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Best MDMA in Berlin, Dan.
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And take it from me, the MDMA
in this city right now is...
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Ah, I mean, it's excellent.
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Have you ever read Primo Levi's
essay on Shame?
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He wrote it 40 years
after leaving Auschwitz.
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He was trying to make sense of why
he survived and others didn't,
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but he couldn't.
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Year later he threw himself
from the landing of the house
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that he was born in and fell
three floors to his death.
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Dan, we're here.
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On a rooftop. In Berlin.
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The sun is setting,
this club is gorgeous,
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and there is no-one here who is not
a grade one decent human being.
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There will never come a better time
for you to drop a pill
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than this exact moment.
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Shall I just do half?
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Well, you've never drunk or taken
drugs. Half is sensible.
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But you did just bring up suicide
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and the Holocaust,
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in a nightclub, so...
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INAUDIBLE CHAT
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Are you feeling it? Yeah.
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Your eyes! I literally just saw your
eyes just go... Oh, my God! Yes!
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Yes! Oh, wow.
How's it feel? Feeling good, yeah?
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DANCE MUSIC
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MUSIC FADES
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INAUDIBLE CHAT
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Yes.
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This is THE best juice
I've ever tasted.
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What?
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Oh, my God, that is amazing.
Do you want a sip?
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Did you...
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Did you not hear
any of what I just said?
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Were you talking?
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Oh, my God! Yes!
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I've been talking
for about two minutes.
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Sorry.
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Seriously this...this juice,
though. Why is it so good?
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Mm!
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INCIDENTAL MUSIC INTENSIFIES
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MUSIC STOPS
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WOMAN ON TABLET:
We're making this beautiful loaf.
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So into a large bowl...
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..plus 650g of water
and all of the flour.
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Now it's time to combine everything.
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Work it until there's no dry flour
left. A curved... And now...
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Shush, shush, shush, shush. ..let
the dough rest for 30 minutes.
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This is called the autolyse.
When you give the...
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WOMAN ON TABLET: We are going to do
the stretch and folds here, too.
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But since you guys
are more advanced,
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we're going to first start
with this.
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Slap down, pull back,
pull apart and fold.
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And you'll see as I do this
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that the dough will go from shaggy
and messy to smooth and strong.
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Now, if I were using
my conventional oven,
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I would pre heat to 485 degrees
Fahrenheit.
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In my Rofco, I set the dial
to 250 degrees Celsius.
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That's 482 degrees Fahrenheit.
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You made this, Dan?
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Yep.
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Looks real.
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It IS real, I made it.
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So you're a...person
who bakes bread now, then, eh?
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Yes, I think maybe I am.
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How was it? Berlin.
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It was amazing.
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I felt better there
than I've felt in years. Good.
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That's good. You deserve that.
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He won't be long.
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He's just so good
at getting Dean down.
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It drives me nuts, to be honest.
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Have you, erm...
heard from the Governor yet?
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Expecting a call any day now.
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I really should get a lawyer.
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You haven't got a lawyer yet?
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Dan, you need to get a lawyer.
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Yeah, I know.
Dan. Get a lawyer.
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Can't bury your head with this.
This is going to get real very soon.
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Yeah, I know. It's just...
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Lee told you how we met, right?
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Yeah.
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You met in recovery?
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Yeah, but did he tell you
how I ended up in recovery?
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No. I mean, he said that something
happened, but he didn't...
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He didn't say what.
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Well, I used to work as
a prison officer. You know that.
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And I was on a young offender's
unit which... They're the worst.
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Just...testosterone raging,
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teens trying to prove themselves.
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One day in the chapel, I'm trying to
break-up a fight between three lads.
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I get caught in the middle,
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pushed to the ground
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and they turned on me.
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Kicked me in the head,
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the face, ribs, kidneys.
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And then eight other lads
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ran over and joined in.
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Jesus Christ, Laura.
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Yeah...
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Yeah so, I was bedridden and
they put me on codeine for the pain.
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And then when I did go back...
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..well, I hadn't seen the faces
of the lads who jumped in,
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so every time I'm with one of them,
part of me's thinking, "Was it you?"
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So I just fell deeper into codeine
and fell too deep to get out.
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Thing was, I...
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..I hated those boys.
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But I also found it hard
to blame them.
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I mean, most of them had called me
"mum" by mistake
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at some time or another
and I just...
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I just couldn't do it no more, Dan.
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I was...
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..neither one thing nor the other.
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It's being split that kills ya.
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Jesus Christ.
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I had no idea that
that happened to you, Laura.
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Mm.
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What am I going to do?
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Carry it round with me
for the rest of my life?
