1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.BZ 2 00:00:05,625 --> 00:00:07,125 [static buzzing lightly] 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.BZ 4 00:00:12,458 --> 00:00:13,333 [notification chimes] 5 00:00:17,041 --> 00:00:19,083 What's up, faggots? [inhales] 6 00:00:19,250 --> 00:00:21,208 I just got a pumpin'. Pumpin'-- 7 00:00:21,875 --> 00:00:24,041 Something you faggots never do. [exhales] 8 00:00:25,333 --> 00:00:27,625 I worked up a fuckin' sweat. [inhales] 9 00:00:27,791 --> 00:00:31,583 Mm. Now, I need one of you pay pigs to come rinse me off. 10 00:00:32,333 --> 00:00:33,666 You'd love that, wouldn't you? 11 00:00:34,958 --> 00:00:37,333 Okay, on the count of three, I want you 12 00:00:37,500 --> 00:00:39,375 to take a big fuckin' hit of poppers. 13 00:00:40,166 --> 00:00:42,916 Now get those poppers ready. [inhales sharply] 14 00:00:43,083 --> 00:00:46,291 -One, two, three. -[tokens clinking] 15 00:00:46,458 --> 00:00:48,791 Sniff that shit. [chuckles] 16 00:00:49,916 --> 00:00:52,333 I know you fuckers want to see what's under this 17 00:00:52,875 --> 00:00:55,500 fucking tighty-whiteys. [inhales sharply] 18 00:00:56,500 --> 00:00:58,625 -Just don't know if you fags deserve that. -[tokens clinking] 19 00:00:59,208 --> 00:01:01,458 I don't know. Do you wanna, wanna see my cock? 20 00:01:01,625 --> 00:01:03,708 [inhales sharply] And those big fuckin' balls? 21 00:01:05,375 --> 00:01:09,750 I want you to imagine that I just get back from the gym, 22 00:01:09,916 --> 00:01:12,583 and you're waiting there with your mouth open... 23 00:01:13,166 --> 00:01:17,833 [moans] just ready to clean my sweaty fuckin' balls. 24 00:01:18,000 --> 00:01:20,166 Mm. [inhales sharply] 25 00:01:21,125 --> 00:01:22,125 You want more? 26 00:01:22,791 --> 00:01:25,541 You fuckers want more? Look, I know you do. 27 00:01:26,458 --> 00:01:28,833 Here, grab those poppers, put them up through your fuckin' nose 28 00:01:29,000 --> 00:01:31,041 -and sniff. -[tokens clinking] 29 00:01:31,208 --> 00:01:34,583 -[chuckles, inhales sharply] -[notification chimes] 30 00:01:34,750 --> 00:01:36,583 -[tokens clinking] -[moans] 31 00:01:37,791 --> 00:01:40,333 [exhales] You like this ass? 32 00:01:42,125 --> 00:01:43,708 This... [inhales sharply] 33 00:01:43,875 --> 00:01:47,916 ...this white fucking ass. [chuckles] 34 00:01:48,875 --> 00:01:50,958 I know you faggots wanna touch this, 35 00:01:51,125 --> 00:01:53,416 -put your face all up in it. -[tokens clinking] 36 00:01:55,083 --> 00:01:58,625 You smell that? That's a real man's fuckin' ass. 37 00:01:58,791 --> 00:02:00,166 [inhales sharply] But... 38 00:02:01,291 --> 00:02:03,625 ...I don't let no one touch this ass for fuckin' free. 39 00:02:04,250 --> 00:02:05,875 You wanna lick this ass? 40 00:02:06,041 --> 00:02:08,041 You better run me some motherfuckin' money. 41 00:02:09,416 --> 00:02:13,500 I want you pathetic-ass fuckin' faggots 42 00:02:13,666 --> 00:02:16,291 to tap that fuckin' tip jar, and maybe, 43 00:02:16,458 --> 00:02:19,625 maybe I'll whip out my fuckin' cock for you. [breathes heavily] 44 00:02:19,791 --> 00:02:21,750 Matter of fact, matter of fact, 45 00:02:21,916 --> 00:02:25,500 I want you to wire me all your fuckin' money, and maybe, 46 00:02:26,291 --> 00:02:30,791 maybe I'll show up at your house and I'll shove this fuckin' cock in your fuckin' mouth. 47 00:02:30,958 --> 00:02:33,666 -[tokens clinking] -[inhales sharply] 48 00:02:34,250 --> 00:02:35,166 [moans] 49 00:02:36,625 --> 00:02:38,750 Mm. [sucks teeth] 50 00:02:39,541 --> 00:02:42,791 Oh, tonight, I got this fuckin' faggot 51 00:02:42,958 --> 00:02:47,166 -spending 50 fuckin' grand on me. -[chair creaks] 52 00:02:48,000 --> 00:02:50,458 [continues on video] And for 50 fuckin' grand... [exhales heavily] 53 00:02:52,166 --> 00:02:54,666 -...you faggots get a lot. -[tokens clinking] 54 00:02:54,833 --> 00:02:56,083 -[laptop lid thuds softly] -[clinking stops] 55 00:03:28,250 --> 00:03:30,916 ["When Love is Young" by The Free Design playing] 56 00:03:38,000 --> 00:03:43,041 -[clatters] -♪ When love is young ♪ 57 00:03:43,208 --> 00:03:47,875 -[static crackling] -♪ As fresh as dew ♪ 58 00:03:48,041 --> 00:03:52,625 ♪ A song is sung ♪ 59 00:03:52,791 --> 00:03:57,166 ♪ So warm and new ♪ 60 00:03:57,791 --> 00:04:02,541 ♪ It winds its way ♪ 61 00:04:02,708 --> 00:04:06,958 ♪ Bursts into blue ♪ 62 00:04:07,916 --> 00:04:12,291 ♪ An April day ♪ 63 00:04:12,458 --> 00:04:16,791 ♪ Turned into June ♪ 64 00:04:17,791 --> 00:04:24,833 -♪ Summer is born ♪ -[clatters] 65 00:04:27,000 --> 00:04:31,666 ♪ I walk the fields ♪ 66 00:04:31,833 --> 00:04:36,000 ♪ There's warmth above ♪ 67 00:04:36,583 --> 00:04:41,291 ♪ The thought it yields ♪ 68 00:04:41,458 --> 00:04:46,000 -♪ Is of my love ♪ -[clatters] 69 00:04:46,541 --> 00:04:50,916 ♪ A lazy stream ♪ 70 00:04:51,083 --> 00:04:55,458 ♪ Its solitude ♪ 71 00:04:56,208 --> 00:05:00,583 ♪ A summer dream ♪ 72 00:05:00,750 --> 00:05:05,291 ♪ A quiet mood ♪ 73 00:05:06,166 --> 00:05:12,875 ♪ Plays on my mind ♪ 74 00:05:15,333 --> 00:05:17,541 -♪ The sum-- ♪ -[song stops abruptly] 75 00:05:19,041 --> 00:05:20,375 -[crackles] -[knock on door] 76 00:05:24,583 --> 00:05:25,916 [knock on door] 77 00:05:38,125 --> 00:05:39,250 [knock on door] 78 00:05:42,458 --> 00:05:43,458 [exhales] 79 00:05:52,208 --> 00:05:53,291 [lock clicks] 80 00:05:53,458 --> 00:05:55,291 -[door squeaks] -[Aaron exhales] 81 00:05:55,458 --> 00:05:56,958 [insects chirping] 82 00:05:57,125 --> 00:05:58,916 [dogs barking in distance] 83 00:06:06,291 --> 00:06:07,666 This 26 Fairpark? 84 00:06:08,291 --> 00:06:09,833 [siren wailing in distance] 85 00:06:19,791 --> 00:06:22,375 [door squeaks, shuts] 86 00:06:36,208 --> 00:06:37,458 You renting this place? 87 00:06:40,125 --> 00:06:42,458 -Not gonna talk? -No, I... [chuckles nervously] 88 00:06:43,625 --> 00:06:44,583 ...I can talk. 89 00:06:47,291 --> 00:06:49,791 [sighs] There's 25K in there. 90 00:06:52,916 --> 00:06:54,625 You get the rest when we're finished. 91 00:06:55,500 --> 00:06:56,500 When's "finished"? 92 00:06:57,583 --> 00:06:58,666 In the morning. 93 00:07:00,916 --> 00:07:01,875 All right. 94 00:07:02,625 --> 00:07:05,041 [groans softly, exhales] 95 00:07:06,166 --> 00:07:07,041 What now? 96 00:07:08,250 --> 00:07:10,541 Oh, I, I gotta, I gotta 97 00:07:11,250 --> 00:07:12,625 set this. I'll just... 98 00:07:15,041 --> 00:07:17,000 Just have a, have a seat. 99 00:07:21,666 --> 00:07:23,375 Just get comfortable. 100 00:07:23,916 --> 00:07:25,916 [camera whirs, beeps] 101 00:07:31,125 --> 00:07:33,041 [exhales heavily] 102 00:07:38,041 --> 00:07:39,166 Is this what you want? 103 00:07:41,375 --> 00:07:43,666 Just whatever makes you comfortable. 104 00:07:51,333 --> 00:07:53,500 -[sucks lip] -All right, uh... 105 00:07:54,583 --> 00:07:58,291 ...I just want you to start by telling me about yourself. 106 00:08:01,625 --> 00:08:03,750 My name's Aaron Eagle, I'm from Miami. 107 00:08:06,041 --> 00:08:10,291 I like to let these faggots worship me and collect their fuckin' money. 108 00:08:11,333 --> 00:08:13,250 -That's why you're here. -Exactly. 109 00:08:16,541 --> 00:08:18,958 Tell me more about growing up in Miami. 110 00:08:19,125 --> 00:08:21,500 Growing up in Miami was fucking unbelievable. 111 00:08:21,666 --> 00:08:22,875 When did you move to LA? 112 00:08:23,583 --> 00:08:25,125 I moved here after high school. 113 00:08:25,291 --> 00:08:26,375 Right after high school? 114 00:08:27,208 --> 00:08:28,291 That's what I said. 115 00:08:31,833 --> 00:08:33,041 What did you do? 116 00:08:33,208 --> 00:08:34,833 Shit, man, you got me. 117 00:08:35,000 --> 00:08:37,166 Got into the scene, you know. Tried everything. 118 00:08:37,916 --> 00:08:40,833 You name it, I fucked with it. [chuckles] 119 00:08:41,000 --> 00:08:42,625 I'm California sober now. 120 00:08:44,291 --> 00:08:46,666 I'm sorry, "California sober"? 121 00:08:46,833 --> 00:08:49,583 Yeah, it's like I drink and I smoke, but I don't do anything else. 122 00:08:50,416 --> 00:08:51,708 [chuckles] That's sober? 123 00:08:52,291 --> 00:08:55,083 [sucks lip] A lot more sober than a lot of other people. 124 00:08:56,916 --> 00:08:58,125 I guess you're right. 125 00:09:00,916 --> 00:09:03,958 And if you wouldn't mind removing your pants. 126 00:09:16,333 --> 00:09:18,208 [Aaron sighs] 127 00:09:22,541 --> 00:09:24,500 I get the feeling you like having your clothes off. 128 00:09:24,666 --> 00:09:27,291 -Is that true? -[snickers] Yeah, for sure. 129 00:09:28,875 --> 00:09:31,125 If you look like me, you'd wanna be naked all the time too. 130 00:09:31,666 --> 00:09:33,375 Mm, yeah, maybe. [chuckles] 131 00:09:34,500 --> 00:09:37,291 Come on... [chuckles] everybody likes to be looked at. 132 00:09:41,375 --> 00:09:43,833 Is that why you got a tattoo on your face? 133 00:09:45,416 --> 00:09:46,416 -What, this? -[camera clicking] 134 00:09:46,583 --> 00:09:47,708 [man] Yeah. "Diablo." 135 00:09:47,875 --> 00:09:49,000 Can you talk about that? 136 00:09:50,208 --> 00:09:52,041 -What about it? -Why'd you get it? 137 00:09:53,125 --> 00:09:54,250 That's what they call me. 138 00:09:55,375 --> 00:09:57,500 -Who calls you that? -Friends. 139 00:09:58,583 --> 00:10:02,916 -Who are these friends? Can you be more specific? -No more questions about that. 140 00:10:03,625 --> 00:10:04,583 Hey. 141 00:10:06,250 --> 00:10:08,583 I gave you every penny I have. That's the deal. 142 00:10:08,750 --> 00:10:11,666 Shit, I'm not talking about this. [sighs] 143 00:10:12,250 --> 00:10:15,000 -[sighs] This, this isn't working. -[camera beeps] 144 00:10:15,583 --> 00:10:17,541 -This isn't gonna work. -Hey, hey, wait a minute. 145 00:10:17,708 --> 00:10:19,208 -You're not being honest with me. -I am. 146 00:10:19,375 --> 00:10:20,875 [sighs] This wasn't a good idea. 147 00:10:21,041 --> 00:10:22,166 What the fuck are you talking about? 148 00:10:22,333 --> 00:10:24,375 I'm sorry. Just keep the 25K. 149 00:10:24,541 --> 00:10:26,583 Man, what do you want? You want me to suck you off? 150 00:10:26,750 --> 00:10:28,708 -Is that what you want? -I only want you to be honest. 