:52,400 Give the nose a clean. 334 00:24:52,560 --> 00:24:54,280 Let's go chase some fish. 335 00:24:56,760 --> 00:25:00,640 Well, I'm trying to remain focused on the task of feeding 336 00:25:00,800 --> 00:25:02,440 myself. 337 00:25:02,600 --> 00:25:09,640 I don't let myself settle too much, because I think I've 338 00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:13,720 worked out when I stop, that's when, you know, 339 00:25:13,880 --> 00:25:15,920 I start really missing my family. 340 00:25:18,520 --> 00:25:20,520 I know you're perusing. 341 00:25:20,680 --> 00:25:21,920 I know you're here now. 342 00:25:26,920 --> 00:25:31,120 Oh, dear! 343 00:25:31,280 --> 00:25:33,000 I've lost him. 344 00:25:33,160 --> 00:25:35,040 Got a little rush of adrenaline. 345 00:25:39,400 --> 00:25:42,360 Oh, my heart is still pounding. 346 00:25:42,520 --> 00:25:44,720 I can remember, as a police officer, 347 00:25:44,880 --> 00:25:48,440 when you get into a high speed pursuit 348 00:25:48,600 --> 00:25:51,440 or you're chasing a car or something, 349 00:25:51,600 --> 00:25:53,680 it was like when you're on the radio 350 00:25:53,840 --> 00:25:55,800 and you're trying to give directions of where you are 351 00:25:55,960 --> 00:25:57,480 and what's happening, it's like you're 352 00:25:57,640 --> 00:26:01,720 trying to remain so calm, and yet on the inside, 353 00:26:01,880 --> 00:26:06,880 you just want to vomit and your heart is racing. 354 00:26:07,040 --> 00:26:09,720 To be honest, that's a little bit how I feel here. 355 00:26:09,880 --> 00:26:14,000 It's like I'm enjoying the morning, I'm acting all calm, 356 00:26:14,160 --> 00:26:20,600 but on the inside there's this anticipation, just waiting. 357 00:26:20,760 --> 00:26:23,880 I actually joined the police force to help people. 358 00:26:24,040 --> 00:26:26,480 It was an absolute eye-opener for my-- my age, 359 00:26:26,640 --> 00:26:28,640 and my lack of experience, probably. 360 00:26:28,800 --> 00:26:31,360 Back then the only way I knew how to help myself 361 00:26:31,520 --> 00:26:33,800 was to drink and forget. 362 00:26:33,960 --> 00:26:36,560 Pretty certain you could have called me an alcoholic. 363 00:26:36,720 --> 00:26:40,920 I just lived for work and drink. 364 00:26:41,080 --> 00:26:43,320 But I know I'm on top of it now. 365 00:26:43,480 --> 00:26:45,840 That's just not me, you know? 366 00:27:04,720 --> 00:27:05,800 [grunts] 367 00:27:17,800 --> 00:27:18,160 Damn! 368 00:27:20,680 --> 00:27:22,720 Now, I thought I'd better get the camera for this one. 369 00:27:22,880 --> 00:27:26,240 I didn't realize he was so big. 370 00:27:26,400 --> 00:27:29,440 He's my biggest by far. 371 00:27:29,600 --> 00:27:31,040 64 centimeters. 372 00:27:33,800 --> 00:27:35,240 Man. 373 00:27:35,400 --> 00:27:39,840 Oh, for every man that ever doubted my skill in that tackle 374 00:27:40,000 --> 00:27:45,720 shop years and years and years ago, paying off now, isn't it? 375 00:27:48,240 --> 00:27:49,120 Who would have thought? 376 00:27:58,920 --> 00:28:00,600 Cooking my beautiful trout. 377 00:28:00,760 --> 00:28:04,200 Let's have just a little squizz at him. 378 00:28:04,360 --> 00:28:08,120 Oh my [bleep], it's a whole pot. 379 00:28:08,280 --> 00:28:11,680 It's a whole freaking pot. 380 00:28:11,840 --> 00:28:14,480 Just think, I've come across what 381 00:28:14,640 --> 00:28:16,080 it needs to win this thing. 