-A 23-year-old woman whom Mexican-American teenagers
in this country compared to Madonna was shot and killed...
-Selena was fatally wounded today
at a Days Inn just before...
-Police say she was gunned down in a Texas motel
by a fan, Yolanda Saldívar.
-Did Yolanda Saldívar plan to kill Selena on that day?
Yes.
-The defense said it will show
the March killing was an accident.
-Yolanda was sentenced to life in prison with the contingency
if she served out 30 years, she could be up for parole.
We're about to come up on that date.
-We are putting together the pieces of this puzzle
so that we can show the public
that there is more to the story than what they have been told.
-Like every case, there's always unanswered questions,
questions like, why did she buy the gun?
-I'm responsible for -- for buying the gun.
There was never any intention to do her any harm.
But I had fear. I was scared.
I was frightened by Abraham.
-Why would Abraham want to threaten Yolanda?
-He knew I knew her secrets.
And he wanted me to reveal them to him.
And I would not betray her on that.
-There's this doctor's secret. Do you wanna go through that?
-Yeah. What is that?
-It's a secret love letter.
-If this is true, then what else could be true?
-My tires were slashed.
My brakes were cut. I'd been assaulted.
-What's clear is Yolanda was in a paranoid state of mind.
-Nothing like that ever happened.
There's no proof other than her word.
-How that gun went off, we can speculate all we want.
Yolanda was there.
She'll give you her story, but is that the story?
**
-In the days leading up to the shooting on the 31st,
you really, really have to examine,
like, what was going on between Selena and Yolanda
and everything that was going on around them.
-You have to be aware of what was going on
in Yolanda's mind at the time.
Her world was ending.
Everything was closing in on her.
And then all of a sudden, Selena's dead.
-Who's threatening you?
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-She's saying these things about Selena's father,
which makes you raise an eyebrow to that because, okay,
how -- how does Selena's father play a role in all of this?
-It was very clear that Abraham was a dark figure
as far as Yolanda was concerned.
"I didn't do it. He made me do it."
But why would Abraham go after Yolanda?
-What Selena was doing in the last year of her life,
to me, that's the story of where she was gonna go.
She has more agency. She's a married woman.
She's starting a new business.
Everything is lining up to be the future of Selena
as she is telling it, as she is dictating it.
-It's like a dream come true.
I mean, there's been a lot of hard work that we put into it,
but when you get hard work, you get success,
and we put a lot of years into it --
12 years now -- and we're really happy.
Never thought we'd get this far, but...
-Selena had signed a deal.
EMI Latin wanted to cross her over into the mainstream,
singing in English.
This was gonna go global.
Abraham was her manager and her father.
You know, that was his deal, and it was about to break big,
but Selena's dream was to do these things
outside of her family, beyond Abe.
Yolanda's involvement with Selena in the boutique
and the fashion lines did not sit well with Abe
because so much was happening
and he was trying to hold on to the music end.
-Selena and Yolanda,
like, they were expanding the boutique business
and Selena's design business,
trying to find a, uh, place where the clothes
could be manufactured in -- in Mexico, right?
And then finding a storefront in Mexico.
-Yolanda and Selena had traveled to Monterrey
in the past, uh, frequently.
trying to work at getting a fashion line started.
-This looks like plane tickets.
-Let me see.
Although Abraham, you know, tried to fire Yolanda
at that March 9th meeting,
Selena and Yolanda continued their business relationship,
their friendship.
They continued still seeing each other.
And we know this because we've got the plane tickets.
Oh, so lookit -- lookit here.
So, International Airport of Houston, IAH, to Monterrey.
And this was on...March 17th.
There's two tickets.
One's Yolanda's.
The other one's Selena's. -Okay.
-So they both flew on the same flight on March 17th
from Houston to Monterrey.
So how interesting is that? -Yeah.
If she was embezzling money
and they had that conversation, during that meeting,
why would she fly with her to another country?
-Yeah. Why continue? -Why continue?
Correct. Like, why -- -Yeah.
Like, why -- why continue that relationship?
-Yes.
-I quit with her.
I had sent her my letter of resignation.
And she wouldn't accept it.
She was, "You will not quit.
Who's gonna handle my -- my businesses in Monterrey?"
'Cause in Monterrey, the business was already blooming.
And, um, she said, "You will not leave me with all of this.
I can't handle all this.
Remember, you pledged your loyalty to me."
And she convinced me to go.
