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Out of the blue,

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this handsome, gorgeous man
appeared.

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You're living the fairy tale.

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To the happy couple.
Cheers.

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Well, you know our Tommy.
Can't say no to a pretty face.

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Unless
they're trying to tie him down.

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Get out of the strip club
and call me back.

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You can't just ignore me, Tommy!
It's not funny. Argh!

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You said
certain things happened

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in your childhood that your parents
didn't want to know about.

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Do you feel
that's what's happening here?

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I have tried to kill myself
in the past.

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I just need to know
you're not using me.

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I wouldn't do that.

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Things seem to be going much better
between the two of you.

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I think he may be planning
to propose when we're in France.

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Mum said you're buying
a place in the Cotswolds?

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He's always had
an excellent head for business.

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Sorry,
so the cottage is for your mother?

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Loony Bin Jane. I'll just
jump in the river, shall I?

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That'll solve all your problems,
won't it, Tommy? You're insane.

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If we were married,
you wouldn't treat me like this.

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But you'd rather
just keep stringing me along

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as long as Tommy gets what he wants!

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You are sick, do you know that?

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Shut up! Will you SHUT UP?!

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There's something deeply wrong
with you.

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'What is it
you want the police to do?'

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I would like someone
to stop us hurting each other.

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If you don't have somebody here
soon, somebody is.

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We're three days
into a national manhunt

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and still no closer
to bringing her in.

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'If she's taking risks,
maybe she intends

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'to be dead
before we can get to her.'

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BIRDSONG

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They found the car.

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Local bobby spotted
the licence plate from the road.

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Is she in it?

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We don't know yet.

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Parked in a lay-by.
No signs of movement.

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He's asking if he should approach?

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Yeah. Tell him yes,
but with caution.

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Jane?

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Jane Andrews?

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Are you OK?
Can you open this door?

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Jane?
KNOCKING

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STEADY BEEP

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DOUGLAS CLEARS THROAT

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I'm Detective Chief Inspector
Keith Douglas,

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attached to the Serious Crime Group.

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The other officer is...

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Detective Sergeant Kay Smart,

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also attached
to the Serious Crime Group.

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We are in the interview room
at Bloomsbury Police Station,

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and I am interviewing...

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Please could you state
your full name?

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Jane Dawn Elizabeth Andrews.

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Whatever happened between them,
it couldn't have been deliberate.

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I mean, Janey can't have been
in her right mind.

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Cut there.

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Just one moment, Francesca.
Was that not...

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That was great. We just need
to check your mic for sound.

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Oh, OK.
Yeah, we're all good.

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So, if you can go back
to before Tommy's death,

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did you ever think
he might be in danger?

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SHE SIGHS

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You have to remember...

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...she really did love him.

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She was a woman scorned,
and she took her revenge.

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I think she was telling the truth.

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She was prepared to say anything
to save her skin.

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You've told us
that after Thomas Cressman's call

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to the emergency services,
the arguments continued,

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and then you decided
to leave the house.

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You drove around for a while,

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and, following a phone conversation
with Mr Cressman,

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you decided to return.

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Is that right?

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Yes.

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He said to come home, so I did.

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And when you got back,
there was another big row,

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and you went up to bed.

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Yes.

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And I tried to go to sleep.

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But he curled up next to me
and said...

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..."Oh, come on.

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"I want to have sex with you.
You know you like it."

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And then he...

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sort of grabbed me...

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...and, well, I was,
I was frightened, so I went down...

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...and I got the cricket bat.

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Just to place next to the bed.

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Protect myself.

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But then Tommy woke up, and he...

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was going on
about how horrible I was.

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And he kneed me in the back.

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And...

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I should've just left.

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But I went down.

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And I saw... I saw the knife...

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...on the draining board.

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I thought if he did anything,
I-I'd just say...

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"Look, I've got a knife.

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"Don't touch me."

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And then, eventually,
I went to sleep.

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And he just started hitting me.

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So I picked up the bat,
and I hit him,

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and he was lashing out at me,
and he was pulling my hair out.

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So I grabbed the knife.

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And he just came at me, and I...
I didn't know what was happening.

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I just remember him falling down,
so I ran out of the room.

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And then I panicked,
so I got in my car, and I just...

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...I just drove and drove and drove.

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SHE SNIFFLES

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So, after leaving the house,

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you made a number of calls and sent
a number of text messages...

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...where you seemed unaware
of what happened to Mr Cressman.

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Were you trying
to convince your friends

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that his death
was nothing to do with you?

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No, I just...

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I didn't know he was dead.

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'Denying it,
claiming it was an accident.

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'Her story was all over the place
from the start.'

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Well, if in doubt,
play the self-defence card.

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But we had what we needed,
so we charged her with murder.

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The only surprise
was that she got bail.

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Janey?

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Brought you a cup of tea, love.

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Thanks, Mum.

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You're settling in, then.
That's good.

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That, erm...

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That lady solicitor called.

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She wants you to ring her back
about a meeting next week.

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OK.

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Does that mean you have
to go back down to London?

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I guess so.

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They said they'd sort somewhere
for me to stay.

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Where did Dad put my sewing machine?

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Ah, it's on the landing.

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She sounded very on the ball,
the solicitor.

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I'm sure she'll be able
to sort things out.

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That's not really how it works, Mum.
She can't just "sort it out".

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But it wasn't your fault, was it?

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I mean, it's like you say,
it was an accident.

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You didn't mean for it to happen.

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No, of course not.

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Do we still have
that gingham cotton that I bought?

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The pale blue one?

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I don't know.
It might be in the airing cupboard.

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HE KNOCKS

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All right, Jane, love?

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This just came for you.

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'I told her you'd be welcome
to stay with us during the trial.'

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Especially after reading such
diabolical things in the papers.

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I've been trying not to look.
Of course.