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Down. Boo-fucking-yah.
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God, you are so annoying. Well, what
can I say? The boy loves his daddy.
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You coming?
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See you. See you later.
All right.
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So, you finally took drugs, eh?
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Did you like it?
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Yes, he liked it.
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So you go abroad, drop an E,
come back, start baking?
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Yeah, it's the new me.
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It was either that
or learn Sanskrit.
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And this baking, did it involve
using your oven, by any chance?
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It did. Yeah.
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I used my oven.
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And?
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And it took me an hour and 15
minutes to get out of the house.
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I had to wait for the cooker to get
ice cold before I could walk out.
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EXHALES
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All right, here's what you do.
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You're going out, right?
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You pull a table
in front of your oven,
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you put everything you need on it -
phone, wallet, keys, all of it.
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You get ready, take a shit,
crafty wank, whatever.
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Then you go back to that table
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and you put each one of those things
in your pocket.
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Then you touch each gas ring once.
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You look in the oven once.
You look in the grill once.
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Just the once. You don't do anything
more than once.
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And then you say, "Goodbye and good
fuck", and you walk out that door.
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And then - and, Dan,
this is the most important bit...
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..you do not come back.
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That sounds like surprisingly
good advice.
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Thanks.
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You're not inside yet, Dan.
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You got your case, defence, appeals.
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You take it one step at a time,
yeah?
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You're looking better.
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I'm back in the meetings.
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MIMICS GANGSTER: Doing what I need
to, you know?
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LAUGHS
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And you?
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Do you remember the, erm...
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..the prisoner that I told you about
that knew dad's pad-mate?
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You're not talking to him again,
are ya? No, no, no.
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I'm on suspension. I couldn't,
even if I wanted to.
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But he told me
that the guy got released.
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I checked the dates...
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..and I know who he is.
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His name's Matthew Hall.
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I've arranged to meet him
this afternoon.
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OK. Look, I wish
that I could walk away.
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I wish I could just...move on,
like you and Laura but I can't.
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Mum says that I loved a man
that I know I hated.
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How can I move on?
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We want you to be Dean's godfather.
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Me and Laura,
we're getting him christened.
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We want you to be the godfather.
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But he needs stability, Dan.
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He needs a godparent who can walk
out the door and meet him on time.
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Who isn't obsessed by a man
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who tossed him aside
like a used snot rag 25 years ago.
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Don't go and see this guy.
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Just walk away, yeah?
Just walk away now.
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INTERCOM RINGS
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Oh, fuck this. Who's there?
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Err, hello?
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Is that Matthew?
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Matty.
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Matty, erm...
It's... My name's Dan Stewer.
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We spoke on the phone.
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You're fucking late!
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I know, sorry. Yeah, I was late.
The, erm...
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I've been fucking waiting for you.
You're 40 minutes late!
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Sorry about that. Yeah, the,
erm, the bus was stopped.
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Then why didn't you call?
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Uh, err... My pho...
Sorry, my phone got nicked.
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Was it that skinny lad upstairs?
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What? Was it that skinny lad
upstairs that nicked your phone?
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No.
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No, I've... I've only just got here.
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MATTY SIGHS
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He's always nicking phones, he is.
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Supposed to be no crime here.
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GATE BUZZES
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I, erm, brought some biscuits.
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Digestives?
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Erm, no, they're an own brand.
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They're kind of like Hobnobs.
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Oh, fucking Hobnobs.
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You'll want a tea, then?
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How many sugars? None.
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Sorry about all the air fresheners.
No, that's fine.
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He keeps cooking fish,
that skinny lad.
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I think it's him, anyway.
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Might be someone else,
I don't know.
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Stinks.
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Are you OK here?
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I mean is there anyone helping you
since you got out?
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Is there help?
What you on about?
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Well, you get a probation officer,
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but that's just to make sure
you're not up to shite.
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There's no fucking help.
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Do you know where Basel is?
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Yeah.
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It's in Switzerland.
Switzerland. That's right, yeah.
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I got a son out there.
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Working there, he is.
He's got two kids.
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And I was thinking of going out
and seeing him.
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That sounds nice. Mm.
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So, can you get a plane there?
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What, to Basel? Mm. Yeah, sure.
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How much would that be?
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I don't know. Erm...
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Maybe a few hundred?
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What about a train?
Can you get a train to Basel?
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Think you might have to change.
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How much would that cost?
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I really don't know.
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I mean, everything's online now.
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Y'know, I been inside for 14 years,
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I don't know how to do all this
fucking...
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So you were my dad's pad-mate?
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Aye.
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Eight months I was, yeah.
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Erm...
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..what was he like?