-Monterrey is like this -- this wild card.
But there was more to this story.
There was this figure Dr. Martinez,
Dr. Ricardo Martinez,
who is a plastic surgeon in Monterrey.
He was kind of an elder, almost a father figure,
but a refined, elegant, very, uh, Mexican gentleman.
And Selena really liked him, looked up to him,
and he was kind of a mentor.
-Dr. Martinez was introduced to me
and the whole group of employees
as our Mexico investor,
somebody that was helping us, um, expand the business.
And then, all of a sudden, Yolanda and Selena
were going to go stay over at Dr. Martinez's apartment.
And so I thought that was a little strange.
-During the trial,
I started hearing about, Selena's got a secret.
Yolanda Saldívar, she had one more card to play.
"Well, you know, you've heard all my stories,
but you haven't heard about the secret."
-I had an inkling that something more
than just him being an investor, uh, was going on.
-Dr. Martinez was a plastic surgeon in Monterrey, Mexico.
And somehow, she told me
that her father introduced the doctor to Selena.
She told me it was love at first sight.
And then I saw them,
and they were holding hands and they were kissing.
And -- And so that made me so uncomfortable
because there's Chris at home.
And I'm here with you.
And -- And what is your family going to say about me?
I mean, I'm already deep into it.
-The fact that Selena may have had an affair
with a doctor in Monterrey,
Yolanda Saldívar was saying that she had found out about this.
And I don't think I've ever listened to what she said, um,
and believed what she was talking about.
I think most people would -- would agree
that the stories she was telling were -- were not true.
[ Crowd cheering ]
-Everybody was like, "No, Selena didn't have an affair."
Even the doctor said, "No, I did not have an affair."
-We deposed the doctor to ask him questions
because the defense wanted to use his testimony at trial.
I asked him about his relationship with Selena,
and he said his relationship was a business relationship.
He was helping her set up the business
to make the clothes in -- in Monterrey.
And that was the extent of his involvement with Selena.
-The relationship was just blooming.
She was so madly in love with him.
And I saw that.
I was in the middle of a marriage,
trying you help her cover it up.
**
-There's this doctor's secret. Do you wanna go through that?
-Yeah. What is that?
-I have no idea.
-It just says "Doctor's secrets."
Elida wrote this and put it in here.
I'm assuming it refers to Dr. Martinez.
-Yeah.
-And so in there lies this little, little --
It's like -- I don't even know what this is.
It's like a cover of -- It's like --
I don't know what it is. -Yeah.
-It's just -- but it says, "Tu iluminas."
So, "You light up."
And then, "My life," "mi vida."
In it, it says, "Selena, te quiero.
Tu amigo por siempre, Ricardo."
-It's a secret love letter.
-It's just -- Yeah. -It's a little note.
-I don't know if this really is from him,
but I know if I were a married woman
and some friend of mine gave me, "You light up my life"...
-Yeah.
-...it would be very questionable to my husband.
-I-I did a lot of lying.
I did a lot of...
uh, maneuvering.
And I'm thinking, "Oh, I'm helping her."
No, you're not helping her.
-Like, people already made up their minds, right?
"Yolanda's a liar. She lies."
And then come to find out,
by the doctor's own admission, it was happening.
It did happen.
This thing that she's been saying
since the beginning is true.
And if this is true, then what else could be true?
-Abraham, he started noticing that Selena
was occupying a lot of her time to her businesses.
He started getting angry about that
because it was conflicting with her recording,
her career as a singer.
That was his baby.
He wanted to control her time.
He wanted to control her whereabouts.
And she was not going to have none of that.
So he kept asking me, "What is she doing?
Where is she at?" And I couldn't tell him
because I was more loyal to her than to him,
and when I would not, anger started coming my way.
-She says a lot of things over the course of the tapes
that sometimes don't make much sense,
that are clearly being said
when she's in a heightened emotional state,
when she's literally hysterical.
And so when the alleged threats from Abraham start coming in,
it is hard to take it at face value.
In the context of everything else,
I would have a very hard time
believing that her allegations were true.
-Abraham's a little rough around the edges.
I mean, I'm not going to lie to that.
He was very fiercely protective of his family,
but do you have anybody else that said
that Abraham was mean to her and intimidated her,
or do you have that just from her mouth?
-Some, uh, incidents happened to my car.
My tires were slashed.
My brakes were cut.
And then one day, my windshield was hit,
and it was shattered
with what the repairman said
looked -- looked like a -- like a bullet.
