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VINCE WEINER: This was most brutal homicide in over 25 years.
CRUX CONCEPTION: Forensic science,
it was the key witness.
NARRATOR: Talk to the real suspects.
I didn't kill anybody, dude.
NARRATOR: Hear from the real victims.
I couldn't believe it. I'm in a state of shock.
NARRATOR: And ultimately, solve the case
through the use of forensic science.
We still have a homicide suspect somewhere out there.
This is... WOMAN: A murderer.
REPORTER: A disturbing story has come in... (overlapping voices)
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NEWS ANCHOR: It's the question on everyone's mind in Palm Beach Gardens:
why was a well-off businessman in his early 70s shot dead?
NEWS ANCHOR 2: Police said the body was found near the golf course
of the BallenIsles Country Club.
Right now, though, that's all they've said
about the circumstances as to what happened here.
There's been no word on suspects.
No arrests have been made.
RICK MORETTI: My name's Rick Moretti.
I'm a retired detective
with the City of Palm Beach Gardens Police Department.
On January 25th, 2018,
I got notified around 7:00
that we had a deceased individual, elderly male,
in the middle of the field in the 5600 block of PGA Boulevard.
I was already on my way into work at that time,
so I head to the crime scene.
The road patrol officer was
already on scene at that time, keeping the crime scene secured.
The person who discovered the body was Mr. Burgess.
He was out walking his dog.
He had flagged down a passing bicyclist
and had that individual call 911.
The guy that's over here with the white gentleman... OFFICER: Uh-huh.
...that's over there, talking, he found him.
Okay. They're always...
Did he stop you? Yeah, he stopped me.
Okay. 'Cause he doesn't have a phone.
Oh, okay.
He was absolutely adamant
that the person wasn't there earlier.
5:30, there was nobody here.
OFFICER 2: Okay. Brought him back at 7:00,
and that's when I found... Okay.
MORETTI: Mr. Burgess came back out to the field
a couple of hours later,
and his dogs immediately alerted
and ran toward the decedent.
Based on Mr. Burgess's statements
that he was there around 5:00
and there absolutely was no body there,
and then he went back for a second walk
of his dogs at 7:00 a.m. and there was a body there,
now we have a two-hour window.
Now it's our job to figure out what happened
during that two hours.
OFFICER: Don't go nowhere. I need names.
OFFICER 2: Does it look like he was shot or something?
Yeah, right in the heart.
Ugh. Horrible.
Small caliber, with a little hole. Yeah.
MORETTI: Based on the location where this occurred,
you've got the roadway, you've got the grass,
you've got the sidewalk, you've got the palmettos.
Then you've got the open field, so we need to search that field,
hands and knees.
OFFICER: All right, Tom, you need help?
MORETTI: We need to check the drains along PGA.
We're checking dumpsters.
We're checking everything that we can
to see if we might have a clue.
The decedent was laying
on the ground with his head to the west.
There was what appeared to be
a single gunshot wound to the chest
with pooling blood around that area.
CONCEPTION: My name is Crux Conception,
I am a criminologist, criminal profiler
and retired homicide detective.
Located at the crime scene was a cell phone...
...an empty binder clip...
...and silver scissors.
To see a binder clip and a pair of scissors
at a crime scene,
it doesn't add up.
It's a lot of question marks.
HEIDI SIEVERS: My name is Heidi Sievers,
and I am a forensic investigator with a law enforcement agency
for approximately five years.
I love being able to take what is essentially
a mystery and a puzzle
and find small tidbits of evidence
and piece them all together
to come to one final conclusion.
In this case, one thing that did catch my attention
was the scissors.
I would be very curious as to know if that was something
that he normally carried with him.
CONCEPTION: The cell phone,
the scissors and the binder clip
are submitted to a crime scene analysis
for possible fingerprints or DNA collection.
The phone is also submitted for data analysis,
to extract digital evidence
or digital data
furthering the investigation.
What we are not seeing at the crime scene
is a gun, and we don't see any gunshot casings.
So we have the homicide
with no weapon.
We got to identify who this individual is.
The scene belongs to us, but the body belongs
to the medical examiner till they arrive.
The medical examiner arrives,
and hopefully, he has identification on him.
SIEVERS: The medical examiner's office
was able to recover a wallet from the decedent's pocket
and could identify him as 71-year-old
Alan J. Abrahamson.
