1 00:00:19,896 --> 00:00:24,526 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:24,526 --> 00:00:29,281 [Errol Morris] Usually, I have absolutely no idea of where to begin, 3 00:00:29,281 --> 00:00:31,908 but you gave me an idea of where to begin. 4 00:00:33,660 --> 00:00:34,869 And what was that? 5 00:00:36,580 --> 00:00:41,293 [Errol] You asked me about the nature of our relationship. 6 00:00:41,293 --> 00:00:43,879 It went further than that, I think. It said, "Who are you?" 7 00:00:43,879 --> 00:00:46,673 Because, I've looked at much of your work. 8 00:00:46,673 --> 00:00:51,678 Sometimes, you're a spectral figure, sometimes you're God. 9 00:00:51,678 --> 00:00:53,805 And sometimes you're present. 10 00:00:58,143 --> 00:01:03,189 I needed to know who I was talking to. Were you my friend across the fire? 11 00:01:03,189 --> 00:01:06,109 Were you a stranger on a bus? 12 00:01:06,860 --> 00:01:08,236 Who are you? 13 00:01:09,487 --> 00:01:11,656 This is a performance art. 14 00:01:11,656 --> 00:01:18,121 You need to know whether you're performing to a trade union, an elite audience. 15 00:01:20,123 --> 00:01:24,920 You need to know something about the ambitions of the people you're talking to. 16 00:01:25,879 --> 00:01:28,215 [Errol] And if I can't answer that question? 17 00:01:28,215 --> 00:01:30,884 Not that I won't, but maybe I can't. 18 00:01:31,927 --> 00:01:35,805 Then we'll struggle on and find out who you are. 19 00:01:35,805 --> 00:01:37,015 [chuckles] 20 00:01:37,015 --> 00:01:39,726 [wings flapping] 21 00:01:52,322 --> 00:01:54,699 [David] When I was first in Army Intelligence, 22 00:01:54,699 --> 00:01:58,995 I'd conducted a lot of interviews, which were also interrogations. 23 00:01:58,995 --> 00:02:04,459 Immediately, in the relationship, there is a dependence upon me, the interrogator. 24 00:02:05,877 --> 00:02:09,588 "Is your mother okay? Do you want me to make a call to your home?" 25 00:02:09,588 --> 00:02:14,928 It's the bonding, real or artificial, that opens the discussion. 26 00:02:16,096 --> 00:02:19,849 First of all, a statement that I'm the only person you've got. 27 00:02:20,976 --> 00:02:23,311 [Errol] Establishing a dependence? 28 00:02:24,187 --> 00:02:27,691 Establishing their dependence on the interrogator, yes. 29 00:02:29,192 --> 00:02:33,196 When you want something to be expressed that may not be true, 30 00:02:33,196 --> 00:02:36,950 and you know it's not true, that's a beginning. 31 00:02:40,036 --> 00:02:44,207 {\an8}[David] "There's scarcely a book of mine that didn't have The Pigeon Tunnel 32 00:02:44,207 --> 00:02:47,836 at some time or another as its working title." 33 00:02:50,881 --> 00:02:52,173 [muffled thud] 34 00:02:52,173 --> 00:02:54,926 [David] "Its origin is easily explained. 35 00:02:55,594 --> 00:02:58,972 I was in my mid-teens when my father decided to take me 36 00:02:58,972 --> 00:03:02,642 on one of his gambling sprees to Monte Carlo. 37 00:03:05,562 --> 00:03:09,024 Close by the old casino stood the sporting club." 38 00:03:09,024 --> 00:03:11,234 [wings flapping] 39 00:03:11,234 --> 00:03:14,029 [David] "At its base lay a stretch of lawn 40 00:03:14,029 --> 00:03:16,364 and a shooting range looking out to sea." 41 00:03:16,364 --> 00:03:17,657 [gunshot] 42 00:03:23,622 --> 00:03:24,623 [gunshot] 43 00:03:24,915 --> 00:03:26,458 [gunshot] 44 00:03:28,960 --> 00:03:32,881 {\an8}[David] "Under the lawn, ran small, parallel tunnels 45 00:03:32,881 --> 00:03:35,550 {\an8}that emerged in a row at the sea's edge. 46 00:03:40,222 --> 00:03:44,226 - Into them were inserted live pigeons..." - [pigeon coos] 47 00:03:44,226 --> 00:03:47,812 "...that had been hatched and trapped on the casino roof. 48 00:03:52,651 --> 00:03:56,696 Their job was to flutter their way along the pitch-dark tunnel 49 00:03:56,696 --> 00:03:59,699 until they emerged in the Mediterranean sky 50 00:03:59,699 --> 00:04:03,745 as targets for the well-lunched sporting gentlemen..." 51 00:04:03,745 --> 00:04:05,038 [Russian soldiers] "Halt! Halt!" 52 00:04:05,038 --> 00:04:08,291 "...who were standing in wait with their shotguns." 53 00:04:12,879 --> 00:04:13,880 [gunshot] 54 00:04:17,050 --> 00:04:18,093 [gunshot] 55 00:04:18,093 --> 00:04:21,137 "Pigeons who were missed or merely winged 56 00:04:21,137 --> 00:04:24,975 returned to the place of their birth on the casino roof, 57 00:04:24,975 --> 00:04:27,811 where the same traps awaited them. 58 00:04:31,106 --> 00:04:34,484 Quite why this image has haunted me for so long 59 00:04:35,652 --> 00:04:37,571 is something the listener..." 60 00:04:37,571 --> 00:04:38,530 [gunshot] 61 00:04:38,530 --> 00:04:41,741 "...is perhaps better able to judge than I am." 62 00:04:42,576 --> 00:04:43,785 [gunshot] 63 00:04:53,003 --> 00:04:57,382 [Errol] The name David Cornwell is probably unfamiliar to most of you. 64 00:04:57,382 --> 00:05:01,219 He's an expert on secrets, a former spy himself, 65 00:05:01,219 --> 00:05:04,931 and the author of two dozen books, virtually all of them best sellers, 66 00:05:04,931 --> 00:05:07,851 {\an8}written under the pen name of John le Carré. 67 00:05:09,436 --> 00:05:13,231 {\an8}[Errol] Cornwell has been living this double life for more than 50 years now 68 00:05:13,231 --> 00:05:14,649 {\an8}and rarely gives interviews. 69 00:05:17,027 --> 00:05:19,487 - [intriguing music] - [David] Betrayal fascinates me. 70 00:05:20,071 --> 00:05:23,867 I've lived through a period of endless betrayal. 71 00:05:26,286 --> 00:05:29,956 When I went into the secret world, I served in two successive services, 72 00:05:29,956 --> 00:05:32,459 both of which were betrayed to the hilt. 73 00:05:33,376 --> 00:05:35,837 I felt betrayed as a child, if you like. 74 00:05:37,505 --> 00:05:39,925 I felt that I had betrayed people myself. 75 00:05:48,266 --> 00:05:50,018 Like many artistic people, 76 00:05:51,394 --> 00:05:57,734 I have lived from early childhood inside an imaginative bubble. 77 00:06:00,278 --> 00:06:03,198 When I was in the secret world, it wasn't enough for me. 78 00:06:03,198 --> 00:06:07,369 I did very little of it. I was very junior, I wasn't told much. 79 00:06:07,369 --> 00:06:11,581 So, what I did was reinvent the secret world and fill my own people with it. 80 00:06:13,959 --> 00:06:19,965 [Errol] In many of the stories, there are dupes and string pullers. 81 00:06:22,259 --> 00:06:26,179 Those in control and those controlled by others. 82 00:06:28,848 --> 00:06:29,849 [camera shutter clicks] 83 00:06:29,849 --> 00:06:32,018 [David] Well, now we're talking about my childhood. 84 00:06:32,018 --> 00:06:34,229 [projector slide changes] 85 00:06:38,858 --> 00:06:41,570 My father was a confidence trickster. 86 00:06:41,570 --> 00:06:45,073 Life was a stage. 87 00:06:47,242 --> 00:06:49,202 Where pretense was everything. 88 00:06:50,537 --> 00:06:53,582 Being off stage was boring. 89 00:06:53,582 --> 00:06:56,084 And risk was attractive. 90 00:06:56,084 --> 00:07:00,422 But above all, what was attractive was the imprint of personality. 91 00:07:02,716 --> 00:07:04,843 Of truth, we didn't speak. 92 00:07:04,843 --> 00:07:06,803 Of conviction, we didn't speak. 93 00:07:06,803 --> 00:07:09,472 [Errol] So, you felt like a dupe? 94 00:07:10,807 --> 00:07:13,727 No, I joined. I joined. 95 00:07:16,104 --> 00:07:20,567 You polish your act, learn to tell funny stories. Show off. 96 00:07:22,152 --> 00:07:25,322 You discover early that there is no center to a human being. 97 00:07:27,949 --> 00:07:31,578 I wasn't a dupe. I was invited to dupe other people. 98 00:07:32,704 --> 00:07:36,833 If we moved from one place to another, didn't pay the bills. 99 00:07:36,833 --> 00:07:39,211 If we had to put the lights out on the house 100 00:07:39,211 --> 00:07:43,548 because somebody was after my father, Ronnie, 101 00:07:43,548 --> 00:07:47,636 that seemed at the time, the way people lived. 102 00:07:47,636 --> 00:07:50,013 Now, these are not hard luck stories. 103 00:07:50,764 --> 00:07:53,892 Graham Greene said, and I quote him often, 104 00:07:53,892 --> 00:07:57,312 "Childhood is the credit balance of the writer." 105 00:07:57,312 --> 00:08:01,024 It's not a lament, it's just a self-examination. 106 00:08:04,569 --> 00:08:07,530 [intriguing music] 107 00:08:08,782 --> 00:08:11,534 [David] "I have seen the house where I was born, 108 00:08:11,534 --> 00:08:14,788 but the house of my birth that I prefer 109 00:08:14,788 --> 00:08:18,625 is a different one built in my imagination. 110 00:08:21,002 --> 00:08:24,756 It's red brick and clattery and due for demolition, 111 00:08:24,756 --> 00:08:30,303 with broken windows, a 'For Sale' sign and an old bath in the garden. 112 00:08:30,303 --> 00:08:33,765 A place for kids to hide in rather than be born. 113 00:08:35,433 --> 00:08:39,688 But born there I was, or so my imagination insists." 114 00:08:40,438 --> 00:08:42,606 - [woman cries and pants] -"I was born in the attic 115 00:08:42,606 --> 00:08:44,609 among a stack of brown boxes 116 00:08:44,609 --> 00:08:48,363 that my father always carted round with him when he was on the run." 117 00:08:49,614 --> 00:08:52,742 [birds tweet] 118 00:08:52,742 --> 00:08:57,205 "My mother lies on a camp bed, pitifully doing her best, 119 00:08:57,205 --> 00:08:59,374 whatever her best may entail." 120 00:09:01,001 --> 00:09:02,377 [David's mother pants] 121 00:09:04,546 --> 00:09:08,258 [David's mother wails] 122 00:09:13,346 --> 00:09:15,640 -"So, I am born..." - [baby cries] 123 00:09:15,640 --> 00:09:18,852 "...and packed up with my mother's few possessions, 124 00:09:18,852 --> 00:09:22,105 for we have recently suffered another bailiffs' visitation 125 00:09:22,105 --> 00:09:23,857 and are travelling light." 126 00:09:25,025 --> 00:09:27,193 [baby gurgles] 127 00:09:29,195 --> 00:09:31,448 "The lid of the boot is locked from the outside." 128 00:09:31,448 --> 00:09:33,116 [engine starts] 129 00:09:34,409 --> 00:09:39,748 "I'm already on the run. I've been on the run ever since." 130 00:09:46,296 --> 00:09:50,592 [distorted flapping wings] 131 00:09:50,592 --> 00:09:53,637 [pigeons coo] 132 00:10:00,185 --> 00:10:02,687 [David] My mother disappeared when I was five. 133 00:10:04,231 --> 00:10:06,441 I had no relationship with her at all. 134 00:10:07,943 --> 00:10:11,488 There were many substitute mothers who passed through my father's hands. 135 00:10:11,488 --> 00:10:15,659 {\an8}One particular stepmother, who in her own way was heroic, 136 00:10:15,659 --> 00:10:17,535 {\an8}steadied the ship for a while. 137 00:10:18,161 --> 00:10:20,163 [dramatic music] 138 00:10:24,918 --> 00:10:27,337 {\an8}[David] My mother was a mystery. 139 00:10:27,337 --> 00:10:31,049 {\an8}Because it was never properly revealed what had happened to her. 140 00:10:31,049 --> 00:10:33,093 Was she dead, was she alive? 141 00:10:38,682 --> 00:10:41,059 Ronnie didn't like hard truths. 142 00:10:46,898 --> 00:10:49,192 I met her again at 21. 143 00:10:51,778 --> 00:10:54,739 I wrote to her brother, he wrote back, saying, 144 00:10:54,739 --> 00:10:58,535 "Here's her address. Never tell her that I told you." 145 00:10:59,202 --> 00:11:01,621 So, I wrote to my mother, said, "Your brother tells me..." 146 00:11:01,621 --> 00:11:04,457 So, I felt completely unbound by this injunction. 