1 00:02:01,598 --> 00:02:02,791 Lacy. 2 00:02:14,202 --> 00:02:15,369 Hi. 3 00:02:15,471 --> 00:02:17,278 I'm gonna kill myself. 4 00:02:21,043 --> 00:02:23,878 I said I'm gonna kill myself if you don't come get me. 5 00:02:34,765 --> 00:02:35,822 ♪ He said to me 6 00:02:35,924 --> 00:02:37,424 -♪ He said to me 7 00:02:37,526 --> 00:02:38,997 ♪ Don't take a sip 8 00:02:39,099 --> 00:02:40,569 ♪ Don't take a sip 9 00:02:40,671 --> 00:02:41,933 ♪ For if you do 10 00:02:42,035 --> 00:02:43,364 ♪ For if you do 11 00:02:43,466 --> 00:02:44,838 ♪ I'll surely slip 12 00:02:44,940 --> 00:02:46,304 ♪ I'll surely slip 13 00:02:46,406 --> 00:02:52,145 ♪ He said to me, don't take a sip 14 00:02:52,247 --> 00:02:57,546 ♪ For if you do, I'll surely slip 15 00:02:57,648 --> 00:03:00,782 - ♪ I took a sip - ♪ I took a sip 16 00:03:00,884 --> 00:03:03,653 - ♪ And he went down - ♪ And he went down 17 00:03:03,755 --> 00:03:06,624 - ♪ Down to my belly - ♪ Down to my belly 18 00:03:06,726 --> 00:03:09,624 - ♪ He might have drowned - ♪ He might have drowned 19 00:03:09,726 --> 00:03:15,532 ♪ I took a sip and he went down 20 00:03:15,635 --> 00:03:21,738 ♪ Into my belly, he might have drowned ♪ 21 00:03:23,674 --> 00:03:25,511 It was a motorcycle accident. 22 00:03:27,817 --> 00:03:29,383 I'm so sorry, Lacy. 23 00:03:30,953 --> 00:03:32,316 It's really sad. 24 00:03:32,418 --> 00:03:34,586 But he and I aren't very close. 25 00:03:45,827 --> 00:03:48,400 I hope your stepdad gets better. 26 00:03:48,502 --> 00:03:50,635 He's actually just her boyfriend. 27 00:03:56,044 --> 00:03:57,378 You can have this one. 28 00:04:08,088 --> 00:04:09,786 That's so nice. 29 00:04:13,126 --> 00:04:14,494 I don't wanna go. 30 00:04:15,393 --> 00:04:16,694 Is that your mom? 31 00:04:19,895 --> 00:04:22,436 -Yeah. -Can we meet her? 32 00:04:23,868 --> 00:04:26,000 Mm, I don't think that's a good idea. 33 00:05:16,486 --> 00:05:18,124 Why is Wayne here? 34 00:05:18,226 --> 00:05:19,326 I'm not gonna kick Wayne out 35 00:05:19,429 --> 00:05:21,726 because you decided to come home from camp. 36 00:05:26,429 --> 00:05:28,001 I wanna stay. 37 00:05:28,103 --> 00:05:29,603 I've changed my mind. 38 00:05:29,972 --> 00:05:31,701 You can't do that. 39 00:05:31,803 --> 00:05:34,035 I thought nobody liked me, but I was wrong. 40 00:05:37,673 --> 00:05:39,381 This is a bad pattern. 41 00:05:40,414 --> 00:05:41,446 And I've already convinced them 42 00:05:41,548 --> 00:05:43,550 to give me part of my deposit back. 43 00:06:04,006 --> 00:06:04,932 ♪ Up on the river 44 00:06:05,035 --> 00:06:09,576 ♪ Along with the miracle man that I am 45 00:06:10,310 --> 00:06:11,643 ♪ With true found lovers 46 00:06:11,745 --> 00:06:16,847 ♪ And true found brothers of man in the plan 47 00:06:16,949 --> 00:06:22,954 ♪ I don't know what I did But I did and I am, I am 48 00:06:23,790 --> 00:06:26,290 ♪ I don't know where you go when you're sad 49 00:06:26,392 --> 00:06:29,227 ♪ But I ride, ride, ride 50 00:06:29,329 --> 00:06:32,466 ♪ Everything lies inside 51 00:06:32,568 --> 00:06:35,435 ♪ Leave all your cares and troubles behind 52 00:06:35,537 --> 00:06:38,698 ♪ I don't care what you've got to hide 53 00:06:38,800 --> 00:06:42,068 ♪ Yes, ride, ride, ride 54 00:06:42,171 --> 00:06:44,974 ♪ Roll out the train for the liberty line 55 00:06:45,076 --> 00:06:48,481 ♪ You'll be giving me yours I'll be giving you mine 56 00:06:48,583 --> 00:06:51,552 ♪ I don't care what you've been denied ♪ 57 00:08:27,283 --> 00:08:28,880 Where did you grow up? 58 00:08:33,255 --> 00:08:34,314 South Carolina. 59 00:08:54,441 --> 00:08:56,677 I don't wanna fall asleep. 60 00:09:02,449 --> 00:09:04,586 Five more minutes? 61 00:09:08,823 --> 00:09:11,857 Wayne thinks it's weird we still sleep together. 62 00:09:25,241 --> 00:09:26,905 Can I have a piece of you? 63 00:09:29,643 --> 00:09:31,808 What do you mean, a piece of me? 64 00:09:31,910 --> 00:09:34,649 A little piece of you to sleep with. 65 00:10:02,143 --> 00:10:03,337 Thanks. 66 00:10:23,398 --> 00:10:24,831 Welcome home. 67 00:14:21,670 --> 00:14:23,366 Is that your daughter? 68 00:14:33,578 --> 00:14:38,348 Say "uthag" after anything that isn't A, E, I or O or U. 69 00:14:39,182 --> 00:14:41,382 - After a consonant? - Yes. 70 00:14:41,485 --> 00:14:44,618 But if it's A, E, I, O, U, you say it before. 71 00:14:45,526 --> 00:14:46,925 Before what? 72 00:14:47,027 --> 00:14:50,998 Uthagi duthago nuthagot knothagow. 73 00:14:52,633 --> 00:14:53,799 What does that mean? 74 00:14:53,901 --> 00:14:57,136 Uthagits uthaga suthagecruthaget. 75 00:16:40,975 --> 00:16:43,207 "Jondalar relaxed beside Noria. 76 00:16:43,309 --> 00:16:46,074 "After a while, she sat up and looked at him 77 00:16:46,176 --> 00:16:48,247 "with glowing lang..." 78 00:16:49,881 --> 00:16:51,210 "Languorous." 79 00:16:51,312 --> 00:16:53,282 "...languorous eyes. 80 00:16:53,384 --> 00:16:56,253 "'Jondalar, man, Noria, woman,' she said, 81 00:16:56,356 --> 00:16:58,824 "as though she truly felt she was a woman now 82 00:16:58,926 --> 00:17:00,523 "and leaned over to kiss him." 83 00:17:51,881 --> 00:17:55,314 Suthagee yuthagou luthagatuthager. 84 00:17:56,784 --> 00:17:58,449 Guthagoodbuthagye. 85 00:18:05,058 --> 00:18:06,622 So nice meeting you. 86 00:18:36,989 --> 00:18:38,522 I like Sequoia. 87 00:18:40,024 --> 00:18:41,320 That's good. 88 00:18:41,422 --> 00:18:43,362 I like Sequoia, too. 89 00:18:47,101 --> 00:18:49,170 I'd like to be friends with her. 90 00:18:54,209 --> 00:18:56,606 I usually have a hard time making friends. 91 00:19:07,388 --> 00:19:09,784 Why doesn't she live with you some of the time? 92 00:19:21,464 --> 00:19:23,333 Do you have any other kids? 93 00:19:23,435 --> 00:19:25,668 Wayne has a wonderful son named Eric. 94 00:19:26,542 --> 00:19:27,806 He's 20. 95 00:19:27,908 --> 00:19:29,270 Where does he live? 96 00:19:29,372 --> 00:19:32,345 Iraq. And California. 97 00:20:07,815 --> 00:20:09,008 Eyes up here. 98 00:20:17,990 --> 00:20:19,425 Very good. 99 00:20:20,292 --> 00:20:21,988 You're ready to concentrate. 100 00:20:23,728 --> 00:20:26,161 - Mississippi hot dog. 101 00:20:26,263 --> 00:20:28,735 Mississippi hot dog. 102 00:20:28,837 --> 00:20:31,133 Mississippi hot dog. 103 00:20:31,235 --> 00:20:33,267 Mississippi hot dog. 104 00:20:33,369 --> 00:20:35,874 Mississippi hot dog. 105 00:20:35,976 --> 00:20:37,872 Mississippi hot dog. 106 00:21:52,281 --> 00:21:53,453 Better. 