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I knew there had to be more to it.

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All this talk
of premeditated murder -

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it simply didn't ring true.

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It's not.

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I loved Tommy.

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I never meant to hurt him.

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That's what I told the police.

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I was just trying
to get away from him.

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I had no idea he was badly hurt.

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I thought I'd just
given him a scratch.

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A scratch?

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Oh, you poor thing.

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And did the Duchess
really contact you?

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While you were on the run?

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Yes.

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Yes, she did.

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Well, that's quite something.

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Clearly, she still cares about you.

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I know.

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I'm making matching gingham dresses
for Beatrice and Eugenie.

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Are you?
As a thank-you.

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How sweet.

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Coffee, darling?
Please.

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Thank you so much for this.

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I really appreciate you both
letting me stay.

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Well, Roger and I are happy to help.

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Pay no attention.

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At the end of the day, it doesn't
matter what rubbish they print.

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No, you're right.

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You just tell the truth,
and it'll all come out in the wash.

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I've always had the utmost faith
in British justice.

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REPORTERS CLAMOUR

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Do you expect to
get away with murder, do you, Jane?

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'Everyone had made up their minds -
the press, the public.'

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They cast her
as this "bunny boiler".

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'There she was on every front page,
just like when she was with Fergie.'

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I'm sure she was lapping it up.

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'Head to toe in black.'

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Like she was
some sort of grieving widow.

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I mean, seriously?

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Poor thing must've been terrified.

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There is no doubt

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as to the identity
of Thomas Cressman's killer.

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Jane Andrews wielded the bat

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and held the knife.

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The real question we must consider

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is why she committed
these violent acts.

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And on this occasion,
we need not look far for motive,

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for, as you will see,
hers was the classic one

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of the jilted and betrayed lover.

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Having learnt that Mr Cressman
no longer intended to marry her,

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she returned to that house
with one thought in mind.

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Namely...

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to take her revenge
by ending his life.

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Now, the defence
will try and persuade you

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that Miss Andrews
was acting in self-defence,

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that she was afraid
for her own safety.

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And in order to support this,

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they will paint
a picture of the deceased

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that bears no relation to the truth.

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Indeed, the evidence will show you
that it was, in fact, Jane herself

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who was the controlling
and, ultimately, violent partner

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in this relationship,

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a relationship
that was brutally ended

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by a cold-blooded,
premeditated murder.

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MURMURS FROM GALLERY

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The, erm, body of the deceased
was in a very awkward position,

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wedged between the bed and the wall.

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We could see that he'd been stabbed
in the chest, and his hands were...

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...like this.

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Er, almost as if
he was trying to...

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cover the wound,
or extract the knife from his body.

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And can you describe the knife
that you found at the scene?

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It was a kitchen knife
with an eight-inch blade,

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and it had been taken
from the block in the kitchen.

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Well, it appeared that Mr Cressman
had also been hit over the head

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with a cricket bat and stunned,
prior to being stabbed.

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Was there any sign that Mr Cressman

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had attempted to defend himself
against the attack?

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No, there was not.

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No defensive wounds
were found on his body.

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No defensive wounds,

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suggesting that Tommy was
defenceless when the attack came.

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Well...

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I'm sure things will go better
this afternoon.

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I'm sure they will.

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'Seeing her in court was pretty
unpleasant, as you can imagine.'

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But someone needed
to speak for Tommy.

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What did you make of Jane Andrews
when she and Tom first began dating?

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I was aware of who she was
and where she'd worked,

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and I think that had maybe
impressed Tom a bit.

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And I'm sure
she was attracted to him.

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But I think, ultimately, she was
very attracted to his lifestyle.

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Did you have any misgivings
about the relationship?

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It was kind of full-on
from the start.

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Jane became increasingly possessive.

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She basically gave him no space.

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And how did Tommy respond when
faced with this kind of behaviour?

254
00:15:39,960 --> 00:15:42,960
Erm, Tommy was
an incredibly gentle kind of guy.

255
00:15:45,960 --> 00:15:47,959
Plus, he was worried
about what she would do.

256
00:15:47,960 --> 00:15:49,960
MURMURS FROM GALLERY

257
00:15:59,480 --> 00:16:01,960
I could've done that for you.
It's fine, Mum. It's done now.

258
00:16:07,960 --> 00:16:09,960
This house is something else.

259
00:16:11,960 --> 00:16:13,959
You'll have to buy Aleksandra
a present to say thank you

260
00:16:13,960 --> 00:16:15,160
when all this is...

261
00:16:16,960 --> 00:16:19,960
...you know.
I shall when I get a chance.

262
00:16:21,160 --> 00:16:22,960
Everything's gonna be all right,
you'll see.

263
00:16:24,160 --> 00:16:28,960
And tomorrow,
you'll tell your side of the story.

264
00:16:31,800 --> 00:16:32,960
Put things straight.

265
00:16:37,960 --> 00:16:42,960
Mum, tomorrow, there's going to be
things... you won't want to hear.

266
00:16:44,960 --> 00:16:45,960
Right.

267
00:16:47,960 --> 00:16:50,959
Things that happened to me
when I was young.

268
00:16:50,960 --> 00:16:51,959
Oh, Jane, I...

269
00:16:51,960 --> 00:16:54,160
So if you'd rather not be there,
you and Dad...

270
00:16:59,000 --> 00:17:00,480
No.

271
00:17:01,960 --> 00:17:03,960
No, we'll be there.

272
00:17:06,480 --> 00:17:07,960
You just...

273
00:17:08,960 --> 00:17:10,960
You say what you have to.

274
00:17:44,160 --> 00:17:45,960
Miss Andrews.

275
00:17:46,960 --> 00:17:50,639
Before dealing
with the events of that night,

276
00:17:50,640 --> 00:17:53,960
I want to deal briefly
with your medical history.