151 00:10:28,875 --> 00:10:30,666 -I'm being fucking honest. -No, you're not. 152 00:10:30,833 --> 00:10:33,375 -Man, you don't know shit. -You didn't grow up in Miami. 153 00:10:33,541 --> 00:10:36,166 -I don't think you've ever been to Miami. -What the fuck do you know, man? 154 00:10:36,750 --> 00:10:38,000 You don't know shit about me. 155 00:10:38,708 --> 00:10:40,416 [breathes heavily] 156 00:10:41,208 --> 00:10:42,125 [man] Please. 157 00:10:44,166 --> 00:10:45,125 Please. 158 00:10:49,833 --> 00:10:50,875 Not on camera. 159 00:10:53,000 --> 00:10:54,041 [sighs] 160 00:10:54,958 --> 00:10:56,416 I won't show it to anybody. 161 00:10:56,583 --> 00:10:57,791 I can't trust you. 162 00:11:01,541 --> 00:11:02,666 My name's Hank. 163 00:11:04,958 --> 00:11:08,666 I'm a trustworthy guy. I promise. I swear on my life. 164 00:11:11,000 --> 00:11:12,416 I'll buy us a pizza later. 165 00:11:22,708 --> 00:11:23,708 Roll your camera. 166 00:11:24,208 --> 00:11:26,791 I'll talk, but not about the tattoo. 167 00:11:26,958 --> 00:11:28,166 -Okay? -Okay. 168 00:11:31,041 --> 00:11:31,916 [camera beeps] 169 00:11:33,000 --> 00:11:34,833 [Aaron sighing] 170 00:11:36,125 --> 00:11:37,041 What do you wanna know? 171 00:11:39,041 --> 00:11:41,875 [Hank] Um, tell me about where you grew up. 172 00:11:44,458 --> 00:11:45,708 I grew up in Maine. 173 00:11:46,833 --> 00:11:49,083 Northern Maine. There's nothing up there. 174 00:11:49,250 --> 00:11:50,625 Do you have any memories of it? 175 00:11:52,666 --> 00:11:53,833 No. Not many. 176 00:11:54,000 --> 00:11:56,083 -Why not? -[chuckles] I don't know. 177 00:12:00,083 --> 00:12:01,958 Tell me about when you were 12. 178 00:12:04,166 --> 00:12:05,458 Did you have friends then? 179 00:12:05,958 --> 00:12:08,458 [sighs] I liked being by myself. 180 00:12:09,916 --> 00:12:12,958 -What did you like to do? -I don't know, watch cartoons. [chuckles] 181 00:12:13,916 --> 00:12:15,333 I read a lot, I guess. 182 00:12:15,875 --> 00:12:18,250 -Ah. What did you like to read? -[sucks teeth] 183 00:12:18,416 --> 00:12:22,500 -I don't know, a bunch of shit. -Come on. Any books you remember? 184 00:12:22,666 --> 00:12:24,083 I don't know. Uh... 185 00:12:26,208 --> 00:12:28,125 The Handmaid's Talewas good, I guess. 186 00:12:31,416 --> 00:12:33,416 [breathes heavily] I love that book. [chuckles] 187 00:12:34,750 --> 00:12:35,875 Uh... 188 00:12:38,416 --> 00:12:40,541 Tell me about your first sexual experience. 189 00:12:43,125 --> 00:12:44,250 That's a hard one. 190 00:12:45,791 --> 00:12:46,791 Why? 191 00:12:48,166 --> 00:12:49,291 'Cause it was... 192 00:12:50,875 --> 00:12:52,791 I don't know. I just don't like to think about... 193 00:12:53,500 --> 00:12:55,458 There's nothing wrong with that. A lot of people could say that. 194 00:12:55,625 --> 00:12:58,375 But it really fucked me up. Less people could say that. 195 00:13:00,166 --> 00:13:01,083 I see. 196 00:13:04,000 --> 00:13:07,833 Can you describe it, that experience, to me? 197 00:13:09,791 --> 00:13:10,750 [Aaron scoffs] 198 00:13:11,500 --> 00:13:13,375 This is pervert shit, dude. 199 00:13:13,541 --> 00:13:15,416 Just don't push me on that. 200 00:13:15,583 --> 00:13:17,791 -Was it with a guy? -I said don't fuckin' push it. 201 00:13:21,208 --> 00:13:22,625 Okay. Okay. 202 00:13:24,208 --> 00:13:25,708 We can talk about that later. 203 00:13:28,083 --> 00:13:30,416 Do you want a drink? I, I went out and bought some beers. 204 00:13:30,583 --> 00:13:32,000 I didn't, I didn't know what you liked. 205 00:13:33,666 --> 00:13:34,625 [snickers] 206 00:13:36,416 --> 00:13:39,083 Uh, yeah, I'll take a beer. 207 00:13:45,958 --> 00:13:47,041 [bottles clink] 208 00:13:47,208 --> 00:13:48,083 [bottle cap hisses] 209 00:13:49,625 --> 00:13:51,166 I hope this is okay. 210 00:14:00,833 --> 00:14:02,750 When did you become Aaron Eagle? 211 00:14:05,583 --> 00:14:08,875 You wanna hear the pervy fucking story about how I became Aaron Eagle? 212 00:14:09,041 --> 00:14:12,166 -[vape crackling softly] -I know you do. [exhales] 213 00:14:13,000 --> 00:14:16,875 So I'm working as a dancer at this spot in West Hollywood. 214 00:14:17,041 --> 00:14:19,208 It's right in Santa Monica. I'm sure you've heard of the place. 215 00:14:19,375 --> 00:14:22,875 -And on a Saturday night, it's fucked around there. -I can imagine. 216 00:14:23,041 --> 00:14:25,958 But this was a Tuesday. The place is pretty empty. 217 00:14:26,125 --> 00:14:30,916 I'm dancing there in my jock for no one. So I'm just dancing. 218 00:14:31,625 --> 00:14:34,458 There's a couple of people walking around, just having drinks or whatever. 219 00:14:35,708 --> 00:14:39,208 I've only got a couple minutes left up there, and these two guys come in. 220 00:14:40,291 --> 00:14:43,458 And they come right up to me and they put a dollar bill 221 00:14:43,625 --> 00:14:46,375 right down the front of my jock, and they left. 222 00:14:47,541 --> 00:14:49,708 Anyway, sun goes down, I'm off my shift, 223 00:14:49,875 --> 00:14:53,375 I walk outside and I'm waiting for my ride. [clicks tongue] 224 00:14:53,541 --> 00:14:56,666 I notice those motherfuckers just sharing a cigarette, 225 00:14:56,833 --> 00:14:59,416 fucking staring at me. 226 00:15:00,291 --> 00:15:03,291 And they hold out the cigarette, so I walk over and I take it. 227 00:15:04,041 --> 00:15:07,833 And then they ask me if I want to come back to their place, 228 00:15:08,000 --> 00:15:09,083 smoke or whatever. 229 00:15:09,250 --> 00:15:11,291 [slow suspenseful music] 230 00:15:11,958 --> 00:15:14,416 So, I'm in the back seat of their car 231 00:15:14,958 --> 00:15:18,583 while we drive back to their apartment... [inhales] and we walk in 232 00:15:18,750 --> 00:15:22,250 and it's this fucking nice, big apartment. 233 00:15:23,125 --> 00:15:24,875 We go to the bedroom, and there's 234 00:15:25,041 --> 00:15:28,333 this fucking California king bed or some shit, 235 00:15:28,500 --> 00:15:30,500 and these two guys sit on it. I can't remember their names, 236 00:15:30,666 --> 00:15:33,000 but one of them was Asian and one of them was white. 237 00:15:33,666 --> 00:15:36,833 They pull out their bong and, you know, we smoke that shit. 238 00:15:39,166 --> 00:15:40,875 And I remember there was a TV on... 239 00:15:42,750 --> 00:15:44,625 ...set to, like, a background or some shit. 240 00:15:44,791 --> 00:15:46,291 You know, like it was asleep? [chuckles softly] 241 00:15:47,208 --> 00:15:48,416 And it was just these... 242 00:15:49,625 --> 00:15:52,375 ...these different landscapes slowly moving, and... 243 00:15:53,416 --> 00:15:55,666 ...I'm sitting there, high as fuck, just watching 244 00:15:55,833 --> 00:15:59,666 these mountains and woods and shit. [sniffs] 245 00:16:00,625 --> 00:16:02,708 Man, I was so fucking smacked that... 246 00:16:04,583 --> 00:16:06,291 ...I didn't realize he'd started, like... 247 00:16:08,083 --> 00:16:09,041 ...feeling me... 248 00:16:10,083 --> 00:16:11,916 ...putting their hands on me kind of shit. 249 00:16:13,125 --> 00:16:14,875 And they start kissing my neck, and... 250 00:16:16,333 --> 00:16:18,125 ...and their hands are down the front of my pants, 251 00:16:18,291 --> 00:16:19,791 and, you know, I'm, I'm kissing them back. 252 00:16:21,250 --> 00:16:22,791 Then I get the fucking Asian one. 253 00:16:23,583 --> 00:16:26,958 You know, real hot, muscled up kind of shit. 254 00:16:28,250 --> 00:16:29,833 But the white one, he's just... 255 00:16:31,250 --> 00:16:32,458 ...he's just watching. 256 00:16:33,541 --> 00:16:34,916 Like, he's not hard or anything. He's just... 257 00:16:35,791 --> 00:16:36,916 ...he's just watching. 258 00:16:37,583 --> 00:16:38,833 And the chink goes, 259 00:16:39,541 --> 00:16:40,875 "He wants you to fuck him... 260 00:16:41,958 --> 00:16:43,458 ...but he wants it a little different." 261 00:16:44,583 --> 00:16:45,666 See, he said... 262 00:16:47,041 --> 00:16:49,125 ..."He wants you to rape him." 263 00:16:50,333 --> 00:16:52,958 You know, I never heard shit like that before because if it's... 264 00:16:53,500 --> 00:16:55,625 If he wants it, it's not rape, right? 265 00:16:55,791 --> 00:16:59,666 But it was this fucker's fantasy to be humiliated. 266 00:17:01,041 --> 00:17:04,416 So the white guy, he takes, like, six fucking shots and he is pretty fucked up. 267 00:17:05,166 --> 00:17:08,541 Then he starts... sucking my dick. 268 00:17:10,875 --> 00:17:13,458 And then he asks me to hit him... 269 00:17:15,166 --> 00:17:16,041 ...and I do. 270 00:17:18,125 --> 00:17:21,500 And this guy, he keeps asking me to hit him harder. 271 00:17:22,125 --> 00:17:24,500 And the harder I hit him, the better it fucking feels. 272 00:17:24,666 --> 00:17:28,208 So I am smacking the shit out of this fucking guy. 273 00:17:28,958 --> 00:17:31,041 And then I pull him down, and he's eating my ass, 274 00:17:31,208 --> 00:17:33,166 and I look back at the TV, right? 275 00:17:33,333 --> 00:17:35,000 You know, with the, with the backgrounds, 276 00:17:35,166 --> 00:17:37,750 and this fuckin' eagle just flies by, 277 00:17:38,333 --> 00:17:40,500 right past the camera, by the mountain, and in that moment, 278 00:17:40,666 --> 00:17:42,083 I pull him up from my ass 279 00:17:42,250 --> 00:17:44,000 and I just smack the fuck out of him. 280 00:17:44,791 --> 00:17:47,541 Like, I really smack the fuck out of him, 281 00:17:47,708 --> 00:17:51,708 and then I flip him over and I fuck him as hard as I fucking could. 282 00:17:51,875 --> 00:17:57,250 And... [scoffs] like, man, this guy was barely conscious. 283 00:17:57,416 --> 00:17:58,500 He was so fucked up. 284 00:17:58,666 --> 00:17:59,875 [music continues] 285 00:18:00,833 --> 00:18:02,083 But he was still moaning. 286 00:18:03,916 --> 00:18:06,416 And in that moment, everything fucking changed. 287 00:18:07,833 --> 00:18:10,291 Like... I stopped thinking, 288 00:18:10,458 --> 00:18:14,125 I stopped believing in every wall that society puts up. 289 00:18:14,291 --> 00:18:17,750 Like, everything's fake. You know? That, that, that, that's how I felt afterwards. 290 00:18:17,916 --> 00:18:19,666 Like, everything's just fuckin' fake, 291 00:18:19,833 --> 00:18:22,541 because this guy, he wanted to feel the most 292 00:18:23,208 --> 00:18:25,250 pain and embarrassment that he could. 