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Your dad? Yeah.
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What was your dad like?
Well, he was, er...
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He was all right.
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Was he? Yeah.
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Yeah, he was all right.
He was a... He was a laugh.
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MY dad?
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My dad was a laugh?
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Yeah, funny as fuck, your dad.
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Look, I did a good stretch with him.
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Laughed my way through most of it.
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Yeah, he was a good lad.
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Share his last fag, he would.
256
00:19:55,640 --> 00:20:00,960
You know, and then they banned cigs
in prison and fucking ruined it.
257
00:20:00,960 --> 00:20:02,720
What's prison without a smoke?
258
00:20:02,720 --> 00:20:04,960
I tell you what,
I'll never go back there now.
259
00:20:07,960 --> 00:20:10,240
That just doesn't sound like the man
that I remember.
260
00:20:10,240 --> 00:20:12,920
Yeah, well, I'm not fucking
lying, you know. I'm not...
261
00:20:12,920 --> 00:20:15,040
I know...
I bunked with him eight months.
262
00:20:16,840 --> 00:20:18,720
Every day.
263
00:20:18,720 --> 00:20:20,520
I know him better than you.
264
00:20:24,440 --> 00:20:25,800
He was a good lad.
265
00:20:26,760 --> 00:20:30,400
He had his moods, yeah,
but we was a good lad.
266
00:20:30,400 --> 00:20:33,440
And he helped me
with reading letters from my son.
267
00:20:33,440 --> 00:20:36,120
Other lads, they'd take the piss
if they read a soft word,
268
00:20:36,120 --> 00:20:38,920
and then you'd be into something,
like. But not him. Not your dad.
269
00:20:38,920 --> 00:20:40,840
He understood kindness. Did he?!
270
00:20:40,840 --> 00:20:42,560
Yeah, he fucking well did.
271
00:20:44,000 --> 00:20:47,920
Look, you knew the man on the out,
right? But I knew the inside man.
272
00:20:47,920 --> 00:20:50,680
The man who's always there.
The man who can't hide.
273
00:20:50,680 --> 00:20:51,960
Well...
274
00:20:54,000 --> 00:20:55,920
..which do you think is more real?
275
00:21:00,040 --> 00:21:01,600
I fucking hate Hobnobs!
276
00:21:01,600 --> 00:21:04,680
It's all them fucking...bits in it.
277
00:21:06,240 --> 00:21:08,040
I don't like fucking bits.
278
00:21:10,600 --> 00:21:12,920
What's wrong
with a chocolate digestive?
279
00:21:16,320 --> 00:21:18,000
Did he ever talk about my mum?
280
00:21:20,360 --> 00:21:22,440
Yeah.
281
00:21:22,440 --> 00:21:24,040
Every single day.
282
00:21:25,320 --> 00:21:30,840
What-what was... Was he still
angry with her, then, or...?
283
00:21:30,840 --> 00:21:32,640
He wasn't angry. He was in love.
284
00:21:32,640 --> 00:21:35,600
Excuse me? He loved her.
285
00:21:35,600 --> 00:21:37,920
Always going on about her, he was.
286
00:21:37,920 --> 00:21:40,880
He said the greatest privilege
of his life
287
00:21:40,880 --> 00:21:42,960
was to have held her in his arms.
288
00:21:42,960 --> 00:21:46,360
Well, he'd say that
two or three times a week.
289
00:21:46,360 --> 00:21:49,120
I mean, another man you'd get
fucking chopsy with for that,
290
00:21:49,120 --> 00:21:51,400
but not your dad.
291
00:21:51,400 --> 00:21:54,400
You didn't mind like, cos...
292
00:21:54,400 --> 00:21:58,080
Cos he was a good'un.
My dad said those words?
293
00:21:58,080 --> 00:21:59,920
He said...
294
00:21:59,920 --> 00:22:02,000
..she made him a better man
295
00:22:02,000 --> 00:22:04,680
but that he wasn't good enough.
296
00:22:04,680 --> 00:22:06,160
He wasn't angry with her.
297
00:22:08,040 --> 00:22:09,720
He was too busy loving her.
298
00:22:14,200 --> 00:22:15,920
All right.
299
00:22:15,920 --> 00:22:18,040
I'm getting tired now.
300
00:22:20,600 --> 00:22:23,840
Better go have my nap. I have to
have a nap in the afternoon.
301
00:22:28,880 --> 00:22:30,560
Is there anything else?
302
00:22:32,640 --> 00:22:34,280
Did he ever talk about me?
303
00:22:38,040 --> 00:22:39,840
You're not the drug one, are ya?
304
00:22:44,800 --> 00:22:46,040
No, son.