I think it was Abraham trying to get me out of the way.
I didn't have evidence that he was slashing my tires.
He's not one that does the bad deed.
He always has somebody who does the bad deeds.
I-I fear everywhere I go.
-According to Yolanda, there were strange things
that were going on.
And Abraham's really controlling,
and I think Abraham's conflict with Yolanda
is that she's a force that's pulling Selena away.
-I was the person that was between
what he wanted to accomplish with her
in the music industry and her businesses.
If he got me out of the way,
then she couldn't function her businesses.
He started an investigation and tried to remove me,
accusing me of embezzlement, but I didn't work for Abraham.
I worked for Selena.
I was doing what she asked me to do with the checks.
It goes back to Dr. Martinez.
-Why was Yolanda writing checks to herself?
I believe that Selena's affair with the doctor
was partially the reason.
Selena was telling her,
"Write the check to yourself, go cash it,"
and then Yolanda would purchase tickets
or whatever they needed
to fund their next trip over to Mexico to go see the doctor.
Yolanda did not give up Selena at that meeting.
Did not betray that friendship.
But is now so afraid of Abraham that she had to go buy a gun.
-I went and -- and -- and I bought the gun,
and I showed it to Selena.
And I said, "I think I need this for my protection
because I don't trust your father."
And she said, "Buffy, I want you to return this gun,
and I'm gonna protect you.
'Cause he's not gonna touch you, ever."
I said, "Okay."
I-I returned it, but it continued.
-When you're a prosecutor and a defense lawyer,
you have the facts
and you can make inferences from the facts,
but I don't just come out with plain conjecture.
You say something, "Well, if Selena was here,
she would tell you this.
This is Selena's secret."
That's a classic work of a manipulator.
Yolanda Saldívar, I can't tell you everything
that was going on in her head.
You inference things from somebody's actions.
Did Yolanda Saldívar plan to kill Selena on that day?
Yes.
I think she also planned to kill Selena
the day she went and bought the gun.
-Even after the March 9th accusation
that she was stealing money from Selena,
Selena and Yolanda continue working together.
The fashion line was about to get launched in Monterrey,
and Selena's not gonna let these little details
like an embezzlement charge get in the way.
She couldn't do it without Yolanda.
-Have you ever had to fire somebody
but you need them to finish a project first,
and you keep them on
and then you know you're going to cut them loose
as soon as they turn in this last project?
Selena was keeping her as long as she could
to get the business records from Monterrey, Mexico.
So I'm sure Yolanda was trying to hold on to everything.
-She said, "Buffy, I need for you to go to Monterrey.
We need to finish this."
We had the office already. We had the manufacturer.
We had the seamstress. We had the models.
We had a pending fashion show.
And I told her I felt that I wasn't safe anymore.
But Selena was stubborn.
"This is what Abraham wants, for me to fail."
She said, "Point a finger at me and say, 'See, I told you.
You couldn't do it.'"
And she was determined to prove him wrong.
I had a choice, you know --
quit or be loyal to her.
So here we go again to Monterrey.
-Yolanda was gonna go to Mexico,
but she didn't want to go by herself.
She had asked me to go with her.
I did not know why she had asked me.
When we took off,
that's when she told me she was being followed.
I was like, "From who?"
She was really scared and she was like, "It's a blue car.
It's a Chrysler Fifth Avenue."
And I turned around, and I saw the vehicle.
-That blue car had been following me for months,
since the month of February.
Everywhere I went, whether it was to shops, to my home,
that car was always everywhere.
And at that point,
I was becoming very concerned for my safety.
And I believe that it was someone sent by Abraham.
The reason that I never reported these things,
because Selena didn't want me to.
She felt that this was gonna be
something negative to her career,
and she begged me not to do it.
And I regret that.
Loyalty to her, trying to help her make her businesses work,
'cause she wanted that to work.
-I know Abraham's character 'cause I've lived it.
Like, I-I experienced it, right?
Do I feel that Abraham could have threatened her
or sent people to follow her?
If he got super angry, I could see that,
like, in his character, right?
-There's no proof Abraham had anything to do
with any of these accusations.
What's clear is Yolanda was in a paranoid state of mind.
That's what prompted her to get the gun the second time.
-About a week before the shooting,
Yolanda Saldívar returned to San Antonio
and went back to A Place To Shoot,
the same place.
She came in and she said she wanted her gun back.
