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(Emily exhales)

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(galloping)

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(fabric scraping on rock)

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(Emily sighs)

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(carabiner clipping)

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(Emily pulling body up against rock)

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(Emily exhales)

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(fabric scraping on rock)

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(light wind and low rumble)

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(pensive acoustic guitar music)

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Open that up.

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Come on, get it open.

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I totally knew it.

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I totally knew it.
Yeah.

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What is it?

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It's a rope.

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Yay!

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Get rid of that box.

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What other 12-year-old

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would love a rope for Christmas?

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Yeah, yeah.

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Come on, Em.

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Yeah! Wohooo!

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(crowd cheering)

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Yeah!

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Emily Harrington.

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Yeah!

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Your 2000 National Champion!

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(crowd applauding)

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Congratulations.

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Emily?
Emily?

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Emily, where are we?

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I don't know.

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I don't know?

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We're at...

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El Capitan.

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(gentle spirited music)

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From Colorado, Emily Harrington.

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She's certainly a force
to be reckoned with.

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Emily made it look easy.

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(crowd cheering and applauding)

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Five-time national champion.

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(camera shutter clicks)

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But Emily is certainly

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one of the most well-rounded
American female climbers.

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Part of your brain knows

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that this is slightly illogical.

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It is dangerous,

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but life's boring if you don't have

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that little element of spice, right?

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(music swelling)

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We should try to get a
little bit more comfortable

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with being afraid.

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I love exploring my perceived limit

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and trying to push past it.

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(music creshendo and ending)

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(writing and burning sound effect)

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(fire crackle and kisses)

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[Emily] Are you biting my nose?

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(rope rubbing into pack)

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(creaking stairs)

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(door clunking)

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(sparking lighter)

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We got fire.

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I think this is my pee bottle.

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(cautious sniffing)

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Nope, just a normal water bottle.

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(roaring laughter)

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A little flare in the van.

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(highway driving and
background radio voice)

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I'm really proud of my career so far,

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but if you wanna call
yourself a successful

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all around climber, you've
gotta be up on El Cap.

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There it is in all its glory.

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El Capitan.

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It's always surprising how big it is.

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I never think, "oh, like,
it doesn't look that bad"

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or "it doesn't look that big.

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It's always so fucking big.

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No one talks about how scary it is.

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I wish I could not feel afraid anymore.

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(gentle spirited music)

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El Capitan is a 3,200-foot granite face.

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Doesn't get much bigger,

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doesn't get much more difficult,

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doesn't get much more
high quality than El Cap.

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It's just the most impressive,

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most beautiful stone in the world.

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And it's so hard to free climb.

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When you look at El Cap,
it looks impossible.

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It looks smooth and you can't imagine

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what there would be to climb it.

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Always attracted people that are curious

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to push themselves to the highest level.

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For decades,

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climbers have been testing
themselves up there.

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Climbing El Capitan is
the most badass thing

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that you can do as a human.

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(cheering and applause)

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With the exception of Lynn Hill

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and a few other women, it's
very much like a boys club.

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Come on.

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Go fast!

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When I started climbing,

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the first person I learned
about was Lynn Hill.

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She was the first to free climb

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a route on El Capitan called The Nose.

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And then the following year,

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she went back and free
climbed it in a day,

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which was the most groundbreaking,
astonishing achievement.

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I didn't feel like I needed
to prove anything after that

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'cause I was at the age
where I wanted to have a kid,

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I wanted to have a family.

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And having the freedom
to just go rock climbing

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was not gonna happen forever.

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At a certain point,

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you have to be happy
with what you've done.

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(car driving on gravel)

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What's your ring?

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You wanna hear my alarm?

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Yeah.

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Oh.
This is mine.

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What's yours?

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Mine's more of the other
end of the spectrum.

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I was in Yosemite looking for a project,

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some sort of inspiration.

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I was working on my personal quest

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to free solo cap on the Freerider,

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and she was willing to go up the wall

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to support me for a day of climbing.

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I got really excited

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because climbing with Alex on El Cap

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is like playing basketball
with Michael Jordan.

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It's like you're with
the best of the best.

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First time I met Emily was
at a cliff called Jailhouse.

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She was already a very established,
very successful climber.

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She was a lot better than me.

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And the thing that
really made an impression

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was that she was all kind of done up

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and she had earrings and things.

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And I was like,

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"Man, how can someone climb
that hard with earrings?"

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She was just so well put
together and going to college

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and doing the hardest thing at the cliff.

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You know, everything about
it was just different

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than when I was living, I was like,

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"Whoa, that's a different level."

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You could tell he just didn't really care

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about anything but climbing.

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And he is very famous for free soloing,

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which is rock climbing without a rope.

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No person does what he does at his level.

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Hey, I haven't done this stuff in a while.

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I was incredibly inspired
by the way he moved.

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He was so perfect.

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He seemed so at ease, and
I've always envied that.

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With the gri-gri on,

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you can climb up to the spire

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and, like, re-flake the rope and manage.

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I'm just trying to nurture you

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into a simul-climbing machine.

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Good work.
Sick.

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Thank you.

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Yeah, good work.

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Good work.

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There's no way...
That was good.

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There's no way I would've
done any of that without you.

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Isn't that pretty rad?

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That was pretty rad.

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That was a life experience.

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Yeah.

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I think you could do that in a day.

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You do?

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Yeah.

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I don't think it'd be that bad
for you 'cause you just have

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the base fitness that you need, you know?

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Yeah.

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It'd definitely be a dream.

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Yeah, It'd be sick.

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Gotta start somewhere.

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Yeah.

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I mean, you know?

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That's when I first thought

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of trying to free climb El
Cap in less than 24 hours.

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Climbing it in a day is the
epitome of hard rock climbing.

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And there's a desire to prove myself,

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like, I do deserve to be here.

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I do deserve to be climbing
with all of these people

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that I've looked up to and
idolized for a long time.

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That's, you know-
That was pretty good.

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All right.

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Haggard too, huh?

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It's the sense of belonging that I want.

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(mysterious music creshendo)

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(light wind and birds chirping)

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I see some big wet streaks,

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but I also see dry rock,

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so it's kinda a mixed bag up there.

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It is not going to change a single thing.

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Most people free climb El
Cap over five days or so.

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It's so much harder to
free climb El Cap in a day.

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The difference between
doing a multi-day ascent

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and doing one day ascent is huge.

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To climb that thing in
a day, it's outrageous.

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It's an audacious undertaking.

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And I'm left wondering
whether she can pull it off.

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Most people who free climb El Cap in a day

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have done it via the Freerider

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because it's the easiest route.

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I wanted to do a more challenging route,

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and that's why I chose Golden Gate.

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There are very few climbers

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who have free climbed any
route on El Cap in a day

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other than the Freerider.

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Golden Gate is quite a bit harder.

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Golden Gate has only been
free climbed in a day

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by three people.

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Yeah, Brad.

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Three of the best El Cap
climbers in the world.

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These guys are heroes of mine,

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and I wanna be a part of that group.

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Golden Gate has 34 pitches.

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My goal is to climb from
the beginning of each pitch

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to the end without falling.

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That will be a free ascent.

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If I fall, I have to go back

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to the beginning of that
pitch and try again.

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And I need to do this in under 24 hours.

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(gentle guitar strum)

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That's gonna be really hard for her.

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I give her a 20% chance
of sending, honestly.

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She just hasn't paid her
dues like Honnold has.

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(rope coiling)

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It is hard to put yourself out there

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and say you're gonna try to do

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the hardest thing you've ever done.

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Just because I'm trying to protect myself

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from people finding out that I'm afraid

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or that I fail or that I'm
just like everyone else.

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I mean, I don't wanna
say it's mansplaining,

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but primarily there's men that
have accomplished this goal,

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and so it's like I get a lot of advice.

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And it's a lot of like,

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"Oh, you need to be committed to this

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and you need to go here
for this amount of time

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and you need to do it this way

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and you should be doing this
and you should be doing that."

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I've been climbing for 22 years.

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Like, I know how to approach a goal.

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I don't need someone to
tell me how to do it.

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But obviously that's a hard...

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That's a hard thing to
convince yourself of as well.

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It's hard for me to convince myself

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that I know what I'm doing.

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Do you think I need more than one three?

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I wouldn't even take the three.

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Oh my god.

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Maybe I don't need this and two purples.

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I always had it in my mind

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ever since he asked me to support him

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that he would probably be willing

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to support me on Golden Gate.

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I'd like to think I'm
maybe the best supporter

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in the world for El Cap

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just because I know
the routes really well,

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I've worked on them a long time.

269
00:13:04,200 --> 00:13:05,220
I don't think anyone has climbed

270
00:13:05,220 --> 00:13:07,590
any of those parts of the wall faster.

271
00:13:07,590 --> 00:13:09,540
Are you climbing The
Monster with just one six?

272
00:13:09,540 --> 00:13:11,100
Yeah.
Awesome.

273
00:13:11,100 --> 00:13:12,480
And I wanted to help Emily

274
00:13:12,480 --> 00:13:14,460
achieve this big dream of hers.

275
00:13:14,460 --> 00:13:17,010
Alex is very comfortable, very confident,

276
00:13:17,010 --> 00:13:18,570
but I also trust him.

277
00:13:18,570 --> 00:13:21,870
Having someone up there who
you can tell is right at home

278
00:13:21,870 --> 00:13:24,990
makes me feel that much more comfortable.

279
00:13:24,990 --> 00:13:26,400
I'll give you that.

280
00:13:26,400 --> 00:13:28,268
Go up and try your best and-

281
00:13:28,268 --> 00:13:29,101
That's all I'm doing.

282
00:13:29,101 --> 00:13:30,247
I'm just gonna go try.

283
00:13:30,247 --> 00:13:31,920
Move by move, you just do your best

284
00:13:31,920 --> 00:13:32,820
and see how it plays out.

285
00:13:32,820 --> 00:13:34,200
I'm allowed to fall?

286
00:13:34,200 --> 00:13:35,520
Yeah, I mean, that's the beautiful thing.

287
00:13:35,520 --> 00:13:36,518
You have a rope.

288
00:13:36,518 --> 00:13:38,400
It's like, who gives a shit?

289
00:13:38,400 --> 00:13:40,374
I'm really happy that I have a rope.

290
00:13:42,158 --> 00:13:46,391
(mysterious drone music)

291
00:14:10,146 --> 00:14:11,091
Take your time.

292
00:14:11,091 --> 00:14:11,924
Enjoy.

293
00:14:14,571 --> 00:14:16,879
Remember, climbing the mountain is fun.

294
00:14:21,779 --> 00:14:26,703
(gentle pensive music continues)

295
00:14:33,330 --> 00:14:34,680
The way that I climb the bottom

296
00:14:34,680 --> 00:14:36,660
2,000 feet of the route with Alex

297
00:14:36,660 --> 00:14:39,000
is something called simul-climbing.

298
00:14:39,000 --> 00:14:42,330
So I'm leading, placing
gear, and Alex is following,

299
00:14:42,330 --> 00:14:44,400
climbing at the same time as me.

300
00:14:44,400 --> 00:14:47,220
So we're moving up the wall together.

301
00:14:47,220 --> 00:14:50,730
And it enables you to move a lot faster

302
00:14:50,730 --> 00:14:52,620
but it cuts some corners

303
00:14:52,620 --> 00:14:54,750
because you're placing
less safety equipment

304
00:14:54,750 --> 00:14:56,700
between yourself and your partner.

305
00:14:56,700 --> 00:14:58,680
So if either of us falls,

306
00:14:58,680 --> 00:15:01,830
we can get severely
injured or we could die.

307
00:15:01,830 --> 00:15:04,863
But this is really the only
way to climb it in a day.

308
00:15:06,982 --> 00:15:08,793
I was kind of proud of myself, honestly.

309
00:15:08,793 --> 00:15:09,793
Yeah, that was good.
Thank you.

310
00:15:09,793 --> 00:15:10,950
I just hand over, handed the rope.

311
00:15:10,950 --> 00:15:12,457
I was like, "Fuck that."

312
00:15:32,730 --> 00:15:35,583
That was the easiest that
The Monster has ever felt,

313
00:15:36,960 --> 00:15:38,700
but it's still really hard.

314
00:15:38,700 --> 00:15:41,010
Now it's way faster than ever before.

315
00:15:41,010 --> 00:15:41,843
Oh, yeah?

316
00:15:41,843 --> 00:15:43,139
Yeah, like 45 minutes.

317
00:15:43,139 --> 00:15:43,972
Like 50.

318
00:15:46,530 --> 00:15:47,910
You climbed 2,000 feet already.

319
00:15:47,910 --> 00:15:49,020
You might as well climb one more pitch.

320
00:15:49,020 --> 00:15:50,280
I'm gonna try.

321
00:15:50,280 --> 00:15:51,390
I don't know if I can though.

322
00:15:51,390 --> 00:15:52,674
Yeah, of course.

323
00:15:52,674 --> 00:15:54,113
You can just get in there and engage.

324
00:15:57,330 --> 00:15:59,586
All right, you need someone
to, like, punch in the nuts.