305
00:22:47,480 --> 00:22:49,120
He never talked about you.
306
00:23:34,280 --> 00:23:38,400
INDISTINCT CHAT
307
00:23:41,960 --> 00:23:43,000
DOOR BUZZES
308
00:24:32,280 --> 00:24:33,320
Hey, Dan!
309
00:24:33,320 --> 00:24:35,200
What's going on?
310
00:24:35,200 --> 00:24:39,200
What happened to that class?
Hey, yeah, erm, sorry.
311
00:24:39,200 --> 00:24:42,240
I've been away.
Where, like a holiday, is it?
312
00:24:42,240 --> 00:24:43,960
Thought I detected a bit of a tan.
313
00:24:43,960 --> 00:24:45,960
I DID go abroad, yeah.
314
00:24:45,960 --> 00:24:48,320
Lovely. Where'd you go?
315
00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:50,520
Berlin. Berlin! I love Berlin.
316
00:24:50,520 --> 00:24:52,560
You never been to Berlin.
Yes, I fucking have.
317
00:24:52,560 --> 00:24:54,120
I been there loads.
318
00:24:54,120 --> 00:24:56,560
The drugs scene's crazy in Berlin.
You do the clubs, Dan?
319
00:24:56,560 --> 00:24:58,880
You go to Berghain?
Tell me you went to Berghain.
320
00:24:58,880 --> 00:25:00,400
Sorry, didn't go to Berghain.
321
00:25:00,400 --> 00:25:02,920
The food, though? I mean, you got
yourself some currywurst, right?
322
00:25:02,920 --> 00:25:05,280
Yeah, I ate a currywusrt.
323
00:25:05,280 --> 00:25:07,640
The fuck is a currywurst?
Berlin speciality.
324
00:25:07,640 --> 00:25:10,240
Bratwurst covered in ketchup
and curry powder.
325
00:25:10,240 --> 00:25:13,960
It's fucking disgusting, to be
honest, but you got to do it, innit?
326
00:25:13,960 --> 00:25:16,960
You go with your boyfriend, Dan?
No, this time I went alone.
327
00:25:16,960 --> 00:25:18,200
OK, OK.
328
00:25:18,200 --> 00:25:20,920
Listen, you got to get them classes
going, y'know, cos Keith,
329
00:25:20,920 --> 00:25:22,760
he's rattling without them, y'know?
330
00:25:22,760 --> 00:25:25,560
He's eating a dictionary a day,
yeah,
331
00:25:25,560 --> 00:25:28,920
and just gunning us down
with words, fam.
332
00:25:28,920 --> 00:25:30,920
So how you guys doing?
333
00:25:30,920 --> 00:25:34,200
You know us, boss. We're just
killing time and chatting shit
334
00:25:34,200 --> 00:25:36,520
and waiting for the out.
335
00:25:36,520 --> 00:25:38,440
Come on. All right.
336
00:25:38,440 --> 00:25:41,240
See you later, Dan.
Guten tag, boss.
337
00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:43,400
Good to see you, boys.
See ya, Dan. All right.
338
00:25:45,200 --> 00:25:46,560
Boyfriend? Mm.
339
00:25:46,560 --> 00:25:48,440
They assumed I was gay.
I let them.
340
00:25:48,440 --> 00:25:51,200
So you're living
as a closeted heterosexual?
341
00:25:51,200 --> 00:25:52,320
Smart.
342
00:26:08,040 --> 00:26:09,520
You all right, then?
343
00:26:11,120 --> 00:26:12,720
Yeah.
344
00:26:12,720 --> 00:26:14,080
Yeah, I'll just wait.
345
00:26:14,080 --> 00:26:15,880
Good.
346
00:26:15,880 --> 00:26:17,360
He won't be long.
347
00:26:17,360 --> 00:26:19,320
Or he might be. Who fucking knows?
348
00:26:28,440 --> 00:26:30,080
I had to do what I had to...
349
00:26:31,920 --> 00:26:33,840
Yeah, I know.
350
00:26:36,880 --> 00:26:39,000
I mean, I should never have put you
in that position, really.
351
00:26:39,000 --> 00:26:40,360
Or Jamie.
352
00:26:41,400 --> 00:26:43,360
It's me that should apologise,
not you.
353
00:26:44,480 --> 00:26:46,200
I wasn't fucking apologising.
354
00:26:50,680 --> 00:26:53,320
Hey, how's Greg doing?
Who's Greg?
355
00:26:53,320 --> 00:26:55,360
You know, Greg. The Skittles.
356
00:26:55,360 --> 00:26:57,920
Oh, Greg. Oh, yeah. He's...