382 00:28:16,240 --> 00:28:17,720 Do less, catch more. 383 00:28:17,880 --> 00:28:20,960 That's it. 384 00:28:21,120 --> 00:28:23,960 I'm feeling really good. 385 00:28:24,120 --> 00:28:30,760 I've realized I have really missed this way of living, 386 00:28:30,920 --> 00:28:34,520 and if it wasn't for family, I wouldn't go back. 387 00:28:37,360 --> 00:28:39,440 You could come if you want to. 388 00:28:39,600 --> 00:28:46,040 Come, come with me to the wilds, where the good things happen. 389 00:29:05,720 --> 00:29:06,680 My mustache is growing. 390 00:29:06,840 --> 00:29:09,280 I can feel it getting into my mouth. 391 00:29:09,880 --> 00:29:13,280 I've got no idea what it looks like. 392 00:29:13,440 --> 00:29:15,400 Scary is probably the word that comes to mind. 393 00:29:18,040 --> 00:29:21,320 Yes, I've got myself sorted. 394 00:29:21,480 --> 00:29:27,560 Got my backpack, my fishing gear, essential items, 395 00:29:27,720 --> 00:29:30,760 and make our way around to the river mouth. 396 00:29:34,160 --> 00:29:38,040 It's four weeks since I've landed a trout. 397 00:29:38,200 --> 00:29:40,800 That I find odd. 398 00:29:40,960 --> 00:29:44,640 Now, if I'd never fished before, I would say, you can't fish, 399 00:29:44,800 --> 00:29:45,640 you know? 400 00:29:45,800 --> 00:29:47,480 I don't know how to fish. 401 00:29:47,640 --> 00:29:52,000 So I've changed up the scenario, the hooks, the bait, 402 00:29:52,160 --> 00:29:55,440 the weather as much as I could, and still only 403 00:29:55,600 --> 00:30:00,360 one trout in four weeks. 404 00:30:00,520 --> 00:30:02,160 So the only thing I can think of doing 405 00:30:02,320 --> 00:30:04,440 is making my way around to the river mouth 406 00:30:04,600 --> 00:30:08,640 where I've got more substantial water running out. 407 00:30:08,800 --> 00:30:10,160 Be a good headspace thing too. 408 00:30:10,320 --> 00:30:14,560 Different environment, beautiful location, stunning views. 409 00:30:14,720 --> 00:30:18,760 Yeah, see how we go, see if we can't land a fish. 410 00:30:34,920 --> 00:30:37,480 Oh, yes. 411 00:30:37,640 --> 00:30:39,600 Midges and sandflies. 412 00:30:42,160 --> 00:30:43,360 Naonao. 413 00:30:43,520 --> 00:30:46,440 Whatever you want to call them. 414 00:30:46,600 --> 00:30:48,280 Don't know how we'll handle this. 415 00:30:48,440 --> 00:30:52,360 It's a challenge keeping it together. 416 00:30:52,520 --> 00:30:55,520 I can call it here, you know. 417 00:30:55,680 --> 00:30:58,080 I think they'd get even the most hardened Buddhist 418 00:30:58,240 --> 00:30:59,480 monk to crack. 419 00:31:02,520 --> 00:31:06,680 Got me scratching like a demon possessed. 420 00:31:06,840 --> 00:31:09,400 That'll keep me awake or it'll set me back in the headspace, 421 00:31:09,560 --> 00:31:12,160 and I don't really need that. 422 00:31:12,320 --> 00:31:16,560 Sandflies, give me a break for one [bleep] minute. 423 00:31:26,800 --> 00:31:32,400 (SINGING) Sandstone cliffs are glowing purple in the evening 424 00:31:32,560 --> 00:31:34,440 light 425 00:31:34,600 --> 00:31:41,120 Kangaroos are grazing and there's an eagle in flight 426 00:31:41,280 --> 00:31:53,240 Calling me home, calling me home Here's 427 00:31:55,400 --> 00:31:58,920 my little doggie stones that I talk to each night. 428 00:32:01,800 --> 00:32:04,600 I tell the doggies, keep your dad warm. 429 00:32:09,080 --> 00:32:12,720 Don't fight with each other. 