277
00:17:54,960 --> 00:17:56,959
In the spring of 1999,

278
00:17:56,960 --> 00:18:01,639
did you undergo a few sessions
with a private psychotherapist?

279
00:18:01,640 --> 00:18:03,799
Yes, I did.

280
00:18:03,800 --> 00:18:04,959
Tom arranged them for me.

281
00:18:04,960 --> 00:18:09,960
And what was the particular focus
of the psychotherapy?

282
00:18:11,960 --> 00:18:14,320
To deal with my abuse as a child.

283
00:18:18,960 --> 00:18:21,959
And the abuse to which you refer,

284
00:18:21,960 --> 00:18:23,959
was it sexual abuse?

285
00:18:23,960 --> 00:18:25,959
Yes.
MURMURS FROM GALLERY

286
00:18:25,960 --> 00:18:29,960
At about what age,
so far as you were concerned?

287
00:18:33,960 --> 00:18:36,959
About eight years old.

288
00:18:36,960 --> 00:18:40,959
Am I right in saying you do not wish
to say who was involved in that?

289
00:18:40,960 --> 00:18:41,959
That is correct.

290
00:18:41,960 --> 00:18:45,959
But am I right that we are not
talking about parental abuse?

291
00:18:45,960 --> 00:18:47,959
That's right, yes.

292
00:18:47,960 --> 00:18:50,959
So, during your relationship
with Thomas Cressman,

293
00:18:50,960 --> 00:18:54,959
you were still dealing
with the effects of that abuse.

294
00:18:54,960 --> 00:18:56,959
This left you with
a heightened perception of threat.

295
00:18:56,960 --> 00:18:57,959
Is that right?

296
00:18:57,960 --> 00:18:58,999
Yes.

297
00:18:59,000 --> 00:19:01,959
And in a high-stress situation,

298
00:19:01,960 --> 00:19:04,959
you would find yourself less able
to make rational judgements,

299
00:19:04,960 --> 00:19:06,959
instead, finding yourself in a...

300
00:19:06,960 --> 00:19:10,959
a sort of "grey mist"
of helplessness.

301
00:19:10,960 --> 00:19:11,960
Is that right?

302
00:19:12,960 --> 00:19:13,960
Yes, that's true.

303
00:19:14,960 --> 00:19:19,959
Can you now tell me about
your relationship with Mr Cressman?

304
00:19:19,960 --> 00:19:22,959
Tommy and I were together
for nearly two years.

305
00:19:22,960 --> 00:19:24,960
I was devoted to him.

306
00:19:25,960 --> 00:19:29,959
But, in terms of your sex life,

307
00:19:29,960 --> 00:19:32,959
would it be correct to say
that you were...

308
00:19:32,960 --> 00:19:35,959
relatively innocent
and straight-laced, sexually,

309
00:19:35,960 --> 00:19:39,959
whereas Thomas
was relatively adventurous?

310
00:19:39,960 --> 00:19:41,959
Yes, that's true.

311
00:19:41,960 --> 00:19:43,959
In what ways, Miss Andrews,

312
00:19:43,960 --> 00:19:47,960
was Thomas "relatively adventurous",
so far as you were concerned?

313
00:19:49,960 --> 00:19:52,319
He would want
to have anal sex with me.

314
00:19:52,320 --> 00:19:55,959
MURMURS FROM GALLERY

315
00:19:55,960 --> 00:20:00,319
And he wanted me to dress up
in kinky clothing.

316
00:20:00,320 --> 00:20:04,479
You also discovered
sexually explicit emails

317
00:20:04,480 --> 00:20:06,960
on Mr Cressman's computer,
did you not?

318
00:20:09,960 --> 00:20:12,319
Did you take these to imply

319
00:20:12,320 --> 00:20:15,959
that Mr Cressman was no longer
committed to your relationship?

320
00:20:15,960 --> 00:20:18,959
What was his attitude
to your future together?

321
00:20:18,960 --> 00:20:20,960
He was committed.

322
00:20:24,960 --> 00:20:26,960
But he had periods of...

323
00:20:28,160 --> 00:20:30,480
...confusing moments on his part...

324
00:20:32,960 --> 00:20:35,159
...where he would say
that he needed space.

325
00:20:35,160 --> 00:20:37,479
And this caused rows between you?

326
00:20:37,480 --> 00:20:38,640
Yes.

327
00:20:39,960 --> 00:20:43,000
Because I would...
push him to find out...

328
00:20:44,960 --> 00:20:46,959
...where our future was going.

329
00:20:46,960 --> 00:20:49,959
And are we talking merely about rows
where people shout at each other,

330
00:20:49,960 --> 00:20:52,959
or was there, on occasion,
more than that?

331
00:20:52,960 --> 00:20:54,959
Yes.

332
00:20:54,960 --> 00:20:56,960
In the sense that...?

333
00:20:59,000 --> 00:21:00,799
That he hit me.

334
00:21:00,800 --> 00:21:03,959
And, on another occasion
when we were arguing,

335
00:21:03,960 --> 00:21:04,959
he pushed me down the stairs.

336
00:21:04,960 --> 00:21:06,960
GASPS, MURMURS

337
00:21:09,960 --> 00:21:11,959
Well, we'd been warned

338
00:21:11,960 --> 00:21:13,959
that things were probably
gonna get pretty nasty.

339
00:21:13,960 --> 00:21:15,960
And, er, so it began.

340
00:21:16,960 --> 00:21:20,319
Well, now we come to the rows
between yourself and Tom

341
00:21:20,320 --> 00:21:22,960
on Saturday the 16th of September,
last year.

342
00:21:24,960 --> 00:21:25,959
Yes.

343
00:21:25,960 --> 00:21:27,959
The Saturday morning,

344
00:21:27,960 --> 00:21:33,959
he calls and tells me
things with Jane were just awful.