325
00:15:59,586 --> 00:16:00,480
Like, ugh.
I don't have nuts.

326
00:16:00,480 --> 00:16:01,480
Ovaries.

327
00:16:09,172 --> 00:16:11,005
Good job, Em.

328
00:16:13,298 --> 00:16:14,131
You are doing great.

329
00:16:14,131 --> 00:16:15,450
Thank you, I really appreciate it.

330
00:16:15,450 --> 00:16:17,608
I'm really digging deep here.
I mean, this is...

331
00:16:17,608 --> 00:16:18,441
This is...

332
00:16:18,441 --> 00:16:19,650
This is my first effort.

333
00:16:19,650 --> 00:16:20,670
Yeah.

334
00:16:20,670 --> 00:16:23,820
Do you think it's worth giving
it one to the death effort?

335
00:16:23,820 --> 00:16:25,530
I mean, I've been trying
to give it to the death.

336
00:16:25,530 --> 00:16:27,120
Yeah, well, is that to the death?

337
00:16:27,120 --> 00:16:29,280
It seems a little like worky.

338
00:16:29,280 --> 00:16:32,240
If we decide to go down,
let's fully debrief.

339
00:16:32,240 --> 00:16:33,660
Like, what are you gonna do differently?

340
00:16:33,660 --> 00:16:34,530
What are you gonna do better?

341
00:16:34,530 --> 00:16:36,253
Where can you save energy?

342
00:16:36,253 --> 00:16:37,740
Because, I mean, obviously,

343
00:16:37,740 --> 00:16:39,780
there's a ton of room
for improvement today.

344
00:16:39,780 --> 00:16:41,838
A lot of room for improvement.

345
00:16:42,813 --> 00:16:46,094
(thunder, wind, and rain showers)

346
00:16:46,094 --> 00:16:50,697
Yeah, that's crazy.

347
00:16:50,697 --> 00:16:53,700
It just went from perfectly okay.

348
00:16:53,700 --> 00:16:55,374
To perfectly not okay.

349
00:16:55,374 --> 00:16:56,852
(water rushing)

350
00:16:56,852 --> 00:16:57,685
Oh.

351
00:16:57,685 --> 00:16:59,960
Oh my god, it hurts so bad.

352
00:16:59,960 --> 00:17:02,185
(loud hail hitting rock)

353
00:17:05,160 --> 00:17:06,600
Hi, give me a hug.

354
00:17:06,600 --> 00:17:08,220
I needed a hug from you all day.

355
00:17:08,220 --> 00:17:09,810
Thank you.

356
00:17:09,810 --> 00:17:12,660
These bruises are just all from one pitch.

357
00:17:12,660 --> 00:17:16,230
I was secretly happy
that we got rained off

358
00:17:16,230 --> 00:17:18,723
because everything just felt so hard.

359
00:17:22,500 --> 00:17:25,650
I don't really foresee me
trying again this spring.

360
00:17:25,650 --> 00:17:28,525
I'm kind of worked over from the season.

361
00:17:28,525 --> 00:17:30,391
(somber music)

362
00:17:30,391 --> 00:17:32,550
I didn't feel ready

363
00:17:32,550 --> 00:17:35,225
and I haven't put in the work
in order to be successful.

364
00:17:39,216 --> 00:17:42,182
(somber music concludes)

365
00:17:44,066 --> 00:17:47,774
(light wind)

366
00:17:47,774 --> 00:17:50,553
(door cracks open)

367
00:17:50,553 --> 00:17:51,386
Oh.

368
00:17:51,386 --> 00:17:53,313
Yeah, that was her first wetsuit.

369
00:17:55,020 --> 00:17:57,660
Look at how tiny that little thing is.

370
00:17:57,660 --> 00:17:58,493
Here you go.

371
00:17:58,493 --> 00:17:59,703
Here's a bunch of trophies.

372
00:18:01,830 --> 00:18:04,360
Climbing stuff, first place

373
00:18:06,750 --> 00:18:09,000
Junior nationals.

374
00:18:09,000 --> 00:18:10,803
Oh, when she was 12 years old.

375
00:18:12,090 --> 00:18:13,840
I don't remember what that one was.

376
00:18:15,939 --> 00:18:17,039
Where's that one from?

377
00:18:18,480 --> 00:18:19,560
Serre Chevalier.

378
00:18:19,560 --> 00:18:22,203
Oh, yeah, this is the World Cup she won.

379
00:18:24,990 --> 00:18:26,820
Now, there's the little Mohawk.

380
00:18:26,820 --> 00:18:28,753
Look at that Mohawk.

381
00:18:29,836 --> 00:18:32,100
(bright happy music)

382
00:18:32,100 --> 00:18:35,673
I would say I had like
a very normal childhood.

383
00:18:36,960 --> 00:18:40,140
My dad was really into any activity

384
00:18:40,140 --> 00:18:42,090
that was in the mountains.

385
00:18:42,090 --> 00:18:42,923
Ski.

386
00:18:46,620 --> 00:18:47,600
Turns.

387
00:18:47,600 --> 00:18:50,220
Growing up, I had this idea

388
00:18:50,220 --> 00:18:53,811
that girls were inferior in some way.

389
00:18:53,811 --> 00:18:55,229
(crowd cheering)

390
00:18:55,229 --> 00:18:58,443
I desperately wanted to prove
that I wasn't like that.

391
00:19:01,890 --> 00:19:04,530
I grew up with my two
cousins who were boys,

392
00:19:04,530 --> 00:19:06,830
and we were super
competitive with each other.

393
00:19:08,010 --> 00:19:10,383
All I wanted to do was
be better than them.

394
00:19:11,550 --> 00:19:14,043
I wanted to do well in everything,

395
00:19:15,180 --> 00:19:16,443
and I tried really hard.

396
00:19:20,550 --> 00:19:25,488
When I found climbing,
this switch went off.

397
00:19:25,488 --> 00:19:28,013
It was like instantly
that's what I wanted to do.

398
00:19:29,005 --> 00:19:31,200
(crowd cheering)

399
00:19:31,200 --> 00:19:34,740
The feeling of lightness and strength

400
00:19:34,740 --> 00:19:39,740
and invincibility was pretty profound.

401
00:19:39,789 --> 00:19:42,750
(crowd applause)

402
00:19:42,750 --> 00:19:46,150
I liked the feeling of success.

403
00:19:46,150 --> 00:19:48,058
(large crowd cheering)

404
00:19:48,960 --> 00:19:52,626
And if I didn't measure up to that,

405
00:19:52,626 --> 00:19:54,454
(crowd groans)

406
00:19:54,454 --> 00:19:57,093
I was so upset and disappointed.

407
00:20:00,450 --> 00:20:04,740
Competitions, being the best, winning.

408
00:20:04,740 --> 00:20:08,332
To me, that was what climbing was.

409
00:20:08,332 --> 00:20:11,356
(somber music)

410
00:20:11,356 --> 00:20:14,643
I definitely started putting
more pressure on myself.

411
00:20:15,900 --> 00:20:19,713
My self worth was so tied
to my success in climbing,

412
00:20:20,580 --> 00:20:25,323
and then my success in
climbing was tied to my weight.

413
00:20:26,340 --> 00:20:27,930
The less mass you have,

414
00:20:27,930 --> 00:20:30,483
the easier it's gonna
be to stay on the wall.

415
00:20:31,980 --> 00:20:34,203
It just became this cycle of punishment.

416
00:20:35,310 --> 00:20:38,553
I remember being completely
exhausted all the time.

417
00:20:39,720 --> 00:20:44,650
She was so thin and I
didn't know what to do.

418
00:20:44,650 --> 00:20:47,280
And I remember her hands were orange

419
00:20:47,280 --> 00:20:49,180
'cause all she was eating was carrots.

420
00:20:50,190 --> 00:20:52,500
And I wasn't sleeping well

421
00:20:52,500 --> 00:20:54,891
and I was dizzy sometimes.

422
00:20:54,891 --> 00:20:56,730
(crowd applause)

423
00:20:56,730 --> 00:20:58,473
And then climbing wasn't very fun.

424
00:21:01,350 --> 00:21:02,973
I feel like I barely laughed.

425
00:21:05,340 --> 00:21:06,540
I started realizing

426
00:21:06,540 --> 00:21:09,750
that this isn't how I
want to live my life.

427
00:21:09,750 --> 00:21:14,750
And is climbing going to be
a positive force in my life

428
00:21:15,030 --> 00:21:18,621
or is it always gonna
be this negative thing?

429
00:21:18,621 --> 00:21:21,187
(somber music)

430
00:21:21,187 --> 00:21:22,890
"I guess now is the best time

431
00:21:22,890 --> 00:21:25,080
and here is the best place to say this.

432
00:21:25,080 --> 00:21:26,940
I have an eating disorder.

433
00:21:26,940 --> 00:21:29,010
I can't admit it to anybody else,

434
00:21:29,010 --> 00:21:31,980
but at least I can admit it to myself.

435
00:21:31,980 --> 00:21:35,190
I feel out of control
when I indulge in food

436
00:21:35,190 --> 00:21:36,900
and my all or nothing behavior

437
00:21:36,900 --> 00:21:39,660
makes me depressed and unhappy.

438
00:21:39,660 --> 00:21:42,150
I don't ever give myself a break.

439
00:21:42,150 --> 00:21:44,730
I wanna be perfect all the time.

440
00:21:44,730 --> 00:21:47,820
I must run fast, climb strong,

441
00:21:47,820 --> 00:21:49,827
and eat as little as possible."

442
00:21:57,600 --> 00:21:59,880
Eventually, my body and my brain

443
00:21:59,880 --> 00:22:01,470
just couldn't really handle

444
00:22:01,470 --> 00:22:03,540
all the stress and the pressures.

445
00:22:03,540 --> 00:22:05,670
I realized that competing wasn't something

446
00:22:05,670 --> 00:22:07,786
that I really wanted to do anymore.

447
00:22:07,786 --> 00:22:10,020
(music creshendo)

448
00:22:10,020 --> 00:22:12,840
(wind and outdoor atmosphere)

449
00:22:12,840 --> 00:22:14,580
The pivotal thing that happened

450
00:22:14,580 --> 00:22:18,270
was I joined The North Face athlete team

451
00:22:18,270 --> 00:22:22,336
and got invited on an
expedition to Mount Everest.

452
00:22:22,336 --> 00:22:24,570
(hopeful music)

453
00:22:24,570 --> 00:22:28,403
I had no idea what it would
do for me and my life.

454
00:22:28,403 --> 00:22:31,110
(hopeful music continues)

455
00:22:31,110 --> 00:22:34,023
She was keen to try out mountain climbing.

456
00:22:35,073 --> 00:22:36,720
So it's like, "Oh, first
mountain climbing trip.

457
00:22:36,720 --> 00:22:37,797
How about Everest?"

458
00:22:39,120 --> 00:22:42,150
A little bit crazy, but why not?

459
00:22:42,150 --> 00:22:45,690
It's the tallest and most
precipitous mountain range

460
00:22:45,690 --> 00:22:46,770
on our planet.

461
00:22:46,770 --> 00:22:50,190
If you wanna test your
mettle, that's where you go.

462
00:22:50,190 --> 00:22:53,550
I remember just saying, "Emily, no.

463
00:22:53,550 --> 00:22:55,860
I do not want you going to Everest."

464
00:22:55,860 --> 00:22:57,600
Tim said to her, "You're not going."

465
00:22:57,600 --> 00:22:59,787
And she said, "Dad, I'm not 16."

466
00:23:00,930 --> 00:23:02,380
And that was the end of that.

467
00:23:04,650 --> 00:23:07,920
Emily at 25, barely coming out of the gym

468
00:23:07,920 --> 00:23:11,610
as a gym climber, and
then being on Everest?

469
00:23:11,610 --> 00:23:13,140
I mean, that's a huge leap to make.

470
00:23:13,140 --> 00:23:17,220
I was a little like dark in those days,

471
00:23:17,220 --> 00:23:21,630
so I might have just
totally written her off

472
00:23:21,630 --> 00:23:23,190
as a first impression, you know?

473
00:23:23,190 --> 00:23:25,515
Just kind of like, "Ugh, whatever."

474
00:23:25,515 --> 00:23:28,973
(wind blowing and tents flapping)

475
00:23:32,550 --> 00:23:34,350
It wasn't until I got there and realized

476
00:23:34,350 --> 00:23:37,020
that Conrad was like
completely hands off with Emily

477
00:23:37,020 --> 00:23:39,405
and he was like, "Well, you step in."

478
00:23:39,405 --> 00:23:40,710
And I'm like, "I don't even know her.

479
00:23:40,710 --> 00:23:41,880
I don't wanna do this.

480
00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:43,800
I'm not a mentor."

481
00:23:43,800 --> 00:23:44,910
I was not very helpful.

482
00:23:44,910 --> 00:23:49,910
I definitely am not an
incredibly sympathetic person.

483
00:23:50,410 --> 00:23:54,570
(menacing music and wind gushing)

484
00:23:54,570 --> 00:23:56,582
I'm ready to go up tomorrow.