430 00:32:12,880 --> 00:32:14,680 I'll see you soon enough, hey? 431 00:32:29,160 --> 00:32:34,080 I look forward to seeing John and the little doggies, Charlie 432 00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:34,800 and Toby. 433 00:32:45,480 --> 00:32:47,680 I so wanted to have children with John. 434 00:32:50,640 --> 00:32:55,640 We tried for six years from when I was 34 to when I was 40. 435 00:32:55,800 --> 00:33:00,280 And I just felt such incredible grief 436 00:33:00,440 --> 00:33:03,360 around not having children. 437 00:33:08,800 --> 00:33:13,240 I so wanted to have them with all of my being. 438 00:33:13,400 --> 00:33:15,760 At least one, possibly two. 439 00:33:20,080 --> 00:33:22,400 I imagined them for about six years 440 00:33:22,560 --> 00:33:25,280 that we were trying to conceive. 441 00:33:25,440 --> 00:33:31,600 I just imagined the child being born and seeing myself 442 00:33:31,760 --> 00:33:39,400 and John in that child, and it was just this agony. 443 00:33:48,720 --> 00:33:50,640 There was just so much to it. 444 00:33:52,960 --> 00:33:55,760 Then there's the concerns about what will I 445 00:33:55,920 --> 00:33:58,720 do when I'm really old when there's no one to help take 446 00:33:58,880 --> 00:34:00,600 care of me, when I become vulnerable 447 00:34:00,760 --> 00:34:02,880 and need that family around me. 448 00:34:15,680 --> 00:34:18,120 There's been this ongoing internal process of dealing 449 00:34:18,280 --> 00:34:23,720 with grief and loss, and I think that's in itself a resilience 450 00:34:23,880 --> 00:34:26,840 which will lend itself to this experience. 451 00:34:27,000 --> 00:34:29,640 For me now, it's sort of boiled down to really wanting 452 00:34:29,800 --> 00:34:32,920 to be the last person and bring home 453 00:34:33,080 --> 00:34:36,840 that $250,000 for the family. 454 00:34:39,240 --> 00:34:44,680 Moving into our old age to have that financial security, which 455 00:34:44,840 --> 00:34:46,560 we don't yet have. 456 00:34:46,720 --> 00:34:50,000 I'd so like to be able to gift that to John. 457 00:35:44,160 --> 00:35:47,320 Got like a head rush and felt like I was going to drop, 458 00:35:47,480 --> 00:35:51,680 and it's like, oh, you know, now I've gone. 459 00:35:51,840 --> 00:35:54,840 Like into, in the you need to go through days on end 460 00:35:55,000 --> 00:35:58,160 where you don't get fed, but this is prolonged. 461 00:35:58,320 --> 00:36:00,280 This is-- this is by far the longest I've 462 00:36:00,440 --> 00:36:03,760 gone without substantial food. 463 00:36:10,120 --> 00:36:15,360 But, yeah, it's an eye-opener, and it's hitting the body 464 00:36:15,520 --> 00:36:16,080 pretty-- 465 00:36:16,240 --> 00:36:17,080 pretty heavy. 466 00:36:19,240 --> 00:36:20,200 Inaudible 467 00:36:21,640 --> 00:36:23,840 You need to get a fire go and get a warm brew into me. 468 00:36:24,000 --> 00:36:25,160 Just depleted of energy. 469 00:36:28,760 --> 00:36:30,800 I don't know if a-- 470 00:36:31,240 --> 00:36:35,720 don't know if a warm brew will make a difference. 471 00:36:38,680 --> 00:36:42,160 Funny, I had a dream about two nights ago. 472 00:36:42,320 --> 00:36:44,280 There was a girl being interviewed. 473 00:36:44,440 --> 00:36:46,560 She pulled the pin and she tapped out, 474 00:36:46,720 --> 00:36:50,600 and watching her being interviewed, 475 00:36:50,760 --> 00:36:55,640 how upset and traumatized she was in the interview 476 00:36:55,800 --> 00:36:59,880 for tapping early, just going, I can't believe that I didn't 477 00:37:00,040 --> 00:37:02,480 stop and think about it before I'd done it, you know? 478 00:37:02,640 --> 00:37:04,360 It's like, now I've done it. 479 00:37:04,520 --> 00:37:06,040 I've blown an opportunity. 