345
00:21:33,960 --> 00:21:37,959
He sounded stressed and hassled.

346
00:21:37,960 --> 00:21:41,160
I told him if they got married,
this is how it would be.

347
00:21:42,960 --> 00:21:45,959
She was just too hysterical.

348
00:21:45,960 --> 00:21:47,959
I asked him what had started
the argument,

349
00:21:47,960 --> 00:21:50,959
and he said that she wanted to know
if they were getting married,

350
00:21:50,960 --> 00:21:54,959
and he told her that she wasn't...

351
00:21:54,960 --> 00:21:58,479
stable enough
to be the mother of his children.

352
00:21:58,480 --> 00:22:01,959
Was there one aspect of those rows

353
00:22:01,960 --> 00:22:03,960
which you did not
tell the police about?

354
00:22:09,960 --> 00:22:11,000
On Saturday morning...

355
00:22:13,960 --> 00:22:16,960
...he put a pillow over my head...

356
00:22:18,320 --> 00:22:19,960
...and tied me to the bed.

357
00:22:21,800 --> 00:22:23,160
His full weight was on top of me.

358
00:22:29,320 --> 00:22:31,479
And he anally raped me.

359
00:22:31,480 --> 00:22:34,160
SHOCKED CHATTER
FROM GALLERY

360
00:22:40,960 --> 00:22:43,959
'I mean, they basically
threw everything at it.'

361
00:22:43,960 --> 00:22:45,319
But to say...

362
00:22:45,320 --> 00:22:49,959
she was raped, you know,
and-and like that, I mean...

363
00:22:49,960 --> 00:22:52,319
To be honest,
it was just disgusting.

364
00:22:52,320 --> 00:22:53,960
Vile...

365
00:22:55,960 --> 00:22:57,960
...despicable lies.

366
00:23:01,960 --> 00:23:03,479
I don't know.

367
00:23:03,480 --> 00:23:08,959
Miss Andrews,
when you placed a knife by your bed,

368
00:23:08,960 --> 00:23:11,959
what exactly
did you fear might happen?

369
00:23:11,960 --> 00:23:13,959
I was afraid that
he was going to rape me again,

370
00:23:13,960 --> 00:23:15,959
like he had that morning.

371
00:23:15,960 --> 00:23:19,959
And when he began to attack you,
you tried to ward him off.

372
00:23:19,960 --> 00:23:21,959
First with a blow
from the cricket bat,

373
00:23:21,960 --> 00:23:24,960
and when that failed,
you took up the knife.

374
00:23:26,960 --> 00:23:28,959
Yes.
Did you, however,

375
00:23:28,960 --> 00:23:32,960
intend that Thomas Cressman
be stabbed with it?

376
00:23:33,960 --> 00:23:35,320
No, not at all.

377
00:23:37,960 --> 00:23:38,960
We just...

378
00:23:40,000 --> 00:23:43,959
...came together, and the next thing
I knew, he was on top of me.

379
00:23:43,960 --> 00:23:46,960
And that's the point
the knife went in?

380
00:23:51,960 --> 00:23:55,960
And at that stage, did you know
how badly injured he was?

381
00:23:57,960 --> 00:23:58,960
No.

382
00:24:00,960 --> 00:24:02,000
I just panicked.

383
00:24:03,960 --> 00:24:07,960
I crawled out from underneath him
and ran out of the room.

384
00:24:10,960 --> 00:24:12,960
I was terrified
that he was going to come after me.

385
00:24:16,640 --> 00:24:19,960
So I took my dressing gown cord
and tied the door.

386
00:24:21,320 --> 00:24:22,959
I couldn't think.

387
00:24:22,960 --> 00:24:25,320
So, one might say
you were in a "grey mist"?

388
00:24:26,960 --> 00:24:27,959
Yes.

389
00:24:27,960 --> 00:24:33,160
And as you left the house, was
there any sight or sound from Tom?

390
00:24:34,960 --> 00:24:35,960
No.

391
00:24:38,960 --> 00:24:40,480
No, there was nothing.

392
00:24:44,960 --> 00:24:46,960
That's when I realised
he must be dead.

393
00:24:48,960 --> 00:24:49,959
'Well, you see,

394
00:24:49,960 --> 00:24:52,959
'that's when her story
really began to change.

395
00:24:52,960 --> 00:24:55,959
'This was quite different
to the tale I'd been told.'

396
00:24:55,960 --> 00:24:58,960
And I realised that I had made
a dreadful mistake.

397
00:25:00,960 --> 00:25:05,000
There are one or two things
that are a bit... confusing.

398
00:25:06,960 --> 00:25:07,960
What do you mean?

399
00:25:10,160 --> 00:25:11,959
Well, you said yourself

400
00:25:11,960 --> 00:25:14,640
you'd told differing versions
to different people.

401
00:25:15,960 --> 00:25:17,960
Yes, because I was confused.

402
00:25:19,960 --> 00:25:21,959
And scared.

403
00:25:21,960 --> 00:25:22,960
Right.

404
00:25:27,480 --> 00:25:30,160
It's just, you told me that you
thought you'd given him a scratch.

405
00:25:31,960 --> 00:25:32,959
But then, today,

406
00:25:32,960 --> 00:25:36,640
you said you knew he was dead
before you left the house.

407
00:25:44,160 --> 00:25:45,960
I know. I just...

408
00:25:47,160 --> 00:25:48,960
...couldn't even admit it to myself.

409
00:25:55,960 --> 00:25:58,959
You know, Roger and I
have been talking,

410
00:25:58,960 --> 00:26:00,960
and he feels, we both feel...

411
00:26:01,960 --> 00:26:05,959
...that, actually,
it might be more appropriate

412
00:26:05,960 --> 00:26:10,319
for you to move into a hotel
for the remainder of the trial.