485
00:23:56,582 --> 00:23:59,430
I'm a little nervous and scared

486
00:23:59,430 --> 00:24:00,837
to go through the icefall.

487
00:24:00,837 --> 00:24:02,700
(avalanche rumbling)

488
00:24:02,700 --> 00:24:03,700
That's an avalanche.

489
00:24:05,338 --> 00:24:06,988
It happens like five times a day.

490
00:24:08,160 --> 00:24:09,827
It's really unnerving.

491
00:24:09,827 --> 00:24:11,760
(carabiner clipping)

492
00:24:12,677 --> 00:24:13,860
(crampons clanging on ladder)

493
00:24:13,860 --> 00:24:17,743
I wanna get through the
icefall and then I'll be okay.

494
00:24:17,743 --> 00:24:21,176
(menacing music building)

495
00:24:25,020 --> 00:24:29,753
Conrad saw something in
her, and he was right.

496
00:24:29,753 --> 00:24:31,950
(wind rushing)

497
00:24:31,950 --> 00:24:34,883
She just didn't give in.

498
00:24:34,883 --> 00:24:38,855
(wind blowing and clothing flapping)

499
00:24:38,855 --> 00:24:40,272
Emily, what's up?

500
00:24:41,242 --> 00:24:42,742
Nice job, Em.

501
00:24:42,742 --> 00:24:45,090
(positive and hopeful music)

502
00:24:45,090 --> 00:24:47,730
I came to care immensely for Emily

503
00:24:47,730 --> 00:24:49,653
over the time of that trip.

504
00:24:50,940 --> 00:24:52,260
We talked about my relationship,

505
00:24:52,260 --> 00:24:53,340
we talked about my climbing,

506
00:24:53,340 --> 00:24:54,480
we talked about her kids

507
00:24:54,480 --> 00:24:58,140
and how much she missed
her kids and just life.

508
00:24:58,140 --> 00:24:59,190
And it gave me a peek

509
00:24:59,190 --> 00:25:01,563
into what my life could
be like in the future.

510
00:25:07,744 --> 00:25:11,103
Hey, I'm at the South Col.

511
00:25:12,450 --> 00:25:15,700
Getting ready to go up for the summit.

512
00:25:15,700 --> 00:25:18,325
(light winds)

513
00:25:18,325 --> 00:25:20,790
(crampons crunching snow)

514
00:25:20,790 --> 00:25:23,103
Just stuck behind a line of people.

515
00:25:24,330 --> 00:25:26,190
She passed me and she was by herself.

516
00:25:26,190 --> 00:25:27,930
And I was like, "Emily,
why are you by yourself?

517
00:25:27,930 --> 00:25:30,390
Where's the Sherpa that
you were climbing with?"

518
00:25:30,390 --> 00:25:32,490
She's like, "Oh, god, I feel so bad.

519
00:25:32,490 --> 00:25:35,280
He was slow, so I left him behind.

520
00:25:35,280 --> 00:25:36,113
Was that really bad?

521
00:25:36,113 --> 00:25:38,396
Should I go back and get him?"

522
00:25:38,396 --> 00:25:40,629
(light wind)

523
00:25:44,460 --> 00:25:45,933
She crushed it.

524
00:25:47,760 --> 00:25:50,122
It was so out of her main sport

525
00:25:50,122 --> 00:25:54,753
that it just was all the
more of a huge achievement.

526
00:25:56,370 --> 00:25:58,320
As a climber, you're the sum total

527
00:25:58,320 --> 00:26:00,780
of all your ascents and expeditions,

528
00:26:00,780 --> 00:26:03,240
and each experience that you have

529
00:26:03,240 --> 00:26:05,847
builds into who you are as a climber.

530
00:26:05,847 --> 00:26:07,173
And Emily got that.

531
00:26:08,160 --> 00:26:11,130
I was a lot stronger than
I thought I would be.

532
00:26:11,130 --> 00:26:13,860
Climbing Mount Everest
has made me appreciate

533
00:26:13,860 --> 00:26:16,053
the style of climbing that I do.

534
00:26:16,950 --> 00:26:20,910
I do want to continue
to be in the mountains

535
00:26:20,910 --> 00:26:22,060
and to learn from them.

536
00:26:37,600 --> 00:26:40,050
Good morning.
Morning.

537
00:26:40,050 --> 00:26:41,100
Here's your coffee.

538
00:26:44,550 --> 00:26:46,680
I stayed up late last night
and get all these emails

539
00:26:46,680 --> 00:26:49,080
and, like, texts with
China and Nepal and Tibet

540
00:26:49,080 --> 00:26:50,730
and I'm like scared to talk on my phone

541
00:26:50,730 --> 00:26:52,130
and see what everyone wrote.

542
00:26:54,060 --> 00:26:55,260
Come back to bed.

543
00:26:55,260 --> 00:26:56,093
No.

544
00:26:58,408 --> 00:27:00,303
I have an interview in 15 minutes.

545
00:27:01,253 --> 00:27:03,210
Okay, I'll make breakfast.

546
00:27:03,210 --> 00:27:04,713
Hi, this is Adrian.

547
00:27:07,110 --> 00:27:08,970
Doing some final prep for a big trip.

548
00:27:08,970 --> 00:27:10,860
I'm leaving on early next week.

549
00:27:10,860 --> 00:27:14,760
You know the average Everest
expedition is two months long

550
00:27:14,760 --> 00:27:16,530
and I'm probably away,

551
00:27:16,530 --> 00:27:18,270
you know, seven to eight months a year,

552
00:27:18,270 --> 00:27:20,823
still traveling and
climbing around the world.

553
00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:25,620
Adrian, he is a high altitude climber

554
00:27:25,620 --> 00:27:26,730
and a mountain guide

555
00:27:26,730 --> 00:27:28,923
who spends a lot of time in the Himalaya.

556
00:27:29,820 --> 00:27:32,073
We met at Camp 2 on Mount Everest.

557
00:27:35,850 --> 00:27:38,760
I just remember this charismatic guy.

558
00:27:38,760 --> 00:27:41,763
He was super nice and fun to talk to.

559
00:27:42,870 --> 00:27:45,330
The sad fact of high altitude climbing

560
00:27:45,330 --> 00:27:48,210
is there's just not many women.

561
00:27:48,210 --> 00:27:51,960
I certainly noticed Emily as an anomaly.

562
00:27:51,960 --> 00:27:54,240
But 21,000 feet is really miserable,

563
00:27:54,240 --> 00:27:56,460
so you kind of like
have a crushing headache

564
00:27:56,460 --> 00:27:57,660
at the same time that you're trying to be,

565
00:27:57,660 --> 00:27:59,700
like, social and funny and interesting.

566
00:27:59,700 --> 00:28:02,760
It's not like a great
flirting opportunity.

567
00:28:02,760 --> 00:28:04,470
It was this really powerful connection

568
00:28:04,470 --> 00:28:05,700
that we had.

569
00:28:05,700 --> 00:28:08,230
I've never felt like
that with anyone before

570
00:28:09,168 --> 00:28:11,418
and we knew that we
wanted to stay connected.

571
00:28:14,220 --> 00:28:17,700
Adrian is gone most of the
year, guiding in the Himalaya.

572
00:28:17,700 --> 00:28:20,550
And because I have this
big project I'm working on,

573
00:28:20,550 --> 00:28:23,463
we are gonna spend the
next four months apart.

574
00:28:24,720 --> 00:28:27,960
I don't really look forward
to this time of year as it is

575
00:28:27,960 --> 00:28:31,020
because Adrian's gonna be
gone for a really long time

576
00:28:31,020 --> 00:28:33,900
and I have a lot of,

577
00:28:33,900 --> 00:28:36,840
like, I put a lot of pressure
on myself for my own projects.

578
00:28:36,840 --> 00:28:37,683
No.

579
00:28:40,800 --> 00:28:42,420
I've spent a lot of time with people

580
00:28:42,420 --> 00:28:45,360
who have lost their
partner in the mountains.

581
00:28:45,360 --> 00:28:47,400
And every time he leaves,

582
00:28:47,400 --> 00:28:52,150
I have this part of me that
is afraid he won't come back.

583
00:28:53,036 --> 00:28:55,327
(bed squeaking)

584
00:28:57,120 --> 00:28:58,953
The secret stash.

585
00:28:59,880 --> 00:29:01,320
Okay, I'm overwhelmed again.

586
00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:02,460
I'm gonna go eat toast.

587
00:29:02,460 --> 00:29:04,301
I'm really overwhelmed right now.

588
00:29:04,301 --> 00:29:05,301
Good luck.

589
00:29:06,360 --> 00:29:07,193
Here we go.

590
00:29:09,817 --> 00:29:11,117
It kind of sucks.

591
00:29:12,183 --> 00:29:15,019
(stairs creaking)

592
00:29:15,019 --> 00:29:16,246
I have cat stuff.

593
00:29:16,246 --> 00:29:19,350
I have food, coffee stuff.

594
00:29:19,350 --> 00:29:20,670
Music.

595
00:29:20,670 --> 00:29:21,660
Music.

596
00:29:21,660 --> 00:29:22,493
Bed.

597
00:29:30,090 --> 00:29:30,923
I love you.

598
00:29:30,923 --> 00:29:33,523
I love you too.

599
00:29:33,523 --> 00:29:36,303
And she's off.

600
00:29:39,390 --> 00:29:40,413
It's always hard.

601
00:29:41,310 --> 00:29:44,001
This one especially.

602
00:29:46,443 --> 00:29:50,134
(Western guitar music)

603
00:29:52,833 --> 00:29:56,820
I am going to Moab
because I want to prepare

604
00:29:56,820 --> 00:29:58,860
for the upcoming Yosemite season.

605
00:29:58,860 --> 00:30:00,710
And Moab is a great place to do that.

606
00:30:03,150 --> 00:30:05,460
Last spring, I just wasn't ready.

607
00:30:05,460 --> 00:30:07,023
I hadn't put in the work.

608
00:30:12,690 --> 00:30:14,190
Look at these nails too.

609
00:30:14,190 --> 00:30:15,420
These are the gel nail.

610
00:30:15,420 --> 00:30:17,220
Gel nail magic.

611
00:30:17,220 --> 00:30:20,470
Supposed to last for like three months.

612
00:30:20,470 --> 00:30:22,710
(bright hopeful music)

613
00:30:22,710 --> 00:30:26,880
I did not grow up learning
how to crack climb.

614
00:30:26,880 --> 00:30:29,938
And for climbing in Yosemite,
it's a required skill.

615
00:30:31,255 --> 00:30:34,830
(bright hopeful music continues)

616
00:30:36,238 --> 00:30:38,796
(gear clanging and heavy breathing)

617
00:30:40,650 --> 00:30:43,200
I wouldn't consider myself
a super confident person

618
00:30:43,200 --> 00:30:45,360
when I'm standing on the ground.

619
00:30:45,360 --> 00:30:47,730
It's more when I'm like climbing

620
00:30:47,730 --> 00:30:49,430
that my confidence shines through.

621
00:30:58,560 --> 00:31:00,423
I think I did get better technique.

622
00:31:01,890 --> 00:31:04,040
It's nice to feel a
little more confidence.

623
00:31:06,690 --> 00:31:08,540
I'm excited to go to Yosemite.

624
00:31:15,464 --> 00:31:20,322
(keyboard clacking)

625
00:31:40,050 --> 00:31:41,910
I've been in Yosemite now for a few weeks

626
00:31:41,910 --> 00:31:43,770
training on Golden Gate.

627
00:31:43,770 --> 00:31:45,840
It's been long days hiking in

628
00:31:45,840 --> 00:31:48,183
and practicing the harder pitches.

629
00:31:49,080 --> 00:31:52,320
It's really the only
way to know every pitch

630
00:31:52,320 --> 00:31:54,594
for that in a day attempt.

631
00:31:54,594 --> 00:31:57,240
(determined music)

632
00:31:57,240 --> 00:32:00,003
There's five hard sections
of the route for me.

633
00:32:01,530 --> 00:32:03,680
The first one that
comes up is The Monster.

634
00:32:05,220 --> 00:32:08,670
You have to kind of wedge
your body into this crack

635
00:32:08,670 --> 00:32:10,863
and this is almost 200 feet long.

636
00:32:11,970 --> 00:32:13,080
The Monster off-width is harder

637
00:32:13,080 --> 00:32:15,000
if your foot can't bridge the crack.

638
00:32:15,000 --> 00:32:16,500
My foot can span

639
00:32:16,500 --> 00:32:17,910
between one side of the
crack and the other side

640
00:32:17,910 --> 00:32:20,250
so I can easily wedge
one foot and push upward.

641
00:32:20,250 --> 00:32:21,240
If you have a smaller foot,

642
00:32:21,240 --> 00:32:23,040
it's harder to make upward progress.

643
00:32:27,053 --> 00:32:28,860
I sort of wanna die right now.

644
00:32:30,780 --> 00:32:32,850
The next pitch that's really hard for me

645
00:32:32,850 --> 00:32:34,050
is called The Downclimb.

646
00:32:35,940 --> 00:32:38,190
There's essentially no holds.