147 00:11:09,045 --> 00:11:13,925 [Errol] Did you imagine her having regrets about leaving you and your brother? 148 00:11:15,135 --> 00:11:19,431 [David] Well, when I met her, [laughs] I asked how she felt about it. 149 00:11:20,307 --> 00:11:23,935 And she replied, and it was always her reply, 150 00:11:24,895 --> 00:11:27,689 that my father had been intolerable to live with, 151 00:11:27,689 --> 00:11:31,526 that she got sick of the trail of mistresses he was bringing to the house. 152 00:11:31,526 --> 00:11:34,571 That there was never any money passing through. 153 00:11:34,571 --> 00:11:37,991 And she didn't like all these crooks coming through his life. 154 00:11:37,991 --> 00:11:42,412 She said, if, if she had attempted any other measure, 155 00:11:42,412 --> 00:11:45,749 he knew so many wonderful lawyers, which indeed he did, 156 00:11:45,749 --> 00:11:49,336 that she would never have had a chance in the marital court. 157 00:11:49,336 --> 00:11:53,215 So, she gave up all that stuff and thought she'd just push off. 158 00:11:53,215 --> 00:11:55,842 [pigeons coo] 159 00:11:59,930 --> 00:12:02,515 [Errol] Do you remember the day she left? 160 00:12:02,515 --> 00:12:03,683 [David] No. 161 00:12:06,144 --> 00:12:10,398 If you are going to leave your children, that night, 162 00:12:11,733 --> 00:12:13,526 with your white suitcase packed, 163 00:12:15,528 --> 00:12:17,113 do you kiss them goodbye? 164 00:12:17,113 --> 00:12:18,281 [door creaks] 165 00:12:20,742 --> 00:12:24,496 Did she come into the room where we slept? Take a last look at us? 166 00:12:25,372 --> 00:12:26,623 [she sighs gently] 167 00:12:31,962 --> 00:12:35,966 [David] So, I imagine it. I imagine that she did. 168 00:12:40,178 --> 00:12:41,263 [she exhales] 169 00:12:46,601 --> 00:12:47,686 [door closes firmly] 170 00:12:48,979 --> 00:12:51,189 [footsteps echo] 171 00:12:56,319 --> 00:12:59,573 [Errol] You came into possession of this suitcase. 172 00:12:59,573 --> 00:13:01,074 [David] When she died, 173 00:13:01,908 --> 00:13:05,662 I spotted this beautiful white hide suitcase from Harrods 174 00:13:05,662 --> 00:13:07,998 lined with silk inside. 175 00:13:07,998 --> 00:13:12,794 {\an8}With her initials on the outside, "O.M.C.," Olive Moore Cornwell. 176 00:13:14,212 --> 00:13:20,176 {\an8}That must have been the suitcase into which she packed her clothes. 177 00:13:21,636 --> 00:13:25,265 I imagined the amazing flimsies that it would have contained. 178 00:13:27,183 --> 00:13:29,060 {\an8}And the most exquisite clothes. 179 00:13:34,691 --> 00:13:37,777 {\an8}She took it into a kind of poverty. 180 00:13:37,777 --> 00:13:40,155 She ran away with a chap who had no money. 181 00:13:40,155 --> 00:13:42,157 I imagined the suitcase being unpacked 182 00:13:42,157 --> 00:13:45,243 and the last of the luxury gradually fading away. 183 00:13:46,453 --> 00:13:48,830 I kept the suitcase. It's the only relic I have of her. 184 00:13:48,830 --> 00:13:51,791 Physical evidence that that thing happened. 185 00:13:53,209 --> 00:13:57,589 [Errol] What did the suitcase mean to you? Why keep it? 186 00:13:58,381 --> 00:14:01,968 I accused it in my mind of being, as it were, a conspirator 187 00:14:01,968 --> 00:14:05,055 in her secret departure from the house one night. 188 00:14:05,055 --> 00:14:07,515 [vehicle passes faintly] 189 00:14:07,515 --> 00:14:09,100 To me, it's historic. 190 00:14:13,396 --> 00:14:17,150 She was impenetrable emotionally. 191 00:14:17,150 --> 00:14:21,738 I never heard her express a serious feeling. 192 00:14:21,738 --> 00:14:26,993 But when she went to nursing home for her last year or so, 193 00:14:27,827 --> 00:14:31,456 then she created a fantasy with the nurses. 194 00:14:31,456 --> 00:14:37,629 She had painted to the nurses a picture of maternal loyalty to us. 195 00:14:37,629 --> 00:14:41,383 The long lives we had shared, all the fun we'd had. 196 00:14:41,383 --> 00:14:44,511 So, she'd filled in the gap years, if you like. 197 00:14:44,511 --> 00:14:47,305 And when I attended her dying, 198 00:14:49,391 --> 00:14:52,852 the irony of the moment was she mistook me for my father. 199 00:14:56,606 --> 00:14:59,568 [foreboding music] 200 00:14:59,568 --> 00:15:04,030 [David] She said, "You never brought me orchids." 201 00:15:05,907 --> 00:15:09,619 I think it was a reference to some other amour he had. 202 00:15:10,412 --> 00:15:11,746 I will never know. 203 00:15:13,081 --> 00:15:14,666 And I said, "What color do you like?" 204 00:15:14,666 --> 00:15:17,794 She said, "I don't care. I've never seen them. Bring me an orchid." 205 00:15:17,794 --> 00:15:20,130 [mysterious music] 206 00:15:25,385 --> 00:15:29,639 {\an8}[David] People loved Ronnie to the end of his days, even people he'd robbed. 207 00:15:33,977 --> 00:15:37,188 {\an8}[David] When he was on stage beguiling people, 208 00:15:37,188 --> 00:15:40,775 he absolutely believed in what he was doing and saying. 209 00:15:42,360 --> 00:15:47,198 {\an8}These spasms of immense charm 210 00:15:47,198 --> 00:15:53,622 and persuasiveness were his moments of feeling real. 211 00:15:53,622 --> 00:15:58,793 "Son? When I'm judged, as judged I shall surely be, 212 00:15:59,794 --> 00:16:04,758 I shall be judged on how I treated you and your brother Tony. 213 00:16:04,758 --> 00:16:06,218 That will be God's will." 214 00:16:06,218 --> 00:16:10,931 God was a big pal of his. [laughs] 215 00:16:10,931 --> 00:16:15,936 Whether he believed in God is mysterious, but he was certain God believed in him. 216 00:16:15,936 --> 00:16:18,313 [pigeons coo] 217 00:16:19,648 --> 00:16:24,361 These extraordinary, ingenious, confidence tricks 218 00:16:24,361 --> 00:16:27,530 were part of a conversation he was having with God. 219 00:16:29,866 --> 00:16:34,704 "If I do this, can I get away with it? If I do that, can I get away with it?" 220 00:16:34,704 --> 00:16:36,790 [Errol] Bargaining with God. 221 00:16:36,790 --> 00:16:40,961 Yeah, I think more betting with God. [laughs] 222 00:16:40,961 --> 00:16:44,047 "If I put this much on the table, how about that?" 223 00:16:47,342 --> 00:16:51,721 Ronnie always, whether he had to steal or borrow or bribe the headmaster, 224 00:16:51,721 --> 00:16:54,432 wanted me to have the posh education. 225 00:16:55,850 --> 00:17:00,438 I learned the manners and the attitudes of a class to which I did not belong. 226 00:17:04,901 --> 00:17:08,697 I studied and I frequently felt slighted. 227 00:17:14,160 --> 00:17:18,582 There were times when I hated the class to which I had been assigned. 228 00:17:18,582 --> 00:17:20,292 I was on enemy territory. 229 00:17:20,292 --> 00:17:23,670 But I learned to dress properly. I learned to speak properly. 230 00:17:23,670 --> 00:17:27,716 I turned myself into one of them, but I never felt like one of them. 231 00:17:31,636 --> 00:17:34,556 {\an8}[David] From a very early age I was a little spy. 232 00:17:37,058 --> 00:17:40,228 Whenever Ronnie left the house, I investigated. 233 00:17:43,148 --> 00:17:45,609 I did not know what the world held. 234 00:17:49,654 --> 00:17:54,284 When the debt collectors came in, my toys disappeared. 235 00:17:54,284 --> 00:17:56,870 The furniture disappeared. Women disappeared. 236 00:17:56,870 --> 00:17:58,413 {\an8}Mothers disappeared. 237 00:18:02,876 --> 00:18:04,753 When Ronnie was really frightened, 238 00:18:04,753 --> 00:18:07,047 and it was, "Black the house out, put the lights out, 239 00:18:07,047 --> 00:18:09,090 put the cars in the back garden." 240 00:18:09,966 --> 00:18:13,720 He wasn't afraid of the law, he was afraid of the mob. 241 00:18:13,720 --> 00:18:15,180 ["Jealous Heart" by Al Morgan] 242 00:18:15,180 --> 00:18:19,309 ♪ Jealous heart Oh, jealous heart ♪ 243 00:18:19,309 --> 00:18:20,852 ♪ Stop beating ♪ 244 00:18:22,562 --> 00:18:28,276 ♪ Can't you see the damage You have done... ♪ 245 00:18:29,569 --> 00:18:34,366 [David] When he died, he had offices in Jermyn Street. 246 00:18:35,867 --> 00:18:38,536 On the top floor lived ladies of the night. 247 00:18:41,790 --> 00:18:45,877 Who, as he put it, were always ready to cook some sausages for him. 248 00:18:45,877 --> 00:18:47,837 [woman laughs] 249 00:18:48,713 --> 00:18:51,800 He had two Ford Zephyr cars, 250 00:18:51,800 --> 00:18:56,471 a house in Henley, a house in Tite Street, Chelsea. 251 00:18:56,471 --> 00:18:58,848 For what purpose, I know not. 252 00:18:58,848 --> 00:19:00,559 And he had these offices. 253 00:19:01,726 --> 00:19:07,941 We could not find on his person, in the drawers of his desk, 254 00:19:07,941 --> 00:19:10,610 enough money to pay the staff until the end of the week. 255 00:19:10,610 --> 00:19:12,279 There was no money. 256 00:19:12,279 --> 00:19:14,155 [horse neighs] 257 00:19:14,155 --> 00:19:17,701 There was a horse in France at Maisons-Laffitte, 258 00:19:17,701 --> 00:19:19,953 a couple of horses in Ireland. 259 00:19:20,745 --> 00:19:23,039 [hooves pound] 260 00:19:23,039 --> 00:19:25,709 [Errol] You called them, "the never-was-ers." 261 00:19:25,709 --> 00:19:27,460 [David] The never-was-ers. 262 00:19:30,005 --> 00:19:33,592 He had a world champion jockey, Gordon Richards. 263 00:19:36,052 --> 00:19:41,391 When Gordon retired, he agreed to select horses at auction for Ronnie, 264 00:19:41,391 --> 00:19:43,226 and, at some point, he must have paid for them. 265 00:19:45,896 --> 00:19:50,483 His great joy was to appear at Ascot and have a horse in a race. 266 00:19:51,192 --> 00:19:54,195 [indistinct race track announcements] 267 00:19:54,195 --> 00:19:56,740 [bell rings] 268 00:19:56,740 --> 00:19:59,784 [indistinct race commentary] 269 00:20:00,577 --> 00:20:04,789 [David] Ronnie clearly reached a point where the fraternity of bookmakers 270 00:20:04,789 --> 00:20:07,500 would not have him on the course anymore, 271 00:20:07,500 --> 00:20:10,295 and they had enforcers that made that clear. 272 00:20:10,295 --> 00:20:12,047 [crowd cheers] 273 00:20:12,047 --> 00:20:14,925 [David] And you better look out if you show up at a race course, 274 00:20:14,925 --> 00:20:16,968 and you haven't paid your debts. 275 00:20:19,930 --> 00:20:23,141 I was dispatched with a suitcase full of money 276 00:20:25,518 --> 00:20:28,438 to distribute among the bookmakers. 277 00:20:28,438 --> 00:20:31,733 [commentator] Wow! It's Rupert. He's pulling away now! 278 00:20:33,151 --> 00:20:35,820 [David] He had a horse named after my half-brother, 279 00:20:35,820 --> 00:20:38,281 and it ran in the Cesarewitch. 280 00:20:38,281 --> 00:20:42,077 [indistinct commentary] 281 00:20:42,077 --> 00:20:44,120 [crowd chatter] 282 00:20:48,708 --> 00:20:52,045 [David] All of a sudden, we had a real harvest of cash. 283 00:20:52,963 --> 00:20:54,256 Thank you, boys. 284 00:20:58,635 --> 00:21:00,679 [David] I sat on the train with it. 285 00:21:02,347 --> 00:21:05,350 [footsteps] 286 00:21:12,732 --> 00:21:14,859 [David] A big man came up to me. 287 00:21:24,578 --> 00:21:26,288 You're Ronnie Cornwell's son, aren't you? 288 00:21:34,963 --> 00:21:37,424 Don't do that again, sonny. 289 00:21:39,926 --> 00:21:42,137 [David] And he just touched my nose. 290 00:21:43,972 --> 00:21:47,559 And when I got back, Ronnie was waiting. 291 00:21:54,399 --> 00:21:56,693 And he counted and counted, 292 00:21:58,028 --> 00:22:00,697 and he couldn't believe I hadn't kept some. 293 00:22:00,697 --> 00:22:01,823 [Ronnie] Come on, boy. 294 00:22:01,823 --> 00:22:03,491 Show me your pockets. 