293 00:18:25,416 --> 00:18:29,166 Like, there are thousands of people out there who watch my videos, 294 00:18:29,333 --> 00:18:32,583 who just want me to sneak in their house at night and fuck them up. 295 00:18:33,125 --> 00:18:34,083 [Aaron scoffs] 296 00:18:35,041 --> 00:18:36,833 I had to chase that fucking feeling. 297 00:18:37,916 --> 00:18:40,916 It's the most I can understand why I'm fuckin' here. [scoffs] 298 00:18:41,083 --> 00:18:43,125 I, I, I feel good. 299 00:18:43,291 --> 00:18:46,750 Shit, I feel fucking great. And everything before that night 300 00:18:46,916 --> 00:18:49,375 made me feel like a piece of fucking shit. 301 00:18:50,333 --> 00:18:52,250 [sucks lip] But that night... 302 00:18:53,500 --> 00:18:55,083 ...that night made me feel 303 00:18:55,875 --> 00:18:58,625 like I'm supposed to rape these fuckin' faggots, 304 00:18:58,791 --> 00:19:00,625 because that's what I'm fucking good at. 305 00:19:13,833 --> 00:19:16,208 Are you religious at all? 306 00:19:19,500 --> 00:19:22,958 I never was, but, shit, man... [snickers] I get it now. 307 00:19:23,625 --> 00:19:24,625 Why do you say that? 308 00:19:27,958 --> 00:19:31,541 The art of domination is spiritual or some shit. 309 00:19:31,708 --> 00:19:36,458 Like, forget for a second that you're God to these fuckin' faggots, 310 00:19:36,625 --> 00:19:42,083 but it's like... you're in charge of this faggot's soul and his mind. 311 00:19:42,666 --> 00:19:45,958 There... What's that, what's that word in, in church? 312 00:19:46,125 --> 00:19:49,625 It's like both people, um... [tuts] they-- 313 00:19:49,791 --> 00:19:52,916 -Transcend. -Transcend. [chuckles] That's it. 314 00:19:53,083 --> 00:19:56,416 Like, both people just fucking transcend. 315 00:19:57,791 --> 00:20:02,333 Like, your faggot gives up control of his body, his safety and his mind. 316 00:20:02,500 --> 00:20:05,458 He feels powerful in being so fucking small. 317 00:20:07,541 --> 00:20:08,416 It's like... 318 00:20:09,625 --> 00:20:11,583 Doesn't that kind of sound like fucking religion? 319 00:20:12,125 --> 00:20:13,833 -[snickers] -[Hank scoffs] 320 00:20:14,708 --> 00:20:16,166 I mean, sure, I guess. 321 00:20:17,291 --> 00:20:18,250 It does to me. 322 00:20:24,500 --> 00:20:27,291 You like that word a lot, "faggot." 323 00:20:27,916 --> 00:20:32,833 I like that word because... [inhales sharply] it means exactly what it means. 324 00:20:33,000 --> 00:20:35,875 You're a faggot, you like being a faggot, 325 00:20:36,041 --> 00:20:38,708 and it gets you off to think that you're a faggot. 326 00:20:38,875 --> 00:20:41,583 -I'm not a faggot. -Yeah? [scoffs] 327 00:20:42,583 --> 00:20:44,666 You're paying me all this money to look at me... 328 00:20:44,833 --> 00:20:47,083 [inhales] without my shirt on. 329 00:20:48,166 --> 00:20:49,500 That's what a faggot does. 330 00:20:51,333 --> 00:20:53,666 You want to see me talk some fucking shit in my underwear, 331 00:20:53,833 --> 00:20:55,416 and I wanna be the fucking boss. 332 00:20:58,666 --> 00:21:02,041 -I am the fuckin' boss. -That's not why I'm here. 333 00:21:02,208 --> 00:21:06,625 -[scoffs] -I don't wanna be your sub or... whatever it's called. 334 00:21:09,583 --> 00:21:11,375 Then why do you watch my videos? 335 00:21:12,041 --> 00:21:13,208 I watch them... 336 00:21:15,208 --> 00:21:17,291 ...to see you and know you. 337 00:21:18,166 --> 00:21:20,500 I don't believe that for a fucking second. 338 00:21:22,791 --> 00:21:24,250 Is that what you think this is? 339 00:21:25,166 --> 00:21:26,916 You pay me all this fucking money 340 00:21:27,083 --> 00:21:28,875 because you're so fucking lonely? 341 00:21:29,833 --> 00:21:33,250 Want a friend? That is the most pathetic fucking shit 342 00:21:33,416 --> 00:21:36,000 I have ever fucking heard. See, I figured you out, right? 343 00:21:36,166 --> 00:21:39,833 You wanna start recording? Yeah? Is that what you want? [scoffs] 344 00:21:40,000 --> 00:21:44,541 Look, I'm gonna leave, and you're still gonna be a lonely old fuck. 345 00:21:44,708 --> 00:21:47,875 You wanna see me tell my little story on camera so you can fucking know me? 346 00:21:48,041 --> 00:21:50,125 -What the fuck? -Okay, I shouldn't have done this. 347 00:21:50,291 --> 00:21:52,833 -Damn right. -I, I wanna tell you something, Aaron. 348 00:21:53,000 --> 00:21:56,041 You're a wonderful person outside of all of this. 349 00:21:56,208 --> 00:21:58,000 You don't know the first fucking thing about me. 350 00:21:58,166 --> 00:22:00,083 -All right? Just go fuck off! -I do know you, 351 00:22:00,250 --> 00:22:01,958 -Aaron. -Bullshit! All right? I hope you got 352 00:22:02,125 --> 00:22:03,958 -whatever the fuck you wanted! -Wait, Aaron. 353 00:22:04,125 --> 00:22:05,333 -Fuck off. -I do know you. 354 00:22:05,500 --> 00:22:07,166 Yeah? What's my real fucking name? 355 00:22:07,708 --> 00:22:08,750 You keep calling me Aaron, but if you know me, 356 00:22:08,916 --> 00:22:10,416 you'd know my real fucking name! 357 00:22:11,291 --> 00:22:12,916 -That's what I thought. -It's Alex. 358 00:22:17,541 --> 00:22:18,958 You're Alex McConnell. 359 00:22:22,750 --> 00:22:25,083 Ta... [breathes heavily] take off your fuckin' mask. 360 00:22:26,041 --> 00:22:27,541 -Take off your fuckin' mask! -No! No! 361 00:22:33,125 --> 00:22:34,416 [Alex breathes heavily] 362 00:22:35,416 --> 00:22:36,291 Um... 363 00:22:38,708 --> 00:22:39,708 [voice breaking] Mr. Grant. 364 00:22:40,583 --> 00:22:42,083 -[breathes heavily] -Hi, Alex. 365 00:22:44,208 --> 00:22:45,791 What, what the fuck are you doing here? 366 00:22:46,833 --> 00:22:48,541 -I came to see you. -Why? 367 00:22:49,666 --> 00:22:51,166 I've been watching your videos for a while, 368 00:22:51,333 --> 00:22:53,916 and I, I, I had to see you. 369 00:22:56,750 --> 00:22:58,750 You were fired while I was in high school. 370 00:23:00,541 --> 00:23:01,625 [sighs] 371 00:23:02,750 --> 00:23:03,666 That's right. 372 00:23:04,208 --> 00:23:05,250 Hey, you fucked one of your students. 373 00:23:05,416 --> 00:23:06,375 That's not true. 374 00:23:07,375 --> 00:23:10,583 The technical term is "attempted assault," 375 00:23:10,750 --> 00:23:12,708 because I didn't. I let him go. 376 00:23:13,333 --> 00:23:15,166 -Wasn't he, like, 12? -Alex. 377 00:23:15,333 --> 00:23:16,375 Call me Aaron. 378 00:23:17,166 --> 00:23:18,500 [sighs] Aaron. 379 00:23:21,041 --> 00:23:23,208 I know, I know this. 380 00:23:24,500 --> 00:23:25,708 [sighs] 381 00:23:28,208 --> 00:23:29,208 What do you want with me? 382 00:23:30,291 --> 00:23:32,166 I-- Exactly what I said. 383 00:23:32,916 --> 00:23:36,750 I wanna know you for who you are now. 384 00:23:40,166 --> 00:23:42,541 -You remember me, then? -[sighs] 385 00:23:44,833 --> 00:23:46,000 Of course. 386 00:23:48,000 --> 00:23:49,916 [sighs] Of course I remember you. 387 00:23:50,083 --> 00:23:53,583 We, um-- I had, I had detention with you. 388 00:23:55,208 --> 00:23:57,291 It was just us most of the time. 389 00:23:57,458 --> 00:24:00,125 I mean, you were in detention a lot. 390 00:24:07,875 --> 00:24:09,083 Were you attracted to me? 391 00:24:12,000 --> 00:24:12,916 Yes. 392 00:24:14,958 --> 00:24:15,916 I was. 393 00:24:20,666 --> 00:24:22,083 Why didn't you try to fuck me? 394 00:24:25,291 --> 00:24:27,166 I hadn't tried that. 395 00:24:29,916 --> 00:24:33,750 -And now you do? -I don't want to have sex with you. 396 00:24:36,458 --> 00:24:38,458 I thought I would want to. 397 00:24:38,625 --> 00:24:39,666 I want... 398 00:24:40,833 --> 00:24:41,916 ...to want to. 399 00:24:43,333 --> 00:24:45,666 But more than anything, I wanna see you. 400 00:24:47,791 --> 00:24:49,000 I wanna know... 401 00:24:54,458 --> 00:24:55,625 ...if I still love you. 402 00:25:01,166 --> 00:25:02,583 [ambient music] 403 00:25:04,708 --> 00:25:05,916 [breathes heavily] 404 00:25:07,541 --> 00:25:08,583 Um... 405 00:25:12,708 --> 00:25:13,833 Where's the bathroom? 406 00:25:15,625 --> 00:25:17,375 Down the hall, in the bedroom. 407 00:25:20,458 --> 00:25:21,583 -[camera clicks] -[static buzzing] 408 00:25:21,750 --> 00:25:23,791 [suspenseful music] 409 00:25:25,916 --> 00:25:27,958 [inaudible dialogue] 410 00:25:46,541 --> 00:25:47,708 [camera clicks] 411 00:25:47,875 --> 00:25:48,625 -[static crackles] -[music stops] 412 00:25:48,791 --> 00:25:50,375 [breathing shakily] 413 00:26:04,750 --> 00:26:06,291 [vape crackles] 414 00:26:08,125 --> 00:26:09,166 [knock on door] 415 00:26:10,958 --> 00:26:12,000 [Hank, muffled] Aaron? 416 00:26:14,125 --> 00:26:15,583 [breathing shakily] 417 00:26:22,916 --> 00:26:23,875 [knock on door] 418 00:26:30,208 --> 00:26:32,166 -I'll pay you another $5,000. -[breathes shakily] 419 00:26:33,916 --> 00:26:34,833 Please. 420 00:26:36,125 --> 00:26:37,083 [exhales] 421 00:26:40,000 --> 00:26:40,958 [exhales softly] 422 00:26:52,791 --> 00:26:53,791 [exhales] 423 00:26:55,000 --> 00:26:55,875 [door opens] 424 00:26:58,833 --> 00:27:02,000 I haven't seen anyone from Bedford since I was 17. 425 00:27:03,583 --> 00:27:06,625 -Must be a shock. -[scoffs] Fuckin' right. 426 00:27:07,208 --> 00:27:08,833 I haven't even thought about anyone there. 427 00:27:09,375 --> 00:27:10,666 I keep that shit out. 428 00:27:11,333 --> 00:27:12,291 [laughs] 429 00:27:14,666 --> 00:27:15,916 What, why are you laughing? 430 00:27:16,666 --> 00:27:18,291 'Cause I've thought about you every day. 431 00:27:21,416 --> 00:27:24,250 So, what, everybody at home knows you're a kid fucker 432 00:27:24,416 --> 00:27:25,750 and doesn't want to touch you? 433 00:27:25,916 --> 00:27:28,333 -Well-- -Sorry. "Attempted kid fucker." 434 00:27:28,500 --> 00:27:29,500 Is that right? 435 00:27:30,583 --> 00:27:32,250 -There's probably a more eloquent way of saying it... -[snickers] 436 00:27:32,416 --> 00:27:35,083 ...but, yeah, I guess so. 437 00:27:36,416 --> 00:27:38,500 And, what, you just moved to LA? 438 00:27:39,666 --> 00:27:42,041 No, I didn't move here. I'm just here for the night. 439 00:27:44,166 --> 00:27:45,708 You don't still live in Bedford? 440 00:27:46,291 --> 00:27:48,916 I do, actually, in the house I grew up in. 441 00:27:50,375 --> 00:27:52,125 What the fuck do you even do there? 