357
00:26:57,920 --> 00:26:59,400
He's gone.
358
00:26:59,400 --> 00:27:00,720
He got release?
359
00:27:00,720 --> 00:27:02,400
No. Suicide.
360
00:27:02,400 --> 00:27:04,240
What?
361
00:27:04,240 --> 00:27:06,400
Yeah. I think it was asphyxiation.
362
00:27:06,400 --> 00:27:10,040
But to be honest,
it was two suicides ago, so...
363
00:27:10,040 --> 00:27:11,200
Are you serious?
364
00:27:12,320 --> 00:27:13,360
He's dead?
365
00:27:16,240 --> 00:27:19,040
The thing is, Dan,
they don't all make it out of here.
366
00:27:53,440 --> 00:27:54,600
DOOR OPENS
367
00:27:56,080 --> 00:27:57,200
Come on.
368
00:28:02,440 --> 00:28:06,080
You've elected not to have
a lawyer present. That's right.
369
00:28:06,080 --> 00:28:07,320
Can I ask why?
370
00:28:08,640 --> 00:28:11,000
There's no new information.
371
00:28:11,000 --> 00:28:13,680
I told you the truth.
You know everything.
372
00:28:13,680 --> 00:28:15,880
Why didn't you tell me
your father was a prisoner?
373
00:28:18,000 --> 00:28:19,560
Well, I've not...
I've not seen him in 20 years.
374
00:28:19,560 --> 00:28:21,080
He's not a part of my life.
375
00:28:21,080 --> 00:28:22,920
Isn't he?
376
00:28:22,920 --> 00:28:25,040
Things like that
can have a long tail.
377
00:28:26,400 --> 00:28:28,200
He's not a part of my life.
378
00:28:31,240 --> 00:28:33,360
What is it you think
you've been doing here, Dan?
379
00:28:34,760 --> 00:28:37,160
S... What do I...? Sorry, what?
380
00:28:37,160 --> 00:28:38,960
What have you been achieving?
381
00:28:40,720 --> 00:28:42,040
Erm...
382
00:28:47,520 --> 00:28:49,640
People...
383
00:28:49,640 --> 00:28:51,600
People sort of enjoy thinking.
384
00:28:53,320 --> 00:28:55,280
Even those who we deem
not to be good at it.
385
00:28:57,440 --> 00:28:58,920
Thinking is human.
386
00:29:01,840 --> 00:29:03,920
My course lets them think for a bit.
387
00:29:06,280 --> 00:29:08,000
It lets them feel human.
388
00:29:12,040 --> 00:29:14,800
The reason I operate
a zero tolerance policy,
389
00:29:14,800 --> 00:29:17,040
as regards staff and contraband,
390
00:29:17,040 --> 00:29:18,840
isn't piety.
391
00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:20,400
It's out of necessity.
392
00:29:20,400 --> 00:29:22,400
In common with every facility
in this country,
393
00:29:22,400 --> 00:29:27,680
my prison is rife with drugs,
violence and extortion.
394
00:29:27,680 --> 00:29:29,240
The levers I have at my disposal
395
00:29:29,240 --> 00:29:33,480
to stop staff exploiting
or being exploited are very few.
396
00:29:33,480 --> 00:29:36,600
Prosecuting people like you
to the full extent of the law
397
00:29:36,600 --> 00:29:38,120
is really the main one.
398
00:29:40,280 --> 00:29:42,800
I do it because it works.
399
00:29:42,800 --> 00:29:44,320
I understand.
400
00:29:44,320 --> 00:29:47,400
So, in light of that...
401
00:29:48,600 --> 00:29:50,200
..I've decided not to prosecute.
402
00:29:51,360 --> 00:29:52,600
Excuse me?
403
00:29:52,600 --> 00:29:55,400
You didn't do what you did for gain,
that's clear.
404
00:29:55,400 --> 00:29:57,520
So prosecution serves no purpose
405
00:29:57,520 --> 00:30:01,800
other than to deprive the men
of something they seem to like.
406
00:30:01,800 --> 00:30:04,440
You're right, they do like to think.
407
00:30:04,440 --> 00:30:06,560
It DOES make them feel human.
408
00:30:06,560 --> 00:30:09,160
It's better for me
to have humans in here.
409
00:30:09,160 --> 00:30:10,840
Humans I can deal with.
410
00:30:10,840 --> 00:30:12,760
So, what, I'm OK? I'm not going
to... I'm not going to get...
411
00:30:12,760 --> 00:30:15,560
I'm lifting suspension,
effective immediately.