647
00:32:38,190 --> 00:32:39,570
You're kind of standing

648
00:32:39,570 --> 00:32:43,680
on a less than vertical smooth surface,

649
00:32:43,680 --> 00:32:45,870
just pasting your feet on the wall

650
00:32:45,870 --> 00:32:48,093
and using the friction in order to stick.

651
00:32:49,140 --> 00:32:49,973
Come on.

652
00:32:49,973 --> 00:32:52,350
Your balance has to be pretty perfect

653
00:32:52,350 --> 00:32:55,563
in order to not get spit off.

654
00:32:57,360 --> 00:32:58,260
Oh, that was it.

655
00:32:59,580 --> 00:33:01,630
The next hard pitch is called The Move.

656
00:33:03,030 --> 00:33:04,590
At the end of the pitch,

657
00:33:04,590 --> 00:33:06,600
there's a really hard boulder problem.

658
00:33:06,600 --> 00:33:08,925
So, a series of really hard moves.

659
00:33:10,133 --> 00:33:12,450
(Emily screaming)

660
00:33:12,450 --> 00:33:15,450
For me, it's the most
powerful section of the route.

661
00:33:15,450 --> 00:33:17,853
It has the hardest single moves.

662
00:33:20,520 --> 00:33:23,073
The next section is
called The Golden Desert.

663
00:33:24,780 --> 00:33:26,770
It is a really long crack climb

664
00:33:28,290 --> 00:33:33,093
mixed with some funky
traversing under a roof.

665
00:33:35,220 --> 00:33:36,810
And then the very next pitch after that

666
00:33:36,810 --> 00:33:38,373
is called the A5 Traverse.

667
00:33:39,570 --> 00:33:42,783
And that's kind of the pitch
that guards you from success.

668
00:33:44,070 --> 00:33:47,460
Imagine traversing this steep sloping rail

669
00:33:47,460 --> 00:33:52,233
and trying to stand on feet
that are the width of dimes.

670
00:33:53,100 --> 00:33:55,910
The A5 Traverse is the spot
where most people fail.

671
00:33:55,910 --> 00:33:58,470
By the time you've climbed
almost 3,000 feet to get there,

672
00:33:58,470 --> 00:33:59,970
your arms are just incredibly tired

673
00:33:59,970 --> 00:34:01,570
and it's really hard to hang on.

674
00:34:04,860 --> 00:34:07,326
I'm still a little nervous
about the A5 Traverse.

675
00:34:10,777 --> 00:34:12,752
(music concludes)

676
00:34:17,327 --> 00:34:19,977
(distant boat motor and rushing water)

677
00:34:20,919 --> 00:34:24,627
(engine roaring and rushing water)

678
00:34:31,843 --> 00:34:33,618
You are doing it!

679
00:34:34,860 --> 00:34:37,680
Thankfully, Adrian came home from Everest

680
00:34:37,680 --> 00:34:39,030
and everything was fine,

681
00:34:39,030 --> 00:34:43,680
but there was weeks there
where I thought he might not.

682
00:34:43,680 --> 00:34:47,374
It's not really that safe, even
if you make good decisions.

683
00:34:47,374 --> 00:34:48,519
Is it true?

684
00:34:48,519 --> 00:34:49,500
That I thought you might die?

685
00:34:49,500 --> 00:34:50,333
Yeah.

686
00:34:51,853 --> 00:34:53,816
I thought you might die,
and I was trying to be-

687
00:34:53,816 --> 00:34:55,020
So you figured you'd stop
moving on right away?

688
00:34:55,020 --> 00:34:56,220
Yeah.

689
00:34:56,220 --> 00:34:58,230
Just gonna be a bachelorette

690
00:34:58,230 --> 00:35:02,411
and, like, be just in my
little world, independent.

691
00:35:02,411 --> 00:35:03,708
It could happen

692
00:35:03,708 --> 00:35:05,070
or it could be the other way around.

693
00:35:05,070 --> 00:35:05,903
Yeah.

694
00:35:05,903 --> 00:35:07,197
I think I think about it less,

695
00:35:07,197 --> 00:35:08,400
but I think about it sometimes

696
00:35:08,400 --> 00:35:10,800
as you start speed climbing more and more,

697
00:35:10,800 --> 00:35:14,310
cutting corners, rock fall,

698
00:35:14,310 --> 00:35:15,656
there's plenty of things
that can kill you.

699
00:35:15,656 --> 00:35:16,743
It's a little bit of a stretch

700
00:35:16,743 --> 00:35:19,300
but I'm not gonna die.

701
00:35:19,300 --> 00:35:20,133
I'm not gonna die rock climbing.

702
00:35:20,133 --> 00:35:21,000
But you got to think about it

703
00:35:21,000 --> 00:35:22,650
and acknowledge it's a possibility.

704
00:35:22,650 --> 00:35:24,060
It's true.

705
00:35:24,060 --> 00:35:28,440
I just think that I've
finally, like, come to a place

706
00:35:28,440 --> 00:35:30,090
where I'm okay.

707
00:35:30,090 --> 00:35:34,180
Not okay, but more okay.

708
00:35:34,180 --> 00:35:35,705
More okay is good.

709
00:35:35,705 --> 00:35:36,538
Yes.

710
00:35:43,230 --> 00:35:44,063
Okay, questions.

711
00:35:44,063 --> 00:35:45,397
"Okay, get married already."

712
00:35:45,397 --> 00:35:46,447
"When you're getting married?"

713
00:35:46,447 --> 00:35:48,753
"Are you gonna have babies?"
Babies.

714
00:35:48,753 --> 00:35:50,686
"Get married already."

715
00:35:50,686 --> 00:35:53,280
"Do you plan on having kids soon?"

716
00:35:53,280 --> 00:35:54,113
Okay.

717
00:35:56,186 --> 00:35:59,640
I do plan on having kids
eventually, I think.

718
00:35:59,640 --> 00:36:03,333
I want one kid, so I'm not
really in like a huge rush.

719
00:36:04,590 --> 00:36:05,423
I say we.

720
00:36:05,423 --> 00:36:08,250
We, right?
We.

721
00:36:08,250 --> 00:36:09,090
I think I've come around.

722
00:36:09,090 --> 00:36:10,350
We kind of settled on one

723
00:36:10,350 --> 00:36:11,580
because Adrian wanted like three.

724
00:36:11,580 --> 00:36:13,383
Seven-teen.
He wanted three.

725
00:36:14,694 --> 00:36:16,767
But I just want one, so I'm not in a rush.

726
00:36:16,767 --> 00:36:20,130
And I have like, we both have
things we wanna do first.

727
00:36:20,130 --> 00:36:22,350
I've got a couple about
asking me about El Cap

728
00:36:22,350 --> 00:36:25,080
and what happened and if I'm going back.

729
00:36:25,080 --> 00:36:29,160
Basically, I failed and I
also had terrible weather,

730
00:36:29,160 --> 00:36:31,770
but that's, like, a second part of it,

731
00:36:31,770 --> 00:36:33,780
that prevented me from succeeding.

732
00:36:33,780 --> 00:36:36,380
And then, yes, I'm going back in the fall.

733
00:36:36,380 --> 00:36:40,405
(serene music)

734
00:36:40,405 --> 00:36:43,388
(antler clanging)

735
00:36:47,155 --> 00:36:51,263
(serene music continues)

736
00:36:52,560 --> 00:36:53,730
So we got two liters of water.

737
00:36:53,730 --> 00:36:55,208
Okay.

738
00:36:55,208 --> 00:36:56,559
I have extra chalk.

739
00:36:56,559 --> 00:36:58,117
Okay, cool.

740
00:36:58,117 --> 00:36:58,950
Let me get the air out of it.

741
00:36:58,950 --> 00:37:00,630
Wait, are you taking
that much extra chalk?

742
00:37:00,630 --> 00:37:02,319
I'm very concerned about the heat.

743
00:37:02,319 --> 00:37:03,152
For one El Cap route?

744
00:37:03,152 --> 00:37:04,283
It weighs nothing.

745
00:37:04,283 --> 00:37:05,498
I guess.

746
00:37:05,498 --> 00:37:07,753
It just, that seems like
a lot of chalk for...

747
00:37:07,753 --> 00:37:09,033
Well, we don't have to bring it.

748
00:37:09,033 --> 00:37:09,991
No, no, you-

749
00:37:09,991 --> 00:37:10,824
No, but I actually really-

750
00:37:10,824 --> 00:37:11,957
If you think it'll make you feel better,

751
00:37:11,957 --> 00:37:12,790
you definitely bring it.
It makes me feel better.

752
00:37:12,790 --> 00:37:13,860
Okay, extra chalk.

753
00:37:13,860 --> 00:37:14,693
I'm bringing these.

754
00:37:14,693 --> 00:37:15,900
It's really hot.

755
00:37:15,900 --> 00:37:16,950
What are those?

756
00:37:16,950 --> 00:37:19,650
They're breakable ice packs.
Ice packs?

757
00:37:19,650 --> 00:37:22,470
For my hands and feet.
That seems totally absurd.

758
00:37:22,470 --> 00:37:23,430
So if we wanna climb by three,

759
00:37:23,430 --> 00:37:25,309
what time should we meet in the meadow?

760
00:37:25,309 --> 00:37:26,522
Well, like 2:30.

761
00:37:26,522 --> 00:37:28,134
2:30.

762
00:37:28,134 --> 00:37:29,608
That's, like, pretty early though.

763
00:37:29,608 --> 00:37:31,420
Pretty early.

764
00:37:31,420 --> 00:37:35,186
(gentle spirited music)

765
00:37:36,827 --> 00:37:39,185
(Emily takes deep breath and exhales)

766
00:37:44,852 --> 00:37:46,793
(footsteps thumping on rocks)

767
00:37:46,793 --> 00:37:49,034
(hands rubbing loudly)

768
00:37:51,721 --> 00:37:52,554
Okay.

769
00:37:57,038 --> 00:37:59,703
(gentle spirited music continues)

770
00:37:59,703 --> 00:38:01,053
Nice job, Em.

771
00:38:01,053 --> 00:38:02,211
Thanks.

772
00:38:12,960 --> 00:38:15,718
(gear scraping up rock)

773
00:38:19,134 --> 00:38:21,892
(gentle spirited music continues)

774
00:38:25,067 --> 00:38:27,575
(Emily breathing heavily)

775
00:38:36,308 --> 00:38:37,559
(Emily grunting)

776
00:38:37,559 --> 00:38:39,721
Come on, Em.
Come on.

777
00:38:39,721 --> 00:38:40,701
Come on.

778
00:38:40,701 --> 00:38:42,053
Dude, come on.
Yeah, come on.

779
00:38:42,053 --> 00:38:44,275
Come on, hold it.

780
00:38:44,275 --> 00:38:45,733
Come on.

781
00:38:45,733 --> 00:38:46,566
Yes.

782
00:38:46,566 --> 00:38:47,399
Fuck, yeah.

783
00:38:47,399 --> 00:38:48,984
Come on, Em.

784
00:38:48,984 --> 00:38:50,317
You're doing good.

785
00:38:50,317 --> 00:38:51,708
Come on, Em.

786
00:38:51,708 --> 00:38:54,650
(Emily grunting)

787
00:38:54,650 --> 00:38:56,258
Nice.

788
00:38:56,258 --> 00:39:00,780
(Emily breathing heavily)

789
00:39:00,780 --> 00:39:03,510
If you do it today in this style,

790
00:39:03,510 --> 00:39:05,502
just like you just did it-

791
00:39:05,502 --> 00:39:06,813
It'd be pretty sick.

792
00:39:08,322 --> 00:39:10,017
Just think about how
good that's gonna feel.

793
00:39:10,017 --> 00:39:11,160
Oh, I can't yet.

794
00:39:11,160 --> 00:39:12,543
I gotta finish the rest of it.

795
00:39:12,543 --> 00:39:16,035
(pensive music)

796
00:39:16,035 --> 00:39:18,501
(Emily scraping rock)

797
00:39:20,460 --> 00:39:22,320
Yeah, we started 11 and a half hours ago,

798
00:39:22,320 --> 00:39:25,803
so it's a good time, actually.

799
00:39:27,150 --> 00:39:30,008
This is when you rely on
your World Cup fitness.

800
00:39:32,050 --> 00:39:34,292
(Emily breathing heavily)

801
00:39:36,197 --> 00:39:37,203
Good, come on.

802
00:39:38,509 --> 00:39:39,426
Yeah, yeah.

803
00:39:42,900 --> 00:39:45,813
[Jon] Pretty sure you can
just climb one more pitch.

804
00:39:47,040 --> 00:39:49,290
Pretty sure there's
like five more pitches.

805
00:39:57,300 --> 00:39:58,861
Good em.

806
00:39:58,861 --> 00:39:59,694
That's it.

807
00:40:03,109 --> 00:40:03,942
Good.

808
00:40:05,412 --> 00:40:06,300
Good.

809
00:40:06,300 --> 00:40:07,440
I'm falling.

810
00:40:07,440 --> 00:40:08,273
No, no, you're okay.

811
00:40:08,273 --> 00:40:09,106
Come on.

812
00:40:09,106 --> 00:40:09,939
Come on.
No, it's too much.

