Friends, we've become a disconnected, survivalist,
spiritually, mentally broken animal.
A fervorous soup of humanity.
All we do is slap sexy graphics and theme songs on videos
of people being assholes.
We have no love for each other. We have no love for ourselves.
Love has died.
Let's go, Los Angeles.
Sing.
Come on!
You sing!
Everybody!
BX!
Come on!
Sing!
Come on!
Let's go!
Come on!
Everybody, hands up. Let's go!
Everybody!
Come on!
Let's go!
The Bronx!
Thank you!
Oh, my God.
I love you. Thank you.
Thank you. Oh, my God.
I love you so much.
Thank you. Oh, my God.
Oh, my God. I love you. I really-- I do.
J.Lo! J.Lo! J.Lo!
Thank you. I love you all. Thank you so much.
I love you so much.
Thank you.
Thank you, guys.
Oh, my God.
Oh, my God, it's good to be back!
It's been too long.
It been too long. I miss you guys.
You gon' make me cry. Stop it.
You guys are too good to me.
I love you. You know I love you.
Yes.
Just give me a moment to take it all in. Thank you.
I love you.
You know I love you.
Thank you.
You're so fucking-- Everything.
Everything.
Do I have the best fans in the world? I think so.
I don't think nobody beats y'all. Nobody.
Oh, my God.
I love you!
We love ya!
You know, whenever you come back to the stage,
it always feels like the first time. I come out here and I'm like...
It feels like the first time.
It never, never gets old.
It doesn't.
It's always such a big joy in my life.
- We love you! - We still love you!
But this time, this time right here, you know, I'm glad we did it this way.
This is the first time.
You know, just-- just a little group of us.
The real, real ride-or-dies in this motherfucker right now.
I feel it! I feel it all over my...
I got the goosies from head to toe.
But I gotta tell you,
this time-- this time feels even more special...
because it's like a brand-new beginning, right?
So many things in my life have changed since I last saw you guys.
And tonight-- tonight I'm gonna be doing
a bunch of new songs from my brand-new project,
This is Me... Now.
That was "Hearts And Flowers."
You know, I've been teasing this musical experience for over a year.
It's because-- I know. I know.
It's not just a record though, you know?
It's a very, very special project.
It's a-- It's an album.
It's a movie.
And it's also a whole behind-the-scenes of the journey that it took to get there.
I got a lot for you.
You waited, but it's gonna be worth the wait, I promise you.
You guys waited such a long time, my little On The JLo crew.
Over a year.
So I just-- I wanted to say thank you for being so patient.
Thank you. I love you guys so much.
It had to be perfect for you.
Love you!
And, you know, something that's 20 years in the making,
it-- you can't rush it, you know?
You have to wait till it's ready, when it's right.
And a lot of people along the way have asked me,
"What is the album like? What is it about?"
And I think you guys know.
- There was This is Me... Then... - Yeah!
...20 years ago.
And this is This is Me... Now.
So you can kinda guess what happened both times
that made me write those records, I think.
What the inciting incident was.
Ben!
Yes.
That bitch in love!
But it's not just that.
It's also about a whole life's journey.
It's about the thing in life that drives you as a person,
as a human being.
And the one thing that I always felt mattered the most in life, which is love.
And I always had questions.
You know, I always had questions. I'm like, "Is love real?"
I got my heart broke. "Is love real?
Does true love exist? Does anything last forever?"
And once I felt like I found the answer to that question,
I had to share it with all of you, and that's what this album is.
That's what this project is.
It's how you get from heartbreak back to love
and all the bumps and bruises in between.
And there were some bumpy nights.
This is called "Rebound."
What?
Come on! You sing!
Sing!
Come on!
Sing!
Yes!
That's how we're gonna do it tonight. That's how we're gonna do it.
We're gonna do a little then.
A little now.
- Let God bless! - Yes!
Yes, Lord.
Yes, we are.
- I love you! - Perform!
Perform!
I hear you, JR. I hear you.
I got more for you. Just wait. I got more for you.