442 00:27:52,791 --> 00:27:56,083 I've been bagging at the Shop 'n Save out on Hammond Road. 443 00:27:56,916 --> 00:27:57,958 [laughs] 444 00:27:59,666 --> 00:28:01,416 You're a fuckin' psycho, man. 445 00:28:01,583 --> 00:28:03,166 -Right. -Obviously. 446 00:28:04,583 --> 00:28:05,875 Why didn't you tell me who you were? 447 00:28:07,208 --> 00:28:09,916 Because I thought you wouldn't talk to me or be open with me. 448 00:28:11,708 --> 00:28:16,125 -Yeah, maybe. -There was so much talk about what happened, 449 00:28:16,916 --> 00:28:19,250 and I wasn't sure of everything you'd heard, so... 450 00:28:20,208 --> 00:28:23,666 Kids talk, man. I heard fucking everything. 451 00:28:24,875 --> 00:28:26,416 I heard it was in the school bathroom. 452 00:28:27,208 --> 00:28:30,375 And that you pulled him out of lunch to help you grade some tests, 453 00:28:30,541 --> 00:28:32,291 but you took him to the bathroom instead. 454 00:28:36,958 --> 00:28:37,875 Did you love him? 455 00:28:38,916 --> 00:28:40,375 Like you say you loved me, did you love him too? 456 00:28:40,541 --> 00:28:42,500 [clears throat] You don't wanna hear about this. 457 00:28:42,666 --> 00:28:44,333 I told you everything. It's your turn. 458 00:28:48,375 --> 00:28:49,916 No, I didn't love him. 459 00:28:52,041 --> 00:28:53,000 Then why do it? 460 00:28:56,291 --> 00:28:58,875 This one had a particular hold on me. 461 00:29:01,666 --> 00:29:02,666 Why him? 462 00:29:04,041 --> 00:29:06,125 He did this thing with his eyes. 463 00:29:06,291 --> 00:29:08,333 He smiled at me sometimes, and he'd look at me 464 00:29:08,500 --> 00:29:11,500 and then he'd look away for a second and then look back at me. 465 00:29:12,791 --> 00:29:15,333 You know how dogs do that, where they look at you and it's almost like 466 00:29:15,500 --> 00:29:18,458 they're uncomfortable or it's awkward and they-- 467 00:29:18,625 --> 00:29:20,666 and then they look away? 468 00:29:21,958 --> 00:29:22,958 He did that. 469 00:29:24,500 --> 00:29:28,375 He was innocent, like a dog is obedient. 470 00:29:29,291 --> 00:29:30,500 He was very bright. 471 00:29:32,791 --> 00:29:34,000 He was a lot like you. 472 00:29:39,000 --> 00:29:43,833 So, then, what? You take him to the bathroom and, and you touch him? 473 00:29:45,000 --> 00:29:47,208 -Just a little. -Did he try to get away? 474 00:29:48,041 --> 00:29:52,000 He was confused at first, and then he became upset, 475 00:29:52,583 --> 00:29:54,250 crying and stuff like that. 476 00:29:56,041 --> 00:29:58,208 -And then what? -I let him go. 477 00:29:59,500 --> 00:30:00,625 It was wrong. 478 00:30:01,458 --> 00:30:02,541 I knew it was wrong. 479 00:30:04,791 --> 00:30:06,916 I've always known it was wrong. 480 00:30:10,166 --> 00:30:12,708 I have principles. I do. 481 00:30:15,500 --> 00:30:19,750 Did he say anything? Did he scream or did he hit you? 482 00:30:20,500 --> 00:30:23,041 [inhales deeply] I don't remember. 483 00:30:25,791 --> 00:30:26,875 I don't remember. 484 00:30:29,125 --> 00:30:30,000 [Alex scoffs] 485 00:30:30,958 --> 00:30:32,083 [beer gurgles] 486 00:30:32,875 --> 00:30:34,833 [gulps] You're a sick man. 487 00:30:36,291 --> 00:30:39,958 -[scoffs] -How can you be so cavalier about this? 488 00:30:40,500 --> 00:30:42,375 How can you listen to that and smile? 489 00:30:47,083 --> 00:30:48,166 I need another beer. 490 00:30:51,208 --> 00:30:52,333 [vape crackles] 491 00:30:53,708 --> 00:30:54,583 [bottles clink] 492 00:30:55,125 --> 00:30:56,125 [exhales] 493 00:30:59,875 --> 00:31:00,750 [cap hisses] 494 00:31:04,500 --> 00:31:05,541 Aren't you gonna have one? 495 00:31:07,166 --> 00:31:08,125 I don't drink. 496 00:31:08,750 --> 00:31:10,875 But this is a special occasion, Mr. Grant. 497 00:31:11,708 --> 00:31:14,083 Feels like you should have a drink with the love of your life. 498 00:31:20,375 --> 00:31:21,250 All right. 499 00:31:22,250 --> 00:31:23,291 It's really that easy? 500 00:31:25,208 --> 00:31:29,958 You're just gonna abandon your, you know... [sighs] principles? 501 00:31:30,125 --> 00:31:31,458 [bottle cap clatters] 502 00:31:32,916 --> 00:31:34,458 For you, yes. 503 00:31:45,208 --> 00:31:46,083 [exhales] 504 00:31:52,333 --> 00:31:53,250 [exhales] 505 00:32:03,375 --> 00:32:04,625 [clicks] 506 00:32:06,250 --> 00:32:07,625 It's nice and clean in here. 507 00:32:09,041 --> 00:32:10,708 It was like this when I got here. 508 00:32:11,375 --> 00:32:13,125 Should we dirty this place up a little bit? 509 00:32:15,250 --> 00:32:17,000 -What do you mean? -[breathes deeply] 510 00:32:17,166 --> 00:32:18,916 You said you wanted to fuck me, right? 511 00:32:19,541 --> 00:32:21,958 And, shit, I think I have to fuck you now. 512 00:32:22,125 --> 00:32:24,083 You're down, like, 25 fuckin' grand. 513 00:32:25,083 --> 00:32:29,666 -And it kind of turned me on to see you drink 'cause of me. -[snickers] 514 00:32:31,333 --> 00:32:32,291 I don't know. 515 00:32:35,958 --> 00:32:37,916 You said you wanted to fuck me, right? 516 00:32:41,375 --> 00:32:45,458 -I said I wanted to want to fuck you. -[exhales] 517 00:32:46,291 --> 00:32:47,416 I don't get the difference. 518 00:32:49,875 --> 00:32:53,083 I've imagined our being together all these years, 519 00:32:53,250 --> 00:32:58,791 and I, I want nothing else than to feel that desire again. 520 00:33:00,625 --> 00:33:04,250 My dick doesn't have any feelings or thoughts... 521 00:33:04,416 --> 00:33:06,750 [exhales] or attitudes about sex. 522 00:33:07,833 --> 00:33:11,166 I might, but this is a dick you've thought about, 523 00:33:12,041 --> 00:33:13,041 and it doesn't. 524 00:33:15,416 --> 00:33:18,666 It's just a little bigger and hairier. 525 00:33:25,208 --> 00:33:26,875 [ambient music] 526 00:33:39,666 --> 00:33:41,791 [Hank breathing heavily] 527 00:33:45,833 --> 00:33:46,750 [Alex moans] 528 00:33:47,458 --> 00:33:48,750 [chuckles, moans] 529 00:33:50,291 --> 00:33:51,958 [moaning] 530 00:34:00,333 --> 00:34:02,458 -[Hank breathing heavily, moaning] -[moaning] 531 00:34:06,333 --> 00:34:07,791 [both moaning] 532 00:34:10,791 --> 00:34:12,000 [splutters, exhales] 533 00:34:12,166 --> 00:34:13,708 Why, why'd you stop? 534 00:34:15,416 --> 00:34:16,625 [Hank breathes heavily] 535 00:34:17,958 --> 00:34:20,875 Maybe I'll try again a little later. [pants] 536 00:34:28,083 --> 00:34:29,250 [pants] 537 00:34:33,291 --> 00:34:34,333 [sighs] 538 00:34:47,875 --> 00:34:49,250 Why are you in love with me? 539 00:34:56,583 --> 00:34:58,041 [exhales] 540 00:34:58,916 --> 00:35:02,500 I should confess, it was a long thing. 541 00:35:04,375 --> 00:35:05,375 Oh, really? 542 00:35:06,333 --> 00:35:07,416 What was it about me? 543 00:35:09,458 --> 00:35:10,916 I could tell you were lonely. 544 00:35:13,166 --> 00:35:17,375 All of my students had their clique or whatever you'd call it, but you didn't. 545 00:35:19,250 --> 00:35:22,500 When I had lunch duty, I would see you sitting 546 00:35:22,666 --> 00:35:25,958 either by yourself or removed from other students. 547 00:35:28,458 --> 00:35:31,125 And I know lonely. I've been lonely too. 548 00:35:33,333 --> 00:35:35,958 So, were you attracted to me or did you just notice me? 549 00:35:37,208 --> 00:35:38,750 Well, the attraction came. 550 00:35:39,416 --> 00:35:41,291 I remember you always wore gym shorts. 551 00:35:42,416 --> 00:35:44,875 So, I would look at your legs. 552 00:35:47,291 --> 00:35:48,875 They were so smooth. 553 00:35:50,125 --> 00:35:52,958 I guess I noticed you first. 554 00:35:53,125 --> 00:35:56,291 I found myself looking for you in the hallway between periods. 555 00:35:57,000 --> 00:35:59,750 It was like any love, really. 556 00:36:01,458 --> 00:36:02,583 From what I gather. 557 00:36:05,166 --> 00:36:08,583 I was attracted to more than your physicality, though. 558 00:36:09,208 --> 00:36:14,458 I was both enamored with and turned on by your... 559 00:36:16,625 --> 00:36:19,041 ...quiet, brooding... 560 00:36:21,041 --> 00:36:22,250 ...soft... 561 00:36:23,458 --> 00:36:24,625 ...youthfulness. 562 00:36:27,791 --> 00:36:30,750 Actually, you made my life quite difficult, 563 00:36:30,916 --> 00:36:33,666 -or my job, rather. -How? 564 00:36:33,833 --> 00:36:36,708 [chuckles] I, I had a heck of a time teaching. 565 00:36:37,666 --> 00:36:40,333 [laughing] You made me so nervous. 566 00:36:40,916 --> 00:36:46,333 Oh, God, I worried that any wrong turn or jumbled idea 567 00:36:46,500 --> 00:36:49,166 or crack in the facade and you'd turn against me, 568 00:36:49,333 --> 00:36:53,541 you'd, you'd see right through me and discover me. 569 00:36:54,625 --> 00:36:58,541 Every class was an act of self-flagellation. 570 00:36:58,708 --> 00:37:02,166 Standing in front of you, hoping I had something insightful to say 571 00:37:02,833 --> 00:37:04,083 was humiliating. 572 00:37:04,875 --> 00:37:08,000 -Funny. -What, what's funny about that? 573 00:37:09,791 --> 00:37:11,583 I wasn't thinking about anything at all. 574 00:37:14,875 --> 00:37:16,333 You liked The Handmaid's Tale. 575 00:37:17,458 --> 00:37:20,875 You know, Atwood, she, she has that quote. 576 00:37:21,041 --> 00:37:23,708 I taught it in class. I don't know if you remember. 577 00:37:25,208 --> 00:37:30,208 "I would like to be the air that inhabits you for a moment only. 578 00:37:31,083 --> 00:37:36,291 I would like to be that unnoticed and necessary." 579 00:37:38,666 --> 00:37:40,500 How often do you think about raping me? 580 00:37:42,375 --> 00:37:43,291 That's what it is. 581 00:37:52,041 --> 00:37:53,208 I'm sorry 582 00:37:54,000 --> 00:37:56,791 -if it hurts you to hear any of this. -It doesn't. 583 00:37:59,291 --> 00:38:01,083 I don't care about who I was in Bedford. 584 00:38:01,833 --> 00:38:03,500 That boy you loved isn't... 585 00:38:04,625 --> 00:38:05,583 ...isn't me. 586 00:38:06,375 --> 00:38:07,666 I don't think that's true. 587 00:38:09,833 --> 00:38:11,041 I still see him... 588 00:38:12,416 --> 00:38:13,583 ...in your eyes... 589 00:38:15,041 --> 00:38:16,125 ...your legs... 590 00:38:18,333 --> 00:38:19,458 ...your skin... 591 00:38:20,583 --> 00:38:21,833 ...your mind. 592 00:38:22,000 --> 00:38:23,041 Lots of ways. 593 00:38:25,208 --> 00:38:26,750 You might not wanna believe it... 594 00:38:28,875 --> 00:38:29,958 ...but... 595 00:38:31,458 --> 00:38:33,125 ...I think it's nice. 596 00:38:39,250 --> 00:38:40,291 What now? 597 00:38:41,375 --> 00:38:43,875 You don't wanna fuck me, you don't wanna do anything with me, so... 598 00:38:44,041 --> 00:38:46,166 -[clears throat] -You were a good kid. 599 00:38:46,333 --> 00:38:49,041 You were a nice, good kid. 600 00:38:49,208 --> 00:38:52,416 Oh, fuck this. I need a cigarette. All right? 