295 00:22:03,491 --> 00:22:05,452 Come on, show me what you've done. 296 00:22:10,540 --> 00:22:13,960 [David] Then I think I got a fiver at the end of it for being a good boy. 297 00:22:16,338 --> 00:22:20,884 [Errol] Was this a disappointment to your father, this lack of larceny? 298 00:22:20,884 --> 00:22:24,012 It was puzzlement that... [laughs] 299 00:22:24,012 --> 00:22:27,599 "You can't be that good," he thought. [laughs] 300 00:22:27,599 --> 00:22:31,061 "No one is. This isn't human nature." 301 00:22:31,061 --> 00:22:34,898 [Errol] But this is such a romantic childhood, is it not? 302 00:22:34,898 --> 00:22:37,901 Well that-- yes. I-I really need to get that across, 303 00:22:37,901 --> 00:22:41,321 that whatever revelations came to me later, 304 00:22:41,321 --> 00:22:47,285 and whatever deprivals I seem to have suffered, mothers and things, 305 00:22:47,285 --> 00:22:49,204 it was terribly exciting. 306 00:22:49,204 --> 00:22:52,749 [suspenseful music] 307 00:22:54,167 --> 00:22:55,502 [projector slide changes] 308 00:22:55,502 --> 00:22:59,923 [David] We haven't mentioned the fact that I was destined to become a barrister. 309 00:23:00,924 --> 00:23:04,010 And my elder brother was destined to become a solicitor. 310 00:23:06,137 --> 00:23:12,185 I was determined to go to Oxford, and they offered me a place. 311 00:23:14,354 --> 00:23:17,148 Ronnie demanded to know what he was paying for. 312 00:23:19,776 --> 00:23:23,738 In cowardice, I said that I would be studying Law. 313 00:23:24,906 --> 00:23:30,996 And when he heard on the grapevine that I was reading Modern Languages, 314 00:23:30,996 --> 00:23:36,293 he descended on my tutor and demanded to know how the hell this had happened. 315 00:23:37,252 --> 00:23:39,170 Was it their fault or mine? 316 00:23:41,715 --> 00:23:44,718 My mentor, Vivian Green, showed him the door. 317 00:23:52,100 --> 00:23:54,144 {\an8}So, I went on reading Modern Languages. 318 00:23:59,149 --> 00:24:03,445 And in the middle of the second year, he made a really dramatic bankruptcy. 319 00:24:03,445 --> 00:24:06,364 It was massive, for a million and a quarter pounds. 320 00:24:09,576 --> 00:24:15,040 The Westminster Bank in Oxford, then, for reasons of its own, 321 00:24:15,040 --> 00:24:17,667 refused to keep my account and closed it. 322 00:24:20,420 --> 00:24:27,177 I had been very close to my girlfriend at the time, so we decided to marry. 323 00:24:31,097 --> 00:24:35,060 {\an8}I went and taught at a low life private prep school. 324 00:24:36,436 --> 00:24:39,314 And that was the same preparatory school which, in my mind, 325 00:24:39,314 --> 00:24:42,525 I put at the beginning of Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy. 326 00:24:45,862 --> 00:24:48,406 We lived in real poverty 327 00:24:48,406 --> 00:24:51,952 with an outside loo and that stuff, and a tin bath. 328 00:24:51,952 --> 00:24:54,746 And then, to my mind, heroically, 329 00:24:54,746 --> 00:24:58,541 Vivian Green inspired the college to call me back. 330 00:25:01,086 --> 00:25:03,505 And they would somehow find the money for me. 331 00:25:04,965 --> 00:25:07,801 So, we went back and they found us a grand flat to live in. 332 00:25:07,801 --> 00:25:09,844 Life had changed completely. 333 00:25:11,012 --> 00:25:13,890 The institutional allure returned 334 00:25:13,890 --> 00:25:17,477 when Eton invited me to come and teach the top class. 335 00:25:17,477 --> 00:25:20,772 I thought I'd be an Eton schoolmaster for the rest of my life. 336 00:25:22,482 --> 00:25:25,068 Then, after two years, I was fed up with it. 337 00:25:25,860 --> 00:25:29,864 And the spies lured me, and I thought I would be a spy for the rest of my life. 338 00:25:29,864 --> 00:25:34,452 [mysterious music] 339 00:25:34,452 --> 00:25:38,206 [David] It's terribly difficult to recruit for a secret service. 340 00:25:38,206 --> 00:25:41,710 In the end, you're looking for somebody who's a bit bad, 341 00:25:43,795 --> 00:25:45,797 but at the same time, loyal. 342 00:25:48,842 --> 00:25:55,390 There's a type they were looking for in my day, and I fit it perfectly. 343 00:25:58,018 --> 00:26:00,270 Separated early from the nest. 344 00:26:02,814 --> 00:26:04,190 Boarding school. 345 00:26:06,276 --> 00:26:08,486 Early independence of spirit. 346 00:26:11,072 --> 00:26:14,117 But looking for institutional embrace. 347 00:26:15,577 --> 00:26:21,291 I can see my own life still as a succession of embraces and escapes. 348 00:26:21,291 --> 00:26:23,793 [wings flutter] 349 00:26:29,758 --> 00:26:34,095 [David] I joined one intelligence service, went sour on it. 350 00:26:34,804 --> 00:26:37,307 {\an8}Moved to a second, went sour on it. 351 00:26:38,308 --> 00:26:44,064 I was disenchanted by the Cold War itself, which was easy to be 352 00:26:44,064 --> 00:26:48,276 when you saw all those Nazis wandering around in West Germany. 353 00:26:48,276 --> 00:26:51,071 And indeed in East Germany. 354 00:26:51,071 --> 00:26:52,948 What had we really fought for? 355 00:26:52,948 --> 00:26:55,325 [Errol] As if the war had never happened? 356 00:26:56,409 --> 00:26:57,577 It felt like that. 357 00:26:57,577 --> 00:27:04,668 The power of enforced forgetting was extraordinary. 358 00:27:06,753 --> 00:27:11,758 I was posted under diplomatic cover to West Germany. 359 00:27:13,176 --> 00:27:16,012 And it was one of the great good fortunes of my life, 360 00:27:16,012 --> 00:27:18,932 because I was there for the erection of the Berlin Wall. 361 00:27:21,685 --> 00:27:26,773 The standoff between East and West was exemplified in Berlin. 362 00:27:26,773 --> 00:27:30,026 Tension was constant. It affected everybody. 363 00:27:30,652 --> 00:27:31,653 [jet engine whines] 364 00:27:31,653 --> 00:27:35,031 [male announcer] The attention of an anxious world is focused on Berlin. 365 00:27:35,031 --> 00:27:38,410 The last great exodus of refugees from the East is processed 366 00:27:38,410 --> 00:27:41,746 as the Communist German regime moves to close their border. 367 00:27:41,746 --> 00:27:44,958 The flow of those seeking asylum here on the fringe of freedom 368 00:27:44,958 --> 00:27:47,002 has reached 1,500 a day. 369 00:27:49,296 --> 00:27:53,675 [David] I went to Berlin and saw for myself what was going on. 370 00:27:55,719 --> 00:28:01,057 The big dramas occurred before the wall was built. 371 00:28:01,057 --> 00:28:06,813 West German firemen were spreading their trampolines below the building. 372 00:28:08,106 --> 00:28:10,734 People were jumping into these things. 373 00:28:18,450 --> 00:28:22,078 Sights which were heart-breaking. 374 00:28:25,206 --> 00:28:27,000 [roaring] 375 00:28:27,000 --> 00:28:28,460 [muffled explosion] 376 00:28:36,134 --> 00:28:39,846 {\an8}[Errol] What was your emotional response to seeing this thing? 377 00:28:39,846 --> 00:28:46,728 A mixture of anger, disgust and empathy. 378 00:28:46,728 --> 00:28:50,065 It was for me a milestone. 379 00:28:50,065 --> 00:28:54,152 It was the impetus that produced The Spy Who Came in from the Cold. 380 00:28:55,946 --> 00:28:58,782 [Errol] A crucible for your understanding of the world? 381 00:29:01,701 --> 00:29:05,664 [David] More like confirmation of my understanding of the world. 382 00:29:09,584 --> 00:29:15,966 [David] This was the most obscene symbol of the insanity of the human struggle. 383 00:29:15,966 --> 00:29:17,425 [gunshot] 384 00:29:23,473 --> 00:29:28,562 I felt that on both sides, East and West, 385 00:29:28,562 --> 00:29:32,983 were inventing the enemy that they needed. 386 00:29:34,901 --> 00:29:39,906 The seamless transition from anti-Nazism to anti-Communism. 387 00:29:46,871 --> 00:29:48,999 [David] I came back from Berlin. 388 00:29:48,999 --> 00:29:52,878 I knew that I wanted to write a strong novel about the thing. 389 00:29:52,878 --> 00:29:55,589 It was summer. I think I worked mainly in the garden. 390 00:29:56,339 --> 00:29:57,841 The kids were around. 391 00:30:00,093 --> 00:30:02,929 I would maybe start at four or five in the morning. 392 00:30:04,055 --> 00:30:06,850 And I had this rush of blood and anger. 393 00:30:07,350 --> 00:30:12,606 Found, as it were, a fable that served my purposes 394 00:30:12,606 --> 00:30:14,524 and that was, The Spy Who Came in from the Cold. 395 00:30:14,524 --> 00:30:16,943 [Richard Burton] What the hell do you think spies are? 396 00:30:16,943 --> 00:30:18,904 Moral philosophers measuring everything they do 397 00:30:18,904 --> 00:30:21,114 against the word of God or Karl Marx? 398 00:30:21,114 --> 00:30:25,160 They're not. They're just a bunch of seedy, squalid bastards like me. 399 00:30:25,160 --> 00:30:28,246 Little men, drunkards, queers, henpecked husbands, 400 00:30:28,246 --> 00:30:32,500 civil servants playing Cowboys and Indians to brighten their rotten little lives. 401 00:30:32,500 --> 00:30:35,462 Do you think they sit like monks in a cell balancing right against wrong? 402 00:30:35,462 --> 00:30:39,382 The author who is the biggest sensation right now, 403 00:30:39,382 --> 00:30:42,093 his real name is David Cornwell, 404 00:30:42,093 --> 00:30:45,388 but he's much better known to us as John le Carré. 405 00:30:46,223 --> 00:30:48,767 How many did The Spy Who Came in from the Cold sell? 406 00:30:49,351 --> 00:30:53,605 I think in all editions, book club, paperback, all over the world, 407 00:30:53,605 --> 00:30:57,359 they say somewhere around twelve, fifteen million. 408 00:30:57,359 --> 00:30:58,443 [whistles] 409 00:30:58,443 --> 00:30:59,986 [mouthing] 410 00:30:59,986 --> 00:31:01,821 [audience laughs] 411 00:31:05,200 --> 00:31:10,789 {\an8}[Errol] I take it that the success of Spy was a surprise. 412 00:31:13,583 --> 00:31:18,004 [David] I think it was no surprise to me in the sense that I felt 413 00:31:18,004 --> 00:31:20,924 that when I'd finished it, I'd written something 414 00:31:20,924 --> 00:31:23,843 that was profoundly expressive of my own feelings, 415 00:31:23,843 --> 00:31:25,845 and that it might have legs. 416 00:31:30,267 --> 00:31:34,604 The early rumbles from agent and publisher suggested it really did have legs. 417 00:31:34,604 --> 00:31:37,607 You have to remember the context in which it was published. 418 00:31:37,607 --> 00:31:40,110 We were sated with James Bond at that time. 419 00:31:40,860 --> 00:31:44,197 {\an8}I admire your luck, Mister... 420 00:31:44,197 --> 00:31:47,784 Bond. James Bond. 421 00:31:47,784 --> 00:31:51,746 The reality that had been offered by the news 422 00:31:51,746 --> 00:31:54,958 and by all the events that were happening around us 423 00:31:54,958 --> 00:31:58,712 was spies as a shabby army of lonely deciders. 424 00:31:58,712 --> 00:32:01,756 I happened to deliver the antidote. 425 00:32:01,756 --> 00:32:07,512 What was wrong about it, and I lived with that problem still to this day, 426 00:32:07,512 --> 00:32:11,349 was that it painted the secret services as so bloody brilliant. 427 00:32:11,349 --> 00:32:17,397 Whereas, by that time, we were a crippled organization 428 00:32:17,397 --> 00:32:21,526 that could very well have been scrapped to begin again. 