107 00:21:54,685 --> 00:21:57,420 You're using the fat part of your thumb. 108 00:21:57,522 --> 00:21:59,492 You need to stay right on the edge. 109 00:22:02,557 --> 00:22:05,124 This little man... 110 00:22:07,729 --> 00:22:09,700 should be kissing the keys. 111 00:23:50,931 --> 00:23:53,133 Something's wrong with Wayne. 112 00:25:48,587 --> 00:25:50,720 Wayne has a migraine. 113 00:25:50,822 --> 00:25:53,323 I think you should go back to bed. 114 00:25:53,425 --> 00:25:54,892 What's a migraine? 115 00:25:56,198 --> 00:25:57,829 A really bad headache. 116 00:25:58,730 --> 00:26:00,494 You had a headache yesterday. 117 00:26:00,596 --> 00:26:01,932 Yes. 118 00:26:03,505 --> 00:26:05,738 He thinks maybe I transferred it to him. 119 00:26:12,610 --> 00:26:14,373 It's too hot for tea. 120 00:26:35,567 --> 00:26:37,231 Turn off the light. 121 00:26:50,549 --> 00:26:52,147 What's she doing here? 122 00:26:52,915 --> 00:26:54,919 Lacy, go back to bed. 123 00:26:57,490 --> 00:26:58,890 Close the door. 124 00:27:06,462 --> 00:27:08,933 Why doesn't Sequoia live with you part of the time? 125 00:27:10,935 --> 00:27:12,534 Please get her out of here. 126 00:27:12,636 --> 00:27:14,433 Lacy, leave. 127 00:27:18,973 --> 00:27:20,912 Is she still here? 128 00:27:28,618 --> 00:27:30,218 I need quiet. 129 00:27:32,260 --> 00:27:33,958 I need to be alone. 130 00:27:36,125 --> 00:27:38,927 My head is splitting open. 131 00:27:39,029 --> 00:27:41,928 Do you know what a migraine feels like? 132 00:27:42,030 --> 00:27:43,767 What does it feel like? 133 00:27:43,869 --> 00:27:45,802 Please get her out of here. 134 00:27:45,904 --> 00:27:48,937 I can't listen to her voice right now. 135 00:27:49,039 --> 00:27:51,211 But I'm not trying to talk to you. 136 00:27:51,313 --> 00:27:52,809 Lacy, get out! 137 00:27:52,911 --> 00:27:54,006 I'm not trying to talk to you! 138 00:27:54,108 --> 00:27:55,609 I'm not trying to talk to you! 139 00:27:55,711 --> 00:27:57,482 Get out! 140 00:27:57,585 --> 00:27:58,779 I wasn't saying anything! 141 00:27:58,881 --> 00:28:00,551 I wasn't talking to you! 142 00:29:40,950 --> 00:29:42,548 So what do I do? 143 00:29:47,059 --> 00:29:48,994 You want me to tell you what to do? 144 00:29:52,795 --> 00:29:54,065 Yes. 145 00:30:02,876 --> 00:30:05,043 I think you have to break up with him. 146 00:31:20,819 --> 00:31:22,417 I'm done with Book One. 147 00:31:29,795 --> 00:31:31,657 Congratulations, honey. 148 00:31:45,647 --> 00:31:47,244 Can I hold your hand? 149 00:31:51,281 --> 00:31:53,453 It's kind of hard for me to fall asleep 150 00:31:53,555 --> 00:31:55,153 when we're holding hands. 151 00:31:56,250 --> 00:31:58,057 How about for a minute? 152 00:32:20,846 --> 00:32:22,345 You know what's funny? 153 00:32:24,649 --> 00:32:25,744 What? 154 00:32:29,450 --> 00:32:32,124 Every moment of my life is hell. 155 00:32:38,462 --> 00:32:40,759 I don't like it when you say things like that. 156 00:32:42,536 --> 00:32:44,268 But it is. 157 00:32:50,541 --> 00:32:53,541 You actually seem very happy to me a lot of the time. 158 00:32:57,612 --> 00:33:00,680 It's hell. I don't think it'll last, though. 159 00:33:19,203 --> 00:33:21,371 I'm actually pretty unhappy, too. 160 00:33:45,796 --> 00:33:46,759 Hey. 161 00:33:54,042 --> 00:33:55,834 Don't turn on the light. 162 00:34:22,698 --> 00:34:24,334 The worst part of this for me 163 00:34:24,436 --> 00:34:27,305 is that I really wanted to see Sequoia again. 164 00:37:59,886 --> 00:38:01,387 I know her. 165 00:39:36,746 --> 00:39:39,182 ♪ What experience has made you 166 00:39:39,284 --> 00:39:41,553 Everything is a door. 167 00:39:43,622 --> 00:39:46,224 What experience has made you suffer most? 168 00:39:48,821 --> 00:39:52,432 If to drink tastes bitter, 169 00:39:53,296 --> 00:39:55,296 become wine. 170 00:39:55,398 --> 00:39:58,563 ♪ Become wine 171 00:39:58,665 --> 00:40:00,803 Let the magic powers 172 00:40:01,471 --> 00:40:03,338 of this night's excess... 173 00:40:03,440 --> 00:40:05,409 ♪ Magic powers 174 00:40:05,511 --> 00:40:08,778 ...at the crossroads of your senses, 175 00:40:10,010 --> 00:40:16,651 give meaning to this strange encounter. 176 00:40:16,753 --> 00:40:19,324 ♪ Crossroads of your senses 177 00:40:19,426 --> 00:40:22,759 When the world has long forgotten you, 178 00:40:24,264 --> 00:40:26,492 to the silent earth, say... 179 00:40:26,594 --> 00:40:28,495 ♪ Encounter ♪ 180 00:40:28,597 --> 00:40:30,195 "I am flowing. 181 00:40:32,071 --> 00:40:33,506 "I am flowing. 182 00:40:34,107 --> 00:40:36,707 "I am flowing!" 183 00:40:37,904 --> 00:40:40,711 To the rushing waters, speak: 184 00:40:41,915 --> 00:40:43,175 "I am. 185 00:40:44,115 --> 00:40:45,518 "I am! 186 00:40:47,353 --> 00:40:50,116 -"I... am." 187 00:40:53,861 --> 00:40:55,055 Something 188 00:40:55,722 --> 00:40:58,729 is about to happen. 189 00:42:10,471 --> 00:42:11,666 Well, a number of you have asked me 190 00:42:11,768 --> 00:42:13,272 why we call what we did tonight 191 00:42:13,374 --> 00:42:15,201 a service and not a performance. 192 00:42:17,539 --> 00:42:19,304 Well, um... 193 00:42:21,415 --> 00:42:24,182 We think of our work as a funeral 194 00:42:24,284 --> 00:42:26,751 and also as a celebration. 195 00:42:27,752 --> 00:42:29,816 We're in service for you, and with you, 196 00:42:29,918 --> 00:42:31,888 to collectively process and mourn 197 00:42:31,990 --> 00:42:36,288 our nihilistic, materialistic, dead and asleep culture. 198 00:42:37,864 --> 00:42:40,732 And we're here to celebrate radical, impersonal love. 199 00:42:42,197 --> 00:42:44,400 Because that's the deepest source of political 200 00:42:44,502 --> 00:42:46,298 and spiritual resistance. 201 00:42:47,373 --> 00:42:48,608 - Right? -Yes. 202 00:42:48,710 --> 00:42:50,002 Don't forget... What about the table? 203 00:42:50,104 --> 00:42:52,404 - Tell them about the table. - Oh. Yeah. 204 00:42:52,506 --> 00:42:55,243 We also want you to leave with some really good zucchini. 205 00:42:56,242 --> 00:42:57,580 We grew too much of it over the summer 206 00:42:57,682 --> 00:42:58,913 and we're trying to get rid of it. 207 00:42:59,015 --> 00:43:02,650 So, it's on the picnic table on your way out. 208 00:43:02,752 --> 00:43:05,185 So, uh, leave a donation or... 209 00:43:06,690 --> 00:43:08,960 Please, just take a zucchini. 210 00:43:54,101 --> 00:43:56,604 She was in a relationship with Avi. 211 00:43:56,706 --> 00:43:59,039 The guy with the beard? 