412
00:30:17,200 --> 00:30:20,120
This is only one of a handful
of times in the last 15 years
413
00:30:20,120 --> 00:30:22,760
I've given a second chance
for something like this.
414
00:30:22,760 --> 00:30:25,800
There won't be a third.
Do you understand that?
415
00:30:25,800 --> 00:30:27,240
Yes, I do.
416
00:30:35,760 --> 00:30:39,800
BREATHES SHAKILY
417
00:30:49,200 --> 00:30:50,600
Oh, fuck me.
418
00:30:52,120 --> 00:30:55,120
Oh, hey, hey!
Hey! Hey, what's wrong?
419
00:30:55,120 --> 00:30:59,240
Hello. I'm all good, thanks.
Hey, hey! You OK? I'm OK. I'm OK.
420
00:30:59,240 --> 00:31:01,960
I'm OK, thank you. Are you sure?
Thank you. Thank you.
421
00:31:01,960 --> 00:31:05,120
Thank you. OK. Take a minute.
422
00:31:05,120 --> 00:31:06,480
Thank you.
423
00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:08,440
Thank you, thank you,
thank you so much. OK.
424
00:31:29,520 --> 00:31:32,560
BREATHES SHAKILY
425
00:32:05,720 --> 00:32:09,160
We all wander far from God
and lose our way.
426
00:32:09,160 --> 00:32:12,840
Christ comes to find us
and welcomes us home.
427
00:32:12,840 --> 00:32:15,560
In baptism we respond to his call.
428
00:32:16,880 --> 00:32:20,360
Therefore I ask,
do you turn away from sin?
429
00:32:20,360 --> 00:32:22,760
I do. I do.
430
00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:25,880
Do you reject evil?
I do. I do.
431
00:32:25,880 --> 00:32:28,800
Do you turn to Christ the Saviour?
432
00:32:28,800 --> 00:32:30,280
I do. I do.
433
00:32:30,280 --> 00:32:32,200
FRANK: One minute... Ready?!
434
00:32:32,200 --> 00:32:34,600
Oh, Frank's gone retro.
435
00:32:34,600 --> 00:32:36,320
Wind it. Blinding!
436
00:32:36,320 --> 00:32:38,000
INDISTINCT CHAT
437
00:32:42,680 --> 00:32:45,200
Lovely. Say, "Uncle Frank!"
438
00:32:47,680 --> 00:32:49,720
Thanks.
439
00:32:49,720 --> 00:32:52,640
He looked good with that baby
in his arms, didn't he, Gail?
440
00:32:52,640 --> 00:32:55,200
I'm just saying is all!
He did look good, though.
441
00:32:55,200 --> 00:32:57,960
Well, you know what they say, Laura.
One grandchild is plenty.
442
00:32:58,920 --> 00:33:01,520
But two's even better.
No-one says that.
443
00:33:01,520 --> 00:33:04,400
Or three. Or four. Or five!
Here, pack it in, you.
444
00:33:07,200 --> 00:33:09,560
You DID look good with that baby,
though. Yeah, all right, Mum.
445
00:33:12,280 --> 00:33:14,920
Last time we was here
was for Martin's funeral.
446
00:33:17,400 --> 00:33:19,160
It's nice to be back like this.
447
00:33:22,160 --> 00:33:25,000
Oh, and I hear
you're a baker now.
448
00:33:25,000 --> 00:33:27,280
Sourdough. Martin'd be proud.
449
00:33:33,760 --> 00:33:35,600
Sorry about what I said about...
450
00:33:36,800 --> 00:33:38,480
..the last time that we, er...
451
00:33:41,280 --> 00:33:44,080
You never need to say sorry, Danny.
452
00:33:44,080 --> 00:33:45,520
Not to a parent.
453
00:33:46,960 --> 00:33:48,720
We're bolted on.
454
00:33:54,640 --> 00:33:56,760
I took drugs.
455
00:33:56,760 --> 00:34:00,560
Oh, my God, why are you telling me
that, Danny? I'm your bloody mum!
456
00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:02,480
You told me to! Yeah, well,
I didn't think you were going to
457
00:34:02,480 --> 00:34:04,400
come and tell me all about it.
458
00:34:04,400 --> 00:34:06,400
Oh, Jesus Christ, Danny!
459
00:34:07,920 --> 00:34:09,280
What drugs did you do, then?
460
00:34:09,280 --> 00:34:11,200
Actually, don't tell me.
I don't want to know.
461
00:34:11,200 --> 00:34:13,560
Oh, go on, then, what did you do?
462
00:34:13,560 --> 00:34:15,960
Sorry, it was just...
It was recreational.
463
00:34:15,960 --> 00:34:17,760
It wasn't...
It wasn't anything, y'know.