429 00:32:27,616 --> 00:32:30,827 {\an8}[David] "If your mission in life is to obtain traitors, 430 00:32:30,827 --> 00:32:33,288 to win them over to your cause, 431 00:32:33,955 --> 00:32:37,792 {\an8}you can hardly complain when one of your own 432 00:32:37,792 --> 00:32:41,171 {\an8}turns out to have been obtained by somebody else. 433 00:32:42,088 --> 00:32:45,300 When I came to write Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy, 434 00:32:45,300 --> 00:32:49,888 it was Kim Philby's murky lamp that lit my path." 435 00:32:49,888 --> 00:32:51,389 [camera shutter clicks] 436 00:32:51,389 --> 00:32:55,644 "MI6's brilliant former head of counterintelligence. 437 00:32:56,311 --> 00:33:01,983 Once tipped to become chief of the service, who was also a Russian spy." 438 00:33:08,865 --> 00:33:12,953 [David] Halfway through my tenure in West Germany, 439 00:33:12,953 --> 00:33:15,622 Philby's defection was announced. 440 00:33:18,625 --> 00:33:25,257 His disappearance from Beirut and his appearance on the Moscow stage. 441 00:33:27,425 --> 00:33:32,138 That was shocking to the ethic of the secret services at that time. 442 00:33:32,973 --> 00:33:36,017 [suspenseful music] 443 00:33:53,326 --> 00:33:55,120 [in Russian] Someone is following. 444 00:34:02,961 --> 00:34:08,300 [David] The question is whether MI5, MI6 wanted him to go. 445 00:34:09,593 --> 00:34:14,389 Nobody wanted that exposure. You have an extraordinary problem. 446 00:34:14,890 --> 00:34:19,978 Very substantial former spy coming up for trial. 447 00:34:19,978 --> 00:34:24,608 It would do great national damage and achieve very little. 448 00:34:29,988 --> 00:34:34,159 In sober reflection, the powers that be said, "Thank God." 449 00:34:36,494 --> 00:34:39,664 [Errol] "Thank God"? So, they let him escape? 450 00:34:40,539 --> 00:34:41,791 [David] Yeah. 451 00:34:49,840 --> 00:34:51,885 [muffled ship's horn] 452 00:34:55,764 --> 00:34:58,558 [in Russian] Thank you, comrade. 453 00:35:04,481 --> 00:35:08,193 [David] Philby's defection went straight to the heart 454 00:35:08,193 --> 00:35:10,570 of the establishment of the day. 455 00:35:13,990 --> 00:35:15,992 He was a Westminster boy. 456 00:35:17,244 --> 00:35:20,121 Part of the inner circle of English society. 457 00:35:28,421 --> 00:35:29,464 [slurps] 458 00:35:29,464 --> 00:35:33,134 [David] People kind of overlooked, on those grounds, 459 00:35:33,134 --> 00:35:37,097 the rather evident past that Philby had. 460 00:35:41,810 --> 00:35:43,770 It would not have been difficult to establish 461 00:35:43,770 --> 00:35:47,190 that he had early associations with Communist people. 462 00:35:47,190 --> 00:35:49,901 {\an8}He'd married a Communist woman in Vienna. 463 00:35:51,945 --> 00:35:56,032 Those things could be swept aside because he's... he's one of us. 464 00:35:56,032 --> 00:35:57,325 He's one of us. 465 00:35:57,325 --> 00:36:00,078 So, if you'd really gone into Philby's background, 466 00:36:00,078 --> 00:36:02,205 you would have said this chap is... 467 00:36:02,205 --> 00:36:04,958 He's a bit sniffy. We don't want that. 468 00:36:04,958 --> 00:36:07,627 But quite the contrary, he was Mister Charm, 469 00:36:08,461 --> 00:36:10,714 and he loved to deceive. 470 00:36:11,464 --> 00:36:12,465 [camera shutter clicks] 471 00:36:17,304 --> 00:36:22,309 {\an8}[David] "Enter now, Nicholas Elliott, Philby's most loyal friend, confidant, 472 00:36:22,309 --> 00:36:27,355 devoted brother-in-arms in war and peace. Child of Eton. 473 00:36:27,355 --> 00:36:32,944 Son of its former headmaster, adventurer, alpinist and dupe." 474 00:36:32,944 --> 00:36:34,779 [elevator squeaks] 475 00:36:34,779 --> 00:36:39,534 "Among the many extraordinary things that Elliott had done in his life, 476 00:36:40,535 --> 00:36:45,790 and undoubtedly the most painful, was to sit face to face in Beirut 477 00:36:45,790 --> 00:36:50,462 with his close friend, colleague and mentor, Kim Philby, 478 00:36:50,462 --> 00:36:54,883 and hear him admit that he had been a Soviet spy 479 00:36:54,883 --> 00:36:58,511 for all the years that they had known each other." 480 00:37:07,229 --> 00:37:13,401 Nick Elliott told me that when he went out to interview Philby in Beirut 481 00:37:13,401 --> 00:37:17,155 and to obtain from Philby the confession. 482 00:37:17,864 --> 00:37:22,202 He said that really, when he wasn't playing a double game, 483 00:37:22,994 --> 00:37:25,538 that he was extremely lonely. 484 00:37:25,538 --> 00:37:28,250 He found life had gone flat for him, 485 00:37:28,250 --> 00:37:32,170 so the addiction to betrayal was essential to him. 486 00:37:33,630 --> 00:37:38,176 And he betrayed everybody, really, from childhood onward. 487 00:37:39,344 --> 00:37:42,889 {\an8}[Nicholas Elliott] There's an awful lot of misuse of the word "double agent." 488 00:37:42,889 --> 00:37:47,352 {\an8}Philby is often described in the press as a double agent. 489 00:37:47,352 --> 00:37:49,938 In point of fact, Philby was a straightforward, 490 00:37:49,938 --> 00:37:53,066 high-level, disreputable traitor. 491 00:37:53,066 --> 00:37:54,484 What's the difference, exactly? 492 00:37:54,484 --> 00:37:57,237 Well, I mean, he was a straightforward spy for the Russians. 493 00:37:57,237 --> 00:37:59,948 If he'd been a double agent, he'd have been a spy for the Russians. 494 00:37:59,948 --> 00:38:02,075 But we'd have been playing back against the Russians. 495 00:38:03,994 --> 00:38:07,914 [David] I knew Elliott pretty well. And he was this tall figure. 496 00:38:08,790 --> 00:38:12,711 The hollowed-out body, waistcoats, spectacles. 497 00:38:13,670 --> 00:38:17,424 An Etonian voice, the son of an Etonian headmaster, 498 00:38:17,424 --> 00:38:21,761 long line of Etonians behind him, very aristocratic. 499 00:38:21,761 --> 00:38:23,680 [Errol] Can you do his voice? 500 00:38:23,680 --> 00:38:28,059 Yes. I said to him, "Nick, 501 00:38:29,728 --> 00:38:34,065 when you went to see Kim, what kind of sanctions did you have?" 502 00:38:34,065 --> 00:38:36,151 [as Elliott] "Sanctions, old boy? What do you mean by that?" 503 00:38:36,151 --> 00:38:37,861 [normal] "How could you threaten him? 504 00:38:37,861 --> 00:38:40,530 Could you have him sandbagged and brought back to London?" 505 00:38:40,530 --> 00:38:43,325 [as Elliott] "Oh," he said, "my dear chap, nobody wanted him in London." 506 00:38:43,325 --> 00:38:46,411 [normal] I said, "Well, what could you threaten him with? 507 00:38:46,411 --> 00:38:49,998 Nick, come on, come clean." He said, 508 00:38:49,998 --> 00:38:53,418 [as Elliott] "I told him, if he didn't come clean, 509 00:38:53,418 --> 00:38:57,130 there wouldn't be a legation, an embassy, 510 00:38:57,130 --> 00:39:00,175 a business, or a club in the whole of the Middle East 511 00:39:00,175 --> 00:39:02,219 who'd have a first damn thing to do with him." 512 00:39:02,219 --> 00:39:04,179 [normal] So, I said, "Well, that must have frightened him." 513 00:39:04,179 --> 00:39:06,056 [as Elliott] "It did." [laughs] 514 00:39:07,307 --> 00:39:09,517 He played the English bloody fool, 515 00:39:09,517 --> 00:39:13,313 whether he was one, as many maintain, I don't know. 516 00:39:15,023 --> 00:39:18,318 [Errol] You do have that line in what you wrote. 517 00:39:18,902 --> 00:39:22,405 {\an8}"Philby was adept at deceiving others. 518 00:39:22,405 --> 00:39:26,117 {\an8}Elliott was equally adept at deceiving himself." 519 00:39:26,952 --> 00:39:28,245 {\an8}[David] I'm glad I said that. 520 00:39:30,872 --> 00:39:33,124 It was always my argument 521 00:39:33,124 --> 00:39:37,671 that it was instinct rather than reason that drove Philby to do what he did. 522 00:39:38,880 --> 00:39:44,886 That thrill of stepping into the street knowing what you know and they don't. 523 00:39:44,886 --> 00:39:50,642 It's the joy of self-imposed schizophrenia that the secret agent loves. 524 00:39:52,561 --> 00:39:55,230 [Errol] "Self-imposed schizophrenia." 525 00:39:56,106 --> 00:39:59,484 [chuckles gently] The duality all the time. 526 00:39:59,484 --> 00:40:02,279 Of being the opposite of your outward self. 527 00:40:02,946 --> 00:40:07,534 [Errol] But isn't there some joy that you are actually making policy? 528 00:40:09,578 --> 00:40:11,997 Yes, I think the joy is voluptuous. 529 00:40:15,125 --> 00:40:17,335 A sensual journey 530 00:40:17,335 --> 00:40:22,591 of constantly challenging your luck and surviving. 531 00:40:25,093 --> 00:40:28,388 Making a real difference too, absolutely. 532 00:40:28,388 --> 00:40:32,934 To feel you're the hub of the universe is wonderful for the vanity. 533 00:40:32,934 --> 00:40:39,566 To be passing that, that pure gold, to the Soviet Union, to your masters. 534 00:40:40,400 --> 00:40:43,945 "Now, do you love me? If I give you this, will you love me?" 535 00:40:45,572 --> 00:40:50,785 I can imagine that voluptuous instinct very well. 536 00:40:50,785 --> 00:40:53,413 Not in myself, but in him. 537 00:40:55,206 --> 00:40:57,751 Mister le Carré, you've described Kim Philby as, 538 00:40:57,751 --> 00:41:01,796 "The avenger who destroyed the citadel from within." 539 00:41:01,796 --> 00:41:05,091 Well, I think he's one of those strange people who was born into privilege 540 00:41:05,091 --> 00:41:08,762 and, in some way, resented the advantages with which he was born. 541 00:41:08,762 --> 00:41:13,391 A person who, on the one hand, felt that he was better than society 542 00:41:13,391 --> 00:41:17,354 and, on the other hand, couldn't forgive society for putting him in that position. 543 00:41:17,354 --> 00:41:19,522 He was very much at war with himself, I think. 544 00:41:19,522 --> 00:41:22,067 [suspenseful music] 545 00:41:27,322 --> 00:41:33,578 When I finally went to Moscow in 1988, 546 00:41:34,871 --> 00:41:39,960 I was at a party given by the Union of Soviet Writers. 547 00:41:42,754 --> 00:41:45,590 There was a big man called Genrikh Borovik. 548 00:41:46,716 --> 00:41:50,053 Borovik came up to me and said, 549 00:41:50,053 --> 00:41:56,935 [as Borovik] "David, I would like you to meet a very good friend of mine. 550 00:41:56,935 --> 00:41:58,853 Keen admirer from your books. 551 00:42:00,855 --> 00:42:02,065 Kim Philby." 552 00:42:02,065 --> 00:42:06,111 [normal] I replied, sick to the heart as I felt, 553 00:42:07,279 --> 00:42:11,157 that I'm soon to have dinner with our ambassador, 554 00:42:12,242 --> 00:42:17,789 and I can't see myself having dinner with the Queen's representative one night, 555 00:42:17,789 --> 00:42:20,584 and dinner with the Queen's traitor the next. 556 00:42:20,584 --> 00:42:24,504 I just thought there is such a thing as evil. 557 00:42:27,465 --> 00:42:33,263 Somebody who had blindly served Stalin for so long. 558 00:42:33,805 --> 00:42:38,393 {\an8}How he could go on serving such a person, such a cause, 559 00:42:39,227 --> 00:42:41,813 {\an8}as Soviet communism, was beyond me. 560 00:42:42,647 --> 00:42:45,233 He knew better than anyone what he was doing. 561 00:42:49,154 --> 00:42:53,658 It was the addiction, it was the fun of betrayal that got to him. 562 00:42:53,658 --> 00:42:57,704 It was the feeling that he was playing both ends against the middle. 563 00:42:57,704 --> 00:43:02,208 He was the center of the earth. He was playing the world's game. 564 00:43:02,208 --> 00:43:05,128 It had precious little to do, in the end, with ideology. 565 00:43:05,128 --> 00:43:06,755 It may have begun as ideology. 566 00:43:06,755 --> 00:43:09,382 After that, it became an addiction, the betrayal. 