212 00:43:59,142 --> 00:44:01,846 Then she broke things off with him, but he... 213 00:44:03,751 --> 00:44:07,011 Well, I wouldn't go so far as to call it a cult, 214 00:44:07,113 --> 00:44:09,148 and Regina insists it isn't, 215 00:44:09,250 --> 00:44:10,715 and they're actually really wonderful... 216 00:44:10,817 --> 00:44:12,219 What's a cult? 217 00:44:13,127 --> 00:44:14,424 Mm... 218 00:44:14,526 --> 00:44:16,861 Good question. 219 00:44:17,627 --> 00:44:19,731 A group of people 220 00:44:19,833 --> 00:44:23,734 who all gather around and maybe worship someone, 221 00:44:23,836 --> 00:44:27,234 like he's a religious figure or something. 222 00:44:28,641 --> 00:44:31,272 And they usually all live together. 223 00:44:31,374 --> 00:44:34,175 And you know these people do all live together at the farm. 224 00:44:35,483 --> 00:44:37,475 And he's slept with a lot of... 225 00:44:38,847 --> 00:44:40,379 Hold on, what is that? 226 00:44:44,556 --> 00:44:46,454 Oh, fuck. Oh, my God. 227 00:44:46,556 --> 00:44:47,991 What is it? 228 00:44:50,631 --> 00:44:52,226 I need to find my tweezers. 229 00:44:55,567 --> 00:44:57,132 What is it? 230 00:45:06,445 --> 00:45:07,945 It's still alive. 231 00:45:20,789 --> 00:45:22,454 Die, tick, die. 232 00:46:40,037 --> 00:46:41,566 How long were you and Will together? 233 00:46:42,938 --> 00:46:45,538 - Three years. - Oh, wow. 234 00:46:46,041 --> 00:46:47,375 And where does he live now? 235 00:46:47,477 --> 00:46:50,107 He moved to New Mexico to be closer to his grandchildren. 236 00:46:50,209 --> 00:46:53,050 - Grandchildren? - I know. 237 00:46:54,216 --> 00:46:56,020 And when did you get your license? 238 00:46:56,818 --> 00:46:59,353 Mm... five... 239 00:47:00,321 --> 00:47:03,124 no, yeah, four-and-a-half years ago. 240 00:47:03,226 --> 00:47:04,889 - Will you do some work on me? - Of course. 241 00:47:04,991 --> 00:47:06,398 I can't pay you. 242 00:47:06,500 --> 00:47:08,030 You're not paying me. 243 00:47:08,133 --> 00:47:09,627 And you're not paying for the room, either. 244 00:47:11,334 --> 00:47:14,874 You're a beautiful person, Janet. You really are. 245 00:47:17,275 --> 00:47:20,272 Do you remember meeting me when you were two years old? 246 00:47:20,374 --> 00:47:21,611 I don't think it's possible 247 00:47:21,713 --> 00:47:23,179 for her to remember that. 248 00:47:24,385 --> 00:47:25,643 You seem familiar. 249 00:47:26,582 --> 00:47:27,645 See? 250 00:47:29,187 --> 00:47:30,687 Lacy, how do you feel about me staying here? 251 00:47:30,789 --> 00:47:33,155 Is that all right with you? 252 00:47:33,257 --> 00:47:35,659 It's okay with me if we go on some adventures. 253 00:47:35,761 --> 00:47:36,860 Lacy's always talking about 254 00:47:36,962 --> 00:47:39,258 how we don't go on enough adventures. 255 00:47:39,360 --> 00:47:41,230 I'll take you on some adventures. 256 00:48:01,154 --> 00:48:03,417 It's hard when there's a five-year gap on your resume. 257 00:48:03,519 --> 00:48:06,387 But I actually do have a lot of waitressing experience. 258 00:48:07,994 --> 00:48:10,388 You were an actress for five years. 259 00:48:10,490 --> 00:48:12,426 D'Angelo's doesn't care about that. 260 00:48:13,900 --> 00:48:15,393 My mom had a lot of different jobs 261 00:48:15,495 --> 00:48:18,936 before she got her acupuncture license. 262 00:48:19,038 --> 00:48:20,805 Yeah, but do you know your mom got $30,000 263 00:48:20,907 --> 00:48:23,074 from your grandfather when he died? 264 00:48:24,372 --> 00:48:26,176 That's how she could go back to school. 265 00:48:30,110 --> 00:48:31,478 Do you want kids? 266 00:48:33,420 --> 00:48:34,918 Probably not. 267 00:48:35,020 --> 00:48:37,154 Do lots of people fall in love with you? 268 00:48:37,920 --> 00:48:39,451 Why do you say that? 269 00:48:39,553 --> 00:48:43,287 Mm, lots of people fall in love with my mom. 270 00:48:43,389 --> 00:48:46,229 Well, your mom is fantastic. 271 00:48:47,428 --> 00:48:49,795 But she also has terrible taste in men. 272 00:48:49,897 --> 00:48:51,135 Yeah. 273 00:48:51,969 --> 00:48:54,171 - You think so, too? - Yeah. 274 00:48:55,603 --> 00:48:58,736 The guy she just broke up with sounds awful. 275 00:48:59,940 --> 00:49:01,145 Yeah. 276 00:49:02,042 --> 00:49:03,510 He was okay. 277 00:49:09,285 --> 00:49:11,320 Someone lit himself on fire here. 278 00:49:12,921 --> 00:49:14,191 Wait, where? 279 00:49:14,825 --> 00:49:16,661 On the town common. 280 00:49:16,764 --> 00:49:18,662 Why'd he light himself on fire? 281 00:49:18,764 --> 00:49:20,560 He was against the war. 282 00:49:28,303 --> 00:49:30,336 That always makes me think about 283 00:49:30,438 --> 00:49:33,342 - spontaneous combustion. - What's that? 284 00:49:35,308 --> 00:49:36,675 It's like where you, like, 285 00:49:37,577 --> 00:49:40,278 explode or disappear or catch on fire, 286 00:49:40,380 --> 00:49:43,220 but there's no explanation. 287 00:49:50,060 --> 00:49:52,691 Let's go to the ice-cream shop 288 00:49:54,328 --> 00:49:57,333 - and then go home. - Okay. 289 00:49:57,435 --> 00:49:59,670 Wouldn't you rather be hanging out with your friends? 290 00:49:59,772 --> 00:50:01,573 I don't have any friends. 291 00:50:01,675 --> 00:50:03,807 - Why? - I don't know. 292 00:50:03,909 --> 00:50:05,671 It's a complete mystery to me. 293 00:52:41,231 --> 00:52:43,334 ♪ If I were the president 294 00:52:44,234 --> 00:52:46,337 ♪ If I were queen for a day 295 00:52:48,370 --> 00:52:50,737 ♪ I'd give the ugly people 296 00:52:52,009 --> 00:52:53,509 ♪ All the money 297 00:52:54,740 --> 00:52:57,513 ♪ I'd rewrite the Book of Love 298 00:52:58,511 --> 00:53:00,285 ♪ I'd make it funny 299 00:53:00,951 --> 00:53:02,017 I got a job. 300 00:53:02,119 --> 00:53:03,849 ♪ Wheel of fortune ♪ 301 00:53:05,787 --> 00:53:07,752 ...there is an evolution here, 302 00:53:07,854 --> 00:53:10,157 and that we are a part of the evolution. 303 00:53:10,259 --> 00:53:12,527 And the self of woman 304 00:53:12,629 --> 00:53:15,629 that is articulated now and conceptualized, 305 00:53:15,731 --> 00:53:17,662 and the possible life patterns of women taking 306 00:53:17,764 --> 00:53:19,671 our own experience seriously... 307 00:53:21,972 --> 00:53:23,503 Don't answer it. 308 00:53:23,605 --> 00:53:25,937 And what if it's someone calling for us? 309 00:53:26,605 --> 00:53:28,213 They can leave a message. 310 00:53:28,315 --> 00:53:30,215 ...sharing our experience here, 311 00:53:30,317 --> 00:53:34,578 in forums like this, when it isn't that... 312 00:53:34,680 --> 00:53:36,453 What do you think he wants? 