We just getting warmed up right now.
It's like when they let you out of the box and then you're like,
"Okay. I got this now."
You know, I think a lot of people from the This is Me... Then album
way back when, for those of you who were with me at that time...
Yes.
I think that a lot of people think
that "Jenny from the Block" was the biggest record off that album.
I don't know. You guys may know.
"Still." We love "Still"!
No.
Well, it wasn't "Jenny from the Block." It w--
That was a huge record, and obviously I do it all the time,
but it was actually a little song
I sing with LL Cool J.
You guys know that one?
Now, he's not here tonight, so don't get excited.
But I was just thinking there are some youngsters in the room
who need to be educated on who LL Cool J is.
You know.
And don't act like if you've been with me all that time, you know.
We still look good though. We keeping it young.
Keep it sexy.
But this record here-- this record was number one for weeks.
And I remember LL calling me up and being like, "Can you believe it?
Our record is still number one!"
And I just remember little things like that, you know?
'Cause the whole experience of that album, that whole time in my life,
was such a beautiful time.
So many beautiful, lovely things happened to me.
And I know a lot of you out here have been to a lot of my shows
and so you know that when we do this, we do it together, right?
We do this one together.
Are y'all gonna sing with me?
- Yes! - Okay. Let's go.
Come on! Sing!
Yes!
Okay, everybody, like this.
Sing!
Yes!
Hold up. Hold on, band.
They know how this goes.
Where my ladies at?
All right now, ladies.
Ladies, I know you can make more noise than that.
Where are my ladies at?
That's my ladies right there.
All right. We're gonna do what we do. We're gonna sing this real simple.
We're gonna sing "all I have." Y'all ready?
Ladies, are you ready?
Will you show 'em how to do it?
Come on, baby.
Very good. A little bit louder. I see--
One more time.
Yes, ladies.
Hold on.
Now you got me wondering what the fellas can do.
What can the fellas do?
Where my fellas at?
Okay.
Fellas, I see you got a little bass in your voice.
I like it.
So Stevie gonna show 'em how to do it. Stevie, show 'em how to do it.
All right. Listen up. Here we go, guys.
Can you do better than the ladies? Let me see.
- Oh, shit. - That's it.
One more time. Come on.
Ladies, we're gonna have to come back in right now. Ready?
- Hey. - Fellas.
- Ladies, sing! - Yeah.
Keep it going. Now we're singing together.
Yes! I love it. Sing!
One more time.
Come on.
Yes, you are.
Sing it again.
You know, 20 years ago I wrote a very innocent song
about falling deeply in love with someone...
in a way that you never have before.
And it had very simple lyrics.
Very simple lyrics.
But it got a lot of attention.
Because I decided to call it "Dear Ben."
So I knew, when I made this album, there had to be a part two.
Say you love me.
Do it again.
Say you love me.
Do it again.
You sing.
Do it again.
Up top.
Do it again.
Come on.
Sitting.
Sing.
Say you love me.
Do it again.
Let's go!
That's such a happy song.
That's "Hummingbird."
- I love you! - You are the best!
You know, I wrote a lot of happy songs on this album.
It was so easy to write about happiness...
And hummingbirds and miracles...
'Cause it's not often you get a second chance in life.
You know?
Second chances are hard to come by. You gotta embrace it.
Te amo, J.Lo!
I love you too.
But there is another part of the story that needed to be written.
And that was much more difficult for me.
And that was about the struggle and the pain in between
that it took to get to the miracle, you know?
You know, some of these songs I wrote much quicker than others.
My whole team, we were in the studio vibing.
Ink is in the house. I see Ink there.
She helped me write almost every one of these songs.
And we were in the studio, right? We were just like, "I love you.
I love you more. No, I love you so much."
Love, love, love.
But this next song, I wound up taking away myself.
And I wound up writing it over and over and over a thousand times.
You know, when you're inspired, things pour out of you.
But when you have to dig a little deeper and look at those parts of yourself
that feel pain and devastation and, you know,
the trauma that lives inside us that we carry with us.
And I realized that this song just never felt quite right.
It just-- It didn't flow in the perfect way.
But the truth is, that's not how life is, that's not how it works.
Sometimes that's not how love is.
It's this-- It's a winding, crooked, fragmented road.
It gets dark at times.
And so the song had to be that way too.
And I had to get to a place where I realized--
Well, more that I had to admit to myself
that I was broken in a lot of ways.
You know, I was always so used to putting my best foot forward
in show business, you know?
Keeping that other part for myself.
I'm okay. I'm out here with you. Everything's all right.
And I was doing that for many, many years.
And it was okay.
But there was also a part of me that I was hiding from everybody.
We love you!
And I realized that I wasn't not only being honest with you,
I wasn't being honest with myself.
And so then I realized that I was broken and that was okay,
because there's something beautiful about those parts of ourselves
that we carry that have scars.
There's something really great about that because, you know,
you ever have a scar, like, right here?
And you're like, "Look what happened to me.
I fell right here."
And you're kind of proud of it in a way. You survived it.
And that's beautiful.
And sometimes those cuts are on the inside.
This song is called "Broken Like Me."
We love you!
I love you too.
Yes! J.Lo, we love you!
We love you! Love you!
We love you!
J.Lo, we love you over here!
We love you!
Too much? No, no. Thank you.
Thank you so much.
I'm glad they brought this big coat out here for me.
'Cause it's getting chilly in the wind.
You know, I know that's different from what people are used to hearing from me.
I'm not a big ballad girl. I'm more of, like...
I know.
But I thought it was important.
This is me now. This is a different me now.
Thank you for coming on the journey.
But we can't stay down for long, can we?
- No! - No, sir.
No, we can't. We got to pick ourselves back up.
We can't stay broken for too long.
This next song, some of you might know.
I know, you sh-- But you might have heard pieces of it.
Somebody stole it...
from our wedding.
It's fine.
I have forgiveness in my heart now.
But some of you might know this one. Band, give me some tempo.
Come on!
I just wanna-- I just feel like--
Every time I see, it's like--
I just wanna--
I just feel like-- You know what?
Band, break it down.
All right. You know the vibes.
Let's dance.
You sing.
Come on.
Over here, sing.
That's right.
Over here.
Yes.
Everybody, clap.
Yes. I like it. Keep it going.
So again, I wanna hear them clapping.
We gonna keep it nice, right here.
See if they can keep up with me.
We gonna have fun with that one.
We gonna have a lot of fun with that one over the years.
Put all the classics in there.
My next plan is Aretha. Yep!
Amazing. Thank you, guys, for all the love on that song.
Who wants my jacket?
It's Dolce. Oh, my goodness.
Let me s--
Outta there. It's gone.
Wardrobe's gonna hate me for that one.
This next song that we're gonna do,
this might be--
This might be my favorite song on the whole album.
I think so. Maybe.
What can I tell you about this song?
Yeah, I'm gonna sing it. Here it goes.
This is Me... Then really captured a moment in time.
Now, it does have a happy ending.
And the reason we're here is because I want to capture this moment in time,
'cause it is even better than the first time.
I think I learned a lot in those 20 years,
but the biggest thing was to accept myself, you know?
To finally get to a point where I can say, "This is me.
The messy parts, the broken parts, the beautiful parts, the strong parts.
Imperfect and ever evolving, ever changing."
"This is me... Now."
It's the greatest love story never told for two reasons.
Because it's this incredibly epic-long love story about getting a second chance.
Yes, but it's also the story of learning to be in love with yourself.
That's the greatest love story never told.
Then, maybe a miracle can happen.
If you have lost hope, almost given up, don't.
Because true love does exist and some things do last forever.
That's real. And I want to put that message out into the world.
Come on, hands up.
If you love who you are...
sing it loud!
Yes!
Thank you so much.
Yes, make some noise.
Thank you very much. I love you.
Can you give it up for this amazing band?
I love you. Thank you so much.
Yes.
Give it up for the dancers too.
Thank you.