567 00:43:10,008 --> 00:43:12,969 If you'd given him your cat to look after for a couple of weeks, 568 00:43:12,969 --> 00:43:15,055 he'd have betrayed the cat somehow. 569 00:43:23,897 --> 00:43:28,026 I had some inner relationship with Philby. 570 00:43:30,070 --> 00:43:32,030 The temptation, somehow, 571 00:43:34,741 --> 00:43:38,203 to turn your back on everything you've been taught and picked up 572 00:43:38,203 --> 00:43:39,746 and go your own route. 573 00:43:40,789 --> 00:43:43,667 I can understand how that happened to Philby. 574 00:43:44,709 --> 00:43:47,921 And I've felt that thank God I never went in that direction. 575 00:43:47,921 --> 00:43:52,592 But there came a point in my life where I seemed to be offered the crossroads. 576 00:43:52,592 --> 00:43:55,595 I could have become a really bad guy. 577 00:43:55,595 --> 00:43:59,099 And mercifully, I found a home for my larceny. 578 00:44:01,017 --> 00:44:04,563 {\an8}[David archive] A writer is slightly out of tune. He is different. 579 00:44:05,146 --> 00:44:09,442 {\an8}His methods of creation are the methods of a lonely person 580 00:44:09,442 --> 00:44:12,362 who is borrowing, abstracting experiences here and there, 581 00:44:12,362 --> 00:44:15,991 and putting them together and trying to make a parcel, if you like, 582 00:44:15,991 --> 00:44:17,951 which you can then offer to the public. 583 00:44:17,951 --> 00:44:19,869 In that sense, he's an illusionist. 584 00:44:19,869 --> 00:44:22,414 And if people are constantly trying to look up his sleeve, 585 00:44:22,414 --> 00:44:24,791 then he's going to spoil his trick. 586 00:44:24,791 --> 00:44:26,042 [camera shutter clicks] 587 00:44:27,168 --> 00:44:32,215 For me, writing is a journey of self-discovery every time. 588 00:44:32,215 --> 00:44:35,969 How characters behave, how they emerge, who they are, 589 00:44:35,969 --> 00:44:37,429 what appetites they have, 590 00:44:37,429 --> 00:44:40,891 they deliver themselves on the blank page 591 00:44:40,891 --> 00:44:43,518 and they tell me a little bit about who I am. 592 00:44:46,187 --> 00:44:49,065 {\an8}In writing about George Smiley, of course, 593 00:44:49,065 --> 00:44:52,235 I'm writing about the ideal father I never had. 594 00:44:55,822 --> 00:44:58,408 These are attempts at self-knowledge. 595 00:44:59,743 --> 00:45:03,288 Little glimpses along the way of who one really is. 596 00:45:03,288 --> 00:45:05,373 I have never submitted to analysis. 597 00:45:05,373 --> 00:45:10,253 I feel if I knew any secrets about myself, I'd deprive myself of writing. 598 00:45:12,214 --> 00:45:13,381 [chuckles gently] 599 00:45:15,675 --> 00:45:18,470 [Errol] What did you learn about yourself from Bill Haydon? 600 00:45:20,889 --> 00:45:24,559 [David] Well, that was something I guess I already knew. 601 00:45:24,559 --> 00:45:27,020 It was something I knew of Philby, too. 602 00:45:27,562 --> 00:45:31,441 And obviously Haydon is to some extent modelled on Philby. 603 00:45:31,441 --> 00:45:34,444 An instinct that is latent in me, 604 00:45:34,444 --> 00:45:38,073 which I have never to my knowledge deployed, used, fallen for, 605 00:45:38,073 --> 00:45:43,662 it's to be king of the world, as Haydon thought he was. 606 00:45:43,662 --> 00:45:49,584 There was a time when the very pleasure of being in the secret world 607 00:45:49,584 --> 00:45:52,462 close to what was going on, what was really going on, 608 00:45:52,462 --> 00:45:54,965 {\an8}filled me with a sense of exultation. 609 00:45:56,967 --> 00:46:01,721 This is, in the Faustian sense, what the world contains at its inmost point. 610 00:46:01,721 --> 00:46:05,100 [mysterious music] 611 00:46:17,988 --> 00:46:21,408 "Was die Welt im Innersten zusammenhält", is the line. 612 00:46:30,333 --> 00:46:34,421 [Errol] Then there's that despairing line in The Secret Pilgrim, 613 00:46:34,421 --> 00:46:36,840 "Knowing that the inmost room..." 614 00:46:37,924 --> 00:46:39,759 "...doesn't contain anything." Yes. 615 00:46:39,759 --> 00:46:43,179 Somehow, we believe that there is an inmost room 616 00:46:43,179 --> 00:46:45,891 where policy is being conceived. 617 00:46:45,891 --> 00:46:48,643 I think it's being played completely ad hoc, 618 00:46:48,643 --> 00:46:51,229 from day to day, from hour to hour. 619 00:46:51,229 --> 00:46:52,814 [Errol] History is chaos! 620 00:46:52,814 --> 00:46:58,904 History is chaos, and therefore to imagine, as I might have done 621 00:46:58,904 --> 00:47:01,656 in my perpetual innocence, 622 00:47:02,407 --> 00:47:08,788 that there was some great secret to the nature of human behavior. 623 00:47:08,788 --> 00:47:09,873 There is none. 624 00:47:17,756 --> 00:47:22,802 {\an8}[David] "'Spying is eternal,' Smiley announced simply. 625 00:47:25,847 --> 00:47:31,394 'There's no career on Earth more cockeyed than the one you've picked. 626 00:47:34,564 --> 00:47:39,319 {\an8}You'll be at your most postable while you're least experienced. 627 00:47:41,238 --> 00:47:45,242 And by the time you've learned the ropes, no one will be able to send you anywhere 628 00:47:45,242 --> 00:47:48,245 without a trade description round your necks. 629 00:47:54,042 --> 00:47:59,506 Old athletes know they've played their best games when they're in their prime. 630 00:48:02,926 --> 00:48:06,012 Spies in their prime are on the shelf.'" 631 00:48:06,596 --> 00:48:08,598 [slow, echoing footsteps] 632 00:48:10,642 --> 00:48:13,687 "'And then, at a certain age, 633 00:48:15,939 --> 00:48:17,899 you want the answer.' 634 00:48:21,444 --> 00:48:25,198 'You want the rolled-up parchment in the inmost room 635 00:48:26,575 --> 00:48:30,287 that tells you who runs your lives and why. 636 00:48:39,462 --> 00:48:41,715 The trouble is, that by then, 637 00:48:41,715 --> 00:48:44,509 you're the very people who know best... 638 00:48:46,928 --> 00:48:49,973 ...that the inmost room is bare.'" 639 00:48:59,983 --> 00:49:04,571 [Errol] When I read it, I took it as more deeply existential. 640 00:49:05,488 --> 00:49:10,493 Is the inmost room ourselves? Maybe there's nothing there? 641 00:49:13,413 --> 00:49:17,500 In my case that is true, yes. I can't speak for everybody else. 642 00:49:17,500 --> 00:49:19,669 [suspenseful music] 643 00:49:23,632 --> 00:49:27,427 [David] I think we, all of us, live partly in a clandestine situation 644 00:49:27,427 --> 00:49:32,599 in relation to our bosses, in relation to our families, our wives, our children. 645 00:49:33,850 --> 00:49:36,853 We frequently affect attitudes to which we subscribe, 646 00:49:36,853 --> 00:49:39,272 perhaps intellectually, but not emotionally. 647 00:49:41,024 --> 00:49:43,401 We hardly know ourselves. 648 00:49:44,277 --> 00:49:46,863 The figure of the spy does seem to me 649 00:49:46,863 --> 00:49:50,909 to be almost infinitely capable of exploitation, 650 00:49:50,909 --> 00:49:55,747 for purposes of articulating all sorts of submerged things in our society. 651 00:50:05,840 --> 00:50:08,927 [Errol] The experience that I have reading le Carré is, 652 00:50:08,927 --> 00:50:13,014 "Am I in a world of fiction? Am I in a world of fact? 653 00:50:13,014 --> 00:50:16,268 Am I in some strange blend of the two?" 654 00:50:19,646 --> 00:50:21,273 [gunshot] 655 00:50:21,273 --> 00:50:25,485 [David] I really don't think any artist, whether he's a writer, 656 00:50:25,485 --> 00:50:28,113 a painter, or anybody else, 657 00:50:28,905 --> 00:50:32,993 I don't think he has to explain his work beyond a certain point. 658 00:50:32,993 --> 00:50:37,122 If it's raised those questions in you, you're already having a good time. 659 00:50:37,122 --> 00:50:39,874 I have tried, over these conversations, 660 00:50:39,874 --> 00:50:44,421 to talk about the process of abstraction from real life. 661 00:50:44,421 --> 00:50:47,007 Now, I very consciously wrote a book, 662 00:50:47,966 --> 00:50:49,509 A Perfect Spy... 663 00:50:51,469 --> 00:50:57,183 {\an8}...which gave a parallel version, if you like, of much that had happened to me. 664 00:50:58,101 --> 00:51:02,981 For Ronnie, read Rick, for me, read Magnus. 665 00:51:04,065 --> 00:51:07,277 I cannot define for you 666 00:51:07,277 --> 00:51:13,325 where reality goes through the secret door into fiction. 667 00:51:15,076 --> 00:51:20,040 I would much rather go back to the notion that I painted of, 668 00:51:20,040 --> 00:51:24,002 "I live in that bubble, and I import stuff." 669 00:51:35,347 --> 00:51:38,725 It is a kind of solitude in the sense that 670 00:51:39,434 --> 00:51:42,062 {\an8}you're not sharing your thoughts with anyone. 671 00:51:42,729 --> 00:51:43,980 [page turns] 672 00:51:43,980 --> 00:51:48,860 You're composing in secret from the elements you see around you. 673 00:51:50,445 --> 00:51:56,243 A fictional entity which is rational, which makes order out of chaos. 674 00:51:56,243 --> 00:51:58,245 I think that's such a normal process. 675 00:51:58,245 --> 00:52:00,538 If I were a painter, I'd be feeling the same way. 676 00:52:00,538 --> 00:52:02,540 I'd be taking the light, the window 677 00:52:02,540 --> 00:52:07,546 and I would try to make an image of how I feel now. 678 00:52:09,464 --> 00:52:13,718 [Errol] I was going to ask you how you do feel now, but that seems silly. 679 00:52:13,718 --> 00:52:15,804 Errol, I feel very comfortable. 680 00:52:15,804 --> 00:52:20,850 I enjoy very much talking about things I haven't talked about before. 681 00:52:20,850 --> 00:52:26,314 I saw this prospect, at my great age, as something definitive. 682 00:52:26,314 --> 00:52:30,235 I knew that I was not going to lie. I wasn't going to fabricate. 683 00:52:30,235 --> 00:52:33,154 I'm not even interested in self-defense, 684 00:52:33,154 --> 00:52:36,449 because I really don't know what the accusation is in the air. 685 00:52:40,662 --> 00:52:44,332 [David] "Sir Magnus, you have in the past betrayed me, 686 00:52:45,250 --> 00:52:48,795 but more important, you have betrayed yourself. 687 00:52:48,795 --> 00:52:52,924 Even when you are telling the truth, you lie. 688 00:52:52,924 --> 00:52:57,262 You have loyalty and you have affection. 689 00:52:57,262 --> 00:53:00,223 - But to what? To whom?" - [Axel echoing] To what? To whom? 690 00:53:00,807 --> 00:53:02,392 I don't know. 691 00:53:02,392 --> 00:53:04,352 One day, maybe you will tell me. 692 00:53:06,062 --> 00:53:12,277 What I am saying, Sir Magnus, you are a perfect spy. 693 00:53:13,486 --> 00:53:15,488 [faint chatter] 694 00:53:21,536 --> 00:53:25,665 [David] Characters don't actually work until they've got a bit of you in them. 695 00:53:27,626 --> 00:53:29,461 They're just paper men. 696 00:53:30,921 --> 00:53:34,716 I voice my characters. I read them to myself. 697 00:53:36,092 --> 00:53:38,595 That's terribly important, how they speak. 698 00:53:38,595 --> 00:53:43,225 After that, they kind of tell you who they are, how they dress, how they move. 699 00:53:55,320 --> 00:54:00,742 [David] That's the emergence of character as you write, page after page. 700 00:54:03,787 --> 00:54:07,082 {\an8}Gradually, this fellow emerges and is yours. 701 00:54:09,793 --> 00:54:12,504 My natural instinct when I meet people 702 00:54:12,504 --> 00:54:15,549 is to consider the possibilities of their characters. 703 00:54:15,549 --> 00:54:18,718 I begin to invest them with things they probably don't possess. 