480 00:37:06,200 --> 00:37:10,440 These opportunities only come once in a life time. 481 00:37:10,600 --> 00:37:13,720 And she was grief stricken, and that 482 00:37:13,880 --> 00:37:17,320 was it was pretty powerful dream to have. 483 00:37:17,480 --> 00:37:20,200 That's an awakening, I suppose. 484 00:37:20,360 --> 00:37:23,520 We don't get to choose the obstacles and the challenges 485 00:37:23,680 --> 00:37:25,840 and things necessarily put in front of us, 486 00:37:26,000 --> 00:37:31,080 but we do get to choose how we react to them. 487 00:37:31,240 --> 00:37:34,840 What I've realized is stay away from my testing grounds, 488 00:37:35,000 --> 00:37:36,400 you know? 489 00:37:36,560 --> 00:37:40,160 If over there is going to be bad for midges and sandflies, 490 00:37:40,320 --> 00:37:41,120 don't go there. 491 00:37:43,520 --> 00:37:44,960 Don't go to your testing grounds. 492 00:37:45,120 --> 00:37:48,880 It puts your headspace in that compromising position. 493 00:37:51,920 --> 00:37:56,320 And I know my wife would be saying, keep going, Rickster. 494 00:37:56,480 --> 00:37:57,320 You're doing well, darling. 495 00:37:57,480 --> 00:37:58,040 Keep going. 496 00:38:01,160 --> 00:38:07,040 Yeah, she's my greatest supporter is my darling Meryl. 497 00:38:07,200 --> 00:38:13,800 In her letter to me that she wrote me coming out here, 498 00:38:13,960 --> 00:38:17,960 I didn't read it until the day before I was due to come out 499 00:38:18,120 --> 00:38:24,480 bush to the land, and in amongst it was some beautiful wording, 500 00:38:24,640 --> 00:38:27,760 but it said, Rick, when things get difficult, 501 00:38:27,920 --> 00:38:29,560 just listen to your heart, and your heart 502 00:38:29,720 --> 00:38:30,960 is where the answers are. 503 00:38:33,760 --> 00:38:37,640 And she's right. 504 00:38:37,800 --> 00:38:41,120 Sometimes it's just hard to interpret your heart. 505 00:38:41,280 --> 00:38:42,920 One part of your heart says-- 506 00:38:43,080 --> 00:38:47,320 sort of says, hey, Rick, you can be back home with your darling. 507 00:38:50,360 --> 00:38:54,480 But it's like, my heart also says, Rick, you can do more. 508 00:38:54,640 --> 00:38:55,560 Keep pushing through. 509 00:39:29,120 --> 00:39:30,840 Take a long time to eat this frond. 510 00:39:37,040 --> 00:39:41,880 Got to spend the time to cook them cut them, 511 00:39:42,040 --> 00:39:49,640 clean them, chew them, spit them out, rinse your mouth. 512 00:39:52,320 --> 00:39:56,360 These tree fern fronds are keeping me alive 513 00:39:56,520 --> 00:39:58,520 but not doing much more than that. 514 00:40:00,280 --> 00:40:03,800 My body would love some fat and protein into my diet. 515 00:40:06,400 --> 00:40:12,120 I had this idea that fishing and hunting would be my way 516 00:40:12,280 --> 00:40:14,600 to sustain myself. 517 00:40:14,760 --> 00:40:16,800 It's a tough gig, this thing. 518 00:40:16,960 --> 00:40:19,120 I'm going to get some pieces for tomorrow. 519 00:40:19,280 --> 00:40:22,680 There's mice, but I haven't even had them check, 520 00:40:22,840 --> 00:40:25,720 like sniff into the trap, and there's fish in there. 521 00:40:25,880 --> 00:40:28,400 Like, they should smell it. 522 00:40:28,560 --> 00:40:33,200 I had them walk past the trap. 523 00:40:33,360 --> 00:40:34,720 It's an interesting scenario. 