813
00:40:09,939 --> 00:40:11,130
Stay with it.

814
00:40:12,283 --> 00:40:14,333
I just fucked everything up and like...

815
00:40:15,480 --> 00:40:16,845
That's all right.

816
00:40:16,845 --> 00:40:18,419
Oh my god.

817
00:40:18,419 --> 00:40:20,194
I'm just, like, shit.

818
00:40:22,185 --> 00:40:24,180
(tense music)

819
00:40:24,180 --> 00:40:25,013
Really good, Em.

820
00:40:25,013 --> 00:40:26,354
Yeah, really good.

821
00:40:27,396 --> 00:40:30,312
(Emily breathing heavy)

822
00:40:32,832 --> 00:40:34,585
Come on.

823
00:40:34,585 --> 00:40:35,418
Come on.

824
00:40:36,433 --> 00:40:38,160
Come on, there you go.

825
00:40:38,160 --> 00:40:39,843
Oh, fuck.

826
00:40:39,843 --> 00:40:41,271
I don't have it, you guys.

827
00:40:41,271 --> 00:40:42,604
I don't have it.

828
00:40:43,737 --> 00:40:45,483
I'm just too tired.

829
00:40:46,590 --> 00:40:48,330
(crying) I'm giving it everything I have.

830
00:40:48,330 --> 00:40:49,163
I just...

831
00:40:51,638 --> 00:40:53,370
I just couldn't do it.

832
00:40:53,370 --> 00:40:54,813
I couldn't keep climbing.

833
00:40:55,748 --> 00:40:57,110
I'm like super bummed

834
00:40:57,110 --> 00:40:59,913
but it's like everything
I could possibly do.

835
00:41:02,220 --> 00:41:04,293
I failed on the last hard pitch.

836
00:41:05,640 --> 00:41:07,398
Pretty heartbroken.

837
00:41:08,474 --> 00:41:10,299
(keyboard clacking)

838
00:41:17,015 --> 00:41:19,090
(keyboard clacking continues)

839
00:41:21,505 --> 00:41:24,030
I think you have to try
things that you're afraid of,

840
00:41:24,030 --> 00:41:26,310
that you might suck at,

841
00:41:26,310 --> 00:41:28,830
that you're gonna most likely fail at,

842
00:41:28,830 --> 00:41:33,830
in order to actually
really get to know yourself

843
00:41:33,928 --> 00:41:36,627
and know what you're capable of.

844
00:41:36,627 --> 00:41:39,460
(gentle tribal music)

845
00:41:41,850 --> 00:41:45,420
When I was trying to figure
out how to make a team to go

846
00:41:45,420 --> 00:41:50,420
on this seven-week totally
unknown jungle bashing,

847
00:41:51,570 --> 00:41:55,290
crazy alpine Myanmar expedition,

848
00:41:55,290 --> 00:41:57,270
I wanted Emily to go.

849
00:41:57,270 --> 00:42:00,840
Like, I wanted her to go more than anyone.

850
00:42:00,840 --> 00:42:02,853
Like, I wouldn't go if Emily didn't go.

851
00:42:04,722 --> 00:42:05,955
This is like an anti-Everest trip.

852
00:42:07,113 --> 00:42:09,447
(birds flapping wings)

853
00:42:10,890 --> 00:42:11,723
Think of Everest.

854
00:42:11,723 --> 00:42:13,200
From the minute you get off the plane

855
00:42:13,200 --> 00:42:14,400
to the summit of Everest,

856
00:42:14,400 --> 00:42:16,293
every step of the way is mapped out.

857
00:42:17,610 --> 00:42:20,553
Hkakabo Razi was exactly the opposite.

858
00:42:22,140 --> 00:42:25,230
Wanting her on the team was
met with a lot of resistance,

859
00:42:25,230 --> 00:42:29,646
but I put my foot down and
she was stoked to do it.

860
00:42:32,522 --> 00:42:36,497
(motorcycles revving engines)

861
00:42:38,280 --> 00:42:40,593
It was a month before
we even got this camp.

862
00:42:41,610 --> 00:42:44,133
We had to cut our gear by two thirds.

863
00:42:45,570 --> 00:42:47,720
Ran out of food.

864
00:42:49,319 --> 00:42:52,319
(tense music swells)

865
00:42:56,699 --> 00:42:58,170
A lot of the things that I did today,

866
00:42:58,170 --> 00:42:59,803
I've never done before.

867
00:43:04,595 --> 00:43:08,219
(ice axe and crampons crunching snow)

868
00:43:14,560 --> 00:43:19,050
It's scary that heavy pack
feel off balance a little.

869
00:43:19,050 --> 00:43:20,500
Good job, Em.
Thank you.

870
00:43:23,940 --> 00:43:25,083
Way more rad.

871
00:43:26,100 --> 00:43:28,533
Way more gnarly than Everest.

872
00:43:31,110 --> 00:43:33,300
My favorite day on that whole climb

873
00:43:33,300 --> 00:43:38,300
was Emily and I were stuck
on this ridge for 48 hours.

874
00:43:38,741 --> 00:43:41,160
(wind blowing and tent flapping)

875
00:43:41,160 --> 00:43:44,133
Winds blowing 60 miles an hour nonstop.

876
00:43:45,930 --> 00:43:48,727
And at one point, Emily
looks at me and she's like,

877
00:43:48,727 --> 00:43:49,560
"What do you think?

878
00:43:49,560 --> 00:43:51,120
You think we're gonna be okay?"

879
00:43:51,120 --> 00:43:52,117
I looked at her and I was like,

880
00:43:52,117 --> 00:43:53,313
"I don't know.

881
00:43:54,240 --> 00:43:55,710
I hope so."

882
00:43:55,710 --> 00:43:58,140
And she was like, "All right, cool.

883
00:43:58,140 --> 00:43:58,973
Okay."

884
00:43:58,973 --> 00:44:02,880
Whoo!

885
00:44:02,880 --> 00:44:04,050
And five minutes later,

886
00:44:04,050 --> 00:44:06,068
we're laughing and,
like, doing what we can

887
00:44:06,068 --> 00:44:07,760
to, like, stay alive.

888
00:44:07,760 --> 00:44:09,918
(wind blowing and laughing)

889
00:44:11,250 --> 00:44:14,040
Emily and I have talked a
lot about how crazy it was

890
00:44:14,040 --> 00:44:15,330
and how strung out we were

891
00:44:15,330 --> 00:44:18,390
and how close to just like
laying down on the trail

892
00:44:18,390 --> 00:44:20,077
and giving up we were.

893
00:44:20,077 --> 00:44:21,993
And we just didn't.

894
00:44:23,610 --> 00:44:27,360
She was everything I expected
her to be on that trip.

895
00:44:27,360 --> 00:44:29,910
She was gritty, she was funny.

896
00:44:29,910 --> 00:44:31,950
She helped me when I was low.

897
00:44:31,950 --> 00:44:35,763
She tackled massive scary things.

898
00:44:49,290 --> 00:44:53,403
3:30 in the morning,
November 20 something.

899
00:44:59,280 --> 00:45:02,373
Dragged everyone into helping
me climb El Cap in a day.

900
00:45:04,134 --> 00:45:04,967
Has it been two years?

901
00:45:06,330 --> 00:45:11,330
Massive Snowstorm is approaching,
like, tomorrow, so...

902
00:45:11,375 --> 00:45:12,230
Day after tomorrow.

903
00:45:12,230 --> 00:45:14,010
Last day of the season, basically.

904
00:45:14,010 --> 00:45:17,429
I'm dragging everyone up here
to support me one more time.

905
00:45:17,429 --> 00:45:19,067
One more character-building
day on the mountain.

906
00:45:19,067 --> 00:45:22,342
One more character-building
day on the mountain.

907
00:45:22,342 --> 00:45:24,210
It's like 4:00 a.m.

908
00:45:24,210 --> 00:45:26,724
It's way colder than it was
last time, so that's good.

909
00:45:26,724 --> 00:45:27,557
If you were really pro

910
00:45:27,557 --> 00:45:29,624
you'd be racking onto the harness already.

911
00:45:29,624 --> 00:45:31,167
You packed your harness that way.

912
00:45:31,167 --> 00:45:32,617
Oh, yeah, I didn't do that.

913
00:45:33,780 --> 00:45:35,303
You basically did it last time.

914
00:45:36,180 --> 00:45:37,980
10 more feet today, okay?

915
00:45:37,980 --> 00:45:39,037
Yeah, exactly.

916
00:45:39,037 --> 00:45:40,587
Exactly.
10 more feet today.

917
00:45:43,539 --> 00:45:44,830
Go, Em, go.

918
00:45:44,830 --> 00:45:45,663
Here we go.

919
00:45:45,663 --> 00:45:47,416
You're gonna crush it.

920
00:45:47,416 --> 00:45:49,666
Thanks, Sanni.

921
00:45:49,666 --> 00:45:52,490
(gear clanging)

922
00:45:54,630 --> 00:45:55,473
Nice, Em.

923
00:45:57,750 --> 00:45:58,583
You're crushing.

924
00:46:00,810 --> 00:46:02,918
It's such a still day up on El Cap.

925
00:46:05,559 --> 00:46:08,175
(gear clanging above)

926
00:46:08,175 --> 00:46:13,133
(tense music)

927
00:46:16,892 --> 00:46:20,067
(Alex groans)

928
00:46:20,957 --> 00:46:24,003
Creaky old grandpa sit down
and tighten his shoes up.

929
00:46:26,550 --> 00:46:27,383
Nice, Em.

930
00:46:28,816 --> 00:46:33,546
(Emily screaming loudly)

931
00:46:33,546 --> 00:46:35,691
Shit.
Oh my God.

932
00:46:35,691 --> 00:46:38,526
Are you okay, Em?
Emily, you okay?

933
00:46:39,408 --> 00:46:40,521
Em?

934
00:46:40,521 --> 00:46:43,271
Holy shit.

935
00:46:43,271 --> 00:46:44,929
Oh my god, Em.

936
00:46:44,929 --> 00:46:46,566
(Emily moaning above)

937
00:46:46,566 --> 00:46:48,133
Should I lower you to the ledge?

938
00:46:48,133 --> 00:46:50,383
Emily, you're okay.

939
00:46:50,383 --> 00:46:53,158
(Emily moaning in pain)

940
00:46:53,158 --> 00:46:54,245
Lower?

941
00:46:54,245 --> 00:46:55,771
Em.

942
00:46:55,771 --> 00:46:57,468
Talk to us.

943
00:46:57,468 --> 00:46:58,583
Talk to us, Em.

944
00:46:58,583 --> 00:46:59,490
Are you okay?

945
00:46:59,490 --> 00:47:01,523
Are you right side up?

946
00:47:01,523 --> 00:47:03,304
(Emily moaning in pain)

947
00:47:03,304 --> 00:47:06,785
No, no, no.
She's not right side up.

948
00:47:06,785 --> 00:47:08,849
Just confirming your number, 4046.

949
00:47:08,849 --> 00:47:09,976
Correct.

950
00:47:09,976 --> 00:47:11,388
I'm gonna put you on hold

951
00:47:11,388 --> 00:47:12,525
while I try to get a ranger, okay?

952
00:47:12,525 --> 00:47:14,008
Okay, thank you.

953
00:47:14,891 --> 00:47:18,449
(dark music)

954
00:47:20,967 --> 00:47:22,006
Yeah, stable now, huh?

955
00:47:22,006 --> 00:47:23,589
Hang in there, Em.

956
00:47:26,546 --> 00:47:27,990
You know, I can tell that it's terrible.

957
00:47:27,990 --> 00:47:28,980
It's all terrible.

958
00:47:28,980 --> 00:47:30,813
Like you can tell it's a giant fall.

959
00:47:31,860 --> 00:47:33,450
The only thing I was thinking about

960
00:47:33,450 --> 00:47:35,750
was whether or not she'll walk again.

961
00:47:36,983 --> 00:47:39,599
(rescue workers clanging)

962
00:47:40,683 --> 00:47:44,732
(somber music)

963
00:47:47,716 --> 00:47:51,365
(footsteps)

964
00:47:55,108 --> 00:47:59,458
(somber music continues)

965
00:48:03,458 --> 00:48:05,799
(radio chatter)

966
00:48:11,460 --> 00:48:13,470
I've tried this pitch so many times.

967
00:48:13,470 --> 00:48:16,380
I know it's slippery,
but I've never fallen.

968
00:48:16,380 --> 00:48:19,653
I know my feet are cold,
but I need to be confident.

969
00:48:21,420 --> 00:48:22,260
I wasn't scared.

970
00:48:22,260 --> 00:48:23,093
I just...

971
00:48:25,890 --> 00:48:28,498
Now it's scary though, think about.

972
00:48:32,489 --> 00:48:36,430
(somber music intensifies)

973
00:48:39,750 --> 00:48:41,853
I'm sorry guys.

974
00:48:51,210 --> 00:48:52,170
Yeah.

975
00:48:52,170 --> 00:48:54,578
Still have some stuff to learn, I guess.