601 00:38:58,583 --> 00:39:00,041 [dog barking in distance] 602 00:39:01,875 --> 00:39:03,041 [exhales] 603 00:39:11,458 --> 00:39:13,166 -Are you okay? -I'm fine. 604 00:39:20,708 --> 00:39:21,625 What are you thinking? 605 00:39:22,500 --> 00:39:23,541 I don't know. Nothing. 606 00:39:26,958 --> 00:39:27,958 I'm sorry. 607 00:39:29,083 --> 00:39:30,041 It's fine. 608 00:39:32,041 --> 00:39:34,458 I need my pipe, my weed. Mm. 609 00:39:35,291 --> 00:39:38,166 -Did you bring some? -It's in the bag that I brought. Can you get it? 610 00:39:38,708 --> 00:39:39,708 Sure. 611 00:39:42,666 --> 00:39:45,166 Hey, grab another beer while you're at it. 612 00:39:50,208 --> 00:39:51,208 [exhales] 613 00:39:55,208 --> 00:39:56,083 [bottles clink] 614 00:39:57,208 --> 00:39:58,916 [inhales, exhales] 615 00:40:08,416 --> 00:40:09,375 [sniffles] 616 00:40:25,041 --> 00:40:27,500 [chuckles] That beer's for you, big dog. 617 00:40:28,833 --> 00:40:31,750 -You want me to drink another? -Hell yeah. I want you to chug it. 618 00:40:31,916 --> 00:40:33,416 Oh. [laughs] 619 00:40:33,583 --> 00:40:36,000 -I don't think I can do it. -Come on, do it. 620 00:40:36,166 --> 00:40:37,166 [sighs] 621 00:40:40,083 --> 00:40:41,125 [sighs] 622 00:40:43,500 --> 00:40:45,208 -[chuckles] -[gulping] 623 00:40:46,333 --> 00:40:47,500 [lighter strikes] 624 00:40:51,291 --> 00:40:52,208 [coughs] Yeah. 625 00:40:58,416 --> 00:40:59,291 [chuckles] 626 00:41:01,833 --> 00:41:03,333 [coughs, inhales] 627 00:41:03,500 --> 00:41:05,958 -Hell yeah. Put her there. -[laughing] 628 00:41:06,125 --> 00:41:09,791 -Fuck. That's it, man. I just popped a boner. -[laughing] 629 00:41:09,958 --> 00:41:12,291 -[chuckles] -[burps, laughs] Oh. Excuse me. 630 00:41:12,458 --> 00:41:14,416 -[laughs] Show off. -[lighter strikes] 631 00:41:14,583 --> 00:41:16,958 -[laughs] -[lighter strikes] 632 00:41:17,416 --> 00:41:20,208 [sighs] You smoke a lot of pot? 633 00:41:20,916 --> 00:41:22,708 "Pot." [exhales] That's funny. 634 00:41:23,916 --> 00:41:24,791 Yeah. 635 00:41:25,875 --> 00:41:27,750 Gets my, uh, gets my brain right. 636 00:41:27,916 --> 00:41:29,125 Gets me right up here, you know? 637 00:41:30,375 --> 00:41:31,666 What happens without it? 638 00:41:33,708 --> 00:41:37,416 I don't know. Guess it's like everything else that gets me fucked up. 639 00:41:38,041 --> 00:41:40,666 If I didn't have it, I'd probably go crazy 640 00:41:40,833 --> 00:41:43,500 -thinking about all the shit I've done in my life. -Mm. 641 00:41:44,916 --> 00:41:47,125 You know, for a while, I was doing the shit that killed my dad, 642 00:41:47,291 --> 00:41:48,791 -but, you know, then I stopped. -[lighter strikes] 643 00:41:48,958 --> 00:41:49,958 Why did you stop? 644 00:41:51,250 --> 00:41:53,291 I don't know, friends didn't fuck with it. [exhales] 645 00:41:53,458 --> 00:41:54,666 The same friends who... 646 00:41:56,791 --> 00:41:57,791 Yeah. 647 00:41:58,625 --> 00:42:00,083 -You listen. -[lighter strikes] 648 00:42:00,250 --> 00:42:01,250 [chuckles] 649 00:42:03,416 --> 00:42:04,458 I listen a lot. 650 00:42:04,625 --> 00:42:05,916 [pipe crackles] 651 00:42:07,666 --> 00:42:08,666 Why don't you drink? 652 00:42:09,791 --> 00:42:12,291 I stopped when I started going back to church. 653 00:42:12,458 --> 00:42:14,750 I knew it. I knew that had something to do with it. 654 00:42:14,916 --> 00:42:17,083 It was hard to stop too. [inhales sharply] 655 00:42:17,250 --> 00:42:20,833 Uh, why even join that shit, man? Like, why put yourself through it? 656 00:42:21,000 --> 00:42:24,833 Well, we went to church when I was a kid, and, and, and it felt right, 657 00:42:25,000 --> 00:42:26,416 you know, to... 658 00:42:27,625 --> 00:42:29,833 ...go back, 'cause I felt very little control 659 00:42:30,000 --> 00:42:32,875 after everything that happened, and then I was drinking a lot, 660 00:42:33,041 --> 00:42:37,708 and... [breathes deeply] I just couldn't not think about what went on. 661 00:42:37,875 --> 00:42:41,833 I needed a, a big thing to happen. 662 00:42:42,000 --> 00:42:45,083 [inhales deeply] Something had to be different. 663 00:42:45,708 --> 00:42:46,666 [lighter strikes] 664 00:42:47,625 --> 00:42:50,750 My priest knows I'm here. 665 00:42:50,916 --> 00:42:52,958 -[chokes] No fuckin' way. -[laughing] 666 00:42:53,125 --> 00:42:56,208 -What? [coughs] -He didn't accept it, but I told him I... 667 00:42:57,208 --> 00:42:59,458 ...was gonna be away for today's service. 668 00:43:00,041 --> 00:43:04,083 I explained you and everything I was doing. 669 00:43:05,791 --> 00:43:09,625 It helps me to have faith in my purpose and, and feel like 670 00:43:09,791 --> 00:43:13,000 there's something to govern my body. 671 00:43:15,666 --> 00:43:17,666 Still, I can't help but think that... 672 00:43:19,625 --> 00:43:21,250 -[lighter strikes] -...something's wrong. 673 00:43:23,041 --> 00:43:26,541 I wonder a lot if there is purity in perversion... 674 00:43:27,666 --> 00:43:30,583 ...if it, if it makes me enlightened in some way. 675 00:43:30,750 --> 00:43:34,083 It's, it's, it's kind of like what you were saying before about your... 676 00:43:36,000 --> 00:43:39,166 -Faggots. -Mm, yeah, yeah. Those. 677 00:43:39,958 --> 00:43:44,708 I'm tempted to think of my perversity as spiritual, 678 00:43:44,875 --> 00:43:48,166 because I can't comprehend any other reason 679 00:43:48,333 --> 00:43:51,208 why God would have created me this way. 680 00:43:55,208 --> 00:43:57,291 Isn't there something religious or... 681 00:43:58,458 --> 00:44:01,125 ...spiritual about loneliness? 682 00:44:02,916 --> 00:44:05,333 -[lighter strikes] -I feel closest to God 683 00:44:05,500 --> 00:44:08,083 in moments of darkness and, and isolation. 684 00:44:08,875 --> 00:44:11,458 And that's all perversity is, it's just loneliness. 685 00:44:12,666 --> 00:44:13,958 I get that you're religious 686 00:44:14,500 --> 00:44:17,208 and that you think your being a perv 687 00:44:17,375 --> 00:44:20,875 make you special, but it might just make you evil. 688 00:44:24,375 --> 00:44:25,416 [Hank clicks tongue] 689 00:44:26,166 --> 00:44:27,541 Guess that's... 690 00:44:30,000 --> 00:44:31,500 ...somewhat accurate. 691 00:44:35,000 --> 00:44:37,625 Look, man, I'm high as fuck, 692 00:44:38,458 --> 00:44:40,291 and I want to fuck. 693 00:44:40,833 --> 00:44:42,000 So what's it gonna take? 694 00:44:45,958 --> 00:44:47,250 -Really? -Really. 695 00:44:48,583 --> 00:44:49,625 What's it gonna take? 696 00:44:53,416 --> 00:44:55,625 [gentle song] 697 00:44:55,791 --> 00:44:57,000 [static buzzing] 698 00:45:00,750 --> 00:45:02,375 [inaudible dialogue] 699 00:45:05,750 --> 00:45:08,208 -[Hank] Hold still. -Man, I can't believe I'm letting you do this. 700 00:45:08,375 --> 00:45:10,416 -Why? -My faggots love my hair. 701 00:45:10,583 --> 00:45:11,458 [Hank laughs] Oh. 702 00:45:13,041 --> 00:45:14,125 [Hank] Mm. 703 00:45:21,875 --> 00:45:25,333 Mm. [laughing] Stop moving! 704 00:45:30,666 --> 00:45:33,166 -Are you gonna do my ass too? -Oh, yeah. 705 00:45:36,208 --> 00:45:37,750 [Alex] You really like 'em bald, huh? 706 00:45:39,333 --> 00:45:42,416 You know, a lot of gay guys are turned on by the smell of a hairy dick. 707 00:45:43,666 --> 00:45:45,916 Mm, that may be true. 708 00:45:46,791 --> 00:45:47,833 Still... 709 00:45:49,375 --> 00:45:50,250 ...I'm not. 710 00:45:51,000 --> 00:45:52,416 [Alex] Does this turn you on, then? 711 00:45:56,000 --> 00:45:57,041 Oh, yeah. 712 00:45:57,875 --> 00:45:59,541 [song continues] 713 00:46:02,083 --> 00:46:07,583 It might be a good idea if you wanted to role play. 714 00:46:07,750 --> 00:46:10,458 You know, I know you're usually the dominant one, but... 715 00:46:14,041 --> 00:46:15,750 Chug another beer, and I'll think about it. 716 00:46:17,708 --> 00:46:19,166 [breathes shakily] 717 00:46:23,916 --> 00:46:24,791 [Alex clears throat] 718 00:46:31,916 --> 00:46:33,333 [Alex exhales] 719 00:46:33,500 --> 00:46:35,458 Ice cold in here. Can we turn on the heat? 720 00:46:36,875 --> 00:46:37,750 [Hank] Oh. 721 00:46:39,458 --> 00:46:40,333 It might... 722 00:46:41,375 --> 00:46:44,000 ...help me if you were a little, little uncomfortable. 723 00:46:45,708 --> 00:46:47,000 Oh. Uh... 724 00:46:48,208 --> 00:46:50,208 [groans] I don't know why I'm nervous. Shit. 725 00:46:50,375 --> 00:46:53,291 Ah, that's good. Yes. That'll, that'll help too. 726 00:46:58,375 --> 00:47:00,708 In order for this to work, you have to do what I say. 727 00:47:01,375 --> 00:47:02,375 Can you do that? 728 00:47:03,208 --> 00:47:04,875 -Sure. -I know you're not used 729 00:47:05,041 --> 00:47:06,708 -to being in that position. -No, I can do it. 730 00:47:09,958 --> 00:47:10,875 Come here. 731 00:47:16,541 --> 00:47:17,916 [Alex breathes deeply] 732 00:47:18,458 --> 00:47:20,375 [breathes heavily] 733 00:47:21,291 --> 00:47:22,583 Get down on your knees. 734 00:47:24,791 --> 00:47:25,708 That's it. 735 00:47:28,250 --> 00:47:29,541 -Mm. -What the fuck? 736 00:47:29,708 --> 00:47:32,541 -[laughing] -[grunts] Fuck, man! 737 00:47:33,916 --> 00:47:35,500 -[Alex pants] -Yes. 738 00:47:35,666 --> 00:47:36,541 [bottle thuds] 739 00:47:38,041 --> 00:47:38,916 Now... 740 00:47:40,250 --> 00:47:41,583 ...I want you to listen to me. 741 00:47:44,458 --> 00:47:46,666 Have you ever seen another boy's penis before? 742 00:47:46,833 --> 00:47:49,875 -[laughing] -What? Okay. All right. 743 00:47:50,041 --> 00:47:53,583 It-- This is fucking ridiculous. I, I never did this before. 744 00:47:53,750 --> 00:47:56,125 Me neither. Can you please try? 745 00:48:02,791 --> 00:48:05,958 Oh, yeah, I like the wide eyes. 746 00:48:07,333 --> 00:48:09,666 [breathes deeply] 747 00:48:09,833 --> 00:48:12,208 Have you ever seen another boy's penis before? 