She wanted to buy the same gun, exactly the same gun.
And so they sold it to her.
-I think she took the gun back
'cause she thought Selena was taking her back into employment.
And then when Selena was saying, "Nope, you know,
this is gonna be over," she went and gets the gun again.
-On the 26th, we met at Budget Hotel in Corpus Christi.
She wanted me to go to Monterrey again.
And I was not very comfortable with that.
And I said, "Selena, being out there by myself
trying to continue your businesses,
and your father continues to be this menacing way towards me.
Someone's following me, and I don't know who.
My tires are being slashed,
and I just don't feel comfortable."
But she begged me and she goes, "Buffy, look.
He will not hurt you. He will not.
I assure you that."
And I said, "Okay, I'm letting you know
that I bought the gun back."
-If she really was threatened, why go back to Mexico?
To me, it doesn't make any sense.
In my brain, it doesn't make any sense.
Why didn't she just walk out?
-Whatever Selena and Yolanda talked about,
however Yolanda shared her fears
about someone coming after her,
Selena was able to talk Yolanda,
"Go to Monterrey for a third trip.
You can't let me down now.
You got to stick with this. We're almost done."
-On the 27th,
with her sister Virginia Mendoza.
-Selena was able to talk Yolanda,
"Don't quit, don't leave me.
Go to Monterrey for a third trip."
Her third trip in a month,
four days before the shooting.
-I was so nervous.
But I'm a person that believes in trust
and respect and loyalty.
I believe in those things.
Those are pillars of my growing up.
And -- And so you're faithful to your job or you're not.
And -- And that's how I felt.
And I think I was showing her my loyalty.
-Yolanda had gone back to Mexico on a business trip.
She felt so uncomfortable
that she took her older sister with her.
And on the way back, they stopped at a Whataburger,
I believe it was, and Yolanda went in to get some food.
-It was around 8:00 in the morning,
so I went in there and I ordered,
and while it has been ordered, I went to the bathroom.
And I was washing my hands.
So, these men, I had no idea who they were,
they started pushing me against the mirror.
I said, "What do y'all want?"
And one of them just hit me right here
and pushed me around, and -- and I almost fell.
I didn't know what they were after.
I did not know, you know, if they were gonna kill me
or they were gonna take me.
You know, all those things were coming through my mind.
And I guess somebody heard
that there was rambling inside the restroom,
I was yelling, that they ran out.
And so, oh, my God, I started feeling shaky,
and I didn't know what was happening,
and so I left.
I didn't even pick up the stuff.
And I got in the car and I just told my sister,
"Let's go. We have to go, we have to go."
And she says, "What happened?"
And I said, "I just -- I just -- I just got assaulted.
We just have to go, we just have to go."
-Yolanda says that, uh,
when she was in Mexico, she was beaten up by two men.
-As far as specifics, according to Yolanda,
it was two men after her.
Was it two men in the blue car?
Was it two men sent by Abraham?
We don't know.
-I mean, she was sayin', "Two men beat me up."
Well, she still had her fancy briefcase with her.
They didn't steal her car.
It was just not believable.
-For many years, there was no proof this assault happened.
You had to take Yolanda at her word.
Then there was a letter that popped up.
-I'm trying to remember who this was from.
-Oh, that is very interesting.
That's a letter that she got in prison from --
-Is this Lorenzo? I think it is Lorenzo.
-Yes. This is Lorenzo.
The letter that Yolanda received was from Lorenzo Salinas,
who was Dr. Martinez's, um, personal chauffeur,
indicating that attack did happen,
and it was the doctor who ordered it.
Oh, yeah, so he says right here [Speaking Spanish]
And so that's what she's been sayin' all along,
like, "Somebody beat me up."
To this day, people don't believe that she was attacked,
or people say that she made it up.
Although this guy is saying,
"I'm the one who hired those guys,"
so it did happen -Yeah.
-This letter kind of throws another wrench
into what we believe actually happened.
You know, it's not just Abraham's gonna get her,
but Dr. Martinez is gonna get her,
which raised the question,
why would Dr. Martinez want to attack Yolanda?
Why would he want to go after her?
-Yolanda believes that the doctor
viewed her as a threat to his relationship with Selena
and that Yolanda might have the power
for Selena to end that relationship.
-I mean, look, we've got this letter.
It's got a postmark from Monterrey.
But I don't know who this chauffeur is,
who this letter writer is.