976
00:49:01,628 --> 00:49:06,177
(keyboard clattering)

977
00:49:23,880 --> 00:49:24,810
World class climber

978
00:49:24,810 --> 00:49:26,640
Emily Harrington trying to make history

979
00:49:26,640 --> 00:49:28,680
falling from Yosemite's El Capitan,

980
00:49:28,680 --> 00:49:31,680
rescued by one of the most
famous climbers in the world.

981
00:49:31,680 --> 00:49:35,310
Falls are a peril of the sport
no matter your skill level.

982
00:49:35,310 --> 00:49:38,100
Thank goodness she was with
people like Alex Honnold.

983
00:49:38,100 --> 00:49:39,030
The climber at the center

984
00:49:39,030 --> 00:49:41,550
of that Oscar-winning
documentary, "Free Solo."

985
00:49:41,550 --> 00:49:42,900
I was belaying because
I'm holding the rope.

986
00:49:42,900 --> 00:49:44,100
But then when she fell,

987
00:49:44,100 --> 00:49:45,630
so much rope fell into the system.

988
00:49:45,630 --> 00:49:47,940
Like, so much rope pooled
at my feet, basically,

989
00:49:47,940 --> 00:49:50,729
that I wound up actually
grabbing the rope with my hands

990
00:49:50,729 --> 00:49:53,313
in an effort to catch her sooner.

991
00:49:53,313 --> 00:49:54,300
I don't know if you guys had a chance

992
00:49:54,300 --> 00:49:55,410
to watch "Free Solo."

993
00:49:55,410 --> 00:49:56,250
Oh, he was...

994
00:49:56,250 --> 00:49:58,680
I mean, it's amazing what they do.

995
00:49:58,680 --> 00:50:00,780
And, boy, you gotta have
some nerves of steel.

996
00:50:00,780 --> 00:50:02,273
Yes you do.
You sure do.

997
00:50:02,273 --> 00:50:03,831
Hope she has a full recovery.

998
00:50:03,831 --> 00:50:06,240
(driving in car)

999
00:50:06,240 --> 00:50:07,943
How are you feeling about it all?

1000
00:50:08,926 --> 00:50:10,050
Shitty.
Shitty?

1001
00:50:10,050 --> 00:50:10,980
Shitty about it.

1002
00:50:10,980 --> 00:50:12,060
Like sad?

1003
00:50:12,060 --> 00:50:12,893
Yeah.

1004
00:50:15,060 --> 00:50:17,400
Everyone is interested in El Cap

1005
00:50:17,400 --> 00:50:19,050
and everyone is interested in the fact

1006
00:50:19,050 --> 00:50:20,340
that I was climbing with Alex Honnold.

1007
00:50:20,340 --> 00:50:23,910
So they wanna write a story
about the damsel in distress

1008
00:50:23,910 --> 00:50:26,583
who was rescued by the "Free Solo" star.

1009
00:50:27,517 --> 00:50:30,330
"Oh, adrenaline junkies, like,

1010
00:50:30,330 --> 00:50:33,420
risking their lives and
falling off of sheer cliffs

1011
00:50:33,420 --> 00:50:34,470
and gets rescued."

1012
00:50:34,470 --> 00:50:36,660
Like, it's just stupid and not true,

1013
00:50:36,660 --> 00:50:38,640
and it's misunderstood.

1014
00:50:38,640 --> 00:50:39,990
I had a bad fall climbing

1015
00:50:39,990 --> 00:50:44,370
because rock climbing is
inherently dangerous but-

1016
00:50:44,370 --> 00:50:47,640
And Alex did exactly what
any good partner would do.

1017
00:50:47,640 --> 00:50:48,473
Yeah.

1018
00:50:48,473 --> 00:50:50,014
And that's the end of the story.

1019
00:50:50,014 --> 00:50:52,980
Don't put that close to me at all.

1020
00:50:52,980 --> 00:50:57,980
We were choosing to take a
certain level of risk that day.

1021
00:50:58,080 --> 00:51:00,580
It was 100% not his fault what happened.

1022
00:51:03,554 --> 00:51:08,321
(somber music)

1023
00:51:14,795 --> 00:51:19,778
(message alerts)

1024
00:51:33,990 --> 00:51:35,790
I was afraid of not being good enough,

1025
00:51:35,790 --> 00:51:38,793
and now the entire world
thinks that as well.

1026
00:51:47,107 --> 00:51:48,727
"She is no Alex Honnold."

1027
00:51:48,727 --> 00:51:50,790
"Do this without the security of a rope,

1028
00:51:50,790 --> 00:51:54,027
and then you can pretend to
have accomplished something."

1029
00:51:55,777 --> 00:51:58,350
"Woman, go back to kitchen, please.

1030
00:51:58,350 --> 00:52:01,237
Let man's doing this stuff."

1031
00:52:01,237 --> 00:52:02,787
"She's too fat."

1032
00:52:16,260 --> 00:52:19,020
I am bruised and have
a rope burn on my neck

1033
00:52:19,020 --> 00:52:20,793
and a pretty intense concussion.

1034
00:52:21,810 --> 00:52:25,593
I'm slowly recovering but
mentally I'm struggling.

1035
00:52:29,850 --> 00:52:32,977
I just spiral into the negativity of,

1036
00:52:32,977 --> 00:52:36,057
"Oh, I'm never gonna be able
to get anywhere with this."

1037
00:52:38,910 --> 00:52:41,610
Lots of doubt and lots of
kind of, like, questioning

1038
00:52:41,610 --> 00:52:42,720
of, like, "Why am I doing this?

1039
00:52:42,720 --> 00:52:45,147
Why am I even, like, trying so hard?"

1040
00:52:46,020 --> 00:52:47,470
And just feel like giving up.

1041
00:52:48,420 --> 00:52:50,040
There's just this really big fear

1042
00:52:50,040 --> 00:52:52,740
and it's all circling around,
like, the whole kid thing

1043
00:52:52,740 --> 00:52:55,640
and the clock is ticking idea,

1044
00:52:55,640 --> 00:53:00,300
and I really do wanna have
fun and enjoy climbing.

1045
00:53:00,300 --> 00:53:01,133
I do.

1046
00:53:01,133 --> 00:53:02,703
I just don't know how right now.

1047
00:53:03,630 --> 00:53:05,160
Yeah.

1048
00:53:05,160 --> 00:53:07,943
It's hard to trust myself, I guess.

1049
00:53:09,693 --> 00:53:13,701
(Somber music)

1050
00:53:22,470 --> 00:53:23,670
It's Passover.

1051
00:53:23,670 --> 00:53:25,420
Happy Passover, guys.

1052
00:53:28,260 --> 00:53:30,120
And we can tell that it's Passover

1053
00:53:30,120 --> 00:53:33,030
because we are in our
houses hiding from a plague,

1054
00:53:33,030 --> 00:53:34,290
and because in a recent-

1055
00:53:34,290 --> 00:53:35,309
Breakfast, podcast.

1056
00:53:35,309 --> 00:53:37,041
Very loud podcast.

1057
00:53:37,041 --> 00:53:37,874
Very loud podcast.

1058
00:53:37,874 --> 00:53:40,360
Blood on your door will stop coronavirus.

1059
00:53:42,720 --> 00:53:45,993
We are one day short of a
month since we've been home.

1060
00:53:46,830 --> 00:53:50,670
April 12th, Easter Sunday.

1061
00:53:50,670 --> 00:53:53,820
And it's Sunday

1062
00:53:53,820 --> 00:53:56,340
but it doesn't really
matter that it's Sunday.

1063
00:53:56,340 --> 00:53:58,533
Every day is pretty much very similar.

1064
00:54:03,570 --> 00:54:05,970
Adrian and I have been physically together

1065
00:54:05,970 --> 00:54:08,463
for longer than we have ever been.

1066
00:54:09,900 --> 00:54:12,543
It's felt like this
period of deep connection.

1067
00:54:14,400 --> 00:54:15,750
What's your favorite color?

1068
00:54:17,250 --> 00:54:18,870
This is like a rapid fire question.

1069
00:54:18,870 --> 00:54:19,703
Oh, really?

1070
00:54:19,703 --> 00:54:20,592
I actually...

1071
00:54:20,592 --> 00:54:21,425
I actually...

1072
00:54:21,425 --> 00:54:23,466
What's your favorite color?

1073
00:54:23,466 --> 00:54:24,684
Gray.

1074
00:54:24,684 --> 00:54:27,300
Gray?

1075
00:54:27,300 --> 00:54:29,610
That's a terrible favorite color.

1076
00:54:29,610 --> 00:54:31,053
My favorite color is green.

1077
00:54:32,430 --> 00:54:33,270
Really?

1078
00:54:33,270 --> 00:54:34,950
Yeah.
I never knew that.

1079
00:54:34,950 --> 00:54:36,684
Well, you learn something new every day,

1080
00:54:36,684 --> 00:54:37,517
don't you?

1081
00:54:37,517 --> 00:54:39,085
I don't think I've ever
bought you anything green.

1082
00:54:39,085 --> 00:54:40,134
Better start now.

1083
00:54:41,118 --> 00:54:43,920
(dog panting)

1084
00:54:43,920 --> 00:54:47,880
We've discussed starting a
family in more serious ways,

1085
00:54:47,880 --> 00:54:50,730
but I really have to finish this project

1086
00:54:50,730 --> 00:54:54,810
before I can start thinking
about taking that step.

1087
00:54:54,810 --> 00:54:55,860
I don't wanna take eight years

1088
00:54:55,860 --> 00:54:57,720
to free climb El Cap in a day.

1089
00:54:57,720 --> 00:54:59,967
Then I'll be 40, and then, you know,

1090
00:54:59,967 --> 00:55:01,517
it might be too late.

1091
00:55:03,800 --> 00:55:08,758
(somber music continues)

1092
00:55:14,460 --> 00:55:16,350
If I let something like fear,

1093
00:55:16,350 --> 00:55:17,990
something like an accident,

1094
00:55:17,990 --> 00:55:20,970
stop me from doing something,

1095
00:55:20,970 --> 00:55:22,500
then I'll never go back.

1096
00:55:22,500 --> 00:55:24,300
I'll never try something hard again.

1097
00:55:25,500 --> 00:55:29,070
This is no longer just
a way to prove myself.

1098
00:55:29,070 --> 00:55:33,540
It's a way for me to gain back trust

1099
00:55:33,540 --> 00:55:35,343
and confidence in myself.

1100
00:55:36,810 --> 00:55:38,043
I need to go back.

1101
00:55:46,920 --> 00:55:49,530
I've been really gentle with myself,

1102
00:55:49,530 --> 00:55:51,930
just accepting that I'm probably gonna be

1103
00:55:51,930 --> 00:55:54,330
a little more conservative this year.

1104
00:55:54,330 --> 00:55:56,580
And I think I need to talk to
Alex about adjusting my method

1105
00:55:56,580 --> 00:56:00,630
and just be like, "Dude, I
don't wanna, like, go so fast."

1106
00:56:00,630 --> 00:56:02,477
I wanna be able to stop
and take a breather

1107
00:56:02,477 --> 00:56:04,950
and I wanna be able to place more gear

1108
00:56:04,950 --> 00:56:07,042
and feel way more safe.

1109
00:56:10,308 --> 00:56:13,833
(gentle pensive music)

1110
00:56:23,495 --> 00:56:25,078
And so it begins.

1111
00:56:26,123 --> 00:56:28,037
Emily's Yosemite season.

1112
00:56:33,711 --> 00:56:37,044
3:00 a.m., I'm out of bed making coffee.

1113
00:56:38,400 --> 00:56:41,490
Em's waiting for a coffee.

1114
00:56:41,490 --> 00:56:43,553
The life of a superstar.

1115
00:56:45,454 --> 00:56:46,894
How's it feeling?

1116
00:56:46,894 --> 00:56:48,167
Feels okay.

1117
00:56:48,167 --> 00:56:49,374
Where I fell last year.

1118
00:56:49,374 --> 00:56:50,280
Where you fell last year.

1119
00:56:50,280 --> 00:56:51,113
Yeah.

1120
00:56:53,790 --> 00:56:56,910
I'm back in Yosemite for the
first time since the accident

1121
00:56:56,910 --> 00:56:59,580
and Adrian's been helping
me train on the hard pitches

1122
00:56:59,580 --> 00:57:01,773
and build back that trust.

1123
00:57:03,360 --> 00:57:06,273
Down to The Move pitch.

1124
00:57:07,173 --> 00:57:08,370
Dun, dun, dun.

1125
00:57:10,020 --> 00:57:10,853
Come on.

1126
00:57:12,756 --> 00:57:14,400
Yes.

1127
00:57:14,400 --> 00:57:17,220
There was no, like,
massive screaming whippers

1128
00:57:17,220 --> 00:57:19,080
out of The Move today.

1129
00:57:19,080 --> 00:57:20,370
You just hit it every time.

1130
00:57:20,370 --> 00:57:21,900
You're stronger.

1131
00:57:21,900 --> 00:57:23,730
Big support today.

1132
00:57:23,730 --> 00:57:25,050
Thank you.

1133
00:57:25,050 --> 00:57:26,150
Woop, woop!