704 00:54:18,718 --> 00:54:23,181 Curiously, in the end product, those features may not be there anymore. 705 00:54:23,890 --> 00:54:26,268 But that's the beginning of the story. 706 00:54:28,812 --> 00:54:31,898 And then I discuss, what do these people want? 707 00:54:32,899 --> 00:54:38,446 And out of discerning contrary appetites, you get the essence of conflict. 708 00:54:39,030 --> 00:54:43,201 [Errol] You've written, "The cat sat on the mat is not a story, 709 00:54:43,201 --> 00:54:46,538 but the cat sat on the dog's mat is." 710 00:54:46,538 --> 00:54:47,622 That's right. 711 00:54:47,622 --> 00:54:50,333 [Errol] And then I have my le Carré version. 712 00:54:50,333 --> 00:54:51,334 [they laugh] 713 00:54:51,334 --> 00:54:56,089 [Errol] "The cat betrayed the dog by sitting on his mat." 714 00:54:56,089 --> 00:55:00,635 I think the cat was a double. [laughs] 715 00:55:16,818 --> 00:55:20,113 {\an8}[Errol] Why is betrayal an important concept to you? 716 00:55:22,532 --> 00:55:25,535 {\an8}[David] Well, it has a long family background. 717 00:55:28,955 --> 00:55:33,460 Reality did not exist in my childhood, performance did. 718 00:55:37,172 --> 00:55:42,510 I felt, observing life, that much of what people said overtly 719 00:55:42,510 --> 00:55:44,679 was not what they thought inwardly. 720 00:55:44,679 --> 00:55:48,892 You have to remember that in each of the secret services 721 00:55:48,892 --> 00:55:51,728 where I was ineffective but employed. 722 00:55:54,189 --> 00:55:55,941 {\an8}[David] They were the decades of betrayal. 723 00:55:55,941 --> 00:55:58,777 {\an8}You just wondered who was gonna pop out next. 724 00:56:02,864 --> 00:56:09,871 We received, at MI5, very strong representations from the Americans 725 00:56:09,871 --> 00:56:13,416 to clean up our act and get rid of the communists in our midst. 726 00:56:13,416 --> 00:56:16,586 A man appeared 727 00:56:17,087 --> 00:56:20,173 and he had some kind of authority, which he made clear to you, 728 00:56:20,173 --> 00:56:22,759 and he would say, "Come around, have a drink." 729 00:56:22,759 --> 00:56:23,843 [birds tweet] 730 00:56:23,843 --> 00:56:27,973 And he had a most extraordinary wall with live birds behind it. 731 00:56:28,682 --> 00:56:30,976 They silently flitted about. 732 00:56:35,689 --> 00:56:37,983 I think he was a fool, I may add. 733 00:56:37,983 --> 00:56:41,736 Must have been some kind of analyst, psychologist. 734 00:56:41,736 --> 00:56:46,116 He would question you in a sort of fatuous schoolmasterly... 735 00:56:46,116 --> 00:56:48,076 "Getting on all right with your wife, are you?" 736 00:56:48,076 --> 00:56:52,122 We were all being examined as potential communist spies. 737 00:56:54,374 --> 00:56:59,838 The comedy in my case was that I had, for MI5, 738 00:56:59,838 --> 00:57:04,676 entered the communist community at my university at Oxford. 739 00:57:08,013 --> 00:57:11,641 I was picked up and wooed, sat in the Soviet embassy, 740 00:57:11,641 --> 00:57:14,853 watched the Battleship Potemkin about six times, 741 00:57:14,853 --> 00:57:17,272 was fed with vodka and then dropped. 742 00:57:17,898 --> 00:57:19,274 [Errol] It's a good movie. 743 00:57:19,274 --> 00:57:23,695 It's a good movie, except that it has no happy ending. [laughs] 744 00:57:32,078 --> 00:57:33,330 [gunshot] 745 00:57:34,414 --> 00:57:39,544 [Errol] Wait a second. Is the desire to be a double agent from the very beginning? 746 00:57:40,128 --> 00:57:41,296 Yes. 747 00:57:41,296 --> 00:57:44,883 It was an extremely exciting thought at the time. 748 00:57:44,883 --> 00:57:47,135 [Errol] It's not just an agent, it's a double a-- 749 00:57:47,135 --> 00:57:49,971 It happens all the time with every security service 750 00:57:49,971 --> 00:57:52,599 and every offensive intelligence service. 751 00:57:52,599 --> 00:57:57,103 That you put people up alongside the recruiter, 752 00:57:57,103 --> 00:58:01,733 hope he will recruit, and then you own the person he has recruited. 753 00:58:01,733 --> 00:58:06,488 That's, as the Germans would say, normal. 754 00:58:10,283 --> 00:58:13,119 Out of that came the very painful relationship 755 00:58:13,119 --> 00:58:19,000 {\an8}with the secret head of the communist group at Oxford at the time, 756 00:58:19,000 --> 00:58:22,837 {\an8}a most innocent man, Stanley Mitchell. 757 00:58:25,423 --> 00:58:29,386 {\an8}We were in the same college, he was reading Russian and German. 758 00:58:30,595 --> 00:58:32,889 He was of Russian-Jewish extraction. 759 00:58:35,141 --> 00:58:38,270 And we went on a walking holiday together in Dorset. 760 00:58:38,270 --> 00:58:41,523 He had all the names of students 761 00:58:41,523 --> 00:58:45,694 who were members of the Communist Party at that time. 762 00:58:46,903 --> 00:58:51,366 My job for MI5 was to identify these people. 763 00:58:52,951 --> 00:58:57,831 And of course, it's horrific. I was betraying Stanley. 764 00:58:59,332 --> 00:59:01,167 [Axel shouts in distance] 765 00:59:02,085 --> 00:59:07,424 Although, I squirm and I'm horrified by my behavior now, 766 00:59:07,424 --> 00:59:10,218 I still think it had to be done. 767 00:59:10,218 --> 00:59:15,015 Stanley, in later years, made the very simple deduction 768 00:59:15,015 --> 00:59:16,933 that I was that person in his life. 769 00:59:16,933 --> 00:59:21,313 It upset him terribly. "It was you, Judas. You swine. 770 00:59:23,023 --> 00:59:27,527 How could anybody do it? How could anybody be as foul as you?" 771 00:59:29,446 --> 00:59:30,989 [Errol] And your defense? 772 00:59:31,990 --> 00:59:35,744 Was, "Well, sorry, Stanley, but you belong to a revolutionary movement 773 00:59:35,744 --> 00:59:38,997 which was determined to destabilize our country. 774 00:59:38,997 --> 00:59:44,211 We were, at that time, technically at war with the Soviet Union. 775 00:59:44,211 --> 00:59:45,962 You were on the wrong side." 776 00:59:49,341 --> 00:59:51,968 [Errol] Can you be so sure that you're on the right side 777 00:59:51,968 --> 00:59:55,805 - as opposed to the wrong side? - Of course not. No. Of course not. 778 01:00:06,775 --> 01:00:11,279 [Errol] In A Perfect Spy, why the need to have the son kill himself? 779 01:00:14,908 --> 01:00:18,954 {\an8}[David] Firstly, because he knew that as a double agent, he was rumbled. 780 01:00:22,290 --> 01:00:25,168 He could have cut a deal, I suppose, in the real world. 781 01:00:25,794 --> 01:00:28,380 I think he also found life insupportable. 782 01:00:29,965 --> 01:00:34,094 And he was ashamed in the eyes of his child. 783 01:00:36,054 --> 01:00:38,598 [Errol] Did Ronnie have a sense of shame? 784 01:00:39,391 --> 01:00:40,725 I really don't believe so. 785 01:00:40,725 --> 01:00:44,646 I've heard him do it, kind of through the keyhole, 786 01:00:45,605 --> 01:00:47,732 to the first of my stepmothers. 787 01:00:49,109 --> 01:00:52,445 Howling he would never do something again. 788 01:00:52,946 --> 01:00:54,489 I don't know that he did shame, 789 01:00:54,489 --> 01:00:57,325 I don't know how he could live with himself. 790 01:00:57,325 --> 01:01:01,079 Living with his fantasies, 791 01:01:01,079 --> 01:01:05,041 which didn't necessarily begin as criminal plans 792 01:01:05,041 --> 01:01:08,336 but it... it was like writing a novel, 793 01:01:08,336 --> 01:01:12,549 in the sense that he would hear the right line, 794 01:01:12,549 --> 01:01:16,219 or spot in the crowd some clue. 795 01:01:16,761 --> 01:01:19,472 And that would be the beginning of a scam. 796 01:01:19,472 --> 01:01:24,561 [pensive music] 797 01:01:25,687 --> 01:01:30,483 [David] "I am in the city of Exeter, walking across a patch of wasteland. 798 01:01:32,152 --> 01:01:35,238 I'm holding the hand of my mother, Olive. 799 01:01:35,947 --> 01:01:40,035 As she was wearing gloves, there is no fleshly contact 800 01:01:40,035 --> 01:01:44,414 and indeed, so far as I recall, there never was any. 801 01:01:47,375 --> 01:01:51,922 At the far side of the wasteland is a grim, flat-fronted building 802 01:01:51,922 --> 01:01:55,008 with barred windows and no light inside them." 803 01:01:55,008 --> 01:01:57,135 [pigeon coos softly] 804 01:02:01,181 --> 01:02:03,683 "And in one of these barred windows, 805 01:02:03,683 --> 01:02:08,813 looking exactly like a Monopoly convict, stands my father. 806 01:02:09,564 --> 01:02:12,776 I wave at Ronnie high up in the wall 807 01:02:12,776 --> 01:02:15,612 and Ronnie waves the way he always waved." 808 01:02:16,363 --> 01:02:17,989 [young David] Daddy, Daddy! 809 01:02:20,325 --> 01:02:22,869 [David] "On Olive's hand, I march back to the car, 810 01:02:22,869 --> 01:02:24,829 feeling thoroughly pleased with myself. 811 01:02:27,290 --> 01:02:31,503 Not every small boy, after all, has his mother to himself 812 01:02:31,503 --> 01:02:33,797 and keeps his father in a cage." 813 01:02:33,797 --> 01:02:35,131 [cell door slams] 814 01:02:40,136 --> 01:02:43,431 "But according to my father, none of this happened. 815 01:02:43,431 --> 01:02:46,309 The notion that I might have seen him in any of his prisons 816 01:02:46,309 --> 01:02:48,520 offended him very much." 817 01:02:50,814 --> 01:02:54,192 [Ronnie] Sheer invention from start to finish, son. 818 01:02:54,859 --> 01:02:58,196 Anyone who knows the inside of Exeter jail 819 01:02:58,196 --> 01:03:03,076 knows perfectly well you can't see the road from the cells. 820 01:03:05,537 --> 01:03:07,664 [cell door clanks, slams] 821 01:03:07,664 --> 01:03:09,249 [David] "And I believe him. 822 01:03:10,792 --> 01:03:12,752 I'm wrong and he was right. 823 01:03:12,752 --> 01:03:15,922 He was never at that window and I never waved to him. 824 01:03:16,506 --> 01:03:18,967 But what's the truth? What's memory? 825 01:03:19,676 --> 01:03:21,303 We should find another name 826 01:03:21,303 --> 01:03:25,098 for the way we see past events that are still alive in us." 827 01:03:32,105 --> 01:03:36,526 [Errol] I don't think confronting you is the right way to put it. 828 01:03:37,652 --> 01:03:41,323 But there was something that you said that I found curious 829 01:03:42,449 --> 01:03:45,535 and worth further examination. 830 01:03:46,453 --> 01:03:50,624 Maybe this is an interrogation. Maybe I am self-deceived. 831 01:03:52,417 --> 01:03:56,213 I can't imagine that as an interrogator or an interviewer, 832 01:03:56,213 --> 01:03:59,132 you aren't also in part looking for yourself. 833 01:04:00,050 --> 01:04:03,386 I don't think that we really can penetrate people very much, 834 01:04:05,013 --> 01:04:09,100 but we can form imaginings about them and then we relate to them. 835 01:04:16,858 --> 01:04:22,572 [Errol] You hired private detectives [laughing] to investigate your father. 836 01:04:23,823 --> 01:04:28,578 [David] One fat, one thin. I asked my solicitor, 837 01:04:28,578 --> 01:04:30,038 "How can I get hold of these people?" 838 01:04:30,038 --> 01:04:32,707 He said, "Well, don't tell them I told you, 839 01:04:32,707 --> 01:04:35,627 but these are about the most ruthless men [laughing] I know." 840 01:04:35,627 --> 01:04:39,005 {\an8}I hired them, at an absurdly large sum of money. 841 01:04:42,342 --> 01:04:44,719 [David] Really, they came on very little. 