748 00:48:14,458 --> 00:48:15,750 I'm gonna show you mine. 749 00:48:17,541 --> 00:48:18,750 [removing pants] 750 00:48:25,125 --> 00:48:26,583 Now, you can't tell anybody I did this, 751 00:48:26,750 --> 00:48:28,541 'cause we could both get in a lot of trouble. 752 00:48:32,458 --> 00:48:33,458 Kiss it. 753 00:48:35,083 --> 00:48:36,458 -[moans] -[Alex kisses] 754 00:48:37,833 --> 00:48:38,916 [softly] Open your mouth. 755 00:48:40,666 --> 00:48:41,708 [Hank exhales] 756 00:48:43,250 --> 00:48:46,041 [softly] Oh. You're so beautiful. 757 00:48:47,458 --> 00:48:48,875 So beautiful. 758 00:48:49,791 --> 00:48:51,000 Give me a smile. 759 00:48:52,000 --> 00:48:56,291 -[chuckles] -Yeah, good job. 760 00:48:57,083 --> 00:48:58,791 Good job. 761 00:49:00,958 --> 00:49:02,125 [moans] 762 00:49:02,291 --> 00:49:04,916 [Alex sucking, moans] 763 00:49:05,083 --> 00:49:06,625 -Good job. -[sucks] 764 00:49:07,333 --> 00:49:08,708 -Oh, good job. -[sucking] 765 00:49:09,458 --> 00:49:11,083 -[Alex] Mm. -Oh. 766 00:49:12,250 --> 00:49:13,333 Good job. 767 00:49:13,958 --> 00:49:16,083 Oh. [moans] Look what you did. 768 00:49:16,250 --> 00:49:18,625 -[Alex] Mm. -[panting] 769 00:49:18,791 --> 00:49:22,458 You really made me hard. Oh, God. [moaning] 770 00:49:26,333 --> 00:49:27,583 Just stand up for me. 771 00:49:30,500 --> 00:49:32,666 I wanna show you how good that feels. 772 00:49:33,416 --> 00:49:35,375 [Hank breathing heavily] 773 00:49:40,125 --> 00:49:42,000 [Hank moaning] 774 00:49:43,166 --> 00:49:44,875 [Hank moaning] 775 00:49:49,916 --> 00:49:51,125 I love you, Alex. 776 00:49:52,125 --> 00:49:53,125 So much. 777 00:49:55,625 --> 00:49:57,583 [Hank grunting, sucking] 778 00:50:01,416 --> 00:50:03,125 -Please get off. -[continues moaning] 779 00:50:05,958 --> 00:50:06,958 Stop, Mr. Grant. 780 00:50:07,791 --> 00:50:09,166 I don't, I don't wanna do this anymore. 781 00:50:09,333 --> 00:50:11,166 [Hank breathing heavily] 782 00:50:12,125 --> 00:50:14,125 [voice breaking] Please. Please stop. 783 00:50:14,291 --> 00:50:16,583 Please stop. Please, please, please. Please-- 784 00:50:16,750 --> 00:50:18,000 [thudding] 785 00:50:19,625 --> 00:50:22,125 -[thudding] -[Hank grunting, panting] 786 00:50:23,458 --> 00:50:24,750 I couldn't help myself. 787 00:50:25,708 --> 00:50:27,041 But that's no excuse. 788 00:50:28,375 --> 00:50:33,000 You know that feeling right before you finish, when nothing else matters? 789 00:50:33,166 --> 00:50:35,416 I know you know what I'm talking about 'cause you said it yourself. 790 00:50:35,583 --> 00:50:36,916 You're a pervert too. 791 00:50:38,041 --> 00:50:39,708 But, uh, I'm sorry. 792 00:50:40,958 --> 00:50:42,250 It's fine, man. 793 00:50:44,708 --> 00:50:46,541 You think I like doing that? I don't. 794 00:50:47,500 --> 00:50:53,916 Uh, I, I hate to be so vulgar, but, ejaculating is a primal urge. 795 00:50:55,291 --> 00:50:56,500 [Hank sighs] 796 00:50:56,666 --> 00:50:58,541 As, as much as I wanted to stop-- 797 00:50:58,708 --> 00:51:00,291 -[grunts] -[yelps, yells] 798 00:51:00,458 --> 00:51:02,916 Can you stop your fucking teacher talk? 799 00:51:03,416 --> 00:51:05,416 Oh, God. [breathing heavily] 800 00:51:06,625 --> 00:51:08,750 -Oh, I'm sorry. -I don't wanna hear shit! 801 00:51:08,916 --> 00:51:11,041 -[groans] -All right? Don't say, "I'm sorry." 802 00:51:11,208 --> 00:51:13,083 Don't say, "I'm embarrassed," anything! 803 00:51:13,250 --> 00:51:15,291 -I don't wanna fucking hear it! -[exhales] 804 00:51:15,458 --> 00:51:18,625 You're a fucking pervert! And yeah, maybe I'm a pervert too, 805 00:51:18,791 --> 00:51:20,500 but at least I'm not fucking you! 806 00:51:21,458 --> 00:51:22,916 At least I'm not criminally horny. 807 00:51:23,833 --> 00:51:24,958 [exhales] You're right. 808 00:51:28,916 --> 00:51:30,750 You think I haven't done shit like that? 809 00:51:31,500 --> 00:51:32,833 [scoffs] That's nothing. 810 00:51:34,875 --> 00:51:37,166 I'm not gonna fall asleep tonight thinking about that. 811 00:51:37,958 --> 00:51:40,958 I'm gonna be thinking about how my fucking English teacher came to visit me. 812 00:51:41,916 --> 00:51:44,000 It's a footnote. I won't remember it, really. 813 00:51:45,291 --> 00:51:46,166 [scoffs] 814 00:51:49,291 --> 00:51:51,583 You taught me what a footnote was. [scoffs] 815 00:51:53,458 --> 00:51:56,541 Just wait till you're older. You'll remember all of it. 816 00:52:09,208 --> 00:52:10,250 You said... 817 00:52:11,625 --> 00:52:14,833 ...your first sexual experience was... 818 00:52:16,333 --> 00:52:17,333 ...uncomfortable. 819 00:52:20,375 --> 00:52:21,958 Yeah, I, uh... [scoffs] 820 00:52:23,375 --> 00:52:24,375 You can tell me. 821 00:52:27,916 --> 00:52:28,875 It was my aunt. 822 00:52:30,541 --> 00:52:32,416 After my dad died, she moved in with us. 823 00:52:33,708 --> 00:52:34,875 That's when it first happened. 824 00:52:35,875 --> 00:52:38,708 -How old were you? -Why? You gonna jerk off to it? 825 00:52:39,708 --> 00:52:40,666 No, I'm not. 826 00:52:42,916 --> 00:52:45,583 I just thought, I don't know, maybe you'd wanna talk about it. 827 00:52:47,541 --> 00:52:48,583 I don't know. 828 00:52:50,833 --> 00:52:53,541 I'm sorry anyhow. Sorry that happened to you. 829 00:52:54,958 --> 00:52:55,916 Yeah. 830 00:53:00,208 --> 00:53:02,958 Aaron, would you sing that song 831 00:53:03,708 --> 00:53:06,291 you did for me that one time? 832 00:53:06,875 --> 00:53:08,458 -The one you sang at the talent show-- -No, I'm not doing that. 833 00:53:08,625 --> 00:53:10,708 -Come on. Please? -[sighs] No, man. 834 00:53:10,875 --> 00:53:12,833 There's another thousand in it for you. 835 00:53:13,000 --> 00:53:14,541 That's all I've got, really. 836 00:53:14,708 --> 00:53:16,541 Look, I don't remember the fucking song. 837 00:53:16,708 --> 00:53:18,875 I don't. I don't remember how to fucking sing. 838 00:53:19,041 --> 00:53:22,541 Singing's like riding a bike. It's muscle memory. You don't forget that. 839 00:53:22,708 --> 00:53:26,583 Look, I'm sorry, but I fucking told you, I'm not the fucking same. 840 00:53:26,750 --> 00:53:28,083 -Yes, you are. -No, I'm not. 841 00:53:32,875 --> 00:53:36,166 [sighs] You were so good. 842 00:53:37,458 --> 00:53:40,375 I still can't believe Robbie Hanscom beat you. 843 00:53:41,000 --> 00:53:42,791 He and that stupid puppet. 844 00:53:42,958 --> 00:53:46,958 -I'm a better ventriloquist than that kid. -[laughing] 845 00:53:47,958 --> 00:53:50,458 It's the biggest shame in Bedford Middle School history. 846 00:53:50,625 --> 00:53:51,750 Yeah, next to you. 847 00:53:53,250 --> 00:53:56,166 -[sighs, laughs] -What was so funny? 848 00:53:58,166 --> 00:54:00,958 In detention, it was just the two of us, and you said... 849 00:54:02,250 --> 00:54:05,958 ..."I wanna sing in the talent show, but I'm nervous." 850 00:54:07,083 --> 00:54:11,291 And you started singing, and your voice is shaky. 851 00:54:12,000 --> 00:54:15,083 And I thought, "Oh, man, nobody's gonna hear him sing. 852 00:54:15,250 --> 00:54:17,416 He-- 'Cause he won't do it. He won't be able to do it. 853 00:54:17,583 --> 00:54:19,333 They're not gonna hear his voice." 854 00:54:21,875 --> 00:54:24,375 And you were singing that wonderful song. 855 00:54:26,500 --> 00:54:29,750 And after the second verse, something happened. 856 00:54:31,750 --> 00:54:34,875 Something happened, and you found that voice. 857 00:54:37,041 --> 00:54:38,041 I, I... 858 00:54:40,666 --> 00:54:43,875 ...I just remember watching you and thinking, "He did it! 859 00:54:44,958 --> 00:54:46,750 How brave!" 860 00:54:49,083 --> 00:54:50,541 Almost like an angel. 861 00:54:59,750 --> 00:55:03,000 I think I promised you a pizza. Are you hungry? 862 00:55:07,291 --> 00:55:11,291 These places in LA deliver so late. 863 00:55:11,458 --> 00:55:12,333 Yeah. 864 00:55:16,250 --> 00:55:17,833 I've never been to LA before. 865 00:55:19,458 --> 00:55:21,458 It's the Mecca of perverts. You'd love it. 866 00:55:22,666 --> 00:55:25,250 I wish you'd stop calling me that. [chuckles] 867 00:55:25,958 --> 00:55:27,250 Why? It's the truth, right? 868 00:55:28,000 --> 00:55:30,125 Why can't it be something you don't put a word to? 869 00:55:31,916 --> 00:55:34,750 -Or you could say "pederast." -What the fuck is that? 870 00:55:34,916 --> 00:55:38,833 You know. Ancient Rome, where an older man 871 00:55:39,000 --> 00:55:41,166 had a loving relationship with a boy? 872 00:55:42,958 --> 00:55:44,041 Sex and stuff? 873 00:55:44,666 --> 00:55:48,333 Well, yeah, among other, less salacious things. 874 00:55:49,791 --> 00:55:54,750 You know, ancient Roman armies were infallible and respected, 875 00:55:55,416 --> 00:55:59,000 and pederasty was often a kind of initiation 876 00:55:59,166 --> 00:56:03,208 into those, those armies. I mean, into the whole culture, as a matter of fact. 877 00:56:04,166 --> 00:56:07,541 I think it just kind of makes me feel better to think that I 878 00:56:07,708 --> 00:56:11,750 could have been a Roman warrior marching into battle with his lover... 879 00:56:13,000 --> 00:56:14,291 ...and be celebrated. 880 00:56:16,916 --> 00:56:17,916 [cutlery clinking] 881 00:56:19,875 --> 00:56:20,791 What? 882 00:56:21,708 --> 00:56:22,916 Come on, man. 883 00:56:23,083 --> 00:56:24,500 Oh, what, what do you mean? 884 00:56:25,583 --> 00:56:27,875 -No, never mind. -No, no, no, no. What do you mean? 885 00:56:28,750 --> 00:56:32,250 It's just... [sighs] you're eating pizza with a fucking fork. 886 00:56:32,416 --> 00:56:34,291 You're not a fucking gladiator, dude. 887 00:56:35,708 --> 00:56:37,750 -No offense. -No, I get it. 888 00:56:39,166 --> 00:56:41,416 We who are about to die, salute you. 889 00:56:41,583 --> 00:56:43,041 -[chuckles] -[laughing] 890 00:56:44,416 --> 00:56:46,583 -That's much better. -[both laugh] 891 00:56:49,041 --> 00:56:51,833 -You know, we should do something fun, Hank. -Like what? 892 00:56:52,000 --> 00:56:53,750 I don't know, just try and lighten the mood. 893 00:56:54,458 --> 00:56:56,500 -What do you like to do for fun? -Um, nothing, really. 894 00:56:56,666 --> 00:56:58,250 Um, I don't, I don't go out much. 895 00:56:59,250 --> 00:57:01,500 Can you not be a complete dipshit for two fucking seconds? 