1134
00:57:28,370 --> 00:57:30,390
Physically, I feel better than I have

1135
00:57:30,390 --> 00:57:31,803
probably ever in my life.

1136
00:57:33,570 --> 00:57:36,360
I'm trying to figure out the best tactics

1137
00:57:36,360 --> 00:57:37,623
for climbing The Monster.

1138
00:57:39,060 --> 00:57:42,120
And so I'm gonna try
putting on my climbing shoe

1139
00:57:42,120 --> 00:57:46,560
and then I'm gonna try
putting on a size 42 TC Pro

1140
00:57:46,560 --> 00:57:49,560
over top of it to make my foot bigger.

1141
00:57:53,251 --> 00:57:55,817
(Emily laughs excitedly)

1142
00:57:57,270 --> 00:57:58,570
I'm so excited about this.

1143
00:58:03,540 --> 00:58:05,490
And so what time are we
thinking about starting?

1144
00:58:05,490 --> 00:58:07,890
Let's say starting The
Monster at 6:00 a.m.,

1145
00:58:07,890 --> 00:58:10,040
which means start and
climbing at 1:00 a.m.

1146
00:58:11,280 --> 00:58:13,560
That's what I was hoping
to do tonight, you know?

1147
00:58:13,560 --> 00:58:14,640
I know.
Get some

1148
00:58:14,640 --> 00:58:15,660
You signed up for it.

1149
00:58:15,660 --> 00:58:16,500
Yeah, no, no.

1150
00:58:16,500 --> 00:58:17,580
I'm into it.

1151
00:58:17,580 --> 00:58:19,860
Yeah, knee pads and duct
tape and elbow pads.

1152
00:58:19,860 --> 00:58:22,140
At this point, you're gonna
get to the top more fresh

1153
00:58:22,140 --> 00:58:23,490
than when you left the ground.

1154
00:58:23,490 --> 00:58:26,190
I think it'd be tough to
make this more comfortable.

1155
00:58:26,190 --> 00:58:27,536
Yeah, that's the whole point.

1156
00:58:27,536 --> 00:58:28,369
I think it's...

1157
00:58:28,369 --> 00:58:29,202
Yeah, exactly.

1158
00:58:29,202 --> 00:58:31,530
We're ready for the long haul right now.

1159
00:58:31,530 --> 00:58:34,110
I'm planning to have two partners.

1160
00:58:34,110 --> 00:58:37,260
It is really valuable to
have Alex as a partner

1161
00:58:37,260 --> 00:58:38,880
because he is so fast.

1162
00:58:38,880 --> 00:58:41,190
But up higher, when the
climbing gets slower,

1163
00:58:41,190 --> 00:58:43,860
I really like having Adrian there.

1164
00:58:43,860 --> 00:58:47,163
He's really good emotional support for me.

1165
00:58:54,382 --> 00:58:55,612
Go get her!

1166
00:58:55,612 --> 00:58:56,943
Go get her!

1167
00:58:56,943 --> 00:58:58,997
I move slowly, and then,
like, see how it feels

1168
00:58:58,997 --> 00:59:00,036
when I get to the...

1169
00:59:00,036 --> 00:59:01,181
Yeah, cool.

1170
00:59:01,181 --> 00:59:03,030
It's the same temps tomorrow
as today basically, right?

1171
00:59:03,030 --> 00:59:03,863
I do feel ready.

1172
00:59:03,863 --> 00:59:05,970
I don't think I'm gonna be any more ready

1173
00:59:05,970 --> 00:59:06,970
than I am right now.

1174
00:59:08,250 --> 00:59:11,370
If I achieve this, I'll
never not be a climber,

1175
00:59:11,370 --> 00:59:13,144
but I can, like, move on

1176
00:59:13,144 --> 00:59:15,490
from being, like, solely
focused on climbing.

1177
00:59:15,490 --> 00:59:17,700
Like, I can move forward with my life.

1178
00:59:17,700 --> 00:59:18,600
I could have a family,

1179
00:59:18,600 --> 00:59:21,300
like, I could do all these
things I've wanted to do

1180
00:59:21,300 --> 00:59:25,893
that might not require so
much, like, pinpointed focus.

1181
00:59:26,910 --> 00:59:28,409
It's that meaningful.

1182
00:59:33,560 --> 00:59:38,285
(hopeful pensive music)

1183
00:59:49,921 --> 00:59:51,330
Love you.

1184
00:59:51,330 --> 00:59:52,163
Have fun.

1185
00:59:52,163 --> 00:59:52,996
Kick some ass up there.

1186
00:59:55,883 --> 00:59:56,800
Nice, Em.

1187
01:00:04,613 --> 01:00:05,640
At some point in here,

1188
01:00:05,640 --> 01:00:07,350
I'm going to have to tie
my shoes and put them on

1189
01:00:07,350 --> 01:00:08,183
and I'm sort of like,

1190
01:00:08,183 --> 01:00:10,590
"Oh, I've got flashbacks from last year."

1191
01:00:10,590 --> 01:00:12,455
PTSD, yeah?
Yes, exactly.

1192
01:00:12,455 --> 01:00:13,288
Oh, my god.

1193
01:00:13,288 --> 01:00:14,121
Jeez!

1194
01:00:28,413 --> 01:00:30,540
I am gonna run around to the top

1195
01:00:30,540 --> 01:00:31,440
and hopefully get to meet Em,

1196
01:00:31,440 --> 01:00:32,990
like, two thirds of the way up.

1197
01:00:36,360 --> 01:00:37,823
Nice, Em, really smooth.

1198
01:00:40,710 --> 01:00:41,850
There's Em.

1199
01:00:41,850 --> 01:00:44,552
She's done the free blast.

1200
01:00:44,552 --> 01:00:45,385
Yes.

1201
01:00:45,385 --> 01:00:47,310
Great job .
Thanks.

1202
01:00:47,310 --> 01:00:48,704
How do you feel?

1203
01:00:48,704 --> 01:00:50,179
Nice.

1204
01:01:00,660 --> 01:01:03,131
Had a call from the film team

1205
01:01:03,131 --> 01:01:05,213
that Em might be starting The Monster,

1206
01:01:06,737 --> 01:01:09,093
which should be right on track.

1207
01:01:15,000 --> 01:01:15,833
It's so funny

1208
01:01:15,833 --> 01:01:18,483
that you're wearing two pairs of shoes.

1209
01:01:30,024 --> 01:01:34,474
(Emily scrapping up crack)

1210
01:01:47,466 --> 01:01:49,440
(Emily breathing heavy)

1211
01:01:49,440 --> 01:01:50,273
Scary.

1212
01:01:52,230 --> 01:01:55,287
Ugh, so glad to have that pitch over with.

1213
01:01:55,287 --> 01:01:56,970
I'm taking off all of my shoes,

1214
01:01:56,970 --> 01:01:59,223
all four pairs of them that I was wearing.

1215
01:02:02,820 --> 01:02:05,220
I was wearing Alex's shoes over my shoes,

1216
01:02:05,220 --> 01:02:08,040
so I could climb The
Monster easier and faster.

1217
01:02:08,040 --> 01:02:09,333
And it works.

1218
01:02:12,898 --> 01:02:14,326
I'll say it's not often that I encounter

1219
01:02:14,326 --> 01:02:17,310
a completely new rock climbing
technique on a big wall.

1220
01:02:17,310 --> 01:02:19,110
This is one of those times.

1221
01:02:19,110 --> 01:02:20,560
You've styled the hard stuff.

1222
01:02:21,660 --> 01:02:23,700
Next, Em is gonna lead us to the summit

1223
01:02:23,700 --> 01:02:25,397
of the mighty El Capitan.

1224
01:02:25,397 --> 01:02:26,872
That's what's happening next.

1225
01:02:33,806 --> 01:02:37,922
(gentle pensive music)

1226
01:02:39,294 --> 01:02:40,127
Good, Em.

1227
01:02:40,127 --> 01:02:40,960
Really nice.

1228
01:02:49,470 --> 01:02:50,583
Nice and relaxed.

1229
01:02:57,780 --> 01:02:58,630
Trust the feet.

1230
01:03:00,271 --> 01:03:01,519
Perfect.

1231
01:03:01,519 --> 01:03:03,280
That's the one.

1232
01:03:03,280 --> 01:03:04,915
Perfect.

1233
01:03:04,915 --> 01:03:05,915
Really good.

1234
01:03:11,825 --> 01:03:12,658
Good, Em.

1235
01:03:16,162 --> 01:03:17,817
Really good.

1236
01:03:17,817 --> 01:03:18,987
Oh.
Good work.

1237
01:03:18,987 --> 01:03:20,580
I'm not coming down off the mountain

1238
01:03:20,580 --> 01:03:21,780
until I send this route.

1239
01:03:23,760 --> 01:03:25,560
I'm never climbing that pitch again.

1240
01:03:30,210 --> 01:03:31,703
Nice, Em, really smooth.

1241
01:03:37,920 --> 01:03:40,070
I gotta say, you look
really fit right now.

1242
01:03:41,100 --> 01:03:43,293
Like, your arms are, like, muscular.

1243
01:03:46,050 --> 01:03:47,670
Thanks, Alex.
Yeah.

1244
01:03:47,670 --> 01:03:50,133
Have you been, like, working out more?

1245
01:03:51,210 --> 01:03:52,802
Yeah.

1246
01:03:52,802 --> 01:03:54,443
I've been putting some effort in.

1247
01:03:55,410 --> 01:03:56,243
Like, have you really?

1248
01:03:56,243 --> 01:03:58,520
'Cause you look like
freaking kind of jacked.

1249
01:03:58,520 --> 01:03:59,370
Yeah.

1250
01:03:59,370 --> 01:04:00,753
Yeah, dude, I have.

1251
01:04:02,790 --> 01:04:03,690
Really good, Em.

1252
01:04:05,946 --> 01:04:06,960
Come on.
Nice.

1253
01:04:06,960 --> 01:04:09,480
Really good, come on.
So strong.

1254
01:04:09,480 --> 01:04:10,743
Come on.
Come on.

1255
01:04:18,375 --> 01:04:20,258
Nice, Em.

1256
01:04:20,258 --> 01:04:22,816
(Emily breathing heavy)

1257
01:04:25,199 --> 01:04:26,820
That's it, come on.

1258
01:04:26,820 --> 01:04:28,812
Really good.

1259
01:04:28,812 --> 01:04:31,303
(Emily grunting)

1260
01:04:33,120 --> 01:04:34,220
Hell, yeah.

1261
01:04:41,203 --> 01:04:44,267
I had to dig really deep with that one.

1262
01:04:44,267 --> 01:04:46,167
I sent The Move pitch on my first try.

1263
01:04:47,358 --> 01:04:49,023
Everything's going well.

1264
01:04:50,460 --> 01:04:53,102
Waiting for the other shoe to drop.

1265
01:04:54,402 --> 01:04:57,968
(spirited music)

1266
01:05:00,894 --> 01:05:03,585
(Emily breathing heavy)

1267
01:05:10,800 --> 01:05:11,677
Nice job, Em.

1268
01:05:14,404 --> 01:05:16,384
So exciting up here.

1269
01:05:16,384 --> 01:05:17,217
So fresh.

1270
01:05:18,539 --> 01:05:19,470
You have dirt all over your face,

1271
01:05:19,470 --> 01:05:21,600
but otherwise looking good.

1272
01:05:21,600 --> 01:05:22,800
Thanks, Alex.
Yeah.

1273
01:05:22,800 --> 01:05:24,370
I feel good.

1274
01:05:24,370 --> 01:05:26,594
Dude, infinitely better than last time.

1275
01:05:41,795 --> 01:05:46,561
(tense music building)

1276
01:05:54,286 --> 01:05:55,369
Good job, Em.

1277
01:06:03,065 --> 01:06:04,023
(Emily screaming) No!

1278
01:06:04,023 --> 01:06:05,128
(head impact on rock)

1279
01:06:05,128 --> 01:06:05,961
Oh, oh!

1280
01:06:06,974 --> 01:06:07,891
Oh, my god.

1281
01:06:09,425 --> 01:06:10,258
Oh, no.

1282
01:06:12,330 --> 01:06:13,425
It's bleeding.

1283
01:06:13,425 --> 01:06:15,731
Yeah, I see, just a little.

1284
01:06:15,731 --> 01:06:17,411
You want me to bring you down?

1285
01:06:17,411 --> 01:06:18,578
Yeah.
Okay.

1286
01:06:19,619 --> 01:06:20,619
You're okay.

1287
01:06:25,649 --> 01:06:26,899
Fuck.

1288
01:06:30,859 --> 01:06:33,109
Let me see how bad it is.

1289
01:06:39,974 --> 01:06:43,618
Like I just don't know anymore
about this whole thing,

1290
01:06:43,618 --> 01:06:45,453
it just feels too hard for me.

1291
01:06:48,300 --> 01:06:50,628
Stupid shit just keeps happening.

1292
01:06:50,628 --> 01:06:51,660
No.

1293
01:06:51,660 --> 01:06:53,938
You're getting better
and better every time.

1294
01:06:53,938 --> 01:06:55,197
I know I am.