842 01:04:51,726 --> 01:04:58,525 {\an8}A much more reliable source for Ronnie's first criminal case and imprisonment 843 01:04:58,525 --> 01:05:00,860 {\an8}is the local press of the day. 844 01:05:04,990 --> 01:05:09,202 He got, I think, a four-year sentence for fraud at a very young age, 845 01:05:09,202 --> 01:05:11,955 but then he was taken out in mid-sentence 846 01:05:11,955 --> 01:05:15,417 and given a second sentence, uh, with hard labor. 847 01:05:15,417 --> 01:05:17,794 I once said, "How bad was it?" 848 01:05:17,794 --> 01:05:20,046 He said, "Well, the Gypsies were the worst." 849 01:05:20,046 --> 01:05:22,132 And he's talking about handicuffs. 850 01:05:22,883 --> 01:05:29,514 {\an8}Ronnie had a big chest. I think he was capable of being very physical himself. 851 01:05:34,269 --> 01:05:41,192 {\an8}[David] I was in Chicago promoting a British week, riding on London buses, 852 01:05:41,943 --> 01:05:45,488 pretending to make phone calls from telephone kiosks. 853 01:05:52,162 --> 01:05:55,498 The British consul-general then handed me a telegram 854 01:05:55,498 --> 01:05:59,294 {\an8}he'd received from the embassy in Jakarta. 855 01:06:03,340 --> 01:06:08,637 Saying Ronnie was in prison, it would take so much money to get him out. 856 01:06:08,637 --> 01:06:10,972 Would I agree to pay it? 857 01:06:14,851 --> 01:06:17,979 It wasn't an enormous sum, but it was quite painful all the same, 858 01:06:17,979 --> 01:06:20,357 and that got him out. 859 01:06:20,357 --> 01:06:23,693 And we never talked about it until I did much later and he said, 860 01:06:23,693 --> 01:06:26,279 "Oh, it was nothing, just currency stuff." 861 01:06:26,279 --> 01:06:29,574 We now know that he was engaged in arms dealing 862 01:06:29,574 --> 01:06:35,121 at a time when Indonesia was just recovering from a huge genocide. 863 01:06:40,335 --> 01:06:44,256 But then the last time, to my knowledge, that he was in prison, 864 01:06:44,256 --> 01:06:49,010 he was in the Bezirksgefängnis, the district prison in Zurich 865 01:06:49,010 --> 01:06:50,971 for swindling hotels. 866 01:06:50,971 --> 01:06:53,890 He was allowed a reverse charge call to me. 867 01:06:53,890 --> 01:06:58,103 He said, "I can't do any more jail, son. Get me out." 868 01:06:59,229 --> 01:07:00,730 And that was money again. 869 01:07:00,730 --> 01:07:04,985 I mean, it wasn't big money, but it was extremely painful to me. 870 01:07:04,985 --> 01:07:06,319 [cell door slams] 871 01:07:06,319 --> 01:07:12,450 I still have nightmare visions of this hugely active physical man, caged. 872 01:07:14,452 --> 01:07:17,289 In the aggregate, I don't know how much prison he did. 873 01:07:18,498 --> 01:07:21,543 Probably altogether no more than six or seven years. 874 01:07:22,586 --> 01:07:26,214 But what effect it had on him, I can't imagine. 875 01:07:26,214 --> 01:07:28,133 [unsettling music] 876 01:07:28,133 --> 01:07:30,635 [indistinct prisoners chatter] 877 01:07:36,600 --> 01:07:38,852 [Errol] By the way, Ronnie sued you! 878 01:07:40,020 --> 01:07:45,609 [David] Yes, he did. I gave an interview to London Weekend Television. 879 01:07:47,110 --> 01:07:51,031 I omitted to say that I owed everything to him. 880 01:07:52,908 --> 01:07:55,327 I didn't want to give Ronnie the credit. 881 01:07:57,078 --> 01:08:00,248 Why should I find a line that said I owed it all to my father? 882 01:08:00,248 --> 01:08:06,546 But the reality probably is, in many ways, that I do. 883 01:08:18,433 --> 01:08:20,810 [David archive] I've never felt I belonged anywhere, 884 01:08:20,810 --> 01:08:23,271 I've been very lucky in that respect. 885 01:08:23,271 --> 01:08:25,272 I've had a very rich life. 886 01:08:25,982 --> 01:08:29,527 And I've seen a lot of institutions and a lot of things. 887 01:08:30,612 --> 01:08:33,990 I've led a lot of lives, in an odd way. 888 01:08:33,990 --> 01:08:36,534 I don't feel that I belong to any of them. 889 01:08:37,160 --> 01:08:41,748 What I am left with is a sense of being on my own. 890 01:08:47,128 --> 01:08:49,798 [Errol] Was your father tortured by the fact 891 01:08:49,798 --> 01:08:54,052 that you became rich and successful and he did not? 892 01:08:56,346 --> 01:08:57,556 [David] I don't know. 893 01:08:59,723 --> 01:09:05,605 The principal effect of my success upon him 894 01:09:05,605 --> 01:09:08,316 was to create in him a sense of entitlement. 895 01:09:08,316 --> 01:09:12,821 He bought huge quantities of my books, usually on credit, signed them, 896 01:09:12,821 --> 01:09:15,156 "From the author's father." 897 01:09:15,156 --> 01:09:17,158 Gave them around like confetti. 898 01:09:23,164 --> 01:09:29,838 I met the hard-edge, the real edge, I suppose, when he summoned me to Vienna. 899 01:09:33,633 --> 01:09:34,884 "Son, 900 01:09:35,927 --> 01:09:38,429 I've worked out what your education cost me. 901 01:09:38,429 --> 01:09:41,850 And I have some idea of the kind of money you're making." 902 01:09:43,268 --> 01:09:45,603 And then he went on to make a pitch. 903 01:09:45,603 --> 01:09:49,941 "Son, all I've ever wanted in my life is pigs and cattle, 904 01:09:49,941 --> 01:09:52,986 and then a little piece of Dorset. Pigs and cattle. 905 01:09:53,527 --> 01:09:57,782 Somewhere nice to live, nice lady to live with, and I'll be all right. 906 01:09:58,742 --> 01:10:01,661 So, what I need is..." And he named an enormous sum of money. 907 01:10:01,661 --> 01:10:05,457 "Father, I can't do that. It makes no sense to me. 908 01:10:06,041 --> 01:10:10,420 What I will do, if that's really what you want, with your pigs and cattle, 909 01:10:10,420 --> 01:10:13,006 is I will buy a house and own it and put you into it. 910 01:10:13,006 --> 01:10:16,009 I will make an allowance to you for running your farm. 911 01:10:16,009 --> 01:10:18,220 I don't trust you for one second." 912 01:10:18,220 --> 01:10:22,849 He actually had appointed me a mark. He was going to con me. 913 01:10:23,391 --> 01:10:27,312 And I'd join the club of people on the roadside. 914 01:10:27,312 --> 01:10:28,813 And I wasn't going to let that happen. 915 01:10:30,273 --> 01:10:33,026 We were in Sachers, in Vienna, 916 01:10:33,026 --> 01:10:36,571 the most refined, excellent restaurant in those days. 917 01:10:37,280 --> 01:10:41,076 He let out the most awful feral howl. 918 01:10:41,868 --> 01:10:46,539 And shouted, "You're paying your own father to sit on his arse!" 919 01:10:46,539 --> 01:10:49,960 In a voice that could have been heard across the street. 920 01:10:49,960 --> 01:10:55,173 And then he emitted this howl, howl, half rose to his feet, 921 01:10:55,173 --> 01:11:00,220 and I put my arm round his very ample back, 922 01:11:00,220 --> 01:11:06,851 and we hobbled to the front door of the... of the hotel, 923 01:11:08,270 --> 01:11:13,441 down some steps, then there was a cab and he looked up at me in supplicant's face, 924 01:11:13,441 --> 01:11:15,819 "How am I going to pay for this cab?" 925 01:11:17,028 --> 01:11:19,447 And I gave the driver some money. 926 01:11:20,115 --> 01:11:21,741 And off he went. 927 01:11:21,741 --> 01:11:26,329 I could've accepted his pitch, at least given him some money. 928 01:11:27,372 --> 01:11:32,210 But I was so angry that it was a pain to pay for the cab. 929 01:11:33,003 --> 01:11:36,089 [Errol] But it's a feeling of being betrayed. 930 01:11:36,715 --> 01:11:41,595 Yes, it is. There was quite a bit of that in it. "How can you do this to me?" 931 01:11:41,595 --> 01:11:42,762 [melancholy music] 932 01:11:48,101 --> 01:11:50,854 [Guillam] Come on, old friend. It's bedtime. 933 01:11:52,606 --> 01:11:55,442 George? You won. 934 01:11:58,945 --> 01:12:00,030 [Smiley] Did I? 935 01:12:02,157 --> 01:12:03,241 Yes. 936 01:12:04,868 --> 01:12:06,453 Yes, I suppose I did. 937 01:12:15,003 --> 01:12:16,630 [Errol] Did you love Ronnie? 938 01:12:17,464 --> 01:12:19,174 I really don't know what love is. 939 01:12:19,174 --> 01:12:21,676 I must have loved him as a child. 940 01:12:22,177 --> 01:12:26,014 But then, the consequences of his life became clear to me. 941 01:12:26,848 --> 01:12:31,269 Later in life, when he wanted everything I had, like my money. 942 01:12:33,230 --> 01:12:36,900 I was able to pull out the necessary stops. 943 01:12:36,900 --> 01:12:39,361 I could do affection with him. 944 01:12:39,361 --> 01:12:43,573 I could do indifference and, secretly, I could do hatred. 945 01:12:43,573 --> 01:12:45,575 Those things exist, actually, 946 01:12:45,575 --> 01:12:48,203 in any father-son relationship at different times. 947 01:12:48,203 --> 01:12:52,374 They're like seasons. I had to muster hatred in order to escape him. 948 01:13:02,884 --> 01:13:04,928 {\an8}[David] They had three funerals for him. 949 01:13:06,721 --> 01:13:08,306 {\an8}I went to the first one. 950 01:13:09,432 --> 01:13:12,519 {\an8}I was urged to make a speech and declined. 951 01:13:12,519 --> 01:13:15,438 And then there was another funeral 952 01:13:15,438 --> 01:13:18,275 and then, God help us, there was a memorial service. 953 01:13:18,275 --> 01:13:20,318 But I didn't go to either of those. 954 01:13:22,821 --> 01:13:26,950 I wanted to believe that my feelings were dead. 955 01:13:27,951 --> 01:13:29,494 And I've never seen his grave. 956 01:13:31,871 --> 01:13:34,040 [birds sing] 957 01:13:35,500 --> 01:13:37,878 [Errol] But you paid for the funerals. 958 01:13:38,962 --> 01:13:40,463 I'm sure I did, yes. 959 01:13:40,463 --> 01:13:42,841 I paid for everybody's funerals. [chuckles] 960 01:13:42,841 --> 01:13:45,594 I paid for my mother's funeral. I mean, I paid for them. 961 01:13:45,594 --> 01:13:49,306 What-- What the hell does that mean? I'm well off, I paid. 962 01:13:51,766 --> 01:13:55,770 The most loyal of his servants, 963 01:13:55,770 --> 01:13:59,482 who had done jail for him, was a man called Arthur Lowe. 964 01:13:59,482 --> 01:14:03,862 All these people have monosyllables as surnames. 965 01:14:03,862 --> 01:14:05,739 There was a Mister Bent, believe it or not. 966 01:14:07,824 --> 01:14:12,662 I went to Jermyn Street immediately upon hearing of his death 967 01:14:12,662 --> 01:14:17,000 to see whether there was anything there to be redeemed and to be present. 968 01:14:17,959 --> 01:14:23,465 Arthur said, "Let's all go and have a bit of a blowout. Do us good. 969 01:14:23,465 --> 01:14:26,259 Let's go to Jules Bar across the road." 970 01:14:28,136 --> 01:14:30,847 So, about eight of us went, and Arthur presided. 971 01:14:30,847 --> 01:14:34,559 We had champagne and oysters, w-w-whatever the hell we wanted. 972 01:14:34,559 --> 01:14:36,978 We thought we'd cheer ourselves up. Or Arthur did. 973 01:14:36,978 --> 01:14:42,442 Very graciously, he paid. And it was his party, it was fine. 974 01:14:43,109 --> 01:14:47,364 {\an8}It's my party, George. I'll get the bill when I'm ready. 975 01:14:51,117 --> 01:14:53,870 Two days later, I got the receipt in the post. 976 01:14:53,870 --> 01:14:57,207 "Will I please [laughs] adjust as soon as possible?" 977 01:14:57,207 --> 01:14:59,292 Ronnie never had money. 978 01:14:59,292 --> 01:15:05,465 He made killings, but as soon as he made a killing, on the... the sound principle, 979 01:15:05,465 --> 01:15:11,096 that expenditure always exceeds income... it was gone again. 980 01:15:14,599 --> 01:15:18,186 He was some kind of crisis addict. 