413
00:26:10,320 --> 00:26:11,960
Maybe tomorrow?

414
00:26:13,800 --> 00:26:14,959
I see.

415
00:26:14,960 --> 00:26:17,959
It's just simpler all round.

416
00:26:17,960 --> 00:26:18,960
Don't you think?

417
00:27:24,960 --> 00:27:26,959
Oh, hello.
SHE GIGGLES

418
00:27:26,960 --> 00:27:28,960
You're doing a very good job.

419
00:27:32,960 --> 00:27:34,960
SHE SNIFFLES

420
00:28:11,960 --> 00:28:13,800
So, Miss Andrews.

421
00:28:14,960 --> 00:28:19,959
You left the house
in the early hours of Sunday morning

422
00:28:19,960 --> 00:28:22,999
and spent the next
two and a half days

423
00:28:23,000 --> 00:28:24,959
driving round the country.

424
00:28:24,960 --> 00:28:27,960
During which time,
as far, as far as you knew...

425
00:28:29,160 --> 00:28:31,959
...nobody had found Tom's body.

426
00:28:31,960 --> 00:28:33,959
Why not tell someone?

427
00:28:33,960 --> 00:28:35,479
Even as you were keying in messages

428
00:28:35,480 --> 00:28:36,959
and speaking to people
on your phone,

429
00:28:36,960 --> 00:28:42,960
why did you not say
this man was lying there, dying?

430
00:28:44,640 --> 00:28:46,960
I didn't want anybody to think
I'd fled the scene.

431
00:28:48,960 --> 00:28:50,959
Left Tom to die in that room.

432
00:28:50,960 --> 00:28:54,959
Oh, so the messages
were calculated to mislead?

433
00:28:54,960 --> 00:28:56,960
No.

434
00:28:58,960 --> 00:29:00,959
I know it's absurd.
It doesn't make any sense.

435
00:29:00,960 --> 00:29:03,959
No, no, it-it makes perfect sense.

436
00:29:03,960 --> 00:29:06,959
This was no "grey mist",
er, whatever that may be.

437
00:29:06,960 --> 00:29:09,319
Rather, you were
deliberately attempting

438
00:29:09,320 --> 00:29:12,959
to mislead your friends
and former husband.

439
00:29:12,960 --> 00:29:15,959
And now you've told this court
that you'd been admitted

440
00:29:15,960 --> 00:29:18,959
to Charing Cross Hospital
after falling down some stairs.

441
00:29:18,960 --> 00:29:20,959
Tommy pushed me down the stairs.
I was very upset.

442
00:29:20,960 --> 00:29:22,959
But you never told that
to any doctor,

443
00:29:22,960 --> 00:29:24,959
to any police officer, did you?

444
00:29:24,960 --> 00:29:26,959
Just as you never told anyone
about the occasion

445
00:29:26,960 --> 00:29:31,959
you say you got a bruise
on your head because he hit you.

446
00:29:31,960 --> 00:29:33,959
No. Because I was too ashamed.

447
00:29:33,960 --> 00:29:35,319
But when you're talking
to the police,

448
00:29:35,320 --> 00:29:36,959
this is not a time for shame.

449
00:29:36,960 --> 00:29:37,959
Is it?

450
00:29:37,960 --> 00:29:39,959
I just wanted to get the interview
over and done with.

451
00:29:39,960 --> 00:29:42,959
But what was the reason that
you failed to mention something

452
00:29:42,960 --> 00:29:44,959
that you now rely on in this court?

453
00:29:44,960 --> 00:29:46,959
Namely, that earlier that day,

454
00:29:46,960 --> 00:29:50,960
he had had sexual intercourse
with you by force?

455
00:29:51,960 --> 00:29:55,959
Because I was totally ashamed
and embarrassed.

456
00:29:55,960 --> 00:29:58,999
You were seen three times by a
woman doctor at the police station.

457
00:29:59,000 --> 00:30:00,959
It was a private examination.

458
00:30:00,960 --> 00:30:02,959
You could've drawn attention,
if you wished,

459
00:30:02,960 --> 00:30:04,959
to anything that had happened to you
that you felt

460
00:30:04,960 --> 00:30:06,959
might be relevant to the trouble
that you were facing.

461
00:30:06,960 --> 00:30:09,639
But you did not draw
anyone's attention to it, did you?

462
00:30:09,640 --> 00:30:11,959
I was too traumatised
by the whole thing.

463
00:30:11,960 --> 00:30:14,639
Ah, well, you were in a fit state
to be interviewed

464
00:30:14,640 --> 00:30:16,959
and to explain all you did
to the police.

465
00:30:16,960 --> 00:30:18,479
Why not explain to the doctor,

466
00:30:18,480 --> 00:30:19,959
"I've been raped,

467
00:30:19,960 --> 00:30:23,959
"and there will be physical signs
of that, if you have a look."?

468
00:30:23,960 --> 00:30:25,159
I physically could not.

469
00:30:25,160 --> 00:30:26,959
You didn't tell anyone about it

470
00:30:26,960 --> 00:30:30,959
because it's completely invented,
that story.

471
00:30:30,960 --> 00:30:31,999
In fact,
both stories about anal rape,

472
00:30:32,000 --> 00:30:34,959
in the morning and the alleged
second attempt that evening,

473
00:30:34,960 --> 00:30:36,319
completely invented, are they not?

474
00:30:36,320 --> 00:30:37,959
No, not at all.

475
00:30:37,960 --> 00:30:39,159
Ever since your arrest,

476
00:30:39,160 --> 00:30:41,959
you have fabricated a succession
of contradictory stories

477
00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:44,799
in a blatant attempt to escape blame

478
00:30:44,800 --> 00:30:46,959
for Thomas Cressman's death,
have you not?

479
00:30:46,960 --> 00:30:47,959
No, that's not true.

480
00:30:47,960 --> 00:30:50,959
Even now, the evidence
you've presented here in court

481
00:30:50,960 --> 00:30:52,639
is riddled with inconsistencies.

482
00:30:52,640 --> 00:30:54,959
You claim that Mr Cressman
attacked you that morning,

483
00:30:54,960 --> 00:30:57,639
and, as a result, you left the house
for several hours.

484
00:30:57,640 --> 00:30:58,959
But then you chose to return.

485
00:30:58,960 --> 00:31:00,959
You claim that you feared
further sexual assault,

486
00:31:00,960 --> 00:31:03,959
yet in the next breath, you say
you happily took off your clothes

487
00:31:03,960 --> 00:31:04,959
and got into bed beside him.

488
00:31:04,960 --> 00:31:05,960
Why would you do that?

489
00:31:08,960 --> 00:31:10,960
Tom wanted me to sleep in his bed.

490
00:31:12,960 --> 00:31:13,959
I couldn't say no.

491
00:31:13,960 --> 00:31:16,959
So, you are afraid for your safety,

492
00:31:16,960 --> 00:31:18,959
yet you left the bedroom
multiple times,

493
00:31:18,960 --> 00:31:20,959
went up and down the stairs,

494
00:31:20,960 --> 00:31:23,959
first to fetch a bat,
later to arm yourself with a knife,

495
00:31:23,960 --> 00:31:26,959
which means that at any point,
you could've left that house again,

496
00:31:26,960 --> 00:31:27,959
but you chose not to.

497
00:31:27,960 --> 00:31:29,959
Now, that makes no sense, does it?

498
00:31:29,960 --> 00:31:31,959
I was afraid of what Tommy might do.

499
00:31:31,960 --> 00:31:35,999
Meanwhile, y-your description
of the attack has changed.

500
00:31:36,000 --> 00:31:37,799
When talking to the police,

501
00:31:37,800 --> 00:31:39,959
you said that Mr Cressman said
he was going to hurt you.

502
00:31:39,960 --> 00:31:41,959
However, as soon as you reach court,
you're claiming

503
00:31:41,960 --> 00:31:43,959
he shouted that he was
going to "fucking kill you".

504
00:31:43,960 --> 00:31:46,959
You claimed initially you thought
you'd just given him "a scratch",

505
00:31:46,960 --> 00:31:48,479
but now you say
you were so covered in blood

506
00:31:48,480 --> 00:31:50,479
that you assumed he must be dead.

507
00:31:50,480 --> 00:31:53,960
Not one word of it rings true.

508
00:31:56,960 --> 00:31:58,960
It's... hard to remember.

509
00:32:01,960 --> 00:32:03,959
Everything just happened so fast.

510
00:32:03,960 --> 00:32:05,959
Right.

511
00:32:05,960 --> 00:32:07,799
We earlier heard that

512
00:32:07,800 --> 00:32:09,959
Tom had arranged
for you to see a psychiatrist

513
00:32:09,960 --> 00:32:12,959
to help with your, er, problems.

514
00:32:12,960 --> 00:32:14,960
What problems were they, again?

515
00:32:16,000 --> 00:32:17,479
Er, my child abuse.

516
00:32:17,480 --> 00:32:19,959
Oh, yeah. The child abuse you've now
chosen to reveal in court.

517
00:32:19,960 --> 00:32:22,959
No, that's... And about which
you refuse to disclose any details.

518
00:32:22,960 --> 00:32:25,159
I don't want to.
Which is entirely your right.

519
00:32:25,160 --> 00:32:26,959
But it seems convenient,
does it not,

520
00:32:26,960 --> 00:32:28,959
to present us with an allegation

521
00:32:28,960 --> 00:32:31,480
which has never been
officially made, nor legally proven?

522
00:32:37,960 --> 00:32:39,960
Do you want a break?

523
00:32:44,960 --> 00:32:46,960
Ten minutes, members of the jury.

524
00:33:07,960 --> 00:33:09,960
GRAHAM-LLOYD:
Jane, are you all right?

525
00:33:33,800 --> 00:33:34,960
Antibiotics.

526
00:33:37,800 --> 00:33:39,960
Doctor says
it's just a low-grade infection.

527
00:33:41,960 --> 00:33:44,320
You must've been feeling poorly
for days.

528
00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:47,000
A bit.

529
00:33:48,960 --> 00:33:49,959
Bless you.

530
00:33:49,960 --> 00:33:52,959
Us women just soldier on, don't we?

531
00:33:52,960 --> 00:33:53,960
We have to.

532
00:34:36,160 --> 00:34:38,960
DOOR OPENS

533
00:34:59,960 --> 00:35:01,960
Would the foreman of the jury
please stand?

534
00:35:03,960 --> 00:35:06,959
Have you reached a verdict?
Yes.

535
00:35:06,960 --> 00:35:07,999
On the count of murder,

536
00:35:08,000 --> 00:35:12,960
do you find the defendant,
Jane Andrews, guilty or not guilty?

537
00:35:14,960 --> 00:35:15,999
Guilty.

538
00:35:16,000 --> 00:35:18,960
VOICES FADE

539
00:35:26,960 --> 00:35:30,959
I think she honestly thought
she'd get away with it.

540
00:35:30,960 --> 00:35:33,959
CHATTER

541
00:35:33,960 --> 00:35:36,960
Oh, God. Oh, Tommy.

542
00:35:49,960 --> 00:35:51,800
Jane Andrews.

543
00:35:53,320 --> 00:35:54,959
In killing the man you loved,

544
00:35:54,960 --> 00:35:58,960
you ended his life
and ruined your own.

545
00:36:00,960 --> 00:36:02,959
'It is evident
that you made your attack on him

546
00:36:02,960 --> 00:36:07,639
'when you were consumed
with anger and bitterness.

547
00:36:07,640 --> 00:36:10,959
'But nothing could justify
what you did.'

548
00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:12,639
DOOR SLAMS

549
00:36:12,640 --> 00:36:16,959
'Even if you were feeling wronged
and were emotionally vulnerable,

550
00:36:16,960 --> 00:36:19,959
'you were attacking an unarmed man

551
00:36:19,960 --> 00:36:22,799
'who had possibly been asleep
only a few minutes

552
00:36:22,800 --> 00:36:24,959
'before you attacked him.

553
00:36:24,960 --> 00:36:27,959
'You then left him to die
without remorse.'

554
00:36:27,960 --> 00:36:29,959
REPORTERS CLAMOUR

555
00:36:29,960 --> 00:36:33,959
'Therefore,
as your counsel recognises,

556
00:36:33,960 --> 00:36:36,960
'there is only one sentence
I can place upon you...

557
00:36:39,960 --> 00:36:41,960
'..and that is life imprisonment.'

558
00:36:47,960 --> 00:36:49,959
People don't believe her. But...

559
00:36:49,960 --> 00:36:51,960
that doesn't mean
Jane isn't telling the truth.

560
00:36:55,960 --> 00:36:57,959
It just means people
don't WANT to believe her.

561
00:36:57,960 --> 00:37:01,959
There's no excuse for what she did,

562
00:37:01,960 --> 00:37:04,159
and I know no-one
wants to speak ill of the dead,

563
00:37:04,160 --> 00:37:06,959
but Tom wasn't an angel.

564
00:37:06,960 --> 00:37:09,160
And Janey wasn't a monster, either.

565
00:37:11,640 --> 00:37:17,159
The whole thing is just
terribly, terribly sad.

566
00:37:17,160 --> 00:37:20,959
The fact is, she's a murderer.
However you wanna look at it.

567
00:37:20,960 --> 00:37:21,959
She was a woman scorned,

568
00:37:21,960 --> 00:37:24,959
and she took Thomas Cressman's life
in anger.

569
00:37:24,960 --> 00:37:26,799
And even that wasn't enough for her.

570
00:37:26,800 --> 00:37:28,960
She had to try
and destroy his good name.

571
00:37:29,960 --> 00:37:32,159
But, you know,
at the end of the day,

572
00:37:32,160 --> 00:37:34,960
we didn't let her get away with it.

573
00:37:35,960 --> 00:37:38,320
Any other personal items?

574
00:37:41,160 --> 00:37:44,960
Oh, no, you can keep that.
Well, unless it's valuable.

575
00:37:45,960 --> 00:37:48,319
Er, no.

576
00:37:48,320 --> 00:37:49,959
It's just...

577
00:37:49,960 --> 00:37:52,959
it was a present from
The Duchess of York, actually.

578
00:37:52,960 --> 00:37:55,960
No-one asked for your life story, love.

579
00:37:58,320 --> 00:37:59,960
Follow me.

580
00:38:02,320 --> 00:38:04,480
LAUGHTER, CHATTER

581
00:38:09,960 --> 00:38:12,959
Ey up, it's Fergie's bird!

582
00:38:12,960 --> 00:38:15,319
Welcome home, Your Majesty.

583
00:38:15,320 --> 00:38:17,639
LAUGHTER, JEERS

584
00:38:17,640 --> 00:38:19,960
BANGING

585
00:38:20,960 --> 00:38:22,959
All right, Your Ladyship?

586
00:38:22,960 --> 00:38:26,480
PRISONERS JEERING

587
00:38:32,960 --> 00:38:34,960
JEERS FADE

588
00:38:43,960 --> 00:38:46,960
MUFFLED BANGING

589
00:38:48,960 --> 00:38:50,960
So, how have you been this week?

590
00:38:53,160 --> 00:38:55,319
Pretty much the same.

591
00:38:55,320 --> 00:38:58,959
Jane, as we discussed last time,

592
00:38:58,960 --> 00:39:01,960
I think your earlier diagnosis
of depression was correct.

593
00:39:03,160 --> 00:39:04,959
Right.

594
00:39:04,960 --> 00:39:07,959
But now that
I'm getting to know you better,

595
00:39:07,960 --> 00:39:10,960
I think it possibly doesn't explain
everything you're dealing with.

596
00:39:14,000 --> 00:39:17,960
Have you ever heard of
borderline personality disorder?

597
00:39:20,960 --> 00:39:22,960
No, I don't think so.

598
00:39:23,960 --> 00:39:25,999
Well, a person with BPD

599
00:39:26,000 --> 00:39:29,959
often has a longstanding pattern
of thoughts and feelings

600
00:39:29,960 --> 00:39:31,959
that probably began
when they were very young.

601
00:39:31,960 --> 00:39:35,159
They experience
certain recurrent impulses

602
00:39:35,160 --> 00:39:36,959
and ways of being in relationships

603
00:39:36,960 --> 00:39:39,799
which often cause them
a lot of distress,

604
00:39:39,800 --> 00:39:42,959
and which often involve
self-damaging behaviours.

605
00:39:42,960 --> 00:39:47,960
So, things like
recurrent suicidal threats.

606
00:39:49,960 --> 00:39:51,960
Does any of that
feel familiar to you?

607
00:39:53,960 --> 00:39:55,960
I don't know.

608
00:39:57,960 --> 00:39:58,960
Maybe.

609
00:39:59,960 --> 00:40:01,480
OK.

610
00:40:02,960 --> 00:40:06,799
Well, we often find that there are
other common behaviours too.

611
00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:11,999
People with BPD
feel deeply entrenched shame.

612
00:40:12,000 --> 00:40:14,999
So whenever they make mistakes
or have weaknesses,

613
00:40:15,000 --> 00:40:18,959
they try very hard
to avoid admitting it.

614
00:40:18,960 --> 00:40:23,960
And sometimes, that means they lie
so they don't have to face it.