464
00:34:17,760 --> 00:34:19,360
Are you going to do it again?
465
00:34:19,360 --> 00:34:20,840
I mean, do I need to worry?
466
00:34:20,840 --> 00:34:24,960
No, look, Mum, I just... I just
went out and did normal things.
467
00:34:24,960 --> 00:34:27,360
I thought you'd want to know
that I was being normal. Uh, oh...
468
00:34:27,360 --> 00:34:30,480
Oh, this is you being normal? You
take drugs and then very normally
469
00:34:30,480 --> 00:34:32,840
come and tell your mum all about it?
At a christening.
470
00:34:32,840 --> 00:34:35,000
Just like normal people do.
All right, Mum...
471
00:34:37,960 --> 00:34:39,920
I'm pleased you're being normal!
472
00:34:46,040 --> 00:34:47,720
He always was proud of you.
473
00:34:49,880 --> 00:34:51,320
Martin.
474
00:34:53,960 --> 00:34:56,160
He was proud of you
475
00:34:56,160 --> 00:34:58,400
every single day.
476
00:35:02,160 --> 00:35:03,680
Just like we all are.
477
00:35:33,000 --> 00:35:35,160
LAUGHTER
478
00:35:35,160 --> 00:35:37,360
So, after a few minutes of this,
479
00:35:37,360 --> 00:35:40,360
I stop, I turn round and I go,
480
00:35:40,360 --> 00:35:44,080
"Oh, oh, I'm sorry, sir,
I didn't know you were there.
481
00:35:44,080 --> 00:35:47,200
"I couldn't hear you over the sound
of all that fucking honking."
482
00:35:47,200 --> 00:35:49,160
LAUGHTER
483
00:35:47,200 --> 00:35:49,160
Is that what you said?
484
00:35:49,160 --> 00:35:50,680
Oh, my God, what did he do?
485
00:35:50,680 --> 00:35:53,920
Well, he loses it, he bangs his foot
on the accelerator,
486
00:35:53,920 --> 00:35:57,840
goes all the way round the outside
of the car park to get round me.
487
00:35:57,840 --> 00:36:03,400
So I thought, "All right." So I just
slipped on up and blocked the exit.
488
00:36:03,400 --> 00:36:06,800
You didn't.
Big line of fucking trollies!
489
00:36:06,800 --> 00:36:07,960
LAUGHTER
490
00:36:07,960 --> 00:36:12,960
He gets round and there's me,
kneeling, doing me shoelace up.
491
00:36:12,960 --> 00:36:14,280
LAUGHTER
492
00:36:14,280 --> 00:36:18,240
Next thing I know, he's nudging
right up to my trollies.
493
00:36:18,240 --> 00:36:19,800
He starts shunting 'em.
494
00:36:19,800 --> 00:36:21,600
No! What, with his Tesla?
495
00:36:21,600 --> 00:36:23,720
With his fucking Tesla!
496
00:36:23,720 --> 00:36:25,880
Oh, my God! What did you do, Frank?
497
00:36:25,880 --> 00:36:28,360
Well, I just stood there watching,
Dan.
498
00:36:28,360 --> 00:36:32,400
Massive scraping sound of metal,
there is.
499
00:36:32,400 --> 00:36:35,400
And, finally, I step in and I say,
500
00:36:35,400 --> 00:36:39,120
"Excuse me, sir,
I would not advise you to do that."
501
00:36:39,120 --> 00:36:43,680
And he said, "I don't take
advice from the likes of you!"
502
00:36:43,680 --> 00:36:46,920
And I say,
"I would if I were you, sir,
503
00:36:46,920 --> 00:36:49,320
"cos you're ripping
your fucking bumper off!"
504
00:36:49,320 --> 00:36:51,920
LAUGHTER
505
00:36:51,920 --> 00:36:55,240
He's ripped it right off, Dan! God!
506
00:36:55,240 --> 00:36:58,520
Hey, next thing I know,
there's a copper there.
507
00:36:58,520 --> 00:36:59,640
What? Why?
508
00:36:59,640 --> 00:37:02,760
Don't know! No idea.
Someone must've phoned 'em.
509
00:37:02,760 --> 00:37:05,040
Tesla's ecstatic.
510
00:37:05,040 --> 00:37:09,520
He's straight with, "This man
has kidnapped me," he said to him.
511
00:37:09,520 --> 00:37:10,720
Oh, come on, kidnapped?
512
00:37:10,720 --> 00:37:14,040
Hand on heart, kidnapped, he says!
513
00:37:14,040 --> 00:37:19,000
Well, this copper, he takes one look
at me, he comes over, and says,
514
00:37:19,000 --> 00:37:21,760
"All right, Frank, how you doing?"