We don't know if this letter's even legit,
so what can you prove, and what can you not prove?
After all these years, there are still questions.
-When I traveled by myself to Mexico without Selena,
I started finding out things about him
that make me wonder, what is it he is all about?
So I told Selena, I said, "You better be careful with this man,
because I don't know if he's loyal to you,"
and he didn't like for me to be doing that.
But she was so madly in love with him.
-According to Yolanda, both Dr. Martinez
and Abraham had to get her out of Selena's life.
If, as the family tells the story,
there were threats and bullet holes and all this stuff.
You know, is that paranoia, "people coming after me" real?
I don't know.
It started with the accusation,
"You've been stealing from the fan club."
It ended with Selena dead at the check-in desk at the Days Inn.
-On March the 30th19
Thursday evening...
Yolanda Saldívar, she checks in to a hotel
here in Corpus Christi and calls Selena.
Yolanda had all these financial documents
that Selena needed to prepare her income tax.
She calls Selena and says, "I've got your records, Selena.
Here they are. I'm at this hotel.
I'm in this room.
Come by, and, uh, I'll give them to you."
-The prosecution wants you to believe
that Yolanda lured Selena into this hotel room
for all of these documents, right?
That isn't exactly what happened in reality.
-After that attack at the Whataburger,
me and my sister, we drove and drove and drove
until we got to the border.
I called Selena. [ Telephone rings ]
And I told her everything that happened.
"I'm just -- I'm scared, frightened.
I'm done. I'm done working.
I'm going to Corpus. Meet me somewhere.
I'll give you all the documents."
And she said, "No, no, no, no."
She said, "Look, just go to -- There's a Days Inn.
Stop there, and I'll meet you there tonight."
I went to San Antonio to drop off my sister,
and I drove to the hotel.
I was shaking, 'cause I was looking around,
making sure nobody was there.
I drove to the room. I locked it.
-Selena goes to the hotel that evening.
She goes with her husband, Chris Pérez.
Chris stays by the car. He doesn't go into the room.
-She came in the room and she saw how I'd been assaulted.
I said, "Selena, in the morning, I'm gonna go see a doctor.
All your books are right there on the bed.
And I left the truck open, and there's a briefcase in there
with all the documents of anything you've ever given me."
And that's when she started, "What is this?
That you just want to quit on me?"
I said, "I cannot work with you like this.
I got assaulted. What else do you want me to do?"
"Well, we're gonna talk about it in the morning,
'cause Chris is outside waiting for me."
-Chris says they're in there for a little while,
and then Selena returns to the car with the box.
On the way home, she looks through the documents,
and it's the same thing she's gotten before.
It's nothing that she can use.
So Selena says, "That's it. No more.
I'm not gonna deal with Yolanda anymore."
-She left, but she didn't even go to the truck
to get the briefcase, the documents that were in there.
**
-The next morning, Selena went by herself in Chris's truck
back over there to the hotel.
Selena left without tellin' Chris.
Chris was still asleep.
-She shows up in the morning.
She says, "Let's go to the hospital.
Let's go to the hospital."
And I said, "Okay, let's go. Let's go."
-When Selena took Yolanda Saldívar
to the hospital, she was examined by two nurses.
And she's saying, "Oh, yes, these two big men beat me up."
And the nurses, you know, look at her body,
and we -- we have the pictures from her arrest,
and she's got these, like, brown spots
that are almost like bruises that were healing.
There's, like, maybe a scratch or two.
And the nurses told me that Selena was just sitting there
looking with her arms crossed,
shaking her head, like, "This is not matching what she told me."
It was just not believable.
I mean, the lightbulb went off in Selena's head, I'm sure.
-They say that she lied about being assaulted,
but I've seen the letter
that states the attack did actually happen.
They say that she was disgruntled
because she was gonna get fired,
when in reality, she put in a resignation letter to Selena.
Saying that she embezzled money is also embellished, right?
This whole narrative of this obsessed,
crazy fan who was so distraught
to leave Selena that she killed her.
If you really look at all of that evidence,
then it would open your eyes to the possibility
that Yolanda isn't this horrible monster,
but Yolanda had a gun, and the gun went off.
Yes, Selena died.
-Now, how that gun went off, we can speculate all we want,
'cause I wasn't there and you weren't there.
Yolanda was there.
Now, how she sees it or has interpreted it,
that's Yolanda.
And she'll -- she'll give you her story,
but is that the story?