1295
01:06:55,197 --> 01:06:56,197
I know I am.

1296
01:07:02,250 --> 01:07:04,250
(Emily sobbing) I just don't
feel good enough right now.

1297
01:07:06,080 --> 01:07:10,513
I wanted it so badly and maybe
I just wanted it too much.

1298
01:07:11,563 --> 01:07:14,221
(Emily crying)

1299
01:07:18,150 --> 01:07:19,221
I've worked really hard.

1300
01:07:19,221 --> 01:07:21,019
I know.

1301
01:07:21,019 --> 01:07:22,686
You're not done, Em.

1302
01:07:23,844 --> 01:07:25,177
You're not done.

1303
01:07:28,020 --> 01:07:28,853
Stupid.

1304
01:07:28,853 --> 01:07:30,840
Why did that have to happen?

1305
01:07:30,840 --> 01:07:32,220
I didn't do anything wrong.

1306
01:07:32,220 --> 01:07:33,360
I wasn't running it out.

1307
01:07:33,360 --> 01:07:35,193
I wasn't doing anything wrong.

1308
01:07:37,289 --> 01:07:38,400
I'm just scared now.

1309
01:07:38,400 --> 01:07:39,800
You just bumped your head.

1310
01:07:41,455 --> 01:07:43,077
You're fine.

1311
01:07:43,077 --> 01:07:45,442
And you didn't break anything.

1312
01:07:45,442 --> 01:07:46,275
I know.

1313
01:07:48,285 --> 01:07:49,859
Someday I'll do it.

1314
01:07:49,859 --> 01:07:52,859
You're gonna do it today.

1315
01:07:58,480 --> 01:08:00,635
It's not hopeless, I promise.

1316
01:08:00,635 --> 01:08:01,582
Okay.

1317
01:08:01,582 --> 01:08:02,415
I'm trying.

1318
01:08:02,415 --> 01:08:03,401
I'll keep trying,

1319
01:08:03,401 --> 01:08:07,234
but I don't have much
that confidence anymore.

1320
01:08:08,366 --> 01:08:11,070
I think you've got more try in you.

1321
01:08:11,070 --> 01:08:12,815
You know I'd tell you if I didn't.

1322
01:08:12,815 --> 01:08:14,296
I know.

1323
01:08:14,296 --> 01:08:15,797
I think you can do this.

1324
01:08:15,797 --> 01:08:17,413
I'm gonna try.

1325
01:08:27,621 --> 01:08:31,954
(gentle hopeful music)

1326
01:08:50,488 --> 01:08:55,363
(gentle hopeful music continues)

1327
01:10:07,257 --> 01:10:08,424
Nice.

1328
01:10:12,807 --> 01:10:14,123
Thank you.

1329
01:10:14,123 --> 01:10:16,856
(Jon and Adrian cheering loudly)

1330
01:10:23,593 --> 01:10:24,426
Thanks.

1331
01:10:25,910 --> 01:10:28,110
No matter what happens,
I'm proud of myself.

1332
01:10:30,030 --> 01:10:31,944
Really proud of myself.

1333
01:10:31,944 --> 01:10:33,333
Look at the sunset.

1334
01:10:37,658 --> 01:10:38,738
Oh.

1335
01:10:40,730 --> 01:10:42,880
Gotta keep climbing.

1336
01:10:45,503 --> 01:10:48,412
I'm trying to rest before
the last hard pitch.

1337
01:10:48,412 --> 01:10:50,063
The A5.
Yeah.

1338
01:10:50,063 --> 01:10:52,534
The site of-

1339
01:10:52,534 --> 01:10:54,990
Last time's failure, last year's failure.

1340
01:10:54,990 --> 01:10:57,060
Mm-hmm.
Yeah.

1341
01:10:57,060 --> 01:10:58,160
Pretty nervous for it.

1342
01:10:59,730 --> 01:11:01,140
And we're out of water.

1343
01:11:01,140 --> 01:11:02,828
Yeah, we are out of water.

1344
01:11:02,828 --> 01:11:03,661
It sucks.

1345
01:11:03,661 --> 01:11:06,165
Poor mountain guide planning.

1346
01:11:10,200 --> 01:11:11,033
You look great.

1347
01:11:11,033 --> 01:11:12,150
So proud of you.

1348
01:11:12,150 --> 01:11:13,560
Have fun on this.

1349
01:11:13,560 --> 01:11:15,257
This is the pitch you earned.

1350
01:11:23,454 --> 01:11:24,287
Come on.

1351
01:11:29,491 --> 01:11:30,324
Come on.

1352
01:11:32,831 --> 01:11:33,664
Come on.

1353
01:11:50,516 --> 01:11:51,857
Come on.

1354
01:11:53,041 --> 01:11:56,891
(tense music)

1355
01:11:58,259 --> 01:11:59,092
Okay, Em.

1356
01:12:00,029 --> 01:12:00,862
Come on.

1357
01:12:01,909 --> 01:12:02,742
Come on.

1358
01:12:04,763 --> 01:12:06,368
Come on.

1359
01:12:06,368 --> 01:12:07,451
Come on.

1360
01:12:08,285 --> 01:12:10,782
(Emily grunting)

1361
01:12:10,782 --> 01:12:11,782
Come on, Em.

1362
01:12:12,740 --> 01:12:13,573
Come on.

1363
01:12:15,815 --> 01:12:17,873
You know what to do.

1364
01:12:17,873 --> 01:12:21,289
(Emily breathing heavy)

1365
01:12:35,171 --> 01:12:36,004
Come on.

1366
01:12:41,012 --> 01:12:41,845
Come on.

1367
01:12:49,283 --> 01:12:50,758
Oh my god.

1368
01:12:51,983 --> 01:12:54,429
(Jon and Adrian cheering)

1369
01:12:54,429 --> 01:12:55,262
You did it!

1370
01:12:55,262 --> 01:12:56,095
(Emily crying)

1371
01:13:04,463 --> 01:13:05,630
Awoo!

1372
01:13:08,021 --> 01:13:13,021
Oh, my god!
Yeah.

1373
01:13:13,772 --> 01:13:15,205
Holy shit, Emily!

1374
01:13:16,313 --> 01:13:19,838
(Emily crying)

1375
01:13:21,605 --> 01:13:23,870
I can't believe I did that.

1376
01:13:23,870 --> 01:13:25,740
Okay, I got to keep it together.

1377
01:13:25,740 --> 01:13:27,140
We've got five more pitches.

1378
01:13:29,031 --> 01:13:29,948
Oh, my god.

1379
01:13:31,123 --> 01:13:32,675
So badass.

1380
01:13:32,675 --> 01:13:34,800
Loads of focus.

1381
01:13:34,800 --> 01:13:37,140
I've always dreamed of
being able to do this.

1382
01:13:37,140 --> 01:13:38,363
And now it's happening

1383
01:13:38,363 --> 01:13:42,270
and it's just crazy how it's happening.

1384
01:13:42,270 --> 01:13:45,060
It was so close, so many
times of falling just now.

1385
01:13:45,060 --> 01:13:46,710
So close.

1386
01:13:46,710 --> 01:13:48,360
But I just didn't fucking let go.

1387
01:14:28,059 --> 01:14:28,892
Fuck yeah!

1388
01:14:49,233 --> 01:14:53,310
I am really, really happy and exhausted.

1389
01:14:53,310 --> 01:14:56,730
My head kind of hurts and I'm thirsty,

1390
01:14:56,730 --> 01:14:58,143
and everything is perfect.

1391
01:15:04,560 --> 01:15:05,770
I love you so much.

1392
01:15:06,645 --> 01:15:09,845
Thank you, thank you.
Fuck, yeah.

1393
01:15:09,845 --> 01:15:11,661
You did it.

1394
01:15:11,661 --> 01:15:14,538
(Emily crying)

1395
01:15:14,538 --> 01:15:16,313
Thank you.
I'm so proud of you.

1396
01:15:16,313 --> 01:15:17,896
You worked so hard.

1397
01:15:21,863 --> 01:15:23,165
And you believed.

1398
01:15:23,165 --> 01:15:23,998
Yeah.

1399
01:15:25,732 --> 01:15:28,440
21:12... 21:13.

1400
01:15:40,373 --> 01:15:45,148
(keyboard clacking)

1401
01:15:48,282 --> 01:15:49,561
(Champagne cork popping)

1402
01:15:49,561 --> 01:15:50,894
Oh!

1403
01:15:53,442 --> 01:15:55,988
You earned that.

1404
01:15:55,988 --> 01:15:56,821
Mm-hmm.

1405
01:16:15,572 --> 01:16:16,405
Hey.

1406
01:16:16,405 --> 01:16:17,363
I can say hi to everyone.

1407
01:16:17,363 --> 01:16:18,321
Nice work.

1408
01:16:18,321 --> 01:16:20,430
Thanks.
Well done.

1409
01:16:20,430 --> 01:16:22,313
You look worse.

1410
01:16:22,313 --> 01:16:24,040
Actually, you look pretty good.

1411
01:16:24,040 --> 01:16:25,610
Things going downhill a little bit.

1412
01:16:25,610 --> 01:16:27,213
No, yeah, yeah, I know.

1413
01:16:27,213 --> 01:16:28,919
She had to make an effort, dude.

1414
01:16:28,919 --> 01:16:31,046
I'm so proud of you.
Why'd you leave us?

1415
01:16:31,046 --> 01:16:32,455
Oh my...

1416
01:16:32,455 --> 01:16:33,872
That is so funny.

1417
01:16:36,047 --> 01:16:38,399
Dude, .

1418
01:16:38,399 --> 01:16:40,140
But I also didn't...

1419
01:16:52,707 --> 01:16:57,707
(applause)

1420
01:16:58,090 --> 01:17:01,648
(baby cooing)

1421
01:17:29,260 --> 01:17:31,720
I can still hear her voice in my head

1422
01:17:32,760 --> 01:17:37,760
and I think about
whenever something's hard

1423
01:17:39,549 --> 01:17:42,707
or something comes up that feels tricky

1424
01:17:42,707 --> 01:17:44,340
or feels complicated,

1425
01:17:44,340 --> 01:17:49,110
especially as, like, a woman and a mother,

1426
01:17:49,110 --> 01:17:52,803
I try to think about how
Hilaree would handle it.

1427
01:18:04,710 --> 01:18:07,740
Climbing is dangerous and
it entails a level of risk,

1428
01:18:07,740 --> 01:18:10,890
but climbing has given me so much

1429
01:18:10,890 --> 01:18:15,303
and I'm just not willing to give it up.

1430
01:18:19,050 --> 01:18:20,763
I'm excited for what's next.

1431
01:18:22,500 --> 01:18:23,333
Hi, bug.

1432
01:18:24,583 --> 01:18:25,416
Hi.

1433
01:18:26,683 --> 01:18:29,470
Aw.

1434
01:18:43,350 --> 01:18:48,340
♪ I know the rise and I know the fall ♪

1435
01:18:48,340 --> 01:18:53,340
♪ 'Cause the voice inside
knows me best of all ♪

1436
01:18:55,872 --> 01:19:00,872
♪ If I can't run I'll walk or crawl ♪

1437
01:19:01,660 --> 01:19:06,660
♪ I'll restart restart I'll give my all ♪

1438
01:19:09,913 --> 01:19:13,356
♪ To find my place ♪

1439
01:19:13,356 --> 01:19:18,356
♪ My place on the world ♪

1440
01:19:18,674 --> 01:19:23,674
♪ Hmm ♪

1441
01:19:23,978 --> 01:19:28,978
♪ Hmm ♪

1442
01:19:30,746 --> 01:19:35,746
♪ I follow the path into the sky ♪

1443
01:19:36,062 --> 01:19:41,062
♪ To kiss the heaven before I die ♪

1444
01:19:44,555 --> 01:19:49,555
♪ Amidst the cloud the world seems small ♪

1445
01:19:50,585 --> 01:19:55,585
♪ This tired heart still wants it all ♪

1446
01:19:57,426 --> 01:20:01,275
♪ I'll find my place ♪

1447
01:20:01,275 --> 01:20:04,558
♪ My place on the world ♪

1448
01:20:04,558 --> 01:20:08,028
♪ I'll find my place ♪

1449
01:20:08,028 --> 01:20:13,028
♪ My place on the world ♪

1450
01:20:13,890 --> 01:20:15,973
♪ ♪

1451
01:20:15,973 --> 01:20:18,571
♪ Giving my all ♪

1452
01:20:18,571 --> 01:20:23,571
♪ Giving my all for my
place on the world ♪

1453
01:20:25,529 --> 01:20:28,368
♪ ♪

1454
01:20:28,368 --> 01:20:30,882
♪ Giving my all ♪

1455
01:20:30,882 --> 01:20:35,882
♪ Giving my all for my
place on the world ♪

1456
01:20:39,497 --> 01:20:43,102
♪ I'll find my place ♪

1457
01:20:43,102 --> 01:20:47,084
♪ My place on the world ♪

1458
01:20:47,084 --> 01:20:50,168
♪ I'll find my place ♪

1459
01:20:50,168 --> 01:20:53,501
♪ My place on the world ♪