313 00:53:37,650 --> 00:53:40,419 Avi is ultimately harmless. 314 00:53:40,521 --> 00:53:42,327 He just wants me to come back. 315 00:53:43,226 --> 00:53:44,830 What if you talked to him? 316 00:53:44,932 --> 00:53:46,262 I don't want to talk to him. 317 00:53:46,364 --> 00:53:48,430 ...seem to us as serious 318 00:53:48,533 --> 00:53:50,728 as the problems that we started out with. 319 00:53:50,830 --> 00:53:54,070 But they must be met and articulated 320 00:53:54,172 --> 00:53:56,536 and we must be tuning it in, 321 00:53:56,638 --> 00:53:58,435 tuning our rhetoric in for life. 322 00:53:58,537 --> 00:54:00,238 Do I need this much? 323 00:54:00,340 --> 00:54:01,543 This is nothing. 324 00:54:01,645 --> 00:54:03,644 You could take three times this much and be fine. 325 00:54:03,746 --> 00:54:05,615 You could take five times this much and be fine. 326 00:54:05,717 --> 00:54:08,112 ... then we are on the right political track. 327 00:54:08,214 --> 00:54:12,121 If it doesn't open lines, if it isn't true to our own... 328 00:54:12,223 --> 00:54:13,722 It's to help sleep tonight. 329 00:54:13,824 --> 00:54:16,259 ...then we have to go back to the drawing board. 330 00:54:16,361 --> 00:54:18,358 And this is what we must do now 331 00:54:18,461 --> 00:54:20,591 because Erin Kaplan is right. 332 00:54:20,693 --> 00:54:22,826 It is fragile, our victory. 333 00:54:22,928 --> 00:54:25,569 It is fragile, the basic covenant 334 00:54:25,671 --> 00:54:28,305 that we could move from here and that our daughters... 335 00:54:28,407 --> 00:54:32,242 Well, the short version is, when I was 15, 336 00:54:32,344 --> 00:54:35,106 Mum died and I moved in with my dad. 337 00:54:35,208 --> 00:54:37,574 And things were going well, I mean, relatively speaking, 338 00:54:37,676 --> 00:54:38,844 I made some new friends 339 00:54:38,946 --> 00:54:40,548 and I started hanging out with these older kids. 340 00:54:40,650 --> 00:54:46,016 I guess one of them was 19, or 20, maybe. 341 00:54:46,118 --> 00:54:48,855 And then someone sent my dad an anonymous letter. 342 00:54:48,957 --> 00:54:51,489 It said something like... I mean, I read it at the time. 343 00:54:51,591 --> 00:54:53,899 It said something like... 344 00:54:54,001 --> 00:54:56,027 "Your daughter is, you know, 345 00:54:56,129 --> 00:54:58,433 "hanging out with bad characters and doing drugs, 346 00:54:58,535 --> 00:55:00,335 "and you should do something about it." 347 00:55:00,437 --> 00:55:03,075 And this letter was the beginning 348 00:55:03,177 --> 00:55:05,344 of the two worst years of my life. 349 00:55:06,376 --> 00:55:07,575 You already know this part. 350 00:55:07,677 --> 00:55:08,705 It was the reason they sent me to Ireland 351 00:55:08,807 --> 00:55:10,041 to live with my grandparents, 352 00:55:10,143 --> 00:55:12,483 which is, of course, when I had my nervous breakdown. 353 00:55:14,482 --> 00:55:17,452 Anyway, two years ago, 354 00:55:17,554 --> 00:55:19,688 which is, what, almost 30 years later, 355 00:55:20,755 --> 00:55:22,823 I'm visiting my dad for Christmas 356 00:55:22,925 --> 00:55:25,595 and I'm having coffee with one of my old best friends. 357 00:55:26,496 --> 00:55:29,599 And we stop in to see her mother. 358 00:55:29,701 --> 00:55:32,633 And when we're all saying goodbye, she starts crying, 359 00:55:32,735 --> 00:55:35,470 I mean, my friend's mother starts crying. 360 00:55:35,572 --> 00:55:37,468 And we say, "What, what?" And she says, 361 00:55:37,570 --> 00:55:39,004 "I'm the one... 362 00:55:40,546 --> 00:55:42,975 "who sent the anonymous letter, it was me." 363 00:55:44,511 --> 00:55:46,317 And she's sobbing. 364 00:55:46,420 --> 00:55:49,146 And she says, "I see now it was a mistake." 365 00:55:49,248 --> 00:55:52,121 And I was... I mean, I just moved to Massachusetts, 366 00:55:52,223 --> 00:55:53,225 and I'd just met Avi, 367 00:55:53,327 --> 00:55:54,555 and I was in such a good place in my life 368 00:55:54,657 --> 00:55:56,422 for the first time in a long time. 369 00:55:56,524 --> 00:55:58,122 And I said, you know, 370 00:55:58,224 --> 00:56:01,725 "Estelle," and I was bubbling over with forgiveness. 371 00:56:01,828 --> 00:56:04,200 And I hugged her for a long time, 372 00:56:04,302 --> 00:56:05,965 but she wouldn't stop crying. 373 00:56:06,067 --> 00:56:08,406 And then that night, I got back to my dad's house, 374 00:56:08,508 --> 00:56:13,705 and I said, "Hey, Dad, I just saw Jackie's mother 375 00:56:13,807 --> 00:56:15,176 "for the first time in decades, 376 00:56:15,278 --> 00:56:16,540 "remember Estelle?" 377 00:56:16,642 --> 00:56:18,516 And he says, "Yeah." 378 00:56:18,618 --> 00:56:22,046 And I say, "Well, it turns out she's the one who sent 379 00:56:22,148 --> 00:56:24,588 "the anonymous letter about me 30 years ago." 380 00:56:25,422 --> 00:56:27,855 And Dad says, "What letter?" 381 00:56:31,832 --> 00:56:34,259 Erm... no. 382 00:56:34,361 --> 00:56:35,566 Yeah? 383 00:56:35,668 --> 00:56:39,502 No, we never had any dogs and we never had any cats. 384 00:56:39,604 --> 00:56:43,138 It was just me and my Holocaust-survivor dad 385 00:56:43,240 --> 00:56:44,668 and my angry mom. 386 00:56:44,770 --> 00:56:46,806 And then finally, one day, 387 00:56:46,908 --> 00:56:50,046 after I'd begged and begged them for a pet, 388 00:56:50,148 --> 00:56:51,747 they got me a dove. 389 00:56:52,315 --> 00:56:53,682 A dove? 390 00:56:53,784 --> 00:56:56,620 Mm-hmm. They got me a dove and I named her Susan. 391 00:57:00,053 --> 00:57:03,789 ♪ Round and round the earth is turning 392 00:57:03,891 --> 00:57:09,697 ♪ Turning always 'round to morning 393 00:57:09,799 --> 00:57:14,799 ♪ And from morning 'round to night ♪ 394 00:57:14,901 --> 00:57:16,970 I think I know what it feels like 395 00:57:17,704 --> 00:57:19,775 to be a baby in the womb. 396 00:57:23,744 --> 00:57:25,616 I just got in touch with it. 397 00:57:27,713 --> 00:57:29,015 What's it like? 398 00:57:32,156 --> 00:57:33,492 It's wet... 399 00:57:35,159 --> 00:57:36,528 and warm... 400 00:57:39,361 --> 00:57:41,032 and wooshy. 401 00:57:46,468 --> 00:57:47,769 It's really good. 402 00:57:54,643 --> 00:57:58,077 There's no language for it. 403 00:58:00,250 --> 00:58:01,652 No thinking 404 00:58:03,121 --> 00:58:04,622 and no language. 405 00:58:20,033 --> 00:58:22,068 What are we even talking about... 