515
00:37:21,760 --> 00:37:24,120
He's only one of the bunch
that nicked me and Vinny
516
00:37:24,120 --> 00:37:27,280
last time we got done! Oh, no!
Oh, shit, Frank.
517
00:37:27,280 --> 00:37:29,600
No, no, no! They loved us.
518
00:37:29,600 --> 00:37:32,840
When they nicked me and Vinny,
they was as good as gold.
519
00:37:32,840 --> 00:37:34,840
Most of these only get to
deal with junkies,
520
00:37:34,840 --> 00:37:37,320
but we was proper criminals.
521
00:37:37,320 --> 00:37:40,720
They had a board up with pins
and string.
522
00:37:40,720 --> 00:37:42,240
All our crimes on, Mum!
523
00:37:42,240 --> 00:37:43,880
She's so proud!
524
00:37:43,880 --> 00:37:47,080
And he's all like,
"Good to see you, Frank.
525
00:37:47,080 --> 00:37:50,400
"You're looking so well.
Oh, you put a bit of weight on.
526
00:37:50,400 --> 00:37:54,480
"Glad to see you're back on your
feet. You keep your nose clean."
527
00:37:54,480 --> 00:37:57,800
Then he turns to
Elon fucking Musk...
528
00:37:57,800 --> 00:37:59,160
LAUGHTER
529
00:37:59,160 --> 00:38:02,240
..nicks him for criminal damage
and threatening behaviour!
530
00:38:02,240 --> 00:38:05,040
CHEERING
531
00:38:05,040 --> 00:38:06,840
LAUGHTER
532
00:38:10,040 --> 00:38:12,520
INDISTINCT CHAT IN OTHER ROOM
533
00:38:12,520 --> 00:38:14,840
See ya. Bye, buddy.
534
00:38:18,480 --> 00:38:21,000
Right, Mum's pissed, ain't she?
Yeah.
535
00:38:23,240 --> 00:38:25,840
All right. See ya.
Here, last minute cuddles.
536
00:38:25,840 --> 00:38:27,760
Whey... Can I?
537
00:38:27,760 --> 00:38:29,400
Oh!
538
00:38:29,400 --> 00:38:31,320
Goodbye.
539
00:38:31,320 --> 00:38:32,720
Where you off to tonight, then?
540
00:38:32,720 --> 00:38:36,280
Erm, I'm going to go home,
get ready.
541
00:38:36,280 --> 00:38:40,000
Ah, I've got a date...
Well it's not a date, erm...
542
00:38:41,040 --> 00:38:42,480
I'm meeting Natasha.
543
00:38:42,480 --> 00:38:44,680
Yeah? Yeah.
544
00:38:46,080 --> 00:38:48,760
It's not a date.
We're just going to get a coffee.
545
00:38:48,760 --> 00:38:51,000
Still, that IS something.
546
00:38:51,000 --> 00:38:54,000
Yeah. Yeah, it is something.
Isn't it?
547
00:38:58,480 --> 00:39:01,160
Thanks for asking me, Lee.
It's a great honour.
548
00:39:02,160 --> 00:39:04,040
You soppy twat.
549
00:39:04,040 --> 00:39:06,160
Come on. Bye.
550
00:39:06,160 --> 00:39:07,640
Nooo... I got him.
551
00:39:07,640 --> 00:39:09,400
I gotcha.
552
00:39:10,400 --> 00:39:13,120
All right. Let go of it, Dan.
553
00:39:13,120 --> 00:39:15,440
Let go of what?
554
00:39:15,440 --> 00:39:17,120
The guilt.
555
00:39:21,080 --> 00:39:23,520
Do you know why dad walked out
on us? The actual reason?
556
00:39:26,720 --> 00:39:28,480
Cos he's a fucking idiot.
557
00:39:29,840 --> 00:39:31,440
That's all.
558
00:39:33,080 --> 00:39:34,440
It's no deeper than that.
559
00:39:36,640 --> 00:39:39,480
You look at this boy and you tell me
it's any deeper than that.
560
00:39:47,960 --> 00:39:50,040
Get out! Ta-ra.
561
00:40:51,320 --> 00:40:53,360
SHOWER RUNS
562
00:42:50,240 --> 00:42:51,520
Off.
563
00:42:52,680 --> 00:42:56,400
Off, off, off, off, off, off.
564
00:42:56,400 --> 00:42:59,640
Off, off, off, off.
565
00:43:03,880 --> 00:43:05,280
Goodbye and good fuck.
566
00:43:10,000 --> 00:43:13,640
DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES