1 00:00:01,210 --> 00:00:04,003 [♪ tense music playing] 2 00:00:04,880 --> 00:00:06,006 We're not friends? 3 00:00:08,342 --> 00:00:09,968 What the fuck is going on? 4 00:00:11,345 --> 00:00:13,096 What the fuck? You just said that to me, 5 00:00:13,180 --> 00:00:14,389 that you don't feel like we're friends. 6 00:00:14,473 --> 00:00:15,974 Okay, then, fuck you! 7 00:00:16,558 --> 00:00:17,893 Holy shit! 8 00:00:17,976 --> 00:00:20,979 [♪ dramatic music playing] 9 00:00:27,236 --> 00:00:29,071 [Jen] To be honest, I'm not surprised 10 00:00:29,154 --> 00:00:31,406 with the way that Whitney's acting right now. 11 00:00:31,490 --> 00:00:36,161 And this has just reconfirmed to me why I have kept my distance. 12 00:00:36,245 --> 00:00:38,622 Mikayla, will you just talk to me and just-- 13 00:00:38,705 --> 00:00:40,666 Did I do something-- Like, genuinely-- 14 00:00:40,749 --> 00:00:42,251 -[Layla] What happened? -If so... 15 00:00:46,630 --> 00:00:47,923 [Jen] Therapy's expensive. 16 00:00:48,006 --> 00:00:50,926 I'm gonna send Whitney my bill after this conversation. 17 00:00:52,010 --> 00:00:53,345 [Taylor] When did she tell you? 18 00:00:53,679 --> 00:00:55,639 Uh, Zac told me last week. 19 00:00:55,722 --> 00:00:57,432 [Taylor] Oh! And you just haven't said anything? 20 00:00:57,516 --> 00:00:58,600 And I just haven't texted. 21 00:00:58,684 --> 00:01:01,687 I've told her in person, but she's upset that I didn't tell her... 22 00:01:01,770 --> 00:01:03,146 -[Layla] When you knew? -...when I knew. 23 00:01:03,230 --> 00:01:06,275 If someone posts, I'm literally terrified to not comment on somebody's post, 24 00:01:06,358 --> 00:01:08,318 because I feel like we have this expectation now of, 25 00:01:08,402 --> 00:01:10,904 if I'm not like showing complete-- And it's probably that. 26 00:01:10,988 --> 00:01:14,116 I mean, I don't wanna hear it, like it's my fault. 27 00:01:14,449 --> 00:01:16,868 [Layla] This Whitney and Jen drama definitely makes me feel like 28 00:01:16,952 --> 00:01:19,746 I'm back at the CMA drama from last year. 29 00:01:19,830 --> 00:01:21,665 [Taylor] I posted about my CMAs, 30 00:01:21,748 --> 00:01:26,253 not a single one of my friends from MomTok said a single thing about it or commented. 31 00:01:26,336 --> 00:01:28,255 To hear nothing, like, what the fuck? 32 00:01:28,338 --> 00:01:31,091 I think all the cool opportunities we're getting are great, 33 00:01:31,174 --> 00:01:32,634 but I also think it has the potential 34 00:01:32,718 --> 00:01:35,512 to pull us away from why we're in MomTok to begin with, 35 00:01:35,596 --> 00:01:37,973 and make us lose sight of the genuine friendships. 36 00:01:38,056 --> 00:01:40,267 It's hard to balance it all, 37 00:01:40,350 --> 00:01:43,312 but if we don't have our friendships, what is this all for? 38 00:01:44,605 --> 00:01:46,440 I-- I see where Whitney's upset, 39 00:01:46,523 --> 00:01:49,192 but to be honest, I don't feel like our friendship has been genuine. 40 00:01:49,276 --> 00:01:52,654 To be honest, I think it's very much been transactional and fake. 41 00:01:52,738 --> 00:01:56,742 And I feel like, in order to protect my energy, 42 00:01:56,825 --> 00:01:59,286 I've been just being cordial this whole time, 43 00:01:59,369 --> 00:02:01,872 because I don't have the time or-- And none-- none of us do. 44 00:02:01,955 --> 00:02:04,875 There's a lot of competition and jealousy between Whitney and Jen right now, 45 00:02:04,958 --> 00:02:06,793 and that's where this is all stemming from. 46 00:02:06,877 --> 00:02:09,630 But MomTok does not need to be dealing with this right now. 47 00:02:09,713 --> 00:02:12,924 As we kind of grow in popularity, we're getting more and more offers, 48 00:02:13,008 --> 00:02:14,801 like Taylor with The Bachelorette coming up. 49 00:02:14,885 --> 00:02:18,430 And when we start getting more exposure and more opportunities, 50 00:02:18,513 --> 00:02:20,349 I do worry it may drive us apart. 51 00:02:20,432 --> 00:02:21,767 [Jen] It's-- It's all transactional. 52 00:02:21,850 --> 00:02:24,019 She's saying like, I don't care about her. 53 00:02:24,102 --> 00:02:25,979 I'm like, "You don't care about any of us either. 54 00:02:26,063 --> 00:02:28,106 You only came back for Dancing with the Stars." 55 00:02:28,982 --> 00:02:32,027 I am feeling, like, so heated right now. 56 00:02:32,110 --> 00:02:34,571 I don't even know if people are backing me up 57 00:02:34,655 --> 00:02:36,281 or people backing Jen up. 58 00:02:36,365 --> 00:02:39,826 But if there is one thing that I have learned being a part of this group 59 00:02:39,910 --> 00:02:42,954 is that something is bound to happen, 60 00:02:43,038 --> 00:02:44,581 but the show must go on. 61 00:02:44,998 --> 00:02:47,793 [♪ dramatic music playing] 62 00:02:50,212 --> 00:02:51,463 ♪ Come thee saints ♪ 63 00:02:51,546 --> 00:02:54,007 ♪ And come thee sinners ♪ 64 00:02:54,091 --> 00:02:57,761 ♪ Hallelujah ♪ 65 00:02:57,844 --> 00:03:00,097 ♪ Listen up ♪ 66 00:03:00,180 --> 00:03:03,392 ♪ I'm the one you've been dreaming of ♪ 67 00:03:03,475 --> 00:03:07,187 ♪ I've got everything you could ever want ♪ 68 00:03:07,270 --> 00:03:10,691 ♪ Try me and you'll see I'll bring you to your knees ♪ 69 00:03:10,774 --> 00:03:13,151 ♪ Baby, you're gonna believe ♪ 70 00:03:13,235 --> 00:03:16,238 ♪♪ 71 00:03:20,867 --> 00:03:24,413 ♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪ 72 00:03:24,496 --> 00:03:28,375 ♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪ 73 00:03:28,458 --> 00:03:31,795 ♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪ 74 00:03:32,295 --> 00:03:35,924 ♪ Lead us not into temptation ♪ 75 00:03:36,341 --> 00:03:37,592 ♪ Temptation ♪ 76 00:03:40,762 --> 00:03:43,765 [♪ intense music playing] 77 00:03:45,684 --> 00:03:48,854 ♪♪ 78 00:03:48,937 --> 00:03:52,816 ♪ Will you love me when I'm broken and I'm hopeless? ♪ 79 00:03:52,899 --> 00:03:55,235 ♪ When the rain starts pouring? ♪ 80 00:03:56,111 --> 00:03:58,071 ♪ If it came without a warning... ♪ 81 00:03:58,155 --> 00:03:59,948 [baby crying] 82 00:04:05,704 --> 00:04:10,000 After finding out about Dakota and Shinia, I feel completely fucked over. 83 00:04:10,083 --> 00:04:12,210 And not only that, but I am on empty. 84 00:04:12,294 --> 00:04:15,130 This is not the headspace I wanted to be walking into The Bachelorette. 85 00:04:15,213 --> 00:04:16,715 I think it was very deliberate. 86 00:04:16,798 --> 00:04:20,051 I need to start packing, though, so I'm gonna grab my suitcases. 87 00:04:20,135 --> 00:04:23,305 I mean, Dakota knew what this would do. He's not fucking stupid. 88 00:04:23,388 --> 00:04:27,225 [groans] It's just-- It's-- Yeah. It sucks. 89 00:04:28,560 --> 00:04:29,561 Hi! 90 00:04:29,644 --> 00:04:32,814 [gasps] Oh, yep, get on in. You going with me, huh? 91 00:04:32,898 --> 00:04:36,693 What d'you-- What's your expectations? Are you nervous? 92 00:04:36,777 --> 00:04:39,613 It's okay to be nervous. I'm nervous for you. 93 00:04:39,696 --> 00:04:42,199 I don't have any. I don't have any going in. 94 00:04:42,282 --> 00:04:45,827 That way, it's like, whatever happens is gonna happen. 95 00:04:45,911 --> 00:04:48,246 There's a part of me that even wonders if I'm capable of doing this 96 00:04:48,330 --> 00:04:50,248 given the recent events. 97 00:04:50,332 --> 00:04:51,458 And then there's another part of me that's like, 98 00:04:51,541 --> 00:04:52,959 "Well, you already said you're gonna do it, 99 00:04:53,043 --> 00:04:54,878 you need to do it, so pull through." 100 00:04:54,961 --> 00:04:57,839 So kinda very chaotic in the head, for sure. 101 00:04:57,923 --> 00:05:00,592 Which is no secret to anybody, I guess, at this point. 102 00:05:00,675 --> 00:05:01,802 I'm so excited for you. 103 00:05:01,885 --> 00:05:05,180 This is gonna be something, like, so fun, 104 00:05:05,263 --> 00:05:08,433 and challenging, and emotional too. 105 00:05:08,517 --> 00:05:09,684 And I just hope that you can-- 106 00:05:09,768 --> 00:05:12,437 [Jeremy] Yeah, are you gonna be able to handle the emotional ride? 107 00:05:12,521 --> 00:05:17,818 Honestly, like, I can't imagine more chaos than I'm already living, so... 108 00:05:17,901 --> 00:05:19,945 -[Liann] Well, never say that. [laughs] -[Jeremy] Wild. 109 00:05:21,988 --> 00:05:24,991 ♪♪ 110 00:05:25,909 --> 00:05:29,162 ♪ Lately, I've been walking around this town ♪ 111 00:05:29,246 --> 00:05:31,122 ♪ With my head up in the clouds ♪ 112 00:05:31,206 --> 00:05:33,625 ♪ Scared I might never get out ♪ 113 00:05:33,708 --> 00:05:37,879 ♪ And I wanna be where the flowers grow ♪ 114 00:05:37,963 --> 00:05:41,341 ♪ Somebody take me, take me home ♪ 115 00:05:42,050 --> 00:05:45,345 ♪ Before this dirty city takes my soul ♪ 116 00:05:45,428 --> 00:05:47,305 ♪ My soul ♪ 117 00:05:47,389 --> 00:05:48,682 [Zac] Good morning. 118 00:05:48,765 --> 00:05:49,766 Good morning. 119 00:05:50,684 --> 00:05:52,185 What's up? How are you feeling? 120 00:05:52,269 --> 00:05:54,229 [sighs] I need to stay off of my phone. 121 00:05:54,312 --> 00:05:57,274 Yeah, you really need to stay off social media right now. 122 00:05:57,357 --> 00:05:58,441 [Jen] Yeah. 123 00:05:58,525 --> 00:06:02,028 [Zac] I know you cried most of the night. 124 00:06:02,821 --> 00:06:04,739 Last night, I got eliminated, 125 00:06:04,823 --> 00:06:09,911 and to be honest, I am devastated and very much surprised. 126 00:06:09,995 --> 00:06:12,581 [host] The couple going home is... 127 00:06:12,664 --> 00:06:15,125 [♪ suspenseful music playing] 128 00:06:15,208 --> 00:06:16,543 ...Jen and Jan. 129 00:06:19,713 --> 00:06:22,382 Just like-- It's like a pit in my stomach, like-- 130 00:06:22,883 --> 00:06:26,094 Dreamt of this moment, like, my whole life. 131 00:06:26,177 --> 00:06:29,389 And the fact that it's like over just like that, it just... 132 00:06:31,391 --> 00:06:33,310 it feels just, like, weird. 133 00:06:33,393 --> 00:06:36,771 Yeah, the positives even hurt more 'cause it's like those memories and-- 134 00:06:36,855 --> 00:06:37,856 Yeah. 135 00:06:38,815 --> 00:06:42,652 [Zac] You can be sad, but you also-- You have to be proud of yourself 136 00:06:42,736 --> 00:06:46,197 'cause you wanted to inspire people and you've accomplished that. 137 00:06:46,948 --> 00:06:48,658 You did this eight weeks postpartum. 138 00:06:49,159 --> 00:06:53,955 I'll never forget, like, finishing my dance and looking over-- 139 00:06:55,290 --> 00:06:58,335 looking over at you and Nora... 140 00:06:59,753 --> 00:07:02,213 [crying] ...and just seeing how proud you were. 141 00:07:02,297 --> 00:07:04,966 -I really gave it my all. -Yeah, you gave your heart to it, 142 00:07:05,050 --> 00:07:06,676 and you have to be proud of that. 143 00:07:08,428 --> 00:07:12,974 Oh, man, I think I'm still trying to process. 144 00:07:15,894 --> 00:07:16,895 Thank you. 145 00:07:18,271 --> 00:07:19,940 Thank you. Thank you. 146 00:07:22,776 --> 00:07:25,362 You're right. I should be proud of myself. 147 00:07:27,697 --> 00:07:28,782 [Jen sighs] 148 00:07:29,115 --> 00:07:31,201 Whitney has been blowing up my phone. 149 00:07:31,868 --> 00:07:35,580 Apparently, she wants to have a conversation, which is-- 150 00:07:35,664 --> 00:07:39,542 You think she wants to apologize for how she yelled and screamed at you or? 151 00:07:39,626 --> 00:07:40,835 No. 152 00:07:40,919 --> 00:07:43,672 Think she wants to apologize for laughing when you got eliminated? 153 00:07:43,755 --> 00:07:44,756 No. 154 00:07:44,839 --> 00:07:47,467 [influencer] Okay, fam, it looks like Whitney is laughing 155 00:07:47,550 --> 00:07:48,843 when Jen gets kicked off. 156 00:07:48,927 --> 00:07:50,720 Do you think that she's happy she's safe, 157 00:07:50,804 --> 00:07:54,307 or do we think that she's actually happy to see Jen going home? 158 00:07:54,391 --> 00:07:56,851 Hit me up in the comments. Let me know what you think. 159 00:07:56,935 --> 00:07:59,479 I think she's worried about-- 160 00:07:59,562 --> 00:08:02,273 She's thinking about her, and being in the competition, 161 00:08:02,357 --> 00:08:05,026 and she didn't like what I had to say on live, 162 00:08:05,110 --> 00:08:06,611 and so, I'm sure she's-- 163 00:08:06,695 --> 00:08:08,905 -Oh, about you not voting for her? -Yeah. 164 00:08:08,989 --> 00:08:12,951 And I would be rooting for a former MomTok person, 165 00:08:13,034 --> 00:08:14,661 but we won't get into it. 166 00:08:14,744 --> 00:08:16,955 Okay, we'll end this live now. 167 00:08:17,038 --> 00:08:19,290 Oh! I'm out of this chat. 168 00:08:19,374 --> 00:08:22,085 Whitney only cares about Whitney and her not getting eliminated, 169 00:08:22,168 --> 00:08:25,463 and she knows that I hold power when it comes to that 170 00:08:25,547 --> 00:08:28,508 just because if I say anything more, it could hurt her. 171 00:08:29,426 --> 00:08:31,678 [Whitney] Hello, um... 172 00:08:31,761 --> 00:08:34,681 I just wanna apologize for overreacting and yelling. 173 00:08:35,181 --> 00:08:38,143 Still gonna say hi to you when I see you at the studio 174 00:08:38,226 --> 00:08:40,061 and wish you luck, um... 175 00:08:40,145 --> 00:08:43,815 But yeah, I just wanted to say sorry for treating you that way. 176 00:08:43,898 --> 00:08:46,943 [Jen] She knows she effed up. You wanna act like everything's okay? 177 00:08:47,027 --> 00:08:48,236 I'm tired of being fake. 178 00:08:48,319 --> 00:08:50,238 And I've done that a lot, and I'm tired of doing that, 179 00:08:50,321 --> 00:08:51,614 and I'm not doing that anymore. 180 00:08:51,698 --> 00:08:53,992 And if that means the whole group is against me 181 00:08:54,075 --> 00:08:57,412 because I'm not friends with Whitney who's currently popular 182 00:08:57,495 --> 00:09:00,165 and that's a cool thing to do right now, I don't care. 183 00:09:00,248 --> 00:09:01,583 [Zac] And I think it would be good, 184 00:09:01,666 --> 00:09:04,252 I mean, just to have a cordial conversation 185 00:09:04,335 --> 00:09:06,921 and just like, "Hey, this is my perspective. 186 00:09:07,005 --> 00:09:09,132 That's your perspective." You guys can just talk it out. 187 00:09:09,215 --> 00:09:11,468 You think-- You think I should go talk to her? 188 00:09:11,551 --> 00:09:13,511 Yeah, I think someone needs to hold her accountable. 189 00:09:15,180 --> 00:09:17,974 I know you feel like this is the end of the world, 190 00:09:18,058 --> 00:09:19,726 but this is just the beginning. 191 00:09:19,809 --> 00:09:22,437 I know it doesn't feel that way, but you're gonna go do way bigger things. 192 00:09:23,521 --> 00:09:26,733 This journey of Dancing with the Stars, Jen was gone all the time, 193 00:09:26,816 --> 00:09:28,777 and so, our marriage did get neglected. 194 00:09:28,860 --> 00:09:32,280 At the same time, it was one of the coolest, happiest, fun experiences. 195 00:09:32,363 --> 00:09:33,907 And I feel pretty sad for her. 196 00:09:33,990 --> 00:09:36,409 But I also feel really grateful that she got as far as she did. 197 00:09:36,493 --> 00:09:38,912 I've really learned that I have to cherish every second I get with her. 198 00:09:38,995 --> 00:09:40,413 And it's also helped me realize, like-- 199 00:09:40,497 --> 00:09:43,625 I have a lot more respect for stay-at-home parents. 200 00:09:43,708 --> 00:09:44,709 Getting away from Whitney 201 00:09:44,793 --> 00:09:47,629 and going back with some of your other friends could be good, too. 202 00:09:48,213 --> 00:09:50,465 -We don't have a lot of friends down here. -Yeah, if Whitney's down here, I'm-- 203 00:09:51,257 --> 00:09:53,468 Yeah, I should probably get out of here. 204 00:09:53,551 --> 00:09:55,095 But she's gonna be in Chicago. 205 00:09:56,096 --> 00:09:57,097 New York. 206 00:09:57,222 --> 00:09:59,599 -It's New York? -The play is called Chicago. 207 00:09:59,682 --> 00:10:00,683 Oh-- 208 00:10:02,477 --> 00:10:03,478 I'm dead! 209 00:10:03,561 --> 00:10:06,815 ♪ This is where I shine, shine ♪ 210 00:10:06,898 --> 00:10:10,401 ♪ Love it, yes, I love it all the time, time ♪ 211 00:10:10,735 --> 00:10:12,070 Hello. 212 00:10:12,570 --> 00:10:14,030 -[Litia] Hi, gorg! -Hi! 213 00:10:14,447 --> 00:10:16,407 -[Layla] Gonna sit right here. -Wait, this is new. That's cute. 214 00:10:16,491 --> 00:10:19,160 -Thank you so much. -Did you get that in New York? 215 00:10:19,244 --> 00:10:20,787 -[Layla] Mm-hmm. -Slay! 216 00:10:20,870 --> 00:10:22,622 -Love her. -Slayla! 217 00:10:22,705 --> 00:10:26,084 With all of the Shinia and Dakota and Taylor drama going on, 218 00:10:26,167 --> 00:10:28,837 I haven't really had a chance to check in with Layla 219 00:10:28,920 --> 00:10:30,088 and see how she's doing. 220 00:10:30,171 --> 00:10:32,549 I'm so excited to see how her meeting went with Ford Models 221 00:10:32,632 --> 00:10:35,385 because I know this is a huge opportunity for her, 222 00:10:35,468 --> 00:10:36,469 and it's a dream of hers. 223 00:10:36,553 --> 00:10:38,972 Hey, so you haven't told me any update on Ford. 224 00:10:39,472 --> 00:10:40,473 Ugh, yeah. 225 00:10:40,557 --> 00:10:43,101 [Litia] Oh, yeah! What did-- How did that go? 226 00:10:43,601 --> 00:10:45,019 [sighs] They didn't sign me. 227 00:10:45,103 --> 00:10:47,772 Uh, so just calling to give you a little bit of an update. 228 00:10:47,856 --> 00:10:48,940 -[Layla] Yeah. - Um... 229 00:10:49,023 --> 00:10:51,109 So, I've spoken with my team here in New York, 230 00:10:51,192 --> 00:10:53,319 unfortunately, not everyone is really aligned 231 00:10:53,403 --> 00:10:54,737 -or on the same page. -'Kay. 232 00:10:55,196 --> 00:10:56,406 [Brett] So, we're gonna have to pass 233 00:10:56,489 --> 00:10:57,824 -at this time. -'Kay. 234 00:10:57,949 --> 00:10:59,993 So, I'm just like embarrassed. I feel like-- I'm like--- 235 00:11:00,076 --> 00:11:02,328 Don't be. Like, you're gonna get yeses and you're gonna get nos. 236 00:11:02,412 --> 00:11:04,873 And every supermodel literally will tell you 237 00:11:04,956 --> 00:11:07,917 -that they have-- had plenty of nos. -[Litia] Has had nos, literally. 238 00:11:08,001 --> 00:11:10,628 I don't think you guys-- Getting rejected by a modeling agency, 239 00:11:10,712 --> 00:11:12,297 that means there's something wrong with me 240 00:11:12,380 --> 00:11:14,465 that they didn't choose me. So I feel like-- I've been like, 241 00:11:14,549 --> 00:11:18,052 the last couple of days, I've been struggling so hard with confidence, 242 00:11:18,136 --> 00:11:21,389 and I'm like, "I weigh too much," or "My face isn't symmetrical," 243 00:11:21,472 --> 00:11:23,183 and I'm like, "I'm literally the ugliest person ever," like-- 244 00:11:23,266 --> 00:11:24,392 -You're not at all. -Hey. 245 00:11:24,475 --> 00:11:28,897 I know, but I think it just stems back to just me never feeling like I'm enough, 246 00:11:28,980 --> 00:11:31,065 -if that makes sense. I don't know. -[Miranda] Yeah. Totally. 247 00:11:31,149 --> 00:11:33,026 Just like having someone look at you, and look at your face, 248 00:11:33,109 --> 00:11:35,528 and be like, "Yeah, like, we don't want you." 249 00:11:35,612 --> 00:11:37,947 You know, like, it just kind of like-- It sucks. 250 00:11:38,031 --> 00:11:40,241 And I feel like everyone's always told me, "You should pursue modeling. 251 00:11:40,325 --> 00:11:42,535 You're built for it. You're built for it." I'm like, "Maybe I'm not." 252 00:11:42,619 --> 00:11:44,579 I've struggled with 253 00:11:45,622 --> 00:11:49,626 body image issues and an eating disorder since I was in high school. 254 00:11:49,709 --> 00:11:51,336 I used to have anorexia, 255 00:11:51,419 --> 00:11:55,089 and then I got pregnant with my first son when I was 19, 256 00:11:55,173 --> 00:11:58,885 and, naturally, I mean, there's a baby inside of me that I have to care for, 257 00:11:58,968 --> 00:12:01,262 so I feel like I kind of healed for a little bit. 258 00:12:01,346 --> 00:12:04,974 And then I got pregnant again, and I didn't spiral then, 259 00:12:05,058 --> 00:12:08,519 but after me and my ex separated, that's when I feel like I started 260 00:12:08,603 --> 00:12:11,606 to go back into those old ways and those old habits. 261 00:12:11,689 --> 00:12:17,737 And I feel like I've been battling it for the last four years now, silently. 262 00:12:17,820 --> 00:12:19,864 You know that that's not true, because... 263 00:12:20,615 --> 00:12:22,200 first of all, you have a mirror that you can look in 264 00:12:22,283 --> 00:12:23,576 -and you have eyes that work. -[Miranda chuckling] 265 00:12:23,660 --> 00:12:25,828 But I also have a brain that tricks me and says... 266 00:12:25,912 --> 00:12:27,121 -[Litia] Yeah, it's true. -...I'm too fat and ugly. 267 00:12:27,205 --> 00:12:30,291 But you also have booked so many other modeling deals. 268 00:12:30,375 --> 00:12:33,211 I just feel like every girl's getting such awesome opportunities, 269 00:12:33,294 --> 00:12:34,420 and I'm so proud of them. 270 00:12:34,504 --> 00:12:37,173 But I definitely-- You know, you get a little hard on yourself, 271 00:12:37,257 --> 00:12:40,426 and you hope that you can achieve things outside of MomTok as well, 272 00:12:40,510 --> 00:12:42,095 and rejection hurts. 273 00:12:42,178 --> 00:12:43,179 [Litia] You wouldn't even have-- 274 00:12:43,263 --> 00:12:45,515 You wouldn't have made it in the door at Ford 275 00:12:45,598 --> 00:12:48,643 if you weren't a beautiful, like, accomplished person 276 00:12:48,726 --> 00:12:50,937 that had a lot of potential. 277 00:12:51,354 --> 00:12:53,982 [Layla] I feel like I'm trying to look at positives in the situation 278 00:12:54,065 --> 00:12:56,818 that if I did get it, I would have to move to New York for three months, 279 00:12:56,901 --> 00:13:00,697 and that would definitely be hard with my babies, and with Mason, 280 00:13:00,780 --> 00:13:02,240 and figuring all of that out. 281 00:13:02,323 --> 00:13:03,366 But it's just a hard toss-up 282 00:13:03,449 --> 00:13:05,034 'cause it's something that I want so badly. 283 00:13:05,451 --> 00:13:07,287 -It's not the only big agency. -No. 284 00:13:07,370 --> 00:13:08,746 Like, there are others. 285 00:13:08,830 --> 00:13:10,832 I don't think I mentally can handle another "no." 286 00:13:10,915 --> 00:13:13,084 -I think I just wanted it so bad. -I love you. 287 00:13:15,628 --> 00:13:16,754 ♪♪ 288 00:13:16,838 --> 00:13:19,090 ♪ When it comes to my freak, we see I'm on top ♪ 289 00:13:19,173 --> 00:13:21,009 ♪ Good energy can never be stopped ♪ 290 00:13:21,092 --> 00:13:22,719 ♪ Everything I want, I already got ♪ 291 00:13:22,802 --> 00:13:24,887 ♪ Manifest the money like it's my job ♪ 292 00:13:24,971 --> 00:13:26,848 ♪ Open your mind to cut yourself loose ♪ 293 00:13:26,931 --> 00:13:28,766 ♪ Let the vibration make your feet move ♪ 294 00:13:28,850 --> 00:13:30,768 ♪ Elevate yourself, yes, I approve ♪ 295 00:13:30,852 --> 00:13:32,729 ♪ Positivity... ♪ 296 00:13:33,563 --> 00:13:36,733 I felt really bad the way that I handled Jen and I's argument. 297 00:13:36,816 --> 00:13:39,736 No matter what's happened, no one deserves to be yelled to like that. 298 00:13:39,819 --> 00:13:42,196 So, I don't want things to be awkward with us. 299 00:13:42,280 --> 00:13:46,534 I've asked her to meet up with me, and, hopefully, we can move past this. 300 00:13:46,617 --> 00:13:48,786 ♪♪ 301 00:13:48,870 --> 00:13:52,332 [♪ intense music playing] 302 00:13:52,415 --> 00:13:55,376 What the fuck? Why is Zac here? And where is Jen? 303 00:13:57,253 --> 00:14:00,631 [♪ intense music continues] 304 00:14:05,053 --> 00:14:07,472 -[Whitney] Hello. -[Zac] Hi. How you doing? 305 00:14:07,555 --> 00:14:09,140 Good. 306 00:14:09,223 --> 00:14:10,308 I'm, uh... 307 00:14:11,517 --> 00:14:13,311 I'm gonna be filling in today. 308 00:14:13,394 --> 00:14:14,896 Filling in for Jen? 309 00:14:15,855 --> 00:14:18,733 I decided to go talk to Whitney because Jen asks me to. 310 00:14:18,816 --> 00:14:22,445 I wanted to go kind of just, uh, defend Jen. 311 00:14:22,528 --> 00:14:24,405 I don't care if Whitney screams or yell at me, 312 00:14:24,489 --> 00:14:26,157 I'm-- I'm not scared of Whitney. 313 00:14:26,491 --> 00:14:28,910 -She didn't wanna come, um... -[Whitney] Why? 314 00:14:29,952 --> 00:14:31,537 I mean, the truth is she's hurting right now. 315 00:14:31,621 --> 00:14:32,663 She's sad, she's grieving, 316 00:14:32,747 --> 00:14:35,166 -I think, just like you would be if you-- -Yeah, of course. I'm-- 317 00:14:35,249 --> 00:14:37,710 -Yeah, I'm so sorry she got eliminated. -Like, it-- It sucked. 318 00:14:37,794 --> 00:14:40,004 I-- I don't know if you are. I hope you are. 319 00:14:40,505 --> 00:14:44,175 Um, I think she's just-- I think she needs time to process her journey. 320 00:14:44,258 --> 00:14:46,386 And to be honest, I think she's probably scared to come here 321 00:14:46,469 --> 00:14:48,679 and get yelled at by you. 322 00:14:49,555 --> 00:14:51,641 -You do that a lot. -Yeah, you know what else I did? 323 00:14:52,141 --> 00:14:55,186 I voice-memoed her an apology for yelling at her. 324 00:14:55,269 --> 00:14:58,439 Yeah, Whitney, it was a bullshit fake apology. 325 00:14:58,523 --> 00:14:59,732 I h-- I heard it myself. 326 00:15:00,650 --> 00:15:02,443 [Whitney] You know what? It wasn't a bullshit apology. 327 00:15:02,527 --> 00:15:03,861 I really did feel bad for yelling. 328 00:15:03,945 --> 00:15:05,947 -I said, "I'm so sorry for saying that." -And you said, "Let's be friends again 329 00:15:06,030 --> 00:15:07,740 "'cause I don't want this exposed to the media, 330 00:15:07,824 --> 00:15:10,243 'cause I'm gonna get voted off because I'm a mean girl." 331 00:15:11,869 --> 00:15:13,496 -That's the truth. -[Whitney] First of all-- 332 00:15:13,579 --> 00:15:15,081 -Whitney... -I'm not even-- I'm not even 333 00:15:15,164 --> 00:15:16,582 -gonna defend myself for that. -...yes or no? 334 00:15:16,666 --> 00:15:18,334 She said she didn't wanna be friends, and I didn't know that. 335 00:15:18,418 --> 00:15:21,462 That hurt my feelings, and I overreacted. I apologized. 336 00:15:21,546 --> 00:15:22,964 I love the transparency. But you don't-- 337 00:15:23,047 --> 00:15:28,428 I will not stand is for you to go on live after you get eliminated 338 00:15:28,511 --> 00:15:31,264 to then say, "I'm not voting for Whitney." 339 00:15:31,347 --> 00:15:34,016 What's the objective there? I'm in a competition. 340 00:15:34,350 --> 00:15:35,685 -The vote still matters. -I think the objective is she thinks 341 00:15:35,768 --> 00:15:38,396 there's people who deserve it more than you. 342 00:15:39,230 --> 00:15:41,441 That's fine. You could have said who you were voting for, 343 00:15:41,524 --> 00:15:43,109 not who you're not voting for. 344 00:15:44,026 --> 00:15:47,864 You know what? That, to me, is cruel and it's mean. 345 00:15:48,197 --> 00:15:52,160 Because what do I have to deal with now? This hate online. It's overwhelming. 346 00:15:52,243 --> 00:15:55,288 And then on top of it, all of the news media outlets saying, 347 00:15:55,371 --> 00:15:57,999 "Oh, my gosh, Jen's not voting for you. Whitney's not MomTok," 348 00:15:58,082 --> 00:15:59,417 because I have that narrative. 349 00:15:59,500 --> 00:16:01,335 -That's manipulation. That's an objective. -So-- 350 00:16:01,419 --> 00:16:02,420 -Whitney, why-- -That's calculated. 351 00:16:02,503 --> 00:16:04,630 -And that's strategic. -Why do you think the whole world, 352 00:16:04,714 --> 00:16:07,216 all of social media, thinks that about you? 353 00:16:07,300 --> 00:16:09,177 Because people can see your true colors. 354 00:16:09,260 --> 00:16:11,888 If you had gotten eliminated, would you be voting for Jen? 355 00:16:11,971 --> 00:16:14,515 -Absolutely. Absolutely. -And that is complete bullshit. 356 00:16:14,599 --> 00:16:16,476 -[Whitney] It's not. -I don't even believe that 1%. 357 00:16:16,559 --> 00:16:18,686 And you know what, Zac? You don't have to. 358 00:16:18,769 --> 00:16:20,980 Because even when I had a conversation with Jen, 359 00:16:21,063 --> 00:16:23,357 the way that she thinks is, she thinks everybody's calculating, 360 00:16:23,441 --> 00:16:25,359 everyone's strategic, and the world's out to get her. 361 00:16:25,443 --> 00:16:26,861 [Zac] No, she thinks you and Demi are. 362 00:16:26,944 --> 00:16:29,197 It's weird that you two happen to be best friends. 363 00:16:29,614 --> 00:16:33,284 First of all, I don't appreciate that, because I know who I am. 364 00:16:33,367 --> 00:16:35,077 I'm a great fucking person, 365 00:16:35,161 --> 00:16:37,580 and I put in so much effort in that relationship. 366 00:16:37,663 --> 00:16:40,833 The difference between me and Jen is I'm gonna be straight up and honest, 367 00:16:40,917 --> 00:16:43,544 -and Jen isn't. -That actually is probably the biggest lie 368 00:16:43,628 --> 00:16:44,962 that's come outta your mouth. 369 00:16:45,046 --> 00:16:46,756 Jen is actually the least calculated person, 370 00:16:46,839 --> 00:16:48,299 therefore she gets herself in bad situations. 371 00:16:48,382 --> 00:16:50,801 Yeah, that's not true. This isn't easy for anyone, Zac. 372 00:16:50,885 --> 00:16:53,763 -No, I never said it was. -All of-- All of us are mentally unwell. 373 00:16:53,846 --> 00:16:54,931 I can tell. 374 00:16:55,014 --> 00:16:56,015 [Whitney scoffs] 375 00:16:56,349 --> 00:16:57,725 I don't think she should've said that online. 376 00:16:57,808 --> 00:17:00,937 But I think there's a part of Jen that wants the world to see your true colors 377 00:17:01,020 --> 00:17:02,563 -because she's sick of it. -Wow. 378 00:17:02,647 --> 00:17:05,316 She's sick of you being fake to her on camera, 379 00:17:05,399 --> 00:17:07,193 for the show, for your own gain, 380 00:17:07,276 --> 00:17:10,154 and then, in real life, she knows you're not a genuine friend. 381 00:17:10,238 --> 00:17:12,782 This is the most delusional woman I've ever met. 382 00:17:14,408 --> 00:17:17,161 Whitney's friendship with Jen has been fake from the beginning. 383 00:17:17,245 --> 00:17:20,498 Any time Whitney's been frustrated or things haven't gone her way, 384 00:17:20,581 --> 00:17:22,708 she screams, or she runs away from MomTok. 385 00:17:22,792 --> 00:17:25,461 She has hurt you. I've never hurt Whitney. And then runs away. 386 00:17:26,671 --> 00:17:28,256 I'm gonna start my own MomTok and-- 387 00:17:28,339 --> 00:17:30,216 [sputters] Oh, I'm sorry. Sorry. 388 00:17:30,550 --> 00:17:32,677 They're like, "Oh, Whitney's only back filming 389 00:17:32,760 --> 00:17:34,804 because she wants Dancing with the Stars." 390 00:17:34,887 --> 00:17:35,888 They're not wrong. 391 00:17:35,972 --> 00:17:38,140 I just think it was a very transactional friendship. 392 00:17:38,224 --> 00:17:42,019 If she's not the main star, Whitney is not interested in it. 393 00:17:42,103 --> 00:17:45,773 When someone goes on a live and decides to create more shit 394 00:17:45,856 --> 00:17:48,985 -for me to deal with, that's fucked up. -[Zac] Yeah. And I-- I'm-- 395 00:17:49,068 --> 00:17:50,987 -I'm sorry for that. -You're no-- I don't care. 396 00:17:51,070 --> 00:17:53,656 I don't wanna hear your apology. I wanna hear Jen's. 397 00:17:53,739 --> 00:17:56,659 But guess what? She doesn't-- She doesn't think she did anything wrong. 398 00:17:56,742 --> 00:17:58,619 No, I don't think she thinks she-- 399 00:17:58,703 --> 00:18:00,246 I don't think she cares to give you an apology. 400 00:18:00,329 --> 00:18:02,915 -Of course, she doesn't care. Thank you! -But do you want to know-- 401 00:18:02,999 --> 00:18:05,459 Shout it to the rooftops. Of course, she doesn't care. 402 00:18:06,877 --> 00:18:09,755 Okay, do you have anything else you wanna say? 403 00:18:10,172 --> 00:18:13,134 -I don't wanna talk about it anymore, so. -[Zac] That's fine. I'm sorry-- 404 00:18:13,217 --> 00:18:15,011 -I wish you guys the best. -[Zac] Thank you. 405 00:18:15,678 --> 00:18:17,847 I'm not gonna sit here and try to convince you 406 00:18:17,930 --> 00:18:19,765 the perspective that I have. 407 00:18:19,849 --> 00:18:21,726 I'm not gonna sit here and try to convince you 408 00:18:21,809 --> 00:18:24,061 that what your wife did was unwarranted, 409 00:18:24,145 --> 00:18:25,980 how she's treated me is unwarranted. 410 00:18:26,063 --> 00:18:27,356 You are not my friend. 411 00:18:27,440 --> 00:18:30,067 You are not in my circle. And I do not trust you. 412 00:18:30,568 --> 00:18:32,028 -Hey. -[Conner] Hey. 413 00:18:32,111 --> 00:18:35,031 Oh, no... Whitney. 414 00:18:35,114 --> 00:18:36,907 [Whitney] Zac showed up instead of Jen. 415 00:18:37,408 --> 00:18:39,118 [Conner] Oh, my God. 416 00:18:39,869 --> 00:18:43,289 They're just-- Every time I talk to them, I just feel-- 417 00:18:44,123 --> 00:18:45,916 I feel so manipulated. 418 00:18:46,334 --> 00:18:47,710 And then I hate fucking crying 419 00:18:47,793 --> 00:18:50,838 because then the world is like, "Oh, she's being the victim." 420 00:18:50,921 --> 00:18:53,549 I, like-- I can't ever fucking win! 421 00:18:53,633 --> 00:18:56,719 And then for you to sit there and be like, "Jen has done nothing wrong. 422 00:18:56,802 --> 00:18:59,055 It's you that's not a good friend." I'm like, "What the fuck?" 423 00:18:59,138 --> 00:19:02,892 And then he's saying, like, basically, that I deserve all the hate I'm getting. 424 00:19:02,975 --> 00:19:04,644 It's like, "Go fuck yourself!" 425 00:19:05,311 --> 00:19:07,480 I'm gonna rip that man's head off. 426 00:19:07,563 --> 00:19:09,398 My biggest fucking pet peeve, Whitney, 427 00:19:09,482 --> 00:19:13,444 is when men try and make women feel fuckin' small-- 428 00:19:13,527 --> 00:19:15,571 Well, guess what? I feel that way. 429 00:19:15,655 --> 00:19:18,699 And I hate so fucking much that, like, I let it get to me. 430 00:19:18,783 --> 00:19:23,037 I don't know where I'm at after this, but what I can control 431 00:19:23,120 --> 00:19:26,916 is not having Jen and Zac a part of my life, a part of my circle, 432 00:19:26,999 --> 00:19:28,751 and that's what I'm deciding. 433 00:19:29,251 --> 00:19:31,837 [Conner] He wanted you to feel like shit. Mission accomplished, Zac. 434 00:19:31,921 --> 00:19:34,590 I hope you feel like a big, strong fuckin' man right now. 435 00:19:34,674 --> 00:19:36,092 What a fucking loser! 436 00:19:37,843 --> 00:19:40,930 ♪ Is it all just smoke and mirrors? ♪ 437 00:19:41,347 --> 00:19:43,057 ♪ All alone ♪ 438 00:19:44,433 --> 00:19:46,268 ♪ All alone ♪ 439 00:19:47,645 --> 00:19:49,605 ♪ All alone... ♪ 440 00:19:49,689 --> 00:19:51,023 -Hello. -Hello. 441 00:19:51,107 --> 00:19:52,566 -How are you? -Good. How are you? 442 00:19:52,650 --> 00:19:53,984 -Oh-- [chuckles] -Good to see you. 443 00:19:54,068 --> 00:19:56,195 -I know. You too. I'm excited for this. -Me too. 444 00:19:56,278 --> 00:19:57,530 -I feel like we all need a day-- -Oh, hello! 445 00:19:57,613 --> 00:19:59,031 -You guys look so cozy and cute! -[Jessi] I know. 446 00:19:59,115 --> 00:20:01,325 -I'm so glad we all went like loungewear. -[Layla] I know. 447 00:20:03,369 --> 00:20:05,496 [Layla] Oh! Never! You carrying your $6,000 Prada. 448 00:20:05,579 --> 00:20:06,789 Homeless? 449 00:20:06,872 --> 00:20:08,874 MomTok has a lot going on right now, 450 00:20:08,958 --> 00:20:11,460 and Taylor's leaving for The Bachelorette in a few days, 451 00:20:11,544 --> 00:20:14,547 and then after that, I'm hosting my annual Halloween party. 452 00:20:14,630 --> 00:20:15,840 We should talk about the guest list though, 453 00:20:15,923 --> 00:20:19,677 because with Taylor gone, I'm like, "Okay, who are we inviting?" 454 00:20:19,760 --> 00:20:22,179 We can actually have alcohol because Taylor's gone, which will be fun. 455 00:20:22,263 --> 00:20:23,723 -Oh! -[Jessi] Open bar. 456 00:20:23,806 --> 00:20:25,808 'Kay, so I have MomTok on the list, obviously. 457 00:20:25,891 --> 00:20:27,768 Who's left of it. Dakota. 458 00:20:27,852 --> 00:20:28,853 I think Shinia has been invited 459 00:20:28,936 --> 00:20:30,438 because Jordan invited everyone at Red West. 460 00:20:30,855 --> 00:20:32,690 But I don't know if she'd actually show up. 461 00:20:33,607 --> 00:20:34,650 We've been so busy lately, 462 00:20:34,734 --> 00:20:37,445 and I'm so excited to just go and have fun and relax today 463 00:20:37,528 --> 00:20:39,196 with Miranda and Layla at the spa. 464 00:20:39,280 --> 00:20:40,656 -Ooh! Okay, I don't think-- -Okay, 30 seconds. 465 00:20:40,740 --> 00:20:42,032 We can do anything for 30 seconds. 466 00:20:48,289 --> 00:20:49,582 -[Jessi] One, two, three. -Okay. 467 00:20:49,665 --> 00:20:50,750 [water splashing] 468 00:20:50,833 --> 00:20:52,752 Oh! No, no, no! 469 00:20:54,420 --> 00:20:55,421 Oh! 470 00:20:55,504 --> 00:20:56,714 That was a frozen tundra. 471 00:20:56,797 --> 00:21:00,718 Straight out of-- Like, ice cap, frigid temperatures. 472 00:21:01,469 --> 00:21:02,470 Oh, my God! 473 00:21:09,518 --> 00:21:10,603 [chuckling] Yeah. 474 00:21:13,606 --> 00:21:16,567 I don't know. I feel like I'm trying to keep my expectations low. 475 00:21:16,650 --> 00:21:20,321 I feel like I put a lot of my self-worth into my image. 476 00:21:20,404 --> 00:21:22,364 Having someone say that they didn't wanna take me on 477 00:21:22,448 --> 00:21:24,992 even though they didn't say anything physically was wrong with me, 478 00:21:25,075 --> 00:21:26,535 I feel like, my brain automatically was like, 479 00:21:26,619 --> 00:21:29,163 "Oh, I'm not small enough, or I'm not pretty enough." 480 00:21:29,246 --> 00:21:33,125 But I think more of it was just like, I feel like I weighed too much. 481 00:21:33,209 --> 00:21:35,461 I'm sure you're sample size if not smaller. 482 00:21:35,544 --> 00:21:37,880 [Layla] I don't look at myself that way, though. 483 00:21:37,963 --> 00:21:41,008 I weighed myself like two days ago, and I was 99. 484 00:21:41,884 --> 00:21:43,385 -Layla. -Lay... 485 00:21:44,011 --> 00:21:46,263 And you're like 5' 10", 5' 9". 486 00:21:46,347 --> 00:21:47,348 I know. 487 00:21:48,265 --> 00:21:51,727 I mean, do you know that that's not super healthy. 488 00:21:51,811 --> 00:21:55,981 And when I say healthy, like, it doesn't mean... big, you know? 489 00:21:56,065 --> 00:21:58,025 -Like, healthy is strong. -Yeah. 490 00:21:59,068 --> 00:22:00,402 Yeah. No, I know. 491 00:22:02,738 --> 00:22:05,157 I just feel like I really can't-- I don't know. 492 00:22:05,241 --> 00:22:06,659 I just feel like I just don't-- 493 00:22:06,742 --> 00:22:08,619 I don't think I'll ever be small enough in my head, 494 00:22:08,702 --> 00:22:10,830 and I know that it's affecting me, and like-- 495 00:22:10,913 --> 00:22:12,998 I'm so exhausted all the time 'cause I don't eat, 496 00:22:13,082 --> 00:22:15,376 and my body hurts every night when I go to bed. 497 00:22:15,459 --> 00:22:16,460 What do you mean? 498 00:22:17,127 --> 00:22:19,463 [Layla] Like, I like literally-- When I lay down, 499 00:22:19,547 --> 00:22:21,757 like, if my knees are touching each other, it hurts 500 00:22:21,841 --> 00:22:24,677 'cause I don't have any fat on my body to cushion it. 501 00:22:24,760 --> 00:22:27,012 And I know that it's going too far, and I'm taking it too far, 502 00:22:27,096 --> 00:22:28,681 but I, like, can't stop. 503 00:22:28,764 --> 00:22:31,934 Do you think, uh-- Are you open to stopping Tirzepatide? 504 00:22:34,478 --> 00:22:38,816 I have been using weight loss drugs, GLP-1s now, 505 00:22:38,899 --> 00:22:42,528 for about a year, I would say. 506 00:22:43,028 --> 00:22:45,656 I initially got on them 'cause I feel like I just had stubborn weight 507 00:22:45,739 --> 00:22:47,408 that I couldn't get off but 508 00:22:47,491 --> 00:22:50,452 the thing is that people don't talk about how addicting this is, 509 00:22:50,536 --> 00:22:53,122 and how hard it is to get off. 510 00:22:53,205 --> 00:22:57,585 And it's just this ever-living thing that's so negative, 511 00:22:57,668 --> 00:22:59,587 and especially negative here in Utah. 512 00:22:59,670 --> 00:23:01,714 People are obsessed with how they look. 513 00:23:01,797 --> 00:23:04,341 It's a very negative part of the Utah culture. 514 00:23:04,425 --> 00:23:06,176 I can't even count on both hands 515 00:23:06,260 --> 00:23:09,096 how many people I know abuse GLP-1s, like myself. 516 00:23:09,179 --> 00:23:11,515 And it's a real problem for sure. 517 00:23:12,892 --> 00:23:14,184 When's the last time you did it? 518 00:23:14,268 --> 00:23:15,269 Last week. 519 00:23:15,352 --> 00:23:17,062 Yeah. That's what scares me 520 00:23:17,146 --> 00:23:18,981 is I don't think you need to be actively losing. 521 00:23:19,064 --> 00:23:20,733 It's hard. And I feel like everyone-- 522 00:23:20,816 --> 00:23:24,361 Obviously, everyone's starting to notice what it looks like in my comments. 523 00:23:24,445 --> 00:23:26,739 Like I can't post a single video right now, 524 00:23:26,822 --> 00:23:29,450 every single person is saying something that like, "You need to eat," 525 00:23:29,533 --> 00:23:31,410 or "You're not gonna be able to show up for your kids," 526 00:23:31,493 --> 00:23:33,120 like, "You're being a bad mom," blah, blah, blah. 527 00:23:33,203 --> 00:23:36,123 -All these things when I'm not trying to-- -Yeah. 528 00:23:36,206 --> 00:23:37,207 It's not like-- 529 00:23:37,291 --> 00:23:39,209 [Jessi] Well, I've noticed your comments have switched 530 00:23:39,293 --> 00:23:41,462 from like, "You're so thin. Your arms are so long," 531 00:23:41,545 --> 00:23:43,088 to now, like, "Are you okay?" 532 00:23:43,172 --> 00:23:46,425 And I think that's kind of the sentiment we're all thinking, 533 00:23:46,508 --> 00:23:48,302 is that like just, "Are you okay?" 534 00:23:48,385 --> 00:23:52,139 I feel like, for a long time there, people calling me ill, 535 00:23:52,222 --> 00:23:53,933 or saying that I look sick or too thin, 536 00:23:54,016 --> 00:23:55,935 it was almost a dopamine rush for me. 537 00:23:56,018 --> 00:23:58,228 'Cause I feel like, with an eating disorder, 538 00:23:58,312 --> 00:24:01,523 okay, someone's noticing all this work that I'm putting in to look this way, 539 00:24:01,607 --> 00:24:03,317 and it's paying off in a way. 540 00:24:03,400 --> 00:24:05,444 But now I can't even post a simple ad 541 00:24:05,945 --> 00:24:07,446 to make money to support my family 542 00:24:07,529 --> 00:24:10,366 without there being a bunch of comments on it. 543 00:24:10,449 --> 00:24:12,159 And it's actually starting to get a lot that 544 00:24:12,242 --> 00:24:15,746 I don't even wanna post right now because I can't run away from it. 545 00:24:18,290 --> 00:24:20,167 And I don't know how to stop, but-- 546 00:24:20,584 --> 00:24:23,545 Obviously, you've always had to have such a strong front, 547 00:24:23,629 --> 00:24:25,547 growing up the way that you grew up, 548 00:24:25,631 --> 00:24:28,092 and I think when so much is out of control, 549 00:24:28,175 --> 00:24:30,970 it's easy for you to cling onto one thing you can control. 550 00:24:31,053 --> 00:24:32,137 Yeah. 551 00:24:32,221 --> 00:24:34,056 And I want you to know that you do have-- 552 00:24:34,890 --> 00:24:36,266 you have a family, Layla. 553 00:24:37,977 --> 00:24:40,354 Okay? We're here for you, and we love you. 554 00:24:40,437 --> 00:24:41,563 I love you. 555 00:24:41,647 --> 00:24:43,607 Okay? Just let us help you. 556 00:24:44,858 --> 00:24:47,111 You know, like, we can help you be in control. 557 00:24:47,194 --> 00:24:49,113 You don't have to do it by yourself, Lay. 558 00:24:49,196 --> 00:24:53,784 ♪ Like a thread that starts unraveling ♪ 559 00:24:55,703 --> 00:25:00,874 ♪ And all the pieces never seem to fit ♪ 560 00:25:00,958 --> 00:25:07,965 ♪ When you feel you can't breathe ♪ 561 00:25:08,048 --> 00:25:09,842 ♪ When you're lost in the dark ♪ 562 00:25:09,925 --> 00:25:11,802 ♪ I'll be here in your heart till... ♪ 563 00:25:11,885 --> 00:25:14,221 [Dakota] Hi, buddy. 564 00:25:14,930 --> 00:25:17,808 ♪ Breathe again ♪ 565 00:25:21,478 --> 00:25:24,940 This is Taylor's last night before she flies out for The Bachelorette, 566 00:25:25,024 --> 00:25:26,942 and I'm just dropping Ever off. 567 00:25:27,026 --> 00:25:28,986 This is kinda like the last, 568 00:25:29,069 --> 00:25:32,489 like, our-- our last time, like, actually kind of seeing each other 569 00:25:32,573 --> 00:25:33,991 before she goes away. 570 00:25:34,074 --> 00:25:37,077 And, uh, yeah, it kinda feels surreal. 571 00:25:37,995 --> 00:25:39,830 There's a part of me, obviously, where I wanted to go over there 572 00:25:39,913 --> 00:25:41,540 because I know she's leaving, 573 00:25:41,623 --> 00:25:44,376 and I'm not-- I'm not gonna talk to her, I think, for like two months. 574 00:25:44,877 --> 00:25:47,796 So, yeah, I'd be lying if I didn't think there is a piece of me 575 00:25:47,880 --> 00:25:49,465 that just kinda wanted to go, 576 00:25:50,174 --> 00:25:52,760 I don't know, like, see her, be with her, like, 577 00:25:53,469 --> 00:25:55,929 p-- possibly the last time, like, I don't know. 578 00:25:56,013 --> 00:25:59,016 ♪♪ 579 00:26:06,440 --> 00:26:10,986 ♪ Solo, oh-oh, oh-oh-oh ♪ 580 00:26:15,324 --> 00:26:17,159 ♪ I'm walking on fire ♪ 581 00:26:17,242 --> 00:26:19,244 ♪ My debt isn't paid ♪ 582 00:26:19,328 --> 00:26:20,788 ♪ I take myself higher ♪ 583 00:26:20,871 --> 00:26:22,956 ♪ So, I'm feeling okay ♪ 584 00:26:30,214 --> 00:26:31,215 Um... 585 00:26:33,634 --> 00:26:34,968 [laughs] 586 00:26:35,052 --> 00:26:38,639 ♪ I wanna take my time to make my decisions ♪ 587 00:26:38,722 --> 00:26:42,810 ♪ Change my mind for no damn reason ♪ 588 00:26:50,526 --> 00:26:52,694 [Liann] Aspen and I are at Taylor's house 589 00:26:52,778 --> 00:26:56,907 getting ready to leave to California for The Bachelorette, 590 00:26:56,990 --> 00:26:59,451 and we're supposed to leave in two hours. 591 00:26:59,535 --> 00:27:00,744 [♪ suspenseful music playing] 592 00:27:08,001 --> 00:27:09,169 She is not ready. 593 00:27:09,795 --> 00:27:13,590 She is still in bed, and she's not feeling well. 594 00:27:14,174 --> 00:27:16,009 What do you think we should do? 595 00:27:16,093 --> 00:27:18,303 We're supposed to be leaving here any minute. 596 00:27:19,513 --> 00:27:21,181 By nine, and she's still sleeping. 597 00:27:21,265 --> 00:27:23,475 -You're her mom. -[Liann] No, you can talk, too, 598 00:27:23,559 --> 00:27:25,269 'cause I'm always the one that's like a... the B. 599 00:27:25,352 --> 00:27:26,603 Did you talk to Taylor? 600 00:27:26,687 --> 00:27:27,896 -[Tara] Yeah. -What'd she say? 601 00:27:27,980 --> 00:27:31,024 She said she just doesn't feel like-- She's just not feeling well. 602 00:27:31,108 --> 00:27:32,860 She says she can't get on the plane, 603 00:27:32,943 --> 00:27:36,446 and that you guys can go and she'll just have to meet you there. 604 00:27:37,531 --> 00:27:41,201 She's just-- She's like, "There's no way I can get up right now and go." 605 00:27:43,036 --> 00:27:44,371 This is ridiculous. 606 00:27:45,038 --> 00:27:48,333 I'm very frustrated right now with Taylor. 607 00:27:48,417 --> 00:27:50,252 She has this huge opportunity, 608 00:27:50,335 --> 00:27:53,672 and I feel like-- a part of me is like, "She's not gonna go." 609 00:28:05,767 --> 00:28:09,313 I don't want her to blow this opportunity to possibly find love 610 00:28:09,396 --> 00:28:12,024 and also to get on with her life. 611 00:28:12,107 --> 00:28:15,194 Aspen and I are gonna get on this plane, 612 00:28:15,277 --> 00:28:18,697 and I'm hoping that Taylor will meet us there in California. 613 00:28:18,780 --> 00:28:20,782 I expect you to be there tonight. 614 00:28:23,577 --> 00:28:25,954 ♪♪ 615 00:28:26,038 --> 00:28:28,373 [Aspen] 'Kay, you two are sitting in the very back right here. 616 00:28:29,041 --> 00:28:30,959 Yeah. Oh, my gosh. 617 00:28:31,043 --> 00:28:32,502 [Liann] Do we have everything? 618 00:28:33,921 --> 00:28:35,255 We're gonna miss our flight. 619 00:28:38,467 --> 00:28:41,553 [Aspen] On our way for the first week of Bachelorette 620 00:28:41,637 --> 00:28:44,264 who's not even coming with us, who's a no-show. 621 00:28:44,765 --> 00:28:46,600 [laughing] Crazy, huh? 622 00:28:46,683 --> 00:28:49,186 ♪♪ 623 00:28:49,269 --> 00:28:52,397 ♪ Love so selfish and so vain ♪ 624 00:28:52,481 --> 00:28:56,026 ♪ On our hands, dried out blood stains ♪ 625 00:28:56,109 --> 00:29:02,783 ♪ I always normalize pain ♪ 626 00:29:03,408 --> 00:29:04,409 Oh! 627 00:29:05,327 --> 00:29:07,955 Me and the girls are at the airport ready to surprise Taylor. 628 00:29:08,038 --> 00:29:09,957 We decided to make signs for her new adventure. 629 00:29:10,040 --> 00:29:11,291 She's been through so much. 630 00:29:11,375 --> 00:29:14,002 Kinda send her off on her little "mission" to The Bachelorette. 631 00:29:14,086 --> 00:29:16,380 Because, in our church, when someone goes on a mission, 632 00:29:16,463 --> 00:29:19,675 usually when they come home, people have signs welcoming them back. 633 00:29:19,758 --> 00:29:21,343 You'll see that a lot at Salt Lake Airport. 634 00:29:21,426 --> 00:29:24,179 So we're sending her off to her mission to The Bachelorette. 635 00:29:24,263 --> 00:29:25,847 And we're ready for her to be away from Dakota 636 00:29:25,931 --> 00:29:27,266 and find a real man. 637 00:29:29,142 --> 00:29:30,811 Guys, it's 9:45. 638 00:29:30,894 --> 00:29:33,981 -It leaves-- It leaves at 11:00. -Where is she? 639 00:29:34,064 --> 00:29:36,275 -Was she with Dakota last night again? -Yes, 100%. 640 00:29:36,358 --> 00:29:38,527 She was with Dakota last night, so I am genuinely stressed 641 00:29:38,610 --> 00:29:41,947 that she, like, told him like, "I'll stay for you." 642 00:29:42,030 --> 00:29:46,326 This morning, Jordan heard from Dakota, Taylor slept with Dakota again last night. 643 00:29:46,410 --> 00:29:48,495 Go self-sabotage! 644 00:29:48,578 --> 00:29:52,958 Jessi tells us that Jordan told her that Dakota slept with Taylor last night. 645 00:29:53,041 --> 00:29:54,793 Oh, my God! 646 00:29:54,876 --> 00:29:56,837 I thought I couldn't get more disappointed. 647 00:29:56,920 --> 00:30:00,424 Right when we're like, "Yes, she sees it. She sees her worth." 648 00:30:00,507 --> 00:30:02,134 It's like, "She's going to The Bachelorette. 649 00:30:02,217 --> 00:30:04,720 She's ready to start this new journey. We're so excited for her," 650 00:30:04,803 --> 00:30:06,513 she's back sleeping with Dakota again. 651 00:30:06,596 --> 00:30:09,016 And I'm so disappointed. I'm so disappointed. 652 00:30:09,099 --> 00:30:10,600 [Layla] I'm definitely disappointed in Taylor. 653 00:30:10,684 --> 00:30:13,020 I don't think that this was a smart move to do right before The Bachelorette. 654 00:30:13,103 --> 00:30:14,646 To be frank, if I was one of these guys, 655 00:30:14,730 --> 00:30:16,982 and I found out that she effed her baby daddy 656 00:30:17,065 --> 00:30:18,150 the day before meeting me, 657 00:30:18,233 --> 00:30:20,902 I would be extremely upset and pissed. 658 00:30:20,986 --> 00:30:24,031 Dakota's trying to pull out all his cards because he's desperate. 659 00:30:24,114 --> 00:30:26,950 Like, he's doing anything he can to get her to not go. 660 00:30:27,034 --> 00:30:29,453 [sighs] I'm shocked, but I'm not shocked at the same time. 661 00:30:29,536 --> 00:30:31,538 I'm just tired. I'm so over this. 662 00:30:31,621 --> 00:30:33,498 I'm just hoping Dakota doesn't sneak there at some point. 663 00:30:33,582 --> 00:30:35,417 -I'll be happy if he doesn't-- -Dakota's in the checked luggage, 664 00:30:35,500 --> 00:30:36,626 let's be honest. 665 00:30:36,710 --> 00:30:37,878 -[Mikayla] Is that Ben? -[Mayci] Where? 666 00:30:37,961 --> 00:30:39,171 -That's not Ben. -[Mayci] Weird. 667 00:30:39,254 --> 00:30:40,839 -No, that's Ben. -Shut the fuck up! 668 00:30:40,922 --> 00:30:42,591 Do you like my sexy socks? 669 00:30:43,175 --> 00:30:45,344 I was just gonna comment on your sexy socks. 670 00:30:45,677 --> 00:30:46,928 ♪♪ 671 00:30:47,262 --> 00:30:48,555 -Wait, wait. -Wait, that's not Ben. 672 00:30:48,638 --> 00:30:50,390 -That's not-- -[all laughing] 673 00:30:50,474 --> 00:30:52,517 [Layla] Oh! It looks exactly like Ben. 674 00:30:52,601 --> 00:30:54,728 I about died, you guys. 675 00:30:54,811 --> 00:30:57,522 -She only has 40 minutes to go through. -She has 40 minutes until boarding ends. 676 00:30:57,939 --> 00:30:59,733 -[Mikayla] Wait, she's right there. -[Jessi] Where? Coming down? 677 00:30:59,816 --> 00:31:01,318 -[Mikayla] She's right there. -Oh, she's right there. 678 00:31:01,401 --> 00:31:03,403 I can see that rat's nest from a mile away. 679 00:31:03,487 --> 00:31:04,988 Oh, that's Aspen. Okay. 680 00:31:05,322 --> 00:31:06,323 [Mikayla] Okay, I'm gonna yell. 681 00:31:06,782 --> 00:31:08,617 -[Jessi] Okay, that's her mom. -[Layla] That's her mom. There's Asp-- 682 00:31:08,700 --> 00:31:10,410 -Wait, where's Taylor? -[Mikayla] She's right there. 683 00:31:10,494 --> 00:31:11,620 -Where-- Where? -Wait, where is she? 684 00:31:11,703 --> 00:31:13,830 [♪ dramatic music playing] 685 00:31:13,914 --> 00:31:15,707 -That's Aspen and her mom. -Where's Taylor? 686 00:31:16,291 --> 00:31:17,751 [Mikayla] Taylor's not even there. 687 00:31:17,834 --> 00:31:19,127 -What the hell? -[Jessi] Where's Taylor? 688 00:31:19,211 --> 00:31:21,004 Aspen's gonna be The Bachelorette. 689 00:31:21,505 --> 00:31:24,257 -Oh, my gosh! Look at them! -[MomTok cheering] 690 00:31:24,674 --> 00:31:25,675 Wait, where's Taylor? 691 00:31:26,802 --> 00:31:29,221 -Where's Taylor? -She's not coming. 692 00:31:29,304 --> 00:31:30,305 She's not? For real? 693 00:31:31,932 --> 00:31:33,350 -She's not. -She's not coming. 694 00:31:33,850 --> 00:31:35,936 -[Mayci] You're joking. -No, I'm being dead serious. 695 00:31:36,019 --> 00:31:38,313 I heard about this. Is it 'cause of Dakota? 696 00:31:39,231 --> 00:31:41,191 Oh, no. We didn't know. Why? What's going on? 697 00:31:41,274 --> 00:31:42,442 She slept with him last night. 698 00:31:42,526 --> 00:31:44,069 No, sir! For real? 699 00:31:44,152 --> 00:31:45,404 -No, for real. -Yes. Every night. 700 00:31:45,487 --> 00:31:47,614 No, sir. You guys are fricking kidding me. 701 00:31:47,697 --> 00:31:48,740 [Aspen] You're joking, right? 702 00:31:48,824 --> 00:31:50,992 -[group] No. -That's why we're-- I thought-- 703 00:31:51,076 --> 00:31:52,077 For real? 704 00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:54,538 Then why the hell are we going and doing all this? 705 00:31:54,621 --> 00:31:55,664 Oh, my gosh. 706 00:31:55,747 --> 00:31:57,541 It makes me actually very sick 707 00:31:57,624 --> 00:32:01,002 that she would put this whole deal on-- in jeopardy. 708 00:32:01,086 --> 00:32:03,296 -[Jessi] Why isn't she here? -She wouldn't get up. 709 00:32:03,380 --> 00:32:05,006 -We could not get her up. -Are you for real? 710 00:32:05,090 --> 00:32:07,259 And she's like, "I'm not going right now. I can't do it." 711 00:32:07,342 --> 00:32:09,094 -I-- You guys. -[Aspen] And then she's like, 712 00:32:09,177 --> 00:32:11,012 "You guys get on the flight and go." 713 00:32:11,096 --> 00:32:13,390 -Okay, no, we're-- -She's gonna send you without going, 714 00:32:13,473 --> 00:32:14,683 like, what's the point of that? 715 00:32:14,766 --> 00:32:16,977 Hey, I need you to call me like ASAP. 716 00:32:17,060 --> 00:32:18,603 [Aspen] I fucking hate Dakota. 717 00:32:18,687 --> 00:32:23,066 And Taylor, I'm like, I love my sister, but I'm like, "Pull it out of your ass." 718 00:32:23,150 --> 00:32:25,819 And you can't be this mad at Shinia and then give him a pass, and like-- 719 00:32:25,902 --> 00:32:28,405 -Ew! Ew, ew, ew. -[Jessi] I cannot. 720 00:32:30,240 --> 00:32:32,993 -I freaking hate him. For real. -I know. I know. 721 00:32:33,076 --> 00:32:34,870 [Aspen] "Don't forget to drop your baggage"? 722 00:32:34,953 --> 00:32:37,456 -She's allowing it. I know. I'm sorry. -She's supposed to drop him. 723 00:32:37,539 --> 00:32:38,748 -[Aspen] Ew! -I'm sorry, Liann. 724 00:32:38,832 --> 00:32:40,208 Come here, gimme a hug. I'm sorry. 725 00:32:40,292 --> 00:32:41,585 I know. I know. I'm sorry. 726 00:32:41,668 --> 00:32:43,044 [Mayci] This is so bad, you guys. 727 00:32:44,045 --> 00:32:45,505 Taylor not showing up at the airport 728 00:32:45,589 --> 00:32:48,884 is not only a bad sign for her and her journey in The Bachelorette, 729 00:32:48,967 --> 00:32:50,093 but also for MomTok. 730 00:32:50,177 --> 00:32:52,554 Like, she's gonna choose Dakota who's been kind of ruining her life 731 00:32:52,637 --> 00:32:54,181 for the last three years 732 00:32:54,264 --> 00:32:55,974 over something that is a fresh start. 733 00:32:56,057 --> 00:32:59,519 Like, all of us in MomTok, we've all tried so hard to help her, 734 00:32:59,603 --> 00:33:01,104 and we've all been there for her, 735 00:33:01,188 --> 00:33:03,023 but I think it backfired on us. 736 00:33:03,106 --> 00:33:04,816 -[Aspen] I'm so frustrated -[Liann] I'm so pissed. 737 00:33:04,900 --> 00:33:06,318 I don't even wanna get on the plane. 738 00:33:06,401 --> 00:33:07,736 -No! This is stupid. -Well, you guys shouldn't. 739 00:33:07,819 --> 00:33:09,112 You shouldn't if she's not coming. 740 00:33:09,196 --> 00:33:11,698 -She has to go. -She has to. She's already announced it. 741 00:33:11,781 --> 00:33:14,784 I'm gonna go on this flight, and she better be there today, 742 00:33:14,868 --> 00:33:16,745 -or I'm cutting her frickin' off. -Well, that's what-- 743 00:33:16,828 --> 00:33:18,371 Do you want us to go to her house 744 00:33:18,455 --> 00:33:20,332 -and drag her outta bed? -Yeah. Tell her she better get there. 745 00:33:20,415 --> 00:33:21,833 Well, you could go ahead and tell her 746 00:33:21,917 --> 00:33:25,587 if she doesn't get up and go, that she's losing everybody-- her help. 747 00:33:25,670 --> 00:33:27,422 I'm done. She'll be done. 748 00:33:27,506 --> 00:33:28,757 -Tara will be done. -And I'll be done, too. 749 00:33:28,840 --> 00:33:30,133 I'll be done. 750 00:33:30,217 --> 00:33:31,384 This is so bad. 751 00:33:31,468 --> 00:33:33,803 Taylor is like an addict when it comes to Dakota. 752 00:33:33,887 --> 00:33:35,096 We're just trying to help her. 753 00:33:35,180 --> 00:33:37,015 We spent hours making these signs. 