**
-Selena, when she came into the room,
she kept trying to put guilt in me
for not continuing with her
and -- and how everything was gonna crumble,
and she kept saying to me,
"If you don't stay with me, I know you.
You're gonna come out.
You're gonna be telling everybody
about what was going on with the doctor."
I felt...
I felt like, "How dare you accuse me
when I've kept all your secrets?
What do you want me to do?"
And -- And all I could think is --
to show her my loyalty to her
is to blow my brains out.
My emotions were running so high.
And I was hurting. My body was hurting.
I didn't know how to operate a gun.
I've never had one.
And so...
I just clicked it. [ Gun clicks ]
And I said, "What do you want me to do?
What is the last thing y'all want me to do?
What is the last thing your family wants me to do?
You want me to kill myself? Because I'll just do it."
And I got the gun and...
And she said, "No, no, no, no, Yolanda!"
And she went to the door. And when she went to the door,
I said, "Don't close the door," and, pow, it went...
**
-Those last moments in
I don't know if Yolanda was just wavin' a gun around
or intentionally aimed it, and was it a selfish act?
"If I can't have her, no one can have her"?
[ Gun clicks ]
No one knows.
Yolanda knows, and I'm not sure she even knows.
[ Gunshot ]
But the gun went off, and Selena died.
-I just feel like there's a lot of risk
in essentially retrying this case
in the court of public opinion
when at the end of the day, she is the person who did it.
Is there maybe some nuance as to, like,
the circumstances that led up to it?
Yeah, but does that change the fact
that she is the one who killed Selena?
-I've been telling you all all along,
this is a simple murder case.
Uh, I expected a two-week trial,
and I expected a two-hour verdict,
and I think -- I think the jury took a little longer,
2 hours and 20 minutes or something like that.
I've never looked at cases as win or lose.
In fact, when I left the courtroom, they said,
"What do you think about this great victory?"
And I told 'em, "Look, what you've got is one --
one family has lost their daughter,
the other family just lost their daughter.
There's no victory here for anybody.
Nobody wins."
[ Crowd cheering ]
-All we could hear was people
cheering like it was a parade,
like it was the best news in the whole world.
-Yeah, that's the hardest part.
It's knowing that the fact that from that day on
that everything in your life is gonna change.
It's like being on an island.
You know, it's just us.
-I think Yolanda has suffered.
This family has suffered.
She'll always pay for that.
She'll -- She'll have to live with that the rest of her life.
And that enough is punishment.
-The fact that she's gonna have --
or she could have the ability to come home
is exactly what Grandma and Grandpa wanted.
-Yolanda is eligible for parole in, uh, March of 2025,
which is quickly approaching.
For us as a family, we're hopeful that she can get out
but also very scary and terrifying at the same time.
God, I hope people will just...
let her live however many years she has left in peace.
Leave our family alone.
Because no matter what they do to Yolanda,
if she comes out, no matter what anybody does to her,
they can't bring Selena back.
Nobody can.
-I tell my family, even to this day,
I said, "I'm 100% responsible for that.
I am."
And they tell me, "No, no, no, no, Tía.
We're family.
You know, one suffers, we all suffer."
I said, "No."
The -- The emotion of them
having to, for years,
not going out to eat, not going out to any functions,
not -- couldn't -- couldn't even go to school
because of all the bad -- negativity thrown their way,
it's a big weight for me.
-It wasn't until a couple of weeks later
that I got to see Yolanda after it happened.
And the very first time that I saw her
and she was in custody, um,
she knew that Selena was my friend, right?
And she just told me, crying, like, "It's --
I didn't mean to do it. I didn't mean to do it."
In my head, in my heart, I know...
my aunt did something and killed Selena.
My aunt shot a gun, and it killed Selena.
I know that.
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[Voice breaking] But I'm on both sides.
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She was my aunt, but Selena was my friend.
And I'm on both sides.
And it's hard for me to say that one person that I love
that's my aunt
killed another person that I love that is my friend.
I'm not here just to defend the person that Yolanda is.
I have to talk about the friend that I lost
and a friend that I never got to say goodbye to.
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-My decisions were my decisions.
But the consequences are also mine.
And I...
I'm regretful for all of that.
If I could turn time, if I could turn the clock,
I think that a lot of things would not be as they were.
I want the people to know that I miss Selena just like they do.
So much.
But, uh, I know I'll see her again in heaven.
I know I will.
She didn't deserve to die.
She didn't deserve that.
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