GEORGE BLACKSTONE: Alan Abrahamson is my pal.
There aren't that many people
that you have that kind of connection with
where you have the same sense of humor
and you're throwing jokes back and forth,
laughing a lot.
Alan was 71,
but he had the enthusiasm and vitality
of a 45-year-old.
This is a guy who always had a smile on his face,
always had a positive thing to say
and loving life.
When I got the call from the police department,
they were asking if, did I know if he had any known enemies?
I had just spoken to him, like, two days prior.
What was the motive? Who could have possibly
murdered this guy?
LEE TORMOS: I am an associate medical examiner
at the Palm Beach County medical examiner office.
When we examine the body on the outside,
we look for any signs of struggle,
trauma, abrasions, contusions, broken fingernails.
And from the analysis of the shirt,
we could plainly see that there was a lot
of gunpowder residue where the projectile had gone through.
There was a little bit of searing
on the fabric itself,
and that indicates a very close, or contact, gunshot wound.
It is probably a robbery,
because the binder clip.
I've personally been using a binder clip
for my money for, for a long time.
So with it being open like that on the ground,
no money on his person,
it appeared to be a robbery gone... bad.
CONCEPTION: First theory for the investigative unit
would be...
Alan is walking in the early morning,
and somebody approaches him,
and he's held at gunpoint.
Stick him up for all that he has.
He takes the money out of the binder clip.
Then he's shot in the chest.
The reason for the shooting
would be because of resistance
or because he identified the perpetrator,
and flees the scene.
Some of the questions that come to mind are,
how would the suspect have carried out a robbery
without being seen by bystanders right next to a busy road?
And what evidence would be surrounding
the crime scene to coincide with that person?
The field where the body was found was very well-maintained.
There didn't seem to be any footprints around the body,
very little evidence that a perpetrator
would have been on foot.
Despite the lack of a definitive footprint,
that doesn't necessarily rule out
that someone else wasn't there.
So detectives have to look for more clues.
At this point in time, detectives go back to the body.
TORMOS: The gunshot entered
the left side of the chest.
It went through the lung,
it went through the heart,
and the bullet lodged under the skin
on the right side of the back.
We recovered a deformed mushroom projectile
from the subcutaneous tissues on the right side of the back.
It was a full copper projectile, which is very unusual.
MORETTI: It's a very rare type of bullet.
You have to special-order it.
It's just one you can't buy off the shelves
at a... at a gun store.
CONCEPTION: Hollow-point is more dangerous.
That's a law enforcement, uh,
type issue projectile.
We use hollow-points.
A regular projectile, the kind that you use
for target practice, can go through anything.
You can shoot me, and it can go
through the wall and hit somebody else.
Hollow-points are made to stop inside.
Once they hit that human flesh, they're made to stop and expand.
TORMOS: He did not have any signs
that he tried to defend himself in any way.
No wounds at all in his body other than
the gunshot wound.
Cause of death: gunshot wound to chest,
manner of death: homicide.
Pretty routine for a forensic pathologist.
MORETTI: There's no signs of a struggle.
That doesn't mean nothing didn't happen.
It just means there was no struggle.
We have a gunshot-deceased victim.
We have no weapon at the scene,
no casing being found at the scene.
So we're still back at square one.
MORETTI: We have what appears to be a homicide
with no weapon at the scene.
It's basically an "all hands on deck" because
the first moments are critical.
You got a lot of search warrants that need to be written.
You have subpoenas that have to be written.
And we still have the evidence at the scene
that we have to examine.
But we have the driver's license that matched the victim,
and he did reside within BallenIsles,
which is the community adjacent to the field.
Right now, we're approaching
the community of BallenIsles.
And this is the PGA Boulevard entrance,
which is a little bit east of the turnpike off PGA.
The community of BallenIsles is a high-end, gated community.
Golf courses, tennis courts,
clubhouse, restaurant, the whole nine.
Very nice community, very high-end.
There's a couple entrances in.
They've got a guard shack at each entrance,
and they have their own security.
So we put in a request in with the director of security
from BallenIsles to obtain all surveillance footage
on Thursday, January 25, 2018,
from 5:00 a.m. to 7:00 a.m.
We've got that two-hour window.
At 5:53 in the morning, there is video surveillance
of Mr. Abrahamson exiting BallenIsles.
There is a sidewalk, but then there's also a guard arm
where the cars would go.
But Mr. Abrahamson deviated
from the sidewalk, walked into camera view,
walked around the guard arm.
CONCEPTION: You can see the victim
walking out of the gated community,
and looks like he has something in his left hand.
MORETTI: He's carrying what appears to be a manila folder,
or something like that.
Can't make it out what it is.
CONCEPTION: That's odd because
it doesn't seem to match anything that was
identified at the crime scene.
And... we lose sight of him.
MORETTI: And then we're listening to the videos.
We're listening for screams,
tires screeching, strange voices.
Anything that would be indicative
of what happened to Mr. Abrahamson at that scene.
And we hear nothing... until around 6:30.
(gunshot)
Where we clearly can hear an audible gunshot.
We've got 37 minutes of unaccounted-for time.
CONCEPTION: What happened in the time gap?
What was going on?
I personally walked from the guard arm
to the location where he was found.
And it took me four minutes and three seconds
walking a normal pace.
Not rushing, not large strides.
I'm not very tall.
We need to find out
what happened during that 37-minute gap.
Who was in that area at that time?
Did anybody see anything unusual?
We need to check any suspicious persons reports in the area.
We're checking any witnesses.
OFFICER: Do you take this path all the time?
No, this is my first time.
I'm going to an eye doctor appointment.
I was on the sidewalk,
but I heard and thought I saw people further back.
But nothing, really,
that led us to anywhere.
So we need to find out a little bit more about the individual.
When you have a victim with a name,
you have a history, you have family members,
you have friends, and now you have victimology.
And victimology is the start of any homicide investigation.
A victimology would entail finding out anything
you can about the victim.
Where they come from, if they had a criminal history.
Anything that can lead to information pertaining to
potential associates
who can give more information.
MORETTI: Did Alan have any children? Is he married?
Was this his second marriage? Third marriage?
CONCEPTION: You have to really get into who a person was
in case they had a hidden life,
something that wasn't obvious on the surface.
SIEVERS: A number of Alan's friends were interviewed
in hopes that they would be able
to provide some type of supplemental information
for the investigation.
Victor, how you doing?
Good to see you.
Okay.
We learned that he had a tee time scheduled later that day.
Sure.
He had dinner plans the following day, all set.
Yep. Yeah.
Happy, life of the party.
You know, center of the attention.
Sure.
From all accounts, a devoted husband,
had three stepchildren.
And he also had a prior marriage,
which he had two biological children.
Loved his children, loved his grandchildren.
Who would want to kill this individual?
Who would want to take this man's life?
MORETTI: Through the course of the investigation, we're gonna
subpoena or get search warrants for his bank records,
financial records.
Trying to get copies of will,
any medical records, or anything like that.
We learned that from the beginning of 2017,
Mr. Abrahamson depleted his retirement savings account
to the tune of just under $300,000.
They were different withdrawals, different amount:
30,000,
40,000, 25,000.
In addition, we learned
that he did have a high-dollar life insurance policy.
SIEVERS: So in a case where you have a decedent that has a large sum
of money in a life insurance policy,
we as investigators
always want to take a look at
who that beneficiary would be.
We need to follow the money.
So who would gain the most from his passing?
When you see a life insurance policy that large,
family members are usually the beneficiary,
and that becomes the key focus of the investigation.
We don't have anybody at this point,
so we need to talk to everybody.
Anybody is basically going to be a person of interest
until we can eliminate them.
MORETTI: Rachel Abrahamson, Alan's biological daughter
of his first marriage,
came down to the police department. We sat down
and had a formal interview.
According to Rachel, her relationship with her father
was estranged for several years.
MORETTI: After speaking with Rachel,
she has a different version of her father
than the people that he's been around
daily for the last ten years.
By her own admission, she's had minimal contact with him.
Investigators also interview Alan's biological son, Daniel.
Okay. (clears throat)
Daniel and Alan's relationship
was superficial and surface-level.
One thing that Daniel did bring up
to investigators is the question of who has to gain
from Alan's passing?
As a homicide detective, it's always important to look
at the spouse because they're the closest to them.
They know their habits.
MORETTI: You know, we're looking at with kid gloves
because she had just lost her husband.
So you've got to be respectful in every way.
During the interview with Alan's current wife Linda,
it is discovered that Alan just came back from Boston,
where he has stepchildren with Linda,
and her daughter was having a child.
So the wife went up there to help her daughter,
and Mr. Abrahamson went with her.
After about a week of being up there in Boston,
it was cold, he was bored.
He had, you know, things to do down here.
CONCEPTION: It's unusual
that he left his wife in Boston
and was killed when he got home.
Maybe there was something involving his family.
Somebody knew that he was
coming back to Palm Beach Gardens.
Maybe he was set up,
possibly murder for hire.
SIEVERS: If the murder-for-hire theory were to play out,
somebody would have been waiting for him.
He then would have been shot.
And then, to make it seem like a robbery,
the money would have been taken out of the money clip.
MORETTI: Anybody close to Mr. Abrahamson
is a person of interest.
But we can never establish any type of motive
with the friends and family
that would want to do harm
to Mr. Abrahamson.
So we need to follow the evidence
to figure out what caused his death.
CONCEPTION: The analysis comes back
from the items collected.
TORMOS: And there was no evidence of
any other DNA,
uh, from another individual.
CONCEPTION: No third-party prints
or DNA from
the cell phone, from the scissors
or the binder clip.
We don't have a suspect in this case.
We've still got a lot of work to do.
SIEVERS: I'm a certified bloodstain pattern analyst,
and I have been
studying and analyzing bloodstains
for the past eight years.
Upon reviewing
these crime scene photographs, the first thing that
initially stuck out to me was a very unique
linear pattern on
the exterior of Alan's sweatshirt.
TORMOS: There is a very thin line
towards the shoulder area of the shirt.
There is a limited amount of blood
where the projectile had gone through the shirt.
As he is laying on his back,
and there's no exit wound
to the back, he is not bleeding a lot
out of the chest wound
because it's against gravity.
He would not bleed upward.
SIEVERS: So, what makes this pattern unique
is it suggests
that something bearing blood
came in contact and moved across the top of the sweatshirt.
So the blood from the wound site on his chest
did not saturate through to the top of that
sweatshirt. It was another intermediate item
bearing blood that was transferred on top of the shirt.
What could have created a transfer and swipe pattern
across this piece of clothing?
MORETTI: We did not know.
But when you work a case, you got to go where
the evidence takes you.
It was extremely lucky that
his cell phone was next to him.
I'm the senior crime analyst
for the Palm Beach Gardens Police Department.
An extraction on a cell phone can pull basic information.
Call logs, text messages,
emails, things that are saved to the phone.
You can learn almost anything about a person
once you can get their cell phone.
SIEVERS: They are, essentially,
digging into your digital footprint:
what you search, what you visit
and any type of activity from your electronic devices,
so it can really provide
information to investigators.
Once the extraction was completed,
I started manually going through it.
The first thing I went to was Maps.
The user has the options turned on to
track their location.
It provides a nice timeline
with a map and locations of
everywhere that person's been.
MORETTI: Crime analyst Machado
gave us his movements from the time he
arrived back in Palm Beach County
until the time that he was found deceased
on the morning of the 25th.
It provided us with a lot of information
throughout that week,
different places that Alan went
where detectives could go follow up for
any surveillance video,
receipts from anything he bought
to try and figure out what he was doing during that week.
MORETTI: We've got him going to Starbucks.
We've got him going to a car repair place.
He's going to withdraw money.
We've got him going to
a couple other locations
that made no sense to us.
MACHADO: Mr. Abrahamson's timeline
indicated that he went to
a couple of different gas suppliers.
MORETTI: They sell propane, helium,
CO2, things of that nature.
From the cyber forensic analysis report,
investigators were also able to determine that
Alan visited the site of his death
for an hour the night before,
approximately 12 hours before his death,
from the hours of 6:30 to 7:30.
MACHADO: It wasn't somewhere
that he hung out regularly.
MORETTI: What was he doing
for one hour the night before
in the exact location
where he would be found dead
the next morning?
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CONCEPTION: On Wednesday evening,
Mr. Abrahamson appeared to be
in the exact location
where he was found dead 12 hours later.
And he is in that field for over an hour.
As far as anyone knew,
he wasn't a regular in that field,
so it was just odd.
MACHADO: After the Google Maps timeline,
I went through his Gmail
and I found an order for
a weather balloon
placed on Christmas Day.
Weather balloons are very large balloons
that can carry items
up to very high altitudes to be used
by people who want to take
aerial live-action photography.
We didn't know why he would have any interest
or need to use a weather balloon.
That in itself normally wouldn't be an indicator
of anything suspicious.
But in this case, when we have nothing,
we're going to follow this weather balloon
and see where it takes us.
I found a second order for another weather balloon.
So he had ordered
two weather balloons within a few months.
It was discovered that
he did purchase two helium tanks.
He paid for them with cash. We got the receipts for that.
So, now we have weather balloons
and gas tanks.
WOMAN: Ready?
MORETTI: So, we do a search of his house.
In the garage, we find an empty box
from High Altitude Science from the weather balloon.
His wife had no idea that he'd even purchased that.
MACHADO: He had emails with
the place where he purchased the weather balloons
and he was asking very specific questions
that were very odd.
He wanted to know burst altitude,
he wanted to know how much helium
he could fit in a certain size balloon.
He wanted to know
how much of a payload the balloon could carry
and how much helium it could hold.
We have weather balloons,
we have emails,
we have interviews with family, we have interviews
with associates, friends.
We've been out on PGA Boulevard
talking to drivers coming by.
We've been out to the scene,
we've crawled the scene looking for casings,
and we have nothing.
BLACKSTONE: Everybody was shocked
that they had not a hint.
There wasn't even a clue
they would...
murder him.
He had called me, talking about the business.
He was a sales representative for my lighting company,
and he was doing this just because
he's a sales guy
and he wanted to stay in the game,
be vital.
And what a sadness that he left behind.
What a horrible thing to have happened.
I still haven't, you know...
gotten over it.
MACHADO: I was home one night,
and my son
was asking Google silly questions.
Google Assistant is a search engine.
It's based on voice commands.
You know, you're sitting on your couch
and say, you know, "Where's the nearest restaurant
that sells whatever?"
MACHADO: And I discovered that my son
and his silly questions,
they were actually being recorded in his voice
on the phone,
and I could play them back.
And it brought me to an activity page
in the phone where I could search
and I could type in anything.
MORETTI: This information,
that's stored in there,
stored for a long time.
CONCEPTION: Technology is great,
especially in law enforcement,
but it's always changing.
And using voice commands such as Google Voice
wasn't as common until recently.
It was a new technology back then,
and investigators weren't even aware that
they had the capability to extract that data
from Alan's cell phone.
MACHADO: At that time, that was the first time
I had seen that feature.
So that was my first introduction to,
hey, you may not get anything out of an extraction
because they live in the clouds.
You have to manually search for it
or get a search warrant
for that cloud service.
And I thought,
"I need to check Alan's phone
to see if anything is on his phone."
I went into work
and got the phone back out of evidence
and went right to that same spot on his phone
and discovered it was enabled.
And I started searching different keywords
that had come up in the investigation.
Helium, balloon.
MORETTI: A plethora
of searches
came forth.
MACHADO: And we made
a huge discovery.
* *
MORETTI: About 30 days after the initial
start of the investigation, our crime analyst
Colleen Machado discovers
critical searches on Alan's phone.
MACHADO: Between searches, he had typed in searches
he recorded in his own voice.
It opened up
a vast amount of information
going back a decade.
MORETTI: Mr. Abrahamson's own voice...
...from 2009 to 2018.
MORETTI: Ten years of data.
CONCEPTION: It's highly likely that...
Alan Abrahamson killed himself.
MACHADO: The searches in his phone,
specifically about suicide, went back to 2009.
MORETTI: He had been planning
to do this for over ten years.
That kind of really settled it in for us
that what happened to Mr. Abrahamson was suicide.
I thought, "This is it.
We know why this happened."
And I looked over at Detective Moretti,
and I said, "We've got it."
That was the linchpin that tied everything together.
MACHADO: We knew at that point
that we're gonna be able to prove this.
We solved it.
Now I just had to present the case
to the state attorney's office,
and then I had to present the case
to the medical examiner's office.
TORMOS: I almost never go to the scene of a homicide,
and this was one case
where I definitely wanted to.
So...
I went with the investigators
because I wanted to see the field for myself
and look at the distances and whether there was
any intervening shrubbery which could have caught
the weather balloon, given where he was found.
And I was able to convince myself that, yes,
a weather balloon could be released from this open field,
and it would not have caught in the surrounding trees.
It would have flown up.
I spoke to the state attorney and said,
"I ruled this a homicide.
"And here Detective Moretti
"is bringing this theory that this is a suicide.
And you know what?"
"It all makes sense."
"Look at this evidence."
"It fully explains the findings at the scene.
"And I am going to change this
from a homicide to a suicide."
And he was in complete agreement.
The evidence speaks for itself.
MORETTI: On January 24th, Wednesday...
...that night, Mr. Abrahamson
drove his vehicle to the exact spot
where he was located the next morning.
We believe he was hiding
the tanks somewhere in the field there.
Then, the next morning, we got him
exiting the BallenIsles carrying something in his hand.
These weather balloons, they expand to be very big,
but they are carryable.
And then Mr. Abrahamson walked to the field,
and then he would inflate the balloon,
tie it off, get rid of the helium tanks,
attach the gun to the weather balloon.
He probably attached some type of bag around
the ejection port, which would catch the casing.
Take out your binder clip with no money in it,
so it looks like a robbery,
use the scissors that were there,
and then pull the trigger.
And then the balloon took off with the gun.
Based on the linear bloodstain that is found
going upwards from the saturation stain
surrounding the entrance wound,
it is plausible
that the string hanging from the balloon
and from the gun was able to come in contact
with that saturation stain
and then transfer that blood from the string
while moving across
the top of Alan's shirt.
The trash collection
was on the morning of when
Mr. Abrahamson was found.
The trash bins were empty
when we were there.
TORMOS: And it is likely that he placed
the helium tanks in the trash collection device,
which would have been collected right around the time
that police had cordoned off the scene.
MORETTI: Our theory is that
he chose that time because it was still dark at that point.
In order to see the weather balloon,
you almost have to catch it as it's happening,
because it's gonna be quick.
Well, I found a weather balloon tracker online,
and we put in the date
that this occurred.
And we put in the actual weather for that day--
wind speed, wind gust speed--
and it actually mapped out
where the balloon was gonna go.
It went west
and then made a turn
and went back out
over the Atlantic
and burst, possibly,
just north of Grand Bahama Island.
MORETTI: So we do a little bit
of research on it, and lo and behold,
there's a CSI episode that happened.
CSI: Las Vegas.
They have a scene like this,
except in this case,
they had, like, the big red balloons
filled with helium and...
then tied the gun to the thing.
He shot and killed himself.
The balloons traveled, they popped.
The gun was found quite a ways from where this person was.
And this was initially considered a homicide.
* *
TORMOS: This could have been
the perfect suicide
if not for the phone.
MORETTI: The phone was the key
to unlocking everything,
from his movements to his purchases.
The digital analysis blew this case wide open.
Well, after their nearly six-month-long investigation,
Palm Beach Gardens Police releasing this report
exclusively to CBS 12 News tonight.
It is the case of 72-year-old Alan Abrahamson.
His body found in the field behind me.
Now, tonight, police concluding that he took his own life
and it was not murder.
MORETTI: We would have never established a suspect
and this case probably would be an unsolved to this day
if we didn't have the digital forensics of the cell phone.
CONCEPTION: 24 years of homicide investigations,
ten years a hostage negotiator
and a crisis intervention officer.
Never seen or heard of any case like this before.
TORMOS: One of the main questions we ask is why?
Why would he do this?
He had a beautiful life, beautiful family.
He lived in a very nice community,
had lots of friends.
He was always described as someone
who people gravitated to.
SIEVERS: It is somewhat of a stigma of men,
especially in the cases I've worked,
of men with suicide where
they are suffering alone
and don't express those feelings to others.
And that's why their close relatives,
friends, and the people that know them best would still
describe them as positive, upbeat and happy,
where in the meanwhile, they're suffering internally.
The truth is, we will probably never know
exactly why he did it.
("The Reason" by Geographer playing)
* Who have I deceived... *
BLACKSTONE: I enjoyed every second
I spent with Alan.
I miss him.
I miss Alan. He was a friend.
He was a good friend.
I think when you're touched
by a suicide
from somebody that you had a good relationship with,
it makes you appreciate
the fact that life is short.
* The reason's going in and out... *
SIEVERS: For people out there who also
might be suffering in silence
or can resonate with possibly how Alan was feeling
in the years, months and days leading up to his death,
there's no reason to suffer in silence.
There are resources out there for you,
and there are people out there
who want to help you.
* Perfect sound *
* But the reason's with me now. *
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