615
00:40:25,960 --> 00:40:26,960
Right.

616
00:40:28,960 --> 00:40:32,959
But that doesn't mean
they're trying to deceive.

617
00:40:32,960 --> 00:40:36,959
But they're a way of coping
when you're feeling a lot of pain.

618
00:40:36,960 --> 00:40:40,999
It's a bit like going out in the sun
when you're already sunburnt.

619
00:40:41,000 --> 00:40:43,959
If you're already feeling
emotionally raw,

620
00:40:43,960 --> 00:40:47,960
you can't begin to make
healthy emotional connections.

621
00:40:52,960 --> 00:40:54,999
So I need to stay out of the sun?

622
00:40:55,000 --> 00:40:56,959
For now.

623
00:40:56,960 --> 00:40:58,480
Well, that shouldn't be a problem.

624
00:40:59,960 --> 00:41:01,959
Jane, with the right support,

625
00:41:01,960 --> 00:41:04,960
you can begin to learn to control
your behavioural triggers.

626
00:41:05,960 --> 00:41:07,959
It'll take work,

627
00:41:07,960 --> 00:41:12,000
but I really think this could be
a whole fresh start for you.

628
00:41:17,960 --> 00:41:20,959
'How are your sessions going
with Dr Chaudhry?'

629
00:41:20,960 --> 00:41:22,319
Yeah, good.

630
00:41:22,320 --> 00:41:24,959
We're doing a lot of work
on my triggers,

631
00:41:24,960 --> 00:41:27,000
identifying behavioural patterns,
you know?

632
00:41:28,640 --> 00:41:31,959
Working through
why I do the things that I do.

633
00:41:31,960 --> 00:41:33,959
I think it's really helping.

634
00:41:33,960 --> 00:41:34,960
And...

635
00:41:36,000 --> 00:41:38,959
...has there been any more news
about the appeal?

636
00:41:38,960 --> 00:41:42,960
Mum, I told you. They said
it'd be ages before we hear.

637
00:41:43,960 --> 00:41:47,959
But it should make a difference,
shouldn't it, this diagnosis?

638
00:41:47,960 --> 00:41:48,960
It changes everything, really.

639
00:41:50,800 --> 00:41:53,320
And the new solicitor thinks there
are new avenues that we can explore.

640
00:41:54,960 --> 00:41:57,960
That's really good, Jane.
Mm.

641
00:41:58,960 --> 00:42:01,160
'Can't believe
it's Christmas already.'

642
00:42:03,960 --> 00:42:05,960
We had a card.
'Sorry?'

643
00:42:08,640 --> 00:42:12,640
We had a Christmas card
from Mr and Mrs Cressman.

644
00:42:13,960 --> 00:42:15,959
'They said they knew it would be
a difficult Christmas

645
00:42:15,960 --> 00:42:18,960
'and they sent their best wishes,
and...

646
00:42:20,960 --> 00:42:21,960
'That was...'

647
00:42:23,960 --> 00:42:26,960
That... That was kind of them,
wasn't it?

648
00:42:27,960 --> 00:42:28,959
I wondered if we...

649
00:42:28,960 --> 00:42:30,959
Listen, Mum, I've got to go soon.

650
00:42:30,960 --> 00:42:34,319
No, no, of course.
Er, J... Er, Jane?

651
00:42:34,320 --> 00:42:37,959
'Jane, will we, erm, will we
speak to you on Christmas Day?'

652
00:42:37,960 --> 00:42:40,640
'I hate to think of you all alone
in that place.'

653
00:42:41,960 --> 00:42:44,159
Actually, I've made a new friend.

654
00:42:44,160 --> 00:42:45,960
'Oh.'

655
00:42:46,960 --> 00:42:48,960
Well, more of a pen pal.

656
00:43:04,800 --> 00:43:08,959
'The way she's been portrayed,
as completely hard and unfeeling -

657
00:43:08,960 --> 00:43:10,799
'that's not Janey.'

658
00:43:10,800 --> 00:43:13,960
If anything,
she feels things much too deeply.

659
00:43:15,960 --> 00:43:17,959
She had all these...

660
00:43:17,960 --> 00:43:21,959
lovely dreams
of a great fairy tale romance,

661
00:43:21,960 --> 00:43:23,160
and when that fell apart,
so did she.

662
00:43:24,960 --> 00:43:26,960
The fact is that woman...

663
00:43:27,960 --> 00:43:29,960
...never showed any remorse.

664
00:43:31,960 --> 00:43:32,960
Not to me...

665
00:43:35,960 --> 00:43:36,960
...or to my family.

666
00:43:37,960 --> 00:43:41,959
'So, if you ask me,
they should never let her out.

667
00:43:41,960 --> 00:43:47,960
'And any man
who gets involved with her...

668
00:43:48,960 --> 00:43:53,960
'..should be very, very careful.'

669
00:43:58,960 --> 00:44:01,960
I miss Tommy every single day.

670
00:44:05,000 --> 00:44:06,960
The sound of his voice.

671
00:44:08,960 --> 00:44:09,960
The way he laughed.

672
00:44:11,480 --> 00:44:13,960
SHE LAUGHS
Silly jokes.

673
00:44:15,960 --> 00:44:19,960
He had this incredible gift
for living.

674
00:44:24,640 --> 00:44:26,960
He was my... my beautiful boy.

675
00:44:29,800 --> 00:44:31,959
And now he's gone.

676
00:44:31,960 --> 00:44:34,960
SHE WHIMPERS,
TAKES DEEP BREATH

677
00:44:39,960 --> 00:44:41,960
I just want to keep
my brother's memory alive.

678
00:44:52,000 --> 00:44:53,960
Can we stop there?

679
00:44:54,960 --> 00:44:56,960
Of course.

680
00:45:37,960 --> 00:45:39,960
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