524 00:40:42,040 --> 00:40:44,240 Let's go and check that trail cam. 525 00:40:50,000 --> 00:40:52,400 A mouse, a rat, anything like that 526 00:40:52,560 --> 00:40:54,520 would mean the world to me right now. 527 00:40:54,680 --> 00:40:57,000 I'd feel I have-- 528 00:40:57,160 --> 00:40:59,080 I'm back on the game again. 529 00:41:03,840 --> 00:41:07,280 Oh, it's a giant rat that just ran past. 530 00:41:07,440 --> 00:41:08,320 Didn't even sniff it. 531 00:41:08,480 --> 00:41:11,560 Just walked straight past. 532 00:41:11,720 --> 00:41:13,200 That's definitely demeaned it then. 533 00:41:13,360 --> 00:41:17,360 I'm going to take out the trout and put some berries in there 534 00:41:17,520 --> 00:41:20,960 and see if I get better luck, because obviously this doesn't 535 00:41:21,120 --> 00:41:21,640 work. 536 00:41:28,600 --> 00:41:30,280 It's fricking 3:00 in the morning. 537 00:41:30,440 --> 00:41:33,160 Everything's frozen and I'm cold. 538 00:41:33,320 --> 00:41:34,520 I have to get out for a pee. 539 00:41:51,400 --> 00:41:53,200 Just a freaking possum. 540 00:41:53,360 --> 00:41:56,920 Like, I had no chance, but, you know, I had my hands full, 541 00:41:57,080 --> 00:41:58,240 so to say. 542 00:41:58,400 --> 00:42:02,080 It scaled up like 10 meters up in the tree. 543 00:42:02,240 --> 00:42:04,680 Too high to reach him. 544 00:42:04,840 --> 00:42:06,400 A bit frustrating knowing that you have 545 00:42:06,560 --> 00:42:09,400 a possum within basically striking distance 546 00:42:09,560 --> 00:42:12,800 and you want to eat meat, but you can't get to him. 547 00:42:18,080 --> 00:42:22,720 Today was tough, trying to keep it up, sort of feeling the odds 548 00:42:22,880 --> 00:42:25,440 is against you, and you've still just got to keep going. 549 00:42:52,680 --> 00:42:57,160 Thought I'd make my way through the bushland to an area 550 00:42:57,320 --> 00:43:02,000 that I walked past on one of the first exploratory hunts 551 00:43:02,160 --> 00:43:04,680 that I went on, and I came past a couple 552 00:43:04,840 --> 00:43:08,200 of really big, majestic trees. 553 00:43:08,360 --> 00:43:16,120 I've got these three tall, powerful trees 554 00:43:16,280 --> 00:43:21,080 that are in a straight line that really 555 00:43:21,240 --> 00:43:22,840 seem to reflect my sisters. 556 00:43:27,320 --> 00:43:29,800 Something I haven't discussed much of, 557 00:43:29,960 --> 00:43:37,560 in May last year, I lost my next oldest sister, Mandy, 558 00:43:37,720 --> 00:43:43,120 who was extremely close to me in many ways. 559 00:43:43,280 --> 00:43:45,560 We shared a passion for many things, 560 00:43:45,720 --> 00:43:49,040 and one of the main ones, of course, was nature. 561 00:44:00,440 --> 00:44:06,560 She'd-- she'd love it here, and when I got news that Mandy had 562 00:44:06,720 --> 00:44:09,160 passed away, it was a difficult time. 563 00:44:12,920 --> 00:44:15,520 There was an element of numbness, an element of loss. 564 00:44:18,960 --> 00:44:21,440 It's a hard one to explain unless, I guess, 565 00:44:21,600 --> 00:44:23,880 those that have been through it go, I know that-- 566 00:44:24,040 --> 00:44:31,400 I know that sort of numbness, that emotions 567 00:44:31,560 --> 00:44:32,760 don't feel the same. 568 00:44:38,760 --> 00:44:43,800 But walking through here, I can't help but feel that-- 569 00:44:43,960 --> 00:44:52,480 that Mandy has been with me on this entire journey. 570 00:44:56,080 --> 00:44:58,080 This challenge has given me the opportunity 571 00:44:58,240 --> 00:45:04,920 to review my own life and grieve the loss of my sister. 572 00:45:05,080 --> 00:45:10,720 It's hard to express the love for somebody that's gone, 573 00:45:10,880 --> 00:45:12,800 because it sort of feels like you can't thank them 574 00:45:12,960 --> 00:45:13,840 personally. 575 00:45:19,280 --> 00:45:24,400 So, Mandy, if you can hear me, from the bottom of my heart, 576 00:45:24,560 --> 00:45:25,280 thank you. 577 00:45:31,480 --> 00:45:36,520 So many thoughts roaring through my head at the moment. 578 00:45:39,840 --> 00:45:40,880 They just come in-- 579 00:45:43,360 --> 00:45:47,720 in slow waves, a little bit like the sound of the shore. 580 00:46:03,320 --> 00:46:09,800 I don't feel a strong pull to be the winner, 581 00:46:09,960 --> 00:46:14,760 nor do I want to be driven solely by the cash. 582 00:46:19,680 --> 00:46:23,800 Don't get me wrong, money could go a long way. 583 00:46:27,480 --> 00:46:30,480 It's like oxygen, difficult to live without. 584 00:46:34,200 --> 00:46:37,760 If I was to ask myself the question as 585 00:46:37,920 --> 00:46:46,640 to what it is that I want to get out of this, 586 00:46:46,800 --> 00:46:48,720 I think a lot of it I already have. 587 00:46:56,040 --> 00:46:59,800 I just hope that all those that know me 588 00:46:59,960 --> 00:47:07,320 aren't disappointed should I not choose to battle it out 589 00:47:07,480 --> 00:47:10,360 to the last contender. 590 00:47:23,280 --> 00:47:26,000 I am the captain of my ship. 591 00:47:26,320 --> 00:47:32,360 I am the husband to my wife, I am the father to my son, 592 00:47:32,520 --> 00:47:34,360 and the brother to my siblings. 593 00:47:35,760 --> 00:47:36,680 I am my own king. 594 00:48:00,840 --> 00:48:03,080 Could you do me a one favor? 595 00:48:03,240 --> 00:48:06,920 Just take a minute and appreciate 596 00:48:07,080 --> 00:48:09,720 that you're sitting inside. 597 00:48:09,880 --> 00:48:15,320 You're warm, you're comfortable, and most likely, 598 00:48:15,480 --> 00:48:17,560 if you feel snackish, you can go off in the fridge 599 00:48:17,720 --> 00:48:24,200 and just get a snack, and someone like me, 600 00:48:24,360 --> 00:48:28,240 hungry, cold, just trying to make it 601 00:48:28,400 --> 00:48:33,200 in a good shape to the next day over and over again. 602 00:48:36,600 --> 00:48:37,640 Appreciate it. 603 00:48:39,480 --> 00:48:40,440 Eat that sandwich. 604 00:48:47,080 --> 00:48:48,520 But as we're getting close to 40 days, 605 00:48:48,680 --> 00:48:51,800 I expected it to be a little bit tougher, right? 606 00:48:51,960 --> 00:48:56,160 But I feel it. 607 00:48:57,360 --> 00:49:00,560 A mouse, a rat, anything like that, 608 00:49:01,720 --> 00:49:02,840 that would be really delicious. 609 00:49:03,000 --> 00:49:04,560 My body would love it. 610 00:49:09,640 --> 00:49:10,320 Hold on. 611 00:49:12,680 --> 00:49:13,600 She's a mouse. 612 00:49:14,880 --> 00:49:16,440 She's checking out the trap. 613 00:49:18,480 --> 00:49:19,720 Quite a sizable mouse. 614 00:49:21,720 --> 00:49:22,360 Would be a snack. 615 00:49:24,960 --> 00:49:30,440 It's a mouse climbing on it, and inside. 616 00:49:30,600 --> 00:49:31,800 Trigger, trigger, trigger. 617 00:49:39,360 --> 00:49:40,760 What the heck is he doing? 618 00:49:40,920 --> 00:49:41,600 He's in there. 619 00:49:47,600 --> 00:49:50,520 She's in there for 20 seconds and it hasn't-- 620 00:49:50,680 --> 00:49:51,080 Oh! 621 00:49:54,000 --> 00:49:57,720 The lid triggered and he squeezed out the gap. 622 00:50:00,560 --> 00:50:04,760 Oh, that is just freaking awful. 623 00:50:04,920 --> 00:50:06,640 I thought I must have kicked it getting water, 624 00:50:06,800 --> 00:50:09,040 because I have to walk past all the time, 625 00:50:09,200 --> 00:50:10,600 because there was no mouse in it. 626 00:50:31,000 --> 00:50:32,520 [ringing] 627 00:50:47,440 --> 00:50:48,840 MAN (ON PHONE): Hello? 628 00:50:49,000 --> 00:50:50,160 Hello 629 00:50:50,320 --> 00:50:51,560 MAN (ON PHONE): What's going on? 630 00:50:51,720 --> 00:50:53,000 I have some news for you. 631 00:50:53,160 --> 00:50:53,800 MAN (ON PHONE): How are you? 632 00:50:53,960 --> 00:50:55,840 Good, thank you. 633 00:50:56,000 --> 00:51:00,520 I'm calling up to officially bow out of "Alone Australia". 634 00:51:18,840 --> 00:51:20,720 My head and my heart are in a good spot. 635 00:51:39,600 --> 00:51:41,000 Good morning. 636 00:51:41,160 --> 00:51:42,240 Good afternoon. 637 00:51:42,400 --> 00:51:43,920 Doesn't matter out here, does it, the time? 638 00:51:49,080 --> 00:51:50,560 Journey's come to an end. 639 00:51:57,520 --> 00:52:03,400 I had a calmness to me when I arrived, and I have a-- 640 00:52:03,560 --> 00:52:09,480 a calmness to me now, a place of peace. 641 00:52:09,640 --> 00:52:12,640 Grateful for the opportunity to look within. 642 00:52:20,160 --> 00:52:26,160 I have a much greater and appreciation for life 643 00:52:26,320 --> 00:52:30,520 in general, a deeper appreciation 644 00:52:30,680 --> 00:52:35,760 and love for my wife of 30 years this year. 645 00:52:35,920 --> 00:52:39,920 My wife, right, when things get difficult, 646 00:52:40,080 --> 00:52:41,920 just listen to your heart, because that's 647 00:52:42,080 --> 00:52:43,720 where the answers are. 648 00:52:43,880 --> 00:52:46,040 Yeah, the answer was in my heart, 649 00:52:46,200 --> 00:52:51,240 but it was more about knowing me so that I can go back a better 650 00:52:51,400 --> 00:52:54,600 person and provide for them and community 651 00:52:54,760 --> 00:52:56,400 and get what I want out of life. 652 00:53:01,440 --> 00:53:07,520 My time here with what I got out of it was about me finding me. 653 00:53:07,680 --> 00:53:11,200 I've done that without necessarily having 654 00:53:11,360 --> 00:53:15,440 to go for a prize at the end. 655 00:53:15,600 --> 00:53:18,400 I look forward to the loving embrace of my wife again. 656 00:53:23,680 --> 00:53:24,880 Time to return to family. 657 00:53:38,840 --> 00:53:42,560 My [bleep], I haven't caught a bloody trout in days and days. 658 00:53:42,720 --> 00:53:43,320 Oh! 659 00:53:43,480 --> 00:53:46,320 So tired I can't get up. 660 00:53:46,480 --> 00:53:47,920 They are plump. 661 00:53:50,440 --> 00:53:51,200 I'm just-- 662 00:53:51,360 --> 00:53:52,160 [groans] 663 00:53:52,320 --> 00:53:54,360 I need to get more food. 664 00:53:54,520 --> 00:53:55,760 This looks promising. 665 00:53:55,920 --> 00:53:59,560 Yeah, that's got seed in it, so that's carbohydrate. 666 00:53:59,720 --> 00:54:04,680 Just across the river, there is a dead trout I want to eat. 667 00:54:04,840 --> 00:54:06,280 Oh, [bleep]. 668 00:54:06,440 --> 00:54:08,680 [bleep]! 669 00:54:08,840 --> 00:54:10,320 [bleep]. 670 00:54:10,480 --> 00:54:12,000 Not feeling good. 671 00:54:12,160 --> 00:54:13,720 Oh, man. 672 00:54:13,880 --> 00:54:15,080 [groans]