406 00:58:23,474 --> 00:58:25,071 when we talk about mothers? 407 00:58:31,846 --> 00:58:35,818 What are we even talking about? 408 00:58:40,526 --> 00:58:42,286 Look, there's making bad decisions. 409 00:58:43,691 --> 00:58:45,224 Choosing the wrong person. 410 00:58:47,964 --> 00:58:49,696 But then there's also worrying all the time 411 00:58:49,798 --> 00:58:50,827 that you're making bad decisions 412 00:58:50,929 --> 00:58:52,802 and not trusting yourself. 413 00:58:55,473 --> 00:58:58,808 So, you develop an identity. 414 00:59:00,406 --> 00:59:04,313 You develop an identity as an untrustworthy person. 415 00:59:04,415 --> 00:59:07,245 Untrustworthy to yourself. 416 00:59:09,286 --> 00:59:10,655 And so that... 417 00:59:12,151 --> 00:59:14,084 I mean, once you're in that pattern, 418 00:59:14,186 --> 00:59:16,221 that's how you make bad decisions. 419 00:59:17,230 --> 00:59:18,828 Because then you think... 420 00:59:20,294 --> 00:59:23,195 When you have an instinct about something, you think... 421 00:59:25,002 --> 00:59:29,134 "Oh, I can't trust my instinct because I'm the one... 422 00:59:29,236 --> 00:59:33,139 "I'm the person who makes bad decisions here." 423 00:59:34,174 --> 00:59:36,208 So, then you make a bad decision. 424 00:59:37,844 --> 00:59:39,816 But even the word "bad." 425 00:59:42,188 --> 00:59:44,249 But even the word 426 00:59:45,618 --> 00:59:47,223 "bad." 427 00:59:47,325 --> 00:59:48,627 What is that word? 428 00:59:49,859 --> 00:59:51,828 Why do we say that word to ourselves? 429 00:59:57,836 --> 00:59:59,971 I would never say that to one of my patients. 430 01:00:00,073 --> 01:00:01,134 That's my... 431 01:00:04,203 --> 01:00:06,205 That's my narrative of myself, but... 432 01:00:08,741 --> 01:00:10,308 who's to say? 433 01:00:12,752 --> 01:00:16,919 Who's to say but me whether it's a bad decision? 434 01:00:17,419 --> 01:00:18,985 Yeah. 435 01:00:19,087 --> 01:00:21,418 But objectively, you do make bad decisions. 436 01:00:24,394 --> 01:00:26,027 Well, who knows? 437 01:00:26,628 --> 01:00:28,499 Well, you know. 438 01:00:28,601 --> 01:00:30,867 I mean, I know. We know when we know. 439 01:00:35,067 --> 01:00:37,104 But I'm saying maybe we don't. 440 01:00:41,378 --> 01:00:43,112 Yeah, yeah. 441 01:00:43,214 --> 01:00:44,177 Okay. 442 01:00:45,282 --> 01:00:46,311 Okay. 443 01:00:49,221 --> 01:00:50,447 Okay, but... 444 01:00:51,684 --> 01:00:52,856 also, 445 01:00:54,119 --> 01:00:55,991 and I mean this with love... 446 01:00:57,924 --> 01:00:59,896 don't kid yourself, Janet. 447 01:01:01,430 --> 01:01:02,426 I mean... 448 01:01:04,330 --> 01:01:06,667 - you know. 449 01:01:06,769 --> 01:01:13,811 ♪ The summer blooming flower 450 01:01:16,310 --> 01:01:21,082 ♪ Welcome the child whose hand I hold ♪ 451 01:01:24,622 --> 01:01:27,319 I think I might be dehydrated. 452 01:01:29,361 --> 01:01:30,795 You should sit down. 453 01:01:31,761 --> 01:01:33,259 Lacy, can you get some water? 454 01:01:41,604 --> 01:01:42,700 Yeah, I don't know. 455 01:01:42,802 --> 01:01:44,875 I think I was... 456 01:01:48,145 --> 01:01:52,509 I think I was onto something and you stepped on my toe. 457 01:01:54,452 --> 01:01:56,650 Stepped on your toe? 458 01:01:56,752 --> 01:01:58,449 Or however you say it. 459 01:01:59,391 --> 01:02:01,356 Interrupted me. 460 01:02:01,458 --> 01:02:02,453 No, no, no. 461 01:02:04,091 --> 01:02:05,463 Oh, I didn't mean to do that. I... 462 01:02:05,565 --> 01:02:08,361 Yeah, but that's what happened. 463 01:02:08,463 --> 01:02:14,470 I was onto something and I was being kind to myself for once, 464 01:02:14,572 --> 01:02:16,104 and you stepped on my toe. 465 01:02:18,143 --> 01:02:19,206 Huh. 466 01:02:20,113 --> 01:02:21,241 Okay. 467 01:02:25,383 --> 01:02:26,477 That's not... 468 01:02:27,848 --> 01:02:29,180 I actually felt 469 01:02:29,282 --> 01:02:32,382 filled with love for you in that moment. 470 01:02:32,484 --> 01:02:34,859 That's what filled with love looks like? 471 01:02:37,029 --> 01:02:39,763 That's what it's like when you're filled with love? 472 01:02:39,865 --> 01:02:42,933 I was, like, yes, you're onto something. 473 01:02:43,901 --> 01:02:45,667 You do make bad decisions sometimes, 474 01:02:45,769 --> 01:02:47,399 but you're facing up to it. 475 01:02:47,501 --> 01:02:50,534 But you don't know me. You haven't seen me for years. 476 01:02:52,674 --> 01:02:54,776 We're friends. 477 01:02:54,878 --> 01:02:57,107 You gave away all of your money. 478 01:02:57,209 --> 01:02:59,147 You can't pay a month's rent. 479 01:03:02,017 --> 01:03:04,383 I've worked really, really hard. 480 01:03:07,524 --> 01:03:09,124 I know you have. 481 01:03:09,957 --> 01:03:11,390 I've changed my life. 482 01:03:34,483 --> 01:03:35,546 Hi. 483 01:03:36,890 --> 01:03:38,615 Are you gonna be in there much longer? 484 01:03:39,755 --> 01:03:41,420 No, I'm getting off. 485 01:03:43,424 --> 01:03:45,391 You've been in there for 45 minutes. 486 01:03:51,832 --> 01:03:53,168 Also, Lacy? 487 01:03:55,308 --> 01:03:56,336 Yes? 488 01:03:57,743 --> 01:03:58,807 I don't wanna sound rude, 489 01:03:58,909 --> 01:04:00,505 but can you stop using my shampoo? 490 01:04:14,956 --> 01:04:16,521 I didn't use your shampoo. 491 01:04:18,164 --> 01:04:21,460 Also, why do you smear your hair all over the shower wall? 492 01:04:23,434 --> 01:04:24,628 I don't. 493 01:04:35,141 --> 01:04:37,311 I forgot to wash my hands! 494 01:04:37,946 --> 01:04:39,577 Use the kitchen sink. 495 01:05:05,406 --> 01:05:07,544 ♪ Well, this could be the best thing 496 01:05:07,646 --> 01:05:09,976 ♪ That you'll ever have 497 01:05:10,078 --> 01:05:13,916 ♪ Baby, don't treat me bad 498 01:05:14,018 --> 01:05:17,719 ♪ You can do anything, but, baby 499 01:05:17,821 --> 01:05:21,492 ♪ Don't treat me bad 500 01:05:21,594 --> 01:05:25,359 ♪ Oh, don't treat me bad 501 01:05:27,127 --> 01:05:28,995 ♪ I gave everything 502 01:05:29,097 --> 01:05:31,161 ♪ But you threw it all away 503 01:05:31,263 --> 01:05:33,034 ♪ I can't take anymore 504 01:05:33,136 --> 01:05:35,773 ♪ Of these games that you play 505 01:05:35,875 --> 01:05:38,037 ♪ Oh, I've been through heartache 506 01:05:38,140 --> 01:05:40,006 ♪ And I've been through pain 507 01:05:40,108 --> 01:05:41,778 ♪ And it's hard to believe 508 01:05:41,880 --> 01:05:44,307 ♪ You still treat me this way 509 01:05:44,409 --> 01:05:46,246 ♪ But I won't cry no more 510 01:05:46,348 --> 01:05:48,448 ♪ 'Cause the tears are all in vain ♪ 511 01:05:50,353 --> 01:05:54,190 ♪ I finally found the love of a lifetime 512 01:05:55,995 --> 01:06:02,528 ♪ A love to last my whole life through 513 01:06:03,728 --> 01:06:09,568 ♪ I finally found the love of a lifetime 514 01:06:11,303 --> 01:06:15,638 ♪ Forever in my heart 515 01:06:15,740 --> 01:06:20,645 ♪ I finally found the love of a lifetime ♪ 516 01:06:57,689 --> 01:06:58,787 Are you okay? 517 01:06:58,889 --> 01:07:00,152 What do you mean? 518 01:07:00,254 --> 01:07:02,093 You're covered in something. 