754 00:33:37,098 --> 00:33:39,559 We showed up early at the airport to be there and send her off. 755 00:33:39,643 --> 00:33:42,479 But seeing her mom and kids come to the airport without her 756 00:33:42,562 --> 00:33:43,939 and saying she's not coming, 757 00:33:44,022 --> 00:33:45,774 I'm like, "Great, my worst fears have come true. 758 00:33:45,857 --> 00:33:48,902 "She's gonna sabotage this entire experience for Dakota, 759 00:33:48,985 --> 00:33:50,570 and she's never gonna get better." 760 00:33:50,654 --> 00:33:52,531 [Aspen] I love you. I'm sorry, I'm so heated. 761 00:33:52,614 --> 00:33:55,492 -We all are, too, so don't worry. -So-- Yeah, go to her house. 762 00:33:55,575 --> 00:33:56,618 [Layla] We need to go to her house. 763 00:33:56,701 --> 00:33:58,662 We need to go take these to her door and be like, 764 00:33:58,745 --> 00:34:00,664 "Look, we were here to support you." 765 00:34:00,747 --> 00:34:01,748 Can we stomp him? 766 00:34:01,831 --> 00:34:02,958 ♪♪ 767 00:34:06,419 --> 00:34:09,756 [♪ upbeat music playing] 768 00:34:10,549 --> 00:34:11,800 [Jessi] She's not gonna let us in, you guys. 769 00:34:11,883 --> 00:34:13,843 -[Mikayla] I don't give a shit. -[Mayci] We'll break in. 770 00:34:13,927 --> 00:34:15,804 I'm gonna break her damn window by her bed and jump in. 771 00:34:15,887 --> 00:34:18,723 It's a Sunday. I should be in church praising the Lord. 772 00:34:18,807 --> 00:34:20,016 And here I am. 773 00:34:22,269 --> 00:34:24,479 I don't care. But I know there's a big rock by her window. 774 00:34:24,563 --> 00:34:25,647 We can slash it. 775 00:34:25,730 --> 00:34:27,190 [Mayci] I'm just not sure how to approach this yet. 776 00:34:27,274 --> 00:34:29,067 -[Mikayla] Approach in a nice-ish way. -[Mayci] Approach it angry, 777 00:34:29,150 --> 00:34:30,694 -or like-- I just don't know. -[knock on door] 778 00:34:30,777 --> 00:34:32,362 [Jessi] She's not gonna answer, you guys. 779 00:34:33,572 --> 00:34:34,948 Uh, do you have a text sent out? 780 00:34:35,031 --> 00:34:36,199 -Almost. -Oh, it's locked. 781 00:34:38,868 --> 00:34:40,287 [Mayci] You guys, should we go around back? 782 00:34:40,370 --> 00:34:41,371 [Jessi] Yeah, let's go. 783 00:34:42,372 --> 00:34:43,582 [Jessi] Tap on the window. 784 00:34:43,665 --> 00:34:44,666 [Layla grunts] 785 00:34:45,166 --> 00:34:46,376 Wait, what about this one? 786 00:34:46,459 --> 00:34:47,961 [Jessi] No, it's locked. I thought it wasn't. 787 00:34:48,044 --> 00:34:49,838 [Layla] Oh, wait, I got in, but there's something there. 788 00:34:49,921 --> 00:34:53,300 [Jessi] Is it Dakota? [gasps] Oh, my God. What is all this? 789 00:34:53,383 --> 00:34:55,427 Now that we've successfully broken into Taylor's house, 790 00:34:55,510 --> 00:34:58,513 I think we can officially add breaking and entering to our resumes. 791 00:34:59,764 --> 00:35:00,765 Should I wink? 792 00:35:01,266 --> 00:35:02,267 I can't wink. 793 00:35:03,476 --> 00:35:04,894 I've been working on it. 794 00:35:05,562 --> 00:35:07,314 [Mayci] Is she gonna be so mad at us? 795 00:35:07,397 --> 00:35:08,940 [Mikayla] Well, Liann told us to do this. 796 00:35:09,024 --> 00:35:10,650 [Layla] There's her bag half-packed. 797 00:35:11,318 --> 00:35:13,320 -[softly] It's half-packed. -[Layla] Yeah. 798 00:35:13,403 --> 00:35:15,071 Oh, my hell, Taylor. 799 00:35:15,155 --> 00:35:17,115 [Layla] It looks like she didn't fully go. 800 00:35:18,408 --> 00:35:20,201 [Layla] We're already in here, guys, now we can't leave, 801 00:35:20,285 --> 00:35:21,578 so we have to just do it. 802 00:35:21,661 --> 00:35:23,288 -We're already in here. -Just, like, pop your head in. 803 00:35:23,371 --> 00:35:25,248 Just don't, like, don't say anything unless she's awake, 804 00:35:25,332 --> 00:35:26,333 'cause I don't wanna wake her up. 805 00:35:26,416 --> 00:35:29,002 [♪ tense music playing] 806 00:35:29,085 --> 00:35:30,086 Taylor? 807 00:35:35,050 --> 00:35:37,218 MomTok. Your mom sent us. 808 00:35:39,804 --> 00:35:41,264 [Jessi] I mean, why are you here? 809 00:35:44,976 --> 00:35:47,437 Taylor, you have a responsibility. Why aren't you on the plane? 810 00:35:52,984 --> 00:35:54,944 I mean, you were with Dakota last night. You weren't that sick. 811 00:36:00,200 --> 00:36:01,701 I mean, if you don't want help, we'll leave. 812 00:36:01,785 --> 00:36:03,286 But we're just trying to-- 813 00:36:06,414 --> 00:36:09,167 Because you said "yes" to Bachelorette. You shoulda said "no," you're not well. 814 00:36:10,210 --> 00:36:14,589 I'm feeling definitely sick, exhausted, drained. 815 00:36:14,673 --> 00:36:15,674 My friends want the best for me, 816 00:36:15,757 --> 00:36:17,384 and they're, you know, in my house trying to get me to go, 817 00:36:17,467 --> 00:36:18,510 and I really appreciate it. 818 00:36:18,593 --> 00:36:22,180 I'm just to a point where it's so low that I don't even want them to help me. 819 00:36:22,263 --> 00:36:24,140 Like, I'm sorry, but I'm just sick of supporting you 820 00:36:24,224 --> 00:36:25,225 when you keep doing this. 821 00:36:25,308 --> 00:36:26,893 Your mom's pissed. Your sister's pissed. 822 00:36:26,976 --> 00:36:30,021 You're sending them to LA with your kids, and you can't show up? 823 00:36:30,522 --> 00:36:32,107 Just say "no" to The Bachelorette. 824 00:36:32,941 --> 00:36:35,276 Sucks that we woke up at 6:00 a.m. to be there for you. 825 00:36:35,360 --> 00:36:36,361 So over it. 826 00:36:37,529 --> 00:36:40,532 [Layla] All of us girls are honestly going through a lot right now. 827 00:36:40,615 --> 00:36:43,576 Mikayla and Jace's marriage is going through a really hard time. 828 00:36:43,660 --> 00:36:45,662 Jessi's contemplating divorce every day. 829 00:36:45,745 --> 00:36:47,664 I'm dealing with my eating disorder. 830 00:36:47,747 --> 00:36:48,998 And the last thing that we need 831 00:36:49,082 --> 00:36:52,127 is our leader, Taylor, to be falling apart as well. 832 00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:54,963 I just feel like she's kind of the glue to this group, 833 00:36:55,046 --> 00:36:58,633 and if she's not doing well, then MomTok is not doing well either. 834 00:36:59,050 --> 00:37:01,720 Let's just go and let her deconstruct on her own. 835 00:37:01,803 --> 00:37:03,930 'Kay, we'll leave, Taylor, but we hope that 836 00:37:04,013 --> 00:37:05,557 you make one of the later flights today. 837 00:37:06,141 --> 00:37:08,309 [Jessi] Go talk to Dakota, 'cause you can talk to him and not us. 838 00:37:08,393 --> 00:37:11,646 ♪♪ 839 00:37:13,106 --> 00:37:16,025 [♪ upbeat music playing] 840 00:37:25,201 --> 00:37:27,579 [Jen] Thank you for talking to Whitney for me yesterday. 841 00:37:27,662 --> 00:37:29,497 Are you eventually interested in talking to her? 842 00:37:29,581 --> 00:37:31,332 Are you just done with this friendship? 843 00:37:31,416 --> 00:37:33,918 [tsks] I don't owe her anything. 844 00:37:34,002 --> 00:37:36,588 I literally told her. I said, "Whitney, if anything, 845 00:37:36,671 --> 00:37:39,174 "Jen's the least manipulative, calculated person I know. 846 00:37:39,257 --> 00:37:42,886 "In fact, she's so not calculated that, like, she gets herself in trouble. 847 00:37:42,969 --> 00:37:44,262 "Jen wasn't planning on doing a live. 848 00:37:44,345 --> 00:37:46,723 "If she wanted to expose you for the way you've treated her, 849 00:37:46,806 --> 00:37:49,601 -she would've already done it." -Watch the live. It was very much-- 850 00:37:49,684 --> 00:37:51,269 Should I have said that? No. 851 00:37:51,352 --> 00:37:54,147 Someone asked me if I'm rooting for her, and I say no, 852 00:37:54,230 --> 00:37:56,733 -and now I owe her an apology? -[Zac] That's what I told her. 853 00:37:56,816 --> 00:37:59,277 -I said, "Look, Whitney"-- -Like, I'm sorry I'm not rooting for you. 854 00:37:59,360 --> 00:38:02,614 Were you not just saying eff you to me last week? 855 00:38:10,413 --> 00:38:12,123 [Whitney] Holy shit! Fuck you! 856 00:38:13,792 --> 00:38:15,710 Well, I mean... 857 00:38:16,669 --> 00:38:18,546 Whitney's Demi 2.0. 858 00:38:18,630 --> 00:38:23,843 Like, I have no interest in being friends, interacting... 859 00:38:23,927 --> 00:38:25,804 I'll always be cordial but like-- 860 00:38:26,846 --> 00:38:29,307 It feels like ru-- Whitney ruined enough of the experience, 861 00:38:29,390 --> 00:38:30,809 and it's sad to me that now that it's over, 862 00:38:30,892 --> 00:38:32,560 we're still talking about it. 863 00:38:32,644 --> 00:38:34,771 And feels like-- It feels like she's like a parasite, 864 00:38:34,854 --> 00:38:37,565 and no matter what thing we do, it always, 865 00:38:37,649 --> 00:38:39,943 like, we can never just enjoy the experience for what it is 866 00:38:40,026 --> 00:38:41,236 and take the positives. 867 00:38:41,319 --> 00:38:43,571 And I just wanna focus on what you accomplished 868 00:38:43,655 --> 00:38:45,073 and the positives you took away. 869 00:38:45,156 --> 00:38:47,116 You becoming a better dancer, you growing as a person, 870 00:38:47,200 --> 00:38:50,620 that's what I wish we were talking about, not Whitney and her drama. 871 00:38:50,703 --> 00:38:51,704 Yeah. 872 00:38:52,330 --> 00:38:56,668 When I got eliminated, honestly, I was... so sad. 873 00:38:59,254 --> 00:39:00,255 God. 874 00:39:00,713 --> 00:39:03,842 [crying] I think the hardest part about leaving Dancing with the Stars 875 00:39:05,468 --> 00:39:08,847 was how much it brought back my authentic self. 876 00:39:10,473 --> 00:39:12,809 And so, when that journey was over, 877 00:39:13,309 --> 00:39:15,562 I felt like it was almost stripped from me. 878 00:39:15,645 --> 00:39:17,355 And so I just remember praying to God, 879 00:39:17,438 --> 00:39:22,360 just being like, "Oh, please don't let that version of myself go away." 880 00:39:22,777 --> 00:39:26,364 Things aren't ever gonna go right whenever talking to Whitney. [chuckles] 881 00:39:27,574 --> 00:39:30,410 To be honest, I think that's why I wanna go back to Utah, 882 00:39:30,493 --> 00:39:34,414 is I want to regroup, go back to my family and friends, 883 00:39:34,497 --> 00:39:37,250 and just really figure out what it is that I want. 884 00:39:37,333 --> 00:39:38,585 I think we need to go do something fun. 885 00:39:38,668 --> 00:39:40,378 We need to get outta the house and just go. 886 00:39:40,461 --> 00:39:42,797 -I wanna go to the beach. -Yeah, we need to go to the beach. 887 00:39:42,881 --> 00:39:45,925 ♪ I'm magic, I'm magic, I'm magical ♪ 888 00:39:46,009 --> 00:39:47,218 ♪ When you see me, I'm wild ♪ 889 00:39:47,302 --> 00:39:50,096 ♪ I'm wild, wild, and wonderful ♪ 890 00:39:50,179 --> 00:39:53,433 ♪ I'm magic, I'm magic, I'm magical ♪ 891 00:39:53,516 --> 00:39:54,767 ♪ When you see me, I'm wild ♪ 892 00:39:54,851 --> 00:39:57,604 ♪ I'm wild, wild, and wonderful ♪ 893 00:39:58,396 --> 00:40:01,024 This is the thing with being a part of MomTok 894 00:40:01,107 --> 00:40:04,110 is there are gonna be relationships that ebb and flow, 895 00:40:04,193 --> 00:40:06,154 but with Jen not even bothering to show up, 896 00:40:06,237 --> 00:40:09,991 it seems that my friendship with her is officially coming to an end. 897 00:40:10,074 --> 00:40:13,119 Can I still be in this group and have Jen in the group? Absolutely. 898 00:40:13,202 --> 00:40:15,455 Because I am actually a mature adult. 899 00:40:15,538 --> 00:40:18,249 Right now, my focus is on bringing home that Mirrorball, 900 00:40:18,333 --> 00:40:21,711 and then I need to pack for New York City. 901 00:40:21,794 --> 00:40:23,338 ♪ I'm magical ♪ 902 00:40:25,757 --> 00:40:26,758 Roxie Hart. 903 00:40:26,841 --> 00:40:28,927 ♪♪ 904 00:40:29,010 --> 00:40:30,011 It's official! 905 00:40:30,094 --> 00:40:34,599 I've booked the lead role in Chicago, and I'm heading to Broadway. [laughs] 906 00:40:36,643 --> 00:40:39,854 ♪♪ 907 00:40:39,938 --> 00:40:42,774 ♪ I really don't need a scandal ♪ 908 00:40:43,191 --> 00:40:49,113 ♪ Are we blowing up nothing just to feel something? ♪ 909 00:40:49,197 --> 00:40:51,199 ♪ I'm wrapped up in your perception... ♪ 910 00:40:51,282 --> 00:40:54,911 I am scared to find a guy that will love me back 911 00:40:54,994 --> 00:41:00,750 and also be willing to deal with a couple of baby daddies and kids. 912 00:41:00,833 --> 00:41:04,212 But I think if I don't take this step, I do stay stagnant in where I'm at. 913 00:41:04,295 --> 00:41:08,132 This is not only like an opportunity, I think, for just finding someone. 914 00:41:08,216 --> 00:41:12,553 This is an opportunity to get away from the toxicity I'm in here, 915 00:41:12,637 --> 00:41:13,846 and I want out of it. 916 00:41:15,932 --> 00:41:19,352 ♪ Stop, if you're runnin' ♪ 917 00:41:19,435 --> 00:41:22,855 ♪ All wantin' that American dream ♪ 918 00:41:23,356 --> 00:41:28,319 ♪ Stop, you're wild wantin' a sweet nothin', honey ♪ 919 00:41:28,403 --> 00:41:30,446 ♪ Dreams... ♪ 920 00:41:30,530 --> 00:41:33,533 I got a later flight. I am in LA. 921 00:41:33,616 --> 00:41:37,370 I am exhausted, but I'm here, and I'm happy that I made it. 922 00:41:37,453 --> 00:41:40,248 ♪♪ 923 00:41:43,126 --> 00:41:46,170 [line ringing] 924 00:41:46,671 --> 00:41:49,007 -[Taylor] Hello. -Hi. 925 00:41:49,382 --> 00:41:50,383 [Taylor] Hi. 926 00:41:50,883 --> 00:41:53,469 -[Dakota] Did you make it? - I did. 927 00:41:53,553 --> 00:41:54,679 How was it? 928 00:41:55,513 --> 00:41:57,348 [Taylor] Good. Just really tired. 929 00:41:57,432 --> 00:42:00,101 [chuckles] Yeah, I bet. Same. 930 00:42:00,184 --> 00:42:01,394 Taylor just landed, 931 00:42:01,477 --> 00:42:03,813 and I feel like this is the last chance I'll be able to kinda, 932 00:42:05,523 --> 00:42:08,443 I don't know, even, like, express to her how I feel, 933 00:42:08,526 --> 00:42:11,487 essentially just the fact of, I've always wanted you. 934 00:42:11,904 --> 00:42:15,116 I, um, I do just wanna say sorry 935 00:42:15,992 --> 00:42:18,286 for everything that I did. 936 00:42:18,786 --> 00:42:21,664 I know that that caused a lot of problems. 937 00:42:21,748 --> 00:42:22,999 -Um, not only-- - Can you be more specific 938 00:42:23,082 --> 00:42:24,834 - what you're talking about? -With Shinia. 939 00:42:25,460 --> 00:42:27,128 -Um... -[Taylor] For doing what? What did you do? 940 00:42:27,211 --> 00:42:30,214 Even with you. For-- You know what I did. For hooking up with her. 941 00:42:30,298 --> 00:42:32,425 Well, be s-- be specific if you're gonna apologize about something. 942 00:42:32,508 --> 00:42:34,469 Well, I think-- I think everybody knows that. 943 00:42:35,136 --> 00:42:36,846 - I wanna hear it. -Yes. I'm-- 944 00:42:36,929 --> 00:42:38,639 I wanna hear how sorry you are for what you did. 945 00:42:38,723 --> 00:42:42,018 I know. I am, Taylor, I'm sorry for what I did. 946 00:42:42,101 --> 00:42:44,103 I'm sorry for hooking up with Shinia. 947 00:42:44,187 --> 00:42:46,022 I think-- Was it dumb of me? Yes. 948 00:42:46,105 --> 00:42:48,191 Well, could I've picked someone else? Yes. 949 00:42:48,274 --> 00:42:52,487 Like, who it was matters, and that's where I think I went wrong. 950 00:42:52,570 --> 00:42:54,155 And I picked somebody that-- 951 00:42:55,573 --> 00:42:58,993 I mean, I-- Obviously, yeah, it was gonna come with problems and... 952 00:42:59,911 --> 00:43:02,413 um, I think that was, like, very shitty of me to do. 953 00:43:03,748 --> 00:43:05,583 - Thank you. -And I put you in a shitty spot, 954 00:43:05,666 --> 00:43:07,668 and I know that hurt you really bad. 955 00:43:07,752 --> 00:43:10,588 [Taylor] The apology is just words, like it always is. 956 00:43:10,671 --> 00:43:11,756 How many times can he do this 957 00:43:11,839 --> 00:43:13,758 where you believe it, and you're sucked back into it, 958 00:43:13,841 --> 00:43:14,842 and it's not true? 959 00:43:15,426 --> 00:43:16,511 Wake up! 960 00:43:16,594 --> 00:43:17,595 I think there's a lot of pain. 961 00:43:17,678 --> 00:43:20,098 I think there's a lot of things we've done to hurt each other. 962 00:43:20,515 --> 00:43:22,934 But overall, I still think we love each other. 963 00:43:23,017 --> 00:43:24,727 It's toxic. That's the issue. 964 00:43:24,811 --> 00:43:26,479 I know it is toxic, I agree. 965 00:43:26,979 --> 00:43:30,191 But that's the thing is, I also-- It doesn't have to be this way. 966 00:43:30,274 --> 00:43:33,277 We make it toxic. It doesn't have to be that way. 967 00:43:33,611 --> 00:43:36,155 This would be the best thing for us regardless of what happens. 968 00:43:36,239 --> 00:43:37,240 -Yeah, I agree. - For you and me, like, 969 00:43:37,323 --> 00:43:39,450 this would be the best, like, break 970 00:43:39,534 --> 00:43:41,285 and break off of, like, our cycles, 971 00:43:41,369 --> 00:43:42,745 and I think you could do a lot of healing-- 972 00:43:42,829 --> 00:43:45,331 Ah-- It's up to you, really, what you do. 973 00:43:45,748 --> 00:43:49,544 I just feel like, I don't know, like, I am-- I'm happy for you. 974 00:43:49,627 --> 00:43:50,920 Like, I want you to be happy, and if you-- 975 00:43:51,003 --> 00:43:53,840 And that's what I'm saying, if you do find someone, like, great, 976 00:43:53,923 --> 00:43:55,383 but all I'm gonna say, 977 00:43:57,468 --> 00:43:59,637 save a rose for me, 'kay? 978 00:43:59,720 --> 00:44:00,721 [chuckling] Aw. 979 00:44:00,805 --> 00:44:02,390 Like, if you don't find someone, 980 00:44:02,473 --> 00:44:05,059 like I know I've been acting like such a dumbass, 981 00:44:05,685 --> 00:44:08,813 and I've kinda just, like, fell completely away from who I am. 982 00:44:08,896 --> 00:44:13,234 And... like, that's-- that's why I love you, is, like... 983 00:44:15,236 --> 00:44:17,864 like, you're the only person that could help me see that sometimes, 984 00:44:17,947 --> 00:44:22,243 of just like, "Hey, like, this isn't who you are." 985 00:44:23,161 --> 00:44:24,412 'Cause it's not. 986 00:44:24,745 --> 00:44:27,290 I think it's no secret to anybody, Dakota. 987 00:44:27,373 --> 00:44:28,374 What? 988 00:44:29,667 --> 00:44:30,668 Say it. 989 00:44:34,297 --> 00:44:36,215 Can you just admit that you still love me? 990 00:44:39,135 --> 00:44:40,219 [Dakota laughing] 991 00:44:40,303 --> 00:44:43,097 I think talking to Dakota is not a good idea, 992 00:44:43,181 --> 00:44:46,559 but it's a hard pill to swallow that it's done and I need to move on. 993 00:44:46,642 --> 00:44:49,353 It hurts to say it, like, ugh. 994 00:44:50,646 --> 00:44:52,398 At the end of the day, I do think it's an opportunity 995 00:44:52,481 --> 00:44:53,774 to get away from him. Absolutely. 996 00:44:53,858 --> 00:44:55,067 It's like a dream come true. 997 00:44:55,151 --> 00:44:56,861 Okay, they're about to film me getting outta the car. 998 00:44:56,944 --> 00:44:59,947 Okay, save me a rose. Say it, "Save me a rose." 999 00:45:02,074 --> 00:45:03,075 [Taylor] Hmm. 1000 00:45:03,409 --> 00:45:04,493 So, just let me know. 1001 00:45:07,163 --> 00:45:08,497 'Kay, bye. 1002 00:45:08,581 --> 00:45:09,874 [call disconnects] 1003 00:45:13,711 --> 00:45:15,463 [Dakota sighs] 1004 00:45:18,716 --> 00:45:20,301 ♪ All the lights go out ♪ 1005 00:45:20,384 --> 00:45:22,553 ♪ I'm the new girl that you're talking about ♪ 1006 00:45:23,596 --> 00:45:26,724 [Jessi] The night is finally here. It's my annual Halloween party. 1007 00:45:26,807 --> 00:45:29,018 Last year at the Halloween party, there was a lot of rowdiness. 1008 00:45:29,101 --> 00:45:31,187 I have no idea how this is gonna go down, 1009 00:45:31,270 --> 00:45:34,440 but this year, I'm hoping that tonight, we can just have a chance to relax, 1010 00:45:34,523 --> 00:45:35,983 and then maybe we have one night of fun. 1011 00:45:38,319 --> 00:45:41,030 I am so happy to hear that Taylor finally caught a flight to LA 1012 00:45:41,113 --> 00:45:42,281 for The Bachelorette. 1013 00:45:42,365 --> 00:45:45,493 Things with Taylor and MomTok feel a little unresolved right now, 1014 00:45:45,576 --> 00:45:49,372 but I feel like The Bachelorette is gonna be like an eight-week detox 1015 00:45:49,455 --> 00:45:51,040 where she can't talk to Dakota, 1016 00:45:51,123 --> 00:45:52,750 and it couldn't be coming at a better time. 1017 00:45:52,833 --> 00:45:54,919 -Hi. -Are you Blair? 1018 00:45:55,002 --> 00:45:57,672 -I'm the new queen bee, obviously. -Oh! I should've known. 1019 00:45:57,755 --> 00:45:59,548 -Wait, you look so cute! -[Mikayla] You do, too. 1020 00:45:59,632 --> 00:46:00,633 [Jessi] Thank you! 1021 00:46:00,716 --> 00:46:01,968 Look at-- She's Blair. 1022 00:46:02,051 --> 00:46:03,052 [Mikayla] Ew! 1023 00:46:04,804 --> 00:46:06,722 Wait, you look so hot, though, I am like obsessed. 1024 00:46:06,806 --> 00:46:07,974 Thanks. Thank you. 1025 00:46:08,057 --> 00:46:09,267 Uh, where's Jace, though? 1026 00:46:09,350 --> 00:46:10,977 -I have no idea. -What? 1027 00:46:11,060 --> 00:46:13,854 -I'm like, I think he's coming. -Oh, okay. You just drove separate? 1028 00:46:13,938 --> 00:46:15,064 -Yeah. -[Jessi] Okay. 1029 00:46:15,147 --> 00:46:17,566 It's still kinda awkward because I still haven't told the other girls 1030 00:46:17,650 --> 00:46:20,069 kind of the state of where Jace and I are at, 1031 00:46:20,152 --> 00:46:23,948 and they don't know that the two of us are living separately currently. 1032 00:46:24,448 --> 00:46:26,242 And Mayci's the only one that knows. 1033 00:46:26,325 --> 00:46:28,286 I like my alone time for sure. 1034 00:46:28,369 --> 00:46:31,706 But also, I'm like, I don't like being alone at the same time. 1035 00:46:31,789 --> 00:46:33,916 I'm just hoping it gets better. 1036 00:46:34,667 --> 00:46:37,712 And I just don't want this information in someone's hand, 1037 00:46:37,795 --> 00:46:39,255 like Jordan, who has a big mouth. 1038 00:46:39,338 --> 00:46:41,799 -[Jessi] Chuck Bass is here! -[Jordan] Whoa! 1039 00:46:41,882 --> 00:46:43,801 -Whoa! Hi! -[Jace] Hey! 1040 00:46:43,884 --> 00:46:45,469 [Mikayla] I think it's definitely hitting me, 1041 00:46:45,553 --> 00:46:49,015 the gravity of being separated and what that looks like. 1042 00:46:49,098 --> 00:46:53,311 I think there's a part of me that is definitely scared to lose him 1043 00:46:53,394 --> 00:46:55,646 because I don't know how long it's gonna take, 1044 00:46:55,730 --> 00:46:59,066 and I don't know how long he can be patient for. 1045 00:47:00,109 --> 00:47:02,153 Yeah, I don't know. I don't know how to feel about it. 1046 00:47:02,987 --> 00:47:04,572 ♪ Just feeling super naughty ♪ 1047 00:47:04,655 --> 00:47:06,407 ♪ You can touch me all the way ♪ 1048 00:47:07,199 --> 00:47:08,492 [Jessi] Dan Humphrey! 1049 00:47:09,035 --> 00:47:11,912 -Hi. Your queen bee is here. -[Mayci] Ah! Yes. 1050 00:47:11,996 --> 00:47:13,497 You guys look so good! 1051 00:47:13,581 --> 00:47:14,915 [Mayci] You look so good! 1052 00:47:14,999 --> 00:47:17,668 -Wait, I, like, love this vibe on you. -I know. 1053 00:47:17,752 --> 00:47:19,462 -No, it is kinda hot. -Naughty schoolgirl! 1054 00:47:19,545 --> 00:47:22,131 -He liked it. Ooh! -[Jessi] Wait, it's so good. 1055 00:47:22,214 --> 00:47:23,215 I'm obsessed. 1056 00:47:23,549 --> 00:47:25,009 ♪ It's a brand new day ♪ 1057 00:47:25,092 --> 00:47:27,428 ♪ Groovin' to the rhythm of my own beat, girl ♪ 1058 00:47:27,511 --> 00:47:29,055 -[Mayci] Hey! -Aaah! 1059 00:47:29,138 --> 00:47:30,765 -[Mayci] Are you drunk? -Yes! 1060 00:47:32,433 --> 00:47:33,934 -[Mayci] Oh, my gosh! -Stay away from me. 1061 00:47:34,018 --> 00:47:35,770 -Layla! -Layla's drunk. 1062 00:47:35,853 --> 00:47:37,313 [Layla] I'm very grateful for Jessi and Miranda 1063 00:47:37,396 --> 00:47:40,858 and how supportive they've been for me throughout this hard time. 1064 00:47:41,692 --> 00:47:43,944 Sometimes when you're in the midst of an eating disorder, 1065 00:47:44,028 --> 00:47:48,366 it feels like you're never gonna... be better, 1066 00:47:48,449 --> 00:47:51,118 and you're never gonna, like, overcome it. 1067 00:47:51,202 --> 00:47:55,039 However, Jessi found one of the number one eating disorder facilities here in the US, 1068 00:47:55,122 --> 00:47:56,123 which is amazing. 1069 00:47:57,249 --> 00:47:58,834 -Hi. Hello. -Hey, guys. 1070 00:47:58,918 --> 00:48:02,004 -Hi, Layla. Thank you so much for coming. -Thank you. 1071 00:48:02,088 --> 00:48:04,006 I'm a little nervous, definitely. 1072 00:48:04,090 --> 00:48:05,591 -I... I don't know what to expect. -Okay. 1073 00:48:05,674 --> 00:48:06,801 We have all options. 1074 00:48:06,884 --> 00:48:09,178 We have 24-hour care, we have outpatient. 1075 00:48:09,261 --> 00:48:11,472 So we'll just kinda see what kinda fits your needs, 1076 00:48:11,555 --> 00:48:12,723 what you're looking for. 1077 00:48:12,807 --> 00:48:14,850 I was definitely anxious going into the center. 1078 00:48:14,934 --> 00:48:17,561 They kept telling me that they were gonna check me in 1079 00:48:17,645 --> 00:48:18,854 and have me be inpatient, 1080 00:48:18,938 --> 00:48:20,773 but that didn't happen, so that's good. 1081 00:48:20,856 --> 00:48:22,900 Are you guys-- Are you all school girls? Like, what's going on? 1082 00:48:22,983 --> 00:48:23,984 -[Mayci] Hi. -How are you? 1083 00:48:24,068 --> 00:48:26,112 -I'm listening to your book. -[Mayci] Oh, really? 1084 00:48:26,195 --> 00:48:27,655 I'm like, an hour left. 1085 00:48:27,738 --> 00:48:29,907 -It's fucking so good. -Yeah. 1086 00:48:29,990 --> 00:48:32,118 I'm actually shocked to hear that Mason read my book, 1087 00:48:32,201 --> 00:48:34,328 and he was saying how much he loved it, which I was like, "Wait, what?" 1088 00:48:34,412 --> 00:48:37,164 I like, "Sorry, I didn't know guys, like, read books." 1089 00:48:37,248 --> 00:48:38,707 Maybe that's so horrible of me to say. 1090 00:48:38,791 --> 00:48:41,877 But, like, despite everything going on in MomTok right now, 1091 00:48:41,961 --> 00:48:44,296 the reason why I wrote this book was to inspire. 1092 00:48:44,380 --> 00:48:48,259 I think that's what keeps me fighting to save my friend group, to save MomTok, 1093 00:48:48,342 --> 00:48:50,469 and keep them away from all these toxic men. 1094 00:48:50,553 --> 00:48:53,180 'Cause I've been through a lot of challenges, heartbreaks, hardships, 1095 00:48:53,264 --> 00:48:54,598 and I just want my friends to be happy. 1096 00:48:54,682 --> 00:48:56,142 I just want us to thrive. 1097 00:48:56,225 --> 00:48:58,477 And that's a big purpose behind what I do. 1098 00:48:58,561 --> 00:49:00,729 ♪ Yeah, I love this beat, I lose control ♪ 1099 00:49:00,813 --> 00:49:02,523 ♪ I'm in the fast lane ♪ 1100 00:49:02,606 --> 00:49:05,568 ♪ It's techno-something now I'm bulletproof... ♪ 1101 00:49:07,319 --> 00:49:09,572 [Dakota] We're like-- We're trying to figure it out. 1102 00:49:09,655 --> 00:49:10,823 Ahhh. 1103 00:49:11,866 --> 00:49:13,242 [chuckling] Hi. 1104 00:49:13,325 --> 00:49:16,495 You came here? You're crazy! 1105 00:49:16,579 --> 00:49:19,373 -You're crazy. -[chuckling] I'm not crazy! 1106 00:49:19,457 --> 00:49:21,792 I cannot believe you're here. 1107 00:49:22,793 --> 00:49:24,170 [Dakota groans] 1108 00:49:24,879 --> 00:49:30,634 So Shinia shows up, and, uh, damn, this is a tough spot. 1109 00:49:30,718 --> 00:49:33,679 So it feels a little awkward, obviously, like, seeing her. 1110 00:49:33,762 --> 00:49:36,515 The last thing I want is for us to have some 1111 00:49:36,599 --> 00:49:38,809 shit show happen like the last Halloween. 1112 00:49:41,228 --> 00:49:42,229 They're back together. 1113 00:49:42,897 --> 00:49:44,648 He's so dumb for doing this right now. 1114 00:49:44,732 --> 00:49:47,067 I'm glad we made a sex pact for sure, that was cool. 1115 00:49:47,151 --> 00:49:48,777 Yeah, that was badass, huh? 1116 00:49:48,861 --> 00:49:50,196 I-- Well, it-- To be fair, 1117 00:49:50,279 --> 00:49:53,449 I also thought it was gonna last a lot longer than what it did. 1118 00:49:53,866 --> 00:49:55,242 You broke it, not me! 1119 00:49:55,326 --> 00:49:57,369 -I know, but hang on-- -Wait, "I know"? 1120 00:49:57,453 --> 00:50:00,581 No, no, no, no. Oh, my gosh, okay. 1121 00:50:00,664 --> 00:50:02,833 Technically, okay. Oh, fuck. 1122 00:50:02,917 --> 00:50:04,502 Dakota! 1123 00:50:04,585 --> 00:50:06,086 [Dakota] [groans] I didn't even-- 1124 00:50:06,170 --> 00:50:08,047 Well, I never got the chance to even tell you this. 1125 00:50:08,130 --> 00:50:12,051 So, uh... yeah, you're gonna fucking hate it, 1126 00:50:12,134 --> 00:50:15,971 but [chuckles] you already know probably. 1127 00:50:16,055 --> 00:50:17,932 It was freaking Taylor. 1128 00:50:19,183 --> 00:50:22,686 The truth is... this right now, okay? 1129 00:50:23,270 --> 00:50:24,563 This is what I am right now. 1130 00:50:24,647 --> 00:50:26,941 I'm like-- I'm just emotionally like, 1131 00:50:27,024 --> 00:50:29,360 I think, a little bit more messed up than I thought. 1132 00:50:29,860 --> 00:50:31,237 I thought I could maybe do it. 1133 00:50:31,320 --> 00:50:32,738 I would love to be with Taylor. 1134 00:50:32,821 --> 00:50:33,989 I would love that opportunity. 1135 00:50:34,073 --> 00:50:37,368 And maybe there's a chance that this could be something that she needs. 1136 00:50:37,451 --> 00:50:40,287 If she goes out and dates, like, 30 handpicked men for her 1137 00:50:40,371 --> 00:50:42,665 and ends up choosing me at the end, 1138 00:50:42,748 --> 00:50:45,543 I feel like that's also maybe like a good sign for her. 1139 00:50:45,626 --> 00:50:48,045 [chuckles] Like, maybe that would help her. 1140 00:50:48,128 --> 00:50:51,173 Yeah, but I'm also, again, I'm in-- I'm in a position to where 1141 00:50:51,257 --> 00:50:54,009 I don't think I can sit and rely on that either, 1142 00:50:54,093 --> 00:50:55,594 of having that hope. 1143 00:50:55,678 --> 00:50:57,096 I do want you to know, I-- I-- 1144 00:50:57,179 --> 00:51:00,641 I really did care a lot about, like, how everything went down, 1145 00:51:00,724 --> 00:51:02,726 and that was really hard to watch. 1146 00:51:02,810 --> 00:51:05,688 And I'm, like, sorry you had to go through that. 1147 00:51:05,771 --> 00:51:08,232 I just don't ever want it to come back on Miranda. 1148 00:51:08,315 --> 00:51:10,025 -That's my only thing that I care about. -[Dakota] Yeah. 1149 00:51:10,109 --> 00:51:11,777 [Miranda] Being back in MomTok, 1150 00:51:11,860 --> 00:51:15,990 it's no secret that Taylor and I have kinda been through hell. 1151 00:51:16,073 --> 00:51:20,119 I mean, it's been one thing after the next it seems. 1152 00:51:22,955 --> 00:51:25,416 Personally, you know, [exhales] 1153 00:51:25,499 --> 00:51:28,085 maybe we just raw dog MomTok, no leader. 1154 00:51:29,587 --> 00:51:31,338 [Mayci] Look at the TikTok I made. 1155 00:51:33,257 --> 00:51:34,258 [Jessi gasps] 1156 00:51:34,925 --> 00:51:37,511 [Jessi] We have come so far in just the last few years, 1157 00:51:37,595 --> 00:51:39,221 especially here in the Utah Mormon culture, 1158 00:51:39,305 --> 00:51:41,682 because MomTok has flipped typical gender roles. 1159 00:51:41,765 --> 00:51:43,517 We're breadwinners, not tradwives. 1160 00:51:43,601 --> 00:51:45,311 With Taylor being Bachelorette, 1161 00:51:45,394 --> 00:51:46,979 Whitney and Jen doing Dancing with the Stars, 1162 00:51:47,062 --> 00:51:49,773 Mayci and her book event, Layla and modeling, 1163 00:51:49,857 --> 00:51:51,942 we all have so many cool things happening for us... 1164 00:51:52,026 --> 00:51:53,485 Oh, I love it! 1165 00:51:53,569 --> 00:51:56,155 ...it really is true that, in life, what you do doesn't matter, 1166 00:51:56,238 --> 00:51:57,531 it's who you spend your time with. 1167 00:51:57,615 --> 00:52:00,075 So, having a good supportive group of friends 1168 00:52:00,159 --> 00:52:02,161 makes your accomplishments even better. 1169 00:52:05,080 --> 00:52:06,081 [Jessi] Okay. 1170 00:52:06,165 --> 00:52:08,083 [Dakota] I needed to talk to somebody about this, 1171 00:52:08,167 --> 00:52:10,502 because like, it's kinda been freaking me out a little bit. 1172 00:52:10,586 --> 00:52:12,171 But, like, Taylor told me, like, 1173 00:52:13,631 --> 00:52:17,176 the last time that we did it, that she was, like, ovulating. 1174 00:52:18,177 --> 00:52:21,305 [♪ suspenseful music playing] 1175 00:52:21,388 --> 00:52:22,723 So, she could be pregnant? 1176 00:52:22,806 --> 00:52:25,351 [Dakota] Like, Taylor, randomly in bed, she goes, 1177 00:52:25,434 --> 00:52:26,977 she's like, "I haven't had my period yet, Dakota." 1178 00:52:27,061 --> 00:52:29,772 And I was like, "From, like, when?" Like-- 1179 00:52:29,855 --> 00:52:32,149 And then she told me, and I was like, "Whoa, hang on, okay." 1180 00:52:32,232 --> 00:52:34,485 -Or I could absolutely-- -Is she gonna be a pregnant Bachelorette? 1181 00:52:35,152 --> 00:52:36,612 [Dakota] That's what I'm freaking-- 1182 00:52:36,695 --> 00:52:39,156 But 'cause they took her damn phone before I could ask her 1183 00:52:39,239 --> 00:52:41,408 and say, "Hey, have you-- Did you start your period, 1184 00:52:41,492 --> 00:52:43,827 -or what's going on here?" -This is a movie, like-- 1185 00:52:43,911 --> 00:52:45,037 Deep down, you have symptoms, 1186 00:52:45,120 --> 00:52:46,789 -you know if you're pregnant. -Oh, my God. 1187 00:52:46,872 --> 00:52:47,998 Well, that's what was weird, too, is like-- 1188 00:52:48,082 --> 00:52:51,043 Then I was starting to think about, like, how emotional kinda she's been lately too. 1189 00:52:51,126 --> 00:52:52,127 She's been a little erratic. 1190 00:52:52,211 --> 00:52:53,837 -Yeah, a little bit more to where I was-- -Oh, my God, 1191 00:52:53,921 --> 00:52:56,507 -Dakota, this is so bad. -And then, she was sick a few times. 1192 00:52:56,590 --> 00:52:58,050 I remember her telling me she felt sick a little bit 1193 00:52:58,133 --> 00:52:59,510 -to where I was like, "Oh." -Oh, my God. 1194 00:52:59,593 --> 00:53:01,679 But I just don't-- I don't know anything. 1195 00:53:02,680 --> 00:53:04,098 Can you fucking imagine, you guys? 1196 00:53:04,181 --> 00:53:06,016 Like, she's The Bachelorette, and she's pregnant. 1197 00:53:06,100 --> 00:53:07,309 Like, there-- that's never happened. 1198 00:53:07,393 --> 00:53:09,186 I don't feel like they could keep her on for that. 1199 00:53:09,269 --> 00:53:11,313 I'm scared to death. I don't know if she's pregnant. 1200 00:53:11,397 --> 00:53:13,065 [groans] Taylor. 1201 00:53:16,110 --> 00:53:17,945 ♪♪ 1202 00:53:24,034 --> 00:53:27,496 ♪♪ 1203 00:53:38,882 --> 00:53:44,388 ♪ Oh, ooh-ooh ♪ 1204 00:53:45,305 --> 00:53:48,350 ♪ Feel the beat of my heart ♪ 1205 00:53:48,892 --> 00:53:52,396 ♪ Only you can make it stop ♪ 1206 00:53:53,188 --> 00:53:56,358 ♪ At the final part ♪ 1207 00:53:56,859 --> 00:54:00,320 ♪ Can you feel the beat of my heart? ♪ 1208 00:54:00,821 --> 00:54:03,657 ♪ Can you feel the beat of my heart? ♪ 1209 00:54:03,741 --> 00:54:05,617 ♪ Beat of my heart ♪ 1210 00:54:05,701 --> 00:54:08,954 ♪ Beat of my ♪