981 01:15:18,186 --> 01:15:21,356 I think he had to be living on the edge all the time. 982 01:15:23,108 --> 01:15:25,610 And I think he certainly persuaded himself 983 01:15:25,610 --> 01:15:29,614 that this was an honorable and valuable contribution to the community 984 01:15:29,614 --> 01:15:33,034 and they would be happy and he would be mountainously rich. 985 01:15:33,034 --> 01:15:36,538 And mind you, he was within a whisker of that happening. 986 01:15:40,542 --> 01:15:43,837 I'm not making a case for him, I'm just trying to tell you 987 01:15:43,837 --> 01:15:49,509 how close he was to being a successful man. 988 01:15:50,093 --> 01:15:53,221 And how absolutely absurd were his fantasies. 989 01:15:53,221 --> 01:15:55,390 - [slamming] - [pigeon coos] 990 01:16:04,858 --> 01:16:07,027 [Errol] But the world runs on fantasy. 991 01:16:07,027 --> 01:16:12,073 [David] I agree. The membrane between what he does or failed to do, 992 01:16:12,073 --> 01:16:16,077 and enormously wealthy and successful and honored people 993 01:16:16,077 --> 01:16:18,622 that membrane was very, very feeble. 994 01:16:19,289 --> 01:16:23,001 [traffic hums] 995 01:16:25,045 --> 01:16:28,506 [David] "Ronnie is dead and I am revisiting Vienna 996 01:16:29,716 --> 01:16:31,593 in order to breathe the city air 997 01:16:31,593 --> 01:16:35,347 while I write him into the semi-autobiographical novel 998 01:16:35,347 --> 01:16:37,515 I am at last free to ponder. 999 01:16:42,187 --> 01:16:43,730 Not the Sacher again. 1000 01:16:44,272 --> 01:16:46,483 I have a dread that the waiters will remember 1001 01:16:46,483 --> 01:16:51,529 Ronnie crashing down onto the table and me half carrying him out. 1002 01:16:53,448 --> 01:16:56,117 My plane into Schwechat is delayed 1003 01:16:56,117 --> 01:16:59,871 and the reception desk of the hotel that I have chosen at random 1004 01:16:59,871 --> 01:17:02,916 is in the charge of an elderly night porter. 1005 01:17:06,419 --> 01:17:10,090 He looks on silently as I fill in the registration form. 1006 01:17:11,007 --> 01:17:16,346 Then he speaks in soft, venerable Viennese German. 1007 01:17:18,390 --> 01:17:21,601 'Your father was a great man,' he says. 1008 01:17:21,601 --> 01:17:24,062 'You treated him disgracefully.'" 1009 01:17:28,984 --> 01:17:32,779 [Errol] I keep hearing again and again and again 1010 01:17:32,779 --> 01:17:36,992 that I have not pressed you hard enough about betrayal. 1011 01:17:36,992 --> 01:17:42,038 I have failed in my interviewer's or interrogator's job. 1012 01:17:42,038 --> 01:17:48,169 Well, I feel that you got the last drop out of the sponge on that subject. 1013 01:17:48,169 --> 01:17:53,550 But I'll answer any question you wish me to answer, as truthfully as I can. 1014 01:17:53,550 --> 01:17:56,261 [Errol] Do they want you to break down and sob? 1015 01:17:56,261 --> 01:18:00,181 And weep? Yeah. I... I can do that. 1016 01:18:00,181 --> 01:18:03,518 Like I can do bird noises. [chuckles] 1017 01:18:03,518 --> 01:18:08,481 I'm not going to talk about my sex life, any more, I trust, than you would. 1018 01:18:08,481 --> 01:18:10,942 It seems to be an intensely private matter. 1019 01:18:10,942 --> 01:18:14,988 My love life has been a very difficult passage, as you would imagine, 1020 01:18:14,988 --> 01:18:19,409 but it's resolved itself wonderfully, and that's enough on that subject. 1021 01:18:21,494 --> 01:18:24,748 [Errol] So, what do people want? 1022 01:18:25,624 --> 01:18:31,546 They want to think that I am duplicitous, 1023 01:18:32,923 --> 01:18:34,841 false-tongued, 1024 01:18:34,841 --> 01:18:39,054 that I use my charm as a wreckers' light 1025 01:18:40,096 --> 01:18:42,849 and probably that I torture my children. 1026 01:18:43,600 --> 01:18:46,394 They want to unmask me as something, 1027 01:18:46,394 --> 01:18:50,273 but I need to know what is behind the mask first. 1028 01:18:51,441 --> 01:18:54,236 You have all I am, as far as I know. 1029 01:18:59,658 --> 01:19:04,329 {\an8}[Errol] In your memoir, you say none of it's true, it's as I imagined it. 1030 01:19:07,332 --> 01:19:12,879 [David] Inside the bubble, I am abstracting from non-fiction 1031 01:19:12,879 --> 01:19:14,381 and fictionalizing it. 1032 01:19:15,340 --> 01:19:20,345 I want to take tidy stories out of the perceived reality around me. 1033 01:19:23,682 --> 01:19:28,144 {\an8}But I didn't do any of that derring-do stuff that is reported in my books. 1034 01:19:30,272 --> 01:19:35,068 [Errol] But why tell people that a story is false right at the very beginning? 1035 01:19:36,403 --> 01:19:39,489 [David] If you and I had witnessed the same car accident, 1036 01:19:40,532 --> 01:19:43,326 each would have his version of what had happened. 1037 01:19:44,286 --> 01:19:45,954 So, what is truth? 1038 01:19:47,372 --> 01:19:52,168 Objective truth is perceived by some absent third party, 1039 01:19:53,128 --> 01:19:56,381 but otherwise, truth is subjective. 1040 01:19:58,717 --> 01:20:03,138 [Errol] Who is that third party? God? 1041 01:20:03,138 --> 01:20:07,601 There is some kind of factual record which we'll never get our hands on. 1042 01:20:09,144 --> 01:20:10,604 [footsteps echo] 1043 01:20:11,605 --> 01:20:15,942 My business has been to try to make credible fables 1044 01:20:15,942 --> 01:20:21,323 out of the worlds that I visited or visited me. 1045 01:20:32,751 --> 01:20:35,795 The journey for me has been one of the imagination. 1046 01:20:37,047 --> 01:20:39,758 The imaginative refuge from reality. 1047 01:20:42,594 --> 01:20:45,472 The recreation of chaos. 1048 01:20:47,098 --> 01:20:51,478 Not in an orderly way, but in a comprehensible, individualized way 1049 01:20:52,938 --> 01:20:59,945 that makes people feel not à la James Bond, 1050 01:20:59,945 --> 01:21:01,446 "I wish this was me." 1051 01:21:02,239 --> 01:21:07,285 But more kind of, "Jesus, I hope this isn't me." 1052 01:21:08,078 --> 01:21:10,664 [mysterious music] 1053 01:21:17,295 --> 01:21:20,507 [David] "When I was a young and carefree spy, 1054 01:21:20,507 --> 01:21:25,720 it was only natural that I should believe that the nation's hottest secrets 1055 01:21:25,720 --> 01:21:29,474 were housed in a chipped, green Chubbsafe 1056 01:21:29,474 --> 01:21:34,187 that was tucked away at the end of a labyrinth of dingy corridors... 1057 01:21:35,772 --> 01:21:38,692 on the top floor of 54 Broadway... 1058 01:21:39,985 --> 01:21:44,781 ...in the private office occupied by the Chief of the Secret Service. 1059 01:21:46,700 --> 01:21:50,912 {\an8}I had heard that there existed documents so secret 1060 01:21:50,912 --> 01:21:54,624 {\an8}that they were only ever touched by the Chief himself. 1061 01:21:57,961 --> 01:22:00,297 And now the sad day is upon us 1062 01:22:00,297 --> 01:22:04,676 when the final curtain will be run down on Broadway Buildings. 1063 01:22:07,304 --> 01:22:10,056 Is the Chief's safe exempt? 1064 01:22:10,056 --> 01:22:14,019 Will cranes, crowbars, and silent men convey it bodily 1065 01:22:14,019 --> 01:22:17,731 to the next stage along its life's long journey? 1066 01:22:19,983 --> 01:22:23,111 It is reluctantly ruled that the safe will be opened." 1067 01:22:23,111 --> 01:22:24,195 [keys jingle] 1068 01:22:26,281 --> 01:22:28,533 [shouts] So, who's got the bloody key? 1069 01:22:28,533 --> 01:22:30,452 [David] "Not the reigning chief, apparently." 1070 01:22:30,452 --> 01:22:31,578 [Chief] Ah! 1071 01:22:31,578 --> 01:22:34,664 [David] "He has made a point of never venturing inside the safe. 1072 01:22:36,207 --> 01:22:38,501 What you don't know, you can't reveal." 1073 01:22:40,253 --> 01:22:41,588 [Chief] Useless! 1074 01:22:42,339 --> 01:22:44,090 Send for Burglar Bill. 1075 01:22:45,342 --> 01:22:48,553 [David] "The Service has picked a few locks in its day, 1076 01:22:48,553 --> 01:22:51,306 so it looks like time to pick another." 1077 01:23:05,820 --> 01:23:06,988 [lock clunks] 1078 01:23:11,701 --> 01:23:13,411 [dial clicks] 1079 01:23:18,959 --> 01:23:20,752 [David] "The lock yields." 1080 01:23:20,752 --> 01:23:21,962 [lock clunks] 1081 01:23:22,754 --> 01:23:25,257 [David] "The safe is empty. Bare. 1082 01:23:26,007 --> 01:23:29,886 Innocent of even the most mundane secret." 1083 01:23:30,720 --> 01:23:31,846 Wait! 1084 01:23:32,722 --> 01:23:37,769 Is it a decoy safe to protect an inner sanctum? 1085 01:23:42,065 --> 01:23:45,151 [David] "The safe is gently prized from the wall. 1086 01:23:47,404 --> 01:23:49,948 The Chief peers behind it." 1087 01:23:49,948 --> 01:23:51,199 [Chief grunts] 1088 01:23:52,492 --> 01:23:58,039 [David] "And extracts a very thick, very old pair of trousers, 1089 01:23:59,332 --> 01:24:01,209 with a label attached to them. 1090 01:24:01,877 --> 01:24:08,508 The typed inscription declares that these are the trousers worn by Rudolf Hess..." 1091 01:24:09,092 --> 01:24:10,093 [thunder] 1092 01:24:10,594 --> 01:24:14,180 "...Adolf Hitler's deputy when he flew to Scotland 1093 01:24:14,180 --> 01:24:18,476 to negotiate a separate peace with the Duke of Hamilton. 1094 01:24:19,352 --> 01:24:24,691 In the mistaken belief that the Duke shared his fascist views." 1095 01:24:29,029 --> 01:24:32,032 [aircraft engine thrums] 1096 01:24:33,033 --> 01:24:35,160 [engine rattles] 1097 01:25:01,061 --> 01:25:04,856 [David] "Beneath the inscription runs a handwritten scrawl." 1098 01:25:06,483 --> 01:25:08,151 [aircraft roars] 1099 01:25:09,361 --> 01:25:11,488 "Please analyze. 1100 01:25:12,572 --> 01:25:18,662 May give an idea of the state of the German textile industry." 1101 01:25:20,330 --> 01:25:23,500 [Chief laughs] 1102 01:25:25,418 --> 01:25:28,505 [he continues to laugh] 1103 01:25:30,298 --> 01:25:36,096 [David] That was a story about men from a diminished imperial power 1104 01:25:36,096 --> 01:25:39,599 looking into a false reflection of themselves. 1105 01:25:39,599 --> 01:25:44,437 Still guarding a great nation, still playing the world's game. 1106 01:25:45,689 --> 01:25:51,194 And in fact, they were a tragically reduced crowd 1107 01:25:52,279 --> 01:25:54,364 driven by their own nostalgia. 1108 01:25:55,782 --> 01:25:58,034 [Errol] And when you look in the mirror? 1109 01:25:59,661 --> 01:26:01,037 Now? Today? 1110 01:26:01,663 --> 01:26:05,917 I'm much more at ease with myself now, in age. 1111 01:26:05,917 --> 01:26:10,964 More reconciled to who I was. And who I was not. 1112 01:26:10,964 --> 01:26:13,758 So, I'm not too unhappy when I look in the mirror, 1113 01:26:13,758 --> 01:26:16,052 unless I've got a dreadful hangover. 1114 01:26:16,887 --> 01:26:21,516 [Errol] I look at you as an exquisite poet of self-hatred. 1115 01:26:21,516 --> 01:26:24,561 Yeah, I would go with that. [laughs] 1116 01:26:24,561 --> 01:26:30,942 I think that it's only in the last few years that I feel I've found my freedom, 1117 01:26:30,942 --> 01:26:33,987 and I love being what I am best at. 1118 01:26:33,987 --> 01:26:38,450 Not just being a writer, that's incidental, but writing. 1119 01:26:38,450 --> 01:26:42,621 Without the creative life, I have very little identity. 1120 01:26:42,621 --> 01:26:45,957 I'm like an actor without a part. 1121 01:26:45,957 --> 01:26:51,922 With the work, I am as near as I get to being a happy man. 1122 01:26:52,881 --> 01:26:54,841 And I love, I love writing. 1123 01:26:55,717 --> 01:26:57,385 So, I am that animal. 1124 01:26:58,303 --> 01:27:03,850 And I dare hardly use the claim, but I'll make it here, I'm an artist. 1125 01:27:03,850 --> 01:27:06,269 [somber music] 1126 01:27:06,269 --> 01:27:08,563 [pigeons coo]