519 01:07:03,024 --> 01:07:04,656 It's just ice cream. 520 01:07:07,428 --> 01:07:10,229 Lacy, this is Regina's friend, Avi. 521 01:07:10,331 --> 01:07:12,136 He just stopped by to say hello. 522 01:07:12,968 --> 01:07:14,369 Great to meet you. 523 01:07:15,675 --> 01:07:17,202 I saw you in the play. 524 01:07:17,304 --> 01:07:18,703 He directed it, too. 525 01:07:22,746 --> 01:07:24,082 Did you like it? 526 01:07:24,550 --> 01:07:25,644 She loved it. 527 01:07:30,384 --> 01:07:32,189 So, what do you do for fun, Lacy? 528 01:07:34,125 --> 01:07:36,556 I have a piano lesson in five minutes. 529 01:07:37,827 --> 01:07:39,196 Fantastic. 530 01:09:54,330 --> 01:09:56,960 I can tell you really practiced. 531 01:09:57,062 --> 01:09:59,633 I actually didn't practice very much this week at all. 532 01:11:17,779 --> 01:11:19,982 I don't know. He showed up and he was friendly, 533 01:11:20,084 --> 01:11:22,417 and he asked if he could 534 01:11:22,519 --> 01:11:25,081 tell me about what happened between them. 535 01:11:26,058 --> 01:11:27,787 What happened between them? 536 01:11:30,296 --> 01:11:32,528 We didn't end up talking that much about it. 537 01:11:38,666 --> 01:11:40,800 It really surprised me how nice he was. 538 01:11:44,473 --> 01:11:46,139 I thought he'd be a narcissistic, 539 01:11:46,241 --> 01:11:48,379 artist type of guy. 540 01:11:55,648 --> 01:11:57,718 He asked a lot of questions. 541 01:12:24,110 --> 01:12:27,484 Would you be disappointed if, one day, I dated a girl? 542 01:12:36,757 --> 01:12:39,892 No, I wouldn't be disappointed at all. 543 01:12:44,036 --> 01:12:46,096 I'd be very happy for you. 544 01:12:52,609 --> 01:12:54,404 I've always wondered if you might turn out 545 01:12:54,506 --> 01:12:55,974 to be a lesbian. 546 01:12:56,742 --> 01:12:59,014 I didn't say I was a lesbian. 547 01:12:59,116 --> 01:13:00,911 I know, I know. 548 01:13:01,014 --> 01:13:03,520 Don't get mad at me. I just said I wondered. 549 01:13:04,448 --> 01:13:05,654 Why? 550 01:13:09,557 --> 01:13:11,825 Because you have a kind of... 551 01:13:15,561 --> 01:13:17,127 a forthrightness. 552 01:13:22,902 --> 01:13:25,443 You have a kind of aggressive quality. 553 01:13:27,646 --> 01:13:30,377 It sounds like a criticism and I don't mean it as one. 554 01:13:30,479 --> 01:13:32,714 I've just always worried... 555 01:13:35,681 --> 01:13:37,213 I've just always wondered 556 01:13:38,686 --> 01:13:40,623 how that would work with a man. 557 01:13:44,792 --> 01:13:47,064 I've wondered if it might be easier 558 01:13:47,166 --> 01:13:48,796 for you to be with a woman. 559 01:14:00,605 --> 01:14:02,106 Men like you. 560 01:14:14,893 --> 01:14:15,955 What? 561 01:14:24,830 --> 01:14:26,735 I know I'm not that beautiful. 562 01:14:29,942 --> 01:14:31,069 But I've... 563 01:14:32,871 --> 01:14:35,106 always had this knowledge... 564 01:14:37,713 --> 01:14:39,712 and I don't even know if it's true, 565 01:14:39,814 --> 01:14:43,587 but I've always had this knowledge... 566 01:14:45,686 --> 01:14:49,791 deep inside of me that I could 567 01:14:49,893 --> 01:14:53,256 make any man fall in love with me if I really tried. 568 01:14:58,998 --> 01:15:01,770 And I think maybe it's ruined my life. 569 01:15:11,943 --> 01:15:15,047 I've never actually said that 570 01:15:16,384 --> 01:15:17,885 out loud before. 571 01:15:19,819 --> 01:15:22,318 I guess it sounds kinda silly. 572 01:15:30,497 --> 01:15:31,998 Can you stop? 573 01:15:33,104 --> 01:15:34,165 Stop what? 574 01:15:35,271 --> 01:15:36,871 Stop trying. 575 01:17:37,162 --> 01:17:38,756 Good news. 576 01:17:38,858 --> 01:17:41,224 You're in Mr. Mac's class. 577 01:17:41,326 --> 01:17:43,360 He's supposed to be the nice one, right? 578 01:17:50,307 --> 01:17:51,775 Phew. 579 01:17:52,704 --> 01:17:53,942 You glad? 580 01:18:30,147 --> 01:18:31,111 So, 581 01:18:31,746 --> 01:18:33,476 we're in agreement that 582 01:18:33,578 --> 01:18:37,621 before the universe existed, there was nothing, right? 583 01:18:37,723 --> 01:18:39,416 Are the two of you in agreement with me? 584 01:18:41,589 --> 01:18:42,958 Theoretically? 585 01:18:44,362 --> 01:18:45,928 There was nothing, 586 01:18:47,094 --> 01:18:49,195 and out of nothing came something. 587 01:18:50,430 --> 01:18:53,936 I mean, we're... we're talking about the Big Bang. 588 01:18:54,038 --> 01:18:57,302 There was nothing, and out of nothing came something. 589 01:18:58,474 --> 01:19:00,910 Right? Okay. 590 01:19:01,812 --> 01:19:03,676 So, out of nothing came something. 591 01:19:03,778 --> 01:19:05,979 There was just God or... 592 01:19:06,082 --> 01:19:09,446 or Brahmin or whatever you want to call him. 593 01:19:09,548 --> 01:19:12,850 There was God and the state of nothing ever happening 594 01:19:12,952 --> 01:19:14,251 for an infinity of time... 595 01:19:14,353 --> 01:19:17,894 well, of no time, 'cause time didn't exist. 596 01:19:20,432 --> 01:19:22,025 Imagine you're God, okay? 597 01:19:22,127 --> 01:19:24,063 And you are God, by the way. 598 01:19:24,166 --> 01:19:26,199 I know you don't think you are, but you are. 599 01:19:28,204 --> 01:19:31,303 And just imagine you've been doing nothing forever. 600 01:19:33,374 --> 01:19:37,340 And then imagine the thought crosses your mind that, 601 01:19:37,442 --> 01:19:39,476 "You know, maybe I should do something." 602 01:19:40,917 --> 01:19:43,451 And then another billion years go by. 603 01:19:43,553 --> 01:19:45,119 And then, "Hmm, 604 01:19:45,986 --> 01:19:48,417 "maybe I should do something. 605 01:19:48,519 --> 01:19:51,224 "Nah, I'm gonna go back to doing nothing." 606 01:19:52,230 --> 01:19:53,226 Pfft. 607 01:19:54,094 --> 01:19:56,026 Once you have that thought, God, 608 01:19:56,128 --> 01:19:58,198 once you have that thought, 609 01:19:59,703 --> 01:20:00,902 it's hard to let go of, right? 610 01:20:01,005 --> 01:20:03,434 It's hard to let go of that... that impulse. 611 01:20:06,138 --> 01:20:08,945 Maybe I will. Maybe I won't. 612 01:20:12,515 --> 01:20:13,609 But you do. 613 01:20:14,714 --> 01:20:15,886 Okay, so 614 01:20:16,950 --> 01:20:18,688 you create the universe. 615 01:20:18,790 --> 01:20:22,388 Bang. Everything changes in an instant. 616 01:20:22,490 --> 01:20:25,291 And millions of years later, you get human consciousness. 617 01:20:29,328 --> 01:20:31,561 Now, are you both still with me so far? 618 01:20:36,704 --> 01:20:38,007 All right. 619 01:20:40,272 --> 01:20:42,578 Every Buddhist scripture says... 620 01:20:42,680 --> 01:20:44,410 And I know that you know this. 621 01:20:44,512 --> 01:20:48,149 Every Buddhist scripture says there's only one I, right? 622 01:20:49,347 --> 01:20:51,152 That's the first thing we learn. 623 01:20:52,458 --> 01:20:54,053 I may look like a man, 624 01:20:54,155 --> 01:20:56,124 and you may look like a woman, but... 625 01:20:58,793 --> 01:21:00,227 we're all the same. 626 01:21:01,091 --> 01:21:02,394 We're all one. 627 01:21:03,964 --> 01:21:06,330 So, if there's only one I, 628 01:21:06,433 --> 01:21:08,766 which we acknowledge to be a spiritual truth, 629 01:21:08,868 --> 01:21:10,270 then you... 630 01:21:11,268 --> 01:21:14,010 you created the universe. 631 01:21:15,679 --> 01:21:17,376 You made that decision. 632 01:21:30,391 --> 01:21:32,457 He said I can come up with it myself. 633 01:21:33,592 --> 01:21:36,494 I had a good one last night, but now I forget it. 634 01:21:41,136 --> 01:21:43,369 It has to do with truth before ego. 635 01:21:45,107 --> 01:21:48,011 Truth before the desire to be liked, 636 01:21:49,241 --> 01:21:51,311 which is a very female thing. 637 01:21:52,615 --> 01:21:53,984 What is? 638 01:21:55,247 --> 01:21:57,152 The desire to be liked. 639 01:22:02,927 --> 01:22:05,525 My own liberation depends on my ability 640 01:22:06,328 --> 01:22:09,296 to put truth before the desire to be liked. 641 01:22:12,398 --> 01:22:15,102 My own liberation depends on my ability 642 01:22:15,205 --> 01:22:18,437 to put truth before the desire to be loved. 643 01:22:22,144 --> 01:22:24,041 My own liberation depends on my ability 644 01:22:24,143 --> 01:22:27,512 to put truth before ego. 645 01:22:30,087 --> 01:22:34,923 My own liberation depends on my willingness 646 01:22:35,025 --> 01:22:39,557 to put truth before my own self-image. 647 01:22:41,626 --> 01:22:46,066 My own liberation depends on my willingness 648 01:22:46,168 --> 01:22:50,568 to see truth beyond my own self-image. 649 01:22:53,374 --> 01:22:56,472 My own liberation depends on my willingness 650 01:22:56,574 --> 01:23:00,578 to see truth beyond my own self-image. 651 01:23:01,982 --> 01:23:03,482 Something like that. 652 01:23:09,058 --> 01:23:11,094 And then you can do prostrations. 653 01:23:13,492 --> 01:23:16,462 My own willingness... 654 01:23:18,333 --> 01:23:22,369 My own liberation depends on my willingness 655 01:23:22,903 --> 01:23:24,371 to see truth 656 01:23:25,776 --> 01:23:28,375 beyond my own self-image. 657 01:23:32,215 --> 01:23:36,281 My own liberation depends on my willingness 658 01:23:36,383 --> 01:23:40,189 to see truth beyond my own self-image. 659 01:23:45,624 --> 01:23:49,525 My own liberation depends on my willingness 660 01:23:49,627 --> 01:23:53,598 to see truth beyond my own self-image. 661 01:24:09,549 --> 01:24:11,517 It's really starting to smell like fall. 662 01:24:16,360 --> 01:24:18,623 I think it's my favorite smell in the whole world. 663 01:26:02,861 --> 01:26:06,302 She says she can't think because of the headache. 664 01:26:07,035 --> 01:26:08,866 And my face is numb. 665 01:26:09,335 --> 01:26:11,373 And her face is numb. 666 01:26:16,478 --> 01:26:18,476 It was her first day of sixth grade today, 667 01:26:18,578 --> 01:26:20,547 and I think she was really nervous. 668 01:26:21,918 --> 01:26:23,316 I'm gonna throw up. 669 01:26:23,418 --> 01:26:25,349 The headache's gonna make me throw up. 670 01:26:25,451 --> 01:26:26,949 You wanna use the bathroom? 671 01:26:31,024 --> 01:26:32,394 Mm-hmm. 672 01:26:43,768 --> 01:26:46,108 He said you can go on antibiotics, 673 01:26:46,210 --> 01:26:48,003 in case it's some kind of infection. 674 01:26:53,184 --> 01:26:54,911 But, you know, I hate antibiotics. 675 01:26:59,858 --> 01:27:01,354 What do you want to do? 676 01:27:01,456 --> 01:27:03,656 I don't want to go on antibiotics. 677 01:27:09,761 --> 01:27:12,497 You scared about middle school? 678 01:27:12,599 --> 01:27:14,601 Yes, but that's not why I'm sick. 679 01:27:21,308 --> 01:27:23,280 ♪ Na, na, na, na, na 680 01:27:24,311 --> 01:27:25,408 ♪ All right, all right 681 01:27:25,510 --> 01:27:27,845 ♪ Na, na, na, na, na 682 01:27:29,316 --> 01:27:31,387 ♪ Na, na, na, na, na 683 01:27:32,416 --> 01:27:33,790 ♪ Hey, cool 684 01:27:33,892 --> 01:27:36,018 ♪ Na, na, na, na, na 685 01:27:37,896 --> 01:27:39,758 ♪ Na, na, na, na, na 686 01:27:40,899 --> 01:27:42,161 ♪ All right, all right 687 01:27:42,263 --> 01:27:44,532 ♪ Na, na, na, na, na 688 01:27:46,069 --> 01:27:47,997 ♪ Na, na, na, na, na 689 01:27:48,971 --> 01:27:50,301 ♪ Hey, cool 690 01:27:50,403 --> 01:27:52,804 ♪ Na, na, na, na, na ♪ 691 01:29:31,608 --> 01:29:34,444 Sweetie, I'm gonna have to ask you to go inside, 692 01:29:34,546 --> 01:29:37,040 otherwise my clients will see you and get worried. 693 01:30:47,514 --> 01:30:49,046 Are you still throwing up? 694 01:30:55,886 --> 01:30:57,791 I picked up the antibiotics. 695 01:30:59,056 --> 01:31:00,761 I think maybe you should take them. 696 01:31:02,327 --> 01:31:03,595 Why? 697 01:31:03,697 --> 01:31:05,694 In case you have a bacterial thing. 698 01:31:05,796 --> 01:31:07,999 But we hate antibiotics. 699 01:31:11,007 --> 01:31:12,003 Well, 700 01:31:12,670 --> 01:31:14,236 it's your decision. 701 01:31:16,480 --> 01:31:18,515 I'm leaving the bag on the counter. 702 01:31:32,562 --> 01:31:34,029 How would you feel about me meeting up 703 01:31:34,131 --> 01:31:35,697 with Avi for a walk? 704 01:31:41,103 --> 01:31:42,099 When? 705 01:31:44,276 --> 01:31:45,971 He wants to have a picnic dinner. 706 01:31:46,705 --> 01:31:48,677 You're invited, of course. 707 01:31:53,110 --> 01:31:55,343 If you're not feeling well enough, 708 01:31:55,445 --> 01:31:58,918 I'll leave out some of those frozen blintzes you love. 709 01:32:01,818 --> 01:32:03,488 Without the fruit. 710 01:32:03,590 --> 01:32:05,320 Yeah, without the fruit. 