896 00:57:04,666 --> 00:57:07,208 Well, there is something I like to do. 897 00:57:07,375 --> 00:57:09,250 Yeah? What's that? 898 00:57:10,750 --> 00:57:13,250 -[vape crackling] -[Hank] All right, give me an adjective. 899 00:57:14,958 --> 00:57:15,958 "Happy." 900 00:57:16,708 --> 00:57:19,125 Okay. And now an adverb. 901 00:57:20,000 --> 00:57:21,000 Um... 902 00:57:22,291 --> 00:57:23,333 "Softly." 903 00:57:24,541 --> 00:57:25,625 Okay, now... 904 00:57:26,416 --> 00:57:28,458 -"Cock." -[tuts] All right. 905 00:57:29,833 --> 00:57:31,041 Another adjective. 906 00:57:32,416 --> 00:57:34,166 -Hank. -Yeah? 907 00:57:34,333 --> 00:57:35,875 Do you ever think about, like, "why?" 908 00:57:36,708 --> 00:57:37,625 Why what? 909 00:57:39,458 --> 00:57:41,041 Why you were born the way you are? 910 00:57:42,208 --> 00:57:43,291 Gosh, I don't know. 911 00:57:44,791 --> 00:57:46,750 -When did you know? -Jeez, Aaron, uh, 912 00:57:46,916 --> 00:57:48,625 just give me another adjective. 913 00:57:50,541 --> 00:57:52,416 [inhales deeply] "Sad." 914 00:57:52,583 --> 00:57:53,583 [inhales] 915 00:57:53,750 --> 00:57:55,708 Okay. Another adjective. 916 00:57:55,875 --> 00:57:57,458 [writing] 917 00:57:58,041 --> 00:57:59,125 "Disturbed." 918 00:57:59,708 --> 00:58:01,875 I see what you're doing. What are you getting at? 919 00:58:05,625 --> 00:58:08,041 There must have been a time when you, like, realized. 920 00:58:10,375 --> 00:58:14,666 I guess it was when I jerked off to the same middle school crushes, 921 00:58:14,833 --> 00:58:17,041 until now. 922 00:58:17,208 --> 00:58:18,833 I guess I still do that. 923 00:58:19,000 --> 00:58:21,333 So you grew up with-- The people you're attracted to 924 00:58:21,500 --> 00:58:23,625 stayed the same age, but in your head? 925 00:58:24,541 --> 00:58:26,250 I guess that's right. Can we keep going? 926 00:58:27,708 --> 00:58:30,208 -What was that kid's name? -What kid? 927 00:58:31,083 --> 00:58:34,166 -The kid you tried to fuck. Come on, I really wanna know. -[sighs] 928 00:58:34,333 --> 00:58:38,041 -You went to jail, I guess. -Of course I did. Of course I went to jail. 929 00:58:38,791 --> 00:58:42,416 I got off with seven years. It wasn't statutory rape anyway. 930 00:58:45,166 --> 00:58:46,833 -What was his name? -Aaron-- 931 00:58:47,000 --> 00:58:48,541 Come on, what was that kid's fucking name? 932 00:58:50,875 --> 00:58:52,000 His name was James. 933 00:58:53,708 --> 00:58:54,916 James Scott. 934 00:58:56,083 --> 00:58:58,291 Man, his older brother was in my grade, right? 935 00:58:58,458 --> 00:59:00,291 Man, I can't fucking believe that. 936 00:59:01,000 --> 00:59:02,750 Only kid I ever knew named James, 937 00:59:02,916 --> 00:59:05,000 and that fucking kid, he was a fag in training 938 00:59:05,166 --> 00:59:06,625 since, like... [chuckles] age five. 939 00:59:07,208 --> 00:59:08,416 What is your problem? 940 00:59:09,250 --> 00:59:12,041 -It's just a joke, man. -It's not something to joke about. 941 00:59:12,208 --> 00:59:14,958 It's not, it's not something to laugh about. 942 00:59:16,125 --> 00:59:17,458 Damn, dude, I'm sorry. It's just a joke. 943 00:59:17,625 --> 00:59:19,166 Don't you feel sorry for him? 944 00:59:19,916 --> 00:59:21,750 Don't you feel sorry for yourself? 945 00:59:25,166 --> 00:59:29,375 James left school, and then he came back, and he was never the same. 946 00:59:30,458 --> 00:59:33,333 The school obviously didn't wanna out him as the victim, 947 00:59:33,500 --> 00:59:35,791 but the kids knew. They always find out. 948 00:59:36,916 --> 00:59:38,625 I bet he has friends who don't talk to him now. 949 00:59:38,791 --> 00:59:41,500 I, I bet they stopped talking to him then. 950 00:59:42,541 --> 00:59:45,125 I bet James felt really alone. 951 00:59:47,500 --> 00:59:49,291 He's out of high school now. 952 00:59:49,458 --> 00:59:50,708 Never went to college. 953 00:59:54,625 --> 00:59:56,666 I see him at the Shop 'N Save sometimes. 954 00:59:59,291 --> 01:00:01,750 Have respect. Please. 955 01:00:05,166 --> 01:00:08,083 People just don't become pedophiles. 956 01:00:08,250 --> 01:00:09,666 You must have always been one. 957 01:00:10,208 --> 01:00:12,666 [chuckles] I don't know. I don't know. 958 01:00:15,958 --> 01:00:17,000 Were you fucked as a kid? 959 01:00:17,541 --> 01:00:19,500 -Aaron. -Tell me. 960 01:00:26,625 --> 01:00:27,541 [sighs] 961 01:00:29,875 --> 01:00:30,750 [clicks tongue] 962 01:00:33,708 --> 01:00:34,625 [Hank clears throat] 963 01:00:39,083 --> 01:00:41,750 My grandfather before me had my same name. 964 01:00:41,916 --> 01:00:43,125 His name was Hank too. 965 01:00:44,500 --> 01:00:46,083 And I don't know if you ever knew this, 966 01:00:46,250 --> 01:00:48,000 but I have an older brother and sister... 967 01:00:49,541 --> 01:00:51,458 ...and their names are Jason and Shirley. 968 01:00:52,500 --> 01:00:53,416 [clicks tongue] 969 01:00:54,666 --> 01:00:57,208 But when it came to me, for whatever... [sighs] fucking reason, 970 01:00:57,375 --> 01:01:00,458 my parents went back to basics and decided to recycle the name, 971 01:01:00,625 --> 01:01:01,833 and so I'm Hank. 972 01:01:03,750 --> 01:01:06,041 And when Grandpa Hank came over, 973 01:01:06,208 --> 01:01:10,041 my parents would take Jason and Shirley to Phillips Lake. 974 01:01:11,375 --> 01:01:14,291 But I had to stay with Grandpa Hank. 975 01:01:15,875 --> 01:01:17,500 Because I was his special grandson. 976 01:01:17,666 --> 01:01:20,250 My mother said... [clicks tongue] 977 01:01:20,416 --> 01:01:24,000 ..."You're Little Hank, and he just wants to spend time with you." So, they left. 978 01:01:28,375 --> 01:01:30,958 But not before my mother gave me a really good bath. 979 01:01:38,166 --> 01:01:41,500 I think everything that was going to happen to me was decided 980 01:01:41,666 --> 01:01:44,500 when the nurse wrote down "Hank" on the birth certificate. 981 01:01:47,000 --> 01:01:48,458 Why didn't your mom do anything? 982 01:01:50,291 --> 01:01:52,375 I wondered that for a long time. 983 01:01:54,166 --> 01:01:57,500 And then, uh, one time I talked to her about it, I said... 984 01:01:58,833 --> 01:01:59,916 ..."You knew." 985 01:02:01,708 --> 01:02:03,250 And you know what that woman said to me? 986 01:02:04,083 --> 01:02:08,541 She said, "We gave him you because it was better than all three of you." 987 01:02:11,125 --> 01:02:12,750 She's a cunt, Hank. 988 01:02:14,708 --> 01:02:15,916 It was her father. 989 01:02:17,125 --> 01:02:18,708 Imagine her childhood. 990 01:02:21,583 --> 01:02:25,125 She may have been a bad person, but she didn't know to be better. 991 01:02:28,500 --> 01:02:34,333 And, you know, my mother wasn't a pervert, she wasn't a pederast. 992 01:02:35,916 --> 01:02:38,250 She didn't fall in love with a little boy. 993 01:02:42,750 --> 01:02:44,875 Maybe you weren't born this way, then. 994 01:02:50,166 --> 01:02:51,166 Doesn't matter. 995 01:02:52,916 --> 01:02:53,833 And, Aaron, 996 01:02:54,666 --> 01:02:57,666 I think you could maybe understand 997 01:02:57,833 --> 01:02:59,458 the worthlessness I felt. 998 01:02:59,625 --> 01:03:01,458 I didn't know anything could exist outside of that 999 01:03:01,625 --> 01:03:02,750 for so long. 1000 01:03:09,625 --> 01:03:12,166 I haven't had sex for a long, long time. 1001 01:03:14,791 --> 01:03:18,708 And after tonight, I know I'll never have sex again. 1002 01:03:20,000 --> 01:03:22,166 -I'm sorry. -No. 1003 01:03:22,333 --> 01:03:23,625 -I'm really sorry-- -Nope. 1004 01:03:25,250 --> 01:03:27,083 It is not anything to feel sorry for. 1005 01:03:27,250 --> 01:03:30,916 It's a good feeling, really. It's a prideful feeling. 1006 01:03:34,416 --> 01:03:36,208 And I don't understand who you are now, 1007 01:03:36,375 --> 01:03:38,541 because I can't understand what you do 1008 01:03:38,708 --> 01:03:40,708 in front of the camera for anything. 1009 01:03:40,875 --> 01:03:45,000 You think your sex empowers you. It makes you weak. 1010 01:03:45,166 --> 01:03:47,041 That's what it does for everyone. 1011 01:03:47,958 --> 01:03:53,083 It's a horrible, horrible Achilles heel, to feel anything for sex. 1012 01:03:54,166 --> 01:03:57,583 I am so, so tormented by the thought 1013 01:03:57,750 --> 01:04:01,750 that my perversion doesn't make me closer to God. 1014 01:04:01,916 --> 01:04:06,458 Maybe it doesn't make me evil, but maybe it makes me nothing. 1015 01:04:08,916 --> 01:04:12,375 The thing that occupies my mind, 1016 01:04:12,541 --> 01:04:16,416 my consciousness, my whole being... 1017 01:04:17,708 --> 01:04:20,083 ...doesn't have any worth at all. 1018 01:04:32,041 --> 01:04:33,000 I lied. 1019 01:04:33,791 --> 01:04:34,666 What? 1020 01:04:35,875 --> 01:04:36,750 I lied. 1021 01:04:37,750 --> 01:04:39,083 What are you talking about? 1022 01:04:39,250 --> 01:04:40,875 I wasn't molested or anything. 1023 01:04:41,416 --> 01:04:44,166 -I don't know my aunt. -Why are you saying that? 1024 01:04:45,041 --> 01:04:47,333 -Jesus, fuck, dude. -Why would you lie 1025 01:04:47,500 --> 01:04:49,291 -about that? -Because I have don't have a fucking reason. 1026 01:04:51,625 --> 01:04:55,708 My dad was a good person. My mom isa good person. 1027 01:04:57,000 --> 01:05:01,583 I've been loved every moment of my goddamn life. 1028 01:05:02,916 --> 01:05:04,958 But I, I, I know it, man. 1029 01:05:06,666 --> 01:05:10,791 I was born the way I am. I, I have that, that peace. 1030 01:05:12,000 --> 01:05:16,125 Like, I'm a massive fuckface, Hank, who's been left by the people I loved, 1031 01:05:16,291 --> 01:05:18,416 the person that I loved. 1032 01:05:18,583 --> 01:05:21,583 But in my heart, I know that that shit is not my fault, 1033 01:05:21,750 --> 01:05:23,958 because if I could have helped it, I would have. 1034 01:05:29,875 --> 01:05:30,791 "Diablo"? 1035 01:05:32,125 --> 01:05:33,125 Yeah, "Diablo." 1036 01:05:34,958 --> 01:05:36,083 Who called you that? 1037 01:05:37,208 --> 01:05:39,083 Raph. Raphael. 1038 01:05:40,458 --> 01:05:41,333 Who's that? 1039 01:05:42,916 --> 01:05:43,916 My everything. 1040 01:05:46,958 --> 01:05:49,958 -Where is he? -Mm, fuck if I know. [scoffs] 1041 01:05:50,583 --> 01:05:53,625 Probably in a K-hole with a bunch of twinks in WeHo. 1042 01:05:56,041 --> 01:05:59,333 -Do you wish you were there too? -I wish I was. [chuckles] 1043 01:06:00,958 --> 01:06:02,333 I really wish I was. 1044 01:06:05,958 --> 01:06:08,708 -How long were you together? -Three years. 1045 01:06:09,375 --> 01:06:14,166 Uh, I met him my first week here at a fucking warehouse party in downtown. [chuckles] 1046 01:06:15,583 --> 01:06:16,541 Wow. 1047 01:06:18,833 --> 01:06:20,291 But he found me out. 1048 01:06:21,250 --> 01:06:22,583 He really fucking did. 1049 01:06:26,041 --> 01:06:29,666 He discovered what I was afraid I always was. 1050 01:06:30,583 --> 01:06:32,458 Just loving him... 1051 01:06:34,041 --> 01:06:37,250 ...the only way I knew how, just taught me that to my core, 1052 01:06:37,416 --> 01:06:42,875 I am a lazy, fucking, selfish, rotted person 1053 01:06:43,041 --> 01:06:44,541 that just never cares enough. 1054 01:06:45,666 --> 01:06:47,250 When we broke up, he said... 1055 01:06:49,750 --> 01:06:52,541 [sniffles] he said those were the best and the worst 1056 01:06:52,708 --> 01:06:54,500 three years of his life. [chuckles] 1057 01:06:58,125 --> 01:06:59,958 [chuckles] 1058 01:07:03,458 --> 01:07:06,000 But you miss him, don't you? 1059 01:07:12,208 --> 01:07:15,375 My sex means something to me. 1060 01:07:16,000 --> 01:07:18,791 It's not worthless. It's how I am. 1061 01:07:18,958 --> 01:07:21,541 You know, I can show my faggots who I am, 1062 01:07:21,708 --> 01:07:23,333 and they fucking love me. 1063 01:07:24,416 --> 01:07:27,166 But you're lonely, Aaron. 1064 01:07:27,333 --> 01:07:29,791 Yes, you're-- Don't pretend you're not. 1065 01:07:33,208 --> 01:07:34,625 You are lonely. 1066 01:07:41,541 --> 01:07:45,250 Just thinking and talking about Raph is my favorite thing in the world. 1067 01:07:45,416 --> 01:07:48,875 [breathes deeply] Just watching a movie with him. 1068 01:07:50,875 --> 01:07:52,458 That's the thing I loved the most... 1069 01:07:55,458 --> 01:07:56,458 ...was having... 1070 01:08:06,250 --> 01:08:07,083 Aaron... 1071 01:08:08,041 --> 01:08:09,416 ...I wanna give you something. 1072 01:08:10,291 --> 01:08:11,208 Really. 1073 01:08:12,375 --> 01:08:13,666 Will you come with me? 1074 01:08:19,208 --> 01:08:21,833 -[static buzzing] -[ambient music] 1075 01:08:27,541 --> 01:08:28,541 [crackles] 1076 01:08:46,250 --> 01:08:47,541 [vape crackling] 1077 01:09:14,083 --> 01:09:16,250 [exhales] I could always feel his breath. 1078 01:09:21,041 --> 01:09:22,708 [music continues] 1079 01:09:56,375 --> 01:09:57,833 He would go down on me. 1080 01:10:18,875 --> 01:10:20,708 [sucking] 1081 01:10:26,375 --> 01:10:27,666 He would go slower. 1082 01:10:31,250 --> 01:10:32,291 [Alex moans] 1083 01:10:42,833 --> 01:10:44,000 [exhales] 1084 01:10:44,166 --> 01:10:45,750 [breathes heavily] 1085 01:10:45,916 --> 01:10:46,875 Yeah. 1086 01:10:47,666 --> 01:10:49,708 He would always go down on me from behind. 1087 01:11:01,333 --> 01:11:03,375 [music continues] 1088 01:11:05,625 --> 01:11:06,583 [gasps] 1089 01:11:11,708 --> 01:11:13,041 [moaning] 1090 01:11:15,291 --> 01:11:18,416 Thank you. Thank you. [breathing heavily] 1091 01:11:20,666 --> 01:11:22,000 [Hank] Of course, Aaron. 1092 01:11:23,750 --> 01:11:27,083 Call me Alex, please. [breathing heavily] 1093 01:11:27,250 --> 01:11:28,416 [Hank] Yeah. 1094 01:11:29,875 --> 01:11:30,875 [Alex moans] 1095 01:11:33,916 --> 01:11:35,958 Put it in me, Raph. Please. 1096 01:11:39,333 --> 01:11:41,750 [pants] Please. Please, please, please. 1097 01:11:42,291 --> 01:11:44,416 Please put it in me. Please. 1098 01:11:45,291 --> 01:11:46,041 Please. 1099 01:11:46,208 --> 01:11:47,625 [breathing heavily] 1100 01:11:49,166 --> 01:11:51,166 -[Hank grunting] Okay. -[breathing heavily] 1101 01:11:51,333 --> 01:11:53,583 [Hank] Give me a minute. Give me a minute. 1102 01:11:54,916 --> 01:11:57,166 [Alex moaning] Please, please put it in. 1103 01:11:57,875 --> 01:12:00,666 -[Hank] Oh, God, I'm trying. I'm trying. -[muffled] Please. 1104 01:12:03,250 --> 01:12:04,125 [Hank] Sorry. 1105 01:12:04,916 --> 01:12:05,875 I can't. 1106 01:12:06,833 --> 01:12:08,416 [Alex moans] 1107 01:12:10,833 --> 01:12:13,000 -[moans] -[pants] 1108 01:12:14,500 --> 01:12:17,375 I'm sorry... Alex. 1109 01:12:17,541 --> 01:12:19,583 [Hank breathing heavily] 1110 01:12:26,250 --> 01:12:27,166 Alex. 1111 01:12:29,416 --> 01:12:30,791 [sighs] Aaron. 1112 01:12:40,291 --> 01:12:41,250 I'm sorry. 1113 01:12:42,541 --> 01:12:43,458 Me too. 1114 01:12:44,625 --> 01:12:47,208 [scoffs] I don't know what I was expecting. 1115 01:12:50,041 --> 01:12:52,083 [Hank breathing heavily] 1116 01:12:56,291 --> 01:12:57,500 [inhales] 1117 01:12:59,583 --> 01:13:00,666 [Hank] Is this okay? 1118 01:13:01,833 --> 01:13:03,833 -Yeah. -[Hank breathing heavily] 1119 01:13:09,250 --> 01:13:10,958 -[inhaling] -[vape crackles] 1120 01:13:11,791 --> 01:13:12,916 [Hank sighs] 1121 01:13:39,750 --> 01:13:41,458 [Alex breathing heavily] 1122 01:13:51,041 --> 01:13:52,708 [light flapping] 1123 01:13:58,583 --> 01:14:00,500 [gasping] 1124 01:14:20,250 --> 01:14:21,666 You look so innocent. 1125 01:14:26,333 --> 01:14:27,583 I know you're not. 1126 01:14:30,833 --> 01:14:32,291 But you really look it. 1127 01:14:34,583 --> 01:14:35,708 You really do. 1128 01:14:44,333 --> 01:14:45,500 [Hank exhales] 1129 01:14:55,833 --> 01:14:57,791 [Hank] He got away from me. 1130 01:15:00,750 --> 01:15:02,708 -What? -James. 1131 01:15:04,875 --> 01:15:06,750 I was gonna do it. 1132 01:15:08,708 --> 01:15:11,083 But he got away from me. 1133 01:15:14,000 --> 01:15:15,375 You didn't let him go? 1134 01:15:27,416 --> 01:15:29,791 -[vape crackling] -[suspenseful music] 1135 01:15:43,166 --> 01:15:45,458 -[birds chirping] -[distant chatter] 1136 01:15:51,083 --> 01:15:52,166 [exhales] 1137 01:16:02,375 --> 01:16:03,375 [music fades] 1138 01:16:03,958 --> 01:16:05,458 [traffic noise] 1139 01:16:05,625 --> 01:16:06,500 [door closes] 1140 01:16:07,208 --> 01:16:09,416 I made some coffee. Do you want some? 1141 01:16:10,708 --> 01:16:13,583 -There's no sugar-- -I don't like coffee, but thanks. 1142 01:16:21,541 --> 01:16:24,625 -[sighs] -Why, why are you smiling? 1143 01:16:24,791 --> 01:16:28,291 -I have a hangover. [laughs] -[bus door hisses] 1144 01:16:30,916 --> 01:16:32,458 I haven't had one in years. 1145 01:16:33,666 --> 01:16:34,583 [exhales] 1146 01:16:36,125 --> 01:16:39,583 Uh, I gotta get going in a few minutes. 1147 01:16:40,375 --> 01:16:43,500 -You're not staying? -No, no, I can't. 1148 01:16:43,666 --> 01:16:46,375 I only got permission to be here for a couple of days. 1149 01:16:47,166 --> 01:16:48,541 Gotta return the car. 1150 01:16:49,916 --> 01:16:50,958 Yeah. 1151 01:16:55,833 --> 01:16:58,125 Was this a bad idea, Aaron? 1152 01:17:05,625 --> 01:17:06,750 Do you still love me? 1153 01:17:17,666 --> 01:17:20,208 Why the camera? The videos, all that shit? 1154 01:17:22,375 --> 01:17:27,333 My priest said something to me once that I didn't forget, and I instantly thought of you. 1155 01:17:29,166 --> 01:17:33,833 He said, "When you leave, all you take is your memories." 1156 01:17:34,000 --> 01:17:35,000 And I thought... 1157 01:17:37,083 --> 01:17:40,875 ..."I wanna take mine of you with me." 1158 01:17:44,041 --> 01:17:47,208 [clicks tongue] I think I have everything I managed to pack. 1159 01:17:47,375 --> 01:17:50,500 I wanna get back for Sunday service. I can't miss that. 1160 01:17:50,666 --> 01:17:53,083 -Going back to Bedford? -Ha-ha. 1161 01:17:54,250 --> 01:17:55,541 Where else would I go? 1162 01:17:56,791 --> 01:17:57,916 What are you gonna do there? 1163 01:17:59,208 --> 01:18:00,166 I'm not sure. 1164 01:18:01,125 --> 01:18:03,250 Probably just keep working at the Shop 'N Save. 1165 01:18:05,500 --> 01:18:06,458 Do you need help packing? 1166 01:18:07,041 --> 01:18:09,583 No, no, I just finished inside. 1167 01:18:11,041 --> 01:18:12,416 I guess you should get going, then. 1168 01:18:14,375 --> 01:18:15,875 Yeah. I guess I should. 1169 01:18:17,041 --> 01:18:19,500 Before I forget, I have one more thing I wanna give you. 1170 01:18:19,666 --> 01:18:22,875 -Is it more money? -[chuckling] No, no, it's not more money. 1171 01:18:23,041 --> 01:18:23,916 [chuckles] 1172 01:18:25,333 --> 01:18:26,541 It's just a little thing. 1173 01:18:43,708 --> 01:18:46,333 -Where did you get this? -You gave it to me. 1174 01:18:52,916 --> 01:18:54,041 Wait, what's the other one? 1175 01:18:55,375 --> 01:18:56,375 Just me. 1176 01:19:09,750 --> 01:19:13,083 I left the envelope in the bedroom with the full amount. 1177 01:19:14,416 --> 01:19:17,208 I have the place till 7:00, so you can hang out a while, 1178 01:19:17,375 --> 01:19:19,333 if you want to, do whatever it is you wanna do. 1179 01:19:28,500 --> 01:19:29,375 [door opens] 1180 01:19:41,916 --> 01:19:43,333 -[car door opens] -[door chiming] 1181 01:19:45,041 --> 01:19:45,916 [car door closes] 1182 01:19:47,458 --> 01:19:48,791 [car engine whirring] 1183 01:19:50,041 --> 01:19:51,500 [car drives away] 1184 01:19:51,666 --> 01:19:53,708 [ambient music] 1185 01:19:58,000 --> 01:19:59,291 [vape crackling] 1186 01:20:33,750 --> 01:20:35,250 [light creaking] 1187 01:21:07,625 --> 01:21:09,291 [bird chirping in distance] 1188 01:21:48,291 --> 01:21:49,791 [water gushing] 1189 01:22:47,083 --> 01:22:48,791 [humming softly] 1190 01:23:08,708 --> 01:23:13,416 ♪ When love is young ♪ 1191 01:23:13,583 --> 01:23:17,250 ♪ As fresh as dew ♪ 1192 01:23:19,583 --> 01:23:21,291 [singing indistinctly] 1193 01:23:25,041 --> 01:23:26,583 [humming] 1194 01:23:36,083 --> 01:23:40,000 -[continues singing] ♪ When love is young ♪ -[water running] 1195 01:23:40,583 --> 01:23:44,041 ♪ As fresh as dew ♪ 1196 01:23:45,166 --> 01:23:48,458 ♪ A song is sung ♪ 1197 01:23:49,416 --> 01:23:52,958 ♪ So warm and new ♪ 1198 01:23:54,333 --> 01:23:57,916 ♪ It winds its way ♪ 1199 01:23:58,958 --> 01:24:03,041 ♪ Bursts into blue ♪ 1200 01:24:04,375 --> 01:24:07,958 ♪ An April day ♪ 1201 01:24:08,916 --> 01:24:13,125 ♪ Turned into June ♪ 1202 01:24:15,000 --> 01:24:17,625 ♪ Plays on my mind ♪ 1203 01:24:58,375 --> 01:24:59,833 [sound of water fades]