711 01:32:54,073 --> 01:32:55,304 I thought that part would get easier 712 01:32:55,406 --> 01:32:58,780 as I got older, but it's pretty much stayed the same. 713 01:33:04,651 --> 01:33:06,788 The guilt, but also... 714 01:33:13,730 --> 01:33:16,127 sometimes I feel like she's watching me. 715 01:33:19,634 --> 01:33:21,231 When you're not with her? 716 01:33:22,337 --> 01:33:23,706 Yeah. 717 01:34:58,933 --> 01:35:01,837 "And you, my parents, am I not right? 718 01:35:03,274 --> 01:35:04,706 "You who loved me 719 01:35:04,809 --> 01:35:08,236 "for that small beginning of my love for you, 720 01:35:08,338 --> 01:35:10,978 "from which I always shyly turned away, 721 01:35:12,378 --> 01:35:16,751 "because the distance in your features grew, changed, 722 01:35:16,853 --> 01:35:19,789 "even while I loved it, into cosmic space 723 01:35:21,150 --> 01:35:23,221 "where you no longer were. 724 01:35:24,721 --> 01:35:28,359 "And when I feel inclined to wait before the puppet stage, 725 01:35:28,461 --> 01:35:32,865 "no, rather to stare at it so intensely that in the end, 726 01:35:32,967 --> 01:35:35,230 "to counter-balance my searching gaze, 727 01:35:35,332 --> 01:35:39,072 "an angel has to come as an actor 728 01:35:40,174 --> 01:35:42,675 "and begin manipulating the lifeless bodies 729 01:35:42,777 --> 01:35:44,847 "of the puppets to perform. 730 01:35:46,647 --> 01:35:48,951 "Angel and puppet! 731 01:35:49,521 --> 01:35:51,854 "Now at last there is a play. 732 01:35:53,825 --> 01:35:56,991 "Then what we separate can come together 733 01:35:57,692 --> 01:36:00,391 "by our very presence. 734 01:36:00,493 --> 01:36:03,896 "And only then the entire cycle of our own life-seasons 735 01:36:03,998 --> 01:36:07,067 "is revealed and set in motion." 736 01:36:15,713 --> 01:36:18,111 It's... It's part of a much longer poem. 737 01:36:22,717 --> 01:36:24,282 Will you read it again? 738 01:36:27,021 --> 01:36:29,518 I spaced out for a second in the middle. 739 01:36:36,599 --> 01:36:38,296 I really like you, Janet. 740 01:36:41,471 --> 01:36:43,334 I really like you. 741 01:36:49,973 --> 01:36:51,507 Read it again. 742 01:36:59,757 --> 01:37:03,926 "And you, my parents, am I not right? 743 01:37:04,956 --> 01:37:06,487 "You who loved me 744 01:37:06,590 --> 01:37:10,127 "for that small beginning of my love for you, 745 01:37:10,229 --> 01:37:12,561 "from which I always shyly turned away, 746 01:37:14,137 --> 01:37:18,972 "because the distance in your features grew, changed, 747 01:37:19,074 --> 01:37:22,043 "even while I loved it, into cosmic space 748 01:37:23,877 --> 01:37:25,574 "where you no longer were. 749 01:37:27,580 --> 01:37:31,482 "And when I feel inclined to wait before the puppet stage, 750 01:37:31,584 --> 01:37:38,255 "no, rather to stare at it so intensely that in the end, 751 01:37:38,357 --> 01:37:40,421 "to counter-balance my searching gaze, 752 01:37:40,523 --> 01:37:44,700 "an angel has to come as an actor 753 01:37:44,802 --> 01:37:47,662 "and begin manipulating the lifeless..." 754 01:43:23,401 --> 01:43:25,004 I'm so glad you came. 755 01:43:25,106 --> 01:43:26,803 I'm a terrible dancer. 756 01:43:28,838 --> 01:43:31,376 It's not really about being good or bad. 757 01:43:31,478 --> 01:43:33,513 It's just a great way to meet people. 758 01:43:37,781 --> 01:43:39,816 Are you gonna contra dance, Lacy? 759 01:43:41,290 --> 01:43:42,783 Lacy has made it very clear to me 760 01:43:42,885 --> 01:43:45,090 that she is not going to contra dance. 761 01:43:52,366 --> 01:43:53,328 Circle to the left, 762 01:43:53,430 --> 01:43:54,996 two circle lefts. 763 01:43:56,638 --> 01:43:59,374 And back to the right, circle right, right, rights. 764 01:44:00,538 --> 01:44:01,903 Now the ones with the twos. 765 01:44:02,005 --> 01:44:04,212 It's lady 'round lady and the gent around gent 766 01:44:04,314 --> 01:44:06,909 and swing in the middle of the sentence. 767 01:44:09,482 --> 01:44:11,716 Now, men center, go four by four. 768 01:44:14,417 --> 01:44:16,089 Back on up. 769 01:44:16,192 --> 01:44:17,753 Ones arch, twos dive through. 770 01:44:17,855 --> 01:44:20,329 On to the next for the figure eight. 771 01:44:25,297 --> 01:44:26,632 Box the gnat. 772 01:44:30,567 --> 01:44:31,835 Circle to the left. 773 01:44:33,939 --> 01:44:36,708 Now back to the right, circle right, right, rights. 774 01:44:42,016 --> 01:44:43,682 New ladies! 775 01:44:48,090 --> 01:44:49,523 There's your partner. 776 01:44:53,664 --> 01:44:54,627 Hi. 777 01:44:56,358 --> 01:44:57,658 Hi. 778 01:44:57,761 --> 01:44:59,863 Gentlemen, left hands. 779 01:45:01,037 --> 01:45:02,866 Long line to the middle. 780 01:45:07,175 --> 01:45:08,707 Go once and a half. 781 01:45:12,080 --> 01:45:13,811 Now box the gnat. 782 01:45:18,849 --> 01:45:21,082 Find your partner. Balance here. 783 01:45:30,129 --> 01:45:31,697 You okay? 784 01:45:33,330 --> 01:45:34,799 Yeah. 785 01:45:36,468 --> 01:45:38,000 I'm here with my mom. 786 01:46:02,494 --> 01:46:03,927 You wanna dance? 787 01:46:28,220 --> 01:46:29,689 You sure? 788 01:48:19,734 --> 01:48:25,604 ♪ Round and round the earth is turning 789 01:48:25,706 --> 01:48:31,610 ♪ Turning always 'round to morning 790 01:48:31,712 --> 01:48:37,749 ♪ And from morning 'round to night 791 01:48:37,851 --> 01:48:43,787 ♪ Round and round the earth is turning 792 01:48:43,889 --> 01:48:49,793 ♪ Turning always 'round to morning 793 01:48:49,895 --> 01:48:55,866 ♪ And from morning 'round to night 794 01:48:55,968 --> 01:49:02,410 ♪ Round and round the earth is turning 795 01:49:02,512 --> 01:49:08,416 ♪ Turning always 'round to morning 796 01:49:08,518 --> 01:49:14,522 ♪ And from morning 'round to night 797 01:49:14,624 --> 01:49:20,791 ♪ Round and round the earth is turning 798 01:49:20,893 --> 01:49:26,995 ♪ Turning always 'round to morning 799 01:49:27,097 --> 01:49:33,574 ♪ And from morning 'round to night 800 01:49:33,676 --> 01:49:39,678 ♪ Round and round the earth is turning 801 01:49:39,780 --> 01:49:45,948 ♪ Turning always 'round to morning 802 01:49:46,050 --> 01:49:52,494 ♪ And from morning 'round to night 803 01:49:52,596 --> 01:49:58,697 ♪ Round and round the earth is turning 804 01:49:58,799 --> 01:50:05,000 ♪ Turning always 'round to morning 805 01:50:05,102 --> 01:50:11,512 ♪ And from morning 'round to night 806 01:50:11,614 --> 01:50:17,881 ♪ Turning always 'round to morning 807 01:50:17,983 --> 01:50:25,188 ♪ And from morning 'round to night ♪